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DEDICATION
Bill and Beni Johnson ~ You both are the most amazing
people. You have raised me to love God more, you have
taught me what grace is, and you have only shown grace to
me. I would not be where I am or who I am without your
love and support. Thank you.
Beni ~ Thank you so much for your willingness to write
the opening and closing chapters for this book.
Kris Vallotton ~ I have learned so much from you.
Thank you for helping to shape my life. You are amazing.
Randall Worley ~ While God gave me my wings, you
continue to add feathers to them so I can soar higher.
Thank you.
Bob Jones ~ You have imparted to me over and over
again. It was you who inspired me to keep on going
higher. Thank you.
Vanessa Chandler, Dianne Brown, Julia Loren, Allison
Armerding, and Pam Spinosi ~ Thank you for your input
into this book.
Banning Liebscher ~ Thank you for your word about me
making this a “how to” book and not one just about my
experiences.
Dann Farrelly ~ Your input was invaluable. Thank you
so much.
To all of you who let me share your testimonies ~ Thank
you.
Julie Winter ~ Honestly, without you this book would
never have been nished. Your encouragement and
friendship mean so much to me. Thank you for believing in
this book even when I didn’t.
ENDORSEMENTS
Chapter 1
Healing the Whole Man ~ Beni Johnson
Chapter 2
Pure Love
Chapter 3
Too Stupid to Be Loved
Chapter 4
Love Above All
Chapter 5
You Can See
Chapter 6
Hurdling Obstacles to Seeing
Chapter 7
He Will Never Reject You
Chapter 8
Sitting on the Father’s Lap
Chapter 9
Run Into the Light
Chapter 10
The Beautiful Garden
Chapter 11
Released From Strongholds
Chapter 12
The City of God
Chapter 13
Object Lesson of Remembering
Chapter 14
More Object Lessons
Chapter 15
Secret Love
Chapter 16
The Cross of Love and Obedience
Chapter 17
Even More Object Lessons
Chapter 18
Intimately His
Chapter 19
Hearts
Chapter 20
Having Fun in the Garden
Chapter 21
Finding Your Way Back to Intimacy
Chapter 22
Blessings and Other Garden Experiences
Chapter 23
The Fountain
Chapter 24
The Path to Destiny
Chapter 25
Taking Others to Heaven
Chapter 26
Bringing Krystal to Heaven
Chapter 27
Testimonies
Chapter 28
Letting Go and Letting God ~ Beni Johnson
Conclusion
FOREWORD
by Beni Johnson
God’s desire and design is to meet us, heal us, and love
us. He will do anything He can to accomplish that meeting.
He will spilt the heavens wide open for us to come to Him.
He longs for us more than we long for Him. There is
nothing more exciting than seeing a person connect to the
heart of Heaven.
Years ago my husband and I were talking with a pastor.
He was at the end of his rope so to speak, telling us he had
tried everything to get answers and direction. He was tired
and burned out and didn’t know what else to do. We talked
some more, and I nally looked at him and said, “You
need to soak!” He looked at me and said, “Tell me about
that.” I told him he needed to lie on the oor, put a good
worship CD on, and just lie there. I went on to tell him that
he shouldn’t ask or even talk to God, just soak in His
presence and listen. He stared at me for a moment and said,
“That’s actually what I need.” It was kind of fun to watch
his face as he “got it.” It made sense.
I feel strongly that God wants to connect with us more
than we want to connect with Him. We need to stop and
lay all the things that entangle us down and enter into His
rest. And to top that o , when someone who is broken has
a heavenly encounter, so much healing can take place in
that moment.
Before Jesus ascended to Heaven to be at the right hand
of the Father, He commissioned us.
PURE LOVE
You see, this was the rst time in my life I had felt love.
I thought that I was someone who just could not be loved,
and as a result I had a hard time receiving any love. It may
seem silly to you, but the circumstances in my life told me
that it was true.
Painful Memories
I grew up knowing my dad did not want me. While other
children had cute little nicknames, my nickname was
“whang-brain.” If I spilled my milk at dinner, which was
probably often, my dinner was put on the kitchen oor. I
was told I had to eat like a dog because I was sloppy, or I
was put in the bathtub with my food. My dad liked my
brother and preferred him over me. Whenever he had to
take us somewhere, he would tell my brother to come with
him and tell me to stay in the car. I knew he was ashamed
of me, but I did not understand why.
I wrote Dear Abby once when I was about 9 years old
and asked her why my dad didn’t love me even though I
tried to do what was right. The letter was never sent, but
my mother found it and gave it to my dad. I can remember
sitting on the end of my bed right by the door, listening
closely, hoping he would say that he did love me after all.
