The Father Heart of God Floyd McClung
The Father Heart of God Floyd McClung
The Father Heart of God Floyd McClung
OREGON
To my dad,
I am very grateful for the help and advice of many friends who made it
possible for me to write this book.
My special thanks also to Linda Patton and Terry Tootle, who helped Lura
with the typing; to Tom Hallas, Roger Forster, and Alv Magnus for the
suggestions they made; and to Sharon Mutchler, who developed the study guide.
Thanks to Christine Alexander and Ed Sherman for their research assistance.
And I am very grateful to Dr. H.Wayne Light, who is not only a highly trained
psychologist but also my cousin and friend, for his suggestions and help in
drawing up the guidelines contained in the appendix.
Many friends encouraged me along the way when I doubted the value of the
book or my ability to finish it. I am especially grateful to Henk Rothuizen, Jon
Petersen, Arne Wilkening, Wilbert van Laake, John Goodfellow, Lynn Green,
Dr. Phil Blakeley, and John Kennedy for their timely encouragement and
counsel.
I am also indebted to Mike Saia and John Dawson, and to Last Days
Ministries, for giving permission to use portions of the tract The Father Heart of
God. *
Most of all I am grateful to the Lord, for all that is good is from Him!
A Fresh Look at God
2. A Perfect Father
Study Guide
Recommended Reading
Its my two children, Misha and Matthew, and I studied the painting, we
experienced a feeling of great sadness. It covered a very large canvas and was
painted in sweeping, childlike strokes. The tall, sticklike figure topped with a
huge, square-shaped head was portrayed in dark colors that conveyed a sense of
coldness and harshness. The beaklike nose and great protruding arms almost
made us feel as if it were a monster.
It was titled Man, but according to one of the guides at Amsterdam's Stedelijk
Museum, the original name of Karel Appel's work was My Father.
The three of us discussed the painting for a long time. What kind of
relationship did Karel Appel have with his father? Even more important, how
did that affect his view of God? We wondered if he believed in God, and if so,
did he perceive Him as a loving Father?
I have written this book because most people do not know God as a loving
Father. They do not think of Him as someone to love and trust, someone who is
worthy of their absolute loyalty and commitment. Whether a person is a
Christian or not, at one time or another everyone gives serious thought to the
question of who God is and what He is like.
Many people long to know God personally but imagine Him to be a remote,
impersonal Being who cannot be known. Others yearn for a relationship with
Him but cling to the misconception that He sits in heaven wearing a black suit
and twisting His long gray beard as He glares down seeking to judge anyone
who dares to smile on Sunday.
This book is written to give us a fresh way to look at God, and to help us deal
with areas in our lives that can hinder our relationship with Him as our Father.
We will explore how past hurts can color our concept of God and how our
earthly fathers may have unknowingly influenced our view of our heavenly
Father.
I believe that God has created us to be like Him, only on a smaller scale, of
course! He has made us to love each other, to care for His creation responsibly,
and to be secure and confident in who we are. But our selfishness and emotional
hurts hold us back from being the people our Father intended us to be.
The fact that God cares for us and offers us freedom from our selfishness and
healing for our hurts is what motivated my wife and our family to live in
Amsterdam's red light district and share His love there. That is why we lived for
three years in Afghanistan. It was there that we met Steve, who had a unique
story to tell...
He called himself Steve, but I had the feeling this wasn't his real name. His jeans
were old and bleached, not because he had bought them that way in a trendy
European boutique, but because of constant wear on the "hippie trail." He had
traveled overland from Amsterdam with a friend on the Magic Bus, a cheap but
sometimes risky travel service, and they had recently come to Kabul,
Afghanistan.
My wife, Sally, and I, along with a few stalwart friends, lived in Kabul and
ran a free clinic for the Western society dropouts who drifted across Central Asia
in search of adventure, drugs, and escape from the lifestyles they had come to
loathe. Many had been pushed to the fringes of society by rejection and a deep
sense of alienation. Nothing in their surroundings provided a sense of identity or
belonging. Steve was no exception.
In the weeks that followed, he occasionally visited us at the clinic. One day
he surprised me by asking if I wanted to hear about the happiest day of his life.
This was the first time he had volunteered to talk about himself, so I was eager
to listen.
"I'll tell you the happiest day of my life," he said as a strange smile spread
across his face. The locked-in pain and hostility erupted in a torrent of anger.
"It was my eleventh birthday. That was the day both my parents were killed
in a car accident!"
His voice seethed with bitterness. "They told me every day of my life that
they hated me and didn't want me. My father resented me and my mother
constantly reminded me I had been an accident. They didn't want me, and I'm
glad they're dead!"
In the weeks ahead I continued to try to help Steve, but lost track of him soon
after that. His pain and anger, however, remain vividly etched in my memory.
What Sally and I discovered in Afghanistan in the early 1970s was not just a
few wounded Westerners running away from their problems, but a whole
subculture of hurting people. Over the past years we have invested our lives
helping emotionally wounded people and have discovered that no level of
society is immune from the pain of broken relationships.
One upper-class young man who came to us for counseling described how his
father made him look on as he beat and stabbed his mother. A young woman told
us of the humiliations and molestations she suffered at the hands of her father,
brothers, and grandfather. Another young man confided in us that his parents
gave him to his grandparents simply because they did not want him. His
grandparents, in turn, put him in an orphanage at the age of five. There the
director beat him every Sunday if he refused to go to church. Years later he
committed his life to Christ through our work in Afghanistan, and then returned
home to express his love and forgiveness to his parents with a gift. When his
mother saw him, she cried out in rage and would not let him enter the house. A
handsome young husband wept as he shared that he could never remember
hearing the words "I love you" from his lawyer father.
Our world is plagued by an epidemic of pain. With divorce rampant and child
abuse screaming from the national headlines, it is not surprising that for many
people the concept of a Father God evokes responses of anger, resentment, and
rejection. Because they have not known a kind, caring earthly father, they have a
distorted view of the heavenly Father's love. In many cases these hurting
individuals choose to simply deny or ignore His existence.
Fresh from theological studies, John blurted out, "He is like a father."
The young man's eyes blazed with hatred. "If he's anything like my old man,
you can have Him!"
Later John learned from a social worker that the youths father had raped his
sister repeatedly and beaten his mother regularly.
Emotional Wounds
Negative childhood experience is not the only factor that can hold us back in
our understanding of God as a Father. Many people experience an emotional or
mental block when they try to call God "Father" because they do not know Him
personally. There is a difference between knowing about God and knowing Him
personally. John 1:12 says, "To all who received him, who believed in his name,
he gave power to become children of God." To become a child of God, we must
believe that Jesus Christ came as God's Son, died, and was resurrected so our
sins could be forgiven. We then need to ask Him to forgive us and to become the
Lord of our lives. When we become His children, His desire for us is that we
dedicate our lives to learning and obeying His Word and worshiping Him alone.
Other people have difficulty relating to God as Father because they have been
taught all their lives to respect Him, and to them that means addressing Him as
"Thou." To use an informal term such as "Papa' or "Father" seems disrespectful
to them. Yet the Bible teaches us to call God "Father" when we pray (Matthew
6:9). It tells us He wants to have a close, intimate relationship with us, His
children.
The story of King Saul's daughter Michal clearly illustrates the pain of a
"wounded" or "broken" spirit. Michal was raised in an environment charged with
friction and conflict.
Saul's jealousy toward the future King David led him to devise a plot to kill
him. As enticement, he offered one of his daughters as a prize to David if he
could kill 100 of Israel's enemies, the Philistines. Surely, thought Saul, David
will be killed by the Philistines and I can be rid of him forever!
It seems that Michal was moved between the men in her life like a pawn in a
chess game. Given her upbringing, it is understandable she reacted to David with
such bitterness. Her resentment exploded at the height of a victory celebration.
As the ark of the Lord came into the city of David, Michal the
daughter of Saul looked out of the window, and saw King David
leaping and dancing before the Lord; and she despised him in her
heart... And David returned to bless his household. But Michal the
daughter of Saul came out to meet David, and said, "How the king of
Israel honored himself today, uncovering himself today before the
eyes of his servants' maids, as one of the vulgar fellows shamelessly
uncovers himself!".. .And Michal the daughter of Saul had no child to
the day of her death (2 Samuel 6: 16,20,23).
Michal's response flowed from an emotional wound that had festered into
hatred. Forgiveness was the medicine that could have brought healing, but she
chose not to grant it. Spiritual and physical barrenness afflicted her for the rest of
her life.
His Heart
I can remember struggling one night with how to answer the question posed
by my then five-year-old daughter, Misha.
I told my daughter what God looks like. I told her that He looks like Jesus. In
fact, Jesus once said, "If you have seen me you have seen the Father" (John
14:9). Jesus is God in human form. We find many examples of how Jesus
revealed the Father to us in the Bible. One example of this is found when some
Jewish mothers wanted Jesus to bless their children, but His disciples thought He
was too busy, too important to be bothered by these mothers. But Jesus scolded
His disciples and told them to bring the children to Him. He took the children in
His arms and talked to them. He had time for them-He had time to listen to their
stories and hear about their games. He didn't mind getting dirty from little kids
sitting on his lap, runny noses and all. Through seeing how Jesus had time for
the little children, we learn that God has time for people. He cares, even about
the little things in life. He is patient. God the Father looks like His Son.
Jesus elevated this woman to a place of equality and value by the mere fact
that He broke social custom and spoke with her publicly. In doing so, He further
revealed what God is like. By directly discussing this woman's spiritual needs
with her, Jesus demonstrated His concern for her personally and also showed
that God the Father cares for men and women equally.
Not only was this woman a Samaritan, but she was also immoral. Jesus knew
that, yet He was not ashamed to be seen with her. He actually wanted to talk
with her. That is why He traveled through Samaria: to take time to show real
love to this one who was known for her affairs with men. He saw past the
outward hardness, the loud jokes, and the sarcasm about religion: He saw her
heart; He saw her longing for something to fill her emptiness; He saw her need
to feel loved, cared for, and special.
She in turn received His love because He had helped her "see" God in a way
she had never seen Him before. That is why Jesus came: to reveal God to us, and
to bring us to God.
I have often wondered why God chose to have us enter this world as helpless
infants. He could have devised a reproductive system that produced physically
complete persons like His "originals"-Adam and Eve. Instead, He opted to create
us as beings in process, persons who would slowly grow physically, emotionally,
and mentally, and eventually emerge as adults.
I believe that God designed us to begin our lives as babies, totally dependent
and vulnerable, because He intended the family to be the setting in which His
love was modeled. He desired that children grow up feeling understood, loved,
and accepted. Nurtured in this kind of loving, secure environment, youngsters
could develop a healthy, God-based self-esteem and see themselves as wanted,
important, valuable, and good.
Unfortunately, many homes do not meet this ideal. Countless people have
suffered hurt and rejection from their families and have had no real father figures
with whom to identify. These experiences have kept them from knowing God as
He really is and have hindered them from enjoying true intimacy with Him.
