Prologue

I come from a society that believes purposely turning a blind is called minding your own business,I come
from a society that believes when a woman is beaten up into a pulp,beaten to a point where she wets
herself is called "ukuqinisa isandla". I come from a society where man are decisions makers and law
makers of their own houses "onkani kayiphikiswa/ozwilakhe". I come from a society of women
oppressed all in the name of a man is the head of the household.I come from a community where
patriarchy rules, I come from a broken family in kwanongoma that once was filled with nothing but,joy
and respect.

Things haven't always been broken like this. My mother was once a carefree soul,she loved whole
heartedly and gave her best in everything she did. But I guess that alone was never enough to make her
choose better. My parents got married at a young age,they had dreams and aspirations they were deep
in love that even the wind couldn't catch them. I don't think my mother ever lived up to her dreams,but
I can tell you one thing my father lived up to his dreams and more. He's a well respected man around
the community well know amongst the area. People worship the ground he walks on,women throw
themselves at him and they all want to bear him kids. I have always had the best relationship with my
mother till she started resenting me. I know she might never admit this but I believe there was a time
she hated me, Baba used to take me with him to see his female friends,well that's what he told the ten
year old me. I believed him I mean why would my own father lie and cheat,I think this is what sparked
the resentment feeling in her. Do I hate my parents yes and no. Do I hate my father? Well that's a
difficult one. I hate that he broke his own rule "never allow anyone to touch your privates or make you
uncomfortable" those were the words he used to tell me, till he changed and became someone I didn't
know. He became something I feared and hated. Somewhere in the sane part of my brain and heart I
hate him. And then in that hopeful gullible part of my heart I don't hate him that much.

He betrayed my trust and broke most of his promises,aren't fathers supposed to be hero's to their
daughters. Why did he have to change these are some of the questions I keep asking myself.

I didn't want to come home not after 4 years of studying teaching and gaining my independence or so i
thought.But some freek accident had to stand in my way,I hate being home but I have no choice,I hate
having to depend on the same man that has no respect for my mother.

Growing up I had a mother a loving one at that. Growing up I had a father an amazing honest,loving and
kind man,growing up I had a protector in him and a nurturing soul in my mother. But today I have a
monster as a father and an undercover drunkard of a mother. I never longed for anything or anyone,I
had both till I didn't and life as I knew it changed. My name is khubelihle

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Khubelihle

I don't think I will ever get used to waking up to my mother's bruises. I have mastered the art of
putting on headsets and blast music till my ear drums hurt. I did this from an early age till today
at the age 22,well I am turning 22 on the 19th of April. I finished school at the age of 17 and
after that I was shipped off to university to get a degree,I am greatful though because today I
am a qualified teacher. No offence teaching wasn't my first choice but because I knew I would
get a job and get away from my parents I took it. I think that's why most people choose to do
it,you are guaranteed to get a job and be okay,life of an unemployed graduate is hard in fact life
of an unemployed person is cruel. I have seen first hand how being unemployed does to one's
self esteem. I don't wish that upon anyone,atleast I love kids and having to instill some
knowledge and groom them into being responsible citizens would be an honour.

Here I am steering off as I was saying, I still curl up in a coner when something breaks and my
father shouts. I guess that's the little girl in me doing what she knows best hiding. You know
what they say practise makes perfect and I am a pro at this game.

I can't believe the sun is up already,I slowly get out of bed and rub my eyes I put on my glasses
yawning. I happen to be short sighted so I rely on my glasses most of the time. My door is
locked as always I look down and there's the key. Mama always locks the door and pushes the
key under the door,I guess this is her way of keeping my father away from my bedroom. I unlock
the door and the smell of bacon and eggs hits my nostrils. I find Mam Mavis preparing breakfast
this is one person whose always happy in this house.

"Morning MaV" I say reaching for a strip of bacon.

"Yey that's for the whole family" she says slapping my hand.

"Oh come on you know baba won't eat" I say chewing it down.

"Well then your mother better wake up and start cooking" she says looking at me with eyes full
of sadness.

"What happened" I ask sitting down.

"I think he hit again izolo,she doesn't want to open her bedroom and your father is.." she stops
taking when we hear footsteps.I turn and there is he making his way to the kitchen.

"Sawbona Mnumzane" Ma V says walking away.

"Sawbona baba" he smiles settling down.

"Yebo Zamakhuba" he says still smiling.I hate it when he does that,hurt Ma and pretend as if
everything is okay. I start plating up for him then me,he looks at the food and clicks his to
tongue.

"You know I only eat food prepared by your mother" he says annoyed.I really feel like telling him
off but not today.

"Let me go call her" I say standing up.

"It's okay let her rest" he says sighing.

"Baba why do you it" I ask honestly wanting a answer.he rubs his forehead and walks away,I
can't believe he won't give me a simple answer as to why he's hurting us.

I cook some soft porridge and dish up for Mama,I walk to her bedroom and knock softy she
doesn't answer,I listen carefully and hear sniffs.I try opening the door but it's locked she does
this all the time when she hiding from the world.

"Ma please open" I say knocking softly.

"Khuba please go away" she says,I can hear her crying which makes this even more harder.

"Mama please open the door" I hear some shuffling then the key,she opens up the door letting
me in.I start by opening up the curtains then the windows, she's just staring at the mirror with
her tears streaming down.I hold my own and put up a smile on my face.

"This should go down easily" I say breaking the silence.

"Thank you" she says looking up,I almost break down when I see her purple eye and swollen
cheek bones.

"I am sorry" that's all I can say.

"It's okay khuba,now tell me did you sleep" she asks forcing a smile.

"I slept okay Nathanjekwayo" I say bringing the tray closer. I hate small talk especially when
she's like this. I try feeding her but she shakes her head.

"Ma for the love of God just eat" My voice rises higher than it should.

"Khuba" she calls out.

"Why are you doing this to me" I ask holding her hand. She shrugs her shoulders avoiding eye
contact.

"I don't know" she says in what comes out as a whisper,I nod and try feeding her again,she
opens her mouth this time but takes time to swallow. She finishes after what seems like forever, I
spend most of my time cleaning her up and making sure she's okay.
"Take these it's for the pain" she gladly takes them and drinks her water. She puts both her
hands on either side of my cheeks and kisses my forehead.

" I love you Khuba" she says still holding me with her soft hands.

"But not enough to walk away" I say pulling away.

The house is quiet everyone seems to be busy today, it's days like this that I feel some sense of
peace. I think Baba will be back very late today that gives mama sometime to relax and have
time to herself. My phone rings bringing me back to the land of the living,I look at the screen
and Sandile's name appears.

"Sthandwa sam" he says on the other end.

"Muntu wam" he laughs out loud when I say that.

"How are you Sthandwa sam"

"I am good just tired"

"Are you coming to the wedding rehearsal tonight" he asks in a lower tone.

"I don't know Sandile, I don't think Baba will agree" I say.

"Khuba please I just want to see you that's all" he says.

"Okay I will think about it"

"Thank you Sthandwa sam" he says sounding more happier.I end the call with a smile on my
face,I met Sandile in school and he's been my boyfriend ever since.

I quickly take a bath and wear a long grey dress and tie a head wrap around my head.

MaV is already cooking in the kitchen and it smells great,this is partly why she was hired to
stand in for Ma when things got sour.

"Why are you looking at me like that ufunani" she asks wiping her hands.

"Ngiya emfundelweni" I say smiling pretty hard.

"Hayi Khuba did you speak to you father" she asks frowning. I shake my head bit not my mind.

"No I doubt he'll be home early today" I say grabbing an apple.

"Okay but be careful please" she says smiling.

"Don't worry ngihamba noMimi" she laughs and throwing head back.
"Tell that one not to corrupt you okay phela I know her" she says raising her eye brows.

"Come on Mimi is a saint" I say with the loudest laugh ever. I receive a text from her telling me
she's outside,I grab another apple and walk out . There's a car outside the gate and Mimi comes
out we share and hug a share a hug and get inside, I just knew the Madonsela boys would be
here I am disappointed though that Sandile is not here.

"Khululeka skoni your man is waiting for you ekhaya" Sanele says smiling,he is Sandile's brother
and Mimi's boyfriend. So basically we happen to be friends dating brother sounds corny I know.
I can't help but blush I really miss Sandile,it's a fair distance to their house so we arrive in no
time. I see a lot of young girls and guys gathered here,we all know that some aren't here for
rehearsals but for adventures way bigger than us.I look for Sandile till I spot him he smiles when
he sees me.

"Sthandwa" he says spinning me arond,he then puts me down and kisses me deeply.I try
pushing him off but he holds me tight,him of all people knows we should be doing this in
public. He pulls me all the way to the back of the hut.

"It's dark here no one will see us" he says smashing his lips on mine,I respond to the kiss and
caresses wanting more.

"I missed you" he says pulling away.

"I missed you too" I say catching my breath. He pulls me back into his warm arms holding me
tighter, we both hear songs being sung but neither of us moves.

"Khuba I want to send my uncles to your father" he says hesitantly still holding me.

"I love you Khuba and i want to marry you" he says, silence sparks between us I don't know what
to say this is huge. We hear a lot of commotion coming from the front, I hear my name being
called out and my father's voice roaring. We both rush to see what's going and my father is
barking at Mimi, I rush to her aid only to have him grab me by my arm.

He drives home hurling insults at me. Calling me all sorts of names he can think of. "Mavis" she
shouts her name as soon we get inside the house.

"Baba" she says appearing from her bedroom.

"Themba why are you shouting huh,why can't you be a peaceful man" she asks sofly.

"Why don't you ask your daughter" he says dragging me to the guestroom.

"I didn't do anything Ma" my shaky voice comes out. I slump down my bums hitting the floor.

"Sukuma" he shouts angrily.

"No" I say looking at his eyes that are blazing with anger.
"Okay awungazi kahle" he says attempting to pick me up,I hold on to the door frame hoping he
will give up.

"Ma" I cry out looking at her.

"Themba please don't do this" she begs.

"So you are the one that sent her to that Madonsela boy" he asks slapping her,she looses her
balance but MaV holds her just in time.

He eventually picks me up and throws me on the bed. Telling me to take off my dress I do as I
am told,my eyes not leaving my mother who is just standing there weeping.

"Mavis" she walks in and and goes in between my legs inspecting me.

"She's still sealed" she says looking down.

"Phumani" he says closing the door behind them,he comes up to me and does what he knows
best and inspects me himself. As always I feel humiliated and dirty,I don't understand what just
happened. I guess me attending umkhosi womhlanga isn't enough for him.

"I just don't want these boys touching you" he says.

"I hate you" I say tears streaming down,I pull up my panty. He walks out and leaves the door
open, Ma rushes in and attempts to comfort me.

"Don't touch me" I say shrieking.

"Khuba I am sorry" she says trying to put her hand over my shoulder.

"Don't you dare touch me okay" I shout pushing her away,I stay curled up on the coner of this
bed memories flooding my brain.

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#2

Khubelihle

If there's anything I could do,I would leave this house faster than anything I know. I would leave
and never turn back, but with what money. I spent all my savings on medical bills till I was
cleaned out. That's when Khumbu called my mother even though I asked her not to do it,I knew
this would would complicate things. I mean I would have been transferred to a public hospital
recovered and moved on with mylife. These past few months I have been here have been hell. I
have cries myself to sleep more days than I can count. I remember when he first touched me,I
just laid there and lost my voice. I couldn't move, I listened to him breathe heavily while his
hands moved around my body.I mean the man the taken the phrase "Isibaya sikababa" literal.
There were days where he would fondle me and I wouldn't fight him,he would be be a happy
man days on end and Mama would be spared off his wrath. I take out my phone and call the
person who understands, It's rings for a while before she picks it up.

"This better be good I was about to come" she says sounding out if breath. I mean who leaves
sex just to answer a phone, I haven't had it but my body has reacted to a man's touch before.

"It's okay we can do this some other time" I say.

"Don't you dare,I just missed out on an orgasm now spill" she says. "Don't tell me that pig
touched you again khuba" she asks in a panic.

"I just wanted to hear your voice that's all" I lie,it's better than saying hey my father just fiddled
with my vigina.

"Don't lie khuba" she says softly,I think that's my cue to cry because my tears just flow.

"It's not that bad but I feel dirty Khumbu,I bathed but still.Why does he do this to me" I break
down because she's also crying.

"Khuba you are old now,you need go take a stand report this man and leave that house" she
says forgetting that the last time I reported him the same cop that was handling my case. I
found him having lunch with my father laughing like old friends that's how messed up and
corrupt our justice system is.

"What about my mother" she let's out a dry chuckle.

"How long are you going to be there for that women,when she fails to be there for you.Khuba
you have a scar on your back because that man used ucelemba on you" her voice trails off,I
remember that day as if it was yesterday I tried to protect her and be her shield. That's the I love
my mother and I still feel the need to protect her.

"Khubelihle that man has abused you physically,emotionally and mentally. Please don't let him
take away what's left of you" she says.

"I promise as soon as I get a job I will leave and never look back" I say.

"I lobe you khuba" she says.

"I love you too khumbulani" I end the call feeling a lighter,there's something about talking and
crying that makes you feel okay.

I feel like one of those women in abused relationships who stay and can't walk away.

I have questioned my mother's ways till I couldn't,it was pointless to say the least.
I doze of as soon my head hits the pillow,it's not long till I hear screams and things breaking.
The banging on my door is persistent and brutal, I search for the key but it's nowhere to be
found. I think the whole community is listening to our everyday domestic clash our houses
aren't that far apart.

"Open the door khuba" he shouts from the outside.

"Themba yeka ingane" my mother's says.

"Just give me the key and move out of my way" he says shouting.I guess she took the key it's
probably for the best because I would have opened up just to avoid some noise. The screams
get louder and louder,I try calling Sandile but he doesn't answer,after a while he sends me a text

"I am still busy will call when I am done" I pull out my Russian bear stash and drink just to get
some sleep.I was hoping we would talk,and I would tell him about me considering his proposal.

Thulisile Mhlongo

If there's ever one thing I have done in this life right, was to fail my daughter time after time. I
have failed to protect her from Themba so many times. I don't know what went wrong between
us,he was once a loving caring man but all that has turned into evil. Yesterday he really did a
number on me but I am used to it. I know i sound selfish but a part of me is glad the accident
happened, because she's home although she's nolonger the same the person she was. She once
tried to commit suicide, and I went further down the bottle. I couldn't face life without her I just
couldn't. Khuba has carried my burdens and tears,and I know it's too much for such a you
person like her.

The door opens and he walks in,he settles next to me and takes my hand.

"Thuli" he says releasing a sigh.

"Mhlongo" he gives me smile.

"I am sorry sthandwa sam" he says.

"For what exactly molesting my daughter or beating me up" he sighs bowing his head.

"For everything, I don't know what came over me" he says kissing me. "I just get jealous and act
out of character" he says

"Uyazizwa ukuthi ithini" I ask.

"Thuli please I love you and just talk to khuba for me" he says.
"Okay"

" I love you Thuli" he says kissing me.

"I love you too Mhlongo" I say pulling.

He walks out and I follow after him. I unlock Khuba's door and start with opening her curtains
and windows,she sees me and pulls the covers her head.

I decide to tidy up,I spot a few bottles under her head.

"Yini le" I ask pulling the covers.

"Those are bottles" she says with a attitude.

"Usayaphuza wena manje" I ask my voice rising.

"It's better than having to listen to you and your husband making noise" she says her voice
matching mine. I know how the life of an alcoholic starts, you drink to forget then it becomes an
escape. Then it becomes your home,friend,comforter,lover and many more.

"Ufunani futhi la" she asks.

"Your father is sorry about lastnight" I say being the goody wife and bad mother.

"I knew it" she says shaking her head.

"Please I don't want to fight with you" I say.

"When will you stand up for yourself huh,when will you chose me and fight for me,Ma please
leave him choose us" she says,I can't even answer her.

"It's not that simple" I say, I have never worked in my entire life and I doubt I can do it on my
own of I left. I love Themba despite everything else he's my husband.

"I will take care of you I promise" she says with her eyes glistening with tears.

"I know you would my baby" I kiss her forehead and walk out.

Khubelihle

It's the weekend and finally the Madonsela wedding is taking place. I am wearing a simple peach
dress I just decided not to take part in any of the events that will take place. All I want to do is
see Sandile. He hasn't called or said anything,if I didn't know better I would say he is avoiding
me. Baba is also attending the wedding meaning he's driving us there. The silence in this car
could send a mad person right into a mental institution. He parks outside the yard I am the first
one to get off, the place is packed with beautiful cars and people. I see the grooms family on the
side and the brides on the side,it's a beautiful sight the bride looks young and beautiful.I spot
Sanele and run to him.

"Hau Skoni" he says looking around.

"Sanele I can't see Sandile is he here" he fumbles on his words and attempts to walk away. I grab
him by his arm tighter.

"Sanele" I say through gritted teeth,he looks over to the grooms family.I follow his eyes and they
land on Sandile by the looks of things he's the the one getting married.

His eyes find mine, I look at him long and hard as he stands up leaving his bride.I rush for the
gate as I hear exaggerated gasps and whistles. He stops me by holding my hand,I try yanking it
away but his grip is tighter and painful.

"Khuba please don't go" he says,the audacity to asking me not to go.

"What's going on Sandile" I ask,I feel overwhelmed by all these eyes on me.

"I meant what I said,marry me and be my second wife" he says pulling me closer to him.

"I don't believe you I seriously don't, ungayenza kanjani into enje kimima" he looks around and
let's go of me.

"I am sorry" he says.

"Sorry won't fix this it won't fix anything Sandile,ngiyisilima sakho neh" he shakes his head
bowing it.

"Ubaba ongiphoqile" he says looking up,I can't believe Sandile just betrayed me like this.

"Sandile just stop" I half shout wiping my tears.

"I didn't mean to hurt you" he says wiping his.

"But you did" I look up and people are staring some taking pictures.I can't believe I was so
caught up in my world I didn't realise what was happening around me. I was so caught up in my
mess that I ignored the whispers and gossips,I just humiliated myself in front of all those people.
I fix my glass and walk away leaving him standing in there. But then again I never asked who was
getting married,I was just happy to be with him.

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Khubelihle

It's been days and I have been drinking myself to sleep. I promised myself that I would not
follow into my mother's footsteps,but with the way things are going I am slowly falling into the
dark pit. I know she started drinking to forget and pretend as if things are normal. And I on the
other hand drink just to forget the pain. I know this will not change things but the few hours
make such a huge difference. I deleted picture i took with Sandile and only left one, it's hard
letting go and accepting reality. But if there's one thing I know,I am not the sharing type. I refuse
to share the man I love with someone else. I still can't believe he hurt me like this,he didn't even
think twice he just threw years away just like that.

My under the bed stash is gone and all the pills around his house,I guess Mama saw it best to
remove harmful substances away from me. That women nerve ceases to amaze me,she's allowed
to drink till kindom comes but not me. Luckly I still have a full bottle of southern comfort,I take a
few gulps and wipe my mouth, I look at my vibrating phone and Khumbu's name appears on the
screen.

"Khumbu" my voice is even but then again there's nothing to be jolly about.

"Hey how are you feeling today" she asks.

"As hurt as I can be" I say taking another sip.

"I am sorry" she says, I know she means it.

"Don't be these things happen" I say letting out a dry chuckle like she always does.

"Khuba talk to me" her voice is pleading.

"There's nothing to talk about,empeleni there's nothing left for me here" she goes silent on me
just breathing.

"Khuba let just go to my Gobela and deal with Sandile the traditional way" she says causing me
to laugh.

"His father would just return the things back to its doer" I say.

"My Gobela is strong but okay let's go after the wife ke" she says laughing harder.

"She didn't do anything hawu" I say ceasing my laugh.

"I hear you but remember to pray okay" she says softly if only she knew my faith faded,it faded
the day my father walked into my bedroom at night took off his clothes and cuddled with me.

I chuck that memory to the back of my mind and find my way out if the bed. I have been
avoiding my parents all week long,I just don't have anything to say to them. I remember being
torn when it came to my feelings towards my parents, well now I know better as much as I love
then I need to be away.

I have been staring at this bowl of cornflakes,nothing seems to go down or maybe it's because
of the alcohol on me. My parents are in a happy mood today,the sight of them smooching
makes me want to puke. Lord they are even holding hands.

"Khuba you haven't touched your food" she says smiling.

"I am not hungry Ma" she sighs then looks at my father.

"Khuba you need to eat please" he says camly.

"Baba I said I am not hungry" I say burping,I see my father frowning. He stands up and pulls me
by my hand to stand up,he smells my breath and roughly sits me down.

"Bengingazi ukuthi ngifuye izidakwa lay'khaya" he says shaking his head.

"Kahle Themba" she says camly.

"Yini Thuli you want her to be just like you" he asks.

"Of course not but she's hurting" she says coming to my side.

"Hurting!that boy did her a favour" he shouts.

"You really don't care that I am hurting do you, as long as no one gets to touch what's supposed
to be fricken yours" he raises his hand but stops midway from slapping me.

"Do it,it wouldn't be the first the time" I say standing up.

"Khuba" Mama calls out,trying to sit me back down I yank my hand from her and storm out.

I walk all the way to Etsheni that's where I met Sandile,I almost turn back when I see him
approaching.

"Ungajiki" he says,I proceed till we meet.

"How are you" he asks,I roll my eyes because of that annoying question.

"What do you want Sandile" I ask.

"I am sorry Khubelihle please forgive me" he says.

"I will never forgive you so save your breath" I turn around but he holds my hand pulling me
closer to him.I hit his chest and get drunk in his cologne.

"Please forgive me" he whispers in my ear.

"Please don't ask that of me" I say pulling away. "Despite everything else Sandile I was still able
to love you and just turned out to be like all men" I wipe my one tear and laugh.

"What do you mean" he asks with a frown.

"It doesn't matter anymore" I sigh walking away.

"Khubelihle I love you and I won't give up" he shouts behind me.

Khumbulani

I have been looking for jobs in the area for Khuba,I have been looking at job posts but nothing
is coming up. I need her out of that house or I will lose her,Khubelihle is one of those people
who never judged me nor questioned my living. I didn't grow up with rich parents like
Khuba,but still I grew up in a happy home. We met at UKZN I was the odd one out,but she was
the broken one hiding behind a smile. My mother put me through university with a domestic
worker's pay. But school wasn't really my thing,I prefer being taken care off like the lady that I
am.

"When did you come back" My mom asks bringing me a cup of coffee.

"Thank you ma" I say taking the cup.

"Khumbu when did you get back" she asks again.

"Very late ma" I respond,she shakes her head and opens my curtains.

"You know our neighbour is looking for a babysitter" she says moving around.

"Babysitter" I ask.

"Yebo they are looking for full time live-in nanny" she says looking at me.

"I was hoping you would talk to Khuba to take the job till something better comes along" she
says smiling.

I quickly dial Khuba's number it rings for a while till she answers.
"I got you a job" a scream follows from her,after I have said that.

"What are you serious" she asks.

"It's not much but it pays" I say sounding disappointed on her behalf.

"It's okay right now I will take any job" she says more calmer.

"I will send you the details then we will talk" I say yawning,partying all night isn't child's play.

"Thank you Khumbu"she says sweetly,I end the call before she sheds some tears. I have to
prepare her for our neighbours,those people are dodgy as fuck.

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#4

Khumbulani

I haven't seen Khuba in such a long time,but she is still the same beautiful sexy quantum I have
always known. She still has that soft beautiful skin and her smile is still warm and inviting,I have
been staring at her for quite some time now. Khuba is not tall or short just in the middle with a
fair ass and beautiful legs,my girl wears glasses and they suit her perfectly.

"Stop staring it's creepy" she says offering me a smile.

"Nawe why are you beautiful kodwa" I ask.

"Oh please says my beautiful educated slay queen" she says laughing.

"Remember our kiss" I ask flashing her a smile,she blushes and looks away. I once kissed her
back in the day I wanted to taste her lips so bad.

"How can I forget we were both drunk but the kiss was bomb" she says wiggling her eyebrows.

"I missed you" I say,I can't imagine the pain she's been through in that house.

"I've missed you too and thank you for looking out for me" she says.

"Anything for you" I say focusing on the road.

"About the job it's not glamorous okay,but it's something" I say.
"It's okay just tell me what they are looking for" she says smiling.

"The Zungu's are baaically looking for a glorified nanny,someone who will stay at their house
and probably go home on weekends that's all" I say.

"How much does it pay" she asks fixing her glasses.

"That's the thing these people will pay you R12000 a month" she raises her eyesbrows and
laughs.

"You are joking right" she asks.

"No they are private people hence the money" she tilts her head and frowns.

"What do you mean" she asks.

"All I am saying is you have to mind your own business,whatever happens in there stays there"
she nods.

"Sounds like they are dodgy people but okay whatever you say" she says,that's exactly what I
think about the Zungu's they are rich but I believe there's more to it.

"And the most fun part is that we are going to be neighbours" I say sounding excited.

"So how are things between you and john" she asks looking at me.

"Since he bought me the house things have been amazing,well I give it to him in all the kinky
exciting ways" she laughs shaking her head.

"Okay muntu ka John" says pursing her lips.

"It's not that bad you know,he takes care of me and I take care of him" I say.

"Don't you want more Khumbu" she asks smiling.

"Sometimes just not all the time" I say still looking ahead,of course I want more but things aren't
that simple. I am not made like khuba people who work hard and have patience.

"But you know that I am happy when you are" she says sweetly.

Thulisile

I haven't seen Khuba all morning,nor did I hear her bathing. I know she likes sleeping but it's
midday and still she's not awake. I know she's avoiding us at all cost but despite everything,we
are still her parents and we love her. I hate the tension in this house,I hate seeing her miserable
but things are what they are.
"Mavis have you seen Khuba" I ask.

"I haven't seen her sisi but I can go check" she offers politely.

"It's okay I will go" I stand up and head to her bathroom,I knock a few times before walking in.
Her bed is done nice and tidy,the room is clean and most of her things are nowhere to be seen. I
hold my breath looking around her clothes are gone.

"Mavis" I call out in a panicked voice,she rushes to the bedroom and stops on her tracks just
before she enters.

"What's wrong sisi" she asks.

"She's gone" I say swallowing a lump on my throat.

"Gone,whose gone" she asks.

"My baby is gone all her clothes are gone Mavis" I say holding my tears from spilling.

"Hayi not Khuba she wouldn't go without saying goodbye" she says helping me sit on the bed.

"Well she's gone my daughter is gone Mavis" I say letting the tears fall.

"Try calling her" she says camly.

"You're right i should call" I say taking out my phone, dialing her but it puts me straight to voice
mail.I end up leaving a massage.

"Khuba mtanami please come home,we can fix this I know we can. Please call me back I love
you"

"Don't worry sis Khuba will be back home" she says holding me.

"This is all my fault,I pushed her away" I say admiting the truth,she doesn't say anything but we
all know it's the truth.

"I don't mean to sound insensitive,but it's true you chose your husband over your own flesh and
blood, even when khuba laid in a pool of her own blood you still chose that man,I watched that
man break the two of you but mostly the same daughter you now cry for,Thulisile you did
nothing because your love for that man has blinded you to the truth. Don't cry because it was
bound to happen,don't sit here and pretend as if you care about the poor child" she says her
words are partly true but harsh.

"You don't know what I am going through so don't judge" I say in retaliation.

"There you go making it all about yourself,why don't you see that the child was tired and
hurting" she says breaking down. "Do you think I enjoyed being in this house and always
inspecting her like she is some loose girl,I stayed because of her and now that she's gone nami
ngiyahamba" she says wiping her tears.
"Khuba did the right thing by leaving this house" she says.

"Khuba did what" we both look at the door and Themba is standing there.

Khubelihle

I haven't seen such beauty in one place,this house is huge and beautiful inside and out. The lady
of the house has been showing me around,I don't think I can get used to this humongous
house. It's like one of those Indian houses that accommodate lots of people. There's also a
cottage outside and workers quarters.

Khumbu hasn't left my sight and the sounds she makes each time we walk into a different room
is embarrassing.

We finally come back and settle on the lounge,this women is beautiful and light in complexion. I
notice she's not the thanks God I am yellow kind.

"Can I offer you anything to drink" she asks.

"No thank you Ma" I say,Khumbu nudges me using her elbow.

"We would love some tea Ma" she says shyly. Mrs Zungu pours is tea in those small expensive
cups,I think that's why Khumbu suggested tea just to touch the cups,hayi my friend is dramatic.

"So tell me about yourself sisi" she says still smiling.

"Well my name is Zamakhuba Khubelihle Mhlongo,I am a qualified teacher and I love kids" I say
nervously.

"So if you are qualified why aren't you working" she asks.

"I was involved in an accident and that put me off for a few months" I say.

"I am sorry to hear that Khuba,well we are looking for someone to look after my granson full
time,his parents are busy people and I am not home most of the time. The pay is a considerable
amount and if you want more we can negotiate,all that is required from you is loyalty and
discretion just like all oour employees of course" she says handing me what looks like a contract.

"Take a look at this ready to comprehend and sign" I look at Khumbu who nods.

"Does this mean I get the job Mam" I ask already on the verge of screaming.

"I like you and the job is yours if you want it" she says politely.

"Thank you so much Mam,I really appreciate this ngempela" I say holding my tears from falling.
"It's only a pleasure to offer young people jobs and please call me Ma" she says standing up,she
walks to the other room and comes back holding a baby cute baby boy.

"This is our champ Lwazi" she says handing the baby.

"He's so cute bakithi" Khumbu says playing with him,I don't even need to think twice I am taking
this job.

"Consider the contract signed" I say looking at baby Lwazi.

Zwilakhe Zungu

My day has been hectic and tense,things around the office are just messed up. Even my mother
has been calling me all day long, I don't know what could be so urgent that she call me,why not
call her husband.

She knows that when we are working we are just doing that working, I listen to all the massages
she has left me,and in all of them she tells me to call her.

"Zwi ka mama" she says happily,I am one of four boys but still she treats me like a child.

"Ma what's wrong" I ask leaning back on my chair.

"That's no way to speak to your mother" she says sounding down.

"Sorry ma how are you" I ask sighing.

"That's better I am okay,how are you" she's asks,this is dragging unecessarily and I don't want to
sound rude.

"Ma I am okay but work is hectic and your husband is working us like slaves" I say.

"Okay sorry yezwa baba but that's not why I called" I laugh at how she puts it.

"Okay why did you call then" I ask.

"I found a nanny for Lwazi,and I think she's perfect" she says.

"I hope we won't have a problem with this one too" I say.

"Trust me we won't have anything like that,and she's beautiful I tell you" she says excitedly.

"Ma her beauty won't look after my child" I say.

"I was just saying Zwi" she says laughing.

"Okay ma thank you" I say exhausted,I love my son and all but today is one hectic day to be
thinking about non important things such as child minder.

"Tell your brother's I love them" she says.

"We love you too Ma" I say ending the call,women and their need to share things.

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Khubelihle

I have been here for a week and this women has been kind,smothering with love and all sorts of
affection. I don't know why they hired me because mostly she has Lwazi on her arms,oh little
Lwazi the baby is like eight or seven months old and he's the cutest thing I have ever seen.

I have grown fond of him in such a little space of time,my heart does mini flips every time he
smiles and doesn't want to let go. I am taking him to the doctor today nothing serious just a
check up,I make my way the house since I am occupying the cottage. Mrs Zungu suggested I
use it just for my own privacy, not that I will entertain or have guests over.

I walk in and there's a man in a pair of boxer shorts making breakfast,I hesitate but end up
clearing my throat. He gradually turns looking my way,I see he's not that old probably younger
than me but he's tall and handsome.

"Morning" I say still looking at him.

"Morning you must be Khubelihle right" he says moving around,I follow his every move. I really
want to ask who he is but then again this is not my home.

"Yes I am" I say.

"Well I am the man of this house,when the husband is not around of course" he says giving me
a side smile. I look at him from head to toe,could he be Mrs Zungu's toy boy.I think he sees the
shock on my face because he laughs real hard shaking his head.

"Are you perhaps Ma's uhm friend" I ask stumbling on my words.

"Hold up that's not what I meant,my name is Bongamusa last born to khulekani and Lindokuhle
Zungu.I am the most handsome and smart out of the four of us.Baba tends to disagree but I
mean look at me,the old man had to up his game and and impress Ma" he pauses just bit and
carries on. "The old man messed up when it comes to my brothers,but atleast ungizamile ke
mina with the looks" he sighs heavily like his father disappointed him by supposedly failing all
his brother. I can't stop laughing because of his face.

"So you have other brothers" I ask.

"Unfortunately yes Lindani,Lungani and Zwilakhe" he says.

"Don't you like your brothers" I ask.

"No offence I have my love,like and hate days for them" he says softly laughing.

"You know what they say,you can choose friends but can't say the same about family" I say.

"Where are my manners come and sit" he says smiling.

"I can't I need to take Lwazi for his check up" I say politely.

"You and your beauty just made me forget my well practised speech" he says sighing.

"Speach" I ask bringing bringing my eye brows together.

"Ma said you shouldn't worry about Lwazi,she took him to the doctor so yeah that's my speech"
he says like he just takes his brain,I look at him again why isn't excusing himself to go get
dressed.

"Khululeka sis khuba,as I said I am the man of the house for now. So I am allowed to walk
around half naked no biggy" he says plating up.

"You are something else" I say laughing.

"I know come let's eat" he says giving a smile,I somehow get that he's the free spirited child in
the family,funny kind and warm. I watch him plate more food for the both of us,it looks and
tastes good.

I listen to him ramble about people and mostly his family.

"So tell me about yourself" he says smiling.

"Well there's nothing to tell" I honestly say.

"Come on such a beautiful lady like you,who wears glasses. Are you a spy or something" I burst
out laughing.

"Why would I be spy" I ask.

"Well there's two things about beautiful ladies and glasses,either you are a geek or a plain sexy
spy" he says shrugging his shoulders,I think Bongamusa watches to many movies.
"Why can't I be beautiful and shortsighted" he looks taken aback by my statement.

"So kahle kahle awuboni" he asks laughing.

"I can see perfectly just not things that are far" he nods but laughs again,I can't help but join in.

"Umuhle mahala awuboni" he says still laughing,I slightly push him using my hand.

"It's not that bad" I say in my defence.

"I am joking,but for real though you are beautiful" he says looking at me.

"Thank you Musa" he smiles.

"I think this is a sign that I should marry you,phela only family calls me that. So what do you say
uyangishada" he asks.

"You are crazy" I say laughing.

"Mhmm okay lento engaboni" he looks at me and laughs. Now I know I have found a friend in
Musa,he's such a ball of energy and fun.

Lindokuhle

I decided to take Lwazi myself,I didn't want to wake Khuba up. She looked so peaceful in her
sleep less agitated and tired. I am not a reader of mind or anything like that,but I can tell she's
been through something deep. I was surprised when khumbu offered to help me look for a
person,I thought she would bring one of her loose cannon friends,I like Khumbu she's a kind
child but I don't approve of her lifestyle. But then again who am I to judge,my family has it's own
share of problems.

