The School For Gods ENG

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The School for Gods

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Elio DAnna

To the Dreamer,
Who urges my Dream
to heights beyond reason
and depths beyond emotion,
Who rules me and compels me
to be free.

TABLE OF CONTENTS

Chapter I
The encounter with the Dreamer

1 The encounter with the Dreamer 2 Work is slavery
3 I am a woman.... 4 A dying species 5 The awakening
6 Changing the past 7 Inner forgiveness
8 Self-observation is self-correction 9 Death is no solution
10 Healing comes from within 11 The Landlords
12 J udith, la signorina 13 Thank you, Luisa!

Chapter II
Lupelius

1 Encounter with the School 2 The world is a legend
3 A School for overturning 4 Lupelius 5 The meeting with Father S.
6 The doctrine of Lupelius 7 Offer a rooster to Asclepius
8 Forbidden to kill yourself inside 9 The School for Gods
10 Mea Culpa 11 States and events I 12 States and events II
13 Put God to work! 14 The art of vigilance 15 Bad habits
16 You wont make it! 17 Turn your convictions upside down!
18 The Narcissus Syndrome 19 A man cannot hide

Chapter III
The Body

1 You are the world 2 Psychological dwarves
3 A song of sorrow 4 The body cannot lie
5 Be frugal! 6 A world without hunger 7 The world is as you dream it
8 No war within, no war without 9 Thinking is Destiny

Chapter IV
The Law of the Antagonist

1 Running 2 The keepers of Main Street 3 The walls
4 The Law of the Antagonist 5 Love thy enemy 6 Learn to smile inside
7 The suite at the St. James 8 Before the cock crows
9 Dinner with the Dreamer 10 The dishonest administrator
11 The victim is always guilty 12 The tickets 13 At the theatre with
the Dreamer 14 Les Misrables

Chapter V
Goodbye to New York

1 On the streets of Manhattan 2 The tools of Dreaming 3 The Lie
4 Goodbye to New York 5 Love doesnt depend 6 Love and serve
7 A second hand future 8 Dinner with the Sheik
9 Escape into sickness 10 The spider and the prey
11 The hide and seek of existence 12 The bottle 13 The real poor
14 Fear is love degraded 15 The solution comes from above

Chapter VI
To Kuwait City

1 This is economy! 2 Forgetting the Dream
3 Worry is an animal instinct 4 Escape is only for the few
5 Make programmes but dont believe in them 6 The Diary
7 Hello, who am I? 8 Tripping up mechanical habits
9 Winning ourselves 10 The Dream is the most real thing there is
11 Heleonore 12 The adoption

Chapter VII
Return to Italy

1 The clause 2 An unpleasant awakening
3 Ignorance is always close at hand 4 Return to the past
5 Psychological pollution 6 In the belly of the whale
7 The accident 8 A letter. A King Midas in reverse
9 Dance, for Gods sake, daaance!
10 Youre alive and sincere only when youre threatened!
11 Healing can only happen from within 12 In praise of injustice

13 The world is created by your thoughts 14 The past is dust
15 Will and Chance

Chapter VIII
To Shanghai with the Dreamer

1 Perfection never repeats itself 2 Mans reason is armed
3 The animal that lies 4 Become a free man!
5 Buddhas father 6 What depends is not real
7 Vision and reality are one 8 The clerical species
9 Do only what you love! 10 The terrible, wonderful cause
11 To fall in love 12 I am you! 13 Universe means towards one
14 The King is the Earth, the Earth is the King
15 Reality is Dream plus time 16 To be touched by the Dream

Chapter IX
The Game

1 Believing is seeing 2 Change your Liiife! 3 The Payment
4 We are the bow, the arrow and the target
5 I have come to free you! 6 Playing roles 7 The return path
8 You are not ready! 9 The shortcut 10 Compressing time
11 The others reveal you
12 Intentional role-playing. The Art of Acting
13 The Game of Encounters 14 The new paradigm
15 The Replay 16 Expecting from the world
17 This Book is forever!

Chapter X
The School

1 The vertical vision 2 A School for pragmatic dreamers
3 The dream of the Dream 4 The portable paradise
5 The greatest economic truth 6 Having is Being
7 University means towards oneness 8 The birth of the School
9 The Mission of the School 10 Believing without believing
11 The Secret of Doing 12 The past is a lie 13 State is place
14 Be a King and the Kingdom will come
15 The Bank 16 Money is not real
17 Fasting on the eve of battle
18 The auction

The School for Gods

This Book

This book is a map and an escape plan.
Its aim is to show you the path followed by an ordinary man
away from a hypnotic view of the world and an accusing and plaintive
interpretation of existence, to escape the rut of a programmed destiny.
This book would never have come to be, nor could I have
written a single line, had I not encountered the Dreamer and His
teachings.
I owe my infinite gratitude to the Dreamer for having
taken me by the hand into the world of the Dream, into the world of
courage and flawlessness, where time and death do not exist and
where wealth knows neither thieves nor decay.
On this journey back to the Essence, I have had to abandon so
much ballast: destructive thoughts, negative emotions, second-
hand beliefs and ideas. I have had to conquer myself - acknowledge
and challenge the darkest parts of my Being.
All that we see, touch and feel, reality in all its variety, is
nothing more than the projection of an invisible universe which
exists above our known world and which is the true origin of it.
With great difficulty, we can be aware of being surrounded by
invisibility, of living in a world which has its source in dreams,
where all that counts and is real in a man is invisible. Visibilia ex
Invisibilibus.
All our thoughts, feelings and fantasies are invisible. Our
hopes, ambitions, secrets, memories and imaginations, fears and
uncertainties and all our sensations, attractions, desires, aversions,
loves and hates belong to the impalpable but very real world of Being.
The invisible is not something metaphysical, poetic or mythical, nor
is it mysterious, secret or supernatural; it is not a fixed part of the
world of phenomena and events, of categories of elements of reality.
In every epoch, the change from one period to another in the

intellectual climate, and the discovery and implementation of new,
more advanced technologies constantly alter its boundaries, making
even larger parts of what was invisible in the past the subject of
legitimate scientific research today.
This book is the story of the rebirth of an ordinary man who
is the epitome of a fallen, defeated humanity. His journey back to the
essence is a new exodus in search of lost integrity.
The first thing one needs to be aware of to make this journey is
ones own condition of enslavement.
The root, the primary cause of all the worlds problems, from
the endemic poverty of vast regions of the planet to criminality and
war, is that humanity thinks and feels negatively.
Negative emotions rule the world we know. They are unreal,
and yet they occupy every corner of our life. In order to change
mans destiny, he needs to change his psychology, his system of
convictions and beliefs. He needs to eradicate from deep within
himself the tyranny of his fragile, mortal, fragmented mentality.
The planets most terrible illness is not cancer or Aids, but mans
conflictual thinking. This is the foundation upon which the ordinary
vision of the world is built: the real planetary killer.
The direction indicated to us by the Dreamer is both terrible
and wonderful, difficult and joyful, absurd and necessary, like the
journey made by the salmon, returning upstream against the current.
At first, His philosophy appeared to me to be a transgression of
the natural laws that govern all of humanity; yet it showed itself to
be envisaged and desired by the universal order of things and
representing the peak of mans possible evolution.
The book is the story of years of study and preparation spent
alongside an extraordinary Being. From Him, I received as a gift
the most incredible task: the creation of a planetary School a
University without boundaries.

Ive dreamed of an Individual Revolution capable of overturning the
mental paradigms of the old humanity
and freeing it forever from al conflict, from doubt, fear and pain.

Ive dreamed of a School that teaches a new generation of leaders
to harmonize the old apparent antagonisms: Economy and Ethics,
Action and Contemplation, Financial Power and Love.
The School for Gods

Growing and changing before my eyes, like a being in
gestation, day after day, The School for Gods built itself, as I was
building myself. To all appearances, I was writing this book, but in
reality it has always existed.
The Dreamers laws, His ideas, keep digging inside me and,
for the most part, are still not fully understood.
Like Prometheus, I have seized a fragment of the Dreamers
world and hold it tightly so as to give it one day to men and women
who, like me, want to abandon the hellish circles of ordinariness.

Once I believed that writing, and above all teaching, were the
truest form of giving. I know now that teaching is only a stratagem to
know oneself, to discover ones own incompleteness and heal it.

One can only teach if one does not know, the Dreamer once
told me. Those who truly know, do not teach!
What we have learned, what we truly possess, cannot be
transferred. Happiness, wealth, knowledge, will and love, cannot be
acquired from the outside, cannot be given but only re-
membered. They are the inalienable gifts of Being, and therefore, the
natural inheritance of every man.
No political, religious or philosophical system can change
society from the outside. Only an individual revolution, psychological
rebirth or healing of the Being, man by man, cell by cell, will be able
to lead us towards planetary well-being, towards a more intelligent
civilization, one that is truer and happier.

In recounting the lessons I learned from the Dreamer, I have
deliberately avoided including episodes, events and revelations which
might go beyond the readers acceptance, referring only to those
that, though still revolutionary seem to me to be within the grasp of
humanity in its present state.

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CHAPTER I

The encounter
with the Dreamer

1 The encounter with the Dreamer

At that time I was living in New York. My apartment was on
little Roosevelt Island, in the middle of the East River, between
Manhattan and Queens. The islet seemed like a ship about to slip
its moorings and drift out on the current towards the freedom of
the ocean, yet day after day it stayed where it was in the rippling
darkness of the river. I came into the bedroom to say goodnight to
the children, but they were already asleep. I tiptoed back into the
living room. The silence of the night cloaked me and concealed me. I
felt a sense of revulsion, of not belonging to that place, like a thief
stealing into the life of a stranger. I stopped and looked out at the
jagged profile of lights along the Queensborough Bridge. It was cold
and impending, like a threat.
Jennifer had just retired to her room, ending our marital
argument in the typical American style. I had come home late that
evening.
Id been to the J. F. K. airport to pick up a friend I hadnt
seen for some time. As we greeted each other, I sensed that his life
was somehow more comfortable and satisfying than mine. Instantly,
feelings of jealousy, envy, and a blind rivalry, welling up from my
unresolved past, burst forth in a mechanical torrent of words, an
impulsive need to talk incessantly. In the car, I spun one lie after
another, creating a fictitious version of my years in New York. I
told him how impossible it was to attend all the parties I had been
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spoke of my own professional triumphs, my hobbies and, above all,
my great relationship with Jennifer. The words were already dead
when they reached my throat, and a cry was building up inside me.
The nausea I felt at that river of insincerity that kept on flowing,
dense and unstoppable, and my sense of helplessness at being unable
to control the string of falsehoods, became unbearable. I wanted to
cease my absurd display, but the more I tried, the more disgust I felt
at my words, and the more I realized it was impossible to remedy the
situation.
There were two of us in one body. I was petrified at the
thought of being trapped inside a split creature: Siamese twins,
forever imprisoned in a fierce and grotesque symbiosis.
Darkness fell. I realized I had made a wrong turn. We were
penetrating more and more deeply into a labyrinth of dimly lit streets
that were growing increasingly desolate and filthy. My words died
away, and a cold silence filled the car. We had slowed to a walking
pace in torrential rain. I noticed the headlights of a car tailing us, then
caught a glimpse of shadows moving under the pillars of an overpass,
and turned to look at my friend. He was shaking uncontrollably his
face a mask of fear. I accelerated. My heart was pounding in my
chest as I instinctively swung into the first street I found, swerving
to avoid a group of tramps huddled around a burning oil drum. The
shadows of the buildings behind us gaped like the monstrous jaws of
a hell that was about to engulf us.
The shriek of a siren split the air. I cast nervous glances into
the rear-view mirror to check on the car following us until I saw its
lights become tiny points, then disappear into the darkness. Once we
reached a safer part of the city, I recognized some street signs that
finally led us home.
I never saw that friend again.
I took the elevator up to the sixteenth floor in the company of
a huge black man whose mumblings stayed with me all the way to my
apartment. At that time, Roosevelt Island was an experiment in
social integration so it wasnt unusual to meet disabled people who
lived there with their caregivers.
The sight of J ennifer welcomed me, her hair, just unwound
from big curlers, slithered around her face like Medusas snakes.
She was brandishing a cigarette between her fingers as she ranted
and nervously paced the living room. This was my final indelible
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impression of her in the mirror of my life. I felt the great void between
us and the gnawing ache of my existence, as if the anaesthetic that
had numbed me for years was finally wearing off. That apartment,
my relationship with that woman, and anything my gaze fell upon
spoke of an unredeemable mediocrity. Those choices that Id believed
to be my own, and taken as expressions of my own personality, were
revealing themselves as traps from which I could see no escape.
This wasnt the life Id dreamed of! Silent despair
overwhelmed me, a thick and icy river that drowned my lies and
compromises and washed me up onto desolate shores. I rested my
forehead on my arms and sadness gave way to sleep.

The interior of the villa was plunged in darkness and just
beginning to be tempered by a hint of dawn. An antique painting
occupied the wall at one end of the big hall. In the dim light I could
just make out a woodland scene with a dreaming figure at its centre.
Like the painting itself, every other aspect of that room, from its
furnishings to the architecture, conveyed an intense message of
beauty. Finding myself in that villa, at that uncertain hour between
night and dawn, was very strange, and yet I was not surprised.
Everything seemed familiar to me, although I was quite certain I
had never been there before.
The villa was silent, as if deep in thought. I climbed the
ancient stone stairs and came to a solid wooden chamber door. I
noticed that I was elegantly dressed, as though prepared to meet some
unknown figure of authority. I dont remember what was distressing
me, but I was anxious and grumpy. A swirl of emotions was feeding
my internal monologue like dry twigs in a fire. I took off my shoes
and left them at the entrance. This action too, seemed perfectly
natural to me. These necessary and familiar movements were clearly
part of a ritual I had performed on many other occasions. When I
knocked on the door I suddenly felt a kind of apprehension and awe
as if something inside of me knew what was waiting on the other side
of it. Without waiting for an answer, I pressed down the wrought iron
handle and pushed open the door.
I glanced at the fireplace. The dazzling brightness of the
flames hurt my eyes so much that I had to look away and close them
to stop them from watering. He stood next to the fire with his back to
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room, which the firelight had left mostly in shadow, had imposing
arches on two sides that framed ancient windows, like stone eye-
sockets, wide-open into the night. Through those facing East, I could
see a section of the sky becoming tinged with the gentle colours of
dawn.
I had only taken a few cautious steps across the wide
expanse of the white tiled floor when His voice rang out, forceful and
terrifying, freezing my every movement and paralysing my thoughts.
Your life is a disaster! He said, without turning to face
me I can sense it by the way you came in, by your footsteps, and
above all, by the stench of your emotions. You are a multitude, a
mob of thoughts. Where do you think you are going in this state?
Shattered into a thousand pieces as you are, you can barely manage
to live the existence of a clerk.
Im not a clerk I retorted, raising my voice as if to defend
myself from a sudden, physical attack. Whoever this person was,
it seemed appropriate to draw the right lines between us. But the
impact of my words was lost, as if muffled by padded walls. Seized
by an unknown fear, I struggled to find the voice to answer back:
Im a manager!
The spreading silence that followed grew enormous, and
penetrated to my very core. After what seemed like an eternity, I
heard the voice again.
How dare you say I? He said, with such contempt that it
hit me like a slap in the face In my world, to say I is to blaspheme.
I is the conflict you bear inside I is your host of lies Every
time you utter one of your little Is you are lying. Only he who knows
himself, who is master of his own life only he who possesses a real
will, can say I!
There was a pause. When He continued, His words were
even more menacing.
If you ever say I again, you will never be allowed to come
back here! Observe yourself Discover who you are!
To be a multitude means being trapped in an unreal,
inescapable system of false beliefs and lies that you yourself created.
Lack of unity leaves man imprisoned in ignorance, fear, and self-
destructiveness. It causes illness, degradation, violence, cruelty and
war in the outer world.
The world is as you dream it a mirror. Out there you
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find your reflection, the world that you have made, that you have
dreamed. Out there you can find yourself! Go out into the world
and see who you are. You will discover that others are the reflected
image of the lie that is living inside you, of your compromises, your
ignorance.
Change! and the world will change.
You create a sick world, and then you fear your own creation,
the violence that you yourself gave birth to. You think the world is an
objective fact but the world is as you dream it. Go into the world
and accept yourself. Meet the poor, the violent, the lepers that dwell
inside you. Accept them Do not avoid them, do not blame them
Surrender to your world. Go and consciously accept that which you
have created: a world that is rigid, ignorant lifeless.
Mans power lies in his capacity to master himself while at
the same time surrendering to himself.
Abruptly, His voice took on the sharp tone of an order:
In My presence pen and paper! He commanded. Dont
ever forget them!
His peremptory tone and the sudden change of subject
disconcerted me, but my confusion quickly turned into fear and then
into panic.
I felt as if a mortal threat were hanging over me. Every fibre in
my body was on edge when I heard His voice transformed into a
powerful hiss:
This time you must write. Pen and paper will be your
salvation! He said Writing down My words is the only way for you
not to forget Write! This is the only way you can scrape together
the scattered shreds of your existence.
Then, as if He had never strayed from the subject, He
returned to my last statement and said:
A manager is an employee who struggles to believe in what he
does; forcing a faith upon himself he is the high priest of a cult
that, however mediocre it may be, nevertheless gives him a feeling
of belonging, the illusion of having a direction. But you dont even
have this! Thoughts, sensations and desires, in the absence of will,
are crazed splinters of Being, and you are a meaningless fragment
at the mercy of the universe.
Those words poured over me like an unexpected cold shower,
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suddenly freezing. A profound embarrassment, such as I had never
experienced in my entire life, pervaded me slowly and cruelly. I
started at the sound of His voice in my ear, so incredibly close I
could feel His breath. His tone was a hoarse, dry murmur.
Among American Indian tribes, there was a caste of men at
the very bottom of the scale: men who were neither witch-doctors nor
warriors. They neither hunted nor competed for rank or for women.
They were assigned the hardest and most humiliating tasks. They
were the ones who would back away from trials of courage and
incorruptibility.
Here He paused, then lunged. Paralysed, I could do nothing to
deflector or cushion that blow.
In any tribe, primitive or modern He whispered fiercely
that is where you would be; on the lowest rung of the ladder.
The blow struck me full in the chest. The shame was unbearable.
Now I didnt even want him to stop - I just wanted to escape, to find
enough strength to simply turn my back on Him and disappear. If
only a telephone or an alarm clock would ring and get me out of
there But I could not move a muscle., An inviolate law, there in
the Dreamers world, prevented me from making a single gesture or
even taking a breath that was without dignity.
I know you would like to escape from this Dream He
continued relentlessly But I am Reality. Your life and your world,
which you believe to be real and in which you think you are making
choices and decisions, are unreal they are a terrible nightmare.
Marrying, having children, a career and a house, making money,
being admired and respected by others everything you believed
in all this is a meaningless fetish which you idolize and place
above everything else.
Only the Dream is real He affirmed forcefully The
Dream is the most real thing there is. Learn to live within the world of
the real. Here your habits and convictions, your old codes, no
longer apply What you call reality is only an image that must be
completely overturned. Nothing of the old world can be brought with
you. You will have to learn a new way of thinking, breathing, acting
and loving
You have led a purposeless existence a painful life.
Hidden behind a job and the protective illusion of a pay check,
you are perpetuating the poverty and suffering of the world He
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diagnosed, with a sweet yet grave voice, as if He were assessing me
serious damage Life is too precious to waste in dependence, and
too rich to lose! Its time to change!
A pause amplified the force of the words that followed.
Its time to abandon your conflictual vision of the world.
Its time for you to die to all that is lifeless. Its time to be reborn.
Its time for a new exodus, and a new freedom. It is the greatest
adventure a man can possibly imagine: the regaining of his own lost
integrity.
My eyes were not accustomed to the half-light. Dawn had all
but dissipated the night. Before the cold, pale earth re-emerged from
the shadows, a ray of sunlight struck the great mahogany mantel
supporting the stone hood over the fireplace. Carved in great gilded
gothic letters the words: Visibilia ex Invisibilibus appeared.

2 Work is slavery

Who are you? I barely found the strength to enquire.
I am the Dreamer He said I am the Dreamer and you are
the dreamed. An instant of sincerity, a crack in the wall of your lies,
like a f lash of lightning, allowed you to see Me.
The silence which followed spread like ripples in infinite
circles. His voice became a rustle.
I am freedom! He announced Now that you have met Me,
you will no longer be able to live such an insignificant existence.
The following words would remain forever engraved in my
memory.
To be dependent, even if involuntarily, is always a personal
choice. Nothing and no one can force you into dependency, only you
can do that to yourself!
Staring at me steadily, He stated that the propensity to lay the
blame on the world and to complain about ones lot were the most
irrefutable evidence of the fact that these principles had not been
understood. A man does not depend on a company; he is not limited
by a corporate pecking order or by a boss, but by his own fear.
Dependence is fear.
Being dependent is not the effect of a contract, it is
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Dependency is the consequence of lowering your self-esteem,
abdicating your dignity. It is what happens when you allow your
Being to be crushed.
In the external world, this internal condition, this
degradation, takes the form of a job, and assumes all the aspects
of a subordinate position. Dependency is the effect of an unsound
mind, enslaved by imaginary fears, by its own apprehensions
Dependency is the visible sign of having surrendered ones Dream.
This conclusion, the way He pronounced the word
dependency each time and the slow enunciation of each syllable,
unveiled the real meaning of the word and all the pain, the lack of
self-love, masked by the banality of its common usage.
Dependency is a disease of Being! It is the result of ones
incompleteness. the Dreamer revealed. To be dependent means to
cease believing in oneself. To depend means to stop dreaming.
The more I pondered His words, the more I felt them eating
into me like acid. My resentment sharpened into a rage. The way
His words cut a swath through the human condition was intolerable.
What could a mans life or his work have to do with his feelings and
fears? For me these two worlds, the inner and the outer, had always
been separated, and so should have remained. I firmly believed that
it was possible to be dependent in the outside world and yet remain
free on the inside, and this certainty fueled my indignation.
Like millions of other men, you have lived your life hidden in
the folds of lifeless organizations He accused You have bartered
your freedom for a fistful of illusory assurances. Its time to wake
from your hypnotic sleep from your hellish vision of existence!
No one had ever treated me like that before.
Who gives you the right to speak to me in this way? I
burst out defiantly.
You!
That simple, unexpected response left me frozen in a state of
utter impotence. I felt crushed by an overwhelming sense of guilt and
I felt naked in front of that as yet faceless being. I had a sudden
desire to flee. With my last remaining strength I tried to recover a
situation that seemed to be catapulting me beyond the boundaries of
my world.
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But how can organizations possibly work without
employees? I asked, feebly trying to redirect the conversation back
to what I considered coherent and reasonable.
The Dreamer did not respond. Encouraged by His silence that I took
for perplexity or an inability to answer me, I continued.
If they did not exist the world would come to a halt!
No, just the opposite! He replied sharply The world comes
to a halt because there are men who are dependent, men who are
frightened to death. Humanity, in its present state, cannot conceive
of a society free from dependency. Recognising that Id reached,
indeed gone beyond, the limits of my comprehension, He softened
His tone and became almost encouraging.
Dont worry He said with sarcastic concern, flashes of
irony crossing His severe gaze As long as there are men like you,
the world of dependency will continue to exist, and be densely
populated.
The pause that followed chilled the air between us. His light
amused tone suddenly turned to steel.
You!You will no longer be able to be part of that world
because you have met Me!
I felt a burst of light piercing painfully through my gloomy
thoughts and emotional mist.
Dependency is the negation of the Dream He continued
Dependency is the mask men wear to conceal their lack of freedom,
their denial of life
I had used and heard that word dependency many times, but
it was only after that first meeting with the Dreamer that I realized all
its painful significance. The condition of being an employee,
dependent on a company, revealed itself to be a modern transposition
of ancient slavery; a state of inner immaturity and subjugation. I
suddenly imagined crowds of human beings condemned to the
destiny of Sisyphus, chained to endless drudgery, tasks theyd never
chosen; labouring without creativity.
In a flashback I once again envisioned the facade of the
Rusconi building in Milan, on Viale Sarca, with its sign, Employee
Entrance, towering over the long line of entrance slots reserved for
employees. I imagined a host of stooped, defeated individuals filing
through those narrow portals as the Romans were once obliged to do
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Forks. A planetary procession of men and women who had abandoned
belief in their own uniqueness. A premonition of the death of the
individual darkened the air, and all the sorrow that accompanied that
fate clenched my heart.
The Dreamer cut through this vision with the delicacy of
someone drawing together the edges of a mortal wound. His words
had a solemn intonation when He announced:
One day there will be a society that merely dreams and will
no longer have to work. A humanity rich enough to dream, and
infinitely rich because it dreams.
The universe is bountiful in the extreme, a cornucopia
overflowing with all a mans heart desires In such a universe it is
impossible to fear scarcity. Only men like you, racked with fear and
doubt, can be poor and perpetuate dependency and poverty in the
world.
But Im not poor! I shouted indignantly Why would you
say that?
Inside I defended myself with all the reasons I could muster to
demonstrate the absurdity of His accusation. The Dreamer was
silent.
Im not poor! I shouted again I have a beautiful home, a
managers position, friends who respect me I have two children to
whom I am both father and mother
Here I stopped, overwhelmed by the intolerable injustice of
His groundless attack.
Poverty means being unable to see ones own limits the
Dreamer explained Being poor means you have bartered your right
to be the creator of your own destiny for a job you do not like, and
did not choose.
You! He added, just when I was hoping he had finished
You are the poorest of the poor, because you still do not know who
you are You have forgotten. To no one else have I given so many
opportunities as I have given to you. This is your last chance.
All at once, that feeling of having been offended and unfairly
treated disappeared, and all my defences gave way in the face of that
battering ram. I heard the hinges holding together my very existence
beginning to creak, and felt my most deep-rooted convictions begin
to crumble, like ancient temples shaken to their foundations.
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Open your eyes, contemplate your condition, and you will
see how far a man can stray from magnificence. We appear to be
here in the same room, and yet we are separated by infinite eons of
time.
With those words, as though illuminated by a flash of
lightning slashing across the darkness of the night, I understood
the distance that existed between Him and me. I appreciated the
falseness of my offended dignity, and the insignificance of the I
that I pronounced in the presence of the Dreamer like a tiny squeak
in the universe. My illusions of belonging to a decision-making class,
an elite of responsible men, possessing free will and independence
and in control of their own lives, fell like the curtain after the first act
of a comic opera. My eyes were bright with tears. Without realizing
it, I began to sink into a mire of self-pity.
Providentially, the Dreamer intervened, launching a harsh
command which seemed to be directed at the very depths of my
Being.
Wake up! Start your own revolution... Rise up against
yourself! He ordered sharply, offering me a way out of the tight
corner of contrition into which I was retreating.
Dream of freedom freedom from all constraints You are
the only obstacle to everything you desire! Dream, dream , dream
without end! The Dream is the most real thing there is.

3 I am a woman...

His voice, so deep and forceful only a moment ago, was
now as soft as a womans. This transformation made my blood run
cold. It could not be! That voice was... it was... the thought fell into a
vortex, and although the words it uttered were no longer violent, they
were nonetheless unbearable.
I am a dying woman murmured the voice.
The pause that followed gave me enough time to taste the
nausea of an unknown terror. I was paralysed, incapable of even
looking up. A pitiless eye, as huge as the horizon, was opening upon
my past.
I am a woman suffering from cancer who curses you for
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I listened intently, my body quaking and shivering, and I felt
that every word was pushing me closer to the edge of an abyss.
Luisella was speaking to me, with her disarming sweetness, reaching
to me across time, from beyond the boundaries of life and death.
The terrible circumstances of her death, at the age of 27, were now
once again confronting my guilty conscience. The sordidness of so
many episodes of our life together, the selfishness that drove me
to trade everything and everyone for some crumbs of security, my
fixation with money, my career and my inability to love her, flashed
and exploded painfully within me, and my soul was flooded with an
overwhelming disgust as I tried to break away from the man I had
been.
This is your death He told me It is the death of all
that you have been, and the death of the old debris you carry within
you Dont run away from it confront it once and for all! To be
reborn, a man must first die.
What does to die mean? I asked. My submissive tone
surprised me and made me realize how much my attitude had
changed.
To die means to overturn your own way of looking at
things. To die means to disappear from a coarse world, ruled by
suffering, to reappear at a higher level. He said, enigmatically.
I still did not understand. A part of me somehow wanted to
resist. These ideas expressed in words never heard until now, were
tearing me to pieces, shattering my memories, friendships, and most
deeply rooted convictions. For years I had studied, desperately trying
to be top of my class, working tirelessly to make a name for myself,
driven by the ambition to be someone who counted. To fight and win,
to struggle and win to overcome any obstacle that got in my way.
The guiding principle of my life and the only one I had ever believed
in, had been to work hard to make it... my greatest satisfaction in
this world was to win, to get ahead of the competition... And now,
did I have to reject all this? It seemed unfair that the Dreamer should
condemn my efforts. Dashed by the new powerful current, I still
clung to the desire to rise above the rest and hung onto the detritus of
my will which I believed to be the healthiest, most vital part of me.
Whatever happens outside yourself has to have your
inner approval to manifest. This means that anything happening in
your own life is the faithful reflection of your will He said, and I
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swallowed these words like gulps of oxygen after a long dive. Then
the effort to understand rationally the implications of what I had just
heard from Him made me lose that moment of lucidity, and a mortal
anguish took its place.
Was I then responsible for Luisellas death, did I ask for it?
The world around you dies because you die inside A
very dear person dies to make you realize your mortal vision of
existence that is the true cause of all your troubles. Do not let her
sacrifice be wasted through your incomprehension and self-pity! Any
circumstance or event that allows you to understand and know
yourself, even if it is unbearable, is always good.
How could I remedy this? I asked I would give my life,
now, to change this tragedy.
You are a liar and your past is the reflection of your
hypocrisy and your sick imagination. The slightest change in your
Being would project an entirely different past. This moment is the
only point of physical experience where you can change your past
history and with each change in your Being, you become a different
person living in a different world. With the slightest change of your
inner states, the memory of your past, your future and the entire
universe will simultaneously change. Your past history, which you
believe to have really lived, and feel to be so familiar, is just an
imaginary experience that you produce in this precise instant.
Remember! All possibilities lie in Now!

4 A dying species

No one can prevail over the others around him said the
Dreamer, insinuating himself into my thoughts, which were scattered
like flotsam from a shipwreck The idea of dominating others is an
illusion... a prejudice of the old conflictual, predatory, and failing
humanity
The pause that followed gave me the illusion of respite but the
hammer had rested in the air only to strike a harder blow.

You are the emblem of this dying species He pronounced a
species that is making way for a more evolved Being.
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and values. I felt the spasms of a creature making a supreme effort
to be born, and I despaired of ever succeeding. My universe had
first become malleable and then liquefied. I was swimming in deep
water.
What you perceive as a sensation of death, is the suffocation of
a humanity that is shedding its skin, a species on the edge of an
abyss, forced to abandon its superstitions and old tricks which no
longer work.
Those words were carved into the air like the universal
epigraph of the human condition. I saw myself floundering in an
immense ocean of bobbing heads, shipwrecked souls resigned to
their watery fate.
From their earliest years, men are taught to live in the most
desolate parts of their beings - Confronted with too large ideas or
anything which surpasses the limits of their imagination, they will
resist it and try to reduce it to a size small enough to fit into the
tiny container of their consciousness. These words brought to mind
images of the primitive tribes of Borneo who shrank the scalps of
their enemies in order to exorcize their power. His voice tore me
sharply away from such thoughts.
Its time you prepare for your journey He announced
with paternal solemnity.
There was, in His words, the tenderness, sorrow and
authority of those who know. I noticed that His tone reflected
exactly the way I was listening to him, as though each moment my
attitude were being reflected in a sonic mirror. When I resisted, His
voice became as hard and violent as my stubbornness, and when I
surrendered as sweet and gentle as my attitude. With a theatrical
gesture, He put His hand on the corner of his mouth, as if to share
some secret with me, and whispered:
Until now, when faced with lifes challenges, you have found
nothing better to do than numb yourself with work, or take refuge in
sex, sleep, or some hospital bed.
Then with intentional harshness, to shake me from the self-
pity into which I was sliding, He said:
To bend under the weight of unpleasant situations and
misfortunes, to take these things terribly seriously, is to reinforce a
miserable description of the world, and perpetuate its events.
So what should I have done? I asked, my voice breaking
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with desperation.
If a man changes his attitude towards the things that happen
to him, over the course of time this will change the very nature of
the things happening to him.
Our Being creates our Life. He concluded, taking a step
towards me. His advance, of only a few centimeters, was
nevertheless unsettling and put me on my guard, in a state of anxious
vigilance. I didnt know what to expect, as I had never been so alert.
It felt as if all the cells of my being were suddenly awakened. The
Dreamer waited until my attention peaked, and then spoke the most
devastating words of all.
The death of your wife was the materialization, the
dramatic representation of the scream of pain that permanently
echoes within you.. states of being and events are the two faces of a
single reality.
An unbearable sense of guilt was making me feel faint. A
bottomless chasm opened up ready to engulf me. With all my
remaining strength I was resisting this most simple and most
unbearable of truths: that I alone was responsible for every event in
my life, I was the sole cause of every suffering and misfortune.
The lights of the world grew dim to the point of being
extinguished. I was on the edge of limbo. Slowly, I slipped towards
it

5 The awakening

As soon as I awoke, I could think of nothing else. Outside it
was still night. The Manhattan traffic streaked past like bright lava
flowing from the mouth of an unseen volcano. I remained still for
some time, watching the world below floating in my conscience. It
seemed pale and insignificant. A new and pitiless clarity of thought
was sifting through me, scouring every corner of that apartment
making every piece of furniture, every book, every decoration,
reflect the ache of an insignificant life lived without joy. All my
possessions suddenly seemed to be orphaned and soulless. That
distinctive melancholy emanating from ownerless objects clenched
my heart. I felt the enormous weight of existing and the daunting
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their eyes the same death that permeated everything that surrounded
me and feared they might fade and disappear along with everything
else.
I spent many hours writing down everything that had
happened during my encounter with the Dreamer, and all He had
told me in that mysterious villa, in the chamber with the white tiled
floor. I only had to half close my eyes to see every detail emerge from
my memory in perfect clarity. Never had I been as lucid as in that
timeless time spent with Him. Now I knew I belonged to a dark sea
of divided and unconscious humanity. I was part of a planetary mob
of sleepwalkers who were unable to love. I could no longer ignore it.
In the weeks that followed I diligently read and reread my notes,
searching for some clue that might lead me back to Him and His
world.

From the terrace of the Caf de la France, I watched Western
tourists going into the Souk, circulating in the maze of streets like
white corpuscles in the veins of El Fna. They made slow progress,
assailed from all sides by noisy merchants, by begging hands browned
by the sun and water sellers, heavily laden with fleecy goatskin
bags. Young girls selling ornate jewellery besieged foreigners as they
passed by, stroking them as if they were talismans from whom they
could magically extract a few dirhams. I was familiar with their
watchful eyes blades of black fire and their imploring smiles, like
players in the game of love.
For three days I went back to that caf, surrounded by the
pulsating life of Marrakech. I waited, reading and drinking tea while
a pair of chameleons I had bought when I arrived kept me company.
Every so often, I would stop reading, and get up to observe the
kaleidoscopic spectacle of the street life, the brouhaha of commerce,
the intense activity of the locals plying their trades. Then I would go
back to my table. I began to lose heart. The thought of returning to
New York, of taking the first plane out, without looking back often
came to me as the hours and then the days passed. I was still trying
to figure things out, trying to find a gauge with which to measure
what was happening to me. I had left to look for Him without any
indication but the name of this city - a scattering of palms and houses
clustered between the blazing lips of the Sahara.
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After receiving His message, I had hesitated a long time
before leaving. It had seemed utterly insane to cross the ocean to
go and meet a fantastic character whose name I didnt even know.
So many difficulties had arisen and conspired against me taking
that journey. Above all, I couldnt think of a way of justifying it to
Jennifer. Day after day I had put off making any decision. But the
need to feel that sense of healing that I uniquely felt near Him, and
my fear of missing the only opportunity of seeing Him again had got
the better of me and I had decided to go. I was helped in reaching
this decision by my closest confidante, Giuseppona, the only person
to whom I had ever spoken about the Dreamer, and my encounter
with Him.
Go, my son she urged in her direct way of speaking, with
her strong Neapolitan accent, when I went to talk to her about it in
her little room.
Find him! This Dreamer sounds like a good person.
Giuseppona had always been part of the family. She had
been there at my birth, when I had taken my first steps, and it was
with her by my side that I had faced my first days at school. Every
morning when she took me there I would listen to the stories of the
streets and the people of Naples, ancient tales which were forever
new. It was from her that I soaked up the spirit, legends and exploits of
the heroes of that city. A city with an ancient heart, pulsating through
timeless layers of many civilizations, wearing one on top of the
other in shabby splendour, like Pulcinellas tiered costume. With the
passage of time, these had become the strata of the citys living skin.
In Giusepponas company, I could still feel their vitality; beneath the
patches and tatters I could see the gleam of gold and precious silks. I
still remember my embarrassment when, on rainy days, she would
burst into my classroom halfway through the morning, having rushed
past caretakers and janitors, to change my wet socks and shoes. As I
grew older, I didnt want her to hold my hand anymore, so for some
time she continued to accompany me, following at a distance. From
my teenage years on, she became my confidante in matters of the
heart. I remember her terse judgement, She wasnt right for you
anyway!, that comforted me in my romantic misfortunes. She had
adored my wife Luisella from the very first, and when we married
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best nanny we could ever have had for Giorgia and Luca for whom
she always had a boundless devotion.
Giuseppona was short and stocky, self-taught, resolute and
pugnacious, with a rough and slightly despotic manner. Her robust
physique and strong features gave her the look of an American
Indian, something between an old squaw and a tribal chief, and she
had all the dignity and bravery of a chieftain. She was slow and
heavy but wherever she went she put things in order. With her, one
never felt the lack of anything. Her judgement, which I had asked for
on so many occasions in my life, was an inimitable blend of good
sense and popular wisdom. Her presence had brought joy and good
humour wherever she had followed me, and she had been a solid rock
throughout my life.
When Luisa fell ill and died, Giuseppona became a second
mother to my children, never missing a day. I will never be able to
repay that debt of gratitude nor express what she has represented to
four generations of my family. Dear Giuseppona, I will hold you in
my heart, forever.
Having reached Marrakech, all my efforts to find the
Dreamer had come to nothing, and by the third day, I wasnt even
sure whether the enigmatic note which brought me there had really
been written by Him.
While waiting, I had spent many long hours roaming the city,
looking for some clue. For two nights, on my way back to the hotel
after a full day of fruitless searching, I had mentally gone over every
detail of our remarkable encounter, trying to find the slightest trace
that would lead me to Him.
That morning I was once again wandering through the heart
of the Souk. In the shadowy labyrinth of its spice-perfumed
alleyways, the Levantine smiles of a hundred merchants invited me
into their emporia - small shops piled high with the most improbable
of merchandise, mainly trinkets arranged haphazardly like debris cast
up from a shipwreck. The endless succession of these commercial,
often inhospitable caverns, as lightless as the cells of a beehive,
formed the banks of a human river, which dragged along with it men
and women of all the nationalities, ethnicities, colors and languages
of the world.
A picturesquely dressed, corpulent Mustapha who could have
been created by Walt Disney, succeeded in enticing me into his shop,
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to the envy and disappointment of his competitors. He had the clever,
shifty eyes of a rogue, set in a good-natured and intelligent face. The
shop turned out to be surprisingly large. With the help of two
assistants he literally turned everything in the shop upside down to
find something that might interest me, something I might buy. He
unrolled a hundred carpets, and offered me a veritable bazaar of
silver and brass objects, first polishing them on his arm before
offering them to me for examination. Following lengthy discourses
on the merits of all these items and innumerable glasses of mint tea,
which local custom does not permit one to decline, I was about to
leave.
It was at this point that he extracted from the top shelf, out of
a bundle of knick-knacks, a jewel box made of wood and ivory. It
was so finely inlaid, so perfectly formed that I could not take my eyes
off it, and the merchant, noting my interest, increased the praise he
heaped upon it, as well as the price. On the lid of the box, engraved in
Gothic characters, I read the inscription: Visibilia ex Invisibilibus :
all that we see and touch, all that is visible is born from the invisible.