Authority
When the family dog greets you as you drive up to a friend's house, you can
sometimes tell a lot about the way it's been treated. The typical dog either
cowers away and trembles with fear or else showers you with an unwanted
display of affectiondemonstrated with tongue, tail, and dirty paws! The
browbeaten puppy that cannot be persuaded to trust you has probably been
mistreated. The exuberant critter that surprises you with a tongue-lick facial has
likely come from a loving home. We often approach God in a similar way. Our
past experiences color our responses when He reaches out to us. What breeds
distrust in the area of authority?
A bedroom door bursts open. A small boy is slapped awake in the middle of
the night by a drunk and angry man. The terrified child screams as the dark,
hulking shape of a man he calls "Daddy" beats him mercilessly.
We, like the browbeaten puppy, sometimes shrink away from the authority of
our Father God because we assume He will be like the other authority figures in
our lives. He will not. He is perfect love. It is He who commands, "Parents, don't
keep on scolding and nagging your children, making them angry and resentful.
Rather, bring them up with the loving discipline the Lord himself approves"
(Ephesians 6:4 TES).
Trust
Our past experiences color our responses when God reaches out to us.
As a child you may have never known a father because of death or divorce.
Maybe you were "orphaned" by the demands of your parents' careers. Now, as
God's child, it is hard for you not to doubt His faithfulness. You can't erase the
childhood memories of broken promises and neglect. Perhaps you only rarely
sense His presence and tend to approach Him with cynicism and distrust.
Yet your heavenly Father was there when you first walked as a child. He was
there through the hurts and disappointments of your teen years, and He is present
at this moment. You were briefly loaned to human parents who, for a few years,
were supposed to have showered you with love like His love. The care and
security of a good home and family was intended by God to prepare you for His
love. If your family failed in that responsibility, you need to recognize that fact,
forgive them, and go on to receive God's love. He waits even now with
outstretched arms.
God is the only Father who will never fail us. As 2 Timothy 2:13 says, "Even
when we are too weak to have any faith left, he remains faithful to us...and he
will always carry out his promises to us" (TLB).
Values
A few years ago a friend visiting a native village in the South Pacific spent
some time watching the children play. These children, he told me later, seldom
heard the words, "Don't touch that! Leave it alone! Be careful!" Their homes
were simple, consisting of earth floors, thatched roofs, and mats that rolled down
to serve as walls at night.
In contrast, our modern homes are stuffed with expensive and fragile
furnishings and appliances that represent a minefield of potential rejection for
inquisitive toddlers. How many mothers have exploded in anger at a child over a
shattered vase or antique! Children constantly hear about the importance and
value of things. Very few times, however, do they hear the simple words, "I love
you."
A repetitious and destructive chant is working its way into the subconscious
minds of our children: "Things are more important than me. Things are more
important than me!"I am not suggesting we abandon our homes, but we do need
to realize that our concept of God's generosity may have been crippled by our
childhood experiences. We may need to radically alter our priorities so we can
communicate God's love to our children.
Affection
When my small son comes in from the backyard covered with mud, I pick
him up and wash him off with the garden hose. I reject the mud, but not the boy.
Yes, we have sinned. Yes, we have broken God's heart. But we are still the
center of His affectionsthe apple of His eye. It is He who pursues us with
forgiveness and love. We say, "I found the Lord," but the truth is that He found
us after much pursuing.
Many children, particularly boys, receive very little physical affection from
their fathers, and no real compassion when they hurt. Because of our society's
false concept of masculinity they are told, "Don't cry, son-boys don't cry." God's
love, however, heals the hurts of men and women alike. As our Father, He feels
our pain more deeply than we do because His sensitivity to suffering is so much
greater.
Most of us have probably tried to forget the painful moments of our lives, but
God has not. He has perfect recall. He was there when you experienced cruel
teasing on the school playground and walked home alone, avoiding the eyes of
the other kids. He was there when you sat in that math class confused and
dejected. When you got lost at the age of four and wandered terrified through the
crowd, it was He who moved the heart of that kind lady who helped you find
your mother. "I led them with cords of human kindness, with ties of love"
(Hosea 11:4 NIV).
Sometimes we don't understand what a loving Father God really is. Your
parents may proudly display your pictures in an album, but how does that
compare with His infinite capacity to be overjoyed with your every success?
God heard you speak your first real word. He watched with delight as you spent
hours alone exploring new textures with baby hands. He treasures the memories
of your childhood laughter. There has never been another child like you, and
there never will be.
Moses once invoked a blessing on each of the tribes of Israel. To one he said,
"The beloved of the Lord... makes his dwelling between his shoulders"
(Deuteronomy 33:12). That is where you dwell also. Whatever you become in
the eyes of men-even a person of great authority, fame, or title-you will never
become more or less than a child in the arms of God.
Presence
There is one attribute of God not even the best parent can hope to imitate-His
ability to be with you all the time. Human parents simply cannot give their
children attention 24 hours a day. But God is different. Not only is He with you
all the time, but He gives you His undivided attention: "Let Him have all your
worries and cares, for He is always thinking about you and watching everything
that concerns you" (1 Peter 5:7 TES).
Your parents were often preoccupied with their activities and uninterested in
the minor events of your life. God, however, is not that way. He is a God of
detail. The Bible says He has even numbered the hairs on your head. Why? Not
because He is so concerned about abstract mathematics-this biblical illustration
simply paints a picture of how well He knows us and how much He cares about
our lives.
God longs to surprise us with the "extras," those little pleasures and treasures
A little boy worked all afternoon pounding nails into pieces of scrap wood.
He finally emerged from the garage and showed a three-level battleship to Mom.
He couldn't wait until Dad got home. Dad was late. But at 6:30 a tired,
preoccupied man finally arrived. A cold dinner was waiting, as were more
repairs to do on the house. The excited boy proudly displayed his handiwork to a
daddy who barely looked up from his calculator. Daddy never looked, but God
did. He always looked, always took delight in the work of the little boy's hands.
God is our real Father... and always will be. Try not to resent the failings of
your human parents, for they were just kids who grew up and had kids
themselves. Rather rejoice in the wonderful love of your Father God.
Acceptance
Many people have difficulty accepting God's love and approval. A true love
relationship, however, involves the giving and receiving of love. Imagine how I
would feel if I impulsively decided to surprise my wife with some flowers, but
when I handed them to her and said, "I love you, Sally," she ran to get some
money to pay for them! I would be hurt and disappointed. All I really want to
know is that she feels the same way about me.
What is your response to God when He says He loves you no matter what?
Can you receive His love without rushing into frantic activity to earn His
approval?
Your Father loves you just as you are. All through life you have had to
perform and compete. Even as a tiny baby you were compared with other babies.
People said you were "too fat" or "too thin" or had "his legs" or "her nose." But
God delighted in your uniqueness, and He still does.
Communication
One girl told me she couldn't talk to God. She felt like her words were
thudding into a brick wall. She could not remember God ever answering her
prayers. As we prayed together she realized she pictured God as if He were her
own father, good and honest but quiet and shy. He was a man who had rarely
spoken to his children and never told them he loved them. When she admitted
her father had been weak and had even failed her, she was able to forgive him
and accept him as he was. This recognition opened up a whole new dimension in
her relationship with God. She had more faith to pray because she realized He
did hear her. She soon sensed God's guidance and presence in her life.
If you believe you have b een hindered in your relationship to God because of
a lack in some area of parental love, then tell the Lord how you feel and ask for
His help. You must choose to forgive anyone who has hurt you. If you don't,
bitterness will consume yo u, and you will find no peace with God.
Also realize you are not alone. I haven't met a perfect person yet... or a parent
who hasn't made mistakes. Everyone has suffered some kind of hurts in his or
her life. What counts is that you get to know God for who He really is-and our
concept of Him is often quite different from reality.
She was shy, and a bit taller than most teenagers. I was tired. The last thing I
wanted to do was talk to a self-conscious teenage girl. I had just finished
teaching a group of South African people about God's Father heart, and I
desperately wanted to rest. Yet I sensed I should listen carefully to what she was
about to say.
Her question seemed almost pointless at first, but then I began to wonder if
she really wanted to tell me something more. I waited. When she finished, I
asked her if there wasn't something else she wanted to share. She looked
relieved. She sat down beside me in the small, crowded auditorium and
whispered in my ear, "Can I cry on your shoulder?" "Sure," I said, "but can you
tell me why?"
Her eyes brimmed with tears as the story came out. Her father had died when
she was very young. Since that time she had had nobody's shoulder to cry on, no
daddy to talk to about her questions, disappointments, achievements, and plans.
A dull ache had throbbed in her heart as she desperately missed those big, loving
arms that had once held and comforted her.
And He did. I saw the same girl a few years later when I was back in South
Africa. I did not recognize her at first, but when she reminded me of the special
time of prayer the memories came flooding back. She thanked me for the
moments we had shared and told me they had made all the difference. In our
short time together she had experienced the Father heart of God.
This young woman had suffered from a deep emotional wound that had kept
her from fully enjoying her relationship with her heavenly Father. Our world is
full of people with these invisible injuries, many resulting from childhood, but
many also inflicted by the pressures and problems of modern life. God our
Father desires to heal these hurts in order to ensure sweet and genuine fellowship
with His children.
The Bible speaks specifically about the need for the healing of damaged
emotions and depicts this as part of the sanctification process. In the Old
Testament book of Isaiah, the writer points to the future time when God will
send a Savior to rescue people from their sin and selfishness. He describes the
Savior as "a Man of sorrows and acquainted with grief" (53:3 NKJV). He goes
on to say that "He has borne our griefs and carried our sorrows," and that "by
His stripes we are healed."
This healing is for both the guilt of our selfishness and the consequences of
our selfishness-the scars and the wounds we bear in our personalities and
emotions. In Isaiah 61 the writer says that this Savior will "bring good tidings to
the afflicted... [and] bind up the brokenhearted.. .proclaim liberty to the captives
and the opening of the prison to those who are bound" (verse 1). Those who
mourn will be given the "oil of gladness" (verse 3). In Psalm 34: 18 David says
that the Lord "is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit." In
Psalm 147:3 he says that the Lord "heals the brokenhearted and binds up their
wounds." This is good news for a broken world.
In spite of all that God offers us, many people still picture Him as sitting up
in heaven, removed from the pain and harsh reality of this fallen world. "Why
has He created us and then left us to ourselves?" they question bitterly.
But God is not the cause of our problems, and He has not left us alone in our
suffering. He came and lived among us. He became a man. He endured all we
have gone through and much more.
He created man, but man rejected Him. He sent messengers and prophets to
remind His people He was their Creator, but they stoned the prophets and killed
the messengers. So finally God sent Jesus to reveal Himself. The Creator stepped
into His creation, but the creatures refused to recognize Him. In fact, they
crucified Christ on a cross. What did the Creator do then? He transformed this
greatest of mankind's cruelties and made it the source of man's forgiveness! We
killed Him, but He used the act of our greatest sefshness to be the source of our
forgiveness.
Jesus Christ is the wounded Healer. He knows how our emotions can be
injured. Indeed, He was tempted in every way we have been tempted.
