HAPPY HALLOWEEN OUR SWEET AMY DAWN

WE, EVEN IN OUR GRIEF, COULD NOT LET THE DAY GET BY OUR SWEET, BEAUTIFUL

DAUGHTER WITHOUT WISHING YOU A HAPPY HALLOWEEN. YOU KNOW I

ALWAYS WISHED YOU A HAPPY HARVEST BUT IN YOUR MEMORY, "HAPPY

HALLOWEEN" BABY GIRL.

IT HAS BEEN 7 1/2 DAYS SINCE YOU LEFT US. DADDY AND I ARE SO VERY

GRIEVED AS WELL AS RICHIE AND MEGAN, LEILA AND KORBI, GRANDMOTHER AND PAPA,

GRANNY AND POPS, UNCLE TEDDY, AUNT NANCY AND UNCLE BOB, AUNT SUSIE AND

UNCLE MILT, AUNT SHERRY AND UNCLE TONY.

ALL YOUR COUSINS, NIECES, AND NEPHEWS MISS YOU VERY MUCH AS WELL

AS OTHER RELATIVES AND FRIENDS.

I LOVE YOU SO VERY MUCH AMY. IT WILL TAKE DAD AND ME A LIFE TIME TO

EVER STOP MISSING YOU.

LOVE AND HUGS AND KISSES

WHAT I WOULDN'T GIVE TO HUG YOU AGAIN.

LOVE YOU

MOTHER AND DAD

XXOOXXOOXXOOXXOO

UPDATE ON MY BELOVED AMY DAWN

I WILL BE BRIEF. THURSDAY AFTERNOON AMY SLIPPED INTO A COMA.

SHE DID SQUEEZE MY HAND, MY MOTHERS' AND HER BFF LEILA'S HAND.

EARLY THURSDAY MORNING SHE WAS WILD WITH PAIN AND KEPT CLAWING

MY ARM AND SAYING, "COME ON!"

I KEPT ASKING, "WHERE ARE WE GOING?"

I KEPT ASKING IF WE WERE GOING TO TAKE A RIDE ON THE MAGICAL

PINK BIKE, ERIN PAINTED FOR US FROM

http://thepaintedgarden.net

SHE KEPT PULLING ALL HER COVERS OFF AND TRYING TO SWING HER

LEGS OUT OF BED. AND BRUISING, MOTTLING STARTED EVERY WHERE.

WE HAVE HAD THE SWEET HOSPICE NURSE AT THE HOUSE A LOT.

HER O2 SATS ARE RUNNING 76 - 85 AND THAT IS VERY LOW FOR

SOMEONE WITH A TRACH. ALL WE CAN DO IS KISS HER, KEEP HER COMFORTABLE,

KEEP HER PAIN FREE, TALK TO HER, AND KEEP CHRISTIAN MUSIC PLAYING

THROUGH THE HOUSE AS WE PRAY AND CRY.

I SAY, NEVER, EVER, EVER GROW WEARY OF DOING AND BEING PRESENT AT

ALL YOUR CHILDREN'S ACTIVITIES, DANCE LESSONS.....I ATTENDED SO MANY SOCCER

PRACTICES AND DRAMA LESSONS WITH RICHIE, I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO

WHEN HE WENT AWAY TO COLLEGE. I LOVED BEING A MOTHER AND ALL

THE PTA MEETINGS AND PROJECTS.

WE DON'T KNOW WHAT THE FUTURE HOLDS AND OUR LOVED ONES CAN BE GONE

IN THE BLINK OF AN EYE.

PLEASE HUG YOUR LOVED ONES A LITTLE TIGHTER AND TELL THEM HOW

MUCH YOU LOVE THEM. CALL A CHERISHED FRIEND AND MOST OF ALL CALL

UPON THE NAME OF THE LORD.....MAKE SURE YOU ARE RIGHT WITH JESUS, AS

THIS LIFE IS SO TEMPORAL. WE ENTER THIS WORLD WITH NOTHING, HELPLESS

AND CRYING....WE LEAVE THIS WORLD TAKING NO EARTHLY POSSESION'S EXCEPT

ETERNAL LIFE....AND IT IS UP TO US WHERE WE SPEND ETERNAL LIFE.

JOHN 3: 16

I COULD NOT CONTAIN MY GRIEF IF I WAS NOT ASSURED I WILL SEE MY

BELOVED AMY AGAIN, WHEN THE LORD CALLS HER HOME.

THANK YOU FOR YOUR CONTINUED PRAYERS.

TODAY WHEN YOU COMMENT, TELL ME ABOUT THE FUNNIEST THING THAT EVER

HAPPENED TO YOU AND I WILL TELL AMY ALL ABOUT YOUR RESPONSES.

SHE ALWAYS LOVED TO LAUGH. I ALSO SHARED WITH RICHIE THAT YOU

ALL WERE PRAYING FOR HIM. HE IS PHYSICALLY SICK...HIS WIFE GOT SICK FIRST

AND HE CAUGHT IT BUT HIS BODY IS ALL RUN DOWN.

ANGEL HUGS

LOVE

Debbie

AMY'S SPECIAL HALLOWEEN/FALL DECORATED TREE

AS YOU ALL KNOW RECENTLY I WON A GIVE AWAY AT LYNN'S....

http://paintingthymeneedfuls.blogspot.com

BEFORE I ENTERED THE GIVE AWAY I SAW A POST ABOUT HER

PUMPKIN TREE WITH PUMPKINS PAINTED AND CREATED FROM

LIGHT BULBS. THEY WERE NOT PART OF THE GIVE AWAY BUT I

JUST HAD TO TELL LYNN SO MUCH, HOW I LOVED THEM.

