Passage To India
Passage To India
Passage To India
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Author: E. M. Forster
Language: English
BY
E. M. FORSTER
Author of “Howards End,” “A Room with a View,” etc.
SECOND IMPRESSION
LONDON
EDWARD ARNOLD & CO.
1924
BY THE SAME WRITER:
WHERE ANGELS FEAR TO TREAD
THE LONGEST JOURNEY
A ROOM WITH A VIEW
HOWARDS END
THE CELESTIAL OMNIBUS
PHAROS AND PHARILLON
TO
SYED ROSS MASOOD
AND TO THE SEVENTEEN YEARS OF OUR FRIENDSHIP
CONTENTS
PART I: MOSQUE
CHAPTER I
CHAPTER II
CHAPTER III
CHAPTER IV
CHAPTER V
CHAPTER VI
CHAPTER VII
CHAPTER VIII
CHAPTER IX
CHAPTER X
CHAPTER XI
CHAPTER XII
CHAPTER XIII
CHAPTER XIV
CHAPTER XV
CHAPTER XVI
CHAPTER XVII
CHAPTER XVIII
CHAPTER XIX
CHAPTER XX
CHAPTER XXI
CHAPTER XXII
CHAPTER XXIII
CHAPTER XXIV
CHAPTER XXV
CHAPTER XXVI
CHAPTER XXVII
CHAPTER XXVIII
CHAPTER XXIX
CHAPTER XXX
CHAPTER XXXI
CHAPTER XXXII
CHAPTER XXXIII
CHAPTER XXXIV
CHAPTER XXXV
CHAPTER XXXVI
CHAPTER XXXVII
A PASSAGE TO INDIA
PART I: MOSQUE
CHAPTER I
Except for the Marabar Caves—and they are twenty miles off—the city
of Chandrapore presents nothing extraordinary. Edged rather than washed
by the river Ganges, it trails for a couple of miles along the bank, scarcely
distinguishable from the rubbish it deposits so freely. There are no bathing-
steps on the river front, as the Ganges happens not to be holy here; indeed
there is no river front, and bazaars shut out the wide and shifting panorama
of the stream. The streets are mean, the temples ineffective, and though a
few fine houses exist they are hidden away in gardens or down alleys whose
filth deters all but the invited guest. Chandrapore was never large or
beautiful, but two hundred years ago it lay on the road between Upper
India, then imperial, and the sea, and the fine houses date from that period.
The zest for decoration stopped in the eighteenth century, nor was it ever
democratic. There is no painting and scarcely any carving in the bazaars.
The very wood seems made of mud, the inhabitants of mud moving. So
abased, so monotonous is everything that meets the eye, that when the
Ganges comes down it might be expected to wash the excrescence back into
the soil. Houses do fall, people are drowned and left rotting, but the general
outline of the town persists, swelling here, shrinking there, like some low
but indestructible form of life.
Inland, the prospect alters. There is an oval Maidan, and a long sallow
hospital. Houses belonging to Eurasians stand on the high ground by the
railway station. Beyond the railway—which runs parallel to the river—the
land sinks, then rises again rather steeply. On the second rise is laid out the
little civil station, and viewed hence Chandrapore appears to be a totally
different place. It is a city of gardens. It is no city, but a forest sparsely
scattered with huts. It is a tropical pleasaunce washed by a noble river. The
toddy palms and neem trees and mangoes and pepul that were hidden
behind the bazaars now become visible and in their turn hide the bazaars.
They rise from the gardens where ancient tanks nourish them, they burst out
of stifling purlieus and unconsidered temples. Seeking, light and air, and
endowed with more strength than man or his works, they soar above the
lower deposit to greet one another with branches and beckoning leaves, and
to build a city for the birds. Especially after the rains do they screen what
passes below, but at all times, even when scorched or leafless, they glorify
the city to the English people who inhabit the rise, so that new-comers
cannot believe it to be as meagre as it is described, and have to be driven
down to acquire disillusionment. As for the civil station itself, it provokes
no emotion. It charms not, neither does it repel. It is sensibly planned, with
a red-brick club on its brow, and farther back a grocer’s and a cemetery, and
the bungalows are disposed along roads that intersect at right angles. It has
nothing hideous in it, and only the view is beautiful; it shares nothing with
the city except the overarching sky.
The sky too has its changes, but they are less marked than those of the
vegetation and the river. Clouds map it up at times, but it is normally a
dome of blending tints, and the main tint blue. By day the blue will pale
down into white where it touches the white of the land, after sunset it has a
new circumference—orange, melting upwards into tenderest purple. But the
core of blue persists, and so it is by night. Then the stars hang like lamps
from the immense vault. The distance between the vault and them is as
nothing to the distance behind them, and that farther distance, though
beyond colour, last freed itself from blue.
The sky settles everything—not only climates and seasons but when the
earth shall be beautiful. By herself she can do little—only feeble outbursts
of flowers. But when the sky chooses, glory can rain into the Chandrapore
bazaars or a benediction pass from horizon to horizon. The sky can do this
because it is so strong and so enormous. Strength comes from the sun,
infused in it daily, size from the prostrate earth. No mountains infringe on
the curve. League after league the earth lies flat, heaves a little, is flat again.
Only in the south, where a group of fists and fingers are thrust up through
the soil, is the endless expanse interrupted. These fists and fingers are the
Marabar Hills, containing the extraordinary caves.
CHAPTER II
Abandoning his bicycle, which fell before a servant could catch it, the
young man sprang up on to the verandah. He was all animation.
“Hamidullah, Hamidullah! am I late?” he cried.
“Do not apologize,” said his host. “You are always late.”
“Kindly answer my question. Am I late? Has Mahmoud Ali eaten all the
food? If so I go elsewhere. Mr. Mahmoud Ali, how are you?”
“Yes, that is so,” said the other. “Imagine us both as addressing you from
another and a happier world.”
The hookah had been packed too tight, as was usual in his friend’s house,
and bubbled sulkily. He coaxed it. Yielding at last, the tobacco jetted up
into his lungs and nostrils, driving out the smoke of burning cow dung that
had filled them as he rode through the bazaar. It was delicious. He lay in a
trance, sensuous but healthy, through which the talk of the two others did
not seem particularly sad—they were discussing as to whether or no it is
possible to be friends with an Englishman. Mahmoud Ali argued that it was
not, Hamidullah disagreed, but with so many reservations that there was no
friction between them. Delicious indeed to lie on the broad verandah with
the moon rising in front and the servants preparing dinner behind, and no
trouble happening.
“It is impossible here. Aziz! The red-nosed boy has again insulted me in
Court. I do not blame him. He was told that he ought to insult me. Until
lately he was quite a nice boy, but the others have got hold of him.”
“Yes, they have no chance here, that is my point. They come out
intending to be gentlemen, and are told it will not do. Look at Lesley, look
at Blakiston, now it is your red-nosed boy, and Fielding will go next. Why, I
remember when Turton came out first. It was in another part of the
Province. You fellows will not believe me, but I have driven with Turton in
his carriage—Turton! Oh yes, we were once quite intimate. He has shown
me his stamp collection.”
“He would expect you to steal it now. Turton! But red-nosed boy will be
far worse than Turton!”
“I do not think so. They all become exactly the same, not worse, not
better. I give any Englishman two years, be he Turton or Burton. It is only
the difference of a letter. And I give any Englishwoman six months. All are
exactly alike. Do you not agree with me?”
“I do not,” replied Mahmoud Ali, entering into the bitter fun, and feeling
both pain and amusement at each word that was uttered. “For my own part I
find such profound differences among our rulers. Red-nose mumbles,
Turton talks distinctly, Mrs. Turton takes bribes, Mrs. Red-nose does not
and cannot, because so far there is no Mrs. Red-nose.”
“Bribes?”
“Did you not know that when they were lent to Central India over a
Canal Scheme, some Rajah or other gave her a sewing machine in solid
gold so that the water should run through his state.”
“No, that is where Mrs. Turton is so skilful. When we poor blacks take
bribes, we perform what we are bribed to perform, and the law discovers us
in consequence. The English take and do nothing. I admire them.”
“You are a very selfish boy.” He raised his voice suddenly, and shouted
for dinner. Servants shouted back that it was ready. They meant that they
wished it was ready, and were so understood, for nobody moved. Then
Hamidullah continued, but with changed manner and evident emotion.
“But take my case—the case of young Hugh Bannister. Here is the son of
my dear, my dead friends, the Reverend and Mrs. Bannister, whose
goodness to me in England I shall never forget or describe. They were
father and mother to me, I talked to them as I do now. In the vacations their
Rectory became my home. They entrusted all their children to me—I often
carried little Hugh about—I took him up to the Funeral of Queen Victoria,
and held him in my arms above the crowd.”
Aziz joined in. “Why talk about the English? Brrrr . . . ! Why be either
friends with the fellows or not friends? Let us shut them out and be jolly.
Queen Victoria and Mrs. Bannister were the only exceptions, and they’re
dead.”
“So have I,” said Mahmoud Ali, unexpectedly veering. “All ladies are far
from alike.” Their mood was changed, and they recalled little kindnesses
and courtesies. “She said ‘Thank you so much’ in the most natural way.”
“She offered me a lozenge when the dust irritated my throat.” Hamidullah
could remember more important examples of angelic ministration, but the
other, who only knew Anglo-India, had to ransack his memory for scraps,
and it was not surprising that he should return to “But of course all this is
exceptional. The exception does not prove the rule. The average woman is
like Mrs. Turton, and, Aziz, you know what she is.” Aziz did not know, but
said he did. He too generalized from his disappointments—it is difficult for
members of a subject race to do otherwise. Granted the exceptions, he
agreed that all Englishwomen are haughty and venal. The gleam passed
from the conversation, whose wintry surface unrolled and expanded
interminably.
A servant announced dinner. They ignored him. The elder men had
reached their eternal politics, Aziz drifted into the garden. The trees smelt
sweet—green-blossomed champak—and scraps of Persian poetry came into
his head. Dinner, dinner, dinner . . . but when he returned to the house for it,
Mahmoud Ali had drifted away in his turn, to speak to his sais. “Come and
see my wife a little then,” said Hamidullah, and they spent twenty minutes
behind the purdah. Hamidullah Begum was a distant aunt of Aziz, and the
only female relative he had in Chandrapore, and she had much to say to him
on this occasion about a family circumcision that had been celebrated with
imperfect pomp. It was difficult to get away, because until they had had
their dinner she would not begin hers, and consequently prolonged her
remarks in case they should suppose she was impatient. Having censured
the circumcision, she bethought her of kindred topics, and asked Aziz when
he was going to be married.
“Aunt, they live most comfortably with my wife’s mother, where she was
living when she died. I can see them whenever I like. They are such very,
very small children.”
“And he sends them the whole of his salary and lives like a low-grade
clerk, and tells no one the reason. What more do you require him to do?”
But this was not Hamidullah Begum’s point, and having courteously
changed the conversation for a few moments she returned and made it. She
said, “What is to become of all our daughters if men refuse to marry? They
will marry beneath them, or——” And she began the oft-told tale of a lady
of Imperial descent who could find no husband in the narrow circle where
her pride permitted her to mate, and had lived on unwed, her age now thirty,
and would die unwed, for no one would have her now. While the tale was in
progress, it convinced the two men, the tragedy seemed a slur on the whole
community; better polygamy almost, than that a woman should die without
the joys God has intended her to receive. Wedlock, motherhood, power in
the house—for what else is she born, and how can the man who has denied
them to her stand up to face her creator and his own at the last day? Aziz
took his leave saying “Perhaps . . . but later . . .” —his invariable reply to
such an appeal.
“You mustn’t put off what you think right,” said Hamidullah. “That is
why India is in such a plight, because we put off things.” But seeing that his
young relative looked worried, he added a few soothing words, and thus
wiped out any impression that his wife might have made.
During their absence, Mahmoud Ali had gone off in his carriage leaving
a message that he should be back in five minutes, but they were on no
account to wait. They sat down to meat with a distant cousin of the house,
Mohammed Latif, who lived on Hamidullah’s bounty and who occupied the
position neither of a servant nor of an equal. He did not speak unless spoken
to, and since no one spoke kept unoffended silence. Now and then he
belched, in compliment to the richness of the food. A gentle, happy and
dishonest old man; all his life he had never done a stroke of work. So long
as some one of his relatives had a house he was sure of a home, and it was
unlikely that so large a family would all go bankrupt. His wife led a similar
existence some hundreds of miles away—he did not visit her, owing to the
expense of the railway ticket. Presently Aziz chaffed him, also the servants,
and then began quoting poetry, Persian, Urdu, a little Arabic. His memory
was good, and for so young a man he had read largely; the themes he
preferred were the decay of Islam and the brevity of love. They listened
delighted, for they took the public view of poetry, not the private which
obtains in England. It never bored them to hear words, words; they breathed
them with the cool night air, never stopping to analyse; the name of the
poet, Hafiz, Hali, Iqbal, was sufficient guarantee. India—a hundred Indias
—whispered outside beneath the indifferent moon, but for the time India
seemed one and their own, and they regained their departed greatness by
hearing its departure lamented, they felt young again because reminded that
youth must fly. A servant in scarlet interrupted him; he was the chuprassi of
the Civil Surgeon, and he handed Aziz a note.
“Old Callendar wants to see me at his bungalow,” he said, not rising. “He
might have the politeness to say why.”
“I daresay not, I daresay nothing. He has found out our dinner hour, that’s
all, and chooses to interrupt us every time, in order to show his power.”
“On the one hand he always does this, on the other it may be a serious
case, and you cannot know,” said Hamidullah, considerately paving the way
towards obedience. “Had you not better clean your teeth after pan?”
The poor relation got up. Slightly immersed in the realms of matter, he
laid his hand on the bicycle’s saddle, while a servant did the actual
wheeling. Between them they took it over a tintack. Aziz held his hands
under the ewer, dried them, fitted on his green felt hat, and then with
unexpected energy whizzed out of Hamidullah’s compound.
“Aziz, Aziz, imprudent boy. . . .” But he was far down the bazaar, riding
furiously. He had neither light nor bell nor had he a brake, but what use are
such adjuncts in a land where the cyclist’s only hope is to coast from face to
face, and just before he collides with each it vanishes? And the city was
fairly empty at this hour. When his tyre went flat, he leapt off and shouted
for a tonga.
He did not at first find one, and he had also to dispose of his bicycle at a
friend’s house. He dallied furthermore to clean his teeth. But at last he was
rattling towards the civil lines, with a vivid sense of speed. As he entered
their arid tidiness, depression suddenly seized him. The roads, named after
victorious generals and intersecting at right angles, were symbolic of the net
Great Britain had thrown over India. He felt caught in their meshes. When
he turned into Major Callendar’s compound he could with difficulty restrain
himself from getting down from the tonga and approaching the bungalow
on foot, and this not because his soul was servile but because his feelings—
the sensitive edges of him—feared a gross snub. There had been a “case”
last year—an Indian gentleman had driven up to an official’s house and
been turned back by the servants and been told to approach more suitably—
only one case among thousands of visits to hundreds of officials, but its
fame spread wide. The young man shrank from a repetition of it. He
compromised, and stopped the driver just outside the flood of light that fell
across the verandah.
“Ours?” enquired the second, also seeing Aziz, and doing likewise.
“Take the gifts the gods provide, anyhow,” she screeched, and both
jumped in. “O Tonga wallah, club, club. Why doesn’t the fool go?”
“Go, I will pay you to-morrow,” said Aziz to the driver, and as they went
off he called courteously, “You are most welcome, ladies.” They did not
reply, being full of their own affairs.
“Saying nothing?”
He was offered the use of the house, but was too dignified to enter it.
Paper and ink were brought on to the verandah. He began: “Dear Sir,—At
your express command I have hastened as a subordinate should——” and
then stopped. “Tell him I have called, that is sufficient,” he said, tearing the
protest up. “Here is my card. Call me a tonga.”
“Then telephone for one down to the railway station.” And since the man
hastened to do this he said, “Enough, enough, I prefer to walk.” He
commandeered a match and lit a cigarette. These attentions, though
purchased, soothed him. They would last as long as he had rupees, which is
something. But to shake the dust of Anglo-India off his feet! To escape
from the net and be back among manners and gestures that he knew! He
began a walk, an unwonted exercise.
He was an athletic little man, daintily put together, but really very strong.
Nevertheless walking fatigued him, as it fatigues everyone in India except
the new-comer. There is something hostile in that soil. It either yields, and
the foot sinks into a depression, or else it is unexpectedly rigid and sharp,
pressing stones or crystals against the tread. A series of these little surprises
exhausts; and he was wearing pumps, a poor preparation for any country. At
the edge of the civil station he turned into a mosque to rest.
He had always liked this mosque. It was gracious, and the arrangement
pleased him. The courtyard—entered through a ruined gate—contained an
ablution tank of fresh clear water, which was always in motion, being
indeed part of a conduit that supplied the city. The courtyard was paved
with broken slabs. The covered part of the mosque was deeper than is usual;
its effect was that of an English parish church whose side has been taken
out. Where he sat, he looked into three arcades whose darkness was
illuminated by a small hanging lamp and by the moon. The front—in full
moonlight—had the appearance of marble, and the ninety-nine names of
God on the frieze stood out black, as the frieze stood out white against the
sky. The contest between this dualism and the contention of shadows within
pleased Aziz, and he tried to symbolize the whole into some truth of
religion or love. A mosque by winning his approval let loose his
imagination. The temple of another creed, Hindu, Christian, or Greek,
would have bored him and failed to awaken his sense of beauty. Here was
Islam, his own country, more than a Faith, more than a battle-cry, more,
much more . . . Islam, an attitude towards life both exquisite and durable,
where his body and his thoughts found their home.
His seat was the low wall that bounded the courtyard on the left. The
ground fell away beneath him towards the city, visible as a blur of trees, and
in the stillness he heard many small sounds. On the right, over in the club,
the English community contributed an amateur orchestra. Elsewhere some
Hindus were drumming—he knew they were Hindus, because the rhythm
was uncongenial to him,—and others were bewailing a corpse—he knew
whose, having certified it in the afternoon. There were owls, the Punjab
mail . . . and flowers smelt deliciously in the station-master’s garden. But
the mosque—that alone signified, and he returned to it from the complex
appeal of the night, and decked it with meanings the builder had never
intended. Some day he too would build a mosque, smaller than this but in
perfect taste, so that all who passed by should experience the happiness he
felt now. And near it, under a low dome, should be his tomb, with a Persian
inscription:
He had seen the quatrain on the tomb of a Deccan king, and regarded it
as profound philosophy—he always held pathos to be profound. The secret
understanding of the heart! He repeated the phrase with tears in his eyes,
and as he did so one of the pillars of the mosque seemed to quiver. It
swayed in the gloom and detached itself. Belief in ghosts ran in his blood,
but he sat firm. Another pillar moved, a third, and then an Englishwoman
stepped out into the moonlight. Suddenly he was furiously angry and
shouted: “Madam! Madam! Madam!”
“Madam, this is a mosque, you have no right here at all; you should have
taken off your shoes; this is a holy place for Moslems.”
“You have?”
Still startled, the woman moved out, keeping the ablution-tank between
them. He called after her, “I am truly sorry for speaking.”
“Yes, I was right, was I not? If I remove my shoes, I am allowed?”
“Of course, but so few ladies take the trouble, especially if thinking no
one is there to see.”
“Madam!”
She was now in the shadow of the gateway, so that he could not see her
face, but she saw his, and she said with a change of voice, “Mrs. Moore.”
A fabric bigger than the mosque fell to pieces, and he did not know
whether he was glad or sorry. She was older than Hamidullah Begum, with
a red face and white hair. Her voice had deceived him.
“By the way you address me. No, but can I call you a carriage?”
“I have only come from the club. They are doing a play that I have seen
in London, and it was so hot.”
“I think you ought not to walk at night alone, Mrs. Moore. There are bad
characters about and leopards may come across from the Marabar Hills.
Snakes also.”
“Used to snakes?”
They both laughed. “I’m a doctor,” he said. “Snakes don’t dare bite me.”
They sat down side by side in the entrance, and slipped on their evening
shoes. “Please may I ask you a question now? Why do you come to India at
this time of year, just as the cold weather is ending?”
“It will soon be so unhealthy for you! And why ever do you come to
Chandrapore?”
“Oh no, excuse me, that is quite impossible. Our City Magistrate’s name
is Mr. Heaslop. I know him intimately.”
“Then we are in the same box,” he said cryptically. “Then is the City
Magistrate the entire of your family now?”
“Quite right.”
“Mrs. Moore, this is all extremely strange, because like yourself I have
also two sons and a daughter. Is not this the same box with a vengeance?”
“What are their names? Not also Ronny, Ralph, and Stella, surely?”
The suggestion delighted him. “No, indeed. How funny it sounds! Their
names are quite different and will surprise you. Listen, please. I am about to
tell you my children’s names. The first is called Ahmed, the second is called
Karim, the third—she is the eldest—Jamila. Three children are enough. Do
not you agree with me?”
“I do.”
They were both silent for a little, thinking of their respective families.
She sighed and rose to go.
“Would you care to see over the Minto Hospital one morning?” he
enquired. “I have nothing else to offer at Chandrapore.”
“Thank you, I have seen it already, or I should have liked to come with
you very much.”
“She was certainly intending to be kind, but I did not find her exactly
charming.”
He burst out with: “She has just taken my tonga without my permission
—do you call that being charming?—and Major Callendar interrupts me
night after night from where I am dining with my friends and I go at once,
breaking up a most pleasant entertainment, and he is not there and not even
a message. Is this charming, pray? But what does it matter? I can do
nothing and he knows it. I am just a subordinate, my time is of no value, the
verandah is good enough for an Indian, yes, yes, let him stand, and Mrs.
Callendar takes my carriage and cuts me dead . . .”
She listened.
He was excited partly by his wrongs, but much more by the knowledge
that someone sympathized with them. It was this that led him to repeat,
exaggerate, contradict. She had proved her sympathy by criticizing her
fellow-countrywoman to him, but even earlier he had known. The flame
that not even beauty can nourish was springing up, and though his words
were querulous his heart began to glow secretly. Presently it burst into
speech.
“You understand me, you know what others feel. Oh, if others resembled
you!”
She accepted his escort back to the club, and said at the gate that she
wished she was a member, so that she could have asked him in.
“Indians are not allowed into the Chandrapore Club even as guests,” he
said simply. He did not expatiate on his wrongs now, being happy. As he
strolled downhill beneath the lovely moon, and again saw the lovely
mosque, he seemed to own the land as much as anyone owned it. What did
it matter if a few flabby Hindus had preceded him there, and a few chilly
English succeeded?
CHAPTER III
The third act of Cousin Kate was well advanced by the time Mrs. Moore
re-entered the club. Windows were barred, lest the servants should see their
mem-sahibs acting, and the heat was consequently immense. One electric
fan revolved like a wounded bird, another was out of order. Disinclined to
return to the audience, she went into the billiard room, where she was
greeted by “I want to see the real India,” and her appropriate life came back
with a rush. This was Adela Quested, the queer, cautious girl whom Ronny
had commissioned her to bring from England, and Ronny was her son, also
cautious, whom Miss Quested would probably though not certainly marry,
and she herself was an elderly lady.
“I want to see it too, and I only wish we could. Apparently the Turtons
will arrange something for next Tuesday.”
“It’ll end in an elephant ride, it always does. Look at this evening. Cousin
Kate! Imagine, Cousin Kate! But where have you been off to? Did you
succeed in catching the moon in the Ganges?”
The two ladies had happened, the night before, to see the moon’s
reflection in a distant channel of the stream. The water had drawn it out, so
that it had seemed larger than the real moon, and brighter, which had
pleased them.
“Later and later,” yawned Mrs. Moore, who was tired after her walk. “Let
me think—we don’t see the other side of the moon out here, no.”
“Come, India’s not as bad as all that,” said a pleasant voice. “Other side
of the earth, if you like, but we stick to the same old moon.” Neither of
them knew the speaker nor did they ever see him again. He passed with his
friendly word through red-brick pillars into the darkness.
“We aren’t even seeing the other side of the world; that’s our complaint,”
said Adela. Mrs. Moore agreed; she too was disappointed at the dullness of
their new life. They had made such a romantic voyage across the
Mediterranean and through the sands of Egypt to the harbour of Bombay, to
find only a gridiron of bungalows at the end of it. But she did not take the
disappointment as seriously as Miss Quested, for the reason that she was
forty years older, and had learnt that Life never gives us what we want at
the moment that we consider appropriate. Adventures do occur, but not
punctually. She said again that she hoped that something interesting would
be arranged for next Tuesday.
Mrs. Moore was surprised to learn this, dignity not being a quality with
which any mother credits her son. Miss Quested learnt it with anxiety, for
she had not decided whether she liked dignified men. She tried indeed to
discuss this point with Mr. Turton, but he silenced her with a good-
humoured motion of his hand, and continued what he had come to say. “The
long and the short of it is Heaslop’s a sahib; he’s the type we want, he’s one
of us,” and another civilian who was leaning over the billiard table said,
“Hear, hear!” The matter was thus placed beyond doubt, and the Collector
passed on, for other duties called him.
Meanwhile the performance ended, and the amateur orchestra played the
National Anthem. Conversation and billiards stopped, faces stiffened. It was
the Anthem of the Army of Occupation. It reminded every member of the
club that he or she was British and in exile. It produced a little sentiment
and a useful accession of will-power. The meagre tune, the curt series of
demands on Jehovah, fused into a prayer unknown in England, and though
they perceived neither Royalty nor Deity they did perceive something, they
were strengthened to resist another day. Then they poured out, offering one
another drinks.
Ronny was in high spirits. The request struck him as comic, and he called
out to another passer-by: “Fielding! how’s one to see the real India?”
She became the centre of an amused group of ladies. One said, “Wanting
to see Indians! How new that sounds!” Another, “Natives! why, fancy!” A
third, more serious, said, “Let me explain. Natives don’t respect one any the
more after meeting one, you see.”
“Why, the kindest thing one can do to a native is to let him die,” said
Mrs. Callendar.
“He can go where he likes as long as he doesn’t come near me. They give
me the creeps.”
“As a matter of fact I have thought what you were saying about heaven,
and that is why I am against Missionaries,” said the lady who had been a
nurse. “I am all for Chaplains, but all against Missionaries. Let me explain.”
“Do you really want to meet the Aryan Brother, Miss Quested? That can
be easily fixed up. I didn’t realize he’d amuse you.” He thought a moment.
“You can practically see any type you like. Take your choice. I know the
Government people and the landowners, Heaslop here can get hold of the
barrister crew, while if you want to specialize on education, we can come
down on Fielding.”
“I only want those Indians whom you come across socially—as your
friends.”
“It’s decent of the Burra Sahib,” chattered Ronny, much gratified at the
civility that had been shown to his guests. “Do you know he’s never given a
Bridge Party before? Coming on top of the dinner too! I wish I could have
arranged something myself, but when you know the natives better you’ll
realize it’s easier for the Burra Sahib than for me. They know him—they
know he can’t be fooled—I’m still fresh comparatively. No one can even
begin to think of knowing this country until he has been in it twenty years.
—Hullo, the mater! Here’s your cloak.—Well: for an example of the
mistakes one makes. Soon after I came out I asked one of the Pleaders to
have a smoke with me—only a cigarette, mind. I found afterwards that he
had sent touts all over the bazaar to announce the fact—told all the litigants,
'Oh, you’d better come to my Vakil Mahmoud Ali—he’s in with the City
Magistrate.’ Ever since then I’ve dropped on him in Court as hard as I
could. It’s taught me a lesson, and I hope him.”
“Isn’t the lesson that you should invite all the Pleaders to have a smoke
with you?”
“Perhaps, but time’s limited and the flesh weak. I prefer my smoke at the
club amongst my own sort, I’m afraid.”
“Why not ask the Pleaders to the club?” Miss Quested persisted.
Mrs. Moore, whom the club had stupefied, woke up outside. She watched
the moon, whose radiance stained with primrose the purple of the
surrounding sky. In England the moon had seemed dead and alien; here she
was caught in the shawl of night together with earth and all the other stars.
A sudden sense of unity, of kinship with the heavenly bodies, passed into
the old woman and out, like water through a tank, leaving a strange
freshness behind. She did not dislike Cousin Kate or the National Anthem,
but their note had died into a new one, just as cocktails and cigars had died
into invisible flowers. When the mosque, long and domeless, gleamed at the
turn of the road, she exclaimed, “Oh, yes—that’s where I got to—that’s
where I’ve been.”
“No, really not in this country. It’s not done. There’s the danger from
snakes for one thing. They are apt to lie out in the evening.”
“This sounds very romantic,” said Miss Quested, who was exceedingly
fond of Mrs. Moore, and was glad she should have had this little escapade.
“You meet a young man in a mosque, and then never let me know!”
“I was going to tell you, Adela, but something changed the conversation
and I forgot. My memory grows deplorable.”
“Was he nice?”
“Rather small, with a little moustache and quick eyes. He called out to
me when I was in the dark part of the mosque—about my shoes. That was
how we began talking. He was afraid I had them on, but I remembered
luckily. He told me about his children, and then we walked back to the club.
He knows you well.”
“I wish you had pointed him out to me. I can’t make out who he is.”
“He didn’t come into the club. He said he wasn’t allowed to.”
Thereupon the truth struck him, and he cried “Oh, good gracious! Not a
Mohammedan? Why ever didn’t you tell me you’d been talking to a native?
I was going all wrong.”
“A Mohammedan! How perfectly magnificent!” exclaimed Miss
Quested. “Ronny, isn’t that like your mother? While we talk about seeing
the real India, she goes and sees it, and then forgets she’s seen it.”
But Ronny was ruffled. From his mother’s description he had thought the
doctor might be young Muggins from over the Ganges, and had brought out
all the comradely emotions. What a mix-up! Why hadn’t she indicated by
the tone of her voice that she was talking about an Indian? Scratchy and
dictatorial, he began to question her. “He called to you in the mosque, did
he? How? Impudently? What was he doing there himself at that time of
night?—No, it’s not their prayer time.”—This in answer to a suggestion of
Miss Quested’s, who showed the keenest interest. “So he called to you over
your shoes. Then it was impudence. It’s an old trick. I wish you had had
them on.”
“I think it was impudence, but I don’t know about a trick,” said Mrs.
Moore. “His nerves were all on edge—I could tell from his voice. As soon
as I answered he altered.”
“Now look here,” said the logical girl, “wouldn’t you expect a
Mohammedan to answer if you asked him to take off his hat in church?”
He wished she wouldn’t interfere. His mother did not signify—she was
just a globe-trotter, a temporary escort, who could retire to England with
what impressions she chose. But Adela, who meditated spending her life in
the country, was a more serious matter; it would be tiresome if she started
crooked over the native question. Pulling up the mare, he said, “There’s
your Ganges.”
“So you and he had a talk. Did you gather he was well disposed?”
Ignorant of the force of this question, she replied, “Yes, quite, after the
first moment.”
“Oh, yes, I think so, except the Callendars—he doesn’t care for the
Callendars at all.”
“Oh. So he told you that, did he? The Major will be interested. I wonder
what was the aim of the remark.”
“If the Major heard I was disliked by any native subordinate of mine, I
should expect him to pass it on to me.”
“Nothing’s private in India. Aziz knew that when he spoke out, so don’t
you worry. He had some motive in what he said. My personal belief is that
the remark wasn’t true.”
“It’s the educated native’s latest dodge. They used to cringe, but the
younger generation believe in a show of manly independence. They think it
will pay better with the itinerant M.P. But whether the native swaggers or
cringes, there’s always something behind every remark he makes, always
something, and if nothing else he’s trying to increase his izzat—in plain
Anglo-Saxon, to score. Of course there are exceptions.”
“India isn’t home,” he retorted, rather rudely, but in order to silence her
he had been using phrases and arguments that he had picked up from older
officials, and he did not feel quite sure of himself. When he said “of course
there are exceptions” he was quoting Mr. Turton, while “increasing the
izzat” was Major Callendar’s own. The phrases worked and were in current
use at the club, but she was rather clever at detecting the first from the
second hand, and might press him for definite examples.
She only said, “I can’t deny that what you say sounds very sensible, but
you really must not hand on to Major Callendar anything I have told you
about Doctor Aziz.”
He felt disloyal to his caste, but he promised, adding, “In return please
don’t talk about Aziz to Adela.”
“There you go again, mother—I really can’t explain every thing. I don’t
want Adela to be worried, that’s the fact; she’ll begin wondering whether
we treat the natives properly, and all that sort of nonsense.”
“But she came out to be worried—that’s exactly why she’s here. She
discussed it all on the boat. We had a long talk when we went on shore at
Aden. She knows you in play, as she put it, but not in work, and she felt she
must come and look round, before she decided—and before you decided.
She is very, very fair-minded.”
The note of anxiety in his voice made her feel that he was still a little
boy, who must have what he liked, so she promised to do as he wished, and
they kissed good night. He had not forbidden her to think about Aziz,
however, and she did this when she retired to her room. In the light of her
son’s comment she reconsidered the scene at the mosque, to see whose
impression was correct. Yes, it could be worked into quite an unpleasant
scene. The doctor had begun by bullying her, had said Mrs. Callendar was
nice, and then—finding the ground safe—had changed; he had alternately
whined over his grievances and patronized her, had run a dozen ways in a
single sentence, had been unreliable, inquisitive, vain. Yes, it was all true,
but how false as a summary of the man; the essential life of him had been
slain.
Going to hang up her cloak, she found that the tip of the peg was
occupied by a small wasp. She had known this wasp or his relatives by day;
they were not as English wasps, but had long yellow legs which hung down
behind when they flew. Perhaps he mistook the peg for a branch—no Indian
animal has any sense of an interior. Bats, rats, birds, insects will as soon
nest inside a house as out; it is to them a normal growth of the eternal
jungle, which alternately produces houses trees, houses trees. There he
clung, asleep, while jackals in the plain bayed their desires and mingled
with the percussion of drums.
“Pretty dear,” said Mrs. Moore to the wasp. He did not wake, but her
voice floated out, to swell the night’s uneasiness.
CHAPTER IV
The Collector kept his word. Next day he issued invitation cards to
numerous Indian gentlemen in the neighbourhood, stating that he would be
at home in the garden of the club between the hours of five and seven on
the following Tuesday, also that Mrs. Turton would be glad to receive any
ladies of their families who were out of purdah. His action caused much
excitement and was discussed in several worlds.
“It is owing to orders from the L.G.,” was Mahmoud Ali’s explanation.
“Turton would never do this unless compelled. Those high officials are
different—they sympathize, the Viceroy sympathizes, they would have us
treated properly. But they come too seldom and live too far away.
Meanwhile——”
“We have not all your sweet nature, Nawab Bahadur, nor your learning.”
“You will make yourself chip,” suddenly said a little black man.
There was a stir of disapproval. Who was this ill-bred upstart, that he
should criticize the leading Mohammedan landowner of the district?
Mahmoud Ali, though sharing his opinion, felt bound to oppose it. “Mr.
Ram Chand!” he said, swaying forward stiffly with his hands on his hips.
“Mr. Mahmoud Ali!”
“Mr. Ram Chand, the Nawab Bahadur can decide what is cheap without
our valuation, I think.”
“I do not expect I shall make myself cheap,” said the Nawab Bahadur to
Mr. Ram Chand, speaking very pleasantly, for he was aware that the man
had been impolite and he desired to shield him from the consequences. It
had passed through his mind to reply, “I expect I shall make myself cheap,”
but he rejected this as the less courteous alternative. “I do not see why we
should make ourselves cheap. I do not see why we should. The invitation is
worded very graciously.” Feeling that he could not further decrease the
social gulf between himself and his auditors, he sent his elegant grandson,
who was in attendance on him, to fetch his car. When it came, he repeated
all that he had said before, though at greater length, ending up with “Till
Tuesday, then, gentlemen all, when I hope we may meet in the flower
gardens of the club.”
This opinion carried great weight. The Nawab Bahadur was a big
proprietor and a philanthropist, a man of benevolence and decision. His
character among all the communities in the province stood high. He was a
straightforward enemy and a staunch friend, and his hospitality was
proverbial. “Give, do not lend; after death who will thank you?” was his
favourite remark. He held it a disgrace to die rich. When such a man was
prepared to motor twenty-five miles to shake the Collector’s hand, the
entertainment took another aspect. For he was not like some eminent men,
who give out that they will come, and then fail at the last moment, leaving
the small fry floundering. If he said he would come, he would come, he
would never deceive his supporters. The gentlemen whom he had lectured
now urged one another to attend the party, although convinced at heart that
his advice was unsound.
He had spoken in the little room near the Courts where the pleaders
waited for clients; clients, waiting for pleaders, sat in the dust outside.
These had not received a card from Mr. Turton. And there were circles even
beyond these—people who wore nothing but a loincloth, people who wore
not even that, and spent their lives in knocking two sticks together before a
scarlet doll—humanity grading and drifting beyond the educated vision,
until no earthly invitation can embrace it.
All invitations must proceed from heaven perhaps; perhaps it is futile for
men to initiate their own unity, they do but widen the gulfs between them
by the attempt. So at all events thought old Mr. Graysford and young Mr.
Sorley, the devoted missionaries who lived out beyond the slaughterhouses,
always travelled third on the railways, and never came up to the club. In our
Father’s house are many mansions, they taught, and there alone will the
incompatible multitudes of mankind be welcomed and soothed. Not one
shall be turned away by the servants on that verandah, be he black or white,
not one shall be kept standing who approaches with a loving heart. And
why should the divine hospitality cease here? Consider, with all reverence,
the monkeys. May there not be a mansion for the monkeys also? Old Mr.
Graysford said No, but young Mr. Sorley, who was advanced, said Yes; he
saw no reason why monkeys should not have their collateral share of bliss,
and he had sympathetic discussions about them with his Hindu friends. And
the jackals? Jackals were indeed less to Mr. Sorley’s mind, but he admitted
that the mercy of God, being infinite, may well embrace all mammals. And
the wasps? He became uneasy during the descent to wasps, and was apt to
change the conversation. And oranges, cactuses, crystals and mud? and the
bacteria inside Mr. Sorley? No, no, this is going too far. We must exclude
someone from our gathering, or we shall be left with nothing.
CHAPTER V
The Bridge Party was not a success—at least it was not what Mrs. Moore
and Miss Quested were accustomed to consider a successful party. They
arrived early, since it was given in their honour, but most of the Indian
guests had arrived even earlier, and stood massed at the farther side of the
tennis lawns, doing nothing.
“It is only just five,” said Mrs. Turton. “My husband will be up from his
office in a moment and start the thing. I have no idea what we have to do.
It’s the first time we’ve ever given a party like this at the club. Mr. Heaslop,
when I’m dead and gone will you give parties like this? It’s enough to make
the old type of Burra Sahib turn in his grave.”
Neither she nor his mother answered. They were gazing rather sadly over
the tennis lawn. No, it was not picturesque; the East, abandoning its secular
magnificence, was descending into a valley whose farther side no man can
see.
“The great point to remember is that no one who’s here matters; those
who matter don’t come. Isn’t that so, Mrs. Turton?”
“Absolutely true,” said the great lady, leaning back. She was “saving
herself up,” as she called it—not for anything that would happen that
afternoon or even that week, but for some vague future occasion when a
high official might come along and tax her social strength. Most of her
public appearances were marked by this air of reserve.
They had tried to reproduce their own attitude to life upon the stage, and
to dress up as the middle-class English people they actually were. Next year
they would do Quality Street or The Yeomen of the Guard. Save for this
annual incursion, they left literature alone. The men had no time for it, the
women did nothing that they could not share with the men. Their ignorance
of the Arts was notable, and they lost no opportunity of proclaiming it to
one another; it was the Public School attitude, flourishing more vigorously
than it can yet hope to do in England. If Indians were shop, the Arts were
bad form, and Ronny had repressed his mother when she enquired after his
viola; a viola was almost a demerit, and certainly not the sort of instrument
one mentioned in public. She noticed now how tolerant and conventional
his judgments had become; when they had seen Cousin Kate in London
together in the past, he had scorned it; now he pretended that it was a good
play, in order to hurt nobody’s feelings. An “unkind notice” had appeared in
the local paper, “the sort of thing no white man could have written,” as Mrs.
Lesley said. The play was praised, to be sure, and so were the stage
management and the performance as a whole, but the notice contained the
following sentence: “Miss Derek, though she charmingly looked her part,
lacked the necessary experience, and occasionally forgot her words.” This
tiny breath of genuine criticism had given deep offence, not indeed to Miss
Derek, who was as hard as nails, but to her friends. Miss Derek did not
belong to Chandrapore. She was stopping for a fortnight with the
McBrydes, the police people, and she had been so good as to fill up a gap in
the cast at the last moment. A nice impression of local hospitality she would
carry away with her.
“To work, Mary, to work,” cried the Collector, touching his wife on the
shoulder with a switch.
Mrs. Turton got up awkwardly. “What do you want me to do? Oh, those
purdah women! I never thought any would come. Oh dear!”
A little group of Indian ladies had been gathering in a third quarter of the
grounds, near a rustic summer-house in which the more timid of them had
already taken refuge. The rest stood with their backs to the company and
their faces pressed into a bank of shrubs. At a little distance stood their male
relatives, watching the venture. The sight was significant: an island bared
by the turning tide, and bound to grow.
“I refuse to shake hands with any of the men, unless it has to be the
Nawab Bahadur.”
“Whom have we so far?” He glanced along the line. “H’m! h’m! much as
one expected. We know why he’s here, I think—over that contract, and he
wants to get the right side of me for Mohurram, and he’s the astrologer who
wants to dodge the municipal building regulations, and he’s that Parsi, and
he’s—Hullo! there he goes—smash into our hollyhocks. Pulled the left rein
when he meant the right. All as usual.”
“They ought never to have been allowed to drive in; it’s so bad for them,”
said Mrs. Turton, who had at last begun her progress to the summer-house,
accompanied by Mrs. Moore, Miss Quested, and a terrier. “Why they come
at all I don’t know. They hate it as much as we do. Talk to Mrs. McBryde.
Her husband made her give purdah parties until she struck.”
“Do kindly tell us who these ladies are,” asked Mrs. Moore.
Advancing, she shook hands with the group and said a few words of
welcome in Urdu. She had learnt the lingo, but only to speak to her
servants, so she knew none of the politer forms and of the verbs only the
imperative mood. As soon as her speech was over, she enquired of her
companions, “Is that what you wanted?”
“Please tell these ladies that I wish we could speak their language, but we
have only just come to their country.”
“But now we can talk: how delightful!” cried Adela, her face lighting up.
“They pass Paris on the way, no doubt,” said Mrs. Turton, as if she was
describing the movements of migratory birds. Her manner had grown more
distant since she had discovered that some of the group was Westernized,
and might apply her own standards to her.
“The shorter lady, she is my wife, she is Mrs. Bhattacharya,” the
onlooker explained. “The taller lady, she is my sister, she is Mrs. Das.”
The shorter and the taller ladies both adjusted their saris, and smiled.
There was a curious uncertainty about their gestures, as if they sought for a
new formula which neither East nor West could provide. When Mrs.
Bhattacharya’s husband spoke, she turned away from him, but she did not
mind seeing the other men. Indeed all the ladies were uncertain, cowering,
recovering, giggling, making tiny gestures of atonement or despair at all
that was said, and alternately fondling the terrier or shrinking from him.
