Unistar : Invisible Moon

[Eng Version]
Earthlok

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Unistar : Invisible Moon [Eng Version]
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1. Volume 1
1. Introduction : UNISTAR Project
2. Prologue
3. Chapter 1 : The Air & Invisible Moon
4. Chapter 2 : Invisible & Invisible
5. Chapter 3 : The moon who wanted to be invisible
6. Chapter 4 : The Moon Behind The Clouds
7. Chapter 5 : Follow The Invisible Moon
8. Chapter 6 : The Fish Paper
9. Chapter 7 : The Carp Fish from the Moon
10. Chapter 8 : The Air And The Leaves
11. Chapter 9 : Close to the Moon
12. Chapter 10 : The Condensed Air
13. Chapter 11 : A Rose From The Moon
14. Chapter 12 : When The Air Falls for the Moon
15. Chapter 13 : The Hidden Moon
16. Chapter 14 : Wish to be 'the Wind'
17. Chapter 15 : The Glowing Air
18. Chapter 16 : The Smiling Moon
19. Chapter 17 : The Coconut Milk Moon
20. Chapter 18 : The Evaporated Air
21. Chapter 19 : The Air Became Coconut Milk
22. Chapter 20 : Embrace The Moon
23. Chapter 21 : The Air In the Limelight
24. Chapter 22 : The Shining Air
25. Chapter 23 : The Moon Among The Moons
26. Chapter 24 : The Visible Air
27. Chapter 25 : Became the Moon
28. Chapter 26 : The Moon in the Dom
29. Chapter 27 : The Fallen Moon
30. Chapter 28 : The Air in the Rain
31. Chapter 29 : The Way to Reach the Moon
32. Chapter 30 : The Faraway Moon
33. Chapter 31 : The Moon Returned to the Sky
34. Chapter 32 : The Lightly Air
35. Chapter 33 : The Wind Moon
36. Chapter 34 : Among the Moons
37. Chapter 35 : The Liberated Moon
38. Chapter 36 : The Happy Wind
39. Chapter 37 : Together With the Moon
40. Epilogue : Two Invisible Moons
41. Guide to the MEB Platform
42. Ebooks are available on Kindle Amazon!
Introduction : UNISTAR
Project
UNISTAR is a male idol project in Thailand. Members are
selected through the annual UNISTAR contest. The contest is
considered the 'next level' after 'the University Moon
contest', so each UNISTAR member can also be called 'The
Moon'.

In the real college culture in Thailand, freshmen with

outstanding qualities would be selected to participate in the
University Moon contest (this contest is only for male
contestants, the Female counterpart is called the University
'Star' contest). The winner of this contest will be called 'The
Moon'. In this story, all the 'Moons' - the winners of the moon
contest from all universities in Thailand - will be nominated
for the UNISTAR contest, and the winner of all (only one
winner each year) will become a UNISTAR member under the
'MW Entertainment' management label.

The main purpose for all UNISTAR members is to act as

brand ambassadors for all products released by MW
company. UNISTAR is promoted like an idol, so they could be
working as models, actors, singers or even TV hosts,
depending on their ability or aptitude.

In 'Invisible Moon', we introduce 5 UNISTAR members, each

with their own unique title as the moon based on their
characteristics.
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The UNISTAR Series consist of 5 books

This book is titled 'Invisible Moon'.

The main protagonists are In (Idol) and Win (Commoner)

Genre : Feel Good Romance

Character Diagram
Note: The image of some protagonists aren't shown because
the printed book (Thai ver.) hasn't been released yet, so we
still don't have the cover image. We're temporarily replacing
them with symbols until the cover image is finalised.

PS. All concepts, characters and content in this story are

created from the author's imagination. It does not relate to
any real life person, situation or location.

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Invisible Moon
Prologue
"There was a shining moon in the sky,

But it was invisible and rarely seen."

If something is 'invisible' it doesn't mean it didn't exist.

The air is invisible, but we could breathe it.

The sound is invisible, but we could hear them.

The energy is invisible, but we could use it.

The force is invisible, but we could feel it.

In this world, there were many invisible things in existence

— including 'me'.

In truth, I wasn't invisible. I was just unnoticeable.

My unnoticeable character was comparable to a common

roadside stone merged with sand dust. Whenever someone
walked by, they might have accidentally kicked or stepped
on it. Even worse, it could be pecked by birds or defecated
on by dogs, just because no one had ever noticed that
small, poor roadside stone.

My character was akin to the air we breathe all the time.

Even so, how many times have we ever noticed that we
were breathing?

However, if they said that all invisible and unseeable things

could be regarded as negligible almost like emptiness, they
could be right, but not exactly.

Since there was 'someone' who was absolutely gorgeous,

shining and outstanding. He was like the shining moon in
the beautiful sky — so favorable and charming.

Yet, he could also be invisible.

Even though he was called 'the Moon[1]', which meant that

he was one of the most popular students in the whole
faculty and the university.

He was a member of 'UNISTAR'.

What's UNISTAR you ask?

Everyone described UNISTAR members as the 'Moons of the

Nation' because they were not only popular in their
respective universities, but also in the country. From the
many Moons gracefully shining in the sky, only the brightest
one would be chosen by the people from all over the
country. And that chosen one would become a UNISTAR.

Each year, only one UNISTAR would be selected through

voting during a contest. Some people tend to call UNISTAR
as 'a group of Moon idols', some others refer to them as
'Moon Constellation', their international name. Because they
were like a well-known celestial event that appeared in the
sky, catching the crowd's attention.

The popularity of the UNISTAR was not comparably limited

to the moon or the star, it's also as much as the sun,
capable of shining all over its surrounding area. For
example, a UNISTAR member's relative — with an attractive
face — could be offered to become a model or actor. Even a
good-looking UNISTAR's friend could become a 'cute boy',
'cute girl', or 'sexy boy'[2].
Each UNISTAR member was way too famous, they could
unexpectedly summon an earthquake — the overcrowding
of crazy loving fans — which prompted their agency to hire
a group of security guards for them.

UNISTAR was so contrary to me, like the constellations and

the black hole.

However, unlike other outstanding UNISTAR members, he

was really exotic, one of a kind.

Although he was notable, he was strange and emotionless.

Although many people desired to reach him, he was out of

reach.

Not to mention a girlfriend, he didn't even have a close

friend, senior, junior, or any other relationship in his
university. Even without any guards following him, he was
still one hundred percent safe from his fans. These aspects
made him more elegant and appealing.

Whenever this Moon appeared in the sky, he was even more

gleaming than the other Moons.

Whenever this Moon wanted to disappear from the sky, he

was suddenly unseeable and no one would ever notice him.

If compared to a flower, he was like an Azalea, a rare bloom

in Thai weather.

If compared to money, he was like a rare coin from a high

priced auction.

If compared to a star, he was like a comet which appeared

once in a blue moon.
With an unusual personality, he was usually unseen by
people.

He was known as —

'Invisible Moon'.

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Footnote

[1] The Moon (pronounced as 'Duean' in Thai) refers to

super good-looking college students who won over all other
good-looking candidates from a faculty or university. The
faculty's Moon is called 'Duean kana' and the university's
Moon is called 'Duean mahalai'.

[2] Cute Boy / Cute Girl / Sexy Boy refers to the popular
facebook pages that gather all beautiful or handsome
college students from various universities in Thailand. e.g.
CU Cute boy (Chulalongkorn University's good-looking male
students), TU Sexy Boy (Thammasat University's good-
looking male student).

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Chapter 1 : The Air &
Invisible Moon
Invisible Moon

Chapter 1

The Air & The Invisible Moon

"Invisible does not mean inexistent."

#WINisWIND

In a day, how many times do you realise that you were

breathing? And how many times do you realise that the air
existed? Barely, right? Imagine the number of times you
realised the existence of air, that's the number of times that
people recognised me.

It's no different from my life.

My first name is Archawin, my nickname is 'Win'. Even

though my nickname in English is 'Win', I've always thought
that the word 'Wind' suited me more.

I was like the wind — the invisible air.

Thinking about my life, I could only sigh and continue

walking out of my dormitory. I was a freshman, a first year
student, of the Faculty of Business Administration at XU
University. Today was my first day. I came to start a new life
here and I wanted to be reborned as a new person.

"Hello!" I raised my hand to greet the dorm's security guard,

who was reading a newspaper. I wanted to get to know him
just in case I might need some help in the future, but it
seemed like he didn't hear me. He didn't even lift his head
to look at me.

Well, I couldn't blame him, and it's not because he was

arrogant.

It was all because of me.

I have been like this since I was born. My parents and my

relatives often forgot about me because I had a very
beautiful and smart older sister. In addition, my father's side
of the family had not had a daughter or granddaughter for
many generations. That was why everyone was so crazy
about my sister while I was forgotten.

Perhaps because my face was neither handsome nor ugly.

Perhaps because my height was neither tall nor short.
Perhaps because my grade was neither bad nor good.
Perhaps because I didn't have any outstanding abilities. As a
result, I became an unnoticed person. Not just a loser, but a
total nobody.

When I was in primary school, teachers usually forgot that I

was in the class. Sometimes, they even forget to call my
name when they were checking the attendance. After
school, most of my classmates would forget to invite me for
hang outs or sports, or even if they did, they would forget to
talk to me anyway.

I was completely invisible in a way that affected my daily

life.
When ordering the food, the vendor never looked at me, I
had to call for a long time or write an order by myself. When
walking in the crowd, I often got hit because most people
didn't notice me. When waiting in a queue, sometimes I was
overtaken because people thought my row wasn't occupied.

I only had a few tens of friends on Facebook because most

of my classmates forgot to add me. And whenever I tried
chatting with someone, 90 percent of them would reply 'who
are you?'.

I had to let it go, as if it was my curse or disease.

Nevertheless, I didn't want to be like this forever. I wanted
to say goodbye to my unnoticed life. But...how do I do it?

"If I became a Moon of the university, how happy would I

be?"

I muttered to myself. I saw many friends sharing tons of

photos of the Moons — extremely good-looking university
students — on their facebook timeline.

What was the feeling of being the light among the crowd?
Someone like me who was invisible, could barely even
imagine.

I continued to walk around to explore my university area

because tomorrow would be the first day of orientation
month, I needed to be prepared.

New life, new place, new society and a new reputation. I

might not be good enough at studying to be recognised by
the teachers, but I wanted to make friends from the
activities. I promised myself that I would stop being
invisible, that I would have someone who remembered me!
While walking to the football field, I saw the university's
cheerleaders practicing, all of them looked very attractive.

"One, two, three, four, one, two, three, four..."

I stopped to watch for a while. It was nice to look at

whatever good-looking people did. See? A lot of others in
the area were also interested in them. If I wanted to be like
that, I needed to be borned again.

"AAAH!"

Suddenly, I heard a scream that startled me, I almost

stumbled.

'!!!' And also the sound of an earthquake.

"Oh no!" I almost lost my balance. Was it possible for an

earthquake to happen in Thailand? — No, it was actually a
flock of people.

"AAAH!"

The screaming sound was so loud, I thought I almost went

deaf.

My eyes almost popped out when I saw so many people

rushing past me like migrating wild animals. A group of
students were following someone. Just a moment ago, there
were only a few people at the football field, but within the
blink of an eye, the area was filled with people.

What was happening? As a small guy, I could only try to

tiptoe for a better look, but it was too crowded for me to see
anything. Not even the shadow.
"AAAH P'Wayu!" "Can I take a photo with you?" "Can I touch
your hand?"

Then I heard the name and realised he was P'Wayu, The

UNISTAR.

I finally understood the situation. UNISTAR was something

way too popular among university students and Thai society.
P'Wayu was the XU Moon from last year and he was selected
to be the latest member of UNISTAR. So, he was
overwhelmingly famous, like the fireworks — loud but
beautiful.

Although I was not a UNISTAR fan, I always heard about

them. UNISTAR was the most outstanding group of
university superstars. They were promoted like an idol group
under an agency called 'MW Entertainment', which belonged
to the Metha Group, the largest investment company in
Thailand.

The name UNISTAR is derived from the words University and

Superstar. The combined package of a university Moon plus
idol, it's no wonder that they were super popular.

Wherever UNISTAR went, there was chaos. The shopping

malls would almost collapse, the airports would become
extremely crowded. I heard that each of the UNISTAR
members couldn't attend school like a normal student as
they needed to bring a number of bodyguards around.
Because of this, their agency had to request the university
for a privacy protection policy specifically for UNISTAR
members. Part of the policy prohibited fans from disturbing
them while they were studying, otherwise, their studies
might be affected.

If UNISTAR was like the sun, catching everyone's eyes, I

would be like the wind, never seen.
I sighed helplessly and moved away because P'Wayu's fans
were running crazily and almost crushed an invisible guy
like me.

I stood by the lake at one side of the football field, looking at

the fish in the water. No one here. Finally, I could breathe
comfortably.

"Aaah P'Wayu, I want to see him!"

But even though I was standing far away, I could still hear
the girls' voices screaming behind me.

"But I want to see P'In more! I already saw P'Wayu a lot."

"Agree! I even took the entrance exam here because I

wanted to see P'In!"

"Yeah, but how? Almost no one has ever seen P'In at the
university."

"It's very strange. P'In is so eye-catching, but why can't we

see him?"

"That's why he earned the title 'Invisible Moon'."

I kept listening while watching various types of fishes in the

pool. They were biting a piece of bread someone fed them,
not far from where I stood.

"Well, I heard you went to a UNISTAR fanmeet, right?"

"Oh, you are so lucky! I couldn't even get a ticket. They're

always sold out within a minute."

I also heard that UNISTAR fanmeet tickets were as hard to

come by as a diamond. Each ticket officially cost around
thousands of baht, but it could be resold up to tens of
thousands of baht.

"Yeah! you know, P'In in real life is extremely handsome. Too

handsome to be just a normal person, he is an angel!"

"Oh, I envy you! Did you touch his hand and get his
autograph?"

"No, I didn't, P'In's line was full. Too bad I got cut off and was
directed to P'Natee's line instead."

"I see. I know everyone wants to see P'In so badly as he is

rarely seen. Some people aren't even his main fans, but
they still went to his line to get his autograph."

"Hey, but P'Natee is also very handsome. Oh my gosh, I love

his fierce face."

"Nope, my blood type pure is XU, only #TeamXU, no

#TeamQU."

P'Natee was also a member of UNISTAR. He was studying in

the faculty of Engineering at QU University. XU University
and QU university were each other's real competitors,
especially during the traditional football event. I sometimes
used Twitter and saw that P'Natee and P'Wayu often
debated with each other on social media, because both of
them became UNISTAR members in the same year when
there was supposed to be only one. However, since their
contest scores were tied that year, it turned out they had to
announce two winners. Many people thought that P'Natee
and P'Wayu fights were just childish banters and that they
both loved each other in real life.

"Whaa...?" I exclaimed slightly as I saw the fish scrambling

up to the surface to eat the bread because the person
feeding them had thrown in a large piece of bread.

"Could you cut them into smaller pieces?" I said. I felt pity
for the fish. I was afraid that the fish would suffocate to
death. So I asked the person feeding them, forgetting the
fact that I was invisible and he would never hear me.

Surprised, he paused and turned to me. I was shocked that

he saw me, and even more shocked when I saw his face.

He was a good-looking college student. His face, figure,

eyebrows, nose, mouth and eyes were all perfect. Although I
was also a male, I still felt that he was extraordinarily
handsome. His aura was unmistakable.

Was he human? I thought he was really an angel.

He looked at me calmly, his eyes showed little wonder.

I could still hear the fans talking behind me.

"I'm so sad! It seems like I need to go to a fanmeeting or an

event to see P'In."

"Yeah, many people said meeting P'In in real life is

equivalent to winning the first prize lottery."

P'In? I frowned as I looked at the man feeding the fish.

"Oh!" I exclaimed.

As I wanted to confirm my assumption, I took out my mobile

phone, opened the image search on Google and typed 'IN
Unistar'.

When the images loaded, I compared those images to the

one who was still feeding the fish.
I was stunned.

The man was indeed P'In, the UNISTAR member! I met a

celebrity! I couldn't believe it!

P'In still looked at me like he was thinking.

"Yeah, P'In is the only member who doesn't have any

bodyguard."

"But why does my husband, P'In, need to hide from a wife

like me?"

"True! If I find him, I will capture him as my husband."

"P'In is my husband, not yours!"

I glanced at all the wives who were imagining that P'In, who
was standing right here, was their husband. I was amazed to
see that P'In stood just two meters away — I guessed he
also heard everything but seemed to be unconcerned, as if
he didn't hear anything. However, I wondered why no one
could see P'In, he was just standing right here.

I was the only one who could see him.

"Can see?' P'In said softly.

"Huh? Yes?" I responded in confusion.

Nevertheless, when P'In realised that I wasn't a crazy fan,

he continued to feed the fish and didn't bother to look at me
again.

Such an incredible coincidence.

I was standing right beside the university celebrity — also a

super famous Thai celebrity — near the lake, under a shady
tree as fans were screaming for another celebrity in the
background.

No one seemed to notice that there was another Moon here,

hidden and unseen, except for me.

I could see the celebrity Moon who tried to be invisible.

And that Invisible Moon could see me who was usually

invisible.

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Footnote

[1] P' (pronounced as "Pee" in Thai) is a respectful way to

address someone who is older in Thai culture. It's used as a
prefix before the older person's name.

Note from Translator

I'm the author. I translated this novel to practice English.

Please feel free to give comment or feedback. I'm a Thai
native, able to communicate in English and Chinese, happy
to talk to everyone in your preferred language. Thank you~

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Chapter 2 : Invisible &
Invisible
Invisible Moon

Chapter 2

Invisible & Invisible

"Only an invisible person can see another invisible person."

#WINisWIND

"Good evening! Welcome to UNISTAR SHOWTIME! Follow the

life of the Moon!"

"Today, we bring you an exclusive interview that's highly

requested by fans! 'How do we find 'IN UNISTAR' who is as
handsome as an angel but invisible?' And now, we invite all
UNISTAR members to answer this question!"

I was lying on my bed in my dorm, using my mobile phone

to catch up with the TV programme on YouTube.

UNISTAR SHOWTIME! Follow the life of the Moon! - episode:

IN the Invisible Moon

In the video, it seemed like the cameraman was walking

around to record the interview of the UNISTAR members in a
studio, they might be on their break during work.
The camera zoomed in on the first member, P'Leo, whose
Twitter hashtag is #FullMoon. The title suited his perfection.
He had a perfect appearance, was excellent in studies, had
a good personality, was studying medicine, was multilingual
and was also the most 'normal' one in the group. He was
known as the ideal Moon model.

Leo: I'm not surprised with the case of N'In's invisibility. It

can be explained with scientific reasoning. N'In isn't
invisible, nothing supernatural at all. I think N'In knows how
to blend in other people's blind spots. P'Kwang and I were
once curious, so we checked the CCTV and wondered why
even though N'In was just standing right there, nobody
noticed him. It's because N'In often lurked in spots or areas
people often overlook. When he moves, he usually moves
while others are focusing on something else. Besides, N'In
always did everything quietly and disappeared even before
we realised it. N'In knows how to use areas to hide from
people's eyes.

I nodded in agreement. P'Leo studied medicine, so it's no

wonder he could explain it with such solid reasoning.

Interviewer: You seem to understand a lot. Have you ever

seen N'In during his invisible mode?

Leo: Most of the time, if he doesn't want us to see, we would

rarely see him. However, the more time we spent together,
the more I could learn his ways. Now I can see him more
often. I assume that introverted people probably have more
chances to see N'In compared to the extroverts.

For example, P'Kwang is also an introvert and recently

N'[1]In's invisible skills became barely effective on P'Kwang
as well. I guess if you are sort of a recluse person like N'In
and have known him long enough, you might not feel like he
is invisible anymore. Perhaps, due to the similarity of views
and preferences — being in the same place and looking at
something in the same way — would enable you to see him.

I considered P'Leo's analysis. It might be true that people

with the same habits tend to view everything in the same
way. This reminded me of that coincidence, when P'In stood
behind the tree which was a blind spot. It was surprising
because although I was not familiar with him, I could see
him from the first time I met him while others had to spend
more time adapting.

Then, the scene shifted to the next member, P'Sea, the first
generation and oldest member of UNISTAR. He was a tall
man with a fair face, his facial features looked both beautiful
and handsome. No wonder he held the title #BeautifulMoon.

Interviewer: What do you think about having the Invisible

Moon in UNISTAR?

Sea: I like him. I can see a lot of funny things when he is

around. Especially when the Half Moons were fighting and
N'In suddenly showed up. Both of them would scream
'ARGH!' as if they saw a ghost.

From outside, P'Sea seemed to be very calm and polite, his

face also looked innocent, but he had a teasing habit. He
liked making fun of other members a lot.

Interviewer: Really?

The interviewer turned to ask the Half Moons, P'Natee and

P'Wayu.

Natee: No way! I am a real man. I'm not afraid of ghosts.

Wayu: Not true! I've never cried 'ARGH', I cried 'WARGH'.

Then, the interviewer returned to P'Sea.

Interviewer: Have you ever been shocked when N'In

suddenly appeared?

Sea: No, I've never, because he is handsome. Hahaha.

Interviewer: Oh, wouldn't the Prince get jealous if you say

something like this?

If I wasn't wrong, the Prince was P'Leo's nickname, because

his fandom name was #Dom[2]Prince. On the other hand,
P'Sea was called Princess because many fans liked to pair
these two up. They both were in the same TV programme
called 'Diagnostics with the Medical Moons', a fifteen-minute
show about health care tips. Sometimes they would do
demonstrations for first aid, massages and body checks,
which further fueled their fans' imagination.

The camera then zoomed on P'Natee, the #RedMoon. He

had a reputation as a blunt person. He was always
straightforward — if someone cursed him, he would curse
back wittily, anyway many fans loved it — it was sort of his
unique characteristic.

Natee: Why is P'In invisible? Well, P'In realised that he can't

beat my handsomeness, so he had to hide himself, hahaha.
Hey, cameraman! Please focus on me. You must make me
look super handsome!

The interviewer only asked him once and was done, she
then turned to the next member instead — P'Wayu, who I
just saw this morning. He was surrounded by many fans at
the football field.

There were two UNISTAR members from XU university, P'In

and P'Wayu. These two had different types of
handsomeness. P'In was like a masterpiece sculpture -
gorgeous but emotionless, while P'Wayu was like a glorious
supermodel - his super fair skin made him shine under the
spotlight. P'Wayu looked so hot when he had a serious
expression and looked bright when he was smiling. Among
all the UNISTAR members, P'Wayu was the first person I
could remember because he held the title #NewMoon. As he
loved making jokes, but his jokes often fell flat and no one
could understand them. It was as if his unfunny joke turned
off his shining light as the Moon, dark like the new moon.

How bad was his joke? Here's a sample.

Interviewer: You are in the same university as N'In, so you

must be closer to N'In compared to other members, right?
So, can you tell the fans what they need to do to see the
Invisible Moon?

Wayu: If you wanna see P'In, it's very easy.

Interviewer: How?

Wayu: Just fall asleep.

Interviewer: Then?

Wayu: Whenever you sleep, you'll go to see 'Pha In[3]'.

...

I ate dot. No one would ever laugh at this joke.

Nevertheless, no matter how unfunny his jokes were, his

fans still liked them. That made me want to eat more dots.

So, I only found out more about P'In from P'Leo.

Others...let's not even mention it.
Interviewer: It's not over yet! We've already interviewed all
other UNISTAR members, now it's time to interview our
Invisible Moon... wait — where is he?!

The cameraman tried to find P'In, but could not even see his
shadow. There were only other members taking a break.

Leo: Where is N'In? I thought he was still here a second ago.

Natee: Er! P'In has vanished.

Sea: He probably went out while we were interviewing.

Wayu: I told you, go to sleep and you will see P'In for sure —
I mean Pha In.

The video ended with P'Wayu's unfunny joke, but still no

sign of P'In. I put down my phone on the bed while thinking
about what P'Leo had said.

"I could see P'In because we are similar?"

It was possible. The same personality would have the same

views. Anyway, it was my bedtime now. Tomorrow would be
the first day of orientation month[5]. I need to be ready for
new friends and a new society.

I woke up and dressed up in our university uniform. I arrived

at the business faculty building ten minutes before the
designated time. I went to the registration queue to get my
name tag. Nobody took over my queue, so I considered
myself lucky today.

"N'Win No.101, here you go." The senior student gave me a

name tag. I took a look at her name tag, it had 'P'Noey 3rd
year' written on it.
It was a common tradition in Thai universities, whereby the
third-year seniors would arrange the orientation sessions,
and the sophomores would help during some activities.

Come to think of it, P'In was also in his third year, because
P'In was the third generation of UNISTAR.

I wore my name tag and went to sit with a row of

classmates in the building yard. When all the freshmen
came, the activities would start. In the meantime, I was
using my phone to search for P'In's profile on the
unistar.com website.

"Oh, P'In is also studying business." I exclaimed, and looked

around, wondering if he would join the session today.

"P'Noey ka[6], will P'In come today?"

The first-year female students asked enthusiastically.

"I think so. But I haven't seen him." P'Noey said.

"So...P'In is invisible?" They continued to ask.

"Do you want to hear the truth? We study in the same

classroom, but sometimes I couldn't even see where he was
sitting."

"Really? By the way, Is P'In a P'Cheer[7]?"

"Oh yeah! My friend from the engineering faculty told me

that the third years assigned P'Wayu to serve the drinks."
Another girl added.

Oho, I could imagine the scene. Even when P'Wayu was just
walking normally, he would have a hoard of fans running
after him. If one of them were to receive a drink from him,
no doubt that the drink bottle would be heavily hugged and
kissed until it couldn't retain its shape.

"Really?! I'm envious! I wanna be in that faculty now!"

P'Noey said.

"Yeah! Then, can we go to the engineering faculty instead?"

"No way! Get in line! If you skip, we will punish you." P'Noey
suddenly turned serious.

"P'Noey is too cruel. We just wanna see P'In." They almost

cried.

"Me too! Where is he? I wanna see him too." P'Noey was just
the same.

My classmates dispiritedly came to sit behind me. The third-

year said P'In would come, but where was he? I also
wondered while looking at the balcony outside the building.
The scenery was beautiful. The black afara tree was full of
light-coloured flowers, fluttering like a flying bird when the
wind blew.

"Eh!" I exclaimed.

P'In was sitting at the balcony, but no one noticed him

again. I assumed it was because people rarely looked at this
place. P'In was looking at the black afara tree like me. He
was holding a glass of coconut juice, as the wind blew
gently causing his white shirt and his hair to flutter lightly.

I couldn't help but think that the scene looked like he was
shooting a music video.

All of a sudden, as if my eyes were tricked, P'In turned to me

and he noticed that I was observing him.
Our eyes met. His expression was stone-like, not showing
any emotions, but the way he looked at me was strange —
hard to explain — somehow serious, but not that much,
somehow curious, but unconcerned. His eyes reflected the
sunlight as if it was a sparkle of the moonlight's reflection
on water. I just realised that he had such beautiful eyes.

I unconsciously gazed at him for a while, until his eyes

flashed with surprise, making me realize that I had been
staring for too long. So I quickly looked away.

"Hello all Freshies[8]! Welcome to XU University's Faculty of

Business! Congratulations for getting in here. Let me
introduce myself, my name is P'Tong, I'm your P'Cheer..."

The head of the orientation committee was greeting us

using a megaphone. I was carefully listening to him, as I was
determined to make a better life here. However, even as I
was trying to focus, I still felt like I was being watched.

I glanced at the balcony instinctively and was startled. P'In

was looking at me while drinking coconut juice using a
straw. His face was emotionless, only a little glimmer in his
eyes.

'Does he like coconut juice?' I thought.

No, no! It was not the right time to think about his favorite
juice. I was nervous because a celebrity was staring at me
like I was doing something wrong. But I was more curious.
Normally, not many people would notice my existence
because I wasn't interesting or attractive enough.

Then, I stared back at P'In as though we could communicate

through our eyes. When our eyes met again, P'In didn't turn
away.
'Why were you looking at me?' I frowned, trying to ask
through my eyes.

P'In showed a thoughtful expression for a second, then

turned his eyes away from me. He went back to scooping
the coconut meat from the glass.

I couldn't comprehend what he was thinking, but I had a

feeling that he might be thinking of the same thing I was.
The reason why he looked at me was probably similar to
mine.

'Why could we see each other?'

Perhaps, only the Invisible could see the Invisible.

☽------------☽

Footnote

[1] N' (Pronounced as Nong In Thai) is the polite way to

address a younger person in Thai culture. Commonly
spoken, it's used as a prefix in front of the younger person's
name.

[2] Dom is the shortened from 'fandom', which refers to

fanclubs of idols or celebrity, commonly used as slang
among Thai teenagers.

[3] Go to see Pha In is a Thai idiom, can refer to 'fall

asleep'.

[4] 'Ate dot' (eat dot) is a Thai slang word that means 'no
comment'. It's similar to replying with no comment as '...'
(pronounced "dot dot dot").
[5] Orientation month is a tradition in Thai universities.
It's made up of activities that are arranged by the seniors of
each faculty. The aim is to allow first-year students to bond
with each other and get to know their seniors. The main rule
of this ceremony is the freshman need to obey the seniors'
instructions.

[6] "ka" is a way of showing respect to the interlocutor in

Thai culture. Normally "ka" is used by Thai females at the
end of a sentence.

[7] P'Cheer is the title of a senior who leads activities

during orientation sessions.

[8] Freshy (or freshies) refers to the first-year students in

a college, normally used in Thai spoken language.

☽------------☽
Chapter 3 : The moon who
wanted to be invisible
Invisible Moon

Chapter 3

The Moon who wanted to be invisible

"The stone wants to be the moon,

but the moon wants to be the stone."

#WINisWIND

They said that many things in this world would stay the way
they were forever.

Such as a rock on the ground that could never become the

moon in the sky.

The air would always be the air, and a fading person like me
— how could I ever shine? Even on the first day of
orientation, my existence was already unnoticed.

The first part of today's session was just introducing

ourselves with a fun game. All the first-year students of my
faculty were arranged to sit in rows. Each person would
stand up, introduce our full name and nickname, and turn
around to show our appearance. Then the next person
would stand up, repeat the previous person's name and do
the same for themselves. Every freshman would keep doing
it until everyone had their turn. At least for today, we
needed to remember the person beside us.

However, when it was my turn - and I had already

memorised the previous person's name - another person
next to me unexpectedly just stood up and introduced
himself. He skipped me as if he didn't notice that I was here.

My introduction was simply skipped. Even the seniors didn't

notice it.

Being born as an unnoticed person was sad. I could only feel

miserable, there's nothing I could do about it.

"Attention freshmen! I will give you a ten-minute break. You

can drink some water or go to the toilet. After the break, we
will gather here again and I will brief you about the
signature collection book."

P'Noey announced.

I sighed slightly. The first activity was over and I still didn't
get to say a word or even make an impression.

Also, when I intended to take a free soft drink from the

seniors, someone suddenly took my drink.

Damn invisible!

Although I hated this kind of situation, I was already used to

it. So I just took a free bottle of water from one side, which
only a few people took. Then, I walked to the balcony and
looked at the tree. It made me feel at ease.
Perhaps the feeling of being part of nature — becoming
friends with the sky, trees, and little birds, no need to be
compared with anyone — allowed me to feel less alienated.

'Oh? Is that P'In?'

While I participated in the activities, I didn't notice P'In, so I

didn't know where he was. But during the break, I saw him
again in the garden nearby.

I couldn't help getting curious. Why didn't P'In join the

activities?

And what was he doing now?

I observed him, P'In was walking around and looking at the

warblers. They were singing cheerfully while building their
nest on the tree. P'In held his phone to take a few photos of
them. He looked at the photos, then, he climbed up to the
first branch of the tree and took a few more photos of those
little birds again.

I couldn't help but admire how gently and stealthily P'In did
it. The birds didn't even realise that there was someone
nearby. After he was done, he jumped down.

At the same time, I was surprised yet again when P'In

suddenly made eye contact with me.

While I was hesitating, not sure whether I should pretend to

turn my face away, P'In tilted his neck slightly, then walked
the other way.

I kept looking at P'In unconsciously, wondering where he

was going. P'In was also still looking at me.
Later, P'In just stopped walking. He had a doubtful
expression on his face. He stepped back, then stepped
forward, and stepped back again. He was doing that weird
thing while still keeping his eyes on me, with a surprised
expression.

'Hm?' I frowned. 'Why did P'In keep walking back and forth?
Is he doing a morning exercise at this time?'

"Why can see?" P'In finally said.

"Huh?" I was stunned.

Then, I glanced to my left, right, front and back. I was not

sure if he was talking to me or someone else, but there was
nobody here.

'Did he talk to me? Or did I disturb his personal time?'

"Oh...just do anything as you please, don't worry about me.

I'll go now." I responded immediately.

P'In looked at me for a moment, like he was considering

something. As I didn't say anything more, P'In just ignored
me and looked at his phone instead.

"Attention freshmen! Break time is over."

The third-year senior was calling everyone. I needed to go

now.

But why was P'In still taking photos like that?

"Um, Senior, don't you need to help the third years prepare
for the next activity?" I asked without thinking. I
immediately regretted it and wished I could take my words
back.
P'In could do whatever he wanted. It was none of my
business. I didn't have the right to say that.

P'In stood still for a while, then bent down to take a photo of
the weeds growing in between the crack of the tiles.

"Will help soon, now doing other things." P'In answered

without looking up at me.

"Other things?" I couldn't get it. The 'other things' he meant

— walking, watching and taking photos of birds?

"They said update thrice a day." P'In answered.

Huh? The way that he spoke, short and terse, had me

confused. But P'In then walked to the other side. I didn't
have a chance to ask because I had to go back to join the
orientation session.

When all the freshmen came back, the seniors walked

around and gave us each a black notebook. I had to call the
senior twice before I finally got mine. Otherwise, he would
surely not see me.

I looked at this notebook. It was black, with our faculty

symbol on the cover. There were only blank papers inside
and a band holding a ballpoint pen.

"The notebook you've just received is the senior signature

collection book." P'Tong was using the megaphone to
explain.

"Do not lose it! All freshmen must get as many signatures of
the seniors as you can. The signatures must include their
name, surname, year, faculty and signature. We'll check
your progress next week."
The senior signature collection book? I had read up about
this activity on the internet. Some seniors would give their
signatures easily, while others would request the freshmen
to do something in exchange.

There were more than a hundred seniors in this business

and management faculty. If I wanted to collect all the senior
signatures from the second year and above, it would be
around three hundred people. I must complete it! Although I
believed that even if I managed to get their signatures,
most would probably forget that they had signed for me.

"Next, P'Noey will talk about the Moon and Star contest for
our faculty."

Upon hearing 'the Moon and Star contest', I listened

attentively. Because P'Wun, my sister, was the Star of the
Faculty of Accounting. My parents were so proud. She was
the centre of attention of her friends and our cousins.
Anyone would feel proud when their friends or cousins
became the Star.

For a fading person like me, would there be any chances? I

sighed. Perhaps, my dream was too big.

"Hello! My name is P'Noey." That lady who was introducing

herself was the one I met at the registration table.

"I know that all freshmen are interested in the Moon and
Star contest, as I have been asked about it a lot. Normally,
our university will hold the contest before the midterm
exam, so each faculty needs to have a list of nominated
candidates at the beginning of the semester."

Hearing the announcement about the Moon and Star

contest got everyone excited.
"Senior," a first-year girl raised her hand. "If our faculty
candidate becomes the university Moon, then he'll be
eligible for the UNISTAR contest, right?"

"That's right." P'Noey smiled. "Same as the last year,

N'Wayu — the Moon from the Faculty of Engineering — also
entered the UNISTAR contest, then became a UNISTAR
member."

When the word 'UNISTAR' was mentioned, the freshmen

became more energetic.

"Freshies, please be quiet." P'Noey said.

"Please don't scream. Because in last year's UNISTAR 4th

generation contest, the committee included the 1st to 3rd
generation of UNISTAR members. So our university has set
up new contest regulations, as the aim for this year for our
university Moon to win the UNISTAR contest again, so then
—"

Everyone, including me, was listening carefully.

"This year, for our university Moon contest, P'In and N'Wayu
will be part of the judging panel."

Whoa! Just like that, many female freshmen suddenly

became excited. They were all saying something like 'can
we vote for the judges', 'we must go to watch the judges',
and more.

"Senior, how will our faculty select the Moon candidate?"

This question from one of the first-year students might also
be the question that everyone was curious about.

"We've already discussed this. The task will be given to

P'In."
"P'Innn~"

Just the word 'In' could bring up a roar of screaming sounds.

"Yep! Our faculty won't hold the official contest. P'In will be
the one to select the Moon candidate and some Seniors and
Teachers will be helping him. So, all freshmen must attend
the sessions everyday. Do not skip. P'In will keep observing
to find outstanding freshmen."

When P'Noey said that, everyone looked around

immediately.

"Then, where is P'In?" "Well, I don't know either."

"I wanna see P'In!" "Will P'In come?"

"He is around here somewhere. P'In is the Invisible Moon,

isn't he?" P'Noey answered.

I was looking for P'In as well while thinking about the fact
that P'In came to this faculty but did not participate in any
activities.

I had already understood why P'In had free time to enjoy

watching birds and trees. It's because he didn't have any
duty other than to find the most outstanding first-year
students for the Moon and Star contest.

However, P'In — who was playing an important role in our

faculty Moon and Star contest — was nowhere to be seen. I
was looking around and then I found him! Oh, he was still
walking in the garden.

Hm? I scratched my head in confusion. The senior said that

P'In would be observing and selecting outstanding students,
but he didn't even come to look at any freshmen — he was
still taking photos of the trees.

"Okay, freshies, since we're already clear on the Moon and

Star contest, I'll arrange everyone in a group next. Each
group will be doing different activities. All freshies, please
stand up..."

While the third-year seniors were arranging the groups,

many freshmen started to make noise, mostly talking about
who P'In would select as the Moon and Star candidate.

"Hey! P'In updated Instagram!" One first-year student said,

causing everyone to turn to their phones.

"Yeah! This is the Black afara tree, isn't it that tree over
there?" They pointed to the balcony.

"Ahhh! P'In must be there!"

Then, many female students shouted and ran over quickly.

"Hey, where are you going?" A senior asked.

That was chaotic. The arranged group became messy.

"Where? P'In? Where is P'In?" They were busy trying to find

P'In and had temporarily ignored the other seniors.

I could only stand on tiptoe and look. I remembered that P'In

was still around here, but now I couldn't find him.

"Tong, did IN really come?" P'Noey went to ask P'Tong, along

with other third-year seniors.

"Of course. I called to remind him yesterday. I also asked

him to become an activity leader but he rejected me. He
doesn't like talking. So I asked him to select the Moon and
Star candidate. He seemed to agree. He also volunteered for
cleaning duty."

"Huh? What? IN will be cleaning up?"

"Oh, what a pity. A handsome guy like IN became a cleaner."

P'Noey laughed.

"By the way, how did you manage to call him? Do you really
have a UNISTAR member's number? Their agency has a very
strict privacy protection policy."

What the senior said just reminded me of one news article.

At that time, a UNISTAR member, Leo, was often harassed.
He needed to change his phone number over and over.
Later, the agency only allowed managers and family
members to have UNISTAR's private numbers. If a UNISTAR
member wanted to give this number to any friend, they
must inform the agency first, to prevent the friends from
sharing their number.

"I don't have it. I usually call him via Facebook. Sometimes
he didn't pick up. When I left a message, he also often
forgot to call back. But if you contact In's manager, you can
definitely reach him."

"Huh? The manager of the UNISTAR project?"

"Yep, the telephone number 'for work' on Instagram."

"Oh, I understand. Has he ever used Facebook? Whenever I

saw his Facebook, his status was always 'active seven days
ago'."

"He rarely uses Twitter too."

"I only saw him using IG. But he just posted photos on it. He
never checks his inbox, but he reads the comments."

"We don't even have his LINE or phone number.

Furthermore, I rarely saw him. Don't know where he is."

I agreed. While I was listening to the third-year seniors

talking, I also wondered where P'In had gone, so I looked
around.

I widened my eyes when I saw P'In walking around

collecting empty plastic glasses and leftover candy
packages on the table, which many freshmen left behind. He
also used the broom to sweep the floor.

I glanced at P'In in surprise.

Normally, the celebrities probably wouldn't choose to do this

sort of duty. They might prefer to do the more outgoing
tasks, which would allow them to get to know more people
and be in the centre of attention.

P'In's behavior reminded me of myself during high school.

During the sports events, many friends got the cheering
duty, some were selected as athletes, while nobody would
know whether an unnoticed person like me joined them or
not. So I could only take on the task that most people
ignored — cleaning.

P'In was doing the same thing I used to do.

But I still didn't understand why a famous person like him

chose to do this.

"Oh, a moment ago, the table was still dirty, but now it's
clean." A senior, who was responsible for preparing drinks
and snacks, was surprised.
"Who cleaned the table? Who cleaned the floor as well?
You?"

"No, not me. It seemed like someone had just finished

cleaning. Might be the janitor."

I saw P'In again. He was washing the table wipes at the

outdoor sink, where other seniors couldn't see. Perhaps, he
did everything so quickly while they were talking, that when
they turned back, P'In had already gone to the sink.

"Being an invisible celebrity like IN is so good, he can skip

his duties easily." One senior said.

"Don't say that. I trust IN. He will do it if he said he would."

P'Tong Interrupted.

"Tong is right. I used to work in a group with IN. He rarely

spoke, but he was willing to cooperate. He came to each
discussion and delivered work on time. The work was done
well too." P'Noey supported.

"Well, I know. I just complained recklessly.

While the seniors argued, P'In had just finished washing the
wipes. Then he proceeded to mop the floor.

From what I had seen today, P'In was indeed a strange

person.

For me, I've had enough of my fading life. If I could choose, I

would choose to be born as a person who stood out. And
here I saw P'In, who had gotten attention from many,
choosing to be invisible. He concentrated on doing various
tasks without letting anyone know.

Suddenly, it occured to me.

I wanted to get to know P'In better.

☽------------☽
Chapter 4 : The Moon
Behind The Clouds
Invisible Moon

Chapter 4

The Moon Behind The Clouds

"Invisible Moon...might be the moon that shined behind the

clouds"

#WINisWIND

If you asked what P'In was like, everyone would say that P'In
was the Invisible Moon.

But for me, P'In was like the light that shone brightly,
unhidden and unfiltered.

After the orientation session ended — today was the first

day, so there weren't many activities — I bought a take-
away meal and went back to my dormitory. Then, I just
played on my phone as there was nothing else to do.

It was my first time using Instagram to follow celebrities.

Before this, I just signed up for an account and that was all. I
didn't open it that much — zero followers — no matter how
much I updated, nobody would see anyway.

But today, I was just interested in P'In. I wanted to know

how a person like P'In posted on his account, which was
followed by millions.

I found that his IG was distinctive, unlike other celebrities'

accounts.

His Instagram was aesthetically pleasing, even without any

of his selfies or portraits.

Most photos were of trees, flowers, birds, animals, nature

and buildings, things that everyone could see daily.
However, he also took shots of beautiful views that many
people might not notice.

For instance, a picture of the grass that I saw every day, but
the shot he took highlighted the leaf of the grass with its
dew, accentuated by the morning orange sky in the
background. The colours and tone were in harmony.
Sometimes he took photos of a building or the tiles on the
floor or the head of a pipe, with a beautiful contrast
between light and shadow. Other times it would be things
that most people overlooked, such as the stain on the floor,
which created beautiful patterns.

P'In posted photos on Instagram without any captions and

had never replied to any comments.

However, his IG could relieve people from stress and

boredom.

What kind of person was P'In? A person who could view

something as common as nature in such a beautiful way.
P'In was probably very gentle and attentive, just that he had
never shown off.

I eventually understood the meaning of 'update thrice a day'

that P'In had said. Every UNISTAR member should update
their IG or Twitter at least three times a day. Most members
would update photos, tweets or posts on Facebook fan
pages. However, other than on his IG, P'In had never posted
anything by himself. And, even though he had hundreds of
thousands of followers on IG, P'In didn't follow anyone.

Almost all the posts on P'In's Facebook fan page might have
been posted by admins or staff from his agency. The posts
were mostly about UNISTAR news, activities and live events.
He didn't tweet anything on his Twitter as well, only
retweeted others. He mostly retweeted for helping other
people such as missing dogs or cats, donating money to
support patients in need or about various charitable
foundations.

In the past, I had the perception that all celebrities were

very lucky - good-looking and always getting attention. But
P'In had completely changed my mind for now.

One thing I could say was; P'In didn't become an idol

because of any popularity or reputation.

P'In did it for something.

I was getting more and more curious about P'In, so I

searched the hashtag #InvisibleMoon, which was flooded
with tweets from fans. There were many interesting posts
that wrote something like:

This world is In @abcdefg

The donation of the Intrakorn funding to develop careers in

rural communities has already reached a hundred thousand
baht. Thank you all DomKati for your cooperation. We will
keep supporting N'In. #InvisibleMoon #UNISTAR

'DomKati' was the name of P'In's Fanclub, since P'In loved to

eat all types of cuisine that had coconut milk (Kati) as an
ingredient. So naturally, all his fans loved to eat those too.
Some fans even opened shops selling food or desserts made
from coconut milk, hoping that someday P'In might become
a customer. P'In popularised Thai traditional food and
desserts without even realising it.

Another thing about Intrakorn funding, I found that it was

established by P'In's fanclub. This project was created after
P'In had an interview on a TV programme. He was asked
something like: 'If you have a lot of money, how are you
going to use it?' P'In answered that he wanted to help
people living in rural areas to earn income within their
community, so they didn't have to leave their hometown to
work in the city. P'In also said that he lived with his
grandmother in the countryside since he was a child, and he
knew that many villagers were very skilful in local art,
crafting and culinary but they didn't know how to market
their crafts.

That's the only thing P'In said and his fans voluntarily made
this project a reality. P'In also helped to promote it.

I found one video where P'In was interviewed about the

Intrakorn funding project.

"I just thought about it, but my fans did everything. Thank
you very much."

"P'In is a very strange person." I muttered after I finished

watching.

P'In kept it short, didn't show off, and didn't even seem to
want any credit for this. P'In gave all the credit to his fans.

So P'In became popular because of this reason? I couldn't

help but wonder.
And this wasn't the only project. There were plenty others —
his fans created them without P'In saying any word as well
— including an almshouse, food distribution, animal
protector, elderly and disabled caregivers, donation of funds
for Thai cultural foundation, reforestation and environment
conservation, and so on.

I was still curious as to why his fans were so willing to

organise these charity projects for him. I continued
searching and finally understood that because P'In did all of
these regularly, he was communicating with his fans without
using words or advertisements, only by his actions.

P'In is nirvana @hijklmn

My brother is a veterinarian, he met P'In carrying an injured

stray dog — hit by a car - to the animal hospital. Oh! if I
knew earlier I would have asked my brother to snap P'In's
photo. #InvisibleMoon #UNISTAR

Kati jaa @katikati

Please look at this photo. Is that P'In? Someone saw P'In

buying the flowers to help a poor blind elderly.
#InvisibleMoon #UNISTAR

My Invisible Husband @inininin

This morning my friend saw a very handsome college

student giving food to a homeless person — around the
pedestrian near XU - that student must be P'In!
#InvisibleMoon #UNISTAR

loving playing music @anniann

Yesterday I was trying to find donors for my Thai musical

band funding. Suddenly, I received a thousand-baht
banknote from nowhere. One woman nearby said a
handsome college student gave it to me, but he left right
after that. Is that P'In? *scream* *happy* #InvisibleMoon
#UNISTAR

After going through countless tweets, I didn't know how to

feel.

P'In himself had never told, posted or promoted people to

do charity, he only did many things without telling anyone.
Others found out about the things he did because they
accidentally saw him doing them. P'In wasn't invisible to me,
but most people couldn't see because P'In tended to stay in
the blind spot, blended in the surroundings. If some people
didn't have introverted or observing habits, or they were
there when he wasn't intending to hide, they might not see
P'In at all. Seeing him in public was such a lucky
coincidence.

Nevertheless, even if it was only a coincidence, there were

still many good stories about P'In. I couldn't imagine how
much good P'In actually did.

I thought of when P'In did the cleaning job alone, and no one
knew.

What kind of person was P'In? The more I found out, the
more interested I became. P'In wasn't like anybody I had
ever met.

I continued to scroll through twitter and found another

tweet.

Wanna have hubby Intrakorn @myhusbandisin

Tmr at 6 am, DomKati will meet in front of the temple

nearby XU. Pls dress appropriately and mind your manners.
This giving alms to a monk is really important to N'In. We
must respect this, please follow the rules. #InvisibleMoon
#UNISTAR

'P'In will give alms to a monk?' I thought.

I could conclude from the comments that it wasn't easy to

meet P'In in daily life. If it wasn't a special event or a
fanmeet, it would be almost impossible to meet him, as P'In
was the Invisible Moon. The only exception was every
morning when P'In came to give alms to a monk. P'In would
appear for 5-10 minutes — like a shooting star that
appeared only for a few seconds — which was a good
chance for the fans to look at P'In.

Someone uploaded photos which showed a large group of

fans praying for blessings with P'In - no one bothered him.
All the fans gave way for P'In to give alms to a monk and
made a libation peacefully until he was done - he didn't
even need a bodyguard.

The reason his fans acted this politely, even though they all
yearned to see P'In, could be explained. It's because once,
there were some fans who didn't keep their manners and
got blamed.

IN FC @intrakornFC

Bored with some rude fans. Don't you know? P'In gives alms
to dedicate to his late parents. If you don't respect your idol,
you should at least respect the deceased.

"P'In doesn't have parents anymore?" I mumbled. That

might be the reason why P'In was always emotionless.

Although I was a fading person in my family, at least my

parents didn't forget to give me money or food. I could also
still discuss things with them sometimes. My life wasn't that
difficult. But for P'In who didn't have parents anymore, it
must be really sad.

After using my phone for a long time, I laid down on my bed.

There's another orientation session tomorrow and I need to
join the session at 10 a.m. It might take a long time and end
late in the afternoon.

'Should I go and see P'In give alms in the morning?'

Since it was only my second night in this dormitory, I was

still unfamiliar with the place. I stayed awake on the first
night and today I woke up around 5 a.m. I remembered that
P'In would be giving alms to the monk every morning. I was
lazily lying and rolling around on my bed for a while, but
couldn't continue to sleep. So I decided to get up.

"Just go for a stroll. It won't cost anything." I told myself. It

was good to get up early and go for a walk. Once the
semester commenced, I wouldn't be as free as this
anymore.

So I got ready and got out of my dorm. There was a small

temple near my university, and many peddlers were selling
food around it. People could buy food here for breakfast or
for the monks' alms.

What surprised me was the dozens of young women waiting

here. Some also carried the light placards —'Intrakorn FC'
and 'DomKati' — but most of them were buying food for
alms.

Because I was a fading person, I could easily insert myself

into this group. It had been so long since I had participated
in giving alms for the monks, the last time was probably
during a Buddhist ceremony at my old school. Since I had
already gotten up early, I bought some food for the monk's
alms. I chose my all time favourite — sticky rice with
shredded pork - and waited for the time.

Would P'In really come? I thought. But the fans were

patiently waiting.

"What dishes do you think P'In made for the alms today?"

"Well, the day before yesterday, P'In made coconut milk

noodles. And yesterday he made sticky rice desserts. They
looked so yummy!"

"Do you mean P'In looks yum?"

"That's right. Ah~"

"I wanna taste P'In, oops...! The meal P'In made."

"Yeah, I watched the TV programme, 'Moons in the kitchen',

when I saw P'Wayu eating P'In's dishes, oh my God, it made
me salivate!"

So based on what they are saying, P'In cooked them himself

every time? He might need to get up at 4 or 5 a.m. every
day! Oh, and P'In was actually able to cook? The fans just
said the TV programme was called 'Moons in the kitchen'? I
must watch it when I have time.

"P'In is here! Arhh~"

Suddenly, the fans screamed, making me turn to look.

Oh, P'In actually came.

P'In wore casual clothes, not a uniform as the semester

hadn't commenced. However, it was a casual piece from the
Maxxwell brand — a subsidiary of MW Inc. – which UNISTAR
acts as the brand ambassador. I assumed that the company
might have given him complimentary clothes, so he couldn't
wear other brands when he wasn't wearing the university
uniform.

I saw P'In carrying a plastic bag, inside it were nine boxes of

appetising food — Thai rice with green curry and fried
ground pork.

"Must be green curry with coconut shoots."

"P'In mainly cooks coconut milk dishes."

"I wanna be 'green' in the curry, so P'In can 'carry' me.

Ahh~"

"What was that homophone joke? Did you copy P'Wayu?"

"Please be quiet."

The fans' babbling voices became silent when P'In placed

the food he prepared in the monk's alms bowl.

After he was done, the fans did the same. Many monks were
waiting for the alms in front of the temple.

Generally, when giving alms to one monk, that monk would

pray blessings after that. However, P'In and his fans might
have come here too often, as it seemed like every monk
was waiting for everyone to finish before starting to pray the
blessings.

Then, I joined in giving alms.

P'In was also waiting. Some of his fans greeted him with a
smile or a wave, but his face was still emotionless, only a
few reactions — nodding slightly. But this was enough to
excite his fans.

After the fans were done, every monk was preparing to pray.
All fans bent their bodies down and raised their hands in
salute to pay respect. P'In as well.

"Please pay attention to the blessings." One monk said.

"Believe me, when it comes to merit, the one who does it

will be the one who gets it. Please don't do it to wish for
becoming his girlfriend or getting married to him. This is all
about destiny. If you two are soulmates, then you will
become a couple. If it isn't meant to be, it just isn't. It's not
something we can decide. When you give the alms, it is for
making the merit. You do a good thing, then good things will
come to you."

This monk sermoned for quite a while and then began to

pray the blessings. P'In attentively raised his hands to pay
respect, at that moment, I heard his fans whisper.

"Oh no, his sermon hit my weak spot."

"Yeah, how does the monk know that we want P'In?"

"Even if we do this for a thousand days, if we aren't P'In's

soulmate, then there is no hope at all?"

Well, I thought the monk probably saw P'In and the same
group of fans every day, so he preached like that hoping
that the fans would realise the truth. So they should do a
good thing without too many expectations and suffer in the
end.

After the monks finished praying, P'In was already gone.

Many fans were looking for P'In but failed, so they
dispersed. However, when I looked carefully, I found that
P'In was pouring water for libation behind the big tree near
the fence.

While I was looking at P'In, I heard the fans talking.

"Will you go to the Maxxwell event this evening?"

"Of course! I wanna see P'In again. Ah~"

"Yeah, going to see my husband walking on the runway,

he'd be so mesmerising."

Oh right, I saw an announcement on the UNISTAR official

page informing that today all UNISTAR members would be
joining the event at the city centre mall, launching a new
fashion collection as they were the Maxxwell brand
ambassadors.

I didn't know what time the orientation session would end

today. I usually wasn't interested in celebrities, so I couldn't
understand why I was so interested in P'In.

Eh! Where is P'In going?

I saw P'In walking to another tree and took two plastic bags.
Inside one of them was two more boxes of prepared meals,
but I couldn't see the contents of the other bag. Then, he
walked across the road.

Was he going to give another alms? I thought. But he might

not be because he was already done. Then, where was he
taking the meal?

I saw the time on my phone - it's only half-past six. The

orientation session would start around 10 a.m., so I still had
time.
Since I was already here, I figured following him a little more
might be alright.

☽------------☽
Chapter 5 : Follow The
Invisible Moon
Invisible Moon

Chapter 5

Follow The Invisible Moon

"To follow the star, use a compass and a map, but to follow
the Invisible Moon, use nothing."

#WINisWIND

For normal people, it would seem almost impossible if you

wanted to catch a glimpse of the Invisible Moon.

Many fans wanted to see P'In so badly but couldn't, as P'In

would always hide himself. While I wasn't a UNISTAR fan,
and wasn't a P'In fan either, I was somehow a fading person
who was able to see P'In.

Nevertheless, I still couldn't stop wondering.

I dreamt of becoming a popular person. I imagined I would

be so proud and happy. Wherever I went, I would always get
attention. However, P'In was a celebrity. He had everything
a person like me could only desire, but his behaviour was
like myself in the past.

P'In was really strange.

I secretly followed P'In and kept a distance, until P'In
stopped under a stairway of the overpass near my
university. There was an old man wearing dirty clothes
sleeping under an old blanket.

"Good morning." P'In greeted and sat with him without

showing any disgust or fear on his face.

"Oh, you're here again today?"

"For you." P'In said shortly, handing a meal box to that old
man.

"Thank you." The old man took it.

"I'm troubling you again. You don't have to bring it to me

every day, I don't want to bother you too much, young
man."

"It's okay." P'In said while opening another meal box and ate
together with the old man.

"Thank you so much, you are very good at cooking."

P'In and the old man were eating together, I wondered

whether he was an acquaintance of P'In.

Naturally, looking at someone eating made me hungry as

well, so I took out some deep-fried bananas to eat along.

"The rainy season is coming, you could get sick. May I help
you find a room?" P'In asked.

"It's okay." The old man replied. "I don't want to trouble you.
I'm waiting for my son to take me home. My family has a lot
of debt and he is afraid that the usurer will come for us, so
it's not safe to stay at home. He asked me to leave
temporarily. My son promised that he will take me back
home after paying all the debt."

The old man's face looked so lively when he was talking

about his son.

"If I moved to other places," the old man continued. "I'm

afraid my son can't find me. It's fine, young man, I can still
wait here."

P'In listened quietly while eating.

I didn't understand why my tears came out when I heard the

old man's story. Even though I was just a fading person, I
still read a lot of books and news. Since I didn't have many
friends, the books I read became my friends. I knew this sort
of thing often happened in Thailand, especially among poor
families without access to sufficient education.

In the case of this old man, if his son was indeed good, how
could he let his father suffer like this? If he was really afraid
that the usurer would harm his father, he should find a
better shelter instead of letting his father stay homeless like
this. Wouldn't this be more dangerous than the usurer?

It was obvious that his son had already abandoned his

father. I doubt whether he had a real debt. But even if he
could repay the debt in whole, I'm sure he would never take
his father back home.

This father's mentality made me feel depressed. He was

willing to suffer just to satisfy his own son. Whatever his son
said, this father always trusted without a doubt. Even if the
father had to become homeless like a beggar, he still
believed that his son would come back to bring him home.
This was the love of a father. I'm not sure whether his son
would realise it, but at least, there was someone who did —
P'In, this celebrity Moon.

If I was in P'In's shoes, I wouldn't dare be involved with the

homeless, because I'd be afraid. It's hard to know if they
would harm us or not. But P'In also gave him food.

Oh right, I remembered that I saw a post on twitter that said

the user saw a person giving food to the homeless near my
university.

I tried to find that tweet on my phone. It was posted last

week, which meant this old man had been waiting for his
son for over a week and P'In kept bringing food for him. I
wondered whether P'In knew that this old man had already
been abandoned but chose to say nothing.

On one hand, I really couldn't understand why P'In just let

him wait hopelessly. On the other hand, I knew that hope
was like the heart of our lives, without hope — there's no
point in living.

If P'In told him the truth, this old man would be

disheartened. So P'In probably just didn't say anything but
still looked after him as much as he could, despite the fact
that he was neither a relative nor a friend.

When P'In finished eating, he took the wallet and gave some
money to the old man — 60 baht.

"I'll be busy in the evening, please take it to buy food."

"Thank you, young man, I could live without difficulty

because of you. You're always helping me."

The old man accepted the money with gratitude.

"I promise, when my son comes, I'll surely repay you."

The old man still had hope.

P'In just stood up and kept walking without saying a word. I

wondered whether there was any way to help this old man. I
had read and knew that there were some nonprofit
foundations that could help with cases like these. But it
would be better to wait and see first, because P'In might
have already thought about this.

After that, I saw P'In carrying the other plastic bag and
heading to the riverfront. He went into a small temple there.
I followed.

Woof! Woof! Woof!

I paused for a moment, because as soon as P'In walked in,

the dogs, almost ten of them, were running towards him.
They ran, jumped and wagged their tails joyfully. They were
all stray dogs. Just a few seconds ago, their eyes looked
depressed, but the moment they saw P'In, all of them
became cheerful, as if seeing their owner.

In Thailand, stray dogs or cats could be found in many

places, especially at the temples. There were many
irresponsible animal owners in my country, yet the
authorities weren't able to solve this issue. So the temples
— some people considered Thai temples as the almshouses
for poor people and animals — had no choice but to look
after these abandoned animals.

Right now, the dogs were barking very loudly.

"Shhh..." P'In raised his finger to his mouth, making the

dogs quiet.
"Sit." P'In ordered gently. Surprisingly, every dog seemed to
understand him. They all sat down and stopped barking.

Apparently, the bag that P'In had been carrying contained

dog food. P'In pulled it out and fed each dog. The dogs
seemed very hungry, so they quickly devoured the food.

After P'In fed all the dogs, he paused for a moment and
counted the number of dogs. Then, P'In looked around,
searching for something.

"White." P'In walked to a corner wall, a white and dirty dog

was walking towards P'In.

The white dog seemed to be quite old, couldn't smell or see

clearly, as it bumped into other dogs and was hissed at.

"White, come here." P'In called gently, the dog followed his
voice.

P'In put the dog food on his hand and fed it. The dog came
to eat slowly.

While feeding it, P'In used his other hand to pat the dog
softly, and then he was smiling.

P'In...smiled...

I was stunned. I didn't know how to express my feelings —

like my heart was pounding.

His smile was full of kindness and purity, I had never seen
anyone who could smile as warmly as this.

It made me feel...impressed with P'In.

This was bad. Why couldn't my heart stop shaking? I needed

to get a hold of myself.
After P'In finished feeding, he moved to a pagoda. There
were many donation boxes there — mostly for temple
maintenance, novice monk education, sick monk, water and
electricity fee, dog food — P'In inserted money in each box.

Aside from feeding dogs, P'In also helped the temple. Why
was he so kind?

After that, P'In walked out to the riverfront, and I continued

to follow him.

An old woman was selling fish bread there. It wasn't very

crowded here. There were only those who were waiting for
the ferry, and this riverfront wasn't that popular, so there
were only a few people.

"Hi, Little In, are you here to feed the fish?" The old woman
greeted him.

"Sawaddee[1] Krub[2]." P'In raised his hand to pay

respect[3]. The old woman raised her hand in response as
well.

"Pay respect to the monk[4], recently I could sell a lot

because of you. There are not many people feeding fish
here. But I didn't know where else to go, I can't walk that
far."

P'In didn't reply, he just said "Ten packs of bread please."

"Isn't it too much, Little In? I'm glad that you want to help
me, but I'm worried you won't have enough money."

"It's okay, I'll be going to work in the evening." P'In said

while he paid the old woman one hundred baht. So each
pack was ten baht — quite cheap.
"I see, they're taking good care of you. I'm so glad to hear
that, thank you, Little In, bless you."

After buying them, P'In carried the bread packs toward the
riverside. He took one and put the rest on the ground. He
slowly tore the bread into small pieces and threw them into
the river.

"Oh!" I exclaimed. There were a lot of fish here and they

looked very hungry. The bread was just thrown in a second
ago and many catfish swarmed to eat — almost scrambling
with each other.

So many fish! No wonder why P'In bought ten packs.

I could only stand and look until P'In spoke without turning
to me.

"Nothing to do? Come help."

Huh? I raised my eyebrows and looked around — no one

else here, only me and P'In. Most people were waiting for
the boat at the port.

Was P'In talking to me? Or was he just talking to himself? I

wondered as I kept looking for somebody else.

"I've seen you since giving alms." He said while still feeding
the fish.

Seen...since...giving...alms.

The word 'giving alms' startled me.

Was it really me?

Don't tell me — he was actually talking to me?

No way, I was such a fading person, how could he see me?
P'In didn't even look at me, so when did he notice that?

"Don't wanna help, it's alright." P'In said, then picked

another bread pack and continued feeding.

"Oh, I'll help!"

I realised that I've been stalking P'In for so long. If he asked

for help but I still ignored him, that would be impolite.

Then, I went to P'In and helped him feed.

When I was standing near him, I could see P'In up close. P'In
looked so much better in real life compared to his photos.
Plus, with his mysterious persona, somebody might mistake
him as the riverside angel.

"Do you usually do this?" I asked.

Including giving alms to the monk, offering food to the

homeless, feeding stray dogs, donating for a temple,
helping old people and also feeding fish.

"Not really." He said, and tried to throw the bread further

away, so the fish wouldn't be scrambling.

P'In had a deep voice, but it sounded very soft and smooth.
It was a pity that he didn't seem to be a talkative person.
Why did he have to be born with such a handsome voice?!

But more surprisingly, P'In was talking to me!

This person is a UNISTAR member, The Moon of the country!

"Oh I see. It must be tiring if you do charity like this often." I

nodded, not surprised that he couldn't do it every day.
"No. People hardly help." P'In argued in a monotone.

Huh? I blinked my eyes.

Wait, he thought I asked about no one helping him instead

of about the charity?

"What about your fans?" I thought of the group of young

women who participated in giving alms.

"There are so many people, you could call them to help."

"No one followed." He said. Still feeding.

What? I scratched my head and the bread crumb was

spread on my hair.

Because P'In didn't want them to see, right?

"If they could see you, they would follow."

My words made P'In glance at me calmly.

While being stared, I just realised —

"No, I'm not a stalker." I said immediately, afraid that he

might misunderstand. What excuse should I give?

Oh yeah, I remembered.

"Well, I'd like to ask for your signature."

I picked up the senior signature book that I received during

the first day of orientation. Luckily, I brought it here.

"Well, it's not easy to meet you and you are my senior.
Please sign for me."
I pretended to ask, even if I felt like it was too bold.

P'In just looked at it, then put the bread packs on top of the
book that I was trying to hand to him.

"Almost done." He said.

"Huh?" I was confused.

"Oh. You mean that if I help you feed all these, you will sign
for me, right?"

I said this so clearly but P'In didn't answer. He didn't take

my book either.

So I decided to be quiet, but it didn't last long. I wanted to

talk because it had been a long time since there was
someone that I could talk to. In the past, either I wouldn't
get any chance to talk, or I was forgotten.

"P'In krub." I asked. "Why did you become the University

Moon and a UNISTAR member if you liked to be alone?"

I knew that P'In was listening, but he was quiet for a long
time until he pointed out a myna bird perching on a bridge
nearby.

"Look, the bird."

I looked. It was just a common myna — black-brown feather

with some white streaks, its yellow beak stood out.

Why did he want me to look at the bird? It was just a

common bird.

Then, I intended to ask P'In, but it turned out that —

"Wait, P'In?" I gasped. Dropping all the bread into the river,
causing the fish to crazily scramble to eat.

Well, P'In was gone! He was just here a few seconds ago.

He suddenly said "look, the bird" and then disappeared.

What was that?!

Aside from hiding, he was also able to teleport?

I sighed and fed the last pack of bread.

What about my signature book? He would sign it for me,

right? Oh no, he didn't answer either.

I sighed again, threw the bread for the fish and looked at the
myna, exhaustedly 'Look, the bird?' Suddenly, a thought
flashed in my head. I think I understood what P'In implied.
Even though it was just a short sentence without any
specific meaning.

Why was P'In the Moon, but invisible?

As you could see, the little bird could fly anywhere, without

caring about anyone.

Invisibility was like freedom.

☽------------☽

Footnote

[1] Sawaddee means 'Hello' in the Thai language. It's a

very common way to greet people in Thai culture.
[2] Krub is a way of showing respect to the interlocutor in
Thai culture. Normally, "krub" is used by Thai males at the
end of a sentence.

[3] Raising a hand to pay respect, in Thai, it's called

'Whai', a very common way to greet people politely and
respectfully in Thai culture. Normally, when younger people
'Whai' (raising a hand to pay respect) to an elder, the elder
would raise a hand as a response to show that the elder
received their respect.

[4] Pay respect to the monk, some older people in

Thailand would say that after receiving 'Whai' from younger
people, it's like giving a blessing.
Chapter 6 : The Fish Paper
Invisible Moon

Chapter 6

The Fish Paper

"It would seem like the fish could reach the moon,

when the reflection of the moon is casted on the water

surface."

#WINisWIND

After I finished feeding the fish, I just went back for a nap in
my dorm room for a couple of hours. Then, I woke up and got
ready to join today's orientation session at 10 a.m.

There were a lot of activities lined up today and they were

set up into multiple checkpoints, each one with a different
style. All freshmen were arranged into small groups and
moved from checkpoint to checkpoint until they completed
all of them. At some checkpoints, the seniors would just
arrange a free talk, some checkpoints were set up to get to
know each other, while some other checkpoints had fun
games. It seemed like the aim of the activities was to
encourage the seniors and the freshmen to bond.

"This is Lady Maria Vongz, the founder of our business

faculty."
The senior introduced the statue of a lady in front of the
building. For now, this activity checkpoint was the easiest
one — building tour.

"Hey, we've joined the sessions for two days but we haven't
seen P'In yet."

One of the freshmen commented while following a senior for

a tour around the faculty building.

"Right, it's not only us, even the seniors haven't seen him
either."

"That's true. Anyway, there's a Unistar event today, will you

go?"

"Of course! How can I miss it? I'm going to see P'In!"

This evening, P'In would be working as a Unistar member. I

thought. By the way, did P'In come for the session today?

Oh, I just saw P'In.

He was sitting at the canteen table behind a pillar in the

corner. P'In was doing something like folding and rolling
paper, but he was too far, so I couldn't see it clearly.

However, I didn't have much time to observe him as I

needed to participate in the activities. Some checkpoints
would divide us into a few teams to compete, such as
competing to remember friends' names — which was
unfortunate for my team, because no one could remember
my name. Also, in the flag race[1], my teammate forgot to
pass me the flag.

I was trying my best, but..., anyway, being invisible was

somehow useful — I could sneak out to rest without being
noticed.
After finishing the last checkpoint, it was free time. The
seniors brought us lunch boxes and drinks.

"Hi! Oh, what's your name? I forgot. What do you wanna eat?
There are basil minced pork with rice and garlic chicken with
rice."

P'Noey greeted me.

"My name is Win. I'll go for basil pork rice." I said, smiling.

Though P'Noey couldn't remember my name, at least she

recognized me. I guess it was worth my effort today.

During the friend's name competition, I was always a

forgotten person. So it became a funny gag that made a lot
of seniors recognise me. As none of them could remember
my name, I was regarded as 'the freshy whose name is
forgotten'.

"Alright. N'Win. I'll try to remember." P'Noey smiled at me

while passing the lunch box.

Then, I took a seat. I was eating with friends who were in the
same activity group. Although I was a fading person,
everyone already knew me - even though they still forgot my
name.

"Hello, freshies! Do you still remember the signature

collection book? Today all the 3rd year seniors are here. It's a
good chance to collect our signatures. Please come after
finishing your meal, we will be waiting."

P'Tong announced using a megaphone. Some freshmen

straightaway went to the seniors.

But for me, who wasn't done eating, could only observe.
When a freshman asked the seniors for a signature, some
seniors would sign easily, some others only signed partially
and told the freshmen to come back and get the rest on
another day. Some seniors asked questions related to today's
activity such as the name of the business faculty founder.
Some seniors instructed the freshmen to do strange things
like dancing or shouting a love confession or even help the
seniors get a pretty girl's phone number.

"Did you know? Last year, there was a freshman who should
be rewarded by the seniors because he managed to collect
the most — 300 signatures!"

I heard some friends in the group talking.

"Oh! Was that the whole faculty?" A friend exclaimed.

"There were a total of 301 seniors from the second to fourth

year at that time. He almost had everyone's. Extremely
amazing!"

"Wait, he missed one senior's signature?"

"Guess whose."

"Don't tell me..."

"P'In?"

"That's right! The only missing signature was P'In's.

Honestly, no one had ever gotten his signature."

"Oh my God! Even his postcard signatures from a fanmeet

could be sold around thousands of baht."

"Yeah, his signature is rare. You can only get them at

fanmeets, and his queue is always the longest."
"The point is, because it's hard to meet P'In, his signature is
hard to come by."

"Yes! Even his photos are rare too."

I was listening while taking my empty lunch box to the trash

bin. My friends left to join the senior signature activities once
they finished eating, while I, with my unnoticeable character,
was left alone without as much as an invite. But I was
already used to it.

The popular third-year seniors who were surrounded by

many freshmen were mostly P'Cheers, the leaders for the
activities. So they grouped the freshmen and told them to
sing, dance and all sorts of things to get the signatures.

"Grilled chicken was burned~...it will be skewered~..."

"Mudmee grated coconut, cooking in the kitchen~..."

Many folk songs were sung accompanied by on beat claps,

along with the loud cheering voices of the audience. At first,
other seniors gave the signatures easily, but after seeing
this, they too set up missions in exchange for signatures.

The problem is, for a fading person like me, the more noisy
and outstanding others are around me, the less noticeable
my existence becomes.

"Senior...please sign for me..."

I tried to ask a senior, who was only surrounded by a few

people, but that senior was busy watching others and didn't
even hear me.

"Senior..." I called louder, but my voice was completely

drowned by the atmosphere.
"Grilled chicken was burned~..."

I even joined the 'Grilled Chicken' dance, but when everyone

was in the queue for signatures, the seniors forgot me.

"Hi! New group, are you ready for the Mudmee dance?"

"You haven't signed for me yet." I waved my book, but they

still didn't notice.

"Answer me, what is our faculty colour? I'll sign for the one
who can answer."

"Chartreuse colour!"

I was the first one who answered, but they still didn't hear
me.

