Dunhuang Dream

DUNHUANG DREAM

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Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication Data

  Xu, Xiaobin.

    Dunhuang dream : a novel / Xu Xiaobin ; translated by John Balcom.

         p. cm

 1. Xu, Xiaobin.—Translations into English. I. Balcom, John. II. Title

 PL2862.U15627D8613  2011

 895.1′352—dc22

2011001282

ISBN 978-1-4165-8390-5

ISBN 978-1-4165-8421-6 (ebook)

Contents

Introduction

I. The Tathagata

II. Lakshmi

III. Ganapati

IV. Guanyin

V. The Transformation of the Western Paradise

VI. My Mind Is Buddha

Postscript

Introduction

Dunhuang Dream, Xu Xiaobin’s novel of romance, intrigue, and crime, is set in the exotic locale of the Mogao Caves in the far west of China. Buddhism, especially in its iconographic aspects and its esoteric Tantric form, pervade the novel and add to the mystery. Given the rich cultural dimensions of the novel, perhaps a very brief introduction is in order.

The main characters of the novel find themselves in the Mogao Caves, popularly known as the Dunhuang Caves, a UN World Heritage Site, which are located in the Hexi Corridor of Gansu Province, China, along what was once part of the fabled Silk Road. Zhang Shu is running away from a bad marriage and decides to travel to Dunhuang, a place he failed to reach as a student during the Great Link-up, when revolutionary students traveled around China linking up with their counterparts all over the country during the Cultural Revolution (1966–1976). Xiao Xingxing, a noted artist, is also fleeing from the boredom of a stifling marriage and seeking inspiration from the art treasures contained in the Dunhuang Caves. Xiang Wuye, a young student of traditional Chinese medicine, is there out of curiosity. A number of secondary characters who live at Dunhuang, such as a collector of folktales, a fortune-teller, a local Tantric master, and corrupt officials, among others, contribute to the depth and richness of the novel.

The Mogao Caves are located southeast of the city of Dunhuang. They were an important religious site for centuries. The first cave was dug out in 366; eventually more than one thousand were dug over the years. From the fourth to the fourteenth centuries, as the caves were excavated, they were also painted; it is estimated that the paintings cover miles of wall. The caves became an important religious site, containing not only the impressive frescoes for which the site is known today, but also a huge repository containing important religious and philosophical manuscripts dating from 406 to 1002 AD. It is estimated that there were approximately fifty thousand manuscripts stored there. The caves were eventually abandoned and only rediscovered in the early 1900s. Today they are an important tourist destination.

Not surprisingly given the backdrop of the story, Buddhism pervades the novel. In fact, the reader will notice that the five chapters are titled with Buddhist terms and concepts: Tathagata, or thus come one, a name for the Buddha; Lakshmi, the Hindu goddess of wealth who was absorbed into the Buddhist pantheon; Ganapati, another Hindu god that became a part of the Buddhist pantheon; Guanyin, the Buddhist goddess of mercy; the transformation of the Western Paradise, the Buddhist paradise; and My mind is Buddha, an expression stating a fundamental truth of Buddhism that we all possess the Buddha nature.

This structural device is an essential element of the novel. The reader should in no way be intimidated by the detailed descriptions of Buddhist iconography—in point of fact, few Chinese readers of the novel know much about these things. What is important to remember is that the author is juxtaposing an ideal world of religious and philosophical aspirations, which, through its iconic representation, seems to take on a sense of permanence, with the transient, ever-changing world of human affairs and emotions. The lengthy and detailed descriptions of Buddhist deities create verbal frescoes incorporating the historical evolution of the imagery and the symbolic qualities that have accrued over time, creating a sense of timelessness. Thus, against the pervasive, transcendent backdrop of Buddhism, the actions of the characters begin to appear as insignificant and transient as they really are.