Miss Quested now had her desired opportunity; friendly Indians were
before her, and she tried to make them talk, but she failed, she strove in vain
against the echoing walls of their civility. Whatever she said produced a
murmur of deprecation, varying into a murmur of concern when she
dropped her pocket-handkerchief. She tried doing nothing, to see what that
produced, and they too did nothing. Mrs. Moore was equally unsuccessful.
Mrs. Turton waited for them with a detached expression; she had known
what nonsense it all was from the first.
When they took their leave, Mrs. Moore had an impulse, and said to Mrs.
Bhattacharya, whose face she liked, “I wonder whether you would allow us
to call on you some day.”
“Whenever is convenient.”
“Thursday . . .”
“Most certainly.”
“We shall enjoy it greatly, it would be a real pleasure. What about the
time?”
“All hours.”
“Tell us which you would prefer. We’re quite strangers to your country;
we don’t know when you have visitors,” said Miss Quested.
Mrs. Bhattacharya seemed not to know either. Her gesture implied that
she had known, since Thursdays began, that English ladies would come to
see her on one of them, and so always stayed in. Everything pleased her,
nothing surprised. She added, “We leave for Calcutta to-day.”
“Oh, do you?” said Adela, not at first seeing the implication. Then she
cried, “Oh, but if you do we shall find you gone.”
Mrs. Bhattacharya did not dispute it. But her husband called from the
distance, “Yes, yes, you come to us Thursday.”
“No, no, we shall not.” He said something swiftly to his wife in Bengali.
“We expect you Thursday.”
“You can’t have done such a dreadful thing as to put off going for our
sake?” exclaimed Mrs. Moore.
Everyone was laughing now, but with no suggestion that they had
blundered. A shapeless discussion occurred, during which Mrs. Turton
retired, smiling to herself. The upshot was that they were to come Thursday,
but early in the morning, so as to wreck the Bhattacharya plans as little as
possible, and Mr. Bhattacharya would send his carriage to fetch them, with
servants to point out the way. Did he know where they lived? Yes, of course
he knew, he knew everything; and he laughed again. They left among a
flutter of compliments and smiles, and three ladies, who had hitherto taken
no part in the reception, suddenly shot out of the summer-house like
exquisitely coloured swallows, and salaamed them.
Meanwhile the Collector had been going his rounds. He made pleasant
remarks and a few jokes, which were applauded lustily, but he knew
something to the discredit of nearly every one of his guests, and was
consequently perfunctory. When they had not cheated, it was bhang,
women, or worse, and even the desirables wanted to get something out of
him. He believed that a “Bridge Party” did good rather than harm, or he
would not have given one, but he was under no illusions, and at the proper
moment he retired to the English side of the lawn. The impressions he left
behind him were various. Many of the guests, especially the humbler and
less anglicized, were genuinely grateful. To be addressed by so high an
official was a permanent asset. They did not mind how long they stood, or
how little happened, and when seven o’clock struck, they had to be turned
out. Others were grateful with more intelligence. The Nawab Bahadur,
indifferent for himself and for the distinction with which he was greeted,
was moved by the mere kindness that must have prompted the invitation.
He knew the difficulties. Hamidullah also thought that the Collector had
played up well. But others, such as Mahmoud Ali, were cynical; they were
firmly convinced that Turton had been made to give the party by his official
superiors and was all the time consumed with impotent rage, and they
infected some who were inclined to a healthier view. Yet even Mahmoud
Ali was glad he had come. Shrines are fascinating, especially when rarely
opened, and it amused him to note the ritual of the English club, and to
caricature it afterwards to his friends.
After Mr. Turton, the official who did his duty best was Mr. Fielding, the
Principal of the little Government College. He knew little of the district and
less against the inhabitants, so he was in a less cynical state of mind.
Athletic and cheerful, he romped about, making numerous mistakes which
the parents of his pupils tried to cover up, for he was popular among them.
When the moment for refreshments came, he did not move back to the
English side, but burnt his mouth with gram. He talked to anyone and he ate
anything. Amid much that was alien, he learnt that the two new ladies from
England had been a great success, and that their politeness in wishing to be
Mrs. Bhattacharya’s guests had pleased not only her but all Indians who
heard of it. It pleased Mr. Fielding also. He scarcely knew the two new
ladies, still he decided to tell them what pleasure they had given by their
friendliness.
He found the younger of them alone. She was looking through a nick in
the cactus hedge at the distant Marabar Hills, which had crept near, as was
their custom at sunset; if the sunset had lasted long enough, they would
have reached the town, but it was swift, being tropical. He gave her his
information, and she was so much pleased and thanked him so heartily that
he asked her and the other lady to tea.
“I’ld like to come very much indeed, and so would Mrs. Moore, I know.”
“I know, I know, and we never get down from it. I envy you being with
Indians.”
“Very, very much indeed; it’s what I long for. This party to-day makes me
so angry and miserable. I think my countrymen out here must be mad.
Fancy inviting guests and not treating them properly! You and Mr. Turton
and perhaps Mr. McBryde are the only people who showed any common
politeness. The rest make me perfectly ashamed, and it’s got worse and
worse.”
It had. The Englishmen had intended to play up better, but had been
prevented from doing so by their women folk, whom they had to attend,
provide with tea, advise about dogs, etc. When tennis began, the barrier
grew impenetrable. It had been hoped to have some sets between East and
West, but this was forgotten, and the courts were monopolized by the usual
club couples. Fielding resented it too, but did not say so to the girl, for he
found something theoretical in her outburst. Did she care about Indian
music? he enquired; there was an old professor down at the College, who
sang.
“Oh, just what we wanted to hear. And do you know Doctor Aziz?”
“I know all about him. I don’t know him. Would you like him asked
too?”
“Indeed it will, and that morning we go to this Indian lady’s. All the nice
things are coming Thursday.”
“I won’t ask the City Magistrate to bring you. I know he’ll be busy at that
time.”
And sure enough they did drive away from the club in a few minutes, and
they did dress, and to dinner came Miss Derek and the McBrydes, and the
menu was: Julienne soup full of bullety bottled peas, pseudo-cottage bread,
fish full of branching bones, pretending to be plaice, more bottled peas with
the cutlets, trifle, sardines on toast: the menu of Anglo-India. A dish might
be added or subtracted as one rose or fell in the official scale, the peas
might rattle less or more, the sardines and the vermouth be imported by a
different firm, but the tradition remained; the food of exiles, cooked by
servants who did not understand it. Adela thought of the young men and
women who had come out before her, P. & O. full after P. & O. full, and had
been set down to the same food and the same ideas, and been snubbed in
the same good-humoured way until they kept to the accredited themes and
began to snub others. “I should never get like that,” she thought, for she was
young herself; all the same she knew that she had come up against
something that was both insidious and tough, and against which she needed
allies. She must gather around her at Chandrapore a few people who felt as
she did, and she was glad to have met Mr. Fielding and the Indian lady with
the unpronounceable name. Here at all events was a nucleus; she should
know much better where she stood in the course of the next two days.
When the guests had gone, and Adela gone to bed, there was another
interview between mother and son. He wanted her advice and support—
while resenting interference. “Does Adela talk to you much?” he began.
“I’m so driven with work, I don’t see her as much as I hoped, but I hope she
finds things comfortable.”
“Adela and I talk mostly about India. Dear, since you mention it, you’re
quite right—you ought to be more alone with her than you are.”
“People are so odd out here, and it’s not like home—one’s always facing
the footlights, as the Burra Sahib said. Take a silly little example: when
Adela went out to the boundary of the club compound, and Fielding
followed her. I saw Mrs. Callendar notice it. They notice everything, until
they’re perfectly sure you’re their sort.”
“I don’t think Adela ’ll ever be quite their sort—she’s much too
individual.”
“Probably she’s heard tales of the heat, but of course I should pack her
off to the Hills every April—I’m not one to keep a wife grilling in the
Plains.”
“There’s nothing in India but the weather, my dear mother; it’s the Alpha
and Omega of the whole affair.”
“Yes, as Mr. McBryde was saying, but it’s much more the Anglo-Indians
themselves who are likely to get on Adela’s nerves. She doesn’t think they
behave pleasantly to Indians, you see.”
“What did I tell you?” he exclaimed, losing his gentle manner. “I knew it
last week. Oh, how like a woman to worry over a side-issue!”
“Your sentiments are those of a god,” she said quietly, but it was his
manner rather than his sentiments that annoyed her.
“There’s no point in all this. Here we are, and we’re going to stop, and
the country’s got to put up with us, gods or no gods. Oh, look here,” he
broke out, rather pathetically, “what do you and Adela want me to do? Go
against my class, against all the people I respect and admire out here? Lose
such power as I have for doing good in this country because my behaviour
isn’t pleasant? You neither of you understand what work is, or you ’ld never
talk such eyewash. I hate talking like this, but one must occasionally. It’s
morbidly sensitive to go on as Adela and you do. I noticed you both at the
club to-day—after the Burra Sahib had been at all that trouble to amuse
you. I am out here to work, mind, to hold this wretched country by force.
I’m not a missionary or a Labour Member or a vague sentimental
sympathetic literary man. I’m just a servant of the Government; it’s the
profession you wanted me to choose myself, and that’s that. We’re not
pleasant in India, and we don’t intend to be pleasant. We’ve something
more important to do.”
“I’m going to argue, and indeed dictate,” she said, clinking her rings.
“The English are out here to be pleasant.”
“How do you make that out, mother?” he asked, speaking gently again,
for he was ashamed of his irritability.
“Because India is part of the earth. And God has put us on the earth in
order to be pleasant to each other. God . . . is . . . love.” She hesitated,
seeing how much he disliked the argument, but something made her go on.
“God has put us on earth to love our neighbours and to show it, and He is
omnipresent, even in India, to see how we are succeeding.”
He waited until she had done, and then said gently, “I quite see that. I
suppose I ought to get off to my files now, and you’ll be going to bed.”
“I suppose so, I suppose so.” They did not part for a few minutes, but the
conversation had become unreal since Christianity had entered it. Ronny
approved of religion as long as it endorsed the National Anthem, but he
objected when it attempted to influence his life. Then he would say in
respectful yet decided tones, “I don’t think it does to talk about these things,
every fellow has to work out his own religion,” and any fellow who heard
him muttered, “Hear!”
Mrs. Moore felt that she had made a mistake in mentioning God, but she
found him increasingly difficult to avoid as she grew older, and he had been
constantly in her thoughts since she entered India, though oddly enough he
satisfied her less. She must needs pronounce his name frequently, as the
greatest she knew, yet she had never found it less efficacious. Outside the
arch there seemed always an arch, beyond the remotest echo a silence. And
she regretted afterwards that she had not kept to the real serious subject that
had caused her to visit India—namely the relationship between Ronny and
Adela. Would they, or would they not, succeed in becoming engaged to be
married?
CHAPTER VI
Aziz had not gone to the Bridge Party. Immediately after his meeting
with Mrs. Moore he was diverted to other matters. Several surgical cases
came in, and kept him busy. He ceased to be either outcaste or poet, and
became the medical student, very gay, and full of details of operations
which he poured into the shrinking ears of his friends. His profession
fascinated him at times, but he required it to be exciting, and it was his
hand, not his mind, that was scientific. The knife he loved and used
skilfully, and he also liked pumping in the latest serums. But the boredom
of regime and hygiene repelled him, and after inoculating a man for enteric,
he would go away and drink unfiltered water himself. “What can you
expect from the fellow?” said dour Major Callendar. “No grits, no guts.”
But in his heart he knew that if Aziz and not he had operated last year on
Mrs. Graysford’s appendix, the old lady would probably have lived. And
this did not dispose him any better towards his subordinate.
There was a row the morning after the mosque—they were always
having rows. The Major, who had been up half the night, wanted damn well
to know why Aziz had not come promptly when summoned.
“Sir, excuse me, I did. I mounted my bike, and it bust in front of the Cow
Hospital. So I had to find a tonga.”
“Bust in front of the Cow Hospital, did it? And how did you come to be
there?”
“Oh Lord, oh Lord! When I live here”—he kicked the gravel—“and you
live there—not ten minutes from me—and the Cow Hospital is right ever so
far away the other side of you—there—then how did you come to be
passing the Cow Hospital on the way to me? Now do some work for a
change.”
He strode away in a temper, without waiting for the excuse, which as far
as it went was a sound one: the Cow Hospital was in a straight line between
Hamidullah’s house and his own, so Aziz had naturally passed it. He never
realized that the educated Indians visited one another constantly, and were
weaving, however painfully, a new social fabric. Caste “or something of the
sort” would prevent them. He only knew that no one ever told him the truth,
although he had been in the country for twenty years.
Aziz watched him go with amusement. When his spirits were up he felt
that the English are a comic institution, and he enjoyed being
misunderstood by them. But it was an amusement of the emotions and
nerves, which an accident or the passage of time might destroy; it was apart
from the fundamental gaiety that he reached when he was with those whom
he trusted. A disobliging simile involving Mrs. Callendar occurred to his
fancy. “I must tell that to Mahmoud Ali, it’ll make him laugh,” he thought.
Then he got to work. He was competent and indispensable, and he knew it.
The simile passed from his mind while he exercised his professional skill.
During these pleasant and busy days, he heard vaguely that the Collector
was giving a party, and that the Nawab Bahadur said every one ought to go
to it. His fellow-assistant, Doctor Panna Lal, was in ecstasies at the
prospect, and was urgent that they should attend it together in his new tum-
tum. The arrangement suited them both. Aziz was spared the indignity of a
bicycle or the expense of hiring, while Dr. Panna Lal, who was timid and
elderly, secured someone who could manage his horse. He could manage it
himself, but only just, and he was afraid of the motors and of the unknown
turn into the club grounds. “Disaster may come,” he said politely, “but we
shall at all events get there safe, even if we do not get back.” And with
more logic: “It will, I think, create a good impression should two doctors
arrive at the same time.”
But when the time came, Aziz was seized with a revulsion, and
determined not to go. For one thing his spell of work, lately concluded, left
him independent and healthy. For another, the day chanced to fall on the
anniversary of his wife’s death. She had died soon after he had fallen in
love with her; he had not loved her at first. Touched by Western feeling, he
disliked union with a woman whom he had never seen; moreover, when he
did see her, she disappointed him, and he begat his first child in mere
animality. The change began after its birth. He was won by her love for
him, by a loyalty that implied something more than submission, and by her
efforts to educate herself against that lifting of the purdah that would come
in the next generation if not in theirs. She was intelligent, yet had old-
fashioned grace. Gradually he lost the feeling that his relatives had chosen
wrongly for him. Sensuous enjoyment—well, even if he had had it, it would
have dulled in a year, and he had gained something instead, which seemed
to increase the longer they lived together. She became the mother of a son .
. . and in giving him a second son she died. Then he realized what he had
lost, and that no woman could ever take her place; a friend would come
nearer to her than another woman. She had gone, there was no one like her,
and what is that uniqueness but love? He amused himself, he forgot her at
times: but at other times he felt that she had sent all the beauty and joy of
the world into Paradise, and he meditated suicide. Would he meet her
beyond the tomb? Is there such a meeting-place? Though orthodox, he did
not know. God’s unity was indubitable and indubitably announced, but on
all other points he wavered like the average Christian; his belief in the life
to come would pale to a hope, vanish, reappear, all in a single sentence or a
dozen heart-beats, so that the corpuscles of his blood rather than he seemed
to decide which opinion he should hold, and for how long. It was so with all
his opinions. Nothing stayed, nothing passed that did not return; the
circulation was ceaseless and kept him young, and he mourned his wife the
more sincerely because he mourned her seldom.
It would have been simpler to tell Dr. Lal that he had changed his mind
about the party, but until the last minute he did not know that he had
changed it; indeed, he didn’t change it, it changed itself. Unconquerable
aversion welled. Mrs. Callendar, Mrs. Lesley—no, he couldn’t stand them
in his sorrow: they would guess it—for he dowered the British matron with
strange insight—and would delight in torturing him, they would mock him
to their husbands. When he should have been ready, he stood at the Post
Office, writing a telegram to his children, and found on his return that Dr.
Lal had called for him, and gone on. Well, let him go on, as befitted the
coarseness of his nature. For his own part, he would commune with the
dead.
And unlocking a drawer, he took out his wife’s photograph. He gazed at
it, and tears spouted from his eyes. He thought, “How unhappy I am!” But
because he really was unhappy, another emotion soon mingled with his self-
pity: he desired to remember his wife and could not. Why could he
remember people whom he did not love? They were always so vivid to him,
whereas the more he looked at this photograph, the less he saw. She had
eluded him thus, ever since they had carried her to her tomb. He had known
that she would pass from his hands and eyes, but had thought she could live
in his mind, not realizing that the very fact that we have loved the dead
increases their unreality, and that the more passionately we invoke them the
further they recede. A piece of brown cardboard and three children—that
was all that was left of his wife. It was unbearable, and he thought again,
“How unhappy I am!” and became happier. He had breathed for an instant
the mortal air that surrounds Orientals and all men, and he drew back from
it with a gasp, for he was young. “Never, never shall I get over this,” he told
himself. “Most certainly my career is a failure, and my sons will be badly
brought up.” Since it was certain, he strove to avert it, and looked at some
notes he had made on a case at the hospital. Perhaps some day a rich person
might require this particular operation, and he gain a large sum. The notes
interesting him on their own account, he locked the photograph up again. Its
moment was over, and he did not think about his wife any more.
After tea his spirits improved, and he went round to see Hamidullah.
Hamidullah had gone to the party, but his pony had not, so Aziz borrowed
it, also his friend’s riding breeches and polo mallet. He repaired to the
Maidan. It was deserted except at its rim, where some bazaar youths were
training. Training for what? They would have found it hard to say, but the
word had got into the air. Round they ran, weedy and knock-kneed—the
local physique was wretched—with an expression on their faces not so
much of determination as of a determination to be determined. “Maharajah,
salaam,” he called for a joke. The youths stopped and laughed. He advised
them not to exert themselves. They promised they would not, and ran on.
Riding into the middle, he began to knock the ball about. He could not
play, but his pony could, and he set himself to learn, free from all human
tension. He forgot the whole damned business of living as he scurried over
the brown platter of the Maidan, with the evening wind on his forehead, and
the encircling trees soothing his eyes. The ball shot away towards a stray
subaltern who was also practising; he hit it back to Aziz and called, “Send it
along again.”
“All right.”
The new-comer had some notion of what to do, but his horse had none,
and forces were equal. Concentrated on the ball, they somehow became
fond of one another, and smiled when they drew rein to rest. Aziz liked
soldiers—they either accepted you or swore at you, which was preferable to
the civilian’s hauteur—and the subaltern liked anyone who could ride.
“Never.”
As he hit, his horse bucked and off he went, cried, “Oh God!” and
jumped on again. “Don’t you ever fall off?”
“Plenty.”
“Not you.”
They reined up again, the fire of good fellowship in their eyes. But it
cooled with their bodies, for athletics can only raise a temporary glow.
Nationality was returning, but before it could exert its poison they parted,
saluting each other. “If only they were all like that,” each thought.
Now it was sunset. A few of his co-religionists had come to the Maidan,
and were praying with their faces towards Mecca. A Brahminy Bull walked
towards them, and Aziz, though disinclined to pray himself, did not see why
they should be bothered with the clumsy and idolatrous animal. He gave it a
tap with his polo mallet. As he did so, a voice from the road hailed him: it
was Dr. Panna Lal, returning in high distress from the Collector’s party.
“Dr. Aziz, Dr. Aziz, where you been? I waited ten full minutes’ time at
your house, then I went.”
“I am so awfully sorry—I was compelled to go to the Post Office.”
One of his own circle would have accepted this as meaning that he had
changed his mind, an event too common to merit censure. But Dr. Lal,
being of low extraction, was not sure whether an insult had not been
intended, and he was further annoyed because Aziz had buffeted the
Brahminy Bull. “Post Office? Do you not send your servants?” he said.
“But, Dr. Lal, consider. How could I send my servant when you were
coming: you come, we go, my house is left alone, my servant comes back
perhaps, and all my portable property has been carried away by bad
characters in the meantime. Would you have that? The cook is deaf—I can
never count on my cook—and the boy is only a little boy. Never, never do I
and Hassan leave the house at the same time together. It is my fixed rule.”
He said all this and much more out of civility, to save Dr. Lal’s face. It was
not offered as truth and should not have been criticized as such. But the
other demolished it—an easy and ignoble task. “Even if this so, what
prevents leaving a chit saying where you go?” and so on. Aziz detested ill
breeding, and made his pony caper. “Farther away, or mine will start out of
sympathy,” he wailed, revealing the true source of his irritation. “It has been
so rough and wild this afternoon. It spoiled some most valuable blossoms in
the club garden, and had to be dragged back by four men. English ladies
and gentlemen looking on, and the Collector Sahib himself taking a note.
But, Dr. Aziz, I’ll not take up your valuable time. This will not interest you,
who have so many engagements and telegrams. I am just a poor old doctor
who thought right to pay my respects when I was asked and where I was
asked. Your absence, I may remark, drew commentaries.”
“It is fine to be young. Damn well! Oh, very fine. Damn whom?”
“I go or not as I please.”
“Yet you promise me, and then fabricate this tale of a telegram. Go
forward, Dapple.”
They went, and Aziz had a wild desire to make an enemy for life. He
could do it so easily by galloping near them. He did it. Dapple bolted. He
thundered back on to the Maidan. The glory of his play with the subaltern
remained for a little, he galloped and swooped till he poured with sweat,
and until he returned the pony to Hamidullah’s stable he felt the equal of
any man. Once on his feet, he had creeping fears. Was he in bad odour with
the powers that be? Had he offended the Collector by absenting himself?
Dr. Panna Lal was a person of no importance, yet was it wise to have
quarrelled even with him? The complexion of his mind turned from human
to political. He thought no longer, “Can I get on with people?” but “Are
they stronger than I?” breathing the prevalent miasma.
At his home a chit was awaiting him, bearing the Government stamp. It
lay on his table like a high explosive, which at a touch might blow his
flimsy bungalow to bits. He was going to be cashiered because he had not
turned up at the party. When he opened the note, it proved to be quite
different; an invitation from Mr. Fielding, the Principal of Government
College, asking him to come to tea the day after to-morrow. His spirits
revived with violence. They would have revived in any case, for he
possessed a soul that could suffer but not stifle, and led a steady life beneath
his mutability. But this invitation gave him particular joy, because Fielding
had asked him to tea a month ago, and he had forgotten about it—never
answered, never gone, just forgotten.
This Mr. Fielding had been caught by India late. He was over forty when
he entered that oddest portal, the Victoria Terminus at Bombay, and—
having bribed a European ticket inspector—took his luggage into the
compartment of his first tropical train. The journey remained in his mind as
significant. Of his two carriage companions one was a youth, fresh to the
East like himself, the other a seasoned Anglo-Indian of his own age. A gulf
divided him from either; he had seen too many cities and men to be the first
or to become the second. New impressions crowded on him, but they were
not the orthodox new impressions; the past conditioned them, and so it was
with his mistakes. To regard an Indian as if he were an Italian is not, for
instance, a common error, nor perhaps a fatal one, and Fielding often
attempted analogies between this peninsula and that other, smaller and more
exquisitely shaped, that stretches into the classic waters of the
Mediterranean.
His career, though scholastic, was varied, and had included going to the
bad and repenting thereafter. By now he was a hard-bitten, good-tempered,
intelligent fellow on the verge of middle age, with a belief in education. He
did not mind whom he taught; public schoolboys, mental defectives and
policemen, had all come his way, and he had no objection to adding
Indians. Through the influence of friends, he was nominated Principal of
the little college at Chandrapore, liked it, and assumed he was a success. He
did succeed with his pupils, but the gulf between himself and his
countrymen, which he had noticed in the train, widened distressingly. He
could not at first see what was wrong. He was not unpatriotic, he always got
on with Englishmen in England, all his best friends were English, so why
was it not the same out here? Outwardly of the large shaggy type, with
sprawling limbs and blue eyes, he appeared to inspire confidence until he
spoke. Then something in his manner puzzled people and failed to allay the
distrust which his profession naturally inspired. There needs must be this
evil of brains in India, but woe to him through whom they are increased!
The feeling grew that Mr. Fielding was a disruptive force, and rightly, for
ideas are fatal to caste, and he used ideas by that most potent method—
interchange. Neither a missionary nor a student, he was happiest in the
give-and-take of a private conversation. The world, he believed, is a globe
of men who are trying to reach one another and can best do so by the help
of good will plus culture and intelligence—a creed ill suited to
Chandrapore, but he had come out too late to lose it. He had no racial
feeling—not because he was superior to his brother civilians, but because
he had matured in a different atmosphere, where the herd-instinct does not
flourish. The remark that did him most harm at the club was a silly aside to
the effect that the so-called white races are really pinko-grey. He only said
this to be cheery, he did not realize that “white” has no more to do with a
colour than “God save the King” with a god, and that it is the height of
impropriety to consider what it does connote. The pinko-grey male whom
he addressed was subtly scandalized; his sense of insecurity was awoken,
and he communicated it to the rest of the herd.
Still, the men tolerated him for the sake of his good heart and strong
body; it was their wives who decided that he was not a sahib really. They
disliked him. He took no notice of them, and this, which would have passed
without comment in feminist England, did him harm in a community where
the male is expected to be lively and helpful. Mr. Fielding never advised
one about dogs or horses, or dined, or paid his midday calls, or decorated
trees for one’s children at Christmas, and though he came to the club, it was
only to get his tennis or billiards, and to go. This was true. He had
discovered that it is possible to keep in with Indians and Englishmen, but
that he who would also keep in with Englishwomen must drop the Indians.
The two wouldn’t combine. Useless to blame either party, useless to blame
them for blaming one another. It just was so, and one had to choose. Most
Englishmen preferred their own kinswomen, who, coming out in increasing
numbers, made life on the home pattern yearly more possible. He had found
it convenient and pleasant to associate with Indians and he must pay the
price. As a rule no Englishwoman entered the College except for official
functions, and if he invited Mrs. Moore and Miss Quested to tea, it was
because they were new-comers who would view everything with an equal if
superficial eye, and would not turn on a special voice when speaking to his
other guests.
The College itself had been slapped down by the Public Works
Department, but its grounds included an ancient garden and a garden-house,
and here he lived for much of the year. He was dressing after a bath when
Dr. Aziz was announced. Lifting up his voice, he shouted from the
bedroom, “Please make yourself at home.” The remark was
unpremeditated, like most of his actions; it was what he felt inclined to say.
To Aziz it had a very definite meaning. “May I really, Mr. Fielding? It’s
very good of you,” he called back; “I like unconventional behaviour so
extremely.” His spirits flared up, he glanced round the living-room. Some
luxury in it, but no order—nothing to intimidate poor Indians. It was also a
very beautiful room, opening into the garden through three high arches of
wood. “The fact is I have long wanted to meet you,” he continued. “I have
heard so much about your warm heart from the Nawab Bahadur. But where
is one to meet in a wretched hole like Chandrapore?” He came close up to
the door. “When I was greener here, I’ll tell you what. I used to wish you to
fall ill so that we could meet that way.” They laughed, and encouraged by
his success he began to improvise. “I said to myself, How does Mr. Fielding
look this morning? Perhaps pale. And the Civil Surgeon is pale too, he will
not be able to attend upon him when the shivering commences. I should
have been sent for instead. Then we would have had jolly talks, for you are
a celebrated student of Persian poetry.”
“I have been here such a short time, and always in the bazaar. No wonder
you have never seen me, and I wonder you know my name. I say, Mr.
Fielding?”
“Yes?”
“Guess what I look like before you come out. That will be a kind of
game.”
“You’re five feet nine inches high,” said Fielding, surmising this much
through the ground glass of the bedroom door.
“Blast!”
“Anything wrong?”
“No, no, one in my pocket.” Stepping aside, so that his outline might
vanish, he wrenched off his collar, and pulled out of his shirt the back stud,
a gold stud, which was part of a set that his brother-in-law had brought him
from Europe. “Here it is,” he cried.
“One minute again.” Replacing his collar, he prayed that it would not
spring up at the back during tea. Fielding’s bearer, who was helping him to
dress, opened the door for him.
“But I always thought that Englishmen kept their rooms so tidy. It seems
that this is not so. I need not be so ashamed.” He sat down gaily on the bed;
then, forgetting himself entirely, drew up his legs and folded them under
him. “Everything ranged coldly on shelves was what I thought.—I say, Mr.
Fielding, is the stud going to go in?”
“I hae ma doots.”
“What’s that last sentence, please? Will you teach me some new words
and so improve my English?”
“Let me put in your stud. I see . . . the shirt back’s hole is rather small
and to rip it wider a pity.”
“Why in hell does one wear collars at all?” grumbled Fielding as he bent
his neck.
“What’s that?”
“If I’m biking in English dress—starch collar, hat with ditch—they take
no notice. When I wear a fez, they cry, ‘Your lamp’s out!’ Lord Curzon did
not consider this when he urged natives of India to retain their picturesque
costumes.—Hooray! Stud’s gone in.—Sometimes I shut my eyes and dream
I have splendid clothes again and am riding into battle behind Alamgir. Mr.
Fielding, must not India have been beautiful then, with the Mogul Empire at
its height and Alamgir reigning at Delhi upon the Peacock Throne?”
“Two ladies are coming to tea to meet you—I think you know them.”
“Oh yes—I remember.” The romance at the mosque had sunk out of his
consciousness as soon as it was over. “An excessively aged lady; but will
you please repeat the name of her companion?”
“Miss Quested.”
“Just as you wish.” He was disappointed that other guests were coming,
for he preferred to be alone with his new friend.
“You can talk to Miss Quested about the Peacock Throne if you like—
she’s artistic, they say.”
Aziz was offended. The remark suggested that he, an obscure Indian, had
no right to have heard of Post Impressionism—a privilege reserved for the
Ruling Race, that. He said stiffly, “I do not consider Mrs. Moore my friend,
I only met her accidentally in my mosque,” and was adding “a single
meeting is too short to make a friend,” but before he could finish the
sentence the stiffness vanished from it, because he felt Fielding’s
fundamental good will. His own went out to it, and grappled beneath the
shifting tides of emotion which can alone bear the voyager to an anchorage
but may also carry him across it on to the rocks. He was safe really—as safe
as the shore-dweller who can only understand stability and supposes that
every ship must be wrecked, and he had sensations the shore-dweller cannot
know. Indeed, he was sensitive rather than responsive. In every remark he
found a meaning, but not always the true meaning, and his life though vivid
was largely a dream. Fielding, for instance, had not meant that Indians are
obscure, but that Post Impressionism is; a gulf divided his remark from
Mrs. Turton’s “Why, they speak English,” but to Aziz the two sounded
alike. Fielding saw that something had gone wrong, and equally that it had
come right, but he didn’t fidget, being an optimist where personal relations
were concerned, and their talk rattled on as before.
“Besides the ladies I am expecting one of my assistants—Narayan
Godbole.”
“He wants the past back too, but not precisely Alamgir.”
“I should think not. Do you know what Deccani Brahmans say? That
England conquered India from them—from them, mind, and not from the
Moguls. Is not that like their cheek? They have even bribed it to appear in
text-books, for they are so subtle and immensely rich. Professor Godbole
must be quite unlike all other Deccani Brahmans from all I can hear say. A
most sincere chap.”
“I want to ask you something, Dr. Aziz,” she began. “I heard from Mrs.
Moore how helpful you were to her in the mosque, and how interesting. She
learnt more about India in those few minutes’ talk with you than in the three
weeks since we landed.”
“Oh, please do not mention a little thing like that. Is there anything else I
may tell you about my country?”
“I am afraid we must have made some blunder and given offence,” said
Mrs. Moore.
“An Indian lady and gentleman were to send their carriage for us this
morning at nine. It has never come. We waited and waited and waited; we
can’t think what happened.”
“Oh no, it wasn’t that,” Miss Quested persisted. “They even gave up
going to Calcutta to entertain us. We must have made some stupid blunder,
we both feel sure.”
“Exactly what Mr. Heaslop tells me,” she retorted, reddening a little. “If
one doesn’t worry, how’s one to understand?”
The host was inclined to change the subject, but Aziz took it up warmly,
and on learning fragments of the delinquents’ name pronounced that they
were Hindus.
“A mystery is a muddle.”
“There’ll be no muddle when you come to see me,” said Aziz, rather out
of his depth. “Mrs. Moore and everyone—I invite you all—oh, please.”
The old lady accepted: she still thought the young doctor excessively
nice; moreover, a new feeling, half languor, half excitement, bade her turn
down any fresh path. Miss Quested accepted out of adventure. She also
liked Aziz, and believed that when she knew him better he would unlock
his country for her. His invitation gratified her, and she asked him for his
address.
Aziz thought of his bungalow with horror. It was a detestable shanty near
a low bazaar. There was practically only one room in it, and that infested
with small black flies. “Oh, but we will talk of something else now,” he
exclaimed. “I wish I lived here. See this beautiful room! Let us admire it
together for a little. See those curves at the bottom of the arches. What
delicacy! It is the architecture of Question and Answer. Mrs. Moore, you
are in India; I am not joking.” The room inspired him. It was an audience
hall built in the eighteenth century for some high official, and though of
wood had reminded Fielding of the Loggia de’ Lanzi at Florence. Little
rooms, now Europeanized, clung to it on either side, but the central hall was
unpapered and unglassed, and the air of the garden poured in freely. One sat
in public—on exhibition, as it were—in full view of the gardeners who
were screaming at the birds and of the man who rented the tank for the
cultivation of water chestnut. Fielding let the mango trees too—there was
no knowing who might not come in—and his servants sat on his steps night
and day to discourage thieves. Beautiful certainly, and the Englishman had
not spoilt it, whereas Aziz in an occidental moment would have hung
Maude Goodmans on the walls. Yet there was no doubt to whom the room
really belonged. . . .
“I am doing justice here. A poor widow who has been robbed comes
along and I give her fifty rupees, to another a hundred, and so on and so on.
I should like that.”
“Mine would. God would give me more when he saw I gave. Always be
giving, like the Nawab Bahadur. My father was the same, that is why he
died poor.” And pointing about the room he peopled it with clerks and
officials, all benevolent because they lived long ago. “So we would sit
giving for ever—on a carpet instead of chairs, that is the chief change
between now and then, but I think we would never punish anyone.”
“Poor criminal, give him another chance. It only makes a man worse to
go to prison and be corrupted.” His face grew very tender—the tenderness
of one incapable of administration, and unable to grasp that if the poor
criminal is let off he will again rob the poor widow. He was tender to
everyone except a few family enemies whom he did not consider human: on
these he desired revenge. He was even tender to the English; he knew at the
bottom of his heart that they could not help being so cold and odd and
circulating like an ice stream through his land. “We punish no one, no one,”
he repeated, “and in the evening we will give a great banquet with a nautch
and lovely girls shall shine on every side of the tank with fireworks in their
hands, and all shall be feasting and happiness until the next day, when there
shall be justice as before—fifty rupees, a hundred, a thousand—till peace
comes. Ah, why didn’t we live in that time?—But are you admiring Mr.
Fielding’s house? Do look how the pillars are painted blue, and the
verandah’s pavilions—what do you call them?—that are above us inside are
blue also. Look at the carving on the pavilions. Think of the hours it took.
Their little roofs are curved to imitate bamboo. So pretty—and the bamboos
waving by the tank outside. Mrs. Moore! Mrs. Moore!”
“You remember the water by our mosque? It comes down and fills this
tank—a skilful arrangement of the Emperors. They stopped here going
down into Bengal. They loved water. Wherever they went they created
fountains, gardens, hammams. I was telling Mr. Fielding I would give
anything to serve them.”
He was wrong about the water, which no Emperor, however skilful, can
cause to gravitate uphill; a depression of some depth together with the
whole of Chandrapore lay between the mosque and Fielding’s house. Ronny
would have pulled him up, Turton would have wanted to pull him up, but
restrained himself. Fielding did not even want to pull him up; he had dulled
his craving for verbal truth and cared chiefly for truth of mood. As for Miss
Quested, she accepted everything Aziz said as true verbally. In her
ignorance, she regarded him as “India,” and never surmised that his outlook
was limited and his method inaccurate, and that no one is India.
He was now much excited, chattering away hard, and even saying damn
when he got mixed up in his sentences. He told them of his profession, and
of the operations he had witnessed and performed, and he went into details
that scared Mrs. Moore, though Miss Quested mistook them for proofs of
his broad-mindedness; she had heard such talk at home in advanced
academic circles, deliberately free. She supposed him to be emancipated as
well as reliable, and placed him on a pinnacle which he could not retain. He
was high enough for the moment, to be sure, but not on any pinnacle.
Wings bore him up, and flagging would deposit him.
Leaving the Mogul Emperors, Aziz turned to topics that could distress no
one. He described the ripening of the mangoes, and how in his boyhood he
used to run out in the Rains to a big mango grove belonging to an uncle and
gorge there. “Then back with water streaming over you and perhaps rather a
pain inside. But I did not mind. All my friends were paining with me. We
have a proverb in Urdu: ‘What does unhappiness matter when we are all
unhappy together?’ which comes in conveniently after mangoes. Miss
Quested, do wait for mangoes. Why not settle altogether in India?”
“I’m afraid I can’t do that,” said Adela. She made the remark without
thinking what it meant. To her, as to the three men, it seemed in key with
the rest of the conversation, and not for several minutes—indeed, not for
half an hour—did she realize that it was an important remark, and ought to
have been made in the first place to Ronny.
“Mangoes, mangoes.”
“I suppose so.”
“And nasty.”
But the host wouldn’t allow the conversation to take this heavy turn. He
turned to the old lady, who looked flustered and put out—he could not
imagine why—and asked about her own plans. She replied that she should
like to see over the College. Everyone immediately rose, with the exception
of Professor Godbole, who was finishing a banana.
“Yes, that is so,” said Miss Quested, and sat down again.
Aziz hesitated. His audience was splitting up. The more familiar half was
going, but the more attentive remained. Reflecting that it was an
“unconventional” afternoon, he stopped.
Talk went on as before. Could one offer the visitors unripe mangoes in a
fool? “I speak now as a doctor: no.” Then the old man said, “But I will send
you up a few healthy sweets. I will give myself that pleasure.”
“I don’t know why you say that, when you have so kindly asked us to
your house.”
He thought again of his bungalow with horror. Good heavens, the stupid
girl had taken him at his word! What was he to do? “Yes, all that is settled,”
he cried.
“I shall be delighted.”
“Not heard of them?” both cried. “The Marabar Caves in the Marabar
Hills?”
“We hear nothing interesting up at the club. Only tennis and ridiculous
gossip.”
The old man was silent, perhaps feeling that it was unseemly of her to
criticize her race, perhaps fearing that if he agreed she would report him for
disloyalty. But the young man uttered a rapid “I know.”
“Then tell me everything you will, or I shall never understand India. Are
they the hills I sometimes see in the evening? What are these caves?”
“Oh no, not at all; at Elephanta there are sculptures of Siva and Parvati.
There are no sculptures at Marabar.”
“They are immensely holy, no doubt,” said Aziz, to help on the narrative.
“Oh no, oh no.”
“Oh no.”
“Well, why are they so famous? We all talk of the famous Marabar
Caves. Perhaps that is our empty brag.”
“It will be a great pleasure.” He forewent the pleasure, and Aziz realized
that he was keeping back something about the caves. He realized because
he often suffered from similar inhibitions himself. Sometimes, to the
exasperation of Major Callendar, he would pass over the one relevant fact in
a position, to dwell on the hundred irrelevant. The Major accused him of
disingenuousness, and was roughly right, but only roughly. It was rather
that a power he couldn’t control capriciously silenced his mind. Godbole
had been silenced now; no doubt not willingly, he was concealing
something. Handled subtly, he might regain control and announce that the
Marabar Caves were—full of stalactites, perhaps; Aziz led up to this, but
they weren’t.
The dialogue remained light and friendly, and Adela had no conception
of its underdrift. She did not know that the comparatively simple mind of
the Mohammedan was encountering Ancient Night. Aziz played a thrilling
game. He was handling a human toy that refused to work—he knew that
much. If it worked, neither he nor Professor Godbole would be the least
advantaged, but the attempt enthralled him and was akin to abstract thought.
On he chattered, defeated at every move by an opponent who would not
even admit that a move had been made, and further than ever from
discovering what, if anything, was extraordinary about the Marabar Caves.
“Everything’s altered. Some soldier men have come in. Come along and
I’ll tell you about it.”
“Your mother will return shortly, sir,” said Professor Godbole, who had
risen with deference. “There is but little to see at our poor college.”
“He may not understand that. Allow me——” Aziz repeated the order
idiomatically.
Ronny was tempted to retort; he knew the type; he knew all the types,
and this was the spoilt Westernized. But he was a servant of the
Government, it was his job to avoid “incidents,” so he said nothing, and
ignored the provocation that Aziz continued to offer. Aziz was provocative.
Everything he said had an impertinent flavour or jarred. His wings were
failing, but he refused to fall without a struggle. He did not mean to be
impertinent to Mr. Heaslop, who had never done him harm, but here was an
Anglo-Indian who must become a man before comfort could be regained.
He did not mean to be greasily confidential to Miss Quested, only to enlist
her support; nor to be loud and jolly towards Professor Godbole. A strange
quartette—he fluttering to the ground, she puzzled by the sudden ugliness,
Ronny fuming, the Brahman observing all three, but with downcast eyes
and hands folded, as if nothing was noticeable. A scene from a play,
thought Fielding, who now saw them from the distance across the garden
grouped among the blue pillars of his beautiful hall.
“Well . . . I’m the sun-dried bureaucrat, no doubt; still, I don’t like to see
an English girl left smoking with two Indians.”
“If you can’t see, you can’t see. . . . Can’t you see that fellow’s a
bounder?”
“He isn’t a bounder,” protested Fielding. “His nerves are on edge, that’s
all.”
“Well, it’s nothing I’ve said,” said Ronny reassuringly. “I never even
spoke to him.”
“Oh well, come along now, and take your ladies away; the catastrophe
over.”
“I’m afraid I can’t, thanks all the same. I’m awfully sorry you feel I’ve
been remiss. I didn’t mean to be.”
“Thank you. . .
Inspired by the devil to a final effort, he added, “What a shame you leave
India so soon! Oh, do reconsider your decision, do stay.”
His thin voice rose, and gave out one sound after another. At times there
seemed rhythm, at times there was the illusion of a Western melody. But the
ear, baffled repeatedly, soon lost any clue, and wandered in a maze of
noises, none harsh or unpleasant, none intelligible. It was the song of an
unknown bird. Only the servants understood it. They began to whisper to
one another. The man who was gathering water chestnut came naked out of
the tank, his lips parted with delight, disclosing his scarlet tongue. The
sounds continued and ceased after a few moments as casually as they had
begun—apparently half through a bar, and upon the subdominant.
“But He comes in some other song, I hope?” said Mrs. Moore gently.
Ronny’s steps had died away, and there was a moment of absolute
silence. No ripple disturbed the water, no leaf stirred.
