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An autoethnographic, transpersonal and practice-led exploration of the Persephone myth utilising the arts and creative writing as the language of the investigation. In the finished painting (attached) Persephone is appears to be emerging, her expression reflective. The embodied sensation is that Persephone is uniquely positioned in liminal territory, both queen of the underworld and comfortable on the surface. She is often defined by her mother's grief and longing, or her husband's passion. The artist explores her curiosity about Persephone's own mind and heart, independent of the pull of those who love her.

Self as Persephone, 1st March 2019, 3rd investigative reflection Larisa Bardsley. Lara Bardsley (2019), Persephone (detail), 92cm x 122cm, mixed media on silver leaf. I am torn. Once, I was frightened, protesting. But does not any maiden fear the darkness at first and cry at the tearing of innocence? The transition from maiden to woman, from daughter to lover is as painful as it is desirable. I have found parts of myself here in this dark kingdom. I am loved but in my absence, Mother, you neglect the earth and all life will wither and perish. Life is a miracle, it is precious – flesh, blood, sex, birth, creation are celebrations in the light, but the seeds of the greatest trees germinate in the darkness and eventually all will return to dust. I will bear witness to birth and to death. I seek my own space, not just to ease the burden of your grief, Mother, nor to be coveted and bound by your passion, my husband. I am woman, goddess, Queen. See me Mother, see me husband. I will dance to my own music and return to you both, in my own time. Mother, I will always be your daughter, but this grief is yours to bear alone. Husband, my flesh is warm from the sunshine, I share it with you willingly but I am not yours. I am mine. I am Queen, Goddess of the Limin.
Auto ethnographic reflections on embodied and creative research. Larisa Bardsley Lara Bardsley (2019), Persephone (detail), 92cm x 122cm, mixed media on silver leaf. 20th February, 2019 As I move toward her, she comes to meet me. She is the goddess that lives betwixt and between, in darkness she is loved, she is queen. Her return to the daylight is celebrated in the renewal of the world, the fruiting of crops and the flowering of beauty. She cycles from inner to outer, she must. She is bound by love, both to her husband, Hades, who rules the unconscious, the void – and her mother, Demeter, who gives birth to the crops and the flowers of the earth. Persephone is a goddess who bears witness to death and rebirth she is present to beginning and end of all life. Persephone has called to me, inviting me to follow her, to give voice and embrace my own dance, celebrating new growth, renewed by the stillness in the void. Even more challenging, Persephone invites me to live in the light, to be seen, for to be visible in her beauty is only half of her existence, one face, one of her selves. Equally, she dwells where she cannot be seen by life, she is still, introverted, deep in the unconscious and while she does so the land lays fallow above her. Yet there is much happening beneath the limin of the conscious world. Each time she returns, Persephone is wiser and nourished by the love of her husband and the time she has dwelled among the ancestors, for in the darkness, all that was once alive have shared stories and shaped her in the fluid deepest territory of our psyche.
Understanding Persephone This publication is part of an autoethnographic, transpersonal and practice-led exploration of the Persephone myth utilising the arts and creative writing as the language of the investigation. Lara Bardsley (2019), Persephone, 92cm x 122cm, mixed media on silver leaf. The finished painting depicts Persephone as emerging, her expression reflective. The sense is the she uniquely positioned in liminal territory, she is both queen of the underworld and comfortable on the surface. She is often defined by her mother's grief and longing, or her husband's passion. I am curious about her own mind and heart, independent of the pull of those who love her.