Marrying the Desperada

Sneak Peak

" Ah.. Daddy! Daddy! Help! Help!" I keep on shouting while tearing my dress out.
Sinadya kong sirain ang mga laylayan ng aking sout na bestida para maging kapani-
paniwala ang aking ginawang pagdadrama.

Nakatanga lang si Jamie at shocked ito sa kanyang nakikitang pagwawala ni Zea. Its
horrible.

I am getting desperate and Im willing to sacrifice huwag lamang syang masaktan. I

unhook my bra and let it fall on the floor. And now his jaw dropped and was totally
shocked of what I've done.

When I heard a storm of foot steps coming closer to the door, I grab his shirt with
all my force at sabay kaming na-out balance and my body landed on a big soft
matress. I knew he didn't expect it kaya hindi na sya nagawang kumilos dahil sa
pagkabigla.

"Anong nangyayari dito!?" Malakas na sigaw ni Daddy kasabay sa pagbukas nito sa

pinto.

His eyes was widen in shock when he saw us. I was literally under Jamie's muscled
body at sabay kaming napatingin kay Daddy.

" Walang hiya ka! Anong ginawa mo sa anak ko!?" He's face is full of rage with
anger. At ano mang oras ay handa na itong pumatay ng tao.

Sumugod sya at hinablot si Jamie and landed his strong fist on his face. Walang
kalaban-laban itong sumusubsob sa gilid ng kama. Hindi lang isang beses itong
nakatanggap ng suntok, maraming beses din. Bumuhos na ang totoong luha sa aking mga
mata. Dahil sa awa ng kanyang napala. Hindi sya lumaban. Ni hindi sya nagsalita.
Isang matalim na mga titig lang ang pinakawalan nya sa akin nang di sinasadyang
magtama ang aming mga mata. A sudden felt of guilt hit me.

" Daddy! Tama na! Please..please.." I begged at lumapit sa gilid nito. Hinarang ko
ang sarili para tigilan na sya sa kakasuntok. Pumutok na ang kanyang labi. Dumudugo
na rin pati ang kanyang ang ilong.

God, Im sorry Jamie.. But I have to do this' Mahina kong usal naway patawarin ako
ng Dyos sa nagawa kong kadesperadahan.

" You asshole! I swear I'll kill you for attempting rape with my daughter! Hindi ko
palalampasin itong ginawa mo!" Nag-aapoy na sigaw ni Dad.

Awang awa kong pinahid ang dugo sa ilong nya pero tinapik nya ang kamay ko palayo.
Natigilan lamang ako at patuloy paring umiiyak.

Inayos ko muna ng sarili.

Chiongbian and Zamora are business partners sa company. Wala akong masyadong alam
tungkol sa ganoong bagay dahil iba ang kinalakihan ko at sa iba umikot ang mundo
ko.
Pinatawag ang mga magulang nito at dinetalye ang kunway attempted rape ni Jamie sa
akin. I remain silent dahil alam ko namang hindi totoo ang bagay na yon. His
parents was so frustrated at nagkukuyom kamao na sa kahihiyan at galit na galit si
Mr. Zamora, ang kanyang ama.

Nanatili lamang akong nakayuko habang humihikbi. Umiiyak ako sa kadahilanang

kakamuhian ako ni Jamie habang buhay dahil sinira ko ang big wedding nila ni ate.
God how could I'd be cruel like this? Kitang kita ko ang pag-igting ng kanyang
panga. Alam kong pinipigilan lang nya ang sariling e-voice ang totoong nangyari.

"Ang tanging areglo lamang ay ang pakasalan nya ang anak ko sa lalong madaling
panahon! Take it or leave or else lalabas ito sa media." Dad said with finality.
Nag-angat ako ng mukha at napaawang ang bibig sa sinabi ni Dad. May kanya kanya
silang reputasyon pero kasiraan ng pamilya nila kapag nalaman ng media ang
nangyari. Maaapektuhan ang negosyo ng bawat anfkan sa sigalot na nangyari. Ganon
naman talaga ang mayayaman.

No.

Hindi naman ito talaga ang plano. Pero ito ang naging resulta ng ginawa ko. Ang
biglaang pagpapakasal.

Natapos ang usapang yon at nagkaayos ang bawat side. Even a single word, I never
heard he spoke. He just gave a dead silence. Pinagalitan sya ng husto ni Mr.
Zamora. " Are you on drugs Jamie!? Why did you do that?! " Narinig ko pang sinabi
yon ng kanyang ama. At hindi man lang sya nagreact nang magdeklara si Dad ng kasal.

Sinundan ko sya when he walked out pagkatapos ng usapan.

" Jamie Im sorry. I was just desperate.." Na ano? Hindi ko madugtungan ang
sasabihin ko. Nakatalikod sya at hinarap ako nang marinig nya ang sinabi ko. He
glared. I swallowed the lump of my throat. Ito na ang sinasabi kong kamuhian nya
ako, nag-uumpisa na.

" Its okay, Zea. Ito ang gusto mo,diba? Well, I give you all the shit you want." He
laughed with sarcasm. Tinutukan nya ako ng masama. Sinuri ako ng tingin from head
to toe. Para akong nalusaw sa kahihiyan. Ang cheap ko. Yon siguro ang iniisip at
inaakala nya sa pagkatao ko.

"And mark my word, I'll make your life miserable as a living hell! Get it? " He
continued and gave me a devil smile before he leave.

Naiwan akong tulala.....

Characters

Name: Jamie Nathaniel Zamora

Age: 25 yrs.old

-6'2 feet

- Tough, mysterious, direct to the point, strong personality but very compulsive
sometimes. A straight forward person

- Dark brown hair, fiercie look, deep blue-gray eyes and Strikingly handsome and
gorgeous.

Name: Zea Russel Chiongbian

Age: 22 yrs.old

- 5'5 feet

- Desperada, naive, dependent, mataray, low profile

- Alluring beauty, Chesnut brown natural curly hair, simple but classy.

Supporting characters are the ff;

Zamora Brothers:

*Yvo ( First Series)

*Servo

Zamora Sisters:

*Mica

*Stacey

( Regina and Lucas Zamora)- Jamie parents.

Charice Abordo- Zea's closiest friend or best friend.

Carla/ Carlo Martinez- gay bestfriend or true friend of Zea.

Lucky Manzania- rival of Jamie, a friend of Zea

(Edward and Emily Chiongbian)- Zea's parents

Trisha Chiongbian- Zea's sister

Etc.

{ I'll just add characters if necessary.}

******

I know its random, But Im still hoping you guys would support my story like my
first one. Sana po magustuhan nyo.

Pagpasensyahan nyo na lang po ang grammatically and typo errors, Im open for
suggestion and correction naman po. Like I said, Im not a writer nor an author. But
I do share my wild imaginations and write stories, wishing would be mine.

( Just help me edit po okay?)

I love readers as well. Thank you :D

Lovelots,

Jacee :)
Obessesion of my first Kiss

( Kabanata 1)

Eight Years ago...

Like an old days, pangkaraniwang na sa akin ang araw na ito. Andito na naman ako sa
isang hotel kung saan makikita ang lalaking matagal ko ng hinahangaan.

Zamora World Hotel

The place where the first time I saw him. And its Crush at first sight. Sa isang
taon, isang buwan ko syang inaaligiran. kasi once a year lang naman silang umuuwi
from states. Doon kasi lahat nag-aaral ang mga Zamora siblings sa pagkakaalam ko.
Labas-masok na ako dito since Dad also has share in this hotel, co-owner. Pero ang
alam ng lahat, pamangkin ako ni Daddy. Oo dahil anak ako sa labas. Kasiraan sa
isang pulitiko ang may pangit na background. Masakit itago ang isang katotohanang
pwede naman sanang aminin na lamang. He was sorry for it. I know dahil sa image
nya. Sabi nya pagdating ng tamang panahon ipapakilala din nya ako sa publiko.
Naiintindihan ko pero masakit lang dahil isa lang akong sampid sa buhay nila.
Walang maipagmalaki at hindi kayang ipagmalaki.

Patuloy lang ako sa paglalakad hanggang sa makarating sa suit na kung saan ako
namamalagi pag ganitong buwan. Dahil alam ko lage syang tumatambay dito.

Pinihit ko ang doorknob pero nakalock yata. Hindi ko naman ito ini-lock nang
lumabas ako dito kanina ah. Pinilit ko, matigas parin at ayaw umikot ito.

" Ano ba ito!" Naiirita kong bulong. Pinihit ko ulit, laking gulat ko na lang nang
biglang bumukas ito.

Huli na para makapigil ako dahil natangay na ako ng pinto papasok sa loob. Pumikit
ako sa isipang matutumba ako sa harapan ng mama na biglang nagbukas nito.

Nakita ko pa ang mga paa nyang umatras at kapwa kami natumba sa sahig. Nakapatong
ako sa kanya.

Ouch!

Ang sakit non!

Parang sumubsob ang labi ko sa isang malambot at mabasang bagay.

Dumilat ako at kitang-kita ko ang panlalaki ng mga mata nya. Pamilyar sya sa akin
at laking gulat ko na lamang na nakapatong ako sa kanya at..

at.. magkadikit ang aming labi!

Gosh, nakakahiya. Bigla akong bumangon. Pakiramdam ko namula ang pisngi ko sa porma
namin. At nag-iinit ako. Hindi ko maintindihan.

" Ah.. " Magsasalita na sana ako nang makita kung sino ang nasa harapan ko. I saw
his pair of slippers. Dahan-Dahan akong nag-angat ng mukha. His khaki shorts na
halatang isang teenager ang nakasout dahil sa style nito.

His plain white shirt. And there, medyo makisig sya. At panghuli, tiningnan ko ang
mukha nya.

Nalaglag ang panga ko nang magtama ang aming mga mata.

Sya!

May bumara sa lalamunan ko at hindi ko magawang makapagsalita..

" Who are you!? Bakit nandito sa suit ko!?" Gulat na tanong nito na halatang
naiirita.

Napaawang muli ang bibig ko. Hanggang ngayon hindi nya parin ako nakikilala!
Madalas naman akong dumadaan sa harapan nya ah, para mapansin at maalala lamang nya
ako. Pero isang pagkakamali ang umasa.

" Ah.. Kasi, Akala ko ito yong room ko. Sige alis na ako. Pasensya kana."
Kinakabahan kong sabi at nagmamadaling lumabas ng suit nya.

Mangiyak-ngiyak akong pumasok sa loob ng aking suit. Magkatabi lang pala kami ng
room. Nakalimutan kong tingnan ang number sa pinto bago pumasok. Isang malaking
katangahan.

I sighed. Its been six years nang huli kaming nagkausap. Eight years old pa lang
ako non. At lage ko syang kalaro sa park. Tinatawag nya akong ' Badiday'. Kahit
nagkakasaran kami, alam kong mabait sya. Paglipas ng isang taon, nagbakasyon ako
kay Mama sa Cebu. At matagal kami bago nagkita.

" Hi Jamie, naaalala mo ba ako? Ako si Zea.. Yong tinatawag mong Badiday."
Nakangiti kong sabi at nimilog ang mga matang hinarap sya.

Tiningnan nya ako from head to toe. Wari inaalala. Tumango tango lamang sya at
hindi interesado.

" Ah ganun ba, okay. Badiday." He's grinning. Naiinis ko syang pinagsalubungan ng
kilay.

Tinalikuran nya ako.

" Hey, ayaw mo na ba sa akin? Teka lang Jamie! " Habol ko sa kanya. Ewan pero gusto
ko sya.

Nilingon nya ako. Kinagat ko ang pang-ibabang labi dahil kahit anong gawin ko,
ramdam ko na crush ko sya. Im only ten years old and he's thirteen. A puppy young
love affair ika nga.

" I dont like you. Masyado ka pang bata. I want big girls, okay. " Sa tonong pang-
aasar nito.

Nagpuppy eyes ako. Hindi ko naman hinangad na magkaroon din sya ng crush sa akin.
Ang gusto ko lang makipagkaibigan sya sa akin

Like old times.

" Sige. Palaki ka muna." Andoon parin ang ngiting aso nya. Kinuha nya ang suot na
kwentas na may pendant na JZ stands for Jamie Zamora.

" Get this, gift ko sayo. If your a big girl na, I'll be yours." Binigay nya ang
kwentas at tinanggap ko iyon ng buong puso.
Tiningnan ko ng maige ang kwentas at sa JZ na pendant, andoon sa likod ang whole
name nya. Nalamaan ko na lang kinabukasan flight na nila papuntang America para
doon mag-aral.

Yon ang huling pag-uusap namin. Hinawakan ko ang sout na kwentas. Matagal ko ng
sinusout ito para pag nagkita kami maalala nya pa ako. Pero kanina, wala syang
maalala na ako si Zea na inaasar nyang 'Badiday'. Mukha pa syang galit. Okay lang
may bonus naman, nahalikan nya ako.

Nagwala ako sa kama dahil sa saya nang maalala ang ang accidental first kiss ko at
sa long time crush ko pa. Wow, sige lang maalala din nya ako. Sabi nya dapat grown
up na ako, big girl. Siguro nababataan parin sya sa akin. Fourteen years old pa
lang ako pero hindi naman ganon kalaki ang agwat namin. Seventeen pa lamang sya.

Takes time. Sya ang ultimate crush ko. At hindi ko sya kayang palitan. Siguro ito
na ang kahuli-hulihang pagkakataon na magpapansin sa kanya. Wala namang epekto. The
last time nakita ko sya, si Ellaine na kasa-kasama nya, fourth year student ng La
Salle. Kung saan ako nag-aaral. Siguro nga sila na. Nagseselos ako syempre kasi
aminin ko man o hindi may gusto ako sa kanya. Sabaygay, hindi naman kami bagay. Si
Ellaine ang gusto nya kaya nirereject nya ako. Sino ba naman ang hindi magkakagusto
sa isang crush ng campus? Cheerleader pa. Bukod don mayaman na at sikat pa ang
pamilya nila. Oo mayaman si Dad pero hindi kami ni Mama.

Bukas sasama ako kina Mommy at ate Trisha sa Baguio. Close ko ang step Mom ko as
well as my sister. Mabait naman sila at tanggap na nila na anak ako ni Daddy sa
ibang babae. One year lang naman talaga ang gap namin ni ate. Ang mommy ni Trisha
is my Dad's ex tapos naging sila ni Mama. And Dad found out na may anak na pala sya
sa kanyang ex at pinili nyang panagutan ito at naghiwalay sila ni Mama. Buntis na
si Mama nung naghiwalay sila ni Daddy, hindi lang alam ni Dad. At hindi rin sinabi
ni Mama until pinanganak nya ako. When I was seven years old, sinabi na ni Mama
ang totoo para magkaroon daw ako ng karapatan sa mga ari-arian nya. Tinanggap ako
ni Dad pero nanatiling lihim yon hanggang ngayon dahil may posisyon sya sa
gobyerno. Masisira daw ang image nya. Hindi ko maintindihan. Pero bakit mas
importante pa ang pera o career kaysa kapakanan ng anak?

Tama na ang inhabisyon.

I swear babalikan kita Jamie. Tandaan mo paglaki ko. Magugustuhan mo rin ako.

Obsessed na ata ako sa kanya.

*-**--****--------*----->

Next chap will be present time.

To Forget Him

(Kabanata 2)

Zea POV

" Drink more!" Napuno ng sigawan ang bar na pinasukan namin ni ate Trisha.

God. I scanned my eyes around. All the men and women dancing on the floor
errotically and wildy as if thier lives depended on it.
I am not an old fashioned. But I am a conservative type. Siguro nahawa ako kay
Mommy, not my real mother pero she's acting like a real one. Nagtataka nga ako kung
bakit ganito kaliberated si Trisha. Party goer ba si Dad noong kabataan pa nya? My
Mama is a former commercial model. She's gorgeous and beautiful. Half Filipina-
spanish-Bulgarian. She's a total modern woman at bakit hindi ako nagmana sa kanya?
Sophisticated, smart and brave. We are totally opposites. Marahil iba ako dahil kay
Mommy ako lumaki. Since I was eight years old sa mansyon na ako ng mga Chiongbian.

In my 16th birthday, pinakilala ako ni Daddy as her lost daugher. Hindi nya kasi
maamin sa publiko na matagal na nya akong tinago, dahil nga isa syang public
figure.

" Hey, sis.. You dont drink?" Anito at inilapit ang basong may lamang alak.

" No, I wont." Umiling ako. I dont wanna get drunk. Walang magdadrive pauwi.

" Oh come on! Dont tell me magmamadre ka?!" Her voice is getting slurred.
Namumungay na ang mga mata nito. Tumatawa pa ito na parang baliw.

Heartbroken. Kaya sya nandito at nagpakalasing. She lied to our Mom just of this,
at nakakakonsensya. Her long time boyfriend cheated on her. Masaklap pa dahil sa
isang bestfriend pa ni Ate. Thats typical. I've seen and I've heard a lot of
stories like that. Not those fictional books na binabasa ko, but in reality. Bakit
pa kasi hindi hiwalayan muna bago pumatol sa iba?! Diba? Kaya tuloy nasasaktan yong
mga babae dahil sa mga idiot na lalaki.

" Ate, walang magdadrive if pati ako maglalasing. " Hindi talaga ako umiinom. Its
not that Im killjoy, but I hate the taste and smell of a liquor. It tasted so bad
and disgusting kaya I never I imagine to try it once again. Kaya naman namimis-
interpret ng iba na masyado akong manang at hindi na daw uso ang good girl.

" Good girls are easily die... You know that. Please stop that nonsense. You only
live once, Zea! Come on drink!" Halos magwawala na ito sa kalasingan. Panay ang
headbang nito sa tugtug ng disco music.

Napailing-iling ako. Ganito pala ang nagagawa ng pag-ibig. Ang magpakabaliw,

maglasing at sirain ang sarili.

" Let's dance!"Sigaw nito at nagkakandarapa akong hinila nito sa gitna ng dance
floor para sumayaw.

Napasunod lang ako at napatingin ako sa palibot. Pinagpapawisan na sila sa

kakasayaw. May nakita pa akong lalaki na dinidilaan ang leeg ng babae at pinipisil
pisil nito ang puwitan. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko sa nakita. Ganon ka-rude? At tila
masaya naman yong babae sa ginagawa ng guy sa kanya. Nakakasuka pa din isipin.

Panay ang sayaw ni ate Trisha na walang pakialam.

I dont dance. Parehong kaliwa ang mga paa ko. Kaya napagpasyahan kong umupo na lang
sa tabi at babantayan ko na lamang sya at hayaang sumayaw hanggang sa magsawa sya.

I sat on a corner all alone. Nag-juice lang ako to avoid being drunk. Walang
magmamaneho kung pareho kaming malalasing. Wala pa naman kaming bodyguard dahil ang
paalam ni ate mag shoshower party lang sa friend na ikakasal na. Im sure Mom will
be mad, kapag nalaman nya ito. Parang natural na lang kasi kay ate ang
magsinungaling para lang magawa ang gusto nyang gawin sa buhay. She got pregnant
when she's eighteen at pinalaglag nya yon na walang kaalam alam sila Mom and Dad.
Im her secret-keeper. At hindi ko pinagsasabi yon ng kahit sino.
Nakakahilo ang paligid. Different lime and dim lights scatter all around where tons
of people dancing on the floor. Napangiwi ako sa mga babaeng nakikipagharutan.
Paano nila nagagawa ang bagay na yon?

Ang gulo ng mundo. Like what happened to my dear sister. At eighteen she gave
herself fully to the man she think she'll spend rest of her life with. They're
been together for almost six years. Nagtagal sila ng ganon kahit on and off yong
realtionship nila. Pero anyare? Iniwan din sya nito at nangibang bansa last week
lang and the worst is sinama pa ang bestfriend nya. Nabalitaan na lamang namin na
three months pregnant na yong girl. Matagal na pala nilang niloloko si Ate. How
absurd the life can get.

I heard alot of people shouting around. Kaya napalinga ako. Nasa dance floor
nagmumula yon. And then I remember my sister. Gosh! Si ate! I was in panic nang
magtatakbo sa sayawan.

Pinagitnaan ang dalawang lalaking nagsusuntukan.. Ni halos walang umawat.

Nagsisigawan na ang mga kababaihan. Nagtakip lang ako ng bibig and my eyes are
widen in shocked.

No. Si ate, nasaan sya? Nakita ko ang kapatid ko na nakatayo sa may gilid ng
nagsusuntukan at halatang gulat na gulat ito sa nangyari. Lumapit yong bouncer para
awatin sila.

" Ate, are you okay? Hah? Hindi ka ba nasaktan?" Nawoworry kong tanong at
kinapkapan ang katawan nya kung may nangyari ba sa kanya. Umiling lamang sya at
nakatingin parin sa may nag-aaway na mga lalaki wari wala sa sariling nagmamasid.

" The next time you'll do that, I swear Im gonna kill you asshole! F*ck!" Galit na
galit niyong mura sa lalaking dehado sa laban. Hindi man lang ito halos nagalosan.
Samantala yong isang guy, di na mailarawan. Nagdurugo ang ilong nito at bibig.

I frown while Im staring with that guy. He looks familiar. Kahit medyo dimmed ang
paligid dahil sa yellow-orange na tumatamang ilaw sa amin ay unti-unti ko syang
nakikilala.

I gulped.

Its him. Til now hindi ko parin nakakalimutan ang itsura nya. My dreamboy.
Napatanga ako. Gumalaw ang kanyang panga at mas lalo lamang akong napalunok.

I nibbled my lip. Pinagpawisan ako bigla kahit malamig naman sana sa loob ng bar
dahil sa lakas ng aircondition. Yong bluish gray eyes nya ay nagpapahiwatig ng
tapang. A fierce but a dangerous look was so captivating.

" Are you okay?" The woman asked him with concern.

Napakurap ako nang wala na pala si ate sa tabi ko at lumapit na sa kanya para
tanungin sya kung okay lang ba sya sa.. suntukan? O ano?

" Im fine. Hey, ikaw.. okay ka ang ba?" He smiled back.

Napayuko ako sa eksenang sila lang ang naririnig kong nag-uusap. The guy wont even
bother himself to glance at me. How poor, still hoping for him na mapansin nya,
makilala pero sya, he just even cant remember me.

***

I am busy doing my stuffs like writing my blogs. On how to avoid the man you love
but cant love you back coz he has special someone, while ate Trisha keeps on
telling me about her date with him. Sino pa nga ba? Si Jamie lang naman. My
dreamboy.

Wala sa sariling nagbuntong hininga ako.

Its been a week simula nang mangyari ang insidenteng yon sa bar. Binastos pala si
Ate nung guy na binugbog nya. At pinagtanggol sya nito. At simula nang mangyari ang
tagpong yon they start communicating each other. Bumabalik na ang sigla ni ate.
More than two weeks pa nga lang sya iniwan ng ex-bf nya, tapos ngayon
nakikipagdate na sya. I bet that Jamie is her panakip-butas lang.

" Hey! Are you listening?! " She hissed. Kaya natigilan ako sa ginagawa at
napatingin sa kanya.

" Hah? Ah O-oo.." Nag-aalangan kong sagot. Iniisip ko kung ano nga yong huli nyang
sinabi.

" Hindi naman eh. Kanina pa ako nagsasalita dito tapos hindi ka man lang
nakikinig." She pouted and crossed her arms.

" Ahmm.. Nakikinig naman ako. Diba nga sabi mo may date kayo bukas?." Yung huling
sinabi nya ang natandaan ko kaya yon na ang ibinato ko sa kanya.

" You know what sis, sabi nya mamasyal daw kami sa Singapore. What do you think?
Its a sign right na makakapag move on na ako with him? He's my knight in shining
armour, right?" She said with excitement. Halata naman talagang attracted sila sa
isa't-isa.

Napasimangot ako. So tama nga ako, ginagamit nya si Jamie sa kanyang pagmomove on.

" Maybe. Hindi ko alam." Di ko siguradong sagot.

Marami pa ding pumapasok sa utak ko. Kung ako sana ang sumayaw aa dancefloor nang
gabing yon, maaari kayang ako ang nasa lagay ni ate ngayon? I felt pity for myself.
Inaamin kong nagseselos ako kay ate dahil pakiramdam ko ako ang dapat nasa lugar
nyo kahit alam kong hindi naman sa ganong pagkakataon.

"Sis, ganda ng necklace mo! Pwede pahiram?" Nakatingin sya ngayon sa kwentas kong
sout. Matagal ko na itong itanago. Dahil ayoko itong mawala. Pero nitong mga
nagdaang araw ginusto ko syang suotin. Im wishing kasi Jamie would see it and
hoping the he will recognize me.

" Hah ah.. kasi.." Nalilito ako kung papahiramin ko ba sya. Mahalaga kasi sa ajin
ito, baka mawala pa nya. Hinahawakan ko ang pendant nito. Umupo ako mula sa
pagkakadapa sa kama.

" Please.. isusuli ko naman eh. I wanna use it." Nagpuppy eyes pa sya. And how
could I say no to that look?

" Sige.. pero ibalik mo agad hah? May sentimenal value kasi sa akin ito."

Hindi ko sya matanggihan. Tutal ibabalik din naman nya ito.

"Oo naman. Sabi ni Dad, may aatinan daw tayong engagement party bukas. Susuotin ko
yang kwentas mo." Nakangiting sabi nito.

Marami naman syang alahas. Ewan kung bakit pati ito napag tripan nya pa. Maluho
kasi.
Tinanggal ko ang sout na kwentas at binigay sa kanya kahit nag-aalangan. Tuwang-
tuwa namang tinanggap nito at agad isinout.

" I love it. JZ ang pendant, doest it means Janna and Zea? Bigay ba ito ni tita?"
She's reffering to my real Mom. Nakaharap sya sa malaking salamin.

" Ha? Ah Oo.. " Alanganin kong sagot. Ako lang dapat ang nakakaalam sa sekretong
iyon.

" Wow.. ang ganda." Namangha sya sa gold nito. Halatang mamahalin. Sabi ng mga
kaibigan ko sa La Salle. Hindi ka raw makakabili nun kung hindi ka mayaman.

Mayaman kami, totoo yon pero hindi sing yaman ng mga Zamora. Hindi ako maluho. Si
mama ang madalas nagsashopping para sa akin. Sa mga signatures o branded belongings
ko like bags, shoes and dresses ang lageng pinambibili nya pag nagtatravel sya
abroad. Isang blogger traveller at photo journalist si Mama kaya madalas syang
nangingibang bansa dahil sa trabaho. Wala syang asawa pero meron syang boyfriend.

Si mommy naman, my step Mom is a good role model as a mother. Understanding, sweet
at generous na tao. Conservative type at mapagmahal. Mahal nya ako, tinuturing nya
like her own daughter kahit iba ang nanay ko. Walang conflicts, tanggap ng lahat at
nakapag move on na rin si Mama. Si ate gusto nya si mama kasi magkatulad sila.
Nagkakasundo nga sila nang minsang nagbabakasyon ako kay mama at sinasama ko sya.
Dahil siguro pareho sila ng hilig. Make ups, girly-thingy style. Mga fashionista.
Ako naman medyo outdated.

" Alam mo minsan naiisip ko, kung hindi ko lang hawig si Mommy iisipin kong anak
ako ni tita Janna. We have lots in common you know. Particularly sa mga gusto ko at
habbits. Tapos ikaw halos nakuha mo lahat ang features ni tita. Yong nose mo lang
ang nakuha kay Daddy. Ako naman is yong mata lang ni Dad ang nakuha. Ang weird nuh?
Naiisip mo ba yon?" Puna nya. I chuckled. Bakit naman ganon sya mag-isip?

" Yon talaga. Hindi ko nakuha ang ugali ni mama. Ikaw naman hindi rin. Conservative
kasi si Mommy." Nakangiti kong sabi.

" Sa tingin mo, kung hindi nalaman ni Dad na may anak sya kay mommy, hindi ba nya
hihiwalayan ang mama mo? Diba nga five months old na ako when he finds out na may
anak na pala sila ni Mommy? Tapos ikaw ipinagbubuntis na pala ni tita. Can you
imagine that?.. Pwede ng pang-Maalala Mo Kaya ang drama, diba?"

Namimilog ang mga mata nyang sabi. Ang laki pa ng ngisi nya.

" Ikaw talaga. Kung ano-ano naiisip mo. " Hindi na awkward sa'min pag-usapan ang
mga bagay na ito.

Napangiti ako. She just shrugged at hindi na nagsalita. Nagring ang phone nya at
excited nya itong kinuha na nakapatong sa mesa.

" Hello.." Sagot nito.

Nahuhulaan ko na kung sino iyon dahil sa lawak ng ngisi nito.

Gumuhit na naman ang lungkot sa mga mata ko. I sighed. Hindi talaga malakas ang sex
appeal ko kasi wala akong dating kay Jamie. Hindi nya ako napapansin noon pa man.

" Ahmm. wala.. may aatinan lang na engagement bukas. Hmm.. hindi ko alam eh. By
next day na lang.. Oo.. Sige.. Bye, hmm. take care." Kilig na kilig ito sa kausap
sa phone. Ang laki ng ngiti nya, at tumalon talon pa sya nang maputol na ang usapan
sa phone.

"Magde-date kami ni Jamie sa Saturday Zea! Yes!" Galak na galak ito.

Hilaw lang akong ngumiti. Kailangan ko na sigurong kumbensihin ang sarili na huwag
ng umasa sa bagay na subrang labong mangyari. Kakalimutan ko na lamang siguro na
may isa akong Jamie Zamora na nakilala at lihim na minamahal. Inaabot na hindi
naman pwedeng abutin.

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Sign To Forget

(Kabanata 3)

"When you love someone you have to learn yourself to let

go............"

Zea POV

" Imagine sis, Yvo Zamora at Ella Smith engagement pala ito. Wow.. Have you known
them?" Excited na bwelta ni Ate sa harapan ko.

Im sitting here, right at the corner of the table sa may kalayuan. I should sit
that 'reserved' table pero dahil claustrophobic ako, Mom and Dad understands why Im
here.

Lumapit lang si ate para makichismiss sa akin dito. Hindi ko nagets ang sinabi nya.
Kaya umiling na lamang ako.

" Which means, andito si Jamie.. Magkapatid sila diba? Gosh! What a coinscidence! "
Her eyes shows excitement and happiness.

Sumikdo naman ang pasaway kong puso. Kelan pa kaya ito titigil sa kakatibok para sa
kanya? Everytime kasi na makikita ko sya o maririnig man lang ang pangalan nya,
naghyhyperventilate ako. Halucination na sana mapansin man lang nya ang beauty ko
kahit paano.

" Ah ganon ba?. Ahh.. okay." Nagbabara ang lalamunan ko at halos hindi ko na
kayang magsalita. I tried not to show an interest.

" Wait lang Sis hah? Hahanapin ko muna sya." Tumayo sya at nagmamadaling sumutsot
sa crowd.

I sighed. Yumuko ako.

" Hi.."

Nag-angat ako ng mukha. Isang maaliwalas at nakangiting gwapo na mukha ang

nasilayan ko. He's in tweenties I guess at sa itsura pa lang halatang nabibilang sa
mga alta syudad na pamilya o angkan.

" Hello." Nahihiya kong response.

" May nakaupo ba dito? Can I join you here?" Sabay turo sa bakanteng upuan na tapat
sa akin.

" Hah? Wala naman...S-sige." Alanganin kong sagot. Nahihiya akong tumanggi kahit
gusto ko pang mapag-isa.

He sat down and shows her deep dimples in his cheeks. Oh how I love that cute
dimples pero hindi ko sya type.

" By the way, Im Lucky Manza--

"Manzano? Dont tell me sasabihin mo rin sa akin na anak ka ni Edu Manzano?" I

continued. Gusto ko lang mamilosopo ngayon.

He stops for a while, at nang magsink-in na sa kanya ang sinabi ko. Saka pa lamang
sya tumawa. He threw his head and laughed.

" I dont know na joker ka pala.. Miss?" His wide smiles shows his pearl white
teeth. Na para bang amuse na amuse ito sa sinabi ko.

Tumaas ang isa kong kilay.Pwede na syang pang model ng Close up toothpaste.

" Russ Chiongbian." Im only giving my name Zea sa taong gusto ko lang. Yong feeling
ko pwedeng maging kaibigan. Pihikan kasi akong tao. Kaya ginamit ko ang Russ short
for Russel na second name ko.

" Ah.. Your the daughter of Governor Chiongbian." He concluded. Tumango tango sya
wari may inaalala.

" And how did you know me?" Hindi naman ako open publicly. Kasi si ate Trisha lang
naman ang kilalang anak ni Daddy.

" Of course andon ako sa eighteen candles mo. Hindi kasi tayo close noon kaya hindi
tayo nagkakilala." He explained.

" So close na tayo ngayon? Ganon ba?" Intriga ko.

He laughed again. Ano bang nakakatawa?

" You know what I like you, your a frank person." He said while grinning. It feels
like he's fond of me.

I rolled my eyeballs. Gusto ko syang tarayan para lubayan na ako dito sa mesa. For
pete's sake! I wanna be alone. Ayoko ng storbo.

" Anyway, Im Lucky Manzania. Not what you think. Nice to meet you Russ." Pormal
nyang inilahad ang kamay.

Tinanggap ko naman yon at binawi agad dahil I had the feeling na hahawakan nya pa
ng matagal ang palad ko.

Nag-umpisa na syang magkwento. Mabait naman syang tao yon ang pakiramdam ko.
Madalas syang nakangiti at palaging positive ang outlook sa buhay dahil na rin sa
paraan ng kanyang pananalita at pag-iisip. I like him not 'like' na katulad kay
Jamie. I like him as a friend. Sandaling nakalimutan ko ang moment na mag-isa lang
ako sa gabing to. He's my saviour of my pathetic situation.

" Excuse muna Luck, I have to go to the powder room. " Nagmamadali kong paalam.

" Sure."

Habang nagmamadali hindi ko napansing may mabangga.

" Shit!"

Napalingon ako agad.

Oww.. I scowl. Sheeettt!

Tumilapon ang drinks nito sa kanyang mamahaling armanni suit. Ang kulay puting sout
nito ay nabahiran ng orange colored juice.

Napatanga ako dahil hindi ko aakalaing sya pa ang makakabangga ko ng ganito.

" Oh.. Im sorry, I didnt mean to do it --" Natataranta kong pinunasan ang suit nya.
Lihim akong nagmura. Ang tanga tanga ko kasi.

" Enough, okay?" He stopped me. Natigilan na lamang ako. Sya na ang nagpagpag sa
sout nya. Tinitigan ko ang mukha nya. Ganon parin, malakas ang dating. Nanghahamon
ang aura nito. At sa nakikita ko ngayon sa iritado nyang mukha mas lalo lamang
syang gumagwapo sa pangin ko.

Hindi sya nakatiis at hinubad ang sout nitong coat. Kaya napaawang ang bibig ko.
Lumitaw ang checkerd nyang long sleeves. At sa bawat paggalaw nya ay sumisigaw sa
akin ng kagwapohan. Tinupi-tupi nya ang long sleeves hanggang siko. .

Napakurap lamang ako. God, he's so damn hot! I murmured. His jaw is perfect!

" Now what!?" He snapped out of my trance.

I blink my eyes for a second to go back to reality . He's frowning bagaman

makikita mo parin sa itsura nito ang bahagi ng iritasyon.

" Ah.. Im s-sorry.." I murmured stupidly.

Nagbuga sya ng hangin na may halong pagkairita. Salubong parin ang kilay nito.

" Fine .." Pinasadahan nya muna ako ng tingin bago tumalikod.

Naiwan akong tulala. Hindi man lang nya ako naalala. Kahit sabihin man lang na '
Oy, your Zea, right? Trishia's sister.' Pinakilala naman ako ni ate sa kanya nong
gabing naglasing sya. Hindi nya ba natatandaan yon?

Ito na naman, unti-unti na akong nasasaktan. Lumalala lang lage ang sakit. Mabuti
pang hindi ko na sya makita kahit kailan kaysa ganito magsa-suffer ako.

***

I sighed one more time. Im here in the bench, nag-iisa. Umalis na ako sa crowd. The
last thing I knew, ate was on Jamie. They're been talking sweetly at the table.
Tapos nung matapos yong announcement ng engagement nila Yvo-Ella, I saw them on the
dancefloor, masaya at malambing na nagyayakapan habang sumasayaw. Sino ba ang hindi
masasaktan na makita ang taong gusto mong makasama ay may kayakap na iba?
" Hi."

Nag-angat ako ng mukha nang marinig ang malambot na boses na yon.

Saglit akong nag-isip nang makita sya. Rumehistro agad sa akin ang itsura nya.
Its Ella, yong ikakasal.

" Hello." Nahihiya kong ganti.

" Pwede ba akong umupo sa tabi mo?" She smiled. Mukha naman syang mabait.

" Oo naman." Nakangiti kong sagot. Then she took a seat immediately at my side.

" Anyway Im Ella. " Pagpapakilala nito sabay lahad ng kanyang palad sa akin.

" Oo ikaw yong ikakasal. Congrats nga pala sa engagement mo. Im Zea." Tinanggap ko
ang pakikipagkamay nya. Ang saya nya tingnan, makikita mo talaga sa kanya na mabait
syang tao at masayahin.

" Salamat, Zea." Napatingin ako sa kawalan at sumandal sa upuan.

" Ang dami kasing tao kaya nagpunta ako dito." She said.

" Ako nga rin eh. May claustrophobia kasi ako kaya di ako makahinga sa loob. Takot
ako sa crowded places." I said habang may inaalala. Kaya tiningnan nya ako. I
smiled bitterly.

" Ganun ba." Sabi nito.

Naaliw kami sa kwentuhan. Hindi na namin napansin ang oras. Doon ko sya nakilala,
dati pala syang ampon ng mga Zamora dahil sa family conflict nagparaya sya at
nagpakalayo. Inampon sya ng mga Smith at doon sya nagtapos sa London ng
photography. How nice, masyado syang mabait at mapagbigay. Nagkwento rin ako ng
tungkol sa sarili. Pero hindi lahat. Yong issue ng pamilya ay mananatiling private
at ayoko ng may masabi silang hindi maganda about kay Dad. He's a public servant
kaya dapat mabuti at maganda ang image nya.

Pagkatapos ng kwentuhan napagpasyahan naming magpaalam na sa isa't-isa.

" Hinahanap ka na ni Mommy, Zea." Iba yata ang tono ng kanyang pananalita ngayon.

Tumango na lamang ako kahit parang nakabusangot ang mukha nya. Hindi na ako
nagtatanong kapag ganon ang mood nya. Agad nya akong tinalikuran pagkatapos
umismid. Nagtataka lamang akong sinundan sya ng mga tingin. Ang ate kong bipolar at
spoiled. Kaya hinahayaan ko na pag nagtatantrums sya katulad ngayon.

Nagmartsa sya palayo at agad na kumapit sa braso ni Jamie. Nalulungkot akong

nakatingin sa kanila. Hindi dapat ako nagseselos dahil kapatid ko ang magiging
girlfriend nya. Ito na siguro ang sign na kalimutan sya. Yong ibaon na lang sa
limot yong sinabi nya sa akin noon. Tutal ako lang naman ang nakakaalala non at
wala sya ni katiting..

I guess this is the sign..

the sign to forget him and let it go..

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I found You

(Kabanata 4)

"You'll never know when true love comes".....

Jamie POV

I frown when I saw her wearing that necklace. Its mine, ang capitalized na pendant
nitong JZ ay nangangahulugan ng buo kong pangalan.

" Why?" She asked when she noticed that I was staring at her neck.

"Hi Jamie, naaalala mo pa ba ako?" Hindi ko sya matandaan pero she's familiar.
Hindi ko narinig ang sinabi nyang pangalan.

"Yong tinatawag mong Badiday." Nakangiti nitong sabi at nimilog pa ang mga matang
hinarap ako.

I look at her from head to toe. Wari inaalala. She's pretty but too young for me.
Tumango tango lamang ako. Im not interested but I find her cute.

" Ah ganun ba, okay. Badiday." Im grinning trying to tease her. Naiinis syang
pinagsalubungan ako ng kilay.

Tinalikuran ko sya. I have no time for puppy love.

" Hey, ayaw mo na ba sa akin? Teka lang Jamie! " Habol nito sa akin.

Nilingon ko sya. She nibbled her lower lip. Oh!? Ang cute nga talaga nya pero kaya
lang hindi ko type ang ganito kabata. Im only thirteen but the hell! I dont go
down for grades school. I feel like Im a grown up highschool student.

" I dont like you. Masyado ka pang bata. I want big girls, okay. " Sa tonong pang-
aasar ko.

Nagpuppy eyes sya and I admit Im attracted with her. Damn!

" Sige. Palaki ka muna." I smiles sheepishly. Siguro mas mabuting bigyan sya ng
palatandaan. I remove my precious necklace, its a my Mom 8th birthday gift. May
pendant na JZ stands for Jamie Zamora. Ito yong official na akong inampon nila
Mommy Regina at Daddy Lucas.

" Get this, gift ko sayo. If your a big girl na, I'll be yours." Binigay ko ang
kwentas at nakangiti nyang tinanggap yon ng buong puso.

" Hoy! Jamie!"

Nag-angat ako ng tingin sa kaharap. She's smiling. Parang mag nag-iba sa itsura nya
ngayon. Bakit parang hindi naman sya, although may konting pagkakahawig pero ang
ngiti nya, parang iba. Bakit di ko naramdaman yon nang una ko syang makita?

Hinawakan ko ang pendant ng kwentas. Nabigla sya pero hinayaan nya ako. Inikot ko
ito, and there I found my whole name at the back of that initials.
I smiled," You still keep it for twelve years?" Hindi ako makapaniwala. I count
the the years, I was thirteen at the time.

" Hah? W-what do you mean? " She's puzzled. Tiningnan nya ako ng nakakunot noo..

" Diba, binigay ko sayo yan? Remember? It was twelve years ago. Bata ka pa non. Im
your crush and I gave you that, as a gift to mark you that I own you. As a kid,
you know promises... Dont tell me nakalimutan mo na?" I explained.

Nag-isip sya. Unti-unti syang ngumiti at parang nag-iba ang timpla ng mukha nya.

" Remember tha JZ? Look at the back of that pendant, may whole name akong nakalagay
dyan." I continued.

She took the pendant immediately. And look the whole name of it.

Tiningnan nya ako, I smirked. Napakurap sya at tipid na ngumiti pero mailap ang mga
mata nya.

" Yeah, naalala ko na." She smiled.

" Your a grown up now. As what I've told you, magiging akin ka kapag nagkita tayo.
I guess, this is it." I spoke.

Niyakap nya ako. Nabigla ako pero unti-unting dumapo ang mga kamay ko sa likod nya.

" Im sorry if hindi kita nakilala agad. Kasi ibang-iba kana ngayon." Sabi nito at
hinigpitan ang pagkakayakap.

I smiled, hindi nga rin ako nakakilala sa kanya but it doesnt mean na nakalimutan
ko sya.

" You know, I never forget you. Even if I didn't remember your face but still..
naalala kita when I saw that necklace."

I close my eyes and hug her tightly. Finally I found her. Oh God, I've been looking
at her every year na umuuwi ako dito sa Pilipinas. And now, I cant believe it that
she's here, hugging me now. I'll never let her go.

Months Later..

" Hi, Zea.. Im looking with your sister, where is she?" Naitanong ko pagpasok sa
sala.

Madalas na ako dito sa bahay nila. Her parents known me already at mas gusto nila
ako kaysa sa ex boyfriend ni Trisha. I heard.. that bastard, he cheated Trisha. Mas
mabuti ng nagkita kami ngayon na wala na syang boyfriend kung hindi tiyak na
aagawin ko si Trisha sa kung sino mang lalaki ang hahawak nito. We made the promise
and the deal, and its sealed.

" She's not here. Bakit di mo tawagan?" Malamig ngunit mataray nitong sagot. Abala
ito sa mga binabasang libro sa table.

I raised my one eyebrow. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ang init ng dugo nya sa akin.
She's aloof. Four months na kaming mag-on ni Trisha, pero mabibilang lang sa
daliri na nagkikita kami. Hindi sya namamansin. Walang pakialam at napapansin ko
tuwing nag-aabot kami sa isang lugar, agad syang umiiwas at umaalis. When I had
dinner with her parents, she never joined.

What's her problem anyway?

" She's unattended. " Sagot ko, while looking at her fixing her things on the
table.

" Then, wait here. " Tumayo sya at hinablot lahat ng libro, ready to go.

" Do you have problems with me Zea?" I suddenly asked.

She paused, at dahan-dahang nilingon ako. Salubong ang kilay nito. I blink, she's
digging me in. Everytime her eyes lands on me, may naaalala akong bagay na hindi ko
matandaan kung ano. Her eyes is deep and big but so expressive. Sabi nga ni Trisha,
magkapatid lang sila sa ama. Pero mas maganda sya, aminado ako don. Hindi ako bulag
para hind makita ang katotohanan kung sino talaga ang angat sa kanilang dalawa
pagdating sa physical features.

" I guess, no. " Sagot nito at tumalikod agad.

" Then, why are you like that?" Pahabol ko.

Naiiritang nilingon nya ako.

" Like what?" She hissed.

" Your avoiding me like I have contagious desease! Kung hindi ka boto sa akin for
your sister, then fine. And why do you have to do these?" I blurted out.

Mapakla syang natawa. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang inaayawan nya sa akin pero mas
gusto ko ang ideyang nakikipag close sya sa akin.

" And do you want me to do? Makipag-usap sayo whole day? Do you want me to bring
red carpet if you come here, ganun ba? Duh,!" Inirapan nya ako bago tumalikod.
Hindi ko mapigilan ang airuta sa inaasal nya. Hindi ko alam kung paano sya aamuin.

Agad syang nagwalk out after she said that words. Naiwan akong tulala sa mga sinabi
nya. Hindi ko talaga sya maintindihan. She's really a deep person. Subrang lalim.

Its not what I mean. My point is, why she's avoiding me too much? Sometimes,
pinipilit ko ang sariling huwag sya pansinin. Pero everytime I saw her, may kung
ano akong nararamdaman na hindi ko maipaliwanag.

I sighed, attracted ako sa kanya. And I should stop this feelings for her,
girlfriend ko ang ate nya. Mahirap na baka lalo lang maging kumplikado ang lahat.

Napatingin ako sa wristwatch kong sout. Two hours late, nasaan na kaya sya?

Lately, napapansin ko na ang pagbabgo nya. What happened to her?

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Getting Upset

( Kabanata 5)

Zea POV

I am certainly upset in everything. Daddy starting to get busy about his political
career. Its election time, and they're busy doing campaigns and plugging about
their platforms.

And Mom is helping him in everything. Acting like a trophy wife. Ganun talaga. Si
ate, ayon busy doing her stuffs.. Well, ito ang pinaka worst, lage lang naman nya
kasama ang taong.. I sighed, ang taong mahal ko. I should be happy for ate. Plastic
ako kung sasabihin kung hindi ako nasasaktan. And its getting worst everyday na
nakikita ko silang magkasama, naghahalikan, nagyayakapan. Its killing me inside,
but I have no choice but to keep it at iwasan na lamang sila.

" Sis, look at this.. " Nakangiting balandra ni ate sa mukha ko ang kamay nya.
Hinarang nya pa sa mukha ko. Ang nakikita ko lang naman ay yong singsing na may
diamond sa gitna. Anong meron dun? Sanay na ako sa mga pinambibili nyang mga
alahas, isa pa di ko rin ito magugustuhan dahil hindi ko kahiligan.

" Ano namang meron dyan?" Tila hindi ko interasadong tanong. Umarko ang kilay ko
habang tinititigan ang singsing nya.

" Its official. Nagpropose na sa akin si Jamie." Sa lapad ng ngiti nito, di mo

maikakailang napakasaya nya.

Parang tinusok ang dibdib ko ng libo-libong karayom. Gosh, so wala na ngang pag-asa
na kahit makilala lang man nya ako?

" And look maybe next month, magkakaroon na ng enggrandeng engagement party.
Hinihintay lang naman namin na matapos si Daddy sa pangangampanya." Paliwanag nito.
Inikot ikot nya ang kamay sa kanyang harapan. Nakangiti itong tinititigan ang
singsing. Pakiramdam ko nanadya syang painggitin ako.

" Eh di mabuti. Para masettle kana." Patay mali kong sabi.

That was one week ago and Im hurting like hell! Aaminin ko subrang naiinggit talaga
ako sa kalagayan nya. Nakuha nya ang atensyon ni Jamie na walang kahirap-hirap. Ni
hindi nga sya gumawa ng mga motibo. Tapos ako ito, naghihintay ng palihim na
mapansin pero mahuhulog lang din naman sa wala. Sabagay mapupunta naman sya sa
taong malapit din sa akin. But, yon nga lang sa kapatid ko pa. Masakit lang talaga
isipin.

I should move on. Mag-aaral ako sa U.S, doon ako magmamasteral. Tama si Mommy, I
have to explore. Tutal bata pa naman ako. Tapos pagbalik ko, tiyak na makakalimutan
ko na si Jamie. Tama, lalayo ako para sa kanilang dalawa.

Im working here sa business ni Daddy. Accounting Manager ako dito. Maaga akong nag-
out dahil I wanna talk Mommy tungkol sa pag-aabroad. I want to make it rush kasi
ayoko ng umabot pa sa engagement ni ate if ever man.

Oh oh.. Traffic jam. May sumusunod sa akin na mga bodyguards, hinahayaan ko na.
Nasanay na rin ako sa ilang taon na may umaaligid sa akin. Natural yon, dahil
politician si Daddy. Si ate Trisha lang naman ang madalas na sumusuway sa utos ni
Dad. Kaya madalas ito napapabuntungan ng galit. Hard-headed si ate at party goer
pa. Mga ugaling pinakaayaw ng parents namin. Yon ang malaking pinagkakaibahan
naming dalawa coz Im a home-buddy person.
Paliko na sana ako nang may napansing pamilyar na tao. Parang si ate, may kasamang
lalaki sa Dream Coffe. Inihinto ko sandali ang kotse, at maiging pinagmasdan ito.
Ibinaba ko ang windshield para makasigurong tama ba ang nakita ko. They are talking
casually with that guy. Hindi ko makita ang lalaki dahil nakatalikod ito banda sa
akin. Pero pamilyar ito, am sure its not Jamie. Kilalang kilala ko ang tindig at
katawan nito pero ang isang ito ay masasabi kong kilala o nakita ko na sya.

Nagulantang ako ng makarinig ng sunod-sunod na bosena sa likod.

" Hoy! Ano ba?! Ginawa mong parking area ang kahabaan ng Edsa!" Sigaw nung lalaking
kasunod ng sasakyan ng aking mga bodyguard.

Hinawakan ko ang manibela para umalis na, muli kong sinulyapan ang kinaroroonan ni
ate at halos malaglag ang panga ko ng makita silang naghahalikan. Shit!

Lumingon ang lalaki, kaya namutla ako kung sino ito. Paano ko ba makakalimutan ang
mukhang ilang beses ko ng nakakasalamuha. Sya ang ex-fiance ni ate!

Tapos naghahalikan sila? Anyari? Dont tell me nagkabalikan na sila? Si Jamie? Paano
sya? Niloloko ba sya ni ate? Crap!

Hindi ko na alam kung paano ako nakarating sa mansyon. Kahit pakiramdam ko

lumilipad ang utak ko sa pag-iisip kung ano yong mga nakita ko kanina. Nagmamadali
akong pumasok ng loob nang biglang bumangga ako sa matigas na bagay.

" Shit!" Mura ko sabay hawak sa noo. Napapikit ako, nakabangga ako ng tao. Naiirita
kong idinilat ang mga mata.

Napatanga ako nang makitang si Jamie pala itong nabangga ko at nasa harapan ko
ngayon. Pinagpawisan ako ng malamig. He was frowning, nagtataka itong tinitigan
ako. Napatitig lang ako sa mga mata nya, palipat lipat ang tingin ko sa kabuuan ng
parte ng kanyang mukha. He's terribly handsome and good looking but .. I have no
time to dream it now, kaya nilagpasan ko sya.

" Wait. .." Biglang tawag nito.

I paused for a while bago sya nilingon. Nanatiling blangko ang mukha ko.

" Are you okay? You look pale." He sounds concern. May bahagi ng puso ko ang
nagtatalon sa tuwa pero alam ko namang walang ibang kahulugan yon.

Wala sa sariling tumango ako. I gave him a reluctant smile.

He smiled, a genuine smile to be exact.

" Im waiting with your sister here, may meeting pa daw sya sa mga investors.
Anyway, kung okay lang sayo.. samahan mo naman ako dito oh.." He was pleading.
Namunungay ang mga mata nito. Nakikiusap.

Nakaramdam agad ako ng awa. Ate must be lying at him, nakipagtagpo sya sa lalaki
nya tapos sya nagtatyagang naghihintay sa kanya, dito sa bahay.

" Sige.." Alanganin kong tango.

Nagpaalam ako sandali para magbihis. Ayokong nag-eentertain na naka-corporate

attire. Pagkatapos ay nagkukuwentuhan kami sa garden.

" Aalis ka ng U.S?" Gulat nitong tanong nang sabihin ko sa kanya ang balak kong
pag-alis.

" Oo, magmamasteral ako doon. And I wanna live with my own. Yong walang bodyguards,
yong ako lang mag-isa." Katwiran ko.

Napansin kong medyo naglukot ang kanyang mukha. Ang masiglang mga mata nito ay
biglang nagtamlay.

" Sabagay, iba din ang independent." Sang-ayon nito at saka humigop ng kape.

Medyo dumidilim na. Halos isang oras na rin kaming nag-uusap pero walang ate na
dumating.

" Ang tagal naman nya, I have an appointment mamayang alas siete. Six thirty na
oh.." He's getting upset. Panay ang tingin nito sa wristwatch nyang sout.

" Baka na-traffic lang." Nabubulol kong pananakip.

" Maybe. " He shrugged at bumalik ulit ang sigla sa kanyang mukha na humarap sa
akin.

***

Hanggang sa umalis si Jamie ay walang ate na dumating. Naawa ako sa kanya. Hinintay
ko rin si ate dahil gusto ko syang kausapin pero wala parin.

Nag-aalala na si Mommy at Daddy, tinatawagan nila ito pero hindi sinasagot ang
phone.

Nakahiga na ako sa kama para matulog pero nakarinig ako ng sigawan sa baba kaya
nagmamadali akong lumabas ng kwarto at patakbo akong bumaba sa staircase.

" Is that all you care, Trisha!? Partying, and making scences and then again,
gossips will spread in a different news and tabloids!?" Dad shouted at her, he's
definitely very mad. Iwas frantically go down in there place.

" Oh here we go again Dad!? Since when do you even care about what I get up to?
Your are just too busy with your damn precious politics and didnt pay attention to
what I do anyway!?" She scoffed loudly and it makes him more maddened.

" You know what Trisha, if that is your current attitude its going to get you
nowhere! From now on, you'll go with your bodyguards or else ipatapon kita sa
malayong lugar with nothing for you to suffer and value your damn life!" Tinuro sya
nito sa mukha. She stiffened, alam kong nagtitimpi lang din si ate.

Kitang kita ko ang galit sa mukha ni Dad. Walang imik na tinalikuran sya ni ate,
nagkasalubong kami ng mga mata at agad din nitong binawi. Mangiyak ngiyak sya
nitong nilampasan ako.

Dad comb his hair with his fingers with so much frustration. Si mommy naman ay
naluluha itong napahawak sa noo. Lumapit ako kay Daddy para yakapin ito.

" Dad, its okay.. Calm down.." I comforted him, he sighed at ginantihan din ako ng
yakap.

Hinalikan nya ako sa noo at mapait na ngumiti.

" You and your Mom who understands me. Matulog kana hija." Hinaplos nya ang pisngi
ko, showing his affections. Naiintindihan ko si Daddy kahit alam kong marami syang
pagkukulang.

Ngumiti ako at kumalas sa kanya. Hinalikan ko muna sya sa pisngi bago ako lumapit
kay Mommy, at niyakap ito.

" Namumroblema talaga ako sa ate mo. Last week lang sabi nya magpapakasal na sila
ni Jamie tapos ngayon sasabihin na naman nyang cancel na muna ang engagement next
month." Sabi ni Mom, kaya nag-angat ako ng mukha sa kanya. I gave her a puzzled
look. She gently caressing me on my hair.

" I dont get your daughter, Emily. Natatakot ako baka tumulad sya kay Ella Smith na
tinakbuhan si Yvo sa mismong kasal. That poor boy. " Umiling iling na sabi ni Dad
showing his disappointments.

Napaisip ako saglit. Nung hindi sumipot si Ella sa kasal nila ni Yvo ang media ang
gumawa ng mga conclusions. May mga naglabasang pictures sa tabloids na sumama sya
sa lalaki nya na nagngangalang Dyllan Tan, isa ring sikat na negosyante. Pero
ayokong manghusga, nakilala ko si Ella personaly on her engagement and I can tell
that she's kind and heart warming person. Siguro nga maling desisyon or may malalim
lamang syang dahilan kaya nya nagawa yon. It was five months ago. Pero medyo sariwa
parin ang chismiss.

Umakyat na ako sa kwarto para matulog. Itutulog ko na lang ang stressful day kong
ito.

Naguguluhan na talaga ako sa nangyayari ngayon. At ngayong araw pa nagkasabay sabay

ang lahat. Ang pagkikita nila ni ate at kuya Richie, her ex fiance. Hindi ko talaga
nakalimutan ang halikan nila kanina. At si ate, kinakansela ang sinasabi nyang
engagement nila ni Jamie. May kinalaman talaga ang ex nya dito. At ang kawawang
present boyfriend ni ate ngayon ay lageng nandyan para sa kanya. Tapos
pinagtataksilan lang ni ate!

Nung engagement nila ni ate at kuya Richie last year ay subrang enggrande tapos
after how many months, ayon nakipagtanan ito sa ibang babae. Lumabas yon sa media,
at okay lang dahil hindi naman nya kasalanan. Pero lumabas din ang mga negative
feedbacks kay ate. Na baka hindi sya nagustuhan ng kanyang long time bf dahil sa
pagiging gimickera nito. Blah blah blah.. and so on. Pero kahit ganun ang flaws ni
ate, hayop din naman sa pagiging playboy ng ex nya!

Ipinikit ko na lang ang mga mata at niyakap ang unan.

Nakakalito. Im getting upset in every situation.

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Love Prevention

(Kabanata 6)

Zea POV

" I saw you kissing with Kuya Richie last night. " I thrown an almost accusing
tone.
Hindi sinasadyang nagkasalubong kami sa hallway ng mansyon. I saw how she
stiffened. She paled. Hindi nya siguro inaasahang sasabihin ko sa kanya ang bagay
na yon.

She showed a bitchy smile," So? Ano ngayon? Ganyan kana ba kadesperada para
manmanan ako?" She mocked.

Ako naman ang natigilan sa sinabi nya. Ano bang pinagsasabi nya? I dont even know
what's happening with her life tapos may time pa ba ako para manmanan sya?

" I saw you with him in Dream Coffee Shop. Don't tell me nagkabalikan na kayo?
Paano na kayo ni Jamie?" Sunod-sunod kong tanong na nag-aalala.

She smiled wryly, " So kung nagkabalikan man kami, is that a big deal?"

I sighed in irritation. bakit ba ganito sya ngayon? Was she distress? Napansin ko
na ang mga pagbabago nya nitong mga nakaraan araw. She always treat me coldy like I
did something wrong to her.

" So ganun na lang yun? Paano si Jamie? Paano na kayo? Ate, sinaktan ka nya noon.
Nakalimutan mo na ba ang ginawa nya?" Hindi ko talaga sya naiintindihan ngayon. I
had the feeling na may knialaman na naman dito ang ex nya, or should I say
boyfriend dahil sabi nga nya binalikan na ito which is so awful.

She laughed like she dont care everything. What was happen to her? Ano bang
problema nya?

" Oh come on, Zea. Richie and I love each other, so what's wrong? And kay Jamie,
tutal gusto mo naman sya eh di sayo na lang sya. I wont be mad or get jelly kahit
sulutin mo pa sya sa akin ngayon." With that insulting words and bitchy smile she
turn around and walk away swaying her hips.

Napanganga ako sa sinabi nya. Hindi ko sya maintindihan. Bakit nya nasabi sa akin
ang mga bagay na yun? Masyado ba akong naging transparent sa feelings ko kay Jamie?

Hinabol ko sya at hinablot ang kanyang braso. Pero mabilis nyang iwinaksi ang kamay
ko at naiiritang hinarap ako.

" What's wrong with you ate?! Ano bang problema mo? May nagawa ba akong kasalanan
sayo? tell me!" Panghahamon ko. She glared at me.

" Wala Zea! Wala! Ang problema ko sayo ay subrang bait mo! Hindi ko alam kung paano
kita mapapalayo sa akin. I dont deserve to be your sister.. I dont.." Mangiyak
ngiyak nyang sigaw. Naalarma ako. She's an attention seeker. Hindi ko alam kung
matatakot ba ako sa reaction nya o maaawa. I felt pity suddenly. Niyakap ko sya,
at humagulhol sya sa balikat ko. I comforted her at hinayaan ko syang ilabas ang
lahat ng sama ng loob nya.

" Mahal ko sya, Zea. Mahal na mahal. And Im pregnant, hindi si Jamie ang ama kundi
sya. Please tulungan mo ako.." Nagulat ako sa sinabi nya. Sa subrang pagkabigla ko
ay tumulo na ang malamig at malapot kong pawis. So, matagal na pala nilang niloloko
si Jamie.

" Paano nangyari ang lahat ng ito? Ilang buwn na ang pinagbubuntis mo?" Agad kong
tanong. Subrang nag-aalala na ako sa kalagayan nya.

" Mag two-two months na,, Zea, please help me. Next week na ang engagement namin ni
Jamie, and I dont know how to cancel it. Daddy is so eager to announce it because
of his political career. Alam nya kasing malaking tulong sa kanya ang mga Zamora sa
campaign nya. Natatakot na ako, Zea. Dad will kill me if he'll find it. Hindi ko
kayang ipaako kay Jamie ito dahil wala pa namang nangyayari sa amin talaga." She
explain while crying.

Hinila ko sya papasok sa aking kwarto to make our conversations private. Mahirap na
baka may katulong na makarinig it will spread like viral scandal videos. Politician
pa naman si Dad. So nagiging malinaw na sa akin ang lahat. If ever may nangyari sa
kanilang dalawa, she will definitely tell it to Jamie na sya ang ama or let's just
say mahal lang nya talaga ang gagong yun! Kaya she will break up Jamie.

Inumpisahan namin sa maayos na usapan at masinsinan. Her bestfriend and that damn
ex of her just broke up two months ago dahil sa conflict na niloko daw ng
bestfriend nya ang kanyang boyfriend at hindi pala sya ang ama ng ipinagbubuntis
nito. And when it revealed he came back in the Philippines just to win ate's heart.
Oh God, masyado ng complicated. Mahirap talaga kalimutan ang pinagsa mahan ng
ganun katagal. Besides engaged na sila nang umalis ito at pinili ang buntis nyang
bestfriend where in fact, hindi naman pala si kuya Richie ang ama ng ipinagbubuntis
nito. Speaking positively, ate is pregnant with him.

" So anong plano mo ngayon? Tell it to Jamie, the truth. Am sure he'll
understands." I advised. She sighed heavily. Umiling ito tanda ng hindi pagsang-
ayon.

" No, it would suck him out. Its betrayal, Zea. Let's make it like no one's fault.
I mean.. to cancel everything like... " She pause, nalito ako lalo sa sinabi nya.

Tiningnan nya ako ng malalim. Sa klase ng kanyang pagtitig, may nasesense na akong
may binabalak na naman sya that against my will.

" I know you love him, Zea. Babae rin ako. I feel you. He's your long time crush,
right?" Napipi ako sa sinabi nya. Napakurap ako kasabay ng pagtahip ng aking
dibdib. Bakit? Anong alam nya?

" Im so sorry, Zea. Im a liar. Jamie thought that I was YOU. " Humina ang boses nya
at napahikbi na naman. I frown. Hindi ko parin na-gets.

" Stop crying, masama sa baby mo yan. Sabihin mo sa akin ang lahat. I promise hindi
ako magagalit." I assure it to her para kumalma lang sya.

Umayos sya ng upo at nagpahid ng mga luha. Ganun ba talaga ang mga buntis?
Masyadong emotional?

Diba I lend your necklace, nakita nya yun, and he said may binigyan syang ganun
when he was thirteen. And I know its you dahil hindi naman sa akin yun. Im sorry,
sis kung hindi ko nasabi sayo ang totoo. Kinain lang ako ng insecurity and at that
time gusto kong bumangon from downfall. I want to move on. At si Jamie ang sa
tingin kong makapagbigay sa akin ng happiness and attention from Richie."

She's sobbing and I don't know how to react. Napaawang lang ang bibig ko at awang
awa ako sa kalagayan nya ngayon. Speechless ako dahil naalala pala ni Jamie yun
pero hindi lang nya matandaan kung sino.

" Ano ba ang maitutulong ko sayo?" Nawowory kong tanong sa kanya.

She sighed.

" Make him fall for you, Sis. Tutal ikaw naman ang gusto nya. Akala lang nya kasi
ako ay ikaw. Sis please. I know its hard for you. Pero ito na lang ang tanging
paraan at sasama ako kay Richie sa Norway."
Parang kaydali lang sa kanya sabihin at gawin ang bagay na yon. She's being
selfish but I know wala na syang ibang makakapitan pa.

" I'm afraid that Dad will abort my baby if malaman nya. Please, Zea."

Tama, desperado pa naman minsan si Daddy.

Humugot ako ng hangin. Ang hirap naman nito. Paano ko ba gagawin ang sinasabi nyang
make him fall?

" Ate hindi naman ganun kadali ang hinihingi mo. One week ko syang paiibigin? How?
Hindi naman ganun kadali natuturuan ang puso." Reklamo ko. Para namang kanta yon ng
isang linggong pag-ibig.

" Mas may madali dyan. " Anito na siguradong sigurado na sa plano.

" Ano?" Curios Kong tanong. Napatitig ako sa determined nyang mukha.

" Pikutin natin sya!"

"No! Hindi ko kayang gawin yon!"

Hindi ko kayang gawin ang sinasabi nya. I was literally shocked.

" Eh di takutin natin sya. Zea, please I need your cooperation."

Bigla akong nanghina sa sinabi nya. Ayokong paglaruan ang damdamin ni Jamie.
Nakakaawa naman kung ganoon. But I have to choose the options. Its either my ate
for good or him na hindi ko naman kaano-ano, na mahal ko.

I sighed. Of course I have to sacrifice for my sister's sake. Bahala na pagkatapos.

Blood is thicker than water. Mas pipiliin ko parin si ate kahit kamuhian ako ni
Jamie forever. Well, our plan is we have to destroy Jamie's good image to my Dad's
eyes. Iniisip ko pa lang ay nakukunsensya na talaga ako. Hindi ko rin naman sya
kayang pikutin. Ito na lamang ang tangi kong maitutulong kay ate. Bahala na ang
kasunod. Maiintindihan naman siguro ni lord itong gagawin ko.

Bahala na. ..

Set Up

( Kabanata 7)

Zea POV

Nagpalakad lakad ako sa kabuuan ng kwarto. Hindi na ako mapakali. This is the time
na gagawin na namin ang plano ni ate. Nandyan na rin sila Mommy at Daddy. So all is
prepared and I'm shaking in nervous.

Nanalalamig na ang mga palad ko sa kaba, at sa pinaghalo-halong emosyon. At the

same time takot. Jamie will surely hate me for this. Not just hate ...loathe me
rather.

I nibbled my lower lip. This it..

Flashback

Nagmamadali akong bumaba ng hagdanan nang makarinig ako ng sigaw ni Daddy. I saw
Mom's struggling in crying in her hands, habang si Daddy ay galit na palakad lakad
sa sala.

"Daddy, Mommy? Anong nangyari?" Agad kong tanong nang makalapit sa kanila.

Nag-angat si Mom ng mukha. Basang basa ang mukha nito sa luha. Umiiyak itong
nagpunas ng PiSnGI.

"Subukan niya lang magpakita! Papatayin ko ang lalaking yun!"

Lumingon ako kay Daddy nang sabihin niya yon.

Nagbabaga ang mukha nito sa galit. Mas lalo lamang akong nagtaka. Ano bang
nangyayari? Sino ba ang lalaking tinutukoy nito?

"Naglayas ang ate mo..Zea. Sumama siya kay Richie. Iniwan na niya tayo." Sabi ni
Mommy na nahihirapan sa pag-iyak.

Sumikdo ang kaba sa dibdib ko. Paano si Daddy? Tiyak na mapuputol ang ugnayan ng
Chiongbian-Zamora dahil sa ginawa ni ate. Katatapos lang ng pamamanhikan.

Napatanga ako. Akala ko ba ayaw ni ate ng gulo? The last time we talked sabi niya
sa akin na cancel na muna ang engagement dahil umatras ako sa utos niya dahil hindi
ko talaga kaya. Pero hindi na siya nakatiis at ito ang ginawa niya ngayon. Nakita
ko ang iniwan niyang sulat sa mesa. Hindi na kailangang basahin ko ito dahil alam
ko namang buo na ang desisyon niya.

"Let's find your daughter. After one week kapag hindi natin siya nakita, let's make
amends to Lucas and Regina." May finality sa boses nito. Kaya mas lalo lamang akong
natakot.

Nagmartsa palayo si Dad. Inalo ko na lamang si Mommy. Panay parin ang iyak nito sa
balikat ko. Ang bigat sa dibdib.

Kinabukasan, tumawag si ate. Ibang contact number ginamit niya. Dahil yung number
niya hindi na mareach ng calls. Out of coverage na. Kaya naghihintay na lang ako na
siya ang tumawag o mag text sa akin. Pinapahanap pa siya ni Daddy sa mga inutusang
mag-imbestiga kung nasaan siya ngayon.

Nagkausap kami at ang sabi niya hindi siya babalik hanggat hindi pa okay ang lahat.
Kaya for the sake of Daddy kailangan kong magsakrapisyo. Naiipit ako sa sitwasyong
hindi ko naman kagagawan.

I heard a loud knock in my door. Binuksan ko ito. Si Manang Linda ang kumatok. Ang
may kabingihan naming kasambahay. Kaya I understand if she almost crack my door
forcefully.

"Nandyan na si Sir Jamie. Ano po ba ang sasabihin ko?" Tanong nito. Marahil alam
na nila ang nangyari kay ate pero syempre nagtatatrabaho lang sila dito kaya wala
silang pakialam.

"Bigyan mo ng kape or something na maiinum. Bababa lang ako para kausapin sya."
Nilakasan ko ang boses para marinig niya ang sinabi ko.

Inutusan ko kasi ang katulong na kapag dumating siya ay katukin agad ako dito sa
kwarto.
Bumaba ako at naabutan ko si Jamie na nakaupo same sofa. Nagbabasa siya ng
magazine. Napansin niya siguro ako na palapit sa kanya kaya nag-angat siya ng ulo.
Agad na rumihestro ang ngiti sa kanyang mga mata. Kasabay ng maaliwalas na ngiti.

"Hi, Zea. I'm waiting here with your sister. Anyway, hindi ko siya ma-contact.
Nandito na ba siya?" Nakangiti parin ito.

Namutla ako. Naging malikot ang mga mata ko. Paano ko ba sasabihin sa kanya? Mali.
Paano ko uumpisahan itong plano ko?

"Are you okay?" Kunot-noo nitong tanong.

"Ha? Ah o-oo.." Alanganin kong tango. I smiled nervously.

"Jamie..hmm.." I spoke hardly. He smiled and waiting for me to talk. He's frowning.

"May ipapakita lang sana ako sayo sa kwarto kung okay lang." Malikot ang mga mata
kong sabi.

He chuckled. Yung tawang walang halong biro. Then a genuine smile.

Umakyat na kami sa kwarto ko. Nanginginig na ako. Ang lakas pa ng kabog ng dibdib
ko at pinagapawisan na ako ng malagkit.

Hanggang sa makapasok na kami sa loob.

"Ang ganda naman ng kwarto mo. Maayos ang pagkaka-arrange saka cozy." He adored and
he scan around.

I close my eyes tightly. Hinayaan ko muna siyang umikot ikot sa kwarto habang panay
ang pagpupuri ng mga nakikitang nagustuhan niya sa loob.

"Anyway, ano nga pala ang ipapakita mo sa akin, Zea?"

Dahan-dahan akong humarap sa kanya. Tinititigan ko ang mukha niya. Pinaghalong awa
at derterminado ang nararamdaman ko. I cleared my throat. And I'm speechless.
Nagtataka lang siyang tinitingnan ako.

"Any problem?" He snapped.

Napakurap ako. I gulped.

"I'm sorry, Jamie. But I have to do this." Nanginginig kong sabi. Mas lalo lamang
nagsalubong ang kilay nito.

Lumapit ako and I pulled him closer to mine. I kissed his lips immediately. And he
froze. My heart sank. My knees turn to jelly. And I'm super blown away with his
soft lips. Finally, nahalikan ko rin siya sa wakas.

Bago ko ito gagawin, my strong urge to kiss him was totally unexpected. Hindi ko
alam na kaya ko pala gawin to. Ang halikan sya. I'm just stealing a kiss na
kailanman hindi ko na magagawa pagkatapos ng gagawin ko.

Hindi ko na muling matitikman ang lips na ito. Dahil tiyak na pagkatapos ng

gagawing set up I'm sure he will despise me, hate me forever.
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Conscience

(Kabanata 8)

Zea POV

Its been a week since that incident happened. At nalalapit na rin ang aming kasal.
Jamie was so furious and cold. I can't believe na iyon ang naging results ng
plinano namin ni ate. My sisters knows about it and she's glad. Dahil absuwelto na
siya sa kanyang nagawang kasalanan. And Jamie didn't know about it. Ang alam lang
niya pinikot ko siya at iniwan na siya ni ate sa ere dahil sa ginawa niyang
kasalanan sa akin even it was just an absolute drama. And then the unexpected
wedding na magaganap. That's absurd right?

Magiging akin nga siya sa maling paraan naman. Pero I can't turn it back. I really
just can't.. Kaya ngayon pa lang dinadaan ko na lang sa dasal ang kasalanan namin
ni ate.

Wala sa sariling nakaupo ako paanan ng kama at nakatingin sa kawalan.

And then, the f*cking memories keeps hunting me down.

flashback*

" Ah.. Daddy! Daddy! Help! Help!" I keep on shouting while tearing my dress out.
Sinadya kong sirain ang mga laylayan ng aking sout na bestida para maging kapani-
paniwala ang aking ginawang pagdadrama.

Nakatanga lang si Jamie at shocked ito sa kanyang nakikitang pagwawala ni Zea. Its
horrible.

I am getting desperate and Im willing to sacrifice huwag lamang syang masaktan. I

unhook my bra and let it fall on the floor. And now his jaw dropped and was totally
shocked of what I've done.

When I heard a storm of foot steps coming closer to the door, I grab his shirt with
all my force at sabay kaming na-out balance and my body landed on a big soft
matress. I knew he didn't expect it kaya hindi na sya nagawang kumilos dahil sa
pagkabigla.

"Anong nangyayari dito!?" Malakas na sigaw ni Daddy kasabay sa pagbukas nito sa

pinto.

His eyes was widen in shock when he saw us. I was literally under Jamie's muscled
body at sabay kaming napatingin kay Daddy.

" Walang hiya ka! Anong ginawa mo sa anak ko!?" He's face is full of rage with
anger. At ano mang oras ay handa na itong pumatay ng tao.

Sumugod sya at hinablot si Jamie and landed his strong fist on his face. Walang
kalaban-laban itong sumusubsob sa gilid ng kama. Hindi lang isang beses itong
nakatanggap ng suntok, maraming beses din. Bumuhos na ang totoong luha sa aking mga
mata. Dahil sa awa ng kanyang napala. Hindi sya lumaban. Ni hindi sya nagsalita.
Isang matalim na mga titig lang ang pinakawalan nya sa akin nang di sinasadyang
magtama ang aming mga mata. A sudden felt of guilt hit me.

" Daddy! Tama na! Please..please.." I begged at lumapit sa gilid nito. Hinarang ko
ang sarili para tigilan na sya sa kakasuntok. Pumutok na ang kanyang labi. Dumudugo
na rin pati ang kanyang ang ilong.

God, Im sorry Jamie.. But I have to do this' Mahina kong usal naway patawarin ako
ng Dyos sa nagawa kong kadesperadahan.

" You asshole! I swear I'll kill you for attempting rape with my daughter! Hindi ko
palalampasin itong ginawa mo!" Nag-aapoy na sigaw ni Dad.

Awang awa kong pinahid ang dugo sa ilong nya pero tinapik nya ang kamay ko palayo.
Natigilan lamang ako at patuloy paring umiiyak.

Inayos ko muna ng sarili.

Chiongbian and Zamora are business partners sa company. Wala akong masyadong alam
tungkol sa ganoong bagay dahil iba ang kinalakihan ko at sa iba umikot ang mundo
ko.

Pinatawag ang mga magulang nito at dinetalye ang kunway attempted rape ni Jamie sa
akin. I remain silent dahil alam ko namang hindi totoo ang bagay na yon. His
parents was so frustrated at nagkukuyom kamao na sa kahihiyan at galit na galit si
Mr. Zamora, ang kanyang ama.

Nanatili lamang akong nakayuko habang humihikbi. Umiiyak ako sa kadahilanang

kakamuhian ako ni Jamie habang buhay dahil sinira ko ang big wedding nila ni ate.
God how could I'd be cruel like this? Kitang kita ko ang pag-igting ng kanyang
panga. Alam kong pinipigilan lang nya ang sariling e-voice ang totoong nangyari.

"Ang tanging areglo lamang ay ang pakasalan nya ang anak ko sa lalong madaling
panahon! Take it or leave or else lalabas ito sa media." Dad said with finality.
Nag-angat ako ng mukha at napaawang ang bibig sa sinabi ni Dad. May kanya kanya
silang reputasyon pero kasiraan ng pamilya nila kapag nalaman ng media ang
nangyari. Maaapektuhan ang negosyo ng bawat angkan sa sigalot na nangyari. Ganon
naman talaga ang mayayaman.

No.

Hindi naman ito talaga ang plano. Pero ito ang naging resulta ng ginawa ko. Ang
biglaang pagpapakasal.

Natapos ang usapang yon at nagkaayos ang bawat side. Even a single word, I never
heard he spoke. He just gave a dead silence. Pinagalitan sya ng husto ni Mr.
Zamora.

" Are you on drugs Jamie!? Why did you do that?! " Narinig ko pang sinabi yon ng
kanyang ama. At hindi man lang sya nagreact nang magdeklara si Dad ng kasal.

Sinundan ko sya when he walked out pagkatapos ng usapan.

" Jamie Im sorry. I was just desperate.." Na ano? Hindi ko madugtungan ang
sasabihin ko. Nakatalikod sya at hinarap ako nang marinig nya ang sinabi ko. He
glared. I swallowed the lump of my throat. Ito na ang sinasabi kong kamuhian nya
ako, nag-uumpisa na.
" Its okay, Zea. Ito ang gusto mo,diba? Well, I give you all the shit you want." He
laughed with sarcasm. Tinutukan nya ako ng masama. Sinuri ako ng tingin from head
to toe. Para akong nalusaw sa kahihiyan. Ang cheap ko. Yon siguro ang iniisip at
inaakala nya sa pagkatao ko.

"And mark my word, I'll make your life miserable as a living hell! Get it? " He
continued and gave me a devil smile before he leave.

Naiwan akong tulala.....

"Zea, Anak. Andyan na ang wedding planner niyo." Mom snapped out of my trance.
Kumatok ito ng ilang beses sa may pinto.

I lazily stand up and headed to the door.

"I'm coming Mom. Magbibihis lang ako." Sabi ko pagbukas ng pinto. Nakatapi pa kasi
ako ng towel. Kaliligo ko pa lang pero nadala sa muni-muni kaya hindi nakapagbihis
agad.

She smiled, but there's a weary in her eyes. Sinabi ko sa kanya ang totoo. And I
told her not to tell Dad para hindi niya saktan si ate. She's not agree with this
pero no choice dahil na-settle na ang lahat. Kaming tatlo lang ang nakakaalam.
Mahigpit ang laban sa election. Konting galos lang sa pangalan ni Daddy and people
has a possibility to change their minds instead pabor sa kanya. Mababawasan siya ng
tagahanga o supporters. Mahirap ang mundo ng pulitiko. Mas lalong mahirap kong isa
ka lamang na politician.

Dad is a manipulator and controling. Kaya ayaw niya kay ate dahil madalas itong
nagrerebelde at sinusunod ang bagay na gusto niya kahit alam niyang mali.

"Are you okay? You can carry this, Zea?" Mom was asking me wearily.

I sighed.

"Mom, I'm fine. Don't worry about this. Hindi magtatagal Jamie will fall for me."
Pinapatibay ko ang loob ko hindi lang para kay Mommy kundi sa maaaring mangyari.

Humugot siya ng hangin.

"Of course he will. Sa ganda mong yan? Your not just pretty hija. Your kind and
wonderful woman. If Jamie will just notice it I'm sure he won't regret it for
marrying you."

She smiled showing her understanding way as a mother of us. I'm lucky to have a
step mother like her. Mas mabait pa siya sa tunay kong ina though I love them both.

My heart flatters when I heard that but I know mali ang umpisa ng kasalang ito. But
its okay. Hindi padin ako nawawalan ng pag-asa na mamahalin rin ako ni Jamie.
Someday, hoping.

Nagbihis na ako. Actually next month pa naman ang kasal. Ang gaganaping engagement
nila ate at Jamie will replace by me. And it will be tomorrow. Na-move lang ng two
days kasi nasa Singapore si Jamie for business transaction.

But we never had communication. Parehas kami ni Jamie na walang contact number.

Ang wedding planner ay siya din ang maghahanap ng masusuot ko made by famous
fashion designer para sa engagement bukas. Susukatan lang niya ako ng waist line
now.