As expected, my fading characteristic was like a curse.

I sighed, I couldn't do anything except sit and rest.

I was tired from attempting to get those signatures. Others

might feel tired as well, but at least they still got the
signatures. Unlike me, who also tried, but got nothing.

I finally realised that I still couldn't do something as simple

as getting a signature. As for my dream of becoming the
Moon, I probably would need to die and be reborned. That's
the only way it might come true.

I could only sit and accept my miserable fate while using my

signature book as a fan — cooling myself from the hot
weather.

"Can I borrow?"

The familiar voice made me turn around.

I widened my eyes when I saw that P'In was sitting at the
opposite side of the table. His hand was reaching out
towards me with an emotionless expression.

What did he say?

"Borrow? Borrow what?" I blinked.

When I saw his eyes staring at the black book — my

temporary fan — I realised that he meant this signature
collection book.

"Oh," I quickly handed it to him.

"Will you sign it for me?"

If I could get his signature...wow...a UNISTAR signature! I

would be very grateful.

However...

"Paper ran out." P'In said while opening my book.

"Huh?" I was confused and immediately gasped when P'In

ripped off a page of the book.

Nooo! I cried in my head. No, no! My signature collection

book! Getting one signature was already hard, now one page
was torn out, gone.

What did he do?!

P'In's face was still calm, he tore the paper into small strips,
then weaved them neatly until the paper became a thumb-
sized carp fish[2]. After he finished folding, he put it in a
plastic bag, which already had approximately more than
hundreds of paper carp fish, mostly made from recycled
paper.
"Are you folding carp fish?" I asked.

P'In didn't answer. He only looked at the paper in his hand.

His fingers were folding the paper delicately, tearing it into
strips and gently curling and weaving the strips. Although he
was male, his fingers were slender.

"Why are you folding the carp fish?" I still asked.

He was still concentrating on the paper fish in his hand, not

even turning to me. As I looked at him, I wholeheartedly
concurred with everyone who said that P'In was a strange
Moon.

"Freshies, wanna get my signature? Just lineup here. Today,

I'll sign for free. Next time, I'll ask for something in
exchange."

I heard P'Noey announced. When I looked over in that

direction, I saw a group of first-year students waiting for her
signature.

Just queueing up and nothing else. Should be fine for a

fading person like me. Hoping no one would jump in my
queue.

So I turned to take back my signature book from P'In, but he

was gone.

I was stunned. I was only distracted for a short while, and

now there was no sign of P'In at all. Undoubtedly, he was
indeed the Invisible Moon. He even amazed an invisible
person like me.

"Where is my signature book?!" I exclaimed. I initially

thought P'In might have taken it, but it was still on the table.
"What a relief!" I picked up and checked how many pages
P'In had torn off.

However, when I turned to the first page, I was shocked. I

almost dropped the book.

On that page, there was a beautiful handwriting:

Intrakorn Dechapraphas

Faculty of Business Administration, XU, 3rd year.

"This is..." my eyes widened, astonished.

P'In's signature!

Extraordinarily rare — no student in the business faculty had

ever gotten it!

The signature that could be sold for thousands of baht!

There was also a small note written below.

'Thanks for paper.'

☽------------☽

Footnote

[1] Flag Race is the folk running sport for Thai people.
Players are divided into 2 teams and 2 sides, each side will
set up a post and each team needs to run into the
competitor side while holding a fabric flag. Whenever they
return to the post, they must pass the flag to the next player
on the team. Any player who can bring the flag to touch the
opponent's player first will become the winner.
[2] Folded/Weaved carp fish is Thai wisdom art. Originally
made from natural palm leaves. The leaves are usually cut
into long and thin strips, dried in the sun, then weaved into
the shape of a carp fish. The carp is a symbol of abundance
for Thai people.
Chapter 7 : The Carp Fish
from the Moon

Invisible Moon

Chapter 7

The Carp Fish from the Moon

"The fish in the water couldn't fly upon the sky,

but the fish on the moon could dive to the ground."

#WINisWIND

I got P'In's signature! This was my first senior signature and

it was a UNISTAR's signature too!

I heard that the fans could only get UNISTAR's signature at

fanmeets or if they could pass through the crowd to reach
the UNISTAR members. Even so, getting the Invisible P'In's
signature was exclusive, as he only made rare appearances
at fanmeets. This was also why he was the member with the
longest queue for autographs.

P'In's signature!

I glanced at my book excitedly, still couldn't believe that I

really got his signature. This actually made me forget other
things.
The reason P'In signed for me was probably because I
sacrificed a page from my book for his carp fish. I was
initially shocked when the paper was torn, but now it was
worth it.

'But...carp?' I felt curious. 'Why does P'In like to fold the

carp?'

Who could answer this question? I was thinking of my one

true friend — Google — who knew everything. Then, I
searched on my cell phone.

'IN UNISTAR fold carp fish'

I found many fans posting on Twitter, many of them tagged

@intrakorn and said that they wanted to get the carp from
P'In too. Some even dubbed P'In as 'Nong Carp', some also
practised folding and posted photos of them with the
caption - they could do it because of P'In. Extremely crazy
fans would even go as far as wearing a carp fish costume.

I finally found the video about it on YouTube that was

uploaded by MW Entertainment.

UNISTAR SHOWTIME! Following the life of the Moon -

episode: IN and his carp fish.

I connected my cell phone to the university Wi-Fi to

download the video. Like the previous one I watched, the
video started with interviews of other UNISTAR members.

The first person was P'Leo.

Interviewer: Many fans are wondering, why does N'In like to

fold the carp fish?
Leo: N'In? Ever since I knew him, I've always seen him
folding them whenever he's free. But I need to be alert
because sometimes — No! N'In! That's P'Kwang's money!

The camera immediately shifted to P'In, who was about to

tear a thousand baht banknote to weave into a carp. He was
expressionless, as if he didn't even think he was doing
anything wrong.

Then, a small-figured man walked in and asked P'Leo what

was happening.

Leo: P'Kwang, N'In was trying to fold the carp with your
money. // His face looked concerned.

Kwang: What? No way, you can't! That's the money for

everyone's food! // Turning to P'In in shock. Accordingly, P'In
returned the banknote.

Interviewer: PD[1] Kwang almost had to pay with your own

money, right? // Laughing

Kwang: Sigh... // Facepalming.

I heard the MC called P'Kwang as 'PD'. If I wasn't wrong, this

person might be Kwang, the producer that everyone was
talking about. PD Kwang was the supervisor of the UNISTAR
project and participated in the selection of members. Many
successes of this UNISTAR project can be credited to him.
Although he was small in size and young, he was very
capable.

Then, the scene shifted to the next person, P'Sea.

Sea: N'In? I did ask him. He said he felt relaxed when he's
folding them. Probably, it could help N'In to release stress,
like people who like to grit their teeth, shake their legs or
chew gum.

Interviewer: And what about you? Do you have a similar

habit as N'In?

Sea: Me? Well, maybe spinning a scalpel?

Interviewer: // Her face suddenly turned pale.

Why was P'Sea talking about this scary thing with an

innocent smile like that? Oh no, I must skip!

Then, the camera shifted to P'Natee, the bad mouthed one.

Natee: P'In folds the carp fish, I can fold a plane. What did
you say? It's not interesting? Hey...Why is folding a plane
not cool, huh? Look! It's difficult. What? You've already
folded a lot? No way! My folding technique is unique.

The cameraman seemed to be bored by P'Natee's bragging,

so he decided to shoot the surrounding scenery instead.

Natee: Hey! Wait! I'm here! // Pulled the camera back. //

Record me. I'm folding a plane. You must record everything.
Do not cut, okay?

All in all, I couldn't find out anything about P'In from P'Natee
at all.

Next, P'Wayu — the lame joker. This could either be

something useful or a dumb joke, let's see...

Wayu: The reason why P'In likes folding 'carp' fish? Because
he uses it to eat noodles, oh, that's 'chop' stick not 'carp'
stick. Or he must be making a movie, using 'clap' board.
Hahaha, not funny? Then, because P'In is neat and delicate,
he loves doing 'crepe' fabric.

Such a horrible homophone joke, but the fans still loved it,
as I saw many comments like: 'P'Wayu is funny', 'Love his
jokes', 'How can P'Wayu come up with such amazing jokes //
LMAO[2]'.

Well, I didn't think he was funny, but it was funny because

he dared to make these jokes!

Interviewer: What's about N'In? Why do you like folding carp

fish?

The camera finally shifted to P'In who was folding a carp.

In: // Looking up at the camera and staying still.

Interviewer: Can you share with the fans?

P'In seemed to hesitate.

In: Wanna try? // Handing the paper to the interviewer.

Interviewer: Oh, I have to help the Invisible Moon to fold

them now. So then, the UNISTAR SHOWTIME will end here.
See you next time! Bye Bye.

"What? How can it end like this?" I complained. It took a lot

of effort to watch it.

"Limb - branch - leaf~, chacha~, leaf - branch - limb~..."

I came back to reality when I heard my friends singing in

order to get the seniors' signatures in exchange.

I almost forgot that I intended to get P'Noey's signature. I

hurriedly queued up and opened my book. When it was my
turn, P'Noey signed it and moved on to the next person. This
method could work for a fading person like me.

I managed to get another signature! I glanced at my book

happily. At least, it wasn't a wasted attempt.

"Freshies who want me to sign, come here quickly. I will

leave in 10 minutes. So, anyone else?" P'Noey was shouting.

"Noey, where are you going?" P'Tong asked.

"You don't know?! I think the first-years will leave soon too,
believe me." P'Noey grinned at the female first-year
students and they all screamed excitedly.

"Oh! UNISTAR event..." P'Tong understood immediately.

"Arhh, is P'Noey a Unity too?" One of them asked.

'Unity' was the official name of UNISTAR's fan club, meaning

the state of being united, just like its name.

"Of course, I must cheer for my future husband." P'Noey

giggled.

"Wow! Who is your bias?"

When the topic started to be a UNISTAR topic, everyone was

excited.

"Seagull." P'Noey smiled passionately.

"P'Sea!"

Oh right, I think I saw some tweets mentioning fans calling

P'Sea as 'Seagull', since P'Sea had bright, fair skin, pure and
innocent look - like seagulls. That was why his fandom was
named 'DomSeagull' or 'DomNangnuan' in Thai language.
"What about you? Which UNISTAR member is your bias?"

"P'In!" "P'Wayu!"

Most of them mentioned these two names.

"Oops! Don't tell me, you took the entrance exam here
because of these two guys?" P'Noey was teasing the first-
years.

Since everyone was planning to go to the UNISTAR event,

the signature collecting activity suddenly changed into a
Moon idol gossip activity. I heard P'Tong talking with his
male friends about having a meal after and discussing the
buddy-code family activity. Letting all the females follow
their idols.

There was a UNISTAR event today. I thought.

Honestly, I had never been interested in any of these

before. However, since I met P'In, I also wanted to know how
he was under the spotlight.

Anyhow, since I had time today, there's no harm in going.

The UNISTAR event would begin at 4 p.m. at the plaza

beside the city mall. This mall was quite far from my
university, so I took the BTS sky train to get there.

I knew there would be many fans occupying the space, as I

heard that it was already crowded with almost no place to
stand. Only the special zone, which was reserved for the
media and lucky fans who used their membership points to
redeem the spot.

"Ohho!"
Once I arrived, the plaza was full of people as expected.
Most of them were female fans, but there were still some
male fans.

Each fan wore shirts in a specific colour. The fans grouped

themselves with others who were wearing the same colours
and were the fandom's light sign. I just noticed that each
UNISTAR fandom had its own colour.

P'Sea — white, P'Leo — yellow, P'In — grey, P'Natee — light

blue, P'Wayu — purple, and the colour combinations that
represented the imaginary couples like white-yellow or light
blue-purple.

And what colour was I wearing today? I looked at myself —

black shirt, not related to any fandom.

I realised the benefit of being invisible today; I could get

myself into the crowd near the stage, this exclusive space
that had been reserved since morning.

I saw the UNISTAR logo with the Maxxwell clothing brand

and other sponsor logos on the stage backdrop. In front of
the stage, there were many cameras for broadcasting on
the MWTV channel and live on online social media.

I didn't need to wait for too long before the event host came
out and fans started to scream. This host is the interviewer
that I often saw on the UNISTAR SHOWTIME programme.

"Hello all Unity! Make some noise! Welcome to the launch of

Maxxwell's latest fashion collection! Wow! I see a lot of
Unitys today—"

"And of course, it's because our brand ambassadors for

today is — The national Moons — UNISTAR!"
Then, the host briefed about the schedule of today's event
and thanked all sponsors on the list. He then briefly
introduced the Maxxwell brand, a subsidiary of MW
company.

"...without further ado, let's meet our five UNISTARs!"

The screams heightened the moment the host mentioned

'UNISTAR'. I had to cover my ears as it was too loud, it was
almost dizzying. I noticed that this event was attracting the
attention of everyone in the area. I could see people looking
over from within the plaza, the mall and even the SKY train
station.

Right now, the stage, which was arranged into a makeshift

runway, was lit by colourful lights. An upbeat song was also
playing in the background.

When the first UNISTAR member stepped out, everyone was

screaming uncontrollably.

I stared and focused on the first man who was tall and had
bright skin, wearing casual fashion clothing with a simple
colour tone. The design looked gorgeous and was suitable
for hot weather.

At first, I didn't recognise who this person was, until I heard

a group of fans wearing white shirts shouting.

"Ahhh, P'Sea!"

That Seagull Sea? I eventually recalled. I blinked and kept

watching. He looked a bit different in real life. On screen, he
seemed to be thinner, but his actual body was quite firm. He
was also tall, with very fair skin — as if he was dazzling.

"Ahhh, P'Wayu!"
Next, the fans screamed as if on cue as P'Wayu stepped out
the moment P'Sea was walking back in. When I saw the real
P'Wayu, I finally understood why he was able to attract
crowds whenever he walked around our university.

P'Wayu looked so attractive in this attire. Where was the

unfunny P'Wayu? Where was P'Wayu who always made
those horrible lame jokes? I wasn't sure if I knew him
anymore. Here. I only saw a cool outstanding man, as if he
walked out of a modelling magazine. His serious gaze was
so damn hot.

"Ahhh, P'Natee!"

P'Natee walked out with a seductive smirk. His seductive

charm was different from P'Wayu's. P'Natee was more
muscular and had tanned skin. The most attractive part was
his devastatingly handsome smile, which was able to melt
every girl's heart at any time.

"Ahhh, P'In!"

The name of the next member caught my attention.

"P'In...really?" My eyes widened as I stared at the man who

just stepped out.

P'In was still handsome like an angel — an emotionless

angel. In addition, P'In was wearing fashionable clothes,
sported stylish hair, and had his face made up like an actual
model. I wasn't sure...

'Is that the same P'In I saw in the morning?'

The P'In on the stage right now was ten times more
attractive than usual. All attention was on him even though
he was only walking normally, despite no expression on his
face.

I eventually realised why many people said that P'In was

literally glowing, because even a man like me couldn't even
take my eyes off him.

After P'In walked back, it was P'Leo's turn. He was the main
model for this event. Normally, every brand campaign would
select the most suitable UNISTAR member to be featured as
its centre model. The selection criteria weren't specific.
Sometimes this position was chosen by the PD or by the
brand. This centre could also be selected through fan votes
or based on trends.

The brand collection this time featured classy casual

clothing. This image was the most suitable for P'Leo.

P'Leo walked out confidently amidst the fans' loud cheering.

Because he was the centre of this event, his clothing was
the highlight. I had to admit that P'Leo was indeed the ideal
Moon. Every inch, every angle, every part of him —
appearance, shape, expression were all literally perfect.

After all of the UNISTAR members were shown, the

background music changed. P'Leo was standing on a raised
platform in the centre of the stage as other members
walked out again and stood around him. Then, it was the
end of the fashion show. The crowd was applauding loudly.

The main objective of the UNISTAR project was to select

brand ambassadors. So modelling and shooting
commercials were the most common jobs for UNISTAR
members.

Once all the members were settled in on the stage, the host
came out to continue the event. Although the fashion show
didn't take so long, an interview with the UNISTAR members
would follow along with fan interactions. The staff
rearranged the stage, and replaced the makeshift runway
with chairs.

"That's everything in the new Maxxwell collection. Does

everyone like it? Let me hear some noise!"

To be honest, even if the host didn't ask, the fans were

already screaming their lungs out. I really needed an
earplug.

"Okay then. If any fans missed the event or wanted to

rewatch it, you can watch it on the UNISTAR official fan
page."

The host then proceeded to the interview segment.

"We now have the chance to talk with our UNISTAR

members! Let's see... Can you introduce the collection for
the fans? Any volunteers?"

P'Leo, the centre of this event, volunteered himself. He held

a mic and talked about the brand and promoted the concept
of the collection. Next, the host asked them some general
questions: Have you been preparing for a long time? How
did you rehearse for the fashion show? How did Leo and Sea
- who study medicine - manage their time to work?
Everyone answered at least a question each, except P'In
who just sat there quietly.

"Oh, but every effort for the fans was worth it right? Before
we conclude this event, we should give a chance to the
UNISTAR members to greet the fans. I heard some of you
have been waiting since morning just to see them today."

The fans were screaming in response.

"Let's start with N'Leo ka."

"Alright," P'Leo said. "Well, I'd like to thank the fans for
supporting me all along. I'm very happy to meet everyone
today. I promise to keep working hard and not to disappoint
you. Love you krub. Miss you."

P'Leo gave an angelic smile and made a mini-heart for the

fans. Everyone happily screamed. Sure enough, P'Leo lived
up to his reputation as the prince of UNISTAR with this way
of talking.

"Next, how about N'Sea? Please greet the fans."

"No problem!" P'Sea held his mic.

"Even though the weather today is hot and sunny, everyone

is still willing to stand under the sun for us. So I'd like to
thank you all for your patience. But please take care of your
health. I'm always worried about you. If you're not feeling
well, you can come to me."

Loud screams erupted as a response right away. P'Sea was a

seemingly cold and calm person. Yet, when he was greeting
the fans, he turned into a sweet and caring person.

"What about N'Wayu? Any sweet jokes for the fan club?"

"There's no 'Fan club'," P'Wayu grinned.

"They're all my 'Faen[3] krub'."

Another homophone joke? I wasn't sure. Anyway, the fans

screamed again.

P'Wayu's simple sentences apparently had a lot of impact.

"Wow! Can I be N'Wayu's 'faen' too?" The host went along
with his joke.

"Of course, that's why I'm named Wayu." He smiled.

"Huh? How?" The host couldn't get his joke. The fans and I
didn't either.

"Because 'faen' created the wind, and 'Wayu' in Thai means

wind. Wind and Wayu are like soulmates, like me and my
fans."

P'Wayu winked at the fans, and the fans cheered the

moment he finished his joke. Did they get it? I wasn't sure.
He made jokes and the fans cheered. Fair enough.

"If your fans are all your girlfriends, isn't that too much?
Several at a time? Very promiscuous." P'Natee suddenly
criticised.

P'Wayu shot him a furious gaze.

"Wow, P'Natee is getting jealous."

"You don't like P'Wayu cheating on you, right?"

Apparently, their fans had their own interpretation.

"Oh, then, as N'Natee is already holding a mic, how about

greeting the fans now?"

"Hmm." P'Natee lowered his voice.

"Thank you for coming. Since you came this time, you must
come next time as well. If you dare to not come and see me,
I'll be angry. Seriously. Honestly."
P'Natee showed his thumb to the fans, as a sign of feeling
neglected. And the fans also screamed. P'Natee's
characteristic was straightforward and very direct. If he was
mad at seeing fans ignore him, he would just say so.
Surprisingly, this charm was the reason his fans couldn't
help but fall for him.

"Who cares? If he gets angry, just come to me." P'Wayu shot

back.

"Oh, P'Wayu is a tsundere."

"P'Wayu is just sulking because of P'Natee."

Their fans definitely had the best imagination.

"We've now come to the last person, N'In. What would you
like to say to the fans?"

As soon as it was P'In's turn, everyone, including me, turned

silent as if the sounds were automatically turned down.
Everyone was paying attention to whatever P'In would say. It
seemed like hearing P'In utter a word was a really rare
occasion.

P'In slowly lifted the mic and reached out to pick a bag that
was hidden behind his chair.

I glanced at it. It was a transparent plastic bag with

hundreds of paper carps inside, obviously, they were all
folded by himself.

Right... including the carp from my signature book's paper.

"I saw on twitter, many of my fans wanted it." P'In spoke in

monotone.
"I kept folding until I had this much."

P'In looked over at the fans who were wearing grey shirts,
he looked like he was trying to estimate the number.

"Should be enough for my fans." P'In then handed the bag

to a stage staff.

The grey-shirt fandom became extremely excited. Nothing

better than getting a hand-made gift from their favourite
idol. Undoubtedly, the other colour fandoms could only look
on with envy.

I looked at P'In, realising that it's not surprising that his fans
loved him so much. Even though P'In didn't often post,
respond, or appear anywhere, he didn't even need to utter
sweet words as fan service. His love for them was shown
through honest caring actions like this and it was more than
enough.

"Wow! That's so sweet. He made a special gift for the fans,

so touching. Since N'In has already informed the staff in
advance, we've already made arrangements for DomKati.
For everyone's convenience, after the event, All N'In fans
can line up beside the stage to collect his gift. The staff on-
site will guide you. Priority will be given to DomKati who are
registered as Unity or wearing DomKati shirts."

P'In's fans were very delighted, and seemed to be ready to

queue up. I estimated the number of his fans would be a lot,
but he had also prepared a lot of paper carps.

I was impressed. How did P'In manage to fold so many

paper carps like that? How long did it take? How many days,
weeks, or months?
Unexpectedly, at the moment I was looking at P'In, he
turned to me, and our eyes met.

P'In saw me? My eyes opened wider. At first, I thought

perhaps P'In was just randomly looking over here, but after
a while, I wasn't so sure anymore.

But P'In and I were quite far from each other. He was on the
stage, under the spotlight, while I was surrounded by the
crowd. How was it possible?

In order to test it, I waved my hand to greet P'In.

I thought P'In would stay still, regardless if he saw me or

not.

Unexpectedly, P'In nodded slightly.

"Oh." I was surprised.

P'In pointed to the side of the stage, where the staff had
arranged for the fans to line up for his paper carps.

However, I couldn't confirm anything more because as soon

as the host finished thanking UNISTAR and sponsors, all
members waved goodbye to their fans and headed inside.

Before P'In went back, he glanced at me, and again, pointed

to the paper carp pick-up zone. Then, he was gone.

I didn't know why. It was only a short unclear

communication, but I could understand him without thinking
too much.

P'In seemed to say that of the many paper carps that he

had folded -

He wanted me to keep one.

 ☽------------☽

Footnote

[1] PD (Producer) in this case refers to a person who is in

charge of the artist's production, planning, management
and marketing.

[2] LMAO (Laughing my ass off)

[3] Faen in Thai means 'boyfriend/girlfriend'. The way it's

pronounced is similar to fan club or fandom in English.
Chapter 8 : The Air And
The Leaves

Invisible Moon

Chapter 8

The Air And The Leaves

"The leaves floating in the air

sometimes reach the sky."

#WINisWIND

I was staring at the little carp on the table for so long.

It was folded delicately using magazine paper. Its

appearance might look plain, but because it was folded by
P'In, the UNISTAR Moon, its value was worth much more than
just recycled paper.

I was impressed by the MW company's management. At first,

when I went to the queue, I thought it would be crowded and
that I would have to wait for so long before it's my turn. I
mean, think about it, how many fans of P'In would be there?
But it turned out that the staff had divided the queue into
ten lines and conducted verifications via member card or QR
code on cell phones in order to prioritise registered fans and
grey-shirt wearers.
Most UNISTAR fans had a card called 'MW Member Card',
which offered discounts and collectable points when they
purchased products or services sold by MW company. When
the UNISTAR project was launched, they also launched a
special card — the MW Unity Fan Club. All we needed to do
was just register with our real name, email address, and
phone number to receive news and updates of UNISTAR. This
card could be used as a normal MW member card, with
additional privilege for all products that UNISTAR members
represented. All payments would earn them Unity points to
redeem various rewards, such as reserving the seats at
UNISTAR events, upgrading fanmeet tickets as well as
redeeming limited edition UNISTAR gifts.

When I got into the queue for P'In's carp, I didn't have that
card yet, so I couldn't get into the priority line, and needed
to wait with other fans. Many fans who weren't P'In's fans
also fought hard to get in the queue. I realised the benefit of
being an invisible person just then, because I could sneak in
the queue, and nobody noticed. Finally, I managed to get
one. Luckily. Although I felt a little guilty, it was P'In...P'In
who told me through his gesture that I should come and get
it. So I assumed P'In wanted to give it to me. Well, that was
how it looked anyway.

The hashtag #CarpFish was trending on Twitter after that

event. Many fans tweeted to show off P'In's paper carp, while
DomKati who missed that event or other fans who couldn't
get one were wailing.

"I'm glad I got you, little carp." I was resting my chin on my

hands while poking at the paper carp, making it rotate.

"Should I name it?" I thought as I recalled P'In's gesture

yesterday. I couldn't stop myself from smiling unconsciously.
"Hey, little carp. What name would you like?" I asked the
carp fish, which just stayed still. No response.

"Oh no, I'm going crazy. Why am I talking to a carp?" I held

my head nervously as soon as I realised it.

I needed to prepare for my lessons as the semester would

commence tomorrow.

I gently placed the carp near the lamp on my bedside table.

Then I went through the textbook on business foundation for
the class tomorrow.

Since I had read the textbook until late at night, I woke up at

8 a.m. The class was going to start at 9 a.m. When I finished
getting ready, I went straight to the lecture room.

I found an empty seat beside some friends. The same group

of friends I was with during our orientation session. I had to
greet them three times before they noticed I was there.

"Oh, it's you. Sorry, what's your name again?" The first one
who greeted me was Boss, a first-year student. He could
easily befriend anyone, including me. Boss was the first
person who greeted me and didn't forget to accept my friend
request on Facebook. I was so glad, even though he forgot
my name, it didn't matter.

"I'm Win, can I sit with you?" I asked.

"Sure. Go ahead" Boss immediately took his bag off the seat

so I could sit here.

"Thank you!" I said.

Then, Boss continued talking with his friends. Boss must be

the most outstanding first-year. He was good-looking and
good at sports. Seniors had already asked him to be an
athlete at the Freshy sports event. No wonder he became the
centre of attention among all freshmen.

"Eh, why are the sophomores joining us?" A friend asked,

pointing to the back of the room. There was a group of
second-year students who I recognised from orientation.

"Yeah. I heard from a third-year senior that Teacher Chana is

the lecturer today and everyone loves his talk." Boss
answered.

"Wow! Is that the teacher who graduated from overseas? I

heard he's also a former marketing consultant for many big
and famous companies."

"Right. He once gave a talk at TED Talks too."

I was listening and slightly nodded at this new information.

I had been an invisible person since I was born. I was

accustomed to being a listener rather than a speaker.
Actually, I wasn't sure that business faculty would be suitable
for me. It seemed like this major required a high standard of
communication skills. However, I intended to change myself,
so I selected this major to challenge my abilities. Perhaps, I
would be able to develop my character, from being non-
existent to becoming existent. I didn't really need to stand
out.

"Hello my dear students. Wow! It seems like we have a full

house today."

When the teacher entered the room. The sophomores who

seemed to be familiar with him were joyfully greeting the
teacher, while all the freshmen stayed quiet.
Mr. Chana was a male, but his clothing and style was trendy
and very fashionable. His way and tone of speaking was a
little straightforward and blunt, with a hint of sarcasm at
times.

"So many second-years today...I know all of you." Mr. Chana

pointed to many sophomores humorously. Then he began the
PowerPoint slide.

This course was called 'Intro to Business', according to the

curriculum, was an overview of general business knowledge,
which included management, finance, marketing, and so on.

"The first thing you need to know," Mr. Chana said, using the
mic attached to the podium.

"About my teaching style is that I don't like using textbooks,

as I believe you can read them by yourselves. I like teaching
through case studies, because you can analyse and widen
your outlook. And today, I've prepared a case study that all
of you probably know so well. Let's go through them now..."

When Mr. Chana showed the first slide, I heard many

students screaming slightly, because it was—

'UNISTAR Case Study'

Well, Mr. Chana was indeed up-to-date. He knew how to get

students' attention.

"Before starting, I'd like to ask. Can anyone tell me what is

UNISTAR?"

"University's Moon." "Handsome guys." "Idol."

There were a lot of sophomores raising their hands, as many

freshmen were still a little nervous.
Mr. Chana nodded, but he said,

"UNISTAR is a brand, and the 'UNISTAR project' is a

branding[1]."

A brand? Oh right, I thought. When people asked about what

UNISTAR does, many people would say that all UNISTAR
members were brand ambassadors[2].

"UNISTAR's target market is teenagers like all of you," Mr.

Chana explained.

"The agency created what teenagers liked in order to

promote their products — the Moon and idols. Thus, UNISTAR
members are brand ambassadors, and all UNISTAR's events
and activities are actually marketing campaigns by MW
company, both direct and indirect."

I listened and nodded while taking down the lecture notes.

"Did you know that you're already enslaved by MW's

marketing strategy? You're attracted to them. You purchased
the products they represent. You would buy what they used
and bought. Plus, when you went to scream your lungs out at
their events, you were helping them to promote indirectly."

After he said that, a sophomore raised her hand to ask.

"Teacher ka, then how can I quit being UNISTAR's slaves?"

This question made many students laugh.

"Then you just need to stop liking UNISTAR." Mr. Chana said
with a smile.

"Can you do that?"

"No, I can't."
Many students replied unanimously.

"It's too late."

"I love P'In!"

"I already tied myself to the fandom."

"P'Wayu is my husband."

The whole lecture room now was filled with laughter. Mr.
Chana was smiling along and continued.

"The UNISTAR project is a unique marketing strategy in

contrast with many common brands. In general, a brand's
marketing team would pick a presenter who is best-fitted for
each product. However, the UNISTAR project was the total
opposite. The newly released products from MW company
are all made for the best-fitted UNISTAR member. Not to
mention, the primary standard of creating new products
depended on both UNISTAR and fans."

The PowerPoint slide was showing a group photo of all

UNISTAR members. Many students quickly took photos of it. I
dare say they didn't do that because they were focused on
learning, they just wanted to show on Facebook or Instagram
like: Today I learned about UNISTAR marketing.

"I talked with Producer Natthakorn once. Do you know him?"

Mr. Chana asked.

"I know!" "PD Kwang!" "Ahh, I'm P'Kwang's FC."

I just realised even the PD of UNISTAR had his own fan club.

"The PD said, typically, the brand has an image limitation,

but UNISTAR is flexible because it applies the system of the
'centre'. So, even if there are many commercial campaigns
with different images, the centre member can be changed."

Then, Mr. Chana displayed P'Sea's photo.

"The prominence of UNISTAR members is that every member

has their own outstanding characteristic. Well, students, we
can try to analyse this together. This young man, what is his
brand image[3]?"

"Beautiful." "Pure." "Innocent." "Gorgeous."

Mr. Chana nodded, then changed to the commercial

advertising associated with P'Sea. Most of them were
cosmetic, skin-care, and also airway related products.

I could easily understand the example. The characteristics of

the ambassador and products must match, so that could be
considered as branding. I loved the way he taught.

"Then, how about him?"

Mr. Chana changed to P'Leo.

"The prince." "Handsome." "Elite." "Gentleman."

The atmosphere in this room was very lively.

Mr. Chana explained that P'Leo was the centre ambassador

for real estate and hotel business related campaigns with his
elite and perfect image. I learned that UNISTAR apparently
selected the member by characteristic. The same goes for
P'Natee who had a straightforward, vigorous, and powerful
personality, so he was the centre ambassador for vehicles
and sportswear campaigns. And P'Wayu, who was humorous
and lively, became the centre ambassador for amusement
parks, restaurants, culinary and foodstuff related campaigns.
"How about him? Our very own senior. What's his
characteristic? Can anyone tell me?"

However, when P'In became the topic. Everyone went silent.

No one answered.

"What's happening? Don't you know your senior?" Mr. Chana

narrowed his eyes.

Some students began to say, with no confidence.

"Numb?" "Emotionless?" "Invisible?"

These answers were unlikely highlights for branding.

"IN or your senior — Intrakorn, is an exclusive one because

he is PR[4]. Do you know what 'PR' means? Well, it's your
homework to figure it out."

"Intrakorn is the positive image of UNISTAR. He is the

optimistic power which we can't see but can feel. He made
the UNISTAR brand look trustworthy and impressive.
Accordingly, IN became the centre ambassador for nonprofit
campaigns, to promote brands with a good image, such as
environmental protection or Thai culture conservation."

What I had learned from this class allowed me to understand

more about the UNISTAR project background.

All in all, the most important criteria to become a UNISTAR

member was characteristic, apart from being handsome,
smart and attractive.

Well then, what was my characteristic? I asked myself.

Fading? I sighed.
After class, I had lunch with my classmates, the same group
with Boss. I was delighted. Even though they almost didn't
notice I was around, they didn't forget to look for me.

I had an English class in the afternoon and in the evening, I

had to join the orientation session again. I heard from Boss
that today's session would be a buddy-code family activity.

Buddy-code family in college was different from common

buddy games. The code number in this buddy-code family
was our student-faculty number, which was assigned to our
names sorted by the Thai alphabet. All seniors, freshmen, as
well as alumni with the same faculty and student number in
each year would be in the same buddy-code family.

So this bond wasn't just temporary, it would keep going on

until we graduated. Everyone within the same buddy-code
family would always help each other and get together at
least once a year — the time of welcoming a new first-year
member. It was sort of like a family-friendship bond.

I was really excited because I didn't have this kind of activity

during my primary or high school. Despite having no friends
in university, at least I would have a buddy-code family,
helping each other during my four-year of study here, and
even after graduation, this family bond would remain for a
long time.

At least, a fading person like me would have a buddy-code

senior taking care of me. Anyway, I wonder who would be my
buddy-code senior? I couldn't wait to find out.

Today, all freshmen were gathered in the building courtyard.

I was surprised because our faculty building was full of
people.
"Hello, freshies! How are you today?" P'Tong spoke through a
megaphone.

"How was your first day of classes? Today, we'll be doing the
activity that everyone is looking forward to — The buddy-
code family activity!"

"Hooray!" All the seniors were excited.

"As you can see, our faculty is especially crowded today

because all your seniors are gonna take you for a buddy-
code family dinner! Isn't that great? The elders - our fourth-
year or alumni seniors will treat you to a free meal."

Some friends who loved activities were clapping hands,

excitedly.

"However, it won't be fun if it's too easy. So, we have a little

fun game prepared for you, freshies."

'Another activity?' I was worried. A fading person like me

would be in trouble.

"We've already placed your codes with your names on the

tables. You can find yours there. Your buddy-code seniors
have already written down your missions, and prepared
some special props or equipment if needed. When you get
your mission, you can do it here, at the building courtyard.
We'll keep an eye on you. Once your seniors are satisfied,
they'll bring you out for dinner."

Oh...it hadn't even started and I was already nervous. If I did

my mission among the crowd, I wondered whether the
seniors would see me.

"Are you ready, freshies?"

"Yes."
"I can't hear you! Louder, please. Otherwise, we'll go back,
and you'll miss your free meal."

"Yes!!!"

When they heard the words 'free meal', everyone cheered

loudly.

Soon after, they allowed us to begin our buddy-code

missions. I walked to the table in the last row. I knew my
student code number should be towards the end because my
first name started with the second-to-last letter in Thai
alphabet.

101 was my code number.

Found it.

'101 Archawin (Win)'

My name was placed on the table.

I tried to find if there was any mission written nearby. I

looked around — on the table, beside the table, and under
the table — but couldn't find any. I did see mission papers on
other tables near me though. Some people even had props
like masks, dresses, or whatever else that was related to
their missions.

I heard loud cheering voices from the building courtyard. My

friends had already started their missions. Some were
dancing, some did a parade walk, some climbed on the wall,
some handed brochures, some even helped seniors to sell
products. There were all kinds of creative missions.

What was mine? I didn't even see a single mission paper.

What should I do?
I hesitated for a while. It might have been a mistake. So I
decided to ask P'Noey, who was taking photos of freshies
dancing around. P'Noey seemed to be the only senior who
noticed my existence, despite forgetting my name.

"P'Noey krub, P'Noey..." I called her three times before she

turned to me.

"Oh! What's up? Nong...What's your name again? Why aren't

you doing your mission?" P'Noey asked.

"Well, I couldn't find my mission paper." I told her.

"Huh?" She looked confused. "What's your code number?"

"101 krub."

"Eh! There's a 101 code number?" P'Noey exclaimed.

I felt my heart dropping to my feet. Wait, was I that beyond

invisible that even the seniors didn't know that my code
number existed?

"Tong." P'Noey asked the head of the orientation committee.

"Is there a 101 code number this year?"

P'Tong was thinking for a moment, then he nodded.

"Yes. Normally, our faculty would only admit one hundred

students per year. However, if there are students who were
admitted with equal lowest scores in some years, then we'd
have more than one hundred for those batches."

"Eh! So then, Nong code 101 won't have any buddy-code

family, right? Because there are only one hundred students
every year."
I felt like my soul was leaving my body, hopeless. It couldn't
be true. My sweet dream of having a happy buddy-code
family was ruined. All ruined. It was bad enough that I was
invisible, even my buddy-code senior didn't exist. No way! I
refused to believe that I was destined to be like a poor pitiful
wind. How tragic.

"Hmm...but our batch was like this batch. We had a 101 code
number."

What P'Tong said gave me some hope. Well, my buddy-code

family might not be a big one with a lot of members from
each batch, but at least I had one buddy-code senior, which
was enough for me. It was better than having no one.

"Eh? Our year? 101 code number? Who? Ahhh!"

P'Noey was suddenly screaming, but she immediately shut

her mouth when P'Tong poked her with his elbow, as if
warning her not to reveal it.

"Nong krub." P'Tong called me.

"Just wait for a second. I'll find a way to give you your buddy-
code mission."

Then, I saw P'Tong typing on his cell phone before he

updated me a short while later.

"Well, your buddy senior was busy this afternoon, so he just

arrived here. You can go and get your mission now."

"Thank you so much." I said, though I was a bit confused.

So the reason I couldn't find mine before was because my

buddy senior was busy working elsewhere? No wonder. And
now that he's here, I would need to go back and find out
what my mission was.
Finally, on the table that only had my code and name before
had a piece of paper containing my mission...the single
instruction written was short, so short, very short, extremely
short.

'Sweep leaves'

Wasn't it too short? I scratched my head. It was the kind of

short that could barely be seen. Other friends' missions were
at least written in complete sentences with subject, verb,
object, or preposition. But for mine...no comment.

Anyway, the good thing was, I noticed a broom and a

dustpan placed next to the table.

"Alright, if I need to sweep, let's just sweep."

I picked up the cleaning equipment and walked to the

building's garden yard. It was quiet here as most people
were gathering in the courtyard. Although it was a little
isolated, I was relieved. Hoping my buddy-code senior would
see me as I was the only person here.

I began sweeping. The grating sound of the broom against

the stone tile was relaxing. I was concentrating for a few
minutes, but later, I was distracted. Sweeping while watching
the birds and the trees.

I loved the garden here, even though it was just a small

garden surrounded by buildings. Nevertheless, because of
those buildings, the garden appeared like a small green oasis
in the middle of a concrete jungle, making me feel at ease
looking at it.

I wiped my sweat as I was sweeping. I didn't time myself, so I

didn't know how long it had taken. However, it felt long
enough for me to feel tired.
"Let's take a break." I told myself. Sitting on a bench near the
tree.

"Not clean yet."

Suddenly, I heard a voice. I was startled. This voice sounded

so familiar.

"P'In?" I widened my eyes when I saw P'In leaning his back

against the tree. He was looking at me, emotionless, like
always.

Today was the first day of the semester. It was the first time
I've seen P'In wearing the university uniform, a combination
of a long-sleeve white shirt and a pair of black trousers. I felt
like this XU uniform looked really good on P'In. Especially
with a tiny golden UNISTAR pin on his shirt, a symbol that
could only be worn by UNISTAR members. I had seen a group
photo of UNISTAR members wearing their university
uniforms, and it was stunning. The significance of the
UNISTAR pin was probably like the gear of the engineering
faculty[5].

"Oh..." I stood up immediately and continued sweeping.

I glanced at P'In while sweeping. He was still looking at me

calmly, but I felt a little pressured.

Did P'In feel troubled seeing the ground uncleaned? I

thought. Probably because it might ruin his scenery for
taking photos.

I didn't understand it, but I still kept sweeping until it was

clean. Once I finished sweeping, I took the fallen leaves to
the trash bin.

I was done, but P'In was still here.

"Okay." He nodded. "Wash hands."

"Huh?" I blinked in confusion.

Did my dirty hands also trouble him? I really couldn't

understand him. Anyway, since I've already intended to wash
my hands, I headed over to the sink near the canteen.

While I was washing my hands, I was surprised to find that

P'In had followed me here.

"P'In? So...do you need to talk to me?" I was nervous

because he was following me as if I did something wrong.

I didn't do anything to P'In right? Perhaps he wanted me to

help him with something. I didn't understand either. P'In was
such an unpredictable person.

"Let's go." P'In said shortly.

"Huh? Where to?" I was confused.

"What do you want to eat?" P'In asked with a monotone

voice.

I blinked my eyes, again and again. Why did he ask that?

"P'In...are you hungry?" I asked back, almost whispering.

"Treat you." He replied.

"Huh? Why would you want to treat me?" I was stunned.

Why was the famous UNISTAR Moon offering to treat me to a

meal? Why the fading, invisible me?

"Buddy-code treat." P'In said.

I tried to process his answer in my head.

'Treat...buddy-code — and today is the buddy-code family

activity.'

And I just finished my assigned mission of sweeping-leaves.

P'Tong had said earlier that when our buddy-code senior was
satisfied with our mission, they would bring us for a treat.

Once I've sorted all my thoughts, everything made sense.

Then, I widened my eyes.

"Oh my God!" I was shocked.

"P'In! you're my buddy-code senior?!"

"What do you want to eat?" He didn't answer my question.

Well, I wasn't in the state to answer his question either. I was

too excited to think about the meal.

"Really? P'In?! Your student code is 101 too?"

"Yes." He finally replied.

Oh, right! P'Tong also said that this year, only the first-year
and third-year batches had 101 students. Plus, P'In's first
name initials — Intrakorn — in Thai, was the same as mine.

"Shall we go now?" P'In asked, seeing as I was still standing

there.

"Alright!" I smiled happily.

Wow! I couldn't believe it. I had never been this happy in my

whole life. Well, I guess sometimes bad luck would bring
about good luck.

I finally realised that the blue sky after a rainstorm was

indeed beautiful.

My buddy-code senior was a UNISTAR! It felt like a dream!

☽------------☽

Footnote:

[1] Branding is the method of creating a brand and image

of a product or company for specific target audiences, which
is unique and distinctive compared to other products or
companies.

[2] Brand Ambassador is a person who represents the

brand in a positive light. This person usually possesses an
appearance, characteristic, ability, preference or others
which is related to the brand and its branding.

[3] Brand Image is how the brand communicates its look

and feel to its target audiences.

[4] PR (Public Relation) is a method of communication

that establishes the relationship between an organisation
and the public, to create a positive image, credibility, or
reduce conflict.

[5] The gear of the engineering faculty is the symbolic

badge of the engineering faculty in many Thai universities. It
usually takes the shape of a mechanical gear. People would
recognise students who wore the engineering gear as
students from the Faculty of Engineering.
Note from translator :

Thank you for follow my story. I'm so happy to hear everyone

comments. Welcome to DomKati, P'In fandom~ ^_^

Thank you cloverade_ for such a pretty fan art of P'In too~ I
love it so much. P'In was folding carp fish by tearing paper
from Win's signature collection book. lol
Chapter 9 : Close to the
Moon
Invisible Moon

Chapter 9

Close to the Moon

"The moon looked so bright tonight,

if I got closer, would it be warmer?"

#WINisWIND

A rock couldn't fly upon the sky, unlike the moon that could
rise from the horizon. Similar to the wish of being by the
moon's side would just be an unimaginable dream.

Nevertheless, right now, the invisible air like me was walking

by the famous Moon's side - the UNISTAR Moon. I almost
couldn't believe it. I could only wish it wasn't a dream. If I
were to wake up, I would be disappointed.

No, that was just my imagination, but this was real.

I glanced at P'In, eagerly. He was walking beside me. I tried

to take my attention away but failed. I couldn't take my eyes
off P'In. And I just realised, I thoughtlessly looked at P'In too
often. However, P'In didn't say a word, didn't even turn to
me. He was only looking forward.
I was amazed, seriously, because of our true invisibility. We
were both walking along and passed through many people,
but no one noticed us, not even a single one.

As if...there were only the two of us in this whole world, just

the two of us.

Wait...What was I thinking? I cleared out my silly thoughts.

"Where to eat?" P'In asked when we were outside the

university.

"Um..." Actually, I was too excited to think about food.

"How about the place where you usually go?" I suggested. I

was also curious about the kind of food that P'In liked to eat.

P'In stayed still, then asked me back.

"Really want to go there?"

"Yes." I nodded.

Having the UNISTAR Moon treat me to a meal was indeed

good enough. Whatever he chose, would certainly be
perfect.

"It isn't expensive." P'In said in his monotone voice.

"I don't mind, I'm fine with anything." I didn't have an

expensive taste. I mean, high-priced food wasn't always
tasty to me.

"No air-conditioning." P'In continued.

"I'm okay with hot weather." I was too ecstatic to worry

about the heat.
"Alright." P'In then led the way.

He didn't drive, nor called a taxi, nor did we take the bus. We
were only walking.

"Is the restaurant nearby?" I asked curiously.

"Uh-huh." P'In made a sound in response.

We were walking together towards the temple where P'In

always gave alms. I noticed that there was a row of old
shophouses nearby. The restaurant was a traditional local
Thai style, still using a charcoal stove. The owner was an old
grandpa, and most of the customers were elderly. Seemingly,
this restaurant had been around for many decades.

"Oh, Little IN! You came today. Take a seat." The grandpa
greeted P'In warmly. Later, he turned to me and narrowed his
eyes.

"I haven't seen you accompanied by anyone before. Are you

dating?"

I almost stumbled my feet at what he said.

"Buddy-code brother." P'In corrected him.

"I'm kidding. I've never seen you bring any friend, any
senior, or any brother before. He's the first one. Really. So I
just asked."

Was it true? I was the only one who had ever come to this
place with P'In? I looked at P'In, surprised. However, his face
was still emotionless, no response as always.

The grandpa arranged a table for us. We sat and looked at

the menu board on the wall. The food available here were
mostly common Thai a la carte dishes with various options. I
had no idea which one was nice. So I asked P'In.

"P'In krub, which dish is recommended here?"

P'In was thinking for a while.

"Claypot stir-fried suki[1]."

"Alright." I nodded.

I also saw many customers ordering this dish.

"Okay, I'll order that one."

"Meat?" P'In asked.

"Huh? Meat?" I was confused for a second.

He was asking what kind of meat I would like to order, right?

"I'd like...seafood...krub. Thank you, P'In."

P'In nodded, stood up, and walked to the grandpa.

"Claypot suki - seafood and no meat."

"No problem, Little IN. Finally, you changed your order. You
always ordered the coconut milk dishes."

P'In didn't answer. He just moved to the wood counter,

picked up two metal cups, poured the water in, and came
back to our table.

He took a cup of water for me.

"Thank you so much." I felt grateful. P'In was such a nice

person.
P'In only nodded at me.

Our table was too quiet while waiting for the food. P'In was
watching as the grandpa was cooking, in the meantime, he
was folding tissues into a carp fish. I was amazed that P'In
didn't even look at it, but the carp was folded beautifully.

"Do you like folding the carp fish?" I asked.

P'In shifted his eyes to me, later, back to the fish.

He looked dazed. Perhaps, he didn't even realise it either.

"Sometimes....I miss." He said while looking at the carp. His

eyes reflected a slight sadness.

This was the first time that I had seen P'In with a different
expression, other than emotionless. I fell silent. At first, I had
thought P'In just liked folding carp fish. After seeing his
expression now, I was aware that carp fish might be
meaningful to him in some way — a very significant
meaning.

I should change the topic.

"Uh...P'In krub. Is there any other senior in our 101 buddy-

code family?"

"No." P'In placed the folded carp on the table. I was staring
at it. If P'In didn't take it, should I snatch it and keep it in my
bag? It was the carp fish from a UNISTAR Moon!

I already had one, but still wanted more.

Wait...What did he just answer?

"No way! Our buddy-code family only has you and me?" I
was shocked.
"Yes." He nodded, calmly.

"Oh no...Were you alright back then? It's like...you didn't

have any buddy-code senior at all."

I had thought that I would be so unlucky if I didn't have any

buddy-code senior. However, P'In had it worse. He didn't
even have a single one.

"I was alright." P'In replied flatly.

I couldn't even imagine how he felt — whether it was really

alright for him or he had no choice.

"P'In...can I...have this, please?" My voice trembled as I

pointed to the tissue carp.

P'In followed my direction, then looked up at me.

"That time, didn't take it?

"Huh?" I was muddled. Later, I realised he was asking about

that UNISTAR event where P'In had given paper carps to his
fans.

"Oh, I took it, but...I want more." I scratched my head and

felt a bit bashful.

"Okay." P'In nodded slightly. His hand laid the carp on the
table in front of me.

"Thank you krub, P'In." I was so happy as I hurriedly kept it in

my bag.

"P'In...at that time, did you see me from the stage?"

Since I had the chance to talk, I couldn't stop my chatty

mouth. I barely had someone to talk to. I was probably
repressed because I've never socialised in my whole life.

"Yes." P'In nodded.

"Oh, but there were a lot of people. How could you see me?"
I couldn't help but ask, reassuring that I didn't presume it.

Because I was extremely fading, and couldn't believe that

P'In could see me.

"Then how could you?" P'In asked back.

"Huh?" I was stunned for a second.

P'In was probably asking how I could see the Invisible Moon
like him.

"Well, I don't know. I just saw. I couldn't explain it." I told him
the truth.

"'Me neither." P'In said while sipping water.

"Uh..." I blinked.

His way of speaking was too short, always making listeners

confused. I had to think hard before I could get what he
meant.

My question about how P'In could see me, even when I was
so fading — he didn't know either — this was his answer.

"And why did you point for me to take the paper carp?" I
continued.

"You came." He said.

"What?" I was confused, again.

"Are you a fan?" He asked.

"Oh..." I was startled. His question was so direct.

Was I one of the UNISTAR fans?

Well, was I? Recently I had searched about UNISTAR so often.

However, it was a little embarrassing to admit that I was a
fan too. Since most of the UNISTAR fans were female,
besides the pretty-faced P'Sea who had some male fans.

"Which dom?" P'In asked again.

I widened my eyes.

Dom?! Fandom?! P'In wanted to know who my bias was?

Then...who? What should I reply?

"Well...that time, I just coincidentally went there..."

I didn't know how to answer either. It was the truth. At first, I

didn't intend to go anyway. But after hearing everyone
talking about it, I decided to join it, that's it.

P'In was listening and glancing at me, he seemed to have

something in his mind.

"Your order is ready."

The grandpa served the claypot suki, interrupting our

conversation.

Now my attention turned to the food in front of me. It was

indeed appetising with the charcoal smell, giving it a very
Thai local scent.
P'In handed the spoon and fork, and also moved the sauce
jar towards me.

"Thank you krub." I said.

After that, we both ate together. I was eating while watching

P'In as well.

It was surreal that the person sitting opposite me was the

popular P'In — the extremely famous UNISTAR member.

From far away, he was handsome, from a close distance, he

was even more handsome. He must have been an angel of
heaven in his previous life, so that he was born with such a
perfectly gorgeous appearance.

"Getting cold." P'In suddenly spoke. Still focusing on his

meal.

"Huh? Yes?"

He shifted his eyes, beckoned towards the claypot in front of

me.

"Alright, I'll eat now." I was embarrassed. I was thoughtlessly

looking at P'In for too long again. Shame on me.

I immediately started to eat.

And with only one bite, my eyes widened.

Wow! So amazing! The taste was pleasantly mellow and

palatable. It was well-cooked as the vermicelli, vegetable
and meat had all absorbed the suki sauce and charcoal
flavour. This stir-fried suki was the most delicious suki that I
had ever eaten.
"This is so yummy, P'In." I told him joyfully. He also nodded
slightly.

While eating, I saw a group of high-school girls hanging out

around here. They were watching the grandpa as he cooked
suki in the clay pot. The girls were discussing whether they
would eat here or not. They had never tried, but it smelled
good and looked delicious.

Everything was alright until —

"Little In!" The grandpa suddenly shouted.

"Today I made the jujube juice for you, don't forget to take it
back home."

The grandpa's voice was loud enough to get those girls'

attention.

"Eh? P'In?" The girls seemed confused until one of them

pointed towards us and screamed.

"Ahhh that's P'In!"

"Ahhh P'In — UNISTAR!"

So screwed...I swallowed hard. At this time, no matter how

good our invisibility was, we wouldn't be able to avoid them.

I suddenly felt someone grabbing my arm. I was being pulled

and I noticed that we were running out from the diner.

"Ahhh P'In! Wait for me~" The girls' voices were growing
faint as we got further and further away.

Everything had happened so quickly before I could even

process the situation.
I widened my eyes as I finally realised that P'In had grabbed
my arm, leading me to run away from the chasing fangirls.

I eventually understood how P'In could teleport so perfectly.

It's no wonder because he was literally fast. He could find the
right spot to hide and ran in just a few seconds. We could
barely hear the screaming fangirls anymore.

Because P'In was running so fast, I felt very exhausted.

Anyhow, it was the first time that I could feel his touch.

So I wasn't sure if I was really tired or my heart was just

beating too fast.

His hand was warm. I thought. P'In grasped my arm hastily,

but not forcefully. He was gentle with me.

I couldn't help smiling while running.

Afterwards, I found myself at the riverfront behind the

market. As soon as P'In let go of my arm, I was panting, bent
over and rested my hands on my knees. While P'In still swept
his eyes over to reassure that no one was following us.

"Sorry." P'In said.

I waved my hand, implying that I was fine.

"Please don't worry about it, I totally understand."

It wasn't his fault at all. Well, it was the celebrity way of

living. He would always be in the centre of attention
whenever or wherever he went.

"But...we haven't paid for the meal." I was worried. As we ran

out in the middle of eating.

"Paid on table." P'In said flatly.

"Huh?" I was blinking.

Wait...What?!

P'In had time to put his money on the table even when he
was in a rush?

But if the meal was already paid, then all should be fine.

"But...too bad. I haven't finished my suki yet." I mumbled.

That claypot suki was indeed tasty. Unfortunately, it was

such a waste.

"Here you go."

P'In handed the claypot to me.

"Huh? What?!" I was shocked.

I just noticed, he was holding the claypot's handle all along!

What did he just do?!

Not only 'paid on table' but also — 'here you go' — the tasty
suki which I hadn't finished eating. Only in a few seconds of
escaping, he even took the claypot and ran all the way.

Plus, with a fork and spoon, and no spill.

It was beyond incredible. How did he manage that?

"But...could only take one. Go ahead." P'In still gave me that

claypot suki.

He took mine but didn't bring his.

"Uhh...what about grandpa's claypot..." I was a bit

concerned.
"Return it later." He said.

"Okay, thank you krub. What's about yours? Would you mind
eating together?"

I invited him. Still a little hesitant, I wasn't sure if P'In would

mind eating with me.

"No, my treat." He said.

"Huh? Treat?"

"Yes. It's a treat." He nodded.

It took me a while to understand.

I was speechless with gratitude. P'In said he treated me to a

meal so I should eat it all up.

After that, P'In and I sat on the bench beside the river
nearby.

The claypot was just perfectly warm, not too hot. So I placed
it on my lap.

I was eating. And P'In was sitting beside me and watching

the riverboat passing by.

"Next time, I will go to another place." P'In told me.

"Oh. Really? But if it's not convenient for you, that's all
right!" I would love to go though, but I knew he was very
busy.

"Redo, compensate today."

Now I understand. He said that because of his fans today,

this treat didn't go so well.
"Okay krub, P'In" I agreed.

I wasn't actually worried about that. I was already happy

enough to eat with P'In. But I would love to go eat with him
again. It would be so nice. So I didn't refuse.

And now I wanted to talk to him again.

"P'In, can I have your phone number, please?" I asked.

P'In stayed calm for a moment.

I observed his reaction. Then I just realised. As a rule,

UNISTAR members were forbidden to share their private
phone number with anyone. So I hurriedly continued.

"I'm sorry, I forgot. Not exchanging numbers is okay. Still. Is

it alright to have your Facebook or anything for contact? Just
in case I need to ask you anything about my studies."

Boss had said that our buddy-code seniors would lend us

some textbooks, or some lecture notes so that freshmen
didn't have to buy a new one and even save their time for
taking notes in the class.

"Can I ask first?" He said.

"Huh? Ask me?" I had no idea what he would ask.

P'In took his cell phone from his pocket — MW Skyline, the
latest model. He dialled a number.

I was puzzled until the call was answered and P'In spoke
through the phone.

"Yes. I have a buddy-code brother." He said, emotionless.

I just watched as he continued the call with a confused
expression on my face.

"Archawin Deshsakul."

I flinched as I heard my full name. Did P'In know my name?

Really? How? I was a bit excited.

"Yes, a first-year."

P'In just spoke for a minute and hung up. Then he turned to
me.

"What's your number?" He asked.

"Huh?" I was flustered.

It would be weird if I wasn't flustered. Really. The famous

UNISTAR Moon just asked me for my cell number! This
feeling was...

"Do you want my phone number?" I pointed at myself,

hesitantly.

"Yes." He confirmed. "Forgot mine."

"Huh?" I needed to process his answer in my head in order to

understand it.

Ah! He forgot his phone number, right? So he asked for my

number so he could call from his phone, then he would see
his own number on my cell phone.

"Alright, my phone number is 089-xxx-xxxx."

He pressed my number and dialled. My cell phone was

ringing later on, so I showed it to him.
He just nodded.

"Save."

"Huh?" I was confused, again.

"Oh you mean I could save your phone number, right?"

"Yes. If there's anything, just call."

He meant if I had anything, I could just call him? I was a bit

surprised.

Wait...Did he just give me his private phone number?

But I heard that his agency was very strict about this.

"Does the agency allow you to share your private number?"

"Already asked." He said.

"Oh..." I gasped for a while, then it clicked.

So...The reason he called a moment ago was actually him

asking his manager's permission to share his phone number.

I almost couldn't believe it. I was so delighted, I could cry. I

didn't know how to express my feelings right now.

Ever since I was born, I had been forgotten, I had never

gotten any attention. My existence was unnoticed.

Despite that, P'In was the first person who didn't forget me,
and also cared about me. Even the seniors in his year still
didn't have his number. So I must be special — even if it's
just as a buddy-code family.

Right now, I would like to shout to the whole world.

P'In was the best buddy-code senior ever!

"By the way, you remember my name, right?" I was curious.

"Yes." He nodded.

"Oh, since when?"

I asked, just wondering. Since P'In had always noticed me, he

might have known that I was in his buddy-code family from
the start.

And as my impression of P'In was growing...

"Just remembered...today."

His reply almost made me choke on my suki.

Very well...what I just shouted in my head — P'In was the

best buddy-code senior ever —

Could I take that back?

☽------------☽

Footnote

[1] Thai suki is a communal dish for Thai people. Cooking

the meat, seafood, noodles, and vegetables together in a pot
or pan and eating with a spicy sauce. Thai suki can be both
stir-fried or hot pot.

Here, some picture. This is common Thai suki (dried and

soup), you can try some when you come to Thailand~ ^^
it's very nice and low calories too~
 (credit image : https://www.knorr.com)

but the Thai suki in claypot mentioned in this chapter is quite

a signature dish. Typically looks like this.
 (Credit image : https://www.khaosod.co.th)

Hope you enjoy the meal--- I mean the chapter ><

Thank you for following P'In and N'Win~ //HUG~

Chapter 10 : The
Condensed Air

Invisible Moon

Chapter 10

The Condensed Air

"Even the air could be condensed and become droplets,

What if my invisibility could also turn visible?"

#WINisWIND

Being an invisible person my whole life, I used to imagine

what it would be like if I were a popular person. However,
this dream was almost unimaginable for me. Until today, I
could only wish to have someone who cared for me,
someone who didn't treat me as an invisible thing. If this
wish came true, it would be more than enough for me.

"Walk you back."

P'In's short sentence — 'walk you back', was already beyond

my expectations.

P'In was the first person who didn't treat me like air. Despite
the fact that it was just part of his role as a buddy-code
senior, I was still satisfied.
I was walking with him back to the dorm. After he returned
the claypot to the grandpa, the grandpa gave him a bottle
of jujube juice, the very one he was holding right now.

We were just walking, not talking, but I felt happy. Perhaps,

the sentiment of being someone's acquaintance, the
knowledge that someone knew I was here, even without any
conversations, was such a warm feeling.

As we were walking side by side, I could smell the unique

scent of P'In's fragrance. It wasn't a costly luxury perfume, it
was a natural scent — like coconut scent. Probably because
he loved to eat and cook Thai food with coconut milk.

Besides, I noticed that P'In always looked at the natural

things around him. He loved looking at the trees, grass,
flying birds, as well as the floating clouds in the sky.

I unconsciously loved looking at P'In. I wish the distance to

the dorm would be further. And wish the time with P'In
would be longer. It would be blissful to walk with him a little
more.

"This dorm?" He asked.

When we arrived, I realised the magic of the fairy — the

pleasant time with P'In — was already over. I turned back to
the air as always.

"P'In krub, where do you live?"

My words slipped out, and I covered my mouth immediately.

Was I too offensive? Because P'In was a UNISTAR and my

question sounded like I was a stalker fan.

"There." P'In, however, just pointed to the adjacent dorm.

Not far. Apparently. I heard this dorm was for senior year
students. This university arranged the dorms by students'
genders; male and female, and students' year of study;
freshmen and seniors. As sometimes the freshmen dorm
would arrange study activities or freshy meetings, which
might bother other year students.

I nearly asked for his room number, but stopped myself just
in time. So I only said...

"Thank you krub, P'In. Goodbye." I raised my hands to greet

him.

He raised his hands to receive my respect and waved to say

goodbye. He then went back to his dorm.

I pretended to go inside, but I was peeking at him until he

disappeared into the building. Once I couldn't see him
anymore, I stopped looking and went inside.

The moment I wasn't invisible was indeed such a pleasure.

I intended to wake up early this morning to see P'In.

Unfortunately, I was too late. P'In and his fans had already
left. Still, I was able to give alms to the monk.

I thought P'In might go to see the homeless old man, but

that old man wasn't there. I had no idea where he had gone.
So, I went to the riverfront, hoping that P'In might go feed
the dog. When I arrived, however, the dogs were eating, but
there was no sign of P'In. He wasn't here to feed the fish
either.

Perhaps, I was too late today. Next time, I must wake up

earlier.
"Oh..." I was startled, feeling something bumping my leg. It
was the blind white dog.

"It's you, White." I hesitated a bit, then patted its head

softly. The dog sniffed me for a while and wagged its tail.

"So cute." I smiled thoughtlessly, patting the dog lovingly.

I suddenly came up with an idea. I took a photo of the white

and other dogs and posted it on my Twitter. I usually
tweeted randomly, and had no followers.

The wind is the air @archawin_d

These dogs didn't have an owner, but they do look happy,

not starving. #InvisibleMoon #UNISTAR

I attached the photo that I took of the dogs eating happily,

and included the temple's donation box for dog food.

After that, I went to the riverfront. The same grandma was

still selling the fish food, but the bread was sold out, only
the pellets remained. So I bought two packs of pellets and
fed the fish. I assumed P'In had already fed a lot, the fish
shouldn't be so hungry, but they still scrambled to eat. So
greedy.

When I finished feeding them, I rushed to the lecture room

as my class would start at 8.00 a.m. Today's class was
mathematics for business. The professor suggested many
textbooks that were required for the course. Some of them
could be borrowed from the seniors. I heard my friends say
that we could ask our buddy-code seniors. So I was thinking
whether I should ask P'In.

During lunch break, I decided to call P'In, but he didn't

answer. Hesitantly, I sent a message instead.
'P'In krub. Do you have any textbooks for the mathematics
for business course? If you have and won't use them
anymore, could you please lend them to me? Thank you so
much — Win'

"Did you know? UNISTAR is going to launch a new

campaign." Parn, one of Boss's friends said. She was a big
fan of UNISTAR. Her bias was P'Leo.

"Oh right! I saw that the MW group is opening a new

franchise restaurant — Thai hot pot."

"Really? And who will be the centre?" Boss asked. Although

he was a male, he seemed to be quite interested in the
UNISTAR project. His most favourite member was P'In.

"This time PD Kwang selected P'Wayu. I think it suits him."

"Wow! P'Wayu~ I'm looking forward to it."

"But it's a restaurant campaign, how can they present it?

The fashion show wouldn't work right?"

"I heard they're going to shoot a music video. They even

have dance practises."

"Oh, really? So P'In and all UNISTAR members will be busy."

"The UNISTAR members have been busy all the time. They
have a ton of events and projects."

I nodded in agreement. No wonder P'In didn't answer my

call. He must have been very busy every day. This was the
idol's life.

Unexpectedly, my cell phone was beeping — I received a

new message. The sender's name made me way too
excited.

P'In : In your locker.

It was only a short text but it made me extremely happy.

He had already put it in my locker? I rushed out to check.

My friends weren't done eating, yet, with my fading
characteristic, no one noticed that I was away.

I opened my locker and found three textbooks placed inside.

I took them enthusiastically. On the cover, I could see his
name written neatly - 'Intrakorn Dechapraphas'. P'In
highlighted some texts, scribbled a few notes that were
short, very short, short as his style — incomprehensible.

I was looking around, but P'In wasn't here anymore.

'Got them. Thank you krub, P'In — Win'

So I could only send him a thank you message. And he

didn't reply.

At noon, some freshmen made good use of their time by

collecting seniors' signatures. Especially Boss. He had asked
almost every senior that he met. Because Boss was an
attractive guy, he was also very popular with seniors,
particularly female seniors. Whoever he asked from, he
would get it. Boss's signature book must have the fastest
progress among freshmen right now.

In comparison to me. Wherever I went, no one ever saw me.

Whoever I called, no one ever heard me.

We had the orientation session in the evening as usual. And

I joined it.
P'Cheer taught our faculty's cheering song. Later, they
made us run around the campus while singing this cheering
song. At the end of the session, they allowed us to collect
the seniors' signatures.

I scanned around in case I could find any senior who was

away from the crowd. So I would try asking them, by chance
my fading could probably become ineffective. At least
temporarily.

When I found P'Tong drinking water alone, I rushed to him.

"P'Tong krub, may I have your signature please?" I went, and

shouted, as loud as I could.

P'Tong then turned to me.

"Oh! It's you! Nong..." He seemed to recognise me but

forgot my name.

"How was the buddy-code treat yesterday?" P'Tong asked. I

guessed that he at least remembered my buddy-code issue.

"It was great. Really great." I answer shyly. And he nodded.

"IN is an idol. He may be busy sometimes. If you need any

help, feel free to ask me."

Then, P'Tong signed my book without requesting me to do

anything in exchange. Perhaps, he felt pity for me about the
buddy-code thing.

"Let's see. How much you've got so far." P'Tong was

checking my book.

I froze. Today wasn't the deadline. For real? He was going to

count mine now?
It was such a shame! I only had two signatures for now.

"Wait! IN's signature?" P'Tong was astonished when he saw

the first page.

"How did you get that?!"

His question made me blink my eyes repeatedly.

"Well, P'In just signed..."

"Really? Oh! because you are his buddy-code family, right?

Still. That's incredible."

His excitement attracted other third-year seniors' attention.

"What's up? Tong?"

"This freshman got IN to sign."

P'Tong was showing my signature book to his friends. They

all seemed to be surprised. Some female seniors even
began screaming.

"Ahhh IN's signature! I've just seen the actual one!"

"Goodness! I've only seen it from photos."

"Whose book? How come?"

"My gosh! I did an assignment with him so many times.

Unfortunately, he was already gone whenever I was about
to ask."

The fading me now began to feel awkward from all the

attention. Or more precisely, P'In's signature was in the
centre of attention. Nobody cared about me anyway.
"Nong ka, will you sell it? Can I buy your signature book?" A
female third-year asked.

"Nong, do you want to complete all the signatures? I can

help you, just exchange for IN's signature. Hehe."

"Wait, wait. Is that you? Are you IN's buddy-code family?

Ahhh! Can you help me get him to sign?"

And now, I was surrounded by a crowd — the centre of

attention. While my brain was totally blank as everyone kept
throwing requests at me, and I could barely follow. It was
the first time that I experienced this sort of feeling. Before
this, I only had to put in all my effort to get someone's
attention, but now, everyone was putting all their efforts
into getting my attention. I wasn't even able to interrupt
them at all.

"Hey! All of you! Please stop! Return the book to him."

P'Tong managed to get my signature book back. Many
seniors were still keeping an eye on it, longingly.

"Tong~ Is IN coming today? Can I ask Nong to get his

autograph?" P'Noey was blinking at me and P'Tong, again
and again.

"IN has UNISTAR duties at the agency." P'Tong said.

Many seniors looked a little sad. However, some were still

trying to talk to me. Not letting go easily.

"You don't have my signature yet, right? I can sign for you.
Please let me look at IN's signature for a few more
moments."

"Let me sign too! I'd like to take a clear photo of IN's

signature, please."
I was standing there, dazed. Hard to explain. When thinking
of the fact that I used to be unnoticed whenever I was
running around to ask for a signature. But now, in contrast,
they all ran towards me, scrambling to sign for me.

It was unbelievable that today I managed to collect most of

the third-years' signatures. Everyone wanted to sign for me,
of course it's because they just wanted to see P'In's
signature.

I needed to thank P'In.

He had made the air condense into existence.

I was no longer invisible. Temporarily.

☽------------☽
Chapter 11 : A Rose From
The Moon

Invisible Moon

Chapter 11

A Rose From The Moon

"A chance to see a shooting star

is as rare as a chance of getting a rose from the moon."

#WINisWIND

The feeling of condensing from air to vapour, to be existent.

I hadn't quite gotten used to it yet.

"Ahhh! Are you in P'In's buddy-code family?"

"Where did P'In take you to eat?"

"Can my buddy-code family join yours?"

"I envy you. Can you help me ask for his signature?"

"How do you contact P'In?"

After today's activity ended, even though I was able to

escape the third-year seniors' attention, I was still caught in
the middle of a bunch of first-years. Everyone kept babbling
and I could barely follow.
"Hey, hey. Please calm down everyone. Win, are you okay?"
Boss interjected, saving me.

Thank God! I was so relieved that he did.

"How is it like to be close with P'In? I'm so envious!" Parn

asked me.

"P'In...smells nice." I wasn't sure what I was saying.

"Ahhhh!"

My answer caused an eruption of screams from all the girls

around me.

"Wait...How could you smell him? Or does he just always

smell nice?"

"My friend went to Hi-Touch[1] event and met P'In. She said
P'In really smelled nice too."

"OMG! I want to sniff him now."

"I'll sniff his whole body, from head to toe."

"Idiot. Such a pervert."

Still, I was surrounded by many friends desiring to see P'In's

signature. Many had asked what P'In treated me to as a
buddy-code family. I told them we had eaten suki. They
thought it was a shabu hot pot at the shopping mall and
kept muttering away. Therefore, I didn't have the chance to
correct them and say that it was just a simple local Thai
suki.

Besides, many were begging me to get P'In's signature for

them. I wanted and didn't want to help them at the same
time. As I didn't know when I would be able to meet P'In
again, I was afraid this would bother him.

Boss could probably read my thoughts, so he asked our

friends to calm down. Boss also said we should collect the
seniors' signatures by ourselves. They eventually
understood and didn't request it from me anymore. Still,
some secretly asked for my help get P'In's signature on their
photo-books or wanted a handmade carp fish from P'In.

"Are you alright? You must be tired." Boss comforted me.

Afterwards, the freshmen who surrounded me dispersed.

Boss persuaded me and his friends to go to a steakhouse
nearby, which wasn't too expensive. So now, I was eating
with Boss and his friends, without being invisible for the first
time.

Anyhow, besides Parn, Boss's friends weren't into the

UNISTAR thing that much. So I could free myself from the
UNISTAR topic. We literally started to get to know each
other. Most questions were like: What's your name? Which
high-school did you graduate from? Where do you stay now?
And I found that many of them were in the same dorm as
me.

"Oh right! Tomorrow is Rose Day." Parn said, excitedly.

"Rose Day? Wait. Like Lily Day?" A male friend asked.

"What is Rose Day?" Some friends weren't aware of it.

"It's our XU university's special event." Parn explained.

"Rose Day usually takes place in the first semester and Lily
Day will take place in the second semester. On Rose Day, all
the Moon candidates from every year and every faculty are
going to have a rose with their name tags on it. They'll walk
around the campus and when the Moons meet someone
who they deem as most beautiful, they will give the rose to
that person."

"That's right. And on Lily Day too." Boss added. "Just

that...in contrast, the Star candidates are going to give a lily
to the one they deem as most handsome."

"Wow! That's awesome. I wanna get a rose from the Moon

too." Parn made a dreamy expression.

"Wake up! You're daydreaming."

I was curious about what they were talking about.

Rose Day...the Moon would give a rose?

P'In was the university Moon and the business faculty Moon.

