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    Meeting Myself: Snippets from a Binging and Bulging Mind
    Meeting Myself: Snippets from a Binging and Bulging Mind
    Meeting Myself: Snippets from a Binging and Bulging Mind
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    Meeting Myself: Snippets from a Binging and Bulging Mind

    By Brenda J Wood

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    A subconsciously written entry in my journal started me on this path to freedom. Meeting Myself: Snippets from a Binging and Bulging Mind is the story of my journey through bulimia, doubt, and unbelief into healing and wholeness in Christ. About the Author: A popular motivational speaker, Brenda Wood is known for her common sense wisdom, sense of humour, and quirky comments.
    LanguageEnglish
    PublisherWord Alive Press
    Release dateJan 4, 2015
    ISBN9781770695818
    Meeting Myself: Snippets from a Binging and Bulging Mind
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    Brenda J Wood

    I call myself the ABC girl’ because I’ve survived the alphabet biggies of abuse, bulimia, and cancer.Right now I am working my way through the D’s that is recovering from the loss of my husband a few months ago.I expect to conquer the entire alphabet in my life time with the help of my Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ.I am a somewhat average gal, not too tall, not too round, not too old or too young. I am not too outgoing, yet I am definitely not an introvert.I started to write seriously when I learned that journaling could help a person overcome sexual abuse. I thought that is for me! Eventually I started publishing the devotions that fill my journals.Some of those devotionals became the book, Heartfelt Devotionals-366 devotions for common sense living.My devotionals appear regularly at http://everydaychristian.com / and http://daily.presbycan.ca /I tend to write about what is happening in my life. Constant dieting produced the Bible Study, God, Gluttony & You, as well as several health related cookbooks.When Ron passed, I wrote a picture/story book for grieving children, called The Big Red Chair (2011).Meeting Myself-Snippets from a Binging and Bulging Mind (Word Alive Press) is the newest release. As you might expect from the title, it’s the painful, though often funny story of my recovery from abuse and bulimia. I’m honoured that both Michael Bull Roberts and Nikki Rosen read and endorsed it.You might have guessed by now that my next book will be about losing my Honey. I guess you could say that writing saved my life. Oh, I know that without Jesus and my husband Ron, (who was my ‘Jesus with skin’) I’d have sunk. But writing gives me a place to look at my life and recognize how far I’ve come.

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      Meeting Myself - Brenda J Wood

      MEETING MYSELF: SNIPPETS FROM A BINGING AND BULGING MIND

      Copyright © 2012 by Brenda J. Wood

      All rights reserved. Neither this publication nor any part of this publication may be reproduced or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic or mechanical, including photocopying, recording or any information storage and retrieval system, without permission in writing from the author.

      Unless otherwise indicated, all Scripture quotations taken from the Amplified® Bible, Copyright © 1954, 1958, 1962, 1964, 1965, 1987 by The Lockman Foundation. Used by permission. Scripture quotations marked (NIV) are taken from the Holy Bible, New International Version®, NIV®. Copyright © 1973, 1978, 1984, 2011 by Biblica, Inc.™ Used by permission of Zondervan. All rights reserved worldwide. Scripture taken from The Message. Copyright © 1993, 1994, 1995, 1996, 2000, 2001, 2002. Used by permission of NavPress Publishing Group. Scripture quotations marked (RSV) are taken from the Revised Standard Version of the Bible, copyright 1952 [2nd edition, 1971] by the Division of Christian Education of the National Council of the Churches of Christ in the United States of America. Used by permission. All rights reserved.

      All medical information is drawn only from the author’s personal experience.

      Author and Speaker Brenda J. Wood would love to hear from you!

      Email: [email protected]

      Online: http://heartfeltdevotionals.wordpress.com

      Facebook: www.facebook.com/brendawoodspeaker

      EPUB Version ISBN 978-1-77069-581-8

      Word Alive Press

      131 Cordite Road, Winnipeg, MB R3W 1S1

      www.wordalivepress.ca

      Library and Archives Canada Cataloguing in Publication

      Wood, Brenda, 1945-

      Meeting myself : snippets from a binging and bulging mind / Brenda J. Wood.

      ISBN 978-1-77069-444-6

      1. Wood, Brenda, 1945-. 2. Christian biography--Canada. 3. Bulimia--Patients--Biography. 4. Adult child abuse victims--Canada--Biography. 5. Authors, Canadian--Biography. I. Title.