WELL TO MAKE AN OLD STORY SHORT, I WON THE BEAUTIFUL

GIVE AWAY AND MUCH TO MY EXCITEMENT SHE SENT ME A

FAMILY OF 5 ADORABLE, CHARMING PUMPKINS. THEY MAKE

ME SMILE EVERY TIME I SEE THEM.

WHEN I POSTED ABOUT THE GIVE AWAY, I TOLD HOW I WAS

GOING TO MAKE A TREE FOR AMY AND SEVERAL OF YOU

PRECIOUS LADIES ASK ME TO TAKE A PICTURE OF THE TREE.

THE PICTURES DID NOT TURN OUT VERY GOOD BUT THE TREE IS

GORGEOUS. WE RECEIVE COMPLIMENTS FROM EVERYONE THAT

COMES TO THE HOUSE.

MY SISTER BOUGHT THE TREE AT A THRIFT SHOP FOR HERSELF

AND WHEN SHE SAW THE GIVE AWAY FROM LYNN SHE GAVE ME

THE TREE SHE HAD PURCHASED. MOTHER LET ME USE HER

LIGHTS FOR THIS SEASON AND DONATED SOME RAFFIA SHE HAD.

SHERRY BOUGHT A FALL LEAF SWAG AT THE DOLLAR STORE.

WE TOOK THE RED RIBBON OFF THE BURLAP SACK AROUND THE

BOTTOM OF THE TREE AND TIED RAFFIA AROUND IT. WE WRAPPED

THE LIGHTS AROUND THE LEAF GARLAND AND THEN MY SWEET DH

WRAPPED IT UP AND AROUND THE TREE. I PUT THE CROWN

ON THE TOP OF THE TREE......THE UNIQUE WITCHES HAT THAT LYNN

MADE....I AM NEVER ONE TO BRAG BUT I MUST SAY, "IT IS AWESOME!"

WE PUT THE 3 FOOT TREE ON MY GLASS COFFEE TABLE. WE HAVE RUN

OUT OF ROOM WITH THE HOSPITAL BED IN THE MIDDLE OF THE

LIVING ROOM. I HAVE A LIVING ROOM/ FORMAL DINING ROOM

COMBINATION AND WE HAVE BOXES OF SUPPLIES, AND STACKS AND

STACKS OF STUFF.

AROUND THE BOTTOM OF THE TREE IS THE AWESOME SIGN LYNN

PAINTED, I'LL GET YOU MY PRETTY...A BOTTLE OF WITCH HAZEL

SHE MADE....2 PUMPKINS MY SISTER SHERRY MADE FROM A VINTAGE

BEDSPREAD...A BASKET WITH ACORNS FROM CHAR AT

http://someplaceinthyme.blogspot.com

A LEAF DISH THAT DOES NOT SHOW UP...A PUMPKIN STRAW FROM

A FRIEND OF AMY'S AND LEILA'S AND ON THE CHAIR BESIDE THE

TREE, A GORGEOUS SCARECROW SENT FROM BARBARA...

http://purplegoatlady.blogspot.com

ON THE LEFT SIDE OF THE TREE IS A SCARECROW MY MOTHER

PURCHASED FOR AMY 3 WEEKS AGO. AND ON THE BEDSIDE TABLE

BEHIND THE TREE IS A BOUQUET OF FLOWERS, THAT LEILA'S

SISTER, SHERRY SENT HER TODAY. THEY ARE SCATTERED

ABOUT WITH GLITTER, SOMETHING I HAVE NOT SEEN BEFORE

AND IT IS JUST GORGEOUS TO LOOK AT. IF YOU LOOK CLOSE IN THE

TREE, YOU WILL SEE A WIZARD OF OZ CARD, THAT CAME FOR AMY

TODAY FROM A FRIEND OF LAURIE'S AT BARGAIN HUNTING.

ALSO IN THE TREE IS A PRETTY HANDMADE PUMPKIN FROM CHAR.

THIS IS OUR PRECIOUS ANDY...SOMETIMES CALLED ANDREW...AND

SOMETIMES CALLED ANDY PANDY BUT ALWAYS LOVED. HE IS OUR

PRECIOUS ANDY THAT WE RAISED FROM 6 DAYS OLD...WE ARE

HIS PARENTS AND NO MATTER WHAT WE DO, HE IS ALWAYS IN THE

MIDDLE OF IT. HE HAS THE SWEETEST LITTLE PERSONALITY.....

AND HE THINKS THE TREE IS JUST FOR HIM AND THE SCARECROW,

BARBARA SENT......HIS NEW BEST FRIEND.

AN UPDATE ON AMY DAWN:

THIS IS AMY WITH HER DOROTHY WIG ON AND THE DRESS LAYED



ACROSS HER, WHERE HER TRACH AND MASS CAN NOT BE SEEN.



SHE WAS SO VERY HAPPY THE DAY MY SISTER SHERRY AND MOTHER



BROUGHT THIS COSTUME. SHE GRINNED FROM EAR TO EAR.



THE BEAUTIFUL PILLOW CASES WERE SENT TO HER WHILE SHE



WAS IN THE HOSPITAL. THEY WERE MADE BY THE BEAUTIFUL



MICHELLE AT:



http://rosebudquilting.blogspot.com



THOSE PILLOW CASES FOLLOWED HER INTO ICU AND SHE ONLY HAS



THEM OFF FOR LAUNDERING. AT THE FOOT OF HER BED YOU CAN



KINDA SEE THE QUILT SHE MADE HER.



