I took a deep a breath and smiled after the school bell rang.

Finally, it was Friday and

somehow I could have the weekend to free myself from the cruel college life. Also, Friday
sunsets were the best since I could go home alone.

My friend named Act went home earlier because her last subject ended at three in the
afternoon. I wondered what she might be doing. Then I sighed after I suddenly
remembered her, telling me the Korean drama she was recently addicted to. I couldn't
relate myself to her in that matter so we would usually talk about the anime shows we
were both watching. I was so happy we were both anime addicts. In that way, I met a very
dear friend in this world.

I smiled again as I plugged my earphones and played my most favorite playlist of anime original
soundtracks. I went out from our classroom and entered my strange, deep and unpredictable
inner world.

I walked along the crowded classroom corridors but the melody of the music took me
farther from reality and there my self-contemplation started.

From the outside, you would see me as a normal college student with simple hobbies like
drawing anime characters and writing fictional stories. There were still a lot of hobbies to
mention but all boiled down to one thing. I was never considered best to any of my
hobbies.

With that in my mind, the music started to mellow down as if it heard my dramatic thoughts.

You are a Jack of all trades but a master of none.

I clenched my fist and walked away faster after remembering that painful memory. But
no matter how hard I tried to escape still that fact remained.

Catherine? an old female voice came behind me, Good to see you back here!

I was still panting when I turned my back and saw Lola Lita. The warmth of her smile
brought me back to the good mood I was supposed to have. I thanked her silently for
saving me from those unnecessary gloomy thoughts.

Come inside, she said and motioned me to come with her, There's a lot of good books
delivered just today.

My eyes sparkled but I shook my inner thoughts and focused back to what I should need to
buy.
Diary, I muttered suddenly.

Lola Lolita heard me and stopped her book sales talk.

Diary? she asked and smiled.

I gasped and panicked on what to say but Lola held calmly my hand and brought me to the
left corner of the store.

There, I left my jaw opened slightly. Several designs and colors of diaries captured me for a
moment. But before I came there, I had already decided to buy a plain red diary.

It was then I asked help from Lola to find that plain red diary.

After one long hour of searching, I spotted it finally behind all those colorful and gorgeous-
looking diaries.

Lola sighed and said, Until now you still have your weird tastes.

I giggled and hugged the plain red notebook while the old woman messed up further my frizzy,
black hair.

I'm just curious. What made you want to buy a diary?

I forced a smile and said, It's getting late. I better get going.

I left her the payment and ran outside like a kid. It was then I realized that it was already
half past five in the afternoon.

I reached the old and abandoned children's park. It was my most favorite place where I
got to enjoy Friday sunsets.

As I walked around, the sun bathed the skies and the entire park with its golden bleeding
light. I smiled and cried at the same time as nostalgia took over me.

Finally I reached the rusty swing still dancing gracefully with the cool breeze. I sat down
slowly and more bittersweet memories gushed upon me. Tears continued to flow and I was
lucky that nobody else was around that time.

Finally there was nothing to hold back.

I took out my pen and opened my newly-bought diary. Then I started writing at the
first page. It was always my initiation to start introducing my nickname, Cate.

I continued writing all my random thoughts and feelings. Pouring everything and I paused
for a while and closed my diary.

What am I doing? All these years I've been writing and burning diaries... Am I really
this stupid? I always believed that I was a Jack of all trades but a master of none.
But I realized at that moment that I was wrong.

I was best at hiding my secrets.

A lot of secrets.

I clearly remembered writing down in my seventh diary one of my two ultimate secrets.

I fell in love with a regular co-irregular college student.

At first, I had nearly cursed my life why I should have to be an irregular student. I was
always left out of place and it was so sad and boring having no one to talk to. But one
fateful semester came and I had met a guy with a light complexion and cute height. It was
true that he was cute for his height but little did he know how huge the impact he had made
in my life.

Several happenings had followed before we became friends.

He was such a one of a kind guy. Despite his cute height and innocent looks, I could sense
his strong and semi-cold personality. That was the reason why I was always reluctant to
approach him whenever we had some paired activities.

One day, during class, I had gotten bored in our discussion so I had leaned my head in the
wall. I had smiled in my mind because I was lucky to have that perfect spot to stalk my
classmates. It was always my entertainment to look at their bored and sleepy facial
expressions. Whenever I did that special stalking habit, I had always hoped to see again one
idiot who would sleep with his mouth opened and with his saliva flowing out.

But I had guessed that rare incident would never come again. I had burned my hopes
out as I had reached stalking the last column of students seated beside the window.

I had sighed silently but that sigh had turned into awe when I had reached the last person in
that column.

We were both in the same row so I could see him seated perfectly like a little king in his
throne.

I couldn’t explain but my heart had raced in my chest as I had seen him still paying
attention to the teacher’s lesson. I didn’t expect my stalking habit had turned that way. If
ever someone was also stalking me at that time, I would surely get the laugh of the entire
class.
But I was already stunned.

The wind had started to play around his wavy black hair and suddenly the white skies
behind him had started to cover everything around us.
After few seconds, only the white blinding light and the two of us in the middle were left in
my view. It was such a precious and magical moment that had made me even smiled like an
idiot. I had blinked my eyes slowly and I still hadn’t realized that it had been a long time
since I set my eyes on him.

Finally, I had ended my smile and had gone back gradually to my senses. Then because of
that playful chance, the little king had turned accidentally and had discovered that idiot
who had been looking at him for a long time already.

Right on the spot, my inner and outer selves were sentenced separately.

My inner self had melted in shame while the outer Cate had turned into a living stone.

My mind, heart and soul were still with me though my entire body had stiffened at that
moment. I had wanted to turn away but his intense and semi-cold stare had held me
perfectly still. I couldn’t move an inch. My breathing had became harsher as we had
continued looking to each other that way.

It was already too late to break away so I had given up and let his eyes stared deeply to my
soul.

I had wondered what he had found. But whatever it was I didn’t care anymore. I had felt so
stupid and greatly humiliated! What was worst because I didn’t have anybody to blame but
myself…I had sighed and had fixed my things as the bell had rang that had ended our class.

In my peripheral vision, I had seen him stood and had walked decisively out our room like
nothing had happened.

It had pinched my heart.

How could he already make that huge effect on me for just only two straight semesters
that we had been regular co-irregular classmates?

My anger didn’t subside at all even while listening to relaxing music. Perhaps because I
couldn’t get off the fact that that the special effect had affected me only and that would
never affect him in any way.