6 Changing the past

I had left the Souk and returned to the Cafe de la France to
pick up my scaly, green chameleon friends and as I leaned on the
terrace railing, I ref lected on what had just happened.
The first rule of the desert is to travel light I heard
someone say behind me. I started at the sound of that voice. However
much I had longed for that moment and however much I had wished
to see Him again, I could not help but feel frightened. I felt the terror
of the unknown and his miraculous breath on my neck. Only with
great effort, turning very slowly, did I find the courage to face Him.
The Dreamer was smiling at me. His look was that of a rich,
aristocratic traveler from another time. He had the bored attitude
and the languorous movements of a snob, but his voice betrayed a
boundless energy. When He began to speak, I once again recognized
His decisive tone, with its apparent roughness.
It takes a huge amount of work to lighten your Being He
announced, launching in without any preamble You have to leave
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masters of misadventure and prophets of doom have imposed on you.
From them we have learned how to get into victim consciousness,
how to get into misery, poverty and sickness
Then, slowly moving His face towards mine, He added:
From them, we have learned a thousand ways to die. From
the dawn of civilization, by means of a generational contamination,
millions of men, sealed into a hypnotic sleep, have learned to believe
blindly in scarcity and limits.
Why? I asked Why shouldnt we choose vastness
without limits why shouldnt we choose life?
Because man is irretrievably hypnotized. Behind his every
misfortune, there is the most evil of evils, his unshakeable faith in
the inevitability of death
The first and most difficult step towards freedom is
realizing that this fear tyrannically governs his entire life.
These words, together with the solemnity of his tone and his
moving closer to me, thrust me into a state of agitation. As in the
cults and sacred rites of ancient civilizations, His theatricality
transformed the simplest act into a magical gesture, into a unique
cosmic event of creative power. By the knot in my stomach, I could
tell that He was about to make a decisive judgement.
Your past is a damnation from God! He declared, in a
hoarse voice. Then He stopped. This pause was particularly long,
as if, before proceeding, He had to wait for a signal that was slow in
coming. Then He said:
You need to redeem it to reclaim it you need to change
it!
Change the past? I asked.
In your past, there are still too many holes unsettled
accounts, inner debts that have not been paid off, feelings of guilt
and self-pity, and above all, dark corners where dirt and rust reign.
He listed these things as if rummaging through me like a drawer full
of superf luous, old possessions.
Your Being is like a badly managed shop, with articles
priced at random. He observed. Those things which are of great
value you sell cheaply, but the junk has ridiculously high price tags.
To carry on like this means certain failure
I would have liked to raise a shield to block those words
streaming mercilessly towards me.
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But how is it possible to change the past? How can one
change situations and events that have already taken place? I asked,
trying to defend myself, and divert what was becoming an unbearable
sense of responsibility.
There is a place in your Being where thoughts, sensations,
emotions, actions and events are archived forever, and even after
many years have passed we can still find them, like things which are
apparently inert and harmless that we have put away in an attic.
In reality, these things continue to live and condition the whole of
our existence. That is where you have to go! He added that all this
would have taken a long period of preparation.
How long? I asked, with all the excitement and
apprehension of someone about to embark upon a great adventure.
It will take at least as many years as have already been
spent mismanaging your life.was His stony reply, simultaneously
reprimanding me for my past conduct and my present question.
A stinging feeling of offence overcame me, like a conditioned
psychological reflex. Then, just as quickly as it had appeared, it
shrank to a mild grumble, before vanishing altogether.
The Dreamer had taken a seat at one of the tables, and I
sat down next to Him. The silence that followed lasted a long time
and became even deeper as the approaching darkness muffled the
clamour of El Fna.

7 Inner forgiveness

The setting sun was offering its last rays and Orion was
already visible in the fading blue cobalt of the night sky. The
temperature had dropped, but the Dreamer gave no sign of noticing,
nor of wanting to go inside. All indications were that a new, important
chapter of my apprenticeship was about to start. Although the terrace
was growing dark I took out my pen and notebook, determined to
take down every word He said. I understood the importance of
always having pen and paper at hand. They were all I needed to re-
member and recover the wholeness that I had lost in an outside world
far away from Him. Writing with Him in front of me, taking down
his every word, was like tiptoeing into a higher level of Being. His
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It takes years of working on yourself He said to achieve
that special condition of freedom, of knowledge, of power, called
inner forgiveness He emphasized this term with a particular
inflection in His voice, which instantly struck me as quite different
to His warrior-like character and the uncompromising language.
With a glance He verified that I was faithfully writing down
His words. He waited for me to finish, and then continued:
Inner forgiveness means delving into the folds of your own
existence where it is still tornit means washing and healing those
wounds that are still open andpaying off all unsettled debts
Then, assuming a theatrically conspiratorial pose and
lowering His voice as if about to share a valuable secret, He confided:
Inner forgiveness has the power to transform your past
and all its dead weight.
Time after time, I turned over in my mind those
incomprehensible words.
Everything is here, now! In this very instant, in the life of
every man, the past and the future are interacting simultaneously.
These words filled me with an inexplicable, irrational joy. I
found myself facing a limitless vision. The past and the future were
not separate worlds, but connected and indivisible, a single reality.
Inner forgiveness was a time machine which gave you the ability
to access events of your life that in your ordinary way of thinking
were forever gone, and future ones that were yet to come
I understand how the past might affect our lives, but the
future? I asked.
The future, like the past, lies right before your eyes, but you
cannot see it yet.
He spoke of vertical time and of a time-body where the
past and the future were compressed in this very moment. He told
me that the portal to gain access to this timeless time, was this
instant. The secret is never to be distracted, never to venture far from
it. Accessing the time-body meant being able to change the past
and create a brand new destiny.
I was thrilled. I wanted this adventure to start immediately I
wanted it desperatelybut my enthusiasm didnt have time to bud
before I felt it crushed by the Dreamers harsh words.
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For people like you it is impossible to achieve inner
forgiveness!He announced. His tone was that of a judge passing a
sentence for which there was no appeal.
To enter into your past and heal it, you need a long
preparation.
Without the ideas and the principles of a School, this
achievement is impossible; you wouldnt even know where to begin.
In a tone of finality, He said:
Inner forgiveness is a return journey to oneself, the real
reason why we were born. Men should never interrupt this healing
process.
The Dreamer warned me that this would require an extensive
effort on my part and, first and foremost, a lengthy process of self-
observation.

8 Self-observation is self-correction

Self-observation is self-correction A man can heal
anything from his past if he has the ability to observe himself said
the Dreamer. Then He went on to remark that mans condition was
nothing more than the result of his inability to observe himself, and
consequently, know himself.
Self-observation is akin to taking a birds eye view of
oneself and ones life! said the Dreamer, defining this concept, and,
sharpening his observation, He went on It is like putting events,
circumstances and relationships from the past under a bright ray of
sunlight.
As far as I could understand, the crucial prerequisite for
self-observation was the ability to conduct it impartially, without
passing moral judgement. Self-observation for the Dreamer meant
letting ones life flow, not before a panel of courthouse judges,
but under the x-rays of ones own objective intelligence, becoming
a neutral witness to ones own self; a witness whose duty was limited
to observing without ever passing judgement or formulating
criticism. This vaguely reminded me of some of the experiments
in organizational psychology I had studied at the London Business
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it). This approach was based on attention and advocated the adoption
of a system which kept the management constantly on the move
within the organization. The duty of a wandering manager consisted
precisely of roaming around and making his presence felt in every
corner of the company, no matter how remote.
His voice abruptly broke into my thoughts and memories,
tearing me away from the LBS classrooms.
Self-observation is self-correction repeated the Dreamer.
If you are able to observe yourself, you will automatically
self- correct Self-observation is healing a natural consequence
of the detachment that is created between the observer and the
observed.
Self-observation allows a man to see everything that keeps
him glued to the conveyor belt of the world: obsolete ideas, guilt,
prejudices, negative emotions, prophecies of doom It is a matter of
detachment, de-hypnotism, awakening
The most minimal suspension of the hypnotic effect the world
has on you would shatter everything you ever believed in, and would
unravel the apparent equilibrium and illusory certainties of a
lifetime.
This is why most men will never be able to observe
themselves He pronounced To distance oneself from the
description of the world, if only for a moment is an effort too great
for most men.
He fixed me with a long intense stare. He was redirecting the
focus of the conversation towards me. A knot in my stomach
anticipated the pain of what was about to follow.
Put the observer within you to work! Self-observation is the
death of that multitude of negative thoughts and emotions that have
always ruled your life. If you observe inside yourself, the right things
will start to happen and those that are not right will gradually melt
away.
With a glance He noticed my look of dismay and added:
No one can do this alone. To meet with yourself, with your
lie, to venture into the labyrinths of your Being without impeccable
preparation, would kill you in an instant.
His words sounded like an irrevocable judgement and I was
afraid He would abandon me. I feared He would consider mine to be
a lost cause and conclude that any further effort to help me would be
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in vain. A desperate and heroic determination rose inside me. My
readiness made Him reflect. Slowly He extended the forefinger and
middle finger of his right hand and holding them together, pressed
them against His cheek. Then He laid his chin down on the hollow of
His thumb and bent His head slightly forward. He remained like this,
deep in thought, for what seemed an eternity. He didnt seem to be
looking at me, but I was certain that not one of my thoughts escaped
Him. I was playing the final game of a decisive set, quite possibly the
last. Everything depended on me, and me alone. I waited.
Finally, the Dreamer emerged A man might see at most a
thousand full moons in his lifetime, but it is very likely that, by the
end of his life, he will never have found the time to observe even one
of them And yet the moon is external. Imagine how much more
difficult it is for a man to see himself, to focus inwards the direction
of his attention. Self-observation is only the beginning of the Art of
Dreaming.
We remained silent for a long time. The terrace of Caf de la
France stretched out into the darkness like the prow of a spaceship
about to cross the star-filled heavens. We were the only ones on
board solitary Argonauts of Being.
Get ready He said, with the resolute tone of one used to
getting things done It wont be an easy ride.
I listened carefully to His last words of advice. The Dreamer
would stay at my side, but everything would depend entirely on me.
He coldly explained that I risked finding myself trapped in a sort
of mental limbo, a place where the past is abandoned but not yet
understood, where the new world has yet to take shape. I would have
no way of returning to the Dreamers world from that band of space-
time. He made it plain that this might therefore be our last encounter.
The past of an ordinary man a man who hasnt yet taken
even the first steps towards the unity of Being, is strewn with barbs.
He said. These will snag him at the slightest attempt to enter and
make changes
These were the last words I was able to listen to. I had the
sensation that the terrace was drifting like a boat away from the
shore, and the objects around it were beginning to fade into the
distance.
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It was hard for me to hear what the Dreamer was saying. It
was as though for long periods His voice was drowned out by the
noise of invisible engines. The terrace turned into a time machine
in which He and I were the only crew members. The universe was
suspended, the time-tape rewound itself, and nothing else in the world
seemed more important than our voyage back into my consciousness
and past. I had the impression of slipping into the impenetrable
darkness of a tunnel, as if our machine was passing through an
inner geology, and layer upon calcified layer of existence.

The first fragment of my life came into view, like an island,
out of the darkness. As I watched it coming closer and looming larger I
had the feeling that I was entering a world that was at the same time
both familiar, yet arcane and mysterious, at the edge of the unknown.
In linear time, only a few years had passed since the events I was
revisiting with the Dreamer had taken place, and yet, that part of my
past seemed incredibly remote.

9 Death is no solution

Luisella had died at the age of twenty-seven. Like a child at
the beach digging a hole in the sand, a melanoma had slowly carved
a hole in her leg. The edges of my world had become ever more
blurred, as if I were seeing them through the battered eyes of a boxer.
For months Id felt only rancor: a numb resentment somewhere
between anger and fear.

Stupor, pain darkness!...
A criminal complicity of thoughts and emotions
Crazed splinters of Being
A blade of light pierces
the darkness of my existence.
Pain, stupor darkness!... Torn apart
Behind: darknessand painstill!...
I f ly towards it, closer, larger,
the opaque planet of my past years
Landingbut where?
There is no space, no opening,
Not a square millimeter of sincerity
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in the stony desert of my thoughts.
A gut swallows me.
Darkness Pain
Stupor!...
The room of a provincial hospital
the smell of disinfectant
the stench of disease and helplessness.
A grief-stricken figure is kneeling by someone
lying down, still
I move closer
that frightened man
is me!

This is the scene I was observing with the Dreamer. The
austerity of that already distant, marmoreal presence, cast a pitiless
light upon that small, dejected man, revealing his anachronism. I
listened to the confused multitude that assailed his Being: the seething
mass of thoughts, insignificant desires and emotions jostling within
him, all offering an illusory semblance of a soul. Through the eyes
of the Dreamer, as if under the influence of a hallucinogenic, I could
see, beyond appearances, the lump of selfishness and fear to which
this man had been reduced.
He is a ghost weeping over his own death commented
the Dreamer pitilessly, indicating him with a movement of his chin
Fear, suffering and anxiety are not the effect but the true cause of all
his troubles.
The Dreamer was revealing to me the most evil of all evils,
the source of every misfortune individual or collective, provincial
or planetary.
The chaos that every man carries within himself, his hell, is
projected into the world and takes the form of strife, discrimination,
wars between races, ideologies, religions and beliefs.
The excitement of this discovery mingled with my horror,
pity and shame when I saw the distinctive signs of premature ageing
in this man.
This man suffers, not because he is facing an event which
brings him pain and grief, rather he is facing this event because he
has chosen suffering as his natural state announced the Dreamer
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I realized that everything that my life had been and
everything it would become was already there, in that instant, just
as the life cycle of an oak tree is contained in its acorn. Every detail
proclaimed the negligence, carelessness and staleness of this life. I
would have liked to have done something, to warn the man I once
was, of our presence. I would have liked to have gone inside him to
put things right, to give him a little dignity, to make him straighten
his hunched back and wipe that pained expression off his face
It is impossible to intervene! You cannot do anything to
help said the Dreamer, holding me back. The tone of His voice had
become imperceptibly sweeter.
That man loves to suffer... he might swear to the contrary,
but in reality he would not leave his hell for anything in the world.
I was astonished, unable to believe such a monstrous claim.
The Dreamer caught the expression of incredulity on my face, and
added:
Indulging in that state allows him to cling to the world. It
makes him feel secure. Even with the pain of his condition, he is
comforted by the illusion that some help might come to him from the
outside
If only he could observe himself make even the most
microscopic adjustment to his attitude and reactions if only he had
the capacity to raise the level of one single thought or emotion by one
single millimetre, then his entire life would be transformed
Then, theatrically, He turned his voice into a powerful
whisper. That sudden change of tone sharpened my attention.
A man cannot change the events in his life, but only his
attitude towards them.
But you said it was possible to change the past I
protested. A searing disappointment, a wave of desperation, was
welling up behind my eyes like tears.
What you see here, this fragment of your existence which
you would like to step into and change, is not your past, countered
the Dreamer sharply. It is your future!
Everything repeats itself in your life Events repeat
themselves, remaining the same, because you dont want to change
Yet you complain, you accuse the world, convinced that someone
from the outside can harm you or be the cause of your misfortunes
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The ordinary man imprisoned by the circularity of time doesnt have
a future, only a past that repeats itself over and over again
Now you are seeing through My eyes! One day, when you are able
to bear the responsibility, you will understand that pitying yourself
is not the consequence but the origin of your misfortunes and that
you, and you alone, are the cause of all this Only then will you be
able to bring light into your past and heal it.
We were in the morgue. There were other bodies lined up
next to that of my wife. None were as young as Luisa. Then, in that
silence, echoed the words that I would never forget.
The death of this woman is the mirror image of all your
states of being, of your own inner deaths.
The Dreamer had warned me about the difficulties I would
encounter in revisiting the trenches of my past, and, experiencing
them again with Him by my side, I felt crushed by the weight of
His vision. The resulting sense of responsibility germinating within
me was unbearable. How could I accept that I was the creator and
director of this horror film that I called my life?
Death is immoral He announced in a firm voice and
unnatural Physical death is only the materialization of millions of
deaths which take place inside us every day; it is the crystallization
of a faith borrowed from a humanity which indulges in pain and
loves suffering.
Men have made death into their escape route He continued
relentlessly, taking no notice of my discomfiture. They know
exactly how to kill themselves they know all the tricks The
body is indestructible!... And yet, they have managed to turn the
impossible into the inevitable. A man cannot die, he can only kill
himself! To succeed in this a man has to give it his all and make a full
time occupation of self-pity and self-destruction
At this point He stopped, searching for the right words to
overcome my resistance, the rudimentary level of my perception and
the psychic wall I had raised up against the mysterious power of
these revolutionary ideas.
Death is always suicide He declared roaring the phrase
with the force of a battle cry Once this way of thinking has become
your own flesh, it will overturn your vision of the world, and with it,
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The Dreamer was attacking age-old beliefs, the unshakable
faith shared by all mankind, held together in brotherhood by the
shared condition of mortality, by the universal belief that death is
inevitable. These words made me violent, absolutely vicious, as if
someone was suddenly robbing me of everything that was most
precious to me, as if something was tearing into my very flesh.
An uncontrollable, silent scream arose within and echoed from the
depths of my Being.
In this very moment, billions of human beings are thinking
and feeling negatively, trapped as you are, in their own resentment
He said. I felt Him seeping into the most secret and inaccessible
recesses of my Being and I was deeply ashamed, as if I had been
caught in the act of stealing.
It is this state of being that denies humanity any hope of
escape from the most painful circles of existence He declared with a
trace of bitterness.
Then, in a tone of finality, gathering the threads of that most
memorable lesson, He said:
Men worship death and would never give it up, even if they
could, because they consider it to be the answer to all their problems,
the end of their suffering and of the thousand psychological deaths
they inflict upon themselves but death is no solution!
The mesmerizing fog lifted, and my vision became clear.
And, while the words of the Dreamer became real, the death of
Luisella, in that room draped in black with the other bodies lined
up in those little beds surrounded by candles, became unreal like a
macabre scene from a play.

10 Healing comes from within

We continued on that trip into my past until we docked at the
period of Luisas last months of life. I saw myself once again
unconsciously playing the obtuse role of the grieving husband, the
head of a household at not even thirty years old, already bent under
the weight of such terrible misfortune. I observed that little man
full of self-pity, blame, regret and recrimination. I saw his rancor
and how he was caught in the grip of hatred and resentment; how
he was throbbing with anxiety, lost in a sick imagination, his heart
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held in the ruthless clutches of guilt. I listened to his song of pain,
that unremitting accusation against everyone and everything, until I
could stand it no more.
Why all this? What am I doing here? I cried to the
Dreamer, crushed by the shame of this vision. I would have liked to
turn on my heels and run away, but I couldnt move a muscle.
With unexpected gentleness the Dreamer brought me back to
the purpose of this journey: to shed some light on my past, to revisit it
with a new understanding. It was an unrepeatable opportunity.
As with every true healing, the process has to start from
within He said sweetly, removing me from that state of self pity that
was threatening to overcome me at any moment.
It is our Being that creates the world, and not vice versa!
Like all men, you have always believed that events create your
state, that external circumstances are responsible for your
condition. Now you know this is an inverted view of reality.
I was recovering. I waited a few seconds and then indicated to
the Dreamer that I was ready to continue.
The next stage of our journey took us to Via Bolognese in
Florence where, at that time, I had been involved in management
training. During those months a sort of emotional symbiosis had been
established between my colleagues and me, which had combined my
natural tendency towards self-pity with the support they provided
for me at little cost. Without being aware of it, my misfortune had
made them feel better, and faced with the precariousness of life, they
were, for a while, really able to appreciate their mediocre ration of
existence. They treated me with the kindness and solicitude usually
reserved for the seriously ill, the injured, or the beaten. I saw the
full horror of this exchange and felt a deep discomfort. Whichever
way I looked at it, my past was full of shadows and I could not find
a scrap worth saving.
I wandered about like a desperate man arriving at a disaster
scene, looking for something to save: a loved one, a relationship,
anything that might have some use or value but, to no avail. I was
breathless with horror. Without the Dreamer next to me I would not
have found the strength to carry on.
Dont blame events He said, seeing me tottering under the
weight of these emotions To be a widower at twenty-nine with two
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an opportunity. If you had had the discipline you could have
transformed that event into something luminous. You could have
moved it to a higher level If you had had the courage to know
yourself, it would not have been necessary for Luisa to die it would
not have been necessary to have experienced so many misfortunes.
Our level of Being creates our life everything that you see
and touch is the reflected image of your Being, and comes from your
incompleteness, from that gap you bear inside. In existence, there
are no empty spaces. If you do not fill them intentionally, by forcing
yourself to think and act in a different way, then the world will do it
for you, mercilessly.
If you do not see, or do not want to see, then the disease
becomes acute, and the travesty of your life will become ever more
painful. Everything happens to reveal to you the cause of that
tragedy, to take you back to the source of all this and allow you
someday to intervene and change this mortal vision of existence.

11 The Landlords

Other fragments of my life, images from the past, streamed
before my eyes like a film on fast forward. The streets and faces of
people made me recognize the hundred cities in which I had lived, the
hundred houses in which I had slept. And finally I caught a glimpse
ofthe shadow!... The dark presence that had always followed me,
whenever I had chosen a new house, every time I had moved. I felt
the vice-like grip of apprehension.
In every one of those houses I had found ogres: unreasonable
landlords and argumentative characters, whom an ironic fate, a
recurring destiny of admirable pedagogy, had required me to have
as neighbours.
Look carefully observe them closely! ordered the
Dreamer, firmly but kindly, anticipating the painfulness of what He
was about to show me.
Those landlords were all the same person. There was no
change You didnt want to see that the person behind the mask,
disguised as a landlord, was always you. You, meeting yourself!
Something broke inside me. A heavy door slammed shut and I
heard the metallic click of the lock. I had the terrifying certainty
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that once I had heard these words, nothing would ever be the same
again. I fell apart inside, weeping without tears; my life had been that
of a ghost, a reflection that I could see fading in the mirror of the
world and disappearing without trace.
On the edge of that abyss, the words of the Dreamer came to
my rescue.
These are the guards, the jailers that you yourself have paid
to perpetuate your state of dependence. Until you banish forever that
song of pain which has always directed your life, those ghosts will
keep coming back.
The silence that followed lasted so long that I began to fear
that the golden thread which joined us would break, and I felt a pang
of anxiety at the thought that He might cut me out of His Dream.
It was a terrible feeling. For what seemed like an eternity I
experienced that emptiness, that absence, and I ceased to exist. I
understood then how much the Dreamer had become an integral part
of my existence. I was connected to Him by a precious cord as if to
a vital organ from which I drew life, a third lung from which I
breathed pure air.
Then, new images from my past began to pass before my
eyes, as though I were watching my life in an editing room. Somehow, I
began to learn to control them. Now I could stop them, enlarge
them, zoom in or out to gain a perspective. I could include or exclude
myself from the scene. I saw the villa in Via Fortini again, too large
and silent now that Luisa was in the hospital at Via Venezian in Milan
and Luca and Georgia were with their grandparents in Piedmont. I
watched those days quickly rushing by, dawning and waning. At
sunset, the shadows of the pine trees took possession of the old
house, insinuating themselves like thin fingers into the innermost
part of my Being.
I did not know the reason why the Dreamer had taken me to
this exact spot. I did not know which part of my life I was to live
through again. But I began to shake uncontrollably.
We are about to go into the cellar of your life, the dark
corners of your existence He said, encouraging me Its time to do
some tidying up to clear things out.
Get rid of that man! He ordered, hardening His tone into a
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I grasped what courage I had with both hands and once again
climbed the steep road leading to the large gates of the entrance. I
recognized the wind that blew down this hill and reached its fullest
force in that precise spot. Like a gale, it rushed down the gully of that
twisting alley, brushing its rough dry-stone walls, speckled here and
there with the green and white of wild capers. I went in through the
little metal door and saw the Citron I had had at that time parked at
the far end.
The villa appeared before me unexpectedly, the inner
driveway being very short. Just as unexpectedly, I came upon the
front steps of terracotta tiles and stone. As I began to make my way
up, I turned my gaze towards the bottom of the garden beyond the
house. I stopped to observe the illuminated windows of the guest
cottage. Our only neighbour lived there.
Memories rushed into my mind, bumping into each other,
and I felt my breathing quicken as the first frames of my affair with
J udith began to f licker into view.

12 Judith, la signorina

Giorgia and Luca called her la signorina. J udith was tall,
attractive, quite reserved and just a few years older than me. She
lived by herself in the little house at the end of our garden. An intense
batting of her eyelashes animated her expression, as if in a constant
state of astonishment. In reality she lived in a state of unperturbed
detachment. Nothing truly surprised her, and nothing seemed to
interest her beside her books and her music.
I checked to make sure that the Dreamer was still by my side
and went up to one of the windows that looked into the small
living room. My heart was in turmoil, as it had been when at night I
would go to her, seeking comfort in her body through fear and my
inability to bear what was happening to me.
Once again I saw that small room, its walls covered with
books, the sofa in the middle upholstered in a flowery fabric, and
J udith, whose long fingers would dance across the keyboard while I
told her about Luisas illness and the deterioration of her condition.
Her music was filling the room, making every atom of it vibrate. A
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crescendo drowned out those words full of egoism and false concern
for my wife.
Now I could feel the full horror of that mans intentions and
even smell the nauseating odour of his thoughts. For the first time I
clearly saw the struggle that was churning in my guts, torn as I was
between the pain of Luisas impending death and the wild and secret
joy I felt at the prospect of freeing myself from my wife and the
weight of that unbalanced and immature marriage.
At some obscure level, I had been blaming her for my
unhappiness and frustrations, for the restrictions and obstacles I had
encountered in my professional life.
Death is never an accident interrupted the voice of the
Dreamer just as sickness, unhappiness, and poverty are never
accidents. For years you prayed this would happen without even
admitting it to yourself, you intensely desired and even invoked it.
Dreams always come true, even the darkest ones.
The curtain of pretence was lifted. I could no longer hide, it
would no longer be possible. Behind the tears and desperation of that
small man, between his skin and the mask he wore, I saw the
smirking face of my own criminality. The horror took my breath
away and an unassailable force held me there, unable to move, in
front of J udiths window.
Once again I saw the scene of our first meeting. Luisa was
dying and I was clinging to this woman, in search of a little company,
compassion and her body. When J udith understood my intentions,
her attitude didnt change; she was not upset. She took my hand and
led me into her bedroom to give me what I had come begging for:
sex to forget, escape and find relief from the fear which tortured
my soul. From then on, we met frequently. We did not talk a great
deal and there was no need for ceremony. At night I would go to
her in order to soothe my anguish, but our embraces would end in
orgasms as insignificant as sneezes.
Dreamer did not spare me even a single one of those scenes
and I stayed there, watching that spectacle, tasting the full bitterness
of its squalor.
Luisa was in the house, a few yards away from us, at the
other end of the garden. This man could not be meMy disgust
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would stoop to any level to save myself. And so, cruelly, the wounds
left open from my past were healing themselves.
J udith saw our sexual relationship as a task to be scrupulously
fulfilled, with dedication and seriousness, but she never allowed
even one atom of my Being to attach itself to her life. Our affair
flowed over her without her life being influenced by mine at all. It
was frustrating not to be able to truly possess her, her independence
made me feel insecure. I persuaded myself that J udith lived for
no one but herself, that her love for books and music was only a
cloak for her egoism. And so, sealed under glass and labeled by
my judgement, I relegated her to the closet of past memories. Only
now, through the eyes of the Dreamer, was I able to see exactly what
J udith had represented for me. Only now was I able to see in her
reserved nature, so devoid of any hypocrisy, the detached attitude of
an impeccable being and the pure love of a sincere woman.
J udith was better than me. She had rescued me like a
desperate soul from the wreckage of my life. I cannot imagine what I
would have done without her. She had clearly seen who I was!
She had seen my senseless life turn horribly upon itself. She had
recognized me as a bearer of death! Keeping me out of her life had
been her salvation. How could I have judged her so harshly? No
longer occupying such a dark corner of my life, Judith shone!
Her music was life
And yet something did not make sense. How had I come to
meet her? How had a creature like J udith entered my hell just when
I so desperately needed her?
I turned towards the Dreamer. My legs were giving out from
under me. An absurd notion, a glint of total insanity was planting
itself in a small crack in my rationality. From there I felt it pushing
inwards, penetrating, slowly, inexorably. It wasnt possible! J udith
was a gift from the Dreamer!... J udith was the Dreamer! How
many times had He already come into my life to save me? How could I
have been so blind? How could I not have noticed such perfection?
The thought whirled at the edge of this precipice and then dropped
over.
Each one of us is given an immense margin of salvation
were the words the Dreamer used to bring me back. His tone was
surprisingly sweet.
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But we use it up, we waste it quickly, through our constant
negligence, our irresponsible way of ignoring the signs, the warnings,
the traffic-lights of existence and we believe ourselves to be
fragile, exposed to every peril, at the mercy of chance
The voice of the Dreamer became severe and resolute once
more and His intensity made me shudder.
Life is very powerful, and the body is indestructible. In
order to die, you must make the impossible possible.
Referring to the man I had been as if talking about someone
else, He said:
Forgive him! Forgiving him will heal your past and replace
it with the light of today.
Something inside me began to melt and then gave way. I
cried like a baby. A magma of pain, of unpleasant thoughts and
emotions flowed freely while regrets, accusations, resentments and
feelings of guilt came to the surface.
Men and women are all like you; ruled by negative emotion,
they are like fragments floating in the universe
Accusations, complaints and dependency are all part of the story
of their lives and the only way they can make sense of things!
Suffocated by anxiety, they try to forget about death through death.

13 Thank you, Luisa!

The journey into the past started once again. The scene
slowly changed and the Dreamer took me back to the period when I
was making constant trips between Florence and Milan to visit
Luisa who was hospitalized at the Institute on Via Venezian. I was
immediately trapped in the same mental cage and I found myself in
the same state I had been in at that time. I experienced the same pain I
had felt then, becoming more acute as the moment of each of those
departures drew closer.
I was torn between a moral obligation to be near her and a
repugnance I felt whenever I entered that place crowded with
suffering people. Crossing the wards, meeting them in the corridors, I
could flick through their faces as if I were turning the pale pages of
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their expressions and the ink of their suffering, fearing that one day I
might be condemned to the same fate.
And then I would feel an irresistible urge to flee, to leave
them behind and forget them forever. Outside there was what I
called life: people lost in the triviality of every day, the hubbub of
the traffic, the sound and reassuring flare of futile laughter. Having
hurriedly performed the ritual of the grieving husband, as soon as I
had absolved my guilt by conferring with one of the medical staff,
asking for updates and displaying my concern, I would find some
pretext and run away. I would wander around the streets of the city
center seeking refuge in the crowds; losing myself in the confusion
of the traffic, wrapping myself in the colours and lights of the city. I
was numbed by the smiles of the well-dressed women and the shop
window displays, nursing the illusion of a world without problems,
populated by people who were miraculously invulnerable and happy.
In that psychological bubble I could breathe.
Thoughts of Luisa would break in without warning from
time to time, and disturb my drunken state. Apprehension, fear and a
sense of guilt came to roust me out, like the Furies and the vengeful
gods, from whatever momentary distraction I had chosen, whether it
be theatre, caf or vernissage.
Only then the thought of the fragility of life, the impotence
and distress I felt at its precariousness, terrified me.
Accompanied by the Dreamer, I arrived at Luisas bedside.
Her eyes were closed. She was alone. The Dreamer had chosen a day
when I was at work or walking around the city trying to escape from
myself. Luisas laboured breathing lifted the edge of the blanket at an
inhumanly fast rate. I recognized that symptom with an aching
heart. Her days were coming to an end.
A nod from the Dreamer encouraged me to move closer.
I carefully moved a chair from next to the metal bedside
cabinet and remained watching her for a long time. Locks of hair
soaked in sweat covered her brow and the part of her face that was
not covered by the sheet. The months and days of our brief marriage
spooled quickly before my eyes, vividly, loaded with events and
memories. Our first apartment. The stories I brought home from
work and the pride I saw in her eyes on hearing of my first successes.
The birth of Georgia. Her endless crying at night, and our inability to
comfort her. The birth of Luca. And then, the illness.
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Our immaturity had soon turned into incomprehension,
jealousy, arguments, regrets and recriminations. We were two weak
people, clinging to one another; two incomplete human beings who
had deceived themselves into thinking that together they could
complete each other and form a whole. But the result of the union of
two incomplete people is incompleteness squared. These thoughts,
and others, came to my lips forming words which I whispered in
her ear. I spoke to her of life, beauty and happiness. It didnt matter
whether she heard me or not.
A bitter pain was lodged in my chest. An urge to weep
tightened my throat. Yet I was joyful. I was in love, and felt it
passionately as never before. Up until that day, hypnotically caught
up in my activities and a thousand illusory tasks, I had experienced
the time spent with Luisa as pure suffering. The waiting without
either past or future, the hours ticking away while nothing happened,
the stillness, the silence and calm which reigned supreme in that
world, overwhelmed me. The vision was intolerable.
This woman is your past which is dying said the Dreamer
from behind me.
The feeling of death I had experienced for months next to her
was not something outside me. It was my death, the death which I
had always carried within me. Luisa had enabled me to see it, feel it,
and touch it, and at that moment she given me the opportunity to
defeat it. In return, I had sullied her with every bad thought, every
accusation.
Ask her forgiveness! ordered the Dreamer in a fatherly
tone Her life was special, it made you recognize the death that is
inside you: your self-pity, your feelings of guilt and the destructiveness
which have guided your existence.
Thank you, Luisa I murmured, smoothing the wet hair
away from her face, and wiping her brow What senseless ignorance.
I didnt know. This is our resurrectionI will change, forever, and
our children will change with me!
The hours went by but I was not in the least a bit tired. I
wouldnt have wanted to be anywhere else in the world but there, by
her side. I reflected that I had been coming to see her and the others
in this hospital for so long, and I had felt detached, convinced that I
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lived alongside those people who, like her, were clinging to a scrap
of life, without understanding their gift.
Back then, it would have been impossible for me to see
that all these men and women were not outside of me, but were the
projection of an unhealthy vision of existencereflected images of
my own sickness, of my own separation, of my irresponsibility. This
world was revealing to me the death which I carried within myself.
Accepting this and taking responsibility for it, was part of a process
which had not even started yet, and which the Dreamer called inner
forgiveness.

Self-observation is self-healing.

Observing all this, and feeling thankful for the realization of
how much even the smallest detail of this world belonged to me,
alerted me to the first signs of my healing process.
It was night. The corridors of the hospital were silent. I
no longer knew how long I had been at her bedside. I had used up
everything there was to use up: words, memories, tears. There was
one thing left to do! I folded back the sheet and uncovered her. Under
her nightshirt, she had enormous swellings on her body. Her stomach
in particular was swollen and hard, as if she was ready to give birth. I
bathed her chest and her legs with a damp, lightly perfumed cloth. I
examined her wound, dark and deep as a nest. Lucidity and a
cool detachment I would never have imagined possible, guided my
hands as I applied her medication. Years of incomprehension, the
incrustations of so many unkind actions and betrayals, were scraped
away along with the cells and dead tissue. I disinfected the area,
applied a new gauze bandage and taped it with plasters. I drew the
covers over her once again and kissed her.
The past must be blessed and healed... Go into every
fold! Bring light into every corner! Transform the past with a new
understanding Your past will be healed when you cease to indulge
in anxieties, doubts and fears. This is the real meaning of inner
forgiveness.
The air was still echoing with the Dreamers words when I
felt the pavement suddenly give way under my feet, as though a
trap-door had opened beneath me. I fell on my back, sliding down
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an invisible chute at great speed, into a whirlpool of colours that
swallowed me up.
When I opened my eyes I was in my hotel room in
Marrakech. That same day I made arrangements for my return to
New York. An extraordinary feeling still coloured the recollection
of every moment spent with Him, from our encounter at the Caf de
la France to the journey into my tormented past, and the night spent
with Luisa.
They had already taken my luggage down to the car that was
waiting to drive me to the airport, yet I lingered. I couldnt tear
myself away from the place where I could still breathe His presence. I
sent a grateful thought towards the Dreamer for having escorted me
into my past, helping me to get rid of so much useless ballast.
Only a few shreds of that relationship were still attached to
my Being. I had kept one particular fragment, just one, which I still
gripped in my fist. However painful, I held it tight, reluctant to let
it go: my last look at Luisa, that kiss of love exchanged between the
past and the future, on the edge of existence.


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CHAPTER II

Lupelius

1 Encounter with the School

It was late morning and I was going down a street full of
elegant antique shops. The hot sun on my back seemed to be pushing
me towards an open space that I could just catch a glimpse of at
the end of the street. I noticed that I was walking at a brisk pace, as
though hurrying to an appointment without knowing where it was,
nor whom I was going to meet. The pavement I was walking along
led to an Italian caf and the open space revealed itself to be a large
piazza, one of the most beautiful I had ever seen.
The Dreamer was sitting at one of the little tables, from which to
best admire both the square and the spectacle of the passers-by. He
was surrounded by a small cluster of obsequious waiters who were
intent on serving Him and following His suggestions. As I arrived
they were drawing up a second table and making space to set down
the contents of two large trays. A constant aura of wealth surrounded
Him, and every aspect of His presence emanated refinement. He
delighted in abundance, yet His every expression was marked by
the sobriety of a Macedonian warrior, and His diet with extreme
frugality.
He seemed pleased to see me again. With a slight nod of His
head He both greeted and invited me to join Him. From that
moment on the Dreamers attention seemed entirely focused on the
tiny pastries and delicacies neatly arranged before Him.
I had not seen Him since our last encounter in Marrakech but I had
been waiting impatiently for this moment. Now, in His presence, a
thousand questions crowded my mind. Some had echoed down the
centuries - raised throughout the history of the world and
remaining still unanswered. Religions, schools of thought and
prophetic traditions, generations of scientists, researchers,
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philosophers and ascetics had all tried in vain to find responses. I
reflected on the fact that modern man, the most recent link in this
chain of research tracing back thousands of years, remained as naked
as ever in the face of the enigma of his own existence, like Oedipus
before the Sphinx.
Tea was served and the Dreamer followed the execution of
this operation with scrupulous care, directing the waiters according
to a ritual known only to Himself. He hardly touched the food. The
Dreamer seemed to derive nourishment from His own attentiveness,
His impressions, and the harmony and rhythm of each small
movement. After the tea, there was a long pause. I waited eagerly for
Him to begin speaking and in the meantime opened my notebook.
My pen was at hand. When He spoke, His tone was solemn.
With Me at your side you can jump the tracks of your
inflexible destiny, He said. At My side you can break the mechanical
cycle of your routines, your feelings of guilt at My side you must
give up your doubt, your fear, and your destructive thoughts
you must abandon the lie that binds you to a mortal description of
existence.
In order to change, you must fight a lifetime of
indoctrination! He continued. You must overturn your way of
seeing things. Only in this way, and through hard work, can you
change your destiny But a man can never achieve this alone.. He
needs a School.
The emphasis He placed on the word School, and the
context in which He used it, made me realize, intuitively, that it held a
meaning which went beyond the conventional. I felt I was hearing it
for the first time. I discovered a power in it that I had never felt
before and the sweetness of a long forgotten promise. A thought
passed through me like a shiver, and reached my lips in the form of
a question.
What is the School? I asked. My voice was trembling and
I was surprised by my emotion.
The School is your voyage of return said the Dreamer,
His dark eyes glowing with a secret joy.
The School is the quantum leap from Multitude to Integrity,
from Conflict to Harmony, from Slavery to Freedom. Finding the
School means binding yourself to the Dream with a steel cableit
means being able to access the highest levels of responsibility.
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Only few among the few can endure such an encounter He
concluded.
Those words and His gaze triggered something hidden inside
of me into action, like the click of a changing gear. I was filled with
regret as I realized the immorality of having lived for so many years
away from home. How miraculous it was to find myself with
something, someone that I had been so desperately seeking.
How does one go about finding the School? I asked, in a whisper
of a voice, full of reverence, feeling the exceptional nature of that
event.
Dont worry the School will find you replied the
Dreamer. Then, seeing my bewilderment, He softened His blunt
response, adding:
When a man is hopelessly disappointed by his life when he
realizes its incompleteness, and his impotence, when existence
grips him in a vice so he cannot breathe, only then is he ready to
meet the School.

2 The world is a legend

Sitting in the caf in that unknown city, I listened to Him,
while accumulating pages of notes. I sensed that my apprenticeship,
which had started in that unknown villa and continued in Marrakech,
was following a secret path of learning, the lines of a design that had
never been interrupted.
Discovering the School is the most extraordinary event in
a mans life; his only opportunity to escape collective hypnosis and
to understand that everything that he sees, everything that
surrounds him is not the world but only a description explained
the Dreamer.
But I am listening to You, I can touch this table. I can see
people passing by and I know that every one of these men has a
life, a job, a family how can all this be just a vision of mine?
The images that fall upon your retina are not the world, but
its narrative; a story repeated to you many times, a legend
responded the Dreamer laconically. The world has been described
to you.
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I marvelled at what I was hearing, but was even more
astonished when He added in a whisper:
The true creator of the reality that surrounds you, is you!
but you have forgotten
What have I forgotten? I asked. I could hear a trace of
hostility in my voice, emblematic of the distance that was growing
between us.
The world requires you so that it can exist. You have
forgotten that you are its creator, and you have become the shadow
of your own creation.
His tone of voice bridged the distance and brought me back
into line, like a schoolboy.
The world is subjective, personal!... It is the mirror image of
our BeingVision and reality are one and the same thing, the only
thing dividing them is time
I would have liked to have said yes, to have accepted His
vision, but something inside me objected. The rational part of me
faltered, but did not give way. How was it possible to stand in front
of the same object, landscape, event or person, and yet have differing
perceptions?
But surely there is such a thing as objective reality! I
declared, to shore up my long-held convictions After all, a thing
cannot be anything other than what it is
I was still trying to defend my beliefs, but I knew that,
no matter how deeply rooted they were, they would not hold. They
were bound to be overturned by contact with the Dreamers vision.
This time too, as on every other occasion, the unforeseeable miracle
would occur and everything would suddenly click into place; in His
company I would inevitably understand things without ever being
able to know when or how. I wanted and not expected this change,
and when it finally came, I felt the walls of my Being expanding
vastly to make room for a clearer, freer, and more intelligent vision
of the world.
Seeing me still perplexed, He unleashed another decisive
blow against my vision of the world, and added:
We can only see what we are.
Then, with His inimitable, subtle, and almost sarcastic
humour, He said:
If a thief should encounter a saint, he wouldnt see past his
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pockets.
This witticism enlightened me and I lingered for a moment
over that comic and instructive image. But the Dreamer had already
resumed His lecture with a scowl, as if this digression, minimal as
it was, had distracted Him or caused Him to deviate too much from
the purpose of our meeting.
Only meeting the School will allow us to escape the rigidity of
an ordinary life.
Only school work will one day enable us to see the
world behind its false description.
Only a man who works on himself will one day be able to
access a harmonious vision, a state of wholeness. And only a
harmonious and complete vision can heal the world.

