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you didn't even care what it was for?

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{\an8}You just wake up every day thinking,
"I want to be seen."

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{\an8}To be completely honest, Danni Sanders
might actually be the worst person

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{\an8}we've ever covered on this show,
and we covered Hitler.

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{\an8}[Danni] I wanna be important.

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{\an8}[contributor] Okay, guys. Today,
we're talking about white privilege.

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{\an8}So you know
we need to talk about Danni Sanders.

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{\an8}…acting like she was the victim.

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{\an8}I think that
that turned a lot of people off to her.

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{\an8}[Danni] I wanna have purpose.

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{\an8}So I was just gonna bleach the front bits,

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{\an8}but I'm really not trying to get mistaken
for Danni Sanders.
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[Danni] I wanna be known.

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I wanna be loved.

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{\an8}[presenter 1] And the award
for Most-Anticipated Death…

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{\an8}-[presenter 2] Danni Sanders!
-I can't wait for her to kick the bucket.

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{\an8}-[presenter 2] Don't--
-In fact, I'll do it for you.

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-[mimics gunshot]
-That's a little far.

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I'm not gonna go that far. It's a fine.

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Not for me. I own guns.

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[Danni] I wanna matter.

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[explosion]

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Yeah, well, let me tell you…

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Be careful what you fucking wish for.

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[singer] ♪ I'm the worst ♪

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♪ You're gonna hate me ♪

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♪ Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah ♪

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♪ I'm the worst ♪

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Okay.

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{\an8}[clears throat]

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{\an8}-Danni.
-Yeah?

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Had a chance to read
that article you sent me.

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-You did?
-Mm-hmm.

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What did you think?

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Well, you've titled it, "Why am I so sad?"

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That's just a working title.

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"In a world surrounded by those
who seem to have it all,

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I've settled on a few reasons
for my own feelings of emptiness.

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The first is that
I currently live in Bushwick."
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J-Train Bushwick.
L-Train Bushwick would be fine.

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Just, like, somewhere you can get
a decent matcha, you know?

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"Reason number two,
my lack of a private office at work."

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Open-concept spaces
really drown out my inner voice.

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Finally,
and this one really stuck with me.

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Okay.

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"Missing 9/11."

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Yeah.

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I was on a cruise with my parents
when it happened.

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In general, I think we try to avoid
expressing any kind of FOMO about 9/11.

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[sighs]
Did you read that article on The Cut?

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The one--

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It talked about how it was the single
most formative trauma experience

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for "zillennials."

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And since I wasn't there,

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I didn't get to share that bond
with my peers.

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You know, like,
I didn't even know anyone that died.

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Okay. And you don't feel like it comes off
a little tone-deaf? Offensive even.

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-Can't tone-deaf be, like, a brand though?
-Oh, no.

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-Isn't that what Lena Dunham does?
-You don't wanna be like Lena Dunham.

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I don't feel like
you take me seriously as a writer.

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That's because you're not a writer.
You're a photo editor.

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One who's very late on their deadlines.

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Deadlines that should take priority
over personal goals.

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I've just been having
a difficult time focusing lately.
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And I've been having a difficult time
ending this conversation. And we're done.

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Okay.

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Gonna load up
the Headspace app after that.

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-Hi, Harper.
-Interesting article pitch.

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Thanks.

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Hey, Susan,
I just uploaded the new draft for Tuesday.

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Thank you. Oh, and great work
on that RBG retrospective.

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I can't believe you got that quote
from her personal trainer.

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Thank you.
I was thinking of using it as my sample

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to apply for a couple writers' retreats.

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[Susan] Oh, a retreat.
Yeah, you would be a shoo-in.

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Oh, thank you.

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They love SCOTUS.

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{\an8}[singer] ♪ Never met a pill
I didn't know how to take ♪

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♪ But that was getting old
I had to give it a break ♪

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♪ I never met an emotion
I didn't know how to fake ♪

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♪ But now I'm getting older
And I wanna be straight ♪

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♪ I never got a tattoo
that I didn't regret…♪

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[person] Hey, yo. Frame up on this shit.

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♪ I'm not a brat
Used to be a hot little mess ♪

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♪ But I never made a video
You didn't embed ♪

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♪ I got a new pair of shoes
And my hair done ♪

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♪ Where's Sonny Moore? Damn
When I'm gonna meet a millionaire's son? ♪

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♪ I'm bored of being the rare one
I'm the chairwoman ♪

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♪ Never took a dare
I don't really care for 'em ♪

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♪ Watch me…♪

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-Colin, dude, how was the trip?
-Ah!

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Man, you know how it was.
Lit as shit. Lick a tit. We did it.

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Also, peep this.
I learned how to twist it.

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That's a scorpion joint
right fucking there.

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-That's so cool.
-[Colin] Yo, zoom in on that.

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-He can't hear you.
-[Colin] I said zoom in on it.

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No, do it like I meant.

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♪ It isn't bad
But it is embarrassing enough ♪

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[Colin] We're gonna do it again.
Gotta do it again. Everybody back inside.

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♪ I'm an Abercrombie-lookin' ass bitch
And I don't give a fuck ♪

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♪ I got a new pair of shoes and a payment
Slay Kitty Ray damn ♪
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♪ When I'm gonna meet a limitation… ♪

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-Hey, Danni's in the house.
-Okay.

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Um… Oh, I've had a crazy morning.

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I just found a new shortcut
for sharpening in camera RAW.

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That is great, Kevin.

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It's Kelvin. My name-- it's-- it's Kelvin.

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No. I don't think so.

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Okay.

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I'm pretty sure, though, that, um…

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-[Harper] Sarah's coming tonight.
-[colleague] Like, Sarah, Sarah?

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Yeah, Sarah from Cubbyhole.

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-So you're drinking tequila tonight.
-Yeah, I am.

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It's the tequila

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-It's the tequila

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Wait. What's happening tonight?

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-We're going queer bowling.
-Yas, queen! Slay!

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You know me. I'll probably just drink
alone in my apartment till I black out

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and call my old best friend
from high school, or something.

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Is this queer bowling night
only for LGBTs?

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-Yeah. Yeah.
-Okay.

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You know… [laughs]

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…I made out with a girl
at an NYU party once.

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So, I might be bi.

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-Not with those nails.
-[chuckles]

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What's wrong with my nails?

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[both giggle]

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[sighs] Just wishful thinking.

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You guys are so lucky. You have, like,
a community. You have a parade.

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-You have your own bowling night--
-Yeah, being a minority is great.

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-Right?
-[elevator dings]

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Well, have fun.

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["Ah bah d'accord" playing]

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-I hate straight people.
-Uh-huh.

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-Hi, Mom.
-[Mom] Hi.

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-You wanna hang out tonight?
-I can't. It's Friday.

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Oh.

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Yeah, no worries. That's all good.
I understand.

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Girlboss book club is pretty… unmissable.

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Hi, it's your favorite writer, socialite,
scammer, Caroline Calloway.

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I'm here in London right now
to meet up with my UK publisher.

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You guys are such a big part of why
this is happening. Fucking love you guys.

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No way. Je obsessed.

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Colin.

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{\an8}Oh, shit. What up, honey?
Yeah, I can't take a pic right now, but--

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{\an8}No, no, no. Danni, from work.

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-Danni. Yeah. What's good?
-What are you doing here?

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-Do you live in Bushwick?
-Me? No. Fuck no.

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-I'm so--
-No. No, I'd never live here.

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Uh, no. I'm supposed to be going to, uh…

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there.

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Matcha Baby.

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Plus my plug lives here,
so two birds, one stone.

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[Danni] Yeah, I smoke marijuana,
like, all the time.

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Ever see one of these?

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Other side.

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Okay. [chuckles]

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Oh, shit.

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Good.

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[Danni coughs]

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[passerby] Yo, Colin!
It's that weed blogger from Depravity.

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Hey, yo, shorty. What up?

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Yo. I love your videos, man.
Costa Rica looks sick.

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Let's go, baby! Stay up, boss.

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Aight. What up? You good?

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[breathlessly]
So cool that you have a fan.

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-Oh, yeah. I got-- I got a bunch.
-[coughing]
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That's just one.

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[chuckles] Hmm.

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So, like, what are you?

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Like, at Depravity? What are you?

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I'm a-- I'm a writer.

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I started in the photo department,
but I'm transitioning.

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And then I'm looking to, like, develop
my work more by, like, uh, traveling.

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And maybe, like, going on
one of those writer retreats or something.

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-Oh, you're going on re-treat?
-Sort of retreat.

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-What?
-You're going on re-treat?

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-That's tight.
-Oh, I just got invited to a re-treat.

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[cell phone chimes]

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Retreat's actually coming up next week.
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[clears throat]

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I'm going to Paris for it.

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Shit. That's dope.

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-Hey, get pics.
-I'm gonna get lots of pics. Yeah.

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♪ I'll throw 'em all up on the 'gram ♪

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By the way, this was laced with mad wax.
So your tolerance must be OD as fuck.

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Damn, ma.

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Good luck in Paris, Jenny.
Good to meet you.

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Danni.

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-[Colin] What's up?
-My name's Danni.

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No, it's Colin.

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I'll see you at work. Or I guess I won't.

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[exaggerated laughing]

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Oh! [laughing continues]
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Fuck me.

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[guinea pig squeaks]

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Oh.

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Why, Danni, why?

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Why'd you do that?

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[sighs]

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Okay, crazy bitch.

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Paris. Paris, Paris, Paris.

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All right. How much are you, Paris?

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Shit.

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-What do you think?
-[guinea pig squeaks]

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Should we call Mommy and Daddy?

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See if they'll buy us a ticket?
Will they know that we're on drugs?

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Just kidding.
I know that you're not on drugs.
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Guinea Weasley,

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you're a fucking genius.

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["Ça plane pour moi" playing]

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[Susan] Hello?

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Susan. Hi. Danni. I had a question.

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If a really big opportunity came up,

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would there be a way
to get some time off work?

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-Absolutely not.
-Amazing. Thank you. Bye.

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Hey, Mom.

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-Guess what?
-[Mom] What?

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I got invited to a writers' retreat
in Paris.

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-Really?
-Yes, really.

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It's not a scam?

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No, it's not a scam.

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It has a website.

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Hey, guys. Crazy plot twist.

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I got an e-mail today inviting me
to go on this retreat in Paris.

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I'm on my way to the airport.

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So for this very chic beauty look,
we're gonna be taking this concealer.

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And we go dot, dot, dot.

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And dot there.

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[vlogger] The next weekend,
I did step up my outfit game a little

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because it was time to head to Paris

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and mispronounce
the names of all the pastries.

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I'm gonna stress-eat my croissant
a little bit

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to ease the discomfort
of vlogging in public.

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I'm getting dressed for a date.
A first date in fact. Now my--

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Oh, my God.

238
00:15:06,416 --> 00:15:09,375
…whether I look like I'm trying too hard
or don't try hard enough.

239
00:15:09,458 --> 00:15:12,416
Like, trying to find
the fucking effortless sexy balance

240
00:15:12,500 --> 00:15:14,541
that is always impossible to find.

241
00:15:14,625 --> 00:15:17,375
I thought it would be easier
since I only have about 40 items…

242
00:15:17,458 --> 00:15:18,500
Okay.

243
00:15:18,583 --> 00:15:19,583
[vlogger] But somehow, I have…

244
00:15:19,666 --> 00:15:25,375
3:00 a.m. That's 9:00 a.m. Paris time.
I'll post…

245
00:15:26,333 --> 00:15:28,375
[vlogger] Clothes are everywhere.
I've only tried about every…

246
00:15:28,458 --> 00:15:32,875
Starting my morning right.

247
00:15:32,958 --> 00:15:36,666
Now, where is my baguette?

248
00:15:36,750 --> 00:15:39,583
[vlogger] …very, like, French-maid-chic.

249
00:15:39,666 --> 00:15:42,833
It feels like a little bit more
of a classic first date outfit though.

250
00:15:42,916 --> 00:15:46,500
Usually with a bit of an open neckline,
so that when you're chatting--

251
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[horn blares]

252
00:16:16,416 --> 00:16:17,416
Shit.

253
00:16:23,458 --> 00:16:24,458
Okay.

254
00:16:32,041 --> 00:16:35,000
[phone vibrates repeatedly]

255
00:16:43,166 --> 00:16:46,458
[news anchor]
We have some breaking news at this hour.

256
00:16:46,541 --> 00:16:52,416
{\an8}A string of coordinated terrorist attacks
struck Paris this morning at 9:13 a.m.,

257
00:16:52,500 --> 00:16:55,125
targeting landmarks across the city.

258
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The bombings hit the Louvre,
the Champs-Élysées,

259
00:16:57,416 --> 00:16:59,875
the Centre Pompidou
and the Arc de Triomphe.

260
00:17:00,625 --> 00:17:02,458
Oh, fuck.

261
00:17:08,708 --> 00:17:09,708
Hi, Mom. Hi, Mom.

262
00:17:09,791 --> 00:17:11,041
[Mom] Oh, my God. Danni?
263
00:17:11,125 --> 00:17:13,166
-Yeah.
-Honey, she's okay!

264
00:17:13,250 --> 00:17:15,291
-I'm okay.
-What happened? Where have you been?

265
00:17:15,375 --> 00:17:17,625
-We have been calling for hours.
-No-- I'm fine. I'm okay.

266
00:17:17,708 --> 00:17:19,250
-[Dad] Thank God.
-[Mom] Where are you?

267
00:17:19,333 --> 00:17:21,625
Yeah, no, I'm-- I'm not actually--

268
00:17:21,708 --> 00:17:24,125
-[Dad] When can she come home?
-It's a long story. But-- What?

269
00:17:24,208 --> 00:17:25,333
[Mom] Are you able to leave?

270
00:17:25,416 --> 00:17:27,791
{\an8}-I could call our travel agent--
-No, no, no. I'm-- I'm not…

271
00:17:27,875 --> 00:17:29,708
{\an8}Harold, call your mother.
She keeps trying this line.

272
00:17:29,791 --> 00:17:31,708
{\an8}-[Harold] I told her to call my cell.
-Grandma knows?

273
00:17:31,791 --> 00:17:33,916
[Mom] Magdalena called.
You remember, your old nanny?

274
00:17:34,000 --> 00:17:36,375
-She follows you on the Instagram--
-Okay, I just need to-- Shi--

275
00:17:36,458 --> 00:17:38,625
-[Harold] Oh, my God. What now?
-Ow!

276
00:17:38,708 --> 00:17:40,000
-[Mom] Are you okay?
-[Harold] Are you all right?

277
00:17:40,083 --> 00:17:41,083
Yeah. Yeah, yeah, yeah.

278
00:17:41,166 --> 00:17:44,416
-[Mom] Danni!
-Yeah. Hi. I'm fine. I gotta go. Okay?

279
00:17:44,500 --> 00:17:45,791
Danni!

280
00:17:45,875 --> 00:17:48,291
[news anchor]
…but neither agency is reporting

281
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an official statement at this hour.

282
00:17:50,958 --> 00:17:55,416
So far, no terrorist organization has
claimed responsibility for the attacks.

283
00:17:55,500 --> 00:18:00,708
However, multiple witnesses have reported
seeing this suspicious individual,

284
00:18:00,791 --> 00:18:05,416
although officials have not
identified a suspect at this hour.

285
00:18:09,708 --> 00:18:12,833
Just tell them you fucked up.
You just tell them you fucked up.

286
00:18:13,875 --> 00:18:16,208
Oh, my God. Come on, you fucking idiot.

287
00:18:17,250 --> 00:18:18,583
So many.
288
00:18:20,375 --> 00:18:21,458
[phone chimes]

289
00:18:23,916 --> 00:18:25,250
[Colin] Really hope you're okay.

290
00:18:37,625 --> 00:18:40,500
[Danni] I'm okay and safe. Period.

291
00:18:40,583 --> 00:18:42,333
I don't have reliable service yet,

292
00:18:42,416 --> 00:18:45,250
but please know, I am all right.
Exclamation mark.

293
00:18:45,333 --> 00:18:49,083
Devastated for those who are not.
Broken heart emoji.

294
00:19:04,875 --> 00:19:07,500
[airport PA]
Air France flight 2677 now arriving.

295
00:19:09,500 --> 00:19:10,625
[reporter] Here they come.

296
00:19:10,708 --> 00:19:13,333
-[crowd chattering]
-[camera shutters clicking]

297
00:19:16,250 --> 00:19:20,416
Sir. Were you there at the Arc?
Do you think this was an act of terrorism?

298
00:19:20,500 --> 00:19:22,291
Did you experience any of the attacks?