My eyes had widened.

What the hell am I thinking?!!

I had shaken my head and I had just realized that I had already reached the abandoned
children’s park.
My furious mood had suddenly eased as I had gone excitedly to the swing. It was always my
favorite spot before going home. In that way I could pull out all the negativities and I could
finally head home peacefully and somehow happily.
After loosening up all the bad vibes, my cellphone had clanked. I had expected the message
would come from my mom.

But my body had frozen back after locking my eyes at the new friend request
notification. M-Mil?!

The little king’s power had occurred to me again and I couldn’t stop myself from
blushing all the way home.

That was the very start of our strange friendship. We were so close in the virtual world but
we had rarely communicated face to face. The only reason I could think of was because the
Mil in the real world was so aloof and withdrawn in nature. I had wanted badly to reach him
out face to face but I was always too scared to take the risk. I was afraid I could accidentally
push him away instead of drawing him nearer to me.

Three semesters had gone and we had maintained that kind of virtual friendship. Despite
that virtual communication, Mil never failed in revealing and sharing his world to me. I
had seen and felt every side and angle of his personality. But I had realized that there was
more to discover about the little king. But for that moment, I was already happy and lucky
to see his rare goofy and naughty side along with his reserved, caring and cool nature.

But that made me realize that I no longer had seen him as my friend.

I had cried most nights because of that best-worst and right-wrong feeling. I had wanted to
stop it but the more I had tried the more I could not resist.

Happy, sad and irritating days had continued and I was getting more attached to him. I
never thought I could experience that heavenly feeling of being in love.

But never did I expect, that heavenly trip was getting close to its end.

He had suddenly disappeared both in the virtual and real world just like the day that he
just suddenly came.

My heart and life had got pounded while my spirit got thrown down straightly to the
underworld.

I had never expected him to leave me hanging like that. But it was all happening and I had
to suffer all the pain, sudden emptiness and worst were the crowding, unanswered
questions he left.
I had wondered endlessly if there was something I did wrong. But I couldn't find the right
answer.
I didn't want to give up but as the days had gone by I slowly accepted that it was
already time to start letting go...

I accidentally dropped my ballpen and just realized that it was already dark.

Then while still sitting at the swing and wiping the excess tears, a thought
came to me. What if one day in this same time and place, Mil would contact
me back?

I smiled painfully because somehow a spark of hope continued to ignite within my heart.

I sighed and started to walk on my way home.

It was a fine Saturday morning when I was busy preparing the things needed for our
Philosophy project. I sighed after remembering the day our teacher announced what the
project was all about.

Cate, hurry up! Anna's here now! my mother

called out. I shivered upon hearing her called

my friend that way. Catherine?!

My eyes widened after the second call and that made me to gather the remaining things
and put them all at once in my big backpack.

I went outside my room and found my annoyed mother together with my

amused friend. How many times do I have to remind you-

I secretly clicked my phone and it rang so I pretended to answer it just to cut off my Mom's
lecture.

Mom sighed deeply and tapped my friend as she said, Always look for each other, okay?

Act nodded while I turned off my phone and bid my mother goodbye.

As we went outside, I noticed the sudden change in Act's face so I asked her right away.

Hey Act? Are you okay? I asked.

She didn't face me and she continued walking silently.

Your face looks like you're gonna poop anytime.
She faced and glared at me.

I couldn't help but giggle at her sight.

What's wrong? Do you want me to help you carrying your things? Or... Are you now
chickening out?

Act stepped backward and covered her mouth, her eyes looked shock.

When are you planning to drop this suspense atmosphere, eh?! I asked and continued, Just
last time you were telling me that this was the only day you were looking forward. But now?

Suddenly my friend stepped forward and beat her chest as she shouted, I, Anna Christelle
Thales, confirmed that my ever pessimistic friend is miraculously calm in participating
Ghost Hunt today!

My calm state broke and I took my turn in replaying what Act just did in her shocked state.

This is bad...

Act narrowed her eyes to me. I knew she noticed something strange in me.

One bad move like gulping would surely start the interrogation.

I screamed silently.

Now what?! I couldn't afford losing my biggest secret!!! Never!

I knew it! Something fishy is going on with you! Act said, pointing at me.

I tried my best to maintain my composure.

When I was about to explain my side, my friend muttered sadly, Hey Cate. I knew that you
are still on the process of moving on from Mil. But just don't forget that I'm your friend here
whom you can trust and talk to.

Relief and guilt struck my heart.

I closed my eyes to hide any hint of emotion as I stepped forward and replied, I've had
enough dramas and it's time to make a change.

I turned to her and smiled.

Wow. A new Cate is born today...

We continued on our way to the famous haunted hospital in the province.

Then I sighed silently.
I was glad that I was able to protect successfully my last ultimate secret.

We boarded the bus at exactly half past nine in the morning and our estimated time of
arrival at Swanga City was half past three in the afternoon. I imagined the six-hour trip to be
filled with a lot of selfies, eating, self-contemplating and eventually sleeping.

I knew travelling with a friend was really fun and exciting except when I forgot the pill
against motion sickness.

Cat! Let's seat over there!

She pointed at the last two seats and I agreed to her.

Any seat would be okay for as long I would always have the seat near the window. In that
way, I could breathe fresh air thus Act would be safe from having vomited by me.

The bus started its engine and we both silently prayed for our safe trip.

As expected, we did all the activities I imagined.

I felt really tired although we were just sitting for hours already. I looked at Act who was
already sleeping deeply beside me. I sighed. Finally, I could begin my long most waited
self- scrutiny.

What had really settled in my mind was about my ultimate secret. I knew that secrets
couldn't be kept forever but I was still hoping I could keep them anyway.

But fate had been too good in going against me these days. I got this stupid paired project
in Philosophy where we should prove the existence of ghosts.

I gritted and clenched my fists. Why the hell we need to prove the existence of these
ghosts?!

I massaged my aching forehead while looking at the three roaming ghosts inside the bus.
Those females, two in their mid-thirties and a teenager had been walking around back and
forth. Like all other ghosts I saw, no hint of emotion could be seen from their faces.
I diverted back my attention to the view outside the window and several worn out
questions flooded my head.

Am I the only person who has this curse and if so, why of all the people, why me?

Hot tears started to form in my eyes but I abruptly stopped them.

I’m so tired keeping this secret but there’s nothing else I can do. I don’t want to be regarded
as a freak

again and most of all...I don’t want to lose a friend and go back being alone...

