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Begin Your Memoir Today!

A Silent Passion to Write Many people with a story to tell contact me with the desire, even an urgency to write their memoir. They have begun some stories, only to have the inner critic or fears of what the family will say about writing a deeply personal story stop them. They go silent, afraid even to journal about their feelings and memories, leaving them with a haunting sense that something is incomplete inside. They have silenced their inner voice, and they dont know how to find it. Again

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and again they have picked up a pen, but concerns about being a writer, the validity of their memories, or concerns about the family stopped them from writing much at all. In this document we will talk about the things that get in the way and solutions that can work to help you to begin today. We will examine possible beginnings and talk about how the make the process work for you. But first lets make a manifesto about you being a memoir writer. Lets say you are ready to begin. You decided to download this document. You are in touch with the memoir community. Today, you are a memoirist!

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10 Point Memoir Manifesto 1. I will write daily for 10 minutes. That is all. Nothing else is required for me to be a memoir writer. 2. I will write freely without editing myself. I will put the pen to the page and freewrite for 10 minutes daily. 3. If I miss a writing day, I will write at least 10 minutes the next day, without beating myself up for the slip. Life gets busy, but I will do my best to keep writing a little bit every day. 4. I make a sacred space contract with myself. In this sacred space there is only me and my writing. I will not allow others into this space while I begin to find my voice. 5. I will privately write in my journal the ideas of what I want to write about. I will keep these ideas to myself. 6. I will read other memoirs, short stories, and novels to learn about how this kind of writing is done. 7. I accept being a beginner and am open to learn all I can about writing. 8. I will quit doubting my memories and my inner truths. I will simply write what I know. 9. I will work on quieting the inner critic that harasses me and tells me to be silent or give up. 10. I will use writing exercises and writing prompts to help me keep up my writing practice when I cant think what to write. Bonus: 11. I will enjoy my writing process!

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Finding Your Voice Many writers hesitate when beginning to writeis this my real voice? Is this what I really think and feel about these events? What style should I use? How do you know you are speaking or writing in your own voice? Your voice is the writing style that flows through your pen. It is what comes naturally to you, your uncensored style of expressing yourself, your unique way of thinking and being. It is integral to who you are. Notice how you speak you have your own rhythms and phrasing, your special vocabulary and sense of humor. You are unique in the way you perceive the world, the way you express yourself, and the words you choose. Allow this natural voice to appear on the page. Dont try to sound like a famous author or someone you admire. They are not you! When you start writing, just write the way you talk. Write your thoughts and feelings and memories in an uncensored, natural way, the way you would speak to a best friend.

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Freewriting and Journaling Journaling and freewriting invite a flow of images, thoughts, and stories without concern for structure or grammar. A daily diary is a way to capture feelings and goals, to keep track of inner thoughts and ideas. An unsent letter may be written to anyone, dead or alive, to express forbidden or secret thoughts and feelings. In a journal entry and during a freewrite, you are tapping into your imagination, letting it roam freely on the page. During a freewrite, your pen does not come off the page for twenty minutes. During this time, the unconscious is invited to ignore boundaries and interference from logic or the inner critic. The faster you write, the more easily you can bypass the critic. Things come out of the end of your pen before you can stop them. That said, it might feel right for you to begin slowly. If you are stuck, you can write, I dont know what to say here. Im trying to write, but then I start thinking Follow the trail of such thoughts into naming the kinds of things you are thinking, the things that worry you about writing, and you soon are writing!

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Here are some questions for you to contemplate as you begin your writing practice:

Have you kept a journal during your life? When and how often did you write?

Did you have to hide your journal from curious eyes? How did you manage to keep your journal to yourself, or did someone read it?

What kind of response did you get to your writing in school? Does that influence your thoughts and feelings about getting started now? Journal about that period and what happened.

When is the best time of the day or the week for you to write? Allow your memories and stories to emerge gently. List the 10 most important things that ever happened to you.