299
00:19:22,375 --> 00:19:25,333
We are live here
at the International Arrival gate at JFK.

300
00:19:25,416 --> 00:19:27,541
The flight from Paris just got in.

301
00:19:27,625 --> 00:19:28,625
[Mom] Danni?

302
00:19:29,208 --> 00:19:30,958
-Danni. Oh, my God. Honey.
-Hi.

303
00:19:31,791 --> 00:19:34,291
-[sobbing]
-[Danni] Hi.

304
00:19:35,125 --> 00:19:36,250
Hi.

305
00:19:44,916 --> 00:19:46,041
[Harold] Oh, God.

306
00:19:49,833 --> 00:19:51,208
You okay, Daddy?

307
00:19:51,291 --> 00:19:52,708
Here you go.

308
00:19:53,500 --> 00:19:56,666
Just the way you like it
with the mini marshmallows.

309
00:19:57,625 --> 00:19:58,958
Wow. Thank you.

310
00:19:59,541 --> 00:20:02,750
You need to get that trauma
out of your muscles before it sticks.

311
00:20:02,833 --> 00:20:05,500
So, I'm booking you a massage
with Greta for tomorrow.

312
00:20:05,583 --> 00:20:08,291
And I want you
to start taking these new supplements.

313
00:20:08,375 --> 00:20:09,958
[sobbing]

314
00:20:10,041 --> 00:20:11,166
Harold, pull it together.

315
00:20:11,750 --> 00:20:14,416
We could've lost her. Little baby girl.

316
00:20:15,083 --> 00:20:17,958
Sweetie, have you eaten yet?
Did they feed you on the plane?

317
00:20:18,041 --> 00:20:19,166
Not really.

318
00:20:19,958 --> 00:20:21,625
Maybe we could order Momofuku?

319
00:20:21,708 --> 00:20:22,916
Oh, of course.

320
00:20:23,000 --> 00:20:26,333
Harold, do you have
that, uh, app thing for the food?

321
00:20:26,416 --> 00:20:29,125
Seamless? [sniffs] Grubhub?

322
00:20:31,041 --> 00:20:33,166
I just can't believe
you posted that photograph

323
00:20:33,250 --> 00:20:34,625
five minutes before the bombs hit.

324
00:20:34,708 --> 00:20:36,916
I mean,
what if it had been five minutes later?

325
00:20:37,000 --> 00:20:38,041
Could you even imagine?

326
00:20:38,125 --> 00:20:39,916
-[Harold] Oh, God.
-It's-- It's a lot.

327
00:20:40,000 --> 00:20:43,208
It's pretty… [chuckles] …unbelievable.
328
00:20:45,833 --> 00:20:47,875
I was actually-- I was pretty close.

329
00:20:49,083 --> 00:20:51,833
So, I had just started
walking away when it--

330
00:20:51,916 --> 00:20:52,916
Oh!

331
00:20:53,000 --> 00:20:54,375
-[Harold sobs]
-You saw the blast?

332
00:20:54,458 --> 00:20:56,708
Yeah, I saw the-- I saw the blast.

333
00:20:56,791 --> 00:20:59,666
-Oh, my God.
-Are your ears okay?

334
00:20:59,750 --> 00:21:01,083
My-- What do you--

335
00:21:01,166 --> 00:21:02,333
No ringing?

336
00:21:02,833 --> 00:21:04,625
-A little.
-Harold, wha--

337
00:21:04,708 --> 00:21:06,750
What's the name
of that colleague of yours? The ENT?

338
00:21:06,833 --> 00:21:09,458
-Richard?
-No, no, no. Mom. They're gonna be fine.

339
00:21:09,541 --> 00:21:10,541
-I'm calling Helen.
-No.

340
00:21:10,625 --> 00:21:13,250
Yeah. Her husband's cousin
was at the Boston bombing.
341
00:21:13,750 --> 00:21:16,166
Well, he was at least
in Boston at the time.

342
00:21:16,750 --> 00:21:18,916
Actually, I think he used to go
to a support group.

343
00:21:19,000 --> 00:21:20,583
That'd be good for you, emotionally.

344
00:21:21,708 --> 00:21:22,750
-Peanut.
-Yeah?

345
00:21:23,458 --> 00:21:25,416
Wanna make things
a little bit easier for you.

346
00:21:26,750 --> 00:21:28,458
-Just any way I can.
-Thank you.

347
00:21:32,458 --> 00:21:34,041
Feels like Christmas.

348
00:21:34,625 --> 00:21:38,375
We might not have ever had
another Christmas together.

349
00:21:56,000 --> 00:21:58,833
-I just wanted to say good night.
-Okay. Night.

350
00:22:01,541 --> 00:22:02,625
Love you.

351
00:22:07,583 --> 00:22:09,041
I love you too.

352
00:22:10,166 --> 00:22:13,583
I know I haven't said this
as much as I should,

353
00:22:14,333 --> 00:22:17,625
but I just want you to know
I'm so proud of you.

354
00:22:18,791 --> 00:22:20,291
[Harold] Me too, Peanut.

355
00:22:24,625 --> 00:22:25,625
So…

356
00:22:27,541 --> 00:22:28,750
Sweet dreams.

357
00:22:37,875 --> 00:22:39,458
[ghostly voice] Dix.

358
00:22:45,541 --> 00:22:47,000
[sighs]

359
00:22:49,208 --> 00:22:51,291
["Bonnie and Clyde (Akse Remix)" playing]

360
00:22:58,083 --> 00:22:59,541
[tourists chattering]

361
00:23:03,875 --> 00:23:04,875
[sighs]

362
00:23:11,375 --> 00:23:12,375
[Danni chuckles]

363
00:23:12,458 --> 00:23:14,666
[violin playing "La Marseillaise"]

364
00:23:25,000 --> 00:23:28,833
Starting my morning right.
Now, where's my baguette? Baguette emoji.

365
00:23:29,333 --> 00:23:31,375
[beeping]

366
00:23:44,166 --> 00:23:46,583
[beeping intensifies]

367
00:23:46,666 --> 00:23:47,666
[explosion]
368
00:24:18,500 --> 00:24:20,166
Danni.

369
00:24:20,250 --> 00:24:22,625
I have to be honest.
I don't even know what to say.

370
00:24:23,125 --> 00:24:24,375
What?

371
00:24:24,458 --> 00:24:26,625
I can't even fathom
what you've been through.

372
00:24:26,708 --> 00:24:29,541
And I don't want you to feel pressure
to come back to work right away.

373
00:24:29,625 --> 00:24:32,875
No, really. I wanna be here.

374
00:24:32,958 --> 00:24:35,750
If you're sure, but you set the pace.

375
00:24:35,833 --> 00:24:39,541
If you need to leave early,
take a mental health day,

376
00:24:39,625 --> 00:24:41,833
you don't even have to ask, just go.

377
00:24:42,791 --> 00:24:44,083
-I will.
-And, Danni--

378
00:24:45,250 --> 00:24:46,958
I know we've had our conflicts.

379
00:24:47,041 --> 00:24:50,125
And I'm so sorry
I was ever gonna fire you.

380
00:24:50,208 --> 00:24:51,666
But I want you to know,
381
00:24:51,750 --> 00:24:54,291
-the fact that you're standing right here…
-You were gonna fire me?

382
00:24:54,375 --> 00:24:57,666
…in front of me instead of being
curled up in a ball somewhere,

383
00:24:57,750 --> 00:25:01,291
mainlining gummy worms,
which is what I would have been doing,

384
00:25:02,500 --> 00:25:04,125
that's incredible.

385
00:25:04,208 --> 00:25:06,375
You are so strong.

386
00:25:07,916 --> 00:25:09,583
Isn't she so strong, everybody?

387
00:25:09,666 --> 00:25:11,625
-[colleague] Yeah.
-[Susan] Mm-hmm.

388
00:25:11,708 --> 00:25:13,250
Yeah.

389
00:25:13,333 --> 00:25:16,500
You go, girl! You go, woman.

390
00:25:16,583 --> 00:25:19,958
[chuckles] Thank you, everyone. Thank you.

391
00:25:20,041 --> 00:25:22,416
Mmm. It means the world.

392
00:25:22,500 --> 00:25:25,541
-[chuckles]
-Okay, good.

393
00:25:26,125 --> 00:25:28,791
Let me know if there's anything else
I can do. Anything at all.

394
00:25:28,875 --> 00:25:30,041
-Okay.

395
00:25:38,250 --> 00:25:39,333
Actually.

396
00:25:42,083 --> 00:25:43,333
I was thinking, um…

397
00:25:46,083 --> 00:25:49,125
Maybe writing a piece about my experience,

398
00:25:49,208 --> 00:25:53,250
it-- it might help me
work through the pain.

399
00:25:53,333 --> 00:25:58,000
Of course. Depravity would be honored
to give you a platform.

400
00:25:58,625 --> 00:25:59,666
All right.

401
00:26:05,958 --> 00:26:07,291
[sighs]

402
00:26:07,375 --> 00:26:10,041
So, it was a totally normal day at first.

403
00:26:10,708 --> 00:26:12,583
It was sunny. It was clear.

404
00:26:12,666 --> 00:26:16,041
I was at the Arc having
a cute little, quiet morning to myself,

405
00:26:16,125 --> 00:26:18,375
before I went to breakfast
with the other writers.

406
00:26:21,041 --> 00:26:22,208
And I don't know.

407
00:26:23,333 --> 00:26:26,291
I saw this weird guy in this big jacket.
408
00:26:29,041 --> 00:26:30,916
Then suddenly,
I was hit with this feeling.

409
00:26:33,000 --> 00:26:34,833
Like something horrible was gonna happen.

410
00:26:34,916 --> 00:26:36,000
Oh, Jesus.

411
00:26:36,500 --> 00:26:37,791
I knew I needed to leave.

412
00:26:39,125 --> 00:26:42,500
So I turned around to go,
and as I was walking away,

413
00:26:42,583 --> 00:26:43,833
-boom!
-[all gasp]

414
00:26:44,416 --> 00:26:45,791
That's when it hit.

415
00:26:46,833 --> 00:26:50,458
So you're a psychic.
Like the Lady of Galadhrim.

416
00:26:50,958 --> 00:26:52,416
Or it was God.

417
00:26:52,500 --> 00:26:55,666
Excuse me.
This is a non-denominational workspace.

418
00:26:55,750 --> 00:26:57,000
Well, I didn't say which god.

419
00:26:57,500 --> 00:26:58,791
-Didn't you?
-Whoa. Whoa.

420
00:27:01,208 --> 00:27:04,916
My bad. [chuckles]
It's just my ears are still ringing.
421
00:27:05,000 --> 00:27:06,708
Because of the terrorists?

422
00:27:07,458 --> 00:27:08,458
[Colin] Yo, Danni.

423
00:27:10,541 --> 00:27:11,750
Come here for a sec.

424
00:27:12,708 --> 00:27:14,458
Yes. Co-- I come.

425
00:27:16,166 --> 00:27:18,208
Danni, um…

426
00:27:18,291 --> 00:27:21,666
We just wanted to invite you
to queer bowling.

427
00:27:21,750 --> 00:27:23,500
-Aw!
-Like, if you wanted to come.

428
00:27:23,583 --> 00:27:26,000
-Everybody's a little bit gay. Right?
-[chuckles]

429
00:27:26,083 --> 00:27:27,166
Aren't we?

430
00:27:29,750 --> 00:27:30,833
I have to--

431
00:27:31,750 --> 00:27:34,958
Sorry. I was just-- just chatting
with my gay friends.

432
00:27:36,541 --> 00:27:37,625
Wow.

433
00:27:37,708 --> 00:27:40,458
I, uh… I got you this.

434
00:27:41,583 --> 00:27:44,958
You know, for, like, a feel-better gift.
435
00:27:46,250 --> 00:27:47,625
It's a joint.

436
00:27:48,791 --> 00:27:49,875
Thank you.

437
00:27:50,666 --> 00:27:52,083
I'm really glad you're not dead.

438
00:27:54,375 --> 00:27:55,375
Me too.

439
00:27:57,416 --> 00:28:00,458
[chuckles] Ha.

440
00:28:04,416 --> 00:28:08,291
[Danni] My name is Danni Sanders,
and on April 10th, I almost died,

441
00:28:08,791 --> 00:28:11,041
but something, or someone, saved me.

442
00:28:11,625 --> 00:28:15,625
Maybe it was a guardian angel,
or God, or Alan Rickman's ghost,

443
00:28:15,708 --> 00:28:17,583
but I don't think that I believe
in any of that.

444
00:28:18,291 --> 00:28:21,291
More likely, it was me who saved me.

445
00:28:22,375 --> 00:28:23,583
Not that I believe in myself either.

446
00:28:23,666 --> 00:28:26,416
But if all of this
has taught me something…

447
00:28:27,083 --> 00:28:28,083
[chuckles]

448
00:28:28,583 --> 00:28:29,625
…it's that maybe I should.

449
00:28:31,541 --> 00:28:32,583
Oh, my God.

450
00:28:34,875 --> 00:28:37,000
This is me. Exclamation mark.

451
00:28:39,208 --> 00:28:41,166
[intermittent buzzing]

452
00:28:42,166 --> 00:28:44,166
[ghostly voice] Neuf.

453
00:29:02,500 --> 00:29:04,541
[phone vibrates repeatedly]

454
00:29:05,791 --> 00:29:09,791
-I will never forget what I saw that day.
-[guinea pig squeaks]

455
00:29:14,916 --> 00:29:16,250
What did I see that day?

456
00:29:19,291 --> 00:29:22,125
Okay. Survivor of bombing.

457
00:29:24,125 --> 00:29:25,541
Ew.

458
00:29:25,625 --> 00:29:26,625
Oh, my God.

459
00:29:32,291 --> 00:29:34,541
That's good. That's a good idea.

460
00:29:40,041 --> 00:29:41,916
-Hello?
-Hey, Mom. Hi, Mom.

461
00:29:42,000 --> 00:29:43,541
-How are you, Danni?
-Hi, Mom. Yeah.

462
00:29:43,625 --> 00:29:45,416
-No, I just had a quick question.
-Uh-huh?

463
00:29:45,500 --> 00:29:46,500
What--

464
00:29:47,000 --> 00:29:50,000
Do you remember what the name
of the support group is

465
00:29:50,083 --> 00:29:51,791
that Helen's husband used to go to?

466
00:30:07,583 --> 00:30:11,166
[survivor 1] …and the sounds were coming,
like, 30 seconds apart.

467
00:30:11,250 --> 00:30:14,208
I'm sure it was just
a wheel on the tracks.

468
00:30:14,708 --> 00:30:17,000
Everyone else was just, you know, annoyed.

469
00:30:17,916 --> 00:30:20,083
I physically started shaking.

470
00:30:20,583 --> 00:30:24,375
I got off the train.
I just walked uptown from Canal.

471
00:30:24,458 --> 00:30:27,958
I mean, I felt like such an idiot.
And I was late.

472
00:30:29,125 --> 00:30:31,666
-I was not getting back on that train.
-[chuckles]

473
00:30:31,750 --> 00:30:33,708
[leader]
Loud noises can be very triggering.

474
00:30:34,541 --> 00:30:36,166
I think a lot of us struggled with that.

475
00:30:36,916 --> 00:30:39,666
[survivor 2] I make my kids mute
the TV when they're gaming.

476
00:30:40,708 --> 00:30:43,791
They hate it.
But I can't get any work done

477
00:30:43,875 --> 00:30:47,208
when I'm hearing gunfire
or-- or explosions.

478
00:30:47,291 --> 00:30:49,083
{\an8}You let your kids play those?

479
00:30:50,041 --> 00:30:53,458
{\an8}You don't think that's normalizing
a culture that glorifies gun violence?

480
00:30:53,541 --> 00:30:56,416
Okay, why don't we all just take a second

481
00:30:56,500 --> 00:31:00,000
and welcome our new addition.

482
00:31:01,583 --> 00:31:02,583
Hi.

483
00:31:03,166 --> 00:31:04,291
Hi.

484
00:31:04,375 --> 00:31:06,500
{\an8}-[leader] What's your name?
-Danni.

485
00:31:10,291 --> 00:31:13,416
I was in Paris last week
when the bombings hit at the Arc.

486
00:31:15,458 --> 00:31:18,500
Oh. I am so sorry. Do you--

487
00:31:19,291 --> 00:31:25,166
Do you wanna share anything about how
you're-- you're feeling, or your thoughts?

488
00:31:25,750 --> 00:31:27,541
Oh. [chuckles]

489
00:31:30,125 --> 00:31:32,541
I was just hoping to listen today.

