Blood and

Chocolate

May- Ghost Moon

Flames shot high, turning the night lurid with carnival light. Sparks took the place of stars. The
century-old inn was a silhouette fronting hell, as everything Vivian knew was consumed in fire.

Two figures broke from the smashed front door and ran toward the woods where she stood, their
night-clothes smeared with soot, and their faces white with terror. The person who pushed them
out dissapeared once more inside.

Another window exploded.

Three of the cottages were in flames,too, and the barn. Horses screamed in terror as they were
chased from the stables by a handful of teenage boys

In the West Virginia hills, miles from the nearest town, they didn’t expect a fire engine to arrive.

Somewhere behind her a woman wailed and wailed.

“They did it on purpose. They burned us out.”

“Get her into one of the trucks,” a male voice yelled. “i’m bringing the other car around.”
“ Watch out for snipers,” a female voice called back. “ They might be waiting to pick us off as we
leave.”
“Head for Maryland,” Vivian heard her mother say. “We’ll meet at Rudy’s.”
Vivian felt a tug on her arm. Her mother, Esme, stood panting beside her.”I put Aunt Persia in my
car. Where’s your father?” Now that she stood alone with her daughte, her voice rose high in panic.
“He went back in,” Vivian anwsered her words roughened by smoke and tears. “With Gabriel and
Bucky.”
“Ivan!” Esme started towards the building and Vivian grabbed her and held on tight. “No you can’t
both be in there. I can’t stand it.”
Esme fought to get away, but at fifteen, Vivian was her match. “You can’t stop him,” Vivian said.
“He swore to protect the pack.”
“But I need to be beside him,” Esme begged.”They’re my people,too.”
What have I done? Vivian thought. If only she’d stop the boys this might not have happened. If
onbly she’d told her father they were out of control.
Figures came around the side of the house. Bucky led a slight young woman not much older than
Vivian. Gabriel held a shrieking bundle in his arms.
The fire roared its victory; then, with a crack as if a giant’s spine had snapped, a central beam
gave way, and the roof collapsed in a peacock tail of sparks and flame.
“Daddy!” Vivian screamed.
But it was too late.
Midsummer Moon May/June next year

“Mom, you’ve been fighting again.”

Vivian glared at her mother.
Esme Gandillon lolled in an easy chair, one long slim leg thrown over the arm. She refused to stop
grinning. A gash in her cheek still bled slightly.
“You look awful,” Vivian said.
“Yeah, but you should see the other bitch,” Esme anwsered. She scratched her scalpm luxuriosly
with both hands, tousling her thick blond hair.
Vivian sighed and came over to dab at her mother’s cheek with a tissue grabbed from the box on
the coffee table. She would ruin her beautiful. “Can’t you and Astrid leave each other alone?” It had
been like this ever sice they’d moved here from West Virginia, over a year ago now. She hardly knew
her mother anymore.”Can’t you?” she repeated.

“Rafe called for you,” Esme said, ignoring the question.

