Taking Advantage of My

Muse
A Taengsic, Yulti, and Hyoyoung Fic

Rikai13

Muse (noun):
capitalized: any of the nine sister goddesses in Greek mythology presiding over song and poetry
and the arts and sciences
2: a source of inspiration; especially : a guiding genius
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Contents
Taking Advantage of My Muse ................................................................................................... 3
I’d Like to Thank the Layout of My Apartment ....................................................................... 6
I Hate Kwon Yuri, Pt. 1 ................................................................................................................ 8
I Hate Kwon Yuri, Pt. 2 .............................................................................................................. 11
I Love Kwon Yuri ....................................................................................................................... 15
I Am Your Muse.......................................................................................................................... 18
Girl Friend ................................................................................................................................... 20
Best Friend ................................................................................................................................... 23
Muse ............................................................................................................................................. 25
Your Muse Loses Her Heart ...................................................................................................... 29
No Matter How Much I Want to Leave, I Can’t. ..................................................................... 35
Left or Right? .............................................................................................................................. 37
First Step Pt.1 .............................................................................................................................. 41
First Step Pt. 2 ............................................................................................................................. 45
First Step Pt. 3 ............................................................................................................................. 49
First Step Pt 4 .............................................................................................................................. 54
Second Step on Halt .................................................................................................................... 59
Taking Advantage of My Muse, One Last Time. ..................................................................... 69

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Taking Advantage of My Muse

The short petite brunette steps into her apartment in which she shares with her roommate. Her
dark orbs scan her surroundings. Magazines and books scattered across the coffee table. Take out
trash surrounding the books. The throw pillows were out of place. Shaking her head knowingly
she drops her bag onto to ground beside the door, before heading to her room.

Opening the door she finds her room a mess which is frankly quite the opposite of how she left it
before leaving for the month. Once again with a knowing smile she takes off her jacket, tossing it
on the bed. Heading to the other room, she opens the door to find it clean and her roommate
missing. She must have taken off somewhere. Heading back to the living room the main door
opens revealing a slightly taller petite blonde, in a pair of sweatpants and jacket while sweating.
The brunette eyes trace of the sweat as it trailed from her neck, sliding down her creamy skin
past her collar bones before disappearing into the girl‟s sports bra. “Oh Taeyeon, you‟re back?”
The brunette snaps out of her thoughts before looking into the blondes eyes.

“Ah, yes,” responds Taeyeon, while scratching the back of her head. “Flew in this morning.” She
gives her roommate a dorky grin. The blonde‟s eyes scale up and down Taeyeon‟s body,
examining the business attire. Shirt untucked and buttons slightly undone. Pants wrinkled and
baggy.

“Did you just get back from visiting the company?” asks the blonde as she walks closer to tame
Taeyeon‟s untamed hair. Taeyeon nods her head, not looking into her roommates eyes. Her face
was heating up at the close contact. “And what did they say? They sent you away for a month so
you can write them some more songs and all.”

“I gave them a blank CD demo and an empty music book,” responds Taeyeon, as she shrugs off
the girls hands, heading into the kitchen. She follows closely behind Taeyeon. “I told them it was
ridiculous to send them away from my inspiration and because they did so I couldn‟t complete
the task at hand.”

“And what did you boss say when you brought up Tiffany?” asks her roommate.

“I told them it wasn‟t her, Jessica.” Taeyeon turns around and finally looks at her roommate. “I
said it was my original muse.”

“Oh and what did they say about that?” asks Jessica while walking around the shorter girl,
opening a cabinet and pulling out a cup. She then opens the freezer, pulling out some ice cubes
dropping three into the glass.

“They said something about, locating the muse and using said person to my advantage,”
mumbles Taeyeon a confused look appearing on her face.

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“So what are you going to do, Taengoo?” She watches Jessica, carefully, as Jessica opens the
fridge door pulling out a large container of lemonade. With her voice of reason battling it out
with its opponent in her head, she unknowingly approaches the girl wrapping her arms around
Jessica‟s waist pulling her against her body. A small gasp leaves the surprised girls lips as she
feels the brunette‟s lips against her neck followed by a sharp stinging sensation caused by her
teeth.

Taeyeon unleashes a frustrated growl as she goes against her voice of reason. She was tired of
fighting with reason. She wanted to have things go her way. Her bites slowly turn into nibbles as
her lips make their way up her neck, across her jaw line and finishing at her ear, in which
Taeyeon takes Jessica‟s earlobe in between her teeth before sucking on it.

Jessica‟s face begins to flush as she quickly grabs hold of the arm that was wrapped around her
body, nearly squeezing it to death. A warm ticklish sensation develops along her ear as
Taeyeon‟s voice fills it with, “I think I‟m going to take their advice, and use you to develop some
more creative songs.” With her free hand she grabs an ice cube, sticking it in her mouth. Jessica
turns around her eyes following the ice cube. Cold wet lips cover hers, and she closes her eyes.
Grabbing hold of Taeyeon‟s blouse she pulls Taeyeon in closer as Taeyeon grabs hold of her
waist. Using her tongue, Taeyeon slides the ice cube into Jessica‟s mouth when their front door
opens. Abruptly pulling apart, Taeyeon looks into Jessica‟s eyes, finding them full of curiosity.
Breathing heavily, she makes her way back to their living room, coming face to face to a brightly
lit girl and a tall dark skin girl.

“Taetae, your back?!” squeals the brightly lit girl, giving off a wide grin and crescent eyes.

“Yeah, Fany-ah,” responds Taeyeon as she watches Jessica exit out of the kitchen and approach
the dark skinned girl before giving her a chaste kiss on the lips. “Sorry Fany-ah, I should‟ve
called.”

“It‟s okay. Yuri informed me that my girl friends plane touched down today, while we were
eating lunch,” responds the girl. Taeyeon nods her head before turning to look at the dark
skinned girl.

“It‟s okay, anything to keep Tiffany from going crazy,” states Yuri while wrapping her arms
around Jessica and looking at the blonde. “Sica Baby your face is red and you breathing heavily
are you okay?”

“Yeah,” answers Jessica quickly, “just got back from the gym.” Tiffany turns her attention from
the blonde to her girl friend that was also very flushed in the face and breathing heavily.

Eyeing the girl suspiciously, Tiffany questions, “TaeTae, why do you seem out of breath, and
tired?”

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“Oh. I was just taking advantage of my muse,” states Taeyeon as the blush on Jessica‟s face
deepens.

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I’d Like to Thank the Layout of My

Apartment
She loved the layout of her apartment. It placed her room right by the bathroom, and her
roommates next to hers. So when her roommate would exit out of the shower, she‟d have to walk
past the open door in nothing but a towel, the water droplets sliding down her skin and her now
brunette hair soaking wet. And this was her favorite scene every evening. It was a routine. She‟d
come home with her guitar in hand and head to her room. And every evening her roommate
would return from being at the gym with her girlfriend and head straight to the shower. In which
she would wait for to exit and walk by, playing it off as if she was writing a song.

And tonight was no different. Some would call her a pervert, but Taeyeon believes else wise. She
just simply as she would state it, “Taking advantage of her muse.”

The front door clicks, followed by the sounds of giggles and a “goodnight,” signaling the arrival
of her roommate. Taeyeon quickly grabs hold of her guitar, placing her fingers along the neck
with one hand. Her other opens up her music book to a blank page, as she pretends to jot
something down. She hears footsteps pass by her room, before looking up and catching the last
few strands of brunette hair and a white duffle bag.

A smile creeps on her lips as the sound of the showering running. Her delicate fingers strum a
few notes before hearing a soft voice travel down the hall from the bathroom. Now this was rare
and something Taeyeon highly appreciated about her roommate‟s girlfriend Yuri.

If Yuri made Jessica extremely happy, Taeyeon gets to hear her sing which means she stays
longer in the shower. If Yuri makes Jessica just happy, then Taeyeon gets to hear Jessica
humming a song. And with sad and angry, well sad equals silence and angry equal snarls, the
English language and a very short shower. And Jessica was rarely ever extremely happy.

Her grin becomes wider making her look like the Cheshire cat, as she watches the door for a few
seconds before strumming along with whatever English song Jessica was singing.

The song comes to an end as the water stops running this time signaling her favorite moment.
Taeyeon begins writing down some lyrics that were coming to mind when she hears the splashy
footsteps echo throughout the hall. Letting her bangs down to cover her eyes as she kneels over
her notebook, she peeks through the curtain. Her eyes scour the glistening body, tracing over the
contours of her curves. Her grin turns into one resembling a creeper, before quickly jotting down
the words that come to mind. The footsteps stop and she spots water droplets blurring and
erasing the words that she has just written. Lifting her head she finds a small white towel
wrapped around a body and going up even more she comes eye to eye with Jessica.

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“Taengoo, what are you up to?” asks Jessica, routinely. And like always Taeyeon would point at
her guitar, speechless and face heating up as her gaze lowers to Jessica‟s collarbones before
dipping lower. “Oh, who‟s it for this time?”

“Um…a new artist at the company,” responds Taeyeon before looking away.

“Oh okay, I‟m going to sleep. Kwon Seobang is taking me to meet her parents,” Jessica turns
around not noticing that Taeyeon‟s eyes has zoom in on her backside. “And don‟t stay up to late,
I‟ll need you to cook me breakfast.” With that Jessica exits the room, leaving Taeyeon to wander
in her thoughts. Picking up her guitar, she happily strums away inspiration hitting her.

*****

“And the award for song of the year goes to Park Sunyoung,” a short girl with shoulder length
blonde hair grabs hold of Taeyeon‟s hand before leading her on stage. Grabbing hold of the
award she smiles at Taeyeon before approaching the mic.

“Thank you, really thank you,” states the girl. “I‟d like to thank a lot of people for this award, my
family, friends, fans but more importantly the woman who wrote the song. Taeyeon.” She turns
to Taeyeon, motioning for her to come and speak into the microphone.

“Luna, what are you doing?” whispers Taeyeon while approaching the singer.

“Say thank you,” whispers Luna back before pushing her in front of the mic.

*****

Jessica, along with her girlfriend Yuri and her roommate‟s girlfriend Tiffany, sit upon the couch
in Jessica‟s living watching as Taeyeon awkwardly approaches the microphone after whispering
back and forth with the winner.

“TaeTae‟s going to thank me,” states Tiffany while smiling brightly. Jessica just nods her head
not taking her eyes off the short woman onstage who‟s fidgeting before leaning over to the mic.

“Hi! Um, Luna over there wished for me to say my thanks and well,” she looks around before
smiling and stating confidently, “well I‟d like to thank the layout of my apartment, because I can
take advantage of my muse!” She waves at the camera before walking off the stage with Luna.

A blush creeps across Jessica‟s face as she turns away from the television.

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I Hate Kwon Yuri, Pt. 1

She was down, and was feeling very low. She should be going over the melody of her latest song
but she couldn‟t. Her mind was suppose to be on helping Luna improve, since the company had
assigned her to be in charge of the girl especially after their collaboration raked in awards left
and right. But that wasn‟t on her mind. No.

“Unni are you okay?” asks Luna while removing the head phones from her head, and walking
out of the recording studio. Taeyeon nods her head, and gives Luna a forced smile. “Okay, so
how was it that time?”

“It was okay, but not exactly what I was looking for,” responds Taeyeon, “you know what? How
about we call it a day? I‟ll head home and tweak this little and we can start over again
tomorrow?”

“Okay Unni,” Luna grabs her bag and heads out, leaving Taeyeon alone to meddle in her
thoughts. She told Luna that she would head home, but in reality she didn‟t want to. She told her
that she would tweak the song a little, but she couldn‟t. There was nothing to inspire her. Sure
she had Tiffany her girlfriend, but those songs never really reached number 1 on the charts. Yeah
it had made it in the top ten but the highest the ever went was five.

Frustrated Taeyeon packs up her papers and guitar, leaving the recording studio and heading
back to an empty apartment.

*****

Opening the door, she drops her duffle bag on the floor along with the guitar case before heading
down the hall. Peeking through the cracked door, she finds the room that once belonged to her
roommate fully bare. All that was left was the empty dressers and bed. She couldn‟t help but
heave out a sigh of defeat. Closing the door with a thud she heads to the kitchen. Making her
way to the freezer she pulls out a carton of ice cream, and opening the draw she grabs a spoon.
Taking a seat on the counter top she silently eats the cold treat, when the front door opens. Not
really caring who it was and hoping it was a masked murderer to put her out of her misery, she
listens as the footsteps head pass the kitchen.

“Taengoo!” The voice echoes throughout the apartment, as Taeyeon continues to ignore it.
“Taengoo, where are you?” She slides off the cabinet and makes a bee line to the front door that
was left open and heads outside. “Taengoo?!” Taeyeon pulls her hood up and walks briskly past
her best friend‟s car, hoping the person wouldn‟t get out and try to stop her on her walk.

She was in no mood to deal with those two people: her best friend and roommate-correction ex-
roommate. Ever since the dinner date, with the four of them and Yuri asking Jessica to move in

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with her, Taeyeon wants nothing to do with the two of them. Yuri was removing her muse. The
one that helped Taeyeon get a promotion. The one was the reason for Taeyeon to even invest in
Yuri‟s business plans. And it didn‟t help when Yuri decided to show up to her job earlier today
and announced that Jessica and she were now officially engaged. How she wanted to punch her
best friend square in the jaw when that was revealed.

Pulling out her phone, Taeyeon dials a number waiting for a response, “Tae?” asks a sleepy
voice over the other line.

“Hyo…did I wake you?” responds Taeyeon now even further upset at the fact that she had
awoken her younger sister that she hasn‟t spoken to in months.

“It‟s alright,” responds her sister, “I was just napping before teaching another class.” Taeyeon
nods her head, not aware of the fact that Hyoyeon wouldn‟t be able to see her. “So what do you
need?”

“Nothing…it was stupid of me to call. I‟m sorry, I‟ll let you return to your nap-“

“Kim Taeyeon, you hang up this phone, you‟ll be in serious trouble do you hear me?! You are
not to call me after not speaking to me for months and say you wanted nothing, so you either
spill it now over the phone, or bring your short self to my studio and spill it. Got me?!” states
Hyoyeon.

“I‟ll be there in a few.”

*****

Jessica continues wandering through the apartment. She‟s checked every room of the house and
yet she couldn‟t find her short roommate. Her duffle bag and guitar case were at the front door,
and a carton of now melted ice cream sat on the counter meaning that the girl was there.
Something just didn‟t feel right. She didn‟t like any of this. She hears footsteps behind her and
quickly turning around hoping for the shorter girl to be at the doorway, but what she had gotten
instead was her fiancée. A glare appears upon the girl‟s face as she turns away from Yuri.

Saying that she was upset at her fiancée would be an understatement. In fact she was pissed. Yuri
had no right to go to Taeyeon‟s job and announce the engagement. It was bad enough that after
the dinner she had to return to the apartment with an upset Taeyeon, who ignored her and sung
sad depressing ballads all night. “Sica baby she isn‟t here. Taeng walked past the car a few
minutes ago,” states Yuri. “And there is no way of telling when she‟s coming back. We can try
to catch her at her job tomorrow, okay?” Jessica nods her head, before heading down the hall.
She enters Taeyeon‟s room, her eyes searching for the stuffed penguin that belonged to the
shorter girl. Finding it in the corner, she walks over and grabs it before joining Yuri in the living
room. “That‟s Taeng‟s.”

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“I know. She told me if I ever needed her and she wasn‟t around to use the penguin.” And with
that Jessica leaves an upset Yuri behind as she heads to the car.

*****

“I hate Kwon Yuri,” states Taeyeon, while sitting on the floor of her sisters dance studio.

“Because she removed Jessica from the apartment?” interrogates Hyoyeon while stretching.
Taeyeon nods her head. “But don‟t you date Tiffany Hwang?” Once again her older sister nods
her head, “Than ask Tiffany to move in. That way you won‟t have to pay all the bills on your
own.”

“It‟s not the same.”

“Care to explain?”

“Sica is the muse that is helping me make it. She‟s been the muse since middle school. All those
poems and songs I wrote, all her. And then one day Yuri ups and takes her away.”

“Well what did you expect? You gave up on trying to pursue the Ice Princess, and decided to
remain semi friends.”

“But my inspiration died down. Only to be revived when she became my roommate and now
Yuri‟s doing it again.” A scowl appears on her face, “I hate Kwon Yuri, for teasing me with my
muse.”

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I Hate Kwon Yuri, Pt. 2

Jessica taps her foot impatiently waiting for the elevator doors to open. Turning the penguin
over, a small smile graces her lips. The sound of the elevator doors opening breaks the girl out of
her trance. She smiles at the people in side before stepping out, and making her way through the
employees, looking for a short brunette. “Are you lost?” Jessica turns around and comes face to
face with Taeyeon‟s prodigy. “Are you looking for someone?”

“Yes, I‟m looking for a Kim Taeyeon,” answers Jessica.

“Oh, okay follow me. I was on my way to meet up with her.” Jessica nods her head and follows
behind the short girl. They continue walking down the hall, with Jessica peering inside some of
the rooms. “Here we are.” She pushes the door open revealing Taeyeon laid out on the couch
with Tiffany straddling her and attacking her neck. Jessica‟s eyes widen at the sight before her.
She couldn‟t believe her eyes, until she heard a groan escape from Taeyeon‟s mouth.