When you are ready, you can develop journal entries into stories with scenes and plot.

Read a selection of memoirs and books on journaling and memoir writing. Notice how the memoirist narrated the story, shaped the plot, and described characters. How did the author keep you turning the pages? What kept your interest strong?

List these books and your reactions to them in your journal. This is a way to feed your writers soul.

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The Healing Power of Writing

According to Dr. James Pennebaker and other researchers, writing is a healing process. Only an hour of writing a week heals body and spirit. Writing gathers the threads of our lives and weaves them into a meaningful tapestry. Writing helps us to listen to ourselves, our inner voice, and frees us from the mind that tangles us in silence. It can be very therapeutic to write about troubling memories, but as beginners it is easier to write about summer moments under starlight, an aunts delicious homemade bread, the buzz of the city, the aroma of holidays. These good stories, embedded in our sensory memory banks, bring to mind our family, friends, and community. Other memories are more difficult to allow, to know what to do with as we begin to write. I call these other memories the dark parts of the story. I encourage writers to weave back and forth between the dark and the light parts of their life stories, to keep themselves in balance as the writing process unfolds. But still they ask, Where do I begin?

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Tips for Managing the Dark Stories 1. Write about what happened in the third person: she or he instead of I. 2. Fictionalize the story. Make up other names for the characters in your family or in the situation you are writing about. Make up the setting and other things around the incident. 3. Write it from a distance as if you are watching the scene on a movie screen. 4. Write about a difficult incident the way you wanted it to turn out. Then see if you can write what really happened. 5. What happened before and after the difficult incident? Write around it. 6. Tell your story in a letter to a best friend, or someone whom you love and who loves you, who would be nurturing with their response. 7. Write what happened in a list with no descriptions.

But Im Not a Writer

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When I teach and speak about writing, the first thing many people say is, But Im not really a writer. In an era of specialties and labels, the term writer is intimidating and implies published or famous. Most of us dont identify with the term writer. It isnt really me, people say, pens trembling in their hands. When we explore this further, they remember times they were shamed over their writing, when someone told them their writing was bad, or that what they said was bad. They felt bad about themselves, and this shut down their ability to write, to reveal themselves through words. Its best for us not to get caught up in identity and labels about who a writer is and who isnt. Writing is an activity, often a very pleasurable one. Writing is self-expression and a natural creative act. If you write, you are a writer.

Give yourself permission to write and create; see yourself as a real writer, just by virtue of that fact that you are writing. Read Brenda Uelands book If You Want to Write. This book will never cease to inspire you and give you permission to write. It is written in a slightly quirky tone, with humor, passion, and verve.

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Ueland has much to say about the creative writing process, about what gets in the way and what to do about it. Tips for Being a Real Writer Now Write about what you think a real writer is, does, and looks like. Let yourself go. Be outrageous and creative. Write about the writers you have met in person or seen on TV. What were they like? What did you most admire about them? List the books of your favorite authors and why they were so important to you. Write about your memoir passion, why you want to write your stories. What do you want to say, what presses upon you to be told? Make a list of significant moments you have remembered all your life. What books inspired or saved you as a child? Write about them, the pleasure you had in reading them. What did you learn from these books?

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The Invitation to Write Today Memoir writers often tell me: My memoir has been whispering in my ear for a long time. I finally decided to listen to it. Thats what our stories dobeckon to us, invite us to listen. When we do, a yearning comes over us to write them down. We ARE stories, we contain within us worlds within worlds of amazing adventures, soul-stirring moments, times of heartbreak and soaring happiness. We all have litanies of turning points and meaningful moments, and it is up to us to turn them into stories that others can read and appreciate. But first, we need to write these stories for ourselves. So many people dont feel they can write or even deserve to write down their stories. Rather than continue this pattern of silence and hesitation, the best thing to do is to BEGIN. There are so many questions that can block us from starting: Where do I begin? What about my family? What is my truth, anyway? Will I lose friends and families if I tell it like it was?