Instead, he bellowed that maybe he could love me if I
wasn’t so stupid. So that was the problem. I was stupid,
and stupid people can’t be loved.
It became clear when I was in the rst grade that I was
not as bright as the other children. But it wasn’t until I was
in the eighth grade that I was tested and found to have
learning disabilities. I was then put in the “mentally
retarded” class, as it was called at the time. Yes, I was
stupid and this was why my dad was ashamed of me.
Unfortunately, I never really felt loved by my mother
either. My mother was a broken person and was unable to
protect me from the meanness of my father. One day, when
I was 3 or 4 years old, my mother was painting the living
room and accidentally left a cup of turpentine on the
kitchen table. I awoke from a nap and went into the
kitchen. Thinking the cup was lled with water, I drank it.
I was rushed to the hospital and had my stomach pumped.
After I returned home, my kidneys started to shut down. I
found out much later that my mother called a doctor and
begged him to come to the house. We didn’t have very
much money and she told him she would pay him a dime a
month for the rest of her life, which was not easy in the
early 1950s. He had compassion; he came and put me on
antibiotics and again my life was saved. About the time I
turned 14, my mother became a full- edged alcoholic and
physically, mentally, and emotionally wasn’t there for
anyone.
My dad’s mother came to live with us sometime after the
turpentine incident. I found out much later that my
grandmother didn’t like my mother and had tried to talk
my dad into leaving her. One day while she was taking
care of my brother and me, she took me on her lap. She
told me that my mother had left the paint thinner out on
purpose because I was no good. She said that I would never
be any good, no matter how hard I tried, because my
mother was evil.
So I grew up feeling unloved, stupid, and worthless.
Years later, after I was married, my grandmother lay dying
of cancer and she began to ask forgiveness from everyone
she had hurt. Realizing she did not have much time, she
became insistent that she had to see me. By the time the
family asked me to come see her, she was comatose and
unable to speak. I believe the reason that she so wanted to
see me was because she wanted to ask for forgiveness, and I
have forgiven her.
The Enemy’s Lies
Of course we all do stupid things, but it was di erent for
me. Whenever I did something stupid, I felt a constant
reminder that I was unlovable. Even after I married and had
children, I never believed my husband truly loved me.
How could he love me? I still did stupid things. Oh how I
loved my children, but I just knew in my heart that as they
grew up, they would realize I was stupid and they wouldn’t
love me anymore.
Embarrassed and ashamed of my stupidity, I became
quiet and withdrawn. I was afraid that if I talked to people
they would quickly gure out my stupidity. I lived afraid
of being found out. Silent and hurt, I learned to hide. No
one around me knew what I was thinking or feeling. This is
how the enemy works. He uses shame and fear to keep us
quiet and alone.
So when I felt, saw, and breathed God’s love into me, it
literally changed my life. I was amazed that someone loved
me. I absolutely fell in love with Him. At that moment I
gained a father, brother, teacher, companion, and friend—
not someone I read about, but someone I knew. He loved
me with an incomprehensible love that I actually
experienced. I was convinced that:
…ne ithe r de ath, nor life , nor ange ls, nor principalitie s, nor
things pre se nt, nor things to come , nor powe rs, nor he ight,
nor de pth, nor any othe r cre ate d thing, will be able to
se parate [me] from the love of God, which is in Christ Je sus
[my] Lord (Romans 8:38-39).
I can’t say that overcoming rejection was instant for me
at this point. However, this was the beginning of my
healing process. I’m also not saying that it can’t be
instantaneous—it can—but for me it has been a process. It’s
very important to have our minds renewed (see Rom. 12:2)
so that we believe the truth and not a lie. David wrote,
“When my father and my mother forsake me, then the Lord
will take me up” (Ps. 27:10 KJV).
Also, as I began to understand that my parents were
raised in dysfunctional homes and were rejected
themselves, it became much easier for me to forgive them.
And forgiveness is the key. I, who has been forgiven so
much, was able to forgive my parents for their seeming
rejection of me. Now I know I have a Father in Heaven that
absolutely loves me and will never reject me.
CHAPTER 4
Not that I have alre ady obtaine d it or have alre ady be come
pe rfe ct, but I pre ss on so that I may lay hold of that for which
also I was laid hold of by Christ Je sus. Bre thre n, I do not
re gard myse lf as having laid hold of it ye t; but one thing I do:
forge tting what lie s be hind and re aching forward to what lie s
ahe ad, I pre ss on toward the goal for the prize of the upward
call of God in Christ Je sus (Philippians 3:12-14).