This one is on my arms but he's mood kids of today. The doctor mentioned something of an
injection,today we are not sleeping I know he will cry all night long. The nurse ushers me into
the doctor's ward,I take out my phone and call Zwi.

"Mfan' wam" I say.

"Sthandwa sam" Khulekani's voice comes through.I instantly blush

"Baba"I say.

"How are you mkami" he says.

"I am okay baba but I miss you guys" I say looking at the doctor whose smiling.
"But you just called your son,who is busy" he says laughing.

"To be busy to talk to me,is that what you're saying" I ask.

"Of course not but he gave me his phone,nawe funda kwezakho" he says.

"Am I such a disturbing factor that he doesn't want to talk to me" I ask.

"No but you should've called me instead,I would be loving you over the phone but I can't do
that your son's are here" he says chuckling,I smile so hard my cheeks burn.

"I will call you later baba"I say softly.

"Okay I love you" he says,I look at this young doctor I can't believe I am about to respond.

"I love you too Zungu" I say. "Now give my son the phone" he does exactly that.

"Mama" he says camly,my son doesn't say much out of the four of them.

"Zwilakhe who gave birth to you" I ask.

"You did Ma" he says camly.

"How many months were you inside me" I know he hates this.

"10 exhausting months" he says, I hear laughter in the background.

"Okay so do you think I deserve such a treatment from you huh" I ask.

"Ma please" he says.

"Answer me Zwi and make if fast, I want to speak to my other sons" I say.

"No you don't and I am sorry ma" he says.

"I understand yezwa khehla" I say,I hear him grunting.

"Ma why did you call" he asks,I feel my heart break when he does this. I feel like I gave most of
my love to his siblings,as I said he doesn't talk much and I felt like he never needed me not that
I didn't give him love. But I feel like it was never enough.

"I just wanted to let you know that everything is okay with Lwazi" he goes silent for a few
seconds.

"Where are you" he asks.

"At the doctor's" I say.

"Why didn't his nanny take him" he ask.

"She's busy and I didn't want to disturb her" I say.

"Ma taking care of Lwazi is her job,that's what we pay her for. I don't think I like this new girl
infact I think she's taking advantage just like the rest of them" he says.

"It wouldn't be her job if that gold digging girlfriend of yours cared,you are making me angry
Zwilakhe" I click my tongue getting all worked.

"Put me on louder speaker,I need to talk to my other babies" I say.

"Bo Zungu" I say more calmer.

"Mama" they simultaneously say,nothing warms my heart than knowing my boys are safe.

"How's your father and his stubborn son treating you" I ask.

"Ma we are fine relax" Lungani says.

"I love you bafana bam" I say.

"We love you too Mama" Lindani says.

"Okay bye" I say ending the call.

Lwazi is fast asleep in his car seat,I had to hold him while that doctor injected him. My poor
grandson he's in pain,just looking at him breaks my heart. I drive in and spot Musa's car still in
the driveway,I walk inside holding a sleeping Lwazi.

He meets me half way and takes him from me,he goes up to put him down and cones back to
give me a hug. If there's one thing I taught Musa is to love and see beyond looks, unlike my
oldest they have their father's mentality. They don't trust easily and they can be ruthless,but at
least my baby is a kind soul.

"Thumbu kahle mama" he pulls away and faintly smiles.

"What's wrong" I ask.

"I don't know but Khuba is locked up in her house,I think she's been crying ma" he says.

"What happened" I ask.

"That's the thing I don't know please go and find out,phela akaboni kahle so something might
be seriously wrong" I laugh a bit,I know he's trying to lighten things up.

"Don't play like that" I say walking out to the cottage. I knock a few times bit she doesn't
respond,I open the door and make my way in she's on the couch hogging her phone,I sit next to
her and lift her head up.

"What's wrong sisi" I ask.

"Nothing Ma" she says sweetly,she's got a beautiful voice I wonder if she can sing.

"Then why were you crying"I ask wiping fresh tears on her cheeks.

"I just miss home Ma that's all" she says looking down.

"Then go spend time home this weekend" she quickly shakes her head.

"It's okay ma,I will be fine promise" she says smiling, I nod and give her a hug.

"Come let's go and eat Musa cooked" I say.

Thulisile

I called Khuba today,I tried to reason with her and she wasn't having it. She wasn't harsh but her
words really hurt me " I am not coming back home you chose him over me over us" these words
are still ringing in my ear.

This house is suddenly cold,I miss her so much. I miss putting my hands on her soft beautiful
face,I miss my beautiful angel.

"Did you call her" Themba asks.

"No" I say.

"Then why are you crying" he asks annoyed.

"So i am not supposed to cry in my own house without being left alone" I ask.

"I am just concerned" he says.

"Concerned" I say laughing. "If your were concerned you wouldn't have driven our daughter
away" I say standing up.

"Thuli calm down" he says.

"Calm down yokunuka Themba" I say furiously driven by hurt.

"I won't talk to you when you are like this" he says walking away.

"That's because the truth hurts what did I ever do to you, to make you want to rape our own
daughter" I say pushing him he doesn't do or say anything,but I can tell the monster in him is
baying for blood.

"Our daughter hates me,us do you get that" I shout

"I hate you Themba" I say hitting him on the chest,he holds me tight I allow him too, because
deep down I know this is probably the first and the last time he will hold me like he cares. I allow
him because this is the probably the first and last time he won't retaliate.

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Khubelihle

I don't know what happened yesterday,What I mean is I have been in this house for a week full
and this is the second week fast approaching the weekend. I like it here it's less dramatic and
cold,Mam Lindo is amazing with everything. For the fist time in such a long one I feel loved,it
may be the fact that I am taking care of her grandson and she has to be nice. But either way I
feel loved by her, I don't want to be attached though because this job is temporary.

Yesterday I thought I could handle my mother's call,I thought I would be able to talk to her
without feeling too much hurt. I guess I was wrong because the moment I heard her voice,I just
broke down I couldn't hold it anymore. I miss her so much that i even considered going home
just to see her. I know she's proven to love her husband more than me,but she's still my mother
and I love her. I wish I could look at her and not feel anything,I wish I could hate her with
everything but lord have mercy I can't.

I quickly wipe my tears before they spill on these voetkook.

I woke early today and decided to make them with mince and cheese, there's also juice and fruit
salad for Mrs Zungu.

They both come all cleaned up and looking good.

"Morning" I say.

"Morning sthandwa sam" Mam Lindo says.

"Lento engaboni" Musa says smiling,he looks at the table and shakes his head.

"Yini Musa" Ma asks.

"I think I love Khuba Ma,bheka lamagwinya" he says.

"Well mina I don't think but know that I love her" she says looking at me.
"Okay asidleni ke" he says sitting down.

"Give Lwazi to me sisi you must be tired" she says.

"It's okay Ma,I have already bathed and fed him,he just wants to sleep now" I say.

"Do you have kids of your own" Musa asks.

"No I don't" I say sipping on my juice.

"Even if she did I doubt it's any of your business" Ma says laughing.

"So do you have a boyfriend" he asks looking at me straight in the eye.

"Uhm yes I mean no..no I don't have a boyfriend" I say.

"I think you should say complicated rather than yes and no" he says shrugging his shoukders. I
look at Mam Lindo who gives me a faint smile.

"He got married to another women while dating me and had the nerve to ask me to be his
second wife" I say just to ease Mam Lindo,there's silence in the table.

"Ini" Ma asks.

"Uphi,where is he from" Musa asks all worked up.

"It okay these things happen" I say in a low tone.

"Hayi is it because you can't see properly" he asks smiling,we all burst out laughing.

"Maybe I just don't know" I say honestly.

"Do you still love him" Ma asks holding my hand,that's a tough one. I look at her then Musa
whose narrowing his eyes.

"It's okay sisi you don't have to answer us" she says softly.

Musa walks in and throws himself on my couch,yes my cottage beautiful couch. He switches off
the TV and looks at me.

"Is there something wrong" I ask.

"No" he says.

"Then why switch the TV off" I ask.

"Something I learned from bhuti when he wants to get something across,not that he has too
because his presence alone is enough" he says sighing.

"Why do you sigh so much" I ask.

"Because everything in life is a drag" he says doing it again.

"Okay" I say.

"Now that you are quiet, I wanted to tell you my love story" he says smiling.

"Well khuluma hau" I say.

"My girlfriend dumped me for one of my friends, apparently I wasn't moneyed enough" I tilt my
head that girl must have been hit on the head. "Don't judge okay she didn't know,point is
though she really hurt me and I loved her case closed" I lightly laugh,but honestly get that he
was heartbroken.

"How did you move on" I ask.

"I got myself a more beautiful mapakisha,whose kind hearted and all" he says smiling.

"Do you love her" I ask.

"I think I do,she loves me for who I am and not my family's money what I am trying to get across
is that,you will heal okay and the guy is a fool" he says pulling me for a hug.

"Thank you Musa" I say.

Zwilakhe

Cape Town hasn't been so kind to me,this constant change of weather has me sick will all kind
of things.I miss home and my queen,I know her smothering comes from a place of love but for
the love of God I am old. I think she sometimes forgets that I have a son and girlfriend. But I
didn't like the way that call went,she didn't even say goodbye to me. I take out my phone and
decide to call her,it doesn't even ring for that long.

"Zwi" she says softly

"Sawbona ma" I say.

"How are you my boy" she asks.

"I am good I just miss you and Lwazi" I say.

"We miss you too baba,but your father says things are fixed meaning you are coming back on
the weekend" she says.
"I really hope so,this place is making me sick" I say.

"Oh khehla what's wrong"she asks.

"It's just flue and Ma you need to stop calling me that" I say.

"You will always be my baby Zwilakhe all of you and I don't care what you say"she says.

"I know,how are things at home" I ask.

"Perfect everything is perfect" she says happily,I hear some laughter in the background and my
whole surrounding comes to a stand still.

"Zwi are you still there" she asks,I snap out of whatever daze I was just in.

"Ma who's that" I ask.

"Oh I hope she's not loud,that's Khubelihle busy laughing with Lwazi" she says.

"No she's not loud at all Ma" I say.

"Khuba sisi say hello to my son" she says on the other end,I can't believe this woman.

"Sawbona bhuti" she says from the far end

Dammit her voice is beautiful,I think Ma put me on speaker I can't even respond.

"Zwilakhe" she calls out.

"Ma" I say.

"Cha uhlaza you can't even say hello" she says sounding disappointed.

"I am sorry Ma,I wasn't paying attention" I say.

"Mhm okay,tell me why did you call khehla" she asks softly.

"Because I am sorry,I wanted to apologise for my behaviour on the phone. Ngyaxolisa Ma" I say.

"It's okay mfan' wam,now get back to your work I love you" she says.

"I love you too Ma" I end the call,thinking about the laughter I heard.

Khubelihle
I did say this woman is wonderful right,she took Lwazi with her to a friends house. Her exact
words were "ngifuna babone lobuhle obungaka in one baby". I think she wanted me to have
some alone time,which is not necessary I love taking care of that kid. And besides I have seen
much of Khumbulani lately.

"Arrgh" I say looking at my vibrating phone.

Sandile has been calling and sending texts non stop,I look at it one more time and answer.

"Ufunani" I say.

"Is that the way to speak to your man" he asks.

"You ceased being anything to me the day you got married" I say.

"Awkahle Khuba we can still fix this" he says annoying me further.

"You broke my heart and humiliated me in front of the whole community,there's nothing to fix
uyezwa" I say.

"Well that's too bad because I love you and I will fight for you" he says sounding sure of himself.

"Hlukana nami we Sandile" I say on the verge of crying.

"I am coming to Johannesburg and I want to see you" he says not asking but demanding.

"Sandile please" I say.

"Khubelihle I love you and I know you still love me too,just give me a chance to explain please"
he says,I end the call and switch off my phone. Khumbu should learn to calm down and not let
important information slip,Sandile called her and in the heat of the moment she slipped.

I look at the door open and Muzi walks In followed by a girl,I think this has become our place no
mine.

"And then" I ask.

"It's me hau put on your glasses so you can see" he says laughing.

"Ngizokushaya Bongamusa" I say laughing.

"Oh okay this Hope my girlfriend" he says.

"Nice to meet you hope" I say extending my hand.

"Nice to meet you too sisi" she says sweetly,she then looks at Musa and smiles. They occupy the
one seater couch and I am left holding a candle.

"Musa does Ma know that we have a guest" I ask smiling.

"Ma will understand phela ubaba and his son's are coming back tomorrow,meaning kuyaphela
ukubusa" he says sighing.

"All of them" I ask suddenly getting nevous.

"Yes all of them" he says.

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#7

Khubelihle

I look at myself one more time in the mirror fixing my glasses, being shortsighted hasn't always
been the only reason I wear glasses. My eyes have a colour of their own,they are greyish turning
blueish I can never really pin point their true colour. My mother used to say they are one of a
kind,I love everything about me including these freaky eyes. I just hate it when people come up
close and pry,but I always say strange is good and unique is amazing.

I grab my phone and make my way to the house,things have been hectic today. Mr Zungu and
his son's are coming back,apparently they were away on business in CapeTown.

Ma is planning on going all out for her people which is beautiful.

I see Musa is in a sulking mood,and Ma is singing her way in and out of the kitchen.

"Musa wam" I say giving him a side hug.

"Wena leave me alone" he says lookin up.

"Hawu what has mapakisha done now" I ask ,he looks at me and chuckles.

"Don't mind him sisi,he is just mad he won't do as he pleases anymore" Ma says.

"Bengazi vele ukuthi aningithandi" he says.

"Come surely its not that bad having them around" I say trying to cheer him up.

"You don't know these people" he sighs heavily.

"Well don't worry I will here next to you okay" have smiles.

"Can we go out and invite Khumbu" he says smirking.

"Sies wena" I say lightly hitting him on the shoulder.

"What your friend is hot and because you guys are besties,I get to see her every day" he says
kicking his lips.

"I think you father coming back will do you good uphapha over" I look at his change drastically.

"Mxm" he says walking away,I turn and look at Ma whose smiling.

"You look happy Ma" I say.

"My husband is coming back Khuba" she says blushing.

"You love him" I ask.

"He is my everything sisi,my pillar of strength I love that man so much,and I only know him" she
say laughing.

"You mean he's the only man you've ever been with your whole life" I ask.

"Yes and what about you" she asks handing a bowl of fruit salad,I don't know if I should tell her
or not but she has been kind to me.

"Ngiseyintombi Ma" I say looking down,she lifts my head up using her index finger smiling.

"That is so beautiful sisi" she says slightly tilting her and head,If she only knew.

"Thank you ma" I say.

I am laying on my bed with khumbu's legs on top of me. She's been beaming all morning like a
crazy person.

"I know you want to ask so go ahead" she says sitting up straight.

"Why are you happy" I ask.

"Because my neighbours are coming back" she says flickering her eyelashes

"And" I ask puzzled.

"I get to come visit and drool all day every day" she says laughing

"Here I was thinking you won the lottery" I say.

"John is my lottery babe,speaking of which I have to go meet with him" she says getting her legs
of me.

"Plus I have to go to the mall to get few things" I say.

"What things" she's asks .

"Toiletries and I might pick up a few things for Lwazi" I say.

"That child wears designer clothes so don't bother" she says,I know what she means but I saw
this one cute babygro that will look good on him.

"Yeah I hear you" I say walking her out.

I decide to use Musa's car to get to the Mall,thank the heavens for Gps's or I would be going out
of my mind trying to get directions. Strangely enough when I left the house,there was suddenly
a car behind me. Every turn I made the drive took,it could be a coincidence though take taxis for
instance they travel the same route right.

I find myself picking out more than just one item for Lwazi,he's sleeping peacefully on my chest
and his heavy.

I walk out of ackermans and go to clicks for my things,I end up buying more junk than necessary
stuff.

I am standing by the pads section,when I see a man approach me. He's bloody handsome and
tall,. I blink a few times almost dropping everything that I have. I quickly move and go to the till.

I look around hoping to spot him but nothing,I pay up and make my way to the parking lot.

I put Lwazi in his car seat strap him up,as I am about to go on my side the same guy approaches
again.

See the thing with handsome guys is that they are crooks,we ladies should just stay away from
them.

"Ntokazi"he says. His voice take my breath away,I want to drink him up all of him, See he's
already using muthi on me.

"Whatever you are selling I am not interested" he frowns but still that doesn't take the
handsome ness away.

"I am not selling anyth.." I put my hand up.

"And I am the president's daughter,bheka I am not interested" I say just then Lwazi starts crying.
I unstrap him and calm him down,all this while the guy is staring.

"As I said I am not buying anything" I say getting Lwazi back in the car and myself in the driver's
seat.

If I had my peper spray I would have probably used it,nothing agitates me like a stranger acting
creepy.I was once mugged by a hansome guy who was polite,so I don't like strangers nje. I mean
he's dressed well and Lord he's handsome,why is lurking around if he's not a chancer.

.
I drive home with a sleeping Lwazi and some radio playing, I think this drive was something I
needed just to get some air out of the house.

I walk inside and Musa helps me with my bag.

"Whose car is that" I ask.

"Bhuti omdala" he says,oh they must be here already,we pass by the kitchen then make our way
to the lounge with Lwazi now in Musa's arms. I am holding his bottle because I want to feed
him.

"Aw nasiza nafika" Ma says happily

"Zwi this is Khuba,Sisi this is my son Zwilakhe,Lwazi's father" she says proudly,I drop Lwazi's milk
bottle when the guy looks my way. He looks at me and his smile turns into a frown,I look at him
then back at his son.

"The president's daughter huh"he says still looking at me.

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#8

Zwilakhe

For a while everything comes to a standstill,for a while it feels like all my life as I had known it is
a lie. For what seems like forever my life takes a turn to a world of its own. I look at Ma breaking
eye contact with this girl and for the first time ever I don't know what to say,I move closer to ma
and give her a hug.

"Thank you Ma" I say whispering.

"It's only a pleasure mfan' wam" she says.

"And then" Musa asks.

"Mind you own business wena" Ma says moving closer to her.

"It's okay sisi someone will take care of this" she says pulling her up.

"As I was saying this is my firstborn" she says bringing her closer to me.
"I told you that these people are ugly,bheka manje you are freaked out uwise nebhodlela" Musa
says sighing,she looks at Musa and giggles. I want to thank my brother for making her laugh but
I rather not,because I will not hear the end of it.

She turns to look at me,I think we have miss smarty pants here. She's wearing glasses and her
weave is tied up,her eyes are different they remind me of someone. Her lips are fuller and
probably soft as they seem,beautiful is not the word to use but Goddess is. Her complexion is
fair not too dark and definitely not too light skinned,she is perfection at its best.

"Ma I think it's best I go to the cottage now" she says moving backwards.

"Hawu khuba it's not that late sisi,you know what please dish up for Zwilakhe first" she says.

"And what about the others" she asks.

"Oh they will be arriving tomorrow morning sisi" Ma says taking Lwazi from Musa.

"Musa wam please come help me" she says pulling my dysfunctional brother. I watch them walk
away and the view is fricken breath taking.

"She's beautiful isn't she" Ma says smiling.

"She's just added more years to my life Ma" I say taking Lwazi,I have missed my boy but this
thing doesn't talk wazi ukudla nokulala.

"I know that's how I felt when I saw her" she says getting emotional.

"Ma please don't do this to yourself" I say moving closer to her.

"I miss my daughter Zwi everyday,they could have spared her life. But they didn't" she says
resting her head on my chest.

"I know Ma but we avenged her death,so please calm down" I hate seeing her like this, my sister
Nomzamo was killed long ago when baba wanted to pernetrate the taxi industry,these taxi Lords
don't take kindly to threats so they sent a loud and thorough warning.

"What's going on" We hear Musa ask.

"Oh it's nothing wena thumbu" Ma says wiping her tears.

"The food is ready" he says still looking at Ma then me.

"I hope you didn't infect her with some Cape Town diseases" he says walking away.

I really missed this idiot brother of mine,you can never have a dull moment with him around.

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Khubelihle

I excused myself after plating up for everyone,including Khumbu who told me she's in my room.
I don't want to be in the same room with that man,he's too handsome that he creeps me out. I
believe a man shouldn't be that handsome ngeke,if he's got all the looks what about the wife.

I walk in and find Khumbu dressed in a beautiful black dress,all dolled up.

"Uyaphi" I ask.

"Wrong question,empeleni you should be asking siyaphi" she says slowly.

"I can't leave Lwazi's father is here and I don't want him thinking I am neglecting my duties" I
say . In fact I think I should be greatful he didn't tell Ma about our parking lot encounter.

"What Zwilakhe is back" she asks almost poking her eye with an eyeliner.

"Yes" I say.

"That one is weird but hot and sexy" she says.

'Whatever" I say grabing my plate.

"I got you a dress too put it on sizohamba" she says grabing her plate.

I finish up eating and freshen up then put on the dress,this thing is tight but I like it.

"Muhle mnge" she says putting some make up on me. "Now you look like a gazillion bucks" she
says smiling

"Awusuka madoda" Musa says whistling.

"Don't you know how to knock wena" Khumbu asks.

"Awungehle wena,niyaphi" he asks.

"Going out for drinks" I say.

"Okay I am coming with you and we are using my car"he says nodding like he just solved a case.
Khumbu throws me a jacket and we are good to go,but not before I tell Ma where we are going.
The woman looked at my dress then my hair smiled and said "niziphathe kahle" like a true
mother would say.

We find ourselves deep in the crowd,dancing and laughing. I haven't had so much fun since
varsity,the music is speaking to the inner me. I close my eyes and let it flow with me,Khumbu is
somewhere is the crowd and Musa is messing with other people's girlfriends.
I think I am the only sane one between the three of us, I have a six pack of Balgravia gin and
tonic and another of Bernini. I don't know why Khumbu bought these things. I move from the
dance floor to the bar.

"Hey can I have a glass of Tanguary" I say to the handsome barman.

"Coming right up" he says,he's in a black t -shirt written your wish is my command.

"I like your shirt" I say.

"And I like your eyes" he says smiling.

"Zandre" he says introducing himself.

"Khuba" I say, a smile follows as I watch him whip up something fast,ice cubes,a touch of egg
white,mint leaves and a slice of lemon.

"Here you go mam" he says giving me the glass.

"Thank you the glass is cold" I say.

"That's because all our cocktail glasses are put in ice cold water just to preserve the coldness of
your drink" he says smiling.

He takes out a t-shirt and gives it to me,his arms are toned,kodwa vele white people and the
gym you can never tear them apart.

"That's for you" he says, I can't stop drooling. I think he's handsome or maybe it's the alcohol
talking.

"Thank you" I say gulping my drink.

"Another one" he smiles.

"Last one you mean,I don't want you getting drunk" he says whipping another one.

"If the bar gets to hot you're welcome to join me on the dance floor" I say walking away,I dance
my way in and out of that crowd till Zandre joins me. We dance beautifully and innocently that's
the thing with unexpected friendships,even if they are short lived or are just for a day. They
make you some type of way,dare you to dream and be free and right now I am free and dancing
with the barman.

I get pushed and bump into him,he holds me by my waist from behind and starts dancing. I find
myself being pulled away from him,fists start flying and words exchanged. I turn Musa is at it
with Zandre,I try breaking them up but get mistakenly hit on the eye and fall flat on my ass. The
other guys try it too but nothing,I look at Khumbu who has a cider on her hand.

I send Ma a text telling her we are in trouble,I know the text has errors and all but naye uzobona.
I turn around and the fight has attracted more eyes,people are cheering them on.

Suddenly the crowd goes quiet and Lwazi's father strides towards the two men,he roughly pulls
them apart punches Zandre who stumbles to the tables, he me and Khumbu outside just then
two more men appear with Musa.

"Get in the car" he says,like naughty school kids we do as told.

He speeds off as soon all doors lock.he keeps cussing at nothing and everyone.

"I felt sick" Khumbu says gauging.

"Please stop the call" I say,he looks at me through the mirror and clicks his tongue.

He stops the car and unlocks the doors,Khumbu steps out followed by Musa they start laughing
and goofing around,he turns on the light and turns to look at me.

"What happened to your eye" he asks.

"Accident" I say,he nods and turn the car attempting to walk away.

"What are you doing" I ask.

"Driving away" he says.

"Then can I please get out,surely you can't expect me to leave these two here alone at night" I
say getting my jacket,he bangs the steering wheel and gets out of the car. He scolds them and
tells them to get in the car.

"I can't believe you Musa a fight really" he says.

"That guy was looking for it" he says not paying attention.

"And you just had to give to him,what if he press charges" he asks

"And wena Khumbu I see iskole siyaphasa" he says turning to look at me.I know what he means
and I won't entertain him.

"Yaz uyabhora wena Zwi, for your information my friend is still a virgin unlike you,you man
whore. I am sure you broke your vigirnity a week after you were born" she says smiling like a
retard. I did say that this one has a loose mouth,I need to talk to her about all this.

"Haa Khuba ulindeni ungahlephulisi ikhekhe ezinye izingane" Musa says laughing.

"Fuseg wena" Zwi says looking at me.

I turn to look at Khumbu who shrugs her shoulders and giggles,I am not embarrassed or
anything but I don't like broadcasting my personal affair.
We get home and first thing I do is help Khumbu out then walk her to the cottage. I help her out
of her clothes and a knock comes through. I open the door and Zwilakhe is standing with a pack
of frozen peas.

"I thought I should bring you this for your eye" he says handing them to me.

"Thank you" I say,I turn but I can still feel him standing there.why doesn't he walk away kanti,I
turn and he's just staring. I am left with no choice but to look at him,he's handsome I won't lie.

"I want to drink you up.. uhm ..sorry I mean thank you" I say quickly placing the peas on my eye.

"Ouch" I say,he moves closer and removes the pack then carefully puts it on.

"This is how you should do it" he say gently soothing my eye

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#9

Khubelihle

I have been awake just waiting for princess Khumbulani to wake up,I love my friend but we need
to address a few things and I need to go check on Must. It's a good thing I didn't wear my
glasses to the club,that expensive pair would have been broken.

I stand up from the bed and look at my face,it's bruised just not swollen the frozen pack helped
a lot. So last night bhuti Zwilakhe eventually left after rubbing some ointment on my eye.

"Finally you decide to grace us with your presence" I say looking at a yawning Khuba.

"Morning to you too" she says.

"We need to talk" I say getting straight to the point.

"Sengenzeni" she asks looking all innocent.

"Your blabber mouth mnge,I need you to tone it down please. Firstly you told Sandile about my
whereabouts then told bhuti Zwilakhe that I am a virgin. The next thing you will tell them about
my abusive monster of a father and a mother who doesn't give two cents about me" I say even
though the last sentence hurts than anything.

"But you know ngakhahlelwa ihhashi esfuni" she says bitting her lip.
"It okay but please don't say things without thinking" I say.

"I am sorry and trust me from now on,I will guard my tongue" she says smiling.

"Are you having breakfast with us or at your house" I ask.

"I will have it here thank you" she says smiling.

I make my way to the house and almost turn walking back to my room.

"Hayi sisi come back" Ma says sweetly,I turn walking inside. I find Musa,Zwilakhe and three other
men two probably younger than Zwilakhe and the other man I suppose is Mr Zungu. It's like I
am seeing double people all over me.

"So this is the president's daughter" Mr Zungu says,I don't know what to say so I offer him a
smile.

"Khulekani don't scare the child,khuba this is my husband and his son's" she says softly.

"Pleasure to meet you all" I say.

"Don't mind my wife it's a pleasure to finally meet you" he says,Hayi lobaba is handsome no
wonder Ma is a crazy about him.

"I am Lungani and this is Lindani" he says extending his hand.

"And she's Khubelihle Lwazi's nanny" Zwilakhe says.

"Oh and she can't see properly" Musa says,I see everyone looking at him.

"He means that I am shortsighted" I say.

"Yeah what she said" Musa says nodding.

"What happened to your eye" Ma asks holding my face.

"It's nothing Ma just a minor accident" I say looking down.

"I have an ointment that will help you" she says.

"It's okay Ma bhut' Zwilakhe has already given me something" I say looking at him.

"Well that's after he heard Khuba is virgin Marry" Musa says sighing.

"Musa" his father calls out sternly.

"Ngyaxolisa baba" he says.

"I think I should go to my room,Khumbu is waiting for me" I say.

"Don't go we can all have breakfast here,plus mom and dad are leaving right" Lindani says
smiling,I seriously need to pray about this they are too handsome for me, I just can't deal with
this.

"I will see you later okay this man of mine is taking me out for breakfast" she says looking at Mr
Zungu,her eyes are beaming with love and she's blushing,they share a kiss before walking out.

We are all seated around the outside table near the pool,having breakfast . The conversation is
following the other two are just a refreshing as Musa.

"So Khuba where are you from" Lungani asks.

"Lunga ungasidlisi kab'hlungu please" Khumbu says.

"That's a story for another day" I say forcing a smile.

"I hear you guys were in a fight yesterday" Lindani says looking at Musa.

"It's not my fault as I said that white guy was looking for it,he was busy grinding on Khuba and
touching her waist. If I didn't step in his hands were going to land on her boobs just imagine" he
says.

"Usebenzile thumbu" Zwilakhe says,we all look at him hoping he will say he's kidding. Or maybe
I am the only one hoping. Lwazi starts crying and I stand up to go get him.

I find him suckling his thumb,I immediately pick him and rock him back to sleep.

"You are one cute little man" I say.

"He takes after his father" Zwilakhe says behind him.

"I didn't realise you were standing there" I say putting him down.

"I didn't mean to disturb you,I just wanted to see if you guys are okay" he says moving closer.

"Everything is okay bhuti" I say swallowing hard.

"Please call me Zwilakhe" he says towering over me,he removes my glasses and stares deep into
my eyes.

"Your eyes are beautiful" he says softly.

"Thank you" I say.

"You are you beautiful Khubelihle" he says brushing his lips against mine. I close my eyes
breathing in his cologne.

"Please don't close your eyes,I want to see them" he says smiling.
"What's happening" I ask,looking into his brown eyes.

"I want to drink you up,all of you" he says.

"That's my line" I say.

"I know now may I drink from this fountain of life" he asks still brushing his lips against mine,I
lowly moan and nod closing my eyes.

He pulls bite and indulges on my lips,I return the kiss putting my hands on his chest. There's no
bone in me that wants to pull away or push him away,his muthi must be working overtime.

Lindokuhle

You know when things are beautiful and going good,I am grateful for life and my family. I am
also greatful for Khuba,I swear that child is a blessing. Everything she touches probably turns
into gold,I mean look at my son's they are all smitten with her. Zwilakhe seems to be falling for
her,I love my son but he has his own issues. He's involved with someone else, I don't want him
hurting Khubelihle in anyway. I personally think I have found a daughter in her.

"What are you thinking about" Khulekani asks brushing my hand.

"It's nothing my love" I say smiling his way.

"Lindo this is me you're talking too" he says kissing my hand.

"I am worried about Zwilakhe" I say honestly.

"What has he done now" he asks teasingly.

"I don't want him hurting khuba" I say.

"I don't think he would ever hurt her intentionally,if things are meant to be then they shall be.
Don't worry about these kids my love okay" he says perking my lips.

We both stand on our feet when we hear some noise from outside,we rush out only to see
Zwilakhe dragging Zinhle by her weave,I try going to her rescue but Khulekani stops me.

"Stay out of it mkami" he says tightly holding my arm.

"Zwi uzom'bulala" I say fighting my way out of his tight grip.

"Ma do something" Khuba says begging me

"Khulekani talk to your son" I beg looking at my husband Zwilakhe is just like his father
stubborn. I look at khuba crying hysterically her chest heaving, her eyes are glued to Zwi and my
eyes are on her. Khulekani pulls him off a bruised and battered Zinhle,I rush to the poor girl's
side if only they would listen and go their separate ways.

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#10

Zwilakhe

I don't know what came over me,but when Zinhle showed up everything took a turn for the
worst. I told her never to set foot in my father's house,not after she cheated on me more than I
can count. While I was in CapeTown she was busy sleeping around. I gave her everything a
women could ever want but she was a greedy whore,who wanted more and couldn't keep her
legs closed. Seeing her just angered me and I let my emotions get the better of me. My father
walks in looking livid I know what I did is wrong,but that girl is crazy for thinking I could forgive
her just like that. Some women like to think having a beautiful face and a warn cunt makes you
invisible,news flash every woman has a vigina some better than the other.

"What is wrong with you" Baba asks rolling his sleeves.

"I am talking to you Zwilakhe" he says calmly.

"Nothing is wrong with me Baba" I say.

"Then why do you insist on behaving like a hooligan in my house" he asks still rolling his sleeves.

"I am sorry baba" I say.

"Have you ever seen me bash your mother" he asks.

"Cha Baba" I say.

"Who taught to hit women Zwi" he asks.

"No one but baba I..." Before I can finish my sentence a punch lands on my jaw making me
stumble.
"My hand is itching to teach you a lesson,I am itching to do far more worse than you did to that
poor girl. But because you are my eldest I won't do it" he says throwing another punch that
lands to the ground.

"Does that hurt" he asks holding me by my shirt throwing another one.

"Hayi Zungu not my son" Ma says pulling him off me.

"Leave me alone Lindo,he's a women beater angithi yena. Let him fight me like a man" he says
angrily.

"Baba please you will kill my son" she says holding him back

"Are you okay khehla" she's asks turning to me.

"I hope it hurts because I didn't raise a women beater uyangizwa Zwilakhe" he shouts getting
worked up again,I am glad Ma is here or else things would be far worse.he walks away cussing.

"I was angry Ma" I say.

"How many times have I told to you leave her alone" she asks putting her hand on jaw. My
mother warned me about her and I didn't listen because I loved her, a part of me still does.
Zinhle is the mother of my son but her actions are vicious and sultry.

"One day you will kill her and your father will not bail you out,one day you will Lwazi's mother
and he will forgive you. I will never be able to look at you and be proud to call you my son" she
says smiling.

"I would never kill her" I protest,she holds my hand and shakes her head.

"Elokufa alibiki Zwi" she says.

"Do you think I am bad person" I ask,looking at her face for a different expression but her face
remains smiling.

"You are the fruit of my womb, and i trust God gave me kind hearted son's." she says letting out
a sigh.

"How is she doing" I ask.

"Your father called a doctor she's going to be fine" she says.

"I think I should check up on her and apologise" I say.

"First get cleaned up then you can check on her" she says standing up,she walks away but turns
before reaching the door.

"Please check on Khubelihle when you are done" she says walking out. I don't think I can face
her not after what she saw,in her beautiful eyes I am probably a monster.
.

