As a child were you ever afraid of the dark? All the time I have known myself I required a pitch black room with no lights until recently I have been afraid of the dark. Well I haven't actually been sleeping well at all in months. I don't know what this is but I can't shake it. I would whisper to myself as I am trying to get to sleep "For God has not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind. Sometimes we are afraid, sometimes this “spirit of fear” overcomes us, and to overcome it we need to trust in and love God completely. I have been feeling because I have backslide that I am not worthy of My Father/God to do anything for me in my life. And I beat myself up constantly over this.
Over the last few months a relationship I had strained with my mom has come full circle again. Another parent that I felt I disappointed and didn't deserve there love and support but they always are here for me.
Our family had a really unexpected death of my sisters father (stepfather) who was loved by us all. On top of everything else this caused another shift in my emotions. Now I know I am not the only one that is afraid of the dark right now. I realized that I just felt really numb. We are just trying to stay strong and support each other because that's all we have.