490
00:31:33,250 --> 00:31:35,791
Of course. Of course, Danni.
In your own time.

491
00:31:36,833 --> 00:31:38,750
We're all survivors here.

492
00:31:40,000 --> 00:31:42,583
Charles, why don't you speak for a bit?

493
00:31:43,208 --> 00:31:46,416
Charles is one of our newer members.

494
00:31:46,916 --> 00:31:49,250
He just returned from the UK.

495
00:31:50,333 --> 00:31:52,250
{\an8}He's also a bombing survivor.

496
00:31:52,333 --> 00:31:54,208
{\an8}He was at the Ariana Grande concert.

497
00:31:56,541 --> 00:31:59,458
Look, it's not easy…

498
00:32:00,750 --> 00:32:01,750
okay?

499
00:32:03,041 --> 00:32:04,958
I mean, it's been years for me,

500
00:32:05,041 --> 00:32:07,416
and I still have to talk
about it every week.

501
00:32:10,833 --> 00:32:13,708
I'm sorry. That's not comforting. Um…

502
00:32:14,833 --> 00:32:16,291
It's not like--

503
00:32:17,333 --> 00:32:20,583
{\an8}Your life doesn't end. Okay?

504
00:32:22,708 --> 00:32:25,041
{\an8}I know that it probably feels
like that right now.

505
00:32:26,541 --> 00:32:27,666
{\an8}It's just…

506
00:32:29,916 --> 00:32:31,250
{\an8}Everything changes colors.

507
00:32:32,666 --> 00:32:35,125
{\an8}Yes. That's-- Exactly.

508
00:32:36,458 --> 00:32:38,416
{\an8}I never would have thought
to put it like that.

509
00:32:39,833 --> 00:32:42,083
{\an8}What is it for you?

510
00:32:44,708 --> 00:32:45,875
{\an8}Maybe purple.

511
00:32:47,541 --> 00:32:48,625
{\an8}What's yours?

512
00:32:51,916 --> 00:32:53,083
{\an8}Red.

513
00:32:53,958 --> 00:32:56,875
{\an8}It's like everything is red forever.

514
00:32:58,500 --> 00:33:02,791
{\an8}And on one hand,
it's really vivid and intense.

515
00:33:04,916 --> 00:33:07,875
{\an8}But on the other,
everything feels completely…

516
00:33:10,166 --> 00:33:11,250
{\an8}monochrome.

517
00:33:13,625 --> 00:33:14,958
You relate to that, Danni?

518
00:33:17,875 --> 00:33:19,000
I just--

519
00:33:21,125 --> 00:33:22,916
Sort of understand the monochrome bit.

520
00:33:24,625 --> 00:33:26,958
{\an8}That's how everything is for me too.
But mine's like…

521
00:33:29,625 --> 00:33:31,083
gray all the time.

522
00:33:33,083 --> 00:33:35,958
And how does it feel
when the world looks that way to you?

523
00:33:37,375 --> 00:33:38,458
I don't know.

524
00:33:39,250 --> 00:33:40,833
Doesn't really feel like anything.

525
00:33:43,708 --> 00:33:44,791
Just sort of numb.

526
00:33:50,541 --> 00:33:51,625
Ugh.

527
00:33:52,791 --> 00:33:53,791
[chuckles]

528
00:33:55,625 --> 00:33:56,750
See you next week.

529
00:33:56,833 --> 00:33:59,583
Yeah. I will 100% be back.

530
00:34:00,125 --> 00:34:02,375
Rowan, I am so sorry to do this to you,

531
00:34:02,458 --> 00:34:04,666
but my daughter is such
a huge fan of yours.

532
00:34:05,166 --> 00:34:07,791
Would you mind taking a quick photo
with me for her?

533
00:34:07,875 --> 00:34:11,500
-Yeah, of course.
-Thanks. I really appreciate it.

534
00:34:14,750 --> 00:34:17,125
Where's my ChapStick? Maybe I dropped it.

535
00:34:17,208 --> 00:34:18,625
Oh!

536
00:34:18,708 --> 00:34:21,791
You guys almost forgot this last chair.

537
00:34:21,875 --> 00:34:24,416
-Here.
-Oh, you're so sweet. [chuckles]

538
00:34:24,500 --> 00:34:25,625
So, um…

539
00:34:27,416 --> 00:34:30,208
I'm Danni, by the way. Danni Sanders.

540
00:34:31,208 --> 00:34:33,791
{\an8}-Rowan. Welcome to group.
-Thanks.

541
00:34:35,500 --> 00:34:38,791
{\an8}Thanks for sharing today.
I know the first meeting can be hard.

542
00:34:39,708 --> 00:34:44,625
{\an8}Do you guys do, like,
post-group coffee or…

543
00:34:44,708 --> 00:34:47,000
{\an8}Actually I have to run
to this school rehearsal thing.

544
00:34:47,083 --> 00:34:48,375
{\an8}-No worries, no worries.
-Next time.

545
00:34:48,458 --> 00:34:49,458
{\an8}-Yeah, yeah, yeah.
-Yeah.

546
00:34:49,541 --> 00:34:51,458
{\an8}Maybe we can swap Insta handles
or numbers?

547
00:34:51,958 --> 00:34:53,000
{\an8}Sure. Yeah.

548
00:34:53,500 --> 00:34:54,750
{\an8}Okay. Yeah.

549
00:35:00,125 --> 00:35:02,666
{\an8}Here. Just text me anytime, okay?

550
00:35:02,750 --> 00:35:03,833
{\an8}Oh, thank you.

551
00:35:04,708 --> 00:35:06,208
Bye. I'll talk to you later.

552
00:35:06,291 --> 00:35:07,916
-See ya, Charles.
-[Charles] See ya.

553
00:35:15,791 --> 00:35:18,541
I'm actually free right now
if you wanna go grab that coffee.

554
00:35:19,541 --> 00:35:21,125
Oh, gosh.

555
00:35:21,958 --> 00:35:25,250
I forgot I have this thing
that I have to do. So…

556
00:35:25,833 --> 00:35:26,875
Yeah. Okay.

557
00:35:26,958 --> 00:35:29,875
Cool. Hey, did you want my Insta handle?

558
00:35:29,958 --> 00:35:31,583
Uh…

559
00:35:31,666 --> 00:35:35,666
It's "godisawomanmann."
Two Ns. "Godisawomanmann."

560
00:35:35,750 --> 00:35:36,750
[Danni] Okay.

561
00:35:47,291 --> 00:35:49,291
[contributor]
Today we're talking about Rowan Aldren,

562
00:35:49,375 --> 00:35:54,083
a teen gun-safety activist,
poet and social influencer.

563
00:35:54,166 --> 00:35:56,500
After surviving the Oak Valley
school shooting in North Carolina,

564
00:35:56,583 --> 00:35:59,666
Rowan came to New York to partner
with the We've Had Enough organization

565
00:35:59,750 --> 00:36:03,666
to begin her fight for gun reform.
Here's a look.

566
00:36:03,750 --> 00:36:04,791
[Rowan] Two miles.

567
00:36:06,208 --> 00:36:09,083
You can be two miles from a gunshot
and still hear it.

568
00:36:10,500 --> 00:36:12,541
That day,
even if you were nowhere near it,

569
00:36:12,625 --> 00:36:15,958
I swear, you heard those bullets
loud enough to fear 'em.

570
00:36:18,125 --> 00:36:19,416
Two miles.

571
00:36:20,916 --> 00:36:23,541
But the 23 at my school
carried much farther.

572
00:36:24,208 --> 00:36:27,416
Maybe that's just how it sounds
when a child dies a martyr.

573
00:36:28,625 --> 00:36:31,166
And yet, it was quiet.

574
00:36:32,416 --> 00:36:33,791
Quieter than it should have been.

575
00:36:34,875 --> 00:36:37,833
We needed a riot
and all we got was a funeral hymn.

576
00:36:38,791 --> 00:36:41,333
And someone saying, "Hey,
couldn't one of you have tackled him?"

577
00:36:43,500 --> 00:36:47,250
Two miles. And yet not a word.

578
00:36:48,375 --> 00:36:52,833
I look up at the people in power
and ask how thick are your walls

579
00:36:52,916 --> 00:36:55,125
that you can't hear what I heard?

580
00:36:56,500 --> 00:37:01,041
Well, here, behind our walls,
our lives were taken turn by turn.

581
00:37:03,166 --> 00:37:05,666
Have we earned your sympathy yet, sir?

582
00:37:08,125 --> 00:37:10,791
There is more than one person at fault
for what happened to us.

583
00:37:11,958 --> 00:37:15,000
There is more than one person
who pulled the trigger on that gun.

584
00:37:15,083 --> 00:37:16,625
And I have had enough.

585
00:37:17,125 --> 00:37:19,375
Enough pain. Enough corruption.

586
00:37:19,458 --> 00:37:21,500
Enough death. Enough destruction.

587
00:37:21,583 --> 00:37:25,500
Enough sleepless nights,
still watching my friends die.

588
00:37:26,500 --> 00:37:30,208
Enough of listening
to our politicians lie.

589
00:37:30,291 --> 00:37:31,375
Enough!

590
00:37:31,458 --> 00:37:33,125
[crowd cheering]

591
00:37:42,083 --> 00:37:43,166
[Danni] Hey.

592
00:37:43,875 --> 00:37:47,791
-Hey.
-That is such a cute hairpin. I'm dead.

593
00:37:47,875 --> 00:37:51,625
-Oh, thank you. I made it myself.
-Cool.

594
00:37:52,791 --> 00:37:54,416
-So-- No, you.
-So--

595
00:37:54,500 --> 00:37:56,125
I was just gonna say thank you
for meeting me.

596
00:37:56,208 --> 00:37:58,000
Yeah, of course. Of course.

597
00:37:59,000 --> 00:38:01,291
How are you-- How are you doing?

598
00:38:01,375 --> 00:38:02,625
I'm good. Yeah.

599
00:38:02,708 --> 00:38:06,041
-I mean, I'm managing, I guess. Yeah. But…
-Yes.

600
00:38:07,833 --> 00:38:10,708
Do you have family around?
You know, like, in New York?

601
00:38:10,791 --> 00:38:13,875
Yeah. My dad cries
whenever he sees me now though.

602
00:38:13,958 --> 00:38:16,583
And my mom keeps shipping me

603
00:38:16,666 --> 00:38:19,125
wellness supplements
that she reads about on goop.

604
00:38:19,208 --> 00:38:24,291
Okay, um, well, what about your friends?

605
00:38:26,833 --> 00:38:28,250
I mean, I'm seeing you, right?

606
00:38:29,750 --> 00:38:30,833
Right.

607
00:38:31,916 --> 00:38:33,000
So, you know…

608
00:38:41,416 --> 00:38:46,000
Hey, are you-- are you cool
if we, maybe, walk somewhere?

609
00:38:46,958 --> 00:38:48,083
-Yeah.
-Yeah?

610
00:38:48,833 --> 00:38:49,916
[Danni] That's a good idea.

611
00:38:53,166 --> 00:38:54,458
[Rowan] I'm glad you reached out.

612
00:38:54,541 --> 00:38:57,833
It's gonna be great to have someone
in group who's not, like, 50.

613
00:38:57,916 --> 00:39:01,083
Oh, that's-- No, I'm--
I don't think I'll--

614
00:39:02,166 --> 00:39:04,875
That was just, like,
a onetime thing for me. But--

615
00:39:05,375 --> 00:39:06,916
The support group? Why?

616
00:39:08,375 --> 00:39:11,416
I don't know.
Therapy never really worked for me.

617
00:39:13,750 --> 00:39:17,625
It's not therapy, okay?
It's better. It's-- It's family.

618
00:39:19,375 --> 00:39:23,541
Besides, I mean, who's gonna help me
explain TikTok references to the boomers?

619
00:39:23,625 --> 00:39:26,625
Is TikTok a-- Is it a topic
that comes up a lot in meetings?

620
00:39:26,708 --> 00:39:28,708
-Oh, you would be surprised.
-[chuckles]
621
00:39:30,791 --> 00:39:34,583
So, listen. I was kinda hoping I might
be able to get your advice on something.

622
00:39:35,125 --> 00:39:37,500
Full disclosure, I stalked you online.

623
00:39:38,791 --> 00:39:41,583
That poetry you do, it's crazy.
It sounds just like Hamilton.

624
00:39:43,000 --> 00:39:44,916
Yeah, it's-- it's called spoken word.

625
00:39:45,000 --> 00:39:46,833
Cool, cool, cool. I'm a writer too.

626
00:39:46,916 --> 00:39:47,916
Oh, cool.

627
00:39:48,000 --> 00:39:50,041
Yeah. And I actually have
this article due right now

628
00:39:50,125 --> 00:39:51,583
for the magazine that I'm working at.

629
00:39:51,666 --> 00:39:53,458
And I feel really stuck.

630
00:39:53,541 --> 00:39:54,916
Like, I just--

631
00:39:55,958 --> 00:39:58,708
I don't know if you could
give me any tips, or…

632
00:39:59,208 --> 00:40:00,458
It's about what happened?

633
00:40:01,166 --> 00:40:02,583
And I brought my laptop.

634
00:40:02,666 --> 00:40:06,500
I don't know. We could hole up
at one of those little writer-y cafés.

635
00:40:06,583 --> 00:40:07,666
You could be my coach.

636
00:40:08,583 --> 00:40:10,333
-Sure.
-Thank you. Okay.

637
00:40:10,416 --> 00:40:13,833
You know, actually,
I wanted to take you here first.

638
00:40:14,500 --> 00:40:16,333
I think it could be super helpful.

639
00:40:16,416 --> 00:40:19,375
Before you write, you have to deal with
why you're feeling stuck.

640
00:40:20,500 --> 00:40:23,541
-Oh, okay, so-- And then we'll go write?
-Yeah. Come on.

641
00:40:23,625 --> 00:40:24,625
Okay.

642
00:40:26,833 --> 00:40:28,291
What is this place?

643
00:40:28,791 --> 00:40:30,625
[Rowan]
How do you feel about breaking things?

644
00:40:31,291 --> 00:40:34,541
Fuck the Senate for not passing
that background check bill last week.

645
00:40:35,208 --> 00:40:37,458
[panting]

646
00:40:37,541 --> 00:40:38,583
Now you try.

647
00:40:39,708 --> 00:40:41,500
Oh. Um…
648
00:40:42,250 --> 00:40:43,333
Okay.

649
00:40:48,250 --> 00:40:49,791
Fuck the bombing in Paris.

650
00:40:49,875 --> 00:40:52,625
No, you're not mad enough, okay?
You have to feel it.

651
00:40:53,750 --> 00:40:58,458
Okay. What if I don't--
What if I don't feel angry?

652
00:40:59,208 --> 00:41:01,500
All right, then what do you feel?

653
00:41:02,750 --> 00:41:04,500
Well, I don't know. [scoffs]

654
00:41:08,541 --> 00:41:09,916
Numb.

655
00:41:10,000 --> 00:41:11,083
Still numb.

656
00:41:12,583 --> 00:41:15,625
Use that. Smash the numbness.

657
00:41:18,541 --> 00:41:20,000
[whispers] Smash the numbness.

658
00:41:24,708 --> 00:41:26,458
Good. Again.

659
00:41:28,416 --> 00:41:31,166
Yes. Okay, you feel that?
Keep going. Let it out!

660
00:41:32,416 --> 00:41:35,250
That's it. Let it out.
Yell if you want to.

661
00:41:37,291 --> 00:41:38,291
Fuck you.

662
00:41:45,916 --> 00:41:47,500
[Danni laughs]

663
00:41:51,708 --> 00:41:54,250
[breathes heavily]

664
00:42:00,958 --> 00:42:05,375
Look, what you asked before--
that is how I write.

665
00:42:06,250 --> 00:42:07,708
You have to attack it.

666
00:42:08,541 --> 00:42:10,875
That is what's gonna make
people pay attention. Okay?

667
00:42:10,958 --> 00:42:13,583
No more scrolling past headlines.
No more distractions.

668
00:42:15,458 --> 00:42:17,000
We do that with our truth.

669
00:42:19,625 --> 00:42:21,458
If you're not okay, that's okay.

670
00:42:22,583 --> 00:42:25,083
You know as-- as fucked up as it sounds,

671
00:42:26,166 --> 00:42:28,250
your pain is your biggest asset.

672
00:42:32,083 --> 00:42:33,083
[grunts]

673
00:42:36,750 --> 00:42:37,750
Yeah.

674
00:42:41,583 --> 00:42:43,708
[panting]

675
00:42:50,958 --> 00:42:51,958
Oh, my God.

676
00:42:54,000 --> 00:42:55,000
Okay.