3 The School for Overturning

The Dreamer revealed to me that Schools that prepared
exceptional men had always existed, in every age and civilization.
Apart from the philosophical and cultural differences that seem to
have distinguished them from one another, these schools were, in
actual fact, only one single School. Its voice had remained as it had
always been, and its thought had crossed every age and civilization.
He called this school the School of Being: a forge, a universal
hotbed of dreamers, where visionaries and luminous utopians had
always refined their intent.
A School of transformation the Dreamer elaborated, and
then paused.
He breathed in deeply the aromas spiralling up from His tea, and
then, in a hushed voice added:
The School for Gods where one learns to govern oneself
before governing others.
His voice made my spine tingle. It had become the martial cry of a
warrior in action.
A School for Overturning He said where ideas and
beliefs are overthrown first and foremost, the idea that death is
inevitable. Death is the ultimate resistance to truth, harmony and
beauty. Death destroys whatever is incapable of becoming truth. If
we are true in every cell of our body we will never die.
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I thought back to the classical tradition, before the age of
Homer, which divided humanity into two species vastly removed
from each other: the heroes, who were the champions of a dreaming
humanity, individuals capable of making the impossible happen, and
an indistinct and faceless multitude without will and without dreams.
The former, guided by Fate, were destined for great individual
adventures and the latter, ruled by the laws of Accident and Chance,
were doomed to lives of insignificance.
I was enlightened by the thought that in reality the great
myths, from the most ancient times, narrated the actions of men who
had encountered the School. Their adventures, their battles against
monsters and giants, sung by the aoidoi, the wandering bards, were
the stages along the way part of an inner journey back into the
depths, into the most obscure and secret recesses of their Bing.
The Dreamer explained that there, in the most hidden corners of
existence, where the river of destructive thoughts and guilt flowed
freely and negative emotions festered, there one could find the origin
of all those monsters, the source of vulgarity, every failure and all
our deaths.
You need, above all, to dig out the enemy within your
own flesh. No sooner will you have driven him out than you will
find him again, before you even more subtle, more powerful....
more ferocious.. The Antagonist grows as you grow! There are not
thousands of enemies, there is only one, and there is only one victory
that over yourself.
The return journey is the great opportunity for a man to
heal his past He said, as His gaze slowly surveyed the piazza, the
twin churches, the patrician palaces and the statues around the
ancient obelisk. He looked at the people crowding it.
The world is the past He pronounced, coining one of
His most admirable maxims.
Whoever you meet, whatever you encounter, is always the
past. Even if it appears before you at this moment, what you see and
touch is only the materialization of your inner states... Past is dust.
The world you see and feel in this precise moment is the
materialization of all that you have been... There is nothing that
can happen in your life that has not already been accepted in your
thoughts. The world is dust. With a puff you can blow it away.
The Dreamer moved His chair back slightly to suggest
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that we should rise. His movement distracted me abruptly from the
effort I was making to keep up with Him and these new ideas. I had
a knot in my stomach. I would have liked to pour this exuberant
and irrepressible new wine into the old skin of my convictions
but it was like trying to contain an ocean in a chalice. I felt my
rationality crumbling and yielding under His assault. I wandered
into empty, intellectual posturing to hide from myself the evidence
that His teaching was penetrating ever more deeply, becoming more
dangerous, perhaps even fatal for my old equilibrium.
In the meantime the Dreamer had stood up. With a nod, He
invited me to follow Him. I was reluctant to leave that quiet corner
where His words still resounded in the air. It felt as if I were leaving
an ancient temple, a venerable ark of knowledge. Every detail of
that meeting would be forever fixed within my cellular memory,
including the carefully laid tables, the movements of the waiters, and
even the freshly baked sfogliatine.
I walked across the piazza with Him and followed Him
into a church. Passing between the transept and the altar, beyond
the central nave, we came to a little chapel. I could make out two
giant canvasses in the semi-darkness, one facing the other. I glanced
around; from our position, the church seemed completely deserted.
The Dreamer asked me to put a coin in the meter. A strong light was
cast onto the two works of art. He suggested I look at them from
the centre of the chapel, from a point equidistant from both. I did as
He suggested, and carefully examined the two masterpieces. The
painting on the left showed Peter being crucified upside down; the
other was of Pauls fall n the road to Damascus.
It is no coincidence that these two paintings are facing each
other He said They are indissolubly linked in a single message.
The Dreamer stopped talking and we remained there in
silence. I took this pause as an invitation to reflect and try to discover
the secret of the symbolism. I could feel time passing, measuring my
futile efforts, until the Dreamer liberated me from my bewilderment
by pointing out that these two works were the most powerful
iconographic representations of the idea of overturning.
These works exude the breadth of thought that comes
out of a great School of responsibility He said Only a School
like that can fight prejudice and age-old beliefs, overthrowing the
old humanitys mental paradigms in order to heal it forever from
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its conflictual thinking and free it from pain Vision and reality
are one and the same thing. The world is your reflection. Turn your
beliefs upside down and the world will follow like a shadow. Reality
will take the shape of a new vision.
The timer on the lights ran out and the paintings sank
back into darkness, like steel blades returning to their sheaths. In
that semi-darkness scented with beeswax candles, I listened as
the Dreamer told me of a School that had remained silent for more
than ten centuries. He paused for a long time, and then told me
enigmatically that it was time for its voice to be heard once again. I
was astonished. The idea of a thousand-year-old School reappearing
after centuries of silence to carry on its mission dazzled me. It was
then that the Dreamer told me about a legendary warrior-monk and a
precious manuscript that had been lost.
For you, and for those like you who believe they can find
the truth in books it would be useful to seek out the traces of this
ancient School He said.
Suddenly His voice became imperious.
Find that manuscript! He commanded.
Beyond the roughness of His voice and His peremptory
attitude, I knew that He was assigning me an important task and I
was grateful to Him. A decisive Yes, solemn as an oath, echoed in
my chest. I would dedicate all my efforts to this task. The more I
thought about it, the more my enthusiasm grew for this enterprise,
which promised to project me into a familiar and congenial world.
The Dreamer noticed I was reverting to my old
habits, falling back into the melancholy clich of the scholar, and
said:
One day you will realise that there is nothing you can bring in
from the outside, there is nothing you can add to what you already
know and there is nothing that teaching and experience can add to
your understanding True knowledge can only be remembered...A
mans knowledge cannot be greater or smaller than he is. A man can
only know what he is. To know means, above all else, to be...The
more you are, the more you know.

Some time later, the Dreamer would talk to me about a
memory beyond time, a vertical memory, made up of states and
levels, the container of infinite knowledge. This is the inheritance of
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every man; we all have it, but we have lost the key
Re-member.
The ancient mosaics on the floor began to expand, and the
distance between us began to increase, imperceptibly at first and then
visibly. I felt an aching sense of loss as I listened to His final words.
Knowledge is the inalienable property of every man it is as
ancient as humanity
One day, you will realize that there is nothing to add but a
great deal to eliminate if you wish to know.
I drank in those words as if I had been waiting to hear
them all my life. I recognised them. A slight tremor under my skin
heightened the sensation that I had of containing all things. I was
a perfect, universal measuring system. I experienced a feeling
of wholeness, of understanding, of connectedness with all and
everything. The Dreamers invulnerability and faultlessness was
palpable. Nothing could erode or corrupt that integrity.
Find that manuscript! He said again austerely. The outline
of His face had already begun to fade away.
When you have found it, we will meet again.

4 Lupelius

That same day I began my research on the ancient school and
my quest for the manuscript of which He had spoken. The work He
had asked me to find, The School for Gods, had been written in
the ninth century by the philosopher-monk Lupelius, a free spirit of
the Dark Ages and a native of Ireland, in those years a refuge for
learned men; a land at the crossroads of cultures and traditions,
tormented by every war and conf lict imaginable.
Little was known about the life of Lupelius and the
information that did exist was uncertain. The documents I was able
to find were few, and not always reliable. Since his youth, Lupelius
had been trained in the art of war by his father, who hired the greatest
masters available and brought him up under the strictest discipline.
While still very young, he embraced the monastic life and sought
solitude in the mountains of Bet Huzaye, today called Kazakhstan,
which was at that time a favourite destination for Anchorites from all
parts of the Christian world. Of his religious and spiritual training,
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it is known that he entered the nearby monastery of Shaban Rabbur,
where, cloistered for years in its formidable library, he fervently
studied the sacred Scriptures, the Greek Fathers and the great mystics
of every time and place, from Origen to Giovanni of Apamea, down
to the Desert Fathers. In the weeks that followed I was able to speak
with a few scholars of medieval philosophy who confirmed that all
traces of Lupelius only work, and the original manuscript, had been
lost for centuries.
I researched in the libraries of the great universities,
contacted various institutes of philosophy and met with scholars
and researchers. I extended my search to the rest of Europe, without
success. Finally, in Ireland, following yet another trail to Dublins
Wrighter Museum, I ascertained that they had kept a copy, the only
known one in existence. However, it turned out that this one too had
been swallowed by the quicksand of time.
The obstacles and difficulties I met increased my
commitment and determination, while every clue and new encounter
along the trail of that lost teaching spoke to me, shaping my very
existence into a new order. As if following the outlines of a precise
design, the fragments of my life, once scattered pieces of an unknown
mosaic, were now coming together, each one finding its rightful
place.
Finding that manuscript and going back to see the Dreamer
became for me one single task. There was no other way of seeing
Him again. This thought constantly rekindled my desire to continue
with the research He had entrusted to me.
From the information I was slowly gathering and the
elements of Lupelius philosophy that I was able to laboriously
piece together, the thought and character of a great School began to
emerge, its principles as powerful as the walls of an immortal city.
After more than a thousand years, the fragments of that lost teaching
still shone forth a light that was at odds with the social and moral
dissolution of that era.
The figure of Lupelius, servant to the world, immediately
made a great impression on me. From the beginning of my research I
had felt a growing admiration for this unknown philosopher. The
more I learned about him and his mission, the more I saw this thinker
towering alone above people and events. His School stood out like a
rock in a sea of ignorance and superstition. His thought was woven
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like a golden thread through the fabric of a history filled with crime
and misadventure.
I was unable to learn much about his life apart from the
period of time he spent at the court of Charles the Bald in France.
Certainly Lupelius was an unusual character, a philosopher and man
of action unlike any other. He had no habits or routines. It was said
that he could stay awake for inordinate amounts of time and no one
had ever seen him sleep.
Sleep makes you weak, in your mind and in your body, he
said to his followers, and with his typical Irish humor, added Sleep
is nothing but a bad habit.

One of his particular practices was to wander around the
markets in the most dangerous and disreputable parts of the cities
of Europe. There, in the most apparently unfavourable conditions,
he initiated his followers into new ways of thinking and feeling,
overthrowing conventional and narrow-minded views of the world.
There, his shining madness transformed that world of cheats and
criminals, of snares and ambushes, into a school of integrity. He used
the cleverest tricks to eradicate their ingrained beliefs and erase the
emotional slime from their minds.
His school forged remarkable men and invincible warriors.
Lupelius made use of creative methods he invented for teaching and
purification. He would disguise himself as a slave, a vagabond, a
politician, a banker or a wealthy merchant and he would use these
roles strategically. Whether it was the kings crown or the robe of a
monk, Lupelius assumed them and made his disciples wear them too,
teaching them how to become the characters they were inhabiting,
to explore and understand their every detail and secret, but without
ever forgetting that they were playing a game and becoming trapped
by it. He led them into the Souk where he involved them in wild
intrigues with bandits and criminals. He encouraged them to enter
into the most deprived and needy sectors of society, and pushed them
to undertake the most foolhardy excursions, almost beyond the point
of no return. The Lupelians enlisted as mercenaries in pointless wars,
revolutions and feuds in distant countries without even knowing the
reasons for these conflicts.
They went into battle, not to defend the weak or the
oppressed, not to support abstract principles or ideologies nor to
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defeat external enemies or seek revenge, but to become masters of
themselves, authors of their own destiny.

Real warriors do not fight for supremacy or control over others.
They do not fight for glory, nor for any possession or reward,
but to gain the only thing which truly matters:
their own inner freedom.

For the Lupelians, the battlefield offered the most practical way to
apply the principles and ideas of the School the real proof of their
conscious transformation and understanding. Only he who had
conquered an inner integrity could remain unharmed by any attack.
The Lupelians invulnerability sprang therefore from this flawless
integrity death might be near, but it could neither take hold nor
enter.
Lupelius teaching was a discipline of invulnerability
founded upon the development of the will. His aim was to achieve
freedom from all limits.

Free forever from all human conditions and natural limitations

The Lupelians practiced the art of self-mastery. The supreme
victory is to conquer oneself; never permitting any external event
or condition to produce internal wounds, to tarnish ones Being.
Lupelius trained his disciples to maintain their serenity and calm
under the most extreme conditions. He urged them to seek offence
and encourage hostility in order to test their integrity. Even when
crossing cities or regions afflicted by epidemics and contagious
diseases, they would always emerge unscathed.

Incorruptibility and purity make a warrior invulnerable,
impervious to attack from even the most dreaded of evils.

I tried to confront the question of the difference between impassivity
advocated by the stoics, and the indifference of the soul towards
passions and external thoughts championed by the mystic Lupelians.
For Lupelius, impassivity was characterized by the recovery of
integrity, by that unity of Being which is a natural condition
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forgotten by man. From the vacuum that the soul creates in freeing
itself from the ballast of external and carnal objects, without any
illusion that there is anything outside ourselves, is born a state of
Being that is a continuous, natural motion towards eternity,
immortality, and infinity.

All that we synthetically call the world, the events and
circumstances of our life, are but our own projections.
If we are aware, we can project only life, prosperity,
victory and beauty.
If we are alert and attentive we can project freedom,
a world without limits,
without constraints, without old age, sickness or death.

The School of Lupelius fascinated me. I studied it and
loved it passionately. I felt as though I was breathing its air. It was
in my daydreams. I recognized those visionary men and women,
student warriors and lonely heroes of an ineffable spiritual battle,
as extraordinary Beings, incomparable models of courage and
determination. I secretly admired the glimmer of madness, the
feverish quest that marked their steadfast pursuit of the conquest
of the self. I kept on searching incessantly, and found persuasive
evidence that many of the mercenary heroes of that time, in the
turbulent years after Charlemagne that saw the slow dissolution of the
Holy Roman Empire, were Lupelius disciples in disguise. Without
ever revealing their true identities, those warrior monks were the
legendary protagonists of unparalleled epic deeds, capable of turning
defeats into glorious victories.
Then my research abruptly came to a standstill, and for
weeks I was unable to add anything more to the small amount that I
had already painstakingly gathered. I gave up hope of ever finding
that legendary manuscript and, with it, the way back to the Dreamer.
Finally one day, during one of my many sorties on the trail of
this lost teaching, I came to hear of a Dominican father of boundless
culture who might be able to help me with my research. He was,
moreover, the author of an encyclopaedic work on the medieval
history of the Church.

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5 The Meeting with Father S.

I arrived a few minutes early for my appointment with the
person who, after so much searching, had been recommended to me
as one of the living fathers of the Christian doctrine.
Father S. lived in an ancient Carmelite convent. A tribe of
tiny nuns, strict and protective, watched over his scholarly meditations
and his contemplative old age. Two of these nuns ushered me into a
small ante-chamber where I stood and waited.
From the half-open window I could see a corner of the
delightful cloister. The thick expanse of greenery enclosed by the
geometry of the arcades and the quality of the silence intensified the
sensation I had experienced as I passed through the ancient gates.
Rather than just crossing the threshold of a convent, I felt I had
somehow passed into another time. In an instant my mind flew back
to the courtyard of the Collegio Bianchi, the Barnabites parochial
school in the heart of Naples. The air rang with the sound of swift
footsteps, of children shouting and chasing each other under the
arches; I could smell the food from the refectory and thousands of
memories came flooding back to me from my childhood.
At the appointed time, I was granted permission to enter.
Regretfully, I turned away from that lost kingdom of my childhood
and the little crowd of my schoolmates that had run to greet me.
Their smiling faces faded and disappeared into the shadows of my
memories.
Father S. is completing a new volume of his immense work
on medieval Christianity said one of the miniature sister-guardians
who was escorting me. I guessed from the austerity of her tone that
she was issuing a veiled warning for me to make sparing use of my
hosts time and patience.
I went up a narrow spiral staircase, constricted even more by
the walls of books surrounding it. More than going upstairs, I felt
instead that I was somehow ascending a steep metaphor. Every detail
of the setting seemed charged with symbolic warning. I was about to
meet one of the great thinkers of Christianity and the very thought
filled me with a sense of reverential awe. I also felt a slight pain of
regret, a passing melancholy. I would have wanted my own life to be
like this, dedicated to research and study, and I felt a sudden
resurgence of my old, blind faith in teachers and books. The
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harsh and providential words of the Dreamer interrupted these
thoughts.
There is nothing you can add to that which you already
know True knowledge cannot be acquired, it can only be re-
membered.
I recognized my sickness: the propensity for depending on the
world, and in particular, for idolizing knowledge gained from
books. Once again, I was making the external world my god. Coming
face to face with some fetish was enough for me to elect that man to
be my leader, even though I had never met him.
I imagined Father S. to be the epitome of a mankind trapped
by intellectualism, a humanity that had stopped dreaming. The
champion of a Christianity that had forgotten and had placed
bookish men and intellectual pride at its summit.
All the worlds books are contained in a single atom of ones
Being the Dreamer had said to me They cannot add anything to
your knowledge books cannot lead you to life. Knowledge depends
upon Being the more you are, the more you know!
A powerful, psalm-like voice reached me from above, as
though it had broken through a breach in the rows of books.
Come in, it said. The intonation resembled a passage in the liturgy.
The invitation echoed very close around me, giving me advance
warning of the modest dimensions of the place I was about to enter.
As I climbed up the last steps, I felt my Being tense, gathering itself
like a warrior approaching a calculated danger. Again I heard the
words of the Dreamer:
Every man occupies a rung on the ladder of human
intelligence, and is a guardian of the higher levels If you remain
intact, every encounter will be an opportunity, a rung for you to step
on and go beyond. If you forget, you will find yourself trapped in an
external, virtual game which will throw you back into the infernal
disorder of your life.
Father S. was a portal of existence. This was who I was
really about to meet: a guardian-examiner, a Minos, the strictest of
judges, who would infallibly assign me the position I deserved on the
ladder of Being.
The large head of an old man, bald and clean-shaven,
emerged from behind the waves of books that covered the table.
He scrutinized me for a long time.
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His dark eyes appeared so extraordinarily young to me that I
had the impression they were not his own; that they had surely
been borrowed and placed in the face of an old man. By what
extraordinary circumstance had those eyes found a way to avoid the
ageing process, leaving the rest of the face to its biological destiny?
He must have realised that I had noticed this. Slowly, he lowered
his eyelids, shielding his eyes like a tortoise. When he looked at me
again, his gaze was that of an old man.
This impression was reinforced by another contrast: the
ceremonial expression of someone welcoming a guest with the stern
frown of a master. This ambivalence was the constant background of
our encounter, as if to remind me of the distance that separated us.
His tone of voice, his clothes and his gestures were setting the rules
for our meeting. Father S. evidently wished to establish the purpose
of our encounter as soon as possible and the limits within which it
would take place.
I shook hands with him and I felt the same energy I had seen in
his gaze. Father S. was studying me. His smile barely concealed the
fact that he was gathering and evaluating information in order to
classify me. His visitor was not an academic animal but someone
who looked more like a young businessman, the type of man that
Father S. probably did not encounter frequently.
The only thing I know about you is that you are interested in
moral philosophy and that you come from an American university
from New York if Im not mistaken he said, pronouncing the
word only with an almost reproachful tone, revealing his nature
and professorial attitude.
I specialized in Business Ethics I corrected him
courteously, as I handed him a copy of the letter Fordham University
had sent a few days earlier. The document confirmed that I
was a researcher, a scholar of business ethics. It was the letter of
introduction that I had used to set up this meeting. I felt perfectly
at ease in this role. I remained silent. I preferred not to give him
any other information about me for the moment, leaving him instead
feeling slightly uneasy, caught between curiosity and unfamiliarity. I
didnt want to make his task too easy.
As he read, I noticed an expression of growing interest on his
face. He gave a visible start as he read about the studies I was
pursuing on Lupelius, and my hope that our encounter would help
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to further my research. With great self-control he contained his
emotions at this discovery, only allowing himself to express mild
surprise at my choice of topic such an extraordinary school of
thought, so far from the familiar scientific themes.
I did not tell him anything about the Dreamer, but justified
my interest in Lupelius by talking about the importance his ideas
might have for modern business theory and for the training of a new
generation of leaders. I told him about the high expectations I had for
that branch of studies, which would advocate the application of the
educational methods, value systems and philosophical principles of
the ancient Schools of Being to the world of modern business. What I
had found of particular interest were the teachings of Lupelius and
his research into invulnerability and invincibility, because of its
relevance to the challenges of modern economics, no less difficult
or fatal than those of the military. The research and experiments on
immortality conducted in Lupelius School could be extended to
modern enterprises.
For a long time, scholars and economic thinkers had
been helpless in the face of an alarming phenomenon of planetary
dimensions.
Companies die young. Companies all over the world have
too short a life cycle, only a handful of years I told him Even
the giants of finance and economy, the largest multinationals on the
planet, struggle to survive for more than forty years.
Drawing on the Dreamers teachings, I passed off as my own the
idea that a durable company is born from a durable founder, and that
an immortal company can only be born from the dream of an
immortal being. Once, while talking to me about the polarity of
love/fear, the Dreamer had revealed that the true meaning of love,
amore, could be found in the etymology of the Latin word, a-mors,
which means the absence of death. Not by chance Roma, the name
of the eternal city, is the anagram of a-mor. Its immortal destiny
was codified in its roots, and sealed into the name given to it by its
founder. I cited Rome, which had recently celebrated 2,800 years
of uninterrupted life, as an example of a long-established enterprise
that could not be explained without reference to its founder and his
qualities as an immortal being (Romulus was deified and worshipped
by the Romans as the god Quirino).
I gave Father S. other examples of extreme longevity in
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business, from the thousand year old House of Windsor to the
largest multinational on the planet, the Catholic Church itself. Again
drawing on the teachings of the Dreamer, I maintained that a rich
economy was always the expression of immortal thinking.

Vision and reality are one

The merest fragment of eternity is enough to broaden a
countrys vision, to expand the horizons of its economy. The concept
of immortality is sufficient to raise the financial destiny of
individuals, organizations and entire nations.
This was the direction my research was taking. I claimed that
these discoveries would soon change the way business was done
and would revolutionize teaching and scientific research in all
universities of economics.
I could see Father S.s interest visibly growing as I spoke of
economic theory related to immortality and of the little I knew of
Lupelius philosophy. The global economy stood out against the
backdrop of an immense battlefield where every day entire nations,
companies as large as huge regiments, confronted each other in order
to establish new economic frontiers while modifying existing ones to
their advantage. Only one victor emerges from these conflicts. The
others, all the defeated, are chained to his war chariot and
condemned to slavery. To survive, they have to adopt the habits of
their new owner and learn his language. They have to serve him.
Encouraged by a gesture from my host, I continued, telling
him everything I had discovered about the mysterious monk-
philosopher, without trying to conceal my fascination with Lupelius
and his extraordinary teachings. I soon reached the point where my
research had come to a standstill. I also told him about my efforts,
thus far entirely fruitless, to find the manuscript entitled the School
for Gods, and the mysterious disappearance of every single copy of
it. I didnt hide my astonishment at what seemed to be a deliberate
attempt to sweep away all trace of Lupelius work and his School for
Immortal Beings.

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6 The doctrine of Lupelius

Father S. listened to me intently, his head bowed on his
chest.
When he raised it again, he was glowing and once more I
saw those extraordinarily young eyes which had so impressed me
when I first came face to face with him, but this time he made no
attempt to hide them. His face took on the expression of someone
expecting to be recognized.
I did not retreat from the game, and concentrated on his
last move. The solution to the riddle came suddenly, like a flash of
lightning in the night sky.. He disguised himself as an old man but
yes he was using his apparent age as a mask a strategic mask
Father S. was a man who was feigning old age. My heart leapt in my
chest. Father S. was a Lupelian. I was sure of it.
I could hardly contain my emotion at this discovery I felt
subtle pleasure at the complicity that was being established between
us A ten century-long cord linked us to that race of warriors who
had known how to live strategically, who had understood the art of
disguise. His chameleon-like talent had allowed him to live tucked
into the folds of his order, hidden in the bosom of Christianity. A
tunnel had opened in time and more than a thousand years had been
compressed into an instant, in order to lead me to the doors of the
School. Before me was perhaps the last of its immortal custodians.
A question pounded at my temples, pulsating in my arteries. Did
Father S. know the Dreamer? I was tempted to tell him about my
encounter with the Dream and the extraordinary adventure that I was
experiencing at that time.
Lupelius is the prophet of physical immortality, the
birthright of every man Father S. imparted, interrupting my
feverish thoughts and shedding his initial reserve A right that we
have relinquished, and which we must reclaim.
Then, as if he were taking his cue from an invisible book,
rather than quoting, with his eyes closed he read the following words:
The body is the spirit made flesh. If the spirit is immortal, so
then is the body.
The joy he felt as he remembered the School and listened
once again to the words which he seemed not to have heard for
years, was evident. He told me that Lupelius had been banished
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from Christianity for his ideas and that it was a miracle that he had
avoided being burned at the stake. The worst threat Lupelius posed
was his faith in the immense power of the individual and the final
victory of life over death. For the Catholic Church and all religious
institutions aimed at the masses, there could be no more dangerous
philosophy: the revolution of Being, the rebellion to which every
man is called in order to transform his fragility, his mortal destiny.
A struggle against inner demons, dragons and chimeras, against
psychological monsters and giants which men have called doubt, fear
and pain. For Lupelius, these were the true cause of every evil and
every misfortune. It was not surprising that such subversive ideas
should have resulted in persecution and attempts against his life. In
effect, every trace of Lupelius and his work had disappeared. This
now seemed to me to be the effect of a deliberate strategy on the part
of Lupelius himself rather than the result of implacable hostility
towards him.
To be accepted by his School meant being put to the severest
test, and living with him required being able to sustain great
effort for long periods of time. Lupelius wanted his followers to have
direct awareness of physical immortality and invulnerability, by
experiencing how it might be possible to survive the gravest of
dangers unharmed. In effect, having left with his blessing, not one of
his men ever returned even slightly injured.
I asked Father S. to what he attributed such an extraordinary
fact.
A mans shield is his purity and his love for life and his
Master said Father S., his eyes half closed. Rather than reflecting
on how to respond, it seemed to me that he was remembering.
For Lupelius, purity is the fundamental quality of a man,
and the way to achieve physical immortality: the supreme asymptote
of the human parabola.
He paused for what seemed to me an extremely long time. I
had noticed that whenever he referred to Lupelius, Father S. always
used the present tense, as though he were speaking about a
contemporary or about someone who had never died. In the
conversation that followed he led me by the hand into the
extraordinary world of those few men and women who were ready
to do anything to push themselves beyond the inviolate boundaries,
beyond the Pillars of Hercules of the common description of the
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world.
In the school of Lupelius every effort is made to free the
mind from the belief that death is inevitable and invincible said
Father S. Everything forms part of a strategy of purification intended
to conquer within oneself that mysterious desire to die which in the
common man takes so many forms: it imbues his psychology until it
becomes second nature, and an inevitable part of his life.

The belief that death is invincible is unhealthy for humans.
Your longevity is determined by your mental state,
by your life urge.

Your longevity is determined by your mind asserted
Father S., summarizing Lupelius thinking for my benefit This
means that if you die, you are the only one responsible!
A tiny nun quietly came in, carrying all that was necessary to
serve us tea. From the looks of astonishment she furtively cast in my
direction while transferring the cups and teapot onto the table and
pouring the steaming tea, I realized how rare it must be for Father S.
to spend this much time with a visitor. My host remained silent and
only when the nun had left did he resume his point, explaining to
me how the Lupelians knew that by questioning the inevitability of
death, even only ironically, its power would be weakened.
For his assertion that immortality is the right of every man,
for his struggle to denounce death as the most horrible and unjust
of all human prejudices announced Father S. with an epigraphic
tone Lupelius will be remembered as the most important mystic of
physical immortality.
He continued, claiming that the Lupelians thinking was
connected to that physical and corporeal religion which Christianity
had been in the beginning, and had become its epigone, a herald of
spiritual materialism and its message of the bodys indestructibility.
Lying, hiding, complaining, and evading responsibilities
are the stigmata, the indelible marks of a man who has fallen into
immorality and fragmentation, of a man who has forgotten the reason
for his existence said Father S. in a conclusive tone A humanity
that has abdicated its birthright of immortality and forgotten its
integrity, invents death to put an end to its misery. Man prefers to
die rather than take on the immense task of conquering himself and
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his incompleteness In any case, death is no solution. A man always
starts again from wherever he has left off.
Lupelius created the School for Gods, a school of
responsibility, to show this scattered man the way back towards
simplicity, integrity, and mans buried will.

7 Offer a rooster to Asclepius

Through the fragments I had been able to glean of the lost
works of Lupelius, and behind the words of Father S., I recognized
the Dreamers inspiration ever more clearly. I could hear His voice. It
was louder and more ancient than that of Lupelius. I thought of Him
with gratitude.
Father S. was now reading some phrases to me from a little
book which he was holding with reverence and which he evidently
always carried with him. His voice trembled with emotion. His
impassioned tone gradually became more intense as some of the
more scandalous of Lupelius beliefs came to light from this treatise,
truths which were unacceptable to any rational mind or canon law.
As I listened and wrote them down in my notebook, I felt the impact
of their unsustainable difference and their striking contrast with the
most deeply-rooted, universally accepted beliefs.
Old age, sickness and death are insults to human dignity.
They are the pillars which, for thousands of years, have supported an
illusory description of the world.
Evil is at the service of good. Always!... Everything comes to
heal us even physical death is actually healing. The final chance!
This statement, Lupelius unbearable paradox, released a
secret mechanism. My mind returned to the words pronounced by
Socrates as the hemlock was about to reach his heart and stop it from
beating forever. Their meaning burst within me with an intolerable
brilliance. It lasted only the blink of an eye and then disappeared but
it was enough for me to grasp. For over two thousand five hundred
years the meaning of Socrates last wish had been an unfathomable
mystery. Surrounded by his closest acolytes, Socrates swallowed the
hemlock and the paralyzing effect of the poison spread rapidly from
his legs towards his heart. He had only a few seconds left to live
but in that supreme moment he uttered the following words:
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We are debtors owing a rooster to Asclepius: give one to
him, and dont forget.
How could Socrates ask his friend Criton to offer a rooster to
the god of healing when his life was slipping through his fingers and
death was by then inevitable? For twenty-five centuries these
words have represented a riddle for generations of sages, learned
men and exegetes.
Lupelius philosophical statements had ripped open an
impenetrable curtain and now, from the depths of time, the meaning
of that message was finally emerging in all its enormity. Like a
castaway putting his message in a bottle to save it and pass it on,
Socrates had entrusted his understanding to the oceans of time so
that it would eventually reach us. Sealed in his last words is the fruit
of his tireless searching: even death is a healing it is the ultimate
medicine! It comes when all else fails.
As a consequence of the extraordinary circumstances of
his death, Socrates reached a state of inner unity never previously
achieved, a height of integrity that allowed him access to the greatest
of all mysteries: why mankind still had to die and how one day this
would no longer be necessary. Behind Socrates last words towered
the dream of a future mankind which would be healed and made
whole and would never again need that extreme act of purification.
Death is the last resort to which existence turns when every
other attempt to heal and to become whole has failed the Dreamer
would one day tell me Socrates used death to understand! In the
supreme moment he discovered that it was just one step on the road
to healing, another step on the ladder of wholeness. And this was the
last, and greatest, of Socrates teachings.
Socrates was the epitome of a humanity in unstable balance
Between two visions. He was a seeker, an explorer and although he
was unable to overcome death, at least he used it to understand. He
showed the way.

8 Forbidden to kill yourself inside

Unity of Being is only the beginning for a mankind that has
chosen to live forever summed up Father S. Like attracts like.
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Death attracts death and cannot affect anyone who is connected to
Life.
Armed with their integrity, the Lupelians would return
unharmed from their most audacious exploits. No instrument of
war seemed able to touch them, as if every connection with death
had been eradicated forever. Without proselytizing, and without
advocating any philosophy, Lupelius warrior-monks knew how to
rise up, and knew how to make men and events rise up around them,
to a higher level of Being. They had won before they had even begun
to fight. Winning meant conquering themselves, overcoming their
doubts, fears and ignorance. External victory was only a sign of their
internal victory. Thus, by taking care of their own Being, by ensuring
their own flawlessness and making themselves impervious to evil,
they would meet impossible challenges and carry out astonishing
feats.
The first cause of death is precisely our separation from
God, the fact that we have expelled the divine and transferred it
outside of ourselves said Father S., taking a piece of paper out of a
drawer and making a note on it. Then he went on:
Lupelius says: You can hate God because you are sick,
because you are suffering or because you are poor, but I can
assure you, the reason for your sickness, suffering or poverty is
your separation from God. Men have forgotten this and they have
transformed the planet into a world of death. They have made death
into their reason for living. Every thought they have and every action
they take is dedicated to it.
Love and serve is the motto To serve mankind one must
love and before anything else, one must love ones self and ones
own life
At this point Father S. lowered his voice I guessed he was
about to confide in me the most secret and unacceptable teachings
of the School.
Lupelius would remind his followers he said, pausing for
a few interminable moments. His lips were trembling as he prepared
to quote his masters words.
You are gods who have forgotten you are gods in a state of
amnesia.
Even orders centuries old can forget, said the old man, his
eyes becoming moist at the thought of the warrior spirit which had
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inspired him to become a monk.
Forgetfulness weakens the warrior in every man. Once, we
Dominicans were vegetarians, we ate only once a day; we cultivated
the body and the spirit as one entityThe message of Christ and our
Mission was very clear to us: the victory of life over physical death.

Only unceasing work on oneself can allow a man to overcome death

I detected in his voice a nostalgia for the discipline of times
past, and the memory of the buried brilliance of the School. I admired
him and I was happy. I did not think that men like Father S. could
still be found in the bosom of the Christian faith, crusaders dedicated
to the holiest of wars: putting death to death.
Schools and churches, religious orders and government
institutions stopped training responsible individuals years ago. Today
they only produce polluted minds and bodies said Father S.
He finished covering the page before him with crabbed
handwriting. Then he folded it several times and handed it to me
without saying a word. Symbolically, this gesture seemed to me like
the passing of the baton in a never-ending relay through the centuries.
He was entrusting me with a portion of the race that
humanity had been running for thousands of years, in search of an
escape route from its prisons.
When we parted at the door of his tiny study, he gave me a
smile and winked, infecting me with that joyful and inviolate
complicity that Id only found amongst the little warriors, the bright
Neapolitan street kids of my neighbourhood. I asked him to tell me
which of Lupelius commandments best represented the sum of his
research, the secret formula for defeating physical death.
It is forbidden to kill yourself inside! said Father S.
without hesitation It is the thousand psychological deaths that
undermine us every day that lead to physical deathBelieving death
to be invincible is what kills us. The belief in its inevitability is the
true killer.

9 The School for Gods

I had climbed up the steep slopes of the plateau as far as the
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peak of its imposing volcanoes. Through the clear, dry air, across
the vast expanse, my eyes swept over the vegetation of the steppes,
a landscape without trees. Once I reached Yerevan, I left the statue
of Machtots the monk behind me, and crossed the square towards a
bunker-like structure of grey basalt at the top of a bare hill. I was in
the heart of Armenia. I had faithfully followed Father S.s instructions
on how to reach this place, and now I was climbing towards a severe
looking building which housed the ancient library. Here, stored in
thousands of books, were the memories of a people who had lived
for centuries on the verge of extinction. Here, where copyists and
translators were venerated like saints, from the second half of the
fifth century until the present day, thousands of classical, Christian
but also pagan works had been conserved or copied. Seminal texts
and masterpieces, which had been considered lost forever, had been
saved by being faithfully translated into classical Armenian and I
knew that Yerevan was my last hope of finding Lupelius manuscript,
or at least a copy of it.
I spent many days questioning the archivists and exploring
entire sections of the library in depth. Like an archaeologist in a
buried city, I walked down endless corridors with walls lined with
books and dusty folders. The curator had assigned me two young
librarians who were assisting me in my search. I am still not sure
whether they were there to help me or to keep an eye on me. With
them I went into labyrinths of papers, I examined parchments and
yellowed rolls of sheepskin, bringing them out into the light for the
first time in centuries.
Whenever I thought I had identified something promising I
would select the volumes or rolls and the two young scholars would
take them off the shelves and open them for me. They never touched
these precious relics with their bare hands but only with a preciously
embroidered cloth, following an almost sacred ritual.
One day, in the catalogue of the Institute of Ancient
Manuscripts, I discovered that the original copy of an untitled
volume was conserved under register number 7722. Having been
ransomed for its weight in gold from the hands of the Seljukians
in 1204, it had been kept and protected in a monastery perched in
the craggy, snowy peaks overlooking the Black Sea. By the end
of the eighteenth century it was part of the collection of spiritual
and ascetic-mystic texts belonging to Paisij Velichovskij, who had a
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Slavonic version printed in Moscow. After many vicissitudes it was
again miraculously saved from destruction at the hands of the Turks
and brought to Yerevan in 1915. My heartbeat became as strong as a
hammer when rolls of parchment covered in the authors handwriting
emerged from the safe.
I only needed to read a few lines to be sure that it was
Lupelius work. I could hardly contain my joy as I avidly explored its
content.
The language of Lupelius revealed itself to be a mixture of
vernacular English and Latin, a kind of European Esperanto of
striking inventiveness. These words had the power to cancel out time
and transmit intact, after more than a thousand years, the precious
energy that had inspired generations of warrior-monks.
During my stay in Yerevan, I had become friendly with a
couple of Welsh scholars. The man was a historian and his wife a
Latinist. It was to them, in the small lounge of the inn where we
were staying, that I revealed my discovery that evening. We talked
about it excitedly for most of the night. Their help later turned out
to be providential. Only the Dreamer could have arranged such an
extraordinary coincidence.
The one thing that seemed most surprising to these
researchers was not the way in which I had tracked down the book
so much as the fact that I knew its original title. A title which had
been lost for centuries and that no one knew. With their help I
immediately started to transcribe some passages and began work on
the translation. We studied the manuscript together for weeks, and
the more I read, the closer I felt to Lupelius philosophy and the more I
felt my passion grow for that forgotten teaching. The interpretation of
one of the passages, the exegesis of a symbol, made me cross the
sacred threshold of that school of men and women, inexhaustible
seekers in the quest for immortality.
I commissioned expert copyists to produce a faithful
reproduction of The School for Gods. The result was a genuine
masterpiece: a fine leather bound edition with pages of vegetable
parchment identical in every detail to Lupelius original work. I kept
that copy with me at all times and at night I kept the book under my
pillow as Alexander used to do with the Iliad. It was a present for the
Dreamer and I could not wait for the time when I would be able to
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give it to him. I knew that day by day, every small advance I made in
my understanding of His principles brought me closer to Him.
I was often overcome by uncontrollable enthusiasm
culminating in moments of ecstasy at the thought of the wonderful
outcome of my enterprise, at the limits of the impossible. I had
miraculously found Father S., I had found the original manuscript
of The School for Gods and I had met two scholars who, with
boundless devotion, were working on the translation. I had no doubt
that I would soon find the Dreamer again. For the moment, nothing
mattered other than immersing myself in the manuscript, delving
into King Solomons mines, venturing down those venerable tunnels
and ceaselessly searching for precious material.

In order to choose life,
we must choose the thought that death is not invincible.
And so, we must find the principles of aliveness,
longevity and eternity in our Being.

This and other rules, which I learned from Lupelius
manuscript, would one day become the cornerstones of all my future
activities, and the fundamental principles of many enterprises in the
world of international business.

An enterprise is only as vital, rich and enduring,
as the ideas and principles of its founder.

