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It was probably within a dream that we met

She was as beautiful as far as imagination could get .

Storms grew romantically wilder in the instant

And the beasts bawling inside became silent

She stared through my eyes into my soul

As if gathering scattered peices to make me whole

She hugged me and tug on me as if a long time lover

We walked the rains with her umbrella as a cover

Just awkwardly gawking and glimpsing each other

As time decimated the moment into another

She whispered just a word and walked away

Setting my inner beasts on a firey foray

Mysterious and magnificent as a heavenly dame

Walking the rains she was with an umbrella on flames

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Your sophistication is a false facade
Drama and acting should be your daily reward
After with a baseless attitude you hide your visage

Your gorgeousness and flaunts are a merely a mirage

you follow your heart is what you always say

Or is this a mask of confidence in hopes of fears to be drawn away
Where lies your real self behind your mimic of a mask

Is a question to you that I want to ask

You speak of love and affections my
dear friend
You speak of spirituality and holiness my dear friend

Whilst being the pinnacle of recent emo-illogical trends

The noise that hinders your minds connection to your soul

That force stopping you from ever feeling whole

Is the wrecking pandemonium of your own creation

Your emotions are all themselves convulsing in confusion

Clouding your mind and sickening your judgments

This lack of clarity is the chief of all your ailments

With so many opinions and preferences at your disposal

your mind must be in a constant state of arousal

With all this chaos inside your workaholic mind

How will you make better strides in this life's grind

The more you think feel and desire

Form opinions about things you despise or admire

More shall you be pulled into the conundrum called trivial humanity

Rise above the things that the commonfolk label as sanity

Surrender to peace and open your eyes to true reality.

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Like a spirit constantly waxing and waning out of existence

Appearing and dissapearing in midst of moments and instances

Walking the grey line in between realities and imaginations

Being the real cause behind tragedies and also celebrations

What are you I constantly wonder so real yet beyond my comprehension

Your distinct ambiguity is the source of my infatuation

Your presence makes one feel inherently happy and alive

And your absence makes life's curve take a dive

But what are you I still am lost in that cloud of confusion

How do you control everything yet always play out as an illusion?

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When the heart works like a butterfly on cocaine,

Trying deliberately to drive the mind insane

In fleeting seconds like a typhoon chaos unfurls,

Turning your mind's juices into messy swirls ,

Emotions all meld with each other and fade to an alien visage

Turning all sanity and reason into a blurry mirage ,

As a putrid torrent of misery and agony take to deluge

Where does your mind and consciousness take refuge

Is it through the lane of self pity in brothel of pleasures

with mind numbing drugs and worthless sinful leisures ,

Or through the valley of fears into the castle of rationality,

Where your mind gradually encumbers efforts to face your true reality

Or is it in the hut of moments and time capturing inceptions,

Where you let reality and the present frame your perceptions

Plan your living or live amidst the moments

Either walk about in your life or chase your sentiments

The places you know and the path as well

Everything is in here wether it be heaven or be it hell

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How difficult must it be

To love a soul touched by the loneliest entity

Cuddled by the lady love of the duchess of solitude

Constantly being reminded of your ineptitude

Feeling that gaping hole in the depths of your heart

Knowing well that the emptiness is hopelessly inert .

That feeling of missing something that wasn't even ever there

With that constant numbing pain always making me aware

As the duchess of solitude shrouded me in her many veils

Darkness herself caught me by pursuing my bleeding entrails

She started her damnation from the depths of my being

Slowly through my veins and into my soul her essense started seeping

She filled my holes making them deeper than eternity

Making my own sanity a definitive and a tragic casualty

It pains

Her velvety depths like eternal nights shrouded my perception

Since then there have been only greys and blacks in my collection

Of memories ideas and all my psychological creations

As light itself has lost its way around in my journey to salvation.

A scarred soul
A scarred soul

I ventured out into the world in hopes of finding happiness little did i know what turmoil would follow

Under the keen sight of the brightest of the sun's

I walked out of my abode dreaming of happiness and fun

When i began my steps were little and I would always fall

My ideals were just born and my brain was quite small

Even when I was a child happiness was all i I'd ever want

I dreamed and desired of genuine joy not the ones people acquire to flaunt

as time to grew alongside me I figured how my compass ought to be

my north was always joy and the opposite South would be misery

But as life is a boon and also a bane it created for me an epiphany

My mind started wavering because of the bug called curiosity

And all that has been transpired has led me to this pointless uncertainty

Am i in the pursuit of happiness or am I running away from misery ?

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Hey there bud good going with your everlasting ability to keep up with time herself , yes words
alphabets and letters I'm talking to you folk.and all this gratitude from me just so that I can dabble
with you guys once again ...

Now to the clot of weird grey dark heavy and sorta chokey mass swelling up like a dog carcass on a
beach , well you might just have won this war.

As a victim of my own conundrum of having a heart that has too much love to offer and a soul that is
probably cursed with loneliness for eternity I have finally found a way to resolve this predicament
once and for all I have decided to murder this naive little puppy eyed child they call , hope.

I don't know if love has an expiry date but the darkest corner of my least used godown is where I will
keep it from now on .
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Crispier than the soggiest of the papers

Softer than the hardest of metals

Covered in a flimsy flashy and redundant wrappers

Lies my soul shrivelled and softer than petals

Why is it weak I always keep wondering

What makes my soul so pristine and delicate

With these thoughts my mind keeps blundering

But a little warmth and sunshine it does radiate

As if a conflict rages within its feeble being

One which it seems to win with full glory ,

Maybe from god it's strength it is stealing

I can't wait for the unraveling of its story

Yet it now lies totally undisturbed and unrevealing

I know I need to move mountains for it to wake

After all its my own will at stake .

Thunderclouds occlude the sun of my
life
Thunderclouds occlude the sun of my life

They weep tears of despair and strife

a single ray of light could cure my soul

But my will lies rusting amongst soggy coals

I want to break through these eternai rains

the ones that wreak only havoc and pains

.but haven't they always been there I wonder

Is my being itself the root cause of this blunder

Where can I find the waters that quench this thirst

Of these emotions I have had since my very birth

Even amongst them there is one I hunt the most

She is the one that births reasons for joys and toasts

Happiness isn't she the most elusive of them all

Making life itself oscillitate between big and small

The others impart life with its distinctive curvature

Making our being itself much like a stolen signature

For even distinct and apart we all are slaves if the same

Of these chemicals within that make up this whole game

is this the price we pay for knowledge and sentience

These emotions are they the true pains of existence

Tell me why
Tell me why

why should I live by your rules and ideals

Why did you douse my childhood with morals

Why did you define my rights and wrongs

You who even infused your beliefs even in songs

Tell me why

What gave you the power to control my mind

Implanting my brain with beliefs like a horses blinds

What authority are you to shape me from my very origin

What allowed you to define virtue and sin

Tell me why

When all these thoughts and memories are going to fade

When after a while even your tiniest essense is bound to evaporate

When even your distinctive genes are also going to change

Why society whyq did you have to be so culpably strange

Why mould my existence when it was sentenced to cease

What honor what honesty when my own life is on a lease

What goals what achievements when it is all going to fade away

Is this reality even real or is it just the brutal creativity of a specie

So tell me what makes you the authority , society?

Where can I find the waters that
quench this thirst
Where can I find the waters that quench this thirst
Of these emotions I have had since my very birth
Each imparting our lives with a distinctive curvature
Making our being itself much like a stolen signature
For even distinct and apart we all are slaves if the same
Of these chemicals within that make up this whole game
is this the price we pay for knowledge and sentience
These emotions are they the collateral of existence

Talk to me my dear
Talk to me my dear

Let out all the things that you fear

Tell me all about what you hold dear

Tell me about what way your heart steers

Speak to me about things that tickle your curiosity

About things that fascinate your creativity

About places you've seen and the one's to which you've been

Tell me what you like springsteen or queen?

I lead a life that makes me firmly believe in exploring

for i am in love with the feel of adventuring

As true beauty can also be found in the minds of others

Only because everybody's perspectives always differ

So tell me about yourself my dear

I won't judge you even for a second i swear

I want to help you allay all your fears

I want to see you only smile and laugh when in tears

Let it all out so that your heart feels lighter

Rant it all out keep going even if ypu falter

Empty your entire mind body and your soul

It's only emptiness that can make you whole .

The songbirds sing and stars twinkle

The songbirds sing and stars twinkle

The world seems nice and without a wrinkle

Waters gushing through streams

And within them your face clearly gleams

This paradise is what blooms within me

And its only when deep within your eyes i see

The butterflies come in like a whirlpool of joys

My fears and depression themselves begin to cry

I blush so hard that my heart pumps all my blood to my face

And all this is just because of your smile my grace

And Oh my god when i see you wink

My existence seems to blissfully sink

in the essence of your cuteness and beauty

I drown in my own shyness and in my felicity

Oh my dear life has been adventure time

Ever since you broke the rythm of my lifes cyninical rhyme

you walked in like a thunderstorm on fire

Identity and ambition scare me since

birth
Identity and ambition scare me since birth

My life itself has been the victim of their mirth

For i was born a man with a single objective

But the world made my life abysmally subjective

I was to explore evolve and just to survive

But this society took away life out of being alive

On the very day that i stepped into this blissfully biased world

The verdict of life imprisonment at me was hurled

From an all powerful yet naive being of divine creation

They gave me a name and also scripted rules for holy salvation

The walls that defined me were erected right on day one

Even before i could speak and even before i had seen the sun

I accepted for i had hardly a will or a mind of my own

And i would've been fine if it were only this and this alone

But alas then came the curse of jealousy spite and competition

I saw the world try and give shape to me who was blissfully misshapen

Oh society this was the worst that could've possibly ever come to be

Why do you want to shape me and and give me an identity

Understand and Listen to me for once at the very least

Your visions and foresight have become outdated like those of a priest

Stop caging people by giving them your ideals and your dreams

let them feel the freedom let them experience laughter and screams

For i feel that somethimg sinister masquarades as freedom in the world today

Masking its motives and misusing justice for a mere foreplay

I believe the world is too large for us to be locked within

Break away these inner barriers at your every single whim

Because the only one with the power to truly control you is yourself

So you better take that rule book and the name out of the shelf

Burn them to a crisp and remember never to define oneself.

Note from Buddha Purnima/Vesak

I witnessed you at your birth and I will be there for reaping your soul ,

for I gave you a life and I will take everything you have as a toll

but I gave it to you and I want you to live it to your whole

For though I gave this soul but your being is your own

I wish to see you at the end fulfilled satisfied and well grown

I want you to see it all feel it all and have be skillful to the bone

I will give you others like yourself so that you never feel alone

But make sure you strengthen and build morals etchable in stone

May you be just in the life that you call your own

For at the end I shall be there to weigh mortgage to your loan

For I have seen the dawn of time itself and I shall be at its death

I am the one that encircles Allah ishwar Jesus and even seth

I am the one they call almighty and I bless them with good health

I shall be the final judge and I shall make sure the debt is paid

And beware you that I have recorded every thing even every word you ever said

What will you do when one by one all your sins are laid

Oh for your sake I hope from the path of righteousness you never strayed.

I will even forgive you even if for a moment you atone,

make your life worth my while and worth the toll

Oh what ways I can save this world
Oh what ways can i escape this curse of a life

Evade and forever bid goodbye to this internal strife

My mind revolves around things that mean nothing

It gnaws at my soul and forces me to find meaning

Meaning to things that only smite my emotions

To things that stand like hurdles through the motions

Struggling through and Chasing promised epiphanies falling down after discovering that they were
meare cacophonies

Sometimes I feel that the world itself cries for my end

For a hapless being like me has no good things to lend

It's my mind that poisons my soul without intent

It can't help but do it and cause my being to be inconsistent

And hence I look for ways to just vanish and cease

Maybe without my body my soul would be at ease.

What has happened to this world

Abducted from the embrace of her loving mother

Snatched away from the doting eyes of her father

at an age when all she knew was love and innocence

When all she deserved was affection and kindness

She was taken away by men with minds unfathomably curropted

On grounds of religion of communalism and of hatred

They led her to a place devoted to their gods

What they did to her made even the idols sob

She was raped by the ones who ought to have blessed her

She was butchered and mutilated by those inhuman curs

Her cries still resonate in the walls of the god house

Her soul must still writhe from the horrendous abuse

Yet the assailants the demons still breathe

Because religion comes first and humanity is beneath.

Oh what face does man have anymore to keep

When he himself made his own gods weep

Oh what faith can one keep on religion anymore

On its name those men committed such acts of abhor

Oh how the world was and how it could've flourished,

But alas humans still live but humanity seems to have perished

My past enshrines the darkness of my

accolades
My past enshrines the darkness of my accolades

It reminds me of vivid memories and charades

Things I have tried to suppress for the most of my life

Events that have always only caused internal strifes

But as if like a taint within my blood an entanglment within my soul

The darkness materializes often and demands answers and despair as a toll

Like a ghost that haunts my very existence my own being

Tormenting my mind to an extent that my soul feels like fleeing

I know that I was wrought in coals whilst others were smelted with steels

For I am but a mere creature cursed with thoughts and feels

Not just for myself but for others and that too with more prominence

For I am a hapless creature of creation incapable of any form of dominance

Bound to exist in a world where to me others always matter

Yet For others I exist merely as a redundant piece of matter.

And as the light dies with the sun this being envelopes me whole

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The language only dead men speak

The pandemonium that only darkness can wreak ,

it is the din of solace and the conundrum of emptiness

the voice of which crumbles hopes and dreams to despair and distress

it Is the tyranny I fear worse than anything I confess ,

it is the thundering roar of silence .

Things had started to go down before it

all began for her ,
Things had started to go down before it all began for her ,

Life had made reality into a sensetive content blur

She had lost more than what was ever needed ,

Striving and surviving as the childishness inside her receded

The world forced her to mature at an age too young

But little did they know that one day ballads in her name would be sung

She might have lost it all but one thing never let go

Though not physically he stayed behind in her shadow

And even in the darkest of the times when dimmed her sights

His memories would engulf her in new hopes new lights

Though he couldn't be there at her side

She never needed to give in to anything anymore

she was the angel through darkness she swam ashore

As the motherly earth turned towards
spring
As the motherly earth turned towards spring

It was then that I sprouted my wings

At the edge of the branch of my own mother

I took birth along with many of my brothers

The pleasant winds kissed my being with every gust

I even came to love the feel of dirt and dust

Often came drops from the heavens above

Drenching me in their magical form of love

As the eternal mother moved ahead in the course of time

The godly sun brightened its luminous shine

Summer set in with such magnanimous grace

The sun set aflame this world with its fiery rays

The heat was arduous it brought wrinkles to my face

Draining me of my life force At a subliminal pace

My brothers too were drained quite similarly

As our cycle of life was coming to its extremity .

As time yet again pulled the strings

My wings started drying and browning

As I lay wilting at the edge of my glorious existence

I left my mother transcending my state of decadence

Cut of from.my mother I fell for the longest expanse

This fall itself had an innate feeling of romance

Detached from the source of my life I had but a few moments

But they were the most beautiful and with most sentiments

For though I cherished the life that was once mine

I know well that there are many more brethren in line.

