“YOUR HAPPINESS”

“Ayesha Ibrahim Baloch”

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“YOUR HAPPINESS”

“Doorway to the
Happiness and Peace”

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 ABOUT THE AUTHOR

I am Ayesha Ibrahim Baloch from Gwadar

Balochistan. My educational background includes
M.A in education and in Guidance and Counseling, I
have special capabilities in Computer programming,
Web designing, editing, Photography capturing the
nature and I am interested in counseling and making
up the minds of new generations and bringing a
positive change in my community and in people.

When human being experiences trauma or severe

life stressors, it is not uncommon for their lives to
unravel. My great passion is bringing healing to
people who have been through a traumatic/stressful
experience. I help my clients, who include children,
adults and families, to find healthy perception of
them and strengthen their relationship so they can
know themselves as peaceful, complete whole And
safe I wish you all the best for your better future.
Thanks a bunch.

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 BOOK REVIEW

Happines is more than a good feeling or a yellow

smiley face. It's the feeling of truly enjoying you life.
In the long and busy run of life we always forget our
happines. Writer Ayesha Baloch a wounderful writer
marvellously articulated our happines. An extremly
awesome novel about the life of writer that how she
truly enjoy her life…

This is ayesha's first novel,but she has complete

control of her stroy and her style….read it.

Muhammad Mubashir, Advocate

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 FUNNY WRITER

I have always been a very funny writer and never

took serious toward my goals and the aims of life, I
hate writing I have got a very dirty handwriting,
people say me you should have been a doctor
because you write like them that no one understands,
and writing so much and lengthy things really make
me bored, I read a lot but when the things come on
writing I get very fed-up of writing only four or five
lines ,I am one of a very stupid students I give my
papers incompleted, and get up earlier than all the
other students from the” Exam hall “all my friends
think she must be very genius and this makes me
really so laugh ,they do not know that I am every
time in hurry to go out and enjoy the realities and
my life, “it is like a small kid wants to play and waits
for the break “I used to be the very lazy student from
my class when the science classes had started I took
out my funny diary with me started writing my own
funny poetry and self-made quotations is one I
remember

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“Sometimes your many kicks make no goal but
sometimes your one kick will make the all game
your goal”

I really do not remember them all right now,

understanding me and my personality will always
make you so confused, because I myself is like a
complicated and funny person, isn’t that something
funny, sometimes I wish to be a writer, sometimes
an engineer sometimes an actress, but I never let
myself be unhappy for small and petty things I love
learning so many things and the main point in me is,
I always compete my own self rather than others, I
thought a lot before writing this book, then “I
thought of not being so stingy for my own trials” so I
thought “why not a single try”.

I am not going to copy the boring uncle Shakespeare,

Dale Carnegie Elian Dundy Aunty Jane Austin, I have
got my own life and what I want is only you to be
happy, because I have got nothing by enjoying only
my life, I have already been enjoying it a lot and
what I want is only you to enjoy it now, I want you
to succeed yourself for the happiness because your
happiness is only the source of your success, well I

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have succeeded being happy and got variety of
commands to apply them for dealing with people
and arranging my days by maintaining my
happiness.

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 CONTENTS

_INTRODUCTION …………………………………1

_ROLE OF STABLE RELATIONSHIP…………………9

_PATIENCE …………………………………..…….13

-TRUST…………………………………………….15

_BE UNIQUE ………………………………………18

_WHY WOULD I CRY?……………………………20

_RELATIONSHIP WITH YOUR JOB……………….23

_RAINY DAYS……………………………………..26

_I AM IN KARACHI………………………………30

_ IS IT ONLY ME?………………………………..34

_ME AND THE NOISY FAN………………………37

_COLORFUL DRESSES MAKE NO SENSE………...39

_MONEY KILLS ME………………………………44

_WHAT IS YOUR MOOD LIKE?…………………47

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_POWERFUL SONGS…………………………..50

_ WHY SO SCARY?……………………………53

_OLD IS GOLD ………………………………..55

_EXCESS OF THINGS…………………………..59

_THEY ARE NEGRO……………………………63

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 INTRODUCTION

Starting with the name of almighty Allah (God), who

is the most merciful and greatest of the greatest, the
creator of the creators who created so many
beautiful creations; the universe and the most
beautiful creation who is you, I and we all. The only
"Human being" do you know? We have always been
his favorite, and we will be from all his creations.
You must have been already aware of it because you
are all reading my words are better qualified than
me and well-known to the life and its daily services,
who am I to tell you what life is? Do not get hyper
please! Telling you all, I am not here to teach that
what life is I only want you to be happy you have
already read the title on the cover page.

“Your happiness” and what I want is only you to be

happy. It is more preferable if you act on my words
rather than only read them, if you only want to read
my words so please stop it! Put it back on your desk
or in your drawer because for reading, there are
already so many beautiful books, novels, history go
for them, stop reading this common book and about

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its writer, because she is as common as you cannot
imagine, people call her lazy and funny writer and
do you know what does this funny writer want from
you? Only you to be happy.

You must be thinking, why does she want us to be

happy? She must have written these non-sense and
useless things to only highlight herself and she is
trying for some publicity, why do I want that? I do
not need any fame and publicity. I am always
successful because I have the best deal with
relationships with people and being one of the
reasons for their happiness and the intention of
writing this book is only I meet so many different
people in my daily life, all they ask me are very
strange queries like, what is the secret behind your
smiling face, what is the secret of being so living
nature and so many people ask me funny things like
are you a mad girl? And so many make fun of my
shuffling style of walking, who I am really boring
to me now, but who are you all been so intriguing
topic for me.

I really love you all and want you to be happy, am I

seriously not a mad girl? I have lost my field i had

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been so interested in computer science and had a
very big wish to be a software engineer but
unfortunately did not get admission, due to some
problem and I had to go for another field BS In
Education ,I have been hating teaching since
childhood but the luck has pushed me directly to the
irrelevant wishes that I never have thought of, but I
am still staying happy here and having a very
beautiful smile with the beautiful dimples on my
face and why would I spoil it for some petty things?
These are all some temporarily types of things occur
according to the time and the reality is only
relationship, love and happiness.