“This will teach you to stop avoiding me Kim Taeyeon,” states Tiffany, both girl‟s oblivious to
their audience. That is until the singer clears her throat. Tiffany quickly turns around as Taeyeon
sits up.

“I didn‟t mean to interrupt you but, we‟ve got a song to record. And you have another visitor.”
Taeyeon nods her head and begins to button up her shirt as Tiffany stands up, and dusts off her
clothes.

“I‟ll see you later Taetae,” states Tiffany with an eye smile before disappearing, out the door.

“I‟ve came to see how you were doing, since Seobang said that you seemed out of it after she
announced our engagement. But obviously your fine, so here,” Jessica tosses the penguin to
Taeyeon, “I‟ll be heading back to work.” Jessica quickly turns around trying to hide the frown
that was on her face, but Taeyeon had already caught it.

“Sica!” shouts Taeyeon as she chases after the upset girl only to be pulled back by Luna.

“Just let her go, and cool off,” Taeyeon nods her head before heading back to the couch and
picking up her guitar case. “So you tweaked it?”

“Just a little,” answers Taeyeon as Luna takes a seat across from her picking up the papers.

*****

Hyoyeon‟s mind was still on her sister. Not that it ever was, but the last time she‟s seen her sister
like that was when their best friend Yuri announced to them that she‟s dating the ice princess.
But the girl had just called her stating that Jessica had showed up at her work. And so Hyoyeon

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couldn‟t help but to rake her fingers through her hair before sitting down and staring at the
mirrors that coated her studio.

If she would have known that this was how things were going to turn out to be, she wouldn‟t
have allowed certain things to take place. The first being the day that she took her sister to a
poetry reading, if she hadn‟t taken Taeyeon to the reading, Taeyeon would have never had a
chance to see Jessica Jung. Taeyeon would never have had the chance to use her as her muse.
Her sister could have chosen someone else.

If she couldn‟t change that then she might as well change the day that Yuri announced that this
really cute girl asked her to her school dance. Only come to find out the next day it was no other
than the girl that her sister had become obsessed with. And it was that exact same day that
Taeyeon had declared that she was through with the idea of pursuing Jessica Jung, not as if the
short girl had tried. It was more like sitting in their shared room all day writing songs and poems
about the girl.

Another day that Hyoyeon wishes she could change would be the day Yuri showed up at her
sister‟s doorstep. Taeyeon was already having a hard enough time trying to write music for the
job that Yuri had helped in getting. But to show up, semi demand that Taeyeon allows for her
girlfriend to stay in the empty room. It‟s not that Hyoeyon minded it, but her sister was just
getting over said girl. Her sister was moving on, with Tiffany Hwang, the American girl that
Taeyeon had met through Yuri.

Yes those three days are the days that she wishes she could change and alter. Her door opens
revealing Yuri dressed in a white sports bra and red sweatpants. It was than when she knew they
needed to talk.

*****

Jessica didn‟t want to hear any of this. All she wants to do is come home and sleep. She has just
got down doing a photo shoot, her behind the camera, and being bossed around by Taeyeon‟s girl
friend. All she wanted was some sleep. But what she had received was quite the opposite. She
opened the door to find that Yuri had returned home earlier than expected and in a foul mood at
that.

“Yuri what do you want me to do?” asks Jessica while watching the girl walk back and forth.

“Why‟d you go to her job alone?” asks Yuri sounding upset.

“To make up for the stupid thing you did,” responds Jessica taking the time to look at her nails.
“Why‟d you show up and explain that we‟re engaged?”

“It‟s something I‟m supposed to tell my best friend,” remarks Yuri before stopping in front of
Jessica. “I don‟t need permission to visit my best friend.”

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“And I don‟t need permission to visit my friend.” And that caught Yuri off guard. Jessica did
have a point. She didn‟t need Yuri‟s permission to visit a friend. But something about Jessica
visiting Taeyeon made her feel very uneasy. Yuri grabs her jacket and storms out of the
apartment, leaving behind a bewildered Jessica. Jessica continues to watch the spot that Yuri was
still standing in before allowing the tears that she was holding back to fall.

*****

“I spoke to Yuri earlier,” Taeyeon raises her head and looks at her stretching sister.

“Hyo-“

“Before you start complaining I would like to state that-“ The doors to the studio burst open as
Yuri storms in.

“Taeyeon!” Taeyeon stands up dusting off her pants as Yuri approaches them. Hyoyeon quickly
steps in between the two of them, knowing that her sister was at a disadvantage. Yuri was into
sports, her sister on the other hand delved in music and Disc Jockeying.

“Yul calm down,” states Hyoyeon as she pushes her sister behind her.

“I want to know what‟s going on between her and Jessica,” spats Yuri while pointing a finger at
Taeyeon.

“There is nothing going on between them,” states Hyoyeon, “did you or did you not set my sister
up with Tiffany Hwang, the clumsy, loud eye smile girl that works with your fiancée? Didn‟t we
already have this conversation today Yul?” Yuri backs down lowering her head.

“I know. I just feel so uneasy. I feel as if her mind is shifting elsewhere. I don‟t want to lose
her.”

“And so you put all the blame on my sister? Yul if Jessica didn‟t want you anymore she wouldn‟t
have except the proposal.” Taeyeon‟s phone goes off, the ringtone signaling that it was Jessica
calling. Hyoyeon and Yuri turn to look at her waiting for her to answer the call. After then ninth
ring, the phone cuts off.

“That‟s an emergency,” states Taeyeon, “I‟ll be going.” She walks past Yuri heading out the
door, and not before taking one look back at her sister and putting her head down in defeat.

*****

Taeyeon pulls up beside an upset Jessica who snatches the door open before sliding in with a
duffle bag. “I want to go home.”

“You are home,” responds Taeyeon.

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“No. I want to go back to the apartment.”

“This is your apartment.”

“Taengoo-“

“Taeyeon. My name is Taeyeon, Jessica. Not Taeng, not Taengoo. Just Taeyeon. And this is
your home, your apartment. Yuri will be arriving any moment now. In which both you and my
best friend will clear up any misunderstandings.” Taeyeon keeps her eyes on the steering wheel.
She hears the door to the car open, and out of the corner of her eyes she sees a new set of tears
stream down Jessica‟s face. As Jessica slides out the car, Taeyeon grabs hold of her wrist. “Just
stay with her for now, Jessica. But in the future if this happens again, call me.” Jessica shows no
signs of acknowledging her, as she snatches her wrist away and clamors out of the car, slamming
the door shut.

Taeyeon pulls off, driving back home. Stopping at the red light she places her head against the
steering wheel, letting the tears that she‟s been holding back for the longest fall. “I hate you. I
hate you, Kwon Yuri. I hate you for making Jessica cry. More importantly I hate you for making
me make Jessica cry.”

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I Love Kwon Yuri

Once again her phone rang throughout her bedroom; the noise bouncing off the walls like it has
been for the past few months. She laid there counting the number of times it rang. When it rang
twice that meant her roommate‟s on her way. Four times meant be there soon. Seven had meant
that she was spending the night at her girlfriend‟s Yuri‟s house, but now it all means nothing.
Except Nine. Nine meant and always meant that she and Yuri are arguing and she wants nothing
more than for Taeyeon to crawl out of bed, start up the car and come find her. She never really
had to answer but just count. So her she was counting the number of times it rang. Three times.
Five times. Eight and nine.

With a sigh, Taeyeon rolls out of her bed, and slides on a jacket along with some shoes. She
grabs her phone, keys and whatever else she would need before making her way to the front
door. Her phone ringing again. 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9. She quickly sends a text to her roommate,
informing the girl that she was on her way. A smile creeps on her face when the latter responded
back „hurry…I want my Taengoo.‟

She knew she shouldn‟t be smiling. But she couldn‟t be the slightest bit happy. Whenever Yuri
argues with her ex-roommate it meant that her ex-roommate would want to keep Taeyeon as
company. And that means making the short girl pick her up, take her back to the apartment and
spend the rest of the night in Taeyeon‟s arms.

She pulls up in front of a set of apartment, putting the car in park. Looking off to the lit window
of apartment 21, she spots two figures yelling at one another. The shorter of the two makes it
way to the door, in which it opens and she steps out. Not before flinging a finger at the girl
standing at the door, and storming down the stairs to the car. Her ex-roommate slides in
slamming the door shut. “Thank you Taengoo. And I‟m sorry,” states the girl while looking out
the car window, as the car pulls off.

“It‟s okay, Jessica,” responds Taeyeon as the car gets quiet.

*****

Jessica barges through the door, as soon as Taeyeon opens it and disappears into the bathroom.
Not before letting loose a few snarls and dropping some English words here and there. Taeyeon
follows shoot after shutting the door, only she heads to her room. Kicking off her shoes she
slides under the covers, looking up at the ceiling. She hears the shower cut on, as her creeper grin
returns to her face.

Jessica storms past Taeyeon‟s room into her old room in which she has restored a few items, the
sound of the door slamming echoing throughout the whole apartment. And so Taeyeon waits.
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friends, has been since they were in middle school. But whatever that‟s another story. The reason
why Taeyeon loves Yuri is the fact that after Jessica finishes her angry shower; she ends up in
Taeyeon‟s room in Taeyeon‟s favorite pajamas.

And as if on cue, the brunette appears in her doorway, hair damp and in a white tank top that
hugged her curves in the right places along with a pair of white boy shorts that showed off her
perfect creamy legs. And Taeyeon couldn‟t help but grin like a dork at the sight before her. Oh
how she truly loved Kwon Yuri.

Jessica approaches her already small twin size bed before crawling under the covers with
Taeyeon. “Taengoo,” murmurs Jessica as she buries her face in the crook of Taeyeon‟s neck.
Taeyeon wraps her arms around the latter, before pulling Jessica‟s face out of her neck,
completely mesmerized by the sight before her. Her free fingers on her free hand trail lightly up
and down Jessica‟s side, drawing small designs in her skin.

Jessica unleashes a small groan as Taeyeon‟s fingers trail across the girl‟s thigh, before pulling
Taeyeon in closer so their lips were close to one another. Leaning over Jessica, Taeyeon keeps
their lips at the same distance. In a swift motion Taeyeon‟s tongue slides across Jessica‟s lips
before blowing upon them. Another groan escapes from between Jessica‟s lips when the phone
in Taeyeon‟s pockets vibrates.

She pulls it out and clicks the button, only to be deafen by a loud, “Taetae!”

“Fany,” responds Taeyeon while letting go of Jessica and rolling away from the roommate.

“TaeTae, have you seen Jessi?”

“I‟ve got her and she‟s resting in bed.”

“Oh good.” There was a small pause, “You didn‟t hurt Yuri did you, for hurting my best friend?”

“No. Why would I hurt Yuri. Yuri‟s my best friend, and I love Kwon Yuri.”

“Oh, okay I have to go-wait did you say you love Yuri?” Tiffany‟s voice takes a sudden change.

“But I love you more, Fany. I love Yuri because she‟s my best friend. She got me my job and a
roommate that helped with the bills. I wouldn‟t know what I would do without her. Plus if it
wasn‟t for her I wouldn‟t have you.”

“Oh. Well I have to go…I love you Taeyeon.”

“Love you too.” She hangs up her phone before turning on her side to see Jessica giving her a
curious look.

“So you love my Seobang?” asks Jessica. Taeyeon nods her head as the girl shifts closer.

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“Are those the only reason why?”

“That and because when she does stupid things, she‟s giving me the chance to take advantage of
my muse.” Jessica buries her face in her pillow, trying to hide the blush that was creeping up on
her face.

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I Am Your Muse
Jessica sits and watches as the small brunette walks around the apartment picking up the scraps
of sheet music that lay about. She couldn‟t help but smile to herself. She always wondered how
her Seobang has chosen to break up with a girl like Taeyeon. Taeyeon was perfect in every way,
not that her Seobang wasn‟t. But with Taeyeon, she felt special so she knows that Yuri must
have felt special to have Taeyeon when they were younger. But she couldn‟t help but feel that
somehow during the few years that she‟s watched the two so called best friends interact that Yuri
was just taking advantage of Taeyeon.

Yuri would always tell her things like, „you don‟t know how much time and effort I put into
Taeyeon.‟ Or „Taeng owes me for everything I ever did for her.‟

She can clearly recall the night that she had told Yuri that her parents had kicked her out. She
never told her the reason why but that they just kicked her out. She clearly remembers Yuri
telling her that she knows somebody she can bunk with. And on that exact same night, Jessica
ended up outside this very apartment with Yuri trying to talk the short girl into allowing her to
stay. And the way things were going it didn‟t seem like Taeyeon wanted anything to do with
Jessica. And Jessica was deeply hurt. She never showed it, but she was. And that‟s when Yuri
pulled out the card, „I‟ve gotten you a job! A girl friend since you couldn‟t do so yourself! And
remember everything I had to go through for you when we were younger?‟ and Taeyeon gave in.

Jessica remembers the first few months of living with the girl had her on eggshells. She had to be
careful with any and everything. It wasn‟t very hard for her to do. She always left Taeyeon
alone; afraid that if she does something the girl would kick her out. She has every right to. But as
time had gone by Taeyeon had begun to open up to Jessica. Taeyeon had begun cooking for the
girl after being called by the fire department. Taeyeon would comfort her when she and Yuri
would fight. Taeyeon would do anything and everything for her in the drop of a dime.

Taeyeon was even more romantic than Yuri.

And then the company had sent Taeyeon away to get some inspiration. Declaring that her music
was lacking a certain something. And during that time, Jessica began to feel lonely and
neglected. Sure she had Yuri but Yuri always seemed to busy for her. So it was just her alone in
the apartment. And that‟s when she realized she needed Taeyeon‟s company.

When she came back from her vacation, Taeyeon was well different. She was no longer the shy
girl who would only look at Jessica few only a few seconds. No she had become more aggressive
in everything. From the way she looked at Jessica, to the way she touched her and even the way
she spoke to her. And what scares Jessica the most is that she loves everything about it. Even the
thought of Taeyeon sneaking her kisses when they were alone would excite her.

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“Okay, the food is all set,” Jessica breaks out of her trance to see Taeyeon heading for the front
door, “Breakfast is ready. Lunch is in a container in the fridge; just heat it up with the
microwave. Fany is dropping by later to drop off some things. My sister Hyoyeon might swing
by to pick up a few things. And that should be it.” Jessica nods her head watching the girl leave,
“oh and if you decide to go back home to Yuri‟s apartment, please let me or Fany know okay?”

Jessica nods her head again, this time her eyes shift to the engagement ring.

“Sica…” Looking up she sees Taeyeon standing in front of her.

“I don‟t know if I want to go back so soon,” whisper Jessica, her mind torn in two. She wanted to
go back to her Yuri. The girl she‟s been with since middle school. The girl who‟s always was by
her side until now. But another wanted to stay with this dorky girl, to break all things off with
Yuri and to steal her away from Tiffany. “No I think I‟ll go.” Jessica stands up and heads to the
front door with Taeyeon walking behind her.

“You don‟t have to. I‟m not forcing you out.”

“No Taeyeon. I need to make up with my fiancée.” Taeyeon nods her head following after the
taller girl.

If Jessica would have known that the short, glasses bearing girl that she saw gawking at her back
in middle school would turn out to cherish her like this, she would have never taken the dare to
ask Yuri out. She would have never taken the chance to fall for Yuri, and decided to spend the
rest of her life with said girl. Instead she probably would have spoken to the short five year old
looking girl after hearing the words escape her lips during the poetry reading, and not had sent
her famous icy glare. No she would be on her way to becoming Mrs. Kim Taeyeon and not Mrs.
Kwon Yuri.

She climbs out of the car and watches as Taeyeon drives off to work, with a sad expression on
her face. “I don‟t like that I am your muse. Tiffany Hwang should be your muse,” states Jessica
to herself, “because the more I am your muse the more four people in total have to go through an
unbearable pain.”

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Girl Friend
Jessica Jung. Her best friend. She remembers meeting the girl back when they were beginning
high school. She had just transferred in from America to study at the Girl‟s Prep Academy with
the aspiration of becoming a fashion designer with her knack of the arts. Being that she only
knew English it was bound to happen that she would use Jessica Jung as a crutch around town
until she had learned to live on her own. At first the girl would only allow for her to be part of
her group, so that she wouldn‟t look bad in front of her girl friend and followers. But after time,
they became closer and developed a strong bond all the while having complete and total opposite
personalities.

It was as if they were there to protect one another. When a person would call her and idiot for
mispronouncing something, Jessica would stand up for her. And when someone would harass
Jessica for her personality, she would stand up for Jessica. It was as simple as that. They were
the typical best friends. Except for the occasional benefits, in which Jessica would call practice
session, telling her that Yuri was more advance at relationships than she was and she need
someone who was near the same level as Yuri to teach her. And she did without any trouble.