"Wow.. You look good, petite, slender body. In short sexy." Humahangang sabi ng
bakla.

Tumawa lang ako kahit matamlay. Ayokong mahalata nito na hindi ako masaya.

"You know what I thought ang ate mo ang ikakasal kay Jamie. I've seen them together
kasi once sa mall. Pero kayo pala. Kaloka. " Sabi nito habang inikot ang tape
measure sa waistline ko.

Napakurap ako.

"No. They're just close, Patty." Si mommy na ang sumagot.

Nagkatinginan kami ni Mommy. Dahan dahan syang tumango. Matipid lang akong
ngumiti.

"Pansin ko nga. Pero at least diba? Walang gap. Lahat magkakasundo." Sang-ayon ng
bakla na nagngangalang Patty.

Pagkatapos akong sukatan, hindi na ito nagtagal pa at umalis na.

I have to prepare myself tomorrow. Magkikita na naman kami ni Jamie. Sa tuwing

naiisip ko ang ginawa ko ay inuusig talaga ako ng kunsensya.

Pagkatapos ng election sasabihin ko sa kanya ang totoo. Kung magpa-file man ng

annulment si Jamie at least alam na niya kung ano talaga ang reason ko kung bakit
ako nagpakadesperada.

I sighed ...

I feel so heavy.

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Hatred

(Kabanata 9)

Zea POV

"So when will be the exact date of the wedding?" The press asking Jamie, nang ma-
corner siya ng reporter sa tabi.

Its our engagement night.

Pero hindi ko maramdaman ang saya kundi puno ng kalungkutan.

"Hmm.. let's see when. Its a surprise then. Okay thank you." Formal na sagot ni
Jamie na halatang nag-iiwas sa mga maaaring itanong pa.

He stormed himself away to those buzzes. And I was just here ipinako ang puwet sa
kinauupuan. I only smiled and nodded to the people na pumapansin at tumatanong sa
akin. Just like him I'm a little bit sensitive too. We were not true couple as they
expected to be.

Like everyone says:

-We are lovers since childhood. (Absolutely not)

-We met in States and our love grows there. ( Definitely not true.)

-We started as friends and then developed each other and turn to lovers. (Precisely
not that kind)

What should I say then?

No comment. Just as short as two words. Speechless.

Ano bang e-seshare ko? Yung pamimikot ko kanya sa kwarto? Syempre mananatiling
lihim yun. At ito ngayon, pagtyatyagaan ko ang ang kasuklaman niyang nararamdaman
sa akin.

We never talked, even bumped each other like old acquaintance, or whatsoever it is.
Sa tuwing titingnan niya ako, umiiwas ako na para bang isa siyang virus na
nakakahawa ng sakit. Hindi ko kayang salubingin ang galit niya.

"So here you are, my Fiance." Nanunuya ang boses nito.

Andito kasi ako nakatayo sa may garden ng venue to avoid people. Kasi nga nahihilo
ako sa subrang crowded.

Dahan-dahan ko siyang nilingon. Nagbabaga ang mga mata niya sa galit. He clenched
his jaw and I tried to swallow the lump that had developed in my throat.

Yellow-orange light ang bumabalot na liwanag sa aming palibot. Pero napakalinaw

parin ang kanyang facial expression.

"Jamie.. I..I'm sorry.." Nanginginig ang boses ko. I can't say anything but to feel
sorry with what had happened. Its just necessary for me to do that and he's a
victim.

He laughed, a little laugh with full of sarcasm. I expected it.

"Sorry? Is that the only word you can say? A piece of shit, huh? What do you want
me to say Zea? Its okay coz I've just realized that Trisha leave me for that? Ganun
ba?"

His words stripped of my whole being. I'm a bitch but only for him that he wouldn't
know.

I blinked my eyes to stop that threatening mist of tears that about to fall down.

I tried to catch my breathe.

"It'll be fine for me Jamie if you won't let me to be your wife or just .." Just
what Zea? My words lost.

I can't turn it back because of personal matter, a family matter rather. But then I
have to work it out. Siya lang ang pwedeng sumira ng plano. I need to do this for
my family. Its still important than his feelings. Tutal, mawawala din naman ang
lahat ng kahibangan na ito. It will all vanish and he will forget me then. And the
last part of this story, wont work. He would never forgive me I swear. I dont want
to hope against hope of the things na malabo ng mangyari. Lets just forget
fantasizing of fairytales and happy ending.

"Then what, woman? Let's fix this things out. What had gotten into your mine na
gawin ang bagay na yun? Do you love me secretely? Did you envied your sister? Come
on, tell me everything. If you give me enough reason maybe I'll forgive you and
forget this mess." He sounds so irritated.

I froze. Napatitig lang ako ng matagal sa kanya. Million of possibilities had

popped in my mind but do I have a choice? Alangan naman sabihinn ko sa kanya ang
totoo. Malalaman niyang gahaman si Dady sa posisyon. Malalaman niyang niloko pala
siya ng ate. Malalaman niyang isa akong dakilang desperada trying fix our family
problem like a stubborn heroine of an action movies. Ganun ba? And lastly but not
the least, I can't let him go. Beacuse i love him so much that I could afford him
to lose anyway. Hawak ko na ang chance na makasama ko siya kahit walang kapalit ang
pagmamahal na ito o ang dahilan ng lahat. Papakawalan ko pa ba?

"I can't Jamie, I'm sorry. I admit I am..attracted to you but not..I mean there's
a big reason why I did this. In time, Jamie you'll understand everything. Im
sorry." I shook my head after I managed to blurted that words.

I felt embarrassed somehow. Gaya nga ng sabi ko sa sarili ng paulit-ulit wala akong
choice. A littel sacrifice for them that would possibly hurt us so much wont matter
anyway for my family.

Nagbuga siya ng hangin. Pinanood ko siyang naiinis na nagsuklay ng kanyang buhok

through his fingers. That gestures are damn so sexy! The attraction and hotness
penetrated in my lull mind. Im imagining things again. I must learn to control
myself for falling hardly to him.

"You know what I dont have time to solve your puzzled mind or whatsoever it is but
if your gonna continue this, then fine. I'll give what you want."

His anger suddenly appeared to his handsome face. I tried to push the away the lump
of my throat. Nagawa ko parin siyang titigan na wala sa sarili. Nasaktan ako sa
sinabi niya pero hindi ko ito iniinda. Bahala na si Batman.

"I understand Jamie." Dugtong ko na walang kakurap kurap. I held my chin up and
then sighed like some kind of relieve. That made him frowning.

"Then let's make a deal." He said with strong urge. Ako naman itong nagtataka sa
sinabi niya.

"What deal?" I asked curiously. He moved his lips twitching to the other side as
if declaring a surprise that would make me shock.

"Huwag kang sumipot sa kasal. I don't care about the feedback. Just stay away from
me in that way." He suddenly blurted out.

Nagulat ako sa sinabi niya at hindi agad ako nakakibo. I laughed at the thought, it
would gather so much destruction of my Dad's political career. Hindi ko na lang
sana ginawang magpakababoy sa harapan niya kung ilalaglag ko lang din naman ang
career ni Dad. I know my parents are not imposing me to do this one but I can't
bear to see them crying of disappoinments and failures. Ito ang pinagkaiba lang
namin ni ate. I can sacrifice for the sake of my family lalo na kapag
nakakapagpasaya sa kanila.
"Eh kung ikaw kaya ang gumawa niyan. Like you I dont care about the feedback." I
mocked at him.

Tumawa siya na parang nanunuya."Kapag ako ang gumawa, then what Zea? You'll earned
symphaty to the people and then ako ang magmumukhang masama sa mga tao na hindi ko
naman deserve. Is that you're trying to figure it out?"

Ginantihan ko rin siya ng tawang nanunuya. "As you said, you don't care about
feedbacks, right?" I crossed my arms in front of him.

He stiffened, umigting ang panga niya sa sinabi ko. Siguro nga nasupalpal ko siya.
But the hell I care!

"Do you think you can play with me, Zea? Yun lang ang tanging paraan na mapatawad
kita kung hindi mo sasabihin sa akin ang totoo."

I sighed.

"Okay fine, matigil ka lang." Pagkatapos kung sabihin ang bagay na yun ay mabilis
ko na siyang tinalikuran. Nag-YES na lamang ako para lang matigil na siya at wala
ng mahabang discussion.

**

Jamie POV

I am watching her as she walked away. She's stubborn. She is far different the way
I used to know her personality. Kabaligtaran lang pala ang lahat ng pinapakita
niya. Sayang, gusto ko pa naman sana siya. I shake my head when I thougfht about
liking her. Her sister is my damn girlfriend who leave me because she thought I
cheated on her.

Until now, I'm puzzled why did Zea did that kind of thing. Para siyang nababaliw sa
isang lalaki when she shouted asking help in room. Na para bang ginahasa ko siya.
Nadumihan ang pagkatao ko sa tingin ng mga magulang nito and as well as my parents
too. And that Trisha leave me hanging, not even a single word of goodbye. Wala
siyang sinabi, even her family. Paulit-ulit akong nagtanong sa mga magulang niya
kung nasaan na siya to explain my side but as they said bigla na lamang daw itong
naglayas. Sabagay, sino ba ang hindi maglalayas kapag niloko ka ng boyfriend at
kapatid mo in an instance? But that was just a freaking set-up. Everything was so
unclear but there's one thing in my mind.

I'll make her pay for this.. I swear she will crawl for me begging for forgiveness!
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An Old Friend

( Kabanata 10)

Zea POV

"Zea! Bruha!"

Tili ni Charice nang magkita kami sa Starbucks. Her favorite place to unwind. Gusto
niya ang lasa ng kape dito. Kaya we decided to met up here. Kararating lang niya
from states. Doon kasi siya pinag-aral ng parents niya.

"Cha! Ang ingay mo. Kahit kailan talaga, hindi kana nagbago."

Nakanguso kong sabi. Kunway inirapan ko siya. She rolled her eyes at agad na
yumakap sa akin sabay halik sa pisngi.

She's my partner in crime nung college days. We were opposites almost in

everything. She's nosy, loud and tough. Napaka-strong ng personality niya.
Liberated woman and independent. Unlike me, na mahinhin, naive, nega and medyo
mataray kaya walang nagtiyatyagang manligaw sa akin.

"Ang ganda mo parin talagang bruha ka!"

Ngumiti lang ako sa sinabi niya. Sabagay, hindi naman talaga sya kagandahan. Maarte
lang at maganda ang hubog ng katawan. Mahilig ito magsout ng pumps. Samantalang ako
doll shoes lang, anything basta flat.

"Magkwento ka nga. I'm so shock na ikakasal ka na pala. Nakakainis! Inunahan mo pa

ako."

Humigop ito ng black coffee sa tasa. At tinitingnan ako nito na ready na sa

mahabang pagsasalang. Nung nagchat kami sa viber, binalitaan ko siya na next week
na ang kasal namin ni Jamie. She suddenly booked a flight para mas maaga daw sya
makaabot dito.

Our wedding is private. Tinago namin ito sa press. Besides malalaman nalang ng
bansa kapag nagpalabas na ng photo na kasal na kami. Well yun ay kung tuloy na
tuloy. Anyway, wala akong pakialam sa kasunduan namin ni Jamie. Sisipot ako ng
kasal sa ayaw at sa gusto niya..

Wala na siyang magagawa pa.

"And are you sure na isang Jamie Zamora ang magiging husband to be mo!? Baka naman
nag-iilusyon ko lang, bakla!"

Biro nito. Nasanay na ako sa pagiging rough niya magsalita, syempre ugaling bakla
dahil na rin sa daming bakla na kaibigan nito.

Of course she knows about my first young love. Naikuwento ko ito sa kanya. Though
she knows about Zamora clans circle hindi niya pa daw ito namet ever dahil hindi
raw nagkakatugma ang chances.

"Oo. Pero not what you expect."

Hindi ko pa nasabi sa kanya how we end up like this.

Kunot noo itong tumingin sa akin. I sighed at inumpisahang sabihin sa kanya ang
totoo. Ang lahat-lahat. Para hindi na siya paulit-ulit na magtanong pa.

"Talaga amega. So sad for you."

Nangalumbaba ito sa harapan ko.

Kumuha siya ng pie sa tinidor at idinaan na lang sa pagkain ang kanyang pagkalito
ba o pagkamangha. Ganun talaga siya. Pag may sasabihin kang 'shocking' sa kanya.
She's going to absorb it first before she will react the way she feels about it.

I was just staring at her blankly dahil sa pagsubo nito ng pie ng sunod sunod sa
bunganga.

Ibinaba nito ang hawak na tinidor saka nahihirapang nilunok ang pagkain sa
bunganga. Binigyan ko naman agad siya ng tubig.

"Are you sure? Nagawa mo yun?"

Tila hindi makapaniwalang tanong nito. Ngayon pa sya magrereact. Memorize ko na ang
ugali at gestures niya.Tumango ako ng sunod-sunod.

"Your amazing girl! A heroine! Na gustong maging desperada."

Parang ang saya pa nito. Napangiwi ako sa sinabi niya.

"My problem is he's really mad at me. I don't know what to do. Hindi ko naman
masabi sa kanya why I did that to him. Syempre I'm protecting my Dad's career---"

"And your sister's cheat. Ganun ba?"

Kunway nanunuya nitong dugtong pero may halong concern sa akin. Nagbuga ako ng
hangin.

"Cha, alam mo naman na mahal ko ang pamilya ko."

Malumanay kong sabi dahil alam kong against siya sa ginawa ko.

Sumandal ako sa couch at tumingin sa baba. Pinili ko 'to kaya panindigan ko na

lang.

"Zea, andun na tayo. Sino ba namang hindi nagmamahal sa sariling pamilya, diba? But
ang e-tolerate ang kamalian nila is a big NO-no."

Tama ako, hindi talaga siya pabor. Pero litong lito na ako ng mga panahong yun.
Naghalo-halo na ang naramdaman ko. And I was just scared and very pessimistic to
think more about the possibilities. I already admitted it to myself that its really
a wrong, wrong move. Pero desperada na rin ako. Kaya ko nagawa yun.

"Lalo na yung ate mo, she's selfish. Parang nag take advantage lang siya sa
kahinaan mo. At ikaw naman, tanga talaga at nagpadala sa plano niya."

Kinagalitan ako nito.

"Cha naman eh. Sisihin ba naman ako. Tulungan mo na lang ako kung paano
susulosyonan ito."

Ngumuso ako at nagpuppy look para magkaron naman siya ng kaunting support.

Tinampal niya ang kamay ko at ngumiti sabay ismid.

"Oh siya, push mo yan! Go!"

Ngumuso ulit ako. Nagpapaawa effect.

"O sige dahil andyan na yan. Let's make a plan. Diba sabi niya wag kang sumipot sa
mismong araw ng kasal nyo and then alam naman nating hindi pwede yun. Coz your
Dad's politics ambitious will be affected. So for the better, let him fall for
you."

Then she winked with the last words she said. Let him fall for you.

"How?"

I asked with the puzzled look on my face.

She chuckled na para bang she find it amusing about my question.

"Don't you know?" She rolled her eyeballs.

"Well, sabagay. Your a virgin, NBSB. Kaya yan na nga ang sabi ko eh hindi mo alam
kung paano hulihin ang kiliti ng mga lalaki."

Inismiran niya ako at nilalaro-laro ang pie sa kanyang tinidor. Nagmistula tuloy
itong mina-masacre.

I look at her frowning.

"Make him fall. Like for in an instance, seduce him not in an obvious way. Kunwari
mag-asawa na kayo. Dress like medyo expose ang skin mo. But not pornstar hah!"

Dinilatan niya ako ng sabihin niya yun. Nakikinig lamang ako pero hindi ko
maiwasang maisip na medyo cheap naman yata yun.

"And don't make the first move. Just give him a motive first. You know as guy, mas
madali silang kumakagat kapag napo-provoke sila especially when it comes to their
ego."

"Diba medyo cheap naman yata yun?"

I said in reluctant.

"Gaga! Of course not! Gagawin mo yan kung mag-asawa na kayo. There's nothing bad on
it. Hindi mo naman ipapahalata. Yung parang normal lang. Natural na moves na may
intention."
She smiled as if ang dali-dali lang gawin. Yung parang game lang sa kanya and I
have to play it wise para manalo. I hope its easy as that.

"How about yong alagaan siya, ipagluto. Asikasuhin mga damit niya. At pagsilbihan
siya as wife.?"

I suggest, I think its a way better than she said.

"Well, plus points na lang yan. But syempre depende parin yun sa lalaki. Modern
world na tayo ngayon. Sometimes they think about that is a work of maids. So in
other words, minamaliit na nila ngayon yan lalo na kapag mayayaman."

Sabagay she has a point there. The problem in me was just I'm a little bit fuzzy in
everything. I felt anxious somehow.

I have to be strong.

"Anyway where's tita Janna now?"

They're close dahil madalas kami namamasyal sa boutique ni mama noon.

"Next day pa ang arrival niya from Sweden. Alam mo na, busy sa career niya."

Kaswal kong sagot.

"What I like about tita is she knows how to carry herself. Not like you, bakit
hindi ka nalang nagmana sa kanya. She's tough and stronger that I knew."

I smiled bitterly upon hearing those words.

"How I wish that, Cha."

Mahina at malungkot kong sagot na nakatingin sa baba.

"Enough Zea. Your the best. Everybody has it own flaws. Wag mo maliitin ang sarili
mo. Malay mo diba!? Para sa akin your the best friend that I have."

Nakangisi nitong sabi.

"Binubola mo na naman ako."

Nakangiti na rin ako. Hanep talaga ang babaeng to. Lalaitin ako tapos babawi din
naman sa huli.

"Totoo!"

She shouted and we both laughed.

Pagkatapos naming kumain nagshopping kami dahil sabi niya kasama sa plano ang
pagpapalit ng wardrobe.

Namili kami ng mga dresses. At iba pa, pati mga sexy lingeries. Mga panghoney moon
na panloob at nighties.

Hinayaan ko na kahit naman magreklamo ako wala din namang mangyayari dahil bibilhin
niya talaga ang ano man ang nais niyang magustuhan. Para magwork out daw ang
plano. Makisama nalang daw ako. See? I don't have an option, at least its for the
better.
And we made the whole day worth bonding for. Pambawi na rin sa mahigit tatlong taon
naming hindi nagkikita. Through online lang kami nagkakausap.

What a nice old friend. No changes. Still my real and best of friend.

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Meeting the In-Laws

(kabanata 11)

Zea POV

"Maliit pa naman ang tyan mo ah. Pwede ka naman umattend sa kasal."

Kausap ko si ate sa phone. Tumawag kasi ito. A long distance call. Nasa Norway sila
ni Kuya Richie. Its been one and half a month since that incident happened.

"Zea magkakaroon lang ng issue. Alam mo namang walang alam si Jamie. Hayaan mo na.
Uuwi na lang ako dyan pagkatapos kong manganak."

Alibi nito sa paanyaya ko. Actually alam na nila Mom and Dad na nasa Norway si ate
kasama yung fiance niya. Nung umpisa pinagalitan nila ito through online calls pero
wala na rin kalaunan.

Ito ang lihim ng aming pamilya sa mga Zamora. Shotgun wedding lang naman ang
magaganap. Pinikot ko siya.

"So your ready?"

Agad akong lumingon sa likod nang marinig ang baritonong boses nito.

"Sige, bye. I'll call you later."

I hang up the phone. And face him reluctantly.

Napakurap ako sa mapanuri niyang tingin. Lage siyang ganito. Yung tititigan ako na
para bang isang may nakakahawang sakit, na parang mahahawa siya if he let himself
close to me.

His jaw moves and I swallowed the lump in my throat. Tiningnan ko siya sa mga mata.
Hindi ko mabasa ang titig niya pero may kakaiba itong emosyon na hindi ko magawang
mapangalanan.

"Sino kausap mo? Is that Trisha? Where is she now?"

Sunod sunod niyang tanong na nagbabadya ng poot. My heart flip and I'm not that
strong to force myself not to feel affected with his threatening tone.

I blinked for a seconds and averted my eyes immediately.

"No its not her."

Halos pabulong kong sagot. Itinoun ko ang paningin sa ibang parte ng sala.
"Your liar."

Halos mabilaukan ako sa kanyang matigas na boses. Yeah I'm a liar! Gusto kong
isigaw sa kanya ang mga katagang yun pero nagsilbi itong pepe sa aking utak.

"What do you want juice or coffee?"

Iniba ko agad ang tanong. Tumalikod na ako, but he talked.

"Wag mo ibahin ang usapan. Your really a desperate woman."

Nanunuyang sabi nito.

I paused. My eyes become misty. Hindi ako lumingon. Ayokong makita nito ang
naluluha kong mga mata.

"Anyway don't bother yourself anymore. I wont stay that long if you expect it."

He continued and I closed my eyes tightly. His sharp tongue and words really strip
of me.

"I just want to remind you na kasal na natin next day. Please make the deal. Don't
try to upset me, Zea."

Matigas niyang sabi at nanunuyo ang lalamunan ko. Hindi ko na pinakinggan ang iba
pa niyang mga sasabihin. Patakbo akong tumakbo palayo sa kanya. At pabalang kong
isinara ang pinto in my room. Doon ko na ibinuhos ang luhang kanina ko pa
pinipigilan. Umiyak ako ng umiyak until I feel tired and got on a deep slumber.

***

I woke up with a swollen eyes in that morning.

"Are you experiencing wedding jitters?"

Mom managed to asked me while I'm here sitting dumbfully. Nakatingin lang ako sa
kawalan. Mapait akong ngumiti sa kanya. And Mom is sadly staring at me. Pain.
Worried.

"Hindi mo kailangang ituloy ito, Zea."

Alam kong nauuwanaan niya ako pero wala na akong magagawa. Mom knows I did it for a
purpose. Ang alam lang ni Daddy ay nakipagtanan si ate at wala siyang alam na
planado namin ang ginawa ko kay Jamie. He doesn't know about it but Mom knows
everything. Pero we both keep it secret.

"No Mom. I'll pursue it."

I disagreed. She sighed heavily while caressing my cheeks with her fingers.

"Honey..--"

"I insist. Its for the better. Besides I love ..I love him Mom."

I blurted out. I confessed my feelings for him. She stared at me carefully and then
smiled, a warm smile that means she understands.

"Ma'am andyan po si Ma'am Janna."

Napalingon kami kay Aling Nena. Ang bago naming katiwala sa bahay.

Tumayo na kaming dalawa galing sa komedor at tumungo sa living area ng mansyon.

"Oh hi, baby girl. Oh hi dear Emily."

Nakangiti itong nakipagbeso beso kay Mommy at niyakap agad ako nito ng ubod ng
higpit. Pinumpom niya ako ng mga halik sa buong mukha. Of course she miss her own
daughter. Pero kahit madalas hindi kami magkita we've always up to date with our
communications.

The weirdest thing about this family is my real mom and step mom is close and treat
each other as an old friends. Pero naging magkaribal sila noon. Past is past ika
nga. At minsan lumalabas pa silang tatlo. At ang new boyfriend ni Mama na si Hector
and Mom and Daddy. A double date. For me its kinda awkward but nakasanayan na rin.
They trusted each other so well. Bonding like nothing's regret at all at ganun
naman talaga. No hard feelings. I hope this time magkaroon na siya ng sariling
pamilya.

"What happened with your eyes? You cried?"

Napansin siguro nito ang pamamaga ng aking mata. She looked at me wearily and
hysterically asking me a lot of things.

"No I'm okay."

Lahat ng mga tanong niya puro NO lang ang sagot ko. Hindi ko maiwasang mapa-roll
ang eyeballs. She's acting so OA but I can't blame her, gusto lang din niyang
bumawi sa mga pagkukulang niya. She couldn't afford me with the Class A life before
but now that's she's getting productive with her profession and her career, pwede
na daw niya akong kunin but definitely she gave me a priviledge to chose what I
want. At mas pinili kong manatili dito. Ayoko ng buhay abroad. I don't like that
much travelling around for the sake of career. No way.

"Maybe its just a wedding jitters."

Mom spoked behind me. Napatingin si Mama sa kanya, not quite convinced pero tumango
tango na rin ito, sabagay wala naman siyang karanasan sa pagpapakasal. Kaya medyo
sumang-ayon na lamang siya sa alibi ni Mommy.

Pinaakyat nito ang mga dalang pasalubong. She knows what happened to Trisha na
buntis ito. But she didn't know behind the story. That si Jamie na ex nito, not
definitely ex kasi wala namang closure ang relasyon nila, is my husband to be now.
All she knows is still that Kuya Richie. Pero sila naman talaga hindi lang niya
alam na nagkahiwalay sila for the meantime.

I haven't more time to tell her a story of mine. Basta sinabi ko na lang na
ikakasal na ako. She's suddenly panic pero kalaunan natanggap naman agad nito.

"I wanna meet him. Now. "

Mama was so determined to get to know her future son in law. Kaya mabilis na
tinawagan ni Mommy ito at pinapunta agad sa bahay.

"Bukas na ang kasal nyo at hindi ko man lang sya name-met pa. I have to know him
now. Ayokong sa kasal pa mismo ako mangangapa na makilala siya."

Direct to the point na sabi ni Mama. Hindi ko maiwasang kabahan dahil kapag si Mama
ang gumawa ng interview para kang isasalang sa hot seat. Sana lang makipag-
cooperate si Jamie sa drama.

After one hour he finally arrived. Naiinip na si Mama. When he stepped inside the
house my mama stood up and scrutinize him from head to toe. Nahihiya naman itong
bumati kay mama dahil sa ginagawa niya. Parang ako na ang nahihiya sa inasal nito.

" Take a sit, hijo."

Mama suddenly blurted out after she examine him like a piece of bread that afraid
to have molds.

We end up into lunch in a dining area. Nagpakilala si Jamie kay mama formally.

"So why you're late, hijo."

Mama asked while slicing the steak with the knife.

"I had an urgent meeting po."

Pormal nitong sagot. Tahimik lang akong nakaupo habang sinisimsim ang juice. Si
Mommy naman ay nag-excuse dahil may dumating na bisita ni Dad.

Nagulat ako nang ibaba ni mama ang hawak na spoon and fork sa tabi ng plato. She
looked at him frwoning, showing her disagreement of what he said as an excuse.

"Why? Hindi ka pa ba nagleave sa trabaho na kasal mo na bukas? That's a quite

rude for your wife to be."

She said firmly.

Nag-angat ako ng ulo. Nagkasalubong kami ng mata ni Jamie. I know na-offend siya sa
sinabi ni Mama pero wala syang choice kundi manindigan ng magandang reason.

"Ma, alam mo naman na nag-immerged yong company nila. Ako ang nag-decide na wag na
siyang mag leave muna. Right, hon?"

Nakangiti ako ng ubod ng tamis sa kanya. Kinurot ko ang legs niya sa baba para
makisama.

"Of course."

He quickly agreed. Then kissed me on my cheeks. Bigla naman akong nanginit sa

gestures na ginawa nito.

He put his arm in my waist. At napaigting ako sa nadamang pangunguryente ng katawan

hatid ng mainit nitong kamay na dumampi sa aking balat.

"Ah.. Okay. Ayoko lang na baka kapag mag-asawa na kayo. Mas priority mo pa ang
trabaho kaysa sa anak ko."

Nakatingin siya sa aming dalawa. Palipat-lipat. Ngumiti ako at kunwari nilalambing

ko siya.

"Ma, Jamie loves me so much. Hindi mangyayari yang sinasabi mo."

Nakangiti kong sabi kay mama. Then without a single thought I kiss him right away.
But to my surprise it landed on his lips dahil bigla siyang lumingon sa akin.
Saglit na nanlaki ang mga mata ko. Pero agad ko ding binawi dahil nandyan si mama
sa harapan namin. I caught him something an emotion deep in his eyes, it was a
solemn part of joy. Hindi ko lang sigurado kung totoo ba yung interpretation ko sa
nakita.

"I agree. Kung gusto nyo po, bibigyan agad namin kayo ng apo."

Nasamid ako sa sinabi niya at medyo napaubo ako ng malakas. Lihim akong napamura sa
sarili.

Apo? Huwag naman sanang paasahin ang mama ko. Naku mahirap na baka mag-assume agad
ito.

"Are you okay hija?"

Concern na tanong ni mama. Tumango lang ako ng sunod-sunod. Panay naman ang hagod
ni Jamie sa likod ko pero may bahagi ng puso ko ang nagdidiwang sa saya sa ginagawa
niya kahit simpleng bagay lang.

"Alam mo Jamie, magandang suggestion yan. Sino ba ang hindi gugustuhin ang isang
napakalaking blessing na ganyan? I'd love to. Hoping right after the marriage
makabuo na kayo. I can't wait to have little Zea in my arms."

Mama is smiling to us.

Napapikit ako saglit. Sinasabi ko na nga ba eh. At nahuli na nito ang kiliti ni
mama. Oh God. Nang dahil lang sa gustong magkaapo agad, nag-light up ang mood nito.

"Well, hindi ka magsisisi sa anak ko. She's caring, sweet, thoughtful and generous.
Aside from that, never been kissed never been touch yan. NBSB. So ikaw talaga ang
maswerteng---"

"Mama!"

I interrupted immediately. At tuluyan na talaga akong nasamid at umubo ng malakas.

I was mortified.

Huli kong nasulyapan si Jamie na maaliwalas na nakangiti sa sinabi ni mama. Hindi

ko alam kung aling part siya natawa o ang dahilan ng amusing smile nito.

Hay.. Si mama talaga. Binibisto ako.

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Worst Nightmare

(Kabanata 12)

Zea POV

Wala sa sariling naglalakad ako sa gitna ng aisle. I'm showing a blank face. Pero
pinipilit kong ngumiti, sa harap ng maraming tao at sa harap ng mga camera.

-Pretty as ever..
-She's the daughter of Governor sa ibang babae...

At kung ano pang mga bulong-bulongan sa tabi. I'm holding Dad's arms. And I'm
tightening my grip habang nakikita ko ang taong nakatayo sa gilid ng altar.
Inaasahan ko na ito. Ang kanyang mukha ay parang wala lang, nakangiti. Ngiting
hindi ko makita ang kasiyahan at senseridad. Ngiting hindi umabot sa mata ang
kasiyahan. Nang magtama ang aming mga mata, ito'y nagbabadya ng poot. I close my
eyes tightly. Ito na ang haharapin kong masalimout na panaginip.

"Take care my daughter, Jamie."

Nakangiting turn over ni Dad sa akin sa mga kamay nito.

"Makakaasa kayo, Governor."

Nakangiti nitong saad sabay sulyap sa akin. At halos ikabingi ko ang salitang
binitawan nito. Dahil alam kong magiging kabaligtaran lamang lahat. Umiwas ako sa
mapanuri at nanghahamon niyang mga tingin. Nagtatanong ang mga mata nito. Tanong na
hindi ko kayang sagutin. He gave me that kind of look that questions,' why am
here'.

But of course I wouldn't answer that questioning stares.

Hindi na pumasok sa utak ko ang lahat ng seremonya ng pari. Nakayuko lang ako at
nauntag lamang ako nang magharap na kami, exchanging our vows and promises.

Fake.

The only word that express everything's happening now.

"Jamie, accept my love and cherish it for the rest of our lives.. I only promise
that I'll be here with you through ups and down, till forever. As your wife.. ..."

And so on..

Hindi ko na alam kung saan ko hinugot ang mga salitang yun. Basta kusa na lang
itong nagsilabasan sa aking bibig. Lutang parin ang utak ko. I can't even looked
him straight in the eye.

Pagkatapos naming magpalitan ng 'I do", ay nagsipalakpan na ang mga tao. Tanda ng
aming pagiging legally husband and wife.

"Hindi ka tumupad sa usapan."

Mahinang bulong nito sa teynga ko habang nakangiti sa harapan ng mga tao. Flashing
of camera's are everywhere. Hindi na ako nagsalita pa. Basta gusto ko ng tapusin
ang araw na ito.

Pagkatapos sa reception, pagod na pagod akong nahiga sa kama ng suit kung saan kami
naka-check in ni Jamie. Nakakapagod din palang makipagplastikan sa mga taong
kaharap mo. Taking pictures with them na nakangiti, pretending that we're happy.
That's all bullshit I knew. I tried my best as I could. But now it doesn't make
sense.

Pagod ako para isipin ang mga pangyayari ngayon.. This is not my big day of my life
as what they've said. This isn't the time of my life. A big break. Walang ganun.
This is the start of the worst would anytime happen soon in my marriage life.

I am finally now..

Zea Russell Chiongbian-Zamora.

Married.

But not happy.

I sighed.

"Don't tell me hinihintay mong ako pa ang mgbibihis sa iyo."

Agad akong bumangon nang pabalang itong magsalita sa harapan ko. Napaawang lang ang
bibig ko sa irritable niyang mukha. He stared at me, and I'm a little bit confused
with the way he looked at me. There's fond pero natatakpan ng poot. He narrowed his
eyes.

"Take off your gown before you sleep. Don't expect I'll be nice to you, Zea. You
know I don't give that shit."

Pagkatapos nitong sabihin ang mga masasakit na salitang yun ay agad akong
tinalikuran. Parang piniga ang puso ko sa narinig.

Natulala lamang ako. Nagbihis ako. Isang pajama at fitted sleveless ang sinuot ko.
I remove my bra and headed to our bed para matulog.

Dito kaya siya matutulog ngayong gabi? Of course he won't. Ano ba namang klaseng
tanong yan?

Kung anu-ano na lang ang tumatakbo sa utak ko. Kinuha ko ang phone at dinial ang
number ni Charice. Pero hindi ito ma-contact. Hindi ko man lang siya naasikaso
kanina sa reception.

Pabaling baling ako kahit anong posisyon para lang makatulog pero hindi talaga ako
dinadalaw ng antok.

When I look at my wristwatch, its twelve midnight pero hindi parin ako makatulog.
Dilat na dilat parin ang mga mata ko.

I heard a loud laughing outside the door. Umayos ako ng higa patalikod sa bahagi ng
pinto. And then the laughters stop. After a while may narinig akong nagbukas ng
pinto. I close my eyes tightly. Pretending that I'm in a deep slumber.

Alam kong siya ito. Nakarinig ako ng pagpihit ng pinto. Siguro pumasok siya sa
comfort room. And then rumaragasang tubig. Shower.

My heart is beating so fast. I'm nervous of our situation right now. Mga ilang
minuto pang lumipas. Lumabas na siya. Gusto ko siyang lingunin para tingnan lang
kung ano ang itsura niya ngunit mas gusto kong isipin niya na tulog ako.

Hmmm..

Literally wala namang honeymoon. Kaya I don't want to assume. Nagpakad lakad muna
ito. At nakarinig ako ng malakas na pagbuga ng hangin. He's mad I knew it. Ramdam
ko ito, kahit hindi ko siya nakikita.

Gumalaw ang kama. At mas lalo lamang akong kinabahan.

Nakaramdam ako ng pagkaluskos sa bed sheet ng kama. Idinilat ko ang mga mata pero
hindi ako gumalaw, not even a single bit.

Papalapit na papalapit sa akin ang tunog na yun, I close my eyes and pretended that
I'm sleeping so well.

I've feel the warm breath on my cheeks. Naaamoy ko ang amoy alak niyang hininga.
I've tried so hard na hindi siya makahalatang nagtulog-tulugan ako.

He sighed again. Without my expectation, dumapo ang kanyang mainit na labi sa aking
pisngi. Sa hindi maintindihang kahulugan, nakaramdam ako ng konting saya kahit alam
kong pwede namang nagawa niya iyon sa dahilang lasing lamang siya. Umalis ito, at
umalon ang kama sa kanyang paggalaw.

Nagbuga siya ng hangin sa ere.

"This is a worst nightmare!"

He murmured to himself. At dinig na dinig ko ang sinabi niya. Hindi nakaligtas ang
pagpatak ng luha mula sa aking mga mata. Tumagos kasi sa kailaliman ng aking puso
ang masasakit na salitang binitiwan nito.

Masanay na dapat ako, dahil I'm sure this is just a start of his hatred. And I'm
gonna face a lot more sa mga pwedeng gawin nito na ikakasakit ng damdamin ko.
Double or triple pa. And I should accept it, no matter what he'll do, mag-asawa na
talaga kami. Legal. Somehow its a dream come true dahil simula't sapol alam naman
ng Diyos kung paano ko siya pinangarap na makasama. Ibinigay nga sa akin pero sa
paraang hindi ko naman ginusto. Mahal ko siya pero kabaligtaran sa kanya ang lahat.
Hindi niya ako gusto, walang pagmamahal. Wala. Wala akong aasahan. Pero sana unti-
unti niyang marealize kung gaano ko siya kamahal dahil desidido talaga akong
ipakita sa kanya ang pagmamahal ko.

Kaya lang, para sa kanya.. Isa lamang itong bangungot sa buhay niya na kailangan
niyang lampasan.

Bahala na nga. Bahala na ang bukas at kahihinatnan ng pagsasamang ito.

I'm his worst nightmare.. And it really strip me off.

I cried silently.

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Hope Against Hope

(Kabanata 13)

Zea POV

Its been a week since we got married. Pero isang beses ko lang siya nakita ng
maayos. Yong unang gabi ng kasal namin. Tuwing nagigising ako sa umaga, wala na
siya. O di kaya'y hindi siya umuuwi. Napupuyat na ako lage sa kakahintay sa kanyang
pag-uwi pero inaabot na lang ng madaling araw ni anino nito hindi ko nahahagilap.

Sometimes napapaiyak na lamang ako sa sakit na nararamdaman. Wala akong masabihan

dahil si Charice, bumalik na sa abroad dahil sa trabaho. Masyado din itong busy
para makipagchat sa akin ng matagalan sa Facebook, messenger, viber, etc.

Bumukod na kami, syempre. Andito kami nakatira sa condo nito. Sabi ng Mommy Regina,
kasalukuyang nagpapagawa daw si Jamie ng bahay. Hindi na ako nangungusisa tungkol
sa bagay na yun. Masasaktan lang ako sakali sa isasagot nito.

Kahit subrang labo ng sitwasyon umaasa parin ako na sana mapansin niya ang effort
ko.

**

Kung dati alas syete ako nagigising, this time aagahan ko na ng konti. Kahit
tinatamad pinilit ko ang sarili na bumangon ng alas sais para ipagluto siya ng
almusal. Madalas ko naman siyang ipinaghahanda ng hapunan. Napapanis at nabubulok
na lamang ang ulam, hindi lang nakakain. Hindi naman kasi ito umuuwi ng maaga.
Minsan pa nga nakakainum ito kapag umuuwi. Madalas siyang naglalasing. Hindi niya
ako kinakausap. Nagmumukhang invinsible ako sa paningin niya.

Nagluto ako ng afritada dahil sabi ni Mom ito daw yung paborito niyang ulam.
Pagkatapos kong maihanda ang lahat ng pagkaing niluto ay inilapag ko na sa mesa.

Nagtimpla ako ng dalawang tasang kape para sa aming dalawa.

Lalabas na sana ako ng kusina nang makasalubong ko siya sa may pinto. Napahinto ako
at saglit na napatitig sa kanya. He stared at me blankly and coldly. As usual, ano
pa bang aasahan ko?

"Morning, breakfast kana."

Kahit alanganin nagawa ko parin siyang batiin at yayain. Matipid akong ngumiti sa
kanya. Tinitigan niya ako saglit bago umiwas. He looked away at nawa'y may iniisip.
Pero hindi ko siya mawari.

"No, sa office na lang. I'm not hungry."

Then he walked out. Para lang akong kandilang sinindihan sa tabi. Nakatayo at
naghihintay na malusaw.

Napasulyap ako sa pagkaing nakahain sa mesa. Mabubulok lang ang lahat ng mga ito
gaya ng nakagawian.

Umalis ako at pumasok sa kwarto. Mas mabuti pang maligo at ng mahimasmasan.

Nakakapanghina ng loob. Hayy..

Pagkatapos kong magbihis panlakad ay lumabas ako para kumain. I wear my usual
outfits. Flats and floral dress na hanggang tuhod sang haba.

Nakita ko siyang kumakain sa hapag kainan. Humigop siya ng kape at ang sarap nitong
tingnan habang kumakain sa mga niluto ko. Ang bilis ng mga subo niya, parang isang
taong hindi nakakain ng pagkain.

Wala sa sariling napangiti ako. Kakain lang din pala siya sa mga niluto ko, andami
pang arte. Siguro sa subrang taas ng pride niya kaya siya nagkakaganyan.

Para hindi siya maistorbo, dahan-dahan akong umalis at naupo sa sala. Kumuha ako ng
magazine para kunwaring nagbabasa. Para sa ganun paglabas niya hindi siya
makahalata na nakita ko ang pagkain niya sa mesa. I'm smiling again. Maybe I should
cook some more every morning and night for him tapos kunwaring papasok ako sa
kwarto para lang kumain siya.

Tiniklop ko ang magazine. Kinuha ko ang phone sa bag at nagPM ako sa Viber kay
Carla para makipagkita ngayon. I need a new wardrobe. Tama si Charice I have to do
something para maakit ang asawa ko. I sighed when I think about that.

"Where are you going?"

Nag-angat ako ng ulo sa kanya nang marinig ang matigas na boses nito. Nawala ang
ngiti sa labi ko nang makita ang mukha nito na wari naiirita. He's facing and
giving me that usual look as he always does everytime. Tinitigan niya ang kabuuan
ko. Nanunuri.

Napakurap ako.

"Ahmm. May pupuntahan lang akong kaibigan."

Malumanay kong sagot saka iniwas ang mga mata sa kanya dahil hindi ko kayang
tutukan ang mapanuring tingin nito. I tried to focus on my phone pero lumipad
sandali ang espiritu ko.

"Anyway, I'd like you to know about the rules we have."

Rules? I look at him again. Napamaang akong napatingin sa mga mata niya.

"First, you're not allowed to flirt anyone else there as long as you are carrying
my name. Second, I don't pursue you to do some things such as partying and
drinking everywhere. Third, I don't allowed your interference in my life. In short,
wala kang pakialam sa kahit anong gawin ko. Lastly, after three months from now on,
we are going to annul our marriage. Whether you like it or not, that's the rules
and it's final. I hope everything is clear to you."

After he thrown that words to my face ay agad itong tumalikod at iniwan akong
natulala. Laglag ang panga ko sa lahat ng mga binitiwan niyang salita. Kaydaling
sabihin, kaydaling isipin pero tagos lahat sa buto ko ang sinabi niya. The pain is
too much to bare. Ang sakit, ang sakit pala na ganun lang kadali sa kanya gawin ang
sinasabi nitong rules.

First rules- hindi ko naman talaga kayang gawin sa kanya ang bagay na yun. Kahit
ang Second rule ay malayong malayo sa personalidad ko. Ang pangatlong rule ay kaya
ko namang tiisin na hindi makialam sa mga gagawin niya.

Pero ang higit na ikinagulat ko ay ang panghuli na sinabi nito. Magkakaroon ng

annulment. Isang malaking sampal yon. Higit sa lahat napakasakit gawin. Our
marriage won't work and won't last. That's it, para na rin niyang nilagyan ako ng
taning sa buhay.

***

Sinabi ko kay Carla ang totoo kong sitwasyon. Wala na talaga akong ibang
mapagsabihan. Hindi ko naman pwedeng e-share sa pamilya ko ang kalagayan ko ngayon.
Surely they would be devastated about it. And my bestfriend Charice is not here to
comfort me. Sino pa ba ang malapit kong mga kaibigan?

Carla is a good friend of mine, he is a gay. He owns five branches salon here in
Luzon. He is a make up artist and hair stylist. Ayoko namang itago itong mga
bitterness ko sa asawa kaya siya lang ang malalapitan ko ngayon. Baka ikabaliw ko
pa ang lahat ng ito kapag patuloy kung kimkimin sa dibdb.
"Walang hiya talaga yang asawa mo. Pero isang tao lang ang pwedeng sisihin dyan eh.
At ikaw yun, yang kagagahan at katangahan mo, Mare. Grabe ka, daig mo pa ang wonder
woman sa pagsalba sa ginawa ng ate mong manloloko."

Naiinis at concerned nitong sabi. Inirapan ako nito at namaypay sa sarili to ease
his irritable feelings. Hay naku. Lumabi ako sa kanya.

"Tapos na yun, hayaan mo na Carla. Ang importante okay na ang lahat."

Inirapan ako ulit nito.

"Oo sila okay, ikaw ang nagsa-suffer. Naku, bobita ka talaga. Gandang ganda mo pa
naman."

Natawa ako sa sinabi niya. Alam ko namang ganito talaga ang magiging reaction niya.

"So anong gagawin natin dyan? Anong plano mo? Hihintayin mong matapos ang tatlong
buwan para sa annulment nyo?"

Umismid ako. Naisip ko na ang sinabi ni Charice. I told him about the plans. But he
declined. Mas lalo lang siyang nainis.

"Alam mo kapag nakita ko yang si Charice, gagawin ko talaga siyang paminta. Ang
sarap niya dikdikin."

Alam kong nagbibiro lamang siya. Pero talaga ngang minsan nagka-clash ang ugali
nila ni Cha. Tawa lang ang naging reaction ko.

"Maganda kana. Ka-cheapan lang yang gagawin mo. Palibahasa kasi yang si Cha, nadala
lang sa make-up. Pero sabagay may point naman.. Hmm.."

Pinasadahan niya ako ng tingin mula ulo hanggang paa. At napangiwi ito, wari hindi
nagustuhan ang aura ko today. Or mas tamang sabihin na hindi niya type ang mga
taste ko ever since lalong lalo na sa pananamit.

"Hmm.. Dress na pansimba, saan kaya ang binyagan ngayon.."

Puna niya sa damit ko at dumako ang mga mata niya sa sout kong doll shoes.

"Doll shoes as ever. Chaka, Mare! You look so old.--"

Diniinan niya ang salitang old.

"Fashion! Manang ka talaga."

Agad nitong dugtong na nanggigil pa like a roaring tiger.

Humalagpak ako ng tawa sa sinabi niya. Instead na ma-offend, tumawa lang ako dahil
nasanay na ako sa lage niyang pamumuna sa akin noon pa.

"Hindi ako Manang hah! Ikaw naman ang OA nito. Hindi naman ako nerd manamit or old
fashion. Ayoko lang ng mga revealing outfits like ate did."

He rolled his eyeballs overly. Nangalumbaba siya sa harapan ko.

"You don't need changes like cheap. Masyado kang formal, Mare. Parang lage kang
nagsisimba. You know what's the precise thing to do for you?"
He pointed his finger to me, smiling happily. Kinindatan niya ako. Napamaang akong
nakatingin sa kanya.

"You need a full make over."

Nanlalaki ang mga mata nitong sabi tila execited na excited.

Make-over?

Oh well, I guess so.

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Next Level

(Kabanata 14)

Zea POV

I am now moving to the next level. Yon ang lage kong itinatatak sa sarili habang
nakaharap sa salamin. I am not purely convince to these changes.

My chestnut brown hair change into blond. I don't wear make ups and these pumps. My
dress is above the knee. Litaw na litaw ang mapuputi at makinis kong legs. Medyo
mababaw ang neckline ng dress kong sout kaya medyo revealing pero sabi ni Carla
dapat yung labas ang cleavage and nagtalo pa kami about dun, kasi ayoko talaga.

Hindi naman ako nagmumukhang porn star nito kaya lang medyo modern look. Not that
liberated type of aura, but some kind of sabay sa uso. Maarte look to be precise.
Definitely nakakadagdag daw ng kumpyansa ang pagbabago. I'm building up my self-
esteem. Kasi sa totoo lang masyado akong mahiyain. And I wanna change it. Dapat
confindent lage. Not naman mayabang. Kung tutuusin may ibubuga din naman ang beauty
at life status ko. Kaya I have to make it to start something new about my
lifestyle.

**

I've cooked for our dinner. Hoping that this time he will come home early as
possible para mainit pa ang pagkaing kakainin. Well, may heater naman, pwede ng
painitin kapag late na siya darating sa bahay.

Pagkatapos maligo, I already dressed up like not so prepared but actually ilang
beses akong pabalik balik sa salamin para sulyapan lang ang sarili. The truth is
kinakabahan talaga ako. What if hindi niya magustuhan ang new look ko? Would he
insult me again?

I sighed as I look up my outfit for tonight. I'm wearing a dress like the usual na
above knee. It's baby pink color, litaw ang dibdib at likod ko. Actually my strap
naman, kaya lang medyo tube-like ang style nito. Hindi na ako nagsuot na pumps
total nasa bahay lang naman. Baka sabihin niyang ignorante ako. Yung flipflop
slippers na may two inches up. Yun ang pinili kong suotin. Inilugay ko ang big
curls blonde hair ko. So totally, para na akong si Jennifer Lopez waiting for her
husband to come home. The different is I don't look like her. Well, I'm pretty
enough and so petite. Ngayon, naaappreciate ko na ang beauty ko. As in beauty
talaga. Lage kasi akong insecure sa sarili.
Nakaupo ako sa sala, waiting for him. Wala sa sariling nanonood ako ng movies.
Isinalang ko ang movie na THE MONSTER IN LAW, si J.Lo ang bida. Idol ko kasi ang
latina beauty like her.

Kahit paulit-ulit akong nanonood nito andun parin ang laugh trip. Its a comedy
romance love story. Tawa ako ng tawa, hindi ko na napansing may tao palang
nagmamasid sa akin.

Natigil lamang ako nang biglang may umubo sa tagiliran ko. Kaya agad akong huminto
at napepe ako nang makita siyang nakatayo, nakatitig sa akin mula ulo hanggang paa.
Tila sinusuri ako ng mabuti. I felt conscious suddenly. Tumayo ako.

"Hmm, good evening. Nakahanda na ang hapunan sa mesa. Teka, ipaghahain kita."

Agad akong tumalikod para tumungo sa hapag kainan.

"Don't bother yourself, I'm done with Jessica."

I paused. When I heard his refusal, bigla akong nadisappoint. Not to add, about he
mentioned the name. Parang sinaksak ng patalim ang dibdib ko. That Jessica must be
his fling, girlfriend or his mistress.

"Hmm, ganun ba. Sige, ako na lang ang kakain."

Lumingon ako saglit at agad ding bumawi ng tingin kasi baka mahalata nitong naiiyak
na ako sa sakit. He snobbed, then look away before he walk out.

Tumungo ako sa kusina at doon ko iniyak ang nararamdaman. Ang sakit pala kapag
nirereject ka ng taong mahal mo. This is not the first time pero sadyang masakit
lang talaga. One thing, he never noticed my new look. Halata ding hindi niya
nagustuhan.

****

(Jamie POV/third person's POV)

Shit!

Nagpalakad lakad siya sa kwarto habang frustrated itong nagpasuklay suklay sa

kanyang ulo. He ran his fingers through his hair in a very stiff manner.

I shouldn't feel this towards her. As I've watched her, with her new look. Bigla
akong nakaramdam ng init. It's my first time to feel like this with a woman. I've
been into in a quick and short relationship or flings with those sophisticated
women. But I never felt this way. Its not lust I swear. Coz the more I stare on her
is the more I feel this unexplainable feelings for her and it's so damn frustrating
to know.

She had that smile, with no one dares to refuse to look. She had the soft voice,
that is very tempting to get into my nerves and to all my senses. She's sweeter
than I expected to be. Her alluring face looks fragile and vulnerable like I don't
want her to let go if ever I'll hold her to. But somehow for a strange reason, I
was and still I am occupied with these hatred.

When I think about Trisha, wala na akong ibang nararamdaman kundi ang makausap siya
for closure. I don't even miss her since I've got into this marriage. All I'm
thinking for the whole entire day was her. Always her. She's always in my mind. I
don't know why. I've tried so hard to avoid her but it seems so difficult to do.
I must not fall for her. Not to fall hard for her. She's a hooker, or something
that defines the unusual attitudes like a woman with a habit of desperation. She's
desperate to get what she wants. She's a brat. What if hindi na niya ako gusto then
she will throw me somewhere like I am trash?.

She's really beautiful. Very different from her sister. I knew she makes some
changes for herself, maybe to get my attention or maybe she had a change of heart.
But it doesn't matter though. Coz she's beautiful the way she is. But as what as
I've said, she's obsessive.

And I hate her. She's unfathomable. Looks can be deceiving, kabaligtaran ang
ipinapakita niya sa totoo niyang kulo. And I don't wanna be the victim of his
vixen. That she didn't quite know or aware about herself. Coz right now, I'm
already captive of her beauty.

***

"Hmm, good morning. I've made you a breakfast. Ano ang susuotin mo? Wala kasi si
Nanay Amy, walang gagawa ng mga ibang gawaing bahay."

Bungad nito paglabas ko ng kwarto. Katatapos ko lang maligo pero hindi ko mahagilap
ang susuoting long sleeves. Kaya lumabas ako para hanapin si Nanay Amy. She's not
living here, she's the housekeeper I hired na pumupumunta lang dito para maglins,
and everything. Matagal na siyang katiwala ng pamilya kaya I've trusted her so much
for every house hold chores. Alam na rin niya kung ano ang ihahandang damit tuwing
umaga. Kung ano ang mga susuutin ko and etc.

I sighed. I look at her aura today. I erased the thought of being so attractive
with her beauty once again.

"I'm looking for my white long sleeves. I don't know where."

I answered casually, avoiding to look at her anyway. She's frowning. Maybe she's
thinking. She looked at me fully before she turn her back and leads to my room.

My stomach drowl when I saw the cup of coffee beside the plate. Actually, kahapon
ko lang ang natikman ang tinimpla niyang kape. The esprosso coffee tasted so good,
it brings addiction to my taste. At tiyak na hahanap-hahanapin ko talaga ang kape
na gawa niya.

Well, not bad. At least mapapakinabangan siya dito sa bahay. I wonder, why she
chose to stay at home than to work. Hindi ko naman siya pinagbabawalan.

She cooked pork sinigang and chopsuey. Well, I can say na magaling siya sa kusina.
Am sure tataba ako kapag lage akong kakain sa mga niluluto niya. Hindi siya
nagluluto ng mga pagkaing typical na kinakain sa umaga. Like hotdogs, ham, fried
egg or anything na nakakaumay sa panlasa. This something new.

I smiled. I barf after I drunk water. Busog na busog ako. Napahawak tuloy ako sa
tyan.

"Ouch!"

Agad akong tumayo at patakbong tumungo sa kwarto kung saan siya naroon. Imagining
about something bad happened to her makes me feel nauseous.

But to my surprised, umuusok ang damit na may nakapatong na plantsa sa taas nito.

And she was watching it with huge shock on her face.

"Shitt!"

Agad akong lumapit para patayin ang plantsa. I unplug the socket. Nasunog at
nabutas ang puting long sleeves. She was standing, stiffened. Natutulala.

I blew an air in a disgust manner. Saka ko siya hinarap.

"What's wrong with you!? Alam mo ba ang ginagawa mo?"

Hindi ko napigilang magtaas ng boses sa kanya. Namutla siyang nakatingin sa akin.

"I'm so..sorry.."

She's stuttering as she resplied.

"Look what you've done to my shirt? Pwede tayong masunog sa ginagawa mo. Kung hindi
mo alam paano gawin, wag ka na lang magmarunong."

Matigas kung pagkakasabi. Pabalang kong itinapon ang nasunog na long sleeves.

Pwede pa siyang mapaano sa ginagawa niya. Paano kung pati sya mapahamak? Masunog? O
mapaso? I'm just a concern citizen. But my mind refuse that idea. Concern citizen o
talagang worried lang ako sa kanya? Oh crap!

She nibbled her lip, blinked her eyes and looked away. She shook her head and
watched her fingers.

I suddenly got alarm. Nasaktan ba siya?

Hinablot ko ang kamay niya. I sighed, then face palm when I looked at her index and
middle finger. Hindi ako nagkamali, namumula ito sa pagkapaso. Its not just red
parang nagviolet pa nga.

"Oh Goodness! Look what you've done."

Paninisi ko sabay himas sa daliri nito. I blew it. She moaned. Tiningnan ko siya,
at nagulat na lamang ako nang makita ang luhang rumaragasa sa kanyang pisngi. Does
it really sore? Biglang binuhusan ang puso ko ng yelo nang makitang umiiyak siya. I
don't wanna see her crying.

"Oh shitt!"

I pulled her closer to mine, without a single thought, agad ko siyang niyakap at
isiniksik sa aking dibdib.

"Ssshh.. Its okay.."

I comforted her. And her natural fragrance, her fresh smell is so divine. Ang sarap
niyang amoy-amuyin. So far, siya ang pinakamabangong babae na naamoy ko. Its so
addicting.

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Seductress
(Kabanata 15)

Zea PoV

He's mad because nasunog ko ang damit niya. Sinigawan niya pa ako and told me not
magmarunong. I cried because I was hurt with all the words he said not because
napaso ako. Pero ang ipinagtataka ko lang ay niyakap at inalo niya ako nang makita
nyang umiiyak ako sa harapan niya. It was a silent cry. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang
iniisip niya that time but it was something na na-feel ko na may pag-aalala din
pala siya sa akin. Sana nga totoo. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang iniisip niya. Hindi
ko naman kasi siya maintindihan.

I took my phone when I receive text message.

From Carla':

*Mare, gawin mo na. Dress like a seductress woman, then seduce him to the highest
level.

I chuckled when I read his message. Nag type ako sa message board.

Me:

* How? Actually I'm scared, and so nakakahiya.*

I thought he would reply, pero tumawag ito.

("Gaga! Anong scared sinasabi mo dyan?! She's your husband. Todohin mo na. Sa ganda
mong yan, I'm sure bibigay din yang asawa mo. Then, goodbye virginity! Oh diba,
bongga?")

Sinabayan pa nito ng tawa sa huli. At muntikan na akong mabilaukan sa sinabi niyang

'goodbye virginity!'

"Carla, alam mo naman na napaka-arogante niya. He's so --"

("Enough! Umaandar na naman yang pagka-nega mo. You should be persistent. Wala
namang masama, after all he's your husband.")

He cut me off. I sighed. Napaismid ako.

"Akala ko ba against ka dun sa advice ni Charice. Tapos bumabaligtad ka ngayon."

I pouted. Leaving with no choice.

("Again, at some point may tama naman siya doon. Akala ko ba mahal mo ang asawa mo?
Paano kung may mga malalanding babae dyan na kakalantariin ang gwapo mong asawa?
Tutunganga ka na lang? Magpapatalo? Walang gagawin? Iiyak na lang sa tabi?" )

Mas lalo akong natakot sa mga sinabi niya. Mambabae? Naku, wag naman sana. Nagset
pa naman siya ng rules na hindi ko siya papakialaman. Ano mangyayari? Kung wala
akong gagawing hakbang? Hindi ko yata kakayanin ito.

"Carla naman eh. Tinatakot mo naman ako."

Nag-aalala kong sumbat dito. Tumili na naman ito at nagmura, kaya bahagya kong
inilayo ang phone sa teynga. Nakakabingi kasi. Nasanay na ako sa ugali niyang
disturbance, maingay at etc. Bakla kasi, andaming kalandiang alam.
("Am not scaring you, mare. My point is pwedeng mangyari ang ganyang mga cases.
Okay sana kung mahal ka ng husband mo. Diba nga pikot ang drama nyo? Eh bakit di mo
lubus-lubusin? Tutal napasayo na rin naman ang first love mo na matagal mo ng
pinangarap. If he'll realize na ikaw ang talagang babae na binigyan niya ng kwentas
noon, and then he will fall inlove with you. Perfect! Walang annulment na
magaganap. Happy ending ang marriage mo dai!" )

Pangaral nito. Eksakto! Alam ni Carla ang history. Kaya marami siyang advices na
makakatulong din sa mga steps ko to make my husband fall for me. I should use my
charm for him.

I sighed,

"Okay. Salamat Carla. I'll try my best as I can."

I'm giving him a not expectant way of agreement. Probably, I have lots of plans in
my head but I don't know how to start.

("Oh siya, don't forget to give some news. Yung something ..hnmm.. Hahaha! Anyway,
good luck, Mare! Bye.. Mwah!" )

Bruha talaga! Natatawa na lang akong ibinaba ang phone. Alam kong makahulugan yung
sinasabi niyang 'something'. Greenminded talaga si Carla.

Mamayang gabi, uumpisahan ko na siyang akitin. Humanda ka sa akin Jamie!

Determinado na ako. Ayokong maging luhaan na lang na walang ginagawa.

"Saan ka pupunta?"

Lumabas siya sa kwarto na nakasuot ng sports attire. Sinulyapan niya ako at gaya ng
nakagawian, sinusuri na naman niya ang kabuuan ko.

"Its none of your business."

Ouch!

Walang emosyong sagot nito saka inayos ang sout na polo shirt. I smiled bitterly. I
almost forgot na wala pala akong karapatang makialam at magtanong sa personal
niyang buhay o mga ginagawa.

"Dito ka ba magdidinner mamaya? Anong oras ka uuwi?"

Nakayuko kong tanong. Hindi ko kasi kayang salubungin ang mapanuri niyang tingin.

He sighed in a disgust manner. He's being rude. Ibang-iba siya sa Jamie na nakilala
ko noon. Yung tipong malambing, mabait na boyfriend ni ate. Siguro nga ganun niya
kamahal si ate at hindi niya ako kayang patawarin.

"I thought everything was clear to you? I don't allow you to invade my privacy."

He mocked.

Invade? Invade na ba ang nagtatanong? He's giving me an exact exaggeration words of

meaning for me to understand clearly that I don't have the right to act like a wife
to him. He's downright rude. And I'm hurting.

I never talk, instead I walk out para pumasok sa kwarto. Hindi ko nga siya nagawang
sulyapan. Hindi ko kaya. Maiiyak na ako sa harapan niya kung mananatili lang akong
nakatayo doon.
***

I've waited for him for the whole time. Three hours ago, nakapagluto na ako ng
dinner namin.

Its 10pm, and I'm dressed like seductress wife ready to be eaten with her husband
alive!

I'm wearing this fitted backless sando, and very short, short as in short na
shorts. Bahagyang labas pa ang cleavage ko. Pakiramdam ko isa akong pick-up girl na
naghihintay ng mga customer sa daanan. And I hate wearing this. Ayoko namang
magsout ng sexy nighties. Masyado namang halata yun na may intensyon akong akitin
siya. Isa pa para akong stripper sa ganung aura. Plus, make up. Yong red lipstick
talaga. And a heavy eye shadow. I'm not sure kung tama ba itong mga gagawin ko.
Basta ito yong mga nakikita kong strategy ng mga babae sa movies when it comes to
seduce their men.

Pakiramdam ko nilalamok na ako dito sa sofa for waiting him. Lage akong nakasulyap
sa wall clock. Maghahating gabi na wala parin siya.

Ilang beses na akong naghikab. Nakakayamot naman itong ginagawa ko. Nakakainis.
Gusto ko tuloy sumigaw.

Nagulat ako ng biglang may nagbukas ng pinto. Kaya agad akong napatayo at tiningnan
ito.

He's not in the mood. Parang lasing yata siya coz I smell an alcohol. Sinalubong
niya ako ng tingin. He scrutinize me from head to toe. Like a bacteria na
nakakahawa kapag hinawakan at nilapitan. That's an insult but I am very persistent
with my goal.

He chuckled. Showing his sarcasm smirk. He looked away and then laughed. Not loud
nor a happy laugh though, but it's more on sarcastic way. Nanliit ako sa inaasal
niya.

"Hmm, may inihanda akong dinner para sayo. Nagugutom ka na ba?"

Instead, I ignore his gestures. Bahala siya kung ano isipin niya.

"No, I'm not. Stop acting like my real wife. Remember, sa papel lang kita asawa.
Huwag mong sagarin. And please...look at yourself."

He paused for a while giving me an insulting look at my whole body. It feels like
I'm a prostitute with the way he stares.

"You look cheap. Since when do you learn to wear make up, huh?"

He continued and I felt like there's a knife digging into my heart. I learn this
kind of cheap-whore its because of you idiot! Gusto kong isigaw sa harapan niya ang
mga katagang yon. Nakatingin ako sa baba, nakayuko.

"And if you're trying to seduce me dear wife, your just wasting your time and
effort. I am not the type of guy who easily attracts to those cheap woman. Like
you.. Come on, cut the crap as possible as you can. Coz no matter what you do,
nothing's change. Nothing. Stop playing games with me."

And my tears streaming down on my cheeks fastly. From 100% of confidence I'm trying
to build up, breaks down to zero. As in .0% negative.
Napakurap-kurap ako ng ilang beses. Pinipilit kong mag-sink in sa utak ko ang mga
sinasabi niya. Mali, ang insulto niya pala. My limbs is getting weaker. And I
couldn't bare the pain anymore.

I took a glance at him. At kitang kita ko ang pagkabigla sa mukha nito. Halatang
hindi niya inaasahang ganito ang magiging kalabasan ng mga insulto niya. His rage
and sarcasm expression a while ago replace a kind of symphaty all of a suuden. He
open his mouth trying to say something but he was irrevocably out of spoken.

I composed myself and let this pain takes place.

Bago pa man mahuli ang lahat, patakbo na akong tumungo sa kwarto at pabalang na
isinara ang pinto.

Doon na bumagsak ang lahat ng hinanakit ko. Pakiramdam ko napakababa kong babae sa
kanya. Tang-ina niya! I never do such a bitchy moves like this if he don't provoke
me.

This is nothing! Effortless! I hate him! I hate him very much!...

Napahagulhol ako sa kama habang inaalala ang lahat ng mga pang-iinsulto niya. May
kasalanan ako sa kanya pero hindi sapat na dahilan yun para saktan at insultuhin
niya ang pagkatao ko.

Magsisisi ka rin Jamie sa ginagawa mo! Pagsisihan mo rin sa huli ang pananakit mo
sa akin.

Itaga mo yan sa bato!

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Failure

(Kabanata 16)

Jamie POV

Late akong nagising. Hindi ako nakatulog after the talk that we had kagabi. It's
not a properly talk either. Actually I felt guilty about it. Pero natapos na and I
can't take it back. Hindi ko na mababawi ang mga masasakit na salitang binitiwan
ko. I was so stupid. Ilang beses ko pang minura ang sarili para lang mahimasmasan
pero wala ding silbi dahil hindi ako pinatulog ng konsensya.

I admit that I was so harshed last night. Naiinis lang naman ako sa pagiging
desperada niya. She don't have to dress like that. That's not a natural thing about
her. She was just trying so hard to please me. At yun ang ikinaiinis ko. I want her
natural attitude and everything not like that. But seeing all those tears in her.
Para akong binuhusan ng malamig na tubig. Daig pa sa tumanggap ako ng ice bucket
challenge.

I lazily stood up and headed to shower. Maybe I should apologise her of what I've
done. That was so wrong. Maybe I could make her a friend. Friendship is a way good
start before turn to lovers or anything deep relationship as well. My heart flipped
when I think about that. If that case may happen then why not? After all we're
couple. A legally husband and wife. Kahit pa sabihing hindi kami nag-umpisa sa tama
o sa nakagawiang relasyon.

After I showered myself and wear my usual job outfit, excited na akong mkita siya
sa kusina. Masarap din pala sa pakiramdam na may nag-aasikaso. Yung ipagluto araw-
araw. Minsan nagdududa lang talaga ako sa ginagawa niya. I don't know if its real
or not. Gusto kong isipin na kaya niya ginagawa ang bagay na ito dahil yun ang
gusto niya as my wife. But definitly I don't assume that kind of things she's
showing now. For sure she just want me to fall for her charm. By doing like this,
like that. How can I trust her? Kung sa umpisa pa lang pinikot na niya ako.

She betrayed her sister. She betrayed all of us. Pinaikot niya ako and in return
ganun din ang gagawin ko. I'm not sure of it. Habang tumatagal nahuhulog ang loob
ko sa kanya. Before, I admit na may narardaman akong attraction sa kanya. After
that night na gumawa sya ng drama, gumuho ang tiwala at paghanga ko. But the
strange feeling from the start I saw her always is still there. Hindi ko alam kung
paano nagkaroon ng puwang ang puso ko para sa kanya. I don't know when or how it
started.

The spacious living room is empty. All the things are arrange according to their
places. I scan all around. In fact, simula nang dumating siya sa pent house na ito,
naging maayos na ang lahat. Malinis at peaceful sa pakiramdam.

Nagmamadali akong tumungo sa dining area. Nadisappoint ako nang makita kong wala
siya dito. May mga pagkain na sa mesa at tinakpan ang mga ito.

I come closer and opened all of it. Medyo mainit-init pa naman ang afritada. My
favorite dish ever. I smiled silently. May napuna akong kulay yellow paper na nasa
mesa, naka-paste ito.

I hurriedly took it. I read the note saying,

*Nathaniel, I've made breakfast for you. I can't join you coz I have important
things to do.*

Nathaniel?

Nobody call me that way except my real mother. I was six years old when she died in
her sickness. Nathaniel came from my real father who leave us, and chose to go away
than to marry my mother.

And I hate that name. I really hate my father because he abandoned us. Mabuti na
lang at mabait ang mag-asawang Zamora and adopted me and treat me like their own
son. Sabagay, magkapamilya naman ang mama at sila Mom and Dad. Hindi na rin ako na-
iiba sa kanila.

I sighed as I reminsice my childhood memories. That was sad and tragic and at some
other point, the positive happened was I've become part of this family. I love all
of them. Even the other adopted siblings like Ella and Stacey, kahit marebelde pa
ito.

Itinabi ko ang note at kumain na lang. Kahit masarap ang niluto nawalan ako ng
gana. Because I never see her this morning. This is punishment. Coz I've miss her
every single day and its getting worst. And myself betraying that thought.

I took my phone and dialled her number. Well, actually my personal contacts ako sa
kanya, maybe she doesn't know. Pero out of coverage area ito. Disappointed kong
ibinaba ang phone.
***

I'm here in the bar, na pag-aari ni Nicholas (my cousin). I'm here with Yael,
Darren and Sev.

"Yvo, is getting worst. He always drawn himself in an alcohol. Its been six months
nang iwan siya ni Ella sa altar. But still he didn't let himself to move on."

Darren spoke up bitterly. Everyone knew how painful for Yvo is that. And the worst,
that fvcking rumor that she left with someone was still a theory for anyone else.
But I know its not true. Ella is such a good girl to betrayed him as they accused
her. Maybe there's a deep reason about it, why she did that was still a speculation
to others. Everything was seems so blurred.

I played my glass and sip the alcohol in it, trying push it harder to my mouth. Am
not in the mood to drink but I don't have a choice. I need to do something to ease
this freaking conflicts of emotion that I've been through for the whole scenery of
this marriage.

"Tsk tsk tsk, he needs to rehab himself to move on. That's why I don't take woman
seriously. I don't do such a stupid things as they called LOVE. Nah, it doesn't
even work out with me. If I need an heiress or heir, then I'll hire a surogate
mother to do that. Marriage is not my thing."

Napapantastikuhan ako sa sinabi ni Nicholas. It seems he didn't believe in love.

Well, sa standing niyang playboy, matinik sa mga babae ay wala talaga siyang
seniseryoso. Pero paano na lang kung mainlove siya, diba?

"What if you are going to fall for someone that you don't expect it to be?"

I suddenly asked him seriously but with a flat tone. I looked up to him, he
laughed. Yong tawang hindi niya sineryoso.

"That's impossible. You will only fall to someone if you let yourself, Cuz. I
mean, its start in the mind. So you must control yourself. Control not fall in love
with someone else as long as you can."

He smiled, giving that final statement. I was a bit disappointed on it. Kung pwede
e-control then why a lot of people in this world got crazy coz of that love? I must
admit it to myself na, unti-unti na ako nawawalan ng control. Saglit akong napaisip
sa asawa. I have feelings for her and still have after all she've done.

I sighed, and then look at him once again. I'm not quitely convince with he said.

"Really? Have you tried it? I mean nainlove ka na ba and you controlled it for the
sake of your standards?"

May halong sarcasm ang tanong na yun. I don't care if he'll notice it or not.

He leaned his back on his seat. Then, forward his eyes to mine in a stiff manner.
Maybe he didn't expect me to mocked at his point of views.

"No, I haven't experience it yet. But I don't have to. Coz I've already set it in
my mind."

I laughed, yong tawang mapakla. Tumingin ako sa malayo.

"I disagree with you. When you fall in love, you will learn eveything. You'll
forgot your principles and you'll see.. How it make sense in your life."

I spoke. And he stiffened like he was lost with words. Pero kalaunan ngumiti lang
ito at umiling iling.

"You must be inlove with your wife. That's the exact thing, Jamie."

My heart beats at ako naman natigilan. Did I? Am I too transparent? I startled. I

don't know what to say.

"When you love someone. It endures everything, bare all things and randomly your
crazily out of place, out of your principles and everything you set in."

Napalingon kami ng sabay sa nagsalita. It was Servo. I raise my eybrow to him.

Since when he learn to advice?

"Owss?? How did you know?"

Pamimilosopo ni Yael sa sinabi niya. Kami naman ngayon ang natigilan.

Nag-angat siya ng ulo, at ngumiti na parang nakaisa.

"Wag nyong dibdibin, it was just a quotes na nabasa ko dito sa phone."

And everyone threw their head and laughed. I am shaking my head while giving that
kind of ' what the fvck' look. Natawa na lang ako sa pagiging mapagbiro niya.

He's really that man na walang pakialam sa mundo. Go with the flow, happy go lucky
and easy going lang. I don't know of he's really trying to be annoying or just in
his personality. Sometimes, walang sense kausap pero kapag seryoso na, marunong
naman ito makisama.

Because the topic was dismissed. Nag-iba ang usapan at nauwi lang din sa biruan.

***

Zea POV

"What!? You dressed like that? Kaya pala."

Gulat nitong reaction nang sabihin ko sa kanya ang nangyari kagabi. Wala sana akong
balak sa sabihin yon, pero namamaga ang mga mata ko at wala ng ibang pwedeng
palusot na idadahilan.

"Diba sabi mo, I'll seduce him. Eh yun ang alam kong pangseseduce eh. "

Rason ko. He crossed his arms at maarte itong naupo sa harapan ko. He rolled his
eyes upward at inismiran ako.

"Mare, hindi ganun yon. Ka-cheapan talaga yong outfit mo. Eh di sana, pinainum mo
na lang siya ng pampatulog at nirape mo. Tapos buntis ka agad, then no annulment.
No choice na siya."

Pambabara nitong sabi. Umismid ako. Alam kong pampilosopo ang tono ng pananalita
niya. But that time, naging desperada na ako.

Kumalma siya nang makitang umasim ang mukha ko. He gently cup my face in a friendly
gestures.
"Mare, its okay. Hayaan mo na lang siya sa buhay niya. Maganda ka, hindi mo siya
kawalan. Ano pang sinabi niya sayo?"

He asked calmly. Of course as a good friend of mine, he's concern about me. I shook
my head. Humugot ako ng hangin bago nagsalita.

"He said na, he don't easily attracts woman like cheap whore and--"

"What? Cheap whore!? You? Who does he think he is!? He's a bastard! Jerk! Makikita
ko lang yang asawa mo! I'll give him a douche bag!"

Halos magwala na nitong reaction sa harapan ko. Nakinig lang ako. Napangiwi lang
ako sa naging reaction niya. Syempre affected dahil nagsabotahe kami sa pagpaplano
ng bagay na yon that it turn out failure.

"Carla, enough. I realize na mali yung ginawa kong move. Hayaan na natin siya.
Bahala siya sa buhay niya. Basta ako gagawin ko ang gusto ko."

Naiinis ako sa kanya at higit na sa sarili. I don't wanna sacrifice my dignity para
lang sa kanya. Let him be. Makikita niya ang gagawin ko.

"Oh ano na namang plans mo? Magpanggap ng prostitute?"

Nahihiwagaan nitong tanong. Tila may taliwas na iniisip. I looked up to him and
smirk.

"Magrerebelde ako."

"What? Like how?"

He's still frowning while looking at me. I smiled. Yong ngiting may binabalak.

"Like against the rules. Basta. And you'll be my partner in crime."

Tinitigan niya muna ako bago tumili na parang naeexcite na sa gagawin namin.

"So ngayon may rules na?"

Umayos siya ng upo at naeengganyo na mangusisa na naman.

Tumango lang ako. Naalala ko na naman yung sinabi niya na kahit kailan hindi daw
siya magkakagusto sa akin. Hmm.. Tingnan na lang natin.

***

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Rejection

(Kabanata 17)

I hate for still caring ABOUT YOU. All the while knowing you still don't give a
shitt.. ABOUT ME.

Zea POV

Pagkatapos naming gumala ni Carla, ay nagpasya na rin akong umuwi. Naghanap lang
naman kami ng mapaglilibangan. We played bumper games, did bowling, eat anywhere we
want basta anything that I'd surely miss. It was simultaneously fun and freely to
do and I'd enjoy every stuffs we had.

I took my phone in my bag to check on. Its almost 8pm. Magluluto pa ako ng hapunan
Kay dear husband Nathaniel. I smiled that name. Kung magkakaanak man kami, yung
second name niya talaga ang ipapangalan ko kapag lalaki. Nawala ang ngiti ko nang
maalala ang totoong sitwasyon namin. Malabo mangyari ang happy ever after. That was
just a part of the dream.

Maya-maya nagring ang phone. Si mommy ang tumatawag when I saw the caller ID.

"Hello, Mom."

Bored kong sagot.

("Where are you? Nandito ang asawa mo, hinahanap ka. Hindi ka raw niya ma-contact
kanina pa.")

Nag-angat ako ng kilay sa sinabi nito sa kabilang linya.

Ako? Hinahanap niya? Imposebli.

Hindi ko maiwasang ma-excite or makaramdam ng saya. Marunong din pala siya maghanap
sa akin. Sinadya kong e-off ang phone kanina dahil ayoko ng storbo.

I made a u-turn and headed to my parents house.

**

Habang palakad ako papasok sa loob, naghahabulan ang tibok ng puso ko. Umaalon,
marahil sa excitement na makita siya.

Nasa sala sila Mom, masayang nag-uusap. Lumapit ako sa kanila. Napansin niya akong
papunta sa kinaroroonan nila kaya agad siyang tumayo at sinalubong ako.

Blangko lang ang expression sa mukha ko. At pinipilit kong hindi tumingin sa mga
mata niya.

"Hey where have you been?"

A fake smile or not he gave I don't bother myself to response him. He hug me
slightly and kiss me abruptly on the lips. Saglit akong natigilan dun. Kaya
napasulyap ako sa kanya. Iba ang mga tingin nito. Hindi ko mawari kung ano ba
talaga. Pero hindi yung mga tipong tingin na ibinibigay niya sa akin everytime he
look at me. This is different. I can see the kind of emotions that trancends deep
into my soul. Ibinaling ko ang mata kay mommy. Saka ngumiti.

"Hi Mom."

I greeted my mother and kissed her on her cheeks.

Tumungo kami sa hapag kainan kung saan may konting salo-salo. Kararating lang ni
Daddy at apat kaming kumakain sa mesa.

"So kelan nyo kami balak bigyan ng apo?"

Para na akong mabilaukan sa tanong ni Dad. Tila excite na excite pa ito.

Nagkatinginan kami ni Jamie.

"As soon as possible, Dad."

He answered immediately without giving me an approval look. Napaubo ako ng bigla.

Ang galing talaga umarte ang lalaking ito. Parang genuine lang makapagbigay ng
sagot. Ni hindi nga niya ako halos hawakan, tapos bigyan daw ng apo ang parents
namin. Gusto ko siyang hampasin sa tagiliran nang matauhan. Magkatabi kami across
Mom and Dad seats.

Uminom muna ako ng tubig bago nagpatuloy sa pagsubo.

"Honey, hindi pa nga sila nakapaghoneymoon. Apo na agad ang iniisip mo. Let them
enjoy each others first."

Sabat ni Mommy. Nag-angat ako ng ulo at sumulyap kay Jamie na maaliwalas ang itsura
na may pangiti-ngiti pang nalalaman while eating.

"Anyway kelan ang honeymoon? I thought it would be this week?"

Dad retorted suddenly. Napakurap ako bago sumulyap sa kanya. He took a glance in my
view saka ngumiti.

"Next month na lang siguro Dad. Marami pa kasing inaasikaso sa office. May project
pa kasi kaming tinatapos ni Yvo."

Dad sighed. Ibinaba niya ang kubyertos at maayos na hinarap si Jamie.

"How's Yvo, anyway hijo?"

Seryosong tanong ni Daddy. Huminto din si mommy sa pagsubo at napatingin sa amin.

Lahat naman kasi concern sa dinadanas ng brother in law ko.

"He's fine. Maybe he needs a little more time to move on."

Medyo alanganing sagot nito. I dont know about their personal lives and that issue
about Ella-Yvo wedding was caught off guard to Jamie.

Pagkatapos mangusisa ni Dad sa ibang bagay ay ako naman nito ang pinagbalingan.

"Zea, my assistant told me that your having good time with Carlo kanina. Stop doing
that. Alam mo namang mainit ang politika ngayon. Baka mapagbalingan ka pa. I'll put
you a bodyguards."

Lihim akong napaismid. Bodyguards? Kaya pala, tumatakas si ate sa mga bodyguards
dahil masarap mag-enjoy ng walang mga asungot.

"Who the hell Carlo is that?"

Lahat kami napatingin sa mabagsik na tanong nito. Salubong ang kilay kong
nakatingin sa kanya.

Galit? Nakaramdam ako ng pagkairita sa boses nito. He's mad.

"Oh, Jamie don't worry. Carlo is a gay. His harmless."

Agad na sabat ni Mommy nang mapansing nag-iba ang kulay ng mukha niya. Para kasing
nagseselos. I guess 'oo'. And I don't know why. Or maybe for showing lang sa
parents ko. I don't know what's real about this man.

Nagkatinginan kami saglit ni Mom at makahulugan siyang ngumiti. Sumikdo ang dibdib
ko at kumurap na lamang.

Nakita ko na narelief ang ekspresyon ng mukha nito pero andun parin ang pagsalubong
ng mga kilay. Wari, may nais pang sabihin.

He sighed.

"Kahit na. Lalaki parin siya. Hon, I guess kailangan mong maglie-low being his
companion some other time."