So who did he give the rose to last year?

"Uh...then who received the rose from P'In last year?" Boss
asked the question that was just on my mind.

"Hehehe." Parn, for some reason, was giggling loudly.

"Hey. Why are you laughing so hard?"

"Sorry, I just recalled it. It's super funny."

"What's so funny? Who did P'In give the rose to?" Boss
asked again. He was just as curious as everyone else was.

"The one who received the rose from P'In is the most noble
woman in our business faculty."

"Huh? Noble? Senior? Faculty Star?"

"God. No." Parn said then took out her phone.

"Friends, you should watch it by yourselves."

Parn was showing a video on YouTube. In the video, P'In was

wearing his XU university uniform with a tiny UNISTAR logo
pin. His hand was holding a fresh rose that had a small
name tag hanging on it. The tag was too small, but I could
guess it had 'IN, Business Moon, 2nd year' written on it.

The video was filled with a deafening sound of screaming

the moment P'In appeared. His fans must have been
waiting, hoping to get the rose from him. Or maybe they just
wanted to see him. It seemed like that was one of the rarest
days where the agency had assigned a number of
bodyguards around him, so the fans weren't able to get
close to him easily. P'In was heading somewhere,
emotionlessly, and that place was my faculty building.

P'In stopped in front of the building. Then, placed a rose on

the statue plinth, and raised his hands to pay respect.

"Thank you, Lady Maria. You gave me a place to study."

He only said that and walked away.

As soon as the video showed the full figure of the statue —

we were all laughing out loud.

That was Lady Maria Vongz, the founder of the business

faculty.

P'In should have given the rose to a woman he thought was

the most beautiful.

Well, Lady Maria Vongz was beautiful, obviously. P'In even

said 'Thank you, you gave me a place to study'.
Knee-slapper! I eventually agreed with another one of his
titles — Unbothered Moon. Because his unbotheredness was
sometimes freaky and creative. I bet no one expected it.

This morning, I was almost shocked when I walked out of my

dorm. Today, the university was overwhelmingly crowded
with groups of girls and most of them weren't XU students. I
noticed a lot of them were wearing grey or purple clothing.
Undoubtedly, they were P'In's and P'Wayu's fans.

Moreover, when I reached the football field, I saw filming

sets, MWTV vans, and many people wearing 'UNISTAR
STAFF' T-shirts.

Besides the fans, MWTV staff also came to film P'In and
P'Wayu. UNISTAR summoned the crowd as always and I
wasn't surprised anymore. It was a good chance to see P'In
and P'Wayu.

There was no class this morning because of Rose Day.

Initially, the university didn't intend to cancel the classes,
but many students would skip anyway. They would want to
see the handsome Moons and hope to get a rose from one
of the Moons rather than attend classes. The university then
had no choice but to officially cancel classes, as the
classrooms would still be empty otherwise, and teachers
wouldn't have any students to teach anyway.

I personally didn't like crowded places, so I kept walking to

avoid the crowd until I reached my faculty building. Since I
was hungry, I decided to go and grab something at the
canteen. There were too many people, particularly DomKati
wearing grey shirts, waiting for P'In.

I'm glad of my invisible curse while I was scrambling to buy

a butter-bread for my breakfast because I was successful. I
looked for an empty seat, but they were all full. What should
I do now?

"Ahhhh P'Wayu!"

Suddenly, the DomKati sitting here earlier were screaming

and running out.

'P'Wayu came?' I thought. Since almost everyone had gone

out for P'Wayu, the canteen was left quite empty. Only a few
DomKati remained. They were probably only interested in
P'In and didn't pay much attention to P'Wayu.

Lucky me, because I could finally find a seat to eat.

However, I was also curious about what was happening
outside. It wasn't easy to get a chance to see the UNISTARs.
I also wondered who would receive P'Wayu's rose.

I put the untouched bread in my bag, using my fading trait

to scramble through the crowd. I almost freaked out with
how crowded it was now. There were a lot of DomKati and
DomWhai[2] — P'Wayu's fandom. As P'Wayu's twitter
account handle was 'Whai = Wayu @whywayu', — I had no
idea why he used that name though — the fans called him
'Nong Whai' and named the fandom as 'DomWhai'.

Oh! I could see P'Wayu now.

I chose to watch from far away. P'Wayu was standing on a

high platform, surrounded by security guards and screaming
fans wearing purple coloured clothing. Plus, since the
business and engineering buildings were next to each other,
some of P'In's fans were there too.

P'Wayu borrowed a megaphone from the staff, then he

began greeting fans.
"Hi! My dear fans krub."

"Arhhh!"

Such a simple greeting could cause the fans to go wild.

"Today is Road Day. What? Different road? 'Rose' Day, not

'Road' Day."

The fans were screaming, but I facepalmed myself instead.

It seemed like P'Wayu would rather die if he couldn't make
any jokes. Somehow, the fans still liked it though.

"I have a rose right here."

P'Wayu said, spinning a rose with his hand. Its stalk was
about a foot long with a tag hanging — I assumed it had
P'Wayu's name written on it. The beautiful rose was in full
bloom.

"Do you want it?" He shouted. The fans screamed in

response.

He didn't even need to ask. It was obvious that his fans

were ready to fight for it.

"I really wanna give it to all my fans krub, because my fans

are all beautiful. Really! But...I only have one. What should I
do?"

P'Wayu was trying to decide. The fans kept shouting, trying

to get him to look at them.

"How about this...let fate decide!"

He lifted the rose.

"I'll randomly throw it. Whoever catches it, gets it!"

I was stunned. Did he choose to throw? His fans would go
crazy fighting for it.

"Ready? One...two..."

The fans were ready for battle.

The worst part is, P'Wayu didn't just throw it. He softly bit
the rose petals using his lips, with a seductive gaze. The
fans went wilder.

Oh! He already threw it!

"OMG!" I was so shocked.

His fans were rushing towards the rose, crashing into each
other.

The scene looked like the American football of DomWhai!

I watched and bit my nails. It was terrifying. I was worried

someone would get injured. Such an aggressive battle! It
seemed like if someone could grab the rose by any chance,
others would steal it right away. An endless battle.
Obviously. Because it wasn't simply a rose from P'Wayu, it
was the rose with a touch of his lips. This battle would
definitely not end so easily until we have one strongest
winner.

"Ahhh! P'In!!!"

As soon as I heard DomKati screaming, I turned around

immediately.

The screaming was so loud, and I saw P'In coming with ten
guards. This was the first time I had seen him with guards.
It's unavoidable because he had no choice but to appear
today. He couldn't be invisible, and his fans were waiting
expectantly.

P'In was walking, protected by his guards who were leading

the way. I was standing on my tiptoes. There was a rose in
his hand, similar to P'Wayu's.

I blinked as I saw P'In heading in my direction. I looked

around and noticed that the business building was right
behind me.

"Oh...Lady Maria."

I tilted my neck a little. The statue of Lady Maria was just

there. P'In might give the rose to her again.

"Excuse us. Can we get through please?" The guards told

the fans to move.

I saw P'In walking here, surrounded by screaming fans.

DomKati was shouting his name excitedly. They were all
holding their phones to take photos and record videos. I was
thinking if I should move aside.

However, I paused when his eyes met mine.

I didn't know what to do, so I only raised my hand to politely

pay respect to P'In because P'In was my senior and I was
younger.

He didn't respond, just continued heading towards me.

My legs froze. I looked behind me. Lady Maria Vongz was

right here. I should move away. But when I turned back, I
was surprised that P'In was standing right in front of me,
with only a metre of distance. His guards also surrounded
me.
He was standing still, facing me, looking at me, without any
emotions on his face, as he always did.

"P'In..." I called his name, almost undertone compared to

the fans' noisy sound around us. Nevertheless, it seemed
like all other sounds were fading away, little by little, as P'In
stood here.

Right. He was here, right in front of me. I just stood blinking

at him.

Until he slowly handed a rose to me.

My eyes widened and I froze. It took a while for me to react.

"This is...w-why?" I stuttered.

I wasn't sure if he heard me, but then he replied.

"It suits you."

"Huh? You're giving...to me?" I pointed at myself. Hesitantly.

"Yes." He nodded slightly.

The fans burst into excitement when they saw P'In giving
the rose to someone. They tried to scramble inside, craving
to know who the lucky person was.

I lifted my shaky hand to accept the rose from P'In. Then, I

was suddenly pushed away by the crowd, away from P'In,
and I couldn't see him anymore.

P'In was surrounded by plenty of fans, while I fell out of the

fans' cordon. Unnoticed, due to my invisibility.

I was looking at the rose in my hand. I still couldn't believe

it.
A name tag with the XU logo was hanging on the rose's long
stalk.

'IN, Business Moon, 3rd year'

This was the rose from P'In — the rose that he gave to me
with his own hand. I thought about the purpose of Rose Day.
The Moon from every year and every faculty would give a
rose to — the most beautiful one.

"What? Beautiful? Me?" I was shocked.

If he really meant it according to Rose Day, then...

P'In thought that I was beautiful? Seriously?

I held my chest tightly.

It's just a rose, but why did I feel like there were infinite
butterflies flying in my heart. Why?

☽------------☽

Footnote

[1] Hi-Touch is an event that provides a privilege for the

fans to touch their idol's hand for a few seconds. The
UNISTAR Hi-Touch privileges can be upgraded from fanmeet
tickets via redeeming Unity points.

[2] Whai in Thai means Rattan palm.

Note from translator :

Here is the cover book picture (book 1 of total 2). It was

inspired from this chapter. P'In's rose~~~ <3 <3<3
Chapter 12 : When The Air
Falls for the Moon

Invisible Moon

Chapter 12

When The Air Falls for the Moon

"Does air exist on the moon in the sky?"

#WINisWIND

I kept thinking about the rose from P'In the whole day. I
couldn't even concentrate in my afternoon class. I kept
recalling the moment that P'In was walking towards me and
handed the rose to me among the many who surrounded us.
At that time, he was only looking at me, only focusing on me.
Why? I couldn't think of a valid reason. Why did P'In give the
rose to me?

"It suits you."

Although he told me the reason, I still couldn't understand it.

Did this rose really suit me?

My friends were talking about Rose Day and they were all
curious about who got the rose from P'In. Somehow, it
seemed like my fading trait was extraordinarily effective,
because none of the MWTV or fans' cameras managed to
record me, not even for a second. So it became a super
mysterious topic — Where was P'In's rose now?

My hubby is In @myhusbandisin

Why couldn't I see! God! My curiosity is killing me. Who did

IN give his rose to? #InvisibleMoon #UNISTAR

DomKati Only @onlycoconutmilk

Male or female? No way! Can't be true! I want his rose too.

Can P'In give it to me? #InvisibleMoon #UNISTAR

Wanna eat Kati @katikati

Since we couldn't see who got it, then IN's rose belongs to all
DomKati. #InvisibleMoon #UNISTAR

P'In Jaaaa @Iloveinin

*crying* Who got his rose? So envious. I want it too! Can I

steal it? Well, that's impossible because I don't even know
who got his rose. #InvisibleMoon #UNISTAR

I couldn't concentrate in my class, but I couldn't keep my

attention away from Twitter either. Many tweets were still
mentioning P'In's rose. They were so curious, and I was
worried. Because P'In's rose, which was currently the main
interest on social media, was now carefully kept in my bag.
What if some fans found out? I might have to run away from
a mob of rose robbers. Thank God for my invisibility! It
wasn't often that I felt glad of my invisible curse.

"Hey, look! Turns out, the one who got P'Wayu's rose was a
giant girl. She is our university's weight-lifter. Not surprising
for the strongest to succeed in grabbing it."
I heard my friends gossiping about today's event.

"Oh right! And who got P'In's rose?"

"Yeah. I'm also curious. So envious!"

"Win, did P'In say anything about this?" Parn suddenly asked
me.

I was startled and felt nervous. Then I just realised that she
was probably randomly asking because P'In was my buddy-
code senior, so they thought that I might know something.

"Well, I haven't talked to him recently." I wasn't good at lying,

so I avoided answering.

To be honest, I would like to tell everyone that I was actually

the one who got P'In's rose. Still, I didn't and I couldn't
understand myself either. It felt like I was afraid that if I told
other people, they would keep asking me to see the rose,
and then, that rose — P'In's rose — wouldn't be just mine
anymore.

Normally, I wasn't the type of person who would get

possessive about things like this. However, this was P'In's
rose and I was unwilling to share it with anyone.

I wanted it to be only mine.

"Hi everyone! Welcome back to UNISTAR SHOWTIME! Today

we are together with these five handsome UNISTARs!"

I went back to my dorm after class and found myself doing

something unexplainable again. I was suddenly curious
about how each UNISTAR member thought about love. What
was their perspective on love? Did they - especially P'In -
have an ideal type when it comes to a lover?
I didn't even realise when I started developing this kind of
interest. Anyway, It was too late now, since I had already
typed 'UNISTAR love' on my Google search bar, and found
this video - this episode was on UNISTAR's love interest and
fans.

Interviewer: Well, it seems like each UNISTAR member has a

similar number of fans, and the fans are different target
groups right? Can you tell me more about this?

Leo: Alright. // Volunteered himself.

Leo: It depends on the fans' individual personality or

preference. For example, P'Sea has the most number of male
fans and most of N'Natee's and N'Wayu's fans are BL lovers.
As for N'In, he is a very special case because he doesn't
have any anti-fans at all.

Interviewer: What about N'Leo? What kind of fans do you

have the most?

Sea: N'Leo has a lot of genius student fans.

Interviewer: Oh! I see. It's not surprising because N'Leo is

very smart, he is like a role model for excellent students.

Then, the host proceeded to ask about their ideal type of a

lover. P'Sea said he didn't have a specific type, just knowing
that this person was the right one for him was enough. P'Leo
said he liked a small, cute, gentle and kind person. P'Wayu
started with a little joke and said that any type was okay, as
long as the person loved him. P'Natee said he liked a person
who was both cute and sexy at the same time.

Finally, it was P'In's turn. I bit my nail as I watched, feeling

anxious.
Interviewer: What about N'In? Do you have any idea of what
type of person that you like?

IN: // Thinking.

Interviewer: Do you have any? Do you? // Trying hard to get

him to reply.

IN: Don't have. // Emotionless.

Interviewer: Well, how about changing the question. Do you

have anything that you particularly like?

All other UNISTARs: Coconut milk! // Everyone answered

unanimously.

Interviewer: I see, then N'In should like a person who is good

at cooking coconut milk dishes right?

IN: No.

Interviewer: Hmm? Why not?

IN: I like food. Why should I like the cook? // Still emotionless.

"Oh my God, that hurts." I murmured.

How did he manage to say something so direct with no

emotion and such a straight face?

He just liked to eat, it didn't mean he should like the one who
cooked the food.

Well, it seemed to be true. It probably was.

Interviewer: Now time for questions from Unity. There are

some fans asking this question: Can all UNISTARs vote on
which member they think would be the first one to get
married?

Most of the UNISTAR members turned to look at P'Wayu.

Interviewer: N'Wayu? Why is it N'Wayu ka?

Leo: Perhaps, because he has the most experience in love

among us.

Sea: Plus his flirting joke.

Natee+IN : // No comment.

Interviewer: Really? Does N'Wayu think so too?

Wayu: If I'm marrying a 'faen', it's going to be DomWhai, so

I'm saying yes now.

It's not surprising that comments from P'Wayu's fans

immediately flooded the chat section at this part. I quite
agree with other UNISTAR members. With such flirty jokes,
even if they're not that funny at times, countless girls would
willingly walk down the aisle for him.

Interviewer: Well, well, how about the opposite? We know

that all UNISTAR members are extremely handsome. Is there
anyone that you think will be single for their whole life?

As soon as she asked this, everyone automatically turned to

P'In.

Interviewer: N'In? Why? N'In is incredibly handsome. Will you

be on the boat cradle? Seriously?

IN: ... // Still thinking.

Leo: Well, let's just say... It seems like N'In doesn't care about
this either.

Sea: After he graduates, N'In might become a monk for the

rest of his life. Hahaha just kidding.

Interviewer: Oh! Has N'In ever had a girlfriend before?

In: // Shook his head.

Interviewer: And have you ever considered getting married?

In: I don't know. // Straight faced.

I was both worried and relieved after hearing this. On one

side, P'In was too high to reach, on the other side, P'In
wouldn't belong to anybody.

Many comments below it also mentioned that coconut milk

was the only thing that he liked. So, DomKati — of course,
DomCoconutMilk, would be the only thing that P'In loved the
most. We would be together forever.

What about me? Now that I had become his one and only
buddy-code brother, would I be the person that he cared for
as well?

Why? I touched my chest. I was feeling strange. My heart

was beating so fast.

Interviewer: By the way, many fans love to see UNISTAR

members pairing up imaginary lovers, like N'Leo and N'Sea,
as well as N'Natee and N'Wayu. But N'In is still alone. Will
there be any chance that N'In might get an imaginary lover
too?

I was a bit anxious by this question. Imaginary lover? It was

true that P'In didn't have one now, but in the future, if he had
one, I don't think my heart would be able to take it.

P'In didn't immediately answer this question either, so other

members helped him to reply.

Leo: I don't think N'In will ever have one. Because DomKati
doesn't like the idea of N'In having an imaginary lover. N'In's
image is very positive. He is the model of social
responsibility. His fans are concerned as this could affect his
image negatively.

Natee: Yeah! P'In was casted as the main actor of a BL drama

once. However, P'Kwang had to replace him with another
actor instead.

Sea: That's right. DomKati wants N'In to stay single, so

technically, no pairing up with any male or female. //
Laughing.

Leo: It's true. But in the case of N'Natee and N'Wayu, it's the
total opposite. The fans want them to be a real couple,
obviously.

Wayu: Have you ever asked me? Why would I want to be

with that bad-mouthed Moon? // Frowning.

Natee: Hey! You have no eyes. For someone super handsome

like me, everyone would like to be with me.

Wayu: What the hell! My eyes aren't big, but I have eyes.
Shut your dog-mouth up!

After that, P'Natee and P'Wayu continued arguing. So I

stopped here.

I couldn't get rid of the thought that DomKati didn't want P'In
to have an imaginary lover, so I went to search on Twitter
and finally understood why.
P'In's image was so pure, so the fans wouldn't allow anything
negative to impact him. For example, when P'In was offered
the lead role for a BL drama. Instead of supporting it, the
fans were aggressively opposing it. Even though this drama
wouldn't have any intense love scenes, they were still
worried about his image. Since the fans became more and
more aggressive, MW Entertainment thereby decided to
replace the actor.

Not only did P'In not care about love, his fans also didn't
want P'In to have love. No surprises there, now he was really
the UNISTAR who was most likely to be on the boat cradle[1].

Anyhow, this choice was probably the best for him.

For me, I was relieved about this as well.

The next day, I woke up a little late but still reached the class
on time. I sat with Boss and his friends. Unfortunately, they
hadn't stopped talking about P'In's rose yet. Now that I know
how P'In's fans viewed this issue, I wasn't going to risk
mentioning it. Even though I was happy to receive his rose, if
the fans found out that P'In gave the rose to a man, it would
eventually affect his reputation.

After the class, I followed my friends for lunch and we met

P'Noey, who came over to talk to us.

"N'Boss ka, please come to room 300 tomorrow." P'Noey

said.

"Krub. What's the matter?" Boss seemed a little confused.

"Congrats! N'Boss is nominated as our business faculty's

Moon candidate this year!"

"Wow! Really?" "OMG! Congrats!"

All my friends were so excited. I felt glad for him too.
Although I was a bit jealous, to be honest, I had been
dreaming of getting this sort of chance too. But right now,
simply existing in someone's eye was enough for me.

"Thank you P'Noey krub." Boss smiled happily.

"So I'll be the business faculty Moon?"

"Well, there is another candidate." P'Noey looked at the list.

"May I ask who, please? What is the criteria for selecting the
candidate?" Boss asked.

"I didn't choose, IN did."

"Ahhh P'In!" The girls were screaming.

When I heard P'In's name, my thoughts suddenly ran wild.

P'In chose Boss as one of the faculty Moon candidates. It's

not surprising, because Boss was good looking, sporty,
smart, kind and friendly. He was indeed the best candidate
for the title as he could become a strong competitor against
other faculties.

Furthermore, being the faculty Moon was the first step

towards becoming the university Moon. If he won, he would
be nominated to participate in the UNISTAR contest. If Boss
could reach that stage, God, I'd be so proud and envious of
him. I could shout to the whole world that I have a friend who
was a UNISTAR member!

"Excuse me. Did P'Noey say that there is another nominee

who is gonna compete with Boss?" Parn asked.

"Yep!" P'Noey nodded slowly.

"Who? Who?" Everyone couldn't wait to find out.

"Is Archawin Deshsakul here?"

I was startled when she said my name.

Wait. It was my name, wasn't it?

"Yes?" I responded three times before she finally turned to

me.

"Oh, it's you! IN's buddy-code junior. You're the one who got
IN's signature." P'Noey seemed excited.

"Yes, it's me." I was very nervous.

"Congrats! Please come to room 300 tomorrow. We'll be

finalising the candidate for our business faculty Moon and
Star."

"Huh?" I gasped, shocked.

What did she just say?

I wasn't the only one who was surprised though, my friends

were too.

"Me? The Moon candidate? I don't think I'm qualified for

that." I was just being honest with myself.

"I don't know either. But IN chose you." She replied.

"He probably saw something in you."

"Really?" I had no idea how to respond.

Did it mean that P'In purposely chose me to compete with

Boss?
Was he temporarily blind? What? Why did he choose me?

"Wow. Congrats Win! See you tomorrow." Boss smiled at me.

After P'Noey was gone. Everyone gathered to congratulate

the faculty Moon nominees. Some friends were talking to me,
but Boss received a lot more attention as always.

I was perplexed because I never expected this to happen. It

was beyond my expectations.

After the afternoon class ended, I hurriedly said goodbye to

my friends. I looked at my cell phone for a second before
deciding to call P'In straightaway.

It rang a few times before he answered.

"Hello, P'In. Are you free right now?" I asked him.

"Free...two minutes." He answered shortly.

But two minutes was more than enough for me.

"P'In krub, P'Noey told me that you nominated me and Boss

for the faculty Moon candidate?"

I expected that he would deny it and tell me it wasn't true.

But it turned out...

"Yes." He said flatly.

"What? Me? To be the Moon? If you chose the wrong name,

you should select another." I almost cried.

My opponent was Boss! I felt like I could die from

embarrassment.
Not only was I an unrecognised freshman, but I was also
extremely invisible whenever I was with Boss.

"Not wrong." P'In confirmed.

"Wait... You really did choose me?" I still couldn't believe it.

"Yes."

"Why did you choose me?"

My question made P'In silent for a moment before he replied.

"Come here."

"Huh? What?" I was confused.

Apparently, my question and his answer weren't in the same

direction at all.

"Can you?" He asked again.

"Where should I go?" I asked. I couldn't understand him, but,

why was my heart beating like this?

"Come over here."

"Huh?" I was still muddled.

Come over here — meant go over there to meet up with P'In?

"Where are you now?" I finally asked for the location.

P'In was quiet for a few seconds, then I heard him asking
about the location of his place. I assumed he was talking
with his manager. Maybe he was working.

"Mineral Wales Mall." P'In said.

"Uh.. Okay." I responded. It was a shopping mall in the city
centre. I could take the sky train to get there.

"Know the place?" He continued asking.

"I know krub." I replied.

"Then come now."

"Huh... I need to go right now?"

"Yes."

"Uhhh..." I just ran out of words.

I honestly wanted to meet P'In, but it was a bit rushed.

"Can't come?"

Probably because I didn't say a word for a moment, so he

asked again.

"I can go, P'In."

I was left dumbfounded after he hung up.

P'In didn't only choose me to be the faculty Moon nominee,

he also asked me to go and see him right now.

No doubt, he was indeed an unbothered Moon, just like his

title.

Well, even though I couldn't understand him, I was

thoughtlessly smiling.

I would be meeting P'In, wouldn't I?

☽------------☽
Footnote :

[1] On the boat cradle — boat cradle or boat stand, is a

Thai idiom which means 'a person who will be single forever'
or 'a person who probably can't find any wife or husband for
their whole life'. Like the boat left on a cradle that is far from
the river, useless.

Note from Translator

I wanna show the beautiful fan art from previous chapter.

Thank you khun Cloverade for these wonderful drawing
naka~~ <3 <3
And thank you so much again for every support and all
comments. The story will now get into the main plot~

If there is any feedback about anything please free to leave

the comment ^_^

Thanks a lot for adore P'In and N'Win jaa~~

Chapter 13 : The Hidden
Moon

Invisible Moon

Chapter 13

The Hidden Moon

"The invisible moon was actually shining brightly behind the

clouds."

#WINisWIND

I was still in a blur after talking with P'In on the phone. I only
snapped out of my short trance when P'In sent me a string
of messages informing me his exact location and that he
would be waiting.

P'In : (Location map)

P'In : 7th floor.

P'In : Call when arrive, I'll get you

Although he sent me short messages, I could feel some

warmth in them. Even though I didn't know why he told me
to go and see him, it seemed like he did care about me. He
was worried that I would be lost, so he sent me a map, and
he would come and get me when I arrived.
The Mineral Wales shopping mall wasn't that far from my
university. It was only around three stations by sky train.
Plus, I only needed to walk for 10 minutes to the train
station, so it was easy to get there.

On my way, I realised that I was paying more attention than

usual to the UNISTAR advertisements around me. UNISTAR
had actually been around in Thailand for a few years, but it
was the first time that I was really interested in them. So for
once, I actually noticed them more than I did before.

When the train arrived, I saw a mobile phone advertisement

released by MW Electronics, featuring UNISTAR as its
ambassadors. As I boarded the train, I saw advertisements
for UNISTAR's latest fashion collection and noticed that the
passengers were talking about UNISTAR. Someone standing
beside me was also watching UNISTAR SHOWTIME! on her
cell phone while someone on another side was scrolling
through UNISTAR's Twitter.

"Ahhh, P'In is extremely handsome in this photo!"

I heard a group of female students mentioning P'In. I

couldn't stop myself from leaning in to peek. They were
looking at a UNISTAR photobook, which might have cost
them thousands of baht.

P'In was indeed handsome in every photo, I thought. Again, I

must thank my invisibility trait because I was able to sneak
around and find out all that I wanted to know without
anyone noticing.

"I bought three boxes of coconut milk jelly for my mom.

Every menu in this pastry shop is delicious." A group of
women near me was talking.
I was startled when I heard 'coconut milk'. I was just feeling
hungry and thinking about coconut milk jelly. It was as if
they read my mind.

"My kid studies at international school"

I was startled again when I heard the word 'IN'. Wait, it was
'international', not P'In.

"Right now almost every airline can check-in online."

I suddenly turned around when I heard 'IN', again. This time,

it was 'check-in', not P'In either.

"This company's internet was so damn slow."

"Tomorrow I'll travel to Indonesia."

"I don't like using Instagram."

"Have you received your invoice yet?"

"I love listening to indie music."

"Yesterday, I watched a documentary about the Inca

empire."

"Oh no!" I held my temple. What was wrong with me? Why
was I so sensitive to the word 'IN' today? They weren't even
referring to P'In, but I kept hearing them. What was
happening?

When I arrived at my destination, I took the exit that was

connected to the mall's entrance. I saw some college
students trying to raise funds to help children in rural areas
get access to education. I immediately thought of P'In. If it
was P'In, he would put money into the donation box without
hesitation.
So I did. I donated twenty baht. Even though I was way too
invisible for someone to notice, I was happy, so happy that I
could do good things like P'In always did.

When I entered the mall, I saw a bakery shop selling

coconut cakes. I unconsciously paused and glanced at them
for a while. I shook my head when I realised what I did. I
didn't come here to eat. I came here to see P'In.

I got into the glass elevator and pressed the button for the
7th floor. Each floor button was labelled with its occupant.
For instance, the 6th floor was a theatre and the 7th floor
was a photography studio that outsiders could rent, but was
mostly occupied by MW media works.

As I reached the 7th floor, I could see a reception desk and a

few security guards. Although I was fading enough to sneak
in without being noticed, I couldn't be invisible on the CCTV
anyway. The only thing left to do was to call P'In, and inform
him that I had arrived.

P'In answered my call in a few seconds.

"Arrived?"

"Krub. I am on the 7th floor now."

"Okay, a moment."

After he hung up, I just waited while looking around. This

place was very well decorated.

"Win."

A familiar voice attracted me. It was the first time that P'In
had called me by my nickname. It made my heart flutter,
and when I finally saw P'In, my heart started to beat faster
in my chest.

P'In was wearing our university uniform just like me, but in
addition, he looked amazing with his makeup and hair done.
Apparently, he had a photoshoot.

My only thought right now was — Damn! P'In was extremely

handsome!

"May I take him in? Only half an hour." P'In told the
receptionist who was still looking at P'In with shining eyes.
She nodded, visibly distraught. She probably didn't even
hear what P'In said anyway, just focusing on his angelic
face.

After the permission was granted, P'In turned to me and

beckoned me to follow him.

"Come here."

"Yes?" I was a little dazed, but still followed him.

As I walked past other studios, I could see the staff were

busy setting up the set, the lights and the cameras. P'In led
the way to a dressing room which was labelled with 'For
UNISTAR members' on its door.

My body tensed up as I followed him in, thinking that I might

bump into other UNISTAR members. I was nervous because I
didn't know how I would introduce myself to them. Luckily,
there was no one here.

"Wait here." P'In instructed me, as emotionless as always.

I nodded obediently, and sat down in front of the vanity

mirror.
I was left alone in the room once P'In stepped out. I decided
to observe the room as I had nothing to do. It was indeed
the UNISTAR's dressing room. If I didn't work at the MW
company or have a buddy-code family who was a UNISTAR
member, I would never get the chance to enter this room.

The room was big. There was plenty of hair setting

equipment and various accessories. The rails were full of
clothes hanging, each rail had a name tag like 'Leo', 'Sea',
'Wayu', 'Natee', and 'In'.

It didn't take long before the door opened again. I saw P'In
come back with another guy, who was fashionably dressed,
his eyes scanning me, as if trying to assess me.

"So this is the boy that you mentioned, right?"

When he mentioned me, I raised my hands to pay respect,

he greeted me with a smile.

"Yeah." P'In nodded.

"Well, may I look closer?"

Then, he pulled the chair and sat in front of me. P'In also
came closer.

"Stay still, little boy."

That guy slightly brushed away my bangs with his hand,

lifted my chin a little, looking at my face from different
angles, and pondering.

I only froze, too nervous to react.

"This boy isn't bad at all. Pull up the bangs a little, cut some
hair and set a proper hairstyle. He'll look awesome!"
I was blinking, as I had no idea what he was talking about.

"Are you okay with that?" P'In asked me.

"Uhhh, what do I need to do?" I decided to ask.

"N'In haven't told you yet?" This guy looked a bit surprised.

"Oh, right." P'In just realised. "I'm sorry."

"That's alright." This guy wasn't worried about it. He then

explained it to me.

"I'm an MW hairstylist. Today, the UNISTARs had just

finished a commercial shoot. I have other work to do, but
N'In asked me for a favour to help his junior change his
hairstyle. Well, that's you."

"What? Me?" I pointed at myself.

"Yep! I usually won't do this for outsiders. I agreed because

my little handsome N'In pleaded for my help. We've been
working together for years and N'In has never asked me to
do anything for himself. He must really want to help you.
How could I refuse such a sweet request? So let me style
your hair for you. Please stay still."

After that, he took all the hairdressing equipment and a

cape. I turned to P'In and saw that he was also looking at
me at the same time.

"Thank you so much, P'In." I was both grateful and indebted

to P'In.

P'In just nodded back.

Soon after, the dressing room was filled with echoes of

scissors and hair spray. I sat still as the hairstylist cut my
hair. It's been a month since my last haircut. Normally, I
would just go to the local barbershop near my house. I had
never tried having a professional hairstylist cut my hair
before. Obviously because it was too expensive.

It took a while, but not too long before the hairstylist began
using a hair dryer, comb, and hair gel to style my hair. I had
never tried doing this before, so I studied and memorised
how he did it. I thought it was really interesting.

"All done." He took off the cape, and helped me brush away

the hair on my clothes. Then, he led me to the mirror.

"Wow!" I exclaimed.

At first, I was surprised when I saw myself. As I compared

my before and after look, I noticed that even though I only
had a hair cut, my appearance became quite different.

I had never thought that pulling my bangs up a little and

styling my hair would make me look this good.

"If you have time to do your makeup and dye your hair into
a brown tone, it will definitely be perfect!" This guy
suggested.

"Thank you so much." P'In raised his hand to pay respect, I

followed suit.

"You're welcome. N'In is like my family. Well then, N'In, don't

forget to stand by for the PR photoshoot in 20 minutes."

"Alright." He acknowledged.

The hairstylist left the room afterwards.

"P'In, you still have other work to do, don't you?"

I felt guilty for bothering him now. It seemed like P'In had
just finished a UNISTAR photo shoot and was only taking a
short break before another solo project. However, P'In still
asked me to come during his break time.

"Yes." P'In answered dismissively. "Please sit down."

"Huh?"

At first, I was going to leave because I didn't want to disturb

him any longer. However, P'In asked me to continue sitting.

"Not done yet," P'In said. He placed a black bag on the

table. When he unzipped it, I saw a bunch of male cosmetic
products, including cushion powder, lip tint, eyebrow pen,
and so on.

P'In used wet and dry tissue from the makeup table to clean
my face. When I was first touched by him, I felt a little faint
and had to grab my chair and close my eyes to get a hold of
myself.

When P'In picked up the cushion powder, I came to realise

that P'In was going to apply makeup on me.

By the way, this set of makeup products was —

"Are these all yours?" I asked. Although male idols tend to

use cosmetics, I was a little surprised that P'In carried this
many cosmetic products around.

"No." He answered.

"Oh? Then whose products are these?"

Huh? Did he take somebody else's cosmetic items to do my

makeup?
"Wayu's." He replied, emotionless, as he wiped my face
slightly with a sponge.

Wait, what did he just say?

"What? It's P'Wayu's?" My face turned pale.

These makeup products didn't belong to P'In. In fact, P'In

was using P'Wayu's stuff on me!

"Did P'Wayu lend them to you?" I suddenly asked.

"No." P'In was still applying powder on my face. As if there

was nothing wrong about this.

"Huh? How did you take it?" I was seriously shocked.

If P'Wayu knew, would he be mad at me?

"It was there, I just took it."

"What? Did P'Wayu allow you to do that?" I was wondering.

As soon as I asked, I heard P'In's cell phone ringing.

P'In placed the makeup powder on the table and took his
phone.

"Oh, he's calling." P'In said with a straight face.

He accepted the call and turned on the speakerphone,

before nonchalantly continued to apply makeup on me.

"P'In! I can't find my makeup bag. You took my makeup bag

again, didn't you?"

P'Wayu's voice was so clear on the phone.

"Yes, I did." P'In just admitted while brushing my eyebrows.

"What? P'In!!! You again?!"

Based on P'Wayu's outcry, this obviously wasn't the first

time P'In had done this.

"Why don't you ask our agency? They are willing to give you
complimentary items, so you don't need to borrow mine this
often."

"Not that often." P'In said while moving his face closer to
mine. He was concentrating on brushing my eyebrows. So I
bit my lip. My heart was beating a little faster than before.

"P'In...seriously. I'm nervous now. When you finish using it,

you must return it to me immediately. I need to put on
makeup everyday. Otherwise, I can't go to university. I can't
let my fans see my bare face! Never! What if my fans can't
accept my face without makeup and change to the dog's
fandom? P'In must be responsible if that happens, okay?!"

I tried to hold my laughter as I listened to P'Wayu's

exaggerated venting. I believe that P'Wayu would still be
handsome without makeup. It wasn't like his fans had never
seen his photos before he became an idol. Anyhow, I
understood how important makeup was for celebrities. Their
appearance needed to be perfect from every angle
wherever they were.

"Okay, I'll return when I'm back." P'In reassured him. P'Wayu
hung up after he heard the reply.

I flinched when P'In applied a red lip tint on my lips. His face
had no expression, but he seemed very focused. The more I
watched him, the more I became distracted. So I had to turn
my attention away.
When he finished, I compressed my lips a bit, and now
everything was done.

"Oh my God!"

I looked at myself in the mirror. Surprised.

'Who is he?'

I thought I had changed a lot after changing my hairstyle.

However, after applying makeup, I almost turned into a
different person entirely.

That fading Win wasn't here anymore.

How could he turn into a super cute flower boy like this?!

This person in the mirror wasn't me!

He must be a famous idol from a boy group, but definitely

not me!

I widened my eyes while looking at the mirror for quite a

long time. I even pinched my cheek to confirm that I wasn't
dreaming. I was even waving my hand just to make sure
that this person I was looking at was actually me.

"Um...indeed invisible." P'In was standing by my side,

looking at me in the mirror.

"Uh, yes." I nodded. "I'm always invisible to other people."

"Not that." P'In shook his head.

"Huh?" I was confused. "What did you mean?"

"Invisible Moon." He said, not taking his eyes off me.

I tilted my neck, dazed, and pointed to P'In.

"P'In, you're the Invisible Moon."

P'In, however, shook his head again. He pointed at me

instead.

"What? Me?" I pointed at myself in confusion.

"Yes." P'In nodded.

I was about to ask what he meant by that.

Then it clicked. He seemed to be saying that...

'Invisible Moon' might be a shining moon, but it hid itself

behind the clouds, like P'In — the UNISTAR.

Meanwhile,

'Invisible Moon' might also be the moon that was obscured

by the fog and clouds until it became invisible.

However, when the foggy clouds were blown away, the

moon that had always been unnoticed, would magically
begin to shine.

Only an invisible person could see another invisible person.

Similarly.

Only the Invisible Moon could see the hidden Moon.

☽------------☽
Chapter 14 : Wish to be
'the Wind'

Invisible Moon

Chapter 14

Wish to be 'the Wind'

"The wind is intangible but comforting."

#WINisWIND

"Hey! Look at him! Who is he? So cute!"

"He must be a celebrity or a cute boy!"

"He doesn't look familiar, but I wanna take his photo."

I had to hide around the corner, hold the bag up to hide my

face, and run quickly to the male toilet. I hadn't gotten used
to this yet.

For the first time ever, an air like me turned visible. I didn't
simply condense into liquid or solidify. I glowed.

After P'In gave me a makeover, he had to go for another

photoshoot. I didn't want to bother him any longer, so I
thanked him and said goodbye. At first, I thought I could just
go back as normally as I usually would, but on the contrary,
as soon as I got off the elevator, I suddenly became the
centre of attention and everyone was looking and pointing
at me.

I had always been a fading Win ever since I was born, so

wherever I went, I was always forgotten. Therefore,
suddenly attracting attention out of nowhere like this
naturally made me feel uneasy.

I looked at myself in the mirror. The person in the mirror was

very good looking, but I couldn't deny the fact that it was
only because of my new hairstyle and the makeup that P'In
did for me.

I was hesitating whether I should remove my makeup and

return to the old fading me just so I could go back home
peacefully. However, at this moment, I was the masterpiece
created by P'In. I wanted to keep myself like this for as long
as I possibly could.

I used to feel miserable due to my invisibility. I used to

dream of becoming an existing person. Now that P'In had
casted a magic spell on me — my dream came true. Hence,
I shouldn't waste this valuable opportunity.

"Alright, Win, you can do it! You need to stop being like the
air."

I told myself in the mirror, motivating myself.

I then went out and walked through the mall with more
confidence. Some people were noticing me, whispering or
poking their friends to look at me. I walked faster than I
usually would as I was nervous, and didn't make eye contact
with anyone to avoid them approaching me.
At first, I rushed towards the exit to the sky train, but I
noticed a skincare and cosmetic shop — Molly Welly — the
name was so familiar. This was the brand of the cosmetics
that P'In robbed from P'Wayu — the makeup which he
applied on my face.

Apparently, it was a cosmetic brand for teenagers under MW

company, showcasing UNISTAR as its brand ambassador. I
couldn't take my eyes off the real-size standee boards in
front of the shop, its height was almost the same as the
actual UNISTAR members. Many fans were gathering around
to take a selfie with the standees.

I just noticed that the standees were chained and placed on

anti-theft sensors. I once saw on Twitter that the UNISTAR
standees were stolen by fans almost every day before. At
first, people found it humorous, thinking that the fans were
so in love with UNISTAR that they even stole their standees.
However, when this happened again and again, people got
annoyed and commented things like: Again? When will they
stop? Then, the MW company must have been tired of
replacing new standees almost every day, so they decided
to put security measures in place for the standees.

The way I see it, the standees were no more than a

gimmick. Although there were some people browsing inside
the shop, most of them were taking photos with the
standees.

The shop's overall design was vintage and it displayed

UNISTAR posters on every corner of the store. However, not
all products in the store were represented by UNISTAR. Most
of the UNISTAR labelled products are unisex, which can
generally be used by males or females, such as skin care
items, face masks and lip balms.
However, every item was highly sought after, especially the
products that UNISTAR represented — they were almost sold
out. The most popular one was the UNILIP lip balm, the tube
was designed with a cartoon character of each UNISTAR
member — five members, five scents — and only the testers
were left.

"This lip balm is temporarily out-of-stock." The saleswoman

came.

"But you can still pre-order. You'll receive it within 7-10

days."

"Uh...alright." I nodded.

I wasn't used to receiving service by a salesperson. I was

usually so fading that salespeople or promoters just passed
by without noticing me.

"Anyway, are you a UNISTAR fanboy too?" The saleswoman

asked with a smile.

"Huh? Fanboy?" I blinked while I thought about it.

Did a fanboy mean a male fan who was obsessive with a

male idol?

'I...am a fanboy?'

"This lip balm is our best-seller." She continued. "It's unisex,

so both males and females can use it. Besides the cute
UNISTAR characters on the tube, it's also made with each
member's perfume scent. It'll feel like you're kissing
UNISTAR when you apply the lip balm. Ahhh~"

She was speaking with a dreamy sound. She even took the
lip tester with P'Sea's scent for me to try on.
"Uhh..." I swallowed hard.

How should I say this? I was a bit embarrassed to put on the

lip balm, which carried the fragrance of another male, in
front of a woman. It was a little —

"Oh? You're not P'Sea's fanboy?" She was surprised.

Probably because most of the fanboys were P'Sea's fans.

"Then who do you like the most?" She asked and looked
around secretly before whispering to me.

"Even if it's out-of-stock, we still have a reserved quota for

V.I.P membership. Because you're cute, I might be a little
biassed. But if you want it, I can ask my manager for you."

"R...Really?" I was amazed. I never thought that being cute

and good-looking could gain me such a privilege.

"Sure! Then which member do you especially like?"

"Well..." I hesitated. I took a look at the promotional poster

where each UNISTAR member held their own version of the
lip balms. I immediately noticed P'In, who was always
handsome and emotionless from every angle.

If this lip balm's scent was the same as UNISTAR's perfume,

then P'In's lip balm probably had the coconut fragrance that
I smelled before.

If I could get P'In's version of the lip balm, I probably would

smell it every day rather than use it.

"Ahhh! I got you. You like N'In, right? I'll bring it to you now."

"Huh?! Uhh, well..." I was blushing.

I was only looking at P'In's photo a little longer, was it that
obvious?

"Please don't be shy. Hehe. We also get male customers

here, not just women. N'Sea's products are particularly hot,
but we should still have the others' as well."

After that, the saleswoman went to ask her manager. I was

still feeling weird being served, but then I saw the cushion
powder — a similar one to the one P'In had robbed from
P'Wayu.

I was considering whether I should buy it. P'In has helped

me a lot already. He even nominated my name to be the
faculty Moon candidate. I couldn't keep asking him to do my
makeup for me, so I thought that it would be better if I had
my own cosmetics.

The price wasn't that expensive and I hadn't used much

money this month. So I decided to buy the cushion powder,
an eyebrow pen and a lip tint as well.

When I finished browsing, the saleswoman came back with a

tiny box of lip balm with P'In's character on it. She winked at
me, and secretly took it to the cashier, preventing other
customers from seeing it.

"Oh, you use cosmetics too." She was looking at the stuff I
was holding.

"I recommend you to buy this moisturiser. So your skin

won't be dry when you do your makeup often."

She showed me a bottle of moisturiser. I was about to refuse

as the cost was quite high, however, I hesitated when I saw
that the moisturiser was part of the UNISTAR cosmetic
series.
"There are a few options. The product's highlight is the main
ingredient extracted from Thai herbs. Every type is good for
the skin. The side benefits and smell may differ. I'm also
using it. The turmeric one is really good."

I took a look at them. It had five options, represented by

each UNISTAR member, just like the lip balms. The only
difference was the type of herbal extracts used for each
option. For example, P'Sea's option was made from
cucumber extract, P'Leo's used turmeric, P'Natee's was
based on aloe vera, P'Wayu's was from tomatoes, and not
surprisingly, P'In's was coconut.

"I'll buy this one." I thoughtlessly chose the bottle with P'In's
photo.

"Gotcha! You must love N'In so much." The saleswoman

grinned.

Her teasing made me shy.

Besides buying, the saleswoman also asked whether I had

an MW Member card. I didn't have it yet, because I wasn't a
loyal customer to MW products or any brands, I just used
them randomly. So she offered to sign me up for free, as I've
reached the minimum purchasing amount to qualify for
membership. She also suggested that I register as a Unity
too, because it doesn't only offer discounts, but it also
allows me to collect Unity points for various privileges.

I wasn't good at saying no to people, so I just allowed her to

get me through the sign up. The membership register form
only required my basic information such as name, gender,
birthday, telephone number, address, email, and some
general questions about UNISTAR, like: How did you
discover the UNISTAR project? How long have you followed
UNISTAR? Which UNISTAR member is your most favourite?
I was shy, but still selected P'In.

"We recently released a new version of MW Member cards.

You can pick the UNISTAR version too."

The saleswoman showed a bunch of colourful cards for me

to choose from - five types of five UNISTAR member cards.

I was about to ask whether there were any generic cards. I

was worried that if I wanted to buy something again in the
future and had to take out the membership card with a male
image, it would be a bit embarrassing.

"I'll choose for you. N'In has been super popular recently.
This is his last card. I'll give it to you."

I was both shocked and embarrassed, but before I could

protest, she had already picked a P'In card for me.

I ended up spending a few thousand baht today. I couldn't

believe that I fell into the trap of Unity fan marketing. I
almost cried when I realised it. How did I let myself willingly
be enslaved by MW's marketing?

God! I've already gone bananas!

Once I reached my dorm, I found myself obsessing over my

face. I was never like this before. I felt like a narcissist as I
took hundreds of selfies, which were now stored in my
phone.

Because P'In was the one who gave me this makeover, I was
very reluctant to wash my face. But I had to.

Although my face was now clean, I felt a sense of loss. I

then proceeded to spend the whole night studying how to
use all the skin care and cosmetics that I bought. I watched
the basic makeup tutorials as well as basic hairstyling tips
on YouTube. I had a hairdryer and a small tub of hair gel that
I bought on discount in my room, but I barely used them.

I followed what was taught in the tutorials, trying out the

tips and tricks. I screwed up a few times, but then I became
better with each try and later on, I could do some basic
hairstyles and makeup. It was neither as perfect as a
professional's touch nor was it neat like P'In did, but it was
still okay.

Afterwards, I took a shower and went to bed. I should really

sleep now, but then I just remembered the most important
thing.

Right! I almost forgot that tomorrow, I would be joining the

faculty Moon preliminaries!

I was so excited about the makeover that it slipped my

mind. P'In took a lot of effort to show me that I could be
good looking enough, so I shouldn't let him down or make
him regret his decision, even though I still couldn't believe
that P'In had really chosen me.

Anyway, I sighed before laying down on my bed.

Compared to Boss, I was under qualified to become the

Moon, although deep inside me, I desired to be the Moon
once. I was curious how it would feel to become the Moon,
how great it would feel to stand out among others. At least, I
owed this to P'In who has helped me this much. I shouldn't
discredit him.

However, in order to become the Moon, one's appearance

wasn't enough. One had to possess an impressive special
talent and cleverly answer questions from the panel of
judges as well.
The special talent part was the main problem. I wasn't good
at sports, music, or any type of performances. None of
them. What should I prepare to show? I was sure I could
survive the interview part, because although my grades
weren't that outstanding, I wasn't dumb either. I may not
excel at studying, but I was observant. Perhaps, due to my
fading character since birth, I ended up spending most of
my time observing people. I could memorise and recall
things around me. Too bad it wasn't really helpful for my
study or work.

Boss and I would need to go to room 300 for the faculty

Moon preliminaries together tomorrow.

I felt a bit relieved because they only gave us one day to

prepare. So I could conclude that it wasn't very formal or
official. It's probably more like an interview where I might
not need to showcase any special talents.

Based on what I've heard, it was highly probable for them to

ask questions like: What will you do for our university as the
Moon? Why do you want to be the Moon?

Yeah, why? I asked myself that too. Why did I want to be the
Moon? Other than escaping my invisible life, I couldn't think
of other reasons.

I flipped on my bed, trying to think of a more impressive

reason. When nothing came to mind, I turned to play with
my phone.

I shot up to a sitting position, completely surprised.

"Huh? What's happening?" I exclaimed.

Why did my Twitter account suddenly have a lot of

notifications?
I opened the App, shocked to find that one of my posts had
been retweeted around a thousand times, with a lot of
comments.

It was my tweet a few days ago.

The wind is the air @archawin_d

These dogs didn't have an owner, but they do look happy,

not starving. #InvisibleMoon #UNISTAR

I didn't think much when I posted it the other day. I was just
impressed with what P'In did and decided to post. I used the
hashtag but didn't refer to P'In directly because I was
worried he would be harassed by fans.

Fortunately, his fans didn't suspect whether P'In came here

often as they were all focused on other things. Many
comments and retweeted mentions were like: 'There are still
many homeless dogs outside, the dogs were so cute that I
couldn't help but pity them', 'Today I went to feed them too,
if P'In saw this he would do the same thing', and so on.

Moreover, many dog lovers had taken those stray dogs

home. Even the white blind dog also had home now. The
adopter posted that this white dog was so pitiful that if they
left him here, he would be bit by other dogs.

It didn't stop there. Originally, this place wasn't attractive to

many people. Now, it was so crowded. Some people took a
selfie with the bread grandma, inviting everyone to feed the
fish, and also said that there were a lot of hungry fish here.

I was amazed. No one had ever been interested in my

Twitter account before, as if my fading curse also applied to
my social media accounts, it was also invisible to others as
well. But right now, My Twitter literally blew up.
As I scrolled through the post's retweeters, I eventually
understood why my tweet had suddenly attracted so many
people.

Intrakorn Retweeted

The wind is the air @archawin_d

These dogs didn't have an owner, but they do look happy,

not starving. #InvisibleMoon #UNISTAR

P'In used his Twitter @intrakorn to 'retweet' my post without

any comments.

When I met P'In earlier today, he didn't mention this either.

So I didn't know his reason. Although I used my real name
for my account, I wasn't sure whether he knew it was me, as
I had never uploaded my own photo.

However, P'In did retweet me, so apparently he agreed with

my post.

I was trying to analyse P'In's perspective. In fact, if P'In

really wanted everyone to help the dogs or fish, he could
just say the word and his fans would willing jump in. So why
did he have to do these by himself all along?

I was wondering, but then it hit me. I just read an article

about public relations - Mr. Chana's homework. It was good
to build up a positive image, but deliberately doing
something too direct could possibly result in a negative
impact instead.

Supposing that P'In always told the fans to help on

something, his intentions might have been misunderstood.
People might even question his sincerity or worse, assume
that he was pretentious or was doing them for profit.
His indirect way of 'doing good things without ostentation'
created a more powerful positive force as he had never
shown off or asked his fans for help.

It was like the strong current in the deep ocean, it couldn't

be seen, but it was much more powerful than the surface
waves.

I didn't know what P'In actually thought or wanted to

achieve, but I was elated because of what happened on my
Twitter.

Being part of rebuilding a better world, it was a thoroughly

beautiful feeling.

I suddenly found the reason why I wanted to become a

Moon.

Because I wanted to do what P'In did. I probably couldn't be

as bright as him, but the 'Win' like me wouldn't just be the
fading air anymore.

I would be the 'Wind'. Perhaps it couldn't be seen, but it

could bring happiness to this world. Whether it was big or
small, it didn't matter.

If I became the Moon, I had to be one like P'In.

☽------------☽
Chapter 15 : The Glowing
Air

Invisible Moon

Chapter 15

The Glowing Air

"Even the air can have its own glow."

#WINisWIND

I was nervous as I walked out of my dorm this morning. It

was my first time doing my own hair and makeup. Luckily
my new haircut - done by the UNISTAR hairstylist - was easy
to manage, so all I needed to do was just apply a bit of hair
gel and it already looks good.

Since P'In had done my makeup yesterday, I simply followed

what he did. I spent almost an hour on my face and the
result seemed acceptable. At least I looked much better
than usual.

At first, I was a bit shy walking through the campus. I was

used to being ignored and unnoticed, like the air flowing,
invisible. It felt awkward when everyone was looking at me
as if I suddenly emitted a bright light around me. I wasn't
used to this kind of attention.
I was a little uncomfortable because many students were
pointing at me and squealing away.

"Hey! Who is that boy? So cute!"

"He must be a Cute Boy! Do you know his name?"

"I've never seen him before, but he's very cute. I can't
believe I've never noticed him before!"

"OMG! Who is he? Which faculty is he from?"

At first, I was planning to keep my eyes down and quickly

walk away, however, I was reminded of my determination
before I got to university. I had intended to change myself,
now that the chance was here, I should take it in stride.

I took a deep breath, trying to be brave, and smiled at that

group of students.

Suddenly...

"Ahhh!"

They were all screaming and rushing towards me. I froze,

shocked.

If I had known that it was going to be like this, I wouldn't

smile at them. Seriously!

"What's your name? Which faculty?"

"You're so cute! May I take a photo with you?"

I was surrounded by the students who were talking and

taking a photo with me. I forced a smile but couldn't let any
word out. All the words seemed stuck in my throat. It was
difficult to get used to being in the centre of attention like
this, I had no idea how to reject them politely.

Eventually, I managed to arrive at my faculty building.

Apparently, I was half an hour late.

On usual days, being late for a class wasn't a big deal for an
invisible person like me. Nobody even noticed when I got in
the classroom. However, I forgot that today was different.

As soon as I went in, everyone including the teacher turned

to me.

"I...I apologise for being late." I raised my hands to pay

respect and apologise to the teacher.

My classmates looked confused.

"Who's that? A freshman?"

"Wait...I haven't seen him before."

"Is he just coming today?"

"Wow! He's so attractive!"

"Do we have such a cute classmate?"

I scanned for an empty seat, trying to ignore the whispering.

I saw a seat near Boss's friend, so I went there.

His friends were waving their hands, greeting me, but they
seemed to think that I was a new student. They didn't
recognise me as the fading Win.

"Oh? Wait. Is that you? Win?" Boss asked in a surprised

tone. Looks like Boss was the only one who could recognise
me.
"Yes, it's me." I nodded.

As expected, everyone was shocked.

"What? It's Win! Ahhh~ What did you do? How did you
suddenly become this good-looking?"

Parn was screaming loudly. She got the whole classroom's

attention.

"Be quiet! You're still in class." The teacher knocked on the

table. So everyone fell silent, and went back to focusing on
the subject. Still, some people turned to look at me a couple
of times and were whispering with their friends excitedly. I
wasn't used to it at all.

During lunch break, I once again became the centre of

attention.

"Is that really Win? Actually, you do look like you from
before, but what made you stand out today?"

"Yeah! If I knew that you're this good-looking, I'd have flirted

with you a long time ago." Parn teased jokingly, causing
others to glance at her because of her shameless talk.

"Well, I just cut my hair, applied some makeup like the

influencers did..."

I couldn't tell them that P'In had helped me. Because I didn't
want everyone to misunderstand that P'In was unfair. I
wouldn't allow any negative rumours to affect his
reputation.

"Hmm, cosmetics really do wonders." Boss smiled. His

words surprised me, but his friend defended me.
"It isn't only cosmetics, if his facial features aren't originally
good-looking, no matter how good the makeup is, it
wouldn't help much either."

"Well, plastic surgery doesn't count," Parn added.

"I agree! I think this hairstyle suits Win."

I could only smile at them. I really wanted to interject, but

everyone kept going on and on, so the former fading me
couldn't even interrupt. I could only listen and smile. Well, I
still had a lot to do to improve.

After lunch, while we were on the way to the afternoon

class, my friends were talking about the Moon preliminaries.

"Actually, when I heard that Boss and Win were both

nominated as the faculty Moon candidate, I thought Boss
would be selected for sure. But now, I don't know anymore."

"Right, I'm rooting for both of them. Having a friend as a

Moon is so cool!"

I forced a smile while glancing at Boss. I could sense that

Boss was a little different today. He was usually cheerful, but
now he was being so quiet. Perhaps, I was thinking too
much. Sometimes, people would need some time alone to
think without being interrupted.

Today, while the rest of the freshmen were attending the

orientation session, Boss and I had to go to room 300 for the
faculty Moon preliminaries instead.

I used to dream of becoming the Moon. I had always

wondered what it would feel like, and now, the opportunity
had presented itself to me, but it felt surreal, like it was part
of a dream.
I was standing in front of room 300 with Boss. There were
also 3 beautiful female freshmen waiting with us. They must
be the nominees for the Star candidate.

"Hi! How are you?" Boss greeted them casually. Boss might
be the only one who knew all of the business freshmen, and
they seemed to know Boss as well. However, they were
glancing at me with a curious expression. Perhaps, they
thought they hadn't seen me before.

"Hello, freshies! Sorry to keep you waiting." P'Noey came

with the name list of nominees for the faculty Moon and
Star.

"Sawadee ka/krub, P'Noey." We raised our hands to greet

her.

"The teachers and IN are inside now," P'Noey said. "The Star
nominees can come in first. The Moon nominees will need to
wait outside for a while. I'll call you in later, once they are
done."

When the girls heard P'Noey mentioning P'In's name, they

became so excited.

Boss and I then sat on the chairs that were prepared

outside.

While waiting, Boss decided to talk to me.

"Did you prepare anything for today?" Boss asked.

"Well, no, I haven't. I didn't expect to be selected, so I was

too shocked to think of anything." I told the truth because I
had never imagined that I would be a Moon nominee. It was
really unexpected.
"I see." Boss replied flatly. So I asked him back.

"What about you? Did you prepare anything?"

"I also didn't expect that I'd be selected." Boss smiled.

"So I haven't prepared anything either."

"Oh, I see." I nodded, feeling a little relieved. Turns out, I

wasn't the only one who hadn't prepared in advance.

We were waiting in silence for about ten minutes before the

Star nominees came out of the room. The result of the
winner was shown on their expressions. One of them was
obviously looking so happy while the other two were forcing
a smile, their eyes showed some disappointment.

"How was it?" Boss asked them.

"P'In and Mr. Chana selected Nina to be our faculty Star.

Congratulations, Nina!" They both said to Nina.

"Oh really? Congratulations, Nina! So is Mr. Chana part of

the committee as well? The selection was over pretty
quickly."

Boss was so friendly with them, while a person who lacks

social skills like me could only stay silent.

"Thank you, Boss." Nina smiled at him.

"Well, the process wasn't that serious. Mr. Chana and P'In
just interviewed us with a few questions. They decided
based on how we answered."

"Yeah! Nina's answer was so impressive." One Star nominee

said.
"P'In is so handsome! OMG! How could he be that
handsome?! This is the first time I've seen him up close."
Another said. I'm absolutely certain that she is P'In's fan.

"The Moon nominees, please come in."

We heard P'Noey calling us in. Boss waved goodbye to the

girls, and we both entered the room.

I started to panic the moment I stepped inside. It was a

medium-sized conference room, with three chairs placed in
the middle. P'In and Mr. Chana were both sitting on the
opposite side. Besides them, there were also other teachers
and a few other seniors around. They were here to watch
the preliminaries.

I swallowed hard. The atmosphere seemed like the audition

that I saw on a TV program.

"Please sit here." P'Noey gestured us to the seats, and we

became the focus of the room.

I sat on a chair facing P'In and Mr. Chana, the committee

observing us.

"Sawadee krub Mr. Chana, Sawadee krub P'In." Boss was

raising his hands to pay respect as usual.

I followed him as soon as I realised I hadn't greeted them.

"You...you're Bodin right?" Mr. Chana was looking at a piece

of paper with Boss's photo.

"And you. Archawin? Huh? Your photo is quite different from

the real you."
I tried to smile. I had no idea how to tell him that I had just
received a makeover.

"Alright, then we'll start now." Mr. Chana said.

"Our business faculty Moon and Star selection process isn't

really complicated. Normally, we just let a senior who had
experiences, like Intrakorn, select eye-catching freshmen
with help from the teachers. Today, we'll just interview you,
to see how you answer the questions, and to determine
whether your mindset and attitude are appropriate for our
faculty Moon or not."

"Do we have to perform a special talent?" Boss asked and I

shuddered.

If we had to perform, I would be in serious trouble. I hadn't

prepared anything at all.

"Don't worry about that." Mr. Chana smiled.

"Because when you become our faculty Moon, Intrakorn will

help to train you, in special cases."

I sighed with relief.

"Well, in order not to waste any time, I'll start with a

question for you two."

Boss and I paid attention to what he was about to ask.

"What makes you unique? Why are you good enough for me
and Intrakorn to select you as the Moon?"

His question made me think hard. No wonder he was the

branding and marketing lecturer. The aim of the question
was to allow the Moon nominees to present themselves like
presenting a product to clients — Why should we buy your
product?

Hmm... What is it about me? What made me unique?

"Oh, Bodin, it looks like you are ready to answer. Please go

ahead." Mr. Chana saw that Boss was eager.

"Alright," Boss said.

"I think what makes me unique is, I am multi-talented. I can

play almost every kind of sport and my results are quite
good. I also did some music. I used to play the guitar for the
high school band. I believe that the person who will be the
Moon has to be perfect in everything. Especially talents."

I was dismayed by his answer. If it was true, then what

about me? If it was true, there was no way I could become
the Moon.

Mr. Chana nodded after Boss answered. He was noting

something on a paper, while P'In stayed still, no expressions
shown on his face.

"Archawin? It's your turn." Mr. Chana then turned to me.

It took me by surprise.

"I..." I felt awkward.

I almost said something stupid like I didn't know what made

me unique. However, I saw P'In looking at me, so I
swallowed that answer.

P'In had selected me. If I said that stupid answer, I would

ruin his reputation.
During this short moment, I was trying to recall the many
quotes from all the books that I had read. One of the lessons
I learned from many pieces of literature was - everything in
this world had both positive and negative sides, nothing was
the worst or the best, it depended on how we looked at it.
This sort of attitude lets me live in this world happily,
without making me depressed from the drawbacks I
experienced.

Regarding this, perhaps, my fading characteristic was

unique in its own way.

"I have a distinctive characteristic, unlike everybody else."

I answered. Mr. Chana seemed to be a little interested in

what I was saying.

"Really? Well, please tell me more."

"Alright." I was trying to compose my defence.

"Since I was born, I was always a fading person, invisible,

and forgotten. I barely got anyone's attention. When I
bought something, the shopkeeper would not notice me.
When I was walking, I was often bumped into as they
couldn't see me. When I got in a queue, people took my
spot as they thought nobody was there. Sometimes, my
friends also forget to accept my Facebook friend request..."

My story caused laughing sounds that broke the silent

atmosphere.

Mr. Chana seemed to be surprised and was more curious

about my story.

"But you're good-looking. How is that possible?"

"Actually, I usually look like the photo you saw." I explained
as I unconsciously touched the back of my hair.

"Recently, I just learned how to do my own makeup and

hairstyle. So my appearance improved."

"Oh, right. Your photo is very common." Mr. Chana was

staring at my photo.

"At first, I was very curious why Intrakorn chose you. But
seeing you today, I think you look really attractive. Intrakorn
indeed has a good eye."

"Thank you!" I raise my hand in gratitude. Mr. Chana praised

me directly, making me shy and happy. But the shyest
happiness was the fact that I could be standing right here
because of P'In.

"The story of your character is fascinating." Mr. Chana

continued. "Anyway, could you explain how your fading
characteristic would be suitable for our faculty Moon?"

I was silent for a second, glancing at P'In. He was also

looking at me. So I turned to look away and blushed.

If P'In was just like any other normal Moon, he wouldn't be

able to get a firm hold on DomKati's heart the way he did.
P'In was the invisible Moon, this made him unique because
no one could be like him.

"Because I had been a person who wasn't outstanding

before, I have a different perspective on things. People who
were good-looking since they were born would have never
known how bad a fading life was. As a result, if I can be the
Moon, then I could be an inspiration for many people who
are pursuing their own dream..."
Thankfully, I could answer it smoothly. I couldn't believe that
I really spoke those words. It was as if there was this
determination that had been suppressed deep inside me for
a long time, and it decided to reveal itself here.

"If even the fading me can become the Moon, nothing is

impossible in the world if you put your best effort and don't
give up."

I sneaked a peek at P'In, because he was my inspiration as

well.

Mr. Chana cracked a smile with my answer and noted

something on the paper.

"Alright. That's all from me. It's your turn, Intrakorn." Mr.
Chana passed the baton on to P'In.

I became more panicked when it was P'In's turn.

"Bodin," P'In called Boss in a monotone, looking at him.

"If you become the Moon, what do you want to do?"

His question was short and simple. It was a popular and

easy question, though it wasn't easy to guess what kind of
answer P'In was expecting.

"I have many things that I want to do as the Moon," Boss

said smoothly.

"The Moon is like a public relations representative of our

university. For example, I like sports, so I can promote to
encourage many students to exercise and care about their
health more, as well as to avoid drugs. I want to be a good
role model for the younger generation."
His answer sounded like the perfect answer for the ideal
Moon. Mr. Chana scribbled on a paper while P'In didn't say
anything, his face was still emotionless.

"Archawin." P'In then turned to me.

I flinched as he called my first name.

I was preparing for any kind of question. I guess he would

ask the same one as Boss — if I become the Moon, what do I
want to do? However, the problem was I had to answer
differently from Boss. Otherwise, they would think I copied
him. Then, what should I do? Boss's answer seemed perfect.

"Do you want to be the Moon?"

In the end, P'In's question was simpler than I thought.

I blinked, realising that it wasn't the same question as

Boss's.

"Ahh...this...depends on your judgement." I avoided

replying. It was indeed a difficult question.

If I said that I wanted to be the Moon, it would be too direct.

If I said that I didn't want to be the Moon, it would shut down

my opportunity.

"Tell me honestly." P'In however, forced me to answer.

Although his expression was calm, his voice was firm.

I swallowed. Did I really have to say this?

"If...If I could be the Moon, I would be glad. But if I can't, I

will accept your decision."

I tried to answer a little more without being too direct.

P'In was quiet for a second, then he earnestly glared at me.

"If you want to, I'll let you be. If you don't want to, I'll give it
to your friend."

His voice had no expression, but every word he uttered

shocked us. Everyone in this room stared at him in unison.

What did he just say? I widened my eyes.

If I wanted to be the Moon, he would give me the Moon

position.

If I didn't want to be the Moon, he would give the title to

Boss instead.

His decision depended on me? Seriously? Now I was

shocked too.

"Do you want to be the Moon?" P'In repeated his question.

I was still in a daze. However, the way P'In looked at me felt

like he was digging deep through my hidden aspiration. So I
couldn't deny my desire anymore.

"I indeed want to be the Moon." I finally admitted.

This was the only chance for a non-existing air like me to

become the Moon. I shouldn't just let this chance slip away
without trying.

"Then why?" P'In asked for the reason.

Why did I want to be the Moon? My answer was actually so

clear.

Because I wanted to be a Moon like P'In.

"Because I want to motivate everyone."

I thought of P'In. He transformed an air like me into a

glowing air.

"I believe that everyone in this world has a very beautiful

dream. But many of them would think it's impossible, so
they decided to give up. It's the same for a fading person
like me. I dreamt of becoming the Moon but I never
expected that I'd be standing here, today, being interviewed
like this. So I want to share my story, to tell everyone that
everything and every dream can become a reality if they
keep their determination and don't surrender their own
dream."

I explained lengthily. I could breathe easy again now that

I've said everything that was on my mind.

P'In was a motivation for his fans to willingly build up a

better world together. P'In had established an unseeable
positive power that created waves of strong social
movement.

If I could be the Moon, I would do the same things P'In did.

If there were people who felt unconfident, I would inject

confidence in them.

If there were people who felt discouraged, I would

encourage them to stand up and move forward.

I received this power from P'In, so I would like to pass on

this power to anyone who needed it.

I didn't want to just be a tranquil air. I wanted to be the wind

that blew the positive power, passing inspiration to
everyone, and motivating them to keep moving ahead to
reach their own dreams.

P'In and Mr. Chana both nodded at my answer.

They were writing something on paper, then P'In looked up

at me.

"I choose Archawin."

I felt as if P'In's words made me float. I couldn't explain how

I felt exactly. It was exciting, rejoicing, pleasing, and —

'I choose Archawin.'

This short sentence declared that P'In chose me to be the

Moon, but for me, it meant more than that.

P'In accepted me.

This was the first time that I had been accepted by

someone, and that someone was a UNISTAR member who
was loved by many people, and someone who I admired so
much.

"Congratulations!"

Boss's voice pulled me back to reality.

Although his mouth was congratulating me, his expression

was the exact opposite. I was left speechless, not knowing
how I should respond.

I understood what Boss was feeling. If I were him, I would be

disappointed too. But I couldn't do anything either.

If I said sorry, it would seem like I was mocking him.

And it didn't feel right to console him either.

Honestly, I felt guilty. I was worried that Boss would feel bad
either way. It might take some time before I could talk to
him about this, without hurting each other's feelings.

"I agree with Intrakorn." Mr. Chana said, as Boss and I

waited for him to elaborate.

"I didn't mean that you aren't good enough, Bodin. I like you
too. And Intrakorn shares my thoughts."

Mr. Chana was looking at P'In's note as he said it.

"If our business faculty want to win the university Moon. I'll
definitely choose you, Bodin."

Boss's expression brightened as he heard those words.

"You have all the attributes that would be perfect for the
university Moon. You have an outstanding appearance and
plenty of special talents. Not to mention it's easy for you to
become popular with your character. If I choose you, at least
this year, you'd be in the top three of the university Moon
position for sure."

Although I was Boss's opponent now, I also agreed with Mr.

Chana.

I peeked at Boss, whose face showed signs of doubt — then

why wasn't he chosen?

"However, we aren't just looking for the university Moon."

Mr. Chana said, clearly.

"Our goal is the UNISTAR contest."

I widened my eyes as he said that.

"Bodin, I'm a very direct person, so I'll just be

straightforward with you. Don't think too much about this,
okay? Just imagine that this is a marketing lecture. Your
character is too popular, do you understand what I mean? I
believe that most universities will send Moons that are
similar to you to the UNISTAR contest."

I followed Mr. Chana's analysis. It seemed reasonable

because each university would have a general standard of
ideal university Moon — the same for every year, the same
for every university.

"Bodin, you can probably be the XU Moon, but I think it's

less likely for you to become one of the 9 finalists in the
UNISTAR contest."

Mr. Chana was way too direct. Even I felt a little hurt for him.

"Unlike Archawin," Mr. Chana turned to me, my legs were

shaking a bit. Would I get a cruel critique too?

"For you to win the XU Moon position, Intrakorn probably has

to train you harder. This is the most difficult step. However,
if you can get through that, I believe you would easily make
it as one of the 9 finalists for the UNISTAR contest."

As if Mr. Chana's words had a mysterious power, I suddenly

felt goosebumps rising all over.

"Archawin's character is one of a kind. As a result, if you can

win the university Moon, you'll stand out in the UNISTAR
contest. Most University Moons are the popular type —
handsome, tall, good shape — but your small, cute, flower
boy character will be distinctive."
Small, cute, flower boy? Was I really that type?

"Archawin, it was difficult for me to decide between you and

Bodin. However, I'm impressed by your interview. I believe
that you have a unique character and story."

I automatically raised my hand to thank him for the

compliment. I had never gotten this much praise before.

"Bodin does have a higher chance of winning the university

Moon position. However, if we take the risk and put
Archawin against other faculty candidates this year, he has
a better potential to qualify for the UNISTAR contest."

Mr. Chana was looking at me and Boss.

"So, if I need to pick one of you, I'll pick the one that could
bring in bigger results, even if it's more challenging."

Then, Mr. Chana smiled at me and nodded.

"Congratulations, Archawin! You're this year's business

faculty Moon."

☽------------☽
Chapter 16 : The Smiling
Moon
Invisible Moon

Chapter 16

The Smiling Moon

"The moon that is smiling upon the sky,

is spectacular and stunning."

#WINisWIND

"Win."

P'In called my name with such a gentle voice, it almost took

my breath away.

"Krub." I responded, a little jumpy.

P'In called my name again! Although it wasn't the first time,

the more he did, the more I realised I was falling for him.
Now, it was difficult for me to even make direct eye contact
with him.

I stood there nervously as he walked towards me.

Once the faculty Moon selection had ended, Boss and I

walked out of the room until we reached the canteen. We
parted ways and I was planning to go back to my dorm when
P'In stopped me.
Right now, there were only a few people at the canteen and
nobody noticed P'In. His invisibility mode was probably
activated.

But for me, the fact that P'In was standing right in front of
me brought out an inexplicable sense of excitement within
me. I couldn't understand why, but this feeling seemed to
have intensified over time.

"Are you free?" He asked.

"Uh...I don't have anything urgent right now. Do you need

my help with something?"