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The end is nigh for the world is about to die

When the need for aid itself calls for help

When women and children are viewed as welps

When guns and drugs control most of mankind

None can do a thing for it's too late to rewind

The planet itself is on the zenith of misery

The spirit of humanity is appalled by this tragedy

It is almost a curse tormenting towards insanity

Yet it's truly a hideous self wrought calmality

The earth is being strangled by the acts of mankind

None can do a thing for its too late to rewind

The blues of the sky have turned to dark smokey greys

The sea throws out more plastic with each of its waves

The trees are fewer than they were yesterday

The winds now restlessly keep shifting their ways

Things are averse to how they should have been

Earth is taking a turn towards a future unforeseen

Oh mankind , think of the legacy you'll leave behind

but none can do a thing for its too late to rewind .

I was once a tiny part of the great blue

sea

I was once a tiny part of the great blue sea

My brethren around me wherever I could see

I sought to escape the multitudes for once

Others might have thought of me a dunce

I wanted to see the wide world that I call home

Scenery and landscapes I wanted to see and roam

It was a palpable ordeal to leave them behind

But far greater was the curiosity of what I'll find

To Traverse the great blue orb that birthed life

I was curious and my excitement was more than rife

Climbing up to the top of the sea

I embraced the sun's warm tranquillity

His warmth enveloped me in a state of torpor

And turned my fluidic being into a blissful vapour

I ascended to the world above excited and agitated

About to realize my dream I felt truly elated

Amidst my climb to the clouds above

I was stolen by the wind who further strengthened my resolve

Floating on the breeze I felt belittled by the world around

Flying through the heavens I felt freedom unbound

As the winds set course up towards their end

I boarded the current that led towards the mountains

Oh what glory they held in their colossal grace

I decided that this is the sight I forever want to embrace

As the climb turned upwards the warmth started to abate

I found myself once again in a transitioning state

As I turned back to my fluidic self and condensed into droplets few

I settled on the leaves earning the name "mountain leaf dew"

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It has started once again
It has brought back the gloomy rains

The ones that pour deep on the inside

Drenching happiness and turning it to a void

These waters are of gloom and despair

They set my clocks to a time of complete disrepair

Without refuge i succumb to the corners of my mind

Over there the darkness makes even light feel blind

I can feel it every moment of every single day

People I know have started drifting away

I don't know where my fault lies

Maybe it was because i couldn't digest lies

I try to be as forthright as I can possibly be

Maybe that is what people don't want to see

I can't bend my words and actions for deciet

I have an even harder time trying to cheat

Maybe I am too naive for the world I know

Where malice and evils flourish and grow .

Maybe Its me who is the sinner amidst saints

Probably my conscience is the one full of taint

Could it be that my mind is curropted by my past

I don't know myself how great has been the cost

Alas out of these ponderings I derived a conclusion

That assures me of no more delusions or confusions

But for that I have a lot of goodbyes to say

Because if i werent around I would never get in anyone's way.

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Cigarettes & Regrets

As she kissed the butt of her burning cigarette

Poisoning herself to get rid of countless regrets

Her lungs made love to the bittersweet smoke

the hiss of nicotine petrified her blood and bones

Seeping just a little bit into her conscience and her soul

Momentarily filling that inner dark and empty hole

Cuddling the darkness she had locked away within

Prodding the loneliness that she ignored on every whim

She doused her Innards in the tobacco's smite

Trying to suffocate those demons rampaging inside

She exhumed the smoke till her lungs gave away

Trying to cloud her mind so that her fears would allay

But alas as her kisses burned out the cigarette

She blew out nothing more than smoke and regrets

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As the entity caged inside me peered out through my eyes,

It observed a world on the brink of a total capsize ,

This entity fresh out of creation grew wary of the world it saw,

As it wasn't the paradise that his creators foresaw,

He distinctly recalled the world he had seen in his vision

A world flourishing with everything of divine creation

Peace ruled everything that existed in this unique civilization

But reality was the exact dystopia of what was prophesised to be

Everything seemed corrupted by the sins that infected humanity

Seemed as if humanity paved the way for the creation of hell

Greed grew rife in the hearts that beat for the human shells
The commoners were struck by envy wrath and lust

And there lay their morality withering to flakes and dust

Sloth pride and gluttony afflicted a few embellished and gilded shells

Making their consciences writhe in agony within their constructed palatial hells

As if like a prisoner entrapped within me he begged to set him free

But alas his freedom would have cost me greatly

I sat with him and wore him down from his paranoia to elope

I asked him with his loss how does he expect me

to cope

Convinced to stay he told me forever stick to the whites

And if my stand in this starts to flicker he will leave in a flash of light

So I stand tall and respect everything irrespective of anything at all

Not because of anything else but because my life depends on it that's all

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She gave herself away with more than a hint

But alas her allusions to me birthed nothing but a stint

For even though i doted her all this while

And I used to blush at each of her smiles

I was unaware as to what she bore in her heart for me

Because hints never confirm any brazen reality

And for me to confess my suppressed love and sentimentality

I need something that ensues love with certainty .

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As never before had my soul haunted my being

For I found myself in the middle of their warring

As today when life itself stabbed my back

I felt my composure snap with a crack

The sword of greens ripped through my blood

Clouding judgements of what's bad and what is good

I felt my soul snatching itself away from my body

This smoke was sweeter than any nectar or toddy

It opened doors that weren't even there before

Never before in my life had my mind been this unsure

My mind swam in the emptiness of the universe itself

The world around me seemed like a meagre illusion

And my mind sailed like a ship amidst this confusion

As I was stoned away from all senses of reality

Absolved of my sense of all my morality

I was taken away in my own erected utopia

Thieved away into a world devoid of any phobia

Stolen away by smoke that transcended materialism

Vaporized into the realities hidden amidst realism .

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I am trapped in this palace of mirrors,

I see myself on every wall and every pillar

Chased by its guardian which is none other than my own soul

He chases and oddly demands my own reflection as a toll
I have been bustling through the entire place
Trying to find a door or a window or at least some solace
These reflections are driving me to the very edge of sanity
Occluded by the vision of myself I seek help from reality
I tell her that I am tired of this conundrum I have inside
As my soul, humanity and morality are set on a path to collide
She responded cryptically telling me to have a glimpse within,
Vaguely telling me that fear is nothing but my mind’s whim
I pondered upon her words till fear from me I eradicated
Within me I appeared in middle of the palace and meditated
Meditated for myself as really for the guardian I waited
As he approached i sat still and quiet which took him aback
And that very moment he vanished with a shattering crack,
All but two of the mirrors collapsed into nothingness,
Leaving me to face my own selves without any shrouds or curtains
Their reflections weren’t the same as the ones that were
One showed me as a man with riches yet without the essence of humanity
Who tread on carpets of gold but had his heart drained of love and morality
Another showed me poor yet my face shone with happiness and alacrity
This me had a face that beamed out morals and reflected magnanimity
I walked into the mirror that showed me how pure joy could ever be
Leaving behind the riches and taking ahead the road to Humane Divinity

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She is An embodiment of things both devilish and divine

An entity of such beauty and grace that her one can enshrine

She is a symbol of power of courage and that of will

Without her presence this planet itself would fall ill

Her desire and will dictates the flow of life itself

For she creates and nurtures life within herself

Her benevolence and protective instincts are a sight to see

Her nature can truly be the source of pure happiness and ecstasy

She deserves to be cherished and celebrated for her beauty and brevity

She deserves to be loved and respected not just today but till time infinity

She is the reason humanity has survived till this day today
Here is mankind wishing them ...A HAPPY WOMEN'S DAY.
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Oh my mythical embodiment of beauty and love

My heart has been waiting for your long enough

No doubt all this wait has taken its own gruesome toll
But as you know the time i have is what I stole

And I do not intend to turn to dust in

anticipation

Withering my soul bit by bit with internal trepidations

I have been pining and whining all this while
Imagining a bond bound by only love and smiles
But now I call an end to this charade of insulting dreams
The ones which in my life only from afar gleam
I am starting a new chapter in this book if my life
And this one I shall write without any hope fueled lies
I shall never again bridge hopes false as my emotions
All I shall do is turn the wheel that gives the world it's motion

I know i will have to rebel against my own personality

The struggle might lead me astray from my own sanity

But as you knows change is always an eventuality

I will embrace it and finally kick out this painful uncertainty.

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I give up

What do you do to a ship wrecked beyond measure

what for the yearning of a long lost treasure

For the things that you've always wanted

you've tried yet have ended fruitless and haunted

when it were only your efforts that counted and mattered

you always succeeded and never let your victory be shattered

but when the consequences are in the hands of another

haven't you mostly ended in a spot of bother

I know well how to sail this wrecked treasure of mine

But I have been ushered away time to time

And all I have is given away my wheel for another's taking

And mostly ended in waters that wouldn't heed my taming

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If adventure were a dress

Then the ocean would be it's fabric

The land it's weaving

The mountains would be it's stitches

And all the souls in the world would be dressed in it

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The sad times that have washed us ashore ,
are the ones that have turned love into a whore,
chastised by the needs of a perverted mind
molested by the deeds of most of the mankind
Love lost its purity as man kicked out loyalty
love lost its maturity as man pushed away humility

Love paved way for insanity as man lost his own humanity

so where is this love ?

once perceived and Imagined as powerful and divine

Just possesing it used to make everything fine

it now lays in the darkness rarely appearing in reality

mustering courage and placing it's bets on humanity

for it to like all relies on the mantle of hope

when true souls intertwine in their hearts she'll elope

Bit by bit she gathers her hopes and dreams

those of enlightened affections and not of pleasurable screams

she will weave you in her ropes

And leave you stronger with newer hopes

But don't steep in love for just the pains and gains

love because you feel it flowing in your veins

Love because your heart needs more care than your brains

Love because without the one life will surely drive you insane

because without her love your life will.just be in vain .

now regrets it's own existence as much as it regrets

all of mankind

where is love to find

when everyone needs sex but emotional connections are nowhere In sights

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Dear Love
In the wake of love and the spoils of the heart
You were my one ever since the start
Like a falling piece of rock in the emptiness of the skies
You struck the chords of my soul with nothing but your sighs
I gaped at you in complete perplexity
And questioned myself if I were seeing some weird entity
You were a bomb of hotness talking to a toad like me
Nothing was as I wanted it to be
You sat in front of me sassy and classy like a celebrity
I felt I was dressed in only rags just flaunting a goatee
Neither were you as I thought you would be
This maximised entropy was ringing bells of my sanity
You burst my intuitions and assumptions as if they were bubbles
Troubling indeed it was as with you I couldn’t see any troubles
Funny it is that the lack of worries makes me worry all the more
My new found investigation was figuring what else you had for me in store
As the evening walked further to the shores of night
You had me gripped tight with eyes locked in a staring fight
Pulling my ears when I broke our intertwined line of sight
Laughing like a nightingale every time I blushed,

The skies dimmed and we took to the roads

Walking and talking like in each other we had found our abodes
As the night waned in with the brightest of the moons
I found my morals surrounded by blundering typhoons
For I found my heart for you had begun to swoon
And to my awe instead of the usual final diss ,
You leaned in for my first and the best ever kiss .

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I get these overwhelming jolts of despair

I fear that my future is in ruins and disrepair

As if my life seems beautiful on the outside
but has turned grotesque on the inside
over this course of time and of my life
I have realised the reason for my inner strife
it's not the that I have wronged anyone else

it's because the only one I've wronged is myself

The things mom taught now talk back to me

their taunts are like notes of some prophesised epiphany

I've always ignored them and treaded on a path of my own

believing that I will always reap what I have sown

But now I see that the road I have taken is emptying my soul

and bit by bit it's losing its brightness and turning to coal

I question my sanity about the path I am walking down upon

As to what is yet unforeseen and that which is woebegone

instead of my sanity my soul was the one who resolved my predicament

and the answer he gave filled me with some contentment

you're born from light and you will dissolve into the darkness

and that is the truth in its absolute starkness

What path you chose in the process is absolutely irrelevant

All that matters in the end is your sentiment and contentment

after all even the brightest diamonds are ultimately just hardened coals

its only through dedication and determination you will feel whole.

Untitled Note
For me this flow of time

Has always been like a cynical rhyme

Repeating like a stuck broken record

Sowing again similar seeds of discord

Time will make all better they say

But all I have seen are similarities in its sway

Rocking forth and back like swinging pendulums

Waxing and waning between repetitive conundrums

Where is peace i wonder more often than not

Where is the reason for which i've always fought

The things I've yearned for have apparently died in the tension

Providing my life's swinging pendulum a good enough suspension

The string remains taut for i still keep living like a machine

Always following a set pattern and a set routine

Why is always a cycle of things I do

for once i want to do something totally out of the blue

And break the strings that keep me held and taut

Even if they grab me back I would have achieved a lot ,

the satisfaction of knowing that they can be fought

Although the pains it gave me had different causes

It always has ended in giving me losses

Why am I the one left broken always

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As insanity reigned his mind besieged into a million pieces exactly like a shattered mirror

With the thundering roar of love and the lightning bolts of terror

The shattered pieces reflected the one thing that was the epicentre of it all

No matter what they looked like no matter big or small,

All pieces were shining bright and making him smile in spite of the raging turmoil

She soothed the nerves of his mind and gave him relief from the toil,

He lay in his mind like a captive bound and gagged ,

As his mind numbed and his will to live sagged ,

As the sense of reason lost its might

He absolutely gave in to his desired blight

His mind had lost the ability to think ,

As it just gave it away to the heart in a blink

The heart is impulsive and very much like a child,

It took impetuous decisions as by her it was beguiled

His words flowed from inside of his very soul ,

And with every word he wrote his heart kept tuning bit by bit into charcoal,

Darkened by the ability to keep pouring out nothing but emotions

Hardening up as it tried accepting its fate of eternal rejections

Gloom was all it was in and happiness was all it ever wanted

His he realised that it had taken his mind for granted

Accepting the fact that the one above had made him truly undesirable

His will succumbed to gloom and mind reigned over the squabble

Sanity was restored but at a cost too great

For now it's only he knew how heavy a heart can ever weigh.

Untitled Note
The trees have dried and the winds have gone

corroded and tired are both my brain and brawn

the melodies of past have faded into mournful symphonies

I dreadfully miss the breeze and the relief of the canopies

I steep in this concoction of candid cacophonies

waiting wantonly for a glimpse of joyous epiphanies

Where is the moment that will set me free I keep wondering

who shall light the fires of my darkneded soul I keep pondering

But time as she is for me tells me a tale with obstrusive difference

persistence and pragmatism with a perception of prominence

Why wait for flames to rekindle the fires of your soul

she asks me as if demanding a divine toll

All this accursed wait is but in total vain

I gaze at her and hear what she has to explain

And then tell her that I understand and know her pain

But what can I do i am a man simple but insane

and my desires for love can't ever burn down in flames

Scourgingly cruel the wait might happen to be

But can it drive an already mad man crazy ,

This madness of mine is different from all

I feel it jostle in moments big and also small

yet it is the thing that makes even darkness go vain

Because madness of hope can even absolve certain pains

Hope for me is the beacon that shows my determination its way

hope for me is the lamp that makes my depression shy away

And hence I hope and wait for the one who'd make my heart pump

and leave my brains and wits useless as a wooden stump

Note @ Ahmedabad, Gujarat

Was I born to be a burden?

A liability of and even for problems,

Have I ever truly been useful to someone,

What is this life?

Is it a pursuit for self improvement?

Or is it a mission for the world's betterment

Can a soul strive for another?