Baling nito sa akin? Hon? What a sweet endearment pero ang tanong kung totoo kaya?
What was he's talking about? Lie low? As if I'm always with Carla anyway.

I raised my eyebrow to him and then sip a glass of water. I'm trying to regain my
posture para naman hindi mahalata ni Mom.

"Oh well, I'm bored. Carla is one of my best companions and one of my best of
friends. I guess wala namang masamang makipagmingle sa mga friends ko. Besides,
safe naman ang pinupuntahan namin. Don't worry, Dad I'm fine. I don't need
bodyguards anyway."

I explained. But my eyes fully to my parents not in him. Of course wala akong dapat
ipaliwanag sa kanya.

Wala na akong narinig na reklamo pa ni Dad. Pero they insist to have bodyguards.
Hindi na ako nakipag-argue sa bagay na yun. If they want it then fine basta ako
I'll do what I want.

Pagkatapos ng hapunan, nagpasya akong magpahangin sa garden. I felt suffocated with

the topic inside. Sinadya ko talagang magtaray sa kanya. I can sense na may nais
siyang iparating pero hindi niya masabi. At may bahid na pagtataka ang lahat ng mga
titig na ipinupukol niya sa akin.

"Nandito ka lang pala."

Napalingon ako sa pamilyar na boses na yun. There, I saw him standing with his
stiff stares. Nagtaas lang ako ng kilay then I looked away. Dahan dahan siyang
lumapit. And he stop when were inches apart. Hindi ako tumayo sa kinauupuan ko dito
sa bench.

I crossed my arms at maya-maya tumabi siya sa akin.

Silence.

Sumandal ako sa sandalan at hinihintay kong siya mismo ang magsalita.

Isang nakakabinging katahimikan.

He sighed.

"For what happened last night, I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I didn't meant to do it--"
"That's okay. Ayoko ng pag-usapan pa ang bagay na yon."

Malamig kong putol sa mga sasabihin pa niya. Bahagya ko siyang nilingon. Blangko
ang ekspresyon sa mukha nito. But his eyes expresses something that I could not
fathom. Masyado siyang malalim at ayoko ng sisirin pa ang kailaliman nito.

"I hurted you... It was a lame and--"

He paused, and then iritado itong nagbuga ng hangin. Mapakla akong natawa. Nilingon
ko siya at agad ding bumawi ng tingin. He heard my sarcastic laugh, and took a
glance at my view.

"Hindi na maibabalik pa ang nangyari, Jamie. You don't have to sorry about it.
Nasanay na ako sa lahat ng mga insulto mo."

Walang kakurap-kurap kong sabi sa kanya. Nakita ko ang pagkagulat sa mga mata nito.

I stood up and crossed my arms in front of him. Plastic akong napangiti sa kanya.
He's frowning. He looked me up.

"Salamat sa ginawa mo dahil narealize ko, na you're not worth para iyakan ko. "

I paused. Hindi ko alam kung saan ko hinugot ang courage na titigan siya, suriin
mula ulo hanggang paa. Nagpapasalamat akong may natirira pa akong lakas na sabihin
sa kanya ang mga bagay na yon.

He gritted his teeth and I smiled seeing that. He narrowed his eyes to mine and I
held my chin up.

"Well, I'll just wait for three months. For an annulment."

I blurted out kahit masakit para sa akin sabihin ang bagay na yun. It pain me to
see all the disappointments painted on his eyes.

Then I walked out, laglag ang panga nito sa sinabi ko. Halatang nagulat ito. Pero
gusto ko lang din protektahan ang sarili sa mga ginagawa niya.

May naalala akong bagay kaya nilingon ko siya. Nagyaya pa naman siyang sabay kaming
umuwi mamaya pero..

"Wait, I can't go with you pala. I have a car. Bye!"

Nag-iinarte kong paalam sa kanya. Nakita ko ang paggalaw ng panga nito at parang
gusto kong humalagpak ng tawa sa harapan niya. I don't care. At least alam na niya
kung ano ang feeling ng rejection.

I sway my hips, flip my hair then walk away.

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Despair

(Kabanata 18)
Time was passing like a hand waving from a train. I wanted to be on. I hope you
never have to think about anything as much as I think about you.

-Jonathan Safran Foer-

Jamie POV

It's been a week since that last talk that we had. I wake up every morning na may
nakahanda ng pagkain sa mesa pero wala siya. Tuwing gabi naman ay ganun din.

And I wonder why. I miss her vulnerability. I miss everything on her. The way she
gave all those unspoken glances, a shy type gestures and in every way she cares me
about. But now.. It was totally gone.

After she said those words to me, para akong natauhan. I hurted her so much. I was
so stupid, I took for granted everything she did to me. Nainsulto ako nang sabihin
niyang nagpasalamat siya na nagawa ko ang bagay na yon dahil na-realize niyang
hindi ako worth na iyakan.

I sighed.

She often times having shopping and going out with that gay name Carlo or Carla,
whatever. Umuuwi naman siya sa tamang oras kaya hindi ako umaalma. I haven't notice
something bad yet, so its okay. Pero deep inside, I'm cursing myself. Dahil nawala
yung Zea na minamahal ko. Yung Zea na nakilala ko at pinakasalan. What I'm seeing
now is her coldness.

Minamahal?

I guess that's the right term for that. I paced the entire living room. Thinking
the whole situation. I must do something to get her back. But, how? I can't lose my
pride. My plans to hurt her, was not even working. And I don't know what to do
anymore.

I check the the time on my Rolex watch. It's nine in the morning. I have to work
now. But still here waiting for her to come out in her room. I wanna see her. Its
been a long week, na hindi ko siya nakikita ng maayos.

She's avoiding me like I have contagious disease, that she will be harm if I let
myself closer to her. Frustrated akong napasuklay sa ulo.

Bigla akong napalingon sa pintuan nang tumunog ang pagbukas nito. Iniluwal ang
bagong ligo, mabango at napakagandang asawa ko doon.

I gulped while staring at her damn sexy legs! She was wearing an Eiffel dress
above knee, off shoulder and almost three inches shoes. I must admit, that she's
not only pretty but very stunning woman.

Fvck! This woman is really turning me on. That she's not aware of what she's doing.
Right at this moment, she's really giving me a boner.

She's busy clicking her phone and carrying her purse while closing the door kaya
hindi niya napansin ang ginawa kong pagtitig. Her wavy blond hair adding the
perfect looks and aura. Even I knew that's not the natural color of her hair, it
suits on her anyway.

She stun when she look at me without an expactant. Tinitigan niya ako sa mata. Her
face shows expressionless but her eyes is telling something deep. I examine her
alluring face, she don't wear make ups. Only the lip bam she put on. And her
natural rosy cheeks, sparkling expressive hazelnut eyes and her baby face, blooms
in every way.

I swallowed the lump of my throat as I've seen those beautiful assets on her.

"Where are you going? Shopping again? Going with that Carla?"

I can't avoid to asked or to mock in a precise way. She swallowed before she open
her mouth,

"I thinks its none of your business, Nathaniel."

She quickly replied and then turn her head on.

"Really? Am still your husband, Zea. Remember that."

Pahabol ko sa kanya. Nilingon niya ako at tinaasan ng kilay. Saglit akong

natigilan. She's acting really strange in so many ways. And I hate it because I'm
so affected.

"Remember the rules, Nathaniel."

I frowned. Nathaniel? Oh why does it sounds so good to hear when it comes from her?
I used to hate that name, but now I'm beggining to like it.

"What about the rules? As I've remembered it was all in mine. Not benefited on
you."

I spoke to her. And she laughed sarcastically. I guess I've made the mistake of
putting those rules on.

"How come? Bakit ikaw lang ang may karapatan? I have freedom too. Remember sa papel
lang tayo kasal. Baka nakakalimutan mo."

Nagtataray na naman ito. I chuckled. Nasaktan ako sa sinabi niyang sa papel lang
kami mag-asawa. Pinipilit kong wag pansinin ang nararamdaman. Pwede ko siyang
baligtarin sa ginagawa niya.

Dahan-dahan akong lumapit sa kanya.

"Zea, ginusto mo 'to. Bakit sino ba ang nagtulak sa'yo na gawin natin to? Ang
magpakasal? Diba, PINIKOT mo lang ako? Remember that dear wife."

I smiled wryly to her. And she paled. Nanlaki ang mga mata niya. I grab her waist
and pulled her closer to mine. And it feels good closer to her body.

"Baka nakakalimutan mong hindi alam ito ng Daddy mo. Do I have to tell it to him?"

My voice is getting husky. Halos magkadikit na ang mukha namin ng sabihin ko ang
bagay na yun. She was utter shocked unspoken. Napaawang ang bibig nito, and its
tempting me to kiss her luscious lips. I fought the urge, but its so damn
frustrating to stop this. Kaya mabilis kong hinablot ang leeg niya and smashed her
lips right away.

Her lips is so sweet. I kiss her hungrily. I invaded her mouth and twisted my
tounge inside. She clung her arms in my nape and began responding my kisses. It was
so intense. And we both enjoying the kiss. I love the feeling. Full of passionate
and entirely wonderful. Speechless.
After a while I stop, she still closing her eyes. It was the most sensual kiss I
ever tasted. She open her eyes slowly at nagkasalubong kami ng tingin.

I gave her a naughty smile. Napakurap lamang siya.

"So I guess I already gives you an option."

I cut the silence. And she was taken aback. Then, I leave her. Wala sa sariling
napahawak siya sa kanyang labi.

Well, serves her right. I deserved that kissed and I knew she like it very much.
The way she responded and the whole thing is so irressistable.

***

Zea POV

Life is tough and crappy, you have to get up and move on like freely to do things
(such as parties and have fun all the while) to make it more bearable.

"Cheers!"

It's Laila's birthday. Pinsan ni Carla. Andito kami sa isang exclusive bar kung
saan madalas mga VIP guests ang nandito. Mga elite celebreties and politicians ang
madalas umiinom dito.

"Sino bang may-ari ng bar na ito?"

Hindi ko maiwasang magtanong habang nagmamasid sa palibot.

"Si Nicholas Demezticus. Pinsan ng asawa mo."

Agad na sagot ni Laila sa akin. Napatango tango ako. Kaya pala.

"Here, just drink. Huwag lang pasubra baka akalain ng asawa mo bad influence ako."

Carla handed me the small glass na may lamang champaigne. I took the glass
reluctantly and watch it first before I try to sip it in my mouth.

Gosh, it's awful taste.

I sip again, and it tastes bitter, medyo mainit na manamis tamis na maanghang.
Nasira ang mukha ko sa lasa.

Carla and Laila burst out laughing in unison.

"You're really a virgin, dear."

Laila amusingly notice me. Parang wala lang akong narinig at nagpatuloy lang sa
ginagawa.

After few hours of sitting here, everyone enjoying the fun and gave their best shot
in the dancefloor. Nakaupo lang ako at nagmamasid sa paligid. May sumundot sa likod
ko kaya lumingon agad ako.

He looks familiar, pero nagpoprocess pa ang utak ko kung sino itong nasa harapan
ko. I raised my eyebrow.
"You don't remember me? Oh come on. Nakakatampo naman."

He joked and my mind blinks, showing a bulb that he's the man I've met in Ella's
engagement party.

"Lucky? "

At last lumabas na sa bibig ko. Then he threw his head and laughed. Without an
invitation, umupo siya sa tabi ko.

"You never envite me in your wedding huh? I admit nagtampo talaga ako."

Ngumiti ako. Hindi ko na naasikaso ang mga invitations. Si mommy kasi ang nag-
asikaso sa mga yun. Hindi naman kasi prepared ang lahat, shotgun wedding nga.

"Sorry I forgot. Anyway, next time na lang if ever."

"Well, if that's a silver wedding then I have to wait twenty five years more."

Nagtawanan kami sa ideyang yun. At iyon ang naging umpisa ng masayang kwentuhan
namin. Mabait si Lucky , higit sa lahat may sense of humor and I admit na dagdag
pogi points yun sa personality niya.

"Anyway, masaya naman ang honeymoon? Actually, kailan lang yung nagkita tayo, six
or seven months pa yata? Then heto, kasal ka na. Kung hindi ako sinabihan ni Yael,
na ikaw ang napangasawa ni Jamie, hindi ko pa malalaman."

May himig na pagtatampong sabi nito though nakangiti naman. I shook my head and
trying to remember everything what happened. Wala siyang alam sa nangyari and he
don't have any idea about how we ended into marriage ni Nathaniel.

"Oh sorry, hindi kasi kita naalala. Sorry were not close."

I rolled my eyes, giving a joke about it. The truth is I'm hiding this feeling.
Then, he laughed once again. I drink my champaigne. Naalala ko na naman ang
nangyaring halikan namin kanina. It seems na nandirito parin ang lasa ng laway niya
sa lips ko. Shittt.. bakit ba mahal ko ang gagong yun?

"That's what I really like you. You're honest with your feelings. Your being frank
and I find it more amazing."

Mabuti ka pa, napapansin mo ang ang pagiging ako. Pero ang iba dyan, lage na lang
akong inii-snob. Kung ayaw niya sa akin eh di huwag. Humirintado ng utak ko. Ewan,
naiinis ako sa ideyang lage na lang siya ang panalo. Kanina binantaan na naman niya
akong sabihin kay Daddy ang totoo kung patuloy ako sa pagrerebelde.

Malungkot akong napatitig sa baso. Wala sa sariling tinunga ko na naman ang lahat
ng laman nito. Nakakaramdam na ako ng pagkahilo. Marahil natatamaan na ako ng alak.
This is my first time to drink like this. Noon, kapag may mga parties na
dinadaluhan patikim-tikim lang naman ako. Pero ngayon pakiramdam ko ang sarap
magpakalasing.

"Hey, baka malasing ka sa ginagawa mong yan. Where's your husband? Kasama mo ba?"

May pag-aalala nitong puna sa ginawa kong sunod-sunod na tunga ko sa baso.

Napalinga siya sa paligid. Wari hinahanap niya ang asawa ko.

"He's not here, Lucky."

Maiksi kong sagot saka uminom na naman. Gusto kong makalimutan sandali kahit ngayon
lang. Bukas, magbabago na naman ang lahat dahil babalik na naman ako sa dati. Dahil
effective na yung blackmail ng asawa ko sa akin. Magbuburo na naman ako sa bahay,
maghihintay sa pag-uwi niya. Lulutuan, pagsilbihan at kung anu-ano pa as his trophy
wife.

"What? He's not here? Sino ang kasama mo dito?"

Nagtataka nitong tanong habang tinititigan ang ginagawa ko. Nakatingin lang ako sa
hawak kong baso.

"Si Carla, nasa dancefloor nagsasayaw."

"May problema ka ba, Russ?"

Mablis akong umiling-iling. I dont want to share this kind of personal problems to
anyone else except to my bestfriends Cha and Carla.

"Okay, sabi mo yan."

He shrugged, not quite convinced while taking some glances anywhere. I continued
pouring wine to my glass. And drink it once again, umiikot na ang paningin ko. At
gusto kong maibsan yun kaya niyaya ko siyang sumayaw sa dancefloor.

"Are you kidding me, Russ? Your drunk. Besides, your claustrophobic. Bawal ka sa
narrow places. Masyadong crowded ang dancefloor."

He looked at me wearily, sa tonong hindi makapaniwalang tanong nito.

"No. Im not drunk. I just want to have fun."

Oh Gosh, my voice is getting slurred. And I dont know how to adjust of being
drunkeness. I pulled his arms and headed to dance floor. Pero napahinto ako nang
makaramdam ng pag-iikot ng paningin sa paligid. Muntikan na akong mabuwal pero I am
so desperate to do what I want. Kaya hinila ko ang kamay niya. I heard him
complaining those blah blah and my mind can't clearly comprehend all he said. The
sounds and voices of my surroundings torturing in my ears.

Hindi pa man ako nakakarating sa dancefllor ay sumusuko na ang mga paa kong
ihakbang ito. Nawalan ako ng balanse at bigla na lamang kong nabuwal. I close my
eyes and accept the greatest humiliation I'd ever get in my entire life. And then
suddenly my mind flash the headlines may seem to happen in a possible way.

Headlines news:

- Zea Chiongbian-Zamora, the wife one of heir in ZGC found dead in drunkeness
inside the bar.

That was metaphorically I could think about but it's beyond distinguish I might get
from the gossips of the people. But to my surprise, I landed on wonderful arms or I
must say the familiar thing I'd always dream on. Whoever he is, this saviour man
caught me in his arms is my knight in shining armour. Then I felt a sudden grip to
my waist and pressed my body to him. Well, obviously this is a guy with a great
powers to attracts woman included me kahit pa nakapikit ako at hindi ko siya
nakikita masasabi kong lalaki siyang may taglay na aura ni Poseidon or Zeus dahil
sa amoy at laki pa lang ng katawan nito halatang halata na.

"Shittt!"
Oh, sounds familiar. Isang matigas na boses ang nagsalita. Biglang tumahip ang
dibdib ko, hindi ako pwedeng magkamali. Kilalang kilala ko ito. He's my... my
husband.. I took a deep breath before I slowly open my eyes. My heart jump for joy
when I saw him.

He is!

Biglang nawala ang kalasingan ko nang makita siyang nakayakap sa akin ngayon.

I took the chance to observe our position. His arms encircled on my body like he's
afraid na agawin ako ng iba. It's in possesive that kind of way and his face and
eyes is raging forwardly to someone. I followed his gaze, and it landed to Lucky
who were looking at us intensely. His face is about to murder at nakipagsukatan
lang ito ng tingin sa asawa ko.

"Honey.. I wanna go home."

I murmured to his broad chest while closing my eyes. Gumawa na ako ng paraan bago
pa man may mangyaring hindi kanais-nais sa dalawa. Ayokong magkagulo. My husband is
really acting like he own me, which is true. Kaya lang kung totoo ba o sadyang
acting lang sa harapan ng maraming tao. Totoo man o hindi, ipokrita ako kung hindi
ko aaminin na nagustuhan ko ang pagiging possesive niya ngayon. I really love the
way he act like this, and I really really love this man.

Ini-angat ko ang ulo sa kanya, para maabot ko ang leeg niya which is napakasarap
amuyin ang kanyang men cologne, his after shave smell brings addiction to my nose.
And I perfectly love it.

"Honey.."

Mas nilambingan ko pa ang tawag kong endearment sa kanya para lubayan na niya ng
kakatingin ng masama kay Lucky. At effective naman dahil, agad itong yumuko para
tingnan ako, bigyan ng pansin o atensyon. I am smiling sweetly to him. He's facial
expression becomes soften, sumeryoso ito at tinitigan ang bawat parte ng mukha ko.
Alam kong namumungay na ang mga mata ko, at nanlalabo na ang paningin ko pero hindi
nakaligtas ang klase ng tingin na ipinupukol nito sa akin.

How I wish na lage siyang ganito sa akin. Yung titingnan ako na parang ako lang ang
babaeng nakikita niya sa paligid. Like this.

I close my eyes dahil feeling ko nasa alapaap ako sa mga oras na ito. I summoned
the feeling and hugged him back as tightly as I could.

"I love you, Nathaniel."

Bulong ko sa hangin. Marinig man niya o hindi basta sincere akong nagbitiw ng
salitang ganun sa kanya. Hindi dahil sa lasing ako at dala lang ng alak kundi mahal
ko talaga ang lalaking ito. Maya-maya nakaramdam ako ng mainit na bagay na dumapi
sa labi ko. He's kissing me. It was soft and gentle. Biglang kumulo ang tyan ko at
pakiramdam ko babaligtad na ang sikmura ko, I pushed him immediately and vommit all
I've eaten tonight.

"Fvck!"

And that was the last word I heard from him before the darkness takes place..

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Infidelity

(Kabanata 19)

--> The moment you realize that you were always the right person. Only ignorant
people walk away with greatness.

-Shanon L. Alder-

Zea POV

I wake up with the throbbing pain in my head.

Definitely hang-over.

I have to sleep more but my stomach keeps on growling. I couldn't sleep with such
a disturbing starves.

Dahan-dahan akong bumangon. I felt heavy at gusto ko pang matulog. I tried so hard
to open my eyes, but it seems so weak. I wiped it with my fingers.

Isang familiar na kwarto ang nakagisnan ko. Pero nakatitiyak akong hindi akin ito.
Sumikdo ang dibdib ko. Baka na-rape ako, dali-dali kong hinawakan ang private part
ko. Wala namang masakit. Pero bakit iba na ang sout ko ngayon?

I'm wearing this extra large t-shirt. At nakita ko na ito na sout ni... I sighed
kasabay ng pagpikit. This is my husband's shirt. Iginala ko ang paningin sa loob.
Malamang ito ang kwarto niya. Napaka-manly ang bawat interior designs and
arrangements ng mga kagamitan. At hindi mawawaglit ang karangyaan ng mga ito.

Tiningnan ko ulit ang sarili. Hmm.. Siya ang nagbihis sa akin. Nakita niya ang
katawan ko. Malamang! Stupid girl! Nakakahiya lang kasi wala naman ni isang
nakakakita sa katawan ko. Well, maliban sa kanya.

I still have undergarments on. May sout pa naman akong bra at panty. So binihisan
lang talaga niya ako.

What do you expect? Hello! Hindi ka type ng asawa mo! Sigaw ng utak ko.

I sighed again.

Tatayo na sana ako nang biglang may nagbukas ng pinto. Natigilan ako kung sino ang
iniluwal doon. May dala itong tray na naglalaman ng breakfast. May ham, bacon,
loaf bread and fried egg. There's a glass of milk and may gamot sa tabi ng isang
basong tubig.

Ako na ang nahiya sa ginagawa niya. Ako dapat ang magsilbi sa kanya ng ganito hindi
siya. Pero anyway, I have to enjoy this first.

"Eat, and you have to drink that tablet for your hangover. And we'all talk later."

Walang emosyon nitong sabi at di man lang nag-abalang sulyapan ako. Saka walang
babala itong lumabas ng kwarto.

As I've watch the food he served umalma na naman ang mga alaga ko sa loob ng tiyan.
Kaya insinantabi ko muna ang reklamo niya, I have to eat first before I'll face his
complain.

Ako na ang nagligpit ng mga pinagkainan ko, hinayaan ko muna siyang manood ng TV sa
sala. Naligo agad ako at saka siya hinarap.

Umupo ako sa tapat niya at nagbuklat ng magazine. He's seriously watching the
program. I don't know what's interesting about that channel pero sadyang focus
talaga ang mga mata niya sa TV.

"Anyway thank you sa food."

Basag ko sa katahimikan. He took a glance at my view at agad na itinuon ang mga

mata sa TV again.

Tumayo ako at tiningnan ang pinapanood niya. The baby bear, and the monkey playing
on the ground which is very unusual for me. Ano ba ang interesting sa pinapanood
niya?

Nagwalk out ako, wala akong planong maging puppet sa harapan niya sa buong oras
niyang kakapanood ng mga hayop on TV.

"Wait!"

He called, I turn my back on him. Pinatay niya ang TV sa pamamagitan ng remote

control saka umayos ng pagkakaupo sa sofa.

Nagbuga ako ng hangin at bumalik sa kinauupuan ko kanina. I crossed my arms and

look down. Lihim akong napaismid sa sitwasyon namin ngayon.

Alam kong nakatingin siya sa akin. At wala akong planong titigan din siya. I
crossed my legs with disgust. And I forward my eyes to him.

"So, titigan mo lang ako ng titigan. Wala ka bang sasabihin?"

Pagtataray ko, habang nakaangat ang isa kong kilay sa kanya. He narrowed his eyes
to me, then blow an air in a disgust manner.

"You are really a disappointment, Zea. I thought your a good girl, prim and proper
woman. But.."

He paused at naiiritang napahilamos ito sa mukha using his hands. I stiffend for a
while, nakatingin ako sa ibaba. I am a disappointment. Really am. Nagpakaburara ako
kagabi. At hindi katanggap tanggap yon bilang isang matinong babae.

"Your showing the other side of yourself which is so unacceptable. I don't know
what's real in you. I am really trying so hard not to judge you but nilalagay mo
ang sarili mo sa alanganin. Did I ever told you not to party with anyone else--

"It's Carla, not anyone else."

Agad kong putol sa mga paratang niya. Tiningnan ko siya sa mga mata, nanunuya itong
tumawa. Ang ngiting binibigay nito ay may halong sarcasm. Napailing iling siya in
disbelief.

"Carla? Who? That guy who were holding you when you're already drowning with
alcohol? I don't even see that gay helping you out!"

Naniningkit ang mga mata nito. Nagpipigil sa kanyang galit. I've got furious
suddenly.

"He's Lucky, my friend, and we didn't do anything wrong. Ano bang problema mo?"

"Ikaw ang problema ko Zea!"

Tumayo ito sabay turo sa mukha ko. Pakiramdam ko umurong ang mga kalamnan ko sa
galit. Bakit ba siya nakikialam? Eh pagkatapos ng tatlong buwan, hihiwalayan din
naman niya ako. Ini-enjoy ko lang ang mga time na magdudusa ako sa sakit sa huling
pagkakataon ng marriage na ito.

He's really mad. Napakagat labi ako. I felt nervous.

"I already told you not to flirt with anyone else as long as you're carrying my
name. I don't fvcking care with that guy! Huwag mo lang dumihan ang pangalan ko."

Naniningkit ang mga mata ko. He's accusing me those things na hindi ko nagagawa
kailanman. And who the hell he is para insultuhin ang buong pagkatao ko? Flirt na
ba ang tawag dun? As far as I know, nasa tamang huwisyo pa ako ng mga panahong yon.
At wala akong ginagawang masama.

I laughed sarcastically.

"What's wrong with you, Nathaniel? I did not flirt him, I just want to have fun and
enjoy with my friends. Ano bang masama dun?"

Naiiyak kong sumbat sa kanya. His mad expressions didn't change a bit. He gritted
his teeth and clenched his jaw.

"Really, Zea? Was that your way to have fun? Drunk and losing control. What if
someone would take an advantage to you? Would you care anyway? Why you just can't
wait for three months bago ka lumandi sa iba---"

Pak!

Hindi ko na kinaya ang sarili na marinig ang lahat ng mga pang-iinsulto niya at
agad ko na siyang sinampal ng ubod ng lakas.

Nabigla ako sa ginawa ko, I stiffened after that huge slap. His eyes becomes
furious. He clenched his jaw again habang dahan dahang ibinaling ang mukha niya sa
harapan ko.

Pilit kong tinitibayan ang loob. I blink my eyes, dahil nanunubig na ang mga mata
ko.

"You don't have the right to insult me, Jamie. Oo, pinikot kita pero hindi mo ako
kilala para husgahan ng mga bagay na hindi ko ginagawa. Wala kang alam. You were
the one who put some rules with this three months marriage as you've said. If
you're mad that I'm having fun with my friends, then fine! I don't care. You're so
unfair!"

I blurted out then try to calm myself.

"Do what you want and I'll do mine. Just please stay away from me."

I continued sabay tingin ng deretso sa mga mata niya.

Nanginginig na ang boses ko. Anytime soon, pakiramdam ko bibigay na ako sa harapan
niya. But l can't let that happen. No, I must be strong. Ayokong maging kaawa-awa
sa harapan niya.

"Is that really what you want, Zea? Okay fine."

He laughed with full of sarcasm. His arrogance gestures defines more to his
personality. Then he looked at me again with the most disturbing eyes I've seen.

"I can't never love you nor like you either. Because you're a careless woman. And
most of all, you're a desperate. Those qualities of yours makes no sense to me at
hinding hindi ko magugustuhan kailanman. I can't even believe that I'm marrying the
desperada. From now on, you won't see me like this. Anong gusto mo, Zea? Mambabae
ako? Then fine, I'll give you what you want."

With those words, he stormed himself outside immediately without taking glance at
me. Padabog na isinara nito ang pinto, halos matanggal na ito sa lakas ng impact
nito. Bahagya akong nagulat dun. Wala sa sariling nakatitig ako sa pintong
nilabasan nito.

Napanganga lang ako sa lahat ng sinabi niya. Naiwan akong luhaan at dinamdam ang
mga masasakit na salitang binitiwan nito. Hindi ko rin naman siya maintindihan.
Ginagawa ko lang naman ang mga bagay na yun dahil gusto kong bigyan niya ako ng
pansin. I am being desperate and wanting his attention.

***

Just like the old times, he always go home late. Lage pang nakainum. Kahit nasa
kwarto ako, nararamdaman ko ang pag-uwi niya kahit madaling araw pa.

Kung dati ay kumakain siya tuwing umaalis, ngayon ay bumabalik na naman sa

nakagawian. Nabubulok na lang ang mga pagkaing inihahanda ko. Useless lang ang
lahat ng efforts ko. Sa dami ng taong nagugutom ngayon dapat hindi nag-aaksaya.
Bukas kung ayaw niyang kumain, ibibigay ko sa mga street children ang lahat ng mga
niluto. Bahala siya sa buhay niya.

Napasulyap ako sa wall clock. Its almost midnight pero ni anino niya wala parin.
Bumangon ako at tumungo sa kusina para uminom ng tubig.

Nakasout ako ng roba. Nanlalamig ako sa panahon ngayon. Papasok na sana ako sa
kwarto nang may maulinigan kong boses sa labas ng pinto. Boses babae at tila
naghaharutan pa dahil sa maharot nitong pagtawa. Pero wala naman akong maririnig na
may iba pang boses maliban sa kanya.

To feed my curiousity, pinihit ko ang door knob at dahan-dahan kong binuksan ito.
Nanlaki ang mga mata ko sa nakita.

I didn't expect it.

Him and that bitchy woman who were laughing habang nakapulupot ang mga kamay nito
sa leeg ng asawa ko. At may kung anong ibinubulong naman si Jamie sa teynga na ang
ikinasaya ng babae.

I am freaking so hurt. Parang tinaga ang puso ko ng paulit-ulit sa nakita. He

cheated on me. Gusto kong hablutin ang babae at tadyak tadyakan ito hanggang sa
maglupasay.

She's beautiful. Red lips, reddish hair, at namuti ang mukha nito marahil sa
foundation. Pero tantiya ko, maganda naman siya kahit walang make up. She looks
familiar and sopistikadang maharot.
Bwesit!

Nasulyapan ako nitong nakatingin sa kanila. Biglang nawala ang ngiti nito sa labi.
At tinutukan akong may halong pagtataka, hindi ko maipaliwanag ang klase ng tingin
niya pero umaalsa talaga ang dugo ko. Tinaasan ko siya ng kilay.

Lumingon ang cheater kong asawa at sumilay sa labi ang mapanuyang ngiti nito.
Nanghahamon,o mas tamang sabihin na nagmamataas siya at wari pinapasuya ako.

Pinilit kong maging blangko. Bumitiw ang babae sa pagkakayakap sa kanya.

"Who is she, Jim?"

Mahina nitong tanong na nakatitig parin sa akin. Gusto ko siyang sabunutan at

palayasin sila sa harapan ko.

"My wife."

Sagot agad nito not even breaking his eye to eye contact to me.

"What!"

Halatang nagulat ang babae at nagpalipat lipat ang mga tingin nito sa aming dalawa.
Pinipilit kong maging matatag. Nakipagsukatan ako ng tingin sa kanya.

Then I surrender, I averted my eyes somewhere. I sighed heavily. This man is really
hurting me. Pero nakapagbitiw na siya ng salita na mambabae siya. So ito na yun,
hindi ko lang aakalain na masasaksihan ko ngayong araw. Sa ganitong pagkakataon pa.
Ang sakit pala kapag niloloko ka na tapos tinatanggalan pa ng karapatan. This is
purely torturing me.

"Kung gusto nyong maglampungan, please not here. Nasusuka ako. Marami namang hotel.
Why just the two of you leave now, for sure kating kati na kayong gawin ang
kababuyan nyo."

I scoffed. I crossed my arms and raised my eyebrows. Halatang nagulat ang babae at
nagsalubong ang kilay nito. Halata sa mukha ang pagkadisgusto sa sinabi ko.

He groaned in frustration.

"This is Jamie's home. I think we can stay here.---"

"Correction. Our home my dear. Not just Jamie. Remember I'm her wife."

I gave emphasize the word 'wife'. Para maintindihan nito. Hinagod ko siya ng tingin
mula ulo hanggang paa. Halatang mayaman. Pero kumakalantari pa sa may asawa.

Tumawa siya ng mapakla. Yung tawang nang-iinsulto. Parang sasabog na ako sa poot at
selos. Pigil na pigil ako sa sarili. Ayokong magmukhang kawawa.

"Yeah you're his wife. But he's with me. Imagine? It only means na wala kang
kwentang asawa!"

She shouted. At umakyat na ang dugo ko sa ulo. Ang sakit masampal ng katotohanan.
Pero nanatiling blangko ang mukha ko. Napakurap ako para mawala ang namumuong luha
sa mga mata.

"Enough Charm!"
Hindi nakatiis itong pumagitna sa away namin ng babae niya.

Mas tinatagan ko pa ang sarili. Hindi dapat ako nagpapatalo. Ako ang nasa lugar.

"The hell I care, bitch. Kung gusto mo sayong sayo na ang asawa ko. I don't care.
Ayoko lang na dito pa kayo gagawa ng kababuyan. Now leave the two of you bago ko pa
makalimutang may tao dito."

Pagbabanta ko. Napasulyap ako sa kanya at kitang kita ko ang paniningkit sa mga
mata nito. Nawala ang pang-uuyam na ngiti nito kanina. Napalitan ng poot at galit.
He clenched his jaw and gritted his teeth. Marahil hindi niya sukat akalain na
ipamimigay ko lang siya kahit kanino.

I held my chin up. I don't have a bone to pick with them, kung siya mismo ang
sisira sa kanyang mga rules then fine. Tutal, after three months magkakaron din
naman ng annulment.

I smiled triumphantly to a clingy woman he brought, which is giving me a deathly

glare. Kapal ng mukha niya, siya pa itong kumakabit tapos kung makatingin sa akin
akala mo pag-aari ang asawa ko.

"Your pity. Nakikisawsaw ka sa isang bagay na pag-aari na ng iba. Pero anyway,

bagay na bagay naman sayo ang mang-agaw."

Then I smiled, sabay hagod ng tingin sa kabuuan niya. Nangmamaliit ang klase ng
tingin na pinupukol ko sa kanya.

"Bagay na bagay sayo, look at yourself... Your cheap."

I continued.

"Walang hiya ka!--"

Susugod na sana siya nang biglang hablutin ng asawa ko para awatin. Hindi ko
mapigilang matawa sa naging reaction niya. Talaga nga namang cheap siya. Ano pa nga
ba? I think shes more than that. A cheap, prosti, b*tch, whoree!

Nang kumalma na ito ay galit itong nakatingin sa akin. Taas noo parin akong
nakaharap sa kanya.

"Goodnight Husband!

I only said before I closed the door with all my force. Parang masisira na ito sa
lakas ng pagkasara ko. I double lock it para hindi niya mabuksan sa kanyang
duplicate key.

Then I silently breakdown, habang nakasandal sa pinto. My knees is shaking in

despair. Hinang hina akong napaupo sa sahig habang umiiyak. Napahagulhol ako sa
dalawa kong palad.

The pain is strikingly deep into my soul. Ang sakit sakit. Ilang beses akong
nagmura sa sarili.

Shiiiittt!!!

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Rebelious

(Kabanata 20)

--->> I suppose I have found it easier to identify with the characters who very
upon hysteria, who were frightened of life, who were desperate to reach out to
another person. But these seemingly fragile people, are the strong people really.

-Tennessee Williams-

Zea POV

As I held the door to his room, nakaramdam ako ng kaba. May giwang kasi, bahagyang
bukas ito. Dala ng matinding kuryusidad, I open it slowly.

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko sa nakita. Huminto ang ikot ng mundo ko habang nakatingin
sa kanilang dalawa. Kapwa sila hubad na magakayakap sa bed at tanging kumot lang
ang nakatakip sa kanilang kahubaran. They're moaning each other while doing their
session.

Dito!?

Dito pa sila gumagawa ng kanilang kababuyan? Nanginig ang buo kong katawan, at
halos hindi na ako makahinga sa paninikip ng dibdib.

Mahigpit akong nakahawak sa doorknob. Pakiramdam ko sasabog na ako sa subrang sakit

na nararamdaman.

Nag-uunahan ang mga luha ko na dumadaloy sa pisngi. Dahan-dahan akong umatras at

pabalang na isinara ang pinto. Tumakbo ako palabas ng condo at wala sa sariling
umiiyak ako habang lakad-takbo sa tabi ng daan.

Patuloy paring pabalik balik sa utak ko ang pagflashback sa nakita kong eksena
kanina.

My husband's was kissing that woman on her neck. Nakapikit pa ang kanyang babae at
wari sarap na sarap ito sa mga halik ng aking asawa. At siya din yung babaeng
dinala nito nakaraang araw. Yung cheap na ininsulto ko. No wonder, sa gwapo ng
asawa ko, mayaman pa hindi talaga maiiwasang may kumakapit. He's a good catch at
natural lang na maraming nagkakandarapa. But he's a cheater.

**

Nawalan na ako ng deriksyon at hindi ko na alam kung saan ako papunta. Basta't ang
alam ko, umiiyak ako habang naglalakad. Napapatingin ang bawat nakakasalubong ko,
nagtataka sa itsura ko ngayon. Napapalingon ang ibang taong nadadaanan ko.

Wala na akong pakialam sa sasabihin ng iba. Wala na akong pakialam pa. Ang gusto ko
lang gawin ngayon ay ang umiyak ng umiyak hanggat sa wala na akong luhang
maiilalabas pa.

May nakita akong mga taong kinukuhaan ako ng pictures using their phones and
gadgets. Hindi ko na inabala ang sariling sitahin sila.
I don't fvcking care!

I heard a very loud noise na bosena ng sasakyan. Patuloy ako sa paglalakad ng

bangketa at hindi ko pinansin ang ingay na yon. Pero sadyang ako nga talaga siguro
ang sinusundan kaya huminto ako.

Marahas akong nagpunas ng luha sabay tingin sa Ferrari na huminto sa tapat ko.
Tainted and windshield nito kaya hindi ko makita ang nasa loob.

Bumukas ang salamin ng bintana at kilalang kilala ko ang lalaking sumilip dito.

"Hey, Russ. I'll drive you anywhere. Please sumakay kana.."

He pleaded. He sounds serious. Napalingon ako sa palibot. At hindi ko na alam kung

saang street na ako naroon. Madilim na ang gabi. Pwede akong mapahamak dito kaya
kahit medyo alanganin, sumakay ako sa kotse at hinayaan ko na kung saan niya man
ako dadalhin.

After all he's a good friend of mine.

Walang imik. I'm sniffing slowly. Patuloy lang ako sa pagpahid ng luha.

"Here."

He handed me a wipe tissue. Napasulyap ako sa gawi niya at seryoso lang itong
nagdadrive. Marahil nase-sense niyang problematic ako.

"Salamat."

Malamig kong tugon. Tinanggap ko ang tissue at kumuha ako dun para magpahid ng
luha.

Narinig ko ang mabigat niyang pagbuga ng hangin. I shook my head. Ang masayahin at
palabiro niyang aura noon na palagi kong nakikita ay napalitan ng puno ng
kaseryusohan. Nakakapanibago.

"Saan mo gustong pumunta?"

He asked nang mapansin niyang nahimasmasan na ako. Saglit ko siyang sinulyapan, he

caught my eyes at mabiliis kong iniwas ang tingin. Hindi ko kayang tingnan ang mga
nagtatanong niyang mga mata.

"I don't know, Luck."

Mahina kong sagot. He sighed, and then concentrate on driving again.

Silence.

We stop at the Arena Arcade. Ito yung place na may mga naglalakihang kainan. This
is not looks cozy. Kahit mga ordinaryong tao ay nagagawi dito.

We end up sa isang simple at malinis na kainan. I'm just wondering why he brought
me here na kung tutuusin ay mayaman din naman siya.

"Nanay Pacita, dalawang batchoy ho. Yung bulalo. Pakiserve na rin po ng meatballs."

It seems that kilala na niya ang mga tao dito. Ngumiti ang matanda sa kanya sabay
sulyap sa akin.

"Hmm.. May dinala kana dito. Ibig sabihin ba niyan, magseseryuso kana?"

Makahulugan itong ngumiti sa amin. Hindi ko maiwasang mahiya. May asawa na ako at
hindi yata tamang mapagkamalan akong girlfriend ni Lucky or kung ano man ang
iniisip ng matanda.

He took a glance at my view then looked the old woman.

"Hindi po. She's a good friend of mine. Nanay naman. Siya po si Zea, kaibigan ko.
May asawa na po siya kung yon ang iniisip nyo."

Magalang nitong paliwanag sa kanyang Nanay Pacita.

"Ahh.. Ganun ba. Sayang.."

Panghihinayang nito. Malapit lang kasi kami sa counter kaya malaya itong nakakausap
si Lucky. I bet close talaga sila. Mas lalo lamang akong humanga sa kanya. He's not
only may sense of humor kundi isa din siyang magalang na lalaki.

"It seems that you know this place and the people for a very long time."

Hindi ko maiwasang punahin siya.

Naghihintay kami sa ini-order niya. Yung batchoy siguro is a Japanese foods. Kasi
I've heard it before. I don't know if nakakain na ako ng ganun. Hindi naman kasi
ako mahilig sa mga raw foods gaya ng kinakain ng Chinese at Japanese.

Ngumiti ito sa sinabi ko at umayos ng upo sa kanyang kinauupuan.

"There's more than that. Nanay Pacita is my one and only nanny. Simula nung
ipinanganak ako ni Mom, nasa bahay na yan siya. I've grew up with her kasi busy
naman talaga sila Mom and Dad sa family business. Kaya ayon, para ko na siyang
ina."

Nakangiti niyang paliwanag. Napatango tango lang ako. Kaya pala masyado silang at
home sa isa't isa kapag nag-uusap.

"Oh ito na yung batchoy at meat balls nyo."

I was expecting a raw foods pero para din palang lomi ang batchoy. Oh.. Sinubukan
kong tikman ang sabaw. At nanunuyo sa lalamunan ko ang sarap ng lasa nito.

"You know, kapag may problema ka. Masarap na pagkain lang ang katapat diyan."

Napangiti ako sa sinabi niya. I felt relief. Naibsan yong bigat sa dibdib ko. At
least may natitira pang totoong kaibigan na dumadamay sa akin ngayon. Well, not
bad. I made a good choice na sumama sa kanya tonight.

Sarap na sarap ako sa bulalo. Pati na yong meatballs. Hindi ko inaasahang ganito
sila magluto dito. Subrang sarap at saka mura pa. Not cozy pero tiyak na ma-
satisfied ka sa mga kinain mo.

Habang kumakain kami ay panay ang kwento ni Lucky sa akin. Five years ago nagresign
ang pinakamamahal niyang yaya. Tutal graduate na siya ng college noon. Kaya wala ng
dapat aasikasuhin pa sa kanya. He's dependent to his yaya kaya pala may pagka-
childish siya kung minsan.
At nung nagresign ito, binigyan niya ng malaking puhunan para sa negosyong ito. May
dalawang branch na daw ito sa Pasay at Marikina.

I discovered also na he has a good heart. Napakabait niya sa kanyang yaya. He's
really helpful and so lovable.

Kung hindi ko minamahal si Jamie simula pa noon may posibilidad kayang mahulog ang
loob ko sa kanya?

Pwede. Maaaring hindi. Pero lahat naman ng tao sa mundo may kanya-kanyang soulmate.
I'm not for him. Sigurado ako dun. I haven't feel something for him. Walang sparks.

Sa asawa ko? Siya na kaya ang soulmate ko? Yung makakasama ko hanggang sa pagtanda.
Yung partner ko for life. Sana nga..

Malabo. Its been one month and half na kaming magkasama. May natitira pang kalahati
para magtiis sa lahat ng pambabae niya at maging manhid sa pagbibigay niya ng cold
treatment.

Pagkatapos naming kumain at nagpasya kaming maglakad lakad muna sa baywalk. I feel
lighted somehow.

"I know I don't have the right to ask you anything personal. Pero as a friend hindi
ko maiwasang mag-alala."

He sighed at seryosong tiningnan ako. Yon bang sinusuri ang kailaliman ng aking
puso. I looked away to hide the sadness in my eyes.

"Nakagagaan ng loob kapag inilalabas mo ang tunay mong nararamdaman. May problema
ka ba?"

He snap again. Sumulyap ako sa gawi niya. I stop walking, and I look to the
beautiful dark sea. Tanging nag-iibat-ibang kulay ng mga ilaw ang kumikislap sa
paligid.

Nagbuga ako ng hangin. Lumilipad ang utak ko kahit saang lupalop. My personal
issues ay mananatiling pribado yon.

"Okay lang kung hindi mo kayang sabihin. I just want to remind you, that I'm always
her if you need someone to rely on. I can be your shoulder to cry on."

I smiled bitterly. Namumuo na naman ang luha sa aking mga mata. Nakatitig ako sa
kawalan.

"Thank you, Lucky. You really one of best friends. Pagpasensyahan mo na lang ang
ka-OA-han ko. Hindi ko pa masabi sa ngayon kung ano ang problema ko. I hope you
understand. I really appreciated your efforts to accompany me. Salamat."

I looked up to him and I smiled sincerely. Nakatitig siya sa akin and I felt
something deep on it pero pilit kong iwinawaksi sa isipan na huwag bigyan ng ibang
kahulugan ito.

"Well. You're very much welcome to me, Russ. Basta ikaw."

Her gave me that warm smile. Tipid akong ngumiti sa kanya. I looked at the waves of
the water. Gumaan na ang pakiramdam ko.

***
Jamie POV

"She loves you, Jamie. And I'm also hurting seeing her like that. Babae din ako."

Patuloy na pag-esplika ni Charmaigne sa akin. We made the deal. She's my best buddy
during college days. She's a woman with a strong personality. Umuwi siya sa
Pilipinas dahil gusto niya bigyan ng time ang Lola niyang may sakit.

I sighed. At nababagot na tiningnan siya. She throw the comforter that wraps on her
body. Tumambad ang sout niyang fitted tube-like dress. Inayos niya ang kanyang
damit na nakaharap sa malaking salamin.

"She's desperate, Charm. Even though she has the soft spot in my heart I still
can't tolerate her bad habits."

Naiirita kong rason. She's convincing me to talk to her and clear our marriage if
its working or not. Then, confess each others feelings. I think that's a little bit
absurd. Natatapakan ang ego ko. Hindi ko rin naman kasalanan ang nangyayaring ito.
She started it. Ipinagpatuloy ko lang .. Pero mas lalo lang yata akong nasasaktan
sa ginagawa ko.

Nilingon niya ako at namewang sa harapan ko.

"Anong bad habits ba yang sinasabi mo? Like She's on drugs? Alcoholic? Sex maniac?
Para magreact ka ng ganyan. Hello, Jamie pakiramdam ko kaya siya nagrerebelde dahil
gusto niyang makuha ang atensyon mo. Hindi mo parin ba nagegets?"

Nanlalaki pa ang mga matang paliwanag nito. I close my eyes in a disgust manner.
Naiirita akong nagsuklay sa buhok with my fingers. I hate thinking about that but I
think I made the wrong move.

"You know, Charm. I dont get her. First, pinikot niya ako sa di malamang dahilan,
where in fact she already knows that her elder sister is my fiancé. And lastly, she
change a lot. I mean a LOT, Charm."

I hissed. Saka tumayo at nagbihis ng tshirt.

"Yan ang mali sayo eh. Kasi masyado kang judgmental. Eh nasaan na yung magaling
mong ex fiance? Diba, hindi na nagpakita? Ni hindi ka niya kinumpronta. Ni anino
niya hindi mo mahagilap. Come to think of it, even her family hide her, Jamie. Did
Zea explain it to you where and how she'd gone? Hindi diba? Dahil may something na
nangyayaring hindi mo alam. Your jumping to much conclusions dear--"

"Of course they wouldn't tell me because Zea made a scene! I don't know pero isa
talaga siyang desperada."

I cut her off. At naiirita kong siyang sinulyapan.

Ayoko na marinig ang iba pa niyang mga sasabihin. Mas lalo lamang akong nalilito.
At pakiramdam ko bumabaligtad na si Charm sa plano naming pagselosin ang asawa ko.
A woman instincts really driving me insane.

She never talked again. Then I heard she sighed.

"Your my friend, Jamie. I think we should stop this nonsense. Seeing her kanina na
umiiyak habang nakikita niya tayong kunwaring naglalampungan is too painful for me.
Nakakakunsensya Jamie. I've been there. My fiancé cheated on me. At mahirap
makapagmove on. You know.. Just like her. Kung ayaw mo na sa kanya, pakawalan mo na
lang siya kaysa pahirapan mo pa tapos in the end ganun din ang mangyayari."
Pahabol niya sa akin nang aakmang lalabalas na ako ng silid. I stop for a while at
nakukunsensya ako sa ginawa namin kanina. Sinadya talaga naming magpahuli kunwari
at ipakita ang ganung eksaena. We suddenly stop when we heard the loud bang of the
door. She must really hurt now.

"Well, maganda naman si Zea. Maraming magkakagusto sa kanya. Maiisip niyang hindi
ka naman kawalan sa kanya. Maybe at this hour, may kasama na siyang iba at kinu-
comfort na siya."

Galit akong napalingon sa sinabi niya. I glared at her. She shrugged at tila
kalmado lang itong nagsusuklay ng kanyang buhok.

"Ikaw din baka magsisi ka sa huli."

She added half smirking half teasing me. I gritted my teeth and stormed myself
walking out the door.

I have to find her.

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Loving The Monster

(Kabanata 21)

--->> Hope is the power of being cheerful in circumstances that we know to be

desperate.

- G. K. Chesterton-

**

Zea POV

"Where have you been?"

Isang mabagsik at nagpipigil sa galit nitong tanong nang madatnan ko siya ngayong
tanghali.

Sinadya kong late ng umuwi para hindi kami magkita at nagtataka akong naabutan ko
pa siya ng ganitong oras. Sa apartment ni Carla ako natulog kagabi. Pagkatapos
naming mag-usap ni Lucky ay doon ako nagpahatid kay Carla. Ayoko ko kasing makita
ang pagmumukha niya.

I rolled my eyes. Kelan pa siya nakialam? Tuloy-tuloy lang ako papuntang kwarto at
hindi siya pinansin.

Bigla niyang hinablot ang braso ko at mahigpit na hinawakan ito. Namamaga pa ang
mga mata ko at puyat pa kagabi, wala na ako sa tamang huwisyo. Sinalubong ko ang
nag-aalab niyang mga mata. Tinitigan niya ako at may kung anong pag-aalalang
gumuhit sa mga mata nito. Pero agad din nitong iniiwas at tumingin sa ibang
deriksyon.

"Since when do you care, my dear husband?"

I mocked at mapait na ngumiti. Binitiwan niya ang braso ko at may kinuha sa maliit
na table na isang newspaper at pabagsak nitong inilagay sa kamay ko.

"Take a look at this."

Saglit akong natigilan at binasa ang front page. Nagulat ako na isang maling balita
ang naglalaman ng dyaryong yon. There's a pictures of me crying walking in the
street, drinking with my friends in a bar. And then what makes me shock is the news
that I've had a boylet, na may kabit ako at niloloko ko daw ang isang mayaman kong
asawa. The pictures that Lucky and I, walking on the baywalk last night. We were
caught by those paparazzis. And delivered it to Manila bulletin news.

"Explain it to me, Zea. How the news ads got that photos? Ganyan ka na ba kababa
ngayon, huh? Was it true?"

Gumagalaw ang bawat kalamnan nito habang nagsasalita. Itinapon ko ang newspaper sa
harapan niya. The hell I care with that freaking news!

"True or not. I have nothing to explain it to you, Nathaniel. Isipin nyo na kung
ano ang gusto nyong isipin. Wala na akong pakialam."

Pagkatapos kong sabihin ang bagay na yon ay agad ns akong tumalikod. Ang kapal ng
mukha niya pagkatapos niya akong saktan, umaasta pa siyang galit ngayon at
paratangan ako ng mga bagay na hindi ko ginawa.

"So wala kang pakialam kahit masira ang pangalan ng pamilya mo? Most of all the
political career of your Dad. Is that so?"

Natigilan ako sa sinabi niya. I almost forgot that I'm the daughter of running
senatorial Edward Chiongbian. I close my eyes tightly at frustrated akong nagwalk
out.

I took my phone dahil naiwan ko ito sa kwarto kagabi. I have hundred plus of missed
calls and thirty messages.

Tiningnan ko ang mga ito isa-isa.

30 missed calls from Dad.

43 from Mom,

And lastly Jamie, 68 missed calls.

I'm just wondering why he called me. I sighed. Tinawagan ko si Mommy. Ayokong pati
sila at madadamay sa pangyayari. Next week na yata ang botohan at ayokong
maapektuhan ang career ni Dad.

Galit na galit si Dad na sininghalan ako. Sinabi ko sa kanila ang totoo. Na

magkaibigan talaga kami ni Lucky. I never told them what's the real score between
us with my husband. Basta I cleared to them na wala akong ginagawang masama. Those
parties that I've been is a normal for socializing with my friends.

Gagawa daw sila ng paraan na magbigay pahayag si Lucky to defend the chismiss na
kumakalat sa news. Besides, the family Manzania don't want to involve the issue
too. May family business din silang inaalagaan.

Maayos din ang lahat. As Dad promised, with just a snap of his fingers mawawala ang
issue at lalabas ang katotohanan.

***

Desperada.

Wala akong pakialam kung yon ang tawag niya sa akin. As long as hindi ko naman
dinudumihan ang pagkatao ko. At ang pangalan niya bilang Zamora.

I did a lot of partying together with Carla. And those so-called friends (elite
celebrieties) that I've just met during this times. I've always been into sobber
but not drunk. I have to manage myself. And I don't wanna go home as midnight as he
is. I always have curfew hours. Not early but not that too much late like he always
did to me. I'm avoiding those gossips and I make sure na lageng nasa lugar lang ang
paggala ko. Gusto ko meron paring natitirang desiplina sa sarili. It seems that I'm
on a stage of teenagers affairs. Hindi ko rin naman kasi naranasan ang maging
ganito kalaya sa mga ginagawa like having good time with my friends noong kabataan
ko pa. Dad will always have his worries noon. Kaya kadalasan tumatakas si ate para
lang makapagliwaliw. Because I'm a good girl, obedient daughter to my parents lage
lang akong nasa bahay.

I'm aloof with people dahil tahimik ako. Natatakot karamihan ang mga suitors ko
dahil feeling nila freak akong babae. And I never want the world like ate's
circles, her friends and best companions with a booty and liberated acts is one my
hates. Pero now, I realize that life is not just always like being good. I mean,
yung mag-aral, magtrabaho sa offices, facing the daily routines. Then met your
meant to be, dating and throwing those puppy eyes look while having on their tag
lines 'I love you' and 'I miss you' or whatsoever those endearments, blah blah..
And then got engaged, after a long preparations, kasal na. And happy ever after. I
thought ganun lang kasimple ang buhay. But it never was.

Like us, I haven't feel those kilig moments, HHWW or holding hands while walking
with my husband. Not even once. Instead of feeling bitter, why not having time with
my friends. Laugh, mingle and bond with them is the best way to forget those pain
and regrets.

The crappy things about was, after you drunk and lose yourself on the dancefloor
with those damn errotic music on the background, and you've got to be alone after
awhile. Facing the reality, drawn yourself in frustration and it never replace the
hurt you've been through.

Hangover lang din ang magiging kalabasan ng lahat. Problema parin. I felt so alone.
Even Carla, didn't know how to handle me sometimes. I've always cried with the
bottle of champagne and keeps on shouting why I'm hurting like this and thrown
those regrets in the air.

I'm fvcking crazy. So crazy.

I hug myself alone.

"Zea, halika na. Ihahatid na kita."

Naiiyak na pakiusap ni Carla sa akin. Kanina pa ako nakaupo dito sa gilid ng pinto
ng kanyang apartment. Nakaupo ako sa sahig..at yakap yakap ang sarili. I'm crying
helplessly.

"Carla, its not me. Hindi ko na kilala ang sarili ko. I'm devastated. I'm losing
myself. Please.. I don't know what to do anymore."

I begged while crying in my palm. Hindi pa naman ako lasing. Pero narealize ko na
walang papupuntahan ang pagrerebelde ko dahil wala parin siyang pakialam.

He don't even watched me as he'd go during his works. Andami ko ng efforts na

nagagawa para sa kanya but still he don't like me.

"Zea, ikaw lang din ang makaktulong sa sarili mo. Bumangon ka. Ipakita mo sa
kanyang nagkamali siya ng taong sinasaktan. Kaya mo yan, please.."

Wala sa sariling tumango-tango ako habang umiiyak. Naaawa na ako sa sarili ko.
Hindi dapat ako ganito. Hindi dapat. Niyakap niya ako ng mahigpit at inaalo.

I'm still loving the monster!

Shet lang talaga! And I wanna start a new with myself. Yong totoong ako. And then,
let go. Tama si Carla. Walang ibang makakatulong sa akin kundi ang sarili lamang.

Useless lang din ang lahat ng ito. Susubukan kong ibalik ang dating ako.

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Right Back in The Water

(Kabanata 22)

And I try to walk away but I keep telling myself

She's the one for me
'Cause her love is so contagious
It keeps pulling me in
We were meant to be
And I can't leave her
So we're right back in the water

- Jesse Macartney -

***

Zea POV

I go home late at night. Pagkatapos kong mahimasmasan sa apartment ni Carla ay

nagpasya akong umuwi na.

Wala sa sariling naglalakad ako papasok sa loob ng condo. Nagulat ako nang maabutan
ko siyang nakaupo sa sofa. Nanonood ng sci-fi movie or whatever that is.

"Your late."

Malamig nitong tugon. I paused. And then I slowly turn my head on him. Blangko lang
ang ekspresyon ng mukha ko.

Dim light sa loob. Nakapatay yung mga maliliwanag na ilaw. He stood up and then
lumapit sa gilid ko. He crossed his arms.

I shook my head at marahang itinapon ang hawak na bag sa sofa.

"Your drunk. Kelan ka pa natutong uminom, Zea? You change a LOT. Malayong malayo ka
sa Zea na nakilala ko noon."

It strip into my heart deeply. Bakit ba ang sakit tuwing nagsasalita siya sa akin
ng ganito? Ibang iba na ako. Hindi na ako yong kawawa at malambot na Zea noon. But
still, I am. Its just physical change. Wala namang nagbago. Mahina parin ako.

Hindi nakaligtas ang pagpatak ng luha ko. Marahas kong pinahid yon at hinupa ko ang
sarili.

"Zea .. "

He sighed. Frustrated itong nagsuklay sa kanyang buhok with his fingers. Ito ang
lage niyang gestures kapag naiinis o naiirita sa akin.

Hinarap ko siya.

"Don't make it hard for us, bakit ka ba nagkakaganyan? Kung ayaw mong magtino, then
fine! Just tell me, why did you do that? Bakit ka nagpanggap na ni-rape kita sa
kwarto mo? And about your sister? What happened to her? Hanggang ngayon palaisipan
parin sa akin ang lahat. Just tell me."

Galit nitong mga tanong sa akin. Sunod-sunod ang mga luhang dumadaloy sa pisngi ko.
He's missing with my sister. He still love her.

"Hindi pa ba malinaw sayo ang lahat kung bakit ko ginagawa ito?"

I threw back. Then he stop and looking through my eyes, confused drawn on his face.

I wiped my tears again. Yumuko ako at humugot ng lakas.

"I love you, Jamie. "

Sa wakas nasabi ko ang mga katagang yun. Tumingin ako sa malayo at nagpunas na
naman ng luha. Umiiyak na ako ng tuluyan. Naalala ko na naman yung nambabae siya.
Ang sakit sakit.

Huminga ako ng malalim at tiningnan siya sa mga mata.

He's shocked.

Silence.

Napalitan ng kakaibang simpatya ang paninigas ng panga nito. Umiiyak na ako sa

harapan niya.

"Bakit Jamie, kung sinabi ko ba sayo umpisa pa lang magbabago ba ang lahat?"

Then I compose my postures. I looked away and then take some air to breath.

"Gusto mo malaman kung bakit wala si ate? She didn't love you, Jamie. And I guess I
don't have the right to tell you everything about that."

Nagpadyak ako ng paa, habang nagpupunas ng luha. He stiffened. Marahil hindi niya
aakalaing magsasalita ako sa totoong nararamdaman.

Tiningnan ko siya sa mga mata.

"Pero mahal kita eh. Mahal na mahal. Hindi naman ako umasang mamahalin mo rin ako.
Pero masakit lang talaga ang ginagawa mo eh. Sabagay, ginusto ko rin naman ito.
But.."

Yumuko ako at umiiyak na naman. Naiirita akong nagpunas ng luha. Pati sipon ko
tumutulo na. I know I don't have the right na sumbatan siya pero ang sakit na sakit
na kasi. Naipon na ang lahat ng hinanakit ko sa dibdib.

"Ang hirap.. Wala akong karapatan sayo. Wala din akong karapatang sumbatan ka.
Nakakapagod din palang magmahal."

I sighed. His face becomes soften. Nawawalan na siya ng salita. Hindi ko alam kung
ano ang iniisip niya. Pero nakikita ko ang pagbabago ng kanyang facial expression.

"Hindi naman ako pwedeng makialam. And I realize that you're not really for me,
Jamie. I'm sorry dahil pinikot kita. Don't worry, one and half months na lang gaya
ng sabi mo maghihiwalay na tayo. Pewede mo namang iwanan mo na lang ako ngayon din.
Tutal ganun din naman ang pupuntahan ang lahat ng ito."

Pinilit kong maging matatag sa harapan niya but it failed mesirably. Napaiyak ako
ng malakas.

"Zea, I'm sorry--"

"No! Huwag kang lalapit!"

Sigaw ko nang aakmang hahawakan niya ako. Umatras ako at napailing-iling habang
umiiyak.

"Ano? Masaya ka na?! Oo, desperada ako, Nathaniel! Pero its all because of you!
Mahal kitang Gago ka! Pero wala kang kwentang lalaki!"

I breakdown. He step forward himself to me. Hindi na ako nakapagreact nang bigla
akong hablutin nito.

"No! Get off me! I hate you!"

I shouted at nagwawala ako habang mahigpit itong nakayakap sa akin. Sinapak ko siya
pero sadyang malakas lang talaga ang mga lalaki at nagawa ako nitong pakalmahin.

He caressing me softly. And he murmured something na hindi ko na naiintindihan.

"Ssshh.. Enough.. Please.. "

He said softly to my ears while caressing my back. Kinintilan niya ako ng mga
mumunting halik sa ulo at kahit saang parte ng mukha ko. Which made me froze and
confused why he's doing these.

Pinunasan niya ang mga luha ko. And I am still sniffing. I don't know what to think
anymore. He's really acting so strange. Kanina para siyang tiger at kulang na lang
lapain ako sa subrang galit. Pero ngayon, bumaligtad yata ang sikmura niya at
tinatrato ako ng ganito.

What happened to him?

Niyakap ko siya ng mahigpit. I close my eyes and savour the feeling. Medyo gumaan
ang pakiramdam ko sa ginagawa niya.

Pakiramdam ko naglupasay na ang buo kong katawan at siya na lamang ang aking
makakapitan. He pressed my body to his, and I love it.

Binuhat niya ako papuntang kwarto. I felt tired, still closing my eyes while
hugging him. Naramdaman ko na lang na lumapat na ang likod ko sa malambot na kama.
Nabibingi na ako sa katahimikan ng paligid. Ang tanging naririnig ko lang ay ang
pagtibok ng aking puso.

I can feel his warm breath na tumatama sa balat ko. He gently touch my face with
his fingers. At para na akong mapapaso. Nilalamon na ako ng matinding antok at
pagod kaya hindi ko magawang idilat ang mga mata para lamang tingnan siya. Am not
dreaming, do I? But I'm not drunk not to feel his warmth touch.

"Sweet dreams honey.. Love you.."

Pakiramdam ko nanaginip lang ako sa ume-echo na mga katagang yun sa pandinig ko. I
think I am. Before I fall into a deep slumber ay may narandaman akong mainit na
bagay na dumampi sa labi ko.

A kiss?

Maybe. From him?

I don't know maybe it was just a dream..

***

"Carla, I need makeover."

Desperada kong hingi ng tulong kay Carla.

Desidido na akong ibahin ang aura ko. Ayoko ng ganito. Liberated look. I wanna
change my blond hair to dark color. Magpapa-permanent blow dry na lang ako para
mawala itong mga kulot.

"Again? Naku ewan ko sayo! Mababaliw ako."

Reklamo nito saka inikot ang hydraulic chair at nagsuklay ng kanyang maiksing
buhok.

I sighed.

Alas dyes na ako nagising kaninang umaga. Sarap kasi ng tulog ko kagabi. And then,
when I woke up wala na ang asawa ko, nasa work na yata. Or maybe sa mistress niya.
Nalungkot ako sa bahaging yun, hindi lang lungkot kundi durog na durog pa ang puso
ko.

But..

I have to move on and fix myself. Bahala na.. I'll try my very best to overcome all
of these hurts. Time heal all wounds, at ang mga katagang yun na lang ang
makakapitan ko.

Kaya pinuntahan ko siya dito sa main branch salon na pag-aari niya.

"Carla. Don't worry, this isn't you expect. I'll change my mind... About my
plans ..and everything."

Seryuso kong pakiusap sa kanya. Huminto siya sa kanyang ginagawa at seryuso ang
mukha nitong humarap sa akin. He gave me that questioning look. Tipid akong ngumiti
sa kanya. I understand him. He's just concern to me.

"I had a change of heart.. I'll be who I am. And let go.. I mean, I give in."

I explained to him. Tinitigan niya muna ako ng medyo matagal and he sighed.

"Okay what's your plan? Don't tell me, ipapagayuma mo ang asawa mo. Then, kunwari
patay malisya lang ang peg. Is that you mean, you give in?"
Pagtataray kunwari nito at tumawa ako sa sinabi niya.

"Give in nga. Means, ipapaubaya ko siya."

"Ipapaubaya sa alin? Kanino? Sa akin ? Okay lang. Tutal hindi mo pa naman

natitikman ang asawa mo! Wahahaha.."

Tinampal ko siya sa kamay sa pang-aasar into. Bruha talaga! Wala pa naman kasing
nangyayaring intimate sa amin ng asawa ko. But still, I'm wishing for that.

"Carla naman eh. I'm joking okay? What I mean is, ipapaubaya ko na lang sa time at
situation kung anong mangyayari sa amin. Whatever happens, I'll consider it."

Hindi ko alam kung paano ko kakayanin ang mga binitiwan kong mga salita. Basta ang
gusto ko lang ay maging matatag at hayaan na lamang siya. Kung saan siya masaya
then fine. It'll be okay!

"So mabuti naman at narealize mo! Pero ano namang kinalaman nun sa makeover na
gagawin natin?"

He asked while crossing his arms. He raised his one eyebrow and waited for my
answer.

"I want you to straight my hair and then make it dark. I want my original color
hair."

"What!? If you want your original colored hair, then hintayin mong tumubo yang
buhok mo."

"No, I mean.. darker. Medium brown? Basta ayoko ng medyo reddish ang color ng
shading."

Tumayo siya at umikot sa kinauupuan. He checked everything. My hair strands and

hair style.

"Okay! Umpisahan na ang krimen!"

He smiled facing his reflection in the mirror.

"Pagandahin mo ako, huh?. Wag mo iksihan ang hair ko. I trusted you."

Pinandilatan ko siya. Baka gawin pa niyang bob cut ang hairstyle ko.

"Of course, Mare! Mas lalo kang gagabda. Miss Alodia, prepare the hair products.
Color and treatment, 4.0 na hair dye, and translucent na cellophane."

Baling niya sa beautician niyang staff. Agad namang kumilos ang tauhan nito at
inihanda ang lahat ng gagamitin sa aking buhok.

"Carl, bakit may mga numbers yung hair dye? What's the meaning of that?"

Curious kong tanong. Dati rati kasi nung lageng nagpapasalon si ate madalas niya
akong isinasama. Tapos ganun din yung color chart, may mga numbers. And I don't
understand of those, kasi pwede namang sabihin na brown, blond or anything that
defines color names.

"Mare, sa mga beauty products like hair dye may mga meaning ang lahat ng numbers.
For example, the color defines only 1 to 10 and 0-6 shadings. Ang first number
would define the color. And after the point is yung shading ng color. 1 is blue
black, ang 2-5 is brown colors. Like sayo 4.0 ang ilalagay ko sa buhok mo. It means
medium brown, ang 3 is dark brown. Ang 5 naman is light brown. So got it?"

He explained. Nagets ko yung half ng explanation niya.

"How about the 6-10? At ano yung .0, yun ang shading ng color diba?"

Bigla akong nagkainteres. Kasi I'm planning to have a business at itong salon and
spa ang gusto kong itayo. Since Carla knows everything about this kind of business.

"Ang 6-10 defines blonde color. Just like brown, 6 is dark blonde, 7 is medium or
blonde, and 8 is light blonde. Yung 9-10, very light and extra light blonde.
Usually that highest numbers is yun na siya ang karaniwang ginagawang higlights ng
hair. Tapos yung .0 to .6 is ang shadings. Zero stands for neutral, .1 is ash blue,
.2 is violet, .3 gold or warm, .5 brown or mahogany, .6 is red. Gets?"

"Ah.. Now I know."

Napatango-tango ako. Well, I understand. But not that much.

"Marami pang term ang lahat. Different types of rebonding and different types of
hair strands. Why are you interested? May plano kang mag work dito? Wala ka na
talagang trip sa life mo?"

Tumawa ako ng malakas sa sinabi niya. Sometimes friends help you in any way to
cheer you up, makes you smile even though you're broken.

"I'm planning yo have a business like you dear.."

"So, kukumpetisyahan mo ako ganun ba? Inagaw mo na nga sa akin si Papa Jamie pati
sa business gagawa ka pa ng eksena. Echusera!"

I burst out laughing when he said that. He's just rolled his eyes.

Maya-maya, after a long process of my hair natapos na rin sa wakas. It takes two
hours din. But I enjoyed talking to him naman..

**

Bumisita ako sa mother in law ko. Nung isang linggo pa daw ito nagrerequest na
makasama ako. Tuwang-tuwa nama itong nakita ako.

"Hmm. Magaling ka rin pala sa kusina."

Puna nito nang matikman ang niluto kong mga ulam like afritada, as usual kasi
favorite ng asawa ko. And then adobo, saka chopsuey. I heard na favorite niya yung
mga vegetables.

"Sinanay po kasi ako ni Mommy sa kusina."

Rason ko. Ngumiti ako sa kanya.

"You're really remind me of Ella, hija."

Gumuhit ang lungkot at pananamlay sa mga mata nito nang sabigin niya ang mga bagay
na yon. Agad akong nakisampatya. Hinimas ko ang likod niya.

"Okay lang po yun. May mabigat na dahilan kung bakit niya nagawa ang bagay na yon."
I am not close to Ella but I feel something for her na para bang ang bait niyang
tao. Nakausap ko siya ng minsan and she's really one of a kind for me.

Mom shook her head and smiled bitterly. It was as if she knows the history but I
don't have the right to intervene in their personal issues. Kaya mas ninais kong
manahimik na lang and waited from her if she wants it to share with me.

"Anyway, may grand reunion tayo sa Boracay next week. So I'll expect you and your
husband to be with us for three days."

"Okay po."

Ngumiti din ako sa kanya.

Magtatanong pa sana ako nang biglang may nagsalita sa doorway. Kapwa kami
napatingin ni Mommy.

He's dashing wearing that pleasant smile. Our eyes locked. And I am just here
standing looking at him. Ang lakas talaga ng dating niya sa akin. Nothings change.
May kakaibang gumuhit sa mga mata nito. At hindi ko talaga siya mawari. Pinasadahan
niya ako ng tingin mula ulo hanggang paa. And then it focus on my hair which is
obviously had a big changes. Straight na ito at medyo auborn brown yung result. Not
deep like chocolate brown but lighter from that.

May gumuhit na ngiti sa labi nito pagkatapos niya itong titigan. Maybe he likes it.
I averted my eyes suddenly.

"Mabuti at dumating ka na. Marami pa namang inihanda ang asawa mo."

Basag ni Mommy sa katahimikan.

"That's great. Gutom na rin ako eh. Hon.."

Sa akin siya bumaling at hindi na ako lumingon pa. Lumapit siya sa akin. Medyo
nagulat ako nang biglang niyakap ako nito sa tagiliran sabay hawak sa chin ko at
ibinaling ang mukha ko paharap sa kanya para dampian ng halik sa labi. Hindi ako
makatingin sa mga mata niya. Hinayaan ko lang siya at binalewala ang sariling
kasiyahan. I admit na, subrang kinilig ako sa gjnawa niya. My cheeks flash red.
Medyo matagal tagal din niya akong binitiwan. Kung hindi siya sinita ni Mommy na
umupo na, siguro mananatili kami sa ganung posisyon.

It was just a little sweet acts as a couple. Lage kong nakikita sila Mom and Dad na
gumagawa ng ganun. But for me malaking bagay na yon. I really appreciated it.

May pinag-usapan sila about sa negosyo. Nanatili lamang akong tahimik. Napansin
kong maganda yata ang mood niya ngayon. Maaliwalas kasi ang mukha niya. Hindi tulad
ng dati na lageng madilim lalo na kapag nakikita niya ako.

Ano kayang magandang nangyari sa kanya ngayon?

Napapaisip tuloy ako.

"Hija, wala ka yatang ganang kumain? Are you pregnant?"

Bigla akong napaubo ng malakas sa tanong niya. Muntikan na akong mabilaukan. Agad
namang kumuha ng tubig si Nathaniel.

" Honey, are you okay?"

Nag-aalala nitong tanong habang hinimas himas ang likod ko. Sunod sunod akong
tumango to assure to them that I'm fine.

"I'm not preggy po."

Sagot ko. Napakunot noo si Mommy at tiningnan niya ang asawa ko.

"Don't worry, Mom. Bibilisan namin na makabuo agad ng baby."

Agad na sabat nito nang mapansin ang kakaibang titig ni Mom. This time, parang
gusto ko siyang batukan. In my parents ganun din ang pangako niya. Bibigyan namin
sila ng apo ASAP. And pati ba naman kay Mommy Regina, ganun din? Hindi ba siya nag-
iisip na isang buwan mahigit na lang maghihiwalay na kami?

I sighed.

That thought made me shiver in pain...

I think I can't let him go..

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Bound by the Rules

(Kabanata 23)

It is a far, far better thing that I do, than I have ever done. It is a far, far
better rest that I go to, than I have.

- Charles Dickens -
***

Zea POV

I was just a little bit bored. I'm here at Tony's party, isang host celebrity ng
studio channel. I just met her last week. Napilitan akong dumalo sa birthday nito.
Hindi ko naman inaasahan na magiging ganito pala kagulo ang kasayahang pupuntahan
ko. I'm with Carla.

"Mare, after 10 minutes uwi na tayo. Ang gulo dito, andaming mga echuserang palaka.
Kala mo hindi mga professional prosti."

He rolled his eyes when he say that. Ang ibig sabihin niya ng 'echuserang palaka'
ay mga babaeng social climber na nag-aastang anak mayaman. Kumikiringking sa mga
bachelors dito. I didn't really expect na ito yung party na makakagisnan namin ni
Carla.

"Carla, hayaan mo na. Kanina pa nga ako naaalibadbaran. Halika na, Its getting
late."

Napatingin ako sa Gucci wrist watch, its 10:30pm. I'm worried about my husband.
Baka magdilim na naman ang mukha nun pag-uwi ko. Last night the dinner was awesome.
And we end up talking casually kahit sa bahay. Pero parang may gap parin. Actually
I'm looking forward to the next level. At ayokong pati ngayon ay mauulit na naman
sa diskusyon.

"Okay, wait lang. Kasi agnas na ang beauty ko. Magreretouch muna ako sa powder
room. Dito ka muna, wag kang susuot sa crowd. Baka mahilo ka."

Tumango lang ako sa reminder niya. Carla walk out. And I was remain here, ipinako
lang sa stool. I'm drinking with orange juice. Ayoko ng mangamoy alak tuwing
umuuwi.

"Hey, Zea. Come on, let's dance on the floor."

Si Gritta, the fresh graduate from Ateneo, anak ng ex-mayor ng Maynila. Nakilala ko
lang din siya sa paggimick ko this past few weeks.

"Ah Gritta kasi pauwi na ako eh. Saka masyadong crowded yung dancefloor."

Napasulyap ako sa malaking umpukan na nagsasayaw ng wild moves. Napangiwi ako,

iniisip ko pa lang na makisali sa mga taong yun, nahihilo na ako.

"Zea, don't be kj. Naku, good girls are easily die."

She's a little bit drunk. May hawak pa itong brandy na boteng inumin. Ganun din ang
sinasabi ni ate sa akin kapag sapilitang napapasama ako minsan sa kanyang mga hang-
outs.

"No. Ah kasi--"

Bigla akong hinila nito. At dinala sa dancefloor. Pilit niya akong hinila papunta
sa gitna. Sa higpit ng mga hawak nito halos magkandarapa na ako sa pagsunod sa
kanya. Nagpapasalamat ako at flats ang sout ko ngayon kundi tiyak na mapipilayan
ako sa ginagawa niya.

Konting galaw mo lang ay magtatama na ang mga katawan ng nagsasayawan dito.

Uncomfortable, dizzy, and so irritating situation. Gusto kong masuka sa iba't ibang
pabango na naaamoy ko. Masakit sa ilong.

Itinaas ni Gritta yung mga kamay niya habang kaliwa't kanan ang pagkembot sa bewang
nito sabay sa makabagong tugtugin. She's shouting while doing that. Nagtataka ako
kung bakit ganun sila ka-engrossed sa mga bagay na ganito. Yun bang feeling nila
this is the best time of their lives.

"Come on Zea, dance! Whoah! Yeah!"

She shouted again at hinila ako para pasayawin. She drink that bottle again. I
can't dance. I just can't. Nagpapawis na ako ng malamig at kahit hindi pa ako
nakainum ng kahit konti nakakaramdam na ako ng pagkahilo. Napaatras ako sabay hawak
sa noo.

Pero wala na pala akong maatrasan. May naapakan akong paa kaya lumingon ako.

"Sorry--"

Isang lalaking may nakakalokong ngiti ang nabalingan ko. I don't know him but he
looks addict or lutang sà alak with his aura. Gwapo, halatang may sinabi sa buhay.
He look at me like I was a piece of meat. Pinasadahan niya ng tingin ang buo kong
katawan. And it landed to my boobs. I am not wearing a revealing outfit. Simpleng
dress lang na hapit ang katawan ko at mabukadkad sa baba na hanggang tuhod lang ang
haba nito, and off shoulder dress.

Gosh!

Agad akong humakbang palayo pero natatamaan ako ng mga katawang marahas na
nagsasayawan. Kaya halos matumba na ako. Umikot ang paningin ko nang biglang
natamaan ang noo ko ng bote na bitbit ng babae. Pakiramdam ko babagsak ang katawan
ko sa sahig and I know maapakan lang ako ng mga tao dito.

I close my eyes, too bad I'll die in this humiliation.

May humapit sa bewang ko at inalalayan ako palabas sa umpukan. Binuksan ko ang mga
mata ko para tingnan ito. But to my utter shock, siya yong lalaking manyak na
tumitig sa akin kanina.

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko. He smiled na parang may binabalak na masama.

"Let me go!"

Iwinaksi ko ang kamay ko, pero malakas siya at nagawa niyang hilain ako.

"Were not done yet babe."

He sounds persistent. Nagwawala ako pero parang ang tibay nito at determinado itong
hinila ako sa madilim na bahagi ng eskinita ng bahay.

"No!"

Sigaw ko nang aakmang hahalikan niya ako. Sinampal ko siya pero mabilis nitong
hinuli ang mga kamay ko. Niyakap niya ako at mas lalo akong nakaramdam ng
pandidiri. Naamoy ko ang matapang na alak sa katawan nito. Halos bumaligtad na ang
sikmura ko. Sumigaw ako sabay tulak sa kanya. Tumawa siya at dinagsa na ako ng
subrang takot.

Oh god. I can't let him rape me. Please Lord... Help me!
Sigaw ng utak ko. Sinipa ko siya, pero wala ding silbi dahil sa lakas at higpit ng
yakap nito kayang kaya niya akong gawan ng masama. Dagdagan pa sa pagkahilo ko, at
pakiramdam ko nasugatan yata ang noo ko sa bote o nabukulan lang. I feel sore.

He was about to hold my breast when someone grab me and then bigla na lang
lumagapak yong maniac na lalaki sa sahig.

"Ayy!! Mare, okay ka lang?"

Natatarantang tili at tanong ni Carla sa akin. Niyakap agad ako nito.

Hindi niya nilubayan yung lalaki hanggat sa nagmakaawa ito.

"I swear I'll fvcking kill you bastard if you ever touch my wife!"

He shouted pointing to his shock-horror face. Humingi ulit ito ng tawad at

nangakong hindi na mauulit.

"Of course it will not happen again coz I swear I'll put you in jail!"

Sigaw ulit ng asawa ko. Nanlaki ang mga mata nito. May mga lumapit na mga
kalalakihan. At dinampot ito.

May sinabi si Jamie sa dalawang lalaki, hindi ko na narinig pero madilim ang mukha
nito at subrang seryuso. Tumango yung lalaki bago tuluyang umalis ito bitbit ang
manyakis!

It touched my heart, he's really acting a possesive husband and at the same time
normal lang yun kasi nasa panganib ako. Pero gusto kong isipin na may mas malalim
na kahulugan pa ang mga bagay yon.

Oh God!

I was almost rape!

And it scared the hell out of me!

Lumapit si Jamie sa akin at nagdidilim ang mukha nito. He pulled me closer and
checked every inch of my body.

I touch my forehead at may dugo sa sa gilid ng noo ko. Napatitig ako sa daliri ko
na may dugo.