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I dont have any writing backgroundwhat if its boring or

doesnt make sense?

Such questions are natural and understandable. It is essential, however, that you start writing without waiting for the path to become crystal clear.

Helpful Hints for Beginning to Write x x x

List the stories, memories, and scenes in your life that have the most meaning to you. Just make a list. Make another list of turning pointstimes that changed your life forever. Close your eyes and see your most important moments. Visualize themnotice the colors, sounds, and smells. How do these events feel to you in your imagination and memory?

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Who is there with you in the scene? What are they doing? What are you doing? What do you feel? How do people talk? What kinds of words do they use, what facial expressions, what gestures?

Now, sit down with paper and pen and ask the inner critic to leave you alone for 10-15 minutes. 1. Freewriteallowing the words to flow from the pen, releasing onto paper what you see, feel, and know. 2. After you write, put your work away, and continue to make lists.
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3. Add to your lists every week. 4. Begin new stories from your list. Just begin and let the writing flow for several minutes without stopping to edit.

Ernest Hemingway: My aim is to put down on paper what I see and what I feel in the best and simplest way.

Memory Lists Continue writing lists of your memories. Write down family history, too, and conduct genealogical research if it helps you figure out your lifes timeline. Gather notes about family members and memories that concern them. It can help your writing practice to focus on themes specific subjects or topics that can help you organize your thoughts. Here are a few themes you might consider. Add your own ideas to this list.

Possible Themes in Your Memoir

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World events and history Your emotional life then and now The places you lived; the landscapes of your dreams Objects that had meaning for you Your thoughts and mental life Your behaviors, both positive and negative Decisionswhat were the most significant ones? Your dream life Yearnings and lost opportunities Miracles you witnessed Births and deaths Wars and conflicts Politics Your creative pursuits

A chronological approach traces the development of your life from your birth and early years to now. What happened early on that shaped you, and what came next? These what happened then ideas can help structure your memoir. You may want to write out a timeline to help you keep track of people, places, and events in order of their occurrence in your life.
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Some chronological themes: x x x x x x x x x x x x

Birth and early childhood School years; mentors and teachers Friends and relationships Love and sex Career choices Religion and spirituality Love and Marriage Children and Family Places you lived Holidays and Vacations Death of Parents Grandchildren and extended family

Another approach is to write about family members across the generations. Tell stories of your mother and father, grandmothers and grandfathers, and other relative with whom you were close. What were the significant themes and events of their lives? How did their childhoods and upbringing affect yours? What were their worldviews and life philosophies? Where did they live and how did those places help shape their lives?

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More writing prompts for beginnings

1. Where were you born, and when? What was happening in the world? What were the circumstances of your family, and who told you these stories? 2. Write about your familys reaction to your birth. Were you considered the right sex? Were you planned and welcomed, or an accident? Who told you these stories and how did you feel about them? 3. Do you have siblings? What order were you among them? What kind of relationships developed among the children of the family? 4. What is the most important thing that ever happened to you? Why? 5. Who is your tribewhat kind of people do you feel you belong to? 6. Write about your first day of school. 7. What landscapes are a part of your soul? 8. Write a favorite memory about your parents and family. 9. Write a portrait of your grandmother and grandfather. What did they wear, how did they talk? What was their relationship to the rest of the family? 10. Did you have a secret closet or hideout or fort? What worlds did you create there?

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Take risks and write that story you have kept secret for years. If you write more often, in your journal or in creating your memoir stories, you will find the natural rhythm to your creative process and your writing. W

Beginnings of a life story

Write about your birth. How did you come into the world? What was happening in the world when you were born? Were you the right sex? What order were you in the family? Who told you these stories and how did you feel about them?

Where were you born? What were the circumstances around youand who told you these stories?