Kwon Yuri. Her Best Friends fiancée and more importantly her girl friend‟s best friend. Now
this was a girl that had captivated her. She met her around the same time that she had met Jessica
Jung. The tan skin beauty would always pull some sort of prank which in the end caused her to
look like a fool in front of the student body on a daily basis. But what she loves the most about
this girl was their scandal. Sure the girl was going out with her best friend. But she couldn‟t help
but fall under Yuri‟s control, when Jessica wasn‟t around. The way the younger tan girl would
touch her, hold her, kiss her would thrill her beyond belief. She loved the fact they they would
sneak around. She didn‟t know why she loved it, maybe because it made her think of home and
how everyone back in America, back in an American high school would act.

In reality she should have felt some sort of guilt but she couldn‟t. She just couldn‟t. To her Yuri
was something to cherish and the way her best friend would treat her sometimes made her
wonder if she in any way felt anything for the girl. But Jessica never once said anything about
loving Yuri, always that she liked Yuri and her company. She even stated that the only reason
they were together was because of a dare in middle school. That and the fact that Yuri had taken
her to her dance. And then Yuri cut it all off, stating that she was trying to do right by Jessica.
She was heartbroken to say the least. But then Jessica came up with the idea of her dating Yuri‟s
best friend and Yuri agreed. She told her that the girl was a little introverted, but was just as
dorky as she was when she opens up. In which case she couldn‟t help but to agree. If Yuri was
moving on away from her than so should she.

Kim Taeyeon. Her girl friend. Her future fiancée, her lover. The girl that she‟s been with for four
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they met. It was the day that Yuri decided to introduce the two of them, in which she ended up
falling in the school pool and being rescued by the short girl. She never thought that she would
fall for the short girl, but her baby face and beauty is what captured her when the girl had pulled
her up to air. She can clearly remember the girl stalking off to somewhere secluded after being
introduced. And so she had waited and waited until the girl left the school and confronted her by
giving thanks and asking her out. Only to be rejected. And in an opportunity of trying again she
chased after the girl and ended up sliding across the floor like her usual clumsy self.

But that didn‟t matter. Because it gave her a chance to go out with the short girl. Yup that‟s how
she remembers it. She ended up nearly drowning and scraping her knee all for Yuri. All because
Yuri asked her to go out with her best friend. Tiffany could have declined the offer. She wasn‟t
exactly over her best friend‟s girl friend. Even though they really didn‟t have a real relationship,
they were only cheaters. And that only happened when her best friend and Yuri would break up.
And to top it off she only agreed to dating the younger girl because Yuri had asked. Because
Yuri insisted. And since the American girl had a small crush on the tan girl, she gave in to Yuri‟s
asking and begging. And so she did it. She asked the girl out.

And within weeks the two began dating casually and within two years the two began to date
officially. And that‟s what Tiffany was. Her girl friend. Her respective partner, not the one that
was the cheating partner. The one that Taeyeon keeps telling herself that she‟ll love forever, not
that she never loved her. Taeyeon will honestly admit that she‟s falling or has begun falling for
the girl. But her best friend‟s continuing interference has driven her growing feelings to stop.

Taeyeon was content with Tiffany and Tiffany knew that. She knew that the short girl was
willing and ready to allow her to move in. But then Kwon Yuri had to mess things up by saying,
no demanding that Taeyeon allow that Jessica have the spare room in which she knew Taeyeon
stored her work stuff. But she was happy that Yuri did that. It may have halted her moving in,
but it allowed for Taeyeon to make them an official item. Yes, she was now official with the girl
and they were preparing to get married within the next few years.

And that‟s how it‟s all been, with the addition of her girl friend wanting her best friend.

Tiffany knows that she might not be the brightest out of her friends, but she wasn‟t stupid. She
was well aware of her girlfriend sneaking around with Jessica. She perfectly knew that Kim
Taeyeon wasn‟t exactly faithful to her. She can hear it in Taeyeon‟s voice whenever they speak,
and see it in the older girls eyes when they meet. And all in all she‟s been trying her hardest to
keep quiet about the whole situation. Afraid that if she speaks Taeyeon would leave her, all the
while holding on the blind faith that Taeyeon would return.

“What am I to do?” asks Tiffany to herself as she stares at the picture of her and Taeyeon on
their third year anniversary. “Maybe I should talk to Taetae…no, I can‟t do that. How about
Jessi?” As she reaches over to get her phone, it suddenly rings. “Hello?”

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The person on the other line not knowing that Tiffany had answer continues screaming. Tiffany
listens as she hears some glass break along with loud crashes, before making out a faint, “Yuri I
can‟t handle this anymore!” Her mind goes blank. The thought of Yuri and Jessica breaking up
scares her. It means that she could lose Taeyeon. Quickly hanging up, Tiffany slides on her
shoes, grabs her jacket and makes her way out of her small condo, heading towards Taeyeon‟s
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Best Friend
Kim Taeyeon. Best Friends. They have been since diapers. She herself was the only person that
Taeyeon was really able to count on since the shorter girl‟s family was a mess. During their
diaper stage, she‟d share bottles and naptime pillows and blankets with the girl. And their bond
grew stronger and stronger. Over the years she even began to develop some sort of feelings for
the shorter girl. The girl was gorgeous and smart, and her height was something else. So during
middle school, during the time period that they‟ve began to lose communication all due to the
simple fact that they both belonged to different areas of the social hierarchy: Taeyeon was at the
bottom and she was at the top; she asked the girl out.

Well technically she didn‟t ask her best friend out. More like climbed up the tree outside
Taeyeon‟s house beat on the window. Tricked the girl into coming near her by bribing her with
gummy worms, and then pulled the girl into a kiss, all before fleeing the premises. And when she
had arrived at school she already knew that Taeyeon would question her. And for the second
time she kissed the girl. IN which she demanded that Taeyeon stay by her side. Taeyeon agreed,
but then things fell short for the two. Taeyeon‟s schedule had become more and more jam
packed, and She began to grow impatient to the point where Taeyeon had wished to cut the
relationship, leaving them back in the position of best friends.

Tiffany Hwang. Her fiancée‟s best friend. Her best friend‟s girl friend, and her ex-cheating
partner. She was still dating her girl friend when she first met the bubbly cute American girl.
And the girl had intrigued her. And being that she was a dork, she would pull pranks on the girl
in order to garner her attention. And it worked. Tiffany would now look at her with curiosity and
a something more. And so one day during a weeklong feud with her girl friend, she cornered the
American girl in the locker room. And began to play with fire. She would whisper things to the
girl in Korean, never knowing if the girl fully understood but who cared. The girl had made her
feel wanted.

So the touches, the stolen glances, the kisses and hugs began more and more frequently. At first
it was just a way of getting back at her girlfriend. It‟s not as if she was spiteful, but she had this
need to put her girl friend back in place. She never planned on it becoming a reoccurring thing.
Sure she fancied the girl, but that was it. She never wanted anything more. But the meetings
became dates in which she began to fall in love with Tiffany. Until she noticed a change in her
girl friend, leading to her halting all things with Tiffany. It took a lot in her to stop seeing the
girl, she wanted to do right by her girl friend because they‟ve been together for so long. But she
also wanted to feel the American girl‟s touch, to hear things she‟s never heard from her girl
friend, and to love the girl. She didn‟t want to let Tiffany out of her sight, and so as a way to
keep the girl on a leash she agreed with getting Tiffany together with her best friend. Not aware
of the possibility of Tiffany falling in love.

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Jessica Jung. Sica Baby. Her fiancée and girl friend since middle school. Middle school when
she exactly met the strikingly beautiful girl. It was around the time that she had broken up with
Taeyeon and was trying to make up with the girl, since she was against the whole idea of
breaking up. She was with her friends giving Taeyeon her birthday present when Jessica made an
appearance. Out of nowhere the girl had asked her out on the date, and she responded by saying
yes even though it she was on her way of making up with Taeyeon. And so that‟s how it started,
with the date which she had a good time.

It from that to casually hanging out, to taking Jessica Jung to her dance to full blown dating. But
as time progressed their relationship became stale. It was boring to her, and arguments became a
frequent thing between the two. And that upset she, all the time and effort that she‟s put into the
relationship and it was all going down the drain. And so she cheated, she cheated on the girl
hoping to garner some sort of happiness. And she did. She started feeling alive again, but she
noticed in that Jessica‟s persona change.

And so she tried, she turned back to Jessica and started the relationship over. She spoiled her,
and placed all her body in mind back into the relationship. But something was right. Jessica
wasn‟t right. She just hasn‟t been into it anymore. That worried Yuri, it worried her beyond
belief. Her insecurities started in.

Yuri bought a ring, proposed, all in the hopes of tying Jessica down for her selfish reasons. for
her to feel safe again. Jessica accepted, and wore the ring proudly. But now the ring lays ring in
front of her in the middle of the mess. The middle of the mess that her and Jessica had created
twenty four hours ago.

Her dark orbs scan over the broken glass, torn pictures and pages. Following the dents in the
walls created by the chairs she‟s thrown. Standing up, Yuri slowly makes her way through the
mess heading to the bedroom. The drawers lay open, her clothes laid across the room covered in
bleach as Jessica‟s clothes have disappeared. All gone with her, to who knows where.

She never wanted to push the girl this far. She never wanted to lose her. That was never part of
her plan. Sure she had the flings in the past, but that was because she was being stupid. And now
that Jessica was gone, she couldn‟t help but feel hopeless and lonely. Reaching into her pocket,
she pulls out her cell phone dialing a number.

“Hello, Hyo?”

“Yuri?”

“Can you and Sooyoung come over along with Taeng? I really need my friends right now.”

“Alright I‟ll round everyone up.” Yuri hangs up and takes one last look at the room.

“Sica baby, come back please,” whispers Yuri, before turning off the light.

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Muse
Tiffany Hwang. Her best friend well sort of. She‟ll never openly admit that over the years that in
reality she had became closer to one of her girl friend‟s friends: Choi Sooyoung. But that doesn‟t
matter. She remembers the clumsy girl approaching her back in high school, because she was
one of the few people who understood English. With her cold personality she wanted to push the
girl as far away as possible from her small group. She wasn‟t fond of new people and she
definitely wasn‟t very fond of the way her girl was eyeing the American girl. So in order to keep
an eye on the two she allowed for the girl to follow her around the school, telling her that she
didn‟t want to look like a fool in front of everyone. What she didn‟t know was that they began to
grow closer.

Disregarding her uneasy feelings and insecurities, she began to protect Tiffany from harassment.
And Tiffany did the same in vice versa. But then her feelings returned. As her and her girl friend
began to argue more and more, the closer her girl friend and Tiffany had gotten. And then it
happened. She had walked in on the two of them in a heated make out session in the locker
room. Her world came crashing down. She no longer trusted Tiffany. No. She stopped trusting
her and began placing everything in the hands of Choi Sooyoung. She wanted to get back at her
girl friend. And so she began her „practice sessions‟ wither girl friend‟s mistress. She even goes
as far as allowing for her girl friend to walk in on them in the midst of a kissing session and
calling it practice. But her feelings for her girl friend had stopped. She closed her heart off to the
girl, never allowing for the feelings to grow.

Kwon Yuri. Her fiancée. Her partner since middle school. The girl she suppose to be in love
with. She always thought that Yuri was perfect for her. The girl was sort of like a prince
charming in a girl‟s form. But it never started out like that. In the beginning Yuri was nothing
more than a dare. Some dare that her fellow friends forced her to do. And so she followed
through, asking the girl out. Out on a date and to her school dance. And as time passed she began
falling head over heels for the girl.

But all good things must come to an end. Their relationship was falling apart. Yuri was more
caught up with the idea of doing a clumsy, eye smile, Korean illiterate American girl. That‟s all
that preoccupied Yuri‟s mind throughout high school. And so she never really carried out any
more feelings for the tan girl after watching her shove her tongue down the American girl‟s
throat. That doesn‟t mean that she doesn‟t love the girl. No she loves her. But that love stopped
growing. Yuri still has a hold on her heart, which keeps pulling her back. But that‟s all. They‟re
just partners people who are together just for the reason of being together for such a long time.

Kim Taeyeon. Her friend. Her fiancée‟s best friend. Her best friend‟s girl friend. Her lover. The
short dork that makes her feel special. The short girl that‟s been breaking down the barrier
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attention the most, back when she was younger. It wasn‟t exactly love at first sight, just a mere
curiosity. Taeyeon was rather on the short side when she first saw her, and she still is. The girl
looked to be a five year old with her pigtails, bangs and glasses. And the fact that she was
hanging out with a group of middle school students in a café that was holding a poetry reading
and what not, intrigued her.

But what really caught her attention was when the vertically challenged girl got on stage and
read a poem that was unbelievable. Her voice was enticing. It hooked her. But what she did
afterwards startled her. When Taeyeon was walking by, instead of talking to the girl, she shot
her, her famous icy glare. After that she hasn‟t really seen or spoken much to the girl until she
moved in with the girl. In which they became really close. So close that they‟ve began seeing
each other behind their respective partner‟s back.

All which led her to where she was now. It‟s been a month since she‟s seen or spoken to anyone,
except for Sooyoung. She‟s stopped arriving at work, which caused for Tiffany to leave
countless amounts of voice mails on her phone, all saying the same thing: „Jessica Jung Sooyeon
if you do not come and take photos, you‟re so going to be out of a job!” followed by, „Just joking
I wouldn‟t fire my best friend. But please come to work Jessi.”

Jessica continues staring out the window of the hotel room that she was in, listening to her phone
ring in the background. “One month,” she states to herself, “One month in a hotel room.” She‟s
been using up her savings while staying in the hotel room. It wasn‟t as if she didn‟t have
anywhere to go. She did. She could go back home, but she didn‟t want to hear her parents nag
her to death.

She could go to Tiffany‟s but that would mean having to deal with the loud girl. And that was
something that should be avoided when could.

Another option would be returning to Yuri‟s. But that would mean returning after a month, and
who knows how mad the girl would be after she dumped bleach all over the clothes. On top of
that she would have to go back to the argument. Jessica didn‟t want to have to deal with it again.
How could Yuri get mad at her for cheating? When she did it in the first place. And it‟s not like
she wouldn‟t have done it again. There were signs of her starting again. She was always out, with
some chick calling it work. And when Yuri would visit her at work, she‟d spend most of the time
watching Yuri hold conversations with Tiffany.

Her last option would be to go to Taeyeon‟s. But that would mean she would have to find the
girl. When she first went there after the argument Taeyeon was nowhere to be seen. So she
headed here instead. She‟s been calling Taeyeon‟s phone, but it would either go to voicemail or
Tiffany would answer. And since she no longer possessed a house key she couldn‟t enter the
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Releasing a sigh, as the sky outside the window lights up followed by a loud rumble, her brown
orbs follows the trail of a single droplet of rain as it zigzags across the window pane. “Taengoo,”
mumbles Jessica, “I want my Taengoo.” A knock upon the door breaks the girl out of her trance.

Slowly, she makes her way across the room to the other side, making her visitor impatient as the
knocking turns into beating. “I‟m coming!” She snatches the door open to see Taeyeon standing
on the other side, soaking wet and shivering, “Taengoo!?”

Taeyeon walks in slamming the door shut, “We need to talk,” states Taeyeon. “I,” she pauses
slightly unsure of what to say, “I think you‟re making a mistake. You should return to Yuri,
you‟re not thinking straight.”

“And you were?” remarks Jessica in disbelief.

“No I wasn‟t.”

“So I‟m not you muse, and I‟ve been cheating on Yuri with you because you weren‟t thinking
straight. So in all you really harbor no feelings fo-“

“No! You are my muse!” Taeyeon raises her voice slightly while pacing around the room,
holding onto her head. “And I do have feelings for you, but I‟ve got Tiffany. And you have Yuri.
And the more any of this continues the more the four of us is going to get hurt.” She stops takes a
deep breath and takes one last look at Jessica, “I‟m leaving with Fany to America and you should
return to Yuri. Give her another chance.”

“No!” Jessica grabs hold of Taeyeon as prepares to leave. She didn‟t care anymore who gets hurt
as a result of them. She was going to be selfish. Pulling the short girl back, slamming their lips
together.”I want you,” mumbles Jessica in between the kisses. Her hands begin to discard
Taeyeon of her wet clothes. Taeyeon switches rolls taking the lead; she walks them back to the
bed trailing her lips down Jessica‟s neck. A moan leaves Jessica‟s lips as Taeyeon‟s hands brush
against her inner thigh.

Both girls fall upon the bed, and Taeyeon crawls on top of Jessica never breaking the kiss. As
another moan leaves Jessica‟s lips, Taeyeon abruptly stops. “No,” Taeyeon crawls off the bed
and slides on her shirt and jacket. “I‟ve spent a month reassuring Fany of our relationship.” She
turns back to Jessica, “she‟s in enough pain.” She heads to the door again only to be pull back
again by Jessica, “Sica.” Turning around she finds Jessica on her knees facing the floor, “Jessica
let go.” Jessica shakes her head no, her grip tightening.

She wasn‟t letting go of her. Letting go meant a chance of never seeing her again. It meant the
end. It meant uncontrollable and unbearable pain. “Stay,” begs Jessica her voice wavering,
“Please Taengoo,” raising her head slightly she looks Taeyeon in the eyes.

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“I…I…” Taeyeon looks elsewhere aware of the fact that looking Jessica in the eyes, meant
seeing how Jessica truly felt. And that meant caving in, and she wasn‟t ready for theat. “I have to
go.”