Tantric Buddhism is another feature that comes into play in the novel for a number of characters. Tantric Buddhism is also known as Esoteric Buddhism, Vajra Buddhism, and the Secret Sect. While there is a textual tradition to the school, it also places great stress upon ritual, including different forms of yoga. In terms of the artistic representation of such practices, most Western readers will think of Tibetan statues or paintings depicting couples in sexual embrace, one form of yoga practice. The transmission of certain of these teachings is secret and only occurs directly from teacher to student. Supposedly, if the teachings are not practiced properly, they can be quite dangerous or harmful. As pointed out, Tantric Buddhism made its way to China along the Silk Road. In fact, Dunhuang was a repository of Tantric texts, 350 of which are catalogued in the British Library; and, of course, there are a great many tantric paintings to be seen at the Mogao Caves, dating from the Tang dynasty (618–907) to the Yuan dynasty (1279–1367).

By the end of the novel, it becomes evident that perhaps there is a Buddhist moral to the tale. As the Diamond Sutra says: Everything is like a dream, an illusion, bubbles, shadows, like drops of dew, and a flash of lightning: contemplate them thus.

J.B.

Monterey

June 2010

DUNHUANG DREAM

I.

The Tathagata

1

Tathagata, it is said, refers to the absolute truth as spoken by the Buddha.

Candrakirti, a transmitter of Tibetan Tantric Buddhism, said, The Tathagata is a five-colored light.

Tson-kha-pa took it a step further and said, The absolute truth is the mysterious appreciation of that light.

For a long time, I mistakenly believed that Tathagata was another name for Shakyamuni.¹ When I was young, I would point at an image of Shakyamuni and say, That’s the Tathagata Buddha.

It’s not altogether untrue. In Mahayana Buddhism, Shakyamuni is the transformation body of the absolute truth.

Only in Buddhism are two opposing truths enshrined: the basic tenets of Buddhism advocate the practice of discipline, meditation, and wisdom and the avoidance of the three poisons of desire, anger, and ignorance. But Tibetan Tantric Buddhism holds that only when man and woman cultivate the esoteric together—which is to say in a union of the Buddha and the two sexual forces—can a particular state be achieved.

The light of the Tathagata is divided into five colors, most likely in order to suit people’s differing conceptions.

2

Zhang Shu’s wife died. She died in an auto accident.

I heard she was with her lover at the time.

Naturally this put Zhang Shu in an awkward position. But I must say that he didn’t look terribly heartbroken; rather, his expression was more one of resignation. He has aged a lot in the last two years and looks older than most men in their forties. Actually the onset of aging coincides with putting on weight, which is the result of the wasting power of an empty routine and the mediocre. This process is as implacable as the net of Heaven from which no one escapes; it tightens slowly and facilely around a fresh, vibrant life until it expires, ossified amid excessive warmth and comfort.

The ashen pallor preceding ossification had already appeared on Zhang Shu’s face.

She’s dead and gone. You needn’t take it so hard. You still have the child. I repeated this obligatory cliché.

He smiled coldly and with his coarse hand stroked his son’s faded hair. It occurred to me over the last couple of days, he said, unhappily, that people don’t have enough ways to express their grief. What is there other than the usual sobbing or tears?

His words gave one the chills.

You might have been better off if it had ended three years ago, I said.

Who knows? I believe everything is predetermined, ‘Poverty and power have been fixed since the beginning of time; meeting and parting are fated.’ His eyes drifted. I never left her and the child. On this point I have no regrets.

Three years before, Zhang Shu had departed on a mysterious journey to the Hexi Corridor in Gansu Province. No one thought he would return, or at least not return to his wife.

But he did come back, as suddenly as he had left.

His wife, Wang Xiyi, was the daughter of the party secretary to one of the provincial committees. She was as lovely as her name and was known far and wide as a talented young woman. They had a cute and well-behaved son by the name of Zhang Gu. He’s twelve years old now.

No one really understood the reason for the loneliness in Zhang Shu’s eyes.