Khubelihle

I have been locked up in my cottage crying,I couldn't stand watching Zwilakhe hitting that lady,I
just couldn't so I walked away after his father pulled him off. He instantly became a monster in a
matter of seconds,I honestly can't believe I allowed him to kiss me,well I kissed him back so
there's no use crying over spilt milk.

A few intense pulling stares and a smooth touch I was putty in his hands, I must say that was a
moment of weekness on my part. Khumbu was right not everything is what it seems,even Musa
of all people stood and watched her get beaten. I can't say that her screams didn't awaken old
and fresh wounds. I saw myself in her when Zwilakhe was dragging her,I saw my mother in her
when she begged him to stop, I saw my father in Zwilakhe when he raised his hand and it
landed on her cheeks.

It took me back to when my father taught me how to kiss tongue and all,I was disgusted I
protested at first and that's when he hit me. That was to remind me who was boss and that I
should obey.

"Musa ukudazi inkani" that's what he would say everytime,I did want to play his sick games.
Thinking about it makes me sick,I look at myself in the mirror sometimes and feel ashamed dirty.
I see the pretty little girl who shares secrets with her father. "Umama" by Sjava starts playing on
the radio.

"Ang'sakhoni ngikhumbul' uMa, Ngith' akusavumi ngikhumbul' uMa, webafwethu

ngen'understand"

I immediately feel this huge void inside me. I miss my mother despite everything else she's my
mother and I still love her. I bring my Johnny walker red label closer and take a few gulps,I
bought a few bottle just to keep sane.

A knock comes through,I am so sloshed I can't even walk my legs are wobbly.

"Who is it" I ask.

"Khumbu" she says,she makes her way in as soon as I tell her to.

"Hey" she says joining me on the floor.

"Khumbulani" I say listening to the song.

"I just came to check up on you" she says awkwardly smiling.

"As you can see I am fine" I say breathing heavily.

"About what happened please don't take it to heart Zwilakhe is not that bad" she says,I nod
taking another gulp.

"Khuba slow down" she says trying to take the bottle away from me.

"Why are you here ngempela,to see if I am okay or uzokhulumela uZwilakhe" I ask.

"To check up on you of course " she says.

"Then don't mention him" I say clicking my tongue.

"But his not entirely at fault Zinhle is manipulative and a whore" she says.

"Are you hearing your self kodwa Khumbulani,that man hit her. He slapped and punched her
stop justifying his actions. Zwilakhe uyafana nse nobaba" I say standing up.

"You will hurt yourself" she says her voice raising. "And don't compare Zwilakhe to that
monster,he's not your father" she says.

"You just don't get it all you are doing is justifying his actions,and all I see is Lwazi's growing up
with a women beater as a father,that could damage him don't you get that" I say wiping my
tears.

"Khuba that's taking it too far" she says in a whisper.

"Well maybe that's because I grew up with one,you know what phuma khumbu"I say pushing
her that I almost fall.

"I am sorry okay" she says shouting. "I am sorry that life wasn't kind to you,and that your mother
failed you but please don't use this to take away your pain" she pleads pointing at the bottle.

"I said get out" I point to the door and Zwilakhe is standing there.I don't know how much he
heard of this but I don't care.

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#11

Khubelihle
I watch him steadily stride inside, I may be drunk but I can see that he's bruised. I take a few
steps back and subtly use Khumbu as a shield. She holds my hand tightly as a gesture of being
here,I appreciate it that.

Zwilakhe looks lost more than anything,I don't even get why he chose to come here.

He looks at Khumbu but doesn't say anything,I know he wants her to leave but I want to hear
him say it.

"Can I talk too you please" he says looking at Khumbu.

"And if I don't want too" I ask.

"Khuba" Khumbu calls out,great she's standing up for him.

"I am not here to fight,I just want to talk" he says,Khumbu turns to look at me.

"I will be right back okay and if anything happens scream" she says wiping my tears,I nod giving
her a smile.

"I am sorry" I say,she puts both hands on either side of my face.

"It's okay babe" she says looking at Zwilakhe then walking out.

I am left standing without a shield,atleast I have this bottle better than throwing a shoes tight.

"Don't move any closer just stay where you are" I say,he nods then looks around.

"I wanted to explain" he says clearing his throat.

"Why because the last time I remember,you are nothing to me and I am nothing to you" I say
snorting.

"I thought that.." I raise my eyebrows and laugh.

"You thought what just because we kissed,now I care" I ask bewildered.

"I didn't mean it like that for christsake just listen" he shouts.

"Well I don't want to listen,I just want to forget" I say matching his voice.

"I am sorry you saw that,I didn't mean to hurt her" he says.

"That's what he used to tell her,then those lines were used on me. Why didn't she walk
away,couldn't she just walk away.Why didn't she love me enough to choose me and stand up for
me" I say slumping to the floor.

"What are you talking about" he asks crouching down to my level.

I look for my phone and dial my mother's number,she picks it up before it even rings.
"Khuba" her voice says,I miss her so much

I can't get the words out,why can't I say something.I have a love hate relationship towards
mother, I hate feeling like this I hate breaking apart.

Zwilakhe snatches the phone away from me and puts it on his ear,he keeps saying hello and
eventually ends the call. He picks me up and helps me to the couch,he kneels in front of me. The
bottle is long gone he cups my face and looks into my eyes.

"Talk to me" he says not breaking eye contact.

"You wouldn't understand" I say,I think the alcohol is taking its course because the tears are
falling harder.

"Try me" I quickly shake my head,he looks defeated and sighs.

"I don't know what you're going through,but trust me when I say I am here" he says.

" I don't want you to be there,in fact I don't want you near me" I say my voice sounding firm.
"You hit the mother of your child instead of going to her,you are here annoying me" I look at his
face change from being calm,soft to bring hard.

"I am not a monster and I am here because I care" he say through gritted teeth.

"Iqaqa alizwizwa ukunuka,now stay away from me.I promise you won't be missing out" I say
wiping my tears,he tries touching my hands but I move.

"Touch me one more time and I will scream,whoever did this to you" I point at his eye. "Will do
far more worse" he backs away releasing a sigh.

"I don't know what to say,because everything I say right now seems wrong" he says,his voice
trails off I think he wants to cry but he clenches his jaw instead.

A soft knock comes through,he answers and Must comes in.

"Baba is calling you,he says it's already late" Must says looking at his brother.

"Tell him that I am on my way" Zwilakhe says looking at me,Musa nods walking away.

"Listen I have to go okay,I don't know when i will be back. But hopefully in a couple of days" he
smiles a sad one standing up.

"I am sorry about what you saw" he says before closing the door.

I curl up in the couch and cry even harder,I am one messed up person,I have heard of stories like
mine and such lies torment you,how they eat away at you and your insanity.

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Khubelihle

It's been three days since Mr Zungu and his Son's left,I don't know if it's me or something but
things are tense in this house. Ma hasn't been her usual bubbly self,and Must has been glued to
the TV and his phone like the world is coming to and end. I on the have been running around
like crazy,looking after Ma and Lwazi. I decide to make a pot of tea and call Ma to sit with me
outside.

"You made tea" she says smiling,Ma knows I am not tea person. I prefer strong black coffee,its
smell shooting up my nostrils.

"I wanted to us try this new batch of rooibos,apparently it relaxes you" I say pouring us cups.

"Thank you sisi" she says taking her cup,I do the same holding the cup.

"Hayi Khuba that's not how a lady drinks tea,the pinky finger has to go up like this" she says
showing up the ropes.I can't get this thing right my finger refuses to lift.

She laughs that beautiful laugh of hers,she sighs after that.

"Ma are you okay" I ask.

"I should be asking you that after what you saw" she says,I smile quite frankly I don't want to
talk about it.

"I am okay Ma but you don't seem okay" I say,her facial expression changes I see emotions of
sadness and wary pass her face.

"I just miss my people" she says softy.

"It's okay Ma they will come back just like before" I say offering her a smile,they did go to Cape
Town before,surely once they conclude business they will come back.

"You know what let's go bake,surely Musa would appreciate freshly baked cookies. Or better yet
a whole double chocolate cake" she smiles putting down her cup.

"You are amazing you know that" she says coming over to my side,she gives me a hug and
kisses my cheek.

Ma is usually the one that cooks,but today I offered. I have already bathed,fed Lwazi and tucked
him in. It's just the three of us on this huge table. When I came here I did feel their absence,but
because I have seen and know them it's felt.

"The food taste great" Ma says raving.

"Thank you Ma" I say with a smile.

"Cha uyalishaya ukuthi kanjani ngoba awuboni nami angazi" Musa says laughing we join in
together with Ma,but stop as soon as we hear cars pulling in.

"That must be them" Must says,I see they are already on their feet expect for me. So I decide to
join as we wait for the people who are to walk in. We hear the door open and soon Mr Zungu
appears followed by Lindani then Lungani,I look over then but no one appears.

Ma runs to them and embraces them one by one,they each have bags two per person. She pulls
away from her husband and looks around.

"Zungu where's Zwilakhe" she asks no one gives her answer,I look at Lungani who looks at his
father.

"Lunga,Linda where is your brother" she asks her voice reaching a few octaves high.

"Where the hell is my son khule" she asks breaking down,Bab Zungu drops his bags and holds
Ma.

"Musa what's going on" I ask my eyes running around,he shrugs his shoulders.

"He's okay mkami,he had to take care of something. I promise he will be home tomorrow" he
says.

"Hayi Khule" she says crying even harder.

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#12

Khubelihle

It's been two days and Zwilakhe is not seen,I don't know what to think anymore. Ma is not
handling the situation,she can't cope and she's basically loosing it. Bab Zungu said he will be
home soon,I don't how soon looks like in his books but this is not soon. This TV has been
watching me instead of me watching it, I seriously need to know what's going in this
house,which is why I called my main person Musa.

He barges in without knocking,there's no use fighting it anymore he does what he feels like all
the time.
"Took you long enough" I click my tongue switching the TV off.

"Hold up,I was on the on phone with Mapakisha" he says smiling.

"How is she" I ask.he gives me a grin and licks his lips.

"She's hungry" he says laughing.

"Hungry" I ask tilting my head,he widens his eyes and shakes his head.

"Really Khuba,you want me to teach you the about the birds and the bees now" I watch him
release a sigh sitting up straight.

"I am older than you wena sies" he laughs.

"But not in that department" he says laughing harder,I watch him laugh till he finishes up.

"I want toy ask you something about the family" he nods shrugging hus shoulders.

"Sure go ahead" he says freely.

"What does your family do,I mean the type of work they do. Don't get me wrong you guys live
in this lavish home,drive different expensive cars but anijampisi" I say choosing my words
careful,I don't want it to seem like I am prying.

"Well Baba owns Zungu construction and logistics other companies outsource trucks from his
company, and he's a huge property mogul owns a few key buildings that all" he says standing
up to get himself a cold beer.

"So what's in the bags" I asks,hoping he does hold back.

"Khuba" he call out standing next to the fridge.

"Yes" I say.

"Uyangibona" he asks,I nod looking at him I mean that a stupid question.

"Yes I see you" I say.

"Kahle" he asks smiling.

"Will you get to the point" I say sounding annoyed.

"Man your eyes are beautiful but that's not the point,okay where was I when my father came
back" I shake my head seriously.

"Exactly I was here with you guys,so nami angazi okay" he says drinking his bear.

"Don't you want to know though,I mean aren't you worried about Zwi" I ask looking away.
"Sisisi look at you worrying about my brother,of course I am worried. But on the real though I
don't know what's in the bags" he says sighing.

"I see" he erupts into a laugh as I say that.

"Yeah right,move"he says squeezing himself next to me.

I know it's not okay to eavesdrop on other people's conversation,but I couldn't help it the
shouting and banging of stuff got me here listening.it's an argument between Ma and Bab
Zungu.

"Khule where is my son kanti" her voice us different bad different.

"Lindo would you calm down please" he says camly.

"Don't tell me to fucken calm down,don't you dare bullshit me khulekani" I almost gasp when I
hear this,this is the first time i've heard Ma cussing.

"I will not have you talk to me like that not in my house" he says still calm,how can a person be
so calm when things are this heated.

"Then bring me my son" she shouts.

"Lindo just give me time he will be home" he says.

"I swear if my son comes home in a body bag,I will never forgive" she says her voice trailing off.

"That will never happen" he shouts.

"I wish I could believe but the last time you did you business" her voice says breaking into a
painful sob,I find myself wiping my own tears. "I wasn't here to protect her,they came into our
home and killed my baby girl.my Nobuhle died scared and alone,they could have taken
everything and leave my baby girl" don't touch me khulekani,she shouts I can't believe Ma had a
daughter.

"Lindo don't do this to yourself" he begs.

"I gave you not one but four son's Zungu,Nobuhle was my miracle mine and your dealings took
her away from me" she says sniffing.

"I am so sorry Mkami" he says,I don't know what's going but I want to walk in and hold Ma.

"If he doesn't show up then all this will come crumbling down,because I am leaving you.
Angizufelwa yizingane ngenxa yakho mina" she's says clicking her tongue.

.
My heart almost stops when I feel a gentle grip on my arm,I turn and find Lindani.

"You know it's rude to listen in on people" he says flashing me a smile.

"I ..I. was just going t..." he puts his hand and smiles,I think that means it's okay.

"Come I want to show you something" he says taking my hand,not giving me time to say no
thanks I rather go give Ma a hug.

We walk back into the house using another entrance,I have so many questions but right now my
heart is bleeding for Ma. I don't think I would ever forgive my husband if something like that
were to happen because of him,I would probably resent him my whole life and leave him.

We finally come to this huge door,it's always locked I know because I have tried opening it. We
walk in there and everything is covered up in sheets,talk about movie tendencies.

"What all this" I ask,he look at me smiles and starts removing all these white turned cream
sheets.I walk around the room and see picture of the family,I also see a girl.

"Is that her" I ask point at a beautiful potrait,he nods and finally reveals a black big shiny piano.

"Wow" that's all I can say,the last time I saw a beautiful master piece like this was in school.
Despite everything I went to the best schools money can buy.

"It belongs to Zwi" he says playing it,I didn't know he could play. I mean typical Zulu's play what
a guitar right.

"I know what you're thinking, but Ma forced all of to learn and play. In fact all of us can play
including my stubborn dad" he says playing a few notes.

"Is he okay" I ask,still walking around the room.

"He's hanging in there" he says trying to laugh.

"You know he stopped playing when our sister died,they were partners. I guess he couldn't do it
anymore" he says looking at me.

"Why are you telling me all this" I ask feeling overwhelmed.

"Khuba my brother is injured and he needs a liver transplant,it's pretty bad" he says stopping,I
look at him trying to smile for my sake.

"I was stupid and he saved me now he might not make it" he says running his hands over his
head.

"Why don't you give him one of your own,surely one of you is a match" I say.

"Only you and Musa are a match,but we can't risk him asking questions. Yes he might know
what happens but Ma wouldn't forgive us if we involved him fully" he says breathing heavily.
"How do you know I am a match" I ask frowning.

"The medical records you provided" oh now I get it,this is too much. I understand where he's
coming from Musa is young he shouldn't be burdened with such things.

"Can't you find someone else" I ask.

"It's too risky one wrong move and things blow up in our face,I know this is too much but please
think about it" he says looking at me.

"Why me" I ask.

"Because you care" he says.

I don't know what's going on,I don't even know why and how he was injured. I feel corned and
obligated to help because I bloody care.

"Don't do it" Musa's voice says from behind me.

"Stay out of this wena" Lindani says.

"No you just used her caring nature and emotions to manipulate her,I can't believe you" he says
directing that to his brother.

"I am just trying to save my brother" Lindani shouts.

"Well then I will do it,I am a match too right" he shoots back,I am standing in the middle hoping
they don't get at it.

"Dammit Musa I said stay out it okay,or have you forgotten about your accident. You are not
eligible to do anything risky " Lindani shout

We hear more shouting coming from the other side. We rush there and find two police officers
and Bab Zungu shouting at each other.

"Where is he Zungu" The taller one asks.

"Out of town because of business" he say looking our way.

"One of these days I will catch you Zungu" he says smiling. "Tell your son I said hi" he laughs
walking away,what have I gotten myself into with this family.

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#13
Khubelihle

I look at Ma and she has this ready to kill look on her face. I know she meant her words
earlier,there's only so much that a person. We have been standing here silent for a few good
minutes,I look at Musa I can tell he's torn and he needs answer's like me. But who do we ask
when things are told to us in bits and pieces. All I know is that my decision will save him and
guarantee that Lwazi grows up with both parents,Ma will stay and her marriage will be okay. I
won't lie and say I like Zwilakhe at the moment ,I don't in fact I am scared of him. But maybe this
is a chance for me to feel worthy.

"I will do it" I say looking at Lindani.

"Khuba don't put yourself at risk" Musa says moving closer to me.

"Risk what risk is that" Ma asks looking at me.

"Khebelihle khuluma" she says her impatience can be heard in her tone.

"Zwilakhe needs a liver and she's the perfect person to offer him that" Lungani says next to his
mother.

"Khulekani when will you ever stop huh,or maybe uthwele ngeyingane zam" she asks shaking
her head.

"How can you say that Lindo,you know I would never do that" he says moving closer to his wife.

"And then you had to ask the poor child to give up her liver without even talking to me,what
happens if something goes wrong what will I tell her parents huh" she asks.

"It's only a portion nje Ma" Musa says,great Mr smart mouth is back.

"Shut up wena,do you even know what your father does or you enjoy being in the dark" she
look at Musa then her husband. "We might as well tell him that not all the money that comes
into this house is squeeky clean, your father is a criminal he was when we first met till to this
day. He used to deal with heists and drugs but now he's into arms smuggling and many
more,your father kills people if things don't go his way,your sister died because of that. One day
he will introduce you to the family business and you will end like your brother's" by the time she
finishes she's in tears and out of breath.

"Khuba sisi I had a daughter she was beautiful and kind,I don't want you to end up like her. This
is your chance to walk away kusekuhle" she says looking at me.

"It's okay Ma I want to do this for you" she puts a hand over her mouth gasping.

"You really don't have to do it" she says moving closer to me,I know she means well but I want
to do it for her and Lwazi.
She gives me a hug and thanks me endlessly,her arms and chest have become a safe place for
me.

"Thank you sisi" bab Zungu says.

Ma has been staring at me with so much glee,I know she's relieved but she's still angry at Bab
Zungu understandably so. She hasn't said anything to me jus her smiling,this women is beautiful
and more.

"Don't be angry at him,I can tell he's a good husband and father" I say.

"I know but his stubbornness always puts us in trouble" she says releasing a sigh.

"How do you do it Ma" I ask.

"Strength and prayer sisi,and the fact that I love him so much. He may be a monster but he's my
forever and home" I guess that a suitable answer in situations like this,love conquers all.

"Trust me he's not a monster,my father is a monster" I say smiling.

"What do you mean sisi" she asks frowning, I try to look away from her but she gently turns my
face.

"Seeing that I will be going under the knife later on,I just want to go in there with less burdens
on my shoulder" she looks at me still confused.

"Khuba you are scarring me,talk to me" she says.

"I don't know where to start" I say tears welling up.

"I think we should go to my bedroom come" she says

"Let's rather use the cottage" I say,I respect her bedroom too much.

We walk to the cottage and settle down on the couch, silence falls upon us,I look at her already
crying this women is such a cry baby.I haven't even said anything yet, I turn my back on her and
take off my top revealing my scar. I believe this is better that saying I have a scar,so I rather
show her instead.

"One night I was trying to protect my mother and this is what I got" I say my back still turned
against her,I turn around to see her still in tears.

"My father used to abuse both me and my mother,he would hit the both of us. But mostly my
mother,he would use me as his..hi..s" my voice breaks but I pull myself together. "He would use
me as his let out or release tool" I say letting out heavy sigh.
"Khuba don't tell me he raped" she says covering her mouth.

"No I guess he never had the balls to do it, but he would come into my bedroom at night naked
and cuddle with me,he would touch my body and fondle me" I watch her break into a silent cry
as she stands up to embrace me.

"He would watch me bath,he would check if I was still a virgin my own father would put his filthy
fingers in me,I was young when it started I couldn't fight back or protect myself. He would ask
me to touch his privates and pleasure him. The messed up thing is as I grew up my body would
react to his touch,he even taught me how to kiss" I say breaking down.

"Khuba no I am so sorry mtanami,no one deserves to go through something like this" she says
brushing my back.

"And the most painful part is that my own mother failed me,she failed to protect me from that
man" I say shaking my head.

"That man did things to me a father shouldn't,he took away most of my youth. When I refused
to play his games,I would get the beating of my life and then I would have do everything he
wanted. Ma I feel dirty even to this day,I am ashamed to even look at myself in the mirror
sometimes. I have resorted to drinking my self oblivion just to forget" I say in between sobs.

"Kuzolunga sisi I am here for you, but what you need to know is that alcohol won't solve
anything you need help and you need to heal sisi" she says sniffling,she pulls away from the hug
and wipes my tears. She stands up and gets me water helping me drink.

"Where's your mother now" she asks.

"Back home with my father,you see she doesn't love me enough to walk away. What happens if
he kills her I won't have a mother" she gives me a sympathetic look.

"Listen I will run you a bath and make you something to eat okay" I nod wiping my tears.

"You don't have to worry anymore you are safe here with us" she says smiling.

"Thank you" I say in between my hiccups,I feel lighter like a huge rock has been lifted off me,she
runs me a bath and tucks me in.

"I will wake you up when it's time okay" I nod drifting away,crying does that to a person. It
drains you and leaves you tired with a huge banging headache.

Khubelihle
It's been three weeks since I did the operation and the doctor said everything is okay. I won't lie
and say I am not sore but I am glad I did it. I felt sorry for him when I walked in on the nurses
trying to calm his fever down. He looked pale and handsome,I was just confused as to which is
it.

I have been on bed rest since because my body took a hard knock,Ma has moved me to the
main house just to take care of me.

And things have been awkward because Zinhle has decided to stay a bit longer to take care of
her man.

A knock comes through and Zwilakhe comes in,he should be in bed just like me but then again
he's man.

He walks over to my side and settles on top of the bed.

"Hey" he says,I see a smile creep on his face.

"Shouldn't you be in bed" I ask.

"I can't stay in bed just not my style" he says.

"What can I do you for bhuti Zwilakhe" I ask trying to seat up,he quickly helps me fixing my
pillow. He stares into my eyes longer that he should,I look away clearing my throat.

"I wanted to say thank you" he says moving his face that is inches too close to mine.

"I did it for Ma not you" I say thinking about what he did.

"Still thank you" he says looking like he has more to add.

"You can leave now" I say.

"The doctors said they found high traces of alcohol in your body more than the avarage person
should have" he says looking at me.

"What are you implying" I ask getting defensive.

"Nothing I just want to know do you have a problem handling your alcohol" he asks.

"Wasn't my liver good enough to save you" I ask getting angry.

"That's not the point,do you have a problem" he asks matching my tone.

"No I don't now leave" I say pointing to the door,I watch him flex his face clenching his perfectly
chiselled jaw.
"Then why did Lungani find empty bottles and stash of alcohol in your cottage" he asks calmy
but his face says something else.

"I swear I didn't drink while looking after Lwazi" he let's out a sigh when I confess unaware.

"So it true" he says shaking.

"You don't know what I have been through so don't judge me" I say,he takes my hand into his
and breathes heavily.

"What if I want to help you" he asks prolonging his stare,what's with this man and searching my
soul.he moves closer and pulls my lips sharing a deep slow kiss,I pull away after what feels like
life itself our foreheads remain touching.

Our little moment is disturbed when the door bursts open,I abruptly move from him and turn
my focus to the door.Zinhle strides in and gives me one nasty look.

"It's time to take your medication baba ka Lwazi" she says putting her hands over his shoulder
marking her territory.

"Please close the door on your way out" I say turning the other way.

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#14(short)

Zwilakhe.

As I once said my whole life feels like a lie, I feel like I have been robbed of a life i never knew
about,a life where Khuba is present and is mine. I may not be making sense but there's one
thing I know and that

Is I love Khubelihle, I have fallen in love with everything she does including how she spends
almost an hour eating then forget that she's eating,continue eating only to give it up because
she can't believe she wasted her time eating. I love the colour of her eyes and how she looks to
me when she thinks no one is looking. I don't see a tomorrow without her in it, I have found a
fountain in her.that woman is beautiful she's a goddess in her own way. The fact that she loves
my son and not because its her job is a bonus,you see a man can love you and children
wholeheartedly.but a woman can love you and still hate your children that's just how it is.The
door opens ajar and Zinhle walks in holding a tray with a plate of food in it,yesterday I used one
of the guestrooms,I was avoiding temptation. Zinhle pulled a show stopper and wore this sexy
right revealing lingerie, the boner I had was evidence enough that I wanted to take her there
and there.

"Didn't I tell you to leave wena" I ask.

"Can we at least talk about this" she asks putting the tray next to me.

"Remember when i told you that this was your last chance,trust me if I take you back ngiyobe
ngilinga unkulunkulu" I say.

"Please don't do this I don't know what came over me" she says playing with her fingers.

"You cheat on me and say you don't know what came over you, are you serious right now" I ask

"Is it her huh,is she the reason you don't want me anymore" she asks.

"Zinhle things between us have been long done,we have been holding on just for the sake of
holding on. I loved you and gave you everything you've ever wanted,but still that's wasn't
enough. You slept with another man while carrying my son,but still I forgave you. Maka Lwazi
you made me feel like less of a man,I am tired of using fists just to get a point across
ngikhathele" I say wiping her tears.

"I won't do it again I promise please" she begs.

"I can't this is it we are done,I will always love you as the mother of my child and friend but
nothing more" I say breathing out.

"Well I still love you" she says,I pull her for a tight hug,Zinhle is not bad but I am tired of always
being the bad guy in this relationship.

Khubelihle

Today has been one of those days,where I wallow in self pity and imagine how things would
have been if my father never changed. I haven't done much today beside stay in bed all day,I
miss Zwi and his yummy kisses I could have his lips everyday but it wouldn't be fair on Zinhle. I
can't believe smooching her man like he's mine that just not right.

Ma walks in looking beautiful as ever,I wonder where she's headed.

"Hey my baby" she says giving me a hug.

"Hey Ma" I say.

"You are still in bed sisi is everything okay" she asks.

"Everything is okay I wanted to be alone Ma" i say forcing a smile.

"Zungu is taking me out to lunch but I can cancel and we could watch a movie and stuff our
face" she says smiling.

"Ma I will be fine trust me" I say trying to make her feel less guilty.

"Are you sure you don't want me to stay" she asks brushing arms.

"Of course I am, I will be okay you can even ask Musa to check up on me" I say flashing her a
smile.

"That one didn't sleep at home and his father will deal with him" she says kissing my forehead .

"I love you and don't forget about our appointment" she says blowing me a kiss,she took it
upon herself to get me professional help which I am greatful for.

"I love you too Ma" I say.

She's walks out the man I have been thinking about walks in,he's in shorts and a hoody. I swear
this one looks good in everything,he settles of the far end of my bed as to why I don't know.

"Sawbona" he says looking at me.

"Yebo" I say but I have a good mind to tell him to move closer if he wants to speak to me.

"Can I move closer" he asks,I nod not thinking twice.

"Is everything okay" I ask as he moves closer.

"Yes everything is okay but there's something I want to say" he says sounding nervous.

"Okay" I say.

"I want you to listen and not say anything till I am done" he says giving me a smile.

"Okay" I say.

"I know you think I am still with Zinhle but that's not true,the thing is I have fallen in love with
you" I open and shut my mouth in shock,he looks at me still smiling oh Lord he's serious.

"I fell in love with your voice long before your face,Khubelihle I love you and that's the honest
truth,you are what I think about eveytime I go to sleep,you are one the people I ask God to
protect in my prayers. Your eyes and laughter give a new meaning to the word love. I love your
ugly toes that suddenly look beautiful in nailpolish" he says awkwardly laughing.

"I know it's too soon but there's nothing as such when it comes to love,my father once told me
that when you meet the one you will know,what I am trying to say is that I know you are the one
for me.I am saying all of this because I am afraid someone else who's in their right sense
emotionally,someone who doesn't have baggage will see what I see and snatch you away" he
says holding my hand.
"Khubelihle Mhlongo I love you so much that I want to do things to you,I am literally holding
myself from kissing you and making love to you" he says looking into my teary eyes.

"I love your unapologetic sense of humour and humble nature,I love the fact that for such a long
time my heart beats faster than the day Lwazi was bor.." I fling into his un open arms and wrap
my arms around his neck,no man had ever spoken such beautiful words to me.

"I am not perfect in fact I am far from it, but my heart is pure because it loves you and only you"
he says return the hug.

"I don't know what to say" I say still clinging on to him.

"Just say you want to drink me up and that you love me" he says softly,I giggle pulling away,he
looks at me and smiles not saying anything.

The door bursts open and Khumbu runs in,looking like she just saw a ghost.

"Sandile" she says causing me to jump off the bed.

"Ini" I ask feeling my intestines twist.

"Sandile is here and he's looking for you" she says looking looking at me then Zwi.

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#15

Khubelihle

I move my eyes from khumbu to Zwilakhe, here I am confused as hell. This man has just
confessed his love for me, and now my past is catching up with me. I don't know what to tell
him because he looks confused,Ma warned me about something like this happening, that
woman believes in being upfront and honest about almost everything. Before Khumbu walked
in things seemed possible, that I could be happy but now I don't know.

What could Sandile possibly want from me,I think breaking my heart wasn't enough for him. He
just wants to crush me and ruin the little happiness I have.

"How did he know where to find me exactly" I ask.

"He called Mama and asked for directions to our place" she says.

"Kanti Khumbu didn't you tell Ma what Sandile did to me" ask feeling hopeless.
"I didn't,Khuba you know she wouldn't chase umkhaya wakhe away" she says,I understand
where she's coming from. Her mother is kind and if anyone came looking for a place she
wouldn't chase them away.

"Who is this Sandile" Zwilakhe's voice asks.

"No one important" I say already heading for the door,they both follow behind me till me reach
the longue. Sandile is already seated being served tea,I see Ma and Bab Zungu decided not to
go anymore.

"Sthandwa Sam" he says standing up to give me a hug,I see all eyes on me shocked even I shrug
him off me and look at Ma.

"Sandile ufunani" I ask.

"I came to fetch you and apologise, I know what I did is wrong but we can still fix this" he says
holding my hand, I quickly yank it away.

"Isibindi unaso I give you that" I say through gritted teeth.

"Can we have some privacy" he says still looking at me,I hear Bab Zungu chuckle.

"No all I want is for you leave this house and never come back" I say feeling this wave of anger
building up.

"Khuba what's is wrong with you Kanti,isthembu is not something new you are used to it nje" he
says sounding annoyed.

"Sandile you see that man" I say pointing at Zwilakhe. "That's the man I love,the man who wants
to mend the heart that you broke now leave" I hiss,I now I just lied about the mending of hearts
of hey he said he loves me so I think he better go with the flow.

"Ini a few lousy months and you tell you have moved on,I can't believe you yaz. Your father was
right you are nothing but a whore,you just hop from one man to another" he say angrily,I watch
Zwilakhe charge towards him but his mother calls him out.

"You spoke to my father" I ask in disbelief.

"He told me everything how you spent years seducing him then cried wolf afterwards" he says
looking at me with disgust,I slap the daylights out of him.

"You don't know anything about that man and what he has done to me,Sandile you chose
another women over me and married her, ngyacela bandla leave me alone. I want nothing to
do with you" I my voice is unrecognisable.

"Mhlongo wouldn't lie to me" he insists.

"Mfan' wam I think it's time for you to leave before my husband gets angry" Ma says politely.
"Wemama naka izindaba zakho" he says rudely,I think this is the last straw for Zwilakhe because
he pins him to the ground and throws punches his way.I don't blame him though Sandile came
here with that Zulu mentally of his,and disrespected the Zungu household I am surprised baba
isn't the one throwing punches.

I look at khumbulani and walk away this is all her fault,if only she could learn to shut her mouth I
swear the world would be a better place.

I spend the rest of my day curled up in bed,I have been ignoring people and pretending as if I
am asleep. I know Ma has come into this room more than I can count,as for khumbu that one
deserves whatever treatment comes her way.I really don't care what happenes to Sandile,during
one of my sessions I learned that I have been surviving instead of living,I learned that I have
been harbouring so much anger inside me. I learned that I still need and crave my mother's love
more than anything. I realised that some of that pain wasn't caused my father alone but mostly
my mother. Yes my father did all those thing to me physically but my mother damaged me
emotionally and mentally. She was there but not there,her silence and absence was felt way
more than anything I know. I spent half my life protecting her all in the name of love,I don't
regret some of the decisions I took because I know that walking away from an abusive
relationship is hard. I know that its hard for her I just parlay that one day she will get the
strength to walk away. There are two things I know about this healing journey I have embarked,I
will heal because I have a strong support system in Ma and because I want to let go. The second
thing is despite healing I will never forget, the screams, the cries ,the dragging and mostly her
painful sobs when she thought I was asleep.

I drift away into slumber after such an eventfull day I deserve some rest.

I wake up to the smell of hot chocolate and something mouth watering,I open my eyes to the
blinding light. Zwi offers me my glasses I put them on seating up properly. I must have really
dozed off if food is being brought to me.

I can't even look at him,I mean he's the first person I though would be by my side but everyone
came to check up on expect for him. I think Ma told her husband because they both checked up
on me,and I could hear them discuss me in a good caring way.

"Ma made some paella" he says giving me the plate.

"Thank you it smell amazing" I say awkwardly laughing.

"That guy won't bother you again, I promise" he says realising a sigh,it's funny because I
thought only Muss does that.
"Thank you" I say running out of words . or say.

"Eat before it gets cold" he says taking a cup from the tray,he tales sips while watching me eat.

"Zwi about Sandile I can explain" he shakes his head prompting me not too.

"It's okay,I think we should just take things slowly and be friends for now" his voice sounds more
like a whisper,his words sound rehearsed.I feel tears sting my eyes,I guess he doesn't want me
anymore.

"Just like that" I say blinking away the tears.

"Khuba do you even love me" he asks sounding so unsure of his question,I give him a blank
state not because I don't care or feel nothing but because I am confused. What if this is not love
but me seeing a savour in him.

"I don't know but I want you to know the real me first,I want you to know about my life before I
came here. I need you to love me knowing the past I come from but I fear that telling you will
chase you away" I say.

"How can you fear something that hasn't happened, what if your past will be one of the reason
my love never ends" he asks.

"But isn't that you feeling pity for me" I ask biting my lower lip while tears stream down.

"I would never pity you,your past is what moulded you into this strong beautiful person you are,I
don't know what you went though but I am here, if you need a friend then you can count on
me" he says.

"Do you believe what Sandile said about me,is that why you no longer love me" I ask.