      BR1725.W66A3 2011 248.4 C2011-907839-2

      For Ron, who walked with me every step of the way.

      CONTENTS

      Chapter 1

      Chapter 2

      Chapter 3

      Chapter 4

      Chapter 5

      Chapter 6

      Chapter 7

      Chapter 8

      Chapter 9

      Chapter 10

      Chapter 11

      Chapter 12

      Chapter 13

      Chapter 14

      Bulimia: What It Is

      Suggested Reading

      Chapter One

      Half of life is simply accepting what is.

      I didn’t know I wasn’t me. How could I? As long as I could remember, I’d never been anyone else. That’s what abuse did to me. Parts of me lay buried so deep that at first glance they seemed not to be there at all.

      Feelings? I don’t have any. My life happens in the third person while I watch from afar. Experience teaches me that my feelings aren’t safe. They repeatedly get me into trouble. Self-preservation stands between me and them. For safety’s sake, they are sectioned off and twisted into plaits tighter than a seven-year-old child’s pigtails. I want it to stay that way.

      I met these startling words from my journal with shocked surprise. Where did they come from? Apparently, somewhere deep in my being lived a part of me I’d never confronted, let alone embraced. Long-buried memories lived a life sentence there with no parole. I’d seldom visited, but when this journal entry surfaced, it demanded dominance in my mind.

      I didn’t want to look that locked place in the face. It was too big to handle. It tripped me up, threw me down, and made me powerless. It turned my short-fused temper into a chocolate frenzy, a gluttonous binge or a bulimic episode.

      I know friends and family didn’t understand me or my attitudes, or even my actions. Why, I didn’t even understand them myself. I’d come home from a function wondering why I’d said or done a certain thing. I couldn’t put my finger on it, but I knew I flew on a different wavelength than the rest of the world. How is it that so many people lived inside my brain? Why did I see funny things as tragic and tragic things as laughable? Why on earth would I eat a full course meal, plus dessert, and then come home and eat a loaf of bread? Why was full never enough for me?

      My problems looked a little different each time, but to me they could all be solved if I lost some weight. I consistently blamed everything on my eating habits, and the inevitable outcome. Fat. Forget the niceties of calling it overweight. Fat is where it’s at for me.

      Have a bout of cancer, or even two? No doubt they stemmed from my bad eating habits.

      The first one took me by surprise. An innocent mole on my hand turned out to be stage-two melanoma. Two surgeries later, I found myself joining the sunless generation. No more sitting out with the family on pleasant days. No more picnics in the park. No more traipsing to Florida for a few weeks. No, now I clung to the inside of the house between 10:00 a.m. and 4:00 p.m. and wore sunscreen, sun-repellent hats, and suffocatingly hot clothing the rest of the time. Fun.

      The next year, I developed a tumour in my parotid gland. The parotid glands are the largest of all the salivary glands. They secrete saliva into the mouth. Saliva helps us chew, swallow, and digest starches. Apparently, mumps actually happen in the parotids.

      This second cancer surprised me, but it terrified me, too. Who am I kidding? It terrified me a lot. The diagnosis included warnings that I’d be disfigured, lose my ability to speak clearly, and perhaps even be paralyzed on my left side. The word cancer is scary enough, but I was a motivational speaker with her own company and TV show. What on earth would I do?

      As it turned out, after surgery I had only two residuals. The first is a great profile which lets me look ten years younger on my left. This is the side I like to present to the camera!

      The second is Frey’s’ Syndrome. I spell it Fry’s Syndrome. Only a foodaholic like me deserved something with a fat name. My symptoms include redness and sweating near the ear. Here’s how it works. When I eat something really tasty—or even dream, think, or talk about it—my face leaks. I try to be discreet. I really do. However, if you see me swabbing at my dripping face, you can tell the meal was really great. The family loves to tease me with comments like, So, I guess today’s meal was superb. Mom is leaking. Or worse, Gee Mom, if I’d known you hated my cooking that much I’d have ordered pizza.

      The correct name for all that wetness is gustatory sweating. As it was explained to me, the parotid nerves have to go somewhere, so they heal to the outside of the face. Just when you thought that was too much information, here’s another tidbit for you: sometimes just smelling a particular food

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