In one last futile attempt at making her stay, Jessica pulls the girl back with all her body.
Taeyeon trips over her own feet in the process, and falls on top of her. The result breaks Taeyeon
strong hold, allowing for her to give in to temptation again. Cupping both of Jessica‟s cheeks
Taeyeon moves her lips across Jessica‟s in a slow teasing manner, in which Jessica eagerly
responds. Each passing kiss becoming more and more intense as both girls‟ hands roam the
other‟s body, removing clothes and touching every place they can reach afraid that it might be
the last time. Afraid that this was it.

*****

Taeyeon awakens to the sight of Jessica sleeping peacefully beside her. She gently strokes her
cheek before leaning over and very gently kissing the spot right below Jessica‟s brow bone.
Rolling back over to her side, she sits up and begins gather her clothes sliding them on. Taking
one last look at Jessica, she quietly exits out of the hotel room while dialing a number only to
reach a voice mail box. So she left a message that stated, “Yul? I know where Jessica is located.”

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Your Muse Loses Her Heart

She couldn‟t believe her eyes. Maybe it had to do with all the food she‟s consumed in the past
week or whatever. She blinks and rubs her eyes to see if the scene before her was a figment of
her imagination. Nope. It was still there. Sitting in the middle of a pile of boxes was Kim
Taeyeon, packing for her move to America. At first when the midget said she was leaving to
America with her girlfriend, she and the rest of the group thought she was joking. Thought that
Taeyeon was returning to her old dorky self again. But she guesses not, since all the evidence
was in front of her.

She didn‟t like this. If Taeyeon left, the effect would mean the end of the group. Sure Yuri leaves
the group often to hang out with her friends from the Prep Academy, but this was different.
Taeyeon led the group. Not many know it, but it‟s true. Many had always thought that Yuri led
the group, when in fact it is Taeyeon who leads them. It was Taeyeon who brought them
together. Taeyeon brought Yuri as her best friend. Hyoyeon got her and joined the group because
they were siblings. And Seohyun because she was Taeyeon‟s study partner and pillar of strength
when Yuri wasn‟t around.

If it wasn‟t for the short girl, none of them would have met and became the group they are today.
“You‟re making a mistake.”

Taeyeon stops packing her clothes and looks up at the giant that was sitting at her desk and has
been watching her with a contemplating face, “Sooyoung, I know what I am doing.”

“No you don‟t. You‟re not thinking. Hyo tell her she‟s not thinking.”

“I agree with the giant. You‟re not thinking,” states Hyoyeon who was sitting on the bed
watching her sister, “Maybe you should talk with dad about this.”

“I have nothing to say to a man who abandons his own daughter.” Taeyeon stands up and heads
to the closet to retrieve some more clothes. “And this is for the best.”

“For the best?” questions Hyoyeon in disbelief as she turns to look at Sooyoung who shrugs her
shoulders. “Tae, you know no one in America.”

“I‟ve got Fany‟s family.”

“Okay, so you know what, a total of three people?!” Hyoyeon couldn‟t understand why her sister
was being so stubborn. “Tae, you‟ll be out of a job. You can hardly speak and understand
English, so song writing and DJing is out. So what will you do for money?”

“I‟ll go back to school and learn English, Hyo, and make a life- a new life with Fany!” snaps
Taeyeon as she turns to her sister.

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“And what about Sica?” Everyone stops what they were doing and turns to see a highly messed
and stressed Yuri leaning against the doorway to the bedroom. Her hair needed to be combed,
her skin was unhealthy looking and the bags under her eyes were extremely noticeable.

“You said she went back,” states Taeyeon as she turns back to get some clothes.

“Yeah and for the past days we‟ve tried everything to fix the relationship. And it‟s not mending
Taeng. She just doesn‟t love me anymore. I‟m no longer the person holding her heart. She took it
back and has now placed it in your hands.”

Taeyeon freezes for a moment and looks at her hands before shaking off all thoughts. “She‟s just
being the normal stubborn Ice Princess that you would complain about.”

“You‟re the one being stubborn!” snaps Yuri, causing for both Sooyoung and Hyoyeon to
separate the two girls. Sooyoung pushes Yuri a little further backs since she had entered the
room, and was within feet of Taeyeon. As Hyoyeon steps in, becoming a shield for her older
sister. “You‟re being stupid and blind and ignorant. The fact is that Jessica is in love with you!”

“And she‟ll get over it,” grits Taeyeon through her teeth as her expression falters. She doesn‟t
want for Jessica to fall out of love with her. And that was selfish enough, but she needed for Yuri
to turn around and fight for Jessica. No matter how much she hates the idea of Jessica being
called Mrs. Kwon. Once again Yuri lunges forward, only to have Sooyoung slam her against the
hallway wall.

“Why are you being so stubborn?!”

“I‟m not being stubborn. I‟m helping you. You‟ve done so much for me and I just want to return
the favor. I want to help fix your relationship-“

“What is there to fix? Our relationship has been done with since high school. Since I cheated
with Tiffany!” Taeyeon drops the clothes she was holding and looks Yuri in the face. “I cheated
on Sica with Tiffany in high school. Jessica found out and ever since then our relationship has
been over. We‟ve just never really did anything about it.”

“It‟s not over. You just need to fix it.”

“Don‟t you think I‟ve been trying?” questions Yuri while struggling to break free of Sooyoung‟s
grip. She takes a deep breath trying to calm herself down. “I gave up Tiffany, and placed her in
your hands for selfish reasons. I tired working things out with Jessica. But it‟s over. She wants
you, not me, you,” admits Yuri, “but you‟re so…so…so stubborn.”

“So what if I am?”

“Do you not see what your choice in taking Tiffany to America is doing? Do you not see who
it‟s affecting? You yourself will be out of a job. Hyo will lose her part time job as a

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choreographer since she works through you. Seohyun loses her part time job that putting her
through college because she‟ll no longer be working on producing melodies for your ballads.
Luna loses a coach and songwriter. My sister loses a very crucial employee. Jessica will be out
of a job since she works under Tiffany as a photographer. Sooyoung will lose her modeling job
since she also works under Tiffany.” Yuri lowers her head in defeat, “I lose my best friend.
You‟ll lose your muse, and your muse.” She raises it one last time and looks Taeyeon in the
eyes, “Your muse loses her heart.” Noticing that Yuri had calmed down, Sooyoung releases Yuri
from her hold.

Taeyeon looks off to the side before sliding on a jacket, “Tae where are you going?” asks
Hyoyeon as she follows after her sister.

“I need some air,” answers Taeyeon with a wavering voice. Hyoyeon grabs the girl‟s wrist and
turns her around to see tears falling from her eyes.

Nodding her head she turns and looks at the two watching them before turning back to Taeyeon,
“let‟s go find Seohyun.”

*****

Tiffany was taking apart a newly acquired Nikon camera that she was- correction had tried to
figure out how to work it. A frustrated groan escapes her lips as she looks at the camera wishing
to throw it. This wasn‟t her job. She was just a fashion editor and designer, working in a small
segment of a larger corporation. She only had a few employees working under her, and the few
being Jessica as her photographer and Sooyoung as her prime model. Looking around she
examines the emptying room. “In the next few days, I‟ll be home with Taeyeon,” whispers
Tiffany as she turns back to the camera.

Footsteps echo throughout the quiet room, “Look Yuri, I don‟t have time for your little „vent
your frustrations on how Jessi isn‟t giving you any‟ quickie sessions. I have to pack.”

“You‟re still seeing Yuri?” Tiffany freezes and sets the camera down, before looking over her
shoulder to see Jessica standing behind her. “Tiff, you‟re supposed to be with Taeyeon. The girl
is willing to fly half way around the world for you and you‟re still screwing around with Yuri?”
Tiffany clicks her tongue as she goes back to fiddling with the camera.

“It was a onetime thing since I‟ve been with Tae. And you‟re one to talk. Tae came home the
other morning with scratches, bruises and love bites everywhere. And that‟s something I don‟t
do, so I know it had to have been you.” Tiffany sets the camera down again and turns to look at
Jessica, “I‟ve stayed away from what‟s yours. I‟ve been putting everything I‟ve had into my
relationship with Taeyeon. And then you- you come waltzing in and take her from me! I get it
Jessi, I‟ve messed up your relationship with Yuri back in high school, but that gives you no right
to make Tae cheat on me.”

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“Yeah but it doesn‟t give you the right to take her half way across the universe and away from
her friends and family,” remarks Jessica, preparing to fight for Taeyeon. She wasn‟t going to
allow for Tiffany to take her away.

“What friends, Jessi? Yuri and her are fighting nonstop because of you, or haven‟t you noticed
the tension between the two? Sooyoung doesn‟t really talk to her, and this is the first time in
months since she‟s been holding a decent conversation with her sister,” argues Tiffany. “And
family? Her dad is with Hyoyeon‟s mom, and doesn‟t speak to her. She‟s better off in America.”

“Tiff, she knows no one in America. She‟ll be an outcast, she deserves to stay here,” states
Jessica. Tiffany rolls her eyes and picks the camera up setting it in its case.

“You want me to let her stay here and allow for you to continue seeing her?” interrogates Tiffany
while zipping the case close. “To allow for you to keep stealing her? That fight with Yuri must
have really messed with your head. You‟re no longer thinking straight Jessi.”

“Please, don‟t take her away,” Tiffany could only scoff as she walks past Jessica. Feeling fingers
wrap around her wrist, Tiffany stops and turns around to see Jessica giving her a cold glare.
“This is the last time that I will ask Tiffany Hwang, after this I won‟t be so nice anymore. Please
let Taeng stay.”

Looking at Jessica, she puts her head down. All the guilt that she felt back in high school came
rushing back. Her chest began to tighten, and the ability to breathe became harder. She closes her
eyes, only to be flooded by the images of a hurt teenage Jessica. Shaking her head, she opens her
eyes and looks up at Jessica, to see her curiously looking at her. “Even if I say stay, to
TaeTae…she won‟t listen, Jessi. Her mind is already made up. I know you know how stubborn
she can be,” whispers Tiffany. “I don‟t mean to hurt you Jessi. But this wasn‟t my idea. It‟s all
Taeyeon‟s. She thinks that you‟ll be better off with Yuri and that the only way you‟ll be able to
see it is by her leaving to America. At first she wanted to go alone, but when I tried to convince
her, she asked me to come. And how am I to turn down a chance at going home? Did you think I
was going to turn down a chance at creating a life with a person I‟m learning to love? Do you
know how hard it was for me when Yuri tossed me to the side? Do you know how hard it was to
watch for her to return you? After the countless nights together and her saying that she‟s in love
with me? And then I got TaeTae. And I began falling for her, when she was still wrapped around
you. Just when I finally get her to notice and fall for me, she begins to leave for you. So when the
opportunity arises to keep her to myself…I took it. But Jessica I can‟t…I can‟t give her up. I
won‟t give her up,” states tiffany as the tears threaten to fall from her face. “So if you‟re going to
fight for her, I won‟t back down.”

For once Jessica was unsure of what to do. When she planned on confronting Tiffany she never
had any clue of Tiffany making her fight. Back when Jessica confronted her about Yuri, Tiffany
backed down. And now here she was standing up to Jessica, preparing to fight. Jessica releases
Tiffany‟s wrist, catching Tiffany off guard.

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“You‟ll never get enough of taking things from me,” states Jessica as she walks past Tiffany
heading towards the elevator, “I‟ve already lost my heart once to you, I‟m not going to lose it
again.” Jessica stops and looks over her shoulder at Tiffany one last time before entering the
elevator.

Tiffany swallows her spit at the glare that Jessica had sent her behind the closing steel doors.
That glare wasn‟t one of the usual Icy glares. No. It was something totally different. That glare
meant one and only one thing. That she unleashed the side of Jessica that the fellow peers had
coined „Hellsica‟. She remembered the last time it happened was back when some kid threatened
to beat the living crap out of the youngest Jung for being very indifferent about something. And
well she can‟t quite remember what happened to the kid. But what no one knows is that Tiffany
had witnessed Hellsica first hand, and she still has the scar as evidence of the incident.

“Going up against the Jungs,” murmurs Tiffany as she heads to the elevator, “I must be suicidal.”

*****

“Yuri?” Yuri looks up from her spot on the bridge that was overlooking the river to see Tiffany
approaching her.

“Tiffany,” responds Yuri before turning to look back out at the water.

“Why‟d you call me way out here?” asks Tiffany.

“You‟re making a mistake,” whispers Yuri over the noise the traffic was making behind them.

“Not you also,” states Tiffany slightly frustrated. “Just because Jessica doesn‟t want you doesn‟t
mean you have any right to break me and TaeTae apart.”

“But you don‟t even have feelings,” states Yuri still not looking at the American girl.

“Says who?! I‟m learning to love TaeTae.”

“What if?” Tiffany freezes and looks at Yuri. Yuri returns the look out the corner of her eyes, as
she raises her head to the sky, “What if? That‟s all any of us are asking ourselves right now.
What if? What if I still date Taeng? What if I never cheated on Sica? What if Sica never asked
me out? What if I never got you with Taeng? What if, what if?”

“So what are you asking?”

“What if I never gave you up,” She walks behind Tiffany wrapping her arms around Tiffany‟s
waist, hugging her from behind. A content sigh escapes Tiffany‟s lips as she closes her eyes,
relaxing into Yuri‟s embrace all before abruptly pushing her away.

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“Well, keep asking yourself „what if‟.” Tiffany walks away leaving a behind a stunned Yuri. As
much as she wanted to stay in the girl‟s arms, she couldn‟t. It just brought back all the memories
and heartache from high school.

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No Matter How Much I Want to Leave, I

Can’t
She clenches her jaw tightly; her grip on the steering wheel tightens. Is she really making a
mistake? Is leaving really the best option? No. She‟s doing the right thing, right? If she were to
stay things would only be worst, for all four of them. Leaving would end things, right? It‟ll give
Yuri the chance to fight for Jessica. Jessica would be happy again and so would Yuri. And
Tiffany. Tiffany would be ecstatic. But where would that leave her?

Her expression falters. Would she be happy? Can she honestly answer yes, to being happy in
America with no job? No source of income? And no friends or family?

Job? That‟s why she‟s returning to school. And friends? What friends? It was just her, Hyo,
Sooyoung, Yul and Seohyun. And the only family she really had was Hyo. Her mother‟s gone
and her father is still a dead beat. So maybe this is the best thing for her. She nods her head,
agreeing with herself smiling. That is until a song begins to spill out of the speakers, filling the
car. It wasn‟t just any song. It was the very first song she wrote using Jessica as her muse. The
one that was said during the poetry reading. Sure when she read it was a poem, but with the help
of Seohyun and Seohyun‟s friend‟s band they composed a song.

Her muse. No. She shakes her head trying to rid herself of these thoughts that flooded her mind.
Jessica is no longer her muse. Tiffany is. There is no more Jessica. That‟s why they‟re catching
an earlier flight. That‟s why they‟re leaving in the middle of the night. For the airport. And no
one knows. She just woke up, got dresses, woke Tiffany up and tugged her out of the apartment.

And now her head was pounding, feeling as if it was going to explode. These thoughts and
questions were adding even more stress. Knowing how dangerous it was to close her eyes while
driving, she does so anyways hoping to ease the pain. But it wasn‟t easing. With her eyes close
all she can see was Jessica and how she looked while begging for her to stay.

“TaeTae!” Opening her eyes, she slams on the brake, hoping to stop the car as it prepares to slam
into the back of a bus. Both girls hold their breath, Tiffany pressing down on her side as if there
was a brake of there, as it comes to a screeching halt, just tapping the bus. “TaeTae!” shouts
Tiffany again as she turns to see Taeyeon, breaking down. “TaeTae…it‟s okay. We‟re okay,”
states Tiffany as she reaches over to comfort her, only to have her hands swatted away.

“We‟re okay?” asks Taeyeon in disbelief. “We are far from okay.” Tiffany could only blink
clueless as to what Taeyeon was talking about, “you think we‟re okay but we‟re not. We‟re only
lying to ourselves.”

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And then it clicked, “Tae…do you want to see Jessi?” asks Tiffany in a barely audible whisper.
Taeyeon quickly turns to see Tiffany with a solemn look on her face.

“Fany…I…” Her phone‟s ringtone echoes throughout the car. Both her and Tiffany silently
count off the number of rings.

“Nine,” states Tiffany, “Nine means a Jessi Emergency.”

“You knew?” asks Taeyeon as she reaches over for her phone.

“I always known,” answers Tiffany, “but you should at least drive or pull over so that the people
behind us can stop honking their horns.” Taeyeon quickly turns around and looks out the rear
window to see a long line of cars. With a sheepish grin she pulls over to the side of the road and
looks at her phone, as it goes off again. “That‟s Yuri‟s ringtone.” Taeyeon stares at it. “Are you
going to answer it?” She shakes her head no, as another tone goes off. “It‟s Sooyoung.”

“They‟re probably trying to find out where we are,” comments Taeyeon as she prepares to pull
off. Again another tone goes off.

“It‟s Seohyun.”

“Ignore it. Answering would only mean going back.”