Vivian rolled her eyes. That wsa all she needed. Couldn’t he take a hint?
Esme sta up and looked directly at her daughter. “I thought that’s where you were, with Rafe and
the others.”
“No, I wasn’t.” She bristled at the thought. The five young males who were her only age-mates
were likely to get the rest of the pack killedif they kept going on the way they were.
“ So where were you?”
Vivian turned to leave the room. Since when was her mother so worried about where she was?
“Down by he rocks,” she said over her shoulder.
“What were you doing there?”
“Nothing.”
As she left, Vivian heard her mother growl softly in frustration.
Why did Esme always have to bring uop the Five? Couldn’t she get it throgh her head that she
didn’t want to be with them?
The familiar knot in her gut formed hard and tight. The fire last year had been the Five’s fault –
and Axel’s. She slammed the door of her room. The inside face of the door of her room. The inside
face of her door was channeled with claw marks. She grew her nails and ripped another row.
Axel had to lose it and kill that girl.
Axel had been acting wilder and wilder last spring, and talking crazy stuff. She heard him and the
Five boast about midnight visits to town where they stalked humans in the shadows and scared
them silly What they did sounded funny. Vivian made them take her, too. But rumours styarted
going around school. People were getting nervous . When Vivian said maybe they should cool it, Axel
and the Five only laughed at her.
Then Axel began to go off by himself, and something seemed wrong to her. He didn’t talk as
much. It drove her crazy.
I was half in love with Axel, Vivian thought as she stripped off her leggings. Rafe thought I was
his girl but I would have dropped him in a second for Axel. She sniffed in disgust. Caring for Axel
made me stupid.
She’d seen their behaviour spinning out of control, and she hadn’t done a thing. She should have
told her Father what they’d been upto, even if that meant she’d be in trouble herself. But you didn’t
squel on your friends, did you?
Then the night of the Valentine’s dance Axl went to town alone and killed a girl in the back of the
school.
 Vivian still felt the heat of anger when she thought of what he’d done. She couldn’t help thinking
he killed for a petty reason, like the girl turned him down. And he could have had me, she thought
bitterly.
He must have been changing back when a classmate saw him crouched over the body. Before
Axel knew he was there, the boy took off and named him to the police.
The Five decided to help. They killed another girl while Axel was in jail. They didn’t let Vivian
know their plans; they must have thought she’d object. And she would have, she thought, but she
wasn’t sure.
‘’How could a boy be covered in fur? How could a human inflict such wounds?’’ the family lawyer
pleaded for Axel. The new killing while Axel was locked up proved there was a wild animal on the
loose. Axel had merely discovered the body, then had panicked and run. The case was dismissed.
But someone from town believed the witness’s tale of a wolf that turned into a boy, and late one
night the inn and outbuildings burst into flames in six different spots, and black acrid smoke hid the
moon.
In the 1600s, her ancestors had fled from werewolf hysteria in France to the sparsely settled New
York, and by the end of the century had settled in wild Louisiana. In nineteenth-century New Orleans
the Verdun triplets broke the ban on human flesh and the pack moved in haste to West Virginia,
where they were joined by the remnants of a German pack form Pennsylvania. Last year the
forbidden appetite had won again, and the pack took flight from the hills that had been its home for
one hundred years and arrived refugees in the Maryland suburbs- five families plus assorted others
crammed into Uncle Rudy’s run-down Victorian house in Riverview. With luck, no-one would follow
them here; they could mark new trails.
The house on Seon Road had emptied out gradually as the others found jobs and places to stay,
until it held only Vivian, Esme and Uncle Rudy. Vivian had thought that by this time they would have
made plans for the future, but now the whole pack seemed to be crazy, her Mother included.
With more than half of them dead, no-one knew his or her place anymore. There was constant
squabbling. Survival depended on their blending in while they organised and decided where they
would move and settle for good, but at any moment the pack was likely to explode in a ball of flying
fur. They needed a leader badly, but no-one could agree who.
Blend in, she thought. If only I could.
Last summer she had hid in her room and slept mostly, and in the early hours of the morning, the
time when wolf kind came home to shed their pelts, Vivian would hear her Mother crying
inconsolably by her open bedroom window for someone who would never come home again.
By the time her junior year started, however, Vivian had began almost eating regularly, and Esme
had found herself a job as a waitress at Tooley’s, a local dive. Gradually it wasn’t so hard to make it
through the day. Vivian was no longer exhausted when she walked in the door at three-thirty, and
the schoolwork began to make sense.
She started to look longingly at the groups of kids laughing together around the flagpole after
school.
At first she thought, Why would I make friends with people who would kill me if they knew what I
was? What if I give myself away? But the yearning continued. It was then she realized that she didn’t
know how to make friends.
She had always had the pack around her, the pack that now hid in their special dens. There were