THE RED CORD WRAPPED AROUND HER WRIST IS HER MUSTARD



SEED NECKLACE THAT SHE HAS NOT BEEN ABLE TO WEAR



AROUND HER NECK SINCE SHE HAD HER TRACH PLACED.

WE HAVE NOT BEEN ABLE TO WEIGH AMY SINCE SHE BECAME BEDFAST. WE

FIGURE SHE PROBABLY WEIGHS 48 POUNDS. WE ARE AFRAID WHEN WE

REPOSITION HER, WE WILL EITHER BREAK A BONE OR TEAR SKIN.

HER COLLAR BONE WITH SKIN IS ALL YOU SEE FOR SHOULDERS...YOU

CAN PUT YOUR THUMB AND FINGER ON EACH SIDE OF HER COLLAR BONE AND

TOUCH YOUR FINGER TIPS TOGETHER BECAUSE SHE IS JUST SKIN FROM FRONT

TO BACK....YOU JUST CAN'T DESCRIBE IT.

FRIDAY-SUNDAY WAS VERY BAD FOR HER...THE LEFT JAW HAS LIKE COLLASPED IN

AND SO WHEN YOU TRY TO SET HER UP SHE JUST MOANS OUT AND

TRIES TO ARCH HER BACK AND HER EYES ARE WILD, LIKE A DEER CAUGHT

IN HEAD LIGHTS.

SHE HAS EXCHANGED PURSES AND BLACKBERRIES FOR A REMOTE CONTOL,

A MIRROR, HER BED CONTROL...ANYTHING THAT FITS NICELY IN HER

HAND AND SHE CAN MOVE AND WAVE IT AROUND. SHE KNOWS PEOPLE BUT

IS NOT ABLE TO COMMUNICATE EXCEPT ON A VERY BASIC LEVEL...SHE HAS

A HAND MOTION FOR WHEN SHE WANTS A SPONGE TOOTHETTE DIPPED IN

WATER AND SHE KEEPS IT IN HER MOUTH LIKE IT IS A LOLLIPOP.

SHE IS GENERALLY HAPPY AND SMILES READILY. PASTOR MARNEY SAID

IT AMAZES HIM HOW SHE CAN SMILE WITH ALL HER PROBLEMS. SHE HAS

THE MANNERISMS OF SOMEONE WITH SEVERE BRAIN TRAUMA.

RICHIE, AMY'S BROTHER IS QUITE ANGRY. WE HAVE ALL HAD OUR DANCE

WITH ANGER. WE WILL NEVER KNOW WHY SHE MUST SUFFER SO. I DON'T KNOW

WHY SOME PEOPLE DIE INSTANTLY AND SOME SUFFER AND WASTE WHILE IT

RIPS THEIR FAMILY APART WITH GRIEF...BUT I TRUST GOD AND I KNOW THAT

HE NEVER LEAVES US OR FORSAKES US. JESUS KNOWS REJECTION, ISOLATION,

PAIN AND SUFFERING, ALONG WITH HUMILIATION. SINCE EVERY SINGLE

THING IS ABOUT BRINGING GLORY TO OUR FATHER IN HEAVEN, WE DO

NOT KNOW, WHO GOD IS TOUCHING THROUGH THE DETERMINATION OF AMY

TO BEAT CANCER. BUT EVEN AS IT SEEMS THE CANCER IS RAVAGING HER BODY...

AMY IS STILL SMILING AND STILL FIGHTING TO LIVE. I TOLD HER SHE

DESERVES A PURPLE HEART AND HER UNCLE TONY WHO WAS IN THE MARINES,

THINKS SHE DESERVES A PURPLE HEART ALSO.

SATURDAY MY SWEET BIL, BOB, DROVE MY MIL, IRENE, AND MY FIL, AJ, OVER

FROM TULSA TO VISIT. AMY HAS LOST AT LEAST 60 POUNDS SINCE THEY SAW THEIR

GRANDDAUGHTER LAST. MY MIL, IRENE IS IN HER 80'S AND IS IN CONSTANT

PAIN. IT TOOK A MIRACLE FOR HER TO BE ABLE TO COME.

SHE IS A SURVIVOR OF BREAST CANCER, AND LUNG CANCER. SHE FELL AND

BROKE HER SHOULDER JOINT OFF....WENT THROUGH SURGERY...SHE HAS SEVERE

ARTHRITIS AND SHE IS EITHER CRYING IN PAIN OR TAKING MEDICINE THAT

MAKES HER SLEEP ALL THE TIME.

WE KEPT A TOWEL OVER AMY'S MASS AND TRACH. WE TRIED TO DISCOURAGE

THEM FROM COMING BECAUSE OF THEIR HEALTH BUT THEY FELT THEY SHOULD.

AMY KNEW THEM AND GRANDMOTHER BROUGHT HER NUMEROUS STUFFED

ANIMALS.

I TELL YOU MY FRIENDS, THIS IS A VERY DIFFICULT ROAD. SOME DAYS

THERE ARE BOULDERS THAT JUST SEEM IMPOSSIBLE TO GET OVER BUT

THE WORD OF GOD IS ALIVE AND IF YOU CRY ENOUGH TEARS YOU WILL JUST

FLOAT OVER THE BOULDERS...LOL..BUT IT WORKS WHILE CLEANSING THE PORES

OF YOUR SKIN.