For Lupelius the real inequality between men, the root from
which every other visible difference arises, is that they belong to
different levels of inner responsibility. Differences in the quality
of thought place men vertically on different levels of the ladder of
Being. There exists an inner hierarchy that no war or revolution can
ever erase because the true difference between men does not depend
on wealth, creed or race. It is a difference in states of Being. It is
a psychological, vertical, evolutionary difference of rank. For this
reason, it can only be overcome by a radical change in the way a man
thinks and feels.

A real improvement implies change of Being.
A real improvement means evolution
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or growth towards unity of Being,
which is the result of a new way of thinking
and the abandonment of the old, mortal mentality
Only a change of Being can raise a man to
a higher level of freedom, understanding and happiness

10 Mea Culpa

For Lupelius the Earth was a cosmic penitentiary, a prison as
vast as the planet itself, where men lived like convicts on death row.
Instead of drawing from this vision the conclusion that defeat was
final and irremediable, his brilliant madness devised the most
audacious plan. Lupelius dreamt up an adventure for man that took
him beyond the boundaries of the possible: an escape from the
laws that govern the planet, a flight from his apparently inexorable
mortal destiny. Man could break through the confines he himself
had established, defying nature and crossing over those limits which,
like the Pillars of Hercules, he dared not go beyond even in his
imagination. Lupelius gathered around himself a few brave men and
prepared a detailed plan of escape.

You always encounter the same events
because nothing changes in you!
Like attract like.
A particle of paradise moves towards paradise,
a particle of hell towards hell.

According to Lupelius philosophy our states of Being attract
the events that correspond to them, and events cause us to return to
those same states. Only the will can stop this endless circle, this
never-ending mechanical game, and break the hypnotic cycle in
which mans existence is circumscribed. Thought is creative. Thought
creates. Events are the materialization of our thoughts, of our states
of Being. Therefore, states and events are the same thing. States are
produced in the Being of every man, and events manifest themselves
in his life, over time, and seem to originate independently of his
will. In reality we are the ones who have intensely invoked them and
unconsciously created them.
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Whether positive or negative, a mans thoughts are always
creative and they will unfailingly find a way to materialize. Our
thoughts, like hand-written invitations, sent and then forgotten,
attract events that correspond to them. In due course, when we are no
longer even thinking about them, circumstances, meetings, events,
problems and accidents, downfalls and failures knock at our door
like unwelcome guests with a secret and longstanding invitation
nevertheless. Only neglect of our states of Being, which are the
true cause of such events, makes them appear to be sudden and
unexpected.

The unexpected always requires a lengthy preparation.

No external event can happen to a man without his consent,
albeit unconscious. Nothing can happen to him without it first
passing through the filter of his psychology.
Therefore, thinking is a very powerful process.
What we then call facts, events, experiences and all manner of
occurrences in ones life are states of Being which are already
marching towards those who are in tune with them. Inner states are
external events just waiting for the right occasion to manifest.
The quality of our emotions, the breadth of our thoughts and the states
of mind that we experience this very instant are deciding what will
then become visibly manifest, and the nature of the events that will
materialize in our lives.

Thinking is Destiny.
The higher our Thoughts the greater our Life.

The fundamental tenet of Lupelius philosophy is that inner states
and events are two aspects of a single reality. This does away with
any distinction between an external and an internal world, thereby
making it possible for every man to guide his own destiny, through
knowledge of his own inner states and self-mastery.

Existence is our own invention and as such depends on us alone.

Guided by Lupelius, I was discovering for the first time the
vertiginous power, the concreteness of doing which lay hidden in
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the Christian phrase mea culpa. For thousands of years, as though
locked in a treasure chest, the very epitome of human intelligence
had been conserved in these two Latin words. Mea culpa, mea
culpa,mea maxima culpa. Only now did I recognise this as the most
concise and potent expression of the idea of responsibility: mea
culpa. This formula, capable of harnessing the universe, from the
hierarchy of the planets to the movement of the atoms, holds the
secret of boundless energy.
Modifying your states of Being can transform the events
that happen to you. This is how a man, by studying himself and
changing his way of thinking and feeling, can transform his
horizontal, temporal existence.
Existence on Earth is our great School A School of life,
which in the eyes of ordinary men appears to be a prison.

We need to learn how to turn our vision upside down.
Whatever men normally perceive as difficulty and misfortune,
whatever they curse and try to avoid at all costs,
is actually the most precious material
for transforming their psychology of death
into a psychology of life.
Life through this world is a School for Gods.
Confusion, doubt, chaos, crisis, anger, despair and pain
are all propitious conditions for growth.

11 States and events I

A mans Being is made up of states, and his life of events.
Our existence therefore runs along two parallel tracks: events, which
are the sequence of circumstances that come towards us during our
lives on the conveyor belt of time and space, and states, which are
the impulses of our spirits, moods and emotions which arise within
us in a mostly unconscious way.
A mans personal history is therefore composed horizontally of
events and vertically of states of Being. However, people usually
think about their life and talk about it as if it were only made up
of external events. In reality, the type of events that occur, and
consequently the quality of a persons external life, depends upon the
quality of their thoughts and states of Being.
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Life is therefore made up of events but more so, of states.
We all believe, for example, when we go to a conference or the
theatre, that we are the ones who choose our seats; we are all sure that
this morning we chose what we were going to wear. However, in
reality, the choice of seat and clothing was not made by us but by
our states of being. Everyone has a suit, a shirt, or some other item
of clothing in their wardrobe which for some reason they never feel
like wearing. However they do not throw that garment away because
they know that, sooner or later, they will find themselves in a state of
mind, a mood, a level of Being, which will be in tune with it. When
we feel that way, we choose that garment.
The relationship between states and events, inner
circumstances and outer events, the mysterious relationship between a
mans psychology and the things that happen to him, are at the
core of the question of free will and the age-old enigma of whether
destiny is determined by chance or necessity. Around this enigma,
through the ages, men have accumulated the knowledge of a great
science that is today unknown.
The ancient Greeks maintained that there was a causal
relationship between inner states and external events. This archaic
civilization firmly believed that a mans destiny was the projection
of his inner world or Being. They founded a science and an art
on this conviction that for them had the highest value. In the pre-
Homeric age, a wise man was not someone rich in experience or in
possession of great knowledge but someone who could predict the
future and reveal what was unknown. For the Greeks, shedding light
on darkness, defining the uncertain, was true knowledge and also
an art.
Other civilizations also exalted divination and prophecy, but
no other people elevated it to the extent where it became the central
tenet of their lives. All over the Hellenic world sanctuaries sprang up
dedicated to the cult of Apollo to whom, more than to Dionysus, was
attributed the dominion of knowledge, understood as manifestation
and communication of human destiny.
This Greek vocation and the art of predicting the future
found its greatest expression in Delphi, which was why the god of
Delphi was a unifying image for that civilization and a symbol of
Greece itself. The pilgrim, who often travelled great distances and
faced grave dangers to ask the god about his future, would find the
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Delphic inscription Know Thyself engraved on the frieze of the
temple, as if to say Do you want to know your future? Then know
yourself!
In this apparently mocking paradox the Greeks set out the
solution to the oldest riddle of humanity, the answer to the age-old
question concerning the existence of free will. A question that led all
the philosophers in the world to ponder feverishly whether to follow
a fatalistic view of a predetermined and inevitable future, or the
belief in the homo faber, man as maker of his own destiny. Sculpting
this Delphic motto onto the very temple dedicated to the most sacred
art and the greatest of sciences, divination, the Greeks revealed the
secret relationship between the inner and the outer world, between
states and events. They entrusted this discovery to the oceans of
time, like a message in a bottle, so that it would reach us. The man
who knows himself, his own Being, the container of his thoughts,
ideas, and attitudes, also knows his own future; for our psychology
is our destiny.

Thinking is Destiny

Apollo is the symbol of the world, as a mirror of mans inner
self. The world is our ref lection.
Classical tradition tells us that Homer was a blind prophet
and this is yet another message that has come down to us from that
age of wise men which ended with the death of Socrates, the last of
the sages. The blindness attributed to the author of the Iliad and the
Odyssey, the two great bibles of the ancient world, is emblematic of
the attention paid by the Greeks to psychology, self-knowledge and
states of Being. Looking inside oneself is the key to knowing the
world, the road to understanding it and foreseeing its events.
Noticing how some men were capable of exceptional deeds
and of undertaking enterprises well beyond ordinary capacities, and
observing how they seemed to enjoy some special protection, even in
the most dangerous circumstances, and how their lives seemed to be
at the centre of extraordinary events, the ancient Greeks recognized
that these men had a special nature, a luminosity of Being and inner
qualities that were almost divine. They therefore concluded that there
existed two human species: heroes and demigods, on the one hand,
common men on the other.
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In the age of Homer only demigods and heroes, thanks to
their extraordinary deeds, could gain the right to an individual
destiny. Their unique and original lives were not ruled by any
divinity and were free from chance and the randomness of events.
All other men were condemned to a repetitive existence. They were
ruled by the laws of Accident and Chance and their lives, whether
short or long, were like their actions: aimless and doomed to end
without leaving any trace.
For Lupelius the difference between these two kinds of
human being, and between men in general, was that they belonged
to different levels on the ladder of Being.

Wherever they meet, for a few moments or years,
men inevitably form a pyramid,
arranging themselves on different levels of an invisible ladder,
according to an inner, mathematical order,
like planetary hierarchies organized according to their brightness,
mass, orbit and distance from their sun.

We may not be aware of it, but our destiny, the quality of our
lives and the events which affect us, must respect this hierarchy.
Being aware that everything emanates from the Being and
that the individual destiny of man, like that of an entire society, is
nothing but a projection of the Being, the classical Greeks used every
possible means, from religion to politics, from science to philosophy,
art and even war, to raise the spirit. The wonderful architecture of
cities like Athens and works of art like the masterpieces of Phidias,
displayed in public squares, were machines that transmitted messages
of beauty, pride and harmony to the Being in order to elevate it. Only
the Ancient Greeks had a word for poetry (poiesis) through which we
can unearth the secret, sealed within its etymology, of doing through
Being. All Greek theatre had a therapeutic, cathartic function for
society, to purify audiences and free their souls from burden. For the
Greeks, the ultimate purpose of the tragedy was the purification of
the passions in order to achieve, through this, the elevation of Being.

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12 States and events II

Many times, as I reflected on the significance of this
information and on everything I was learning about states and events, I
considered how absurd it was that we should spend a quarter of our
lives at school and university and let our entire life slip away without
knowing anything about the Being and the power our states of
mind have in determining the events and circumstances of our lives.
The first education we receive does not provide us with any sense
of the distinction between what is external and what is internal, nor
does it prepare us to manage our thoughts or be aware of our
emotions. Without any deliberate intent, ordinary culture has
relegated emotions, feelings and thoughts to the ephemeral and
intangible sphere of myths, fables and dreams, considering them to
be separate phenomena and extremely far from what is commonly
called reality.
Following the path of classical civilization, discovering its
mythology - more useful and reliable than history in every respect
- and studying Lupelius manuscript, I made the thrilling discovery
that in reality, between states and events there is no relationship of
former and latter or cause and effect, but only of total identification.
States and events are two sides of the same reality placed on different
levels of existence. They are the two ends of the same stick positioned
vertically.
What prevents us from seeing that states and events are one
and the same thing is that they are separated by the factor of time,
which acts as a sort of shock absorber. Between our inner states and
the occurrence of corresponding external events, is a lapse of time
and, like a smoke screen, it prevents us from recognizing that events
are nothing but the materialization of our inner states in time-space.
Thoughts, emotions, feelings and all our states are like invitations
for the corresponding events. To be more precise, they are already
events. It is only a question of time before they happen. It may take
more or less time before they occur, in one place or another, but they
invariably reach us.

A mans emotional states are in reality events
seeking an opportunity to happen
and become visible.
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Time distances states from events and masks their identity.
Time squirts a sepia wash over events, which hide and lurk behind
the screen, taking us by surprise when we have forgotten, or never
even realized, that our emotional states alone were responsible for
them.

Nothing happens suddenly.
The unexpected always requires a lengthy preparation.

There is nothing that a man could possibly encounter, no
event that could present itself to him without first having, knowingly
or unknowingly, journeyed through his Being or psychology. The
world is connected to our emotions, passions and thoughts which
are the drive belt between the inner and outer world. By managing
our emotions and thoughts, along with everything that we feel and
experience in a specific moment, by mastering our states, we can
take control of our existence and set the direction of our destiny.
This is where the Roman concept of fortune and of homo faber had
its roots, in contrast to the Greek and Middle Eastern vision which
represented Fortune as a blindfolded goddess distributing events at
random and directing them at whim.
It is commonly believed that external events condition our
attitudes and determine our moods. Something happens, we meet
someone or receive some news, and we believe that the psychological
state we experience, irritation, anxiety or surprise, is a result or a
consequence of that event, meeting or news. In the same way that,
until the invention of photography, it was impossible to determine
the exact sequence of the hooves on a galloping horse because the
movements were faster than the eye could see, so it is that thoughts,
emotions, perceptions and feelings travel like electronic flashes
through the mysterious forest of our neurons at the speed of light,
making it seem impossible to establish the exact temporal sequence
in relation to external events. Something happens and we believe
the psychological state we feel to be the result of that event. So we
justify our state of Being by reference to that external event when in
fact exactly the opposite has taken place. In reality, it is our states
of Being which announce and determine the external events of our
lives. Our negative emotions in time turn into the adversity of which
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we then complain. To encounter a certain kind of event, be it good
or bad, we first have to create the conditions within ourselves that
allow it to happen.
Mans biggest illusion is to believe he can change external conditions
and change the world. We can only change ourselves, work on our
own attitudes, modify our reactions and not express the negative
emotions we feel.

The universe is perfect the way it is.
The only one who must change is you!

We are convinced that a mans energy and good will count
for very little compared to the events that happen to him in life,
which appear to be largely fortuitous and inevitable. The rush of
events that continuously overtakes us is too varied and confused to
be foreseeable. and much too powerful for us to imagine that we
might actually be able to direct it.
According to Lupelius we need to see that our own self
always lurks behind events and states of Being. No solution is
possible unless we first change ourselves.

Who knows how to intentionally produce
the slightest change in his level of Being
can move mountains
and project himself as a giant in the external world.

By acting on our inner states and on the quality of our
thoughts and feelings, starving some and nourishing others, we will
not only change our attitudes and the way we react to the events
which confront us in the external world, but we will also change the
very nature of the events that we encounter day after day.
Our first task must be one of self-observation. The scrutiny of
our thoughts, emotions and the way in which we take events, will
allow us to discover that humanity thinks and feels negatively.

Only apparently a man wishes himself health,
prosperity and good fortune.
If he could observe and know himself,
he would hear within an almost constant song of sorrow,
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like a prayer of misfortune made of worries, anger,
and the expectation of terrible events,
both probable and improbable.

But how can we act upon inner states of Being, on our own
moods, emotions and ways of thinking?
The energy that could move a mountain is not enough to
modify a thought, let alone lift oneself out of a bad mood or negative
emotion. The force needed to redirect ones thinking or gain control
over an emotion is produced at a higher level. In order to accumulate
this special energy, it is necessary to eliminate all possible flaws
in the system - the thousand tiny fissures consisting mostly of the
expression of unpleasant emotions and negative attitudes through
which, like a colander, we lose energy. If an event happens in the
external world and we do not connect it to the states of our Being that
created it, we miss a valuable opportunity.
If one observes carefully, many of the events in our
lives repeat themselves and it is possible to try to gain a better
understanding of their nature by looking at the way they correspond
to particular states of Being. For instance, take the cluster of
emotions that are generated by being late for a meeting. Being late
triggers a feeling of anxiety. We have to be aware that these external
conditions correspond to a pre-existing inner condition There is a
part of my Being which connects me to those events. There is no way
to eliminate them from my life other than by modifying this inner
condition that I call anxiety, fear or worry, but which in reality is
nothing more than a sickness of Being, an inner fault.
In one way or another, that kind of worrying event will repeat
itself in my life for as long as I harbour within me the psychological
states which produce it. Those events are actually the signs which
indicate that a recovery may take place, if we have the intelligence to
connect them to the emotional states that gave rise to them. Paying
attention to our own psychological states, means reversing the process
and going back from the event to the state which produced it. This is
where we can access understanding and the concrete possibility of
transforming our own lives.
Making excuses, justifying oneself, blaming an external
event and not recognizing that the cause lies in the shortcomings
of our own Being, of our inner states and ways of thinking, feeling
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and reacting, means that we have not understood. Not understanding
means that in some way the event will have to repeat itself over
and over again. The circumstances may change with the events
presenting themselves in different disguises, but we will continue to
blame external circumstances and in doing so miss the opportunity
to free ourselves from them forever.

Take the blame for everything,
accept responsibility for everything that happens to you. The power
of this attitude is compressed in two eternal words: Mea Culpa.

I reflected upon the fact that entire nations live in states of
Being which attract corresponding events. For example, in the
United States, it has taken tens, even hundreds of years for racial
prejudice or the dislike of people who are different for reasons of
creed or culture, to be recognized and to create the conditions for
these prejudices to be overcome.
The premature deaths of martyrs, and leaders such as
Malcolm X, Martin Luther King and John F. Kennedy, have
shortened the time and hastened the conditions needed to change the
psychological states and ways of thinking and feeling of nations and
entire civilisations, so that they become capable of attracting new
events and new opportunities.
Our states can make us win or lose in life. They can make us
rich or poor, they can make us sick or heal us. Self-observation, the
study of the self, is the means by which we can know them. The
mere act of observing ourselves makes us more aware and more
intelligent.

Self-observation is self-correction

13 Put God to work!

Reading Lupelius manuscript put me in a state of feverish
excitement. Leafing through those pages which had been passed
down through the centuries made me feel I was among the desks
of a classroom in the School for Gods. I listened in rapture to the
Schools timeless voice. Every day was an intellectual adventure and
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my research was rewarded with the treasure of immortal thought.

There is nothing that man needs to introduce from the outside
neither food, nor knowledge, nor happiness
it is his birthright not to depend on anything outside of himself
Man can feed himself from the inside,
nourish himself from his own intelligence,
his own will and his own light.

For Lupelius this idea was the central element of physical
immortality, and the cornerstone of every philosophy and religion.
From a recess in the memory came the most ancient words in the
world; the words that mans lips had pronounced, like those of a
child, four thousand years ago, even before he knew how to write
them: Thou shalt have no other gods before Me!...
An understanding grew and spread inside me, initially with
trepidation, like a lamp dispersing the darkness of ages. Then it
flared up as powerful as a roaring fire. Thou shalt have no other
God meant that man, unaware of being the creator, makes the
external world his god and elects it as lord of his Being and master
of his destiny That centuries-old warning handed down the first
and greatest of all the commandments: do not depend on anything!
Remember that you are the one who created all of this!...
Believing in a world outside ourselves means depending on it and
being trapped by the laws of ones own projection. At this point
my thoughts overlapped and became confused like the voices of
small children excited by a joyous discovery Love your Lord God.
Thou shalt have no other Gods outside yourself . You are the lord
and master, the maker and creator of all and everything. You project
all this You are all this Never again will you be this close to the
breath of a more real and concrete god Here my thoughts
stopped and remained suspended
From the translations I received every day from the team of
scholars and researchers I had assembled in Yerevan, emerged a
dialogue between Lupelius and Amanzio, one of his warrior monks.
Their message darted out from between the lines, still alive and
fresh, as if the disciple had asked his questions at the very moment I
was reading them. Time was compressed and I found myself within
the venerable walls of that School.
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Lupelius: If you believe in the external world
as something real, then you are lost
and destined to fail in whatever you do.
Anything coming from out there
can only help you to recognise in yourself
the true source of all your troubles,
limitations and misery.
Therefore, let all outer incidents, circumstances,
events and relations with others fall
in a place within yourself,
where such trash can be transformed
into a new substance, new energy, new life
You have made existence and the external world your
god But existence is not real
it is a device that serves the Dream
so as to help you return to the source
to find out what is really real
There is nothing outside ourselves
which is not ruled by the Dream.

Amanzio: Then what about this castle we are inand these rooms
which are more than three hundred years old?

Lupelius: They are a creation of yours now, in this moment!

Amanzio: And what about my mother and father?

Lupelius: They are also your creations
there is nothing outside of you that is before you! Life
doesnt come from our parents,
but stands Real, Eternal, Magnificent, with neither
beginning nor end,
neither birth nor death.

Amanzio: So then is man God?

Lupelius: No! He is much more! He has God at his service

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Amanzio: What does that mean?

Lupelius: That you could ask Him for everything you desire
and God will satisfy all your requests
without constraint
God is a good servant but not a good master
God loves to serve he loves to love
God is total surrender at your service
God exists because you exist
If you are not there then He has no reason to exist
God is your will in action.

Amanzio: I dont understand

Lupelius: The mind cannot understand it can only lie
The mind is mendacious
The mind that is not mendacious annuls itself
and makes way for the totality of the Being.
You cannot change the past
if you dont understand that
it is this present which gives form to the past.
Whatever you attain in this instant
is simultaneously transferred in all directions.
the present is made perfect,
everything in your past will be aligned with this perfection.
Each event of the past is just a resonance of vibrations
that your body is sending right Now.
Its Here that everything happens
Its Here that everything is touched
Its Here that everything is moved
Here where Truth, Innocence, Beauty and Power dwell.
Here in this infinite, everlasting, indestructible Body.

14 The art of vigilance

The battlefield is the Body, I read in the manuscript.
This authoritative statement by Lupelius echoed inside me
like the war cry of a great crusade. The battlefield is our body. The
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name of victory is integrity. The goal of a mans life, his aim, is
integrity, the unity of Being. In this way Lupelius summarized the
sense of mankinds millennial quest and explained the very reason
for his existence, the meaning of his entire history. According to
Lupelius, this achievement is physical. The body is the most visible
part of the Being and integrity of Being is a victory that takes place
in our very cells.

Expand your vision until your whole body, every organ,
muscle, fibre and cell down to the very last atom
is overwhelmed by the light of your Dream.
Once dreaming is set in motion all things are possible.
Your dreaming contains all the principles and power
needed for the establishment of a kingdom of heaven on earth.
There is no war so holy as that in which one conquers oneself ,
no greater victory than exceeding ones own limits.
Integrity is the healing of Being.
It requires the overthrowing of age-old beliefs,
transforming negative emotions and destructive thoughts,
achieving self-mastery and control
of ones eating, sleeping and breathing

Studying this and other passages of The School for Gods, I
perceived the nature of the experiments that Lupelius and those
around him were conducting, in that glowing laboratory that was
his School in Ireland one thousand years ago. There his warrior-
acolytes trained themselves to master dependence on sleep and food,
reducing their reliance on them day by day, as a fundamental part of
their training to become invulnerable and immortal.
According to Lupelius, sleep was a poor surrogate for
breathing, it was a contrivance that the body had devised to free
itself, if only for a few hours, from insufficient and inefficient
breathing. As I delved even further into Lupelius thinking I realized
that nothing is as close to us, and at the same time as mysterious and
unknown, as our breathing. We are creatures living at the bottom
of an ocean of air. And although we are submerged in this element
and every square centimetre of our body is under pressure from this
ethereal ocean, we still absorb an insufficient quantity of oxygen into
our lungs. Lupelius made the astonishing discovery that the amount
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of air we all breathe in is tens of times less than we actually need.
In his manuscript he examined and accurately described this
condition of near suffocation to which man has been reduced,
referring to it as under breathing.
According to Lupelius, the consequence of this strange
phenomenon is that there are vital parts of our organism that do
not receive an adequate supply of oxygen and are undernourished.
Anticipating by many hundreds of years the discovery of the
importance of respiration in catabolism and organ regeneration,
Lupelius concluded that mankind was seriously polluted. He
considered that it was necessary for a man to dedicate several hours a
day to breathing fully, deeply and completely, and he predicted
that one day every school, organization and community would teach
breathing techniques as a way of training people to take in much
greater quantities of oxygen, thus fulfilling our bodys real needs.
I noted with regret that, ten centuries later, that prophecy was
still far from being realised and that men continued to under
breathe unperturbed, behaving as if oxygen were subject to heavy
taxes or counted amongst the rarest and most costly commodities in
the universe.
According to Lupelius, deep breathing cannot be done
mechanically but only through an effort of will. From him I learned
that the destiny of a man is linked to his breathing by a double thread.

The deeper a mans breathing, the richer his reality
If you want to change your destiny, work on your breathing
dedicate time to intentional breathing.

One of the cornerstones of Lupelius doctrine was that in
order to deserve an individual destiny, to be the hero of a great
personal adventure, a man needs to breathe consciously and deeply,
to be frugal with food and sex, to steal time from sleep. All necessary
efforts should be directed towards this goal. On this subject, I found
a letter in the manuscript written by Lupelius to one of his students
providing advice in a familiar and informal tone.

People fall asleep in the same way
as they hope to die suddenly
But, whatever time it is, however long your day has been
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and however hard your battle, make sure you fall asleep awake
Those who do not know how to manage their energy,
fall into bed exhausted at the end of the day, more dead than alive
If you really have to sleep - even for a few minutes,
then you must approach sleep from a state of wakefulness.
This will prevent you from falling into the infernal depths.

It seemed as if these words from Lupelius were directed at
me, indirectly reprimanding me for my then quite frequent habit of
falling asleep suddenly in front of the television or while reading a
book. Their force and suggestive power was such that upon reading
those words I immediately decided to redeem myself, and from that
day on I adopted falling asleep awake as a password and a rule for
life. According to Lupelius the way in which a man goes to sleep
is like a litmus test, a way of revealing the quality of his life. The
moment we feel we are succumbing, when our eyes are closing and
falling asleep seems inevitable, for Lupelius is the time when we
must exercise our will, rising up and using every possible means to
conquer sleep Lupelius suggested swordplay, bathing or dancing,
and devised all sorts of tricks and stratagems that could serve this
purpose.
According to Lupelius To sleep is to die! With his
inimitable black humour, universal jester and master of disguises
that he was, he claimed that every night men play out the dress
rehearsal for their own final exit from the scene. Persevering in
their bad habit of sleeping, half the planet goes to bed, its
inhabitants bidding each other good night without even realizing
what a macabre ritual they are performing. The philosopher- monk
who dared to dream the impossible, the head of the School of
invincible warriors, concluded the letter to his disciple with some
extraordinary advice on the art of staying awake.

When you know that sleep is the representation of death,
you can no longer approach it as you did before
In any case, whatever precautions or methods you adopt,
you must never let anyone, not even your woman, see you sleeping
Exercise the art of staying awake!...
A warrior knows that to be caught napping
is to expose his vulnerability
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It is like inviting the world to attack and mortally wound you.

15 Bad habits

Lupelius had discovered a mystery in man that the mind
cannot even begin to conceive: the existence of a black hole that
collects a psychological scum that pollutes his cells.
By using the techniques of fasting and breathing, by adopting a new
vision and new ideas and by making special efforts, a man can
change himself and the reality that surrounds him. He can make the
transition from an incomplete Being, mortal and ridden with
conflict, to one who is whole, harmonious and immortal.
Every deprivation, every effort made towards frugality, is
part of the preparation for our escape from the hell of ordinariness,
freeing us from the pileup of emotional debris built up over the
years. According to Lupelius, only a man of the School, guided by a
flawless teacher, can confront such a healing process and overcome
the hurdles and obstacles of such an undertaking.
Man is generally incapable of understanding the signs that
announce and accompany an act of purification. Ordinary humanity
reads these in reverse and sees them as signs of sickness rather than
healing. The pain involved in the effort required is something no one
wants to face which is why, according to Lupelius, we abandon every
act of abstinence just when it is starting to have a positive effect.
Through his long voyages, intense study and tireless
research, Lupelius had come to know the ancient schools of initiation
and had met extraordinary men who belonged to the great ascetic
and mystic traditions. In every age and in all civilizations, otium, the
art of not doing, had been the mainstay of every discipline and inner
search; the golden thread that tied every man who desired to conquer
the highest levels of responsibility to the great adventure.
Following the ideal map indicated by the manuscript, the
abstinence of the ascetic, the solitude of the hermit and the frugality
of the monk, revealed themselves to be expressions of a single
School, different aspects of one, timeless quest that was connected
to the martial disciplines and wakefulness of the warrior.
Upon further investigation, I discovered that Arrian, one of
the two historians who wrote of the exploits of Alexander the Great,
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had, in the Anabasis Alexandrou, summed up the dietary rules and
the secret of his boundless energy in a single sentence: he had
been trained to be frugal: for breakfast, a march before dawn; for
dinner, a light meal.
The Macedonian warriors themselves, considered throughout
all antiquity to be the unmatched models of bravery and strength,
were of legendary frugality. They slept on the naked earth and, even
at times of extreme endurance and while undertaking the most
daunting endeavors, would eat only a handful of olives. And yet,
they were tireless, the most fearsome of warriors, a true nightmare
for their enemies.
The deliberate elimination of just one gram of food and
abstinence from just one minute of sleep were, in Lupelius opinion,
so powerful as to cast serious doubt on mans entire system of beliefs
and upset his artificial equilibrium. His School advocated the absence
of sickness, old age and death as an inalienable birthright and natural
condition of man.

A diseaseless, ageless, deathless man.

Since the beginning of time, throughout the centuries and in
all traditions, the quest for self-mastery had required practice and
discipline, intended as a means by which to bring to the surface what
Lupelius called emotional slime. It was an essential procedure in
order to discover inner wounds and drive out all the shadows lurking
in the folds of the Being.
One day, while working on the manuscript, I discovered the
incredible secret which Lupelius had exposed. His announcement was
the manifesto for a revolution in thought that did not appear to be
directed at his contemporaries but at a scientific assembly of the
future: It is time for mankind to wake up from an ancestral,
metaphysical sleep It is time to shake off the dust of ages from its
belief system
And the document ended with these forbidding words: Food,
sleep, sex, disease, old age and death are bad mental habits. We must
rid ourselves of them.
In several places in his manuscript these words were also
referred to as superstitions or illusions.
The battlefield is the body, said Lupelius. Every refusal of
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food and every minute rescued from sleep, is a victory in the battle
against death Physical death is immoral unnatural
unnecessary.
Lupelius believed that lack of frugality in food, sleep, sex or
work was the primary cause of any loss of energy and vitality,
leading man to annihilate himself, thereby achieving the impossible
of abdicating his birthright to immortality and making physical death
first possible, and secondly unavoidable. Throughout the ages, in
every civilization and religious tradition, an elite few have awakened
from the hypnotic sleep vilified by Lupelius and tried to follow a
discipline which placed the idea of physical immortality at the centre
of their system of thought, claiming it as the origin of all prosperity
and longevity.
The Dreamer would one day say to me that the idea of
physical immortality was a fundamental element in the psychology
of a new humanity, and of leaders in particular. Unless he passed
through these Pillars of Hercules, a man would sooner or later be
put under severe pressure by his limitations and succumb to his own
demise. And if that man was in charge of an organization, then the
whole enterprise would fall with him. The idea that death can be
defeated uproots every constraint from our psychology, increases our
responsibility and is an essential requirement for the establishment
of a vital, prosperous and durable enterprise. According to the
Dreamer, the philosophy of physical immortality should be taught
in all schools, universities and institutions. The idea of a life without
end is the strongest antidote to poverty, crime and death.
Leaving Yerevan and the Institute for Ancient Manuscripts, I
returned to New York bringing with me, as my most prized
possession, the copy of The School for Gods which I had made
for the Dreamer. From the mountain of notes I had compiled, two
words in particular gave me cause for thought for the duration of my
journey: Die less, a recurring aphorism and perhaps the motto of the
Lupelians. These words seemed to me to be the ultimate synthesis of
the Schools philosophy.

Die less and Live forever.

I thought of the devastating discovery hidden behind the
apparent simplicity of this formula. Man dies inside thousands of
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times a day. Destructive states and thoughts and negative emotions
burgeon and reproduce ceaselessly within our Being, distilling the
slow poison that kills us. We may not know where to start in order
to live forever, but following Lupelius age-old aphorism we can
certainly resolve to die less. Many times I chanted the Lupelian
song of immortality:

Eat less and Dream more.
Sleep less and Breathe more.
Die less and Live forever.

16 You wont make it!

I emerged as if from a journey underground. I recognized the
room and the great painting on the far wall. This time, it was later in
the morning in the Dreamers world, and the light was such that I
could easily observe the architecture of that part of the house. I looked
up towards the high ceiling and followed its line to the point where it
dropped sharply forming an imposing archway of bare bricks.
It was in that moment that I sensed a presence. I gave a start.
On each side of the arch, two naked people, a man and a woman,
were observing me like motionless guardians. A shiver flew down
my spine before I understood what was before me. They were life
size statues placed opposite each other and were so perfectly made
that I thought they were copies of Hellenic originals. The chest of the
warrior, so high and smooth and strong as armour, conveyed to me a
message of irresistible pride. I stood up and straightened my back as
if responding to a military order.
I instinctively ignored the steep stone stairway that led to
the Dreamers rooms and, went unhesitatingly in the opposite
direction, towards a large, unusually shaped door made of glass and
wrought iron. Beside it, a large painting covered the entire wall. I
stopped to look and recognised an opulent representation of the myth
of Narcissus, depicting him as he admired his reflection in a pond,
shortly before being swallowed into it. I kept admiring this work,
which would not have looked out of place among the seventeenth
century masterpieces of an important museum collection. Then I
carefully pushed open the glass door and stopped, spellbound, on the
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threshold of a fairytale setting.
Without taking my eyes off this scene, I bent down to untie
my shoelaces and left my shoes there, where I stood, as I had done
on my first visit. I proceeded cautiously in bare feet across the large
terracotta tiles and went into what seemed to be a large greenhouse.
There was a rich variety of plants, for the most part tropical, and the
walls, with their long rows of glass arches, reinforced this impression.
Outside, the deep green of the garden pressed against the chestnut
window frames like a botanical ocean against the sides of an ark. But
the elegance of every detail, the works of art, the valuable paintings
and the modern sculptures in white marble left me pleasantly
perplexed as to the true nature of this extraordinary place. The first
light of morning flooded in from two large skylights. I looked at the
huge beams that supported the roof and I tried to imagine what titan
had been able to carry and place them there. I scanned the room
several times, but could find no trace of the Dreamer. I had not seen
Him for over a year. As I moved on, I saw an expanse of water in
the middle of the hall floor. Rather than a pool, it appeared to be a
small blue pond dug into the terracotta tiles, a constant movement
shivering across the surface of the water. I gazed along the edge until I
saw His ref lection in the ripples..
I looked up slowly. The Dreamer was lifting a silver flute to
his lips. He bent forward elegantly and raised his face, and the
shining instrument, towards the light. The air was filled with a string
of notes, threaded one after another, like pearls on a necklace. It was
ageless, timeless music, ageless and timeless like the villa, like that
room, like that moment. I remained motionless as I listened.
I felt the joyful thrill of my childhood, permeated with the
salty fragrance of the sea, and its forgotten happiness; the foolish
races along the rocks, the taste of freshly caught crabs and shellfish,
the way my heart pounded before diving headlong off the big rock,
the cool shade of our summer house in Ischia, Carmelas sweaty
kisses when she returned hot from the market, heavy bags in both
hands
Finally one note remained suspended in the air longer than
the others, fluttering on the breath which had created it, clinging a
little longer to the molecules of air, before freeing itself from the
music and becoming a single, quivering, sonorous sound. Suddenly
it stopped. For an endless moment the flute was held crosswise,
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attached to the Dreamers lower lip, and then it softly followed the
hand that laid it down on a cushion nearby.
He was younger than I remembered Him, and seemed even
thinner. He looked up and examined me at length. He certainly knew
how much effort I had made to return to Him He knew about my
extensive search for the manuscript, the success of my mission and
the passion with which I had studied, which had brought me closer to
the thought of the School. Following the stormy meeting that had
marked the beginning of my apprenticeship and the journey into my
past, this time I was expecting words of encouragement, if not of
praise. I took a few steps towards him.
The Dreamer continued to stare at me without saying a
word. Initially I felt a vague sense of unease, that quickly turned
into pain. Under His gaze, my attention reversed its direction. I was
looking inside myself for the first time. The spectacle was far from
agreeable: a mass of dark thoughts was emerging in my consciousness,
along with feelings of guilt and other sensations, twisted into an
emotional jumble which had never been disentangled. His eyes bore
into me, churning up a psychological sludge that I never wanted to
see or confront. He stopped just as the pain was exceeding the limits
of my endurance. But He didnt relax His grip. What was to follow
would be much more painful.
At the end of His examination, as if He had reached a final,
definitive judgement, He passed sentence:
You wont make it!
The silence which followed that verdict flooded into the
greenhouse, filling every corner. Disappointment, dejection and
anger closed in on me, merging into a single, quiet agony. I felt myself
spent of all energy. I wanted only to collapse and be left in peace. But I
did not dare do that, nor did I request it. Holding my breath, like an
accused man I awaited the final sentence of His judgement. The
pause was cruelly long.
Finally, like a researcher observing the results of yet another
failed experiment, an expected but no less disappointing outcome,
He announced:
No one can make it It is humanity that cannot make it!
He was addressing me as if I were a representative of a defeated
race, a species on the brink of extinction.
There are too many laws which compel you to remain as
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you are. You have even turned the quest I entrusted to you into
something which feeds your vanity and egocentricity.
I experienced a powerful feeling of resentment, that mixture of
loathing and self pity that results from perceived injustice. After
months of travelling and research in the United States and Europe,
after having found Lupelius manuscript that scholars, researchers
and archaeologists had deemed lost forever, and after having
courageously confronted my tormented past, I did not deserve to be
treated in this way. I would have liked to rebut the Dreamers words
in some way, but the muscles of my dignity were still too weak.
Besides, deep in my heart I knew that He was right. I tried to conceal
my mood behind a false appeasement.
I cant change was all I allowed myself to say, but my voice
betrayed the rancour of my impotence and my tendency to cling and
be dependent.
STOOOOP! shouted the Dreamer, drawing out the o in a
hideous tone of voice. I felt my body scattered into a thousand pieces
and recompose simultaneously. Every thought and emotion had
been washed away leaving a strange sensation of thoughtlessness,
carved out by that inhuman wail, terrible as a battle cry heard among
the clashing components of war in the middle of lethal combat.
The passing seconds were filled with terror like the countdown to
a harrowing event. Something in my being was triggered
which sharpened my ability to listen.
Do you remember when you used to cry for hours until you
were hoarse? asked the Dreamer suddenly, in a low voice yet
somehow distilling ferocity in His tone. Image after image rushed
through my mind, points of access to a distant past that overlapped
and mixed together like shuffled playing cards. The images all
shared the same characteristics. They all possessed the same light
and magical atmosphere of my Neapolitan childhood, where Lares
and Penates had even more ancient names, given to them by age-old
superstitions. I recognized the old house, Carmelas room and the
wardrobe with the mirrors on its doors. A boy of around six years old
was sitting on the floor, crying desperately, endlessly It was me.
You are still there, nothing has changed, except that your
childish tantrums have become a permanent tendency to complain
and indulge in self-pity.
He fell silent for what seemed an interminable length of
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time
No one changes it is impossible to change commented
the Dreamer at last At the age of seven, a child is already recruited
into that sad army of adults, like a little Spartan he has already
received an inverted description of the world along with a complete
set of all the beliefs, prejudices, superstitions and ideas that give him
a lifetime membership in that planetary club of miserable souls.
A mans thoughts, emotions and body are concentric
universes everything is connected. Deliberately changing the
tone or inflection of ones voice, straightening ones back by even
one millimetre or modifying ones most insignificant habit, means
changing ones entire life. Its virtually impossible.
He scrutinized me intensely, severely, and I endured His
examination. I knew that not even the slightest impulse in my
soul would escape His notice and that there was no possible way
of cheating in this game. I was betting on all or nothing The
possibilities that one day I might conquer myself, be touched by the
Dream and transform my life into a great personal adventure, or else
fall and lose myself forever, with no hope of recovery, were both
therethe alternatives co-existed. My life was hanging by a thin
thread suspended over the mouth of an abyss. One word, a change in
inflection, the length of a pause, could make it fall into the swarming
mass of a collective destiny.
With a quick movement and the agility of someone who
keeps his body in shape, He rose from His reclining position. The
light blue of the pool caught His movement like the reflection of
something in flight and rocked it on its trembling surface. Slowly,
He took a few steps in my direction. I held my breath and waited for
what seemed an eternity. Then, with a firm tone, but this time devoid
of harshness, He announced:
You can make it only if you remember Me!