always pack kids. She never had to reach out for company, company was always there. The Five
were still around, of course, but now she couldn’t bear to be with them, and they could never be just
her friends now, anyway. They all saw her as a mate – be nice to one and the others would sulk and
snap. Fight, fight, fight, that’s what paying attention to them meant.
I want other friends, she thought. But no-one seemed to want her.
She stood in front of her closet mirror in her T-shirt and twisted this way and that. What’s wrong
with me? she wondered.
 There was nothing the matter that she could see. She was tall and leggy, like her mother, with
full breasts, small waist and slim hips that curved enough to show she was female. Her skin was
gently golden; it was always golden, sun or not, and her tawny hair was thick and long and wild.
So why was it that groups of girls stopped talking when she approached them at school and
answered her openings with terse words that killed conversations she tried to start? Was she too
good-looking? Was that possible? Was that the threat they saw? She was a beautiful loup-garou, she
knew – the Five howled for her – but what did human eyes perceive?
The boys nudged each other when she passed; she’d seen them out of the corner of her eye.
They noticed her. And she could understand why one or two might blush and stammer if she talked
to them. There were always shy boys who would die if any girl noticed them. But where were the
bold ones?
Male or female, they resisted her. Could they see the forest in her eyes, the shadow of her pelt?
Were her teeth too sharp? It’s hard not to be a wolf, she thought. She missed the mountain slopes
where humans were far apart and the pack was close, and she hardly ever had to pretend.
I don’t care, she thought, twirling around. I don’t need humans. I still have the pack, and we’ll be
moving on again soon. But she did care. The pack was in shreds, and in the midst of these humans
she was wolf-kind - loup-garou – and this made her an outsider and unwanted. But they would want
me if they took the time to know me, she thought. They just don’t know me.
She flung herself onto her bed and stretched her legs in the air to admire their sleek curves,
holding her hips to brace herself aloft. She stretched as hard as she could, toes pointed, fingers
reaching, muscles in sweet tension, almost as sweet as the change to fur. “I am strong,” she
whispered. “I can run with the night and catch the dawn. I can kick a hole in the sky.” And she struck
out with a foot to prove her words. Then she curled into a ball.
She missed her father – his advice, his comfort. She bared her teeth at the familiar pain.
From where she lay, she could see the unbroken wall she’d cleared of furniture and the mural
she’d started to console herself and to make this room hers.
Jagged, thick blacks made the forest a wild thin, texture on texture; the painted moon shone
fiercely. There was red slashed into the dark – eyes, blood.
Loups-garoux ran through the pooled moonlight on a night on her people’s ancient past. The
stories said that by ritual, sacrifice, and sacrament, they opened their souls to the Forest God, the
great hunter who took the shape of the wolf. To reward them for their devotion, his mate, the
Moon, gave them the gift to be more than human. Then they could throw aside the pelts of hunted
animals and grow their own, abandon their knives of flint and use their teeth. Their children’s
children’s children still carried the beast within, and all were subject to the Moon.
In the center of the mural was where she would become part of the night, where she would run
with the pack of her ancestors. But now whenever she picked up the brush, she couldn’t go on. She
couldn’t see herself there. She had a dream about the painting that kept coming back. She was
surrounded by darkness and she couldn’t see the muzzles around her. She was running, running,
trying to reach the open night, but all around the huge forms crowded close and abraded her skin
with their harsh thick fur as they thudded into and jostled her. And she couldn’t grow a pelt. It was
always their fur against her skin, and she’d wake up crying.
As if to counteract the dream, she had become obsessed for a while and had created dozens of
smaller paintings and sketches of the pack she knew while growing up. They lined her closet and
were stacked in the space between her dresser and the wall. They helped her hold on to the past.
They kept her from going crazy.
The art teacher thought she was one of those punksy artsy types and raved about the power of
expressionism. Great Moon, he’d shit a brick if he knew my subjects were real, Vivian thought
gleefully. He’d talked her into submitting a few prints to the school literary magazine. She’d laugh at
first – but why not? And now, to her surprise, there was one of her prints near the centre of The
Trumpet. Vivian smiled. And no doubt those humans trhought her work was the too-cool vision of
the terminally hip and dangerous.
 Thought of this small acceptance pushed back the gloom, nand she bounded up to fetch her
backpack and have another look. She should leave the magazine open on the kitchen table for Mom
to see tomorrow before she went to work. Would she recognise her daughter’s art? Would she be
proud?
The magazine smelled glossy and was cool in her hands. She found her print and devoured the
sheen of it, crisp and stark.And will those girls at school notice me now? She thought.
She hadn’t even bothered to see who she shared space with. Is my work better than the others’?
she wondered now. Apoem was on the page opposite hers. She looked at it suspiciously. Acrappy
poem would lessen what she’d done, make it cheap.