Showing posts with label pregnancyjournals. Show all posts
Showing posts with label pregnancyjournals. Show all posts

Tuesday, December 16, 2014

Wont' u stay with me?


Halo!
its been a while tak menjenguk blog.
its not much but its worth for myself and for the future.
kan?
nak tulis apa?
lots of things happen lately.
Nak cerita banyak bende.
tapi, layan dulu lagu ni la.
EH?



by Sam smith- Stay with me.


Guess it's true, I'm not good at a one-night stand
But I still need love 'cause I'm just a man
These nights never seem to go to plan
I don't want you to leave, will you hold my hand?

Oh, won't you stay with me?
'Cause you're all I need
This ain't love it's clear to see
But darling, stay with me


Why am I so emotional?
No it's not a good look, gain some self control
And deep down I know this never works
But you can lay with me so it doesn't hurt
Oh, won't you stay with me?
'Cause you're all I need
This ain't love it's clear to see
But darling, stay with me






#28wks #missinghusband #longdistancemarriage #staywithmesayang #tilldeathdousapart



Tuesday, November 11, 2014

Dugaan



Ini bahagian aku.
Tak boleh tolak.
Tak boleh halang.
Hati.

Kene kuat.
Kene tabah.
Ingat Allah.
Hati kene cekal.


*****

Semua macam biasa.
Tiada apa yang pelik.
Lepas AidilAdha, kembali bekerja.
Tapi, sedikit tidak sihat lepas suami hantar pegi keja.
Hati ni tetap gagah.
Cekal.
Kuat.

Bila terlalu kuat, akhirnya kecundang.
Akhirnya demam panas hari esoknya.
Malas nk makan ubat sebab ubat yg sedia ada pun dah sedia banyak.
Pasrah.
Minum air masak banyak, 100plus tanpa gas dan sebijik panadol.
aktifkan diri dan banyakkan peluh.
Alhamdulillah.

Sihat.
Esoknya keje tapi still not feeling well.
Ku gagahkan diri.
Bawak koolfever.
Balik kerja jumaat tu makan-makan dgn Tasya.
Lokasi : Manggo Chili, Wangsa Walk.
Makanan ok je.
Takde apa yg pelik.

Sabtu.
Macam biasa.
Kezen masak.
Makan kt rumah, tak pegi mana2.

Ahad pagi.
The tragedy.
Pagi tu bangun nak subuh disamping sakit perut melampau.
Perut konpius.
Lapar ke apa.
Nak cover, minum Dutch Lady Coklat yg sejuk.
Dalam bilik air, muntah2.
Sedar-sedar dah terbaring atas lantai.
Keadaan masa tu.
Tak boleh nk gambar.

Perut sakit. Allah je tahu perasaan.
Mandi-mandi.
Solat subuh.
Bagitau MakLong and K.Ween.
Dalam kol 6.30, terus ke Emergency APSH.
Tak boleh nk jalan leklok.
Perut kejang.
Sakit mcm sengugut pon ada.

Dalam ER, Dr suspect perut problem. Sort of keracunan makanan.
Sebabkan masa tu, pregnant.
Terus call Dr.Marsita. My O&G Dr.
Dr suruh admit.
Maka, admit la masuk wad kol 7.30 pagi.
Alhamdulillah ada wad kosong.
Kezen and Aunt still tunggu utk settlekan semua.
Husband da otw ke KL.

Menunggu la Dr sampai.
Sementara Dr sampai, banyak la kejadian berlaku.
Since dr ER, diarrhea yang non stop walaupun at the 1st tu normal je.
Bila makin teruk Diarrhea, maka ia bertukar menjadi darah.
Cirit-birit berdarah.
Dari Ok terus risau yg teramat.
Setakat tu, alhamdulillah xde bleeding.
Still thinking about the baby.
*Doa Doa*
*baby strong*
aminn

Kol 2 ptg, Dr sampai and sangat terkejut.
After explaination, Dr terus start treatment tanpa tunggu result.
Amik darah.
Amik sample.
Segala bagai.
Ayat Dr
" Mai and Husband, be strong!"

Dalam kol 8.30 malam, tiba-tiba muka mak muncul kat pintu.
*masa tu Allah je tahu perasaan*
patut la call dari petang, x angkat.
Che Mai pun cover bgtau Mak kt skolah.
*cis*
Mak Ayah berdua je, gerak dari Kota kol 3.00 ptg, sampai KL kol 7.00 lebih.
Tido De Palma.
*Terima kasih Allah*

The next day, Monday.
Takde pengeluaran langsung.
Pk positif je maybe tgh dalam proses pemulihan.
Dr dtg awal pagi Isnin, sebab dia ada  operation.
After explainantion,
Mmg low Hb
Low bp
low segala imun sistem.
Infection dalam salur perut and usus perut.
Punca?
Pemakanan.

*rewind masa*
Maka apa?
Last makan kt WWM tu and makan kt rumah or atau Air Kotak Dutch Lady.
Wallahualam.

Dr pesan:
" Mai, u have to eat fresh.. No food in cans, kotak2 atau fast food.
Food must be fresh. Makan panas-panas. Kalau nk simpan, no more than 4 hr.
Lepas 4hr, letak dalam fridge and microwave.
Eat fresh.
Amalkan pati delima and honey, olive oil macam biasa.
Makan kurma, kismis. Eat peanuts, almonds and healthy food.
Drink lot of water. 3L a day.
U are super sensitive in everything u eat.
Silap sikit abis.
U must think of yourself and the baby.
Mom eat healthy, so thus the baby.
Ingat Allah, selalu Doa. Jangan lupa zikir, bc Quran.
Yang penting, kne kuat."

Husband teman dan setia menemani.
Mak ayah lepas Dr bagi explaination, diorang rasa lega.
Dalam kol 3.00 ptg, Mak Ayah gerak balik Kota.
Alhamdulillah diorg sampai dalam kol 8.00 mlm.

The next day, Selasa.
Hope discharge today.
Alhamdulillah, early morning I had my 1st healthy pengeluaran. Kih kih.
Dalam kol 10.00 lebih, Nurse bawak ke klinik Dr.
Baby is Alhamdulillah.
*Terima Kasih Allah*
Dr pesan segala macam.
Siap offer duk lagi ward.
Tak nak. Penat and boring.
AHAHAH. Padehal best je.
Rilek.

Ingatkan boleh terus keje dah esoknya.
Sekali Dr bagi bed rest 2 minggu sampai 28/10.
28/10 , my next appt.
There goes my unplanned holiday.
Allah had planned everything.
Tak pernah sangka benda nak jadi, tapi semua yang jadi ada hikmahnya.

Lepas discharge, kemas-kemas balik Muar.
Setelah 5 bulan jarang balik, akhirnya lepak Muar 5 hari.
Kan Allah dah rancang semua.
Lepas Muar, balik Kota.
Then, goes my holiday with family in Shah Alam.
* in next Entry*





Left : Husband hantaq p keje.
Right : Two days before the tragedy. Koolfever di opis.



Admitted APSH.



Terima Kasih Allah s.w.t.
Syukur atas segalanya.
Mohon tabah utk segala dugaan seterusnya.
Amin Ya Rabb.