The Willow Walk

Sinclair Lewis

I
From the drawer of his table Jasper Holt took a pane of window glass. He laid a
sheet of paper on the glass and wrote, “Now is the time for all good men to
come to the aid of their party.” He studied his round business-college script, and
rewrote the sentence in a small finicky hand, that of a studious old man. Ten
times he copied the words in that false pinched writing. He tore up the paper,
burned the fragments in his large ash tray and washed the delicate ashes down
his stationary washbowl. He replaced the pane of glass in the drawer, tapping it
with satisfaction. A glass underlay does not retain an impression.
Jasper Holt was as nearly respectable as his room, which, with its frilled chairs
and pansy-painted pincushion, was the best in the aristocratic boarding house of
Mrs. Lyons. He was a wiry, slightly bald, black-haired man of thirty-eight,
wearing an easy gray flannel suit and a white carnation. His hands were
peculiarly compact and nimble. He gave the appearance of being a youngish
lawyer or bond salesman. Actually he was senior paying teller in the Lumber
National Bank in the city of Vernon.
He looked at a thin expensive gold watch. It was six-thirty, on Wednesday —
toward dusk of a tranquil spring day. He picked up his hooked walking stick and
his gray silk gloves and trudged downstairs. He met his landlady in the lower
hall and inclined his head. She effusively commented on the weather.
“I shall not be there for dinner,” he said amiably.
“Very well, Mr. Holt. My, but aren’t you always going out with your swell
friends though! I read in the Herald that you were going to be a star in another of
those society plays in the Community Theater. I guess you’d be an actor if you
wasn’t a banker, Mr. Holt.”
“No, I’m afraid I haven’t much temperament.” His voice was cordial, but his
smile was a mere mechanical sidewise twist of the lip muscles. “You’re the one
that’s got the stage presence. Bet you’d be a regular Ethel Barrymore if you
didn’t have to take care of us.”
“My, but you’re such a flatterer!”
He bowed his way out and walked sedately down the street to a public garage.
Nodding to the night attendant, but saying nothing, he started his roadster and
drove out of the garage, away from the center of Vernon, toward the suburb of
Rosebank. He did not go directly to Rosebank. He went seven blocks out of his
way, and halted on Fandall Avenue — one of those petty main thoroughfares
which, with their motion-picture palaces, their groceries, laundries, undertakers’
establishments and lunch rooms, serve as local centers for districts of mean
residences. He got out of the car and pretended to look at the tires, kicking them
to see how much air they had. While he did so he covertly looked up and down
the street. He saw no one whom he knew. He went into the Parthenon
Confectionery Store.
The Parthenon Store makes a specialty of those ingenious candy boxes that
resemble bound books. The back of the box is of imitation leather, with a
stamping simulating the title of a novel. The edges are apparently the edges of a
number of pages. But these pages are hollowed out, and the inside is to be filled
with candy.
Jasper gazed at the collection of book boxes and chose the two whose titles had
the nearest approach to dignity — Sweets to the Sweet and The Ladies’ Delight.
He asked the Greek clerk to fill these with the less expensive grade of mixed
chocolates, and to wrap them.
From the candy shop he went to the drugstore that carried an assortment of
reprinted novels, and from these picked out two of the same sentimental type as
the titles on the booklike boxes. These also he had wrapped. He strolled out of
the drugstore, slipped into a lunchroom, got a lettuce sandwich, doughnuts, and
a cup of coffee at the greasy marble counter, took them to a chair with a table
arm in the dim rear of the lunchroom and hastily devoured them. As he came out
and returned to his car he again glanced along the street.
He fancied that he knew a man who was approaching. He could not be sure.
From the breast up the man seemed familiar, as did the customers of the bank
whom he viewed through the wicket of the teller’s window. When he saw them
in the street he could never be sure of them. It seemed extraordinary to find that
these persons, who to him were nothing but faces with attached arms that held
out checks and received money, could walk about, had legs and a gait and a
manner of their own.
He walked to the curb and stared up at the cornice of one of the stores,
puckering his lips, giving an impersonation of a man inspecting a building. With
the corner of an eye he followed the approaching man. The man ducked his head
as he neared, and greeted him, “Hello, Brother Teller.” Jasper seemed startled;
gave the “Oh! Oh, how are you!” of sudden recognition; and mumbled,
“Looking after a little bank property.”
The man passed on.
Jasper got into his car and drove back to the street that would take him out to the
suburb of Rosebank. As he left Fandall Avenue he peered at his watch. It was
five minutes to seven.
At a quarter past seven he passed through the main street of Rosebank and
turned into a lane that was but little changed since the time when it had been a
country road. A few jerry-built villas of freckled paint did shoulder upon it, but
for the most part it ran through swamps spotted with willow groves, the spongy
ground covered with scatterings of dry leaves and bark. Opening on this lane
was a dim-rutted grassy private road which disappeared into one of the willow
groves.
Jasper sharply swung his car between the crumbly gate posts and along on the
bumpy private road. He made an abrupt turn, came in sight of an unpainted shed
and shot the car into it without cutting down his speed, so that he almost hit the
back of the shed with his front fenders. He shut off the engine, climbed out
quickly and ran back toward the gate. From the shield of the bank of alder
bushes he peered out. Two clattering women were going down the public road.
They stared in through the gate and half halted.
“That’s where that hermit lives,” said one of them.
“Oh, you mean the one that’s writing a religious book, and never comes out till
evening? Some kind of a preacher?”
“Yes, that’s the one. John Holt, I think his name is. I guess he’s kind of crazy.
He lives in the old Beaudette house. But you can’t see it from here — it’s clear
through the block, on the next street.”
“I heard he was crazy. But I just saw an automobile go in here.”
“Oh, that’s his cousin or brother or something — lives in the city. They say he’s
rich, and such a nice fellow.”
The two women ambled on, their clatter blurring with distance. Standing behind
the alders Jasper rubbed the palm of one hand with the fingers of the other. The
palm was dry with nervousness. But he grinned.
He returned to the shed and entered a brick-paved walk almost a block long,
walled and sheltered by overhanging willows. Once it had been a pleasant path;
carved wooden benches were placed along it, and it widened to a court with a
rock garden, a fountain and a stone bench. The rock garden had degenerated into
a riot of creepers sprawling over the sharp stones; the paint had peeled from the
fountain, leaving its iron cupids and naiads eaten with rust. The bricks of the
wall were smeared with lichens and moss and were untidy with windrows of dry
leaves and caked earth. Many of the bricks were broken; the walk was hilly in its
unevenness. From willows and bricks and scuffled earth rose a damp chill. But
Jasper did not seem to note the dampness. He hastened along the walk to the
house — a structure of heavy stone which, for this newish Midwestern land, was
very ancient. It had been built by a French fur trader in 1839. The Chippewas
had scalped a man in its dooryard. The heavy back door was guarded by an
unexpectedly expensive modern lock. Jasper opened it with a flat key and closed
it behind him. It locked on a spring. He was in a crude kitchen, the shades of
which were drawn. He passed through the kitchen and dining room into the
living room. Dodging chairs and tables in the darkness as though he was used to
them he went to each of the three windows of the living room and made sure
that all the shades were down before he lighted the student lamp on the game-
legged table. As the glow crept over the drab walls Jasper bobbed his head with
satisfaction. Nothing had been touched since his last visit.
The room was musty with the smell of old green rep upholstery and leather
books. It had not been dusted for months. Dust sheeted the stiff red velvet
chairs, the uncomfortable settee, the chill white marble fireplace, the immense
glass-fronted bookcase that filled one side of the room.
The atmosphere was unnatural to this capable business man, this Jasper Holt.