Or is it bound to perish in Solace of itself

Untitled Note
Niceness dissolves into a wrathful vapour,

hissing and bawling in its incessant torpor ,

it is a whiff so acidic and vile,

it drives all other of your senses senile,

clinging to an instance of immense pain and agony,

pumps vile blood into that memory,

turning your sight into shades of redness,

cloaking you in a shroud of astute darkness,

all you feel is a sense of personal justice,

And you turn away even from the sights of peaceful armistice,

heaving a foot at a time towards the the one you feel as the culprit,

With every step the rage inside you strengthens its grit,

A fire burns inside of you to right the wrong,

burn the enemy and his family with him along,

You march as if on a rampage with all your might and fury,

almost collapsing into the din of insanity,

And a glimpse of his face makes you crumble inside,

it feels like as if sanity and insanity have begun to collide,

moving your hand towards the gun you've been holding,

You see him do the exact same thing ,

and now loaded guns against each other you're holding,

you decide killing him is an act worth dying ,

and you pull the trigger struggling to aim,

And at the exact moment he does the same,

And with a big bam you see the splinters fly ,

shards glinting in the light pieces of ply,

and it's only then you realize that you'd been aiming at a mirror ,

and the realization dawns on you of pure horror ,

You're the guy who wrecked himself ,

you tried once again to curse and kill yourself .

MASKS
I put on a facade of happiness and joy,

When inside tears of blood my heart has begun to cry,

I weep like a baby within this cage of a body ,

For it pains me when I miss my special somebody,

My heart weeps wailing long notes of sorry,

My soul thrashes around clutching onto your every memory ,

I can't just tell you how much regret I bear,

It just overflows with my hidden silent tears,

Babe just come back to me one more time ,

For I know that Its only you who'll complete my rhyme,

Inside of me is a child with a tragic history and full of fear ,

It tries to grab on to anything that feels warm and is near,

It did the same for you but it's intentions to you were unclear,

I still beg you to believe that I am not crazy but anxiety is the burden i bear,

I know well that I have a lot in me that I need to change,

I wish there could be a place where qualities could be exchanged,

But if dreams and fantasies could ever come true you would have already be mine ,

With your adorable clumsiness and beauty sublime ,

But alas our ways we had to part,

for I wasn't good enough for anyone from the start ,

You're beautiful, angelic and as intelligent as one could've ever been ,

But I was a tale of melancholy and misery with a mind abhorrently unclean,

She is beyond compare and her beauty makes even angels blush,

But I am not even a bit beautiful even if you compare me to a garbage mush,

I ask my heart What audacity did it have to fall for her?

But For that my heart held not a single answer,

All it did was show me a glimpse of a future that could've been,

If I hadn't been over thinking and creating a scene,

And then I wept tears of both despair and joy,

For the beauty of the bond we could have had made me cry,

And I curse my self for laying waste a life that would've been totally worth living,

With you around my life just wouldn't be living it would've been enjoying.

Untitled Note
Another day has been claimed today by time

with its mundane and monotonous flowing rhyme

He ends it in an ultimatum every tide

seconds minutes hours and days Is how he rides

I can't help but curse the ebb of this ever flowing river

he cuts short my life into tatters and slivers

living in the moment hasn't ever been ever literally logical

as whence you try it life become a utterly irrational

the concept itself is nothing but totally ironical

and living in ironies makes one intensely cynical

but like sand to glue when these moments agglomerate

emotions take the brush and paint them as their own conglomerate

and they do a job so precise beautiful and fine

as every single one of their works have memories to define

Untitled Note
distilling within me is a brew of hopeless sorrows

the cries of today those of yesterday and those of the morrows ,

I tend to keep the despair inside

for me to have it always by my side

because darkness will not harm it's own ally

but also mostly because upon it I heavily rely

i know well that even a smidgen of it can corrupt a stable soul

but I truly believe I am not stable neither am i whole

for I have sacrificed pieces and shards of my life

danced on this stage on the very edge of the knife

tried to balance my virtues and sins

kept losing strength and sinking to my shins

with no choice but gathering myself that too quickly ,

because getting sliced was merely painful and prickly ,

But far too deathly and dangerous was the fall on either side

because if I ever fell from the stage from that height

I will unleash the wrath of the darkness I've sealed inside,

Ever since I saw the shadow of darkness I have kept it locked

Because the wrath it held had me scared and shocked

I don't ever want to let it out of me yet it leaks out of my tears

I know now that this is only my soul's burden to bear

Untitled Note
Go ahead celebrate my withdrawal from your life ,

Jump with joy and happily be alive,

I know for sure that you had nothing for me ,

I was just a bug too timid and too puny ,

But do remember that you've left me for I was weak,

Emotional and innocent and far too easy to tweak ,

Yet I fell for you every time I thought of you,

And for you probably this wouldn't be anything new,

You are a soul so nice and grounded,

I wanted our love to be unbounded,

But I am not the kind to enjoy one sided romance ,

I don't like hanging in the middle is rather take a stance ,

You doubted my love for you and thought it was merely an infatuation ,

But isn't infatuation and attraction a part of love's foundation.,

You used to amaze me like I were watching stars collide,

And I was naive enough to at your antics drop my jaw far and wide,

I made it worse by having a soul,

And emotions that took the heaviest toll ,

For I now have decided to let you go your way ,

And never shall I ever in them have a say ,

Because it pains me more to let go than to hold on,

Because it tears me up to write this tiny song ,

Because after you there would never be anyone near this heart of mine ,

because with you not around life would be anything but fine

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I wish to fall in love at least once in my life,

express all the Love within me which is ripe and rife,

I truly care not if she is fat or slim or short or tall,

She should be loving and understand me that's all,

If a really find someone who loves me for who I am,

who actually cares for me and gives a damn,

I'll take her hand and never let her go,

i will make sure that the love between us shall forever only grow,

I wish to hold her by the waist and lock her in a tight embrace,

look into her eyes and simply be amazed by her beautiful face,

I wish to kiss her every single moment I can possibly find,

just a glimpse of her face would make my stress unwind,

I wish to do whatever I can to make her smile and keep her happy ,

I wish to pray to the one above that nothing makes her mood crappy,

I wish to cuddle her up whenever she needs my love and warmth,

I wish to make her my lifeline , my bae and my north,

her opinion shall define what direction I'll go forth,

I wish to surprise her with a breakfast in bed every Sunday,

I wish to take care of her in every single possible way,

I'm just waiting for her to walk towards me with her sinful grace,

and lose herself between my arms in a blissful blessed embrace .

Untitled Note
I am but a man simple as the concepts of time ,

But now I am frustrated with my life's rhyme

like all I have some desires and some expectations

but this flow of life gives me nothing but insinuations,

all I have desired is simple and straight

A beautiful girl whom I can love and date ,

I don't really care about her height or girth ,

neither do I give a damn about her past or her birth

All i do care about are her present and future

and my instincts define me to be the one to nurture

I shall not let anything get in the way of her and her dreams
I shall help her achieve them as if we were a team

but I do ask her of only a few things that's all

first to tell me everything no matter big or small

second to be real and honest to not me but yourself

and third is just to tolerate my crazy self ,

And if you do i promise you this

i will make sure that your life hereafter is a bliss

because I want to love someone with all my heart

I want to beautify her soul with my skill and art

I want to spoil her with whatever I got

I want to be there for her no matter what

For I shall make sure that together our lives restart

And till eternity I shall enjoy playing my part

as a lover an entertainer and a hopeless romantic combined

for I shall make certain that our souls and destinies are all intertwined .

Note @ Ahmedabad, Gujarat

I had fallen in love when I was very young,

When my stories where unheard and ballads unsung,

I fell in love with the kind of person she was,

A strong confident woman fighting life for her just cause,

Her strength inspired me and her laughter left me breathless,

My love for Her got me more drunken than a barrel of Guinness

I loved her deeply and yet was dumbly apprehensive,

I was scared of hurting her of confessing and seeing her on the offensive,

And hence even before I could call her my friend,

She left my life with her new boyfriend!

And I was left heartbroken and all alone,

Shivering with new found remorse to the bone,

I barred myself behind walls of hatred and numbness,

Awaiting to see who would help me out of my loneliness,

I thought my walls hid the world outside from my insides ,

But I was terribly mistaken for it truly hid me from the world outside,

I sat alone inside from dawn to dusk and from dusk to dawn ,

Like a damsel in distress always looking woebegone ,

Time went by but my walls did not abrade ,

I was tired and famished from all this wait,

And hence my mind conjured a gentle stranger ,

From the depths of my imagination came my rescue ranger ,

She introduced herself as my own solitude ,

Addictive and lovable was her attitude,

And I was resolved of my self inflicted tyranny,

My baleful life was inverted comically,

Yet my walls stayed still like pillars of a beautiful lore,

And I finally felt alone no more !

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you are my ray of hope in the darkest of the nights

you're also the reason of a million fights

you're the silver lining in every one of my clouds

you are also the reason why I don't get lost in mighty crowds

you're the reason why I know the beauty of love

you're also the reason I feel like burning that sentiment on a stove

you're the actually the one for whom I like baking cake

you're also the reason why my heart splinters and breaks

yet you are my only mate in this journey of life

and I shall bear for you no emotions of hate or strife

for its only you who's been my rescue ranger

of trouble or of joy you saved me of all danger

when I was sinking in marshes of gloom

you saved me from all kinds of doom

you've always been my saviour my Jesus Christ

if not for you my life would've be mighty unspiced

i raise this toast to your beloved self

for without you my soul I wouldn't have been myself .

Untitled Note
Once thought we bound by bonds stronger than steel,

and in front of you I was forever ready to knee,

for if there was ever one thing i wanted to steal,

it was only your heart and only your feel,

that would have been a life of pure joy and bliss ,

I would've had my soul mate to kiss,

and that is one thing i shall always sorely miss,

just a lil bit less than you as with you nothing in life would've ever been amiss,

so I bid you farewell with my hearts lament,

It's only for my stupidity I have regrets and resentments,

I have been trying really hard to even acquire a bit of atonement,

lately grief and guilt have been the most felt of all my sentiment,

its only I who knows how hard it is to let go of you,

its like it is my heart in pieces I am trying to hew,

even as I write these words I feel my life going askew,

What my heart dearly wants is for our bonds to refresh and renew,

But I know well that us is way past curing,

only if i knew what you've been enduring,

only if you had felt I was worth loving,

only if you felt I was worth conversing,

I beg you to believe I never bore any evil intentions,

I only yearn for forgiveness and absolutions,

So with this wanton rhyme of my apprehensions,

I hope to relieve you of all my feels and tensions,

I bid you farewell with my heart's lament,

I shall be away till your mental abatement,

but still in reach if you don't mind some amendment,

And I shall believe all of this as my testament,

I bid you fare thee well with my heart's lament .

Untitled Note
As he felt his bones creak

his eyes saw only sights bleak

And he found it hard to breath

he struggled around to find his false teeth ,

finally with help from whom he was akin ,

he still struggled to find peace in the din ,

suddenly He smiled a toothless grin

accepting a formidable sin

he finally knew that life is truly a race

And all we can do is run and keep up the pace

For even if we want to stay away

we are chained by time's mighty sway ,

for even if we set our souls away

this body is destined to degrade every single day.

Untitled Note
He was once the best of all blokes,

For his love he had given up his zest for smokes,

she did not like the vile vapour of ash,

and on him she decided to lash,

little did she know that he had feelings for her,

At her one request he decided to adhere,

But she cast him away like a false epiphany,

sending him to drown in a sea of insanity,

Dispersing his love and dreams up in smoke,

and that was the end for niceness of our best bloke,

he bought a pack every other day since then,

blowing out smoke and all his love from within.

Untitled Note
A stony stillness rocks my heart , It sure wasn’t there from the start ,
I feel so lonely and dead inside , I just feel sad for even happy tides,
I feel sinister things creeping right around the corner ,
And do nothing to stop them from their trifling conquer ,
I’ve tossed my weapons before the battle ,
As I was too tired of the insanely prattle ,

My life has been like that of a canal ,

Guided by the peers who spoke nothing but banal ,

I’ve lost all sense of hope in this battle of life ,

I shall yield without a fight or a strife ,
For I know the sin that led me to this path of devastation ,
I thought from the brains of others and looked through the eyes of them ,
Yearning for others is a sin in itself ,

for if you live for others you won’t ever live for yourself

Untitled Note
Drenched in waters of blood and salt,

I brought my ship to a stagnant halt,

the sea seemed a bit too calm to me,

and there were dark clouds wherever I could see,

I sensed something terrible in the offing,

the portents signalled a storms coming,

I looked around to see not a soul in my sights,

When dawned upon me the real insight,

I was sailing through the sea of my life,

And here clashes of sentiments were rife,

my body was the ship and I was my soul,

this storm was of despair demanding it's toll,

I set sail through this predicament of gloom,

strengthening my grit and approaching an inevitable doom,

as I intend to conquer these seas by bane or by boon.

Untitled Note
Life had till now been generous with ordeals

it had been like a rollercoaster of feels

mostly of toils of foils and of turmoils

leaving behind scars blistering with boils

but now the tables have turned

I am finally getting what I have deserved

maybe because I have gained a direction

and I have made the needed corrections

in my outlook to life and others

I had usually treated people as my brothers

I have realized that not all who walk are worth my time

i have met people who's intentions were like brine

yet there exist people I treasure with all of my heart

I beg the universe to never keep me and them apart

For now they are integral to my existence

I would've been dead if not for their assistance

Untitled Note
hey sweetheart sorry for the abruptness and the blatantness in which I am writing this i was caught in
a fix of wanting to let you know and comforting my own ego by not confronting it . the point is I know
it's barely been just a couple of weeks since we stopped talking and we even hardly ever used to talk
to each other before and probably that's a reason why we never could work anything out , so yeah
here I am writing a kind of large letter for you to read because , I miss you every single second of
every single minute of every single hour of every single day and its becoming harder every day to
ignore .Dude don't be so mad at me I am really sorry just continue talking to me ,let's meet let's talk
more often let's have adventures together .

first of all I must confess I am an attention seeker I genuinely love when someone actually listens to
me and talks to me and if that someone becomes you, my whole life will kind of be much more sorted
and if that someone also loves me ...ma’am I have no requests or needs from life anymore. So you get
it sweetling I was totally acting like a bitch around your birthday when I kind of know I should've done
as I planned and not listened to people .I am pretty sure you would've been thrilled .

I have been insisting and burdening you with my ever so enthusiastically emotionally romantic love
which I guess I never should have unleashed at once, bit by bit might've just done the trick , but yeah
i am wrong at that and I admit my guilt and there also is my ever flippant and pompous self which
always ends up making a fool of myself as much as I care to admit ..i am truly a dude who damn shy
when it comes to face to face confrontations and I'm as they do in the films I swear I am like one of
those confused and hopeless romantics who would do anything and everything to sustain love , the
only difference is that those people in the films ...they're quite good looking .

I have finally realized that love is something that can't be forced or can't happen in a jiffy and it takes
time and togetherness to flourish, I won't ever say that I don't really love you because that would be
making a fool of myself but I know for sure that this is going to take time to grow and almost exactly
like a plant..it won't grow and won't be able to survive if we don't connect and don't meet and spend
time together , so dude I really really want to know if you are interested in me I mean if you really like
me and if you don't then that's okay too ..Either ways I really don't want to lose a person as beautiful
and genuine as you.
Let me once for all tell you that I will always be your friend no matter whatever happens, even if I fight
with you don't even think twice calling me when you need help, I will always talk to you but might try
to get romantic and flirty so ignore that if you can .

Whatever may be the stakes you'll always find a friend* in me .