“This one‟s a new number,” Tiffany states while answering the phone, “Hello Tiffany Hwang
speaking, Kim Taeyeon cannot answer the phone right, can I please ask whose calling and would
you like to leave a message?” Taeyeon watches as Tiffany nods her head, her expression
saddening. “Okay thank you.” She hangs up and turns to Taeyeon, “Hyo‟s in the hospital.”

Taeyeon places her head against the steering wheel, cutting the engine off. Tiffany didn‟t know
what to do. She didn‟t know if she should comfort her, or not. So she sat there. They both sat
there in the dark and silence listening to each other breath. “No matter what, you want me to
stay, huh,” whispers Taeyeon to no one in general, “you want me to stay in this spiral huh? It‟s
all fun and games. And no matter how much I want to leave I can‟t.”

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Left or Right?
There was no chance of escaping. Not now and probably never. She looks around the hospital
room; her eyes falling upon the youngest girl there.

Seo Joohyun. Otherwise known as Seohyun. The youngest and more importantly the most
mature out of the whole bunch. She first met this girl back in middle school, back when her and
her best friends had gone their separate ways. She was in the library studying, wanting to get
away from people when she saw this interesting book on one of the high shelves. Because of her
small height she had struggled to reach it and gave up returning to her seat in a secluded corner.
Seohyun who was on the other side had watched her, curiously before getting up and fetching the
book for her. And that was how they had met. And for the first time in a while she had found
another true friend.

Even though she was older than Seohyun, Seohyun had always taking care of her, when it should
have been the other way around. She guess it‟s because of her innocence and mature personality.
But there were times when she had to step up for the girl and protect her whenever she could.
Seohyun then crossed the line of friend and became her best friend, her replacement for her other
one. She had become her sense of right and wrong. She‟s got no clue what she would do without
Seohyun. And if this girl had been at her place earlier, she truly believes that she might have
actually stayed that night. “Unnie are you okay?” She nods her head at Seohyun‟s question; her
eyes moving to the next person.

Choi Sooyoung. Her relationship with Sooyoung has always been something to laugh at.
They‟ve always had that sort of temperamental type of friendships. Though it was never
anything serious, Sooyoung and her can never go through a single conversation without some
sort of mindless argument, which ended in Sooyoung making fun of her short stature and her
denying the walking black hole of any food. It‟s always been that way between them ever since
she first met Sooyoung at her sister‟s birthday party.

It was only a few months after her own birthday, in which case her father stood her up. Not a
single phone call, card, gift or anything else on her birthday. And yet her sister had gotten
everything to a party for her birthday. Both of them has just turned ten. So she sat in a corner by
herself, since her best friend wasn‟t invited, and she knew none of her sister‟s friends. She sat
depressed, upset, and jealous over the fact that their father favored the younger child more. She
sat that day wishing something bad would happen to her sister. And then this giant showed up
and ate her melting ice cream and cake that she was staring at. At which she responded by
snapping at the girl, causing Sooyoung to choke and them both ending in a laughing fit. Her first
time laughing with someone other than her normal partner in crime. “Shorty-“

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“I know,” interrupts Taeyeon as she looks over at her sister‟s body that had been lying in the
hospital bed hooked to machines for the past week.

Kim Hyoyeon. Her younger half sister, they shared a father but had different mothers. Their
relationship has always been a love hate one on her side, never on Hyoyeon. All because of the
relationship their parents shared. Taeyeon was clouded by her mother‟s statements, saying that
Hyoyeon was the one keeping her father from leaving his mistress and returning home. Hyoyeon
had always tried to make things between them better. Always trying to find a way to the ease the
tension, ever since the tenth birthday party. After Sooyoung had devoured her cake, and nearly
choked, leaving them in giggles, it was time for presents. When she found out that their father
had bought Hyoyeon the thing she wanted, she tackled the younger girl creating a fight between
the two. The result ended with both girl‟s carrying a black eye on opposite eyes and a month
worth of being confined to their rooms, in which Taeyeon spent most of her time wishing
something would happen to Hyoyeon.

Once they were let free Hyoyeon tried everything in her power to make up to her sister, but
being the stubborn girl she was, she never let her. Even if she told her sister that everything was
okay between them, and it was just a regular sibling fight, it wasn‟t. She held the grudge against
her sister, even though she was never at fault. And her sister never knew. Her sister sat through
everything with her: her mother‟s death, dealing with her feelings for her muse, and even now.
Her sister never once threw her to the side, Hyoyeon never treated her the way she treated
Hyoyeon. Grabbing her sister‟s hand she puts her head down, “I‟m sorry for putting you through
this,” she whispers.

The smell of coffee invades her nose as she looks up to see her best friend handing her a cup,
“Drink Taeng.”

Taeyeon nods her head taking the cup away from the girl.

Kwon Yuri. Her best friend since diapers. She was the only person before Seohyun that she
could count on. Her mother was always busy, and her father forever had Hyoyeon‟s family. So
she was often left alone in the world, and that‟s where Yuri came in. She was there to protect the
already fragile girl. They could never be separated from one another. She needed Yuri and vice
versa, until her muse came into the picture, and before that the social hierarchy of prepubescent
teens. During that stage she had confided in Hyoyeon about her developing and uncertain
feelings towards the taller tan girl. And next thing she knew they were going out. It wasn‟t much;
it was how they were before everything split them apart. But then Yuri starting whining and
nagging at how little time they spent together, so she dumped her.

And Yuri began to court her once again, only to be stopped by a certain Muse. So they returned
to best friends, which gradually over time became regular friends, as her and Seohyun had grown
closer. Though they still address each other as best friends, because of the bond that they share.
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Feeling a circular rubbing motion on her back, Taeyeon turns to see Tiffany trying to comfort
her. “It‟s okay TaeTae,” whispers Tiffany, before kissing the girl on the forehead, well aware of
the eyes that was watching them.

Tiffany Hwang. Her girl friend. The girl she should be in love with. She is, or at least she‟s
trying. It‟ll be hopeless for her to admit that she was completely in love with the American girl.
Tiffany held a piece of her heart, but reality was someone else held it. When she was first
introduced to Tiffany, Taeyeon had just rescued her from drowning. And Yuri insisted on
Taeyeon meeting her. But she declined; she wasn‟t in the mood to hang out with Yuri or Yuri‟s
friends. Why would she want to hang out with someone who replaced her? But Tiffany was
persistent. She waited for Taeyeon, and ended up injuring herself, as a ploy to ask Taeyeon out.

And she gave into the girl hoping that she‟ll forget about her muse. She knows it‟s wrong to use
the girl like that but she couldn‟t help but use the girl. She began falling for her, falling slowly.
But then her muse came back into her life. And she can‟t help but want her muse, pushing the
girl to the side.

Her eyes search the room for the girl, not spotting her. Where did she go? Taeyeon clearly
remembers passing her when she rushed into her sister‟s room. Yuri watches as Taeyeon‟s eyes
search around for Jessica.

Jessica Jung. Muse. She has no way of really exactly explaining who this girl is in her life. She
first saw her back in middle school and instantly became immersed in Jessica‟s being. Her being
inspired her, to write more. But the girl never gave her a look. Nope, like every other person that
Taeyeon would have a interest in, they wanted Yuri. Hyoyeon would always say that she was
obsessed with Jessica, but all those thoughts subsided when Taeyeon began getting over the girl,
though a small part of her was still intrigued by this Ice Princess. But then she was put in the
situation of having Jessica live with her. And all feelings came back. Over the time of living
together, she went from mere curiosity to fully loving the girl and it was scaring her.

Her mind was halting, her work was becoming less and less up to par. So her job, well Yuri‟s
older sister sent her away to find some inspiration. In which she had come to the conclusion that
her work was based on Jessica and that she didn‟t want to stand by the side anymore. So she flew
back and began her part in the game. And now she‟s stuck, stuck and unsure of which path to
take.

She‟s at a fork in the road. She can go either left or right, Tiffany or Jessica. But she‟s scared to
take a step, because once she goes forward she‟ll never be able to go back.

“Taeng, you‟ve been here for a week, with very little sleep,” states Yuri as an exhausted sigh
leaves Taeyeon‟s lips. “Go home and rest me and Sooyoung will watch over her.” Taeyeon
raises her head and looks at Yuri before shaking her head no.

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“It‟s my fault she‟s here. I‟m the older sister. I should have protected her from harm,” she turns
to Tiffany, “go get some rest.”

“I‟ll drive!” Everyone turns and gives Sooyoung a skeptical look, “what? I‟m tired and hungry.
So I might as well give her a ride.”

“I was going to offer her a ride,” states Yuri, while looking at Sooyoung.

“Fany?” asks Taeyeon in a tired and strained voice.

“Sooyoung can drop me off,” answers Tiffany as she places one more kiss on the shorter girl‟s
forehead before leaving with Sooyoung.

“Seohyun need a ride?” Seohyun nods her head and heads out, “She‟s going to be fine Taeng.
After all she‟s kin to you.” Taeyeon nods her head never looking Yuri, as her eyes remained on
her sister‟s unconscious body. She sits in silence breathing slowly. In. Out. In. Out. Trying to
keep the water from pouring, she feels arm drape over her shoulder before pulling her back into
an embrace. Looking over her shoulders, Taeyeon comes face to face with Jessica.

“You‟re tired,” whispers Jessica as she walks around to the front and pulls Taeyeon up into a
standing position. “Let‟s lay on the couch, okay?” Taeyeon nods her head and follows Jessica
like a puppy as she leads her to the couch on the opposite side of the room. She curls into
Jessica‟s embrace, burying her face in the younger girl‟s neck. Finally being able to breathe,
finally having her mind at ease. “Taengoo…”

“Hm…” murmurs Taeyeon.

“As much I want to say choose a path, I won‟t. Not now. Stay in you place on the road. Hyoyeon
is more important than anything else right now.” Taeyeon nods her head, before resting her head
on Jessica‟s chest allowing for the Jessica to comb her fingers through her hair.

“I never really got along with Hyo. Growing up I wanted for something bad to happen to her. I
was a spiteful little kid. And now that something has happened i…I can‟t-“ Jessica pulls
Taeyeon‟s head up silencing the girl with a tender kiss.

“That doesn‟t matter anymore. What matters is the fact that you‟re here for her now.” Taeyeon
nods her head before returning to her position.

“Left or right?” questions Taeyeon as she begins to succumb to sleep.

“Left,” answers Jessica.

“Why?”

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First Step Pt.1

“What are you thinking about?”

“A lot of things,” answers Taeyeon as she continues pushing the wheel chair in which sat her
now conscious sister. Hyoyeon nods her head, before looking over her shoulder at her sister.
“I‟m to explain?” Hyoyeon nods her head again, “Well, I‟m thinking about you first off.”
Hyoyeon turns back around and returns to enjoying the small outdoor garden of the hospital. “I
should have been there for you. I should have protected you. It‟s my fault you‟re like this. I
haven‟t been doing my duty as a sister-“

“Tae, it‟s not your fault. It‟s not like you would have known that the underground gangs were
going to do what they did. It‟s not like you would have known they were going to rob the studio
which ended up being shot and beaten for protecting the students. And even if you did-“

“Yeah but you were only there because of me. I stressed you out and made you go teach that
evening class. And now you won‟t be able to wa-“

“This is a slight chance of me being paralyzed,” corrects Hyoyeon. “I‟m fine Tae. It was a bullet
to the spine, and being beaten.” She looks over her shoulder at her stubborn sister to see her still
not believing her. “I‟m fine you little stubborn girl.”

“Really?” asks Taeyeon.

“Yeah, I mean I woke up to still seeing my sister. In fact I woke up to my sister being held by
Jessica,” states Hyoyeon watching as Taeyeon face heats up, and a pink tinge spreads across her
face, “So you‟ve decided on Jessica?”

“No,” answers Taeyeon half heartedly, “Left or right?”

“Metaphorically or literally?” responds Hyoyeon, as the path they‟re on beings to stop, leaving to
paths in it‟s wake. “To me literally, it doesn‟t matter as long as my sister is happy. But why
ask?”

“I‟m stuck.”

“Oh. I see. You‟re journey has come to an end, and now it breaks off. Left means your heart
right? So that means going left means picking Jessica because that‟s the person you love,
correct? You can always stop me if I‟m wrong.” Taeyeon shakes her head as they stay in their
place, “So I take it right, means Tiffany because being with her is the right thing to do? So
you‟re afraid of taking a step forward, and can‟t turn back because the road that you have already
treaded is now disappearing leaving you with two choices.”

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“Yes,” answers Taeyeon quite surprise at how her sister basically summed up her mind. “Which
would you choose?”

“Doing what‟s right by everyone else doesn‟t exactly mean its right to you Tae. Jessica‟s already
stated her love to you, according to you. And I can‟t choose for you, and neither can anyone
else.” Taeyeon nods her head, pulling Hyoyeon off to the side before taking a seat on the grass.
Her fingers lightly move across the blades before plucking them out one by one. “But if I was to
choose, I‟d choose the left. Who knows if you‟ll ever be able to find that sort of love ever
again?”

“So who do you love?” asks Taeyeon curiously.

“Why?”

“So I can threaten whoever mistreats my sister,” responds Taeyeon, “I‟m the one who makes you
cry, no one else.”

“Tae when have you ever made me cry? I believe that it‟s the other way around,” Taeyeon could
only pout at her sister‟s statement. “But anyways it‟s just a person.”

“Sooyoung?!” asks Taeyeon excitedly.

“Just because you and Yuri had your moments doesn‟t meant that me and Sooyoung are like that.
Besides she likes someone else.”

“Ooh, who?”

“A certain girl…but it doesn‟t matter. We both think the girl doesn‟t like her. And Sooyoung‟s
okay with being her friend.” Taeyeon takes the chance to nod her head, closing her eyes, “It‟s
been a while since we actually held a conversation like this.”

“So who?” interrogates Taeyeon.

“Not going to give up are you?” Taeyeon shakes her head no.

“How about you wheel me to the cafeteria to get some ice cream and I‟ll tell?” Taeyeon hops up
at the word „ice cream‟ before wheeling her sister off to the cafeteria, not noticing the smile that
graced Hyoyeon lips. For she finally was able to have her sister, not just physically but also
mentally now.

*****

Night had fallen across the city and Taeyeon finds herself once again walking the path that she
and her sister had taken earlier. Coming to the end of the straight pathway where it breaks off in
two paths. “Left or right? Jessica or Tiffany? Heart or Mind?” she whispers to herself, as she
wraps her jacket around her small body even more. Closing her eyes she takes a deep breath.

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She thinks she‟s ready. She thinks she prepared to take the first step. Turning her body, she lifts
one foot when her phone rings, and so she brings it back down. Digging in her pocket, she pulls
out the dreaded hand phone, “Hello?”

“Turn around,” she turns around to see Yuri approaching her. Hanging up her phone she waits
for the taller girl to approach her. “I was calling your name out loud but you seemed out of it,”
states Yuri as she takes a stance next to the short girl.

“I was thinking,” states Taeyeon as she turns back around and looks at the fork in the road.

“About Sica and Fany?”

“Yeah…”

A deep breath escapes from Yuri‟s lips as she looks down at the ground. “Taeng, I‟m not going
to lie.” Taeyeon looks over her shoulder at Yuri with a curious expression. “This past week since
you sent Tiffany home with Sooyoung…I‟ve…me and Tiffany have been meeting up. And I
know I shouldn‟t be seeing her right now but-“

“It‟s fine,” answers Taeyeon wholeheartedly. “I snuck around with Jessica when you were with
her.” Yuri nods her head understanding what Taeyeon was stating.

“I miss this.”

“Miss what?”

“This. Being able to spend some one on one time with my best friend.” Both girls return to
silence as they both look at the two paths to choose.

“Do you love Fany?” asks Taeyeon as she looks to the right.

“I think so. I‟m not sure. I…it‟s hard to explain. Like when I met her, there was this sort of…”

“She was enticing. She lured you in, by her looks and personality. And it made you want her
even more. She inspired you to do things that you‟ve never wanted to do. She brought forth so
many feelings from within, and there are times when you need to push her aside because you‟re
scared. So you stay with someone who would make you feel safe and stable, but the reality is
that she‟s always on your mind. And no matter what you do, who you do or who you see your
heart wants her and only her,” states Taeyeon out loud but more to herself.

“Yeah…”

“Then I know what to do,” she turns back to Yuri giving her a smile, “tell Hyo I‟ll be back.”

“Where are you going?!” shouts Yuri as she watches the short girl run. “Taeng! What are you
doing?!”

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“Taking the first step!” shouts Taeyeon back as she runs off into the night.

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The door bursts open, scaring the girl that was sitting on the hospital bed as well as the girl in the
chair. The both turn to see Taeyeon storm through the door with an upset face. “Something
wrong?” asks Hyoyeon, only to receive a glare from Taeyeon. “And here I thought we were
making progress.”

“We are,” mumbles Taeyeon as she plops down on the bed beside her sister.

“Than what‟s wrong Taeng? Did you make the wrong step?” questions Yuri.

“No. My foot is still in the air and hasn‟t touched ground yet,” answers Taeyeon as she plays
with the remote that controls the bed.

“And why hasn‟t it touched ground? It‟s been two days since you said you were making the first
step,” interrogates Hyoyeon.