But Jasper did not seem oppressed. He briskly removed the wrappers from the
genuine books and from the candy-box imitations of books. One of the two
wrappers he laid on the table and smoothed out. Upon this he poured the candy
from the two boxes. The other wrapper and the strings he stuffed into the
fireplace and immediately burned. Crossing to the bookcase he unlocked one
section on the bottom shelf. There was a row of rather cheap-looking novels on
this shelf, and of these at least six were actually such candy boxes as he had
purchased that evening.
Only one shelf of the bookcase was given over to anything so frivolous as
novels. The others were filled with black-covered, speckle-leaved, dismal books
of history, theology, biography — the shabby-genteel sort of books you find on
the fifteen-cent table at a secondhand bookshop. Over these Jasper pored for a
moment as though he was memorizing their titles.
He took down The Life of the Rev. Jeremiah Bodfish and read aloud: “In those
intimate discourses with his family that followed evening prayers I once heard
Brother Bodfish observe that Philo Judaeus — whose scholarly career always
calls to my mind the adumbrations of Melanchthon upon the essence of
rationalism — was a mere sophist —”
Jasper slammed the book shut, remarking contentedly, “That’ll do. Philo
Judaeus — good name to spring.”
He relocked the bookcase and went upstairs. In a small bedroom at the right of
the upper hall an electric light was burning. Presumably the house had been
deserted till Jasper’s entrance, but a prowler in the yard might have judged from
this ever-burning light that someone was in the residence. The bedroom was
Spartan — an iron bed, one straight chair, a washstand, a heavy oak bureau.
Jasper scrambled to unlock the bottom drawer of the bureau, yank it open, take
out a wrinkled shiny suit of black, a pair of black shoes, a small black bow tie, a
Gladstone collar, a white shirt with starched bosom, a speckly brown felt hat and
a wig — an expensive and excellent wig with artfully unkempt hair of a faded
brown.
He stripped off his attractive flannel suit, wing collar, blue tie, custom-made silk
shirt and cordovan shoes, and speedily put on the wig and those gloomy
garments. As he donned them the corners of his mouth began to droop. Leaving
the light on and his own clothes flung on the bed he descended the stairs. He
was obviously not the same Jasper, but less healthy, less practical, less
agreeable, and decidedly more aware of the sorrow and long thoughts of the
dreamer. Indeed it must be understood that now he was not Jasper Holt, but
Jasper’s twin brother, John Holt, hermit and religious fanatic.
II
John Holt, twin brother of Jasper Holt, the bank teller, rubbed his eyes as though
he had for hours been absorbed in study, and crawled through the living room,
through the tiny hall, to the front door. He opened it, picked up a couple of
circulars that the postman had dropped through the letter slot in the door, went
out and locked the door behind him. He was facing a narrow front yard, neater
than the willow walk at the back, on a suburban street more populous than the
straggly back lane.
A street arc illuminated the yard and showed that a card was tacked on the door.
John touched the card, snapped it with a nail of his finger to make sure it was
securely tacked. In that light he could not read it, but he knew that it was
inscribed in a small finicky hand: “Agents kindly do not disturb, bell will not be
answered, occupant of the house engaged in literary work.”
John stood on the doorstep until he made out his neighbor on the right — a large
stolid commuter, who was walking before his house smoking an after-dinner
cigar. John poked to the fence and sniffed at a spray of lilac blossoms till the
neighbor called over, “Nice evening.”
“Yes, it seems to be pleasant.”
John’s voice was like Jasper’s but it was more guttural, and his speech had less
assurance.
“How’s the story going?”
“It is — it is very difficult. So hard to comprehend all the inner meanings of the
prophecies. Well, I must be hastening to Soul Hope Hall. I trust we shall see you
there some Wednesday or Sunday evening. I bid you good-night, sir.”
John wavered down the street to the drugstore. He purchased a bottle of ink. In a
grocery that kept open evenings he got two pounds of cornmeal, two pounds of
flour, a pound of bacon, a half pound of butter, six eggs and a can of condensed
milk.
“Shall we deliver them?” asked the clerk.
John looked at him sharply. He realized that this was a new man, who did not
know his customs. He said rebukingly: “No, I always carry my parcels. I am
writing a book. I am never to be disturbed.”
He paid for the provisions out of a postal money order for thirty-five dollars, and
received the change. The cashier of the store was accustomed to cashing these
money orders, which were always sent to John from South Vernon, by one R. J.
Smith. John took the bundle of food and walked out of the store.
“That fellow’s kind of a nut, isn’t he?” asked the new clerk.
The cashier explained: “Yep. Doesn’t even take fresh milk — uses condensed
for everything! What do you think of that! And they say he burns up all his
garbage — never has anything in the ashcan except ashes. If you knock at his
door, he never answers it, fellow told me. All the time writing this book of his.
Religious crank, I guess. Has a little income though — guess his folks were
pretty well fixed. Comes out once in a while in the evening and pokes round
town. We used to laugh about him, but we’ve kind of got used to him. Been here
about a year, I guess it is.”
John was serenely passing down the main street of Rosebank. At the dingier end
of it he turned in at a hallway marked by a lighted sign announcing in crude
house-painter’s letters: “Soul Hope Fraternity Hall. Experience Meeting. All
Welcome.”
It was eight o’clock. The members of the Soul Hope cult had gathered in their
hall above a bakery. Theirs was a tiny, tight-minded sect. They asserted that they
alone obeyed the scriptural tenets; that they alone were certain to be saved, that
all other denominations were damned by unapostolic luxury, that it was wicked
to have organs or ministers or any meeting places save plain halls. The members
themselves conducted the meetings, one after another rising to give an
interpretation of the scriptures or to rejoice in gathering with the faithful, while
the others commented with “Hallelujah!” and “Amen, brother, amen!” They
were plainly dressed, not overfed, somewhat elderly, and a rather happy
congregation. The most honored of them all was John Holt.
John had come to Rosebank only eleven months before. He had bought the
Beaudette house with the library of the recent occupant, a retired clergyman, and
had paid for them in new one-hundred-dollar bills. Already he had great credit in
the Soul Hope cult. It appeared that he spent almost all his time at home, praying
and reading and writing a book. The Soul Hope Fraternity were excited about
the book. They had begged him to read it to them. So far he had only read a few
pages, consisting mostly of quotations from ancient treatises on the Prophecies.
Nearly every Sunday and Wednesday evening he appeared at the meeting and in
a halting and scholarly way lectured on the world and the flesh.
Tonight he spoke polysyllabically of the fact that one Philo Judaeus had been a
mere sophist. The cult were none too clear as to what either a Philo Judaeus or a
sophist might be, but with heads all nodding in a row, they murmured: “You’re
right, brother! Hallelujah!”
John glided into a sad earnest discourse on his worldly brother Jasper, and
informed them of his struggles with Jasper’s itch for money. By his request the
fraternity prayed for Jasper.
The meeting was over at nine. John shook hands all round with the elders of the
congregation, sighing: “Fine meeting tonight, wasn’t it? Such a free outpouring
of the Spirit!” He welcomed a new member, a servant girl just come from
Seattle. Carrying his groceries and the bottle of ink he poked down the stairs
from the hall at seven minutes after nine.
At sixteen minutes after nine John was stripping off his brown wig and the
funereal clothes in his bedroom. At twenty-eight after, John Holt had become
Jasper Holt, the capable teller of the Lumber National Bank.
Jasper Holt left the light burning in his brother’s bedroom. He rushed
downstairs, tried the fastening of the front door, bolted it, made sure that all the
windows were fastened, picked up the bundle of groceries and the pile of
candies that he had removed from the booklike candy boxes, blew out the light
in the living room and ran down the willow walk to his car. He threw the
groceries and candy into it, backed the car out as though he was accustomed to
backing in this bough-scattered yard, and drove along the lonely road at the rear.