"I never said I don't love you,the thing about love is that you can't switch it on and off when it
suits you. And no I don't believe what that skhotheni said about you,but I need you to be one
telling me what happened to you" he says in a pleading voice,I clear my thoat and tell him
everything concerning my parents.If it were up to me I would call everyone I care about and tell
them what happen all at once, I hate having to cry but today is the last time I tell this tale.by the
time I am done he's with me inside the covers holding me close to his chest.

"Say something" I say.

"Everything is going to be okay" those are Ma's famous lines,I am glad he didn't ask questions
like why didn't you walk away when you were old enough,why didn't you tell the police as if I
didn't try. I don't know what happens after this but maybe his friendship suggestion is not a bad
thing,that way we get to learn more about each other.

......
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#16

Khubelihle

Its been a week and I think i took everything he said to heart,one moment he was saying "I love
you Khubelihle" and the next he changed his tune to "let's rather be friends".

I know I shouldn't be affected or feeling anything but bohoo here i am sulking, If I remember
correctly I didn't come here to fall in love or drool,but that's what I have been doing lusting over
this man. I smile though thinking of the attempts we have been trying of having a proper
friendship.

"Only a man can make you smile like that" Ma says matching my smile.

"Hawu Ma that's not true,I was just thinking about my progress with Mhlambi" I lie,but there is
some truth to my statement. Mhlambi says I am coming along fine so far.

"Khuba I am old and I know what I am talking about,so tell me what's going between you and
my son" she asks.

"Nothing is going happen we are just friends" I say blushing.

"Oh really friends that kiss" she asks letting out a soft laugh.

"That's not true Ma" I murmur looking away.

"I am not the one who wears glasses remember" she says softly.

"I know muntu ka Khulekani" I say watching her smile.

"But honestly how are you really" she asks reaching for my hand across the table.

"I think I am okay and I am laying off the booze slowly" I say embarrassed.

"That's a good thing and remember to always draw strength for the bible and the Lord,I know
you he would never forsake you" she says sounding hopeful.

"I know but truth be told Ma,I have long lost hope and faith. I feel empty and detached
spiritually like my body is no longer his vessel but an empty dark one" I say fully acknowledging
my failure to hold on.

"You may have lost hope in him but trust me he is not done with you,all I want you to do is trust
and pray for peace. Khubelihle be a women that prays, a child of God and believe you me,you
shall see him do his work on you" she says,I can see her eyes light up as she strongly speaks
these kind words to me.

"I really want to be that but I just don't know how" I say feeling hopeless,nothing hurts than
praying and feeling as if your prayer is meaningless and it won't reach the right ears.

"Look at me" she says touching my face. "Just don't give up have patience,pray for restoration
sisi and I am here to guide you okay" she says smiling.

"I don't know what I did to have you in my life but I greatful" I say.

"What! I should be the one greatful,now I have someone I can go spend Khulekani's money
with" she says taking out her purse.

We spend most of our day shopping till we drop,mostly spending money on shoes nd a few
dresses. I have never spend so much money on expensive exquisite shoes before but hey its free
money.

I look at Ma as she browses through the lingerie,She has his naughty smile on her face. But
honestly nothing bosses your confidence that feeling and looking sexy, I know this because I
have my full on sexy days.

"This would definitely look good on you" she says holding up women's secret pyjama Largo set
that's cost R2600 but you can never put a price on comfortably or silk.

"Ma did you check the price" I ask.

"Money is no option my baby" she says taking things.

"If you say so,I might as well chose the finer things" I say picking out lacey wear to baby doll
tops,night dresses and all the sexy things you can think off.

"You seem to know your way around these things" she says nudging me,I can't help but laugh.

"Every woman deserve to have a collection" I say winking at her.

"That's my girl now let me pick up something for Khule's eyes" she says moving along leaving
me in awe,this women is amazing.

"Don't just stand there come pick something for my son also hau" she says.

"Hawu Ma" I say feeling all kinds of hotness.

"Don't hawu Ma me one day you will give it to him angithi" she says noding her head,I can't deal
with this woman shame.
We reach the house and I must say the man in this family love eating,anything food related they
love. They cooked up a storm seeing that we weren't coming back,

I appreciate men who know their way in the kitchen,Ma and Baba share a kiss when they see
each other. I proceed to the lounge my feels are killing. Zwilakhe follows me carying his son in
his arms,they look so adorable this sight could melt any cold heart.

"Skeem" he says kissing my cheek.

"How are you guys" I ask settling on the couch.

"We are fine but the baby missed you" he says.

"Lwazi or the big baby" I ask smiling.

"What does it matter" he asks.

"Mhmm okay I missed my little champ too" he gives me a smirk and moves closer to me.

"Lwazi says the feeling is mutual" he says kissing my lips,I gently pull away and give Lwazi a kiss
on his forehead.

"So what were you guys doing at the mall" he asks handing me Lwazi.

"Shopping" I say pointing to my bags,he takes a peak and whistles.

"All this for me" he asks holding one lacy set,I can't stop smiling my cheeks burn up.

"My feet are killing me" I say diverting from this topic, he takes Lwazi and puts him on the other
couch then joins me,he takes me feet onto his lap and massages them.

"This feels good" I say lowly moaning.

"I could make you feel better you know" he says slowly giving me another kiss.

"I knew it ngazile" Musa says loudly,Zwi pulls away clearing his throat.

"Yin wena" he asks going to the original plan of massaging my feet.

"Why ngathi seniyajola nina,mhlampe seniphene nje futhi" he says shaking his head.

"We are just friends" I say looking at Zwilakhe who has this smirk on his face,this one is enjoying
this way too much.

"Friends that kiss and give each other foot rubs" he says chuckling.

"Okay fine we kiss so what" Zwi asks.

"Besengisho nje omunye akaboni kodwa ekuqabuleni uphuma phambili Haa shlobo
uyangiphoxa" he say laughing.
"I hate you yaz" I say joining him while he laughs harder.

"And I love you" he says.

"Still on for our movie night" Zwi whispers in my ear.

"Yes we are" I say softly.

...

I decide to take a long bath with oils,salt the works just to more relaxed and less tired. I end up
wearing the new set of long silk pyjamas I bought. I tie a head wrap and put on some vaseline
on my lip.

I decided to use the cottage today just for some privacy. I look at myself in the mirror and put
on some perfume, a knock comes through,I respond and Zwi walks in he's dressed in his man
pyjamas.

He settles on the couch while I bring a bowl of plain popcorn and one drizzled in chocolate and
caramelised sugar for me.

I also cups of hot chocolate while he asks for beer.

"Really a whole beer on a movie night" I ask.

"It's the only thing my stomach will take" he says giving me a side smile,I give him this warning
look that he ends up passing on the beer.

"Fine I will have a cup" he says.

"We are watching Aquaman remember" he nods looking annoyed.

"I don't get why you want us to watch another man while I am here, we could Marvels avengers"
he says.

"If you must know,I prefer my man tall and dark just like you so don't worry" he bites his lower
lip and laughs,he opens his arms for me to cuddle up next him. I do so and listen to his
heartbeat steadily beating.

"You smell nice and you look sexy" he says kissing my forehead.

"Thank you" I say looking up,he stares into my eyes for longer than he's supposed too.

"Khuba" he says sofly.

"Yes" I say swallowing hard.

"You are beautiful your eyes are beautiful" he says while I cling okay to his every word,his brown
eyes are just a beautiful and charming.

"Why don't you just drink me up" I ask.

"Because if I do your soul will forever be mine" he say releasing a heavy sigh.

.....

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#17

Khubelihle

Yesterday was just amazing,I have never felt like that before being in a man's arms and feeling
safe,like I could face the world with him beside me. I ended up falling asleep right in the middle
of the second movie,luckily Zwi tucked me in and we spent the night together just like all the
nights we have been doing. Zwilakhe has made me feel special and wanted in all the right ways,I
love that about him and appreciate the fact that he doesn't push things. The moment he found
out about my sessions with Mhlambi he didn't ask too much,he only offered his support and
presence. And the fact that he is able to tolerate my fidgeting till I fall asleep is amazing, I
developed that habit soon after my father started his sick games,I would be nervous when it was
time for me to sleep and my body would react.

A persistent knock comes through waking me up,I can't even move because Zwilakhe has me
tangled up in his arms.

"Zwi" I say

"Mhmm" he says.

"The door"I say

"Okay" he says holding me tighter

"Zwi get the door" I say kicking him,he turns me around and kisses me with his unwashed
mouth,I respond nontheless with as much need as he has. He stands up to get the door,comes
back signalling me his eyes. I look behind him and Ma appears,I look at Zwi who joins me back
in bed I can't believe he just did that.

"Buyani nizongibonisa" Ma says tapping her foot.

"What's wrong Ma" Zwi asks yawning.

"Ogogo namatshali in my lounge" she says looking worried.

"Can you imagine they disturbed me and my husband not that we were asleep but that's not the
case" she says absent mindedly.

I quickly go brush my teeth put on my gown and sleepers.

"What do you mean Ma" I ask fixing my hair.

"Exactly that yey wena Zwi are you sure you didn't get anyone pregnant" she asks folding her
arms.

"Ma I know how to use a condom" he says looking at me.

"Says the same guy who got Zinhle pregnant" Ma says clicking her tongue.

"I think it time you both leave" he says.

We both turn on our heels walking away but Ma stops and look at Zwi.

"Khehla why are you here" she asks carefully looking at her son.

"Khuba couldn't sleep so I was helping her" he says..

"Yes that's true Ma I couldn't sleep" she let's out a soft laugh.

"And I was born yesterday" she says walking out,I follow behind her and just like she said two
old women and what I presume to be the young lady they came with.

"I am sorry for keeping you I had to get my daughter" Ma says politely.

"We understand MaZungu" the old woman says. They call her by her husband's surname clearly
they know this family.

"As we have said before one of your son's Bongamusa Zungu has ruined our daughter" the
other one says pointing at the girl. Ma stands up to look at the girl,I thought it would be Hope
but it's not.

"Khuluma Thobile what's the boy's name" they ask. "His name is musa" she says hesitantly.

"Khuba do you know her" Ma asks.

"I think it's best we call Musa only he can answer this" I say.

Musa wasn't here to accept or deny the allegations against him.I can't believe Musa of all people
impregnated someone and didn't say anything,that's more of his brothers style not his. I don't
know what he will tell Hope if the baby is his,Ma and her husband decided to go out for breafast
and take Lwazi with. I am left with the guys having breakfast outside since its a sunny beautiful
day,I must say their company is just as hilarious as Musa'a.

"I can't believe umithisile lomasaka" Lunga says laughing.

"He will become uSkhotheni soon" Linda says laughing harder

"Do you really think the baby is his though" I ask.

"Anything is possible with that one" Zwi says.

"But he's just a kid" Zwi looks at me and the trio starts laughing.

"There's no such thing if he can get it up and put it in he's old enough" Zwi says.

"But no maan that boy is a fool" Lunga says.

"He doesn't even have a job or a place of his own" Linda says shaking his head.

"Wait till Baba makes him daka boy" they all burst into a laugh.

"He's a bloody squatter yet he has the nerve to impregnated other people's daughters" Zwi says.

"The girl could be telling lies on my Musa" I say in his defence.

"Remember how he used to brag about his girl always being hungry" I nod.

"Usesuthi ke manje" Zwi says laughing.

I can't believe these people are making fun of such a situation.

"Well well well look who it is baba ka coming soon" Linda says pointing at Musa,I stand up to
give him a hug.

"We were worried about you" I say pulling away.

"Please speak for yourself" Zwi says.

"Why what happened" he asks looking around.

"Don't pretend as if you don't know you impregnated someone" Lunga says standing up.

"Njani when I was with Mapakisha all night long" he says looking shocked.

"Some girl named Thobile" I say.

"Hayi uyangisukela loyo,the father of her baby is probably some taxi driver or some pot belly
man" he says sounding annoyed.

"Are you sure the baby is not yours" we all ask.

"Do i look like father metarial to you guys " he asks laughing.
"Asazi baba ka coming soon,her family will be back though" Linda says standing up.

"Why ngathi one of you is the father nje or maybe senifuna lengane" he asks looking at his
shocked brothers. "If that's not the case phumani kimi bondaba" he says walking away,Lunga
and Linda follow him. I believe him but a part of is doubtful phela this one is a smooth talker.

I am left with Zwi who has me sitting on his lap,I stand up to turn on Musa's

Speaker and connect my phone to the bluetooth playing a song.

"Ngifuna ukubizwa ngama gama amnandi

Sweetie lovie baby,Ngithumelwe ama love letters,Ngifuna kube lit" the song plays

"Come dance with me" I say holding out my hand,he stands up and swoops me away.

We move around to the melody and flow of the song beautifully sharing stares and giggles from
my side.

"Why this song" he asks twirling me around.

"Because I am happy" I say coming back to his chest.

"I hope I am the reason behind you being happy" he says giving me a side smile.

"Yes you are" I say looking away,Zwi's stares are always intense leaving me weak.

"Ngidlale nabanye abantwana,I am tired of being lonely, ngibanjwe kamnandi.

Nami ngifuna uthando,Nami ngifakwe woman crush Wednesdays,throw back Thursdays .

Face time till three ek'seni,holidays in Dubai

I need someone who will love me,who will be a part of me,who will be there for me

Impilo ibemnandi nami ngiy'lufuna uthando

Ngifane nabatwana abanye,ngibizwe ngo bae lam" the song continues playing while he holds
me tight.

"How are things with Mhlambi" he asks.

"Coming along fine I am slowly getting there" I say.

"I know this is not an easy topic but you need to go see your mother" he says.

"Can we just enjoy this moment without bringing my mother into it" he nods moving his hands
to my butt.

.
After that dance Zwilakhe told me about a surprise he has for me,I was told to dress anything I
felt comfortable in. So I decided on my thigh high boots,black jeans, a white loose t-shirt and
finished up with a black biker jacket Ma got me on one of her shopping sprees.I found myself on
top of a helipad with a chopper all set,and confused when I saw Zwilakhe on the pilot seat,I
could believe my eyes when he actually flew us to some lodge. Getting there we found an
already laid out picnic set. His defence is he wanted us to witness the sun set together,in this
beautiful breathtaking place.

I have been looking at him since we got here,he has amazed me in so many ways. I won't lie I
have always thought Zwilakhe and his family are typical Zulu's. I mean this family listens to
umaskandi every Saturday and attends ingoma at the hostel.

"Ucabangani" he asks.

"I didn't know you could fly" I say.

"Khuba don't you listen when I talk to you" he asks heavily sighing,truth is everytime he speaks I
get lost in his words and practically forget what he's okay about.

"If you must know I did go to school azange ngiphume nge recess" he says chuckling. "My
father has always emphasised on the importance of education hence he took us to the best
schools,something he never had while growing up" he says.

I can tell by the look on his face that he's proud of his father.

"He's a great man" I say.

"But he has his fault like any other human being" he says burying his head on my neck. We are
facing the sun while I am in between his legs,my hands are on his knees.

"This is beautiful" I say.

"Just like you" he says whispering in my ear,I turn on my knees and kiss him.

"I want us to try and see where this takes us" I say..

"Are you sure" he asks moving his hands to my waist.

"I want you to be my first and probably last" I say matching his beautiful smile.

"Why probably" he asks frowning.

"Because nothing is ever guaranteed in life and I don't want to make promise I can't keep" he
nods slowly brushing his lips against mine,his warm breath hitting my lips he finally gives me a
kiss.
"I will always be that constant guaranteed thing in your life" he says pulling away and goes up to
my eyes kissing them.

"Dammit women I feel blessed and worthy to be seen by these eyes" he says.

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#18

Khubelihle

I think I have been cleaning this kitchen counter for the past hour,my hand hurts like crazy and
some sweat is dropping off my face that's how worked up I am.

Ma walks in followed by Khumbulani,we were supposed to be at the spar today but I just
couldn't get myself out of this house.

"Well since you didn't want to go to the spar,I brought the spar to you" she says smiling.

"You have the best surrogate mother slash mother in law" Khumbu says.

"You really didn't have to Ma" I say.

"Stop what you're doing and come join us" she says holding out her hand.

I follow suit and change into a robe joining them,these ladies have everything set they truly
brought the spar to me.

"Khuba you need to relax and enjoy this" Khumbu says moaning.

"I can't I have a lot in my mind" I say.

"Come on talk to us" Ma says,I look at the ladies and shake my head.

"It's okay sisi this is a free space,take it as if you went to the spar with your girlfriends and no
one knows you" she says breathing out.

"When is it the right time to you know do it" the ladies laugh.

"Remember Khuba we are ladies and this is a friendly girl talk" Ma says,I might as well talk no
harm done.

"Okay I need to know when is it the right time to give it up,you know have sex with your
partner" I ask feeling embarrassed.
"When you feel the chemistry deep in the heart all the way down to your clit" Khumbu says
making us laugh,trust her to say something crazy.

"What does your heart say" Ma asks sipping on her cocktail.

Yes these ladies brought a mini bar to the house,it's a shame I am laying off alcohol.

"It says I am ready" I say feeling my cheeks burn up.

"There you have it" Khumbu says.

"But what if he leaves me after that" I ask.

"Oh honey then you pick yourself up and wait for someone who will love you wholeheartedly"
Ma says.

"Or you could be just like me ufebe till your Mr right comes along" Khumbu says shrugging her
shoulders

"Don't listen to this one" she says pointing at Khumbu. "You see Khuba a man can spend years
with you waiting for the oven to give away the cookie, get the cookie taste it and walk away.
That's because he never loved you but he wanted to sleep with you. But then there are people
like my husband who taste your cookie fall drunken in love with it and never let you go. Not all
man are the same sisi and you have to know that.

"Listen to Ma she knows best" Khumbu says.

"Nothing will be easy Khuba trust me I know,but you have to allow yourself to experience all the
highs and lows of being in love,the tears the thrill and mostly the love given" she says smiling.

"Thank you Ma" I say but she holds up her hand.

"What now" Khumbu asks.

"I want you all to know awukho umuthi wendoda,just love and respect that man and take note I
didn't say be slaves niyezwa" she says softly laughing.

"You are one of a kind" Khumbu says giving her a hug.

"And went wear that read piece of yours the one with suspenders" Khumbi says.

"You think he will like it" I ask blushing a thousand times.

"Child have you seen your body that man will love it" Ma says,I think she has forgotten that we
are talking about her son.

"You mean Khehla will love it" Khumbu says laughing.

"Hay nidlala kabi ke manje" Ma says making us laugh,this woman is amazing and I don't think
she knows that.
.

I think having the spar come to me was great,I even got bullied into waxing that thing is painful I
swear I am never having a bush ever again. I have been pampered all because I told them that
tonight ngiyolihlephula,well that's what Khumbu put it. I look at Ma whose all smiles she can't
even hide it.

"You want to talk about it" I ask matching her smile.

"If you only knew the love I have for you" she says blinking away tears.

"I love you too Ma more than you know" I say giving her hug.

"Kufe bani" Musa asks from behind us,I pull away from Ma kissing her.

"The same lips that kiss amadoda anentshebe what is wrong with you women" he says sighing.

Ma turns to try and kiss him but he backs away.

"Ma don't even dare those lips kiss your husband and I don't know what" he says looking
disgusted.

"Mxm baba ka coming soon" I say.

"Don't start with me I am not in the mood" he says.

"Why are you so grumpy" Ma asks.

"Wouldn't you be grumpy if people abused you huh,your son told me to bring khuba to his new
house" he says.

You can tell by the look on his face that he's pissed.

"A new house" Ma asks excitedly.

"Yes it was supposed to be a surprise sorry" he says flinging his hand in the air.

"But you ruined the surprise nje" I say.

"Kuyafana maan I am angry" I can't help but laugh he's such a cry baby.

"Baby you go get ready Musa will drive you okay" Ma says.

"Thank you MaZungu" I say walking away.

I got myself ready and just like the ladies told me,I wore my red lingerie put on some perfume
not on the skin though. Khumbu said it sometimes taste bad as if you eat it.
Musa as promised drove me to this beautiful estate,where I met Zwilakhe waiting for me
dressed in a white shirt that was ready to pop and black formal pants.

The house is beautiful it's more of a man cave,the colours are black and silver with a touch of
dark grey,there's a lit fire place with a black furry blanket next to it and a picnic basket. I am
dressed in a coat with my thigh high boots,this was all Khumbu's idea. I feel silly what if he
doesn't want anything to happen,then surely this will make me look bad right.

I watch him bring us glasses of juice like seriously,my nerves are short and he brings juice. I have
long taken off my boots and completely made myself comfortable on the couch.

"I see you are dressed for the occasion" he says. The weather is a bit windy so my outfit is
justified.

"Yes" I say awkwardly, on the other hand I am fixing this coat that keeps revealing my
suspenders.

"Baby I think you should take off the coat it's hot in here" he says smiling.

"I rather keep it on" I say,he laughs it off and looks at me.

"Baby can I take a peak please" he says untying my coat,his eyes are still on mine I feel
hypnotised as he takes the coat off completely.

"Dammit" he says biting his lower lip.

"Is it too much" I asks.

"Sthandwa sam you are perfect" he says using his fingers to trace my lips. He starts kissing my
shoulders and neck massaging my boobs running his fingers down my spine,I take the lead and
undress him he looks shocked but allows me. He pulls away from the kiss and undresses me
slowly looking into my eyes. He lifts me up and wraps my legs around his waist,I have never
seen such beauty in one man. He gently lays me on the blanket and kisses every corner of my
body completely worshipping my body.

"Are you sure about this" he asks,I nod turning my face to the fire place.

"Khuba look at me" he says softly.

"I love you" he says

"I love you too" he moves from my lips to my thighs,I feel myself trembling but it gets worse
when he goes in between I tense up.

"It's okay" he says using his tongue to communicate with my clit,I feel this wave build up but he
stops before anything happens,he positions himself and kisses me slowly entering me. I feel this
sharp pain like needles and something tearing,I scream out but he muffles my scream with a
kiss.
"Should I go on" he asks.I can't even talk so I use my head instead he proceeds till he's deep in.

"Are you okay" I nod feeling a load of tears fall.

He kisses my forehead and starts moving slowly,he groans and loses himself in the moment.I
feel different kinds of things pain and pleasure together with need and desire. He continues
thrusting and stroking with so much care,I end up holding him tight not letting go his body
tenses up as he loudly roars on top of me,leaving me tired and sore. He eventually pulls out
breathing heavily.

"I am never letting you go not in this life time" he says holding back his tears caressing my face
then kiss my lips.

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#19

Khubelihle

I wake up to Zwi's one hand massaging my breast and his thumb rubbing my clit while his
blowing hot air in my vigina. He stops blowing and parts my vigina lips using his tongue,he
moves his tongue swiftly and dips it into my hole. I lowly moan holding his head while my other
hand pulls the sheet,I can't stop this feeling for a second I think peed all over his face. I bring
both my hands to my face hiding it,that felt so good but seriously I can't be peeing on myself at
such an age. He chuckles as he comes up to my face moving my hands,he looks at me still
smiling.

"I love you" he says thrusting in,I gasp pulling the sheet more,he slowly strokes in and out
making me moan in pleasure.I close my eyes appreciate the man on top of me,he pulls out
completely and rubs the tip of his dick on my clitoris manoeuvring it to the entrance my
vigina,he teases me making me pull him towards him that's how bad I want him now. He
eventually slids in and lifts my one leg up to his shoulder slowly thrusting in,I feel his warm tears
hit my face I open my eye only to meet his beautiful face. I move my hands from his shoulders
to his face pulling him to kiss me.

"I love you Zwilakhe" he doesn't say anything but holds eye contact. I feel this huge out of this
world feeling taking over me,I dig my nails into to skin while he squeezes my thigh collapsing
ontop of me.

"Khubelihle" he says.
"Yes" I say out of breath.

"I love you" he says pulling out,he pulls me closer to his chest.

"It's sore" I confess.

"I am sorry but I promise it's going to get better" he says kissing the top part of my head.

"Zwi how old are you" I ask,he slightly pulls away looks at me and laughs.

"Hawu baby" he says. "I did say you don't listen but worry not I am not that old" he says.

He stands up and disappears to the bathroom,I look at the sheets and cringe but I don't regret
giving my pride to him.

I take my phone from the bedside going through it,I see text from Ma and coming both saying
"welcome to womanhood" I blush think about last night and just now.

I have never been kissed like that before,he handled me with care I felt special. I strongly believe
that every girls first time should be special and be a memorable one.

He comes back and carefully lifts me up,I wrap my hands around his neck and kiss him,he softly
laughs still holding me.

"We don't want you turning into a sex addict now do we" he says putting me inside the bath
tub,he joins in and scrubs my back the allows me to rest my body on his. The water stings but
having him here is making things better,he keeps kissing my shoulders and touching my breast.

"Last night was beautiful thank you" I say enjoying the feeling of his fingers circling on my arm.

"I should be the one thanking you for giving me your pride" he says.

"Zwi we didn't use a condom" my voice comes out in a whisper.

"Khuba do you trust me" he asks.

"Yes I do" I say not sure where this will lead.

"Then don't ask me to buy that morning after pill" he begs.

"Zwi don't do this,please don't ask that of me" I say

"Why" he asks.

"I can't do it not when I myself still crave my mother's love,I just can't" I say my emotions getting
the better of me.

"Sthandwa sam don't cry" he says fully wrapping his arms around me.

"I am sorry" I say.

"Hey please don't cry" he says softly,I hold on to his arms and pour my heart out,tears can't even
describe the hurt I am feeling the emptiness that had me by its grip.

We passed by the pharmacy and bought the morning after pills,he even got us the hiv home
test. We are both negative and yes I took the pill even though I could see the he didn't want me
too. He drove us home in silence just holding my hand,we have been parked outside just
waiting.

"I think we should go in" I say.

"Before we go in I want to say I am sorry" he says kissing my hand.

"You didn't do anything" I say smiling.

"Things are okay right,I don't want Ma thinking I hurt you" he says.

"Relax things are perfect between us" I say,he gets out to come and open the door for me.

"Such a gentleman" I tease.

"Mxm ng'yagcina ukwenza lokhu" he says,I put my hand on my chest gasping.

"Ngiy'dlala wena muntu wam" he says pulling me for a kiss,I almost lose balance but he holds
me.

"Will you be okay walking" he asks.

"I think so" I say attempting to walk more like imitating a penguin.

"Maybe I should carry you" he says lifting me.

He walks inside the house,I don't know if God deserted us or what because we run into his
father.I quickly find the floor and stand on my feet.

"Nibuyile koti" he says with a smile

"Yebo baba" I say casting my eyes on the floor.

"Your mother is in the kitchen with Khumbu" I don't even say thank you,I rush to where they are.

"Welcome to womenhood" they scream as soon as they see me.

"Thank you" I say not knowing what's the appropriate answer.

"How are you feeling sisi" Ma asks giving me a hug.

"I feel okay" I say looking at a smiling Khumbu.

"That's dick glow right there" she says spanking me.

"Stop it wena" I say.

"I hope he was gentle" Ma says making me blush.

"He was amazing" they both laugh.

"Oh my word Khuba you finally did it mngani" Khumbu screams this one is crazy.

"Don't you want something to eat" Ma asks, I politely decline Zwi made sure I was fed before we
come here.

"Details" Khumbu says.

"Hayi Khumbu that's private it's between her and Zwilakhe" Ma says looking me.

"Yawena may'hlephula" Musa whispers in my ear.

"Baba ka coming soon" I hit back,he laughs but quickly wears this side smile leaning closer.

"Awuboni kodwa uyahlephula yaz nizoboshwa nalomuntu wakho " he says laughing.

"I am old hau" I say.

"Whatever makes you feel better,imagine him being arrested for sleeping with someone who
can't see" he says shaking his head. "Khuba yaz niyazenza" I laugh out loud pushing him away.

"Leave me alone" I say.

"Kodwa vele ozincinci bayawathandwa ama chipse" he says laughing.

"Sies wena" I say.

"I am kidding maan" he says walking away.

Yesterday Zwi asked that we spend the night in the cottage,According to him I am a screamer
and a scratcher. He basically said I am violent and he didn't want to scare people with my unholy
screams.

The whole family is at the hostel attending ingoma except for Ma, she chose to visit her friends.
Khumbu joined us all because she wanted to see sweaty men,I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for
Zwilakhe. But surprisingly he has gone awol on me,I have been looking for him in this crowd but
nothing.

Khumbu pulls me to the side.

"Can we go to the taxi rank I need some water" she says.

"But this place has water nje" I say.

"I want still water from the garage asambe" she says pulling me.

We make our way to the taxi rank and Khumbu goes straight to the garage,My legs hurts so I
decide to take a sit in one of the benches nears the taxis. If there's one thing I have learnt for
home is that taxi drivers are rude and intimidating. A group of taxi drivers I presume walks my
way,I feel agitated with each step they take. They try talking to me but I remain mum it's the
best I can do seeing Khumbu is still not back.

"Yey skhuluma nawe wena" The fat one says trying to touch my arm.

"Yekani leyo ngani" Another man standing in a distance says,he moves closer and scolds the
other taxi drivers.

"Thank you" I say removing my glasses to wipe my tears.

"It's okay mntanami are you waiting for someone or maybe you are looking for a taxi" he asks.

"I am waiting for a friend of mine who went to the garage" I say.

"Oh that garage provides the worst service" he says

"Thank you for rescuing me" I say looking up,he squints his eyes and kneels in front of me.

"Ngabe ngiyakwazi mntanami" he asks.

"Cha baba" I say.

"Are you sure" As I am about to answer him Zwi appears.

"Sgidi" he says,the man turns to look at Zwi then back at me.

"Zungu" he says his eyes still on me.

"Baby are you okay" Zwi asks helping me up.

"I am okay not sure about Khumbu though" I say holding his hand,he kisses my lips and
breathes heavily.

"We should get out of here" he says hurriedly,we both walk to the direction of the garage but
the Sgidi character calls Zwi. I watch them talk then glance my way,they do that for a few good
minutes till they shake hands.he walks towards me but I can't read his face I think that man did
something to upset him.

"Babe is everything okay" I ask,he looks at me and sighs.

"Everything is okay" he says leading the way.

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#20(short)

Khubelihle

I don't know what happened one moment Zwi was driving and the next,two cars came at us on
overtook him and the other was following behind,the only thing I remember is guns going off
and screams then everything is a blur. I think the cars finally collide hence I woke up in this dark
stinking place.

I have been screaming so loud that my voice is starting to fade, I also think I have run out of
tears because the moment I woke I cried and banged the doors but nothing. I am hungry,tired
and drained from all the screaming my head hurts.

The only thing keeping me sane is picturing Zwi's beautiful smile,I keep focusing on that and
how much he means to me,I still have to tell my mother that's I love her and that I am sorry for
not taking her calls.

I crawl to the corner once the door flungs open,I close my praying that they don't hurt me.
Someone drags me by my hair but I hold on to his arms.

"Please don't hurt me" I beg,I feel a kick in the stomach that completely shuts me up.

"The boss hates people who whine" The male voice says scaring me.

"Please" I say in a whisper.

"I want my Zwi,I want to go home" I say muffling my cries.

Zwilakhe

I have been pacing up and down,taking my brain and I keep coming up with the same answer
Sgidi. He is the only person I can think off,it can't be a coincidence that a few minutes after
seeing him Khuba gets taken.
"You need to calm down Zwilakhe" he says.

"How Baba when she's out there alone and scared" I say.

"What happened exactly" he asks.

"I don't know Baba it all happened fast and by the time I woke up Lunga was beside me" I say
sitting down

"What did Sgidi say to you" he asks,I look at him clenching my jaw.

"What did he say wena mfana" he asks getting worked up.

"He said Khubelihle has the same eyes as.." I can't even say the word without getting angry.

"Mpungose" he says,I look at him shocked.

"I knew there was something about those eyes,I just didn't want to believe it" he says.

"Baba I swear if he touches her I am going to kill him" I say

"If what we suspect is true then we should be worried,because that bastard will come after you"
he says.

"I refuse to believe that Khuba is related to that man" I say.

"If that's the case you have to distance yourself from her,I don't care how you do it but you have
too" he says not even flinching.

"Baba you know I can't do that" I say.

"Either that or war Zwilakhe" he says,I know he has a point but letting go of Khuba would be the
same as ceasing to exist. I would rather die than let her go my father might as well forget.

"I chose war" I say,he frowns looking at me.

"Zwilakhe ngiyakukhuza stay away from that girl and I won't repeat myself" he says.

"The car is ready we are heading there right now" I say walking out.

I walk out bumping into my Mother,she had been asking about Khuba since she came back.
Khumbu and her loud mouth told her what happened,now I have to answer to my crying
mother. I love this woman and by all means I have to get Khubelihle before I myself go crazy.

"Zwi why did you protect her" she asks,her words hit hard I know I have failed her.

"I am fixing it Ma" I say.

"Don't just fix things get my baby back" she says.

"That baby of yours is Mpungose's daughter" Baba says behind me.

"I don't care Khulekani,I don't care what you say that child did nothing" she says,her breathing
suddenly changes.

"Mkami calm down" Baba says.

"Just get her back bring Khubelihle home" she says.

"It's okay Ma I promise ngizobuya naye" I say looking at my father.

"Wait for me" he says.

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#21

khubelihle

I don't know what's more tormentors being tied up to a chair blindfolded, or not being able to
fight off these men that keep grabbing my breast,thighs and licking my face. I have never been
in a hostage situation and I don't wish this upon anyone, the fear of not knowing what's to
happen next. I prayed that they find me in time because these men have been nothing but
mean. I will never understand the pleasure such man get from hurting women, God created
them to protect but it seems like they strive in inflicting pain. I have long given up on screaming
and calling out for help,it's hopeless to say least. I swear even Zwi's face started to slowly fade as
reality kicked in,I may not know what death tastes like but I tasted the bitter end last night. They
took me back to being that little girl trapped and voiceless,I even peed on myself that's how bad
my fidgeting got. The laughter that cam after that incident broke me,I even asked for water just
to drink and you know I got a splash of cold water poured on me. That's when it came to me
either I will die of thirst or my rapidly fast beating heart.

I hear some commotion and the door creaks.

"Fix her up the boss is coming" One voice says, I feel hands on me fixing up my shirt.

"Hury up maan" the voice says again.

I hear footsteps and my nerves get the better of me,I think this is it me dying just like that.

"And then what's this" A voice asks,I can smell a fresh clean scent coming from him.
"Zungu's treasured daughter in law" another voice says.

I feel like these people are playing with me because I can't even see the or faces,not that I want
to. I don't want their faces haunting nights on end.

"Who told you to take her" He asks.

"Yimina Baba this is leverage for the mechanise they stole from us, if they don't pay up we
simply remove her" the other voices says.

"Mthokozisi you are impulsive you know that" he shouts.

"What happened to her face" he asks.

"Ewu Skhulu ibibanga umsindo lengane" one of the voices I was stuck with all night says.

"And you decide to hit her till she messed herself up" he roars asking them.