I glared at the distance as a great force of determination and dying will surged through me.

I shall bring this ultimate secret to death!

Death...I looked at the three ghosts again.

I shivered after I failed in dodging the thought that someday I’ll become one of them.

The bus stopped and its door puffed open. Half of the passengers started walking out.

I leaned my back fully at the passenger seat and hid a painful smile.

Someday when I reached that final destination, I hope there will be a lot of special memories to
look back

that will delay the time in delivering me to be part of these wandering souls...

I slowly opened my eyes after I felt someone tapping my shoulder.

Cat! Wake up! We’re here now!

I gasped after I saw the time in my watch.

Seriously?! was all I could say after I learned that we arrived almost one and half hour
earlier than our estimated time.

We started moving out the bus and Act was telling me how fun the suicidal ride was. I
couldn’t imagine how deadly it was that even the three ghosts earlier disappeared
suddenly.

I let out a soft laugh that made Act wondered.

What’s funny?
I just laugh imagining myself in that deadly ride. I replied and jumped off the bus.

Yeah! Sleeepyhead! Act said and jumped, I enjoyed taking a video on you! But I just
didn’t understand how could you still sleep soundly like that?!

I started to fake a laugh when the entire town of Otlum caught us.

Wow... we both muttered.

While we were still hypnotized, an old man came to us and said, Excuse me, young ladies?

We came back to our senses and turned to the old man.

You must be Anna and Cate?

We both shivered and said, Y-yes Sir.

Good to see you both! I’m Lolo Esme and I’ll be your driver in going to the town proper.

We both nodded and smiled.

So I’ll check the car and you do your necessities, the old man said.

We nodded and went to find the comfort rooms. On our way, we called our parents that we
already found the said driver and they were all glad that we arrived safely and met him.

We finally head back to the meeting point and saw Lolo Esme driving an old model of
maroon car. Act and I looked at each other and smiled as we got into the car.

Fasten your seat belts and we're good to go!

We both responded like kids and we talked a lot about how Otlum town and Swanga City
got their names and why was Otlum considered to be the most peaceful and relaxing town
in the city. Lolo Esme got so eager that he told us every detail about the said places.

At first we both really enjoyed but after almost an hour of just listening, made us lost our
focus.

I watched the view outside and noticed that we just got past the forested area of the town. I
could see few small buildings and houses already.

We're almost there. But for now, young ladies kindly brace yourselves more as we'll go for a
little slide...

Our heads popped like mushrooms in both sides of the car and we exclaimed in fear and
excitement.
We're ready Lolo!!! Act shouted.
He laughed and said, Okay in three... two... one!

Lolo Esme stepped on the gas and we both shouted at the top of our lungs.

Gyaaaaaa!!!! I still want to live!!! I said, almost crying.

Lolo and Act just laughed at me while they continued enjoying that deadly slide.

I frowned and sighed after I realized that they were lucky, I didn't reach the point of vomiting
at them.

Hey Cat! Look over there! Act said, pointing at her left.

I saw the abandoned hospital and Lolo Esme said, I haven't seen any ghost in my sixty
years so I don't think they really exist.

Good for you Lolo. In my case, I have seen them my whole life. But I'm not yet fully used
to them until now...

Finally it was quarter to three in the afternoon when we reached the inn. The weather was
still fine and it was tempting us to go for sight-seeing. Too bad we had limited time so after
an hour of rest and eating, we rechecked the things needed for the hunt.

We bid goodbye to Lolo Esme's wife who was the one managing their simple and
comfortable inn.

Take care of yourselves young ladies, Lola said, And Esme, don't forget to buy groceries
after.

Yes Maám, Lolo Esme said and smiled.

On our way to the haunted place, Act and I talked about precautionary measures and a
recap of the sequence of the entire activity.

I gulped and I felt an unusual cold stinging sensation running down my spine.

It was terrifying to know the fact that a lot of uncertainties were waiting for us.

My eyes widened.

Uncertainties...

Cat!

I got shocked upon the shout of my friend and the sudden thunder.

Spacing out again, eh?

I threw a worried look that made Act said, Let's just make this quick and we'll be fine.
I bit my lower lip. It was a lot easier to say than do.

Dark gray clouds continued invading the once vibrant skies and the thunder started to
get louder each clap.

The sudden change in the weather was already giving us a clear warning but too bad Act
made up her mind already.

We were doomed or better to say that I was more doomed.

It was already raining hard when we reached the huge gothic gate of the hospital. I was
really hoping that Act would already back out but she did not. Instead she asked Lolo to help
her find the caretaker of the place.

I almost cried silently as I forced myself to go out the car and join in their search. The
three of us could still see each other though we went on separate ways. Act and Lolo
went to a small hut nearby while I went closer to the guard house behind the big hospital
gate.

It still felt cold though I was already wearing my red jacket. My black skinny jeans and feet
were already wet as I took small cautious steps toward the dimmed lit guard house. I held
my umbrella tightly to gather enough courage and strength to continue moving forward.

My heart was beating wildly already when I started calling out the human figure
standing behind the closed window.

He did not answer. Two possibilities came to my head but I picked up the first possibility
that perhaps the rain was too loud and he could not hear me outside.

I called again louder but still no response came so I prepared myself for the last possibility.

I turned back to check Lolo and Act who were still busy with their search. I sighed silently,
thinking it was safer to try opening the smoke-glass window and confirm the last
assumption.

After I twitched open the window, the dimmed light was cut off! I got shocked that made
me almost lost my balance.

My fear and shock intensified when the man I saw inside the guard house came out
through the wall as quick as the lighting and thunder struck.
I fell into the ground, my eyes still widened. I didn’t expect the ghost to come
out like that. Cate!
I heard the worried voice of my friend coming from behind me. I stood and turned back and
there I lost my wits. The ghost I just saw was behind the caretaker. Their faces looked the
same.

Without a second thought, I interrupted Act from her interrogation to me and asked the
caretaker, Do you have a twin?

The caretaker’s face changed drastically into a mix of shock and pain when he replied, Yes
Máam but he died three years ago.

I-I’m sorry to hear that...

The caretaker forced a smile while Lolo Esme asked me, How did you know that he had a
twin?

With the aid of adrenaline rush I pulled off a smooth lie and said, J-just heard it from Mom...

I see...

Cat, we better get going now and end this quick, Act said.

Okay so let’s start set things up, Lolo said.

