Twists of Youth Vol six: Twists of Youth, #6

Chapter 1: Nannan

In the evening, the doctor allowed me to visit the HR woman in the ward once, but the time should not be too long, preferably not more than ten minutes. I agreed and changed into a sterile suit before entering the ward. I walked step by step to the bedside and looked at the HR woman lying there with tubes inserted in her body. I did not cry, but walked to her side. I didn’t know why I suddenly showed a happy smile and said to her: Now you can’t divorce me for the rest of your life.

The next second, crystal tears oozed from my eyes: But I can’t quarrel with you anymore.

After I came out of the ward, I was in a low mood for a long time. Lao Zeng went out to buy me some food and brought it back, but I had no appetite at all. Seeing me like this, Lao Zeng advised me not to stay here. Anyway, they are all in the U. Go home and rest and think about how to take care of them two plus these four children of almost the same age.

Lao Zeng's words reminded me that the HR woman and Xiaoxiao lying in the ward was a big deal, but the four hungry children at home were also not a small matter, especially Dongzhi, Wu Niang and Xiaoxiao's daughter. Dongzhi was hospitalized for pediatric pneumonia. Wu Niang and Xiaoxiao's daughter had just experienced a car accident and their mental states were unstable. These little guys needed their parents right now. How dare I be sad here? Thinking about this, I immediately took Wu Niang and Xiaoxiao's daughter back to the hospital where Dongzhi was staying.

When I rushed to the hospital, the nanny was feeding Yu Niang. When Yu Niang saw Wu Niang coming back, she immediately opened her eyes and opened her mouth and called: Sister, sister

The nanny also heard about the car accident. After asking me a few simple questions, she told me that I could leave the four children to her without worry and I would just go and do my work. Although the nanny said so, I still sent someone to pick up my parents and the HR woman's parents. I picked up my parents because I wanted my parents to help take care of the children. I picked up the HR woman's parents because I wanted them to come and see their daughter. After all, the HR woman was lying on the bed and her life was uncertain, and it would not be good not to let her parents know.

The children gathered together and soon forgot their pain, except for Xiaoxiao's daughter who was a bit unsociable.

This little girl looked like Xiaoxiao and me, but her own facial features were unique. Facing the playfulness of the other three children, she just sat quietly beside them, not participating or speaking. I wanted to ask her her name, but she didn't say a word. She ate the food she handed to her, but she didn't eat much. In the end, because I was worried about her, I had no choice but to leave the fifth girl to the nanny and take her with me. I thought that when Xiaoxiao could visit, I would let her see Xiaoxiao, and Xiaoxiao might feel better.

I asked Dongzhi's attending doctor again. The doctor told me that Dongzhi's condition had improved a lot after he was admitted to the isolation ward, and the doctor asked me to go in and visit Dongzhi. When I walked into the ward, Dongzhi was lying on the bed with a picture book. When he saw me come in, he turned his head and looked at me with a smile on his face and called me dad. He was indeed in much better spirits than yesterday. Before I opened my mouth to speak, he suddenly asked, Where's Mom?

His ne touched the soft string in my heart and almost made me burst into tears, but I still resisted the urge to cry and told him that my mother was fine. I didn't expect that tears would seep out of Dongzhi's little eyes. He said in a baby voice that you lied. I was stunned for a moment, and then Dongzhi cried and said that my mother loved me the most. She didn't come to see me when I was sick. Did my mother not love me? I never thought that a three or four-year-old child would be so sensitive. I could only coax him and said that my mother went to grandma's house and grandma, grandpa and grandma would come to see you in a few days. After coaxing him for a while, he smiled happily again. We agreed that I would come to see him tomorrow. I turned and left the ward. At the moment I closed the door of the ward, I suddenly realized that not only I couldn't live without the human affairs woman, but also my children and Xiaoxiao's daughter couldn't live without them. I turned around and came to the nanny, but I heard Yu girl beside her asking Wu girl what coma was. Wu girl said with a naive and childish smile that it was sleeping. After hearing this, Yu girl smiled and said, Then did mom just sleep? Well, the fifth girl nodded with certainty. The two little girls laughed heartlessly again. The jade girl took out candy from her pocket and shared it with the fifth girl. After thinking for a while, she handed a piece to Xiaoxiao's daughter. Xiaoxiao's daughter opened her eyes wide and looked at the candy handed over by the fifth girl. Her eyes rolled twice and suddenly a stream of tears welled up. She cried with a wow. The fifth girl and the jade girl were both scared. I felt a little confused. Why was she crying for no reason? I didn't expect Xiaoxiao's daughter to sob and say that her mother would never come back again.