This takes me back to when my father beat my mother up till she pees on herself,I cried with her
because there was nothing I could. I always wished that I was born male so I could inflict the
same pain he did to my mother.

"Sgidi" he says.

"Mpungose what is this" Sgidi asks I recognise his voice and the name of course.

"What do you mean what's this" he asks.

"Bafo this is the same girl I told you about ngishilo kuwe ngimbone elenke" Sgidi says.

"Phumani" he says,I hear footsteps fade away and then silence. He removes the blindfold and
wiping my tears, I started weeping the moment I heard the word "Boss"

I open my eyes and the come in contact with the same yes as mine,this man looks proper and
he's my father's age I think.

"What's your name" he asks kneeling down.

"Khubelihle Mhlongo" I say,he nods and stays silent.

"And your mother's name" He asks.

"Thu... Th..her name is Thulisile .." I say feeling this huge lump on my throat.

"Thanjekwayo" he says shaking his head.

I think the Mpungose man had a change of heart because I was taken to his house,I met his wife
whose been nursing me and acting strange. All I want is to go him and wrap my arms around
Zwilakhe.
she walks in one of the bedrooms that she allows me to occupy,she's holding a tray with a plate
of food. I refuse the first gesture and I am about the refuse this one too. I can't afford to escape
smelly man and guns only to be killed by ratex never.

she looks at me and the plate takes a few bites from the plate and smiles.

"I could never poison you" she says,I take the plate and start digging in.

"You are so beautiful and you look just like your father" She says softly.

"You know my father" I ask.

"I meant you must take after your father" she says.

"Thank you for the food but I need to get out of this place" I say.

"You will once your fa..I mean once Thobani gets back" she says.

"So I must wait for the same man who kidnapped me,if he kills me just know my blood is on
your hand" I say clicking my tongue.

"Thobani would never hurt you just trust me" she says.

I have done my fair share of trusting and look where I am today.

"Can I borrow your phone" she nods handing it to me,I dial Zwi's numbers and he picks up
immediately.

"Baby" I say.

"Khuba baby is that you" he says sounding relieved.

"Baby please some and fetch me" I say looking at this woman.

"Sthandwa Sam just tell me where you are" he says.

"I don't know" I say.

"Tell him to come to the Mpungose household" she says.

"Baby I am at the Mpungose household ngiyakucela Manzini just come and get me" I say.

"okay but I strong for me okay" I nod.

"Khuba" he says.

"mhmm"

"I love you" he says.

"I love you too" I manage to say.

"Was that your boyfriend" She asks.

"Yes his name is Zwilakhe Zungu" I say.

"And you love him" I nod thinking about he's been through all night not knowing where I am.

I must have fallen asleep because I am woken up by hands caressing my face. I open my eyes
and this and his wife and next to me,I quickly move away and start hyperventilating. Mhlambi
warned me about days like this and how I should exercise my breathing better.

"Lethu what's going on" He asks trying to move closer,I shake my head stabilising my breathing
pattern.

"That's it breathe sisi" says gently soothing my back.

"You are going to be just fine" She says smiling,this women has this sense of calmness to her it
reminds of Ma.

"My name is Thobani Mpungose and this is my wife Lethukuhle" he says looking at me,those
eyes again.

"I don't want to be here I just want to go a home and be with Zwilakhe" I say looking at his wife
ignoring him.

"Don't tell me that Zungu boy is coming to my house" he say clenching his jaw.

"Thobani I had to keep her calm" she says looking at me.

"I will kill him uzobona" he says walking aways.

Lethu takes my hand and we follow her husband to the outside, to my surprise I see Zwi and his
brothers coming towards us,despite the gun in his hand I run to him and wrap my arms around
his neck.

"I am so sorry" he whispers in my ear.

"Take me home" I say,he pulls away and kisses me.

"What happened to your face" he says gently touching my face.

"It's nothing" I say.

"Do you have any idea what you have done huh,the damage and setback you have caused" Zwi
shouts pointing the gun at Mpungose.

"Careful what you say Zungu" he says getting angry.

"Stay away from Khubelihle okay" Zwi says.

"Zala eyakho ingane then tell me to stay away" Mpungose says looking me.

"Thobani calm down" His wife says.

"how do I come down when my daughter is standing side by side with my enemy" he says
completely turning my world upside down. I feel tears well up in my eyes not because I happy
but because I am angry.

"You are nothing to me, just because we share the same eyes that means nothing" he chuckles
and shakes his head

"And sleeping with the man that killed your sister is something" Mpungose roars.

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#22

Khubelihle

I have been listening to these people bickering about me as if I am not around,Zwi has been
demanding answers more than anything. I appreciate his way of trying to help me but I also
need my own answers. I need to know the truth even if it's the ugliest thing.

I wonder if my mother knows what am I even saying of course she knows. "Ingane yaziwa
ngunina" that's what my grandmother used say.

I look around and all I want is for my feet to carry me away from this place,I need to be in the
comfort of my mother's arms. I need her to tell me that this is a lie,that this is a bad dream and
that I will wake up from it. That she loves me and she would never hurt me like that,that she of
all people would never lie to me.

I want to rest on her lap and have her brush my hair,have her sing away the pain I feel that's all I
want right now.

"Thobani this is no way for her to find out" Lethu says calming her husband down.

"hlukana nami phansi Lethu ngeyami lengane" he says,I can tell he's the my way or the high way
type.

"Ingane yakho" Zwi says clicking his tongue.

"You know what let's take Khuba and leave this place" He says helping stand,but my supposed
father and his son's block the way.
"Don't test me wena mfana" says looking at Zwi.

The tension in this room is thick and slowly things are escalating.

"With all due respect I have nothing to say to you, I will walk out this door and you will do
nothing" I say standing behind Zwilakhe.

"Khuba sisi please just stay and hear him out" his wife says softly.

"I have nothing to say to him" I say.

"Nizwile gudlukani" Lunga says sternly.

"That's my daughter" he roars.

"My father's name is Themba Mhlongo you are nothing to me,I don't even know you so please
let me be" I say.

I see the guys cock their guns and it feels like I am in a horror movie.

"That monster is not your father" Zwi says,I know my father is a touchy subject to him. He hates
the man without even knowing him,I see Mpungose and his wife frown but they are the least of
my worries right now.

"What do you mean monster" He asks repeatedly.

"It doesn't matter all i know is i don't need this, I just want some peace" I say on the verge of
breaking down,I watch them move to the side and that's when relief washes over me.

"Thank you" I say holding Zwi's hand walking out.

I have been curled up in this bed after taking a long bath,Ma pampered me but no amount of
that can change my situation. I have a few bruises on my face and my stomach but that doesn't
hurt. I mean finding out that I have a father who isn't my father that's messed up if you get what
I mean.

"Sthandwa sam you have to eat" Zwi says.

"Angilambile" I say.

"Please just a few bites" He pleads.

"Food won't fix this it won't make this go away" I say in a whisper.

"Then talk to me" he says putting his hands on either side of my face.

"How could she do this to me,I understand why she would want to hurt me like this. Was i even
planned,why did she keep me if she didn't want me. I grew up with everything they loved me,till
one day everything stopped and I started feeling like I was a burden and tried by all means to
stay invisible just so I wouldn't be shouted at. You don't know how much it hurts to feel unloved
and unwanted,to have to use your body just so your father could love you and be lenient on
your mother. All along this man was here living it up and I was suffering" I say in between heavy
sobs,he has me in his arms.

"I am sorry munt wam" he says chocking on his own tears,I try looking up but he holds me tight
against his chest.

"I need to call her I need to know the truth" I say.

"You need to calm down first then call her" he says,why is he standing up for her I need to ask
her now.

"Okay then I need a drink" I say trying to pull away.

"No,alcohol won't solve anything" he says sternly.

"Zwi just a glass" I say hoping he agrees.

"I said no" he says.

"Okay a sip then I just want to forget" I say

"Seng'zokushaya ke manje" he says clicking his tongue,I try pulling out of his hold but he holds
me tight.

"I am here and I am not going anywhere" he says kissing my forehead.

I wake up to an empty bed and the first thing that pops into my head is a bar,I quickly change
clothes and sneak out of the house taking Musa's car. he's the only the one that leaves his keys
lying around.

I drive the the same bar Zwi fetched us from,I spot the handsome barman looking different
today. He has on a black suit and by the looks of it he's having a meeting. I settle for the bar and
order my drink bringing my hoody up to my face.

I take a few gulps and order another one.

"Fancy seeing you here" I look up and Zandre is standing behind the bar,I raise my glass in
acknowledgement to his presence.

"Three glasses of my most expensive booze down your throat" he says

"I thought you were having a meeting" I says.

"I just finished up" he says taking off his blazer.

"And here I was thinking you are just a bar man" I say releasing a laugh.
"I own the place" he says.

"Good for you" I say releasing another laugh that turns into a sniffle.

"Hey what's wrong" he asks coming to my side.

"Everything" I say.

"I am sorry" he says making me stand and pulling me into a hug.

"I think I need another drink " I say pulling away away from him.

"And I think you need some coffee" he says.

"You don't know what I need" I say trying to walk but stumble. He catches me in time and walks
me outside.

"I need to drive you home" he says,taking out my phone from my pocket.

"Please call Zwi" I say slowly slumping to the ground.

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#23

Khubelihle

I know I messed up defying Zwi's word but I had to let loose and get wasted, I mean my life has
been turned upside down in just a few days. Everything I know has turned out be a lie, I don't
even know where to go or turn to for refugee. In all honesty alcohol is the only thing I know to
help me cope, my mother used it each and every time she encountered her problems. I
remember as years went by she found comfort and solace in the bottle,she was never the seek
God and find strength in him person that's more Ma's style. I watched her waste away but she
always seemed happy and less troubled. I know I have disappointed him heck I am disappointed
in myself too, I thought I could kick this old habit to the curb but I was wrong.I succumbed right
at the first sight of trouble.

You see when i drink I make sure to get wasted and forget, I can't just drink two glasses and
claim to be drowning my sorrows that just won't do, because when I do that my brain starts
highly functioning and I overthink things. There's nothing scarier than having unwelcomed
thoughts crowd your mind, I am still surprised that my liver was even worthy enough to save a
life, I thought about it for a while and laughed a part of me thought "hey we failed our fellow
comrades" .

Yesterday everything took shape, it all made sense the abuse and attempts to rape me. He knew
I wasn't his and that made him being monster easy, no guilty conscious or sleepless nights.

Zandre was kind enough to bring me home, I must applaud him though for not holding a
grudge now that's a man. I couldn't keep my eyes off his tattooed chest his shirt was
unbuttoned and it was quite a sight, one moment I wanted to jump him and taste his lips. I
know it's sounds wrong but I needed everything and anything that could make me forget and
I've heard sex does wonders.

I have been awake for a while now, I just don't have the courage to show my face. Zwi is seated
on the edge of the bed his back facing me, I don't know why he chose that particular spot
because it sends out intimidation.

"Morning" I say.

Silence that's all I get,so I make way to him and put my hands on his shoulders. He rudely shrugs
them off making me back away.

"Zwi" I say softly.

"Don't you think you should bath" he says coldly.

I immediately get off and head for the bathroom, I take a long deserved shower spill a few tears
and step out wrapping a towel. I thought he would be gone but surprisingly he's still here and
his already fixed the bed.

I slowly walk to him and drop the towel revealing my naked body.

"Ungazongidina mina" he says looking up.

rejection rejection that's one voice that's screams the loudest.

"I am sorry" I say.

"For what exactly huh my father seeing you drunk or your white boyfriend dropping you off" he
asks throwing the towel my way.

"He's not my boyfriend" I say covering myself up.

"You must be kidding me is that all you heard from sentence" he asks looking shocked.

"Zwi please don't shout" I say.

"How when you came home drunk demanding to our son. What if something bad had
happened to you huh" he asks shaking his head.
"Don't you dare cry because you are selfish didn't I ask you not to drink, Khuba how many times
have I told you alcohol won't solve anything" he says more calmer.

A lot" I say.

"Then why won't you listen or yini ufundela ukuba yisidakwa" he asks.

I won't lie that hurt more than him saying Zandre is my boyfriend.

"Ngiyiso just like my mother there I said it uzokwenzani" I say.

He raises his hand in an attempt to slap me, I scream shutting my eyes only waiting for the sting
of his slap. I open my eyes and he's just standing there breathing heavily his eyes sparkling with
tears.

I think my scream alerted Ma because she comes budging in the room. "If you lay your hand on
her it will be the last thing you do because her father will kill you and not think twice about it "
Ma says.

"I did not fall Inlove with a drunkard" he says walking out.

Ma takes my hand leading to the bed luckily it already made, she pulls pulls me into her chest
and sighs.

"Ma the wheels are coming off" I say.

"I know my baby" she says softly.

"I don't know what to do everything is just too much" I say.

"I know but soon everything is going to be okay, remember what I said about trusting God and
allowing him by take his place in your life" she says.

"I don't think I trust his process" I say breathing out.

"Don't say that, look I know you are hurting but have patience" she says. "Khuba don't just
survive allow all these raw emotions to take place then heal, you don't even have to understand
what's going on just allow yourself to feel then forgive I promise that's the greatest gift you can
give yourself" she says.

"Why must I be the one going through all that,I didn't ask for this" I say.

"I think you should go home talk to your mother,right now she's the only person who can clear
things up" she says.

"What if the truth hurts" I say .

"Then you take it with a pinch of salt pick yourself up and move on" she says wiping my tears.

"But it hates so bad I want to hate her,I blame her for everything" I say .
"Khuba don't say that" she says.

"It's true everything I went through is her fault and for that i will never forgive her" I say.

I think a part of what Ma said made sense,because after our talk I found mysef packing a few
clothes. The aim is drive there and come back tomorrow,I tried calling her but she didn't answer
which is good. Because I swear I would have said things no daughter should utter to her mother
that's how angry I am.

I love that women but when I look back she has been nothing but selfish,I snap out of my
thoughts when the door opens and Zwi walks in I love this man no lies.

He settles on the edge of the bed slightly bowing his head.

"Ma says you are driving to Kwanongoma" he says.

And here I was thinking he's here to apologise kanti lutho.

"I think it's for the best" I say releasing a sigh.

"Can I come with you" he says.

"Kuphuma kuwe Zwilakhe" he chuckles noding his head.

"Khuba uya kini noma uya endodeni" he asks.

"Endodeni really Zwilakhe" I ask bewildered.

"Then what's your problem" he asks.

"If you don't know what's my problem then there's no use talking to you" I say.

Musa walks in and gives me a tight hug,he pulls away and smiles.

"Bakwenzani kodwa" he asks.

"It's pretty messed up" I say.

"Badlala ngawe ngoba ungaboni" he says smiling,I also share a genuine smile matching his.

"You are one crazy human being" I say.

"You need a person in your corner and I am just that,hayi ovuka sikhulume" he says looking at
his brother.

"Bongamusa can you please excuse us" Zwi says.

"Excuse yani when I am coming with guys " he says.

"What " Zwi asks

"Do you seriously think Ma trusts you after what you did, you almost hit a partially blind person
no offence" he says looking at me.

"Ngizokukhahlela wena mamithisa" Zwi says.

"Out of my father's kids I've never really liked you" he says looking annoyed.

"Khubelihle let's go before someone looses it" he says pulling my hand.

"Please bring my bag" I say to Zwi.

I don't think I thought things through by coming here,I don't even think I want to hear anything.
We have been parked outside the gate for hours now,I don't have the strength to walk in.

Zwi has been looking at his watch and I don't blame him,driving here really exhausted him this
was just a spur of a moment trip.

"I don't think I can do this" I say.

"You don't have to do it alone I am here" he says taking my hand into his.

"I am scared" I say.

"Baby look at me we're doing this with me by your side" he says unlocking the door.

"Whatever happens just know I love you, you are enough and more" he says kissing me.

We knock a few times till the door opens and MaV appears,she looks surprised more than
anything but lets us in nonetheless. She disappears and soon after my mother appears followed
by her husband, I notice a few fresh bruises on her face as they occupy the couch opposite us,
hurt and disappoint overwhelms me.

"Is this him" Zwi asks.

"Yes and please behave" I say.

"Khubelihle" My father says.

"Baba ninjani" I say.

"We are fine what brings you home ndodakazi yolahleko" he says looking Zwi.

"Ma can I talk to you about something important please" My father shakes his and laughs.

"Kwabani pho" he asks.

"Ma" I say .

"Khuba your father and I have no secret" she says confidently.

"Okay there is man who told me that I am his daughter,his name is Thobani Mpungose" Zwi
holds my hand tightly.

"So what" My father asks.

"Ma is the man my father or not" I ask through gritted teeth.

"Khuba I am so sorry" My mother says breaking down.

"Musa ukukhihla isililo tell your daughter about your whoring ways,how you came home carying
ivezandle lakho" My father shouts.

"Ma" I say feeling hopeless.

"Now that you know your father ngiphumele ngomuzi and tell that man I want all the money I
used supporting and putting you through school" he says pointing to the door.

I hesitate standing up but Zwi helps me up,tears stream down my cheeks I wanted my mother to
say something,anything not watch while her husband kicks me out.

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I have a supa busy week meaning things are hectic on my side,posting schedule might be
interrupted I am sorry.

#24

Khubelihle

I know what feeling sorry for yourself feels,I know what feeling alone and rejected feels like. I
know what crying yourself to sleep feels like,waking up to a pillow soaked in tears all be a cause
you couldn't help yourself. I know what praying for peace feels like,praying that the hurt and
pain goes away. I know all of that because I have been through it all. Worst all is being rejected
over and over again by the person who's supposed to love you more than anything in the
world,the one person who's supposed to stand by you through it all.

I will never understand why she chose her husband over me,I will never understand her way of
thinking and doing things. I have always stood by her through everything and all I got were
lashes and bruises,a scar that's a reminder of how much she didn't care. I think I somehow
turned a blind eye to her actions towards me,the signs were there and I chose to ignore them.
No mother would allow her husband to sleep naked with her child,dry hump that child till he
came,asked that child to pleasure him till he came. I think my mother is nothing but a broken
twisted soul,that man long broke her and she's just a fragment of what used to be.
Musa drove us home he didn't see the need for us to stay at the hotel,I cried in Zwi's arms
because I couldn't understand. It's like the mind was foggy and I kept searching for that one
thing that made sense. And all I could come up with was his beautiful smile long stares and
warm hugs.

"You're not crying" he says kissing my forehead.

"I am tired of crying" I say.

"I am sorry" he says.

"It's okay like Ma said I should take the truth with a pinch of salt" I say.

"Remember what said about you being enough and more" he says.

"And that you love me" I say.

"And that but most importantly I want you to know that I meant every word,I love you and I will
always be that guaranteed constant thing in your life" he says taking me back to the night we
watched the sunset.

"And I know I don't listen most of the time but thank you for everything" he smiles closing his
smiles.

"Baby"he says breathing heavily.

"Yes" I say.

"I know no one will address this so I will do it" he says seating up straight.

"Are you planning on having a relationship with your father" he asks.

"I don't know I barely know the man what if he rejects me or does worse" I ask.

"I won't lie and say I like the man quit frankly I hate him,he hates us too. But that doesn't mean I
will stand in your way of wanting to form a relationship with him" he says.

"What's your father's take on all of this" I ask.

"He wants me to stay away from you,my father loves you but his hate for your father goes deep"
he says sighing.

"Are you going to stay away" I ask biting my lower lip.

"What and risk having you look at another man with those beautiful eyes,I once told you that
love doesn't have an on or off switch. I love you and that will never change" he says.

I pull him closer giving him a kiss.

"And then" he asks

"That's for loving me" I say getting on top of him,he looks at me and smiles.

"Ngidle muntu wam" he says.

I look away blushing did he have to say that now I can't stop smiling.

"Okay ngizodla wena ke" he says making me look at him. "You still have the most beautiful eyes
I have ever seen" he says slowly changing positions putting me under him.I can already feel his
hard penis poking me, he slowly removes my nightie and runs his hands all the way to my
breast.

"I've missed you" he says says brushing his lips against mine,he then slowly takes my lips into his
while his one hand goes to my vigina. His thumb rubs on clit as I am still taking in the
moment,he slids in a finger and another one moving them around.

I let out soft moans he position's himself and slids in,he slowly pushes himself till he's fully in
groaning and hissing. He looks at me and breathes out heavily.

"Are you okay" I nod pulling him for a kiss.

He slowly thrust and thrusts making my toes curl,he starts moving faster hitting all the right
places. He allows me to be ontop ridding him he sits up while I move and shake ontop of him,he
has me squeezed to his chest while I have my arms tightly around his neck.

This feels good Zwi is also meeting me half way,I feel this wave ripple through me he holds me
tight loudly groaning.

I think I had one of the best mornings so far,waking up next to Zwi is always a blessing and
being sexually satisfied is liberating. I feel like some tension has loosened up and my body feels
relaxed,except for my waist and burning cookie.

I move from the sink to the couch joining Khumbu,I haven't seen her in such a long time she
lookes flushed and not her usual self.

"You look horrible"I say.

"I know" she says forcing a smile.

"Khumbulani what's wrong"I ask moving closer to her.

"Promise you won't judge me" she says looking up.

"I've never done that before so I won't start now" I say.

I watch her nod together with her falling tears.

"Khumbu you are scaring me" I say.

"I cheated on John and got myself pregnant" I gasp putting my hand over my mouth,John is a
possessive maniac who cares only about what he can get and nothing else.

"Who's the father" I ask.

"It's no one you know" she says looking away. "Khuba I am having an abortion I don't want this
baby" she says catching off guard.

"Say something" she says.

"I don't know what to say are you sure about this" I ask feeling concerned.

"No but if John finds out,I will lose everything,Khuba I can keep it" I pull her into a hug while she
weeps painfully.

"Khumbu what happened to the last pregnancy which was his" I ask.

"He beat me up till I was unconscious and left me to for death" she says.

"Then don't kill this innocent soul just walk away from John and start over" she pulls away and
chuckles.

"Easy for you to say Khuba your father is a king in the taxi industry ,your boyfriend happens to
be filthy rich so please ngixege and let me do what's best for me" she says.

The tone of her voice is harsh and defensive.

"When is your appointment" I ask.

"I haven't made one yet" she says wiping her tears.

"Soon as you do i will come with you and don't worry I will be there every step of the way" I say
looking away.

"Khuba I am not a bad person" she says softly.

"I know " I pull her into a tight hug silently praying she finds peace.

I could never judge her for what she thinks is best for her,I could never expect her to put herself
in an uncomfortable situation.

Khubelihle.
It's been a week since everything took place,I am slowly getting there and hopefully Mhlambi
shall agree soon.

I asked Musa to drive me to my father's place,he was more than happy to tag along.

You would swear they were expecting us,his son's together with his wife are here.

"We are happy to have you here mntanami" Lethu says,I look at a Musa who has been nudging
me to speak up.

"I don't know why I am here,I don't even know where to start" I say wiping the sweat on my
palms.

"We can start at the beginning" my father says. "I would like to introduce you to your brothers
Mthokozisi and Thokozani unfortunately your sister passed away but she left a child her name is
Zamokuhle" he says bringing foward a beautiful girl probably six or seven years old.

"Saw'bona " she says softly all along she's holding her grandfather's hand.

"Hey" I say.

My mind jots back to what this man said on our first encounter about Zwi killing my sister,I
didn't really pay much attention to it but seeing this innocent child tears me apart.

"I think we should give you two some privacy" Lethu says escorting everyone out.

I am left with my father,I look up and see some key features we share. For the first time ever I
can tell who I look like other than my mother.

"Did you know about me" I ask.

"Yes and no" I nod.

"I don't want much from you because I already have a family in Zwi's. That family took me in
gave me a job and showed me love,God knows that I am greatful for everything they have done
for me. Mam Lindo has given me love more than my own mother. But I need my own family,I
need to belong somewhere" he nods clenching his jaw.

"My own mother chose her husband over me and that hurts,she never loved me like a mother
should. My own mother has rejected me over and over again,I just pray and hope that you don't
do the same" I wipe my tears together with snorts.

"I would never reject you" he says using his thumb and index finger to subtly wipe his tears.
"What happened to you in that house" he asks.

"Somethings are better left in the past" I say.

"Khubelihle please I may not be saint and I know you don't owe me that much,but as your father
I deserve to know" he says.
"My fa.. I mean Themba did things to me a father wasn't supposed to do,and let's say I have
scars to show that" he moves from where he's seated and hesitantly brings me into a hug. It's
awkward but he doesn't let go.

"I am sorry I wasn't there" he says.

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Will probably meet again later.

#25

Khubelihle

I have never seen so much coming out of one person before,I didn't think I would get through
the process but I had too. I stayed up and watched her scream and pull her hair like a mad
woman. I cried with her when she thought she was dying,I cried because there was nothing I
could do to help ease the pain and guilt. We used the bath tub it was the only thing I saw
befitting for such an occasion. I don't want to ever go through something like that,the doctor
did warn us about the cramps and he wasn't playing that was two days ago.

I kick off my shoes and slump on the couch looking at my Jack Daniels. I am tempted to drink so
bad just to wash away my guilt,I don't know why because I am not the one who aborted a three
month pregnancy.

I reach for my phone and dial my father's number,I quickly cancel the call and sigh.

I don't even know what I was going to say.

He's calling back I let it ring till he ends the call,he calls again and again till I gain the courage to
answer it.

"Khubelihle mntanami" he says on the other end.

"Baba" I say.

He laughs pauses then laughs again.

"Nothing warms my heart than hearing you call "Baba" how are you doing" he asks.

"I am good I ..I.." he laughs again.

"It's okay to run out of words sometimes ,I am just glad you called me even if you don't say
much" he says.
"How's Zamo" I ask.

"She's okay you should come visit her" the says.

"Uhm baba I have to go" I say.

"Khuba is everything okay" he asks.

"Yes everything is okay" I say.

I hear the door open it could only be Zwi.

"Please call again even if you want to talk to Zamo I don't mind" he says ending the call.

I stand on my feet and throw myself in Zwi's arms,he holds me tight then pulls away and looks
at the table.

"How many glasses" he asks.

"Not even one" I say.

He nods takes the bottle and downs it down the sink,he comes back and pulls me to the couch.

"Ngena la" he says opening up his arms,I rest my head on his beating chest.

"How's your friend" he asks.

"She's sleeping but okay" I say.

"And how are you feeling sthandwa sam" he asks kissing my forehead.

"I am good and I called my father" he slightly pulls away and looks at me.

"And what did you guys talk about" he asks.

"Nothing I just felt like calling him and he was kind over the phone" I say.

"Okay" he says.

"How was your day muntu wam" I ask.

"I missed you and I was horny"he says.

"We could fix that right now" I say putting my hand inside his trousers.

"Not when your slay queen friend is here,kanti uhamba nini vele I mean she lives right next
door" he says grunting.

"Zwi she needs me" I say.

"And where was she when you needed her the most" he asks.

"Zwilakhe please" I say.

"Fine but this thing of yours playing mother Teresa izongidina mina" he says.

"Hawu bakithi khehla la Lindo don't sulk wena babazi" I say stifling a laugh.

"Sizoxabana njalo" he says tickling me,he stops and pulls me in for kiss.

"I love you Khuba" he says kissing my nose then my lips.

"I love you too Zwi" I say.

I woke up feeling happy and lighter all because my man gave it to me,you know what they say
about a silver lining and light at the end of the tunnel,that me right now I think things are going
to be okay.

I am blessed to have a family that love me the Zungu's though I doubt that there will ever be
peace between the two families.

The family is out and I am left with Lunga which is strange,usually it's just me and Must.

"You seem far away" Lunga says settling next to me.

"I am just thinking about Khumbu" I say.

"What about her" he asks.

"Nothing she just has a tummy bug that's all" I say.

"Tummy bug when did it start " he asks.

"A few days ago" I say clearing my throat.

"Is she better now" he asks.

"Lunga what's with the questions" I ask.

"Nothing I am just being a concerned friend" he says laughing.

"Mhmm if you say so".

He stands up and walks away whistling,I think I prefer Musa's company he's less intimidating
and he's a straight talker.

Khubelihle

I am inside an ice skating arena,of didn't know Zwi could skate which took me by surprise. He's
pretty good and I am clueless praying I don't fall. I have been holding on to the side watching
him do his thing. This fool has been smiling at me and blowing kisses busy showing off,either
way I love him with everything I have.

"Are you sure you weren't white in your previous life" I shout.

"What" he says looking confused.

"First the chopper now this" have laughs sliding towards me.

"I am just trying to impress you" he says slowly pulling me.

"What if I fall" I ask holding my breath.

"What if you don't" he says smiling.

I swear each time this man smiles,I feel these butterflies in my stomach.

"How's your friend doing" he ask steadily holding my hands.

"Fist it was Lunga now it's you what's going on" I ask.

"Nothing" he say smiling real hard.

"Out with with Zwilakhe Zungu" I say.

"Fine Lunga has been sleeping with your friend" he says shrugging his shoulders.

I suddenly feel cold and drained.

"What" I ask.

"Bayalalana"he says slowly.

I close my eyes and pray for her sake that the baby wasn't Lunga's,or we are both dead.

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#26

Khubelihle

Its been a few days and i have been getting much sleep much after that talk with Zwi. I kept
thinking about Khumbu and her situation. She said I wouldn't know the father and I really hope
it's true,I can't be caught in such situation where I have to explain my morals and beliefs. All I am
saying is that Khumbu took a decision on her own and as her friend I supported her. I might not
be for what she did but there was nothing I could do. You see here's the thing with growing
up,you start realising what's good from bad,right from wrong. You are forced to start making
decisions that might ruin or make you. You are forced to step up and grow even when you don't
want too,I knew that from and early age,I just don't think my friend knows that.

Khumbu likes depending on people men in general,I don't judge her she has the looks and the
body. There was a time I thought she would use all that to build something of herself,you know
ride the wave for as long as she can. But then again my friend has always been trouble and I
have learned to live with it.

"You really good sisi" Ma says smiling.

"I feel good" I say.

"Clearly Mhlambi is doing a great job" Ma says sipping her tea.

If she only knew that Zwi has everything to do with me being happy.

Today is tea day and we get to discuss everything and anything.

"He says we still have a long way to go" I say.

"That's understandable he's a professional and he knows what he's doing,I am just happy that
you're smiling again"

"All thank to you and your prayers" I say.

"Tell me how are things with your father" she asks.

"Things are going good,he's really trying to build a relationship with him and I think he cares" I
say.

My "father" it feels good sating that without cringing and feeling disgusted.

"Despite everything else that man loves his family" she says softly laughing.

"Ma what really happened between the two families" I ask.

"It's along story and a sad one too" she says sadly smiling,I reach for her hand and squeeze it.

"I just want to understand why Baba hates my family like that" I say.

"Khulekani and Thobani have always been arch enemies,they have always been business rivalries
and they clashed every once in a while. Khulekani took things further by wanting to venture into
the taxi industry,that's when your father retaliated and things got messy. Your father sent his
people and they invaded my house and killed my daughter.And that's when Khulekani killed
your sister as revenge, both Lethu and i lost our daughter's because of their unending war" she
releases a sigh wiping her tears.
"Was Zwi the one who killed my sister" I ask

"I don't know because I never asked,but even if it was would you blame him though" she asks.

"Ma did you know that she left a child behind" she shakes her head.

"That's because you never asked,I can't look at that child without thinking about her mother's
killer's. A mothers love is everything but she will never know that,because the world robbed her
of it" I say blinking tears away.

"I will not apologise for what happened because I too lost my own daughter, but if there's one
thing you can do is to love her. Khuba give her your love because nothing and no one will bring
your sister back" she says.

"I didn't mean to upset you Ma" I say.

She stands up and opens her arms giving me hug.

"I am not upset,I was just telling you the truth I love you and I will never lie to you" she says
kissing my cheeks.

I am wearing a short dress and Zwi has his hand in my underwear he's been rubbing on my clit
and finger fucking me.

I keep moaning and pushing myself foward.

I undo his belt and pants taking out his shaft,he looks at me smiles taking off my panties he
sniffs them up making me want him even more. Once that's out of the way he slids in.I let out
moan after moan as he pushes himself in and out,this couch is doing wonders my legs are
wrapped around his waist. He's grabbing my thighs while he thrusts in and out slowly,I feel him
in all the right places till he starts moving faster giving me pain and pleasure. My screams and
moans get louder and louder as he's body tenses up and comes.

He stays inside me for a whole before pulling out.

"I hope I didn't hurt you" he says taking of his shirt to wipe us off our sweat.

"No you didn't" I say.

He pulls me closer to his bare chest and starts humming this melodic tune.

"Baby is everything okay" I ask.

"Of course just that i love you that's all" he says going back to his tune.

"I love you too" I say.

"I know you do" he says.

"I am for real I love you and only you" he let's out a soft laugh and kisses my forehead.

"Then allow me to plant my seed in you" he says.

I run out of words to say and settle for being silent,my father said it's okay to run out words
sometimes.

"You know what forget I even asked" he says.

"Zwi don't be like that" I say.

"I understand you don't want my child" he says chuckling.

I move from his hold and kneel in front of him.

"Sthandwa sam I love you with everything in me,I know you want me to be the mother of your
kids but it's soon" he raises his eyes brows considering we have been dating for months.

"Just listen give me time then we can talk about having babies,I mean we have Lwazi whose a
handful and Zamo whom I just found" he nods smiling even though his smile is not convincing. I
move up and kiss his lips.

"Noma ungakwata I love you" I say.

"Khumbu is inviting you to a party" he says with my phone in hand.

"Tell her I can't come" I say.

"I think you need to have fun go" he says.

"Are you sure" I ask.

"Yes I am beside I need to work on a project" he says

"Don't you want to come with me" I ask.

He slightly tilts his head looking annoyed.

"You need to work got it" I say flashing him a smile

Khubelihle

I know I had my reservations about this party but not anymoe ,well it's a house party to be axact
hosted by the one and only Zandre.

Musa tagged along which is great,he didn't need to be told twice. I think this one loves booze
more than anything,it turns out John and Zandre are friends not that I mind or anything.
Khumbu is with John and well Musa is being himself scoring ladies,must be nice having hardcore
brothers you get away with everything.

I move from the bar to the outsidevever looked at the sky and saw nothing but the blue night
sky, that's what I am seeing today no stars just the sky.

"Beautiful night" Zandre says from behind me.

"I doubt it" I say.

"Let me guess just because you don't see any stars" he says.

Yes but I won't admit that.

"No because I miss someone" I say.

"Your boyfriend" he asks.

"My mother she had this belief that if you looked at the sky before bedtime you would wet your
bed" he smiles.

"Well that's what most black parents believe" I say.

"I wouldn't mind believing in anything you believe in" he says.

No lies this man standing I front of me is handsome and his blue eyes are breathtaking,should I
even be saying this

"I think I should get my drink" I say.

"I didn't see you drink anything" he says.

"I just ordered a tall glass of a bloodymarry no alcohol though" his face changes but hey I am
laying off that stuff.