I like that part about the hope of His calling and the
riches and inheritance, but what really catches my attention
is “eyes of your heart.” These aren’t the “eyes of our head,”
which are natural abilities to comprehend the natural world
(though sometimes we see supernatural things—like angels
—with our natural eyes). Rather these are eyes that have
spiritual perception. They perceive natural and
supernatural things. What do you think Paul is saying? I
think he’s saying that he wants the eyes of our spirit to be
opened. Does your spirit really have eyes? In his book
Discovering the Seer in You, James Goll states:
Jesus repeatedly said, “He who has ears to hear, let him
hear” (see Matt. 11:15; Mark 4:9,23; 7:16; Luke 8:8;
14:35). So, our ears are to hear. I know some people are
deaf, but the vast majority of us can hear. So what did He
mean by this? Could He be talking about our spiritual
(spirit) ears?
First Corinthians 14:2 reminds us, “. one who speaks in a
tongue does not speak to men but to God; for no one
understands, but in his spirithe speaks mysteries.” First
Corinthians 14:14 explains that when we speak in tongues
our spirit is speaking. We know that we are spirit, because
Romans 8:16 states, “The Spirit Himself testi es with our
spirit that we are children of God.” And First Corinthians
2:11 states, “For who among men knows the thoughts of a
man except the spirit of the man which is in him?”
In addition to our spirit, we know we each have a body.
And we know we each have a soul, which is our intellect,
will, and emotions. James 2:26 states, “For just as the body
without the spirit is dead, so also faith without works is
dead.”
The Supernatural Realm
Do you understand what can happen with your spirit in
the spirit realm? You can actually internally see, hear, and
speak with your spiritual eyes, ears, and voice. As I began
to grasp this concept, it began to make more sense to me. I
have often found this concept to be an obstacle to those
who want to see into the spiritual realm but have di culty
doing so. You rst have to realize that it’s not unlike seeing
with our imaginations. Bob Jones, the prophet, uses the
term “sancti ed imagination.” Pastor Bill Johnson says, “A
sancti ed imagination positions you for dreams and
visions.”
To imagine, you form an image of something in your
mind. You actually use your mind to see something that is
unreal. What I’m talking about here isn’t something that
you make up in your mind; it’s something you observe that
didn’t come from your mind. It’s something you
experience. In Discovering the Seer in You, James Goll
states, “I am convinced that any believer can develop the
seer capacity.”2
Now, I can hear people say “That’s just vain imagination
and you’ll go into error if you imagine stu .” I agree that
there is a danger of error if we imagine things. But there is
also a danger of missing out on incredibly powerful and
godly experiences because of the fear of being deceived.
There is also a danger in calling something unclean God
has called clean.
I think my spirit has truly been made alive and my mind
has been washed with the Word. Without claiming any sort
of personal sinlessness or perfection concerning seeing in
God’s realm, I do think my sin nature has been cruci ed
with Christ. It is not normal for me to sin (see Rom. 6).
Sure, I can still do it (much to my chagrin) but it is no
longer natural for me. So I have a great deal of trust in
what Jesus did on the cross for us. With a renewed mind
and heart and my spirit made alive and the Holy Spirit
indwelling me forever, I have con dence that He can lead
me.
Furthermore, Scriptures activate our imaginations all the
time. The prophets and psalmists created plenty of images.
For example, I can only “see” Zechariah’s ying scroll by
letting pictures move before my mind’s eye (see Zech. 5).
The Lord’s prophets called Israel to imagine the judgment
coming on them if they didn’t return to the covenant and to
imagine the blessings if they did. God was hoping this
information and the mental pictures it created would move
them to repentance. Imagination is just another access
point for the Lord to reach us, as are language and music.
I am aware of some of the discussions among prophets
about who has the right to initiate these sorts of heavenly
experiences—God or us. This concern usually arises when I
help lead people as they make themselves available for
God to communicate with them in this way. It seems plain
that God has the right to do so. And we all suppose that we
are quite comfortable with this until someone begins to say
he had a vision—then we get nervous! Can we initiate these
sorts of experiences? I think we can at least ask and make
ourselves available. As you will see from the stories that
follow of my heavenly visions, my own experience is that
sometimes they catch me by surprise and other times I am
praying and waiting and hoping I get caught “by surprise.”