When he was passing a swamp he reached down, picked up the bundle of
candies, and steering with one hand removed the wrapping paper with the other
hand and hurled out the candies. They showered among the weeds beside the
road. The paper which had contained the candies, and upon which was printed
the name of the Parthenon Confectionery Store, Jasper tucked into his pocket.
He took the groceries item by item from the labeled bag containing them, thrust
that bag also into his pocket, and laid the groceries on the seat beside him.
On the way from Rosebank to the center of the city of Vernon, he again turned
off the main avenue and halted at a goat-infested shack occupied by a crippled
Norwegian. He sounded the horn. The Norwegian’s grandson ran out.
“Here’s a little more grub for you,” bawled Jasper.
“God bless you, sir. I don’t know what we’d do if it wasn’t for you!” cried the
old Norwegian from the door.
But Jasper did not wait for gratitude. He merely shouted “Bring you some more
in a couple of days,” as he started away.
At a quarter past ten he drove up to the hall that housed the latest interest in
Vernon society — The Community Theater. The Boulevard Set, the “best
people in town,” belonged to the Community Theater Association, and the
leader of it was the daughter of the general manager of the railroad. As a well-
bred bachelor Jasper Holt was welcome among them, despite the fact that no one
knew much about him except that he was a good bank teller and had been born
in England. But as an actor he was not merely welcome: he was the best amateur
actor in Vernon. His placid face could narrow with tragic emotion or puff out
with comedy, his placid manner concealed a dynamo of emotion. Unlike most
amateur actors he did not try to act — he became the thing itself. He forgot
Jasper Holt, and turned into a vagrant or a judge, a Bernard Shaw thought, a
Lord Dunsany symbol, a Noel Coward man-about-town.
The other one-act plays of the next program of the Community Theater had
already been rehearsed. The cast of the play in which Jasper was to star were all
waiting for him. So were the ladies responsible for the staging. They wanted his
advice about the blue curtain for the stage window, about the baby-spot that was
out of order, about the higher interpretation of the rôle of the page in the piece
— a rôle consisting of only two lines, but to be played by one of the most
popular girls in the younger set. After the discussions, and a most violent quarrel
between two members of the play-reading committee, the rehearsal was called.
Jasper Holt still wore his flannel suit and a wilting carnation; but he was not
Jasper; he was the Duc de San Saba, a cynical, gracious, gorgeous old man, easy
of gesture, tranquil of voice, shudderingly evil of desire.
“If I could get a few more actors like you!” cried the professional coach.
The rehearsal was over at half-past eleven. Jasper drove his car to the public
garage in which he kept it, and walked home. There, he tore up and burned the
wrapping paper bearing the name of the Parthenon Confectionery Store and the
labeled bag that had contained the groceries.
The Community Theater plays were given on the following Wednesday. Jasper
Holt was highly applauded, and at the party at the Lakeside Country Club, after
the play, he danced with the prettiest girls in town. He hadn’t much to say to
them, but he danced fervently, and about him was a halo of artistic success.
That night his brother John did not appear at the meeting of the Soul Hope
Fraternity out in Rosebank.
On Monday, five days later, while he was in conference with the president and
the cashier of the Lumber National Bank, Jasper complained of a headache. The
next day he telephoned to the president that he would not come down to work —
he would stay home and rest his eyes, sleep and get rid of the persistent
headache. That was unfortunate, for that very day his twin brother John made
one of his frequent trips into Vernon and called at the bank.
The president had seen John only once before, and by a coincidence it had
happened on this occasion also Jasper had been absent — had been out of town.
The president invited John into his private office.
“Your brother is at home; poor fellow has a bad headache. Hope he gets over it.
We think a great deal of him here. You ought to be proud of him. Will you have
a smoke?”
As he spoke the president looked John over. Once or twice when Jasper and the
president had been out at lunch Jasper had spoken of the remarkable
resemblance between himself and his twin brother. But the president told
himself that he didn’t really see much resemblance. The features of the two were
alike, but John’s expression of chronic spiritual indigestion, his unfriendly
manner, and his hair — unkempt and lifeless brown, where Jasper’s was sleekly
black about a shiny bald spot — made the president dislike John as much as he
liked Jasper.
And now John was replying: “No, I do not smoke. I can’t understand how a man
can soil the temple with drugs. I suppose I ought to be glad to hear you praise
poor Jasper, but I am more concerned with his lack of respect for the things of
the spirit. He sometimes comes to see me, at Rosebank, and I argue with him,
but somehow I can’t make him see his errors. And his flippant ways —!”
“We don’t think he’s flippant. We think he’s a pretty steady worker.”
“But he’s play-acting! And reading love stories! Well, I try to keep in mind the
injunction, ‘Judge not, that ye be not judged.’ But I am pained to find my own
brother giving up immortal promises for mortal amusements. Well, I’ll go and
call on him. I trust that some day we shall see you at Soul Hope Hall, in
Rosebank. Good day, sir.”
Turning back to his work, the president grumbled: “I am going to tell Jasper that
the best compliment I can hand him is that he is not like his brother.”
And on the following day, another Wednesday, when Jasper reappeared at the
bank, the president did make this jesting comparison, and Jasper signed, “Oh,
John is really a good fellow, but he’s always gone in for metaphysics and
Oriental mysticism and Lord knows what all, till he’s kind of lost in the fog. But
he’s a lot better than I am. When I murder my landlady — or say, when I rob the
bank, Chief — you go get John, and I bet you the best lunch in town that he’ll
do his best to bring me to justice. That’s how square he is!”
“Square, yes — corners just sticking out! Well, when you do rob us, Jasper, I’ll
look up John. But do try to keep from robbing us as long as you can. I’d hate to
have to associate with a religious detective in a boiled shirt!”
Both men laughed, and Jasper went back to his cage. His head continued to hurt,
he admitted. The president advised him to lay off for a week. He didn’t want to,
he said. With the new munition industries due to the war in Europe there was
much increase in factory pay rolls, and Jasper took charge of them.
“Better take a week off than get ill,” argued the president late that afternoon.
Jasper did let himself be persuaded to go away for at least a week-end. He would
run up north, to Wakamin Lake, the coming Friday, he said; he would get some
black-bass fishing, and be back on Monday or Tuesday. Before he went he
would make up the pay rolls for the Saturday payments and turn them over to
the other teller. The president thanked him for his faithfulness, and as was his
not infrequent custom, invited Jasper to his house for the evening of the next day
— Thursday.
That Wednesday evening Jasper’s brother John appeared at the Soul Hope
meeting in Rosebank. When he had gone home and magically turned back into
Jasper this Jasper did not return the wig and garments of John to the bureau but
packed them in a suitcase, took the suitcase to his room in Vernon and locked it
in his wardrobe.
Jasper was amiable at dinner at the president’s house on Thursday, but he was
rather silent, and as his head still throbbed he left the house early — at nine-
thirty. Sedately carrying his gray silk gloves in one hand and pompously
swinging his stick with the other, he walked from the president’s house on the
fashionable boulevard back to the center of Vernon. He entered the public
garage in which he stored his car. He commented to the night attendant, “Head
aches. Guess I’ll take the ‘bus out and get some fresh air.”
He drove away at not more than fifteen miles an hour. He headed south. When
he had reached the outskirts of the city he speeded up to a consistent twenty-five
miles an hour. He settled down in his seat with the unmoving steadiness of the
long-distance driver; his body quiet except for the tiny subtle movements of his
foot on the accelerator, of his hand on the steering wheel — his right hand
across the wheel, holding it at the top, his left elbow resting easily on the
cushioned edge of his seat and his left hand merely touching the wheel.
He drove down in that southern direction for fifteen miles — almost to the town
of Wanagoochie. Then by a rather poor side road he turned sharply to the north
and west, and making a huge circle about the city drove toward the town of St.