And what I have done is only chose to be happy in

life and make others happy with me, you all are
really so beautiful people, but what makes you really
dull and ugly is not having a smile on your face.
Why do you always think a smile needs a reason to
come on your cheeks? Do not wait for the reason to
smile, however, make your smile the reason of your
happiness, as more I am trying to modify my words
to you I only want to tell you be the real you, why
are you trying to have so much attitude and egos?

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Why do you think you are so mature? Is that a kind
of maturity, you do not even know a bit to make
yourself happy.

This life is too short to be spent with worries and

sorrows, you are not the single person having
problems and the truth is that everything is going to
be okay one-day, so why would you kill you today
for tomorrow? Every moment of your life is really so
precious, when you get to know you were happy
with this and that day it makes you smile so why not
to make your everyday goes happily with you? You
know, sometimes the small and funny things help
you in being happy.

There are so many reasons to be happy, but most I

prefer are relationship, love and the respect and I
will of course modify my points toward the
materialism and other sources that support us to
strengthen the happiness in our daily life, such as
like if I really be honest to say, you know what
makes me so happy? Is to be very fat and to have a
big baggy shirt, and secondly, I wish for the most
updated version of laptops and mobile phones but if

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I cannot, so it doesn’t matter, I am okay and living a
very healthy and happy life.

There are so many reasons and conditions that can

be the source of happiness, but as far as I am
concerned the only main reason along from my
studies and experience is again the relationship, as
there is a saying of me the happiness is found where
your heart is, but where have your heart and soul
been lost? You might have lost them in a metal or
any other materialistic item; it is maybe a cell phone,
a computer, a dress a bag, etc.

You are trying to get it, but you really do not have
sufficient money for purchasing them, why don’t
you try for a cheaper one? That you can afford and
thus, you cannot afford it either, it doesn’t matter; let
it go because that is not the reason of functioning
your heart and running your life.

As a matter of fact, your life is more than everything

that you even never have thought of it; your life is
more expensive than the materialistic jokes

Anyhow, What I want is only to see you happy, do

you know? This has been killing my mind since last

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night I thought a lot by carrying the bunch of
curiosities in my mini brain and I could not sleep all
night thinking this, how should I start my words
according to my title “Happiness”? As I am always a
successful person till I am happy and living a
satisfying life, but here I want to only share
happiness and love around the people that I daily
meet in my life.

First of all, elaborating my words, that what is

happiness? You know your happiness means a lot to
you and only remember nothing really happens to
the others whether you are happy or unhappy, for
living a happy life you do not need a luxurious way
of living, millions of money in your bank account,
what, you only need is a very ordinary thing just a
“Smile” on your face every day of life, when you get
up in the morning keep this in your mind that you
are going to play multi roles being a single actor.

You are not going to take the relationship for

granted because the relationship plays a major role
for our happiness, according to my different
experiences of different people from my family,
university social sites, I have got to find so many

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people are not happy due to not having stable
relationship and tough I found many of them living
a very satisfied and happy life as I got to know that
because they have the comfortable relationship.By
putting this point in the mind that the relationship
and love means a lot to human’s life and the most
crucial part is the human being itself, we are here to
tie the thread of relations stronger than the strongest
but not to break them.

For instance, I need help I call up my friend and ask

him/her for the help when they reply they cannot
help us, our mood goes off and we start acting
furious like a furry, we come to conclude the
relationship with them because we are the types of a
very lengthy conversation to be understood by the
others, tell me first, Is your work and help more
important than a friend?

What of their goes? If they help you and what of

your goes? If they do not help you this time, maybe
they cannot, and they will do it sometime in future.

To agree with me, you are really going to be so

serious toward the relations, if you break It today,

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there is the surety of you to regret sometimes in
future and this will always make you feel unsatisfied
and alone, and the loneliness will always be getting
chances to make you feel unhappy in your all life so
please try to chill out the things as you know it is
life we are here living for one point of the other
because we are all human being and human needs a
human for spending a beautiful life, not an angel.

Additionally, expressing my words about the stable

relationship, I would love to express my ideas over it
and move on my fingers to type.

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 “Role of Stable Relationship”

Stable and strong relationship makes me so attentive

and responsive toward it, why do so many people
always think that they are not happy in life and they
waste their all life thinking the same and sadly they
get to remain old and die by being unhappy all in
life. Why would you waste your life on just thinking
this, that you are unhappy? Because you feel that,
you do everything, fulfill your every wish but at the
end you again come to stay with the same point you
are unhappy, it happens when you did not respond
the relations, someone’s love, feelings and the
emotions because you have always been busy with
making your personality, your own life, getting high
marks in class, taking too much of selfinterest,
making yourself more official and you have never
tried doing anything that makes others stay happy
with you. You would be thinking that why will you
do that? It is the world of twenty 1st century no one
cares about others, why should we care? Because we
have all got to do with our own life, no one bears
anyone here, exactly; the same thing makes us so

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selfish and irresponsible about others. Actually, it is
just not, you have done something and you repent it,
it is when you still feel that you do not have stability
in the relations with others and you feel really so
unhappy.

Let it go if something has properly gone, but do not

let anything if it is still remaining. Will you throw a
tasty cake out of the kitchen if there is still a
remaining a piece of it or will you throw your
thousand rupee if it is torn in two pieces? I really do
not think that you will do it; you would rather eat
the cake and have some glue or plaster to patch up
the money. If you really can care about these small
and tiny material things, why do not you bother
yourself to care about the relations? You will so
many times choose to give up and break the relation
with those, you argue and fight every time and this
will also make you feel empty somewhere, it is how,
the reality will always be the “unstable relations”. So
do not let it be with you forever.

Frankly saying, do not waste your time by getting so

angry and making spaces with your loved ones so
please go for it, if you still feel that you love them

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and they are not someone stranger for you, doesn’t
matter, if you argued and misbehaved with them and
not a problem that they are not of your own blood
but you have at least a relationship with them
somewhere.

I understand they have changed in so “egoistic

people” so what! Will you also be the same? Isn’t that
something like this? When you see a dog barking
and someone shouting at you, so you also start doing
the same. I know I am not so eligible and capable to
my words and either not the best person that I am
trying to prove, but what I want is only you to be
happy and spread happiness around you. Do not
leave them, they are all your people, text them, ask
about them go and meet them, tell them sorry your
apologies mean a lot to them because you were very
special to them once, that is okay If they still do not
agree with you, try for thrice I would suggest you try
it for thrice and thrice but still if they do not agree
with you so, let them go properly and start a happy
life. Do not feel that you are alone without them
because you have done your level best to bring them
back in your life if they do not want to come so, give

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them some chances and some more days to regret
the same you ever have done and this will maybe let
them think a bit about it. I will be the happiest
person to know that whatever you are doing, is only
you are trying to save the relations.