Are these heavenly visions of the same type as people in
the Bible experienced? Do they compare with Paul’s
experience of being caught up in the Third Heaven or with
Ezekiel’s visions? Well, they compare, but I don’t claim
that the things I am seeing and saying are on any level of
inspired authoritative Scripture. Truthfully, I have seen
some things I don’t understand and won’t share until I do. I
do not make a new doctrine or theology out of them. I just
saw them. In the pages ahead I will share with you times
when I thought I had ruined everything by seeing
something I shouldn’t, but then the Holy Spirit
communicated with me that it was OK.
In Scripture there seems to be di erent sorts of
supernatural experiences and visions. I, and I would expect
others, have had a variety of heavenly experiences. During
some of them it feels like I could “come out of it” whenever
I want; other times I am lost in the experience. Always
though, it feels like I am “going” somewhere, if that makes
sense. And I am being led, rather than leading, though I am
free to ask questions and make requests, so it could be said
that I am initiating some of the “action.”
In short, God and I partner in these times. In a few pages
I will share some of my “journeys.” They may read as
simple stories but they have all had a deeply profound
impact on me, and they serve as examples of the sorts of
experiences that may await you.
What About Deception?
At rst I was worried about being deceived. So one day I
talked to Bill Johnson about my concern. He responded by
saying, “Then your God is too small and your devil too
big.” I realized that I loved the Father, Jesus, and the Holy
Spirit, and that the Holy Spirit was my Guide and my
Teacher. I trust Him to lead me in righteous paths, and I
stay accountable to those who are in my life. I know the
Word. So I’m no longer afraid of being deceived. Fear
comes from the enemy, and he doesn’t want us to
experience God. And the truth is that Jesus knows my heart
and is more than able to keep me in His ways. Jude 1:24
states:
Childlike Faith
So how do you learn to see with the eyes of your spirit?
You approach Him with childlike faith and trust and know
that He will embrace you and draw you in. Mark 10:15
states, “Truly I say to you, whoever does not receive the
kingdom of God like a child will not enter it at all.” Now we
might think that this refers to going to Heaven after we die,
but Jesus said “the Kingdom is at hand” (see Matt. 3:2;
4:17; 10:7; Mark 1:15). The Kingdom is here and it’s for
now. The truth is that we need a childlike attitude now. If
you think about it, God created this planet, setting up the
order He desired. Then the man He created rebelled and
God had to send Jesus to rescue us from our folly. In all of
this He is called Father and we are called children.
First, we trust that our Father only wants the best for us,
just as we only want the best for our children. Therefore we
know that whatever He asks us to do is for our own good.
Think about it. Do you ever ask your children to do
something that is not in their best interest? Would you ask
your child to do something that could cause her physical or
emotional harm? Of course not. How much more our
Father in Heaven loves us! I love to watch the faces of my
children when they open the good gifts I give them. I get as
much pleasure from their joy as they get from receiving the
gifts. Our Father desires to give us good things. He is more
than ready to give us the tools we need to do the work He’s
asked us to do. Are you getting the picture?
Although I can’t give you any statistics, I have found that
people who are unable to be childlike in their attitude
toward God have the most di culty experiencing Him in
any way. I’m not saying we shouldn’t be mature. In
actuality, the mature believer will trust the Father and will
guard his heart, keeping it childlike.
Believe That You Are Forgiven and Forgive
The biggest obstacle to encountering God is believing in
His complete forgiveness. We say we believe in the
doctrine of forgiveness, but we have not captured the truth
of forgiveness in our hearts. And although we try to “fake
it,” our unbelief is re ected in our attitudes and behaviors.
Because we don’t believe in our complete forgiveness, we
then have di culty believing we are “good” enough to get
close to Jesus. Not believing we’re “good” enough is the
companion obstacle to not feeling forgiven.
I’ve prayed with numerous people who can see Jesus “far
o ” in the distance, but when I ask them to draw closer to
Jesus they are unable to do so. At this point I stop and ask
them if they have any unforgiveness in their heart for
others or themselves. Isn’t it sad that we think we’ve
committed too many wrongs to draw near to Jesus? I once
prayed with a girl who saw herself in a scene with Jesus
looking out at the beauty of Heaven. When I asked her
where Jesus was, she said He was standing behind her. I
asked her to turn around, but she couldn’t seem to do so.
She nally began to cry, telling me that she was afraid if
she turned around, Jesus wouldn’t be there. As I prayed
with her she revealed that she had been abandoned by her
dad when he left the family and she put that same fear of
abandonment on Jesus. As much as she loved Jesus, she felt
that He wouldn’t be there for her.
