Deer Hit
Deer Hit
Deer Hit
You're seventeen and tunnel-vision drunk, swerving your father's Fairlane wagon home
at 3:00 a.m. Two-lane road, all curves and dips—dark woods, a stream, a patchy acre
of teazle and grass. You don't see the deer till they turn their heads—road full of eyeballs,
small moons glowing. You crank the wheel, stamp both feet on the brake, skid and jolt
into the ditch. Glitter and crunch of broken glass in your lap, deer hair drifting like dust. Your
chin
and shirt are soaked—one eye half-obscured by the cocked bridge of your nose. The car
still running, its lights angled up at the trees. You get out. The deer lies on its side.
back legs paralyzed, dead. Making a sound— again and again this terrible bleat.
You watch for a while. It tires, lies still. And here's what you do: pick the deer up
like a bride. Wrestle it into the back of the car— the seat folded down. Somehow, you steer
the wagon out of the ditch and head home, night rushing in through the broken window,
in your side. The deer breathing behind you, shallow and fast. A stoplight, you're almost home
and the deer scrambles to life, its long head appears like a ghost in the rearview mirror
and bites you, its teeth clamp down on your shoulder and maybe you scream, you struggle and
flail
Your father's waiting up, watching tv. He's had a few drinks and he's angry.
Christ, he says, when you let yourself in. It's Night of the Living Dead. You tell him
some of what happened: the dark road, the deer you couldn't avoid. Outside, he circles
the car. Jesus, he says. A long silence. Son of a bitch, looking in. He opens the tailgate,
drags the quivering deer out by a leg. What can you tell him—you weren't thinking,
you'd injured your head? You wanted to fix what you'd broken—restore the beautiful body,
color of wet straw, color of oak leaves in winter? The deer shudders and bleats in the driveway.
Your father walks to the toolshed, comes back lugging a concrete block.
Some things stay with you. Dumping the body deep in the woods, like a gangster. The dent
in your nose. All your life, the trail of ruin you leave.
1. To gain insight into the poem's basic meaning, apply the SOAPSTone method. Keep in
mind that some of these elements function on multiple levels (e.g., author and speaker).
• What is the subject of the poem?
• On what occasion do you think the speaker is saying the poem?
• Who is the intended audience for the poem?
• What do you think the purpose of the poem is?
• Who is the speaker in the poem?
• What is the tone of the poem (the speaker's attitude toward the subject)?