His very birth was questioned, and His mother's reputation was slandered. He
was born in poverty. His race was ostracized and His hometown ridiculed. His
father probably died when Jesus was young, and in His latter years Jesus
traveled the streets and cities homeless. He was misunderstood in His ministry,
and abandoned in death. He did all this for you and me. He did it to identify with
us in weakness:
God the Father sent Jesus Christ into the world to bridge our separation from
Him. Separation resulting from our selfishness is at the core of many emotional
wounds. If left untreated, it often develops into what I call the "Saul Syndrome,"
which leads to alienation from God and other people. Jesus came to introduce
reconciliation in place of alienation, healing in place of woundedness, and
wholeness in place of brokenness.
The Saul Syndrome
He was a tall, striking man. The reddish tint of his hair and well-trimmed
beard added to his stature and dignity. He carried himself with regal bearing; all
eyes followed him when he passed through a crowd.
He had the ability to draw men to himself, rally them to a cause, and inspire
them to greatness. The people had no fear of entrusting him with their secret
dreams and hopes. He was a leader's leader.
Or so they thought.
His brilliance in battle strategy and uncanny ability to take the right step at
the right time convinced distant followers of his greatness, but only confused
those close to him. He must be the Lord's anointed, they thought. He always
seems to be right. They did not want to admit the obvious: his violation of
principle, his lack of servanthood, his unwillingness to promote others, his anger
and impatience-all of which seemed to disqualify him from being king. In fact,
they were deeply embarrassed and ashamed of his secret rages and his fits of
melancholy and depression.
Finally there was one man who was no longer confused about the character of
this king: the prophet Samuel, who had anointed him into office.
In a simple act of obedience the prophet had poured oil on the king's head and
prayed over him, and in so doing had installed a man to rule a nation. Unlike
many other men, Samuel was not impressed with his own "power." He had
learned from early childhood that there is only one acceptable response to the
voice of God-simple, childlike obedience.
Now Samuel's heart also raged within him, not in uncontrolled anger, but in
righteous indignation. Enough was enough. He had waited patiently, watching
the internal destruction of the kingdom due to the king's lack of integrity and
obedience. He saw the deep insecurities of the king, the painful striving to find
worth and security in the praise of his fellows. He had agonized over this man
countless nights in prayer and weeping. He had fasted many days, asking God to
change the king's attitude and to help him find his security in the Lord's
approval. But it was to no avail.
Now the word of the Lord came to the prophet: "I repent that I have made
Saul king; for he has turned back from following me, and has not performed my
commandments" (1 Samuel 15:11).
First Samuel 15:17 says that Saul was "little in his own eyes." This is not to
be mistaken with true humility, for if that had been the meaning of Samuel's
words, there would have been no need to remove Saul from the throne. Samuel
was saying that even though Saul felt inferior and looked down on himself, he
was still responsible for all his actions before God. Feelings of inferiority never
excuse disobedience.
First Samuel 15 lists the characteristics of Saul's personality: stubbornness
and independence ("Rebellion is as the sin of divination, and stubbornness is as
iniquity and idolatry"), pride ("Saul came to Carmel, and behold, he set up a
monument for himself"),fear of man ("I have sinned because I feared the people
and obeyed their voice"), and disobedience ("Why then did you not obey the
voice of the LORD? To obey is better than sacrifice"). Simply illustrated, the
Saul Syndrome looks like this:
One problem leads to another. If we do not deal with our emotional hurts in
God's way, they will lead us to independence from God, which in turn produces
pride. Pride is much more concerned about what people think of us than what
God thinks of us, which results in the fear of man. The fear of man inevitably
leads to disobedience. We may still do a lot for God, but we are practicing a
religion of dead works.
Some of the most wounded people I know are also some of the most proud
and independent. Emotional injury makes us extremely susceptible to this
vicious syndrome, and no one is immune from it.
•Critical and judgmental attitude. We justify this in many ways, but it all
boils down to slander and judging the motives of others.
•Impatience. We think our way is better, and we refuse to wait for others
who don't agree or understand.
Even though the Saul Syndrome is often a symptom of hurt and unresolved
feelings of rejection, it is still selfish and wrong and must be dealt with
ruthlessly. There is no problem of independence and inferiority that cannot be
solved through greater humility and brokenness in our lives.
The Bible promises that as we humble ourselves, God will give us grace
(James 4:6-7). We are afraid of "humiliation," but that is not what the Bible
means when it says to humble ourselves. True humility involves the willingness
to be known for who we really are and to take God's side against our own sin.
Most people respect us more, not less, for humbling ourselves and confessing
our needs. I believe that God always does.
If you are caught up in the Saul Syndrome, may I suggest that you will never
be free from it until you accept your responsibility to repent of these wrong
attitudes. It will do no good to blame other people for your own problems or to
make excuses for your own sin. Humble yourself before God and others. Cry out
to Him in earnest prayer.
Many years ago I saw this pattern in my own life. I ached with deep
insecurities, yet I was also very proud and independent. I longed for acceptance
and affirmation but would not confess my desperate need for help. I was
obsessed with what other people thought of me, particularly other leaders. It was
only when I humbled myself before others and repented before God that He
delivered me from the Saul Syndrome.
One day I spent time alone with God in a forest in Holland and cried out to
Him. I vowed to Him that I wanted Him to deal with these problems in my life
more than I wanted leadership, attention, or acceptance from others. I told the
Father I wanted Him, at any cost, to root out independence, pride, and fear of
man from my life. I told Him I would wait as long as it took for this to happen-
even 12 years like Joseph in Egypt-and that I did not want to take any shortcuts
in getting my life right with Him. (I call this my "Joseph Covenant.")That was a
costly prayer, but I have never regretted it. God heard me that day and made
some significant changes in my life.
We will never be truly free to love our Father God if we are dominated by the
fear of man. The Bible says that the fear of man is a snare, a trap. We become
prisoners of fear-always worried about what others think, dominated by the
actions of others instead of the Word of God. Do you feel you're always looking
over your shoulder, trying to figure out why you're not included or worrying
about what other people are saying about you? Are you determining your actions
by how much approval they will bring from other people rather than by how
much they will please God? If so, you are bound by the fear of man.
The remedy for the fear of man is the fear of God.'The fear of God is not an
emotional fear or a fear of God's wrath. The Bible defines the fear of God very
specifically:
•The fear of God is hatred ofsin. Proverbs 8:13 says, "The fear of the LORD
is hatred of evil."
•Friendship and intimacy with God are equated with the fear of the Lord.
Psalm 97:10 says, "The LORD loves those who hate evil," and Psalm
25:14 declares, "The friendship of the LORD is for those who fear him."
•The fear of the Lord is deep respect and awe of God. Psalm 33:8 says, "Let
all the earth fear the LORD, let all the inhabitants of the world stand in
awe of him!"
•The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom and knowledge. Proverbs
1:7 tells us, "The fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge."
The fear of the Lord is not evidenced by some kind of holy look on your face,
nor is it heard in some sort of quivering tone in your voice when you pray. It is
not revealed in the way you dress or in the great number of rules you obey.
Having the fear of the Lord simply means to love God so much that you hate
all that He hates. This kind of hatred is not born out of religious neurosis, nor is
it a reflection of our culture. It comes from being so close to God, so in tune with
His character, that we love what He loves and abhor what He abhors. The fear of
the Lord is not a crusading anger, it is anger over the destructiveness ofsin. It
sees the cruelty, the deceptiveness, the oppressiveness, and the destructive force
of sin, and hates it for what it is.
The fear of the Lord does not come into our lives by accident. It indwells us
because we choose to seek it (Proverbs 1:2829; 2:1-5) and make it top priority of
our life. It comes because we get sick and tired of being manipulated and
controlled by the fear of man, of being dominated by our fears and insecurities.
It comes because we cry for it, pursue it, and get desperate for it.
The Saul Syndrome can be broken. You can be free, but there is a price to
pay. If you want to experience inner healing and to know the Father's love, then
you must choose the fear of the Lord. Proverbs 14:26 says, "In the fear of the
LORD one has strong confidence." It is humility and the fear of the Lord that
bring us close to the Father heart of God and lead us into wholeness and self-
worth.
In the next chapter I have listed the steps to the healing of emotional and
psychological wounds. I have not intended for these steps to be treated as some
sort of magic formula or talisman to wave in God's face. The truths each one of
these steps represents must be applied to our lives as we are ready for them, with
the guidance of God's Spirit. (If you don't know how to be guided by God's
Spirit, ask Him to help you. He has promised to help all those who ask Him.)
Take each step and apply it personally to your situation.
If your problems are complex, you may need the help of a professional
counselor or psychologist. In the back of this book is an appendix with
guidelines on how to choose professional counselors or psychologists. You have
a right to ask them questions before you allow them to ask you questions. You
should never submit yourself to being helped or counseled by someone unless
you are secure with the person and confident that he or she is skilled and
competent.
I once met a man in Madras, India, who said he had never sinned! Because of
our mutual interest in religion, our casual conversation quickly turned to serious
matters. When I shared that I believed God forgave those who acknowledged
their sin, he asserted he had never done anything wrong.
"No."
"No."
I was baffled. Then I thought of another question. "Are you proud of the fact
you have never sinned?" I asked mischievously.
"There you are," I said, "Your first sin. You are a proud man!" He then
laughed loudly and congratulated me that I had caught him in his only sin!
Though we are not all as proud as this man, we have all followed in Adam's
original sin. Adam denied God's right to rule over his life, and he chose to go his
own way. We have all made the same decision. It is hard for us to admit that we
too have rebelled against God and denied His right to be Lord of our lives.
Some people feel that because His Word calls us sinners, God is rejecting us.
That is not the case at all. He is simply helping us to understand the most basic
problem we have and how to overcome it.
However, we are not only sinners. We are also sinned against. Either
intentionally through their selfishness or unintentionally because none of us is
perfect, other people do things to us that hurt us deeply. Being sinned against
does not excuse wrong responses on our part, but it helps us understand
ourselves and others when we struggle to respond in the right way when
mistreated or hurt.
To gain the maximum healing and blessing, I suggest you go through the
following steps slowly and prayerfully. Take time after reading each step to pray
and apply it to your life. If it becomes too painful, ask a friend or spiritual leader
to go through the steps with you. You need to be prepared for pain if there are
unhealed wounds. In order for them to heal properly, they may need to be
opened and cleansed of any "infection" or bitterness that has set in. Even though
this is painful for a time, it will bring great joy and healing in the long run. It will
liberate you to draw even closer to the Father heart of God.
God is simply helping us to understand the most basic problem we have and how
to overcome it.
For most people this is not a problem. Yet if we are wounded and we do not
acknowledge our need, there is little opportunity for healing or help in our lives.
Being able to admit our need is a sign of good mental health, as well as evidence
of self-honesty.
All of us need healing and growth in our emotions and personalities. Don't
feel that you are an exception. It is an attitude of teachableness and humility that
will allow the healing to begin in your life. Some of us struggle with exposing
our need because of fear of rejection. But the opposite is true: When we admit
our needs, other people respect us more for our honesty. All of us can probably
recall a time when we made ourselves vulnerable and then were hurt by someone
who did not respond to us in love or wisdom. But we can't let those experiences
keep us from the healing that God wants to give. Past rejections shouldn't be
allowed to determine our actions or attitudes for the future.
Start by being honest with God. He knows you intimately and He won't reject
you. In fact, He is longing and waiting for you to be honest so you can receive
His love and help. Tell Him your hurts, fears, disappointments-everything.