A Needed Lesson
I recall a time when I did something that caused some
people to be hurt by my actions. When I realized what I
had done, I went to them and asked forgiveness. They
forgave me with no hesitation. That night as I was sitting
talking to the Father about this situation, He said something
that I thought sounded harsh. I put my head down as a
child would when being scolded. The Father leaned over to
me with His face close to mine and said so very kindly,
“Don’t ever attribute that tone of voice to Me; I only speak
to you with loving-kindness.”
I was dumbfounded. I said to Him, “Do you mean to tell
me that I can change the way I hear You depending on how
I feel about myself, or how I think You should feel about
me?” This really opened up understanding to me. The next
day, as I was talking to Bill Johnson about this, he
reminded me of a Scripture in John 12:28-29:
SECRET LOVE
INTIMATELY HIS
HEARTS
The Jungle
Next, I found myself back in the garden with my Father,
Jesus, and the Holy Spirit. They were talking and I didn’t
understand what They were saying, so I got a little bored. I
noticed a jungle-like area that was nearby and it had a path
going to it, so I decided to explore. After a while the path
became darker as all of the trees, vines, and plants became
very dense. Then I came to a clearing. All of a sudden, a
saber-toothed tiger jumped out at me, roaring with his
teeth bared. I just stood there very still as the tiger
continued to snarl.
I started to call for Jesus and the Holy Spirit, but just
when I opened my mouth, the tiger snarled louder and
moved toward me. I stopped. I was so scared that I just
stood there, very still. I began to wonder, How am I going
to get myself out of this fix? Then I reasoned that even if the
tiger ate me I had nothing to fear. This jungle was in God’s
garden so I must be immune from danger. As I took a step
to walk away, the tiger lunged at me, but I had a protective
shield around me. The tiger hit the shield, bounced o , and
then ran away. So I decided that I would just keep on
walking deeper into the jungle.
Next, I ducked under a low-hanging branch, and on the
branch was an enormous snake. The snake put his head
right in front of me and started to hiss. The snake had a
huge head—as big as mine. He could have swallowed me in
one gulp. I stood very still. And again, as soon as I opened
my mouth to call for help, the snake began to open its
mouth and crept closer to my head. But I’d been through
this same thing with the tiger, so I started to walk away.
Just as with the tiger, the protective shield stopped the
snake. He just bonked his head, bounced o the shield,
then slithered away.
Then I came to a clearing and there was a person sitting
there. At rst, I thought it was my Jesus, so I ran to Him. I
ran up and fell at His feet and put my head on His lap. But
as soon as my head rested on His lap, I knew it wasn’t
Jesus. It was a stone person—a statue. I looked at the face
of the statue and it had a stone tear on its stone cheek. I got
up and tried to go back the way I had come, but I couldn’t
nd the path. I did see another path, however, and as I ran
down the path I came to a cave. As I approached the cave a
huge black bear came ambling out on all fours. Once again,
I knew what to do. I just turned around and ran back
toward the clearing.
On the way back I stopped to sit on a log beside the path
to catch my breath. If only I had a map, I thought, I would
be able to nd my way out of this place. At that moment I
glanced down and saw a map lying in front of my feet. I
quickly looked around. I knew someone had to have left it
there just a few moments ago because it hadn’t been there
when I sat down. But I didn’t see anyone at all in the
immediate area. So I proceeded to open up the map and
study it. The map showed the tiger place, the snake place,
the clearing with the statue, the bear cave, and the path that
would take me out of the jungle. After looking at the map,
I realized that I needed to return to the clearing where the
statue sat.
So I got up and took the path back to the clearing. When
I came into the clearing, the statue came to life and began
screeching at me. Then the statue stood up and started
walking toward me. I knew that the statue wanted me to
stay in the jungle, and I sensed that if it got to me, it would
try to hold me back. The statue was going very slowly,
lumbering from one heavy foot to the next. I was
frightened, so I started to run toward the path that would
take me out of that place, but my feet and legs felt like
cement. Suddenly, I felt very tired. I kept going, but the
more I struggled with my feet and legs, the more tired I
got, and the desire to lie down was almost overwhelming. I
started to pick up my legs with my hands—right, left,
right, left—all the while the wailing statue was pursuing
me.
Out of the Jungle
When I nally made it out of the jungle, my Father,
Jesus, and the Holy Spirit were waiting for me. I ran to my
Father, sat on His lap, and cried. I was so upset. Jesus
came over and sat by us and wiped the tears from my
cheeks. When I nally settled down, the Holy Spirit came
over and held out His hand to me. I took His hand and He
led me to a bench where we sat down.
I asked Him why all of this had happened. He answered,
“You never asked Us about the jungle. You just took o on
your own.”
Then I asked about the statue, “Who did it represent and
why did it chase me?”