Bigla akong nakaramdam ng pagkahilo.

"Shit!"

Narinig kong pagmumura niya nang makita ang sugat sa noo ko.

I close my eyes when he hug me abruptly.

"Are you okay?"

Kalmado nitong tanong. Umiling iling ako. Isinandal ko ang mukha sa kanyang dibdib.
Gumaan ang nararamdaman ko. I felt relief now. Binuhat niya ako palabas sa lugar na
yon.
**

Kinabukasan.

Nagising ako sa ingay ng alarm clock sa gilid ng kama.

Umikot muna ang paningin ko sa kabuuan ng kwarto. I'm here in my room. Yumuko ako
at inalala ang nangyari kagabi. I was on Tony's house. Tapos, si Gritta hinila ako
sa dancefloor. And then...

Face palm.

I close my eyes in disappointments. That bastard tried to rape me and then my

husband came, save me from that guy. I was like a damsel of distress.

Tumunog ang phone ko, its a message alert tone. Binasa ko ang message galing kay
Carla.

From Carla:

Swerte mo Mare! Your husband really care for you... Sus. Your like his queen. I
love Jamie na talaga! Hahaha!

I sighed. Si Carla talaga puro kalokohan lang. Naalala ko yung ginawa ng asawa ko.
Kinapkapan niya ang buo kong katawan to make sure that I was fine. At nakita ko ang
pag-alala niya sa akin nang makita ang kaunting sugat sa noo.

Hinawakan ko ang forehead ko, and may nakalagay itong benda. I didn't remember na
ginamot nya ako. Ang huli kong naalala ay niyakap niya ako at binuhat bago nawalan
ng malay o maybe nakatulog lang. Hindi ko na alam basta nahihilo ako nung mga time
na yon.

Biglang pumihit ang doorknob at bumukas ito. Pumasok siya at may dalang breakfast
sa tray. My heart flipped. Pero seryuso masyado ang mukha nito. Parang galit.

"Eat well."

Nilapag niya ang tray sa harapan ko.

Tinitigan niya ang itsura ko. And then he sighed. I was remain speechless. Nahihiya
talaga ako sa nangyari kagabi but still I'm thankful that he rescued me. Kung hindi
baka sirang sira na ang pagkababae ko ngayon.

" Carla told me that you're not drunk. And what has gotten in your freaking mind na
sumasama sa addict na yon?"

Nabigla ako sa sinabi niya. Napakurap ako sabay tingin ng derecho sa mga mata niya.
I can't believe that he jump into conclusion without asking my explanation about
it.

He gritted his teeth. Gumalaw ang panga nito tanda ng galit. Mapakla akong natawa
at napailing iling. Sino ba ang tangang babae na gugustuhing sumama sa maniac na
lalaking yon?

"Is that your other way to catch up my attention? Zea, I thought you change--"

"Hindi ako tanga para sumama sa lalaking yon! Nahilo ako, okay!? And I dont know
how the hell it happened!--"

"Shitt!"

Matigas at malakas niyang dugtong. Nagkatinginan kami. I clenched my fist.

"Enough Zea! Kailan ka ba nakinig sa akin? What if someone will saw you there? Your
my wife! May asawa kang tao and yet you still hangouts like that? Partying those
slut women? How could you? Ganun ka na ba kaburara? Mabuti na lang dumating ako.
What if I wasn't there? My God! You could have rape!"

Umikot siya and like the usual, frustrated itong napasuklay ng buhok using his
fingers.

"We had rules Zea, at least learn to behave yourself and learn to respect my name!
Please!"

He added. And I was stunned for a moment. Tumagos yong sakit sa buto ko.

So all of those treatments is fake. He's only scared about the scandal, about his
personal issues and everything that will descriminate his name. Hindi talaga
totoong concern siya sa akin. Mas mahalaga parin sa kanya ang reputasyon kaysa
asawa niya! Bakit ba ako umaasang magkakaron siya ng konting pagtingin sa akin?

"Fine! I'll never forget your freaking rules, Nathaniel! Now leave! Leave me
alone!"

Ubod na lakas kong sigaw sa kanya. Namumuo na ang mga butil ng luha sa gilid ng mga
mata ko. He narrowed his eyes to mine, umigting ang panga niya. At napamura ito
bago umalis sa loob.

Napaiyak ako ng tuluyan. Nanghihina kong inilagay ang tray sa table at humiga sa
kama. Doon ko na ibinuhos ang lahat ng luha.

Why?

Mahirap ba talaga ako mahalin?

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Invisible

(Kabanata 24)

Trust the one who's been where you are wishing all it was was sticks and stones
Those words cut deep but they don't mean you're all alone
You're not invisible
Hear me out, there's so much more to life than what you're feeling now
Someday you'll look back on all these days and all this pain is gonna be...
Invisible
Oh, invisible

(From the lyrics of: INVISIBLE)

-Hunter Hayes-

****

Jamie POV

She's really a desperate. I thought she change but.. Still, she always hang up with
her friends. I sighed.

It's been to days since we had that argument. Wala man lang kaming matinong usapan
these past few days. Lage na lang may cold war. At sa hindi ko mawaring pagbabago
ng ugali niya hindi kami nagkakaintindihan.

Right now, I don't know but I'm willing to sacrifice my pride just to accept her as
my wife. I can't let her go just like that. I've been dreaming to have a happy and
complete family ever since. My Dad (biological father) left us. Hindi ko man lang
siya nakilala and wherever he is, I don't care anyway. My poor Mom, died at the
early of 29 because of cancer, I was six years old that time. That was the most
tragic incident happened in my entire life. Pero hindi naman ako nagsisi na
inampon ako ng mag-asawang Zamora. They're not just good parents to me but they're
also lovable too. They treat me as their real son, like their own flesh and blood.
Still, I'm longing to have a happy family. Kung ako ay magkakaanak ipinapangako ko
sa sarili na hinding hindi ko siya iiwan like what my father did to me.

I sighed.

The throwback and all of those stuffs frustrate me sometimes. I should learn to let
go and accept my future with my wife. I just need time to know her better. Maybe
kailangan ko ring ihanda ang sarili sa mga posibleng mangyayari.

I stood up, and headed to the kitchen. My stomach is growling from hunger. Hindi
pala ako nakapagdinner kagabi. I miss my wife's foods. Basta I miss her.

I woke up late, its my day-off, tomorrow we're going to Boracay for family reunion.

Isang mabangong amoy ang umaalingasaw sa labas ng kwarto. Amoy pa lang mas lalo na
akong nagugutom. Tiyak na nagluluto na naman siya.

Tumungo agad ako sa kusina. I saw her wearing her usual dress. Marami akong
nakitang mga styrofoam. At isa-isa niyang nilagyan ng mga pagkain ang mga yon. May
kanin, ulam at salad sa bawat tabi.
I'm just wondering kung para saan ang mga yon. She's seriously packing those foods.

Nasulyapan niya akong nakatayo dito sa may pintuan. Kaya napahinto siya at
tinitigan ako saglit. Then, she continue packing those things.

"Kumain kana. Ready na ang pagkain mo."

She said without emotion. Kahit madalas kaming may misunderstanding, she never stop
to cook something for me. Acting as my wife, madalas parin naman niya akong
asikasuhin. Sometimes nababaliwala ko lang.

"What's these for?"

I asked frowning at her, lumapit ako at napatingin sa isang malaking bag na

naglalaman ng styrofoam ng mga pagkain.

"Para sa mga street children. Sayang lang yang mga pagkaing niluto ko dito sa
bahay, nabubulok lang walang kumakain."

Medyo pagtataray niyang tono ng pagsagot. Mas lalong nagsalubong ang kilay ko sa
sinabi niya. Nabubulok? Really?

"How? I mean, paano nabubulok?"

I sat down across the table and start preparing foods in my plate.

She rolled her eyes upwards and gave me that boring look. Cute reaction.

"Nagtanong ka pa. Ilang beses ba kitang ipinagluto na hindi mo kinakain?"

I stop chewing and look at her directly. Did I? Oh God, how bad I am. Itinali niya
ang plastic bag and prepare it to give to those street children.

Kailangan kong bumawi. Bakit hindi ko naiisip na pahalagahan ang lahat ng efforts
niya? She's doing her obligation to me and yet I am here and there doing what I
want to do in my life.

"I'll help you. Sasamahan kita."

She suddenly stops, and frowning looking at me. Sa reaction niya parang hindi siya
makapaniwala. I smiled, na-amuse ako sa reaksyon niya. Cute niya kasi tingnan.

"Paano ang trabaho mo?"

"Its my day off honey, so you have me whole day."

Ngumiti ako at kinindatan siya. Tinaasan niya ako ng kilay. Hindi rin naman
effective dahil napakaamo ng mukha niya.

"Baka pagsisihan mo lang, mainit sa labas, maalikabok at baka mandiri ka pa."

Tumawa ako sa sinabi niya. Inirapan niya ako. She's pushing me away, and giving me
that discouragement para umatras akong samahan siya which is gives me more
challenge.

"Honey, I would not mind. As long as I'm with you. Trust me, you'll enjoy it."

Hindi parin nawala ang ngiti ko. She froze wondering staring at me. And she rolled
her eyes upwards. I laugh again. Oh my, my dear wife is really acting so strange
sometimes. And she's really cute the way she reacts...

**

I found myself on the park, giving a little food for those street children. Marami
pa kaming dinagdag at pinambili para sa mga nais humingi para hindi kulangin.
Masayang masaya ang mga kabataan. Masarap sa pakiramdam sa yong nakatulong ka,
nakakapagpasaya kahit sa maliit na bagay.

Kitang kita ko ang saya sa asawa ko. I feel she's different person I've known. But
somehow, yung Zea na nakikita ko noon, nakilala ay ito siya ang nakikita ko ngayon.
Minsan gusto kong isipin na aside from being desperate she's super kind and sweet.
Pero minsan nawawala ang standard na pagtingin ko sa kanya kapag nakikita ko ang
kakaiba niyang side. Nakakalito kung alin ang dapat kong paniwalaan. Pero kung ano
man ang ugali niya, I'm beginning to like it in a sense na unti-unti ko ng nakikita
ang good side niya.

"Do you always do these?"

I asked habang nililigpit ang mga basket.

"Since we got married, siguro mga last week pa lang. Alam mo naman na politician si
Daddy. Sa mga orphanage lang, kasama sila Mommy."

She answered, saglit akong napaisip. She's like Ella, my ex sister and fiance of
Yvo. Mahilig din kasi yun sa mga ganito. May sarili siyang foundation and madalas
siya nag-oorganize ng raising fund.

"Ah I see."

Masaya ako sa bahaging yon. I thought she's like her elder sister, well my ex
girlfriend. Na lageng mahilig sa going out and good times. These past few days, si
Zea nagliliwaliw pero I know she's doing those things for a purpose. I know she
needs attention from me, aaminin kong nagulat ako nang aminin niya ang kanyang
nararamdaman. Pero masayang-masaya ako. Now I realize that, I cannot just let her
go. I realize that I love her. I'm falling hard with my wife. At ngayon handa na
akong tanggapin ang lahat.

I don't care if pinikot lang niya ako. I don't care if she envied her sister, as
long as she did it because she loves me, it matters to me so much. Ganun lang naman
talaga ang love, minsan hindi natin nakukuha ito sa paraang hindi natin gusto o sa
paraang hindi inaasahan. Minsan dumadanas pa ng masakit at matinding sakrapisyo.

Well, now ibibigay ko ang atensyon na nararapat sa kanya. She's my wife and I have
lots of things to catch up. Marami pa akong pagkukulang sa kanya na dapat kong
punan.

I have to amend my decisions for her.

***
Zea POV

Wow, ano kaya nakain ng magaling kong asawa para tratuhin ako ng ganito?'

I murmured while stealing some glances to his side while he's driving. Maaliwalas
ang mukha niya ngayon. May pasipol sipol pang nalalaman. Tapos tumatawa na parang
tuwang tuwa siya sa akin.

And now I can't believe it, he helped to gave foods to those street children.
Siguro nang magsabog na himala sa mundo kagabi sinalo niya kaya sinamahan niya ako
ngayon. Maybe kailangan kong pumunta ng simbahan para magpasalamat sa Dyos at
nagpakabait ang asawa ko ngayon.

Bukas? Ganito pa kaya? Sa susunod na araw? Sana lang. Kailangan ko pa palang

idagdag na lumuhod sa harapan ng altar, gumawa ng sakrapisyo na sana tuloy-tuloy
na itong ginagawa niya.

"How about we're going out this evening? Dinner?"

Muntikan na akong mabilaukan sa sinabi niya. Dinner? Us? Ano namang meron?
Nanlalaki ang mga mata kong tinitigan siya.

"Why? Birthday mo?"

Pamimilosopo ko. He burst out laughing and then napailing iling habang ngumingiti.
Ano bang nakakatawa dun sa sinabi ko?

"Your amazing wifey. What's with the dinner? I think that's normal. You know as a
couple, and as a lovers. Even friends they does dating. Your my wife. What's
wrong?"

I sighed and then look at the front. I crossed my arms, at sumandal sa upuan.

Lovers? Kelan pa?

"Yeah I'm your wife in papers, diba yon naman ang sabi mo? But anyway, dinner lang
naman. Nothing's change."

Napakagat labi ako pagkatapos kong sabihin ang bagay na yon. Mali yata, parang
nanunumbat yata ako na may halong hinanakit. Oh Gosh, sounds so desperate.

"Well, if that's your problem then let's move to the next level."

Next Level? Ano kahulugan nun? Bigla ko siyang tiningnan at napamaang ako sa sinabi
niya.

He smirked. There's something behind that smiles and look. Pilit kong itinataboy
ang sayang nadarama.

"Next level?"

Ano 'to games na may mag levels?

He throw a glance at me, then smiled. Tapos ibinaling ang paningin sa kalsada.
"What I mean is, how about we make this marriage real? Work things out. Just like,
having a baby and--'

"What!? Are you making our marriage like a business deal? After few weeks we're
going to have an annulment right?"

Agad kong sabat sa mga sinabi niya. Parang pinapalabas pa niyang totohanin namin
pero dahil lang sa kasal kami? Walang involvement ng feelings? Porke't ba na
nalaman niyang mahal ako, aabusuhin na niya? Pagkatapos ano? Kapag nagsawa na siya
iiwan na ako? Tapos magkakaroon pa kami ng baby.

He raised his one eyebrow. Nagtatakang tiningnan ako. Biglang sumeryoso ang mukha
nito. May nasabi ba akong masama?

Ibinaling niya ang atensyon sa pagmamaneho. Ang mood nitong maaliwalas ay napalitan
ng hindi maipaliwanag na pagdidilim. Siguro galit.

Nagbuga siya ng hangin. At parang nag-iba ang timpla ng mukha niya.

Hindi siya nagsalita. At nabibigki na ang lalamunan ko. May mali yata akong nasabi
na dahilan ng pagababago ng mood niya.

Tunog ng umaandar na sasakyan lang ang maririnig sa paligid. Isang nakakabinging

katahimikan ang bumalot sa aming dalawa.

Dumating kami sa bahay na walang imik.

"Magbihis ka, may pupuntahan tayo. Bring some clothes, we're going to stay
overnight there."

Malamig nitong utos saka tumalikod at tumungo sa kanyang silid.

Sinunod ko na lang ang gusto niya. Kaybilis niya magbago ng mood.

**

Pasensya na sa late UD. I was so busy these weekends and holidays. Thanks for
reading anyway.

**please VOTE if you like the story**

Husband and wife

(Kabanata 25)

Zea POV

Pumunta kami ng Batangas, sa rest house ng Zamora. Hindi na ako umalma at sumama na
lang sa kanya. Tahimik lang ang buong byahe hangga't sa makarating kami sa sinasabi
nilang resthouse.

Maganda ang view. Dahil parang highland yong area. And the beautiful garden
sorrounded by different flowers. At antique yong may kalakihang bahay. Very homey
at cozy at the same time. May mga vintage furnitures na gawa pa yata ng ilang
centuries. But still looks matibay.

Umikot ang paningin ko sa buong sala. Very unique and beautiful.The long staircase
made from hard woods. Its a combination of brown and gray colors. May mga portrait
paintings pa na gawang Italy and Paris. And those expensive vases na nasa tabi ng
bawat antigong mesa ay napakaaya-aya tingnan.

"Wow.."

Tangi kong nasabi.

May dumating na matanda at masayang masaya itong nakita si Jamie. Binati kami nito.

"Naku naparito ka't hindi man lang nagpasabi. Di sana'y nakapaghanda man lang ako
ng mga pagkaing gusto mo."

Di magkaugaga nitong sabi. Hinagod niya ako ng tingin mula ulo hanggang paa. I know
na nagigiliwan siya sa itsura ko.

"Okay lang ho Nana Pasing. Hindi pa naman kami gutom. O nga pala, asawa ko, si
Zea."

Nakangiting pakilala ng asawa ko sa kanya. Inakbayan ako nito, at gaya ng

nakagawian nakikiliti na naman ako sa hatid ng sensasyong yon. Na-amazed ang
matanda sa kakatitig sa akin. Ngumiti lamang ako.

"Kaygandang bata. Siya ba ang anak ni Senador Chiongbian?"

Agad nitong tanong. Kakatapos lang ng botohan and Dad won of those twelve senator.

"Opo."

Magalang kong sagot.

"Kaya pala. O siya at ipagluluto ko muna kayo. Anong gusto mo? Sinigang na hipon?"

Binalingan niya ang asawa ko. Tumango lang ito.

"Alam niyo po naman na isa yon sa mga paborito ko."

Pahabol nito sa matanda nang tumalikod na.

I never cook shrimp coz bawal sa akin yon. Namamaga ako pagkatapos kong kumain.
Tapos namumula at nangangati pa. Kaya kahit masarap ang hipon hindi ko magagawang
kainin. Pero its one of his favorite. Pwede kong lutuin para sa kanya.

"Come on let's go upstairs."

Kinuha niya ang hand carry bag na nakalapag sa sahig. Umakyat kami sa itaas. Kung
gaano kaganda sa sala ay ganun din sa taas.

Pumasok kami sa iisang kwarto. Matutulog kami sa iisang kwarto? Parang hindi yata
magandang ideya yon.

"Are we gonna share here? I mean dito ba tayo matutulog?"

Alanganin kong tanong. Tiningnan niya ako na parang nayayamot. Hindi ko talaga siya
maintindihan kung bakit nagkakaganito siya palage. Ang moody lang, daig pa ang
buntis. Minsan ang sungit pa.

"What kind of question is that? Do you want Nana Pasing will know about our real
situation? If course we will sleep together here."

Pamimilosopo niya saka nagwalk out. Naiwan akong natigilan. Sabagay, all of these
are part of the drama. We have to pretend na okay kami, a happy couple and
whatsoever. Minsan gusto kong mainis sa sarili dahil napakaengot ko para umasa.

Sinundan ko siya sa terasa.

"Alam mo ang suplado mo. Hindi kita maintindihan. Bakit ba ang bilis mong magalit?"

Nagsusuplada kong tanong sa kanya. Nakatayo siya teresa at nakatukod ang dalawa
niyang kamay sa harang nito. Tinatanaw ang paglubog ng araw.

Seryoso siyang lumingon sa akin. Humarap siya at isinandal ang katawan. Tinitigan
niya lang ako.

Tinitigan ko rin siya. I was mesmerize with his fiercing eyes. Dahan dahan siyang
lumapit sa akin. Para akong naestatwa sa kinatatayuan. And then he stop when were
inches apart.

I gulped. Nanunuyo ang lalamunan ko at gusto kong magsalita pero may bumabara dito.
Halos magtama na ang ilong namin at Amoy na amoy ko ang mabango niyang men's
cologne. Tumatama yong init hininga na bumubuga sa aking mukha. I nibbled my lip.
At nakita kong nakatitig siya sa labi ko. Ang tanging naririnig ko lang ay ang
malakas na kabog ng aking dibdib.

"Why are you making it hard for me?"

His husky voice makes my limb weak. And I shiver in unexplanable feelings.

"Hmm.. Why? "

Bigla niyang kinabig ang bewang ko. And my body pressed to him. His questions makes
me confuse more.

Make it hard for him? How? I think ako yata ang pinapahirapan niya.

Naduduling ako sa subrang lapit namin. Kaya iniwas ko ang mga mata sa ibang
deriksyon. Sa subrang dikit ng katawan namin, nanginig ang tuhod ko. I felt like my
stomach is a ribcage of butterflies.
Napaawang ang bibig ko. May gusto akong sabihin pero hindi ako makapgasalita. He's
staring at my lips intensely.

"Ah.. Nathaniel---"

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko nang biglang sinalakay niya ang labi ko.

My God!

Ano ba sa tingin niya ang ginagawa? Alam niya bang hindi ako tumatanggi sa biyaya?
Oh well, masarap ang lips niya.

Dahan-dahan akong pumikit at ninamnam ang labi niya. I clung my arms on him
possesively. This is really intimate moment for both of us. Lalong lalo na sa akin.

His expert tounge exploring my mouth. I respond every moves he makes. It was a
hunger kiss but passionate. His hands began caressing my back down to my waist and
to my utter shock hinawakan nito ang dibdib ko. Nakikiliti ako sa mainit na palad
nito na humahaplos dito.

He massage it gently and I moaned in pleasure. For the first time nahawakan na ang
boobs ko. He's playing my tiny nipple with his fingers.

Mas lalo kong hinigpitan ang pagkakayakap sa kanya. I pressed my body to him. He
pulled my butt at nagawa niyang ilagay ang dalawa kong hita sa waistline niya.

At mas lalo niyang diniinan ang labi niya. Mas naging mapusok. Nakakalula din pala
ang ganito. Nakakagutom, ang sarap sarap kasi niyang humalik. Subrang init na sa
pakiramdam.

After a while, he stop. Nabitin ako. He smirked at tinitigan niya ako, panay ang
sulyap niya sa aking labi.

I swallowed the lump in my throat. I felt like my cheeks were red like ripe
tomatoes.

"I love your lips honey..."

He said between his smiles. I gulped.

Then I realize our position. Para akong tuko na nakakapit sa kanya at ahas na
nakapulupulot ang dalawa kong bente sa bewang niya.

Napatanga ako at huli na ang lahat para kumilos dahil subrang pahiya na ako sa
posisyon ko ngayon.

Agad akong bumitiw at inayos ang sarili.

"Its not yet enough. Just watch it out later."

Pilyo itong ngumiti. He winked, at saka tumalikod. Natulala ako. Anong hindi pa
enough na sinasabi niya?

I sighed in mortification.

Naku naman, pumapalpak na naman akong huwag magpadala sa sariling emosyon.

**
"Come on try it, masarap."

Yaya nito sa sinigang na hipon. Nag-angat ako ng ulo at tinitigan ang sabaw sa
mangkok. Sarap na sarap siya sa pagkain. Panay ang subo nito at lageng nagyayang
kumain. Pinili ko ang adobong manok ang gawing ulam dahil allergy ako sa hipon.

"Don't worry malinis at masarap magluto si Nana Pasing."

Hindi naman ako maarte o nandidiri sa pagkain kaya lang allergy ako. Pero seeing
him na pinu-push akong tikman ang sinigang ay naeengganyo akong kumain nito. Parang
ang hirap tanggihan ang isang bagay na ikakasaya niya.

"Hindi naman sa ganun. Kaya lang.."

Alanganin talaga ako. He looked at me frowning. Yung tipong nagtataka kung bakit
ganito ang reaction ko sa pagkain.

"Sige."

I smiled quitely. Sumandok ako sa mangkok. At dahan-dahan kong isinubo ang kutsara
sa bibig. Masarap nga. Nanunuot ang sarap sa panlasa ko.

Kumain ako at pasandok sandok ng paunti unti sa mangkok. Binalatan niya ako ng
hipon saka pinatikim sa akin. Gusto niya pala ng mga sea foods.

Maya-maya lang ay nakaramdam na ako ng pangangati. Huminto ako sa pagkain at uminum

ng maraming tubig.

"Are you okay?"

Nagtataka niyang tanong nang mapansing medyo nag-iiba na ang mga ikinikilos ko.

"Yeah, I'm fine. Busog na ako. Sandali lang may kukunin muna ako sa itaas."

Hindi ko na pinakinggan ang mga complain niya. Masama daw magdiet at hindi daw
dapat ako nagtitipid sa pagkain. Nagmamadali ko siyang tinalikuran at umakyat na
ako sa itaas.

Hinanap ko sa bag ang gamot ng anti allergy. Kinalkal ko ito pero nakalimutan ko
palang dalhin.

Nayayamot akong napaupo sa gilid ng kama. Pakiramdam ko mainit na ang buong mukha
at leeg ko. Kinamot ko ang part ng jawline at chin ko. Humarap ako sa salamin at
unti-unti na akong namamaga.

Oh my God!

Kinamot ko ang mukha ko at namumula na pala ako. Subra pa ako sa taong lasing.

"Zea!"

I heard a loud knock on the door. Hindi ko ito pinansin at patuloy lang ako sa
pagkamot. Sana hindi na lang ako kumain. Sana tumanggi na lang ako.

I need my medicine. I have to buy. Pero medyo naninikip yong dibdib ko. Napadami
yata ako ng kain.

"Zea open the door."

My husband was so desperate. Sunod sunod yung katok niya sa pinto, hinayaan ko
parin. Nahihiya akong makita niyang ganito ang itsura ko.

Tumigil yong pagkatok niya ng pinto. For sure naiinis na naman ito.

Nanlaki ang mata ko nang makita ang sariling repleksyon sa salamin. Namamaga na
pati yong labi ko. Para na akong si Jennifer Lopez sa movie niyang MONSTER IN LAW
na namaga ang mukha nang makakain ng peanut butter or so spinach. Dahil rin sa
allergy.

Maya-maya bumukas ang pinto.

"What's wrong with you ? Bakit--"

He suddenly stop when he saw my face. Kumakalat na ang pangangati sa braso ko.

Natataranta niyang sinuri ang mukha ko, leeg at dibdib. Dali-dali niya akong
binuhat at sinugod sa hospital. Hindi na ako nakapagsalita pa dahil naninikip na
rin ang dibdib ko. Panay ang bulong nito na malapit na kami.

Pagdating sa hospital ay pinainum agad ako ng karampatang gamot. Then pinagpahinga

ng ilang oras. Sinabi ko ang dahilan ng allergy at binigyan ako ng babala na huwag
ng ulitin dahil pwede ko daw itong ikapahamak. Pwede daw lumakas at di normal ang
palpitation ng heartbeat ko.

After three hours, nagcheck out agad kami sa hospital. Kitang kita ko ang takot
niya kanina at pagkataranta. Ngayon ay seryosong seryoso siya sa pagmamaneho
hanggang sa makarating kami sa rest house.

Inalalayan niya akong pinahiga sa kama. I feel like I'm important to him. I can't
help it to assume and expect anything from him. Dahilan na rin siguro sa pag-aalala
niyang ipinapakita sa akin.

"Why you didn't tell me that your allergic in shrimp? Alam mo bang delikado ang
ginagawa mo? Zea, you're really scared me."

May pag-aalala nitong sabi. Tinitigan niya ako at parang matutunaw ako sa ginagawa
niya. Wala sa sariling nakatingin ako sa kanya.

"Kasi paborito mo eh. Saka gusto mo tikman ko rin."

I reason out. He sighed. Dahan dahan siyang tumabi sa akin. Lihim ko lamang siyang
pinagmamasdan.

Kinabig niya ako at hinalikan ang temple ko. I'm wondering why he's doing all of
these. Hindi naman siguro part ito ng pagkukunwari.

"You need rest."

He sighed again. Hinigpitan niya ang pagkakayakap sa akin. And I feel warm with
what he's doing right now. I close my eyes and feel the moment. Lihim akong
napangiti. I think I have to say thanks to my allergy, because of it my husband
take good care of me.

I hug him. I felt like were husband and wife for real. I just realize na mahal ko
talaga ang asawa ko at tingin ko hindi ako mabubuhay kung wala siya. I hope this
moment won't end.

Well, good job allergy! Haha

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Trip to Boracay

(Kabanata 26)

You can't live your life for other people. You've got to do what's right for you,
even if it hurts some people you love.

- Nicholas Sparks -

***
Zea POV

"Make it fast, baka ma-late tayo sa flight."

Nagmamadali nitong utos habang nakatingin sa kanyang sout na wristwatch.

After we had a wonderful sleep together in bed last night. May nakabook pala kaming
flight to Aklan. Kasi para sa Zamora Family reunion. I almost forgot. Kala ko
magtatagal kami ng konti dito sa rest house. Sayang, gusto ko pa naman sana siyang
makasama ng solo.

"Okay. Just wait."

Nagmamadali kong niligpit ang mga personal kits sa bag. Pati pagshower ko, bilang
ang minuto. Hindi pa naman ako sanay ng madaliang pagligo. Pero siya pormang porma
na sa kanyang sout na V-neckline white shirt at faded pants. Hindi ko tuloy
maiwasang titigan siya ng titigan sa itsura niya.

Ang gwapo kasi at ang lakas pa ng dating.

"Don't forget your medicine. Baka umandar na naman yang allergies mo."

He added. I pause for a while. Naalala ko na naman ang pagiging sweet niya kagabi
because of what had happened to me. I smiled silently.

"Why are you smiling? What's funny 'bout that?"

He snapped out of my trance. Napatanga akong nag-angat ng mukha sa kanya. Napaka-

observant talaga ng asawa ko. Para yun lang napansin agad.

"Wala naman. May naalala lang ako."

Napakurap ako. Hindi naman siya mukhang galit kaya lang ang seryuso lang ng peg
niya.

Pagkatapos ng lahat. Nagtaxi na lamang kami pumuntang airport.

Were now on the airplane.

"What? I told you to not interact with that issues. Its personal for Yvo. If you
want to stay longer in the company, behave yourself and leave him alone."

He's busy talking to his phone. Nabanggit pa nito ang kapatid. He paused. Yung
salubong niyang kilay ay mas lalong nakapagbigay ng pagkasuplado niyang mukha.

"No. I can't go there anyway, I'm busy with my wife. We have a family gathering in
Bora. Okay, okay... Email me of those contracts, I'll review it."

And then binabaan niya ito ng tawag. Kahit ba naman sa ganitong okasyon, madami pa
ding storbo sa trabaho. Nasanay na akong marinig na ipinamamalita niyang busy daw
siya sa akin.

I sighed and cross my arms. Sumandal ako sa couch at tumingin sa labas ng

windshield ng bintana.

Narinig ko ang pagbuga niya ng hangin. Ano naman kaya iniisip niya? Sinulyapan ko
siya at nakatingin lamang siya ng derecho sa harapan.
"Nathaniel--"

"Its honey.. Sanayin mo ang sariling tawagin ako ng ganun. Lalong lalo na sa
harapan ng pamilya ko."

Agad niyang putol sa mga sasabihin ko. Again, I sighed. Lahat na lang kailangang
magkunwari. Napaismid ako. Kagabi lang, ang lambing niya. Ngayon, sumapi na naman
ang dati niyang espiritu. Yong cold shoulder, pagkasuplado at walang katapusang
seriousness sa halos lahat ng bagay ay ito na naman siya ngayon.

"Fine. Honey,"

I agreed with sarcasm. Gusto ko pa naman sanang kausapin siya sa mga bagay bagay. I
want to have a casual conversation sa kanya. I wanna start it now but.. I'm
disappointed sa inaasal na naman niya ngayon kaya much better not to bother myself
to talk someone like him. More than pa siya sa taong bipolar.

"What do you want to say?"

Hindi ko na siya kinibuan. Nagkibit balikat lamang ako at ipinikit ang mga mata.
Hindi naman siya nangulit kaya naging tahimik ang buong biyahe. Nagpretend na
lamang akong tulog at humanda siya dahil simula ngayon hinding hindi ko siya
kakausapin ng matino.

Narinig ko ang paalala ng flight steward na 'fasten your seatbelt.' I'm thankful
dahil sa wakas, matatapos na itong katahimikan. I can't wait na umapak sa puting
buhangin ng Boracay Beach.

Napasinghap ako nang hawakan niya ang katawan ko. I looked at him, inayos niya pala
ang seatbelt ko. Seryoso parin ang ekspresyon ng kanyang itsura.

"Just always check yourself if you're safe or not."

He reminded me again. Duh, I rolled my eyes. Gusto kong isigaw sa kanya ang mga
katagang, 'wala kang pakialam, idiot!' Naiinis talaga ako sa kanya. Hindi ako
kumibo at hinayaan ko na lamang siya.

**

Nagcheck in na kami sa isang hotel ng Bora beach. Dumating na pala sila Mommy dito.
Saka pinakilala ako ni Jamie sa ibang mga relatives niya. Mga cousins niya na
halatang sa itsura pa lang may mga sinabi na sa buhay. Karaniwang ay member na sa
antas sa lipunan. And they were all pretty and handsome. Mostly mga mestisa/
mestiso features. May mga pamilyar sa akin na nakita kong pumunta sa kasal namin ni
Nathaniel. Yung iba is ngayon ko lang na-met.

"Hi Zea!"

Si Mica. Who always jolly in everything. Nakangiti siyang lumapit sa akin at

nakipagbeso-beso. Hindi siya tumatawag ng ate sa akin dahil magkaedad lang kami.
Magaan ang feelings ko sa kanya kaya hindi ako nahihiyang makisama. Masaya akong
nakipagkwentuhan sa kanya. Nasulyapan ko si Stacey na nakabusangot na nakatingin sa
amin. Ewan, pero maldita siya sa paningin ko. Kahit hindi ko pa siya nakikilala,
mabigat talaga ang pakiramdam ko sa kanya. She's a snob. That's why she's always
out of place. Parang minsan wala sa sarili.

I saw Servo busy laughing with his cousins. I never saw Yvo here. Tapos my husband
were talking with his Dad. It seems they're talking a very important matters base
on their serious faces. Si Mommy, ay di magkaugaga sa pakikipag-usap sa mga kaedad
din niyang mga in laws. Panay ang tawa nito.

"What happened to your face. Parang may mga red spots."

Puna ni Mica. Buti na lang nawala na yong pamamaga. May mga konting spots lang na
naiwan. Parang kagat ng lamok tingnan. Pero hindi naman siya talaga halata, kapag
titigan lang siguro. I forgot to put some concealers to cover it.

"Allergy lang 'to. Nakakain kasi ako ng hipon kagabi."

"Ganon ba. Halika, labas tayo. Pahangin sa beach. Actually sarap ng maligo kaya
lang tinatamad ako."

"Sige."

Naglakad lakad kami sa white sand beach. Tutal naka slippers naman ako at
nakashort. I'm wearing fitted white tshirt on top.

Panay ang kwentuhan namin about college days. And so on. Ang saya niyang kausap.
Medyo madaldal si Mica at may sense of humor. Nawawala ang boredom ko kanina.

"Zea is that you?"

Napatingin ako sa tagiliran kung saan nagmumula ang boses na yon. Isang
napakalaking ngiti ang unti-unting gumuhit sa mukha ko ang pamilyar niyang itsura.

"Drei?"

I blurted out when I recognize him. He's grinning widely. And I suddenly jump and
threw my arms to hug him. How I miss him so much.

"Fvck! Your getting into my nerves! How the hell are you!?"

Ganito talaga siya magsalita. He laughed with his own joke. Ugaling banyaga.
Sinapak ko siya sa balikat sabay tawa ng malakas.

He's looking at me amusingly. Hinagod niya ako ng tingin at tila napapahanga siya
sa look ko ngayon.

"I'm so fine Drei. How are you too? Anyway I'm married!"

Nakangiting pamamalita ko sa kanya. Gwapong gwapo parin ang lalaking ito! As

always! Siyempre he's a heartrob in campus before.

"Really? Shut up! How? I mean why I didn't know that?"

Nanlaki ang mga mata nito. Halatang hindi makapaniwala ang reaksyon nito.
Nakangiting akong tumango tango.

Natigil lamang kami ng tumikhim si Mica sa gilid ko. Oh shett! May kasama pala ako.
I'm so engrossed with him.

"Anyway, Drei. Meet Mica. My sister in law. Mica, si Drei my cousin."

Nakangiti silang nagkamayan. Kumindat pa ang loko kong pinsan kay Mica. Natitipuhan
na naman ang gago. But Mica seems didn't like him.

"So kelan ka pa nakabalik?"

Naitanong ko. When he was second year college dito sa Pilipinas he stop at nagtapos
sa States. Sa kadahilanang happy go lucky. Uncle Bert, decided to transferred him
para magtino. Ewan ko lang kung nagtino ba talaga.

"I'm good. You know, Dad would be disappointed if I won't finish my schooling.
Anyway I'm pursuing in my masteral. Hey! Tell me about yours? How about your
husband? Sino?"

Ngumiti ako. I still managed to be proud of my so-called-husband, kahit papel lang.

"He's Jamie Zamora, were having reunion here. "

Kumunot ang noo niya. Napasulyap siya kay Mica na busy sa pagkulikot ng Phone.

"Jamie Zamora? You mean one of the sons of Mr. Lucas Zamora, the CEO of ZGC?"

I nodded proudly. He smirked.

"Well, good catch Cuz. I knew him in States, sa Massachusets. We're schoolmate in
Harvard."

Tumango tango ako. Ganun naman talaga ang buhay ng mayayaman. Nagkakaroon ng
coinsidence kapag may mga events, at kung anu-ano pa. I am also one of the heiress
ng mga Chiongbian but still I am living as simple as I could. Ayoko ng maraming
kaechusan.

"I've lose communication with you. Urgent kasi yong wedding namin. Wala kasi sa
plano. Saka hindi ko na naasikaso ang mga invitations. Hindi ka rin naman kasi
nakikibalita sa amin."

May himig na pagtatampo kong sabi. Siya kasi ang Kuya ko ever since but I never
call him that way. Kaya pinagseselosan ako ng mga ex girlfriends nito.

"I'm so sorry Cuz. I was so busy this past few months. Surprise lang naman kasi ang
pag-uwi ko. Actually kararating ko lang kahapon. May project kasi kaming ginagawa
dito. I was planning to visit you after these. And I'm glad we'd accidentally met
here."

Magsasalita pa sana ako nang biglang may humapit sa bewang ko. Napalinga ako at
nakita ko ang mababagsik na mga mata nito. I frowned.

"Excuse me, I'll just take my wife with me."

He said with full of authority. Like ironically he claimed me with persistent

jealousy. He possesively encircled his arm to my waist. Seryoso niyang tiningnan
ito from head to foot. Nagtatakang napatingin lamang sa akin si Drei. I smell
something trouble is about to break out. Parang hindi nagustuhan ni Drei ang ginawa
ng asawa ko kaya nakipagsukatan siya ng titig dito.

"Drei, come on let's drink coffee."

Biglang pumasok si Mica sa eksena at hinila ng walang babala ang pinsan ko.
Hinawakan niya ito sa braso para ilayo sa amin. She nooded at me at makahulugang
ngumiti.

I sighed in relief. Jusko! What's happening?

Hinila ako ni Nathaniel papuntang hotel. Sa bilis niyang maglakad ay muntikan na

akong madapa. Naiinis kong iwinaksi ang kamay ko sa mahigpit na pagkakahawak niya.

"Nathaniel, ano bang problema mo?"

Marahas kong tanong. He's stop walking at galit na nilingon ako. Umigting ang panga
niya.

"What's wrong with me? You were definitely hugging him in public? Like you were
lovers? In front of my sister, Zea? And then you were asking me what's wrong with
me? What do you think you are doing dear wife? Alam mo ba ang ginagawa mo?"

What?! Nalaglag ang panga ko sandali sa sinabi niya. Yun ba ang ikinagagalit niya
ngayon? He's incredible!

I laughed sarcastically. Oh my God, ano ba ang nakain niya ngayon at umaasta siyang
jealous husband?

"Oo alam ko ang ginagawa ko, Dear HUSBAND! Your imposing things to me like I did
something wrong. Hindi ka ba pwedeng magtanong muna before you judge me like that!?
Tell me, are you jealous with Drei?"

I mocked at him. Nabigla siya sa huling tanong ko. Natameme. He seriously staring
at me and I'm puzzle. He's really acting so strange lately.

"Of course not! I'm just thinking about what will people say. That's it. Whatever
our personal issues and real situation are, you have to remember that were still
married, Zea."

Pagkatapos niyang sabihin ang masasakit na mga salitang yon ay agad akong
tinalikuran at naglakad pabalik sa suit. Natigagal ako.

Still he's concern in his reputation and his fvcking name! Wala talaga siyang
nararamdaman para sa akin. Why am I hurting this way? Bakit ko nga ba iniisip ang
bagay na yon? Siya magseselos dahil may feelings sa akin?

Imposebli.

I wanna erase that idea. Erase. Erase. Erase.

Bahala siya sa buhay niya! Tutal nasanay na akong lageng disappointed sa kanya.

Letse!

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Undeniable

( Kabanata 27)

You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally
better than your dreams.
- Dr. Seuss -

***

I'll dedicate this chap to them for always supporting and giving thoughts about my
story .. thank you guys, and to those I didn't mention here, salamat po, at sa
ibang chapters na lang. Thank you ng Marami.

- vanessahazel

- martinne1026

- gorgeousbetina

- annefeb

***

Jamie POV

"Drei, what's up man? What brought you here?"

Napalingon ako sa malakas na tinig ni Paolo, my cousin (younger brother of Yael).

Ito yong guy na kausap at kayakap ng asawa ko kanina. It seems that they were ex-
lovers before or close friends and I was so darn jealous.

Were here at bar in the hotel. Drinking all together with all the Zamora men.
Actually he looks familiar to me. I don't know where I met him. He'd rigidly
handsome and who knows if my wife would attracted with his physical features.
Thinking about that idea made me stiffened in mad. And I hate the fact that I can't
admit to her and myself that I am falling with my wife.

"Anyway who's he?"

I suddenly got curious to ask Yael. Were currently on the other side of the table.

"Andrew Chiongbian. You don't know him? He's cousin of your wife."

My jaw fell. Cousin? I thought. I scolded myself for such an idiot. I've accused
her kanina na wala naman siyang ginagawang masama. I ignore of feeling guilty. I
smiled nonchalantly. I have nothing to worry about. I'm the only man he loves. Its
not that I sanguinely accept the realization about her feelings towards me but I'm
a little bit worried too. There's hundred of possibilities pop up in my mind about
her. And it scared the hell out of me those what ifs.

I looked up when someone joined the table and gives Yael a friendly punch on his
shoulder. I met his gaze as directly to my eyes. I remain without emotion but
somehow I have to amend secretly about my mistakes. I could almost punch him in his
face a while ago when I saw him mingling with my wife. Jealousy strikes bad and
insecurity slaps to my ego. But then, I'm thankful that they are family related.

"Oh anyway, met my couisin Drei. Jamie."

Yael spoke between of us, not even notice the tensions building up here.

"Yeah, husband of my precious Zea."

Sounds sarcastic. I sighed and then sipped my drinks in glass.

He offered his hand and I accept it slightly half smiling to him. Pinikpik ko ang
balikat niya. And then I started having conversations with him. Masasabi kong
malakas talaga ang dating niya sa mga babae. The way he talks isn't shallow but
ounce of humor and arrogance.

After that short talk, I excused myself to exit. I have to amend my wife. I have to
woo her. And be sorry for treating her badly most of the times. I've been too
unfair. I never give her a chance to get closer to me like a string couple attached
to each other. I always saw her other side than to notice what she could offer to
me. A love, a sweet Zea that I wanted to get to know more.

**

I saw her happily talking to my cousins. They are all girls like having their
shower party. Lumapit ako at walang babalang niyakap siya sa likuran. She was a bit
surprised at nung lumingon siya at nakita ako, her face turn to sour. I smiled
mischievously. I really wanna stare her refined beauty and I wanted to make love to
her. I have the right to claim my needs.

I feel hot in my body with our position. I tried to ignore the erection inside my
pants.

Shitt!

Ibinaling niya ang atensyon sa mga kausap at nawala yong cheerfulness niya kanina.

"Nathaniel, you're drunk."

She hissed silently and slaps my arms. I put my face to her smooth DVD scented neck
and gaves her a little kisses there. I can feel her uneasiness breath escape in
her.

"Nathaniel."

She made her voice hard but low. My urge to kiss her more escalated-- and I smell
her natural fragrance. I'm addicting with it.

"Nathaniel..please."

I smiled mischievously because she's getting affected with my gestures. This woman
is really getting into my nerves.

Hinila niya ako palabas sa lugar na yon. At galit siyang hinarap ako.

"Nathaniel wala akong panahong makipaglokohan sayo! Ano ba sa tingin mo ang

ginagawa mo?"

I ignored what she said, instead I'm staring her luscious lips intensely. I can't
help myself with the temptation. She's really a seducing me without her awareness.

Her heated cheeks and big eyes is more attracted when she's mad. I smiled.

"Ano bang nginingiti ngiti mo dyan? Does it funny---"

I suddenly grabbed her nape and smashed her lips right away. I don't care what
she's babbling for, as long as I can kiss her the way I wanted so much ever since.
Like this, I'm hunger and missing her a lot.

She punch me in my chest and I become more desperate to deepen the kiss. Until, she
permitted herself to respond with my kisses and let me lead the flow. I can feel
her arms thrown on my back and pressed her body closer to mine. It gives me courage
to do what I want to. The sweet and tingling moan escaped from her and I groaned
with satisfaction.

"Hmmm.."

She moaned breathlessly as we break the kiss. I stared all over her face. Her lips
is the sweetest I'd ever tasted for my whole life. She's different. And I can't
explain it why I'm feeling this kind towards her.

Her lips twitched like she was about to say something but then I took a chance to
kiss her again. Its irristable. The feeling is mutual. It feels so right.

Nag-aalab na ang buo kong katawan. I wanna ravish her right here and then. Isang
malakas na ubo ang pumutol sa aming dalawa. Kapwa kami napalingon dito. Naiinis
kong tiningnan si Mica na namewang sa harapan namin. She raised her one eye brow at
pilyang ngumiti.

My wife's cheeks flashed bright red in mortification. She glared at me afterwards

then stormed herself away from us. I remain standing, my eyes still following her
as she walk away.

Still mad?

Kiss wasn't enough. Maybe I should think better how to won her trust again.

I sighed.

"Hina kasi ng diskarte mo, kuya. I think you should exert an effort."

Mica snapped out of my trance. Kunot-noo ko siyang tinitigan. She smiled wari may
kapilyahang naiisip.

Humugot ako ng hangin. She's right. I have to do such as efforts. I have to court
my wife!

"Then how?"

I suddenly got curious. Napahalukipkip siya at sumeryoso.

"Think about her favorites to do, to eat, or anything that could make her happy.
Except those luxurious gift, dahil tingin ko hindi naman siya materialistic."

Good suggestions. But I have no idea what's her favorite to do or something that
can make her happy. She's my wife and yet I don't know almost everything about her.

Ni minsan hindi ko naitanong kung ano ang gusto niya. Ni ninsan hindi ako gumawa ng
effort for her. Its ridiculous. I wanna start a new but I can't, I've always stuck
to my rules to the point that I'm hurting her so much. I am so disappointed.

I sighed again.

"Thanks Mica. I have to go."

Tumalikod ako para umalis.

"Kuya. You have your choices."

I stop for a while at saglit na nilingon ko siya.

"The best thing you can do is to confess your feelings to her. Yan ang
pinakamagandang paraan para magkaayos kayo."

She smiled. She talked as if she had an experience about real love. I'm just
wondering how did she know about our situation, the whole fiasco. Maybe Zea shared
it to her. Or maybe its her instinct. Nakakabaliw talaga ang mga babae mag-isip.

I sighed. Hindi ko alam kung kaya ko bang sabihin sa kanya itong nararadaman ko. Am
I really inlove? Head over heels and heels over head? With my wife? Urrggh.

Umalis akong wala sa sarili. Napapaisip ako kung ano ang pwede kong gawin para sa
kanya.

***

Zea POV

I woke up early in the morning. My stomach is growling, I think I need coffee. I

never eat breakfast as early as this.

"Good morning, honey.."

Nagulat ako nang madatnan ko siya sa sala, nakaupo sa couch. May hawak itong
bouquet of roses. At may naamoy akong mabangong pagkain. My favorite smell that I
wanted so much to eat at this moment. Lasagna pizza?

He's showing his infamous grin that a woman could swoon. I was literally stunned
for a moment of staring him. My stomach growls and I think narinig niya yata yun
dahil bigla siyang tumawa. Not the insult laugh, but it was amusing kind of.

"I know you're hungry. Come on, let's eat. I really order it for you. Its one of
your favorite, right?"

Uh-uh.. How did he know? And the first thing popped in mind was, ginagawa niya ba
ito for peace offering? Or baka naman nakalunok lang siya ng lason sandali at
naiisipan niyang gawin ito bago man lang pumanaw. Thinking about that idea makes me
feel nauseous. My husband is exerting his efforts for me? How the hell it happened?

His smile again made me caught guard.

"Okay."

Gutom talaga ako at ayokong tumanggi sa pagkain lalo na at paborito ko pa.

"For you, hon."

The expensive boquet of beautful and scented flowers is really enchanting. He

handed it to me and I was in reluctant when I took it.

Flowers?

For me?

Well, I smell the carnation pink roses. Subrang bango, nakakatanggal ng stress.
" Thank you. Anyway, why are you giving me this?"

I asked, confusion drawn on my face. I am frowning looking at him.

He smiled,

"Peace offering. I am really really sorry for accusing you and Drei. I never
thought na magpinsan pala kayo. I'm sorry."

He's apologising me which made me stiffened for a while. Since when he learn to say
sorry? Ilang beses na nga niya ako napagsalitaan ng hindi maganda at masasakit na
bagay ay hindi ko man lang nakikitang pinagsisihan niya pero ngayon parang sincere
naman siya sa paghingi ng tawad. Kaya lang, parang awkward lang pakinggan.

I never talk. Speechless ako sandali. I glanced at the pizza box. I am really
starving.

"Well let's eat."

Binuhat niya ito papuntang dining. Nilapag niya ito sà mesa at binuksan. Mas lalo
akong nagutom nang makita ang lasagna.

I swallowed hard. He prepared the plate, tapos nilagyan niya ako sa plato.
Nagmamadali akong umupo dahil excited na akong kumain.

Panay ang subo ko habang siya at panakaw nakaw ng tingin. Natatawa at napapailing
na lamang siya tuwing nakikita niya akong kumakain ng ganito. Na para bang takot
maubusan ng pagkain. Gutom talaga ako eh. I don't care kung ano isipin niya. Basta
kakain ako, sa paraang gusto ko.

"So okay na tayo? Hindi ka na galit?"

I sipped the fresh milk bago ko siya hinarap. Halos hindi na ako makahinga sa
subrang busog. Ilang slice yata ng pizza ang naubos ko.

I smiled, may naiisip akong kapilyahan.

"Well, kung sasamahan mo akong mag -swimming. Bati na tayo."

Nakangiti kong sabi. Gusto ko siyang makasama sa buong araw. Tutal mamayang gabi pa
naman mag-uumpisa ang program. Hindi pa kasi dumating yong iba nilang kamag-anak.
Yung iba nasa flight pa from states and Europe countries.

Ngumiti na naman ang loko kong asawa. Yung ngiting hindi mo kayang balewalain.
Ngiting nakakapagbigay ng atensyon ng mga kababaihan. Which made me swoon. Saglit
akong napamura sa sarili.

"You have me whole time, honey."

Well I'm fond with the way he call me that endearment. I feel like its real.

I wear my bikini. Well, slightly sexy and conservative type. A black bathing suit
na back less sa likod. Tapos kumuha ako ng super iksing short na medyo fitted at
humapit sa maganda kong pangangatawan ang sout kong swim wear. Well, I'm stating
facts not that I'm boastful.

Kumuha ako ng see through scarf at itinali ko ito sa balakang para magsilbing takip
sa pang-ibabang bahagi ng katawan. Actually I'm not inclined to used and wear this
sexy outfit or loungerie, whatsoever. Nacoconcious ako. Pero baka mas lalo akong
pagtawanan if I'll wear shorts and strapless spaghetti on top. Hello, this is BORA!
Beach! Wag ignorante. Parang ganun ang dating. So this is the most-not-so-revealing
outfit-slash-swim wear I can wear off.

"Nathaniel!"

I call him when I walk out the room. I'm wondering where did he sleep last night.
Nag-iisa lang naman ang kwarto ng suit na ito. For couple suit room kasi ito.

"I'm done, ikaw na naman ang magbihis."

I louder my pitch kasi parang nasa kusina yata siya. I took my flipflop slippers
and wear it. I smiled as I looked my feet wearing it. Very nice.

But when I raised my head saglit akong natigilan nang makitang nasa harapan ko na
siya. His face drawn a palpable shock. Yong tipong intense stares. Sinuri niya ang
kabuuan ko. And literally he's seriously staring my whole aura. It was as if he
disagreed my outfit.

"Are you gonna seduce every single man there?"

He scowled. Ano!? Again? Acting possesively jealous? Or he's reputation again?

Seduce?

Jusko!

"What's wrong? Do you want me to wear my evening gown in the beach?"

Pamimilosopo ko. May naglalaro sa utak ko kung anong bagay. I don't want to get
mad. I realize na kapag nagagalit ako sa walang katuturang bagay na ito, masisira
lang ang araw ko. I smiled triumphantly and cross my arms in front of him.

"Well, are we gonna talk your reputation again? Or you just jealous my dear?
Precisely, a lot of men will swoon over me. Of course, because your wife is pretty
as well. "

Taas noo kong sabi.

My mischievous smiles dancing in my eyes. I think the more I tease him is the more
I get the best way for him to give in.

Gumalaw ang panga niya, halatang napikon. I laugh a little. This man is really so
irrevocable. Lumapit ako at nilagay ang dalawang braso sa kanyang leeg. And I took
a chance to get closer to him. I can feel the electrifying senses between the two
of us. He's hot! And I am too.

Goodness!

He's staring me seriously like he's mad or controlling himself not to admire me.

Nakita ko ang paggalaw ng Adams apple niya, which means napapalunok siya sa hindi
ko maipaliwanag na intensity.

Hindi siya nakagalaw.

"Well, don't worry my dear husband. I won't cheat like what you did. I wouldn't do
such a thing that would ruin my dignity and my name. And of course, your precious
reputation also. I wouldn't waste my time of wrecking things out of my league."
I was almost choked with what coz I've fought so hard not to lust with him. I've
realize that there's a loud hammering thud in my chest. I've tried to ignore the
feeling and I was thankful that I have courage to talk to him this way like I
wasn't affected of being so close to him.

Few seconds past, he twiched his lips to the other side and gave me that sarcasm
smile like he always used to.

"Are you seducing me my dear wife?"

It was husky voice that tingling to my ears, dancing through my senses and
traveling to my spine. I was stunned. But then, I have to be stronger than before.
I smiled seductively.

"Your amazing. Of course not, as you've said, hinding hindi ka papatol sa isang
katulad ko, diba? So why should I seduce you? Na hindi rin naman pala tatalab
sayo?"

And then I paused for a while. I look at him, kunwari napapaismid pa ako.

"Lastly, we are going to annul our marriage by few weeks time. Probably, I wouldn't
allow myself to claim you. Or I won't allow you touch me too. Mas mabuti nang
magkaliwanagan tayo."

A slightly smile drawn to my face. Sa wakas nagantihan din kita! At mas lalo lamang
umusok ang kanyang ilong sa pagkapikon. You deserve it moron! Alam kong tempted na
siya sa akin. He's just denying it. Ang lalaki ay magpapakalalaki talaga. Sino ba
ang hindi tatanggi sa isang babae when they offered themselves with a silver
platter to those men? They are not saint. They usually drawn in temptation.

I can feel his darn erection in my stomach. Its so hard, and I am nervous.
Nababahala lang ako lalo sa tuwing maiisip kong baka bibigay siya.

Oh gosh. I think I've made the wrong move. Hes actually mad right now! He narrowed
his eyes and gritted his teeth.

"I think I have to go now."

I kissed him quickly on his lips. It was just a smack. At mas lalo lamang siyang
nagulat sa ginawa ko. I really have to go. Pakiramdam ko bibigay na ako. I'm
provoking him at pakiramdam ko sasabog na siya sa binitiwan kong pang-iinsulto.

"Bye honey."

Binitiwan ko siya agad at tumalikod sa kanya. But to my surprised he grab my arms

immediately at kasing bilis pa ng kidlat nang ragasain niya ang labi ko.

O-M-G!

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko sa ginawa niya. He smashed my lips angrilly. It was hard,
at para ng masugat ang labi ko sa ginagawa niya. Itinulak ko siya ng ubod ng lakas
pero hindi man lang nagalaw ang katawan nito. Sadyang malakas talaga ang mga
lalaki.

Unti-unting lumalalim ang halikang yon. The punishing kiss was gone and it replace
by soft, sensual and passionate kiss we've shared. It shivers through my spine and
I clung my arms tightly to him. He pressed my body to him closer. His hands is
traveling gently to my back.
We breathlessly took a break.

"I have to claim my right and needs as your husband my dear wife.."

He smiled mischievously. And I was stunned for a moment. What was he mean? I open
my mouth to talk but he cut it off with a kiss. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko dahil this
time he's determined to claim his rights and needs!

It only means?

Were going to make love!?

No! Not this time!

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Burning Desires

(Kabanata 28)
I finally understood what true love meant.. Love meant that you care for another
person's happiness more than your own no matter how painful the choices you might
be.
- Nicholas Sparks-
***
Zea POV
Binuhat niya ako papuntang silid. Sa subrang bilis ng pangyayari, hindi ko na
namamalayang wala na pala akong saplot. I don't know how the heck he undress me as
we keep on romancing with each other. I am totally naked, lying in a soft matress
kissing him more and more.
"Hmmm.. Beautiful."
He is totally arouse while staring intensely with my soft and tender body. It was
like, its precious the way he's staring it. Agad akong naconscious. Hinila ko ang
comforter para takpan ang katawan. But he's fast para pigilan ito.
Napaawang ang bibig ko. Mabilis niyang hinubad ang kanyang white shirt at itinapon
sa sahig. I was stunned every inch of his body. Its rigidly delicious that I wanted
so much to touch it. Napapasunod lang ako sa bawat paggalaw ng muscles niya.
I tried to push the lump in my throat. Nasulyapan ko ang pilyong pagsilay ng ngiti
sa kanyang labi.
"What are you doing?"
Nagkakandautal-utal kong tanong. Namimilipit yata ang dila ko. It seems that my
body can't move kahit anong pilit kong suwayin ang sariling kaligayahan.
Tabingi itong ngumiti. Yung nanghahamon, nang-aakit at nanunukso. I bite my lower
lip to fight the urge.
Nanlaki ang mga mata ko nang tanggalin nito ang belt para hubarin ang pants.
Napausog ako pataas at napalunok.
Oh my...
When his pants was remove, tumambad ang sout nitong brief, which is may malaking
bukol sa loob. I gulped for a second. Anytime soon ay handa na itong sumalakay.
I gulped all over again.
"Obviously my wife.."
Sagot nito kalaunan sa tanong ko. Nanlaki ulit ang mga mata ko nang mahubad nito
ang kahuli-hulihang saplot.
For the first time ever... Nakakakita ako ng ...??
Kaybilis nitong dinaganan ako at intake ang aking labi. Hindi na ako nakapagprepara
pa at nagpatangay na lamang sa sariling emosyon.
He's kissing me everywhere. My neck, my breast, while his other hand massaging my
sensitive spot there. I moaned in pleasures.
He lick every inch of my body which made more arouse. He cupped my boobs while
sucking the other one. I close my eyes tightly and call his name over and over
again.
Bumaba ang labi niya sa tiyan ko, it was sensual, passionate and soft touch of his
lips. Nagsitayuan na ang balahibo ko sa katawan. I felt like there's a hundreds of
butterflies staying in my stomach. Until he reach his lips over there, napaungol
ako ng malakas. He lick and suck it which made me so damn high. Hindi ko na alam
kung saan ko pwede ibaling ang aking ulo. I am silently cursing myself for letting
him taking something valuable in myself.
Bahala na. I think I'm going crazy if I stop him doing these. In my respond,
napapahawak na lang ako sa kahit saang parte ng kanyang katawan. He's eager to
claim me now, and I am willingly to give what he desires for.
He positioned himself to get ready. Bigla akong kinabahan. Sabi nila masakit daw
ang first intercourse. Napakagat labi ako.
"Wait, I'm scared.."
Agad kong sambulat na kinakabahan. He looked at me frowning. The desires of his
eyes is visible. His face is determine to do what he wants from me. He smiled.
"Acting like virgin huh?"
He mocked playfully. Nainsulto ako. Gusto kong isigaw sa kanya na birhen pa nga ako
pero parang may bumara sa lalamunan ko at hindi na ako makapagsalita.
"But--"
He seal my mouth with a kiss. Ipinasok niya ang kanyang 'big dick*' sa akin which
made froze in pain.
"Sh*t!"
Napamura siya, nanlalaki ang mga mata nito. Biglang tumulo ang luha ko sa sakit.
Alam kong nabigla siya but I was shocked too dahil hindi ko naman alam na masakit
pa pala sa inaasahan ko.
I can see the palpable shock in his sinfully handsome face.
He paused pero nasa 'loob' ko parin yong male big part niya.
"You are.."
"Go on.."
Sa nahihirapan kong tono. I suddenly claim his mouth para ipagpatuloy nito ang
nasimulan. He reluctantly move his hips to deepen the thrust. And he's moving as
gentle as he could. He murmured about how sorry he was.
"I'm sorry honey, I can't stop.. Uhhh.."
His groaned, he's a bit frustrated. But still I can see the smile in his eyes. I
can feel that he is happy. And I don't know kung saan siya naging masaya.
The pain was replace by something unexplainable pleasures. Naging kiliti na lamang
ang bawat labas pasok niya sa akin. Hanggang sa naging mabilis ang kanyang
paggalaw. The more he deepen the thrust is the more I get what I wanted to reach
out.
Napapahawak na ako ng mahigpit sa kanya. Lumalakas na ang pag-ungol ko. He's
murmuring something and my concentration is the pleasures that made in heaven.
"I love you.."
He murmured between his moans. I'm wondering kung tama ba ang naririnig ko. Basta
narinig ko mismo sa labi nito.
Pakiramdam ko may gusto akong abutin. I'm shaking something.
"Nathaniel.. More please..please. "
I begged. He smiled habang napapaungol. Our eyes met, and it was electrifying, at
nangungusap ang bawat pagtitig nito.
"My pleasure honey..
Parang musika ang mga katagang yon sa pandinig ko. He move faster and faster,
deeper and deeper until I reach the peck. I was helplessly lying my body with
extreme satisfaction. And when he made the final move, he summoned his strength
and deposit his semens inside my hole.
It was entirely exhausting but so much satisfaction for both of our needs.
Napapikit ako sa subrang pagod.
Naramdaman kong umalis siya sa ibabaw ko at hinapit ako nito para yakapin. I
already accept him, his burning desires and claiming his needs and rights.

**
Jamie POV
She's beautiful.
She's unconsciously lying on my broad chest while I'm carresing her bare back. I
smiled happily. She's mine. All mine. Finally I made it to the top. I was so happy
that I found out that she's virgin, left untouch. I felt proud. Kasi ako lang ang
lalaki sa buhay niya.
I gave her sweet and little kisses in her temple. Kagabi ko pa siya gustong
kausapin. Kaya lang naabutan kong lock yong kwarto. Hinayaan ko na lang siyang
mahimasmasan at bukas kakausapin. And that is today, but it turn out so good coz we
end up like this. A very intimidating and passionate making love.
I stared her perfect lips, it was so damn sweet to kiss. Her long, thick and curve
eyelashes brings her natural beauty. Her perfect nose and expressive eyes is
perfect for me.
Nagring ang phone ko kaya maingat ko itong kinuha sa tabi ng kama.
"Hello!"
Naiirita kong sagot kay Nicolas, my cousin. Kala ko importante, hinei naman pala.
"Where the hell are you?! Mataas na ang sikat ng araw wala ka pa."
I sighed. May usapan pala kaming magsurfing ngayon magpipinsan but.. Hindi ko
ipagpapalit ang asawa ko sa good times na yon.
"I'm sorry, I couldn't make it. I'm with my wife. I can't afford to leaver her
now."
I took a glance at her, she's sleeping soundly. Hindi ko maiwasang mapangiti sa
nangyari ngayon. Sa pinagsaluhan naming matamis na sandali kanina.
"For God sake! Oh women! I really don't understand why those married man keep on--
"Nic, you'll understand it if you're gonna love someone. Anyway, just enjoy."
"Wait--"
I hang up the phone immediately and let their demand out of the line. I forgot, Nic
is an opposite of me. Marriage is not his thing. Ewan ko lang kung tamaan siya ni
cupido at makahanap ng katapat. I bet he will surrender himself fully.
I hug her tightly. It is the most comforting moment that I had in my life. This is
the perfect moment happened to me. To be with her in bed, and almost everything
that I didn't expect that things would turn out this way. There's no regrets. I
realized, that I should be thankful na siya ang kayakap ko ngayon, not anyone else
like her sister. Hindi ko ito naramdaman kay Trisha noon. The mere fact happened
was, I thought Trisha will be the one for my future. Dahil siya ang babaeng
binigyan ko ng precious necklace ko, gift from my biological mom. But it was so
wrong to set about you're wanting for than to feel what you're looking for. My wife
is the perfect reverie that I never thought would fill my contentment.
I kissed her more while imagining for another round. But she's soundly asleep kaya
pagtitiisan ko na lang ang yakap-yakapin at halik-halikan siya.
"Hmm..."
She moan and mover her body away but I scoop her at niyakap siya ulit. Natawa ako.
Ang bilis niya kasing makatulog. I notice that she's always like this. Every time I
comfort her, nakakatulog siya ng mahimbing.
I plant kisses all over face, trying to awake her.
"Honey..I'm still sleepy."
She murmured and cover her face. I chuckled. Its so good to hear when she called me
that way. Tumihaya siya at isiniksik ko ang mukha sa leeg niya. She moaned again
which made me arouse.
"Stop doing that, or else I'll take you in heaven again."
I warned while kissing her neck. Tinanggal niya ang kamay niya sa mukha at ngumuso
paharap sa akin.
"Ikaw naman.. Kakatapos nga lang.."
She pouted, pulang pula ang pisngi nito. I smirked at ninakawan siya ng mabilis na
halik sa labi.
"Does it still sore? Hmm?"
Namula na naman siya sa tanong ko. She pouted, so cute to gaze with.
"Medyo mahapdi pa din. But I'm fine."
"You didn't tell me it was your first time."
I spoke habang nilalaro ko sa daliri ang kanyang sweet lips. Umirap siya at
tinaasan ng kilay.
"As if you would listen to me, bakit kung sasabihin ko ba sayong virgin ako
maniniwala ka ba?"
Well, sort of yes or not. Kasi sa panahon ngayon, halos lahat ng babae hindi na
virgin. Liberated man or conservative type. But then, I'm thankful that she's
totally mine.
"Maybe yes, maybe no. But it doesn't matter as long as I.. I own you.."
Napaismid siya and looked away. I sighed. There's something pain in her eyes. Its
unfathomable emotions.
"I never thought that your exes didn't touch you."
Mahina kong dugtong. She's looking at me furiously. May masamba ba sa sinabi ko?
"I never had a boyfriend Nathaniel. "
Tumalikod siya at masuyo ko siyang niyakap. Hindi ako makapaniwala na wala pa
siyang nakarelasyon. Mas lalo lamang akong napahanga sa kanya.
"I know, I've been too unfair but I want to make things right, Zea"
Seryuso kong bulong sa kanyang teynga. Humarap siya sa akin at tinitigan ang mga
mata ko. Ngumiti ako.
"You're really beautiful my dear wife."
Ngumuso siya at hindi na ako nakatiis na sakupin muli ang kanyang labi.
"I thought samahan mo ako magswimming."
Singit niya hahang bumababa ang labi ko sa kanyang leeg.
"Just later, after another round.."
I spoke hardly habang dinidiinan ang halikan.
Wala na siyang nagawa pa at nagpaubaya na lamang.

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Marriage with Benefits

(Kabanata 29)

Love is that condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to

your own.
 - Robert A. Heinlein---

***

Zea POV

Alas tres na kami lumabas ng suit. Kung hindi ko pinilit si Nathaniel na

magpahangin, mananatili kaming nakahiga sa kama, nag-uusap habang magkayakap. We
watch movies, and he cook something for me which I really appreciated. I don't know
that he can also cook. Talagang versatile ang mga Zamora. They're born with the
talent to captures women's heart easily and have a variety of skills with
themselves.

I am wearing a tight hugging sleeveless with matching scarf in my shoulder and a

short shorts. Hindi niya ako pinayagang maligo sa beach ngayon dahil tiyak daw
mahapdi pa sa private female part ko if mabasa ng maalat ng tubig, which was he had
a point there. Namula ako nung sabihin niya sa akin ang bagay na yon. Tapos
nakaramdam pa ako ng pagod sa binte ko, sa mainit na pinagsaluhan namin. Pakiramdam
ko nagjogging ako whole day dahil nangangalay pa ako. Plus, I'm still sore. Hindi
naman ako nagsisisi na nakuha niya ang pagkababae ko. Still he's my husband and he
has the right to claim his needs anytime he wants. And I obliged myself happily to
sustain his needs. I don't care if he didn't love me or not, ang mahalaga sa akin
ay mahal ko siya at handa akong pasayahin siya sa abot ng aking makakaya.

"You don't want to join us, Zea?"

Mica was enviting me to swim with them. She often call my name than to call me ate,
dahil magkasing edad lang naman kami. Nagawa ko siyang titigan, she had the tiny
body with a beautiful curves, hindi nga lang katangkaran. Pero magandang lahi
talaga sila, mestisa.

"No, dito lang ako. Tinatamad pa ako eh."

I refused the invatition. The truth is tempted na talaga akong magtampisaw sa

napakagandang bluish-green water ng Bora, but the thing na mahahapdian lang ako sa
alat ng tubig, dahil sa kagagawan ng asawa ko ay mas mabuting manood na lamang sa
kanila sa isang tabi.

She grinned playfully and gave me that I-knew-it kind of look, which were blushed
my cheeks.

"Si kuya talaga, pinagod ka."

Biglang sabi nito na sinabayan ng mahinang pagtawa. Namula ako lalo ako sa sinabi
niya. Tumakbo ito palayo wearing her two piece swimwear at masayang nakisali sa mga
relatives nito sa beach. Naiinggit tuloy ako.

Nakasandal lang ako dito sa white chair at nanonood sa mga taong masayang naliligo.
My husband was busy talking to his cousins in the cottage. He's wearing his
hawaiian attire. A colorful short, and an open colorful botton polo shirt.
I am typically boring one kaya mainam na sa akin ang ganitong sistema. Alangan
naman hahalo pa ako sa mga kalalakihan. Isa-isa na silang nagpakilala at kahit
hindi ko na sila memoryado, may mga inherited familiar aura naman sila, yun ay ang
katayuan ng pagiging malakas ang dating. They're arrogance and sinfully handsome
faces are really tempting to gaze with. Sometimes may mga pagkakahawig pa. Iba
talaga ang build up nila, unlike us. Hindi ko naman masabing parehas ang standing
ng buhay namin. They're top billionaires in the country pero kami, typically may
maginhawang buhay with a political dynasty.

"Are you okay here? It seems you look bored?"

He snap out of my trance. Hindi ko napansing nakalapit na pala siya sa akin. Wala
sa sariling napasulyap ako sa magandang features ng kanyang mukha.

Umupo siya sa harapan ko at dinampian ako ng halik sa labi. Nagising ulit ako sa
ginawa niyang mainit na pagdampi ng kanyang labi.

"Ayaw mo kasi akong samahan."

I pouted, and snobbed him. I looked away, avoiding his intense stares. He chuckled
soundly.

"Honey, I told you its sore when you--"

I suddenly put my bare palm to his mouth. Baka may makarinig pa, nakakahiya.

"Nathaniel were in public. Can you please minimize your voice?"

I glared at him. The naughty smiles were dancing in his eyes playfully. What the
heck! Namula na naman ako sa panunukso ng tingin niya. Hay naku, I realize na may
talent talaga ang mga Zamora na alaskador! Gaya na lang ng ginawa ni Mica kanina sa
akin. Nanunukso ang mga mata at ngiti nito.

"Still shy my Zea? Masasanay ka rin at mawawala na yang hapdi. Can we recover it
later? How about tonight?"

My eyes were widen in surprise, is he reffering to do it again? I gave him a

vehement look. There's a thunderous thud inside my ribcage. Why is it the
excitement is building up when he said those words?

"You're really irrevocable, "

I glared at him for once, his sweet laughters dancing in his eyes. He's still
wearing that sensible smile that I can't help myself to drool.

Niyakap niya ako at masuyong hinalikan sa labi. I push him slowly at dinilatan. May
plano kasing gawing matagal ang halik nito.

"Nathaniel wag kang PDA."

Sinaway ko siya. I took a glance around. Mabuti na lang abala ang mga tao sa
kanilang pinanggagawa. Pero I've seen lovers and couples are throwing theirs kisses
to their partners. Subra pa pala sa PDA yong iba lalo na yong mga foreigners.

"What's wrong? I'm your husband, they should know that you're already mine."

What? Kakaiba din pala ang lalaking ito. Kailangan ba talagang ibalandra na pag-
aari niya ako?
Hinalikan niya ulit ako at hindi na ako nakapagptotesta pa ng bigla niya akong
buhatin at may plano yatang magkulong na naman kami sa loob. Nakita ko na sa amin
nakatingin ang karamihan. Lalong lalo na ang mga pinsan nito sa may mga cottages.

"Kuya this isn't your honeymoon, its our reunion!"

Narinig kong sigaw ni Sev sa amin. Nagtawanan ang mga kalalakihan. Isiniksik ko
lalo ang mukha sa kanyang malapad na dibdib dahil sa subrang hiya.

"Shut up! I don't need your opinion, moron!"

He shouted back with irritation in his voice. Kinurot ko siya sa tagiliran.

"Put me down."

Sa mahina at matigas kong utos.

"No."

Reply nito. I sighed, I have no choice. Talagang mahirap baliin ang sungay ng isang
Jamie Zamora.

Nakapasok kami sa suit, marahan niya akong nilapag sa sofa.

"Kala ko ba, makikipagbonding ka pa sa mga pinsan mo."

Tumabi siya sa akin at niyakap ulit ako. Kinuha niya ang remote control at ini-on
ang TV. Hindi niya pinansin ang tanong ko instead hinalik halikan niya ang leeg ko.
Nakikiliti na naman ako sa ginagawa niya. Napapapikit na lamang ako. Lihim akong
napapausal na sana lubayan niya ako kahit saglit lang dahil tiyak na bibigay na
naman ako.

"Hmm.. They're not important dear wife."

He said sweetly habang dinadampian ako ng halik sa pisngi.

"Nathaniel--"

Sinakop niya muli ang aking labi at nagpaubaya na lamang ako. I threw my arms on
him, pinangko niya ako. I am currently sitting him while kissing passionately.

"Let's just watch movie, hon. I know you still sore."

He said when were breathlessly apart. I blushed, hindi ko naman aakalain na

magpipigil siya. Lihim akong napahiya sa sarili. Wala pa naman akong planong
pigilan siya sa nais niyang gawin sa akin. The good thing about was he's concern in
me. But still, I'm lusting for him.

Napakurap ako to hide my sparkling eyes in excitement. He chuckled soundly which

made paused for a while, and frowning at him.

"Honey, I know you're excited to make love to me. But I guess we need to reserve
energy for tonight. Hmm, what about that?"

My cheeks were heated silently and feign a smile. Trying to show up my best drama
sarcasm in respond. Pakiramdam ko pulang pula na ang mukha ko sa hiya. I narrowed
my eyes like slits to him.

Bwesit! Kaasar naman ang lalaking to! I ignore the killing excitement about what he
said that might happen to us tonight, which is shaking me inside. For sure its on
more intimate moments. Kanina lang, we made love over and over and over again.

Tapos mamaya na naman. Ipokrita ako kung hindi ko aamining gustong gusto ko ang
nangyayari ngayon sa aming dalawa.

"Kapal talaga nito!"

Kinurot ko ang tagiliran niya. His laugh roared all over the suit room. Pinisil ko
ang ilong niya at para tigilan ako. Pero mas lalo lang niya akong inasar. I stood
up and headed to the door.

"Hey where are you going?"

Tumayo agad ito para sundan ako. I crossed my arms in his front. Kunwari nagtatampo
ako.

"Maghahanap ako ng ka-date sa labas, yong hindi ako aasarin at pagtatawanan."

Uh.

His cynical bluish-gray eyes narrowed like slits. I think mali yata ang sinabi ko.
Not a good idea. I barged through the door para iwasan ang galit niya. But he's
fast as wolverine to grab my wrist and pulled me closer to him.

"Don't you try me my wife or else I will kill those men you're gonna date with."

Napaawang ang bibig ko. Seriously? Selos? Maybe but why? As far as I know--- I stop
imagining things when he cover my mouth with a kiss. Naramdaman kong itinaas niya
ako, he pulled my butt and encircle my legs to his waist.

"Now I'll give you what you deserve."

He said with finality between with our kisses. Only to find out pumasok na kami sa
kwarto para gawin ulit ang session.

Oh my.. Are we doing this marriage with benefits?

***

Jamie POV

"I thought you don't have plans to join us here. Busy with you're wife huh?"

Darren mockingly said that words. I narrowed my eyes and took a glance with my wife
that is busy talking to the girls group.

"Stop it Darren, I didn't allow you to tease my privacy."

I seriously spoke it to him to stop teasing me. He shrugged and continue strolling
his iPhone. Were here in convention, the program was about to start.
I smiled the thought that we've almost came late because I was so eager to ravish
her over and over again. Were just busy talking each other habang magkayakap
hanggang sa makatulog.

"Trisha Chiongbian. Who's this?"

Biglang umigting ang tenga ko sa narinig. I move closer to him.

"She's my wife's elder sister. Can I see it?"

I'm wondering how did he search it in Facebook. Or they're coincidentally friend

with my cousin? She's my ex, but I didn't intentionally to be friend with her in my
personal Facebook account.

He handed his phone to me and I've seen her photos together with the unfamiliar
guy. She's holding her big tummy, with that guy wholeheartedly embracing her side.
I can see the happiness in their eyes with those photos. They're both smiling
taking selfies. I was literally stunned.

She's pregnant.

Sa laki ng tyan nito, tantiya ko nasa five or six months pregnant na ito.
Imposebli. As I count the days, weeks since she left us without permision, its been
four months. I gritted my teeth. So all this time, niloloko lang pala ako? I'm sure
the the baby she's carrying isn't mine, coz we never had an intimate moment before
kahit na minsan she's tempting me but I did respect and treat her well coz I want
to treasure that moment when we get married, but it turned out like this without my
expectation. I accidentally married her sister. Though wala naman akong
pinagsisihan, besides I'm thankful for it sa di maipaliwanag na dahilan.

Binigay ko ang phone kay Darren at lihim na nag-iisip. I'm sure her family knows
about it. They just hide it from me. I look at my wife firmly. I won't discuss it
to her, I'll just wait until she will reveal the truth. I'm puzzled. She got
pregnant with the other guy, and left me without closure. The hell I care! But I
felt insulted. I feel like they are doing their schemes to hide the truth and made
a move to cover that family-matter-issues. That's when nung pinikot ako ni Zea
which is hindi ko naman pinagsisihan.

Nababagot akong tumayo.

I think I need time to think all about this frustrating things I've just
discovered. I need air to breathe.

Huling sinulyapan ko ang asawa na busy sa pakikinig sa host ng na nagsaslita sa

stage bago ako tumungo sa pintuan palabas sa convention ng hotel.

Hindi ko maintindihan ang sarili kung bakit nakakaramdam ako ganito. I felt
relieved and confused at the same time. Pakiramdam ko nabunutan ako ng tinik sa
lalamunan, dahil na-guilty talaga ako sa nangyari when I married her sister. But
when I found out na nabuntis siya ng iba. Pakiramdam ko, ako ang biktima sa lahat
ng ito. My wife surely knows about it.
I gritted my teeth nang maisip na kasali ang asawa ko sa pagsisinungaling. They
betrayed me. Nalilito ako lalo. My wife just admitted it to me that she love me.. I
hope its all true, not part of the scheme.

But???

I sighed as I drink a glass of whiskey.

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Just Give Me a Reason

(Kabanata 30)

It's not hard to finds someone who tells you they live you, its hard to find
someone who actually means it. If I could choose between loving you and breathing,
I would use my last breathe to say 'I LOVE YOU'.

- Unknown-

**

Zea POV

Hindi ko alam kung anong masamang nangyari sa asawa ko dahil bigla na lamang akong
kinaladkad ni Mica palabas sa convention at sabi nito my husband is in trouble
right now.

Binundol ng malakas na kaba ang aking dibdib. Dyos ko, wag sanang pahintulutan na
may masamang nangyari sa kanya. I think lumipad na yata ang espiritu ko sa ibang
mundo sa mga oras na ito.

Pumasok kami sa isang bar na na attached lang ng isang malaking hotel ng Bora. May
isang umpukan ng mga tao. Kinabahan ako nang makita ko ang gulo. Agad akong
dumutdot sa crowd para makiusyoso. Palinga linga ako sa palibot para tingnan kung
nasaan na ang asawa ko.

I saw a man naglupasay na nakaluhod sa sahig. Lango ito sa alak. At may nakita
akong dugo sa gilid ng kanyang bibig. And my husband was standing there, paharap sa
lalaki and I have the feeling na siya ang may kagagawan sa pagbugbog sa lalaking
yon.
I was shocked in horror nang hablutin muli nito ang damit ng lalaki.

"You're crazy! I'll never forgive you bastard! No one dares to fvcking fight with
Zamora! I'll make---"

"Enough Nathaniel! Please.. What are you doing huh?"

Agad kong singit sabay hila sa kanya. I've seen the palpable shock registered in
his face when he saw me.