Not counting myself, of course. This is not to say that I have the ability to decipher the secret signs of the soul. It’s quite simple—Zhang Shu told me everything. To be more precise, he chose me. We’re not exactly close friends, and I’m usually too busy to sit down and have a chat, but that’s probably why he chose me.

How is Xiao Xingxing? Are you in touch with her? Seeing his hairline, which had receded even more, a small path flashed before my eyes.

He shook his head. The small path was suddenly blocked.

Perhaps she was right when she said a good man and a good woman will never be together, never. So stop daydreaming, he said.

3

Zhang Shu met Xiao Xingxing at the guesthouse on Sanwei Mountain at Dunhuang in Gansu.

It was on the third day after he arrived at Dunhuang on a damp, fresh morning, something rare in the Northwest. And it was the first time he had heard a pure Beijing accent since his arrival. Years later, he would remember that pleasing voice, which had allowed him to relax, feeling as if he had returned to familiar territory.

That clear ringing voice was talking about national ration coupons with the old manager.

Do you need some coupons? I have some. He hastened over. He had never been so forward in his life, and those who knew him would have been surprised.

Standing, profile toward him, the young woman turned. The first thing he saw, of course, was her eyes, those eyes of hers—big, bright, and black as lacquer. Many years later he realized where he had gone wrong: he shouldn’t have looked at her eyes first! That’s because her other features were so ordinary. If at the time he had first looked at her nose or her forehead, he, in all likelihood, would not have been so absurdly infatuated.

The young woman seemed as fresh as the morning. She looked sharp and lively in her short, casually brushed hair. She fixed her large, bright eyes on him. The tip of her nose was slightly upturned (it was the sort of cute, small, upturned nose rarely seen among Chinese women!). Her full lips resembled a deep red rosebud. Her tanned face was lightly freckled, but from her neck down to her exposed collarbone, her skin was a brilliant white. She was dressed simply in a loose white cotton T-shirt and a pair of denim shorts. She was not tall, but full figured and light on her feet. As the morning breeze lifted her hair, she seemed bathed in the splendor of youth.

She was different and, from beginning to end, mysterious. She spoke to him in her gentle way, Oh, you have ration coupons? That’s so good of you! He felt her manner of speech did not fit her appearance; she should have been more lively, more straightforward, more blunt and to the point. But her tone of voice never varied. Yes, from beginning to end, she maintained a distance between them, never once affording him the opportunity to get close.

Perhaps it was this distance that made her mysterious and beautiful, and why he never felt disappointed in her. Maybe it was cunning on her part.

When did you arrive? He took the ration coupons from his stiff, worn wallet and handed them to her as if he were moving a chess piece.

Last night. She smiled as she accepted them. I never expected to run into someone from home here. That’s wonderful

What do you need the ration coupons for? The dining hall in the guesthouse doesn’t require them.

I don’t feel like eating in the dining hall. I can get rice with the coupons and cook for myself.

Zhang Shu smiled. What do you do?

"I paint. Did you see the Halfway Exhibition? Do you recall that half of a bull’s head? Xiao Xingxing." As she smiled, her eyes narrowed to slits.

Ah, the painter, he said, hesitatingly. He had seen the Halfway Exhibition and remembered the name Xiao Xingxing. However, he seemed to recall that Xiao Xingxing the painter was about thirty years old and found it impossible to match her with the vibrant young woman before him.

And what do you do? Xiao Xingxing’s eyes twinkled.

Zhang Shu laughed. Nothing. I don’t even have a job. I came here to see the Mogao Caves.

You quit your job?

Yeah.

That takes guts. I wish I could do the same; I’ve thought about it for years but could never bring myself to do it. As she spoke, she fanned herself with her hat. At first he thought it was because of the heat, but later he realized it was just a habit of hers.

You don’t strike me as someone lacking in nerve.

Really? That’s just the problem, I suppose. I look brave, but I’m not. Well, it’s been nice meeting you. I’ve got to go buy some rice now.

I have a couple of packages of instant noodles.