17 Turn your convictions upside down!

In the meantime, He had settled Himself comfortably,
carefully arranging a few cushions around Him. He looked as though
He were bracing Himself to resume a lengthy task that He thought
already completed.
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Overthrow your beliefs! He exhorted emphatically.
The idea of inviting me to take a seat must never even have
crossed His mind, and He left me standing on the same spot where I
had been from the beginning of our encounter. I thought this was
lacking in consideration and felt resentful and offended. At the
time, it was inconceivable to me that one could live every moment
as purposefully as the Dreamer. He did not so much as bat an
eyelid without it consciously serving His purpose. Brooding over
my resentment, I carried on listening to Him, not moving from the
terracotta tile on which I was standing, next to the trembling waters
of His pool.
A mans present, past and future the events, the
circumstances and the experiences he encounters on his way, are
shadows projected by his beliefs continued the Dreamer His
existence and destiny are the materialization of his convictions and,
above all, of his indulgences
Visibilia ex invisibilibus. Everything you perceive, see and
touch comes from the invisible. The life of a man is the shadow of his
Dream, it is the visual manifestation of his principles and all he
believes
Everyone invariably sees what he has firmly believed in
come to pass A man always creates. The obstacles he encounters
are the materialization of his own limitations, his fragmented
thinking and his impotence
There are those who have faith in poverty and those who only
know how to believe in sickness There are those who have an
unshakable belief in misery and scarcity and there are those who
have staked everything on crime Man is always creative, even when
he is imprisoned in the dungeons of his Being.
According to the Dreamer, no man has any more faith than
the other. Every man has his own allocation of faith to manage, to
invest... everyone has been apportioned exactly the same amount.
What differentiates men what really gives them a different
destiny, is the direction of their beliefs, the different quality of their
goals, be they conscious or not
I was more than a little disconcerted by the Dreamers claims as
I had always believed that faith was a rare commodity, and, what
was more, that it was precisely their varying capacity for believing
that differentiated men. One of the ideological pillars of my vision
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of the world was certainly the belief that Mohammed, Alexander,
Socrates, Lao Tzu, Churchill or Napoleon could be set apart from
other men by the strength of their convictions.
But if everyone has faith and furthermore, the same
quantity of faith I asked, using the Holy Scriptures to support my
case and drawing strength from their authority what then is the
meaning of the words if you have faith like a mustard seed?
The discussion which followed imprinted itself forever in my
consciousness. Not so much for His memorable words but for the
authority with which He delivered them. The Dreamer was not
giving me an interpretation of that passage from the Gospel, He was
creating it. The dreaming essence of that age-old message and the
intelligence compressed in its atoms, was being released there and
then, in that moment. The words I was listening to were new and
alive, and had never been uttered before in the entire history of the
world.
If a man were able to shift the direction of his faith by even
one millimetre, if he could only redirect the strength of his convictions
towards life rather than death he could move mountains in the
world of events.
Like a flash of lightning that tears through the darkness
and illuminates what a few moments earlier had been steeped in
shadows, this evidence leapt across my mind. Now I understood
vividly just how much energy was contained in a single atom of
faith. I understood that the elimination of the smallest particle of hell
would destroy that total faith in death - the most deeply rooted of all
mans beliefs. I also realized the enormity of such an undertaking.
Grasping this idea alone required an effort equivalent to a Titan
carrying the weight of both heaven and earth on his shoulders.
For the first time I asked myself what I had believed in, to
what had I attributed value until my meeting with the Dreamer
His voice reached me while I was immersed in these thoughts and
helped me as they turned irreparably towards the dark morass of my
past. Although I already knew, it was embarrassing for me to have
renewed confirmation of the fact that I was an open book to Him.
Until today your reason for living, the goal of your
existence, as for all men, has been to kill yourself inside. Sickness,
Old Age and Death are the gods that mankind has worshipped for
thousands of years Thus has man painfully renounced life and
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his infinite dream.
If you had faith like a mustard seed meant that the
slightest raising of our vision, the most minimal change, could divert
us from our mortal destiny.

The dream is the most real thing there is.

To see ones own limitations and circumscribe them,
means to free oneself from them! Mans life is ruled by negative
emotions. The anguish he carries inside is the real cause of all his
troubles and unhappiness. The Dreamer rose and, turning His back
to me, took a few careful steps past the large pool towards the
opposite corner of that extraordinary greenhouse. From there He
spoke, still with His back to me, and I heard His voice as strong and
clear as if He had been whispering in my ear.
It is only a question of time I scrupulously recorded in my
notebook before every one of us will reach the goals we have set
for ourselves In the end we will all win we will all become what
we have believed in and each of us will achieve everything we
have clung to most faithfully you, your misery, your immorality,
your death and I, f lawlessness, infinity and immortality.

18 The Narcissus Syndrome

Your most unshakeable faith your most harmful belief, is
that a world exists outside of yourself, that there is someone or
something on which to depend, someone or something that can give
or take from you, elect or condemn you said the Dreamer.
If a warrior believed, even for a moment, in outside help, he
would immediately lose his invulnerability He said. Then He shut
His eyes and fell silent.
I tried to fill that moment by writing down His words in
my notebook, but my feeling of emptiness expanded. I struggled
to overcome my discomfort over suddenly feeling irrelevant and
superfluous by mentally rereading parts of my notes. Finally, the
Dreamer broke His silence and with His eyes still closed, recited:

There is nothing out there...
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There is no help coming from anywhere at all...

Mans most serious disease is dependence He announced in
a severe tone. I immediately became very vigilant. I unerringly felt
in my bones the importance of this statement and the central role that
I should give it in my new system of beliefs.
There is nothing worse than dependence on others, on their
presence or their judgement and to free oneself from this requires
extensive preparation
Later, when I recalled my attitude on that occasion and
similar ones, I realized that when the Dreamer referred to mankind
in general, that which I accepted immediately and unquestioningly
provoked a response of unassailable resistance when His criticism
was aimed directly at me personally.
People like you only feel alive when they are among
others they prefer crowded places they find work in government
offices or large companies wherever they feel the reassuring
presence of the crowd They celebrate all the rituals of dependence
and gather in its temples: cinemas, theatres, hospitals, stadiums,
courthouses or churches, just to huddle in a group with others, to
escape from themselves and the unbearable burden of their solitude
continued the Dreamer.
An irrepressible hostility darkened my Being, almost as if
those words had threatened something vital or upset a plan which
had been made a long time before. Mentally I lined up all the harsh
words, like a row of mortar shells I would have liked to lob at Him. I
tried to clear away the negativity, but could only manage a pained
grimace. The Dreamer was testing the walls of my resistance and He
knew how to breach them. He gave me a ferocious smile, as if He
were about to strike me, and said in a low voice:
A man like you falls ill and is willing to be cut to pieces
by surgeons by the shamans of a still primitive science, just to
draw attention to himself I gasped, as if I had been punched in the
stomach. The Dreamer let a few seconds pass as if he were counting
me out, as if he were referee and adversary at the same time.
Do you remember the painting? He asked suddenly,
completely changing His tone and demeanor. He knocked me off
balance every time. I would never get used to these abrupt changes,
performed with a suddenness and mastery I had never seen in anyone
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before. I was amazed by His ability to transform Himself, entering
into a totally new state of Being without transferring even one atom
from the previous one. I immediately understood that His question
referred to the painting I had admired before coming into the
greenhouse where we were now. I recalled the picture of Narcissus
admiring his image in the pool moments before being swallowed up
by it.
It is the symbolic story of a man lost and identified with the
external world explained the Dreamer, barely concealing His mirth
at my vain attempts to change my facial expressions in response to
His sudden change of topic and mood. He paused allowing me to
catch up.
As long as you believe in an external world, as long as
you trust that politicians have the power to govern your outer life
and religions to put order in your inner one, you will be deeply
disappointed. ...See the world as it is - a simultaneous creation of
your inner being. According to your inner states and conditions, the
world appears and disappears at will, and can become something
alien and violent if you forget that you yourself are the very source
of its existence.
The myth of Narcissus is the metaphor of a man who
becomes a victim of the world which is his own projection. Once you
realize that the world you see is the projection of yourself, you are
free of it concluded the Dreamer.
I was in a state of shock. How had it been possible for one of
the most crucial myths of our civilization to be so scarcely understood
for thousands of years? How on earth had it been possible to miss an
explanation that was so simple?
Alongside the Dreamer, I distinctly heard the voice of ancient
times, of the classic age when most audacious ideas were forged,
conceived by that race of gigantic thinkers, lofty philosophers who
died out with Socrates. The resonance of their knowledge, which was
eventually replaced by the consolatory invention of philosophy, still
crosses the ages to reach us but we continue to neglect or
misunderstand its warning myths. We do not want to know of their
merciless message about the true condition of man and we still
present Narcissus as the archetype of vanity, whereas instead his
myth is a warning signal alerting us to the stupidity and danger of the
conventional vision of the world. What the Dreamer had repeatedly
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tried to make me understand was finally penetrating a little deeper.
The story of Narcissus was a message from a School of Overturning
which had existed thousands of years before Caravaggio and which
had inspired him to paint those pictures of the crucifixion of Peter
and the conversion of Paul on the road to Damascus. Narcissus was
not guilty of vanity, as often thought, but of identifying and falling
victim to his own description of the world.
To fall in love with something outside of ourselves,
forgetting ourselves, means becoming lost in the wanderings of a
world of dependence it means forgetting that one is the sole creator
of his own personal reality
A world outside of ourselves does not exist He stated again
All that we meet, see and touch is a reflection of ourselves. Other
people, the events and circumstances in a mans life reveal his
condition.
Blaming the world, complaining, justifying and hiding, are
therefore the surest signs of dependency and the absence of a
true will.
This is not the only message which has come down to us
across the ages which man has consistently misunderstood in order
to escape its unbearable proposition said the Dreamer.
Like Adam, Narcissus also bit into the apple! He said,
catching me by surprise. It was difficult for me to keep pace with
Him, when with a single step, He crossed the abyss of time and space
between distant worlds, placing the four thousand year old story of
Genesis alongside one of the most ancient classical Greek myths.
He too, like Adam, believed in otherness, in the existence of
a world outside himself.
Narcissus drown, victim of his illusion that there was
someone outside himself, and Adam was cast out of Eden and
condemned to death for having bitten into the apple and for believing
in the existence of an external world.
However culturally distant they may have been, in both
traditions the message was the same: to believe that the world is
outside us means to become its victim, to be swallowed up by it.
The world is created by you, every second! said the
Dreamer The pool in which Narcissus saw his reflection is the
external world. Believing it to be real and relying on it means
depending on ones own shadow it means becoming smaller than
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the world we project. From creator, you become a creation, from
dreamer you become dreamed, from master you become slave, until
you are suffocated by your own creation.
It occurred to me that the message conveyed by these myths, as
the Dreamer was helping me discover, could also be found intact in
modern as well as ancient fables, from Frankenstein to Blade
Runner, from the Gospels to Alice in Wonderland.
The fall of Adam and Eve from paradise happens every
moment concluded the Dreamer.
We are thrown out of Eden each time the description of the
world takes hold of us the moment we forget we are the creators.
Then the creation rebels and rises up against us This is the original
sin, the unforgivable, mortal sin: mistaking the cause for the effect.
A man that is whole and true is such because he governs himself
And in spite of the apparent dynamism of events and the variety of
situations he finds himself in, he knows that the world is his mirror.
Whether good or bad, ugly or beautiful, right or wrong,
everything a man encounters is just his reflection and not reality
said the Dreamer, and from His tone I understood our meeting was
approaching its end. He was about to leave me.
Everyone always and only reaps what he is You are both
the seed, and the harvest. This is why all the revolutions in history
have failed they tried to change the world from the outside they
believed the image in the pool to be real. Do not rely any more on
the world for help. Go beyond it! Only those who have gone beyond
the world can improve it.
Here He stopped for a few moments.
Go beyond it! He ordered, and then fell silent once more.
Transcend the world, go beyond it! What could this mean?
For centuries man has scratched at the screen of the
world, believing he could change the images of the film he himself
had projected onto it.
The explanation for the failure of so many generations of
men who had attempted to change the course of history was being
handed to me on a silver platter. That bitterly comic vision summed
up the infinite succession of atrocities, defeats and heroics, passing
upon it just one judgement: that it had been a colossal and useless
folly.
You get out of this madness! He ordered with unexpected
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kindness Forget about wars, revolutions and economic, social,
or political reform concern yourself with the one who is truly
responsible for everything that happens Stop thinking about the
dream and take care of the dreamer in you. The greatest revolution,
the most difficult of all undertakings, yet the only one that has any
sense, is changing ones self.

19 A man cannot hide

Those who depend on the world remain mired in the lowest
levels of existence, the Dreamer warned. For your whole life, you
have looked for ephemeral certainties, satisfactions and security
outside of yourself constantly suspended between fear and hope,
which are the roots of dependence
As He spoke, the Dreamer fixed His gaze on me with a
severity that did not permit me to blink or draw breath, as He would
do when He had to overcome my barriers and reach me at a deeper
level.
Your life, like that of all those who are dependent, is
horrible. It is the life of a slave Years and years in an office,
perpetuating mediocrity and scarcity, without even having the
slightest desire to escape from that prison.
Like a war reporter, I took note of what He was saying,
writing amidst a hail of gunfire.
There is nothing out there there is no help coming from
anywhere at all, repeated the Dreamer to impress this statement on
the core of my most deeply rooted beliefs. I will never stop repeating
this; nothing is outside of you What you call the world is only an
effect what you call reality is the materialisation, the mirror image
of your dreams or your nightmares
This vision would reveal itself to be the backdrop to all
His teachings and, on several occasions in the future, the Dreamer
would elaborate and expand on it, as my ability to understand and
support its subversive force developed. I remember how that first
time had been a shock for me, a complete inversion of everything I
had believed in up until that moment.
Realize that the world is in you, and not vice versa! What
is in the world, or belongs to it, can neither help nor save you!
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Then His words became an exhortation, an appeal that I felt
was directed not only to me but to every man. His words were laced
with the disappointment of one who knows he is offering something
of great value to someone who can neither appreciate nor use it.
Aspire to freedom, leave this desperate multitude behind
Impose a new way of feeling upon yourself. Conquer the immensity
within you and the galaxies will become grains of sand
Broaden your vision and you will see the world become
small Vision and reality are one and the same thing Look for
integrity and what are insurmountable mountains for others will
become tiny bumps for you.
I interpreted the pause that followed as an invitation to make
a comment and, carelessly, I ventured a few observations. I said
something about the difficulty of accepting the idea that we are the
cause of every event or circumstance in our lives. I took care to
avoid anything contentious and adopted the impartial tone of one who
tries to introduce a wise neutrality into a casual conversation with a
stranger. Like a blind man, I could not perceive the unfathomable
distance which separated the Dreamers words from mine on the
ladder of responsibility.
It seems impossible to believe that everything that can
happen to a man, from a cold to a plane crash, is the materialization of
his psychology, of his state of Being, I concluded. I felt simultaneously
fascinated and threatened by the Dreamers vision. Following the trail
of my reflections, I was digging down to the roots of our civilization,
as deep down as those two contrasting positions which have divided
our world to this day. Classical Greece believed in a goddess of
Fortune who blindly bestowed favours. They represented her wearing
a blindfold. The ancient Romans, on the other hand, believed in
homo faber. Fortune to the Romans was a goddess who had the most
perfect sight and respected the virtue of the individual. In my mind I
classified the Dreamer among those who supported the Roman
conception of the world.
However, I hardly had time to formulate this idea, when I
heard His voice transform itself into a roar which froze my blood, as
in the most terrible moments I had previously experienced with Him.
Do you think you are here to make small talk with some
poor slob like yourself?... Hear me well He said, and reinforced
this order by tapping His right ear with His first two fingers several
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times, in a slow and deliberate way The world is a reflection of
your states of Being means this: Luisa did not die of cancer. Her
death is the theatrical representation of your interior drama, your
mortal anguish That event, like all events, is only a manifestation
of your states of Being Even though you try to conceal it through
endless blame and complaint, in reality your song of sorrow is a
fertility rite in reverse. It has invited all the troubles and difficulties
of your entire existence.
Suddenly everything fell silent.
An inexplicable anxiety was welling up inside me. A part of
me gave way and a cavern opened wider and wider until it engulfed
me. My heart was pounding against the walls of my chest and my
breathing was locked into an everlasting exhalation. I felt sickened
and dizzy, trapped in an endless fall, while a mute cry of terror,
desperation and shame echoed throughout the fibres of my Being, as
if all the pain of my existence were compressed into a single point.
Only when He began to speak once more was I finally able to
breathe again. Greedily I gulped in all the air I could.
A man cannot hide, whispered the Dreamer, as if imparting a
secret teaching. I listened like a child, without disagreement or
opposition.
Our most insignificant action, perception, thought, gesture
and facial expression is recorded in eternity. He told me that the
way we live every moment, like a frame in the film of our lives,
signals a heightening or lowering of Being, and attunes us to
everything that will happen to us.
A man cannot hide! Here with me you stand alone facing
existence Here there are no political affiliations or trade unions.
When you enter this room you cannot bring anything with you from
your past, not even the lie of your name or your role in life. Here
there is no guard rail for you to hold onto Here you are alone
facing yourself
He noticed that I was trembling visibly; my teeth began to
chatter as if I was coming down with a fever, and He said:
Stop being afraid and stop hiding! There is a part of
you that has to die because it is absurd. This death is your great
opportunity. Only you can do it
I felt that the Dreamer was penetrating layer by layer
into my ignorance, through the psychological detritus which had
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accumulated over time and hardened like rock.
If you work tirelessly and for as many years as you have
spent damaging yourself He said in a whisper as sweet as a promise
one day time will split open. A tunnel will open up and guide you to
the part of yourself that is the most real and true a part with which
sooner or later every man must reconnect: his dream.
Only at this point did the Dreamer take His eyes off me,
allowing me to catch my breath. His figure rippled like a watery
reflection. He was about to leave me. All at once I felt impossibly
tired, as if I had run for miles and miles on a single breath of air. My
legs refused to support me so I knelt on the carpet and crumbled to
the ground like a dead man.

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CHAPTER III

The Body

1 You are the world

A few months had passed since my last meeting with the
Dreamer, and the words I had heard in the shimmering atmosphere
of the greenhouse by the pool still troubled me. More than anything
else, His unforgettable and inhuman cry Stoooop it! kept
resonating inside me, along with the feeling that it had emptied me
completely. For quite some time I found it hard to think of anything
else. I repeatedly looked over the notes I had taken, and each time the
powerful chemistry of His words permeated me.
Then gradually, increasingly, New York took hold and my
life started to flow again along the usual lines, its rhythm marked
by my business commitments at the ACO and the daily routine
of looking after the children and tending to domestic affairs with
Jennifer. The precious substance I had gathered grain by grain during
my meetings with the Dreamer evaporated; and my states of Being,
my thoughts, my attitudes, and my language reverted to what they
had been before I met Him.
One evening, I was having a drink with a few people from
my work team, in the semi-darkness of a bar on Madison Avenue
the usual New York after-work ritual. We were celebrating someones
birthday. Suddenly, the bar and its customers sank into complete
silence, as if the worlds audio system had been switched off. Time
slowed. I observed my companions faces swollen with alcohol, and I
saw the expressions of pain concealed behind their silent laughter. I
reflected with a mildly ironic lucidity on what an evolved sense of the
grotesque it took to call that joyless ritual happy hour. Suddenly, I
felt a sharp sense of having missed something; an abrupt feeling of
having neglected something essential and irreplaceable. The
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yearning desire to see Him alternated with the nausea caused by that
emptiness until it invaded every recess of my Being. I desperately
and silently appealed to Him. Never before had such an SOS been
sent out to literally save a soul.
A few days later, Valerie, my assistant, came in with the
ritual white coffee to start off the day in one hand, and a mysterious
envelope in the other. Wordlessly she removed a plane ticket from
it and ostentatiously slapped it down on the desk in front of me, as
if she were a wife confronted with the evidence of an undeniable
infidelity.
So she said resentfully youre going to Barcelona, are
you, and you didnt even tell me! Thanks a lot.
In that womans words, tone and attitude, I heard the distillation of
the thousands of compromises that had spoiled my life.

I passed through many rooms before finding Him. He had his
back to me, and seemed to be busy stoking the flames in the
stone fireplace. A preciously carved coat of arms dominated the
mantelpiece and in a large grisaille toned painting which depicted
some peons walking lazily, I thought I recognised the hand of Ortega.
I could see the Dreamers profile in the firelight and I had the
impression that its brightness and luminosity did not come from the
flames, but His own tawny skin. He was wearing a light silk dressing
gown and His demeanor was that of an aristocratic gentleman whose
privileges and high birth permitted Him to lead a life of leisure.
The secret thread of my mood took me back to our first
meeting. On that occasion too he had His back to me, and I registered
this similarity with apprehension. I could still feel the sting of the
words he had used towards me then, and I did not relish the idea of
undergoing a similar experience.
The silence continued with the Dreamer giving no sign of
having noticed my presence. I tried to stifle my growing anxiety by
looking at the surroundings, the extensive suite of rooms and halls
which housed Mas Angladas imposing library. A vast collection of
books densely covered the walls from floor to ceiling. The floor was
entirely made up of little diamond-shaped glazed terracotta tiles that
composed a colourful painting by Chagall. I was trying to catch a
glimpse of the titles of some of the books closest to me when His
voice broke the silence.
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When you are far away from Me you degenerate, you revert
to your plan of death He said, and as He turned to face me I felt His
steely gaze pass through me like a sword.
When you forget Me you fall back into the rut of repetition.
And every time you go through your life again, you become troubled
by it without realising that you have already lived it.
In those words there was a flavour of eternity, the forgotten
reminder of a boundless freedom behind the threatening tone and
unbearable pain. The Dreamer was resuming His speech from where
He had left off months before, almost as if time had been suspended
and only now, with Him, was it able to flow again. I drew out my
notebook and took down every word.
Nothing is external! Yet you still seek reassurance in the
eyes of others you are still seeking happiness and solutions in a
world that suffers from the same disease as you do The world is
your skin the world is you! You meet always and only yourself.
And what about the others? I asked.
The others? They are you outside yourself ! They are
fragments of you distributed in time; reflections of a disintegrated
psychology
I took pages and pages of notes during that meeting,
especially about the fatal illusion that makes us believe in otherness
and the existence of a world outside of ourselves that has its own
will, and on which our destiny depends.
This is the sin of all sins concluded the Dreamer The
original sin. When you desire something and stretch out your hand
to take it, even if it is only an apple, wholeness is gone, paradise is
lost.

2 Psychological Dwarves

According to the Dreamer, our first education teaches us
to perceive the world as an external entity capable of deciding and
acting, and able to impose its own will upon us. This is why man
encounters a world that constantly threatens and irremediably
victimises him
This is how men become psychological dwarves smaller
than insects wandering through the world with their tails between
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their legs. nourishing a sense of guilt theyre afraid
Once a man reaches this level of degradation, all he can do is
betray, blame, complain, feel sorry for himself and lie lie to
himself, believing that the problem is limited that his life is perfect
apart from a few insignificant details, an occasional problem or a
passing moment of adversity.
He is so blind that he cannot see that behind an unpleasant
aspect of his life, behind some seemingly insignificant detail, lies a
disease of the whole Being. In order to change a single atom of his
existence he needs to change everything he has to overthrow his
way of thinking, his ideas his ordinary vision of the world!
At the end of His speech, the Dreamer revealed to me that
the five wounds of Jesus symbolised the five senses of the horizontal
man which nail him to the lowest rung on the ladder of existence.
When you realise that you are the creator of the external
world, that you contain the world and not vice versa when you
remember that whatever you see, hear and touch are the fruits of
your own creation, you can no longer be afraid of them
The world is a chewing gum; it takes on the shape of
your teeth He said. I immediately loved that expression. It was so
unusual and impudently expressive that I wrote it down among His
most memorable maxims.
Do not forget that the world and the others are the most
honest and sincere expression of what you really are The world is
such because you are such.
He pulled back a heavy curtain to reveal a long wall of
windows, and I gazed out across distant hills, dense green vineyards,
and the dark lines of the freshly ploughed furrows. The property of
Mas Anglada seemed to go on forever. The Dreamers voice had the
sweet ring of a promise.
Remember Me! Remember the Dream! This is how you will
find a perfect world, a healed world. Earthly paradise is the
projection of a state of Being, a portable paradise In order to
keep it intact, to hold its atoms together, one must be constantly on
the alert, one must constantly intervene
I was filling the pages of my notebook so fast, and yet I could hardly
keep up with Him. I had circled one particular verb many times to
highlight it, and as soon as I had the chance, I asked Him what He
meant by intervene.
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It means knowing how to access the darkest parts of ones
Being and bring light there replied the Dreamer, giving these words a
special intensity as if He were revealing a vital secret.
He paused for a long time and seemed to be hesitating before
telling me something that might exceed my powers of understanding. I
held my breath and hoped that He would be able to trust me.
If I were to allow one single grain of hell to enter My
paradise all this would disappear He said, accompanying His
words with a sweeping gesture that encompassed first the ancient
fireplace, then the books and the works of art that surrounded us, and
finally the huge estate outside, with its lake-sized swimming pool
and vibrant green parklands.
Some day, to deserve paradise and be able to sustain it, you
will have to learn how to shield it from mediocrity, from neglect
from your inner deaths A solar man projects his own light, a world
that is joyous and complete and he lets nothing cloud it
It was then that I started to fully comprehend what the
Dreamer meant by being alert.
If I were to allow one single grain of hell Those
words dug deeply into me and as they reached my bones, something
clicked. In a flash, I understood what incorruptibility was; what it
meant to be an impeccable leader, and how immense was the task of
not allowing even the slightest shadow in ones Being. I understood
His severity and why even a grimace, attitude or the slightest sign of
negativity would trigger the harshest of reprimands from Him.
The Dreamer explained that human thoughts and emotions
have a physical nature made up of colours and smells, which reveal
ones states of Being and level of responsibility, even at a distance. I
turned bright red as I thought of all the times I had brought my
miasma of doubts and the acrid smell of my fear into the Dreamers
world.
I reflected on how we were incomplete beings who conduct
our lives without even imagining that anyone might be able to detect
the reek of our psychological rubbish and the odour of our thoughts
and negative emotions which, like the smell of gas that signals a leak,
have the function of exposing our states and imminent disasters.
The world is the perfect representation of your states of
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3 A song of sorrow

We had left Mas Anglada. The pool, the park, and the rural
beauty of the landscape no longer surrounded us. Now I was walking
with the Dreamer through the narrow streets of an unknown town
while the pungent smell of a sea port drifted along them as though
channeled down invisible rivers. We proceeded on foot into that
watery world which the Dreamer seemed to know so well and as
we went further into its liquid body, I felt, amid the reflections and
echoes, a sensation of lightness growing inside me. A little rack-
rail train was labouring up the hill and we came out on a terrace
suspended between the rocks and the sea; an ancient corner of the
world cradled in the amniotic fluid which spawned those myths and
fables so dear to humanitys infancy.
A man only apparently aspires to good health, prosperity
and well-beingsaid the Dreamer gravely, and in His voice was the
solemnity of a speech addressed to the most authentic part of every
man.
If he could observe and know his inner self, he would hear a
song of sorrow, the constant recital of a prayer of misfortune, in the
expectation of terrible disasters, however probable or improbable
There was a man some distance away, who seemed to be
absorbed by the all-embracing panorama of sea and sky. He was
wearing a black T-shirt and dark sunglasses and had an excessively
large belly, while his arms were turned inwards as a result of his
bulging underarms. He was repeatedly plunging his hand into a
huge bag of crisps and taking out generous handfuls. He chewed and
stared.
You see? He said, gesturing with a slight movement of the
chin That man is killing himself. A gentleman from another age, or
of a different temperament, might have chosen a pistol landscape.
I was troubled by this comment about the stranger. I was
still trying to understand what it was that had so upset me about His
words, when I heard Him add:
The only difference between the gun and that food is the
speed of the method chosen to end ones own life!
Had those words been uttered by anyone else I would have
considered them to be a cruel joke; an overstatement made in dubious
taste. But the Dreamer was not one to joke. On the other hand, I
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could not explain why His words upset and annoyed me so much.
At the time I thought that my pain and my state of mind, poised
halfway between amazement and indignation, had been provoked by
the Dreamers cynicism, but I was a long way from guessing the real
cause of my uneasiness.
The only way I found to escape that malaise and stop, or at
least hide, the inexplicable hostility growing uncontrollably inside
me, was by resorting to an ironic quip.
In both cases we should call the police, have them disarm
him before its too late I said with a smile that was already dead
when it reached my lips. I should have stopped, but I continued with
my irony.
We could warn the police that a man is trying to commit
suicide with... a bag of potato crisps.
His face, which was already severe, turned to steel and froze the
blood in my veins.
You, too, are suicidal He announced coldly. Then He
whispered:
That man is you!
He waited a few seconds for me to recover from the blow,
like a boxer who had been knocked out. Then He must have decided
that I was out for the count and He said:
The life of an ordinary man is a one-way street. He only
knows the way towards limitations. His only faith, his only absolute
loyalty is to death. The choice of how he kills himself is his only
true freedom. This body is indestructible. We ourselves allow it to be
destroyed. The very thoughts and feelings we impose upon it are the
causes of ageing, disease, failure and death. Whatever happens in
your body happens to the world. The world is what you are, and you
are this birthless, deathless body.
You, like millions of men, have chosen to use your fears and
destructive thoughts to kill yourself.
But what can one do? was all I could stammer. I wanted to
ask this question in the name of all suicidal humanity. I wanted to
say What can we do? but this would have required energy, and
all of mine had drained out through some unknown crack in my
Being, leaving me with barely enough strength to stand up.
Were we to try and stop them and thwart their project of
death, they would not see us as rescuers or benefactors, said the
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Dreamer. On the contrary, our attempt would turn them into mortal
enemies, and in the end would only postpone their suicide.
He examined me carefully as if trying to discover how ready I was
to shoulder the responsibility of what He was about to tell me. Then
He whispered:
Man inherits a dark side of his Being from the first
education; an embrace of destruction, an impulse to harm first the
self and then the others.
He told me that self-sabotage and loyalty to death were the
dominant features of the old humanitys psychology, almost a second
nature which manifests itself in the ordinary man as an irresistible
urge to take ones own life. Once he forgets that he is the maker,
creator and absolute master of anything and everything, man is
imprisoned in a miserable description of the world. He lives like a
beggar, afflicted by a sense of guilt and a constant feeling of defeat; a
victim of the song of sorrow he sings inside, the negative imagination
and destructive thoughts ceaselessly echoing inside him.
Observe yourselves! Self-observation opens up the darkest
corners of your Being. Circumscribe every kind of doubt and fear
inside yourself as soon it arises. Be brutal with yourselves. Impose
happiness, well-being and certainty upon yourselves. It is not the
circumstances and events of the world that make you unhappy; it is
your unhappiness that creates all the miseries in the world. Poverty
is a mental illness.

4 The body cannot lie

Look at yourself the Dreamer went on brusquely Youve
just turned thirty and you already have an old mans body.
The blood rushed to my face and I felt I would die with
embarrassment, as if He had put me on display naked, right there,
in front of all the people who were crowded together on the
belvedere.
He continued mercilessly.
The body reveals the Being. It should always resonate with
pleasure, joy, like that of a child but you have forgotten The
body cannot lie!
There was no hint of accusation in His voice, only the cold
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assessment of a disaster. I felt the stinging blow; a pain that was true
and clear, without resentment or accusation. I composed myself. I
tried to straighten up but it was only at that moment that I realised
how accustomed I had become to live hunched over, and how guilty I
was of not having loved and looked after my body. At that point my
natural disposition would have inclined me towards my old habit of
self-pity. But the Dreamer did not allow it. The opportunity He was
offering me was too great. I should have grasped it but I was not
ready so I adopted a defensive attitude; a reflection of an unconscious
refusal to change. I quickly mustered all the good reasons which
had prevented me from taking care of my body: my job, the endless
trips, city life, family needs, Luisas illness and, last but not least, the
kidney stones that had plagued me since I was very young.
His voice interrupted my planned apology and confused my
arguments. Suddenly I felt myself catapulted out of my condition
and I saw myself through the Dreamers eyes. It was the humiliating
vision of a small man concerned only with saving himself by seeking
good reasons to acquit himself and wriggle out of any responsibility
in order to stay as he was. I would have liked to hold on to that vision
which, however painful, had the purity of detachment, the healing
clarity of integrity. But this freedom lasted only a few moments.
Your body, your pale face, your swollen eyes and your
flabbiness are evidence of the fact that you have given up living;
that you have already dropped out. Everyone knows about your
unconscious plan to hasten your physical death, everyone that is,
except you! In order to reduce his body to such a state, a man must
first profane himself He is like a wounded animal leaving a
trail of blood so as to be caught and killed by his predator.
The laws of existence outside the jungle are no different. The
Being, the body and the world are one and the same thing!
This last statement astounded me. While I was just nearly
able to rationally grasp the possibility that the Being and the body
were a single entity, the idea that there existed a causal relationship
between the body and the world went far beyond my limits of
acceptance.
Everything that you see and touch is solidified light,
whatever you perceive is nothing but a projection of your organs
the Dreamer confirmed They are not only the part of you which is
closest to the world they are the real builders, makers and creators
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of your universe.
Then He closed His eyes, as He often did, and recited some
lines which I faithfully transcribed:

The Body is the true Dreamer
The Body dreams, and its cells and its organs dream.
The Body is the real maker of your personal world.

The Dreamer explained to me that what a man sees of
himself through his physical eyes is what he calls a body, whereas
what he cannot see, since it vibrates at a higher frequency, is what he
calls his Being.
Actually the body is the Being it is the Being made
visible He said, and started to scrutinise me again, as if evaluating
my condition. Then His tone became harsh.
Faith in a divinity outside ourselves the idea that there
exists an entity beyond our body, is the most widely accepted
superstition in the world and one of the biggest killers of humanity.
In many religious traditions this external god has been
replaced by belief in a spirit-guide, a soul, an invisible entity
within man. According to the Dreamer this belief was also fatal.
One way or another we have been led to disown our body
and reduce our life to an endless series of attempts to suppress it.
This is how man has fallen into iniquity, into the immorality of
death.
My thoughts whirled around the revolutionary concepts I
was learning from Him.
The body cannot lie He repeated, raising His voice with a
harsh tone that immediately drew my attention The body is the
most honest and sincere part of our Being. The body reveals what we
are In our present state, it reveals our incompleteness and
conflictual nature.
I cleared my throat and coughed slightly. The Dreamer
slowly came a few millimetres closer to me and in His eyes I could
see the innocent ferocity, the mercilessness of a wild creature. The
air grew dark and it was as if I had come face to face with a mortal
enemy I fell into an uncontrollable anguish.
Coughing is your way of saying no of digging in your
heels and resisting Me He said in a terrible voice I am what stops
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you from growing old; what protects you from your plan of falling
ill and dying. I am what stops you from returning to the vulgarity of
your past to repetitiveness and chance With Me you cannot
degrade yourself. This is why you see Me as your worst enemy It is
easier to follow hypnotically the old path towards degradation and
suffering than to climb upwards and go against the tide, rebelling
against poverty, the tyranny of old age and sickness, and the
immorality of death.
He gave me a short break and I grasped it eagerly like a
shipwreck victim taking his first gulp of air above water. These words
threw me into despair and drained my body of all its vitality. Nobody
had ever spoken to me in such a way or made me feel so wretched.
Who was this Being? What was this love of His, so merciless and
sharp, like a scalpel cutting through my flesh?
Here with Me you can never grow old you cannot get sick
or die He said, as I listened in amazement to those timeless words.
Learn how to raise the vibrations of your body to a higher
level, and you will disappear from the sight of a harmful, threatening,
mortal world. The battlefield is the body. However, to those of you
who have chosen death as your guide, light and life appear as
horrors... this is why there is an open struggle between you and
Me
By saying those of you, He broadened that extraordinary
message and extended it in a masterly fashion to encompass all
the human beings in the world. Standing on the belvedere of that
unknown city surrounded by a breathtaking panorama, I was no
longer alone in front of the Dreamer. The rest of humanity was there
with me, listening to Him too.