SO MANY PEOPLE ARE IN NEED OF PRAYER...AMY, LEILA AND KORBIE, BILL AND

KERRIE, ROY AND ELISABETH, CEEKAY, DEANNA, SALLY, WILL AND CASS,

IRENE, MRS. MARNEY'S SURGERY, BECCA, DORIS AND RICHARD, TAWNA AND

MIKE, JAMIE, ANDREW, TAMMY, JENNIFER AND THE LOSS OF HER PRECIOUS CAT,

DENNETTE'S SON, LADY PENNIWIG'S JOB INTERVIEW, MEGAN AND RICHIE, BRANDON,

ERIC, ROBBI AND JEFF, REBECCA AND HER DAD, AUNT JEAN AND UNCLE BILLY,

PATRICIA, KIPPEY, KIMBERT, BOBBY, MADONNA, DONNA, CLIFFORD

+++++++++++++

THE GREATEST THING WE CAN DO FOR SOMEONE IS TO PRAY FOR THEM.

I KNOW IT IS YOUR PRAYERS THAT HAVE KEPT ME SANE AND AMY A LIVE.

WE EACH MUST DECIDE FOR OUR SELVES WHAT QUALITY OF LIFE MEANS TO US.

IF AMY IS LIVING IN THE QUALITY OF LIFE, I BEG DEAR LORD TO

NEVER EXPERIENCE THAT KIND OF QUALITY BUT THEN WHO ARE WE TO SAY.

IT WAS DECIDED WHEN WE WERE BEING KNITTED IN OUR MOTHER'S WOMB

THE DAY WE WOULD BE BORN AND THE DAY WE WOULD DIE....AND WE ARE

TO GIVE THANKS TO THE FATHER FOR EVERY DAY...EVERY MINUTE AND

EVERY SECOND.

+++++++++++++++

O LORD, IF YOU HEAL ME, I WILL

BE TRULY HEALED; IF YOU SAVE

ME, I WILL BE TRULY SAVED.

MY PRAISES ARE FOR YOU ALONE!

~JEREMIAH 17:14

FOR YOU WHO FEAR MY NAME,

THE SUN OF RIGHTEOUSNESS

WILL RISE WITH HEALING IN HIS

WINGS. AND YOU WILL GO FREE,

LEAPING WITH JOY LIKE CALVES

LET OUT TO PASTURE.

~MALACHI 4:2

ANGEL HUGS TO EACH ONE OF YOU

I MET A MAN WITHOUT LIMBS

I SAW A SHOW WITH THE MOST AWESOME MAN.

26 YEAR OLD NICK VUJICIC.

HIS WEB SITE IS: http://www.lifewithoutlimbs.org/

IF YOU ARE EVER FEELING DOWN AND HOPELESS AND FEEL GOD

HAS DESERTED YOU AND YOU HAVE NO PURPOSE IN LIFE, DROP BY

NICK'S WEBSITE AND READ HIS TESTIMONY.

HE IS THE SON OF A PREACHER AND HIS PARENTS MOURNED AND

GRIEVED THE DAY HE WAS BORN. THEY, INCLUDING THE DOCTORS, FELT

THEIR NEW BORN BABY WAS FRAGILE AND MIGHT NOT LIVE VERY LONG.

WRONG!!!!!

HE WAS A HEALTHY BABY BOY WITHOUT LIMBS AND WHAT HE SAID IS

A CHICKEN BONE THAT HE USES AS A FOOT.

FACED WITH COUNTLESS CHALLENGES AND OBSTACLES, HE NOW HAS

FOUND HIS PURPOSE THROUGH JESUS CHRIST AND HAS TRAVELED TO

OVER 19 NATIONS SHARING HIS TESTIMONY.

I ALWAYS UPSET SOME PEOPLE WHEN I SAY THAT OUR PURPOSE IS TO

BRING GLORY TO OUR HEAVENLY FATHER, WINNING SOULS FOR THE

KINGDOM.

NICK FOUND HIS PURPOSE AT THE AGE OF 12 YEARS OLD, WHEN HE

GAVE HIS HEART TO JESUS AND ALL THE REJECTION HE FELT FROM

BEING BULLIED BY HIS PEERS WAS EXCHANGED FOR THE PEACE OF GOD.

HOW AMAZING TO EXPERIENCE GOD'S PERFECT PEACE IN ANY SITUATION.

"CONSIDER IT PURE JOY, MY BROTHERS, WHENEVER YOU FACE TRIALS

OF MANY KINDS."

~JAMES 1:2

CONSIDER IT PURE JOY......THE JOY OF THE LORD IS OUR STRENGTH...A MERRY

HEART DOETH GOOD LIKE A MEDICINE....JOY...JOY

IF THE devil CAN steal YOUR JOY he HAS ROBBED YOU OF AN ESSENTIAL

NUTRIENT THAT KEEPS YOUR HEART BEATING. THE devil COMES TO

STEAL, KILL, AND DESTROY YOUR MARRIAGE...YOUR DREAMS...YOUR HOPE...

YOUR CHILDREN...YOUR HOME...YOU NAME IT AND he WILL ROB YOU OF IT.

EVERYONE WANTS TO BLAME GOD...IT IS HIS FAULT...IT IS NOT GOD'S FAULT.

IT IS APPOINTED ONCE THAT WE WILL "ALL" DIE...EVERY HAIR ON OUR

HEAD IS NUMBERED.

JESUS IS THE SAME AS HE WAS YESTERDAY AND WILL BE TOMORROW.