"About the Moon contest." P'In said.

"Oh right." I nodded in acknowledgement.

Mr. Chana did say that P'In would conduct a special training
to help the selected candidate.

When I realised that I would have more chances to be closer

with P'In, my heart began racing.

"Follow me." He said, leading the way.

I blinked, feeling confused. Still, I followed him without even

knowing where we were going.

P'In walked out of the faculty building. I followed him but

kept a distance of around 3 metres between us. It was
surprising that many students were looking at me, but no
one noticed P'In.

I was amazed by it. For me, who had been invisible my whole
life and suddenly becoming 'visible', I didn't know if it would
be possible to switch back into a fading person as easily as
P'In did.
P'In was leading the way until we arrived at the student
committee building. Generally, the building is restricted to
the student body. Since P'In was the university Moon, he had
the privilege.

Anyhow, it was evening now, so the building staff should

already be off work. How could we get in?

"P'In. The building must be closed now." I reminded him. I'm

still not sure why he came here.

"I have the key." P'In took out a key without turning to me.

"Oh..." I realised. "You already asked permission to use the

room after hours?"

I heard that if any students wanted to access the room post

its official hours, they must ask for permission to get the key.

"Yes." He replied, leading me to the second floor.

I followed him quietly until he stopped in front of a large

room. When P'In was unlocking the room, I was wondering
what this room was used for. Then, when P'In turned on the
lights, I widened my eyes, astonished by the sight.

It was a large performance rehearsal room. There were

several types of musical instruments arranged in the room
like piano, violin, drum, guitar, trumpet, trombone and
others. There were also various Thai musical instruments
and art performance equipment for dancing, ballet, Thai
boxing, Thai art dancing, and so on.

This must be the training room for the Moon and Star
candidates!

But...P'In led me here...could it be that...

"What can you play?" P'In turned to ask me.

"Uh..." I had no idea how to answer him. I wasn't good at

sports, music, or any type of performance.

"I learned piano for one month before..." My voice quivered

due to embarassment.

Back when my sister was taking piano lessons, I tried joining

them too but eventually discovered that I didn't have the
talent for it — I couldn't control my fingers that well,
therefore I had no choice but to give up.

"One month..." P'In seemed doubtful, as if he was wondering

whether one month of learning piano would be good enough
for performing on the stage or not — definitely no way!

"Uh...I also learned khim[1] for one year." I said in an

undertone. When I saw how good my sister was with western
music instruments, I realised that despite my efforts, I would
never be as good as P'Wun, so I switched to Thai music
instruments. I thought that the khim would be easier to learn
compared to the piano, no more tangled fingers. However, it
didn't take long for me to admit that I had absolutely no
musical talent. I simply couldn't match the pace, so it was
difficult for me to play advanced songs.

"Let's try." P'In said while leading me to the other side of the
room.

The room echoed in silence. At this time, there was nobody

in the building except me and P'In. Everyone had probably
gone home. So when I walked towards the Thai music
instruments, the vibe was rather mystical.

"Oh...P'In?" I was confused. Why did P'In just walk around to

hide behind me?
Before I could even ask, P'In suddenly...

"Bam..."

P'In moved towards me, raising his hands. He was acting like
he was trying to scare me, with an emotionless face. Only
the 'Bam' sound was a little louder, even if it was still in a
monotone.

"P'In?" I looked at him, muddled.

P'In tilted his head as if amazed, then he lowered his hands.

"You aren't scared of ghosts?" He asked.

"Huh?" I blinked.

"If it was Wayu, he'd be shocked." P'In continued.

I was confused for a while. At first, I couldn't understand

what he was trying to imply. But then I eventually
understood.

Because this area looked quite mystical, it also gave off a

spooky feeling, adding to the fact that the room was too
quiet as well. If I stayed alone, I would certainly be scared. If
someone suddenly jumped out and shouted "Bam!" to me, I
would be frightened too.

If P'Wayu was here, there's no doubt that he would end up

shocked because P'In was invisible to him.

Then, why wasn't I shocked? Obviously, because P'In wasn't

invisible to me.

However, if P'In had truly disappeared from my sight and

then suddenly said 'Bam...' I'd be scared out of my wits too.
"You can see. Not fun teasing." P'In murmured. So I became
more confused.

What? P'In was planning to tease me?

I was completely stunned.

A person like P'In...wanted to tease somebody?

For real?!

But...how could he tease someone with that poker face?

"Play. I'll listen." Seeing me standing still, P'In went ahead

and opened the wooden cover for me.

I swallowed hard before sitting on the floor. I picked up the

khim sticks, raising my hands to pay respect, a custom in our
Thai culture. In fact, I hadn't played khim for a long time, so I
was struggling to even hold the sticks properly.

But the biggest problem was...

"P'In...I forgot the notes." I confessed.

P'In stared at me for a moment.

"Play any song." He said.

"But...I forgot every song." I admitted, feeling guilty. Since I

hadn't played for a long time, and I didn't usually listen to
Thai traditional songs, there was nothing in my head, neither
the notes nor the melodies.

P'In went quiet for a while. I felt so bad because P'In had
chosen me to be the Moon, but I was useless. I would only
disappoint him.
I was worried, so I turned to look at P'In. However, he didn't
seem to be disappointed, he seemed to be in deep thought
instead.

After that, P'In walked to the ranat ek[2] on the opposite

side. He sat down slowly, raising his hands to pay respect
before grabbing the ranat sticks, and started to play a song
smoothly.

P'In was playing the ranat? I widened my eyes.

His posture was both gentle and elegant. Although he was

wearing our university uniform, P'In looked as magnificent as
an angel.

I couldn't take my eyes off him. Normally, I wouldn't have

much interest in traditional Thai music. Nevertheless, I was
attracted to P'In's play. It was beautiful, as if it possessed
some sort of powerful magic. The rhythm, gesture and sound
were in harmony. It was indeed the most symphonic Thai
song that I had ever heard.

My mind went into a trance as it flowed along with the

melody of P'In's playing until it finished. P'In then slowly
placed down the ranat sticks.

I was pulled out of my trance.

"Recognised it?" P'In turned to ask me.

He was asking about the song that he just played.

"What?" I was startled, still a little lost after my trance.

The song that P'In just played wasn't too difficult. It sounded
familiar. It might be the very first song that I had learned.
Oh, I remembered. The song laments the love for a woman,
composed by Prince Benbadhanabongse, the son of King
Rama V of Thailand.

The lyrics began with...

Oh my dear, my beloved moon, I came to say that I love

you...

"P'In, the song you just played is called 'Lao Duang Duan[3]',
right?"

I was quite confident. Although I wasn't good at playing

music, I liked to study the history of the song that I had
learned.

"Yes." He nodded. "Can you play?"

"Krub, I'll try."

I said while picking up the khim sticks. The melody started

playing in my head and I managed to recall most of the
forgotten notes.

I placed the sticks on the khim strings gently and began to

play.

The sound of khim that I was playing merged with the sound
of P'In playing the ranat in my head. It was the first time that
I could play Thai music with emotions.

I let myself flow with the rhythm, my hands were moving

smoothly along with the khim's melody. By the time I realised
it, I had already finished playing a song in front of P'In.

I glanced at P'In nervously, because it was the first time that

I played music in front of other people besides my teacher
and other students.
P'In looked like he was deep in thought.

"Com Arts Moon plays the Thai fiddle." P'In stated briefly, but
I could understand immediately.

For the university Moon contest this year, the candidate from
the Faculty of Communication Arts would be playing the Thai
fiddle; a traditional Thai musical string instrument. I assumed
that he was talented and could play it well, otherwise, P'In
wouldn't need to point it out.

Even though P'In didn't say it directly, I could understand his

thoughts. P'In might think that 'Lao Duang Duan' or The
Moon Serenade wouldn't be special enough to perform on
the stage.

"How about this song?" P'In grabbed the ranat sticks again.
He had picked a new song for me, so I watched him with
keen interest.

P'In began to play the song, this time the tempo was almost
two times faster. I was stunned. It was so fast that I thought
if I played like this, my hands could break.

This song had a different tone compared to Lao Duang Duan.

It was a fun song that was full of energy.

"Oh!"

I finally recognised the song when P'In reached its long beat
section.

'The Prelude of Chinese Hammered Wood', the legendary

song from a Thai movie called 'The Overture'.

Right! I remembered that in this movie, the main

protagonist's opponent, who was also named 'Khun[4] In',
was extremely talented in playing the ranat. Like him, P'In
was equally, if not more, talented with the instrument.

Wow! It's an interesting coincidence that the character's

name was 'Khun In' and this man was 'Moon In'.

The melody that P'In was playing from the start until the end
was so powerful.

I was unconsciously clapping my hands along.

While I was wholeheartedly admiring P'In's skill —

"Can you play this song?" P'In asked. I almost dropped the
khim sticks when I heard him.

"Huh?!" I exclaimed.

I couldn't even catch up with a basic song, not to mention

this legendary song.

"Can you?" P'In asked again.

"Well..." I swallowed. I wanted to be honest and say that I

couldn't do it, but P'In seemed expectant.

"I'll try."

Therefore, I took a risk. My hands were trembling while

placing the sticks on the delicate strings of the khim.

I couldn't remember the exact notes. The teacher who used

to teach me this song liked to let his students try on their
own, but it was too difficult. I remember that I had only
played a few times before giving up. Nevertheless, some
notes still felt familiar, accompanied by the melody of P'In's
ranat playing in my head. I probably could play it, perhaps, I
just might...
I began to play. I felt a bit embarrassed because the sound
was quite distorted, it wasn't as beautiful as P'In had played,
but the show must go on. I began to play random notes, so I
kept it going till the end.

I bit my lip and felt sweat forming on my forehead. This song

was indeed difficult. I was trying to play the fast long beat
like P'In did, but my arms felt tense and painful.

Oh no! This section was too long, I almost cried. I did my

best, increasing the beat of the sticks on the khim with my
hands. Perhaps I didn't do it properly, or I hit it too hard
because...

It finally —

Bam!

"Wha!" I screamed and stepped away from the khim.

Because the khim's strings suddenly snapped, my eyes

widened. I was both shocked and embarrassed at the same
time.

When I realised what I had done, I thought P'In would be

angry at me.

However...

I heard a laughing sound, which made me turn my head.

I couldn't believe my eyes. I was so stunned, I dropped the

khim's sticks.

It was the first time I saw P'In laughing. Although it wasn't

that loud, still, it was rare to see P'In with a laughing
expression besides his usual emotionless one. When he was
laughing, his eyes seemed to smile along. His expression
right now was so dazzling.

A few years ago, there was a celestial phenomenon — the

smiling moon in the sky. The soft colour crescent moon
looked like a smile in the sky, together with the two shiny
stars as if they were its beautiful eyes.

I remembered being very impressed by how brilliant that

smiling moon phenomenon was. But now that I had
discovered a real brilliant Moon like P'In, I had to change my
mind.

Even the smiling moon in the sky, couldn't be as exquisite as

a smiling Moon like P'In.

P'In indeed had such an attractive smile that could draw me

towards him.

P'In seemed to realise that I was staring at him, so he

stopped laughing. His expression went back to normal, but it
was still obvious that he was trying to hold his laugh.

"P'In. I'm really sorry that I broke the strings, I think playing
music doesn't suit me." I decided to be honest with P'In.

"That's alright." He answered. Then he walked to the drawer

and brought the spare string and tuning equipment.

P'In sat opposite to me, using a plier to cut off the broken

strings.

"Are you going to fix the strings?" I couldn't help but ask.

"Yes." He said while pulling out the string from the roll then
replaced it on the khim.

"You can fix the khim!" I was surprised.

P'In was not only the master of Thai music, he could also
repair Thai musical instruments!

"My grandpa was a Thai music teacher." P'In replied and held
out his hand towards me.

"Yes?" I blinked. What did P'In want to do? When I followed

his eyesight, he was looking at the khim sticks, so I handed
one to him.

He took it. He used its tip to strum the strings to test the
sound as he adjusted the pins using the tuning tool.

"Ah...Your grandpa was a Thai music teacher, so you learned

Thai music from your grandpa right?" I understood what he
said.

"Foundation." He said, still testing the sound on the khim.

I was doubtful, he only learned the basics of Thai music from

his grandfather?

"So the rest...have you been practising by yourself?" I asked.

I felt like I was getting better at interpreting P'In's 'language'.

"Yes." He nodded and finished repairing the khim. He only

played a bit to test it one last time and he was done.

I was thinking about which topic I should bring up to resume

our conversation, but before I could decide, P'In looked at me
and explained...

"It's been ten years since grandpa passed away," P'In said.

I was shocked and hurriedly said.

"I'm sorry. I didn't know this before..." I felt guilty. I shouldn't
have mentioned this topic.

However, P'In didn't mind about this, he bent his head down
then continued.

"My grandma loved grandpa playing the ranat."

Although his voice was monotone, there was a hint of

sadness in it.

I understood immediately without needing further

explanation.

P'In said that he learned the basics from his grandfather, so

he was able to play some songs using Thai instruments.
Then, when his grandfather passed away, P'In's grandmother
must have been aggrieved. I once heard that music could
heal one's soul, so P'In must have kept practising the ranat
to play for his grandmother.

"I bet your grandma loves to watch you play the ranat." I
said.

"Yes." P'In nodded, putting the khim equipment back to its

place.

"Grandma said she recalled grandpa whenever I played."

I was left speechless by his words. I'm sure P'In's

grandmother was the happiest woman, because although
her beloved husband had left this world, she still had a
grateful grandson who kept practising the ranat until he
mastered it just for her.

I assumed that P'In must have loved his grandmother so

much. Oh right, I just remembered that P'In's parents had
passed away when he was young, followed by his
grandfather. He must've been lonely growing up. In his
world, his grandmother was all he had left.

When thinking about that, I felt like my tears were

threatening to fall.

He looked at me, seemingly wondering...

"Are you alright?"

"Oh...yes! I'm fine!" I became conscious and pulled myself

together.

"P'In krub." I decided to change the topic.

"The university's Moon contest will be held soon. I think no

matter how hard I practice, I won't be good enough to
perform it on the stage. Music is just too difficult for me. So
then, what should I perform for the Moon contest?"

"You're right." P'In said as he looked at me.

"Are you hungry?"

"Huh?" I became confused when P'In suddenly talked about

something else.

"Ah...a little," I answered.

"But I still have no idea about what I should perform."

"Think later." P'In looked at the clock on the wall.

"It's late. Let's eat."

I needed to adjust my brain for a while because P'In just

shifted our conversation from my performance to food.
"Okay, you want to go back now, right?" I assumed P'In must
be hungry as well.

"What do you want to eat?" He asked back.

"Krub?" I was confused.

"Treat you." He said.

"Huh? Why are you treating me?" I asked. I was touched that
P'In didn't only train me for the Moon contest, he also cared
for my diet.

"Buddy-code family," P'In said. "Compensate that day."

"Oh!" I just realised. That day when P'In and I ate suki
together, P'In did say that he wanted to compensate by
treating me to a meal at another time.

"What do you want to eat?" He asked again.

At first, I was going to answer that anything was fine for me.
However, I was reminded of the 'Moon in the Kitchen' TV
program that I saw on Twitter recently.

In the TV program, P'In was teaching how to cook Thai food.

P'In usually said that he learned the Thai food recipes from
his grandmother, that was why his dishes were indeed
authentic Thai food.

In that TV program, P'In was the main chef and P'Wayu was
the assistant. In fact, P'Wayu wasn't really a good assistant
as he had always sneakily tasted everything. It seemed like
P'Wayu's duty was only to 'eat', because he was the best of
all UNISTAR members at making such an appetising
persuasive expression when eating delicious food. The
audience could feel their mouths watering just by watching
P'Wayu eat. It's no wonder P'Wayu was selected as the
centre brand ambassador for foodstuff.

I had watched some episodes and I realised that P'In was a

hands-on and detailed cook. From preparing the ingredients,
chopping them up, stirring them around, until decorating the
dishes. Every DomKati would say 'we want P'In to be our
personal chef' in unison.

When thinking of P'In's cooking, I started feeling hungry.

"P'In." I stared intently at P'In with hopeful eyes as he waited

for my response.

"If you don't mind, I want to eat any dish that you make."

After speaking out, I felt a bit shy. I wasn't sure if it was too
direct or not, because P'In was a UNISTAR. I was just his
buddy-code junior. Him offering to treat me to a meal was
already kind enough, how could I dare to ask my buddy-code
senior to cook for me?

P'In was thinking for a moment before he replied.

"Follow me."

"Huh?" I was muddled when P'In led the way out.

"Where are you going?"

"Go dorm." He said.

"Huh? Your dormitory?"

"Right." He nodded.

"Can I..." I pointed at myself, hesitantly.

"Can I really go?"

"Wanna come?" He turned to me.

"Well...I'm a bit concerned about your privacy." I was honest

with him.

P'In didn't only treat me to a meal, he also gave me his

personal cell number, and now, he was inviting me to visit
his dorm.

If any DomKati found out about this, would they murder me?

"No come, no food." P'In said, emotionless.

I blinked, twice. Then —

"Okay! I'll go with you!" I didn't hesitate anymore, I didn't

care if P'In thought I was shameless.

P'In was inviting me! How could I refuse?

After that, P'In led me out of the room. We were the last
users, so I turned off the lights. However, when I walked into
the hallway outside, I couldn't find P'In. There was no sign of
him at all.

"What? Where did P'In go?" I mumbled.

I knew P'In was the invisible Moon, but normally P'In wasn't
invisible to me.

What was happening? Or was P'In just joking about cooking

for me, and he had already escaped back to his dorm?

While I was miserable with my own imagination...

"Bam..."
Suddenly, someone popped out from behind the door.

"Papa! Mama! Help me!"

I was scared to death, as if my soul had left my body.

When I finally collected myself, I saw P'In standing right in

front of me. Emotionless as always, but unlike usual, he was
standing on the steps, both his hands raised.

"P'In..." I called out his name with relief.

It was just P'In. I could calm myself down.

"Succeed." He said, monotone.

"What? Succeed what?" I was dazed.

"Teasing, succeed." P'In explained shortly.

I gasped for a long time before I finally caught it. Everything

was so clear.

Not only could P'In do something humorous with his poker

face, he could also tease other people with that same poker
face. I had never thought P'In was this kind of person.

"It was fun." P'In said while looking at me.

I widened my eyes, again.

For now, there was happiness on his face that could rarely be
seen. His lips curled up a bit, along with those smiling eyes,
causing my heart to almost stop racing.

Why was a smiling Moon like P'In so fascinating?

My heart began to play the Moon Serenade song
thoughtlessly — 'Lao Duang Duan', Win the air version.

Oh my dear, my beloved Moon,

Please do not smile like this,

My heart will fall for you.

☽------------☽

Footnote :

[1] Khim or Thai dulcimer is a Thai stringed traditional

musical instrument, quite similar to the Hammered Dulcimer
or Cimbalom.
[2] Ranat Ek or Thai xylophone is a Thai traditional musical
instrument in the percussion family.
[3] Duang duan in Thai means 'moon', in the 'Lao Duang
Duan' song, 'Duang duan' refers to a beloved woman.

> This is Thai Moon Serenade (Lao Duang Duan) that played
with Ranat Ek (You can imagine P'Pn is playing by listen to
this song >_<) The melody is very romantic.

https://youtu.be/NASbKH3mlfk

This is 'The Prelude of Chinese Hammered Wood', the

advance song that cause Win broke string lol. You can also
imagine how master of P'In music skill by listen to this song
too >_<

https://youtu.be/fouPzsDtpMU

[4] Khun is a title held by Thai nobles. The title indicates a

rank 'Khun'.
Note from translator :

This chapter introduces many Thai traditional music

instruments and traditional song. If anyone interested in Thai
traditional music specially Ranat Ek that P'In is expert. I
recommend this movie ' ' or English called 'The
Overture'

(imagine P'In is wearing like the man in poster...Awww~)

LOVE ^_^

And please enjoy the smiling moon hahaha

Chapter 17 : The Coconut
Milk Moon
Invisible Moon

Chapter 17

The Coconut Milk Moon

"There was no coconut milk that was as fragrant as —

'The Coconut Milk Moon'"

#WINisWIND

When I arrived at P'In's dormitory building, I grew more and

more excited.

My heart was racing even though we were only standing

together in the elevator.

What should I do? I was just standing nervously, I didn't even

dare to look at P'In.

The elevator stopped at the 2nd floor, which meant P'In

stayed on this floor.

His dormitory was specifically for senior students. The layout

wasn't really different from my dorm, but my dorm didn't
allow students to cook inside their room. Each floor had a
shared kitchen instead. However, it seemed like P'In could
cook in his room, so the seniors' dormitory probably had a
personal kitchen in each room.

I kept following P'In. When I realised that I would see his

room soon, my heart was beating fast again. Thinking of it,
even P'In's classmates had never visited his room before, not
to mention the fans. Perhaps the only people who visited it
were UNISTAR members.

And here I am, an ordinary person who gets a chance to

enter P'In's room. I felt special to the point that my heart
fluttered, making me feel like I'm floating on cloud nine,
even if the only reason I had this chance was because I was
his buddy-code family.

We arrived at room number 239, P'In's room. I committed the

number to memory as P'In unlocked the door with a key card
and opened it.

"Wow!" I exclaimed the first moment I saw his room. It

wasn't because the room was luxurious, but because the
room was so neat and tidy, like it was newly built.

His room was decorated similarly to my room, the only

difference was freshmen had a bedroom and a bathroom,
while P'In's room was a little bigger. The first room I entered
was the living room, with a sofa, a small dining table and a
kitchen counter. The room wasn't that large, but P'In had
arranged it very tidily. He also didn't have much stuff, so it
made this room look spacious.

I shot a glance at another closed door, I figured that it must

be his bedroom. Despite my curiosity, I didn't dare to ask to
see his bedroom.

I felt content even if I only stayed in this room, in P'In's dorm.

There was a dilute scent of coconut milk, probably from all
his cooking. Since P'In did make the food for giving alms to
the monks every morning.

"Sit here." P'In showed me to the sofa.

"Alright." I sat and looked around. Unconsciously, my legs

were swinging up and down with happiness.

P'In moved to the kitchen area, opened the refrigerator, then

walked back.

"What do you want to eat?" He asked. He probably asked

after checking the ingredients he had in the fridge.

"Uh..." I hesitated for a second, and thought about the food

that P'In made for the alms.

Green curry...

Wanna be the 'green' in the curry, so P'In can 'carry' me.

Oh no, why was I reminded of this DomKati's homophone

joke?

"I want to eat green curry krub." I said cautiously.

I didn't cook often, but I watched P'In on the TV program -

'Moon in the kitchen'. These dishes weren't that difficult, but
I wasn't sure if it would take a long time or not.

"Alright." P'In nodded.

His answer made me smile so wide, I could have sworn it

reached my eyes.

"Can you wait?" P'In asked while walking to the kitchen. P'In
put some uncooked rice in the cooker, washed the rice for a
while, then plugged it in.
"Uh..." I thought P'In meant that this recipe would take time
to cook.

"I can wait, no problem. P'In, let me help you."

"No need." He replied. He then took a jar of green curry

paste from the fridge. I peeked and saw that he had plenty of
curry paste jars stored.

P'In took a container filled with chicken tenderloins, which

was already cut into small pieces. He also took out Thai
eggplants, chilli, kaffir lime leaves, and basil. Everything was
well prepared.

I assumed that P'In is used to cooking everyday, which is

why he had them stocked. Add to the fact that all the
necessary ingredients and cooking equipment were already
set in place.

"You can sit and wait," P'In said as he saw me standing and
watching.

I saw his hands, he was holding the coconut fruit. I widened

my eyes.

"Why did you bring out the coconut?"

"Make the coconut milk," P'In said in a flat tone. He then took
out something from under the cabinet — a coconut grater[1].

"Huh? Make coconut milk? Personally?" I was obviously

shocked because nowadays, most people would buy instant
coconut milk as it was more convenient. However, I knew
that this equipment was used for making coconut milk
manually.

"Yes." P'In nodded. And took the knife that was hanging to
chop the coconut.
"Oh, P'In, you don't have to trouble yourself like this." I felt
so guilty because I requested to eat a dish that P'In could
make. If I had known it would trouble him to grate the
coconut, I would rather choose a simpler dish like Thai
omelette[2] with rice.

"It's yum." P'In replied. It seemed like he was trying to

convince me that the dishes made from fresh coconut milk
were really delicious.

I went silent and couldn't refuse anymore.

I was watching P'In chop the coconut into half, revealing the
white meat inside it.

I was reminded of the TV program 'Moon in the Kitchen'. P'In

had made various dishes with coconut milk. He didn't use
instant coconut milk, but instead used fresh ones. It could
make the food more delicious and give the dish a more
intense coconut scent. However, the TV program didn't show
how P'In made the fresh coconut milk. I assumed that the
staff might have done that for him or bought them from the
market in order to save time.

I was amazed to find out that everytime he cooked a coconut

milk menu, he had always personally made fresh coconut
milk. It's no surprise that this room was full of coconut milk
scent, and P'In also had the fragrant scent of coconut milk.

"Please let me help you." I told him again as I saw him

preparing to grate the coconut.

"Know how to?" P'In tilted his head. I then looked at the
coconut grater and scratched my head.

On the coconut grater, there was a circular knife on its head,

and its body was shaped like a small stool, for its user to sit
and grate the coconut.

"I'll try." I had never done this before, but I had seen how it
was done in Thai period dramas. I thought that it wouldn't be
that difficult.

P'In took a big bowl, placed it under the coconut grater's

knife, then handed me half a coconut.

I sat down, used both my hands to hold the coconut in the

right angle before moving it to the knife and started to grate.

I heard the sound of the knife grating the coconut. It wasn't

as easy as I had thought. In fact, I found it to be really
difficult.

I just grated for a few seconds, and then —

"Oh no!" I was startled as I accidentally pushed it too hard.

The coconut almost slipped off my hands but I managed to
grab it in time.

I felt so bad, then I peeked at P'In. I was afraid that I would

ruin our dinner.

Apparently, I would be taking a whole lifetime just to grate

this small coconut.

"Look." P'In came to help me.

At first, I intended to move away so P'In could demonstrate

how to do it correctly. But I hadn't imagined that —

"P...P'In..." I widened my eyes when P'In squatted down and

leaned over my back. His left hand held the back of my left
hand while his right hand encircled my body to hold my right
hand.
I frozed. This posture made it seem like P'In was hugging me.

I tried to get rid of that thought, but it was almost impossible

when his face was so close to mine. His hands that were
touching mine softly were so warm. Our bodies were so close
to each other, I could smell his fragrance, which was the
same as that lip balm I bought.

My eyes were attached to P'In unconsciously. My mind

seemed to be floating away. I wasn't even conscious of what
I was doing.

"Grate from the side first." P'In explained while he moved my

hand to grate the coconut slowly.

That made me realise that I should focus on grating the

coconut.

When P'In lent his hand to help me, I felt like it was much
easier and faster. P'In probably had done this hundreds of
times before, as he was obviously practised.

As P'In continued to hold my hand to grate the coconut, the

grating sound seemed to be tuned out. Instead, I heard the
beating sound of my heart. It was so intense.

I began to get distracted. I was reminded of the legendary

scene of coconut grating in a Thai period movie called
'Maebia'. The scene portrayed a sexy way of coconut grating.
What about me and P'In —

Should it be called — the romantic way of coconut grating?

Because of this thought, my hands suddenly became weak.

My consciousness seemed to fade away. The coconut
accidentally dropped from my hands. Luckily, P'In caught it
in time.
"I'm sorry, P'In!" I apologised immediately.

P'In paused for a while, then asked me in an undertone.

"Tired?"

P'In might have misunderstood that my hands became weak

because of tiredness.

But then him speaking gently near my ears like this was
actually causing my whole body to weaken.

"I'm still...alright..." My voice was shaking. My hands were

shaking as well, making it hard for me to even pick up the
coconut.

P'In moved away from me.

"Never mind, you go sit." P'In pointed to the chair.

"But..."

How could I just sit and do nothing?

"Just sit, it won't be long." P'In insisted, so I had no choice

but to obey him. However, I continued to observe him
cooking.

After that, P'In grated the coconut by himself, his speed

amazed me. I then realised that I should have let him do it
alone rather than helping him. I was the one who slowed
down the process.

P'In finished grating the coconut in less than 10 minutes. He

prepared temperature room water, a colander, and another
bowl. P'In placed them on the counter and started to
squeeze the grated coconut meat to produce coconut milk. I
thought one would need to squeeze it hard, but P'In did it so
gently. The way he made the coconut milk was the most
elegant that I had ever seen.

The fragrant scent of coconut milk was diffused around the

room. This scent made me feel so pleasant, it was even
sweeter than any coconut dessert. I'm not sure if it was
because he mastered the skill of making coconut milk, or it
was because he was 'P'In'.

But I was sure of one thing; if DomKati saw P'In like this, their
hearts would have been squeezed and melted within his
hand like the coconut earlier.

P'In divided the coconut milk into three different bowls by its
consistency, the leftover coconut residue was placed in a
container.

When I saw P'In placing a pan on the stove, I decided to walk

towards the kitchen again.

"P'In, let me help you wash it." I asked him to wash the used
equipment. P'In hesitated but nodded slightly.

While washing, I peeked at P'In cooking. When I watched the

'Moon in the Kitchen' TV program, I was already interested in
P'In's cooking. So when I got to look closer, he looked more
charming.

When the pan reached the proper heat, P'In fried the chicken
with the thinnest coconut milk. Since I had already finished
washing, I helped him tidy up.

"P'In, where should I put the coconut residue?" I asked.

"In the fridge." P'In responded as he kept his eyes on the

pan. I did as he said.
I heard that the coconut residue from making coconut milk
could be used as an ingredient for other Thai desserts.

Once cooked, P'In put the well-done chicken meat into a pot.
Then, he fried the green curry paste with the thicker coconut
milk. The scent of his cooking was so fragrant. I eventually
understood why P'Wayu always sneaked to taste something
while P'In was cooking. It's because the smell was super
mouthwatering. The food wasn't even done yet, but I felt so
irresistibly hungry now.

P'In fried the curry paste until the coconut milk became
creamy and floated up. He seasoned the paste and put it in
the pot with the cooked chicken and heated it again. He also
put in eggplants and added a little more coconut milk. When
it boiled, P'In then added the chilli and kaffir lime leaves.

"You can serve the rice." P'In turned to me.

I saw that the rice was already cooked.

P'In already prepared the plates with forks and spoons, so I

scooped the rice onto the plates for P'In and myself, then
placed them on the dining table.

P'In was scooping the green curry into a bowl delicately

before decorating it with coconut milk— the thickest one,
chilli and basil leaves. Then, he brought it to the table.

"Wow! It looks so delicious! May I take a photo please?" I was

so excited.

The food didn't only smell nice, but it also looked appetising!

P'In just nodded and sat opposite to me, while I took multiple
photos.

"Thank you so much, P'In."

I was so delighted that I could eat with P'In and of course —
P'In's homemade dish.

"No worries. Let's eat." P'In said.

"Alright!" I nodded repeatedly.

We started eating together. P'In seemed to wait for me to

scoop the green curry first. I scooped two spoons, then
passed the spoon to P'In.

When I tasted it — the hot green curry with warm rice, it was
a perfect combination. Incredibly delicious!

This green curry was indeed the most delicious dish that I
had ever eaten. Tendered chicken and fragrant coconut
scent. What I liked best was the mellow taste of curry.

Moreover, P'In's rice was so yummy. I knew it was jasmine

rice, but I was curious which brand he bought and what
technique he used to cook it. I had lived in Thailand since I
was born, but I still hadn't eaten jasmine rice as delicious as
this.

"How is it?" P'In asked while eating.

"It's the most delicious! I want to eat more. Can you cook for
me again?"

I spitted the words out, and immediately wanted to take

those back due to embarrassment.

P'In already cooked for me once. I should appreciate and feel

grateful. How could I bother him to make more?

Oh no. I couldn't believe that yummy food could make me so

greedy.
"You like?"

P'In asked. I didn't know why I felt like blushing.

He was asking whether I 'like' the food or not. I thought.

"I like it." I replied.

I felt myself turning redder.

No way! I couldn't take it anymore. My hands seemed to be

weakened, I almost couldn't hold the fork and spoon.

It was too embarrassing. I needed to change the topic.

"P'In, do you know that people usually plant coconut on the

east side? As they believe that it can bring peacefulness to
their place. P'In, you like coconut, I do too. Coconut fruit isn't
only useful, it also contains many nutrients like vitamin C, B,
amino acid, calcium, magnesium, phosphorus, potassium,
iron, and helps to detox..."

I was unconsciously blurting out words at high speed.

P'In even paused from eating and looked at me, still silent.

Because he was looking at me like this, I became more

nervous. I took my eyes off him and it didn't help. I then
continued rambling.

"Oh right. And the green curry has a long history since the
Ayutthaya[3] period. The green curry recipe was developed
from liang curry and jungle curry with no coconut milk.
Afterwards, the coconut milk and dried chilli were added in
the recipe, so the red curry and spicy curry had been
created. Later, they changed the red chilli to green chilli and
pounded it with coriander which made the curry become
green. That's why it's called 'green' curry. In Thai words, we
call it 'sweet-green curry' and the 'sweet' word doesn't mean
the taste, but it means the sweet soft green colour of the
curry."

P'In stopped eating. He was looking at me without blinking

his eyes. I eventually realised that I interrupted the meal
with my nonsense babbling. And this was the special meal
that P'In made for me.

"Oh, I talk too much. I'm so sorry....well...I..."

I hadn't finished my sentence —

"This rice..." P'In pointed to the rice on my plate.

"Jasmine rice, from grandma's neighbour."

"Uh..." I tried to follow.

Oh right. So this was the secret of the taste. No wonder! It

was actually rice that P'In brought from the countryside. It
must be the rice grown by farmers and freshly milled. That
was why it was more delicious than rice from the retailers,
that was stocked for a long time. P'In was so lucky that he
could have fresh rice with this superb cooking skill. Such a
perfect meal.

"Talk about the rice." P'In told me.

"Huh?" I was confused. "You mean, you want me to talk

about jasmine rice?"

"Yes." He nodded and listened.

"Well...Based on what I know, the most popular varieties of

jasmine rice are '105 jasmine rice' and 'Kor Khor 15 jasmine
rice'. These can be grown once a year. The rice plant has a
slender crust, with a scent like pandan leaves. The climate in
Thailand is suitable for rice plantation, especially in the
northeast of Thailand, in the Thung Kula Ronghai area, also
in the north side of Thailand. In order to cultivate good rice,
it needs to be grown in less flooded fields. Oh, and the
fragrant smell of jasmine rice is from a volatile substance
called '2-Acetyl-1-Pyrroline'."

I was tired of speaking. But then I saw P'In showing an

interesting expression.

"What else do you know?" He asked.

"What else..." I pondered. "What do you want to know?"

"Um..." P'In was thinking. "What about MW Entertainment?"

I was muddled as he immediately asked about his own

agency.

"Well, MW Entertainment was founded 10 years ago,

managed under the Metha group. The biggest shareholder is
Mr. Kriengsak Methawattana. The Metha family is one of the
top 10 richest families in Thailand. And MW International is
on the list of the world's top property values. Uh...MW
entertainment, at present, owns MWTV channel and has
more than hundreds of actors, actresses, models, singers,
idols..."

"What about UNISTAR?" P'In continued.

"UNISTAR?" I blinked.

P'In should know about UNISTAR better than me. However,

since P'In had asked, I just answered.

"UNISTAR is the idol project that MW entertainment founded

2 years ago. The objective was to create brand ambassadors
for products of Metha group. At first, the project had two
producers, Mr. Nattakorn or PD Kwang and another one was
a freelance professional producer. But currently PD Kwang
remained as its sole producer. The project is based on the
national Moon contest. Every year, they will add on a new
member. In its first year, the competition started with a
three-generation contest at the same time. The winner was
P'Sea, P'Leo, and P'In..."

When talking about P'In, my voice pitch lowered.

"What about P'In?"

P'In asked. He even addressed himself as P'.

"Huh?" I was stunned.

"How much do you know?" P'In looked curious.

"Uh..." I lowered my head shyly. Still, my mouth suddenly

blurted...

"P'In...his full name is Intrakorn Dechapraphas, 20 years old.

He currently studies at XU University, Faculty of Business
Administration. P'In is the third generation of UNISTAR
members. His fandom is called 'DomKati' because P'In loves
coconut and coconut milk. He is also good at cooking Thai
food. Besides that, P'In is talented at Thai music — especially
the ranat ek. His favourite sports are long-tail boat race and
sepak takraw. His hobby is folding carp fish. Right now, P'In
has three hundred and five thousand followers on his fan
page, five hundred thousand Twitter followers and 1.1 million
Instagram followers..."

I had talked so much about P'In and began to feel

embarrassed. I couldn't believe I did that in front of P'In.

"You also followed?" P'In tilted his head.

I swallowed hard and admitted.

"Because...P'In...is the senior that I admire."

P'In was silent for a second, then continued.

"What else?"

"Else..." I was stunned again. P'In wanted to listen more

about himself? What else did I know?

I tried to dig out all the memories of everything that I had

read or watched from UNISTAR SHOWTIME! and Twitter.

"Among all of the UNISTAR members, P'In is the Moon that

received the most love from the fans. He doesn't even have
any anti-fans. The secret dream of DomKati is to date P'In
while other fandoms want to pair up their idols with an
imaginary couple. Oh! And P'In is the only member that
never had a girlfriend before. But P'In ideal type is still
unknown. Everyone knows what P'In likes to eat and likes to
do, but no one knows what type of person that P'In likes, and
P'In doesn't know either..."

What? What did I just say? How did it come to this topic?

Oh no! What happened to me?!

"You're wrong." P'In suddenly said.

I widened my eyes.

"Wrong?" My face was pale.

Did I remember it wrong?

"Wrong about two things." P'In replied.

"What did I say wrong?"

"P'Sea also never have..."

P'In said, and I blinked.

P'Sea also never had a girlfriend before? I thought.

Seemingly, many fans thought that P'Sea must have dated
someone before because he was friendly and could easily
socialise. But P'Sea didn't make it clear either. If P'In
confirmed this, then P'Sea really had never dated anyone
before. I turned out to be wrong.

"And what else did I say wrong?" I continued because P'In

said that I was wrong about two things. Then, it meant that I
still got another thing wrong.

"Now I know." P'In answered.

"Know what?" I was confused. He always spoke briefly.

"Know what type of person I like."

P'In looked at my face.

His answer made me gasp. My heart began racing. I didn't

expect a person like P'In would say something like this. I was
so nervous because if P'In said this, it meant that right now,
he already had someone he liked?!

While I was still surprised, P'In added another thing.

"Oh." He said.

"And I know one more thing."

"Yes?" I was listening.

P'In was looking at me, considering something before
saying...

"I know what Win can perform for the contest."

☽------------☽

Footnote :

[1] Coconut grater is a traditional Thai equipment to grate

the coconut into small pieces before it's squeezed to make
coconut milk. The knife that is used for scraping the coconut
looks similar to a rabbit's teeth. So in Thai language, the
coconut grater is called "coconut grater rabbit (
)".
[2] Thai omelette is the most common and easiest dish for
local Thai people, usually eaten with rice. The recipe for Thai
omelette is a little different from other countries. It generally
uses eggs, oil, and fish sauce. The egg is beaten until it's
fluffy before it's poured into very hot oil, fried and flipped
until both sides are golden brown or crispy. Some variants of
the recipe also include spring onions, onions, or tomatoes for
different flavours.

[3] Ayutthaya was the capital city of Thailand in the

historical period from B.E. 1893 to B.E. 2310. Nowadays,
Ayutthaya is regarded as the 'old city' with several valuable
Thai traditional arts and architectures.
Note from Translator :

And here is how green curry that P'In made should look like,
and we should eat with rice. YUM!
If you have a chance to visit Thailand. Besides 'suki' from
previous chapter, don't forget to add 'green curry' and 'Thai
omelette' into your eating list. Also, I recommend to visit
Ayutthaya. It is an old and beautiful city. If you want to see
the characteristic of ancient Thailand, Ayutthaya city would
be the right choice for you. ^_^

Thank you for all support! I'm glad to see feedbacks and
comments. P'In and N'Win also happy too. ^^ I'll try to find
time to work on the next chapter and update as soon as
possible. Thank you so much~ LOVE
Chapter 18 : The
Evaporated Air

Invisible Moon

Chapter 18

The Evaporated Air

"The heat of the Moon could evaporate the Air."

#WINisWIND

"I love reading books and articles, but I don't like textbooks
as much. Oh, I used to join a general knowledge contest, but
I didn't win..."

I explained to P'In after he asked why I knew so many

things.

In fact, I have a good memory, but I could only remember

what I was interested in or whatever I intended to
remember. For example, I knew about Jasmine rice because
I loved to eat it, I knew about coconut because I also loved
to eat it recently. And I knew about P'In and UNISTAR
because — ahh...why? Why did I know so much about them?

Whatever it was, it was true that I had broad knowledge, but

I had a limitation of understanding because I could only
remember the basic things. I wasn't good at understanding
in depth or complex knowledge. That was the reason why
my studies weren't outstanding even though I had an
extremely good memory. Unfortunately, there was no
general knowledge class in my school, so my special ability
was rather useless in my pursuit for academic excellence.

"Why didn't you win?" P'In asked. And I recalled a pitiful

memory.

"Well, in that contest, I actually knew all the answers, but

the judge didn't notice me when I raised my hand..." I
sighed. My invisible curse was always a nuisance.

P'In paused for a while before continuing to ask.

"So can you perform it?"

I was shocked. P'In wanted me to perform a general

knowledge for the Moon contest?

How?

"Really? But no one has performed this kind of ability in our

university before." I wasn't confident.

In general, people would prefer fun and exciting

performances, ones that were pleasurable to watch and
listen to. I couldn't imagine what kind of general knowledge
performance would interest people.

P'In then put down his cutleries. He walked to the sofa,

picked up a piece of paper, then came back and handed it
to me.

It was the list of judges for this year's XU Moon and Star
contest.
I knew that normally, my university would change the
judges every year. Each year, teachers from each faculty
would be randomly selected to be fair. However, this year
was special, as there were students who would be part of
the judging panel — P'Wayu and P'In — the current UNISTAR
members.

"Teachers from three faculties," P'In said.

I shifted my focus to the teachers' profiles.

The first judge was the Head of Department from the Faculty
of Architecture. The second one was the Assistant Professor
from the Faculty of Science, Department of Astronomy, and
the third was a special lecturer from the Faculty of Arts,
Department of Chinese Language.

"On stage, let the judges ask." P'In explained how to

perform, in his usual brief way. I tried to imagine it.

If I got on the stage and told them that my special ability

was general knowledge, the judges could ask me anything
that was not advanced knowledge. In fact, it wasn't a very
exciting or impressive ability like a musical talent or acting
performance, nevertheless, supposing that I could answer
all the questions they asked, it would be rather novel.

His idea was indeed not bad. I sort of agree with him. It's
better than letting me perform something common that I'm
not even good at. This unusual performance could probably
turn out memorable for the audience.

Still, concerning my ability, I do know various things, but I

might not know enough.

"P'In, how can I make sure I'll be able to answer all

questions from the judges?"
"Prepare for it," P'In said while pointing to the paper that I
was holding.

"In a short time, the questions will be about their major."

P'In explained briefly and I understood it.

What P'In said was reasonable. In a short period of time to

ask something, most people would naturally stick to their
field of expertise. For example, the teacher from the
architecture faculty might ask about houses and buildings,
the teacher from the astronomy department might ask
about planets and stars and the Chinese language teacher
might ask about Chinese culture. So, I could prepare by
reading and memorising all these areas of knowledge.

"Eat up."

After discussing the performance, P'In urged me to continue

eating. So we kept eating the best green curry that P'In
made.

It was the most delicious meal ever!

Once we finished eating, I offered to wash dishes. P'In didn't

say a word, he just wiped the table and counters.

While I was washing at the sink, I thought of something.

Although I occasionally met P'In, I never had the chance to
ask about it, so this might be a good opportunity.

"P'In... a few days ago I went to the overpass, but that old
man wasn't there anymore. Do you know where he went?"

I asked him about the old man that P'In often gave food to.

"Back home." P'In answered, still wiping the table.

"Back home..." I was a bit surprised. As I remembered, that
old man was dumped by his son because of debt or
something and now he was already back at home with his
son?

"Non-profit foundation helped find him, I went and met his

son." P'In said without looking at me.

"P'In contacted his son?" I asked.

"Yes." P'In nodded.

"How did you persuade the son?" I was curious.

"I don't know," P'In seemed to clueless of the reason.

"Just went to see him. He looked shocked and promised to

take his father back."

I was confused with his explanation for a while. From P'In's

expression, he probably didn't understand why the son was
suddenly willing to take the father back either.

As I thought about it, realisation hit me and it caused me to

laugh.

I understand now. God! It was incredible.

My guess? P'In probably went to meet the son and told him
that his father was facing difficulties, but was still waiting for
the son. P'In's intention was only to let the son feel
sympathetic, nothing else. But P'In said that the son seemed
really shocked. So I assumed that the son might already
know who P'In was. The son knew that P'In was the UNISTAR
member who had a good reputation for social responsibility.
P'In, who was so rarely seen, went to see the son himself.
How could the son think in any other way? The son must
have been scared to death. It's obvious that if the son still
ignored his father and neglected him, the father would
become P'In's responsibility. If P'In's fans found out, then the
son would be in trouble.

Nevertheless, from all of this, the most humorous thing was

P'In didn't even realise what he had done.

"Why laugh?" P'In tilted his head. He was standing beside

me, waiting for me to finish washing the dishes so he could
wash the wiping cloth.

"No, nothing," I held my laugh. P'In was indeed an incredible

person.

"P'In krub." Since I had a chance to talk, I just didn't want to

stop.

"Do you still feed the fish and stray dogs recently?"

I thought about the waterfront near our university that P'In

usually visited.

"Not often," P'In said. "Fish aren't hungry, dogs have

homes."

His answer made me think of what I did before. I posted on

Twitter and made that place an attraction. P'In fans came to
take care of stray dogs and always fed the fish, and it
seemed like grandma's bread was sold out every day too.

However, I still wasn't sure of how P'In thought about this.

"P'In. Are you okay with this?"

"Why not?" P'In said. "It's for the best."

"Oh," I nodded. "Actually, if you just posted or told your
fans, they would surely be willing to help."

"No." P'In replied immediately. "They've already done a lot.

If I can, I'll do it myself."

I smiled for DomKati after hearing his reply. P'In was really
different from other idols. Although P'In didn't express much
emotion, he indeed cared for his fans. Although his fans
were willing to help, P'In still thought that they already did a
lot. P'In tried to do his best on his own without disturbing
anyone else.

How could DomKati not fall for him?

But I was still wondering. Did P'In know that I posted that
tweet? But I didn't dare to ask him.

"P'In. Let me wash the cloth for you." I picked up the used
cloth and washed it.

P'In was standing still, then, he picked another clean cloth to

dry the washed dishes, so there would be more space to
place the dishes.

I thought I should stop asking, but I couldn't —

"P'In krub. About the rose...on Rose Day..."

Though I brought it up, I ended up bending my head.

I couldn't help but wonder. There were so many beautiful

women at our university, but why was I the one who
received his rose?

"Why...did you give it to me?"

After P'In heard my question, he stopped wiping and asked
me back.

"Don't like?"

"I like!" I replied immediately as I didn't want P'In to

misunderstand.

I pressed my lips tight after those words escaped my mouth.

I just said 'I like' unconsciously. I felt like I was blushing.

"You like?" P'In repeated my words. My hands started

shaking.

"Yes, I...I like." Even my voice was shaking too. The world
around me seemed to blur out.

The cloth was already washed clean, but my hand was too
weak to turn off the tap, so the water kept running through
my hand.

P'In looked at me and glanced at my soaked hands. P'In

helped me to turn off the tap. I was startled as P'In came
closer. I could smell his scent again. I could only lower my
head, like a turtle shrinking into its shell.

"Thanks." P'In said lightly while leaning closer, gently pulling

out the cloth from my hand.

Both my hands and legs became weak. I didn't know

whether P'In thanked me for helping him wash the cloth or
thanked me for liking his rose.

But I couldn't stand this any longer. My body was limp and I
had to hold the counter as I went back to the dining table.

After P'In hung the cloth, he turned back to me.

"Wanna eat strawberries?" P'In took out a box of
strawberries from the fridge and washed them.

"Oh thank you krub, P'In." I told him, feeling relieved that
the topic had changed.

P'In invited me to eat strawberries? My imagination ran wild,

as strawberries usually symbolised cuteness and sweetness.
I blushed as I imagined myself and P'In eating something
cute and sweet together.

It was just eating strawberries and nothing else, wasn't it? I

pulled myself together.

P'In sat opposite to me with a bowl of strawberries. I took a

look at the fresh and red strawberries. They looked cute and
would obviously be sweet.

"Wanna eat?" P'In picked one and pushed the bowl towards
me. I thanked him and picked one too.

I slowly bit into the strawberry and widened my eyes. It was

really delicious and luscious. So fresh and sweet. I had no
idea where he bought them, or perhaps his fans gave them
to him.

I was happily chewing the strawberry.

P'In was so kind. He not only treated me to a meal and

cooked for me, but he also served me fruits. P'In was
definitely the best buddy-code senior.

I realised that I should repay him too. But what can I give
him?

Oh right. I had a chocolate bar in my bag. I bought it as my

snack this morning.
"P'In. Please wait a moment."

I took my bag and searched for it. Where was it? I couldn't
remember where I put it. There was too much stuff in my
bag.

"P'In, sorry but I'll just..." I said as I took out the bunch of
things out of my bag – such as notebooks, books, a pencil
case, and so on – so it would be easier to find the chocolate.

I was determined to find that chocolate bar.

"Found it!" I mumbled and took it out. It was at the bottom

of my bag, but was still in good condition, neither crushed
nor melted.

"P'In krub. For you..."

I was about to hand the chocolate bar to P'In, but suddenly

paused.

P'In was holding something and he was looking at it with a

curious expression.

When I realised what it was, I almost shrieked.

"Oh no!" I was shocked because it was the lip balm that I
recently bought.

Normally, I wouldn't bring any cosmetics with me. It's just

that I really liked this lip balm and I couldn't live without it,
so I kept it with me all the time.

The problem was, it wasn't just any normal lip balm. The
tube was labelled UNILIP and the brand 'Molly Welly'. But on
the other side of the tube, it was P'In's character with the
UNISTAR logo.
One would know that it was a UNISTAR product even if they
were looking from the Planet Pluto[1], it was obvious that
the user was a UNISTAR fan.

No way, it was embarrassing!

"I like this scent!" I blurted a split second excuse because I

didn't want P'In to feel weird about me.

How could I say that I bought it because I like P'In?

P'In looked at me, his expression curious.

"It was my sister," I hurriedly attempted to elaborate.

"My sister is a UNISTAR fan. She always uses this lip balm,
and I just like the scent. So I bought one as well."

I knew that mentioning P'Wun was a silly excuse. In fact, I

didn't lie, well, not all of it. Because P'Wun was actually a
UNISTAR fan. I heard that she was once successful at buying
a ticket to a fanmeet. I wasn't sure who she preferred the
most, as my sister kept changing her bias, even more often
than changing her clothes, depending on her mood.

P'In was silent for a while. I started feeling worried. He

might be doubting me.

"P'In..." I hesitated to ask him.

Suddenly, P'In just stood up and walked to his bedroom.

I became nervous. Was he angry at me? Was he unhappy

with me? What should I do now? Should I tell him the truth?

While I was anxious, P'In came out from his bedroom. His
hand was holding a bottle and he handed it to me.
I gazed at him in astonishment.

"Try this," P'In said.

So I instinctively received the bottle.

It was a simple glass bottle with a spray on the top, and

clear liquid inside. I noticed the label and realised that it was
the perfume's brand.

"You are giving it to me?" I was surprised.

"You like the scent," P'In answered, before reaching out his
hand to press the spray. The scent diffused around us, it was
a very soft mellow smell.

"Oh, this smell!" My eyes widened again in realisation.

Right! It was P'In's scent — but not that exactly. P'In's scent
had a more concentrated coconut milk fragrance.

Oh right! If we mix this perfume with the coconut milk

scent, it would turn out exactly as the lip balm's scent —
P'In's unique scent. Since P'In used this perfume and made
fresh coconut milk every day, it naturally became his
personal scent.

"What about you?" I felt concerned. At first, I intended to

give him a chocolate bar in return for sharing the
strawberries, but it ended with P'In giving me a bottle of
perfume.

"I have another one," P'In said. "You like, take it."

I widened my eyes again. To sum it up, P'In gave his

perfume to me because I told him that I liked the lip balm
scent. Despite the fact that I actually do love it, that was
just an excuse to avoid any misunderstandings. Instead of
feeling weird about it, P'In gave me a bottle of perfume that
was similar to the scent of the lip balm because the scent of
this range of lip balms imitated each UNISTAR member's
personal scent.

God! I was such a bad and stupid Win.

"I really appreciate it, but I don't think I can take it," I
lowered my head in shame.

Today, I've received too much from him without any chance
to repay them.

"Don't like?" P'In tilted his neck a little.

"I like...I really like," I said and gulped.

Why did P'In keep asking 'Don't like?' and making me say 'I
like' every time? He left me no choice but to admit that I like
it.

I already said 'like' unconsciously again. What should I do?

This time, however, I was determined to give him the

chocolate bar.

"P'In. Please take my chocolate." I finally handed it to him.

He took it, but paused and asked...

"Is today Valentine's day?" P'In glanced at me.

"Huh?" I was stunned. "No, it's not February."

"Or White day?" P'In tilted his head.

"Not March either," I replied, confused.

"Uh. Then, why give it to me?" P'In asked back.

"Oh, I gave it to you because..." I thought for a second.

I wanted to tell him that I intended to repay him, but when I

compared the price between the chocolate and the perfume
— the gap was obviously too big.

"Because I admire you." I eventually answered.

P'In fell silent, seemingly wondering about what I just said.

"It isn't a Valentine's gift," P'In murmured.

"Huh?" I was shocked, trying to rethink what he had said.

I gave a chocolate to P'In and he asked whether today was

Valentine or White day or not. So could it be — P'In
misunderstood that I gave him a chocolate as a love
confession?!

I was blushing. My face felt so hot, I was sure I had turned

red.

P'In lifted his eyes from the chocolate bar in his hand, and
looked at me. He blinked, twice.

"Why is your face red?" P'In asked. He didn't take his eyes
off me.

"Huh? What?" I exclaimed, touching my face.

Did my face turn too red?

Unexpectedly, P'In didn't only say it, but also reached his
hand across the dining table and slightly poked my cheek.
When I felt the touch from his warm finger, I felt like the
heat from my face was flowing all over my body. I could
even hear the sound of my heart beating so loudly.

"Red, like strawberry," P'In commented.

"Is...that s...so?" My voice was shaking. I was too nervous to

say another word.

"Yes." P'In nodded. He took back his hand and used it — the
hand that had poked my cheek — to pop another strawberry
into his mouth.

"Yum," P'In said while chewing the strawberry, looking at me

at the same time while remaining emotionless.

I swallowed hard.

P'In was only eating a strawberry. But after poking my cheek

and telling me my face was red like a strawberry as well as
saying 'Yum' afterwards...

I thought I was in trouble — my heart was in trouble, caused

by his simple actions.

As if I was going to turn into overheated air – evaporating,

floating and exploding like fireworks.

Because of the Invisible Moon.

☽------------☽

Footnote :

[1] Looking from the Planet Pluto is a Thai slang, it has

the same meaning as 'just a glance'.
Chapter 19 : The Air
Became Coconut Milk
Invisible Moon

Chapter 19

The Air Became Coconut Milk

"If a coconut could turn into kati (coconut milk),

then could the air become DomKati?"

#WINisWIND

"Did I already...become a DomKati?"

I was rubbing my temples at my desk, as I was already back

in my dorm. I felt like I had my head in the clouds. I had no
idea what was wrong with me. I only knew that I had just
been sitting and smiling to myself for an hour while watching
a bottle of perfume which was placed beside the carp fish
and the rose from P'In. I also sprayed the perfume P'In gave
me all over the room. Moreover, even though I was full, I was
still eating the coconut cake that was kept in the fridge.

When I became conscious again, I realised that I was

searching the hashtag #InvisibleMoon and found a tweet
posted by DomKati.

If IN is my husband I'll study hard @kati_superfan

The 3 telling signs that you've become #DomKati
#InvisibleMoon

First - Eat everything that has coconut as an ingredient

Second - Flinch whenever you hear 'IN' (e.g. in-trend, inter,

indy)

Third - Do good & love traditional Thai things

Really?

I evaluated myself. The first sign, the evidence was exactly

in my mouth. I was eating the coconut cake which I didn't
even realise I had bought. The second sign, flinching
whenever I heard part of P'In's name. That was true as well.
And the third sign, started to do good and love Thai things.
Also true.

Wait...so I had already become a DomKati?

"Oh! What should I do?" I held my head. I had no choice but

to admit that I was P'In's fanboy. Since when? In the past,
P'Wun had been obsessed over many male idols to the point
that I could remember all their names, but I wasn't
interested before. Then how did I suddenly become P'In's fan
now?

Nevertheless...

I was smiling stupidly as I looked at the carp fish, the rose

and the perfume bottle that had been added to my personal
collection. My heart felt so warm.

I suddenly recalled P'In's words.

"Red, like strawberry."

"Ahhh!" I held my cheek — which was poked by P'In — and
was swinging my legs like an idiot.

I was that close to P'In and I didn't even need to queue up to

join events or buy fanmeet tickets like others.

I was definitely the luckiest and happiest DomKati.

During the weekend, I didn't have any plans other than to

prepare for the contest. So I spent most of my time in the
library, reading the books for my general knowledge
performance.

I hadn't seen P'In since then. But I saw from other UNISTAR
members' Twitter and Instagram that they were filming the
music video for an advertisement this week. P'In must be
busy.

Today I was a fading Win, as usual. I didn't do my makeup or

hair, so, I could stay in the library peacefully without anyone
noticing me. It was sort of amazing that I only needed to
remove my makeup and I would return to being ordinary air.

I was reading in the library for many hours and started to

feel sleepy, so I opened my phone, put on my headphones
and searched on YouTube.

"Oh right, I haven't watched the previous UNISTAR contest."

I just remembered. I had watched many UNISTAR TV

programs, but never thought of watching the UNISTAR
contest before, until Mr. Chana mentioned them in class.

I was curious about how P'In performed in the contest.

I searched for the UNISTAR contest video — the three-

generation contest which included P'Sea and P'Leo, but I only
watched P'In's part.
"Oh my God! The stage was extremely large."

I felt excited as I saw the contest atmosphere. It looked like a

concert mixed with the Miss Universe contest. I hadn't
thought that the contest would be so big, with a huge
audience.

"Oh, P'In! Wow!" I exclaimed as P'In came up on the stage to

perform his special talent. P'In wore a Thai traditional
costume made of silk, his phraratchathan[1] shirt was paired
with an exquisite pair of chong kben[2] pants.

Once P'In sat in front of the ranad ek, he raised his hands to
pay respect and began playing.

I was surprised because instead of playing a traditional Thai

song, he played an international song.

As I kept listening, I realised it was the song 'See You Again'

from Wiz Khalifa. It was literally a western song, but when
P'In was playing it using a Thai musical instrument, it
sounded so melodic. Plus, with him wearing this costume
while playing the ranad ek, it made him look so enchanting.
As if he just walked out of the pages of a Thai ancient novel.

I was enjoying the performance until P'In swiped the ranad

with a stick and increased the tempo.

"Sugar, Maroon 5." I mumbled.

I tapped my fingers on the table, following the rhythm as I

listened without even realising it. His performance wasn't
only symphonic, it was also enjoyable. P'In didn't play only
one song, but he mixed many different ones — like a ranad
medley. There were many familiar international songs such
as 'Just the Way You Are' by Bruno Mars and 'One Call Away'
by Charlie Puth'. P'In mixed all the songs, playing them back
and forth, harmoniously. Every melody was produced by a
single ranad ek.

Fabulous!

There was no other word to describe this performance

except fabulous.

In this video, the cheering sound was extremely

overwhelming. If I was a judge, I would have given him — a
hundred out of ten!

It's no wonder P'In could become a UNISTAR member. Good-

looking. Outstanding talent. Plus, distinctive characteristics.
Oh right! How did he do in the interview part?

I kept watching until the video reached P'In's interview

section of the contest.

The question he got was very basic; why do you want to be a

UNISTAR?

Yeah. Why? I was also wondering about that. P'In lived

invisibly, like he didn't want to be a celebrity or idol. So how
did an introvert person like P'In become the UNISTAR?

"At first, I didn't want to be a UNISTAR." P'In held the mic and
answered.

This was the first time I could hear P'In speaking clearly
using full structured sentences, and he didn't redact the
sentences into a few words. Apparently, P'In was capable of
communicating in proper language.

In short, P'In could speak normal human language!

"I didn't know why I should become famous. Idol wasn't my

answer."
I turned pale as I listened to his reply. Wait. How could he
answer it like that?

Too direct. God. Didn't he want to be a UNISTAR member?

But I kept watching. P'In must have more to say. Otherwise,

he would not be the UNISTAR like now.

"If so, then why did you choose to be here?" PD Kwang, one
of the judges, asked back.

P'In was standing still for a second. His gaze looked distant,
perhaps thinking of someone. Then, P'In answered.

"My grandma said, there were still many people in this world
trying to find happiness, without ever understanding — what
true happiness is."

P'In continued.

"Each person might define happiness in a different way. In

fact, happiness is never far away. There's no need to spend
money, it could just be a small thing. Happiness can be
family, friends, or nature surrounding us. Unfortunately, only
a few people could realise this kind of happiness."

"So, the reason why I'm standing right here is because I wish
for everyone to see what true happiness is."

I was left in awe by his words. Apparently, since idols were

constantly in the limelight, whatever they did would naturally
gain attention. Whatever they do would have a significant
influence on society.

I was reminded of many good things that P'In had done. P'In
rarely posted on Twitter, but he always retweeted whenever
somebody needed help. P'In had never posted his own selfie
on IG, but he posted beautiful images of nature.
P'In barely used any words, but he presented happiness
through his actions.

When looking at the beautiful nature or good things in

society, I also felt warm and happy.

Here it was, the small happiness without any cost, but

extremely valuable.

"I see. This is the last question. What is true happiness for
you, N'In?" PD Kwang asked.

P'In was silent for a moment and said.

"For me, before, it had always been my family..."

His voice was shaking, but still in control.

"But I eventually realised, even my family couldn't stay with

me forever."

My tears dropped. Even though I already knew that P'In

didn't have both parents now, I felt sad hearing this.

"But I'd like to thank my grandma, who showed me true

happiness..."

P'In continued.

"The happiness that is passed on to others, will be the

happiness that lasts forever."

"Wow..." I was impressed.

Only a simple sentence, but was so deep in meaning.

When we defined happiness as a person or an object, it

wasn't sustainable. Because an object would decay. Because
a person would pass away. It was a fact of life.

On the other hand, if we defined happiness in terms of

internal feelings, the happiness that was passed on to
others, it would create much more happiness by sharing the
happiness. Others who received the happiness would keep
sharing. Again and again. It was endless happiness — the
happiness that lasts forever. True happiness that P'In had
mentioned.

I believed, for many fans, P'In wasn't only their idol. P'In was
their positive energy. Whenever they were encountering any
difficulties, whenever they were feeling down and worthless,
whenever they were losing someone important, only seeing
what P'In had done, receiving the happiness that P'In had
shared, it could encourage them, it could give them strength,
and it could make them look forward to the future.

There was no doubt why P'In was chosen as a UNISTAR.

There was no doubt about everything that P'In did. And there
was no doubt why P'In was the Moon that received the most
love from the fans.

And I had no regret being enslaved by UNISTAR marketing!

"Win, fighting!"

After watching the UNISTAR contest video. I felt so energetic

and encouraged. I didn't want to disappoint P'In. I must put
in my best effort for the University Moon contest!

The new week began and I had something new added to my

schedule — a photoshoot for XU Official Facebook page. The
photos would be utilised during the voting process for the
University Moon contest that would be held soon.
In addition, the seniors would be checking on the signature
collection book this evening. I had been busy with the Moon
contest, so I almost forgot about that.

Since I had to go and take photos today, I did my makeup

and hair. The student committee sent me an email to set the
appointment at 10 A.M. Today, I had a class with Mr. Chana,
so I asked him for special permission to leave the class and
he granted my request.

However, it wasn't 10 A.M. yet. At first, I planned to leave my

dorm near the appointment time, but I suddenly felt like
eating tako (Thai pudding with coconut topping) and coconut
milk piekpoon (pandanus pudding in coconut cream). I
remembered that the market near my university had that, so
I went to buy them even though I still wasn't used to
attracting attention. Luckily, it was during class hours, so
most of the students were still in the classrooms.

I couldn't help but wonder, how did the other UNISTAR

members, besides P'In, normally live on campus? Even a
common person with a good-looking face could easily attract
attention from others. If they were both good-looking and
famous idols, the fans would be swarming them wherever
they went. That was why UNISTAR members needed ten
bodyguards each.

When I arrived at the market, I bought a set of each different

tako flavour such as taro, corn, and ginkgo. Basically, I
bought every flavour that was available at the stall. I didn't
know why I was so greedy. Plus, I also bought three cups of
piekpoon.

I found a good place to sit beside the lake on campus. While I

was eating, I recalled that this was the place where I first
met P'In.
Oh right! Did anyone feed the fish yet?

I placed down the spoon and looked in my bag. Luckily, I had

a box of biscuits with me, so I broke the biscuit into smaller
pieces and fed the fish.

When I saw the fish swimming in front of me to eat, I smiled

happily.

"Huh? What..." I suddenly paused.

I came to a fully conscious realisation that I had bought so

many coconut desserts and I was also feeding the fish — I
did everything like P'In always did.

What was happening to me?

Was I already sort of pulled into P'Inism?

"Oh no! I'm already a DomKati!" I tugged my head.

Alright. Fine. I'll admit it.

I was a DomKati.

I was an absolute P'In fanboy.

☽------------☽

Footnote :

[1] Phraratchathan is a traditional Thai shirt for male,

usually worn on formal occasions.

[2] Chong Kben is a traditional Thai pants that can be worn

by both male and female. It is a piece of cloth wrapped
around the waist then pulled back between the legs and
tucked in at the back.

The cloth that P'In was wearing in the UNISTAR Contest

should look like this photo~
Chapter 20 : Embrace The
Moon

Invisible Moon

Chapter 20

Embrace The Moon

"The air couldn't be touched,

but it was always by the moon's side, under the moonlight"

#WINisWIND

"One more shot, one, two, three..." I was wearing the

university's uniform, standing and shooting photos at the
studio of the student committee building. I tried to smile
relaxingly, but I was still a bit nervous. As it was my first
time taking a profile photo, and what's more, there were
many seniors standing around, whispering about me.

"Hey, look, the business Moon is so cute."

"Wow. 360 degree cute."

"I heard P'In chose him to be their Faculty Moon."

"P'In is handsome, P'Wayu is sexy, and this boy is super

cute!"
"Yeah. Real Cute Boy indeed."

I was both shy and nervous during the photoshoot, and

when it was done, I sighed in relief.

"Thank you ka. This is the schedule for the Moon contest.
We will have a rehearsal on the day before the contest. If
you need any special equipment for the performance,
please let us know."

The senior gave me a schedule sheet while explaining. I

thanked her and raised my hands to pay respect and greet
goodbye.

I looked at the time. The photoshoot only took half an hour.

My morning class hadn't ended yet. So I headed to my
faculty building. Today was Mr. Chana's class. Even though
he had already excused me from class for the Moon
photoshoot, I didn't want to miss his amazing lesson.

As I went over the contest schedule while walking back, I

couldn't help but be shocked.

"What?! the contest will be held by the end of this month?!"

I exclaimed. It was too soon. I was just selected as the
Faculty Moon last week, and now I found out that the
contest was just around the corner.

However, my Faculty Moon contest was arranged later than

others. Some faculties had already selected their Moon even
before the semester had started. It was probably delayed
because P'In, who was responsible for selecting the Moon
candidate, was busy.

When I arrived in the classroom, I pushed the door to open it

slightly. Mr. Chana noticed me and he just nodded. I went to
sit with Boss. He and his friends greeted me as usual.
After we finished the class, we had a lunch break and had an
English class in the afternoon. Then, we had another
orientation session in the evening. When we were gathering
at the faculty courtyard, I couldn't help but look for P'In. I
wondered whether he would come today. Well, I was a little
disappointed as I couldn't see him.

"Win! What are you looking for?" Phan asked me. I flinched
slightly.

Normally, with my fading characteristic, whatever I did or

wherever I was, nobody would notice me. But now, it wasn't
like before anymore.

"I was just wondering. Didn't P'In come today?" My word

slipped out.

"Oh, P'In? I heard that DomKati was gathering at the MW

Entertainment building today. He's probably recording a TV
program."

"TV program..."

"Yep! A recording. It might be UNISTAR SHOWTIME!"

"Oh! And 'The Moon in the Kitchen' right?" I couldn't help

but say.

Speaking of that TV program, I couldn't stop thinking of the

taste of P'In's green curry.

"Wow! Maybe. Oh! I didn't know you watched this program

too."

I tried to smile. I had no idea how to tell everyone that I was

a DomKati as well.
However, our orientation session just began. P'Tong spoke
through the megaphone.

"As we said, today we'll be counting the senior signatures.

Do you remember? Freshies, please write your name on
your notebook cover and pass it to the front."

I took out the signature collection book. In fact, I hadn't

counted how many signatures that I had gotten so far. At
least, I had some signatures from my seniors, so I wouldn't
be punished.

"The one who has the fewest signatures must dance in front
of everyone as a penalty. And we have a surprise! The top
three freshmen who collected the most signatures will be
receiving a reward. We'll treat you to free meals and drinks
tonight!"

When P'Tong said that, some freshmen seemed

disappointed as they didn't know about it before. They said
if they had known that, they would have worked harder to
collect the seniors' signatures.

After the seniors received all the signature books from us,
they started counting while P'Tong led us to practice the
cheering song. When we all sang too much until we had
almost no voice left, P'Tong made an announcement during
the snack break.

"Alright. We've finished counting. Before we announce the

winner, let's give a penalty to the one who got the fewest
signatures. Well, you might already know it."

P'Tong said with a laugh.

The one who got the fewest signatures was a humorous guy.
I guess he purposely didn't do it. It's not surprising that one
dance wasn't a big deal for him.

"And the winners with the most signatures are... First place
— wow! Two hundred and thirty-eight signatures."

Two hundred?! Excuse me?! I was shocked. I knew it wasn't

me because if not mistaken, I should have only about a
hundred.

"Please give an applause to N'Boss!"

The moment P'Tong announced the name, everyone clapped

out loud. I did as well. It's no surprise that Boss came out as
the winner. He really worked hard to collect them.

"The second place — with two hundred and two signatures

— N'Nina!"

I remembered that name. Nina the Faculty Star.

"And the third winner — with one hundred and fifty-two

signatures — N'Win!"

I flinched as I heard my name. At first, I thought it might be

someone else with the same name. But in fact, there was
nobody else named 'Win' in my year.

I was in the top three? Oh...

"Wow! Although third place, you had IN's signature. You're

the true winner!" P'Noey announced excitedly.

I thought everyone already knew that I got P'In's signature

because I was his buddy-code family. However, they were
still excited. Many seniors still wanted to see my signature
book. Many friends also asked me to see it as well. I couldn't
say anything and just smiled.
"Boss?" I was stunned as I coincidentally met Boss's eyes.
He was staring at me coldly, making me feel a little
unsettled. He seemed to be aware of that, so he
immediately flashed me a natural smile.

Though it was temporary, I was quite worried. Boss actually

won while I only placed third, but people paid more
attention to me just because I got P'In's signature. In fact, it
was a bit unfair for the one who put in all his effort. It's not
weird for him to feel upset about that.

When our session ended, the seniors released us for the

day. As for me, Boss and Nina, we were asked to follow the
seniors out for that free meal they promised us. Most of
these seniors were our P'Cheers and they've already
reserved the restaurant.

"Including the first years and third years, we have fifteen

people and four cars, so we'll split into four groups." P'Tong
said.

The seniors split us as we were the first-years. Nina went

with the female seniors, Boss went with the male seniors,
and I went with P'Tong and P'Noey.

P'Tong was driving and P'Noey sat in the back with me.

"N'Win, how're you doing? Have you met IN recently?"

P'Noey's voice sounded excited.

"Ah..." I had no idea what to say.

I thought of the dinner I had with P'In in his dorm, but it was
a bit too awkward to tell other people. So I just nodded
slightly.
"Wow! That's so nice. I envy you. I wanna meet IN often
too." P'Noey said with a dreamy face.

"Will P'In come today?" I couldn't help but ask. Because I

didn't see P'In today, but I was still hoping he would join
today's party.

"IN has to work..." P'Noey said.

"...and the restaurant is kind of a bar. This morning Tong

already asked IN, but he said no, because he normally won't
drink. It's also about his PR image. If he comes to the bar, it
won't be good for him."

P'Noey explained further.

I understood because it made sense. P'In had a very positive

image and was a role model for the younger generation.
Going to the bar wasn't really good for his image. Plus, he
had so many things to do in a day, including giving alms for
the monk, feeding fish and dogs — obviously he had no time
to spare. Not to mention work related to UNISTAR. He
probably wouldn't have time to go anywhere at all.