677
00:42:57,833 --> 00:42:59,791
I'll never forget what I saw that day.

678
00:43:00,291 --> 00:43:03,041
But the truth is,
you don't need to hear it.

679
00:43:03,708 --> 00:43:05,333
All you need to know is…

680
00:43:05,416 --> 00:43:09,208
I am not okay.

681
00:43:11,416 --> 00:43:13,625
What happened in Paris changed me.

682
00:43:13,708 --> 00:43:18,375
But what I've realized since
is that my pain can actually be an asset.

683
00:43:18,458 --> 00:43:20,833
It can stop you all
from scrolling past headlines,

684
00:43:20,916 --> 00:43:25,125
distracting yourselves with baby goats
and SHEIN ads and ASMR videos.

685
00:43:25,208 --> 00:43:26,666
It can make you pay attention

686
00:43:26,750 --> 00:43:30,750
and, in turn, truly ask yourselves,
"Am I okay?"

687
00:43:30,833 --> 00:43:32,541
Am I okay?

688
00:43:32,625 --> 00:43:36,916
[Danni] Now, my own sadness, my anger--
they may stem from something
689
00:43:37,000 --> 00:43:39,791
more traumatic
than you'll ever experience,

690
00:43:40,500 --> 00:43:43,125
but that doesn't mean
your pain isn't just as real.

691
00:43:43,208 --> 00:43:44,208
Yo.

692
00:43:44,291 --> 00:43:46,666
[Danni] It doesn't mean
you're not waking up every day

693
00:43:46,750 --> 00:43:49,541
feeling numb and useless and alone.

694
00:43:50,041 --> 00:43:51,875
I think a lot of us are.

695
00:43:52,500 --> 00:43:53,958
So I wanna invite you.

696
00:43:54,041 --> 00:43:58,208
Take this opportunity to share your truth,
share your pain.

697
00:43:58,291 --> 00:44:01,500
You've got nothing to lose
and everything to gain.

698
00:44:01,583 --> 00:44:02,875
Let's make the world wake up

699
00:44:02,958 --> 00:44:05,375
and pay attention
to the fact that we're all hurting,

700
00:44:05,458 --> 00:44:07,958
and it's time to stop being so afraid.

701
00:44:08,041 --> 00:44:10,958
We stan a fearless queen.
702
00:44:11,041 --> 00:44:14,583
-Hey, Danni. Booch?
-Sure.

703
00:44:14,666 --> 00:44:16,458
Oh, my God. Cheers.

704
00:44:17,291 --> 00:44:18,375
Cheers.

705
00:44:19,458 --> 00:44:20,625
[colleagues chuckle]

706
00:44:22,000 --> 00:44:24,500
So as BLM and MeToo came before us,

707
00:44:24,583 --> 00:44:31,500
let us usher in a new era of honesty
on the Internet. #IAmNotOkay.

708
00:44:31,583 --> 00:44:34,250
-[alarm sounds]
-[breathing heavily]

709
00:44:34,333 --> 00:44:35,750
[school PA] This is a lockdown drill.

710
00:44:35,833 --> 00:44:39,000
All students and teachers
please follow lockdown procedure.

711
00:44:50,500 --> 00:44:53,916
[Danni] Here's the article.
It would mean a lot if you reposted.

712
00:44:54,000 --> 00:44:55,750
Couldn't have written it without you.

713
00:44:55,833 --> 00:44:57,750
Dancing girls emoji,
sparkling heart emoji.

714
00:45:04,166 --> 00:45:06,541
[Rowan] Congrats, @TheDanniSanders.

715
00:45:07,416 --> 00:45:10,833
If you haven't read her article yet,
it's up on Depravity right now.

716
00:45:13,958 --> 00:45:18,416
#IAmNotOkay.

717
00:45:40,666 --> 00:45:42,500
[Maddy] I feel empty all the time.

718
00:45:42,583 --> 00:45:44,250
[Hana] I can't sleep
because our planet is fucked.

719
00:45:44,333 --> 00:45:46,166
[overlapping voices reading posts]

720
00:45:46,250 --> 00:45:48,375
-I am not okay.

721
00:45:48,458 --> 00:45:50,083
I am not okay.

722
00:45:50,166 --> 00:45:52,458
We are not okay.

723
00:45:52,541 --> 00:45:54,416
[multiple voices] #IAmNotOkay.

724
00:45:58,750 --> 00:46:00,458
Danni, you had a big week.

725
00:46:00,541 --> 00:46:01,583
[Danni chuckles]

726
00:46:01,666 --> 00:46:03,666
Do you wanna talk a little

727
00:46:03,750 --> 00:46:07,000
about how it felt
to publish such a personal piece?

728
00:46:08,166 --> 00:46:09,375
Uh…

729
00:46:10,041 --> 00:46:11,041
Honestly…

730
00:46:14,416 --> 00:46:16,208
it's been amazing.

731
00:46:16,291 --> 00:46:20,625
It's just so freeing
to finally admit that I am not okay.

732
00:46:21,125 --> 00:46:25,041
And it's so crazy
to see all these celebrities

733
00:46:25,750 --> 00:46:28,708
using my hashtag
to talk about their trauma.

734
00:46:28,791 --> 00:46:30,666
Did you see Kendall Jenner's post?

735
00:46:30,750 --> 00:46:32,125
-You did?
-Oh, yeah.

736
00:46:32,208 --> 00:46:34,958
I had no idea
that she was so discriminated against.

737
00:46:36,541 --> 00:46:38,333
You always hear these horror stories

738
00:46:38,416 --> 00:46:41,333
of people in the spotlight
getting all this hate, but I don't know.

739
00:46:41,416 --> 00:46:43,041
Doesn't seem to be happening to me.

740
00:46:44,833 --> 00:46:47,708
Well,
you should still be prepared if it does.

741
00:46:49,791 --> 00:46:51,875
I think what Rowan is trying to say is,

742
00:46:52,541 --> 00:46:57,250
some people on the Internet just
aren't as nice as we'd like them to be.

743
00:46:58,000 --> 00:47:00,916
I think I can handle, like,
one troll on Twitter.

744
00:47:03,083 --> 00:47:05,041
I've been through a lot worse, right?

745
00:47:06,625 --> 00:47:08,166
Right. Yeah, of course.

746
00:47:12,458 --> 00:47:16,416
So, wait. Did I hear you guys were doing,
like, a kickball game on Saturday?

747
00:47:16,500 --> 00:47:20,541
Yeah. It's kind of the best time.
You should come.

748
00:47:20,625 --> 00:47:22,583
Yeah, sure. I'm down.

749
00:47:22,666 --> 00:47:27,833
You know, I owe you a major,
major thank you for posting my article.

750
00:47:28,750 --> 00:47:30,916
You're one of the main reasons
that it blew up.

751
00:47:31,000 --> 00:47:32,500
I mean, you and Kendall.

752
00:47:32,583 --> 00:47:34,625
No, I'm-- I'm happy to help.

753
00:47:35,583 --> 00:47:39,208
And listen, I didn't-- I didn't mean
to sound pessimistic or anything in group.

754
00:47:39,291 --> 00:47:40,958
-I just-- I--
-Oh, no.
755
00:47:41,041 --> 00:47:44,583
I know the Internet likes
to turn victims into villains sometimes.

756
00:47:44,666 --> 00:47:48,375
And I am an expert at blocking,
so I am here if you need me.

757
00:47:48,458 --> 00:47:49,458
Thank you.

758
00:47:51,541 --> 00:47:54,500
So, what are these mysterious rehearsals
you're always walking to?

759
00:47:54,583 --> 00:47:57,041
Oh, uh, this thing called Act Up
at my school.

760
00:47:57,125 --> 00:47:58,375
It's, um--

761
00:47:58,458 --> 00:48:01,250
Well, they call it a talent show
for the most talented kids in New York.

762
00:48:01,333 --> 00:48:03,250
No pressure or anything.

763
00:48:03,333 --> 00:48:06,166
No pressure? Rowan,
you're literally the most talented person

764
00:48:06,250 --> 00:48:08,833
-that I have ever met in my entire-- Yes.
-Oh, my God. No.

765
00:48:08,916 --> 00:48:11,250
-What do you mean, "no"?
-It's a lot to juggle, okay?

766
00:48:11,333 --> 00:48:14,458
It's-- I've got another rally
coming up next week,

767
00:48:14,541 --> 00:48:16,916
-and I always get so anxious.
-Really?

768
00:48:17,000 --> 00:48:18,500
I have really bad stage fright.

769
00:48:18,583 --> 00:48:19,958
-I don't believe that.
-No, I do.

770
00:48:20,041 --> 00:48:23,375
I mean, back at Oak Valley,
Cora, my sister--

771
00:48:23,458 --> 00:48:26,583
She literally had to, like,
hype me up before every book report.

772
00:48:26,666 --> 00:48:27,958
That's cute.

773
00:48:28,041 --> 00:48:31,000
Yeah. She would, like,
blast cheesy oldies music in her car.

774
00:48:31,083 --> 00:48:34,000
-Like, dad tunes?
-Yeah. Like, Avril Lavigne.

775
00:48:34,083 --> 00:48:36,916
Did you just say
that Avril Lavigne is oldies?

776
00:48:37,625 --> 00:48:41,166
I can't. I didn't know you had a sister.

777
00:48:41,250 --> 00:48:43,333
-She older or younger?
-I'm right here.

778
00:48:43,416 --> 00:48:44,958
She's-- She's older.

779
00:48:46,791 --> 00:48:48,083
You're so lucky.

780
00:48:48,166 --> 00:48:52,125
I've always wanted a sister.
Being an only child is so boring.

781
00:48:52,208 --> 00:48:55,416
Does she, like, sneak you beers
and all that fun stuff?

782
00:48:56,958 --> 00:48:59,375
Uh, no. Actually, she's, um…

783
00:49:01,583 --> 00:49:04,208
She-- She died in the shooting.

784
00:49:10,708 --> 00:49:11,708
Shit.

785
00:49:13,708 --> 00:49:16,416
I'm gonna-- I'll see you later.

786
00:49:23,958 --> 00:49:25,958
[ghostly voice] Sept.

787
00:49:31,166 --> 00:49:34,000
Our most popular article
in two and a half years.

788
00:49:34,083 --> 00:49:40,208
Covered in The Cut, Refinery29,
BuzzFeed, and trending on Twitter,

789
00:49:40,291 --> 00:49:42,166
all because of you, Danni.

790
00:49:43,041 --> 00:49:44,166
-Damn.
-You can clap.

791
00:49:44,250 --> 00:49:46,375
That's an appropriate response.

792
00:49:46,458 --> 00:49:48,166
Thanks, everyone.

793
00:49:48,875 --> 00:49:50,500
Knock, knock. [chuckles]
794
00:49:50,583 --> 00:49:51,875
Who's there? It's me.

795
00:49:51,958 --> 00:49:57,416
Um, I just wanted to say that, um,
your article gave me the courage

796
00:49:57,500 --> 00:49:59,333
-to finally speak up to my DnD Discord.
-[phone vibrates]

797
00:49:59,416 --> 00:50:02,416
I told them about my trypophobia.

798
00:50:02,500 --> 00:50:05,041
It means I have a fear of small holes.

799
00:50:05,125 --> 00:50:09,083
Um, like this cookie is terrifying to me,

800
00:50:09,166 --> 00:50:13,083
but you've given me the strength
to eat the cookie.

801
00:50:16,208 --> 00:50:18,500
Hey. Yo, Kevin.
Mind if I steal Danni for a sec?

802
00:50:19,041 --> 00:50:22,208
It's Kelvin. It's like the base unit
of thermodynamic temperature.

803
00:50:22,291 --> 00:50:24,500
-Hey, whatever. So, uh--
-Hi, Colin.

804
00:50:24,583 --> 00:50:26,875
Shout-out from Rowan Aldren, huh? Damn.

805
00:50:26,958 --> 00:50:28,750
-She's famous as fuck.
-Is she?

806
00:50:30,125 --> 00:50:31,583
She's just Rowan to me.
807
00:50:32,416 --> 00:50:33,875
We met in our support group, so…

808
00:50:33,958 --> 00:50:35,500
All right, so listen. This--

809
00:50:36,250 --> 00:50:38,916
I got this event this weekend.
It's like a party.

810
00:50:39,000 --> 00:50:40,750
Influencer stuff. Saturday night.

811
00:50:41,333 --> 00:50:45,291
I can get you on that list.
But you wanna come through?

812
00:50:46,500 --> 00:50:47,500
Yes.

813
00:50:47,583 --> 00:50:49,000
-Yeah?
-Yeah, I mean, if I can--

814
00:50:49,916 --> 00:50:52,083
If you can get--
If you can get me on that list.

815
00:50:52,166 --> 00:50:53,416
Yeah, I'll get you on that.

816
00:50:53,500 --> 00:50:55,500
I'll send you the deets.
DM me your number.

817
00:50:55,583 --> 00:50:56,958
-Okay.
-All right, late.

818
00:50:57,500 --> 00:50:58,500
Bye.

819
00:51:03,291 --> 00:51:06,041
So, I guess
you're officially a writer now.
820
00:51:06,666 --> 00:51:08,041
Hmm, I guess so.

821
00:51:08,541 --> 00:51:10,791
Did I, uh, hear you're getting an office?

822
00:51:10,875 --> 00:51:13,416
Well, Susan just told me. Crazy, right?

823
00:51:14,208 --> 00:51:16,666
-That is-- That is crazy.
-Let me go talk to her.

824
00:51:16,750 --> 00:51:18,333
You know, I meant to ask you.

825
00:51:18,416 --> 00:51:21,125
What was the name of that retreat
that you went on?

826
00:51:21,208 --> 00:51:22,208
L'Esprit Nouveau.

827
00:51:22,291 --> 00:51:25,083
Cool. Where'd you hear about it?
I've been looking for journalism programs.

828
00:51:25,166 --> 00:51:27,208
I just haven't really found one
that's right for me.

829
00:51:28,291 --> 00:51:31,000
I read this article. It was like,
I don't know, I can't remember exactly,

830
00:51:31,083 --> 00:51:34,625
"Top Ten Famous Writers' Retreats"
or something, you know.

831
00:51:34,708 --> 00:51:36,000
-Well, yeah. Super easy.
-Yeah.

832
00:51:36,083 --> 00:51:39,583
It was honestly so beautiful.
So, so beautiful.

833
00:51:39,666 --> 00:51:42,833
Before, you know, it all went down.

834
00:51:42,916 --> 00:51:43,916
Right, right.

835
00:51:44,708 --> 00:51:46,458
Toured this gorgeous cathedral--

836
00:51:46,541 --> 00:51:47,666
Oh, nice. Which one?

837
00:51:50,750 --> 00:51:51,875
Which cathedral?

838
00:51:54,875 --> 00:51:55,875
Notre-Dame.

839
00:51:57,541 --> 00:51:58,541
Interesting.

840
00:51:58,625 --> 00:52:00,416
-[electrical buzzing]
-[ghostly voice] Six.

841
00:52:05,583 --> 00:52:06,958
Anyway,

842
00:52:07,041 --> 00:52:10,875
it-- it was obviously
a really awesome opportunity,

843
00:52:11,583 --> 00:52:13,791
but mainly I'm just so happy to be alive.

844
00:52:13,875 --> 00:52:14,875
Hmm.

845
00:52:14,958 --> 00:52:16,791
I'm gonna-- I gotta-- Do one…

846
00:52:16,875 --> 00:52:17,875
-Yeah.
-…thing.

847
00:52:20,083 --> 00:52:21,083
Notre-Dame.

848
00:52:22,333 --> 00:52:24,083
[singer] ♪ Fuck you ♪

849
00:52:24,166 --> 00:52:26,583
♪ And you, and you ♪

850
00:52:26,666 --> 00:52:30,333
♪ I hate your friends
And they hate me too ♪

851
00:52:30,416 --> 00:52:31,500
♪ I'm through ♪

852
00:52:31,583 --> 00:52:32,666
♪ I'm through ♪

853
00:52:32,750 --> 00:52:33,750
What's your name?

854
00:52:34,791 --> 00:52:37,000
Um… Danni.

855
00:52:37,750 --> 00:52:39,291
-Danni what?
-Um…

856
00:52:39,375 --> 00:52:40,500
Danni Sanders.

857
00:52:42,000 --> 00:52:43,333
Oh, my God. Of course.

858
00:52:43,416 --> 00:52:44,958
You're the girl from the Paris attacks.

859
00:52:45,041 --> 00:52:46,750
-#IAmNotOkay.
-Mm-hmm.