Pabalang niyang binitiwan ang nanghihinang lalaki at nagpatangay sa akin. May

nakita akong konting dugo sa gilid ng bibig niya. Napaaway talaga ang asawa ko.

I gently cupped his face at nag-aalalang tiningnan ang kundisyon .

nito. He's eyes were full of rage in anger.

"What are you doing? Are you okay? Nasaktan ka ba?"

Nag-aalala kong tanong. His fury eyes replace with soft expression. Niyakap ko siya
at hinalik-halikan. Hindi ko na namamalayang pinagtitinginan na pala kami sa loob
ng bar. But I don't care! He's my husband after all.

Kumalma siya at nakatitig lang sa akin. Hindi ko mawari kung ano ang iniisip niya.
Basta ang alam ko gusto ko siyang suyuin ngayon instead na pagalitan at husgahan
siya sa ginawang pambubugbog.

Nakatitig lang siya sa akin. Niyakap ko siya at pinakalma.

"Mas mabuti pang umalis na kayo, you two go to your suit. Ako na ang bahala dito."

Bulong ni Mica sa akin. Muntikan ko ng makalimutan na kasama ko pala siya pagpunta

dito. Tumango ako.

"Kuya magtanda kana. Ang init ng ulo mo."

Inirapan niya ang nakatatandang kapatid, which made me chuckled.

**

"Ano bang problema mo at nagwala ka doon?"

Marahan kong tanong habang ginagamot yong konting pilas sa bibig niya. He sighed at
sa akin lang nakatuon ang mga mata nito.

"Ouch!"

Sigaw niya nang medyo diniinan ko yung bulak sa bibig niya. I smiled, tapos
hinalikan ko yong lips niya.

To my surprise niyakap niya ako at pinangko sa kanyang hita. Isiniksik niya ang
kanyang mukha sa aking leeg. He's acting like a baby. For the first time,
naglalambing ang asawa ko.

"Hindi mo pa ako sinasagot Nathaniel. What happened kanina?"

He plants soft kisses to my neck. Nag-iinit tuloy ako sa ginagawa niya.

"Nathaniel I won't make love to you anymore if you won't tell me."
I burst out finally. He suddenly stop and frowning at me. I crossed my arms.

"Honey. Its not my fault. Its just that, he interrupted without my consent."

He spoke at hindi parin tumitigil sa kanyang ginagawa. I sighed. Ang hirap talaga
kausapin ang lalaking ito.

"Honey, his fault or not masama pàrin manakit ng tao, lalo na kapag alam mong
walang kalaban laban sayo."

Naalala ko yung katawan ng lalaki kanina, talagang wala itong kalaban laban. Sa
katawan ba naman ng asawa ko, tiyak na hindi aabutin ng umaga ang lalaking yon.

"Hmm.. Its his fault. He provoked me."

He murmured. I rolled my eyes and let it be. Aalamin ko na lang kay Mica ang totoo
bukas.

"Honey, Hindi pa tapos yong program. Hinahanap na tayo ni Mommy for presentation."

Nahihirapan kong sabi dahil bumaba na ang labi nito sa dibdib ko. Mas lalong
humigpit ang pagkakayakap ko sa leeg niya.

"Hmm. I don't care about that.."

Anas niya sa tonong paos ang boses. Nararamdaman ko na ang paninigas niya sa baba.
I sighed. He suck my nipple and played it by his expert tounge. Napasinghap ako sa
init na hatid nito. My body was chilling high.

We end up in bed together. I am really really tired. Hindi ko na alam kung

nakailang beses na kami ngayong araw. Kaninang umaga we made love thrice. And this
afternoon, and now again.

"Honey, .."

Mahina niyang tawag habang hinimas himas ang balikat ko down to my arms.

"Hmm..."

I look up to him. Sinalubong ko ang seryoso nyang titig. Minsan gusto kong isipin
na may pagtingin din sa akin ang lalaking 'to. But still I don't wanna assume on
him. Ayokong mag-expect ng higit pa dun, dahil baka masaktan lang ako.

"Do you relly love me?"

He asked. And I froze. Seriously? I already admitted it to him na mahal ko siya.

Hindi ba niya pinaniwalaan yon? I frowned. Napakurap ako at natawa ng konti.

"Hindi pa ba sapat na binigay ko ng buong buo ang sarili ko sayo?"

Balik-tanong ko. Tinitigan niya muna ako. His eyes is clouded by too intense
emotion that I couldn't fathom. It was far far from depth. Too far to reach out.

He sighed heavily then averted his eyes somewhere.

"I love you from the very start, Nathaniel."

I continued coz he's doubting about it. I don't know why.

"Zea, I know I've made mistakes with you. .."

Bumangon siya at umupo tapos sumandal sa headboard. Hinila niya ako. Pinasandal
niya ako sa kanyang dibdib.

"I'm willing to accept everything just to work out this marriage. I am not going to
annul it. Not ever."

Nagulat ako sa sinabi niya. Nagtataka ko siyang tinitigan. He smiled. I gave him a
questioning stares.

"I..I love you, Zea. I don't know how or when did it happened.."

He almost whisper to the air and it makes my heart melt. I was stunned for a
moment. I felt like there's firecrackers na biglang sumabog sa harapan ko. Bumundol
ang dibdib ko pero kakaiba ang heartbeat nito. Not scared or nervous, this is
entirely different. Subrang saya ko.

Napaawang ang bibig ko. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang gusto kong isipin o sabihin.

"And we are going to build a big and happy family together."

He smiled wholeheartedly. His eyes is shining with happiness if I'm not mistaken.
Napakurap ako para pigilan ang nanunubig sa mga mata ko. Bigla ko siyang niyakap ng
mahigpit. He hugged me tightly too.

"I'm willing to give you a dozen of babies if you want to, honey.."

He laughed when I said those words. I'm not joking. I want a big and happy family
too. My wish and dream would just came true and happiness is understatement.

I remember the times when we always fought for nonsense things. Those times that I
acted like a love sick teenager. Those times that l've almost ruin my disputable
pride and principles. Then the trip to Boracay is certainly the best way that we
end up like this.

Humiwalay ako sa kanya nang may maalalang isang bagay.

"Paano na yong?..yong other woman mo? Nathaniel ayoko ng magulong pamilya. I'm
warning you, if magkakaroon ka ng kabit, much better we'll annul our marrige."

He burst out laughing. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang dahilan ng malakas na pagtawa
niya. Salubong ang kilay ko habang tinitingan ang malutong na kanyang pagtawa
which is the first time I saw him laughing like its the best funny moments ever.

"Well.."

The wide smile still plastered in his sinfully handsome face. He looks amused that
made me wonder.

"Actually, Charmaigne is my best buddy or best friend way back to college, honey.
Sorry, but she's not the other woman. He's just a good friend of mine who I
sabotage to.."

He paused, trying to catch a breath and preparing to speak up about it. I hate
delay-delaying, I hate suspense and thrill kaya napatitig lang ako sa kanya waiting
for him to voice out. I swallowed hard.
"I sabotage her to pretend that were lovers to make you jealous. That scene you saw
us in bed is just a part of a scheme. We never did anything wrong that against the
law to destroy our marriage, honey."

Napaawang ang bibig ko. I can't believe it. I just can't.. But its true.. To make
me jealous? For what? My slow mind still processing the data I've just heard. Then
nagsink sa akin yong sinabi niya. I blink my eyes away. I was really really hurt
that time, I've became rebellious and so on.. The mere fact that that it was all
lies is utterly shocking. Because he love me.

"Why?"

The pain and regrets was evident in my voice and my very eyes. He sighed, he took
my hands and slowly kissing it like I was a princess that he praised.

" I was sorry for it honey. I'd never imagine na mas masasaktan pala ako sa ginawa
ko sayo. If only I could turn back time, I'd rather admit my feelings for you than
to hurt you just to prove that you love me too. But I swear honey, I really
regretted it. I'm so sorry, sorry.. Now I realize that I can't breathe fully
without you.. I'm so in love you honey.. I love you so much, that I could not
afford you to lose."

Tumulo ang luha ko sa sinabi niya. I'm touched. Kala ko hindi na nya ako pwedeng
mahalin.

"I love you too, Nathaniel. Sa lahat ng mga nangyari, it doesn't matter anymore.
As long as were together now."

Niyakap ko siya at napaiyak ako sa balikat niya. Marahan niya akong inalo. He
soothed my hair, giving me assurance that he won't leave me ever. This is tears of
joy.

Hindi naman ako galit. Kaya lang that time ay nasaktan talaga ako. Pero hearing all
those words with sincerety ay hindi ko kayang balewalain. I'm not a one of those
stubborn women who insist about their aspects than to accept the reality and the
things that already been done. I can accept it. In fact, naging unfair din naman
ako from the start. Pinikot ko siya dahil sa malasakit ko sa aking pamilya. Syempre
mahal ko rin naman siya sa umpisa pa lang. Nalulungkot lang ako sa bagay na hindi
ko kayang sabihin sa kanya ang totoo tungkol kay ate.

Speaking about my sister, the last time we talked is two weeks ago.

"Honey?"

He snap out my trance. May sinabi pala siya na hindi ko na narinig. Bumitiw ako
saglit. Napakurap ako at tiningnan siya. Lutang parin naman ako coz of the
unexpected revelation. Nagtataka itong nakatitig sa akin. Then his eyes roamed at
my naked body. Namula ang pisngi ko. Hindi ko pala natakpan ang katawan ko.

I pulled the comforter immediately to cover my naked body to make myself

comfortable talking to him. Ewan ko ba nacoconcious ako.

He's grinning widely with my reaction.

"Its too late honey, I've already memorise every inch of your body."

My cheeks is blushing obviously. Mas lalo lamang akong napahiya. Dios mio! My
husband is really killing me to the highest level.
I nibbled my lip. Panira ng moment. He drew me closer to him. Without a single
thought he kissed me abruptly. I clung my arms to his neck and respond the way he's
kissing my lips as of this moment.

"I love you, honey.."

He murmured when we break the kiss. He's still staring my swollen lips deliciously.

"I love you too--"

He smashed my lips again. Marami pa sana akong gustong sabihin. But in our position
right now I think there's no use to talk coz he won't allow it.

He just giving me reasons that I'll stay with him forever. This is more than
enough. I hope its the beginning of our union and love towards each other.

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Mica POV

"Where's your brother? How is he? Si Zea?"

Mom asked nang makabalik na ako sa convention. Mabuti na lang Joan texted me that
Kuya Jamie had trouble with that bastard in the bar.

"They're fine Mom. Finally may katapat na si Kuya Jamie. Meron na tayong
peacekeeper kapag nagtatantrums siya."

Tumawa si Mommy sa sinabi ko. Si Kuya Jamie ay may ugaling hindi marunong magtimpi
ng temper. He's reckless. Kapag nagkakaroon siya ng high temper, he's a monster.
Muntikan na nga siyang nakapatay dahil sa subrang galit noon nung nasa States pa
kami. Kahit si Kuya Yvo, hindi siya sinusubukang galitin. Para siyang si incredible
hawk when he's mad.

Sinabi ko kay mommy ang cause ng away. That bastard was provoking him of
accusations. He was accusing kuya, it was mistaken identity that he was the one who
steal his bitchy girlfriend which is not true. Kuya is a not a womanizer type. He
had a lot of girlfriends but hindi naman niya ito pinagsasabay unlike kuya Servo.
Sabagay, pawang parausan lang naman ang lahat. So it doesn't make sense those so-
called-relationships.

Besides sa nakikita ko ngayon, mahal naman talaga niya ang asawa niya. The way he
look at her, the way he acts towards her, acting like a possesive husband. He was
guarding his wife like a k9 dog. How ironically out of his league.

Well I'm happy that si Zea ang pinakasalan niya not that Trisha Chiongbian who is
such a liberated woman. I don't like her. I didn't really know how they end up to
each other pero sabi ni Dad at Mom, Kuya was attempted to rape Zea. Hindi naman
kapani-paniwala. Why would my brother do such a rude thing to a woman? Maybe Zea's
father exagerrated what he seen. Maybe there's something on with them, which is
remain secret.

Duh, at least Kuya Jamie find her soulmate already. He has a peacekeeper/
peacemaker and everything. My God! They almost forgot the people around when they
looked at each other. Sa isang haplos lang ng asawa niya nawala agad ang galit nito
na parang lion. Hay naku, parang bata itong sumusunod sa kanyang nanay nang hilahin
ito ng asawa.

Now I know how love sparks with the two people inlove!

Biglang pumasok sa isipan ko ang lalaking nakilala ko kahapon!

Shit! Bakit ba bigla bigla na lang siyang pumapasok sa isipan ko na walang

pahintulot!

Drei Chiongbian! Leave my freaking mind alone!

**please VOTE if you like the story**

In Love

(Kabanata 31)
You've got to dance like there's nobody watching. Love like you'll never be hurt.
Sing like there's nobody listening. And live like its not heaven on earth.

- William W. Purkey-

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Zea POV
We've shared another moments of stomach flipping, smiles tingling and heart melting
conversations while taking those sideways glances and stealing kisses.
We were like those crazy couple and madly in love with each other. The kind of
deep, sweeping, all-consuming love that people die for and those addicts romantic
who writes poems and books about (inspired by themselves and perfect happy ending
love stories that has been created from their minds and soul). Not the kind of
candyfloss love that media sells (just like teenager affairs) who dance in unison
like having their eighteen candles, prom night or something like tweetums. This one
is entirely different, this is for matured experience. I just can't believe na
nararanasan ko na pala.
The kind of holding each other's hand while walking, throwing each others smiles
and puppy look glances, having embracing each others arms, giggling together just
like a lovers that afraid of to be apart, as if apocalypse might happen. We were
like that ITEM. Very much in love.
Tinutukso nga kami ng mga alaskador nitong mga pinsan na it's not our honeymoon
stage. Well my husband and I didn't mind them all. This maybe the last day of
reunion, tomorrow we will go home and everyone have their happy and unforgettable
experience here in Bora. About us, I just hope na ito na talaga ang umpisa ng aming
masayang pagsasama.
"I think next month, itutuloy natin yong honeymoon sa Maldives. How about that
Hon?"
Malambing nitong tanong habang kumakain ng adobong hipon. Were here at the
restaurant sa tabi ng beach. Of course sea foods ang mga specialty ng pagkain dito.
"Ikaw bahala. Hindi kana ba busy sa trabaho niyan?"
Nakatitig ako sa kinakain niya. Naglalaway ako kaya lang everytime na humihingi ako
sa kanya, nagagalit siya dahil allergic ako. Pinipilit ko siya dahil may dala naman
akong gamot kaya lang ayaw niya talaga.
He sighed. Parang may mabigat na dinadala.
"Yvo, didn't do his job well. As a CEO, he must do his duty. But he's busy ruining
his life in the bar, drinking all day, and .. So on.."
How pity for his older brother. Hindi ko nga siya nakikita dito.
"Nasaan pala siya? I didn't see him here sa reunion niyo."
Nagtataka kong tanong. He shrugged. And then umayos ng upo. Tapos na akong kumain
dahil nabusog ako sa dessert na ginawa ni Mommy Regina kanina.
"Sabi niya, susunod daw siya dito. I don't know, malabo naman siyang kausap."
Bigla akong nagkainteres. Almost one year na rin nang iwan ito ni Ella sa araw
mismo sa kasal nito.
"Hindi pa ba siya gumagawa ng paraan para magmove on?"
Interesado kong tanong. Sometimes nakakabaliw talaga ang pag-ibig.
"I think he's doing that, not entirely. Lage ko siyang nakikitang may kasamang
iba't ibang babae. But he's actually dating with someone now. I hope this time,
he'll take it seriously."
Napatango tango ako. Mabait naman yong Ella, pero bakit siya iniwan nito? There's
maybe a deep reason behind that.
He stood up, kala ko aalis na kami pero umupo siya sa tabi ko. Sumandal kami sa
sofa at inakbayan niya ako. He kissed my cheeks ng ilang beses. I just discovered
na napakalambing pala ng asawa ko. Ang sarap talaga sa pakiramdam kapag
naglalambingan kami sa isa't-isa.
"Pero I've met Ella in their engagement. Mukha naman siyang mabait. Maybe may
malalim na dahilan kung bakit niya nagawa ang bagay na yon."
Nakikisimpatiya kong sabi. Tiningnan ko siya sandali.
"You were there in their engagement?"
Salubong ang kilay nitong tanong. I sighed, o nga pala hindi pa niya ako kilala ng
mga panahong yon.
"Oo naman. The whole family Chiongbian was there. Diba nga nabangga kita nun? Tapos
nagalit ka pa nga dahil natapunan ko ng juice yong suit mo. Remember?"
He's frowning. Wari nag-iisip, inaalala ang nangyari noon. And then unti-unting
lumiliwanag ang mukha niya.
"Ikaw yon? I thought.. Kaya pala you look familiar."
The smile was plastered in his face. And I pouted. Nakakatampo naman.
"That night pa lang na nakilala mo si ate sa bar, pinakilala na niya ako sayo. But
you still didn't remember me."
He laughed. Yong tipong nasisiyahan sa sa nakikitang tampo sa akin.
"Honey, I maybe forgotten those times pero believe me, whenever I saw you there's a
voice in my mind, telling me that you're something special."
I rolled my eyes of what he said. Hindi ko alam kung papaniwalaan ko ba siya o
hindi. My heart ache with the thought.
"I don't believe you. You're just trying to please me now."
I rejected. He chuckled. He pulled me closer to him and kiss my forehead quickly.
"Honey. It's not that. Actually you're more attractive to me than your sister. But
things didn't work out as the way I wanted to be."
"Then why did you court my sister instead of me? If you felt that attraction?"
My eyebrow cease upward. I am half mocking half blaming. Talking about their past
makes me awkward. Her ex fiance is still my sister.
He grinned then clear his expression. I didn't see a trace of regrets in his deep
set eyes. Actually there's more happiness than that.
"Actually it's too late to back out. Coz I've already courted your sister before I
found in myself that you're special to me. Besides, Trisha reminds me so much of my
childhood darling and then it happened that she it admitted to me, that she's that
girl I've been looking for. I gave her a necklace before. When were teenagers time.
And that kind of I was upset that I felt different about it. I am expecting more,
the girl I've spend times thinking about. But it turn out so entirely different. I
don't know...parang hindi siya, but evident was there, I saw the necklace she's
wearing that purely mine. That necklace has sentimental value since it was my
biological mother's gift when I was young."
I shook my head. I felt guilty, the person he's talking about is me without his
knowing. Well, my great selfish sister pretended that she's the one. Would I able
to tell him the truth? But.. I'm afraid he will change. For me, it doesn't matter
anyway. Coz he's already falling in love with me. But upon hearing the value of
that necklace makes my heart ache. There's a touching story behind of it. Binalik
na sa akin ni ate yong kwentas bago siya umalis. Tinago ko lang.
"What are you thinking, wife?"
He spoke behind my silence. I cannot look at him directly in the eyes. Nagi-guilty
parin ako. Tipid akong ngumiti sa kanya. A smile that doesn't reach into my eyes.
Nakatingin lang siya sa akin, wari may malalim na iniisip.
"I just.. I mean.. "
I sighed. Nabibigki ang lalamunan ko. Nakayuko at humugot ako ng hangin bago
nagsalita. Am I ready to tell him?
Nagkatitigan kami. I knew he's holding his breathe for waiting something that I'm
about to reveal. As if he was expecting about it.
"I am.. I.. I'd like to ask you something, Nathaniel."
Oh God, I cannot tell it to him. Forgive me Lord. I can't betrayed my sister. But..
"What do you wanna ask?"
I can see the confusion in his eyes.
I swallowed hard intensely. Saglit akong nag-isip kung ano ba ang dapat kong
sabihin o itanong.
"That girl you met long time ago, do you still love her? I mean.. My sister?
Minahal mo ba talaga siya?"
I have to know kahit alam kong in love na siya sa akin ngayon. Pero ang maisip na
he's loving that girl he met long time ago..was me at si ate ang inaakala niya ay
subrang nakakapanghinayang. If only I knew.
Saglit siyang natahimik. Napalunok ako. May mahirap ba sa tanong ko? Kung wala na
talaga siyang nararamdaman kay ate, hindi na dapat pinag-iisipan pa. Biglang may
kumurot sa puso ko nang maisip ang bagay na yon.
"Actually, the truth is I never expect na siya ang teenage girl na nakilala ko
noon. I've been thinking about that girl 'til I grown matured. I forgot her name,
her physical features. My only hope to see that girl again was with my necklace
that I gave it to her. But when I saw Trisha wearing that, bumalik sa akin yong
alaala ng nakaraan. And when I examine the necklace, it was really mine. My
precious belonging. I was glad, at last I found that girl..but the different is,
the feelings is not the same anymore. I was expecting anyone else that might fit
the description but it was really Trisha. So it happened that, napilitan akong
seryosohin siya. But.."
He put a long paused, as if he's thinking something heavy or deep.
"I certainly tried my best to please her, but she change.. I mean... After few
months of the relationship, she suddenly got cold which was made me confused at the
same time. I did feelings for her but it was entirely different than my feelings
for you. Just plain feelings honey.. Not really in love."
Not really in love.. He's not really in love with my sister. But why he's willing
to marry her after all? The cold treatment he said, maybe that was the time ate had
an affair with her ex fiance (Kuya Richie). Actually, I cannot judge him as easy as
that, but a cheat is still a cheat, it's absolutely wrong. Pero iba si ate, madali
lang para sa kanya pumasok sa isang complicated situtation. She's a careless. She
doesn't care often times lalo na sa feelings ng ibang tao.
Aaminin kong namangha ako sa sinabi niya. Maybe from the start pa lang he loves me
na, because of the old feelings he felt for me long time ago which was he can't
recognize na ako pala yon. Only the love. Does it really happen at times? It seems
it changes at some point.
"You mean, napipilitan ka lang na ligawan siya dahil siya yong babaeng itinakda
mong balikan? O pakasalan? Tama ba?"
Marahan siyang napatango tango sabay kibit balikat, wari hindi sigurado.
"Maybe.. But I felt like she's other woman. Pakiramdam ko hindi siya yong batang
binigyan ko ng kwentas. Maybe my fault, because mataas lang talaga ang expectations
ko sa kanya. It was totally opposite. And then the thing that I wanted to settle
down, I proposed her. I thought love will grow as easy as that. I thought what I'm
feeling for her is really love."
I'm totally super blown away. He loves me.
"You mean. You really love me?"
Nagbablush kong tanong. He burst out laughing. I frowned. Then he drew his face to
mine. The amusing smile still plastered on his adorable face.
"What kind of question is that? I think already prove it to you many times.."
He released a naughty smile then his gaze landed to my lips. He's staring it as if
it's the most delicious thing he ever tasted. I lick my lips because it feels like
it runs out dry.
I shook my head. My cheeks were heated. He really makes me swoon anyway.
"I mean. How do you know yourself that you're in love with me? How did you know
that it was entirely different?"
I manage to asked. He chuckled. He pulled me closer to him more and gives me soft
kisses on my hair.
"Hmm.. I always miss you.. I'm happy every time I saw you. Everything. I suffered
sleepless nights because of you. What you feels for me, I think its more than
that."
His voice is getting husky. I swallowed hard. Nagwawala na ang puso ko sa subrang
saya. Pakiramdam ko sasabog na ako this time.
My eyes roamed around when my husband snaked his arms to my waist. Napanganga ako
na halos nakatingin na pala sa amin ang lahat. I saw an insecurities feeling in
their eyes, yong mga babaeng gustong gusto sa poder ko. I don't care anyway. May
mga ginang namang napapangiti lang tuwing napapatingin sa amin, parang nagugunita
nila sa amin ang nakaraang karanasan ng kanilang asawa sa katauhan naming dalawa.
I felt proud. And it's overwhelming.
After walking, we spend time swimming together. We played chess at minsan
nakikihalo kami sa kanyang mga pinsan. We really had fun.

**
Yvo POV

"Look at each other, Darling. They're so much in love."

I heard Mom spoke to Dad. I was kinda hangover when I reached this place. Those
uncontrollable of drinking too much alcohols brings chaos to myself. What a pity,
fvckng miserable life! But I have to in order to forget everything. But tama si
Alyssa. There's no use. It doesn't make sense. It doesn't change the fact that it's
over now.
"Hindi ako nagsisi na si Zea ang pinakasalan ni Jamie. Not Trisha."
I heard Dad said. I walk away and gave myself a fresh air to breathe. As I've been
staring to the lovely couple, the newly weds of the family, I can't help myself to
get insecure. I envied them for loving each other smoothly. Ang saya-saya nila
tingnan.
I'm glad that finally Jamie finds his soulmate.

But here I am, left broken, alone and busy making things how to work things out
without her.
I sighed heavily.
I gritted my teeth as I remembered how she left me. Still, the feeling of pain is
fresh.
I am really missing her so much. ..
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Honeymoon Trip

(Kabanata 32)

Be with someone that requires you to grow. Makes you forget your problems, hold
your hand, like to kiss, appreciates art, and adores you..

- Mama Zara -
(Kushand Wisdom)

***

Zea POV

Its been a week since that incident happen. The incident that we became okay, and
admitted our feelings to each other. Since that, we treated each other so well. No
annulment will be follow. Nawala na yong kasunduan naming maghiwalay. What for?
Masayang masaya na kami sa isat-isa. Saka pa ba maghihiwalay?

And now, were heading to airport for flight going to Maldives. Our honeymoon!
Finally natupad na rin sa wakas! I hope doon na kami makabuo ng baby. My mother in
law is dying to have a grand daughter, at halos araw araw na siya nakikisuyo sa
asawa ko. My husband can't decline or refuse her request. Dahil may sakit ito sa
puso.

"Are you happy?"

He asked. When I get the chance to dwell the silence. The excitement is killing me
softly. I can't barely breath the happiness of our new situation. It was as if my
greatest dream had came true.

Yeah.. My husband is my dream boy.

Sadly, I can't share it to him how I've been longing him for years..

"Yeah I'm fine, honey.."

I smiled pleasantly to him, as my gratitude is raising me high. He pulled me closer

and let me laid in his broad shoulder. He kissed my temple and caressing my arms in
a very gentle and teasing manner. I can sense that.

"Hmm. Tagal naman. I can't wait to see the islands."

He murmured. I raised my one eyebrow about the double-meaning of what he said.

"Honey.. Don't you worry, you'll have me immediately as we reach the there. Hindi
mo kailangang magparinig."

Saway ko na siyang dahilan ng pagtawa niya ng malakas. I sighed at nangingiting

napailing iling na lamang.

"You're really sharp minded Darling.."

He said with amusement. Natawa ako sa sinabi niya.

"Let me sleep honey. I'm tired what you've done last night."

Isiniksik ko ang mukha sa dibidib niya. Enough to smell his man scented perfume.
Napagod talaga ako sa kakulitan ng asawa ko. Masyado siyang hot. Well, I'm happy
naman about it.

Niyakap niya ako at hinagod.

"Sleep well. Gigisingin lang kita kapag nakarating na tayo."

**

Regina POV

I am really hoping for the couple that can produce a baby soon. The sooner the
better. Matanda na ako at may sakit pa. Ayoko namang manghina na sa panahong may
apo na ako. Hindi ko na maaalagaan.

Their honeymoon to Maldives is my plans. Dati-rati ko pa sila sinabihang magkaroon

ng oras para sa kanilang newly weds life. Because of my poor eldest son, hindi
maiwanan ni Jamie ang kumpanya.

I sighed.

My poor daughter Ella. Where are you now? What could be the possible reasons why
you abandoned Yvo as easy as that? I hope you're happy now as you reach your
freedom.

My plans didn't work out. I have been dreaming her to be the wife of my son. She's
a kind hearted woman. Purely amazing daughter to us. I understand why she did that.
She must be very eager to find herself before falling into a serious situation like
being married.

"Enough thinking about that, Regina."

My husband dragged me out of my reverie. I looked up to him. As I've watched our

years fast growing, it seems he used to be fully attention on me. He's a passionate
loving husband as I've married him for the past twenty six years of our lives.

"What do you mean about I'm thinking at?"

I managed to ask as I pulled him to get closer to me. He embrace me lovingly and
kissed my forehead with such a sweet gestures.

"You're thinking your son and Ella again. Its been a year. Yvo is moving on. Let's
just accept it. I think wherever our daughter now, she's happy about the choice she
chose."

I sighed. Its not that I can't accept it. Its just I miss her so badly.

"I just miss so much my daughter, Darling. Don't worry, I'm fine. "

He looked at me gently, as if he's scrutinizing every inch of my facial

expression.

"Yeah, your slowly accepting the reality but your imposing Jamie to produce a
grandchild of ours."

I chuckled of what he said. I crinkled his nose softly. He gave me a smack kiss on
the lips.

"I'd really wanted to Darling. You know, were getting old. Gusto ko muna maalagaan
ang apo bago man lang tayo manghina."

"Stop thinking about that. Were fine. Were strong. Were healthy. We can manage to
take good care of our grandchildren soon."

I rolled my eyes. My husband really can't accept that he's old enough. He's still
had a vivid imaginations about his egoistic personality.

We'll be grandparents if Zea got pregnant after their honeymoon.. And I can't wait
for the moment to come soon.
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No Reservations

(Kabanata 33)

Beginnings are usually scary, and ending is usually sad, but its everything in
between that makes it all worth living.

-Unknown-

**

Zea POV

Finally, were here now in Maldives.

The place were so enchanting, so relaxing and very intimadating beautiful place to
uncover. We checked in, in one of the luxurious and famous hotel here in the island
of Maldives that known around the world.

Were here in CONSTANCE HALAVELI RESORT, located in North Ari Atoll. It is an

exquisite island here. The hotel exudes an idyllic and tranquil atmosphere, and its
private beach and over-water villas blend Maldivian design with a contemporary
flourish, that looks so cozy and one of a kind. Its my first time here in Maldives
and I'll make sure that I'll make the most out of it together with my husband. Two
weeks lang kami pwede dito, kasi magiging busy na siya sa office. But we will make
it sure na maiikot namin ang buong island at mapuntahan ang mga tourist spots dito,
those famous scenery places.

This place is full of extravagance for honeymoon. And I really really love it.

"Oppss.. What you've seen here is not only the place where we can get unwind and
tour. We'll go to Alimatha Island after staying here for two days."
My husband dragged me out of my reverie. He was amused seeing me speechless taking
every glances in the all the sides of the place.

"Really? Actually I have read about the Maldivians places, I just really can't
imagine na makakapunta ako dito..."

I put a smile as I'm going to continue my words..

"With you.. You know, I'm requesting my family to spend time here. But Dad was
quite busy with his politics career. So hanggang sa nawala na lang yong plano."

I continued, though natupad naman sa hindi ko lang inaasahang makakasama dito. He

smile and slightly hugged me. The happiness is visible in his cynical bluish gray
eyes.

"Its not bad honey. I'm the exchange of your dream to be here. Isn't you happy that
your husband is your companion here instead of your family?"

May himig na pagtatampo nitong tanong sa akin. Tumawa ako ng malakas. Acting like a
five year old kid sometimes was really fun. How I love his witty and romantic
gestures with.

"Of course not! Hindi mo lang alam kung gaano ako kasaya na ikaw ang kasama ko
dito."

I smiled to that. His kissable lips twitched to make a silly smile. With that kind
of acts, it must be something naughty. Ano na naman kaya ang iniisip nito?

"Hmmm. Maybe we can create a baby here in an instant. How about that?"

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko sa sinabi niya. Loko talaga nito!

"Ano? Kararating nga lang natin create agad yang iniisip mo?"

I teased. He burst out laughing amusingly. I gave him a grimace look. He stop
laughing and then never leave my body for hugging tightly.

"Hmm. Okay, let's eat first, unwind and have fun! Come on!"

He spoke lively. Hinila niya ako papuntang terrace to see the wide blue-green
beach.

"Sana right at our wedding night, I make love to you. Maybe your pregnant now."

I know he's kinda pressure about it. Almost a day, lageng nagrerequest ang mother
in law ko ng apo. My husband scared about his mother's health. May sakit kasi si
Mommy sa puso. Lage itong nagpaparinig na sana malakas pa daw siya in time of her
grand children. Baka mas lalo daw itong umasa at baka malungkot sa inaasahang apo.

I smiled bitterly, nauunawaan ko ang nararamdaman nila. Pero marami pa namang

panahon. And I'm wishing Mom's health to be okay always.

"Hon, soon I'll be carrying your first child, and maybe first grand child of your
parents. And don't be pressure about it. Just in time darating din yon."

He let himself a heavy sigh before he speak.

"I know. I'm sorry honey. I know its not good for you to be pressure. This is
supposed to be our happy trip not that I'm going to act like in trap. I shouldn't
act like a dumb ass---"

"Ssshhh.. Don't talk like that. Everything will fall into place. Just wait for the
right time."

Niyakap niya ako at hinalik-halikan. I close my eyes and devour the feelings. We
remained that position. Until he inquired me if I'm hungry or not. Syempre uunahin
naman ang makakain bago ang magmasid masid. Hindi muna kami lalayo, dahil pagod pa
sa kakarating galing byahe.

**

The steak and those grilled sea foods are awesome to my taste. Masarap talaga ang
mga pagkain dito. Dagdagan pa sa napakaromantikong ambience ay talagang gaganahan
ka.

"Hon mag-ikot tayo sa buong lugar!"

Masaya kong paanyaya sa kanya pagkatapos kumain. Hindi talaga ako mapakali dahil
gustong-gusto ko na mag-ikot.

"Okay. Tara! Basta after two hours, we'll get rest. I don't want you to exhaust in
anything."

I rolled my eyes, showing of my disapproval. He's acting so overly protected. But I

know natural na sa kanya ang ganun.

"Hey! What's the face?"

Sita nito nang makita ang reaction ko.

"You're so OA sometimes. Can we just enjoy and don't mind the exhausting day?"

He snob pretensiously. Minsan nagkakaasaran talaga kami.

"Tara na nga!"

Hinila ko siya papuntang labasan.

Umikot kami sa buong resort. Nakakita kami ng spa, kaya napagpasyahan naming magpa-
body scrub. And foot masage.

"I want my wife with in the same room. And I don't want a male attendant."

Sa tonong maawtoridad niyang sabi sa babaeng spa attendant. Sinundot ko siya sa

tagiliran.

"Ano ka ba? Parang wala namang lalaking attendant for women."

I hissed in a very deep tone voice. Mukha kasing kinabahan yong babaeng nag-
entertain sa amin. Because of his dominant aura.

"I just want to make it clear. I don't want a male attendant who'll touch you even
if the tip strand of your hair."

See? He's really a jealous husband! I was remain speechless. Ano pa bang masasabi
ko? Namula yong pisngi ko nang makitang napangiti yong babaeng nag-entertain sa
amin. Narinig niya kasi ang sinabi ng asawa ko.
Pumasok kami sa iisang kwarto. Hindi ko naman ito first time kaya lang na-eexcite
ako na naiilang dahil first time ko siyang kasama sa ganitong relaxing session.

"You can take off your dress, Mom."

Utos ng isang Chinese half Thai na spa attendant. Nasulyapan ko ang asawa kong
singlawak ng dagat ang pagkakangisi. Oh my! Inaabangan niya palang maghubad na ako?

Kunwari inirapan ko siya. Sinabihan ko siyang maghubad lang ng damit at huwag na

ang boxer shorts. Kung siya seloso, lalo na ako. Puro babae kaya ang nandito. At
kitang kita ko sa bawat sulok ng mga mata ng kababaihan dito ang paghanga at
atraksyon sa asawa ko.

"And cover your lower body part or else I'll leave you here."

I reminded him once again. He smirked. He's really teasing me. But he gave me a
salute to what I've said. It only means, his under my control.

"Yes boss."

Sinabayan pa niya ng konting tawa. After we removed our outfits palihim pa niya
akong pinagnanasaan. Pumuwesto na kami para maumpisahan na ang gagawin sa aming
relaxing session saka pa pumasok ang mga gagawa.

"Take your eyes off me or else my wife will murder you here right at this moment."

I glared at him when he gave warning to the poor woman. I swear namula ang buong
pisngi ko sa sinabi niya. Yumuko na lang yong babae at alam kong napahiya siya sa
sinabi ng asawa ko. I mouthed to him a 'humanda ka sa akin mamaya".

He mouthed back 'I love you.' I just ignored him and enjoying this moment.

After few hours...

At last were done!

"So how are you feeling now?"

Tanong niya nang makarating na kami sa suit. Tumango tango lamang ako. Inaantok
akong umupo sa sofa.

"You look tired. Do you want to sleep now? I'll prepare the bed for you."

I nodded reluctantly. Actually, engrossed parin ako sa subra niyang maasikaso. Alam
niya kasi kung paano ako matulog. I'll love flat pillow on my head and big and
pillows on my feet. Gusto ko kasi before I'll sleep into a deep slumber ay
nakapatong yong dalawa kong paa sa unan.

"Come on, I'm done.."

I'm tired. Napahikab pa ako sa kamay. I never respond in words, I just only nodded.
Pero nanatili paring nakapako ang puwit ko sa sofa. I felt heavy. I really wanted
to sleep.

"Aw!"

Nagulat ako nang bigla niya akong buhatin at pumasok kami sa malaking kwarto. Dahan
dahan niya akong inilapag sa malambot na kama.

"Hmmm.. Bihisan mo ako please."

Tinatamad kong pakiusap sa kanya.

"Yes, my Queen."

I chuckled when he bowed down his head, acting like a king bowed down to his queen.
I felt delighted.

Hindi ako sanay natutulog na hindi nakapagbihis. Kumuha siya ng damit sa wardrobe.

Hinubaran niya ako. I just close my eyes and waited for him to dress me up. But he
hugged me with his.

"I'll just dress you later, my Queen."

I smiled again with that sweet and highly endearment. To my surprised he hugged me
with the equal heat on his body. He's naked too.

"Honey.. I guess, I can't make love to you now. I'm too tired you know---"

"Ssshhh.. Its okay. I just want to feel your body, honey.."

He cut me off. I closed my eyes and let this moment flows. He's affectionate manner
is really capturing. I just can't imagine na siya itong kayakap ko ngayon.

My other half.

My ideal guy, and my everything.

Still closing my eyes habang hinalik halikan niya ang mukha ko. And his other hand
is on my breast, playing my nipples with his fingers. I became heated then. His
tempting me again!

"Hmmm.."

I can't help myself to moaned with such an equal passion. He groaned and kiss me
gently. I respond with the way he kiss my lips. The more he moves gentle is the
more he's pushing me to the limit.

I gave in and I want him to make love to me right now.

I clung my hands on him. He position himself on my top and began kissing me

everywhere.

His lips is roaming around in my bare chest. I moaned. He sucked my nipple which
made me arouse. He licked it and played by his expert tongue.

"Honey please.."

I begged harder. He paused and then staring intensely to my face. Oh gosh, what was
he's waiting for?

"I thought we can't make love."

What!? Laglag ang panga ko nang sabihin niya ang bagay na yon? So what's suppose
his doing now?

The reaction of his amusement is priceless. He's exactly teasing me!

"Ahmm.."

I mourned. I am really really disappointed. And then he began kissing my earlobe

again. I close my eyes, stopping myself to get carried away.

"Hmm..its not too late honey.. You can beg me to make love to you now."

Napaawang ang bibig ko kasabay nang pagpasok ng kanyang daliri in my private part.

"Hmm.. Nathaniel!"

I moaned.. I'm too stubborn to beg for it. I bite my lower lip to fight the urge.
Oh-M-G.. I am getting horny.

"Honey.."

I beg again, as he pulling and pushing his index and middle finger to my sex.

Oh my.. His lips is moving down to my stomach. I'm beggining to like it coz I know
saan hahantong ang kanyang ginagawa.

And then it came. He's lapping intimately in my private part which made me shiver
in pleasures.

"Hmm..please.. Honey.."

Oh gosh, I'm so wet. I'm so close to orgasm.

"Hmm... I want to hear it my wife.."

He said without pulling his tongue inside my hole. I am so arouse, totally

obsessive in pleasures.

"Say it baby.."

He's teasing me again by sucking my private part. The butterflies take residence in
my stomach.

He paused. And its so damn frustrating.

"Don't stop honey.. Please make love to me now.."

I said undoubtedly. The incorrigible smile plastered in his face.

He positioned himself on my top and shoved his big d*ck inside me. And I suddenly
encircle my legs to his waist. I moaned loudly as I felt his length inside. He
begun moving his shaft which my hips moving at the same time to equal the
pleasures. He groaned, whilst moving deeply and hardly with his thrust. My heart is
beating abnormally like my adrenaline was rushing in. I gripped his hair as he push
harder and deeper. I might die of the feelings in this furious onslaught.
I reciprocated as I've reach my climax. I felt extremely satisfied. That was
exhausting but when I reach to the ends, the feeling is sensual and exuberantly
high.

And when the last push he did, I can feel his erected muscles that deposited a
liquid inside of me.

I haven't no reservations of loving this man. I entirely offered myself to him with
or without condition to think about.

The trust, love and respect. The three words must involve in our marriage. And I
think its doing and working well. And all I can say, is I'm so overwhelmed with so
much happiness in my heart.

"I love your my dear wife.."

Narinig ko nang umalis siya sa ibabaw ko. I'm so tired.

"I love you too husband.."

I muttered as darkness pulled me.

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Meeting Halfway

(Kabanata 34)

We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an

imperfect person perfectly.

- Sam Keen, from TO LOVE AND BE LOVE-

***

Jamie POV

The entire week was full of passionate union and fun. We fill those moments that we
spent quarrel than to be aware of our own feelings few months ago. Since our
marriage got working so well, I couldn't imagine that were inlove with each other's
that I didn't expect would happened.

The barrier has been removed, we became hunger in each other's attention and
seeking time for us to enjoy, doing intimate moments and a lot more that a couple
can do.

And yet, one week is too short for a lovers that madly in love with each other. We
have to spend one week more. For the people who are truly in love, difinitely the
time runs fast. They could almost drag the minute hand of the clock to turn back
the hours so they could have spend more time together. And when you've got apart
just few hours is like months or years you've never seen your lover that could kill
you for missing him/her terribly. That's quite ridiculous to think about, but
that's how I defined it.

Before, I was so puzzled everytime I saw a couple having so much time together and
being stuck with their candyfloss affairs or whatsoever those sparkling glances, a
non stop giggling and smiles, being held each other's hand and glued their body as
if the entire universe is cursing them. They almost can't bear to get away in just
few seconds. Bloody hell! Now I knew what they feels, coz I'm entirely feeling that
super blown away emotions too. Its roaring into my chest, and all I can do is to
screetch her name over and over again deeply.

My wife ..

She's amazing. She's purely amazing for me. No more explanations anymore. Coz love
can't define anything. No reasons, you just love no matter how stupid you become.

"Are you full?"

I asked him happily as I've seen her plate is quite clean, after she eaten those
foods I've ordered for her.

"Yeah so much full, honey."

She smiled and touch her belly, showing her full stomach of foods she just spoiled.

Her phone is beside on the table, it seems she has an important matter discussing
with her friends coz the phone won't stop beeping.

"Who's that? Are you betraying me my dear wife?"

I managed to asked, I know that's quite ridiculous but its irritating every time I
heard the message alert tone of her damn iPhone. I've seen her sly reaction. Was
she keeping a secret from me? But I know she's not that kind of woman.

"Honey! Its a joke right? Why should I betray you? For Christ sake!"

I frowned. She showed up her defiance. She handed her phone to me, which was
proving that she didn't do anything wrong. I was in reluctant when I took it.

I've read the messages on her viber. It was her friend Charice and that gay, named
Carla. As I've read a lot of those messages, they're having topic about pregnancy
and their personal interest, which I do not intently to get interested with.

"Oh ano? Akin na nga phone mo. Baka ikaw itong may tinatagong fling dyan."

I smiled to what she said. I took my phone and put infront of her.

"Wala kang makikita dyan as usual. As if you're not checking my phone every time I
got home."

I know she's secretly investigating me. She always checked my phone every night. I
just let her privilege to do so.

She was a bit surprised. But still she continued scrutinizing it.

"Hmmp! How did you know! What yours is mine. And what mine is yours."

"Of course honey! I already knew that since we've got married."

I stood up and sat beside her. Like the usual I'm attracted so much to kiss her
hair.

"Hmm. Anyway, how's Charmaigne? It seems she's busy these past few days."

Well good thing about was, my buddy friend and my wife got their friendship quite a
while. Charm already apologised her personally for what happened to us. She's
guilty admitting her fault for helping me to made her jealous in hell!

"Yeah, maybe. She didn't bother to inform us."

I answered her unsurely. She put down my phone and focus her attention talking to
me. And we did another talk just like that. She never run out of knowledge to
share. My wife is a smart woman, and aside from that she's interesting to get to
know about. Her humorous and pure kind of attitude is the one I've been looking for
in a woman. She's incomparable. And I'm glad that my wife had that personality, and
every time she shares about her perceptions in life is so interesting for me to
listen to.

"Hon, CR muna ako sandali."

Paalam niya sabay tayo.

"Do you want me to come with you?"

A coy smile plastered on my face. She just laughed and shaking her head off.

"Napakapilyo mo talaga. You stay here."

I just watch her steps grinning. Her phone beep again. So I took it to read.

Message From Carla:

'So, in that case, would you tell the truth to him?'

I frowned with the message. I read the topic between the lines. As I've read the
message of my wife, it seems that topic is quite private. I've become curious then.

From my wife:

'I really really love my husband. I always be faithful to him.'

That's message from my wife, and the reply of her bestfriend, was intriguing me. It
seems she have topic with him about hiding something from me.

I type the letters to reply. I glance at the comfort room area where my wife was
there.

From me:

'What the truth did you mean?'

As if I forgot something, pero ang totoo ay gusto kong sabihin niya mismo sa
message yong the truth.

It beeped again. Sumulyap ulit ako sa comfort room bago ko binasa ang mensahe.
Maybe any moment soon, my wife will come out there.

From Carla:
'Don't tell me nakalimutan mo na, na ikaw talaga Zea ang binigyan niya ng precious
necklace noon? I felt pity for your sister for pretending she's the one. Ikaw naman
napaka-stupida!'

I swear my eyes was in fury, like a cold winter in a sea breeze. My heartbeats was
in riot. I looked up, and I've seen my wife walking gracefully, coming over me. I
cleared my throat.

My eyes was storm in madness. I tried so hard to stop it but its futile. Coz I've
think my wife was seeing it.

"Are you okay?"

She asked. I've jolted with her sudden voice. I sighed as I'm gazing her. Lahat ng
mga tanong ko sa isipan noon, ay nasagot na ngayon.

She's my childhood darling. She's the one I've decided to marry someday. That's why
she looks so familiar when I first saw her. But the fact that she keep it from me,
and let her sister pretended it. I felt like I was neglected by my own wife.

Gaano katagal na ba nila ako niloloko?

I don't know how to feels, either to be happy or not. At the same time I was
shocked with the news, I am furious.

"Honey!"

She snapped her fingers in front of my face which made me back to reality. Her
happy face turn out frowning.

I sighed deeply and averted my eyes somewhere.

"I think we should go back to our suit. I'm tired."

I was suddenly cold. I stood up and I walk out. I don't think so I can confront her
now.

"What about our trip to Baros? Hey! Hon?!"

She shouted loudly. I continue walking. I didn't mind her. I just need time to
think about. Biglang nagring ang phone ko, and when I look at the caller ID, its
Yvo.

"Hello."

I answered as I held my eyes to my wife who were puzzled looking at me.

"You have to go home now. We've encountered problems in our stockholders. I need
you here."

"But I'm on my honeymoon---"

"No more buts Jamie. At least you've done half of your exclusive trip. If possible
tomorrow I'll need you on our board meeting."

He cut off the calls, which I was frustrating staring at my phone's screen. His
stern voice declared authority. I can't neglect the important matters like this.
***

Zea POV

"Prepare your things. We'll be back at the Philippines right now."

Kaswal at malamig niyang tugon. Napanganga lang ako. I don't understand with his
sudden changes. Galit ba siya sa akin? As I've seen him with such an exasperating
manner talking on his damn phone, I think problems occur in their family business.

"Ahmm.. Honey, why? Nagkaproblema ba ang kumpanya?"

Sa mahinahon kong tanong. Narinig ko ang pagbuga niya ng hangin. Mukha siyang
problematic.

"I think I needed there."

Lumapit siya sa akin at dinampian ako ng halik sa noo bago siya tumalikod papuntang
kwarto. Nagtataka ko siyang sinundan ng tingin.

Mabilisan lang ang pag-empaki. Siya na halos ang nagligpit ng lahat. Kapwa kami
walang kibo. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ganito ang mood niya ngayon. Parang galit
pero hindi naman niya ako sinisinghalan o pinupukulan ng malamig na tingin gaya ng
dati. Just plain cold or casual treatment.

"Hmm.. Hon, are you okay?"

Parang tanga kong tanong. I am just trying to make a good start conversations to
him.

"Yeah. Make it fast, we might be late in our flight."

He casually answered while looking at his wristwatch. After we pack those baggage,
we suddenly travelled to airport. Panay ang sulyap ko sa kanya habang siya ay may
seryosong diskusyon sa phone. I'm guessing that si Yvo ang kausap nito.

Maybe nga, a company problem. But aside from that kaninang umaga pa siya balisa.
Parang ang lalim ng kanyang iniisip. And every time I approached him, lage naman
niyang sinasabi na okay siya. Kahit pakiramdam ko hindi naman. Ayoko rin namang
kulitin siya sa ganitong mood.

.........

The few hours of our trip were all silence. Just a casual talk like how are you
feeling?, I'm fine, hurry up, drink and eat this one, and so on.. Not really a
sweet talk like we always does.

I think I'm gonna die in such a boring trip.

And I realize that, a couple in earlier times encounter a rough one, which means I
have to meet him halfway of our marriage.

I think this is just the start.

I sighed.

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No More Secrets

Kabanata 35)

Not all who make love, make marriages..

- Russian (on marriage) -

**

Zea POV

Few weeks past, still were fine. But I sense something wrong with him. I don't know
pero pakiramdam ko may tinatago siyang bagay sa akin. Na hindi ko malaman kung ano
ito. Hinihintay ko lang siya mismo ang mag-open sa akin kung may tinatago man
siyang hindi pa niya masabi.

"Ano yang iniinum mo?"

Curious kong tanong kay Carla nang makita ko siyang uminom ng maliliit na tablets.
Were here now in Loko-Mucho Dine in Restaurant. Nakipagkita ako sa kanya, coz I was
so bored sa bahay.

"Pills.."

Ipinakita niya sa akin yong pack ng pills. I frowned. Pills?

"Pills like contraceptive?"

I asked. Tumango tango siya.

"For what? Why are you taking that pills?"

"Pampa-blooming my dear.."

"Really? Does it effective in men? Kung vitamin E nalang kaya inumin mo."

I continued my food. Umiling siya at uminum ng tubig bago nagsalita.

"Effective to sa amin, basta! Huwag ka ng magtanong. Ito ang drama naming mga
bakla."

I rolled my eyes. Though I'm not interested but still I'm curious about it. Anyway
off topic na muna.

"Oh kumusta na kayo?"

I sighed. And I slowly told him everything. From the honeymoon that we had.

"Oh come on. Miscommunication lang yan."

Payo nito. I put down my spoon and fork saka umayos ng upo. Sana nga lang, walang
masamang pangitain itong nangyayari sa amin.

"I certainly hope so."

Not sure kong sagot. I sighed nang maisip ang mga panlalamig niya nitong mga
nakaraang araw.

"Do you guys still consummated your marriage?"

Napaawang ang bibig ko sa sinabi niya. Consummated?

"Huwag kang OA, what I mean is do you have still sex usually?"
Inulit nito ang sa ibang term ang tanong. Napakurap ako. Meron parin naman kaming
intimate moments. Nothing change about that. But the problem is, hindi natural yong
mga kilos niya lately. Yong lambing ay parang hindi na dati. Parang may kulang.
Andun parin naman ang pag-aalaga kaya lang parang medyo iba na.

"Oo naman. Kaya lang parang iba siya ngayon."

He took a deep breathed bago nagsalita.

"I guess this time you have to talk about that matter to him. Confront him if
necessary. Pag-usapan niyo. Hindi naman naaayos ang problema kung magmamasid at
magpapakiramdaman lang kayo."

Well he had a point there. He squeezed my hand, securing that everything will be
fine.

I smiled bitterly. Alam kong pagsubok lamang ito.

"Anyway, Carla I have to go. I'll have to prepare our dinner pa later."

As I've watched my wristwatch. I think uuwi siya ng maaga ngayon. I stood up.

"Seduce your husband Darling kung ayaw mong mawala siya sayo ng ganun kaaga. And of
course talk to him about what your complaining to me. Here get your bag and
Babooossshh.!"

Nagmamadali din itong tumayo dahil may date pa daw sila ng bago niyang boylet. I
sighed. Hoping he'll be happy with whats he's doing. I am just a concern bestfriend
but anyways, happiness is more priority that their money. Its okay, not bad anyway.

Pagdating sa bahay, agad akong nagprepara ng hapunan. Its five thirthy, sabi niya
kanina sa akin kapag walang business meeting ngayon by seven in the evening ay
makakauwi na siya. Pagkatapos kong ihain ang pagkain sa mesa, nagtungo na ako ng
shower room para makapagligo. My husband loves to smell my scented body everytime.
Nalungkot ako bigla sa bahaging yon. Mga ilang araw na rin kasi niya itong hindi
ginagawa sa akin. There must be something. At yun ang aalamin ko sa kanya ngayon.
Bahala na, its anything under the sun. Tatanggapin ko kung ano man ang magiging
problema namin ngayon.

I comb my hair smoothly. I wear my casual summer dress. Comfortable kasi sa

katawan. I paused, when I saw my empty belly. Kakatapos lang ng menstration ko. I
thought mabubuntis na talaga ako this time. But I'm so disappointed when my
menstrual occur.

I sighed. Maybe hindi lang talaga panahon sa ngayon.

Lalabas na sana ako ng kwarto namin nang biglang pumasok ang asawa ko. He throw his
suit case on the sofa unceremoneously. He look tired.

"Ay hon, andyan kana pala. Nakapagluto na ako ng hapunan."

Agad akong lumapit at hinalikan siya sa labi. Hindi man lang siya nag-abalang
tingnan ako. Pasalamak siyang umupo sa sofa at nakapikit na isinandal ang katawan.

"Hon.. Are you okay? Gusto mo massage kita?"

I move to him and began caressing his forehead.

"I'm just tired."

He said in a bored tone. Dumilat siya at nanatiling nakatingin lamang ang kanyang
mga mata sa puting kisame.

I took a deep breathed.

"Aayusin ko lang ang dinner natin."

He just only nodded.

I stood up at tumungo sa kusina. Inayos ko ang plate. Ngayon ko na siya

kukumprontahin. Bahala na.

Naabutan ko siya sa sala. Nakatayo at seryusong nakatingin sa akin. His eyes was
raging in anger. I frowned.

"What's this? You're using contraceptive pills? Kaya pala hindi ka mabuntis buntis!
Pinagloloko mo ba ako Zea?"

Itinaas niya ang hawak na paketeng tableta sa harapan ko. Nagtataka akong tiningnan
ang mga ito. What the hell! Its not mine. Napamaang akong nakatingin sa kanya, and
he's holding his breath waiting for my explanation. Nagsink sa utak ko, na yon ang
pills na nakita kong ininum ni Carla kanina.

I sighed.

"That's not mine, honey. Its from Carla. Nailagay niya siguro sa bag ko."

Precisely! Dahil magkatabi ang bag namin kanina. He frowned. Tinitimbang niya
siguro kung maniniwala siya o hindi.

"Why should I intake that medicine? Alam mo rin naman kung gaano ko kagustong
mabuntis. Its not really mine. And if you really doubting it, I'll call Carla now."

I took my phone pero pinigilan niya ako. Mukha talaga siyang problematic.

"I'm sorry.."

He massage his forehead. He looks irritated.

"Nathaniel, kung may problema ka sa akin sabihin mo na. Hindi naman ako tanga para
hindi maramdamang nanlalamig ka sa akin."

Napakurap ako. Pinipigilan ko ang sariling huwag maiyak dahil pakiramdam ko tutulo
na ang luhang namumuo sa mga mata ko. He stiffened. He's staring at my face
intensely.

Nagsukatan kami ng tingin. Hindi ko mawari kung ano ang nais ipahiwatig ng mga mata
nito. Pero sa huli, siya ang unang bumawi ng tingin.

Frustrated siyang nagsuklay ng buhok sa pamamagitan ng kanyang daliri.

"Babalik pa ba tayo sa dati, Nathaniel? Yung hindi magkikibuan? Yong magtataguan na

lang ng problema sa isa't-isa? Yon ba ang gusto mo?"

Bwelta ko. Bahagya siyang tumingala at napahilamos ng kamay. Suddenly my tears

starts pouring down.

"I've seen Trisha in her Facebook..."

He paused, and I did too. I'm giving him a confuse look. He look at me straight
through the eyes. And there's a loud pounding sound in my chest.

"And she's pregnant. I swear its not mine. How can you sleep with me when you're
keeping that secret all these times? A secret that you.. You're the one who I'd
gave my precious necklace before... And you let your sister pretended to be one? Do
you hate me that much Zea to keep all those lies from me?"

I was utterly shocked. How did he know? How? The shock is understatement. Napakurap
ako. I sobbed silently. I don't know what to say. I really don't know.

"Your sister betrayed me. I know that you and your family knows about it. Gaano
katagal nyo na akong niloloko?"

Bumigay na ako ng tuluyan. I deserved this pain. Tama lang na sumbatan niya ako.
Napaiyak ako sa palad, nawalan na ako ng lakas kaya napaupo ako sa sofa.
Pinaghandaan ko na ang bagay na ito. Pero ang masakit lang ang mawalan siya ng
tiwala sa akin.

"Tell me everything Zea. Bakit?"

Punong puno ng hinanakit ang boses niya. Naiintindihan ko kung bakit siya
nagkakaganito.

"Its not my intention, Nathaniel."

I said between those tears. Nagpunas ako ng luha. I shook my head.

"From the start, I've been stalking you when you're here in the Philippines. But I
know you didn't remember who I was. And I don't have the guts para ipakilala ko ang
sarili ko sayo."

I wiped my tears again. I took a deep breathed.

"Hindi ko naman kasalanan kung niloko ka niya. Hindi ko rin naman alam kung paano
niya nagawang magpakilala na ako siya. And I didn't expect na maalala mo pa ako."

Ang hirap talaga. Hindi ko alam kung paano ko ipapaunawa sa kanya.

"Then bakit hindi mo sinabi sa akin ang lahat? Zea, I love you. I never keep
secrets from you. Alam mo yan. From the day that my father left us alone with my
biological mother, sinabi ko sayo ang lahat."

Punong puno ng panunumbat. I felt guilty. Mahina akong napahagulhol sa kamay.

"I'm just protecting my family, Nathaniel. Nilunok ko ang pride ko para sa kanila.
Alam mo naman ang career ni Dad. And I have no choice. Hindi ko gustong saktan ka.
I understand you.."

"And you're willing to sacrifice to cover your sister'a betrayal dahil lang sa
pagmamahal mo sa kanya? How could it be?"

Lumapit siya at pinunasan ang luha ko. Nabigla ako.

"I can't bear to see you crying. Stop it.."

Pinunasan niya ang luha ko. Hinagkan niya ako sa noo at niyakap. He's comforting
me.

"I'll understand if were not going to continue it---

"What are you saying? Your my wife, and I'm your husband. That's still where it
stands."

He smashed my lips. And I respond it passionately. I clung my arms on him. And he

tightened his grip to my waist.

"I love you so much Nathaniel. Forgive me. Its not my intention to hurt you. Kung
nagsisisi ka man na pinakasalan mo ako I'll understand---"

"Who told you that I regreted it? I just can't imagine that you would sacrifice
yourself because of your sister's mistake. What if hindi ako ang naging fiance
niya? Gagawin mo parin ba?"

I smiled. Kahit papano ayaw niya parin palang makita ako sa iba.

"Of course I won't. Pumayag lang naman ako sa plano ni ate na pikutin ka dahil
mahal kita. And then that time niya pa sinabi sa akin na napakamalan mo siyang ako.
Hindi ko lang talaga maamin sayo dahil natatakot akong magbago ka, baka kamuhian mo
ako."

He smiled again, yong ngiting maginhawa at naiintindihan na niya ako.

"Silly my wife. Pasalamat ka't mahal talaga kita."

Tumawa ako at niyakap siya. He kissed me deeply and I moaned. Binuhat niya ako
papuntang kwarto.

"Wait, wait, .. "

Agad kong putol sa kanya habang buhat buhat pa niya ako. Nagsalubong ang kilay
nito.

"Kanino mo nalaman ang totoo?"

Interesado kong tanong. Ngumiti siya at sinalakay niya ako ng halik.

"I invaded your phone, and Carla mentioned about your little secret dear wife.."

He's kissing the valley of my breast. Napaliyad ako. Oh Gosh, this man is really
tempting me hard. He slowly put me down in a soft matress. Hindi na ako makapag-
isip pa ng maayos sa ginagawa niya. Subrang daldal talaga ni Carla.

"Wait.. Wait.."

Putol ko ulit. He groaned, frustrated itong napatingin sa akin.

"What!?"

Alam kong gusto gusto na niyang ipagpatuloy ang naumpisahan. Pilya akong napangiti.
"You really love me? Hindi ka nagsisisi? Okay na tayo?"

It made no sense. Dahil mismo sa sarili ko, alam kong mahal niya talaga ako. Kaya
lang gusto ko lang talaga siyang storbohin.

"Of course! I love you so much. No regrets. Not ever. From now on I want you to
wear the necklace I gave to you.."

"Wait, I'll get it----"

Aakmang tatayo na ako nang bigla niya akong sinalakay para halikan.

"Later."

Hindi na niya ako pinakawalan pa at wala na akong nagawa nang muli niya akong
salakayin ng matamis at punong puno ng pananabik ng halik.

Sa wakas okay na talaga kami. And no more secrets anymore. This time, wala na akong
mahihiling pa.

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The Anniversary Gift

(Kabanata 36)

So its not gonna be easy. Its to be going really hard; we're gonna have to work at
this everyday. but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you,
forever, everyday. You and me everyday.

- Nicholas Sparks -

**

Zea POV

Time flew so fast. Nine months past, heto na kami ngayon, waiting nervously for the
result. I hope it'll turn two lines now.

"Hon.. Are you done?"

He knocked on the door twice. I sighed when I saw the single line of my pregnancy
test.

Negative.

My shoulder fell, when I open the comfort room's door. Disappointed kong itinaas
ang PT sa harapan niya. This is our fifth attempt simula pa kagabi. Delayed na kasi
ako ng five days, I thought I'm preggy na. But still negative. False alarm pa din.

"Okay lang yan. Maybe its not yet the right time."

He smiled bitterly. I can sense the big disappointments hidden with his facial
expression. Alam kong medyo pressured siya. And we're going to celebrate our first
anniversary tomorrow. At last our marriage turns a year!

Niyakap ko siya and he tightened his grip to my waist. At nanatili kami sa ganung
ayos, nagpapakiramdaman sa pagkadismaya.

"Hmm. Hon I think we better consult the doctor. Malay mo there's something wrong
one of us kaya hindi ako mabuntis agad."

Sa mahinahon kong suhestyon. I'm always insisting this matter to him. But he always
declined dahil wala lang daw sa tayming.

"Hmmm.. I think we'd better fly somewhere, baka dahil sa klima hindi tayo makabuo.
I have friend before, who shared about his parents trial and error process for
having a baby.. They spend ten years bago pa sila nakabuo."

Nag-angat ako ng ulo para tingnan siya.

"Really? That long? Ano namang kaugnayan sa klima dun?"

He smiled. Umupo kami sa sofa at nag-usap ng masinsinan.

"I don't know. Wala daw naman silang deperensya. And it took five years of bed rest
pa yong mother niya. And when it happens, they sacrifice. Pumunta sila sa highest
temple ng China, nag-alay at nagdasal. Then after few months her mother got
pregnant. At siya ang nag-iisang anak. I don't know if there's scientific
explanation there or maybe just some theories about climate, weathers and etc.
Maybe sa timing din. But I just can't imagine that it tooks ten years of trying."

I sighed. Bigla tuloy akong nanghina. Sana naman makabuo na kami. Maisip ko pa lang
ang mother in law ko, naaawa na ako. I know that she's desperate to have a grand
child. Pero mahirap talaga eh. Wala ngang araw na hindi ko sinasali sa dasal ang
pagkakaroon ng anak, ang mabuntis agad.

**

I'm sitting here nervously waiting for the result. I'm here at OB specialist
clinic. Nagpacheck up talaga ako para malamang may problema ba sa uterus at egg
cells ko.

Dumating na yong doctor at kinakabahan akong hinarap nito.

"Mrs. Zamora, hmm..."

Nakatuon ang atensyon nito sa papel. I crumpled my fingers nervously. Sana walang
problema, sana hindi ako baog. Oh my God.

"Hmm. I can see in the ultra sound na wala namang problema sa uterus mo. Your
healthy but siguro nahihirapan ka lang mabuntis dahil maselan ang bahay bata mo....
"

And so on.. He explained to me everything. The proper advice is to have bed rest.
Bawal ang fatigue, stress at adventures.

Nagpapasalamat ako at pwede pa pala akong mabuntis.

Pagkatapos kong magpacheck up ay tumungo na ako sa condo para magbihis. Sabi ng

asawa ko, I will wear the dress he bought for me yesterday dahil may anniversary
dinner daw kami. I guess there's a big surprise he prepared.

And after that, may sumundo sa akin para sa dinner night. Kinakabahan ako sa
excitement. Ewan ko ba, andami kasing pakulo ang asawa ko. Napakaromantiko pa.

Nagulat ako nang huminto kami sa isang mansyong bahay. This place in unfamiliar. Sa
pagkakaalam ko, hindi naman ito ang mansyon ng mga Zamora. Lalong lalo na hindi sa
amin.

I roamed my eyes all around. Halatang katatapos lang gawin ang bahay na ito.
Napakabago pa kasi ng paints and railing nito, and those structural designs.

Pagbaba ko ng sasakyan ay may nag-escort sa akin papasok sa loob. When I took steps
those way papasok sa loob, andaming red petals ng roses na nakakalat sa daan. I
nibbled my lip. Pagpasok sa loob ay namangha ako lalo sa subrang ganda.

Napaka-elegante ang design. Luxurious and very homey ang ambience. The marbles
design and the combination of white-black-and furnish colors adds sophistication.
And there's vintage paintings and antique chairs and high tech appliances.
"This way po Ma'am."

Tinuro nito ang daanan na may mga bulaklak sa tabi. Sumunod lang ako. Hanggang sa
dumating kami sa stairway paakyat sa second floor.

Kanino kayang bahay to?

Kanina pa nagtatanong ang utak ko sa bagay na yon. Pumasok ako sa isang kwarto. The
spacious room adorn by cozy and plain structures were so enchanting to gaze. But
I've seen an abstract walls across the bed. Isang dim light ang nagsisilbing ilaw
sa loob. My husband were standing at side of the table, na may naka-set up for
dinner.

Napatitig ako sa romantikong pagkakaayos ng mesa. Definitely this is a room, dahil

may malaking kama at may petals sa ibabaw nito.

Wow.

His happiness were visible in his very eyes.

"You look stunningly beautiful my wife.."

He looked at me from head to toe. He's staring me like I'm a piece of meat.
Flatterer. I know that he always praise my body.

"And you look quite handsome my husband!"

I crossed my arms, which I pretended that I wasn't hook up with his looks tonight.
Wearing a white armani suit fitted so much in his body.

"Quite? Doesn't sounds like good."

I chuckled softly. Ang sarap talaga asarin ang asawa ko. He frowned. Giving me that
disapproving stares.

"Hmmm. Not bad, ratherly handsome..??"

Bwelta ko ulit at sinabayan ko ng tawa. A brusque smile plastered in his face.

Then, he twitch his lips to form a naughty smile that fitted in his sexy mouth.

"Well, let's see what can I do about it later."

Again, That words make some sense. I just remain standing, looking at him.

"Happy first anniversary, My wife."

He moves closer to my direction and took my hand. He gently kissing it, treating me
a queen. I felt so overwhelmed. Ang saya sa pakiramdam. Gusto kong pumadyak sa
saya.

"Likewise, my love."

I responded at sabay kaming nagtawanan. Immune na ako sa kakulitan at kapilyuhan ng

asawa ko pero hindi parin naman nawawala ang kilig factor and excitement.

He escorted me to sit down. Speechless talaga ako. I've seen contentment in his
eyes and as well as mine too.

Tumikhim ako to disturb our silence.

"Pinaghandaan mo talaga ito, hah?"

Basag ko sa katahimikan. He crossed his arms and lean his broad back on the chair
comfortably. He gave me that super blown away smile. Kahit kailan napakapilyo
talaga ng asawa ko. My God, I'm always drawn with that smile.

"Of course, expect that every year we'll celebrate different anniversary. You'll
see next year, iba na naman."

He winked. My heart jolted with that similar desires. Silly husband.

"Let's eat."

Masigla nitong binuksan ang mga natakpang pagkain at inihain nito sa plato ko.

"Wow. Sarap naman! Ikaw ba nagluto ng mga ito?"

I know he's kinda domestic person. Sabi nga niya, sa states siya lang ang marunong
talagang magluto.

"Of course! I don't want you to spoil with the foods, cook by others."

May pagmamalaki nitong sabi. I smiled widely.

"Don't worry, mga luto mo parin ang paborito ko."

Masigla kaming kumakain. He poured wine in our glasses. And we talk a lot of
things. Kahit mag-asawa na kami, everyday were always on a stage of getting to know
each other. But the different is were so close to talk comfortably unlike the first
stage of our marriage. Of course as husband and wife, madali lang naman makapag-
adjust lalo pa't parehas kayo ng nararamdaman.

"Hon, I'm just curious kaninong bahay ito?"

I frowned. Ngumiti siya. It was solemnly relaxing smile. Hindi siya sumagot agad.
He sipped his his glass at nakatitig lang sa akin.

"Just try to guess, my wife."

I rolled my eyes. Ayoko ng ginagawa akong manghuhula.

"Well my dear husband, I wasn't born to be a fortune teller. Just spill it. I don't
have guts to play with you."

I crossed my arms and lean my back on the chair. This ambience is so perfect for
romantic dinner. Hindi pa din ako nakapag-get over as I glance every sides of the
room. He laughed wholeheartedly.

"Lahat ng mga nakita mo dito is yours."

What! Bloody hell! I don't get it. I looked at him with such a disturbing face I've
ever made. He smiled, ngiting nagmamalaki.

"Mine? What did you mean mine?"

I always jolted sitting here in my chair. He nodded. Seriously?

"This house that I constructed for almost year is our home, for our kids in the
future. My anniversary gift for you."

I was surprised. He swept me off my feet, I was speechless then. Napakurap ako sa
buong paligid. This house is so big. Pakiramdam ko mas malaki pa to kaysa sa bahay
namin.

Happiness is understatement.

"Seriously Hon? Having you is enough. You don't have to."

I really appreciated it pero hindi naman ako materialistic na tao. He sighed at

kinuha ang kamay ko.

"Honey, we need a home for a big family. Few years from now, we'll have babies and
I don't want them to suffer on a narrow places. Kaya I planned to build this, medyo
natagalan lang. Coz I wanted it to be perfect."

Oh.. How touching. Naluluha ang mga mata ko sa saya. I'm speechless. I stood up at
niyakap ko siya agad.

"Thank you sweetheart. I love you so much.. Sorry wala akong gift sayo."

Tumawa siya sa sinabi ko. Hindi ko kasi pinaghandaan. Nitong mga nakaraang araw ay
nagpursige akong mabuntis. Nawala na sa isip ko ang pagreregalo. Niyakap niya ako
ng mahigpit. Kinandong niya ako.

"Anyway, nagpacheck na up ako kanina sa OB. Wala naman daw problema sa uterus ko,
fertile naman ako kaya lang maselan at matagal lang ako mabuntis."

I explained to him everything. Masaya naman siya sa aking mga ibinalita. At least,
hindi kami nawalan ng pag-asa.

"Sabi ng OB, kailangan mo rin daw magpacheck up. Kasi malay natin baka may
deperensya sayo or may problema. I just hope na wala."

Ngumiti siya sa sinabi ko sabay tawa. I frowned.

"Walang baog sa lahi namin. Expect that! Don't worry I'll undergo check up if have
time."

I clung my arms on his neck. He possesively encircled his arms to my waist. I'm
sitting at his lap. We kissed passionately.

"I'm excited to take my wife in bed."

Paos ang boses nito. His voice shiver through my spine. He scoop me and he slowly
take me to bed with lots of lots of petals on top. Humahalimuyak ang amoy nito.

"Are you ready to make love with me with thousands of petals in bed?"

His voice was full of temptation. Gumuhit ang pilyang ngiti sa labi ko. I winked at
him playfully.

"With a big yes, my husband."

Then he dipped his head to me and kiss me slowly and passionately.

"I love you so much my love. Happy anniversary."

He said with such delight in his eyes. Full of love and respect.

Kapwa kami sabik sa unang gabi ng aming isang taong pagsasama.

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Pressure Moments

(Kabanata 37)

True character is revealed in the choices a human being makes under pressure - the
greater the pressure, the deeper the revelation, the truer the choice to the
character's essential nature.

-Robert McKee-

***

Zea POV (Unedited)

Isang linggo na lang, pupunta na kami ng abroad to celebrate our first anniversary.
Sabi niya kasi we need time to relax and have fun. And Yvo finally doing his job
well, kaya we can escape for a while. Mabuti naman at narealize ng brother in law
ko na life must go on, even if it takes time to recover the failure.

"Oo naman. Hahaha! Pilya ka talaga, Carla. Hindi niya sinabi sa akin kung saan eh,
basta abroad! Surprise daw. Sige, may gagawin pa ako. Bye."

Ibinaba ko ang phone pagkatapos. Ang bakla kong bestfriend, nakikiusyoso na naman.
Definitely he's asking where I am and my husband will go, dahil magpapabili siya ng
pasalubong. Ang kulit lang talaga.

Sabi ng OB, I shouldn't stress myself. Dapat relax lang, no fatigue and no
pressure. Kaya my husband wants me to tie in this huge and wide home. Kalilipat
lang namin nung nakaraang linggo, after the anniversary night. Tapos nagpaparty for
the blessing. Whole family at mga closest family friends ay dumalo rin. Kaya medyo
napagod ako nung mga panahong yon but it was fun and fulfilment.

Its almost eight o'clock. He doesn't come home late. Pagkatapos kong magluto ay
agad akong naligo. He doesn't want me to get tired kaya he hired a cook for us. But
still, old habbits are hard to die. For me stress reliever ang pagluluto. That's
why I had really passion doing it.

After I prepared myself, naghintay ako sa spacious master's bedroom. Habang

nakatuon ang mga mata ko sa flat screen TV, ay panay ang hikab ko at sulyap sa wall
clock. Its past eleven in the evening. Still wala parin ang asawa ko. Maybe
natagalan na naman sa office. Pero hindi man lang siya tumawag. Every time he over
time in his job, ay hindi talaga nito nakakaligtaang magpaalam. Nag-aalala tuloy
ako.

Stop over thinking Zea, he's fine. Saway ko sa sarili. I close my eyes because I
feel like I'm going to passed out of sleepiness.

***

Nagising ako sa kaluskos ng bed sheet. I open my eyes immediately. Nagulat ako nang
madatnan siyang dilat ang mga mata na nakatitig sa akin, while caressing my head
softly.

"Hon! You're home. Kumain ka na ba? Ba't ang tagal mo?"

Napabangon ako sabay sulyap sa wall clock. Its almost 2am. He's serious staring at
my face, which made me puzzled.

I sighed.

"What's wrong?"

Mahinahon kong tanong sa kabila ng matinding pagtataka. He looked away and took a
deep breathe. It was as if the entire world carrying by his shoulders.

"Nothing. I'm sorry for not confirming you about an urgent over time worked. My
cellphone was run out of battery."

His tone was low and sad. If I am not mistaken, I can sense that he had a problem.
Maybe about their family's business or anything.

"Its fine. Did you have dinner?"

Tumango lamang siya. Pumuwesto siya sa higaan at nagtakip ng kumot. Nagtataka ko

lamang siyang tinitingnan.

"Hon, is everything alright?"

Nag-aalala kong tanong.

"Yeah I'm fine. Let's get some sleep."

He don't even bothered to look at me. He remained on that position covering his
entire body. I took the comforter and touch his forehead, his neck and face to make
sure that he's totally fine. I thought he had a fever, but his body's temperature
is normal.

He just close his eyes and didn't mind me. I know he's still awake but I was so
worry here.

"Hon, come on let's have some sleep. Don't bother yourself. I'm fine. I'm just
tired."

He said with irritation. Again, I realize that their family have talents for being
bipolar. I sighed and slowly lay down on his broad shoulder. He hugged me, he put
his face on my neck. I was just looking at the ceiling, thinking how the hell had
happened to him tonight? I mean last night, dahil madaling araw na pala ngayon.

I tried to get back to sleep but it was hard. I was so confuse why he's acting so
strange to me.

In the morning, he left me a note saying he couldn't join me for breakfast because
he needs to catch up something in his work. I was so disappointed at this moment.
May problema ba siyang hindi masabi sabi sa akin? But at the same time, I want to
give him a time for him to realize what he's doing. I guess, this is the negative
side of him, his flaws rather. Kaya tatanggapin ko kung ano man ito. Hindi rin
naman tamang pangunahan ko siya. I am an understanding person. Sana lang hindi siya
lumampas sa boundery na ikakatapos ng pasensya ko.

I gave him a phone call this afternoon but his secretary answered it and told me he
was busy with his transactions. I coudn't help to hide my dismay.

I was worried and curious about him now. Pero ang asawa ko ang tipong tao na
mahilig magtago ng problema, siguro nakasanayan na rin sa kinalakihan niya. Gusto
ko rin naman punan ang mga pagkukulang ng pamilya niya. That's why I'm trying so
hard to understand him every time he encounters like this or mas tamang sabihin na
everytime I encountered his mood swings. He is such a bipolar man.

"Hi ate, it seems your enjoying the seasons in Norway. I miss Jacq, dalasan mo
naman ang pagbisita dito."

Jacq is my charming niece.

Actually, when ate gave birth few months ago, she decided to settled the mess she
left here. She apologised everyone of us. Mom cried so much as well as my father
too. Pati kay Jamie ay humingi na rin siya ng tawad. Nagkapatawaran naman ang
lahat. The whole scenario was too emotional. And I'm happy because ate and my
husband is in good vibes now. Parang walang nakaraan, walang awkward na moment. And
the best thing happened about is the friendship who had build in both sides. No
regrets and no hatred.

They are good friends now.

Ate change a lot, simula nung maging ina siya. Iba talaga ang nagagawa ng anak sa
magulang. Hindi na siya ang bitter, wild, and careless woman as I've seen her
through all those years that were together. Masasabi kong napakamaalaga na niyang
ina at asawa kay Kuya Richie. At tinanggap na rin ng buong pamilya ang asawa niya.
Mom is so fond with his first grand daughter. Kung pwede lang siyang sumama sa
Norway ay ginawa na niya. Kaya lang her obligation with Dad as his wife ay hindi
niya maiwan-iwan. But we are planning to have a surprise visit in Norway. Maybe one
of these days.

Kaya madalas ang Skype. Lalong lalo na sila Mommy at Dad kasi gustong gusto nila
makita ang apo araw-araw. Ate is a full time mother now. Kaya I'm so proud of her.

"Hay naku, busy kasi ang Kuya mo sa negosyo. Maybe next, next month, we'll have
vacation there. Jacq is sleeping right now. Nagwala yon kanina dahil hindi
napagbigyan ng Daddy niya."

Tumawa ako sa sinabi niya. Spoiled kasi masyado itong anak nila. She's just five
months old pero napakamaldita na. Well I love her, she's so cute and adorable. My
husband was envied her for having such a wonderful baby, mind you.

"So how are you and Jamie? May progress na ba?"

What she means is, if may progress na ba for having a baby.

I smiled bitterly.

"Wala parin eh. Pero nakapagpacheck up na ako. Maselan lang talaga ang uterus ko
kaya hindi makashoot."
I answered back na sinabayan ko ng tawa. She frowned.

"Stop pressuring yourself about that matter. Kung para sa inyo darating talaga ang
blessing na yan. Maybe not now."

Sabagay may point naman siya. Kaya lang my husband was so eager to have a child of
our own. Nakikita ko talaga ang inggit niya sa tuwing nakakakita siya ng baby ng
mga pinsan niya.

I sighed.

"You know naman, my mother in law was dying to have a grandchild in her arms. Kaya
minsan hindi namin maiwasang mapressure."

Explained ko. Isa pa yon pinoproblema ng asawa ko ang kanyang ina.

"Ano ka ba, wag kang OA. Yong iba nga umaabot pa ng limang taon or more than that
bago nagkaanak. One year pa lang naman kayo. Naku enjoy niyo muna ang moment na
kayo pang dalawa. Explore, travel around and have fun! Kasi kapag may anak na kayo,
wala ng ganyan. Iba na ang focus."

I rolled my eyes, at least kapag may baby na mas lalong happy.

"Ate, iba parin kapag may anak nuh. Like you, mas lalo kang masaya. Mas marami ka
pang matututunan. And besides, it adds color to your home and flavor of your happy
life. Iba talaga. Bored kaya dito sa bahay. Saka fulfilling ang pagiging mother."

Mahaba kong esplika. Tumawa siya sa sinabi ko. I can see the glint of happiness in
her eyes.

"You have point there, Sis. That's the essence of being a woman, to give birth and
multiply the number of the families. But still, like I said, darating kayo dyan.
Wag ka ngang mainipin."

She shot me disapproval looked. I just snob her opinion. Nakakalungkot lang talaga
isipin.

"Wait, does your husband already done check up? Malay mo sa kanya may diperensya."

Tumawa ako sa sinabi niya. Wala naman daw silang lahing baog. Ano ba. Erase that
idea.