Suddenly, my phone rang.

"Oh." I was surprised when I saw that P'In sent me a

message. I was both delighted and amazed at the same
time.

P'In: Where are you?

P'Tong said that P'In wouldn't come, so I simply replied.

Win: I'm with 3rd-year seniors, we're going for a special

treat.
I also asked P'Noey about the restaurant name and sent it to
P'In. But he was just silent afterwards, and didn't reply to
me anymore.

The restaurant wasn't that far from my university. With clear

roads, it only took us twenty minutes to reach. The senior
booked a personal room and had already ordered the food in
advance. There were a variety of Thai dishes and snacks,
and most importantly, alcoholic drinks and beer.

"Come, come. Sit here. If you want anything else, feel free
to order. It's a big treat today!"

"Thank you, seniors." The three of us thanked them.

Since we were the youngest ones, they arranged for us to

sit separately. I sat between P'Noey and P'Tong instead of
next to Boss or Nina. The male seniors seemed to be in a
good mood as they poured the drinks for me.

"Here you are. Let's celebrate our new Faculty Moon!

Cheers!"

They were clinking glasses, so I followed them. But when I

looked at the drink, I hesitated because I had never drank
any before. I had no idea what it would be like.

'Would I be drunk or not?'

However, I didn't want my hesitation to ruin the

atmosphere, so I just drank a bit. When the drink flowed
down my throat, it felt a bit sore. After that, I felt a bit dizzy,
but I was still conscious. I knew what I was doing, but I
thought that if it wasn't necessary, I wouldn't drink again.

Since I wasn't a sociable and partying type, I could only sit

and eat. I only talked when someone turned to chat with
me. I saw Boss and Nina socialising with each senior with
ease, while I could only smile shyly.

"Hey, I'm going to smoke outside. Anyone wanna join?" A

male senior asked.

"I'm coming." Boss stood up. I was a bit surprised to know

that he also smoked.

"Count me in too." A number of seniors followed as well.

"Nong Moon, wanna come?" A senior invited me.

"Well, I don't smoke." I told him the truth.

"Is that so? Wanna try? I can teach you."

I felt a little awkward. I had never thought about smoking

before. Still, I was concerned whether it was part of
socialisation among the men.

While I was worried about how I should reject it without

making them feel bad...

"Do not smoke."

A familiar voice was heard. I was stunned. Not only me,

everyone else was just as stunned. Apparently, we saw
someone we never expected to see here.

"Oh? IN?" P'Tong exclaimed.

P'In was standing at the door. I had never seen this

expression on him before. He seemed to be breathless, as if
he had rushed over here.

I was surprised to see him here. At the same time, it was a

relief that we were in a personal room. At least he wouldn't
be seen by the fans, which could affect his image.

"Well, so it turns out you can join us. That's very good. We
have a lot of food here. Or you can order more. Let's enjoy."
P'Tong invited P'In, but P'In just glanced at P'Tong and said
nothing.

"IN, you can sit here. We will go out for a smoke." One
senior emptied his seat for P'In and turned to me.

"Nong Moon, are you coming with us?"

When that senior asked me, P'In's expression turned cold.

"I said, do not smoke." P'In said clearly. That senior

appeared to be confused.

"What? Oh, I see. Hey, I know he is your buddy-code family,

but you don't own his life, right? If he wants to smoke, it's
his choice."

"He must not smoke." P'In still insisted.

The atmosphere suddenly became tense.

P'In swept his eyes over the table, which was filled with
alcoholic drinks.

"He must not drink too." P'In turned to me.

"Hey. Isn't it too much?" That senior started to be mean to

P'In.

"Does that make sense? We are treating the freshmen.

We're just having fun and drinking is just a part of it. Why
are you so serious about that?"

"Because it's not good," P'In said.

"You're thinking too much. Only one drink and a smoke.
Nobody dies because of that." Another senior was laughing
as if it was just a joke.

However, P'In suddenly stared at that senior. His expression

was so cold that I felt shocked. P'In had never made such a
cold face like this before. Not even once. Even that senior
was shocked as well.

"Hey, hey, don't be like this everyone..." P'Tong tried to

mediate their argument.

"IN. He didn't intend to say that. Well, I'm happy you can
come. Wanna eat something? No smoking and no drinking
anymore. Is that okay?"

P'In looked at P'Tong, his expression became more relaxed

but was still cold.

Then, P'In turned to me, startling me. It looked like he

wanted to say something, but he decided against it. The
expression in his eyes changed, surprising me even further.

Because it seemed like — he was sad. Inexplicably sad.

"P'In..." I called his name lightly.

Finally, P'In decided to turn back and walk away without a

word.

After P'In left, the room fell silent for a while. Everyone was
still in a daze until the senior who had argued with P'In
broke the silence.

"What's wrong with him? Just because he is a celebrity, he

thinks he can do whatever he wants?"
"Hey, calm down." P'Tong tried to pacify him.

"I tried to be nice to him but did you see him? So annoying.
He kept repeating 'do not smoke'. Well, we just invited the
freshmen to smoke, treat them to a drink. What's wrong
with that? He acted as if his parents would die because of
that..."

His words made other male seniors laugh like it was a joke.
However, most of the females, especially P'Noey, turned
pale almost immediately.

"Hey, that is not funny." P'Tong said.

"What? What did we say wrong?" They still didn't

understand.

"You shouldn't say that," P'Noey's voice was shaking as she

said it.

"Luckily this is a private room. Otherwise, if IN's fans heard

that..." P'Noey added.

"What's wrong? He is just an idol. We can't joke around with

him at all?" He said.

"You stop." P'Tong raised his voice. "You should apologise to

IN."

"What? I don't understand."

"IN's parents...passed away when he was young."

P'Noey's statement stopped the argument.

"I found out from his fan...she was close with IN's primary
school teacher." P'Noey explained.
"IN's father passed away from lung cancer because of heavy
smoking. Before his father left the world, his father had to
stay in the hospital for several months. IN's family wasn't
that rich. His mother needed to work hard on both
weekdays and weekends to get money for his father's
medical treatment. However, even after spending hundreds
of thousands for his medical expenses, they couldn't save
his father's life."

My tears fell a little as I heard that. The seniors who were

annoyed and were laughing earlier were no longer as
cynical.

"Not only that. After IN's father passed away..."

P'Noey's voice sounded very depressed.

"IN's mother was in despair. She kept blaming herself

because she had never tried to stop her husband from
smoking. She blamed herself that she earned money too
late for medical treatment. Whenever she had free time, she
always drank. Drinking might be the only way to help her
forget her pain. One day, his mother was drinking outside,
and IN had a fever, so his teacher called his mother to take
him back home...But unfortunately, she had a car accident
and passed away on that day. IN was just a young kid at the
time."

"Oh no..."

After hearing about P'In's past. Many female seniors seemed

to feel hurt for him. Even the male seniors looked quite
anxious.

"Now do you understand? Think about how IN would feel."

P'Noey said to the other seniors.
"For you, drinking and smoking might be something fun. But
for IN, it is not. Both things took his parents' life away. They
never returned."

"I...didn't know before. I'm sorry." The seniors from earlier

said with regret.

"That's alright. IN will understand you. I believe he knew

that you didn't intend to say that."

Even though the air was cleared for the seniors, I was still
feeling very uneasy.

It was very depressing to hear about P'In's tragic past.

I was worried about P'In. Was he okay? I was too worried to

just sit here and do nothing. So I decided to leave.

"N'Win?" The seniors were puzzled as I suddenly stood up.

"I might not come back. I'm very sorry." I said goodbye to
everyone and ran out of the restaurant.

P'In was my only focus now.

I was running outside without any clear direction. I didn't

even know where P'In was right now. P'In might have
already taken a car back and not be near here anymore.
Regardless, it didn't matter where he went, I must find him.
Without any reason. As if the strong emotions I was feeling
inside me took control over my actions and decisions.

"Where is he?" I murmured while still trying to find P'In.

If I was him, where would I go at this time, feeling like this?

P'In might be similar to me. Whenever I was feeling down, I

would find a place where there are a lot of trees, or a place
that's near water. Sometimes, watching the beautiful nature
could somewhat remove the heavy feeling from my mind.

Oh, I remember that the Chao Phraya River was nearby.

I hurriedly went to the riverside pathway. I ran as fast as I

could while keeping a lookout for P'In — and finally.

I found him. I slowed down, gasping for a breath.

P'In was there, resting his arm on the railing. His eyes were
looking over the river. During the night time, both sides of
the river were full of buildings. The night lights reflected on
the water surface were very stunning. However, the light
reflected in his eyes was gloomy.

His eyes were distant, as if his thoughts were flowing with

the water. Although P'In was obviously standing right here,
his mind seemed to be elsewhere.

"P'In krub." I called him.

P'In seemed to snap out of his trance. He turned to me, kind

of surprised. As if he didn't expect that I would be here.

"Win..." He called my name.

"How did you come here?"

His voice wasn't like usual, it was trembling a little.

"I'm looking for you." I told him the truth.

P'In didn't say anything. His eyes just turned back to the
dark river.

"P'In krub." So I called him, and he looked at me again.

"According to tradition, the first years should always follow
the seniors..." I explained to him.

"But other seniors are just my seniors while you're my

buddy-code family."

My heart wanted me to spill everything.

"So, whatever you tell me to do, I'll follow you. Even if it

might differ from other seniors. I'll choose to follow you
first."

His eyes were fixed on me.

"P'In, you told me not to smoke, so I won't smoke...you told

me not to drink, then I won't drink."

I said firmly, but the more I said, the more I felt shy. So I just
looked down while randomly moving my feet.

"Actually, I've never smoked or drank..."

I hadn't finished my sentence, yet -

I froze, as I was suddenly being embraced.

"P...P'In?" I widened my eyes.

P'In's arms encircled my body. I was shocked. My thoughts

became blank. Every word in my head disappeared.

I could feel his warmth, as well as a familiar scent.

Although I couldn't see his face by now, I could feel it. He

was sad. He was in despair. He was afraid — of something.

"P...In..." I couldn't control my voice.

"Not anymore," P'In said, lightly.

"Not anymore?" I didn't understand what he was implying.

"Don't want to...lose my...important...one...anymore."

His voice was tremulous.

"Drinking and smoking... Both things took his parents' life

away. They never returned."

I recalled P'Noey's words.

P'In lost his parents because of drinks and smoke.

P'In didn't want me to drink and smoke.

P'In was afraid that I would leave him — like his parents.

For P'In...I was his important person?

My heart was racing. Although it was good that I was

important to him, I was still very sad. His heart was hurt. His
past must have been a tortured one. He must have suffered
deeply.

"P'In...don't worry." I tried to cheer him up. I didn't want him

to feel despair any longer.

"I'm your buddy-code family. I'll follow what you want me to

do. I also want to eat your dishes for the rest of my life..."

However, P'In didn't respond. He was still holding me tight,

as if he was afraid that I would disappear if he let me go.

I had no idea what to do. I also didn't understand why my

heart wanted him to believe in me. I wanted so much for
P'In to trust that I would be right here for him and that I
would never leave him alone.

Although the air couldn't be touched, the air would still be

here under the moonlight. Never changing.

At first, I hesitated, then I slowly hugged him back.

I embraced him with both my trembling hands. My heart

was racing even faster.

Whenever the moon was in despair and was unable to

shine.

The air would always be here, embracing the moon.

☽------------☽
Chapter 21 : The Air In the
Limelight

Invisible Moon

Chapter 21

The Air In the Limelight

"The air reflected light, creating a rainbow that's visibly

attractive."

#WINisWIND

I couldn't remember how long P'In and I embraced. I

couldn't remember how long his warmth had enveloped me.
It wasn't until P'In released me that I realised it had been a
while.

"I'm sorry." He said.

It was dark, so I couldn't see his expression clearly.

"Never mind." I wanted to say something more, but I

decided not to. I wasn't sure how P'In felt right now. Perhaps
it was better not to say anything.

"You'll go back?" P'In asked while turning away, avoiding eye

contact with me.
I figured that P'In was wondering whether I would go back to
the restaurant to join the seniors or not. I understood him
even though he didn't say it directly. P'In didn't want me to
go back to that place.

"I'd rather go back to my dorm." I answered.

"I'll send you back." P'In just nodded.

"You'll send me back to my dorm?" I blinked. It was very

surprising that he offered to send me home. But how would
he send me?

P'In then simply led the way. I followed him feeling

confused. I saw P'In texting someone and I didn't dare to ask
him.

After walking for a while, I saw a van parked nearby. A man

in a work shirt with an MW staff name tag got off from the
van. I knew he was P'In's manager and assumed that this
van must be the agency's car.

"N'In. You scared me to death! You suddenly told me to

come here and you didn't even wait for the car to properly
stop before running off like that. It's such a relief that you're
still alright. If PD Kwang knew, he would definitely kill me."

"I'm sorry." P'In said.

His manager just nodded as he saw that P'In wasn't injured.

Then he noticed me, and seemed very curious about my
identity.

"Who is he?"

"My buddy-code junior. Can we send him back to his dorm?

Please?" P'In answered.
"Oh...So he is the Archawin that you mentioned."

I was surprised that he could remember my name. I think it

was because P'In asked his manager for permission to give
his private phone number to me before this.

"Okay, no problem. Let's go." The manager replied.

"Thank you so much, P'In and K'Manager." I said.

Then, we both sat in the van, but we didn't talk after that.
He seemed pensive, as if he was still lost in the memories of
the past.

Today, I saw another side of P'In, allowing me to understand

him better. Although he radiated positiveness, he had also
been through a tough time in the past.

It was a deeply hidden side of P'In that was rarely seen.

Several days later, I was very busy with preparations for the
Moon contest. The XU Official Facebook page had already
posted the photos of Moon and Star candidates for the
voting process. I felt a bit shy when I saw my photo posted
in public. I was glad to see people liking my photo and
commenting something like; 'He is cute!', 'I'm rooting for
him'!, 'I love him!'.

Some people also asked about my Instagram and Twitter,

but no one knew and I was also too shy to tell them. Plus, I
was also too shy to share my photos, so I've never posted
any of my own selfies on my IG or Twitter.

However, it was quite interesting to read those comments. I

realised the feeling of being in the limelight by now. A fading
person like me still had not gotten used to it yet. It might
take some time.
"Oh...no..." I gulped when I saw that P'Wun — my sister —
liked my photo on the Facebook page. Though she did click
like on almost every Moons' photo, I was still shocked to see
this.

She commented 'So cute! Cheering for you!' but she didn't
seem to realise it was me. Because the photo was only
captioned 'Win — Business Moon', and not my full name. To
top that, I look so different with makeup on and without
makeup. It wouldn't be surprising if she couldn't recognise
me.

Thinking about P'Wun, I just remembered that I hadn't

contacted my family since I moved to the dorm. It was
common for me to be fading and forgotten. I thought I
should contact them. P'Wun also lived in a dorm but at a
different university.

'Should I tell my parents that I'm participating in the

University Moon contest? They would be so shocked.'

In the past, when P'Wun participated in a piano contest, my

parents went to cheer for her. To be honest, I wanted my
parents to come cheer for me as well. However, I might not
win. I might not become the University Moon. I didn't want
to let them down. So it would be better to just not tell them.
Even if only my classmates knew about it, that was enough
for me.

There were quite a lot of people liking my photo on the

Facebook page because the seniors in my faculty had
actively promoted it. Ever since I became the Faculty Moon,
I had received a lot of friend requests on Facebook.
Compared to before, when most people always forgot to
accept my friend requests, it was the opposite now.
However, the number of likes on my photo still wasn't the
highest, as other Moons were more popular, well-known,
and also had many followers on Twitter and Facebook. Most
of them already had a lot of fans.

"It's quite a pity that our UNISTAR member can't help his
faculty's Moon to promote." P'Tong said when we met. I
nodded in understanding.

P'Wayu and P'In didn't post anything about their own

faculty's Moon. Perhaps it was because they were appointed
as the judges as well. It was enough that they were allowed
to train their junior Moons, if they also promoted them, it
would be quite unfair.

Speaking of P'In, he seemed to be busy with his UNISTAR

work. I didn't meet him often, but he would sometimes send
me messages, asking about my preparation for the Moon
contest such as 'How is it going?' 'Is everything okay?'. I
usually just replied back with 'no problem' or 'everything is
alright'.

Although he was busy and had no time to meet me, he

didn't ignore me. P'In even sent an email by using his work
email address.

From:

Subject : <None>

Read this

His email only contained two words. There was no subject

title either, but there was a file attachment. When I opened
the file, I was really amazed.

P'In had compiled and listed the possible questions that the
judges might ask me during my general knowledge
performance, including knowledge about China and the
Chinese language, Architecture and Astrology, as well as
Basic Engineering, which P'Wayu might ask too.

I replied to the email with a 'thank you'. P'In must be very

busy, but how did he find time to help me compile all these
questions? He was such a dedicated person.

I was spending most of my time preparing for the contest,

so I didn't have much time to hang out with friends. Until
the day before the contest, the student committee arranged
a rehearsal session, and XU University had already installed
a huge stage on the football field.

I spent most of the day rehearsing the queue sequence and

walking on the stage. After I finished, I went back to the
dorm and fell asleep as it was super tiring. However, I woke
up in the middle of the night, as I was too excited about the
contest.

Time flew so fast. I couldn't believe that the air like me

would be on the stage for the University Moon contest
tomorrow. I hoped that everything would go well.

The Moon contest would be held in the evening, but the

student committee told us to prepare and standby in the
morning.

The stage on the field was set up in a very grandiose

manner. I heard XU University hired an outsource company
to install the stage. This contest was considered one of the
most prestigious events for the university, as two UNISTAR
members were appointed as judges. Which was also why
MWTV as well as many other famous companies became
sponsors for this event.
This University Moon contest event allowed the current XU
students to enter for free and were given priority. All they
needed to do was show their Student ID card to be allowed
access. Outsiders could also attend, but as the seats were
limited, availability was on a first come first serve basis. I
saw many DomKati wearing grey shirts, and DomWhai
wearing purple shirts.

All the Moon and Star candidates had to rehearse over and
over. During the lunch break, we were provided with a free
lunch box. I was eating while reading the question list for
my general knowledge performance. I didn't know any other
candidates, so I could only smile at them and they also
smiled back. We didn't talk much, just introduced our names
and faculties.

In the afternoon, the stylists came to do our hair and

makeup. We were wearing our formal university uniform. As
the male makeup was simpler than the female, we finished
first. The contest would start in a few hours. I spent the rest
of the time preparing for my performance.

I also observed the audience from behind the stage. There

were many students and UNISTAR fans waiting outside. A
few MWTV staff were also present to record our contest. I
heard that P'Wayu and P'In had arrived too, but they were
dressing up separately at a hotel nearby because UNISTAR
had their own stylists.

While I was preparing for the performance in the dressing

room, others were just talking. Some of them were also
taking a selfie to post on IG, while the rest of them were
playing on their mobile phones.

At that time, the door opened. At first, I thought it might be

other candidates, but when I saw who came in, I gasped. It
wasn't only me, other people were also surprised.

"P'In..." My eyes widened.

I had never seen him wearing the UNISTAR uniform in real

life before. Although I've seen the photos, it was the first
time I've seen it for myself. The UNISTAR members would
only wear this uniform during fanmeets or special events.

The uniform's design was similar to the university uniform.

The ensemble consisted of a long-sleeved white shirt paired
with black trousers and leather shoes. The unique feature
was the navy blue suit jacket with a high collar, decorated
with patterns sewn on with golden thread and gold shoulder
loop. The most attractive symbol was the moon and four-
pointed star brooch, which was the logo of UNISTAR.

P'In looked extremely handsome in this uniform. I was

mesmerised.

"Are you well prepared?" P'In talked to me, without any

concern about other people looking at us.

"I'm okay. Thank you so much." I answered. I was a little

nervous to be in the centre of attention.

"See you on stage." P'In nodded and just left the room.

The room was silent for a while until some candidates

started talking to me.

"It's so good to have a senior who is a UNISTAR member."

The Engineering Moon said.

In fact, it was common to have a senior Moon taking care of

their junior, as it was sort of a traditional senior and junior
bond in college. There were many seniors who came here as
well. However, because P'In was a UNISTAR member, he
received more attention.

"Your senior is also a UNISTAR. Will P'Wayu come?" The

Communication Arts Moon asked the Engineering Moon,
they seemed pretty close to each other.

"I'm not sure." He said. "P'Kaow — P'Wayu's close friend just

came a few minutes ago. P'Kaow said P'Wayu always cheers
for me, but he may not come here in time as he hasn't
finished doing his makeup."

I didn't know why but I was trying hard to hold back my

laugh. I thought about the time P'Wayu was mad at P'In who
often nicked his cosmetics. P'Wayu had said he couldn't live
without makeup, he couldn't let the fans see his face
without makeup. P'Wayu must be very serious about this.

"Hi everyone! The contest will begin soon. Please head

backstage now."

A senior staff member announced.

The contest would start soon...I started feeling a bit

nervous. I tried to hold myself together.

Afterwards, the Moon and Star candidates lined up

backstage. We were going to walk on the stage in sequence,
just as we practised. I was standing beside Nina, my Faculty
Star.

I was also curious about the contest atmosphere. Listening

to the tumultuous sound made by the audience. I figured
that the football field was as crowded as it sounded, making
me even more nervous thinking about it.
"Good evening, ladies and gentlemen. Hello all XU family.
Welcome to the XU university Moon & Star Contest!"

When the MCs announced the start of the contest, an

overwhelming cheer boomed in the area. The loud sound
indicated an apparent large audience and I could feel
excitement building up inside me.

After that, the MCs talked about the details of the contest
and its sequence before thanking the sponsors. At the
mention of 'MWTV' and 'You can watch the live contest and
playback in MWTV Official fan pages, YouTube and Twitter',
the screaming turned much louder than it already was.

"So without further ado, let's meet all the Moon & Star
candidates from our 12 faculties!"

The audience gave us a big round of applause. The Moon &

Star candidates from Engineering went out on the stage
first, and my faculty was somewhere in the middle. Based
on the cheering sound, the Moon from the Faculty of
Engineering and the Moon from the Faculty of
Communication Arts were very popular. The Star from the
Faculty of Accounting also received a similar welcome. I
heard she was featured in many music videos and
advertisements.

"The Moon & Star candidates from the Faculty of Business

Administration..."

I felt nervous. It was my turn now, so I walked out to the

stage with Nina. I was so nervous that my mind turned
blank.

This was the first time I stood on the real stage, but I
couldn't see anything except the spotlight and stage floor.
The surrounding sound was tumultuous as I couldn't hear
anything clearly.

I felt thankful to the seniors who forced us to rehearse so

often that even if I closed my eyes, I could still walk on the
stage normally. So, no matter how tense I was, I could still
keep going, despite being so anxious that I could barely
control myself.

I walked around the stage with Nina, among the cheering

sound of the audience. We stopped in the middle of the
stage, standing in line with the rest of the candidates.

Now that I could gradually pull myself together, I finally saw

the cheering signs in front of me. Most of them were held by
DomKati and DomWhai — P'In's and P'Wayu's fans, followed
by those for Engineering Moon, Communication Art Moon,
and Accounting Star. With a little hope, I still looked around
for my cheering sign. I was surprised when I saw the sign
written 'N'Win Fighting!'.

I was both surprised and happy. I had never thought anyone

would actually cheer for me. It wasn't easy to see them from
the stage. It seemed like that cheering sign belonged to my
faculty cheering group. Because I saw Nina's cheering sign
as well.

I was very touched. It must be P'Tong and P'Noey who

gathered these people to cheer for us.

"These are all the Moon and Star candidates from the 12
faculties! Please give a round of applause to all of them.
And tonight... only one will be crowned the XU University
Moon and Star of the year."

What the MCs said made me nervous again. It was true that
Mr. Chana and my seniors were banking on me to become
the University Moon, but this gigantic stage today made me
panic. I thought it was enough if I got through the contest
smoothly.

"And now, for the most important element of the contest –

the judges..."

When the female MC said this, the fans screamed at the top
of their lungs. The MC had to stop and smile until the
audience quieted down.

"It seems like our judges are very popular. Our three
teachers must be very happy." The male MC teased,
followed by a roar of laughter from the audience.

"Let's welcome our judges!"

The judges came out from the opposite side of the

candidates. The first one was the oldest teacher. The MC
introduced each judge by their names, beginning with a
professor from the Faculty of Science, followed by a female
professor from the Faculty of Architecture, and lastly a
young male teacher from the Faculty of Arts.

"Next, the judges from the student representative

committee..."

The audience broke out the loudest screams even before

the UNISTAR members made an appearance.

"The 3rd year XU Moon from the Faculty of Business

Administration...the third generation of UNISTAR — Intrakorn
Dechapraphas..."

P'In's name was announced first. He walked out wearing the

full UNISTAR uniform, surrounded by cheers from the
audience. The cheering was even louder than every
candidate combined. I personally thought that even people
who were outside the university could still hear them.

P'In's expression was still as calm as always. The only

difference was that the P'In on the stage was like a shining
moon in the sky, outstanding and luminous.

"And the last judge...The 2nd year XU Moon from Faculty of

Engineering...the fourth generation of UNISTAR — Wayu
Chotithanakarun..."

P'Wayu appeared wearing the UNISTAR uniform,

accompanied by a cheer that was similar to P'In's. He was
so dazzling with perfect hairstyle and makeup. Very
handsome. Evidently, that was why he spent so much time
dressing up and couldn't come to visit his freshman in time.

The judges' table was placed in front of the stage. P'In and
P'Wayu waited until all the teachers sat down before they
followed suit. P'Wayu was waving at his fans and gave a
smile to the Engineering Moon candidate on the stage.

P'In stayed still as he always did. I flinched as P'In looked at

me. I had no idea what to do, so I just nodded to him. But
P'In was still indifferent. Perhaps, it was because the
UNISTAR members were in the centre of attention. P'In must
keep his manners, unlike P'Wayu who was always playful.

"I'll explain how the contest will be conducted. The scores

will be given based on three criterias, which are: 20% from
appearance and characteristic, 40% from talent
performance and 40% from the interview section. The score
will be calculated equally from all five judges and the
candidate who gets the most total score will be crowned as
the XU University Moon & Star of the year."

The MCs explained.

"Other than the Moon & Star award, there is also a popular
vote award from the total likes on the XU Official facebook
page. And the vote will be closed after the interview section
ends."

"We'll kick off this contest with the talent performances by

our candidates. While we wait for our candidates to prepare
for their performances, let's hear from the judges..."

After that, all of us headed backstage. The candidates who

had to change their clothes were given the later turns in the
queue. And the ones who didn't need any special clothes or
equipment were pushed out first.

When the judges finished their speeches, the first candidate

– me – was called out. Obviously because I had no special
equipment, no change of clothes. The simplest one.

"The first candidate is N'Win, from the Faculty of Business

Administration. He will showcase his general knowledge
performance!"

I showed up on the stage with applause. Once I stood in the

middle of the stage, the audience quieted down and waited
to see what I would do. I was very nervous.

Everyone was looking at me. A fading air like me was

suddenly in the centre of attention.

I must be myself. No need to be nervous. Just do as I usually

did. Like I had practised in front of the mirror. I told myself.
Everything would be fine.

The judges were looking at me, thinking. The teacher from

the Arts faculty spoke up first.
"General knowledge performance? I've never seen this
before. Interesting. Tell us, how should we ask you
questions?"

I held the microphone with both my hands. I tried to control

my voice as I answered.

"You can ask any type of questions. Please note that it must
only be general knowledge, not advanced or deeper into the
subject. I'll answer all the questions within the time limit."

"All types of questions?" The professor from Architecture

asked.

"Yes." I nodded. I tried to make myself look confident.

The three teachers seemed to be interested.

"Really? Let's give it a try." The architecture teacher started

first.

"Who designed the Villa Savoye?"

I guess all architecture students would know this question.

"Le Corbusier," I answered.

The teacher nodded and asked the next one.

"Which art movement has the concept of 'Less is more'?"

This question was on the list that P'In had sent to me.

"Minimalism."

"What's the name of the historical period when Wat Phra

That Hariphunchai was built?"
"Lanna."

"According to the law, what is the requirement of staircase

construction in a residential house?"

I paused for a second. This question was comparatively

difficult. I remembered that I read about it from some book
in the library.

"The height of the stairs should not be more than 3 metres,

the height of each step should not be more than 20
centimetres, the width of each step should not be less than
22 centimetres."

My answer made the teacher nod. The audience seemed to

grow excited.

"Honestly, I didn't expect him to answer correctly." The

architecture teacher said. And many in the audience were
laughing in response.

"Do you want to try?" The teacher asked the oldest

professor.

"How many days does the moon take to orbit the Earth?"
The astronomy professor asked.

This question was also on the list that P'In compiled.

"27.3 days."

"Which planet made the 'smiley face moon' astronomical

phenomenon?"

I couldn't help but look at P'In — P'In's smile.

The smiley invisible moon was so charming.

Oh no! Where was my mind going? I needed to come back.

"Venus, Jupiter and a crescent Moon." I replied.

"Which astronomical phenomenon occurred on 19 March

2011?"

"Supermoon." I answered. It was when the Moon came

closest to the Earth.

But wait...why was every question revolving around the

moon? Could it be because it was the Moon contest? So the
professor could only think of these sorts of questions?

"Not bad." The professor praised me.

"Very interesting. I want to try too." The Arts teacher said.

Based on my research, his major was the Chinese language.

So I studied a lot about China including its language,
culture, society and history.

However, the first question was —

"Who is the winner of Idol Producer?"

"Excuse me?" I was shocked.

Regardless of every book, every page, every article that I

had read, nothing could help to answer this question.

But wait...Was it still related to China?

If I wasn't wrong, it was a Chinese idol TV program.

Oh! I remembered. P'Wun also followed this program before

and her bias was also the winner.
Let me think — I had seen the name somewhere in her
posts on Facebook before.

"Cai Xukun," I answered.

"Oh..." The teacher smiled.

"Then, what about...How many members in TFboys?"

I was blinking. TFboys?

Was this teacher the same type as my sister? Although he

was a Chinese language teacher, he didn't ask anything
related to language or history at all. He only asked about
Chinese idols.

"Karry Wang, Roy Wang and Jackson Yee. Three members in

total."

I almost couldn't answer. I silently thanked P'Wun for

following every idol from every country all around the world.
Because of that, I knew a lot about them as well.

The teacher looked surprised and clapped loudly.

"Wow! I didn't ask the names, but you can answer too.
Excellent!"

The audience also applauded because I could answer all the

questions smoothly.

It was unbelievable. I felt relieved that I had prepared a lot

and felt like I was lucky today.

"Can I ask too?" P'Wayu said. And DomWhai went crazy

screaming.
I turned to P'Wayu. I felt guilty about P'In nicking his
cosmetics before. Anyway, it was the past. I must focus on
the present.

I was thinking about the engineering knowledge that I had

studied.

And his first question was —

"Which veggie can give you money?"

Apparently, P'Wayu's question could actually silence the

audience.

Veggie? Money?

Not about engineering at all?!

Shame on me. I was complaining in my mind.

I had been reading the engineering foundation textbook all

night, just to answer a veggie money question. Seriously?

Such a question! This must be one of those lame jokes.

No matter how I felt, I still needed to answer. The gears in

my head turned so fast recalling all the vegetable names
that I knew.

"Celery." I said.

Because it sounded like 'salary'.

"Correct!"

P'Wayu shot his finger at me. The rest of the judges were
still confused as they couldn't get his joke.
"Which land animal can take passengers sailing through the
seas?"

Again? Such an animal existed for real? Definitely not.

Another homophone joke.

"Sheep." Because it sounded like 'ship'.

"Correct." P'Wayu shot his finger at me again while the other

judges facepalmed themselves. They had no idea what was
happening here.

"Next! Which fish says 'Meow'?" P'Wayu kept asking.

"Catfish."

"Good! And which food has sand?"

"Sandwich."

"Nice! And which food never gets cold?"

"Hotdog."

"Right! And which food can't see clearly?"

"Burger," I said. It sounded like 'blur'.

"Great!"

P'Wayu seemed to be having fun. While most of the

audience were silent. They seemed to not understand the
situation here, except for DomWhai, who always screamed
no matter what P'Wayu was doing.

"This one is the hardest. Which park is called 'wink boy'?"

P'Wayu asked while winking at me.

Another homophone joke? How could a park and wink boy

be related to each other? It didn't make sense at all.

I was trying to think of all the names of the park

and...well...oh...

"Park Jihoon, Wanna-One," I answered.

P'Wayu might mean the Korean idol who went viral as 'wink
boy' before.

"Oh my god! You're amazing! I like it!"

P'Wayu was even standing as he clapped as hard as he

could for me.

He seemed very happy and wanted to continue to ask,

however, he was interrupted.

"I'll ask too."

It was from the one who usually never wanted to be

involved — P'In.

When P'In spoke, DomKati screamed out loud but then it

was followed by a long silence, as if the volume was turned
down.

It was rare to hear P'In speak, so everyone didn't want to

miss it.

I was focusing as well. I was curious about what he wanted

to ask me.

I was thinking that it might be a question related to coconut,

Thai music, Thai food, Thai desserts or something close to
that.

However, P'In looked at me before emotionlessly asking;

"Which moon is the most handsome?"

I gasped. Not only me, everyone did. The judges included.

Was he possessed by P'Wayu? Really?

No one would believe that he could ever ask that sort of

question.

"Can you answer?" P'In asked again.

"Ah...yes..." I tried to think about how the word 'Moon' could

be related to 'Handsome'.

"Hand some moon?" I was thinking about a homophone

joke. This sort of answer should be correct for P'Wayu but —

"Wrong," P'In said.

Wrong? I was stumped. What was the answer then? Or

should I not think too much?

"Shining Moon?"

"Wrong," P'In said again.

I turned pale. What was the handsome moon? Or was it

something very direct?

"University Moon?"

If this one was wrong too, then I didn't know anymore.

"Wrong." P'In still said.

"What is the correct answer?" I decided to give up.

This question was beyond my ability.

P'In looked at me emotionlessly and said in a monotone.

"The Moon named 'IN'."

...

I was stunned!

Which moon was the most handsome — The Moon named

'IN'.

Huh?

I wasn't the only shocked one. Apparently the moment P'In

said that, all the judges suddenly turned to look at P'In with
a surprised expression. Even the lame joke king like P'Wayu
also gasped in shock.

The audience and DomKati fell silent.

Everyone would never have expected that this sort of

answer would be said by a UNISTAR member like Intrakorn
— he even said it emotionlessly.

Nevertheless, P'In seemed to be unaware that the

atmosphere had changed. P'In eyes were still fixed on me.

"Why can't you answer?" P'In said with no emotion.

"You lose the point."

I was confused for a while, until I processed what P'In had

just said.
What? This sort of question caused me to lose my points
too?

Seriously?

I knew that P'In was sometimes the unbothered moon, but I

didn't expect it to be this bad.

☽------------☽
Chapter 22 : The Shining
Air
Invisible Moon

Chapter 22

The Shining Air

"The Moon didn't shine by itself,

it reflects the brightness of the sun."

#WINisWIND

While I was still confused because P'In said that he would

deduct my points, the MC announced that my time was up
and I had to leave the stage, still muddleheaded.

Which Moon is the most handsome...The Moon named 'IN'.

His question was still stuck in my head. P'In would really

deduct my points just because I couldn't answer that?
Seriously?

'Who knew that he could come up with such a question?'

Now, I was on a short break while other candidates were

performing their talent. I was relieved that my performance
went smoothly, even though I couldn't answer P'In's
question.
At first I was very worried. If I couldn't answer the first
question, this performance would have failed. At least, I did
a pretty good job.

There were 24 performances in total as we had 12 faculties

competing. Each person was given no more than 5 minutes,
so most of them performed music, dancing, or singing,
which took around 3-4 minutes.

I had my phone connected to the university wi-fi. I was

watching the live contest and wondering how the others
performed. The Moon from the Faculty of Communication
Arts was wearing a traditional Thai costume, playing the
fiddle just as P'In had told me. The Moon from the Faculty of
Engineering was performing a fencing art. I thought these
two were the most competitive candidates among us.

Half an hour had passed, and the last performance ended.

The next part was the interview. My queue was at the very
end. While waiting, I was still concentrating on how other
candidates answered their questions.

All questions were random. There was a glass of rolled

papers on the judges' table and they would randomly pick
one question for each candidate. The candidates were given
3 minutes to answer them and the questions that had
already been asked would be removed so we wouldn't get
the same question. It seemed very fair. Everything
depended on the candidates' luck and wit.

There were all types of questions, including very basic ones

such as 'Why do you want to become the Moon?', as well as
very specific questions like 'What do you think about this
political incident?'.

Basically, there were no right or wrong answers. The scores

would be subject to how the judges evaluated the quality of
those answers.

In this part, I thought the Moon from communication arts

didn't do very well because he got the question about the
law, which he was unfamiliar with, and his answer was
unclear. As for the Moon from engineering, he got the
question about college education in Thailand. He gave a
very common answer, too basic. Unexpectedly, the one who
could do very well in this part turned out to be the Moon
from the Faculty of Medicine. However, he made a mistake
during his juggling performance earlier. Probably because he
was nervous at that time.

At this point, I had no idea who would be the winner

because the favoured candidates didn't do well in the
interview part, and the ones who did well during the
interview didn't do so well for their performance earlier.

Time flew and soon, it was my turn. I was still very nervous,
but felt a little bit better.

"Next, the Moon candidate from the Faculty of Business

Administration, Archawin Deshsakul."

I took a deep breath and walked to the stage. I tried to

control my shaking legs.

I faced the five judges again. The teacher picked a question

and read it for me.

"Your question is...What is the meaning of 'inspiration' in

your own definition?"

I thought for a while. Inspiration? I thought the question was

comparatively difficult. But when I saw P'In, I felt inspired.

He was my inspiration.
In the past, I dreamt of changing myself, but I had never
succeeded. It was probably because I didn't have a clear
goal and had low self-esteem, but P'In was the one who
managed to change my attitude.

Then, I decided to answer.

"Inspiration for me...is like a powerful energy. It can

motivate someone to continue to pursue their dream. For
some, inspiration may be a goal that encourages them to
keep going. They might burn out and lose themselves in the
middle of the darkness, but the inspiration will rekindle their
fading light...make it shine again like magic. Without
inspiration, it's just like an engine without fuel."

I paused for a breath and continued.

"I believe we all have our own values, but sometimes, we

just don't realise it. So when inspiration motivates us, make
us see our value, we'll see that if we all make an effort,
everything can be achieved."

I looked at P'In again and reconsidered myself. I couldn't

deny that I could only stand right here because of P'In.

I could value myself because I saw how even a famous

person like P'In wanted to be invisible. So that meant an
invisible person like me wasn't useless.

P'In had pulled me into the light. P'In had seen the light
inside me which I had never noticed before. So I believed
that everyone had their own light, it only depended on how
we view ourselves.

P'In was indeed my inspiration. P'In made me believe in

myself.
"I'll give my own example. Before, I was an invisible person.
I was fading and forgotten. Perhaps, because I thought I
wasn't good enough, I didn't intend to improve myself. I
stayed away from socialising and was stuck with my own
negative thoughts. However, when I received my
inspiration, I changed my mindset. I found that it's not too
hard to do it. That's why I'm standing right here."

The judges nodded at my answer.

"Then, what gave you such inspiration?" A teacher asked.

I looked at P'In. P'In was the answer, but I couldn't say that
here.

"It was a person." I said indirectly.

"I saw many things that he did. He made me look back on

myself and I realised that I still have the ability to do
something. I want to be the Moon because I want to be an
inspiration for others. Supposing that a fading person like
me could become the Moon, others shouldn't give up yet. I
want to give this message to anyone who is in despair from
pursuing their dream, to stand up and fight for it. You have
your own value and talent. Just look for it and keep going for
your dream. Nothing is impossible."

My voice sounded very confident.

"I believe inspiration is like magic. I received inspiration

from someone, who also gave a lot of inspiration to many
people. So I want to pass on this inspiration to other people
as well. This is my answer, the inspiration in my own
definition."

I was finally done. The judges were taking notes. It seemed

like one teacher wanted to ask me more. I was worried if
she wanted to know who exactly had inspired me, then,
what should I do?

However...

"Still have time left?" P'Wayu asked and when the MCs
nodded, P'Wayu just gave me a big smile.

"Then I'd like to add some questions..."

My eyes widened.

P'Wayu had questions. Don't tell me...

"Which 'nest' can run super fast?"

Well. I could only complain in my head. I knew it would turn

out this way.

I thought about all the words close to 'nest'.

"Internet," I said.

"Correct!" P'Wayu pointed at me.

As the MCs hadn't announced the time, he still kept going.

"Which horse has corn?"

The question was not related to the contest at all.

"Unicorn," I replied.

Another lame homophone joke.

"And which horse has to pay?"

P'Wayu seemed very excited.

"Pegasus," I said.

Did 'pe-' sound like 'pay'?

"So Cool!" P'Wayu gave me a big applause. He looked so

satisfied.

"I love him!"

P'Wayu just suddenly declared that he loved me in the

middle of the contest. I was so shocked even though I do
understand that he meant he loved how I could answer all of
his lame jokes.

P'In turned to look at P'Wayu. Emotionless. But P'Wayu

seemed to be unstoppable.

"And do you know...?" P'Wayu smiled.

"Which 'line' I really want the most right now?"

I was frowning. I was trying to link something with the word

'line', but it didn't work out. So I randomly guessed.

"Lineman[1]?" I thought about something related to P'Wayu,

maybe he was hungry and wanted to order food.

However, P'Wayu shook his head.

"Slay Red Moon – Oops!"

I covered my mouth immediately.

Did my answer provoke DomHusky to slay me?

'DomHusky' was the name of P'Natee's fandom, because

P'Natee always had a bad-mouth, like a barking dog[2]. Still,
he was adorable like a Siberian Husky. So his fans called him
'Husky', but P'Wayu just called them 'DomDog' and called
P'Natee 'Dog Moon'. It was kind of rude though. But
DomHusky loved pairing up these two, so they forgave
P'Wayu. The fans said they were such a lovely couple.

Back to his question.

"Not exactly. But I really like this answer." P'Wayu laughed.

"Ah...Then...What is the correct answer?" I decided to give

up.

I had no idea which 'line' he wanted the most now.

P'Wayu grinned and said clearly.

"Your LINE! Can I have it?"

I widened my eyes. What did he just say?

'Line' that he wanted the most now — was the LINE

message application. He meant he wanted to add my LINE?

What P'Wayu said made his fans scream and they went a
little wild. They shouted things like 'you can't do that!',
'P'Natee will get jealous!', 'P'Natee will punish you!', and
those along the same line.

I hadn't said anything yet —

Bam!

Someone had just hit the table so loud, everyone flinched. It

was more surprising when we all realised who it was.

"P'In! You gave me a fright." P'Wayu told P'In, whose hands

were still on the table. P'In's expression was hard to guess.
"Time's up..." P'In said in a flat tone. Everyone was
confused.

Even the MCs were confused too. Until P'In looked at them
and pressured them.

"Time's up already, right?"

The MCs hurriedly checked the time and said.

"Still have 10 seconds left..." The MC said, but when he met

P'In's cold eyes, he swallowed and cut it off.

"Alright...If there are no other questions from the judges,

thank you N'Archawin. And the next candidate is..."

My part was done. I walked off from the stage puzzled. I

couldn't help but look back at the judges. P'Wayu seemed a
bit sad that he couldn't continue asking me questions, while
P'In was still looking at me until I reached the backstage.

I rested and took a deep breath. I was puzzled by P'In's

reaction.

Why did he hit the table? Did he get angry with me? I was
concerned about it. Perhaps, P'In was afraid that P'Wayu
didn't keep his manners and might have a negative
influence on UNISTAR's image. That was possible.

I was lost in my own thoughts while waiting. Then the

seniors told us to get ready as the winner would be
announced soon. I was suddenly nervous.

I had been preparing for a long time. When the time came,
everything was happening so fast.
"We're reaching the end of our XU Moon & Star Contest. The
score is already calculated as well. Next, we will announce
the results and winners. Who is going to be XU Moon & Star
of the year..."

The MCs said while all candidates were standing in their

positions as rehearsed before.

"Let's start from the most popular vote winner..."

"And the candidate with the most number of likes on

Facebook is..."

I forgot to check. It seemed like the Communication Arts and

Engineering Moon had gotten a lot of likes recently.

"The Moon candidate from the Faculty of Communication

Arts!"

The result was actually as expected.

The Communication Arts Moon walked out to receive the

award and the popular vote sash. Everyone was clapping for
him.

"Next, is the XU Star award, starting from the 2nd runner-

up, followed by the 1st runner-up and the winner of this
year's competition is...."

The MCs announced that Nina, the Star from my faculty,

won the 2nd runner-up award, the 1st runner-up was the
Engineering Star, and the winner was the Accountancy Star,
just as expected.

"Next, the XU Moon award..."

My hands were shaking. Here it was, we would find out the
results now.

At first, I was very worried. What if I couldn't win any award?

Would everyone be disappointed or not? But now, I had
already put down that feeling. What would happen, would
happen. Still, I couldn't help but anticipate it. Even if it was
just 2nd runner-up, I would be satisfied.

"The 2nd runner-up XU Moon is...the candidate from the

Faculty of Medicine..."

Oh...I was surprised. Even though the ratio of performance

and interview score was equal, the interview part seemed to
influence the scores a lot.

I was very anxious at this point.

"The 1st runner-up XU Moon is...the candidate from the

Faculty of Engineering..."

So, there was only the Moon from the Faculty of

Communication Arts left. He might be the winner.

"And lastly, the XU Moon winner...I must say that the gap
between the total score of the winner and 1st runner-up is
very small..."

Small gap score! I thought. So could it be the

Communication Arts Moon? Would I still have any chance? I
was sweating buckets anticipating the announcement.

"And the XU Moon of this year. Congratulations!"

"Archawin Deshsakul...The candidate from the Faculty of

Business Administration!"
I was stunned when I heard the announcement. Wait. Was
that my name?

I...actually became the XU Moon?

There was big applause and cheering from my faculty

audience group. I realised what was happening and I walked
to receive the award. Still, unbelievable!

I was wearing a sash with the words 'XU Moon' and holding
the trophy.

I couldn't believe that I actually won the XU Moon contest.

The air like me actually became the Moon.

Really...? I glanced at P'In. While everyone was clapping for

me, P'In was still emotionless, but he was looking at me.

Our eyes met, I smiled at him. I couldn't help but wonder

whether P'In would be happy that I won or not.

As if my curiosity was reflected in my eyes. P'In nodded

slightly to me, making me smile much wider.

Sometimes, I didn't understand it either.

Was I happy because I became the Moon,

Or, because of P'In?

The contest ended. We were on the stage, taking a group

photo. Then, some seniors came to interview me about how
I felt winning the XU Moon title. That time I was too excited,
so I wasn't sure what I had answered. I only remembered
that I said 'I'm glad' and 'thank you' most of the time.
Everything was over and I was back in the dressing room.
There were some candidates who congratulated me. Then,
everyone prepared to go back. Me as well.

I was packing my stuff, but as my head was still in the

clouds, I did it so slowly. By the time I realised it, I was
already the last one in the room.

I planned to go back to my dorm. Suddenly, someone came

into the room. At first, I thought it might be another
candidate, but when I looked at him, he was so dazzling that
I couldn't take my eyes off him.

He wasn't a normal Moon. Obviously.

I was amazed. It was the first time that I've met him this
close. He was taller than I thought. His skin was very bright
and smooth.

"I want to know more about you." P'Wayu greeted me. He

was very friendly.

"Hello, P'Wayu." I had no idea what I should do, so I just

raised my hands to pay respect.

"Hey. You're amazing! You could answer all of my questions."

P'Wayu said.

"So I gave you a full score!"

What he said made my eyes widen. Right...The MCs also

said that the score gap between the winner and the 1st
runner-up was small.

Don't tell me I could become the Moon because P'Wayu was

impressed by how I answered his jokes?
Seriously? I had no idea whether I should laugh or cry.

I had yet to say anything before another person came in.

When I saw who he was, my heart raced.

"P'In..." I called his name lightly.

P'In was looking for me and then he looked at P'Wayu.

"Manager is looking for you." P'In said, emotionlessly.

"Wait, P'In. I didn't get his Line yet." P'Wayu said and took
out his cell phone, the same model as P'In's.

"Can you open your QR code? I'll scan your LINE." P'Wayu
asked me.

"Ah...you mean my LINE?" I was surprised. The UNISTAR

member just asked to add my LINE. So I just took out my
mobile phone.

I was very nervous as I was standing in front of a celebrity.

So I took a moment to open my QR code.

"Come closer," P'Wayu told me to move my mobile phone

close to his. So it would be easier to scan.

Suddenly...

"What? P'In...What are you doing?" P'Wayu exclaimed as P'In

just walked past between us, interrupting the scanning.

"Forgot stuff." P'In said without any emotion and walked to

the makeup table.

"Huh?" P'Wayu scratched his head.

"How could you forget something here? Our dressing room
is in the hotel nearby."

Although P'Wayu didn't understand P'In, he still wanted to

continue scanning my LINE.

"Let's do it again."

However, while P'Wayu was trying to scan my QR code, P'In

was —

"What? Again? What's wrong, P'In?"

P'Wayu complained. Confused.

Because P'In just walked past in the middle between us

again. And his face was so emotionless, as if he didn't even
realise what he did wrong.

"Maybe there," P'In murmured and walked to the clothing

rack.

"Huh?" P'Wayu exclaimed again. He seemed really confused,

but still, he turned his focus to me.

"Never mind. Let's do it again."

Then, it happened again.

When P'Wayu was trying to scan, P'In would interrupt so we

couldn't add each other's LINE successfully.

"P'In krub. Because you kept walking like this, I couldn't

scan his LINE." P'Wayu decided to tell P'In directly.

"Then, do not scan." P'In just said.

P'Wayu was silent for a while, then, he seemed to
understand what P'In had implied just now.

"P'In...I won't do anything bad to him," P'Wayu said.

"I just want to chat with him. He is indeed an interesting

person. Okay?"

"No, you can't." P'In replied briefly.

I gasped. Shocked. Wait...P'In? Why?

P'Wayu looked at P'In with confusion, then he sighed.

"Never mind." P'Wayu turned to me.

"So you just add my LINE. Okay? My LINE ID is

'Whywayu_1707'"

P'Wayu broke off the conversation by telling me his LINE ID.

Then he looked at P'In confusingly again.

"Fine. I'll go now." P'Wayu said and walked out of the room.

So there were only me and P'In in this room. Alone.

"You'll add?" P'In asked.

He asked whether I would add P'Wayu's LINE. Well. Should I?

P'Wayu was also a UNISTAR member. If I said no after
P'Wayu had told me to add, it would make P'Wayu feel bad.

"I will. If I don't forget his ID." I answered.

P'In frowned. And he took his mobile phone.

"Then, I'll add too." He said.

"Huh?" I was confused. "Add what?"

"LINE." He said. "Facebook too. Everything."

"Ahh...You want to add me on social media?" I tried to make

sure.

"Yes." He nodded.

I blinked. What was happening? I didn't quite understand

why P'In acted so weird. We had known each other for a
while, but why did he suddenly want to add my LINE and
Facebook?

Whatever. I was very happy about this. So I couldn't help

but smile.

"Alright, P'In." So I showed him my mobile phone.

P'In scanned my QR code and I typed my Facebook name on

his phone.

In just a few seconds, we were now connected with each

other.

P'In's LINE name was only written as 'IN' and his name on
Facebook was 'Intrakorn Dechapraphas'.

He didn't use his own photo as a profile picture, but it was

the image of a coconut that he might have taken himself. He
was truly the leader of DomKati — Coconut fever.

"I need to go now," P'In said while looking at the phone. I

could see that his manager was calling him.

"Thank you so much P'In. I could become the Moon because

of you."
"Congratulations!" P'In said. Only one word could make me
smile so happily.

This word was like a light shining in my heart.

I wasn't sure which made me happier between becoming

the XU Moon or receiving this word from P'In.

"And..." Before P'In left, he gave me a reminder.

"Do not talk too much."

"What?" I was puzzled, but he went away before I could ask.

Do not talk too much? What? Oh!

Could he mean that although I had his Facebook and LINE,

P'In didn't want me to disturb his privacy?

Understood. He might be too busy to talk casually.

However, I had his phone number, LINE and Facebook. So I

was literally the happiest DomKati in the world.

I was very satisfied with everything I had now.

☽------------☽

Footnote :

[1] Lineman is the name of a food delivery application

which is very popular in Thailand.

[2] Barking Dog can be a rude word in Thai, mentioning a

person who has a bad-mouth or dog-mouth.
Chapter 23 : The Moon
Among The Moons
Invisible Moon

Chapter 23

The Moon Among The Moons

"Was it possible that a Moon could orbit another moon?"

#WINisWIND

After the University Moon & Star contest had ended, the
photos of the winners were uploaded on the XU Official
Facebook page. I felt abashed when I saw that many people
liked and commented on my photo. Many people praised
that I was cute, and that they were impressed by my special
ability. They also said that it was very interesting and they
had never seen such a talent before. Some people also said
that I did very well in the interview part. However, there
were still some people who thought that the Moon from
Engineering or Communication Arts should be the winner
instead of me. In conclusion, the comments varied
depending on the person. It was a relief that at least,
nobody was bullying me.

Furthermore, the top trend on Twitter was

#TheMostHandsomeMoon — P'In's epic question. Tons of
meme clips showing P'In saying "The Moon named IN", with
an emotionless face were made. These memes were spread
all over social media, together with the meme 'You lost the
point'.

As the outsiders who followed my University contest were

UNISTAR fans, their focus was more on the judges rather
than the Moon candidates. However, I was mentioned within
DomWhai as well. P'Wayu's fan called me 'Whai's brother' or
'Whai's heir' because I could answer all of his lame jokes.
Some fans even suggested that we should have a TV show
together and make jokes throughout the show. I could feel
that many of P'Wayu fans really liked me, but some of his
fans also said that P'Wayu could have a brother, but couldn't
cheat on P'Natee. They also said that P'Wayu only belonged
to P'Natee, so P'Natee should look after his wife.

Anyway, it was during the midterms and I had to study

harder as the preparation for the contest had taken up a lot
of my time. I haven't talked to anyone recently, especially
not P'In. Even though I had his LINE and Facebook, I still
couldn't say hello to him, because P'In didn't start first and
he did tell me not to "talk too much".

I also added P'Wayu's LINE. I could remember his LINE ID,

since it was his birthday. And he was quick to accept my
request. My LINE name was 'archawin', so he might already
know it was me.

Wayunilla : Hello. You're N'Win?

I was glad that he could remember me. I was very excited to

talk with a famous UNISTAR member too.

archawin : Hello P'Wayu. Yes, it's me. Thank you for

accepting my friend request.

Wayunilla : No prob. I'd like to ask you more.

My eyes widened when I saw his text. He wanted to ask me
more?

Don't tell me...

Wayunilla : Which bird wears a hood?

Here it comes again. I facepalmed myself. I thought for a

while and replied.

archawin : The Robin

It was just the name of a bird, but it was sort of similar to

'Robin Hood'.

Wayunilla : Nice :D :D :D

Wayunilla : And which animal never gets up?

archawin : Lion

Was that because it could be pronounced as 'lie on'?

Wayunilla : Also, which veggie is never off?

archawin : Onion

Again. It might be because it was 'on'-ion.

That was basically it. Ever since we added each other's

LINE, P'Wayu would greet me with his lame jokes on a daily
basis, as if it had already become our 'routine joke'.

The first midterm exam was Mr. Chana's subject. I had put in
a lot of effort to prepare for this subject, but it turned out
that the questions didn't ask anything from the textbook.
The exam was about business and marketing and we were
required to write around 1-2 pages to answer each question.
We were given 3 questions to answer within 2 hours. When I
finished, I felt like my brain and hands were all drained.

After the exam, my classmates went back to the dorm to

prepare for the next subject so we didn't have lunch
together. Plus, it was only 10 A.M. now.

Since I was too rushed this morning, I hadn't eaten

breakfast yet. I decided to have brunch and bought some
massaman curry before finding a seat at the canteen.
Because I did my makeup today, some people recognised
me. Some seniors were waving their hands at me so I raised
my hands to pay respect to them and smiled.

I found a nice table beside the balcony near the garden.

Normally, if I didn't have a friend to eat with, I would happily
eat while watching the trees.

I was eating and watching a big tree that housed a

sparrow's nest. The mom was feeding her babies. Watching
this from far away, hearing the melodic sound of the birds,
was so pleasant.

"Arhhh!"

Suddenly, I heard a screaming sound. It was so loud that

even the birds flew away. When I realised what was
happening, I was left speechless.

There was a group of female students at my faculty's

canteen. While I was still stunned, I saw bodyguards in black
suits protecting someone. I took a careful look and I gasped
when I saw who was inside the bodyguards' circle.

That was...P'Wayu.

"He's there! I finally found him!"

When his eyes met mine, he immediately pointed at me.

I was too shocked to figure out what I should do. P'Wayu had
already walked to my table and sat beside me while his
many guards surrounded me. His fans were still around and
screaming, taking photos and videos. Luckily, they couldn't
stay too close as they were blocked by the bodyguards.

It was the first time I saw P'Wayu's in a non-formal setting.

He had to stay inside the bodyguard circle all the time. It
seemed to be safe, but still chaotic, as many fans were
hysterical, calling his name all the time. However, P'Wayu
looked so happy with this, he even waved his hands to his
fans joyfully.

I couldn't help but wonder.

'Wouldn't his fans be confused if P'Wayu sat with me like

this?'

Oh, I forgot. His fans called me the 'lame joke heir', so they
wouldn't be surprised.

"Hello, P'Wayu." I raised my hands to pay respect and then

looked at my lunch.

"Ah...P'Wayu. Have you eaten lunch yet?"

I asked that because if P'Wayu just sat next to me while I

was the only one eating and P'Wayu just watched me
chewing...it would be quite...awkward.

"I already asked my bodyguard to buy it for me." P'Wayu

said and rested his arms on the table. Then, he started the
conversation.

"Do you know....which veggie can drive?"

And...he had to begin with this sort of question.

"Ah..." I thought for a while. "Cabbage."

Because it sounded like a 'cab' — taxi.

I had to speak louder as I wasn't used to sitting in the

middle of a crowd like this.

"Great!" He clapped his hands, then one of his bodyguards

brought a bowl of noodles and a cola. He must've asked his
bodyguard to buy them. Still, he was more focused on
talking about those lame jokes rather than eating.

"Which food is always stuck?"

"Jam."

"Yes!" He snapped his fingers.

"And which food should I give to Ai Natee?" He grinned.

Some of his fans started to scream as they heard him
mentioning P'Natee. Even if it was 'Ai Natee'.

"Ah..." I need to think carefully.

I tried to figure out the connection between P'Natee and

some kind of food name, plus the fact that P'Wayu always
argued with P'Natee.

When I realised, I stiffened.

Seriously? He actually meant this word?

"Cheese...Shit?" I could only whisper it. I didn't dare to say it

too loudly.
"God! I like it!" P'Wayu seemed to be impressed with my
answer. He even hugged my shoulder in a friendly way.

Suddenly, someone came and interrupted us. That person

was holding a dish of green curry and rice, and just sat in
the middle of me and P'Wayu.

I widened my eyes. DomWhai around us were screaming.

Who else could summon a lot of screaming sound? Who else

could walk through the bodyguard circle without being
blocked? And who else could pass through the fans without
being noticed?

"P'In? Why did you sit here?" P'Wayu looked confused as P'In
squeezed himself between us.

Although P'Wayu's fans always followed P'Wayu, the chance

of meeting P'In was very rare. So, it was understandable
that they were really out of control right now.

"I can't?" P'In asked P'Wayu in a monotone.

"Of course, you can." P'Wayu nodded and pointed to the

opposite side of the table.

"You can sit there. Don't need to squeeze like this."

"You go sit." P'In told P'Wayu. P'Wayu seemed a bit shocked.

"But I sat here first." P'Wayu murmured. "There's only one

bench, but there's three people here. Very uncomfortable."

"Then don't sit here." P'In said and started eating as

emotionless as usual.

I looked at P'In and P'Wayu, confused.

P'Wayu glanced at P'In for a while, then decided to give up.
He moved himself to the opposite side of the table, leaving
both P'In and I on that bench.

Even so, it didn't mean that he couldn't talk.

"Hey. N'Win. During the UNISTAR contest, I can't score and

promote you anymore. But I'd like to tell you that I'll cheer
for you, fly-thing!" P'Wayu smiled at me while twirling his
noodles with his fork.

P'In only glanced at P'Wayu and continued eating.

I understood what P'Wayu meant. Because during the

UNISTAR contest, MW entertainment needed the contest to
be the fair for everyone, so they prohibited the UNISTAR
members from promoting the new candidates, and if those
candidates came from the same university, they wouldn't be
able to give them any scores as the judges during the final
stage with the 9 finalists.

For example, since I came from XU University, if I managed

to get into the final stage, P'In and P'Wayu who also came
from the same university couldn't give me any scores. Only
P'Sea, P'Leo, P'Natee and PD Kwang would be judging and
deciding on my score.

I accepted this reason, as most of the UNISTAR members

were also part of the student committee of their own
university. Therefore, it would be unfair without this rule.

And...the 'fly-thing' from P'Wayu...he might mean 'fighting'.

"Thank you krub. P'Wayu." I replied. When talking about the

UNISTAR contest, I became both excited and nervous.
"Has any MW staff contacted you?" P'Wayu asked. "The
University should have sent your name as the University
Moon candidate to MW. Soon, the first round for online
voting will start."

"Really? I'll check it when I go back home. Thank you so

much for telling me."

P'Wayu just nodded. He seemed to have something more to

say. He took out his phone and asked.

"Oh right...do you have an IG account?"

"Ah...yes." I was a little confused. "But I rarely use it. I've

never posted any photos."

"Just post it now. Can you give me your IG name?" P'Wayu

just asked for my IG.

"Yes. My IG is Archawin_d." I said.

As P'Wayu had asked me directly, it would be kind of rude if

I didn't tell him.

My IG had the same name as my Twitter.

"Okay." P'Wayu replied as he ate while opening his IG.

However, P'In, who was eating green curry next to me, also
fished out his phone.

Why was everyone playing on their mobile phones? I

alternately looked at P'Wayu and P'In, again and again.
Then, I could play too right? I thought before taking out my
phone too.

I opened my Instagram and felt disheartened. No photos. 0

followers.
Wait...one follower just now...oh...two followers?

"I already followed you."

P'Wayu winked at me, causing me to widen my eyes.

"You followed my IG?" I was shocked because P'Wayu was a

famous Moon. A UNISTAR Member with a million followers.

That could only mean that I would be at the centre of

attention of that million followers...

"Yep!" P'Wayu said. "Don't forget to post some photos and

click like on my photos too, okay?"

I thought I wouldn't be more shocked, but suddenly...

"First follower." P'In interrupted before placing his mobile

phone on the table and continued eating.

"Huh? What do you mean?" P'Wayu didn't understand.

First follower? My eyes widened again. Then I checked my

two followers on IG.

Whywayu — this must be P'Wayu.

And the other one was IntrakornD — this was P'In's IG!

Wait...I was so surprised that my phone almost slipped.

P'In told me that he was the first person who followed my

IG? Wait...since I told P'Wayu my IG name and he suddenly
took out his phone, did he actually plan to follow me before
P'Wayu did?

But P'In had never followed anyone on his IG before. I

remembered the following number on P'In's IG was zero. P'In
didn't even follow other UNISTAR members or the MW
Official IG page.

Feeling extremely curious, I checked P'In's IG.

IntrakornD

2210 Posts 1.1 M Followers 1 Following

And that 1 following — was me.

Oh...

I was stunned!

"Follow back." P'In said, emotionlessly.

That made me realise that I used to stalk P'In's IG, but never
actually followed him.

"Did you follow?" P'In kept asking. His expression was still
emotionless.

"I followed." I hurriedly clicked the follow button, nervously

and shyly.

Right now. P'In and I were following each other.

I just smiled unconsciously.

"Hey, follow me too!" P'Wayu interrupted.

"Ah...alright." I nodded. P'Wayu was a senior, and if he

followed me, I should follow back.

However, P'In was...

"Don't follow." P'In said.

P'Wayu and I immediately turned to P'In. Dazed.

"Huh? Why? N'Win is my fan. He should follow me too."

"When?" P'In looked at P'Wayu.

"What?" P'Wayu couldn't understand P'In's short sentences

apparently.

"Did he tell you that he is your fan?" P'In asked again.

I looked from P'In to P'Wayu and scratched my head.

What was happening here?

"Then. Are you my fan or P'In's fan?" P'Wayu might not know
how to answer, so he just asked me instead.

P'In also turned to me, waiting for my answer.

"Ah..." This question made me lose my appetite. I was

eating alone in the first place. Why did these two famous
Moons come to join me? I was feeling so much pressure!

I was whose fan? I was worried. How should I answer this?

I glanced at P'In and bowed my head.

I knew myself. It was very clear. I was his fan.

"I admire P'In." I answered, a bit embarrassed.

My answer bloomed a smile on P'In's emotionless face.

"Then just follow me," P'In said to me. I could only blink.

P'Wayu just raised his eyebrows, then whistled.

"P'In krub. Even the 'dorm' allows the tenant to move out,
so why can't the one in a fan 'dom' move out?"

P'Wayu joked with P'In, but P'In just responded with an

emotionless face. I didn't know whether P'In wasn't in the
mood or it just wasn't funny.

"N'Win might be your DomKati, but I can steal him to be in

DomWhai someday hahaha." P'Wayu laughed.

P'In stared at P'Wayu for a moment.

"Wanna move your fandom?" P'Wayu invited me. "I'm a

lively person. It's more fun than someone who's always
silent. Trust me."

I knew P'Wayu implied P'In, but I couldn't help but think that
P'Wayu was sometimes too lively.

"Will you go?" P'In asked me.

"Oh..." I kept blinking.

P'In asked whether I would move the fandom?

Huh? Wait. I only said indirectly that I admired P'In, but he

already counted me as DomKati?

My face became hot. Even though it was true and P'In knew
it already...it was still embarrassing.

"Ah..." I was so shy that I was at a loss for words.

"P'In. Why do you pressure N'Win like this? How could he

answer you this way? We need to wait and see in the long
term for this sort of thing."
P'Wayu smiled at P'In while P'In gave P'Wayu such strange
cold eyes.

I was still looking at both of them. Still confused. I was only

eating by myself. Suddenly, the two famous UNISTARs
popped up out of nowhere and discussed which fandom I
belong to....but why was it me?

Nevermind. P'In already followed my IG. As I thought of this,

I tried hard to hold my smile. I looked at my phone happily.

If you're wondering what the Invisible Moon and Half Moon

were up to, well...P'In was still staring at P'Wayu and P'Wayu
was still trying to invite me to his fandom.

One Moon talked too much. The other Moon barely talked.
But both of them had their own unique funny side.

So I just let them do as they pleased.

Perhaps, tomorrow they would have already forgotten what

was happening today.

☽------------☽

Footnote :

[1] Ai is a rude word in Thai spoken language. Usually used

as a prefix in the front of a person's name. The meaning is
quite similar to 'That fucking (person's name)'.
Chapter 24 : The Visible
Air
Invisible Moon

Chapter 24

The Visible Air

"Even if it was just the air, it was still touchable."

#WINisWIND

I thought I had done quite well in my midterms as I was very

good at subjects that required a lot of memorising, while I
wasn't really confident about subjects that required deep
understanding or analysing. But at least I thought I could
pass.

Some courses didn't require an exam, but we had to do a

group presentation instead. I was in the same group as
Boss. Boss was very good at presentations. However, even
though I had a group work with him, we didn't talk much
with each other. Boss just wished me congratulations after I
became the University Moon.

MW had already contacted me via my student email

address. They asked me to fill an application form and send
it with a copy of my identity documents. I also had to send
my full profile photo wearing the university uniform for the
contest promotion, so I asked the student committee for the
file.
Afterwards, the UNISTAR website and official page uploaded
photos of all the Moons who would be participating in the
UNISTAR contest this year. They would also be uploading
their biographies and short clips from the University Moon
contest. In total, there were 121 candidates from various
universities around the country. However, only 9 candidates
would be chosen to compete in the final stage, which
depended on the online public vote.

The voting would take around 1 month, and all voters must
register on the website with self-identification. For 'Unity'
members like me, we could just use our member card
number to register. Unity was also given the privilege to
vote twice a day, while normal people could only vote once
a day. However, all voters would not know each candidate's
current scores, as real-time voting results would be kept
secret. We would find out together on the announcement
date.

Mr. Chana came up with some ideas to help me promote

myself like a brand creator. Mr. Chana created my brand
image and asked the student committee to record photos
and videos of me in a lively, cute and innocent tone, and
uploaded them on the XU Official and XU Cute Boy pages.

Somehow, I became quite well-known. Many fans from

DomWhai voted for me as I was the 'lame joke heir'. Apart
from that, because P'In and P'Wayu followed my IG,
everyone became super curious as to whose IG it was, as I
didn't post any photos or videos. Not even a profile photo.
However, many people on Twitter seemed to guess that it
was me, the Moon from XU University, because I used my
name 'Archawin' in my IG.

I had been mentioned by DomKati, questioning the fact that

P'In had never followed anyone, but why did he follow me?
However, no one continued this topic because they couldn't
confirm whether this IG was actually mine. So, although I
had planned to post some photos at first, I would rather
keep a low profile now. I was afraid it would become a
problem for P'In.

Regarding P'Wayu, his fans also asked why P'Wayu always

followed someone else but had not followed P'Natee. They
had been looking forward to the day that those two would
follow each other on IG.

"Hey, Win! There's a lot of handsome Moons this year.

Ahhh." Parn, my friend, was crazy about the UNISTAR
contest as always.

"The Moon from QU looks very tall. I heard P'Natee trained

him." Another friend added and they kept talking about this
topic.

"Really? What about the ZU Moon? Did P'Sea also train

him?"

"I'm not sure. But ZU Moon didn't come from the Faculty of
Medicine like P'Sea."

"Hey! But this year...XYU Moon seems super popular."

"Hmm? XYU? The new private university? They also have a

candidate this year?"

"Of course! He's so damn hot. So damn cool! He is already a

famous idol too."

I enjoyed listening to my friends talking and also learning

some information for the contest too. I found that most
people seemed to be interested in the Moon candidates
from the universities which already had UNISTAR members
such as QU, ZU or XU like me. In contests like this, the big
universities with plenty of students and alumni would have
an added advantage, as some people weren't interested in
UNISTAR, but they just wanted to cheer for their own
university.

The only way to know who would be the top candidates was
the number of likes and comments on Facebook pages and
websites. I saw many people cheering for me. However, the
most outstanding among all candidates seemed to be these
two: First, 'Oat', the QU Moon from the Faculty of
Engineering, he was very talented at playing drums. And
second, he was from an unfamiliar university, but he
seemed to exceed any other candidates. His name was 'Sun'
from XYU.

I took a look at his IG and Twitter and saw that he had

hundreds of thousands of followers. He was the most likely
to win. Very good-looking and famous. He was a mixed race
person. His mother was Thai, and his father was half-
Chinese and half-English. His Thai name was 'Suriyaphat
Leng' but his Chinese name was 'Leng Canxi'. He had grown
up overseas and later joined an International middle school
in Thailand.

The reason why Sun was very popular was because he had
participated in a TV program called 'School-Ace', which was
aired on MWTV. It was a male idol group survival show.
Some people also dubbed the show as 'UNISTAR Junior'
because their theme was quite similar to UNISTAR. Each
school would send a candidate for the contest and there
was a voting system, but the candidates would be limited
only to middle or high school students. Sun was the most
popular candidate in this program until he graduated from
high school. So he became the most famous former member
of School-Ace. And now, he has joined the UNISTAR contest
as well. During the School-Ace program, he had always
received the highest voted score. And now, it's no wonder
that in the UNISTAR contest, he was the favourite candidate
to win.

I couldn't wait for the results as I was very curious to find

out who would become the 9 finalists. Mr. Chana seemed
confident that I would be on the list. However, I couldn't be
assured that I would win and become a UNISTAR. Like I
mentioned before, we shouldn't underestimate the other
candidates this year.

After all the midterm exams were over, I had some time to
rest. I heard P'Wun had also finished her exams. It was
common to visit my family after not seeing them for a few
months. We would eat together and spend time as a family.
We might dine out, go to the beach for a seafood meal, or
go to a hotel for fine dining, or sometimes just have a
simple meal at home.

At first, I was hesitant about whether I should do my

makeup or not, but I was afraid that my parents couldn't
recognise me. Even P'Wun didn't recognise me with
makeup. So I decided to go home as the usual Win — the
fading air.

I packed some stuff, planning to stay at home for two

nights. I took a taxi back home, but nobody was there when
I arrived. I went to my bedroom on the second floor. I hadn't
visited home for more than a month, but my room was still
the same as it used to be.

"Win! Where are you? Win! Did you just come back?"

I flinched as I heard the high-pitch sound from P'Wun. She

was calling me. I was surprised, as I was usually
unnoticeable. Sometimes they also forgot that I was at
home too.

"Yes, P'Wun?" I left my room and found P'Wun looking for

me.

"Win! Win! Where are you?" P'Wun was looking around, and
somehow still didn't see me.

"P'Wun krub!" So I called her again.

She heard me and finally realised that I was just right here.

When she saw me, she headed straight towards me.

"Is there anything P'Wun? Wait..." I was shocked as P'Wun

just dragged me to the sofa downstairs, and kept staring at
my face.