Clair. The suburb of Rosebank, in which his brother John lived, is also north of
Vernon. These directions were of some importance to him; Wanagoochie
eighteen miles south of the mother city of Vernon; Rosebank, on the other hand,
eight miles north of Vernon, and St. Clair twenty miles north — about as far
north of Vernon as Wanagoochie is south.
On his way to St. Clair, at a point that was only two miles from Rosebank,
Jasper ran the car off the main road into a grove of oaks and maples and stopped
it on a long-unused woodland road. He stiffly got out and walked through the
woods up a rise of ground to a cliff overlooking a swampy lake. The gravelly
farther bank of the cliff rose perpendicularly from the edge of the water. In that
wan light distilled by stars and the earth he made out the reedy expanse of the
lake. It was so muddy, so tangled with sedge grass that it was never used for
swimming, and as its inhabitants were only slimy bullheads few people ever
tried to fish there. Jasper stood reflective. He was remembering the story of the
farmer’s team which had run away, dashed over this cliff and sunk out of sight
in the mud bottom of the lake.
Swishing his stick he outlined an imaginary road from the top of the cliff back to
the sheltered place where his car was standing. Once he hacked away with a
large pocketknife a mass of knotted hazel bushes which blocked that projected
road. When he had traced the road to his car he smiled. He walked to the edge of
the woods and looked up and down the main highway. A car was approaching.
He waited till it had passed, ran back to his own car, backed it out on the
highway, and went on his northward course toward St. Clair, driving about thirty
miles an hour.
On the edge of St. Clair he halted, took out his kit of tools, unscrewed a spark
plug, and sharply tapping the plug on the engine block, deliberately cracked the
porcelain jacket. He screwed the plug in again and started the car. It bucked and
spit, missing on one cylinder, with the short-circuited plug.
“I guess there must be something wrong with the ignition,” he said cheerfully.
He managed to run the car into a garage in St. Clair. There was no one in the
garage save an old negro, the night washer, who was busy over a limousine with
sponge and hose.
“Got a night repair man here?” asked Jasper.
“No, sir; guess you’ll have to leave it till morning.”
“Hang it! Something gone wrong with the carburetor or the ignition. Well, I’ll
have to leave it then. Tell him — Say will you be here in the morning when the
repair man comes on?”
“Yes, sir.”
“Well, tell him I must have the car by tomorrow noon. No, say by tomorrow at
nine. Now, don’t forget. This will help your memory.”
He gave a quarter to the negro, who grinned and shouted: “Yes, sir; that’ll help
my memory a lot!” As he tied a storage tag on the car the negro inquired:
“Name?”
“Uh — my name? Oh, Hanson. Remember now, ready about nine tomorrow.”
Jasper walked to the railroad station. It was ten minutes of one. Jasper did not
ask the night operator about the next train into Vernon. Apparently he knew that
there was a train stopping here at St. Clair at one-thirty-seven. He did not sit in
the waiting room but in the darkness outside, on a truck behind the baggage
room. When the train came in he slipped into the last seat of the last car, and
with his soft hat over his eyes either slept or appeared to sleep. When he reached
Vernon he got off and came to the garage in which he regularly kept his car. He
stepped inside. The night attendant was drowsing in a large wooden chair tilted
back against the wall in the narrow runway which formed the entrance to the
garage.
Jasper jovially shouted to the attendant: “Certainly ran into some hard luck.
Ignition went wrong — I guess it was the ignition. Had to leave the car down at
Wanagoochie.”
“Yuh, hard luck, all right,” assented the attendant.
“Yump. So I left it at Wanagoochie,” Jasper emphasized as he passed on.
He had been inexact in this statement. It was not at Wanagoochie, which is
south, but at St. Clair, which is north, that he had left his car.
He had returned to his boarding house, slept beautifully, hummed in his morning
shower bath. Yet at breakfast he complained of his continuous headache, and
announced that he was going up north, to Wakamin, to get some bass fishing
and rest his eyes. His landlady urged him to go.
“Anything I can do to help you get away?” she queried.
“No, thanks. I’m just taking a couple of suitcases, with some old clothes and
some fishing tackle. Fact, I have ’em all packed already. I’ll probably take the
noon train north if I can get away from the bank. Pretty busy now, with these
pay rolls for the factories that have war contracts for the Allies. What’s it say in
the paper this morning?”
Jasper arrived at the bank, carrying the two suitcases and a neat, polite, rolled
silk umbrella, the silver top of which was engraved with his name. The
doorman, who was also the bank guard, helped him to carry the suitcases inside.
“Careful of that bag. Got my fishing tackle in it,” said Jasper, to the doorman,
apropos of one of the suitcases which was heavy but apparently not packed full.
“Well, I think I’ll run up to Wakamin today and catch a few bass.”
“Wish I could go along, sir. How is the head this morning? Does it still ache?”
asked the doorman.
“Rather better, but my eyes still feel pretty rocky. Guess I’ve been using them
too much. Say, Connors, I’ll try to catch the train north at eleven-seven. Better
have a taxicab here for me at eleven. Or no; I’ll let you know a little before
eleven. Try to catch the eleven-seven north, for Wakamin.”
“Very well, sir.”
The president, the cashier, the chief clerk — all asked Jasper how he felt; and to
all of them he repeated the statement that he had been using his eyes too much,
and that he would catch a few bass at Wakamin.
The other paying teller, from his cage next to that of Jasper, called heartily
through the steel netting: “Pretty soft for some people! You wait! I’m going to
have the hay fever this summer, and I’ll go fishing for a month!”
Jasper placed the two suitcases and the umbrella in his cage, and leaving the
other teller to pay out current money he himself made up the pay rolls for the
next day — Saturday. He casually went into the vault — a narrow,
unimpressive, unaired cell with a hard linoleum floor, one unshaded electric
bulb, and a back wall composed entirely of steel doors of safes, all painted a
sickly blue, very unimpressive, but guarding several millions of dollars in cash
and securities. The upper doors, hung on large steel arms and each provided
with two dials, could be opened only by two officers of the bank, each knowing
one of the two combinations. Below these were smaller doors, one of which
Jasper could open, as teller. It was the door of an insignificant steel box, which
contained one hundred and seventeen thousand dollars in bills and four thousand
dollars in gold and silver.
Jasper passed back and forth, carrying bundles of currency. In his cage he was
working less than three feet from the other teller, who was divided from him
only by the bands of the steel netting.
While he worked he exchanged a few words with this other teller.
Once, as he counted out nineteen thousand dollars, he commented: “Big pay roll
for the Henschel Wagon Works this week. They’re making gun carriages and
truck bodies for the Allies, I understand.”
“Uh-huh!” said the other teller, not much interested.
Mechanically, unobtrusively going about his ordinary routine of business, Jasper
counted out bills to amounts agreeing with the items on a typed schedule of the
pay rolls. Apparently his eyes never lifted from his counting and from the typed
schedule which lay before him. The bundles of bills he made into packages,
fastening each with a paper band. Each bundle he seemed to drop into a small
black leather bag which he held beside him. But he did not actually drop the
money into these pay-roll bags.
Both the suitcases at his feet were closed and presumably fastened, but one was
not fastened. And though it was heavy it contained nothing but a lump of pig
iron. From time to time Jasper’s hand, holding a bundle of bills, dropped to his
side. With a slight movement of his foot he opened that suitcase and the bills
slipped from his hand down into it.
The bottom part of the cage was a solid sheet of stamped steel, and from the
front of the bank no one could see this suspicious gesture. The other teller could
have seen it, but Jasper dropped the bills only when the other teller was busy
talking to a customer or when his back was turned. In order to delay for such a
favorable moment Jasper frequently counted packages of bills twice, rubbing his
eyes as though they hurt him.
After each of these secret disposals of packages of bills Jasper made much of
dropping into the pay-roll bags the rolls of coin for which the schedule called. It
was while he was tossing these blue-wrapped cylinders of coin into the bags that
he would chat with the other teller. Then he would lock up the bags and gravely
place them at one side.
