Name: Irish Viel Dulag Grade 11 Grace

“The Heart want what it wants”

What would you do when you found out that your ex is now your best friend's groom to be? I

know he is an ex but let me tell you something. He's not just a normal ex. He was more than that.

He was my first love, my longtime boyfriend for 7 years and the one who broke my heart.

I’m Ari. I met Drake when I was in grade school. We were neighbors. We're neighbors but we

don't actually care about each other until such time we were classmate when I was in grade 5.

We go to the same school starting grade 1 but we've never been in a same class until I was grade

5. He was handsome, white skin, nice nose and a straight hair. Ever since he was transferred to

our section, he became the prince charming till grade six. The funny thing was that I was the

consistent muse in our section since grade 3. My classmates are saying, my classmates are saying

stuffs like ""I like him"", ""he's handsome"" and many more. Even girls from other sections

having a crush for him. At that time I have a sense I started to like him. I don't know why, one

day boom he became my crush, I have a feelings for him because every time if our school have

an event we were both together to compete for our section if there are upcoming Mr and Ms.

events. I would see him often because we need to practice the steps, the production number and

many more. Until one day they say that we are in relationship. I would react in a way “We’re just

friends no malice" but deep inside I was super kilig na.

Our relationship started when we were in grade six. Well I can say it is mutual understanding

because we became so close with each other. We would eat together, and sometimes he's very

touchy. He will hold my hand and touch my checks for no reason, I can still remember the time

that teacher group us into 4 groups, fortunately we were on the same group. It was a project for
our Science subject. It was kidda long so we need to help each other. We were 5 in the group and

we decided to do the project at Vincent's house. That was Saturday and I think we started at

around 1pm. He was waiting for me outside and we went there together. Around 6pm we were

done making the project and we decided to eat outside. We lied to our classmates we said to

them that we were going home but the truth is we plan that we eat outside together and guess

what? He court me, he asked me if I can be his girlfriend and I said YES! We went to the same

school in high school and we were in the same section. He met my family, I met his. WE WERE

SO PERFECT. I loved him more than anything else. And if you love the person you would

accept his past.

Just like any other relationship, we also had our ups and downs. But we were strong and we're

always there for each other. Until we graduated in high school. We remained strong. He was the

perfect boyfriend. He’s so sweet, no pride and very caring. For the past years we never issue

about third party. We were both loyal to each other. Until we were in college, we were in the

same school but not the same course. I took up Psychology and he took up Civil Engineering.

Until one day...

We were in 3rd year college and I found out that they will move to Manila. I was shock. I was

crying when he told me. I mean it hurts me honestly. That feeling we were been together since

grade school and this will be the first time that we far from each other. I was crying for several

nights and we even tried to talk to his parents if Drake will stay here in our place but his dad told

me this…..

Tito: Ari I know you and drake were loving each other and I know that your relationship is long

but this is our family decision. Your tita and I were decided that we were go to Manila we lived
there and Drake is our only son and we need to bring him there. Just keep in touch with him, you

don’t have to worry. I'm sorry. I hope you understand.

Starting that day we intense our bonding. We always go out, spend time with each other, we even

had plans once he was there in Manila I will visit him there and he will visit me here. Our plan

was perfect. And our means of communication was thru cellphone and social media.

I always wish that the time has stop but I know it won't happen. Until one day they go to manila.

That very first day that I never saw him, I feel so lifeless. So boring, intense. We would always

express how much we missed each other. Minutes, weeks, days and months has passed. It's very

hard. He promised if summer he will go to our place to visit me so I realized that I will wait for

him. But before the summer I hear about very bad news. They're migrating to Australia and that

totally broke my heart. I felt so sad and it hurt me so much because he never mention about that

plan. I remember not talking to him for almost 2 weeks until one day... Sunday morning my

mommy wake me up and I found out that Drake is here. When I saw him I was about to cry but

my parents were there so I decided not to. He wait for me and after that we went straight to his

house. To his room, to his bed. When we were alone, that's the time I burst out all of my tears.

Our memories were flash back to his room and everything. Although their house is empty but it

is not damage yet. For how many months I never saw him and now he is in my side I hug him so

tight. I missed him so bad. But I was mad and sad because I know that 2 months from now they

were not here in Philippines. He tried to talk with me. He said we were remain strong for our

future. He even said he wanted to stay here but his father will already decision. He will stay here

for 1 week only so we made a lot of memories.

Until one time they migrate to Australia. Our means of communication was thru skype and

facebook. But things change, we started to fight over silly things, there are times that we never
talk to and chat to each other. Long distance was fucking hard. We became cold until one day we

talk thru skype and we were fighting again until we decide to end our relationship and after it we

don’t communicate each other. I never message to him and so was he. None of us tried to make

things work again. It was very hard. Super hard. LDR is really not easy.

I went on with my life. I was broken hearted and it took me awhile to move on. I deleted all our

pictures and everything that reminds me of him. I met some guys but I never had a serious

relationship after Drake.

I got a job after I graduated. Then after 1 year I got promoted and I want to transfer to our office

in Manila. When I was in Manila, I met my co-worker Jasmine. She's beautiful and sweet then

we became best of friends. She mention that before she go here in Manila she work before in

Australia and she meet her boyfriend there and they already engaged. Jasmine and I became Best

friends but were kinda different typical of best friend cause in terms of personal life like love

life, family and other personal things we don’t like to mention. Were more on things that we like,

we go out together, we go to shopping. We've been like that for almost 5 months.

One time we were eating lunch and she told me something and I can really see in her eyes that

she is so kilig. She told me that her fiancée is go here in manila. At that time we started to talk on

personal things I became curious if what is the face of her boyfriend then she showed me her

phone. When I saw the picture. I was so shock, I knew the guy. I knew him. He was Drake, my

ex. When I saw his picture with Jasmine, I felt like I'm about to collapse. I looked at his face, his

lips, his eyes and for me he was still the same man years ago. The moment I saw the picture I act

like I didn't know him. I tried to stay normal as possible as I can so that Jasmine won't noticed.
That same day I went home to my apartment, I found myself crying and I don't know the reason

why.

Why am I crying? It's not like he cheated on me!? So why am I crying? Am I already move on?

The next thing I knew I was looking at our pictures. Before I tried to delete them but I just can't

do it. I save it in my photo bucket but our picture in the folder in our house I delete it already.

This time I cried so hard my heart is broken into pieces. Our memories were flashback and I

think I’m crazy. I questioned myself. Am I already move on? I think no. A part of me still yearns

for his love, his hug and everything. But what kills me at this moment is that knowing he loves

someone already and that someone is my best friend. They don't have wedding plans yet but

engaged already. So that means anytime from now will surely tie the knot. And I know that one

day I will definitely receive the scariest invitation card in my whole life.

Until one day its jasmine’s birthday I saw drake he proposed to jasmine and I was crying to see

him, I’m so happy for him and I resign for my work, jasmine shock and I told him everything

because I was pity to her and I went back to our place.

There's always that one person you'll never get over with no matter how long it's been. You can't

stop the feelings you have for someone and you can't lie to yourself either because your heart

knows the truth all too well. I love Drake so much till now. He will forever own a piece of me

that I can never take back.

I start moving on. I know time will come I can tell myself that "I remember the boy but I don't

remember the feelings anymore".

I am Selena but Drake is not my Justin.