"Uh...P'Wun...are you okay?" I was nervous as she was still

staring at me.

"Is this really Win?" P'Wun seemed to be puzzled.

"What do you mean?" I scratched my head.

"I watched the XU Moon contest. Anything about handsome

and hot guys, I would definitely not miss. At first, I also
cheered for that cute Business Moon. Of course, he was very
adorable...until his full name was announced as the
winner..."

"Huh...The Moon contest...Oh..."

I widened my eyes as I realised what P'Wun was talking

about.
"Archawin Deshsakul, XU Moon....Ahhh! It was my brother~"
P'Wun was shaking my shoulder uncontrollably.

"P....P'Wun...you already knew?" I felt a bit dizzy from being

shaken like a cocktail.

"I just found out from the contest. Hmm...why didn't you tell
me earlier that you're a Faculty Moon?" P'Wun pouted.

I intended to say sorry and explain my reason, however,

P'Wun kept talking and wouldn't give me a chance.

"And you...why have you become like this? Who was that
cute boy on the stage?" P'Wun touched my face curiously.

"Why is the current you and the you on the stage so

different?"

"e...un...ub..." My voice sounded indistinct, as she was

squeezing my cheeks.

"Oh right...during the contest...my brother had makeup on."

P'Wun seemed to have realised.

"Let me think. My little bro, just sit here for a moment, don't
go anywhere yet, understood?" P'Wun told me and ran
upstairs to her bedroom.

I was still in a daze until she came back with her cosmetic
bag.

"W...what are you gonna do?" I was surprised as she went

on to apply makeup on me.

"I wanna make sure....I must know it!" P'Wun rustily made
me up and I didn't even have a chance to protest.
A few minutes later, my face was covered with decent
makeup, and P'Wun suddenly screamed.

"Ahhh! It's really you!" P'Wun seemed very excited.

"My little brother is actually a Moon! With In and Wayu as

judges~ Ahhh~~"

"Uh..." I looked at her, confused.

"Such an important thing, why didn't you tell me?" P'Wun

seemed to feel slighted.

"At least, I could cheer and vote for you!"

"P'Wun..." I was very surprised because I just realised that

she wanted to support me.

I had planned to tell her, but couldn't figure out how to. But
it turned out that she already found out about it herself.

"God! I'm very happy. I've never thought that you'd be so

cute. I loved pretty guys and I paid a lot for them. If I'd
known earlier that my little brother would be super cute like
this, I wouldn't need to devote myself to others~"

P'Wun suddenly hugged me. I froze. It was unexpected.

Did she mean she would rather become my fan and pay for
me instead?

Nevertheless, I remained silent...

"Wun...we're back!"

I heard my parents' voices. They were already home and

P'Wun was still hugging me.
In fact, it wasn't strange for a pair of brother and sister to
hug each other, however, with me in makeup like this...

"Hey! Who the fuck is this guy? How did you get in?" My dad
was mad at me.

"Wun! You're a girl, you can't hug a boy like this!" My mom
supported him.

"Mom...Dad..."

I called them, instead they looked straight at me.

"Hey. Do you think I'm gonna fall for that innocent face? I
won't accept you!" Mom said.

"Yeah! She is my only daughter. I won't accept you either!"

Dad said.

"Huh?" I was shocked.

Wait...Did they just misunderstand me?

"Mom...Dad...he isn't my boyfriend. He is N'Win." P'Wun

immediately explained.

"Wait...Win?" My mom looked at me. Amazed.

"Wun. Don't lie to me. How could that be possible? Our son
doesn't have such an outstanding face like this dude." Even
my dad still didn't believe it.

"Mom, dad, it's me." I announced myself, but they still

doubted me.

"It's Win! Look." P'Wun insisted and opened the UNISTAR

website.
"Win just became the XU Moon! See? Archawin Deshsakul,
this is our Win!"

P'Wun opened the website that had my photo in the

student's uniform as well as my biography.

"That's...Win?!" Mom and dad almost screamed in unison.

"Why does Win look so different with makeup?"

Mom and dad kept asking and forced me to turn around and
around until I almost felt dizzy.

"Alright alright. Win seems dizzy now. How about we just go

out for lunch? It's already noon." P'Wun was trying to help
me before I faint.

"Okay, let's get into the car. Today we'll have Japanese
food."

So everyone got ready to go out.

On the way, I told them all about myself.

It was the first time that I wasn't a fading Win.

I told a long story, starting from when I was born and

already forgotten. Wherever I went, I was unnoticed.
Whatever I did, I was also forgotten. So when I got to
university, I was trying to change myself. I didn't tell them
that P'In had helped me, as I was afraid P'Wun would keep
screaming and there would be no chance for me to speak
anymore. I could only tell them that I became the Faculty
Moon and the University Moon, and that I was participating
in the UNISTAR contest.
My story was quite long. Even when we arrived at the
restaurant, I still hadn't finished.

"Mom, Dad, look, Win is already a UNISTAR candidate. Ahhh!

If he can get into the final round, he'll be on the TV show, on
the stage, and meet UNISTAR members so often. Oh my
goddess!"

P'Wun was so ecstatic that many people in the restaurant

turned to us.

"You're too loud, Wun." My mom warned her and then talked
to me.

"I didn't know that you had been through a lot. I feel very
guilty for making you feel isolated. It's true that I'm more
worried about Wun because she's a girl, but it doesn't mean
I don't love you, Win. It's just that I noticed that you were
always quiet, so I thought you loved to be alone." Mom said.

"Yes. If you have anything on your mind, just talk to us. Next
time, don't keep it to yourself like this. And about the Moon
contest, I'm a bit mad too. Because you didn't tell me and I
missed the event. Otherwise, I'd tell all our cousins to cheer
for you." Dad said.

"Thank you so much, dad, mom, P'Wun." I told them.

Today, I realised many things. Because I always considered

myself as a fading person, I thought I was forgotten. So I
decided to be alone. I had never tried to make them notice
me. It turned out that I looked down on myself and finally
became a forgotten air.

When I knew the truth. I felt bad for myself. Before, I had
thought too much and kept my distance from my family.
When I realised that they were actually willing to help me, it
made my heart feel so warm.

"Count on me, N'Win. My little brother joined the contest, so

I'll vote for you nonstop. And I'll force all my friends to vote
for you too!"

P'Wun seemed really determined.

"Even though I am a QU student, even though I used to

cheer for N'Oat, even though 'School-Ace' is my favourite
show, even though I love N'Sun so much, and even though
N'Sun looks so yum and very much like an ideal husband,
but I'll throw them out of my heart. Because I'll only cheer
for you, N'Win!"

"Me too," my mom said. "I'll do everything to cheer for you.

I'll vote every day and tell all my colleagues to vote for you.
My son will get into the final round!"

"Although I don't quite understand much about idols, I'll

vote too. I'll tell our cousins too. Hey, Wun, don't forget to
teach me how to register."

"Thank you so much!" I felt really grateful.

"I actually didn't expect to win, but I'll try my best."

"It's fine. The result isn't important. Just do your best. Don't
pressure yourself too much." My mom assured me.

"Yep. Idol isn't important. Both my kids got into good

universities, so I'm already proud of you." My dad said.

"How come? Win must win!" P'Wun pleaded with me.

"N'Win, do you know how hard it is to get close to my
husbands as a Unity like me? I need to scramble to get a
fanmeet ticket. Wake up so early and wait for the selling
system to open. I also had to force my friends to help me. I
kept doing this every month for a year. But I could only get
one ticket. Just one! And I only got Leo's signature... If my
brother is a UNISTAR member, I could easily meet all of
them. Ahhh!"

P'Wun seemed to dream too far ahead. But as she started

this topic, it got me wondering as well.

"Uh...P'Wun krub. Which UNISTAR member do you like

most?"

I knew P'Wun was sort of an all-around fan. She was a fan of

every type of idol and had her imagination husbands from
all around the world.

However, I was still curious about who she liked the most in
UNISTAR.

"Oh...that's hard to choose. I love all of them." P'Wun acted

like she was incredibly beautiful.

I blinked.

"Can I get all of them? I'm gonna make my own harem.

Hehehe." P'Wun giggled.

My parents looked at her like she was mad while I gasped.

Well...I shouldn't have asked her. Seriously!

☽------------☽
Chapter 25 : Became the
Moon
Invisible Moon

Chapter 25

Became the Moon

"If the air could condense into solid,

the air could also become the moon."

#WINisWIND

During the voting period on the UNISTAR website, MW

Entertainment sent an email to inform all candidates that
they would be conducting a briefing session at the agency
building. The session would include a brief on the contest
rules and the UNISTAR contract. We also needed to record a
short introduction video.

The briefing was held on Sunday. They told us to wear our

university uniforms and arrive early for preparation,
because there would be a lot of candidates.

After registration, we were grouped and sent into separate

dressing rooms where a stylist, who was assigned to us, was
waiting.

"I think brown hair would suit you. Would you like to try
colouring your hair? We still have some time left." The stylist
told me, as I was the first one who arrived.

"Alright," I nodded. I had never dyed my hair before, as I

didn't know which colour would suit me. If the stylist could
pick one for me, that would be nice.

While the stylist was dyeing my hair, there was another

candidate sitting next to me. I could recognise him
immediately. His name is Oat, the Moon from QU University,
Faculty of Engineering. He was quite good-looking, tall, and
firm. Although his appearance might not be as outstanding
as the UNISTAR members, compared to the average, he was
still very handsome. His height of 190 centimetres was his
most outstanding feature. In short, it's no surprise that he
became the QU Moon.

"Hi!" He greeted me with a smile.

"Are you Win from XU University? I watched your contest.

Your talent is very amazing. I'm impressed that you could
answer every question, even P'Wayu's joke."

"Hi!" I smiled back at him. "You're Oat, right? Thank you. I

also like your talent. Your drumming skill is enviable."

I was trying to be friendly, so that I could make some

friends.

"Thank you," he said.

"Let's fight together! Since both of us have UNISTAR

members from our university, the pressure is a bit tense."

"Yeah, that's true." I agreed.

Perhaps, most people thought that it was advantageous for

us to have a senior who was a UNISTAR member. However,
the fact is, we were carrying the expectations and
reputations of our universities on our backs. If we couldn't
make it to the final stage, it would be so embarrassing.

Oat and I kept chatting. I thought we could get along well as

both of us were similar — we came from a famous university
which had already produced a UNISTAR member. Although
our universities were sort of competitors, I was still glad to
have a companion.

We exchanged our experiences working closely with

UNISTAR members. Oat told me that he was very close to
P'Natee because they both loved to play instruments.
P'Natee loved singing and playing the guitar, and Oat loved
playing the drums. Sometimes, P'Natee would invite him to
practice together. P'Natee also said that he would like to
form a music band. P'Natee's close friends could play the
bass and electric guitars, and now, Oat could play the drum.
But P'Natee said he wanted one other member who could
play the electronic keyboard.

"What about you? You come from the same major as P'In.
What's P'In's personality like?" Oat asked.

"Yes," I nodded. "P'In...he doesn't talk much, but he's very

caring."

"I see. Judging by the way P'In treats his fans, it's obvious.
P'In is a very quiet person who doesn't socialise much, but
he cares a lot for his fans."

"I couldn't agree more. How's P'Natee? What's his

personality like?"

I was very curious. As I saw how he responded to his fans on

Twitter and IG. He was very blunt but his fans still loved him.
"P'Natee is very straightforward to the point of rude." Oat
laughed.

"But really, P'Natee is a very kind and attentive person.

Though he might complain or seem indifferent, he's very
caring. Well, the so-called shrew, but kind."

"Really?" I laughed as well because his fans also said

something like that. Apparently, he fits the description of a
Husky.

"And what about the relationship between P'Wayu and

P'Natee?"

I couldn't help but wonder.

"P'Wayu seems to not like P'Natee, but their fans still

believe they love each other."

"About this..." Oat appeared to be contemplating.

"I'm not quite sure. P'Natee always mentions P'Wayu and

complains about him. About almost everything. From
morning until evening. Sometimes, I also think that they
might actually hate each other, but sometimes I feel like it's
a father complaining about his son."

"Really?" I found this story to be hilarious.

I was feeling very curious now. The half-moons' relationship

seemed to be more complicated than I thought. Who knew
whether they actually loved or hated each other?

Afterwards, the stylist called me to wash my hair. Then, they

did a new hairstyle for me. When I saw myself in the mirror,
I was amazed.
I only changed my hair colour and style, and it turned
out...great.

"Oh...you look really good with this hairstyle." Oat

complimented me.

"If you take a photo and post it on the internet now, more
fans will absolutely vote for you."

"Thank you." I felt shy.

"Oh, the meeting will start soon. Shall we go to the hall

now?" Oat asked. He was also ready.

"Okay, let's go." So I walked with him.

The MW Entertainment auditorium was very large. There

were hundreds of seats available. I remembered that this
hall was used for their press conferences as well whenener
MW Entertainment released a new project or gave an
interview.

They also prepared some beverages and snacks for us. The
staff gave us a handbook with a bag and led us to our seats.
There were some MWTV staff around us, and many
candidates had already arrived.

While waiting, I took a quick look at the handbook. It was

the 'UNISTAR contest handbook by MW Entertainment',
which included the project introduction, list of members and
staff, details about the contract and contest rules, as well as
an activity calendar. It turned out that the final stage would
be held after my final exam.

What I loved most was the gifts inside the bag. There were
coupons for various goods and services of MW, stationery
with UNISTAR logo, and a white UNISTAR T-shirt. We were
also given two special zone tickets to attend the final
contest. So, even if we couldn't make it to the final round,
we could still participate in the event and bring someone
along. I thought it was great and I'm sure P'Wun would love
it!

The meeting was about to start. The seats were all full. I
saw a familiar host coming in with a small guy — I
recognised him. He was PD Kwang. I figured he held a pretty
high position here, as all staff paid respect to him.

"Hello everyone. Welcome to all Moon candidates to the

briefing of the 5th generation UNISTAR contest."

After the host greeted us, everyone applauded.

"For your information, this briefing will be recorded and

some of the footage will be broadcasted on the UNISTAR
SHOWTIME! At the end of this briefing, please get a number
and head to the studio. You will be recording your 1-minute
introduction video there."

I looked around. When all the candidates were gathered

here, it sort of looked like a group of angels had gathered.
They were all super handsome. If P'Wun were here, she
would have a major nose-bleed.

"And now, I'll pass this mic to our main producer for the
UNISTAR project. Khun Nattakorn or PD Kwang. PD Kwang
will talk about the contest, contract details and also
preparation..."

Then, PD Kwang walked up to the stage as everyone

applauded to welcome him.

"Hello everyone! First of all, congratulations on winning the

university Moon contests." PD Kwang started.
He had a kind look, but seemed very serious when he was
working.

"Out of all of you who made it from the University Moon

contest to the National Moon contest, only one will be given
the privilege to become the next generation member of the
UNISTAR project. This is a crucial time for you. You will
naturally be the topic of public interest until one of you
officially becomes a UNISTAR member. Thus, what I'd like to
talk about first is — the contest rule."

Everyone was focusing on what PD Kwang was saying.

"We've detailed the terms of the contract for the 9 finalists

in the handbook, including the contract that you would sign
as a UNISTAR member. I won't be explaining every detail
here, so make sure you read it thoroughly. If you have any
problem with any part of the contract, you can opt to quit
the contest. However, if you agree to sign the contract as
the 9 finalists, it means that you accept the terms and
conditions placed as a UNISTAR member and idol under MW
Entertainment. If you become the winner, the contract will
come into immediate effect."

"Furthermore, since you're already in the limelight, you need

to know that MW Entertainment is quite strict with social
media use, especially for UNISTAR members. At this time,
you don't need to sign the contract yet, but once you
become one of the 9 finalists, it's mandatory for you to sign
it."

"If you have any Facebook, Instagram, Twitter, or other

social media pages, you can use them as usual, but please
inform us as well. Our staff will be monitoring them and you
may need to delete some inappropriate posts or content
during the contest. This is for your own sake as an idol."
PD Kwang was clear on wanting us to take the UNISTAR
image seriously. Although we had yet to become a UNISTAR
member, we were already participating in the contest. One
of us would eventually become the winner, so they needed
to manage our image from the get go.

"One more thing, and this is a very big issue for us...about
personal relationships."

"Our agency doesn't prohibit dating. However, the contract

specifies that if the personal relationship has a negative
impact on the idol's work, income, or image, we have a right
to control it. For example, if you have a girlfriend and it
causes you to lose your popularity, we have the right to ask
you to stop your relationship or keep it a secret. And if you
don't agree, we also have a right to cancel the contract and
make claims against you."

When they mentioned this topic, a number of candidates

looked uneasy.

"Yes. I admit it's a bit too much. But being a successful idol
isn't easy as well. Especially for UNISTAR members, image
management must be considered a priority. If I had a choice,
I wouldn't want to meddle in your personal life. The goal of
being an idol is to make your fans happy. Keep in mind, your
income is your fans' money. The love from your fans is the
only thing that will determine your idol path. Thus, we must
prioritise your image and your fans.

If you still want to enjoy your teenage life, or you already

have a relationship and aren't willing to be forced, I'd
suggest you quit the contest now. Because the problem will
not only affect our company or yourself, but also the ones
you love."
I understood what PD Kwang was trying to explain. This
issue had occurred before, not to a UNISTAR member, but to
another famous idol of MW. He had a girlfriend and his
girlfriend had always posted many lovey-dovey photos on
her IG publicly. His fans were angry as they thought that
they didn't receive enough love from their beloved idol. As a
result, not only did he lose his popularity, his girlfriend also
got bullied. Some fans even went as far as to harass her
personal life. It was such an unhappy ending, and they both
decided to break up.

"What if we have a relationship and our fans are okay with

it? Will this case be an issue?"

Suddenly, Oat, who sat next to me, raised his hand to ask. I
was quite surprised.

"No, it won't be a problem." PD Kwang answered.

"Regarding the personal relationship issue, we will consider

it case by case. Another choice is to keep it a secret. But if
you already have a relationship right now, it is very risky
because your friends may already know. Moreover, I'd like
you to carefully think about it. A secret relationship isn't that
easy to handle as well."

PD Kwang reminded us that if an idol had a relationship, he

would have to take care of his fans and girlfriend at the
same time. It would be quite difficult. And if he decided to
keep it a secret, he would need to be concerned about the
other person's feelings as well. And what if the fans found
out later that their idol had a secret relationship with
someone? They might feel even more disappointed. So I
realised that this was a huge issue as an idol. Staying single
was the safest option.

Well...having a relationship? I hadn't thought about it before.

"That is all for idol image. Now, I'd like to move on to the
activity schedule. After we announce the 9 finalists, we'll
arrange a special show for the contest. It's sort of a UNISTAR
internship. The 9 finalists will have a chance to join the
existing UNISTAR TV shows and work with UNISTAR
members. Through a random draw, each finalist will have
one UNISTAR member as a mentor. Who you get would
depend on your luck."

I recalled that this show was pretty fun. I watched last year's
contest — P'Natee and P'Wayu's year. P'Leo was P'Wayu's
mentor and P'Sea was P'Natee's mentor. The show took on a
UNISTAR internship format where candidates would observe
or sometimes even try the modelling, advertising, photo
shoots and variety show recording work. The candidates
would follow their mentors around as they work.

Although the UNISTAR contest theme was similar to the

University Moon contest, the purpose of this show was to
test each candidate's potential - as in how much potential
they had as a UNISTAR idol. In my opinion, the show would
influence the voting rates as well as the judges' score in the
final stage.

After that, PD Kwang briefed us on other details about the

UNISTAR project, as well as the criterias they would assess.
Then, it was time for Q&A.

"P'Kwang krub. What if I make it as a finalist but unable to

win? Will I still have a chance to be an idol or artist in MW
Entertainment?" One candidate asked.

"Of course you will." PD Kwang replied.

"Because even if you aren't able to become a UNISTAR, it

doesn't mean you aren't good enough. It may be just
because you're not the best match this year. But if we see
your abilities and potential, we'll definitely want to offer you
a contract. We've done this around two years ago. The 1st
runner-up in N'In's generation is now working as an MC for
MWTV."

I recognised him. That candidate was very eloquent and had

an interesting character. However, P'In was more
outstanding than he was, so he didn't win that year. Not
long after that, he debuted as an MC. He was appointed as
the associate MC for UNISTAR SHOWTIME! And was also
selected as the host for last year's UNISTAR contest.

"If there are no other questions, then we can conclude

today's briefing. There'll be a fun activity after this, so I
hope you'll have fun. And congratulations again on
becoming the University Moons. I wish you luck in this
contest."

PD Kwang finished the speech and passed the microphone

to the MC. He seemed to be busy as he immediately rushed
out the hall afterwards.

After that, the staff conducted a mini game, similar to our

orientation activity at university. The aim was to break the
ice and allow us to get to know each other. Then, we went to
have lunch and prepared to record our short video
introduction. This building had a number of studio rooms.
Oat and I were assigned to separate rooms but at the same
timing.

"Uh...Oat. May I ask? Do you already have a girlfriend? Why

did you ask PD Kwang that question?" I asked curiously.

"No, not yet." Oat said. "I was just wondering because we
won't know what will happen in the future, right?"
"Agreed," I nodded. Nobody could predict the future. Right
now, we might not think about having a relationship, but
feelings are something that's very unpredictable.

While we were heading to the studio. I saw PD Kwang

scolding a candidate. Oat and I didn't intend to eavesdrop,
but we were just coincidentally passing by, and didn't dare
to walk out as they seemed to be discussing a serious topic.

"Sun, why are you late?" PD Kwang sounded serious.

Sun? Oh...that must be the Moon from XYU university, the

most popular candidate. I was very curious about what he
actually looked like in real life, so I moved a little closer and
was utterly surprised.

'Oh, his appearance...was he actually the sun?'

Why was he so bright? He was only wearing a normal

university uniform, and didn't have his hair or makeup done.

He was very good-looking. His shape was also very perfect;

tall and firm. He was definitely one of those who looked like
they were born to be an idol.

When I saw him. I realised that not only was his amount of
fans hard to compete with, his visuals was also actually a
weapon that's hard to defeat.

"P'Kwang..." Sun looked quite upset.

"You've already scolded me a lot during School-Ace, now

you still wanna scold me? I'm tired of it now."

"Hey!" PD Kwang pointed at him. "Don't you see the other

candidates? They all arrived on time. Don't you dare think
that just because you used to be an idol, you'll get a
privilege."

"Why not? I've been the most popular one since School-Ace.
It doesn't matter if I'm just a little late."

"The UNISTAR project isn't like School-Ace. Your image is

very important." PD Kwang frowned.

"In School-Ace, you can do whatever you want. If the

audience doesn't like you, then you'll just lose your
popularity and be voted out of the show. However, in
UNISTAR, whatever you do will influence other members as
well as the brand that you're promoting."

"Alright, alright, I understand." Sun replied lazily. "Next time

I'll be on time. So please don't lecture me anymore."

"If I don't, will you ever know what you did wrong?" PD
Kwang seemed really mad.

"Don't you remember what you did during School-Ace? The

staff needed to postpone filming many times because of
what? You were drunk and had night outs so often that you
couldn't get up on time. Tell me why shouldn't I lecture you?
Why shouldn't I?!"

"P'Kwang, I'm not drunk today." Sun was trying to placate

PD Kwang.

"At least, I arrived to record on time. I didn't miss it."

"What about the briefing? The workshop? The rules? The

contract? You're not planning to listen at all?" PD Kwang was
like a ticking bomb that was about to explode.
"P'Kwang, you know everything and I'm close to you, so you
can just tell me later."

"What? Who said that I'm close to you? Bastard!" PD Kwang

had reached his limit, so he hit Sun's arm hard, repeatedly.

"Ouch! P'Kwang. Why are you hitting me? It hurts!" Sun was
trying to protect himself, but PD Kwang didn't let him go
easily.

"Just because you're rich, your uncle is CEO here, you think
you can do whatever you want. Go to hell! Get out of the
contest."

"P'Kwang. Calm down. Please don't be angry."

"No! You have such a bad habit. Ai'Keith taught you, didn't
he?"

"What? Why did you mention P'Keith?"

"Shut up! I'll hit you till death! Damn Metha family!"

I was shocked as we watched them from afar. Although PD

Kwang looked quite serious while working, he was still very
kind. However, he turned into a totally different person
when he got mad. And this guy, Sun, I saw him on School-
Ace before. Sun was a very outstanding idol; good-looking
and talented. He could perfectly play and compose music,
sing and dance, which was why he gained overwhelming
popularity. I wasn't sure about his personality as the show
didn't air how he interacted with other idols that much. Most
of his airtime showed him practising or performing on stage.

After that, I saw PD Kwang dragged Sun to 'lecture'

somewhere else. So Oat and I could only look at each other,
confused. Then, we headed to the studio.
I couldn't help but think about Sun and how his actual
personality might be different from his image. Oh, wait.
P'Kwang mentioned about the Metha family? Did he mean
Methawattana, the owner of MW Entertainment? I
wondered.

"Uh...that person might be Sun Suriyaphat. MW President's

nephew." Oat said and answered all the questions in my
head.

"Hm? Nephew?"

"Yes." Oat said. "His mother is Mr. Kriengsak Methawattana's

sister. MW probably didn't want his surname to affect him,
so he used the name 'Suriyaphat Leng' instead."

"I see." I understood, but was still curious.

"How did you know?"

"I heard from P'Natee." Oat said.

"P'Keith is P'Natee's senior, and P'Keith is also PD Kwang's

best friend. P'Natee said that P'Keith always complained
about Sun because he was a troublemaker since his School-
Ace days. But his fans never knew because MW always
handled it."

"Oh really? P'Keith is...?"

"Mr. Kriengsak's son. MW President's eldest son."

"I see." Everything made sense now.

Sun was the MW President's nephew. He had such a perfect

life, an angelic face and outstanding talent, not to mention
wealthy. If he had a good personality, that would actually be
too perfect.

"N'Win, it's your turn." The staff called me into the studio
room to record my introductory video. So I waved my hand
to Oat and walked in.

The studio wasn't very big. The filming background was very
plain with only the UNISTAR logo. A cameraman and a staff
member were waiting for me as I entered.

"We'll give you one minute to introduce yourself. Here is a

checklist for your speech. Your speech should include
everything in the list. If there is time left, you can say
whatever you like."

I took a look. Apparently I needed to make sure that I

mentioned my name, my university, my special talent, how I
feel about joining the UNISTAR contest, what I wanted to tell
my fans and what I liked about UNISTAR.

"Are you ready?" The staff asked.

"I'm ready." I took a deep breath.

"Three, Two, One..." Then, the camera was on.

"Sawaddee Krub." I greeted the camera.

"My name is Archawin Deshsakul. You can call me Win. I'm

the Moon from the Faculty of Business Administration in XU
University. My special talent is general knowledge. You can
ask me anything and I can answer every question you ask.
I'm honoured to be joining the UNISTAR contest. It feels
surreal that a fading person like me would get this
opportunity. So I'd like to thank everyone, including my
seniors and my friends for supporting me."
I paused for a while. What should I say next? Oh right. I
needed to tell them what I liked about UNISTAR.

"I really like UNISTAR. I'm also a UNISTAR fan..."

I wanted to bite my mouth after I said that. Wait...was I too

excited that I couldn't even control my words?

"Really? Who is your bias?" The staff asked me. I guess

there was still some time left.

"Ah...I like P'In." I didn't intend to say that, and my face

suddenly felt hot.

Oh my god! What did I just say? I like P'In? Oh...no!

"Finally, please support and vote for me!"

I tried to appear cheerful. I even raised two fingers to make

the V sign. When the time was up, the recording ended and I
felt like I wanted to escape from here as fast as I could.

"Uh...May I ask? Will this video be published?" I was worried

because I heard that part of this recording would be
broadcasted on UNISTAR SHOWTIME!

"Not all of it." The staff said. "The editing team will only
select some parts."

I heaved a sigh of relief. There were a lot of candidates and

each of them spoke for about one minute. The part that I
said 'I like P'In' probably wouldn't matter. The editing team
would cut it out for sure.

However—

"But the full video will be uploaded on the UNISTAR website,

so the audience can watch at any time."
"Huh?!"

What the staff said had effectively destroyed all my hope.

I hope it wasn't true. Damn it Win!

I could only wish that P'In would be too busy to watch my

shameless introduction video...Hopefully.

☽------------☽

Footnote :

[1] 'Khun' is a Thai honorific, usually used as a prefix in

front of a person's name. It is a polite and formal way to
address a person.
Chapter 26 : The Moon in
the Dom
Invisible Moon

Chapter 26

The Moon in the Fandom "If the moon could hide behind
the cloud, it could orbit around another moon."

#WINisWIND

"Welcome back to UNISTAR SHOWTIME! Today, we have a

hundred Moon candidates from our local universities joining
the UNISTAR workshop at MW Entertainment hall!"

I watched UNISTAR SHOWTIME! on my laptop, as I knew it

would be uploaded today.

It featured the atmosphere of the meeting from the time we

registered and listened to PD Kwang's speech up to the
activities conducted. I thought the one who got the most air
time was Oat. Even though I always stayed beside him, it
seemed like I still couldn't escape my invisible curse. There
were only a few shots of me appearing on the screen.
Perhaps, because Oat was too tall, a smaller person like me
ended up hidden under his shadow.

I watched the short introduction video from each candidate,

because there were too many candidates, all videos were
cut into 5-second previews, and not everyone's video was
broadcasted. Like Oat's video, which only showed his
comment; "I love playing drums, and I want to play it for
everyone."

I first thought that because of my invisible curse, my video

wouldn't appear. So I almost skipped the rest of the show to
open my Facebook.

"...Which member do you like most?"

I flinched. This question sounded so familiar. And I was

shocked when I saw myself standing with a blushed face in
the video.

"...I like P'In."

"No!!!"

I almost tore out my hair. The introduction video was 1-

minute long! But why did they only pick this part to
broadcast? Why?

Knowing that the full video would be uploaded on the

website was shameful enough, but this cut...was even
included in the broadcast.

I didn't even know where to hide myself now.

This was so embarrassing, but I still felt a bit of relief. At

least, I wasn't the only one who was asked this sort of
question. Other candidates also talked about their favourite
UNISTAR member. And the most frequently mentioned
member was P'Leo. It fits his title, 'Full Moon'. P'Leo was
undoubtedly the most ideal Moon among UNISTAR
members. No wonder he was considered an idol by many
candidates.

"Ah...so embarrassing!"
I admit that I was P'In's fan and that I was wholeheartedly a
DomKati. I knew other people wouldn't care that much, but I
still felt shy.

I turned my attention to my mobile phone when I heard a

notification sound. It was Oat. We befriended each other on
our Facebook accounts during the briefing. It was much
better to have a good companion in the contest rather than
being alone.

Oat Suphakorn : Win. Have you watched UNISTAR

SHOWTIME! yet?

Archawin Deshsakul : I did. You appeared a lot on the

screen.

Oat Suphakorn : Nah...Because of my height I guess.

Oat Suphakorn : Hey, I remember you asked about P'Natee.

You can follow his Facebook. P'Natee always uploads videos
of his singing, playing music, and so on. He's very talented
with the guitar.

Oat Suphakorn : www.facebook.com/Natee.Akaranaphapant

Oat sent me the link to P'Natee's personal Facebook.

Oat Suphakorn : I also found P'Wayu's and P'Leo's. I'm not

their friend on Facebook but their Facebook posts are public.
You can also follow them.

Oat Suphakorn : P'Wayu likes to post about his jokes and

foodstuff and P'Leo likes to post about everyday life issues,
sometimes about medical facts.

Oat Suphakorn : www.facebook.com/Wayu.Chotithanakarun

Oat Suphakorn :
www.facebook.com/LeoRatchapol.Kantirakorn Oat
Suphakorn : Only P'Sea's and P'In's Facebook accounts
aren't public, so we can't follow them.

It seemed like Oat was a big follower of UNISTAR members. I

clicked on the link that he had sent. I was surprised to
discover that the UNISTAR members' personal Facebook
accounts had hundreds of thousands of followers. Normally,
I would only follow their IG and Facebook fan pages,
because I didn't know which one was their real ID. Since Oat
sent them to me, and those Facebook profiles also had P'In
as a mutual friend, it must be their actual Facebook
accounts. So I followed them too.

Archawin Deshsakul : Done. Thanks!

Archawin Deshsakul : I should go to bed now. Talk to you

later.

Oat Suphakorn : Okay. Good night.

After chatting with Oat. I also looked at the stuff that P'In
had given me, including the carp fish, his signature, the
rose, and the perfume. Right now, I arranged them on a
special shelf along with other UNISTAR souvenirs.

The more I look, the more I felt —

"No way!"

I still couldn't move on from the fact that I had said 'I like
P'In' in the introduction video.

I could only cover my face with my pillow and blanket.

Hopefully, it could remove my embarrassment until I fell

asleep.
The next day, I went to college as usual, but it seemed like I
was recognised by more others. Since I became the XU
University Moon, I was already pushed to the centre of
attention. But now, even if I had only appeared on UNISTAR
SHOWTIME!, for only 5 seconds, I was a prospective
UNISTAR candidate.

Just imagine, how famous were the UNISTARs? It was like I

had just become a celebrity all of a sudden. Wherever I
went, people paid attention to me, greeted me, and smiled
at me.

If it was me from before, I would be so nervous. But for now,

I am getting used to it. Though still not perfectly adapted, at
least I could smile back at them.

"Wow, Win! You went to the workshop. How was it?"

When I stepped into the faculty building, Parn was the first
person to excitedly come to talk to me.

So I described the experience without divulging too much.

"The MW entertainment building is quite big. I didn't meet

the UNISTAR members, but I met PD Kwang...and..."

However, I paused as I just saw P'In drinking coconut juice

on the balcony. He was still handsome, gorgeous, and
invisible as always.

The moment I noticed P'In. He seemed to realise it and

looked back at me as well.

"And...what? Tell me more, Win." My friend kept asking.

"Uh...and we had a workshop and did a short introduction

video..."
I couldn't keep my sentences straight as P'In kept making
eye contact with me.

"Did you meet any handsome guy? How about Sun? How's
he?" My friend was still curious, while I was getting more
distracted.

"Sun...is very good-looking. But I only talked to Oat..."

I swallowed hard when I noticed P'In walking this way once

he finished drinking his coconut juice.

I opened my eyes wider. I didn't even know whether he was

just walking by or walking towards me.

However...

"I like P'In."

I suddenly recalled the most embarrassing moment. I was

too shy to face P'In now.

"Excuse me. I need to go to the toilet now."

I told my friend and rushed to the toilet to calm myself

down.

"Urhh! What's happening to me!?" I didn't understand

myself.

Why was I avoiding P'In? I looked at my reflection in the

mirror. I took a deep breath, convincing myself that I was
too worried. That I was thinking too much.

Once I calmed down, I walked out of the toilet. My friend

might be waiting for me to finish my story about the
workshop I attended. But while I was walking to see her...
Suddenly—

"Wha..." I was shocked as I wasn't careful. I almost bumped

into another person who just entered the toilet. But I was
more shocked when I saw that this person was...

"P'In." I felt very nervous.

I just thought about P'In and then, P'In appeared all of

sudden.

'What should I do?'

P'In, however, just headed to the sink and washed his

hands.

"How was the briefing?" He asked.

"Ah..." I tried to control myself.

"It was good and I met P'Kwang too."

I said whatever I could think of. However, while I was right in

front of P'In, my mind turned blank.

In the meantime, P'In seemed to act normal. I was the only

one acting weird.

Or it could be — P'In hadn't watched my shameless video

yet? I was obviously thinking too much.

"P'In, you haven't watched the latest episode of UNISTAR

SHOWTIME!, have you?" I asked, expecting his answer to be
'not yet'.

"Already watched," P'In said emotionlessly as he finished

washing his hands.
I froze. What? He already watched it?

It meant that embarrassing moment — I like P'In — Oh no!

"So...you already saw...my part in the video?" My voice was

shaking.

"Yes." P'In nodded. "The full video of yours on the website,

also watched."

Huh?! Oh...no! Then he must be —

"You already know....I'm...a fan of yours?" I covered my face

with my hands. I was too shy to face him right now.

P'In's eyes met mine, full of curiosity.

"You've always been my fan, haven't you?"

"Huh?" I was stunned.

I unconsciously stepped back when P'In moved closer

towards me.

But...actually, he might already know it since he argued with

P'Wayu that day.

"Since when did you know that?" My voice was still

trembling.

P'In just paused.

"Hm...don't know." P'In seemed to be unperturbed.

However, he also seemed to be more interested about

another thing rather than how he knew that, which was —
"So, you're DomKati?" P'In asked directly, as if confirming.
"Uh..." It was too direct. I felt even more shy.

"Would you mind, if I say yes?" I bent down.

P'In just stayed silent. So I felt awkward because I assumed

he might not feel good about it.

"P'In krub. I admire you so much. Even though I'm DomKati,

I've never expected anything from you. I'm happy with just
being your buddy-code family and your fan. Please trust
me."

"What do you mean by 'expected'?" P'In tilted his head.

"Oh...'expected'? Ah...expect..." I was considering what to

say.

Yeah. What did I mean by 'expected'? I just wanted to say I

wouldn't take any advantage of his fame, but I didn't
understand his question, so I looked at P'In and asked.

"What kind of 'expected' do you mean?"

Nevertheless, when I asked him, his eyes just moved to my

new hair colour instead.

"This colour.. suits you." He said.

I was a bit confused because he suddenly changed the

topic. However, it was such a relief, so I told him...

"Yes, the MW hairstylist chose it for me. You think it's okay?"

P'In nodded and said.

"Gotta go now." P'In might have to go to his afternoon class.

"Okay. Bye krub."

I waved and raised my hands to pay respect.

P'In was about to go, however, he paused.

"Win." P'In turned back and called me. I flinched as P'In

stepped closer, backing me till I hit the wall behind me.

My eyes widened. P'In was too close. So close that I could

smell his unique scent.

"The perfume. You didn't use it?" He asked.

"Huh...perfume..." I became dazed. P'In probably meant the

perfume that he gave to me when I went to his dorm.

Of course, I had never used it when I went out. I was too shy
to walk around smelling like P'In. However, whenever I
stayed alone, I always used it. I would spray the scent in my
room before I went to bed.

"I did," I told the truth.

P'In looked puzzled.

He surprised me when he leaned his face closer to my neck.

"P'In...w—what...a—are you...d—doing?"

My body was shaking, my heart was racing.

"Prove it."

P'In said with a soft tone. But it was so close to my ear, so

my whole body started to feel hot.

He was trying to prove whether I actually used his perfume

or not.
I — I couldn't take it any longer.

"P'In. Do you know? A perfume is an essential solution made

from oil and alcohol. It contains both natural flower extracts
and synthetic scents. Perfume can be categorised into three
types according to their scent intensity: Eau de Parfum, Eau
de Toilette and Eau de Cologne. The intensity measuring
index is called IFRA. Also, in order to bring out the perfume
scent effectively, it must be used in a specific part of the
body such as the wrist or neck..."

When my rambling reached this part, my face turned red.

Wait. P'In was just trying to smell around my neck and I

went on spurting facts.

'What was wrong with me?'

I should have told him that I only used it when I was in my

room. Not keep babbling about perfume like this.

Nevertheless, perhaps because my random facts were too

boring for P'In, so he just stepped back naturally.

P'In looked at me, his face was emotionless, his eyes looked
complex.

"Next time, use it." P'In said in a monotone.

"Okay." I could only agree, still confused.

"If you don't..."

P'In said calmly but his lips lifted slightly.

"I won't accept you as my fan."

"Huh?" I gasped.
However, that was all P'In said before he turned and left,
leaving me standing there in confusion.

I had no idea whether he actually meant what he just said or

if he was just kidding.

What type of condition was that? If I wouldn't use his

perfume, he would kick me out of his fandom. Seriously?

Whatever!

"Oh. I can't take it anymore!!!"

As I recalled how P'In leaned in to smell my neck, I could

feel my legs giving out, forcing me to lean against the wall
to control my balance.

☽------------☽
Chapter 27 : The Fallen
Moon

Invisible Moon

Chapter 27

The Fallen Moon

"The Moon that could rise up in the sky,

could also fall to the ground one day."

#WINisWIND

"Win! Arhhh~"

I distanced my phone from my ears when I heard P'Wun's

scream as I answered her call.

"P'Wun, you're too loud. My ears can't take it anymore." I

had to tell her directly.

"Win! Open the UNISTAR website! Open the UNISTAR

Facebook! Open the UNISTAR Twitter!"

I had no idea what was wrong with her. She jabbered on

even though I had no idea what she was saying.
"Okay. Hold on a moment. I just arrived at my dorm." I told
her and put my bag on the chair before opening my laptop.

"Hurry up!" She urged me.

"What's happening P'Wun? Why are you so excited?" I

couldn't help but ask.

"What? Don't you remember what day it is? It's so

important!"

"Today...is Wednesday." I answered.

"No! It's today! The results day!"

What results day? I thought. Was I so focused on studying

that I totally forgot something important?

I looked at the date on the calendar and tried to figure it

out...

"Huh! The announcement for the 9 UNISTAR finalists!"

I knew it! I started to feel jittery. I placed my cell phone on

the table, opened the browser on my laptop and searched
the UNISTAR website.

"Damn! Why is my internet so slow?!" I nervously waited for

the web page to load. I've never been this restless in my
life.

It finally appeared!

'Announcement: 9 Moons for the UNISTAR Final Stage'

I felt very tense. What if my name wasn't there? What

should I do?
The website published the 9 finalists' names with the voting
results, sorting them from the highest voting score to the
lowest.

"Oh!"

I exclaimed as the first name appeared.

#1 Sun: XYU Moon — 20.33%

Oh my god. Even the number of votes he received was

incomparable to other candidates. Evidently, his popularity
was no joke.

#2 Oat: QU Moon — 12.04%

"Wow! Oat!" I smiled. I was very happy that he got into the
final round, with a rather high score at that.

I scrolled down on the browser. It seemed like Sun was the

only one to receive such an overwhelming voting score,
other candidates' scores were not much different from one
another.

"Huh! Huhhh!" I was shocked when I saw my photo with the

voting score.

#6 Win: XU Moon — 9.28%

"Oh my god! I got it!" I was too surprised to control myself.

"Win! Did you see it? Arh~~ Congratulations~!"

I heard P'Wun's voice from the phone, so I picked it up and

continued talking to her.

"I saw it. Thank you so much P'Wun. I'm very happy!"
"Me too! You'll be standing on the UNISTAR stage soon! I
wanna go, but I'm not sure if I can get a ticket. It would be
tough!"

"P'Wun. I've got free tickets. MW gave each candidate 2

tickets."

"Arhhh~ Really? Wow...that's great! Can I have one please?

I'll make a light sign — a big one! Hey, Win, this time I'll tell
everyone to vote for you. You'll be the winner!"

"Oh. Thank you krub, P'Wun." I said, happily.

Talking with my sister made me so happy. Having someone

willing to support me was such a nice feeling. P'Wun also
told me that I should call my parents as well. Although my
parents weren't as excited as her, they had also told their
companions to register and vote for me, even though they
had to treat their co-workers to a meal in exchange. I didn't
know that my parents had done this much. It made me
realise that every vote I received was so valuable.

P'Wun and I talked on the phone for another hour until she
hung up. I was glad for all the support from everyone
around me.

Getting support from companions was much better than

walking alone. Besides my family, I also had Oat, P'Noey,
P'Tong, Pan, my friends and seniors in my faculty who
congratulated me.

Wayunilla: Congrats!

Wayunilla: Celebrate with no joke today LOL.

Even P'Wayu. Well, I had been waiting for the day that
P'Wayu would give me a break from the daily jokes. So I said
thank you, and thanked him for congratulating me as well.

Oat told me to check my email because MW had already

sent the details for the final contest and the contract signing
date.

From : [email protected]

Subject : UNISTAR Final Round Instructions

Congratulations to all 9 finalists!

We've attached a document containing the contest

instructions, workshop schedule, and other necessary
details with this email.

Should you have any questions, please feel free to ask.

Best regards,

UNISTAR Project Team.

I downloaded the file attachment and read it. It stated that I

would need to join a workshop with the UNISTAR members
in a special TV program called 'UNISTAR Contest Workshop'.
I also needed to prepare my documents for the contract
signing. They also included a detailed guide for the
restrictions on my social media usage.

The staff also gave me a mini homework to think about my

Moon title, so it could be used to promote my hashtag.
However, if I became a UNISTAR member, this title might
change.

I had no idea what Moon I should be? Fading Moon? Oh no.

Who would cheer for a Fading Moon? Invisible Moon? No,
this title belonged to P'In.
Well, I decided to think about it later.

I was humming happily and was about to take a shower.

Suddenly, I received a message via LINE.

IN: Congrats.

I couldn't stop smiling because of this short text.

archawin: Thank you so much!

archawin: (Cheerful Rabbit jumping sticker)

The air like me was about to become a dazzling bubble.

I couldn't think of anything that could make me unhappy for

now.

Today I woke up with such a delightful feeling. When

something good happens, our daily life would become much
more colourful.

I got ready for class, dressed up, styled my hair and did my
makeup. I ate a sandwich which I bought yesterday for
breakfast. I didn't forget to put on the perfume that P'In
gave me...Well, at least if he wanted to prove it again, I
wouldn't be kicked out of his fandom. I had no choice, right?

I knew that when my name was announced as a finalist in

the UNISTAR contest, people would recognise me. I was a bit
worried about how I should respond if some people came to
talk to me or ask to take a photo with me. How should I
smile, or how should I reply? I didn't want to ruin the
UNISTAR image, so I should be careful with how I behave in
public.
However, it was quite strange. When I was walking past
many students, they turned to look at me. But somehow
their expressions were very weird, as if I did something
wrong. Many people looked at me and whispered to each
other. Some people even gazed at me angrily.

'Or, they might be cheering for other candidates, so they're

not happy that I got into the final round?' I was trying to
figure out the reason.

I walked, still wondering about it until I reached my faculty's

building. I paused, seeing something so shocking.

"What...is...this?!" My eyes widened.

There were insults painted with red spray on the building's

wall.

'F*** OFF GAY MOON'

Not only on the wall, they were also on the floor.

'GO TO HELL SHORTY MOON'

I wondered if it was done by anti-fans.

Moon? I thought. This word reminded me of P'In.

'Was he alright? Why did anti-fans do this to P'In? But, P'In

didn't have anti-fans, did he? Then, what was happening?' I
was very concerned about P'In now.

"Huh?" I was startled as I was suddenly hit by eggs.

When I turned around, I saw a group of teenage girls

wearing black clothes and a mask concealing their identity.
They were angrily yelling at me.
"F*** you! Gay Moon! Get the sh** away from P'In!"

I was shocked. I had no idea what they were talking about.

Were they cursing me?

"Go to hell! You're ruining P'In's reputation!"

They threw things at me. I was still in a state of confusion,

so I could only use my arms and hands to protect myself.

"Such an ugly dirty Moon!"

"You do not deserve to be UNISTAR!"

"Quit the contest!"

"Quit the university!"

My student uniform was messy and dirty. I was a bit hurt as

someone also threw a small stone at me. There were some
students nearby who noticed that I was attacked, but they
didn't come to help me.

However, the worst thing was I didn't even know why this
was happening. Why were they attacking me? What did I do
wrong?

"Hey! What're you doing!"

I heard shouts from behind me. I saw P'Tong, P'Noey, and

other seniors running here.

When the group of teenagers saw the seniors came to help

me, they just ran away, avoiding getting caught, leaving me
standing alone, frightened.

"N'Win. Are you okay?" P'Noey asked worriedly.

"P'Noey. What's happening? Why did they attack me?" My
voice was shaking. It was very frightening. My mind was
blank as if I was lost in the darkness.

"Ah..." P'Noey hesitated to answer. She looked at P'Tong, her

eyes full of concern.

"N'Win." P'Tong said. "You should go back to the dorm and

change your clothes first. I'll go with you." P'Tong held my
arm, he touched my shoulder softly to console me.

"N'Win. If you need help, feel free to tell us."

Many seniors were trying to comfort me as well. It seemed

like everyone had already known what was going on except
me. Anyhow, I really appreciate their kindness.

"Let's go N'Win." P'Tong accompanied me back to my dorm.

"Thank you krub." I said weakly.

I suddenly saw P'In running from another side. P'In looked

around, restlessly. His eyes paused on the painted words on
the building.

His eyes looked so worried, but it seemed like he was still

fine, he didn't get attacked like me. So I felt a bit relieved.

Until he noticed me, and looked shocked.

P'In walked towards us, his eyes showing various

expressions. I couldn't guess what he was thinking.

P'Tong didn't notice P'In, so he was still leading me away.

At first, I was planning to greet P'In, however, I finally

realised what was happening...
"Get the sh** away from P'In!" "You're ruining P'In's
reputation!"

I was reminded of those words from that group of teenagers.

As P'In seemed to be fine now. I didn't want to trouble him

anymore.

So I just turned away from him and kept walking with

P'Tong.

I never looked back.

When P'Tong and I arrived at the dorm, he told me that he

would wait for me in the lobby. I told him that I was alright,
he didn't need to wait for me. But he insisted on
accompanying me today, so I told him to wait in my room
instead. He agreed and went off to buy something to eat
first, as my dorm was very close to the street food stalls
outside.

I went straight to my room and took a shower.

My clothes were covered in egg yolk and dust. Very dirty. So,
I had to wash everything from top to toe and my clothes as
well. But I was afraid P'Tong had to wait for too long, so I just
washed roughly.

While I was taking my shower, I thought about what was

going on now. It must be about me and P'In. It made me feel
uneasy.

When I got out of the bathroom, I put my clothes into the

washing machine and went down to the lobby. I saw P'Tong
talking to his friend on the phone.
"Still don't know who painted that? How did they get in? Um.
Okay, I got it. I'll take care of him."

When he finished talking, he just noticed me.

"Hey, N'Win. Are you feeling better now?" P'Tong looked so

worried.

"I bought you a lunch box, in case you wanna eat

something."

"Thank you so much," I thanked him and took it.

"Do you have any plans? Would you mind eating together in
my room?" I said.

"Okay. I don't have any plans." P'Tong said and followed me

to my room.

When we got in, I made space for him to sit comfortably.

"I'd like to thank you so much for helping me today," I said.

"But...P'Tong. What was happening? Do you know why those

people attacked me?"

P'Tong sighed.

"You still haven't seen it, right?" He said and showed me a

screenshot image on his phone.

I was stunned when I saw it.

It was a post on Twitter with some photos, and the hashtags

#UNISTAR and #InvisibleMoon.

The post included three shocking photos.

The first one was a photo of me following P'In to his dorm. It
must have been that time when he had invited me to eat
green curry together.

The second one was a photo of that time when P'In and I
hugged each other near the riverside. It must be that time
when I went looking for P'In. He had been sad and had
hugged me, so I hugged him back.

The third one was a photo of me and P'In standing very

close to each other in the male washroom. This photo was
absolutely misleading. It must have been during that time
when P'In wanted proof of whether I used his perfume...

However, that post was written in a very offensive way.

'Did he become the Moon because of his talent or by just

selling his body?'

I was so shocked as I felt my limbs turning weak.

"What is that? It's not true at all!"

That post was too far from the truth. Who took these
photos? Why did the guy have so many pictures of me and
P'In?

I used my cell phone to look for that Twitter profile. It was a

newly registered account, with only one post. But that one
post caught my attention as the hashtag #InvisibleMoon
went trending with the hashtag #GayMoon. Many people
tweeted about me using very offensive words such as
'Shorty Gay Moon', 'I sell my body to P'In in exchange for
winning', and they also criticised my appearance and saying
that my talent was terrible. They said that I didn't deserve
to become the Moon, that I should just stay away from P'In.
Some people even tagged P'In's Twitter @IntrakornD saying
that 'You can't be a gay', 'It's not true, right?', or 'P'In won't
fall for that bitchy boy'. Even worse, they tagged my
university's Twitter @XUofficial, saying that XU should expel
me and discharge me from becoming the University Moon.
Some also tagged @UnistarProject to disqualify me from the
contest.

The reason why DomKati was very mad with me was

because after that post had spread all over social media,
P'In had received so much bad criticism from the public
compared to before, when he had a very good reputation.
So P'In's fans blamed me, saying that it was my fault and
that I ruined P'In's reputation.

Many people sent me a lot of hate messages on my

Instagram because P'In and P'Wayu followed me. I didn't
dare to open it. Some people also noticed that my Twitter
handle, @archawin_d, was similar to my username on my
IG, so many people tagged and accused me of trying to
seduce P'In and intended to do such a thing in the first
place. They also commented in my introduction contest
video that I said that 'I like P'In' meant that I wanted to flirt
with P'In. They even said I wanted to be a UNISTAR just to
get close to P'In. They used many types of bad words to tell
me to stay away such as 'get away from P'In', 'P'In is not a
gay like you', 'Go die, Gay Moon', 'Go to hell, Ugly Moon',
and so on.

Both my hands were shaking, my face turned pale.

"Are you okay?" P'Tong sat next to me. He was trying to

console me. I nodded slightly, but I almost couldn't hold my
phone.
"I told my friend to check the CCTV. That group of women
who attacked you this morning was the same group that
painted those words on the building. I guess they are
aggressive fans."

P'Tong continued.

"I already informed our university office. They'll increase the

security measures. For now, every outsider must show their
ID card when entering the university."

"Thank you krub, P'Tong." I said.

"Are you attending class today? If you are, I'll go with you."
P'Tong said.

"By the way, during this time, you shouldn't go outside

alone. I'm afraid those crazy fans will attack you again at
any time. If you have any problems, feel free to call me or
somebody else. We're XU family. We're willing to help you."

"Thank you so much." I appreciate P'Tong caring for and

staying with me during such a difficult time.

"I...actually don't feel very well. I just want to rest."

I felt so weak. Even if I went to class, I might be very

depressed and couldn't concentrate at all.

"Okay. I understand. Well, I gotta go now. Don't forget to eat

something. If you need anything, just call me." P'Tong said.

"Thank you again, P'Tong." I raised my hands to pay respect.

P'Tong waved his hand and left my room.

Once I was alone, I fell onto my bed.

My head hurt so much. I couldn't think of anything. I didn't
know what to do. I wanted to cry, but I was still too shocked
to cry.

I was afraid that P'In would start to hate me, as I had

already ruined his reputation.

My thoughts were floating around, until I lost track of time,

and fell asleep.

I woke up a while later and ate the lunch box, feeling numb.

I decided to delete all social media applications, including

Twitter and Instagram from my phone. I only kept Facebook
and LINE.

TonG: Those painted words on the building are already gone.

I saw the LINE message from P'Tong. I felt a little confused.

archawin: It's already cleaned off?

I remembered those words were painted by spray, it must

have been hard to erase them. The words on the floor might
need a strong cleaning liquid to scrub it off, and the other
one on the wall could only be cleared by painting another
layer over it.

TonG: Yes. Noey told me that IN did it.

I widened my eyes and dropped my phone on the bed.

P'In did that...

Why? Why did P'In have to do that?

I was both shocked and surprised. So I planned to ask

P'Noey on Facebook messenger, but I saw that P'Noey
posted on her timeline and tagged 'Kati Fanclub' fan page,
which was a fanpage for DomKati.

This post was accompanied with a harsh caption.

'Is this how the fans show their love to their beloved idol?
Whatever they did, their idol must take responsibility for it.'

She also attached the photo of P'In holding a mop and

bucket as he cleaned the painted words with some help
from a third-year senior. There was also another photo of
P'In holding the paintbrush to erase the words on the wall.

When I saw this photo. I didn't care what DomKati would

say. I immediately ran out of my dorm.

I didn't do my makeup, so I was just the usual fading Win. I

headed to my faculty, wondering if P'In was still there.

I wanted to meet him. Even though I felt too guilty to face

him.

When I arrived, I found the building all cleaned, without a

single trace of those painted words anymore. What's left
were just the wet floor and the painted colour on the wall,
which was still not completely dry.

"Damn it!" I could only be angry at myself.

My tears were falling uncontrollably.

I caused trouble for P'In, he didn't need to do this for me.

Currently, I was like a fallen Moon, no longer able to rise up

in the sky.

As for the Invisible Moon – P'In, I wanted him to always shine

in the sky.
He was my inspiration...but I ruined him.

The air like me should stay invisible.

And never exist.

☽------------☽
Chapter 28 : The Air in the
Rain

Invisible Moon

Chapter 28

The Air in the Rain

"The air could be soaked when rain falls."

#WINisWIND

The sky was so gloomy today, it wasn't sunny anymore.

The bright sunlight was hidden behind the clouds.

This atmosphere reflected how I currently felt.

I kept walking aimlessly. Everything seemed to be endless.

Letting the pain clench my heart. Letting the sadness
burden me, again and again. I kept recalling the bad
memories. Those harsh words from others kept replaying in
my head. I was lost in darkness. I couldn't bring myself out
of this endless loop of depressing thoughts.

Before, I had felt like I finally found the light of my life.

But it turned out that the light was ruined by me.

If that light went somewhere else instead of coming to an
air like me, it wouldn't end up this way.

I could only blame myself.

I paused for a moment. I looked up at the sky. The thunder

was so loud. The sky was grey. My heart felt even heavier.

Suddenly, it started to pour.

Even the sky was bullying me.

I was just standing in the rain. My body was soaked, but I

still kept walking lifelessly.

I couldn't even remember what my goal was, I didn't even

know what I should do.

I was wondering whether I had chosen the right path. Then

why wasn't it a beautiful path? Why did this path cause
others pain? What did I do wrong?

Or, I should just return to being the fading air I was before.
Living in a place where no one would notice me. At least, I
wouldn't hurt anybody.

I was so immersed in my thoughts that when I came to, I

was already standing near the lake. Suddenly, I recalled the
first day that I met P'In here. He was like the light of my life.
He made me value myself. He made me stand proudly in the
limelight.

Then, I cried to release this tightness in my chest.

Perhaps, if I hadn't met P'In, if we hadn't known each other,

everything would be better.
It wouldn't matter if I were the only one who got hurt, but I
unintentionally hurt P'In who was so good to me. I couldn't
forgive myself.

"This...is the worst..." I could only cry alone.

My tears were falling along with the rain.

The sound of my sobbing was drowned by the thunder.

I lowered my head, letting the tears and the rain release all
the pain in my heart.

I didn't know how long I cried. I had a headache and my

eyes were painful. I cried until the rain stopped.

No...it didn't. I could still hear the sound of rain, but it wasn't
dropping on me anymore.

So, I looked up. It was still raining, but somehow...

An umbrella? Someone was holding an umbrella over me.

When I realised it, I widened my eyes and turned around.

It was P'In.

"P'In..." I was surprised to see him. How did he come here?

I noticed some white paint stain on his hands, probably from

erasing those painted insults for me.

When I thought about this, I felt so ashamed. I gave him so

much trouble, but he was still by my side.

"P'In..." When I saw him, I couldn't help crying even more.

I could only blame myself. I didn't want to cry in front of

him, but I was just feeling so wretched.
P'In didn't say a word. He just came closer, standing next to
me. We were both under the same umbrella now.

"P'In...I'm sorry." I couldn't think of any other word except

sorry. And I didn't expect him to forgive me.

He didn't answer. He only pulled out an earphone, and put it

in my ear.

I flinched a little.

"I'm not good at talking," P'In said. "So I want you to listen."

P'In was selecting a song on his cell phone. I couldn't

understand what he was trying to do. He just wanted me to
listen to a song?

I turned my focus to the song.

...I kept asking myself, where do I find happiness?[1]

A man walked past me,

He asked for an umbrella, but he already had one.

I was surprised, under the rainfall...

The song's smooth tone suited the rain.

...Then he asked if I want to feel happy,

Let's just fold the umbrella for a while.

And look up, feel the raindrop falling into your eyes.

Are you still wet? Or did the rain stop?

I unconsciously looked at the sky, the rain seemed to slowly
cease.

...Upon the sky, nothing is certain if you look from here.

Sometimes it's dark, sometimes it's bright.

The rain could be a storm or simply a light breeze...

'That's true.' I thought.

Our life was like the sky, uncertain. Why did we have to
worry so much?

...The happiness that you have been looking for,

It wasn't far away, just in front of you...

I let the melody soothe my tension, just like the sky that was
starting to clear.

I looked at P'In. Then, another feeling was overflowing,

replaced with sadness.

...Don't hold on, just let it go, then you will not be sad.

No one can avoid change as they grow.

Happiness is just the way you look at it...

The song implied that all happiness could be found

anywhere. No matter what you were facing, just change
your point of view and let it go so we wouldn't be unhappy
because of it anymore.

Just like the rain. If we opened an umbrella to avoid getting

wet, we might not want to fold it. However, once we folded
the umbrella, perhaps, the rain wasn't as bad as we
expected. Perhaps, the heavy rain that we thought was only
a raindrop. Nothing more.

Even the problem I was currently facing was actually

nothing more than thoughtless criticism from people who
didn't even know me. Nothing more.

"Rain stopped," P'In said, folding the umbrella.

I looked up at the sky. The sky after the rain was so blue and
beautiful. The rain left a refreshing sensation on the
surrounding trees. The slight water drops sounded so
calming.

"When unhappy, just look at something else that makes you

happy." P'In said while looking up at the sky as well.

I understood what he meant. I shouldn't put my own

happiness in other people's hands, nor tie it with the fame
and the criticism I receive, because I couldn't control it and
it would make me unhappy.

'Then, what exactly can make me happy?' I asked myself.

I looked at P'In. He was as bright as the sunlight after the

rain.

"The truth is the truth, it won't change." P'In said tersely,

but it had a deep meaning.

We both knew the truth. I didn't do anything to make P'In

choose me to be the Moon. P'In just realised my hidden
talent and chose me. Mr. Chana did as well.

I became the University Moon and got into the UNISTAR final
stage because of my own talent, because of everyone who
supported me. It's not what those people accuse me of. I
had the right to be proud of myself. This might be what P'In
was trying to tell me - the truth is still the truth.

But...What was my happiness? If becoming the Moon didn't

make me happy, then what was it?

...Have you ever wondered how we met?[2]...

When the song 'Grey Umbrella' had ended, P'In's playlist

automatically played the next song. P'In didn't seem to be
concerned about it, but I didn't want to take the earphone
off, so I kept listening.

...Among hundreds of people, thousands and tens of

thousands

Who destined you to meet me?...

My thoughts were flowing along with the song.

This world had so many people, how did I meet someone

like P'In?

How could a fading person like me meet with the Invisible

Moon like him?

...The answer to the love that we were looking for

it's you and me...

My life had been so aimless until I met P'In. It was as if I met

the light. He changed me and the way I looked at myself.

...Perhaps the heavens brought you here

I knew at first sight, when our eyes met.

You're the one I've been waiting for...

What if it wasn't just a coincidence? What if we were
destined to meet each other? P'In who gave me the
motivation to change myself in a good way.

...It was me, who used to be unsure

Then the more I see you, the more I love you...

When I looked at P'In again, it felt as if the clouds had

suddenly faded away. Everything was so clear right now.

P'In wasn't only my inspiration, but he was so much more.

...With this, I knew,

Heaven brought us to love...

Love? I widened my eyes.

Right. I used to think that I admired P'In, I was just happy to

be with P'In.

But now, I asked myself again.

I wasn't sure since when the answer became 'NO', it wasn't

only a simple admiration for a senior. I...expected much
more than that.

As if there were a million butterflies fluttering in my heart.

Even more when our eyes met.

Nevertheless, this feeling came with guilt.

"P'In krub..." I took off his earphones. My voice was shaking.

I recalled what his fans blamed me for.
They called me gay Moon. They insulted me, saying that I
approached P'In with a bad intention. They said I was trying
to flirt with him. I was bullied because they thought that I
sold my body to win the Moon contest.

Even though that wasn't true at all, I couldn't deny it.

I did want to be the Moon, but that's because I wanted to be

with P'In.

But P'In still insisted that the truth is the truth. He trusted
me wholeheartedly. He gave me so much help. But now, I
was the one who wasn't honest with him.

P'In was waiting for me to say something.

"What if...what they said...is the truth?"

P'In seemed to be confused.

"Which one?"

"The thing about..." I didn't dare to face him.

"About you and me...I was nearly like what they said."

I was so shameless.

"...I wasn't honest to you..."

P'In stayed silent and I continued to say...

"P'In, what they said is the truth."

I put myself together and looked up at him.

What if I was really the gay Moon as they accused?

What if I just wanted P'In as they had said?

What if I didn't want him to be just my senior?

Then, what should I do?

"Between me and you...my feelings are more than that..."

Even though I felt so ashamed of what I said, I couldn't

stand the guilt of hiding it from him.

Once I told him what I really felt, his calm expression

changed. P'In also widened his eyes in surprise.

"P'In...What should I do?"

I understood at last.

Deep in my heart, I didn't want to be the Moon. I just

wanted to be with P'In.

The happiness that I was looking for was just right here, in
front of me.

I didn't want to be recognised by everyone. I just want to be

someone important to P'In.

However...was I also P'In's happiness or not?

I had already fallen in love with P'In.

What should I do?

☽------------☽

Footnote :
This chapter included some lyrics from the real Thai original
songs which I listed the song names with the official audio
below.

However, the English lyrics in this chapter aren't the official,

I and my translator partner translated them from the
original Thai lyrics according to our understanding. So, if
there is any mistake, please accept our apology.

(Those two songs are my favourites too! Hope you enjoy

listening while reading this chapter >_<)

[1] Whatcharawalee - The Grey Umbrella ( -

)

https://youtu.be/P5VFTPL3Er4

[2] La Ong Fong - The heaven brought us to love

( - )

https://youtu.be/Yrwln12RFco
Chapter 29 : The Way to
Reach the Moon

Invisible Moon

Chapter 29

The Way to Reach the Moon

"Just by staying under the warm moonlight, the wind is filled

with happiness."

#WINisWIND

What if I wished to be more than the wind under the

moonlight?

What if I wished to be the wind staying by the moon's side?

Would the moon accept my wish?

"P'In..." I said his name lightly.

P'In stayed quiet for a while after I confessed everything in

my heart.

P'In seemed to have come to a realisation. He looked at me

with various expressions. I had no idea what was on his
mind.
Later, he just turned his face the other way and called my
name.

"Win." His voice sounded shaky while my heart was

shivering.

"Want to be a UNISTAR?"

I was surprised by his question, right after I confessed to

him.

"Do you want to?" He repeated and gazed at me.

He was waiting for my answer.

I didn't understand why he wanted to know, but I still asked

myself.

At first, I thought I wanted to be the Moon because I was

wondering what it felt to be in the limelight. But now, I
finally realised that it wasn't the reason.

The happiness that I was looking for was something else.

I just wanted to be with someone who understood me.

"If I can be, I want to." I answered.

Since I was bullied by anti-fans, I had already given up all

hopes of winning the UNISTAR contest. I didn't want to ruin
P'In's reputation anymore.

It was just me being greedy. I couldn't deny it.

If I could become a UNISTAR, I would be able to stay with

P'In longer. This was the main reason.
Nevertheless, the expression in P'In's eyes seemed pensive.
As if it wasn't what he expected to hear.

And I couldn't understand why.

"If so, it's impossible." P'In said, looking up at the sky, far
away. His expression was hard to guess.

Impossible? It wasn't a harsh word, but it was like a sharp

knife stabbing into my heart.

"UNISTAR...idol...makes us...impossible." P'In continued

without looking at me.

Even though he uttered word by word, it was still an

incomplete sentence. But I thought I understood what he
wanted to say.

Right. P'In was a UNISTAR. He was an idol. To idols, their

image was the most important thing. And we are both men.
That made our relationship impossible, just like he said.

I finally got his answer.

Right now, I figured I made him feel distressed. He might

not know how to reject me without hurting me. P'In was
such a caring person. He didn't want me to feel sad. So he
gave me an indirect answer.

I felt like I just woke up from a sweet dream. Yeah. It was

such an unrealistic dream. We were both male and an air
like me didn't deserve to be with him at all. It was simply
impossible.

I was so miserable, but I tried to hide it and acted normal.

P'In had come here just to console me. He was very nice
and helped me a lot. How could I expect anything more from
him? This was already good enough for someone like me.

"I see, thank you for your answer," I said, controlling my

voice.

P'In turned to me. He looked confused, which made me

more heartbroken.

My heart wanted to stay longer here with P'In, but I was so

afraid. I was afraid I would cry in front of him. I didn't want
him to pity me.

"P'In...my clothes are wet..." My voice was shaking.

"I want to go back to my dorm...to change it."

I decided to leave. This was the only way I could escape.

I needed some time alone.

"I'll walk you back," P'In said, trying to follow me. But I
stopped him.

"Thank you, but I'd rather go by myself," I said.

"I...don't want other people to misunderstand us."

I was afraid I would ruin his reputation even more.

My words made him stop. I didn't want him to see my sad

expression. So I lowered my head and rushed away.

I was running to my dorm as fast as I possibly could. I

couldn't think of anything except locking myself up in my
room and crying alone. Crying would be the only way to
release my sadness.
"Oh!" I wasn't careful, so I accidentally hit somebody on the
way.

"I'm sorry," I said hurriedly, however...

"Hey! N'Win!" The familiar sound called me. So I looked up.

He was a tall man. He wore casual clothing and covered his

face with a face mask and a cap. At first, I had no idea who
he was. But later, I could recognize his looks and his voice.

"P'Wayu!" I exclaimed, and he suddenly covered my mouth.

"Ssh! Not too loud. Today I don't have class. I just went to
buy stuff. I didn't do my makeup today, so I can't let anyone
see my face." P'Wayu said seriously.

He looked around. He seemed to be paranoid.

I saw that he was holding a plastic bag. It carried a bottle of

cola, a lot of snacks and a box of ice cream. P'Wayu just
bought something to eat. However, I still thought that no
matter how much he wanted to conceal it, his appearance
was still outstanding. Unlike P'In who could be invisible at all
times without even trying.

When I thought about P'In, I felt more heartbroken.

"Hey? Are you okay? Why are you making such a sad face?
And why are your clothes so wet like this?" P'Wayu asked,
and raised his hand to hug my shoulder in a friendly way. I
felt a bit nervous.

"Do you have time? Let's eat something delicious." P'Wayu

smiled at me.

"Where to eat?"
"My dorm." He said. Without even waiting for my answer, he
just dragged me to his dorm.

"P'Wayu. Well, I need to get changed first." I tried to give an

excuse.

"No worries. You can borrow my shirt, just change it in my

room." P'Wayu insisted on inviting me.

"Uh...P'Wayu..."

At first, I intended to refuse, but right now I was too tired.

So, I just let it be.

Perhaps, hanging out with P'Wayu might help to relieve

some of my depressed emotions.

P'Wayu's dorm was in the same building as P'In's but on a

different floor. His room was on the 7th floor, number 717. I
followed him in, but my mind was still distracted.

"Welcome!" P'Wayu smiled and pressed the keycard to open

the door.

However, as soon as I saw his room, I was so shocked.

Was it a rats' nest or something? Why was it so messy?

I took a look and swallowed hard, it wasn't just a normal

level of untidiness. It was extremely messy. Many kinds of
stuff were placed randomly, with almost no space to walk.
There was also some garbage, and a pile of unwashed
dishes.

"Come in!" P'Wayu said. He took off his cap and mask,

revealing his bare face to me for the first time. Actually, it
wasn't bad at all. He had such smooth skin. Only his
eyebrows and his mouth were a bit paler compared to when
he did his makeup, and his hair wasn't styled. That's all.

I really wanted to tell him he didn't need to worry that his

fans would leave his fandom because of his bare face.

In fact, his messy room was much scarier.

I walked in carefully, trying not to step on his random pieces

of stuff on the floor.

"Sorry it's a bit messy. It's from the fanmeet a few days ago.
I got so many gifts and I was too busy to tidy up."

P'Wayu said while clearing some stuff on the sofa to make

space for us to sit.

I knew UNISTAR had a fanmeet every month. I understand if

he didn't have time to arrange the gifts from his fans.

However, what about unwashed dishes and the garbage?

P'Wayu seemed to read my face, so he laughed nervously.

"My manager sends a maid to clean up every Sunday. Today

is just Thursday."

I was surprised. He even had a personal weekly clean-up

service. But, if it was already extremely messy on Thursday,
I didn't even want to think of Saturday.

It's not surprising that his manager actually hired a maid for
him because I don't think anyone could stand this level of
dirtiness.

P'Wayu was probably too focused on his makeup and

hairstyle that he had no time for cleaning.
"My agent gave me this T-shirt, but I haven't used it yet. You
can wear this. Your hair is soaking wet, so you can use this
towel and the hairdryer in the bathroom."

P'Wayu took them from his wardrobe in the bedroom.

I'm not going to mention how messy his bedroom was...

"Thank you krub." I took it and went to the bathroom, which

was very messy as well. You could see cosmetic and
skincare products everywhere, but at least it was still clean.

I took off my wet shirt. It was still wet, but wasn't soaking

wet anymore. my pants were still fine to wear. I put on the
new T-shirt that P'Wayu gave me. It was a purple T-shirt with
DomWhai logo on it. I figured it was one of those
merchandise MW made and the UNISTAR members got them
for free. However, P'Wayu didn't have a chance to wear it.

Well, it would be a bit strange to show off that he was also

in DomWhai, his own fandom.

I dried my hair before walking out.

"Done?" P'Wayu looked at my T-shirt with pride.

"Welcome to DomWhai! Hahaha."

I gasped. This also count?

"Come here, let's eat something good."

P'Wayu tidied up his dining table. He had so many snacks.

Most of them were obviously from his fans, as they were
accompanied with notes like 'love you P'Wayu' and 'Hope
you enjoy,from Dom Whai'. I guess even his fans knew that
P'Wayu loved eating so much.
I became curious about that 'something good' that he
mentioned earlier.