Next, open up to someone who can help you work through these steps of
healing. Choose a trusted Christian friend who will pray with you and encourage
you.
If you have wronged others, you will need to go to them and make it right.
This is a part of acknowledging our needs. We do this not in order to be forgiven
by God, but because we have been forgiven. The fruit of being in a right
relationship with God is wanting to have broken relationships with other people
restored as well.
John Stott, the famous Anglican theologian, gives some very valuable
cautions regarding this area in his book Confess Your Sins. He talks about the
circles of open confession for secret sins, private sins, and public sins. He says
we should confess sins only on the level that they were committed. If our sin is a
secret one-that is, a sin of the heart or mind that was never acted or spoken out to
others-then it needs to be confessed only to God. There is freedom to share these
things with close friends or fellow Christians out of a desire to be honest and
accountable, but we don't have to do that. That is our choice. In fact, we should
do it only when we feel secure with others and when we feel that God is
specifically leading us to do so-never because we feel pressured. Even then, we
must be wise and careful about how we share.
It could be very unwise to confess some sins of the heart to other people. If
the person you sinned against in your mind doesn't know about it, don't burden
him or her with it unless there is a clear reason why it will be helpful. If you are
in doubt, don't do it until you can seek mature counsel.
There are some sins done in the secret or private level of our lives that are
"shameful" in nature. I believe we need to see a restoration of a sense of
"shame," particularly over sins of sexual impurity. If we must ask someone to
forgive us for sinning against him or her in this way, we should not go into
details or be unwise in our words. Say what needs to be said. Confess that you
have failed or sinned against the other person, and ask forgiveness. That is
enough.
A good guideline to follow is that if it is a secret sin, confess it to God; if it is
a private sin, ask forgiveness of the one you have sinned against; if it is a public
sin, ask the group's forgiveness.
1.Admit your needs and sins. Honesty releases God's grace in our lives.
3.Trust the Lord and others. Faith results in trust and makes it possible for us
to have close relationships with God and people.
The opposite of this process leads to further pain and emotional injury:
2.Legalism. When our relationships with other people are wrong, we tend to
become judgmental and critical. We live by "law," not God's grace. This
causes us to mistrust others.
3.Mistrust. When we don't trust others, we often exude that mistrust, and
others in turn don't trust us. An atmosphere of rejection forms, and walls
grow up between us and others.
When we admit our needs, other people respect us more for our honesty.
You cannot confess a wound as if it were a sin, because a wound is not a sin.
Yet if as a result of being hurt you have developed a sinful attitude or response-
even if others are to blameGod still holds you responsible for your response. In
fact, God does not see it as a matter of the other person being 80 percent to
blame and you 20 percent; both you and the other person are 100-percent
responsible for your own actions. Until you accept total responsibility for your
own attitudes and actions, healing is hindered. Why is that? If your attitude is
one of resentment, bitterness, or an unforgiving attitude, God's healing and
forgiveness are blocked. "If you forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly
Father also will forgive you; but if you do not forgive men their trespasses,
neither will your Father forgive your trespasses" (Matthew 6:14-15).
Dr. Phil Blakely notes that to deal with this problem we need to "decompact"-
to talk out the emotions built up inside us. To do this, it is important to have
someone who can help us get our feelings out. For Christians, that should begin
with prayer. If Jesus is not the One we turn to before and above all others, we
will never be healed. He is our Creator; He longs for us to share our feelings
with Him because He cares so deeply for us.
Though emotions in themselves are not necessarily sinful, they can result in
sinful responses if they are directed in a negative way toward God, ourselves, or
other people. That is where we need biblical standards to gauge whether our
attitudes have become sinful. If they have, we must treat them as both unhealthy
and wrong.
God does not intend for us to live by or for our feelings. Some people live by
the axiom that what they feel is good is good, and what they feel is bad is bad.
That is good existentialism, but not biblical Christianity. We are to live
according to the truth revealed in the Bible, not the whims dictated by our
feelings. God has given us the capacity for emotions, and He intended them to be
an encouragement for making right choices. When we do not live by God's laws,
then we have a tendency to twist God's original intentions for emotions and use
them to reinforce a lifestyle of pleasure and selfishness. Some people are totally
ruled by their emotions, while others don't even know they have deeper feelings.
They have suppressed their feelings to the point where they think it is very
"Christian" not to show emotion at all. This is not being mature or "spiritual."
God created us to live a balanced life in which we express and enjoy our
emotions and are free to deal with them honestly and constructively.
To break the cycle of emotional suppression and mistrust, ask God to give
you the opportunity to talk with an authority figure who encourages you to be
honest about your feelings.
Also, forgive those in the past who have not given you the freedom to do so.
Your motive in sharing how you feel should not be to persuade that person of
your point of view, but to be honest. Honesty, however, is not an end in itself.
Your honesty should proceed out of a desire to confess negative emotions so you
can become the person God wants you to be.
If you have been hurt by other people and have sinned in your reactions to
them, it is important not only to forgive the ones who hurt you, but also to ask
God for forgiveness for your wrong actions toward them. As you do this, you
may discover a need to forgive yourself. At times our greatest enemy is our own
sense of failure. We can often be much harder on ourselves than on anyone else.
If you have failed, pour out your sense of failure to the Lord in prayer, confess
your sin, and tell Him that you receive His forgiveness and that you forgive
yourself. Each time you feel that sense of failure returning, thank the Lord for
His forgiveness.
If you have wrong attitudes toward anyone who has hurt you, it is crucial that
you confess them to God. (Be careful, however, because self-pity can be a
counterfeit for real repentance.) Dealing with our role in the matter often releases
God's Spirit to work in the hearts of other people. Even if this does not happen, it
is still our responsibility to keep our lives right before God. If you become
critical, hard-hearted, jealous, independent, proud, judgmental, or bitter, then
you need to deal with your responses. As you are humble before God, He will
forgive you and give you healing for your own wounds. There is healing through
forgiveness!
There is a void in our lives that can be filled only by God Himself. When you
sin and ask for forgiveness, or when you struggle with insecurity or inferiority,
there is the possibility this void is not full. Ask God at those times to fill you to
overflowing with His Spirit. Stand against self-centeredness by keeping your
focus on Him. I cannot overstress the importance of this step in the healing
process. Self-pity and self-centeredness grieve the Holy Spirit.
Do you want to receive the Father's love? Then spend time in His presence.
We are bathed in His love as we spend time with Him, giving to Him. What can
we give Him? Through our words and thoughts we can offer Him honor,
adoration, attention, praise, and worship. If this is difficult for you, go through
your Bible and underline the passages that specifically speak about the character
of God. The book of Psalms is a good place to begin. Then pray and sing those
passages to the Father in your times of prayer. As you do this daily, you will find
yourself growing more and more in love with Him. You will sense His presence
intimately near you in response to your words of praise. Do not be surprised
when He speaks words of appreciation, approval, and love throughout the day.
He loves to love His children!
The Scriptures say we should love God with all our heart, soul, mind, and
body, and that we should love our neighbor as ourselves (Leviticus 19:18;
Matthew 19:19). God wants us to love ourselves, not selfishly, but with His love.
He wants us to think His thoughts about ourselves-thoughts of kindness, esteem,
respect, and trust.
Do you want to receive the Father's love? Then spend time in His presence.
If you think in negative thought patterns about yourself, I suggest you stop
right now and write down the two or three negative ways of thinking that are
most common for you. After you have done this, write down God's thoughts
toward you-based upon His character-that are the opposite of the negative
thoughts. For example, if you wrote down that you think you will always fail,
write "I am good at," naming one thing you do well. Also write down what the
Bible says about that area of your life. For example, "I can do all things through
Christ who strengthens me" (Philippians 4:13 NKJV). Every time you start to
think the negative thought, stop and say the positive thought, along with a
Scripture. It takes three weeks to break a bad habit and replace it with a good
one. Keep telling yourself the truth until you have broken the negative thought
pattern.
Don't give in to lies and condemning thoughts. Perseverewith God's help you
can do it! Cry out to Him each time you fail; then start again. Have you ever
noticed in the Bible how often God repeated a truth when He was trying to
encourage someone? In the first chapter of Joshua He told Joshua four times not
to be afraid. Why? Because Joshua needed to be reminded to think God's
thoughts about himself. He was getting ready to go into battle and needed that
encouragement. I'm sure he must have repeated those words of the Lord over and
over to himself.
The most common cause of depression is thinking depreciating and
condemning thoughts about ourselves. To break this cycle of depression, we
need to follow the steps I have outlined and then get sick and tired of being tired
and sick! We need to break the habit of negative thinking by thinking God's
thoughts.
Ask God to enable you to put these thoughts and choices into action. When
you fail, ask for His forgiveness and keep going. If the devil tells you you have
"failed again," agree with him, but tell him you refuse to feel sorry for yourself!
Accept responsibility for your failure, ask God's forgiveness or help, and go on!
Keep working at it until you have established new habits. It took years to
develop the negative ones, so don't give up because it takes a few weeks or
months to replace them with God's patterns. Start with one or two habits at a
time, and then go on to others. As we do the possible, God will do the
impossible for us.
Sometimes you might feel it is impossible to endure to the end. That may be
right! But when we come to the end of what is possible for us, then we can see
God do the impossible. Faith has not begun until we believe God for the
impossible. We don't need faith to do what is possible. So if you are facing
impossible situations in your life, praise God-for now you can begin to exercise
your faith.
As my friend Joy Dawson says, "It's how you finish that counts!" The apostle
Paul says in his first letter to the Corinthian church,
Do you not know that in a race all the runners compete, but only one
receives the prize? So run that you may obtain it. Every athlete
exercises self control in all things. They do it to receive a perishable
wreath, but we an imperishable. Well, I do not run aimlessly, I do not
box as one beating the air, but I pommel my body and subdue it, lest
after preaching to others I myself should be disqualified (1
Corinthians 9:24-27).
We will fail along the way, but as we confess our sins, turn away from them,
and choose by faith to hate them, we experience God's forgiveness and a new
beginning. He is the God of new beginnings. Our part is to humble ourselves and
turn away from our sin or failure; His part is to forgive us and give us a new
start. He loves to do that because He is our Father and He is a God of love.
God is seeking to find the people who will fulfill His original intentions when
He created mankind. He wants friendship with us. And He does not just want
this with a collection of selfish individuals-His purpose is to unite in a family all
those who love Him. So whenever people love God, He draws them together to
enjoy deep friendship, mutual care and support, and celebration of the love and
forgiveness and wholeness He has given them. These "family units" are what the
church is intended to be.
Besides the steps we can take as individuals, the "Father's family" is also a
channel of His love and healing to wounded people. As we love and accept and
forgive one another as brothers and sisters in Christ, God's love flows through us
to heal one another. Through our brothers and sisters in God's family, God
provides the kind of love and acceptance that frees us from our fears and allows
us to experience greater wholeness as people. We can be committed to others
without fear of rejection. We can accept others in spite of their weaknesses. We
can forgive others even when they hurt us. We can be ourselves without fear of
rejection. All of this is true because of God's grace. It is His grace, His
undeserved love, that does this for us. We don't have the ability in ourselves to
be so loving, but God enables us to love. We don't have the ability in ourselves
to heal one another, but through us God heals others. Every Christian has this
ministry. Each of us can be a "grace-giver."