And if you want to stay mad at me then It hurts me but I got to tell you to do what you feel is
right and just remember in my heart you will be awaited , for you're the beat that makes it feel alive .

Untitled Note
For how long will my life be a solitary song

i need some one to tell me where I'm wrong ,

why have I been deemed unworthy of this sentiment

what sin have I done that needs such a dreadful atonement ,

I have always want to feel that closeness and love

and all I feel are clothes and my gloves

I want someone to cuddle and kiss

all life gives me is trouble and a diss

i want someone to pamper and tease

at that my life takes a cough and a sneeze ,

why is it like that I ponder

why am I so unloveable i wonder,

and a glimpse of the mirror tells me of my blunder ,

And that drives mind asunder,

with a face like mine i'm probably not entitled to it after all ,

yet I desperately desire to fall in love and that's all ,

And that reminds me of man's struggle since the dawn of time,

as like all I myself want what probably can't

ever be mine .
Untitled Note
my love for you is undying my dear,
I miss you with every breath and every tear
I remember of you fondly and with love
every single time I make tea on the stove
I curse myself and even gods for keeping us apart ,
and surprisingly you still hold the keys to my heart ,
With you gone my life has lost its way around,
happiness and vigour are now error 404 can't be found ,
waves of despair and gloom rock my sporadic imitation of life ,
And all I do is pray to the one above to help me resolve this strife,
I wish that the incoherence between us gets absolved
all our misunderstandings and confusions get resolved
and I be united with you forever my beloved .

Untitled Note
Love for me has turned into a paradox

it's like porridge from the story of goldilocks

should I delve into it's overrated pleasures

or let it be and lead a life of leisures

but the lure it has is unfathomably alluring

I feel fleeting impulses of continually devouring

this porridge of love is a bait too tantalizing

Untitled Note
just tell me why,

When I soared to touch the sky,

You pushed me down plumetting me till I struck the ground,

leaving me devastated with my soul savaged mind totally unsound.

just tell me why,

you broke the wings I needed to fly,

when I proclaimed my love to you,

I was totally sure yet inexperienced and new,

yet i was willing to love you till my heart ran dry,

For me you were my everything my earth and my sky.

tell me why,

You left me with hopes and hints of lies,

every second i think of you my heart cries,

though I look strong on the outside,

crumbling and eroding are my insides,

I beg you to tell me why,

you never told me that for you love is a game,

and now I have none but myself to blame,

for I loved you with the deepest veins of my heart,

but you played it as a game from the very start .

it was a cruel thing I inflicted on my own life,

I was the perpetrator behind all this strife,

I was naive and thought love was supposed to be divine,

and excited as I thought I had found someone whom I could truly call mine ,

but emotions are too complex for me to comprehend,

and even though i never had any intent to offend,

I think I have done something vile and wrong,

it's my fault that I loved you like they do in the songs,

it is my stupidity to have loved you with all I had got,

For believing what stories and songs had taught,

I know I am probably the biggest dunce,

And hence I ask for your forgiveness just this once.

but do tell me why I was not worth loving

do tell me what made deserving

of this chaos that Still keeps unfurling .

Untitled Note
I'm returning to the sheath that envelopes me

i have had plenty of light to feel and see

now I return to my tomb of darkness

like sword being sheathed back with finesse

enshrining the essence of negativity

eloping evading and escaping the sense of reality

I submerge myself back into my sea

the one that is.now seeping slowly inside me

these waters are darker than my eyes can probably see

I know of the darkness because of the way I feel

as these droplets of black get under my skin

they petrify all feelings and desires akin

as I sink deeper into this monochrome of waters

I clearly see and feel what in life really matters

With my sights set and desires gone

I can keep working without any scorns

for I had a heart once that kept seeking light

and now it has lost all its might

now it hides in me working on ash and dust

beating like a drum pumping blood till it rusts .

Untitled Note
why are hopes and dreams so brittle

they break and shatter as if made of crystal

when broken or crushed they splinter

and pierce your heart like invisible razors

causing aches which stay for years

smouldering inside and causing rains of tears

these shards often pierce the soul

and keep you from ever feeling whole

having hopes on one's own actions and work is good

But when you hope on others your life becomes crude

For ultimately we control none but ourselves

and when your hopes are beyond yourselves

on others and on things that you want to have

all you are doing is building your happiness a grave

for they are bound to spell your doom

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Well I know it's your special day

but pardon me when I say

this day is way more special for me

For an angel stepped into the world you see

With the beauty of starlight in her eyes

And cuteness that would make even the devil smile

With skin as fair as freshly fallen snow

And when she blushes she literally glows

this angel enters my life about a couple of months ago

and since then my heart has had a considerable blow

it's got blown away by your wit and snarkiness

and by your beauty and magnanimousness

you are truly an angel for me

you fill me up with positivity absolving my negativity

You fill my vacant soul with bouts of creativity

when I look at you I feel the world around me blur

And my dormant decadent feelings start to stir

And when of you I think

my heart and soul feel as if in sync

My dear you are the most beautiful of God's creations

And a beautiful cause of my own inspirations,

My heart yearns to steal you and keep you as my own prized possession

And with that I make my heart's confession

babe I know it just might be impossible for me to make you mine

but for me you're the reason my sun shines

you've become the curator of most of my emotions

its because of you that love for me has become Pmore than a notion

And hence today is truly the most special day for me

for today twenty years ago came in the world an elegant beauty

who now has filled my nights of gloom with days of serenity.

so here I am pouring out things that make my mind feel cozy

while wishing happy birthday to you my bumble bee .

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As the symphony of my life faced the gallows

My heart raced and sounded as if my insides were hollow

I glimpsed the face of my executioner

I felt as if I was gaping at a mirror

He was naught but me myself

With an intent of euthanizing oneself

But his face though resembled mine was oddly contorted

As if he was amidst a storm of chaos unprepared and unsorted

And then I looked at the one who was to command my death

And the sight of him made me lose my breath

For yet again I saw me

and this guy looked extraordinary

Shrouded by an armour of ego and pride

With his cold eyes windowing his icy insides

As if he had waded across his life

By stabbing his own emotions with a bloodthirsty knife

Not a glint of pity was there on his face

As if his journey had battered and scarred his grace

As they turned me away for the swing of the blade

I looked at the crowds and gradually felt my fear abrade

For the first time in my life my eyes could see clearly

The true cost of things for which I had payed dearly

Standing in the front of my demise

Were all my charades all my lies and all my crimes

And they were all me with my laughs cries cheers and smiles ,

But they were all different in their shouts and size ,

The white lies shouted out for my defence

Lost and tiny were ones which were done out of innocence

And then there were the ones which wanted me pay for my deeds

The atrocities I committed out of desire , lust , envy , wrath or greed

They thundered and screamed like savages

But I saw too few of these mighty angry faces

And many of the white lies and the confused ones

And Then the executioner covered my head

I knew that soon enough I would be dead

But then I heard the symphony of my life playing from the very start

And I was swept in the flurry of emotions that flowed from my heart

As the tale of my life concluded

For the swing of his mighty axe I waited

I heard the blade swishing and cutting through the air

And then with a snap my eyes lost their stare

I felt like I was sinking in a swamp of darkness

Inch by inch my existence sunk deeper in the black mess

I struggled harder still to escape the quicksand of emptiness

Only to realize that I was sinking in the negativity that I had spawned within

I let go of my struggles as I knew that I couldn't escape my sins

I finally accepted my follies and my tyrannies ,

Resented my sodden denamour and other insensitivities ,

And acceptance lead to something out of the blue and totally unforeseen ,

As i felt the darkness leave me I developed a white sheen

But I kept weeping for I knew what could've been

If I had lived a life free from the seven sins and without ever being mean .

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I am trying my hardest to keep calm and control myself ,

After all i have lost my heart to an angelic elf ,
For me this is an affair unimaginable ,
For I had locked my heart in a prison I thought was unbreakable,
As it had ventured to find love before in this cruel world ,
And was shattered into shards of despair as chaos unfurled,
As my heart cried and I myself broke like a crystal vial,
I gathered all the pieces of me and my heart almost going senile ,
As the pain I had wrought on myself was too dire,
I pledged not to ever again enter this emotional quagmire ,
Hence to strengthen my weak heart I built walls ,
With negativity I reinforced them so that not one of them ever falls,
And within i sentenced my heart to an imprisonment of solitude,
Though I grew with my heart caged I was forever In debt and gratitude,
For I was taught to forever be humble and respect people's attitude,
And always keep hidden my own disquietude ,
But time had different plans for what was to be,,
She moulded someone exactly like in my ,imaginations I would see ,
Like a poet she began my heart's rhyme with a similie ,
And it began it beautifully by bestowing you upon me,
You waltzed into my life like spring after a long winter,
Livening my wintry life with glowing embers and tinder,
I feel all my stress and problems resolve by just looking at you,
Your cuteness and sweetness refresh my faith on life anew,
I even start having faith on god praising his craftsmanship ,
I bet by looking at you even his heart beats would have had slip,
But the thing I love the most about you is just one,
You have a soul kissed by divinity yet care so much for everyone,
I respect you for your sincerity and sense of responsibility,
And my heart blushes like an idiot at every glimpse of your beauty,
I know well enough now that my feelings for you won't ever abate,
And I know that your love would be totally worth the wait,
And hence I shall await you for however long it takes,
In this blissful interim for the one for me god has himself made.

Unless you want me to go far away and not pester you ever again
Just say the words tell me to go away and I won't ever around you again.
All you need to do is just say and tell me clearly that I am insane.

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My beloved darling ,

You make my heart sing ,

Melodies of love and happiness ,

And hymns of your beauty and awesomeness ,

I myself earlier though that all I had was a crush ,

But I've realized that every thought of you makes me blush ,

Every mention of your name makes me turn cherry red ,

I have dreams of you and me snuggling on the bed ,

I know well that you're not like the other girls ,

You're the most beautiful diamond amongst coals ,

I also know that you probably think you're a mess ,

But it's only I who knows that you're the best ever largesse ,

Every time I tell myself not to pester you with my stupidity ,

But off late I've realised that this isn't stupidity But my own affinity ,

I am not certain if you ever had or have feelings for me,

But believe me when i say that every one of my life's melodies ,

Is a testament to my side of the many symphonies,

Only for you I have felt, embraced and composed ,

I know well that on emotions I am slightly overdosed ,

But then I believe if mountains could be moved by faith ,

Love surely has the power which to create .

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My blue eyed raven

Through the storms that brew atop the clouds

Eerily rumbling and flashing down to the crowds

You flew straight into my heart filling it with love

Though yourself you're darker than a midnight grove

My heart was a shade darker still

As if tainted by a gloomy quill

As if a melancholy being hummed by darkness herself

But you have now started making me feel quite unlike myself

My heart of black has now been sprinkled with spots of white

And it's now only you who in my heart shines bright

For I am overwhelmed but the beauty of nature you possess

You've probably been my life's best possible largesse

Your eyes are like gemstones from gods own abode

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Abominable love

Seeping in my veins are tears of distress,

For you gave me the best cynical largesse,
I am perplexed by how much you have to give,
And also at my own inability to forgive,
I have always wanted to make you my reason to live,
Instead you became the reason I grieve,
Crying wasn't ever my kind of solution to pain,
But it hurt so much that I went totally insane,
I tried my hardest to stop the tears that flowed ,
I couldn't because every part of my existence in pain bellowed,
As the lamentations of my heart echoed through my hollow body ,
I felt disgusted finding my own living queer and shoddy ,
I made resolutions to myself that night but all in vain ,
As a single glimpse of you started in me an avalanche of pain,
I feel so empty within like there is nothing inside of me ,
For I gave my heart and soul to you as I deemed you worthy
Trying to get back these things I lost is even tougher than it seems
The effort shreds my emotions and blends them as if a dream
surges of wrath , despair , misery and gloom are mostly all I feel
The worst is that the slurry of doom inside i just can't spiel ,
I know words just won't do justice to what I've been enduring,
This darkness makes me feel I am way past curing
And hence I've taken up the mantle of nihilistic loathing
For surviving this hot boiling mess my insides have been bleeding
I can't do much but hum the rhyme of love with a rhythm of gloom
As i keep marching towards my lonely and eternal doom.
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Love lost and found

I tried my hardest to keep calm and control myself

After I had lost my heart to an angelic elf ,

For me this was an affair unimaginable ,

For I had locked my hear in a prison I thought was unbreakable,

As it had ventured to find love before in this cruel world ,

And was shattered into shards of despair as chaos unfurled,

As my heart cried and I myself broke like a crystal vial,

I gathered all the pieces of me and my heart almost going senile ,

As the pain I had wrought on myself was too dire,

I pledged not to ever again enter this emotional quagmire ,

Hence to strengthen my weak heart I built walls ,

With negativity I reinforced them so that not one of them ever falls,

And within i sentenced my heart to an imprisonment of solitude,

Though I grew with my heart caged I was forever In debt and gratitude,

For I was taught to forever be humble and respect people's attitude,

And always keep hidden my own disquietude ,

But time had different plans for what was to be,,

She moulded someone exactly like in my imagination I would see ,

Like a poet she began my heart's rhyme with a similie,

And it began it beautifully by bestowing you upon me,

You waltzed into my life like spring after a long winter,

Livening my wintry life with glowing embers and tinder,

I feel all my stress and problems resolve by just looking at you,

Your cuteness and sweetness refresh my faith on life anew,

I even start having faith on god and keep praising his craftsmanship ,

I bet by looking at you even his heart would have had slip,

But the thing I love the most about you is just one,

You have a soul kissed by divinity caring so much for everyone,

I respect you for your sincerity and sense of responsibility,

And my heart blushes like an idiot at every glimpse of your beauty,

I know well enough now that my feelings for you won't ever abate,

And I know that your love would be totally worth the wait,

And hence I shall await you for however long it takes,

In this blissful interim for the one god himself for me has made.

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She is like the duchess of joy ,
And I a philanderer of sorrows,
But everything about her makes my heart fly

It's her heart and beauty I want to borrow,

Even her mention makes me blush and shy ,

I yearn to keep seeing her every yesterday and tomorrow,

I am certain that without her I'll surely die.
She means the world to me yet I am but a nobod,

A nobody that just wants his world to forever be happy ,

No matter what grief or pain is inflicted on his body ,

Not a thing should make his world feel down or sloppy ,

I know you'll never like me but i can always be that somebody ,

Whom you can trust and also keep talking whacky,

Who'll always be there to listen to your never ending melod,

Be it of fun , joy, melancholy or something uncannily tacky.

I know we've diverged on paths cynically different ,

But even in the bitterness my fondness for you has increased

Every moment of my life now feels total aberrant ,

My heart can only now forget ypu when it's beating will have ceased,

....

Will finish later

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Accursed freedom

What can one say about freedom,

It is a tragic thing that leads to martyrdom,

They define it as the liberty to do anything you want,

But hide the fact that it has it's own terms and conditions to rant,

When are we truly free after all,

Bound by moral and social responsibilities aren't we all,

When I fell In love I told her that I want her to be free,

But deep in my heart It's just that I wanted to see,

That How much love and care she bore for me,

Is it justified for anyone to be free I wonder,

Because freedom is just a term of slander,

As even if there were no rules or restrictions,

Memories and experiences cause major constrictions,

The only thing that can be truly free,

is the one that can have no memory,

For without the burden of the past to bear,

What in the world could anyone possibly fear,

Living in the present and cherishing every second of it,

Without leaving behind even a moment in the transit,

Worrying not about what treasures the future might hold,

Excited only about what the present will unfold,

Such is the beauty of the truest form of freedom ,

But sadly enough the concept is nothing but utopian .