HE WILL NEVER LEAVE US OR FORSAKE US.

"HOW PRECIOUS TO ME ARE YOUR THOUGHTS, O GOD! HOW VAST IS THE

SUM OF THEM! WERE I TO COUNT THEM, THEY WOULD OUTNUMBER

THE GRAINS OF SAND!"

~PSALM 139: 17-18

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I THINK THAT OUR TRIALS, OUR HURTS, OUR GRIEF.......ALL UNITE TO MAKE US

STRONGER AND MORE DEPENDENT ON THE LORD... TO DESIRE THE PRESENCE OF

THE HOLY SPIRIT AND STRIVE TO BE MORE LIKE JESUS

THAN WE EVER DID BEFORE.............AND THAT IS OUR PURPOSE...

TO BE AN INSPIRATION TO OTHERS...

TO ENCOURAGE OTHERS WHEN THEIR TIME COMES TO WALK THAT ROMAN

ROAD THAT JESUS WALKED. THE ROMAN ROAD THAT JESUS CARRIED

ME DOWN WHEN I THOUGHT I COULD NOT MAKE IT ANOTHER STEP.

JESUS...JESUS...I LOVE YOU SO

THANK YOU LORD FOR BEING THERE

WHEN MY HEART COULD NOT UTTER A SOUND

JESUS...JESUS...I LOVE YOU SO

THANK YOU LORD FOR HELPING ME REMEMBER

IT IS IN YOU LORD, MY PEACE AND SALVATION IS FOUND

JESUS...JESUS...I LOVE YOU SO

WHATEVER YOUR TRADEGY WAS/IS WILL BECOME VICTORY WHEN YOU REACH

OUT TO HELP SOMEONE ELSE.

JESUS WAS ALWAYS BUSY, DOING THE WORK OF HIS FATHER.

******************************************************************************************

AN UPDATE ON AMY........

LAST NIGHT WAS VERY STRANGE....A DEAR FRIEND SUGGESTED I SING ON

THE WINGS OF A SNOW WHITE DOVE TO AMY AND SO I DID.

SHE BEGAN TO LAUGH AND LAUGH....THEN I LAUGHED AND TOLD HER,

"SHE LOOKED LIKE THE CAT THAT ATE THE CANARY". HER EYES WERE NOT

WITH ME AND SHE KEPT TRYING TO SCOOT OUT THE FOOT OF THE BED.....

BUT SHE CONTINUED TO LAUGH LIKE SHE HAD A SECRET.

IF A STRANGER WOULD HAVE COME IN THEY WOULD HAVE THOUGHT WE

WERE DRUNK....AMY AND I DO NOT DRINK.....WE WERE DRUNK IN THE JOY

OF THE HOLY GHOST.

THIS MORNING SHE IS VERY GUARDED.....I HAVE HAD TO SUCTION HER

TRACH VERY FREQUENTLY. SHE IS ANXIOUS...SHE PATS MY ARM AND SHE

IS VERY ASHEN. I TOLD HER WHAT DAY IT WAS AND SHE GAVE A

LOOK OF SURPRISE. IT IS EASY TO LOOSE TRACT WHEN YOU ARE NOT

OUT AND ABOUT.

SHE IS SO THIN.

MY SISTER JUST CALLED AND THEY FOUND AMY A DOROTHY OUTFIT FOR

HALLOWEEN....A CHILD'S SIZE 8-10. SHE IS JUST A LITTLE

SKELETON IN BODY.

I HAVE FOUND PEACE....GOD'S PEACE AND IT WILL ALL BE OKAY BECAUSE

I TRUST GOD AS MUCH AS I EVER HAVE. I CANNOT IMAGINE A LIFE

WITHOUT MY BELOVED AMY BUT SHE WILL FLY HOME FREE WHEN GOD

CALLS HER AND NOT A MINUTE BEFORE THEN........UNTIL THEN, WE WILL

ENJOY EVERY SECOND BOTH SAD AND HAPPY....AT LEAST AMY'S DOROTHY

COSTUME WILL HANG WHERE SHE CAN SEE IT AND IT WILL BE A SYMBOL

THAT WE ARE STILL FIGHTING WITH HER FOR A MIRACLE.

ANGEL HUGS

LOVE

Debbie

MY SISTER AND MOTHER BROUGHT AMY HER COSTUME. I PUT THE

DOROTHY WIG ON HER AND WE LAYED THE DRESS ACROSS HER, HIDING

HER TRACH AND MASS. FOR JUST A MOMENT ALL WAS RIGHT WITH THE WORLD.

AMY DREW HER LEGS UP AND TOOK HER SHOES OFF AND CLICKED THE

HEELS TOGETHER THREE TIMES....YOU COULD SEE HER LITTLE MOUTH

MOVING 3 TIMES AS SHE COUNTED...............AND SHERRY SAID,

"THAT'S RIGHT AMY, THERE IS NO PLACE LIKE HOME."

WE ALL LAUGHED, INCLUDING LEILA, THAT THIS IS THE FIRST YEAR

THAT AMY IS READY FOR HALLOWEEN BEFORE ANY ONE ELSE.

THANK YOU SWEET SHERRY AND MOTHER. YOU BROUGHT SUCH JOY

TO AMY AND ME.

AMY DAWN, MY BUTTERFLY

THIS IS A PICTURE OF AMY WITH DR. DEXEUS LAST HALLOWEEN, 2008.