Write about your familys reaction to your birthwere you welcome; an accident? Siblings reactions? Who told these stories?

What is the most important thing that ever happened to you? Why?

Who is your tribewho do you belong to and what is their heritage?

What are your memories of the first day of school? What landscapes are a part of your soul? A favorite memory about your parents and family.

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Write a portrait of your grandmother or grandfather. What did they wear, how did they talk? What was their relationship to the rest of the family?

Did you have a secret closet or hideout or fort? What worlds did you create there?

Inner Critic Most of us have that nagging voice inside our heads that gets in the way. It says things that discourage us, but a lot of what it says sounds familiar. The inner critic is usually made up of the criticisms and admonitions we have heard throughout our lives, and now they speak themselves in our minds. Dont air the family laundry You dont really remember those things, do you? You have no right to write our story How dare you talk about these private things! Your life is insignificant and boring You should be ashamed!

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You cant write anyway, so just give up now. No one will be interested in this. You will just alienate everyone, so quit trying. Who do you think you are, anyway?

When I was a beginning writer, Id go to readings to hear famous writers present their work and talk about the writing process. I discovered that even famous published writers had to struggle with negative inner voices. I was very surprised at this, thinking that they only needed to sit down and out came all this wonderful stuff. I didnt know that everyone had to struggle with an inner critic and the process of writing. If you have been wounded or shamed as a child, or if you have a writing wound caused by being minimized or ridiculed, writing can be a struggle between the writer and the critic. By writing out the negative voices, you can begin to heal the wound of the inner critic. Journal about what gets in the way of your writing. Be generous and specific. Keep track of your writing process over several weeks. Write down the exact phrases of your critic who do you think you are, this is so bad, etc.

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Counter each of these phrases by writing down its opposite: I have stories to tell and love to write. My inner critic cannot stop me.

Write positive affirmations about your writing every day.

Writing Blocks A childhood that haunts you or too many painful memories can get in the way of self-expression. Emotional hot spots from the past can create what is called writers block, a state of fear or anxiety that freezes the flow of writing. When you deal with what you fear and the other emotions that stand in your way, writers block disappears. Just like with the inner critic, writing down your fears, worries, and negative voices can exorcise these demons. Then go back to writing your life stories.

List your fears about writing. Write about all the bad things that might happen with your

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Write what your family will say; make a list of all the people

that will get upset.

Another way to break through writers block is to change your routine. When and where do you write with freedom and flow? Try different places and times of day to see which best serve your writing practice. Go to a caf and try writing in public. It helps to get away from the lure of housework, the phone, and household demands. Focus on your words, the flow of ideas from your pen.

First Drafts, Writing from Dream Creating a memoir is a spiral process. A first draft arises from a fragmented mlange of memories and experiences. Thoughts flow in a stream of consciousness, free associating in dreamlike imagery without structure.

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As the writing evolves into later drafts, these fragments coalesce and a logical story develops. If you try to focus your writing into a story prematurely, you can lose the deep, unselfconscious flow. Dreams can present us with meaningful scenes and memories. Keep a dream journal. Put it beside your bed or under your pillow. Invite your dreams to help you remember more; invite your stories to come to you in dreams. Write for 5-10 minutes each morning right after you awaken. Youll be surprised about how much this primes you to write again later in the day. Allow your unconscious to have free rein. Let your mind wander and see what images come up. Then freely write these down without any expectation that the piece will end up in your book. It is important to foster the unconscious mind, as it is our friend in writing and any creative process. Activities like dreaming, gardening, petting the cat or dog, walking, exercising, or taking a drive can put us more into right-brain mode, allowing our ideas to expand in a natural way without pressure or goal.

Tips to Help Your Unconscious Fuel Your Creativity

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Keep a notebook by your bed to record your dreams. Before going to sleep, imagine the scenes that you want to write the next day.

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Meditate on your story daily. Let your mind go. Watch movies to feed your imagination with images and sensual details from the era you are writing about.