I would always prefer to accompany the love,

relations and the patience along with them because,
unless there is patience in you to deal with the
people you will never get to know the value of
relations so this means a lot to me to mention my
words and ideas about it. Do you know what does
patience mean to the relations? It plays variety of
roles, peacefully and silently, but of course
beautifully. Anyways, let me tell you what is patience?
How and why should it be applied in your daily life?

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 “Patience”

I can see the people getting hyper at one and each

other for small, petty things and see the relations
getting broken unlimitedly; it is all because they
have got everything in life except not having
patience inside them. Patience plays a very
important role in every relation, to be honest, if I
truly say when there is no patience inside you to deal
with the relation; it is like you are considered the
weakest person or you have lost the game
somewhere.

Be someone a dealer; deal with the people with love.

In spite of insulting and being in a temper, try to
know the exact situation. I am though not so adroit
but I am still someone a lover a well-wisher even
sometimes you do too much for your people, but
what makes you so poisonous, is all your mouth and
your devil words by which they feel like getting
separated from you, it is because you could not
control your free open mouth and nonstop words.

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I understand you love them, but the impatience did
not help you keep them with you, you know what!
Patience seems to be so beautiful for applying it in
relations, so try to tolerate any situations. Love the
people not the materials, take time for loved ones, a
mild-mannered soul always remains alive for
everyone and be patient, where you know that you
need to be.

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 BE UNIQUE

Why would I do something, which is not my field,

but I have too much interest in doing it. Being
unique for only your major field is not a big deal
because it is always been with you and will be, you
have already taken too much tension and stress of
being more and more Professional, not to be as so
much professional as the common things around
you get over your head and when something goes
wrong makes you very angry and unhappy with
useless things.

Be someone unique, be different, fall in love with

Meetups love small and ordinary things, find
yourself in very common places surrounding
common people, this will surely make you realize
how tiny you and your problems are. This world is
not enough to see so many problems and worries
around you, but these are only for sometimes
environmental issues, however, the reality is only the
happiness and how would you maintain yourself
being in so many problems. You know you are all
time happy man, but you do not know exactly the

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main way of maintaining your happiness, I hundred
percent agree with the points, unless you are happy
you will not wish to see others being happy, this
makes you go for a deep thought that why do they
get happy at only small and unreasonable things?
That keeps really no values, constantly; it is all they
find a happy feeling for them like being satisfied
with poor jobs small amount of salary, riding by old
bikes and cars, living in old homes, walking on feet
to their offices are different sources of happiness.

I would really love, if you follow my words rather

than you only read them because I want you to
spend a happy life, a life not so standardized but
more beautiful than that. You have done so many
unique things in your life so be patient of tolerating
so many useless things; do not be always ready for
breaking beautiful relations, love those who love and
care about you. Respond every small things of others,
but never try to be the victim of heroism, do not be a
fake hero, be real you, do you know who are the fake
heroes? Those who act as for only the selected and
chosen audiences, leaving all other common people,
anyone you are, a teacher a professor a CR, a Dean

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or a vice Chancellor but be the real for all. Arrange
your own self for the entire audiences you are going
to perform for the all, do not be only for the special
and chosen ones because being real will always
make you feel yourself a happier person rather than
being superficial.

Those who seriously love you do not make any

chance to give them up, stay with them, be in touch
with them always, you do not know, but your
response will make someone’s life beautiful, share
your love and loyalty so that they will be more
responsible to dignify you in their hearts. Make
every person to love the reality and unofficial
relationship, why don't you want to justify your life?
Do not have so much of egos as egoism kills the
relations, love, feelings and emotions; it has been
such as like you are often happy at the beginning but
will stay unhappy for the lifetime.

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 “TRUST”

There are just a few elemental forces that hold our

world together. The one that’s the glue of society is
called trust. Its presence cements relationships by
allowing people to live and work together, feel safe
and belong to a group. Trust in a leader allows
organizations and communities to flourish, while the
absence of trust can cause fragmentation, conflict
and even war. That’s why we need to trust our
leaders, our family members, our friends and our
co-workers it is like that when you learn to build-up
the entity and the quality of trust inside in one’s self
or in your self means that you have built the self-
confidence, self-respect and self- loyalty because
trust is a big thing for any relation or organization,
trust makes you go-ahead take self-decision promote
communication with others in any organization or
in any relation. Unless you trust yourself you will
never find yourself in your dreams, goals, and
achievements because for that you need to trust
yourself that you will over-come whatever It is
laying in front of you. It doesn’t matter how much it

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is difficult because trust is a big thing for any
commitment in your life, according to my studies
and experiences every person is born to be trusted
and prevail trust and love around the world a man is
not inbornly made with all the qualities and talents
what makes them get over these opportunities is only
a trust.

As a new born baby is thrown and grabbed over the

high sky by his DAD because he trusts him that he is
not going to fall over the harsh floor before for
anything in life you get to move, you should trust
yourself from every angle, trust is the initial support
and backbone of your life because trust is a big thing.

Have trust in yourself in your decision in your

intentions in your life in yourself because trust is a
big thing.

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 WHY WOULD I CRY?

Life starts from where when the things get vanished

and you may have lost somewhere you have fallen
back into darkness and you want to live once more.

I remember when and how I lost my Dad, it was not

his age to die but everyone has a fixed time for the
death and it has always been unpredictable. My
brother was very small when we had got to know
our Daddy is no more, it was the worst feeling for
me that often tried to be the reason of unhappiness
in my life, but no more to the tears. It was such as
like I had to care about my siblings and by
convincing them and my sister was not at home, she
had gone to Karachi for her delivery and we could
not really tell her about our father's death because
she was already suffering from a very fragile
situation. It was as like when we talked to her on the
phone, we started passing the mobile to one hand on
the other, as we could not stop crying.

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I started feeling that I have been completed alone
and there is no one to who I call Daddy, but as the
time had gone so, everything was getting okay and
fine but I still had kept crying all my days and nights
in a closed room.