5 Be frugal!

This struggle between us will end only when you will
change forever threatened the Dreamer with a cold calmness If I
appear hard merciless if you feel pain if you see me as a
monster with bloodshot eyes, this will only be a reflection of your
incomprehension and resistance to change. With Me, if you want to,
you can change your unavoidable destiny and that of thousands of
men and women
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A new determination, a certainty, was making its way into
my Being, like a hand slowly curling into a fist: I no longer wanted to
depend on the world and others as I had done so desperately up until
that moment. I did not want to be a shadow any more, a biochemical
puppet jerked by the horrible strings of forgetfulness and chance. I
swore to myself that I would do anything to faithfully apply in my
life the principles that the Dreamer was arduously trying to impress
upon me.
Use all your strength to fight your self-fulfilling prophecy of
doom while you still have time. You have been programmed for
defeat and dependency all your life. Overthrow that vision and
free yourself from the description of the world you were given by
adulterated adults and all the masters of misfortune you met in
your life. Renounce your faith in sickness and old-age. Stop lying!
Rebel against all this and get rid of the dead weight Straighten up,
lift your neck and hold your head up high Shed the superfluous
weight, the fat and the lies.
Why was He talking to me as if I were obese? The insult
stung me, and I felt a mute resentment as if I had been dealt an
unbearable injustice. In actual fact I weighed just over eighty-five
kilos, and I didnt consider this to be an excessive weight for a man of
my height. This apparently small disparity between the Dreamer and
myself was distilled into an inexpressible physical pain. Differences
of opinion that are normal and accepted among friends, and even
considered as signs of intellectual independence and strength of
character, were inadmissible and outlawed in the Dreamers presence.
I realised now that invisible threads connected me to Him. In
a flash I saw our Beings crossing cosmic distances and slowly
being woven together. A mythical being, brought forth by the
invisible, appeared and took the shape of a centaur galloping across
my imagination. For a moment, the creature stood out against an
ancestral horizon like a vivid memory of the future, and I recognised
it to be the new Being, the archetype of a new species: half man-half
dream. I do not know why, but suddenly I felt that I had to shake that
image out of my mind. A kind of modesty, an inexplicable sense of
guilt, made me feel as if I had stolen it or inadvertently spied on it,
like Actaeon who once saw what a human should never have seen. I
was afraid of being caught red-handed. However, the Dreamer
seemed to leave my imagination free to roam. During the pause that
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followed I gathered my thoughts and tried to recover at least some
fragments of my old certainties.
With a long look He assured Himself that I was accurately
noting His every word, then He uttered a phrase that cut me to the
quick.
Food is death He announced peremptorily.
And, before I had time to recover from my surprise, He
added:
Your body is the evidence that you are being blackmailed by
food. Ageing reveals your lack of frugality, intelligence and
love. While He spoke, His eyes were examining every part of me.
Suddenly, I saw Him laughing at my comically pathetic expression
of dismay.
Mans attachment to food is only matched by his loyalty to
death He remarked sarcastically. Then He urged me:
Abandon these superstitions! Until that moment I had never
heard food, much less death, referred to as a superstition. In
Lupelius manuscript, ignorance of ones Being, negative emotions
and food had been indicated as among the principal causes of death;
but to hear this from the Dreamer was a challenge to my beliefs and
an attack on mans most unwavering convictions. I was overcome by
dizziness, as if tottering on the edge of a chasm. If Id ever had the
conviction of being part of a particular group or of belonging to the
mainstream of human society, I was now losing my membership. I
felt the inconsolable desperation of a creature driven out of his herd,
cast out of his nature. The Dreamer seemed extremely amused by
my confusion, obviously considering it to be a good sign and, in any
case, a more advanced and productive state than my fruitless
normality. Then the expression on His face became more intense.
Eat just once a day He repeated and be frugal.
His request sounded so absurd, even subversive to the natural
order, that I started to wonder whether I was facing a diabolical
figure or even the Devil himself. My father, Giuseppe, had told me
many times that during the war years he had endured long periods
in which he ate just once a day; however, he had always referred
to that experience as a time of hardship. I knew of practices and
periods of ritual, ascetic and religious fasting, mostly connected to
cultures and traditions of the past, but I had never imagined that such
discipline could be applied by an active man, with the commitments
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and pressures of modern business. And to what end? Even Ramadan
in the Islamic faith, when observed in its strictest form, only lasts for
a month; the ninth in their calendar. The Dreamers demand seemed
unjust, cruel, and even dangerous for my health. I reacted with an
immediate and radical sense of revulsion.
Eventually, when you are more advanced, you will realise
that even one meal a day is excessive. A mans organs were not
created for processing and disposing of food.
So what are they for? I asked, barely managing to stop my
voice from breaking with emotion.
A mans organs all his organs are made to dream! This is
their natural function He said with sweet assertiveness.
When the body is free of food, our features become more
refined the mind is clear, ready quick the cells are grateful
and they regenerate. The healing process is underway, a rebirth of
the Being starts and manifests itself first in the body and then in the
world of events added the Dreamer.
I listened, amazed, as He told me about the ancient schools of
invulnerability which knew the secret of a sustenance more
subtle than food. Even centuries before Alexanders conquests, the
Macedonian warriors habits were considered to be among the most
frugal. At the same time, they were renowned for their courage and
unequalled valour. Alexander himself, who endured the same trials
as his men, even the most arduous, ate hardly anything and only once
a day. His invulnerability was legendary; he could walk unharmed
through swarms of arrows, whereas his companions would be
decimated around him.
The secret is that when organs have no food, they start to
perform their real and natural function again: they dream! and
through the power of dreaming, every day they produce whatever a
man can desire. As long as you consider any part of your body as
worthy of anything less than eternity, then you are casting a death
sentence on your entire organism.
The menacing shadow which had darkened every fibre of
my Being at the beginning of His discourse on food, began to
dissipate.
Beware! He said, realising that a tiny fissure had opened
in my comprehension Abstaining from food does not mean fasting.
What Im talking about is a substitution
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6 A world without hunger

Once you have stopped believing that the external world is
the source of your sustenance, you can no longer draw nourishment
from the lower levels of life and you will no longer be able to feed
yourself on coarse substances When humanity raises the quality
of its Being through new ways of thinking, feeling, breathing and
acting, this more responsible humanity will discover an alternative
source of subsistence. This food, our true nourishment, originates
from ourselves and will only become accessible again when it is our
will that governs our lives and not the description of the world.
Suddenly, even before His explanation had become clear, my
internal dialogue subsided. Only something like a sob remained, like
the tail end of a childish tantrum; then even that ceased.
I thought back to the myths of classical antiquity and the
ancient Greeks belief that the Gods table was abundantly laden, not
with the food of mortals, but with nectar and ambrosia. I remembered
that while making their bid for freedom during the Exodus, the
Hebrews had been fed with manna from heaven.
I conceived the inconceivable: a civilisation without food, a
world without hunger. I realised how much space and time food
takes up in our lives and the absurdity of the resources consumed
in this way. We live in the conviction that unless we are nourished
from outside we cannot survive. Haunted by the spectre of hunger,
without realising it, we have based our lives on food and turned it
into an obsession, a relentless activity of planetary dimensions. I felt
overwhelmed by the thought of billions of people stubbornly working
to cultivate, produce, raise, buy, cook, distribute, consume and
digest.
I wondered what cities would look like without grocers,
restaurants and supermarkets. I had an apocalyptic vision of life with
desolate larders, empty refrigerators, bare tables a life without
business lunches, candlelit dinners or the rhythm of mealtimes ruling
the familys day. What in the world could ever fill the abyss of time
and space opened up by this absence?
Turn your vision upside down suggested the Dreamer
Think how many resources could be devoted to beauty, art, music,
entertainment, the search for truth and self-knowledge A society
free of food would be a society free of sickness, old age and death
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In a world without slaughter-houses and farms, without the need to
produce food or cultivate fields, there would be no crime or poverty,
no ghettos, wars or conflicts nor social workers. A world without
food would be a world without ideological divisions, superstitions
or religions. There would be no starving children or hospices. There
would be no tribunals, hospitals or graveyards. It would be a world
where resources could be directed towards realising humanitys
greatest dream Once man succeeds in defeating the industry of
death and the economics of disaster, which are materialisations of
his fears, he will be able to regain his birthright and achieve the
supreme aim of his existence: physical immortality.
Now I could raise my eyes. I looked at the Dreamer. I
realised that, for the whole time that I had been internally resisting
His vision, my body had been tense and I had kept my head bowed,
as if I had been using all my strength to physically fend something
off.
A society which had given up believing in food and was free
of the need to eat, would leave behind the ancestral obsession with
hunger and all its terrifying consequences and would face an even
more implacable enemy said the Dreamer the boredom of not
eating.
Even if human Beings were persuaded to give up eating as an
extremely harmful habit; they would still have to face the abyss of
time carved into their lives by its elimination.
I thought that this was the key to understanding why, regarding all
the disciplines and austerities, the one concerning food had
always been the most unbearable and assiduously avoided. So much
so that, throughout history, only saints and ascetics had succeeded
in conquering the need for food and, very often, this had proved to
be only a partial and temporary victory. I commented on this to the
Dreamer.
It will require long preparation and a new education, He
said. A coarse zoological mankind, still frightened by the spectre
of time, still convinced of the inevitability of death, can only be
nourished by a coarse, external and mortal kind of food. Nourishing
oneself internally will be the natural outcome of a different way of
thinking and breathing, an evolution from the conflictual man ruled
by his negative emotions, to the vertical man.
So what happens to the economy? I asked How can we
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compensate for the loss of such a large part of our business activity?
What you call the economy is actually nothing more than a
system of survival, even in the richest countries. And yet the cost of
such a system has become unsustainable A society that recognises
the creative power of thought and its capacity to nourish, will
produce better goods and services for both the individual and all of
mankind He announced prophetically A society that dreams, one
that is light and flexible, will devote itself to the education of every
individual and the improvement of his every cell.
I imagined an army of men and women dedicated to the re-
education of a humanity that had long since forgotten its origin and
its purpose.
A revolution like this cannot be performed by the masses,
the Dreamer asserted. Humanity must be educated on an individual
basis, man by man, cell by cell, to open up to a new vision to
rebel against its destiny and fight against the real root of all evil:
the beliefs that the outside world can sustain it and that something
external can heal it.
These superstitions find their most conspicuous expression in
the pharmaceutical and food industries. Having forgotten the
primordial game, man becomes the last link in an infernal production
cycle. Under a spell yet to be exorcised, as if trapped in some
gruesome tale or horror movie, men are condemned to spend half of
their lives eating and the other half undergoing therapy and taking
drugs. Mans supreme task is to transcend himself through the art of
dreaming. For this he has to reduce the need for nourishment to an
absolute minimum.
It is an inside-out process. Only a new education can
remedy a misunderstanding of such vast dimensions
According to the Dreamers vision, with the gradual
disappearance of food, sickness, old age and death would also
disappear.
Dont be afraid to announce it! He encouraged me, noticing
my hesitation at even writing His formidable revelations in my
notebook.
The change will be gradual, but it has already begun in the
richer countries. People will eat less and less, until they discover they
are actually swimming in infinite plankton, surrounded by an
inexhaustible amount of food which is theirs alone, and for which
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they need neither to toil nor to fight.
Is it possible for man to live without food?
Im not talking about living without food, but about
replacing it. When man succeeds in turning over a new leaf by
changing his vision and everything he has believed in up until now,
then a more evolved humanity will substitute a more intelligent
sustenance for food. Once free of this need, this dependence on food,
man will be able to choose whether to eat or not, treating it entirely
as an option.
The Dreamers words made me think of the Homeric gods,
who, wishing to experience mans joys and sorrows, occasionally
chose to debase themselves, coming down from Olympus and
transforming themselves into mortals or animals.
I remembered that when I fell in love with Luisella, and the
scent of her youth saturated every molecule of my life, I would go
for days without feeling any need to eat. I told the Dreamer about
Carmelas comic distress at seeing me refuse even my favourite
dishes, and her most irresistible desserts: struffoli, tiny bits of fried
pasta bathed in honey a Christmas time must, and pastiera the
traditional Easter pie filled with ricotta, wheat, and orange blossom.
Though both required fairly long preparation, they were never
missing from our holiday celebrations.
You were substituting a more subtle and internal
nourishment for mortal food He said and this will be possible for
all men when they are no longer ruled by the description of the world
but by themselves, by their own will by the Dream.
But what about anorexics?
Anorexics are not sick people but the forerunners of a more
advanced and longer-living mankind. They are the real rebels
against the industry of death.
And those who die from anorexia?
People do not die of anorexia. They are only victims of
primitive medical practices, and families who are not equipped to
recognise that they are precursors of the new humanity.
On this occasion, as He had already done before, the
Dreamer spoke to me about young people: their calls for help, their
desperate and vain attempts to announce the new direction and the
new exodus to the obsolete and adult, adult-erated, humanity.
You, give up bad habits He said Be frugal!
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But remember, He warned, until you are truly ready for such an
undertaking, never dare to fast or stay awake all night. I will tell you
when you can eat one mouthful less or stay awake for an additional
minute It takes years and years of work
In fact, in all the time I had spent with the Dreamer, I had
never undertaken a fast or any kind of abstinence, nor had He ever
said anything about privations. On the contrary, I always saw Him
surrounded by prosperity and abundance. Frugality, for me, was a
slow process and a natural consequence of His presence. Despite
being so close to His philosophy, it took me years and a great effort to
understand that in the Dreamers vision, food was only the sign, the
most visible expression of mans dependence on the external world.
It is not food that poisons man, but his belief that he cannot
do without it. Saints and ascetics have also missed the real aim of the
discipline of frugality, which is not about eliminating food but about
an emancipation from the need for food, an escape from addiction.
I pointed out that, in the end, nourishing oneself from the
inside also constituted a form of dependence.
To depend on what is within, to depend on oneself is not
dependence, He said, but self-government.
According to the Dreamer, those who have not questioned
the idea of the inevitability of death hide their self-sabotage behind
self-improvement regimes, diets, fasts and extreme exercises of
all sorts. Man often hides his self-destructiveness and his desire
for annihilation behind the smokescreen of religious and spiritual
disciplines relating to food and sleep.
You will discover that scientific temples, humanitarian
organisations, pharmaceutical laboratories, food industries, ascetic
sects, beauty farms, schools proposing exotic and austere regimes
are all unconsciously at the service of death; they too nourish, and
are nourished by the economics of disaster. Behind their messages
of well-being, happiness and longevity, health and wealth, there lies
an unwitting, undaunted loyalty to death and the most intense and
devoted activity in its service.
But isnt it possible that there are institutions genuinely at
the service of mankind? People who are capable of leading a revolt
against every form of dependence? I asked worriedly. I felt suddenly
exposed to the coldness of a strange and inhospitable world.
What about all of the saviours, heroes and saints throughout
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the ages?
Heroes, saints and benefactors and the institutions founded
or inspired by them are at the service of mankind, but it is a self-
destructive mankind answered the Dreamer They are themselves
the victims of their own lack of understanding. They do not know
that no help or healing can come from outside and that only the
individual can provide his own solution by healing his own vision
and recognising that the true cause of every calamity is within
himself. In a more advanced society philanthropists and benefactors
will disappear or their deeds will be considered illegal, because their
distorted altruism and corrupt philanthropy can only perpetuate
poverty and sickness.
Healing the world means healing yourself Your vision of
the world creates the world
It may sound absurd and completely illogical to you, but the
world is actually just as you dream it. It is you who makes it sick. You
are the only one responsible for the conflicts, disasters, hunger and
crime devastating it.
Regain your integrity and the world will be healed forever!

7 The world is as you dream it

From this point on, the Dreamer made me carefully note
principles and practices, activities and techniques, which might
appear many and diverse between them, but in reality formed a
complete discipline, a system. A unique and fascinating cosmogony
was taking shape before my eyes like the outline of an unknown
continent. I spent days diligently studying in the impressive library
of Mas Anglada, where I found and consulted rare books that held
the key to understanding The School for Gods. In particular, I
asked Him the meaning of drawings and formulae I had found in the
manuscript.
Lupelius considered the body and spirit to be a single,
indivisible reality. He recognised the body as the creator of the
phenomenal world which included everything from microbes to God. I
have to make it clear that, as I write, the use of terms such as spirit, or
occasionally soul, are my own; it is done as a means to assist the
readers understanding. The Dreamer never made use of them. The
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more I learned about Lupelius theories regarding food and the body,
the more shocked I became and the more I drew back from the
extreme implications of what he was postulating. Some of the
warrior-monks most unsustainable propositions stuck in my mind,
like splinters of irrationality, and tormented me. I really wanted to
speak to the Dreamer about this and had the opportunity to do so on
the third night, when He invited me to visit the wine cellars of His
astonishing residence.
The way in which He had arranged His wine by country,
quality and vintage was quite amazing. I had never imagined the
existence of such a vast and complete collection. As we savoured one
of His most precious wines by the fireplace, the Dreamer asked me
how my studies were going and whether I had discovered anything
important. I told Him about the most difficult and unsustainable
points of Lupelius theories on the body. More particularly, I drew
His attention to a dialogue which had particularly disturbed me,
between Lupelius and one of his disciples, the central argument of
which concerned the way the body and its organs could create the
world.
As soon as I mentioned this topic, I realised that I was not
ready to hear what He was about to say. I wanted to flee, but it was
already too late and my heart started to beat rapidly, in anticipation
of some serious danger. An iron vice closed round my temples and
started to squeeze. I could neither accept such a bizarre vision nor
refuse it and avoid what the Dreamer was telling me with such
authority. Once more I felt my thoughts perched on a precipice.
Between ream and reality there is neither distance nor division,
just as there is no distance between being and having, or believing
and seeing - said the Dreamer - Whatever a man dreams is already
true. It only takes a little time for it to become visible

Dream + Time = Reality

The dream manifests itself through time. It is only because of
our limited perception that we need time in order to see it.
Time, for man, is like a magic paint that reveals what
otherwise would remain invisible to human eyes.
Behind everything you see and touch there must be a Dream in
order for it to exist A world of wonder or a world of pain must be
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dreamed in order to become real. The dream is the most real
thing there is, and behind the dream is our body Our cells, our
organs dream!concluded the Dreamer.
But if the body can dream and create the world, why cant
I change a single atom in the way Id like to? I asked, venting my
frustration.
His look travelled far beyond the little flames in the large
silver candelabra, through and beyond the centuries-old walls of Mas
Anglada. For a long time He remained absorbed, His chin resting on
the palm of His left hand, then He said:
There is no fixed, objective world that is the same for all.
The world is as you dream it. And even what may appear negative
and destructive to you, is only the reflection of a conflict-ridden
dream.
And to change things that dont work?
If you dont like your life, change your dream! It is
impossible to climb out of the ruts of repetitiveness and recurrence,
unless you change your dream. You have to abandon your
destructive way of dreaming. You have to dream a new dream, you
have to learn a new way of dreaming where the power of will
commands, where the power of love creates, where the power of
certainty wins.
Be more sincere and honest with yourself, and you will
realise that behind your false belief of wanting to change your life
there is the secret plan to perpetuate it just as it is. The world is such
because you are such.

8 No war within, no war without

The world is the materialisation of the Dream. Your
thoughts create your personal reality.
The Dreamer was talking to me whilst doing a series of
physical exercises, alternating between the sophisticated machines
in His gymnasium. This room occupied the top of an ancient tower
which overlooked the immense expanse of Mas Anglada. Through
the panoramic windows, the centuries-old stillness of the hillsides
and vineyards contrasted with the strong and silent equipment
and the glinting reflection of steel. The broad skylight framed the
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heavens, which were crossed by light cirrus clouds.
So everyone dreams and everyone creates the world.
Exactly! Their own world.
What about pollution of the planet? Conflict and crime?
These are part of your personal reality too The world is
as healthy or as sick as you are! Only you can pollute it by
obstructing and dulling your organs! Even those who pollute their
bodies, create! They invent a degenerate world, the events and
circumstances of which are the mirror image of their diseased
bodies, but first and foremost, a reflection of their states of Being
and thoughts. Thoughts are always creative at any level. Thinking
belongs to your way of dreaming and is the basic factor in shaping
your destiny.
What about war and poverty? I asked, distressed by such
an enormous responsibility.
Suffering, poverty and all the conflict, persecution and
genocide in the world, have all been dreamed. They have been
secretly desired by a humanity that has seriously polluted its Being
and has no idea of the power of thought.
While we are talking, hundreds of factories throughout the
world are producing and storing armaments to feed conflicts and
even destroy humanity. How can we protect ourselves from such a
destructive power?
Remove from yourself any form of hypnotism, dependency,
superstition. Do not lean on anybodys knowledge, fantasy or
prophecy. Know that there is no power out there that can destroy
you. Out there nothing can happen without your consent. The world
of events and circumstances is totally depending upon you. If you
integrate yourself, if you become a unity, then the world will be safe.
So dont worry about the world, worry only about yourself.
This is the only way you can help. No war within, no war without.
This is the law.
The Dreamer picked up a towel from a neatly folded pile and
dried His face, then draped it around His neck like a treasured scarf,
crossing the ends over His chest with an elegant gesture.
By learning to master his own body, a man can master the
univers He said.
At this point He raised His eyes and stared at me intently for a
long time, without blinking. My thoughts faded away, one by one,
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with increasing speed until my mind was completely clear.
Do you remember your time in California that friend of
yours in San Francisco? He asked, continuing to hold me in his
stare.
That was all I needed to hear. I knew perfectly well to whom
He was referring. It was surprising how quickly and easily that
name, Corrado, came to me.
We had been great friends when I lived in San Francisco. He
was a fine musician and when still very young had fallen desperately
in love with a belly dancer and married her. Apart from this, however
much I racked my memory, there was nothing else I could recall
about him that could possibly justify such a close connection to the
Dreamers idea that every man was the inventor of his own world,
the absolute creator of every event taking place in his life.
Then the particulars of a distant memory became increasingly
clear, and a curious story began to take shape. Corrado had always
felt a natural affinity for African Americans. He used to imitate the
way they spoke and behaved, their laid-back style and movements.
He worshipped their music, which he considered superior to all
others, and loved their culture. He hung out in the same places they
did and even attended their churches and whenever he passed a black
person in the street, he never missed an opportunity to show how
close he felt to their race by way of a wink, a greeting or some witty
remark. He dragged his wife into this particular obsession; they had
black friends, couples with whom they socialised in the restaurants
and clubs favoured by the black community in San Francisco.
One night he and his wife were on their way home when they were
mugged and viciously beaten up by a black gang who seemed to
have no motive, not even robbery. However, they were so severely
beaten that they had to spend several days in hospital. I remember
Corrado weeping with rage while he told me about this
misadventure.
The Dreamer was watching me, obviously looking for some
signs of comprehension on my part, but the seconds elapsed and not
even a hint of a clue occurred to me. I knew that He considered
musicians and artists in general to possess a low level of responsibility
and personal weakness. For the Dreamer, the bohemian world, even
those whom history has consecrated as geniuses, were actually
dependent on their own art. They were puny men frightened by the
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unbearable discovery that the individual is the creator of his own
personal reality, the supreme Artist, the origin of everything that
we see and touch. Aesthetes and artists have not recognised the
reason for their existence, and they indulge in something that is only
a distant gleam of the Dream from which it originates. Instead of
using art as a bridge between man and the dream, a way to touch
the innermost part of the self, they cling to it as if it were a god,
aggravating that state of dependence on the world which rules their
whole life. A man who has reached a degree of higher freedom and is
on his way towards unity of Being, can no longer be an artist. When
you realise you are the artificer and creator of the world, you can
no longer paint or compose music. You abandon that intermediary
known as art, just as a lame man who is healed throws away his
crutches. According to the Dreamer, freedom from any dependency
and slavery was the very meaning of life itself. Roles were prisons
to be transcended and left behind.
However, none of these considerations was leading me
anywhere either. Corrado was a professional musician. He certainly
earned his living from music but I still could not see the connection
that led the Dreamer to recall such a memory.
That episode is life which comes, with both violence and
compassion, to show you what you do not want to see, to make you
touch what you do not want to touch in your Being. There is no
crime outside of us, other than the one we project said the Dreamer,
interrupting my thoughts at that point, considering it a waste of time
to wait for the improbable outcome of my pondering.
That incident allowed your friend to see his lie, his latent
racism to overcome his conflictual self, the violence that he had
always carried inside him and finally set him free.
The Dreamer mentioned other important aspects of Corrados
life, presenting them as different facets of the same disease: hypocrisy
and lying to oneself. Even his rushed marriage had been determined,
not by any real feeling for that woman, but by his desire to remain in
the United States and become an American citizen.
He stopped. He changed the weights on his machine and
adjusted the programme on the computerised system to do some
more exercises. I was amazed. I was sure that I had never told Him
anything about Corrado. I wondered how He could know such things
about the life of a friend I had not seen or heard from for years.
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Meanwhile the Dreamer finished doing His exercises.
There! He said, tying the sash of His kimono with the
pride and grace of a martial ritual This thing which is hidden in
the folds of ones Being, this lie that covers and conceals egoism,
prejudice, vanity and racial hatred, constructs that event and is the
real cause of all the atrocities in the world. His tone was like that of a
scientist announcing the discovery of a virus that he had pursued to
the farthest perimeters of life.
Suffering, poverty and all calamities have been dreamed.
They have been obscurely desired and unconsciously projected
They are the materialisation, enlarged by a pantograph, of the
shadows and monsters that are harboured in the darkness of the
Self.
Today, if your friend has understood the lesson, he is surely a
man more honest and free than before, concluded the Dreamer. In
time he will recognise his lie and one day he will also be able to
heal it.
I recalled mankinds constant song of sorrow; the ode to
misfortune that the Dreamer had made me listen to and recognise
in myself. At last I understood the vital importance He gave to self-
study, to being watchful and ruthlessly attentive to ones own states;
particularly to self-observation which, like a ray of light, prevents
any monstrosity from hiding in ones Being.

Self-observation is self-correction

I remember His Aphorism: States and events are one and the
same thingVision and reality are one Thinking is Destiny The
world is such because you are such and among the most
surprising: life is a stick of chewing-gum, it takes the shape of your
teeth. I recognised the golden thread connecting them as different
expressions of the same message; a message that summed up all His
teachings and at the same time was the final frontier that human
intelligence had dared to approach.
In a moment of lucidity, a bright truth came to me like
the announcement by an almighty god: the world is the mirror of
the Being! A laser beam penetrated the sedimentary layers of my
description of the world I saw that each molecule was wonderfully
connected to everything. And that everything was a personal and
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subjective entity.
You are the only obstacle preventing the world from
changing. Change yourself and you will see the world change before
your eyes! Each atom of clarity, freedom, and absence of death will
take shape in the world and free it from all evil.
I understood scientifically, without moral or metaphysical
frills, the importance of self-knowledge and of working tirelessly to
elevate ones own Being.
Whatever journey a man takes, whether historical or
mythical, and whatever exodus he undertakes, whether real or
imaginary, leads towards one single goal: self-knowledge! Self-
knowledge makes you the master of yourself and of the world.

9 Thinking is Destiny

If man could recognise the creative power of his own
thought, and pursue beauty and harmony with the same determination
for as many years as he has dedicated to poverty and suffering, he
could transform the past and his own destiny. The world would be a
heaven on earth.
I could feel eternity pulsing in those words. Once time was
removed from the equation of vision and reality, of states and events,
of being and having, then the indivisible nature of opposites and the
hidden unity behind every apparent conflict was revealed.
If a mans thoughts create his universe, his personal reality,
how can he change them?
You can only improve or control the quality of your
thoughts if you know how to raise the quality of your Being. In order
to do this you will have to work and study in a special School and
apply its teachings and ideas to yourself.
Man, as he is, cannot do unless he recognises and
overcomes his own inner violence through enormous efforts. Man
cannot do unless he understands that all planetary evils and
individual miseries are none other than the dramatic result of his
own destructive inner states and negative attitudes.
So long as man believes he is ruled by external circumstances, he
will never be able to see where all the violence of the world is
coming from.
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The world is your mirror. Anything coming from the outer
world breathes with your breath, everything is as alive as you are.
There is nothing in the universe that is not you. Thinking is Destiny.
The sound of these words echoed inside me, as sudden and
savage as a primal scream and louder than the anthem of a hundred
revolutions. No event would ever appear so devastating to me or
seem such a transgression as the crossing of that fine line; the new
threshold to humanisation. I was witnessing, with my own eyes, the
exodus of a species still at the primitive stage of consciousness, on
its evolutionary passage from a hominid race to a humanity endowed
with a real psychology, free of conflict, doubt or fear.
There is a fable that everyone knows as The Sleeping
Beauty He announced abruptly.
That sudden change of topic took me by surprise. My attention was
sharpened and rapt. Then He whispered:
but its real title is La belle au bois dormant. The
Beauty in the Sleeping Wood.
The essence of the mission that He would one day assign to
me was to be found in that apparently trivial detail. The sleeping wood
is the world as it has been described to us, plagued by poverty and
conflict, sealed into a hypnotic sleep. The beauty is the reawakening
of the will, the reawakening of the Being, the Dream.
The School that I was soon to establish would allow a new
generation of young people to overthrow the old paradigms and
access a new vision of reality.
The only way to help others is to awaken yourself from that
sleep said the Dreamer that evening. His tone was unusually calm
and His words were mellow, like dates ripened in the sun. I tasted
their woody sweetness with all my Being.
That time spent with Him, which had been unexpectedly
long, was coming to an end. The last candelabras flickered out and
the splendid hall of Mas Anglada, with its elegant furnishings, works
of art and glimmering silver, retreated slowly into darkness. During
those days I spent near the Dreamer I felt that I was the only fragile
link between His impeccable world and the tainted world of ordinary
men. Now, in the silence, I was watching Him. He remained still for a
long time. His eyes were half closed and he held His body very
straight.
When He began to speak again, His words struck me with
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the power of a premonition.
Slowly, mankind is shedding its skin One day, it will
stop rummaging through the shadows of the world and will give up
worshipping food, medicine, sex, sleep, work The value of frugality
will grow in its consciousness, until it achieves an integrity of Being
which will signal the end of poverty, calamities and conflicts. It
will take time because humanity is time. For now, study, observe
yourself and know yourself! And one day you will take part in the
most magnificent spectacle on earth: your own integrity!

Once I had left the Dreamer there was nothing to keep me in
Barcelona, and that night I took the first flight back to New York.
Throughout my journey I went over everything I had heard in those
extraordinary days spent with Him. My body was still vibrating with
a sensation I had never felt before: a state of wholeness, order and
celebration.
The whole universe was breathing with my breath.
Everything was connected to the whole and nothing remained
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CHAPTER IV


1 Running

The body cannot lie. You already look like an old man!
The Dreamers words were still echoing in my mind,
renewing the pain of their first impact.
I dont need geriatrics at my side
Those cruel words had split the thick crust of my defences
and were now invading my living tissue. I felt their explosive power
sweeping away my attitudes and beliefs. In particular, the things He
had revealed to me at the end of our meeting stung me like spurs:
Organs are made for dreaming. The body creates the world.
Even those who pollute their body create; but their creation is a
polluted world The world is your reflection: it is as sick as you are.
Everything is connected, nothing stands alone.
The Dreamer taught me that the destiny of a human being
and all that he possesses is closely linked to the health of his body. In
the future, following these revelations, I would do research into the
fields of economics and business to find that even the financial destiny
of a man depends on his physical integrity and the impeccability of
his body. The financial fortunes of great enterprises and industrial
empires, just as that of nations and entire civilisations, develop and
prosper or fall ill and die, along with their leader and founder-creator.
An organisational pyramid is inextricably bound to its
leaders breath. A golden thread binds his image and personal
destiny to that of his organisation and his people. His corporeal
identity coincides with his economic identity, just as it did for the
rulers of antiquity. The King is the land and the land is the King.
I could no longer elude such a direct, poignant message and
decide to take the first steps in the direction indicated by the
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Dreamer to combat my physical decline.
I resolved to commit to a thorough physical training regime,
following the guidelines I had received at our meeting in Mas
Anglada, encompassing everything, from diet and breathing to sex
and sleep. I examined all the options available to me and prepared a
plan of action, a plan for striking a decisive blow to my existence. The
difficulties seemed insurmountable. The very idea of changing my
habits, of making physical efforts or any sacrifice at all, was enough
to arouse inner resistances of varying degrees and nature within me,
to the point of repugnance. The thought of the austerity that would
be required made my moods quarrel and chase one another like
swallows.
The attention I gave to my reactions caused my inner map of
difficulties to surface as though theyd been plotted out on a
radar screen: the mountains of rigidity, the steep slopes of doubt,
the bottomless pits of fear, and the deserts of incomprehension and
loneliness. Only by studying and observing myself in this way was I
able to locate the part within me which felt most conflicted and
pained at the idea of changing. And precisely there, where I felt that
knot, is where I plunged the sword of my will. From that day on
began the struggle a mortal challenge, a holy war between me and
myself that was to last for years.

That winter was one of the harshest in the meteorological
history of New York. The city was covered with a thick blanket
of snow, and swept by polar winds that seemed to have magically
transformed the metropolis into an arctic country where the
skyscrapers had been changed into icy slides for the children of a
race of Titans. In the early morning, before mustering the courage
to go out for my run, I would peep through the Venetian blinds to
check the weather. I was one of the lucky ones, as living on the 16
th

floor with a view over the East River and the city gave me immediate
access to information on weather conditions. Most New Yorkers had
to switch on the television like an electronic window, if they wanted
to peep out and decide what to wear.
For weeks, the Manhattan skyline, with its snowy spires and
pinnacles was a white gothic universe sealed in a crystal bubble. At
that sight ones determination would falter. Every morning I had to
face a hard battle. At the sound of the alarm, the idea of making a
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journey out into those polar conditions would trigger an epic struggle
between my resolve and my lazy, degraded body which did not want
to hear about change. Disheartened by years of abuse and neglect,
my body said no to every attempt to halt its atrophy. Threatened
by the run, my body exposed its true condition. Only today, looking
back, can I see the impossibility of my endeavour, as impossible as
Baron Munchausens attempt to escape from a quagmire by pulling
himself up by his wig. Only the sound of the Dreamers voice and the
memory of His words sustained my ambition and gave me courage.

If we want to advance even one millimetre towards integrity,
we must turn our vision of the world upside down.
It requires an inhuman effort.
Yet there is no greater blessing.
The conquest of that millimetre of Eternity
can swallow oceans in the world of events.

The programme I had set for myself involved running once
around the island and getting back in time to dress for work and
exchange a few words with Giorgia and Luca over breakfast before
they set off for school. I was always tempted to stay in bed and let
Giuseppona take care of them.
Many times I tried to identify that voice attempting to
dissuade me from taking a run every morning. After all, it said,
in weather like this, who could blame you for going back to bed?
Havent you already done enough? Its not the end of the world if you
miss your run just this once And so on. On other occasions, going
to bed too late or needing to make an early flight would become the
days pretext for trying to avoid the effort. So every circumstance
sought to widen the rifts in my determination, and become a good
excuse for abandoning the discipline I had set myself. Whatever its
origin, that exasperating inner voice was always ready to sabotage
my plans, and I fought to suppress it. And this was just the tip of the
iceberg. By maintaining the discipline of running, by fighting my
resistance and defying my habits, the most unknown and obscure
part of my Being was emerging.
Remember Nothing is external You are the only
obstacle to your evolution! the Dreamer had told me many times.
There is no difficulty or limit that does not originate in yourself.
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But it would take me years to understand these words and transform
them into my bodys vital lymph. I had to decay, fall, and rise up
again a thousand times to die and be reborn, before I learned to
bless every difficulty that I met on my way and recognise that my
only antagonist lied within.
In order to justify his mortal destiny and his life infested
with disastrous events, man persuades himself that there are external
forces that thwart him, and that these are responsible for his every
ill. He complains, makes excuses and blames events and external
circumstances, without ever suspecting that the world is a reflection
of himself, or realising that to change ones mirror image is impossible
without first changing oneself.

There is no help coming from anywhere at all.
You have to make your own individual revolution
which is based purely upon you.

If some day it were possible to encapsulate the Dreamers
teachings in a method, to configure a doctrine or a new philosophical
system, what He described as the intentional tripping up of
mechanical behaviour would deserve a special chapter to itself.
According to the Dreamer, this kind of displacement is our own
ambush of self- repetition or self-deception, a trick we play on our
routines and habits to get around the iron defences behind which we
protect our calcified mentality.

Only with time, as my apprenticeship progressed, would I
realise that the benefit of running was not so much to be found in
the physical exercise itself, or in learning to endure the effort
required, but in its nature as a tripwire or stratagem for breaking
a mechanical pattern composed of apathy and repetition. Running
helped me to block, albeit for just a few minutes, the dark stream of
my thoughts; it collided with and interrupted that pathetic, mournful
description of the world that men call reality. Running opened a gap
in that prison-like order, and through that physical effort a breath of
freedom loosened the shackles of my slavery. Like an ocean gathering
to drown every hollow, determined not to leave a single void, the
world rebelled and marshalled a tide of events to flood that one small
space that was its mortal enemy; a kind of intolerable transgression
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of the planets natural law. Only the memory of the Dreamer and my
awareness of His presence supported me, by providing a prodigious
energy.
At the time, my own obstinacy, rather than any strength of
will, helped me persevere. I made myself believe in the absolute
necessity of that effort, and without any other rational explanation, I
gave my morning run top priority, as if my life depended on it.
The Dreamer used the phrase first things first, to describe the
importance of giving oneself the correct priorities, maintaining ones
direction and remembering what must come first. Now I know that
the early morning hour, deliberately stolen from my daily routine,
was a space of power; a leverage point from which to change the
world.

A man who aims high,
impeccably committed to his improvement,
can move mountains, find solutions
to apparently impossible situations,
and transform adversity into events of a higher order.

2 The keepers of Main Street

When I think back to that time, I see myself again, hooded
and padded out like Bibendum the Michelin Man, walking past the
doormans booth in my apartment block on Roosevelt Island. The
head shaking and bemused smiles of the security guards, lit up by
the livid lights of the monitors, were the first signs of the worlds
reaction to my daring morning enterprise. Only now am I able to see
that their attitude was nothing but the mirror image of my resistance
and the half-hearted commitment I had at the time. Among the
Dreamers teachings, one in particular had laid siege to my beliefs
and crushed the bastions of my certainties as if under the blows of a
battering ram.

The world is such because you are such.

The world is a faithful image of our states and those
doormen were my reflection! Behind their ironic smiles, Jennifers
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skepticism, my colleagues comments, and the reactions of all those
who knew about my morning exercise regime, there was my own
fragility. Behind all
these attitudes, my own lack of determination showed
through, along with the doubts and insincerity that the others
promptly sent back to me in the form of grimaces, as if I were making
faces at myself in the mirror of the world.

Always remember this! Nothing is outside you
The world you see and touch is only an effect.
It shares your breath
it lives if youre alive and dies when you die.

Without the Dreamers teachings, I would have kept on
believing that those men were security guards; poor devils who were
just earning a living. Going out of the building, coming in every day, I
would have exchanged greetings with them, I would have mirrored
myself in their irony and skepticism without never imagining that
they were not guards; they were not even men. They were nerve
endings, highly perceptive instruments, sensory organs of the world.

A man cannot hide
The world knows! It reveals you!

Ideas like these gradually began to penetrate deeply inside
me, and over the years transformed me.

You can evolve or degrade at any moment. Its up to you.
Each of your thoughts, attitudes, words and glances,
even the slightest grimace
announces to the entire universe your degree of responsibility
and level of freedom.
This is what unmistakably places you where you are
and determines your destiny,
financial status and role in the theatre of existence

I imagined a universe that knew everything about me, an
apparatus made up of countless sensors, updated in real time by the
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slightest movement of my Being and the quality of my thoughts and
my states. If we paid attention to these clues, as if interpreting the
prophecy of some ancient oracle, we would know who we are, what
we could know, what we could and couldnt do, what we could keep
and what we should lose.
Never missing my daily appointment with my run and
myself, I remembered and fortified my intent, unburdening myself of a
lifetimes accumulation of waste. The drumbeat of my existence was
sending out new messages to the universe. Its rhythm was spreading
the news that another man was making a break for freedom. His bold
attempt to escape the horror of ordinary life was underway.

3 The walls

My first attempts at running around the whole island
required a heroic effort. Even later, when I was fitter, overcoming
fatigue was a constant battle, especially at certain critical moments
of the run. I noticed that the difficulty and exertion required did not
increase in a linear progression, as I had expected; instead, it swung
like a pendulum, back and forth in waves. Over the course of each
run, I felt moments of calm, where almost no effort was required,
alternating with periods of unbearable pain. In these crucial phases
it seemed as though real walls were being raised, and to overcome
these barriers required a superhuman effort
A key part of my apprenticeship with the Dreamer had
trained me for the painstaking task of self-observation: a constant
attention to my states, thoughts, feelings and emotions, and to
everything that seemed to attract or repel me. Observing myself in
precisely those moments when I lacked energy, I had noticed that
the critical moments were always preceded by the construction of a
psychological wall, by a shadow that darkened my Being. Pessimism
and mistrust would then seize control, and the inner Antagonists
voice would make itself heard more forcefully, always finding new
reasons to abandon my resolution.
Running taught me to grit my teeth, to realise that in those
difficult moments all I had to do was hold out just a second longer to
get back to a state of ease, and as soon as I overcame the temptation
to let myself go and give up, new reserves of energy would open
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up to me. It would have been impossible to approach them, or even
know about them, without having conquered the battle with myself
and demolished those walls which just a few moments earlier had
seemed insurmountable.
The more I studied the mechanism that generated those
moments, the more running appeared to be a conceptual model, a
precious instrument for an explanation of the world. In that alternate
motion I recognised the essential element, the fundamental dynamic
principle of every physical reality. From the atoms nucleus to the
edges of the universe, everything moves and expands with the
undulating movement that I had discovered in my body. Life itself is
a wave-like motion with neither beginning nor end.
The walls that running made me face at certain times, and
the extraordinary effort required to overcome them, were making me
aware of a universal paradigm recurring in life. On so many occasions
it would have been enough to hold out just a little bit longer in order
to break them down, to conquer them for good and go beyond. But
something had always urged me to give up and to surrender. Defeat,
which I always blamed on external events, was instead revealing
itself to be an inside-out process, a mechanism that unmistakably
obeyed an inner command, an act of self-sabotage. The shadow is
born and spreads within the Being; then it finds the right moment
to manifest in the form of unfavourable circumstances, events and
encounters. Awareness of this mechanism and the sensitivity to
detect this obscurity in my Being, the prelude to every defeat, gave
me the golden opportunity to circumscribe and eliminate it, not only
from my run, but from my existence.
I generally ran alone. The gulls that flew overhead and
the occasional barges going up the East River that flanked me for a
time until leaving me in their wake with a whistle, were my only
companions. While I was running, I often dreamed. I liked to believe
that sooner or later I would meet other escapees, other rash people
who, like me, had decided to f lee from a mediocre existence.
On one occasion I joined a group of five men and two
women. We started our run with enthusiasm. The morning was
bright, the Manhattan skyline stood out crisply on the horizon and
we ran side by side all the way around the island. I had never seen
any of them before, but I felt an immediate empathy and got the
impression that they were already a bonded group. For a short time, a
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man wearing black and grey jogging shoes and a track suit that
glistened like silk, set the pace. Suddenly, he increased his speed.
Unable to keep up, we dropped back one by one. Our
overburdened and discouraged bodies revealed their shortcomings,
and we soon lost sight of him. This made it painfully clear how much
work we all still had to do.
We carried on, running in a group until we reached the
playground where we sat down to catch our breath. A glorious fire
engine parked nearby was now reduced to a mere attraction for the
few children living on the island. The fate of that vehicle, an emblem
of past heroic deeds, seemed to act as a reminder of the flabbiness and
physical decline of man in our civilisation. Tacitly I promised myself
that I would increase my efforts and rise above my present condition.
Nobody spoke; there was no need. Cleansed by our exertion, we
shared the pale sunlight, as if it were unleavened bread; enjoying the
special complicity of our improvised sodality. Then each of us took
our leave with a nod, jogging off for a hot shower before beginning a
typical New York business day.
It was still early and I played with a ray of sunlight between
my half-closed eyelids, catching a glimpse of the red cable cars as
they shuttled tirelessly between Manhattan and Queens.

4 The law of the Antagonist

Fear not the Antagonist! Behind his fierce mask lies our
greatest ally, our most faithful servant.
On hearing these words I gave a start. With my eyes still
closed, I remained suspended between hope and disbelief.
Its impossible! I thought. I couldnt believe it. Yet that
voice was unmistakable those were His words.
Slowly I turned around and opened my eyes. The Dreamer
was sitting next to me. An unearthly shiver ran down my spine and
spread under my skin to the roots of my hair where it nestled like a
light but insistent vibration. He was wearing the silken tracksuit and
those futuristic jogging shoes. I had run almost all the way around the
island with Him, without ever suspecting that He was the Dreamer! I
guessed that the men and women in the group were His students.
Once I had recovered from my astonishment, I confided in Him my
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intentions and aims. I told Him how attentive I had been to my body
recently, about the results I was achieving in my initial experiments
with food, sleep and breathing I told Him about my running, the
discovery of the walls and the mystery of this inner voice that
constantly urged me to give up, to yield, to fail and relinquish my
goal.
The voice you hear is the Antagonist that you have inside
stated the Dreamer, opening a theme that would reveal itself to be one
of the most demanding issues tackled in my entire apprenticeship.
He accompanied these words with a hint of a smile that made Him
appear even younger. This benevolent expression was so rare in
Him that instead of giving me courage it had the opposite effect. I
became apprehensive. I knew I was nearing a crucial passage so I
straightened up and took a deep breath: whatever I had to overcome, I
would have dedicated every drop of my strength.
The Dreamer reviewed all the most emblematic events of our
history, the disasters that have troubled man and societies over the
centuries. Analysing the reasons and penetrating into their roots, He
told me in detail about a planetary force that was the psychological
equivalent of friction. As if subject to the same laws that govern a
body in motion, mans impulses inevitably meet the contrast of an
equal and opposite force. It was on this occasion that the Dreamer
introduced a system of propositions, a set of principles He called the
Law of the Antagonist.
Everything, from the simplest to the most complex, from one
man to an entire civilisation, every organism on its evolutionary path
meets an apparently opposing force, an Antagonist of strength and
ability equal to the breadth and scope of its own project.
In time, upon further investigation, all those ideas would
reveal the outline of a veritable general theory of friction, capable
of disentangling centuries of history and making sense of the endless
series of difficulties and disasters that have vexed humanity ever
since its birth. I gazed down on a 360 degree view of the human
condition, and saw how painful mans life had always been. It made
me gasp as if on the brink of a bottomless pit.
My notebook came miraculously to hand. I clutched itas if it
were my last hope and there, in the open air, I carefully annotated
every fragment of that unique lesson. The park bench where we
were sitting was sealed in a timeless bubble and it seemed as though
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the whole of Roosevelt Island had turned into a spaceship ready for
liftoff at the speed of thought. Manhattan and its swarming life could
not have been farther away.
The Dreamer explained that every man is a dreamer, and as
a dreamer, he becomes the crucible of good and evil, the creator of
his own personal reality and destiny. In time man will see the
materialisation of every dream and thought that springs from the
depths of his Being.
The world is an effect a projection, not only of your
dreams but also your nightmares. It can be a heaven or a hell. You
alone decide.