Her words made the fifth girl and the jade girl look at each other. Tears were also in their eyes. Seeing this, I hurried up to hug Xiaoxiao's daughter and comforted the fifth girl and the jade girl, saying that her mother would be back in a few days. How could she not come back? I told Xiaoxiao's daughter not to cry, and that her mother would definitely be fine.

Miss Wu and Miss Yu tried to coax Xiaoxiao's daughter, but she kept sobbing and crying so sadly. I was at a loss for words and had to rush her back to the hospital. As soon as I arrived at the hospital, the doctor told me that Xiaoxiao had woken up and I could go in for a visit. I wanted to go in immediately, but unexpectedly, the nurse in Xiaoxiao's ward came over and told me that the patient said that only her daughter could go in and not me.

I stood there in shock, dumbfounded, looking at the nurse, wondering what was wrong with Xiaoxiao. But then I thought that she must have suffered a lot in the past three or four years, and she must have resented me for not wanting to see me. I sighed and could only listen to the nurse and watch Xiaoxiao's daughter go in. I went to the stairwell of the hospital, lit a cigarette, and smoked it with big puffs.

Xiaoxiao woke up, but she had a terminal illness. The woman in charge was in a coma, and it was unknown when she would wake up. This natural disaster and man-made disaster in Lao Zeng's mouth pushed the two women I loved to the edge of the abyss. Now I even regret not agreeing to the woman in charge's request for divorce. She must have been in a hurry to leave, so she chose to drive away from Shanghai at night, but she didn't expect to encounter such a huge car accident. Isn't it all my fault?

I was thinking about Xiaoxiao's daughter. I finished smoking a cigarette and hurried back. But I found that Xiaoxiao's daughter had come out of the ward and was sitting alone at the nurse's station. When she saw me coming, she looked up at me. I walked over and squatted in front of her, stroking her cheek that looked very much like me, and asked her softly, What did your mother say to you? Xiaoxiao's daughter stared at me with the same eyes as Xiaoxiao's. Tears of despair seeped out of her eyes again. I was worried about her, so I quickly wiped her tears and said with a choked voice, Don't cry, tell dad if you have anything to say... When I was about to say something, I changed my words temporarily. I felt that I was not qualified to be her father. I had never seen her father for four years since she was born, and I had never cared about her. What qualifications do I have to call myself a father now?

But I didn't expect Xiaoxiao's daughter to suddenly ask me, Are you my father?

Her words made me stay where I was. My self-blame became very complicated. I looked up at Xiaoxiao's daughter, but I didn't know what to say to her. When I reacted, I found that I was already in tears and could only nod heavily and say hmm

Seeing that I agreed, Xiaoxiao's daughter lowered her head again and remained silent. I didn't know how to face this four-year-old child, let alone how to apologize to her. After a moment of silence, she looked up at me and said to me very calmly: Is mom going to leave this world?

Her words almost made me burst into tears, and I didn't know how to answer this question. But she continued to say that mom told me that I would follow you after she left this world. I held her in my arms, and tears had already filled my eyes. Xiaoxiao's daughter is not my and Xiaoxiao's daughter, but she continued in my arms, saying, Can you tell mom not to leave this world? Nannan can't leave her.

Nannan

It turns out that the nickname of Xiaoxiao and I's daughter is Nannan

I let go of her, but Nannan obediently reached out to wipe the tears from my face, stretched over her head and kissed me on the cheek like a chicken pecking at rice. I held her in my arms again, crying but saying to her firmly, Mom will never leave this world.

Nannan just nodded obediently in my arms and didn't say anything. After my emotional breakdown, I went to the bathroom to wash my face and looked at myself in the mirror. I swore to myself that no matter how hard it was to find a kidney source, no matter how low the probability of matching was, no matter how difficult it was to survive after the kidney transplant, I would do a kidney transplant for Xiaoxiao. I would do my best to save Xiaoxiao's life in this world.