I nodded and the caretaker opened the huge gate. The sight of the ghost following his
twin brother just pinched my heart. I could still feel the anguish of the wandering soul
though no hint of emotion could be seen from his face.

I really wanted to help him but the problem was I could see these ghosts but I didn’t
understand why they couldn’t see me back. It was though what they could see was only
themselves and the person or people important to them.

I looked away, bearing again the guilt of that stupid ability.

More tears fell from eyes and I was just glad that it was too dark for them to notice me
crying.

I just then realized the lie I came up earlier.

After Act instructed them to fully document the set up process, Lolo Esme and the caretaker
went to the basement of the hospital to set up the camera while we worked the main station
on the ground floor.
While setting up the two laptops, I noticed that Act had already been silent towards
me. I directly presumed that maybe she was just too focused on finishing the task
quickly.
Lolo that’s fine now, Act said through her phone, Kindly do the same for the first to third
floor. We’ll take care the fourth and fifth.

No Anna. Gin and I will take the third to fifth floor―

We can handle the last two floors by ourselves, Act interrupted, Remember you still have
to go and buy groceries.

We watched Lolo through the laptop screen as he palmed his face and exclaimed, Oh! I
almost forgot!

Act smiled and said, Cate and I are going now.

Young ladies, contact us―

Let’s go, Act said and went ahead.

I hate to admit it but Act was not definitely in her usual cool state.

Cate! Hurry! she hissed.

I ran towards her who was already taking the stairs. Only our echoing footsteps
broke the silence between us.

I wanted to talk to her but I was so afraid that it might only lead to an ambush of
questions. But still, sooner or later, I knew Act would ensue on it.

I bit my lower lip as I thought of various worst case scenarios. Each case, I prepared a
sort of counterattack. I needed to succeed in thinking ahead of my friend or the storm
she was brewing would catch me up.

Suddenly I bumped into her.

W-What’s the matter?

She pressed the switch on and a trail of lights illuminated the hallway of the fourth floor.

I-I saw a kid passed through that wheel chair...

I was sure it was only her imagination because she was not even aware that we were
already inside a crowd of ghosts passing back and forth in the hallway.

Even so, I had to act naturally scared but given the pressure of the situation and the dull
faces of those ghosts, I somehow couldn’t pull it smoothly.

Hey Act...W-What was it looked like? I whispered.

I didn’t see his face but he was wearing a hospital garment.

A lot of people grew up expecting that all ghosts were bloody and wearing that typical white
apparel but in reality they were just wearing casual clothes and not a stain of blood could be
seen from their faces and bodies. Basically, all of them still looked like humans that didn’t
have solid and tangible bodies.

We reached the private room where the wheel chair was standing. I slowly opened its
door and I saw a ghost of an old woman wearing a hospital garment and sitting calmly.

I closed the door and said, There was nothing in it.

I know, she replied and went ahead, I just made it up.

What? But Why? I asked her reluctantly.

Act started setting up the camera in the nurses’ station area and replied, You’re unusually
brave tonight...

She smiled and left me speechless. I followed and waited for her to deliver the finishing
blow...

But she didn’t, even after we finished the set up in the fifth floor.

Lolo Esme? Are you still there? Act said through her phone.

Yes dear? Lolo replied.

We’re done here so please wait for us for few minutes.

I didn’t understand but it felt heavier that way. My thoughts were pretty messed up
already. I just didn’t know what was the right thing to do.

Then suddenly without looking back at me, Act said, You didn’t see that joke coming right?

Y-yeah, my voice sounded cracked.

But it’s funny you can see things we normally can’t see.

I stiffened when she stopped walking and said, You know Cat, I can’t see ghosts...

My eyes grew. I searched for the right words to respond but it was too late already.

Act turned back and glared at me saying, But I can see liars...

She nailed it. I lost my ultimate secret. I lost a friend. In the end, I was just bounded to be
left
alone...again and again...
Act had hit me squarely. My vision got blurred so I couldn’t see my way out of that
situation. I felt weak and coward. What I wanted already was to escape, go home and cry. I
just couldn’t afford to see how closed we were walking together at that moment and yet
deep down we knew that the distance between us started to grow quick.

We reached the main station and found the caretaker. His ghost twin was still
behind him. Lolo Esme went ahead so that he can get here back quickly, Oh,
Act replied dully, And Mr. Gin?

Yes Maám?

Is it okay if you stay here with us for a while? Act asked.

No problem, he said and smiled.

I didn’t pull out a word but I tried my real best to smile at the caretaker. He smiled back
slightly when I was finally seated in front of my laptop.

I suffered that long awkward moment of silence. I was only beside them listening to
their random conversation. I knew Act made the caretaker as the awkwardness
breaker.

Mr. Gin, do you believe in ghosts? Act suddenly asked.

Yes though I can’t see them.
Same here then, Act replied.
I was busy pretending to be scanning our notes when Mr. Gin asked me, What about
you, Ms. Cate? My eyes widened briefly. I gulped after I saw the sharp intense look of
Act to me.
This is the end… I couldn’t afford to lie further… I know my friend finally knew it… She’s
only waiting now for me to say yes…
But I just didn’t know where and how to start…
Suddenly, a sort of treacherous blessing came that changed the atmosphere.
We heard a loud crash from one of the upper floors. We looked at each other, as if
nothing so intense happened earlier.
We were trying to read each other’s minds when Act’s laptop screen went black.
I jumped from my seat and hurriedly closed both laptops.
Uncertainties...

That thought came back suddenly to me and started distracting my mind. My panic
intensified that I accidentally dropped my laptop and just discovered the unconscious
lying body of Mr. Gin in the floor. Mr. Gin! I exclaimed and dropped the rest of the things I
was holding.
Mr. Gin! Hey! I shrugged him and called his name over and over but to no avail. I pinched
his arm to the most painful way, hoping it would wake him up but still no response.
I paused for a while, trying to calm myself as best as I could. It was then I realized his
ghost twin was no longer with him. I wondered how and when? For goodness’ sake, what
made him unconscious and why did he suddenly lost it? I shook my head and stopped
those thoughts.
Calm down Cate...You’ll worry on these later...