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Building bridges just to burn them down

I have always been the happy go lucky kinda guy

Smiling at joys crying in sorrows living a total lie

The life I live is like a live action heist ,

I am living it for everyone else's delight

Entertaining people who I don't even know well

Just evading my conscience to another fabricated hell

My true self confronts me often and demands answers

I feel like I'm leading the life of a contrite necromancer

Who had chosen to resurrect the ones he loved and the act scarred him

For he realized that life and time cannot be toyed on anyone's whim

I like him tried to face the guilt I have borne since time immemorial

Tried to right the wrongs I had committed unintentional

And desiring the most to go back in time and change what I had done

So that the wreckage I bear the chains I am bound in could be undone

But alas it is like a page from a book of fantasy

I can't do anything but daydream about this fallacy

And keep up my pace as I run far away

From the monster that chases me every moment of every day

The monster seems to be running with a mirror I see

Because when I look back all I see is that I am running away from me

I will keep running from.myself till the day of convergence

And after that I'll burn all the bridges I made throughout in a furnace

For after I face the monsters of mine and make my peace

I will rise from the ashes like a flaming Phoenix

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I just wanna see her smile ,

When she does her beauty radiates for a million miles

That pretty face lights up like the night sky

Just seeing it makes my heart fly ,

That tiny muscle clench drives me senile,

And then to calm my heart down it takes a while

Her astonishing vibes pump me up to reach new heights

For.me it is foeever going to be the most beautiful sight

It makes me blush so hard that it can be seen from miles

I like her like the

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I done fucked up

Can't fuckin get up

Life's become like concrete

I find it too hard to breathe

Can't sleep can't get up

What in the world is this setup

I cry for reasons I don't know

Apparently my emotions are on the grow

Weed and cigarettes used to help me relax

Now I find that not doing them has a tax

This life is like a big hard dick

Raping me like I'm a use and throw chic

I done fucked up

I done fucked up

My parents made me behave real.good

I had to obey as they gave me all the food

I now have become a grown ass man

Who doesn't even know if love he can

I work and earn but have no crew

Inside me demons are cooling their own kind stew

I can't socialize can't show em who I really am

What is this what the fuck is God's plan ,

What am I to do if life keeps fuckin me from behind

Can't move forward as I've been rendered blind

Can't see up Can't see down I ain't even sure if I am.still on the ground ,

Looking straight ahead I see nothing

Why did they make directions so fuckin confusing!

I see myself down this crazy zig zag road of life

Surrounded by goons and having only strife

What trickery does this mind of.mine use

I myself am the one who usually blows his own fuse

I create the problems and get trapped within

Life on mine is like a fuckin garbage bin

Oh my god upliftment is what I want

I want a life about which I can flaunt

Show off is apparently some what of a sin

But it sure looks lavish when seen from a garbage bin

I keep crying for what has already happened

The vibrant life of mine has now gotten totally dampened

Man I'm done fucked up

Life's become too hard for me to give up

I can't sleep but now will get up

Oh my god I totally am done fuckin up !

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As the storm of darkness passed away

The darkness parted leaving behind smudges if Gray

It felt good to finally see past the obscurity

I signed with relief as this felt like the end of insanity

The world was totally new for me

There were smudges of darkness everywhere I could see ,

But I beat the storm and lived to be free

I hence proclaim out loud that there's is a #miracle in me !

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Ad the lore had foretold the time had come

For the whole world to unite as one

The moment had demanded just that

If they don't civilization annihilation would become a fact

Seconds into the breach they had not a clue

That their tiny world could've been saved if their asses together they glue

Insanity reigned as the enemy approached

The one who with darknes could havoc unfold

People ran in havoc and in fear of their fury

Like rats on fire they started to scurry

They looked around trying to escape their once humble abode

As the ones above stared at them with eyes icy cold ,

It pained them as they saw their brethen in such punity

They were advanced and their fellows upheld their agony

For the enemy had faced the major threat a whole before

And if they didn't help the puny mankind destruction was assured

They wanted them together and scaring them was the only way

They wha

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The shards of love had got my heart splintered,

They had my entire routine palpably hindered,

I counted seconds and breaths to see her smile,

I was tirelessly in pursuit of her desiring to be servile,

She was a woman whose attitude was close to a tragedy,

Gracefulness was in her yet she expressed it with brevity,

Everyone saw her child like attitude and immaturity ,

But my eyes perceived her like a divine entity,

She was once the goddess I yearned to pray to,

As an atheist praying is not something I ever do ,

Yet her smile and her twinkling eyes had worked their magic on me,

And for weeks everywhere she was all i could see ,

Then came the fist time I found myself in a swell ,

My anxiety had heightened as she told me she was unwell,

It was the first time I grew wary for someone not related to me,
For my anxieties had always been concerning only my family,

I knew for once that what I had for her was more than substantial ,

I thought it would be best to confess and be real rather than artificial,

And that was the greatest folly I could've ever committed ,

For only then I knew what from me had my past eradicated,

A sense of sanity and stability was missing in my characteristics,

It had dulled my mind of patience and sharpened my instincts,

I realized only then that my phase of depression took away more than it gave,

It's all thanks to her that now I know that I am bound to have a lonesome grave ,

I grieved my insolence and laughed at my expectations,

As I removed the splinters one by one as dawned on me a realization,

I am after all cursed by the will of my own denamour,

And love is something though I crave but can't ever savour ,

As i am a cynical and whimsical troubadour ,

Bound to not land not love and not anyone or anything alive,

If there is something I am bound to its only to the solitary song of my life.

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A chapter of my life has almost finished

The chapter from the bottom of my heart I had cherished

I for once had never wanted it to end

I wished that with it my life too would've have come to an end

Brushing through the memories I had made

I realize what egoistic and stupid things I had said

And curse the one above for giving us a heart along with a brain

One of them can keep you sane and the other drive you totally insane

These opposites are right within us and make us whole

And each of them have their own taxes and their own toll ,

I realized a bit too late that I had confused their jobs,

I had my heart think and decide and while my brain was concocting sobs

And thus my sanity had gone to the dogs as I thought with emotions

While in my blood the brain kept pumping endocrine concoctions

When things fell out of place my heart panicked like crab on fire

And my mind realized that the trouble that had beem created was too dire

As things got strewn askew and from the frying pan into the flames

Sanity took mercy on me and gave me a w

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I've always been able to run away from the demons that chase me,

For I try to keep my self as far from.them as I could possibly be,

But today when the distances waned and I was stranded alone,

With a heart heavy and a soul drenched to the very bones,

Shattered and broken I forgot my plans to keep them at bay,

They broke the distances that had always kept me away,

and to my surprise they comforted me and dulled my pain,

My heart was heavy and my soul still wept yet some of it they did drain,

My demons went by the name of loneliness and depression,

And instead of evil they seemed to have very noble intentions,

Though i knew they thrived on the poisons that were brewing inside,

They were the only ones there when I desperately wanted someone by my side,

They swallowed me whole and took me into the darkness that I hated,
My senses were numb and eyes couldn't see yet my dislike of it abated,

As without the sight to see what can could or should have been,

There was no jealousy envy or regret or hatred for any being,

Without the sensation of feeling,

your presence lost all Its meaning,

Without the ability to hear or perceive,

the sweetness of your voice stopped giving me relief,

All my senses were drowning in a vat of darkness ,

Yet not one of them lost the thought of you my grace ,

But in the conundrum sanity was confined in the box of my mind,

And dreamt only of you all the time throughout the grind,

In hopes of finding you as my rescuer from the darkness that kept swallowing me,

My heart yearned for it kept chanting your name as of on a spree ,

Yet you never heard my cries or came to my aid,

As I watched my hopes burn , crumble and degrade ,

And now I shall live my life without a heart,

For It had lost itself to you from the very start,

All I have is a body and mind fueled by darkness and despair,

I'll keep surviving till this too as my soul falls into disrepair.

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I have travelled far and wide ,

Kept moving to and from along with the tides

My path has always been riddled with hurdles,

But till now I had never been ever burgled,

Wandering around digesting the slow poison of time,

I came across a woman who's beauty was beyond sublime,

Transcending even the beauty of the moon and stars,

And witty enough to make anyone look like an arse,

I couldn't believe my eyes and stood dumbfounded like a mime,
Mumbling on my insides that being so beautiful should truly be a crime,

And crime it was as she stole my heart in all but a few meetings,

She was a kleptomaniac who stole nothing but my heart without knowing,

And I was still looking for my voice as my soul kept bellowing,

I couldn't fathom to tell her about what inside me was brewing,

If this is love why is it so sweetly confusing !,

Why is it like a drug which I simply fail at resisting ,

Why does it feel like without you it just isn't worth existing .

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I am guilty of what i've done,

I couldn't help myself and this sure can't be undone,

I care for you for I am in love with your soul,

And never to lose you is my only goal,

I am deathly scared that you might cut me out of your life one day,

And that moment on my sunlit days will turn into all dark greys,

Gloom will pound on my door like a cop with a warrant,

And only misery and despair will be served at all restaurants,

Away from you my life is a charade of wanton eccentricities,

All done with an intent of getting you to talk again with me,

Please my sweetling accept my humblest apologies,

Just be by my side and for you I'll change the world starting from me.

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I've tripped once again into the well of pain
I crawled out of it before and tried hard to remain sane

I tried fitting in amongst the ones I knew

I fit in too well and that pushed my life askew

I lived like an animal filthy and downtrodden

My morals were high yet

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I weep these words out of the bottom of my heart ,

I curse myself as I lack the wit to make love start

Tears roll down my insides as they singe my soul,

These emotions I bear for you are taking a heavy toll

I am.but a man with a heart naive as a kid

It has auctioned me off to you at your bid

These feelings I have are all brand new

And they have arisen completely out of the blue

KYet my mind is a bit out dated and sort of slow

Yet it keeps playing the melody that make these feelings grow

At your name my heart falters and a smile lights up my face

My heart wants to devote itself to you my grace ,

But I lack the courage to admit my crush on you

For I fear the most that I just might hurt you

I swear on my soul that i'd never let you down

For I swear fealty to you as you wear my hearts crown

Why is it so difficult for me to confront myself I wonder

Is it the fear of making a fuss and causing a blunder

But alas my lack of experience in these matters gloats at me

And the realization of my ineptitude and ignorance dawns on me

And finally i underatand it all when I look at you

Its just because I'm merely a timid little mortal compared to the angel that is you.
And curse the creator for making me so apart

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It's truly like dream come true ,
A lady as serene as a mountain least dew,
With the perfect attitude to flaunt ,
And gracefulness that cuts short any taunt,
My wonder you're so beautiful and cute,
And that's the truth complete and astute,
You sing like an angel of paradise,
Yet are so humble and incredibly nice,
Where had you been till this fortunate day ,
Luckiest man alive I am I must say,
You're entry into my life marked the end of gloomy days,
For now I've got amazing company for my charades and forays ,

My life till now had never seen more beautiful days

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Time has proven it to me once again ,
I am just not meant to bear this pain ,
The essence of love is missing from my life ,
And it is the reason for my grief and strife,
I yearn for it like a wolf for it's beloved moon ,
I just wanted someone upon whom I could swoon ,
After all I am a sensitive creature of thought and emotion,
Ruthless as time is it wants me to go along with the motions,
My heart hardly ever beats for anyone,
For it suffered when it had lost itself to someone,
When I was younger and days were all but sublime,
I had the heart to call someone mine,
But it was never my intent to fall in love,
But it was my heart that fluttered off like a dove,
Innocent and white overflowing with love and affection,
I was rejected as if I were a ghastly affliction,
With my heart turning to ice I walked away,
Crumbling within as my insides turned grey,
None but time had come to the funeral of my emotions,
She convinced me to get along with the motions,
I fell to the sway of this dame called time,
Acting on her demands like an enslaved mime,
Bear in mind I did it all of choice,
For my heart and mind were anything but nice,
Years went on as I flowed like a ship dancing on the waves,
With no man aboard i sailed towards my solitary grave,
And on my way I saw something that revived my long dead emotions,
A glimpse of you lured me out of my trance of motions,
After a decade I felt something beating inside of me,
As my eyes met yours and heart felt that yours it should be,
This frozen heart had finally begun to melt,
For it was the warmth of affection it had just felt,
But that affection was only on the inside of me,
But it made my dead soul feel alive with a hint of glee,
I knew that I wanted to be with you for the best of my life,
Keep you forever happy and your face lit up by a smile,
like a wolf to the moon i yearned again,
But then remembered even the moon wanes,
For you are an angel with thoughts of your own,
A past from which you have so beautifully grown,
My dear i am sorry for in solitude I've been too long,
And it only played my ideas and my own gloomy song,
I remembered In time that feelings might be anything but mutual,
And my confession of love to you could have been quite brutal,
But I tell you that my love for you has put me in a bind,
And my stupid heart has proven that love is truly blind,
Time has come to
rescue once again,
Goading at my emotional pain,
And dragging me back to the sea of life,
Where I shall sail again to my grave now without any strife.

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I see her walk pompously on the road,

Looking for trouble and trouble she'll goad,

And my heart wonders if this is real or a fantasy,

A world with such a beauty is surely a fallacy,

For this lady was like a creation of tales and dreams,

A dame the aura of whose in darkness gleams,

Like a beacon of hope with light nurturing and divine,

Whose excitement is adorable and truly sublime,

I am amazed by her to the strums of my heart,

She's like a roller coaster ride from end to start,

She's truly a hottie and a cutie at the same time,

But always will she deny appreciaitions with a hint of a smile,

Guts she has to battle even the almighty,

And I assure you that battle will end violently,

Her talk and explanations are like the milk of poppy,

It shuns away negativity and makes the soul truly happy,

Lucky are those who are just acquainted with her,

The ones she calls her friends are even more luckier,

She is surely a lady one of a kind,

And anyone who she'll love will be in for a grind,
But damn he will be the luckiest man alive,
As with happiness herself he'll get to survive,
So I beg her to let go of her stupid anxiety and tension,
For I assure her that hearts skip beats when her name is in mention,
Be proud of yourself is all ,my dear I have to say,
Although you meet us at night you still light up my day.

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My heart has proven itself again that it's innocent as ever ,

For it has found you to he smart sensible and clever ,

I know not if the other side is as beautiful as I believe it to be ,

Us together is a sight I desperately wanna see,

Now all I do is fear losing you because of my stupidity ,

Because I don't ever want to hurt you or your sentimentality ,

My lady I fear to confess that i have a massive crush on you ,

And for me these feelings are definitely new and out of the blue ,

But I am so scared and apprehensive as if I am mighty wrong ,

And just a secondary note in your lifes song ,

But god I dream sometimes of us together ,

And feel like paradise is here forever ,

In my arms I have the angel I had been looking for ,

Her eyes locked into mines as she expresses her love for this whimsical troubadour .

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I sense a reverberation living inside of me

It plays faster when i am in glee

And slow and dull when I feel low

But it's beats never seem away to.go ,

It waxes and wanes with things I feel and the things i see

Often i find it to be more trouble than worth

Although it sometimes let's me enjoy some mirth

It weighs but a couple of pounds

But now is heavy enough to quake grounds
Lately this piece of me has been weighing me down,

It's like it is already tired of making my life's sound

As it's wariness grows i bear more pain

And it probably will extinguish itself in vain

For it yearns for the nectar which it has been denied

That essence that would surely spread the warmth inside

The warmth of love it desperately to live it needs

Stabbed by icy shards of solitude it currently bleeds

Beating like an old broken record stuck in time

waiting wantonly to end it all and jump the line

Or for someone to help it play the next beautiful rhyme .