"Hindi pa. Pero I swear my husband is fertile. Wala sa lahi nila ang pagiging
baog."

That's a period. Hindi talaga sumagi sa isip ko ang ganung bagay. Iniisip ko pa
lang napakalaking balakid na.

"Malay mo, wala ngang lahi sila pero siya lang pala ang naiiba. You know, sa side
ng father niya. Diba?"

Negative. Erase of that thought. Nathaniel isn't sterile, he's healthy and fertile.
I can sense that.

"Of course not, if baog ang asawa ko eh di kami magkakaanak. Then maghahanap ako ng
iba!"

Tapos humalagpak ako ng tawa. That's a big joke. I can still accept him if ever it
happens. My sister laughed wholeheartedly. We really makes jokes to each it other.
Natigil ako ng tawa nang may biglang kumalabog sa pintuan. When I turned my head on
that area, he's raging eyes with anger shot in my direction. I took glance at the
floor kung saan may nabasag na mamahaling flower vase.

Napaawang ang bibig ko sa pagkabila at subrang pagtataka.

"Sis, umiyak si Jacq, I have to feed her muna."

She's breastfeeding her daughter.

Napalingon ako kay ate bigla, pati siguro siya nabigla sa ingay dahil narinig niya
sa kabilang linya. Tumango lamang ako at naglog out sa computer.

"You're home. Why so early?"

Wala sa huwisyo kong tanong. Afternoon pa lang ah. Dapat nasa office pa siya. I
stood up and went to his direction. Napasuklay siya sa kanyang buhok. He's probably
mad.

Here we go again, in my thought. Ganito talaga ang inaasal niya kapag galit o
iritado. Aakmang hahawakan ko ang braso niya nang bigla nitong iwinaksi ang kamay
ko.

Nabigla ako sa ginawa niya.

"Nathaniel what happened to you?"

Hindi ko mapigilang mairita. I almost shouted that question to him. He turned his
face on me, and his eyes expresses coldness, that could freeze the whole place. I
swallowed hard. Kinabahan ako bigla. May nagawa ba akong mali?

"Are you mad at me? Tell me, anong problema mo? Sa akin ba? Sa trabaho? Wala akong
planong intindihin ka sa mga bagay na hindi mo magawang ipaintindi."

I almost choked with that words. Naluluha na ako sa pagiging emotional. He remained
silence. Nagsukatan kami ng tingin. Then napakurap siya. He averted his eyes away
from me.

Parang sinisipa ang dibdib ko sa nakikita kong inaasal niya ngayon. He's being
downright rude again. And I hate it.

"I'm sorry, I was just tired."

Walang gana niyang sagot sa akin at nilampasan lamang ako. Tumungo siya sa closet
at naghanap ng masusuot. Sinundan ko siya.

"Anong klaseng pagod, Nathaniel? Pagod ka na sa akin? Sabihin mo! Nang hindi na ako
umasa pa sayo!"

Wala siyang sinagot. Tumilapon lamang ang office attire niya sa sahig. Saka
nagmamadaling nagbihis na kala mo may importanteng pupuntahan. Pinapasadahan ko
lamang siya ng tingin habang nagrereklamo.

"Ano!? Wala ka bang sasabihin? Nathaniel kausapin mo nga ako!"

Patuloy kong pagsigaw sa kanya, habang siya ay busy sa pagbibihis. Hindi niya
talaga ako kinibuan. Nagmistula siyang bingi sa lahat ng sinasabi ko, which
irritates me further more.
Then, nagmamadali siyang tinalikuran ako nang walang pasabi. Galit ko siyang
sinundan.

"Saan ka pupunta!? Hindi mo ba ako kakausapin? Nathaniel!"

Sinundan ko siya hanggang sa makarating kami sa hagdanan.

"Nathaniel! Will you please listen to me first. Where are you going?!"

I raised my voice, as it echoed the whole entire house. Bigla siyang huminto sa
dulo nang hagdanan.

"Shut up will you! I didn't marry to have a nagger wife!"

Hindi ko alam kung sino ang mas nabigla sa aming dalawa, ako o siya. We just
staring each other intensely. Bigla akong natameme sa sinabi niya. Hindi naman siya
ganito kasalbahe noon.

Napaawang ang bibig ko. Bigla akong nanlamig. I was really really shocked with his
devilish manners. Kahit siya alam kong nabigla din.

Silence take over.

"I'll be home late."

Yun ang huling katagang binitiwan niya bago tuluyang umalis. Nanghihina akong
naglakad papunta sa living room area.

Laglag ang balikat ko na napaupo sa sofa. I sobbed silently.

He's back in being ice prince again.

What should I do now?

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Leaving

(Kabanata 38)

It is so hard to leave-until you leave. And then it is the easiest goddamned thing
in the world.

~John Green, Paper Towns

***
Zea POV

I am really really tired of over thinking about our marriage life. I am so worried
and confuse thinking what the hell had happened to our marriage, which was turning
into looks promising, then go to hell suddenly!?

Its been two weeks since we didn't talk well. May mga araw na hindi siya umuuwi, na
hindi siya nagpapalipas ng gabi sa bahay. At lage siyang lasing nitong mga
nakaraang araw. From that day na hindi niya ako kinausap ng matino ay hinayaan ko
na. We are like deaf and mute to each other. Hindi na rin ako natutulog sa masters
bedroom.

Binibigyan ko lang siya ng panahon para makapag-isip ng maayos. Pero mali yata ako
dahil simula nun, walang nangyaring maganda. I felt like my jaw would crack of such
an effort for talking to him over and over again about his problems that he don't
want to share it with me.

Last day our cook got fired because of his incorrigible attitudes. He's rudeness
was quite scary. And everyone here in our house avoided him like he had a
contagious disease.

Takot na ang aming mga katulong sa kanya. Every time that he's home, parang mga
ligaw na ibon ang mga kasambahay na nagliliparan saang parte ng bahay wag lamang
siyang makausap. Madalas kasi siyang manigaw. At konting problema lang ay umiinit
agad ang kanyang ulo.

Lage na lamang akong umiiyak. Minsan minumura ko pa siya ng harapan. But its
useless. Dahil wala siyang pakialam. Hindi niya ako kinikibuan.

Hindi na ako nakatiis at umuwi muna ako sa mga magulang ko. Ayoko siyang makita.

"Anak, ang problema hindi tinatakasan, hinaharap ito. Try to understand your
husband."

Mom was so worried when I open up about our problems. I thought she would say that
I'll leave him now and start a new. But she's all in fair of making advices.

I sobbed silently.

"Mom, I can't talk to him because he always refuses it. I don't know what to do him
anymore."

Niyakap ako ni Mommy habang umiiyak. I breakdown in crying. Sa ilang linggo ng

aking pananahimik ay inilabas ko na ng tuluyan.

"So what are you planning to do?"

Mom asked wearily. I shook my head. Nahihiya akong nakikita niya ako ng ganito. I
rubbed my swollen eyes.

"Mom, I want to go in New York. Gusto ko munang magpalipas doon kay Mama."

Desidido na ako. Kung mahal niya talaga ako, susundan niya ako doon.

"Are you sure about it? Do you think it will work?"

Nung umpisa ng pagsasama namin, nagtiis din ako. I think that's enough. Kung ganun
talaga ang ugali niya I don't think so I can handle him now. I need space and time
to recover, so that I can't breathe finely. Dahil kung mahal niya talaga ako,
maisip din niyang sayang ang isang taong matamis naming pinagsamahan.

I heard Mom took a deep breathed.

"Its up to you. Basta nandito lang kami para sayo. Kung kaya pang ayusin, makipag-
ayos ka anak. Siguro naguguluhan lang ang asawa mo."

I smiled bitterly. Ilang araw ko narin napag-isipan ito. Siguro nga nakatagpo siya
ng ibang babae. Pero lihim ko naman siyang pinapasubaybayan isa sa mga bodyguard ni
Dad. Wala naman silang napansing kakaiba ayon sa ibinabalita nito.

Bahay-trabaho-bar lang naman daw, saka wala naman daw silang nakitang may kasamang
babae.

"Mom, I don't know but I need space and time."

I sighed. Mom looked at me with such a weary and understanding in her eyes.

"If that's your decision, Darling. Then let it be."

Deep in my soul, it was touching. Mom is the best step mom I'd ever known, and for
me she's like my real mother.

"In the first stage of marriage, nangyayari talaga ang mga ganitong bagay. You
discovered the roughness of him often times. And as years pass by, both of you will
learn and accept each other's weaknesses."

Mom never fails to advice me. She uplift my spirit when I'm down. But this time, I
don't want to depend with others. Dahil alam kong sarili ko lang mismo ang
makakatulong sa akin.

After the long talk that we had, we decided not to tell it Dad's first. Baka
magreact siya at kung ano pa ang magawa niya sa asawa ko.

***

Lumipas ng dalawang araw hindi man lang siya ng-abalang puntahan ako dito sa bahay
nila Mommy. Nakakalungkot isipin pero wala na talagang silbi itong pagsasama namin.

Pinaasikaso ko na ang flight ko to New York. Tommorow morning lilipad na ako

papunta dun.

I heard a loud knock on my door. Pakiramdam ko matutumba na ito. Kaya nagmamadali

ko ng binuksan ito bago pa man tuluyang masira.

"Ano ba---"

I suddenly paused when I saw him standing looking at me intensely. Binabasa niya
ako sa pamamagitan ng kanyang matalas na paningin.

"You been staying here for two days. Servo told me that she saw on you on a
Starbucks with damn Lucky!"

Oh. That was four days ago, it was accidentally we met up in Boutique. And we
chatted for just almost one hour. Isn't that big deal. And why he's accusing me
like I've done something wrong anyway? I narrowed my eyes on him.
"Nathaniel, kung wala kang matinong sasabihin you can go now. Huwag mong subukang
magwala dito sa pamamahay ng mga magulang ko."

That was stern and kinda harsh voice. But I'm so fvcked up with him now! And I
wanted to shout it to him.

He laughed sarcastically. Then he's shaking his head off.

"Magwala? Ganyan na ba ang tingin mo sa akin ngayon, Zea?"

I snorted. Bigla na lamang siyang pumasok sa kwarto ng walang pasabi. He's my

husband after all kaya hinayaan ko na. Saka ilang beses na rin kami napapatulog
dito kapag may gatherings dito sa bahay.

Isinara ko ang pinto at napahalukipkip akong humarap sa kanya.

"So you're enjoying with him? Kaya nakakalimutan mo ng magpaalam sa akin at

nakikipagkita ka na lang ng kahit sino without my consent. That damn---"

"Stop it Nathaniel! Naririnig mo ba ang sarili mo? Nakikita mo ba kung ano ang
ginagawa mo? Ni minsan naitanong mo sa kababawan ng utak mo kung anong nagyayari sa
atin ngayon?"

I raised my voice. Isusumbat ko kung ano ang nararamdaman ko ngayon. Kung gaano ako
nasasaktan. He stand still. There's pain and longing depth in his fiercing eyes.
Nagsukatan kami ng mga mata.

Then he shook his head. Just as the way he always used to, he comb his hair by his
fingers in a stiff manner. He's frustrated and I am too.

"Nathaniel, I've tried so hard to understand you. You don't know how painful it was
for me seeing you like that. But, your pushing yourself away from me. For the last
question, Nathaniel. Mahal mo ba ako?"

My voice trailed off, I'm shaking in despair. Hindi nakaalma ang luha nag-uunahang
nagsipaglaglagan sa pisngi ko.

Bigla siyang napatingin sa akin. He was shocked with my question. Unti-unting

lumambot ang mukha niya nang makitang umiiyak ako.

"Hon.. Please.. Stop crying. I'm sorry, so sorry.."

He cupped my face and kiss me slowly. How I miss this from him. How I miss his
touch and comforting words. I close my eyes tightly and clung my arms on him.

"I love you okay. It was just, I have problems.. I'm sorry if I can't tell it to
you now. Please give me time for these.. And when I'm ready to tell it to you, I
will. Please. I'm sorrry."

His eyes was full of sorrow nd regrets. I was worried what was he's been carrying
problems about. Why? Does it about himself? Their family business or what? What's
the difference about now or next time? I remain speechless. I really don't know how
to react of his confusing revelation. But all I can muster is how can I can
understand him in way that I didn't wanted to hurt.

I just left at my feet steadily. Then he grab me suddenly and smashed my lips. It
was full of hunger and passion at the same time. Its been two weeks since we never
make love. And now I'm missing him so much.
"I love you, Zea. Please I need time."

He spoke desperately and kiss me all over again. Kahit subrang nagtataka, I just
want to enjoy and savour these moments with him. I set aside those maybe's and what
ifs. Coz this time all I want is to make love with him through the entire night.

If he needs time, I think I needed that too..

And we made love over and over again 'til we get tired. And I'm preparing myself
for leaving tomorrow... I think if we put ourselves apart, maybe there's an air
that we can easily breathe until we both realize that we needed each other so much.

I'll be missing him...

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The Distance

(Kabanata 39 )

The scariest thing about distance is that you don't know whether they'll miss you
or forget you.

~Nicholas Sparks, (The Notebook, #1)~

***

Jamie POV
Nathaniel,

I know that we experience this kind of conflicts and roughness at the early stage
of our marriage. I understand that, what I need to know is how you'll accept me as
the big part of your life. You just only said, you need time to think all the
problems that you wanted to keep it first. I guess I'm giving you that freedom to
think about it. You know how much I love you. I've tried so hard to understand you
but it failed mesirably. Coz I really don't know how to, when you didn't give me
some reasons. I respect your decision, its just that I can't bear to see you losing
out of temper, hurting those people around and so on.. I hope you understand. This
isn't goodbye, honey. This is spacing you out for you to realize what do you want
in your life. Still, I'm your wife. Nothing can change that. And I love you so
much.

I'm just here even if I am far away from you.. Just tell me when you're ready. I
needed time too.

I love you so dearly..

Lovelots,

~ Zea~

**

I crumpled the paper, written by my wife. I wonder how is she now. I scoffed at
myself for being such a stupid ever. A while ago, nagising ako kanina na wala na
siya sa aking tabi. I asked her parents where is she but her Mom gave me that
letter secretly.

"Just give a little time for my daughter, Nathaniel. Let her be. She will come back
to you, trust me."

She advice me when I leave the house. She told me that she's now in New York with
her Mama Janna.

I understand Mom Emily, as a mother figure she would definitely prioritize her
daughter's feelings. And all I can do is to understand them.

Now, I felt so empty and alone. Hindi naman siguro ako lang ang may sitwasyong
ganito. I am being unfair, pero natatakot lang ako na baka kapag nalaman niya ang
totoo ay bigla na lamang niya akong iwan. Iniisip ko pa lang ay masisiraan na ako
ng bait. I can't bear to see my wife with someone else. I love her so much and I'm
willing to jump at the tall bridge and skyscrapers just to win her heart again.

But my wife is right, maybe we need time and space to breathe. Ang hirap, hindi
niya ako magawang intindihin because of my damn fault. Wala akong magawa dahil
kailangan ko ng lakas para sabihin sa kanya ang totoo. Hindi ko pa kaya. Natatakot
ako sa posibleng mangyari.

"You seems miles away from here, Jamie. Where's Zea?"

Dad asked me wearily. I came here in the mansion for a visit. Mom was asking me to
come here few days ago.

I sighed and looked at him blankly.

"She's on a vacation. Anyway where's Mom?"

"Nasa kwarto."

Dad was scrutinizing me with his pale blue eyes. Ibinaba niya ang newspaper at
itinuon ang atensyon sa akin. I looked away and sip my coffee.

"Vacation without you? Mabuti at pumayag ka naman. Dati-rati, you never let your
wife out of your sight."

Yes, that's the truth. I never permitted my wife having vacation or trip somewhere
without me. Actually, tumakas lang siya ngayon. At hindi ko napigilan. At ayoko
muna siyang sundan dahil yon ang pakiusap ng Mom nito.

"Have no choice. She misses her real mother badly. She's in New York now."

Insecurity bubbled inside me as I think about our situation right now. Paano kung
malaman ng asawa ko ang katotohanan? Will she leave me?

"Jamie! Where's Zea? I've been missing her to cook my favorite desert."

Mom walks towards me with the glint of delight in her eyes. She's happy.

"Zea was on vacation in New York, Darling."

Si Daddy na ang sumagot nang mapansing hindi ako nakaimik agad.

"Really, bakit di ka sumama hijo?"

Tumabi siya sa akin at walang babalang hinawakan ang magkabilang pisngi ko para
gawaran ng halik sa noo. Ganito talaga siya pag naglalambing sa aming magkakapatid.

"I'm kind of busy with the new project Mom."

I said in a bored tone. Dad stood up and bring his newspaper.

"Darling, talk to your son. I'm going to watch Miami Heat and Spurs game."

Dad is the number one fan of NBA.

Sinulyapan niya ako ng makahulugang tingin sabay tango. Dad is really a sharp mind.
Most of all he knows everything about us. In just one mere look, alam niyang may
problema kaming dinadala. Tulad ngayon.

I sighed.

"So anong problema? Nag-away ba kayong mag-asawa?"

Worried niyang tanong. Umayos ako ng upo at nakatingin lamang sa ibang parte ng
bahay. Am I going to tell her the truth? No. I should have told it to my wife
first. She has all the rights to know. But not now, I'll tell her soon about it. In
a perfect time. When I'm ready..

"Just misunderstanding, Mom. Never mind it, were fine."

Narinig ko ang kanyang mabigat na pagbuntung hininga, which was very unusual. Kasi
ngayon lang naman niya na-encounter na nagkaproblema kaming mag-asawa. Wala naman
siyang alam sa nangyari nung una naming pagsasama noon.
"Anak, that's normal. Ganun talaga kapag bagong kasal. Nag-aadjust pa kayo sa
isa't-isa. Dumadaan talaga tayo sa ganun. Kami ng Daddy mo, madalas kaming nag-
aaway noon. Pero ni minsan hindi sumagi sa isipan ko ang magkahiwalay o magkalayo
kami. Your Dad had sacrifice too much because of me, I was so stubborn to him
before. And he always lost his temper about it but I know he love me so much that
couldn't afford me to lose in his life. He was so irrevocable. But we survived that
stage of our marriage. Look at us now, were happy together."

I sighed. That's different in us. Totally different. Were having a marital problems
now, and I'm so pressure about it. I was devastated when I found out that... I
can't be..

No.

Shittt! This is all shit.

"Were fine Mom. Don't worry. In time, magkaayos din kami."

I tried to convert the conversation. I don't want to think about it now.

"Baka naglilihi lang siya anak kaya siya nagkakaganyan. Don't worry----"

"Enough Mom. I have to go."

I suddenly cut her expectations. I can see the excitement and happiness in her eyes
when she said that. She keep her mouth shut.

I took a glance at her mix emotions that drawn in her depth brown eyes. It was
confusion.

"I'll just visit you here with my wife, maybe next week."

I'm planning to visit her in New York. At sasabihin ko na ang lahat sa kanya. Kung
mahal niya ako, she's willing to accept the truth. But if not, maybe.. Just maybe
I'll give her an options to be free and decide for both of us.

No.

I love her so much...

"Nathaniel?"

I turn around and seeing my Mom's weak smile.

"Just take care and your wife. Everything will be fine. Trust me, Son."

I paused. I'm surrounded by very optimistic people. And I should think the positive
sides. Her warming smile and positive advises gives me courage on.

"Yeah. Thank you, Mom."

I nodded grudgingly before I walk out in our mansion.

Deep in my heart I know that still there's doubt about it. But I can't live without
my wife with me. Thinking about separation makes me feel nauseous.
**

Zea POV

Mama greet me with such a warm welcome. This is a surprise visit. They're living
together with her husband. Si Tito Hector, her long time boyfriend and finally they
got married few months ago. He's half Canadian and half Filipino. He's a
businessman. At syempre napaka-understanding sa pagkamaldita ni mama.

Nasa business trip daw si Tito Hector. Kaya wala siya ngayon dito.

"Where's Jamie? Bakit di mo siya kasama ngayon?"

I avoided my eyes immediately. Ayokong mahalata niya ang lungkot na bumabalot dito.

"He's busy Ma. Susunod siguro yon dito kapag hindi na loaded sa trabaho."

I am just hoping when I said that.

"Ganun ba. Mabuti at pinayagan kang mag-isa lang pumunta dito. I know how possesive
your husband is. He can't even take his eyes off with you when you're together."

I sighed.

Oo, that was before. I silently whispered to myself.

Naghanda si Mama ng pagkain. Its lunch time. I took my phone, actually kanina ko pa
hinihintay ang tawag niya. Walang missed calls.

Pero may message from him. Excited ko itong binuksan para basahin.

My love:

I'll follow you there my wife after a week. Just take care and I love you so much..

Hmmm... I can't help my lips to form a little smile. Kahit papaano he still cares
for me. Siguro nga kung ano man ang problema nito ay mabigat sa kanyang loob at
hinihintay niya pang maging handa ang sarili bago sabihin sa akin. Andun na ako sa
bagay na ayaw niya akong masaktan. Pero anong silbi ko sa pagiging asawa kung hindi
niya kayang panindigan ang mga salitang sa hirap at ginhawa ay magkasama at
magkaramay kami.

Pero nirerespeto ko ang anu mang desisyon niya. Kaya lang hindi ko maiwasang
magtampo. Pakiramdam ko pinaglilihiman niya ako, yong hindi niya ako kayang
pagkatiwalaan.

"Anak, ready na ang pagkain. Come on let's go to the dining area."

Agaw atensyon ni mama. Napakurap lamang ako.

Agad akong tumayo at sumunod kay mama.

"I know may problema ka hija. Kilala kita Zea."

Natigil ako sa pagsubo ng pagkain. I looked at her direction. Alam kong nag-aalala
siya ng subra base na rin sa mga tingin nito.

I looked away and shook my head. This isn't time for me to reminisce those heart
aches. I want at least a short break. Pero halata parin pala sa itsura ko ang
tinatagong lungkot. Still, she's my mom and I do respect her concern.

Umiiyak akong ibinahagi ang lahat ng mga hinanakit at nangyari sa amin ng asawa ko.
I know she will be mad, but I need a shoulder to cry on.

"That damn jerk! I swear I'm gonna kill him for hurting you this!"

Bigla akong natawa sa binitiwan niyang harsh words. Para tuloy akong sira ulong
umiiyak na tumatawa. Napakunot noo naman si Mama na tiningnan ako. Tama ako, hindi
talaga magkatulad si mama at mommy. Vocally mataray talaga si Mama eh.

"Ma naman, malalampasan namin ni Nathaniel 'to. I just want a new place to
breathe."

Nakangiti kong sabi sabay punas ng luha.

She stood up at tumungo sa akin para yakapin. Niyakap ako nito at kinausap ng
masinsinan.

"Parang kamakailan lang yong pinalitan kita ng diaper. Tapos sinasaktan ka lang ng
gago mong asawa."

As in gago talaga? Napangiwi ulit ako. Napaka-harsh talaga ni Mama magsalita.

"Ma naman eh. Kaya na namin ni Nathaniel to, konting problema lang ito. Don't worry
okay?"

She took a deep breathe at tinitigan ako ng mariin.

"Palalampasin ko ito, Zea. Pero kapag sinaktan ka niya ulit. I swear tatadtarin ko
siya ng pinong-pino."

I rolled my eyes upwards. Mama really talk ironically. Gusto kong matawa. Pero I
know she's just being a protective mother.

Kung susundan man ako ng asawa ko dito. Mabuti. Pero kung hindi, ako ang uuwi. I
don't think so I can leave him in times of his difficulties. Pero nagtext siya sa
akin kanina na after a week pupuntahan niya ako dito.

I'll wait for him here.

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Worst Surprise

(Kabanata 40)

Expect the best, plan for the worst, and prepare to be surprised.

-Denis Waitley

***

Zea POV

Naluluha ako sa subrang saya. Its been a week since I came here in New York. Ilang
beses ko pang tinitigan ang pregnancy kit na may dalawang linya. Hindi pa ako
nakuntento at nagpacheck up talaga ako kanina. Just to make sure that I am carrying
our first child.

I am two months pregnant. I can't wait to tell it to my husband. Tumawag siya sa

akin kanina and he's on his way here in New York. Isusurpresa ko talaga siya ng
bonggang bongga.

But few weeks before, nakakaramdam na ako ng pagkahilo, minsan pagsusuka pero
hinayaan ko na dahil ayokong madisappoint na naman ako. Ngayon ko lang naisip na
subrang delayed na pala ako. I was busy thinking about my husband's changes few
weeks ago kaya hindi ko nabigyang interes ang sarili.

And now finally, matutupad na ang aming pinapangarap na magkaanak. And now I'm
currently imagining the future with my husband carrying a baby boy or girl with his
arms. I smiled deeply with happiness.

"Ang saya ng anak ko. Anyway, hindi muna kita maaasikaso, I'm going to Greece
today. Tutal papunta na dito ang asawa mo. Anong oras ba siya darating dito?"

"Siguro mamayang gabi pa."

I'm so excited. Hindi na ako halos makahinga sa subrang kaba. Hindi ko muna sinabi
kay Mama na buntis ako. It should be my husband first to know before anybody else.

"If I know, how happy you are now."

Napapangiti si Mama habang nag-iimpake. I just watch her smiling happily.

**

Nagpaganda ako, nagpabango and anything else. I just want to make sure that he will
have me tonight. Yong tipong hinding hindi niya ako matatanggihan.

My husband is so hot! I should expect that.

The bell rang at hindi ako magkanda-ugaga sa pagbukas ng pinto.

Isang gwapong gwapo ang napagbukasan ko ng pinto. He smiled mischeviously as he

watch my whole body.

"Honey!"

I threw my arms on him and I encircled my legs on his waist. Binuhat niya ako
papasok sa loob.

"How are you? I miss you so much, honey.."

Pinuno ko ng halik ang buo niyang mukha. Natatawa siyang kinandong ako habang
nakaupo kami sa sofa. Para parin akong ahas na nakapulupot sa kanya.

"I miss you more."

His husky voice turn me on. Hinagod na niya ako ng tingin na punong puno ng
pananabik. I smiled playfully. I winked at him.

She grabbed me and crushed his lips on me. He kissed me hungrily. Alam kong namiss
na niya ako ng subra.

"Hmm.. I have to tell you something--"

He kissed me once again. Wala akong choice kundi hayaan na muna siya.

"Honey.."

He moves his lips down to the valley of my breast. I moaned. Subra kong namiss ang
asawa ko.

"Honey I have surprise for you.."

Bulong ko habang patuloy siya sa kanyang ginagawa. Nakikiliti na ako ng subra,

pakiramdam ko nilalagnat na ako sa subrang init ng katawan.

"Later wife.."

Paos ang boses nito. He cup my breast while sucking the other one. I groaned. And I
was so carried away. Binuhat niya ako papuntang silid at doon namin tinapos ang
naumpisahan.

We made love twice, it was consecutive. At pagod akong nakatulog sa balikat niya.

I just let myself sleep in a deep slumber with him.

"Good morning wife. I cook for you."

Preskong presko siya nang maabutan ko sa kusina, naghahain ng almusal. Halatang

bagong paligo.

"What are you cooking?"

Nakaamoy ako ng masangsang sa ilong. Biglang umakyat ang sikmura ko sa taas at

nagmamadali akong nagduduwal sa lababo. I forgot to tell him that I don't eat ham
and cheese. Our baby didn't like that food.

"Hon? Are you okay? Something wrong? Do you want me to take you in a hospital right
now?"

Mabilis siyang nakalapit sa akin at hinagod ang likod ko. Bakas sa mukha nito ang
subrang pag-aalala. Napailing-iling lamang ako habang nagpupunas ng mukha.

"No I'm fine. Don't worry, normal lang 'to."

Kaswal kong sagot. Nakakatitig ako sa pagkaing inihanda niya sa mesa. Mabilis akong
nagtakip ng ilong. Ayokong maamoy ang mga ito. Ang baho kasi. Nadidiri tuloy ako.

I took a glance at my husband who were looking at me intensely. He's confused.

"Normal? Ang alin?!"

I can sense that he's holding his breathe after he asked me that.

"Of course, dahil buntis ako. Ayoko lang ng amoy ng ham and cheese! Ang baho!"

Hindi ko mapigilang mairita. Bigla akong natahimik. Hindi pa pala niya alam ang
bagay na yon. Its supposed to be my 'big surprise' to him.

He looked pale. Yong literally na nagulat. Nagtataka akong napatingin sa kanya. He

should be happy. Mix emotions were dancing in his eyes. Fierce, shocked, and
coldness.

"Honey I'm pregnant. Aren't you happy about that? Magkakaanak na tayo!"

Binigyan ko ng kasiglahan ang pagkakasabi nun. Pero mas lalong nagdilim ang
paningin nito sa gawi ko. Tama ba ang nakikita ko ngayon? Galit? His eyes flashed
an anger to me. Unti-unting nawala ang ngiti sa labi ko.

"Your kidding right?"

Malamig at galit niyang tanong. Napamaang ako.

"Of course not! Buntis talaga ako. Do you want to see my medical records? I have
plenty of pregnancy kit in my drawer. Am not joking to you, Nathaniel. Bakit? Hindi
ka ba masaya?---"
"Ahh!! Shut up!"

Bigla itong sumigaw sa harapan ko. Nagulat ako. My eyes were widen in shock. What's
happening?

He's pacing at my front at frustrated itong nagsuklay ng kanyang buhok. Napaatras

ako nang bigla itong nanuntok ng dingding at galit na sumigaw.

"Ano bang pagkukulang ko sayo Zea!? Mahigit isang buwan lang naman ako nag-lie low
sayo because of depression and yet nagawa mong maghanap ng iba! Tell me, gaano mo
na katagal akong niloloko?"

WHAT?!

Hindi ko alam kung ano ang mga pinagsasabi niya. Wala akong alam sa panlolokong
pinaparatang niya.

"Nathaniel, ano bang sinasabi mo?"

Mangiyak ngiyak kong tanong sa kanya. Hindi ko maintindihan. Napatitig ako sa kanya
na parang handa ng makipagdigma. What's happening to him?

He gritted his teeth and looked at me angrily.

"Who's the father of your baby?"

Nagulat ako sa mabagsik niyang tanong. Gusto ko siyang sampalin sa kakitiran ng

utak niya. Mas lalo akong nastress. His eyes narrowed like slits to my direction.

"Sino ba sa tingin mo? Ano bang mga pinagsasabi mo, Nathaniel? Hindi mo ba
matanggap na magkakaanak ka na? Hindi kita niloloko!"

Hindi ko na napigilan ang sarili umiyak sa harapan niya. Oh my God! Ano bang
nangyayari sa asawa ko? Mas lalong umalsa ang galit sa mukha niya. Galit niyang
pinagsusuntok ang dingding at nabasag ang iilang babasaging gamit sa ginawa niyang
pagwawala. Natatakot na ako sa mga ipinapakita niya.

"Hindi ko anak yan! Wala akong anak! Kahit kailan hindi ko matatanggap na ako ang
ama ng ipinagbubuntis mo! Sinong ama niyan si Zea? Si Lucky ba? Sino?!"

Galit na galit ko siyang sinugod at pinagsasampal habang humahagulhol.

"Walang hiya ka! Gago ka talaga! I can accept that your hurting me! But not ever to
my child! Wala kang kwenta!"

Panay ang sigaw ko habang sinusuntok ang matigas niyang dibdib. Hinayaan nya lamang
akong saktan siya. Nakita ko rin pagkabigo niya. He's crying silently. He's mad,
broken. And wonder why all of a sudden he change into this. I thought were okay. I
thought this is the start of good relationship to our marriage. Having a great
blessing but.. But I was totally wrong. So wrong.

Hindi ko maintindihan. Hindi ko alam kung saan ang kahahantungan ng pagsasama

namin. It was totally ruined.

Natigilan ako nang biglang may sumakit sa puson ko. May dugong dumadaloy sa hita ko
kaya bigla akong nagpanic.

"Nathaniel, ang baby ko! Ang baby ko! Help me!"

Nagulat din siya at nagmamadali akong binuhat para dalhin sa hospital. He's panic.
Seiing the blood dropping through my legs is scaring me to death.

"Hang on please!"

He shouted.

And everything went black....

No. My baby. Please hold on.

***

After few hours...

Nahihilo pa ako nang imulat ko ang mga mata. All white surrounding. At may dextrose
na nakatapik sa akin. Bigla kong naalala ang huling tagpo bago ako mawalan ng
malay.

I swallowed hard. My throat was getting dry. Napahawak ako sa tyan, bigla kong
naalala ang baby ko. Bumalikwas ako ng bangon.

"Zea, hey! Be careful. Baka mabinat ka!"

Hinawakan niya ang braso ko at at inalalayan akong ipasandal sa headboard.

I suddenly turn my head on that person upon hearing the familiarity of her voice.

"Charity!"

I'm glad she's here. Kami lang dalawa ang nasa kwartong ito. She smiled warmly.

"Cha ang anak ko? Kumusta? Anong nangyari?"

I am almost in panic. Thinking about losing my baby will get me insane. I'm hoping
that he's fine. I had the feeling that he's a boy even if I didn't know it yet.

She sighed at umupo sa tapat ko. She squeezed my hand gently. I wasn't almost
breathing waiting for her reply.

"How are you feeling now? Relax, Zea. Everything is okay. Your baby is fine. Iniwan
ka sa akin ng asawa mo dahil may aasikasuhin pa daw siya. What happened?'

Her eyes were in a weary staring at me. Biglang bumangon ang galit sa dibdib ko
nang banggitin nito ang asawa ko. But in the other side, I'm thankful that my baby
is still there. Wala sa sariling napahawak ako sa tyan, hindi pa halata ang umbok
nito. I sighed in relief.

"Cha, I can't tell it to you for now. I don't want to think about what happened."

I looked away. Every time I remember his reaction, hindi parin ako makapaniwala
that he would accuse me of betraying him. Matatanggap ko kung ayaw na niya sa akin
pero ang idamay ang anak ko sa mga paratang niya ay hinding hindi ko matatanggap
kailanman. Ipinagkanulo niya ang sarili niyang dugo at laman.
"Mabuti na lang at tumawag ako tapos siya ang nakasagot ng phone mo. My God! I was
so worried at halos makipagkarera na ako sa demonyo makarating lang dito. Thanks
God! You're alive and okay."

I'm thankful that she's here. Maasahan talaga ang mga totoong kaibigan. I shook my
head. Sa paulit-ulit na pag-aalala, hindi parin ako makapaniwala sa nangyari. Sa
biglaan niyang pagbabago. At ang paratangan ako ng kung anu-ano. Kung nakunan ako,
hinding hindi ko talaga siya mapapatawad. Mabuti na lang at kumapit ang anak ko sa
sinapupunan.

"May problema ba kayong mag-asawa?"

Mahinahon niyang tanong. Hindi ako kumibo. Alam kong batid niya na ang totoo pero
she'

just want to know behind it.

"Ayoko munang pag-usapan Cha. Hangga't maaari, I don't wanna see his face. Ever
again."

Diniinan ko ang huling katagang binitiwan. I don't think so na kakayanin ko pang

makita ang pagmumukha niya.

"I understand. Now, its time for you to rest. Kailangan mo ng lakas para sa baby
nyo."

I nodded slowly. Dahan-dahan akong humiga at nakatuon ang mga mata ko sa kawalan.
My big surprise turn worst surprise for him. Tumagilid ako and its getting blank.
It seems everything was a blurred.

Hindi na niya ako mahal. He just want me to let go at naghahanap lang siya ng
dahilan para maghiwalay kami. Pero ang itanggi na hindi niya anak ang batang
dinadala ko ay napakasakit bilang isang matinong asawa. Naaawa ako sa anak ko.
Hindi paman siya naipapanganak ay naranasan na niyang inabandona ng sariling ama.

I sighed. I wiped the tears that won't stop falling. Ang sakit-sakit lang talaga.

"Sshh.. Stop crying. It might harm your baby. Zea, nandito lang ako. I wont leave
you. Please.."

Hinagod niya ang likod ko, giving me some comforts.

"Thanks Cha... "

I smiled bitterly and closed my eyes.

Life must go on.. For the sake of my baby kakayanin ko ang lahat ng ito.

Kapit lang baby..

Author's Note

Take a break!

Thank you sa mga readers who support this kind of a simple love story... To those
who votes and appreciated it, thank you talaga!

It doesn't matter if undiscovered or restricted na ang storya na ito. As long as

I'm enjoying writing and updating it.

Sa mga redears na galing pa sa TSL (The Secret Love) and support all the way here,
thank you so much. At sa mga new readers, salamat ng marami. I hope all of you are
enjoying the scenes as the flows of the story are starting to unfold.

At sa lahat ng grammatically and typo errors pagpasensyahan nyo na po. Gawa po ng

busy sa trabaho at sa buhay (LOL), at sa matang lumalabo (but am not old hah! Haha)
ay wala na po akong time to review. I'm so lazy to do profreading. But still, I'll
hired an editor, maybe one of my friends will do. And of course thank you sa
patience.

Pinagtiyagaan niyo talagang basahin ang story ko though marami namang 'magagaling
na manunulat ' in wattpad. I'm just nothing compared to them. But anyway thank you
pa din. I'm not writer, assuming lang po. Haha

I am now currently writing the new batch. Nag-start na po ako kay NICHOLAS
DEMISTICUZ and CHASITY BERLIN ( The Marriage Contract Deal).

And after this MTD (Marrying the Desperada), dadalasan ko na po ang update sa
adventure love story ni Servo and Georgia. (Opposites Do Distracts).

Ang kasunod po na chapter ay ang panibagong buhay na ni Zea and Jamie. Four years
pass after the separation, they will see each other again and slowly start a new.

I don't know if I'll put some kind of a heavy twist. Maybe not or maybe yes. But
its a lesson for Jamie about failing himself of chosing the wrong decisions. And
maybe Zea will meet his new love of her life, not totally. Just in case lang naman.

Still believe the second chances. Anyway, thank you again..

P.S :

Completed na po ang story ng TSL, again sorry po sa mga mali-mali. Yon po ang
kauna-unahang story na sinulat ko na natapos here in wattpad. Salamat po sa mga
nagbasa at bumuto sa story na yon. ;)
 - Miss J.

A New Life

(Kabanata 41)

We can't be afraid of change. You may feel very secure in the pond that you are in,
but if you never venture out of it, you will never know that there is such a thing
as an ocean, a sea. Holding onto something that is good for you now, may be the
very reason why you don't have something better.

~C. JoyBell C.

Zea POV

A new life with my son is the best thing happened in the world for me.

"Mom, I want shrimp! Please.."

Oh gosh. He's pleading. His puppy look eyes seems so irresistable. How could I see
'NO' to that? My God, he's the perfect replica of his father. His nose, his face
and his eyes, everything.

I smiled,

"Okay I'll cook for you but make sure that you'll not eat plenty of it. Is that
clear?"

Ayokong mapadami siya ng kain. Parang hindi pa kasi advisable sa edad niya ang
kumakain ng ganyang sea foods. Wala naman siyang allergy like me. Kaya lang syempre
as a mother, I'm concern with his health.

"Opo."

He blink his eyes playfully. Pati ugali kuhang kuha sa ama. I don't wanna think
those painful memories with his father. Denying him as his son is the most painful
and regretful happened in my life.

Nag-appear kaming dalawa before he leave and play with his toys. Napapangiti lamang
ako habang pinagmamasdan siya sa kalayuan. Its been four years. My son just turn
three years old last month. At ano pa ba ang mahihiling ko bukod sa pagiging
healthy at kasiyahan ng anak ko? Of course my son is everything to me.

Zian Nathaniel Zamora.

Syempre kahit ipinagkanulo siya ng sariling ama, kasal parin kami at karapatan ng
anak ko dalhin ang apelyido ng kanyang ama.

We were living here in New York. Bumukod na kami ng sariling bahay. Kahit papano
nakapagpundar naman ako and I'm starting with my own business smoothly.

Nagring ang doorbell at ipinagbuksan ni Marie, our newly hired nanny.

"Hi! How's everyone here?"

Lucky smiled playfully as he barge in here in the kitchen.

He's my long time suitor and at the same time my good friend. Hindi ko siya pwedeng
sagutin hanggang sa nakatali pa ako sa isang commitment. I just want everything
will set in legality. Gusto ko lang ng malinaw na relasyon, and still I'm a married
woman.

"Mabuti naman. Oh, napadalaw ka?"

Its Monday today, supposed to be busy siya sa bagong launching ng kanilang family
business.

"Biglaang flight ko mamaya sa Pinas, kaya before ako makauwi doon, gusto ko munang
dumaan dito. Where's Nathan?"

Nagpalinga-linga siya sa paligid, hinahanap ang inaanak.

"Nasa playroom. Punatahan mo muna dun."

Busy ako sa pagprepara ng mga sangkap sa gagawing pagluluto. I'm going to cook a
bacon wrapped shrimp and grilled shrimp scampi. Ewan ko ba kung papaano ako
nakakapagluto ng ganitong pagkain, allergy naman ako. Pero siguro pagdating sa anak
lahat pwedeng matutunan. And I learn to adjust it. Konting tikim lang ay hindi
naman ako napapano o natatamaan ng pangangati. Na-immune na rin siguro ako sa
paminsan-minsang pagtitikim tuwing nagluluto.

"Ate, may tumawag. Si Ma'am Emily ho."

Biglaang bungad ni Marie sa pinto, dala nito ang telephone. I wiped my hands on
towel at kinuha ang telephone para sagutin ito.

"Hello Mom."

Malamang mangungulit na naman itong umuwi ng Pililipinas. Its going to December, at

syempre gusto nila makasama ang apo. Twice or thrice in a year, pinupuntahan nila
ako dito sa New York. I've been in the Philippines last year and I don't want to
spoil of going home yearly. Because of some reasons.. I sighed.

"Anak, uuwi dito si Trisha sa makalawa and please be here with Nathan. Minsan ko
lang kayo makasama ng sabay-sabay. I've already miss my grandchildren."

Hindi ako nagkamali. Speaking of my elder sister, she have two children. Jacq and
Jonas. And next year may plano na naman itong manganak. Bongga, habit na yata nito
ang panganganak.

"Besides your Dad would be disappointed if you wouldn't be here. Please Zea, just
understand your poor old Dad."

Oh my! Ginamit pa ang kunsensya ko. Si Mommy talaga. I sighed and smiled, okay! I
surrendered.

"Okay okay. Magpapabook ako ng flight, maybe next day uuwi na ako dyan. I have to
settle my business here first."

"Talaga! Oh you don't know how happy I am!"

Happiness is in the pitch of her voice. I smiled happily. Si Mom talaga, hinuhuli
ang kiliti ko.

After a little talk with my mother, tinapos ko na ang niluluto.

"Nathan, come here. Luto na po ang order mo."

I said playfully to him at the entrance of the door.

"Yeheyy!"

He stood up immediately and run towards me. Sumunod naman ang kanyang ninong.

"So how's tito Rad and tita Lea?"

Close ko na rin kasi ang family ni Lucky. Pati ang anak ko ay nakagiliwan na rin
nila.

"As usual, they are pushing me to get married soon."

Again nagpaparinig na naman ito. I sighed. Kung pwede lang, isa pa parang hindi
talaga naglevel up ang nararamdaman ko sa kanya. Ewan ko ba, he's super kind naman.
Tiyak na magiging mabuting ama siya sa anak ko. Ang problema, hindi pwede. Aside
from being married, kaibigan lang din ang tingin ko sa kanya.

"Lucky, you know I'm still---"

"Married."

Dinugtungan niya ang sinabi ko. I close my eyes and took a deep breathe. Napasulyap
ako kay Nathan na masiglang kumakain.

Tipid akong ngumiti kay Lucky. Kitang kita ko ang hinahangad niyang pag-asa sa mga
mata.

"You know how much I treasure our friendship. I'm sorry. Its not only that I'm
married."

He shook his head and sighed. Anong magagawa ko? Sadness gleam in his depth.

"Your still inlove with him. I knew it. I should understand you, and I shouldn't
expect."

I looked away. He's hurting but I can't do nothing about it.

"Bakit di ka pa nagfile ng annulment?"

He snapped. Napatingin ako sa kanya. Last year nagkita kami Yvo accidentally and I
spoke to him about filing an annulment pero nawalan ako ng time. Aside from that,
gusto ko muna siyang makita at makausap about our closure. Kung kaya na ba talaga
namin ang maghiwalay ever. Iniisip ko pa lang nasasaktan na ako. Mahal ko parin ang
asawa ko. Walang nagbago. I still miss him everyday. Thinking kung kumusta na siya.
Ang hirap, pero ipinagtabuyan na niya kami mahigit apat na taong nakalipas. It only
means, wala na kaming halaga sa kanya.

"Maybe Luck, if I have time."

Nakayuko kong sagot. Hindi ako sigurado. Hindi ko alam. Siguro hindi pa ngayon.

Narinig ko ang pagbuga niya ng hangin. Frustrated ito.

Silence.

"Ninong, why don't you eat this? Its my favorite!"

Biglaang pasigaw na paanyaya ni Nathan. I was dragged out of my reverie.

"Kulang pa yan sayo eh. You have to eat plenty of foods para mabilis kang lumaki."

He ruffled Nathan's hair as he said that. My son's eyes glint in delight.

"Really? So we can play basketball when I'm a big boy na?"

Mabuti na lang ang anak ko marunong magsalita at umintindi ng tagalog kahit medyo
twang pakinggan kaya hindi siya nahihirapan kapag nakikipaghalubilo siya sa mga
bata na nasa Pilipinas.

"Of course! "

Masiglang sagot ni Lucky. And nagtawanan sila habang nag-high five. Nakangiti lang
akong pinagmamasdan silang dalawa. Kung pwede lang na bigyan ko ang sarili ng
pagkakataon, kaya lang masyado pang kumplikado.

After the short talked that we had, nagpasya na siyang umuwi.

Nagpaalam ako kay Mama at Tito Hector about our sudden vacation in Phil. Syempre
mamimis din nila ang apo na halos sa kanila na lumaki.

**

"Nathan, babalik din tayo agad. Don't pack all your toys. Mahihirapan lang tayo sa
pagdadala niyan."

Paalala ko habang iniimpake ang mga dadalhin. Tinutulungan naman ako nitong malikot
kong anak. Pero wala namang nangyari, dahil mas lalo pa yatang nagkagulo.

"Mom, I want to bring these avenger toys. And these cars, please.."

I rolled my eyes. He looked at me frowning.

"We will buy there. Nathan, its heavy mahihirapan na naman tayo pauwi. Don't be a
hard headed."

I reminded him. Matagal pa niya ako tinitigan before he smile playfully. Mabuti at
naintindihan ako.

Pagkatapos maglipit sinama ko siya sa bakeshop, may aasikasuhin lang ako bago umuwi
ng Pilipinas.

"Gemma ikaw muna bahala dito hah? Magbabakasyon kasi kami ni Nathan sa Pilipinas.
Alam mo na December, naglalambing na naman ang mga matatanda na makasama ang apo."
Ngumiti si Gemma ng makahulugan. She's entrusted with all my three branches "Zea's
Cookies and Pastries" bakeshop here in New York. Madalas ako dito sa main branch ng
Brooklyn.

I raised my one eyebrow with his secretive smile.

"Hmm.. I had the feeling na this time magkikita na talaga kayo ng asawa mo. Malakas
talaga ang feelings ko..naku!"

Busy siya sa pagbabalot ng mga cookies. Ngingiti-ngiti pa ito na may kasamang pang-
aasar.

"Naku, Gemma I told you, stop imagining things again. Umuwi ako last year dun,
madalas naman ako gumala ni hindi nga kami nagkita."

But deep inside I'm hoping. Pero gusto ko ring matakot. I am not prepared to see
him. Galit parin ako sa ginawa niya sa aming mag-ina. Kahit kailan, hinding hindi
ko ipapakita si Nathan sa kanya.

"Kaya nga, feeling ko ngayong taon na kayo magtatagpo. I can see the future that by
end of the year, there's love story will be back again!"

May kasama pa itong action na pataas-taas kamay. Parang naghuhumentaryo. Hindi ko

maiwasang matawa sa pagiging comedy drama niya. Napakahilig talaga mag-interpret ng
mga bagay-bagay.

"Para ka talagang baliw Gemma."

Natatawa kong komento.

"Hi sis!"

Biglang sumulpot si Charice sa may pintuan. She slightly hug my waist and gave me a
beso-beso.

Madalas kami nagkikita dito kasi matagal na siyang na-assign dito sa New York.
Simula pa nung ipinagbubuntis ko si Nathan. Siya ang kaibigang umalalay at tumulong
sa akin maliban sa mga magulang ko at pamilya ko.

Kaya malaki ang utang na loob ko sa kanya. She's really my best friend.

"Hey! Totoo ba yong sinabi sa akin ni Nathan na uuwi na daw kayo ng Pilipinas?"

Nagkausap siguro sila ng anak ko sa may living area ng Bakeshop. Doon kasi
naglalagi ang anak ko kapag dinadala ko siya dito.

Umupo ito across the table. Sa lagay niyang yan, mangungusisa na naman ito. At
pagtutulungan naman ako nila ni Gemma na asarin.

"Magbabakasyon, hindi uuwi."

I corrected her. For me New York is my home. Dito parin ako mamumuhay with my son.

"Asusss.. Makapagsalita parang hindi laking Pinas."

Humentaryo ni Charice. Nag-uumpisa na naman.

"Duh, nandito na ang mga negosyo ko. May bahay na ako dito. Ano pa bang dahilan na
manatili sa Pilipinas?"

"Your husband. Your family."

I looked at her frowning. I disapproved. She shrugged as if she meant nothing

important that much.

"You know what happened Cha. I don't think so I can forgive that him easily."

I said in a cold voice.

Ni hindi nga siya humingi ng tawad. Isa pa what he did is unforgivable.

She sighed. Gemma excuse herself to avoid the conversation.

"Malay mo may malalim na dahilan si Jamie. Hindi ka ba nagtataka kung bakit bigla
siyang nagbago? Siguro----"

"Enough Cha, kaya kong isipin na saktan niya ako. Pero pagdating kay Nathan ibang
usapan na yon. He denied his own flesh and blood! Imagine?"

Inilahad ko ang kamay sa ere nang sabihin ang mga katagang yon.

"Yon na nga ang alamin mo kung paano niya nagawang ipinagkanulo ang sarili niyang
anak where in the first place matagal na niyang hinangad na mabuntis ka, ang
magkaanak kayo."

Natahimik ako. Napaisip ako sa bagay na yon. Hanggang ngayon malabo parin naman ang
mga pangyayari. Kaya nga gusto ko muna ng closure bago ang annulment.

"Hindi ko alam Cha. Hindi ko rin naman ipapakita sa kanya ang anak niya. Hindi ako
uuwi para harapin siya, kundi para sa pamilya ko."

I said in a stern voice.

Nanggigigil parin ako sa galit tuwing napapag-usapan ang masakit na nakaraan.

"But you have to be open in the possibilities na magkikita kayo."

Payo nito. Tiningnan ko siyang nababahala. Natatakot ako para sa anak ko. Baka
kapag makita niya ito ay itatanggi niyang muli. Kilala pa naman ni Nathan ang ama
niya, syempre I have hundreds of picture with his father at lage niya itong
nakikita at hinahalungkat para makita lang ang ama. Naaawa tuloy ako sa anak ko.

"Mommy! Tara! Let's going home na, I want to sleep early for our long trip
tomorrow.. I want to be good boy na po."

Nagulat na lamang kami at pumasok siya loob at biglang nambulahaw.

"Come Ninang. You have to give me a hug first dahil mamimiss ka ni ninang ng
subra."

Kinandong niya si Nathan at kinikiliti. Napuno ng halakhakan ang loob ng packing

room at natatawa lang akong nagmamasid sa kanilang harutan.

"Ninang I'm seeing Daddy na!"

Bigla kaming natahimik ni Charice nang magsalita ito tungkol sa kanyang Dad. Sabay
kaming nagkatinginan.

Magkikita? Dyos ko! Paano niya naiisip ang bagay na yon?

"Paano mo naman nasabing magkikita kayo ng Daddy mo?"

Malumanay at nag-iimbistigang tanong ni Charice, dala ng matinding curiosity ng

bata ay baka kung ano na ang mga pinagsasabi nito.

"Tita Trisha said, my Dad was in the Philippines. I thought he's in heaven, but she
said hindi daw po."

Oh my! Madalas kasing nagsaskype si ate at ang anak ko. Madalas kasi nilang pinag-
uusap si Jacq. Magkasundong magpinsan kahit long distance.

His innocence is genuine. Si ate talaga subrang daldal.

"Ah okay, do you still memorise your Dad's face?"

Cha asked again. Namimilog ang mga mata nitong tumango tango na may halong ngiti.

"I have lots of lots of pictures with my Daddy. He looks like me po, just like tita
Trish said."

Napangiti si Cha sa akin. I was just seriously staring at my son's gratitude while
telling something about his father.

I sighed.

Kung hindi lang siya itinakwil ni Nathaniel, tiyak na masaya niyang nakakapiling
ang ama ngayon na kailanman ay hindi ko kayang punan. Iba parin ang fatherhood
material. Naninikip ang dibdib ko tuwing naiisip ang bagay na yon.

Oh God..

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Home

(Kabanata 42)

Love begins at home. And it is not how much we do... But how much love we put in
that action.

-Mother Teresa-

***

Jamie POV

"What!"

I hissed as I've heard the investigator said about my wife's life. Napakurap ito.

"Yes sir. She's now living by herself with your son and----"

"Skip that details. I want you to tell me.. If she had a new affair."

Nagdidilim ang mukha ko nang banggitin nito ang with your son. I gritted my teeth
upon hearing that words. Hindi ko anak ang batang yon.

"Nothing sir. But she's seeing with someone. Si Mr. Lucky Manzania ho."

Umalsa ang galit ko sa narinig. My jaw flexed. She's still seeing that man even
abroad. What should I expect then? He's the father of her baby. This time, I'll
take back what I've own.

"Your wife is in the Philippines right now."

Napatingin ako ng deretso sa kanya nang sabihin niya ang bagay na yon. I smiled
wryly. Good thing is mas madali ang paggawa ng mga plano. I'll make it sure to her
na magkikita kami. Apat na taon din akong nagtiis na mawalay sa kanya. Wala na
akong pakialam kung may anak man siya sa iba. At least may excess baggage. Tutal
hindi rin naman ako magkakaanak. Well tatanggapin ko ang anak niya as long as she's
mine.

But I will make her suffer first, and that guy named LUCKY will suffer until the
death of his life! I swear.

"They were now in the mansion of Senador Chiongbian."

He continued. I looked away. It seems that this is going to be nice if I'll

surprise her a visit. But, her whole family still maddeningly angry with me because
I left her daughter four years ago. They don't know anything..about sa totoong
nangyari.

But I've tried my best to look for her but Zea hide all those years. And now I
could finally settle everything the mess we've done.

"Tell me about Lucky Manzania, his business and family matters."

I commanded. Lahat ng mga taong kaugnay sa asawa ko ay pinaimbistigahan ko na.

"Sir, Mr. Rad Manzania is running congressman next year. Their family is facing the
company's bankruptcy now. And aside from that, Mrs. Lea is suffering breast
cancer---"

I raised my palm in his front without taking a glance. I shouldn't let her mother
be affected with my plans. My mom was died of that sickness. Si Lucky lang ang
kailangan kong pahirapan.

"Enough Mr. Belloga. You can leave now. I'll just call you if I need your services.
Thank you."

I said in a stern voice. Nakatoun lang ang mga mata ko sa papeles na nasa harapan
ng mesa.

"Thank you Sir. I have to go."

I just only nodded. Inayos ko na ang mga dapat ayusin coz I'm planning to file
leave for the necessary things to do.

I sighed.

**

Zea POV

This place is my real home. Namiss ko talaga ang lugar kung saan ako lumaki.

"Mom, ate Jacq put the fries in the mouth of my Thor."

Hinila niya ang laylayan ng damit ko. Busy kami ni ate sa pagroroll ng lumpiang
shanghai.

Tumawa si Ate sa sinabi ng anak ko. Madalas kasing pinapakain ni Jacq ang kanyang
mga dolls. That's why ganun din ang akala nito sa mga laruan ni Nathan.

"Jacqeline thought that's also her dolls. Anyway, Nathan hayaan mo na. Ipalayo mo
na lang si Thor sa ate Jacq mo."

Natatawang sabi ni ate. My son frowned his cute face to us.

"Okay, I'll go with Jonas na lang."

He said, Jonas is two years old at magkasundong magkasundo sila ng anak ko.

Napapangiti na lamang ako habang pinagmamasdan silang naglalaro.

"Sis, ikaw na lang kaya mamili ng mga Christmas wrappers. Alam mo na ang kukulit ng
dalawang bata. Mahirap maiwanan."

"Sure. Kelan nga gagamitin yon?"

Mamimigay kami ng mga gifts sa mga orphan children this coming weekends.

"Dapat bukas makapag-umpisa na tayo ng pagra-wrap. Marami-rami din yong babalutin

natin."

Anito. Tumayo siya at nag-umpisa ng magsalang ng lumpia sa mantika.

"So dapat pala ngayon makapamili na ako. Sandali, ihahanda ko muna itong mga
lulutuin."

"Ako na, kami na bahala ni Mom dyan. Pasama ka sa mga bodyguards dyan, para may
magbuhat ng mga pinamili mo."

"Sige."

Naligo muna ako at dahil busy sa bahay ngayon, isasama ko na lang si Nathan.

"Mom make it fast. I'm tired waiting here po."

Naku! May pinagmanahan talaga. Napaka-mainipin. Just like his Dad. I rolled my eyes
upwards and put a pink glossy lipstick to finish this stuffs.

"Mom!"

"Wait.."

Nagkamot ito ng ulo sa kakatitig sa akin. He don't understand those girls stuffs
and etc. But I'm making him understand na ganun talaga ang mga babae by explaining
that he would easily understand.

Pagkatapos, sa Mall na kami dumeretso.

"Mom, I want a new robot collections."

"Just later, after na lang nito. Nathan, please behave. You know were running out
of time."

Matured ako kapag nakikipag-usap sa anak ko. I wanted him to learn sa mga bagay-
bagay but still I want him to enjoy at his age at the same time.

"Okay."

He answered in boredom. Para talagang Daddy niya kung makapagmaktol. I sighed.

Naglalakad kami sa hallway when someone caught my eyes. I suddenly pause in panic.

Oh my God! He's here.

Mabilis kong nahila ang kamay ni Nathan paliko sa kabilang daanan. He was busy with
his calls while walking fastly. At may mga alalay itong nakasunod sa kanya.

"Mommy! I thought were going to buy wrappers first. Mom?"

Wala itong nagawa kundi magreklamo ng magreklmao habang hinihila ko siya sa

papuntang toy kingdom.

"I change my mind."

Wala na kasi akong choice. Ito na lang kasi ang nakita kong daanan para maiwasan
ang taong pinakaiiwasan ko simula't sapol.

"Zea?"

Oh! Napalingon ako bigla sa pamilyar na boses na yon. Were not close but he's my
husband's cousin.

"Nicholas! Hi!"
I blurted out smiling happily to him. He's with someone. I frowned at the woman
standing by his side, may dala itong about six months or eight months old baby.
She's so beautiful. At ang ganda ng baby.

"Anyway, meet my wife Chasity. Hon, si Zea.. Ahmm, Jamie's wife."

He possesively hug his woman slightly while he introduce us with each other. Agad
naman akong ginawaran ng matamis na ngiti ng asawa nito sabay shake hands.
Actually, hindi ako makapaniwala na nag-asawa ang lalaking ito. I thought marriage
isn't his thing.

But gladly I was so surprise..

"Hmmm.. So nakahanap ka rin ng katapat. Akala ko binata ka forever."

Sinabayan ko yon ng malawak na ngiti.

"Well, pinikot ako nito eh. You'll see, I'm his---ARAY! Sorry na.."

Inirapan siya ng asawa nito pagkatapos hampasin sa mukha. Agad niya itong sinuyo at
hinalik-halikan. Natatawa na lamang akong pinagmasdan sila. Kinuha ni Nic ang bata
at nilaro laro ito.

"Look at my daughter Zea, kamukha ko ba?"

The baby smiling at my direction. She's so cute, I suddenly kiss her in her palm
and forehead. Nakakapanggigil.

"Hi.. Baby, what's your name?"

"She's Charee."

Masiglang sagot ni Nic.

Nagigiliwan ko itong laruin dahil panay ang tawa nito.

"She looks like her mother."

Puna ko. Napakagandang bata. Hindi maikakailang may pinagmanahan.

"Actually, may kambal siya Zea. Naiwan sa lolo at Lola niya."

Masaya at proud na sabi ni Chasity sa akin. Nagulat ako at syempre masaya din.
Hindi ko kasi sukat akalain na makikita kong ganito kasaya ang pamilyang mabubuo ni
Nic. I never thought seeing him like this na may karga-kargang anak at may
masayahing asawa. Akala ko he would remain womanizer as ever.

"Mom! Your so tagal!"

Bigla akong napalingon kay Nathan, galing ito sa stuff toys at may dala itong Elmo.

"Nathan! Come here."

Lumapit ang anak ko. Hindi ko siya napansin kanina na nawala pala siya sa tabi ko.

"Your son?"

Napatingin ako kay Nic. Tumango lang ako.

"Hi, I'm your tita Chasity. What's your name."

My son smiled pleasantly to Chasity at lumawak lalo ang ngiti nito nang makita ang
baby.

"I'm Nathan po."

Nakatitig lang si Nic sa anak ko, wari may iniisip.

"He's the perfect resemblance of his father, Honey.."

Narinig kong sabi ni Chasity sa asawa. Ngumiti naman si Nic at tumango-tango ito
bilang pagsang-ayon.

"You know my father?"

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko. Narinig niya pala yon? I think this is probably not a good
idea if patagalin pa ang usapan. Wala pa namang alam ang anak ko sa ama niya.

"Of course, your tito Nic and your Dad is cousins."

Nakita ko ang inosenting ngiti ng anak ko. Namimilog pa ang mga mata nitong
nakangiti.

While, the other side nagkatinginan lamang kami Nic. He's aware that Jamie and I
are no longer couple anymore. Nagtatanong ang mga mata nito.

"Just like ate Jacq and I? Were cousins right Mom?"

I smiled nervously sabay tango sa kanya. Paano kung magtanong ito ng magtanong
tungkol sa kanyang ama? Wala pa naman itong alam sa totoong nangyari.

I was about to excuse us, when Chasity invited us to have coffee or snacks.
Nakagiliwan kasi nito ang anak ko.

We end up in COFFEE AMIGO. May area naman for kids playroom, doon naglalaro ang
anak ko habang kami ay nagmemeryenda dito sa tabi.

"Don't tell me, Jamie didn't know that may anak kayo? Wala siyang nababanggit sa
amin."

Nicholas spoke in curousity. I sighed. Chasity was busy taking care of the baby.
Pinadede niya ito sa bottle.

"Actually, nung ipinagbubuntis ko pa si Nathan, sinabi ko na sa kanya. Pero I don't

know his reasons Nic kung bakit niya itinanggi na hindi daw niya anak ang dinadala
ko."

Malungkot kong kwento. Hindi parin niya maintindihan ang sinabi ko. Hindi naman
siya nagtanong pa.

"I don't wanna talk about it Nic. Hindi ko rin naman ipagpipilitan ang anak ko sa
kanya. In my son's perfect time, he will understand everything. And sooner
makikilala niya rin ang kanyang ama. Not now."

He took a deep breathe. I don't know what he's thinking. Pero alam kong naguguluhan
siya.

"He's moron. Bakit niya idideny ang sarili niyang dugo't laman? Now I realise how
he lost he's own life."

He mocked. Kinuha niya si Charee at hinalik-halikan. Naiinggit ako sa sitwasyon

nilang mag-asawa ngayon.

I agreed. Napakalaking katangahan talaga ang ginawa niya. Hanggang ngayon, wala
parin akong naiintindihan sa nangyari.

Chasity keeps on wiping their baby's mouth. Naglalaro kasi ito ng laway. Nag-thumb
suck ito ng kamay. Kambal pa talaga ang baby nila. Napakaswerte naman.

**

After the long chat we had, napagpasyahan naming umalis na ni Nathan. Mamimili pa
kami ng christmas wrappers. Nakagiliwan nilang kausapin si Nathan. Natutuwa sila sa
mga unexpected curiousity nito. Well hindi sa nagmamayabang, pero sa lahing Zamora
at Chiongbian ay walang slow learner. My son is smart at ipinagmamalaki ko yon.

Mabait ang asawa ni Nic. Madaling makagaanan ng loob. No wonder kung paano siya
nabihag nito. Napaka-ulirang ama ni Nicholas. Unlike my husband.

I just hope na sana maisip rin nito kung ano ang nagawa niyang pagkakamali.

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Meeting with the Devil

(Kabanata 43)

Possesiveness leads to obssesion.

~Unknown~

****

Zea POV

Hindi ko alam kung para saang notice yong dumating kanina. Pero sabi ng katulong
kailangan ko daw basahin dahil importante. Actually, kinakabahan ako ng konti don.
Pakiramdam ko something might bad to happen.

Agad kong binasa ito pagkatapos kong magluto ng tanghalian ni Nathan. My son didn't
want to eat the food if hindi ko luto. Alam niya talaga kung ano ang inihahain ko
para sa kanya. Kaya hindi pwedeng iwan ko siya ng basta basta ng walang tamang
habilin.
But to my utter shocked, binigyan ako ng notice for a case of adultery? Ang kapal
ng mukha niya para kasuhan ako ng adultery. Ni minsan ko hindi ko nagawang lokohin
ang banal na kasulatang pinirmahan ko to be his wife tapos ganito? Bigla-bigla na
lamang itong kakasuhan ako ng walang ebidensiya? Sino bang nag-abandona sa aming
mag-ina? Siya lang naman itong matinong asawa na iniwan ako sa ere, pagkatapos
niyang malaman na buntis ako and the worst is pinagbintangan akong nangaliwa at
nabuntis ng ibang lalaki.

My God!

He's really out of his freaking mind. Napakawalanghiya lang talagang niyang lalaki.
Wala siyang kwentang ama at asawa! Bwesit lang talaga. Nagmadali akong nagbihis
dahil susugurin ko siya sa opisina ngayon. Hindi ko na hihintayin ang araw na
magkikita kami according dito sa notice. I am desperate to slap this nonsense paper
to his face. I'm sure hindi pa siya nakuntentong saktan ako noon at gusto niya pang
nakikita akong maghirap. Well, in that case lalaban ako. Hindi ako papayag na
aabusuhin niya ang kahinaan ko at tapakan ang pagkatao ko ng ganun-ganun na lang.
Lintek na lang ang walang ganti.

Halatang gulat na gulat ang mga tao dito sa opisina nang walang babala akong
pumasok. Pinigilan pa ako ng isang babae na pakiramdam ko nasa mid tweenties ang
edad.

"Ma'am kabilin-bilinan ho ni Sir na hindi ako magpapasok ng mga taong walang

appointement. Please po--"

"Don't worry hindi ka sisisantehin."

Tiyak na hindi ako kilala ng secretary nito dahil yong iba dito na dito parin
nagtatrabaho hanggang ngayon ay nagbubulungan na nakatingin sa akin. They still
recognize the monster's wife.

"Pero Ma'am, hindi po talaga pwede----"

"I'm his wife. You don't have to worry about."

Kitang-kita ko ang shock sa mukha nito sa binitiwan kong salita. Halatang nagulat.
Bigla itong natameme at nagtanong ako ulit kong yon parin ba ang dati niyang
opisina. Wala sa sariling tumang-tango lang ito. Gusto kong matawa sa pagkakagulat
niya pero I don't have time for that. Hindi na ako kumatok pa nang pihitin ko ang
doorknob nito. Hindi pala ito nakalock.

"You idiot!---"

Ako yata ang nagulat sa nasaksihang eksena. He's kissing with another woman on his
lap. At parang nagpapalabas sila ng isang mabentang porn show. Nanlaki ang mga mata
ko sa pagkabigla. Parang piniga ang puso ko sa nakita. Gusto ko silang
pagsusuntuking dalawa pero para lamang akong kandila na itinirik sa tabi.
Naramdaman nila ang presensya ko at marahan nitong itinulak ang babaeng nakaupo sa
kanyang kandungan. Wari naiirita namang inismiran ako ng malanding babae.

He release an infamous smile at my direction. I gritted my teeth. Tumayo ang babae

at nagmura pa ito nang pinaalis ng malandi kong asawa. Taas noo ko siyang hinarap
at pinilit ko ang sarili na magpakita na hindi ako apektado.

"So how's my wife for hiding herself for four years from me?"

He asked with sarcasm. He lean his back in swivel chair at nagrerelax itong nag-
unat ng mga kalamnan. Wari hindi ako binibigyan ng atensyon. I took a deep breathe.
I always used to this. Dahil sanay na sanay na akong ginagawan niya ng ganito noon
pa man.

"Hindi na ako magpapaligoy ligoy pa. Ang kapal ng mukha mo para pagbentangan at
kasuhan ako!"

Minuwestra ko ang papel na notice sa kanyang harapan. Galit na galit ko itong

pinunit at itinapon sa kanyang pagmumukha. Binaliktad niya pa ako gayong siya pala
itong nakikipaglampungan sa iba. But he just only remain calm. He didn't take it
seriously. Minsan gusto kong isipin kung anong klaseng tao ang nagluwal sa kanya sa
mundong ito.

His eyes was snapped with fire when he looked at me. Nagsukatan kami ng mga mata. I
put all my frustrations in my eyes. Gustong-gusto ko ng umiyak sa harapan niya.
Pero hindi pwede mas lalo lamang niyang iisipin na napakahina kong babae like I
always used to before. I wouldn't give him a chance to abuse my weaknesses. Not
ever.

Then he looked away. At last! Bumawi na rin siya ng tingin which gives me joy dahil
alam kong apektado din siya sa sitwasyon namin ngayon. I've known him almost in
everything. Pero alam kung hindi sapat na dahilan yon para patawarin ko siyang muli
at bigyan ng pagkakataon kahit magmakaawa siya nito. Sa ginagawa niya sa akin
ngayon, napakalabo na ng iniisip ko.

"Well, I have sources my dear wife wether you admit it or not. Your dating with
Lucky Manzania, right?"

He stood up and walk slowly towards me. I was taken aback. I know I haven't
prepared this conversations that might leads to danger for me. I slowly step
backwards. I'm afraid of myself might to lose out in presence and give in.

"Were just friends, Nathaniel. Were dating or not, what's with you? As far as I
know matagal mo ng tinalikuran ang pagsasama natin. In fact, I'm planning to file
you an annulment one of these days."

Umigting ang panga niya sa sinabi ko. Then, I realise na wala na pala akong
maaatrasan. Tumama na ang likod ko in a cold hard wall. He stop when were inches
apart. Then he smirk pitilessly. Pinasadahan niya ng tingin ang buo kong mukha. I
don't know what he's thinking pero alam ko ang mga ngiting pinupukol nito. I
gulped. Every inch of him spoke danger.

"Really? You would file an annulment for that bastard? For your both freedom? How
pity of me. Well, tingnan na lang natin after these."

Hindi na ako nakapag-react pa nang bigla nitong hawakan ang leeg ko at siniil ako
ng maalab na halik. Nanlaki ng mga mata ko. The familiar scent, the soft and
luscious lips of him, the kind of possesiveness and every touch of him were back in
everything as of these moments. Siya lang ang makakapagbigay sa akin ng ganito.
Yung kakaibang nararamdaman na hindi ko kailanman naramdaman sa iba ay unti-unting
nilalamon na naman ako ng kahinaan.

I tried to get rid of his irresistable touch but it was damn futile because no
matter what my mind woud tell to stop this, it seems that my naughty heart won't
follow. Ang hirap pigilan ang nararamdaman at gusto ko na lamang sa mga oras na ito
ay kumapit sa kanyang batok para kumuha ng lakas. My limbs were getting weaker. I
couldn't help it but to succumb the feeling.

From the torrid kiss he made at first ay napalitan yon ng punong puno ng pananabik
na halik. We were kissing hungrily like there's no tomorrow. Yes, dahil tinugon ko
na rin ang mainit at maalab niyang halik. Its useless because feelings is stronger
than principles.

He's the one who broke the kiss at kumuha ako ng hangin para makahinga. Everything
was a rush at nabitin ako. Isang mapanuyang ngiti ang inabutan ng aking mga mata.
Napakurap ako, pulang-pula na ang pisngi ko at gusto kong sampalin ang sarili sa
pagiging stupida! In just one kiss, nabali na naman ang binitiwan kong salita sa
aking sarili. Ang hirap pala pigilan ang totoong nararamdaman. It always break out
when you need to.

"Tell me, does he kiss you like this? Or mas magaling pa?"

I felt insulted. Ito din pala ang mapapala ko sa pagpunta dito. Paulit-ulit na
insultuhin at masaktan. I sighed. And managed to calm myself.

"Nathaniel, isa lang ang sasabihin ko sayo. Kahit saang korte lalabanan kita! Kapal
ng mukha mo para bintangan ako pero kitang-kita ko naman kung gaano ka nag-enjoy sa
pakikipaglampungan sa babae mo kanina."

Tinulak ko siya para makalabas sa aking posisyon. I was cornered. Tumawa siya sa
sinabi ko. I frowned. What's funny with that?

"Why? Are you jealous my dear wife?"

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko. Selos? Pero kailangan ko bang ipaliwanag sa kanya yon? I
glowered my eyes to him. His infamous smile still plaster in his sinfully handsome
face.

"I don't care about your affairs Nathaniel. May kanya-kanya na tayong buhay. Wala
na dapat tayong pakialaman pa---"

"But still, were married Zea. Nothing can change that fact. At pag-aari parin kita
sa mata ng Diyos at batas. And now if you still push that annulment... Well, I
guess I have to do something with your bastard so-called-friend."

Bigla akong kinabahan sa sinabi niya. He's powerful. Kung ikukumpara ang pamilyang
Manzania sa mga Zamora, subrang layo ng agwat ng status nila. I narrowed my eyes to
him. Halimaw na talaga ang utak at puso niya ngayon.

"Are you scaring me my dear husband?"

I hissed. He's really an impossible. He smirked vehemently and I'm beginning to

dislike that kind of smile. Or mas tamang sabihin na natatakot ako sa klase ng mga
ngiti nito. Hindi para sa akin kundi para sa kaibigan ko kung may binabalak man
siyang masama dito.

"Try me Zea. You know I don't fvcking care about who will suffer if you disobeye
me."

I suddenly got pale of what he said. I snorted. Nakalimutan kong isa palang monster
itong kaharap ko. A devil na kinahuhumalingan ko simula't sapol.

"What do you want? Ang makulong ako? Tell me Nathaniel kung anong klaseng parusa
ang ipapataw mo para wag mo lang pakialaman ang mga taong malalapit sa buhay ko.
Ano?"

Hindi ko na natiis na hingiin ang nais niyang iparating. His jaw moves in a stiff
manner. Nagtitimpi ito sa galit ng harapin ako.
"You're willing to sacrifice para lang sa lalaki mo? How romantic."

"Get the point, Nathaniel. I don't have time for your games. Deretsahin mo na ako.
Anong gusto mong mangyari?"

I cutt his words. This argument makes me sick. Ang hirap at gulo niyang kausap.
Nakakasakal na.

Then he release that infamous smile again, with such sarcasm. Bumalik siya sa
swivel chair at kunwari nagpapa-suspense.

"Well. you will live with me in our mansion wether you like it or not. That's the
choice if you want to see your friend to be happy with his life right now."

Nabigla ako sa kundisyon niya. Sira na nga siguro ang ulo ng lalaking ito. Live
with him? How can it be? Hindi maaari.

"Are you out of your mind? Titira tayo sa mansyon na magkasama? How ironic,
Nathaniel! Paano ang anak ko? Don't tell me iiwan ko na lang siya sa pamilya ko
para sumama lang sayo? No way!"

"Then, isama mo! There would be no problem with that. Your son can live with us.
Kahit isama mo pa ang buong angkan ng aso mo. Don't you think its a good idea,
honey?"

Oh that endearment again. Nakangisi siya sa akin na para bang take it or leave or
you will lose the million dollars thing.

Itinakwil niya ang anak ko noon tapos ngayon isasama? Ayokong pati ang inosente
kong anak ay madadamay sa walang kahihiyan niyang ideya at sa kaguluhang ito.

"Your crazy, Nathaniel. Do what you want, I don't care. Every decisions that I'll
make would always depends on my son. And being with you together with Nathan is not
a good idea. I don't want him to get into this trouble. Let me remind you, still
I'm going to file an annulment."

Namula ang mukha niya sa galit. Wala din naman siyang matibay na ebidensiya na
nangaliwa ako. Pwede ko naman siyang baliktarin sa kaso. Tutal, siya naman ang may
atraso sa akin. Inabandona niya ang sarilng anak and the worst is pinbayaan niya
kami sa mahigit apat na taon.

"Well, goodluck for both of us, Nathaniel. Adios!"

Tinalikuran ko na siya para umalis ngunit may sinabi pa siyang pahabol.

"I'll give you two days to think about it, Zea. Remeber, Lucky Manzania's mother
has sicked in breast cancer. And now they're inherited company encountering
bankruptcy. I can put an investors to help them to survive in their business.
And... I can make them crawl... You know how capable I am to do that...unless if
you'll change your mind."

Shit! He's blackmailing me. And how the hell Lucky didn't share their problem to
me? Were suppose to be friends for life. Si Tita Lea may breast cancer? At paano na
lang kung magsasara na ang kumpanya nila dahil sa matinding pagkalugi? Paano ang
medical treatment ni tita? Kaya ba nag-aapura ang mga magulang ni Lucky na mag-
asawa ito dahil sa iniindang sakit ni tita? Why I didn't know that?
Nakaramdam agad ako ng awa kay Tita at sa buong pamilya. I can't bear to see them
na nahihirapan lalo na sa problemang kinahaharap nila ngayon. Hindi gagawa ang
asawa ko nang mga haka-haka dahil alam kong may mga sources sila para sa pag-
iimbistiga ng mga taong gusto nila imbestigahan. What is powerful and wealthy
family.

I stiffened. And I slowly turn my back to him.

"You're really a monster, Nathaniel! I swear pagsisisihan mo ang lahat ng ito."

I said firmly to him.

He smiled mercilessly.

I gritted my teeth and leave. immediately. I forcefully close the door that could
rottle the frames hangs in the wall.

You'll pay for this Nathaniel!

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Dealing the Conditions

(Kabanata 44)

The moment you realize that the person you cared for has nothing intellectually or
spiritually to offer you but a headache.

-Unknown-

***

Jamie POV

"Dude, nag-iisa ka! Where's Yael and Darren?"

Umupo si Nic sa harapan ko at kumuha ng baso para magsalin ng alak.

"They're coming over here."

I said boringly. Nag-umpisa na kaming mag-inuman at seryosong nag-uusap about sa

progress ng aming negosyo.

"Were planning to spend in Italy this weekends. My birthday gift for my wife."

Kitang-kita ko ang excitement at kasiyahan sa mga mata nito. I smiled. Parang

kailan lang nung nagdiscuss kami about marrying someone you love. Mariin pa niyang
itinatanggi na hinding hindi siya magpapatali. Pero ngayon, tingnan mo nga naman.
How love moves in mysterious ways.

"You know what, until now hindi parin ako makapaniwala na may asawa ka na at
syempre I'm happy that you have twins."

I shook my head. Ever since I've been dreaming so much to have children.. But I
guess..

"Yeah, they are the biggest and greatest blessings came into my life. I can't
imagine how my life would suck without them."

He answered truthfully. I looked up to him. He's eyes glint in delight when he mean
that. I sighed.

"Nagtalo pa nga tayo noon about marriage. Hindi ko aakalain na ang against sa bagay
na pagpapakasal ay masaya sa married life niya ngayon. That was you. And me... Na
masayang nagpakasal at gustong magsettle down would end up like this. I never
imagined having this mesirable marriage."

He looked at me straightely. I'm glad I wasn't aware of that looks. It makes me

confuse though.. I frowned.

"Yeah. I realize that marriage is sacred thing that best happened in the world. I'd
found out in myself that having without wife is like a vase without flowers. No
blossoms, no colors, no fragrance and no life. Can you imagine about that?"

Wow. That's the best words I heard from him. Its unbelievable but its true.

"Your really a devoted husband and father, Nic. I vowed you for that."

Nakangiti kong sabi. Hindi ko maiwasang mainggit sa buhay niya ngayon. Mabuti pa
siya. Ni hindi nga sila naghiwalay simula nung na-engage silang dalawa ni Chasity.

"Nakita ko si Zea last week."

He snapped at agad akong napatingin sa kanya ng deretso. Kahapon lang ako sinugod
sa opisina ng asawa ko. Sinadya ko talagang padalhan siya ng notice dahil ang plano
ko ay makita siya at bigyan ng kundisyon para bumalik lang siya sa akin.

He's seriously scrutinizing me, waiting for my reaction.

"Nagkita din kami sa office kahapon."

I respond. He sighed. Umayos siya ng upo sa kinauupuan at tiningnan ako ng deretso.

I'm just wondering why he's acting so strange now.

"Why did you despise your son?"

Oh...son? My son?

"

I gritted my teeth when I heard that. Wala akong anak at hindi ako magkakaanak.
Hindi ko anak ang batang yon. I frowned.

"Pardon? What do you mean?"

Patay-mali kong tanong. I'm hiding my frustrations. I don't want them to know about
it. Soon matatanggap ko din ang anak ng asawa ko sa ibang lalaki dahil magsasama
ulit kami.

Magsasalita pa sana si Nic nang biglang tumunog ang phone nito. Tiyak na ang asawa
ang tumawag dahil agad nitong sinagot ang tawag. Bigla ding sumigla ang mga mata at
boses nito. Naranasan ko rin ang nararanasan niya ngayon. That was the first year
of our marriage ni Zea.

Kasabay nun nagsidatingan na naman ang magugulo kong pinsan. Darren and Yael greet
me badly as always. Good vibes talaga ang dalawang ito.