CHAPTER VIII
Although Miss Quested had known Ronny well in England, she felt well
advised to visit him before deciding to be his wife. India had developed
sides of his character that she had never admired. His self-complacency, his
censoriousness, his lack of subtlety, all grew vivid beneath a tropic sky; he
seemed more indifferent than of old to what was passing in the minds of his
fellows, more certain that he was right about them or that if he was wrong it
didn’t matter. When proved wrong, he was particularly exasperating; he
always managed to suggest that she needn’t have bothered to prove it. The
point she made was never the relevant point, her arguments conclusive but
barren, she was reminded that he had expert knowledge and she none, and
that experience would not help her because she could not interpret it. A
Public School, London University, a year at a crammer’s, a particular
sequence of posts in a particular province, a fall from a horse and a touch of
fever were presented to her as the only training by which Indians and all
who reside in their country can be understood; the only training she could
comprehend, that is to say, for of course above Ronny there stretched the
higher realms of knowledge, inhabited by Callendars and Turtons, who had
been not one year in the country but twenty and whose instincts were
superhuman. For himself he made no extravagant claims; she wished he
would. It was the qualified bray of the callow official, the “I am not perfect,
but——” that got on her nerves.
How gross he had been at Mr. Fielding’s—spoiling the talk and walking
off in the middle of the haunting song! As he drove them away in the tum-
tum, her irritation became unbearable, and she did not realize that much of
it was directed against herself. She longed for an opportunity to fly out at
him, and since he felt cross too, and they were both in India, an opportunity
soon occurred. They had scarcely left the College grounds before she heard
him say to his mother, who was with him on the front seat, “What was that
about caves?” and she promptly opened fire.
“Mrs. Moore, your delightful doctor has decided on a picnic, instead of a
party in his house; we are to meet him out there—you, myself, Mr. Fielding,
Professor Godbole—exactly the same party.”
“He did not. If you had spoken to him, we could have arranged them.”
“I was only thinking how the worthy doctor’s collar climbed up his
neck.”
“So I am. Aziz was exquisitely dressed, from tie-pin to spats, but he had
forgotten his back collar-stud, and there you have the Indian all over:
inattention to detail; the fundamental slackness that reveals the race.
Similarly, to ‘meet’ in the caves as if they were the clock at Charing Cross,
when they’re miles from a station and each other.”
“Oh naturally!”
“Simpler to drop the polo,” said Ronny. Tired and disappointed, he quite
lost self-control, and added in a loud lecturing voice, “I won’t have you
messing about with Indians any more! If you want to go to the Marabar
Caves, you’ll go under British auspices.”
“I’ve never heard of these caves, I don’t know what or where they are,”
said Mrs. Moore, “but I really can’t have”—she tapped the cushion beside
her—“so much quarrelling and tiresomeness!”
The young people were ashamed. They dropped her at the bungalow and
drove on together to the polo, feeling it was the least they could do. Their
crackling bad humour left them, but the heaviness of their spirit remained;
thunderstorms seldom clear the air. Miss Quested was thinking over her
own behaviour, and didn’t like it at all. Instead of weighing Ronny and
herself, and coming to a reasoned conclusion about marriage, she had
incidentally, in the course of a talk about mangoes, remarked to mixed
company that she didn’t mean to stop in India. Which meant that she
wouldn’t marry Ronny: but what a way to announce it, what a way for a
civilized girl to behave! She owed him an explanation, but unfortunately
there was nothing to explain. The “thorough talk” so dear to her principles
and temperament had been postponed until too late. There seemed no point
in being disagreeable to him and formulating her complaints against his
character at this hour of the day, which was the evening. . . . The polo took
place on the Maidan near the entrance of Chandrapore city. The sun was
already declining and each of the trees held a premonition of night. They
walked away from the governing group to a distant seat, and there, feeling
that it was his due and her own, she forced out of herself the undigested
remark: “We must have a thorough talk, Ronny, I’m afraid.”
“My temper’s rotten, I must apologize,” was his reply. “I didn’t mean to
order you and mother about, but of course the way those Bengalis let you
down this morning annoyed me, and I don’t want that sort of thing to keep
happening.”
The news hurt Ronny very much. He had heard Aziz announce that she
would not return to the country, but had paid no attention to the remark, for
he never dreamt that an Indian could be a channel of communication
between two English people. He controlled himself and said gently, “You
never said we should marry, my dear girl; you never bound either yourself
or me—don’t let this upset you.”
She felt ashamed. How decent he was! He might force his opinions down
her throat, but did not press her to an “engagement,” because he believed,
like herself, in the sanctity of personal relationships: it was this that had
drawn them together at their first meeting, which had occurred among the
grand scenery of the English Lakes. Her ordeal was over, but she felt it
should have been more painful and longer. Adela will not marry Ronny. It
seemed slipping away like a dream. She said, “But let us discuss things; it’s
all so frightfully important, we mustn’t make false steps. I want next to hear
your point of view about me—it might help us both.”
His manner was unhappy and reserved. “I don’t much believe in this
discussing—besides, I’m so dead with all this extra work Mohurram’s
bringing, if you’ll excuse me.”
“But I haven’t got any questions. You’ve acted within your rights, you
were quite right to come out and have a look at me doing my work, it was
an excellent plan, and anyhow it’s no use talking further—we should only
get up steam.” He felt angry and bruised; he was too proud to tempt her
back, but he did not consider that she had behaved badly, because where his
compatriots were concerned he had a generous mind.
“I suppose that there is nothing else; it’s unpardonable of me to have
given you and your mother all this bother,” said Miss Quested heavily, and
frowned up at the tree beneath which they were sitting. A little green bird
was observing her, so brilliant and neat that it might have hopped straight
out of a shop. On catching her eye it closed its own, gave a small skip and
prepared to go to bed. Some Indian wild bird. “Yes, nothing else,” she
repeated, feeling that a profound and passionate speech ought to have been
delivered by one or both of them. “We’ve been awfully British over it, but I
suppose that’s all right.”
“Oh, that would have been too absurd. Why should we quarrel?”
“I know we shall.”
“Quite so.”
“Bee-eater.”
“Oh no, Ronny, it has red bars on its wings.”
“Parrot,” he hazarded.
The bird in question dived into the dome of the tree. It was of no
importance, yet they would have liked to identify it, it would somehow
have solaced their hearts.
“What do I hear?” shouted the Nawab Bahadur at the top of his voice,
causing both of them to start. “What most improbable statement have I
heard? An English lady useless? No, no, no, no, no.” He laughed genially,
sure, within limits, of his welcome.
“Hallo, Nawab Bahadur! Been watching the polo again?” said Ronny
tepidly.
“How do you do?” said Adela, likewise pulling herself together. She held
out her hand. The old gentleman judged from so wanton a gesture that she
was new to his country, but he paid little heed. Women who exposed their
face became by that one act so mysterious to him that he took them at the
valuation of their men folk rather than at his own. Perhaps they were not
immoral, and anyhow they were not his affair. On seeing the City
Magistrate alone with a maiden at twilight, he had borne down on them
with hospitable intent. He had a new little car, and wished to place it at their
disposal; the City Magistrate would decide whether the offer was
acceptable.
Ronny was by this time rather ashamed of his curtness to Aziz and
Godbole, and here was an opportunity of showing that he could treat
Indians with consideration when they deserved it. So he said to Adela, with
the same sad friendliness that he had employed when discussing the bird,
“Would half an hour’s spin entertain you at all?”
“I think perhaps I ought to see your mother and discuss future plans.”
“Let me take you to the bungalow, and first the little spin,” cried the old
man, and hastened to the car.
“He may show you some aspect of the country I can’t, and he’s a real
loyalist. I thought you might care for a bit of a change.”
Determined to give him no more trouble, she agreed, but her desire to see
India had suddenly decreased. There had been a factitious element in it.
How should they seat themselves in the car? The elegant grandson had to
be left behind. The Nawab Bahadur got up in front, for he had no intention
of neighbouring an English girl. “Despite my advanced years, I am learning
to drive,” he said. “Man can learn everything if he will but try.” And
foreseeing a further difficulty, he added, “I do not do the actual steering. I
sit and ask my chauffeur questions, and thus learn the reason for everything
that is done before I do it myself. By this method serious and I may say
ludicrous accidents, such as befell one of my compatriots during that
delightful reception at the English Club, are avoided. Our good Panna Lal! I
hope, sahib, that great damage was not done to your flowers. Let us have
our little spin down the Gangavati road. Half one league onwards!” He fell
asleep.
Ronny instructed the chauffeur to take the Marabar road rather than the
Gangavati, since the latter was under repair, and settled himself down
beside the lady he had lost. The car made a burring noise and rushed along
a chaussée that ran upon an embankment above melancholy fields. Trees of
a poor quality bordered the road, indeed the whole scene was inferior, and
suggested that the country-side was too vast to admit of excellence. In vain
did each item in it call out, “Come, come.”
There was not enough god to go round. The two young people conversed
feebly and felt unimportant. When the darkness began, it seemed to well out
of the meagre vegetation, entirely covering the fields each side of them
before it brimmed over the road. Ronny’s face grew dim—an event that
always increased her esteem for his character. Her hand touched his, owing
to a jolt, and one of the thrills so frequent in the animal kingdom passed
between them, and announced that all their difficulties were only a lovers’
quarrel. Each was too proud to increase the pressure, but neither withdrew
it, and a spurious unity descended on them, as local and temporary as the
gleam that inhabits a firefly. It would vanish in a moment, perhaps to
reappear, but the darkness is alone durable. And the night that encircled
them, absolute as it seemed, was itself only a spurious unity, being modified
by the gleams of day that leaked up round the edges of the earth, and by the
stars.
They gripped . . . bump, jump, a swerve, two wheels lifted in the air,
breaks on, bump with tree at edge of embankment, standstill. An accident.
A slight one. Nobody hurt. The Nawab Bahadur awoke. He cried out in
Arabic, and violently tugged his beard.
“What’s the damage?” enquired Ronny, after the moment’s pause that he
permitted himself before taking charge of a situation. The Eurasian, inclined
to be flustered, rallied to the sound of his voice, and, every inch an
Englishman, replied, “You give me five minutes’ time, I’ll take you any
dam anywhere.”
“Not a bit.”
“I consider not to be frightened the height of folly,” cried the Nawab
Bahadur quite rudely.
“Well, it’s all over now, tears are useless,” said Ronny, dismounting. “We
had some luck butting that tree.”
“All over . . . oh yes, the danger is past, let us smoke cigarettes, let us do
anything we please. Oh yes . . . enjoy ourselves—oh my merciful God . . .”
His words died into Arabic again.
“We didn’t skid,” said Adela, who had seen the cause of the accident, and
thought everyone must have seen it too. “We ran into an animal.”
A loud cry broke from the old man: his terror was disproportionate and
ridiculous.
“An animal?”
“A large animal rushed up out of the dark on the right and hit us.”
“By Jove, sir, your lady is right,” echoed the Eurasian. Just by the hinges
of the door was a dent, and the door opened with difficulty.
“Of course I’m right. I saw its hairy back quite plainly.”
“I don’t know the animals any better than the birds here—too big for a
goat.”
Ronny said, “Let’s go into this; let’s look for its tracks.”
“I believe it was a buffalo,” she called to their host, who had not
accompanied them.
“Exactly.”
“Excellent, a hyena,” said the Indian with an angry irony and a gesture at
the night. “Mr. Harris!”
“Don’t worry Mr. Harris. He saved us from a nasty smash. Harris, well
done!”
“A smash, sahib, that would not have taken place had he obeyed and
taken us Gangavati side, instead of Marabar.”
“My fault that. I told him to come this way because the road’s better. Mr.
Lesley has made it pukka right up to the hills.”
“Mr. Heaslop, Miss Quested, what are you holding up an innocent female
for?”
“Yes, indeed.”
“Now what’s all this? I’m not an omnibus,” said Miss Derek with
decision. “I’ve a harmonium and two dogs in here with me as it is. I’ll take
three of you if one’ll sit in front and nurse a pug. No more.”
“Heh no, what about my dinner? I can’t be left alone all the night.”
Trying to look and feel like a European, the chauffeur interposed
aggressively. He still wore a topi, despite the darkness, and his face, to
which the Ruling Race had contributed little beyond bad teeth, peered out
of it pathetically, and seemed to say, “What’s it all about? Don’t worry me
so, you blacks and whites. Here I am, stuck in dam India same as you, and
you got to fit me in better than this.”
“Nussu will bring you out some suitable dinner upon a bicycle,” said the
Nawab Bahadur, who had regained his usual dignity. “I shall despatch him
with all possible speed. Meanwhile, repair my car.”
They sped off, and Mr. Harris, after a reproachful glance, squatted down
upon his hams. When English and Indians were both present, he grew self-
conscious, because he did not know to whom he belonged. For a little he
was vexed by opposite currents in his blood, then they blended, and he
belonged to no one but himself.
But Miss Derek was in tearing spirits. She had succeeded in stealing the
Mudkul car. Her Maharajah would be awfully sick, but she didn’t mind, he
could sack her if he liked. “I don’t believe in these people letting you
down,” she said. “If I didn’t snatch like the devil, I should be nowhere. He
doesn’t want the car, silly fool! Surely it’s to the credit of his State I should
be seen about in it at Chandrapore during my leave. He ought to look at it
that way. Anyhow he’s got to look at it that way. My Maharani’s different—
my Maharani’s a dear. That’s her fox terrier, poor little devil. I fished them
out both with the driver. Imagine taking dogs to a Chiefs’ Conference! As
sensible as taking Chiefs, perhaps.” She shrieked with laughter. “The
harmonium—the harmonium’s my little mistake, I own. They rather had me
over the harmonium. I meant it to stop on the train. Oh lor’!”
“They always sack me before that happens, and then I get another job.
The whole of India seethes with Maharanis and Ranis and Begums who
clamour for such as me.”
“How could you have any idea, Mr. Heaslop? What should he know
about Maharanis, Miss Quested? Nothing. At least I should hope not.”
“I would scarcely call her wrong,” broke out the Nawab Bahadur, from
his isolation on the front seat, whither they had relegated him. “A Native
State, a Hindu State, the wife of a ruler of a Hindu State, may beyond doubt
be a most excellent lady, and let it not be for a moment supposed that I
suggest anything against the character of Her Highness the Maharani of
Mudkul. But I fear she will be uneducated, I fear she will be superstitious.
Indeed, how could she be otherwise? What opportunity of education has
such a lady had? Oh, superstition is terrible, terrible! oh, it is the great
defect in our Indian character!”—and as if to point his criticism, the lights
of the civil station appeared on a rise to the right. He grew more and more
voluble. “Oh, it is the duty of each and every citizen to shake superstition
off, and though I have little experience of Hindu States, and none of this
particular one, namely Mudkul (the Ruler, I fancy, has a salute of but eleven
guns)—yet I cannot imagine that they have been as successful as British
India, where we see reason and orderliness spreading in every direction,
like a most health-giving flood!”
When this old geyser left them, Ronny made no comment, but talked
lightly about polo; Turton had taught him that it is sounder not to discuss a
man at once, and he reserved what he had to say on the Nawab’s character
until later in the evening. His hand, which he had removed to say good-bye,
touched Adela’s again; she caressed it definitely, he responded, and their
firm and mutual pressure surely meant something. They looked at each
other when they reached the bungalow, for Mrs. Moore was inside it. It was
for Miss Quested to speak, and she said nervously, “Ronny, I should like to
take back what I said on the Maidan.” He assented, and they became
engaged to be married in consequence.
Neither had foreseen such a consequence. She had meant to revert to her
former condition of important and cultivated uncertainty, but it had passed
out of her reach at its appropriate hour. Unlike the green bird or the hairy
animal, she was labelled now. She felt humiliated again, for she deprecated
labels, and she felt too that there should have been another scene between
her lover and herself at this point, something dramatic and lengthy. He was
pleased instead of distressed, he was surprised, but he had really nothing to
say. What indeed is there to say? To be or not to be married, that was the
question, and they had decided it in the affirmative.
“Come along and let’s tell the mater all this”—opening the perforated
zinc door that protected the bungalow from the swarms of winged creatures.
The noise woke the mater up. She had been dreaming of the absent children
who were so seldom mentioned, Ralph and Stella, and did not at first grasp
what was required of her. She too had become used to thoughtful
procrastination, and felt alarmed when it came to an end.
“My duties here are evidently finished, I don’t want to see India now;
now for my passage back,” was Mrs. Moore’s thought. She reminded
herself of all that a happy marriage means, and of her own happy marriages,
one of which had produced Ronny. Adela’s parents had also been happily
married, and excellent it was to see the incident repeated by the younger
generation. On and on! the number of such unions would certainly increase
as education spread and ideals grew loftier, and characters firmer. But she
was tired by her visit to Government College, her feet ached, Mr. Fielding
had walked too fast and far, the young people had annoyed her in the tum-
tum, and given her to suppose they were breaking with each other, and
though it was all right now she could not speak as enthusiastically of
wedlock or of anything as she should have done. Ronny was suited, now
she must go home and help the others, if they wished. She was past
marrying herself, even unhappily; her function was to help others, her
reward to be informed that she was sympathetic. Elderly ladies must not
expect more than this.
They dined alone. There was much pleasant and affectionate talk about
the future. Later on they spoke of passing events, and Ronny reviewed and
recounted the day from his own point of view. It was a different day from
the women’s, because while they had enjoyed themselves or thought, he had
worked. Mohurram was approaching, and as usual the Chandrapore
Mohammedans were building paper towers of a size too large to pass under
the branches of a certain pepul tree. One knew what happened next; the
tower stuck, a Mohammedan climbed up the pepul and cut the branch off,
the Hindus protested, there was a religious riot, and Heaven knew what,
with perhaps the troops sent for. There had been deputations and
conciliation committees under the auspices of Turton, and all the normal
work of Chandrapore had been hung up. Should the procession take another
route, or should the towers be shorter? The Mohammedans offered the
former, the Hindus insisted on the latter. The Collector had favoured the
Hindus, until he suspected that they had artificially bent the tree nearer the
ground. They said it sagged naturally. Measurements, plans, an official visit
to the spot. But Ronny had not disliked his day, for it proved that the British
were necessary to India; there would certainly have been bloodshed without
them. His voice grew complacent again; he was here not to be pleasant but
to keep the peace, and now that Adela had promised to be his wife, she was
sure to understand.
“What does our old gentleman of the car think?” she asked, and her
negligent tone was exactly what he desired.
“Have I really?”
“I’m afraid so. Incredible, aren’t they, even the best of them? They’re all
—they all forget their back collar studs sooner or later. You’ve had to do
with three sets of Indians to-day, the Bhattacharyas, Aziz, and this chap,
and it really isn’t a coincidence that they’ve all let you down.”
“When the animal runs into us the Nawab loses his head, deserts his
unfortunate chauffeur, intrudes upon Miss Derek . . . no great crimes, no
great crimes, but no white man would have done it.”
“What animal?”
“Oh, we had a small accident on the Marabar road. Adela thinks it was a
hyena.”
“Nothing; no one hurt. Our excellent host awoke much rattled from his
dreams, appeared to think it was our fault, and chanted exactly, exactly.”
Mrs. Moore shivered, “A ghost!” But the idea of a ghost scarcely passed
her lips. The young people did not take it up, being occupied with their own
outlooks, and deprived of support it perished, or was reabsorbed into the
part of the mind that seldom speaks.
“Yes, nothing criminal,” Ronny summed up, “but there’s the native, and
there’s one of the reasons why we don’t admit him to our clubs, and how a
decent girl like Miss Derek can take service under natives puzzles me. . . .
But I must get on with my work. Krishna!” Krishna was the peon who
should have brought the files from his office. He had not turned up, and a
terrific row ensued. Ronny stormed, shouted, howled, and only the
experienced observer could tell that he was not angry, did not much want
the files, and only made a row because it was the custom. Servants, quite
understanding, ran slowly in circles, carrying hurricane lamps. Krishna the
earth, Krishna the stars replied, until the Englishman was appeased by their
echoes, fined the absent peon eight annas, and sat down to his arrears in the
next room.
“Will you play Patience with your future mother-in-law, dear Adela, or
does it seem too tame?”
“I should like to—I don’t feel a bit excited—I’m just glad it’s settled up
at last, but I’m not conscious of vast changes. We are all three the same
people still.”
“That’s much the best feeling to have.” She dealt out the first row of
“demon.”
Presently Adela said: “You heard me tell Aziz and Godbole I wasn’t
stopping in their country. I didn’t mean it, so why did I say it? I feel I
haven’t been—frank enough, attentive enough, or something. It’s as if I got
everything out of proportion. You have been so very good to me, and I
meant to be good when I sailed, but somehow I haven’t been. . . . Mrs.
Moore, if one isn’t absolutely honest, what is the use of existing?”
She continued to lay out her cards. The words were obscure, but she
understood the uneasiness that produced them. She had experienced it twice
herself, during her own engagements—this vague contrition and doubt. All
had come right enough afterwards and doubtless would this time—marriage
makes most things right enough. “I wouldn’t worry,” she said. “It’s partly
the odd surroundings; you and I keep on attending to trifles instead of
what’s important; we are what the people here call ‘new.’”
“The animal thing that hit us. Didn’t you say ‘Oh, a ghost,’ in passing.”
And they went on with their Patience. Down in Chandrapore the Nawab
Bahadur waited for his car. He sat behind his town house (a small
unfurnished building which he rarely entered) in the midst of the little court
that always improvises itself round Indians of position. As if turbans were
the natural product of darkness a fresh one would occasionally froth to the
front, incline itself towards him, and retire. He was preoccupied, his diction
was appropriate to a religious subject. Nine years previously, when first he
had had a car, he had driven it over a drunken man and killed him, and the
man had been waiting for him ever since. The Nawab Bahadur was
innocent before God and the Law, he had paid double the compensation
necessary; but it was no use, the man continued to wait in an unspeakable
form, close to the scene of his death. None of the English people knew of
this, nor did the chauffeur; it was a racial secret communicable more by
blood than speech. He spoke now in horror of the particular circumstances;
he had led others into danger, he had risked the lives of two innocent and
honoured guests. He repeated, “If I had been killed, what matter? it must
happen sometime; but they who trusted me——”
The company shuddered and invoked the mercy of God. Only Aziz held
aloof, because a personal experience restrained him: was it not by despising
ghosts that he had come to know Mrs. Moore? “You know, Nureddin,” he
whispered to the grandson—an effeminate youth whom he seldom met,
always liked, and invariably forgot—“you know, my dear fellow, we
Moslems simply must get rid of these superstitions, or India will never
advance. How long must I hear of the savage pig upon the Marabar Road?”
Nureddin looked down. Aziz continued: “Your grandfather belongs to
another generation, and I respect and love the old gentleman, as you know. I
say nothing against him, only that it is wrong for us, because we are young.
I want you to promise me—Nureddin, are you listening?—not to believe in
Evil Spirits, and if I die (for my health grows very weak) to bring up my
three children to disbelieve in them too.” Nureddin smiled, and a suitable
answer rose to his pretty lips, but before he could make it the car arrived,
and his grandfather took him away.
The game of Patience up in the civil lines went on longer than this. Mrs.
Moore continued to murmur “Red ten on a black knave,” Miss Quested to
assist her, and to intersperse among the intricacies of the play details about
the hyena, the engagement, the Maharani of Mudkul, the Bhattacharyas,
and the day generally, whose rough desiccated surface acquired as it
receded a definite outline, as India itself might, could it be viewed from the
moon. Presently the players went to bed, but not before other people had
woken up elsewhere, people whose emotions they could not share, and
whose existence they ignored. Never tranquil, never perfectly dark, the
night wore itself away, distinguished from other nights by two or three
blasts of wind, which seemed to fall perpendicularly out of the sky and to
bounce back into it, hard and compact, leaving no freshness behind them:
the hot weather was approaching.
CHAPTER IX
Aziz fell ill as he foretold—slightly ill. Three days later he lay abed in his
bungalow, pretending to be very ill. It was a touch of fever, which he would
have neglected if there was anything important at the hospital. Now and
then he groaned and thought he should die, but did not think so for long,
and a very little diverted him. It was Sunday, always an equivocal day in the
East, and an excuse for slacking. He could hear church bells as he drowsed,
both from the civil station and from the missionaries out beyond the
slaughter house—different bells and rung with different intent, for one set
was calling firmly to Anglo-India, and the other feebly to mankind. He did
not object to the first set; the other he ignored, knowing their inefficiency.
Old Mr. Graysford and young Mr. Sorley made converts during a famine,
because they distributed food; but when times improved they were naturally
left alone again, and though surprised and aggrieved each time this
happened, they never learnt wisdom. “No Englishman understands us
except Mr. Fielding,” he thought; “but how shall I see him again? If he
entered this room the disgrace of it would kill me.” He called to Hassan to
clear up, but Hassan, who was testing his wages by ringing them on the step
of the verandah, found it possible not to hear him; heard and didn’t hear,
just as Aziz had called and hadn’t called. “That’s India all over . . . how like
us . . . there we are . . .” He dozed again, and his thoughts wandered over
the varied surface of life.
“Hassan!”
“Look at those flies, brother;” and he pointed to the horrible mass that
hung from the ceiling. The nucleus was a wire which had been inserted as a
homage to electricity. Electricity had paid no attention, and a colony of eye-
flies had come instead and blackened the coils with their bodies.
“Good, good, they are, excellent, but why have I called you?”
“Huzoor.”
“You must make some arrangement against flies; that is why you are my
servant,” said Aziz gently.
Hassan would call the little boy to borrow the step-ladder from Mahmoud
Ali’s house; he would order the cook to light the Primus stove and heat
water; he would personally ascend the steps with a bucket in his arms, and
dip the end of the coil into it.
“Kill flies.”
“Good. Do it.”
Hassan withdrew, the plan almost lodged in his head, and began to look
for the little boy. Not finding him, his steps grew slower, and he stole back
to his post on the verandah, but did not go on testing his rupees, in case his
master heard them clink. On twittered the Sunday bells; the East had
returned to the East via the suburbs of England, and had become ridiculous
during the detour.
His mind here was hard and direct, though not brutal. He had learnt all he
needed concerning his own constitution many years ago, thanks to the
social order into which he had been born, and when he came to study
medicine he was repelled by the pedantry and fuss with which Europe
tabulates the facts of sex. Science seemed to discuss everything from the
wrong end. It didn’t interpret his experiences when he found them in a
German manual, because by being there they ceased to be his experiences.
What he had been told by his father or mother or had picked up from
servants—it was information of that sort that he found useful, and handed
on as occasion offered to others.
But he must not bring any disgrace on his children by some silly
escapade. Imagine if it got about that he was not respectable! His
professional position too must be considered, whatever Major Callendar
thought. Aziz upheld the proprieties, though he did not invest them with
any moral halo, and it was here that he chiefly differed from an
Englishman. His conventions were social. There is no harm in deceiving
society as long as she does not find you out, because it is only when she
finds you out that you have harmed her; she is not like a friend or God, who
are injured by the mere existence of unfaithfulness. Quite clear about this,
he meditated what type of lie he should tell to get away to Calcutta, and had
thought of a man there who could be trusted to send him a wire and a letter
that he could show to Major Callendar, when the noise of wheels was heard
in his compound. Someone had called to enquire. The thought of sympathy
increased his fever, and with a sincere groan he wrapped himself in his
quilt.
“When a doctor falls ill it is a serious matter,” said the voice of Mr. Syed
Mohammed, the assistant engineer.
“When an engineer falls ill, it is equally important,” said the voice of Mr.
Haq, a police inspector.
“Oh yes, we are all jolly important, our salaries prove it.”
“Dr. Aziz took tea with our Principal last Thursday afternoon,” piped
Rafi, the engineer’s nephew. “Professor Godbole, who also attended, has
sickened too, which seems rather a curious thing, sir, does it not?”
“Why don’t you answer, Rafi? You’re the great authority,” said his uncle.
“Yes, Rafi’s the great man,” said Hamidullah, rubbing it in. “Rafi is the
Sherlock Holmes of Chandrapore. Speak up, Rafi.”
Less than the dust, the schoolboy murmured the word “Diarrhœa,” but
took courage as soon as it had been uttered, for it improved his position.
Flames of suspicion shot up again in the breasts of his elders, though in a
different direction. Could what was called diarrhœa really be an early case
of cholera?
“If this is so, this is a very serious thing: this is scarcely the end of
March. Why have I not been informed?” cried Aziz.
“Dr. Panna Lal attends him, sir.”
“Oh yes, both Hindus; there we have it; they hang together like flies and
keep everything dark. Rafi, come here. Sit down. Tell me all the details. Is
there vomiting also?”
Aziz liked to hear his religion praised. It soothed the surface of his mind,
and allowed beautiful images to form beneath. When the engineer’s noisy
tirade was finished, he said, “That is exactly my own view.” He held up his
hand, palm outward, his eyes began to glow, his heart to fill with
tenderness. Issuing still farther from his quilt, he recited a poem by Ghalib.
It had no connection with anything that had gone before, but it came from
his heart and spoke to theirs. They were overwhelmed by its pathos; pathos,
they agreed, is the highest quality in art; a poem should touch the hearer
with a sense of his own weakness, and should institute some comparison
between mankind and flowers. The squalid bedroom grew quiet; the silly
intrigues, the gossip, the shallow discontent were stilled, while words
accepted as immortal filled the indifferent air. Not as a call to battle, but as
a calm assurance came the feeling that India was one; Moslem; always had
been; an assurance that lasted until they looked out of the door. Whatever
Ghalib had felt, he had anyhow lived in India, and this consolidated it for
them: he had gone with his own tulips and roses, but tulips and roses do not
go. And the sister kingdoms of the north—Arabia, Persia, Ferghana,
Turkestan—stretched out their hands as he sang, sadly, because all beauty is
sad, and greeted ridiculous Chandrapore, where every street and house was
divided against itself, and told her that she was a continent and a unity.
“And mine,” “And, sir, accept mine,” cried the others, stirred each
according to his capacity towards goodwill. Little ineffectual unquenchable
flames! The company continued to sit on the bed and to chew sugarcane,
which Hassan had run for into the bazaar, and Aziz drank a cup of spiced
milk. Presently there was the sound of another carriage. Dr. Panna Lal had
arrived, driven by horrid Mr. Ram Chand. The atmosphere of a sick-room
was at once re-established, and the invalid retired under his quilt.
“Your hand also, please.” He took it, gazed at the flies on the ceiling, and
finally announced “Some temperature.”
“Some; he should remain in bed,” repeated Dr. Panna Lal, and shook the
thermometer down, so that its altitude remained for ever unknown. He
loathed his young colleague since the disasters with Dapple, and he would
have liked to do him a bad turn and report to Major Callendar that he was
shamming. But he might want a day in bed himself soon,—besides, though
Major Callendar always believed the worst of natives, he never believed
them when they carried tales about one another. Sympathy seemed the safer
course. “How is stomach?” he enquired, “how head?” And catching sight of
the empty cup, he recommended a milk diet.
“This is a great relief to us, it is very good of you to call, Doctor Sahib,”
Said Hamidullah, buttering him up a bit.
The doctor suspected a trap in this remark; if he admitted that there was
or was not illness, either statement might be used against him. “There is
always illness,” he replied, “and I am always busy—it is a doctor’s nature.”
“We are in some anxiety over him—he and Dr. Aziz are great friends. If
you could tell us the name of his complaint we should be grateful to you.”
“Cholera, cholera, what next, what now?” cried the doctor, greatly
fussed. “Who spreads such untrue reports about my patients?”
“I hear cholera, I hear bubonic plague, I hear every species of lie. Where
will it end, I ask myself sometimes. This city is full of misstatements, and
the originators of them ought to be discovered and punished
authoritatively.”
“Rafi, do you hear that? Now why do you stuff us up with all this
humbug?”
The schoolboy murmured that another boy had told him, also that the bad
English grammar the Government obliged them to use often gave the wrong
meaning for words, and so led scholars into mistakes.
“That is no reason you should bring a charge against a doctor,” said Ram
Chand.
“Your own son failing to pass the lowest standard, I think,” said Syed
Mohammed suddenly.
Their voices rose. They attacked one another with obscure allusions and
had a silly quarrel. Hamidullah and the doctor tried to make peace between
them. In the midst of the din someone said, “I say! Is he ill or isn’t he ill?”
Mr. Fielding had entered unobserved. All rose to their feet, and Hassan, to
do an Englishman honour, struck with a sugar-cane at the coil of flies.
Aziz said, “Sit down,” coldly. What a room! What a meeting! Squalor
and ugly talk, the floor strewn with fragments of cane and nuts, and spotted
with ink, the pictures crooked upon the dirty walls, no punkah! He hadn’t
meant to live like this or among these third-rate people. And in his
confusion he thought only of the insignificant Rafi, whom he had laughed
at, and allowed to be teased. The boy must be sent away happy, or
hospitality would have failed, along the whole line.
“It is good of Mr. Fielding to condescend to visit our friend,” said the
police inspector. “We are touched by this great kindness.”
“Don’t talk to him like that, he doesn’t want it, and he doesn’t want three
chairs; he’s not three Englishmen,” he flashed. “Rafi, come here. Sit down
again. I’m delighted you could come with Mr. Hamidullah, my dear boy; it
will help me to recover, seeing you.”
“Well, are you?” The company laughed, friendly and pleased. “An
Englishman at his best,” they thought; “so genial.”
“He is ill and he is not ill,” said Hamidullah, offering a cigarette. “And I
suppose that most of us are in that same case.”
Fielding agreed; he and the pleasant sensitive barrister got on well. They
were fairly intimate and beginning to trust each other.
“Oh, that is true, how true!” said the policeman, thinking religion had
been praised.
“Think which true? The world isn’t dying. I’m certain of that!”
“But how then can you believe in God?” asked Syed Mohammed.
A tiny movement as of “I told you so!” passed round the company, and
Aziz looked up for an instant, scandalized. “Is it correct that most are
atheists in England now?” Hamidullah enquired.
“The educated thoughtful people? I should say so, though they don’t like
the name. The truth is that the West doesn’t bother much over belief and
disbelief in these days. Fifty years ago, or even when you and I were young,
much more fuss was made.”
“And does not morality also decline?”
“It depends what you call—yes, yes, I suppose morality does decline.”
“Excuse the question, but if this is the case, how is England justified in
holding India?”
There they were! Politics again. “It’s a question I can’t get my mind on
to,” he replied. “I’m out here personally because I needed a job. I cannot
tell you why England is here or whether she ought to be here. It’s beyond
me.”
The Indians were bewildered. The line of thought was not alien to them,
but the words were too definite and bleak. Unless a sentence paid a few
compliments to Justice and Morality in passing, its grammar wounded their
ears and paralysed their minds. What they said and what they felt were
(except in the case of affection) seldom the same. They had numerous
mental conventions and when these were flouted they found it very difficult
to function. Hamidullah bore up best. “And those Englishmen who are not
delighted to be in India—have they no excuse?” he asked.
“None. Chuck ’em out.”
“Worse than difficult, wrong,” said Mr. Ram Chand. “No Indian
gentleman approves chucking out as a proper thing. Here we differ from
those other nations. We are so spiritual.”
“Dr. Lal!”
“Dr. Aziz?”
“Come along, we tire the invalid in either case,” said Fielding, and they
filed out—four Mohammedans, two Hindus and the Englishman. They
stood on the verandah while their conveyances were summoned out of
various patches of shade.
“Aziz has a high opinion of you, he only did not speak because of his
illness.”
“I quite understand,” said Fielding, who was rather disappointed with his
call. The Club comment, “making himself cheap as usual,” passed through
his mind. He couldn’t even get his horse brought up. He had liked Aziz so
much at their first meeting, and had hoped for developments.
CHAPTER X
The heat had leapt forward in the last hour, the street was deserted as if a
catastrophe had cleaned off humanity during the inconclusive talk. Opposite
Aziz’ bungalow stood a large unfinished house belonging to two brothers,
astrologers, and a squirrel hung head-downwards on it, pressing its belly
against burning scaffolding and twitching a mangy tail. It seemed the only
occupant of the house, and the squeals it gave were in tune with the infinite,
no doubt, but not attractive except to other squirrels. More noises came
from a dusty tree, where brown birds creaked and floundered about looking
for insects; another bird, the invisible coppersmith, had started his “ponk
ponk.” It matters so little to the majority of living beings what the minority,
that calls itself human, desires or decides. Most of the inhabitants of India
do not mind how India is governed. Nor are the lower animals of England
concerned about England, but in the tropics the indifference is more
prominent, the inarticulate world is closer at hand and readier to resume
control as soon as men are tired. When the seven gentlemen who had held
such various opinions inside the bungalow came out of it, they were aware
of a common burden, a vague threat which they called “the bad weather
coming.” They felt that they could not do their work, or would not be paid
enough for doing it. The space between them and their carriages, instead of
being empty, was clogged with a medium that pressed against their flesh,
the carriage cushions scalded their trousers, their eyes pricked, domes of hot
water accumulated under their head-gear and poured down their cheeks.
Salaaming feebly, they dispersed for the interior of other bungalows, to
recover their self-esteem and the qualities that distinguished them from
each other.
All over the city and over much of India the same retreat on the part of
humanity was beginning, into cellars, up hills, under trees. April, herald of
horrors, is at hand. The sun was returning to his kingdom with power but
without beauty—that was the sinister feature. If only there had been beauty!
His cruelty would have been tolerable then. Through excess of light, he
failed to triumph, he also; in his yellowy-white overflow not only matter,
but brightness itself lay drowned. He was not the unattainable friend, either
of men or birds or other suns, he was not the eternal promise, the never-
withdrawn suggestion that haunts our consciousness; he was merely a
creature, like the rest, and so debarred from glory.
CHAPTER XI
Although the Indians had driven off, and Fielding could see his horse
standing in a small shed in the corner of the compound, no one troubled to
bring it to him. He started to get it himself, but was stopped by a call from
the house. Aziz was sitting up in bed, looking dishevelled and sad. “Here’s
your home,” he said sardonically. “Here’s the celebrated hospitality of the
East. Look at the flies. Look at the chunam coming off the walls. Isn’t it
jolly? Now I suppose you want to be off, having seen an Oriental interior.”
“I can rest the whole day, thanks to worthy Dr. Lal. Major Callendar’s
spy, I suppose you know, but this time it didn’t work. I am allowed to have
a slight temperature.”
“Before you go, for you are evidently in a great hurry, will you please
unlock that drawer? Do you see a piece of brown paper at the top?”
“Yes.”
“Open it.”
“Who is this?”
“She was my wife. You are the first Englishman she has ever come
before. Now put her photograph away.”
“Oh, it’s nothing, she was not a highly educated woman or even
beautiful, but put it away. You would have seen her, so why should you not
see her photograph?”
“Why not? I believe in the purdah, but I should have told her you were
my brother, and she would have seen you. Hamidullah saw her, and several
others.”
“Of course not, but the word exists and is convenient. All men are my
brothers, and as soon as one behaves as such he may see my wife.”
“And when the whole world behaves as such, there will be no more
purdah?”
“It is because you can say and feel such a remark as that, that I show you
the photograph,” said Aziz gravely.
“It is beyond the power of most men. It is because you behave well while
I behave badly that I show it you. I never expected you to come back just
now when I called you. I thought, ‘He has certainly done with me; I have
insulted him.’ Mr. Fielding, no one can ever realize how much kindness we
Indians need, we do not even realize it ourselves. But we know when it has
been given. We do not forget, though we may seem to. Kindness, more
kindness, and even after that more kindness. I assure you it is the only
hope.” His voice seemed to arise from a dream. Altering it, yet still deep
below his normal surface, he said, “We can’t build up India except on what
we feel. What is the use of all these reforms, and Conciliation Committees
for Mohurram, and shall we cut the tazia short or shall we carry it another
route, and Councils of Notables and official parties where the English sneer
at our skins?”
“It’s beginning at the wrong end, isn’t it? I know, but institutions and the
governments don’t.” He looked again at the photograph. The lady faced the
world at her husband’s wish and her own, but how bewildering she found it,
the echoing contradictory world!
“Put her away, she is of no importance, she is dead,” said Aziz gently. “I
showed her to you because I have nothing else to show. You may look
round the whole of my bungalow now, and empty everything. I have no
other secrets, my three children live away with their grandmamma, and that
is all.”
Fielding sat down by the bed, flattered at the trust reposed in him, yet
rather sad. He felt old. He wished that he too could be carried away on
waves of emotion. The next time they met, Aziz might be cautious and
standoffish. He realized this, and it made him sad that he should realize it.
Kindness, kindness, and more kindness—yes, that he might supply, but was
that really all that the queer nation needed? Did it not also demand an
occasional intoxication of the blood? What had he done to deserve this
outburst of confidence, and what hostage could he give in exchange? He
looked back at his own life. What a poor crop of secrets it had produced!
There were things in it that he had shown to no one, but they were so
uninteresting, it wasn’t worth while lifting a purdah on their account. He’d
been in love, engaged to be married, lady broke it off, memories of her and
thoughts about her had kept him from other women for a time; then
indulgence, followed by repentance and equilibrium. Meagre really except
the equilibrium, and Aziz didn’t want to have that confided to him—he
would have called it “everything ranged coldly on shelves.”
“I shall not really be intimate with this fellow,” Fielding thought, and
then “nor with anyone.” That was the corollary. And he had to confess that
he really didn’t mind, that he was content to help people, and like them as
long as they didn’t object, and if they objected pass on serenely. Experience
can do much, and all that he had learnt in England and Europe was an
assistance to him, and helped him towards clarity, but clarity prevented him
from experiencing something else.
“How did you like the two ladies you met last Thursday?” he asked.
Aziz shook his head distastefully. The question reminded him of his rash
remark about the Marabar Caves.
Aziz after another silence said, “Why are you not married?”
Fielding was pleased that he had asked. “Because I have more or less
come through without it,” he replied.
“I was thinking of telling you a little about myself some day if I can
make it interesting enough. The lady I liked wouldn’t marry me—that is the
main point, but that’s fifteen years ago and now means nothing.”
“None.”
“It must.”
“Well.” He shook his head. “This indifference is what the Oriental will
never understand.”
“Oh, I don’t know her, but she struck me as one of the more pathetic
products of Western education. She depresses me.”
“So she probably is,” said Fielding, ashamed of his roughness: any
suggestion that he should marry always does produce overstatements on the
part of the bachelor, and a mental breeze. “But I can’t marry her if I wanted
to, for she has just become engaged to the City Magistrate.”
“It’s the old mother’s doing. She was afraid her dear boy would choose
for himself, so she brought out the girl on purpose, and flung them together
until it happened.”
“I may have got it wrong—I’m out of club gossip. But anyhow they’re
engaged to be married.”
“Yes, you’re out of it, my poor chap,” he smiled. “No Miss Quested for
Mr. Fielding. However, she was not beautiful. She has practically no
breasts, if you come to think of it.”
He smiled too, but found a touch of bad taste in the reference to a lady’s
breasts.
“For the City Magistrate they shall be sufficient perhaps, and he for her.
For you I shall arrange a lady with breasts like mangoes. . . .”
“I will not really, and besides your position makes it dangerous for you.”
His mind had slipped from matrimony to Calcutta. His face grew grave.
Fancy if he had persuaded the Principal to accompany him there, and then
got him into trouble! And abruptly he took up a new attitude towards his
friend, the attitude of the protector who knows the dangers of India and is
admonitory. “You can’t be too careful in every way, Mr. Fielding; whatever
you say or do in this damned country there is always some envious fellow
on the look-out. You may be surprised to know that there were at least three
spies sitting here when you came to enquire. I was really a good deal upset
that you talked in that fashion about God. They will certainly report it.”
“To whom?”
“That’s all very well, but you spoke against morality also, and you said
you had come to take other people’s jobs. All that was very unwise. This is
an awful place for scandal. Why, actually one of your own pupils was
listening.”