Witnesses and writing support Memoir writing brings the past into focus, often inviting memories that have been forgotten or repressed. While some lost memories may be positive, others may point to unresolved childhood experiences. Writing and other healing processes help us to work through these memories. It is useful and even therapeutic to get them out of your head and onto the page. Once they are written, you will feel more objectivity about the details of your stories.

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Alice Miller is a psychologist and author with expertise in childhood trauma. She writes that children need a compassionate witness as they grow up. When a child is in difficult or traumatic circumstances, the witness reflects back to the child a different, more whole self and hope for the future. When we become adults, a therapist and/or close friends serve as our witnesses. Narrator as Witness When we write our stories and share them, we become our own witnesses. We objectively observe a former self through a narrator who has grown beyond the particular experience. Writing a memoir puts the past into perspective.

Make a list of the people whose compassion and witnessing made a difference for you.

Make a list of the people who have encouraged your writing. Write a story from the wise, adult self that you are now about the child you once were.

Write a story only from the point of view of the child you were then. Use the I voice and present tense while writing about something from your early life.

Notice the difference between these two styles.

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Turning Points Memoir writing is about discovering the meaningful times in our lives that shaped and changed us. We need to write whatever rises up in our minds as we wander through memory and envision scenes that happened many years ago. Writing is a path of selfdiscovery. One way to help focus our beginnings is to list the significant turning pointsmoments of change and aha that change our lives forever. These eventsthe joy of meeting a new person or the pain of losing a loved one, a great triumph or catastropheturn our lives in a new direction, creating stress but also opportunities to grow. Sometimes we have stood at a crossroads, wondering what path to take. Robert Frost talks about taking the road less traveled. What were five or ten major turning points in your formation as a person?

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How did you change as a result of these turning points? Write the list in detail, then explore who you were both before and after each change.

Write about the other path at the crossroadsa what if story.

Priming the Pump

Having many different writing exercises and prompts helps the unconscious come up with memories and stories. I call this stimulation of ideas priming the pump. I think of my great-grandmother on the farm in Iowa. She and her daughters pumped water from a well for their everyday use. To get the pump to flow, they had to prime the pump by pouring water into the top. Theyd push the handle up and down, it would groan and hiss, and finally the water would rise up and flow out again. We writers need to prime our pumps, especially after taking a break from writing or having our writing flow interrupted.
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Writing every dayor at least three times a weekkeeps the process going and makes it easier to keep writing.

Draw on your emotion about a particular event, writing the hot stories in your life.

Write vignettes, short pieces rich in sensory detail, without worrying where they will go or how they will fit into your whole plan.

Keep writing, even if its only for ten minutes a day. You will discover over time that you have developed interesting themes and captured chains of events that can be put in chronological order. Best of all, you have begun, and thats the hardest part of any creative project. Watch the pages add up and enjoy the process! W

Let us know if we can help you in your journey to write your life story, create a legacy for your family, or capture your spiritual autobiography. Remember, it is the process of writing that is transformative and teaches us more about who we are. This journey can lead to all manner of new insights, feelings, and even forgiveness

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for ourselves and others in our lives. We might write for fun and to remember the good times, or we might need to explore difficulties and turning points to find a way to let them go. Writing a memoir can help us to integrate all the people and happenings in our lives into a meaningful whole in whatever creative way that we choose. It is a wonderful path toward self-fulfillment, and even a new career as a published author. Enjoy! Be BraveWrite Your Story Linda Joy Myers President of the National Association of Memoir Writers www.namw.org

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Linda Joy Myers, Ph.D. is the founder and President of the National Association of Memoir Writers. A therapist, workshop leader, and memoirist, Linda Joy is the author of the prize- winning memoir Dont Call Me Mother. Her book about the healing power of writing Becoming Whole: Writing Your Healing Story has been used as a text by ministers, counselors, and teachers.

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