It's my heart which yearns for love I mean

I thirst for it with My intentions clean

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What have you done my friend

My life is now swooning over you without any end

The feelings I had buried way back in my ninth grade,

Have Now startled me by rising back from the dead ,

Till before I met you my life was mundane and heart stagnated,

You entered and made everything jump with joy and happily agitated

I am amazed by you and your astounding personality

Your presence in my life make hurdles feel like trivialities

What magic do you possess I keep wondering

I am so lost thinking about you that into walls I keep blundering,

I have never been captivated by anyone like this ever before

And even though we hangout almost every night my heart keeps longing for more

You sure have put me under a spell ending my monotonus tranquillity

Now my heart pumps adrenaline fueling our stunning insanities

I just pray for one wish of mine to come true

That you also have the same feeling for me as I have for you

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What happened when the sea fell in love with the sky

It thrashed around in fury because the distances were nigh

It bellowed it's yearning to it's one true love

It ravaged creating storms to meet and kiss her beloved

The sky reciprocated with it's arrows of light

Shooting bolts of love down to the one he idolized

Dropping his tears for his heart cried

Wailing and shouting as the separation set his insanity alight

The two fought with god for keeping them apart

He could do nothing but cry out even his own heart

For he knew not what beauty in his creations he had sown

As he parted with them giving them a mind of their own

And in the middle stood what was life and land

Caught in the turmoil of two lovers separated by wind and sand

Their longing for each other was evident by the storms they laid

Tornadoes and cyclones were their everyday charades

Belittled felt all life as they suffered between their might

As the wildest forces known to all ravaged to unite

As chaos reigned All humanity's mettle was put to test

And It used it's mind and by all means did it's best

As the forces played it didn't abrade

And survived making it's great escapade

But what of the two lovers separated by all

They still look for their final convergence

And finally god promised them their deliverance

When the time is at it's end and earth near it's demise
The world will be born afresh as the sea finally embraces the sky .

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I see the people from my generation so self obsessed
They prance about like only they themselves are blessed
Love for them is a term for copulation and nothing more
Alas for them lost is the real meaning of amour
What do they possibly know of the depth of this bottomless emotion

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I ran from place to place in search of love

I searched everywhere from.the ground below to the skies above

But never could I find what I had always wanted

My emotions were always taken for granted

It's like the doors of Amor had slammed on my face

Made me a hopeless romantic but never game me the grace

It's not for bodily pleasures I actually crave

It's for feeling of being adored and cared I crave

It's almost like an older god shaped my mind and soul

This world isn't what he thought was like not at all

He shaped me for a beautiful time lost in the past

Where hearts made connections that would forever last

I may be born into this world anew and afresh

Seems like my soul is old but not my flesh

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I fall short of words describing my attachment to you my dear,
For I find it impossible to pen down things that are so distinctly unclear

It's only because of you my life is devoid of any sanity,

Now filled only with fun , joy craziness and joviality

I am so grateful to the powers that brought us together

That now my longing for a sibling has been forgotten forever

It's impossible for me to express the love I have for you,

For you add the essence and the spice to my life's brew

Thanks for the love and companionship you bestow upon me

I gladly say this

"I know I will always have friend in you and you in me"

Happy friendship day amigo .

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This life is but a long walk from birth to death

And time observes us with it's every breath ,

Staying with us as we grow from young to old,

It staying forever the same just growing bold,

As it grows weary of its penchant observance ,

This boon of life becomes the bane of existence

Life can be so

All I need is your support loveand companionship

Your presence will surely make life a wonderful trip,

We all know well that our endgame is set in stone,

And I really don't want to walk these miles all alone.

What is life but a long walk from birth to death

And as time passes we end up counting breaths

But this walk of mine shall always be filled with serenity and bliss
For I have my friends and I cherish their companionship

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Darkness always swirls like a tornado on full bloom

It is an impending an ineveitible doom

But the beauty of it is unseen and unbound

It uproots the weak from the grasp of the ground

Wrecks havoc and chaos like the devil's wrath

Changes everything that falls in its path

It rages for limited time and makes changes unforeseen

The time when it ravages like a storm of shadow ,

It Makes tears form even inside one's marrow

For it opens doors that should have been left closed

It creates a hollow which cannot be ever made whole

It burns a parts of your mind and extinguishes certain emotions

And it cannot truly be healed with even the best of potions

It has an impact on everything you see and perceive

Leaves it's imprint on almost every idea you conceive

But it does free you of its grasp after a while

When you are at your lowest and decide to make the climb

For even in its villainy it's one of the greatest allies

It churns out the best things from your life

And though it turns your warmth into waves of ice

in the end it wipes the slate of mind makes it fresh and clean
Initiates the protocol for new beginnings
And releases your mind from mundane confusings

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Darkness of the blues shy away at the sight of my smile ,

What could I even say about the light that flows from within

Its ignites me and my soul

Like burning embers and shining coals

It fills me with fire the likes of which can't be extinguished

For I now live with the memoirs of a different life

A fragrance of the petrichor of another world

And I keep all of it locked in my heart

Just to revisit it when time moves slow

Or I feel like the the sun in its full fro

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It's a fools charade for me to write ,

To provide my own rhythmic insight ,

When it's not at all required ,

Why should I continue on this path with no future ,

And now I believe this wound needs suture,

And hence I now renounce my love for words ,

For people have made me believe my ardor is fake and absurd

I know my mind is as fickle a thing as time itself

I shall weave my verses again but now only for myself,

I will bleed words again But they shall never see the light of your eyes

For once I know that only my ears will listen when my heart cries.

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In my life devoid of much enthusiasm ,

I want someone to give my soul an orgasm ,

Someone who's presence makes me feel alive ,

That someone who drives my heart senile ,

I am but a kid with the soul of a being ancient as time ,

Lost in the present fumbling for a future and hoping for it to be divine ,

I wonder if I will ever meet someone whom I could truly call mine .

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I hardly know anything about you my dear ,
For me you're like a horde of treasure,
Locked away and guarded by a big bear ,
The bear is a testament to the walls you've erected ,
From the concrete of pain and misery on you the world has inflicted ,
But just bear in mind the world isn't all that bad as you see ,
It also has people who are naive and caring like me,
When I tried to meet your eyes last night ,
I met walls in them I just couldn't fight
But I found some holes in the walls to see,
I saw an angel who only just wanted to be set free,
Free from burdens she bore the pain she has always owned,
I knew in a jiffy that this wasn't what she ever deserved ,
yet my heart knew I wasn't the one who could break the walls she'd made,
It wasn't anyone but herself who could make the walls abrade,
And out of nowhere came the bear again ,
Shoving me away trying to save her from anymore pain ,
And there I was reasoning with a bear as if I were insane ,
It shoved me away and all my explanations went in vain ,
His actions did nothing but strengthen my resolve ,
It was love , care and affection that just might make her troubles absolve,
And then it like a gong on a bell struck my stupidity to me ,
I am but a nobody to help her or set her free,
I am just a man with the heart of a kid wanting to see everyone happy ,
Just a ranger of solitude with a mission of hypocrisy,
Just a soul himself being stewed in the brew of his life
Balancing everything on what feels like the blade of a knife ,
But I know what I need to get out if this blue ,

Exactly indeed the same thing she needs too,

Note @ Ahmedabad, Gujarat

I heard a cry of sorrow in middle of the night,

It sounded so heavy that it gave me fright,

As fear flooded me I bolted upright

Trying to figure out who was it that ruined this quiet

Alas the darkness was ensnaring

But my curiosity too was endearing

Ignoring my wits I tried to catch some sleep

But this mystery started making my mind weep

My inquisitiveness got the better of me

I decided to go out, investigate and see

Armed with a mobile and only my wits

I decided it was better to know than call it quits

So began my investigation in the starkness

And I lit up my flashlight to investigate in the darkness

As I peeped out through the window

I realized I could see a face as if an afterglow

Spooky as this was what happened next was scarier still

As after this night I would for seven days be quite ill

A voice quivered making the air itself freeze

And it spoke softly as if whispering a breeze

It was a she who whispered words kind and wise

She wanted me to resolve my own inner strife,

Her visit was from another world a different dimension

But her words strangely soothed my confusions

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Depression is a battle they always say ,
But little do they know how charming is it's sway ,
To fall for it is almost a divine pleasure ,
It's like getting lost in a dark world forever ,
People assume that the darkness is always an enemy ,
something that corrupts and causes soulful felony ,
But what if I tell you it feels to me like my greatest ally ,
A realm of haunts upon which I can always rely ,
What faith can I have upon humanity I say,
When I see the presence of evil in them as clear as night and day ,
I can smell the stew they're brewing in ,
For their spices are the seven deadly sins ,
Greed lingers in most of their hearts ,
For things precious their eyes smart ,
Lust is seen in every one of their eyes,
Rape and horniness cliche their lives ,
Gluttony for not just food they bear ,
It's like only for themselves they care ,
Envy is intertwined with their intent ,
Competitions they have never leave them content ,
Pride they have on things that never truly matter ,
On their lineage their caste and colour they proudly blabber ,
I don't say I am free of these demons myself ,
But the ones above don't ring any of my bells ,
It is wrath I bear for the sight I see from my cynical vision ,
I can clearly see free will is a facade for this global prison,
People are manipulated and themselves manipulate others ,
Perished it seems has the concept of brothers ,
Well another sin that clings to me is that of sloth ,
For I feel there is no need for wiping mud with a clean cloth ,
Why cross paths with craziness and get in insanity's way,
When you know well that it will surely drive your own sanity astray,
And hence I stay shrouded by my ally ,
Who actually has captured my ability to trust and rely,
It's the One that takes my false hopes away ,
It shows me blacks from whites without the charade of grays ,
And I can keep myself though broken and afraid ,
From the tyranny that commoners don't know but truly dread .

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He acts like a child they always said,
Butt off all jokes he was always made
Little did they know what made him so,
None but a few wondered why he was so,
It was only he who knew why the child in him still lived ,
And it was something for which his soul dearly grieved,
The child in him had witnessed something terribly gruesome,
It was the murder of a man who he would've become ,
The Man Who lived a short life of despair and misery ,
Who battled and lost to a demon that led to this tragedy ,
His battle was within a battle for peace ,
He lost to it his soul piece by piece ,
His foe was a demon called depression ,
It made him crumble within without any agression ,
He couldn't bear the pain of his existence ,
And paved the way for what he wanted to be his salvation,
The man within then left the wheel and took to the shadows ,
He feared that his wrath may lead many to their gallows ,
He stood back for he feared his sanity would be questioned again ,
Although his scarred soul was all but insane ,
He knew his will and judgement would be called for aid ,
For now the one who was in control just looked and behaved as a kid ,
Yet his eyes bore the look of a soul who had seen it all,
The child knew but didn't want to understand it at all ,
All he wanted was to live laugh and smile.,
Live a life devoid of fears and everything banal,
Yet the others want to take even that away from him.

If only they knew what forces he could release at his whim.

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My life has always been turbulent,
unusually devoid of sentiment ,
Filled with vestiges of humanity ,
Surviving in these tragic marshes of reality,
Wearing a smile when I couldn't afford a tear,
Usually succumbing to my solitary fear,
In this greyness of my mundane life ,
You unknowingly came in as the brightest light,
Your one act of love and kindness, dissolved all my tears and wryness ,
My balefully remorseful life was turned around ,
For the first time in years i felt truly sound,
And the greyness faded into a blissfully sunlit day,
It was truly the best thing one has ever done for me ,
You have literally set me tumbling with glee,
Fumbling for words to thank you and trying hard not to blush ,
I'm lost in gratitude and my brain's become mush,
For its falling short of words to express my feels,
The heart which was once bound in steels ,
Has for once broken free and is gloating with glee ,
Thanks to you my life once which was filled with marshes of reality ,
Is now blooming with meadows filled with flowery trees of serenity.

Sam
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Here's one to all the beauties today,
The ones who'll always have their way,
With their ideas of cuteness and angelic grace ,
The ones with exquisitely expressive face ,
The ones who knock us out with their charms,
For they are the ones who make this world make sense ,
Complete it with their love and their awesomeness,
Here is one to all the women ,
The world would be obnoxiously weird without your acumen ,
May your life flourish and you always make hay,
I with heartfelt gratitude wish you a
Happy women's day !

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What am i but prison of shackled emotions ,
All my yearning, simply an impulse ,
And my earning , out of sheer ignorance,
My insides are a chaotic infusion,
Of the poisons that are generated by these shackled emotions,
I try now and then to free them so that they do me no harm ,
But it feels like they themselves have lost to my inner storms,
I feel thwarted by my own emotions most times ,
For i fear trusting them and dread their impulsive chimes,
I know this lack of faith is killing me inside , But how do i trust these hurtful demons that keep
ravaging my insides ,
Or should i just numb myself against their wrathful tides,
This dilemma of mine trumps it all ,
For How do i rid myself of these sentiments
The ones that define me and make me what i am ,
But wouldn't it change me if i embrace them ,

Wouldn't that redefine what i truly am ?

Untitled Note
I weep for the scars of my soul ,
The ones that stop me from ever feeling whole ,
Their depths are filled with memories so vivid ,
They torment my soul and make it go livid ,
Despair misery and remorse are all I seem to have ever possessed ,
Even my soul seems to have forgotten the feel of ever being caressed ,
Whenever I try and contemplate the meaning of this life ,
My soul and mind with his have a strife ,
I scream and shout at these walls of my mind ,
Trying desperately to contemplate with my daily grind ,
For I forever yearn to leave it all behind,
But every time I am left with one question in mind,
Why create me when there exist already so many of my kind ,
Why let em loose in this world where everyone has eyes yet is totally Blind .

Sam

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My life has always been turbulent,
unusually devoid of sentiment ,
Filled with vestiges of humanity ,
Surviving in these tragic marshes of reality,
Wearing a smile when I couldn't afford a tear,
Usually succumbing to my solitary fear,
In this greyness of my mundane life ,
You unknowingly came in as the brightest light,
Your one act of love and kindness, dissolved all my tears and wryness ,
My balefully remorseful life was turned around ,
For the first time in years i felt truly sound,
And the greyness faded into a blissfully sunlit day,
It was truly the best thing one has ever done for me ,
You have literally set me tumbling with glee,
Fumbling for words to thank you and trying hard not to blush ,
I'm lost in gratitude and my brain's become mush,
For its falling short of words to express my feels,
The heart which was once bound in steels ,
Has for once broken free and is gloating with glee ,
Thanks to you my life once which was filled with marshes of reality ,
Is now blooming with meadows filled with flowery trees of serenity.

Sam
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Do not fall for people like me ,
For when we fall we fall hard you see,
We forget our lives for the sake of yours ,
Try and resolve and make own all your troubles ,
Live like a clown and make a fool of ourselves ,
Just To see you smile as that gives us happiness ,
We will live for your love regardless of our aspirations,
Your happiness becomes our prioritized intuition,
But it isn't easy to trip us into falling for you,
For we seek honesty and chemistry before all,
We believe our love is a gift and not deserved by all !