That’s okay. I really don’t care for them. She had already moved away some distance. He found it strange that she could walk so fast. She was full figured, but stepped lightly as if her feet had wings. Her voice had a rhythm all its own; he was sure she could sing.

4

At that time, Zhang Shu was close to forty. His background was typical of his generation. He lived seriously in his youth. In that fanatical time, he was present seven of the eight times Chairman Mao received the Red Guards, but he always regretted missing that one time. It was traveling around the country during the Great Link-up, as it was called in those days, that changed him. With thirty yuan in his book bag, he traveled to the far reaches of the country. Running wild and unrestrained, he learned the meaning of poverty and foolishness. He stood like a blockhead for long hours in foul-smelling, crowded trains. After returning to Beijing he would have nothing more to do with revolution. He just kept his mouth shut. In silence, calm and unhurried, he went to a police substation to cancel his Beijing residence registration and then left for a poverty-stricken village in the mountains of northern Shanxi province, where he would spend eight whole years. In order to make it back to Beijing in time to take advantage of the reforms in the high school exam system to compensate for their interrupted educations during the Cultural Revolution, many of the older intellectuals vied with one another to get on the last train, but not him. Watching the overloaded train depart before his very eyes, he handled it as he had handled so many things over the years—he took a long-term wait-and-see attitude.

He wasn’t without accomplishments, though. Many of his friends said that he was lucky in love and that his wife had willingly walked into his trap. She was not only pretty and competent, but more important, she was the daughter of a provincial party secretary. This in itself was sufficient to increase respect for him. No one could figure out or explain how a quiet guy like him had managed to snare a woman like her. He was, needless to say, quite handsome—tall, thick hair, swarthy, with eminently proper looks. His unshakably cool and stern temperament, that strong, silent type that has been preferred by women the last few years. But the daughter of the provincial party secretary soon learned that reserved didn’t necessarily translate into food on the table. She had married an incompetent husband, entirely out of step with the times. The worst was that they soon had a child and then it was too late for regrets. Wang Xiyi began to show her displeasure through her expressions, by breaking things, and by verbally abusing her husband. She went out to have fun and later to work, leaving the child at home with him. He silently assumed responsibility for raising the child. Days turned into years, and he fulfilled his duty as the mother of the house. Even in the days after he had an accident and scalded his feet, everyone saw him hobbling with the aid of two canes, struggling against a freezing wind, to pick up the child at the kindergarten. But gradually, the daughter of the provincial party secretary was moved, or perhaps, for some other reason, she suddenly decided to come home. The moment she decided he deserved better, she immediately decided to quit the job she had obtained through her father and join her husband in the northwest with which he was so familiar.

It was the second time he had traveled the Hexi Corridor² in Gansu Province. Unlike his first visit during the Cultural Revolution, this time it was different in that he rode a creaking bicycle on the Silk Road. For some inexplicable reason he had a special feeling for the area. When the scorching wind of the Gobi desert lifted his hair and burned his skin, he would delight at the sight of the crystalline peaks of the Qilian Mountains and the usual mirages that appeared and disappeared. For him it was an extreme pleasure, an unworldly enjoyment. Often he would forget himself and shout several times to hear the distant echo. He even dreamed of encountering a sandstorm that would swallow him and then spit him out far away. He lost his way in the sea of sand and wandered aimlessly. Surviving, he would think of this and a smile would appear on his cracked lips. To him it all seemed an impossible, extravagant dream.

It was the first time he had been to Dunhuang, though. During the Cultural Revolution, he had stopped at Yanguan Pass in Gansu. Bending over, the Red Guards had all started rummaging through the antiques at a stand looking for valuables. Their military pants had been washed white till they looked like patches of white mushrooms. One girl found a nice piece of Han dynasty tile, and showed it all around as if it were a great treasure, and then had slipped it quietly to Zhang Shu. Maybe I really am lucky in love? He smiled bitterly thinking about the women he had met in his life. But like smoke or mist, they were all vague and unclear.

5

Zhang Shu had not expected his soul to be so stirred by the