"You know what let me rather have juice or lemon water with lots of ice" I say.

"Then hit the dance floor" he says leading the way to the bar.

Musa is having a ball amd i guess he's chilled. Because seeing me with Zandre hasn't sparked
anything,I suddenly have this urge to throw up maybe it the heat and lights.

"I need the bathroom sorry" I say moving away from him.

I hear Musa's voice from a distance,my head hurts though it's on a fluffy pillow.I must have
dozed off but how I barely had any alcohol or maybe I did I just don't remember.

I open my eyes and Musa is shouting well close to crying,I can't really read him.
I look at my surroundings and panic kicks in,it's then I realise I am stark naked and so is Zandre. I
think Musa punched him because he's bleeding,I blink a few times close my eyes hoping to be
dreaming.

I open them looking at Musa then Zandre,I shake my head tears welling up.

"Musa I didn't" I say.

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Khubelihle

I don't know what happened or how but confused is the right word. I found myself attacking
Zandre more like hysterically lashing out Musa really did a number on him though,I have never
seen him that angry before I think he looked disgusted and confused at some point,he even had
tears in his eyes and that's all my doings.

We left a bloody unconscious Zandre in that bed not that I care, He says he doesn't remember
much just him following me to the bathroom,I know all of that because he wanted to check up
on me but what happened after that.

I am just glad Musa took me to a private clinic for necessary tests,the doctor noticed that I had
some tear on the entrence of my vigina. I don't know if it's from Zandre or Zwi,I mean I had sex
with him just a few hours before the party. Zwi always leaves a mark showing he was there so I
am confused as hell.

"What happened Khuba" Musa asks.

"I don't know" he looks at me and hits the steering wheel.

"Why isn't my brother enough" he asks in a low tone.

"How could you ask that,you of all people know how much I love Zwi" I say.

He chuckles and shakes his head.

"I would never hurt him Musa you have to believe me" I say.
He stops the car gets out and starts screaming kicks the tires,I know he's hurt more than angry
that's how much he loves his brother. He gets in after his dramatic stunt and starts driving in
silence,I am here thinking about Zwi and how I will face him.

"I am sorry" he says realising a sigh.

"Musa I am scared" I say.

"Everything is going to be okay let's just go home and tell bhuti what happened, I know he will
understand" he says.

"Ini no I am not going home,just take me to my father's place" he looks more confused that
before.

"Why I mean you need to talk to bhuti first so he can help you,I doubt that guy is dead do he
can finish him off" he says.

"I can't tell him,this is our secret no one has to know" I say.

"He raped you" he shouts.

"Musa we don't know that so stop" I shout back.

He looks defeated but he can't tell Zwi not ever,I won't be able to stand the look of pity he
might give me. Sure Zandre might have done me bad but how long have I been a victim,how
many times have people felt sorry for me. As bad as it may sound I would rather live with not
knowing what really happened,than to have another nightmare on top of what I already have. I
won't be able to stand the questions, what were you doing in a toilet with a stranger?as I told
him to follow me what happened?

What happened didn't you feel him on top of you. All these questions insinuate that I somehow
could have prevented what happen to me,the only person I care about is Zwilakhe I don't want
to put him through this.

"What are you going to tell your father" he asks.

"Nothing I just want to be home" I say.

"You are getting me into trouble by not coming home with me" he says.

"I will talk to Zwi don't worry" I say.

"Are you going to be fine though" he asks.

"I will just promise you won't tell him" he sighs but nods anyway.

.
He drops me off at my father's place,I know it's ungodly hours but this is the only place I felt like
coming too. It seems like everyone is up except for Mam Lindo and Zamo the one soul I just
wanted to hug.

"A party you say" Thokozani says.

"That's what I said" I say forcing a smile.

"You smell pretty fresh for someone who just left a party" he says slightly tilting his head.

I don't have a come back while Musa was throwing punches,I ran to the bathroom and
showered I wanted Zandre's scent off me so bad.

"So what's really going on" Mthokozisi asks.

"Nothing" I say.

"Mhmm should we call dad maybe" Mthoko says raising his eyebrows.

"I..I just missed you guys that all" I say.

"That's it we're calling Khuba himself" Thokozani says.

Just before they call him he joins us in the kitchen.

"Inzalo yam madoda" he says with a big proud smile.

"Why aren't you sleeping" Tholozani asks.

"Maybe you should buy a house then ask such questions" baba says coming over to my side.

"Bubu what's wrong" he asks looking at me.

He calls me Bubu simply because he can and uyangiteketisa his words not mine.

I feel cornered I don't need all this I just want to sleep and eat that's all.

"I think that's our queue to leave" Mthokozisi says looking at Thokozani.

"You and your brothers will kill me,they just came in not so long ago just like you" he says.

I guess I am not the only one who came in the wee hours of the morning.

"Why do bad things happen to us" he looks taken aback. "I mean people in general,why aren't
we made the same" I ask.

"Let me make you some hot chocolate with mush mellows" he says.

I watch him do his thing and pours himself some milk with cinnamon.
"We not made the same because we aren't the same,we are different and unique in our own
special way. There has to be some balance in order for things to work,I don't know why bad
things happen but that's just the way of life" he says.

"I want to hate you" I blurt out.

"I know" he says.

"I want to blame you for everything Themba put me through,the beatings,the Insults the
molestation and me drinking but that wouldn't be fair" I say.

His face changes at least they have something in common with Zwilakhe their hate for my
stepfather.

"I didn't know all of that" he says.

"Yet you knew the possibility of me being out there" I say.

He comes to where I am and brings me into his arms,I think this is long overdue because my
tears coming falling down profusely.

"Talk to me" he says.

"The world is harsh no matter how much you try its brutal and I don't want that. All I ever
wanted was peace I just want to stop feeling this way" I say sobbing.

"I am so sorry" he says.

Khubelihle

I finally fell asleep after crying like that,and surprisingly my father stayed with me. I decided to
put my phone on silent Zwi has been calling like crazy. He wants me home and that's that,I love
him but I can't deal with him right now. I had this urge to call my mother but I just couldn't
bring myself to dial her.

Lethu walks in followed Zamo.

"Ncane" she says happily hopping her way to my bed.

"Hey princess" I say.

"Morning sisi" Lethu says

"Morning ma" I say.

"I hope we didn't wake but someone is here to see you" she says.

"No one knew that I am here" I say.

"Well he does" she says allowing Zwilakhe to get in. "Don't worry your father and his son's are
out Zamo woza" she says.

If this doesn't show how great this woman is then I don't know.

They walk out leaving me with him,he looks okay I think Musa kept his word.

"Sthandwa sam" he says kissing my forehead.

My whole body tenses up and goes ice cold when he touches me.

"Baby" I say.

"You had me worried,I waited for you to come home but Musa said you're here" he says trying
to hold my gaze.

"I am okay" I say avoiding eye contact.

"Bubu look at me" he says sternly,I look up to see him smiling but you can tell his concerned.

I love this man and telling him will break him. I have come to know Zwi and he act before
thinking,he's a strong man but when he breaks he tumbles down.

"You don't look okay muntu wam" he says

"And you're a brave man coming here" I say.

"That's because I love you even if it means having your father in my life" he says.

"Getting cheesy on me" I say trying to laugh.

"Ngifuna ulifake kakhulu lekhubalo" he says smiling.

My phone vibrates from under my pillow,I reach for it and I have been sent a text I view the
content and a picture of me in Zandre's arms shows,we look so cosy I almost want to puke.

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#28

Khubelihle
It's been been a week and I have been cooped up in my father's house, i must say things are
great my father is an amazing man. I don't agree with how he conducts his business but he loves
his family and that's what is important. He still doesn't approve of my relationship with Zwi,he
hates him and doesn't hide it. I think it's better like this knowing where you stand with someone.
Speaking of Zwi I haven't spoken to him since that morning,I am grearful to him for
unknowingly giving me some space. I have head days where I wanted to pick my up and call
him,tell him everything tell him how scared and lonely I feel without him.

But each time I wanted to tell him pictures piled up on my phone,I know sick people but
whoever is playing this game is twisted.

I even took a few sips that turned into gulps then the whole bottle,all in the name of wanting to
shut everything out. I know people will judge me but I am tired and yes I can't stop drinking
because everytime I do some weird crazy shit happens. It's like I am taking two steps forward
and tens steps back. My stepfather used to tell me "life doesn't owe you anything" and you
know what he was actually right. Life doesn't owe you anything,sure we get dealt with different
life cards but that's just life. It's one messed up circle that keeps going on and on.

I look at myself one more time,I woke up early to go jogging just to clear my mind.

I walk past Baba in the kitchen drinking some shake,that's his morning thing I join him settling
on the high chair.

"Baba" he smiles looking up.

"Bubu" he says.

"Want something to drink" he asks

"No thank you how about you join me for a jog" I ask.

"Okay but before that I want to talk to you" he says.

"Mhmm" he raises his eyebrows.

"You have been here for a whole week not that I mind or anything,but I feel like something is
bothering you if it's that boy tell me I can sort him out" he says.

"I don't know where to start it's complicated" I say.

"From the begging uncomplicate for me surely this old man will understand" he says.

"On the night of the party I ..I .uhm something .." his phone rings but he ignores it looking at
me.

"You can take it" I say.

"They can call back right now I want to listen to my daughter" he says giving me a smile.

"I think something happened to me but I am not sure" he frowns clenching his jaw.

"Khubelihle what do you mean" he asks breathing heavily.

"I don't know" I say.

He breathes in and out surpressing his anger.

"Did someone hurt you" he asks.

"I think so" I say

"Bubu did someone rape you" he asks.

"I woke up naked with another man whose not my Zwi and I don't know how that happened" I
say breaking down.

He blinks away tears that are already falling,he closes me in a hug tightly holding me.

"Baba I am sorry" I say.

"Don't be it's not your fault but mine I failed you so many times,I even failed you now what kind
of father am I" he says.

He pulls away breathing heavily starts pacing up and down. He shouts and disappears coming
back with his gun.

"What's his name" he asks more calmer.

"Zandre his name is Zandre" I say.

It's been hours since Baba, Mthokozisi and Thokozani left. We haven't heard from them since,I
am partly worried about Zandre when I woke he looked as confused as I was.I take my phone
and dual Ma's number it's times like these I need her wisdom.

"Hello Ma" I say.

"Hello my baby how are you" she says.

"I am good how are things" I ask.

"Oh everything is okay sisi we just miss you" she says.

"I miss you too,Ma how is Zwilakhe doing" I ask.

"I haven't seen him in days Musa as well" she says.

Thas odd I wonder where they are,must be work though.

"Oh that's strange" I say.

"Khubelihle are you okay,why did you just leave like that" she asks.

"Everything is okay Ma I just needed sometime to myself" I say.

"Okay Lwazi misses you please come home" she says.

"I will and I love you ma"I say.

"I love you too Khubelihle" she says.

I end the call thinking about Khumbu naye she just disappeared nje,I haven't heard from her
since that morning except for her text telling about a trip she's taking with John.

Khubelihle

Zwilakhe called me after my talk with Ma,I was nervous about meeting him hence I took a few
sips of my father's scotch.

I drive to the house our house as he usually puts it,its quite late but I have an over night bag just
in case he wants us to spend the night here. I pull over in the drive way it's time I get my own
car soon.

He welcomes me with a hug and kiss,I can't help but inhale his cologne.

"Sthandwa sam" I say.

"Bubu" he says.

Konje he learned a new name from my father and he's starting to abuse it shame.

"I missed you muntu wam" he says.

"I've missed you too" I say.

"You are beautiful in fact you are glowing" he says kissing my forehead.

"That's what good sleep does" I say.

Surprisingly through out this whole thing I have been sleeping more than usual,I spend most my
days in my bedroom sleeping or eating must be the stress.

He takes my bag leading me to the lounge something is off about him but I follow nonetheless
,I still believe this house is beautiful the subtle colours and modern touch is out of this world.
I follow him and settle on the couch taking off my shoes,he comes over and leans for a kiss
slowly running his hand down my neck,he pulls away and smiles.

"You know sometimes people do try to change and do better but then things happen" he says
awkwardly smiling.

"What do you mean" I ask feeling confused.

"I mean you fall in love with someone only for them to hurt you" he says

"Zwi" I say.

"Do you love me Khubelihle" he asks taking me by suprise.

I slowly nod looking at the gun the puts on the table.

"Then why" he says shoving his phone in my face.

"I can explain" I say.

He lowly chuckles bowing his head.

"I would like to hear you try" he says.

"I don't know what happened or how but I didn't..." he slaps me as I am about to finish talking.

"You are just like Zinhle cut from the same cloth" he shouts slapping me once again.

I hide my face while he pulls me by my hair,I grab on to his hands just so he doesn't pull a chunk
of my hair off.

"I gave you plenty of time to come clean but still you said nothing" he roars.

"Ng'yaxolisa" I say weeping.

He starts beating me up till I curl up into a ball trying to protect my myself.

He eventually puts his knee on my neck closing my wind pipes.

"Zwi please" I beg struggling to breathe

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#29

Thobani
I know I haven't been the world's greatest father,I have failed Khubelihle in ways a father
shouldn't. I wasn't there for in her childhood days and I also wasn't there to protect from her on
the night of that party,I won't lie hearing her say she doesn't know,she doesn't remember broke
me. I have seen such things happen but I didn't think it would happen to my own flesh and
blood. I hate Thulisile for choosing money over our love, she might have been my first love but
the hate I have for her surpass everything.

Our daughter suffered in the hands of that scumbag of her husband but she still said
nothing,what kind of a mother doesn't feel her child's pain.

A lot of things don't add up here,Mtho thinks someone spiked her drink but why. Even that
stupid white boy was useless hence I couldn't spare him,no one touches my family and gets
away with it.

Zungu's youngest called to let us know about Bubu being in the hospital,I immediately knew
that Zwilakhe boy did something to her.

"Baba yehlisa umoya" Lethu says brushing my arm.

"Did you see her" I ask.

She slowly nods holding my hand.

"Then don't tell me to calm down,I should have stopped this relationship the moment I knew
about her non of this would have happened" I say.

"Blaming yourself won't change the situation"she says.

"Mawabo I have failed my daughter I can't lose her,I need to give her all the love I never did" I
say.

"I understand Thoba but don't kill the boy" she says.

"If you understand then you stay out of this one,uyabona loya mfana uzongifunda angiqonde" I
say.

"Then you are starting another war" she says.

"He started it by trying to kill my daughter" I say.

"And what happens when she wakes up and learns what you did she might end up hating you"
she says.

"I would rather have a daughter that hates me than a dead one" I say.
"I know you are angry but these two kids love each other,if only people could let them be I
suspect there's more to this someone is behind all of this" she says making me question the
number of enemies I have,and who would go far as having my daughter raped.

"If that's the case then they are messing with the wrong person,because I will hunt them down
and kill them" she deeply sighs looking ahead.

"Let me go sit with Lindo she's having a difficult time with this whole thing" she says fixing her
dress.

"I don't care her son is the cause" I say clicking my tongue.

"Kodwa waba njani,Thobani that woman is practically Khuba's mother" she says.

"Pho ngingenaphi mina lapho" I ask.

She grabs her bag and sways her hips walking to that women .

I take out my phone and dial Sgidi.

"Skhulu" he says.

"I need that Zungu boy dead" I say.

"Which one Skhulu" he asks.

"Who else besides the next in line" I say.

"Kodwa Skhulu that's like killing Zungu himself" he says.

"Sgidi kill that boy,it's time I finally dealt with Khulekani once and for all.I want to hit him where
it hurts I want to cripple him" I say.

"How should we do it" he asks.

"Whether uthumela lento ngezulu noma uyifaka inhlanvu anginandaba I want him dead" I say.

"Ngiyezwa Skhulu sam" he says hesitantly

It's been hours waiting for the doctor to update us,the boys decide they will join Sgidi which is
better that seating here scaring and shouting at people.

He slowly makes his to me Lindo and Lethu join as soon as he asks for the family.

"I am her father " I say.

"I am doctor Malibongwe Ndlozi" he says extending his hand for a handshake.

"How is my daughter" I ask after shaking his hand.

"She's lucky to be alive but we had to put her in a medically induced coma" he says.

"Coma why" Lindo asks.

"Mam you daughter sustained a head injury and her body was on the verge of shutting
down,putting her in a coma will allow her body to fully recover on its own" he says.

"Will she be okay I mean people who slip into comas sometimes don't wake up" Lethu asks.

"Please don't worry as I said the coma is to help her body,and it's safe for both the mother and
child" I raise my hand.

"The what" I ask.

"The baby sir your daughter is pregnant we were lucky to notice the bleeding just in time,luckily
there's no damage" he says.

"I am going to kill that boy myself" I say.

"Thobani please not now" Lethu says.

I look at Lindo whose holding onto Lethu crying,I know she cares about my daughter but her
son went too far this time.

And why would Khuba get pregnant by this boy,out of all the men in the world she chose this
one why.

Khumbu

I look at the pile of clothes on top of my bed,I just can't seem to find the perfect outfit for my
meeting. I am both nervous and excited this meeting might change my life forever,I might have
what I have always wanted all along love,money,status and power.

I remember the first time I saw him watering his mother's plants shirtless,I swear he took my
breath away right there and then. I wanted him and only him handsome,tall and strong I had
found my perfect match in him.

But then who wouldn't love Zwilakhe he looks like a walking God,every woman I know wants a
piece of him. I just didn't think he would notice Khuba,she beautiful breathtaking men worship
the ground she walks on and swoon over her.And those darn eyes they seem to hypnotise
everything and everyone. But I never thought Zwilakhe would fall for her,boy was I wrong he fell
in love at firstsight or should I say first voice.

Khuba has always been perfect and loved,she's everything I ever wanted to be but my mother
used say " uKhuba unogazi".
But that doesn't change the fact that I was there waiting for him to notice me but he didn't,to
him I was just that ratchet next door neighbour.

I wear my off shoulder black flowing dress that has a slit and some sandals,I grab my back and
head to my car. I am meeting with Mr Zungu at his office,that way people won't ask to many
questions.

I arrive and find parking I am let though without any hassles. I make my way to his office and
knock before entering, this is one man you don't mess around with.

He offers me a chair right after he gets off the phone.

"Khumbulani" he says.

"Yebo baba" I say.

"Did you know your friend was admitted in the hospital yesterday" he asks.

"No why what happened" I ask.

"Apparently Zwilakhe found out about her and Zandre" he says

I swallow hard suddenly feeling hot.

"The only person who had these pictures was you and me,I know I didn't send them to my son
leaving out you" he says.

"I didn't mean to do" I say.

"Well the deal is off Zwilakhe beat up the poor girl and she landed in the hospital,I specifically
told you that I would deal with this and you chose to go over my head" he says.

"But you said Zwi wouldn't hurt her" I say.

"If you had allowed me to do things my way" he says shouting.

"You don't even like Khuba so I don't get why you are shouting at me" I ask.

"That's where you are wrong I love her like own daughter" I can't help but laugh at the remark.

"Love her yet you are willing to separate her from your son,you asked me to stage the whole
thing so that Zwi could leave her don't be a hypocrite bab Zungu" I say.

"You will never understand my position what surprises me is that you are her supposed best
friend but you stabbed her in the back" he says.

"I did it because you promised to help me get Zwilakhe you can't go back on your word now" I
say.
"My word is nothing to traitors" he says looking up,I turn to look at the door and Zwilakhe is
standing there.

"Manzini" his father says.

"Baba do you have any idea what I did to her, I cant belive this wena wonke baba I will never
forgive you" he says storming out.

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#30

Zwilakhe

I knew my father hated the Mpungose's and that he would do anything to separate us. I knew
that he never got over Nobuhle's death but orchestrating this whole thing was going to far. I
don't think I will ever forgive him for doing this,he of all people knows my temper he knows how
I take to betrayal. The first time I got the pictures I refused to believe that it was her,I spent the
whole day looking at those picture. I think that's how my anger grew and my reason went out
the window. I tortured myself with those bloody pictures imagining what they were doing,how
she moaned and screamed his name. Seeing her in another man's arms hurt like hell,I saw
myself crying because my heart wouldn't take it. I found myself questing my ability to make her
happy,my ability to satisfy her.

I slightly close my eyes careful not to lose concentration then open them again,this betrayal
from my father runs deep it cuts deeper than anything I know. I am just glad they didn't rape
her not after everything she's been through.

Two car drive up past overtaking me another one closely drives behind me,I try swinging them
but nothing I finally stop the car causing the one behind me to bump me. Sgidi followed by two
other guys drag me out of the car,we drive to a warehouse there's no use fighting this.

I am given a few hard blows before Mthokozisi appears.

"Myekeni" he says coming towards me removing his shirt.

I try standing up only to have him throw a punches that lands me back down,he carries on
punching me while the two hold me up.

"You know my father ordered Sgidi to kill you" he says.

"How is she" I ask.

"Unesbindi mfana" he says completely going insane,he roughs me up till I cough up some
blood.

"I can't believe my baby sister fell for such an arrogant old man like you" he says.

"You tried to kill her after everything she witnessed growing up.I was willing to give you the
benefit of the doubt,to think she spoke highly of you and how you love her" he shouts kicking
me.

"You might as well kill me" I say thinking about what I did.

"I should just allow Sgidi to kill you but because Bubu is carrying your child the one you almost
killed I wont" he says getting angrier.

"What" I say finding it hard to talk.

So many things run through my mind,I would have noticed this is one thing I have been wanting
since I met her.

"She's two months in" he says cussing.

"I didn't know" I say.

"It doesn't matter you know why because my sister will wake up,leave your sorry ass and we will
raise your son" he says with a smirk.

"I know my father would love to raise one of your own" he says walking away

Thobani

I have been in the hospital since yesterday, I can't bring myself to leave her side. I want her to
wake so she can come home with us,I want to protect her from everything that may harm her. I
release a sigh looking at my beautiful wife who has been with me through it all.

"I think we should call her mother" she says.

"The same woman that watched her walk away and didn't even put up a fight" I ask.

"She's still her mother and that won't change" she says.

"Right now I couldn't care less about Thulisile and her selfish ways,I just want to focus on my
daughter" I say.

"I know but at least let her know anqabe ngokwakhe ukuza" she says.

"Fine I will call her" I say.

"Ng'yabonga Mpungose" she says kissing me. "How are you feeling though about this whole
situation" she asks.

"Like a failure" I say.

"Don't say that Thobani you are an amazing father and husband,you just need to give yourself
time and forgive yourself for not being there" she says.

"Lethu you don't understand the first man a daughter falls in love with is her father,Khubelihle
didn't have that and no amount of therapy will change that" I say.

"Then we will give her love and lots of it" she says sweetly.

"You are amazing" I say taking her hand to my lips.

"And I love you" she says.

"I love you too" I say.

"Let me go check on Khuba and you call her mother" she says giving me kiss.

I take out my phone and call Thulisile,she takes a few minutes to answer.

"Thulisile" I say.

"Ubani lo" she asks.

"Yimina uThobani " I say.

I listen to her breathe heavily before sniffling.

"Thoba I am sorry I didn't mean to hide her from you" she says.

"Lalela that's not why I called,I just wanted to let you know that Khuba is in the hospital" I say.

"Ini kwenzekeni" she asks in a panic.

"If you truly want to know come see her" I say.

"Will you ever forgive me" she asks.

"Thulisile bye" I say.

Zwilakhe
I have been lying low ever since Mthokozisi told me about the baby and spared my life,I will
forever be greatful for his gesture. Out of all my brothers Musa is the most kind and gentle,he's
not talking to me which I understand. Ma can't even be in the same room as me that's how bad
things are.

I made a few calls allowing me to discreetly visit Khuba,I make my way to get ward it's pretty
late and she's sleeping.

I put my hand on her belly and breathe thanking my ancestors for protecting my seed and the
women carrying it.

"Sthandwa sam I am so sorry,I didn't mean to hurt you,I don't know if you know this but we are
going to be parents, I am going to be a father thank you for making me the happiest man alive."
I say.

I am running out of words seeing her like this is breaking my heart, no amount of words will
make things right or change my actions.

"I promise I will stay away from you just wake up,I miss your beautiful eyes" I kiss her hand
hoping she hears me.

"Mhmm" she faintly murmurs.

"I love you so much" I whisper in her ear before walking out.

If her being happy and safe means me staying away then I will do it,I know she will never fully
feel safe with me because of what I did and I understand.

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#31

Khubelihle

It's been one month three weeks and exactly two hours,I have been counting days since I woke
up from the hospital. I woke up to a completely different world,a world messy and confusing I
had to take things day by day. A world without Khumbu I learnt about her involvement in the
whole Zandre ordeal. I am angry that she chose to do things this way,I am angry that I lost a
friend and sister or maybe you wasn't even that. I am angry that she wanted Zwilakhe but wasn't
woman enough to tell me. I am angry and hurt that Zandre died for nothing,the poor man was a
victim in all of this just like me. I am angry that despite what happened I still want Khumbu in my
life,I miss her loud mouth and company I just miss my friend.

I am having breakfast with Malibongwe who happens to be my doctor,talk about mixing

business with pleasure. He was the first person I saw when I woke reading me a book,I was a bit
disappointed though I expected Zwi to be the one next to me.

"What's on your mind" he asks feeding me some bacon.

"Nothing" I say chewing it down.

He raises his eye brows and takes another strip feeding me.

"Babe talk to me is it the baby" he asks.

"No" I say followed by a sigh.

"Okay you're thinking about him" he says.

I know he's referring to Zwi,he's one of the things I woke up to gone.I remember asking where
he was and no one could give me a straight answer. I felt my chest tighten and beathing
became hard,I asked for him days on end till I couldn't. I don't know where he is or what he's
doing but I miss him so much.

"Is it that obvious" I ask softly laughing.

"Yes which is understandable though" he says with a smile.

"I just want him to contact us and tell us if he's okay,I am just scared what if he stays away till
the baby is born" I say.

"First let me kiss it better" he says giving me a kiss.

There's this physical sexual and emotional attraction between the two of us, he makes me sweat
and rumble most of the time.

"Ndlozi what's this I mean us" I ask.

"I don't know but I like you very much and I want us to explore this" he says.

"Explore" I ask slightly tilting my head.

"I know we can't have sex and i respect that but I want to be there for you,be everything you
need and more " he says.

"How can you like me when you are.." I say.

"Bisexual" he says.

I love the fact that he was upfront and honest about his sexuality which took me by surprise.
"I told you before being bi is a preference,I happen to be attracted to both genders nothing big"
he says shrugging his shoulder.

"I know but most people tend not to understand" I say.

I haven't told anyone about Mali's sexuality simply because it a private matter,and because I feel
like I want to explore this.

The first thing he disclosed was his preference and I was somehow pulled in without realising it.

"Well the only opinion that matters is that of you and my family" he says reaching for my hand.

"And you have such a lovely family" I say.

"See that's what's is important you being happy and feeling free" he says.

"Give me time" I say.

"I am not going anywhere mamas" he says winking. "Let's get you fed okay" he says.

I am far from being there but that's the beauty of trying to find your feet,and the most
unexpected friendships are the best.

Malibongwe dropped me off at the Zungu's I plan on spending the day with Ma,I really miss her
and I know she's having a hard time with Zwi being gone.

She opens her arms upon seeing me and kissing my cheeks.

"Ma" I say.

"My baby how are you guys" she asks.

"Hanging in there" I say.

"You miss him don't you" she asks walking me to the outside.

"Kakhulu" I say.

"Me too but I am just praying he's okay" she say.

"He's a strong man ma so don't worry yourself that much" I say.

"How can i not worry kodwa Khuba my son has just disappeared into thin air" she says shaking
her head.

"Maybe ubaba knows something" I say.

"Ungangitsheli ngaloyo sathane" she says.

"But ma you can't say that and besides you need him" I say.

"Khuba why did you forgive him huh because I just can't move past what he did" she says.

"Because he became a father when I came here,what he did still hurts even today but how can I
allow one bad deed to wipe all the good he has done" I say.

"But how can you forgive him after what he did to this family" she asks.

I know she doesn't understand right now,but if things were turned these words would be
coming out of her mouth.

"Because you taught me the true essence of forgiveness and how it's such a great gift that I can
gift myself" I say.

"Clearly I taught you well" she says smiling.

Bab Zungu walks towards us,he tries kissing Ma on the cheek but she moves.

"Khubelihle mntanami" he says.

"Yebo baba" I say.

"Ninjani kodwa" he asks.

"Siyaphila singezwa nina" I say.

"Ukuncenga nje kuhle ukukubona" he says looking at Ma then walking away.

"Ma sale usumxolela bandla" I say.

"I will but I want him to feel the heat" she says with a smile.

"Whose that" Ma asks when I switch off my phone.

"It's MaV's number she's been calling me for a week now" I say.

"Take it maybe it's important" Ma says.

"I don't want to hear anything from those people" I say.

"Forgiveness khuba" she says softly.

"Wena futhi" I say softly laughing.

I have forgiven my mother but that doesn't mean I want to speak to her,not when my father told
her about my hospitalisation and she couldn't be bothered.

.
Thobani

I don't know why good things happen to good people,my daughter doesn't deserve what life
has been throwing at her. After being discharged from the hospital,I took her home and did a
ceremony for her. I can't believe how much she looks like me she's just a replica of me,but Lethu
calls her boys to men and she's beautiful just like her mother.

I have been on the phone trying to track down Themba,I was too focused on building a
relationship with Khuba that I forgot about him. I blame myself for letting him live till to this
day,but there no use crying over spilt milk. Mtho knocks a few times before peaking in.

"She's here" he says.

"What do I tell her" I ask breathing heavily.

"The truth baba" he says.

"But how" I ask.

"Maybe you should let Mama tell her" he says.

"No I rather be the one breaking the news" I say standing up.

She playing with Zamo the house is full of laughter again,my granddaughter sees her as more
than just her aunt and that's beautiful,Zamo has found a mother in Khubelihle.

"Sawubona baba" she says getting comfortable on the couch.

"Zamo go upstairs your grandmother is calling you"

"You were gone for the whole day"I say.

"Oh I had breakfast with Ndlozi then spent the whole day with Ma" she says.

I nod looking at Mtho I don't think I am strong enough to do this.

"Eh Bubu we need to talk to you something happened" Mtho says kneeling infront of her.

"Bhuti what's going on" she asks.

"We need to go KwaNongoma" I say blinking a few times.

"Why" she asks softly.

"uMa akasekho" Mtho says pulling her into hug.

"No Baba tell him it's not true" she says.

"I am sorry Bubu" I say.

"No..No. .no.. " she says bolting into a loud sob.

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#32

Khubelihle

I don't know what to feel right now besides pain,I can't even seem to grasp this whole thing of
my mother being gone. I kept calling her number and the same person being MaV kept picking
up, a part of me was hoping that she would answer that's how bad I needed her to be alive.

Themba finally had the guts to kill her,after so many years of threatening to do so he finally did
it, according to MaV she only noticed the deadly smell upon her arival. Themba had given her a
month's worth of leave,I don't understand how someone can be this cruel and sick the man
hacked her up and rolled her using a carpet shoving her lifeless body under their bed. I don't
know what my mother did to deserve such a gruesome death.

I wanted to see her with my own eyes to believe it but my father wouldn't allow me,the morgue
say her body is badly decomposed and they are sparing me the trauma.

My father saw her though and he came back a distraught man.

It's funny how death changes one's outlook on on life,you think about things like time spent
grudges held and forgiveness given.

Mam Lethu walks in followed by Ma who fixes my headwrap and smiles faintly. I am slowly
going through emotions,everything is exact and precise every detail feels like it's being
engraved in my mind. I feel this excruciating pain that a few seconds ago I couldn't breathe or
articulate anything.

"How's she holding up" my father asks.

"Still the same she hasn't said anything" Mam Lethu says.

"And food has she at leat eaten anything" he asks.

"She's hasn't eaten and we can't really force her" she says.

These people are having a conversation about me as if I am not here,Baba moves from Ma and
settles next to me. He brings me into his embrace and sighs heavily,I needed that but it's not
enough to soothe the pain or make me whole. I still feel hollow just like I did when I stepped
foot into this cold house.

"Bubu please eat if not for you then do it for the baby" he says.

I look into his eyes and I am met by his own pain.

"It's raining" I say.

"Yes it's is" he says looking confused.

"Mama loved the rain and the smell of the soil after it had been blessed" I say,having pictures of
her in the rain bombard my mind.

"I know she would pull me to the rain just to get soaked" he says sounding like man who just
got taken to reminiscing land.

"Did you love her" I ask.

"Once upon a time yes" he says looking up to Mam Lethu.

The smell of jeyus fluid,bleach and some pine gel penetrates my nostrils as soon as I enter my
mother's bedroom. That's what was used to lessen the smell that occupied the room,but I think
the stench is still there in the air lingering. I watch these people walk in to give their
condolences,I am sure to them it's normal and expected but I am hurt because these are the
same people that turned a blind eye and watched while my mother suffered in the hands of that
man. I am bloody hurt because they are the same people that sceam the loudest when they see
abuse on TV,but get blind when it's happens right infront of their doorstep. I am angry because
they are here and she's not,I am hurt because non of them deserve to be near that coffin
tomorrow saying how much of a good person she was and how she lived her life to the fullest. I
am hurt because non of them knew my mother and the hardships she went through yet they are
here. I wipe my tears looking at my aunt this woman tried her best to help but just like me her
efforts were in vain.

I will never understand the "I am sorry I know what you're going through" speech these people
come with because God knows this pain is unbearable. What happens if my pain is greater than
yours because I have regrets,what happens if my pain cuts deeper than yours what then.

I am glad the Zungu's are here and appreciate all they have done,helping around the yard and
my father for putting his differences aside. I used some of the money I earned while working to
help with the funeral arrangements even though my father protested.

I listen to the rain pour hard with thunder and lightning,it then stops and take a more gentle
melodic flow. I feel this propelling need to abruptly stand and walk out,I find myself dancing in
the rain while it gently pours on me. These are my mother's tears for the years she
suffered,these are her silent cries and sobs night after night. These are the tears she cried when
no one was watching and she woke up the next day to survive another day. I let out painful sob
that had formed a lump in my throat,I sceam out the pain even though I know this is
unorthodox. I am glad my father is letting me be,I slump to the muddy ground and cry.

I feel strong arms fold around me,I recognise this scent even in my deepest sleep.

"He killed her " I say running of breath.

"I know sthandwa Sam I know" he says.

"She's gone" I say.

"I am sorry" he says helping me up.

Zwilakhe

I wasn't planning on coming back till I finished my treatment and most of my exercises. I was at
an anger management private center dealing with my issues. I chose to be an in patient,I wanted
to do this not only for her but because I want to be a better father and man for Khubelihle. I was
two weeks away from being released then become an out patient,but the news about her
mother reached me and I had to come back. Her baby bump is visible soon there's going to be a
little person running around. She been asleep for hours but her hiccups are still there. I had to
ask for extra blanket because she was cold when Mam' Lethu brought her a plate of food,
apparently she hasn't eaten for two days making this her third.