“Thanks for telling me that; yes, I must try and be more careful. If I’m
interested, I’m apt to forget myself. Still, it doesn’t do real harm.”
“There, listen to that! But the end of it might be that you lost your job.”
“If I do, I do. I shall survive it. I travel light.”
“Travel light! You are a most extraordinary race,” said Aziz, turning
away as if he were going to sleep, and immediately turning back again. “Is
it your climate, or what?”
“Plenty of Indians travel light too—saddhus and such. It’s one of the
things I admire about your country. Any man can travel light until he has a
wife or children. That’s part of my case against marriage. I’m a holy man
minus the holiness. Hand that on to your three spies, and tell them to put it
in their pipes.”
Aziz was charmed and interested, and turned the new idea over in his
mind. So this was why Mr. Fielding and a few others were so fearless! They
had nothing to lose. But he himself was rooted in society and Islam. He
belonged to a tradition which bound him, and he had brought children into
the world, the society of the future. Though he lived so vaguely in this
flimsy bungalow, nevertheless he was placed, placed.
He concluded his manifesto, and both were silent. The eye-flies became
worse than ever and danced close up to their pupils, or crawled into their
ears. Fielding hit about wildly. The exercise made him hot, and he got up to
go.
“I know. I gave him orders not to. Such are the tricks we play on
unfortunate Englishmen. Poor Mr. Fielding! But I will release you now. Oh
dear! With the exception of yourself and Hamidullah, I have no one to talk
to in this place. You like Hamidullah, don’t you?”
“Very much.”
“There goes a queer chap, I trust he won’t come to grief,” thought Aziz,
left alone. His period of admiration was over, and he reacted towards
patronage. It was difficult for him to remain in awe of anyone who played
with all his cards on the table. Fielding, he discovered on closer
acquaintance, was truly warm-hearted and unconventional, but not what can
be called wise. That frankness of speech in the presence of Ram Chand,
Rafi and Co. was dangerous and inelegant. It served no useful end.
But they were friends, brothers. That part was settled, their compact had
been subscribed by the photograph, they trusted one another, affection had
triumphed for once in a way. He dropped off to sleep amid the happier
memories of the last two hours—poetry of Ghalib, female grace, good old
Hamidullah, good Fielding, his honoured wife and dear boys. He passed
into a region where these joys had no enemies but bloomed harmoniously in
an eternal garden, or ran down watershoots of ribbed marble, or rose into
domes whereunder were inscribed, black against white, the ninety-nine
attributes of God.
PART II: CAVES
CHAPTER XII
The Ganges, though flowing from the foot of Vishnu and through Siva’s
hair, is not an ancient stream. Geology, looking further than religion, knows
of a time when neither the river nor the Himalayas that nourished it existed,
and an ocean flowed over the holy places of Hindustan. The mountains
rose, their debris silted up the ocean, the gods took their seats on them and
contrived the river, and the India we call immemorial came into being. But
India is really far older. In the days of the prehistoric ocean the southern
part of the peninsula already existed, and the high places of Dravidia have
been land since land began, and have seen on the one side the sinking of a
continent that joined them to Africa, and on the other the upheaval of the
Himalayas from a sea. They are older than anything in the world. No water
has ever covered them, and the sun who has watched them for countless
æons may still discern in their outlines forms that were his before our globe
was torn from his bosom. If flesh of the sun’s flesh is to be touched
anywhere, it is here, among the incredible antiquity of these hills.
Yet even they are altering. As Himalayan India rose, this India, the
primal, has been depressed, and is slowly re-entering the curve of the earth.
It may be that in æons to come an ocean will flow here too, and cover the
sun-born rocks with slime. Meanwhile the plain of the Ganges encroaches
on them with something of the sea’s action. They are sinking beneath the
newer lands. Their main mass is untouched, but at the edge their outposts
have been cut off and stand knee-deep, throat-deep, in the advancing soil.
There is something unspeakable in these outposts. They are like nothing
else in the world, and a glimpse of them makes the breath catch. They rise
abruptly, insanely, without the proportion that is kept by the wildest hills
elsewhere, they bear no relation to anything dreamt or seen. To call them
“uncanny” suggests ghosts, and they are older than all spirit. Hinduism has
scratched and plastered a few rocks, but the shrines are unfrequented, as if
pilgrims, who generally seek the extraordinary, had here found too much of
it. Some saddhus did once settle in a cave, but they were smoked out, and
even Buddha, who must have passed this way down to the Bo Tree of Gya,
shunned a renunciation more complete than his own, and has left no legend
of struggle or victory in the Marabar.
The caves are readily described. A tunnel eight feet long, five feet high,
three feet wide, leads to a circular chamber about twenty feet in diameter.
This arrangement occurs again and again throughout the group of hills, and
this is all, this is a Marabar Cave. Having seen one such cave, having seen
two, having seen three, four, fourteen, twenty-four, the visitor returns to
Chandrapore uncertain whether he has had an interesting experience or a
dull one or any experience at all. He finds it difficult to discuss the caves, or
to keep them apart in his mind, for the pattern never varies, and no carving,
not even a bees’-nest or a bat distinguishes one from another. Nothing,
nothing attaches to them, and their reputation—for they have one—does not
depend upon human speech. It is as if the surrounding plain or the passing
birds have taken upon themselves to exclaim “extraordinary,” and the word
has taken root in the air, and been inhaled by mankind.
They are dark caves. Even when they open towards the sun, very little
light penetrates down the entrance tunnel into the circular chamber. There is
little to see, and no eye to see it, until the visitor arrives for his five minutes,
and strikes a match. Immediately another flame rises in the depths of the
rock and moves towards the surface like an imprisoned spirit: the walls of
the circular chamber have been most marvellously polished. The two flames
approach and strive to unite, but cannot, because one of them breathes air,
the other stone. A mirror inlaid with lovely colours divides the lovers,
delicate stars of pink and grey interpose, exquisite nebulæ, shadings fainter
than the tail of a comet or the midday moon, all the evanescent life of the
granite, only here visible. Fists and fingers thrust above the advancing soil
—here at last is their skin, finer than any covering acquired by the animals,
smoother than windless water, more voluptuous than love. The radiance
increases, the flames touch one another, kiss, expire. The cave is dark again,
like all the caves.
Only the wall of the circular chamber has been polished thus. The sides
of the tunnel are left rough, they impinge as an afterthought upon the
internal perfection. An entrance was necessary, so mankind made one. But
elsewhere, deeper in the granite, are there certain chambers that have no
entrances? Chambers never unsealed since the arrival of the gods. Local
report declares that these exceed in number those that can be visited, as the
dead exceed the living—four hundred of them, four thousand or million.
Nothing is inside them, they were sealed up before the creation of
pestilence or treasure; if mankind grew curious and excavated, nothing,
nothing would be added to the sum of good or evil. One of them is
rumoured within the boulder that swings on the summit of the highest of the
hills; a bubble-shaped cave that has neither ceiling nor floor, and mirrors its
own darkness in every direction infinitely. If the boulder falls and smashes,
the cave will smash too—empty as an Easter egg. The boulder because of
its hollowness sways in the wind, and even moves when a crow perches
upon it: hence its name and the name of its stupendous pedestal: the Kawa
Dol.
CHAPTER XIII
These hills look romantic in certain lights and at suitable distances, and
seen of an evening from the upper verandah of the club they caused Miss
Quested to say conversationally to Miss Derek that she should like to have
gone, that Dr. Aziz at Mr. Fielding’s had said he would arrange something,
and that Indians seem rather forgetful. She was overheard by the servant
who offered them vermouths. This servant understood English. And he was
not exactly a spy, but he kept his ears open, and Mahmoud Ali did not
exactly bribe him, but did encourage him to come and squat with his own
servants, and would happen to stroll their way when he was there. As the
story travelled, it accreted emotion and Aziz learnt with horror that the
ladies were deeply offended with him, and had expected an invitation daily.
He thought his facile remark had been forgotten. Endowed with two
memories, a temporary and a permanent, he had hitherto relegated the caves
to the former. Now he transferred them once for all, and pushed the matter
through. They were to be a stupendous replica of the tea party. He began by
securing Fielding and old Godbole, and then commissioned Fielding to
approach Mrs. Moore and Miss Quested when they were alone—by this
device Ronny, their official protector, could be circumvented. Fielding
didn’t like the job much; he was busy, caves bored him, he foresaw friction
and expense, but he would not refuse the first favour his friend had asked
from him, and did as required. The ladies accepted. It was a little
inconvenient in the present press of their engagements, still, they hoped to
manage it after consulting Mr. Heaslop. Consulted, Ronny raised no
objection, provided Fielding undertook full responsibility for their comfort.
He was not enthusiastic about the picnic, but, then, no more were the ladies
—no one was enthusiastic, yet it took place.
Aziz was terribly worried. It was not a long expedition—a train left
Chandrapore just before dawn, another would bring them back for tiffin—
but he was only a little official still, and feared to acquit himself
dishonourably. He had to ask Major Callendar for half a day’s leave, and be
refused because of his recent malingering; despair; renewed approach of
Major Callendar through Fielding, and contemptuous snarling permission.
He had to borrow cutlery from Mahmoud Ali without inviting him. Then
there was the question of alcohol; Mr. Fielding, and perhaps the ladies, were
drinkers, so must he provide whisky-sodas and ports? There was the
problem of transport from the wayside station of Marabar to the caves.
There was the problem of Professor Godbole and his food, and of Professor
Godbole and other people’s food—two problems, not one problem. The
Professor was not a very strict Hindu—he would take tea, fruit, soda-water
and sweets, whoever cooked them, and vegetables and rice if cooked by a
Brahman; but not meat, not cakes lest they contained eggs, and he would
not allow anyone else to eat beef: a slice of beef upon a distant plate would
wreck his happiness. Other people might eat mutton, they might eat ham.
But over ham Aziz’ own religion raised its voice: he did not fancy other
people eating ham. Trouble after trouble encountered him, because he had
challenged the spirit of the Indian earth, which tries to keep men in
compartments.
His friends thought him most unwise to mix himself up with English
ladies, and warned him to take every precaution against unpunctuality.
Consequently he spent the previous night at the station. The servants were
huddled on the platform, enjoined not to stray. He himself walked up and
down with old Mohammed Latif, who was to act as major-domo. He felt
insecure and also unreal. A car drove up, and he hoped Fielding would get
out of it, to lend him solidity. But it contained Mrs. Moore, Miss Quested,
and their Goanese servant. He rushed to meet them, suddenly happy. “But
you’ve come, after all. Oh how very very kind of you!” he cried. “This is
the happiest moment in all my life.”
The ladies were civil. It was not the happiest moment in their lives, still,
they looked forward to enjoying themselves as soon as the bother of the
early start was over. They had not seen him since the expedition was
arranged, and they thanked him adequately.
“You don’t require tickets—please stop your servant. There are no tickets
on the Marabar branch line; it is its peculiarity. You come to the carriage
and rest till Mr. Fielding joins us. Did you know you are to travel purdah?
Will you like that?”
They replied that they should like it. The train had come in, and a crowd
of dependents were swarming over the seats of the carriage like monkeys.
Aziz had borrowed servants from his friends, as well as bringing his own
three, and quarrels over precedence were resulting. The ladies’ servant
stood apart, with a sneering expression on his face. They had hired him
while they were still globe-trotters, at Bombay. In a hotel or among smart
people he was excellent, but as soon as they consorted with anyone whom
he thought second-rate he left them to their disgrace.
The night was still dark, but had acquired the temporary look that
indicates its end. Perched on the roof of a shed, the station-master’s hens
began to dream of kites instead of owls. Lamps were put out, in order to
save the trouble of putting them out later; the smell of tobacco and the
sound of spitting arose from third-class passengers in dark corners; heads
were unshrouded, teeth cleaned on the twigs of a tree. So convinced was a
junior official that another sun would rise, that he rang a bell with
enthusiasm. This upset the servants. They shrieked that the train was
starting, and ran to both ends of it to intercede. Much had still to enter the
purdah carriage—a box bound with brass, a melon wearing a fez, a towel
containing guavas, a step-ladder and a gun. The guests played up all right.
They had no race-consciousness—Mrs. Moore was too old, Miss Quested
too new—and they behaved to Aziz as to any young man who had been
kind to them in the country. This moved him deeply. He had expected them
to arrive with Mr. Fielding, instead of which they trusted themselves to be
with him a few moments alone.
“And he is such a horrible servant. Antony, you can go; we don’t want
you,” said the girl impatiently.
“Well, your ladies won’t have you.” She turned to the host. “Do get rid of
him, Dr. Aziz!”
The poor relative exchanged fezzes with the melon, and peeped out of the
window of the railway carriage, whose confusion he was superintending.
“I spick a lie! Oh, jolly good. Isn’t he a funny old man? We will have
great jokes with him later. He does all sorts of little things. He is not nearly
as stupid as you think, and awfully poor. It’s lucky ours is a large family.”
He flung an arm round the grubby neck. “But you get inside, make
yourselves at home; yes, you lie down.” The celebrated Oriental confusion
appeared at last to be at an end. “Excuse me, now I must meet our other two
guests!”
He was getting nervous again, for it was ten minutes to the time. Still,
Fielding was an Englishman, and they never do miss trains, and Godbole
was a Hindu and did not count, and, soothed by this logic, he grew calmer
as the hour of departure approached. Mohammed Latif had bribed Antony
not to come. They walked up and down the platform, talking usefully. They
agreed that they had overdone the servants, and must leave two or three
behind at Marabar station. And Aziz explained that he might be playing one
or two practical jokes at the caves—not out of unkindness, but to make the
guests laugh. The old man assented with slight sideway motions of the
head: he was always willing to be ridiculed, and he bade Aziz not spare
him. Elated by his importance, he began an indecent anecdote.
“Tell me another time, brother, when I have more leisure, for now, as I
have already explained, we have to give pleasure to non-Moslems. Three
will be Europeans, one a Hindu, which must not be forgotten. Every
attention must be paid to Professor Godbole, lest he feel that he is inferior
to my other guests.”
“That will be kind of you; but the servants are even more important. We
must not convey an impression of disorganization. It can be done, and I
expect you to do it . . .”
The Brahman lowered his eyes, ashamed of religion. For it was so: he
had miscalculated the length of a prayer.
“He’s not to, he’ll kill himself,” Mrs. Moore protested. He jumped, he
failed, missed his friend’s hand, and fell back on to the line. The train
rumbled past. He scrambled on to his feet, and bawled after them, “I’m all
right, you’re all right, don’t worry,” and then they passed beyond range of
his voice.
“Get in, get in; you’ll kill yourself as well as Mr. Fielding. I see no ruin.”
She was perfect as always, his dear Mrs. Moore. All the love for her he
had felt at the mosque welled up again, the fresher for forgetfulness. There
was nothing he would not do for her. He would die to make her happy.
“Get in, Dr. Aziz, you make us giddy,” the other lady called. “If they’re
so foolish as to miss the train, that’s their loss, not ours.”
Not perfect like Mrs. Moore, but very sincere and kind. Wonderful ladies,
both of them, and for one precious morning his guests. He felt important
and competent. Fielding was a loss personally, being a friend, increasingly
dear, yet if Fielding had come, he himself would have remained in leading-
strings. “Indians are incapable of responsibility,” said the officials, and
Hamidullah sometimes said so too. He would show those pessimists that
they were wrong. Smiling proudly, he glanced outward at the country,
which was still invisible except as a dark movement in the darkness; then
upwards at the sky, where the stars of the sprawling Scorpion had begun to
pale. Then he dived through a window into a second-class carriage.
“Mohammed Latif, by the way, what is in these caves, brother? Why are
we all going to see them?”
Such a question was beyond the poor relative’s scope. He could only
reply that God and the local villagers knew, and that the latter would gladly
act as guides.
CHAPTER XIV
Most of life is so dull that there is nothing to be said about it, and the
books and talk that would describe it as interesting are obliged to
exaggerate, in the hope of justifying their own existence. Inside its cocoon
of work or social obligation, the human spirit slumbers for the most part,
registering the distinction between pleasure and pain, but not nearly as alert
as we pretend. There are periods in the most thrilling day during which
nothing happens, and though we continue to exclaim, “I do enjoy myself,”
or, “I am horrified,” we are insincere. “As far as I feel anything, it is
enjoyment, horror”—it’s no more than that really, and a perfectly adjusted
organism would be silent.
It so happened that Mrs. Moore and Miss Quested had felt nothing
acutely for a fortnight. Ever since Professor Godbole had sung his queer
little song, they had lived more or less inside cocoons, and the difference
between them was that the elder lady accepted her own apathy, while the
younger resented hers. It was Adela’s faith that the whole stream of events
is important and interesting, and if she grew bored she blamed herself
severely and compelled her lips to utter enthusiasms. This was the only
insincerity in a character otherwise sincere, and it was indeed the
intellectual protest of her youth. She was particularly vexed now because
she was both in India and engaged to be married, which double event
should have made every instant sublime.
India was certainly dim this morning, though seen under the auspices of
Indians. Her wish had been granted, but too late. She could not get excited
over Aziz and his arrangements. She was not the least unhappy or
depressed, and the various odd objects that surrounded her—the comic
“purdah” carriage, the piles of rugs and bolsters, the rolling melons, the
scent of sweet oils, the ladder, the brass-bound box, the sudden irruption of
Mahmoud Ali’s butler from the lavatory with tea and poached eggs upon a
tray—they were all new and amusing, and led her to comment
appropriately, but they wouldn’t bite into her mind. So she tried to find
comfort by reflecting that her main interest would henceforward be Ronny.
“They startle one rather. A strange place to make tea in,” said Mrs.
Moore, who had hoped for a nap.
“I want to sack Antony. His behaviour on the platform has decided me.”
Mrs. Moore thought that Antony’s better self would come to the front at
Simla. Miss Quested was to be married at Simla; some cousins, with a
house looking straight on to Thibet, had invited her.
“Very well, you get another servant, and I’ll keep Antony with me. I am
used to his unappetizing ways. He will see me through the Hot Weather.”
“I don’t believe in the Hot Weather. People like Major Callendar who
always talk about it—it’s in the hope of making one feel inexperienced and
small, like their everlasting, ‘I’ve been twenty years in this country.’”
“I believe in the Hot Weather, but never did I suppose it would bottle me
up as it will.” For owing to the sage leisureliness of Ronny and Adela, they
could not be married till May, and consequently Mrs. Moore could not
return to England immediately after the wedding, which was what she had
hoped to do. By May a barrier of fire would have fallen across India and the
adjoining sea, and she would have to remain perched up in the Himalayas
waiting for the world to get cooler.
“I won’t be bottled up,” announced the girl. “I’ve no patience with these
women here who leave their husbands grilling in the plains. Mrs. McBryde
hasn’t stopped down once since she married; she leaves her quite intelligent
husband alone half the year, and then’s surprised she’s out of touch with
him.”
“She has children, you see.”
“It is the children who are the first consideration. Until they are grown
up, and married off. When that happens one has again the right to live for
oneself—in the plains or the hills, as suits.”
“If one has not become too stupid and old.” She handed her empty cup to
the servant.
“My idea now is that my cousins shall find me a servant in Simla, at all
events to see me through the wedding, after which Ronny means to
reorganize his staff entirely. He does it very well for a bachelor; still, when
he is married no doubt various changes will have to be made—his old
servants won’t want to take their orders from me, and I don’t blame them.”
Mrs. Moore pushed up the shutters and looked out. She had brought
Ronny and Adela together by their mutual wish, but really she could not
advise them further. She felt increasingly (vision or nightmare?) that,
though people are important, the relations between them are not, and that in
particular too much fuss has been made over marriage; centuries of carnal
embracement, yet man is no nearer to understanding man. And to-day she
felt this with such force that it seemed itself a relationship, itself a person
who was trying to take hold of her hand.
“We can’t be far from the place where my hyena was.” She peered into
the timeless twilight. The train crossed a nullah. “Pomper, pomper,
pomper,” was the sound that the wheels made as they trundled over the
bridge, moving very slowly. A hundred yards on came a second nullah, then
a third, suggesting the neighbourhood of higher ground. “Perhaps this is
mine; anyhow, the road runs parallel with the railway.” Her accident was a
pleasant memory; she felt in her dry, honest way that it had given her a
good shake up, and taught her Ronny’s true worth. Then she went back to
her plans; plans had been a passion with her from girlhood. Now and then
she paid tribute to the present, said how friendly and intelligent Aziz was,
ate a guava, couldn’t eat a fried sweet, practised her Urdu on the servant;
but her thoughts ever veered to the manageable future, and to the Anglo-
Indian life she had decided to endure. And as she appraised it with its
adjuncts of Turtons and Burtons, the train accompanied her sentences,
“pomper, pomper,” the train half asleep, going nowhere in particular and
with no passenger of importance in any of its carriages, the branch-line
train, lost on a low embankment between dull fields. Its message—for it
had one—avoided her well-equipped mind. Far away behind her, with a
shriek that meant business, rushed the Mail, connecting up important towns
such as Calcutta and Lahore, where interesting events occur and
personalities are developed. She understood that. Unfortunately, India has
few important towns. India is the country, fields, fields, then hills, jungle,
hills, and more fields. The branch line stops, the road is only practicable for
cars to a point, the bullock-carts lumber down the side tracks, paths fray out
into the cultivation, and disappear near a splash of red paint. How can the
mind take hold of such a country? Generations of invaders have tried, but
they remain in exile. The important towns they build are only retreats, their
quarrels the malaise of men who cannot find their way home. India knows
of their trouble. She knows of the whole world’s trouble, to its uttermost
depth. She calls “Come” through her hundred mouths, through objects
ridiculous and august. But come to what? She has never defined. She is not
a promise, only an appeal.
“I will fetch you from Simla when it’s cool enough. I will unbottle you in
fact,” continued the reliable girl. “We then see some of the Mogul stuff—
how appalling if we let you miss the Taj!—and then I will see you off at
Bombay. Your last glimpse of this country really shall be interesting.” But
Mrs. Moore had fallen asleep, exhausted by the early start. She was in
rather low health, and ought not to have attempted the expedition, but had
pulled herself together in case the pleasure of the others should suffer. Her
dreams were of the same texture, but there it was her other children who
were wanting something, Stella and Ralph, and she was explaining to them
that she could not be in two families at once. When she awoke, Adela had
ceased to plan, and leant out of a window, saying, “They’re rather
wonderful.”
Astonishing even from the rise of the civil station, here the Marabar were
gods to whom earth is a ghost. Kawa Dol was nearest. It shot up in a single
slab, on whose summit one rock was poised—if a mass so great can be
called one rock. Behind it, recumbent, were the hills that contained the
other caves, isolated each from his neighbour by broad channels of the
plain. The assemblage, ten in all, shifted a little as the train crept past them,
as if observing its arrival.
“I’ld not have missed this for anything,” said the girl, exaggerating her
enthusiasm. “Look, the sun’s rising—this’ll be absolutely magnificent—
come quickly—look. I wouldn’t have missed this for anything. We should
never have seen it if we’d stuck to the Turtons and their eternal elephants.”
As she spoke, the sky to the left turned angry orange. Colour throbbed
and mounted behind a pattern of trees, grew in intensity, was yet brighter,
incredibly brighter, strained from without against the globe of the air. They
awaited the miracle. But at the supreme moment, when night should have
died and day lived, nothing occurred. It was as if virtue had failed in the
celestial fount. The hues in the east decayed, the hills seemed dimmer
though in fact better lit, and a profound disappointment entered with the
morning breeze. Why, when the chamber was prepared, did the bridegroom
not enter with trumpets and shawms, as humanity expects? The sun rose
without splendour. He was presently observed trailing yellowish behind the
trees, or against insipid sky, and touching the bodies already at work in the
fields.
“Ah, that must be the false dawn—isn’t it caused by dust in the upper
layers of the atmosphere that couldn’t fall down during the night? I think
Mr. McBryde said so. Well, I must admit that England has it as regards
sunrises. Do you remember Grasmere?”
“Ah, dearest Grasmere!” Its little lakes and mountains were beloved by
them all. Romantic yet manageable, it sprang from a kindlier planet. Here
an untidy plain stretched to the knees of the Marabar.
“Good morning, good morning, put on your topis,” shouted Aziz from
farther down the train. “Put on your topis at once, the early sun is highly
dangerous for heads. I speak as a doctor.”
“Dr. Aziz, what’s happened to your hills? The train has forgotten to
stop.”
Having wandered off into the plain for a mile, the train slowed up against
an elephant. There was a platform too, but it shrivelled into insignificance.
An elephant, waving her painted forehead at the morn! “Oh, what a
surprise!” called the ladies politely. Aziz said nothing, but he nearly burst
with pride and relief. The elephant was the one grand feature of the picnic,
and God alone knew what he had gone through to obtain her. Semi-official,
she was best approached through the Nawab Bahadur, who was best
approached through Nureddin, but he never answered letters, but his mother
had great influence with him and was a friend of Hamidullah Begum’s, who
had been excessively kind and had promised to call on her provided the
broken shutter of the purdah carriage came back soon enough from
Calcutta. That an elephant should depend from so long and so slender a
string filled Aziz with content, and with humorous appreciation of the East,
where the friends of friends are a reality, where everything gets done
sometime, and sooner or later every one gets his share of happiness. And
Mohammed Latif was likewise content, because two of the guests had
missed the train, and consequently he could ride on the howdah instead of
following in a cart, and the servants were content because an elephant
increased their self-esteem, and they tumbled out the luggage into the dust
with shouts and bangs, issuing orders to one another, and convulsed with
goodwill.
“It takes an hour to get there, an hour to get back, and two hours for the
caves, which we will call three,” said Aziz, smiling charmingly. There was
suddenly something regal about him. “The train back is at eleven-thirty, and
you will be sitting down to your tiffin in Chandrapore with Mr. Heaslop at
exactly your usual hour, namely, one-fifteen. I know everything about you.
Four hours—quite a small expedition—and an hour extra for misfortunes,
which occur somewhat frequently among my people. My idea is to plan
everything without consulting you; but you, Mrs. Moore, or Miss Quested,
you are at any moment to make alterations if you wish, even if it means
giving up the caves. Do you agree? Then mount this wild animal.”
The elephant had knelt, grey and isolated, like another hill. They climbed
up the ladder, and he mounted shikar fashion, treading first on the sharp
edge of the heel and then into the looped-up tail. When Mohammed Latif
followed him, the servant who held the end of the tail let go of it according
to previous instructions, so that the poor relative slipped and had to cling to
the netting over the buttocks. It was a little piece of Court buffoonery, and
distressed only the ladies, whom it was intended to divert. Both of them
disliked practical jokes. Then the beast rose in two shattering movements,
and poised them ten feet above the plain. Immediately below was the scurf
of life that an elephant always collects round its feet—villagers, naked
babies. The servants flung crockery into tongas. Hassan annexed the
stallion intended for Aziz, and defied Mahmoud Ali’s man from its altitude.
The Brahman who had been hired to cook for Professor Godbole was
planted under an acacia tree, to await their return. The train, also hoping to
return, wobbled away through the fields, turning its head this way and that
like a centipede. And the only other movement to be seen was a movement
as of antennae, really the counterpoises of the wells which rose and fell on
their pivots of mud all over the plain and dispersed a feeble flow of water.
The scene was agreeable rather than not in the mild morning air, but there
was little colour in it, and no vitality.
As the elephant moved towards the hills (the pale sun had by this time
saluted them to the base, and pencilled shadows down their creases) a new
quality occurred, a spiritual silence which invaded more senses than the ear.
Life went on as usual, but had no consequences, that is to say, sounds did
not echo or thoughts develop. Everything seemed cut off at its root, and
therefore infected with illusion. For instance, there were some mounds by
the edge of the track, low, serrated, and touched with whitewash. What were
these mounds—graves, breasts of the goddess Parvati? The villagers
beneath gave both replies. Again, there was a confusion about a snake
which was never cleared up. Miss Quested saw a thin, dark object reared on
end at the farther side of a watercourse, and said, “A snake!” The villagers
agreed, and Aziz explained: yes, a black cobra, very venomous, who had
reared himself up to watch the passing of the elephant, But when she looked
through Ronny’s field-glasses, she found it wasn’t a snake, but the withered
and twisted stump of a toddy-palm. So she said, “It isn’t a snake.” The
villagers contradicted her. She had put the word into their minds, and they
refused to abandon it. Aziz admitted that it looked like a tree through the
glasses, but insisted that it was a black cobra really, and improvised some
rubbish about protective mimicry. Nothing was explained, and yet there was
no romance. Films of heat, radiated from the Kawa Dol precipices,
increased the confusion. They came at irregular intervals and moved
capriciously. A patch of field would jump as if it was being fried, and then
lie quiet. As they drew closer the radiation stopped.
The elephant walked straight at the Kawa Dol as if she would knock for
admission with her forehead, then swerved, and followed a path round its
base. The stones plunged straight into the earth, like cliffs into the sea, and
while Miss Quested was remarking on this, and saying that it was striking,
the plain quietly disappeared, peeled off, so to speak, and nothing was to be
seen on either side but the granite, very dead and quiet. The sky dominated
as usual, but seemed unhealthily near, adhering like a ceiling to the summits
of the precipices. It was as if the contents of the corridor had never been
changed. Occupied by his own munificence, Aziz noticed nothing. His
guests noticed a little. They did not feel that it was an attractive place or
quite worth visiting, and wished it could have turned into some
Mohammedan object, such as a mosque, which their host would have
appreciated and explained. His ignorance became evident, and was really
rather a drawback. In spite of his gay, confident talk, he had no notion how
to treat this particular aspect of India; he was lost in it without Professor
Godbole, like themselves.
The corridor narrowed, then widened into a sort of tray. Here, more or
less, was their goal. A ruined tank held a little water which would do for the
animals, and close above the mud was punched a black hole—the first of
the caves. Three hills encircled the tray. Two of them pumped out heat
busily, but the third was in shadow, and here they camped.
“How quick your servants are!” Miss Quested exclaimed. For a cloth had
already been laid, with a vase of artificial flowers in its centre, and
Mahmoud Ali’s butler offered them poached eggs and tea for the second
time.
“I thought we would eat this before our caves, and breakfast after.”
“This breakfast? Did you think I should treat you so strangely?” He had
been warned that English people never stop eating, and that he had better
nourish them every two hours until a solid meal was ready.
“And how rough and rude I was, and how good you were.”
“Friendships last longest that begin like that, I think. Shall I ever
entertain your other children?”
“Do you know about the others? She will never talk about them to me,”
said Miss Quested, unintentionally breaking a spell.
“Ralph and Stella, yes, I know everything about them. But we must not
forget to visit our caves. One of the dreams of my life is accomplished in
having you both here as my guests. You cannot imagine how you have
honoured me. I feel like the Emperor Babur.”
“Not at all,” she said, sitting down by Mrs. Moore again. “We enjoy talk
like this very much.” For at last he was talking about what he knew and felt,
talking as he had in Fielding’s garden-house; he was again the Oriental
guide whom they appreciated.
“But wasn’t Akbar’s new religion very fine? It was to embrace the whole
of India.”
“Miss Quested, fine but foolish. You keep your religion, I mine. That is
the best. Nothing embraces the whole of India, nothing, nothing, and that
was Akbar’s mistake.”
“Oh, do you feel that, Dr. Aziz?” she said thoughtfully. “I hope you’re
not right. There will have to be something universal in this country—I don’t
say religion, for I’m not religious, but something, or how else are barriers to
be broken down?”
“Take my own case,” she continued—it was indeed her own case that had
animated her. “I don’t know whether you happen to have heard, but I’m
going to marry Mr. Heaslop.”
“Mrs. Moore, may I put our difficulty to Dr. Aziz—I mean our Anglo-
Indian one?”
“Ah, that’s true. Well, by marrying Mr. Heaslop, I shall become what is
known as an Anglo-Indian.”
Her remarks pleased him, but his mind shut up tight because she had
alluded to her marriage. He was not going to be mixed up in that side of
things. “You are certain to be happy with any relative of Mrs. Moore’s,” he
said with a formal bow.
“You are absolutely unlike the others, I assure you. You will never be
rude to my people.”
“Then you are told a lie,” he flashed, for she had spoken the truth and it
touched him on the raw; it was itself an insult in these particular
circumstances. He recovered himself at once and laughed, but her error
broke up their conversation—their civilization it had almost been—which
scattered like the petals of a desert flower, and left them in the middle of the
hills. “Come along,” he said, holding out a hand to each. They got up a little
reluctantly, and addressed themselves to sightseeing.
The first cave was tolerably convenient. They skirted the puddle of water,
and then climbed up over some unattractive stones, the sun crashing on
their backs. Bending their heads, they disappeared one by one into the
interior of the hills. The small black hole gaped where their varied forms
and colours had momentarily functioned. They were sucked in like water
down a drain. Bland and bald rose the precipices; bland and glutinous the
sky that connected the precipices; solid and white, a Brahminy kite flapped
between the rocks with a clumsiness that seemed intentional. Before man,
with his itch for the seemly, had been born, the planet must have looked
thus. The kite flapped away. . . . Before birds, perhaps. . . . And then the
hole belched and humanity returned.
A Marabar cave had been horrid as far as Mrs. Moore was concerned, for
she had nearly fainted in it, and had some difficulty in preventing herself
from saying so as soon as she got into the air again. It was natural enough:
she had always suffered from faintness, and the cave had become too full,
because all their retinue followed them. Crammed with villagers and
servants, the circular chamber began to smell. She lost Aziz and Adela in
the dark, didn’t know who touched her, couldn’t breathe, and some vile
naked thing struck her face and settled on her mouth like a pad. She tried to
regain the entrance tunnel, but an influx of villagers swept her back. She hit
her head. For an instant she went mad, hitting and gasping like a fanatic.
For not only did the crush and stench alarm her; there was also a terrifying
echo.
After Mrs. Moore all the others poured out. She had given the signal for
the reflux. Aziz and Adela both emerged smiling and she did not want him
to think his treat was a failure, so smiled too. As each person emerged she
looked for a villain, but none was there, and she realized that she had been
among the mildest individuals, whose only desire was to honour her, and
that the naked pad was a poor little baby, astride its mother’s hip. Nothing
evil had been in the cave, but she had not enjoyed herself; no, she had not
enjoyed herself, and she decided not to visit a second one.
“Did you see the reflection of his match—rather pretty?” asked Adela.
“I forget . . .”
“But he says this isn’t a good cave, the best are on the Kawa Dol.”
“Very well, let’s sit down again in the shade until breakfast’s ready.”
“Ah, but that’ll disappoint him so; he has taken such trouble. You should
go on; you don’t mind.”
“Perhaps I ought to,” said the girl, indifferent to what she did, but
desirous of being amiable.
The servants, etc., were scrambling back to the camp, pursued by grave
censures from Mohammed Latif. Aziz came to help the guests over the
rocks. He was at the summit of his powers, vigorous and humble, too sure
of himself to resent criticism, and he was sincerely pleased when he heard
they were altering his plans. “Certainly, Miss Quested, so you and I will go
together, and leave Mrs. Moore here, and we will not be long, yet we will
not hurry, because we know that will be her wish.”
“Quite right. I’m sorry not to come too, but I’m a poor walker.”
“Dear Mrs. Moore, what does anything matter so long as you are my
guests? I am very glad you are not coming, which sounds strange, but you
are treating me with true frankness, as a friend.”
“Yes, I am your friend,” she said, laying her hand on his sleeve, and
thinking, despite her fatigue, how very charming, how very good, he was,
and how deeply she desired his happiness. “So may I make another
suggestion? Don’t let so many people come with you this time. I think you
may find it more convenient.”
“Exactly, exactly,” he cried, and, rushing to the other extreme, forbade all
except one guide to accompany Miss Quested and him to the Kawa Dol. “Is
that all right?” he enquired.
“Quite right, now enjoy yourselves, and when you come back tell me all
about it.” And she sank into the deck-chair.
If they reached the big pocket of caves, they would be away nearly an
hour. She took out her writing-pad, and began, “Dear Stella, Dear Ralph,”
then stopped, and looked at the queer valley and their feeble invasion of it.
Even the elephant had become a nobody. Her eye rose from it to the
entrance tunnel. No, she did not wish to repeat that experience. The more
she thought over it, the more disagreeable and frightening it became. She
minded it much more now than at the time. The crush and the smells she
could forget, but the echo began in some indescribable way to undermine
her hold on life. Coming at a moment when she chanced to be fatigued, it
had managed to murmur, “Pathos, piety, courage—they exist, but are
identical, and so is filth. Everything exists, nothing has value.” If one had
spoken vileness in that place, or quoted lofty poetry, the comment would
have been the same—“ou-boum.” If one had spoken with the tongues of
angels and pleaded for all the unhappiness and misunderstanding in the
world, past, present, and to come, for all the misery men must undergo
whatever their opinion and position, and however much they dodge or bluff
—it would amount to the same, the serpent would descend and return to the
ceiling. Devils are of the North, and poems can be written about them, but
no one could romanticize the Marabar because it robbed infinity and
eternity of their vastness, the only quality that accommodates them to
mankind.
She tried to go on with her letter, reminding herself that she was only an
elderly woman who had got up too early in the morning and journeyed too
far, that the despair creeping over her was merely her despair, her personal
weakness, and that even if she got a sunstroke and went mad the rest of the
world would go on. But suddenly, at the edge of her mind, Religion
appeared, poor little talkative Christianity, and she knew that all its divine
words from “Let there be Light” to “It is finished” only amounted to
“boum.” Then she was terrified over an area larger than usual; the universe,
never comprehensible to her intellect, offered no repose to her soul, the
mood of the last two months took definite form at last, and she realized that
she didn’t want to write to her children, didn’t want to communicate with
anyone, not even with God. She sat motionless with horror, and, when old
Mohammed Latif came up to her, thought he would notice a difference. For
a time she thought, “I am going to be ill,” to comfort herself, then she
surrendered to the vision. She lost all interest, even in Aziz, and the
affectionate and sincere words that she had spoken to him seemed no longer
hers but the air’s.
CHAPTER XV
Miss Quested and Aziz and a guide continued the slightly tedious
expedition. They did not talk much, for the sun was getting high. The air
felt like a warm bath into which hotter water is trickling constantly, the
temperature rose and rose, the boulders said, “I am alive,” the small stones
answered, “I am almost alive.” Between the chinks lay the ashes of little
plants. They meant to climb to the rocking-stone on the summit, but it was
too far, and they contented themselves with the big group of caves. En route
for these, they encountered several isolated caves, which the guide
persuaded them to visit, but really there was nothing to see; they lit a match,
admired its reflection in the polish, tested the echo and came out again.
Aziz was “pretty sure they should come on some interesting old carvings
soon,” but only meant he wished there were some carvings. His deeper
thoughts were about the breakfast. Symptoms of disorganization had
appeared as he left the camp. He ran over the menu: an English breakfast,
porridge and mutton chops, but some Indian dishes to cause conversation,
and pan afterwards. He had never liked Miss Quested as much as Mrs.
Moore, and had little to say to her, less than ever now that she would marry
a British official.
Nor had Adela much to say to him. If his mind was with the breakfast,
hers was mainly with her marriage. Simla next week, get rid of Antony, a
view of Thibet, tiresome wedding bells, Agra in October, see Mrs. Moore
comfortably off from Bombay—the procession passed before her again,
blurred by the heat, and then she turned to the more serious business of her
life at Chandrapore. There were real difficulties here—Ronny’s limitations
and her own—but she enjoyed facing difficulties, and decided that if she
could control her peevishness (always her weak point), and neither rail
against Anglo-India nor succumb to it, their married life ought to be happy
and profitable. She mustn’t be too theoretical; she would deal with each
problem as it came up, and trust to Ronny’s common sense and her own.
Luckily, each had abundance of common sense and good will.
But as she toiled over a rock that resembled an inverted saucer, she
thought, “What about love?” The rock was nicked by a double row of
footholds, and somehow the question was suggested by them. Where had
she seen footholds before? Oh yes, they were the pattern traced in the dust
by the wheels of the Nawab Bahadur’s car. She and Ronny—no, they did
not love each other.
“Do I take you too fast?” enquired Aziz, for she had paused, a doubtful
expression on her face. The discovery had come so suddenly that she felt
like a mountaineer whose rope had broken. Not to love the man one’s going
to marry! Not to find it out till this moment! Not even to have asked oneself
the question until now! Something else to think out. Vexed rather than
appalled, she stood still, her eyes on the sparkling rock. There was esteem
and animal contact at dusk, but the emotion that links them was absent.
Ought she to break her engagement off? She was inclined to think not—it
would cause so much trouble to others; besides, she wasn’t convinced that
love is necessary to a successful union. If love is everything, few marriages
would survive the honeymoon. “No, I’m all right, thanks,” she said, and,
her emotions well under control, resumed the climb, though she felt a bit
dashed. Aziz held her hand, the guide adhered to the surface like a lizard
and scampered about as if governed by a personal centre of gravity.
“Are you married, Dr. Aziz?” she asked, stopping again, and frowning.
The question shocked the young man very much. It challenged a new
conviction of his community, and new convictions are more sensitive than
old. If she had said, “Do you worship one god or several?” he would not
have objected. But to ask an educated Indian Moslem how many wives he
has—appalling, hideous! He was in trouble how to conceal his confusion.
“One, one in my own particular case,” he sputtered, and let go of her hand.
Quite a number of caves were at the top of the track, and thinking, “Damn
the English even at their best,” he plunged into one of them to recover his
balance. She followed at her leisure, quite unconscious that she had said the
wrong thing, and not seeing him, she also went into a cave, thinking with
half her mind “sight-seeing bores me,” and wondering with the other half
about marriage.
CHAPTER XVI
He ran back, to tell the strange news to his guest. The guide explained
that she had gone into a cave. “Which cave?”
“You should have kept her in sight, it was your duty,” said Aziz severely.
“Here are twelve caves at least. How am I to know which contains my
guest? Which is the cave I was in myself?”
The same vague gesture. And Aziz, looking again, could not even be sure
he had returned to the same group. Caves appeared in every direction—it
seemed their original spawning place—and the orifices were always the
same size. He thought, “Merciful Heavens, Miss Quested is lost,” then
pulled himself together, and began to look for her calmly.
“Shout!” he commanded.
When they had done this for awhile, the guide explained that to shout is
useless, because a Marabar cave can hear no sound but its own. Aziz wiped
his head, and sweat began to stream inside his clothes. The place was so
confusing; it was partly a terrace, partly a zigzag, and full of grooves that
led this way and that like snake-tracks. He tried to go into every one, but he
never knew where he had started. Caves got behind caves or confabulated
in pairs, and some were at the entrance of a gully.
“Come here!” he called gently, and when the guide was in reach, he
struck him in the face for a punishment. The man fled, and he was left
alone. He thought, “This is the end of my career, my guest is lost.” And
then he discovered the simple and sufficient explanation of the mystery.
Miss Quested wasn’t lost. She had joined the people in the car—friends
of hers, no doubt, Mr. Heaslop perhaps. He had a sudden glimpse of her, far
down the gully—only a glimpse, but there she was quite plain, framed
between rocks, and speaking to another lady. He was so relieved that he did
not think her conduct odd. Accustomed to sudden changes of plan, he
supposed that she had run down the Kawa Dol impulsively, in the hope of a
little drive. He started back alone towards his camp, and almost at once
caught sight of something which would have disquieted him very much a
moment before: Miss Quested’s field-glasses. They were lying at the verge
of a cave, half-way down an entrance tunnel. He tried to hang them over his
shoulder, but the leather strap had broken, so he put them into his pocket
instead. When he had gone a few steps, he thought she might have dropped
something else, so he went back to look.