“Tiffany,” whispers Taeyeon, not looking at her sister. If anybody was to see the way the Kim
girl‟s interacted they would have thought that Hyoyeon was the older sister. And all Yuri could
do is sit there in amazement at how the two girls interacted. She‟s never really seen them behave
like this, for the simple fact that Taeyeon had wished to keep interaction between the two of
them at a minimal.

“What does tiffany have to do with you taking your first step?” continues Hyoyeon as she tries to
pry information out of the older girl.

“I try talking to her, but she always cuts the conversation short,” she mumbles, head still down
not looking at her sister. “And she‟s been spending a lot of time with Sooyoung and that short
girl Sunny.”

“You‟re no taller,” states Yuri, only to receive a glare from both Kims.

“Well, sit her down.”

“I can‟t! She doesn‟t want to listen!”

“Like you,” comments Yuri only to receive a pillow to the face.

“Shut up.” Hyoyeon gives Yuri one last glare before turning back to Taeyeon, “you already
admitted to both me and Yuri that your relationship was slowly falling apart. She argues about
how much time you‟re spending with Jessica even though it‟s all been in this hospital. And Yuri
admitted to spending some time with Tiffany. There is now reason for her to act the way she‟s
acting.” Hyoyeon reaches over to her bed side table where her phone laid.

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“What are you doing?”

“I‟m having an intervention with Jessica and Tiffany. And while that‟s happening, you two are
going to go out and have your heart to heart moment.”

“Hyo why are you doing this?” asks Yuri as she stands up.

“Because only I can make my sister‟s life a living hell. Been doing it since I was born, and no
one is going to take that job from me. So have a nice day.” She shoos them out of the room while
dialing a number.

*****

She was getting tired. The extensive physical therapy and medication that they were putting her
on was making her drowsy. But she needed to stay awake. She needed to speak to these girl‟s for
her sister‟s sake. So that her sister will be happy, and not miserable. So she can have her sister,
and not worry about her day in and day out, wondering if the girl is okay, if he‟s healthy. When
it was revealed that Taeyeon was on her way out of the country the night she was injured, it
scared her. She knew that Taeyeon wasn‟t exactly happy with her existence, but Taeyeon was
her sister and she loves her. And the thought of her sister leaving her-her older sister
disappearing out of her life, kind of made her feel sick. Slightly dosing off, Hyoyeon hears her
door open followed by a set of footsteps.

“She‟s sleeping; I‟m just going to go.”

“I‟m awake,” mumbles Hyoyeon as she shakes her head trying to erase her drowsiness. “Sit both
of you.” She sits up, and looks at both girls, “your hair is lighter,” she says to Tiffany before
turning to look at Jessica.

“So what are we doing here?” asks Jessica slightly bored and uncomfortable of being in the same
room as Taeyeon‟s sister. The situation in which they were sitting here was making her
uncomfortable. Sure she‟s been in the same room with Hyoyeon before. But that was back when
she was Yuri‟s girl friend. And now she‟s no longer Yuri‟s girlfriend, and now she‟s the girl that
Taeyeon‟s been cheating with. And for some reason just being that scares her in the presence of
Hyoyeon.

“You two are driving my sister to the brink of insanity,” states Hyoyeon bluntly. “And I don‟t
like that.”

“It‟s her-“

“I don‟t care who‟s fault it is,” interrupts Hyoyeon a little rudely. The pain in her lower back and
legs were setting in; with a sharp intake of breath she falls back onto her pillow. Closing her
eyes, and trying to bare through the pain, she grits her teeth.

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“Hyo?” asks Tiffany as she stands up looking over at the younger girl. Jessica follows suit and
stands looking up at Hyoyeon before running out of the room. Signaling the first nurse she sees,
she returns to them.

“Hold on a nurse is on her way,” states Jessica scared. She grabs her phone out of her pocket,
dialing a number. She waits for the ninth ring before hanging up and sending a text message.
“And I‟ve called Taeyeon.” The nurses and doctors rush in, pushing them out of the room.

*****

Footsteps echo throughout the hall, and both American girls turn to see Sooyoung run past them
into the room, closing the door shut as Yuri and Taeyeon approach them. “Aren‟t you going in?”
asks Jessica as Taeyeon takes a seat next to Tiffany.

“Not now. Maybe later,” answers Taeyeon as sigh escapes her lips. Yuri takes a seat beside her,
rubbing her back in a circular motion. Taeyeon looks over Jessica to see a small smile gracing
her face, “First step,” she mumbles to herself before looking at Tiffany who had this worried
look upon her face.

She was worried; she was scared. She‟s sitting in the same room as her now fiancé and the girl
she‟s been seeing a lot lately. After the talk on the bridge with Yuri her mind began wandering.
The tan girl had filled her every thought. And her statement towards Jessica. She couldn‟t back
down now, could she? Her eyes look over at Jessica to only to find her standing up.

“Where are you off to?” asks Yuri.

“Taengoo, needs to spend time with Family and friends. I don‟t need to be here and make things
uncomfortable,” answers Jessica a little sadly, “So I‟m heading to back to Yoona‟s to crash.” She
waves and begins heading down the hall.

“Taeng if you don‟t do something now,” whispers Yuri as she pushes Taeyeon out of her seat.
Taeyeon looks over at Tiffany to find Tiffany watching her, “go!” hisses Yuri shooing her off.
Taeyeon nods her head and runs out after Jessica.

“TaeTae?” asks Tiffany confused as she watches Taeyeon run off, “TaeTae!” She prepares to run
off when Yuri holds her back. “Move!” shouts Tiffany as she pushes past Yuri only to be pulled
back. “Yuri let go!”

“No.”

“Kwon Yuri! Release me now!”

“Let Taeng be!” Tiffany stops and looks at Yuri, “Let this game come to an end. No more what
if‟s. No more regret. No more pain and suffering. Just start over with a clean slate.”

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Tiffany drops her head and looks at her feet, “That‟s easy for you to say. There‟s never going to
be that thought in the back of your mind worrying if the person you‟re with is going to leave
you.”

“I‟m not going to leave,” whispers Yuri as she wraps her arms around Tiffany, only to be shoved
away.

“No. I‟m not going through it again,” whispers Tiffany, before running off after Taeyeon.

“Tiffany!” shouts Yuri, before chasing after the American girl, who was chasing after the short
girl who was chasing after the Ice Princess.

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She continues running down the halls, zigzagging between doctors, nurses and patients. She
pumps her legs as fast as they could in hopes of finding the girl. This was it. She needed to finish
making this first step. She needed to put her foot all the way down and no longer have it dangling
in the air. Jumping over some spilt toilet paper, she continues down the hall ignoring the
shouting from behind. And then she stops. The path stops and breaks off into two.

Once again she‟s faced with a decision of going left or right. Closing her eyes, she takes off to
the left hoping to find Jessica walking in that direction. Sprinting down the hall she catches a
glimpse of the jacket that Jessica was wearing. “Sica!” she shouts, surprising the girl.

“Taengoo?” She stops and waits for Taeyeon. Taeyeon stops in front of her, bent over trying to
catch her breath. “Taengoo, what are you doing?”

“Taking the first step,” huffs Taeyeon.

“What do you mean taking the first step?” asks Jessica confused as she watches Taeyeon take her
hand, and raise it gently to her lips, lightly brushing her lips across the hand. “Taengoo…what do
you think you‟re doing?” Taeyeon‟s fingers trail up, Jessica‟s arm towards her neck before
pulling her head down, their lips centimeters apart.

“Once again taking the first step. I‟m going left,” whispers Taeyeon as she tilts her head a little
before leaning in closer.

“TaeTae!” Both girls abruptly pull apart and look to see Tiffany running towards them with Yuri
chasing her. “TaeTae, stop, please.” Taeyeon could only shift her eyes away, guilt settling in.
She wasn‟t exactly single; she was still in a relationship with Tiffany. And here she was
preparing to kiss Jessica.

“Tiffany stop,” states Yuri as she finally grasps hold of Tiffany‟s wrist.

“Let go of me,” hisses Tiffany as she snatches away from Yuri.

“Tiffany,” growls Yuri as she grabs hold of her again, “Stop it now. Look at Taeyeon…look at
her!” shouts Yuri, causing for all three girls to flinch. Taeyeon hasn‟t heard Yuri this upset since
they were in middle school when Yuri was standing up for her, “I said look at her!” Tiffany turns
and looks at Taeyeon, “see how tired she is?! Can you see how much pain she is in? That‟s your
fiancé! Now look at Jessica, your best friend…look at the suffering she‟s going through!” Yuri
takes a deep breath before speaking again, “they‟re in love Tiffany. Let them be.”

“No. Why do I have to keep being pushed aside for her? You two were together! I was moving
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TaeTae‟s love! And now you‟re telling me to let her toss me a side, for her?! To be alone
again?!”

“No…You won‟t be alone again, Tiffany,” argues Yuri, both girls slowly forgetting their
audience which consisted of Taeyeon, Jessica and now nurses, doctors and patients who were
watching them as if it was one of the ever popular dramas.

“You actually want me to believe that? That you just won‟t up and throw me away like a piece of
trash? Like before?” Now it was Yuri‟s turn to look off to the side, “How am I supposed to
believe that?”

“Because I won‟t throw you away like a piece of trash, Tiffany you have to believe me.”

“Fine you won‟t do that. But what‟s to say you won‟t cheat? You did on Jessica, with me. And
when you guys got back together your cheating didn‟t stop.” Taeyeon couldn‟t believe her ears.
All this time she‟s been feeling guilty for sneaking around with Jessica, because she thought that
Yuri was committed to her, in fact her best friend was doing the same thing more or less.

“Yeah, but it was with you or was it not?” hisses Yuri, as her anger rises again.

“It was a onetime thing, and this was after we had suspicions of those two,” she points at the
shorter girls, “were sleeping with each other. Every other time was with that one employee that
you were always with.”

“I wasn‟t cheating with her.”

“Oh really? Than what do you call it?”

“She was interested in Yoona‟s ex boyfriend. The one before Taecyeon.”

“Oh please as if she was interested in Nichkhun.”

“Victoria was interest in Khun!” She takes another deep breath, “Why are you being so stubborn
Stephanie Hwang Miyoung!”

“Excuse me,” Yuri turns around to see security looking at the two of them. “Can you please keep
it down or we will have to ask you girls to leave.”

“I‟m leaving,” states Tiffany as she begins to walk away only to be pulled back by, “What do
you want, Kwon Yuri!” She looks to see Taeyeon holding onto her.

“Please, Fany don‟t be like this,” states Taeyeon a little hurt.

“What do you want me to say, TaeTae? What do you want me to do?”

“Love Yuri.”

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“I do love her, but I want you-“

“If you truly wanted me…than these past weeks you would have stayed with me. You would
have never went and saw her.” Tiffany looks off to the side, feeling guilty. “When I wanted to
talk, you would leave. You should have stayed, you should have stayed and listen. Not run off
with Sooyoung and Sunny.”

“But you were always with Jessica.”

“In public. Never during these weeks have I done anything other than the kiss I told you about.
And most of the time Sica wasn‟t there Fany. It was just me Hyo, Yul and Sooyoung. My sister
is in on the other end of the hospital with a 75 percent chance of being paralyzed. I need you here
with me and you‟re not here you‟re out and about. So yes I spend time with Jessica, because
she‟s there for me.”

“You‟re leaving me aren‟t you?” whispers tiffany on the verge of tears.

“Fany, I um…”

“She‟s not,” states Jessica surprise the words even came out of her mouth. “She‟s going to go
right. It‟s the right thing to do.” Yuri grabs hold of Jessica pulling her off to the side.

“What are you doing?”

“I‟ve been so selfish the lately. Taengoo doesn‟t need any more stress. And this whole time I‟ve
been thinking about how Tiffany was taking love from me when in reality, I was taking love
from her.”

“Sica-“

“It‟s okay really,” Jessica gives her a small smile. “I think I should go on a little get away.
Maybe just me and Krystal.”

“Sica-“

“Yuri, really I‟m fine.” She walks back to Taeyeon and Tiffany, “Well I‟m leaving. I‟ll swing by
to see how Hyoyeon is doing, and then I‟m out of here.” She heads off down the hall ignoring
the burning gaze.

*****

Jessica raps her knuckles against the door, before opening it and peering around the corner to see
Hyoyeon lying awake in Sooyoung‟s arms. “You guys make a very cute couple,” compliments
Jessica as she walks in.

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“We‟re not dating,” mumbles Hyoyeon, “we‟re just really close, like how Yuri and Taeyeon
were. What are you doing here?”

“Well you called me and Tiffany earlier to talk. And went into pain, then the nurses and doctors
kicked us out. But I‟m back.” Hyoyeon nods her head, “Was just dropping by to say that you no
longer have to worry about your sister going insane.” Hyoyeon piques a brow.

“So this game…that‟s been going on since middle school is coming to an end? How?”

“I‟m dropping out. Tiffany can be with your sister. And Yuri will probably move on.” She looks
around the room, “Well I‟ll be going. Hope you get well Hyoyeon.” She turns around and opens
the door.

“Tae‟s been in love with you since middle school. Well I can‟t really call it love, but there was
this attraction. The reason why she avoided Yuri so much as soon as you guys started dating. My
sister has been silently suffering to herself. She doesn‟t speak upon her feelings very much.
Which is why I like to keep an eye on her. Which is why I decided to get involved in this game. I
know Tae doesn‟t approve of me being her sister, but Taeyeon is my sister.”

“What are you getting at?” questions Jessica never fully turning around to look at Hyoyeon.

“My sister sat here for weeks on end trying to find out which path to tread. Which way she wants
to go without any regret. Left or Right. Heart or Mind. You or Tiffany. And she finally comes to
a decision-“

“I know she chose left.”

“Then why are you saying that Tiffany‟s the one who‟s going to be with her?! Who are you to
decide who my sister is to be with?!” Sooyoung jumps up with an alert.

“Hyo calm down,” whispers Sooyoung. “Sica…”

“I have to go.”

“Sica stay!” orders Sooyoung.

“No let her go,” demands Hyoyeon.

“No, Hyo. Sica close the door.” A sigh of defeat leaves between her lips as she shuts the door.
She turns around and looks at her best friend. “I don‟t like it when Hyo‟s upset. And I‟m not
going to allow you to upset her. Nor am I going to allow you to make the most stupid mistake of
your life.”

“I‟m not making a mistake.”

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“Then why? Why join this game? Why didn‟t you leave earlier? Why didn‟t you halt my sister
advances? Why did you let her fall for you even more?!”

“Hyo,” states Sooyoung sternly.

“I don‟t know…but what am I suppose to do? Continue with the chasing. Continue this game?”
Hyoyeon shakes her head no. “Then I‟m making the right choice.” She turns around and opens
the door to see Yuri and Tiffany with a worried expression.

“Taeng took off.”

“Call Seohyun,” states Hyoyeon as she tries to sit up.

“Did and she‟s to call when she hears something.”

“Are you guys happy yet?” asks Hyoyeon a little bitterly. “This game is complete and utter
nonsense. Tiffany, Yuri is in love with and is willing to start over. So stop being stubborn and
just accept her. Yuri, tiffany‟s afraid of you leaving her, so you assure her you‟re not leaving.
And Jessica my sister chose left don‟t make her choose right.”

“And you open up to the feelings you have for Sooyoung and vice versa,” mumbles Jessica as
she exits out of the hospital room.

*****

Jessica arrives at Yoona‟s condo to see Taeyeon pacing back and forth with her guitar case and
duffle bag. “Taengoo?”

Taeyeon quickly turns around and runs up to Jessica pressing their lips together. Pulling away
slightly, Taeyeon gently runs her tongue along Jessica‟s bottom lip causing for a moan to leave
the younger girl‟s lip. Taking the chance her tongue darts into Jessica‟s mouth running along the
inside of her mouth before retreating as her teeth takes hold of Jessica‟s tongue. A whimper
leaves Jessica‟s mouth as Taeyeon breaks the kiss. “I‟m almost down taking the first step,” states
Taeyeon as while staring Jessica in the eyes, “But in order to complete it, I need you to do
something.”

“What?”

“Run away with me.”

“No.”

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Taeyeon‟s mind stop; Jessica had turned her down. “B…But-“

“No Taengoo,” states Jessica firmly. “As much as I hate to admit it, I‟m not running away with
you. That‟s the most foolish thing I have ever heard. You tried running away with Tiffany, and
now you wish to run away with me. Besides you sister is in the hospital. And you promised her
you wouldn‟t leave. And I have family here; I just can‟t up and leave them. You‟re not thinking
are you?”

“Well how else am I suppose to go left when you told everyone I was going right?” questions
Taeyeon.

“I only said that because you were hesitant. You couldn‟t even answer Tiffany‟s question. You
were caving under Tiffany‟s pressure. Might as well go right. But if you really want to go left
stay here. I want to stay here. I have no intentions of leaving unless it‟s for some fashion
designers week in New York…but I‟ll probably more or less really be out of a job by then if you
really choose to go left. As you can see Tiff is really good at holding a grudge.”

“Then I guess I‟m staying,” Taeyeon drops her duffle bag and guitar case on the ground, and
hunch her shoulders in defeat. They stand in silence, not sure of what to do. The atmosphere
around the two of them becomes awkward as they both look in different directions. That is until
Jessica‟s stomach decides to speak up. “Hungry?” All Jessica could do was nod her head,
embarrassed. “Alright…let‟s go back to my place and I‟ll cook you something.” She slings her
bag over her shoulder, and picks up her case with one hand as the other holds Jessica‟s hand.