He said it was someone who had gone into the jungle
just like me but who had never made it out. I asked Him if
He would have left me in there. He smiled and said, “Who
do you think left you the map? I give a map to everyone,
but some don’t choose to look at it.”
Back in the Jungle
Several days later, I was back at the same place in the
jungle. I had been feeling sorry for the stone statue, so I
asked the Father if I could go back and help the statue get
out of the jungle. He answered, “Yes” and He put a huge,
gold and silver sword in my hand. Across the blade was
written LOVE.
Walking down the path into the jungle, I began to feel
fearful and stopped about halfway. What if I got caught in
the jungle again and couldn’t get out? Then the Holy Spirit,
who I didn’t know was following me, leaned over my
shoulder and whispered in my ear, “This time you were
sent, and I’m going with you.” This immediately gave me
con dence and I entered the clearing boldly because I knew
the Holy Spirit was with me.
When the statue saw me, it stood up and began to wail
again as it came toward me. I raised the sword over my
head, and when the statue came close, I plunged the sword
into its heart. The statue immediately stopped, dead still.
Then a chunk of stone fell o of its cheek and I could see
esh underneath. Soon other pieces of stone began to fall
o , and underneath was a woman. I pointed to the path
that would lead her out of the jungle and told her, “Run,
run quickly. Get out!” Then I watched as she ran into the
arms of the Father and Jesus. I was so happy I had helped
to set a captive free.
Dancing With Me
Then out of the corner of my eye I could see movement.
As I turned to look, I saw a whole bunch of statues coming
toward me. I hadn’t seen them before. Where had they
been? I knew I couldn’t handle all of them, and I began to
feel fearful again. At that moment the Holy Spirit leaned
over and said, “Dance with Me.”
I thought to myself, What? Dance? These statues are
coming after me and He wants me to dance?
He said it again, “Dance with Me.”
So I thought, OK, what do I have to lose?
I still held the sword, only now His hand joined my hand
on the sword. As we began to dance, the Holy Spirit
positioned our steps so I could easily stab each statue in the
heart. We danced around until we had stabbed all of the
statues. At one point, one of the statues almost grabbed me,
but the Holy Spirit just twirled me out of harm’s way and
brought me around to stab the statue right in the heart.
After each of the statues was stabbed, the stone fell o of it
and the person underneath ran out of the jungle. Then the
Holy Spirit and I walked out of the jungle as well.
As we came out of the jungle, I approached the rst
person who had been released from the stone and asked her
why she and the others couldn’t see that they had been
turned into stone statues. She said that because the statues
all looked alike they thought they were normal. When I
came into the clearing they saw that I appeared quite
di erent and it scared them. They wanted to grab me and
make me just like them so I would stay and keep them
company.
Sometime later I shared this particular vision with a
friend. She later called me and said she felt like she was the
statue. She wanted out but didn’t know where her map was.
Later, as I was praying for her, the Lord led me to a
Scripture. Now I don’t know what map you may need, but
feel free to use the Scripture I gave my friend:
“For I know the plans that I have for you,” de clare s the Lord,
“plans for we lfare and not for calamity to give you a future
and a hope . The n you will call upon Me and come and pray
to Me , and I will liste n to you. You will se e k Me and nd Me
whe n you se arch for Me with all your he art” (Jeremiah 29:11-
13).
The Orchard
Another day Jesus led me to an orchard that had trees
loaded with fruit. Lying on the ground in the middle of this
orchard was a red-and-white checkered tablecloth. Jesus
told me to sit down on the tablecloth. Then He went over
to a tree, picked a piece of fruit that looked similar to a
peach, and brought it over to me. I had a small knife and I
cut the fruit into four sections. Then I peeled each section
from the seed and ate it. It was sweet and so good. When I
had nished, He told me to cut open the pit. As I pried it
open, a bug that looked like an earwig came out of the pit.
This bug had eaten the seed that had been inside the pit.
Jesus told me that the bug had gotten into the pit without
damaging the fruit, and no one even knew it was there. The
fruit still tasted sweet, but the part of the fruit that could
reproduce—the seed—had been destroyed. He told me to
guard the seed with everything I had and to go to any
lengths to see that the seed was not destroyed. I asked Him
what the seed represented and He replied, “It is your love
for Me.” Are you wondering what the bugs represented? So
was I. The bugs represented the snares of this world—
things like anxiety, unforgiveness, and bitterness.