I breathed in and out as I dragged myself back to focus on Mr. Gin’s situation. From that,
I was able to clear my mind and I started checking his pulse. I had a hard time controlling
the slight trembles of my body. Cold sweats started to roll out from my forehead.
This couldn’t be happening...Please Mr. Gin! Wake up!
My inner self couldn’t scream any further. I couldn’t help but cried in despair when I
realized that he was no longer breathing.
No! Mr. Gin! I cried and started pumping his chest.
I had little knowledge about first aid application so I didn’t have any idea if I was doing it
right. It was then
I realized Act’s forgotten presence.
Act! Help―
The lights were cut off and I felt the hairs in my body rose. I stood cautiously. I could feel
the eerie tremor running down my spine as I began to check my pockets anything that can
be used as a weapon.
Human survival instincts began to take over me until I luckily pulled out a screw driver
from my pocket. Death...Uncertainties...
I clenched the screw driver hard. I wanted to call my friend but I just couldn’t find my voice
anymore...
I continued to wait. My eyes were in full alert for any surprise attacks though I just didn’t
know how fast I could response in that pitch black and silent surrounding.
I blinked my eyes once in a while, when suddenly I heard a familiar, soft chuckle.
My heartbeat got wilder than ever. I gulped hard though my throat was drier than before.
Suddenly the lights started to turn on and off like those I watched in horror movies. I found
my friend still standing, her head was tilted down so all I could see was her hair covering
her face.
Act?
I silently wondered.
I watched her when she began chuckling again. Her shoulders were shaking as her
chuckles began louder each time.
I clenched the screw driver harder.
Finally you’re scared now right? she asked, her head still tilted down.
I didn’t know what happened to my brain when I stupidly asked her, Are you still making a
joke?
She let out a big laugh when she faced me with her eyes wide opened and muttered, It’s
for you to find out.
She laughed wildly again and bolted towards the stairs.
I jumped back and saw her grinned at me before taking the stairs to the upper floors.
She left me dumb founded. My mind hung for a moment. I just couldn’t absorb the fact that
my friend was possessed and I was torn between two dreaded choices. The choice of saving
her… or saving myself.
Saving myself?
I turned back and saw the door to my escape.
I shivered at that thought of leaving Act…
I slapped my face again and again. I clutched my hair because it felt like I already lost my
sanity.
I was still not ready to die but if I would leave… I would surely live bearing the guilt of
indirect murder of not just some person…
For heaven’s sake she was my one and only friend…
My breath hitched further and after containing all my fears and confusion I cried, I’ll save
her!
I found myself running towards the stairs. My eyes were settled on my footsteps. I
heard an echoing laugh from above. The evil spirit was totally amused that I was
already falling for her trap.
Death… Uncertainties…
I shook my head and ran faster.
Cate! Change your thoughts! You’ll save her!
The lights continued to turn on and off like the optimism I had in my head.
Almost there Cate! the evil spirit echoed and laughed.
I reached the stairs going to the fifth floor and I could sense the black shadow that had
been playing appear-disappear.

I felt really scared. My tears won’t stop from falling from my eyes and while running, I
could still feel how my knees trembled and how cold my sweats were.

I couldn’t explain the whirling pool of thoughts and emotions as I began to realize that I
was closing in to my death…

I glanced around me and found no ghosts.

I hid a smile and thought, Too bad my ghost buddies were also scared to throw a welcoming
party to

me… I guess it’s time to face my death alone…

I reached the fifth floor. A shrill satanic laugh came from the hallway in my right.

The blinking trail of lights settled and remained lit when the door located at the mid end
of the hallway opened itself slowly.

Come over here…

Her dark and calm voice masked a mixture of cold and playful demeanor.
My body froze. I stared at my feet as I tried to lift them but the chills she sent me were way
too powerful to resist.

She laughed at me again.

I gritted. Anger suddenly took over my system when I muttered dryly, Let go of my friend.

The evil spirit stopped laughing.

I waited for a response but nothing came so I asked, Why are you doing this?

The creepy, odd silence continued that made me felt a slight regret. It was then I only
realized where the hell did I get that courage from?

But it was already too late to take back all those words.

I tried to move myself. Finally the spell of fear vanished but when I started to take the first
step, an intense whoosh of wind rushed to me. Suddenly I found myself hanging in the air
and I got thrown straightly to room where I should be heading.

I felt my arm broke. I wanted to scream but I had to hold back all the physical pain I felt.

I was trying to be good at you… the spirit said hoarsely, And that is how are you going to
repay me?!

Her scream echoed inside the empty room that looked like an old hospital chapel.

I tried to stand slowly and there I froze upon seeing a tall, dark entity who was holding Act in
the neck.

It’s nice to meet you here young lady…

The demon’s eyes flared as she grinned at me with all those black decaying teeth.

What’s the problem?

She laughed at me. The wrinkles in the corner of her eyes got emphasized. I saw several
black veins erupted all over her face and hands. Her black, frizzy hair was so long it
even reached the floor and cloaked his black apparel.

So this is what a demon looks like? It’s just awful to think that I could talk to demons
but not to any ghosts…

C-Cate…

I blinked my eyes and finally got back to the situation. I found my friend. The demon was
still holding her in the neck. I started to cry as I watched my friend hung helplessly.
Please! Let go of her!

Shut up! the demon screamed and clutched further the neck of my friend.

Act started to cough and was already grasping for breath when the demon said angrily,
You and your insolence!

More tears started to flow out from my eyes. I honestly didn’t know what to do. I could
only see ghosts and hell was not some exorcist.

So what now?! Your friend’s slowly dying in front of you, Cate! DO SOMETHING!

I bit my lower lip as I ran my hands through my hair. I fell to my knees. I felt so useless. In
the end, I couldn’t save her… I just realized that I came there without any specific plans on
how to save my friend.

That’s it… Cry in despair…

I looked up and saw the demon enjoying my pathetic state.

From that a random idea came to me.

What is it that you want? I asked.

Oooohh! Finally! the demon rejoiced.

Act started to shake her head and started resisting.

Don’t... Cate! Act muttered.

The demon frowned and started to bury her long and sharp fingernails to Act’s neck.

My eyes widened as I watched her blood oozed out from her neck.

Shut up Act! I got this!

The demon grinned further as she muttered, Then follow what I say.

I gulped hard. I know it was never a good idea to bargain with a demon.

But it was the only chance left.

Open the last window at the right corner.

While walking towards it, I heard my friend sobbed behind me. I guessed we both
understood what the demon really wanted.
I opened the window and the fresh, cold wind touched me gently. The rain was still pouring
harder outside.

I saw the lightning struck and found the ground below. I realized how high we were at the
moment.

I turned back to them and the demon smirked and muttered, Now… Jump.