Excitement pulsed throughout Jerusalem that day. After many years of civil war,
the nation was once again united, its enemies to the south defeated. Most
important of all, after 20 long years of spiritual barrenness, worship was being
restored in the new capital of the united kingdom. Saul's rule had ended with his
death in the battlefield, and now young David was the leader. It had been a long
night, and the dawn was finally breaking.
David had declared to the nation that he was returning the ark of the Lord to
Jerusalem. Tens of thousands of people gathered in the city to celebrate. Every
family and tribe was represented, and the throngs of people were alive with
expectation.
Surely God is pleased, David must have thought to himself. Now His people
are united and we can worship the Lord once again. Yet how grievous, he
reflected, that Saul did not honor the Lord by bringing back the ark of God. But
this is not a time for sadness. I too will rejoice before the Lord.
And David and all the house of Israel were making merry before the
LORD with all their might, with songs and lyres and harps and
tambourines and castanets and cymbals (2 Samuel 6:5).
Suddenly tragedy struck. The oxen stumbled and young Uzzah put out his
hand to steady the ark. He instantly fell to the ground dead! David was stunned.
What did this mean? Silence fell over the people as word of what happened
spread through the crowd.
Can you imagine the sadness David experienced as he walked home alone
that day? It had started off to be such a beautiful occasion. No doubt he wrestled
with feelings of personal failure and condemnation while at the same time
struggling with the anger he felt toward God.
David was angry because the LORD had broken forth upon Uzzah;
and that place is called Perez-uzzah to this day. And David was afraid
of the LORD that day; and he said, "How can the ark of the LORD
come to me?" (2 Samuel 6:8-9).
Most of us can identify with David's feelings. We too, at one time or another,
have stepped out in faith and have faced disappointment and tough times.
"Why?" is the question we ask again and again.
Disappointment can also result from other people's responses to us. They can
let us down when we need them most, and they often fail to meet our
expectations.
In his book Don't Waste Your Sorrows, Paul Billheimer points out that our
disappointments can be a source of great blessing if we respond to them in the
right way. Nothing can injure us emotionally unless it causes us to respond with
the wrong attitude. Disappointing circumstances will pass, but one's reaction to
them is a moral and spiritual choice that can influence our life forever.
Christians learning to love and accept one another are much like brothers and
sisters learning to eat dinner together in peace. I can remember fuming at my
sister and brother during family dinnertime, but I also remember that bickering
at the table was something my father would not tolerate! He insisted we learn to
eat together in harmony.
Some of our disappointments stem from our unrealistic expectations for each
other. Becoming a Christian does not mean instant perfection. We need to learn
to love our brothers and sisters, just as we have to learn to "eat in peace."
When you are disappointed in the actions of a brother or sister, don't "turn
him off" or cut him off from further fellowship. God may have brought him or
her into your life to teach you valuable lessons. David wrote, "In faithfulness
You have afflicted me" (Psalm 119:75 NKJV).
People whom we see as difficult may be a loving "affliction" from the Lord.
If you and I were as loving as we often think we are, we would have no trouble
in responding to "hard-to-love" people. I believe that God allows, sometimes
even arranges, trying experiences in our lives to expose our character
weaknesses and wrong attitudes so He can deal with them.
Overcoming Pride
King David was forced to deal with disappointment when Uzzah lost his life,
and it required a great act of humility on David's part. He could have hardened
his heart in pride and blamed God for what had happened. Instead, he sought
God to find out what he had done wrong, and what lesson God had for him.
David learned to humble himself in order to discover God's purpose in those
tragic circumstances.
Humility means not only being honest but adopting God's perspective. Many
people are ruthlessly honest, but they don't go on to take God's side against sin
and embrace His attitude toward the sinner. Both are necessary if we are to learn
from the disappointments of life.
For people who learn to ask God why He allowed a situation to take place or
what He wants to teach them through it, disappointments produce tremendous
growth and heightened spiritual understanding. On the other hand, pride presents
the greatest barrier to learning from difficulty and disappointment. Although we
might think that sympathy is our greatest need during times of disappointment, I
believe our urgent need is to recognize our pride. Overcoming pride is the key to
gaining victory and understanding when we are disappointed. Consider these
symptoms and how they can hinder us in responding in the right way:
•Pride sees the wrongs of others but never identifies with their weaknesses.
When others fail we can respond, "Yes, I've done that too," or, "I
understand-if it were not for God's grace I would have done that also."
•Pride is more interested in being accepted in the eyes of other people than in
being right according to God's standards.
•Pride is more concerned with winning arguments than with keeping friends.
•Pride never says the words "I am wrong. It is my fault. Will you forgive
me?"
•Pride breeds a demanding attitude. It focuses on what has not been done for
us rather than on what has been done for us. It covets the past or the
future, but is never satisfied with the present.
•Pride is divisive. Pride says that "my" group or church or denomination has
more truth than others.
•Pride causes a person to judge situations by what they mean to man and not
to God. Pride does not look for God's perspective.
•Pride gossips, tears down, ruins reputations, and delights in spreading news
of failure and sin.
I had heard of divisions within the church and deep, tearing conflicts between
people, but it never entered my mind to think it would happen to me.
I taught about priorities in the body of Christ and stressed a lifestyle that was
worthy of the kingdom of God. I felt strongly about the church being a
community of believers and about the importance of the highest quality of
relationships. I still teach on these things, but at that time I taught them to such
an extreme that Jesus was no longer the center of my life-other believers were.
We had set such high standards for ourselves that not only was it impossible
for other believers to live up to them-we couldn't either.
Eventually we turned on each other. Christmas Day 1975 was the saddest day
of my life. I found myself sitting on my bed that morning and contemplating my
shattered dreams. I had dreamt of a loving community of people living the
gospel so radically that we would shake the world, but I had neglected to
calculate the fallenness of man into my equation for success. So dreadful was
our failure, so hurt was I by my own sin and the sin of others, that I despaired of
life itself.
I cannot describe the pain. I felt crushed, rejected, betrayed, and at times
angry at the very people I loved so much. Our little paradise of love and healing
had turned into a hell of broken relationships. I was faced with the brutal reality
of who we had become when God's grace was not controlling our lives.
God showed me more of His mercy, love, and faithfulness than I had ever
dreamed possible.
I look back on those terrible, dark months with great thankfulness to God. It
was the most painful period of my life-and the best. God did more in those days
of division and shattered dreams to show me myself, my deep insecurities, and
my pride than I had seen in the rest of my life put together. Correspondingly, He
showed me more of His mercy, love, and faithfulness at that time than I had ever
dreamed possible.
Because of the pain I experienced in those days, and the healing and
redemption that came as I humbled myself before God and others, I learned
many lessons. When the breakthrough finally came in my own life, God revealed
to me the root of my own wrong attitudes toward others. I wept as I heard Him
gently whisper into my mind, I forgive you, and I restore to you all that has been
lost.
Humble Hearts
David humbled himself again and again. The Bible says that he was a "man
after God's own heart." It was David who wrote in Psalm 51, "The sacrifices of
God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart, 0 God, you will not despise"
(verse 17 NIV).
To David, brokenness did not mean despair or hopelessness or being hurt. It
was humility, the opposite of pride. Because of that, David learned from every
disappointment in life. His psalms of praise flowed out of the crucible of life's
disappointments.
If we want to learn to trust God and know Him as our Father, as David did,
we need to humble ourselves before Him. When things go wrong, we can either
look for God's reasons or become hard and proud. There is no middle ground. A
mixture of humility and pride will not bring the results that God desires. Even if
we have done nothing wrong in a situation, we still need to learn to forgive and
bless our enemies. That can only happen when we have humble hearts.
Below are some simple questions I have learned to ask myself These have
proved to be invaluable in dealing with disappointment.
1.Lord, what do You want to teach me in this situation? What attitude should
I have? What should be my response? What biblical principles, if any,
have I violated in this situation?
2.Has there been any disobedience on my part regarding the action, the
timing, the people involved, or the method?
4.Do I need to seek the counsel of any godly person for help in this
situation? Would You please give him or her the kind of insight into my
life, my needs, and my reactions that will help me to learn what You
want me to learn?
6.Lord, what are the adjustments and changes I need to make? Help me to
take the necessary steps so I can get on with life.
7.Who should I now be serving, instead of worrying about myself?
When Jesus knelt alone to talk with the Father on that fateful night in the
Garden of Gethsemane, His heart was heavy. He faced the ultimate trial-death.
His Father had asked a hard thing of Him, but He was not forced to act against
His will. He accepted His Father's plan because He knew and trusted Him.
Christ said, "Not My will, but Yours, be done." Because He knew God's
heart, He obeyed Him unconditionally. It was not a forced response to an
overbearing Father, but a trusting response to known love.
After a long week of lecturing and counseling in Norway, I was "people-tired." I
love my work, but by the end of six 18-hour days I just wanted to be alone.
I walked down the center aisle of the plane, slightly stooped over to avoid
hitting my head on the ceiling. I found an empty row of seats by a bulkhead, so
that meant extra legroom and a quiet flight back to the airport. I smiled to myself
smugly as I settled into the aisle seat, thinking how good God had been to
answer my prayer for a little rest and peace. God understands how tired I am, I
mused.
"Yes.. .yes, I am," I said weakly. I had taken the aisle seat thinking it would
be harder for anyone to sit by me since they would have to step over my long
legs! The man sat down in the row behind me, but I paid him no heed and began
to read.
The man's obnoxiousness incensed me. His insensitivity had destroyed all my
plans for a quiet morning. Oh, God, I groaned inwardly, please help me.
The conversation moved slowly at first. I answered a few questions about our
work in Amsterdam. I began to wonder why this man so desperately wanted to
talk to me. As the conversation unfolded, I realized that I was the insensitive
one.
"My wife was like you," he said after a while. "She prayed with our children,
sang to them, took them to church. In fact," he continued quietly, his eyes
misting over, "she was the only real friend I ever had."
"She's gone." By this time the tears were beginning to trickle down his
cheeks. "She died three months ago giving birth to our fifth child. Why," he
gasped, "why did your God take my wife away? She was so good. Why not me?
Why her? And now the government says I'm not fit to care for my own children.
They're gone too!"
I took his hand and we wept together. How selfish I had been! I had been
thinking only of my need for a little rest, when this man desperately needed help.
As I continued to talk with that wounded, hurting man, I was reminded again
that many people in our world have no understanding of a God who is a loving
Father. To speak of a loving Father God only evokes pain and anger within
them. To speak of the Father heart of God to these people, without empathizing
with their pain, verges on cruelty.
The only way I could befriend that man on the trip from Oslo to Amsterdam
was to be God's love to him. I didn't try to give pat answers. I just let him be
angry and then offered him the oil of compassion for his wounds. He wanted to
believe in God, but deep inside his sense of justice had been violated. He needed
someone to say it was okay to be angry and to tell him that God was angry about
injustice too. By the time I had listened and cared and cried with him, he was
ready to hear me say that God was more hurt than he was by what had happened
to his wife and family.