I watch her rub her eyes slowly opening them,they are darker must be the crying.

"Hey" I say kissing her forehead.

"Where were you" she asks in a hoarse voice.

"That doesn't matter I am here now" I say looking the other way.

"I am pregnant" she says brushing her belly.

"I know we are going to be parents" I say, attempting to feed her but she moves her head.

"Please eat" I say.

"She will never know our baby,she's gone and I will never see her again" she says her voice
trailing off.
"Sthandwa sam I am so sorry" I say joining her under the blankets.

"Kubuhlungu Zwi" she says putting her hand on her chest.

I can't stand seeing her like this,I wish I could take away her pain even if it meant living in misery.

"Please don't do this to youself" she pulls away looks into my eyes.

"Promise you won't leave me" she says in a whisper.

Silence passes through us as we both look into each others eyes.

"Promise me Zwilakhe" she shouts.

"I promise" I say.

I know i made a promises to stay away but promises are meant to be broken.

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#33

Thobani

Things are slowly picking up and Khuba is getting there with the help of that boy,I wasn't
convinced when he took her but because I want only the best for her I agreed. I think a change
of environment is doing her good. Lethu on the other hand has been acting up I don't know her
to be like this which is odd.

I come out the shower wrapped in a towel using the other one to wipe myself up,I haven been
hitting the gym just to release some stress.

"Lethukuthula" I say.

She blinks a few times looking away,I am glad I still have that effect on her.

"Thobani" she says.

"Is there something you want to talk about" I ask.

"There's nothing" she says trying to walk away,I pull her by her arm causing her to hit my chest.

"I won't ask again is there something wrong" I ask.

"Nothing beside the fact that you haven't been spending time home with me but with your
daughter" she says.
I let go of her arm frowing.

"You know what she has been through she needs all the support she can get" I say.

"Support" she says sarcastically "Ever since that girl got here there is no peace in this
house,everything is suddenly about her" she says getting worked up.

"Lethu where is this coming from" I ask gobsmacked.

"Thobani you no longer care about me that's where this is coming from" she shouts.

"Don't you dare compare yourself with my daughter" I say.

"Usho kahle your daughter angithi you killed mine" she says.

I can't believe this why now all of a sudden.

"She was my daughter too" I say.

"Yes but I lost my daughter and you gained a new one" she says pointing a finger at me.

I get that she's hurt but she can't use Khuba as an excuse.

"But she's also your daughter or am I wrong" I ask.

"She doesn't acknowledge me each and everytime she has a problem she runs off to Lindo" she
says.

"That's because she avails herself other than you. When I met you I told about my kids so please
don't make me chose between you and them" I hiss.

"See what I mean Khubelihle has taken over our lives is it because she's your first love's child"
she asks,I see that's the problem she jealous over a dead woman.

"I want you to listen to me carefully Thulisile is dead and she's never coming back,I am sorry that
we lost our daughter. But I want you to know that I love you and only you. But I will not turn my
back on my daughter because you feel insecure,she's not a threat" I say.

"I know just I want her to love me like the boys do,I want her to take me as her mother not her
father's wife" she says wiping her tears.

"You have to understand she just lost her mother give her time please" I say.

"I am sorry" she says sweatly.

"It's okay remember how the boys were when they first met you" I ask thinking way back.

"They were tough nuts to crack" she says laughing.

"Just like their mother give her time and try being there for her" I say kissing her..
.

Zwilakhe

It's been a month since her mother passe away and things took a turn,she stopped talking and
interacting with people,she basically watched life pass her by while she stayed in bed. I decide to
take her back to Mhlambi who suggested a GP then a psychologist who later told us she is
suffering from depression. I had to take care of her and the baby because she had her gloomy
days. There were days she would just stare into space and look like a mad person.

I won't lie I also had my days where I would pray she comes back from that dark hole,I would
watch her cry for days on end. The doctors later prescribed antidepressants containing Zytomil
and Epitec.

I am greatful to both Ma and Mam' Lethu for being there and helping outo, I had to beg her
father to allow me to take her with me. I had to make a choice either be called all the time that
she's not eating or take care of her myself. And I chose the latter and I don't regret anything,I
would do it all over again wipe her tears and kiss everything better. I love waking up to her
beautiful smile and eyes,I love the way she pouts when angry that's the most cutest thing ever. I
love the fact that she's getting better each day,I must admit her father is one supportive man.
Even though he told me he hasn't forgotten what I did and I will pay dearly, as if having Mthoko
threatening me isn't enough.

She wraps her arms around my waist resting her head my back,I can feel her bump but who
cares.

"I see someone's awake" I say.

It's days like these I feel like I am doing something good,her waking up and talking.

"I woke up and you were gone" she says.

Khuba has developed this fear of people walking out on her and people rejecting her.

"I was about to come back" I say.

"Liar" she says.

"What did I do" I ask turning around.

"Nothing" she says looking up.

"Are you okay" I ask.

She nods with a smile handing me an envelope.

"Please read it for me" she says.

"Are you sure" I ask.

This is a letter from her mother we found it in a pile of her things, she pulls me by my hand to
the couch.

I open up the letter and sigh this is going be hard.

"Khubelihle"

Hey I don't know where to start so I am going to start at the beginning,when I first met your
father my first love and soul mate.

You know my family history and the type of man my father was,he didn't approve of my
relationship with Thobani meaning it was doomed before it even begun.

But I loved him and I was wiling to do anything just to be with him,I got pregnant at a very
young age gave birth and soon after I was pregnant again by your father giving him two son's
shocking huh.I thought that was it we were free home at last but little did I know that my father
was planning my wedding to Themba,despite having two kids he still wanted to marry me and
that's how I ended up with him. I didn't marry because of love I married him because my father
forced me too. I married Themba because my father married me off for money and status. "You
should be greatful no one would marry second hand goods" these are the words he used to
break me, my own father saw me as nothing a but a disgrace and second goods.

Years went by and I learned to respect him I had no love left in me,even though he had a heavy
hand I stayed ,I stayed because I was told "kuyabekezelwa emendweni". Themba used to travel a
lot with his work making me feel lonely,until I bumped into your father at the taxi rank and
everything changed,I was happy again and it showed. He made me happy and loved me even
though we knew this was wrong we still carried on,one night of passion and you were
conceived. A few months later he asked if the baby was his and I said no,I lied even though I
knew Themba was infertile. I was afraid he would take you just like he did my two boys,I
remember when he asked me to chose him and I rejected him still. I was afraid of being
stagnant and going back to a life of poverty,you see that's the problem with us women we are
betrayers and backstabbers. We are a tunnel of lies and a grave of secrets that's what we are, I
chose security and comfort over love and warmth.
Khuba I am sorry I denied you the chance to know your father,I am sorry that I raised you in a
volatile and hostile home. I am sorry that it took too long for me to walk away,I am sorry that I
stopped singing and laughing with you. I am sorry that I failed you as a mother but I wanted
nothing but the best for you,I wanted you to have the things I couldn't give your brothers. You
may not believe this but Themba once cared and loved you,till he found out the truth. I am the
cause of this heart ache but I am also a victim of my father's decisions. Themba broke my spirit
and soul in the process of teaching me how to behave as a married woman. I was failed by my
parents and I failed my kids in the process.

Your brothers must be old by now and handsome like your father,I want you to tell them that I
love them and there is not a day that I never thought about them.

It might have not looked like it but I love you my baby so much,I am glad you got away and I
am happy you found your father.

My father took away from me,Themba broke and took away from me and lastly I took away and
broke your father.

I am sorry Khubelihle Zamakhuba Mpungose my daughter.

Nathanjwekwayo.

#34

Khubelihle

I haven't been myself in the past few months,everything happened so sudden one day I was fine
thinking and the next I couldn't get out of bed. I would just cry my eyes out and sleep that's all
my body and mind could take. I am glad Zwi didn't give up on me regardless of my stunts and
outbursts,he stood by me and showed me true commitment. I really love him and that's God's
honest truth,I notice everything he does for me even though he things I don't. I don't know if
me being diagnosed with depression has something to do with it but during the hard times he
started playing his paino. The most sweetest and beautiful thing I have ever heard,I still think
he's too much though maybe if he played the guitar I wouldn't be this amazed. You know when
someone loves and takes care for you that's Zwi for me.

I still don't know what to make of my mother's revelation,I always thought I was the only child
but that turned out to be lies.

I don't know why she decided to keep quiet about my brother's, maybe if she had told me
sooner about my father things would've been different. I am angry at myself for having been
angry at my mother for such a long time not understanding her burdens. I am hurt because life
robbed her of her peace, I am hurt that the men in her life only took and gave nothing back,I am
angry that Themba turned out to be a monster and finally killed her. I am angry that her parents
failed her and she harboured scars. Scars that run deep her in vain scars that were inflicted by
the people on her life. I guess I will never fully understand the depth of her pain.

This whole thing is a mess and I am stuck in the middle,I have a lot of questions and the other
person to unswer them is six feet under. Why did didn't he fight for her did not even bother or
he just gave up,did he forbid mama from seeing the boys or was it her decision to stay away. Do
they even know that we share the same mother,wasn't their love strong enough to outstanding
anything,I guess somethings will never be clear and that's okay.

I watch Zinhle toll up our yoga mats,Its shocking but we are slowly becoming very good friends.
She was there when things took a dive for the worst,she would bring Lwazi just to brighten up
my day. And I saw a caring side to her other than my rivalry when it comes to Zwilakhe.

"Don't just stand there help" she says.

"I can't this little bugger is moving" I say brushing my stomach.

"Yeah these things have no timing" she says laughing.

"I don't think I will ever do this again" I say.

"Yeah that's what all mother's say" she says laughing but stop and fixes her eyes behind me,I
turn and see Khumbu walking out.

"Are you good" she asks brushing my shoulder.

"Yeah I am and I have accepted the truth about her" I say.

"Bitch almost killed me" she says tilting her head.

Khumbu apologised and I accepted her apology,she was also one of the few people that were
there. I took her back not knowing that her agenda was to feed Zwi umuthi,If Zinhle didn't eat
that plate and get sick then the rest would have been history. I don't understand her obsession
with me and Zwi, because to me she was never clear as to what I have done to her.

"I know but nawe you like things uyahala" I say.

"Bitch can cook though" she says smiling.

"I know right" I say matching her silly smile.

"You know what let's go have some big greasy buggers and and bacon" she says.

"Are you trying to make me fat" I ask.

"Me never" says dramatically putting her over her chest.

"Yeah right Zee" I say.

"How's bhut' Mtho"she asks.

"He's old as stay away" I say pointing a finger at her.

"What I just want a taste of the Mpungose charm" she says closing her eyes.

"Khuzeka njalo wengane" I say walking away.

"If that's the case then nawe stay from that confused doctor" she says following behind.

I laugh out loud Zinhle told me upfront that she doesn't like Ndlozi at all,I should just stay away
because he's trouble and too good to be true.

After spending time with Zinhle I called Musa to meet me at the house,only for him to arrive first
and and complain about me being late.

"Why are you late huh seniyajola wena Zinhle" he says nodding.

"Your brother would kill me" I say laughing

"That's not funny hau" he says.

"I know but he's getting better and he's still attending his anger management classes" I say.

"Yeah can I ask you something" he says.

"Sure" I say.

"How on earth will you give birth ungaboni" he asks bursting into a loud laugh.

"The same way Zwi put the baby in,I will push him out the same way" I say.

"You're getting personal manje" he says frowning.

"Please leave me alone" I say.

"Mhmm okay but when last did you get it on with my brother" he asks.

I almost choke on my water this kid though.

"Sies you are one dirty young man" I say.

"I am just looking out for the man" he says shrugging his shoulders.

"Remind me again why did I call you over" I ask.

"Hayi hau ulambisa ubafo angithandi" he says shaking his head.

.

Khubelihle

I took Musa's words to heart and bought some lingerie suitable for my baby bump,I spray on
some pritz lately my sinuses have been acting up. I look at myself one more time in the mirror
and wear my silk gown.

The last time I had sex with Zwi was the week he landed me in the hospital,and that was months
ago before I had this huge bump.

"Baby" he calls out,great he's back.

I slowly make my way to the longue and find him undoing his shirt,poor baby must be tired.

"Muntu wam" I say,he looks up and smiles.

"Hello there mommy" he says moving closer.

"We missed you" I say.

"And I missed you too" he says kissing me.

"I cooked if you want a plate" I say pulling away from the kiss.

"The food can wait" he says whispering in my ear.

He takes off his shirt and lifts me up all the way to the bathroom,we both get out of out clothes
hurriedly we both need this its been too long.

He gently lays me on the bed and takes my breast into his mouth carefully sucking them,he runs
his hands in all the right places and finally reaches my nirvana .he starts dipping his tongue in a
the right corners and holes,I let go while he locks me up and puts a finger inside me using his
thumb to run on clit building my climax.

"I will be gentle okay" he say thrusting inside me luckily there's a pillow supporting my back.

He hisses closing his eyes while his fingers dig on my things,he grabs them tight and starts
moving slowly.

I keep moaning and calling his name when uses his thumb to vigorously rub my clit.

He pulls out and rubs the tip of his cock on my clit then my vigina entrance,he eventually goes
on making me throw my head back.
He pulls out still hard and gently pulls me to the edge of the bed,he fully thrust in and starts
stroking hard.

"Dammit woman I love you" he says groaning.

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#35

Khubelihle

Its been a week since I took that letter to my father,I didn't know what to do or say and Zwi saw
it best I share it with him. I think him reading the letter made him own up to few things,I think
my mother also left him a letter of his own but I am not really sure.

He called all three of us and explained a few things,now I know the bond I have with them can
never be severed that easily.

Well Mthoko isn't a man of many words and Thokozani is more like Musa chilled,I got to tell
them about our mother and share stories,I tried to picture them this beautiful image I have of
her and I think that was enough. And the fact that she put a picture of her and the boys inside
the envelope showed she once cared.

It feels good to have family a father who would do anything to protect you,and brothers who
spoil you rotten.

I run my fingers through his beard this one hasn't been shaving lately. I smile and pull on his lips
kissing him,he opens his eyes then shuts them.

"Baby wake up" I say.

"No" he says.

"Zwi vuka bandla" I say in a sulky voice.

"Dammit woman go back to sleep" he says opening one eye.

"Okay so you don't want sex" he quickly opens his eyes and sits up straight.

"Why didn't you say so in the beginning" he says grinning.

"Ngyadlala I want us to talk" I say smiling.

"This better not be the (vuka sikhulume) part one please" he says releasing a sigh.

"It's not I just wanted to say thank you for everything,sticking by me and not walking out when I
was losing it" I say.

"That's what you do when you love someone" he says like he did not witness me in my lowest of
times.

"But still any other guy would have given up" I say,he takes my hands to his mouth kissing them.

"Like I said I love you and I want to keep you forever,your eyes give me life and your smile
makes my heart pump a thousand time making my knees weak" he says wiping my tears.

"I know I messed and I am sorry for hurting you,I still have this fear of you walking up and
packing your bags leaving me" he says shaking his head,I try speaking but he puts a finger on
my mouth silencing me.

"I don't want to end up like Themba and take you away because I wouldn't be able to live with
myself,the world just wouldn't make sense without you. I am not a saint but my love will always
be constant and guaranteed" he says.

"I would never leave you" I say cracking up a laugh.

"I love you Khubelihle" he says.

"I love you Zwilakhe" I say.

"You better start calling me baba ka Zwelihle or Lwazi" he says laughing.

"Zwelihle" I ask.

"Our son's name" he says kissing my forehead getting out the bed.

"Kanjalo nje" I shout since he's in the bathroom.

"Woman don't test me" he shouts back.

I make my way to the bathroom and find him brushing his teath,he passes me my teath brush
we both do our business till the baby starts kicking. This little punk is abusive always stays in the
most uncomfortable places especially at night.

"Ahh" he stops and looks at me with his eyes wide open.

"Relax it's not time yet" I say taking his hand and placing it on my belly.

"You are such a big baby" I say laughing.

He says nothing but runs his hands on my stomach and gives me a kiss,he goes down on his
knees and rest his head on my belly.
"Are you okay" I ask brushing his head.

"This is our baby Bubu you have a little person inside you" he says.

I can tell he's overwhelmed by these karate moves.

"Muntu wam that's what sex does it produces babies" I say stifling a laugh.

"Dammit woman you just had to ruin the moment didn't you" he says stifling his own laugh.

"I am sorry" I say breaking into a laugh.

"Hayi leave me alone" he says walking away.

I took it upon myself to do a intimate braai just for us the cool people,and not the oldies the
only thing those people know is to hold a grudge I tell you. Zinhle has been helping with the
food and settings,I can't believe she has a thing for my brother not that it's a bad thing but I
have seen the way he treats his women.

"Niphekeni" Musa asks.

"Johan fourteen" Zinhle says.

"Zinhle please don't come with your poor tendencies here" he says going through the pots.

"Where's the meat" he asks looking at me.

"Meat did you buy that meat huh" I ask.

"Geez you woman are all the same stingy as fuck,nincishana ngekhe nange nyama what is wrong
with you" he asks.

"How about you make your own braai then get as much meat as you want" I say.

"Musa why don't you join other kids angaphandle" Zinhle asks.

"Nami angazi"he says smiling.

"Where's Mapakisha she should be here helping" Zinhle says.

"What no ways Hope is too young and I somehow believe this is some kind of abuse" he says
shrugging his shoulder.

"Young but she knows how to do adult things moans like a pornstar" I say

Zinhle laughs throwing her head back even hitting me the dish cloth.
"That was one time hau" he says smiling. "And you're a fine one to talk considering the fact that
you are walking around pushing evidence of sex" he says laughing.

"I don't like you sometimes" I say.

"You do know that people now know that you're having sex neh,worse unprotected one till you
got pregnant haa Khuba one would swear your are innocent" Zinhle laughs harder.

"You should laugh vele isn't ya'll practising way too hard" he says wiggling his eyebrows.

"Your are dirty baba ka coming soon" I say.

"That's not cool though" he says looking all serious serves him right for getting all smart with
me.

"San'bona" Mthoko's bold voice says from behind Zinhle.

I can't help but smile my brother loves putting Zinhle in awkward positions.

"Hayi Zinhle uyangihlaza" Musa says.

"Enough wena how are you bhuti" I say pulling Zinhle by her hand.

"I am okay was surprised that your boyfriend allowed you to invite us" he says.

"He's not that bad" I say.

"Yeah right awungilethele ubeer wena mfana" he says looking at Musa.

"Okay" he says getting a few bottles.

"Can you play nice please" I say.

"Anything for you Bubu" he says giving me a hug.

"Zinhle" he calls out standing behind her,while she's stearing the pots. He holds her waist and
whispers something in her ear making her giggle,this is sexual I need to unsee this and get some
air.

"Please excuse me" I say walking out the kitchen.

Zwilakhe
She makes her way to me mumbling something to herself,she reaches me and sits on my lap
wrapping her arms around my neck she sighs closes her eyes then opens them smiling. I don't
want this to sound clique but she's the most beautiful down to earth and feisty woman I have
laid my eyes on.

"You missed me" I say.

"No but Mthoko is subjecting me things he shouldn't be" she says sulking.

And I thought he would decline because I only saw Thokozani whose with Musa.

"What Bubu" I ask.

"Nothing just my brother being his usual cassanova" she says resting her head on my shoulder.

"You are beautiful you know that" I say kissing her soft lips,she closes her eyes and lowly moans
making have a hard on.

"Please stop your brother will kill me" I say.

"But he's busy nje he won't notice if we dissappear" she says getting her hand inside my crotch.

"Bubu khuzekeza njalo" I say.

"Should I stop" she asks seductively whispering in my ear.

"No" I say,dammit I feel so weak right now but that's what she does to me.

I lift her up and use the other entrance to the house,we don't even make it to our bedroom and
settle of the spare one.

I think unbuckles my belt and bends over for my,she plays with her self waiting for me to
pleasure her.

"Why aren't you wearing any underwear" I ask dipping a finger in her warm vigina.

"Zwi ngena" she says in between moans.

"Answer me first" I say only entering the tip of my cock then pulling out.

"Huh ahh Zwi please don't do this" she says pushing her arse against my dick.

"Answer me" I say pushing in then pulling out.

"I didn't want you to tear my new undies" she says in a hoarse voice.

"Sorry yezwa baby I won't tear them again okay" I say.

"Zungu ngicela ufake" she says in a pleading voice.

I slowly thrust in and out till I hear her moan my name I give her long strokes.
"Bubu" I say.

"Mhmm" she says slowly.

"You will be the death of me" I say going in faster.

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#36

Khubelihle

Ma and Mam Lethu invited me to lunch,I respect and appreciate these two women but leaving
the house and trying on different outfits is a lot of work. I have swollen feet and my back aches I
can't wait to pop this child out so I can have my body back. My father bought me a car and
hired someone to drive me around,I accepted the car but not the driver I may be expecting but
heck I can drive myself as uncomfortable as it may be sometimes. Zwi drove me here and said
he would look around till I was done,he's creepy like that always wanting me next to him.

"I see your man is lurking around" Ma says sipping on her car.

This feels like some high tea thing they are both dressed up.

"He just can't stay away from me" I say.

"Joys of being young and inlove" Mam Lethu says.

"Or maybe he's just scaring off potentials" Ma says.

"Hawu Ma please leave my man alone" I say.

"Enough about Zwi how are you holding up" Mam' Lethu asks.

"I am doing good taking my meds and things between Zwi and I are great" I say.

"And your father" Ma asks looking at Mam' Lethu.

"I don't think things will change anytime soon,he hates the Zungu's and he doesn't care if I am
carrying their child or not" I says.

"It's okay sisi I will try to talk to him" Mam' Lethu says.

I know she's trying her best but my father won't budge.

"I also tried talking to Khulekani also but still he doesn't want to hear it,he even suggested Zwi
pays damages and we raise the child" she says releasing a heavy sigh.

"What no one is taking my child away from me" I say.

"Calm down I told him where to get off,he's not the father so he has no say" Ma says reaching
for my hand.

"You know what I am tired of this and if Bab'Zungu wants to take my child away then he will
deal with my father" I say.

"Khuba yehlisa umoya" Mam Lethu says.

"No this is my child mine" I shout standing up.

I walk to the car spilling tears Zwi and all.

"This is my child" I murmur

Zwi comes running towards me dammit he has the keys.

"Bubu what's wrong" he asks.

"This is my baby okay mine you will not take him away from me" I shout.

He looks confused but holds me nonetheless.

"Talk to me what happened" he asks.

"Stay away from me" I say pushing him away.

"Khubelihle" he calls out sternly.

"Your father wants you to take my baby away from me" I say.

"What but that's impossible I could never do that" he says wiping my tears .

"You wouldn't" I ask softy.

"Sthandwa sam I would never hurt you like that I promise you" he says pulling me into a hug.

I hate this family fued it's causing rifts and strains,but if there's one thing I know though I would
fight tooth and nail for my child.

Thobani

I don't know what my daughter sees in that Zungu boy,it can't be the money because we also
have it. Who means she loves him but sometimes love isn't enough,look at me for instance I was
young and I love but that wasn't enough. I lost Thulisile not because I didn't fight harder but
because circumstances were against us. I wish this fued between the two families would end for
the sake of my grandchild, but how does one move past their loss. Their daughter died which
was unfortunate,I never woke up one day and planned on killing Khulekani's daughter it was a
mistake,hence the saying if you want something done them do it yourself. But then he retaliated
by ordering a kill on my daughter.

"What's on your mind" Mthokozisi asks.

"Your sister" I say.

"Baba why can't you move past what happened for her sake" he asks.

"It's not that simple" I say.

"Then try and be accepting" he says.

"Mthokozisi are you going soft" I ask.

"Of course not" he says.

"Then what's this" I ask.

"This is me loving my sister and not wanting to push her further into the arms of that boy" he
says.

"I love your sister too but I will never accept that boy,not after he battered her till she landed in
the hospital or have you forgotten" I ask,he rubs his jaw looking at me.

"Of course I haven't" he says.

"Then deal with that boy or I will" I say walking out.

I think my ancestors are trying my patience

Zwilakhe Zungu walks inside my office,this boy is ambitious I must give him that.

"Sawbona bab' Mpungose" he says with his head slightly bowed.

I smirk just a bit this I have to hear.

"How can I help you" I ask offering him a chair.

"I have come to talk about your daughter Khubelihle" he says clearing his throat.

"I hope you have come to your senses and you will leave her alone" I say.

"I am afraid that's not the case I know our families don't get along but I would like to marry your
daughter,I am here to ask for your permission for her hand in marriage" he says still bowed.
I throw the glass I had in my hand it comes in contact with the wall and breaks,I see him flinch
good.

"Lalela mfana marriage yokwenzeka ngifile" I roar.

"With all due respect I love your daughter and I want to make an honest woman of her" he says
looking up.

"Don't you dare test me you should have thought about that before getting her pregnant and
taking her virginity" I say.

"It wasn't my intention" he says.

"I don't care phuma" I say pointing to the door.

He stands up nods and walks away.

"Zwilakhe" he turns looking at me. "Liyoba linye mfan' wam" I say clicking my tongue.

Zwilakhe

I feel like drained after that talk with Khuba's father the man hates my guts and he doesn't hide
it. I drove past woolies and got her ice cream,cake and some dark chocolate. I also got her some
buffalo wings with ribs I know this is enough to calm her down.

I walk past the lounge but spot her witting next to the fire place,there's a movie playing she
looks deep in thought.

I remove my shoes and join her on the thick furry carpet,she looks up and smiles.

"Hey" I say.

"Hey" she says still smiling.

"How are you feeling" I ask kissing her cheek.

"I am okay" she says looking at the pastic.

"That's for you gimba" I say.

"Don't call me that hau your baby is the one making me eat a lot" she says going through the
pastic.

"Are you eating or should I put these away" I ask testing the waters.
"Let's eat together" she says giggling.

I watch her go for the wings first.

"I am sorry about earlier" she says.

"It's okay I spoke to my father and he says he wants things done properly" I say.

"I understand and you know what today I prayed about a lot of things and I felt much better
afterwards, I may not understand God's ways but I trust his plan and timing and I hope that one
day our families will come together" she says smiling.

"Marry me" I say getting on my knee.

"What" she says almost chocking.

I take out the ring I bought and open the pandora box.

"I know it's not exactly romantic and all but Khubelihle Mpungose will you marry me and make
me the happiest man alive" I say.

She licks her finger and wipes her hands on her belly.

"Yes" she says putting out her hand.

"Is that a yes" I ask.

"Of course now put the ring on" she says getting emotional,I slid the ring on her finger and
watch her cry and doing breathing exercises.

"Bubu are you okay" I ask cupping her chin.

"Yes I am just happy" she say throwing her arms around my neck.

"I love you" I say pulling away to kiss her,she says nothing but gives me a nod admiring her ring.

"Dammit women I said I love you" I say smiling at how happy she looks right now.

Her father might not have given me his blessing but I love her and I plan to keep her forever.

"Ngilinde please" she says giggling. "I need to call my dad" she says excitedly.

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#37
Zinhle

I saw a few pictures of Khubelihle on Zwilakhe's twitter feed trending like hot property,people
can get enough of her beauty and those mesmerising eyes of hers.I must admit I was sceptical
about their relationship mainly because I was heartbroken,even though I knew that me and
Zwilakhe were long done I just needed to accept and move on. I really can't fault Khubelihle
she's an amazing young women who finds strength in the bible and Lord,I know those are mam
Zungu's teachings whose one extraordinary women I sometimes think she sees to much of
herself in Khuba.

I alway tell my mother should anything happen to me Lwazi will be in good hands,I love the fact
that she makes things look so easy forgives and laughs like the world hasn't tried to knock her
down. I know she's been through a lot but she's tougher than she looks.

A lot of people had reservations about our friendship thinking it was driven by something
sinister,little did they know we have a solid friendship which is surprisingly good and healthy. I
have found a sister in her and a mother for my son which is more important than anything else. I
am also glad Zwilakhe is happy he really deserves this after everything I put him through,the lies
and cheating not to forget the beatings you heard me,I used to lay my hand on Zwilakhe till he
snapped and started returning the favour,I used his love for me to my advantage abused his
kindness.

I would claw, scratch ,throw and hit him with things and he wouldn't do anything,till one day he
had had enough of my tantrums and insults so yes I am happy that he has found his love and
soul mate.

And then there's Khuba's brother Mthokozisi he's older than me but still there's something
about him,I mean the other day I literally squirmed under his touch. The guy is just to damn
good looking and i can't stop thinking about him.

I look at my phone contemplating if I should call him back or not,as I am about to dial his
numbers my rings flashing his name on the screen.

"Hello" I say.

"Aw'lubambi ngani ucingo lwami" he says coldly.

"I am sorry I was busy" I say clearing my throat.

"If I call you answer siyezwana" he says sending shivers down my spine.

"I hear you bhuti" I say softly.

"Try calling me Mtho it sounds much better" he says chuckling.

If only he could me blushing over here.

"Are you doing anything later on" he asks.

"No I was going to meet Khuba though" I say thinking about my date with Khubelihle.

"Cancel I am taking you out" he says.

"I just can't cancel" I say.

"Zinhle" he calls out.

"Mtho" I say.

"Don't test ukulunga kwami" he says with so much authority in his voice.

"Okay" I say running out of words.

"Have a great day ahead nkosazane" he says before ending the call.

I think I just got turned on I know he's a player but there's something pulling about him
something indescribable.

Zwilakhe

I woke up and played 247 by Mnqobi yazo and jammed to the song,which eventually woke my
sleeping beauty we danced sharing a few moves. I am impressed with how she moves seeing
she's preggies,I even took a live video and some pictures uploading them on twitter. I didn't
mean to share her with whole world but I just could help it,I think a have found gold in that
woman everything she lays her hand transforms and become beautiful on its own.

"Bhaqile bhaqile as'dlale umacashelana ukuhlwile ntombi ngeke abone uma ngeke abone
umama wekhaya.

Mayebonile ng'yasaba phela lana ngishade uhlanya 'zovele athi ak'phele lomshado ak'phele
lomshado.

Mina ng'yafunga wena ntombi yami uzolala weda" the song plays.

"I can't wait to make you my wife so I can go around telling people I have a loving kind wife" I
say pulling closer to me.

"And the song" she asks smiling.

"That's for when I am out and you're not with me people should know I married a crazy no
nonsense taking wife" I say.

"I can't wait to be mrs Zungu junior" she says kissing me.

"Have you called your father" I ask brushing her stomach.

"No I am planning on going there today" she says smiling.

"What" I ask.

"Nothing I am just just happy and I love my ring" she says happily waving her hand.

"Baby" I say.

"Yes" she says wrapping her arms around my neck.

"I love you and whatever happens we are in this together okay" I say.

I am trying by all means to make sure she doesn't have a breakdown not after the last one.

"And I love you too mr me" she says kissing me.

She gets ontop of me and grinds on me.

"Bubu it's still early" I say

"But I want some" she says undoing my belt.

"Geez you're so needy but because I love your moans ngizokupha" I say kissing.

Khubelihle

After what seemed forever I finally left the house and drove my father's place,the excitement
from Mama made me cry and let's say my brothers were just cool with the news nothing new
there.

I slowy made my way into my father's study and found him having a drink while going through
some paper work.

"Baba" he looks up and smiles.

"Hello Bubu" he says moving from his chair to give me a hug.

"How are you" I ask.

He says nothing but fixes his eyes on my fingers,oh shoot I forgot to remove the ring.

"What's this" he asks yanking my hand.

"Baba Zwi proposed" I say softly.

"He what damn that boy" he says.

"Baba he loves me" I say.

"Loves you where are his uncles huh why hasn't he done things the right way,why is this boy
disrespectful iphi inhlawo" he roars.

"He's going to do all that if you give him a chance" I say on the verge of crying.

"Over my dead body uyangizwa akunamshado take of that bloody thing" he says sternly.

I slowly romove the ring crying why can't he understand.

"Baba what's going on" Thokozani asks bursting in.

"Stay out of this" he says pointing at him.

"Wena Khubelihle I want you to pack your clothes from that boy's house and come back home"
he says.

"Fine but unlike you Zwilakhe is fighting for our love something you failed to do with our
mother" I say walking away.

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#38

Khubelihle

I didn't even make to the door because my brother stopped me and pulled me back inside the
house,he didn't say much just looked at me till I stopped crying. I have never had a one on one
session with my brother.

"Are you done crying" he asks wiping my tears.

I nod looking up.

"Awusakwazi ukukhuluma" he asks raising his eyebrows.

"I am done crying bhuti" I say.

"Good now let's talk about this thing between you and dad" he says smiling.

Even though I am not convinced with his smile I do the same.

"Baba doesn't want me to get married" I say.

"That's a lie bubu baba doesn't want you to marry Zwilakhe " he says correcting me.

"Same difference" I say.

"So does that justify you bringing up the past and throwing it in his face" he asks.

"It was a slip of a tongue" I say.

I know what I said is wrong but I was too angry to think.

"Slip of a tongue you say" he says nodding. "Tell me is that boy worth you disrespecting our
father" he asks.

"I will apologise" I say.

"We both know words once said can never be taken back" he says.

"But then baba should understand I love Zwilakhe,he's trying by all means to fight for us and
have both families unite for our sake but baba refuses to see reason" I say.

"Angisiyena ubaba kodwa ng'yasifaka is'bhaxu watch your tone" he says pointing a finger at me.

"Ng'yaxolisa but why should I suffer for something I know nothing about why should I suffer
because of love huh, baba was once is my position can't he see that history is repeating itself,I
don't want to end up like ma with a man who despises my child" I say sniffling.

"You will never end up like ma" he says softly.

"I will if baba doesn't give us his blessing" I say shaking my head.

"Okay do you love Zwilakhe" he asks.

I would say duh but he would probably want to skin me alive.

"Yes I do" I say.

"Are you ready to having sleepless nights because you don't know where you husband is" I
squint my first eyes not fully understanding him. "You clearly don't think Zwilakhe is a saint now
do you" he asks.

"I never said that" I say softly.

"Good because if you marry him then your life will never be the same,are you ready to have
nights where you don't know if Zwilakhe is safe because he's out there dodging bullets. Days
where cops come banging at your door in the middle of the night because they are looking for
something,to have your life splashed in the newspapers and have people question your morals
for standing by your husband" he asks careful studying my face.

"I don't know all I know is I love him and that's what makes sense" I say brushing my belly.

"Then there's nothing anyone can say" he says releasing a sigh.

"Do you think I should stay away from him" I ask.