But the previous difficulty recurred: he couldn’t identify the cave. Down
in the plain he heard the car starting; however, he couldn’t catch a second
glimpse of that. So he scrambled down the valley-face of the hill towards
Mrs. Moore, and here he was more successful: the colour and confusion of
his little camp soon appeared, and in the midst of it he saw an Englishman’s
topi, and beneath it—oh joy!—smiled not Mr. Heaslop, but Fielding.
“Fielding! Oh, I have so wanted you!” he cried, dropping the “Mr.” for
the first time.
And his friend ran to meet him, all so pleasant and jolly, no dignity,
shouting explanations and apologies about the train. Fielding had come in
the newly arrived car—Miss Derek’s car—that other lady was Miss Derek.
Chatter, chatter, all the servants leaving their cooking to listen. Excellent
Miss Derek! She had met Fielding by chance at the post office, said, “Why
haven’t you gone to the Marabar?” heard how he missed the train, offered
to run him there and then. Another nice English lady. Where was she? Left
with car and chauffeur while Fielding found camp. Car couldn’t get up—
no, of course not—hundreds of people must go down to escort Miss Derek
and show her the way. The elephant in person. . . .
“Mr. Fielding!” called Mrs. Moore, from her patch of shade; they had not
spoken yet, because his arrival had coincided with the torrent from the hill.
“I do not know.”
“Aziz! Where have you put Miss Quested to?” Aziz, who was returning
with a drink in his hand, had to think for a moment. His heart was full of
new happiness. The picnic, after a nasty shock or two, had developed into
something beyond his dreams, for Fielding had not only come, but brought
an uninvited guest. “Oh, she’s all right,” he said; “she went down to see
Miss Derek. Well, here’s luck! Chin-chin!”
“Oh no, why?” He was disappointed, but made light of it; no doubt the
two young ladies were great friends. He would prefer to give breakfast to
all four; still, guests must do as they wish, or they become prisoners. He
went away cheerfully to inspect the porridge and the ice.
“What’s happened?” asked Fielding, who felt at once that something had
gone queer. All the way out Miss Derek had chattered about the picnic,
called it an unexpected treat, and said that she preferred Indians who didn’t
invite her to their entertainments to those who did it. Mrs. Moore sat
swinging her foot, and appeared sulky and stupid. She said: “Miss Derek is
most unsatisfactory and restless, always in a hurry, always wanting
something new; she will do anything in the world except go back to the
Indian lady who pays her.”
Fielding, who didn’t dislike Miss Derek, replied: “She wasn’t in a hurry
when I left her. There was no question of returning to Chandrapore. It looks
to me as if Miss Quested’s in the hurry.”
“Adela?—she’s never been in a hurry in her life,” said the old lady
sharply.
They knew one another very little, and felt rather awkward at being
drawn together by an Indian. The racial problem can take subtle forms. In
their case it had induced a sort of jealousy, a mutual suspicion. He tried to
goad her enthusiasm; she scarcely spoke. Aziz fetched them to breakfast.
“It is quite natural about Miss Quested,” he remarked, for he had been
working the incident a little in his mind, to get rid of its roughnesses. “We
were having an interesting talk with our guide, then the car was seen, so she
decided to go down to her friend.” Incurably inaccurate, he already thought
that this was what had occurred. He was inaccurate because he was
sensitive. He did not like to remember Miss Quested’s remark about
polygamy, because it was unworthy of a guest, so he put it from his mind,
and with it the knowledge that he had bolted into a cave to get away from
her. He was inaccurate because he desired to honour her, and—facts being
entangled—he had to arrange them in her vicinity, as one tidies the ground
after extracting a weed. Before breakfast was over, he had told a good many
lies. “She ran to her friend, I to mine,” he went on, smiling. “And now I am
with my friends and they are with me and each other, which is happiness.”
Loving them both, he expected them to love each other. They didn’t want
to. Fielding thought with hostility, “I knew these women would make
trouble,” and Mrs. Moore thought, “This man, having missed the train, tries
to blame us”; but her thoughts were feeble; since her faintness in the cave
she was sunk in apathy and cynicism. The wonderful India of her opening
weeks, with its cool nights and acceptable hints of infinity, had vanished.
Fielding ran up to see one cave. He wasn’t impressed. Then they got on
the elephant and the picnic began to unwind out of the corridor and escaped
under the precipice towards the railway station, pursued by stabs of hot air.
They came to the place where he had quitted the car. A disagreeable
thought now struck him, and he said: “Aziz, exactly where and how did you
leave Miss Quested?”
Fielding could see nothing but the crease. Everywhere else the glaring
granite plunged into the earth.
“Yes, yes, she and Miss Derek, and go off in the car.”
“I hope she wasn’t ill,” pursued the Englishman. The crease continued as
a nullah across the plain, the water draining off this way towards the
Ganges.
“She would have wanted me, if she was ill, to attend her.”
“I see you’re worrying, let’s talk of other things,” he said kindly. “Miss
Quested was always to do what she wished, it was our arrangement. I see
you are worrying on my account, but really I don’t mind, I never notice
trifles.”
So touchy as a rule, Aziz was unassailable. The wings that uplifted him
did not falter, because he was a Mogul emperor who had done his duty.
Perched on his elephant, he watched the Marabar Hills recede, and saw
again, as provinces of his kingdom, the grim untidy plain, the frantic and
feeble movements of the buckets, the white shrines, the shallow graves, the
suave sky, the snake that looked like a tree. He had given his guests as good
a time as he could, and if they came late or left early that was not his affair.
Mrs. Moore slept, swaying against the rods of the howdah, Mohammed
Latif embraced her with efficiency and respect, and by his own side sat
Fielding, whom he began to think of as “Cyril.”
“Aziz, have you figured out what this picnic will cost you?”
“Sh! my dear chap, don’t mention that part. Hundreds and hundreds of
rupees. The completed account will be too awful; my friends’ servants have
robbed me right and left, and as for an elephant, she apparently eats gold. I
can trust you not to repeat this. And M.L.—please employ initials, he
listens—is far the worst of all.”
“He is plenty of good for himself; his dishonesty will ruin me.”
“Oh, kick you out? Why should I trouble over that dirty job? Leave it to
the politicians. . . . No, when I was a student I got excited over your damned
countrymen, certainly; but if they’ll let me get on with my profession and
not be too rude to me officially, I really don’t ask for more.”
“Very well, so we will. Come along, Aziz, old man; nothing to fuss
about, some blunder.”
“Dr. Aziz, will you kindly come?—a closed conveyance stands in
readiness.”
The young man sobbed—his first sound—and tried to escape out of the
opposite door on to the line.
“Oh, for God’s sake——” cried Fielding, his own nerves breaking under
the contagion, and pulled him back before a scandal started, and shook him
like a baby. A second later, and he would have been out, whistles blowing, a
man-hunt. . . . “Dear fellow, we’re coming to McBryde together, and
enquire what’s gone wrong—he’s a decent fellow, it’s all unintentional . . .
he’ll apologize. Never, never act the criminal.”
“Nothing of the sort. Put your hat straight and take my arm. I’ll see you
through.”
“Ah, thank God, he comes,” the Inspector exclaimed. They emerged into
the midday heat, arm in arm. The station was seething. Passengers and
porters rushed out of every recess, many Government servants, more police.
Ronny escorted Mrs. Moore. Mohammed Latif began wailing. And before
they could make their way through the chaos, Fielding was called off by the
authoritative tones of Mr. Turton, and Aziz went on to prison alone.
CHAPTER XVII
The Collector had watched the arrest from the interior of the waiting-
room, and throwing open its perforated doors of zinc, he was now revealed
like a god in a shrine. When Fielding entered the doors clapped to, and were
guarded by a servant, while a punkah, to mark the importance of the
moment, flapped dirty petticoats over their heads. The Collector could not
speak at first. His face was white, fanatical, and rather beautiful—the
expression that all English faces were to wear at Chandrapore for many
days. Always brave and unselfish, he was now fused by some white and
generous heat; he would have killed himself, obviously, if he had thought it
right to do so. He spoke at last. “The worst thing in my whole career has
happened,” he said. “Miss Quested has been insulted in one of the Marabar
caves.”
He nodded.
“I called you to preserve you from the odium that would attach to you if
you were seen accompanying him to the Police Station,” said Turton,
paying no attention to his protest, indeed scarcely hearing it.
He repeated “Oh no,” like a fool. He couldn’t frame other words. He felt
that a mass of madness had arisen and tried to overwhelm them all; it had to
be shoved back into its pit somehow, and he didn’t know how to do it,
because he did not understand madness: he had always gone about sensibly
and quietly until a difficulty came right. “Who lodges this infamous
charge?” he asked, pulling himself together.
“I cannot pass that last remark,” said the Collector, waking up to the
knowledge that they differed, and trembling with fury. “You will withdraw
it instantly. It is the type of remark you have permitted yourself to make
ever since you came to Chandrapore.”
“The news gave me a very great shock, so I must ask you to forgive me. I
cannot believe that Dr. Aziz is guilty.”
“If I may venture to say so, no,” said Fielding, also going white, but
sticking to his point. “I make no reflection on the good faith of the two
ladies, but the charge they are bringing against Aziz rests upon some
mistake, and five minutes will clear it up. The man’s manner is perfectly
natural; besides, I know him to be incapable of infamy.”
“It does indeed rest upon a mistake,” came the thin, biting voice of the
other. “It does indeed. I have had twenty-five years’ experience of this
country”—he paused, and “twenty-five years” seemed to fill the waiting-
room with their staleness and ungenerosity—“and during those twenty-five
years I have never known anything but disaster result when English people
and Indians attempt to be intimate socially. Intercourse, yes. Courtesy, by
all means. Intimacy—never, never. The whole weight of my authority is
against it. I have been in charge at Chandrapore for six years, and if
everything has gone smoothly, if there has been mutual respect and esteem,
it is because both peoples kept to this simple rule. New-comers set our
traditions aside, and in an instant what you see happens, the work of years
is undone and the good name of my District ruined for a generation. I—I—
can’t see the end of this day’s work, Mr. Fielding. You, who are imbued
with modern ideas—no doubt you can. I wish I had never lived to see its
beginning, I know that. It is the end of me. That a lady, that a young lady
engaged to my most valued subordinate—that she—an English girl fresh
from England—that I should have lived——”
Involved in his own emotions, he broke down. What he had said was
both dignified and pathetic, but had it anything to do with Aziz? Nothing at
all, if Fielding was right. It is impossible to regard a tragedy from two
points of view, and whereas Turton had decided to avenge the girl, he hoped
to save the man. He wanted to get away and talk to McBryde, who had
always been friendly to him, was on the whole sensible, and could, anyhow,
be trusted to keep cool.
“I shall certainly come, sir, and I am most grateful to you for all the
trouble you have taken over me. May I venture to ask—where Miss
Quested is.”
But the Collector looked at him sternly, because he was keeping his head.
He had not gone mad at the phrase “an English girl fresh from England,” he
had not rallied to the banner of race. He was still after facts, though the herd
had decided on emotion. Nothing enrages Anglo-India more than the
lantern of reason if it is exhibited for one moment after its extinction is
decreed. All over Chandrapore that day the Europeans were putting aside
their normal personalities and sinking themselves in their community. Pity,
wrath, heroism, filled them, but the power of putting two and two together
was annihilated.
“That he followed her into the cave and made insulting advances. She hit
at him with her field-glasses; he pulled at them and the strap broke, and that
is how she got away. When we searched him just now, they were in his
pocket.”
“Oh no, oh no, no; it’ll be cleared up in five minutes,” he cried again.
The strap had been newly broken, the eye-piece was jammed. The logic
of evidence said “Guilty.”
“There was an echo that appears to have frightened her. Did you go into
those caves?”
“I saw one of them. There was an echo. Did it get on her nerves?”
“No. She had got among some cactuses. Miss Derek saved her life
coming just then—she was beginning to fling herself about. She helped her
down to the car. Miss Quested couldn’t stand the Indian driver, cried, ‘Keep
him away’—and it was that that put our friend on the track of what had
happened. They made straight for our bungalow, and are there now. That’s
the story as far as I know it yet. She sent the driver to join you. I think she
behaved with great sense.”
“I was afraid you’ld say that. I should very much like to.”
“She is in no state to see anyone. Besides, you don’t know her well.”
“Hardly at all. . . . But you see I believe she’s under some hideous
delusion, and that that wretched boy is innocent.”
The policeman started in surprise, and a shadow passed over his face, for
he could not bear his dispositions to be upset. “I had no idea that was in
your mind,” he said, and looked for support at the signed deposition, which
lay before him.
“Those field-glasses upset me for a minute, but I’ve thought since: it’s
impossible that, having attempted to assault her, he would put her glasses
into his pocket.”
“Quite possible, I’m afraid; when an Indian goes bad, he goes not only
very bad, but very queer.”
“I don’t follow.”
“How should you? When you think of crime you think of English crime.
The psychology here is different. I dare say you’ll tell me next that he was
quite normal when he came down from the hill to greet you. No reason he
should not be. Read any of the Mutiny records; which, rather than the
Bhagavad Gita, should be your Bible in this country. Though I’m not sure
that the one and the other are not closely connected. Am I not being
beastly? But, you see, Fielding, as I’ve said to you once before, you’re a
schoolmaster, and consequently you come across these people at their best.
That’s what puts you wrong. They can be charming as boys. But I know
them as they really are, after they have developed into men. Look at this,
for instance.” He held up Aziz’ pocket-case. “I am going through the
contents. They are not edifying. Here is a letter from a friend who
apparently keeps a brothel.”
McBryde stopped, naively puzzled. It was obvious to him that any two
sahibs ought to pool all they knew about any Indian, and he could not think
where the objection came in.
“I dare say you have the right to throw stones at a young man for doing
that, but I haven’t. I did the same at his age.”
“Miss Quested really cannot be seen? You do know that for a certainty?”
“You have never explained to me what’s in your mind here. Why on earth
do you want to see her?”
“On the off chance of her recanting before you send in that report and
he’s committed for trial, and the whole thing goes to blazes. Old man, don’t
argue about this, but do of your goodness just ring up your wife or Miss
Derek and enquire. It’ll cost you nothing.”
“It’s no use ringing up them,” he replied, stretching out for the telephone.
“Callendar settles a question like that, of course. You haven’t grasped that
she’s seriously ill.”
“He’s sure to refuse, it’s all he exists for,” said the other desperately.
The expected answer came back: the Major would not hear of the patient
being troubled.
“I only wanted to ask her whether she is certain, dead certain, that it was
Aziz who followed her into the cave.”
“But I wanted to ask her. I want someone who believes in him to ask
her.”
They were silent. Another card was brought into the office—
Hamidullah’s. The opposite army was gathering.
He hesitated. “His own people seem in touch with him all right.”
“Oh, good, good,” he cried, feeling that every earth was being stopped.
“One’s got to breathe occasionally, at least I have. I mayn’t see her, and
now I mayn’t see him. I promised him to come up here with him to you, but
Turton called me off before I could get two steps.”
“No, you don’t see entirely. He not only loses himself, he weakens his
friends. If you leave the line, you leave a gap in the line. These jackals”—
he pointed at the lawyers’ cards—“are looking with all their eyes for a
gap.”
“City Magistrate.”
“Ah, yes, Mr. Fielding; but when once an Indian has been arrested, we do
not know where it will stop.” His manner was deferential. “You are very
good to greet me in this public fashion, I appreciate it; but, Mr. Fielding,
nothing convinces a magistrate except evidence. Did Mr. McBryde make
any remark when my card came in? Do you think my application annoyed
him, will prejudice him against my friend at all? If so, I will gladly retire.”
“Ah, it’s all very well for you to speak like that, but we have to live in
this country.”
Fielding demurred; this seemed to him going to the other extreme. Aziz
must be cleared, but with a minimum of racial hatred. Amritrao was loathed
at the club. His retention would be regarded as a political challenge.
“Oh no, we must hit with all our strength. When I saw my friend’s
private papers carried in just now in the arms of a dirty policeman, I said to
myself, ‘Amritrao is the man to clear up this.’”
“Good-bye, then, my dear Hamidullah (we must drop the ‘Mr.’ now).
Give Aziz my love when you see him, and tell him to keep calm, calm,
calm. I shall go back to the College now. If you want me, ring me up; if you
don’t, don’t, for I shall be very busy.”
“Good-bye, my dear Fielding, and you actually are on our side against
your own people?”
“Yes. Definitely.”
He regretted taking sides. To slink through India unlabelled was his aim.
Henceforward he would be called “anti-British,” “seditious”—terms that
bored him, and diminished his utility. He foresaw that besides being a
tragedy, there would be a muddle; already he saw several tiresome little
knots, and each time his eye returned to them, they were larger. Born in
freedom, he was not afraid of muddle, but he recognized its existence.
This section of the day concluded in a queer vague talk with Professor
Godbole. The interminable affair of the Russell’s Viper was again in
question. Some weeks before, one of the masters at the College, an
unpopular Parsi, had found a Russell’s Viper nosing round his class-room.
Perhaps it had crawled in of itself, but perhaps it had not, and the staff still
continued to interview their Principal about it, and to take up his time with
their theories. The reptile is so poisonous that he did not like to cut them
short, and this they knew. Thus when his mind was bursting with other
troubles and he was debating whether he should compose a letter of appeal
to Miss Quested, he was obliged to listen to a speech which lacked both
basis and conclusion, and floated through air. At the end of it Godbole said,
“May I now take my leave?”—always an indication that he had not come to
his point yet. “Now I take my leave, I must tell you how glad I am to hear
that after all you succeeded in reaching the Marabar. I feared my
unpunctuality had prevented you, but you went (a far pleasanter method) in
Miss Derek’s car. I hope the expedition was a successful one.”
He stared again—a most useless operation, for no eye could see what lay
at the bottom of the Brahman’s mind, and yet he had a mind and a heart too,
and all his friends trusted him, without knowing why. “I am most frightfully
cut up,” he said.
“So I saw at once on entering your office. I must not detain you, but I
have a small private difficulty on which I want your help; I am leaving your
service shortly, as you know.”
“Yes, alas!”
Fielding sunk his head on his arms; really, Indians were sometimes
unbearable.
“The point—the point on which I desire your help is this: what name
should be given to the school?”
“A name? A name for a school?” he said, feeling sickish suddenly, as he
had done in the waiting-room.
“Godbole!”
The old fellow put his hands together, and looked sly and charming.
“That is for the Court to decide. The verdict will be in strict accordance
with the evidence, I make no doubt.”
“Yes, yes, but your personal opinion. Here’s a man we both like,
generally esteemed; he lives here quietly doing his work. Well, what’s one
to make of it? Would he or would he not do such a thing?”
“Ah, that is rather a different question from your previous one, and also
more difficult: I mean difficult in our philosophy. Dr. Aziz is a most worthy
young man, I have a great regard for him; but I think you are asking me
whether the individual can commit good actions or evil actions, and that is
rather difficult for us.” He spoke without emotion and in short tripping
syllables.
“I ask you: did he do it or not? Is that plain? I know he didn’t, and from
that I start. I mean to get at the true explanation in a couple of days. My last
notion is that it’s the guide who went round with them. Malice on Miss
Quested’s part—it couldn’t be that, though Hamidullah thinks so. She has
certainly had some appalling experience. But you tell me, oh no—because
good and evil are the same.”
“Excuse me, you are now again changing the basis of our discussion. We
were discussing good and evil. Suffering is merely a matter for the
individual. If a young lady has sunstroke, that is a matter of no significance
to the universe. Oh no, not at all. Oh no, not the least. It is an isolated
matter, it only concerns herself. If she thought her head did not ache, she
would not be ill, and that would end it. But it is far otherwise in the case of
good and evil. They are not what we think them, they are what they are, and
each of us has contributed to both.”
“Oh no, excuse me once again. Good and evil are different, as their
names imply. But, in my own humble opinion, they are both of them
aspects of my Lord. He is present in the one, absent in the other, and the
difference between presence and absence is great, as great as my feeble
mind can grasp. Yet absence implies presence, absence is not non-existence,
and we are therefore entitled to repeat, ‘Come, come, come, come.’” And in
the same breath, as if to cancel any beauty his words might have contained,
he added, “But did you have time to visit any of the interesting Marabar
antiquities?”
“Did you not even see the tank by the usual camping ground?” he
nagged.
“That is good, then you saw the Tank of the Dagger.” And he related a
legend which might have been acceptable if he had told it at the tea-party a
fortnight ago. It concerned a Hindu Rajah who had slain his own sister’s
son, and the dagger with which he performed the deed remained clamped to
his hand until in the course of years he came to the Marabar Hills, where he
was thirsty and wanted to drink but saw a thirsty cow and ordered the water
to be offered to her first, which, when done, “dagger fell from his hand, and
to commemorate miracle he built Tank.” Professor Godbole’s conversations
frequently culminated in a cow. Fielding received this one in gloomy
silence.
In the afternoon he obtained a permit and saw Aziz, but found him
unapproachable through misery. “You deserted me,” was the only coherent
remark. He went away to write his letter to Miss Quested. Even if it reached
her, it would do no good, and probably the McBrydes would withhold it.
Miss Quested did pull him up short. She was such a dry, sensible girl, and
quite without malice: the last person in Chandrapore wrongfully to accuse
an Indian.
CHAPTER XX
Although Miss Quested had not made herself popular with the English,
she brought out all that was fine in their character. For a few hours an
exalted emotion gushed forth, which the women felt even more keenly than
the men, if not for so long. “What can we do for our sister?” was the only
thought of Mesdames Callendar and Lesley, as they drove through the
pelting heat to enquire. Mrs. Turton was the only visitor admitted to the
sick-room. She came out ennobled by an unselfish sorrow. “She is my own
darling girl,” were the words she spoke, and then, remembering that she had
called her “not pukka” and resented her engagement to young Heaslop, she
began to cry. No one had ever seen the Collector’s wife cry. Capable of
tears—yes, but always reserving them for some adequate occasion, and now
it had come. Ah, why had they not all been kinder to the stranger, more
patient, given her not only hospitality but their hearts? The tender core of
the heart that is so seldom used—they employed it for a little, under the
stimulus of remorse. If all is over (as Major Callendar implied), well, all is
over, and nothing can be done, but they retained some responsibility in her
grievous wrong that they couldn’t define. If she wasn’t one of them, they
ought to have made her one, and they could never do that now, she had
passed beyond their invitation. “Why don’t one think more of other
people?” sighed pleasure-loving Miss Derek. These regrets only lasted in
their pure form for a few hours. Before sunset, other considerations
adulterated them, and the sense of guilt (so strangely connected with our
first sight of any suffering) had begun to wear away.
People drove into the club with studious calm—the jog-trot of country
gentlefolk between green hedgerows, for the natives must not suspect that
they were agitated. They exchanged the usual drinks, but everything tasted
different, and then they looked out at the palisade of cactuses stabbing the
purple throat of the sky; they realized that they were thousands of miles
from any scenery that they understood. The club was fuller than usual, and
several parents had brought their children into the rooms reserved for
adults, which gave the air of the Residency at Lucknow. One young mother
—a brainless but most beautiful girl—sat on a low ottoman in the smoking-
room with her baby in her arms; her husband was away in the district, and
she dared not return to her bungalow in case the “niggers attacked.” The
wife of a small railway official, she was generally snubbed; but this
evening, with her abundant figure and masses of corn-gold hair, she
symbolized all that is worth fighting and dying for; more permanent a
symbol, perhaps, than poor Adela. “Don’t worry, Mrs. Blakiston, those
drums are only Mohurram,” the men would tell her.
“Then they’ve started,” she moaned, clasping the infant and rather
wishing he would not blow bubbles down his chin at such a moment as this.
“No, of course not, and anyhow, they’re not coming to the club.” “And
they’re not coming to the Burra Sahib’s bungalow either, my dear, and
that’s where you and your baby’ll sleep tonight,” answered Mrs. Turton,
towering by her side like Pallas Athene, and determining in the future not to
be such a snob.
The Collector clapped his hands for silence. He was much calmer than
when he had flown out at Fielding. He was indeed always calmer when he
addressed several people than in a tête-à-tête. “I want to talk specially to the
ladies,” he said. “Not the least cause for alarm. Keep cool, keep cool. Don’t
go out more than you can help, don’t go into the city, don’t talk before your
servants. That’s all.”
“Harry, is there any news from the city?” asked his wife, standing at
some distance from him, and also assuming her public-safety voice. The
rest were silent during the august colloquy.
“Merely the preparations for it—the Procession is not till next week.”
“That’s exactly the sort of thing that must not be said,” he remarked,
pointing at her. “Mrs. Callendar, be more careful than that, please, in these
times.”
“I . . . well, I . . .” She was not offended, his severity made her feel safe.
“I hope Callendar may be able to let us know how things are going
before long.”
“I fail to see how that last question can be termed a necessary question,”
said Mrs. Turton.
“Will all ladies leave the smoking-room now, please?” he cried, clapping
his hands again. “And remember what I have said. We look to you to help
us through a difficult time, and you can help us by behaving as if everything
is normal. It is all I ask. Can I rely on you?”
“Yes, indeed, Burra Sahib,” they chorused out of peaked, anxious faces.
They moved out, subdued yet elated, Mrs. Blakiston in their midst like a
sacred flame. His simple words had reminded them that they were an
outpost of Empire. By the side of their compassionate love for Adela
another sentiment sprang up which was to strangle it in the long run. Its first
signs were prosaic and small. Mrs. Turton made her loud, hard jokes at
bridge, Mrs. Lesley began to knit a comforter.
When the smoking-room was clear, the Collector sat on the edge of a
table, so that he could dominate without formality. His mind whirled with
contradictory impulses. He wanted to avenge Miss Quested and punish
Fielding, while remaining scrupulously fair. He wanted to flog every native
that he saw, but to do nothing that would lead to a riot or to the necessity for
military intervention. The dread of having to call in the troops was vivid to
him; soldiers put one thing straight, but leave a dozen others crooked, and
they love to humiliate the civilian administration. One soldier was in the
room this evening—a stray subaltern from a Gurkha regiment; he was a
little drunk, and regarded his presence as providential. The Collector
sighed. There seemed nothing for it but the old weary business of
compromise and moderation. He longed for the good old days when an
Englishman could satisfy his own honour and no questions asked
afterwards. Poor young Heaslop had taken a step in this direction, by
refusing bail, but the Collector couldn’t feel this was wise of poor young
Heaslop. Not only would the Nawab Bahadur and others be angry, but the
Government of India itself also watches—and behind it is that caucus of
cranks and cravens, the British Parliament. He had constantly to remind
himself that, in the eyes of the law, Aziz was not yet guilty, and the effort
fatigued him.
The others, less responsible, could behave naturally. They had started
speaking of “women and children”—that phrase that exempts the male from
sanity when it has been repeated a few times. Each felt that all he loved best
in the world was at stake, demanded revenge, and was filled with a not
unpleasing glow, in which the chilly and half-known features of Miss
Quested vanished, and were replaced by all that is sweetest and warmest in
the private life. “But it’s the women and children,” they repeated, and the
Collector knew he ought to stop them intoxicating themselves, but he hadn’t
the heart. “They ought to be compelled to give hostages,” etc. Many of the
said women and children were leaving for the Hill Station in a few days,
and the suggestion was made that they should be packed off at once in a
special train.
“And a jolly suggestion,” the subaltern cried. “The army’s got to come in
sooner or later. (A special train was in his mind inseparable from troops.)
This would never have happened if Barabas Hill was under military control.
Station a bunch of Gurkhas at the entrance of the cave was all that was
wanted.”
“Mrs. Blakiston was saying if only there were a few Tommies,” remarked
someone.
The Collector nodded at him pleasantly, and said to his own people:
“Don’t start carrying arms about. I want everything to go on precisely as
usual, until there’s cause for the contrary. Get the womenfolk off to the
hills, but do it quietly, and for Heaven’s sake no more talk of special trains.
Never mind what you think or feel. Possibly I have feelings too. One
isolated Indian has attempted—is charged with an attempted crime.” He
flipped his forehead hard with his finger-nail, and they all realized that he
felt as deeply as they did, and they loved him, and determined not to
increase his difficulties. “Act upon that fact until there are more facts,” he
concluded. “Assume every Indian is an angel.”
The smoking-room door opened, and let in a feminine buzz. Mrs. Turton
called out, “She’s better,” and from both sections of the community a sigh
of joy and relief rose. The Civil Surgeon, who had brought the good news,
came in. His cumbrous, pasty face looked ill-tempered. He surveyed the
company, saw Fielding crouched below him on an ottoman, and said,
“H’m!”
Everyone began pressing him for details. “No one’s out of danger in this
country as long as they have a temperature,” was his answer. He appeared
to resent his patient’s recovery, and no one who knew the old Major and his
ways was surprised at this.
“Temperature.”
“So she may be. I guarantee nothing. I really can’t be plagued with
questions, Lesley.”
Fielding took his pipe from his mouth and looked at it thoughtfully.
Thinking him afraid, the other went on: “I understood an Englishman was
to accompany the expedition. That is why I gave in.”
“No one blames you, my dear Callendar,” said the Collector, looking
down. “We are all to blame in the sense that we ought to have seen the
expedition was insufficiently guaranteed, and stopped it. I knew about it
myself; we lent our car this morning to take the ladies to the station. We are
all implicated in that sense, but not an atom of blame attaches to you
personally.”
“I don’t feel that. I wish I could. Responsibility is a very awful thing, and
I’ve no use for the man who shirks it.” His eyes were directed on Fielding.
Those who knew that Fielding had undertaken to accompany and missed
the early train were sorry for him; it was what is to be expected when a man
mixes himself up with natives; always ends in some indignity. The
Collector, who knew more, kept silent, for the official in him still hoped
that Fielding would toe the line. The conversation turned to women and
children again, and under its cover Major Callendar got hold of the
subaltern, and set him on to bait the schoolmaster. Pretending to be more
drunk than he really was, he began to make semi-offensive remarks.
“Heaslop warned Miss Quested’s servant last night never to lose sight of
her. Prisoner got hold of this and managed to leave him behind. Bribed him.
Heaslop has just found out the whole story, with names and sums—a well-
known pimp to those people gave the money, Mohammed Latif by name.
So much for the servant. What about the Englishman—our friend here?
How did they get rid of him? Money again.”
Having shot this bolt, the Major prepared the next. “Heaslop also found
out something from his mother. Aziz paid a herd of natives to suffocate her
in a cave. That was the end of her, or would have been only she got out.
Nicely planned, wasn’t it? Neat. Then he could go on with the girl. He and
she and a guide, provided by the same Mohammed Latif. Guide now can’t
be found. Pretty.” His voice broke into a roar. “It’s not the time for sitting
down. It’s the time for action. Call in the troops and clear the bazaars.”
“Oh, nothing. I only heard a rumour that a certain member here present
has been seeing the prisoner this afternoon. You can’t run with the hare and
hunt with the hounds, at least not in this country.”
The young man looked exhausted and tragic, also gentler than usual. He
always showed deference to his superiors, but now it came straight from his
heart. He seemed to appeal for their protection in the insult that had befallen
him, and they, in instinctive homage, rose to their feet. But every human act
in the East is tainted with officialism, and while honouring him they
condemned Aziz and India. Fielding realized this, and he remained seated.
It was an ungracious, a caddish thing to do, perhaps an unsound thing to do,
but he felt he had been passive long enough, and that he might be drawn
into the wrong current if he did not make a stand. Ronny, who had not seen
him, said in husky tones, “Oh please—please all sit down, I only want to
listen what has been decided.”
“Heaslop, I’m telling them I’m against any show of force,” said the
Collector apologetically. “I don’t know whether you will feel as I do, but
that is how I am situated. When the verdict is obtained, it will be another
matter.”
“You thought badly of her earlier, did you not, Major? That’s why I
refused bail.”
“Mr. Fielding, what has prevented you from standing up?” said the
Collector, entering the fray at last. It was the attack for which Fielding had
waited, and to which he must reply.
“Certainly.”
“You have a right to hold that opinion if you choose, but pray is that any
reason why you should insult Mr. Heaslop?”
“Certainly.”
“You have not answered my question. Why did you not stand when Mr.
Heaslop entered?”
“With all deference, sir, I am not here to answer questions, but to make a
personal statement, and I have concluded it.”
“May I ask whether you have taken over charge of this District?”
“One moment, Mr. Fielding. You are not to go yet, please. Before you
leave the club, from which you do very well to resign, you will express
some detestation of the crime, and you will apologize to Mr. Heaslop.”
The Collector, who never spoke otherwise, was so infuriated that he lost
his head. He cried, “Leave this room at once, and I deeply regret that I
demeaned myself to meet you at the station. You have sunk to the level of
your associates; you are weak, weak, that is what is wrong with you——”
“I want to leave the room, but cannot while this gentleman prevents me,”
said Fielding lightly; the subaltern had got across his path.
It was the only appeal that could have saved the situation. Whatever
Heaslop wished must be done. There was a slight scuffle at the door, from
which Fielding was propelled, a little more quickly than is natural, into the
room where the ladies were playing cards. “Fancy if I’d fallen or got
angry,” he thought. Of course he was a little angry. His peers had never
offered him violence or called him weak before, besides Heaslop had
heaped coals of fire on his head. He wished he had not picked the quarrel
over poor suffering Heaslop, when there were cleaner issues at hand.
However, there it was, done, muddled through, and to cool himself and
regain mental balance he went on to the upper verandah for a moment,
where the first object he saw was the Marabar Hills. At this distance and
hour they leapt into beauty; they were Monsalvat, Walhalla, the towers of a
cathedral, peopled with saints and heroes, and covered with flowers. What
miscreant lurked in them, presently to be detected by the activities of the
law? Who was the guide, and had he been found yet? What was the “echo”
of which the girl complained? He did not know, but presently he would
know. Great is information, and she shall prevail. It was the last moment of
the light, and as he gazed at the Marabar Hills they seemed to move
graciously towards him like a queen, and their charm became the sky’s. At
the moment they vanished they were everywhere, the cool benediction of
the night descended, the stars sparkled, and the whole universe was a hill.
Lovely, exquisite moment—but passing the Englishman with averted face
and on swift wings. He experienced nothing himself; it was as if someone
had told him there was such a moment, and he was obliged to believe. And
he felt dubious and discontented suddenly, and wondered whether he was
really and truly successful as a human being. After forty years’ experience,
he had learnt to manage his life and make the best of it on advanced
European lines, had developed his personality, explored his limitations,
controlled his passions—and he had done it all without becoming either
pedantic or worldly. A creditable achievement, but as the moment passed,
he felt he ought to have been working at something else the whole time,—
he didn’t know at what, never would know, never could know, and that was
why he felt sad.
CHAPTER XXI
Adela lay for several days in the McBrydes’ bungalow. She had been
touched by the sun, also hundreds of cactus spines had to be picked out of
her flesh. Hour after hour Miss Derek and Mrs. McBryde examined her
through magnifying glasses, always coming on fresh colonies, tiny hairs
that might snap off and be drawn into the blood if they were neglected. She
lay passive beneath their fingers, which developed the shock that had begun
in the cave. Hitherto she had not much minded whether she was touched or
not: her senses were abnormally inert and the only contact she anticipated
was that of mind. Everything now was transferred to the surface of her
body, which began to avenge itself, and feed unhealthily. People seemed
very much alike, except that some would come close while others kept
away. “In space things touch, in time things part,” she repeated to herself
while the thorns were being extracted—her brain so weak that she could not
decide whether the phrase was a philosophy or a pun.
They were kind to her, indeed over-kind, the men too respectful, the
women too sympathetic; whereas Mrs. Moore, the only visitor she wanted,
kept away. No one understood her trouble, or knew why she vibrated
between hard commonsense and hysteria. She would begin a speech as if
nothing particular had happened. “I went into this detestable cave,” she
would say dryly, “and I remember scratching the wall with my finger-nail,
to start the usual echo, and then as I was saying there was this shadow, or
sort of shadow, down the entrance tunnel, bottling me up. It seemed like an
age, but I suppose the whole thing can’t have lasted thirty seconds really. I
hit at him with the glasses, he pulled me round the cave by the strap, it
broke, I escaped, that’s all. He never actually touched me once. It all seems
such nonsense.” Then her eyes would fill with tears. “Naturally I’m upset,
but I shall get over it.” And then she would break down entirely, and the
women would feel she was one of themselves and cry too, and men in the
next room murmur: “Good God, good God!” No one realized that she
thought tears vile, a degradation more subtle than anything endured in the
Marabar, a negation of her advanced outlook and the natural honesty of her
mind. Adela was always trying to “think the incident out,” always
reminding herself that no harm had been done. There was “the shock,” but
what is that? For a time her own logic would convince her, then she would
hear the echo again, weep, declare she was unworthy of Ronny, and hope
her assailant would get the maximum penalty. After one of these bouts, she
longed to go out into the bazaars and ask pardon from everyone she met, for
she felt in some vague way that she was leaving the world worse than she
found it. She felt that it was her crime, until the intellect, reawakening,
pointed out to her that she was inaccurate here, and set her again upon her
sterile round.
If only she could have seen Mrs. Moore! The old lady had not been well
either, and was disinclined to come out, Ronny reported. And consequently
the echo flourished, raging up and down like a nerve in the faculty of her
hearing, and the noise in the cave, so unimportant intellectually, was
prolonged over the surface of her life. She had struck the polished wall—for
no reason—and before the comment had died away, he followed her, and
the climax was the falling of her field-glasses. The sound had spouted after
her when she escaped, and was going on still like a river that gradually
floods the plain. Only Mrs. Moore could drive it back to its source and seal
the broken reservoir. Evil was loose . . . she could even hear it entering the
lives of others. . . . And Adela spent days in this atmosphere of grief and
depression. Her friends kept up their spirits by demanding holocausts of
natives, but she was too worried and weak to do that.
When the cactus thorns had all been extracted, and her temperature fallen
to normal, Ronny came to fetch her away. He was worn with indignation
and suffering, and she wished she could comfort him; but intimacy seemed
to caricature itself, and the more they spoke the more wretched and self-
conscious they became. Practical talk was the least painful, and he and
McBryde now told her one or two things which they had concealed from
her during the crisis, by the doctor’s orders. She learnt for the first time of
the Mohurram troubles. There had nearly been a riot. The last day of the
festival, the great procession left its official route, and tried to enter the civil
station, and a telephone had been cut because it interrupted the advance of
one of the larger paper towers. McBryde and his police had pulled the thing
straight—a fine piece of work. They passed on to another and very painful
subject: the trial. She would have to appear in court, identify the prisoner,
and submit to cross-examination by an Indian lawyer.
“Certainly, and I shall be there myself,” Ronny replied. “The case won’t
come before me; they’ve objected to me on personal grounds. It will be at
Chandrapore—we thought at one time it would be transferred elsewhere.”
“Miss Quested realizes what all that means, though,” said McBryde
sadly. “The case will come before Das.”
“That’s—that’s the way to face it. You have the pluck, Miss Quested.” He
grew very bitter over the arrangements, and called them “the fruits of
democracy.” In the old days an Englishwoman would not have had to
appear, nor would any Indian have dared to discuss her private affairs. She
would have made her deposition, and judgment would have followed. He
apologized to her for the condition of the country, with the result that she
gave one of her sudden little shoots of tears. Ronny wandered miserably
about the room while she cried, treading upon the flowers of the Kashmir
carpet that so inevitably covered it or drumming on the brass Benares
bowls. “I do this less every day, I shall soon be quite well,” she said,
blowing her nose and feeling hideous.
“A most lamentable thing has happened. The defence got hold of him.”
“That’s your way of putting it, but a man can be a crank without being a
cad. Miss Quested had better know how he behaved to you. If you don’t tell
her, somebody else will.” He told her. “He is now the mainstay of the
defence, I needn’t add. He is the one righteous Englishman in a horde of
tyrants. He receives deputations from the bazaar, and they all chew betel nut
and smear one another’s hands with scent. It is not easy to enter into the
mind of such a man. His students are on strike—out of enthusiasm for him
they won’t learn their lessons. If it weren’t for Fielding one would never
have had the Mohurram trouble. He has done a very grave disservice to the
whole community. The letter lay here a day or two, waiting till you were
well enough, then the situation got so grave that I decided to open it in case
it was useful to us.”
“Not at all. He only has the impertinence to suggest you have made a
mistake.”
“Would that I had!” She glanced through the letter, which was careful
and formal in its wording. “Dr. Aziz is innocent,” she read. Then her voice
began to tremble again. “But think of his behaviour to you, Ronny. When
you had already to bear so much for my sake! It was shocking of him. My
dear, how can I repay you? How can one repay when one has nothing to
give? What is the use of personal relationships when everyone brings less
and less to them? I feel we ought all to go back into the desert for centuries
and try and get good. I want to begin at the beginning. All the things I
thought I’d learnt are just a hindrance, they’re not knowledge at all. I’m not
fit for personal relationships. Well, let’s go, let’s go. Of course Mr.
Fielding’s letter doesn’t count; he can think and write what he likes, only he
shouldn’t have been rude to you when you had so much to bear. That’s what
matters. . . . I don’t want your arm, I’m a magnificent walker, so don’t touch
me, please.”
“Dear old boy.” Then she cried: “Ronny, she isn’t ill too?”
The house came in sight. It was a replica of the bungalow she had left.
Puffy, red, and curiously severe, Mrs. Moore was revealed upon a sofa. She
didn’t get up when they entered, and the surprise of this roused Adela from
her own troubles.
Adela sat down and took her hand. It withdrew, and she felt that just as
others repelled her, so did she repel Mrs. Moore.
“Are you all right? You appeared all right when I left,” said Ronny, trying
not to speak crossly, but he had instructed her to give the girl a pleasant
welcome, and he could not but feel annoyed.
“I am all right,” she said heavily. “As a matter of fact I have been looking
at my return ticket. It is interchangeable, so I have a much larger choice of
boats home than I thought.”
“There is plenty of time for all such plans. How do you think our Adela
looks?”
Ronny supposed that he understood what she meant: she could not
identify or describe the particular cave, indeed almost refused to have her
mind cleared up about it, and it was recognized that the defence would try
to make capital out of this during the trial. He reassured her: the Marabar
caves were notoriously like one another; indeed, in the future they were to
be numbered in sequence with white paint.
“Yes, I mean that, at least not exactly; but there is this echo that I keep on
hearing.”
“Oh, what of the echo?” asked Mrs. Moore, paying attention to her for
the first time.
Ronny had emphasized to his mother that Adela would arrive in a morbid
state, yet she was being positively malicious.
“No—what is it? oh, do say! I felt you would be able to explain it . . . this
will comfort me so. . . .”
“If you don’t know, you don’t know; I can’t tell you.”
“I think you’re rather unkind not to say.”
“Say, say, say,” said the old lady bitterly. “As if anything can be said! I
have spent my life in saying or in listening to sayings; I have listened too
much. It is time I was left in peace. Not to die,” she added sourly. “No
doubt you expect me to die, but when I have seen you and Ronny married,
and seen the other two and whether they want to be married—I’ll retire then
into a cave of my own.” She smiled, to bring down her remark into ordinary
life and thus add to its bitterness. “Somewhere where no young people will
come asking questions and expecting answers. Some shelf.”
“Quite so, but meantime a trial is coming on,” said her son hotly, “and
the notion of most of us is that we’d better pull together and help one
another through, instead of being disagreeable. Are you going to talk like
that in the witness-box?”
