Capstone Reflection
Capstone Reflection
Capstone Reflection
accepted. I have been looking forward to my capstone since 8th grade when I helped my older
brother film his; which thankfully gave me a small taste of the chaos and problem-solving
necessary to complete a capstone project! I remember searching for equipment that went
missing, scrambling to pack everything up during a spontaneous rainstorm, and holding up the
boom mic through countless takes and re-shoots. My personal experience was only slightly
different; I did not have access to all of the same equipment, but I certainly ran into my fair share
of obstacles. The biggest, which will be the center of this reflection, was having to replace one
of my actors at the last minute. My concept for this film came to me when I was listening to
music, specifically “The Mysteries” by David Bowie (my hero--no pun intended). It’s an
instrumental song, which made it very easy to create mental images as I listened. I had this vivid
idea of a young woman finding an androgynous being that had crash landed, and the two of
them being able to learn from each other while also forming a deep relationship. I built the rest
of my concept around this central plan. When it came to finding actors, I knew right away I
wanted Naomi Jeter, one of my best friends, to play the role of the young woman. However, I
had absolutely no idea who could play the alien character. I was feeling stuck until I delivered
my visualization presentation, announcing that I had no actor to play the alien, and Israel Perez
volunteered. I was very excited, as he is a very talented actor, a friend of mine, and Naomi was
comfortable being in an on-screen relationship with him. However, once we started filming, I felt
as though Israel was not properly embodying the character. I don’t think it was really anyone’s
fault, we just weren’t executing the vision I had in mind. I immediately started to stress myself
out since the last thing I wanted was to tell him he couldn’t be in the film anymore. It didn’t even
register as a real option because I couldn’t imagine having that conversation and being that
confrontational. After talking to a lot of trusted people, I decided it would be worth it. I realized
that I would rather try to execute my vision to the best of my ability rather than look back with
regrets. It was a hard conversation, and I made sure to clarify that it wasn’t his fault, or a lack of
ability or talent, but just that I wanted to try something different and see how it went. I was very
relieved that he was completely understanding, as he was also going in a new direction in his
own project. Now I was kind of back at square one as far as finding an actor for the alien, but
ultimately (and reluctantly) decided to play the role myself. My original vision was an
androgynous alien character, and I identify as nonbinary, so I would be able to pull that off. I also
figured that I know the character better than anyone else would since I created and wrote it. And
that pretty much brings us to now! I’m much happier with the characters and relationship
established in the film. This project was a very challenging, stressful, but important learning
experience for me, and I’m glad I decided to make the change and was able to overcome this
challenge.