"Hey! I've seen your son in Instagram. He really looks like you!"

Agad na sabi ni Yael sa akin nang makaupo sa tabi ni Nic and that man still engross
talking with his wife in phone.

I looked at Yael confusedly. What the hell he's talking about?

"What did you say?!"

I asked with a snapped of fire in my eyes. Ilang beses ba nila akong tatanungin sa
mga bagay na kinasusuklaman ko?

"Your son. Try to look at Mica's account. Na-share niya sa akin. Why? Don't you
know you have a son with your wife?"

Mica is still in Paris right now.

Naguguluhan din nitong tanong. Darren disturb him of asking some questions kaya
nawala na naman sa topic. Kumakalat na ang balitang may anak kami ni Zea. They
start wondering kung bakit hindi ko naibabahagi sa kanila ang bagay na yon. And I'm
scared that my parents will know about it. Mapipilitan talaga akong akuin ang bata.
And why not? After all, were going to be a family again.

Hindi kasi ako mahilig sa social media kaya nabe-behind ako minsan sa mga latest
news.

I sighed.

Umuwi na si Nic dahil sa kambal niyang mga anak nagta-tantrums. At si Darren and
Yael panay ang usapan nila tungkol sa business partnership na itatayo nila sa
abroad.

I was just busy here na nagmumuni-muni habang naglalagok ng alak. Maybe one of
these days, I'll surprise a visit to my wife.

I miss her a lot. And I wanna start a family with her all over again.

**
Zea POV

I have to deal his conditions. I have no choice dahil ayokong pati si Lucky at
madamay sa kagaguhan niya. Tutal pakikisamahan ko lang naman siya. Besides, kahit
papaano may pinagsamahan naman kami bilang mag-asawa.

I sighed as I reminisce the sweet and romantic memories that we had. Na nauwi lang
sa isang mapait na hiwalayan.

Makikipagkita ako ngayon sa kanya dahil napag-isipan kong sumang-ayon sa gusto niya
sa dalawang araw na ibinigay niyang palugit.

"Mom, where are you? Sama ako."

He pouted his lips while begging to come with me. I smiled at umupo ako para
magpantay ang mukha namin.

"Hindi pwede. Importante ang lakad ni Mommy. Next time we'll go to beach and have
fun with your ate Jacq and Jonas. Gusto mo ba yon?"

He smiled widely and nodded his head in respond. Mabuti naman at naintindihan ako
nito. I kissed his forehead saka tumayo.

Ibinilin ko siya kay ate Trisha. Dahil hindi ko siya pwedeng ipakita kay Nathaniel
ngayon.

Not now.

Humugot ako ng hangin bago kumatok sa penthouse nito. Nagtataka ako kung dito parin
siya nakatira gayong nagpatayo naman kami ng mansyon para sa aming pamilya. Well,
that was four years ago.

Maya-maya bumukas ang pinto.

Oh..

Napasinghap ako sa nakita kong itsura niya ngayon. He's wet messy hair and his half
naked body was full of glory into my eyes. Bakit ba ganito parin ang epekto niya sa
akin?

I swallowed hard as my eyes still lingers in his delicious body. Did I say a word
delicious?

"Enjoying the view my dear wife?"

He smiled arrogantly at my direction. Napakurap ako. Saglit kong iniwas ang mga
mata sa kanya.

Ang walang hiya, nag-eenjoy yatang asarin ako lage.

"In your damn face!"

I spoked acidly. He chuckled softly and gave me that seductive smile ever.

"Come in."

Nilawakan niya ang pagkakabukas ng pinto at nag-aalanganing pumasok ako.

I threw my bag in the sofa unceremoniously. At naghalukipkip ako ng kamay na
humarap sa kanya.

"Pwede bang magbihis ka muna. You see you have visitor here, be at least give some
a little formality."

Sarkastiko kong sabi sa harapan niya. Tumawa siya sa sinabi ko, yon bang parang
natutuwa sa mga pinagsasabi ko. Hindi ko maiwasang mapatitig sa maiksing nakatapi
nitong twalya sa ibaba ng kanyang katawan.

Oh my! Nothing's change. He's still dashingly handsome.

"Your not a visitor dear. Your my wife."

I rolled my eyes upon hearing that words. Matagal ko ng binaon ang salitang asawa
para sa kanya.

"Why? Distracted? You've seen me naked many times before and why should I hassle
myself to cover it where in fact matagal mo na itong pinagtatamasan."

Nanginit ang pisngi ko sa sinabi niya. Namumula na buong mukha ko sa pinaghalo-

halong emosyon.

Ang sarap talaga sampalin ang lalaking ito! I swear nagmumukha na akong kamatis sa
pinagsasabi niya.

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko nang dahan-dahan siyang naglalakad patungo sa akin. I
gulped. Hindi na ako makahakbang pa palayo.

It seems that my body won't cooperate with my mind. I was overly captured by him.

The naughty smile fitted in his sexy lips.

"Nervous my wife?"

Hindi ko na namamalayang huminto na pala siya sa akin ng subrang lapit. Were almost
inches apart and I could almost hear his rough breathe.

He holds my chin and..napaatras ako ng konti nang biglang inilapit nito ang kanyang
mukha sa akin.

His eyes was staring at me intensely. His face turn to serious. I can't almost
breath and my mouth went dry. I licked my lips because I felt like I've lost my
saliva. My throat was constricted because of him.

Blank.

My heart beat was racing fast.

He dipped his head for a kiss.

And I close my eyes to feel beyond this wonderful moment.

I slowly put my arms on his nape and let the flow begins.

I am really really missing him. So much.

Four years is been too long for this..and I don't want this moments to end.
Naramdaman ko na lamang ang kanyang braso na pumulupot sa bewang ko.

Then it happens so fast. He scoop me in his arms to bring me in our room. I think
that's still ours. And I don't know how the hell it happened na wala na pala akong
ni isang saplot.

We were so engrossed kissing each other passionately. Were both hunger in each
other's touch. Until we want to enjoy this, to reach our climax.

I instantly open my legs for him. And he burried his inside me with full thrust. I
close my eyes tightly because I didn't know that's its still hurts----like a
VIRGIN.

The last time we made love was the night before the day he left me. And I was kinda
shocked that its still hurts like its my first time.

"I'm sorry.. But I can't stop honey.."

He groaned. I could feel that I'm bleeding.

"I don't want you to stop..."

I replied. And I called out his name when he deepen the thrust. He push it harder
and deeper. And I am beginning to enjoy the pleasures.

My finger nails was pawned at his back because of the fastest onslaught he made.

Until...

We reach the climax both at the same time. I can feel his semens he deposited
inside of me. I am now helplessly lying in a soft matress with extreme
satisfaction...

"If I'm going to live with you in a mansion. How long it would be?"

I asked when our breathe was even. I am blankly staring at the black ceiling. Based
on my observations may konting pagbabago. Mas lalong dumilim ang loob. Nawalan ng
kulay.

I can't believe it that I was making love with my husband between the mess we have
in this broad daylight.

Narinig ko ang pagbuga niya ng hangin.

"Were are going to fix out broken marriage, honey."

I was surprise with his replied. I took a glance at his side and he's seriously
staring at me.

I don't understand. Kaya tiningnan ko siyang nagtatanong ang mga mata.

He sighed again.

Does it mean were okay now?

"I will accept and stand as a father of your son just for us to be okay in
everything. Aakuin ko ang anak mo. Were going to start a new life together."

Stand as a father? So it only means... Hindi niya parin tanggap si Nathan bilang
anak. Useless.. Isinisiksik niya parin sa kanyang utak na niloko ko siya at
nagpabuntis sa iba.

I snorted. This conversations leads to nowhere.

"Your still imposing to me that I betrayed you."

Tumayo ako at isa-isang pinulot ang mga nagkalat na damit. Ayokong makipag-usap sa
taong makikitid ang utak.

"What are you trying to say, Zea? I don't get you."

Umupo siya sa tabi ng kama.

He looked at me confusedly. I didn't talk. Akala ko magiging okay na kami. Akala ko

matatanggap na niya ang kanyang anak. Hindi parin pala. He's selfish. Sariling
kapakanan lang ang iniisip niya.

"Kung hanggang ngayon hindi mo parin matanggap si Nathan bilang tunay mong anak.
Hindi ko na ipagpipilitan sayo ang anak mo. Bahala ka kung anong gusto mong gawin
sa buhay mo. Magpakasaya ka sa pagsira ng buhay ng ibang tao."

Inayos ko ang aking sarili at hindi ko na hihintaying magpaliwanag pa siya sakin.

I walk out hurriedly.

"Hindi ako magkakaanak Zea."

I stiffened. I paused where I stand. I slowly turn my back on him. There's pain and
agony in his eyes. Nagtatanong ang mga mata kong nakatingin sa kanya.

"Baog ako. Nakapagpacheck up ako last four years ago. And I can't produce an
offspring. I'm sterile."

His cold voice could almost freeze the entire room. His yes expresses the
frustrations he was keeping for a long time. Was he serious about it? That must be
a lie. A biggest lie.

Mas lalo lang akong naguluhan sa sinabi niya. But my mind jumped to conclusions.

"That's impossible Nathaniel. You have a son. Tell me, ito ba ang dahilan mo para
lang makalusot ka?"

I was and still am hurt. But I'm confused a lot more.

Frustrated itong napahilamos sa kanyang mukha. He stood up.

"I don't know.. I don't know.."

Napailing-iling ito na nalilito habang nagpalakad-lakad ito na walang saplot. Sanay

na akong nakikita siyang ganun dahil gawain niya ito dati.

Enough thinking from the past Zea. Scratch that..

I don't have time for his games.

"I have to go. My son was probably looking for me now..."

Hindi ko na hinintay ang mga sasabihin niya at agad na akong umalis. Its all
failure.

Now I realize that I'm going to file an annulment as soon as possible.

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Father and Son

(Kabanata 45)

No love is greater than that of a father for His son.

-----Dan Brown (Angels and Demons)

Hindi ko na po patatagalin ang pagkakakilala ng mag-ama. So here it is...

Zea POV

The whole family was here. Nagbeach party kami sa exclusive resort ng mga
Chiongbian.

Kagustuhan din ito ng mga bata. Kaya pinagbigyan namin ni ate ang mga chikiting
mag-enjoy sa kalagitnaan ng sikat ng araw.

"Nathan, stay here. Wag dyan sa malayo. Come here.."

He wave his hands habang papalapit sa akin. Iba na talaga ang init sa Pinas.
Nakakapaso na kahit alas nuwebe pa lang ng umaga. Kaya todo sun block lotion kaming
lahat ngayon.

Tinawag ko si Marie. Kailangan ko pang mag-update ang negosyo ko sa New York kaya I
have to get back at the suit.

"Ate paki-tingnan tingnan si Nathan sandali. Andyan naman si Marie. I have to make
calls in New York."

"Sige."

Tumango si ate at nakikita kong binabantayan ni Mommy si Jonas at si Daddy naman ay

nakikipaglaro kay Jacq at Nathan.

Nagulat ako na may ibang tao akong naabutan sa sofa, nakaupo na pormang number four
while reading magazine.

I step back. Hindi ko kasi nakikita ang mukha niya dahil natatakpan ito ng hawak
niyang magazine. Binundol ang dibdib ko ng matinding kaba. Ilang beses na ba ako
nakakakita ng news about killing victims in hotels. But when I saw his arms and
legs it was so familiar.

"Your not hallucinating honey. Its me."

He said casually sabay baba sa hawak na magazine. I gritted my teeth when I saw
him. Hindi niya ba alam na subrang kinabahan ako kanina?

"What are you doing here? As far as I know, this is my suit. You're an invader."

He smiled nonchalantly. He stood up and slowly walking towards me. I used to to

feared this scene, coz I might lose myself in control. Parang ipinako ako sa
kinatatayuan.

"Well, masama bang dalawin ang asawa ko?"

He said when he stop in front of me. Were almost catching our breath of being our
closeness.

"Wala ka ng asawa Nathaniel! Matagal ko ng kinalimutan na may asawa akong katulad

mo."

Mabilis akong nakaalis sa kinatatayuan at dumistansya ako sa kanya. Ayokong

macorner na naman at baka maulit yong nangyari sa amin nung nakaraang araw.

"Really? How come you let yourself.. To make love with me?"

Namula ang buong pisngi ko sa binitiwan niyang mga salita.

Sh*t! Ang sarap talaga sapakin ng lalaking ito! Ipamukha ba naman!

He released infamous smile which is any woman would drool. Shaks! I swallowed hard.

I raised my one eyebrow and crossed my arms. Hindi ako magpapatinag.

"Kahit kailan talaga napakayabang mo."

He smirked even more. Sinabayan pa niya ito ng mahinang pagtawa.

I snorted. Nang-aasar na naman ang lalaking ito.

"Do I? But you love me my dear inspite of-----"

"Shut up!"

Hindi ko na gustong marinig pa ang mga sasabihin niya.

Magsasalita pa sana ito nang biglang bumukas ang pinto.

"Mommy! I need my painting board."

Sabay kaming napatingin kay Nathan. Kasama nito si Marie at halatang nabigla ito
nang makita si Jamie. She maybe recognize the looks were Nathan has it all.

Nagtatakang tiningnan ni Nathan ang ama. I saw Nathaniel's face turn pale. He's
utterly shocked staring a his own son's face.

"Marie maiwan mo muna kami. Hintayin mo na lang si Nathan sa labas."

Wala sa sariling tumango ito at isinara nito ang pinto pagkatapos lumabas.

"Hi.."

Basag ni Nathan sa kanyang katahimikan. Hindi ko alam kung dapat ba akong matuwa o
mainis dahil kitang kita ko ang pagkabigla sa itsura nito. Parang tinuklaw ito ng
ahas.

"Hello."

He respond reluctantly.

Tinawag ko si Nathan at pinaupo sa sofa.

"Who is he Mom?"

Nagkatinginan kami ni Nathaniel. I can see the regrets written in his eyes. Hindi
ko alam kung ito na ba ang tamang panahon na makilala ni Nathan ang ama. Kalaunan,
tinutukan niyang muli ang anak. I took a deep breathe. I don't understand why he's
acting so strange.

"Can I hug you little boy?"

He managed to ask in a teary eyes. Ngumiti ang anak ko at mabilisang tumango

without even asking me. Hindi na siguro stranger ang tingin niya sa sariling ama.
Nathaniel scoop him immediately at emotional niya itong niyakap. I looked away. I
don't want to get carried away.

"Your crying? Why? Does your teeth was sore?"

Nathan ask his father in a weary. Nagsalubong ang kilay nito. Tumawa si Jamie sa
worries ng anak. Napangiti ako ng palihim. Lage niya kasing nakikitang umiiyak si
Jacqueline dahil sa sakit sa ngipin. Mahilig kasi kumain ng chocolates.

"No. I'm just happy.."

"Nathan, pumunta ka muna kay yaya. Later na tayo magtalk."

Hindi pa nararapat. Baka mabigla ang anak ko.

"I need my paint tools, Mom."

My son is artistic, namana niya sa kanyang ama.

"Ok, get your tools and go to your yaya outside."

Ibinaba siya ng ama at mabilis nitong kinuha ang mga gamit pangpinta.

"Bye!"

He wave his hands to us at patakbo itong lumabas sa pinto hawak -hawak ang kanyang
paintings tools.

"Careful!"

Pahabol ko. Then we left here alone.

Nanghihina itong umupo sa sofa. I was suffocated by his presence kaya hinarap ko na
siya.

"Now what? Anong mga sasabihin mo?"

Nanlulumo itong napahilamos sa kanyang mukha. Hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit siya
umaaktong nagsisisi gayong dati hindi naman niya matanggap si Nathan bilang anak.
"I have a son.. Sh*t! How come?"

Parang hangal nitong bulong sa sarili. Nagtataka na lamang akong nakatitig sa

kanya.

**

Jamie POV

I have a son!

Hindi ako pwedeng magkamali, anak ko si Nathan. Anak ko siya. His eyes, his nose,
and all the proportions in his face is mine. I have lots of photos when I was young
and I can't deny the fact that I was exactly look like him. His profile is mine.

The result was fake.

And that damn Doctor will pay! I'll assure that!

"Are you gonna grimace all day or sasabihin mo sa akin ang gusto mong sabihin?"

She snapped out of my trance. I raised my head and looked at her intensely. How
long did she suffer of what have I've done? How many times did I hurt her for just
believing the piece of paper which is not true? I felt bad. Very bad. I keep
believing through all those years that I can't produce an offspring to the point
that I despised my own flesh and blood.

I was a bunch of moron. Stupid, fool and idiot. Everything!

If only I could turn back time. If only I could.. But it was all wasted dahil lang
sa kapiraso ng papel. Dahil lang sa katangahan.

"Are you okay?"

She asked again when she notice that I look bothered. I sighed heavily. This is it.
Apologize is not enough how stupid I am and how I hurt her badly.

"I'm sorry for everything Zea. I know that I was.."

I choked. I don't know where and how to start with. She was wondering waiting the
whole thing I am about to say.

"My fault. My big fault. I thought I could not bear a child. I've done check up
before but it was..futile. I mean I'm sterile. And I keep believing that damn
result all these years... But when I saw Nathan..he's everything that I have
and..."

I paused for a little while. And her pretty face turn to sour. She's mad after I
explained.

"Nathaniel, its not my fault anymore if mas pinili mong paniwalaan ang resulta ng
mali mong pagpapacheck up noon kaysa sa akin na asawa mo, at nagdadala ng sarili
mong dugo. How I hate you Nathaniel!"

Pak!

I deserved that slap. Natabingi ang mukha ko sa subrang lakas ng sampal. Pero
kulang pa yon sa lahat ng ginawa ko sa kanya noon. Everything she said was true.
Mas pinili kong paniwalaan ang isang malaking bagay na pagkakamali kaysa makinig sa
mga paliwanag niya. I lost my trust because of my insecurities. Nilamon ako ng
matinding galit. Barado na ang utak ko ng mga panahong yon.

Dahan-dahan kong ibinaling ang mukha sa kanya. Her eyes snapped with fire when
she's staring at me. I looked at her apologetically.

"Kulang pa yan Nathaniel sa lahat ng ginawa mo sa akin noon. Hindi ganun kadali ang
magbuntis at mag-alaga ng anak nang mag-isa. I know its worth it dahil anak ko si
Nathan. Pero ang isipin na itinanggi mo ang sarili mong anak at itinago sa akin ang
dahilan ay hindi ko matatanggap kailanman! Your idiot! I thought lahat kayo
matalino pero wala kang kwentang ama! Wala!"

He burst out crying saying all those words with pain. Ito ang pinakamasaklap na
nakita ko sa kanya buong buhay ko. I've tried to hug her pero pinagsasampal sampal
niya ako. Lumuhod ako sa harapan niya at niyakap ko ang bewang niya.

"Forgive me.. Please.. I want you back and our son. Please..Honey.. Hon.."

I can't help but to cried. I am so disappointed in myself.

"Leave me alone Nathaniel. I don't wanna hear everything you'll say. Its useless. I
still can't forgive you.."

She said in a cold voice. She's struggling removing my arms in hers.

"Honey.. Let's start a new.. Please.."

I begged harder. But she declined even more.

Laglag ang balikat ko nang lisanin ko ang lugar na yon. I don't want to make it
hard for both of us. Bibigyan ko muna siya ng panahon para makapag-isip. I'll be
back for my son. For now I'll settle everything first..

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Proclaiming the Truth

(Kabanata 46)

He said that we belonged together because he was born with a flower and I was born
with a butterfly and that flowers and butterflies need each other for survival.

~Gemma Malley (The Declaration)

**

Zea POV
Nagkita kami ni Lucky sa isang restaurant. I need someone to talk to.

"After all those years and he did to you he will claim his son as easy like that?
How cruel."

Lucky commented dryly. I shared it to him. Pati na yong paghingi niya ng tawad.
Hindi ko alam kung patatawarin ko parin siya.

I sighed.

"Still he have the rights Luck. Siya parin ang ama ng anak ko. I would not take
away his privilege to our child."

He took a deep breathed and looked away. I know he's against with that, but Jamie
is still the father of Nathan, my husband at karapatan niyang makita at makasama
ang anak as well as our son.

"Sabagay. Siya parin ang ama."

He sounded so bitter. I don't know if he's purely concern or just getting jealous
sa posibilidad na mangyayari.

"Luck, you know for the sake of Nathan I'll do everything for him. He needs to know
his father. Karapatan din yon ng anak ko."

Katwiran ko.

"And why are you even explaining to him? He's not your boyfriend."

Nabigla kami pareho sa pamilyar na boses na yon. Sabay kaming napalingon sa gawi ng
taong biglang nagsalita.

"Carla!"

I stood up immediately and give him a tight hug. How I miss him badly.

"Dating hah? Hindi man lang ako sinali."

Umismid ito sa gawi ni Lucky, practically he didn't like him for me.

"Kailan ka lang dumating?"

I ignored what he said. Pinaupo ko siya sa gilid and we shared a heart to heart
talk. He came from Paris, for latest fashion show. He's one of those make up artist
there.

"Anyway I have to go. See you on Sunday Zea. I hope you'll be there."

He stood up. He's inviting me to join in their family dinner on Sunday. I knew he
didn't like Carla's presence.

"Yeah you better go. Para hindi ka ma-out of place."

Carla said acidly, sabay taas ng kanyang kilay.

"Carla! Stop it!"

Pinanlakihan ko siya ng mga mata. Luckily, hindi siya pinuna ni Lucky. Hinayaan
lamang siya nito at saka ito tumango sa deriksyon ko para magpaalam. I just nod
apologetically. Since they met, my gay friend didn't like him so much dahil lang sa
personal intentions nito sa akin.

"What you did is downright rude. Ano ka ba naman Carla... He didn't ---"

"Yeah he did not do anything to me. Zea are you blind? He's insisting that he's
much more deserving than anyone else like he is the perfect man ever in this human
planet."

Urgh.. That's exaggerated. I rolled my eyes in respond.

"I'd rather chose your bastard husband than him, who thinks he's the best man ever
for you. Urgh.."

He rolled his eyes at naiinis talaga ito. How I wish they could be friends. But at
the first thing, he's thinking negatively about Lucky.

Carla really had a psychotropic mind. I don't know how he balance it sometimes.
Does he makes some point there? I didn't notice that to Lucky. And now I have sense
him something.

"Speaking of my husband. He's now asking forgiveness and wanted to know his son
more. He wanted Nathan to know that he's the biological father."

I said casually but my mind focus on what happened two days ago. That day, he
kneeled down asking forgiveness and a second chance.

"Oh.. He's idiot. I guess he deserves second chance, after all he's the father of
your son. They both deserve to know each other."

Quoted. I frowned to him, dati-rati galit na galit ito sa ginawa ni Nathaniel sa

akin. Tapos heto ngayon, bumabaligtad. Ano ba talaga?

"Why a sudden change of opinion, Carl."

Sumipsip muna ito ng juice bago nagsalita.

"You know..kung may plano kang gawing kapalit si Lucky sa asawa mo I think that's
the biggest mistake you'll ever do."

Nagsalubong ang kilay ko sa sinabi niya. Kapalit? Ni hindi pa nga na-annul ang
kasal namin ni Nathaniel.

"I'm still married, Carla. You know that."

I depended. I know that Lucky is persistent to be my boyfriend pero hindi naman ako
ganun kadesperada. Besides, I'm the one who decide about it.

"Yeah. I knew you were, but your planning to file an annulment right? Lucky was
assuming that you would definitely jump to him after you break up with your
husband. Makikipaghiwalay ka sa asawa mo dahil sa kanya?"

"Of course not!"

Mariin kong tanggi. Kung makikipaghiwalay man ako sa asawa ay sa kadahilananang

gusto kong mapag-isa at peace of mind.

"Then he preferably assume that. Kung makikipag-ayos ka na lang kaya sa asawa mo?
Tell me what's the reason kung bakit niya itinanggi na siya ang ama ni Nathan."

I sighed and start to tell him everything. Nagpacheck up siya noon na nagkamali ang
resulta at yon ang pinaniwalaan niya. Para sa akin hindi naman matibay na dahilan
ang ganung bagay. Sa kawalan ng kanyang tiwala ay mas pinili niyang husgahan ako
kaysa magpacheck up ulit at kumpirmahin ang totoo.

"Alam mo para sa akin, tingin ko kaya siya nag-isip ng ganun dahil malaki ang
insecurity niya sa sarili. Masyado na siyang nag-isip ng mga hindi magandang
mangyayari. To the point na he lost everything he had because of his
disappointments and failure. Don't you think I have point there?"

Nagbuga ako ng hangin. Hindi ko naman kasalanan kong masyado niyang dinamdam ang
bagay na yon. Isa pa, bakit hindi niya sinabi sa akin? Eh di sana nagawan namin ng
paraan. Hindi na sana kami umabot sa ganito.

"Bakit niya ako pinaratangan na nangaliwa? Diba? Ano ba ang matibay niyang basehan
dun?"

I declined his opinion.

"Gaga! Diba more than a year na kayong gumawa ng baby? Late kana nabuntis
pagkatapos niyang makuha ang maling resulta. Nagkalabuan na kayo ng ilang weeks or
months. Eh di ayon, baka naisip niyang may ka-fling kang iba while his away or
whatever the drama. Anlabo din kasi ng asawa mo, Ewan ko ba."

Hayy.. Too late. I've had enough of that.

"Duh it doesn't make sense though.. Were over."

Pilit kong ginigiit sa utak na hindi na puwede kahit malaki ang posibilidad na
madala na naman ako sa taglay niyang gayuma. Lalo na ngayon na dadalas na ang aming
pagkikita dahil kay Nathan.

"Were over daw pero hindi pa nga nakapag-move on."

"Eh ano ngayon? I'll surely move on after the annulment."

"Duh make sure that your ready with the decisions you'll make."

I dismissed his opinion. Bahala na.

After a long period of time for having chat withhime, we decided to parted our
ways. Naabutan kong naglalaro si Nathan with his father. I wonder how he came into
this home na galit naman ang pamilya ko sa kanya.

"Mommy!"

Sigaw ni Nathan nang mapansin ako nitong nakatayo sa may bandang pintuan. I smiled
happily to him.

Nagtatakang tiningnan ko si Nathaniel. He just only shrugged at nagbabadya ng kung

ano ang mga mata niya.

"Mommy! Tito Jamie gave me a lot of gifts. I have all the latest collections in
avengers and Xmen."

Nakita ko ang mga mamahaling laruan na nakahilera sa gilid mg playroom. I sighed.

He's spoiling my son.
Pinakiusapan ko si Nathan na lumabas muna dahil mag-uusap kami ni Jamie.

"What are you doing here? Mabuti at pinapasok ka pa nila ni Mommy."

I crossed my arms in his front. Tinutukan niya ako. Yong tipong nanunuri. I
glowered my eyes to him.

"Of course I'm here for my son. I wanted you tell him that I'm his father."

Aba! Sino siya para utusan ako? Mapakla akong natawa sa sinabi niya. I shake my
head in disbelief. Napakadali niya magbago ng mood. Kung gaano siya nagmakaawa sa
akin nung isang araw na mabuo ang aming pamilya ay ganito siya kalamig sa
pakikipag-usap sa akin ngayon.

"And who the hell are you para utusan ako? As if ganun lang kadali na ipakilala
kita sa kanya? Ayokong maguluhan ang anak ko. Besides its not yet the right time."

I mocked. And he smiled sarcastically.

"Anak natin Zea. Not only yours. And you know when its the right time? Kailan mo
balak? If you can't introduce me to him then I'll do it."

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko. He's really unstoppable. Kapal talaga!

"I'll be the one who decide."

I said firmly to him. Taas noo ko siyang tinitigan. Ako parin ang masusunod.

"I am still the Father, your husband and its all that matter. Whether you decide it
or not, I'll tell him now."

He put the emphasis of father and husband words.

Sarkastiko ko siyang tinitigan. Ang kapal ng mukha niya para ipamukha sa akin ang
karapatan niya where in fact matagal na niya kaming inabandona.

"Kapal mo rin, ano. Para ipamukha ko sayo, you despised your own son. You accused
me of betraying you and now you have that face to claim your rights? Tell me how,
do you digest everything as easy as that?"

Natameme siya sa sinabi ko pero andun parin ang pagsisisi at galit sa mga mata
nito.

Then he looked away. He ruffled his hair in a frustrated manner. Hindi ko na siya
talaga naiintindihan ngayon.

"Look I know I made a big mistake. I've been stupid and jerk. But you can't take
away my privileged to our son. Your a parent too. You should understand that. Are
we gonna argue about my faults again? "

I calmed myself. His eyes were fill of sorrow and pain for longing his only one
child. I averted my eyes. This is going to be hard for us if I'll stick to the
painful past. What matters most is now, our son. His happiness is all that matters
to me.

"What do you want Zea? Annulment?"

Bigla akong napatingin sa kanya ng deretso. He asked of my sudden silence.

Annulment? Maybe yes. Pero ito ba talaga ang gusto kong mangyari sa buhay ko? Ang
maghiwalay kami?

"I'll give it to you, but don't ever let my son out of sight. He's everything to
me. Now I knew that...hindi ako baog at nakilala si Nathan ay siya ang
pinakamagandang regalo sa akin."

He continued. He's pleading. My heart is aching for him.

I can see the sincerity written in his eyes. And I can feel his words. Tagos sa
puso kahit hindi pa niya nakakasama ang anak.

"Is it about Lucky? Kaya ka atat na atat na ma-annul tayo?"

May halong paninibugho at galit nitong tanong. I narrowed my eyes to him. Bakit
niya iniiba ang usapan? Walang kinalaman si Lucky dito. Isa pa, hindi annulment ang
topic dito kundi ang anak ko.

"This isn't about Lucky, Nathaniel. Please huwag mong ibahin ang usapan."

I can see he's fuming. Umigting ang panga nito. Wala talagang patutunguhan ang
usapang ito.

"And now you're depended him. Can't you wait the annulment just to have him? My
God! I saw you dating with him somewhere! Wala ka bang pakialam sa sasabihin ng mga
tao sayo?"

And now he's being unreasonable. Bakit ba ang hirap makipag-usap sa kanya? Bakit ba
lageng nauuwi sa wala ang usapang ito?

"I am not dating with him. Were friends Nathaniel. Ilang beses ko ba ipaliwanag yan
sayo? My God---"

"Mommy! Are you gonna stay here for long? I wanna play na po."

Naiinip nitong tanong. Hindi na siguro ito nakatiis at biglaan ng pumasok dito.

Naputol ang usapan namin. I took a glance at Nathaniel. Tumango ito saying, 'do it
now'. He's eager and excited na makilala ng anak.

"Baby come here.. Were gonna talk. Mom wants to tell you something."

Dahan-dahan itong lumapit. Humugot muna ako ng hangin bago nagsalita.

"Remember what I've told you about your father? Na nasa malayo siya and he will
come back for you if you're a big boy na?"

Marahan itong tumango-tango wari iniintindi nito ang sinasabi ko.

I paused for a few seconds.

"Your Tito Jamie is your Daddy."

I am holding my breathe, waiting for his reaction. Pasulyap-sulyap ako sa gawi ni

Nathaniel. I know he's waiting on the line too. My son frown and look at his
father. Few minutes passed, he showed his teeth for a big smile. His eyes were
dancing in happiness.

"Daddy!"

Patakbo itong lumapit sa ama at agad siyang sinalubong nito ng mahigpit na yakap.
Binuhat siya nito at kitang kita ko ang pagtulo ng kanyang mga luha. He closed his
eyes tightly habang yakap-yakap ang anak.

This is what I intended to wish for. I'm happy na buong-buo ang pagtanggap niya sa
kanyang ama.

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Guys, sorry for a short update. Napuwing ako at hindi matanggal-tanggal. Huhu..
Putulin ko muna. Panira ng moment.

Family Day

(Kabanata 47)

Zea POV

Since the day they knew each other, their bonding as father and son is inseparable.
Nathaniel spoils his son in everything. Binibilhan ng kung anu-ano kahit hindi
naman gamit o kailangan ng bata. Hinahayaan ko na lang dahil alam ko namang
bumabawi lang siya sa anak. Kaya lang minsan sinasaway ko na dahil ayokong mamihasa
si Nathan at maging maluho.

And about my family they already accepted Nathaniel. Humingi din naman ng tawad ang
asawa ko. And they're all expecting na magiging okay kaming mag-asawa. Sana lang...
Sana..

Dinala na ng asawa ko ang anak sa kanilang mansyon at naipakilala na ng maayos. The

scene was emotional. Mainit naman ang pagtanggap ng pamilya sa akin. They all
thought that were doing fine with my husband. Napag-alaman ko rin na nagkabalikan
na si Ella at Yvo. They have two adorable kids, Yesha and Yullo. I found out na
nabuntis na pala si Ella when she left. At nakagiliwan ng parents in law ko ang
kanilang panganay na apo and as well as Nathan.

At ngayong araw ay naimbitahan kaming dumalo sa isang family day ng mga Zamora.
They are doing this every Sunday. Ayoko namang tumanggi dahil hindi ko gustong
isipin nila na ipinagkait ko ang anak sa kanila.

"Well, Zea kailan niyo balak lumipat sa mansyon niyo? Nagmistula din yong ghost
house dahil sa ilang taong walang nanirahan dun."

Mom suggested us, pasulyap kong tiningnan si Nathaniel. Relax lamang itong
kumakain. Nagkatinginan kami.

"Next day Mom. Nagpa-general cleaning pa kami sa buong bahay."

I choked of what he said. Gusto ko siyang batukan sa maling impormasyon. He handed

me a glass of water at mabilisan kong nilagok ito. Palihim ko siyang inirapan. He
just only smiled calmly.

Ella and Yvo were busy taking their foods and talking sweetly. They have their own
world, halatang engrossed sa isa't-isa. And the kids were playing in their playroom
with their nanies.

"Mabuti kong ganun."

Sabat ni Mommy.

The whole dining room filled with laughters and fussed with the loud voices.
Talking and having time with them is one of the best wonderful moments.

"Mahilig ka din pala magluto."

Puna ni Ella sa akin habang naghahalo ng ingredients ng blue berry pancakes.

Magkasama kami dito sa kusina. Mom and Dad playing with their grand children. Si
Yvo at Nathaniel at nasa garden, masayang nag-uusap.

Ang kulang sa pamamahay na ito ay si Mica na nasa Paris presenting her fashion
clothes, and Sev while in Brazil nanonood ng Football world cap together with his
cousins.

Si Stacey ay nasa isang private mental institution. Sad for her. She needs a lot of
therapy for her mental illness.

"Oo. Sinanay kasi ako ni Mommy. Besides being a mother kailangan din nating maging
expert sa kusina."

Ngumiti ako nang sabihin yon. She's making pasta foods for the kids merienda. Busy
din ito sa pagbabalot ng wrapper sa pinagahalo-halong Italian pasta.

"Tama ka dun. Ako nga nag-full time mother sa mga anak ko dahil ayokong lumaki sila
sa kanilang mga yaya. You know I have business studio in Texas and New York."

Naikuwento na rin niya sa akin ang mga current business nito na isang matalik na
kaibigan ang nagma-manage and his business partner. I adore her for being her, a
mother and wife material and multi tasker talented entrepreneur.

"Ako din naman kahit busy sa mga pastries business, I always find time for my son."

And we shared a lot of topics. Napaka-idealistic niya ring babae. Kaya pala baliw
na baliw ang asawa sa kanya. Adapted siya dati ng family Zamora but nagpa-adapt
siya ulit sa ibang tao nang malaman niyang hindi siya gusto ng mga kapatid for some
reasons. And when they grown up, they'll realize that she's a good one. Kaya
nagkaayos ang lahat. The year na nagkabalikan sila ni Yvo, ay nakilala din niya ang
totoong mga magulang. Her mother is the wife of one of the richest and influential
man here and outside the country. Patay na rin daw ang kanyang ama hindi pa man
siya naipapanganak.

Andami kong nalaman at natutunan sa mga kuwento niya.

"I left because I didn't want to let myself hanging in a difficult situation. Pero
kapag nagmamahal ka, natututo tayong magpatawad anuman ang masakit na pinagdaanan.
What happened in the past, will always be buried in the past. Just accept and learn
to move on for the sake of your happiness."

Natahimik ako sa sinabi niya. Mas madaling isipin at sabihin pero ang hirap gawin.
Napatingin ako sa kawalan. I admire her for being strong. She was molded with her
painful experiences. And admire her for that. Mahirap para sa akin na tanggapin ng
ganun kadali ang lahat.

"I knew what you're true situation with your husband right now, Zea."

Napatingin ako sa kanya ng deretso. She smiled pleasantly. Naiintindihan ako nito.
Am I that too transparent with my own feelings?

Bumuntong hininga ako at yumuko. Bigla akong nalungkot.

"Ella ang hirap kasi. Hindi ko alam kung kaya ko pa bang magmahal ulit sa kabila ng
pinagdaanan namin ni Nathaniel."

Malungkot kong sabi. Sinuri niya ako sa pamamagitan ng kanyang mga tingin. She
smiled.

"But you love him. I can see it in your eyes."

Yes! I do love him. But.. I was suffocated with that love. Napapagod na akong
masaktan ng paulit-paulit.

Hindi ako nakaimik. Wala akong masabi. At hindi ko kayang itanggi sa sarili o kahit
kanino that I'm still in love with my husband.

"I know we have different experiences about love. Pero parehas lang tayo ng
nararamdaman pagdating sa pag-ibig. Nasasaktan, nabibigo at nagiging masaya. And at
the end of the day, you will realize that the decisions you'll make will depends
for both happiness sa taong mahal mo at sa sarili mo."

Tama siya. Minsan gusto kong sabihin kay Nathaniel na ayusin namin ang pagsasamang
ito. Pero hindi lang naman ako ang magdedesisyon sa bagay na yon.

**

Sa buong araw, lahat naging masaya at nag-enjoy sa bawat kwentuhan at kainan. The
kids were playing, swimming and everything that could make them tired for fun.

Subrang nakaka-inspire ang mag-asawang Yvo at Ella. Buo at masayang pamilya. Madali
ring nakasundo ni Nathan ang mga pinsan. Mabait at bibo si Yesha. Mahilig kumanta
at sumayaw. Si Yullo naman ay madalas nagpapa-cute sa harap ng camera. Baby pa
kasi. More than one year na at hypher din. Healthy and adorable kid.

"Nathan aren't you aware that you look like your father?"

Nakangiting tanong ni Yvo sa kanyang pamangkin. My son was frowning looking at his
father, who were staring at him amusingly with so much glint of delight in his
eyes. Obviously, kinukulit nila ang bata.

"Yeah. I'm his replica. My eyes, nose, and everything like Mom always told me."

Oh my.

Tinapunan ako ng pilyong ngiti ni Nathaniel. Patay mali lang ako at itinuon kong
muli ang atensyon kay Yesha. I'm talking with this cute little girl.

"Ninang Cha told me that mommy is head over heels with Daddy kaya I look like him."

*face palm*
Mananagot talaga si Charice sa akin. Kung anu-ano na lang kalokohang sinasabi sa
anak ko. Again, that devil was secretly smiling at me (like he wins).

"Is that so?"

Natutuwang tanong ni Yvo na walang napapansing kakaiba sa pagitan naming mag-asawa.

"Opo!"

Patakbo itong tumungo sa kinaroroonan ng ama at nagpakarga. Nathaniel plant him a

little kisses on top of his head habang may ibinubulong sa anak. And they both
giggled. Mag-ama talaga.

"Tita, you're not listening to me."

Naagaw ang atensyon ko ni Yesha. Namewang ito sa harapan ko. I threw my head and
laugh. Nakakatuwa talaga ang batang ito.

"Oh sorry baby. I forgot, ano nga ulit ang sabi mo?"

"Hmmmm..."

Nag-isip ito ng bahagya at kunwari pinapatagal pa.

Kalaunan sinabi nito ang gustong sabihin. She's a smart kid. Kinuwento niya sa akin
about her adventures with the family. Sa Disneyland with his baby brother and her
parents. Sa totoo lang naiinggit ako sa pamilya ni Ella. Gusto ko ring maranasan na
buo at masayang pamilya.

Gabi na nang mapagpasyahan naming umuwi. Tulog na tulog pa si Nathan sa kandungan

ko, halatang napagod..pero worth it naman. Dahil alam ko kung gaano siya nag-enjoy
at kasaya na makasama ang kanyang mga pinsan, lolo't Lola, and everyone there.

Isang nakakabinging katahimikan sa loob ng kotse. Seryoso itong nagmamaneho.

Nabasag lamang yon nang marinig ko ang ring tone ng aking phone. May tumatawag,
agad kong kinuha ito sa bag.

Lucky.

"Hello."

Alanganin kong sagot sabay sulyap sa gawi ni Nathaniel.

Isang buntong hininga ang sagot nito. I frown.

--"I thought you could come to our family dinner. Pero sabi ng ate mo, nasa Zamora
mansion ka daw. Kaya pala hindi mo sinasagot ang tawag ko."--

Oh. I forgot. I sighed as I massage my forehead with disappointments. Nakakahiya sa

kanya. Nawala talaga sa isipan ko na may usapan pala kami.

"Oh I'm sorry Luck. Nawala sa isip ko."

I said apologetically. Bigla akong tinapunan ng matalim na tingin ni Nathaniel. I

looked away. Saglit lang yon at agad nitong itinuon ang mga mata sa daan.

"Oh sige. Sa susunod na lang. Pasensya ka na talaga."

Dugtong ko nang hindi ito kumibo sa kabilang linya. Narinig ko ulit ng frustrated
nitong ungol. He sighed heavily. At inatake na naman ako ng kunsensya. May sakit pa
naman ang tita Lea.

--"Its okay Zea. I understand. Pamilya mo rin sila." --

Sagot nito. There's bitterness in his voice.

"Honey.. Stop talking or I'll kiss you now."

Napatingin ako bigla sa kanya. Sa malakas at sinadyang lambing na boses nito ay

tiyak na rinig na rinig ito sa kabilang linya. I know he's trying to make Lucky
jealous.

--"Magkasama pala kayo. Sige, ibaba ko na ito. Sorry sa disturbo."--

"Luck----"

Tot tot.. Tot.

Binabaan agad ako ng tawag. Hindi man lang hinintay na magsalita akong muli.

Inirapan ko siya. He just only shrugged and continue driving.

Napatingin ako sa phone at ilang beses pala itong tumawag kanina. Nasa kwarto kasi
ng mansyon ang bag ko kaya hindi ko narinig ang mga tawag niya.

"Disappointed? Ibang klase ka rin. Mas pinanghihinayangan mo pang hindi nakapunta

sa kanya kaysa makasama kami ng anak mo."

That makes my blood boiled. Naiinis na tinapunan ko siya ng tingin. Hindi naman yon
ang punto ko.

"I didn't say that. Pwede ba, magdrive ka na lang and don't mind me here."

Pasalampak akong napasandal sa couch at hinila si Nathan palapit sa dibdib ko.

I snorted.

"Lower your voice. Nathan is sleeping."

Mahinahon ngunit malamig niyang sita. Nakita ko ang paggalaw ng muscles sa panga
niya. I know he's mad but he's just trying to calm himself.

Ipinikit ko na lamang ang mga mata at hindi na kumibo. I'm tired and I don't wanna
argue in anything to him.

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Ours

(Kabanata 48)

Do what makes you happy.

Life is not based on the money you earned and Success you've achieved. Its all
about being happy with, who you are, who you're with, who you've got, who you love,
and
who makes your life worth living.

--unknown-

Jamie POV ( unedited)

Gusto kong makuha ang karapatan ko. Sa anak, asawa at higit sa lahat sa buo kong
pamilya.

I gritted my teeth when I remember the scene last night. She's still swooning that
Lucky. I really really hate it. I can feel that she's attached to that man.

Today whether she like it or not we will moving to our mansions for the sake of our
son. He needs a complete family where a home and a parents all together.

"Pack all your things and as well as Nathan. Were moving to our mansion."

He face was priceless when she heard my words. Obviously she doesn't like the idea
that were living under in the same roof. The disagreement were visible in her deep
set brown eyes.

"And who the hell are you para utusan ako ng ganyan? Did I say yes? I didn't
remember that I agree on that preposition?"

My prediction was clear according to her words of disagreement.

I looked at her seriously, pretending I wasn't in the mood to quarrel her about
that matter but I am absolutely pissed off with her.

"Do I need to establish again my rights for this family? Zea, I am not doing this
for a personal purpose but for our son's own good."

I'm taking time to calm myself. Alam kong magrereklamo talaga siya set up na ito.
But I'm doing it for the better. Lalong lalo na kay Nathan.

Mapakla siyang natawa sa sinabi ko. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang tumatakbo sa isip
niya ngayon. But I have a strong instinct na may malalim siyang dahilan dito.
Iniisip ko pa lang ang maaring dahilan ay gusto ko ng pumatay ng tao.

"Really Nathaniel? But we can handle Nathan without living in the mansion.
Pinapahirapan lang natin ang isa't-isa sa sitwasyong gagawin natin."

"What's the matter if we live together? Gusto mo bang maisip ni Nathan na hindi
maganda ang takbo ng pamilya niya? He's fast learner. As he grow ups, mapapansin
din niya ang mga bagay-bagay. What's your issue about it? Tell me."

Irritated flooded here. I don't know why this is going to be hard to please her for
this matter. She narrowed her eyes like slits.
"Is this about Lucky? Kaya hindi ka pumapayag?"

Her eyes were widen in disgust.

"Lucky is out of the topic Nathaniel. Kung nagseselos ka sa kanya well there's
nothing I can't do about it."

She said fiercely.

"Yes I'm jealous. Zea asawa parin kita kahit ilang taon na tayong naghiwalay. I'm
warning you, stop seeing that guy or you'll find him dead anywhere."

Nanlaki ang mga mata niya sa pagkabigla. I gritted my teeth in frustration. How I
wish I could throttle her flawless pretty neck.

"Your devil, Nathaniel."

She said between her gritted teeth. And I smirked devilishly.

"Yes I am. Try me my wife. You know how capable I am. Enough for being stubborn."

Agad ko siyang tinalikuran after saying that words. She was stiffened with it. I
had enough of her attitudes. I know she's goading me and blaming for everything my
fault was. I can accept if she needs freedom but I can't accept if that guy will
ever replace my place. Sinusuwerte siya. I won't never give my wife to anyone else.
Not ever.

**

Sa wakas, we are now here in mansion. My son was so excited to see his own room. I
design it with avengers characters in the entire room as his favorites marvel
movie.

"Wow. Daddy this is amazing!"

Manghang-mangha ito nang makapasok. I'm glad he very much like it.

"Do you like it son?"

I asked him kahit alam kong nagustuhan niya. His eyes were dancing with happiness.

"Opo."

Mabilis siyang umakyat sa kama at nagtatalon talon sa tuwa. I smiled happily. This
room is adjacent to our master's bedroom. May secret passage dito. Para anytime ay
pwede namin siyang mapuntahan dito sa kwarto.

"You won't sleep with your Mom?"

I asked. Usually sa ganitong edad attached pa ito sa nanay tuwing natutulog.

He shakes his head off. I frown.

"I'm a big boy na. I can sleep on my own."

Natawa ako sa sinabi niya. I remember my childhood memories. Parang ako lang. I
used to be independent even though I was feared with my nightmares.
"Well sounds good, little boy. Come on give Daddy a hug!"

He laughed while running towards me and I scoop him immediately as I reach him in
my arms.

**

Zea POV

He's really unstoppable when he made decisions. Wala na akong magagawa pa kundi
pumayag sa ganitong set-up. Para din naman 'to sa ikabubuti ng anak namin. Besides
hindi naman kami mamumuhay like husband and wife. We just want to have Nathan a
happy and complete family even if its not. Hindi ko alam kung hanggang kailan kami
magiging ganito. Hindi ko alam kung magiging okay ba talaga kami. Ang plano kung
magpa-annul ng kasal ay hindi pa nga nauumpisahan.

When I looked at the whole masters bedroom ay halos nagbago lahat ng kulay at
disenyo. Siguro sa mahigit apat na taon marami ng nagbago sa pamamahay na ito.
Maganda parin naman pero wala na ang dating kasiglahan at kasiyahan. The aura was
dull behind those colorful curtains and light ceiling of the whole entire room.

I walked out to the room to scan around the mansions and I saw him with the Nathan
on wide and spacious living room.

"Mom. Come join us with Dad. Were playing snake ladder."

Ngumiti ako Kay Nathan remembering those time together with his father nung kami pa
lang dalawa sa pamamahay na ito. We always played snake ladder for killing time and
boredom.

"Sige."

So I join to them pretending that were okay in front of our son. Lage siyang
nakatingin sa akin at naiilang ako sa pakiramdam na may ibang kahulugan ang mga
tinging yon.

"Yehey I won! I won!"

Masayang nagtatalon talon si Nathan nang marating nito ang tuktok ng laro. We both
claps our hands cheering for him.

"I dare you Dad to kiss Mom!"

Nagkatinginan kami ni Nathaniel sa hamon ng anak. He smiled secretly at my view.

Namula naman ang pisngi ko sa pakiramdam na maghahalikan kami. Naalala ko tuloy
nang may mangyari sa amin nung mga nakaraang linggo. That passionate making love
was so ecstatic to think about. That time I suddenly missed out that weren't okay
and I was hunger for her love. And I'm always tempted with that desires of him.

Then he dipped down his head towards me for a kiss. And I close my eyes waiting for
his lips to land on me and it did. That was a peck kiss, still the familiar of its
tingling sensations brought back. Andun pa din ang excitement. Nothing's change.

After that, we spend another time of funny games until we got tired and decided to
have dinner.

"Daddy I love shrimps. Sabi ni Mommy love nyo daw po yong dish."

He spoke to his Dad. Nagluluto ako dito sa kusina at sila panay ang pangungulit.
Patapos na ako sa afritada dish dahil yon ang parehas na gusto nilang kainin
ngayong dinner.

"Really? Namana mo pati mga hilig ni Daddy hah? Don't you know that your Mom is
allergic with shrimp!"

They're talking as if I wasn't exist here. Natatawa lang ako sa kakulitan ni

Nathan. He's asking a lot of things about his Dad and those boys-thingy-things or
whatsoever. Jamie was amusingly answering everything he asks.

"Really? What's allergic Dad? Is it bad for Mom?"

I chuckled softly upon hearing that concern question of him. I am now imagining
their amuse faces. Nakatalikod kasi ako sa bahagi ng mesa kung saan sila nag-uusap.
Napapangiti lang ako all the while.

"Yeah. Its when she feels itchy, her face will get red and find hard to breathe."

"Really? But she never told me about that. But its masarap Dad! How Mommy have that
sickness?"

Tumawa ng malakas ang ama sa mga matured and innocent interest nito.

"Enough boys. Dinner is ready. Nathan arrange the table. Diba I already thought you
how to do it na?"

Nakangiti kong bungad sa kanila whilst taking chance to arrange the dish on the
table. Masigla itong sumang-ayon sa sinabi ko at magiliw itong kumuha ng mga
placemat. Masayang namang tumutulong ang asawa ko sa pag-aayos.

But I was avoiding his eyes every time na nagtatama ito.

Everything was set into place. And were happy taking our dinner together. It feels
home and delightful. Pakiramdam ko buo ang pamilya ko na walang bahid na pag-aalala
at balakid sa aming pagsasama. Ang pinakamahalaga ay masaya ang anak ko sa
nangyayari ngayon.

Kalimutan muna ang problema. This time, this is ours. Me, my husband and our cute
little kid.

Bahala na sa mga susunod na araw.

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Second Chance

Kabanata 49)

Sometimes you were handed a second chance, and all you had to do was close your
eyes and step into it.
--Jean Oram, (Champagne and Lemon Drops)--

**

Zea POV

He never change. Basagulero parin ang asawa ko. Now I know how Mom panic nang
mabalitaan nitong nakipag-patayan ito sa bar ni Nicholas, his cousin. Kaya naman
agad ako nilang tinawagan para patahanin ang asawa ko. Nag-eskandalo kamo ito sa
bar at pati ang mga pinsang kasama nito ay natatakot na sa maaaring mangyari at
hindi siya kayang paamuhin.

Mom was almost crying nang tawagan ako sa telephone para pakiusapang puntahan at
paamuhin ang asawa.

Kusa na akong pumunta dahil ayokong may mangyaring masama sa kanya. Still the
concern as his wife is there. Kahit papano ay mahal ko parin ang gagong yon no
matter how worst could have been.

The crowd was there, na parang may pinapanood na live show. Mabilisan akong lumapit
dahil hindi na ako mapakali sa subrang kaba.

Nic and Darren was struggling for convincing him to stop what he's doing. May
binugbog na naman siguro itong walang kalaban-laban sa kanya. At hindi ako
nagkamali when I saw him na sinuntok yong parang walang huwisyong lalaki. Napasigaw
ang karamihan lalong lalo na ang mga babae.

"Nathaniel!"

I shouted nang makita kong susuntukin na naman niya yong lalaki.

The high pitch of my voice makes almost everyone got disturb of what's they're
observing for. Halos lahat ng mga tao napalingon sa akin.

Galit ko siyang tiningnan sa mga mata. Bigla siyang naalarma. I can see the
familiarity of that looks. I can sense he's scared if I'll get mad of what he did.
Still my poor husband.

Lumapit ako and I easily grab his arms.

"What do you think you're doing huh?"

I tried not to louder my voice coz I don't want everyone here will get notice. In
my face right now I knew I looked like sadist wife to my husband because of the
deathly glares I thrown to him.

"Come here."

Para naman itong maamong tupa na sumunod sa akin. I knows he's still mad at nasa
stage pa siyang nagpipigil ng kanyang galit.

Alam ko naman kung paano siya pakalmahin kaya mabilis ko siyang niyakap at hinalik-
halikan saang parte ng kanyang adonis na mukha.

"I told you not to hurt anyone else. Please have self-control."

May himig na paninermon kong pagsasalita. His eyes that storm in madness a while
ago turn into a soft side of him. He's beginning to restrain his temper. I cup his
face gently. Gusto ko siyang pagalitan pero mas nangingibabaw ang pag-unawa ko sa
sitwasyon niya. Nakatitig lang siya sa mga mata ko.

"I already told you. Are you drunk?"

I hissed. He looked at me frowning. Binabasa niya kung ano ang iniisip ko.

I sighed.

Walang mangyayari kung magtitigan lang kami buong araw.

"Let's go home. "

I grab his hand and pulled him out in the bar. Hindi naman ito umimik at
nagreklamo.

Wala kaming kibo sa kotse hanggang makarating sa mansyon. Buti na lang natutulog na
si Nathan. Pansamantala ko munang iniwan ang dalang kotse sa private parking lot ng
bar. Tutal VIP member naman ang asawa ko besides si Nicholas ang may-ari nun.

Were sleeping in a different rooms. Ako ang gumagamit sa masters bedroom. At siya
nagtitiis sa guest room. Ganun kasi ang pinag-usapang set up namin.

Hinila ko siya sa kwarto para makausap ng mahinahon.

"Mom called me dahil napaaway ka daw. My God with you Nathaniel! Hindi mo ba
naiisip na may sakit ang Mommy? Your ridiculous, umiinum ka't nakikipagbasag-ulo.
What's happening with you? "

I crossed my arms in his front at pinagalitan siya. Nagbuga siya ng hangin bago
nagsalita.

"It wasn't my fault, he provoked me to hurt him."

He reasoned out. And I laugh in sarcasm.

"Narinig ko na ang dahilan mong yan noon. Kung hindi ako dumating baka nawalan na
ng buhay ang lalaking yon. "

He snorted. He looked at me with irritation in his eyes.

"Sino ba ang kinakampihan mo? Ako o ang lalaking yon?"

Again he's being unreasonable and it's so damn frustrating.

I didn't talk. I was just glaring at him. He come closer. I jerked when he grab me
suddenly and give me a mind blowing kiss.

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko. But then I enjoyed the kiss. It was intimidating.

Tinitigan niya ako ng matagal. There's something in that stares. I ignored it and I
looked at him blankly.

"Dumating na sa akin ang papers ng annulment."

There was long paused after he said that. I shook my head. May pait at lungkot sa
boses niya which made me confused in myself at the same time. Bakit masakit para sa
akin ang magdesisyon na maghiwalay kami?
"So itutuloy mo?"

There's pain in his voice when he asked that, again I was aghast in myself for
making sudden decisions. Naghain na ako ng annulment for us to be free with each
other.

Walang kibo ko siyang tinitigan. Hindi ko alam kung itutuloy ko ba. Nakausap ko ang
abogado kahapon at ganun din ang tanong nito sa akin.

May bahid na pait ang mga titig nito. I looked away. I had never seen that kind of
regrets before. I took a deep breath before I speak with a heavy heart.

"Siguro. Hindi ko alam."

I shook my head trying to hide the confusion and pain.

Bumuga siya ng mabigat na hangin. Lumapit siya at napatalon ang puso ko nang
biglang hawakan nito ang chin ko. He's staring at me intensely, sinusuri ang
kaibuturan ng aking nararamdaman.

"Tell me Zea, yun ba talaga ang gusto mo?"

I can feel his hot breath na tumatama mukha ko. I gulped. Hindi na ako makagalaw sa
subrang lapit ng aming katawan. Our eyes locked. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang ibig-
sabihin ng mga titig nito. I was captured with that looks.

Napaawang ang bibig ko. I don't know how to answer him and I don't know if that's
what I want.

"Hmmmm.. "

My throat went to dry. Nanatili lang akong nakatitig sa kanyang mga mata. His eyes
were longing for me. It was as if he's been missing a lot of me for almost five
years away.

I shook my head kasabay ng pagtulo ng luhang hindi ko alam kung saan nanggagaling.
Mabilis kong pinahid yon. But to my surprise bigla na lamang akong niyakap nito.

"I'm stupid. I know andami ko ng pagkukulang at pagkakamali sayo. I was always

making you cry many times before at alam kong napakahirap na sayo ang magpatawad.
I'm sorry for everything Zea. I know it isn't enough but if ever you give me a
chance to show you how much I regretted for leaving you without giving----"

He paused, took a deep breath and looking straight to my eyes. I was lost with that
stares. My tears won't stop falling and he 's wiping it softly na para bang isa
akong babasaging crystal na dapat ingatan.

"Without giving you right reason about it. I'm a worst person you'd ever knew. I
was blinded by my own insecurities. I am fool. But this fool man is still crazily
inlove with you."

Oh.

That was touching. Do I have to forgive and forget everything just to get back with
him and be happy? I admit na masyado akong nagpakahina at hanggang ngayon hindi man
lang nabawasan ang pagmamahal ko sa kanya. I am still inlove with my husband. As
the days passing by I'd realized that mas lalo kong naiisip ang kapakanan ng
pamilyang ito. Ang pagmamahal at ang pagnanais mabuo ang pamilya. Pero andun parin
ang takot. Ang takot na sumubok muli. Madali lang naman ang magpatawad pero
mahirap makalimot. At higit sa lahat ang tiwala. Natatakot na akong muling masaktan
at tuluyan ng marugmok.

I closed my eyes, ang init na hatid ng kanyang daliri ay naglalakbay sa buo kong
katawan.

Then I met his intense stares. He dipped his head on me and kiss me softly and
romantically. I slowly put my arms on his nape and pulled him closer to mine.

The soft kiss turns to hunger and eager. His naughty hands was traveling everywhere
in my vulnerable body..while kissing intensely. I tip toed just to get closer over
him. I'm holding my breath and I don't want this moment to end.

Binuhat niya ako while removing my dress. The excitement is killing me. I couldn't
think straight anymore coz all I want to do is to to be with him tonight. I miss
him so bad. I missed his touch and I miss how he make love to me like I am the only
woman who can make him crazy in bed and can make his sexually satisfied.

Everything.

I unbutton his polo and threw it unceremoniously. He's kissing my earlobe while his
hand was busy doing business over there. I moan in pleasures coz it brings too much
kiliti to all my senses. It's shivering to my spine. How I wanted this man so bad.

"Nathaniel.. please."

I begged helplessly. I want him to claim me now because I can't hold it any longer.
I'm hardly biting my lip. His lips travels to the valley of my breast. Napaliyad
ako. I cried his name over and over again while he's enjoying taking me to the
ecstasy of lust and pleasure.

He lick my nipple with his expert tongue, he's definitely teasing me.

Then he sucked it repeatedly with equal lust, pleasures and full of compassion.
He's sucking it like a baby wanting his mother's milk hungrily. I fought so hard
not to lose myself but it did. I am completely giving myself to him without doubts
and burning desires.

His lips stop at my midriff. Wala ng mapaglagyan ang kapusukang nadarama ko.

I took a chance to gaze his position. He's half naked wearing only his boxer. I got
rid of his brief, throwing it carelessly on the floor as he's dipping his head
giving me a little and sensitive kisses down to my lower body. My breath grew heavy
as he deepen the kiss with so much passion.

He's lips was moving up again. He looked at me with his eyes flooded with intense
lust and desires. Then he slowly continue torturing me by licking and sucking my
erect nipples that made me moan out loud.

"Your so beautiful dearest wife. "

His rough voice filled with lust. It's turning me on and on. It feels like my lungs
were running out of air to breathe.

His lips went lower, dipping his tongue in my navel, kissing me teasingly that
could make my body jerk in sensations.

Until his lips reach to the lower and private part of my body. My mouth draw a big
'O' coz of what he did. He licked and sucked it over and over again, that could
perfectly make me fall to the edge of the cliff. I spread my legs widely. I
crumpled his hair to regain strength. The whole thing was totally different than
the love scenes we had before. These are hungers and full of passion and lust than
the usual that we shared. I feel like were united.

I scream his name as he twisted his tongue inside, drawing pleasures to my body. I
tried to open my eyes and watched his head burried in between my legs, and the
sight alone was enough to drive me to the highest level of ecstasy.

I'm moist... so much.

I could no longer hold it up as I felt the familiar ache building in my body and
burned me in the fire of pleasures that brings me to climax. I arched my back and
shouted his name.

"Nathaniel!"

I grip the bed sheets as my body falls in exhaustion.

I helplessly lie my body and find air to breathe. Were both panting and flaming
with the heat we shared.

He rolled to my side and pulled me closer to him.

"I love you, Zea. I could be the worst person if your not with me. Please give me a
chance."

I close my eyes tightly. I know that voice, I am always tempted with that
everytime. Its hard for me to say yes coz I already made my choice. But it's harder
to say NO coz I love him so much. I had this feelings of fears might losing him
forever without giving him a chance. I don't want to disappppoint him either.

I nodded my head slowly and hugged him tightly as I could.

"I love you wife. I love you so much."

That's what my heart wanted to hear. I felt like it melted with his words. I'm
speechless.

"I love you too.. Nathaniel."

We will working it out. We married because we were meant to each other at yon ang
panghahawakan ko ngayon.

..

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Pasensya na po sa one week na walang update. I tried to manage my time but it

didn't work out coz loaded of works and etc. I almost had 3hrs to 5hrs of sleep.
Huhuhu..

Enjoy your Christmas! Mwah..

☆☆★★
Beautiful Stuffs

(Kabanata 50)

****

Jamie POV

I'm so happy that finally we live together as a real couple. Every man could dreams
to be with his wife for a perfect reason. Nag-iisa lang ang asawa ko. Maalaga,
pasensyosa, mabait, malambing at higit sa lahat mahal na mahal ko. I am really
existing my effort of how to please her in any way I can. Gusto ko lang bumawi.
Almost five years din ang nasayang dahil sa aking kagaguhan at katangahan. If only
I knew. Ang laki ng pagkakamali ko.

Damn that Doctor! I made a surprised visit in her clinic one week ago. She's
already dead two years ago. Matanda na rin kasi nung time na nagpacheck-up ako.
Ewan ko ba how it happened na ganun ang resulta ng check up. And that waste paper
was already junk. Pinunit ko yon ng mabasa kong hindi ako magkakaanak. When I asked
her assistant nurse, she said na hindi maiiwasang magkakabaliktaran ang resulta or
whatever those stuffs she said. I am healthy. And I hate it sa tuwing naiisip ko
ang bagay na yon. But there's no use of crying over spilled milk kaya move on and
don't be helpless anyway. I'm thankful that she gave me a second chance after all
what I did.

"Hon, where's Nathan? "

Bungad nito sa pinto nang makapasok, may dala itong tray na naglalamang meryenda.

"In the comfort room, ayaw magpasama kasi big boy na daw siya. Ayun pinasamahan ko
kay Marie."

Sinalubong ko siya at kinuha ang tray. I put it on the table. I grab her slender
waist and kiss her lips suddenly. She chuckled and threw her arms on my shoulder.

"Ang ganda ng asawa ko, ang bango-bango pa."

She's smell so delicious. I can feel my erect muscles is building up there. She
moan and punch me softly in my arms.

"Honey nagiging aggressive kana. Nakailang beses kana kagabi. "

I smiled, we made love last night over and over again til dawn. Next week magpa-
file ako vacation leave. Kunwari inirapan niya ako but I can see the smiles behind
of it. I wanted her so much.

"If I knew binibiro mo lang ako para maka-score ka tonight."

I threw my head and laugh. She knows me well. I possesively hug her and smell her
pretty neck. She's hot. I feel arouse all over again.

"You know how much I miss you. At this moment kung pwede pa lang I'll take you in
bed and make love to you that you won't ever forget."
She crinkled my nose and smile happily. I am always hook up with that smile ever
since.

"Hmmm.. were not gonna make love tonight. I feel sore."

I frown. Did I hurt her for being so aggressive in consecutive days? I looked at
her wearily.

"Really? Oh.. how bad. Is there any treatment we can put on it?"

I slightly glance at his lower body part. I touch her private part in an instant.
She's wearing a dress kaya mabilis ko itong nahawakan.

"Ano ka ba! Baka may makakita sayo. Stop it, I'm fine."

Tinapik niya ang kamay ko sabay tingin sa palibot. So what? She's my wife. I don't
bother to care anyway.

"Your my wife what's wrong?"

Kunot-noo kong sabi. She laugh, yong ngiting na-amuse. Her smile still plastered in
her pretty face.

"No, I'm fine okay. Medyo mahapdi lang talaga. Forget about it, I have good news
for you."

She's grinning secretly. I become confused and curious at the same time. I look at
her frowning.

"What is it?"

I asked curiously. She blinked her eyes then hold my cheeks.

"I'm..Nathan is going to be a kuya. But not that sure. I just hope na sana tama
yong results ng PT. "

I paused. I tried to sink in my mind everything what she confess. Bigla akong
natameme. Joy, hope, happiness and so overwhelming proud.

"Oh..really? "

I looked at her flat tummy then her face repeatedly. She nodded smilingly. Then I
shouted for joy and hug her sabay ikot sa ere. Happiness is understatement. I feel
so blessed. The whole entire garden area were filled with laughs and joy.

"Were going to have check up today. I can't wait to hear about the findings. "

I blurted out suddenly when we finished celebrating it. She frowned.

"One month pa lang naman. Saka na kapag 6 weeks na para makasiguro. "

She's declined. No, it must be now. I can't sleep tonight if I haven't that results
today.

"No. Were going to the Doctor today. I insist. No buts. "

I said with finality. Then she shrugged. She knows how persistent I am.
"Daddy! Mommy!"

Sabay kaming napalingon kay Nathan. Patakbo itong lumapit sa amin. Sinalubong ko
siya at kinarga. I kiss his cheeks lovingly.

"I wanna ride in a motorbike Dad.. please. "

I smiled. Manang mana talaga sa akin ang anak ko. Napakahilig sa mga rides. Ang
hyper din. He pouted and gave me that puppy look eyes.

"Later. Were going to bring mommy first in the clinic. Right after the check up
we'll ride your new motorbike. "

I suggest to him. He frowned. Nag-aalala ang mukha nitong nakatitig sa kanyang Mom.

"Is Mom have sick? Why?"

Suddenly he asked it from me. I smiled. Curious minded talaga ang mga bata ngayon.
They have also a wide and wild imaginations.

"No baby. It was just we want to make sure that Mom is healthy as well as the
baby."

Nakangiti kong paliwanag sa kanya. Nanlaki ang mga mata nito. Tila excited na
excited sa narinig na balita.

"Really? So I'll be a big brother then?"

He asked in delight.

"Yup. Are you excited about it?"

I asked gladly to him. He nodded immediately. My wife is smiling facing to us.

***

Zea POV

Makulit talaga ang asawa ko. After naming magpacheck up at masigurong buntis talaga
ako ng isang buwan ay di magkanda-ugaga ito sa pag-aasikaso. Pinaglutuan niya ako
at kung anu-ano pa. Agad niyang tinawagan ang mga magulang para ipamalita na
magkakaroon na naman siya ng anak. Hindi ko inaasahan na magiging ganito siya
kasaya. Pati si Nathan nahawa sa ama.

"Mommy, Dad will be the one to cook for you and the baby. And I'll be the one to
take care of you here. I'll be your asistant."

Subrang natawa ako sa ka-OA-han ng anak. Masyado siyang mabilis mag-isip.

Nakakatuwa. Tinatrato nila ako ngayon na parang reyna. I feel like I'm sick dahil
sa pag-aalaga nila but nakakataba ng puso. Subra.

"Hon do you have something specifically na ayaw mo sa amoy or kainin?"

Bungad nito sa pinto na may suot na apron at hawak na sandok sa kamay. Ngumiti ako
sa itsura niya. Gwapong gwapo padin ang loko.
"I don't know. Depende lang. What are you cooking pala?"

"Something healthy for your pregnancy. "

Oh. My husband is the best cook for me ever. He 's an expert of my tastes.

"Honey you don't have to do that. I can do it on my own."

I stood up para samahan siya sa kusina. Niyakap niya ako at ginawaran ng halik.

"You know how much I want to serve you and take care of you lalong lalo na ngayon
na buntis ka. Hindi mo alam kung gaano ako kasaya."

I was about to say something when Nathan interrupted us.

"Mom, Dad. I'm hungry. The two of you must stop kissing."

Namewang ito sa harapan namin. We burst out laughing. Salubong ang kilay nito like
a terror teacher who were maddening to his students.

"Come on little boy. You will help Daddy preparing our food."

Binuhat niya ito. At masaya ko silang sinundan papuntang kusina. Nagluluto pala ng
chopsuey and bake broccoli.

Wow. Smells good. I love it.

Masaya lang akong nagmamasid sa kanila. Nathan keeps on asking about what he
observed and my husband was so engrossed talking to him. Minsan sumasali ako sa
usapan but they talk a lot of boys stuffs kaya naa-out of place ako.

"Hmm.. I love the smell. Matagal pa ba yan?"

Actually, natatakam na talaga ako sa kanyang mga niluluto. Nakakaramdam na ako ng

gutom. Lately nagiging sensitive ako sa pagkain but I know it's normal dahil ganun
naman talaga ang pagbubuntis since I experienced that to Nathan.

"Oh honey.. I'll just make it fast. Can you wait for another minutes? I will just
steam it for a while?"

I smiled. May bahid kasi ang boses niya ng pag-aalala. Takot siguro na magutuman
kami ni baby.

"Of course honey. Ang sarap kasi ng niluluto mo. I can't wait to taste it."

My eyes were shut to the cooking steamer. I'm craving for it. I heard he laughed so
I gave him a confused look.

"Naglilihi ka ba sa broccoli hon? "

Andun parin ang malaking ngiti sa labi nito. I shrugged. I don't know. May mga
bagay lang naman na gusto kong gawin o pagkaing gusto kong tikman. But sometimes
marami din akong ayaw.

After everything he prepared. Tuwang-tuwa ako habang kumakain. I don't know pero
masyadong masarap sa panlasa ko yung pagkain where in fact I don't eat broccoli
hungrily. He's busy taking care everything. Lage niya akong inaasikaso. Tinatanong
ako if gusto ko pa ba or anything.
"Satisfied?"

He asked delightedly. Happiness were dancing on his eyes. I'm full.

"Of course. Feeling ko hindi ako makatayo sa subrang busog."

I said with a satisfaction in my smile. I massage my full tummy.

"Well, I'm glad my baby like the food. Nagmana sa akin mahilig sa veges. You don't
eat broccoli before, do you?"

Nakangiti lang akong tumango-tango.

"Just like me Dad."

Sabat ni Nathan. Sabay kaming napatingin sa kanya.

"Of course young man. "

He ruffled Nathan's hair. Nathan had really much with his father, they have lots in
common. Of course, mag-ama and aside from that lahat ng traits nila ay subrang
magkapareha.

After the enjoyable dinner. Pinatulog muna namin si Nathan sa kwarto niya bago kami
nagpasyang maglambingan sa terasa para magpahangin.

"Hon, I want to have vacation in Maldives. Naputol kasi yong honeymoon natin doon
diba?"

I suggested. Nakaupo ako sa kandungan niya at panay naman ang hawak nito sa tyan
ko.

"Sure. When do you want?"

"Ikaw kung hindi kana busy."

"Sige. Next week I'll file for vacation leave. Hindi naman as in loaded ang company
ngayon besides Yvo will surely approve my leave dahil matagal na niya akong
pinagsasabihan to take time to unwind."

Mabuti naman. Panay ang hawak ko sa buhok niya habang siya naman ay busy sa
kakahalik sa balikat ko. I miss this moments with my husband.

"Hon hinanap mo ba ako? Did you ever feel na bumalik sa akin kahit na naisip mo
noon na hindi ikaw ang ama ni Nathan?"

Malumanay kong pang-usisa. He paused thinking that past. Sumeryoso ang mukha nito.

"Oo naman. Hinanap kita. I even insisted Mama Jannah kung saan ka nakatira. Pero
siya ang nakiusap na hayaan muna kita. That time I felt like I'm useless. Naisip ko
hindi ka satisfied sa akin.. dahil baog ako. I am so down and disappointed with
myself. I did everything how to forget you but it failed mesirably. I was always
drunk, patapon na ang buhay ko noon. I even committed suicide---"

"You did?"
Agad kong putol sa sasabihin pa nito.

Nanlaki ang mga mata ko sa sinabi niyang nagsuicide siya.

"Yes I did. Look at this."

He showed his hand to me. May nakita akong sugat sa waist niya. Isang pelat na gawa
ng laslas. Oh my God. I can't imagine na magagawa niya ang bagay na yon. I looked
at him with disbelief written in my whole entire face.

He sighed and smiled sadly.

"Yes I did. I'm worst Zea. I don't deserve you. Your worth than anything else. I'm
fool--- "

"Ssshhhh.. Stop it. Kalimutan na natin yong mga pagkakamali noon. Let's move on and
be happy together. Ang mahalaga magkasama tayo ngayon."

I put my index finger at the middle of his mouth. I smiled tenderly to him.
Dinampian ko siya ng halik sa labi.

He's staring me like I am the only woman in the world.

"I love you wife."

I smiled, "I love you more husband."

Then we sealed it by kiss. Alam kong sa sarili ko na hindi ko siya kayang isuko.
Not ever.

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Friendship and Love

(Kabanata 51)

Strong person doesnt fight or revenge when hurt.

Instead they let go of pain by smile and forgiveness.

(From: A LOVE AND FRIENDSHIP BOOK )

**

Zea POV

Kanina pa nagriring ang phone ko. Subrang nakukulitan na talaga ako kay Charice.
May plano kasi itong umuwi at magbakasyon. Lage itong nag-ooffer na sasama ako sa
Bora. But when I told her about my sudden pregnancy with my husband again ay parang
naiihi o matatae ito sa subrang gulat. Halos ihagis ko na ang phone sa lakas ng
boses nito. Kalaunan nagbigay payo ito sa mga mangyayari. At wala naman daw masama
sa pagbibigay ng second chance. Kaya lang I should put an 'extra' careful if ever
comes problem and trials on our way. Syempre she wanted me to be happy. And don't
want me to get hurt all over again. Saksi naman kasi sila sa paghihirap ko noon.
Saksi ang mga kaibigan ko sa dinanas kong pait at pagkabigo. Of course I'm thankful
for having them beside me when I'm down. And this time na binigyan ko ng
pagkakataon ang asawa, sabi ni Cha masyado daw akong pusong mamon para bigyan siya
agad ng chance na walang kahirap-hirap. Dapat pahirapan daw muna pero kahit na,
hindi naman ako nagsisisi dahil my husband is too much existing his efforts of how
to please me, pagsilbihan at ligawan ako ng paulit-ulit just to show his gratitude
towards me for us our relationship will work out as well. Aside from that walang
oras, minuto o araw na nasayang para ipakita niya sa akin how much he was sorry
before and how happy he was that were fixing our marriage now.

I love my husband and family as well. So I don't have to feel regrets for forgiving
and accepting him again.

Then naalala ko si Lucky. He's asking for a dinner tonight. At pumayag ako para
sabihin sa kanyang huwag na siyang umasa sa akin. He don't deserve someone like me.
And I can't love him the way a woman loves his man. Isn't because I am married.
It's because my feelings for him remained constant. It's friendship. No sparks,
unlike sa husband ko.

**

"So mamaya sasabihin mo na sa kanya na wala siyang dapat asahan sayo?"

Nagsalita siya sa kabila ng pananahimik ko. Nagpaalam na ako sa kanya kanina. I

told him everything. At kung hindi siya pumayag, okay lang din naman sa akin. Pero
siya na rin ang nagsabi na huwag magpaasa sa taong walang aasahan. Dahil tiyak na
mas masakit yon. And may point naman siya dun.

"Yeah. Tama ka, mas masasaktan siya lalo besides Luck is a very good friend of
mine. I don't want him to expect for nothing."

I explained. Lumapit siya sa akin and pulled me to hug. He sighed. It was a sign of
relief. Napansin kong medyo nag-iba na ang asawa ko. Mas nagmatured, mas lumawak
yong understanding niya. Siguro nakapag-adjust na rin sa tinatagal tagal ng panahon
ng paghihiwalay namin. He learned the lesson and I learned how to forgive and
forget. Ganun nga siguro ang pagmamahal na sinubok ng ilang taon. And most of all
we learned to trust each other. Wala na yong doubt gaya ng dati. Wala na rin yong
insecurities. I explained to him everything na ni minsan hindi ko nagawang
makipagrelasyon sa iba dahil alam kong kasal parin ako sa kanya. May mga
pagkakataong natutukso akong gumawa pero hindi rin nangyari dahil maraming
bumabagabag sa akin that time.

And there Lucky was so patient to wait until I get an annulment. Dahil alam niyang
may prinsipyo akong tao. But things didn't work out as I planned it to be. Blessing
in disguise na rin dahil may inaasahan kaming darating seven months from now. The
new member of the family. Ang ipinagbubuntis ko ngayon.

The big part there was my husband is so patient and put all his hardwork para
mapasaya kami ng anak at magiging anak ulit namin. Bumalik yong sigla and we spend
a lot of time together. Even our families got united. Nung nagbakasyon kami ng two
weeks sa Singapore, yon ang pinaka the best bonding ever that we had, since Nathan
was there. It should be on Maldives pero we decided na huwag na muna dahil mas
maraming pambatang lugar na mapapasyalan sa Singapore. Syempre kasama namin si
Nathan. Besides nagtour din kami sa Hongkong Disneyland. Andaming unforgettable
moments na ng nangyari. Napakasaya.

He smiled and plant soft kisses on my shoulder.

"Mabuti naman. Just text me kung saan kayo magdidinner para masundo kita kapag
kailangan mo ng umuwi. "

Niyaya ko siyang sumama but he declined dahil gusto niya ako bigyan ng freedom para
makapag-usap kami ng maayos. He trust me and its big thing for me also cause I
know how possessive my husband is.

"I will.. hmm.. Hon nakikiliti ako. "

I groaned dahil nag-uumpisa na naman siyang manukso. Naku naman! Baka maunsyami pa
itong dapat pag-usapan namin ni Lucky dahil sa ginagawa niya.

"Hmmm.. you know how much I miss you, Honey."

His voice is husky, trying to seduce me. I rolled my eyes ironically. Araw-araw
naman niya ako nakikita bakit namimiss parin? Sabagay, hindi kasi kami madalas
nagsisiping dahilan ng aking pagbubuntis. Wala kasi ako sa mood lage at minsan may
gusto akong bagay na unusual para sa kanya. I knew sometimes I frustrate him dahil
sa pangangailangan nito but he understands coz of my pregnancy.

He travelled his lips down to my back. Hinawi niya ang suot kong dress and begun
kissing me there. I moan. Then I remember something.

"Honey.. I have.. dinner tonight with Lucky. Hmm.. I promised I'll make it up
later. Kahit ilang rounds pa ang gusto mo."

I close my eyes dahil ginaganahan yata ako sa ginagawa niyang pang-aakit. Umungol
lamang ito at tila walang balak huminto sa ginagawa.

Useless.

Coz my traitor body is starting to enjoy it.

"Just a quickie baby. Please.."

He begged. I forced to open my eyes and saw him how determined he was to finish the
line.

Quickie? Ang pilyo talaga ng asawa ko. The last thing I knew that we always made
love in a short period of time was four years ago. Just three minutes before his
office hours or by five minutes before the board meeting kapag nasa office ako sa
workplace nito. Ganun kabilis and no one can stop him if he wants it. Just like
now.

Itinaas niya ang suot kong dress at agad ibinaba ang lacy underwear ko then he
massage the wetness there before he enter his big d*ck to mine. Napangiwi ako sa
medyo sakit na nararamdaman. Hindi parin ako nasanay kung gaano siya kalaki.

Napaungol ako. He's in my back beginning to move his body to push harder inside me.
Were making love in a standing position.

Oh hot!

Mahigpit akong napakapit sa dulo ng mesa while he is moving roughly at my back. I

shut my eyes to the wall clock. Five minutes na lang before the appointment dinner
with Luck. Plus travel and quite preparations, I'll surely be late.

Nawala na sa isip ko ang dinner nang maramdamang I almost reach the peak.

"Oh Honey.. I love it. Make it fast please.. "

I begged. Nanginginig na ang buo kong kalamnan. And he's moving so fast there. I
felt like it stretched with his huge sex to my core.