No one had ever told him that God too knows the pain of a broken heart.
I then shared with him some answers that have helped me.
The only way I could befriend that man was to be God's love to him.
Many people cannot comprehend that a good God can exist and allow
suffering. Yet if there is no personal-infinite God, suffering loses all meaning. If
there is no God, man is just a complex product of time and chance just the result
of the evolutionary process. If that is true, then suffering is only a physical-
chemical problem. If there is no God, there are no moral absolutes and therefore
no bas is to determine that any form of suffering is morally wrong. By denying
His existence, men and women deny the ultimate meaning to life itself... and
therefore deny the basis of saying it is wrong for people to suffer. Without God,
they could not even ask "Why do the innocent suffer?" because there would be
no such thing as innocence. Innocence implies guilt, and guilt implies that some
things are absolutely, morally wrong.
I believe suffering is wrong, and the fact that God does exist allows me to say
that emphatically. This assertion, however, leads to another important
consideration-how God feels about suffering and evil in His creation. The Bible
says that it brings great sorrow to His heart.
The LORD saw that the wickedness of man was great in the earth, and
that every imagination of the thoughts of his heart was only evil
continually. And the LORD was sorry that he had made man on the
earth, and it grieved him to his heart (Genesis 6:5-6).
It is easy to ask questions concerning the justice of God, but if we are to live
as His children and know His Father heart, we must examine our response to evil
and suffering. Do we react as deeply as God does to evil in the world, to evil in
our own lives? Do we share the sorrow of God's heart over sin and the
destruction it brings to all that it touches?
I rejoice, not because you were grieved, but because you were grieved
into repenting, for you felt a godly grief, so that you suffered no loss
through us. For godly grief produces a repentance that leads to
salvation and brings no regret, but worldly grief produces death (2
Corinthians 7:9-10).
Repentance involves not just being sorry, but being sorry enough to quit.
Godly sorrow requires more than just confessing our sins. If we confess our sins
but keep practicing them, we have not really experienced godly grief. Nor does
repentance entail just feeling bad about what we have done. Sometimes we feel
bad if we get caught, or we feel bad if we have to stop sinning, but godly sorrow
is not dependent on feelings or selfish motives. Godly sorrow is based on
grasping how sin hurts God and other people. Godly sorrow produces a change
in our attitude toward sin itself. We begin to hate sin and love goodness.
Godly sorrow also results in a new respect for God and His laws. His laws
are very reasonable when you think about them: Do not kill, do not steal, do not
lie, do not take other people's husbands or wives, and so on. To obey these laws
is simply to live the way we were created to live. Cars were "created" to drive on
roads, not through canals, over rock fields, or off the sides of mountains. They
were made to be powered by gasoline, not water or Coca-Cola.
In Amsterdam there are laws against a man beating his wife. I do not beat my
wife, nor do I need a policeman following me around with a gun at my back,
saying, "I'm right behind you, so you'd better not beat your wife!" Why don't I
beat my wife? Is it fear of the law that motivates me? No! It is love.
Sharing God's broken heart also frees us to hate what He hates without
feeling we have lost our integrity. Many people hate God because of religion.
They have associated Him with all the junk and hypocrisy they have seen in the
church, and they have rejected Him as well.
Ninety percent of all agnostics have given up on God because of the false
image of God or Christ they have received through disillusioning encounters
with the church or in other personal experiences. I think the Australians are a
classic example of this. Some people, even some Aussies themselves, will tell
you that most Aussies couldn't care less about God. But I don't believe that.
Aussies have not rejected God-they have rejected false images of Him. The god
they reject I reject also.
If you have been offended by hypocrisy in the church, or if you have rejected
an arbitrary God who gives men impossible laws and then sends them to hell for
not keeping them, or if you are angry about injustice and poverty and have been
presented with a God who does not care, then you can start over again without
losing your integrity. You have not rejected the God of the Bible. You have not
rejected Jesus Christ!
The God who has revealed Himself in Jesus Christ hates hypocrisy and
injustice. The difference between God and us is not anger over injustice but the
fact that He is absolutely just and we are not.
People like the man I met on the airplane get angry at God because they are
hurt, either through personal disappointment or through reaction to injustice in
the world around them. But a humble, honest man cannot permanently take out
his anger on God because he must eventually acknowledge his own sin.
We have all committed, to some degree, the sins of the greatest criminals of
history. We don't like to view ourselves that way, but in word or thought (and
sometimes in deed) we express the same responses we judge in others.
We condemn Hitler ruthlessly, but are we just as ruthless in dealing with
hatred in our own hearts? "I don't hate the Jews," we may say. But do we despise
someone else-a neighbor, a co-worker, or a relative? If we have ever hated
anyone, we have espoused the same attitude that motivated Hitler.
The proud man keeps on accusing God because he refuses to admit his own
guilt. To deal with the problem of evil in the world, we must begin with
ourselves. If we don't accept our own responsibility, we will eventually reject
God's explanation for good and evil and come up with a philosophy that excuses
us from acknowledging His right to rule in our lives. If we believe in God but
still accuse Him of being unjust, we have never seen how our selfishness has
brought grief to His heart.
Our sin has broken God's heart. God, however, has not just grieved over sin;
He has done something about it. He gave His own Son as a sacrifice to pay for
the sins of the world. We deserved to be punished for breaking God's laws, but
He sent Jesus to take our punishment.
By deciding to put God first in our lives, we can break out of the patterns of
Many times we sin because we are hurt, but that does not excuse us. To
approach our reactions within a rationalizing psychological framework will not
produce character growth in our lives. Even if other people have wronged us, we
must deal with our own attitudes and actions. To receive the Father's love we
need to accept responsibility for what we have done, said, or thought, and ask
God for forgiveness. When we know we are wrong, we must allow God to do
His work in our hearts. We cannot gloss over sin, no matter how small we think
it is.
Doing our part in this way makes it possible for us to receive the Father's love
in full measure. We cannot heal ourselves, but we can acknowledge our wrong
in a situation so that our focus is shifted away from blaming others or justifying
or pitying ourselves. When we do this, our attention naturally centers on God.
Then everything else can be right.
A little boy tore out a picture of the world from a Christian magazine, cut it
up in smaller pieces, and then tried to put it back together. Finally he tearfully
came to his father because he couldn't put the world together. The father had
lovingly watched his son, and he knew that on the other side of the picture of the
world was a picture of Jesus. Then he helped the little boy turn over each piece,
leaving it in its same location, and explained to his puzzled son that, when Jesus
is in the right place, we can "put the world together again."
Sawat had disgraced his family and dishonored his father's name. He had come
to Bangkok to escape the dullness of village life. He had found excitement, and
while he prospered in his sordid lifestyle he found popularity as well.
When he first arrived, he had visited a hotel unlike any he had ever seen.
Every room had a window facing into the hallway, and in every room sat a girl.
The older ones smiled and laughed. Others, just 12 or 13 years old or younger,
looked nervous, even frightened.
Then the bottom dropped out of his world: He hit a string of bad luck. He was
robbed, and while trying to climb back to the top, he was arrested. The word
went out in the underworld that he was a police spy. He finally ended up living
in a shanty by the city trash pile.
Sitting in his little shack, he thought about his familyespecially his father, a
simple Christian man from a small southern village near the Malaysian border.
He remembered his dad's parting words: "I am waiting for you." He wondered
whether his father would still be waiting for him after all he had done to
dishonor the family name. Would he be welcome in his home? Word of Sawat's
lifestyle had long ago filtered back to the village.
"Dear father," he wrote, "I want to come home, but I don't know if you will
receive me after all that I have done. I have sinned greatly, father. Please forgive
me. On Saturday night I will be on the train that goes through our village. If you
are still waiting for me, will you tie a piece of cloth on the po tree in front of our
house? Sawat."
On that train ride he reflected on his life over the past few months and knew
that his father had every right to deny him. As the train finally neared the village,
he churned with anxiety. What would he do if there was no white cloth on the po
tree?
Sitting opposite him was a kind stranger who noticed how nervous his fellow
passenger had become. Finally Sawat could stand the pressure no longer. He
blurted out his story in a torrent of words. As they entered the village, Sawat
said, "Oh, sir, I cannot bear to look. Can you watch for me? What if my father
will not receive me back?"
Sawat buried his face between his knees. "Do you see it, sir? It's the only
house with a po tree."
"Young man, your father did not hang just one piece of cloth. Look! He has
covered the whole tree with cloth!" Sawat could hardly believe his eyes. The
branches were laden with tiny white squares. In the front yard his old father
jumped up and down, joyously waving a piece of white cloth, then ran in halting
steps beside the train. When it stopped at the little station he threw his arms
around his son, embracing him with tears of joy. "I've been waiting for you!" he
exclaimed.
Sawat's story poignantly parallels Jesus' parable of the Prodigal Son, found in
Luke 15:11-24. Christ told of another son who threw his life and money away in
a whirlwind of wrong choices and fearfully returned home in the hope his father
would take him back. He too was met with open arms and was loved and
accepted unconditionally. Three aspects of the Father heart of God emerge in
both of these stories.
Freedom to Choose
The father loved his son enough to let him leave home.
Both fathers created the possibility for deep relationships with their sons
through their willingness to allow the boys their freedom. Though inwardly the
fathers grieved, they did not try to force a relationship. They simply made
themselves available to serve as they had always done. This freedom was not
granted because the sons agreed with their fathers, but because of love. The
fathers were wise enough to wait for the young men to want a relationship with
them. Both fathers had spent years instructing their offspring in the ways they
should go, but left the final choice to their sons.
These men's responses to their rebellious sons exemplify the heart of God. I
believe He sovereignly chose to give man free will, taking the risk of being
rejected. God did not seek to establish an impersonal and involuntary obedience
to a set of rules. He wanted heart-to-heart relationships with those whom He
created. There is always a risk in giving people freedom of choice, but without
that risk there can be no genuine love.
This kind of freedom can be violated if we do not give other people the same
freedom God gives us. For us to try to force conformity, belief, or obedience
through pressure, threats, or rules is to destroy the very heart of Christianity.
When we move away from freedom, we enter into religious legalism, denying
the grace of God.
Patiently Waiting
The father loved his son so deeply that he watched every day for him to
return home.
A certain man came night after night to a large auditorium to hear a famous
evangelist preach the gospel. Each evening he came, yet he was unmoved in his
firm conviction that there was no reason to respond publicly to the appeals to
make a commitment to Jesus Christ. "I can pray right here where I'm sitting," he
reasoned. Yet he kept returning to hear more, always sitting in the same place.
Night after night a polite young man approached the well-to-do visitor and
asked him if he would like to go forward to make a public commitment to follow
Jesus Christ. Repeatedly the man told the usher, "I can pray right here where I'm
sitting. I don't need to go forward to pray or become a Christian!" To this the
usher always responded courteously, "I'm sorry, sir, but you are wrong. You
cannot pray here. You must go forward if you want to make a commitment to
accept Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior." This conversation was repeated
almost verbatim every night, but the businessman was determined not to respond
with a show of "public emotion," as he called it.