He took out two tall mugs, as well as a bottle of cola and a

pint of ice cream that he just bought.

"Do you know which 'lava' is so sweet and mellow?"

He asked me. I suppose it was some kind of lame joke again.

However, my brain couldn't process it, so I couldn't think of
anything.

"Which lava?" I immediately gave up.

"la-nil-va, vanilla." He winked and opened the pint of ice

cream.

I was numb for a while. This could even count as a joke?

Seriously?

"Wait, not funny?" P'Wayu seemed to have lost his

confidence a bit.

"And do you know that there's a more delicious 'lava'? Can

you guess it?"

"What's it?" I asked back without thinking.

"la-kil-la-no-va. Vanilla-Cola. Hahaha." He just laughed at his

own joke.

"Vanilla and cola?" I tried to figure it out.

"Yep. It's the supreme combination."

P'Wayu dropped a scoop of vanilla ice cream into the mug.

"Oh? Why don't you put the ice cream in later?" I was
curious. I had seen only cola floats – a cola with a scoop of
ice cream on top.

"No. This one is better. Corn fit. Corn firm." P'Wayu said and
opened a bottle of cola.

I assumed 'Corn fit. Corn firm' was just P'Wayu's way to say
the word 'confirm'.

"Look. Put the vanilla first, followed by cola."

P'Wayu slowly poured cola into the mug, when the cola
reached the ice cream, it became fizzy like beer bubbles
filling the mug.

"Here. Try it." P'Wayu handed the mug with a straw and a
long teaspoon to me.

"Thank you." I was nervous as P'Wayu was staring at me

and waiting for me to taste it. So I just dipped into the
bubble with a spoon and tried it.

"Oh...So yummy!" I widened my eyes. It was a new taste

that I hadn't experienced before.

It was like a fizzy whipped cream, mixing the taste of cola

and vanilla ice cream. Compared to the common cola floats,
where we just eat ice cream with cola, this one was special
because of its bubbles.

"Try to drink. Cola and vanilla taste great together." P'Wayu

cheered.

"Okay." So I sipped it.

The mixture of cola and vanilla taste was the absolute best.
Although the intense taste of cola was reduced, it was
replaced with the mellow taste of vanilla.

Vanilla-cola was a nice beverage for releasing stress. Next

time, I would buy and try it myself.

"Do you like it? It's cool, right?" P'Wayu smiled.

"Yes. I love it!" I smiled back.

"I have a lot. You can have as much as you like."

"Thank you very much."

Although P'Wayu usually made too many lame jokes, right

now I felt better because of him.

We sat together at the dining table, drinking vanilla-cola.

After having such a sweet drink, I felt so refreshed.

"Actually... I saw what happened on Twitter."

P'Wayu started on the subject, causing me to pause.

"Don't worry about it too much." P'Wayu shrugged.

"It was just a slander post."

"P'Wayu..." I was a bit surprised. Because I didn't even need

to explain and he already believed me.

"Everything will be fine. Be patient." P'Wayu patted my

shoulder.

"P'In is preparing for a press conference."

"What? P'In?" I was stunned when I heard it.

"Yep. Actually...it's weird." P'Wayu seemed puzzled.

"P'In usually doesn't like to do any public interview. If it isn't

necessary, he would avoid most of it. But I heard after he
found out what was happening to you, he immediately
asked P'Kwang to help. He requested a press conference
and is planning to personally explain everything."

P'Wayu looked at me with a serious expression.

"P'In is really worried about you. Moreover, your UNISTAR

contest is just around the corner."

When I heard this, I felt even more guilty.

P'In was such a nice person, and I ruined him. P'In wasn't
even angry, he even tried to help me.

How could I expect more from him? He had already done so

much for me.

"Just wait and see. The one who slandered you, and
deceived DomKati with such ugly fake news, P'Kwang
wouldn't let them go easily." P'Wayu seemed angry as well.

However, P'Wayu trusted me a lot. He tried to make me feel

better by inviting me in. P'Wayu was so good towards me.
So, how could I lie to him?

"P'Wayu krub...thank you...but...I..." My voice was shaking.

"I'm afraid that news ... isn't totally fake."

"Huh?! What?!" P'Wayu was so shocked, he dropped his

spoon.
"Wait! You already lost your virginity to P'In?"

"What? No! It's not like that."

I was freaking out. P'Wayu's thoughts went too far.

"It isn't like that...it's just...uh..."

I felt so awkward that I didn't know how to explain. It was so

shameful.

"Alright. I got it. You like P'In, don't you?" P'Wayu said.

"Huh...uh...yes." My face blushed.

"How did you know?" I asked.

"Hahaha, because I'm an expert." P'Wayu shrugged proudly.

"I can't explain. I just feel it."

"But...I'm a male, but I also like a male. Isn't it weird?" I

lowered my head.

"Hm? Why is it weird? Male or female, we are all human.

Why does a person's preference of the same or different
gender matter?"

P'Wayu said it was very normal for him, which made me feel
so relieved even though I was still a little depressed.

"But...P'In..." I said sadly.

"He doesn't like me that way."

"Hmm?"

My words made P'Wayu frown.

"Wait..." P'Wayu was thinking.

"I don't think so. I think you're wrong."

"What? What did I say wrong?" I couldn't get it.

"How about this? Let's do a test, shall we?" He had a

cunning expression on his face.

"Test?" I was intrigued.

"Bring the mug and sit here."

P'Wayu beckoned me to sit on the sofa with him, and then

he opened his phone camera.

"N'Win, saimai[1], smile~" P'Wayu said before he clicked

away. Then, he selected the one with the best angle and
applied a filter.

We were both holding a cup of vanilla-cola each in the

photo.

"Alright!"

P'Wayu adjusted the photo a little, opened the LINE

application and clicked on a group chat named 'Kwang is big
boss here'.

"What are you going to do?" I asked.

"Well, this is a personal group for UNISTAR members and

P'Kwang." P'Wayu explained while sending our photo to the
group.

Wayunilla: (Sent photo)

Wayunilla: Met a cutie. Invited for lava.

I was so shocked! Wait...did he just send our selfie to that
group?

It didn't take a second before a 'Read 1' appeared.

Handsome Natee: Hey, no eyes. Your room is so damn

disgusting. How many cockroaches are in there? An army of
them right?

"What the fuck? That badass dog always insults me. So

annoying." P'Wayu murmured.

Kwang krub: Hey! You promised to diet. Stop eating silly

things!

Leo' Ratchapol: N'Wayu. You should clean your room. I'm

afraid you might fall ill one day.

The Sea at the Night: Haha. Be careful, I might just forward

to DomWhai ;) The replies were from the other UNISTAR
members. However, P'Wayu didn't pay attention to them at
all.

"4 read....oh everyone has read it now." P'Wayu seemed

very excited.

"One...two...three...four...five..."

P'Wayu was counting and looking at me. I was still confused.

"Wait...Why hasn't P'In replied yet? It shows that everyone

has already read it." P'Wayu said, scratching his head.

What...? So he did all that just to get P'In's attention?

"Hmm..." P'Wayu looked less confident by now.

"Or maybe what you said earlier is right."

While I had no idea what P'Wayu had been doing, and while
P'Wayu was contemplating by himself...

This room's bell rang. We both flinched.

"Oh...don't tell me..." P'Wayu grinned.

He hurried to the door, so I just followed him.

P'Wayu looked through the peephole, then he turned

excitedly.

"Yes! It's him!" P'Wayu told me.

"Uh..who?" I was trying to help him open the door, but he

stopped me.

"Wait, not yet. Let me take a look at that jealous face first."

"Hm?" I didn't understand him.

I was startled, as the longer we took to open the door, the

more impatient the ringing became. It seemed like the
person outside had an urgent matter with P'Wayu. However,
P'Wayu didn't seem annoyed or shocked, he just laughed so
hard.

"P'Wayu. Should we open the door?" I was worried, as the

ringing showed no sign of stopping. I was afraid the bell
would break.

"Alright, alright." P'Wayu held his laugh and acted normal.

Then, he opened the door.

"Oh! P'In. How come?" P'Wayu faked his surprise when he

saw P'In.

P'In? I was stunned as I saw the person behind the door.

P'In was standing there. His expression solemn, his eyes
restless.

"Or do you wanna join us for Lava?" P'Wayu asked, smiling.

Despite that, P'In didn't pay attention to P'Wayu. He just

looked at me with a serious face.

"Cat food ran out," P'In said. "Let's buy together."

"What? Cat food?" I blinked. Why did he just talk about cat
food? And why did he invite me?

"P'In, it's already late. Your stray cat can find food on its
own." P'Wayu said.

P'In didn't answer him. While I was still confused, he just

grabbed my arm and dragged me out of P'Wayu's room.

"P'In..." I exclaimed.

"Wait, P'In. He hasn't finished eating Lava with me yet."

P'Wayu acted like he was fretful.

P'In, however, gave P'Wayu a cold gaze, silencing P'Wayu.

"Let's go," P'In told me. So I just nodded unconsciously.

"Uh...Okay." I didn't know how to reject him. So I could only

follow him without even understanding the situation.

I looked back at P'Wayu, intending to say sorry, but P'Wayu

just gave me a big smile and a thumbs up.

Huh? Wait.

What was happening here was all intended by P'Wayu?

 ☽------------☽

Footnote :

[1] 'Saimai' means cotton candy in Thai.

Chapter 30 : The Faraway
Moon
Invisible Moon

Chapter 30

The Faraway Moon

"The shining moon may seem close,

but it's still out of reach."

#WINisWIND

I didn't understand P'In. I didn't understand myself even

more.

We both stood in the elevator. Though P'In had already

unclasped my hand, we were still silent.

At this moment, there was only silence between the fallen

Moon – me – and the shining Invisible Moon – P'In.

It was already dusk, so I should find something to eat for

dinner and go back to the dorm, take a shower, and study.
However, I wasn't hungry and didn't want to go yet.

The fading Moon – me – just followed this Invisible Moon.

Nothing else to do, nowhere else to go, only walking with
P'In.
As I didn't do my makeup today, I was simply air right now.
Fading Win. And since P'In was the invisible Moon, if he
didn't want to be seen, no one would notice him.

I was curious. Where would he take me? Because he didn't

say anything, only led the way until we passed through the
university's gate. Tonight, a temporary night market was
arranged nearby. There were many foods and various types
of stalls here. I looked around, it was quite crowded, but no
one noticed me and P'In.

I was wondering if P'In would like to buy something here, but

he just walked past them without even a look. P'In headed
to the convenience store not far away, so I followed.

"Uh...P'In, what do you want to buy?" I asked.

"Cat food." He said as he browsed the pet food shelf.

"Oh..." I realised. P'In did say 'cat food ran out' and told me
to come and buy it with him earlier.

So, he actually did want to buy cat food.

But the store wasn't that far, it was easy to come. Why did
he need someone to come along? I was trying to figure out
the reason, but still couldn't anyway.

"Tuna or salmon?" P'In asked me which cat food flavour to

choose.

"Uh..." I never had a pet before.

"Which flavour does your cat prefer?"

"Don't know." He said. "I've never asked the cat."

"Huh?" I blinked.
'What? P'In! If you did ask and the cat could answer, it's
definitely not a normal cat!' I thought.

"Uh..." I used another way to ask.

"Which one ran out faster?"

"Not sure." He said in a flat tone.

"Almost the same."

"Uh..." I scratched my head, and had no idea how to help.

"P'In, why don't you buy both?" I suggested.

"So your cat can eat different flavours."

"Oh, good idea." P'In agreed. So he took those two packs of

cat food to the cashier. Then, we both walked out of the
store.

The street lights were so bright here. As we were walking,

P'In stared at my T-shirt for a long time. I took a look at
myself. I worried if it was dirty, but it wasn't. My T-shirt was
purple, a bit large, with a rattan tree logo and the text
'DomWhai'.

"I don't like this T-shirt." P'In critiqued my shirt.

"Uh..." I said.

"It was from P'Wayu. I just borrowed it and I'll return it to

him later."

P'In looked at my shirt and didn't say a word. While we

passed through the night market on the way back, we saw a
number of clothing stalls. I thought P'In would be in a hurry
to feed his cat, but he just stopped at a male clothing stall.
"How much?" P'In pointed at a grey shirt with short sleeves.

"199 baht." The seller told us. P'In didn't even bargain, he
just paid for it.

"No plastic bag." P'In added and took the shirt, paused
before handing it to me.

"Wear." P'In said, short. I gasped.

"You want me to wear it now?" I asked.

"Yes." He nodded. "At night, it's cold."

"Oh? It isn't that cold. I'm alright." I didn't want to say no,
but I was confused. The weather wasn't cold at all.

"I've already bought it." P'In looked at the shirt in his hands.
I didn't know why, but his words made me feel like he would
be sad if I didn't wear it.

"Okay. I'll wear it." I took the shirt and wore it over my
current one.

"Button it," P'In said.

"Alright." I obliged. I didn't know whether I should cry or

laugh.

I finally realised why P'In bought this shirt.

He just didn't want to see 'DomWhai' on me. He must really

dislike this T-shirt from P'Wayu.

That's why he bought me a grey shirt — DomKati's colour.

Did P'In really preferred for me to only be in his fandom?

Or was it just my imagination?

P'In and I eventually went back to the dorms. I thought

everything was done, and we would be separated. However,
when I said goodbye, he said...

"How about we feed the cat together?"

He sounded like he was pleading, so I couldn't deny him.

I was in his dorm again. His room was still neat and clean.
The total opposite from P'Wayu's room.

P'In poured some cat food into a bowl and kept the rest on
the shelf. He walked out to the terrace and I followed him.

It was a bit colder than downstairs. I was glad that I was

wearing the shirt he bought.

"Hold it." P'In handed me the cat bowl and looked around.

"Tri." P'In called. "Tri, Tri."

At first I wondered what he was saying, until I realised that it

was a cat's name.

Meow~

The cat appeared. It jumped up to the terrace and made a

purring sound. I immediately saw why P'In called it 'Tri' –
because it was a tricoloured cat.

But...seriously. Why didn't he pick a more creative name? He

didn't need to name the animals based on their looks all the
time. First, that stray white dog was named 'White', and
now, his stray tricoloured cat was named 'Tri'.
Well, I was glad that I was already named 'Win', otherwise,
he might have called me 'Fade'.

"Hungry?" P'In asked the cat. The cat was snuggling at P'In's
legs. So he lowered himself and fondled it. Then, the cat
was lying on its back, letting him touch its belly.

'This cat is trying to seduce P'In.' I frowned.

"P'In, do you know? The tricoloured cats are always female."

I read it in an article. It said that the X-chromosome of the

cat determined its colour. Since the female cat had XX
chromosome, it could have three colours, while the male cat
had XY chromosome.

"Really?" P'In seemingly just realised. He was observing

while touching the cat's belly.

"True. Tri doesn't have that thing."

What he just said made my face turn red.

Wait...What? Why did he have to say that out loud?

Meow~

The cat probably disliked people talking about its gender. So

it meow-ed loudly, using its head to rub against P'In.

"Cute." P'In praised the cat.

I frowned again, then asked without thinking...

"P'In krub. Between me and the cat, who is cuter?"

I wanted to take my words back. What did I just ask?

Was I jealous of the cat, really?

However, even though I felt so ashamed, I still wanted to

know his answer. So I looked at him, expectantly.

P'In paused from petting the cat. He was looking at me,

pondering.

"Say meow," P'In said.

"What?" I blinked.

"If you say meow, then I can tell." He said flatly.

"Uh..." I was stunned.

He wanted me to imitate the cat's sound, so he could

compare?

I didn't know whether he was teasing me or not, but when I

saw the cat looking at me. I felt like it was challenging me
and I didn't want to lose.

So, I did the most embarrassing thing in my whole life.

"M...Meow~"

I made a cat's sound, with my hands moving like a cat's

paws.

After I did it. I really wanted to escape from here. Oh my

god. It was totally shameful.

P'In, however, suddenly laughed out loud. His eyes were

smiling. I was looking at him and falling into a daydream.

The smiling Moon was so charming.

I had no idea how long I was looking at him. I snapped out of
my trance when the cat called me as she looked at the cat
bowl in my hand.

"Tri is hungry," P'In said. So I put down the bowl. The cat
came to eat, and seemed to enjoy it.

Right! I already made a meow sound. P'In only laughed but

hadn't given me an answer.

"P'In krub. Who is cuter?" I asked again. Actually, I didn't

expect him to answer.

But it turned out...

"You, of course." P'In replied while looking at the moon. He

didn't look at me.

His answer made me bashful.

He said I was cuter than the cat. I was both happy and shy
at the same time.

Happy to win against the cat. Really?

Before I said anything else, P'In changed the topic.

"What if I ask you to keep being with me like this, will it be

too selfish?"

P'In turned to me. The Moon wasn't smiling anymore. His

expression was very serious. I needed to adjust my mood as
well.

"What are you talking about?" I couldn't understand what he

said.
"Can you give me more time?" P'In continued but didn't look
at me.

I was trying to follow.

"Did you mean...about you and me?" My voice was unstable

because I was afraid to talk about this topic.

"Yes." He nodded.

My breath was heavy. I was worried, was feeling awkward,

and was expectant.

P'In just told me that he wanted time to think about us?

Which meant he hadn't rejected me yet? Did I still have
hope?

Or did he mean that he wasn't comfortable to be with me,

so he needed more time to stay away, before getting back
to being buddy-code brothers just like we were?

I wasn't sure what he meant, but I didn't want him to feel

bad about it.

"Anyhow, you're still my senior and my buddy-code brother."

I chose to make him feel at ease.

Even though I didn't want to be just his buddy-code brother.

His eyes met mine, his expression was very strange.

"Win, do you really understand?"

"What do you mean?" I was confused.

However, P'In stayed silent. He returned his gaze to the

moon and didn't look at me again.
"Never mind." He said lightly. I wasn't sure if he was talking
to me or the moon.

"If you want to be a UNISTAR, just forget what I've said."

I fell silent too.

"Sorry...for everything." His voice was almost whispering.

Perhaps, I overestimated myself, thinking that I could

understand P'In best.

In fact, I might not understand him at all.

Even though I could be closest to P'In, however, today, I

couldn't even understand his thoughts.

I followed his gaze. The sky was clear with a few clouds and
the moon could be seen shining beautifully.

As I looked at the moon from here, it looked so bright as if it

was so close to us.

But in fact, it was so far away.

If we reached our hand out to the moon.

We could only touch the empty air.

☽------------☽
Chapter 31 : The Moon
Returned to the Sky
Invisible Moon

Chapter 31

The Moon Returned to The Sky

"The moon would shine as bright as ever,

and the air would be alone forever."

#WINisWIND

The next day, The photo that P'Noey had posted was spread
all over social media — the photo of P'In cleaning painted
insults on the faculty's building.

Currently, most people blamed those fans for overreacting

and dirtying a public area. What the fans did would cause a
negative impact on P'In's image as well. There were also
many people anticipating a press conference from MW and
some of them said it was too early to judge the situation.
However, P'In's fans still mentioned that if P'In and I were
actually dating, they wouldn't accept it.

I thought that MW decided to handle the situation with

caution. That's why none of the UNISTAR members,
including P'In, had commented on this yet. But the UNISTAR
official page and Twitter had already announced the date for
a live press conference in three days' time.
Since everything was just fake news, sooner or later, it
would be resolved.

My life was back to normal. No more anti-fans harassing me

in the university compound. But sometimes, other faculty
students would look at me strangely. Only my classmates
and my seniors truly cared about me. Oat was also
concerned about me. My mom, dad and P'Wun gave me
encouragement. I also saw P'Wun arguing with people who
bullied me on Facebook and Twitter.

"Win. I'll cheer for you, no matter what!" P'Wun said.

"I can't believe you really hugged IN! Since when did both of
you get this close~? Ahhh~! You're so lucky! Why didn't you
tell me earlier? Honestly, I was so excited when I saw this
photo. I'm probably the only DomKati who wants this to be
true. Why isn't it true? If IN were my brother-in-law, I would
be happy for the rest of my life~!"

I didn't even know whether to laugh or to cry.

I also wanted to tell her that I really wanted her dream to

come true but it was impossible. So I just let her scream,
and listened without saying anything.

At least now, I knew that I wasn't alone. The presence of

many who were willing to help me made everything so
much better. However, what weighed on me the most
wasn't the anti-fans or the UNISTAR contest — it was about
my feelings for P'In. I still couldn't move on. I didn't know
how to control my heart, so how could I stop falling for him?
I should return to normal as soon as possible.

"N'Win. Mr. Chana is looking for you." P'Noey told me during

the lunch break. So I separated from my friends after
finishing lunch, and headed straight to Mr. Chana's office.
"Sawaddee krub, Mr. Chana." I raised my hands to pay
respect.

"Archawin, how are you? You've been through a lot recently."

His expression showed concern.

"But don't worry. MW will explain this sort of negative

rumour to the public. Just relax. PD Nattakorn will find a way
to solve this, because it's also affecting UNISTAR's image."

"Thank you, Mr. Chana." I could only say thank you.

"Intrakorn will be holding a press conference for you. He will

deny the fake rumour about the Moon contest, and I'm
going to join the conference to support him as well."

I was really grateful for P'In and Mr. Chana's help.

"Well, I really don't understand how such a rumour could

have surfaced. There were others in the judging panel too,
not only Intrakorn." He shook his head.

"I chose you to be the Moon candidate. I already checked

your total score in the contest. Intrakorn gave you a realistic
score. To be honest, Wayu is actually the one who gave you
an unreasonable score — all full marks. To be honest, the
other teachers also gave you very good scores, especially
for your interview part. If people said that you and Intrakorn
colluded to cheat in the contest, it's too exaggerated. I'll
help to defend this issue as much as I can."

"Thank you, Mr. Chana." I thanked him again. I really

appreciated his help.

"And you, Archawin. I'll ask the student committee to help

you record an interview video. I plan to post it on social
media around the time of the MW press conference. I want
you to deny all the fake rumours yourself. So don't worry,
everything will be fine."

"Yes, Mr. Chana." I nodded.

"Well, may I ask a straightforward question?" Mr. Chana

crossed his arms and looked at me.

"What is the relationship between you and Intrakorn? How

did those photos come to be?"

I flinched, but I decided to answer and not disappoint him.

"Our relationship isn't like what people misunderstand," I

told him the truth.

"P'In is just my senior, and I'm close to him because he is

my only buddy-code family. The photo of me visiting his
dorm was the time that P'In invited me for dinner. The photo
of us hugging, at that time P'In was sad about his late
parents. And the one in the toilet, it was just a mistaken
angle. We were actually just having a normal conversation."

"Oh, is that so? Alright then." Mr. Chana nodded.

"It makes sense. You two are the only ones in your buddy-
code family. That's why both of you have such a close
relationship."

I could only say in my mind that the truth was 'we were just
buddy-code brothers. I was the only one who was expecting
more.'

"I'm very relieved that both of you are just seniors and
juniors." He continued.
"The rules for MW artists are very strict, especially regarding
an idol's relationship. A few years ago, there was a popular
idol who lost all his fame because he was in a relationship.
In the end, he lost both his fans and his girlfriend.
Furthermore, the strength of the UNISTAR Project is the
members' image and Intrakorn is the face of PR for the
company. He shouldn't even think about having a personal
relationship. His fans aren't okay with either female or male
pairing. There was one time when Intrakorn was cast into a
boys' love drama, the fans became really mad. The official
page and Twitter were filled with bad comments. So imagine
that in real life."

I understood it, but was still feeling a bit sad.

"Being an idol will restrict your freedom to have a

relationship. If it leaks to the public, the agency would
definitely ask you to break up. So I felt relieved that your
case was just a misunderstanding. Otherwise, you both will
be hurt. It would be an unhappy ending."

"I understand, Mr. Chana." I didn't know what to say.

Honestly, I wanted it to come true.

But as he said, it was not only impossible, the dream about

me and P'In shouldn't even happen.

I should only be his junior, and shouldn't expect more.

"So I'll tell Intrakorn to emphasise on the buddy-code family

relationship. And about the contest's judgement, I will ask
the student committee to reveal your total score so that
everyone will see that Intrakorn gave you fair points.
Anyway, I won't show Wayu's points for you — or it'll cause
a bigger issue. I must tell PD Nattakorn to teach him. I really
don't understand, other than Ratchapol, is there any
UNISTAR member who is normal?"
Mr. Chana said as he facepalmed himself.

Ratchapol? That must be P'Leo. Well, I sort of agreed. Other

than P'Leo, other members were really...unique.

"Alright, that's it. You can go now. When you record the
video, you can just repeat the same thing you just told me,
just to make sure that our facts are aligned."

"I understand. Thank you so much."

I then left his office.

I knew everything would be solved soon, but somehow, my

heart wasn't really happy about it.

A few days later, the student committee contacted me for

the recording. Mr. Chana sent me a brief script of what I
should say. Basically, it was just like what I had told him. The
leaked photos of me were all misunderstood. We were
simply buddy-code brothers and not in a relationship.

Moreover, Mr. Chana noted that I should add a few more

points to support my claims. So I said...

"My gender preference is female, not male. For me, P'In is

like my brother. I admire him so much. I was very shocked
that everyone misunderstood our relationship because we
are both male, and he's my role model. I'd like everyone to
know that I'm uncomfortable with this fake rumour
spreading around."

My brain was so blank while I was recording, so I just

memorised the whole script that Mr. Chana wrote for me.

My interview video was uploaded just an hour before P'In's

interview started. His press conference was arranged in the
MW Entertainment building. Everyone, including P'In, his
manager, PD Kwang, Mr. Chana, and the head of the student
committee, was scheduled to participate.

I was reading the comments on my video while watching

P'In's press conference live on the UNISTAR official page. For
now, many people showed empathy for what happened to
me. Some people said they would still cheer for me. Some
people also blamed P'In's fans for stirring up unnecessary
trouble.

I then focused my attention on the livestream. P'In wore the

UNISTAR uniform that was usually reserved for UNISTAR
formal events. His expression was still emotionless.
However, he didn't look so happy today.

"Mr. Intrakorn, is the rumour regarding you and XU Moon

dating true?"

The journalist brought up the topic right at the start.

"It's a misunderstanding," P'In responded through the

microphone.

"Then, how do you explain those photos?" The journalist

continued.

"Win and I are in the same buddy-code family. There's only

the two of us. So we are quite close. I invited him for dinner
at my dorm once. When I saw him in my faculty, I always
talked to him. There are many things we can talk about."

P'In answered with an empty expression. Even I couldn't tell

whether it was his normal expression or P'In just didn't want
to talk about this.
"That's right." His manager supported him. "I'm also aware
of N'Archawin. N'In had already registered his name for
N'In's personal contact. I once drove him back home as well.
I can tell that N'In and N'Archawin are like brothers."

After that, some journalists turned and whispered to each

other. Some others were taking notes.

"So you're telling me that Mr. Intrakorn and N'Archawin

aren't dating, right?"

"Now...we are not." P'In replied.

"Just an hour ago, N'Archawin also published a video to

explain the rumour. He said he wasn't gay. What about you,
Mr. Intrakorn? You aren't gay, are you?"

This question caused P'In's face to change. It was hard to

tell if he was shocked, displeased, or uncomfortable.

"Are you gay, Mr. Intrakorn?" The journalist repeated his

question as P'In stayed silent.

"Does it matter?" He said flatly. Somehow, his voice

sounded serious.

That journalist turned pale.

PD Kwang seemed to realise the awkward situation, so he

jumped in.

"Excuse me. I do think this question is a bit rude. My

boyfriend is also a male. If you're asking this sort of
question, aren't you discriminating against homosexuals?"

PD Kwang's words effectively silenced all the journalists. I

was a bit surprised to hear that P'Kwang also had a
boyfriend.

"We just wanted to know whether Mr. Intrakorn has romantic

feelings for N'Archawin as rumoured or not." One of the
journalists broke the silence.

P'In sighed. He was staring at the one who asked.

"N'Win already made it so clear." His voice was low.

"Why do you keep asking?"

Many journalists were stunned. They didn't expect that a

calm UNISTAR member like P'In would utter such cold words.

"Yes, everything is already clear. The rumours tied to the

photos aren't true." PD Kwang intercepted.

"We hope you could understand N'In and N'Win's

frustrations. They have been through a lot recently. By
asking the same questions like this, it can make them feel
uncomfortable as well. If you're all clear about this, please
change the questions."

Most of the journalists fell silent for a while. I saw the

comments on the livestream. Many people were also angry
with the journalists, because they kept making P'In feel
uncomfortable and were pressuring P'In to admit to their
accusations. Obviously, they were only aiming to write
scandalous articles.

"Mr. Intrakorn, even if you and N'Archawin aren't dating,"

another journalist decided to ask.

"But both of you are very close to each other. How could you
guarantee that the Moon contest result was fair?"
"Do you doubt my judgement too?" Mr. Chana answered
instead.

"Intrakorn wasn't the only one who selected the Moon

candidate. There were also me, a few third and fourth-year
seniors, as well as other representative teachers on the
selection panel. If you're doubtful that the contest
judgement was unfair, you're also accusing me of being
biassed."

"It's not like that, Mr. Chana." One of the journalists seemed
to recognise Mr. Chana.

"You're Mr. Chana, right? The famous business consultant?

You've arranged tons of seminars with many big companies.
You've also participated in many worldwide business events.
If you can confirm this, then we'll trust you."

"Mr. Chana only participated in the selecting part, what

about the University Moon contest?" Another journalist
chimed in.

"Mr. Chana wasn't one of the judges, but Mr. Intrakorn was.
Do you have any proof that the contest was judged fairly?"

"This is the total score that N'Archawin received from the

judges." The student committee put up the score sheet.

"I'll only reveal N'Archawin's score by N'In and other

teachers."

My contest score sheet was shown on the projector and it

was the first time I saw my own score.

I received an average point on the appearance part, but it

only held 20% weightage of the total score. I received the
most score from the interview part. My score for
performance wasn't bad either. These two parts' weightage
make up 80% of the total.

Compared to the other teachers, P'In didn't give me higher

scores. I was a bit surprised, as at that time, he did tell me
that he would reduce my score if I couldn't answer 'who was
the most handsome Moon'. However, it turned out that he
didn't deduct a lot.

Anyway, by looking at this score sheet, everyone was

surprised because it meant that P'In objectively awarded my
score without any consideration of me being his buddy-code
family.

"Did you know why I chose Archawin to be the Moon

candidate?" Mr. Chana added.

"Because I was impressed by how he answered the

questions. He has such a positive and powerful attitude. He
can be an inspiration to many people. This is exactly the
characteristic of the Moon that we have been looking for.
Don't you agree? Good-looking or talented, for me, both
aren't the priority."

Everyone in the room seemed to be convinced by this.

"As Archawain is also my student," Mr.Chana continued.

"I'd like to say this to everyone who is following the UNISTAR

Project. Archawin has been facing a difficult time these
days, both in social media and on his campus. He was
bullied without doing anything wrong. I could tell he must
feel really sad about this. So I'd like everyone to give him
some encouragement, and also give him a chance to prove
himself again."
I felt really grateful that Mr. Chana mentioned me like that.
Meanwhile, I felt very guilty. As everyone trusted me
wholeheartedly, but I still couldn't stop thinking of P'In that
way.

No, I must control myself. I shouldn't let everyone down.

"This is the last question. What is MW Entertainment

planning to do against the one who posted this fake
rumour?"

"About this," PD Kwang said.

"The photo was published from a new account on Twitter.

We've already reported the post to have it deleted. We will
find the person who leaked it, and if it is necessary, we will
go through the law and claim compensation as well."

After that, the livestream ended. I read the comments. Many

DomKati felt regretful for what they did. They apologised to
P'In, and some also apologised to me. Many people also
blamed those anti-fans as well. They also gave me words of
encouragement, saying that this shouldn't happen to me,
that they would cheer and vote for me, that loving P'In's
buddy-code family also meant loving P'In, and so on.

This problem was finally solved. However, I still felt like

something wasn't right.

I kept asking myself again and again. Was this really what I
wanted?

Nevertheless, P'In's reputation returned to normal. Even

though my heart wasn't really happy, I was relieved.

I only wish for the moon to shine upon the sky.

The air like me didn't really matter.

☽------------☽
Chapter 32 : The Lightly
Air
Invisible Moon

Chapter 32

The Lightened Air

"I only wish to be the light air,

lingering under the moonlight."

#WINisWIND

My room bell rang. I paused from reading my textbooks.

'Who is it?' I was curious. It was late at night, so I thought

that it could probably be one of my classmates. They
sometimes visited my room to discuss homework or to
invite me to dine out.

I opened the door, and was surprised.

"P'Wayu! How did you know my room?" I was so sure that I

hadn't told him my room number.

"I asked the dormitory staff 'where is Archawin Deshsakul?',

and he told me. That's it." He shrugged, I gasped.

'They told him so easily?'

However, P'Wayu was a UNISTAR. Everyone would definitely
recognise him. No wonder they just told him without a
doubt.

"Uh...well, is there anything I can help you with?" I asked. I

hoped he didn't come here just because he wanted to talk
about his joke.

"The other day, you left your shirt in my room, so I had the
maid wash it for you. Here you are."

P'Wayu handed me a paper bag that contained my student

uniform. It was all cleaned and dried.

"Oh, thank you so much. I totally forgot. I'm sorry for

bothering you." I took it and felt guilty.

"Hey. No worries. Just a small thing." P'Wayu waved his

hands as it wasn't a big deal to him.

"And..." P'Wayu thought of something.

"I already watched your video. Everything will be fine. You'll

be alright. Cheer up!"

"Thank you." I was delighted that he was also worried about

me.

"Well, about the DomWhai T-shirt I gave you that day,"

P'Wayu started.

"Oh, right!" I remembered that I borrowed it from him and

hadn't returned it yet.

"P'Wayu, I'll return it to you. Just a moment." I was about to

bring it out, but P'Wayu interrupted me.

"No, no need. I already gave it to you."

'Then why did he mention the T-shirt?' I was wondering.

"I'm just curious." P'Wayu grinned. "That day, did P'In see
your shirt?"

I recalled P'In complaining about it. He even bought me a

new shirt to wear over it.

"He saw it." I replied.

"Really?" P'Wayu seemed excited.

"Did he like it?"

"Uh..." I thought of his expression and swallowed.

"P'In didn't seem to like it."

I thought P'Wayu would be unhappy, but it turned out that

he was laughing out loud.

"Hahaha. I knew it!" Looks like it was very hilarious for him.

"Damn! I really wanna see his face. Next time, don't forget
to take a photo."

Next time? Seriously?

"Well, about the one who leaked the photos. I heard

P'Kwang already found the culprit." P'Wayu said.

"Really? Who?" I was very curious. Since that person had a

lot of my photos, he or she was probably very close to me.
That person must be a student in my university.

"I heard that he is your friend."

"My friend?" I was shocked. Were there any of my friends
who disliked me that much?

"At first, P'Kwang planned to prosecute. But after finding out

that he's just a student, P'Kwang didn't want it to blow over.
He didn't want to ruin that student's life because that may
ruin the company's image. And that student is your friend
too. Oh, I heard P'Kwang also discussed with your
lecturer...what's his name again? Chana? Yeah, so if this
problem can end with a settlement, it'll be the best for
everyone. Why don't you ask your lecturer about it?" P'Wayu
explained.

"Alright, thank you so much." Knowing that P'Kwang had

found the culprit, I was relieved. But I was still worried
because P'Wayu said that he was my friend.

"Well...how did P'Kwang find the culprit?" I couldn't help but

ask. Since it didn't take so long, it seemed like P'Kwang had
an incredible support team.

"P'Kwang's boyfriend did it." P'Wayu grinned.

"His boyfriend is the best at IT. Nothing in the digital world

can hide from him."

"Oh! P'Kwang's boyfriend." I exclaimed softly, so P'Kwang's

partner was really a male.

"Yep! That's it. I gotta go now. Tomorrow I need to wake up

early. Bubye." He said goodbye with a smile.

"Bye bye."

P'Wayu already left. But what he had just told me lingered.

Someone was trying to ruin my and P'In's reputation — was
my friend and he disliked me.

I was trying to figure out if I had ever made someone hate

me before...

Or could it be...

"Don't tell me..."

When I managed to think of one person, I had such a bad

feeling about this.

But it might not be him.

I could only hope so.

The next morning, Mr. Chana told me to come to his office. I

was surprised to find another student already there as well.

It was Boss.

I felt so uncomfortable. I was afraid that what I thought

would be true.

"Sawaddee krub, Mr. Chana." I raised my hands to pay

respect, and sat next to Boss, nervously.

Mr. Chana went straight to the point.

"Bodin, Archawin, you two are good friends, aren't you?

Then why did you do this, Bodin? Any reasons? Tell me."

What the teacher said confirmed my guess.

Boss was the one who leaked those photos. Really?

"I just shared what I saw." Boss said without guilt.

I was so shocked to hear this. His expression right now was
really cold. He wasn't like the friendly guy that I had known.

"But Archawin is your friend. How could you think that what
you did was right?" Mr. Chana disliked how he reacted,
obviously.

"Well, was it fair when you selected the Moon candidate?"

Boss asked back.

"It was so obvious that P'In intended to select Win in the

first place. Then why did we still need a competition?"

I was so hurt by what he said. Actually, I had been afraid he

would think that way since I was selected. But he just
congratulated me and talked to me as usual. I had no idea
that his friendly smile was all fake, that he hated me so
much for it.

I was both shocked and sad.

"I already gave you an explanation." Mr. Chana said. "I'm

gonna tell you again. In that competition. Do you really
think your answer was better than Archawin's answer? Yours
was so common, just like any other candidate. If you're a
judge, would you still choose yourself?"

Boss stood still, not saying a thing.

"Anyway," Mr. Chana continued. "Your post was deleted. I

don't want to make it an issue. But keep in mind, Bodin. PD
Kwang and I helped you this time. Otherwise, If MW plans to
sue you, how could you defend yourself? This time, MW lets
you go easily, but don't ever think there would be a second
time. Understood?"

Boss and I didn't even dare to say a word.

"If there is nothing else, you can go." Mr. Chana excused us.

"Thank you, Mr. Chana." We both raised our hands to pay

respect and left his office.

As soon as we went out, Boss didn't even look at me, he

only rushed out. I had to quickly run after him.

"Hey! Boss! Boss!" I called his name so many times until he

stopped and turned back to me, coldly.

"What?" He asked tersely.

"I'm sorry," I said. "I didn't know that I made you feel bad.
I'm really sorry!"

Boss fell silent.

"Win, you already got everything you wanted. You're the

UNISTAR finalist, and that rumour was already solved. We
don't need to talk about this again."

Boss apparently didn't want to talk to me. He was trying to

leave in a hurry, but I stopped him.

"Boss, please, don't be like this," I begged him.

"I want to be your friend. Did you know? The first day I came
here, I didn't even have a friend, but you were the first
person who talked to me. You could recognise me. That
made me very happy. So, can we still be friends?"

Boss frowned, he looked at me with doubt.

"You're weird. I was trying to ruin your life before and you
still want to be friends with me?"

"I understand your feelings. It's okay. I can forgive you."

His expression shifted a bit.

"It wasn't your fault." I explained to him.

"I never thought that I would become the Moon as well. I

admire you so much. You're very good at everything, good-
looking, good at sports, good at socialising with people. I
can't even do what you can."

I paused and continued.

"I know, you think I don't deserve to be the Moon. I think so

too. I think you're more suitable."

His expression visibly became more relaxed.

"It's not like that." He said. "Your attitude and mindset are
way better than mine. That's why you were chosen."

"But you want to be the Moon, right? You also want to be a

UNISTAR too, right?" I asked.

"Why not?" Boss didn't hide it.

"Well, right." I continued.

"Then, why do you want to be a UNISTAR?"

"Fame, money, reputation, who in the world doesn't want

these?" He said outright.

"I see." I nodded.

"I want to be one too, but for a different reason."

I sighed.

"Perhaps, what you posted on twitter is actually the truth."

He seemed confused.

"But It's not P'In's fault. It was me all along. I want to be the
Moon, I want to be a UNISTAR..." I said sadly.

"Because I...want to be with P'In."

Boss widened his eyes.

"Yes, what you suspected is true. I like P'In."

"Wait...What? Is that true?" Boss was shocked.

"Yes. I've been falling for P'In, but he didn't like me that
way." I almost cried when we talked about this.

"I'm a male, but I like a male too. It's hilarious, don't you
think? But I can't help it. P'In is so good to me. How could I
think that way? I'm the worst person in the world."

Boss was stunned as I was almost crying.

"Wait...about that post..." Boss tried to explain. "Actually, I

already knew that you and P'In weren't dating."

Boss said awkwardly.

"I intended to leak a fake rumour. I was upset because I felt

like the competition wasn't fair. You two are so close to each
other. I saw you visit his dorm and you ran out for him. I
followed you and secretly took those photos. I just wanted
to find the faults in what both of you do. I thought that you
were selected as the Moon because of P'In. If P'In wasn't
supporting you, how could you win? I just thought that it
was unfair. But...I never thought it would be your true
feelings."

"I get it. It's not your fault." I felt so miserable.

"But that feeling is just a one-sided crush. It's okay if I were
criticised by society, but I don't want P'In to be involved. He
didn't do anything wrong. It's only me."

"I'm sorry, really sorry," Boss looked remorseful. "For

everything. I misunderstood you. I know why I didn't
deserve to be the Moon. I'm just overestimating myself."

"Never mind. I understand. I'm sorry too." I said sincerely.

"Thanks!" Boss said lightly. "But I really don't understand. I

did such a bad thing to you. Why are you not mad at me?"

"Because you're my friend," I said.

"This kind of thing could happen between friends, right? But

if we open up to each other, I believe our friendship is going
to be stronger."

"You're so optimistic." He said. "It makes me feel like I'm

such a bad person."

"No. You are not, at all." I smiled.

"Well..." He looked at me, contemplating.

"You're really cute, actually."

"Huh? Cute?" I blinked. What did he mean by that?

"What are you doing?"

Suddenly, I heard a familiar voice from behind. I flinched.

"P'In...!" I was surprised as he was heading here.

"Buddy-code or hubby...? Seriously!" Boss murmured and

sighed.
P'In was staring at Boss, his expression void of emotions.

"Alright. I gotta go now. See you later." Boss waved his

hand.

"Oh, you're going now?" I didn't understand why he wanted

to leave so suddenly.

"Yeah." Boss said. "Oh, I think you're misunderstanding

something."

Boss glanced at P'In, then he looked at me and continued.

"Don't underestimate yourself, bye."

"Huh?" I had no idea what he was talking about, but he just

left without any further explanation.

"What were you talking about?" P'In asked.

"Oh..." I felt a bit awkward as P'In was so close to me. So, I

avoided his eye contact.

"About the leaked photo. But we already made up. I forgave

him and he understands me now. So I hope you can forgive
him too. He had his own reasons. We can still be friends."

"Okay." P'In nodded. "If you say so."

"Really? Thank you P'In!" I was so relieved that P'In was

willing to forgive Boss.

"Yes, but..." P'In looked at me.

"Just a friend, okay?"

"Huh?" I exclaimed. He said 'friend' right? Why did he need

to emphasise it again?
P'In tilted his head, still looking at me. He seemingly
realised that I was confused, but he didn't even explain. He
just touched my head softly.

I blinked, feeling so surprised to be patted by him. It was

such a warm touch.

"Fighting!"

P'In said lightly before taking his hand back and leaving.

I kept looking at him until he disappeared from my sight.

Although both of us were only senior and junior, those few

words and slight touch could make my heart fly.

"Thank you, P'In." I whispered even though P'In couldn't

hear it.

☽------------☽
Chapter 33 : The Wind
Moon

UNISTAR Project

Invisible Moon

Chapter 33

The Wind Moon

"The wind blew away the mist,

allowing the moon to shine."

#WINisWIND

After I made up with Boss, he kind of surprised me.

We were back to being friends as usual and no one knew

that Boss was the one who leaked those photos. In fact, I
didn't want anyone to find out about it. I was afraid Boss
would be in trouble.

In actuality, he just pretended like he didn't care about me

while secretly protecting me on social media.

Although everything had been resolved, not everyone could

accept me wholeheartedly. Some of them still disliked me as
they thought that I didn't deserve to be a UNISTAR. Some
said that I shouldn't be close to P'In. Boss, however,
defended me against those negative posts. I felt so touched
that he did that for me.

Sleepy @unitysleepy

If Archawin weren't P'In's buddy-code brother, no one would

cheer for him.

I'm Boss @bodin0000 replying to @unitysleepy

That's why a Unity who has never been close to P'In like you
could only be envious? :)

Love spicy curry @fkduifpfj

Archawin won't be a UNISTAR. He doesn't deserve it.

I'm Boss @bodin0000 replying to @fkduifpfj

PD Kwang, UNISTAR members, and people of the whole

country will decide. It's not only you.

In wa @likeuit

I don't like the way P'In is close to that Archawin.

I'm Boss @bodin0000 replying to @likeuit

Would anyone die because of that?

I was shocked to see how he replied to the anti-fans. His

words were polite, but his tone was harsh. I couldn't even
believe it was actually him.

I used to ask whether that person was him or not. However,

he just smiled and said that Twitter was like a place to
release one's dark side. Arguing with some people was
somehow relaxing for him...

The UNISTAR Contest was still ongoing. Several weekly

workshops were conducted for all 9 finalists before the final
day and everyone needed to participate. This workshop
would be recorded and released on a special TV program
called 'UNISTAR Contest Workshop'. The most exciting part
was meeting the UNISTAR members and doing an activity
with them.

This was the first week of the workshop. I arrived at the

company in the morning, because P'Kwang had to make an
appointment to discuss our contract first. Me, Oat and other
candidates were in the conference room. Of course Sun was
here as well, he seemed very sleepy though.

"This is the agreement contract for your participation in the

UNISTAR final contest" PD Kwang explained.

"So, one of you will be the winner as the next UNISTAR

member. This contract included the agreement about being
an MW artist and a UNISTAR Member. The winner needs to
follow the agreement until graduation, plus three years in
addition."

"What if we didn't win? I saw on the last page, it said this

contract will be automatically cancelled?" One candidate
asked.

"That's right." PD Kwang nodded. "This contact will take

effect once you win as a UNISTAR member. If you are not
the winner, this contract won't bind you. However, please
look carefully at Clause 14, the first and second runner-up
will give the consent for MW Entertainment to offer you an
MW Artist contract before other companies."
"So it means if we didn't become a UNISTAR, but received
the second or third prize instead, we still have a chance to
work with MW Entertainment?" Another candidate also
asked.

"Yes." PD Kwang said.

"However, this will depend on the company's discretion as

well. In case we are interested in you, you must prioritise us.
If you agree to join us, we will make a new contract, which is
different from a UNISTAR contract. If you don't want to work
as an artist or idol, this contract doesn't bind you. But
Clause 14.4 states that the first and the second runner-up
can't sign a contract with any other media or modelling
enterprise other than MW Entertainment within half a year
after the UNISTAR contest ends. But after that, you can work
for other companies if you want to."

I read the contract. The prizes for winners were clearly

stated.

The winner would become the 5th generation member of

UNISTAR and receive a cash prize of 1,000,000 baht, along
with other rewards from the MW group and sponsors.

The first runner-up and second runner-up would instead be

offered contracts as an artist or idol of MW Entertainment
along with other rewards from the MW group and sponsors.
The only difference between the two was the cash prize of
500,000 baht and 300,000 baht each.

I was excited, because although we didn't end up as a

UNISTAR member, we would still have an opportunity to
become MW artists, and the prize was quite good. I guess
it's the perks of becoming a Moon.
"P'Kwang krub." Another candidate asked. "I'm studying in
the faculty of medicine, which will take 6 years in total. So if
I win, my contract will last for 9 years?"

"Yes." PD Kwang answered. "You'll be bound for 3 years on

top of the length it takes to complete your degree. For
example, if your degree takes 4 years, your contract will be
for 7 years, if your degree takes 5 years, your contract will
be 8 for years. However, even if the contract is still in effect,
you can still work in other companies except for media
enterprises or our opponents. If you have further questions,
feel free to ask."

"I'm confused with Clause 6." Someone asked.

"It states that we must work as a UNISTAR member for at

least 2 years, then we can opt to terminate the contract.
Does it mean after we work as a UNISTAR member for 2
years, we can choose to quit?"

"Please look at Clause 6.1, it states that if you decide to

quit, the decision must be approved by producers and MW
Entertainment Board of Directors. In short, it would be case
by case. And this Clause 6 is for when you are the one who
wants to terminate the contract. But Clause 15 is for when
the company asks to terminate the contract. In case you
breach any part of the agreement, you can be disqualified
from being a UNISTAR member. Because the UNISTAR
Project is all about the image, so it's important to mind the
way you conduct yourself."

After we finished discussing, PD Kwang gave us time to read

the contract. If we still had some questions, we could raise
our hands to ask. If we were clear and also agreed, all we
needed to do was sign it, submit one copy for the company,
and keep another copy to ourselves.
This contract detailed everything, including work styles and
income. All UNISTAR members would receive a basic salary
that wasn't part of their bonuses. Well, it was higher than
the minimum salary for fresh graduates. In addition, the
company would also provide various benefits. Moreover,
other income from each project and sale would be paid
separately from the salary.

All UNISTAR members would also receive a share from the

sales of fanmeet or event tickets as well as any other
UNISTAR merchandise such as light-sticks, T-shirts and
photo-books.

Come to think of it, P'In would have earned so much money

since he had been working for more than a year and
everything related to the UNISTAR was sold out every time.

In addition, the members would also get a percentage of the

sales for products they represent as ambassadors and the
member who was selected as the centre for the campaign
would receive a bigger cut. On the other hand, half of the
income from their external projects would be shared with
the company.

I didn't have any issues with the contract. However, there

was also an agreement about monitoring our behaviours.
The company could dictate how we use social media, as well
as meddle in our personal relationships. They clearly stated
that they could restrict our behaviour which could have a
negative impact on our image or reputation including
dating, nights out, or drugs.

As I didn't have any questions and I didn't even know if I

could win or not, I decided to just sign it. The other
candidates did too.
I thought the income clause of the contract was quite fair,
but in return, we would lose our freedom after becoming a
UNISTAR. The same happened to P'In.

After we finished signing the contract, we sat and waited in

the studio. The crew was setting up a white backdrop stage
and the seats that we would be using. The stylists were
helping us apply makeup before a staff member informed us
to be on standby. A moment later, I heard someone saying
that the UNISTAR members had arrived.

I held my breath, my excitement grew. Even though I had

already seen all of them before, I still felt very excited.

The other candidates were excited as well. Except for Sun,

who seemed really sleepy today.

"I have never met UNISTAR members other than P'Natee

and P'Leo. Meeting them is making my day!" Oat said.

"Hello, everyone."

When the UNISTAR members entered the studio, it looked

like they glowed. I used to think that all the candidates
among us were very good-looking. Still, none of us could
even compare to the real UNISTAR members with full
makeup and costumes. When they were all together, it felt
as if they were emitting their own bright lights, living up to
their title as top idol stars.

When my eyes met P'In's for a second, I was the one who
turned away first.

I didn't want anyone to misunderstand us again. I was afraid

that I would ruin his reputation like I did before.
Only P'Wayu enthusiastically gave me a big smile, and
waved his hands at me, making it obvious that we knew
each other.

They then sat on the seats that were arranged for them.
Once they were settled into the seats, P'Leo began to brief
us about what to expect for the day.

"Today, we are assigned to take care of you in a special

programme called 'UNISTAR Contest Workshop'. We will be
your mentors, producers and hosts throughout the
programme."

He continued.

"Before we begin the recording, I'll brief you on what we'll

be doing. You've already received the email, right? I want all
of you to introduce yourselves and tell us your chosen Moon
title as well as why you selected this title. Of course, it will
just be your temporary title, but if PD Kwang approves it,
you may keep using the title after you become a UNISTAR
member."

Then, P'Sea added.

"After we finish the introductions, the next part will be a fun

activity — mentor lottery. Everyone will be assigned to one
of the UNISTAR members as your mentor. Your mentor will
take care of you and guide you until the final contest. Your
job is to accompany your mentor to work, such as modelling
shoots and so on. The UNISTAR members may not have the
same task at the same time, so your priority is to follow
your mentor."

"Understood?" P'Leo asked us. "Any questions?"

Since no one had any questions, P'Sea signalled the staff to
start recording.

"Hello everyone, we are the National Moons — UNISTAR!"

The camera zoomed on the UNISTAR members. They

naturally greeted the camera in unison.

"Today I'll be acting as both PD and MC for this special

program – 'UNISTAR Contest Workshop'. Right now, we are
here with all nine finalists for this year's UNISTAR contest."

P'Leo was very natural at MC'ing.

I peeked at P'In. He stayed still, as emotionless as always.

"Let's get to know our candidates." P'Sea gestured his hand

in our direction and the camera panned to us.

"Hello, Moons." P'Sea greeted us.

"Hello, P'UNISTARs." Everyone raised their hands to pay

respect to them, not in unison though, just casually.

"So, we'll let each of you introduce yourselves. You've

already thought of your titles, right? We'll be looking forward
to it."

In my opinion, P'Sea and P'Leo did a very good job at MC'ing

the program. I didn't think that other members would do as
well as they did. P'In — too quiet. P'Wayu — too many jokes.
P'Natee — badmouth.

Each candidate introduced themselves one by one, most of

their titles were very common; such as Shiny Moon, Blue
Moon and so on until we reached Sun Suriyaphat.
I was amazed at how he was able to become a different
person in front of the camera. Sleepy Sun had now
transformed into an energetic Sun.

"Hi everyone! Da Jia Hao. Sawaddee Krub. My name is Sun.

Wo de zhongwen mingzi shi Leng Canxi."

Sun had a unique way of introducing himself, which was

similar to the one he used in the School-Ace shows. He
always spoke three languages — Thai, English, and Chinese,
with such perfect accents.

"I've chosen the title 'Sun Moon' as my Moon title because

my nickname is 'Sun', and my full name is 'Suriyaphat',
which also means sun. My Chinese name 'Canxi', 灿 and 熙
both mean 'bright'. Because I shine by myself and don't
need any other light."

Well, his title wasn't bad. However, most UNISTAR members

frowned when they heard it, obviously displeased, except
for P'In who was always emotionless. Because everyone had
a title related to the moon at night. No one dared to name
themselves as the bright sun. Plus, saying that he could
shine on his own seemed like he wanted to go solo and
didn't care about teamwork, which conflicted with the
general UNISTAR concept.

As if he chose his Moon title to outshine the other UNISTAR

members.

However, P'Sea was quick to applaud him.

"Interesting. I'll be looking forward to seeing how you will

shine by yourself." P'Sea smiled and gestured to the next
person — Oat.
"Hello, my name is Oat. I come from QU University, Faculty
of Engineering." Oat spoke fluently.

"My chosen Moon title is 'Morning Moon' because among all

of my friends, I'm the only one who wakes up very early. I
like to do morning exercise before the sun rises. Sometimes,
my friends would also ask me to call and wake them up
instead of setting their alarms. They called me 'The Morning
Man', so I think 'Morning Moon' would suit me the most."

All UNISTAR members applauded with warm smiles. They

seemed to like his title as well.

"Like the Moon in the morning. Nice title..." P'Sea said

before smiling and gesturing for me to start. P'Sea was a
man who had a very beautiful smile.

"And the last one."

I flinched a little. I had already prepared for this, but I still

wasn't sure whether they would like it. At least I thought
that my Moon title was okay.

"Hello, my name is Win. The XU Moon." I was a bit nervous

to speak in front of many people.

"My chosen Moon title is 'Wind Moon', because my

nickname is Win, which sounds similar to 'Wind'. I think this
title suits me because the wind describes the movement of
air. If the air just stayed still, one would not realise its
presence. However, when the air flows, it becomes a
breeze, wind that can be felt. It also blows the fog and
clouds away to allow the moon to shine. Because I wish to
be an inspiration for everyone, I don't need to be shining
myself. Like the wind that gave way for others to shine.
"Wow, that's an incredible title. Very meaningful." P'Sea
smiled and he was about to make a closing statement.

But suddenly...

"Then, Win can be my mentee..." P'Wayu stood up and

interrupted.

"Because he's the 'Wind Moon'. Wayu also means wind."

I thought P'Wayu probably just tried to crack a joke.

However, not only did no one laugh, but two people beside
him – P'Natee and P'In – looked at him blankly.

"He's the Wind Moon, but you... are Fart Moon right? That's
also a type of wind." P'Natee said sarcastically. Some people
in the studio even laughed at that.

"Fart what? Hell dog!" P'Wayu had reached his limit.

"I said 'wind'. You're such an idiotic deaf. Stupid dog full of
earwax!"

"I'm stating the truth." P'Natee didn't stop.

"Your room is also dirty and smelly like your fart."

P'Wayu was very mad by now.

"My room is messy but not smelly. F*** you! And about my
fart, you're wrong. How can you be a dog with such a bad
sense of smell? The fleas must have bitten your nose till it's
already disabled. If you can actually smell, my fart is so
fragrant."

P'Wayu didn't give up easily.

"Wayu, Natee, we're recording the show." P'Leo warned
them because they both didn't watch their manners in front
of the camera.

"Anyway..." P'Wayu cut in, ignoring P'Natee and looking at

me.

"I'm wind, he's also wind. We have similar names. So I want

to be his mentor."

What he said shocked me. Seriously?

Well, everyone was also shocked by how self-centred he

was. Before P'Leo could say anything, another UNISTAR
member stood up.

"I can be his mentor too! Our names are similar as well."
P'In said, making everyone confused. It was very rare to see
P'In standing up to speak in his own interest.

"What? How is it similar? The meaning isn't even close."

P'Wayu argued.

P'In looked at P'Wayu and said...

"Similar writing and pronunciation. Why not? Whenever you

write 'Win', there must be an 'In'."

I was trying to follow what P'In said.

He was actually right. Every 'win' had an 'in'.

If there was no 'in', we couldn't write 'win'.

Well, In and Win indeed has similar written form and

pronunciation.
But...seriously? I couldn't keep up with P'In's train of
thoughts.

Even P'Wayu gasped.

"Well, well, no need to fight — New Moon and Invisible

Moon." P'Sea tried to stop P'Wayu and P'In from arguing.

"Let me tell you some good news. PD Kwang already made

it clear that the mentor can't come from the same university
as the candidate."

P'Wayu and P'In immediately looked at each other.

"Any excuse for the name's meaning or similar

pronunciation won't work anyway."

P'Sea gave them a sweet smile, but with very cunning eyes.

"But don't worry, we will take care of N'Win for you two
instead."

Although P'Wayu and P'In didn't seem happy about it, they
had no choice but to accept it.

"Please cut out the part where N'Wayu spoke out of topic."
P'Leo told the staff. I agreed with him. We're lucky it wasn't
a live show.

After the first part was over. We took a 5-minute break

before we resumed. The next part was the mentor selection.

This activity was divided into two rounds. In the first round,
the UNISTAR members would each select a candidate. They
prepared a board displaying 9 different label cards. Each
card showed a short description that was related to each of
us without revealing our names. Each UNISTAR member had
to choose a card and they would automatically be assigned
as the mentor to the candidate described by the card. As for
the remaining four candidates, they would randomly choose
a mentor using the same method in the second round.

When all the signs were revealed, I looked for the one which
might be mine.

'Moving Wikipedia'

What? It was too obvious!

"As a rule, seniors will go first, so P'Sea gets the first pick."
P'Leo said.

P'Sea laughed and walked to the board. He smiled at me

and then picked the 'Moving Wikipedia' sign without even
thinking.

"Hey! P'Sea! Why did you do that?" P'Wayu was frantic.

"You can't pick him anyway." P'Sea gave him a warm smile.
P'Wayu didn't have any choice but to purse his lips.

P'In looked at me with a complex expression.

Afterwards, the first round ended once the rest of the

UNISTAR members had their turn selecting random
candidates. P'Sea obviously became my mentor, while Sun,
Oat and other two candidates had yet to be selected.

The second round started, and it was the remaining four

candidates' turn to choose.

When I saw the labels, I immediately knew which one was

P'In's.

'Like feeding cat'

I knew him too well.

Oat selected the 'Like drinking cola' sign, so he got P'Wayu.

Sun chose 'Wanna build music band', so he got P'Natee.

In the end, everyone was assigned to a mentor. Four of the

UNISTAR members had two candidates assigned to them.
P'Sea only had me, because there were only five mentors
for nine candidates.

After we finished recording, we dispersed and sat with our

mentors separately to get to know them and prepare for
next week's show.

"So it's you, N'Archawin... The one N'In and N'Wayu

competed for." P'Sea said with a friendly smile, but I felt a
bit nervous.

P'Sea was a male who was both beautiful and handsome.

When he smiled, it looked attractive but somehow a little
scary. To me, P'Sea was like a sweet apple with poison. I
strongly felt like he was that type of person.

P'Sea looked at me. Pondering before glancing at P'In in the

studio.

"N'In...he is kind and gentle. He's such a good person, good

at cooking, and a family man. He is also devoted to love.
The one who has N'In as a boyfriend would be very lucky."

P'Sea said while throwing a cunning gaze at me. I tensed up.

"Unfortunately. He's an idol. He is the positive PR image for

MW. His fans won't be happy if he dates someone. So, the
one who has fallen for N'In and expects to date him will only
be heartbroken."
These words were like a knife stabbing in my heart. I tried to
act as if it didn't affect me, but my heart was in pain.

"N'Win...you want to be the wind right?" P'Sea said.

"If you want to be an inspiration for others, you must first

inspire yourself."

He said thoughtfully.

"If you want to float like the wind above the clouds, you
must make yourself lighter. You need to throw away heavy
and unnecessary baggage. Being an idol sometimes
requires you to sacrifice your own happiness in exchange for
your own dream and future."

I was stunned. P'Sea might have spoken indirectly, but I felt

like it hit home.

P'Sea must have already figured out my feelings towards

P'In.

P'Sea tried to warn me that no matter what, P'In was still an

idol. He couldn't date anyone as freely as he wanted to.
P'Sea didn't want me to hold on to an unrealistic dream.

If I chose to be a UNISTAR, I'd have to be strong and cut this

thing out of my mind.

"But...sometimes...it isn't bad to do what your heart desires.

I want to remind N'In about this as well."

P'Sea's words had such a complex meaning.

"Anyway." P'Sea cut it off and smiled.

"This will be fun. Perhaps, something unexpected could

happen in the future. Well, if we wait and see how the
situation develops, I wonder how it's going to end...Hahaha.
I'm going to prepare some popcorn for sure."

It seemed as if P'Sea was looking forward to something

entertaining.

Although I didn't quite understand him, I could ascertain the

type of personality he had.

He had such a pure and innocent appearance, but inside, it

was probably the opposite.

☽------------☽
Chapter 34 : Among the
Moons

Invisible Moon

Chapter 34

Among the Moons

"Of the many moons in the sky,

which moon would shine the brightest?"

#WINisWIND

I've been focused on my studies recently as I had to prepare

for my final exam. I was also alternating my time with the
UNISTAR contest workshop under P'Sea's guidance.

P'Sea was a fifth-year medical student. He would be at the

ward or operating rooms in the hospital almost every day.
P'Sea could only rest during his day off on weekends, but
even then he sometimes needed to study. Both P'Sea and
P'Leo were very busy with studying, so they had less time to
participate in UNISTAR activities. Usually, P'Sea would only
join fanmeets or important events, as his free time differed
from other members.

P'Sea was my mentor, so I rarely met the other members.

I've only met P'Leo during the TV programme he co-hosted
with P'Sea, 'Diagnostics with the Medical Moons'. Several
episodes of this programme would be pre-recorded per
recording session to cover its release for the upcoming
weeks, as they were afraid these two would be busy.

Studying as a medical student and working as a UNISTAR

idol at the same time wasn't easy for P'Sea. Sometimes, the
MW staff needed to come to the hospital to discuss work
with P'Sea. They occasionally had to use a nearby place or
studio to shoot photos or record interviews because P'Sea
was so busy with studying and almost had no free time. If it
was just a simple interview, sometimes the hospital would
allow them to shoot videos. I salute the MW staff members
for putting so much effort to include P'Sea in as many
UNISTAR activities as possible. Although the time was
limited, the result was still good. P'Sea was such an
incredibly talented person with very good time
management.

Even though P'Sea was busy, he still took good care of me.
When I joined the workshop, a team of MWTV staff were
assigned to follow me around to record my progress as I
worked with my mentor.

"Hello, I'm Sea. And this is N'Archawin." P'Sea introduced

me.

"He is here to learn and practice with me as part of the

workshop conducted for the UNISTAR contest. So please feel
free to teach and advise him."

I received a warm welcome from all the staff. I stayed in the

dressing room with P'Sea as we were briefed about work. If I
didn't understand something, P'Sea would help to explain it
to me. However, if there was any content that was related
to an advertising concept which couldn't be revealed, the
cameraman who followed me wouldn't record it. So most of
my recordings would only show P'Sea talking to me or
teaching me some techniques about modelling.

I thought P'Sea was very professional. He was able to

convey emotions through his facial expressions and could
act them out perfectly. He only had to try a few times and it
would be a perfect take. On the other hand, I was always
stuck on emotional expressions. However, I did manage to
impress many staff members when they realised I could
memorise the scripts with 100% accuracy.

"How was it?" He asked me while we were in his manager's

car. After we wrapped up, P'Sea would always send me
home.

"It was fun. Thank you krub, P'Sea."

"Good. I'm sorry that my work schedule conflicts with my

study hours, so we may not have a chance to meet other
UNISTAR members."

P'Sea grinned. He moved his face closer to me, making me

nervous.

"So you can't meet N'In often. Are you sad?"

I blushed when he said that.

"No...I'm not." I had no idea what to answer.

P'Sea moved back and laughed.

"Well, well, this should be fun to watch."

P'Sea murmured, but I heard it.

What? How could he enjoy watching people's life drama so
much?

My days as a fading college student seemed so far away

now. I was recognised by many students because I was on-
air in the UNISTAR Contest TV program. People were
constantly asking me for photos, some also wanted to chat
with me, especially DomNangnuan, as they wanted to ask
about P'Sea. P'Noey was one of them. She usually screamed
whenever we met.

The UNISTAR contest workshop became a routine for me. At

first, I was both exhausted and excited. Afterwards, I slowly
got used to it. As for P'Sea, I started to gain an
understanding of his personality the more I saw him. He was
sometimes playful, sometimes serious, but he was really
friendly and ever willing to give me advice.

However, I've always felt like he had built walls around him.
I couldn't be sure whether the P'Sea I had come to know
was the real him or not. I realised he was very nice and easy
to socialise with, but it was somehow difficult to read his
mind. P'Sea was the only UNISTAR member who seemed
approachable, but in truth, he was hard to understand. I
personally thought that he was even more complicated than
P'In.

Recently, I spent most of my time preparing for my final

exam and the UNISTAR contest. I didn't have much time to
hang out with my friends. I only chat with them via text
messaging. I hadn't talked to P'In for a while either. I
occasionally saw him at the faculty, but we still didn't talk. I
felt a bit lonely, but somehow I could concentrate more on
what I had to do.
Once my final exam was over, it was time for the most
exciting thing, which was...The UNISTAR Contest.

I couldn't believe that it was finally time for the contest

finals. I didn't realise how much time had flown.

I heard that the tickets were sold out within ten minutes. I
was lucky to have two additional tickets as a reward for the
nine finalists on top of the two that were given to me. I gave
the tickets to P'Wun, my mom and dad. I decided to give the
last one to Boss. He was hesitant at first, but I told him I
wanted him to be there and cheer for me, so he took it.
Moreover, P'Neoy and Parn had also successfully bought the
tickets. So I had my little support group consisting of family,
friends, and seniors. I felt very encouraged.

I had prepared a lot for my performance. P'Sea told me that

P'In and P'Wayu wouldn't be allowed to ask me any
questions nor to give me any scores as they were also from
my university. So, only P'Sea, P'Leo, P'Natee, and PD Kwang
who would be asking me questions during my general
knowledge performance. I read up on medical facts for
P'Leo, design profession for PD Kwang and music for
P'Natee.

P'Sea said P'Natee would definitely be more interested in

music rather than his major. So without a doubt, most of the
questions would be about music. P'Sea even said that
P'Natee might not even have learned anything from his
engineering classes.

Mr. Chana said that my talent would be less exciting

compared to others, as the audience wouldn't be surprised
anymore. But he offered me some ideas on how to make it
more interesting. He told me that I could add more details to
my answers to show that I had a deeper understanding of
the topics or subject matter. He also said that I could add a
time limit of 10 seconds to answer just to spice it up.

Most of the universities were already having their semester

break on the day of the contest. I gathered with the rest of
the candidates in the gigantic hall for rehearsals. The venue
was like last years' and an estimated ten thousand people
would be in the audience during the show.

I've already spent a lot of time practising and getting ready

for the contest day. I just came early in the morning to be
prepared. I could see fans waiting outside the halls. Even
those who were unable to buy tickets came. They were just
happy to experience the atmosphere of the contest. MWTV
also provided a big screen to let them watch the contest live
from outside.

My parents drove us here. P'Wun prepared the huge light

sign for me and said that I should be able to see them from
the stage.

Once I got to the dressing room, most candidates were

already there.

"Hi Win! Are you excited?" Oat greeted me.

"Yes. Very. I can't believe how fast time flew." I said.

"Yeah, me too! I can't wait to see who will win. We've been
together for a few months, and soon one of us will debut as
an idol."

"Yes. It seems unbelievable." I nodded.

Oat and I sat together, and the stylists came over to help us
with our hair and makeup. I heard that the UNISTAR
members had arrived, but they were in another dressing
room. They wouldn't be able to come and see us, as they
would be occupied with interviews with various journalists.

"If we become a UNISTAR, we will be super busy. Even as

candidates, we're already so busy." Oat said and I agreed.

After we finished dressing up. We rehearsed on the real

stage thrice before the staff allowed us to prepare for our
own performances. We had a lunch break and I memorised
all the notes for my general knowledge performance.

"Win...the audience is starting to fill the hall." Oat informed

me.

"Oh! Great!" I got excited and wanted to take a peek at the

audience myself. It was my first time joining a big UNISTAR
event. Numerous fans were seated and they were holding
various colours of light sticks belonging to each fandom;
white, yellow, blue, purple and grey. I saw the 'WIN must
WIN' and 'WIND MOON' signs, which was obviously from
P'Wun.

I also saw other cheering signs for the rest of the candidates
but those still couldn't be compared to the ones for UNISTAR
members. Based on what I'm seeing, I think Sun, who was
already popular, came rather close.

"Greetings all Unity! Welcome to the National Moon Final

Stage — UNISTAR Contest: the fifth generation!"

The male host appeared and was welcomed by the

overwhelming cheer from the audience. If I wasn't mistaken,
he was the second runner-up of the third generation
UNISTAR contest, the same year as P'In. He was now active
as a famous MC.
"Such a warm welcome from all the fans. Make some
noise...!" The host was leading the crowd to cheer out loud
for their favourites.

"Today is another historic date for all Unity! Everyone in

here and watching the live channel will be welcoming a new
member to the UNISTAR project together tonight....Who will
be the winner? Of course, the result depends on you..."

The staff prompted us to standby on a lowered stage lift.

This area of the stage would lift us straight to the centre of
the stage, directly under the spotlight.

"The judgment score of this final contest would be divided

into three parts — 20% from the producer, 30% from
UNISTAR members and 50% from the audience, which will
hold the largest weightage."

"Online voting is still open. Normally, each account can only

vote once a day, except for those who are registered as
Unity, getting double the chance to vote. Even though
you've already voted today, you will gain 2 additional votes
at the end of the question and answer session."

"Which means, no matter what the current vote looks like

now, the performance on the stage today can still overturn
the final result. And without further ado, please
welcome...our finalists!"

Once the host cued us in, the hydraulic lift lifted us and all
nine of us appeared at the centre of the stage.

As rehearsed, we then started to walk around the stage to

greet the fans. I was very nervous, but when I saw P'Wun
cheering from the special zone, I couldn't help but smile and
felt so encouraged. P'Wun was shouting 'Win fighting!' so
loudly I could hear from here.
After we finished our part, it was time for the judging panel
to appear.

"And next...please welcome...all the judges..."

This announcement immediately triggered a roar of

cheering from the audience.

"Our first judge, the backbone of our UNISTAR

project...Producer Nattakorn, or as we all know him — PD
Kwang!"

PD Kwang walked in from one side of the stage. The

audience cheered for him. Evidently, even the PD had his
own fans.

"And now, please welcome...The UNISTAR members!"

Here it goes — the real screaming from the audience.

P'Sea, P'Leo, P'In, P'Natee and P'Wayu then entered from the
other side of the stage, wearing their UNISTAR uniforms.
They stopped in the middle of the hall and sat on the seats
prepared for the judging panel. All members were styled
with perfect hair and makeup, they looked as if they were
glowing.

I glanced at P'In. Probably because I hadn't seen him in so

long, but he looked thinner than before. I was worried. Was
he too busy to take care of his own diet?

Our eyes met. His expression was strange. Normally, he was

always emotionless, but today he looked so gloomy. I
wondered if something was bothering him.

All the candidates then went backstage. The next part was
the presentation of our short introduction video and talent
performance. We were given 5 minutes each to perform.

My queue was in the middle, while Oat and Sun were the
very last ones.

I was waiting, feeling both nervous and panicked. All the

candidates would be performing the same type of
performances they did during their University's Moon
contest. And most of their performances were singing,
dancing, or martial arts.

Until it was my turn...