“I have nothing to do with your ludicrous law courts,” she said, angry. “I
will not be dragged in at all.”
“I won’t have her dragged in, either; I won’t have any more trouble on
my account,” cried Adela, and again took the hand, which was again
withdrawn. “Her evidence is not the least essential.”
“I thought she would want to give it. No one blames you, mother, but the
fact remains that you dropped off at the first cave, and encouraged Adela to
go on with him alone, whereas if you’d been well enough to keep on too
nothing would have happened. He planned it, I know. Still, you fell into his
trap just like Fielding and Antony before you. . . . Forgive me for speaking
so plainly, but you’ve no right to take up this high and mighty attitude about
law courts. If you’re ill, that’s different; but you say you’re all right and you
seem so, in which case I thought you’ld want to take your part, I did really.”
“I’ll not have you worry her whether she’s well or ill,” said Adela,
leaving the sofa and taking his arm; then dropped it with a sigh and sat
down again. But he was pleased she had rallied to him and surveyed his
mother patronizingly. He had never felt easy with her. She was by no means
the dear old lady outsiders supposed, and India had brought her into the
open.
“I shall attend your marriage, but not your trial,” she informed them,
tapping her knee; she had become very restless, and rather ungraceful.
“Then I shall go to England.”
“Well, we’d better end this unexpected wrangle,” said the young man,
striding about. “You appear to want to be left out of everything, and that’s
enough.”
“My body, my miserable body,” she sighed. “Why isn’t it strong? Oh,
why can’t I walk away and be gone? Why can’t I finish my duties and be
gone? Why do I get headaches and puff when I walk? And all the time this
to do and that to do and this to do in your way and that to do in her way, and
everything sympathy and confusion and bearing one another’s burdens.
Why can’t this be done and that be done in my way and they be done and I
at peace? Why has anything to be done, I cannot see. Why all this marriage,
marriage? . . . The human race would have become a single person
centuries ago if marriage was any use. And all this rubbish about love, love
in a church, love in a cave, as if there is the least difference, and I held up
from my business over such trifles!”
He found, as he expected, that the poor girl was crying. And, as always,
an Indian close outside the window, a mali in this case, picking up sounds.
Much upset, he sat silent for a moment, thinking over his mother and her
senile intrusions. He wished he had never asked her to visit India, or
become under any obligation to her.
They all avoided mentioning that name. It had become synonymous with
the power of evil. He was “the prisoner,” “the person in question,” “the
defence,” and the sound of it now rang out like the first note of new
symphony.
“Well, sit down anyhow.” He looked round the room, but only two
sparrows were chasing one another. She obeyed and took hold of his hand.
He stroked it and she smiled, and gasped as if she had risen to the surface of
the water, then touched her ear.
“That’s good. You’ll be perfectly well in a few days, but you must save
yourself up for the trial. Das is a very good fellow, we shall all be with
you.”
“I don’t quite know what you’re saying, and I don’t think you do.”
When he returned, she was in a nervous crisis, but it took a different form
—she clung to him, and sobbed, “Help me to do what I ought. Aziz is good.
You heard your mother say so.”
“Heard what?”
“Pure illusion. You can’t be quite well, can you, to make up a thing like
that.”
“I was listening to all she said, as far as it could be listened to; she gets
very incoherent.”
“When her voice dropped she said it—towards the end, when she talked
about love—love—I couldn’t follow, but just then she said: ‘Doctor Aziz
never did it.’”
“Those words?”
“Never, never, my dear girl. Complete illusion. His name was not
mentioned by anyone. Look here—you are confusing this with Fielding’s
letter.”
“That’s it, that’s it,” she cried, greatly relieved. “I knew I’d heard his
name somewhere. I am so grateful to you for clearing this up—it’s the sort
of mistake that worries me, and proves I’m neurotic.”
“So you won’t go saying he’s innocent again, will you? for every servant
I’ve got is a spy.” He went to the window. The mali had gone, or rather had
turned into two small children—impossible they should know English, but
he sent them packing. “They all hate us,” he explained. “It’ll be all right
after the verdict, for I will say this for them, they do accept the
accomplished fact; but at present they’re pouring out money like water to
catch us tripping, and a remark like yours is the very thing they look out for.
It would enable them to say it was a put-up job on the part of us officials.
You see what I mean.”
Mrs. Moore came back, with the same air of ill-temper, and sat down
with a flump by the card-table. To clear the confusion up, Ronny asked her
point-blank whether she had mentioned the prisoner. She could not
understand the question and the reason of it had to be explained. She
replied: “I never said his name,” and began to play patience.
“She can think, and Fielding too, but there’s such a thing as evidence, I
suppose.”
“I know, but——”
“Oh, how tedious . . . trivial . . .” and as when she had scoffed at love,
love, love, her mind seemed to move towards them from a great distance
and out of darkness. “Oh, why is everything still my duty? when shall I be
free from your fuss? Was he in the cave and were you in the cave and on
and on . . . and Unto us a Son is born, unto us a Child is given . . . and am I
good and is he bad and are we saved? . . . and ending everything the echo.”
“I don’t hear it so much,” said Adela, moving towards her. “You send it
away, you do nothing but good, you are so good.”
“I am not good, no, bad.” She spoke more calmly and resumed her cards,
saying as she turned them up, “A bad old woman, bad, bad, detestable. I
used to be good with the children growing up, also I meet this young man in
his mosque, I wanted him to be happy. Good, happy, small people. They do
not exist, they were a dream. . . . But I will not help you to torture him for
what he never did. There are different ways of evil and I prefer mine to
yours.”
“Have you any evidence in the prisoner’s favour?” said Ronny in the
tones of the just official. “If so, it is your bounden duty to go into the
witness-box for him instead of for us. No one will stop you.”
“One knows people’s characters, as you call them,” she retorted
disdainfully, as if she really knew more than character but could not impart
it. “I have heard both English and Indians speak well of him, and I felt it
isn’t the sort of thing he would do.”
“Most feeble.”
He turned on her with: “What was I warning you just now? You know
you’re right, and the whole station knows it.”
“That’s all right,” he said inadequately. “Of course I forgive you, as you
call it. But the case has to come before a magistrate now; it really must, the
machinery has started.”
So Mrs. Moore had all she wished; she escaped the trial, the marriage,
and the hot weather; she would return to England in comfort and
distinction, and see her other children. At her son’s suggestion, and by her
own desire, she departed. But she accepted her good luck without
enthusiasm. She had come to that state where the horror of the universe and
its smallness are both visible at the same time—the twilight of the double
vision in which so many elderly people are involved. If this world is not to
our taste, well, at all events there is Heaven, Hell, Annihilation—one or
other of those large things, that huge scenic background of stars, fires, blue
or black air. All heroic endeavour, and all that is known as art, assumes that
there is such a background, just as all practical endeavour, when the world
is to our taste, assumes that the world is all. But in the twilight of the double
vision, a spiritual muddledom is set up for which no high-sounding words
can be found; we can neither act nor refrain from action, we can neither
ignore nor respect Infinity. Mrs. Moore had always inclined to resignation.
As soon as she landed in India it seemed to her good, and when she saw the
water flowing through the mosque-tank, or the Ganges, or the moon, caught
in the shawl of night with all the other stars, it seemed a beautiful goal and
an easy one. To be one with the universe! So dignified and simple. But there
was always some little duty to be performed first, some new card to be
turned up from the diminishing pack and placed, and while she was
pottering about, the Marabar struck its gong.
What had spoken to her in that scoured-out cavity of the granite? What
dwelt in the first of the caves? Something very old and very small. Before
time, it was before space also. Something snub-nosed, incapable of
generosity—the undying worm itself. Since hearing its voice, she had not
entertained one large thought, she was actually envious of Adela. All this
fuss over a frightened girl! Nothing had happened, “and if it had,” she
found herself thinking with the cynicism of a withered priestess, “if it had,
there are worse evils than love.” The unspeakable attempt presented itself to
her as love: in a cave, in a church—Boum, it amounts to the same. Visions
are supposed to entail profundity, but—— Wait till you get one, dear
reader! The abyss also may be petty, the serpent of eternity made of
maggots; her constant thought was: “Less attention should be paid to my
future daughter-in-law and more to me, there is no sorrow like my sorrow,”
although when the attention was paid she rejected it irritably.
Her son couldn’t escort her to Bombay, for the local situation continued
acute, and all officials had to remain at their posts. Antony couldn’t come
either, in case he never returned to give his evidence. So she travelled with
no one who could remind her of the past. This was a relief. The heat had
drawn back a little before its next advance, and the journey was not
unpleasant. As she left Chandrapore the moon, full again, shone over the
Ganges and touched the shrinking channels into threads of silver, then
veered and looked into her window. The swift and comfortable mail-train
slid with her through the night, and all the next day she was rushing through
Central India, through landscapes that were baked and bleached but had not
the hopeless melancholy of the plain. She watched the indestructible life of
man and his changing faces, and the houses he has built for himself and
God, and they appeared to her not in terms of her own trouble but as things
to see. There was, for instance, a place called Asirgarh which she passed at
sunset and identified on a map—an enormous fortress among wooded hills.
No one had ever mentioned Asirgarh to her, but it had huge and noble
bastions and to the right of them was a mosque. She forgot it. Ten minutes
later, Asirgarh reappeared. The mosque was to the left of the bastions now.
The train in its descent through the Vindyas had described a semicircle
round Asirgarh. What could she connect it with except its own name?
Nothing; she knew no one who lived there. But it had looked at her twice
and seemed to say: “I do not vanish.” She woke in the middle of the night
with a start, for the train was falling over the western cliff. Moonlit
pinnacles rushed up at her like the fringes of a sea; then a brief episode of
plain, the real sea, and the soupy dawn of Bombay. “I have not seen the
right places,” she thought, as she saw embayed in the platforms of the
Victoria Terminus the end of the rails that had carried her over a continent
and could never carry her back. She would never visit Asirgarh or the other
untouched places; neither Delhi nor Agra nor the Rajputana cities nor
Kashmir, nor the obscurer marvels that had sometimes shone through men’s
speech: the bilingual rock of Girnar, the statue of Shri Belgola, the ruins of
Mandu and Hampi, temples of Khajraha, gardens of Shalimar. As she drove
through the huge city which the West has built and abandoned with a
gesture of despair, she longed to stop, though it was only Bombay, and
disentangle the hundred Indias that passed each other in its streets. The feet
of the horses moved her on, and presently the boat sailed and thousands of
coco-nut palms appeared all round the anchorage and climbed the hills to
wave her farewell. “So you thought an echo was India; you took the
Marabar caves as final?” they laughed. “What have we in common with
them, or they with Asirgarh? Good-bye!” Then the steamer rounded Colaba,
the continent swung about, the cliff of the Ghats melted into the haze of a
tropic sea. Lady Mellanby turned up and advised her not to stand in the
heat: “We are safely out of the frying-pan,” said Lady Mellanby, “it will
never do to fall into the fire.”
CHAPTER XXIV
Making sudden changes of gear, the heat accelerated its advance after
Mrs. Moore’s departure until existence had to be endured and crime
punished with the thermometer at a hundred and twelve. Electric fans
hummed and spat, water splashed on to screens, ice clinked, and outside
these defences, between a greyish sky and a yellowish earth, clouds of dust
moved hesitatingly. In Europe life retreats out of the cold, and exquisite
fireside myths have resulted—Balder, Persephone—but here the retreat is
from the source of life, the treacherous sun, and no poetry adorns it because
disillusionment cannot be beautiful. Men yearn for poetry though they may
not confess it; they desire that joy shall be graceful and sorrow august and
infinity have a form, and India fails to accommodate them. The annual
helter-skelter of April, when irritability and lust spread like a canker, is one
of her comments on the orderly hopes of humanity. Fish manage better;
fish, as the tanks dry, wriggle into the mud and wait for the rains to uncake
them. But men try to be harmonious all the year round, and the results are
occasionally disastrous. The triumphant machine of civilization may
suddenly hitch and be immobilized into a car of stone, and at such moments
the destiny of the English seems to resemble their predecessors’, who also
entered the country with intent to refashion it, but were in the end worked
into its pattern and covered with its dust.
“Miss Quested, Adela, what d’ye call yourself, it’s half-past seven; we
ought to think of starting for that Court when you feel inclined.”
“Sorry, my dear; take your time. . . . Was your chhota hazri all right?”
“I can’t eat; might I have a little brandy?” she asked, deserting Jehovah.
When it was brought, she shuddered, and said she was ready to go.
“I’ll thank you this evening, I’m all to pieces now,” said the girl, forming
each syllable carefully as if her trouble would diminish if it were accurately
defined. She was afraid of reticence, in case something that she herself did
not perceive took shape beneath it, and she had rehearsed with Mr.
McBryde in an odd, mincing way her terrible adventure in the cave, how
the man had never actually touched her but dragged her about, and so on.
Her aim this morning was to announce, meticulously, that the strain was
appalling, and she would probably break down under Mr. Amritrao’s cross-
examination and disgrace her friends. “My echo has come back again
badly,” she told them.
Unable to dispel the buzzing in her ears, Major Callendar had diagnosed
it as a fancy, which must not be encouraged. So the Turtons changed the
subject. The cool little lick of the breeze was passing over the earth,
dividing night from day; it would fail in ten minutes, but they might profit
by it for their drive down into the city.
“You’re bound to win,” he said calmly, and did not remind her that there
was bound to be an appeal. The Nawab Bahadur had financed the defence,
and would ruin himself sooner than let an “innocent Moslem perish,” and
other interests, less reputable, were in the background too. The case might
go up from court to court, with consequences that no official could foresee.
Under his very eyes, the temper of Chandrapore was altering. As his car
turned out of the compound, there was a tap of silly anger on its paint—a
pebble thrown by a child. Some larger stones were dropped near the
mosque. In the Maidan, a squad of native police on motor cycles waited to
escort them through the bazaars. The Collector was irritated and muttered,
“McBryde’s an old woman”; but Mrs. Turton said, “Really, after Mohurram
a show of force will do no harm; it’s ridiculous to pretend they don’t hate
us, do give up that farce.” He replied in an odd, sad voice, “I don’t hate
them, I don’t know why,” and he didn’t hate them; for if he did, he would
have had to condemn his own career as a bad investment. He retained a
contemptuous affection for the pawns he had moved about for so many
years, they must be worth his pains. “After all, it’s our women who make
everything more difficult out here,” was his inmost thought, as he caught
sight of some obscenities upon a long blank wall, and beneath his chivalry
to Miss Quested resentment lurked, waiting its day—perhaps there is a
grain of resentment in all chivalry. Some students had gathered in front of
the City Magistrate’s Court—hysterical boys whom he would have faced if
alone, but he told the driver to work round to the rear of the building. The
students jeered, and Rafi (hiding behind a comrade that he might not be
identified) called out the English were cowards.
They gained Ronny’s private room, where a group of their own sort had
collected. None were cowardly, all nervy, for queer reports kept coming in.
The Sweepers had just struck, and half the commodes of Chandrapore
remained desolate in consequence—only half, and Sweepers from the
District, who felt less strongly about the innocence of Dr. Aziz, would
arrive in the afternoon, and break the strike, but why should the grotesque
incident occur? And a number of Mohammedan ladies had sworn to take no
food until the prisoner was acquitted; their death would make little
difference, indeed, being invisible, they seemed dead already, nevertheless
it was disquieting. A new spirit seemed abroad, a rearrangement, which no
one in the stern little band of whites could explain. There was a tendency to
see Fielding at the back of it: the idea that he was weak and cranky had
been dropped. They abused Fielding vigorously: he had been seen driving
up with the two counsels, Amritrao and Mahmoud Ali; he encouraged the
Boy Scout movement for seditious reasons; he received letters with foreign
stamps on them, and was probably a Japanese spy. This morning’s verdict
would break the renegade, but he had done his country and the Empire
incalculable disservice. While they denounced him, Miss Quested lay back
with her hands on the arms of her chair and her eyes closed, reserving her
strength. They noticed her after a time, and felt ashamed of making so much
noise.
“I don’t think so, Nancy, and I seem able to do nothing for myself.”
“My old Das is all right,” said Ronny, starting a new subject in low tones.
Ronny did mean that, but he cherished “illusions” about his own
subordinates (following the finer traditions of his service here), and he liked
to maintain that his old Das really did possess moral courage of the Public
School brand. He pointed out that—from one point of view—it was good
that an Indian was taking the case. Conviction was inevitable; so better let
an Indian pronounce it, there would be less fuss in the long run. Interested
in the argument, he let Adela become dim in his mind.
“Those swine are always on the look-out for a grievance,” said Lesley, to
propitiate her.
“Swine, I should think so,” the Major echoed. “And what’s more, I’ll tell
you what. What’s happened is a damn good thing really, barring of course
its application to present company. It’ll make them squeal and it’s time they
did squeal. I’ve put the fear of God into them at the hospital anyhow. You
should see the grandson of our so-called leading loyalist.” He tittered
brutally as he described poor Nureddin’s present appearance.
“His beauty’s gone, five upper teeth, two lower and a nostril. . . . Old
Panna Lal brought him the looking-glass yesterday and he blubbered. . . . I
laughed; I laughed, I tell you, and so would you; that used to be one of
these buck niggers, I thought, now he’s all septic; damn him, blast his soul
—er—I believe he was unspeakably immoral—er——” He subsided,
nudged in the ribs, but added, “I wish I’d had the cutting up of my late
assistant too; nothing’s too bad for these people.”
“At last some sense is being talked,” Mrs. Turton cried, much to her
husband’s discomfort.
“That’s what I say; I say there’s not such a thing as cruelty after a thing
like this.”
She paused. Profiting by her wrath, the heat had invaded her. She
subsided into a lemon squash, and continued between the sips to murmur,
“Weak, weak.” And the process was repeated. The issues Miss Quested had
raised were so much more important than she was herself that people
inevitably forgot her.
Their chairs preceded them into the Court, for it was important that they
should look dignified. And when the chuprassies had made all ready, they
filed into the ramshackly room with a condescending air, as if it was a booth
at a fair. The Collector made a small official joke as he sat down, at which
his entourage smiled, and the Indians, who could not hear what he said, felt
that some new cruelty was afoot, otherwise the sahibs would not chuckle.
The Court was crowded and of course very hot, and the first person
Adela noticed in it was the humblest of all who were present, a person who
had no bearing officially upon the trial: the man who pulled the punkah.
Almost naked, and splendidly formed, he sat on a raised platform near the
back, in the middle of the central gangway, and he caught her attention as
she came in, and he seemed to control the proceedings. He had the strength
and beauty that sometimes come to flower in Indians of low birth. When
that strange race nears the dust and is condemned as untouchable, then
nature remembers the physical perfection that she accomplished elsewhere,
and throws out a god—not many, but one here and there, to prove to society
how little its categories impress her. This man would have been notable
anywhere: among the thin-hammed, flat-chested mediocrities of
Chandrapore he stood out as divine, yet he was of the city, its garbage had
nourished him, he would end on its rubbish heaps. Pulling the rope towards
him, relaxing it rhythmically, sending swirls of air over others, receiving
none himself, he seemed apart from human destinies, a male fate, a
winnower of souls. Opposite him, also on a platform, sat the little assistant
magistrate, cultivated, self-conscious, and conscientious. The punkah
wallah was none of these things: he scarcely knew that he existed and did
not understand why the Court was fuller than usual, indeed he did not know
that it was fuller than usual, didn’t even know he worked a fan, though he
thought he pulled a rope. Something in his aloofness impressed the girl
from middle-class England, and rebuked the narrowness of her sufferings.
In virtue of what had she collected this roomful of people together? Her
particular brand of opinions, and the suburban Jehovah who sanctified them
—by what right did they claim so much importance in the world, and
assume the title of civilization? Mrs. Moore—she looked round, but Mrs.
Moore was far away on the sea; it was the kind of question they might have
discussed on the voyage out before the old lady had turned disagreeable and
queer.
While thinking of Mrs. Moore she heard sounds, which gradually grew
more distinct. The epoch-making trial had started, and the Superintendent
of Police was opening the case for the prosecution.
“Even when the lady is so uglier than the gentleman?” The comment fell
from nowhere, from the ceiling perhaps. It was the first interruption, and the
Magistrate felt bound to censure it. “Turn that man out,” he said. One of the
native policemen took hold of a man who had said nothing, and turned him
out roughly.
Mr. McBryde resumed his spectacles and proceeded. But the comment
had upset Miss Quested. Her body resented being called ugly, and trembled.
“Do you feel faint, Adela?” asked Miss Derek, who tended her with
loving indignation.
“I never feel anything else, Nancy. I shall get through, but it’s awful,
awful.”
This led to the first of a series of scenes. Her friends began to fuss around
her, and the Major called out, “I must have better arrangements than this
made for my patient; why isn’t she given a seat on the platform? She gets
no air.”
The Magistrate knew that he ought to censure this remark, but did not
dare to. Callendar saw that he was afraid, and called out authoritatively,
“Right, McBryde, go ahead now; sorry to have interrupted you.”
“Go on, Mr. Das, we are not here to disturb you,” said the Collector
patronizingly. Indeed, they had not so much disturbed the trial as taken
charge of it.
Pleader Mahmoud Ali now arose, and asked with ponderous and ill-
judged irony whether his client could be accommodated on the platform
too: even Indians felt unwell sometimes, though naturally Major Callendar
did not think so, being in charge of a Government Hospital. “Another
example of their exquisite sense of humour,” sang Miss Derek. Ronny
looked at Mr. Das to see how he would handle the difficulty, and Mr. Das
became agitated, and snubbed Pleader Mahmoud Ali severely.
“Excuse me——” It was the turn of the eminent barrister from Calcutta.
He was a fine-looking man, large and bony, with grey closely cropped hair.
“We object to the presence of so many European ladies and gentlemen upon
the platform,” he said in an Oxford voice. “They will have the effect of
intimidating our witnesses. Their place is with the rest of the public in the
body of the hall. We have no objection to Miss Quested remaining on the
platform, since she has been unwell; we shall extend every courtesy to her
throughout, despite the scientific truths revealed to us by the District
Superintendent of Police; but we do object to the others.”
“Oh, cut the cackle and let’s have the verdict,” the Major growled.
“I agree to that,” said Mr. Das, hiding his face desperately in some
papers. “It was only to Miss Quested that I gave permission to sit up here.
Her friends should be so excessively kind as to climb down.”
“Well done, Das, quite sound,” said Ronny with devastating honesty.
“Even when it’s one foot high; so come along all,” said the Collector,
trying to laugh.
“Thank you very much, sir,” said Mr. Das, greatly relieved. “Thank you,
Mr. Heaslop; thank you ladies all.”
And the party, including Miss Quested, descended from its rash
eminence. The news of their humiliation spread quickly, and people jeered
outside. Their special chairs followed them. Mahmoud Ali (who was quite
silly and useless with hatred) objected even to these; by whose authority
had special chairs been introduced, why had the Nawab Bahadur not been
given one? etc. People began to talk all over the room, about chairs ordinary
and special, strips of carpet, platforms one foot high.
But the little excursion had a good effect on Miss Quested’s nerves. She
felt easier now that she had seen all the people who were in the room. It was
like knowing the worst. She was sure now that she should come through
“all right”—that is to say, without spiritual disgrace, and she passed the
good news on to Ronny and Mrs. Turton. They were too much agitated with
the defeat to British prestige to be interested. From where she sat, she could
see the renegade Mr. Fielding. She had had a better view of him from the
platform, and knew that an Indian child perched on his knee. He was
watching the proceedings, watching her. When their eyes met, he turned his
away, as if direct intercourse was of no interest to him.
The Magistrate was also happier. He had won the battle of the platform,
and gained confidence. Intelligent and impartial, he continued to listen to
the evidence, and tried to forget that later on he should have to pronounce a
verdict in accordance with it. The Superintendent trundled steadily forward:
he had expected these outbursts of insolence—they are the natural gestures
of an inferior race, and he betrayed no hatred of Aziz, merely an abysmal
contempt.
The speech dealt at length with the “prisoner’s dupes,” as they were
called—Fielding, the servant Antony, the Nawab Bahadur. This aspect of
the case had always seemed dubious to Miss Quested, and she had asked
the police not to develop it. But they were playing for a heavy sentence, and
wanted to prove that the assault was premeditated. And in order to illustrate
the strategy, they produced a plan of the Marabar Hills, showing the route
that the party had taken, and the “Tank of the Dagger” where they had
camped.
“In which cave is the offence alleged, the Buddhist or the Jain?” asked
Mahmoud Ali, with the air of unmasking a conspiracy.
But his last words brought on another storm, and suddenly a new name,
Mrs. Moore, burst on the court like a whirlwind. Mahmoud Ali had been
enraged, his nerves snapped; he shrieked like a maniac, and asked whether
his client was charged with murder as well as rape, and who was this
second English lady.
“You don’t because you can’t, you have smuggled her out of the country;
she is Mrs. Moore, she would have proved his innocence, she was on our
side, she was poor Indians’ friend.”
“You could have called her yourself,” cried the Magistrate. “Neither side
called her, neither must quote her as evidence.”
“She was kept from us until too late—I learn too late—this is English
justice, here is your British Raj. Give us back Mrs. Moore for five minutes
only, and she will save my friend, she will save the name of his sons; don’t
rule her out, Mr. Das; take back those words as you yourself are a father;
tell me where they have put her, oh, Mrs. Moore. . . .”
“If the point is of any interest, my mother should have reached Aden,”
said Ronny dryly; he ought not to have intervened, but the onslaught had
startled him.
“Imprisoned by you there because she knew the truth.” He was almost
out of his mind, and could be heard saying above the tumult: “I ruin my
career, no matter; we are all to be ruined one by one.”
“Mr. Mahmoud Ali, I have already warned you, and unless you sit down
I shall exercise my authority.”
“Do so; this trial is a farce, I am going.” And he handed his papers to
Amritrao and left, calling from the door histrionically yet with intense
passion, “Aziz, Aziz—farewell for ever.” The tumult increased, the
invocation of Mrs. Moore continued, and people who did not know what
the syllables meant repeated them like a charm. They became Indianized
into Esmiss Esmoor, they were taken up in the street outside. In vain the
Magistrate threatened and expelled. Until the magic exhausted itself, he was
powerless.
Ronny furnished the explanation. Before she sailed, his mother had taken
to talk about the Marabar in her sleep, especially in the afternoon when
servants were on the verandah, and her disjointed remarks on Aziz had
doubtless been sold to Mahmoud Ali for a few annas: that kind of thing
never ceases in the East.
“It’s just a trick, and they happened to pull it off. Now one sees why they
had Mahmoud Ali—just to make a scene on the chance. It is his speciality.”
But he disliked it more than he showed. It was revolting to hear his mother
travestied into Esmiss Esmoor, a Hindu goddess.
“Esmiss Esmoor
Esmiss Esmoor
Esmiss Esmoor
Esmiss Esmoor. . . .”
“Ronny——”
She had spoken more naturally and healthily than usual. Bending into the
middle of her friends, she said: “Don’t worry about me, I’m much better
than I was; I don’t feel the least faint; I shall be all right, and thank you all,
thank you, thank you for your kindness.” She had to shout her gratitude, for
the chant, Esmiss Esmoor, went on.
Suddenly it stopped. It was as if the prayer had been heard, and the relics
exhibited. “I apologize for my colleague,” said Mr. Amritrao, rather to
everyone’s surprise. “He is an intimate friend of our client, and his feelings
have carried him away.”
“An extraneous element is being introduced into the case,” said the
Magistrate. “I must repeat that as a witness Mrs. Moore does not exist.
Neither you, Mr. Amritrao, nor, Mr. McBryde, you, have any right to
surmise what that lady would have said. She is not here, and consequently
she can say nothing.”
So peace was restored, and when Adela came to give her evidence the
atmosphere was quieter than it had been since the beginning of the trial.
Experts were not surprised. There is no stay in your native. He blazes up
over a minor point, and has nothing left for the crisis. What he seeks is a
grievance, and this he had found in the supposed abduction of an old lady.
He would now be less aggrieved when Aziz was deported.
Adela had always meant to tell the truth and nothing but the truth, and
she had rehearsed this as a difficult task—difficult, because her disaster in
the cave was connected, though by a thread, with another part of her life,
her engagement to Ronny. She had thought of love just before she went in,
and had innocently asked Aziz what marriage was like, and she supposed
that her question had roused evil in him. To recount this would have been
incredibly painful, it was the one point she wanted to keep obscure; she was
willing to give details that would have distressed other girls, but this story
of her private failure she dared not allude to, and she dreaded being
examined in public in case something came out. But as soon as she rose to
reply, and heard the sound of her own voice, she feared not even that. A
new and unknown sensation protected her, like magnificent armour. She
didn’t think what had happened, or even remember in the ordinary way of
memory, but she returned to the Marabar Hills, and spoke from them across
a sort of darkness to Mr. McBryde. The fatal day recurred, in every detail,
but now she was of it and not of it at the same time, and this double relation
gave it indescribable splendour. Why had she thought the expedition “dull”?
Now the sun rose again, the elephant waited, the pale masses of the rock
flowed round her and presented the first cave; she entered, and a match was
reflected in the polished walls—all beautiful and significant, though she had
been blind to it at the time. Questions were asked, and to each she found the
exact reply; yes, she had noticed the “Tank of the Dagger,” but not known
its name; yes, Mrs. Moore had been tired after the first cave and sat in the
shadow of a great rock, near the dried-up mud. Smoothly the voice in the
distance proceeded, leading along the paths of truth, and the airs from the
punkah behind her wafted her on. . . .
“. . . the prisoner and the guide took you on to the Kawa Dol, no one else
being present?”
“The most wonderfully shaped of those hills. Yes.” As she spoke, she
created the Kawa Dol, saw the niches up the curve of the stone, and felt the
heat strike her face. And something caused her to add: “No one else was
present to my knowledge. We appeared to be alone.”
“Very well, there is a ledge half-way up the hill, or broken ground rather,
with caves scattered near the beginning of a nullah.”
She was silent. The court, the place of question, awaited her reply. But
she could not give it until Aziz entered the place of answer.
“Certainly.”
Her vision was of several caves. She saw herself in one, and she was also
outside it, watching its entrance, for Aziz to pass in. She failed to locate
him. It was the doubt that had often visited her, but solid and attractive, like
the hills, “I am not——” Speech was more difficult than vision. “I am not
quite sure.”
“I cannot be sure . . .”
“I didn’t catch that answer.” He looked scared, his mouth shut with a
snap. “You are on that landing, or whatever we term it, and you have
entered a cave. I suggest to you that the prisoner followed you.”
“No,” she said in a flat, unattractive voice. Slight noises began in various
parts of the room, but no one yet understood what was occurring except
Fielding. He saw that she was going to have a nervous breakdown and that
his friend was saved.
“What is that, what are you saying? Speak up, please.” The Magistrate
bent forward.
The Superintendent slammed down his papers, then picked them up and
said calmly: “Now, Miss Quested, let us go on. I will read you the words of
the deposition which you signed two hours later in my bungalow.”
Something that she did not understand took hold of the girl and pulled
her through. Though the vision was over, and she had returned to the
insipidity of the world, she remembered what she had learnt. Atonement
and confession—they could wait. It was in hard prosaic tones that she said,
“I withdraw everything.”
“Sahib, you will have to withdraw; this becomes a scandal,” boomed the
Nawab Bahadur suddenly from the back of the court.
“He shall not,” shouted Mrs. Turton against the gathering tumult. “Call
the other witnesses; we’re none of us safe——” Ronny tried to check her,
and she gave him an irritable blow, then screamed insults at Adela.
Mr. Das rose, nearly dead with the strain. He had controlled the case, just
controlled it. He had shown that an Indian can preside. To those who could
hear him he said, “The prisoner is released without one stain on his
character; the question of costs will be decided elsewhere.”
And then the flimsy framework of the court broke up, the shouts of
derision and rage culminated, people screamed and cursed, kissed one
another, wept passionately. Here were the English, whom their servants
protected, there Aziz fainted in Hamidullah’s arms. Victory on this side,
defeat on that—complete for one moment was the antithesis. Then life
returned to its complexities, person after person struggled out of the room to
their various purposes, and before long no one remained on the scene of the
fantasy but the beautiful naked god. Unaware that anything unusual had
occurred, he continued to pull the cord of his punkah, to gaze at the empty
dais and the overturned special chairs, and rhythmically to agitate the
clouds of descending dust.
CHAPTER XXV
Miss Quested had renounced her own people. Turning from them, she
was drawn into a mass of Indians of the shopkeeping class, and carried by
them towards the public exit of the court. The faint, indescribable smell of
the bazaars invaded her, sweeter than a London slum, yet more disquieting:
a tuft of scented cotton wool, wedged in an old man’s ear, fragments of pan
between his black teeth, odorous powders, oils—the Scented East of
tradition, but blended with human sweat as if a great king had been
entangled in ignominy and could not free himself, or as if the heat of the
sun had boiled and fried all the glories of the earth into a single mess. They
paid no attention to her. They shook hands over her shoulder, shouted
through her body—for when the Indian does ignore his rulers, he becomes
genuinely unaware of their existence. Without part in the universe she had
created, she was flung against Mr. Fielding.
Knowing him for her enemy, she passed on into the sunlight without
speaking.
“I don’t know.”
“You can’t wander about like that. Where’s the car you came in?”
“I shall walk.”
“You can’t, it’s too late. How are you to get round to the private entrance
now? Come this way with me—quick—I’ll put you into my carriage.”
“Cyril, Cyril, don’t leave me,” called the shattered voice of Aziz.
“I’m coming back. . . . This way, and don’t argue.” He gripped her arm.
“Excuse manners, but I don’t know anyone’s position. Send my carriage
back any time to-morrow, if you please.”
The victoria was safe in a quiet side lane, but there were no horses, for
the sais, not expecting the trial would end so abruptly, had led them away to
visit a friend. She got into it obediently. The man could not leave her, for
the confusion increased, and spots of it sounded fanatical. The main road
through the bazaars was blocked, and the English were gaining the civil
station by by-ways; they were caught like caterpillars, and could have been
killed off easily.
“Sir, I intend these for you, sir,” interrupted a student, running down the
lane with a garland of jasmine on his arm.
“Hurry up, sir; we pull you in a procession.” And, half affectionate, half
impudent, they bundled him in.
“I don’t know whether this suits you, but anyhow you’re safe,” he
remarked. The carriage jerked into the main bazaar, where it created some
sensation. Miss Quested was so loathed in Chandrapore that her recantation
was discredited, and the rumour ran that she had been stricken by the Deity
in the middle of her lies. But they cheered when they saw her sitting by the
heroic Principal (some addressed her as Mrs. Moore!), and they garlanded
her to match him. Half gods, half guys, with sausages of flowers round their
necks, the pair were dragged in the wake of Aziz’ victorious landau. In the
applause that greeted them some derision mingled. The English always
stick together! That was the criticism. Nor was it unjust. Fielding shared it
himself, and knew that if some misunderstanding occurred, and an attack
was made on the girl by his allies, he would be obliged to die in her
defence. He didn’t want to die for her, he wanted to be rejoicing with Aziz.
“Mr. Mahmoud Ali, this is not wise,” implored the Nawab Bahadur: he
knew that nothing was gained by attacking the English, who had fallen into
their own pit and had better be left there; moreover, he had great
possessions and deprecated anarchy.
“Nureddin?”
“They are not. I will not have my grandson made an excuse for an attack
on the hospital,” the old man protested.
“They are. Callendar boasted so before the trial. I heard through the
tatties; he said, ‘I have tortured that nigger.’”
“Mr. Mahmoud Ali, impossible; a little roughness will not hurt the boy,
he needs discipline.”
“Pepper. Civil Surgeon said so. They hope to destroy us one by one; they
shall fail.”
The new injury lashed the crowd to fury. It had been aimless hitherto, and
had lacked a grievance. When they reached the Maidan and saw the sallow
arcades of the Minto they shambled towards it howling. It was near midday.
The earth and sky were insanely ugly, the spirit of evil again strode abroad.
The Nawab Bahadur alone struggled against it, and told himself that the
rumour must be untrue. He had seen his grandson in the ward only last
week. But he too was carried forward over the new precipice. To rescue, to
maltreat Major Callendar in revenge, and then was to come the turn of the
civil station generally.
Dr. Panna Lal had offered to give evidence for the prosecution in the
hope of pleasing the English, also because he hated Aziz. When the case
broke down, he was in a very painful position. He saw the crash coming
sooner than most people, slipped from the court before Mr. Das had
finished, and drove Dapple off through the bazaars, in flight from the wrath
to come. In the hospital he should be safe, for Major Callendar would
protect him. But the Major had not come, and now things were worse than
ever, for here was a mob, entirely desirous of his blood, and the orderlies
were mutinous and would not help him over the back wall, or rather hoisted
him and let him drop back, to the satisfaction of the patients. In agony he
cried, “Man can but die the once,” and waddled across the compound to
meet the invasion, salaaming with one hand and holding up a pale yellow
umbrella in the other. “Oh, forgive me,” he whined as he approached the
victorious landau. “Oh, Dr. Aziz, forgive the wicked lies I told.” Aziz was
silent, the others thickened their throats and threw up their chins in token of
scorn. “I was afraid, I was mislaid,” the suppliant continued. “I was mislaid
here, there, and everywhere as regards your character. Oh, forgive the poor
old hakim who gave you milk when ill! Oh, Nawab Bahadur, whoever
merciful, is it my poor little dispensary you require? Take every cursed
bottle.” Agitated, but alert, he saw them smile at his indifferent English, and
suddenly he started playing the buffoon, flung down his umbrella, trod
through it, and struck himself upon the nose. He knew what he was doing,
and so did they. There was nothing pathetic or eternal in the degradation of
such a man. Of ignoble origin, Dr. Panna Lal possessed nothing that could
be disgraced, and he wisely decided to make the other Indians feel like
kings, because it would put them into better tempers. When he found they
wanted Nureddin, he skipped like a goat, he scuttled like a hen to do their
bidding, the hospital was saved, and to the end of his life he could not
understand why he had not obtained promotion on the morning’s work.
“Promptness, sir, promptness similar to you,” was the argument he
employed to Major Callendar when claiming it.
When Nureddin emerged, his face all bandaged, there was a roar of relief
as though the Bastille had fallen. It was the crisis of the march, and the
Nawab Bahadur managed to get the situation into hand. Embracing the
young man publicly, he began a speech about Justice, Courage, Liberty, and
Prudence, ranged under heads, which cooled the passion of the crowd. He
further announced that he should give up his British-conferred title, and live
as a private gentleman, plain Mr. Zulfiqar, for which reason he was instantly
proceeding to his country seat. The landau turned, the crowd accompanied
it, the crisis was over. The Marabar caves had been a terrible strain on the
local administration; they altered a good many lives and wrecked several
careers, but they did not break up a continent or even dislocate a district.
“We will have rejoicings to-night,” the old man said. “Mr. Hamidullah, I
depute you to bring out our friends Fielding and Amritrao, and to discover
whether the latter will require special food. The others will keep with me.
We shall not go out to Dilkusha until the cool of the evening, of course. I do
not know the feelings of other gentlemen; for my own part, I have a slight
headache, and I wish I had thought to ask our good Panna Lal for aspirin.”
For the heat was claiming its own. Unable to madden, it stupefied, and
before long most of the Chandrapore combatants were asleep. Those in the
civil station kept watch a little, fearing an attack, but presently they too
entered the world of dreams—that world in which a third of each man’s life
is spent, and which is thought by some pessimists to be a premonition of
eternity.
CHAPTER XXVI
Evening approached by the time Fielding and Miss Quested met and had
the first of their numerous curious conversations. He had hoped, when he
woke up, to find someone had fetched her away, but the College remained
isolated from the rest of the universe. She asked whether she could have “a
sort of interview,” and, when he made no reply, said, “Have you any
explanation of my extraordinary behaviour?”
“None,” he said curtly. “Why make such a charge if you were going to
withdraw it?”
“Why, indeed.”
“I don’t expect gratitude. I only thought you might care to hear what I
have to say.”
“Not much.”
“Do you think that would be so?” she asked with great humility. “What
should have given me an hallucination?”
“Perhaps. . . .”
“A somewhat unlucky party. Aziz and old Godbole were both ill after it
too.”
“I was not ill—it is far too vague to mention: it is all mixed up with my
private affairs. I enjoyed the singing . . . but just about then a sort of sadness
began that I couldn’t detect at the time . . . no, nothing as solid as sadness:
living at half pressure expresses it best. Half pressure. I remember going on
to polo with Mr. Heaslop at the Maidan. Various other things happened—it
doesn’t matter what, but I was under par for all of them. I was certainly in
that state when I saw the caves, and you suggest (nothing shocks or hurts
me)—you suggest that I had an hallucination there, the sort of thing—
though in an awful form—that makes some women think they’ve had an
offer of marriage when none was made.”
“You put it honestly, anyhow.”
“Will it?”
“Do you not believe in heaven, Mr. Fielding, may I ask?” she said,
looking at him shyly.
She tried to remember what she had felt in court, but could not; the vision
disappeared whenever she wished to interpret it. “Events presented
themselves to me in their logical sequence,” was what she said, but it hadn’t
been that at all.
“People whom I respect very much believe in ghosts,” she said rather
sharply. “My friend Mrs. Moore does.”
“I fear not.”
“So do I.”
“What does Dr. Aziz say of me?” she asked, after another pause.
“He—he has not been capable of thought in his misery, naturally he’s
very bitter,” said Fielding, a little awkward, because such remarks as Aziz
had made were not merely bitter, they were foul. The underlying notion
was, “It disgraces me to have been mentioned in connection with such a
hag.” It enraged him that he had been accused by a woman who had no
personal beauty; sexually, he was a snob. This had puzzled and worried
Fielding. Sensuality, as long as it is straight-forward, did not repel him, but
this derived sensuality—the sort that classes a mistress among motor-cars if
she is beautiful, and among eye-flies if she isn’t—was alien to his own
emotions, and he felt a barrier between himself and Aziz whenever it arose.
It was, in a new form, the old, old trouble that eats the heart out of every
civilization: snobbery, the desire for possessions, creditable appendages;
and it is to escape this rather than the lusts of the flesh that saints retreat
into the Himalayas. To change the subject, he said, “But let me conclude my
analysis. We are agreed that he is not a villain and that you are not one, and
we aren’t really sure that it was an hallucination. There’s a fourth possibility
which we must touch on: was it somebody else?”
“The guide.”
“Exactly, the guide. I often think so. Unluckily Aziz hit him on the face,
and he got a fright and disappeared. It is most unsatisfactory, and we hadn’t
the police to help us, the guide was of no interest to them.”
“Perhaps it was the guide,” she said quietly; the question had lost interest
for her suddenly.
“Or could it have been one of that gang of Pathans who have been
drifting through the district?”
“Someone who was in another cave, and followed me when the guide
was looking away? Possibly.”
At that moment Hamidullah joined them, and seemed not too pleased to
find them closeted together. Like everyone else in Chandrapore, he could
make nothing of Miss Quested’s conduct. He had overheard their last
remark. “Hullo, my dear Fielding,” he said. “So I run you down at last. Can
you come out at once to Dilkusha?”
“At once?”
“The telephone has been broken; Miss Quested can’t ring up her friends,”
he explained.