Then came the last night. The distinguished-looking man took the same seat
he had occupied each evening. The evangelist preached and for the final time
invited people in the audience to respond by coming to the front of the
auditorium to indicate their desire to dedicate their lives to Jesus Christ. Once
more the usher invited the man to walk up the aisle. "If you want to go to the
front to give your life to Christ, I'll even go with you, sir," he volunteered.
This time the man looked up with tears in his eyes. He had been deeply
touched by the preaching. He replied, "Oh, would you please go with me? I need
to give my life to Christ. I'm ready to go forward and pray." The usher
responded, "Sir, you don't need to go forward to accept the Lord. You can pray
right here where you are sitting!"
When this distinguished man was ready to humble himself, then the Lord
could reach him where he was. The lost sons in the two stories finally came to
the same point. When they finally acknowledged their guilt, then the change
took place in their lives. The fathers longed for their sons to reach this attitude of
sorrow for their sins, but knew it must be the young men's decision. Every day
they watched for their sons and longed for their return. How great was their
patience and compassion!
The sons could not blame their fathers for their problems. They ended up in
poverty because of their own foolishness. When they realized their error, they
repented and decided to return to their homes. In these stories, grace and
repentance meet each other. Because the sons knew their fathers' love, they
chose to admit their wrong and go home. Knowledge of that love finally brought
them to repentance.
Our heavenly Father longs for us to return "home".. .whatever our problems,
whatever our needs. Isaiah 30:18 says, "The LORD waits to be gracious to you."
Romans 2:4 asks, "Do you not know that God's kindness is meant to lead you to
repentance?"
Unconditional Acceptance
The father loved his son so much that when he did return home he did not
condemn his son for his wrong actions, but he forgave him and celebrated his
return with a great feast.
In the parable of the Prodigal Son, the father did more than wait. He ran!
When he saw his dirty, weary son shuffling down the road, hesitant and
uncertain, he hurried to him and embraced him. There was no reserve in his heart
toward this one who had sinned. His joy revealed his complete forgiveness and
acceptance.
God does not condone our rebellion or selfishness. It grieves Him deeply to
see us hurting ourselves and others. Yet He constantly waits for us to respond to
His love and receive His forgiveness. And when we do, He welcomes us freely
and completely.
The Father constantly waits for us to respond to His love and receive His
forgiveness.
As we think of God as the waiting Father, we must be careful not to think that
His loving, forgiving attitude makes Him weak, or a "pushover." He is powerful
and mighty above all others. There is great strength in His love. His ruthless
hatred of evil tolerates no double-mindedness, but His compassion is endless
toward those who see their need of Him. He sees our hearts. He knows our
innermost thoughts. He offers great security to all those who sincerely want to be
in His family.
The Bible describes the character of our waiting Father in many ways.
Consider some of the characteristics of God that the Scriptures teach us.
•Creator: One who creates us in His image with freedom to choose to freely
respond to His love.
"In him we live and move and have our being... for we are indeed his
offspring" (Acts 17:28).
"0 LORD, You are our Father; We are the clay, and You our potter; and
all we are the work of Your hand" (Isaiah 64:8 NKJV).
•Provider: One who loves to provide for our physical, emotional, mental, and
spiritual needs.
"If you then, who are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children,
how much more will your Father who is in heaven give good gifts to
those who ask him!" (Matthew 7:11).
•Friend and Counselor: One who longs to have intimate friendship with us
and to give us wise counsel and instruction.
"You are the friend of my youth" (Jeremiah 3:4 NASB). "His name will
be called Wonderful, Counselor, Mighty God, Everlasting Father, Prince
of Peace" (Isaiah 9:6). "You will guide me with Your counsel" (Psalm
73:24 NKJV).
"My son, do not regard lightly the discipline of the Lord... For the Lord
disciplines him whom he loves, and chastises every son whom he
receives... If you are left without discipline... then you are illegitimate
children and not sons... For the moment all discipline seems painful
rather than pleasant; later it yields the peaceful fruit of righteousness to
those who have been trained by it" (Hebrews 12:5,6,8,11).
•Redeemer: One who forgives His children's faults and brings good out of
their failures and weaknesses; One who saves.
"Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of
mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our afflictions"
(2 Corinthians 1:3-4).
•Defender and Deliverer: One who loves to protect, defend, and deliver His
children.
"He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High, who abides in the
shadow of the Almighty, will say to the LORD, `My refuge and my
fortress; my God, in whom I trust.' For he will deliver you" (Psalm 91:1-
3).
•Father: One who wants to free us from all false gods so that He can be a
father to us.
"I will be a father to you, and you shall be my sons and daughters, says
the Lord Almighty" (2 Corinthians 6:18).
•Father of the fatherless: One who cares for the homeless and the widow.
"The Father himself loves you, because you have loved me and have
believed that I came from the Father" (John 16:27).
Despite all that the Bible teaches about God as loving and just, there was a
time in my life when I respected Him but did not love Him. I even feared Him
because of His awesome power, but I did not love Him for His goodness.
It was when I looked beyond my ideas about God, beyond my desire to argue
and discuss, and asked God to reveal to me how He saw my selfishness that I
began to experience a deeper relationship with Him.
God is a waiting, loving Father and so much more! As we spend time with
Him, we will discover fresh insights into His character and new depths in our
relationship with Him.
The world is filled with emotional and spiritual orphans.
Ali Agca was born in the remote mountain village of Yesiltepe in Turkey. He
was just ten years old when his father died, and he smiled throughout the funeral.
Ali hated his father passionately. The violent scenes of his father's brutality were
seared permanently into his consciousness.
Shortly after his father's death, he made a "hate list" of people and things that
had become the focus of his hostility. Only out of respect for his mother did Ali
leave his father's name off the list.
On May 13, 1981, Mehmet Ali Agca's trail of terror ended abruptly, but not
before broadcasters worldwide stumbled over the pronunciation of this unknown
Turkish boy's name. He was identified as the man who, only hours before, had
shot Pope John Paul II.
Two-and-a-half years later, in late 1983, Ali Agca sat in a bare, white-walled
cell in Rome's Rebibbia prison. It was to that cell that John Paul made his
dramatic Christmastime pilgrimage of forgiveness. Although on one level it was
an intensely intimate transaction between the two men, it was also a dramatic
example of Christian charity. John Paul sat for 21 minutes, holding the hand that
had held the gun. Whether one is Protestant or Catholic, it is impossible to deny
the significance of John Paul's actions. What he did was profoundly Christian.
He sought out his enemy and forgave him.
In so doing, he gave Ali Agca a new understanding of God and offered him a
way out of the darkness and bitterness of his soul. During those 21 short
minutes, John Paul, who said he spoke to Ali "as a brother," showed him a way
to the Father.
So many people are orphaned, not just from their physical parents, but from
any kind of healthy spiritual or emotional heritage. Earlier in this book I
described the needs many people have for healing. Pushed to the fringes of
society by hurt and rejection, they feel alone in the world.
The church is also filled with spiritual orphans. Either they have accepted
Jesus Christ but have not been nurtured in their faith, or because of some failure
on their own or someone else's part they have not yet become a part of a spiritual
family. They need a church home, a place where they belong.
These people desperately need pastoral care. They need to be taught God's
Word, to be counseled with sound biblical principles, and to be encouraged and
exhorted by someone mature in the faith. They need a spiritual father or mother
who can help them grow in the Lord.
These people need a spiritual father or mother who can help them grow in the
Lord.
Others need to be "reparented"-that is, given the kind of example only a wise,
stable mother or father figure can provide. If proper parenting was missing
during a person's developmental years, whether physically or spiritually or both,
he or she needs someone to provide an example. This relationship should not
revolve around a nagging or "hanging on," but should provide a role model that
encourages growth.
Biblical Examples
Peter exhorted the elders to "tend the flock of God that is your charge" (1
Peter 5:2). Paul said to the Corinthian Christians that "though you have countless
guides in Christ, you do not have many fathers... Therefore I sent to you
Timothy, my beloved and faithful child in the Lord, to remind you of my ways
in Christ, as I teach them everywhere in every church" (1 Corinthians 4:15,17).
Paul reminded the Thessalonians that "we were gentle among you, like a nurse
taking care of her children... For you know how, like a father with his children,
we exhorted each one of you and encouraged you and charged you to lead a life
worthy of God" (1 Thessalonians 2:7, 11-12).
Being a father or mother in the Lord is not limited to those who are pastors or
spiritual leaders. There is also a very crucial need for other spiritually mature,
caring people to act as "fathers" and "mothers" to other believers. John speaks of
those who are fathers in the Lord because "you know him who is from the
beginning" (1 John 2:14). Young men like to fight Satan, but fathers know the
Father. By their very presence they minister to those around them because of
their maturity and depth in God. We need to turn loose these "moms and dads"
in the church to be who they are. By being available, having time for people, and
having open homes, their lives can be instruments of healing and love.
The following chart helps point out the differences between the two
approaches.
Biblical authority is never taken-it is offered. It does not reside in a position
or a right. It is the outworking of who we are, not of an office we hold or a title
that appears on our door. It comes from the anointing of God's Spirit and is the
sum total of our character, wisdom, spiritual gift, and servant attitude.
Fathers in the Lord understand these principles about authority. They know
the character of the Father, so they are relaxed in their ministry to other people.
This does not mean they are indecisive and unable to confront people when
necessary. Rather, they have learned to take action as God directs, not just
because they are "the leader."
It takes humility to receive from someone. When God brings a person into
our lives to teach us, we must have the right attitude so we can benefit from all
that God wants to do in us through that person.
God longs to comfort us and encourage us through others, but His love is
blocked if we do not have a teachable attitude and a heart that is open to accept
what He wants to give us. To think we do not need to receive from others does
not prove humility or maturity-it reveals pride. We do, however, have the final
responsibility before God to discern if what others say to us is correct. We
cannot agree with people if we do not have the conviction they are right. The
Bible is our measuring stick as we evaluate the counsel of others.
When several of David's brave soldiers overheard him say that he longed for
a drink of water from the wells of Bethlehem, they decided to get it for him. The
wells, however, were within the camp of the Philistines, David's enemies. So
these men fought their way into the camp in a daring raid, risking their lives to
get David some of that precious well water.
Imagine the look on their faces as they staggered back into camp, wounded
and bleeding, bursting with pride at their accomplishment. To their great dismay,
David took the water they offered and poured it on the ground! "Devotion such
as this," he declared, "belongs only to the Lord."
David recognized the potential for his men to give him the devotion due only
to God, and he wisely redirected their loyalties. Hurt as they must have been,
years later those same mighty men told others of the lesson David had taught
them about keeping God first in their lives. In the long run he earned their
respect.
People will remember how we say things far longer than our actual
conversations.
Being a good father, whether in the church or the home, has more to do with
the atmosphere we create than the words we speak. People will remember our
attitudes and actions-how we say things-far longer than our actual conversations.
Those attitudes, and our underlying philosophies of life and ministry, set a mood
everywhere we go. We take that mood with us.
For example, some people freely express their love and concern for us. They
convey it in many little but obvious ways, and it isn't long before we feel free to
be open and honest with them. With others, though, we wouldn't tell them
something personal even if they pledged secrecy and trustworthiness.
•We create an atmosphere for spiritual growth through the love and trust we
share with other people.