We sat there for a time just enjoying each other and our
time together. Then a gentle wind started blowing,
eventually getting stronger and stronger. I had not been
aware of any weather in this place before, so I thought it
strange. The wind continued to increase. I looked up at
Jesus, but He seemed unconcerned. He saw my concern
and pulled me up onto His lap. Fruit began to fall from the
trees, but He still didn’t seem concerned. Then I saw that it
was the bad fruit that was falling and I felt better. I asked
Him where the wind was coming from and He told me to
look. I raised myself up and peeked over His shoulder.
There at the edge of the orchard was my Father—blowing.
Jesus told me, “It is the breath of God. He is knocking the
bad fruit o the trees so that the good fruit can grow
bigger.”
I had to laugh. I got up and started to run around the
orchard in the breath of God. I was about four or ve trees
away from Jesus when I looked back and saw that He was
standing and looking at me. I ran to Him and threw myself
into His arms. He held me and we began to dance. Then He
said, “I’ve heard you and the Holy Spirit have been
practicing dancing for our wedding day. You only have to
grow up a little more before you’re ready.”
I said, “Jesus, my Jesus, if I can do anything to hasten the
day we can be together, please tell me. I long to be with
You.”
And He replied, “Just as I long to be with you.”
CHAPTER 22
THE FOUNTAIN
There are three “realms” that are mentioned in the Bible. The
word realm means “source” or “on each side.” The Bible
speci cally talks about the rst realm, the second realm and
the third realm. The rst realm is the realm that you can see
with you eyes. It’s the physical realm. “The n I saw a ne w
he ave n and a ne w Earth, for the rst he ave n and the rst
e arth had passe d away. Also the re was no more se a” (Rev.
21:1). So here you can see that the rst heaven is the earthly
realm, or what you can see right now. Our bodies, our homes,
and our cities exist in the earthly realm. Deuteronomy 10:14
(NKJV) says, “Inde e d he ave n and the highe st he ave ns be long
to the Lord your God, also the Earth with all that is in it.”
According to the New American Standard Exhaustive
Concordance of the Bible, the word heaven means,
“astrologers, compass, Earth, heaven, heavens, and the
highest heaven those, from the beginning, God created the
earth, the heavens, and the highest heavens.”
The second heaven, or “mid-heaven” of Revelation 14:6, “and
I saw anothe r ange l ying in mid-he ave n, having an e te rnal
gospe l to pre ach to those who live on the Earth and to e ve ry
nation and tribe and tongue and pe ople ” (NASB version), is
the demonic and angelic realm where there is war going on
between the angelic and demonic. In Daniel the second realm
is the demonic angelic realm. That’s the realm where there is
warfare, and the negative comes out.
Then, there is the third realm. This realm is where the glory of
God is. It’s the beauty realm. The apostle Paul calls the third
heaven “paradise.” It’s where we can see the great plans of
heaven. “I know a man in Christ who 14 ye ars ago, whe the r
in the body I do not know, or whe the r out of the body, I do
not know, God knows. God knows such a one was caught up
to the third he ave n…” (2 Cor. 12:2). He continues in verse 4,
“…how he was caught up into paradise and he ard
ine xpre ssible words….”1
TESTIMONIES
Dear Zac,
Bill was sending over healing teams and various leaders to
come every single day, a few hours a day. I’d never heard of
Judy’s “gift” until she showed up, with a few others, at our
house. She told us that Bill wanted her to escort Je to
Heaven (and come back, of course…they kidded about that
☺) and ask the Father and or Jesus what was going on. Je
was very upfront with her and the team and told them that
he is, by nature and by profession, a highly critical-
thinker/cynical/logical person. He told them that, though he
didn’t doubt Judy’s experience, he knew too much about
hypnotherapy to not be able to let himself “go.” (Je used to
do relaxation workshops for prison inmates…he had a heart
for that population, and juvenile delinquents, and children…
oh, and he really loved the old folks.) He told them that he
would be willing to go along with it, but that he would tell
them if he thought he was conjuring it up himself. “Fair
enough,” said Judy. Judy asked if I wanted to go along, and I
said I’d rather observe so I could relay it back to Je later.
Actually, a deep part of me was slightly skeptical, and I was
pretty sure that Jeff was too analytical to have this “work.”
Judy began by praying with Je and the others, and then
asked Je to close his eyes. She did what was very
reminiscent of guided imagery, that therapists and
psychologists use for hypnosis and relaxation, so I thought,
Uh oh, this is not going to y. She spoke in a very low and
slow voice, describing nding oneself in Heaven…Je kept
interrupting, and saying, “Sorry Judy, but I think I’m forcing
myself to imagine what you are saying.” Judy, so serene,
would say, “That’s OK, Je , don’t worry about it…just
picture yourself in the heavenlies.” Je must have stopped
her at least half a dozen times… I was getting tense, because I
thought this was going to be a “bust” and disappointing for
all. Zac, another thing, Je was never the type to “act.” He
hated pantomime games or anything of a pretend nature…I
need to preface this next part by clarifying that.