“A great deal has been broken, more than will ever be mended,” said the
other. “Still, there should be some way of transporting this lady back to the
civil lines. The resources of civilization are numerous.” He spoke without
looking at Miss Quested, and he ignored the slight movement she made
towards him with her hand.
Fielding, who thought the meeting might as well be friendly, said, “Miss
Quested has been explaining a little about her conduct of this morning.”
“Perhaps the age of miracles has returned. One must be prepared for
everything, our philosophers say.”
“It must have seemed a miracle to the onlookers,” said Adela, addressing
him nervously. “The fact is that I realized before it was too late that I had
made a mistake, and had just enough presence of mind to say so. That is all
my extraordinary conduct amounts to.”
“All it amounts to, indeed,” he retorted, quivering with rage but keeping
himself in hand, for he felt she might be setting another trap. “Speaking as a
private individual, in a purely informal conversation, I admired your
conduct, and I was delighted when our warm-hearted students garlanded
you. But, like Mr. Fielding, I am surprised; indeed, surprise is too weak a
word. I see you drag my best friend into the dirt, damage his health and ruin
his prospects in a way you cannot conceive owing to your ignorance of our
society and religion, and then suddenly you get up in the witness-box: ‘Oh
no, Mr. McBryde, after all I am not quite sure, you may as well let him go.’
Am I mad? I keep asking myself. Is it a dream, and if so, when did it start?
And without doubt it is a dream that has not yet finished. For I gather you
have not done with us yet, and it is now the turn of the poor old guide who
conducted you round the caves.”
“An interesting pastime, but a lengthy one. There are one hundred and
seventy million Indians in this notable peninsula, and of course one or other
of them entered the cave. Of course some Indian is the culprit, we must
never doubt that. And since, my dear Fielding, these possibilities will take
you some time”—here he put his arm over the Englishman’s shoulder and
swayed him to and fro gently—“don’t you think you had better come out to
the Nawab Bahadur’s—or I should say to Mr. Zulfiqar’s, for that is the
name he now requires us to call him by.”
“Gladly, in a minute . . .”
“Do you hear? The lady admits it herself. It’s not an attack from our
people I fear—you should see their orderly conduct at the hospital; what we
must guard against is an attack secretly arranged by the police for the
purpose of discrediting you. McBryde keeps plenty of roughs for this
purpose, and this would be the very opportunity for him.”
“Never mind. She is not going to the Dak Bungalow,” said Fielding. He
had a natural sympathy for the down-trodden—that was partly why he
rallied from Aziz—and had become determined not to leave the poor girl in
the lurch. Also, he had a new-born respect for her, consequent on their talk.
Although her hard schoolmistressy manner remained, she was no longer
examining life, but being examined by it; she had become a real person.
“Then where is she to go? We shall never have done with her!” For Miss
Quested had not appealed to Hamidullah. If she had shown emotion in
court, broke down, beat her breast, and invoked the name of God, she
would have summoned forth his imagination and generosity—he had plenty
of both. But while relieving the Oriental mind, she had chilled it, with the
result that he could scarcely believe she was sincere, and indeed from his
standpoint she was not. For her behaviour rested on cold justice and
honesty; she had felt, while she recanted, no passion of love for those whom
she had wronged. Truth is not truth in that exacting land unless there go
with it kindness and more kindness and kindness again, unless the Word
that was with God also is God. And the girl’s sacrifice—so creditable
according to Western notions—was rightly rejected, because, though it
came from her heart, it did not include her heart. A few garlands from
students was all that India ever gave her in return.
“But where is she to have her dinner, where is she to sleep? I say here,
here, and if she is hit on the head by roughs, she is hit on the head. That is
my contribution. Well, Miss Quested?”
“You are very kind. I should have said yes, I think, but I agree with Mr.
Hamidullah. I must give no more trouble to you. I believe my best plan is to
return to the Turtons, and see if they will allow me to sleep, and if they turn
me away I must go to the Dak. The Collector would take me in, I know, but
Mrs. Turton said this morning that she would never see me again.” She
spoke without bitterness, or, as Hamidullah thought, without proper pride.
Her aim was to cause the minimum of annoyance.
“Far better stop here than expose yourself to insults from that
preposterous woman.”
“Well, here’s our solution,” said the barrister, who had terminated his
slightly minatory caress and strolled to the window. “Here comes the City
Magistrate. He comes in a third-class band-ghari for purposes of disguise,
he comes unattended, but here comes the City Magistrate.”
“At last,” said Adela sharply, which caused Fielding to glance at her.
When he had gone, Hamidullah said to her bitingly: “Really, really. Need
you have exposed Mr. Fielding to this further discomfort? He is far too
considerate.” She made no reply, and there was complete silence between
them until their host returned.
“He has some news for you,” he said. “You’ll find him on the verandah.
He prefers not to come in.”
“Whether he tells you or not, you will go, I think,” said Hamidullah.
She paused, then said, “Perfectly right,” and then said a few words of
thanks to the Principal for his kindness to her during the day.
“He couldn’t very well after my behaviour to him at the Club. Heaslop
doesn’t come out badly. Besides, Fate has treated him pretty roughly to-day.
He has had a cable to the effect that his mother’s dead, poor old soul.”
“Oh, really. Mrs. Moore. I’m sorry,” said Hamidullah rather indifferently.
“Presumably.”
“Let us wait until the happy couple leave the compound clear . . . they
really are intolerable dawdling there. Ah well, Fielding, you don’t believe in
Providence, I remember. I do. This is Heaslop’s punishment for abducting
our witness in order to stop us establishing our alibi.”
“You go rather too far there. The poor old lady’s evidence could have had
no value, shout and shriek Mahmoud Ali as he will. She couldn’t see
through the Kawa Dol even if she had wanted to. Only Miss Quested could
have saved him.”
The other smiled, and looked at his watch. They both regretted the death,
but they were middle-aged men, who had invested their emotions
elsewhere, and outbursts of grief could not be expected from them over a
slight acquaintance. It’s only one’s own dead who matter. If for a moment
the sense of communion in sorrow came to them, it passed. How indeed is it
possible for one human being to be sorry for all the sadness that meets him
on the face of the earth, for the pain that is endured not only by men, but by
animals and plants, and perhaps by the stones? The soul is tired in a
moment, and in fear of losing the little she does understand, she retreats to
the permanent lines which habit or chance have dictated, and suffers there.
Fielding had met the dead woman only two or three times, Hamidullah had
seen her in the distance once, and they were far more occupied with the
coming gathering at Dilkusha, the “victory” dinner, for which they would
be most victoriously late.
They agreed not to tell Aziz about Mrs. Moore till the morrow, because
he was fond of her, and the bad news might spoil his fun.
“Oh, this is unbearable!” muttered Hamidullah. For Miss Quested was
back again.
He bowed.
“Ah me!” She sat down, and seemed to stiffen into a monument.
“I didn’t ask him, we are too much upset—it’s so complex, not like what
unhappiness is supposed to be. Each of us ought to be alone, and think. Do
come and see Ronny again.”
“I think he should come in this time,” said Fielding, feeling that this
much was due to his own dignity. “Do ask him to come.”
“Aden.”
“But she died on leaving Bombay,” broke in Adela. “She was dead when
they called her name this morning. She must have been buried at sea.”
No more was then said, but the remark horrified Fielding. He couldn’t
bear to think of the queer honest girl losing her money and possibly her
young man too. She advanced into his consciousness suddenly. And,
fatigued by the merciless and enormous day, he lost his usual sane view of
human intercourse, and felt that we exist not in ourselves, but in terms of
each others’ minds—a notion for which logic offers no support and which
had attacked him only once before, the evening after the catastrophe, when
from the verandah of the club he saw the fists and fingers of the Marabar
swell until they included the whole night sky.
CHAPTER XXVII
“No, so let us have a talk; let us dream plans for the future.”
“I am useless at dreaming.”
The Victory Banquet was over, and the revellers lay on the roof of plain
Mr. Zulfiqar’s mansion, asleep, or gazing through mosquito nets at the stars.
Exactly above their heads hung the constellation of the Lion, the disc of
Regulus so large and bright that it resembled a tunnel, and when this fancy
was accepted all the other stars seemed tunnels too.
“Are you content with our day’s work, Cyril?” the voice on his left
continued.
“Are you?”
“Except that I ate too much. ‘How is stomach, how head?’—I say, Panna
Lal and Callendar ’ll get the sack.”
“In any case we spend our holidays together, and visit Kashmir, possibly
Persia, for I shall have plenty of money. Paid to me on account of the injury
sustained by my character,” he explained with cynical calm. “While with
me you shall never spend a single pie. This is what I have always wished,
and as the result of my misfortunes it has come.”
“You have won a great victory . . .” began Fielding.
“I know, my dear chap, I know; your voice need not become so solemn
and anxious. I know what you are going to say next: Let, oh let Miss
Quested off paying, so that the English may say, ‘Here is a native who has
actually behaved like a gentleman; if it was not for his black face we would
almost allow him to join our club.’ The approval of your compatriots no
longer interests me, I have become anti-British, and ought to have done so
sooner, it would have saved me numerous misfortunes.”
“Be quiet. In the course of a long talk with Miss Quested I have begun to
understand her character. It’s not an easy one, she being a prig. But she is
perfectly genuine and very brave. When she saw she was wrong, she pulled
herself up with a jerk and said so. I want you to realize what that means. All
her friends around her, the entire British Raj pushing her forward. She
stops, sends the whole thing to smithereens. In her place I should have
funked it. But she stopped, and almost did she become a national heroine,
but my students ran us down a side street before the crowd caught flame.
Do treat her considerately. She really mustn’t get the worst of both worlds. I
know what all these”—he indicated the shrouded forms on the roof—“will
want, but you mustn’t listen to them. Be merciful. Act like one of your six
Mogul Emperors, or all the six rolled into one.”
“She’ll apologize if that’s the trouble,” he cried, sitting up. “Look, I’ll
make you an offer. Dictate to me whatever form of words you like, and this
time to-morrow I’ll bring it back signed. This is not instead of any public
apology she may make you in law. It’s an addition.”
“‘Dear Dr. Aziz, I wish you had come into the cave; I am an awful old
hag, and it is my last chance.’ Will she sign that?”
“Well good night, good night, it’s time to go to sleep, after that.”
“Oh, I wish you wouldn’t make that kind of remark,” he continued after a
pause. “It is the one thing in you I can’t put up with.”
There was silence, then dreamily but with deep feeling the voice said:
“Cyril, I have had an idea which will satisfy your tender mind: I shall
consult Mrs. Moore.” Opening his eyes, and beholding thousands of stars,
he could not reply, they silenced him.
“Her opinion will solve everything; I can trust her so absolutely. If she
advises me to pardon this girl, I shall do so. She will counsel me nothing
against my real and true honour, as you might.”
“Is it not strange? I keep on forgetting she has left India. During the
shouting of her name in court I fancied she was present. I had shut my eyes,
I confused myself on purpose to deaden the pain. Now this very instant I
forgot again. I shall be obliged to write. She is now far away, well on her
way towards Ralph and Stella.”
“To whom?”
“Just as I have two boys and a girl, so has Mrs. Moore. She told me in the
mosque.”
“I knew her so slightly.”
“I have seen her but three times, but I know she is an Oriental.”
“You are so fantastic. . . . Miss Quested, you won’t treat her generously;
while over Mrs. Moore there is this elaborate chivalry. Miss Quested
anyhow behaved decently this morning, whereas the old lady never did
anything for you at all, and it’s pure conjecture that she would have come
forward in your favour, it only rests on servants’ gossip. Your emotions
never seem in proportion to their objects, Aziz.”
“I should have thought you could. It sounds common sense. You can’t eat
your cake and have it, even in the world of the spirit.”
“If you are right, there is no point in any friendship; it all comes down to
give and take, or give and return, which is disgusting, and we had better all
leap over this parapet and kill ourselves. Is anything wrong with you this
evening that you grow so materialistic?”
But Hamidullah, who had been listening to all their talk, and did not want
the festive evening spoilt, cried from the adjoining bed: “Aziz, he is trying
to pull your leg; don’t believe him, the villain.”
“I do not believe him,” said Aziz; he was inured to practical jokes, even
of this type.
Fielding said no more. Facts are facts, and everyone would learn of Mrs.
Moore’s death in the morning. But it struck him that people are not really
dead until they are felt to be dead. As long as there is some
misunderstanding about them, they possess a sort of immortality. An
experience of his own confirmed this. Many years ago he had lost a great
friend, a woman, who believed in the Christian heaven, and assured him
that after the changes and chances of this mortal life they would meet in it
again. Fielding was a blank, frank atheist, but he respected every opinion
his friend held: to do this is essential in friendship. And it seemed to him for
a time that the dead awaited him, and when the illusion faded it left behind
it an emptiness that was almost guilt: “This really is the end,” he thought,
“and I gave her the final blow.” He had tried to kill Mrs. Moore this
evening, on the roof of the Nawab Bahadur’s house; but she still eluded
him, and the atmosphere remained tranquil. Presently the moon rose—the
exhausted crescent that precedes the sun—and shortly after men and oxen
began their interminable labour, and the gracious interlude, which he had
tried to curtail, came to its natural conclusion.
CHAPTER XXVIII
Dead she was—committed to the deep while still on the southward track,
for the boats from Bombay cannot point towards Europe until Arabia has
been rounded; she was further in the tropics than ever achieved while on
shore, when the sun touched her for the last time and her body was lowered
into yet another India—the Indian Ocean. She left behind her sore
discomfort, for a death gives a ship a bad name. Who was this Mrs. Moore?
When Aden was reached, Lady Mellanby cabled, wrote, did all that was
kind, but the wife of a Lieutenant-Governor does not bargain for such an
experience; and she repeated: “I had only seen the poor creature for a few
hours when she was taken ill; really this has been needlessly distressing, it
spoils one’s home-coming.” A ghost followed the ship up the Red Sea, but
failed to enter the Mediterranean. Somewhere about Suez there is always a
social change: the arrangements of Asia weaken and those of Europe begin
to be felt, and during the transition Mrs. Moore was shaken off. At Port
Said the grey blustery north began. The weather was so cold and bracing
that the passengers felt it must have broken in the land they had left, but it
became hotter steadily there in accordance with its usual law.
The death took subtler and more lasting shapes in Chandrapore. A legend
sprang up that an Englishman had killed his mother for trying to save an
Indian’s life—and there was just enough truth in this to cause annoyance to
the authorities. Sometimes it was a cow that had been killed—or a crocodile
with the tusks of a boar had crawled out of the Ganges. Nonsense of this
type is more difficult to combat than a solid lie. It hides in rubbish heaps
and moves when no one is looking. At one period two distinct tombs
containing Esmiss Esmoor’s remains were reported: one by the tannery, the
other up near the goods station. Mr. McBryde visited them both and saw
signs of the beginning of a cult—earthenware saucers and so on. Being an
experienced official, he did nothing to irritate it, and after a week or so, the
rash died down. “There’s propaganda behind all this,” he said, forgetting
that a hundred years ago, when Europeans still made their home in the
country-side and appealed to its imagination, they occasionally became
local demons after death—not a whole god, perhaps, but part of one, adding
an epithet or gesture to what already existed, just as the gods contribute to
the great gods, and they to the philosophic Brahm.
Ronny reminded himself that his mother had left India at her own wish,
but his conscience was not clear. He had behaved badly to her, and he had
either to repent (which involved a mental overturn), or to persist in
unkindness towards her. He chose the latter course. How tiresome she had
been with her patronage of Aziz! What a bad influence upon Adela! And
now she still gave trouble with ridiculous “tombs,” mixing herself up with
natives. She could not help it, of course, but she had attempted similar
exasperating expeditions in her lifetime, and he reckoned it against her. The
young man had much to worry him—the heat, the local tension, the
approaching visit of the Lieutenant-Governor, the problems of Adela—and
threading them all together into a grotesque garland were these
Indianizations of Mrs. Moore. What does happen to one’s mother when she
dies? Presumably she goes to heaven, anyhow she clears out. Ronny’s
religion was of the sterilized Public School brand, which never goes bad,
even in the tropics. Wherever he entered, mosque, cave, or temple, he
retained the spiritual outlook of the Fifth Form, and condemned as
“weakening” any attempt to understand them. Pulling himself together, he
dismissed the mater from his mind. In due time he and his half-brother and -
sister would put up a tablet to her in the Northamptonshire church where
she had worshipped, recording the dates of her birth and death and the fact
that she had been buried at sea. This would be sufficient.
And Adela—she would have to depart too; he hoped she would have
made the suggestion herself ere now. He really could not marry her—it
would mean the end of his career. Poor lamentable Adela. . . . She remained
at Government College, by Fielding’s courtesy—unsuitable and
humiliating, but no one would receive her at the civil station. He postponed
all private talk until the award against her was decided. Aziz was suing her
for damages in the sub-judge’s court. Then he would ask her to release him.
She had killed his love, and it had never been very robust; they would never
have achieved betrothal but for the accident to the Nawab Bahadur’s car.
She belonged to the callow academic period of his life which he had
outgrown—Grasmere, serious talks and walks, that sort of thing.
CHAPTER XXIX
Fielding found himself drawn more and more into Miss Quested’s affairs.
The College remained closed and he ate and slept at Hamidullah’s, so there
was no reason she should not stop on if she wished. In her place he would
have cleared out, sooner than submit to Ronny’s half-hearted and distracted
civilities, but she was waiting for the hour-glass of her sojourn to run
through. A house to live in, a garden to walk in during the brief moment of
the cool—that was all she asked, and he was able to provide them. Disaster
had shown her her limitations, and he realized now what a fine loyal
character she was. Her humility was touching. She never repined at getting
the worst of both worlds; she regarded it as the due punishment of her
stupidity. When he hinted to her that a personal apology to Aziz might be
seemly, she said sadly: “Of course. I ought to have thought of it myself, my
instincts never help me. Why didn’t I rush up to him after the trial? Yes, of
course I will write him an apology, but please will you dictate it?” Between
them they concocted a letter, sincere, and full of moving phrases, but it was
not moving as a letter. “Shall I write another?” she enquired. “Nothing
matters if I can undo the harm I have caused. I can do this right, and that
right; but when the two are put together they come wrong. That’s the defect
of my character. I have never realized it until now. I thought that if I was
just and asked questions I would come through every difficulty.” He
replied: “Our letter is a failure for a simple reason which we had better face:
you have no real affection for Aziz, or Indians generally.” She assented.
“The first time I saw you, you were wanting to see India, not Indians, and it
occurred to me: Ah, that won’t take us far. Indians know whether they are
liked or not—they cannot be fooled here. Justice never satisfies them, and
that is why the British Empire rests on sand.” Then she said: “Do I like
anyone, though?” Presumably she liked Heaslop, and he changed the
subject, for this side of her life did not concern him.
His Indian friends were, on the other hand, a bit above themselves.
Victory, which would have made the English sanctimonious, made them
aggressive. They wanted to develop an offensive, and tried to do so by
discovering new grievances and wrongs, many of which had no existence.
They suffered from the usual disillusion that attends warfare. The aims of
battle and the fruits of conquest are never the same; the latter have their
value and only the saint rejects them, but their hint of immortality vanishes
as soon as they are held in the hand. Although Sir Gilbert had been
courteous, almost obsequious, the fabric he represented had in no wise
bowed its head. British officialism remained, as all-pervading and as
unpleasant as the sun; and what was next to be done against it was not very
obvious, even to Mahmoud Ali. Loud talk and trivial lawlessness were
attempted, and behind them continued a genuine but vague desire for
education. “Mr. Fielding, we must all be educated promptly.”
When the affair was thus officially ended, Ronny, who was about to be
transferred to another part of the Province, approached Fielding with his
usual constraint and said: “I wish to thank you for the help you have given
Miss Quested. She will not of course trespass on your hospitality further;
she has as a matter of fact decided to return to England. I have just arranged
about her passage for her. I understand she would like to see you.”
“I am not. This false start has been all my own fault. I was bringing to
Ronny nothing that ought to be brought, that was why he rejected me really.
I entered that cave thinking: Am I fond of him? I have not yet told you that,
Mr. Fielding. I didn’t feel justified. Tenderness, respect, personal
intercourse—I tried to make them take the place—of——”
“No more do I. My experiences here have cured me. But I want others to
want it.”
“But to go back to our first talk (for I suppose this is our last one)—when
you entered that cave, who did follow you, or did no one follow you? Can
you now say? I don’t like it left in air.”
“Let us call it the guide,” she said indifferently. “It will never be known.
It’s as if I ran my finger along that polished wall in the dark, and cannot get
further. I am up against something, and so are you. Mrs. Moore—she did
know.”
“Telepathy, possibly.”
“I shall, often. You have been excessively kind. Now that I’m going, I
realize it. I wish I could do something for you in return, but I see you’ve all
you want.”
“I think so,” he replied after a pause. “I have never felt more happy and
secure out here. I really do get on with Indians, and they do trust me. It’s
pleasant that I haven’t had to resign my job. It’s pleasant to be praised by an
L.-G. Until the next earthquake I remain as I am.”
“But it has made me remember that we must all die: all these personal
relations we try to live by are temporary. I used to feel death selected
people, it is a notion one gets from novels, because some of the characters
are usually left talking at the end. Now ‘death spares no one’ begins to be
real.”
“Don’t let it become too real, or you’ll die yourself. That is the objection
to meditating upon death. We are subdued to what we work in. I have felt
the same temptation, and had to sheer off. I want to go on living a bit.”
“So do I.”
A friendliness, as of dwarfs shaking hands, was in the air. Both man and
woman were at the height of their powers—sensible, honest, even subtle.
They spoke the same language, and held the same opinions, and the variety
of age and sex did not divide them. Yet they were dissatisfied. When they
agreed, “I want to go on living a bit,” or, “I don’t believe in God,” the
words were followed by a curious backwash as though the universe had
displaced itself to fill up a tiny void, or as though they had seen their own
gestures from an immense height—dwarfs talking, shaking hands and
assuring each other that they stood on the same footing of insight. They did
not think they were wrong, because as soon as honest people think they are
wrong instability sets up. Not for them was an infinite goal behind the stars,
and they never sought it. But wistfulness descended on them now, as on
other occasions; the shadow of the shadow of a dream fell over their clear-
cut interests, and objects never seen again seemed messages from another
world.
With Egypt the atmosphere altered. The clean sands, heaped on each side
of the canal, seemed to wipe off everything that was difficult and equivocal,
and even Port Said looked pure and charming in the light of a rose-grey
morning. She went on shore there with an American missionary, they
walked out to the Lesseps statue, they drank the tonic air of the Levant. “To
what duties, Miss Quested, are you returning in your own country after your
taste of the tropics?” the missionary asked.
“Observe, I don’t say to what do you turn, but to what do you re-turn.
Every life ought to contain both a turn and a re-turn. This celebrated
pioneer (he pointed to the statue) will make my question clear. He turns to
the East, he re-turns to the West. You can see it from the cute position of his
hands, one of which holds a string of sausages.” The missionary looked at
her humorously, in order to cover the emptiness of his mind. He had no idea
what he meant by “turn” and “return,” but he often used words in pairs, for
the sake of moral brightness. “I see,” she replied. Suddenly, in the
Mediterranean clarity, she had seen. Her first duty on returning to England
was to look up those other children of Mrs. Moore’s, Ralph and Stella, then
she would turn to her profession. Mrs. Moore had tended to keep the
products of her two marriages apart, and Adela had not come across the
younger branch so far.
CHAPTER XXX
“My dear Das, why, when you tried to send me to prison, should I try to
send Mr. Bhattacharya a poem? Eh? That is naturally entirely a joke. I will
write him the best I can, but I thought your magazine was for Hindus.”
“There was not, but there may be when you have written a poem. You are
our hero; the whole city is behind you, irrespective of creed.”
“I fear not,” said Das, who had much mental clearness. “And for that
reason, if I may say so, do not introduce too many Persian expressions into
the poem, and not too much about the bulbul.”
“Half a sec,” said Aziz, biting his pencil. He was writing out a
prescription. “Here you are. . . . Is not this better than a poem?”
“No, no, what nonsense!” protested Aziz. They shook hands, in a half-
embrace that typified the entente. Between people of distant climes there is
always the possibility of romance, but the various branches of Indians know
too much about each other to surmount the unknowable easily. The
approach is prosaic. “Excellent,” said Aziz, patting a stout shoulder and
thinking, “I wish they did not remind me of cow-dung”; Das thought,
“Some Moslems are very violent.” They smiled wistfully, each spying the
thought in the other’s heart, and Das, the more articulate, said: “Excuse my
mistakes, realize my limitations. Life is not easy as we know it on the
earth.”
“Oh, well, about this poem—how did you hear I sometimes scribbled?”
he asked, much pleased, and a good deal moved—for literature had always
been a solace to him, something that the ugliness of facts could not spoil.
“Professor Godbole often mentioned it, before his departure for Mau.”
Flattered by the invitation, he got to work that evening. The feel of the
pen between his fingers generated bulbuls at once. His poem was again
about the decay of Islam and the brevity of love; as sad and sweet as he
could contrive, but not nourished by personal experience, and of no interest
to these excellent Hindus. Feeling dissatisfied, he rushed to the other
extreme, and wrote a satire, which was too libellous to print. He could only
express pathos or venom, though most of his life had no concern with
either. He loved poetry—science was merely an acquisition, which he laid
aside when unobserved like his European dress—and this evening he
longed to compose a new song which should be acclaimed by multitudes
and even sung in the fields. In what language shall it be written? And what
shall it announce? He vowed to see more of Indians who were not
Mohammedans, and never to look backward. It is the only healthy course.
Of what help, in this latitude and hour, are the glories of Cordova and
Samarcand? They have gone, and while we lament them the English occupy
Delhi and exclude us from East Africa. Islam itself, though true, throws
cross-lights over the path to freedom. The song of the future must transcend
creed.
The poem for Mr. Bhattacharya never got written, but it had an effect. It
led him towards the vague and bulky figure of a mother-land. He was
without natural affection for the land of his birth, but the Marabar Hills
drove him to it. Half closing his eyes, he attempted to love India. She must
imitate Japan. Not until she is a nation will her sons be treated with respect.
He grew harder and less approachable. The English, whom he had laughed
at or ignored, persecuted him everywhere; they had even thrown nets over
his dreams. “My great mistake has been taking our rulers as a joke,” he said
to Hamidullah next day; who replied with a sigh: “It is far the wisest way to
take them, but not possible in the long run. Sooner or later a disaster such as
yours occurs, and reveals their secret thoughts about our character. If God
himself descended from heaven into their club and said you were innocent,
they would disbelieve him. Now you see why Mahmoud Ali and self waste
so much time over intrigues and associate with creatures like Ram Chand.”
“I do want to get away from British India, even to a poor job. I think I
could write poetry there. I wish I had lived in Babur’s time and fought and
written for him. Gone, gone, and not even any use to say ‘Gone, gone,’ for
it weakens us while we say it. We need a king, Hamidullah; it would make
our lives easier. As it is, we must try to appreciate these quaint Hindus. My
notion now is to try for some post as doctor in one of their states.”
“But the money, the money—they will never pay an adequate salary,
those savage Rajahs.”
“If you had been sensible and made Miss Quested pay——”
“I chose not to. Discussion of the past is useless,” he said, with sudden
sharpness of tone. “I have allowed her to keep her fortune and buy herself a
husband in England, for which it will be very necessary. Don’t mention the
matter again.”
“Very well, but your life must continue a poor man’s; no holidays in
Kashmir for you yet, you must stick to your profession and rise to a highly
paid post, not retire to a jungle-state and write poems. Educate your
children, read the latest scientific periodicals, compel European doctors to
respect you. Accept the consequences of your own actions like a man.”
Aziz winked at him slowly and said: “We are not in the law courts. There
are many ways of being a man; mine is to express what is deepest in my
heart.”
“Which?”
“When Miss Quested stopped in the College, Fielding used to visit her . .
. rather too late in the evening, the servants say.”
“A pleasant change for her if he did,” said Aziz, making a curious face.
The young man winked again and said: “Just! Still, your meaning doesn’t
help me out of my difficulties. I am determined to leave Chandrapore. The
problem is, for where? I am determined to write poetry. The problem is,
about what? You give me no assistance.” Then, surprising both Hamidullah
and himself, he had an explosion of nerves. “But who does give me
assistance? No one is my friend. All are traitors, even my own children. I
have had enough of friends.”
“They come before me separately, but not so far together. You had better
prepare them for the united shock of my face.”
“No, let us surprise them without warning, far too much nonsense still
goes on among our ladies. They pretended at the time of your trial they
would give up purdah; indeed, those of them who can write composed a
document to that effect, and now it ends in humbug. You know how deeply
they all respect Fielding, but not one of them has seen him. My wife says
she will, but always when he calls there is some excuse—she is not feeling
well, she is ashamed of the room, she has no nice sweets to offer him, only
Elephants’ Ears, and if I say Elephants’ Ears are Mr. Fielding’s favourite
sweet, she replies that he will know how badly hers are made, so she cannot
see him on their account. For fifteen years, my dear boy, have I argued with
my begum, for fifteen years, and never gained a point, yet the missionaries
inform us our women are down-trodden. If you want a subject for a poem,
take this: The Indian lady as she is and not as she is supposed to be.”
CHAPTER XXXI
Aziz had no sense of evidence. The sequence of his emotions decided his
beliefs, and led to the tragic coolness between himself and his English
friend. They had conquered but were not to be crowned. Fielding was away
at a conference, and after the rumour about Miss Quested had been with
him undisturbed for a few days, he assumed it was true. He had no
objection on moral grounds to his friends amusing themselves, and Cyril,
being middle-aged, could no longer expect the pick of the female market,
and must take his amusement where he could find it. But he resented him
making up to this particular woman, whom he still regarded as his enemy;
also, why had he not been told? What is friendship without confidences? He
himself had told things sometimes regarded as shocking, and the
Englishman had listened, tolerant, but surrendering nothing in return.
He met Fielding at the railway station on his return, agreed to dine with
him, and then started taxing him by the oblique method, outwardly merry.
An avowed European scandal there was—Mr. McBryde and Miss Derek.
Miss Derek’s faithful attachment to Chandrapore was now explained: Mr.
McBryde had been caught in her room, and his wife was divorcing him.
“That pure-minded fellow. However, he will blame the Indian climate.
Everything is our fault really. Now, have I not discovered an important
piece of news for you, Cyril?”
“Not very,” said Fielding, who took little interest in distant sins. “Listen
to mine.” Aziz’ face lit up. “At the conference, it was settled. . . .”
“It’s all over the town, and may injure your reputation. You know,
everyone is by no means your supporter. I have tried all I could to silence
such a story.”
“It is those who stop in the country, not those who leave it, whom such a
story injures. Imagine my dismay and anxiety. I could scarcely get a wink
of sleep. First my name was coupled with her and now it is yours.”
“As what?”
“Have I not lived all my life in India? Do I not know what produces a
bad impression here?” His voice shot up rather crossly.
“Yes, but the scale, the scale. You always get the scale wrong, my dear
fellow. A pity there is this rumour, but such a very small pity—so small that
we may as well talk of something else.”
“You mind for Miss Quested’s sake, though. I can see from your face.”
“What enemies?”
Since Aziz had only himself in mind, he could not reply. Feeling a fool,
he became angrier. “I have given you list after list of the people who cannot
be trusted in this city. In your position I should have the sense to know I
was surrounded by enemies. You observe I speak in a low voice. It is
because I see your sais is new. How do I know he isn’t a spy?” He lowered
his voice: “Every third servant is a spy.”
“It simply doesn’t affect me. Spies are as thick as mosquitoes, but it’s
years before I shall meet the one that kills me. You’ve something else in
your mind.”
Any direct attack threw him out of action. Presently he said: “So you and
Madamsell Adela used to amuse one another in the evening, naughty boy.”
Those drab and high-minded talks had scarcely made for dalliance.
Fielding was so startled at the story being taken seriously, and so disliked
being called a naughty boy, that he lost his head and cried: “You little rotter!
Well, I’m damned. Amusement indeed. Is it likely at such a time?”
“Oh, I beg your pardon, I’m sure. The licentious Oriental imagination
was at work,” he replied, speaking gaily, but cut to the heart; for hours after
his mistake he bled inwardly.
“You see, Aziz, the circumstances . . . also the girl was still engaged to
Heaslop, also I never felt . . .”
“Yes, yes; but you didn’t contradict what I said, so I thought it was true.
Oh dear, East and West. Most misleading. Will you please put your little
rotter down at his hospital?”
“It has been,” he answered, dignified. “I believe absolutely what you say,
and of that there need be no further question.”
“But the way I said it must be cleared up. I was unintentionally rude.
Unreserved regrets.”
Tangles like this still interrupted their intercourse. A pause in the wrong
place, an intonation misunderstood, and a whole conversation went awry.
Fielding had been startled, not shocked, but how convey the difference?
There is always trouble when two people do not think of sex at the same
moment, always mutual resentment and surprise, even when the two people
are of the same race. He began to recapitulate his feelings about Miss
Quested. Aziz cut him short with: “But I believe you, I believe. Mohammed
Latif shall be severely punished for inventing this.”
“Oh, leave it alone, like all gossip—it’s merely one of those half-alive
things that try to crowd out real life. Take no notice, it’ll vanish, like poor
old Mrs. Moore’s tombs.”
His eyes went clotted and hard. “Dinner. This is most unlucky—— I
forgot. I have promised to dine with Das.”
They had reached the hospital now. Fielding continued round the Maidan
alone. He was annoyed with himself, but counted on dinner to pull things
straight. At the post office he saw the Collector. Their vehicles were parked
side by side while their servants competed in the interior of the building.
“Good morning; so you are back,” said Turton icily. “I should be glad if you
will put in your appearance at the club this evening.”
“It is not a question of your feelings, but of the wish of the Lieutenant-
Governor. Perhaps you will ask me whether I speak officially. I do. I shall
expect you this evening at six. We shall not interfere with your subsequent
plans.”
“I thought you might end in England,” he said very quietly, then changed
the conversation. Rather awkwardly they ate their dinner, then went out to
sit in the Mogul garden-house.
“What is the nature of the business? Will it leave you much spare time?”
“I expected you to make such a reply. You are a faithful friend. Shall we
now talk about something else?”
“Poetry,” he said, with tears in his eyes. “Let us discuss why poetry has
lost the power of making men brave. My mother’s father was also a poet,
and fought against you in the Mutiny. I might equal him if there was
another mutiny. As it is, I am a doctor, who has won a case and has three
children to support, and whose chief subject of conversation is official
plans.”
“Let us talk about poetry.” He turned his mind to the innocuous subject.
“You people are sadly circumstanced. Whatever are you to write about?
You cannot say, ‘The rose is faded,’ for evermore. We know it’s faded. Yet
you can’t have patriotic poetry of the ‘India, my India’ type, when it’s
nobody’s India.”
“I was a child when you knew me first. Everyone was my friend then.
The Friend: a Persian expression for God. But I do not want to be a
religious poet either.”
“There is something in religion that may not be true, but has not yet been
sung.”
“Explain in detail.”
“Cyril, you sometimes make a sensible remark. That will do for poetry
for the present. Let us now return to your English visit.”
“We haven’t discussed poetry for two seconds,” said the other, smiling.
But Aziz was addicted to cameos. He held the tiny conversation in his
hand, and felt it epitomized his problem. For an instant he recalled his wife,
and, as happens when a memory is intense, the past became the future, and
he saw her with him in a quiet Hindu jungle native state, far away from
foreigners. He said: “I suppose you will visit Miss Quested.”
“What is Hampstead?”
“But you haven’t got your bicycle. My carriage fetched you—let it take
you away.”
“Aziz, you have forgiven me the stupid remark I made this morning?”
“Look at those flies on the ceiling. Why have you not drowned them?”
To divert the conversation, Hassan related how the kitchen-boy had killed
a snake, good, but killed it by cutting it in two, bad, because it becomes two
snakes.
“Glasses and a new teapot will similarly be required, also for myself a
coat.”
Aziz sighed. Each for himself. One man needs a coat, another a rich wife;
each approaches his goal by a clever detour. Fielding had saved the girl a
fine of twenty thousand rupees, and now followed her to England. If he
desired to marry her, all was explained; she would bring him a larger dowry.
Aziz did not believe his own suspicions—better if he had, for then he would
have denounced and cleared the situation up. Suspicion and belief could in
his mind exist side by side. They sprang from different sources, and need
never intermingle. Suspicion in the Oriental is a sort of malignant tumour, a
mental malady, that makes him self-conscious and unfriendly suddenly; he
trusts and mistrusts at the same time in a way the Westerner cannot
comprehend. It is his demon, as the Westerner’s is hypocrisy. Aziz was
seized by it, and his fancy built a satanic castle, of which the foundation had
been laid when he talked at Dilkusha under the stars. The girl had surely
been Cyril’s mistress when she stopped in the College—Mohammed Latif
was right. But was that all? Perhaps it was Cyril who followed her into the
cave. . . . No; impossible. Cyril hadn’t been on the Kawa Dol at all.
Impossible. Ridiculous. Yet the fancy left him trembling with misery. Such
treachery—if true—would have been the worst in Indian history; nothing so
vile, not even the murder of Afzul Khan by Sivaji. He was shaken, as
though by a truth, and told Hassan to leave him.
Next day he decided to take his children back to Mussoorie. They had
come down for the trial, that he might bid them farewell, and had stayed on
at Hamidullah’s for the rejoicings. Major Roberts would give him leave,
and during his absence Fielding would go off to England. The idea suited
both his beliefs and his suspicions. Events would prove which was right,
and preserve, in either case, his dignity.
Egypt was charming—a green strip of carpet and walking up and down it
four sorts of animals and one sort of man. Fielding’s business took him
there for a few days. He re-embarked at Alexandria—bright blue sky,
constant wind, clean low coast-line, as against the intricacies of Bombay.
Crete welcomed him next with the long snowy ridge of its mountains, and
then came Venice. As he landed on the piazzetta a cup of beauty was lifted
to his lips, and he drank with a sense of disloyalty. The buildings of Venice,
like the mountains of Crete and the fields of Egypt, stood in the right place,
whereas in poor India everything was placed wrong. He had forgotten the
beauty of form among idol temples and lumpy hills; indeed, without form,
how can there be beauty? Form stammered here and there in a mosque,
became rigid through nervousness even, but oh these Italian churches! San
Giorgio standing on the island which could scarcely have risen from the
waves without it, the Salute holding the entrance of a canal which, but for
it, would not be the Grand Canal! In the old undergraduate days he had
wrapped himself up in the many-coloured blanket of St. Mark’s, but
something more precious than mosaics and marbles was offered to him
now: the harmony between the works of man and the earth that upholds
them, the civilization that has escaped muddle, the spirit in a reasonable
form, with flesh and blood subsisting. Writing picture post-cards to his
Indian friends, he felt that all of them would miss the joys he experienced
now, the joys of form, and that this constituted a serious barrier. They
would see the sumptuousness of Venice, not its shape, and though Venice
was not Europe, it was part of the Mediterranean harmony. The
Mediterranean is the human norm. When men leave that exquisite lake,
whether through the Bosphorus or the Pillars of Hercules, they approach the
monstrous and extraordinary; and the southern exit leads to the strangest
experience of all. Turning his back on it yet again, he took the train
northward, and tender romantic fancies that he thought were dead for ever,
flowered when he saw the buttercups and daisies of June.
PART III: TEMPLE
CHAPTER XXXIII
Some hundreds of miles westward of the Marabar Hills, and two years
later in time, Professor Narayan Godbole stands in the presence of God.
God is not born yet—that will occur at midnight—but He has also been
born centuries ago, nor can He ever be born, because He is the Lord of the
Universe, who transcends human processes. He is, was not, is not, was. He
and Professor Godbole stood at opposite ends of the same strip of carpet.
“Tukaram, Tukaram,
Thou art my father and mother and everybody.
Tukaram, Tukaram,
Thou art my father and mother and everybody.
Tukaram, Tukaram,
Thou art my father and mother and everybody.
Tukaram, Tukaram,
Thou art my father and mother and everybody.
Tukaram. . . .”
This corridor in the palace at Mau opened through other corridors into a
courtyard. It was of beautiful hard white stucco, but its pillars and vaulting
could scarcely be seen behind coloured rags, iridescent balls, chandeliers of
opaque pink glass, and murky photographs framed crookedly. At the end
was the small but famous shrine of the dynastic cult, and the God to be born
was largely a silver image the size of a teaspoon. Hindus sat on either side
of the carpet where they could find room, or overflowed into the adjoining
corridors and the courtyard—Hindus, Hindus only, mild-featured men,
mostly villagers, for whom anything outside their villages passed in a
dream. They were the toiling ryot, whom some call the real India. Mixed
with them sat a few tradesmen out of the little town, officials, courtiers,
scions of the ruling house. Schoolboys kept inefficient order. The assembly
was in a tender, happy state unknown to an English crowd, it seethed like a
beneficent potion. When the villagers broke cordon for a glimpse of the
silver image, a most beautiful and radiant expression came into their faces,
a beauty in which there was nothing personal, for it caused them all to
resemble one another during the moment of its indwelling, and only when it
was withdrawn did they revert to individual clods. And so with the music.
Music there was, but from so many sources that the sum-total was
untrammelled. The braying banging crooning melted into a single mass
which trailed round the palace before joining the thunder. Rain fell at
intervals throughout the night.
“Tukaram, Tukaram,
Thou art my father and mother and everybody.
Tukaram, Tukaram,
Thou art my father and mother and everybody.
Tukaram, Tukaram. . . .”
They sang not even to the God who confronted them, but to a saint; they
did not one thing which the non-Hindu would feel dramatically correct; this
approaching triumph of India was a muddle (as we call it), a frustration of
reason and form. Where was the God Himself, in whose honour the
congregation had gathered? Indistinguishable in the jumble of His own
altar, huddled out of sight amid images of inferior descent, smothered under
rose-leaves, overhung by oleographs, outblazed by golden tablets
representing the Rajah’s ancestors, and entirely obscured, when the wind
blew, by the tattered foliage of a banana. Hundreds of electric lights had
been lit in His honour (worked by an engine whose thumps destroyed the
rhythm of the hymn). Yet His face could not be seen. Hundreds of His silver
dishes were piled around Him with the minimum of effect. The inscriptions
which the poets of the State had composed were hung where they could not
be read, or had twitched their drawing-pins out of the stucco, and one of
them (composed in English to indicate His universality) consisted, by an
unfortunate slip of the draughtsman, of the words, “God si Love.”
No one greeted the Rajah, nor did he wish it; this was no moment for
human glory. Nor could the litter be set down, lest it defiled the temple by
becoming a throne. He was lifted out of it while its feet remained in air, and
deposited on the carpet close to the altar, his immense beard was
straightened, his legs tucked under him, a paper containing red powder was
placed in his hand. There he sat, leaning against a pillar, exhausted with
illness, his eyes magnified by many unshed tears.
He had not to wait long. In a land where all else was unpunctual, the hour
of the Birth was chronometrically observed. Three minutes before it was
due, a Brahman brought forth a model of the village of Gokul (the
Bethlehem in that nebulous story) and placed it in front of the altar. The
model was on a wooden tray about a yard square; it was of clay, and was
gaily blue and white with streamers and paint. Here, upon a chair too small
for him and with a head too large, sat King Kansa, who is Herod, directing
the murder of some Innocents, and in a corner, similarly proportioned, stood
the father and mother of the Lord, warned to depart in a dream. The model
was not holy, but more than a decoration, for it diverted men from the
actual image of the God, and increased their sacred bewilderment. Some of
the villagers thought the Birth had occurred, saying with truth that the Lord
must have been born, or they could not see Him. But the clock struck
midnight, and simultaneously the rending note of the conch broke forth,
followed by the trumpeting of elephants; all who had packets of powder
threw them at the altar, and in the rosy dust and incense, and clanging and
shouts, Infinite Love took upon itself the form of S K , and saved
the world. All sorrow was annihilated, not only for Indians, but for
foreigners, birds, caves, railways, and the stars; all became joy, all laughter;
there had never been disease nor doubt, misunderstanding, cruelty, fear.