"I can't never tell you what to do,the thing is I see myself in Zwilakhe and I am afraid you haven't
seen his bad side,ask yourself what happened to all those guys who were once interested in you
over the years you've known him. Ask yourself why that doctor friend of yours stayed
away,Zwilakhe is the type of man that loves but can still be ruthless and deadly when he wants.
He reacts to threats camly and eliminates competition,Bubu are you ready to sleep and wake up
next to a killer" he asks.

I stay silent just allowing my tears to fall,why can't things be simple as in the movies boy meets
girl and they fall in love remaining happy forever.

"I am not trying to scare you okay but I want you to understand where baba is coming from,that
man beat you up into a pulp almost killing you and the baby and still you forgave him. But it's
not simple for a parent to forgive someone who hurt your child,you fear for their life and
wellbeing I know you love him but see baba's concerns" he says embracing me.

"Bubu I love you and want the best for you just like dad but most importantly we want you to be
happy" he says.

"I am happy with him" I say.

He releases a heavy sigh and nods holding me tight.

I couldn't even say goodbye to my father because I felt ashamed after what I said,I love him and
I don't want to loose him I just found him. Some of the things Mtho said touched home but I am
willing to give us a shot and if things don't work out that's fine. I remember after being
welcomed into the family my father said "people may come and go but family is forever".

I make my way to the bedroom and find Zwilakhe on his laptop,I stare at him and think about all
the things Mthokozisi said about him he looks so perfect I can't wait to see him holding our
baby. I have seen him with Lwazi and you would swear he was born to do this thing I take off my
shoes and settle on the edge of the bed.

"Baby how did it go" he asks.

"Not good my father wants me back home" I say swallowing the lump forming on my throat.

"What do you mean" he asks closing his laptop and coming to kneel in front of me.

He takes my hands kisses them not letting go.

"Where's your ring" he asks cupping my face.

"In my bag I had to take it off" he nods clenching his jaw.

"Zwi he doesn't want us to get married" I say heaving.

"Hey its okay" he says.

He stands up goes through my bag taking out my ring.

"Khubelihle Mpungose will you please marry me and wear this ring with pride" he says faintly
giving me a smile.

"Yes I will marry you" I say allowing him to put the ring on my finger.

"Hey Bubu don't cry everything is going to be okay" he says putting his hands on either side of
my face.

"No nothing is going to be okay" I half shout.

"Just breathe and look at me" he says.

"Zwilakhe don't you get it no wedding is happening my father hasn't given us his blessing" I say.

He looks calm while I want to blow a gasket.

"Bubu do you trust me" he asks.

"Yes" I whisper.

"Then trust me when I say this wedding is happening okay" he says with a smile.

"Let's get married tomorrow" he slightly pulls away fixing his eyes on me. "Yes let's go to home
affairs and get married" I say.

"No" he says.

"Why" I ask.

"Because I love you and no we are not getting married at a bloody home affairs" he says.

"Fine you no longer want to marry me it's okay Zwilakhe" I say.

"Baby please calm down think about your blood pressure" he says calmly.

"Now you think I am crazy is that it" I ask.

He raises his eyebrows and laughs.

"I never said that dammit women what's wrong with you" he asks trying so hard not to laugh.

"I don't know" I say trying to wipe my tears.

He moves closer and kisses me slowly undressing me.

"Ngizokuthulisa yezwa baby" he says gently cupping my breast.

"Okay"I murmur going for his belt.

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Khubelihle

I wake up feeling down although I had this long blissful night with Zwilakhe,my mind is drained
partly from the fact that my father refuses to see reason. I tried calling him but he's not taking
my calls but I did talk to Ma and she promised to talk to her husband.

A soft knock comes through and Zinhle together with Hope make their way in,I hide my
indecency with the covers as they approach.

"Sorry to budge in like this but we need to borrow you" Zinhle says smiling.

"I am not feeling well today" I say.

"I can tell you look horrible babe and those puffy eyes" she says.

"Hello sis khuba" Hope says sweetly.

"Hey" I say smiling.

"Uhm Hope can you please go to the guest room we will join just now" Zinhle says.

Hope walks out while Zinhle settles on the couch.

"Babe what's wrong" she asks

"Everything" I say.

"You know what take a long bath and you will find me in the guest room okay" she says blowing
me a kiss,so here's the thing I respect privacy and that goes for my bedroom with Zwi.

I take a long bath and wear Zwi's robe walking to the other room,I find them handling make up
kits and these things to dolly up.

"And then" I ask.

"Great you finally here now sit" Zinhle says.

"What's going on" I ask.

"Nothing we just want to cheer you up" Hope says happily holding up a brush.

"Zee what's going on" I ask.

Nothing she says starting on my make up Hope does my nails while I sit still till they are
done,she went for a more natural look since she beautifully tired up my afro.

"You look beautiful" Hope says.

"I feel beautiful" I say blinking tears,I have to say being pampered feels so good.

Zinhle brings me some food to munch on,they disappear into the bathroom and come back
wearing blush pink dresses.

"Yey kuyiwaphi" I ask.

"To your wedding" they simultaneously say

I almost choke on my food what the hell.

"My what" I ask.

"Your wedding come let us help you get dressed" Hope says.

Things happen so fast I find myself wearing the most beautiful fitting white gown embroidered
with crystals and a long veil.

I can't believe Zwilakhe really did this,we are having our own wedding at back in the garden
there's a familiar song playing in the background.

"Ngamthanda umuntu ngiqal'ukumbona ngamthandu muntu ngifisa ukumulobolala

Webant' abadala akeningixoxele yakeyakhona into enjena emandulo.

Losisi angimazi ngish' igama kodwa enhlinzweni esengcwele"

This is the same song Zwi played when he came home and apparently it was dedicated to me.

There are exactly twelve chairs six on either side draped in white cloths and a touch of blush
pink there's an aisle and a pastor standing tall ready to officiate our wedding. I look around and
the place is beautiful he even got white lilies to go with the theme.

Zwi is sitting infront of a piano playing a song,he looks so handsome in his black tux he even
trimmed his beard and hair.

His brothers are here and my mine are nowhere to be seen,I feel this pang of pain this shouldn't
be like this.

"Hey" he says holding my hands.

I didn't even notice him stand.

"Don't you love this" he asks nervously.

"I do but I am alone" I whisper.

"You're not I am here and your brothers are here" he says smiling.

I turn around and see my brothers with Zamo walking towards us.

"Sorry we're late" they both say giving me side hugs I kiss Zamo who giggles.

"I don't have anyone to walk me down" I say looking at Zwi.

"That's why your big brother is here" he says kissing my cheek.

"I told him I wouldn't take his lobola money that would be me disrespecting ubaba,but I
couldn't say no to walking you down the aisle" he says holding out his arm.

Our guest are sitting down while Zwi plays the piano.

"I've found love in you and I've learnt to love me too.

Never have I felt that I could be all that you see,its like our hearts have entetwined into the
perfect harmony.

This is why I love you wooo.

This is why I love you because you love me you love me.

This is why I love you wooo,this is why I love because you love me you love me.

I've found love in you and no other love will do.

Every moment that you smile chases all the pain away forever and a while in my heart is where
you will stay.

This is why I love you because you love me too"

He finishes the song while Lindani takes over.

"You look beautiful Bubu" Mtho says kissing my cheek.

This is supposed to be done by my father but I am glad my brothers are here.

"This is very unsually but seeing that these two love each other and wish to be one in marriage I
accepted to officiate this ceremony" the pastor says.

"I was told the couple would be saying their own vows" he says.

I look at Zwi who has a smirk on his face this guy though he clears his throat and smiles.

"Sthandwa sam this is probably a shock but I couldn't let you get married at a home affairs,I
couldn't stand seeing you cry because that's not who you are.

I remember the first time I heard you laugh I swear my world stopped and only you existed,I
love you and no one else this is not ideal but my love for you exceeds all else. This thing called
love has me doing crazy things because I fear loosing you and that scares me, Khubelihle I want
to wake up next to you everyday I want those eyes to bless only me,dammit woman I love you
and I can't wait to start our family" he says subtly wiping his tears.

"I know you wish your father was here and I am sorry he isn't,I know things may seem blurry
now but I promise everything will look bright tomorrow " he says nodding.

"I don't know what to say this is beautiful" I say with a wide smile fanning myself.

"I have found a friend a lover and a husband all in you,I may not know much about this life thing
but I know God chose you for me. I know that I love you with everything in me and I am not
willing to let you go.

In my hardest and darkest days you were there holding my hand you never gave up on me and I
am greatful for that.

Zungu ngiy'kuthanda and thank you" I say.

He wipes my tears using his thumb.

The patient man of God blesses the rings allowing us to wear them.

"What the Lord has put together let no man put a sunder" he says loudly.

He prays and pronounces us husband and wife.

Zwilakhe pulls me closer sealing it with a kiss beautifully.

"I love you mrs Zungu" he says grabbing my arse.

"I love you too mr me" I say blushing.

My brother's together with his pull out their guns and fire in the sky.

The pastor quickly raises his bible as a sheild praying.

"Amen baba" he says behind Zwi.

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#39

Khubelihle
I wake up to Zwi buried deep inside me slowly thrusting in while I let out moans that soon feel
the entire bedroom,he gently cups my breast massaging them my leg is slightly lifted up giving
him excess to his heaven he comes inside groaning and breathing heavily pulling out.

"Mrs Zungu" he says is a hoarse voice.

"Mr me" I say turning to face him

"Thank you" he says.

"For what" I ask running my fingers on his beard.

"For loving me and taking me as your husband" he says.

"I wouldn't have it any other way and thank you for our wedding even though some people
scared the poor man of God" I say.

"That's our way of living" he says causally.

"And will you continue with that lifestyle even after I give birth" I ask.

"It's who I am sthandwa sam" he says.

"Oh" I say pulling away from his hold.

"Bubu please don't be like that" he says.

I stare at him and say nothing,yesterday was beautiful and it's something I will always keep in
heart. The way he sung that song and said his vows made me realise how much I love this
manew, Zwilakhe is a true definition of a man and more I just wish my father could see past the
hate and get to know him.

"Talk to me" he says.

"When will you stop doing your dogy work" I ask with a straight face.

"Not anytime soon" he says.

I nod atleast he's being honest.

"Will I ever find myself in a comprising situation" I ask.

"Where's all of this coming from" he asks sitting up.

"Just answer me" I say calmly.

"I would never do it deliberately" he says.

"Bubu are you having second thoughts about us and our marriage" he asks.

I see some emotions evoke and portray on his face.

"If I had second thoughts I wouldn't be here next to you,I wouldn't have defied my father and
chose our love" I say smiling.

"You're amazing and I know I am the cause of this drift between you and your father but one
day I will fix it" he says kissing.

"I know you will" I say.

"Bubu I love you" he says.

"I love you too" I say.

"And trust me you guys will always be protected and I will always be here for you and our kids"
he says.

"How did I get lucky" I ask smiling.

"The question is what did I do in my previous life deserve you" he says kissing my forehead.

I pull him closer for a deep sultry kiss that leave him with a boner,he chuckles biting his lower lip
as I lie on my back and play with me self lowly moaning,my legs are bent and separated into a v
shape.

"Dammit Bubu" he says hissing.

He moves over kneeling and positions himself placing his hands on my knees,he thrusts in
slowly closing his eyes.

"Sebenza baby" I say with a smile slowly licking and biting my lower.

I close my eyes wishing this moment never ends sex with Zwilakhe always leaves me wanting
more.

I've been in the kitchen watching Musa prepare some breakfast seems like people didn't leave
my house.

He looks at me one more time and laughs.

"What" I ask.

"Nothing" he says plating up.

"Musa kumnandi eh niyafraya nje" I say.

"You never cease to amaze me yaz one moment awuboni the next ubona ama polony" he says
shaking his head.

I can't help but laugh Musa always has something crazy to say.

"Musa what have I done to you huh" I ask.

"Nothing I just love your blind arse" he says.

"Hey only my husband is allowed to love my arse like that" I say pointing a finger at him.

"Look at you claiming your husband" he says coming over to my side.

"I guess I am lucky" I say smiling.

"Hayi kodwa nawe ngathi uhlephula kakhulu these days,you and your husband are rabbits
depriving us of some sleep" he says laughing.

"Musa" I say blushing.

"I am glad he chose you as he's wife now I have a sister" he says kissing my cheek.

"And I am glad I have your crazy arse as a brother" I say.

"Speaking of brothers what's going on between Zinhle and bhut' Mtho" he asks with a silly
smile.

"I really don't know" I say.

"But something is brewing I tell you" he says nodding .

"I think so too but my brother isn't the type to settle down uzithandela abafazi" I say.

"So you are worried about Zinhle" he asks.

"Yes I am I just don't want her getting hurt" I say releasing a sigh.

"Khululeka ngizomlamisa" Mtho says behind me.

Lord does this mean my brother heard me doing rabbit things all night and morning.

Mthokozisi

Bubu's wedding was intimate but beautiful that bastard actually came through and made my
little sister happy,I still don't like him but because Khubelihle loves him I tolerate him. I had to
leave and attend a few meetings before heading home,I don't what I will tell my father because
Thokazani has definitely told him about the wedding.

I took a few pictures of Zinhle yesterday she's quite a beautiful woman.

But she wouldn't fit in my world and I am not ready to have another woman's blood on my
hands, am not selfish like Zwilakhe taking a wife knowing I have more enemies than friends.

But maybe taking a chance one more time won't hurt,I walk straight to my father's study.

"Ndodana" he says as I walk in .

"Baba how are you" I ask grabbing a chair.

"Not good I am still waiting for your sister to walk through that door" he says breathing heavily.

"I don't think she will be doing that anytime soon" I say clearing my throat.

"What do you mean is there something" he asks standing up.

"Khuba there's something I need to tell you" I say.

"Okay I am listening" he says.

I think twice not sure if I should go ahead.

"Mtho talk" he says.

"Bubu got married yesterday and I walked her down the aisle" I say.

"You did what" he roars

"Mpungose I am sorry" I say.

"I don't know what's worse my own son betraying me or my daughter hurting me" he says.

"It's not betrayal baba I was there to support Khubelihle" I say.

"I am surprised you can't tell the difference" he says walking out.

He's hurt and I understand, but if we keep doing things like this we will loose Khuba.

Khubelihle

I am looking at my husband doing his thing in the kitchen while I chop some veggies.

He moves from the stove to the kitchen top and feeds me some carrots.

"This should be good for your eyes" he says.

"Really you're now taking Musa's role" I ask

"What I could never tease you mkami" he says laughing.

"You better be telling the truth" I say.

"Have I ever lied to you" he asks.

"Never" I say.

"I need a kiss" I say.

He shakes his head and moves closer to give me a kiss,we are disturbed by a persistent knock.

"I will get it" I say.

"Hurry up" he shouts.

I open the door and my fuming father walks past calling out Zwi's name,I almost fall but balance
myself with the wall.

"Baba what's wrong" I ask running behind him.

He gets hold of Zwi pulling him away from the stove.

"Ngasho ngathi liyoba linye" he says throwing punches at him.

I start crying only for him to hit him more and harder

"Baba uzombulala" I say

I don't think he hears me because he beats the hell out of Zwi,I've never seen him this angry at
the rate he's going he might end up killing him.

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#40

Zwilakhe

Ever since Mphungose came into my house and attacked me things haven't been right with
khuba,they aren't on speaking terms and that's taken her back to square one. Just when I
thought things were going okay with her mental health she had a breakdown that landed her in
the hospital,and the fact that she's been having contractions that heavily come and go isn't
helping. I hate seeing my wife going through any pain or crying,I know I was wrong by marrying
her without her father's knowledge but God knows I tried my best. Mpungose is not the only
one who lost a daughter my parents also lost,they are still grieving Nobuhle's death till this day
but you don't see them walking around beating people.

My father says we might be married but our ancestors don't recognise her as my wife,I won't lie
even though I knew that but hearing it from him hurt.

How can loving someone be so wrong I fail to understand,all I ever want is to make her happy
and keep my promise.

I finish up making her oats with peanut butter and milk then head for bedroom.

I open the door and the curtains are closed and I left them open,I reopen them and go over to
her side.

"Baby wake up" I say pulling down the covers.

"No" she says pulling them back up.

"I made you some breakfast" I say.

"I am not hungry" she says turning and facing the other side.

"I know you're not hungry but please just take a few bites so you can take your meds" I say.

She stays silent still facing the other side.

"Bubu do it for the baby please" I say trying to turn her.

"Okay" she says sitting up.

"Open up"I say.

She swallows hard before opening her mouth and tears falling,this has been happening ever
since her father had his go on me.

"Khuba don't cry" I say clenching my jaws.

"I just want to sleep" she says her lips quivering.

"Okay just one more bite then you can sleep" I say feeding her a mouthful.

I can't stand seeing her like this,all she wants is to spend her days sleeping and crying. The meds
work but I also think not seeing or speaking to her father has a huge impact.

I watch her fall asleep soon after taking her medication, Mhlambi said she might need to be
checked in and have professionals help her out.
As selfish as this may sound I don't want to let go of my wife,she's pregnant and due anytime
now she needs me now more than ever.

I take out my phone and dial my mother.

"Khehla" she says softly.

"Ma" I say releasing a sigh.

"What's wrong baba" she asks.

I compose myself trying to find the right words.

"Is it the baby are her contractions at it again" she asks in a panic

"No but she's having one of those days"I say.

"You know what I will call Lethu then we can come over to help" she says.

"Ma I miss my wife" I say.

"I know you do but you have to be strong remember there's a baby on the way" she says.

"Ma it's been a month now and everytime I think she is getting better she withdraws this is
different" she sighs on the other end.

"Please don't lose just hope and pray sh.." I cut her short,I know this woman and she's about to
come with her bible stuff.

"Ma I have to go check up on khuba I love you bye" I say ending the call.

We have been in this bloody hospital for hours now and these doctors are not saying
anything,when I went to check up on Khubelihle she was sweating and screaming. I thought the
baby was on it's way but the doctors don't see anything,I feel like punching someone in the face
just to calm down.

"You have to calm down" my father says placing a hand on my shoulder.

"I can't she's been screaming her lungs out but still nothing" I say.

"With some women it takes time" Ma says placing a hand on my shoulder.

"I feel like something is wrong" I say looking at my father.

"Have you talked to her father" Baba asks.

"No not yet" I say.

"I think it's time we spoke to Mpungose" he says.

I look up and the doctor approaches us.

"Mr Zungu" she says.

"That me" I say standing up.

"I am afraid your wife is experiencing a few problems"she says taking off her latex gloves.

"What do you mean" Ma asks.

"There are a few complications we might need to do a cesarean" the doctor says.

"Do what ever it takes to save them" I say.

"No don't she will give birth naturally" baba says looking at Ma.

"But sir if we prolong the situation we might lose the child" the doctor says.

"And if you cut her up we will lose both mother and the child" he says.

"Please excuse us" I say to the doctor.

"Of course" she says walking away.

"Ma talk to your husband" I say.

"Your father is right Khuba won't give birth anytime soon,Mpungose needs to set her free" she
says.

"Set her free how" I ask.

"I know as we speak he's hurting and he's holding a grudge" Baba says.

"So what do we do now" I ask rubbing my forehead.

"You apologise and ask Mpungose to forgive khuba" he says.

"Fine" I say walking.

Zwilakhe

I drove all the way Mpungose's house it took the strength in me to find myself here,this man
hasn't bothered checking up on his daughter at least her brothers did their part even though
she didn't want to see them.
Mthokozosi is the one taking me to his father's study,the man is playing a maskandi song by
Khuzani.

"Izwe elika khuba elika khuba izwe elikhuba" the song plays.

"He's not in the best mood" Mthokozosi says.

"Baba" he turns looking at us.

"What is it this time" he asks.

"I need to talk to you its Khuba" I say.

He turns off the radio and focuses on me.

"I don't have a daughter angithi usumenze umfazi" he says getting angry.

"Please just hear me out" I say.

"Baba" Mtho says.

"Talk before I throw you out of my house" he says.

"Khuba had a breakdown and things haven't been the same,today she went into labour but
she's having difficulties" he tightens his jaw looking at Mtho.

"Why didn't you tell me" he asks.

"That doesn't matter I am here to apologise and ask for forgiveness ngicela ukhulule inhliziyo
yakho for her sake. I know I wronged you but please don't be angry at her" I say.

He closes his eyes sitting down.

"I will do anything" I say getting down on my knees.

"I love my daughter but I want you to stay away from her" he says.

"Ask me anything but that" I say clenching my jaws.

"Do you love my daughter" he asks rubbing his eyes.

"Yes" I say.

"Then walk away" he says in a pleading tone.

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#40
Thobani

It's been one hell of a month not speaking to my daughter,I didn't think I would be able to turn
my back on her but I found myself staying away because of my anger. I didn't even think twice,
the fact that they love each other couldn't even faze me,I was so angry that she went ahead and
married that boy even when I her father was against it. Never in a lifetime did I think my long
lost daughter would marry the son of my enemy and want me to give my blessings,I know she
loves him and the other way around but sometimes love isn't enough. I know this because I was
once there and love didn't come to my rescue.

I know my reasons aren't valid enough but I don't want to bury another daughter,I don't want to
find myself grieving another loss beside the boys khuba is the only thing left from Thulisile.

I loved that women more than anything but still my love for her wasn't enough,she chose death
over something so beautiful. I remember the first time she came to me with a bruised face,I
begged her to leave but she didn't maybe if I had tried harder she would still be alive.

I am a father to my kids first above all else,and if me trying my best to protect them makes me
the bad guy sure I don't care.

I look up looking at Lethu packing her bags.

"So you are leaving me" I ask.

"I am giving you some space" she says zipping up her suitcase.

"Space yet you are packing up half your wardrobe" I say.

"I need to be there for our daughter the one you turned your back on" she says shaking her
head.

"You just don't understand Lethu she's my only baby girl" I say.

"Trust me I understand perfectly well,this is not about Khubelihle her husband or your hate
towards that poor boy" she says facing me.

"Lethu" I call out.

"Save it Thobani this is about you and your past,the fact that you have regrets" she says.

I put my index finger shaking my head.

"You don't know what you're talking about" I say.

"But I do,I have lived with you for the best years of my life and only received half of you. We
grieved our daughter and your hate for the Zungu's subsided,but as soon as Khuba surfaced
everything changed and the what could have been thought that was always at the back of your
mind grew" she says shouting.

"I failed her okay I could have saved her after that one punch but I failed,I don't want that
happening to my daughter. Do you know how many fathers and mothers have lost her
daughter's all because they were told "it's just a slap", "they will change" I say

"And how many times has Mthokozi walked through that door with blood in his hands and you
cleaned up after him huh,how many bodies has he buried and you stood by him. But bubu
falling in love and marrying without your knowledge is that bad" she asks. "Don't let history
repeat it's self through Khuba please" she says in a pleading voice.

"Lethu I am scared that one day Zwilakhe will punch her one to many times and kill her,I am
scared that I will lose her.I see Mthokozi in that boy and that scares me,I am scared that if I let
her stay with him she will return home in a body bag like her mother" I say breathing heavily.

"That's because you are comparing him to the Themba which is wrong,they are completely two
different people just give Zwilakhe a chance" she says.

"I don't think I can" I say honestly.

This fear of losing Khuba has me real good and I can't picture myself going through that pain
again,what happens if she goes out with friends and comes home late an argument sparks then
what will he hit her,burn her or kill her.

"Then I will come back when the man I fell in love with shows up,when you realise the
importance of family and not your fears" she says kissing me and dragging her bags.

You know when your woman ups and leaves things are serious,I am a hard man to get along
with and my boys have been distant understandably so.

I have been a crapy father,husband and grandfather Zamo even noticed the tension in the
house.

I am standing outside Khuba's hospital room watching her holding the baby,she looks so happy
but her eyes are darker the spark and warmth is not there,she wipes her tears and smiles
looming up.

I take a few steps and make my way inside slowly proceeding to her bed.

"Baba" she says.

"Bubu" I say.

"I am sorry" she says wiping her tears.

"I am the one who's sorry please forgive me" I say.

She shakes her head using he other hand to wipe her tears.

"I am so sorry baba" she says crying,I hold her hand clenching my jaws.

"It's okay I am here now" I say.

"Here's your grandson" she says giving me the baby.

"He's baby alright" I say.

"I knew you would say something like this" she says lightly laughing.

"Baba he's not here" she says closing her eyes letting the tears fall.

The nurse comes in and takes the baby leaving us alone.

"Who" I ask even though I know the answer.

"Zwi he's not here I haven't seen him in days" she says swallowing hard.

"I am sorry" I say.

This sorry goes out for the pain I have cause her and for driving her husband away,I pull her into
my arms and let her cry.

"I need him and it hurts" she says with hiccups.

"It's okay he will come back" I say.

"What if he's tired of me" she she asks.

"That could never happen" I say kissing the top part of her head.

"Baba" she says.

"Yes" I say.

"I love you" she says smiling.

"I love you too" I say holding her close.

"I missed you and I am sorry for not listening" she says starting allover crying.

"Bubu it's okay I was wrong and I am sorry,I missed you too my baby" I say.

"Are you crying" she asks.

"No I am just happy that you still love me" I say closing my eyes.

.
Thobani

I made a few calls and tracked down Zwilakhe I can't believe he kept he's word ams stayed away.
He's been lying low and drinking himself to oblivion,I hate what I am about to do to the same
man that hurt my daughter but I have no choice.

He's sitting in the bar of some dingy place,gulping down glasses.

"Shouldn't you be in the hospital" I ask upon odering a glass.

"Says the man who told me to stay away from my wife" he says attempting to order another
glass,I raise my hand signalling the barman to stop.

"I won't apologise for trying to protect my daughter" I say.

"I wasn't expecting you too" he says chuckling.

"Glad we understand each other,I spoke to your father and we hashed things out" I say thinking
about the heated meeting we had,that man is full of himself.

"Good for you" he says not paying attention. "Do you know how hard this is for me not seeing
my wife and child,I had to walk away while she was sleeping because I couldn't bare telling her
that I won't be coming back. I haven't slept in days thinking about her and nothing else" he says.

"You better clean up and go see your wife,if you ever hurt my daughter in anyway I will kill you"
I say.

"I know you would" he says.

"I will be waiting for you and your family to come right your wrongs and do good by my
daughter" I say walking away.

...

#40

Khubelihle

Sometimes life doesn't give us every thing we want, it only gives us what we need the bits and
pieces of what make life worth it and the other parts we just can't have.
I am greatful I was given Zwi and just like everything else he comes with his faults, I always ask
myself "would I do things differently" and my answer is always the same "no".

I never thought I would find myself having to call someone else Baba other than Themba, I
never thought a time would come where I hated and felt sorry for my mother, a time where I
couldn't tell right from wrong and all those things happened in a short period of time.

I am glad though that things turned out this way, the particular turn of events made me realise
the importance of being with family. I realised that my impulsive decision to get married without
my father's concern almost cost me the most important man in my life. That's right as old as I
am I saw that a huge part of me still needed him more than I let on, during those trying times I
lost my faith and sanity in the process but Zwilakhe was next to me ready to pull me up when I
couldn't. I love that man with the very breath in me,He lived up to his words and vows the
moment they left his mouth "I will always be that constant guaranteed thing in your life " these
words fully came to life and manifested in such beautiful growth. I love my husband and I am
greatful for having in my life,not only is he an amazing father he's also my anchor, friend and
strength lender.

There were days I wouldn't have made it out if it wasn't for him, he's wired up differently but
he's mine and only mine. I wish people could realise and understand that sometimes as a person
you have to go though such trying tough times to reach your destiny, and that God will never
forsake you or give you burdens you can't handle. I believe that he always sends someone to
help and walk with you through it all you just have to be open to the idea of a helping hand.

I look at my ringing phone and "Dad" flashes on this screen this man will definitely send me into
an early grave with his constant calling.

"Baba" I say.

"Bubu how are you" he asks.

"Baba I am fine and how's your grumpy old self" I ask laughing.

"This grumpy old man is fine,how is my grandson doing" he asks.

"He's fine and so is my husband thanks for asking" I say.

"I couldn't careless about that one" he says laughing.

"Hawu Baba" I say.

"What" he says.

"Will you ever like my husband" I ask.

"I respect your husband but like is another thing" he says.

Fair enough the relationship between the eight men in my life is not there yet but I pray that
one day Baba sees the light.

"Baba I love you" I say.

"And I love you too Khubelihle Mpungose" he says sounding proud.

"How's Mama doing" I ask.

"She's your mother alright" he says.

I know that tone alone means Baba has been put in his place. I can't stop laughing my father can
be dramatic sometimes

"Khubelihle" he says.

"Baba" I say.

"I am sorry for everything me not being there to love and protect you, I am proud to be your
father" he says clearing his throat.

"Baba it wasn't your fault so please stop blaming yourself" I say.

"Okay mam uyakuthanda uBaba yezwa" he says ending to call.

I put the phone down and look at my son he's the most cutest thing that's ever touched earth,
though his birth wasn't pap and vleis I would do it again just to hear his cries,I was in pain for
hours and still the doctor's couldn't tell what was wrong. Ma prayed for me and for safe
delivering but still I couldn't do it, but as soon as my walked through that door and held my
hand things fell into place. I gave birth to the most beautiful baby boy that screamed his tiny
lungs out. We almost didn't make it and that thought alone hurts.

"Day dreaming" Zwi asks kissing my cheek coming over to settle next to me.

"Something like that" I say looking up.

"Want to share" he asks taking my hand into his.

"I was thinking about us and how far we have come" I say.

"Any regrets" he asks.

"None at all not unless you have any" I say.

"The only regret I have is hurting you and almost killing you" he says holding me closer to his
chest.

"But Zwilakhe I forgave you" I say.

"I know but that's the one thing I will never forgive myself for,I am trying my best to be a better
man and husband to you and our kids. The thought of not loving you right and not being the
best father scares me,I want to love you right and be one of the things that make sense in your
life. I remember the first time I saw you I swear my whole world started making sense,I saw the
beauty that lies behind your eyes and soul. Sthandwa sam I love you and everything about you
well not everything everything because I can't stand the blanket pulling and kicking at night" he
says laughing. "But for real though I love you ngane yabantu you are the beauty in the
sunset,the light in the darkness and my home and heaven in one I love you now and will still do
in the after life" he says wiping my tears.

"Thank you sthandwa sam" I say.

"No thank you for loving me" he says kissing me.

"I think I should also say something" I say smiling.

"You dont have to" he says side smiling.

"I want you to hear this,you are an amazing man the definition of a true man and husband. I
love you and thank you for standing by me when I was down, I know it wasn't easy but you did
it and for that you deserve all the best things a wife could give her husband" I say.

"Are we thinking the same thing" he asks brushing his lips on mine. "Yes" I say.

"Dammit what did I ever do to be this lucky" he asks pulling away.

"I should be asking that question" I say getting on top of him.

"Bubu" he says hissing.

"I miss you" I say grinding on top of him.

I can feel his hard erected penis, he moves his hands up my thighs and buries his head on my
boobs.

I move my hands inside his pants feeling his cock,the tip is already wet I feel the urge to take
him into my mouth. We both share some eye contact before I move and go down on him,I lick
the tip on his penis and slowly taking him slowly into my mouth, he pulls my hair tightly
moaning I up my pace and slowly pull his cock out going for that tip this is probably the most
sensitive part.

"Dammit woman" he says cussing.

He pulls me up so I can ride him.

"Shit" he says in an annoyed tone.

Just as then Zwelihle's voice fills the room.

"Please get your son" I say.

"What that's not my son,I dont go around fathering evil kids mina" he says grunting.

I laugh just a bit and shake my head.

"He's your son" I say shutting my eyes.

He stands up looks at me and mumbles to himself walking away. I move closer to his cot and
take my son .

joys of being a mother huh yeah right what about the sleepless nights and orgasm disturbed.

Bongumusa

I always thought things were a drag up untill I met Khubelihle who made things seem like a walk
in a park, that lady is extra ordinary and I wish the world could see more of her beauty that
stretches way beyond what you could imagine. I am not talking about her outside beauty but
her inner beauty and strength.

She's been through so much yet shes still standing, I am happy she's part of my brother's life
and hasn't run for the hills.

I am still surprised my own brother hasn't given up considering the type of man her father is,that
man really knows how to drive a hard bargain. I know my father won't admit this but he's happy
that the two families are finally one, he sees this as a business venture and more the two father's
have a common enemy now the cops.

I am glad that they are able to share a drink without wanting to kill each other, just like today
they are here in one space celebrating a wedding which happens to be the third when counting
the garden one. Who in their right minds marries thrice but I am happy for them, Zwilakhe
deserves to be happy and with Khuba he's mostly comfortable and happy than I have ever seen
him, I think he even prays which is weird even for him.

people are making speeches and saying all these beautiful things to the happy couple, I don't
like weddings they are too soppy for me and I can't afford to cry not when Mapakisha is around.
I turn my focus to the side and notice Zinhle with Mthokozisi, this man is something else he has
all his side dishes here "I did not invite them" his words but still he has Zinhle in his arm.

"This man is a legend" I say.

"Yeah he's the man" Lunga says.

"When I grow up I want to be just like him" I say.

"Yeah right all you want is to keep shagging other people's daughter's without any hassles or
being tied down" Lindani says .

Lunga looks at him and we both crack up a laugh.

"He's in love" I say nodding my head.

"Yeah he's definitely in love" Lunga says in agreement.

"Yeah right says you who still longs for khumbulani" Lindani says.

"Don't you mention that gold digging thing" he says clicking his tongue.

Khumbu fled to God knows where and she's been off the radar.

We hear some cheers and the ladies go crazy as Mtho stands up with a glass in his hand, he
doesn't look impressed by the noise I doubt he even smiles in his spare time the noise dies
down and he acknowledges the silent by nodding his head.

"How does he do that" I ask.

"Its the Mpungose charm you wouldn't understand" Thokozani says with an arm candy on his
arm.

"Or could tell him to give you the number of his sangoma" Lunga says laughing.

We all join in and laugh together and turn on the man of the moment.

"I am not a man of many words but I would like to say congratulations to my baby sis and her
husband, I wish you all the happiness in the world I love you Khubelihle ka Baba" he says
moving to give Khuba a hug and a handshake to Zwilakhe.

"And to my brother in law welcome to the family Mfo my father said it and I will say it also, you
hurt my sister we come down on you like a ton of bricks" he says with smirk.

Just as he's about to take his sit things turn deadly mayhem all over people start screaming
when guns go off,Lunga pulls me down under the table. And goes up I know he's shooting back
things suddenly die down, I come out to witness the horror that just took place Khuba is
stanfing in the middle of everything. I don't think she feels the pain or realises that she's been
shot it could be the heat of the wound. Everything is going in slow motion Zwilakhe tries
holding Khubelihle but she hysterically screams her eyes are fixed on the babysitter who had
Zwelihle and Lwazi.

"My son" she says going beserk.

The mood thickness with sadness and tears, just maybe we can never have all the happiness in
the word and just maybe life without tears and heartache isn't story to be told.
..End…