I called Lao Zeng and asked him to help me contact the most well-known domestic and international kidney transplant experts and kidney sources. As long as Xiaoxiao could use the kidney source, no matter how high the other party asked for, even if I had to bear the other party's living expenses for the rest of his life, I would accept it. After listening to it, Lao Zeng agreed without saying anything.

As soon as I hung up the phone, the HR woman's father called me and asked me where I was. I was stunned and realized that the HR woman's father might have arrived in Shanghai. I rushed to the HR woman's ward in a hurry. From a distance, I saw the HR woman's parents standing outside the glass window in front of the U ward, looking at the HR woman lying on the bed inside. When she felt me ​​coming, the HR woman's parents turned their heads and looked at me at the same time. Her mother went crazy when she saw me. Without saying a word, she rushed up and slapped me twice.

I stood there without moving

At this time, I was beaten to stand straight

Chapter 2: Xiaoxiao's letter

The mother of the HR woman, a rural woman who always obeyed her husband and spoiled her children, was furious at this time. She beat and scolded me very cruelly, but she couldn't help but shed tears in her eyes. The father of the HR woman was unusually calm at this time. He watched his wife beat and scold me, but just stood there without saying a word. After the mother of the HR woman was tired of beating me, she came up and asked me: Where is the fifth girl?

His words made me react suddenly. I looked at the two of them with some panic. The mother of the HR woman also reacted and pointed at me and said: Yes, leave Xiao Wu to us, you ungrateful bastard

Only then did I realize that the parents of the HR woman might know the truth about the HR woman's car accident

The father of the HR woman said coldly with a dark face: We will cure Hongling's disease. You hand over the fifth girl to us. I will make the decision for her. You two can divorce

I subconsciously took two steps back and was in unprecedented panic. I never thought that asking the HR woman's parents to come over would lead to such an outcome. But how could I not understand their feelings at this moment? Looking at their angry, pity or desperate eyes, my lips trembled and I knelt on the ground and shouted: Mom and Dad

My voice was filled with sadness and I said: Mom and Dad, Hongling is still lying in the hospital bed. Are you going to take her away from me? I know she is your only daughter, but she is also my only wife and the only mother of the fifth girl. I also know that this matter is all my fault, but are you going to deprive me of my only chance to atone for my sins? I love Hongling

After saying that, I bowed my head deeply with tears on my face

The HR woman's mother cried even harder when she saw this. Although her father still had a cold face, he no longer mentioned the meeting with the fifth girl

The next day, my parents also arrived in Shanghai. My mother and the mother of the HR woman had a big fight because of the HR woman’s matter. My mother naturally sided with me and said that the HR woman’s car accident was an accident and it couldn’t be blamed on me. However, the mother of the HR woman shouted that she wanted the HR woman to divorce me and take the fifth girl away. My mother was unhappy when she heard this. She brought up the popular legal program on TV and said that the custody of the fifth girl was in my hands and they had no right to decide.

When the two of them quarreled, I was not around. I rushed to the scene after they finished quarreling. I was exhausted and comforted them. As a result, the mother of the HR woman insisted on leaving immediately. Not only did she want to leave, she also insisted on taking the fifth girl away. When my mother heard this, she immediately brought up the popular legal program again. As a result, the two of them quarreled again. I listened to the two of them quarreling and felt that I was so confused that I couldn’t care about anything. I immediately shouted: Enough

The quarrel between the two of them stopped abruptly and turned to look at me angrily. I saw that I complained with tears in my voice: My wife is still lying in the hospital now

My mother turned her head and glanced at the mother of the HR woman, sighed and sat aside. The mother of the HR woman pursed her lips and her eyes turned slightly red when I mentioned the HR woman. I wiped the tears from my face and said to the mother of the HR woman first: Mom, if you feel uncomfortable living in Shanghai, take the fifth girl home to stay for two days. Then I said to my mother: Mom, Dongzhi has recently contracted pediatric pneumonia and is in the hospital. Please take care of Yu girl. When Dongzhi recovers, if you want to go home, take them both home to live for a while.

After that, I said to both of them at the same time: No matter what, Hongling is still in the hospital. She is still my wife, the fifth girl is still my daughter, and you are still the children's grandmothers. Let's not quarrel for now, okay?