~Sam

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In a place anachronistic and dead at night,
There was just a grave and nothing else in sight,
The name it read was utterly idiosyncratic,
It just seemed preposterous and utterly pragmatic,
For how could it possibly be possible,
A literal existence of personification of the improbable ,
Yet it read and boldly too as if it feared nothing ,
Not even what it claimed inside it was resting ,
But the jest seemed too uncanny and intriguing,
And the mystery that shrouded it got my curiosity arousing,
I waited a while but in vain ,
I wondered whether this'll be a boon or bane,
But with my heart and mind captivated ,
I leaned on the headstone and waited ,
Suddenly I felt the darkness swirling ,
And I tumbled in a world quite amusing ,
And then it happened as she spoke to me ,
Why young traveller your curiosity is imbuing ,
And your fascination could be your undoing,
Scared yet amazed a stood there gaping ,
As the world around me started rippling,
And in a jiffy it all seemed to stop ,
The world seemed dead as dead as rock,
She stood before me in an angelic guise,
It was a sight divine it brought tears to my eyes,
Yet I stood there gaping dumbfounded like a mime,
A reality from the poems a living personification of time

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With a lovely song to sing,
Without beginnings or an ending
No title to clip your wings ,
No conclusion to end your soaring
A life without marriage would be a world afresh,
With a regard for love but not commitments ,
Love would be a pursuit for happiness not a punishment,
And life would revolve around your desire without room for resentment.

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I had fallen in love when I was very young,
When my stories where unheard and ballads unsung,
I fell in love with the kind of person she was ,
a strong confident woman fighting life for her just cause,
Her strength inspired me and her laughter left me breathless
My love for Her got me more drunken than a barrel of Guinness
I loved her deeply and yet was dumbly apprehensive,
I was scared of hurting her of confessing and seeing her on the offensive,
And hence even before I could call her my friend,
She left my life with her new boyfriend!
And I was left heartbroken and all alone,
Shivering with new found remorse to the bone,
I barred myself behind walls of hatred and numbness ,
Awaiting to see who would help me out of my loneliness,
I thought my walls hid the world outside from my insides ,
But I was terribly mistaken for it truly hid me from the world outside,
I sat alone inside from dawn to dusk and from dusk to dawn ,
Like a damsel in distress always looking woebegone ,
Time went by but my walls did not abrade ,
I was tired and famished from all this wait,
And hence my mind conjured a gentle stranger ,
From the depths of my imagination came my rescue ranger ,
She introduced herself as my own solitude ,
Addictive and lovable was her attitude,
And I was resolved of my self inflicted tyranny,
My baleful life was inverted comically,
Yet my walls stayed still like pillars of a beautiful lore ,
And I finally felt alone no more !

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A peck on the cheek Or a bite on the lips,
An expression of affection A feeling of true bliss ,
It means so much an is yet so little
And is a moment of passion yet very brittle,
That moment of amour and of true animalistic grace,
the closeness in that entranced embrace ,
My Yearning to forever drown in those beautiful eyes ,
And feeling humbled and thanking the starry skies,
The feel of joy and the taste of pleasure,
Mixed with the ecstasy of lustful treasure,
It Makes my heart go warm and start to rumble,
It starts an avalanche of passionate emotions,
And makes me realise my fondness for her presence ,
It makes me want to be her forever ,
And keep reliving this moment over and over ,
All I wish is to make her mine for all of eternity
So that her love keeps me sane in this ocean of insanity.
I wish to make and keep her forever happy ,

So that I be the one living truly happily !

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Who are you ?
Behind that scintillating smile,
The one that drives me senile,

Who are you ?

Behind that lustrous face
With immense beauty and angelic grace

Who are you ?

Behind those twinkling eyes
That lay waste to the beauty of starry skies

My heart beats faster at your smiles ,

I love you like Mr Scrooge love his gold piles,
Yet I go so nervous in your vicinity,
My mouth goes numb and heart so jittery,

I dream of taking you out every single night,

And sit just looking talking and laughing with you all night,
I wake with a smile on my face ,
After all I dream just of you my grace,

I will treat you like my queen I swear,

Yet talking to you seems like my greatest fear,
I know naught who you are ,
But you make the butterflies in my stomach play dashing cars!

So I beg you my sweetling my brightest star ,

Tell me my love who you truly are?

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My dreams were lost in the sands of time,
In the rush of ambition That naught was mine ,
I lost my childhood in pursuit of gleeful rhymes,
Pranking around and laughing all the time,
Then the laughter died away with terrible remarks
On a vaguely interesting report cards,
That card seemed astutely momentous,
It seemed to be a cipher to my own life's purpose,
My marks decided the fate of my future,
What to pursue and what skills to nurture ,
And my dreams were lost for the first,
Lost in the sands of time

Childhood gave way to an insolent fool

Who thought only of fanciness and what'd be cool ,
Trifling his future in blissful ignorance,
Ranting and raving full of unfounded arrogance
My decisions were all lured by attraction

No thought or counselling abated my witless actions,

And yet again I perished in the battle of examinations!

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He walked his nights all alone,
Drenching himself in thoughts to the bone,
His mind buzzed with ideas unfathomable,
He loved his solitude with a thirst unquenchable,
He loved to get Lost in his imagination and memories,
To feel loved and adored in his imagined stories,
The world had shamed him for his selflessness ,
But he cared not for this world and it's hopelessness,
He was despaired by the hatred of the one he loved
He was deeply saddened when her standards doubled,
He fell in love with his solitude
For in his world there was no latitude nor any longitude,
It didn't long for any vacations and only had gratitude
His love for his solace changed completely his attitude,
His peace made no promises and broke none,
Truly blissful his silence always was golden,
It stood by him letting him focus on his life,
It caused him no misery ,worry or strife,
And he went on ahead singing along the song of his life.

Sam

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Aloft the balcony up so high,
Where the night gloated with velvet skies,
The darkness shied at the sight of your eyes,
Dark velvet skies and your beautiful eyes,

Your eyes made The stars go timid ,

Yet the night remained Vivid,
I wanted to get buried in the depth of your eyes,
Velvet skies and your beautiful eyes.

For me time had stopped eternally,

I wanted to live in this moment perpetually,
Your love lit up my life with a million joys,
Velvet skies and your beautiful eyes,

Sam

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Light has vanished darkness has spread
With Velvety black the canvas is smeared
There ain't no room for a spot o white ,
As hope has lost all its might ,
To mine dismay , despair is everywhere,
Everything has fallen into disrepair
A glimmer or light was all that we sought,
but alas it was only in our thoughts,
Death darkness fear prevails, a
and the reaper stands near every gate,
All sights have lost all their beauty , for the eyes really have lost their sight,
From where shall light ever rise ,
for the depth of this darkness cannot be scrutinized,

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The night roared quietly,
The clouds moved Swift
And there in the midst of the ocean, sailed a lonely ship,
Not a man aboard, not a single soul,
Still the lonesome ship sailed bravely into the depth of the nightly sky, ,
And then was sounded , the mighty cry o war,
The sky growled with Thunder, and struck the vast sea with Spears of light,
The sea swore with rage,it thrashed around with a lot o sound,
Seeing this nightly squabble, the wind removed its airy shroud,
It blew and howled like a fearsome Wolf,
Whistling through hope and death,
Like an arrow unbound , like heavenly wrath,
It blew shattering the might of the waves, and making the sky cry in vain,
And there still waddled our lonesome ship, battling the ravages of these mighty foes,
It fought the waves with sheer luck,
And the lightning with Nothing but pure brawn,
It battled for its life till the near end of it,
And then the wind showed up,
High and fearsome and against the ship!!,
The ship was thrust back, and the sea became angrier,
The sky began a downpour, and the ship began to tremble,
Tumbling around the sea like a drunk, it's luck had begun to fade,
The sea started thrashin wildly and the hull began to creak,
The wind kept howling and the mast began to tweak,
Crack! ack! ck went the main mast and it bowed against the fierce wind,
The wilderness of the ocean scared the little ship,
Tumbling about fumbling around and yet very stout,
The ship went on fighting for hope when there seemed none,
Crack!bam! Went The mast ,
Creak! Creak went the hull,
But with sheer will the ship kept going on,
And then shone hope itself
Calming the depths of the sea, silencing the howling wind,
And consoling the crying sky,
It All went Away in a moment of brightness,
The blissful light and pleasing heat emanating from this beautiful source of hope,

And thus ship survived the mighty night full of deadly foes

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the burning brightness of their eyes , saw so less of these many beautiful skies,
They lived lives of innocence and hope , Laughing at trivialities taking turns to play the rogue ,
Pulling lively pranks upon one another , teasing the one with the bother ,
Innocently smirking upon certain biology chapters , Sniggering it out loud and testing the teacher's
tolerance ,
Sharing lunch at the lunch break , Looting the guy with the best snack ,
Getting bad grades and getting shouted at by mum and dad ,
Dad's shouting and and mom's stopping him making one real sad ,
Then feeling the force and strengthening the resolve to do better the next time,
But Alas some of these stories were left unheard and unsaid ,
for evil took them from their mother's lovely embrace ,
They marched and fired on a school full of innocents and lost all their Humane grace ,
For cowardice struck Peshawar on this darkened day ,
Making the world tremble with shock and driving deep a depressing stave
Curse the sinners for they Made innocent lives fade ,
Curse them for they are the causes of several mothers's heartache

-Sameeran Purohit

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Nothing to love ,nothing to miss,
nothing to fear , nothing worth living for,
nothing worth praising , nothing worth dying for ,
only an aim , an aim for perfection ,
and nothing's there worth my defection ,
power i have, the path is what i need ,
on the path to excellence the 7 deadly sins wander to feed ,
I've to walk ahead and pay them no heed ,
i must strive hard ,i must keep moving forward ,
i must keep control of my mind that wanders ,
For I don't ever want my efforts to go squandered
The only beacon that lights my path is that of my will
It empowers me and protects me from all ill,
My grit and determination shall never be forfeited,
As I know that even the hardest hurdles can be defeated,
No matter how many times i fall ,
i shall rise again , from the ashes ,
Like a PHOENIX

Sameeran Purohit

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So many emotions, such few words
When do we live when do we see
The world as our family not as an opportunity,
How shall we strive with this blindfold
With do many stories unheard and untold
How will the world ever unite as a whole
Will we ever see each other as equal souls
This world has turned into a rat race ,
Everyone is stuck in his own maze ,
We chase myths of luxury and money,
The ones that actually suffice only our gluttony
We don't pay attention to what we've got ,
The most beautiful things from the entire lot,
A sound body and blessed mind
With the ability to love and be kind ,
The world will be a better place without the strife
With humans and animals living a peaceful life.

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I'm in a state of complete hopelessness,
Seems like my generation has been lost into darkness ,
For my family taught me to respect everything not discriminate between anything,
But how can I respect the generation that objectifies virtually everything
I am shocked to the core to see people use others for their own benefit,
And I was taught that people were to work together for the humankind's benefit,
I am astutely mortified by the way people discriminate between men and women,
And I was taught that womenkind must be respected for their contribution is divine,
They are mothers ,daughters ,sisters friends in whom the world could confide ,
They give you birth and love you unconditionally
All they do is provide,
I'm am terrified by the crime in the world ,
The lack of respect for any form of life
Ending everything in chaos and strife ,
The lack of sentiments and the end of humane sense,
These things envelope me in astute hopeless,
I look desperately for peace and find it no where in sight
All I see is humanity being scavenged by vultures of the eternal night ,
These vultures are symbols of atrocities of mankind ,
The chaos the insanity the delirium that darkens every heart,
I hear the screams , I can almost feel the pain of the earth
Seems like there is naught in this world but pain injustice and despair.

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#kindness
A small whisper or a tiny action,
That can give someone plenty of satisfaction
Your words have power and actions might,
So make sure that you give someone atleast some delight,
Be noble, humble and nice
Make sure that today you make someone smile
Your action of benevolence shall not go fruitless
You'll always have someone's gratitude for your kindness.

Sam

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He gazed deep into my solemn eyes,
In his eyes I could see the deep blue Sky ,
He grasped me tight in his manly embrace ,
Making my heart throb for our memorable solace,
His arms wrapped around me and held me so tenderly ,
And he looked into my eyes so passionately ,
It felt like time had stopped momentarily
My heart wanted to stay just like this for all eternity
And then his soft lips touched mine ,,
I dissolved in this moment of passion and all felt fine ,
I could hear his beating heart and everything was a melody,
I felt in his embrace I was impervious to all tragedy ,
He ran his fingers through my hair caressed it gently with so much care,
In his eyes I felt I can be totally bare ,
And any burden in the world only for him I would bear ,
No restrictions no shyness and nothing to fear
We fell for each other when our eyes first met ,

As we knew that it what was meant to be and preset .

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‌ he came as the darkness that sweeps the night,
S
And scared my heart into an everlasting fright,
It started beating faster at every single glimpse of her,
My eyes started dreaming of just her,
To delve in her lucid dreamy beautiful eyes ,
And get lost into her embrace under the teary skies,
To kiss her tenderly on those soft smooth lips,
And to dote at her breathtakingly hot rounded hips,
With skin so soft and beautifully brown ,
That it made the angels wear an envious frown ,
Her beauty was divine and incomparable,
Yet she was too humble sweet and adorable,
Her melodious voice so sweet and polite ,
Made me want to give up my life to become her shining knight,
All I wish is to devote my life to her forever,

And love her every moment withan ardent passionate fervor

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At the tip of the needle is the epitome of sadness
Forcing me to strive in this befuddling darkness,
Can I leave my will without its freedom ,
Or shall I let My fate decide the course of my wisdom ,
My heart tends to dwell in the darkness of the present ,
Feel the remorse, be in pain and just resent,
But lo I live my life for not my own sake but for many,
For I fear their disapproval and resent the causative tyranny ,
Working day and nights together meddling with fire and coal,
For it’s only my imagination that shall extinguish the thirst of my soul,
I know not whether shall I reap the fruits of my uncherished work ,
Or would they rot in the marshes were tragedies lurk ,
To delve into the miracle of life and love I wanted ,
But I knew that I’d be a fool to take this life for granted,
I know the astute truth that shall make all fine ,
That value of my life will be the most only for mine .

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the biggest gift of all lies open in front of all of us,
there are some who accept it and others who make a fuss ,
but only with acceptance will you find ,
the unique cooperation of the heart and the mind ,
even the brightest make a zillion mistakes ,
but nevertheless oversee it and consider what's at stake ,
to loosen oneself from fear's deathly embrace ,
is the key to achieving one's own peaceful solace ,
Scary however it may become never give in to fear ,
Because then you'll have given it your own ship to steer ,
you'll always end up in places you hate ,
if you keep relying upon fear and fate ,
so i shout out to the ones in darkness and distress ,
stop fearing and and accept this beautiful largesse ,

Which is nothing but you yourself !!

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My lonely heart was wandering in the dark., my eyes wandered aimlessly. ?.... And then I finally caught
the sight of you,
Dressed in blues and whites ,
Like n angel from the heavens above ,
with eyes like glittering pearls of b lack,
oh these eyes these beautiful eyes with the depth of ocean and shine of the sun captivated me as if I
were stung,
like a maiden from a beautiful dream ..
Fair as freshly fallen snow ,
with a smile as beautiful as if a fairytale,
and with looks that made even gods envious
My heart skipped several beats and my brain seemed instantly jammed and yet my imagination
soared to new heights ,neither in my sleep nor in my dreams and not even while being awake could i
forget you,
Every glimpse of you is like a spade driven deep into my heart ,,,, I can see you , I can love you , but
trying to live without you is like trying to poison my own heart....
I feel like I am the Knight and you are my Princess ... But the distances that separate us are infinitely
high, you are So near .... But still too far .....
My mind is out of control and completely restless and the only medicine that can calm me down is a
glimpse.of you

wherever you are whenever it is whatever it might be I always will love you ...