The loud thunder roared and covered Act’s scream. I looked at my friend who was still
shaking her head. I smiled painfully at her. It was such a relief to see her concern to me as a
friend… At least, we reconciled in the end…

What are you still waiting for?! the demon shouted.

I turned back again and faced my death… It felt so heavy. Several flashes of memories
dropped into my head at once. They were like raindrops pouring more and more into my
head.

C-Cate…!

I watched all my dreams and desires slowly fading as I started climbing the window sill.

I looked at the ground below. I gulped and cried silently. The rain was pouring harder on
me. My hands were shaking.

Before I finally let go of the thin strand of my life, I closed my eyes and whispered my last
short prayer.

Then I jumped off…

Cate!!!

My eyes widened in shock.

Hang on!!!

H-How?

Act was using all her remaining strength to pull me up. I was there still absorbing the turn of
events.

You still love doing things on your own! Act cried while pulling me further, And stop staring
at me like that and help me pull yourself up!
I got back to my senses and tried myself to go up. But every time I moved my weight
was pulling Act down. Sooner or later, I would only bring her to my death. I let go of her
hands.

WHAT ARE YOU DOING?! Act shouted as she tightened her grip to me, HOLD MY
HANDS FOR GOODNESS’ SAKE!
Just let go of me!!!! I’m already prepared to die!
Shut up!!!! We’re all in this together! I promised your Mom to look after you so shut up
and grab my hands!!!!
Act’s tears fell down to my face as she muttered, Please be brave and try to
hope. Cate… Hope…
Suddenly I heard some familiar voices behind Act.
Anna!
Please help us here! Act cried out.
It was then I saw Lolo Esme and Mr. Gin came over and started pulling me up.
In just a blink of the eye and still without knowing the reason yet, the demon was
defeated and we survived.
What happened?!Lolo Esme started interrogating us.

Act and I didn’t answer so Mr. Gin tried to explain according to what he only remembered.

I started crying as the whole ordeal began to sink in my brain.

Act hugged me tightly and said, Thank you…

I opened the curtains and the warm, bright morning light entered and illuminated my room.

I smiled and somewhere deep in myself I felt more alive than ever.

My cellphone clang. I checked it and I found a text message from Act.

See u later! 

I watched the peaceful view of the village outside. For the first time I got to appreciate
everything around me. The simple sight of the dog peeing at the huge tree, the children
laughing and chasing each other, the graceful wind playing my hair and the clear blue
skies that made me stood in awe.

I smiled once again while hot tears of joy started to form in my eyes.
I was grateful that I was again given the chance to wake up and enjoy that
simple life I had. Cate! Breakfast’s ready!
I scratched my cheek. I knew not a single morning won’t be completed without those cute
and annoying
wake up calls of my Mom.
I’m coming!
I started fixing my things and myself. After some few minutes, I went to my study table and
I looked at my laptop. As usual, it shot me good and bad memories.
Please be brave and try to hope. Cate…
I could clearly remember that scene where I was already in the verge of my death.
I knew that I was so sad and afraid to die at that time but in those seconds when I finally
leapt; a brief spark of joy and peace caught me. It made me shocked and confused. Was
there such thing as joy and peace in the midst of death?
It sounded stupid but based on that experience the answer would be yes.
I may not fully understand why I felt that way but perhaps it was the feeling of trying to
save a friend… I closed my laptop and smiled.
Though in the end it was Act’s prayer that saved me.
I felt an electrifying sensation within me as I thanked God for giving me a true
friend like her. Cate!!! You’ll be late again!
Oops… I muttered, All right Mom!

I ate breakfast and went hurriedly to school.

It was the first day of the Semestral Break and there I was still going back to school
to finish my Community Work.
I frowned after remembering the reason why I had to go through that penalty.
Ms.! the security guard called out, Where’s your I.D.?
Oh no! Where the hell’s my I.D.?!
I forced a laugh while the guard was seriously staring at me.
I tried looking inside my bag but I just couldn’t find it.
Ms. you must have forgotten it.
Impossible! It was just right here̶-
The security guard shook his head and my spirit shattered.
I looked slowly at the gate thinking of the long way back home and my
face fell more. Stupid! Stupid! How can you catch up with Act at this
rate?!
I gritted and thought, This is not the time for whining! Just run back home now!
I inhaled and exhaled deeply to prepare myself for the second round of my morning
marathon when suddenly I found Mr. George, my Philosophy teacher at the entrance!
My eyes sparkled when he noticed me. I went hurriedly to him and told him my I.D. dilemma.

I was so happy that my teacher was able to negotiate successfully with the security guard.
So instead of my school I.D., the security guard agreed to have my scholarship I.D. We
thanked the guard and went inside the empty school campus.
Sir George, thank you so much for helping me!
No problem, he replied and smiled, And this is a good chance to discuss with you regarding
your Endterm project with Ms. Thales.
Uh-oh. The project…, I thought.
You both know that the documentation of the project holds forty percent of your project
grade, Mr. George said, So if by any chance you might recover your video file, I will allot an
extension of two days.
I appreciated his kindness but the fact that we would never submit that highly confidential
file. Besides, we already computed for our final grade so even if we failed the Endterm still
we would pass the subject. I smiled at my teacher and said, We appreciate your kindness,
Sir but just no matter how many times we tried still we couldn’t recover it.
I see… Then I’m sorry but expect to have low grades in the Endterm, the teacher said.
I nodded at him as he added, But good job at the term paper.
My eyes lighted as I remembered how Act and I put our hearts in writing it.
Thank you again Sir, I said and we went on separate ways.
The cool wind blow the scattered leaves in the hallway. It felt so relaxing, trudging those
empty corridors and finally I reached the library.
Yosh! Time to finish the Community Work.
The college library looked so old and boring outside but behind that plain outside look was
a paradise for book and nap lovers like me.

I took the stairs to the second floor. I came to see again those unseen beings, greeted
some of the workings students I knew and I couldn’t help but giggle when I spotted my
most favorite desk at the far right end corner. That is where I usually took naps, reading
good books and… stalking Mil…
Mil…
I smiled to realize that after some weeks, it was the only time again that he crossed my
mind.
Did that mean that I was finally moving on from him successfully?
I sighed and went to the library staff that kept a time record on me.
Ms. Catherine, you’re late…
I-I’m sorry Ms… was all I could answer after discovering it was already 9:00AM in my watch.
You have to finish the remaining seven hours today, she said while browsing the logbook.
Got it, Ms. I said and forced myself to smile.
Your assignment today is to sort the books at the General References section.
I saddened a bit because I really wanted to be assigned at the Fiction area.
You are expected to submit an inventory report as well
WHAT?!!
I was still wearing that calm expression but deep within I wanted to smash the chairs and
flipped all the tables beside me.
Ms. Catherine, you can start now.
My senses went back but my anger remained as I went hurriedly to my assigned area.
That was how I enjoyed the first day of my Semestral Break vacation.