My mother turned her head to the side with tears in her eyes, but the mother of the HR woman had already burst into tears and cried, saying: My poor Ling'er

In the end, the HR woman's parents didn't take the fifth girl away because the fifth girl didn't want to go with them. She said she wanted to see her mother. The fifth girl didn't leave. The HR woman's parents were worried that their daughter would miss her granddaughter, so she naturally stayed in Shanghai. With both parents coming, the children finally had someone to take care of them, and I could finally stay with the HR woman and Xiaoxiao in the hospital 24 hours a day.

Xiaoxiao was transferred from U to the intensive care unit 24 hours after the operation. I originally wanted to accompany her in the ward all the time, but she asked the nurse to tell me that she didn't want to see me. I had no choice but to hire the best nurse in the hospital to take care of her and let my daughter accompany her. After 48 hours, the HR woman was also transferred from U to the intensive care unit. When the HR woman's parents came to visit, they cried so hard that I also secretly wiped my tears in the corner.

The doctor told me that although the chance of waking up from a severe concussion is low, talking to her often, letting her listen to some music, or using traditional Chinese medicine acupuncture and pain stimulation methods can increase the chance of waking up. But no matter what, I have to be mentally prepared for a long battle. I nodded and talked to the motionless HR woman on the bed for a long time that day, and took out her Pd to play the music she often listened to for her.

The HR woman hadn't woken up yet, but the doctor detected that Xiaoxiao's renal failure was getting worse. The doctor pointed to the film taken by T and said to me: The kidney is an important organ for processing toxins in the body. Its main function is to process toxins and excrete them through urine. The kidneys of patients with uremia are bad and weak. They cannot process and filter toxins in the body. If these toxins cannot be metabolized, they will affect other organs in the body and threaten life. The only treatment method is to replace the kidney, and the patient Hong Xihua's kidneys are almost unusable. If a kidney source cannot be found within three months, it is likely to...

I asked the doctor blankly: So you mean she only has three months to live

The doctor sighed and nodded in despair: You can say that, but in the past three months, we have been using the new American drug and being conservative. The patient is now emotionally unstable and has multiple fractures on her body. The situation is very bad. I will prepare you for surgery at any time. You should hurry up to find a kidney source. Kidney transplant surgery is imminent.

After coming out of the doctor's office, I wandered in front of Xiaoxiao's ward for a long time. I wanted to push the door open to see her, but thinking of what the nurse said to me, I finally didn't have the courage to push the door open. The next day, all the well-known domestic nephrology experts that Lao Zeng contacted came to this hospital for a centralized consultation on Xiaoxiao's condition. The result was the same as that of the attending doctor. A kidney transplant surgery must be performed as soon as possible.

However, kidney sources are the most important of all human organs and the most scarce organ in human organ transplantation. There is no organ source in the matching database of major hospitals. The possibility of getting a kidney through formal channels is almost zero. Buying it at a high price requires a lot of matching. After the matching is successful, you have to negotiate with the other party before you can perform the operation. On the other hand, there are many organ intermediaries in the market for buying kidneys at high prices. The teenager who sold his kidney for Phne was deceived by such black intermediaries.

But I don't care about these. As long as there is a kidney source, I don't care where it comes from or how much it costs. I am willing to do this kidney transplant surgery for Xiaoxiao. But the fact is that sometimes even money can't buy kidneys. Black intermediaries can indeed introduce some kidney sources. Kidney transplant centers can also come to do some matching, but the success rate of matching is shockingly low.

Just when I was at a loss, the doctor told me in time that the success rate of matching between relatives would be higher. I can contact the patient's parents, brothers and sisters. When I heard this, I immediately asked Lao Zeng to help me investigate what other relatives Xiaoxiao had. As a result, Lao Zeng found out after some effort that Xiaoxiao was an only child. Her parents died one after another when her daughter was just born four years ago. She has no brothers and sisters and few relatives.

I was stunned and squatted in the corridor of the hospital in despair.

How cruel must God be to ruthlessly deprive a kind woman of her life without leaving her any chance to live. I punched the floor and my hand bled, but I didn't feel any pain at all because my heart had long been numb. I even began to doubt whether I was the real nemesis. Bai Lu left me, my brother left me, and now Xiao Xiao and the woman in charge are like this. What did I do wrong to make God treat the people around me like this?

I suddenly raised my head and was about to yell, but I unexpectedly found that Nannan was standing in front of me, looking at me with a pair of childish eyes full of anger

The anger in my chest disappeared instantly, and was replaced by a cautious panic. Nannan asked me with her big eyes: What's wrong with you?