*****

Tiffany was busily fiddling with the stupid Nikon camera that she has still yet to learn to work.
She was so into what she was doing that she never notices the elevator doors opening to her
office or the tan girl that had emerged with a bag. “Stupid camera!” huffs Tiffany as she prepares
to throw it on the ground, only to be stopped by a hand holding on to her wrist. Looking over her
shoulder she sees Yuri with a small smile gracing her face. “Y-Yuri?”

“Hey…I figured after everything that happened earlier, that maybe you‟d be hungry,” she shows
her the bag, “so I went to all the western restaurants that I could find on foot and got you
something to eat.” Tiffany nods her head and snatches the bag away from the younger girl all
while turning her face away from her. She opens the bag and begins pulling the food out.

“Thank you,” she mumbles while opening the containers and stuffing her face. She hasn‟t
exactly eaten anything all day. And as a daily routine, since the day Hyoyeon was admitted to the
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and watches her. That‟s all she does. She doesn‟t speak unless Tiffany speaks to her first, and she
doesn‟t touch anything. Yuri just sits there and watches as Tiffany fumbles around with cameras,
photos, layouts and what not.

Another smile graces Yuri‟s face as Tiffany somehow get‟s ketchup on her face from the burger
that she was eating. “You got something-“

“Huh?” asks Tiffany confused.

“Here,” Yuri grabs one of the napkins and reaches over, wiping the corner of tiffany‟s mouth,
“Ketchup,” she says while showing Tiffany the red condiment on the napkin. Tiffany nods her
head, eyes wide at how close Yuri‟s face was from hers, before trailing down to look at Yuri‟s
lips. Involuntarily, the shorter girl bites her lower lip, before quickly claiming Yuri‟s lips in a
kiss.

All thoughts in Yuri‟s mind halts, at the feeling of Tiffany‟s soft lips on hers. And as quickly as
the feeling comes it left. “I‟m sorry,” states Tiffany as she quickly stood and quickly made a
beeline to the stair case, not wanting the chance of Yuri catching her in the elevator.

Blinking her eyes and trying to register what had happened, Yuri sits there examine the remnants
of the half eaten food and taken apart camera, before smiling to herself.

*****

Jessica sits on the counter top back in the apartment that she once shared with Taeyeon watching
as the shorter girl runs throughout the kitchen making their meal. “Taengoo…” Taeyeon stops
what she was doing and looks over her shoulder at Jessica. “Nothing…”

“Are you sure Sica?” asks Taeyeon.

“Yeah.” Taeyeon nods her head and returns to chopping up vegetables, when the noise from the
house phone fills the room. She stops and wipes her hands on a cloth before walking to the living
room to answer the phone. Jessica waits patiently for the shorter girl to return, for some reason
that phone call was giving her an uneasy feeling. She puts her head down and bites her bottom
lip, trying to fight off the unwanted feeling that was consuming her.

She hears Taeyeon hang up before reentering the kitchen, “is everything okay?” questions
Jessica.

“Yeah…that was just Yuri‟s sister,” answers Taeyeon as if it was nothing.

“And?” continues Jessica.

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“It‟s nothing, promise,” states Taeyeon as she walks over to Jessica giving her a chaste kiss on
the lips to reassure her, “She was just giving me my job back…all while commenting that I better
be writing some number one hits.”

“And you said?”

“I‟d like that, and she can count on those hits since I can take advantage of you now whenever I
want,” states Taeyeon as her lips brush across Jessica‟s ear, “and since she wants a song by
tomorrow when I walk into her office, I plan to thoroughly use my muse tonight,” she whispers
before returning to the meal that she was cooking fully aware of the pink tinge that crossed
Jessica‟s face.

“Who says you can take advantage of me?” barks Jessica.

“The blush on you face says I can.”

*****

Yuri gently opens the door, trying not to wake up Hyoyeon only to find her sitting really close to
Sooyoung with their face‟s just centimeters apart. Leaving the door cracked she continues
peering through the door for a few more seconds waiting to see what they were going to do. And
in the end they stayed in the same position. “Just kiss already!” Both girls quickly turn and look
at the door, “oops.”

“Yuri,” states Hyoyeon a little annoyed.

“Yeah,” answers Yuri with a sheepish grin as she opens the door fully. “I didn‟t mean to
interrupt an intimate moment.”

“It wasn‟t an intimate moment,” states Hyoyeon fully aware of Sooyoung‟s upset expression.

“Sure.” Yuri walks over to the couch taking a seat.

“What are you doing here?” asks Sooyoung.

“Tiffany kissed me!” squeals Yuri trying her hardest to contain her excitement. Both Hyoyeon
and Sooyoung‟s mouths drop open, and minds are wiped blank. “I know right, that‟s how I felt
when it happened.”

“So?” inquires Hyoyeon. “Are you guys together now?”

Yuri shakes her head, as her smile drops turning into a frown. “She ran off after that. What am I
suppose to do?”

“Give her time,” states Sooyoung surprising the other two. “She‟ll come around eventually, if
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everyone else is forcing you down her throat. So sure she‟s going to keep running away. But if
you give her some time and reassurance she‟ll come around.”

“How could you be so sure?” asks Yuri, while watching Hyoyeon look at Sooyoung with a
confused face.

“Let‟s just say similar situation and experience.”

Yuri nods her head before a sly smirk crosses her face, “Well since Hyoyeon clearly hasn‟t
reciprocated your feelings how are you sure that Fany will? Ow!” She looks at the pillow that
was sitting in her lap.

“There is no feelings between the two of us,” growls Hyoyeon.

“If there isn‟t why are you being so defensive?!” Yuri quickly ducks to avoid the second flying
pillow before making a run to the door, “See ya later!” she shouts while exiting the room,
leaving both Hyoyeon and Sooyoung in a awkward atmosphere. Sooyoung stands up and heads
for the door, “Where are you going?”

“To see Sunny,” answers Sooyoung as she leaves the room not noticing the frown on Hyoyeon‟s
face.

*****

Yuri arrives back at her apartment to see Tiffany standing out front by the door with a raised
hand. Cutting off the engines she watches as the girl struggles with knocking on the door.
Lowering her hand, she backs away from the door only to walk back up to it, raising her hand
and starting all over again. Yuri watches in silence as the girl for a total of thirty minutes before
watching Tiffany walk away with her head down.

Yuri quickly climbs out of the car, nearly falling in the process, “Tiffany!” Tiffany stops in her
tracks, “Tiffany!” She turns around to see Yuri struggling to climb out of her car. After finally
freeing herself, Yuri walks over to the shorter girl standing in front of them, just looking at her.

“I-I‟m sorry…the kiss earlier, it was…I…I wasn‟t-“ Yuri grabs her arm, pulling her in claiming
lips in a kiss. Yuri slowly starts to nibble on Tiffany‟s lower lip, being very careful as to not
injure Tiffany, all the while taking the kissing to a whole new level as Tiffany‟s hands gabs hold
of Yuri‟s shirt. Needing proper air, Tiffany breaks the kiss and looks Yuri in the eyes, “I‟m
scared,” she whispers.

“There is nothing to fear,” whispers Yuri back as she leads the American girl back to her
apartment.

*****

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Yuri prepares to roll over when she feels someone shift closer to her body. Looking over her
shoulder she notices Tiffany sleeping with her back to her; her body tense. Turning carefully, she
shifts closer to her back, and embraces her before kissing the top of her bare shoulder. Tiffany
shifts a little more, pressing up against Yuri‟s body. “No more what if‟s, regrets or worries. I
promise to be there for you and to erase you fear,” she whispers in Tiffany‟s ear, allowing for the
tense girl to relax.

*****

Hyoyeon feels a slight pain in her back, waking herself up in order to call the nurses when the
silhouette next her catches her eyes. Blinking to adjust her eyes to the dark, she makes it out to
be Sooyoung, asleep on the couch. She watches as Sooyoung shivers before sliding into her
wheelchair. Grabbing the spare blanket that was at the foot of her bed, she wheels herself across
the room, to cover the tall girl with the blanket. A smile graces her lips as she watches the girl
sleep, “You have to give me more time.”

*****

Taeyeon awakens with a grin on her face as she looks down to see Jessica sleeping contently and
peacefully half on top of her. She couldn‟t help but grin even wider as she strokes the girl‟s hair,
trying not to awaken her. She looks over at the clock that sat on her bedside table; she had ten
minutes before she was late on her first day of going back to work. Not that she really cared. If
Yuri‟s sister wanted a hit song, she was going to take advantage of the fact that Jessica, her
muse, was in her bed and not Yuri‟s, not some one else‟s. She pulls Jessica closer before
whispering to herself, “First step complete.”

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Second Step on Halt

“You‟re going to be late,” states Jessica as she breaks the kiss looking over at the clock.

“Sica, I don‟t have a certain time of arriving at work anymore. That song I wrote the other
day…Yuri‟s sis was ecstatic about it,” states Taeyeon as she leans back in, only to have Jessica
back up.

“No,” she states while exiting the room to the living room.

“B-but,” begins Taeyeon as she chases after her towards the living room. Jessica lies out on the
couch and grabs her book off the coffee table as Taeyeon takes a seat on the floor watching
Jessica with a smile. She was happy and content. It‟s been a week since she had finally
awakened to Jessica being hers, and she was in bliss. There was nothing more she could ask for
really, besides her sister‟s health to be good.

“Taengoo, why do you keep looking at me like that?” asks Jessica, her eyes never leaving the
tiny print before her.

“Getting inspired,” answers Taeyeon casually.

“I thought you got inspired last night?”

“That was last night, and this is today,” remarks Taeyeon. Jessica could only sigh as they return
to the quiet. It‟s not that she didn‟t like Taeyeon looking at her, in fact she loved it. But part of
her wanted the answer to be something different. For the past week she‟s been hearing the same
answer. “To be inspired.” And now she couldn‟t help but to believe that deep down that‟s all she
is to Taeyeon. That she‟s nothing more than a quick inspirational figure in Taeyeon‟s life. “I love
you.” Jessica‟s mind goes haywire, as the books slips from her hands. She looks over to see
Taeyeon sitting closer than usual, so close that she could feel Taeyeon‟s breath against her lips.
“I love you,” whispers Taeyeon. Jessica bites down on her bottom lip, trying to contain her
giddiness.

Taeyeon leans in when a loud banging noise echoes throughout the apartment. She pulls away
and reluctantly walks to the front door snatching it open to see Yuri bent over breathing heavily,
“Yul?” Jessica sits up and looks at the door.

“Have you seen Tiffany?” asks Yuri while trying to catch her breath.

“No why?” answers Taeyeon, helping Yuri into the house. “Why what happened?”

“I haven‟t heard from her in two days. She told me that she was going home, and then to her
studio. And that‟s it. I haven‟t heard from her.”

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“Have you tried-“

“Yes I‟ve went to her house and it was empty. I even tried going to her studio but she changed
the pass code to get off on her floor. I even tried the stair case and the door was locked. I called
Sunny, Yoona, Sooyoung, Hyoyeon, Seohyun, and nothing. So I thought maybe you or Sica
would have heard or seen her.” Jessica shakes her head no. “Ugh, what am I suppose to do? Just
when I thought we were making progress…” Jessica‟s phone goes off, and she quickly answers it
recognizing the ringtone.

“Jessi, come to the studio please a.s.a.p. And don‟t tell anyone.”

“Be right there,” she hangs up and makes a beeline to the room emerging with a jacket.

“Where are you off to?” asks Taeyeon.

“Out. Be back in a while.” She places a kiss on the tip of Taeyeon‟s nose before disappearing out
the apartment leaving Yuri and Taeyeon alone.

*****

Jessica slams the door opens to the staircase entrance, to see Tiffany talking to a woman in a
business suit with Sooyoung standing beside her. Sooyoung notices Jessica and taps Tiffany on
the shoulder. Looking over her shoulder a smile graces her lips, “Jessi! Come…hurry up.”
Jessica walks over to Tiffany standing beside her with this uneasy feeling in her stomach.
“Jessi…this woman here, she‟s from America.”

“Okay,” responds Jessica eyeing the woman.

“And she wants to offer us a job at her company, can you believe it!” squeals Tiffany in
excitement.

“A-a job?” questions Jessica in disbelief.

“Yes. I was actually sent here by my boss. He wishes to hire all three of you, for his magazine.
With Tiffany being the lead Editor, you working as the lead photographer and Sooyoung being
his main model. You‟ll be making about three time as much as you do now, and-“

“No,” states Jessica, “I won‟t accept.”

“But Jessi-“

“No! Do you really think that after finally spending a week with Taeyeon, I‟m just going to
decided to leave?”

“Jessica this is a job in New York that we are talking about. This is like a once in a lifetime
opportunity,” argues Tiffany.

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“Tiffany…no. You‟re selling us out. We built this…you‟re magazine with our bare hands, sure
we work under another company but we have free reign. And you‟re going to throw it all away
for some stupid job in America. Where we‟d probably be stuck doing more desk jobs than our
actually jobs. She and her boss will get the final okay. Nothing is going to be how you like. So,
no. I won‟t accept. You can go; Sooyoung can go, but I‟m not.”

“They can‟t go unless you are with them,” states the woman as she looks at her nails. “This is a
package for the three of you. And if you refuse to journey with them, they too will have to stay
here.”

Jessica turns and looks at Sooyoung, “Are you really ready to fly off to America and be
thousands of miles away from Hyoyeon? While she‟s going through physical therapy? She‟s to
be released soon, you know that right? Who‟s going to help take care of her? Sure Taengoo and
Yuri will since you‟re a group, but they have jobs. And there will be times when Hyoyeon
wouldn‟t want their help, you know it and I know it. Is modeling really that important to you that
you‟ll leave Hyo behind?”

“Hey don‟t bring Hyoyeon into this-“ starts Tiffany.

“And you,” Jessica turns back to Tiffany interrupting her, “What about Yuri huh? The girl is
worried sick over you.”

“Why are you protecting her?” asks Tiffany wanting to avoid the topic of Yuri.

“I‟m not protecting her, but you seriously are making some stupid mistakes.” Tiffany lowers her
head in shame, “I‟m done. I‟m going back home. You two can do whatever you want. Better yet,
if she fires me, does she still get to go?” asks Jessica turning back to the business woman.

“Honestly, yes because you no longer work for her, so you‟re a free agent. Though we wanted all
three of you. And the only person left to agree would be the Sooyoung.”

“Then fire me,” states Jessica turning back to Tiffany.

“No Jessi, we said we‟ll do all of this together, when we first started,” responds Tiffany.

“Fine. I quit,” Jessica marches out the door leaving behind to baffled friends and an unsurprised
business woman.

*****

Jessica storms into the apartment startling both Yuri and Taeyeon. “Sica?” asks Taeyeon as she
watches the fuming girl storm past them and into the bedroom slamming the door shut.

“I‟ll let you guys be, and head to the hospital to visit Hyo,” states Yuri as she stands up heading
towards the door, “See ya.” Taeyeon nods her head, and makes her way to the room.

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“Sica?” she slowly opens the door to see Jessica lying in bed. “Sica.”

“Not now Taengoo,” mumbles Jessica.

“Yes now,” responds Taeyeon as she enters the room, closing the door behind her. She makes
her way across to bed, crawling up behind Jessica. “Speak,‟ demands Taeyeon. Jessica let‟s out a
huff before closing her eyes and pulling the older girl closer. “Sica…”

“Not now…let‟s just lay here like this, yes?” asks Jessica.

“Okay,” answers Taeyeon, confused. Something wasn‟t right. Jessica was being quiet, too quiet.
The last time she was quiet, was when here and Yuri were going through their rough patch. So
there was something on her mind, and she didn‟t want for Jessica to keep it in. But what could
she do? They‟re slowly working on this relationship; she had just finally broken up Tiffany, well
more or less the relationship halted after Yuri had called her early in the morning telling her that
her engagement was called off and she can pick up the ring in her office.

“You‟re getting a raise, right Taengoo?” mumbles Jessica as she flips around, looking Taeyeon
in the eyes. Taeyeon nods her head, “Okay,” whispers Jessica closing her eyes again. “Stephanie
Hwang Miyoung is foolish.”

“How?” asks Taeyeon. Jessica scoots closer burying her face in the crook of Taeyeon‟s neck, as
Taeyeon tightens her embrace.

“She wants to run off to America. Some business woman came by earlier today to offer a deal,
for me, Tiffany and Sooyoung to travel to America. You know, that‟s probably what she‟s been
up to the past two days. But what‟s worst is she wants for me to go with her.”

“Do you?”

“We made a pact when we first started off as nothing. We were going to do this with all of us or
not do it at all,” answers Jessica.

“That doesn‟t answer my question,” she pulls Jessica back and looks the girl in the eyes. “Do
you want to go with Tiffany to America?”

“Taengoo…I…it‟s a onetime offer, I know it is. And the pay is three times as much as I make
here. And I get to be head photographer working on the bigger projects. But I-“

“Go,” states Taeyeon.