Jasper was so slow in making up the pay rolls that it was five minutes of eleven
before he finished. He called the doorman to the cage and suggested, “Better call
my taxi now.”
He still had one bag to fill. He could plainly be seen dropping packages of
money into it, while he instructed the assistant teller: “I’ll stick all the bags in
my safe and you can transfer them to yours. Be sure to lock my safe. Lord, I
better hurry or I’ll miss my train! Be back Tuesday morning, at latest. So long;
take care yourself.”
He hastened to pile the pay-roll bags into his safe in the vault. The safe was
almost filled with them. And except for the last one not one of the bags
contained anything except a few rolls of coin. Though he had told the other
teller to lock his safe, he himself twirled the combination — which was
thoughtless of him, as the assistant teller would now have to wait and get the
president to unlock it.
He picked up his umbrella and two suitcases, bending over one of the cases for
not more than ten seconds. Waving good-by to the cashier at his desk down
front and hurrying so fast that the doorman did not have a chance to help him
carry the suitcases, he rushed through the bank, through the door, into the
waiting taxicab, and loudly enough for the doorman to hear he cried to the
driver, “M. & D. Station.”
At the M. & D. R. R. Station, refusing offers of redcaps to carry his bags, he
bought a ticket for Wakamin, which is a lake-resort town one hundred and forty
miles northwest of Vernon, hence one hundred and twenty beyond St. Clair. He
had just time to get aboard the eleven-seven train. He did not take a chair car,
but sat in a day coach near the rear door. He unscrewed the silver top of his
umbrella, on which was engraved his name, and dropped it into his pocket.
When the train reached St. Clair, Jasper strolled out to the vestibule, carrying the
suitcases but leaving the topless umbrella behind. His face was blank,
uninterested. As the train started he dropped down on the station platform and
gravely walked away. For a second the light of adventure crossed his face, and
vanished.
At the garage at which he had left his car on the evening before he asked the
foreman: “Did you get my car fixed — Mercury roadster, ignition on the bum?”
“Nope! Couple of jobs ahead of it. Haven’t had time to touch it yet. Ought to get
at it early this afternoon.”
Jasper curled his tongue round his lips in startled vexation. He dropped his
suitcases on the floor of the garage and stood thinking, his bent forefinger
against his lower lip.
Then: “Well, I guess I can get her to go — sorry — can’t wait — got to make
the next town,” he grumbled.
“Lot of you traveling salesmen making your territory by motor now, Mr.
Hanson,” said the foreman civilly, glancing at the storage check on Jasper’s car.
“Yep. I can make a good many more than I could by train.”
He paid for overnight storage without complaining, though since his car had not
been repaired this charge was unjust. In fact, he was altogether prosaic and
inconspicuous. He thrust the suitcases into the car and drove away, the motor
spitting. At another garage he bought another spark plug and screwed it in.
When he went on, the motor had ceased spitting.
He drove out of St. Clair, back in the direction of Vernon — and of Rosebank
where his brother lived. He ran the car into that thick grove of oaks and maples
only two miles from Rosebank, where he had paced off an imaginary road to the
cliff overhanging the reedy lake. He parked his car in a grassy space beside the
abandoned woodland road. He laid a light robe over the suitcases. From beneath
the seat he took a can of deviled chicken, a box of biscuits, a canister of tea, a
folding cooking kit and a spirit lamp. These he spread on the grass — a picnic
lunch.
He sat beside that lunch from seven minutes past one in the afternoon till dark.
Once in a while he made a pretense of eating. He fetched water from the brook,
made tea, opened the box of biscuits and the can of chicken. But mostly he sat
still and smoked cigarette after cigarette.
Once, a Swede, taking this road as a short cut to his truck farm, passed by and
mumbled, “Picnic, eh?”
“Yuh, takin’ the day off,” said Jasper dully.
The man went on without looking back.
At dusk Jasper finished a cigarette down to the tip, crushed out the light and
made the cryptic remark:
“That’s probably Jasper Holt’s last smoke. I don’t suppose you can smoke, John
— damn you!”
He hid the two suitcases in the bushes, piled the remains of the lunch into the
car, took down the top of the car, and crept down to the main road. No one was
in sight. He returned. He snatched a hammer and a chisel from his tool kit, and
with a few savage cracks he so defaced the number of the car stamped on the
engine block that it could not be made out. He removed the license numbers
from fore and aft, and placed them beside the suitcases. Then, when there was
just enough light to see the bushes as cloudy masses, he started the car, drove
through the woods and up the incline to the top of the cliff, and halted, leaving
the engine running.
Between the car and the edge of the cliff which overhung the lake there was a
space of about one hundred and thirty feet, fairly level and covered with straggly
red clover. Jasper paced off this distance, returned to the car, took his seat in a
nervous, tentative way and put her into gear, starting on second speed and
slamming her into third. The car bolted toward the edge of the cliff. He instantly
swung out on the running board. Standing there, headed directly toward the
sharp drop over the cliff, steering with his left hand on the wheel, he shoved the
hand throttle up — up — up with his right. He safely leaped down from the
running board.
Of itself, the car rushed forward, roaring. It shot over the edge of the cliff. It
soared twenty feet out into the air, as though it were a thick-bodied aeroplane. It
turned over and over, with a sickening drop toward the lake. The water splashed
up in a tremendous noisy circle. Then silence. In the twilight the surface of the
lake shone like milk. There was no sign of the car on the surface. The concentric
rings died away. The lake was secret and sinister and still. “Lord!” ejaculated
Jasper, standing on the cliff; then: “Well, they won’t find that for a couple of
years anyway.”
He turned to the suitcases. Squatting beside them he took from one the wig and
black garments of John Holt. He stripped, put on the clothes of John, and packed
those of Jasper in the bag. With the cases and the motor-license plates he walked
toward Rosebank, keeping in various groves of maples and willows till he was
within half a mile of the town. He reached the stone house at the end of the
willow walk and sneaked in the back way. He burned Jasper Holt’s clothes in
the grate, melted down the license plates in the stove, and between two rocks he
smashed Jasper’s expensive watch and fountain pen into an unpleasant mass of
junk, which he dropped into the cistern for rain water. The silver head of the
umbrella he scratched with a chisel till the engraved name was indistinguishable.
He unlocked a section of the bookcase and taking a number of packages of bills
in denominations of one, five, ten and twenty dollars from one of the suitcases
he packed them into those empty candy boxes which, on the shelves, looked so
much like books. As he stored them he counted the bills. They came to ninety-
seven thousand five hundred and thirty-five dollars.
The two suitcases were new. There were no distinguishing marks on them. But
taking them out to the kitchen he kicked them, rubbed them with lumps of
blacking, raveled their edges and cut their sides, till they gave the appearance of
having been long and badly used in traveling. He took them upstairs and tossed
them up into the low attic.
In his bedroom he undressed calmly. Once he laughed: “I despise those
pretentious fools — bank officers and cops. I’m beyond their fool law. No one
can catch me — it would take me myself to do that!”
He got into bed. With a vexed “Hang it!” he mused, “I suppose John would
pray, no matter how chilly the floor was.”
He got out of bed and from the inscrutable Lord of the Universe he sought
forgiveness — not for Jasper Holt, but for the denominations who lacked the
true faith of Soul Hope Fraternity.
He returned to bed and slept till the middle of the morning, lying with his arms
behind his head, a smile on his face.
Thus did Jasper Holt, without the mysterious pangs of death, yet cease to exist,
and thus did John Holt come into being not merely as an apparition glimpsed on
Sunday and Wednesday evenings but as a being living twenty-four hours a day,
seven days a week.