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the Phoenix

My heart is ruled by a realm of darkness,

I stand lonely in this gloomy murkiness,
Feel so gloomy and depressed,
My mind and soul are all in utter distress,

My heart is caged in a prison of solitude

I share nothing but meaningless gratitude ,
This demeaning banter of the blissful multitudes
Make me even sadder and I sink deeper in my solitude,
Time flies and so does life ,
I've given up my search for a meaning to this life,
I need to find my peace and fill in this hole of emptiness,
I need to plumb this leaking hole of loneliness,
I'm lucky for my foundation is set with nothing but raw solitary bricks,
I've gotta find a meaning to my life and a one that sticks

For I've got to rise again from my very ashes like the phoenix

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My lonely heart was wandering in the dark., my eyes wandered aimlessly. ?.... And then I finally caught
the sight of you,
Dressed in blues and whites ,
Like n angel from the heavens above ,
with eyes like glittering pearls of b lack,
oh these eyes these beautiful eyes with the depth of ocean and shine of the sun captivated me as if I
were stung,
like a maiden from a beautiful dream ..
Fair as freshly fallen snow ,
with a smile as beautiful as if a fairytale,
and with looks that made even gods envious
My heart skipped several beats and my brain seemed instantly jammed and yet my imagination
soared to new heights ,neither in my sleep nor in my dreams and not even while being awake could i
forget you,
Every glimpse of you is like a spade driven deep into my heart ,,,, I can see you , I can love you , but
trying to live without you is like trying to poison my own heart....
I feel like I am the Knight and you are my Princess ... But the distances that separate us are infinitely
high, you are So near .... But still too far .....
My mind is out of control and completely restless and the only medicine that can calm me down is a
glimpse.of you

wherever you are whenever it is whatever it might be I always will love you ...

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In the memory of the lives we lost at pulse club at Orlando

It's a painful time ,

The world is in chaos and full of crime,
My friends have been murdered .
In the streets they were slaughtered
By another of my human friend.
The distribed violent and aggressive friend
He who needed a hug more than anyone
But didn't get it for he was a timid one ,
He refused help and became a big fool
With a horrendous weapon he lost his cool ,
He lost his mind and got corrupted by madness
Opened fire on a club full of innocents ,
His crime was heinous and so had become his mind
It was all because of the peace he couldn't find
He lost his way and be sinned like a demon ,
He lost his grace and fell down to depths even the devil couldn't fathom,
He made this world unite in tears
Of grief, misery and dreadful fears
Oh what faith shall we have now on humanity

When now we've seen the tragedies of insanity

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The brittle thing that breaks so easy,
And no glue can join it back in a jiffy,
It's a thing so fundamental and astute
That there is no mortal who can refute
When then time is right or the time is wrong
The faith we keep in each other's random songs,jyk
The will that dictates any course of action
It also dictates any person's reaction
‌Yet it ju lil to be so tiny and brittle
some call it a string some call it a gospel
It's we who weave these brittle strings
When the heart flutters and mind concurs,
Yet We are not it's owners nor are we the Masters of it,
But it's the thing that binds us all with great grit ,
We all bow down to this eternal form of devotion

For we're bound in its weave and call it TRUST

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When the sky is a shade of gloom and despair,
And you feel like just giving everyone naught but a blank stare,
Every journeyman has days like that ,
When the heart feels sad and gives out nothing but stat,
Moving forward feels like an futile task
And you grow tried of wearing your daily mask
Then you know it's a question of life and death,
For you know to stop is death and that seems more welcome ,
And living ahead is going to be gruesome,
But there is always a chance of it becoming awesome,
The debate muddles your head and heart ,
You have no clue what to do and where to start,

And

Then you look up to the sky ,

And tears begin to well in your eyes
And in a heartbeat your life starts it's song ,
And the world no more feels so wrong,
Your mind contemplates the importance of your work,
And you then pick yourself up from the dirt,
And Rise above your timid emotions
Above Life's baleful rants and resentful notions
You know that you live with a strong conviction,
Strive and survive for your own amelioration
And rise to the heights that the world thought as only a Notion

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I cringe wth agony with the flowing time,
Contemplating the meaning of this existence of mine,
Observing it with a blind and unbiased sight,
It's like a diamond iridiscent and pearly white,
Yet covered with muck and filthy grime,
But the diamond's beauty is truly sublime,
It shines like a star shrouded by darkness yet shining bright,
It keeps roaring "you can take my everything but never my light! "

-Sam

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‌ an the beef ban the meat ,
B
Get the riots on the streets ,
All the gluttons on their high seats ,
Wait for opportunities exactly like these ,
First they douse the people in flammables
Try and make mobs more tamable ,
Then light the fires of economic destruction,
To get the fund for their own private constructions,
How to fight a monster you feed yourself,
Break a cycle that keeps repeating itself,
That's the tyranny of the modern democracies,
Meant for many is now a lone man's idiosyncrasy ,
Now a convenient reversal of the hooded Robin,
Steals from the poor and fuels the glutton's hogging,
And then there is me with tears in my eyes,
Stifling my voice also my barely audible cries ,
Holding stomach for I fear it may burst ,
Can't open my mouth at all even quench my thirst,
For I am holding down my laughter ,
And I fear it may all come out if I falter ,
Of these lonesome loonies who are sure to judge me ,
For their pitiful mindsets are all fuelled with illusions of what they see ,
Judgemental they are but not against what they should be ,
All of them have eyes yet are blinded completely by what they see, what they believe .

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Truth be told I ain't much of a stalker ,
But a glimpse of you made my heart falter ,
Well well well seems like my beliefs are being shaken ,
I never believed in love a first sight but now I am surely smitten ,
And it's you and only you my mind seems to dwell on ,
And surprisingly a whisper of your name erases all but one frown ,
This frown is because of the distances between us ,
And it's the reason my heart keeps throwing tantrums and making a fuss ,
It yearns your embrace and a plunge in your beautiful eyes ,
And to sit with you and talk for hours under the starry skies.

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In this life of yours
There will be ups and there will be downs ,
Sure will there be smiles and surely some frowns ,
It's your life's story you gotta tell,
Not some lousy old boat you gotta sell,
It has to have some drama and some action ,
Surely will have Some love and some attraction,
But don't just focus on one of the factions ,
For this tale has not one but a million chapters ,
Many adventures many victories and also many disasters ,
But it's you and only you who has to face them all ,
Rise forth and shine or sink into depression and fall ,
So take mine words to your heart ,
You are the most beautiful and smart ,
Love yourself trust your instincts ,
Make that sadness and misery go extinct ,
For its ultimately your life to live
And your own song to sing ,
And I know you well so I believe you will always win .

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I keep wishing you were here beside me,
As it's only you my heart truly yearns to see ,
I used to curse the app called tinder ,
For it had crushed my hopes to cinders ,
I barely ever got any swipe rights ,
The ones who did left me at my plight ,
But I never lost hope and that's delivered you to me ,
Now my heart's gone crazy and is dancing with glee,
It's a dream come true and the world feels totally utopian ,
For I now have someone so special and I feel like the chosen one ,
Aah I wish so dearly to hug you tight ,
And love you truly with all my might ,
Only if you could see what's going on in my heart and mind ,
You will be astounded by the Euphoria inside ,
It's unbearable for me to ever imagine us apart ,
Even if we're far you will always be connected directly to my heart.

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The flight of old darkness had signalled it all,
It was it's only answer to the host's call,
Only when he thought his worries had finally ended ,
Mighty clouds of grey in the sky suddenly ascended ,
The thunder rumbled and the lighting crackled
Bringing out the new foe that was to be tackled,
And thus began the new cynic's prattle,
Calling out a new woe a new foe and a new battle ,
But our host was barely prepared ,
He had lost more than what could've been said,
In a heartthrob he shrunk to his knees ,
Bawling wildly at his life's decrees,
He cried his heart and blood calling his life unjust ,
Wanting now to.just give up and bite the dust,
But this wasn't at all as his life would have it ,
As the darkness spread and the light became slight ,
His battle was called off for the night ,
He lay there in the grave for himself he had dug ,
It had become an ordeal for him this daily lug ,
And he desperately needed some help someone to hug
Someone to save him when from.under him life snatched away the rug.
He lay there steeping in his own tainted rusty blood ,
His mind drowning in a tsunami of an emotional flood ,
Looking for a glimmer of hope ,
Looking for someone who cared enough to throw in a rope ,
And as he kept sinking deeper into the darkness that enveloped him,
His heart began to beat slower and his hopes started to dim ,
And when it dropped down so low that he was almost dead ,
Lightning struck him reviving his breath ,
Forcing him out back into the world he had forsaken ,,
Bewildered and scared he woke up quite shaken ,
He sat down and contemplated what was and what he needed,
Thought of reaping fruits of actions he had once seeded,
As he recollected his thoughts and revived his memories,
He stumbled onto hope in his innermost treasuries,
It shone bright and reflected him right,
He now felt prepared for any fight,
But what was it that paved the way for his will power,
What did he find in the sanctity of his innermost tower,
That gave him hope and gave him might ,
The thing that made his target clearer in his sight,
It now seemed evident what he had found ,
It was crystal , clear and in wood twas bound,
In it He could see himself totally and completely bare ,
And that was enough the banish his deepest scare ,
He saw none but himself yet astoundingly clearer ,
As he gaped at his potential through the eyes of a mirror !

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I am not going to be kind anymore ,
As Selflessness now feels.like a crime ,
Marshes of miseries are now forevermore,
Minds are now covered with a cynical grime,
Souls have been lost to ridiculous attitudes ,
As people have lost their will to care for another,

It's as if they have been betrayed by their own intuit,

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Kindness once was my beloved virtue ,
Selflessness once flowed from whitin ,
And now this world like itself makes me feel blue,
For I always gave my all yet got back nothing ,
I'd use all my heart for the things I did ,
It's only now that I realise it was a fools charade
I was brimming with love and care right upto the lid ,
And when I read between the lines and heard words unsaid,
I thought my folly was over-thinking and analysing more than needed ,
I apologized for I believed that it's I who miscalculated,
And I overlooked my feelings and for forgiveness I pleaded ,
But as I look back now and connect the dots ,
I see the sinister intentions behind the actions of all ,
It felt nice to be needed but it sure did leave its spots ,
But when I needed them I had no one , no one at all,
I was shaken as my heart started a rueful bawl,
Crying louder as it saw its expectations crumble and fall,
Why it wondered after all the books said kindness never goes wasted,
Why did it leave me all alone with my heart abraded ,
The books said compassion shall beget you happiness,
Then why has it led me on the path of loneliness
Why the world had foresaken me for what I am ,
Why do I have to change myself to fit in this fixed frame ,
The frame that others would really like and love ,
But my insides would squirm at my fake new cloak.

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My god what a flight ,.
If I may interject more of a fight it was ,
I touched the sky with my feet on the ground ,.
My world was more of a creative intervention than sound ,
As if I was lost in a place noir and anachronistic,
Feeling so much glee that happiness itself made me feel sick ,

Oh man what a world that was ,

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I wonder why Nobody ever likes me ,
Maybe its because of mine face or maybe my bipolar tendency ,
I've been nice to everyone I've met ,
But their liking for me is in stone set ,
I tend to do as much good as I can ,
But their respect for me always ends up in a trash can,
I wonder what craziness is hidden in me ,
If it weren't people probably wouldn't run away from me ,
I feel like diseased and a victim of life ,
And my existence is the cause of this whole strife ,
But it's my heart that flutters in its own solitary cage ,
Telling me to be cool and lose all my rage ,
It beats with a new hope every single time,
And my mind sways to that temptation like a wind chime,
This temptation is of being loved and cared for as much as I do,
Seems like it all has always been a fantasy and never true ,
And now it feels like I've taken one too many a chance
With love , with hope and with my heart's solitary dance ,
It now feels like the time to leave my hopeless romantic self behind ,
Just become mundane monotonous and gloomy with the daily grind ,
It feels like leading a life filled with just Hollow laughs and empty jokes ,
Is far more better than living with a broken heart and crushed hopes !

I am a hopeless romantic ,
Just a woebegone fanatic ,
I am usually left out of all talks and discussions ,

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I hardly know anything about you my dear ,
For me you're like a horde of treasure,
Locked away and guarded by a big bear ,
The bear is a testament to the walls you've erected ,
From the concrete of pain and misery on you the world has inflicted ,
But just bear in mind the world isn't all that bad as you see ,
It also has people who are naive and caring like me,
When I tried to meet your eyes last night ,
I met walls in them I just couldn't fight
But I found some holes in the walls to see,
I saw an angel who only just wanted to be set free,
Free from burdens she bore the pain she has always owned,
I knew in a jiffy that this wasn't what she ever deserved ,
yet my heart knew I wasn't the one who could break the walls she'd made,
It wasn't anyone but herself who could make the walls abrade,
And out of nowhere came the bear again ,
Shoving me away trying to save her from anymore pain ,
And there I was reasoning with a bear as if I were insane ,
It shoved me away and all my explanations went in vain ,
His actions did nothing but strengthen my resolve ,
It was love , care and affection that just might make her troubles absolve,
And then it like a gong on a bell struck my stupidity to me ,
I am but a nobody to help her or set her free,
I am just a man with the heart of a kid wanting to see everyone happy ,
Just a ranger of solitude with a mission of hypocrisy,
Just a soul himself being stewed in the brew of his life
Balancing everything on what feels like the blade of a knife ,
But I know what I need to get out if this blue ,
Exactly indeed the same thing she needs too .
Note @ Ahmedabad, Gujarat
A peck on the cheek Or a bite on the lips,
An expression of affection A feeling of true bliss ,
It means so much an is yet so little
And is a moment of passion yet very brittle,
That moment of amour and of true animalistic grace,
the closeness in that entranced embrace ,
My Yearning to forever drown in those beautiful eyes ,
And feeling humbled and thanking the starry skies,
The feel of joy and the taste of pleasure,
Mixed with the ecstacy of lustful treasure,
It Makes my heart go warm and start to rumble,
It starts an avalanche of passionate emotions,
And makes me realise my fondness for her presence ,
It makes me want to be her forever ,
And keep reliving this moment over and over ,
All I wish is to make her mine for all of eternity
So that her love keeps me sane in this ocean of insanity.
I wish to keep her forever happy

So that I be the one living truly happily !

Note @ Ahmedabad, Gujarat

My dreams were lost in the sands of time,

In the rush of ambition That naught was mine ,

I lost my childhood in pursuit of gleeful rhymes,

Pranking around and laughing all the time,

Then the laughter died away with terrible remarks

On a vaguely interesting report cards,

That card seemed astutely momentous,

It seemed to be a cipher to my own life's purpose,

My marks decided the fate of my future,

What to pursue and what skills to nurture ,

And my dreams were lost for the first,

Lost in the sands of time

Childhood gave way to an insolent fool

Who thought only of fanciness and what'd be cool ,

Trifling his future in blissful ignorance,

Ranting and raving full of unfounded arrogance

My decisions were all lured by attraction ,

No thought or counselling abated my witless actions,

And yet again I perished in the battle of examinations!

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I spell my miseries with my own actions

With laziness and malice as