860
00:52:46,833 --> 00:52:48,375
-Come in, girl.
-Thank you.

861
00:52:48,916 --> 00:52:50,250
♪ I swear she had a man ♪

862
00:52:50,333 --> 00:52:53,041
♪ But shit hit different
When it's Thursday night ♪

863
00:52:53,125 --> 00:52:54,291
♪ That college dropout music ♪

864
00:52:54,375 --> 00:52:56,125
♪ Every day leg day
She be too thick ♪

865
00:52:56,208 --> 00:52:58,125
♪ And my friends are all annoying ♪

866
00:52:58,208 --> 00:52:59,958
♪ But we go dumb
Yeah, we go stupid ♪

867
00:53:00,041 --> 00:53:01,208
♪ This that 10K on… ♪

868
00:53:01,291 --> 00:53:02,458
[Colin] Danni.

869
00:53:04,250 --> 00:53:05,583
Yo, give me a hug.

870
00:53:07,375 --> 00:53:09,041
-Danni Sanders?
-Hey, you smell nice.

871
00:53:09,125 --> 00:53:10,583
-What?
-Bonsoir.

872
00:53:10,666 --> 00:53:12,500
-Oh, hi.
-Look at you.

873
00:53:12,583 --> 00:53:14,666
We have a photo opportunity
right over here.

874
00:53:14,750 --> 00:53:15,958
-Cool.
-Hey, let's get a pic.

875
00:53:16,041 --> 00:53:17,166
-[Danni] Yes!
-Come on.

876
00:53:18,666 --> 00:53:19,666
Cool.

877
00:53:19,750 --> 00:53:22,541
Y'all, this is Danni Sanders.
She was in the Paris attacks, yo.

878
00:53:22,625 --> 00:53:24,166
Hi, Danni Sanders.

879
00:53:24,250 --> 00:53:25,250
Ooh.

880
00:53:27,958 --> 00:53:30,041
Let's not forget the signature red beret.

881
00:53:32,333 --> 00:53:33,583
Get one with the beret.

882
00:53:36,083 --> 00:53:37,083
Here.

883
00:53:38,125 --> 00:53:39,125
All the way in?

884
00:53:42,541 --> 00:53:44,208
That's it. Smile.

885
00:53:44,291 --> 00:53:46,458
I wanted to ask you, actually.

886
00:53:46,541 --> 00:53:49,458
Snapchat is thinking of
doing a beret filter,
887
00:53:49,541 --> 00:53:52,083
you know, to honor everyone lost in Paris.

888
00:53:52,166 --> 00:53:53,958
Can we reach out to you about a collab?

889
00:53:54,041 --> 00:53:56,291
-Yeah.
-Amazing. I'll have them DM.

890
00:53:56,375 --> 00:53:57,875
And don't forget a gift bag.

891
00:53:57,958 --> 00:53:59,500
-Oh, okay.
-Au revoir.

892
00:53:59,583 --> 00:54:00,833
-Thank you. Bye.
-Bye.

893
00:54:02,416 --> 00:54:04,458
-Are these free or…
-Yeah, fuck yeah.

894
00:54:04,541 --> 00:54:06,375
Take as many as you want.
No one gives a shit.

895
00:54:06,458 --> 00:54:07,541
Take, like, ten.

896
00:54:08,250 --> 00:54:09,500
Okay.

897
00:54:10,375 --> 00:54:12,000
Hey, bartender.

898
00:54:12,083 --> 00:54:15,208
Can we get two tequila shots, please?
You got Kendall Jenner's brand?

899
00:54:15,291 --> 00:54:16,291
Dope.

900
00:54:16,916 --> 00:54:18,541
-This is crazy.
-Yeah.

901
00:54:19,125 --> 00:54:20,333
Yeah, you get used to it.

902
00:54:20,916 --> 00:54:22,666
What you got now, like, 20K followers?

903
00:54:22,750 --> 00:54:24,958
Uh, 32K, actually.

904
00:54:25,041 --> 00:54:26,666
Shit. Okay.

905
00:54:27,333 --> 00:54:28,500
Hey, cheers to that.

906
00:54:29,291 --> 00:54:30,500
-Thanks.
-Yeah.

907
00:54:31,166 --> 00:54:32,416
Cheers.

908
00:54:35,458 --> 00:54:37,250
Fuck. Yo.

909
00:54:38,083 --> 00:54:41,875
I just realized, like,
I never even asked you if you were okay.

910
00:54:41,958 --> 00:54:43,875
-What?
-Are you okay?

911
00:54:43,958 --> 00:54:44,958
Yeah.

912
00:54:45,666 --> 00:54:48,083
-[chuckles] Why?
-'Cause, like,

913
00:54:48,166 --> 00:54:51,166
if what happened to you ever happened
to me, I don't think I'd ever be okay.

914
00:54:52,375 --> 00:54:53,875
Right now I'm okay.

915
00:54:55,541 --> 00:54:59,750
I just wanted you to know, like…
if you weren't…

916
00:55:02,291 --> 00:55:05,125
I'd, like, be there, you know.

917
00:55:08,666 --> 00:55:10,666
Do these fucking shots, yo!

918
00:55:10,750 --> 00:55:12,375
Ah-ha!

919
00:55:12,458 --> 00:55:14,875
-Hey, do the arm thing.
-What's the arm thing?

920
00:55:14,958 --> 00:55:17,625
-The arm thing. Like this.
-Oh, that arm thing.

921
00:55:17,708 --> 00:55:18,708
Yeah.

922
00:55:26,916 --> 00:55:28,458
Hey, fuck terrorists!

923
00:55:30,958 --> 00:55:31,958
Say it. Come on.

924
00:55:33,833 --> 00:55:35,125
Fuck terrorists!

925
00:55:35,208 --> 00:55:36,875
-Yeah, fuck terrorists, yo!
-Fuck terrorists!

926
00:55:36,958 --> 00:55:38,833
The fuck you even doing, huh?

927
00:55:41,666 --> 00:55:44,625
[dance music playing]

928
00:55:45,000 --> 00:55:46,166
[ghostly voice] Cinq.

929
00:55:51,916 --> 00:55:53,458
Is there somewhere else we can go?

930
00:55:56,708 --> 00:55:57,958
You read my mind.

931
00:56:07,500 --> 00:56:09,666
[both moaning]

932
00:56:11,583 --> 00:56:12,583
That's it.

933
00:56:13,791 --> 00:56:15,416
Shit's like double knotted.

934
00:56:19,791 --> 00:56:21,416
-What the fuck is that?
-They're bike shorts.

935
00:56:21,500 --> 00:56:24,208
-All right, I guess.
-Maybe I should just get 'em off.

936
00:56:24,291 --> 00:56:25,291
Okay.

937
00:56:29,458 --> 00:56:30,458
Ow.

938
00:56:34,416 --> 00:56:36,500
Fuck. You're so tight.

939
00:56:36,583 --> 00:56:37,583
Jesus.

940
00:56:38,500 --> 00:56:40,125
Who's my damaged little girl, huh?

941
00:56:40,208 --> 00:56:41,416
[chuckles, moans]

942
00:56:41,500 --> 00:56:42,708
You're damaged?

943
00:56:43,875 --> 00:56:45,500
Don't worry, I'ma protect you.

944
00:56:46,333 --> 00:56:48,666
I ain't gonna let anything bad
happen to you now.

945
00:56:50,666 --> 00:56:54,541
You're so fucking helpless.
Yeah, you're so fucking helpless.

946
00:57:02,666 --> 00:57:04,500
[whimpers]

947
00:57:10,708 --> 00:57:12,125
Did you just come in me?

948
00:57:34,958 --> 00:57:36,666
[siren wailing]

949
00:57:54,958 --> 00:57:57,791
Hey, what's good? It's your boy, Colin.
You know I got the honeys on me.

950
00:57:57,875 --> 00:58:01,583
We had a time, about to roll out.
You know we headed to LAVO.

951
00:58:01,666 --> 00:58:02,833
Lick my face, girl.

952
00:58:06,625 --> 00:58:09,000
[Rowan] This is going great, clearly.

953
00:58:30,708 --> 00:58:33,791
-[player] What's so different about that?
-[shouting]

954
00:58:33,875 --> 00:58:34,875
Hey, guys!
955
00:58:36,083 --> 00:58:38,250
-Danni!
-Hey. Oh, my God.

956
00:58:38,333 --> 00:58:39,875
-You made it.
-I made it!

957
00:58:39,958 --> 00:58:42,291
-[Rowan] You look, uh…
-A tad overdressed?

958
00:58:42,375 --> 00:58:44,208
-Do you want a T-shirt?
-Yes, please.

959
00:58:44,291 --> 00:58:47,250
{\an8}-Do you have an extra one?
-Charles made them.

960
00:58:47,333 --> 00:58:48,916
{\an8}-Cute.
-Hey!

961
00:58:49,000 --> 00:58:50,708
-Welcome to the league.
-Thanks!

962
00:58:50,791 --> 00:58:53,708
Just like softball only less dangerous.

963
00:58:53,791 --> 00:58:54,791
[Danni] Yay!

964
00:58:55,708 --> 00:58:57,458
-You look amazing.
-I look-- You want to--

965
00:58:57,541 --> 00:58:59,583
You want the look
to get even more elevated?

966
00:58:59,666 --> 00:59:01,500
-Yeah. How are you--
-Are you ready?

967
00:59:01,583 --> 00:59:04,250
You didn't think it could get better.
Whoa!

968
00:59:04,333 --> 00:59:08,250
-Oh, yes. The bike shorts.
-The power of the bike shorts.

969
00:59:08,333 --> 00:59:10,000
[Charles] Come on,
we're gonna start a new game.

970
00:59:10,083 --> 00:59:11,291
Okay, coming!

971
00:59:12,166 --> 00:59:14,208
All right, dibs on you for my team.

972
00:59:14,291 --> 00:59:17,416
Really, are you sure about that?
I'm not so good with the sports thing.

973
00:59:17,500 --> 00:59:19,041
["Time Flies" playing]

974
00:59:21,083 --> 00:59:22,083
♪ Dee B got that heat ♪

975
00:59:22,166 --> 00:59:23,750
♪ You got that heat
You got that heat ♪

976
00:59:40,000 --> 00:59:42,791
♪ I don't wanna be on the ground
When the time flies ♪

977
00:59:42,875 --> 00:59:46,333
♪ Had so many friends goin',
"Wonder when it's my time" ♪

978
00:59:46,416 --> 00:59:48,958
♪ I live every day like
I'll die by the nighttime ♪

979
00:59:49,041 --> 00:59:52,583
♪ It took me so long
Gettin' back to my right mind ♪
980
00:59:52,666 --> 00:59:54,958
♪ Five days straight, no rest
Oh, well ♪

981
00:59:55,041 --> 00:59:58,375
♪ Eyeball a bitch, don't need no scale ♪

982
00:59:58,458 --> 01:00:01,000
♪ I've been on my shit
I don't need no help ♪

983
01:00:01,083 --> 01:00:04,458
♪ Always gettin' money
Rain, snow, sleet, hail ♪

984
01:00:04,541 --> 01:00:07,458
♪ I never used to think
I'd be on magazine covers ♪

985
01:00:07,541 --> 01:00:10,875
♪ They keep on trying to find new ways
To push my buttons ♪

986
01:00:10,958 --> 01:00:14,083
♪ I came out of the jungle
Where it rain and it thunder ♪

987
01:00:14,166 --> 01:00:17,125
♪ But I bring the heat like the summer ♪

988
01:00:17,208 --> 01:00:19,916
♪ I don't wanna be on the ground
When the time flies ♪

989
01:00:20,000 --> 01:00:23,041
♪ Had so many friends goin',
"Wonder when it's my time" ♪

990
01:00:23,125 --> 01:00:26,083
♪ I live every day like
I'll die by the nighttime ♪

991
01:00:26,166 --> 01:00:29,333
♪ It took me so long
Getting back to my right mind ♪
992
01:00:30,041 --> 01:00:32,916
[Danni] I'm really, really glad
that I came out tonight.

993
01:00:33,000 --> 01:00:35,833
{\an8}I thought that group was going
to be, like, depressing.

994
01:00:35,916 --> 01:00:37,625
{\an8}-Mmm.
-It's actually really fun.

995
01:00:38,625 --> 01:00:39,625
{\an8}We try our best.

996
01:00:40,333 --> 01:00:43,375
{\an8}I don't know. Being with you guys
makes me realize what good people are.

997
01:00:44,583 --> 01:00:46,083
{\an8}You're a good person too.

998
01:00:47,416 --> 01:00:48,416
{\an8}Thank you.

999
01:00:54,708 --> 01:00:55,833
{\an8}Bleurgh.

1000
01:00:55,916 --> 01:00:57,583
{\an8}-What is that?
-I don't know.

1001
01:00:57,666 --> 01:00:59,916
{\an8}I keep trying to like beer,
and I just don't like beer.

1002
01:01:00,000 --> 01:01:01,416
{\an8}I hate it, actually.

1003
01:01:02,250 --> 01:01:04,291
{\an8}-Can I try some?
-Oh, I pitched it really well.

1004
01:01:04,375 --> 01:01:06,416
{\an8}You want to try it, you rebellious teen?
1005
01:01:06,958 --> 01:01:08,541
{\an8}Oh, my God. It's just a sip.

1006
01:01:13,708 --> 01:01:15,791
{\an8}Yeah.
No, I think it's pretty good, actually.

1007
01:01:15,875 --> 01:01:17,166
{\an8}-Really?
-Yeah.

1008
01:01:17,708 --> 01:01:19,125
{\an8}-Okay, no.
-Whoa!

1009
01:01:19,208 --> 01:01:20,208
{\an8}Hey.

1010
01:01:20,750 --> 01:01:22,791
{\an8}We're having fun--
We're not having too much fun.

1011
01:01:22,875 --> 01:01:25,416
{\an8}-Really?
-Yeah. Just the right amount of fun.

1012
01:01:25,500 --> 01:01:29,083
{\an8}Oh, my God. You sound just like my sister.

1013
01:01:31,125 --> 01:01:32,583
{\an8}You don't have to talk about it.

1014
01:01:32,666 --> 01:01:34,416
{\an8}No, no. I, um…

1015
01:01:35,875 --> 01:01:37,500
I want to, I-- I do. It's…

1016
01:01:38,500 --> 01:01:40,708
It's nice.
I-- I wish I could do it more often.

1017
01:01:42,875 --> 01:01:43,875
It's just…

1018
01:01:46,375 --> 01:01:48,416
You know,
not a lot of people know she exists.

1019
01:01:50,041 --> 01:01:53,500
I don't--
I don't talk about her in my speeches.

1020
01:01:55,708 --> 01:01:57,375
I mean, I wish I could, but, uh…

1021
01:02:00,250 --> 01:02:01,250
Well…

1022
01:02:10,125 --> 01:02:11,958
Do you want to do something fun next week?

1023
01:02:15,833 --> 01:02:16,875
Um…

1024
01:02:18,166 --> 01:02:20,208
Maybe, I don't, um-- I--

1025
01:02:21,000 --> 01:02:25,333
I have a lot of prep stuff to do
for the "We've Had Enough" rally. I--

1026
01:02:26,375 --> 01:02:29,500
God, I haven't even started working
on what I'm going to say yet, so…

1027
01:02:32,375 --> 01:02:33,666
Do you want me to help you?

1028
01:02:35,125 --> 01:02:36,708
Do you want me to help you write it?

1029
01:02:36,791 --> 01:02:39,208
People online keep saying
that we have super similar voices.

1030
01:02:40,750 --> 01:02:42,875
And we could even, like,
perform it together.

1031
01:02:45,791 --> 01:02:47,000
Uh…

1032
01:02:47,083 --> 01:02:48,250
-What?
-Yeah.

1033
01:02:48,333 --> 01:02:49,666
-Yeah?
-Yeah, I mean…

1034
01:02:50,458 --> 01:02:52,666
I've never really performed
with anyone else before,

1035
01:02:52,750 --> 01:02:55,291
but, I don't know,
it could be kind of fun. I--

1036
01:02:55,375 --> 01:02:57,041
Could be really fun.

1037
01:02:57,125 --> 01:03:00,375
We'd be leading a revolution
together like Katniss and Rue.

1038
01:03:01,333 --> 01:03:02,875
[both laughing]

1039
01:03:04,666 --> 01:03:06,208
-It'll be fun though, right?
-Yeah, it--

1040
01:03:06,291 --> 01:03:07,958
It would be nice to not be alone up there.

1041
01:03:08,041 --> 01:03:09,041
Yeah.

1042
01:03:10,375 --> 01:03:11,583
I got your back, sis.