III
The inhabitants of Rosebank were familiar with the occasional appearances of
John Holt, the eccentric recluse, and they merely snickered about him when on
the Saturday evening following the Friday that has been chronicled he was seen
to come out of his gate and trudge down to a news and stationery shop on Main
Street.
He purchased an evening paper and said to the clerk: “You can have the
Morning Herald delivered at my house every morning — 27 Humbert Avenue.”
“Yuh, I know where it is. Thought you had kind of a grouch on newspapers,”
said the clerk pertly.
“Ah, did you indeed? The Herald, every morning, please. I will pay a month in
advance,” was all John Holt said, but he looked directly at the clerk, and the man
cringed.
John attended the meeting of the Soul Hope Fraternity the next evening —
Sunday — but he was not seen on the streets again for two and a half days.
There was no news of the disappearance of Jasper Holt till the following
Wednesday, when the whole thing came out in a violent, small-city, front-page
story, headed:
PAYING TELLER
SOCIAL FAVORITE— MAKES GET-AWAY
The paper stated that Jasper Holt had been missing for four days, and that the
officers of the bank, after first denying that there was anything wrong with his
accounts, had admitted that he was short one hundred thousand dollars — two
hundred thousand, said one report. He had purchased a ticket for Wakamin, this
state, on Friday and a trainman, a customer of the bank, had noticed him on the
train, but he had apparently never arrived at Wakamin.
A woman asserted that on Friday afternoon she had seen Holt driving an
automobile between Vernon and St. Clair. This appearance near St. Clair was
supposed to be merely a blind, however. In fact, our able chief of police had
proof that Holt was not headed north, in the direction of St. Clair, but south,
beyond Wanagoochie — probably for Des Moines or St. Louis. It was definitely
known that on the previous day Holt had left his car at Wanagoochie, and with
their customary thoroughness and promptness the police were making search at
Wanagoochie. The chief had already communicated with the police in cities to
the south, and the capture of the man could confidently be expected at any
moment. As long as the chief appointed by our popular mayor was in power, it
went ill with those who gave even the appearance of wrongdoing.
When asked his opinion of the theory that the alleged fugitive had gone north
the chief declared that of course Holt had started in that direction, with the vain
hope of throwing pursuers off the scent, but that he had immediately turned
south and picked up his car. Though he would not say so definitely the chief let
it be known that he was ready to put his hands on the fellow who had hidden
Holt’s car at Wanagoochie.
When asked if he thought Holt was crazy the chief laughed and said: “Yes, he’s
crazy two hundred thousand dollars’ worth. I’m not making any slams, but
there’s a lot of fellows among our political opponents who would go a whole lot
crazier for a whole lot less!”
The president of the bank, however, was greatly distressed, and strongly
declared his belief that Holt, who was a favorite in the most sumptuous
residences on the Boulevard, besides being well known in local dramatic circles,
and who bore the best of reputations in the bank, was temporarily out of his
mind, as he had been distressed by pains in the head for some time past.
Meantime the bonding company, which had fully covered the employees of the
bank by a joint bond of two hundred thousand dollars, had its detectives working
with the police on the case.
As soon as he had read the paper John took a trolley into Vernon and called on
the president of the bank. John’s face drooped with the sorrow of the disgrace.
The president received him. John staggered into the room, groaning: “I have just
learned in the newspaper of the terrible news about my brother. I have come —”
“We hope it’s just a case of aphasia. We’re sure he’ll turn up all right,” insisted
the president.
“I wish I could believe it. But as I have told you, Jasper is not a good man. He
drinks and smokes and playacts and makes a god of stylish clothes —”
“Good Lord, that’s no reason for jumping to the conclusion that he’s an
embezzler!”
“I pray you may be right. But meanwhile I wish to give you any assistance I can.
I shall make it my sole duty to see that my brother is brought to justice if it
proves that he is guilty.”
“Good o’ you,” mumbled the president. Despite this example of John’s rigid
honor he could not get himself to like the man. John was standing beside him,
thrusting his stupid face into his.
The president pushed his chair a foot farther away and said disagreeably: “As a
matter of fact, we were thinking of searching your house. If I remember, you
live in Rosebank?”
“Yes. And of course I shall be glad to have you search every inch of it. Or
anything else I can do. I feel that I share fully with my twin brother in this
unspeakable sin. I’ll turn over the key of my house to you at once. There is also
a shed at the back where Jasper used to keep his automobile when he came to
see me.” He produced a large, rusty, old-fashioned door key and held it out,
adding: “The address is 27 Humbert Avenue, Rosebank.”
“Oh, it won’t be necessary, I guess,” said the president, somewhat shamed,
irritably waving off the key.
“But I just want to help somehow! What can I do? Who is — in the language of
the newspapers — who is the detective on the case? I’ll give him any help —”
“Tell you what you do: Go see Mr. Scandling, of the Mercantile Trust and
Bonding Company, and tell him all you know.”
“I shall. I take my brother’s crime on my shoulders — otherwise I’d be
committing the sin of Cain. You are giving me a chance to try to expiate our
joint sin, and, as Brother Jeremiah Bodfish was wont to say, it is a blessing to
have an opportunity to expiate a sin, no matter how painful the punishment may
seem to be to the mere physical being. As I may have told you I am an accepted
member of the Soul Hope Fraternity, and though we are free from cant and
dogma it is our firm belief —”
Then for ten dreary minutes John Holt sermonized; quoted forgotten books and
quaint, ungenerous elders; twisted bitter pride and clumsy mysticism into
fanatical spider web. The president was a churchgoer, an ardent supporter of
missionary funds, for forty years a pew-holder at St. Simeon’s Church, but he
was alternately bored to a chill shiver and roused to wrath against this self-
righteous zealot.
When he had rather rudely got rid of John Holt he complained to himself:
“Curse it, I oughtn’t to, but I must say I prefer Jasper the sinner to John the saint.
Uff! What a smell of damp cellars the fellow has! He must spend all his time
picking potatoes. Say! By thunder, I remember that Jasper had the infernal nerve
to tell me once that if he ever robbed the bank I was to call John in. I know why,
now! John is the kind of egotistical fool that would muddle up any kind of a
systematic search. Well, Jasper, sorry, but I’m not going to have anything more
to do with John than I can help!”
John had gone to the Mercantile Trust and Bonding Company, had called on Mr.
Scandling, and was now wearying him by a detailed and useless account of
Jasper’s early years and recent vices. He was turned over to the detective
employed by the bonding company to find Jasper. The detective was a hard,
noisy man, who found John even more tedious. John insisted on his coming out
to examine the house in Rosebank, and the detective did so — but sketchily,
trying to escape. John spent at least five minutes in showing him the shed where
Jasper had sometimes kept his car.
He also attempted to interest the detective in his precious but spotty books. He
unlocked one section of the case, dragged down a four-volume set of sermons
and started to read them aloud.
The detective interrupted: “Yuh, that’s great stuff, but I guess we aren’t going to
find your brother hiding behind those books!”
The detective got away as soon as possible, after insistently explaining to John
that if they could use his assistance they would let him know.
“If I can only expiate —”
“Yuh, sure, that’s all right!” wailed the detective, fairly running toward the gate.
John made one more visit to Vernon that day. He called on the chief of city
police. He informed the chief that he had taken the bonding company’s detective
through his house, but wouldn’t the police consent to search it also?
He wanted to expiate — The chief patted John on the back, advised him not to
feel responsible for his brother’s guilt and begged: “Skip along now — very
busy.”
As John walked to the Soul Hope meeting that evening, dozens of people
murmured that it was his brother who had robbed the Lumber National Bank.
His head was bowed with the shame. At the meeting he took Jasper’s sin upon
himself, and prayed that Jasper would be caught and receive the blessed healing
of punishment. The others begged John not to feel that he was guilty — was he
not one of the Soul Hope brethren who alone in this wicked and perverse
generation were assured of salvation?