IT WAS A VERY HAPPY TIME FOR HER, PASSING OUT BAGS OF CANDY

THAT WE HAD MADE FOR ALL THE STAFF. 30 MINUTES LATER SHE

HAD A FEVER AND WAS RECEIVING IV ANTIBIOTICS.

AMY IS VERY CRITICAL AS I TYPE THIS. SHE IS IN PAIN EVERY WHERE

AND FOR THE FIRST TIME, WE HAVE TO POSITION HER AND SHE CRIES

OUT IN PAIN. I SHOULD SAY IT IS THE FIRST TIME SHE WILL

ALLOW US TO POSITION HER.

MY HEART IS SO FULL OF PAIN AS I TELL YOU WITHOUT AN

INSTANT MIRACLE, OUR AMY IS ABOUT TO FLY FREE.

I WANTED TO THANK ALL OF YOU WHO HAVE BEEN SO VERY

KIND TO HAVE MADE HER LAUGH AND SMILE THROUGH THE

BEAUTIFUL CARDS AND GIFTS YOU HAVE SENT.

YOUR KINDNESS WILL NEVER GO UNNOTICED AND YOU WILL

BE REMEMBERED FOREVER BY THIS FAMILY, ESPECIALLY ME.

WHAT DO I WANT YOU TO KNOW:

1. AMY IS MY ONLY DAUGHTER AND SHE HAS BROUGHT ME, HER

DAD, AND HER ONLY BROTHER SUCH GREAT JOY, AS WELL AS

HER GRANDPARENTS. SHE WAS THE FIRST GRANDCHILD ON THE RAGAN

SIDE AND BOY WAS SHE SPOILED.

2. SHE HAS TAUGHT US HOW TO BE BRAVE AND NEVER, EVER GIVE

UP THE FIGHT...SHE LOVES LIFE

3. TO STAND FIRM IN WHAT YOU BELIEVE AND SOMETIMES BEING

STUBBORN IS A GOOD THING

4. SHE IS A BEAUTIFUL ARTIST

5. THAT HER HEART IS AS BIG AS ALL OF TEXAS AND OKLAHOMA

TOGETHER

6. SHE LOVES ANIMALS ESPECIALLY DOGS AND CATS

7. SHE IS A CHRISTIAN....THAT SHOULD BE ON THE TOP

OF THE LIST

8. SHE WAS DUE TO BE BORN ON MAY 27, 1976 AND WAS TAKEN

BY EMERGENCY C-SECTION ON 7/6/76........OH THAT IS RIGHT

ALMOST 2 MONTHS OVERDUE....SHE WAS IN TROUBLE AND

WE ALMOST LOST HER AT BIRTH.......SHE HAS KEPT US

WAITING EVER SINCE.....(THE CANCER RESEARCH TEAM MADE

NOTE OF THAT FACT WHEN SHE WAS DIAGNOSED WITH CANCER

AS A CHILD...IF A CHILD DIAGNOSED WITH RHABDOMYOSARCOMA

WAS ALSO A BABY THAT WAS OVERDUE)

9. FRIENDS AND FAMILY ARE VERY IMPORTANT TO HER

10. SHE COLLECTS BARBIE DOLLS AND HAS OVER 350, AND

ONLY ONE OF THEM HAS EVER BEEN OUT OF THE BOX

11. SHE IS A LOYAL FRIEND WHO IS ALWAYS THERE FOR YOU

12. SHE HAS LOTS OF FRIENDS BUT ONLY ONE BEST FRIEND,

NAMED LEILA, WHO ALSO HAD CANCER

13. SHE LOVES HALLOWEEN AND IT IS ALWAYS A BIG DEAL

FOR WHAT SHE IS GOING TO BE EVERY YEAR....MY CLOSET IS

FULL OF HER COSTUMES....NOT THE CLOSET AT HER HOUSE

BUT MY HOUSE. SHE PLANS TO BE DOROTHY OF THE

WIZARD OF OZ THIS YEAR

I AM REALLY JUST WASTING TIME...I SET AT HER BEDSIDE AND

THEN I BECOME SO OVERCOME WITH GRIEF I HAVE TO COME

TYPE IT OUT....I HAVE TO GET THE GRIEF OUT SO I CAN GO BACK

AND SMILE. THE WAY WE LOOK AT EACH OTHER, WE DON'T HAVE

TO SPEAK. AMY KNOWS SHE IS SO SICK.

PLEASE PRAY FOR US ALL.

ANGEL HUGS

LOVE

Debbie

"I'LL GET YOU MY PRETTY"

LYNN AT http://paintingthymeneedfuls.blogspot.com

RECENTLY HAD AN AWESOME GIVE AWAY.....IN THE COMMENTS

YOU HAD TO TELL HOW YOU WERE A ...."WITCH!"

ARE YOU A GOOD WITCH OR A BAD WITCH?

I LOVE THAT LINE FROM THE MOVIE THE WIZARD OF OZ!

I'LL TELL YOU HERE LATELY MY HUSBAND WOULD PROBABLY

SAY I WAS A BAD WITCH. EMOTIONS RUN VERY HIGH WHEN

THERE IS A SICK LOVED ONE IN THE HOME, SUCH AS OUR

DAUGHTER, AMY DAWN.

I WON! I WON! I WON!

HOORAY I WON!

TWAS THE NIGHT BEFORE

WHEN THE CLOUDS DANCED AROUND THE MOON

MY PACKAGE FROM LYNN AT http://paintingthymeneedfuls.blogspot.com

WOULD BE ARRIVING SOON

AS NIGHT TURNED TO DAY

A BIG BLACK CROW SOARED UP AND AWAY

THE RUSTY CROW LOVED NEEDFUL THINGS

HE HOPED ABOVE HOPE IT CONTAINED SOME BLING

THE BOX ARRIVED AT THE ANGEL PORCH WITH CARE

BUT........