I spent more than a year feeling myself very alone, so

at finally I got to know my dad is not going to be
back and why would I Cry by wasting my days of
happiness? I stopped this all and decided to begin
and renew my life because my daddy was not the
single man left this world, there are so many people
living a life of being orphan, so why would I Cry?
Would my tears help me bringing my dad back to
his home? No, that is really so stupid, so what I could
do, was only to pray for him and live my life.

I decided to live it for my Mom and to take care of

her so I started my days with happiness kept myself
busy with other activities by going to different
institutes learning different things, made my life
really so satisfied. I only want to say if I kept on
crying and did not Stop this ridiculous, I would have
been like an emotional spirit today, thanks to the
God, I am living a very happy life and I do not

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complain about the meaningless things to him, I
exactly have to live for myself and my family, am I
crazy to waste my life on pushing myself to the past?
So I decided to choose happiness in my life.

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 “RELATIONSHIP WITH YOUR JOB”

Relationship means a lot to your life, whether it is

with a friend, a family, and colleagues or with your
job. Your job has a very deep and sensible
relationship in your life, because I find so many
people go to the offices every morning with dull and
boring faces, it is as if they are not interested in
doing the job they have been hired in, and so many
of them want to make more and more money but
their needs hamper them and become the barrier on
their way of making money. For living a happy life
you need to make yourself happy with the job you
are doing so, It doesn’t matter you make less or more
money.

But it is when becomes so beautiful you make a deep

relationship with your job and love doing it
enjoyingly and happily.

When you do not love your job, it makes sense and

let your every morning, go unhappy with a black
and white face having no smile. Enjoy the things you
have right now, participate in different activities,

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apply them in your life, be social and meet everyone
openly. I can see you have got the bundle of tasks
load of stress, everyone has them, what you have to
do is only to make yourself happy.

So many people cry and complain against their jobs

and daily earnings, Is that so important for you to
make a lot of money? Or it also happens that so
many people are doing the job which they are not
interested in, and they only take it for granted.

Do what you love doing, go along with your interest

money does not mean every time, your happiness is
more than that. Fall in love with your job make a
deep relationship with it, be crazy about it, this will
really bring so many changes in you and your life.
Be honest and real, you are not happy because you
do not try for the relationship.

Why would you make relationship with your job?

Because you only take it for the source of only
making money you are not serious about it. When
you get serious so you will know that the job plays a
very big role in our life and for our happiness, so
before you regret, let your unhappy days regret and

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apologize to your enthusiasm and passions and learn
to make yourself happy rather than making more
and more money.

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 IT IS RAINING OUTSIDE AND I AM
“PISSED OFF”

It is raining outside and I am here in the bedroom

thinking a lot about petty things. I was sleeping my
mom awakened me just to tell me, go to the other
bedroom, I want to sweep here and this made me so
pissed off, however, I went into the second room,
slept a bit more, but as when I got up I have been
feeling I am still not so freshed, it is as if a hammer is
being hit over my brain or a closed door. I am
getting angry at small, petty things, I know I am
although trying to convince you all, how to be happy?
I am myself getting furious on the useless things.

So I am going to get out of my bedroom and enjoy

with the nature, this may make my mood refreshed
and let me put my mind in the balance and suitable
to my words. Anyhow, I have been out for twenty
minutes on the rain, convinced myself to enjoy with
the nature as usual, I could see the birds flying so
rapidly flattened themselves towards the trees where
they have made their beautiful and small nests. I got
everything so wet outside my mom hanged my

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clothes over the rope and this made me so laugh a lot,
I opened up my arms to hug the nature to feel the
tiny drops of water falling directly from the sky
covered with the black clouds.

My friend Stefan was calling me on the messenger

after a long time and I was in dilemma, whether to
receive the call or give sometimes to my own self? I
decided not to receive the call, by not receiving his
call does not mean I only think of myself and I do
not care about my friends, it is how if Stefan was
calling me after a long time and I have got a very
damn’ mood which seems like I may hurt someone if
I start talking to him so it is better before talking to
Stefan, I must make up my mind and make myself
cold.

I left him a message “I will talk to you later my dear,

it is raining here, but stay there I will be there for
you as soon as possible’’ “Okay sweety enjoy talk to
you later’’ He replied.

By sharing my experience with you, means that we

had better learn, how to maintain the things at the
same time? This keeps a lot to the world of happiness.

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Saying truly I am a kind of really angry and cracked
minded person, I get passionate about mini things
that keeps no meaning, but the reality is that, as
according to the time, I have been away from home
for three years and I have learnt a lot, how to
maintain the things, tackle with the critical
situations and live a happy life.

“It is raining and I am alone”

It is pouring and I am alone, I do not have any friend

to enjoy with, all the others are with their classmates
and friends, but my friends are not with me and my
cousins are also some miles away from me right now,
I do not have umbrella either, so how can I go?
Because I want to enjoy and have some fun.

I just forget if there is something going on, I am

deciding to go, I take my bag, put the earphones in
my ears play a music and put off my shoes carrying
them in my hands, walking barefooted and enjoying
a lot. I can see all the others are only looking at me,
someone might be thinking she is mad, she is only
busy with her own life, and the others might be
making fun of me and of course someone like me a

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alone person right now might be thinking if she can
enjoy alone, why not me? So this makes her so
energetic and enthusiastic to enjoy the same
moments without friends and this makes her so
happy.

I am really a kind of insane, you would be thinking,

she has wasted her time by putting so useless things
in her book. I really do not care because all I do, is
only want to make you laugh and smile, my words
keep nothing but I am really laughing a lot, this is
making me today’s world biggest laughter and
happiest person, you might be smiling too and others
seeing you smiling they do not know the exact
reason but they are laughing at you and this stuff
making everyone happy around you.

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 “IN KARACHI”

I am in Karachi I have just come here directly from

Quetta, and I have finished all my money I have
remained only nine thousands, do you think for any
possibility to do a big shopping? Let’s see what is
going to happen. I am staying here at my uncle’s my
uncle has got a very old and outdated “Honda” but
what I want is only to make myself happy "Will you
sit on this rusty bike" asking my uncle.