•We create an atmosphere of faith and vision by seeing needs and discerning
God's response to the need.
•We create an atmosphere of human value and worth by taking time to listen.
When I was 21 years old I saw a vision of teams of young people fanning out to
each continent of the earth, preaching the gospel and making disciples. I saw the
power of totally dedicated young people giving themselves without reservation
to reaching their generation for Christ.
For many years my wife, Sally, and I started halfway houses for dropped-out
Westerners. It was in those early days of pioneering that we learned the value of
being part of a committed community. We discovered that being part of a loving
community set the context for our witness to those who hadn't experienced the
Father's love. People experienced the love of God as they hung out with us and
saw us caring for one another. We learned we could not separate the message we
shared from a lifestyle of making disciples and investing in people's lives. We
discovered God's Father heart by reaching out to the lost and broken of our
world. We would never have known God the way we do today by sitting at
home, living a life of comfort and ease.
There are hundreds of millions of people in our world living lonely, broken
lives. Most of them have never heard of the Father's love. They are without
hope. They are neglected, alone, cut off from the gospel and from those who
know the gospel. They will never experience God's Father heart unless someone
tells them the good news.
Through trial and error, Sally and I learned that if we invested our lives in
one person at a time, it wasn't long until those we reached were touching the
lives of others, and in turn those people would reach others as well. What God
did during our years in Amsterdam was birth a movement. Even though we
made lots of mistakes, something bigger than ourselves was born and then
multiplied all over the earth. We learned lessons about discipleship and spiritual
parenting and community that we are still living and passing on to others.
Though we didn't call it church in the beginning, I have learned since that
time that we were doing church-it was just different from how others did it. We
were criticized by church leaders for not fitting in with their way of doing
church. But God used the criticism to birth a vision in our hearts for being and
doing church like we read about it in the book of Acts. Building Christian
community is the natural outcome of making disciples. It's not complicated,
really. It's all about praying until you get God's heart for people, reaching out to
them where they are, responding to their needs, telling them about Jesus, and
then gathering them into spiritual families so they can worship and grow with
others of like heart and mind.
Today, Sally and I pastor a radical church in Kansas City-in the heartland of
America. We help oversee an equipping community called All Nations Training
Center. And we are part of a network of life-giving churches called All Nations
Family. We lead a team of tremendous mothers and fathers in the Lord, who
love investing their lives in others. Together, we are passing on the lessons we
have learned through a lifetime of following Jesus.
Our passion is Jesus and His glory, revealed through the church. After Jesus
ascended into heaven, His followers gathered in small house churches-spiritual
families, if you will-where every member exercised spiritual gifts, each person
had a ministry, and everyone was reaching out to others around them. The whole
church was engaged in obeying Jesus-right where they lived and worked.
Everyone was involved. It was the whole gospel for the whole church for the
whole world.
If you are passionate for Jesus, and want to live for His purposes in the earth,
we invite you to join us.
Our dream is to see hundreds of teams go all over the earth, sharing Jesus.
We are especially committed to reaching neglected peoples by meeting their
practical needs and showing them the love of the Father. We are not waiting for
a mystical call that may never come. We have told God we will take any
assignment He gives us to reach the most neglected peoples of the earth. If you
love Jesus passionately and are willing to live for His purposes in the earth, we
invite you to join us.
All Nations Training Center is a learning community where we allow the
Father heart of God to grip our hearts-so that His passion becomes our passion.
We equip and disciple people who are willing to lay down their lives to see Jesus
worshiped in languages never before heard in heaven.
All Nations Family currently has teams and workers in China, Thailand,
Taiwan, Nepal, Iraq, Germany, Canada, South Africa, Guatemala, India, North
America, Romania, Myanmar (formerly Burma), and France. All Nations
members are also targeting neglected peoples in North Africa and the Middle
East. As a movement, the All Nations Family is deeply challenged by what the
psalmist David wrote:
Declare His glory among the nations, His wonders among all peoples.
For the LORD is great and greatly to be praised; He is to be feared
above all gods. For all the gods of the peoples are idols, but the LORD
made the heavens. Honor and majesty are before Him; strength and
beauty are in His sanctuary. Give to the LORD, 0 families of the
peoples, give to the LORD glory and strength. Give to the LORD the
glory due His name; bring an offering, and come into His courts. Oh,
worship the LORD in the beauty of holiness! Tremble before Him, all
the earth. Say among the nations, "The LORD reigns."
If you would like more information about what Sally and I are doing
today, or if you would like to learn how you can be part of the All
Nations Family, e-mail us at
Unfortunately, poorly skilled people often prey on sincere Christians by calling
themselves counselors. A well-trained counselor or psychologist can be
extremely helpful, but it is important to be sure that he or she is well-qualified
and is supportive of the Christian faith. Following are three basic guidelines to
follow when choosing a counselor or psychologist.
Read John 1 and 2
5. Do you trust your earthly father? If no, can you figure out why and identify
those areas of mistrust? List them.
6. Do you trust Father God? If no, can you figure out why and identify those
areas of mistrust? List them.
7. List as many Scripture references as you can in which Jesus describes the
heart of the Father.
8. Read John 14:8-11. What do you sense the Lord saying to you?
10. Do you think you are walking in a degree of hurt from that rejection/
alienation at this time? If yes, describe how it affects you today.
11. The only healing for this condition is Are you willing to be led by the
Father's love into a walk of forgiveness, thereby healing your emotional
wounds?
Read John 3 and 4
1. Describe your family environment during your childhood. Was there peace,
joy, stability, security-or strife, depression, and so on?
3. Are you aware Father God created families so He would be glorified by the
fruit produced in this loving, secure environment? Was He glorified in your
family? Explain.
4. List the male authority figures in your life and how you felt or feel toward
them.
8. List some of the most painful moments of your life. Beside those moments,
write the name of a male authority figure who showed love and compassion
when you hurt.
10. List the people (male or female) who have loved you unconditionally.
11. Are you able to receive unconditional love from the creator of love-Father
God?
12. Do you feel you have been hurt in one of the seven areas of parental love? If
you aren't sure, ask someone close to you. Be as specific as you can in
identifying this area of hurt.
13. Are you willing to forgive anyone who has hurt you? Be honest.
Read John 5 and 6
2. Do you believe God the Father sent Jesus Christ into the world to introduce a
ministry of reconciliation, ending forever the separation of man (that includes
you) from Father God? (See 2 Corinthians 5:16-21.)
3. Do you believe that through Jesus Christ, healing can replace woundedness,
and that you can walk in wholeness rather than brokenheartedness? How can
this happen?
As you review the pages dealing with the "Saul Syndrome," seriously reflect
on your own life, your own personality, your own feelings. Consider if there is
any correlation between you and Saul. It is often wise to seek the insight of your
spouse or close friend when doing this, as they often see things in our lives we
cannot (especially in dealing with questions 12 and 13).
6. Are you willing to humble yourself and take the lower road? When?
11. Do you have a greater fear of (a greater desire to please) God than man? In
what areas of your life is this true?
13. Describe the Saul Syndrome traits you see in yourself. This is also an
excellent time to ask someone close to you what they see.
•unteachableness
•distrust
•disloyalty
•ingratitude
•unhealthy idealism
15. What does having the "fear of the Lord" mean to you?
Study Guide
Read John 7, 8, and 9
It is important that you find a private place and adequate time for this lesson.
Before you begin this section, review the previous three lessons. Any
questions you have not fully answered should be finished at this time. As you re-
read them, it is likely the Lord will give you even greater insight.
This is not meant to make light of the pain and hurt you may have
encountered in your life. Rather it is meant to show that how we respond, often
to protect ourselves, is frequently not Christ-centered. In these cases, we need to
recognize our sin and seek our Father's forgiveness.
•Be honest with the Father. He will then be able to comfort and guide you.
•Confess your sins. These sins should be confessed only on the level they
were committed.
Secret sin -A sin of the heart or mind that was never acted on or spoken
out to others. Needs to be confessed only to the Father.
3.Forgive those who have hurt you. Most often this is a process, not a one-time
act.
4.Receive forgiveness. Ask and receive the Father's forgiveness for your wrong
actions and/or attitudes toward others.
It might be a good idea for you to make a list of the specific things you are
confessing. You will probably then see a pattern in your life that, when
recognized and repented of, can be altered by your Father. It is not important for
you to keep this list, as it could cause embarrassment if read by someone else,
but it could be helpful to you initially.
Study Guide
Read john 10, 11, and 12
10. Explain how setting our expectations on other people, thus causing us to
focus on them or ourselves rather than on the Lord, can produce broken
relationships.
11. Read and re-read the questions on page 65-66. Become so familiar with them
that the next time you are disappointed, you will ask them of yourself and be
able to grow and learn from the disappointment rather than suffer in self-pity
(pride, that is).
Study Guide
Read john 13, 14, and 15
1. Explain how God intended man to live with Him eternally at the very
beginning of creation.
2. Do you see how sin and selfishness make man today so completely different
than how God created him to be? Explain.
3. Referring to question 2, who is the most broken over what has happened, man
or God? Explain.
6. Do feelings and selfish motives move us into godly sorrow? Why or why not?
7. God created us to have fellowship with Him, and through that love
relationship obedience would be a natural result. Therefore, our obedience to
our Father God should come as a
8. If the nonbelievers in your family or among your friends had a true concept of
God, do you think they would become believers?
9. Do you see how wrong God-concepts have caused many to reject Him and
His love? Explain.
10. What can you do to reveal truth to nonbelievers in your family and among
your friends?
11. List some of the hypocrisy and injustice you see in the church today.
12. Can you see hypocrisy in your life? Ask your spouse or someone close to
you what they "see." Are you willing to begin dealing with hypocrisy in the
church by first dealing with it in your own life? What do you need to deal
with?
13. Even though other people's actions against you may have been wrong and
caused you pain and hurt, are you willing to be responsible for and deal with
your own sinful attitudes and reactions? Tell how this approach could change
your life.
Study Guide
Read john 16, 17, and 18
1. Read Luke 15:11-24. Insert your name in this story about the Prodigal Son.
Can you identify with any of the characters in this parable? Which one(s)?
2. Explain in your own words how there can be no sincere, honest love without
the freedom of choice.
4. Explain the importance of allowing people around you, even those you deeply
love, the freedom to go their own way so they might come to their point of
need.
5. Are you willing to wait, with a loving heart attitude, for those who have hurt
and disappointed you-and then welcome them home? Ask God to give you
the name of one such person you can begin praying for now.
6. Of the 10 characteristics of God listed on pages 83-85, make a list of the ones
you know to be true and another for those you are not certain of yet. Then
ask the Father to cause those uncertainties to become truth to you.
Read John 19, 20, and 21
1. Describe the difference between dominating fathers and "fathers in the Lord."
3. Are you willing to be a father in the Lord to any person the Lord would send
you to?
4. Our Father God has and will continue to put people in our lives to father us.
Are you willing to receive what the Lord would have for you from a father in
the Lord?
6. The should always be the measuring stick we use to evaluate the counsel of
others.
The Forgotten Father. Thomas A.Smail, Wipf & Stock Publishers.
Putting Away Childish Things. David Seamands, Light & Life Communications.
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