1043
01:03:15,500 --> 01:03:16,666
[person in park] Rowan!

1044
01:03:18,458 --> 01:03:21,208
That would be my ride, so…
1045
01:03:23,458 --> 01:03:24,541
Oh.

1046
01:03:27,666 --> 01:03:29,083
All right. I'll see you.

1047
01:03:32,125 --> 01:03:33,250
And get home safe.

1048
01:03:38,166 --> 01:03:40,875
[crackling]

1049
01:03:40,958 --> 01:03:42,416
[ghostly voice] Quatre.

1050
01:04:02,458 --> 01:04:04,416
Here. For you.

1051
01:04:11,333 --> 01:04:13,458
What the fuck am I supposed to do with--

1052
01:04:23,333 --> 01:04:25,833
♪ It's a mood ♪

1053
01:04:25,916 --> 01:04:30,041
We are here with Danni Sanders,
the girl of the moment,

1054
01:04:30,125 --> 01:04:33,166
who rose to Internet fame
after surviving the Paris bombings.

1055
01:04:33,250 --> 01:04:37,541
{\an8}You know her as the girl
behind the hashtag, "I Am Not Okay."

1056
01:04:37,625 --> 01:04:42,208
But, girl. Right now, can I just say,
you look more than okay.

1057
01:04:42,291 --> 01:04:43,708
Are we getting a shot of this fit?

1058
01:04:46,666 --> 01:04:49,708
So, you and your new bestie Rowan Aldren,

1059
01:04:49,791 --> 01:04:52,166
you've been blowing up our Insta feeds.

1060
01:04:52,250 --> 01:04:54,541
I mean, speaking of bombings, okay.

1061
01:04:54,625 --> 01:04:57,375
So, what are you two up to lately?
I know that you've both posted

1062
01:04:57,458 --> 01:05:01,750
about this "We've Had Enough" rally
that you're going to be speaking at.

1063
01:05:01,833 --> 01:05:03,166
That's right.

1064
01:05:03,250 --> 01:05:06,541
Enough is an incredible organization,

1065
01:05:06,625 --> 01:05:10,291
and I'm so, so thankful to Rowan
for introducing me to it.

1066
01:05:10,375 --> 01:05:15,583
She's been such an amazing guide
into my new identity as an activist.

1067
01:05:15,666 --> 01:05:16,666
[whispers] One second.

1068
01:05:16,750 --> 01:05:20,958
There is so much to learn,
and it's just such an important cause--

1069
01:05:21,041 --> 01:05:23,708
-And I have to stop you right there.
-Okay.

1070
01:05:23,791 --> 01:05:26,041
I'm so sorry,
that's all the time that we have.

1071
01:05:26,125 --> 01:05:29,958
'Cause next up, Danni and I,
we're doing goat yoga.

1072
01:05:30,541 --> 01:05:32,958
-Harper, hi.
-Hi.

1073
01:05:33,833 --> 01:05:36,291
Susan wants you to punch up my RBG article

1074
01:05:36,375 --> 01:05:38,791
to give it, and I quote,
"more viral potential."

1075
01:05:38,875 --> 01:05:40,916
-Hmm.
-That's the latest draft.

1076
01:05:42,416 --> 01:05:45,083
All righty.
Thank you so much for bringing this over.

1077
01:05:46,708 --> 01:05:47,875
How? Hmm.

1078
01:05:50,041 --> 01:05:52,250
Yeah, it's just gonna need a little work.

1079
01:05:52,333 --> 01:05:56,375
But I probably won't be able to get to it
till next week. I'm heading out right now.

1080
01:05:56,458 --> 01:05:58,541
You taking another mental health day?

1081
01:05:58,625 --> 01:06:00,000
[laughs]

1082
01:06:00,958 --> 01:06:03,541
No, I'm not taking
another mental health day.

1083
01:06:03,625 --> 01:06:07,500
I'm going to the "We've Had Enough" rally,
actually. Have you heard of it?

1084
01:06:09,125 --> 01:06:11,125
-Yeah.
-Yeah. That's where I'm going.

1085
01:06:12,666 --> 01:06:15,000
You know, Harper, you could probably
get your own office too

1086
01:06:15,083 --> 01:06:17,250
if you worked on that positivity a little.

1087
01:06:18,458 --> 01:06:19,500
Hey, there's my girl.

1088
01:06:20,708 --> 01:06:22,333
-Hey, you want to chill later?
-No.

1089
01:06:22,416 --> 01:06:23,708
-What about tomorrow?
-No.

1090
01:06:23,791 --> 01:06:27,041
What about, like, uh--
like next Wednesday or something?

1091
01:06:27,125 --> 01:06:28,708
I'm just busy.

1092
01:06:28,791 --> 01:06:31,916
Yeah, I'm busy trying to make the world
a better place, Colin.

1093
01:06:32,000 --> 01:06:33,208
-Yeah.
-[Colin] I see what you're doing.

1094
01:06:33,291 --> 01:06:36,083
It's like a--
like a hard-to-get kind of thing.

1095
01:06:36,166 --> 01:06:38,083
-I'm gonna go now.
-Okay, you go.

1096
01:06:38,958 --> 01:06:40,458
Go. You follow your dreams.
1097
01:06:41,375 --> 01:06:43,916
-I'll see you later.
-No, you won't.

1098
01:06:44,000 --> 01:06:45,125
[scoffs]

1099
01:06:46,125 --> 01:06:47,458
Bitches, am I right?

1100
01:06:50,166 --> 01:06:52,833
Damn, she still got that backside
on her though.

1101
01:06:52,916 --> 01:06:55,333
Got that thickie. That fatty, right?

1102
01:06:55,416 --> 01:06:57,583
Colin, you're from Maine.

1103
01:07:00,416 --> 01:07:02,791
[in regular accent]
Okay. Cool, Harper. Great.

1104
01:07:03,708 --> 01:07:05,791
We all know information about each other.

1105
01:07:06,375 --> 01:07:07,583
I still got bars.

1106
01:07:08,208 --> 01:07:10,083
I still got bars for days, bro.

1107
01:07:10,166 --> 01:07:12,333
[It's A MooD presenter]
You know, we chose goat yoga

1108
01:07:12,416 --> 01:07:14,500
because you're the greatest of all time.

1109
01:07:15,000 --> 01:07:19,416
[Colin] I sit on my throne.
Is that a pizza? That's a calzone.

1110
01:07:30,666 --> 01:07:31,833
Hey.

1111
01:07:31,916 --> 01:07:34,208
Look, I know it's, like, so embarrassing.

1112
01:07:34,291 --> 01:07:36,416
No, it's fucking cool.

1113
01:07:36,500 --> 01:07:37,583
-Thank you.
-Come on.

1114
01:07:39,125 --> 01:07:41,375
Hey, Linda.
I didn't know you were speaking today.

1115
01:07:41,458 --> 01:07:42,583
Oh, I-- I'm not.

1116
01:07:43,500 --> 01:07:47,291
So, plot twist. Linda's actually my mom.

1117
01:07:48,791 --> 01:07:50,666
[stammers] For real?

1118
01:07:52,291 --> 01:07:54,625
But I thought you-- you were a survivor?

1119
01:07:54,708 --> 01:07:59,375
I am. I worked at Rowan's old school
in the front office.

1120
01:08:00,541 --> 01:08:02,541
Fuck. Oh, shit. I mean--

1121
01:08:02,625 --> 01:08:05,416
Oh. No, it's fine.

1122
01:08:06,291 --> 01:08:09,333
It's a--
It's a fuck-shit kinda thing to find out.

1123
01:08:18,416 --> 01:08:21,291
So, you'll be taking the girls
directly to the stage, correct?
1124
01:08:21,375 --> 01:08:24,125
That's right. We'll be meeting security
when we get there.

1125
01:08:28,916 --> 01:08:31,000
Hey. What's up? You okay?

1126
01:08:32,458 --> 01:08:34,541
Nervous. Told you.

1127
01:08:40,583 --> 01:08:41,916
Can I have the aux?

1128
01:08:44,500 --> 01:08:45,583
Thank you.

1129
01:08:51,250 --> 01:08:53,708
["Complicated" playing]

1130
01:08:55,708 --> 01:08:57,375
♪ 'Cause life's like this…♪

1131
01:08:57,958 --> 01:08:59,500
[chuckles]

1132
01:08:59,583 --> 01:09:00,791
Avril?

1133
01:09:00,875 --> 01:09:03,500
For your stage fright.
Cheesy "oldies", right?

1134
01:09:04,083 --> 01:09:07,000
♪ Chill out, what ya yellin' for? ♪

1135
01:09:07,083 --> 01:09:10,000
♪ Lay back, it's all been done before ♪

1136
01:09:10,083 --> 01:09:14,166
♪ And if you could only let it be ♪

1137
01:09:14,250 --> 01:09:16,083
♪ You would see ♪
1138
01:09:16,166 --> 01:09:19,250
♪ I like you the way you are ♪

1139
01:09:19,333 --> 01:09:22,416
♪ When we're driving in your car ♪

1140
01:09:22,500 --> 01:09:24,750
♪ And you're… [laughs] …to me ♪

1141
01:09:24,833 --> 01:09:26,208
-So stupid, you know?
-I know!

1142
01:09:26,791 --> 01:09:28,250
-Come on.
-I'm not doing that. No.

1143
01:09:28,333 --> 01:09:29,916
♪ Somebody else
'Round everyone else ♪

1144
01:09:30,000 --> 01:09:31,000
We're not--

1145
01:09:31,083 --> 01:09:33,041
♪ You're watchin' your back
Like you…♪

1146
01:09:33,125 --> 01:09:34,125
No. Don't look at me--

1147
01:09:34,208 --> 01:09:36,625
You can't stop yourself.
You're going to have to join in.

1148
01:09:36,708 --> 01:09:39,000
♪ Look like a fool to me ♪

1149
01:09:39,083 --> 01:09:40,208
♪ Tell me ♪

1150
01:09:40,291 --> 01:09:44,125
♪ Why'd you have to go
And make things so complicated? ♪

1151
01:09:44,875 --> 01:09:46,458
♪ I see the way you're ♪

1152
01:09:46,541 --> 01:09:50,916
♪ Actin' like you're somebody else
Gets me frustrated ♪

1153
01:09:51,000 --> 01:09:53,000
♪ Life's like this, you ♪

1154
01:09:53,083 --> 01:09:56,708
♪ And you fall, and you crawl
And you break, and you take what you get ♪

1155
01:09:56,791 --> 01:09:59,625
♪ And you turn it into honesty ♪

1156
01:09:59,708 --> 01:10:03,375
♪ And promise me
I'm never gonna find you fakin' ♪

1157
01:10:03,458 --> 01:10:04,541
-♪ No… ♪
-[music stops]

1158
01:10:04,625 --> 01:10:06,208
This is far as I can go.

1159
01:10:12,166 --> 01:10:13,708
You're gonna be great, baby.

1160
01:10:14,458 --> 01:10:15,833
And you too.

1161
01:10:17,541 --> 01:10:19,416
I'll be watching the whole time.

1162
01:10:24,000 --> 01:10:25,416
-Bye.

1163
01:10:29,416 --> 01:10:32,958
[crowd chants]
The people united will never be divided!

1164
01:10:33,041 --> 01:10:35,291
The people united will never--
1165
01:10:35,375 --> 01:10:36,750
[cheering]

1166
01:10:40,166 --> 01:10:42,333
[person 1] We love you, Rowan!

1167
01:10:42,958 --> 01:10:44,541
Danni! Danni!

1168
01:11:05,458 --> 01:11:06,958
Say it with me.

1169
01:11:07,041 --> 01:11:08,541
We've had enough.

1170
01:11:08,625 --> 01:11:10,333
[all chanting] We've had enough!

1171
01:11:10,416 --> 01:11:13,166
We've had enough! We've had enough!

1172
01:11:13,250 --> 01:11:15,000
We've had enough!

1173
01:11:43,791 --> 01:11:46,500
My speech here today is for Cora Aldren.

1174
01:11:52,666 --> 01:11:57,250
She should have been here today to watch
her little sister up on this stage.

1175
01:12:01,375 --> 01:12:04,708
But instead,
her life was taken by violence.

1176
01:12:07,000 --> 01:12:12,166
This year, there have been
over 250 mass shootings in the US alone.

1177
01:12:12,250 --> 01:12:13,916
Over 250!

1178
01:12:15,000 --> 01:12:19,500
And across the world, we have endured
countless episodes of terrorism.

1179
01:12:19,583 --> 01:12:22,416
But if what I witnessed in Paris
taught me any--

1180
01:12:23,291 --> 01:12:25,458
-[ghostly voice] Trois.
-[Danni] Uh…

1181
01:12:29,458 --> 01:12:31,333
-[person 2] You got this.
-[person 3] Keep going.

1182
01:12:31,416 --> 01:12:33,083
-We, uh--
-[person 4] Danni!

1183
01:12:33,166 --> 01:12:35,500
We need to-- We need to work together to--

1184
01:12:35,583 --> 01:12:37,208
-[banging]
-[people screaming]

1185
01:12:39,791 --> 01:12:42,333
[panting]

1186
01:12:47,166 --> 01:12:48,208
[Danni] Firecrackers!

1187
01:12:49,291 --> 01:12:51,791
They're firecrackers!

1188
01:12:51,875 --> 01:12:53,458
Fucking snowflakes!

1189
01:12:53,541 --> 01:12:54,833
[Danni] Check it out, it's okay!

1190
01:12:54,916 --> 01:12:56,833
[officer] Move out, come on. Let's go.

1191
01:12:57,500 --> 01:12:59,000
Rowan? What's happening?
1192
01:13:01,041 --> 01:13:02,208
It's okay, Rowan.

1193
01:13:02,625 --> 01:13:04,583
Rowan, it's okay. It's just firecrackers.

1194
01:13:04,666 --> 01:13:05,666
Can you do something?

1195
01:13:05,750 --> 01:13:07,166
Rowan.

1196
01:13:07,250 --> 01:13:08,458
Stop taking photos!

1197
01:13:08,541 --> 01:13:09,541
Rowan?

1198
01:13:11,291 --> 01:13:12,833
Can you tell us what's happening?

1199
01:13:18,416 --> 01:13:19,833
[reporter] Is the movement over?

1200
01:13:20,708 --> 01:13:21,708
[guard] Come on!

1201
01:13:21,791 --> 01:13:23,416
[siren wailing]

1202
01:13:29,541 --> 01:13:31,250
[light buzzing]

1203
01:13:35,750 --> 01:13:38,125
[Sean] Apparently, the brand
of firecracker was "Truth Bomb."

1204
01:13:38,208 --> 01:13:40,041
-Gets the libs every time.
-[Gregory] Rowan Aldren is a pussy.

1205
01:13:40,125 --> 01:13:41,416
So much for "bravery."

1206
01:13:41,500 --> 01:13:43,875
[Ron] The libtards have a leader
as weak and stupid as they are.

1207
01:13:43,958 --> 01:13:46,458
[Red Wave] LOLOL. Guess we don't
even need guns to win boogaloo.

1208
01:13:46,541 --> 01:13:48,916
Just throw firecrackers
and the snowflakes will surrender.

1209
01:13:49,000 --> 01:13:51,291
[Matthew] Rowan Aldren clearly faked
being in a school shooting

1210
01:13:51,375 --> 01:13:53,833
to get attention. #fakenews #liarliar.

1211
01:13:56,916 --> 01:13:58,916
[footsteps approaching]

1212
01:14:03,625 --> 01:14:04,625
Hi.

1213
01:14:15,750 --> 01:14:16,750
Hey.

1214
01:14:18,458 --> 01:14:19,458
Hey.

1215
01:14:22,416 --> 01:14:24,083
They give you some good drugs at least?

1216
01:14:27,750 --> 01:14:28,750
Liquid Valium.

1217
01:14:32,791 --> 01:14:35,625
Brought you some hot cocoa.
I'll bring it to you.

1218
01:14:36,291 --> 01:14:37,750
No mini marshmallows.

1219
01:14:39,041 --> 01:14:40,166
-Here.
-Thanks.

1220
01:14:48,250 --> 01:14:49,541
Well, that was embarrassing.

1221
01:14:51,833 --> 01:14:54,083
Stop. It wasn't.

1222
01:14:55,375 --> 01:14:57,458
You don't have to-- I know I fucked up.

1223
01:14:57,541 --> 01:14:59,125
I know no one's gonna
take me seriously anymore.

1224
01:14:59,208 --> 01:15:01,208
Rowan, that is-- that is not true.