5 Love thy enemy

In reality, behind the mask of the Antagonist, beyond
appearances, lies the face of our greatest ally, He explained. Then
He added:
Contrary to what humanity believes, it is not possible to be
opposed by anything whose forces are greater than our own the
antagonist is never stronger than we are!
What about David and Goliath? I asked, citing the most
famous story and one of the most symbolic examples of a mismatched
fight. My mind flipped through hundreds of icons that, over the
millennia, have reiterated the challenge between the heavily armed
Philistine giant and the young shepherd with only a slingshot in his
pocket
A slingshot and the Dream of becoming king!
corrected the Dreamer, breaking into that throng of images. Beyond
appearances, the fight is always fair!
No one can meet an Antagonist greater than himself, or
superior to his own intelligence and ability Beyond the apparent
disparity in strength, the contest between David and Goliath
respects the universal laws of the duel, said the Dreamer, as if he
were conducting a mathematical demonstration. The one and only
aim of the Antagonist, concealed by his ruthlessness, is your victory.
The Antagonist has all the instruments and methods at his disposal
to allow you to achieve your Dream and it is he who can show you
the quickest way to success.
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No matter how paradoxical these statements seemed, I
reflected that, in actual fact, no strategies or allies could have led
David to realise his dream more quickly. The Dreamer assented in
silence, encouraging these first signs of comprehension by nodding
His head. Then He concluded:
No one on earth can love you more than the Antagonist.
I couldnt speak.
My temples were throbbing with fever. The height of human
intelligence, expressed in Christian thought by love thy enemy, was
now surpassed, two thousand years later, by the Dreamers simpler
and more revolutionary announcement: it is the enemy who loves
you!
Man should no longer force himself to love his enemy
(something which by now was demonstrably impractical, if not
impossible, after another two thousand years of revenge and
reprisals). For a new humanity it would be enough to recognise that
it is the enemy, the antagonist, who loves you.
The more I thought about it, the sharper became my
perception of the great spiral ascent of human thinking that was born
out of the Dreamers message. The millenary announcement Love
thy enemy, that cornerstone of Christian teaching, had been left
behind in a flash, demonstrating all its rigidity. Like all the religions
of the world, the Christian faith, worn down by the centuries and
divisions amongst its churches, had forgotten that truth is not static
and cannot remain still. Yesterdays truth not transcended degrades
and becomes todays lie.
In the meantime, we had left the playground bench and
the old fire engine behind us, and were heading north along the
riverbank. I walked with the Dreamer and listened to Him while He
put in place the last pieces of His astonishing theory.
Forgiving the enemy outside is a demonstration of mans
infinite vanity and inability to understand. The only enemy is within
you. Outside there is no enemy to forgive, nor any evil that can harm
you. The Antagonist is your most precious ally; an instrument to
improve and perfect you and make you whole; the unique key that
grants access to higher zones of Being.
We passed by the Chapel of the Good Shepherd, the old
gothic church which lay in ruins. The stone bust of a suffering Christ
still stood in the silence of those remains.
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That ancient school also failed, said the Dreamer, and I
perceived a faint hint of sorrow for the umpteenth epilogue to this
timeless drama.
Even Christianity missed the target

The Antagonist

The Antagonist, the enemy, is a special propellant.
The greater our degree of responsibility,
the more ruthless the Antagonists attack.
The Antagonist measures us, reveals us, completes us The higher
our degree of freedom, the more subtle his action.

Fear not the Antagonist!
Behind his apparent ruthlessness hides your greatest ally,
your most faithful servant.
The Antagonists sole and unique aim
is your victory
The Antagonist employs every artifice, every strategy,
to achieve his final goal: your integrity.
No one in the world can love you more than the Antagonist.
You are the sole reason for his existence.

Fear not the Antagonist!
Your perfection will grow with his mercilessness.
Your immortality with his apparent immorality.
Your intelligence will grow with his power.
Your power with his intelligence.
Because the Antagonist is you!

6 Learn to smile inside

I thought about the greatness of this revelation: if such a
truth had been recognised by humanity it would have revolutionised
and transformed our way of thinking and feeling forever. One day I
would transfer the force of this vision to my students the fiercer
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the Antagonists attack and the graver the insult, the greater the
opportunity to go beyond.
Learn to smile inside while the attack reigns down
and the offence manifests itself without mercy.
The Antagonist should be fought outside,
and simultaneously forgiven inside!
Forgiveness can only happen inside you.
Impeccably perform the fiercest combat
but without believing in it!

Finally, a tiny pinhole was opening up to begin to shed
light on that age-old, impenetrable paradox: if you love him he is no
longer your enemy, and if he is your enemy how can you love him?

Love thy enemy is an idea that comes from a
higher level of intelligence.
Only a man who is whole can understand and apply it.
Only he who has extirpated all interior conflict and division
can do without the Antagonist.
For those who have a dual logic,
still seeing and thinking through a system of opposites, healing can
only present itself wearing the ferocious mask of the Antagonist.

The attitude of a leader in the face of difficulties should be
this said the Dreamer representing the concept in mime by rubbing
his hands together, like someone who finally has in front of him the
very thing he has been waiting for.
A leader knows that, however terrible the Antagonist may
seem, the fight is always equal and the difficulties only apparent.
The Antagonists mask, his apparent brutality, conceals access to the
highest levels of responsibility.
No one has ever explained the game to you more clearly
than this! announced the Dreamer, addressing His words to an
invisible audience as vast as the planet.
He added that without this understanding, without a School,
most men would stop on the threshold of this passage, refusing to
pay the price. We constantly come up against obstacles and internal
voices that dissuade us from continuing, physical and psychological
antagonists that test the strength of our aspiration, the clarity of our
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intent, our readiness and our determination.

The impossible always opens the door to the next possibility

The more I immersed myself in the Dreamers vision, the more I felt
the power of a special training. From Him I was receiving the
teaching of a martial art, capable of transforming every attack and
apparent adversity we encounter in life into a propulsive force.
Enemies and obstacles now appeared in a new light.

The Antagonist, whether man or event,
has the thankless task of revealing every emptiness,
every shortcoming, every weakness or fear that you carry inside;
uncompromisingly denouncing your lack of preparation,
your faults and the limits that you yourself have imposed.
Once you recognise the Antagonist inside yourself,
it will disappear from outside.

The Dreamer ironically emphasised that in exchange for
his precious services the Antagonist receives from us only spite and
rancour.
The figure of Father Nuzzo filtered into my memory and
dominated the tiny crowd of Antagonists encountered during my
childhood years at the Barnabites Collegio Bianchi. I felt a stinging
melancholy and slight remorse at the memory of all the ill will we
had felt for him. Only now, beside the Dreamer, could I see, beyond
the mercilessness and severity of that teacher, the smile and love of
someone who understood the game.
The teachers we most hated are the ones who gave us most
pronounced the Dreamer, sweeping away my thoughts and clearing
away all the ghosts and shadows generated by those useless
feelings.
From the Dreamers exposition I could see a system
emerging, a recurring cosmic model that could be applied to all
human actions, both individual and collective a kind of universal
law that could be observed on any scale. I was particularly struck by
his mention of the possibility of escaping the laws of the Antagonist.
On this point I expressed my difficulty in imagining a world without
friction, where it would be possible to reach out towards any goal
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without resorting to the precious and ruthless help of the Antagonist.
How can we? I asked, fascinated by the prospect of
transforming life into an earthly paradise into which the Antagonist
would finally have no access.
Its like expecting to live on this planet without having to
submit to the law of gravity answered the Dreamer, in the brusque
tone of someone who dismisses a question out of hand. Then, softly,
as if he had been trying to keep the information secret, he added:
Man could choose the influences in his life and entrust
himself to the power of something higher, but he lives in pain and as
a result knows nothing of the Art of Dreaming! He suffers because
he does not dream.
Through the Art of Dreaming, a man stops suffering stops
dying He said enigmatically Only he who has stopped killing
himself inside has a right to the ineffable revelations of the
Antagonist.
He paused at length, during which time He seemed to be
focused on the partial view of Roosevelt Island and the seagulls that
wheeled across its sky. Then He said:
For the moment, learn to consider the Antagonist as your
closest ally and hope that he is increasingly fierce and strong. The
higher our responsibility, the more ferocious the Antagonists attack.
In time this vision will overturn your life and create the world you
have always wanted.
The Dreamer noticed that I was still waiting for an answer as to
how to make every threat and attack disappear from our existence.
What is apparently opposing you is only a sign, a luminous
arrow pointed towards the real cause of all your troubles and
difficulties. The Antagonist is you! If you could just draw near to this
understanding, the game would be revealed and disappear, and the
Antagonist would lose his form, his apparent cruelty and power. In
reality, the Antagonist appears in your life to point out everything
that you should change inside, everything that you do not want to
see, touch or feel in yourself
In view of the obvious difficulty I had in following Him,
He decided I was not yet ready to tackle that question. He said that,
for now, I would have to consider the law of the Antagonist as a
universal and inescapable principle:
Man as he is, cannot escape the law governing the world of
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duality, where everything happens and is created through conflict: the
game of opposites the Dreamer affirmed with an air of finality. I
found myself reflecting on the unrelenting nature of our destiny,
and how the salvation of only one man could extend itself to all
humanity.
What business of yours is the salvation of the world? said
the Dreamer, interrupting my thoughts with a terrible voice when
all the world needs is to save itself from you!
For now, mind your pain and suffering He ordered Stay
there. Dont run away. Observe them and lay bare their roots. Only
when you become free of the worlds description will you be able to
set it free. The whole world, its way of thinking and doing, its
conditions, precariousness and danger, exactly mirrors your interior
fragmentation.
Only you, living permanently Here and Now can liberate
the world from all opposites. Only you, abandoning your inner
conflictuality, can free it from all contradiction, violence and war,
He said, definitely concluding that part of our meeting.
He would resume the discussion several months later one
evening in London when, at a special dinner with some closely
selected guests, He introduced me to the secret of pro-activity:
At the end of that peripatetic lesson, walking and listening to
Him, I found myself in the park, near the bench we had started from.
The Dreamer sat down and I took my place next to Him at a
respectful distance. The sun appeared from behind a cloud, and the
sudden glare made me close my eyes. It was pleasant and I stayed
like that for a while, savouring the moment. The Dreamers words,
attenuate, seemed to arrive from a distant world.
Man has forgotten that he is the dreamer the creator of his
own reality, and this is what makes the action of the Antagonists in
his life essential and symbiotic
Turn your vision upside down! Force yourself to be free!
He said. The tone was paternal but had the harsh, strict forcefulness
of an order. Initially it roused me, but then the drowsiness I was
feeling took over once more, taking possession of all my faculties. I
just managed to hear Him say:
Become in this moment a man who dreams, who creates,
who loves! Only he who has decided to conquer himself meets the
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Antagonist. A falling man has no Antagonists. His fall is free and
painless.

7 The suite at the St. James

I set my bag down on the thick carpet and looked around.
The luxury of that suite, the austere opulence of the brocades and
the furniture made me uneasy. I wondered what the Dreamer had in
mind in requesting that I transfer to that exclusive hotel. With him,
nothing happened by chance, yet at the same time nothing could
ever be planned ahead. For the Dreamer even the smallest movement
was part of a strategy. Over the course of my apprenticeship I had
met him in the most remote countries as well as the worlds main
capitals. Each time without advance notice and without any need for
appointments or scheduling. Every meeting had been an irreplaceable
experience, a luminous step on the ladder that was transforming my
life into an extraordinary adventure.
This time I had received His message at the small hotel
where I usually stayed when in London. We were to meet at
Veronicas. In making the appointment for that evening, the Dreamer
had asked me to leave Eaton Place and move to a suite at the St.
James in Mayfair. It was there that I found myself now, trying to pass
the endless minutes that separated me from our meeting. Flowers,
an overflowing bowl of fruit, champagne, two bathrooms a study
with an antique desk, a luxurious sofa the thought of how much all
this would cost actually made me feel ill.
I knew that anything the Dreamer had in mind, anything he
asked me to do, including transferring to one of the most expensive
hotels in London, was undoubtedly part of a strategic plan; yet I
couldnt rid myself of that discomfort. I imagined the face Mr. Lyford
of the administration department would have made at the appearance
of the bill for a luxury suite on my expenses account
I would surely have to pay for it out of my own pocket. It was in
fact, quite out of the question for me to get the ACO to reimburse me,
as just a few nights at the St. James would have devoured my entire
New York salary. That thought transformed itself quickly from a
psychological pain to a physical one. At that time, the conviction that
circumstances and events controlled every aspect of my life was too
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deeply rooted in me. I blamed the others, the external world, for my
unhappiness and malaise.
You would have felt the same resentment and bitterness if
instead of a royal suite I had asked you to transfer to some squalid
hovel in the poorest neighbourhood of London, the Dreamer said to
me later. What you were facing has nothing to do with the external
world, nor with events or circumstances. It is something that you
have always brought with you, that you carry inside, and this is the
real cause of all your difficulties and infernal existence.
I look back with shame on the thoughts I had that day, which
had dangled in my mind like corpses hanging from the gallows. An
irrepressible nausea flooded my Being and pervaded every cell. I
had to sit down to recover a breath of life. I looked everywhere for
the hotel rates but couldnt find them. I picked up the phone to ask
the price of the suite. Perhaps it wasnt too late for me to cancel. I
would have given anything to be able to get out of that situation,
that desperation. Snapshots of a fragile, powerless and senseless life
flashed through my mind. I remained motionless for a few seconds,
as if paralysed, then slowly hung up the phone. A new lucidity had
taken over, lifting me out of the quicksand of my dread.
I remembered an extraordinary phrase that He had once
whispered to me, and which, fortunately, I had been able to catch
and write down:
Style is consciousness Invest everything you have and
even what you dont have, on yourself always! You will see your life
become richer and broader in every sense. If you bet on yourself,
life will bet on you.
Dont worry about money. Worry about yourself, about your
integrity. When money is needed, it will be right there. Trust
yourself. Trust your dream and you will have all the money necessary
to match a beautiful life. The masterpiece of your very dreaming is
you.
The outer world is only a pale shadow of your inner
creativity, a very faded manifestation of your uniqueness.

8 Before the cock crows

I felt a sudden change in my body chemistry and I became as
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euphoric as a convict whose prison gates had just been flung open. I
reflected on how little it took to scare me, to cast a shadow over
me and dishearten me. This was the exact measure of my Being
and the real reason for every difficulty in my life. Yet I only needed
to connect with Him, to look at Him, just to cast a thought in His
direction, to feel myself transformed and see the solution emerge.
That suite at the St. James, as on other occasions created by His
inexhaustible teachings, was revealing itself to be a classroom of
the School in which I studied and assimilated the foundations of the
Art of Dreaming that the Dreamer very often called the Science of
Doing.
The Dreamer was preparing me for an extraordinary
undertaking, even if I still had no idea what it was. I was sure that the
mission He would one day entrust to me required a total revolution,
a burden of responsibility that, in my current condition, I could never
have borne.
I felt a mounting sense of gratitude flooding my Being. I
half closed my eyes and drank deeply of that luxury, absorbing every
detail of the setting with its richness and beauty.

Nothing is external

The presence of the Dreamer was revealing completely
unknown parts of me. Something extraordinary happened in that
suite in the St. James. Aeons of time compressed and atoms of
prosperity enriched my Being. I sensed infinity. Even if for only a
few seconds, I stopped being a victim, a frightened, doubtful and
defeated man, and became an architect, the artist who had conceived
that hotel. I understood the eternal distance between the dreamer and
the dreamed, between a free man and one who depends.
The world is a projection of the Being. That is the source!
I looked for the Bible and I found it in one of the bedside
drawers. I opened it at random and read the passage in which three
times Jesus asks Peter Do you love me? And three times, initially
embarrassed but in the end slightly annoyed, Peter answers, Yes, I
love you!
He should have answered No! Not yet.
Had he known himself just a little better and been just a little
more sincere and honest, he would have said Im trying to love you!
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With that thrice-repeated question, Jesus was actually
asking: Do you know yourself, do you know who you are? Do
you love yourself more than anything else? Have you stopped killing
yourself inside?
Jesus was asking Peter to transfer his teaching to the
innermost parts of his Being, to overthrow his vision, transform his
way of thinking and soften his rigidity. Perhaps it is for this rock-
hard attitude that Jesus named him Peter (from the Greek petros,
meaning rock). This new name prefigured his later transformation
from a fearful man into the founder and cornerstone of the Church.
Yet Peter was the man who believed he could lie and hide. I, too, was
that man.
I read this, and wept. Three times Peter had been given the
chance to avoid his betrayal. If only he could have observed himself,
he would have discovered that his betrayal was already there, in
his Being, just waiting for the favourable occasion to reveal itself.
Poor Peter! If only he could have observed himself he would have
understood that those questions were not external but came from
within his own Being: You, Peter, do you love yourself? Have you
eliminated any division, any inner deaths? He would have discovered
the lies, fears and doubts in himself and could have put them to flight
like a thief.

Loving oneself inside is an act of will, it means knowing oneself.
Loving oneself inside means celebrating life unceasingly,
in its totality.

I remembered these words of the Dreamer and realised that if
Peter had heeded the request to look inside himself so that he might
know and love himself, it would have changed his mortal destiny. If
he had been able to upend his convictions, he would not have been
crucified upside down as he himself requested of his executioners,
offering a symbol of his late but genuine understanding of Christs
subversive teachings.
From that step, from the message transmitted by that great
School that was early Christianity, I was retracing the steps to the
greatness of the Dreamers teachings. Being is the origin of all that
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Look at yourself inside and you will know your destiny!

The three yes are the lies that Peter did not want to see, that
became manifest in the event of his martyrdom.

If we want to change something,
we can only do so by elevating our Being.
The destiny of a man, as well as of an organisation,
nation or entire civilisation and its economy,
is the projection of his Being and vision.
The broader a mans vision, the richer his reality.

No school of economics could ever have taught me such an
all encompassing law.
These were for me the great lessons in true economics,
management and high finance. In these teachings, I recognised the
milestones of a new education founded on Being, the manifesto
of a psychological revolution capable of overthrowing the mental
paradigms of the old humanity, capable of turning its vision upside
down and of freeing it forever from its conflictuality, doubt, fear and
pain, which are the real causes of all the crime and poverty in the
world.

9 Dinner with the Dreamer

I had to control my impatience so that I wouldnt arrive at
Veronicas too early. The dining room was packed. Sitting at a richly
arrayed table, the Dreamer was surrounded by an excited swarm of
diligent waiters and a careful, attentive hostess. From time to time
they would all freeze to listen religiously to His orders and detailed
recommendations; then, in unison, they would resume their working
dance. The Dreamer was wearing a black suit of timeless style, and
His long hair was gathered at the nape of his neck. Under the satin
lapels was a resplendent shirt set off with a black velvet bow tie.
I was surprised to see that he wasnt alone. There were four
men and three women with him: Bruno and Rebecca W., owners of
an important advertising agency in Zurich; Klaus E., from Frankfurt,
founder of Robotronic and president of an international foundation
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operating in the field of biological research; Ben F., Dean of a British
university, the oddest looking member of the group. The oriental cut
of his suit accentuated his imposing athletic physique, surprisingly
unlike the build one commonly expects of an intellectual. Next
to him was Linda, an attractive and determined-looking human
resources specialist, founder and owner of two head-hunting
agencies with offices in London and New York. Finally there was a
young Irish couple, Peter C. and his wife Susan, timid and reserved. I
took to them instinctively. He, a Catholic, and she, the daughter of a
Protestant minister, were working together on a European project
based at a historic college in Regents Park.
The groups attitude towards the Dreamer suggested both
simultaneous deference and familiarity. In the unexpected presence
of those people I was overcome with emotions that I hadnt felt for a
long time and which I thought I had eradicated forever: resentment
at the intrusion, but also jealousy and envy of their opulence and the
aura of success that surrounded them. That splendour overshadowed
me. Of course, I had always thought that the Dreamer had other
students, and many times I had imagined meeting them; but actually
doing so like this, without advance warning, had caught me off
guard. I was ashamed of my reaction and the emotions I was feeling,
and this added to my pain and conflict. In covering the infinite
distance separating me from the Dreamer, which was in reality no
more than a few steps, I felt compelled to change. I reversed the
focus of my attention, turning it from outside to inside. The instant I
observed those negative emotions, they faded and vanished like the
illusions they were. In the end, it was the fascination of the discovery
that remained. I recognised the value of the opportunity of finally
meeting men and women who, like me, had encountered the School
for Gods.
I felt like I was in a virtual theatre, where the dividing
line between actors and audience was constantly infringed upon,
remaining intriguingly uncertain during the whole performance.
The curtain was going up on a Theatre of the Absurd that revealed
the contours of a separate reality. We were the living pages of an
unknown script, the fresh brush strokes on a painting that none of
us could see in its entirety and now, gathered before the Artist-
Author-Creator, we were waiting to learn our destiny.
I concentrated my attention on the dinner guests, observing
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them with greater attention. Every one of those men and women
was a recognised authority in their own field. Bruno W. was a
middle-aged, big fellow, blunt in his words and actions, but at the
same time decisive and constructive. His stylishly unkempt salt and
pepper beard gave him a relaxed air of a rather simple and childlike
character. His wife, Rebecca seemed delicate and almost frail, but
with the concentrated energy of an international businesswoman. She
spent part of her time in Tuscany where she managed a vast family
estate and winery. Klaus E. was cosmopolitan and luminous, looking
like a gentleman-adventurer of elegant demeanour. Like a blade in
its sheath, beneath his frivolous appearance and witty conversation
was a sharp intelligence at the service of a fierce ambition. Peter C.
turned out to be a vibrant Andr Chenier, refined in his expression
and visionary in his ideas. His young wife, Susan, watched him
ecstatically and hung on his every word.

Before the Dreamer, we were naked. He knew all our abilities
and limits, and the place each of us occupied in the overall economy
of a perfect masterpiece. Together we formed a kind of keyboard on
which He was creating and composing the opus conceived by His
genius. Only He knew the complete score by heart, the precise notes,
the unique and irreplaceable part that each of us had to contribute to
His great composition.
No one seemed to notice my arrival. There was neither
ceremony nor introductions. I joined them in silence taking the place
that had been left free, and concentrated on what the Dreamer was
saying. As I sat down at the table, I caught this fragment of His
remarks.
A real man doesnt belong to any philosophy, ideology or
religion. A real dreamer has no labels. He cannot belong. He cannot
be confined He knows that the Antagonist comes only to allow us to
overcome our limits For this he blesses every apparent obstacle
every apparent adversity If, one day, walking in a garden, you
happen to step on a thorn He concluded never forget to give
thanks.

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10 The dishonest administrator

The Dreamers reference to the Antagonist and His
concluding epigram served as an introduction to an ancient story
of obscure meaning: the parable of the dishonest administrator. The
Dreamer presented it still wrapped in the enigmatic mystery that had
enveloped it for two thousand years.
A rich man discovered that his farm bailiff was squandering
his assets. He summoned him, and, having established the facts,
dismissed him from his administrative responsibilities. What will I
do? cried the desperate bailiff. Im no good at tilling soil, and
Im too embarrassed to beg. So he called his masters debtors one
by one and falsified their documents, thereby reducing the debt.
One hundred barrels of oil became fifty, one hundred sheaves of
grain became eighty, and so forth. In this way he counted on earning
their good favour and finding a job once relieved of his office. His
master also found out about this dishonest practice and in response
praised him.
Throughout the centuries, the behaviour of this master has
puzzled the most learned Bible scholars, and challenged generations
of theologians and sages concluded the Dreamer, and then He fell
silent.
Some of us took up the challenge and tried to offer
explanations, but all of them were improbable and were dismissed
by the others. It was an enigma wrapped in a riddle. In the end
we turned towards the Dreamer in defeat. We knew that even the
Gordian knot would loosen easily in his fingers. His comment on
that biblical conundrum was a model of simplicity, casting light into
the millennial darkness.
He explained to us that the masters apparently
incomprehensible reaction was as solemn and important as a cosmic
event for the human race: the crossing of an evolutionary threshold
for mankind. In the evolution of mans psychology this quantum
leap was as important as the ability to stand erect or the loss of his
ancestral tail was for his physical evolution. The masters reaction in
the parable signals the birth of the sapiens sapiens species, the birth
of man after man. It represents the beginning of an exodus that will
lead the species out of its primal animal condition.
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Man discovers pro-activity, the management of the moment
and the transformation of every offence to his advantage, of every
insult into fuel for his journey And he buries this treasure map in
a small story of unimaginable profundity.
Feel the offence in your guts! This sudden order from the
Dreamer, pronounced in a loud voice, in fact almost shouted, jolted
me and sharpened my attention.
That is the battlefield and that is where the victory will be
decided The secret lies in winning before fighting.
I reached for my notebook to record every word.
The praising of the dishonest administrator is the cry of a
humanity healed of every internal wound, of a humanity that has
forgiven itself inside, that wins without having to fight because
it no longer needs the beneficial but terrible intervention of the
Antagonist.
He told us that, when a mature man reaches the end of his
great performance in the spotlight on the stage of life, rather than
thanking those who showed him friendship and affection, he should
solemnly thank all those who impeded him; those who were despotic
and offensive towards him.
At this point, the Dreamer suspended His discourse and, with
a nod, signaled that the first course be served. With simplicity and
the same authority, He passed from the analysis of that obscure
parable to a commentary on the various dishes as they were uncovered
in turn. Following a digression into the realms of history and
gastronomy, a succession of delicacies of regional English cuisine,
previously unknown to me, was laid before us: from dishes based on
sixteenth-century mustards to the more modern recipes, but all from
before the Second World War.

The Dreamer, as usual, didnt touch the food, and His plate
went back to the kitchen practically intact. Even though He was a
refined dining companion and an extremely attentive and generous
host with a great connoisseurs knowledge of food and wine, the
Dreamer was the personification of frugality. He observed all the
food related rituals, serving himself and offering the dishes, which
Hed comment on, to the others. Yet He consumed virtually nothing,
every once in a while chewing a mouthful, but without swallowing
it. The Dreamer seemed to feed on ceaseless attention to every detail.
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A waiters gesture, the presentation of a dish and its decoration,
the colour and aroma of the food, the design of the restaurant and
every aspect of the room seemed for Him like a flow of plankton, a
subtle nourishment made up of feelings, perceptions, and sensations
that were His alone, and which our organs no longer knew how to
recognise or assimilate.

11 The victim is always guilty

Apparently, everything on this planet is kept in balance by
the law of opposites: to everything there is an opposite through
which it exists and by which it is counterbalanced, recited the
Dreamer. An individuals life, like that of a nation or an entire
civilisation, seems to be rigidly governed by the law of opposites.
That topic lit up the conversation as if by magic. At the
Dreamers direct invitation, everyone indicated who or what at that
moment he felt to be his own Antagonist. The Dreamer listened to
each one attentively. I couldnt help but ask myself what he had meant
by starting with the adverb, apparently, and by using the expression
seems to be. In the meantime He had begun to speak again, so I set
aside my reflections to listen to him. The secret of proactivity,
barely touched on in New York, was finally about to be addressed.
Everyone senses a force that places itself between ones
wishes and the fulfilment of those wishes the presence of a kind of
universal friction said the Dreamer, adding that, at least judging
from history and from the infinite adversities that man has had to
overcome, the antagonist could be recognised as the very driver of
his evolution.
If you want to do something in life, you have to meet the
opposing force known as the Antagonist He paused, as if to gather
the right words from the air around Him, and said:
However, there are some secrets concerning the Antagonist
that are known to only a few.
Following His mysterious preamble we all prepared
ourselves to listen with heightened attention.
The Antagonist measures us. It measures our AIM, our
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AIM = I AM

No one can have a goal that is greater than himself
He revealed, and added An ordinary man can dream of a small
apartment; another of a house on the beach, but only a king can
dream Versailles.
I was completely bewitched by the magic of the equation the
Dreamer had just outlined, between what a man asks for and what
he is. I considered how this contrasted with the common belief that
mans desire knows no limits, and that everyone could set themselves
any goal if it were not for limits self-imposed by their own good sense
and awareness of their lack of resources. Without these restrictions
anyone could nurture the grandest dreams or harbour the highest
aspirations.
The Dreamer moved on to demonstrate the groundlessness of
this general belief.
The amplitude of ones own Being sets the limit of what a
man can ask from life and the culmination of his every desire. At the
same time it is also the limit of all that a man can receive and
possess.
It struck me as a fantastic discovery. Fragments of His
teachings which until then had been scattered, began to connect. In a
flash I perceived the magnitude of the revelations I had received.
When I emerged from my thoughts, I realised that I had lingered there
too long and without realising, had fallen behind in the conversation. I
hurried to catch up with the others, as I used to do as a child at the
Collegio Bianchi, when, having been distracted by some stuffed wild
animal or the depiction of an ancient myth enclosed in an austere
frame, I would have to race after my classmates who were marching
on in orderly file along the corridors.
The Antagonist is the most precise measure of the breadth
of our thinking and feeling affirmed the Dreamer, leaving us a few
seconds to draw our own conclusions. Then He added:
And this is why the antagonist is never stronger than we
are. However horrible, menacing or unbeatable it may appear, the
confrontation with the Antagonist is always a fair fight and the forces
in play are always equal.
At this point He lowered his voice, transforming it into a
threatening hiss that made us tremble and gather around Him as if
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we were one single Being.
It is only apparently that a man confronts external
obstacles, or meets enemies and adversaries outside himself. In
reality, the Antagonist is always the materialisation of a shadow,
a dark part of ourselves that we neither know nor want to know
continued the Dreamer When it manifests itself in the form of an
attack, adversity or a problem, we are taken by surprise. In reality
we have unconsciously cultivated it within ourselves. Because of our
inattentiveness, a tiny symptom has had time to become acute, and
due to our inability to identify it and intervene, it has materialised
into a real threat. For this reason, a more attentive humanity, one
which has eliminated self-pity and victim consciousness from its
Being, will have the slogan The Victim is Always Guilty! inscribed
in block capitals on the walls of its courtrooms.
But how should we consider a persecution that resulted in
millions of deaths as in the case of the Jews? interjected Bruno W.
in a heated tone I really dont see how, in the case of the Holocaust,
the victim could have been the creator of his own executioner. What
responsibility can millions of innocent people have for the extremism
of a group like the Nazis, and their aberrant theories such as the idea
of racial purity?
At this point, the sommelier approached us discreetly and
went around the table, pouring the precious content of a bottle of
vintage wine into our glasses. The Dreamer stopped and waited for
him to complete his task before resuming. It was then that Klaus E.
burst out, as though he were thinking out loud, saying:
Of course, over the centuries, it has always been hard to be a
Jew In 600 BC Nebuchadnezzar had already razed the temple of
Jerusalem to the ground and deported all the Israelites to Babylon
Then there were the Egyptians the Romans Whether they were
called Fhrer, Caesar, Pharaohs or Satraps, the Jews have never
lacked antagonists...
The Dreamer rotated his glass with a movement of the wrist
and watched the wine as it slowly swirled around the sides, breathing.
Then He inhaled the bouquet and, dismissing the sommelier with a
look of approval, said:
The opposite is a fragment, a part which has separated
itself and moved away from the whole... The apparent Antagonist
is the silver talent lost by the woman... it is the lamb lost by the
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shepherd... Whoever fails to recover his integrity, whoever fails
to reintegrate that atom of his Being, must encounter it outside
himself, monstrously enlarged, in the form of a limitation, obstacle
or adversity.
At these words Linda lit up and interjected animatedly:
But of course! she exclaimed Separate nurseries,
schools and hospitals separate butchers, grocers and restaurants
separate holidays, traditions and rituals You could say that the
Jewish religion, the philosophy, work and life-style of this race are
effectively founded on a discriminatory vision of the world: there are
the Jews and then there are the others
In the temple of Jerusalem, there was a wall separating
the Jewish courtyard from that of the Gentiles mused Peter and
the penalty for any pagan who crossed that line was immediate
execution.
The Dreamer once told me he said glancing quickly
towards the Dreamer for approval before continuing that the ghetto
was born and the barbed wire was already twisted into the Jewish
psychology....just waiting for the right circumstances to transform
itself into a terrible reality, and then He continued with something I
could never forget You cannot be attacked or persecuted by
anything or anyone if you don t perceive yourself as attacked or
persecuted. If you react as if you are persecuted, then you are
creating and projecting persecutions. When you feel that something
external is attacking you, that means you are already victim of your
own dreary imagination he said concluding the recitation. Bruno
latched onto Linda and Peters reflections as though he was also
making an unexpected discovery, he exclaimed:
I had never thought of it before, but in its Hebrew roots the
etymology of the word sacred means separate In their sacred
vision, the Jews divided the world into what was sacred, that is to
say whatever respected their own beliefs, and everything else, which
was profane... impure.
He slumped back in his chair as though he had taken a blow
which was hard to bear.
But then? he gasped, unable to carry on.
Then resumed the Dreamer, gathering up that fragment
of understanding and proceeding to give voice to the thought that
Bruno had not dared express our incompleteness produces monsters
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in the external world. Our division creates the violence that we then
meet outside. The Antagonist is us Feeling oneself separate from
the others is the effect of a disintegrated psychology, which feeds an
internal criminality. One day this will manifest itself in the world of
events in the form of violence, crime, conflict and persecution.
We were stunned. We were crossing a divide before which
our thoughts had come to a breathless halt.
The Shoah was not an accident of history nor the result of
the mercilessness of a regime, nation or, even worse, a man or
tyrant, He said. It was the materialisation of the vision of a people
who still had not forgiven themselves inside; the mirror image of a
divided and conflictual way of thinking which was the true cause
of the concentration camps, deportations, extermination and every
other atrocity. The only enemy lies within ourselves! Outside there
is no enemy to hate or to forgive, and no ill that can harm us.
Now I come to think of it said Rebecca the lamentations
of Jeremiah, the tragic chant of the Israelites who were enslaved in
Babylon, begins with an expression of painful surprise. The first
word is eckah which means why?
The unexpected always requires a long preparation a
long incubation period that occurs in our Being, in our states,
announced the Dreamer. Therefore, recognise the Antagonist inside
you become attuned to him recover your integrity. Becoming
whole means forgiving oneself inside it is the part that joins the
whole it is the return of the prodigal son... it is love thy enemy
Then life will always say yes to you It will display a
constant generosity towards you which others will call good luck.

That evening the Dreamer told us that at a certain stage in its
evolution the human species found itself at a crossroads, a fork
which generated two distinct races, two psychological species, each
profoundly different from the other.
There are men who depend, who blame external conditions,
they complain and they commiserate. The Dreamer called these
people reactive. They see things by contraposition and have a
bipolar consciousness.

If you see the external world as something real,
then you are lost and destined to fail no matter what you do.
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Then there is another type of man who is aware that there is
no adverse world outside of ourselves, no external Antagonist ready
to block our path. The Dreamer called such men proactive. They
see the unity behind the extremes, the harmony behind the apparent
antagonisms.
Proactive men enter into the darkest parts of their own
Being and fight their shadows, ghosts and most deeply hidden fears
before they can materialise and one day present themselves as
adversaries. Whatever comes from outside must be transformed. Let
events, incidents, circumstances and relationships fall into a place
inside you where junk and rubbish can be transformed into a new
substance, new energy and new life.
These personal victories were defined by the Dreamer as
creative victories:
These represent the way to make ones dream materialise.
Iphigenias sacrifice, Ulysses journey, the offering of Isaac, the battle
of Arjuna, the temptations of Christ, all still hand down the secret of
creative victories achieved by men who were able to overcome their
internal Antagonist, the only true obstacle to the fulfilment of all our
aspirations.
Then with the bitter tone of one who announces a situation
that is without solution, He added:
The real sickness of the reactive man is that he is
perennially away from home outside of himself . For him the
inner world does not exist and he has made the external world into
an idol to be worshipped, a fetish to adore and upon which he must
depend. Do not ever expect anything from anybody.

At the end of that dinner, the Dreamer highlighted certain
signs of ageing and degradation which were unacceptable in anyone
who was part of a School of Being, and He pointed out the lack of
progress and slow pace of each individuals work. He expressed
His displeasure with harsh and unforgettable words. The Dreamers
strength and energy, which, in the space of just a few years, had
enabled those people to achieve extraordinary things and reach the
top positions in each of their worlds, were now only feeding their
arrogance and vanity. Having forgotten the real reason for being with
the Dreamer, their promise to be the precursors and forerunners of a
new humanity, they had reduced themselves to being clones of the old
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leadership, lifeless matrices of a species on the verge of extinction.
As we were leaving Veronicas, we stood around Him
listening to the end of that unforgettable lesson. His words were
biting and His conclusion unbearable.
I have given you fame, wealth and power. You have
achieved everything you dreamed of. Now there is a new adventure,
a new expedition It is time to dream a new dream, to dream a new
world Abandon everything you believe you have and put someone
else in your place Dedicate yourselves entirely to the Project.
I will not recount His speech, which today only a few people
would be able to understand or accept, but I registered everything
that He said to us and carefully treasured it.
Your lie is lurking behind the mask of age! He thundered
Delegate to your subordinates! Give up your roles! Do it
intentionally before life does it for you.
In the eyes of those men and women I could see consternation
and dismay, and I remembered the parable of the rich, young man.
One day I will write about those who heard the Dreamers words, the
ones He abandoned that night and what became of those individuals
I had been able to get to know so well personally. The Dreamers
conclusion struck them like a mallet and their worried faces
distorted in pain.
I will not intervene again He said Real freedom cannot
be given. A man must conquer it for himself and want it absolutely
and at any price. Only then will he achieve it!
In my world there is no room for even a single atom of your
horror and indolence. Everything one is, everything one has, must
be left behind and transcended in order to be and to have more.
A stony, solemn warning sounded and sealed the end of that
speech:
Whatever you do not understand through my words, life
will explain to you with its own laws and instruments of healing. I
therefore give you back your freedom, the freedom to surrender to
pain, degradation, disease, ageing and death
I took this as a premonition that darkened my soul. I was
listening, years ahead of time, to the words that one day would be
branded on me in some of the most difficult moments of my life.
I waited for all the others to leave and lingered in order to be
alone with Him. Id have liked to have asked Him the meaning of
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those harsh words and above all else understand why they had struck
me with such force. Obscurely I sensed that I was witnessing
something that had a lot to do with me and that one day it would be
my turn to choose between the Dream, and the dreamed, between
true life and the attachment to the shadows projected by the dream. I
wondered what I would have done had I been in their place.
That evening I only wanted a little of His attention so I
limited myself to requesting to see Him once more before going back
to New York. He fixed an appointment with me for the following
afternoon. We were to meet at the Savoy. Then, as if to make the
most of that impromptu opportunity, He asked me to get two tickets
for the hit musical of the moment, Les Misrables. I was surprised at
His request but didnt say anything, and I promised that I would deal
with it that very morning.