On Thursday, on Saturday morning, on Tuesday and on Friday, John went into
the city to call on the president of the bank and the detective. Twice the
president saw him, and was infinitely bored by his sermons. The third time he
sent word that he was out. The fourth time he saw John, but curtly explained that
if John wanted to help them the best thing he could do was to stay away.
The detective was out all four times.
John smiled meekly and ceased to try to help them. Dust began to gather on
certain candy boxes on the lower shelf of his bookcase, save for one of them,
which he took out now and then. Always after he had taken it out a man with
faded brown hair and a wrinkled black suit, a man signing himself R. J. Smith,
would send a fair-sized money order from the post office at South Vernon to
John Holt, at Rosebank — as he had been doing for more than six months.
These money orders could not have amounted to more than twenty-five dollars a
week, but that was even more than an ascetic like John Holt needed. By day
John sometimes cashed these at the Rosebank post office, but usually, as had
been his custom, he cashed them at his favorite grocery when he went out in the
evening.
In conversation with the commuter neighbor, who every evening walked about
and smoked an after-dinner cigar in the yard at the right, John was frank about
the whole lamentable business of his brother’s defalcation. He wondered, he
said, if he had not shut himself up with his studies too much, and neglected his
brother. The neighbor ponderously advised John to get out more. John let
himself be persuaded, at least to the extent of taking a short walk every
afternoon and of letting his literary solitude be disturbed by the delivery of milk,
meat, and groceries. He also went to the public library, and in the reference
room glanced at books on Central and South America — as though he was
planning to go south some day.
But he continued his religious studies. It may be doubted if previous to the
embezzlement John had worked very consistently on his book about Revelation.
All that the world had ever seen of it was a jumble of quotations from
theological authorities. Presumably the crime of his brother shocked him into
more concentrated study, more patient writing. For during the year after his
brother’s disappearance — a year in which the bonding company gradually gave
up the search and came to believe that Jasper was dead — John became
fanatically absorbed in somewhat nebulous work. The days and nights drifted
together in meditation in which he lost sight of realities, and seemed through the
clouds of the flesh to see flashes from the towered cities of the spirit.
It has been asserted that when Jasper Holt acted a rôle he veritably lived it. No
one can ever determine how great an actor was lost in the smug bank teller. To
him were imperial triumphs denied, yet he was not without material reward. For
playing his most subtle part he received ninety-seven thousand dollars. It may be
that he earned it. Certainly for the risk entailed it was but a fair payment. Jasper
had meddled with the mystery of personality, and was in peril of losing all
consistent purpose, of becoming a Wandering Jew of the spirit, a strangled body
walking.
IV
The sharp-pointed willow leaves had twisted and fallen, after the dreary rains of
October. Bark had peeled from the willow trunks, leaving gashes of bare wood
that was a wet and sickly yellow. Through the denuded trees bulked the solid
stone of John Holt’s house. The patches of earth were greasy between the tawny
knots of grass stems. The bricks of the walk were always damp now. The world
was hunched up in this pervading chill.
As melancholy as the sick earth seemed the man who in a slaty twilight paced
the willow walk. His step was slack, his lips moved with the intensity of his
meditation. Over his wrinkled black suit and bleak shirt bosom was a worn
overcoat, the velvet collar turned green. He was considering.
“There’s something to all this. I begin to see — I don’t know what it is I do see!
But there’s lights — supernatural world that makes food and bed seem
ridiculous. I am — I really am beyond the law! I make my own law! Why
shouldn’t I go beyond the law of vision and see the secrets of life? But I sinned,
and I must repent — some day. I need not return the money. I see now that it
was given me so that I could lead this life of contemplation. But the ingratitude
to the president, to the people who trusted me! Am I but the most miserable of
sinners, and as the blind? Voices — I hear conflicting voices — some praising
me for my courage, some rebuking —”
He knelt on the slimy black surface of a wooden bench beneath the willows, and
as dusk clothed him round about he prayed. It seemed to him that he prayed not
in words but in vast confusing dreams — the words of a language larger than
human tongues. When he had exhausted himself he slowly entered the house. He
locked the door. There was nothing definite of which he was afraid, but he was
never comfortable with the door unlocked.
By candle light he prepared his austere supper — dry toast, an egg, cheap green
tea with thin milk. As always — as it had happened after every meal, now, for
eighteen months — he wanted a cigarette when he had eaten, but did not take
one. He paced into the living room and through the long still hours of the
evening he read an ancient book, all footnotes and cross references, about The
Numerology of the Prophetic Books, and the Number of the Beast. He tried to
make notes for his own book on Revelation — that scant pile of sheets covered
with writing in a small finicky hand. Thousands of other sheets he had covered;
through whole nights he had written; but always he seemed with tardy pen to be
racing after thoughts that he could never quite catch, and most of what he had
written he had savagely burned.
But some day he would make a masterpiece! He was feeling toward the greatest
discovery that mortal man had encountered. Everything, he had determined, was
a symbol — not just this holy sign and that, but all physical manifestations. With
frightened exultation he tried his new power of divination. The hanging lamp
swung tinily. He ventured: “If the arc of that moving radiance touches the edge
of the bookcase, then it will be a sign that I am to go to South America, under an
entirely new disguise, and spend my money.”
He shuddered. He watched the lamp’s unbearably slow swing. The moving light
almost touched the bookcase. He gasped. Then it receded.
It was a warning; he quaked. Would he never leave this place of brooding and of
fear, which he had thought so clever a refuge? He suddenly saw it all.
“I ran away and hid in a prison! Man isn’t caught by justice — he catches
himself!”
Again he tried. He speculated as to whether the number of pencils on the table
was greater or less than five. If greater, then he had sinned; if less, then he was
veritably beyond the law. He began to lift books and papers, looking for pencils.
He was coldly sweating with the suspense of the test.
Suddenly he cried, “Am I going crazy?”
He fled to his prosaic bedroom. He could not sleep. His brain was smoldering
with confused inklings of mystic numbers and hidden warnings.
He woke from a half sleep more vision-haunted than any waking thought, and
cried: “I must go back and confess! But I can’t! I can’t, when I was too clever
for them! I can’t go back and let them win. I won’t let those fools just sit tight
and still catch me!”
It was a year and a half since Jasper had disappeared. Sometimes it seemed a
month and a half; sometimes gray centuries. John’s will power had been
shrouded with curious puttering studies; long, heavy-breathing sittings with the
ouija board on his lap, midnight hours when he had fancied that tables had
tapped and crackling coals had spoken. Now that the second autumn of his
seclusion was creeping into winter he was conscious that he had not enough
initiative to carry out his plans for going to South America. The summer before
he had boasted to himself that he would come out of hiding and go South,
leaving such a twisty trail as only he could make. But — oh, it was too much
trouble. He hadn’t the joy in play-acting which had carried his brother Jasper
through his preparations for flight.
He had killed Jasper Holt, and for a miserable little pile of paper money he had
become a moldy recluse!
He hated his loneliness, but still more did he hate his only companions, the
members of the Soul Hope Fraternity — that pious shrill seamstress, that surly
carpenter, that tight-lipped housekeeper, that old shouting man with the
unseemly frieze of whiskers. They were so unimaginative. Their meetings were
all the same; the same persons rose in the same order and made the same
intimate announcements to the Deity that they alone were his elect.
At first it had been an amusing triumph to be accepted as the most eloquent
among them, but that had become commonplace, and he resented their daring to
be familiar with him, who was, he felt, the only man of all men living who
beyond the illusions of the world saw the strange beatitude of higher souls.
It was at the end of November, during a Wednesday meeting at which a red-
faced man had for a half hour maintained that he couldn’t possibly sin, that the
cumulative ennui burst in John Holt’s brain. He sprang up.
He snarled: “You make me sick, all of you! You think you’re so certain of
sanctification that you can’t do wrong. So did I, once! Now I know that we are
all miserable sinners — really are! You all say you are, but you don’t believe it.