1225
01:15:01,291 --> 01:15:03,291
I am supposed to be setting an example,

1226
01:15:04,541 --> 01:15:06,125
but I couldn't, and I just--

1227
01:15:08,666 --> 01:15:10,333
I feel so weak.

1228
01:15:12,000 --> 01:15:13,125
[sobs]

1229
01:15:13,875 --> 01:15:17,041
And if I'm weak,
then that just weakens what I stand for.

1230
01:15:17,125 --> 01:15:21,000
And everything, everyone I fought for,
it just-- it all--

1231
01:15:21,083 --> 01:15:23,208
-it falls apart.
-Ro.

1232
01:15:23,291 --> 01:15:26,000
God, the alt-right is gonna
crucify me for this.
1233
01:15:27,208 --> 01:15:28,208
Look at you.

1234
01:15:29,208 --> 01:15:32,791
You need to--
Remember what you said to me? You--

1235
01:15:32,875 --> 01:15:36,333
That the Internet loves
to turn villains into victims.

1236
01:15:38,416 --> 01:15:39,458
[chuckles, sniffs]

1237
01:15:39,541 --> 01:15:41,125
Said it the wrong way, didn't I?

1238
01:15:41,208 --> 01:15:42,958
[both chuckle]

1239
01:15:46,708 --> 01:15:48,041
Yeah. Right.

1240
01:15:51,833 --> 01:15:53,000
God, I don't know--

1241
01:15:53,708 --> 01:15:57,208
I don't know how you stayed so… strong.

1242
01:15:58,333 --> 01:16:00,375
But I just, like, I saw it,

1243
01:16:00,458 --> 01:16:03,291
and it was like I was back there again,
and I--

1244
01:16:03,375 --> 01:16:04,375
[door opens]

1245
01:16:04,458 --> 01:16:06,208
[ghostly voice] Un.

1246
01:16:06,291 --> 01:16:07,958
Just coming to check your vitals.
1247
01:16:09,458 --> 01:16:10,791
Right, I'll let you guys…

1248
01:16:10,875 --> 01:16:12,458
-Oh, you're welcome to stay.
-No, no.

1249
01:16:13,375 --> 01:16:14,625
You should get some rest.

1250
01:16:15,750 --> 01:16:16,750
I'll see you later.

1251
01:16:19,708 --> 01:16:20,875
[door closes]

1252
01:16:20,958 --> 01:16:22,333
[breathes shakily]

1253
01:16:23,291 --> 01:16:24,291
Danni?

1254
01:16:26,208 --> 01:16:30,416
I just want to thank you
for being there today.

1255
01:16:31,000 --> 01:16:32,333
Coming here.

1256
01:16:32,416 --> 01:16:35,041
I mean, honestly,
you're probably one of the only people

1257
01:16:35,125 --> 01:16:37,875
that really gets what she's been through.

1258
01:16:42,416 --> 01:16:43,416
Well…

1259
01:16:44,333 --> 01:16:45,333
I--

1260
01:16:47,083 --> 01:16:50,250
Uh, I don't, um… I have to go.
1261
01:16:51,083 --> 01:16:52,083
[Linda] Okay.

1262
01:16:52,166 --> 01:16:54,541
Yeah, my phone. I have to charge my phone.

1263
01:16:54,625 --> 01:16:58,583
And I have to feed my guinea--
my guinea pig.

1264
01:16:59,958 --> 01:17:02,458
Okay.
So, I have to leave, like, right now.

1265
01:17:02,541 --> 01:17:05,208
Like, big rush, but, um…

1266
01:17:06,083 --> 01:17:07,625
[voice breaking] But-- Bye.

1267
01:17:24,041 --> 01:17:25,916
Don't look at me like that.

1268
01:17:26,000 --> 01:17:27,708
[door creaks]

1269
01:17:29,625 --> 01:17:30,833
[ghostly voice] Dix.

1270
01:17:32,958 --> 01:17:34,416
[multiple ghostly voices] Neuf.

1271
01:17:36,041 --> 01:17:37,250
Huit.

1272
01:17:38,625 --> 01:17:39,750
Sept.

1273
01:17:41,083 --> 01:17:42,166
Six.

1274
01:17:42,958 --> 01:17:44,125
Cinq.

1275
01:17:44,833 --> 01:17:46,000
Quatre.

1276
01:17:46,083 --> 01:17:47,125
Trois.

1277
01:17:47,208 --> 01:17:48,625
Deux. Un.

1278
01:17:50,333 --> 01:17:52,125
[voices talking French]

1279
01:17:54,500 --> 01:17:56,083
[tourists chattering]

1280
01:17:56,166 --> 01:17:57,958
[violin playing]

1281
01:18:09,833 --> 01:18:13,125
♪ Dix, neuf, huit, sept, six, cinq
Quatre, trois, deux, un ♪

1282
01:18:13,208 --> 01:18:14,250
♪ Neuf, huit, sept… ♪

1283
01:18:14,333 --> 01:18:16,916
Rowan! Rowan, no, no! No!

1284
01:18:17,000 --> 01:18:18,875
[person in crowd] This is all your fault!

1285
01:18:18,958 --> 01:18:21,166
-Stop!
-[people shouting]

1286
01:18:21,250 --> 01:18:23,375
-Your fault, Danni!
-This is your fault!

1287
01:18:23,458 --> 01:18:26,041
Your fault, Danni, this is all your fault!

1288
01:18:26,125 --> 01:18:27,416
[intercom buzzing]

1289
01:18:36,000 --> 01:18:38,125
-Hello.
-[Harper] It's Harper.

1290
01:18:40,083 --> 01:18:41,083
Who?

1291
01:18:42,083 --> 01:18:44,333
Harper, from work. Can I come up?

1292
01:18:44,916 --> 01:18:47,041
Uh, yeah.

1293
01:18:47,125 --> 01:18:48,625
Uh, yeah. One sec.

1294
01:18:48,708 --> 01:18:50,125
[buzzing]

1295
01:18:55,916 --> 01:18:57,083
[knocking]

1296
01:19:01,041 --> 01:19:02,833
-Hi.

1297
01:19:03,625 --> 01:19:04,625
Hey.

1298
01:19:07,500 --> 01:19:08,500
What's up?

1299
01:19:11,833 --> 01:19:12,833
Harper?

1300
01:19:12,916 --> 01:19:14,208
We need to talk.

1301
01:19:15,375 --> 01:19:16,416
Okay, about what?

1302
01:19:17,541 --> 01:19:18,708
About Paris.

1303
01:19:25,875 --> 01:19:28,666
I don't--
I don't know what you're talking about.

1304
01:19:28,750 --> 01:19:30,541
Remember your first day back at work?

1305
01:19:30,625 --> 01:19:34,333
You talked about how sunny and clear
it was all morning before the bombings.

1306
01:19:34,416 --> 01:19:38,250
Well, I remembered reading
it was raining right before the attacks.

1307
01:19:39,000 --> 01:19:40,000
That's weird, right?

1308
01:19:40,583 --> 01:19:42,375
But I thought, "Hey, you know what?

1309
01:19:42,458 --> 01:19:44,583
She's confused.
She's been through a lot. It happens."

1310
01:19:45,541 --> 01:19:47,541
Then, at that party,

1311
01:19:47,625 --> 01:19:50,708
you know the one
for your brilliant article,

1312
01:19:50,791 --> 01:19:52,708
you said you went and toured Notre-Dame.

1313
01:19:54,041 --> 01:19:55,375
Which I found odd,

1314
01:19:55,458 --> 01:19:58,833
considering it's been closed to the public
since half of it burned down.

1315
01:19:58,916 --> 01:19:59,916
Okay.

1316
01:20:00,000 --> 01:20:02,750
So, I decided to look up
this retreat, L'Esprit Nouveau.
1317
01:20:02,833 --> 01:20:05,916
Other than one website,
doesn't really seem to exist.

1318
01:20:06,000 --> 01:20:08,166
And when I Googled
all the names on the list,

1319
01:20:08,250 --> 01:20:11,625
not a single one turned up anything
about writing, except yours.

1320
01:20:11,708 --> 01:20:13,666
I mean, God,
does nobody fact-check anything anymore?

1321
01:20:13,750 --> 01:20:15,875
Okay. If you just give me--

1322
01:20:15,958 --> 01:20:17,208
Uh, no. I'm not done.

1323
01:20:18,583 --> 01:20:20,208
See, I had my suspicions.

1324
01:20:20,791 --> 01:20:23,333
But I didn't have proof. Until I saw this.

1325
01:20:26,833 --> 01:20:29,375
You went through my computer?
Why would you do that?

1326
01:20:29,458 --> 01:20:34,291
You know what? Because I didn't like you.
I never trusted you.

1327
01:20:34,375 --> 01:20:37,333
The way you acted when you came back
from Paris was sus as hell.

1328
01:20:37,416 --> 01:20:39,541
And yeah, I was probably jealous
that you got an office.

1329
01:20:39,625 --> 01:20:41,000
But you know what I didn't do?

1330
01:20:41,083 --> 01:20:45,041
Lie about being in a fucking
terrorist attack to get one for myself.

1331
01:20:45,125 --> 01:20:47,625
I didn't know. How was I supposed to know
that there was going to be a--

1332
01:20:47,708 --> 01:20:50,666
I just was lying about a trip,
that was it, to get Colin's attention.

1333
01:20:50,750 --> 01:20:52,291
So what? You thought this was better

1334
01:20:52,375 --> 01:20:54,833
than admitting you lied
in a couple of Instagram stories?

1335
01:20:54,916 --> 01:20:58,000
I don't know. I don't know. I just--
Harper, I'm a different person now.

1336
01:20:58,083 --> 01:21:01,708
Please. Please, just-- What do you want?

1337
01:21:01,791 --> 01:21:04,875
Do you want money? I can find you money.
My parents have a lot of connections.

1338
01:21:04,958 --> 01:21:07,250
My mom can get you into Soho House,
the one in Malibu.

1339
01:21:07,333 --> 01:21:09,125
People died, Danni!

1340
01:21:12,333 --> 01:21:15,000
Do you get that? People died.

1341
01:21:21,000 --> 01:21:22,000
I know.

1342
01:21:25,791 --> 01:21:27,791
I'm gonna give you two options here.

1343
01:21:27,875 --> 01:21:30,250
You can either wait for me
to write an article exposing you,

1344
01:21:30,333 --> 01:21:32,708
which would be really good for my career…

1345
01:21:35,583 --> 01:21:38,041
or I will give you the opportunity
to tell everyone yourself.

1346
01:21:39,041 --> 01:21:40,041
I don't--

1347
01:21:40,125 --> 01:21:41,916
You have until Monday
to make your decision.

1348
01:21:43,791 --> 01:21:45,625
[sighs] Oh, and by the way,

1349
01:21:46,375 --> 01:21:47,708
whichever one you pick,

1350
01:21:49,083 --> 01:21:51,375
you owe Rowan Aldren a fucking apology.

1351
01:21:56,250 --> 01:21:57,250
[sighs]

1352
01:22:09,916 --> 01:22:11,125
Fuck.

1353
01:22:13,541 --> 01:22:14,541
Fuck.

1354
01:22:16,541 --> 01:22:18,083
[muffled scream]

1355
01:22:36,333 --> 01:22:37,333
I can't.

1356
01:22:55,833 --> 01:22:57,416
[Danni] I want to start off by saying

1357
01:22:58,375 --> 01:23:01,250
there's nothing that will make
what I'm about to tell you okay.

1358
01:23:02,708 --> 01:23:04,791
Two months ago, I informed you all

1359
01:23:04,875 --> 01:23:07,750
that I had been selected
for a writers' retreat in Paris.

1360
01:23:09,041 --> 01:23:10,041
I lied.

1361
01:23:11,125 --> 01:23:12,625
I never went to Paris.

1362
01:23:13,500 --> 01:23:16,458
I stayed home and faked photos
to make it look like I did.

1363
01:23:17,041 --> 01:23:18,916
All to impress a guy.

1364
01:23:19,000 --> 01:23:20,333
Fuck.

1365
01:23:20,416 --> 01:23:24,250
I was under the influence of marijuana
at the time that I concocted this idea,

1366
01:23:24,333 --> 01:23:26,958
which contributed
to my poor decision-making.

1367
01:23:27,041 --> 01:23:31,833
But still, I am taking full responsibility
for my actions.

1368
01:23:31,916 --> 01:23:33,041
[sighs]

1369
01:23:33,125 --> 01:23:36,041
I recognize now that this decision
was a product of my loneliness

1370
01:23:36,125 --> 01:23:38,291
and desire to find meaning in my life.

1371
01:23:40,166 --> 01:23:42,291
And also my depression.

1372
01:23:42,375 --> 01:23:43,500
[phone alarm chiming]

1373
01:23:44,500 --> 01:23:48,208
I deeply regret my actions,
and I'm committing myself to change.

1374
01:23:51,083 --> 01:23:55,083
I feel that coming clean now
is the first step towards that change.

1375
01:23:57,833 --> 01:23:59,000
And Rowan--

1376
01:24:24,541 --> 01:24:28,708
I promise you, I will do better.

1377
01:24:37,541 --> 01:24:38,666
[exhales sharply]

1378
01:24:39,458 --> 01:24:40,500
Okay.

1379
01:24:50,000 --> 01:24:51,041
[notification alert]

1380
01:24:51,875 --> 01:24:53,125
[notification alert]

1381
01:24:54,208 --> 01:24:58,791
[notification alerts continue rapidly]

1382
01:25:10,750 --> 01:25:13,708
Ro, you're trending.

1383
01:25:22,958 --> 01:25:25,041
[people in office whispering]
1384
01:25:30,041 --> 01:25:32,416
This is so fucked up. Isn't it, Kevin?

1385
01:25:33,250 --> 01:25:34,333
White women.

1386
01:25:34,875 --> 01:25:37,125
We did-- We did a round of fact-checking.

1387
01:25:37,208 --> 01:25:38,791
She made a fucking website.

1388
01:25:52,375 --> 01:25:53,500
Where is she?

1389
01:26:19,291 --> 01:26:21,916
-No, I know--
-Do not touch me right now!

1390
01:26:22,958 --> 01:26:24,583
[muffled shouting]

1391
01:26:36,166 --> 01:26:38,541
[muffled] You have no idea!
You didn't tell me!

1392
01:26:38,625 --> 01:26:41,708
I had to find out
from a fucking Depravity article, Danni!

1393
01:26:41,791 --> 01:26:44,208
Just give me one minute! I know! I know!

1394
01:26:44,291 --> 01:26:47,041
[muffled shouting]

1395
01:26:47,125 --> 01:26:48,916
[people in office whispering]

1396
01:26:49,958 --> 01:26:54,208
And I made a mistake! And I just--
I feel bad because you're my best friend!

1397
01:26:55,250 --> 01:26:57,666
[muffled] You have to go. No, Danni.

1398
01:26:57,750 --> 01:26:58,958
Listen to me for one minute.

1399
01:26:59,500 --> 01:27:03,250
No. You have to go. You have to go.

1400
01:27:03,333 --> 01:27:04,833
Just go.

1401
01:27:27,375 --> 01:27:29,000
Oh, shit.

1402
01:27:30,291 --> 01:27:31,291
What I miss?

1403
01:27:34,375 --> 01:27:35,458
[sobs]

1404
01:27:36,208 --> 01:27:39,041
[sobbing]

1405
01:27:40,333 --> 01:27:43,000
["The End of the World" playing]

1406
01:27:47,041 --> 01:27:52,125
[singer]
♪ Why does the sun go on shining? ♪

1407
01:27:53,750 --> 01:27:54,875
♪ Why does the sea…♪

1408
01:27:54,958 --> 01:27:56,916
[contributor] Danni Sanders
might actually be the worst person

1409
01:27:57,000 --> 01:27:59,333
we've ever covered on this show,
and we covered Hitler.

1410
01:27:59,416 --> 01:28:01,333
[creator 1]
…acting like she was the victim.

1411
01:28:01,416 --> 01:28:04,083
I think that
that turned a lot of people off to her.

1412
01:28:04,166 --> 01:28:07,333
[creator 2] But I'm really not trying
to get mistaken for Danni Sanders.

1413
01:28:07,416 --> 01:28:09,291
[presenter 2]
I'm not gonna go that far. It's a fine.

1414
01:28:09,375 --> 01:28:11,208
[presenter 1] Not for me. I own guns.

1415
01:28:11,291 --> 01:28:13,541
You wanna be everywhere?
Try being in an obituary.

1416
01:28:13,625 --> 01:28:16,208
Danni Sanders,
you don't seem to know where you're at.

1417
01:28:16,291 --> 01:28:17,541
But you know, I know where you're at.