"Hello everyone! My name is Archawin. I'm the Wind

Moon..."

I was startled when I realised that my video was being

played.

In this video, I talked about myself, my life and my studies.

The MW staff had recorded it at my university.

"I used to be a fading person. Before, I was barely

noticeable. The security guard always ignored me. Even the
cashier couldn't see me..."

The audience laughed at my story.

"But my life changed, because I met so many good friends

and seniors and I got the opportunity to become the
University Moon, and now I'm here, at the UNISTAR contest."

Then, the video cut to scenes where I participated in the

events and activities during the workshop of the UNISTAR
contest.
"I wish to be the Wind Moon, because I feel that the wind
would blow away the mist and clouds, allowing the light to
shine through on a bright future. I want to be an inspiration
for everyone to pursue their dreams. If even a fading person
like me has the chance of becoming the Moon, I believe that
anything is possible. I'd like to pass my aspirations to
everyone. To encourage them to keep fighting for their
dreams and never give up!"

When the video ended, the host invited me to the stage.

"Please welcome N'Archawin Deshsakul, XU Moon. And

today, he will perform a 'general knowledge' performance."

"Three judges, PD Kwang, Leo and Natee, will be asking him

various questions. N'Archawin will have 10 seconds to
answer each question. After a judge asks a question, they
will press the button on the table to start the timer."

The audience applauded as I walked to the stage.

"Sawaddee krub. I'm Archawin from XU University. I'd like to

present my general knowledge as a special talent
performance. The judges can ask me any general questions
about any topic. I'll answer each question within 10
seconds."

I delivered the script I had practised more than ten times. I

was very nervous. This stage was way bigger than the one I
stood on during the University Moon contest. My heart was
beating so fast due to both excitement and nervousness.

"Let me start first..." P'Leo said, with the cheering from

DomPrince — his fan club.

"Which type of diet influences a good balance for our

health?"
After he had asked, the countdown started. I recalled all the
knowledge in my head and I remembered him mentioning
this topic on his TV program 'Diagnostics with the Medical
Moons'.

"Macrobiotic diet," I answered and added more details.

"Macrobiotic is a word of Greek origin. Macro means big, and

bios means life. The Macrobiotic diet uses organic
ingredients to cook and avoids using processed food and
equipment, such as a microwave, that could cause harm to
the body. The diet is based on whole grains, local
vegetables, beans and others. The key is to maintain the
original taste by not adding any seasoning. This diet can
help us stay healthy as well as strengthen our immune
system."

I spoke for too long, and almost didn't even breathe. Some
of the audience applauded me. As Mr. Chana said, my
performance wouldn't be attractive the second time, but I
could still prove I had deeper knowledge on certain matters.

P'Leo asked some more questions, mostly related to health

care, which I managed to answer without a hitch. Then, it
was P'Natee's turn, and his method of asking was a bit
unique.

"What's the name of this song...?" He said and hummed a

melody without its lyrics.

I was stunned for a few seconds and then I answered him. I

didn't listen to much music, but luckily for me, P'Natee only
chose famous Thai songs, so I managed to recognise them.
And if I knew more about the singer or composer, I would
also include them in my answer.
"What's a Human-Centered Design?" It was PD Kwang's turn
to ask.

"Human-Centered Design is the method of design which

focuses on human need. All products and services are
designed to solve problems by adding human perspective
into the equation..."

PD Kwang nodded and continued asking.

"Do you think the UNISTAR project has also applied this
method?"

His question tested my understanding of the subject instead

of what I memorised. So I took a few seconds to think.
Fortunately, Mr. Chana had already covered marketing
analysis in class and he often used the UNISTAR project as a
case study.

"Since the UNISTAR project prioritises the fans and develops

products based on fans' feedback. I think this method is
applied to the project. The selling point of the UNISTAR
project is 'Experience Design' by creating the brand, event
and products to meet the fans' needs, and provide them
with a unique experience. The UNISTAR project isn't just
selling an idol or brand, but it's also selling customer
experience."

"Excellent understanding." PD Kwang nodded.

Then, P'Leo and P'Natee also added a few more questions

until the time was up. I felt so relieved that I could answer
all the questions smoothly.

Next was Oat's performance. He performed a drum solo with

a complex and fast song. He also swung and threw the
sticks up in the air to show his skills. Such perfect rhythm
and amazing technique. His performance was simply
brilliant.

The show went on until it reached the last performance,

which was Sun's. He was the only person who didn't even
come to practice with us. So I had no idea what he had
prepared.

"Please welcome N'Suriyaphat Leng, XYU Moon. He will be

performing 24K Magic by Bruno Mars."

Just hearing his name, the audience screamed loudly. Then,

the lights on the stage faded before the music started
playing.

...Tonight

I just want to take you higher...

He just started singing, but the fans were already ecstatic.

...Throw your hands up in the sky

Let's set this party off right...

Then, Sun appeared in the centre of the stage under the

spotlight. He wore a suit with a headset — absolutely like an
idol.

...Players only, come on

Put your pinky rings up to the moon...

The song he was singing was an international song called

'24K Magic' by Bruno Mars. But Sun had apparently
rearranged the song to sound like a dance number. The way
he danced and sang was really eye-catching. His style,
acting, rhythm, emotion, expression, and audience
engagement were all in harmony and powerful. I couldn't
even take my eyes off him.

...Girls, what y'all trying to do?

24 karat magic in the air

Head to toe soul player

Uh, look out!...

Not only was he incredible at dancing and singing. He had

also made good use of the stage's backdrop LED screen.
Since all the contest performances must be solo, he couldn't
invite any other dancers. So, he utilised the LED screen to
project dancing silhouettes. He ensured that the silhouette
matched his dance moves to create the desired effect.

It was an absolutely marvellous and creative performance.

"I heard he choreographed the dance and rearranged the

song on his own. He also designed the graphics he used."
Oat said.

I felt so amazed. He was such a capably talented person.

His show was only three minutes long, but those three
minutes were magical. Even the UNISTAR members seemed
to have their eyes glued on his performance.

I didn't know much about his personality, whether it was

good or bad. However, I must admit that his looks and
talents were real. He was absolutely born to be an idol.

The crowd was still hyped up when his performance came to

an end. There were echoes of 'encore!' from the audience,
but unfortunately, there was no extension. Once this
performance video was published online, the views would
definitely hit a million in a week. Viewers would definitely
not stop at a single view for such an exciting performance.

I was concerned. There's a high chance that Sun would win

this year's UNISTAR contest. His performance had single-
handedly outshined the rest of the performances tonight.

"That concludes the performances from all 9 finalists. How

were they? Amazing, right?"

"And the next part will be the interview session. Very

exciting, isn't it?"

"Each candidate will step on the stage and randomly pick

the name of the judge who will ask them their interview
questions. If the candidate happens to pick a judge who
came from the same university, the candidate would need
to pick another name. The PD and UNISTAR members can
ask any questions as part of the evaluation to select the
new UNISTAR member, and your answer will affect their
judgment."

"Each candidate will have 5 minutes each."

The contest prepared a lottery jar for the candidates. Oat

was the first one up for this round. He walked up to the
stage and picked a name from the jar — the name of the
judge who would ask him the fateful question.

"P'Sea krub." Oat read the name. Along with the cheering
from DomNangnuan.

P'Sea asked him a basic question; 'Why do you want to be a

UNISTAR?' Oat said because he enjoyed playing music, he
wanted to play music for everyone. So P'Sea continued to
ask.
"Then you can just be a musician. Why do you think being a
UNISTAR is better?" P'Sea was very strict. Even Oat was a
bit stunned.

"Because I like the UNISTAR project. UNISTAR is more than

just an idol project. It can be an inspiration for young
people. And we can do so many things for our society. If I'm
a musician, I can only play music. But if I'm a UNISTAR, I can
do much more."

He answered quite well. P'Sea asked more about what he

planned to do as a UNISTAR member, and Oat gave him a
pretty good answer.

After Oat was done, other candidates went up the stage,

one by one. It wasn't my turn yet. Those who got P'Sea's or
P'Kwang's name were asked very difficult questions. They
had to think a lot, and couldn't just give a neutral answer.

If the candidates got P'In's or P'Natee's name, it was quite

easy. Because P'In and P'Natee didn't seem as concerned as
P'Sea or P'Kwang, so they only asked basic questions such
as 'what do you want to do as a UNISTAR?', 'why do you
think you are suited to become a UNISTAR?', 'what is the
strongest point of the UNISTAR project?' or 'do you have any
ideas on how to improve the UNISTAR project?'. Sun had
also picked P'Natee, so his questions weren't that difficult.

For P'Wayu, well, at least he didn't make any lame jokes.

However, he did still go off topic, asking things like 'which
brand do you want to represent?', or 'have you ever
watched this advertisement from UNISTAR? Do you like it?'

However, no one could be as epic as P'Leo. Even during last

year's contest, whoever got P'Leo's name must prepare
their hearts to give up and go home. Because he didn't ask
general questions. Instead, it was more like a psychological
question. Seemingly, he wanted to test the candidates to
see how they would answer under pressure. I had a feeling
that P'Leo had researched all candidates' backgrounds.

During the contest, there were two candidates who got

P'Leo's name. P'Leo asked one candidate about how his
parents didn't agree for him to become an idol, and how he
would solve the issue if he came out as the winner tonight.
That guy said he would prove his parents wrong with his
success. However, P'Leo kept asking what if his parents still
wouldn't acknowledge it? Was there any guarantee that his
personal problem wouldn't trouble other members and
staff? And that candidate almost cried on the stage as a
result.

Another candidate was even worse. P'Leo just directly

brought up the fact that he used to bully a classmate during
middle school and even caused that classmate to be
admitted to the hospital. P'Leo asked him "why do we need
to accept someone like you in the UNISTAR project?"
Consequently, that candidate just stood frozen without
saying a word until time was up. I figured he received zero
points for the interview part.

Once all the other candidates were done with their

interviews, it was now my turn.

"And now for the last candidate, please welcome Archawin

Deshsakul, XU Moon!"

I took a deep breath and walked up to the stage. I would

need to pick the name of the judge who would ask me my
question.

I held my breath and picked a name. Who would it be?

'Please not P'Leo...not P'Leo'

I begged. It was too scary. Even if I got P'Sea or PD Kwang, it
would still be better. I wouldn't mind being asked a very
difficult one, but I didn't want to face a psychological
question from P'Leo.

Nevertheless, the name in my hand was...

'Leo UNISTAR'

"It's P'Leo." I said.

'Oh no, I'm done. Why am I so unlucky?' I cried in my heart.

"Hello, N'Archawin. Are you ready?" P'Leo spoke through the

microphone. And other judges' microphones were turned off,
in order not to interrupt or help the candidate.

"I'm ready." I nodded.

The timer was started.

"First, I'd like to tell you not to think too much about what
I'm going to ask. It's only a test, just like the other
candidates."

I felt myself sweating as he said that.

"I saw your introduction video. You said you wanted to be a

UNISTAR because you wanted to be an inspiration for
people..."

He paused for a while and continued with a serious tone.

"Really? Is that the real reason? Or..."

P'Leo looked curious.

"Or do you just want to be a UNISTAR because you want to
be with N'In?"

I was so shocked. The audience broke into noisy murmurs.

Even PD Kwang and other UNISTAR members looked at him
in surprise. P'In as well.

No one expected P'Leo to ask this sort of question. The

question should be cleared since MW had given the public
interview.

"Tell me. Since I asked you directly, I hope you'll be honest."

P'Leo said with a smile. His smile implied so many things.

He had already told me that it was just a test. I quickly got a

hold of myself.

Right. It was just an evaluation question for the UNISTAR

contest.

Although I didn't understand why he asked this, I knew that

my answer would determine whether I could be a UNISTAR
or not.

There was no right or wrong answer, it just depended on

how the judging panel would judge it.

I had no idea what kind of answer P'Leo was expecting from

me.

As for me, I thought deeply.

'What is my answer?'

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Chapter 35 : The Liberated
Moon

Invisible Moon

Chapter 35

The Liberated Moon

"Sometimes, standing on the ground,

is more liberating than hanging in the sky."

#WINisWIND

'The reason I want to be a UNISTAR is because I want to be

with P'In.'

This was my honest answer.

But, how could I say it?

I could simply say that I wanted to be a UNISTAR for other

reasons, other than P'In. I could create any reasons in
flowery sentences, making everyone wholeheartedly trust
me, believe in me, and be impressed with me.

I would probably gain more votes. I might even win and

become the new UNISTAR member.
I just needed to say it.

However...

Why was it that when I tried to say it, my voice seemed to

disappear? I couldn't even say a word.

Because my honest answer was the total opposite.

"The clock is ticking, N'Win." P'Leo pressured me.

I looked at P'In. He seemed to worry, the expression in his

eyes was complex. Then he gave me a sign by shaking his
head.

I was stunned. P'In was implying that he wanted me to deny

P'Leo's accusation.

However, just thinking of rejecting my honest feelings

caused me to feel so much pain.

"I don't..." I tried to speak out, but my words were stuck.

I was trying to say: 'P'In is not the reason I want to be a

UNISTAR.' But I couldn't, since it wasn't the truth.

Right. Before, I thought I wanted to be under the spotlight, I

wanted to be the light for other people. If I became the
Moon, I would like to be as good as P'In. But when I had
realised my real feelings towards P'In, I knew that I wanted
to be with P'In more than I wanted to become a UNISTAR.

I could probably lie to everyone else, but I couldn't lie to

myself.

If I won and became a UNISTAR, then what would be next?

I would have to carry the baggage of this lie forever.

I've realised this for a long time now, and it had burdened
me since I did that interview claiming that I wasn't gay and
had never thought about dating P'In. I had lied to everyone
all along.

'I'm sorry P'In. I'm sorry to everyone who is cheering for me.
I might disappoint all of you. But...I'll take responsibility for
that.'

No more lies.

I closed my eyes.

I would take it all on my own.

"Yes. P'Leo. You're right."

I decided to answer. Amidst the shock of the audience.

P'In widened his eyes, as did other UNISTAR members

except P'Sea, who was smiling slightly, and P'Leo, who was
still indifferent.

"This means that you really want to be with N'In, right?"

P'Leo asked, confirming.

I tried to get a hold of myself.

"Before, I used to be a fading person. I used to dream about

being under the spotlight like the Moon. That was until I met
P'In. P'In was my inspiration, he made me value myself. He
made me realise that if we believe in ourselves, nothing is
impossible. At first, I truly wanted to pass the light I had
received from P'In, to inspire other people. Like P'In had
once said; the happiness that is passed on to others, will be
the happiness that lasts forever."
My eyes met P'In's. There were so many expressions in his
eyes.

"But..." I continued. "After I got to know P'In better, I

realised that my feelings were beyond simple admiration."

"You like N'In?" P'Leo asked directly.

My hands were trembling, but I ignored everything that

surrounded me. I only listened to what my heart said.

"I'd like to apologise to everyone. Up to this moment, I

haven't been truthful and P'In even did an interview to
protect me. At that time, I was afraid I'd disappoint
everyone. However, even though the problem has been
solved, I've not been happy."

I felt very hurt.

"I like P'In." My voice was quivery. "He isn't just my senior. I
like P'In, who is my inspiration, my power, and my
happiness. I could be myself every time I was with him."

I looked at P'In. P'In looked so shocked. I heard vociferous

curses from P'In's fans. But I could only pull myself together.

P'Leo nodded after hearing my answer. He glanced at the

DomKati area, which had turned very chaotic before turning
back to me.

"Do you realise that your answer will make people hate you,
and you could lose this contest?"

"I do." I said firmly. I could barely hold the microphone.

"Then why do you still insist on giving that answer?" P'Leo

asked again.
"Because..." I said.

"I could lie to everyone, but I can't lie to my own feelings. I

really can't do that."

I paused for a while. It was such a difficult time, and I really

wanted to escape from here.

"If I lied and ended up winning, this lie would burden me for
the rest of my life, or until one day when I couldn't lie
anymore. So I decided that it's better to lose everything
now, even if the whole country would hate me. Because in
the end, I won't regret being honest with myself."

"Do you think it's worth it? Telling the truth, but losing
everything. Is it really worth it?"

P'Leo kept asking. So I shook my head.

"It isn't worth it at all." I was trembling.

"I just couldn't lie anymore. Because...I've never been happy

because of it."

I was on the verge of tears. No! I shouldn't cry here.

I glanced at P'In. His expression was so restless and serious.

Then I realised I shouldn't implicate him with this issue.

"But P'In isn't involved in this," I said hurriedly.

"P'In always treats me as his little brother." I couldn't hold

my tears back any longer.

"P'In doesn't like me. He has never thought about me that

way. P'In is a very nice person. He has never rejected me or
felt annoyed with me. Everything is my fault. I'd like
DomKati to understand this. If everyone thinks I'm
troublesome, from now on, I'm willing to stay away from
P'In."

P'In looked at me in confusion and quickly shook his head

again. But I wasn't sure what P'In was implying, whether he
didn't want me to speak anymore, or he didn't like what I
said. I continued nonetheless.

"What I've said today is my honest feelings. I'd like to

sincerely apologise to everyone, including those who were
cheering for and encouraging me. If it makes everyone hate
me, I'll accept the consequences. A liar like me does not
deserve to be a UNISTAR, let alone be with P'In. I should
know my place. I'm very sorry!"

After I finished talking, there was a loud noise from the

crowd but I could barely catch a word. PD Kwang's
expression turned serious. P'Natee and P'Wayu seemed very
shocked. Only P'Sea and P'Leo seemed unfazed.

"What? N'In?..." P'Leo turned to speak with P'In, but we

could still hear some of his voice through the mic.

I saw P'In impatiently discussing something with P'Leo. But

they were too far away from me, so I couldn't hear what
they were talking about.

P'Leo then raised his eyebrows.

"You want to talk to N'Win?" P'Leo spoke with a smile.

"Sorry, N'In. I'm still interviewing N'Archawin. Other than

me, no one else can comment or help the candidate."

P'In frowned. He turned back to me, worried and concerned

apparent on his face.
"The last question," P'Leo asked me again.

"Based on what you said, it sounds like you have already

given up on becoming a UNISTAR?"

I forced myself to smile.

"For me. P'In and UNISTAR are like the light, giving me the
strength to stand here. If I were the one to destroy that
light, to destroy the fans who supported that light, then how
could I pursue this path...?"

I bowed my head to the judging panel and audience.

"This is my honest opinion. From now on, no matter what

will happen. I...Archawin will be responsible for everything
I've done, and I'll accept any judgement."

"Understood. Thank you." P'Leo said.

Now that my interview part had ended, the audience's

chaotic screaming became more prominent. The host
hurriedly took over to calm the crowd.

"Thank you N'Archawin for the interview. Next, the judges

will decide the score. The UNISTAR website has already
provided the additional votes for every account. Everyone
can vote now."

"Let's take a short break with our sponsors, and we'll be

back with the results later."

The 10-minute break was actually given so that the

contestants and UNISTAR members could rest for a while. I
saw P'In hurriedly stood up and talked to P'Sea, who looked
a bit surprised. Then, they both went somewhere else to
talk.
PD Kwang was discussing something with P'Leo. But I had
no idea what they were talking about.

"Win! Are you crazy?" Oat rushed towards me.

"You like P'In? But why do you have to say that? Are you
okay?" Oat seemed very concerned about me.

"No, I'm not okay." I said.

I couldn't stand it any longer. I suddenly cried out. Oat was a

bit surprised, but he hurriedly consoled me. Other
candidates saw me crying and looked at me with pity.

"It will be fine. Don't think too much. Everything will end
once the results are revealed." Oat patted my shoulder.

I couldn't help but cry. Oat gave me a pack of tissues and a

staff came to call us when it was time to go back to the
stage.

We were standing on the stage, and the UNISTAR members

were already back in their seats as well. I saw that P'In's
expression was calm now. However, he didn't take his eyes
off me. But I was the one who couldn't face him.

After this day, I don't think I would even dare to talk to him
anymore.

"We're back with the National Moon — UNISTAR Contest 5th

Generation!"

"Right now, we have already collected all the scores from

the judges. Before we close the online vote, let's see the
scores given by the judges."
It was the same as last year. When the judges' score was
announced, the screen would show the name of the
contestant who received the highest score from each judge.

It's almost like each judge would personally choose the best
candidate they think was most suitable to become a
UNISTAR member. Last year, P'Leo and PD Kwang gave
P'Wayu the highest score, while P'Sea and P'In chose
P'Natee.

However, the UNISTAR members couldn't give any scores to

the candidates from their own universities. So P'Leo and
P'Natee couldn't give any scores for Oat, while P'In and
P'Wayu couldn't choose me. So the 30% from UNISTAR
members would only be calculated from the members from
other universities instead.

"Please show the highest scores from each judge."

The screen on the stage then displayed each UNISTAR

member's name, including PD Kwang.

Then, the names of chosen candidates were shown.

As soon as the names appeared, the audience broke into

fervent cheers. I saw the screen and blinked, again and
again, until I realised that I didn't have a visual illusion.

Because the scores were...

Highest score of candidates from each judge:

PD Kwang : Win (XU)

Sea : Sun (XYU)

Leo : Win (XU)

In : Sun (XYU)

Natee : Win (XU)

Wayu : Sun (XYU)

How was it possible? I could barely believe it. I received the

highest score from three of the judges!

Even with that sort of answer? Why? I was full of doubt.

I looked at the judges in shock. P'Leo and PD Kwang smiled

at me. However, P'In seemed to be stressed.

"The highest scores have already been revealed," The host

said.

"Let's listen to the comments from each judge. Why did you
give this candidate the highest score? Let's start with PD
Kwang."

PD Kwang looked at me and said.

"I chose N'Win, because he reminded me of myself in the

past. I also used to be an ordinary person, without any
special talent. N'Win had taken so much effort to change
himself, even more, he wasn't afraid to do what most people
lack the courage to do, so I am very impressed."

"Although I always say that the UNISTAR project focuses on

the image, I still want to see the idols who aren't afraid to
tell the truth. Because this type of person can make people
trust him. I believe N'Win can have a bright future. I wish
you success in everything."

I was very amazed by his words. I couldn't believe that he

was able to see the good points in my risky answer. It was
almost unbelievable.

"Next, Khun Leo, UNISTAR." The host said.

"Like I said before asking, my question was just a test,"

P'Leo said.

"Because I think, one day, no matter who becomes a

UNISTAR, there will be more people who both love and hate
you. Sooner or later, even if I didn't ask you today, people
would ask you someday anyway. It might also be in public
with hundreds of thousands people watching you like today.
All UNISTAR members had been through this already."

"If you couldn't even answer it today, you are not ready to
become a UNISTAR member. Just imagine, what if one day
you're facing the same situation as today, what would you
do? You might lose your fame, you might be afraid to be an
idol, or you might want to quit, but it would be too late.
However, if you can answer, it means that you have nothing
to fear in this idol path."

P'Leo looked at me with a serious gaze.

"For N'Win. Even though I asked that question, honestly, I

didn't expect him to be this honest, which truly impressed
me. Some people call the world of idols 'the illusion',
because many things you see may not always be the truth.
It all depends on how the media, agent, or idol wants you to
see them. However, N'Win isn't like that. He decided not to
follow the social trend nor the illusion but instead, he chose
to be honest to himself and his fans, which is really rare in
the idol world..."

P'Leo smiled at me and continued.

"If N'Win wins, his honesty will strengthen the image of
UNISTAR. Because we are brand ambassadors. The UNISTAR
project had already built many unique images, but no one
could build an outstandingly honest image like him. Thus,
for me, he is exactly the one UNISTAR we have been looking
for. I wish you good luck."

I couldn't believe what P'Leo said. During the interview part,

I was afraid of P'Leo. But after he explained all his reasons, I
was amazed by his thoughts. Also, I felt so appreciated that
he accepted me.

"What about Khun Natee? What do you think?" The host

asked.

"I agree with P'Leo." P'Natee said. "N'Win is so amazing! He

dares to admit his feelings. How can we control our love?
How can we decide to like or not to like someone? Take a
dog for example, can it even choose to be born as one?
Someone was even born like a dog[1]..."

Although P'Natee's metaphor was a bit rude, it was straight

to the point. Some people in the audience even laughed.

"Love is more uncertain than the lottery. If you love the right
one, you win. If you love the wrong one, you lose. So I really
get it. I'm impressed that you could openly admit your love
for someone, even if it's someone you shouldn't. You're
brave! You're not afraid to be honest, nor are you afraid to
lose. You're just facing it with courage! You're truly
amazing!"

P'Natee gave me a thumbs up.

"I want to say, even if you're not the winner for today,
you've won my heart!"
P'Natee declared it so clearly, followed by the cheering from
DomHusky. His words were so empowering, I felt
encouraged.

"Next, what about the judges who chose Sun? Khun Wayu,
please let us know what you think." The host said.

"N'Sun's performance was very impressive. It was

incredible. I was really into his performance. It's so rare for
me to admit someone as an idol at first sight, but I can say,
N'Sun was born to be an idol."

P'Wayu applauded Sun. I totally agreed with him, but then

he continued...

"Actually, I wanted to choose my own university, but I

can't."

His last statement earned him a glare from PD Kwang.

However, P'Wayu's fans didn't seem to be disappointed with
this. Well, the good-looking person was always right anyway.
Especially for a lame joker like P'Wayu, no one would take
his words seriously.

"Thank you krub, Khun Wayu. How about Khun In? Why did
you choose this candidate?"

It was now P'In's turn, somehow he didn't look quite well,

but he still did his job.

"N'Sun is very talented, creative, and outstanding." That

was all P'In said and nothing more.

"Uh...what about Khun Sea?" The host was a little taken

aback that P'In finished his line too fast. So he moved on to
the last judge, P'Sea.
"The reason why I chose N'Sun." P'Sea said.

"First, because he gave us a marvellous performance. I dare

say that everyone would think the same. His performance
was the best show in this contest..."

Many in the audience supported what he said — mostly

from DomNangnuan and Sun's fan club.

"Second..." P'Sea continued. "Because Sun is an exceptional

talent. If he wins the contest, his popularity will strengthen
the fan base for UNISTAR...And the last reason..."

I was surprised that he still had another reason.

I noticed P'Sea glancing at P'In with such a sneaky

expression.

"Just...If I didn't choose N'Sun, somebody would probably be

sad."

His words were very vague. I didn't get what he meant and I
doubt other people would catch it either. However, the host
just nodded and got on with the show.

"As we've already heard what the judges had to say, it's
time to...close the online vote. While we're waiting for the
calculated score, I'd like to thank all the sponsors who
supported the UNISTAR project..."

"This contest is produced by MW Entertainment and MWTV,

supported by MW enterprises; MW Electronic, Maxwell
Apparel, Molly Welly cosmetic, Mary Wille real estate &
hotel, Marcus Willis Automobile, Mawerick Sport-wear,
Mineral Wales Malls, and other partners..."
"Thank you to the universities all over Thailand for
supporting the UNISTAR project. Finally, and most
importantly thank you to all Unity who supports us. This
UNISTAR project is only possible because of all of you. Thank
you so much!"

I was stunned when I heard all the sponsor names. MW was

indeed extraordinarily diverse and the UNISTAR members
were the brand ambassadors for all of them.

While waiting for the results, the host announced the

rewards that the winner and the runner-ups would receive.
Then, PD Kwang thanked the audience and contestants. He
wished all of us good luck.

"And now, the result is already in my hands. Please welcome

PD Kwang to the stage to present the rewards to tonight's
winners."

The hall fell silent, everyone was looking forward to finding

out who would be the next UNISTAR member. PD Kwang
walked up to the stage and stood beside us.

"Starting from the second runner-up..." The host opened the

score paper in his hands.

"...with a score of 15.22%"

Everyone here anxiously waited for the announcement.

"Congratulations to...N'Oat Suphachai, QU Moon!"

Oat's name was announced and the audience cheered for

him. Oat was second runner-up! I clapped my hands loudly. I
was so happy for him.
Oat stepped out of our line, smiling happily. He received a
blue sash with 'Second Runner-Up, UNISTAR 5th Generation'
written on it as well as an award plaque and a cash prize of
300,000 Baht. PD Kwang presented the rewards himself.

"Next...if I call your name, please step back."

Then, the host announced six names in a row, one by one. I

waited for my name, but didn't hear it. In the end I realised
that only me and Sun were left standing in the front.

"And now...we are down to these two candidates...and one

of them...will be the 5th generation UNISTAR!"

The scream from the audience was uncontrollable at this

point. I was so surprised. What? Me and Sun? We're up
against each other for the UNISTAR title? I almost couldn't
believe it.

"I'd like to invite all UNISTAR members on the stage to

welcome your new member together."

Then, the pathway to the stage lit up and connected the

judges' podium to the main stage. So every UNISTAR
member could walk to the stage gracefully. The host stood
between Sun and I while the UNISTAR members lined up
behind us. I didn't have a chance to look at P'In.

"Each year, from all the shining Moon upon the sky, we
select the shiniest one as our UNISTAR member."

"And tonight...I'll announce the name of the new superstar,

who will join the UNISTAR — The National Moon project..."

I closed my eyes, trying to stay calm and listen to the

announcement.
Well. It didn't seem like I had to wait too long nor expect too
much.

"And the winner, with the highest score of 31.11%, the 5th
generation UNISTAR is..."

The host paused for a while, heightening the anticipation for

everyone here as well as the audience watching online.

"Congratulations to...N'Sun Suriyaphak, XYU Moon!"

The host announced, immediately followed by an

overwhelming cheer from the audience, especially from
Sun's fan club. Confetti and glitter were shot on the main
stage to congratulate the winner.

Sun smiled brightly. He walked forward to receive his

reward. He was awarded a plaque in gold colour with the
UNISTAR logo on the top. He also received a cash prize of
1,000,000 baht. And the most significant part, the winner
would receive the UNISTAR uniform to wear on this stage,
while the runner-up would only get the sash.

PD Kwang brought the UNISTAR uniform for Sun, it was a

blue outer suit with golden embroidery decoration and the
moon-star brooch. This would confirm that Sun had officially
become one of the UNISTAR members from now on.

When Sun wore the UNISTAR uniform, Sun raised his trophy
up amidst the cheering and applause from the audience.

And me...I was clapping my hand behind him.

I...didn't win as the UNISTAR.

Well, I didn't feel bad about it at all, as I already knew it

since the interview part. I had never thought I would come
this far anyway.

"And for the first runner-up, with a score of 30.42%..."

"Congratulations! N'Win Archawin, XU Moon!"

I won the second prize! I almost forgot that I had won

second place. I was both excited and surprised.

I walked forward, hearing the continuous applause. PD

Kwang gave me the 'First Runner-Up, UNISTAR 5th
Generation' sash with an award plaque and the cash prize.

"Congratulations!" PD Kwang smiled at me.

After the results had been announced, the host then made
the closing speech, thanking all the fans and audience. We
then had a group photo together. Even though the contest
had ended, the MWTV live feed was still on. The staff were
still recording the scene after the contest, and most fans
were still in the hall because the UNISTAR members were
still on the stage.

While I was taking photos with Oat, Sun and the sponsors. I
saw P'In talking to the host.

"Can I use the mic?" P'In asked. The host seemed to be

confused, but still handed him the microphone.

"What are you doing?" PD Kwang noticed that and asked.

"I'm sorry, P'Kwang." P'In raised his hands to salute PD

Kwang guiltily, then he looked at me.

At first, I almost avoided eye contact because I felt too

guilty and ashamed to face him.

Nevertheless, P'In smiled at me, as if he was relieved.

'Is he smiling for me?'

I widened my eyes. It was so rare to see his smile. And it

was such a gentle smile that I had never seen before.

"I'm sorry for interrupting. I'm IN, UNISTAR, I'd like to say
something."

When the fans heard P'In's voice, they seemed to be

confused. Everyone on stage paused to turn to him as well.

"I need to say this now, because I don't know if I'd have a
second chance," P'In started with his signature monotone,
but his expression was very serious.

"I'd like to apologise to everyone who has supported me to

this day. Until now, I'm glad to be a UNISTAR. I'm happy that
everyone accepted me, happy to receive the love from
everyone..."

P'In bowed his head to the audience, as if he was about to

do something unforgivable.

"But, I can't follow everyone's expectations anymore. I can't

keep my image as a UNISTAR member any longer."

P'In bowed his head again and said firmly.

"I'll quit UNISTAR."

His surprising announcement caused a sudden outburst of

incomprehensible cries from everyone in this hall, even
louder than it was during the winner announcement,
especially from DomKati.

"Wait, N'In? What are you doing? Stop!" PD Kwang seemed

so shocked. He was trying to stop P'In, but P'In just ignored
him and continued.

"I know, everyone would feel bad because of me, everyone

would be disappointed. But I don't want to hide it anymore. I
can't lie to myself either...Because I..."

Now, P'In turned to me with such a warm smile.

"I like Win too."

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Footnote :

[1] 'Born like a dog' is a Thai idiom which refers to

someone who behaves very badly. It is impolite to use this
idiom in general.

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Chapter 36 : The Happy
Wind

Invisible Moon

Chapter 36

The Happy Wind

"The free wind was happy,

the freed moon was too."

#WINisWIND

After P'In announced his withdrawal, the hall turned chaotic.

At first, I was so shocked when P'In said he would quit

UNISTAR, and I was even more shocked when he confessed
his feelings.

However, when my eyes met P'In's, his words — saying that

he liked me – as his eyes looked at me warmly. I felt like
everything that surrounded me gradually faded away until I
couldn't hear anything anymore.

As if this world only had the two of us.

Me and P'In.
While I was looking at P'In, my heart was racing, as if there
were a flower blooming in my chest. All kinds of burdening
emotions were gone, replaced with a new, brighter feeling.

Once I knew both of us had the same feelings I felt so

happy, as if my body were floating along in the cloud,
surrounded by the stars, full of light sparkles and rainbows. I
had never felt this happy before.

P'In's eyes were even warmer than the sunlight.

As if he passed his feelings towards me through his gentle

eyes.

We both had a crush on each other. I wasn't alone, I didn't

have to face this problem alone. I wasn't left by myself in
this lonely world. P'In would stand by me, and he would
never leave me.

A few minutes ago, I was so confused and frightened, like I

was walking alone in the darkness. When I thought there
was no exit, I suddenly received the light from him, the light
with hope and trust, lighting my way back home.

We both were falling for each other, forgetting the world

surrounding us.

"N'In, we need to talk." PD Kwang's voice brought me out

from the reverie. Among the chaos, PD Kwang led P'In
backstage. And the host took over the situation.

"By popular demand, we have a very special show tonight!

With such an impressive performance from our brand-new
UNISTAR member, we're inviting N'Sun, the latest member
of UNISTAR to perform an encore stage of '24K magic' to
close our show."
Although Sun's fans seemed very excited about this, it still
couldn't unwind the chaos among DomKati and other
fandoms. However, the host already did his best to divert
the audience's focus to Sun instead.

After that, everyone left the stage, leaving Sun to perform.

I had no idea where P'Kwang and P'In went. I didn't see

them at all. I was very worried about P'In. What he had done
would impact him a lot.

"N'Win." P'Leo was the first one who talked to me.

"I indeed like your genuineness," P'Leo said. "Unfortunately,

we can't work together as UNISTAR. But I still hope we can
cooperate someday in the future."

"Thank you krub, P'Leo." I raised my hands to pay respect

sincerely. P'Leo received my respect and was about to leave,
but he just remembered something.

"Oh, about the interview. I'm very sorry. I might have hurt
you a lot." P'Leo seemed to feel guilty about it.

"That time, when N'In asked me if he could talk to you

during the interview, I already knew what he wanted, but I
think it's better to let you two talk about this in private."

Then, P'Leo left. I was pondering about what he told me.

"Hey! Google boy!" P'Natee called me. "Don't give up!

Fight!"

"Thank you krub, P'Natee."

It was the first time that I talked with P'Natee in person. I

felt a bit awkward because he always used direct words, not
really polite nor gentle. I might need some time to adapt
myself.

"Hey! Dog! Go take care of your puppy." P'Wayu pointed to

Oat.

"This is my little bro. Go away."

P'Natee suddenly stared at P'Wayu hostilely, but he just left

without arguing with P'Wayu. When the 'dog' was gone,
P'Wayu seemed much happier, and turned to me.

"Wow! I couldn't believe P'In did that. Whatever it is, I'm

always on your side. Everything will be fine, trust me."

"Thank you krub, P'Wayu. You're always supporting me."

"Of course! I'm a good person, right? Unlike some dog

around here." P'Wayu laughed.

"Hey! I heard that, No-eye." P'Natee said. He was standing

there, still within earshot.

"Did you hear a dog barking?" P'Wayu pretended like he

didn't hear anything.

When it comes to P'Natee, P'Wayu would always be a

hothead.

"Fool! There's no dog here. You're such a No-eye indeed."

P'Natee snapped back.

"Hey! Dog. Can you just stop interrupting?" P'Wayu argued.

"Then, can you stop being a No-eye?" P'Natee raised his

eyebrows.
"F*** you, dog! Even if I had no eyes, have I ever stepped
on your tail? And I have eyes, they just aren't big!"

Both of them kept arguing like that and I could only watch
them helplessly until Oat pulled me away from there.

"You'll be okay, Win. Everyone will understand you. Don't

pressure yourself too much."

"Thank you, Oat." I was so happy that many people

encouraged me.

"Hi Win. It's not bad today, right? You made it fun to watch."
P'Sea smiled, and I widened my eyes.

"Can I talk to Win personally?" P'Sea asked Oat, and he

nodded.

"Come here." Then, P'Sea led me to an empty dressing room

nearby.

"What do you want to talk about?" I was curious.

"You might've already become a UNISTAR if IN didn't ask

me."

"Huh? P'In asked?" I blinked.

What did P'In ask P'Sea? I remembered that during the

break, P'In went to talk to P'Sea. Still, I had no idea what
they were talking about.

"I've already helped out. Your score was only 1% less than
Sun, which means you are the true winner."

"Wait. P'Sea! What did P'In ask you to do?" I was confused.

P'Sea looked at my eyes and grinned.

"He just didn't want you to win the UNISTAR contest."

"Huh?" I didn't get it. "Why?"

"Because IN couldn't give you any score, he couldn't do

anything, Wayu either. Natee always follows his emotions,
and doesn't listen to any reason. PD Kwang and Leo always
stick to their principles, work must come first. So I am the
only one who is flexible."

"Do you really not know that an Idol and a personal

relationship can't coexist smoothly?" P'Sea explained.

"IN is a UNISTAR now. If you became a UNISTAR too and the

two of you started dating, you must face your fans and
agency. If your fans are unhappy with it, if you have anti-
fans, you and N'In will be forced to break up. Although you
both love each other, you don't have much choice. The fans
and agency will always be involved."

I was shocked to hear what he said.

"According to N'In's contract, in a few months, N'In can quit

UNISTAR as he has already completed the two-year
minimum length of contract period. Even though his
resignation will only take effect if the agency approves it, if
he is adamant, I believe PD Kwang will understand and help
him, because there is no point in forcing IN to work if he
doesn't want to."

P'Sea smiled.

"But you made it more complicated by becoming a UNISTAR

candidate. Between IN and you, having one idol would
already give the relationship a problem..."

P'Sea sighed then said.

"But now, since you didn't become a UNISTAR member, you
have a choice, and that was why IN didn't hesitate to quit."

"This is..." When I heard the truth, both my hands trembled.

I was both surprised and hurt by P'In's decision.

"Do you understand now? For IN, you are even more
important than his fame or the UNISTAR." P'Sea said.

"He's willing to do everything just for you."

I went blank, the only thing I could think of was that I had to
see P'In. I wanted to meet him.

"P'Sea krub. Do you know where P'In is right now?" I asked

restlessly.

"Whenever PD Kwang has a serious talk with any idol, he is

always in the staff room." P'Sea shrugged.

"Thank you!" I said briefly before running out immediately.

I asked a staff member where the room was and continued

running.

"Damn. Why am I so stupid?" I blamed myself.

Why didn't I notice this about P'In before?

Before, he asked whether I wanted to be a UNISTAR.

Before, he asked whether I could wait...

Before, I had never realised his true feelings.

But now, I finally understood everything. I had made him do

so much for me, but I had never even realised it.
I rushed to the staff room, and when I arrived, P'In and PD
Kwang just came out, so I stopped.

"IN...you don't need to always think of others and pressure

yourself too much." PD Kwang touched his shoulder.

"You should do something for yourself. You've given so much

happiness to your fans for almost two years. DomKati
always loves and protects you. So why don't you try to talk
to them? I think they will understand how you feel."

I heard PD Kwang consoling P'In. Then, he turned to me.

"Hi, N'Win." PD Kwang greeted me.

I felt very awkward at first, I was afraid he would be mad at

me for causing the contest to end in chaos. However, he just
smiled at me.

"You have talent." PD Kwang said. "If you are interested in

working as an idol or an artist, I'll be happy to discuss it with
you. It isn't necessary to be full-time, you can work as
freelance or part-time, no binding contracts, no rules about
personal relationships."

After that, PD Kwang looked at P'In and patted his shoulder.

"You both should talk as well, just tell him what you feel,
don't keep it to yourself."

"Thank you krub, P'Kwang." P'In said.

Then, PD Kwang just said goodbye and left.

Leaving me and P'In alone here, together.

When our eyes met, my heart raced.

"Win..." P'In called my name and moved closer.

"Yes?" To be honest, I was really shy but I pretended I

wasn't.

"What you said on the stage was wrong," P'In told me.

"What was wrong?" I was confused.

Did he mean when I said that I like him, or something else?

"You said...P'In doesn't like Win...that's not true."

His eyes were fixed on me. My face felt hot.

"You said...you don't deserve P'In...that's also wrong."

I lowered my face bashfully. I got why P'Leo said that we

should talk privately rather than let P'In say it on the stage.

"And...what is right?"

Even though I was shy, I wanted to be sure.

Perhaps, I just wanted to hear it from him. Once again.

"Hard to say," P'In said.

"Not good with words, can I show you instead?"

"Show me?" I blinked.

"Stay still." He ordered me. I nodded.

Then, P'In brought his face closer to mine. My heart raced

faster.
I wasn't prepared for this. His beautiful lips touched mine
softly.

I was stunned, my eyes instantly widened.

Since I was born, this was the first time I was ever kissed,
and by the one I liked nonetheless. I could only hear my
heart beating loudly.

His kiss was warm, soft and gentle. He tasted sweet, like the
smooth fragrance of a coconut. The kiss from the moon sent
me into a daze, my mind was floating, my body felt light.

I was sinking into a warm and happy heaven, like I was

flying in the sky surrounded by pink sparkly lights.

P'In took his lips off mine slowly, but his eyes were still fixed
on mine.

"This is right." He said lightly.

"P'In...right..."

I was still on cloud nine, so I couldn't say a thing.

"I like you," P'In said, firmly.

I blushed.

P'In said he liked me...he confessed to me, again.

And what should I reply? What should I say? This was the
first time in my life that I've ever had a crush and the best
thing was, my crush felt the same about me.

I felt very restless and didn't know what to do. I could only
stand still like this...
"Uh...P'In...well, I also..." I stammered because I was trying
to find the right words.

"Can we date?" P'In interrupted.

"D...date..."

'Yes!' This was what I should say. but I was too slow for him.

"Will you be mine?" His expression was so loving and gentle.

"...Will you?" P'In repeated.

In the end, I couldn't control myself anymore.

I suddenly hugged him tight and cried.

"P'In, I love you so much!"

I confessed with a cry. I knew it wouldn't look good, but

thinking about how tense it was before, I felt so relieved. My
love was requited, I was so happy that I cried.

I couldn't believe this day became a reality, the day that P'In
accepted my feelings.

The only thing I could do was embrace him with both hands
and cry again. These were tears of happiness.

"I love you too. Sorry for making you cry." P'In whispered
and hugged me back, patting my head softly.

"I'm okay."

It wasn't P'In's fault at all.

I felt at ease and content now. His body was warm with a
lingering coconut scent. It was a bliss to stay in his
embrace, like a sweet daydream.

"Win.." P'In called me, pulling me back to reality.

"Yes?" When I realised what I was doing, I felt very

embarrassed.

"You haven't answered." He repeated again.

"Can we date?"

"Yes, of course." I said shyly.

"Then..." P'In moved back a bit, looking at me with a serious

expression.

"Don't like someone else." P'In gave me an order.

I smiled bashfully.

"I only like you."

"Really?" He asked, his emotionless expression returning.

"Yes!" I nodded.

"So then, can we try again?" P'In looked so unbothered.

I blinked.

"Try what?"

What did he mean? Don't tell me...

"..."

I didn't get an answer because P'In just kissed me instead,

turning my body to jelly.
I suspected that P'In was already addicted to my lips, since
he kept kissing me nonstop.

My brain was so blurry. My whole body couldn't move

anymore.

My mouth was filled with the taste of coconut scent. My

heart seemed to have melted in coconut milk — by the
embrace and kiss of the Invisible Moon.

☽------------☽

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Chapter 37 : Together
With the Moon

Invisible Moon

Chapter 37

Together With the Moon

"Not wishing to be the shining moon,

just wishing to stay with the moon forever."

#WINisWIND

After the contest day, P'In and I decided to be in a

relationship. Although both of us knew that we were dating,
we didn't announce it to anyone else.

Everything that happened wasn't smooth, but it still wasn't

as bad as I dreaded. The main problem was P'In's fans, but
my family, my friends, and seniors, all of them understood
and encouraged me.

Most of DomKati were quite disappointed with P'In, as they

thought that P'In was too selfish to care about his fans'
feelings. Some of them understood how P'In felt but they
were still sad. Some asked P'In to reconsider his decision.
But everyone didn't agree with P'In's decision to quit
UNISTAR because of me.
As for other UNISTAR's fandoms, although they were
shocked that P'In would quit UNISTAR, they still supported
P'In and me. They accepted P'In's reason because they all
thought that DomKati were always overreacting about
everything that affected P'In's image and pressured P'In too
much.

Some blunt Unity even said; 'Don't you think that DomKati is
the one who forced P'In to quit?', 'P'In had no choice but to
quit.', 'DomKati will become anti-fan if he is still in
UNISTAR.', 'If P'In's boyfriend gets bullied, how can he be
happy?'.

It was like a war had broken out between DomKati and other
Unity fandoms on social media. It was the first time for me
to see the fans of the same idol group (but different bias)
fighting with each other.

MW Entertainment and UNISTAR official platforms

announced that it was still unconfirmed whether Intrakorn
would quit UNISTAR or not. They also explained that he was
tied to a 7-year contract as a UNISTAR. If he decided to quit,
the company would have to approve first. But there was no
conclusion about it yet. So, for now, Intrakorn was still one
of the UNISTAR members.

Many people criticised the announcement by MW. Some

fans commented; 'Please don't let him quit, he's such a rare
diamond', 'How can we find such a good idol like him, dating
is just a little issue', 'We must love idols for what they do
rather than their personal life.' But some fans also said; 'If
he wants to go, just let him go', 'If P'In stays, he and his
boyfriend will be unhappy'.

The only update from the UNISTAR official platforms was the
fanmeet, which would be held one week later and the
tickets were already available. It was like a UNISTAR
tradition, the fanmeet held after the UNISTAR contest was
meant to welcome the new member.

Moreover, MW also mentioned that P'In would make a

personal announcement in this fanmeet, causing the tickets
to sell out so fast. Although many DomKati were still
disappointed with P'In, they still bought them. Even people
from the other cities were eager to join. Because they were
afraid that P'In would really quit UNISTAR, and this might be
the last fanmeet where they could see P'In.

I would also be going to the fanmeet as PD Kwang invited

me to go. My seat wasn't in the audience, it was actually a
staff ticket. So I could go and watch the live event from
backstage. I could also meet all the UNISTAR members.

I was both excited and worried because after the UNISTAR

contest, P'In was busy with the rehearsals for the fanmeet
and we hadn't met since the contest day. We could only chat
on LINE messages.

IN : We can't meet now.

archawin : The agency doesn't want us to meet up, right?

IN : Yes, I'm sorry.

IN : I wanna meet you, I already asked them.

IN : But they worry about the paparazzis.

I understood the situation. Although P'In had already

announced that he would quit UNISTAR, without his
agency's approval, P'In was still a UNISTAR member.
According to the MW contract, they could control his
personal relationship. If his agency prevented us from
meeting because it would cause a negative impact, P'In
would have no choice but to follow, and I truly understood
him.

IN: How are you?

IN: I do care about you.

I smiled because of his texts. Recently, I had to be more

careful as well. The anti-fans could come to bully me
anytime, like that time when I was attacked at my
university. Although I hadn't fully become an idol like P'In
yet, MW still took care of my security. Well, I wasn't sure
whether they did it because I was dating P'In or because I
might be an MW artist in the future or both reasons.

archawin: P'In, please don't worry. P'Kwang sent the security

guards for me. It's the semester break, so I'm just staying at
home. I barely go outside.

archawin: My family takes care of my meals. If I need to go

somewhere myself, those guards will accompany me. They
always check around my house too, in case there are any
suspicious people.

archawin: But P'In. Have you forgotten? Normally, I'm

invisible too.

IN: Really? Still, take care.

IN: I gotta go now.

IN: Let's talk again next time.

archawin: Okay! Have a good day!

I really appreciated how P'In tried to find the time to chat
with me. I knew he was very busy. P'Sea even sent me a
message saying that this fanmeet was so rushed, as they
had to hold it ahead of schedule.

I laid down on my bed. I've recently been chatting with

many seniors and friends who sent me so much
encouragement. I've not been using my social media
accounts like IG or Twitter that much since the UNISTAR
contest because I received so many direct messages, both
encouraging and abusive. I realised this was common for a
life as an idol. So I kept asking myself whether I really
wanted to be an idol. I thought that perhaps, it was better to
live as a normal person. I only wish to have someone by my
side, so I wouldn't be lonely.

"Knock knock..." I heard P'Wun's voice, so I got up from my

bed and saw her standing at the door that I didn't close.

"I just wanna tell you that I've successfully bought the
tickets!" P'Wun showed the confirmation email on her
mobile phone.

"Three tickets!" I exclaimed.

"Yep! Mom and dad will be going too. I know you have to be
there, right?" P'Wun said.

"Yes, they gave me a staff ticket." I confirmed.

When talking about the fanmeet, I felt quite worried. I

couldn't even imagine what would happen that day.

"N'Win." P'Wun touched my shoulder.

"You know, mom and dad also like IN. Even if you two are
dating and may face many troubles, you're not alone. We'll
go through this together."

"P'Wun..." I'm so grateful that she was by my side.

"Of course! I'm so damn happy! Ahhh~ My little brother is

dating IN! Oh my gosh! Such a sweet dream! I could die
without regret. Who will go against you? Who will trouble
you? I'll never forgive them. I'll fight them and kick them
out! I'll start a war. I'll make sure my little brother ends up
marrying IN and the two of you will love each other ever
after and grow old together. I will build the InWin fandom,
and this fandom will last forever!"

I could only blink as she kept babbling emotionally.

Then, I laughed slightly.

"P'Wun..." I was bashful as she said we would love until

we're old.

"I'm telling the truth." P'Wun looked serious.

"Even though I like IN so much, you're my little brother. If IN

made you sad, if he dared to take your virginity and dump
you, I'll kill him!"

"What? P'Wun? M....my v...virgin..nity?" My face turned red.

"Well, if he actually did that, don't forget to tell me. Ahhh~ I

feel shy for you now~ A calm man like IN, what will he be
like when he's horny? Gentle? Or hot?" P'Wun touched her
cheeks, then ran out from my bedroom happily.

And left me standing here, blushing.

P'In...with those kinds of things? What would he be like?

I thought of his face and his body, plus some dirty
imagination...then I felt like —

"Oh no! I can't resist!"

I could only lie down and hide my face in the pillow...

That was very embarrassing!

Today was the day of the anticipated UNISTAR fanmeet and

it was my first time attending this event. This fanmeet was
on a large scale, so it was crowded and there was a lot of
traffic around here.

PD Kwang arranged for the staff to take me backstage, so I

could see how busy the preparation was behind the scenes.

"Are you N'Archawin? Please follow me."

A staff member greeted me and led me to the staff room.

When I got in, I saw that PD Kwang was already there, so I

raised my hands to pay respect.

"Sawaddee krub, P'Kwang."

"Hi, N'Win. Come sit here. Once it starts, we can watch it

together."

PD Kwang pointed to the TV screen in the room. The hall

was shown on the TV, all seats were filled with fans holding
various colours of light-sticks in their hands.

The fanmeet would begin soon.

Normally the fanmeet event wouldn't be live or fully

uploaded on official media channels. The only way to watch
it is through fancams or released highlights, which was a
way to encourage people to buy the ticket and come.

PD Kwang and I waited in silence until the screen on the

stage played the UNISTAR teaser, eliciting an excited cheer
from the audience. Especially, when P'In's photo appeared
on the teaser, the audience shrieked louder. I just noticed
that more than half of the hall was dominated by DomKati.
The rumours that P'In would quit UNISTAR might have
triggered them to flock to this fanmeet.

Afterwards, the UNISTAR members walked out to the stage

accompanied by a glamorous soundtrack. Today, everyone
wore the UNISTAR uniform. I was excited when P'In
appeared on the stage, even though I was only watching via
a TV screen. He was still as attractive as always.

As far as I knew, the activities for each UNISTAR fanmeet

would always be different, so the audience would be
surprised every time they came. There might be
performances, mini-games, talk shows, or lucky draws to
reward the fans. But the closing would always be the same -
a fan sign. The fans would line up in a queue and they could
receive a postcard with one UNISTAR's autograph from their
idol's hands.

The main highlight of today's event was welcoming Sun as a

new member of UNISTAR. He performed a dance number as
he sang to showcase his talents. The performance was then
followed by a Q&A and interview session. Most of the
questions Sun received from his fanclub were about
UNISTAR related work.

He said he had been selected to be the brand ambassador

of MW Entertainment because the company thought Sun
was an ideal model for all idols. Moreover, Sun would also
be joining P'Natee as the centre brand ambassador for a
new vehicle advertisement. After that, there were some
funny questions such as a story from his childhood, or some
weird habit. Then, there was a fun mini game.

The fanmeet took around one hour before it came to an end.

"Here, this is what I want you to watch." PD Kwang said.

I was very curious.

"That's the end of our event today." P'Leo, who was the
host, announced.

"After this, we'll give this stage to N'In. He has something

he'd like to say to everyone."

Once P'Leo finished, the rest of the UNISTAR members

moved off the stage, leaving P'In standing alone on the
stage, under the dimming lights. The audience fell silent,
everyone was waiting for P'In to start talking.

I had no idea what to expect, so I waited in anticipation with

everyone else. I could only hope that P'In would be fine.

"Hello everyone, I'm Intrakorn, the 3rd generation UNISTAR

member."

P'In spoke. His voice echoing through the quiet hall, his face
appeared on the screen in the hall and the TV screen that I
was watching. His expression was calm, but I could still see
some worries in his eyes.

"I'd like to share a story about my past that I've never told
anyone before."

I believed that everyone would be paying attention now.

"When I was young, I remember that I used to be a happy
child until I lost my father. Later, my mother also passed
away. After that, I forgot what happiness was."

P'In looked down a bit and continued.

"I got used to being pitied by many people, including my

cousins, my friends, and my teachers. I knew they cared for
me, but it reiterated my loss. I felt like I was unfortunate and
miserable. I didn't know how I should react. Since then, I
isolated myself. I left society, I didn't want to be noticed by
anyone. The next thing I knew, I was able to make myself
invisible from people."

I felt sad for him. His childhood must have been so lonely.

"I lived with my grandparents in the countryside. They

raised me with love and care. They brought me happiness
again. So I realised that I didn't need anything except to live
with someone I love forever."

I used to think that P'In was like the brightest star, but I had
never known that before he became the light for so many
people, he had been through so many things.

"But later on, my grandpa passed away. And my grandma

said old people couldn't live so long. She was already old
and someday she would leave me like grandpa did. She told
me I should open up to love somebody, who could live with
me longer."

P'In paused for a while, his expression was sorrowful.

"I didn't know what the meaning of my life was. I just knew
that I was happy living with my grandma. She brought me
happiness again after I lost my parents. So I had never
wanted anything else."
"But my grandma told me, in this world, there are so many
people who still can't find their own happiness, so if I could,
I should share this happiness with others and let them be
happy as well. That was the reason why...I decided to
become a UNISTAR back then. I wanted to fulfil my
grandma's wish. Because she made me happy, I wanted her
to be happy. In return, I could make everyone happy, and
that became the meaning of my life."

I wiped my tears which were falling.

"All this time, I never thought that I would ever meet

someone who could make me happy, until I met Win."

I was very surprised when P'In mentioned me.

"I was always invisible whenever I wanted to be alone, but

Win would always notice me. I was curious though. Even
when he saw me, I didn't feel awkward at all, instead, I felt
so relieved. I didn't understand why either. Perhaps, the way
he looked at me was so sincere, I didn't feel lonely
anymore..."

"P'In..." I murmured. I didn't know he felt this way too.

I felt the same way when I found out that P'In could see a
fading person like me.

Because I realised that I wasn't alone anymore, I could see

the value in myself. As someone could see and understand
who I truly was.

"When I got to know Win more, I felt even happier with him.
He saw me the way I really was. Win was the light for me,
full of positive energy. Whenever I stayed with Win, I was so
happy that I totally forgot how painful it was in my past."
PD Kwang handed me a tissue, as I couldn't hold myself
back from crying anymore.

For me, P'In was also my light and inspiration. I had never
expected that both of us were so similar.

"Win brought me happiness again. When I realised it, he had

already become my important person. I've...never felt this
way with anyone except my family. I wanted to have a life
with him as I've already lost my father, mother, and my
grandpa. Those people — my past happiness are gone and
would never return. So I didn't want to lose...someone I
love...anymore."

His eyes trembled, so did I.

"I know, as an idol, I shouldn't have this feeling. I did an

unforgivable thing to everyone who supported me...but...
without Win..."

He paused as he was about to cry, but he tried to hold it in.

"If I had to lose Win...I wouldn't be able to share happiness

with others anymore..."

His voice was quivering.

"I know I can't choose both idol work and relationships. I

know I'd disappoint everyone. I didn't want it to end up this
way. Now, I can only say sorry, and I don't even dare to ask
anybody to forgive and understand me..."

At that point, even though P'In hadn't finished the sentence,

his fans started shouting loudly.

"We understand!"
One voice was heard and others followed.

"I understand you!"

"You don't need to quit!"

"We'll support you!"

The fans' voices drowned every other sound in the hall, so

P'In couldn't continue his speech.

"You've already given us happiness."

His fans' voices were overwhelming.

"We want you to be happy too."

Everyone shouted, almost in unison.

"We'll support your happiness!"

P'In was stunned. It was indeed unexpected.

"Stay with us!" "Don't leave us."

"We won't leave you!"

"Please don't quit."

"We'll be together!"

His fans unanimously cheered for P'In, which made him cry
and he couldn't say anything more. Every DomKati was
standing up and shouting for P'In with the loudest voice they
could muster.

"You did your best!" "Don't cry!"

"We won't leave each other!"

After that, all other UNISTAR members went up to the stage

and hugged P'In.

"If everyone is willing to continue to support him, then N'In

doesn't need to quit UNISTAR anymore." P'Sea said, followed
by a cheering voice from the audience.

"Thank you so much, everyone!" P'Leo spoke for P'In.

"Thank you for understanding N'In. Thank you for giving him
a chance to continue being a UNISTAR and be the light for
everyone again."

I cried as well. I couldn't believe that his fans would

eventually accept him and give him a chance to become the
Invisible Moon that would never fall from the sky.

The most touching thing for me today was learning the

depth of the fans' love. The management might see the fans
as money, however, as an idol who had always
wholeheartedly showed love for his fans without thinking of
money or fame, the love that P'In received in return was
immeasurable.

Like, P'In and DomKati. Although they were disappointed in

P'In before, when they understood his reasons and feelings,
they realised this was his true happiness, and they were
willing to accept and to continue supporting him without
hesitation.

"Now do you regret not being a UNISTAR?" PD Kwang asked

me.

I smiled and wiped my tears.

"No, I don't regret it. I'm even happier." I said.

"Because now I can be with P'In. It doesn't matter if I

became a UNISTAR or not. I'm very satisfied."

"Great answer." PD Kwang smiled. "But I'm the one who

regrets that you're not part of our family."

I had no idea what to say to that. But, I thought that Sun

really deserved that spot as a UNISTAR member.

For me, being a UNISTAR member wasn't as important as

P'In. So it would be better for others who were eager and
more suitable to be a UNISTAR to win it instead of me.

A wind like me didn't need to be the moon.

It's enough that I could be by the moon's side in the sky. I

wanted nothing more.

This was my true happiness.

☽------------☽

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Epilogue : Two Invisible
Moons
Invisible Moon

Epilogue

Two Invisible Moons

"The two moons were up in the sky, among the wind and
clouds."

#WINisWIND

In a night, how many times have you looked upon the sky
and watched the moon?

For me, I did it more often than I can count.

Nevertheless, it felt different than before.

I used to dream that I would be so happy if I were the moon

high up in the sky. It would certainly be better than being the
invisible air or a rock which no one cared about.

Today, I realised that I thought wrong.

In truth, the moon that we saw from here might look shiny
and beautiful, however, no one stopped to think that the
moon in the sky had been shining for others alone, day by
day. The epitome of loneliness.

So, I didn't want to become the moon anymore.

The air was still the air, the wind was still the wind. We could
be happy just by being ourselves and didn't need to be in the
centre of attention. It's enough that we were happy and
proud to be ourselves.

What about the love story of the moon and the air?

Well, the air had evaporated, up high and became the cloud,
embracing the moon, and eventually developed to be the
wind moon. Both invisible moons stayed together, and
hidden in the sky.

This was how our story ended — Me and P'In.

One Invisible Moon was still in the sky and the other Invisible
Moon was hidden behind the clouds.

We were still in love and happy, but we didn't announce our

relationship to the public. P'In was still actively working as a
UNISTAR member. Although DomKati already knew that P'In
had a boyfriend, they still supported P'In as they always did.
Compared to before, when some of his fans used to think
that P'In might become a monk after graduating, now they
thought that he might marry me instead.

However, it wasn't a surreal fairytale. Not everyone accepted

our relationship. Some of his fans couldn't accept it, so they
quit the fandom or changed to support someone else.
Before, P'In didn't have any anti-fans, but now he gained
some. Some people still bullied me on social media, but it
wasn't often, and I had already gotten used to it.

Although some of P'In's fans became anti-fans, the number

of his fans didn't decrease at all, instead it increased steadily
as he had also become an idol for the LGBTQ community
now. P'In became the face of many LGBTQ campaigns to
support the idea that our society should treat every gender
equally.

As for me, MW Entertainment initially wanted to debut me as

an idol. They told me that my fans had increased a lot since
the UNISTAR contest. My looks and image also matched
various types of projects. I received many offers, including
participating in a boy band and acting. There was also a
director who asked me to be the main protagonist in a boys'
love series too.

Well, in the end I turned down every one of them because

P'In wasn't happy with those projects. He said if I joined the
boy group, I would have to stay in a dorm with other boys,
and P'In didn't want to see me paired up with other boys.

The boys' love series was even worse. P'In was against
projects that would involve me hugging or kissing other male
actors, let alone any love scenes. This sent PD Kwang to his
wit's end. Eventually, I worked as a freelance artist under
MW Entertainment. I would only do some part-time work
whenever I had free time. I could select the work I wanted to
do. The only condition was that I couldn't work for other
entertainment companies. So most of my work revolved
around variety shows, advertisement shoots or acting as a
supporting character in TV dramas and music videos.

I was totally fine with P'In limiting my type of work as I

understood him. Plus, becoming an idol wasn't my dream
anymore. If the situation was reversed and P'In needed to
stay in the same room with other members, or he was paired
with other male members or he acted in a love scene with
someone else, I would feel a bit jealous too.

Because of this, PD Kwang was always complaining to us. It

was quite troublesome when an idol had a personal
relationship. However, PD Kwang understood how we felt
because he said his boyfriend was a jealous guy as well.

In conclusion, our life went on smoothly. We didn't need to

talk a lot, but we could understand each other without
needing to say much. I was so happy to be his boyfriend and
if I could be with P'In forever, I didn't care whether I lived a
fading life or not anymore.

Today was Rose Day. A year has passed since I became an

XU student. I was currently in my second year, and Rose Day
was one of the biggest events at my university. Every Moon
from all faculties would give a rose with their name tags
attached to anyone who they thought was the most
beautiful.

My university was very crowded today, since a lot of Unity

came to see P'Wayu and P'In, me as well. Because I have
lived like a fading person since the UNISTAR contest ended,
people rarely saw me in public.

Even though today was an important day, I was still fading.

P'In wore our university uniform, with the UNISTAR brooch on

his chest. He was standing near the garden lake, away from
the crowd. P'In was very handsome as always, like the first
day I met him.

As if he was an angel.

P'In was waiting for me, with the rose in his hand. It was
similar to what I got last year. But somehow, the feeling
might be different. It made me excited.

"Can see?" P'In asked when I arrived.

I laughed.
"Why're you laughing?" He asked curiously.

"Nothing." I held my laugh, stood by his side and watched

the fish in the lake.

"I just recalled the first day I met you," I said.

"You said the exact same thing to me."

"Really?" P'In was thinking. "Oh, right. That time you looked
confused too."

"R...really?" I gasped. "You still remember?"

"Yes." He said.

I was impressed. We both still remembered the first time we

met.

"It's yours..."

Suddenly, P'In handed his rose to me. My heart raced.

"T...Thank you."

I took it. I felt so happy and shy. Even though I got it last year
as well, this year felt even more special.

His rose with the tag written 'IN, Business Moon, 4th year'.

"Where's your rose?" P'In asked. His eyes were fixed on the
rose in my hand, which had the tag written 'Win, Business
Moon, 2nd year'.

"Do you want it?"

"Yep." P'In didn't hide it at all, he even reached his hand

forward.
"Give me."

My face blushed.

"But...they said I should give it to the most beautiful person

for me." I was hesitant when I realised the meaning of this
rose.

"Aren't I?" P'In tilted his head, his expression as blank as can
be.

"Huh?"

Wait. Just for one rose, P'In was willing to be beautiful?

Seriously?

"You're handsome, not beautiful." I explained.

"But I want your rose." P'In didn't seem like he would give up
until he got what he wanted.

"So are you okay with the meaning?" I asked.

In truth, I was just worried if he would feel weird receiving

this rose, as it was for a 'beautiful person'.

"Why not?" P'In said. "I give you, isn't because you're
beautiful."

"Oh...?" I blinked.

He didn't give it to me because he thought I was beautiful?

P'In looked at me gently.

"I gave it to you because I like you."

He was very direct, so I lowered my head shyly.

"Last year as well?" I was bashful, I kept moving my fingers
randomly.

"That time, I thought it suited you." P'In said.

"Oh?" I was a little confused.

Anyway, P'In was this kind of person. What he said was what
he meant, nothing more. He might have said it too briefly
that we needed to interpret it.

"Then, I'll give you too." I handed the rose to P'In.

His lips curled into a smirk, then he took it.

"Give me because of what?" P'In asked.

"Because..."

I already had the answer in my mind, but it took a lot of

courage to voice it out.

"Because I want you to be mine."

Oh no. I wanted to hide myself. It was too embarrassing!

Nevertheless, P'In leaned closer to me, my face was so hot

by now.

"W...what're you doing?" My voice trembled.

"What did you say?" He asked.

"You didn't hear it?"

"I heard." He was smiling.

"But I wanna hear it again."

I immediately felt like I was melting to the ground.

"You want the rose, but I want you."

As soon as I said that, I saw the smiling moon shining in front

of me. P'In gave me a happy smile and touched my head
softly. I could feel the love from him.

"Cough! I found you!"

Suddenly, we were interrupted by someone — P'Wayu.

I had a weird feeling about this because my invisibility didn't

seem to work with P'Wayu anymore. Perhaps because he
already saw me without makeup too many times.
Consequently, P'In was also no longer invisible to P'Wayu as
well.

"N'Win krub. I'll give you my rose, as I like you the most."

P'Wayu grinned and handed me the rose with the tag written
'Wayu, Engineering Moon, 3rd year'.

I widened my eyes because it was the rose that could start a

war among DomWhai. A war that was even worse than
American football.

However, P'In blocked P'Wayu from coming closer to me.

"You can't!" P'In stared at him.

P'Wayu raised his eyebrows and smiled.

"Well, P'In. We only have one rose though, and there is no

rule that we can't give it to the same person."

"I won't let Win get it from anyone else." P'In said sternly.
P'Wayu whistled.

"Well, well, you're such a narrow minded person. You want

Win to be your exclusive fanboy?"

"No." P'In denied.

"Huh?" I didn't expect this. I thought P'In would say yes. He

didn't want me to only be his DomKati?

P'Wayu seemed surprised as well.

"Win isn't my fanboy."

P'In turned to me and then looked at P'Wayu.

"He is my boyfriend."

His words shocked me and P'Wayu.

Was P'In influenced by P'Wayu's lame jokes?

"Win." P'In called my name.

"Yes?"

"Which moon only belongs to IN?" P'In asked me with such a

serious expression.

"Uh..." I was stunned by his question. It was unexpected.

"If you answer it wrong, I'll be sad."

It was so obvious that I needed to answer this one correctly.

"The moon who is named 'Win'." I answered.

My face turned so red, even my ears were red.

"What? P'In?!" P'Wayu couldn't accept it and went frantic.

Actually, P'Wayu's lame joke wasn't any better.

"Wayu." P'In called him and pointed in another direction.

"Look at the dog."

"Huh? Dog where?"

P'Wayu turned around immediately.

"Did that Dog Moon dare to come here?"

I was also confused, as I didn't even see a single dog.

However, P'In just held my hand and rushed away from

there, while P'Wayu was distracted.

"P'In..." I exclaimed.

"Shhh..." P'In gestured for me to stay silent.

So I just smiled.

He just wanted to spend time with me, just the two of us.

I wanted to be alone with him too.

We were both holding hands and running, passing through

the group of students and crowd, but no one noticed us.

Even though both P'In and I were the University's Moon.

Even though P'In was a UNISTAR member, and I was the first
runner up of the UNISTAR contest.

The both of us could stay in the sky, hidden among the wind
and clouds.
Only the two of us together, only the two of us able to see
each other.

We were the two Invisible Moons.

Existing, but unseeable.

☽-----THE END------☽

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If you already have an MEB account, you can directly buy the
books via the MEB app by searching 'Invisible Moon' or
clicking on these website links.

If you're new to the platform, please find the instruction

guide in the next chapter.

See you there!

P.S. In case you missed it, we also have exciting

announcements on new translation projects! Check out the
announcement on my profile ;)
Guide to the MEB Platform

The Invisible Moon eBook is now available on MEB with a

20% early bird discount (promo ends on 9 May 2022).

DOWNLOAD APP

In order to read the Ebook, you need to download the MEB

app, which is available on both Apple store and Google Play.

Search : 'MEB e-book'

CHANGE LANGUAGE SETTING

The language setting on the Meb app and website are

interchangeable between Thai and English.
For website, change your language option at the bottom of
the webpage

On the app, go to: setting > general > (Language) >

select 'English'
BUYING EBOOK

There are two options to buy the eBooks on MEB: Buy

directly via the app via Apple pay or Android pay
(simplest way) 1.1 Search the book name 'Invisible Moon'
1.2 Click 'buy' and follow your app payment method

Buy via the website: www.mebmarket.com 2.1 Go to the

links

(If you can't click on the links, I add comments with

link there)

Vol.1: https://cutt.ly/yGkJLPd

Vol.2: https://cutt.ly/PGkJ0EM

2.2 Click 'Buy' and go to 'My Cart'

2.3 Click 'Go to checkout', choose a payment method, select

and press 'Checkout'
2.4 Once the payment is confirmed, your books will
automatically sync on your shelf.
READ EBOOK

All purchased eBooks can be found in the shelf tab. Click on

the book to download.

Choose one of the two reading formats provided: PDF:

designed for ipad/tablet users (fixed layout) Epub: designed
for mobile users (adjustable typeface and font size)

That's it! I hope you'll enjoy the books. Feel free to review
the books once you finish reading. We look forward to
hearing what you think about our books.

We will keep you updated once the eBooks are available on

other reading platforms. (We're currently considering
Amazon Kindle, Wattpad, ReadAWrite and others) Stay
tuned!

If you have any questions regarding how to use MEB or

purchasing, feel free to contact us.

Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/Earth.Lok Twitter:

https://twitter.com/colourfulearth Email:
[email protected]
Ebooks are available on
Kindle Amazon!

Dear DomKati,

Good news for Kindle users!

Invisible Moon ebooks are now available on Kindle Amazon!

You can search for the books in the Kindle store by typing
'UNISTAR Invisible Moon'.

Vol.1: https://www.amazon.com/dp/B09ZVNVH41

Vol.2: https://www.amazon.com/dp/B09ZVN6XL1

The book's layout format follows the standard format on the

Kindle platform. If you want to see how they look, you can
download the free samples first.

Once you finish the books, it would be nice if you could

review them. We would definitely love to hear your
thoughts~
Since this is our first time publishing on Kindle (Yep! We are
all Kindle newbies with no experience LOL), if there are any
issues about the books, or if you have any suggestions for
improvement, please don't hesitate to contact us. We will try
to resolve them as soon as possible.

Thank you so much for taking care of P'In and N'Win. We

hope you'll enjoy the books and their story (^_^) Love,

The Team

PS. We plan to publish the English translations of 'UNISTAR :

Half Moon' and 'Future From Me' by this June. We would love
to see you again in our next projects~ Thank you all for your
support <3 <3 <3