I tell you that you there that have just been yammering, and you, Brother
Judkins, with the long twitching nose, and I— I— I, most unhappy of men, we
must repent, confess, expiate our sins! And I will confess right now. I st-stole
—”
Terrified he darted out of the hall, and hatless, coatless, tumbled through the
main street of Rosebank, nor ceased till he had locked himself in his house. He
was frightened because he had almost betrayed his secret, yet agonized because
he had not gone on, really confessed, and gained the only peace he could ever
know now — the peace of punishment.
He never returned to Soul Hope Hall. Indeed for a week he did not leave his
house save for midnight prowling in the willow walk. Quite suddenly he became
desperate with the silence. He flung out of the house, not stopping to lock or
even close the front door. He raced uptown, no topcoat over his rotting
garments, only an old gardener’s cap on his thick brown hair. People stared at
him. He bore it with resigned fury.
He entered a lunch room, hoping to sit inconspicuously and hear men talking
normally about him. The attendant at the counter gaped. John heard a mutter
from the cashier’s desk: “There’s that crazy hermit!”
All of the half-dozen young men loafing in the place were looking at him. He
was so uncomfortable that he could not eat even the milk and sandwich he had
ordered. He pushed them away and fled, a failure in the first attempt to dine out
that he had made in eighteen months; a lamentable failure to revive that Jasper
Holt whom he had coldly killed.
He entered a cigar store and bought a box of cigarettes. He took joy out of
throwing away his asceticism. But when, on the street, he lighted a cigarette it
made him so dizzy that he was afraid he was going to fall. He had to sit down on
the curb. People gathered. He staggered to his feet and up an alley.
For hours he walked, making and discarding the most contradictory plans — to
go to the bank and confess, to spend the money riotously and never confess.
It was midnight when he returned to his house.
Before it he gasped. The front door was open. He chuckled with relief as he
remembered that he had not closed it. He sauntered in. He was passing the door
of the living room, going directly up to his bedroom, when his foot struck an
object the size of a book, but hollow sounding. He picked it up. It was one of the
booklike candy boxes. And it was quite empty. Frightened, he listened. There
was no sound. He crept into the living room and lighted the lamp.
The doors of the bookcase had been wrenched open. Every book had been
pulled out on the floor. All of the candy boxes, which that evening had
contained almost ninety-six thousand dollars, were in a pile, and all of them
were empty. He searched for ten minutes, but the only money he found was one
five-dollar bill, which had fluttered under the table. In his pocket he had one
dollar and sixteen cents. John Holt had six dollars and sixteen cents, no job, no
friends — and no identity.
V
When the president of the Lumber National Bank was informed that John Holt
was waiting to see him he scowled.
“Lord, I’d forgotten that minor plague! Must be a year since he’s been here. Oh,
let him — No, hanged if I will! Tell him I’m too busy to see him. That is, unless
he’s got some news about Jasper. Pump him, and find out.”
The president’s secretary sweetly confided to John:
“I’m so sorry, but the president is in conference just now. What was it you
wanted to see him about? Is there any news about — uh — about your brother?”
“There is not, miss. I am here to see the president on the business of the Lord.”
“Oh! If that’s all I’m afraid I can’t disturb him.”
“I will wait.”
Wait he did, through all the morning, through the lunch hour — when the
president hastened out past him — then into the afternoon, till the president was
unable to work with the thought of that scarecrow out there, and sent for him.
“Well, well! What is it this time, John? I’m pretty busy. No news about Jasper,
eh?”
“No news, sir, but — Jasper himself! I am Jasper Holt! His sin is my sin.”
“Yes, yes, I know all that stuff — twin brothers, twin souls, share responsibility
—”
“You don’t understand. There isn’t any twin brother. There isn’t any John Holt.
I am Jasper. I invented an imaginary brother, and disguised myself — Why,
don’t you recognize my voice?”
While John leaned over the desk, his two hands upon it, and smiled wistfully,
the president shook his head and soothed: “No, I’m afraid I don’t. Sounds like
good old religious John to me! Jasper was a cheerful, efficient sort of crook.
Why, his laugh —”
“But I can laugh!” The dreadful croak which John uttered was the cry of an evil
bird of the swamps. The president shuddered. Under the edge of the desk his
fingers crept toward the buzzer by which he summoned his secretary.
They stopped as John urged: “Look — this wig — it’s a wig. See, I am Jasper!”
He had snatched off the brown thatch. He stood expectant, a little afraid.
The president was startled, but he shook his head and sighed.
“You poor devil! Wig, all right. But I wouldn’t say that hair was much like
Jasper’s!”
He motioned toward the mirror in the corner of the room.
John wavered to it. And indeed he saw that his hair had turned from Jasper’s
thin sleek blackness to a straggle of damp gray locks writhing over a yellow
skull.
He begged pitifully: “Oh, can’t you see I am Jasper? I stole ninety-seven
thousand dollars from the bank. I want to be punished! I want to do anything to
prove — Why, I’ve been at your house. Your wife’s name is Evelyn. My salary
here was —”
“My dear boy, don’t you suppose that Jasper might have told you all these
interesting facts? I’m afraid the worry of this has — pardon me if I’m frank, but
I’m afraid it’s turned your head a little, John.”
“There isn’t any John! There isn’t! There isn’t!”
“I’d believe that a little more easily if I hadn’t met you before Jasper
disappeared.”
“Give me a piece of paper. You know my writing —”
With clutching claws John seized a sheet of bank stationery and tried to write in
the round script of Jasper. During the past year and a half he had filled
thousands of pages with the small finicky hand of John. Now, though he tried to
prevent it, after he had traced two or three words in large but shaky letters the
writing became smaller, more pinched, less legible.
Even while John wrote the president looked at the sheet and said easily: “Afraid
it’s no use. That isn’t Jasper’s fist. See here, I want you to get away from
Rosebank — go to some farm — work outdoors — cut out this fuming and
fussing — get some fresh air in your lungs.” The president rose and purred:
“Now, I’m afraid I have some work to do.”
He paused, waiting for John to go.
John fiercely crumpled the sheet and hurled it away. Tears were in his weary
eyes.
He wailed: “Is there nothing I can do to prove I am Jasper?”
“Why, certainly! You can produce what’s left of the ninety-seven thousand!”
John took from his ragged waistcoat pocket a five-dollar bill and some change.
“Here’s all there is. Ninety-six thousand of it was stolen from my house last
night.”
Sorry though he was for the madman, the president could not help laughing.
Then he tried to look sympathetic, and he comforted: “Well, that’s hard luck, old
man. Uh, let’s see. You might produce some parents or relatives or somebody to
prove that Jasper never did have a twin brother.”
“My parents are dead, and I’ve lost track of their kin — I was born in England
— Father came over when I was six. There might be some cousins or some old
neighbors, but I don’t know. Probably impossible to find out, in these wartimes,
without going over there.”
“Well, I guess we’ll have to let it go, old man.” The president was pressing the
buzzer for his secretary and gently bidding her: “Show Mr. Holt out, please.”
From the door John desperately tried to add: “You will find my car sunk —”
The door had closed behind him. The president had not listened.
The president gave orders that never, for any reason, was John Holt to be
admitted to his office again. He telephoned to the bonding company that John
Holt had now gone crazy; that they would save trouble by refusing to admit him.
John did not try to see them. He went to the county jail. He entered the keeper’s
office and said quietly: “I have stolen a lot of money, but I can’t prove it. Will
you put me in jail?”
The keeper shouted: “Get out of here! You hoboes always spring that when you
want a good warm lodging for the winter! Why the devil don’t you go to work
with a shovel in the sand pits? They’re paying two-seventy-five a day.”
“Yes, sir,” said John timorously. “Where are they?”