1418
01:28:17,625 --> 01:28:19,333
-Is that your address?
-That look familiar?

1419
01:28:19,416 --> 01:28:20,750
I'm pretty sure that's your address.

1420
01:28:20,833 --> 01:28:23,666
[both] 3824 Linden Street.

1421
01:28:23,750 --> 01:28:25,125
[presenter 1] You're here, ha-ha!

1422
01:28:25,208 --> 01:28:28,541
Yo, any serial killers wanna do
a little practice run. There's your place.

1423
01:28:28,625 --> 01:28:31,083
If I was you, I would not want
that information out. That sucks.
1424
01:28:31,166 --> 01:28:32,583
-Oh, no.
-That sucks.

1425
01:28:32,666 --> 01:28:34,541
No one loves you, Danni. Fuck you!

1426
01:28:34,625 --> 01:28:39,208
[singer]
♪ It ended when I lost your love ♪

1427
01:28:41,583 --> 01:28:46,583
♪ I wake up in the morning and I wonder ♪

1428
01:28:48,041 --> 01:28:53,125
♪ Why everything's the same as it was…♪

1429
01:28:53,208 --> 01:28:54,208
Danni?

1430
01:28:56,958 --> 01:29:00,375
No, no, no. Look at this. Hmm?

1431
01:29:00,458 --> 01:29:04,125
Six years in Afghanistan.
You want to talk about fucking trauma?

1432
01:29:04,208 --> 01:29:05,875
Huh? Trauma! That's--

1433
01:29:06,875 --> 01:29:07,875
Bitch!

1434
01:29:12,291 --> 01:29:16,250
All right, Guinea Weasley.
This is gonna be our new home for a while.

1435
01:29:17,291 --> 01:29:18,916
[Mom] What are you gonna do?

1436
01:29:19,000 --> 01:29:21,208
How are you ever gonna be able
to get another job?

1437
01:29:21,291 --> 01:29:23,041
Or find a husband.

1438
01:29:23,583 --> 01:29:26,333
-Or get approved by a co-op board?
-I don't know. I don't know.

1439
01:29:26,416 --> 01:29:27,583
I don't know.

1440
01:29:28,875 --> 01:29:32,250
Your father is getting death threats
sent to his work.

1441
01:29:32,333 --> 01:29:34,541
They're accusing us of being in on it.

1442
01:29:34,625 --> 01:29:35,625
Yeah, I know.

1443
01:29:38,916 --> 01:29:40,958
I just-- I can't.

1444
01:29:42,041 --> 01:29:43,666
Okay, I-- Me--

1445
01:29:43,750 --> 01:29:45,541
Can I have a cup of hot cocoa?

1446
01:29:48,958 --> 01:29:50,083
Please?

1447
01:30:09,041 --> 01:30:12,791
♪ Why does my heart go on beating? ♪

1448
01:30:15,541 --> 01:30:19,875
♪ Why do these eyes of mine cry? ♪

1449
01:30:22,208 --> 01:30:25,541
♪ Don't they know ♪

1450
01:30:25,625 --> 01:30:29,125
♪ It's the end of the world? ♪

1451
01:30:29,208 --> 01:30:32,375
♪ It ended when you said ♪
1452
01:30:35,208 --> 01:30:36,958
♪ Goodbye ♪

1453
01:30:44,500 --> 01:30:47,208
Hi. I'm Danni.

1454
01:30:48,541 --> 01:30:52,458
It has been a little over a month.

1455
01:30:54,500 --> 01:30:57,208
And it's like I still don't know
where to start.

1456
01:30:57,750 --> 01:31:02,125
Sometimes a good place to start
can be with a little self-reflection.

1457
01:31:02,208 --> 01:31:07,333
You know, speak on the new perspective
that you've gained from this experience.

1458
01:31:07,416 --> 01:31:08,833
Right, yeah. I--

1459
01:31:08,916 --> 01:31:13,375
I guess-- what I've learned
from this experience is that…

1460
01:31:16,583 --> 01:31:17,583
I…

1461
01:31:18,750 --> 01:31:21,250
I don't think
that I like myself very much.

1462
01:31:21,333 --> 01:31:22,541
Mm-hmm.

1463
01:31:23,541 --> 01:31:25,750
[Danni]
I'm not sure that I ever really have.

1464
01:31:26,875 --> 01:31:29,750
Which is funny.
Like, considering my life--
1465
01:31:29,833 --> 01:31:32,916
Oh, my God.
My life before this, it was so easy.

1466
01:31:33,000 --> 01:31:34,416
So easy.

1467
01:31:36,333 --> 01:31:38,166
No one stared at me in the street.

1468
01:31:38,916 --> 01:31:41,583
No one doxed me on Twitter. No one--

1469
01:31:42,916 --> 01:31:44,750
No one gave a shit.

1470
01:31:45,500 --> 01:31:46,500
[group member] Yeah.

1471
01:31:49,875 --> 01:31:51,166
Which is why I lied.

1472
01:31:52,333 --> 01:31:53,375
And now…

1473
01:31:55,791 --> 01:31:58,625
Now I hate myself so much more
than I did before.

1474
01:32:00,708 --> 01:32:03,375
So what?
Are we supposed to feel bad for you?

1475
01:32:03,458 --> 01:32:04,541
[clears throat]

1476
01:32:05,250 --> 01:32:06,750
I mean, you're saying you've learned,

1477
01:32:06,833 --> 01:32:09,083
but at the end of the day,
you're a privileged white girl

1478
01:32:09,166 --> 01:32:10,583
who thinks she's the main character.

1479
01:32:10,666 --> 01:32:14,458
Quinn! What have we said
about criticizing other people…

1480
01:32:14,541 --> 01:32:17,208
[both] For the mistakes
we've made ourselves.

1481
01:32:17,291 --> 01:32:18,291
Quinn's…

1482
01:32:19,625 --> 01:32:20,625
totally right.

1483
01:32:22,916 --> 01:32:25,708
I don't know if I've learned anything.
I don't know…

1484
01:32:26,750 --> 01:32:28,416
if I'm better.

1485
01:32:28,500 --> 01:32:30,083
I don't know if I've grown.

1486
01:32:30,166 --> 01:32:34,291
I don't know if I've… learned,

1487
01:32:34,375 --> 01:32:36,958
and-- I just-- I don't know. I don't know.

1488
01:32:37,041 --> 01:32:38,916
Have you tried making amends?

1489
01:32:42,375 --> 01:32:44,416
Directly to the people that you hurt.

1490
01:32:45,125 --> 01:32:47,416
Not like over the Internet.

1491
01:32:47,500 --> 01:32:48,708
Hmm.

1492
01:32:51,208 --> 01:32:52,208
Okay.

1493
01:33:00,291 --> 01:33:02,958
[singers] ♪ Finale, finale, fin-ale ♪

1494
01:33:03,041 --> 01:33:05,666
♪ Finale, finale, fin-ale ♪

1495
01:33:05,750 --> 01:33:08,458
♪ Finale, finale, fin-ale ♪

1496
01:33:08,541 --> 01:33:11,541
♪ Finale, finale, fin-ale ♪

1497
01:33:12,625 --> 01:33:14,541
[hip-hop playing]

1498
01:33:26,541 --> 01:33:28,041
-[music stops]
-[applause]

1499
01:33:28,125 --> 01:33:29,375
[no audible dialogue]

1500
01:33:35,541 --> 01:33:36,750
[emcee] And up next,

1501
01:33:36,833 --> 01:33:41,166
we have Rowan Aldren reciting
an original spoken-word piece.

1502
01:33:41,250 --> 01:33:42,958
[cheering]

1503
01:33:59,541 --> 01:34:03,375
So this is a different piece than the one
I originally planned on doing.

1504
01:34:04,916 --> 01:34:08,166
It's a little rough, but I, um…

1505
01:34:09,666 --> 01:34:10,958
I think it's more fitting.

1506
01:34:16,916 --> 01:34:18,125
[exhales shakily]

1507
01:34:26,416 --> 01:34:28,958
If you're not okay, that's okay.

1508
01:34:29,541 --> 01:34:30,666
[inhales sharply]

1509
01:34:31,708 --> 01:34:33,625
That's advice I gave.

1510
01:34:34,250 --> 01:34:36,375
Six words that came out of my mouth

1511
01:34:36,458 --> 01:34:39,041
that on that day
you snatched up like a handout.

1512
01:34:40,125 --> 01:34:42,000
#IAmNotOkay.

1513
01:34:42,708 --> 01:34:44,833
A sentence that resonated
with a nation-- No.

1514
01:34:44,916 --> 01:34:47,291
A generation scared to wake up
in their own nation,

1515
01:34:47,375 --> 01:34:50,625
determined of their own
inevitable termination.

1516
01:34:52,166 --> 01:34:54,833
Smart move,
turning that fear into clickbait.

1517
01:34:59,041 --> 01:35:03,250
But, God, I guess I am
just so used to being stolen from,

1518
01:35:03,333 --> 01:35:06,666
that when I read my words in your voice,
I reposted 'em.

1519
01:35:07,416 --> 01:35:09,083
And applauded as you boasted.

1520
01:35:09,166 --> 01:35:11,791
Gave you a platform
that floated you right up to the top.

1521
01:35:13,291 --> 01:35:15,000
And you never thought to stop?

1522
01:35:16,541 --> 01:35:19,500
When you looked down at the bodies
that you used as props,

1523
01:35:19,583 --> 01:35:23,166
when you looked into my eyes,
you just saw another voice to co-opt?

1524
01:35:23,833 --> 01:35:28,458
You know, for someone who's not okay,
you seem okay with quite a lot, actually.

1525
01:35:30,875 --> 01:35:34,208
And while I was blindsided,
why am I not surprised?

1526
01:35:35,625 --> 01:35:38,500
Why is a story like yours
something we read every other night?

1527
01:35:38,583 --> 01:35:41,041
Why do people like you get movies
on Netflix and Hulu,

1528
01:35:41,125 --> 01:35:44,625
and people like me get told
to sit tight and wait for change?

1529
01:35:44,708 --> 01:35:47,666
No, you don't know what that's like!
You can't take the mic!

1530
01:35:47,750 --> 01:35:50,875
This is my time slot.
One more minute, right?

1531
01:35:50,958 --> 01:35:52,666
[scattered whoops and cheers]
1532
01:35:52,750 --> 01:35:54,125
[clapping]

1533
01:35:57,041 --> 01:35:59,166
I have had everything stolen from me.

1534
01:36:00,291 --> 01:36:02,083
Their breath, stolen.

1535
01:36:02,916 --> 01:36:06,791
My breath, perpetually holding, wondering
if someone near me might be holding--

1536
01:36:08,208 --> 01:36:09,791
I'm sorry.

1537
01:36:09,875 --> 01:36:11,208
Is my trauma showing?

1538
01:36:11,291 --> 01:36:14,041
Because I don't plan
on slowing or sitting down.

1539
01:36:14,125 --> 01:36:17,750
This is my time to take back the words
that you stole from my mouth.

1540
01:36:17,833 --> 01:36:21,291
You have never seen anything destroyed
except yourself!

1541
01:36:23,708 --> 01:36:25,250
And that is of your own doing.

1542
01:36:30,041 --> 01:36:33,250
So hell no. I am not okay.

1543
01:36:37,625 --> 01:36:39,791
I think about her every single day.

1544
01:36:45,083 --> 01:36:48,333
You know when the newspapers wrote
about my sister,

1545
01:36:48,416 --> 01:36:49,958
they misspelled her name?

1546
01:36:53,083 --> 01:36:55,958
And now you think her place
is something you can claim?

1547
01:36:59,250 --> 01:37:02,458
Her body is in the ground,
and you think you're the same?

1548
01:37:10,083 --> 01:37:13,250
I hope you realize that by doing this,
you've only given me more to say.

1549
01:37:15,750 --> 01:37:17,916
So maybe one day I'll forgive you…

1550
01:37:19,791 --> 01:37:22,125
but we will never be okay.

1551
01:37:26,291 --> 01:37:28,083
[applause]

1552
01:37:45,750 --> 01:37:46,750
Yes!

1553
01:37:47,708 --> 01:37:48,708
Yes!

1554
01:38:06,916 --> 01:38:09,166
You did that. You did it.

1555
01:38:27,750 --> 01:38:29,625
[no audible dialogue]

1556
01:38:59,333 --> 01:39:03,333
["Declaration" playing]

1557
01:39:14,416 --> 01:39:18,416
[singer] ♪ Like a dog with his tail
Between his legs ♪

1558
01:39:18,500 --> 01:39:22,416
♪ I sleep in the bed I know I've made ♪
1559
01:39:22,500 --> 01:39:26,125
♪ I knew things could get complicated ♪

1560
01:39:26,208 --> 01:39:29,458
♪ Oh-oh, I'm ashamed ♪

1561
01:39:30,166 --> 01:39:34,375
♪ I don't know her face
Or where she came from ♪

1562
01:39:34,458 --> 01:39:38,041
♪ I don't even know her name ♪

1563
01:39:38,125 --> 01:39:41,666
♪ The mirror's clean, I scream again ♪

1564
01:39:41,750 --> 01:39:44,958
♪ Whoa-oh, oh, I'm ashamed ♪

1565
01:39:46,166 --> 01:39:49,333
♪ So-whoa-whoa-whoa ♪

1566
01:39:49,416 --> 01:39:51,750
♪ I run ♪

1567
01:39:53,500 --> 01:39:57,125
♪ Can't escape the fate of judgment day ♪

1568
01:39:57,208 --> 01:40:00,833
♪ For the things I've done ♪

1569
01:40:00,916 --> 01:40:04,250
♪ This is a declaration of a fuckup ♪

1570
01:40:05,500 --> 01:40:08,041
♪ A product of how I was raised ♪

1571
01:40:09,041 --> 01:40:11,833
♪ And I don't expect a single teardrop ♪

1572
01:40:12,875 --> 01:40:16,000
♪ Whoa, I am ashamed ♪

1573
01:40:16,625 --> 01:40:19,458
♪ This is a declaration of a fuckup ♪

1574
01:40:20,458 --> 01:40:23,458
♪ And in the end
I don't know how to change ♪

1575
01:40:24,458 --> 01:40:27,291
♪ And I don't expect a single teardrop ♪

1576
01:40:28,291 --> 01:40:31,583
♪ Whoa, I am ashamed ♪

1577
01:40:32,625 --> 01:40:36,208
♪ Shot you words you don't deserve ♪

1578
01:40:36,291 --> 01:40:40,208
♪ Rolled through your town
And massacred ♪

1579
01:40:40,291 --> 01:40:43,875
♪ I wish I died a hundred times ♪

1580
01:40:43,958 --> 01:40:47,291
♪ Whoa-oh, oh, I'm ashamed ♪

1581
01:40:48,333 --> 01:40:51,666
♪ So-whoa-whoa-whoa ♪

1582
01:40:51,750 --> 01:40:54,000
♪ I run ♪

1583
01:40:55,708 --> 01:40:59,333
♪ Can't escape the fate of judgment day ♪

1584
01:40:59,416 --> 01:41:03,250
♪ For the things I've done ♪

1585
01:41:03,333 --> 01:41:06,291
♪ This is a declaration of a fuckup ♪

1586
01:41:07,541 --> 01:41:10,208
♪ A product of how I was raised ♪

1587
01:41:11,166 --> 01:41:14,041
♪ And I don't expect a single teardrop ♪
1588
01:41:15,041 --> 01:41:18,458
♪ Whoa, I am ashamed ♪

1589
01:41:18,541 --> 01:41:21,750
♪ This is a declaration of a fuckup ♪

1590
01:41:22,750 --> 01:41:25,708
♪ And in the end
I don't know how to change ♪

1591
01:41:26,750 --> 01:41:29,791
♪ And I don't expect a single teardrop ♪

1592
01:41:30,541 --> 01:41:33,833
♪ Whoa, I am ashamed ♪

1593
01:41:34,500 --> 01:41:37,958
♪ Oh, I am deranged ♪

1594
01:41:38,458 --> 01:41:41,916
♪ Oh, I am insane ♪

1595
01:41:42,000 --> 01:41:45,625
♪ Oh, I'm inhumane ♪

1596
01:41:46,166 --> 01:41:49,333
♪ Oh, I am ashamed ♪

1597
01:41:50,083 --> 01:41:53,208
♪ Oh, I am deranged ♪

1598
01:41:53,958 --> 01:41:57,375
♪ Oh, I am insane ♪

1599
01:41:57,875 --> 01:42:00,916
♪ Oh, I'm inhumane ♪

1600
01:42:01,541 --> 01:42:04,833
♪ Oh, I am ashamed ♪