“To be honest, I really love this bike and I always

enjoy sitting on bikes I do not care about its rust and
color and the old engine” I replied. So I am ready and
I am going to get freshed and take my bag carry it on
the back put my all necessary items in it, we have
started the engine toward the diamond Mall, hyper
Star, Karachi haleem and Chase up, and we visit the
expensive places for solely to do photography and
get to see new things in the market and when we
plan to buy something we go to the local places
where we find the same things are being sold in the
Mall.

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We are going to have a visit in Urdu Bazaar as it has
been my favorite place since childhood, I never
forget visiting here because I have a very serious
relation with the books and I love reading different
types of books, well, this time I am going to buy the
books of Sufism because the topic Sufism has been
alarming near my ears for a year so I want to know
about it, there is a saying the knowledge you are
seeking is already seeking you and I am really happy
to buy its books I got a chance to fulfill my passions
by learning about Sufism. Well, I have done so much
of shopping for today, we are still on our way
visiting so many places by the old bike, and we are
really very happy, we are on the bike since 5:00 pm
till it is 9:00 pm and I am feeling so exhausted "I feel
that you are not enjoying and you are looking so dull
“saying my uncle. “Why do you think this?” “Telling
me. “Because when you are so excited and happy
you put your hands on my shoulders and talk a lot
you are really so different from others my daughter
and I want you to be like the same personality that
you are right now, I love your style, the way you
cheer up with everyone, chill out and enjoy your life
and this has given me a very big lesson, to maintain

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the happiness in our life why do we always think of
our daily worries and sorrows?

I have learned to know that these are only some kind

of ordinary stuffs occur in everyday life, and we
should not abruptly leave living happily our days
and nights “Saying my uncle.

“I am not bored, I am only a bit tired, let’s go

in,“Daaba” and drink a cup of tea “Telling me. Well, I
have just been in “Daaba” I am totally refreshed and
reactivated now, we have enjoyed our all day
happily and joyously, without any Corolla, so much
of money in our pockets and without wearing stylish
dresses and carrying a fancy purse in my hands, but
I still feel myself the happiest soul being in
thousands of people.

Two days later

I am still in Karachi and everyone is demanding me,

be with us. I really do not know with whom should I
stay? So I am deciding to only stay with some points
that would carve out some beneficial way to let them
hire me completely from different angles.

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It is early morning I have just got up, I was sleeping
my aunt’s room so she is serving me breakfast and
the tea by saying the points “Whatever you need do
tell me please my dear ““Yes why not “I replied.

I am deciding to go downstairs and the second aunt

is seeing me coming from the stairs “Come here my
Daughter “Telling my aunt. I am going to her, but I
have just taken breakfast, I would like to have a
piece of bread with tea again, doesn’t matter because
she is really cheerful and demeanor woman, so how
would I break someone’s heart? I have made a long
conversation with her and we are still talking and
making fun, I have after all finished two cups of tea
because I love drinking tea, I drink as many cups as I
am offered.

As a matter of fact, I want to keep their hearts and

make them pleased with me and I feel that I am
really done with it by creating too much love and
respect in their hearts for me.

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 IS IT ONLY ME?

Is it only me that I think the happiest soul ever?

Why do I feel myself being the happiest person
among all? Because I all day work very hard only to
make up my mind for the optimistic decision and
thoughts to maintain the situations and my
happiness.

It is like one positive person can spread happiness in

thousands of people in the world with the positive
ideas, optimistic thoughts which will bring a huge
change in others life, what if maybe it is you or me?
Of course it can be we all, I could see myself being in
stress and so much of the tensions, but yet I try to
bring a smile on my face and be happy, who is not
happy? Everyone is happy and trying to be happy,
but no one wants to maintain it.

I sometimes think, it is maybe they do not know and

are not too much focused toward it. Every time when
I ask my uncle, why do I feel myself the happiest girl
being among thousands?

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He replies, because you are mentally free, easy going
person and you have already got everything but I
really do not think so.! Personally, if I start
convincing myself I am not all the time happy, but I
got to maintain the happiness for the life time. I
would better say bye to the stress and tensions excess
of the things and try to beautify my smile and feel I
am okay! I would better implement the things that I
love doing, having some funs being so humorous to
others sometimes and being so positive, I will do it I
am good enough to do it.

I love something and I want to buy, but due to the

insufficient money if I cannot so I try to welcome the
patience within me, does not a big deal, I am
bankrupt this time and I would exactly love to use
the antique things, you know the big American wish
has got no chances to be fulfilled for thrice but I
would prefer to make its flag and color it, put it on
my desk and feel myself being in real New York.

I got to arrange my room and the little library so I

am going to collect some more books, read and write
about different things, making sketches. Does not
matter, if I am very weak in chores and I cannot

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cook, but I ask myself for a try and cook the awful
taste that seems to be so bad.

So much of boredom makes me very unhappy and

dis mood, so why not to take out everything from old
cupboard and search for old memories? And have
some Meetups with people chatting friends, talking
on Skype, discussion on different topics awaken my
passion and souls to design them with beautiful
lyrics and sing them with a beautiful rhythm. I
prefer giggling and laughing out so I want to have
some funs by watching comedy movies, whatever,
but I try my level best to deal myself with different
moods, my moods can never compete me before I
compete them, they agree to get failed, I always
remain a winner. Truthfully, I am not so mature to
be the unhappiest soul, there is no any doubt that I
am young enough to enjoy my days and I don’t care
what the hell others would think about me but what
I think about me, is that I am the best and want to
make myself happy in a best way.

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 “ME AND THE NOISY FAN”

It is early summer here in Gwadar city the month of

March but not too much hot and I really do not

understand my enmity with the noisy fan because its
sound disturbs me a lot, especially while I am
reading something I do not want to feel sleepy and
bored by the air of the fan.

I am going to switch off the fan and going to open

the windows and let the fresh air blows naturally
coming straight from the mountains and the sea, this
is making me really so happy and fresh to read and
complete my novel, the boring lifestyle of Aunty Jane
Austen, who had died at a very early age but this
book is really making me very bored, why would I
let my beautiful day go boringly? Well, I feel like
reading some history so I am going to do some study
in history.