IT WAS CARRIED INSIDE BY THE MAN OF THE HOUSE

AND.......

ALL THE RUSTY CROW COULD DO..... WAS SET ON THE

ANGEL PORCH AND STARE

EVEN AS THE BOX WAS BEING OPENED

SO AMY DAWN COULD SEE

THE OLD RUSTY CROW CAWED,

"I'LL GET YOU MY PRETTY!

THAT IS A PROMISE FROM ME!"

THE BOX WAS A TREASURE CHEST OF BEAUTIFULLY WRAPPED

ITEMS. BEING AN OKLAHOMA STATE UNIVERSITY...OSU...FAN,

IT WAS DELIGHTFUL TO SEE THE ORANGE TISSUE PAPER WITH

PRETTY ORANGE RIBBONS.

MY DH, ME, AND AMY OOHED AND AWED OVER EVERY ITEM

AS IT CAME OUT OF THE BOX. IT WAS AS EXCITING AS

CHRISTMAS.

I HAVE WATCHED COMMERCIALS ABOUT THE LINDT

LINDOR TRUFFLES. NO ONE IN MY LITTLE IMMEDIATE

FAMILY HAVE EVER HAD A TRUFFLE.

I LIKE CANDY THAT HAS COCONUT AND NUTS GENERALLY.......

BUT OH MY!!!!! THESE TRUFFLES ARE SINFULLY GOOD.

THEY NEED TO BE PUT IN FINE CRYSTAL AND SERVED ON

CHINA, ONCE A DAY AT 4 PM. SOOOOOO VERY GOOD.

THANK YOU LYNN. MY DH AND I LEFT THE ROOM TO TRY A

TRUFFLE, SINCE OUR DAUGHTER TAKES NOTHING BY MOUTH....

SQUEALS AND GIGGLES OF DELIGHT.....VERY GOOD.

AWESOME BOTTLE OF WITCH HAZEL........IT HAS A VERY UNIQUE

TEXTURE ON THE BOTTLE. IT LOOKS AS IF IT IS A THOUSAND YEARS

OLD AND HAD BEEN COOKED AND BOILED FOR SOME TIME. A

UNIQUE PIECE OF ART......LOVED IT.

THIS HAT IS SO UNIQUE. I WILL TREASURE IT FOR YEARS TO COME. IT

IS SIGNED UNDERNEATH THE BRIM. IT LOOKS VERY, VERY OLD. IT HAS

TWO RUSTY BELLS AND SWEET ANNIE ON IT....A PICTURE JUST DOES NOT

DO LYNN'S WORK JUSTICE. IT IS ALSO QUITE HEAVY.

THE SIGN IS AWESOME. I LOVE IT. IT IS GORGEOUS....MADE WITH

PERFECTION. OH LYNN, YOU ARE AN AWESOME ARTIST.

YOU CERTAINLY HAVE MADE MY DH, ME, AND AMY SO HAPPY

UNWRAPPING THIS BOX OF JOY AND IMAGINATION.

YUMMY POTPOURRI

SMELLS SO VERY GOOD

MEET MY PRECIOUS LITTLE PUNKIN' FRIENDS

JUST LOOK AT THAT FACE....

HE SOOOOOOO WARMS THE HEART

YOU JUST WANT TO SQUEEZE HIS CHEEKS

ADORABLE

HE REMINDS ME OF THE OLD GOOFY GRAPE

HE'S SHY.....A LITTLE SHRINKING VIOLET

JUST LOOK AT THOSE EYES

WE DIDN'T GET THE 5TH PUNKIN IN THIS PHOTOGRAPH BUT

THESE CUTE DARLINGS WERE MADE BY LYNN....OUT OF

"LIGHTBULBS."

THESE ARE THE SWEETEST, CUTEST, AND MOST CHERISHED LITTLE

PUMPKINS I HAVE EVER SEEN.

THEY WERE NOT PART OF THE GIVE AWAY BUT I HAD MADE A

COMMENT TO LYNN ABOUT HOW ADORABLE THEY WERE. SHE HAD

MADE A PUMPKIN TREE.

WHAT I AM GOING TO DO IS BUY AN ARTIFICIAL CHRISTMAS TREE.

I AM GOING TO PUT THE HAT ON TOP OF THE TREE.

MY MOTHER FOUND HERSELF SOME CANDY CORN LIGHTS.

I WANT TO FIND SOME CANDY CORN LIGHTS AND SOME LITTLE ORANGE

LIGHTS TO PUT AROUND THE TREE WITH SWAGS OF ARTIFICIAL LEAVES

WRAPPED AROUND AND THEN HANG THESE PRECIOUS PUMPKINS.

I'LL POSITION THE SIGN IN THE MIDDLE OF THE TREE AND SET

SOME RED SPARKLY SHOES AT THE BOTTOM WITH SOME PUMPKINS...

REAL PUMPKINS THAT IS.

AMY WILL LOVE IT.

THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH LYNN. WHAT A BEAUTIFUL GIVE AWAY.






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UPDATE ON AMY:



SOME OF YOU MAY HAVE HEARD THROUGH HEIDI, MY NIECES BLOG



THAT AMY IS NOT DOING WELL. ON WEDNESDAY SHE STARTED BLEEDING IN



AND AROUND HER TRACH. EVEN AS I TYPE THIS, I RUN BACK AND



FORTH CHECKING ON HER AS SHE STILL HAS THICK BLOOD COME UP.