I looked at the tall shelf of books and frowned some more.

If only Act is here…
I sighed as I scanned the whole area and found four ghosts roaming around.
Oh well, I’m not alone at all, I told myself as I took my pen and the list that the library
staff gave me. It’s time to end this quick…
I started checking the first layer of books in the first shelf. They were so dusty but I
enjoyed how they smelled so ancient.

I came across some boring books about cooking, sports, and finally some books about
creative writing tips, arts and about the supernatural. I couldn’t help myself but browsed
occasionally those books that caught my interest. Sometimes I got too absorbed that I
totally forgotten about the community work I was supposed to finish.

My watch sounded and finally broke my stupid reading marathon. My eyes widened when
I discovered that it was already half past one in the afternoon. It was then I also realized
that I forgot to have lunch either and for goodness’ sake I had to meet my friend at five in
the afternoon!

As usual I was good at using my adrenaline to its fullest. I hurriedly filed all the books,
finalized the inventory list and to my surprise I finished everything by exactly quarter
to five.
I massaged my forehead while looking at those ghosts who had not yet finished their round
tour.
Shucks. That wrecked my head, I muttered while smiling at the three clean shelves.

I went back to the library staff and handed her the inventory report. She eyed it briefly and
went to check the shelves. I sighed in relief when she went back and gave me my
clearance slip. Thank you, Ms., was all I could say and left.
Right after I reached outside, my cellphone rang.
CATE?! WHERE ARE YOU?!
I scratched my head and said, Act! I’m coming, okay? Just wait for a while.
You are always late! Act exclaimed, Can’t you at least try to make it on time
sometimes? I sighed and said, Okay, got it. Just don’t leave without me!
Well then, you still have thirty minutes. Good luck, Act said and hung off.
Shucks, I muttered and grabbed a taxi.
The driver looked at me and asked, Where are we going Ms.?
To the train station please!
Roger that!
Please Sir, can we make it in fifteen minutes?
The driver smiled and showed his thumb up. I smiled and thanked him.
The driver started our suicidal ride. Instead of getting scared, he got me amazed. He
really knew the shortest route to take. In few minutes, I could already see the train
station. We’re almost there,

Almost there... and I’ll face again the annual goodbye from Act…
My heart crumpled at that thought. Tears wanted to escape from my eyes but I
abruptly caught and stopped them.
Idiot Cate! Why can’t you get used to this?!
I hurriedly wiped some stubborn tears and in my peripheral vision, I saw the driver
wondered.
Miss? Are you okay?
Y-yes of course! I exclaimed and faked a laugh.
The driver smiled as he stopped the car.
Thank you so much! I exclaimed and handed him the payment.

I got out from the car and ran as fast as I could. I looked at my watch and it was
already 5:15 PM. I doubled my speed in running. Luckily, at that time, the station was
not yet fully crowded. I passed several souvenir shops and food stalls until I reached
the usual café.

I opened quickly the smoked-glass door.

Act was no longer seated at our usual
table.
I checked my cellphone and found no messages.
No way… Act won’t leave without me.
I went to check her at the comfort rooms while calling her
cellphone number. Her line couldn’t be reached.
Act, where are you… I muttered shakily while dialing her number again.

Um.. Excuse Ms.? a young waitress came and asked, Is there anything we
can help? I turned off my cellphone and said, Have you seen a girl around
my age and height? Umm?

I bit my lower lip since I couldn’t stop myself from panicking and I sucked at talking to
strangers face to face.
She always seats at this table and-
Oh! That girl who had her short hair ponytailed? the waitress
exclaimed. I nodded in relief.
The waitress continued, She went―
The horn of the train interrupted the waitress and my eyes widened for
a moment. That can’t be…
I went out automatically and headed to the departing train. My heart was beating wildly
and tears were already flowing from my eyes as I glanced around to see my friend.
Come on, Act… Where are you?...
I stopped running around and went to a nearby post. There were no people around there so
I let go all of my sadness. I cried and sobbed like a child while still dialing her cellphone
number.
You can’t do this… I cried, You’re just joking right?
My… my… I guess I overdone it…
I turned around. My face lighted up even brighter than the golden bleeding light
of the sunset. Act!!!!
I jumped and hugged her.
Woops! C-Careful! Y-Youre choking me now!
I cried some more and hugged her even tighter.
C-Cate… Y-youre killing me…
I let go of her and apologized.
Good grief… I never thought you’ll cry like this… I’m
sorry… Yeah… I know, you always bully me… I said and
pouted.
Act sighed and said, I was just helping you to get over with your cry baby attitude.
But a cry baby will always be a cry baby, I muttered.
Act massaged her forehead and said, Besides you should already
get used― Nope. Never, I said seriously, I would never get used to
this…
Tch, what a hopeless cry baby, Act said, But I’m so happy to have a cry baby friend like you.
She smiled and that made me melted in tears again.
Not again! Act said angrily and started to laugh crazily.
Here’s my simple gift for you Act!
Her eyes grew in surprise as she took the small blue polka-dotted yellow box
from my hands. Heh? What is it this time?

I smiled to her and said, Just open it when you arrive at your
Lola’s house! Eh? Okay, Act hid the gift in her bag and said,
Thank you so much, Cate. I smiled and muttered, It’s alone time
again…
Hey… You’re not alone, Act said, You still have your invisible friends right?
I glared at her and muttered, These ghosts don’t talk. And I still don’t know why I have this
stupid ability… Hoh?... But don’t worry! I know that you’ll learn that someday…
Someday…
The final horn of the train sounded.
My heart throbbed again as Act said, It’s time to leave… So?
See you― I cried again louder.
Hey, we can still contact each other… on weekends, Act said, But don’t worry! I’ll climb the
roof just to get some signal for you! So please stop crying now…
I hugged her again and said, Take care, Act.
You too… and thank you again, she said and hugged me back tighter.
I let go of her and waved my hands heavily. Until at that time, the sight of Act leaving was
still unbearable. The train started its engine. I couldn’t understand why I was still standing
there. Watching and enduring the usual semestral break pain.
The train took off and I watched the full glory of the sunset. Again and again, I felt that
warm-cold feeling within.
I turned around and a certain realization struck me.
Freedom…
I took a deep breath and started running as fast as I could.
Everything may look the same but I realized it was not.