I had a very suitable way to deal with the situations,

but it was not as appropriable if it was so hot then
what would I do? How would I do this? This point
seems to make much of sense, well, I would like to do

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my favorite thing that would let me enjoy reading, I
would likely to use my favorite perfume after getting
freshed, I love its pleasant smell, the fragrance of
perfume makes me so energetic and enthusiastic, no
matter, how much I am exhausted and harassed but
its smell energizes my body and the soul to function
energetically and happily. You know these petty
things may keep no any value In our life but too
much of secrets behind every living soul, the reality
is only to make yourself energetic to the critical
situations, do not leave doing the things you love a
lot that make you really a happy person .

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 “COLORFUL DRESSES MAKE NO SENSE”

Colorful dresses make no sense made me think a lot

to mention my ideas over it. The colorful dresses
make really no sense unless you have the same
beautiful colors in your life.

You may have been recently to the market and

bought different color of dresses, but you are still not
happy with them, you feel the others having the
dresses are more beautiful than yours. I do not mind
telling you openly and honestly depending yourself
on the material things does not keep so much value,
why would you depend yourself on material things?
Why would you stress about having the most
beautiful dresses? I would rather guide you to have
the colors in your real life than to have them in a
piece of cloth.

I know, everyone here wants to look so beautiful, but

for looking beautiful make yourself beautiful first, by
implementing beautiful colors in your life; the soul
and smile, will let you look more attractive and
charming. You must be thinking why would you

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look simpler than others? Do not look simple, I do
not want you to have a simple look, have fashions be
a model, but do not push your breath and soul in a
small piece of cloth.

No one really cares about your look; everyone here is

busy in making themselves more beautiful than
others. Do you notice? You ask them “how am I
looking “they answer and ask you back about their
own look, So why are you wasting your happy days
by pushing the load of stress in your mini brain.?
Doesn’t matter, you have bought a dress because you
love it a lot, but you have been thinking since
morning, how will people judge the dress, whether
they like or dislike it? No, I cannot wear it really, I
know they will make fun of me, look! If you agree
with my points so please go on because every
individual is different from the other and everyone is
having different perceptions of thinking and I better
alert you; People will tell you so many things
however they do not have any other way sometimes,
how to judge others by teasing and stressing their
thoughts on others minds in order to provoke them.
The reality is that they are not happy in their own

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life and what you have to do is to spread happiness,
doesn’t matter, they pass you comments just go
ahead and tell them you love them and you have
worn the dress for having their beautiful comments
and if any of them does not like your dress and its
color, can guffaw at you and laugh if this makes
them happy, so please let them be happy; But you are
not going to get hurt and angry because what you
have to do spread happiness around you I told you as
before, do not depend yourself on material things
they are not better than a human being.

You are really mad, you do not know the human

being is having a breath and soul inside them that
are being functioned twenty four hours so if you
really want to see them happy do not really get
angry at the things they do, because they are all your
own save relations do not let them be jealous of you
instead of feeling if someone is jealous make them
feel that they are better than you and your love is
everything for them because you are going to color
so many white and black lives than a piece of cloth.

HEART IN THE METAL

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Have you lost your heart somewhere? I guess that
you may have lost it in the metal, and that is your
cell phone contains the Face book, Skype, whatsapp
etc. and you spend too much for only having the
more and more “MB” for surfing internet.

Not strange, because you have got very beautiful

relations in the metal, what makes you so happy not
the metal but of course the people inside it. Be
serious, you are not depending on the metal, you
depend on the people found in the metals, you love
talking to them, chatting them when you find no any
Wi-Fi you feel unhappy and that really makes your
day go boring by a dumb face.

It is exactly the truth, we are all depending on each

other’s but we do not agree. Do not make the metal
your favorite, make its users your favorite because it
is going to get in old version one day but the human
being should stay the same. Have you ever noticed?
That life daily demands our version and we are so
mad to get converted, why would that demand it
every day? We are not crazy to change ourselves in
the versions we will though make the life change its
versions for making us happy every day.

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Why do we often open the gallery? Scroll the
pictures up and down to see them again and again,
they are maybe our friends, family, teachers our own
selves, because we love them, we have a relationship
with them somewhere, not with the gallery and the
mobile. Unless you have got some happiness and
beautiful people in the metal you will ever feel it the
most boring item in your hand so the metal is only a
temporarily jock and the reality is the relationship
and happiness, am I crazy awaken so late typing too
much and moving my fingers on the button killing
my laptop day and night? It is because all I am doing
it for your happiness and the beautiful smile on your
cheeks so be ready to agree that you love the human
being and value them rather than the metals.

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 “MONEY KILLS US”

Why does the money always kill us? And become

the reason of unhappiness in our life? The things
have already been shattered; everywhere you go you
will find the Human being busy in making more and
more money and official relationships why does that
often happen? Why don’t we try the relations come
together and unanimously a large family in our big
bang and why does the money always kill us?
Because it has bought us so many things which got
us happiness for the short time and when the things
went on rust and old we started demanding the new
versions for the next, and this "next “has always been
trying to renew itself by throwing us away to the
relations and our people.

Money has bought us beautiful and expensive dress,

a car, a bike, along with the very beautiful house, but
not a beautiful home, why does that covered all the
nerves in our body? And has become the source of
functioning our heart? It is only, we made it so
endeared and let it kill us every day, think for a
while, if the money does not run behind us, why do

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we make ourselves too tired of running behind it? Is
that so special? We do not have as many needs as
we increase them every day because we are sort of
very hungry people that the less of something never
get digested by us, but when our bellies get so fat so
then we start to think about our people.

Apart from this, we have been earning for ages only

for our family in order to complete their needs, but
not all the time, your family does not need your
money all the time, they need your response and love
when your love gets stronger and healthier, your
family will naturally demand you. Do not
misunderstand them, they do not need your money
all the time and on the other side of the picture so
many times it happens, someone has three thousand
will happily and openly get ready to help their loved
ones, but the other one has got three laces will think
ten hours before helping someone.

This will undoubtedly happen, when they have lost

their small hearts in money, they do not try to
understand the money is a source of only completing
the needs of life, it has always been flying around
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live a bankrupt and hungry life? This is all our own
thought because we are actually no honest to the
relationship and either not with our happiness, so
how come will we make others go happily with us?

No one really needs your money and wealth , what

people need from you are love, respect ,your
understanding and trust so do not push yourself in
misconception, money does not really flow all the
time, be attentive to the things that keep more value
than it.