Some jumped in the air, others flung themselves prone and embraced the
bare feet of the universal lover; the women behind the purdah slapped and
shrieked; the little girl slipped out and danced by herself, her black pigtails
flying. Not an orgy of the body; the tradition of that shrine forbade it. But
the human spirit had tried by a desperate contortion to ravish the unknown,
flinging down science and history in the struggle, yes, beauty herself. Did it
succeed? Books written afterwards say “Yes.” But how, if there is such an
event, can it be remembered afterwards? How can it be expressed in
anything but itself? Not only from the unbeliever are mysteries hid, but the
adept himself cannot retain them. He may think, if he chooses, that he has
been with God, but as soon as he thinks it, it becomes history, and falls
under the rules of time.
Down in the sacred corridors, joy had seethed to jollity. It was their duty
to play various games to amuse the newly born God, and to simulate his
sports with the wanton dairymaids of Brindaban. Butter played a prominent
part in these. When the cradle had been removed, the principal nobles of the
state gathered together for an innocent frolic. They removed their turbans,
and one put a lump of butter on his forehead, and waited for it to slide down
his nose into his mouth. Before it could arrive, another stole up behind him,
snatched the melting morsel, and swallowed it himself. All laughed
exultantly at discovering that the divine sense of humour coincided with
their own. “God si love!” There is fun in heaven. God can play practical
jokes upon Himself, draw chairs away from beneath His own posteriors, set
His own turbans on fire, and steal His own petticoats when He bathes. By
sacrificing good taste, this worship achieved what Christianity has shirked:
the inclusion of merriment. All spirit as well as all matter must participate
in salvation, and if practical jokes are banned, the circle is incomplete.
Having swallowed the butter, they played another game which chanced to
be graceful: the fondling of Shri Krishna under the similitude of a child. A
pretty red and gold ball is thrown, and he who catches it chooses a child
from the crowd, raises it in his arms, and carries it round to be caressed. All
stroke the darling creature for the Creator’s sake, and murmur happy words.
The child is restored to his parents, the ball thrown on, and another child
becomes for a moment the World’s Desire. And the Lord bounds hither and
thither through the aisles, chance, and the sport of chance, irradiating little
mortals with His immortality. . . . When they had played this long enough—
and being exempt from boredom, they played it again and again, they
played it again and again—they took many sticks and hit them together,
whack smack, as though they fought the Pandava wars, and threshed and
churned with them, and later on they hung from the roof of the temple, in a
net, a great black earthenware jar, which was painted here and there with
red, and wreathed with dried figs. Now came a rousing sport. Springing up,
they struck at the jar with their sticks. It cracked, broke, and a mass of
greasy rice and milk poured on to their faces. They ate and smeared one
another’s mouths, and dived between each other’s legs for what had been
pashed upon the carpet. This way and that spread the divine mess, until the
line of schoolboys, who had somewhat fended off the crowd, broke for their
share. The corridors, the courtyard, were filled with benign confusion. Also
the flies awoke and claimed their share of God’s bounty. There was no
quarrelling, owing to the nature of the gift, for blessed is the man who
confers it on another, he imitates God. And those “imitations,” those
“substitutions,” continued to flicker through the assembly for many hours,
awaking in each man, according to his capacity, an emotion that he would
not have had otherwise. No definite image survived; at the Birth it was
questionable whether a silver doll or a mud village, or a silk napkin, or an
intangible spirit, or a pious resolution, had been born. Perhaps all these
things! Perhaps none! Perhaps all birth is an allegory! Still, it was the main
event of the religious year. It caused strange thoughts. Covered with grease
and dust, Professor Godbole had once more developed the life of his spirit.
He had, with increasing vividness, again seen Mrs. Moore, and round her
faintly clinging forms of trouble. He was a Brahman, she Christian, but it
made no difference, it made no difference whether she was a trick of his
memory or a telepathic appeal. It was his duty, as it was his desire, to place
himself in the position of the God and to love her, and to place himself in
her position and to say to the God, “Come, come, come, come.” This was
all he could do. How inadequate! But each according to his own capacities,
and he knew that his own were small. “One old Englishwoman and one
little, little wasp,” he thought, as he stepped out of the temple into the grey
of a pouring wet morning. “It does not seem much, still it is more than I am
myself.”
CHAPTER XXXIV
Dr. Aziz left the palace at the same time. As he returned to his house—
which stood in a pleasant garden further up the main street of the town—he
could see his old patron paddling and capering in the slush ahead. “Hullo!”
he called, and it was the wrong remark, for the devotee indicated by circular
gestures of his arms that he did not desire to be disturbed. He added,
“Sorry,” which was right, for Godbole twisted his head till it didn’t belong
to his body, and said in a strained voice that had no connection with his
mind: “He arrived at the European Guest House perhaps—at least
possibly.”
But time was too definite. He waved his arm more dimly and
disappeared. Aziz knew who “he” was—Fielding—but he refused to think
about him, because it disturbed his life, and he still trusted the floods to
prevent him from arriving. A fine little river issued from his garden gate
and gave him much hope. It was impossible that anyone could get across
from Deora in such weather as this. Fielding’s visit was official. He had
been transferred from Chandrapore, and sent on a tour through Central
India to see what the remoter states were doing with regard to English
education. He had married, he had done the expected with Miss Quested,
and Aziz had no wish to see him again.
His impulse to escape from the English was sound. They had frightened
him permanently, and there are only two reactions against fright: to kick
and scream on committees, or to retreat to a remote jungle, where the sahib
seldom comes. His old lawyer friends wanted him to stop in British India
and help agitate, and might have prevailed, but for the treachery of Fielding.
The news had not surprised him in the least. A rift had opened between
them after the trial when Cyril had not joined in his procession; those
advocacies of the girl had increased it; then came the post-cards from
Venice, so cold, so unfriendly that all agreed that something was wrong;
and finally, after a silence, the expected letter from Hampstead. Mahmoud
Ali was with him at the time. “Some news that will surprise you. I am to
marry someone whom you know. . .” He did not read further. “Here it
comes, answer for me——” and he threw it to Mahmoud Ali. Subsequent
letters he destroyed unopened. It was the end of a foolish experiment. And
though sometimes at the back of his mind he felt that Fielding had made
sacrifices for him, it was now all confused with his genuine hatred of the
English. “I am an Indian at last,” he thought, standing motionless in the
rain.
Life passed pleasantly, the climate was healthy so that the children could
be with him all the year round, and he had married again—not exactly a
marriage, but he liked to regard it as one—and he read his Persian, wrote
his poetry, had his horse, and sometimes got some shikar while the good
Hindus looked the other way. His poems were all on one topic—Oriental
womanhood. “The purdah must go,” was their burden, “otherwise we shall
never be free.” And he declared (fantastically) that India would not have
been conquered if women as well as men had fought at Plassy. “But we do
not show our women to the foreigner”—not explaining how this was to be
managed, for he was writing a poem. Bulbuls and roses would still persist,
the pathos of defeated Islam remained in his blood and could not be
expelled by modernities. Illogical poems—like their writer. Yet they struck
a true note: there cannot be a mother-land without new homes. In one poem
—the only one funny old Godbole liked—he had skipped over the mother-
land (whom he did not truly love) and gone straight to internationality. “Ah,
that is bhakti; ah, my young friend, that is different and very good. Ah,
India, who seems not to move, will go straight there while the other nations
waste their time. May I translate this particular one into Hindi? In fact, it
might be rendered into Sanskrit almost, it is so enlightened. Yes, of course,
all your other poems are very good too. His Highness was saying to Colonel
Maggs last time he came that we are proud of you”—simpering slightly.
Colonel Maggs was the Political Agent for the neighbourhood and Aziz’
dejected opponent. The Criminal Investigation Department kept an eye on
Aziz ever since the trial—they had nothing actionable against him, but
Indians who have been unfortunate must be watched, and to the end of his
life he remained under observation, thanks to Miss Quested’s mistake.
Colonel Maggs learnt with concern that a suspect was coming to Mau, and,
adopting a playful manner, rallied the old Rajah for permitting a Moslem
doctor to approach his sacred person. A few years ago, the Rajah would
have taken the hint, for the Political Agent then had been a formidable
figure, descending with all the thunders of Empire when it was most
inconvenient, turning the polity inside out, requiring motor-cars and tiger-
hunts, trees cut down that impeded the view from the Guest House, cows
milked in his presence, and generally arrogating the control of internal
affairs. But there had been a change of policy in high quarters. Local
thunders were no longer endorsed, and the group of little states that
composed the agency discovered this and began comparing notes with
fruitful result. To see how much, or how little, Colonel Maggs would stand,
became an agreeable game at Mau, which was played by all the
departments of State. He had to stand the appointment of Dr. Aziz. The
Rajah did not take the hint, but replied that Hindus were less exclusive than
formerly, thanks to the enlightened commands of the Viceroy, and he felt it
his duty to move with the times.
Yes, all had gone well hitherto, but now, when the rest of the state was
plunged in its festival, he had a crisis of a very different sort. A note
awaited him at his house. There was no doubt that Fielding had arrived
overnight, nor much doubt that Godbole knew of his arrival, for the note
was addressed to him, and he had read it before sending it on to Aziz, and
had written in the margin, “Is not this delightful news, but unfortunately my
religious duties prevent me from taking any action.” Fielding announced
that he had inspected Mudkul (Miss Derek’s former preserve), that he had
nearly been drowned at Deora, that he had reached Mau according to time-
table, and hoped to remain there two days, studying the various educational
innovations of his old friend. Nor had he come alone. His wife and her
brother accompanied him. And then the note turned into the sort of note that
always did arrive from the State Guest House. Wanting something. No eggs.
Mosquito nets torn. When would they pay their respects to His Highness?
Was it correct that a torchlight procession would take place? If so, might
they view it? They didn’t want to give trouble, but if they might stand in a
balcony, or if they might go out in a boat. . . . Aziz tore the note up. He had
had enough of showing Miss Quested native life. Treacherous hideous
harridan! Bad people altogether. He hoped to avoid them, though this might
be difficult, for they would certainly be held up for several days at Mau.
Down country, the floods were even worse, and the pale grey faces of lakes
had appeared in the direction of the Asirgarh railway station.
CHAPTER XXXV
A slim, tall eight-sided building stood at the top of the slope, among
some bushes. This was the Shrine of the Head. It had not been roofed, and
was indeed merely a screen. Inside it crouched a humble dome, and inside
that, visible through a grille, was a truncated gravestone, swathed in calico.
The inner angles of the screen were cumbered with bees’ nests, and a gentle
shower of broken wings and other aerial oddments kept falling, and had
strewn the damp pavement with their flue. Ahmed, apprized by Mohammed
Latif of the character of the bee, said, “They will not hurt us, whose lives
are chaste,” and pushed boldly in; his sister was more cautious. From the
shrine they went to a mosque, which, in size and design, resembled a fire-
screen; the arcades of Chandrapore had shrunk to a flat piece of ornamental
stucco, with protuberances at either end to suggest minarets. The funny
little thing didn’t even stand straight, for the rock on which it had been put
was slipping down the hill. It, and the shrine, were a strange outcome of the
protests of Arabia.
They wandered over the old fort, now deserted, and admired the various
views. The scenery, according to their standards, was delightful—the sky
grey and black, bellyfuls of rain all over it, the earth pocked with pools of
water and slimy with mud. A magnificent monsoon—the best for three
years, the tanks already full, bumper crops possible. Out towards the river
(the route by which the Fieldings had escaped from Deora) the downpour
had been enormous, the mails had to be pulled across by ropes. They could
just see the break in the forest trees where the gorge came through, and the
rocks above that marked the site of the diamond mine, glistening with wet.
Close beneath was the suburban residence of the Junior Rani, isolated by
floods, and Her Highness, lax about purdah, to be seen paddling with her
handmaidens in the garden and waving her sari at the monkeys on the roof.
But better not look close beneath, perhaps—nor towards the European
Guest House either. Beyond the Guest House rose another grey-green
gloom of hills, covered with temples like little white flames. There were
over two hundred gods in that direction alone, who visited each other
constantly, and owned numerous cows, and all the betel-leaf industry,
besides having shares in the Asirgarh motor omnibus. Many of them were
in the palace at this moment, having the time of their lives; others, too large
or proud to travel, had sent symbols to represent them. The air was thick
with religion and rain.
Their white shirts fluttering, Ahmed and Karim ran about over the fort,
shrieking with joy. Presently they intersected a line of prisoners, who were
looking aimlessly at an old bronze gun. “Which of you is to be pardoned?”
they asked. For to-night was the procession of the Chief God, when He
would leave the palace, escorted by the whole power of the State, and pass
by the Jail, which stood down in the town now. As He did so, troubling the
waters of our civilization, one prisoner would be released, and then He
would proceed to the great Mau tank that stretched as far as the Guest
House garden, where something else would happen, some final or
subsidiary apotheosis, after which He would submit to the experience of
sleep. The Aziz family did not grasp as much as this, being Moslem, but the
visit to the Jail was common knowledge. Smiling, with downcast eyes, the
prisoners discussed with the gentry their chances of salvation. Except for
the irons on their legs, they resembled other men, nor did they feel different.
Five of them, who had not yet been brought to trial, could expect no pardon,
but all who had been convicted were full of hope. They did not distinguish
between the God and the Rajah in their minds, both were too far above
them; but the guard was better educated, and ventured to enquire after His
Highness’s health.
“It always improves,” replied the medicine man. As a matter of fact, the
Rajah was dead, the ceremony overnight had overtaxed his strength. His
death was being concealed lest the glory of the festival were dimmed. The
Hindu physician, the Private Secretary, and a confidential servant remained
with the corpse, while Aziz had assumed the duty of being seen in public,
and misleading people. He had liked the ruler very much, and might not
prosper under his successor, yet he could not worry over such problems yet,
for he was involved in the illusion he helped to create. The children
continued to run about, hunting for a frog to put in Mohammed Latif’s bed,
the little fools. Hundreds of frogs lived in their own garden, but they must
needs catch one up on the fort. They reported two topis below. Fielding and
his brother-in-law, instead of resting after their journey, were climbing the
slope to the saint’s tomb!
“Ahmed, come here for such wickedness.” He raised his hand to smite
his firstborn, but allowed it to be kissed instead. It was sweet to have his
sons with him at this moment, and to know they were affectionate and
brave. He pointed out that the Englishmen were State guests, so must not be
poisoned, and received, as always, gentle yet enthusiastic assent to his
words.
The two visitors entered the octagon, but rushed out at once pursued by
some bees. Hither and thither they ran, beating their heads; the children
shrieked with derision, and out of heaven, as if a plug had been pulled, fell
a jolly dollop of rain. Aziz had not meant to greet his former friend, but the
incident put him into an excellent temper. He felt compact and strong. He
shouted out, “Hullo, gentlemen, are you in trouble?”
“Lie down in a pool of water, my dear sir—here are plenty. Don’t come
near me. . . . I cannot control them, they are State bees; complain to His
Highness of their behaviour.” There was no real danger, for the rain was
increasing. The swarm retired to the shrine. He went up to the stranger and
pulled a couple of stings out of his wrist, remarking, “Come, pull yourself
together and be a man.”
“How do you do, Aziz, after all this time? I heard you were settled in
here,” Fielding called to him, but not in friendly tones. “I suppose a couple
of stings don’t signify.”
“Not the least. I’ll send an embrocation over to the Guest House. I heard
you were settled in there.”
“Why have you not answered my letters?” he asked, going straight for
the point, but not reaching it, owing to buckets of rain. His companion, new
to the country, cried, as the drops drummed on his topi, that the bees were
renewing their attack. Fielding checked his antics rather sharply, then said:
“Is there a short cut down to our carriage? We must give up our walk. The
weather’s pestilential.”
“I don’t know.”
“Really.”
“If the weather lifts, we want to see your torchlight procession from the
water this evening,” he pursued. “I wrote to Godbole about it, but he has
taken no notice; it’s a place of the dead.”
“I know nothing at all about the religion here. I should never think of
watching it myself.”
“We had a very different reception both at Mudkul and Deora, they were
kindness itself at Deora, the Maharajah and Maharani wanted us to see
everything.”
“I’m only Ralph Moore,” said the boy, blushing, and at that moment
there fell another pailful of the rain, and made a mist round their feet. Aziz
tried to withdraw, but it was too late.
“Quested? Quested? Don’t you know that my wife was Mrs. Moore’s
daughter?”
He trembled, and went purplish grey; he hated the news, hated hearing
the name Moore.
“The preposterous letter you allowed Mahmoud Ali to write for you.”
“However did you make such a mistake?” said Fielding, more friendly
than before, but scathing and scornful. “It’s almost unbelievable. I should
think I wrote you half a dozen times, mentioning my wife by name. Miss
Quested! What an extraordinary notion!” From his smile, Aziz guessed that
Stella was beautiful. “Miss Quested is our best friend, she introduced us,
but . . . what an amazing notion. Aziz, we must thrash this
misunderstanding out later on. It is clearly some devilry of Mahmoud Ali’s.
He knows perfectly well I married Miss Moore. He called her ‘Heaslop’s
sister’ in his insolent letter to me.”
The name woke furies in him. “So she is, and here is Heaslop’s brother,
and you his brother-in-law, and good-bye.” Shame turned into a rage that
brought back his self-respect. “What does it matter to me who you marry?
Don’t trouble me here at Mau is all I ask. I do not want you, I do not want
one of you in my private life, with my dying breath I say it. Yes, yes, I made
a foolish blunder; despise me and feel cold. I thought you married my
enemy. I never read your letter. Mahmoud Ali deceived me. I thought you’d
stolen my money, but”—he clapped his hands together, and his children
gathered round him—“it’s as if you stole it. I forgive Mahmoud Ali all
things, because he loved me.” Then pausing, while the rain exploded like
pistols, he said, “My heart is for my own people henceforward,” and turned
away. Cyril followed him through the mud, apologizing, laughing a little,
wanting to argue and reconstruct, pointing out with irrefragable logic that
he had married, not Heaslop’s betrothed, but Heaslop’s sister. What
difference did it make at this hour of the day? He had built his life on a
mistake, but he had built it. Speaking in Urdu, that the children might
understand, he said: “Please do not follow us, whomever you marry. I wish
no Englishman or Englishwoman to be my friend.”
All the time the palace ceased not to thrum and tum-tum. The revelation
was over, but its effect lasted, and its effect was to make men feel that the
revelation had not yet come. Hope existed despite fulfilment, as it will be in
heaven. Although the God had been born, His procession—loosely
supposed by many to be the birth—had not taken place. In normal years, the
middle hours of this day were signalized by performances of great beauty in
the private apartments of the Rajah. He owned a consecrated troupe of men
and boys, whose duty it was to dance various actions and meditations of his
faith before him. Seated at his ease, he could witness the Three Steps by
which the Saviour ascended the universe to the discomfiture of Indra, also
the death of the dragon, the mountain that turned into an umbrella, and the
saddhu who (with comic results) invoked the God before dining. All
culminated in the dance of the milkmaidens before Krishna, and in the still
greater dance of Krishna before the milkmaidens, when the music and the
musicians swirled through the dark blue robes of the actors into their tinsel
crowns, and all became one. The Rajah and his guests would then forget
that this was a dramatic performance, and would worship the actors.
Nothing of the sort could occur to-day, because death interrupts. It
interrupted less here than in Europe, its pathos was less poignant, its irony
less cruel. There were two claimants to the throne, unfortunately, who were
in the palace now and suspected what had happened, yet they made no
trouble, because religion is a living force to the Hindus, and can at certain
moments fling down everything that is petty and temporary in their natures.
The festival flowed on, wild and sincere, and all men loved each other, and
avoided by instinct whatever could cause inconvenience or pain.
Aziz could not understand this, any more than an average Christian
could. He was puzzled that Mau should suddenly be purged from suspicion
and self-seeking. Although he was an outsider, and excluded from their
rites, they were always particularly charming to him at this time; he and his
household received small courtesies and presents, just because he was
outside. He had nothing to do all day, except to send the embrocation over
to the Guest House, and towards sunset he remembered it, and looked round
his house for a local palliative, for the dispensary was shut. He found a tin
of ointment belonging to Mohammed Latif, who was unwilling it should be
removed, for magic words had been spoken over it while it was being
boiled down, but Aziz promised that he would bring it back after
application to the stings: he wanted an excuse for a ride.
The lane led quickly out of the town on to high rocks and jungle. Here he
drew reign and examined the great Mau tank, which lay exposed beneath
him to its remotest curve. Reflecting the evening clouds, it filled the nether-
world with an equal splendour, so that earth and sky leant toward one
another, about to clash in ecstasy. He spat, cynical again, more cynical than
before. For in the centre of the burnished circle a small black blot was
advancing—the Guest House boat. Those English had improvised
something to take the place of oars, and were proceeding in their work of
patrolling India. The sight endeared the Hindus by comparison, and looking
back at the milk-white hump of the palace, he hoped that they would enjoy
carrying their idol about, for at all events it did not pry into other people’s
lives. This pose of “seeing India” which had seduced him to Miss Quested
at Chandrapore was only a form of ruling India; no sympathy lay behind it;
he knew exactly what was going on in the boat as the party gazed at the
steps down which the image would presently descend, and debated how
near they might row without getting into trouble officially.
He did not give up his ride, for there would be servants at the Guest
House whom he could question; a little information never comes amiss. He
took the path by the sombre promontory that contained the royal tombs.
Like the palace, they were of snowy stucco, and gleamed by their internal
light, but their radiance grew ghostly under approaching night. The
promontory was covered with lofty trees, and the fruit-bats were unhooking
from the boughs and making kissing sounds as they grazed the surface of
the tank; hanging upside down all the day, they had grown thirsty. The signs
of the contented Indian evening multiplied; frogs on all sides, cow-dung
burning eternally; a flock of belated hornbills overhead, looking like
winged skeletons as they flapped across the gloaming. There was death in
the air, but not sadness; a compromise had been made between destiny and
desire, and even the heart of man acquiesced.
The European Guest House stood two hundred feet above the water, on
the crest of a rocky and wooded spur that jutted from the jungle. By the
time Aziz arrived, the water had paled to a film of mauve-grey, and the boat
vanished entirely. A sentry slept in the Guest House porch, lamps burned in
the cruciform of the deserted rooms. He went from one room to another,
inquisitive, and malicious. Two letters lying on the piano rewarded him, and
he pounced and read them promptly. He was not ashamed to do this. The
sanctity of private correspondence has never been ratified by the East.
Moreover, Mr. McBryde had read all his letters in the past, and spread their
contents. One letter—the more interesting of the two—was from Heaslop to
Fielding. It threw light on the mentality of his former friend, and it
hardened him further against him. Much of it was about Ralph Moore, who
appeared to be almost an imbecile. “Hand on my brother whenever suits
you. I write to you because he is sure to make a bad bunderbust.” Then: “I
quite agree—life is too short to cherish grievances, also I’m relieved you
feel able to come into line with the Oppressors of India to some extent. We
need all the support we can get. I hope that next time Stella comes my way
she will bring you with her, when I will make you as comfortable as a
bachelor can—it’s certainly time we met. My sister’s marriage to you
coming after my mother’s death and my own difficulties did upset me, and I
was unreasonable. It is about time we made it up properly, as you say—let
us leave it at faults on both sides. Glad about your son and heir. When next
any of you write to Adela, do give her some sort of message from me, for I
should like to make my peace with her too. You are lucky to be out of
British India at the present moment. Incident after incident, all due to
propaganda, but we can’t lay our hands on the connecting thread. The
longer one lives here, the more certain one gets that everything hangs
together. My personal opinion is, it’s the Jews.”
Thus far the red-nosed boy. Aziz was distracted for a moment by blurred
sounds coming from over the water; the procession was under way. The
second letter was from Miss Quested to Mrs. Fielding. It contained one or
two interesting touches. The writer hoped that “Ralph will enjoy his India
more than I did mine,” and appeared to have given him money for this
purpose—“my debt which I shall never repay in person.” What debt did
Miss Quested imagine she owed the country? He did not relish the phrase.
Talk of Ralph’s health. It was all “Stella and Ralph,” even “Cyril” and
“Ronny”—all so friendly and sensible, and written in a spirit he could not
command. He envied the easy intercourse that is only possible in a nation
whose women are free. These five people were making up their little
difficulties, and closing their broken ranks against the alien. Even Heaslop
was coming in. Hence the strength of England, and in a spurt of temper he
hit the piano, and since the notes had swollen and stuck together in groups
of threes, he produced a remarkable noise.
“Oh, oh, who is that?” said a nervous and respectful voice; he could not
remember where he had heard its tones before. Something moved in the
twilight of an adjoining room. He replied, “State doctor, ridden over to
enquire, very little English,” slipped the letters into his pocket, and to show
that he had free entry to the Guest House, struck the piano again.
What a strange-looking youth, tall, prematurely aged, the big blue eyes
faded with anxiety, the hair impoverished and tousled! Not a type that is
often exported imperially. The doctor in Aziz thought, “Born of too old a
mother,” the poet found him rather beautiful.
“I was unable to call earlier owing to pressure of work. How are the
celebrated bee-stings?” he asked patronizingly.
“I—I was resting, they thought I had better; they throb rather.”
“The best of doctors make mistakes. Come here, please, for the diagnosis
under the lamp. I am pressed for time.”
“Aough——”
He started and glanced down at them. The extraordinary youth was right,
and he put them behind his back before replying with outward anger: “What
the devil have my hands to do with you? This is a most strange remark. I
am a qualified doctor, who will not hurt you.”
“No pain?”
“Not really.”
“I have brought you some salve, but how to put it on in your present
nervous state becomes a problem,” he continued, after a pause.
“They are out in a boat,” he replied, glancing about him for support.
Aziz feigned intense surprise. “They have not gone in the direction of
Mau, I hope. On a night like this the people become most fanatical.” And,
as if to confirm him, there was a sob, as though the lips of a giant had
parted; the procession was approaching the Jail.
“You should not treat us like this,” he challenged, and this time Aziz was
checked, for the voice, though frightened, was not weak.
“Like what?”
“Aha, you know my name, I see. Yes, I am Aziz. No, of course your great
friend Miss Quested did me no harm at the Marabar.”
Drowning his last words, all the guns of the State went off. A rocket from
the Jail garden gave the signal. The prisoner had been released, and was
kissing the feet of the singers. Rose-leaves fall from the houses, sacred
spices and coco-nut are brought forth. . . . It was the half-way moment; the
God had extended His temple, and paused exultantly. Mixed and confused
in their passage, the rumours of salvation entered the Guest House. They
were startled and moved on to the porch, drawn by the sudden illumination.
The bronze gun up on the fort kept flashing, the town was a blur of light, in
which the houses seemed dancing, and the palace waving little wings. The
water below, the hills and sky above, were not involved as yet; there was
still only a little light and song struggling among the shapeless lumps of the
universe. The song became audible through much repetition; the choir was
repeating and inverting the names of deities.
“Radhakrishna Radhakrishna,
Radhakrishna Radhakrishna,
Krishnaradha Radhakrishna,
Radhakrishna Radhakrishna,”
they sang, and woke the sleeping sentry in the Guest House; he leant
upon his iron-tipped spear.
“I must go back now, good night,” said Aziz, and held out his hand,
completely forgetting that they were not friends, and focusing his heart on
something more distant than the caves, something beautiful. His hand was
taken, and then he remembered how detestable he had been, and said gently,
“Don’t you think me unkind any more?”
“No.”
“Yes.”
“But you are Heaslop’s brother also, and alas, the two nations cannot be
friends.”
“Yes.” And with a swerve of voice and body that Aziz did not follow he
added, “In her letters, in her letters. She loved you.”
“Yes, your mother was my best friend in all the world.” He was silent,
puzzled by his own great gratitude. What did this eternal goodness of Mrs.
Moore amount to? To nothing, if brought to the test of thought. She had not
borne witness in his favour, nor visited him in the prison, yet she had stolen
to the depths of his heart, and he always adored her. “This is our monsoon,
the best weather,” he said, while the lights of the procession waved as
though embroidered on an agitated curtain. “How I wish she could have
seen them, our rains. Now is the time when all things are happy, young and
old. They are happy out there with their savage noise, though we cannot
follow them; the tanks are all full so they dance, and this is India. I wish
you were not with officials, then I would show you my country, but I
cannot. Perhaps I will just take you out on the water now, for one short half-
hour.”
Was the cycle beginning again? His heart was too full to draw back. He
must slip out in the darkness, and do this one act of homage to Mrs.
Moore’s son. He knew where the oars were—hidden to deter the visitors
from going out—and he brought the second pair, in case they met the other
boat; the Fieldings had pushed themselves out with long poles, and might
get into difficulties, for the wind was rising.
Once on the water, he became easy. One kind action was with him always
a channel for another, and soon the torrent of his hospitality gushed forth
and he began doing the honours of Mau and persuading himself that he
understood the wild procession, which increased in lights and sounds as the
complications of its ritual developed. There was little need to row, for the
freshening gale blew them in the direction they desired. Thorns scratched
the keel, they ran into an islet and startled some cranes. The strange
temporary life of the August flood-water bore them up and seemed as
though it would last for ever.
The boat was a rudderless dinghy. Huddled up in the stern, with the spare
pair of oars in his arms, the guest asked no questions about details. There
was presently a flash of lightning, followed by a second flash—little red
scratches on the ponderous sky. “Was that the Rajah?” he asked.
“Row back.”
“There . . .”
Floating in the darkness was a king, who sat under a canopy, in shining
royal robes. . . .
“I can’t tell you what that is, I’m sure,” he whispered. “His Highness is
dead. I think we should go back at once.”
They were close to the promontory of the tombs, and had looked straight
into the chhatri of the Rajah’s father through an opening in the trees. That
was the explanation. He had heard of the image—made to imitate life at
enormous expense—but he had never chanced to see it before, though he
frequently rowed on the lake. There was only one spot from which it could
be seen, and Ralph had directed him to it. Hastily he pulled away, feeling
that his companion was not so much a visitor as a guide. He remarked,
“Shall we go back now?”
“I’d rather not go nearer—they have such strange customs, and might
hurt you.”
“A little nearer.”
Aziz obeyed. He knew with his heart that this was Mrs. Moore’s son, and
indeed until his heart was involved he knew nothing. “Radhakrishna
Radhakrishna Radhakrishna Radhakrishna Krishnaradha,” went the chant,
then suddenly changed, and in the interstice he heard, almost certainly, the
syllables of salvation that had sounded during his trial at Chandrapore.
“Mr. Moore, don’t tell anyone that the Rajah is dead. It is a secret still, I
am supposed not to say. We pretend he is alive until after the festival, to
prevent unhappiness. Do you want to go still nearer?”
“Yes.”
He tried to keep the boat out of the glare of the torches that began to star
the other shore. Rockets kept going off, also the guns. Suddenly, closer than
he had calculated, the palanquin of Krishna appeared from behind a ruined
wall, and descended the carven glistening water-steps. On either side of it
the singers tumbled, a woman prominent, a wild and beautiful young saint
with flowers in her hair. She was praising God without attributes—thus did
she apprehend Him. Others praised Him without attributes, seeing Him in
this or that organ of the body or manifestation of the sky. Down they rushed
to the foreshore and stood in the small waves, and a sacred meal was
prepared, of which those who felt worthy partook. Old Godbole detected
the boat, which was drifting in on the gale, and he waved his arms—
whether in wrath or joy Aziz never discovered. Above stood the secular
power of Mau—elephants, artillery, crowds—and high above them a wild
tempest started, confined at first to the upper regions of the air. Gusts of
wind mixed darkness and light, sheets of rain cut from the north, stopped,
cut from the south, began rising from below, and across them struggled the
singers, sounding every note but terror, and preparing to throw God away,
God Himself, (not that God can be thrown) into the storm. Thus was He
thrown year after year, and were others thrown—little images of Ganpati,
baskets of ten-day corn, tiny tazias after Mohurram—scapegoats, husks,
emblems of passage; a passage not easy, not now, not here, not to be
apprehended except when it is unattainable; the God to be thrown was an
emblem of that.
The village of Gokul reappeared upon its tray. It was the substitute for
the silver image, which never left its haze of flowers; on behalf of another
symbol, it was to perish. A servitor took it in his hands, and tore off the blue
and white streamers. He was naked, broad-shouldered, thin-waisted—the
Indian body again triumphant—and it was his hereditary office to close the
gates of salvation. He entered the dark waters, pushing the village before
him, until the clay dolls slipped off their chairs and began to gutter in the
rain, and King Kansa was confounded with the father and mother of the
Lord. Dark and solid, the little waves sipped, then a great wave washed and
then English voices cried “Take care!”
The boats had collided with each other.
The four outsiders flung out their arms and grappled, and, with oars and
poles sticking out, revolved like a mythical monster in the whirlwind. The
worshippers howled with wrath or joy, as they drifted forward helplessly
against the servitor. Who awaited them, his beautiful dark face
expressionless, and as the last morsels melted on his tray, it struck them.
The shock was minute, but Stella, nearest to it, shrank into her husband’s
arms, then reached forward, then flung herself against Aziz, and her
motions capsized them. They plunged into the warm, shallow water, and
rose struggling into a tornado of noise. The oars, the sacred tray, the letters
of Ronny and Adela, broke loose and floated confusedly. Artillery was
fired, drums beaten, the elephants trumpeted, and drowning all an immense
peal of thunder, unaccompanied by lightning, cracked like a mallet on the
dome.
That was the climax, as far as India admits of one. The rain settled in
steadily to its job of wetting everybody and everything through, and soon
spoiled the cloth of gold on the palanquin and the costly disc-shaped
banners. Some of the torches went out, fireworks didn’t catch, there began
to be less singing, and the tray returned to Professor Godbole, who picked
up a fragment of the mud adhering and smeared it on his forehead without
much ceremony. Whatever had happened had happened, and while the
intruders picked themselves up, the crowds of Hindus began a desultory
move back into the town. The image went back too, and on the following
day underwent a private death of its own, when some curtains of magenta
and green were lowered in front of the dynastic shrine. The singing went on
even longer . . . ragged edges of religion . . . unsatisfactory and undramatic
tangles. . . . “God is love.” Looking back at the great blur of the last twenty-
four hours, no man could say where was the emotional centre of it, any
more than he could locate the heart of a cloud.
CHAPTER XXXVII
Friends again, yet aware that they could meet no more, Aziz and Fielding
went for their last ride in the Mau jungles. The floods had abated and the
Rajah was officially dead, so the Guest House party were departing next
morning, as decorum required. What with the mourning and the festival, the
visit was a failure.
Fielding had scarcely seen Godbole, who promised every day to show
him over the King-Emperor George Fifth High School, his main objective,
but always made some excuse. This afternoon Aziz let out what had
happened: the King-Emperor had been converted into a granary, and the
Minister of Education did not like to admit this to his former Principal. The
school had been opened only last year by the Agent to the Governor-
General, and it still flourished on paper; he hoped to start it again before its
absence was remarked and to collect its scholars before they produced
children of their own. Fielding laughed at the tangle and waste of energy,
but he did not travel as lightly as in the past; education was a continuous
concern to him, because his income and the comfort of his family depended
on it. He knew that few Indians think education good in itself, and he
deplored this now on the widest grounds. He began to say something heavy
on the subject of Native States, but the friendliness of Aziz distracted him.
This reconciliation was a success, anyhow. After the funny shipwreck there
had been no more nonsense or bitterness, and they went back laughingly to
their old relationship as if nothing had happened. Now they rode between
jolly bushes and rocks. Presently the ground opened into full sunlight and
they saw a grassy slope bright with butterflies, also a cobra, which crawled
across doing nothing in particular, and disappeared among some custard
apple trees. There were round white clouds in the sky, and white pools on
the earth; the hills in the distance were purple. The scene was as park-like
as England, but did not cease being queer. They drew rein, to give the cobra
elbow-room, and Aziz produced a letter that he wanted to send to Miss
Quested. A charming letter. He wanted to thank his old enemy for her fine
behaviour two years back: perfectly plain was it now that she had behaved
well. “As I fell into our largest Mau tank under circumstances our other
friends will relate, I thought how brave Miss Quested was, and decided to
tell her so, despite my imperfect English. Through you I am happy here
with my children instead of in a prison, of that I make no doubt. My
children shall be taught to speak of you with the greatest affection and
respect.”
“Miss Quested will be greatly pleased. I am glad you have seen her
courage at last.”
“I want to do kind actions all round and wipe out the wretched business
of the Marabar for ever. I have been so disgracefully hasty, thinking you
meant to get hold of my money: as bad a mistake as the cave itself.”
“Aziz, I wish you would talk to my wife. She too believes that the
Marabar is wiped out.”
“How so?”
“I don’t know, perhaps she might tell you, she won’t tell me. She has
ideas I don’t share—indeed, when I’m away from her I think them
ridiculous. When I’m with her, I suppose because I’m fond of her, I feel
different, I feel half dead and half blind. My wife’s after something. You
and I and Miss Quested are, roughly speaking, not after anything. We jog on
as decently as we can, you a little in front—a laudable little party. But my
wife is not with us.”
“What are you meaning? Is Stella not faithful to you, Cyril? This fills me
with great concern.”
Fielding hesitated. He was not quite happy about his marriage. He was
passionate physically again—the final flare-up before the clinkers of middle
age—and he knew that his wife did not love him as much as he loved her,
and he was ashamed of pestering her. But during the visit to Mau the
situation had improved. There seemed a link between them at last—that
link outside either participant that is necessary to every relationship. In the
language of theology, their union had been blessed. He could assure Aziz
that Stella was not only faithful to him, but likely to become more so; and
trying to express what was not clear to himself, he added dully that different
people had different points of view. “If you won’t talk about the Marabar to
Stella, why won’t you talk to Ralph? He is a wise boy really. And (same
metaphor) he rides a little behind her, though with her.”
“Tell him also, I have nothing to say to him, but he is indeed a wise boy
and has always one Indian friend. I partly love him because he brought me
back to you to say good-bye. For this is good-bye, Cyril, though to think
about it will spoil our ride and make us sad.”
“No, we won’t think about it.” He too felt that this was their last free
intercourse. All the stupid misunderstandings had been cleared up, but
socially they had no meeting-place. He had thrown in his lot with Anglo-
India by marrying a countrywoman, and he was acquiring some of its
limitations, and already felt surprise at his own past heroism. Would he to-
day defy all his own people for the sake of a stray Indian? Aziz was a
memento, a trophy, they were proud of each other, yet they must inevitably
part. And, anxious to make what he could of this last afternoon, he forced
himself to speak intimately about his wife, the person most dear to him. He
said: “From her point of view, Mau has been a success. It calmed her—both
of them suffer from restlessness. She found something soothing, some
solution of her queer troubles here.” After a silence—myriads of kisses
around them as the earth drew the water in—he continued: “Do you know
anything about this Krishna business?”
“My dear chap, officially they call it Gokul Ashtami. All the State offices
are closed, but how else should it concern you and me?”
“Gokul is the village where Krishna was born—well, more or less born,
for there’s the same hovering between it and another village as between
Bethlehem and Nazareth. What I want to discover is its spiritual side, if it
has one.”
“It is useless discussing Hindus with me. Living with them teaches me no
more. When I think I annoy them, I do not. When I think I don’t annoy
them, I do. Perhaps they will sack me for tumbling on to their dolls’-house;
on the other hand, perhaps they will double my salary. Time will prove.
Why so curious about them?”
“Oh, presumably.”
Fielding sighed, opened his lips, shut them, then said with a little laugh,
“I can’t explain, because it isn’t in words at all, but why do my wife and her
brother like Hinduism, though they take no interest in its forms? They
won’t talk to me about this. They know I think a certain side of their lives is
a mistake, and are shy. That’s why I wish you would talk to them, for at all
events you’re Oriental.”
Aziz refused to reply. He didn’t want to meet Stella and Ralph again,
knew they didn’t want to meet him, was incurious about their secrets, and
felt good old Cyril to be a bit clumsy. Something—not a sight, but a sound
—flitted past him, and caused him to re-read his letter to Miss Quested.
Hadn’t he wanted to say something else to her? Taking out his pen, he
added: “For my own part, I shall henceforth connect you with the name that
is very sacred in my mind, namely, Mrs. Moore.” When he had finished, the
mirror of the scenery was shattered, the meadow disintegrated into
butterflies. A poem about Mecca—the Caaba of Union—the thorn-bushes
where pilgrims die before they have seen the Friend—they flitted next; he
thought of his wife; and then the whole semi-mystic, semi-sensuous
overturn, so characteristic of his spiritual life, came to end like a landslip
and rested in its due place, and he found himself riding in the jungle with
his dear Cyril.
“Oh, shut up,” he said. “Don’t spoil our last hour with foolish questions.
Leave Krishna alone, and talk about something sensible.”
They did. All the way back to Mau they wrangled about politics. Each
had hardened since Chandrapore, and a good knock about proved
enjoyable. They trusted each other, although they were going to part,
perhaps because they were going to part. Fielding had “no further use for
politeness,” he said, meaning that the British Empire really can’t be
abolished because it’s rude. Aziz retorted, “Very well, and we have no use
for you,” and glared at him with abstract hate. Fielding said: “Away from
us, Indians go to seed at once. Look at the King-Emperor High School!
Look at you, forgetting your medicine and going back to charms. Look at
your poems.”—“Jolly good poems, I’m getting published Bombay
side.”—“Yes, and what do they say? Free our women and India will be free.
Try it, my lad. Free your own lady in the first place, and see who’ll wash
Ahmed Karim and Jamila’s faces. A nice situation!”
Aziz grew more excited. He rose in his stirrups and pulled at his horse’s
head in the hope it would rear. Then he should feel in a battle. He cried:
“Clear out, all you Turtons and Burtons. We wanted to know you ten years
back—now it’s too late. If we see you and sit on your committees, it’s for
political reasons, don’t you make any mistake.” His horse did rear. “Clear
out, clear out, I say. Why are we put to so much suffering? We used to
blame you, now we blame ourselves, we grow wiser. Until England is in
difficulties we keep silent, but in the next European war—aha, aha! Then is
our time.” He paused, and the scenery, though it smiled, fell like a
gravestone on any human hope. They cantered past a temple to Hanuman—
God so loved the world that he took monkey’s flesh upon him—and past a
Saivite temple, which invited to lust, but under the semblance of eternity, its
obscenities bearing no relation to those of our flesh and blood. They
splashed through butterflies and frogs; great trees with leaves like plates
rose among the brushwood. The divisions of daily life were returning, the
shrine had almost shut.
But the horses didn’t want it—they swerved apart; the earth didn’t want
it, sending up rocks through which riders must pass single file; the temples,
the tank, the jail, the palace, the birds, the carrion, the Guest House, that
came into view as they issued from the gap and saw Mau beneath: they
didn’t want it, they said in their hundred voices, “No, not yet,” and the sky
said, “No, not there.”
W , 1924.
[End]
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