I bit my lip hardly and tightened my grip to the mantel of the table. His both
hands was on side by side of my hips, holding and pulling me whilst he's pushing
his to mine. I'm on the edge of reaching my climax, my body shaked. I momentarily
stunned when I felt the perfect orgasm.

I'm sweating and with the last push he did, napaungol ito ng malakas kasabay ang
paglabas ng likido nito sa aking kaloob-looban.

Nangalay yata ang paa ko at agad akong umupo sa sofa. I felt tired but it's mind
blowing sex, I mean making love.

"I already prepared your dress, honey. So you won't be able spend time of finding
dress in a closet."

He said nang itaas nito ang zipper ng kanyang faded jeans. Hinubad nito ang
nabasang pawis na white shirt. And threw it carelessly on the floor.

Napailing-iling ako. Burara talaga ang asawa ko. My breath was starting to get
normal with.

"Then dress me up. You make me feel tired."

I command dryly as I leaned my back on the sofa. He chuckled. Hinayaan ko siyang

damitan ako. I stood up when he's done. Kaya pala siya ang pumili ng dress dahil
napakasirado ang lahat ng butas. Mukhang manang style with a combination of modern
type. Mabukadkad sa baba na hanggang tuhod ang haba. Tapos turtle neck styled. At
three forts ang haba sa kamay nito. Elegant black and white combination dress but
formal. Para akong nagsout ng casual dress ng princess of Wales.

"Did you bought it? I haven't remember na may dress akong ganito Hon."

I asked him habang inaayos ang sarili sa salamin. Nakapuson ang buhok ko at
naglagay lang ako ng konting powder sa mukha at pink lipstick sa lips.

"Yes, kanina lang. I don't like your dresses in your wardrobe. Masyadong appealing.
You will only wear everything of those if ako ang kasama at ka- date mo."

He sounds protective and possessive, not jealous. I smiled. Ayoko ng kumontra.

Hindi naman sa tonong galit but I respect him for choosing this dress tonight. He's
my husband and he has the right to decide about it.

"Anyway, thank you Honey."

Nakangiti kong baling sa kanya. I tiptoed and kissed him abruptly.

"Oh Honey. Don't try to seduce me again baka makalimutan kong may lakad ka pa."

Natawa ako ng konti. Hindi naman ako nang-aakit ah. My arms still wrap on his
waist. And he do the same.

"Of course not. Hindi na kailangan na akitin kita. Cause I know how attracted I am
to you. Right? "

He smiled delightedly. He crinkled my nose and kiss my temple.

"Of course I am. Not just attracted baby..but very much inlove with you."

Chessy.. Nakangiti kong inikot ang mga mata. Natawa lamang ito at ginawaran ako ng
mabilis na halik.

"Hon come on hatid na kita. Saan ba ang dinner niyo?"

"Sa Revaissa French Cuisine. "

***

Pagdating sa restaurant. Umalis na ang asawa ko. He just said after thirty minutes
not less than hour ay babalikan daw niya ako dito. I can say na malaking tiwala
talaga ang binibigay nito sa akin. And I hold on to that.

I've seen him sa may kalayuan ng table na umiinom ng wine. Seryoso ang mukha nito.

"Hi.. I'm sorry I'm late."

Tipid kong bati nang makalapit na. Medyo nabigla ito, halatang lutang ang takbo ng
isip. Saglit lamang yon dahil napalitan agad ito ng ngiti sa labi. He stood up then
nakipagbeso.

"Oh that was just thirty minutes late."

"Traffic jam kasi. Sorry ulit."

I lied. Bakit nakakaramdam ako ng pagka- asiwa? Lage naman naming ginagawa ito
noon. Kaya lang iba na ang sitwasyon ngayon. Knowing na matagal na siyang may gusto
sa akin, na may asawa na binalikan ko ng ilang taon ay nakakaasiwa talaga.

"It's okay. Worth it naman. You look lovely tonight."

Napayuko lamang ako. I am typically avoiding his stares.

Sabay kaming napaupo. Inutusan niya akong mag-order sa menu. Dessert lang ang ini-
order ko dahil wala akong balak na magtagal.

"Hmm..how's your trip in Brazil?"

Nawala kasi ito ng isang buwan. May inaasikasong importanteng bagay. And I wasn't
interested to know about it.

Natigilan muna ito bago sumagot.

"It was good."

He answered reluctanly. Umayos ako ng upo at tiningnan siya. I know may problema
siya sa tono at ekspresyon pa lang ng kanyang pananalita. Umiwas siya ng tingin at
biglang iniba ang usapan.

He lightened his mood and try to ease his tension. I can sense that he was a bit
pressured.

Marami kaming pinag-usapan just like our business in abroad. Nawala na yong worries
ko, nakagiliwan na kaming nag-uusap.

"Anyway where's Nathan? Teka bakit dessert lang ang ini-order mo? Are you in a
diet?"

He looked at me frowning. Tumikhim muna ako bago nagsalita.

"I'm not. I have only less than hour para sa dinner na ito. Sabay nalang siguro
kami ng asawa ko ---"

Too late, nabanggit ko na. I paused and he is also. Natigilan ito sa huling sinabi
ko. I blink away and took a deep breath. Narinig ko ang pagbaba ng mga kubyertos
nito at umayos sa kanyang kinauupuan.

"Did I heard it right? May date pala kayo ng asawa mo?"

There's bitterness in his voice. Tiningnan ko siya at bakas sa mga mata nito ang
selos at lungkot.

I sighed.

"No. Were living in the same roof together.."

There was a long paused when I said that. Matagal pa bago siya nagsalita. Pilit
siguro nitong ina-absorb sa isipan ang sinabi ko.

"Nagkabalikan pala kayo."

Basag nito sa katahimikan. Marahan akong napatango-tango. He smiled bitterly. Tapos

nilagok nito ang wine. He was frustrated.

"Good for you."

He said. Malungkot ito. At kulang na lang ay umiyak ito sa harapan ko. Pero ito
yong tama. Ang malaman niya ang totoo.

"I'm sorry, Luck. Mahal ko parin ang asawa ko. And Nathan needs him. Besides, I'm
pregnant."

Napatingin siya sa akin ng deretso. Nabigla ito sa huling sinabi ko. Bigo, lungkot,
panghihinayang at pait ang nakikita ko sa mga mata nito.

After the long silence, he smiled grimly. Lumagok ulit ito ng alak.
Bumuntong hininga ako. Kahit nabigo ko siya ay gusto ko parin namang manatili ang
pagkakaibigan namin.

"Luck. I still wants our friendship remain treasure. Maybe ito talaga ang para sa
atin. I love you bilang kaibigan. I hope my decisions won't disappoint you."

Napailing-iling ito. Tila bigong bigo. Sana makahanap siya ng magmamahal sa kanya
ng totoo. Sana...

At hindi ako ang nararapat sa kanya.

**

Lucky POV

I was staring at the woman (who is dancing at errotically in my front ) blankly as

I am drinking the strong liquor to ease the pain. Pagkatapos ng pag-uusap namin ni
Zea kanina ay dito na ako sa bar dumeretso.

I was about to proposed her but it's damn too late. Bumalik na siya sa kanyang
asawa. I thought being her close friend ay mahuhulog ang loob niya sa akin. It was
close pero sa isang iglap na lang ay bumalik agad ito sa asawa and the worst is
nabuntis agad. Mahigit isang buwan lang ako nawala pero nabuntis agad siya ng asawa
nito.

How fast..

Jamie Nathaniel Zamora.

Kailan kaya kita matatalo? When I studied abroad ang pinapangarap kong maging isang
varsity player ay nawala nang dahil sa kanya. He took the place and and one of the
most outstanding student in Harvard University. Dad was devastated when he found
out that hindi ako nakapasa sa kursong Architecture.

I tried to be one of the hottest and popular heartrob in school but the Zamora
brothers are tough and athletics, kaya mabenta sa mga hot chics.

I had a girlfriend who cheated on me just to be with him. That time I made a
promised na hindi na ako magiging talunan.

Last five years ago, I met Zea Chiongbian. I knew I was inlove the first time I
laid my eyes on her. But to my utterly shocked, Jamie hook her and got married.

Hindi pa man ako nakakapanligaw ay tinalo na ako nito. Hinayaan ko na coz naisip ko
she's not for me. And that damn guy will surely be happy and my Dad won't longer
compare me to him.

But it failed. Dahil si Daddy walang lageng bukambibig kundi ang mga Zamora. Until
now, lalo na ngayon na malaking lugi na ang kumpanya. Anytime soon, pwede ng
magsara. Pumunta ako ng Singapore, Brazil and Malaysia para lang makuha ang
pakikipag-deal ng investors. Pero walang nangyari, dahil nakuha ng Zamora and
Demizticus Shipping lines ang contract. It only means na wala na kaming pag-asa na
makabangon pa. Si Mommy may breast cancer and I don't think so na gagaling pa siya
sa kanyang estado. Ilang beses na kaming pabalik balik sa states para sa kanyang
pagpapagamot. Halos ubos na ang pondong pera sa bangko pero di parin siya
gumagaling.

Dad won't run the next election anymore. Sira na rin ang pangalan nito dahil sa
pork barrel.

I'm stressed. I don't know what to do anymore.

Napakuyom kamao ako nang maisip ang sinabi ni Zea kanina. Mahal ko siya, mahal na
mahal. Nagtiis ako ng ilang taon para bigyan niya ako ng pag-asa. I thought
itutuloy niya ang annulment kay Jamie. But mas pinili niya ito kaysa sa akin na
hindi siya iniwan at sinuportahan hanggang sa makabangon. Mas pinili niya ang
lalaking ipinagtabuyan siya, sinaktan at iniwan sa ere. I clenched my jaw. Zea
didn't deserve him. She deserves someone's better. At ako lamang yon. Aside from
that Zea is a good catch. Her family's credentials and her wealth can help our
sinking business.

I grimace and drink the tequilla intently. I must have to do something or else
mawawala sa akin ang lahat.

..I am being desperate now. And no one can stop me for my plans.

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Abduction

(Kabanata 52)

"Don't walk behind me, I may not lead. Don't walk in front of me; I may not
following. Just walk beside me and be my friend.

-Albert Camus-

Jamie POV

"Ayoko niyan ang panget ng amoy."

Agad kong inilayo ang dalang garlic pizza dahil sa umaasim na naman ang mukha nito.
I frowned.

"I thought pizza ang gusto mo?"

Tinawagan niya ako kanina just to bring pizza for her lunch. Sasakit na yata ang
ulo ko sa kanya. Iniwan ko ang trabaho kanina para lang dalhan siya ng pizza kahit
tirik na tirik ang araw.

"Oo but not that flavor. Gusto ko yong pepperoni mushrooms cheese."

Nagbuga ako ng hangin. She never told me. I thought still the garlic pizza as
always she wants before. I forget to ask the flavor a while ago. Buntis nga pala
ang asawa ko at maselan sa lahat ng bagay.

"Okay magpapadeliver na lang ako. Just wait I'll call the Pizza Parlor."

I took my phone in my pocket. But she stamped her foot like a kid. Natigilan ako
saglit at nagtatakang tiningnan siya. She's about to cry.

"I don't like delivery. I wanted you to buy it for me personally."

Mangiyak ngiyak nitong sabi. I suddenly remembered what Charice said last day nung
nagmet up kami sa dinner nila ng asawa ko na masyado silang nahirapan sa
pagbubuntis nito sa panganay naming anak. Kulang na lamang daw ay manirahan siya sa
bundok makaiwas lamang sa subrang demanding nito. And these past few days I
suffered a lot of her unexpected demands. Ginigising ako ng madaling araw para lang
makakain ng ice cream. Tumatawag sa kalagitnaan ng board meeting para pauwiin
lamang ako at samahan siyang kumain ng siomai at siopao sa Chowking. Pinagtatawanan
na ako ng mga employees ko dahil sa ginagawa ng asawa ko. And Yvo is being
understanding about it. Dahil nararanasan din niya ito kay Ella nung ipinagbubuntis
nito si Yullo.

I wasn't complaining but sometimes nakakastress lalo na kapag hindi ko nahahanap

agad ang mga nais nitong kainin o ipabili ng kung anu-ano na siyang ipinagtataka ko
na hindi naman niya kailangan.

"Oh I'm sorry. Okay Honey.. I'll buy it for you."

I comforted her sabay yakap at halik sa labi. Bigla namang lumiwanag ang mukha
nito. She smiled widely. Napangiti na rin ako sa parang batang reaction nito.

"Sama ako hah?"

Paglalambing nito sabay kapit sa leeg ko.

"Yun naman pala eh." I murmured na napakamot sa ulo.

"What did you say?"

Kumunot noo na naman ito.

"Wala wala.. sabi ko tara na."

Natatawa kong sabi saka alanganing ngumiti. Naku! Baka abutin na naman ng tupak at
singhalan ako!

My Goodness! She's quite scary when she's mad. And I swear baka abutin ako ng isang
linggong hindi siya makatabi. Last week dalawang gabi akong hindi pinatabi sa kama
at gusto kong suntukin ang sarili sa isang pagkakamaling hindi siya pinagbigyan sa
gusto niyang akyatin ko ang punong mangga sa likod ng mansyon nila Mommy. I can't
sleep well without her by my side. It's like a torture to me now.

Kaya kahit gaano kahirap kakayanin dahil para naman sa aming baby ito. Besides
gusto kong makabawi dahil sa malaking pagkukulang kay Nathan noon. This time I
wanna be a part of her pregnancy from the start til she give birth. And I'm so
excited to see my new creation, my baby. I can't wait for that moment to come soon.

Madalas ang kwento niya about Nathan's progress hanggang makarating kami sa Pizza
Parlor. Hiniram ni Mom at Dad si Nathan sa mansyon at halos araw-araw na lang.
Namimiss nila ang panganay na apong lalaki. Gusto din nila itong bumawi ng
atensyon. Syempre matalino at makulit na bata ang anak ko kaya aliw na aliw sila.
Dagdagan pa sa kakulitan ni Yesha, subrang colorful na ang mansyon ngayon dahil sa
saya. Umaarangkada na rin si Yullo. So everyone is happy for the kids.

Nagtake out lamang kami dahil ayaw daw niya ng maraming tao sa palibot habang
kumakain.

"Saan tayo deretso ngayon?"

I asked when I started driving.

"Sa office mo. Gusto ko dun while your working."

She open the box and start eating. I never bothered to ask her anymore. Dahil
engrossed ito sa kanyang pizza. Nangamoy na ang buong sasakyan sa flavored nito.
Pasulyap sulyap lamang ako sa kanya. Umuungol pa ito sa feeling niyang subrang
sarap. Hindi man lang ako niyayang kumain. Wala sa sariling natatawa at naiiling na
lamang ako sa lahat ng reaksyon niya sa tuwing sumusubo.

Dumating kami sa opisina na nakatingin ang halos karamihan. Namamangha at

nasisiyahan silang nagmamasid sa asawa ko.

I feel proud. Syempre she's my wife and I love her seeing that, carrying our baby
with her unique tantrums and cravings even though it's stressful. But happy.

**

Pauwi na ako when someone caught my eyes. I can't be wrong. He's Lucky Manzania at
may kasama itong babae. Ang nag-iisang lalaki ni Congressman Manzania na may
malaking issue sa pulitika ngayon. I also found out in my own investigation that
he's father found gambling in Vegas few months ago. Nung hindi pa kami nagkita ng
asawa ko.

Kaya halos umatras na ang mga gustong mag-invest sa negosyo nila. They're family
was facing bankruptcy now.

I clenched my jaw when I saw them kissing publicly. Dahil naisip ko na kung hindi
ako nagpursigeng makuha ang asawa ko ay may posibilidad na mapupunta siya sa
lalaking yon na walang kwenta.

A happy go lucky man. Saka ko lang nalaman na schoolmate ko pala siya sa Harvard.
Nung naghired ako ng investigator para malaman ang background niya ay nalaman ko
ang lahat. Hindi naman kasi siya nag-eexist sa Harvard noon. He was just a typical
student. Not literally na 'no brain' dahil di ka naman makakapasok ng Harvard kung
wala kang utak. Pero napapabilang lamang siya sa isang ordinary students there.
Unlike us na may ibinubuga. But still he's different dahil masyado siyang mayabang
pagdating sa mga babae.

I shake my head off. Buti na lang at binalikan ako ng asawa ko without a single
thought. Kundi baka mauto niya ito.

Nagising ang diwa ko when someone calling my phone.

"Hello."

It was Servo. Bakit kaya tumawag ang kumag na ito?

"Hi kuya. I just want to ask if you could come to our outreach program? Do you want
to be one of the volunteers?"
Napangiti ako. Siguro siya ang pinasama ni Yvo papuntang Lanao. I am busy with the
new project kaya tumanggi akong magvolunteer. At isa pa my wife needs my full
attention because of the baby.

"Servo. I think it's time for you to get matured and hands on of the
responsibilities in our company. Simpleng bagay lang yan."

I heard he snorted on the other line.

"But Kuya. It can't be---

"No, you go. Stop declining. It's just a short little time. Grow up man! Tutal
single ka naman."

"Fine!"

Agad akong binabaan ng tawag. My brother needs discipline. We've been pampering him
for everything through all these years. I guess it's time for him to move out his
shell for being happy go lucky guy and start doing his roles as one of the Zamora.
Si Yael nakapag-asawa na last year and his wife now is carrying their first baby.
Si Nicholas ay happily married na rin with his twin children and his lovely wife
Chasity. Si Johann ay accidentally married the unknown woman he met in Dubai. I
don't know what's the real score but I know magiging successful ang marriage niya
sa nakikita kong pagiging overprotective nito sa asawa.

About Max and Darren I think may ginagawa silang kababalaghan ngayon. Not sure. My
bachelors cousin were now found their other half. And I'm happy to all of them.

**

Zea POV

May party kaming dadaluhan ni Nathaniel tonight. Ewan, sabi niya opening daw ng
katatapos na hotel ng Demizticus family.

I should wear this red evening gown. Conservative type din pero elegante tingnan.
Ang asawa ko talaga, seloso at possessive kaya siya mismo namili ng isusuot ko.

"Hon, halata na ba ang tyan ko?"

Naitanong ko habang itinatapat ang damit sa salamin. Hinihintay ko ang make up

artist na magpapaganda sa akin ngayon. No other than, my bestfriend Carla.

"No. You still looks sexy Honey."

Nakangiti nitong pahayag. Sabagay mag-three months pa naman ang tyan ko kaya hindi
pa talaga halata.

"Hmmm..talaga? So you mean marami pang titingin sa akin nito?"

Umasim ang mukha nito sa tanong ko. What's wrong with it?

"I won't let you leave by my side. I don't want someone will swoon over you."

Mariing pagkakasabi nito. Nais kong matawa sa pagiging seryoso niya. But I know my
husband so well. Possessive talaga ito at seloso pa. Well, sometimes nakakaflatter
din yong ipinapakita niyang damdamin o nararamdaman. Yon bang he's afraid to lose
me. Yong over care niya and affection. Yong efforts. Basta.
I smiled widely to him tapos hinalikan ang tungki ng kanyang ilong sabay lambitin.

"Bakit kaya nung kay Nathan kaytagal kong nabuntis? Pero ngayon kaybilis naman
diba?"

Tinitigan niya ako tapos lumanghap ng hangin. Naalala na naman siguro nito ang
pagkakamali noon.

"I think our baby now develop the first I touched you after the long four years."

Namula ang pisngi ko sa sinabi niya dahil nung time na galit na galit ako sa
pagapadala nito ng summon ay yun din ang time na bumigay ako sa kanya. Nung time na
sinugod ko siya sa opisina.

"So what are you trying to say?"

He smiled teasingly. I knew that kind of smile. I snob.

"It only means our hormones are compatible in rush hours para makabuo ng baby."

He winked. Mas lalong nagsalubong ang kilay ko sa sinabi niya.

Rush hour? That...quickie?

Oh. Napakalandi talaga ng asawa ko. Walang hiya! Saka ko lamang naintindihan ang
sinabi niya. Umaandar talaga ang kapilyuhan niya kapag malapit na ang oras ng mga
important occasions or mga lakad. Ang pilyo lang talaga.

"Stop it Nathaniel. Nakapagbihis na ako. And few minutes more dadating na si

Carla."

Pinandilatan ko siya ng mga mata. He threw his head and laugh. Sinapak ko ang
balikat niya. Nakakainis talaga. Asarin ba naman ako!

Maya-maya dumating na si Carla at panay ang puri nito sa aming bahay. Ngayon pa
lamang kasi ito nakapasok sa aming kwarto. At iilang beses na rin ito nakapasok sa
mansyon noon but not this masters bedroom.

Panay ang kwentuhan namin habang inaayusan niya ako.

"Kumusta na yong plano mong magtayo ng salon?"

Naitanong niya habang ginagawa ang hairdo.

"Nawalan na ako ng gana Carl. Ayoko ng kumpetensyahan pa ang negosyo mo."

Nagtawanan kami sa biro ko. Actually noon I planned to build that kind of business.
But unexpectedly naghiwalay kami ng asawa ko. And I fell in love in baking and
making pastries. Even Carla knows about it. Our communication remain constant when
I was in New York.

Pati siya ay nagulat sa biglaan naming pagbabalikan.

"Oh ayan magandang maganda kana! You look ravishing tonight."

I turn around in front of the mirror happily. I am satisfied. Carla really knows
how to make me feel good and look more beautiful.
**

"You look stunning dear wife."

My husband was staring at me seductively. Sa tonong nang-aakit nito ay alam kong

nagmamadali na namang matapos ang event na ito para mamayang gabi. I rolled my eyes
heavenwards. Alam kong humihirit lang ito. He laughed again.

This is an opening of new hotel ng mga Demizticus. I saw Chasity holding her baby,
malapit na rin itong mag-isang taon at dahil kambal ito, nakahawak din si Nicholas
sa baby girl nila. I smiled seeing them like that. Lalong lalo na sa part ni
Nicholas. I can't imagined na nakikita ko siya sa ganung ayos. His manly and
dominant aura before as a sole heir of Demizticus was turn into a loving father
now. He change a lot. I mean a lot. He's fatherhood aura was in his whole system
now.

There I saw Ella and Yvo with their two lovely children. A happy family.

"Ano ang iniisip mo at panay ang ngiti mo dyan?"

He snapped out of my trance. Bigla akong napatingin sa gawi niya. Ngumiti ako.

"Wala. I saw Ella kasi with her two kids. Tas si Nicholas din. Ang cute ng mga
babies nila."

"Mommy! I want a twin sister and brother too."

Nagtawanan kami ni Nathaniel sa sinabi ng anak ko. Nasa kandungan niya ito at lage
itong nakamasid sa palibot. Nagtataka itong nakatingin sa aming pinagtawanan siya.

"Nathan.. It's not that easy as that. Pero malay natin, baka kambal ang dinadala ng
Mommy mo ngayon."

Kinindatan niya ang anak at namimilog naman mga mata nitong ngumiti sa ama.
Napailing iling na lamang akong nakamasid sa kanila.

Nagbulungan ang mga ito pagkatapos ay nag high five. Ano na naman kaya ang pinag-
usapan ng mga ito? Ang asawa ko talaga pati anak namin sinasali sa kalokohan.

Nahagip ng mga mata ko ang pamilyar na taong nakatingin sa akin sa may kalayuan.

"Lucky.."

I murmured. Saglit lamang yon at agad ding umalis. I stood up. Gusto ko siyang
makausap. Gusto ko lamang siyang kumustahin.

"Hon sandali lang hah? I'll just go to the rest room."

"Gusto mo samahan kita?"

Lumitaw ang mapuputi at pantay-pantay nitong ngipin. Again, umaandar na naman ang
kapilyuhan nito.

Pinandilatan ko siya ng mga mata at umimpit lamang ito ng tawa. Napatingin tuloy sa
amin ang magkabilaang mesa.

Ahay. Naughty talaga ang husband ko. Nakangiti pa ako habang tinatahak ang daan
kung saan tumungo si Lucky.
Garden ang napuntahan ko. I saw him na nakaupo sa bench na nakayuko at seryosong
seryoso ang itsura nito. Nasa likod nito ang fountain. I scanned around

I sighed.

"Lucky."

Dahan dahan itong lumingon sa akin. Nagtama ang mga mata namin. Stress is visible
in his deep brown eyes. Namumugto ang mga mata nito na animo'y ilang beses nagpuyat
sa gabi. Nanlalalim din ang eyebags nito.

"Zea you know how much I love you. Sa ilang taon nating pagkakaibigan..minahal mo
rin ba ako?"

He swallowed hard. I was stunned for a moment. Nakikiusap ang mga tinig nito.
Nakaramdam ako ng awa. Sinubukan ko siyang mahalin. The more I push myself to love
him is the more I fell in deception. I don't want to delude myself for a wrong
decisions.

"Luck, you know I did.. But hanggang kaibigan lang talaga ang nararamdaman ko para
sayo. I'm sorry.."

I shook my head. Narinig ko ang mabigat na pagbuga niya ng hangin.

"Mahal kita.. mahal na mahal. Sana hindi mo na lang ako pinaasa."

Nag-angat ako ng ulo para tingnan siya. Napamaang ako. Kailanman ay hindi ko siya
pinaasa. He comb his hair in a rough manner. Halatang iritado ito.

"I never give you false hope, Luck. Alam mo yan. Hindi kita pinaasa."

His eyes was snapped with anger. Kinutuban ako. He stood up at mariing nakatingin
sa akin.

"Well, kung hindi ka magiging akin ako ang gagawa ng paraan para maging akin ka."

He sounds desperate. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko. He smiled pitilessly. And fears
overwhelm me. I stepped backward and I was about to run when he caught my arm at
agad na tinakpan ang bibig ko ng kung anong bagay na may nakakahilong amoy.

No! My mind shouted in despair.

Umikot ang paningin ko kasabay ng pagdidilim. The last thing entered in my mind was
prayer..for me and especially the baby inside my womb...

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Part of Me and You

(Kabanata 53)

See there's a place in me where your finger prints still rest, your kisses still
lingers, and your whispers softly echo. It's the place where a part of you will
forever be a part of me.

-Unknown_

***

Jamie POV (Unedited)

"Huwag kayong titigil hangga't hindi niyo nahahanap ang asawa ko. Damn!"

Galit na galit kong utos sa mga pulis. Dahil according sa witness, may babae daw na
binuhat ng isang lalaki at sinakay sa isang SUV. Hindi daw niya nakuha ang plate
number dahil she thought na baka nahilo lang daw yong babae at isinakay lamang sa
sasakyan para saklolohan. Hindi daw niya nakita ang mukha pero base na rin sa
sinabing diskrepsyon, alam kong yon ang asawa ko. Ang sout nitong red gown, at
heels ay yon ang makakapagpatunay. And when I saw the CCTV footage, hindi ako
nagkamali. Si Mr. Lucky Manzania who kidnapped my wife. At ipinapangako ko,
dudurugin ko ang mga buto niya kapag nakita ko siya. Lintek lang ang walang ganti.

Plus, she's missing six hours now. Restroom lang yong paalam niya at kung alam ko
lang na envited pala ang lalaking yon dito, hindi ko na hinayaan ang asawa na mag-
isa.

Goodness! Pakiramdam ko mamamatay ako sa kakaisip kung okay lang ba siya, hindi ba
siya napahamak o kung ano ang ginawa ni Lucky sa kanya. I swear I will kill him for
abducting my wife! Shit! Sh*t! I clenched my fist remembering the face of that
asshole. I gritted my teeth in anger. Hindi na ako makapagtimpi ngayon.

"Fvck! Why did you envite him!? You know he doesn't belong here."

I exclaimed at Nicholas. He took a deep breath before he speak.

"I'm sorry Jamie, but his father who I envite. Pero hindi ko naman alam na siya
pala ang ipapadadala ni Uncle Rad as a substitute guest. Besides, I don't know
anything about your rivalry towards Zea. At least you told me pero..."

Yumuko ito at alam ko kung gaano siya kadismaya sa pangyayari ngayon. The grand
opening of their newest hotel, was a time na may naganap na abduction and the worst
is, it's my wife who kidnapped with that asshole. My one and only wife. Sa naisip,
ay bumalik na naman ang poot sa dibdib ko. Hindi ko malaman ang gagawin. Hindi ko
alam kung dapat ko bang kasuklaman ang sariling katangahan at masyado akong naging
kumpyansa na walang mananangkang masama sa pamilya ko.

Lumapit si Chasity at inalo ang asawa sa matinding frustrations. Kinuha niya si

Nathan sa akin kanina nang magkagulo na at siya ang nagpaasang sa kanya muna ang
pangangalaga nito. Sumang-ayon naman agad ako dahil kung sa mga lolo't lola siya
nito ay baka mapansin niyang may kakaiba at malamang nawawala ang mommy niya.
Ayokong pati anak ko ay magkaroon ng takot o trauma sa pangyayari ngayon. Masyado
pa siyang bata para makaranas nang ganitong depression.

"I swear I will kill that bastard! Shit!"

Narinig kong bungat ni Nicholas. Bagaman sa isang di inaasahang pangyayari ay nag-

aalala din ito sa kapakanan ng asawa ko. Everyone knows she's pregnant. And
everyone was depressing here.
"Oh God, ilayo sana ang anak ko sa kapahamakan. Diyos ko, Edward.. "

My mother in law is crying at his shoulder's husband. Galit at pag-aalala din ang
nararamdaman ni Dad Eddie. Si Mommy Regina ay nahilo at agad namang iniuwi ni Dad
para makapagpahinga. Nakipagtulungan na kami sa pamilya Manzania. Pati ang mga
magulang nito ay hindi makapaniwala at kasalukuyan silang nasa U.S. para sa
pagpapagamot ng asawa nitong may breast cancer. Binayaran namin ang media na huwag
munang ilabas ang balitang ito until 24 hours dahil baka maalarma si Lucky at
tuluyang ilayo ang asawa ko.

"Hinding hindi ko siya lulubayan hangga't hindi ko siya nakikitang naglalapusay sa

hirap sa ginawa niya sa anak ko. Makita ko lamang ang pagmumukha ng bastardong
yon."

Nagpipigil sa galit na wika ni Dad. Naglakad ako palayo sa mga tao. Gusto kong
mapag-isa para makapag-isip ng plano. Hindi ko rin matawagan ang asawa dahil nasa
akin yong purse niya nang magpaalam ito na tutungo ng restroom. Wala siyang dala
maliban sa sarili niya nang makidnap ito ng gagong yon.

"What are you thinking kuya?"

Bigla akong napalingon sa likod nang marinig ang boses ni Mica. Kakauwi lang nito
galing Paris at problema agad ang nadatnan.

"I have to get back my wife. And no one can stop me."

I answered with great determination. Hindi ko hahayaang may mangyari sa kanya na

wala akong ginagawa. Humarap ako sa kawalan. Madaling araw na at malapit ng mag-
umaga pero di parin ako nakakaramdam ng antok.

I heard my sister's blew a heavy air. I know she easily can catch me up. Kaya siya
ang madalas na nagpapakalma sa akin noon when we were in states kapag inaabot ako
ng topak.

"Are you gonna do that again?"

She asked and I slowly turn my head on her. Nagkatinginan muna kami ng matagal.

"Of course. Kung nagawa ko nga sa iba noon, bakit ngayon hindi? Asawa ko ang
involve dito."

Buo na ang loob ko. Before, I was about to train under CIA but when my Dad found it
hindi niya ako pinayagan. My parents don't want a risky life. Dati I wanna be a
meschenary, I want thrill in my life. I wanna be a soldier or anythig basta may
adventures at buhis buhay. Pero ayoko ring madagdagan ang pasanin ni Mommy. May
sakit ito at ayokong lage siyang naninerbyos nang dahil sa akin. Kaya inihinto ko.
And focus in our family business. But before I quit with my dreams, nagkaroon ako
misyon na magligtas ng taong kinidnap ng mga terrorist. Isang big timer ang
nasangkot sa abduction at lageng nasa pahayagan ang pangyayaring yon. It was in all
media around the world because of that powerful man na nakidnap. It's not that
inutusan ako ng mga awtoridad but I did it because it was my Dad's buddy. Na-solve
ko yun kaya nag-offer sa akin ang CIA to train and be a part of their team. I was
suppose to do that pero nalaman yon nila ni Dad and Mom, dahil na rin sa mga
sources kaya hindi ko na itinuloy. At ibinuhos ko na lamang ang frustratuions sa
different kinds of martial arts. And everyone feared me because of my ability pero
nawala yon nang maag-lie low ako at naglakbay sa isang lugar dahil ayokong makilala
ako ng matagalan. And then, after many years unti-unting nailibing sa limot ang
bagay na yon. At binayaran ni Daddy ang media na ihinto at tigilan ako sa publicity
coz they want a simple life for me.

But now. Ililigtas ko ang asawa ko sa alam kong paraan. Wala man akong karapatan na
ilagay ang batas sa mga kamay pero hindi ako uupo at titingin na lamang sa tabi at
maghihintay na may mangyaring masama sa asawa ko. No way.

"Kuya, ayoko lang maging complicated ang lahat at maging risky ang buhay mo."

May pag-aalala nitong sabi. Humugot ako ng hangin bago nagsalita. Damn.

"Lucky isn't risky, Mica. Isa lamang siyang pipitsuging ipis na kaya kong tirisin
kung kinakailangan. Wala siyang maipagmamayabang maliban sa luging-lugi na nilang
negosyo. You know who I am. Isang bigatin at matinik na terorista nga na kaya kong
lusutan noon. And who the hell he is para hindi ko kayang labanan? Besides, alam mo
kung gaano kakupad ang mga pulis dito sa Pilipinas. And I don't wanna wait here
like idiot na iniisip ang kalagayan ng asawa ko. Hindi matatapos ang petsa na ito
na hindi ko siya nakikita. And that bastard will pay hard. I swear."

I said grimly. Strong emotions were visible in my eyes. She knows how determained I
am kaya alam nito na useless lamang na pigilan niya ako.

Natulala na lamang siya sa sinabi ko. At hindi ko na hinintay na magsalita pa siya

at agad na akong umalis pagkatapos ko sabihin ang bagay na yon. Hindi naman sa
nagmamayabang ako pero nagkamali talaga si Mr. Manzania ng taong kinalaban.
Determinado ako sa gagawin ko. Hindi ako papayag na may mangyaring masama sa asawa
ko at mapano ang dinadala nito.

**

"I will help you, Jamie."

Napamaang akong napatingin kay Yvo. Seryoso ang mukha nito at bakas sa mga mata
nito ang tibay ng pagtulong. He's against with my habbit before and what I did few
years ago ay hindi talaga approve sa kanya. But now he's willing to help. I shook
my head and continue packing those things na pwede kong magamit sa gagawing
hakbang.

"Si Mica talaga hindi mapigilan ang bunganga."

Napailing-iling kong sabi, hindi na naman ito nakakapagpigil at nagsumbong na naman

sa dakila niyang kuya. He chuckled softly.

"I understand you, brother. May asawa din ako, may mga anak at naranasan ko na rin
yan noon. LIke you, I cant be able to wait without doing an actions. Kaya, what
your decisions and plans now, kasali ako. Your my brother, you have to remember
that."

Direkta akong napatingin sa kanya. He's serious about it. I remember the time na
hinatak ni Stacey si Ella, hinostage habang pinaapandar ang sasakyan at nahulog ang
kotse nito sa tulay. Buti na lang malalim ang dagat at nahulog lamang ang asawa
nito palabas ng kotse, hindi na napuruhan. And his wife was carrying two months of
their second baby that time. I really believe in guardian angels and prayers, dahil
survivor si Ella. Nagawa nitong makaligtas pati ang kanilang baby. Kasama ko pa si
Yvo nun noong hinahabol namin ang kotseng sinasakyan nila ni Stacey. To think about
my wife. I knew her, she's emotional and naive. Iyakin at dependent kaya malabong
makatakas yon sa kamay ng hudas na yon.

I smiled. Part of me still breathe and half dying of weariness.

"Thank you Yvo. I owe you for that."

Tumango ito at tinapik ako sa balikat. Now, mas lalo lamang akong nabuhayan ng loob
sa gagawin.

**

Zea POV

Kanina pa ako nagising at nag-iisa lamang ako sa abandonadong bahay na ito. Hindi
naman ako nakatali at kahit anong gawin kong pagtakas ay hindi ako makalabas.
Masyadong close doors at matigas ang mga kahoy na nakaharang. Wala man lang konting
giwang. May bintana at bakal ang mga rehas doon. Namamaos na ako sa kakasigaw pero
wala man lang sumaklolo. I think nasa kalagitnaan ako ng kagubatan dahil wala man
lang akong marinig na mga boses ng tao o bosena ng mga sasakyan sa labas. Isang
nakakabinging katahimikan ang bumabalot sa palibot. Napatingin ako sa wristwatch.
It's six in the morning at nag-uumpisa na ang sikat ng araw.

Mangiyak ngiyak na akong nakaupo sa tabi ng matigas na kamang ito. Huli kong
naalala na myay itinakip si Lucky sa akin bago ako nawalan ng malay.

"Ang gagong yon! Akala ko pa naman napakabuti niyang kaibigan. Pero tatraydurin din
pala ako ng ganito."

Kinakausap ko ang sarili ko upang maibsan itong nararamdamang takot at kaba. Saka
ko naisip na may dinadala pala ako. I touch my slightly bumb belly.

"Baby, hold on ka lang kay Mommy huh? Ililigtas din tayo ng Daddy mo at
pagsisisihan mo ito Lucky."

I murmured bitterly. I was trying to relieve my fear and weariness pero

nakakaramdam na ako ng takot. Hindi para sa akin kundi para sa batang dinadala ko
ngayon. Hindi ko pa man siya naipapanganak ay nararanasan na niya ang bagay na ito.

I prayed solemnly. Ito lamang ang makakatulong sa akin ngayon. I cried softly. Ano
na ang mangyayari sa akin ngayon? Kumusta kaya ang asawa ko at si Nathan? Tiyak na
nag-aalala na ang pamilya ko sa akin ngayon. Marahan kong pinahid ang luhang
dumadaloy sa pisngi. I hugged my knees. I felt weak. Dahil siguro ito sa naamoy
kong pampahilo. I know it's not healthy for my baby pero ipinagdadasal ko na sana
okay lang siya sa sinapupunan ko. At ano kaya ang plano ni Lucky sa akin? Bakit
niya kaya nagawa niya sa akin ang bagay na ito? Sinayang niya lang ang
pagkakaibigan namin at tiwala ko sa kanya. Napakawalang hiya niyang kaibigan.
Mahina akong napahikbi. Muli kong naalala ang asawa at kung gaano niya ako kamahal.
Tama lang na pinili ko siya at binalikan dahil hinding hindi ko yon pagsisisihan.
And Lucky will pay for this, big time!

Nabuhayan ako ng pag-asa ng maisip ang asawa. Hindi ako pababayaan ng asawa ko
dito. He will save me.

I know he will......

***please READ, VOTE and SHARE if you like the story***

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Friendship
(Kabanata 54)

Lost and confused. Don't know which way to turn. Voices tell me I should go.
Friends tell me I should stay. I'm lost.

-unknown -

**

Zea POV (unedited )

Nagising ako nang biglang bumukas ang pinto. Agad akong napatayo. Nakatulog pala
akong nakaupo sa may corner ng kwartong ito.

Umakyat ang dugo ko sa ulo nang makita ang pagmumukha ng lalaking ito.

"Hayop ka Lucky! Ano ba ang kasalanan ko sayo para gawin mo sa akin ang bagay na
ito?!"

Galit na galit kong bulyaw sa kanya habang ito ay blangkong nakatitig sa akin. Kung
hindi lamang ako nagdadalang tao ay kanina ko pa siya sinugod at pinagsasampal at
pinagsusuntok. He sighed and looked away.

"This is just the only way na maging akin ka, Zea."

Mariin nitong sabi. He's sounds so desperate. And the more it scares me. But..
There's something in my heart feels pity for him. Hindi ko naman siya pinaasa o
pinangakuan. Hindi ko alam kung anong nagtulak sa kanya na gawin ang bagay na ito.
I calm myself and I wanna talk to him like before. Baka sakaling maawa siya sa akin
at pakawalan ako.

"Lucky alam mong hindi kita mahal. Please let me go. Hindi rin kita kayang mahalin.
Huwag mo ng ipilit."

Nakikiusap ako sa kanya. Maybe madala siya sa masinsinang usapan. He's facial
expression still the same. Andun ang katigasan ng itsura nito. And I bet itutuloy
niya kung ano man ang plano niya sa akin.

"No. I made up my mind. Sa akin ka lang Zea. Ako ang magdidesisyon sa bagay na
yon."

Napailing iling ako. Normal pa ba ang pag-iisip ng lalaking ito? He's fooling
himself.

"Lucky hindi kita mahal! Naiintindihan mo ba ang bagay na yon?"

Mangiyak ngiyak kong sigaw sa kanya. Oh my God! He's crazy. What he said was
terribly out of his mind. He smiled pitilessly. Yong ngiting walang takot at awa.
He's devil.

"Zea. Alam ko naman na hindi mo ako mahal eh kaya nga ginawa ko ang bagay na ito."

Tuluyan akong napahagulhol sa palad. Hindi na siya ang Lucky na nakilala at

kaibigan ko.

"Oh my God! Lucky your crazy. Bakit ka ba nagkakaganito? Alam mong hindi kita
pinaasa. Sa umpisa pa lang sinabihan na kitang mahal ko parin ang asawa ko."

I cried helplessly. Dahan dahan akong naupo at humagulhol sa palad.

"Zea sawang sawa na ako maging talunan! Your husband is an idiot! He thinks he is
the best man in the world! And has everything for you and still he's the lucky
bastard 'til now. Ano bang meron sa kanya na wala ako Zea huh? Kung pagmamahal
lang, alam mong mahal na mahal kita. Dahil ba mayaman siya? Dahil ba mas gwapo
siya---"

"Wala Lucky! Walang meron sa kanya maliban na lang na mahal na mahal niya ako at
ganun din ako sa kanya!"

I suddenly blurted out. I stood up and wiped my tears roughly. Habang tumatagal ang
diskusyon na ito ay mas lalong umaalsa ang galit at poot ang nararamdaman ko sa
kanya. I looked at him fiercely. Natameme siya sa sinabi ko.

"Alam mo kung bakit hindi kita kayang mahalin? Dahil nagmamahal na ako ng iba na
higit pa sayo at sa lahat ng bagay. And it proves me now. Dapat lang na hindi kita
mahalin dahil masama kang tao Lucky! I don't deserve someone like you!"

Nagulat ako nang bigla niyang pinagsusuntok ang dingding ng malakas. I paused for a
while. The intense anger flooded in the air. Sumigaw ito at umiyak. Dumudugo na ang
kanyang mga kamao sa paulit ulit na pagsuntok sa hard wood wall. I was stunned for
a moment. Carried away na ako sa galit, I know he's hurting but that's the truth.
Kailangan niyang marinig ang katotohanan para matauhan siya.

"Zea galit ako dahil lage na lamang akong bigo. Your husband was my biggest
competitor in Harvard before. Pati ba naman sa puso mo ganun din."

He trailed off. Hindi ko siya maintindihan. Punong puno ng pait ang tinig nito. He
comb his hair roughly and napahilamos ito sa kanyang palad. Natigilan lamang ako.
Inaatake na naman ako ng awa.

"The first time I saw you, alam kong tinamaan na ako sayo. Hindi ako nagkaroon ng
chance na mas makilala pa kita. Nabalitaan ko na lang na may asawa kana. And it was
him. My rival in everything. I tried to focus anything at ipagwalang bahala na
lang. Pero nabigyan ako ng pag-asa nang makita kita ulit at hiwalay ka sa kanya.
Naghintay ako ng ilang taon para mapawalang bisa yong kasal niyo at mabigyan ako ng
pagkakataon na mahalin ka at matutunan mo akong mahalin pero... wala eh.. bumalik
ka parin sa kanya."

Bitterness, frustrations and failure was in his voice. I shook my head. Hindi ko
alam na ganun na pala ang inaasam niya noon pa. Pero kung nagmamahal siya
nagmamahal lang din naman ako.

"Lucky huwag mo sayangin ang buhay mo sa mga bagay na hindi para sayo. If you love
me you have to set me free and be happy. Luck, bata ka pa naman. Marami pang
nagmamahal sayo. Makakakita ka pa ng babaeng mamahalin ka ng buong-buo. Hindi ako
yon Lucky. Please you have to understand and accept the truth. I'm married.
Nagmamahalan kami ng asawa ko. May anak kami at magkakaanak na ulit. Kaibigan kita.
Handa akong tulungan ka ano man ang problema mo ngayon. Huwag mo sanang sirain ang
pinagsamahan natin."

Sa mahinahon at nakikiusap kong tinig. Hindi ito umimik. Nakatingin ito sa kawalan
at tila nag-iisip.

"I'm sorry kung nasaktan man kita o kung umasa ka man. I know your a good man Luck.
Sana maisip mo rin na kaibigan kita at handa akong damayan ka."

He cried softly of what he heard from me. I don't know that he's emotional when it
comes to this. Ang mapagbiro at maingay niyang personality ay may soft spot pala
tulad nito. Sana lang maunawaan niya ako at pakawalan ako dito. Alam kong hindi
niya ako kayang saktan physically but I'm aware na desperado siyang tao.

I just hope he wouldn't do anything wrong to me and to our friendship.

**

Lucky POV

Lahat ng sinabi niya ay totoo. Mas lalo lamang akong maging talunan kapag itinuloy
ko ito. My plan was to escape at isama si Zea sa abroad. Yong malayong malayo sa
Pilipinas. Kung pwede lang manirahan sa Alaska gagawin ko makasama lang siya. Pero
mali. We can't be happy dahil hindi niya ako mahal.

What have I've done?

This is all wrong. Wala akong mahihita kundi ang kamuhian ako ni Zea habang buhay
kapag itinuloy ko ito. Surely his husband would do everything makuha lang ang asawa
nito. I admit Jamie has everything, wealth and power. He has a lot of connections.
Siguradong papatayin ako kapag nalaman niyang kinidnap ko ang asawa niya. Aside
from that, hahabulin ako ng batas. I almost forgot that Chiongbian and Zamora
family were powerful in our industry at sa lahat ng bagay.

I sighed.

"Luck.. please let me go home. Iuwi mo na ako. And I promise hindi kita isusuplong
sa mga pulis. Walang makakaalam. Pakikiusapan ko ang asawa ko na huwag ka niyang
ipakulong. Please.."

I looked at her pleading. She's pregnant at nakakaawa din kung pahirapan ko siya.

I shook my head. I smiled bitterly. I'm lost. Napailing iling ako sa pagkabigo..

"I'm sorry Zea.. I'm so sorry."

Nakayuko kong paghingi ng tawad. Zea didn't deserves this. Hindi ko dapat ginawa
ito sa kanya.

Naramdaman ko na lang ang mainit niyang pagyakap sa akin. And I end up crying.
***please READ, VOTE if you like the story.**-

The Rescue

(Kabanata 55)

There are only two ways to live your life. One is as though nothing is a miracle.
The other is as though everything is a miracle.

-Albert Einstein---

**

Jamie POV

Location has been set. I accidentally trace him dahil naka-open ang GPS nito. At
hinahanda ko na ang sarili patungo sa mabanaag na lugar.

"Are you ready?"

I asked Yvo who were at my back preparing himself to attack. He's serious and
anytime this moment, makakarating na kami sa papuntahan. We already cooperate these
to the police. They're just waiting for the confirmation. At nakahanda na rin ang
mga ito sa pagsalakay.

"As ready as hell, Jamie."

Game nitong sagot. I chuckle. But my heart skipped a beat kapag napapaisip ako sa
asawa.

Tumunog ang cellphone ni Yvo kaya nagtataka nitong sinagot. He wasn't expected any
calls from anyone base on his face.

"Hello? .. what!? Kindly repeat what you said."

He took a long pause, and I frown looking at him.

"What! Is that true? How the hell it happened? Any related and sources
information?.. Oh my! Okay I'll call right away after this important transaction."

Nagbuga ito ng mabigat na hangin pagkatapos ibaba ang tawag. Napakunot noo akong
nakatingin sa kanya.

"Something problem?"

I've got worried right away. Huwag naman sana related ito sa problema ng pamilya
ko.

"Yeah, Sev is missing. It's been two days na nang mawala ito."

Napamaang ako. Last two days ago, tumawag pa ito bago bumyahe papuntang Lanao. And
he's missing?
"How did it happen?"

I asked wearily. He sighed.

"Bimby said, ibinaba niya ito sa isang kabihasnan dahil may bibilhin ito at nangako
itong susunod. Whole day was been long for the program pero hindi daw ito
nakasunod. Kinabukasan ganun pa din. They're been searching him for the whole time,
pero sabi ng mga nakakita sa kanya at nakahalubilo niya ay nakita nila itong
sumakay ng bus at two thirty or 3pm right that day na napgpaiwan siya kay Bimby.
Hindi daw ito macontact coz they have no signal of smart phone there. Until now,
nakikibalita parin sila."

Mas lalo yatang sumakit ang ulo ko sa narinig na bad news. Nakidnap na ang asawa ko
and our younger brother is missing. I just hope nasa mabuti itong kalagayan. I comb
my hair in a frustrated manner.

"After this mess, aasikasuhin agad natin si Sev."

Desidido kong sabi. Nagbuntong hininga lamang si Yvo at alam kong problematic ito
sa karagdagang impormasyon.

What was happening in our family was total distraction. At nakakabahala. This is
all frustrating.

I clenched my jaw as I remember that bastard. Tiyak na manghihiram ito ng mukha sa

aso kapag nakita ko siya.

**

Zea POV

Inaayos ko na ang sarili dahil sa matagal naming masinsinang pag-uusap ay

nagdesisyon itong ibabalik ako sa pamilya. Pero medyo natagalan pa dahil kumain pa
ako. Dinalhan niya pala ako ng pagkain at umiiyak pa itong humihingi ng tawad. I
already forgave him, tutal hindi niya naman ako sinaktan. Isa pa, narealize naman
niya ang malaking pagkakamali. I wasn't that hard person. And were friends. Malaki
lang talaga ang insecurity niya sa sarili.

"Luck, tara na. Baka maabutan tayo ng gabi sa byahe."

Malayo pa naman ang byahe sa Pangasinan papuntang Manila. Tumango ito at binigyan
ako ng jacket na maisusuot.

"Hmm.. maglalakad pa tayo sa gitna ng mga damuhan bago makarating sa road?"

"Oo, andun ang kotse ko. Mga 150 meters away pa before we can reach there."

"Ah okay."

Pero medyo masama ang pakiramdam ko. I had this feeling that there might happen
something wrong in this hours.

"Are you okay?"

He asked in a weary. I just nodded at hinawakan niya ang kamay ko while walking at
this narrow way. Kaya pala hindi nakapasok ang sasakyan dito dahil makipot ang
daanan at hindi even yong surface.
"Kaninong lupain to dito?"

Curious kong tanong. Napakalawak kasi at pakiramdam ko isa tong rancho.

"Kay Tito Sam. Actually rancho 'to dati but they chose to live in States. So naiwan
ito sa pangangalaga namin. Nahinto ito dahil na rin sa kawalan ng time management."

Tumango tango lamang ako. Kaya pala napakalawak ng area. May farming din naman kasi
kami sa Bacolod at rancho kaya alam ko ito.

"Malapit na tayo Zea. Konting lakad na lang. Pagod ka na ba?"

"Hindi naman. Huwag mo akong alalahanin. Okay lang talaga ako."

May natatanaw ako sa kalayuan. Parang may mga sasakyan. Yun na nga siguro ang main
road. Biglang huminto si Lucky at humigpit ang kapit nito sa kamay ko.

"Luck? Bakit?"

Nagtataka kung tanong. Namutla ito at nakaramdam ng takot. Nakatingin ito sa may
kalayuan.

"May mga pulis. Zea ayoko pang makulong. Paano nangyari 'to? Wala naman akong
pinagsabihan dito."

I sighed. Hindi ko rin siya gustong makulong. I'll deny na nakidnap niya ako if
magkakaroon ng interrogation. I took a glance at the main road. Matataas kasi ang
talahiban dito kaya hindi ko naaninag kanina.

"You know maraming sources, Luck. Trust me you won't get in jail. Ako ang bahala
sayo. Halika na."

Mga pulis pala yong nakahilerang sasakyan sa may kalayuan. Siguro nga na-trace na
kami. Besides kagabi pa ako nawawala. Tiyak na ipinapahanap talaga ako ng pamilya
ko. Nanatiling nakatayo lamang si Luck. Nararamdaman ko ang panlalamig sa mga kamay
niya. Pinagpapawisan na siya sa takot. Pero hindi lang niya masyado ipinapahalata.

"Zea..."

He's scared and worried. Pinisil ko ang kamay niya.

"Don't worry. It's gonna be okay. I promise."

We move slowly. At maraming mga nakahilerang patrol car sa may kalayuan. Huminto
ulit kami.

He was hesitant when I looked at him. He's nervous at normal lamang yon.

"Mr. Manzania, natatanaw ka namin mula dito at huwag kang gagalaw. Pakawalan mo si
Mrs. Zamora or else may mangyayaring hindi maganda sa iyo."

Narinig naming sigaw ng lalaki at napatanga ako. Wala namang ginagawang masama si
Luck sa akin.

"Shit! This all shit!"

Galit nitong pagmumura at nag-iba agad ang timpla ng mood nito. Kinabahan ako.
"Luck tara na. Baka mas lalong mag-iisip sila ng masama sayo."

I hissed. At mas lalo lamang hinigpitan ng pagkakahawak nito sa kamay ko.

"Let them be."

He said between his greeted teeth. Hinila ko ang kamay ko at mas lalo lamang niya
akong hinawakan.

"Luck! Ano ba!? Bitiwan mo nga ako!"

Parang madudurog na ang mga buto ng kamay ko sa ginagawang paghawak nito.

"Dito ka lang Zea. Hindi mo ako iiwan diba? Nangako ka."

Nakaramdam na ako ng takot. He sounds desperate. He's begging but at the same time
takot at pangamba ang nakikita ko sa mga mata nito. Natatakpan lamang iyon ng
kanyang galit.

Nagulat ako nang may biglang humablot sa kanya mula sa likod at agad na binigyan
ito ng malakas na suntok. Ipinako ako sa kinatatayuan.

"Zea, umalis kana dito. Bilis!"

My husband thrown punches at Lucky's face. At lumalaban naman ito.

Dahan dahan akong napaatras sa nasaksihang engkwentro. Hindi ko alam kung aawatin
ko ba sila o tatakbo palayo. Right at this moment, I'm protecting myself because of
the baby I'm carrying with.

"Hayop ka! I will kill you for kidnapping my wife!"

Binigyan niya ulit ito ng malakas na suntok at sinipa naman ni Lucky si Jamie sa
tyan at nabuwal ito.

"Hon, Luck! Please stop it!"

Mangiyak ngiyak kong sigaw sa kanila. Napatakip ako sa bibig with my two palms.

"Over here!"

I saw Yvo shouting at those men at patakbo itong papunta sa kinaroroonan namin. I
saw them coming towards us with their guns. Napatingin ulit ako kina Jamie at Luck
na nakikipagbuno sa isa't-isa.

"And you'll pay hard for it!"

Sigaw ni Jamie. Biglang naalarma si Luck nang nakita niya si Yvo malapit na sa
kinaroroonan nila. Hinablot nito ang baril na nakasukbit sa gilid ng asawa ko.
Pumaibabaw ito at ipinuwesto ang baril sa tagiliran nito. Nanlaki ang mga mata ko
sa subrang takot. He will shoot my husband!

And he isn't aware of it.

"Lucky nooooo!!!..."

I shouted with my lungs out. I'm shivering in fear. I close my eyes tightly dahil
ayokong makasaksi nito.
"BANG!"

That was loud and clear. And before my world turn to blurr, I've seen lots of blood
in him. I'm paled and lost for the moment. The last thing I saw was Yvo holding a
gun. And I don't know who did shut.

And the darkness take me in.

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Live A Life

Kabanata 56)

"Everything happens for a reason."

**

Servo POV

"Sev, you have to eat."

Nagising ang diwa ko nang biglang pumasok si mommy sa kwarto para dalhan ako ng
pagkain. Napatingin ako sa kanya.

Ganun ba talaga ang mga parents? They put extra care one their children?

Maraming pumapasok sa utak ko na hindi ko maalala. May mga mukhang hindi ko

maintindihan kung sino. Even this whole family is stranger to me. But they claim me
that I am part of this family. Nagpalabas sila ng mga ID's and documents kasama na
ang mga photos ko from the start till now para sa pagpapatunay na ako si Servo
Callix Zamora.

Tipid akong ngumiti.

"Thanks Mom."

Ngumiti din ito at hinalikan ako sa noo bago lumabas ng aking silid. They were all
patients to me. Ginawa nila ang lahat para lang may maalala ako. Hindi naman nila
ako pinipilit na may maalala. Pero syempre andun ang tulong, positive side and
moral support for me.

Sabi nila, six months akong nawala. Inikot nila ang buong Lanao mahanap lang ako.
They've done everything para lang mahanap ako. Nagpa-advertise sila sa national
television at ipinapapahanap ako with rewards.

I met an accident, at natagpuan nila ako sa isang hospital two years ago. Walang
maalala. Sabi nung nagdala daw sa akin doon ay nabundol ako ng isang pajero.
Napakalakas daw ng impact nito at tumilapon ako.

I had almost die. Na-comma ako ng mahigit walong buwan. And when I woke up,
everything was a blurred to me. I didn't recognized people. I feel like I was
living in the other side of the world. Hindi ko nga kilala ang sarili ko. Hanggang
ngayon ay ganun pa din. Pero dinadalaw ako ng kakaibang panaginip. Parang isang
alaala bahagi ng nakaraan ko. May mga taong hindi ko matandaan. Pakiramdam ko
nakilala ko sila within six months na nawala ako.

*calling....

I stood up and picked up the phone beside the table. It's Natalie.

"Hello."

I smiled when I hear her voice. Somehow kahit pakiramdam ko may kulang ay siya
parin ang pumupuno sa ilang buwang nag-iisa ako.

"Hi hon, bukas na natin lalakarin yong sa marriage license. May gagawin pala ako
mamaya. I'm sorry. I couldn't make it today."

I sighed. We were processing our upcoming wedding. By next or next month hopefully
sana matuloy na talaga. Lage na lang cancelled dahil sa kawalan ng time. Actually
pwede namang iba ang gumagawa nito kaya lang I want us personally na mag-asikaso
nito. Para naman mafeel namin yong effort for our wedding.

"Hmm..okay, magpapautos na lang ako sa iba pang documents."

I tried not to show up my disappointment.

"Hon.. I'm sorry. I hope you understand."

"It's okay. I understand."

After talking to her, ibinaba ko na ang phone.

Natalie Espiritu, my fiance. I've met her during the times na nagpapagaling ako in
coma. Cause she's my personal nurse. Mayaman ang pamilya niya but she choose to
serve people according to her profession kaysa magmaniubra ng kanilang family
business. Ang gusto kasi nito ay ang magtravel around the world at sumali sa mga
organization para magvolunteer ng tulong sa lahat ng bansang nangangailangan. We
have differences in life. Lalong lalo na sa mga gusto namin. I proposed to her, two
months ago after six months of our relationship. I don't know but it feels like I
need an assurance. I think if were married I'll be secure. Kaya naman naisipan kong
magpatali na. I am 29 years old, Mom and Dad always push me to get married. And
aside from that, gusto na rin nilang magkaapo sa akin. Kaya decided to settle down
kahit wala pa akong maalala. Ang mahalaga tanggap ako ni Natalie ng buong buo. And
that's all that matters to me.

Talagang may kulang. Hindi ko lang alam kung ano yon. Maliban sa may amnesia ako,
hindi naman yon sukatan dahil kasama ko naman ang pamilya ko. When I asked them
about my past they said wala naman daw akong girlfriend so okay lang sa kanila na
magpakasal na kami ni Natalie even if sandali pa lang kami nagkarelasyon. I don't
want her to get lost coz I'm scared na baka hindi ko kayanin ang mawala siya sa
tabi ko. Naging sandigan ko siya at ang pamilya in times of my recovery. I couldn't
afford her to lose. Siya lamang ang nagpapasaya ng araw ko. At sa hilig niyang
maglakbay at sa kanyang propesyon ay baka maiwanan akong nag-iisa. Mas mabuti ng
maitali ko siya.

My family said I was a certainly playboy, party goer, a happy go lucky and
sometimes a bastard for trouble. Actually it's unbelievable for me now. I'm not
seeing myself to back with my old habits. But that was the truth. Pero hindi ko na
nakikita ang sarili sa ganung bagay ngayon. I felt like a new. And I don't go
parties everywhere if it's not necessary. My life is still normal. I have job and
position and even the business I built before my memory was lost is still there.
My talents and ability to think is still there that's why I'm thankful. Minsan naa-
amazed na lang ako na nakakapagsalita ako ng mga bagay that impressive to the
others nang hindi ko namamalayan kahit may amnesia ako.

Still thankful though.. and I hope my memory will turn back even if it takes slowly
and years by years.

**

Zea POV

Isang pangkaraniwang araw para sa isang pamilya. It's been two years since that
tragic happened. Kung ano man ang aksidenteng nangyari noon ay matagal na itong
dapat kalimutan at ibaon sa limot.

At mananatiling alaala na lamang. I sighed. Nagpapasalamat parin naman ako sa

pamilyang pinagdadasal kong maging okay at successful ang lahat.

I'm glad, it's Sunday today. Makakapagdalaw kami sa puntod.

"Tara! Everything's ready right?"

Nathan was already five years old at ang bunso naming si Keira ay one year and six
months na. I scoop Keira at hinalikan ito ng ilang beses sa pisngi.

At ngayong susunod na ilang buwan ay may kasunod na namang blessing. Oh thanks

Lord sa bagong buhay at pag-asa. Hindi mo kami tinalikuran at pinabayaan.

"Were ready, Mom."

Masiglang sagot ni Nathan. At nagkatawanan pa kami habang papunta na kami sa lugar

kung saan siya dadalawin. Ganun talaga ang buhay. Move on and let go the past, para
makapamuhay ng maayos at matiwasay.

"Okay let's go!"

Masigla kaming naglakad patungo sa kinaroroonan ng puntod nito. I am carrying a

bouquet of flowers and the kids were on Marie's both hands.

Malungkot akong napangiti nang masilayan ko ang lapida nito. Alam kong masaya siya
kung saan man siya ngayon. Hindi ko nakakalimutan ang araw mismo nang pagkawala
nito. Hindi ko rin nakakalimutan ang mga alaalang nabuo sa aming mga pinagsamahan.
You're always in my heart.
I sighed.

"Thank you for everything. I know wala kang ibang hinangad kundi ang maging masaya
ako, kami habambuhay. And sorry.. coz wala man lang akong nagawa para sayo. I never
stop loving you as a----"

"Hi there! I'm sorry, I'm late."

Nagsitakbuhan ang mga bata papunta sa kanya when he open his arms para yakapin ang
mga ito.

I was smiling looking at him...

Still devastatingly handsome as he is..

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Love and Acceptance

(Kabanata 57)

Happiness is a journey not a destination.

------Ben Sweetland ---

**

Zea POV (Unedited)

"Lucky!!! Nooooo..."

Isang umaalingawngaw na putok ang nagpahinto sa lahat, ang ikot ng aking mundo at
ang paghinto ng tibok ng aking puso. I open my eyes in realization.

I saw him.!. He's bloody and dying... And everything went black and white. I was
surrounded by all white. And I saw him standing far away from me. He smiled and
wave his hand on me.

"Luck? Where are you going?"

Naitanong ko nang makita ko ang pagkakalayo ng paunti-unti ang aming distansya. I

run after him.

"Luck! Wait! Saan ka pupunta?"

I louder my voice para marinig niya at lingunin ako. Tumakbo ako papunta sa kanya,
hinabol ko siya. But it seems he's too far from me at pakiramdam ko hindi ko siya
kayang abutin.

"Luck...."

My voice echoed the entire all white place. He stopped and turn his back on me.

"Zea, stay where you belong. I'm happy for you. Don't worry, I'll be fine where my
life it leads."

Then teardrops starts pouring down. I can't lose him. He's been a good friend of
mine. Gusto kong sumigaw at habulin siya pero napakahina lahat ng parte ng aking
katawan.

"Lucky, don't leave me... don't leave us".

Sa nanghihina kong boses. But he smiled, yong ngiting hindi mo makikita ang sakit
at pait. I cried so much. He wave his hand as goodbye.

"Luck!"

Napabalikwas ako ng bangon. Namamawis ang noo ko. Hinihingal akong napatingin sa
paligid. The place was not the same anymore. Isang panaginip lamang pala.

"Are you okay?"

My husband took my hand and squeeze it gently. Kinabig niya ako sa kanyang dibdib
at hinalikan sa noo.

"Hon I dream of him again."

I close my eyes at isiniksik ang mukha sa kanyang dibdib like a child who
frightened by dreams or memories of the tragic past. In his arms, I know I feel
secured.

"I know. I heard you called his name."

He said with understanding. Inayos niya ang pagkakaupo. Isinandal niya ang sarili
sa headboard ng kama. And pulled me closer to him. He kissed me again, wari hindi
mapakali sa pag-aalo sa akin.

I sighed. Dati-rati lage akong dinadalaw ng mga panaginip tungkol sa kanya. But
later on, nawala yun ng paunti-unti. Lage namin siya dinadalaw sa puntod kasama ang
buong pamilya. Lage kaming nagpapa-misa sa simbahan. At ngayon lamang ulit ako
dinalaw ng panaginip tungkol sa kanya pagkalipas ng mahigit isang taon.

"I'll be okay, Honey. Stop worrying. You know he won't be happy seeing you like
that. Remember Thirdy is coming, right?".

Napangiti ako sa sinabi niya. Yes we are waiting to our third baby. He's a boy. I
am six months pregnant. Nasundan agad ako pagkatapos kay Keira. At least, magtwo-
two years old na ang aking baby girl.

"You named him Thirdy? ".

Napangiti kong tanong. He chuckled and crinkled my nose.

"Yes, cause he's our third baby. Don't you like it?".

"Hindi naman. If that's what you want then it will be fine for me ".

Niyakap niya ulit ako at pagkatapos hinalik-halikan niya ang umuusbong kong tyan.

"Come on let's sleep. Bawal ang puyat kay baby.

He said at inaayos ang higaan ko. Maaliwalas namang sumang-ayon ako sa kanya.

My husband is really caring and a loving in everything. He's the one who monitor my
pregnancy. Masyadong maalaga. Siya nagpapa-inum sa akin ng vitamins, tagatimpla ng
gatas at taga-remind ng aking prenatal check-ups. And about our wonderful two kids,
hands on daddy din ito. Siya ang madalas nagluluto ng kanilang daily meals. Kahit
busy sa negosyo he always find time for our family and creates bonding moments with
our kids. He never fail to love me. Tumaas din ang pasensya nito at kaya na niya
kontrolin ang kanyang temper.

But still, he's a kind of overprotective and possessive husband as ever.

*******

Two years ago..

Lucky died not because of Yvo's hands. Hindi pa man nakapagputok ito ng hawak na
baril ay may bala ng tumama sa kanya. It was a sniper who shot him right through
his head. Walang nais sisihin at wala ding masisi. A sniper who only did his job.
And Yvo was just protecting his brother but he didn't shoot him. At isang blessing
in disguise lang ang pagkakasalba sa buhay ng asawa ko. Thanks God his alive! Hindi
ako mawawalan ng kaagapay at kasama hanggang pagtanda. At hindi rin mauulila ng
maaga ang mga anak namin. But ang kapalit naman nun ay isang trahedya para kay
Lucky.

When I woke up in the hospital, agad na pumasok sa isipan ko ang asawa. Nawalan
kasi ako ng malay nang makitang may dumanak na dugo. Pero hindi ako sigurado kung
sino ang nabaril ng mga panahong yon. They confirm to me that Lucky was dead on
arrival. I was shocked and depressed at the same time. I was in trauma. But I have
to move on and accept it. I'm pregnant and I have to protect my child. Kailangan ko
siyang isilang na malusog at maayos kaya I have to let go the pain. He lost his
life at the early age of twenties. Kahit anong pilit ko sa sarili na sana hindi na
lang siya nawala ng ganun kaaga ay wala ding patutunguhan. It was all an accident.

After few months, namatay si Tita Lea. Dahil na rin siguro sa depression ng
pagkawala ng anak nito at sa iniindang breast cancer. Alam naman nila ang totoong
nangyari kaya wala silang dapat sisihin. Kalaunan natanggap din nila ang pagkamatay
nito. At kaya siguro ako dinadalaw ng panaginip tungkol sa kanya noon ay dahil
hindi ko siya mapakawalan na namatayan ako ng isang mabuting kaibigan.

Then it popped up in my mind na sana kung hindi ko siya kinausap sa gabi ng party
hindi sana naganap ang abduction at hindi siya namatay. But it was fate. It
happened for a reason. Nagpadala siya sa kanyang emosyon at pagnanais na makasama
ako na nag-ugat iyon sa maagang pagkitil ng kanyang buhay. I cannot blame him and I
can't judge the way he is dahil tulad ng isang normal na tao nagmamahal lamang
siya. Nagpadala lamang siya sa kanyang bugso ng damdamin kaya nauwi sa di
inaasahang trahedya. To have peace of mind, I let go. He's very a good friend of
mine though nagawa niya ang pagkakamaling yon. Pero hanggang sa huli, alam kong
masaya siya sa piniling desisyon ng pagkakaibigan namin kaysa ang kanyang damdamin.

Still, his memories is always in my heart.

**

Jamie POV

Namili kami ng mga bagong laruan ni Keira when someone poke me at the back.

"Hi, still remember me?"

Isang malapad na ngiti ang bumungad sa harapan ko. She's so familiar and I'm trying
to recognize her. She crossed her arms at kunwa'y tinaasan ako ng kilay.

"Oh sad.. hindi mo na ako nakilala."

Nanlabi ito at unti unting gumuhit sa labi ko ang ngiti. How bad of me, I didn't
recall the person who helped me about Ella's background when they are in Texas.

"Oh Sassy! You look great! It's been a long time, how's life going?"

Tumawa ito ng malakas sa sinabi ko. Actually she's Dyllan's sister and the manager
of his brother and Ella's business studio.

How coincidence. Bigla akong napalingon nang marinig na may tumikhim ng malakas
mula sa aking likuran.

My wife holding at Keira's hand while Nathan was on the stuff toys house na
natatanaw ko sa kalayuan mula dito.

Base on her face expression parang magiging kumplikado ito kung hindi ako
magpapaliwanag agad. She's pregnant but still a terror wife and I can't deny the
fact that I am under her spell.

"Oh sorry Hon.."

Napakamot ako sa ulo at agad na ipinakilala silang dalawa. Naliwanagan naman agad
ito at sa tipo ni Sassy na friendly ay siguradong hindi ako mananagot sa asawa ko.
I explained to her na she's Dyllan's sister at naintindihan naman ito.

"Wow ang bilis niyo naman. Buti pa kayo magiging tatlo na ang babies. Ako
magpapakasal pa lang. Punta kayo hah?"

Subrang daldal talaga ni Sassy kaya naaaliw ang asawa ko kausap siya.

"Oo naman. Sana lang nakakapagpanganak na ako niyan."

My wife respond excitedly. And they giggled in unison. Napakamot ako sa ulo. Girls
stuffs again.

After the short talk namasyal kami at ang mga bata sa ocean park. We always have
time for family bonding. As a father and a husband I always took responsibilities
lalong lalo na sa bagay na mapasaya silang lahat.
"Dad! Fish uh.."

Keira point the shark, at sinang-ayonan ko naman ang pagkamangha nito. My daughter
really looks like her mother kaya naman may Zea maliit kami sa bahay.

Nathan was on her mother dahil malaki na ito. He's five years old at artist na sa
school. And now, my wife carrying our third baby. He's a boy at madadagdagan na
naman ang aming pamilya. I am so happy and contented now. Wala na akong mahihiling
pa sa subrang blessed at saya na dulot ng aking nabuong pamilya. Natupad rin ang
pinapangarap ko simula pa man. Ang pangarap na magkaroon ng isang masaya at
malaking pamilya.

Thank you Lord for having a wonderful family ever and thank you for everything.

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Author's Note

Hi Guys!

Break muna.

I'll be posting the Epilogue tonight or tomorrow morning. Sana nag-enjoy kayo sa
buong storya na ito.

Since tapos na po ito, uumpisahan ko na po ang storya ni Servo, (OPPOSITES DO

DISTRACT ) kasabay ang new batch ng Bachelor Series gaya po ng pangako ko sa inyo.
The Marriage Contract Deal ang first story ng Bachelor Series, at dadalasan ko na
po ang update nun.

Salamat po sa mga sumuporta. After the MTD, I'll dedicate every chapters to the
avid readers. Actually hindi ko na po pinahabaan ang Marrying the Desperada, iba
sana ang story na ito kaya lang lately nagiging busy ako and I'll be a lot busier
now kaya medyo iniklian ko na at binawasan ko ang mga twist at conflicts ng story.
Ayoko naman po kasing paulit ulit at kumplikado ang buhay ng mga characters, kawawa
naman (hahaha). Masyadong heavy na at sometimes di na ako maka-relate. Lol.

And the TSL, the story was completed already sa mga hindi pa nakapagbasa nun at sa
mga new readers. Pagtyagaan niyo na lang po ang mga typo at grammatical errors
dun, since it was my very first story na natapos dito sa wattpad.

So guys I hope you still keep voting, sharing and supporting my stories. I just
want to ask favor, if you have time to click and like my page, nasa profile ko po
yong links. Anyways salamat po sa mga sumusubaybay at nagtyaga ng stories ko lalong
lalo na itong MTD. I really appreciated all of you, you guys made my day.

So this time I'm planning to write a little bit different, a kind of romantic
comedies. And someone requested me to try a teen fiction genre. So I made a plot
and next month I'll post it.

So salamat! Salamat! Salamat!

Godbless Guys.

- Miss 'J'- ☺☺

Epilogue

(Kabanata 58)
"When you lose this capacity to dream, you lose capacity to love."
-- Pope Francis---
***

Jamie POV
"Hon kaya mo yan.."
I don't understand what I'm feeling now. Hindi ko alam kung matatae or maiihi sa
nakikitang nagdedeliver siya ng aming anak.
Were now in delivery room. Ten cm na kasi ito at umeere na siya para mailabas ang
may kalakihan naming anak.
"Ere Mrs. Nakikita na namin ang ulo ng baby niyo."
The doctor said while my wife was breathing hardly. Namamawis at napapangiwi ito sa
subrang sakit.
"I swear Nathaniel, I will kill you after this."
She crumpled my hair and I don't care if she'll kill me basta mailabas lang ng
maayos si Thirdy. Napansin kong nagpipigil lang ang mga assistant nurses at ang
Doctora sa pagmumura at pagmamalupit ng asawa ko sa akin.
"Inhale, exhale lang Hon.."
This is the hardest part for me. Yong nakikita siyang nahihirapan sa subrang sakit
at parte ito sa lahat ng mga normal delivery kaya I should extend more patience.
Nung nanganak ito kay Keira noon halos mamaga ang pisngi ko sa kakasapak niya at
ngayon naman pakiramdam ko mauubusan ako ng buhok sa pagsasabunot nito. Mas higit
pa dun ang nararamdaman niya kaya I should understand her.
"Ere.. malapit na ito. Konting tiis na lang.
Nagboblow siya ng hangin at humuhugot para makapag-ere ng maayos. Kung pwede ko
lang siya palitan. Sinabi ko naman sa kanya na CS na lang kung mahirapan siya sa
subrang sakit pero she choose this dahil ito daw talaga ang essence ng panganganak.

"Hon, do it kaya mo yan. Please baby Thirdy huwag mo na pahirapan si Mommy."

Hinawakan ko ang tiyan niya at medyo gumalaw ito. Umere siya ng huling beses sabay
impit na pagsigaw. Nabuhayan ako ng loob. I took a deep breathed and pray harder.
Hanggang sa narinig ko ang malakas na pag-iyak ng isang sanggol.
"Thanks God. Finally!"
I shouted with joy.
I was so engrossed staring at my baby. Inilagay ito sandali sa tyan ng asawa ko. At
last! Thirdy saw the world.
"Welcome to the world baby Thirdy."
I spoke delightedly, hindi ko namamalayan na tumulo na pala ang luha ko. Tears of
joy.
"Thank you so much, honey for giving us Thirdy. I love you so much."
I murmured at my wife then gave her a mind blowing kiss. Her eyes sparkling with so
much delight. Umiyak din ito sa saya. I wiped her tears at hinalikan siya sa noo.
At these moments wala na akong pakialam sa paligid. I am only seeing my wife and
baby around. Happiness is understatement.
Pinunasan ko ang asawa ko habang nililinisan ng mga nurses ang baby namin. She's
helplessly lying on bed. May nagvivideo din sa loob. I want everything in details.
Gusto ko pati ito ay maisalba sa aming unforgettable moments as a family.
**
Nagsidatingan na ang aming mga pamilya. Pinagkakaguluhan na nila si Thirdy.
"Look at him, darling sa akin nagmana."
Dad spoke delightedly. Karga karga niya si Thirdy at tuwang tuwa siyang kinakausap
ito kahit tulog na tulog yong baby namin.
"Iba na talaga kapag matanda na. Masyadong vivid na ang imaginations."
Mom decline profusely. She rolled her eyes with such a pretending snobbery.
Napakamot ako sa ulo. Nagtawanan naman ang lahat. Andito rin kasi ang mga kapatid
ko. He frowned.
"Bakit hindi ba Regina? Look at his eyes and nose. Manang mana sa akin."
Nagtawanan silang muli sa pamimilit ni Daddy.
"Si Daddy talaga malabo na ang mga mata."
Natatawa at napapailing na sabi ni Yvo. Si Servo ay napapangiti lang. Minsan
nakakapanibago. Hindi kasi ako o kami sanay na tahimik siya at hindi nang-aasar.
Dahil sa amnesia nito pati ugali nagbago. Bigla siyang naging seryoso. At
kamakailan lang nakansela ang kasal dahil sa Cenomar nito, he's married sa taong
hindi niya natatandaan na nakilala at nakasama in more than two years ago. At
ngayon hinahanap niya ito for an annulment. In his six months missing hindi ko
lubos maisip na nagpakasal siya. Hindi naman siya ang tipong tao na sumeseryoso
lalong lalo na pagdating sa babae. That woman must have have something for him.
Nainlove siya at dahil sa kanyang pagkawala ng memory ay nawala din ito.
"Akin na muna si Thirdy Dad."
Kinuha ni Ella si Thirdy at siya naman ang umaaliw nito. She's two months pregnant
sa pangatlo nilang anak. Akalain mo naunahan ko pa.
"Mommy does Thirdy knows how to kick?"
Yullo asked amusingly. Nagtawanan kami. Iba na talaga ang mga bata ngayon kung mag-
isip.
"No baby. Not yet."
Sagot ni Ella. Pagkatapos ng ilang minuto nagpaalam na sila Mommy at Daddy na umuwi
muna.
"Anyway bro I have to go."
Nagpaalam na si Servo. Pinikpik niya ang balikat ko. Tumango lamang ako. Sumunod
naman ang mag-asawa at mga pamangkin ko.
"Hi baby.."
Keira wave his brother na pinapadede ng Mommy nito. Nagpapabreastfeed talaga ang
asawa ko simula pa kay Keira. Nung nag-isang taon ito, nagbottle feed na. Si Nathan
nasa kanyang lolo't lola at pupunta na sila ngayon.
"Hello everybody!"
I just said, speaking of the devil andito na sila. Masiglang masigla si Dad Edward
na lumapit sa kanyang anak.
"Hi my daughter."
"Hello Dad.."
Hinalikan niya sa noo ang asawa ko at tinitigan niya si Thirdy habang dumedede sa
suso ng ina.
"Daddy! Where's my little brother?"
Patakbong lumapit si Nathan sa amin, binati naman kami ni Mom Emily. Niyakap ko si
Nathan at itinuro ang kanyang kapatid.
"You're noisy kuya. Thirdy will cry."
Keira crossed her arms and giving her elder brother a disapproval look. I chuckled.
"Nathan give your sister a hug. Come on, she just miss you."
My son is grinning at niyakap ang kanyang baby sister. I saw my Keira lift a
wonderful smile. In three months time, she'll turn two years old and she's smart.
Halatang may pinagmanahan. Alam ko namang magkasundo sila kahit nagtataray sa
kanyang kuya. Nagmana sa Tita Mica niya. Speaking of her, may asawa na at anak. She
married my wife's cousin na si Drew. I don't know what happen kung bakit hindi sila
nagkatuluyan ng kanyang foreigner fiance.
"Oh sweetheart, how are you? On the way na ang mama Janna mo. Maybe tonight
darating na siya dito kasama ang Tito Hector mo."
"Oh how I miss them so much, Mom."
"Oh give me my grandson."
Kinuha ni Dad si Thirdy sa kamay ng asawa ko dahil nakita niyang tapos na ito sa
breastfeeding.
"Look at him Honey.. he's my perfect replica."
Nagkatinginan at nagtawanan kami ni Zea. Parehas Lang talaga ang mga mata nila ni
Daddy Lucas. Si Dad Edward talaga.
"Asus.. namamalikmata ka lang. Hindi naman eh. May konting hawig sa akin."
Pati si Mom ay hindi sang-ayon pero halatang nang-aasar kay Dad. Hay naku, ewan ko
nga ba kung bakit ipinagpipilitan. Talagang ganun nga siguro ang paningin nila.
"Of course not, he's my junior. Kamukha ko talaga."
I shrugged. Maybe, napangiti lamang kami ng asawa ko.

Isang masaya at special na araw ito para sa amin dahil sa pagdating ng bagong
miyembro ng aming pamilya. And I know na sa pagdating ng mga panahon kahit anong
hagupit ng pagsubok ang darating ay kaya naming lampasan.
Love conquers all.
"I love you, Hon."
I whispered to her. Her eyes glint with love and delight.
"I love you more."

**THE END**