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“UNHAPPY, BORED, PISSED OFF, MOOD

OFF, DISAPPOINTED, DISHEARTENED

OR ETC.”?

What is your mood likely is right now? Are you

bored, unhappy, pissed off, disappointed,
disheartened or etc.? Is it some kind of resemblance
to the expressions, Humm, huh, uffs anything, you
know better, what is your mood likely right now or
to be after some minutes but what do you love doing?
What makes you more comfortable? Drawing?
Making sketches? Reading jokes? Watching horror
movies? Exactly what? You are not happy, but
posting so many fake pictures and smiling
deliberately how come can you deceive your own
self? Move on be real you, stop being fake. If you
love making art funny cartoons so start doing your
favorite look at your funny cartoons after you
complete every drawing, open your drawing open
the pages slidely, OH! I can see a difference on your
face, you start laughing and getting happy your
cheerful smile is making you more attractive and

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charming girl I know others will start making fun of
you “are you a fifth class kid” avoid listening to them
do what you love.

How incredible, you will find the same people doing

the same at the other day because they knew that it
would really amuse them by doing their favorite
things, truly, telling you this all mean a lot to your
happiness if not this but something exactly makes
you happy and smile at finally, and that depends on
you, you know better what exactly suits your mind
and helps you being happy at the moment you are
complaining about. So what helps you getting happy,
Cooking, dancing, singing, listening to the music,
reading books, reading comics, watching movies,
doing photography or etc.? Do something, you feel
like doing, but do not let your beautiful smile go
down because your smile is a sign of your beauty
and attraction.

Actually the fact is you were born to be happy and

being happy brings out the best in people. Happiness
is a natural state, and, let’s face it, you feel good
when you are happy. Furthermore, when you are
happy you look good too. When you are happy your

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posture is better, your breathing is different; your
brain produces more functional chemicals which
stimulate every cell in every organ in your body, so
you become healthier and look and feel better.

You know, what do i do to make myself entertained

and happy? I draw, work on designing website,
scroll up and down the news feeds, watch movies,
anything that my mood likely needs to do, I start
doing and I have five completed drawings full of
cartoons when I find myself so bored and unhappy I
start to have a glance at my drawings and appreciate
myself I won it and this really makes me so happy.

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 “POWERFUL SONGS”

Do the powerful songs make you unhappy and

happy, impatient, emotional or loveable? So many
people, especially the teenagers have depended
themselves on the songs, It is when, they cannot
decide what song actually makes their mood go off
and what makes up their mind.

Being honest; I love listening to the “Qawali” because

that touches my soul and makes up my mind to do
something, the Qawali songs inspired me a lot to
read about the Sufi and their lifestyle and I have
learnt so much about them, you know I also love
multi songs like classic, English and Indian songs but
the “Qawali” songs have always been my choice. So
try to decide first, what makes you happy and
comfortable? Before you choose the happiness, make
the happiness, choose you for a lifetime. Listen to
what makes you happy. Why would you listen to the
boring sad songs if you really know that is going to
make you cry and unhappy, are you crazy? Why do
you fold yourself up into the blanket and start crying,

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your lips start shivering and you do not have any
words to explain.

I really feel so laugh, that people become sad and cry

because of listening to the songs, you have only five
minutes to make yourself laugh, what will you do?
Will you laugh or cry? If you do not like laughing
and giggling, but you do not mind smiling if there is
no any reason find a reason listen to beautiful songs
play a remix or a rocking and rolling, feel yourself in
the songs , this will exactly let you find yourself
being happy, at least something makes you happy
among thousands of the things.

Apart from this all, I decided not to write about this

useless thing as I thought if not the all but only fifty
percent of people would prefer to read It, not you
and me but it does not mean all the others do not
listen to powerful songs. I am really surprised that
the songs have also become one of the powerful
source of making people happy and unhappy in
their life and at the other hand, I find so many
people start missing someone In songs, this has
continuously been making me confused, whether
they love that person or the lyrics of the songs

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making them love the person? This is something has
always been pushing me hugely in chaos so do not
make me confused anymore love the people in real
life not in versions of songs.

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 WHY SO SCARY?

Why are you so scared and the scary is making you

afraid to the happiness, It is all you are maybe very
weak in decision-making, you are afraid the things
you will do may not hurt you or make you fall down,
you do not want to step up and move on or you
maybe think the things you love doing will irritate
others and it also happens you get afraid of your
family, you wish to do a job, wish to study
somewhere or something different but you think a
lot by wasting your time that whether they will
allow you or not, do not get so hesitated, go for the
things convince your family, everything will
automatically get solved, indeed, be positive try your
best to impress your family from your passions
show the positive image of your wishes to your
family, Be enthusiastic, ensure them that you are
mature enough to deal with the troubles and you
will not let anyone mess your decision and make any
obstacle on your way.

Do not be so scared be bold and go ahead make your

family understand well, they may disagree today but

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not tomorrow because no one really loves you more
than your family.

I can see you shaking your head by saying the points

“No ‘No I will not do It because I cannot” and you kill
your wishes and passions inside you but never think
about any specific trials you are somehow so stingy
and somehow so weak, because you do not trust in
yourself and the other side you do not want to try
anything, so please give a chance to your life go and
try do not waste your time by only thinking this “You
cannot” you can do It and you will.

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 “OLD IS GOLD”

I have been profoundly affected by old things since

childhood and I really think the old is always gold, I
love visiting old places going on excursions, where I
find old things. It has really made me think a lot
when I think of old people and their lifestyle, I enjoy
a lot I do not say you do the same things that I do,
but knowing about old memories is a kind of joy that
makes your mood nonsticky for only the actual
moments you are living right now. And old things
make you really happy let me give you an interesting
idea when you see, you are so bored and the
boredom is making you to live unhappy and lazy life,
before you feel unhappy, just go on and start
searching through the old memories open the old
cupboard of nineteenth century find out the old
pictures of you and your family can you see yourself
in the picture how you look? Cute but so hilarious
wearing your shoes in wrong feet and entertaining
T-shirt a mouse and a cat design on it, we usually
call them “Tom and Jerry” Wow! What a cool person
you were in childhood and the other picture laying

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in front of you in which you are screaming or I think
crying, well, doing something be honest either
shouting or crying and your mucus is falling down
from your tiny nose you look really so humorous like
a real joker you ever watch in Circus and It is
making you laugh again and again you are getting
so amused however, you are intending to see the
funny pictures of your siblings they also looked the
same funny they had not looked like Anglina Joulie
and James bond and It is really a very good news for
you by getting a free chance to be happy and smile
when you find your younger or older brother looked
like a “Bunny “cartoon in childhood and this is what
let you make yourself contented to the funny
realities about your siblings who tease you every
morning calling you by different names so now
rather being irritated you are going to be happy
because you have got to know they were also
cartoons once.