Before, I was running simply to ease the pain of being separated

from Act. But at that every moment, I ran and finally I
experienced freedom. Releasing that ultimate secret was the
best feeling of freedom that I had. I couldn’t help but jump in joy
as I finally saw my favorite place. Everything always changes…

I ran and climbed the slide. The sunset seemed to be longer than usual. I smiled as the
wind blew the scattered leaves while I began recollecting some childhood memories.
I bit my lower lip as I remembered those times when I was regarded a freak and no one
wanted to be my friend. I would always wait for the sunset to come out and play alone
here.
But then again, everything always changes just like the abandoned park turned to be the
most peaceful place I had ever been.
I bowed and rested my chin at the rail.
While still looking at the distance, I muttered to myself, Besides, life is like a mirage… so
beautiful… yet fleeting…
It looked so beautiful that sometimes it will drown you with the illusion that it will remain
longer…when in fact, it’s not.
I looked at the ghosts below and muttered, The thing is that… no one really knows when
the mirage will fade…
I gasped and blushed after Mil flashed in my mind. I shivered after I remembered again the
time I thought I would die without even knowing the truth about Mil.
He was one of my dreams after all…
I slapped my face and said, That’s why before my second mirage fades, I should do and say
everything!
I wore my back pack in front and slid my way down happily. I took my cellphone and started
typing a draft.
Okay so how I should start this? I asked myself.
It was getting dark and all the lamp posts lighted one by one. I smiled and shivered
after I typed the introduction of the message.
Dear Mil,
How are you?
That was better said than done. Several worn out fears and doubts enveloped me again. I
shook my head and started walking. I found myself in the lagoon area of the park. Several
lamp posts surrounded it that made my eyes sparkled in the night.
I hope that you’re doing well… And as for me…

My eyes cringed at the last part so I deleted it.

Way better, I muttered and began typing again.

I was totally engrossed that I just recently noticed that I already reached the middle part of
the lagoon. It was only then that I felt tired. I went to the bench beside the lamp post and
began typing the most important part of the message.

There is something I need to tell you… I hope you’ll not get angry with me…

My hands started to shake. I gulped and felt the beatings of my heart went off charts.
Cate, you can’t do this to yourself! You are a girl for goodness’ sake! You can’t just slash
your pride like this!
I clenched my cellphone hard and bit my lip.
But is it really wrong to say what I feel even if it means throwing this pride away?! I just
wanted to tell the truth?! Is it really wrong?!
I bowed my head as cold tears came out from my eyes and fell to the cellphone screen. The
words I held back felt heavier than ever.
I leaned my back in the bench and started wiping the tears from my eyes. Then I saw
several ghosts in front of me walking blankly back and forth.
I think it’s impossible to die without having some regrets.
I looked again at my cellphone and thought, But I’m not planning to include you there…
Finally I began to type the words I longed for him to know when suddenly my phone rang and
startled me.
Uh-oh, I muttered, Hello Mom?
Where are you?!―
Those were the only words I heard from her. After that I got lost to what I saw from the
other side of the lagoon.
I’ll go home now, was all I could say and I turned off the phone without noticing.
I ran towards the familiar human profile standing backwards in front of the lamp post.

I wanted to call out his name but fear held me back. Besides, I was still not really sure if it
was him. An unexplainable joy shot through my heart as I went closer and closer to him.
In the midst of the cold dark night, he stood there perfectly. I couldn’t explain but in my
eyes, he was the only one covered in such amount of light. It was not simply because he
was under the lamp post but rather he was the only one who made me saw him that way.
After reaching some few steps closer, I realized something odd about him.
I went silently to him. The more I got closer the more confusion I had. Maybe this was
because I was afraid to confirm the truth.
I hugged him from behind and wept. Several words wanted to escape from me. But
they were all meaningless already.
Even the hug…
“Mil…” I whispered, “No… You can’t be…”
It was so hard grasping the truth just like hugging and trying to feel his transparent body.
I felt so blank and weary… Little did I know, one of my greatest dreams had already
slipped from my hands.
I closed my eyes and cried some more… trying to grasp him and the truth
again and again. But I just couldn’t accept it…
Please… Even just for five minutes… I muttered shakily, Please…
I gathered enough strength and shouted, PLEASE BRING HIM BACK TO LIFE!!!
I barely stood and breathed.
Every inch of me was shaking in grief and pain when I muttered, “Just as I was about to―”
A strong gush of wind enveloped and cut me off. My eyes widened when I suddenly found
myself inside his arms.
My mind went hazier than my eyes when I thought of him hugging me.
Wait, what?!
I backed off from him and blushed. I tried to speak but all I did was pantomime.

“You thought I’m like those other ghosts?” Mil asked as he pointed a group
beside us. I nodded casually but after some time I realized and reacted,
“YOU CAN SPEAK?!” He nodded seriously and asked, “And you can see and
speak to ghosts?”

A great amount of happiness overlapped his question that even made me lost my wits
and leapt like a frog just to give him a massive embrace.
Mil teetered between seriousness and laughter.
How could he not laugh at the sight of some idiot hugging the ground instead?
I wanted to punch my face.
I looked so uncool and I couldn’t just face him again.
“E-ehem. You’re not answering my question.”
I got up and sat in crossed legs. I studied his blank and serious face for a minute then I
diverted my eyes to a group of ghosts beside us.
“I can see ghosts but they don’t talk not until,” I paused and tried to sound firm but
reality hit me deeper that time, “Are you really dead?! But why?! When?! How?!”

****************************************** Please STOP here

********************************************* Hoping was one of the hardest things
that a pessimistic person like me would do.
I always told myself that I believed in God but in reality, I was always a worrier and I just
couldn’t erase that in my system. I always tried my best to hope and think positively but
unfortunately I always got
negative result and it was so disappointing. From that I learned to expect the worst so
that it won’t hurt me that much and somehow I could prepare myself for that pain and
frustration. But living that way, was not living life at all.
I closed my laptop and sighed.
All things happen for a reason, I muttered to myself and smiled.
Too bad I had to experience that dreadful thing just to find my way back to the so-called life.
I trapped myself in that negative world and I totally got lost in there. But that moment, I had
finally allowed myself to hope and trust totally in Him.