“But Taengoo…It‟s in New York City and-“

“Go, Sica. If I waited this long to be together, I can wait a little longer,” responds Taeyeon,
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okay?” Jessica nods her head, wrapping a arm around Taeyeon‟s neck pulling her on top as her
free hands slides under Taeyeon‟s shirt.

“Okay,” whispers Jessica before finishing the conversation with a kiss.

*****

Hyoyeon could only wince as she was going through her physical therapy. The pain in her legs
and lower back was certainly bearable, but she knew her body could only handle so much. And
yet there she was in the room doing more than she was suppose to. She didn‟t want to be a
burden, not to her sister and definitely not to Sooyoung. So it surprised her the day that she had
woken up to have the giant state that there she had some feelings for her. But she couldn‟t
accept, and wouldn‟t accept. She herself wasn‟t sure of her feelings for the giant. That‟s why she
told her sister that she thinks the girl Sooyoung likes had only seen her as a friend. Because that
what she saw her as. And she couldn‟t accept, not when she couldn‟t put her all into the
relationship, not when she was handicapped.

She takes a deep breath and prepares to go through her walking exercise again. She had to beat
the short midget that was full of ageyo. But a person could only hold on for so long. Hissing in
pain she takes another step before crumpling down to the ground. Curling into a ball she allows
all the tears that she‟s been carrying for the past few weeks, pour out. She was going to be a
burden.

“Hyoyeon?” The door to the physical therapy room opens up. Sooyoung peeks her head in to see
Hyoyeon curled up on the floor. “Hyo?!” She runs across the room and kneels before Hyoyeon.
She pulls Hyoyeon‟s head upon her lap, and oddly enough she began stroking Hyoyeon‟s head
trying to soothe and calm the girl. “You‟re an idiot.”

“Shut up,” mumbles Hyoyeon as she takes a deep breath.

“No,” states Sooyoung, “you need to stop being an idiot. Stop pushing yourself.”

“No. I don‟t want to be a burden to anybody.”

“A burden? You‟re not burdening anyone.”

“Sure, and that‟s why everyone feels obliged to visit me.”

“Everyone visits you because you‟re important to them.” They fall into silence listening to each
other breathe.

“How important am I to you?” asks Hyoyeon breaking the silence.

“Very,” answers Sooyoung, looking down at the girl.

“How important is Sunny?” questions Hyoyeon as she turns her head, feeling slightly drowsy.

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“The midget? Is this all of this has been about?” asks Sooyoung slightly startled. “Sunny‟s just a
friend. She hung out with Jessica, Tiffany, Yuri and Yoona back in high school. Why would I
have interest in that midget?” Sooyoung waits for an answer only to find Hyoyeon asleep on her
lap.

*****

Jessica opens the door to the studio to see that Tiffany had repacked everything that she had
already unpacked. “Tiff?” Tiffany peeks her head out of her office before fully emerging.

“Here to collect you last paycheck?” asks Tiffany.

“No. I‟m actually here to beg for my job back,” admits Jessica in shame.

“Huh?” asks Tiffany slightly confused.

“I said I‟m here to ask for my job back.”

“That‟s not what you said. You said beg for your job back,” teases Tiffany with a cheeky grin.

“Shut up,” mumbles Jessica as she looks around. “I just came back for my job.”

“I‟m going to America, Jess. You said you didn‟t want to go because of TaeTae.”

“I know what I said yesterday, Tiffany.”

“Then why are you here? You made it clear that you didn‟t want to go.”

“We made a pact-“

“And you broke the pact the moment you quit. Remember the rules the moment one of us quits
the pact is broken?” asks Tiffany, becoming serious. She didn‟t want to push Jessica away like
this, but the girl decided that Taeyeon was more important than their job.

“What are you getting at Tiffany?” asks Jessica as she curiously watches the younger girl walk
around the studio packing things. Tiffany shrugs her shoulders. In reality she doesn‟t really know
why she‟s being this way. She just feels the need to keep Jessica at a distance. “So are you
saying you won‟t hire me again?”

“Maybe…”

“Fine whatever,” Jessica turns around and heads to the staircase.

“Wait!” Jessica stops in her tracks, “I…I do need a photographer. I‟m no good with this new
camera and Sooyoung‟s been yelling at me, stating I‟m not getting her good sides. And-“

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A smile appears on Jessica‟s face as she turns around and looks at Tiffany, “On one condition.”
Tiffany nods her head, “You have to tell Yuri what you‟re up to, you hear me.”

“But Jessi-“

“No buts. You tell Yuri or you have to find yourself a new photographer.”

“Fine.”

“Good. Now I have to go. Taengoo is waiting for me downstairs.”

“Does this mean you‟re going to America with me and Sooyoung?” asks Tiffany as she watches
Jessica head to the elevator this time.

“Yeah,” answers Jessica as she enters the elevator, and turns around giving tiffany a smile before
the door closes.

*****

A groan escapes Taeyeon‟s lips as she tilts her head back, hitting it hard against the headboard,
“Ow!” A giggle escapes the lips of the girl straddling her.

“Are you okay, Taengoo?” asks Jessica as she pulls the girls head down, examining it for a
bump. “I‟m sorry,” whispers Jessica as she parts the hair carefully, not wanting to injure the girl
anymore.

“It‟s fine,” mutters Taeyeon while eyeing Jessica‟s flat stomach. She reaches out and trails a
finger across the creamy skin.

Jessica hisses at the contact, before slapping her hand away, “Stop. I‟m trying to make sure you
won‟t have a concussion and you‟re being touchy feely.” Taeyeon tilts her head back and gives
Jessica a sly grin.

“Well if you weren‟t so rough I‟d be fine,” responds Taeyeon; her grin going from sly to cheeky.
A blush creeps up on Jessica‟s face as she pushes Taeyeon back, and crawling off of her. Once
again the older girl hits her head against the headboard. “Ow!”

“You‟re fault,” responds Jessica as she picks her shirt up off the wooden floor and slides it on.

“No Sica I think I‟m bleeding!” Jessica quickly turns around with a worried look and crawls
back on top of Taeyeon to re examine the head. Her fingers frantically search the crown of
Taeyeon‟s head, looking for any sign of blood.

“Taengoo, I don‟t see any blood,” states Jessica as she leans back allowing for the girl to raise
her head.

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“But it hurts,” whines Taeyeon as she rubs her head.

“Stop acting like a little kid,” states Jessica as she climbs off the bed and heads out into the
kitchen. Taeyeon follows her, still holding onto her head. “Here place this on it,” she reaches into
the frigde grabbing an ice pack and handing it to Taeyeon. Taeyeon reluctantly takes the ice pack
and places it on the spot where the pain resided, as she watches Jessica kneel before her.

“What are you doing?” asks Taeyeon slightly confused.

“Buttoning your shirt. You have a meeting right? I can‟t have my girlfriend walk into my ex
sister looking like this,” answers Jessica as she buttons up the shirt. She looks to see Taeyeon
nodding her head like a little girl, “good.” She stands up and gives Taeyeon a small peck on the
lips before stalking off to the bathroom leaving Taeyeon along in the kitchen with an ice pack on
her head. She hears the shower running as her creeper Cheshire cat smile returns. Placing the ice
pack on the sink, Taeyeon makes her way to the bathroom, unable to control her giddiness.

*****

Tiffany slowly opens the door to Yuri‟s apartment, looking inside to see any sign of the girl. She
spots the younger girl asleep on the couch, with her tongue hanging out. She couldn‟t help but
laugh at how cute the girl looked. Giggling, she enters the apartment and closes the door, before
making her way over to Yuri. She takes a seat on the floor in front of Yuri, and slowly strokes
her cheek. Yuri‟s eyes flutter open, as she comes face to face with the eye smile that she had
fallen in love with. “Your back,” croaks Yuri as she sits up, receiving a nod from Tiffany. Yuri
dives on the floor, embracing the older girl.

“Not for long,” whispers Tiffany as she reciprocates the embrace.

Yuri backs away and looks the girl in the eyes, “What do you mean?”

“I‟m going to America, Yuri,” answers Tiffany while looking elsewhere. She didn‟t want to see
the hurt in Yuri‟s eyes. In fact if she wished she‟d leave without telling Yuri. Sure they‟re
mending the rift between them at t slow pace. But somewhere in her mind still lurked that
insecure feeling that once Yuri sees something better than her Yuri would leave.

“Why,” croaks Yuri her voice filled with pain.

“I…we got offered a job, Yuri. I‟ll be making three times as much, and it‟ll be closer to family.
And-“

“Were you ever going to tell me?”

“No-but I have a solid reason-“

“And what is that? You can‟t trust me?!”

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“Yuri I‟m just scared.”

“Scared of what?! I‟ve been trying my hardest and-“

“This! This is what I‟m afraid of! Whenever I move away from you be it physically or mentally,
you go ballistic! And there is already this insecurity within me, afraid that you‟ll leave me! I
can‟t keep living like this, Yuri. I just can‟t! So I thought maybe I‟ll go to America, for a while.
Maybe while I‟m there I can figure things out and hope that you‟ll still be waiting for me when I
come back.”

“Why would I wait for a girl who‟s leaving me?”

“Because you claim to love me. And if your feelings are true you‟d wait for me like how TaeTae
will wait for Sica.” A frustrated sigh leaves Yuri‟s lips as she rakes her fingers through her hair.

“Is this what you want, Fany? To go to America?” Tiffany nods her head, “Then I‟ll support you
and wait for you.” Tiffany‟s eyes widen as she turns and looks at Yuri. “I‟ll wait for you,”
whispers Yuri against Tiffany‟s lips as she leans in, while lying the girl down on her back.

“Thank you,” whispers Tiffany as she closes the small gap between their lips, pulling Yuri as
close as she could to her body.

*****

Hyoyeon awakens to see Sooyoung sitting at the foot of her bed eating. “You‟re awake,” states
Sooyoung as she finishes swallowing her bite. Hyoyeon nods her head, as she watches
Sooyoung push a spoon in front of her mouth. She opens it and allowing for Sooyoung to feed
her. “I have some news I wanted to talk to you about.”

“Congratulations,” mumbles Hyoyeon with a mouth full of food, “I hope Sunny treats you very
well,” she finishes after swallowing.

“It‟s not about Sunny, you idiot.” Hyoyeon raises a brow, “Sunny is a friend. I like you. Have
since we were little.”

“Oh,” responds Hyoyeon totally embarrassed, “so what do you want to talk about?”

“I got offered a job in America,” states Sooyoung.

“What about Tiffany and Jessica?”

“They‟re were offered the same thing. This business wants for us to go there and work. Tiffany
has already agreed. And I guess Jessica changed her mind and is going.”

“And you?”

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“That‟s what I wanted to talk about. I want to go, Hyo. They‟re offering three times as much as I
make. Taeyeon, Yuri and I can only scrape up so much money to pay for the hospital bill. Plus
the number of surgeries that you had to undergo, and the Physical therapy, and not to mention
the occupational therapy. With that money I can pay, for all of this. I can get you, your very own
private physical therapist.”

“Then what‟s stopping you from going?”

“You.” So she confirmed it. She really was a burden. The girl that confuses her, has admitted to
her face that she was a burden. It would only be a matter before Yuri and Tae admit it also. A
frown appears on her face, “Hey stop frowning. And no you‟re not a burden, to me.”

“Oh really than why am I keeping you from leaving?” asks Hyoyeon.

“Because I want to know what you think?”

“Oh,” once again she has embarrass herself, in front of Sooyoung. “You should go. It‟ll be a
wonderful experience. And don‟t worry about me okay? I‟ve got Tae, Yul and Seo.” Sooyoung
nods her head, and for the first time she kisses Hyoyeon on the lips surprising the girl.

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Taking Advantage of My Muse, One Last

Time
All six girls had gathered in Tiffany‟s studio, listening to the business woman explain the details
of the girl‟s trip to America. Three of the girls were giddy at the fact that they‟ll be living in a
nice condo on the upper east side of New York City, as the other three were not. They‟ll be
losing their other half, for who knows how many years. All three wanted to chase after them, but
they knew the reality is they couldn‟t. For one had to take over the family business since the
eldest children wanted nothing to do with it. Another was a song writer and vocal teacher, who
were now promoted to manager. And the last one still had months of physical therapy to
undergo.

“So that‟s it,” states the woman as she finishes her speech. “All you three have to do is sign a
three year contract with us-“

“Three years?” asks Yuri.

“Yes…we usually start the new comers off with three years and expand their contract from
there,” she explains. Taeyeon, Hyoyeon and Yuri all watch as their respective girlfriends, signed
their names on the dotted line. “Great…so you‟ll have the rest of this week-“

“That‟s only three days!” shouts Hyoyeon.

“I know, but my boss wants them there as soon as possible. They‟re very lucky I‟m not making
them leave this minute,” she says while storing the document in a file. Taeyeon grabs hold of
Jessica‟s hand before standing up.

“That‟s okay, we‟re all very grateful for the remaining time you have given us,” state Taeyeon as
she leads Jessica away from the table. Sooyoung helps Hyoyeon up, and walks her out of the
room leaving only Yuri, Tiffany and the woman.

“Out of curiosity, when will they be able to come back?” asks Yuri as Tiffany walks over to her.

“I have no clue, but I‟ll try and talk to the boss about letting these girl visit here regularly.
Advising is pretty much all I can do.”

“that‟ better than doing nothing,” states Yuri as the woman leaves. “Three years.”

“You‟ll wait right?” asks Tiffany. Yuri nods her head; it was all she could do.

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Three days had come and gone, and here they are now standing in the airport waiting for their
flight to New York.

“What are you girls going to eat? None of you can cook,” lectures Hyoyeon as she massages her
legs, “and this thing right here can eat a whole fridge.”

“We‟ll figure something out,” answers Tiffany as Yuri embraces her from behind. “With all the
money we make, we could probably hire a personal chef.”

“We‟ll need more than that,” states Jessica while looking around for Taeyeon. The girl was
supposed to be here an hour ago. And what time that was left for them to share was trickling
away. A pout makes it way onto her face.

“Don‟t worry, Taeng will be here,” states Yuri as she watches Jessica worry.

“Yeah, my sister wouldn‟t let you leave just like this,” states Hyoyeon trying to comfort Jessica.

“She‟s probably on her way now.”

“Or for that matter, she‟s already here,” states Tiffany with an eye smile and pointing behind
Jessica. The oldest girl there turns around to see her short girl friend running their way. She
quickly embraces the girl making both of them stumble into a pile of limbs on the floor.

“Taengoo…” whispers Jessica as she looks up at the girl straddling her. Taeyeon quickly stand
up and grabs Jessica‟s hands lifting her off the ground before dragging her away from the group.

All before shouting, “Watch her stuff, we‟ll be back.”

“Taengoo?” asks Jessica in a daze as Taeyeon leads her back out of the airport to her car, “what
are you doing?” She slides into the back of the car with Taeyeon following. “Taengoo…”
Taeyeon silences her with a kiss as she closes the door.

“I‟m sorry I couldn‟t be there last night,” whispers Taeyeon against Jessica‟s lips. “And I‟m
sorry I couldn‟t be here earlier.”

“It‟s okay,” whispers Jessica as she returns to kissing the shorter girl, straddling her in the
backseat of the car.

“It‟s not,” she whispers into Jessica‟s ear before kissing her way along Jessica‟s neck. Ending at
the base, she bites and sucks upon her neck, trying only to leave a mark and not draw blood.
Jessica could only release a groan, as one of Taeyeon‟s hands travel alongside her inner thigh.

“You‟re here now…And that‟s all that matters,” groans Jessica. “So use this opportunity as the
last time to take advantage of your muse.” Taeyeon nods her head, obediently.

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“They‟re gone,” states Yuri as she, Taeyeon and Hyoyeon watches the plane that‟s carrying their
girlfriends take off. “Three years.”

“Three years,” repeats Taeyeon and Hyoyeon.

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The brunette stares out the window at the passing clouds. It‟s been three years, three years since
she‟s last seen the girl who had called her, her muse. Three whole years. They tried traveling to
the see each other but something would always come up. Either she had another shoot to attend
to at the last moment, or her short girlfriend had an award show to attend to or something. A sigh
escapes her lips, and it didn‟t help much when rumors started speculating of her girlfriend dating
some American girl that wasn‟t her. “Just a few more hours Jessi,” whispers the girl sitting next
to her.

She turns and looks side ways to see the other American girl, giving her an eye smile to cheer her
up, “Easier said than done Tiff.”

Tiffany could only smile again before frowning herself. She had always wondered whether or
not her girl well soon to be girl friend would wait for her. The girl wasn‟t a saint. Not like any of
them were, but the girl wasn‟t exactly faithful. She did have a wandering eye, and just like her
friend Jessica she too was suffering from rumors of the girl getting engaged.

“Doubting Yuri?” Both American girls look over their shoulder at their tall friend, “She‟s
waiting for you. And you, Hyo says they‟re rumors, that there is nothing for you to worry about.”

“We know,” states both girls.

“"Folks, we have begun our descent to Incheon, where the current weather is sunny, and we will
be in the gate in about twenty minutes, we‟d like the flight attendants to prepare the cabin for
arrival. And we want to thank you for flying with us today...” All three girls fasten their seatbelt
as a feeling of uncertainty fills them.

“Three years,” whispers Jessica.

“Three years,” repeats Sooyoung and Tiffany.

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