After a time, maybe 15, 20 minutes…maybe even a half hour,
something changed. I could see it on Je ’s face. He looked so
happy, and he looked as though he was seeing something.
One of Judy’s people said quietly, “Do you see the bench in
the garden?” The look on Je ’s face told it all. He nodded his
head to the side, as if to say “yes, and how did you know?”…
kinda like “Gotcha.” Judy told Je to go over to the bench
and sit down. I could tell that Je was not here, but there.
The feeling of the Holy Spirit was so powerful in the room,
and I wanted to remember everything…goose bumps were on
top of goose bumps. Je said, “OK, I’m sitting on the bench
in the garden” and he had the most beautiful smile on his
face. Judy said, “Do you see Jesus?” (I was holding my
breath.) Je paused, as though savoring something
delicious…. and he smiled, and tears began to form in his
closed eyes…“Yes, He is here with me.” Again. Holy Spirit was
intoxicatingly overwhelming in the room. I then realized that
all those people, with Je , could see what Je was seeing.
They saw the bench and the garden, and Jesus. I began to
wish I’d gone, too, but I really wanted to be a good reporter
for Jeff when he came back.
Judy said, “Jeff, ask Jesus about your cancer.” Jeff said aloud,
“Jesus, tell me about this cancer.” Je ’s face looked troubled,
and he frowned…what he said gave me a start. “I have a
giant hook in my heart. It is a hook that has been with me
since I was a little boy, when I was heartbroken.” (I knew
what that was…Je ’s parents divorced when he was a baby,
his mother married the proverbial wicked stepfather, and his
mother would not intervene when he was cruel. His real
father abandoned him.) Tears were running down Je ’s face,
and mine. Judy said, “Ask Jesus to remove the hook.” Je
waited awhile, with various expressions crossing his face.
Finally, Je said that Jesus had cut o the end and pulled it
out. Je said, “I have hooks all over me.” Judy said, “Ask
Jesus to remove them all.” Je ’s face was glowing during the
moments it took to remove the hooks.
Then, someone, I can’t remember if it was Judy or one of the
others, said, “Does Jesus have something for you?” Again, Je
nodded his head in acknowledgment that they knew what he
knew…Je smiled, and said, “Why yes, Jesus is holding a
present.” Someone said, “Open it…it’s for you!” Now, here is
where I absolutely knew that Je could not be just going
along with this…I had to look twice, as Je was going
through the motions of untying a ribbon, and lifting a lid o
what seemed to be a small square box (by the way he
handled it). Je gave a small short surprised laugh…. We all
asked, “What is it?” I was sure it would be a gem or
something precious. Je said “A giant marshmallow. Jesus
said that He is like this marshmallow…. sweet and soft and
good.” (Zac…Je has 2 favorite foods…popcorn and
marshmallows.)
Je took his time staying with Jesus, and nally, Judy led
him back. (I can’t remember how she did that, and I think at
the end, I was on the fringe of being there.) From that
moment on, Je displayed an absolutely dramatic change in
his person…pure love, like I’d never known him to be. The
kids and I were stunned. It was instant…something about
having been in Heaven with Jesus, and having his hooks cut
out, did something.
By Beni Johnson
Paul said:
I know a man in Christ who fourte e n ye ars ago—whe the r in
the body I do not know, or whe the r out of the body I do not
know, God knows—such a one was caught up to the third
he ave n (2 Corinthians 12:2 NKJV).
The result was literally deadly for Saul and for his sons
as well. Samuel told him in verse 19 that Israel would be
handed over to the Philistines and that the next day he and
his sons would die. This is nothing to mess with and
something that God seems to feel pretty strongly about.
Several years after Bill’s dad died, one of the women in
our church was standing around before the service started
one Sunday, and she was looking at the back door of the
church watching the people come in. She did a double take
because she saw Bill’s dad walk in and walk around the
room. She was not expecting that at all and was, to say the
least, shocked. I think that when we least expect it, God
splits the wall between the visible and the invisible, and we
can have a peak at what is going on in the heavenly realm.
We should have no interest in making things like this
happen. When they do, it’s an exciting time, but we need
to be careful not to cross that line and go astray.
One of my favorite stories in the Bible about this subject
of heavenly encounters is that of John the beloved. In
Revelation 4:1-3 (NKJV), John tells of his vision:
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