Apart from this all, you know, I love meeting old

people as my uncle taught me once spending your
free twenty minutes with older people is more
precious you spend on useless things. This made me

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think a lot, so once I decided to meet all the old
people are found in my neighborhood.

After, the sunset, I took a bath, got freshed used my

favorite perfume, I and my cousin left from home.
When I entered into their campaign, it was a really
large area covered with many different homes. I
found everyone busy with their family, when they
saw me they had really got so happy because I never
have been to their home before.

But at the beginning, It was really so complicated for

me to decide who to meet first? At first I got a home,
where I found a very old woman, sitting near her
small room. When she saw me she got so happy
when I moved toward her, she had hugged me,
kissed my forehead and blessed me with the shower
of prayers. And this was a really a very beautiful
feeling for me which made me anxious and so happy
to know about her beautiful past, we had a long and
a lengthy conversation. Then, I and my cousin
decided to leave for the next home, where there was
living a very old woman, this was so funny when I
met her she had called me by taking the name of my
sister because my elder sister is more highlighted in

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my neighborhood. She is a kind of ongoing,
broadminded and social woman that is why, so I had
to tell them my name and they still ask about me
being honest I cannot explain how much they were
happy to know that this girl has only come here to
meet we people.

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 “EXCESS OF THE THINGS”

I do not want to write about it, but the every

morning and evening blues have compelled me to
have a glance at them for a short. Meanwhile, if I
maybe feel that so many people are being victimized
by excess of the things. The word excess contains so
many things along with it that can be drinking,
smoking, reading, worshipping, thinking etc.

Doing the excess of something can also be the cause

of tension and unhappiness in our life.

Look! If you know you are almost done with it so

why do you feel like doing some more? It is, maybe,
you find a benefit or you hope for something
precious, but you really do not know that, this will
also cause stress and push the load of the works in
your mini brain which causes you to get hyper,
pressurized, and be aggressive by bothering your
own self.

There is always a capacity of a mind, a mind plays a

very important role from all our body, but
unfortunately we have always been pushing it into

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the bunch of pessimistic thoughts and load of our
works. Do you know that the pessimistic thoughts
made me so anxious to discuss about, why do so
many people generate their brain with the variety of
negativities why do they always think something
wrong is going to happen in the next or sometimes
in future? This certainly means that we actually do
not want to go for the positivity and we either do not
want to maintain the positivity and the possibility of
the conditions. I feel really so laugh that a man
cannot cry twenty four hours of the day.

Are you crazy to eat all those the things if you know
you are suffering from the “Fat” so I mean to say that
we maybe do not know and do not feel it, but doing
too much of something can be the reason of
unhappiness in our life.

Before you misunderstand me, I will say that the

humanity entered at the first according to every
history and history always speaks about the
humanity and teaches you to be a human first then
whether you are a Muslim, a Christen a Jew or a
Hindu.

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To clarify my words to you, as like, if you know you
are a good man and have good commands over the
religion and everyone around you is happy with you,
and you have never hurt anyone, so why would you
take the things so religiously at every point? And do
the excess of the things that make you feel a
different man being around others.

This all happens because you feel like being alone

and worshipping twenty four hours to be more and
more scholastic that makes you to detest anything
happens around you, I am afraid, if you do not hurt
others, look! Everyone has a different field and if you
really know, being so scholastic and religious is not
your field and makes you a complicated man in your
surroundings. Why would you do the things so fast
and early? Maintain the things learn dealing with
the situations, for instance, if you again and again
touch the cheeks of a baby wouldn't she cry?
Because it bothers her, do the things according to the
capacity of your brain, after all, we are all here the
Human being not the softwares are entered in every
computer.

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At the other side, every man is different from the
other so stop forcing and disheartening, love the
humanity and the human being be a happy man and
make every person a happy man.

You know everyone keeps their own perceptions of

thinking and live the life by different angles, why
would you try to insist on others doing this and that,
it is not something like you think a public property,
be the real you love the people, not the things they
do and have.

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 “THEY ARE NEGRO”

They are Negro (Black people) and you really mind

talking and walking with them, calling them your
friends because you think, they are initially not the
proper cast of people to be respectably known by
others in your area. You belong to a highly respected
family, why will you think establishing any
relationship and being social and frank with them,
what does it have got to be done with you? Will they
be the cause of spreading their color surrounding
you or do they have got guns and rifles in their
hands? They are only ordinary and simple people
like you, why would they hurt you and be the reason
of dangerous circumstances for you and your highly
respected family? So before they hurt you, you are
already hurting them by avoiding, making distances
and spaces between you and them.

This point makes me so complicated that, what does

make us so arrogant and egoistic? The long nose?

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Beautiful lips? Hairs or the color of our face? So I
better tell that we are the ugliest white people in
thousands of beautiful black ones.

You are all same, what makes you to be

discriminated from them, is only the color and the
genetically created fake casts, did the God write on
anyone’s forehead “Less cast of man and High cast of
man”? These are only some types of ridiculous
things occurring in your daily life by making you the
reason of being unhappiness and unpleasant source
for others.

Be open and open the door of your heart, love them,

love everyone equally, be the source of self-
justification, make them happy by hugging and
making conversation with them, they have not
traveled from an extraterrestrial they were all born
from your own world to be with you forever ,they
are all your own people, the grand sons and
daughters of “Adam “The great Saint Adam May God
be pleased with him, he would stay spiritually alive
to see his grandchildren united and happy with each
other. Be happy with the realities and make others
happy with you.

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 DEDICATON
To my wonderful Uncles Muhammad Omar
and Kareem Buksh

Who have supported

Me a lot, my family and the readers:

Sorry about that was so time-consuming

(Hahahahaha)

But seriously, I love you guys.

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