SHE HAS THROWN UP BLOOD AND HAS IT IN HER THICK URINE.

THE MASS HAS STARTED PIN HOLE LEAKS AND IT IS LEAKING




SLOWLY EVERYWHERE. WE CHANGE DRESSINGS ABOUT EVERY 30



MINUTES. SHE WANTS SOMEONE BESIDE HER AT ALL TIMES....SO

WHEN SHE OPENS HER EYES SHE CAN SEE YOU.

AMY IS SO ILL. SO EMACIATED. NAUSEATED ALL THE TIME.

SHE SLEEPS VERY LITTLE.

THANK YOU FAITHFUL FRIENDS THAT HAVE SENT HER CARDS OVER

AND OVER. GOD HAS YOUR NUMBER AND YOUR BEAUTIFUL DEEDS TO

MAKE HER LIFE BRIGHTER WILL NOT BE IN VAIN.

THANK YOU FOR CONTINUING TO PRAY FOR AMY.

PLEASE REMEMBER THE FOLLOWING PEOPLE IN PRAYER:

MY AUNT JEAN HAD SURGERY ON THE 6TH. I TALKED TO HER WEDNESDAY,

I BELIEVE AND SHE WAS STILL IN ICU BUT THOUGHT THEY WERE GOING

TO MOVE HER OUT.....ASHLEY...ANDREW...SALLY...LEILA AND KORBIE...

WILL...CASS...BARBARA...SHERRY...MARYDON...ROY AND ELISABETH...

JACOB...JAMIE...TERRY'S HUSBAND...DANNY...TAMMY...DORIS AND

RICHARD...SIMRAN...MOMMA B AND HER HUSBAND...BILL AND KARRIE...

MISS K AND REBECCA...PATRICIA...DENNIS...BOBBY...JAY AND SUZANNE...

JOE...JOHN...MONTE...AJ AND IRENE...BECCA...TAWNA AND MIKE

DEAR HEAVENLY FATHER

I COME TO YOU WITH A HEAVY HEART FOR ALL THE PEOPLE IN SUCH NEED

OF YOUR HEALING TOUCH. YOU KNOW THEIR NAMES LORD, THEIR CONDITION,

AND THEIR LOCATION. I KNOW THAT IT IS IN THE VALLEY LORD THAT WE

BUILD CHARACTER AND INCREASE OUR INDEPENDENCE ON YOU LORD.

I KNOW THAT YOUR WORD SAYS, THAT BY YOUR STRIPES WE ARE HEALED.

I TRUST YOU LORD. I LOVE YOU LORD. I KNOW THAT YOU KNOW ALL

THINGS AND WILL NOT LET ANYONE PLUCK US FROM YOUR HAND. I

HAVE TO BE HONEST LORD, I DON'T UNDERSTAND. I AM ANGRY AT TIMES

LORD AND EVEN THOUGH I KNOW YOU HAVE NOT LEFT ME, I FEEL ALONE.

IF I TRUST YOU FOR MY SALVATION THEN I HAVE TO TRUST THAT HEALING

IS ALSO MINE. LORD YOU KNOW I HAVE BEEN IN THE DEEP WATER...I

DIDN'T DROWN BUT THE PAIN WAS SEVERE.....I HAVE BEEN THROUGH THE

FIRE AND I DID NOT GET BURNED BUT THE PAIN WAS GREAT. I DON'T

KNOW WHERE I AM AT NOW LORD BUT I FEEL CRUSHED BUT YOU

TOOK THE STRESS BUT THE PAIN IS UNBEARABLE. I KNOW I CAN DO

ALL THINGS WHICH STRENGTHENTH ME, LORD BUT I CAN'T MAKE

AMY WELL. I CAN'T TAKE HER PAIN AWAY. I CAN'T....I CAN'T....

ONLY YOU CAN HEAL HER FATHER GOD. ONLY YOU CAN HEAL ANDREW,

ASHLEY, ROY, AND BILL AND CEEKAY.




I THANK YOU FATHER GOD FOR MY LIFE. I THANK YOU FOR EVERY



DAY WITH AMY, RICHIE AND MY FAMILY. I THANK YOU FOR



LOVING ME AND I PRAISE YOUR HOLY NAME. BLESS EACH BLOGGER,




LORD, THAT COMES TO THIS BLOG. LET ME BE AN INSPIRATION, NOT



A PLACE THEY DREAD TO COME. LET MY HEART NOT BECOME



HARDENED LORD. LET ME ALWAYS LOVE AND CARE AND PRAY FOR


PEOPLE

YOU ARE EACH ONE CHERISHED AND I THANK YOU FOR SPENDING




A PART OF YOUR DAY WITH ME.....



EVEN THOUGH IT IS SO SAD AT TIMES BUT YOU ARE MY HEART...THE



VERY ONES I CAN BE HONEST WITH WHEN MY HEART IS BREAKING...



WHEN IT FEELS TO PAINFUL TO BREATH...YOU ARE MY LIFELINES.

GRAPHICS BY MY FRIEND LADY PENNIWIG

SHE DOESN'T CHARGE A SINGLE PENNY BUT IF SHE HAD A

PENNY FOR EVERYONE SHE GAVE AWAY...SHE WOULD BE WEALTHY.

STOP BY AND SEE HER

ANGEL HUGS AND MUCH LOVE