I quickly said: It's okay and then asked her: Why aren't you in there with your mother?

Nannan then remembered her business and took out a letter from her body and handed it to me. She stuck out her tongue and said to me: Mom asked me to give it to you

My heart tightened and I quickly took the letter from Nannan's hand. Just as I was about to open it in front of her, I heard her suddenly ask again: Are you really Nannan's father?

Her words made me stunned for a moment. I stopped my hand movements in a trance and looked up at the little girl and nodded blankly: Yeah

Nannan stuck out her tongue again and turned away

Watching her go into the ward, my cold heart was filled with a little warmth

Turning back, I opened the letter that Xiaoxiao asked Nannan to give me and read it. My heart, which had just warmed up, became cold again as if falling into an ice cellar

I picked up the letter and turned around and rushed into Xiaoxiao's ward with a sullen face and asked: What do you mean?

Chapter 3: Love is a waste of time

Isaw Xiaoxiao again after more than four years. I never thought that the first words I said to her would be like this. I dreamed many times in the middle of the night that Xiaoxiao and I met in the vast crowd. We looked at each other without words but with love in our eyes. But at this moment, Xiaoxiao was lying on the hospital bed with a pale face and a thin body. Her lips were so dry and bloodless due to long-term medication. But I was holding her letter and glaring at her

Because her letter said that she didn't want treatment or kidney transplant. She just wanted to leave this world. I asked her not to care about her and not to take the initiative to see her before she left this world

But she didn't expect that after reading her letter, I, who had originally obeyed her order not to see her, was suddenly ignited with anger in my heart. I pushed open her ward door and appeared in front of her. However, the moment I saw her, all the anger in my heart was washed away and replaced by a sense of grievance, sadness and resentment

I thought I was so hard-hearted that I would never cry again, but now tears were in my eyes

I really want to say to her: You just disappeared like that. Do you know how I have been spending these past 1,700 days and nights for more than four years? Do you know how worried I am about you? Hong Xihua Xiaoxiao

But when the words came to my lips, I couldn't say them anymore. I didn't even have the courage to call her name

But she was lying on the bed, looking at me tenderly with a smile on her lips, as if she wasn't angry. I took the initiative to open the door of the ward and saw Nannan next to her. She turned her head and looked at me and then at Xiaoxiao. Her big eyes seemed not enough to understand what was going on between me and her mother

It took me a long time to sort out my mood. I took a deep breath and sat next to Xiaoxiao and said to her: I will do my best to help you find a kidney source. You are not allowed to say that you give up. I promised Nannan that I will never let you leave this world.

Xiaoxiao didn't say anything and turned her head to the side to look at the sunflower that I asked the nurse to bring in. I sat next to her and bit my lips carefully. After hesitating for a moment, I asked her: How have you been these years?

Xiaoxiao withdrew her gaze from the sunflower and nodded gently to indicate that she was fine.

I stared at her sick face from a close distance and looked at her eyes that had experienced many vicissitudes of life only four years apart. My eyes became wet again. Xiaoxiao motioned to Nannan next to me to hand me a tissue. After I took the tissue and sorted out my emotions, I smiled and said to her: From now on, I won't allow you to leave me again. You must stay by my side. Do you hear me?

Xiaoxiao still didn't speak, so I continued: I lost you four years ago. Now you have finally found you. I will never allow myself to lose you again.

Xiaoxiao looked into my eyes. With a joyful expression on my face, I continued: When you recover from your illness, you must tell me what you have encountered in the past four years, when Nannan was born, how you took care of yourself after the confinement, and what you did in Hangzhou. You must tell me everything one by one...

Heaven Xiaoxiao, who had been silent all the time, suddenly shouted

I stopped my endless words and looked at her suddenly

I want to take a break, Xiaoxiao said gently, not at all like she was telling me to leave.

I looked at the face I had been thinking about for more than four years, took a deep breath, and sat beside her like she was angry, keeping silent but not leaving. Xiaoxiao had no choice but to close her eyes and lie on the bed pretending to rest. Unexpectedly, she actually fell asleep after a while. I took this opportunity to keep watch over her. I looked carefully at this first woman I loved wholeheartedly in my life, and made a hushing gesture to signal