12 The tickets

I arrived punctually for what would prove to be one of our
most extraordinary meetings. The Thames foyer at the Savoy was
crowded at that hour. Sitting with a steaming cup of tea before Him,
which He was on the point of bringing to His lips, was the Dreamer.
The little table was heaped with pastries of every kind, and both the
table setting and silver service were immaculate. As usual, He had
hardly touched a thing. I greeted Him with the customary deference
and quietly took the seat next to Him, trying to stay up and keep a
smile on my face, despite my burning sense of defeat.
I struggled to let myself be taken in by the Deco atmosphere
and the discreet piano, but a recurring thought, more troublesome
than the rest, continued to vex me. The hundred justifications
which had crowded my mind along the way had now turned into a
maelstrom. I was desperate. I knew the Dreamer was not a man to
take no for an answer and my indecision over how I would tell Him
had become an unbearable anxiety. His cool, calm voice intruded
into my thoughts and made me start.
You couldnt find those tickets! He said lately.
His serious tone confirmed my worst fears: the Dreamer
considered of vital importance the task Hed assigned me, and in an
instant my fear, humiliation and impotence turned into rage and an
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uncontrollable smirk of arrogance. If He had known I would not have
been able to procure them then why had He asked me? I had spent the
whole day searching in vain for those two tickets, but Les Misrables
was the most successful West End musical in years so it was an
impossible quest. I told the Dreamer how my search had begun early
that morning with the St James Hotel concierge laughing derisively
in response to my innocent request that he reserve two seats for that
evenings performance. Why, sir, dont you know? he chortled,
for tickets to a hit show like that, Im not even sure that booking
three months in advance is enough!
From that moment on, as the hours passed, my search
became increasingly feverish. As I confessed to the Dreamer, I
suspected at various moments that He had deliberately set me an
impossible task.
He remained silent, His chin resting on His chest. He seemed
to be absorbed in listening to the tale of my fruitless mission, and I
interpreted this as an invitation to tell the full account of my failed
endeavours. I had vainly scoured every box office kiosk and ticket
office but, confirming the concierges information, from even the
most restricted view side seats to the stage boxes, the theatre had
been entirely sold out for months. Finding those seats seemed to be
the most difficult thing to do in the whole of London. In a
confused way, something inside me had known that the challenge
went way beyond the apparent futility of the task and this had urged
me to redouble my efforts in order not to leave any option untried.
As tea time approached, and with it the feared moment of truth with
the Dreamer, I had even contacted some influential friends in show
business. I told Him about how I had paid a visit to Lady Ellis during
an interval between parliamentary votes at Westminster, and how
even that had proved unsuccessful. To fill every space, I was dragging
out more episodes from my odyssey, expecting an unleashing of
His wrath - or worse, His derision - upon me at any moment, when
suddenly the Dreamer interrupted me repeating His initial words.
You couldnt find those tickets! He said in the same tone,
this time laying the emphasis on the you, with the irritation one feels
for those who are being stupid. He brought His face imperceptibly
closer and added:
To find them you would have had to derail your own
destiny finding them would have changed you forever!
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He revealed to me that, contrary to my belief, at the very
moment when He had asked me to find those tickets, the job was
already done. This statement astonished me. Could I possibly have
been persuaded that the difficulties I had encountered were not
objective?... Who better than myself could know that I had stopped
at nothing to try and get those tickets. It was all very well to talk
about it there, sitting at a table at the Savoy, but who else could have
done better?...
You are still a man hypnotised by the description of the
world For you the world is the truth! He hissed while the irritation
in His voice emerged with greater force When that man told you
that it would have taken three months, you were already defeated.
From that moment on you no longer looked for the tickets.
I tried to break in to protest that But a severe gesture from
the Dreamer froze me in my tracks before I could even open my
mouth.
From that moment you did not look for the tickets but for
every way possible to confirm the worlds description to reinforce
your conviction that that was really how things were, that it was
impossible to succeed Every attempt you made was preceded by
your resignation each time, the no you were convinced you would
hear was already there waiting for you, even before you knocked at
the door to reinforce your prophecy of doom and allow you to
honour the promise you had made to yourself.
What promise? I stammered. A little light was making its
way through my horrible certainties. A glimmer of humility, and
therefore of understanding, made me feel the wretchedness of my
long line of excuses.
The promise of coming before me defeated, but with a claim
of having done everything possible to succeed replied the
Dreamer. He allowed a small pause before pronouncing the words I
would never forget.
Believing what that man said is part of your blind
obedience to the voice of the world. From the moment you accepted
his description, you no longer worked to win but rather to justify
your failure. Its the story of your life a prophecy of defeat.
The whole day flashed before me like the final images in
the eyes of a dying man. Not the temporal sequence of events,
however, but the states of mind, the thoughts and everything I had
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gone through while trying to find those tickets Once again I saw
my lack of faith in my own abilities, that sensation of inadequacy, the
fear of being beaten, the determination to blame the world - which
was so inexplicably hostile - and the others who seemed to be
deliberately withholding those tickets from me, and finally the sense
of guilt. I became aware of this mass of unpleasant emotions which
had pervaded my Being throughout that day. The Dreamers words
were making me confront my habitual attitude. That apparently
banal undertaking had exposed my innermost wounds and revealed
limits which I felt more painfully as I realised their pettiness. The
Dreamers skill had altered the world and put the universe to work so
that I would be able to recognise and overcome them. As I realised
the enormous and unique value of that opportunity, my sadness at not
having succeeded in my task increased. In the tug of war between
reality and its illusory projection, between the Dreamers vision and
the world as it had always been described to me, illusion and non-
existence had won out again. The world was still reality, its hypnotic
power was too strong and the Dreamers presence still too faint.
Yours was not a failure but the result of a failure, the
reflection of an internal fault, a condition of your Being. There are
no failures in life but only effects.
To find those tickets you would have had to change your
past! the Dreamer continued, with a tone reflecting my new attitude.
What had seemed to me to be an over-statement now appeared as the
clearest of all truths.
Had you been able to remain faithful to the Dream you
would have changed your destiny He said, with pitiless sweetness
as though addressing the representative of a permanently defeated
humanity. Then, in a whisper, He added
The sleeping beauty is the dreamer inside you who knows.
He was, I felt that I loved Him more than anything else in the
world I loved the lucidity that I was now experiencing with Him,
and I would have held onto it tooth and nail for fear of losing it
The world of integrity and solutions had said to me: go it is
already done! The world of division, of conflict and complexity,
had told me: its impossible! And I had obeyed the superficial
description of the world, believing and identifying with its lowest
and most miserable part.
The Dream is the most real thing there is. But I constantly
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forgot.
In order to avoid corruption, you would have had to defeat
your scarcity, your victim consciousness and the hypnotic sleep that
makes you into a dependent, fearful, doubting and unhappy Being
The unshakable faith men have in the description of the world is the
source of their fragility, the ultimate explanation for the events in
their lives and the role that each one is assigned in the theatre of
existence
Disease is another one of the worlds lies! We fall ill
because the disease has been described to us, and so we get old
and die, through imitation, without ever questioning the reality of it
all declared the Dreamer. His raised tone of voice and the special
emotion that made His words resonate, indicated that they were no
longer directed only at me but at an immense and invisible audience.
The ordinary man does not dream, he blindly obeys a
hypnotic tale of existence. He has forgotten his uniqueness, his
nature as creator because he does not have access to himself. He
does not know himself! Whatever you dream, happens, and if you
begin to know yourself you will understand why the world is as it is.
Now you know why the world is as it is! Because you dream it so!
Not having enough pages left in my notebook, I wrote these
words on the Savoy menu and, for a few minutes, covered it in dense
notes using all the available space. I was still writing when I saw
Him motion to attract the head waiters attention.
Lets go He instructed bluntly, as He stood up.

13 At the theatre with the Dreamer

As soon as we were outside, we set off on foot. I imagined
that we might have caught a taxi in the street, but the Dreamer
continued accelerating His pace and I followed. It was the first time I
had seen the Dreamer in a hurry. I considered myself fit, and yet
several times I had to speed up to keep pace with Him, and each
time the Dreamer pulled away again, forging ahead. How, when I
ran every day around my island on the East River, when I had taken
part in the most testing of marathons - the Oakland marathon, and
extreme competitions like the Pepsi Trophy in Central Park, when I
had biked for 24 hours non-stop - how did I have such trouble keeping
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up with the Dreamer who seemed to be making no effort at all?
Where were we going? Who was expecting us, so important to
make the Dreamer hurry? I wanted to ask, but never dared, nor
would I have found the breath to do so. Suddenly, with the agility of
a boy, the Dreamer raced and caught up with a bus, an old double-
decker which was leaving just in front of us. I accelerated my pace
but I would not have made it had the Dreamer not stretched out a
hand to drag me aboard. I was still clutching His hand when I looked
into His eyes.
Suddenly I was thrust back into my Neapolitan childhood. I
saw my band of urchins again, our desperate tests of bravery in
Mergellina, the races on the tracks and how we leapt onto the
bumpers of the trams. At the age of 10 one had to be an expert at
this in order to be admitted into that gang of little warriors and share
in their exciting and risky life. One time something went terribly
wrong. Running at breakneck speed I had grabbed the bumper, that
sort of iron buffer at the back, and I was ready to jump on when the
tram accelerated unexpectedly. I didnt dare let go, but I couldnt
jump on either. I felt my desperation grow as my legs began to give
way A slim but strong arm reached out from the back window and
grabbed me by the wrist. At last I jumped and was saved. The eyes of
that young boy, quietly laughing were the same ones they were
His eyes. How many times, in how many different circumstances
had I already encountered the Dreamer? How many times had He
already intervened in my life?
This time my surprise exceeded my ability to disguise it
and, while I recovered my breath, my expression must have seemed
so funny to Him that He felt compelled to reveal at least part of the
mysterious journey.
Were going to the theatre He said in a cheerful manner
that I had never seen before and I wouldnt want to miss the start of
the show tonight.
I imagined we were going to see a play by Samuel Beckett,
Brecht or Chekhov. The only ones for which two tickets might be
available at that time. Unless The explanation dawned on me like a
flash of light. Yes, it could only be this I was suddenly quite
certain of it. And, when I recognised the theatre in the distance, I
had no doubt. What a coup! The Dreamer had made me turn London
inside out and Hed had the tickets in His pocket all the time. When I
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told Him of my discovery He couldnt stop himself from laughing
quite openly.
I dont have any tickets! He said, approaching the door of
the bus and preparing to get off. I was crestfallen. Could it be that
He had not believed me? Might I have failed to convey to Him how
completely impossible it had been to find any sort of seat for that
performance?
Its impossible I said, supporting myself by clinging to a
handle and preparing to get off the bus with Him. We have no
chance of finding a ticket, especially at this time.
The Dreamer silenced me with a gesture of irritation.
Worrying, doubting and suffering are for those who do not
dream, who do not love. These are the daily pursuits of those who
are hypnotised by the world of rationality, the world of superstition
He said, resuming His severe tone They are the symptoms of a
fragmented psychology, manifestations of a fault in the Being which
pre-announces disasters, failures and defeats which are already
underway in the world of events.
Those words gave me a burning sense of shame. In the
theatre of existence I was doomed to the role of the killjoy, typecast
as the rational, consistent man, for whom I had already begun to
feel a certain revulsion, but whom I was unable to abandon.
He got off the bus and I followed. After a few steps I saw the lights of
the foyer sparkle before me and felt the magic atmosphere of a great
theatrical event. There was still a crowd of people in front of the
posters which, against a background depicting a heroic image of the
Parisian insurrection of 1832, showed the revolutionary flag and, in
the forefront, the ragged but undaunted figure of the young hero, the
urchin Gavroche.
The show was about to begin. As I watched the ticket-
seeking crowd finally disperse and noted how many people moved
away disappointed, I suddenly felt that cowardly sense of satisfaction,
that ephemeral triumph enjoyed by easy prophets of doom when they
see their predictions confirmed. Along with this, I also experienced
that consolidation of ones own wretchedness that the rabble, the
mob, feel when they see heroes executed. Suddenly I realised that,
over the centuries, one dark corner of my Being had been the true
culprit of horrible crimes; that from this shadow lurking in a fold of
my soul, wars and atrocities, destruction and immense suffering had
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sprung forth. For a few moments, overcome by a sense of revulsion
and horror at myself, I held my breath observing the true fabric of my
Being through this tear in my consciousness.
In the meantime I had lost sight of the Dreamer. I found Him again
and stayed beside Him, observing the crowd thinning out until
only one couple remained in front of the entrance to the theatre: a
short and stocky middle-aged woman accompanied by a tall,
strapping young lad, who we were later to discover were an
American mother and son who were there waiting for friends. They
were elegant and of noble aspect, with the authoritative and confident
air of those who are in control of their own lives. The young man,
clearly more accustomed to country than city life, was putting up
with the uncomfortable elegance of his bow tie and tuxedo with stoic
dignity but evident affliction.
In his hands he held some tickets.

14 Les Misrables

Once the crowd had dispersed, only we and this couple
remained in the foyer. Our eyes met and I spotted their fleeting look
of reverence towards the Dreamer, an almost inward bow, as occurs
between men and women who recognise that they belong to different
rungs in an invisible hierarchy.
I thought back to all the times when I had seen the world
recognise the Dreamer and, on each occasion, show signs of
respect towards Him, like a plant that senses the presence of and
offers gratitude to he who tends and nourishes its roots.
These reflections reminded me of an episode which had
occurred in New York. I had been with the Dreamer in an elevator
which was stopping at the various floors and filling up with people.
As we got out, the Dreamer made me note that the real difference
between those men and women, their belonging to different levels of
Being, could be visible in their attitude, measured by the greater
or lesser degree of embarrassment they had experienced during that
fragment of eternity elapsing between floors. He explained that in
that elevator a hierarchy had formed amongst the individuals, if only
for a few seconds, without their being aware of it; an invisible
pyramid on the steps of which they had taken up positions
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corresponding to their level of inner responsibility.

Wherever they meet, for a few seconds or years,
men will arrange themselves on the different levels
of an invisible pyramid respecting an inner, mathematical order,
like planetary hierarchies made of light,
orbits, mass and distance from their sun.
There are degrees and levels of Being.
It is a universal law.

We struck up a conversation with the American couple
and they told us that, curiously, their friends had not yet arrived.
As we chatted I noticed that the womans expression was changing
and I watched her become increasingly relaxed, serene and almost
euphoric. The show was about to start and there was no longer any
point in waiting. Turning to the Dreamer with a broad smile which
revealed how she was not at all unhappy with the change of plan, the
woman invited us to go into the theatre with them. They had the best
seats in the house, which they had reserved even before leaving the
US. All my attempts to offer them the price of the tickets were met
with a polite but firm refusal. We were their guests.
I would never get used to that indefinable sense of the
miraculous that constantly hovered around the Dreamer. I would have
liked to have said something to Him, to apologise for my skepticism,
but the Dreamer did not even glance at me, so apparently deep in
conversation was He with the woman who was now going into the
auditorium with Him, resting her hand lightly upon His arm.
How had it been possible for the tickets to have been there
waiting for us? I felt I was losing my mind: had the American couple,
their friends delay, even their entire trip to Europe, all been created
by the Dreamer, materialised by Him at that moment, there, before
my very eyes? His mastery was permanently overturning my vision
of the world.
When we were comfortably ensconced in our front row seats
and as the lights went down, I heard Him whisper in my ear:
Seeing and believing are one and the same thing. In time
you will see everything you believe in and you will realise everything
that you dream.
In the half-light of the theatre, those barely whispered words
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evoked the magic of an ancient chorus and I felt my soul rise. I sensed
the purity and freedom that herald the advent of the healing solution;
the alchemy of catharsis which the ancient tragedies elicited in their
audiences; the denouement unfolding according to the principles of
justice.
To believe you must be impeccable and whole. The smallest f
law in your Being, the merest shadow of a doubt, will cause you to
be cast back among the ranks of the defeated and the mortal, with
those billions of beings who have given up their rights as authors of
their own destinies, trapped in the hell of those who need to see in
order to believe
The Dreamer had been preparing me for a long time and yet,
a direct experience of the fact that the world is created by us, was
making me falter on the edge of a crevasse.

Every man is a creator
The world is a chewing gum
Whatever you dream happens

I understood that humanity suffers because it sees the world
upside down. Believing and seeing are one and the same thing; but
men perceive them as separate, divided by time, and they wait to
see in order to believe. Pain and suffering exist because they are the
only ways in which humanity knows how to bridge this illusory gap.
When believing and seeing merge in a man, he is then also able to
eliminate pain and suffering from his life, banishing them forever
from his personal universe.
Believing in order to see: this is the law of the creator
continued the Dreamer.
It is the principle of those who rule; it is the ineluctable law of
kings He said as the curtain began to rise Believing belongs to the
Art of Dreaming and is the intimate quality of the Dreamer In the
roots of cre-do and cre-ed, there is cre-ation The dream is the
most real thing there is
His voice became even softer until it was hardly more than a
murmur. I had trouble making out His words but I could distinctly
sense the severity of His intimation. Referring to the story of Les
Misrables, He said:
Pay attention. Beyond its nineteenth century pathos, this
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story contains an important lesson about the Antagonist It is a
universal parable applicable to all humanity. It is the story of a man
who doesnt know how to forgive himself inside just like you!
Les Misrables was the musical version of the story of an
implacable antagonism: the search carried out over many years by a
policeman with an uncompromising sense of duty, the fanatical Javert,
to enforce an unjust sentence on the escaped convict Jean Valjean
who had been condemned to 20 years in prison and subsequently
to life, for having stolen a piece of bread. In the story, the wanted
man, Jean Valjean, comes to symbolise generosity, the goodness of
the humiliated individual, brutalised by societys injustice and the
mercilessness of its laws. In the background, we see the glorious
and desperate epic of an entire nation, the life of the Paris slums, the
insurrection of 1832 and the battle of Waterloo.
I knew that story. My father Giuseppe used to tell it when I
was a child and I still had a vivid recollection of how moved he
became every time he reached the part where Jean Valjean finally
releases himself from the pursuit of the fanatic Javert, but instead
of leaving his tormentor to die, against all reason he saves his life.
The generosity of this act so disrupts the policemans rigid vision
of the world that, once his most deep-rooted beliefs about good and
evil have been overthrown, unable to live with his old values he kills
himself.
Javert/Valjean, even the names sound similar They are
the same person the Dreamer revealed to me later When he finally
forgives himself inside when he saves Javerts life and thus brings
the opposites within himself into harmony, only then is he ready for
a more intelligent and powerful Antagonist. Once understood and
overcome, the old Antagonist no longer has any reason to exist, so
he disappears he commits suicide. In reality he had never existed
except as the materialisation of a shadow, an incompleteness of his
Being
These words of the Dreamers timeless teachings
reverberated powerfully and found resonance in every atom of my
Being.
The only enemy is within you! Outside there is no enemy to
blame or forgive and no ill that can harm you Do not fear the
Antagonist. He is your greatest ally. He is the one who will show
you the shortest path to success. His one and only purpose is your
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victory.
When the lights came up again, the Dreamer had gone and I
spent the rest of the evening with our new American friends
but my thoughts turned to the Dreamer and His extraordinary
lesson. From the darkest ages, since the time when the first spark
of thought crossed mans consciousness, there have been seekers of
truth and schools of Being, schools of inner preparation. The school
of Pythagoras, Plutarch, Platos Academy, Aristotles Lyceum,
early Christianity and all the greatest schools of classical antiquity
were forges of the spirit and found their highest expression in the
Dreamer, the very reason for their existence and the continuation of
their mission.

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CHAPTER V

Goodbye to New York

1 On the streets of Manhattan

The headquarters of ACO occupied an elegant nine-
storey building, a jewel of marble and stainless steel set amidst the
skyscrapers of Park Avenue. From Roosevelt Island I could reach
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St by aerial tramway in four minutes, and would then walk the
last few blocks through the pulsing heart of Manhattan. Along the
way, an immense crowd of people swept me along the streets and
sidewalks, like a river whose banks were buildings with thousands
of glass eyes.
A few weeks had passed since our last encounter, but His
words, like a precious living substance, were still working their
mysterious power over me. I felt them turning into glands, tissue and
organs. Everything was beginning to get clearer. Humanity, which
until then I had perceived as an indiscriminate mass, now appeared
to be composed of different colours, energies and frequencies.
Observing the people around me through the eyes of the Dreamer, I
realised that every minute detail revealed the position that each one
of us occupied on the ladder of Being, and the roles we were to play
in the world.

Everything is connected to everything else.
Nothing is separate.

As I walked, I sensed that multitude breathing along with
me, as if we were one single immense Being. I could sense their
fears. I could feel their moods and hear their thoughts, and I observed
how faithfully they revealed themselves through their clothes, their
attitudes, their gait and the work that awaited them and towards
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which they hurried. Their vision and aspirations were as limited as
the roles into which existence had meticulously confined them.

Our level of Being creates our life and not vice versa.

I held these words of His close to my chest like a talisman as
I made my way through that sea of humanity to which I had never
previously realised that I belonged. I heard the song of sorrow coming
from each one of these people. For the first time I was listening to
the ceaseless inner monologue of a humanity who doesnt know and I
felt its painful solitude as I passed by. I heard the buzzing of that
swarm, like the sound of millions of insect wings. Before I met
the Dreamer I used to like the feeling of belonging, and I loved this
city. Id adopted all its rituals. I would dive into the most crowded
street fairs and wait in line for tickets to the most popular shows.
Working in a big corporation, living with millions of other people in
a metropolis and rubbing shoulders with thousands of strangers had
always given me a sense of security.
Now a new lucidity was eliminating every trace of
compromise. I saw them, and through them, as if in a distorting
mirror, I saw myself. I recognised the common condition of Beings
imprisoned in a role; tragicomic masks marked by a perpetual
grimace of pain that remained the same, even when they laughed;
machines activated in their sleep by pitiable fantasies and futile
desires.
From the Dreamer I had learned that others are nothing
but our own inventions. All these men and women were myself. I
was lost in a hall of mirrors! Reflected to infinity, fragmented into
thousands of images that were all, painfully, still myself. And as I
walked, I observed the dribble of emotions, the trail of thoughts that
every human leaves behind him like the luminous slime of a giant
snail. I too was one of these distracted beings passing by, sealed in a
bubble of worry and self-interest. I was a droplet in that Stygian river
of oblivion, flowing past the skyscrapers, invading the streets and
wending its way towards its mortal destiny. Only one thing set
me apart. I had met the Dreamer. Now I knew that there was a
revolution to be made, and with His help I was taking my first steps
in that direction.
Not one in a thousand faces was looking up at the sky. In
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vain I searched for signs of life, for a single face with an expression
of gratitude for being a human being here in this world, for being a
part of this marvellous universe. In vain I hoped for the mirror of my
attention to be misted by the warm breath of another being gasping
for life.
The enchanted vision came back in flashes; a child, clinging
tightly to Giusepponas side, captivated by the great kaleidoscopic
circus of the world. Then, as now, I would look around me to see
if I could find some playmates in that game. But Manhattan had as
many children as Herods kingdom.
One snowy morning, I noticed a young black man who was
slim and well dressed with a European look about him. A special light
made him stand out in the crowd. Snowflakes had settled on the halo
of curls framing his face, as on the surrounding hedges in Central
Park. We only had time to exchange a smile as we passed each other,
but I had the impression that he too knew and that he recognised
me. It was a fleeting sensation, but for that moment I entertained the
hope that I was not alone in that huge city, that amongst all those
sleepwalkers, within the torpor of that inert humanity, there might be
some pulsating corpuscles, some living cells.
Since the Dreamer had opened my eyes to the fact that
employment was, in effect, a modern form of slavery, that army of
men and women going to work appeared to me like a horde of insects,
driven by blind instinct. Every morning I saw them crowd into
entire floors of skyscrapers, occupying millions of cells cramped as
honeycombs, and fill them with the sound of their buzzing. Within
their glands, they carried a sort of life in the form of a thick sludge:
a heavy burden of dark thoughts and a dense syrup of emotions.
And while I too made my way towards my little cell, I thought of the
infinite number of people on this planet, destined to spend the better
part of their life working for organisations, just as I was; selling
themselves out for a pay cheque.
I asked myself what might be the evolutionary purpose of the
travail of so many people locked into the cages of their hypnotic
roles, and where all their efforts were leading them. Whether inside
organisations or outside of them, wherever I looked I saw men in the
grip of fear. In them I recognised my own anxieties and unhappiness,
and under the thin film of apparent rationality I saw the conflictual
logic, the destructive thinking and that death urge relentlessly driving
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us to hurt first ourselves and then those around us. Under layers of
centuries old emotional sediment, I recognised an inner pollution
produced by anxiety, doubt and insecurity, as well as by an unlimited
fear of both living and dying. I was sliding into a feeling of absolute
terror at the thought that without the Dreamer, I would have gone
back to join this multitude of the living dead.

Once I asked Him what He meant by ordinary or
horizontal men, as He often called them.
They are the men and women who study, teach, and work
who have children and raise them who plan and build roads and
skyscrapers, write books, found churches, have jobs in private and
public life, even at the highest level, was His unforgettable response,
and all in a state of hypnosis. After a studied pause for suspense,
He added:
They grope their way around in their sleep, permanently
sealed in a bubble of oblivion and unhappiness.
When I remembered these words and felt this overshadowing
destiny, always ready to suck me back in, my Being clenched into a
fist in one single immense desire to avoid this fate, to cut through the
bars of this prison and escape.
Once you have seen through the game you can no longer
take part in it, the Dreamer revealed, and I felt that, no matter how
painful it might be to overturn the ordinary vision of the world, my
life was changing and it would be impossible for me to go back.
Now I knew that it was indeed possible to take possession of ones
destiny and at last I felt that I could contain and control my existence.
That corporate business world that had always fascinated me with
its merciless practicality, and everything I had been working at for
years: career, success, family and money, were now all taking on a
new meaning. Even New York, which I had so loved and desired,
now often appeared to be like a papier-mach world; as noisy and
pointless as a circus, with the same intense smell of dusty poverty
and vagabondage.
For the Dreamer, the physical universe - meaning everything
outside ourselves, from insects to galaxies, both the visible world
and that which we cannot see or touch - was the microcosm, and the
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In the microcosm, everything is slow.
There are obstacles, limits and priorities which must be respected
It is the domain of Time where men proceed in single file
and where it is impossible to break free and pass beyond.
Dedicate yourself to your Being
Only within yourself, with your eyes shut,
will you be able to fly and dream
lift yourself above the plain of ordinariness and go beyond.
Real action comes about through not doing
If you lose one millimetre of ignorance,
you will feel a quaking of the foundations of business and finance,
with their pyramids and temples,
and armies of slaves and high priests.

Poised as I was on the edge of this world, I stared with eyes
wide open at what was to come and my position within it. I would
have liked to have held onto that vision, to sustain this marvellous
and terrible state of detachment which was making it possible for me
to see. I feared I could lose it at any moment and be swallowed up
once more by the machine of the world and sucked into its vortex.
I was sure that if I had been able to maintain that state of
detachment for even just a little longer, I would have finally become
a stranger to that world, like a termite removed for two days from the
hypnotic influence of its mound.

To change the nature of events we have to change our vision. One
day the material universe will become our masterpiece,
the mirror image of our rediscovered will,
the perfect materialisation of the Art of Dreaming.

The constant memory of the Dreamers teachings, my own work
of self-observation and study, my experiments with diet, breathing
and sleep, my regular morning runs and the other physical exercises
and silence, were cracking open the cocoon which had confined me,
and the light of a new existence was already filtering through that
crack.

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2 The Tools of Dreaming

For days Jennifer acted as though she hadnt noticed anything
happening. On hearing the sound of the alarm calling me for my
morning run, at first she did no more than roll over and continue
sleeping. In her view it was simply a case of waiting for laziness and
old habits to take hold of me once more, like a game bird in the jaws
of a retriever, so I tried to explain. Without mentioning the Dreamer, I
tried to make her understand something of the revolution that had
exploded within me and the invisible world into which I was taking
my first difficult steps. It was all in vain.
I accelerated. The faster I went, the more time became
compressed. It was incredible how much I was able to accomplish in
that hour and how much more I could fit into it. The faster I became,
the more energy I had and the more I was able to do in furthering the
research which had become the main focus of my life. As I got faster
at running and even ordinary tasks, I began to steal time from time
itself. Miraculously, that hour in the morning expanded and, with
it, so did the work I was doing on myself. In the end, a moment of
reflection on some thought of His which I chose from my ever-present
notebook, occupied the last minutes of my hour and connected me
with the Dreamer, providing me with guidance, a viaticum for the
day ahead.
For the Dreamer, living in the moment was the most precious
thing in a mans life and I strove to focus on the here and now,
trying to make this discipline my constant practice.

Step out of the time dimension
as much as possible in your everyday life.
Self observation is the cure
The moment you realise that you are not present,
you are present.

Every morning, I forced myself to not be distracted from the
moment and to maintain this special chemistry of attention for at
least part of the day. Unfortunately, as soon as I re-entered my slot
in the usual work day routine I would lose my resolve, falling prey to
a thousand thoughts. J ust like a dam giving way, as my state of
vigilance slackened, worry, anxiety and negative imagination all
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attacked me, reducing me to the size of a midget. Only occasionally,
as if waking up from a nightmare, I would find that I had become
a kind of colander. A thousand wounds in my Being were letting my
life seep out.

Through self observation,
a man enters the darkest corners of his Being.
Only then will there be a true transformation,
only then will he find the real meaning of his existence.

Through self observation and running, I discovered the
connection that exists between body, emotions and thoughts. It is
impossible to be gnawed by worry or ill humour if the physical part
of your Being is pushed to a higher speed. The lowest states of Being
can only exist by indulging in the densest, slowest levels of existence.
Our way of thinking and the quality of our emotions, in turn,
inevitably produce an effect upon the physical being. A deliberate
effort to lighten ones thoughts or transform an emotion can modify
a condition with electronic speed, and even affect physical features.
Thoughts, feelings and the physical condition were turning
out to be a single universe made of concentric, interactive worlds,
where the same events propagate their effects at enormously different
times and speeds. I began to realise just how complex the work of
understanding and change would have been if I had started with the
more subtle and quicker parts of Being, rather than acting upon the
physical body.

If you raise your bodys vibration,
the entire world will be elevated to a frequency
where every strife, division, and war will disappear,
and only harmony, beauty, and truth will exist.
Erase limitations from within.
Put forth the command that you are the very cause
of all and everything,
and flood the universe with your inner light of life and power.

Running also forced me to pay attention to my breathing.
Although it is the life function which is the most vital and with which
we most closely identify, we are only rarely aware of it. Breathing
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accompanies every activity of our lives, and follows the rhythm
of our thoughts, modulating itself according to the intensity of our
emotions and physical effort, connecting every fibre of our Being
and our most vital centres. But we spend our lives breathing in a way
which is shallow and superficial, rarely expressing any gratitude for
it and acknowledging the debt that we incurred with our very first
breath.
One day you will know how to transform the world and
raise your level of responsibility, through the tools of dreaming:
thought and breath.
The world models itself according to your level of
responsibility He said, penetrating the whirlwind of my thoughts,
while the magic of this discovery made me soar The depth of a
mans breathing corresponds to his level of responsibility and
determines everything that he can own and do You can possess
only what you are responsible for.
Through the Dreamers words, the balance that exists
between being and having was revealing itself to be the fundamental
principle that explained the world. The implications of this discovery
were so great that I was left breathless every time I witnessed another
demonstration of its universality. The equation drawn between
riches and responsibility, between financial power and Being, also
indicated the limits of what could be bestowed or entrusted to a man
and the measure of what he could possess, understand and contain.
One day I would pass these lessons on to my students, demonstrating
how all this applied to organisations, nations and entire civilisations.
Even in the animal world, a sort of ethology of having
assigned deadly jaws and claws to those animals with a more
developed nervous system and progressively less powerful weapons
to those lower down the scale. Nature would never give a turtle
dove, which kills its enemy by pecking its feathers off, the claws or
strength of a lion, which has the ethics of the most honourable hunter
and lives in symbiosis, poised in a perfect reciprocal advantage, with
its prey.
No animal, human being or even organisation can have
means of defense, weapons and, in general, offensive power beyond
their responsibility and capacity of control.

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3 The lie

With every passing day, my speed and resistance increased,
and with this came a certain lightness of Being. In this way I learned
to love that effort and bless its presence within myself. I continued
to work on the other areas the Dreamer had indicated to me, trying
to apply His principles to my own life as much as possible. More
than a few times I misunderstood His lessons and often failed in my
attempts to apply them. For a while I tried extreme sports in the belief
that this might help me to develop courage and self-confidence.
Do not seek certainties outside yourself or in the eyes of
others. Do not feign courage the Dreamer said to me one day
Real courage is the victory over your own lie. Leave these sports
and risky ventures to those who love their own fear and to those
who depend upon it. These risks serve only to reinforce such fears.
Someone, a liar like you, is now breathing through an iron lung,
tragic emblem of a mendacious humanity.
Instantly I thought of A.F., the Italian explorer I had met a
few months before his accident. I remembered the Dreamer saying
that he would be killed by his lie, by having risen to meet false
challenges instead of facing his inner ones.
If you want to expand your life, you need not expose
yourself to extreme experiences Expand your vision, ideas and
thoughts through the power of earnestness and sincerity, and there
will be no battle you will not win.
The reason why many people practice extreme sports and
embark on very high risk ventures is because danger forces them
into states of great intensity where they feel more alive, freed from
time and the weight of the world. When one second of distraction can
mean the difference between life and death, it is no longer possible
to do anything other than experience the present moment. But this
condition is artificial and creates a state of dependency. You escape
from one form of hypnotism only to enslave yourself to another.

One day you wont need to challenge oceans
or practice daredevil f lying in order to conquer your fears.
Once the lie is gone you will enter into
the powerful state of Nowness, simply and easily.
Because living in the here and now
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is the only natural, heroic, and immortal state of man.
Only in the Now one can be Immortal, and the Now is forever!
Remember! All happens here,
in this everlasting Instant, in this everlasting body.
All that you are Now paradoxically creates
all that you have always been and all that you always will be.
Focus all your attention on Now
and nothing will ever be impossible to you.
Now is the seed of the universe.
All possibilities lie in Now.

For the Dreamer, indulging in memories of the past or
imagining what the future would bring was the root cause of all our
problems.
Soon I began to see the fruits of my efforts. I developed a
clearer vision and a vigilant spirit, which revealed previously
invisible worlds and allowed me to make simple yet revolutionary
discoveries. Seeing the ever increasing number of obese people and
the way this phenomenon was expanding, not only in New York and
the rest of America but also to a large part of the Western world, I
asked the Dreamer for an explanation.
The lie hides behind many masks He said. Obesity is
one of these. Behind the macabre expression of the jollity and
ostentatious generosity so often found in fat people, hides their
renunciation of life, their attempts at suicide.
The monstrous transformation of their bodies is only the
most crude reflection, the aggravated symptom of a psychological
malnutrition. Stuffing oneself with vast quantities of junk food and
consuming food which is not nutritious or is excessively loaded with
calories, is merely the effect of a diseased Being.
When I drew the Dreamers attention to the fact that in America
obese people now represented more than half of the population of the
country, He said:
It is the sign of a weakening of the will of an entire nation. A
civilisation which is addicted to food is one that is bent on self-
destruction. Even its economy, like a shadow of its Being, reflects
this dependency, this overshadowing of its will. In just a short time it
will weaken and be swallowed up by fitter predators, by civilisations
of greater integrity. Your physical destiny is intimately related to
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your mental, emotional, and financial destiny.
Along with my increased vitality I felt a growing sense of
community, an inclination to do things for others, for those I
perceived as trapped in a dead end existence. It was something I had
never felt before; a kind of compassion for those creatures I saw as
permanently drowning in anxiety.
Stop indulging! He shouted at me once, striking me to the
core with his words of fire your self-pity perversely borrows the
human condition as a pretext to hide behind and perpetuate itself.
Your vanity makes you believe that you are healed and ready to help
others The only thing you can really do to help the world is to wake
up from your nightmare. Stop believing that the world needs your
help. Stop believing that the world is a helpless victim. Stop
believing that the world is a separate reality.
Only much later would I understand the meaning of those
words and open my eyes to the falseness hiding behind altruism and
every form of charity fostered by institutions that live off peoples
sense of guilt.
These are organisations that only exist to perpetuate
themselves snarled the Dreamer They specialise in obtaining
funds and gathering resources which they then misspend and
squander, barely managing to even support themselves. If you lift the
smoke-screen surrounding philanthropy in its every form, you might
discover that behind the suffragists and the Salvation Armies, behind
medical and pharmaceutical aid and the distribution of food, hides
the most ferocious organised crime and the most intense activity
against man
Dont waste your time in commiseration or sanctimony.
No one can do anything for anybody. Its up to them to seize the
opportunity. Everything happens for a reason, and a purpose, and
it serves you. He who has not defeated the lie within himself, he who
is unaware of the self-sabotage that continually goes on within him,
cannot do anything for anyone.
Man dies because he lies was the motto the Dreamer
coined at the conclusion of His discourse, as a summary of this
essentially human drama: the lie. Man dies because he lies and
above all to himself.

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4 Goodbye to New York

One day I found myself singing in the shower. That was
imprudent of me. The Dreamer had warned me that there were
guards in our inner prisons watching over us and that it was the
people closest to us, our nearest and dearest, who were the most
watchful and implacable jailers. That signal which I had carelessly
sent out, that carefree manifestation of cheerfulness, gave Jennifer
the proof she needed that my bid for freedom had been underway
for weeks. She connected it with my new eating habits, the fact that I
had gone back to my correct weight and the improvement in my
muscle tone and skin, in addition to my reading, clothes and general
appearance; at this point she took action.
She tried everything she could to get me back inside my old
boundaries, but my escape was already well underway. Other cages,
other more insidious traps, certainly awaited me. But not these.
For weeks now we had not been arguing anymore.
Making accusations, shouting or sulking in order to make up again
and pretend to still be in love, had all been expedients to fill the
emptiness in our relationship and our lives; they were ways to keep
us clinging to one another, locked in a hell of falsity and boredom.
The attempt to recreate a family with Jennifer, after Luisas death,
was built upon the shifting sands of our immaturity, and it required
continuous compromise to stop it from falling apart. Now, even this
fake equilibrium had collapsed forever. Nothing worked any more.
The menthol smoke of her St. Moritz cigarettes and the bright colour
of her lipstick no longer had any part in the world that I was dreaming
and that was beginning to take shape. It was in this atmosphere that
on Columbus Day, she packed up her belongings (or, more accurately,
she emptied the apartment of most of its contents) and went back to
her parents house in New Jersey. Goodbye, Jennifer. I would never
see her again. At last I was starting a new chapter in my life.
When Giuseppona came home with the children and saw the
bare apartment, she was concerned about one thing only. From a
hidden corner in the kitchen, with a hand over her heart and a great
sigh of relief, she retrieved her old Neapolitan coffee pot and kissed
it with ostentatious veneration. It was the only object she could not
have borne to part with, and she had wisely hidden it. She filled it
with freshly ground coffee and put it on the stove, then, with the
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ironic solemnity of an ancient oracle, said, She wasnt right for you
anyway! The choice of those words the recurring epilogue of
my adolescent heartbreaks - and her tone of voice formed a comic
epitaph, that united my family in one long, joyful burst of laughter.
The lightness and fragrance of that moment fused with the aroma of
the coffee, and I could never have asked for or imagined a better or
more auspicious new beginning.
The separation from Jennifer signified my simultaneous death and
rebirth. It had required the elimination of just one atom of fear. I
had believed I loved that woman, but what I had really loved was
my suffering and pain, which by this time had become so familiar
that they no longer hurt. I could never have made it alone.

No one can make it alone.

To abandon old ways of thinking, obsolete ideas, prejudices,
superstitions and compromises like those which had tyrannically
governed my existence, one needs a School; a system, a plan
of escape. One needs to meet someone who has already made it.
Somebody who, before us, has realised that he has been imprisoned
by a hypnotic tale, a description of the world, and then escaped
from it. I wish that every man could encounter the Dreamer and I
offer all my gratitude to Him. Only those who are forced to face
their own horror and can bear to contemplate their impotence and
incompleteness, can succeed.
I am writing to tell you that the Dreamer exists and that He
is the most real Being that I have ever encountered. His timeless,
impeccable world is more alive and concrete than ours, and it is
accessible. The way is hard but passable; it is a path towards beauty,
truth and happiness; a new and swifter route to more fabulous Indies.
Something invisible and powerful, yet available to every man, had
put into motion a marvellous mechanism.

The slightest change in ones Being
moves mountains in the world of events.

I heard a winch groaning, straining under the weight of the
anchor, hauling it out of the slime of a long imprisonment in the muddy
depths. At the other end of this voyage was not a small archipelago
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of islands but a huge psychological continent as yet unexplored. I
held my breath between fright and joy, like a child about to ride on a
rollercoaster. Once more I sent a thought of gratitude to the Dreamer
and fervently hoped to see Him again soon.
That day, Giuseppona and I went shopping with the children
for the most necessary supplies and in the evening we all went to
dinner at Mama Leones, happier and closer than we had been for
some time.
With Jennifer gone, New York was leaving us too, and
through a number of signs I perceived that the changes that had taken
place in my life were only the beginning and that there were many
more ahead of me.

To depend upon a job,
you have had to sing a song of sorrow for years,
you have had to give up your freedom,
sending out signals of your decline and impotence;
believing you were protecting yourself,
you reinforced your ability to forget and set limits upon yourself.
Now you have to go back to regain your freedom.
It is a long process of elimination,
of simplification, of lightening your Being.
Dance, dance, dance and never stop!...
Celebrate your existence, and love yourself inside!...
Observe yourself! Pay attention to your Being!...
You will see that everything that is real in your life will remain,
and everything that is illusory will leave you forever.

The Dreamer had called all this the Art of Dreaming.

I was doing my utmost to follow His teachings. I was in
perfect physical shape. A frugal diet, breathing exercises, the battle
against sleep, and, above all, vigilance and self-observation were
producing extraordinary results. Simply turning my thoughts towards
the Dreamer gave me access to a new intelligence. At the end of the
working day, if I had time, I would take the train to City Island to
sail along Eastchester Bay. Id listen to the voice of the ocean and the
breath of the wind beating the jib of the Flying Dutchman, and I felt
closer to Him. Self observation, an honest look at my states of Being,
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a higher sense of dignity and a new feeling of self confidence were
all bringing about changes in my life that only a few weeks earlier I
would have considered impossible.
One morning, Mr. Keenan, the head of personnel at ACO,
rushed into my office unannounced. He sat in the chair in front of
my desk and looked at me for a long time in a knowing way without
saying anything. He reminded me of a gambler who had just placed a
bet and was waiting for the outcome. I took the result of his inspection
to be a positive one, as gradually his expression changed and a smile
spread over his face replacing his initial inquisitorial frown. ACO
needed to set up a commercial network in the Middle East. This
operation would take two, maybe three years of intense work and
the operational base would be the foreign sales office of the Italian
subsidiary, located in a small city in northwest Italy.
Mr. Keenan warned me right away that I should not harbour
any illusions of settling down there. You will spend more time in
the air and in hotels than at home with your children, he declared in
a prophetically ironic tone. At the end of this meeting he said that I
should be ready to leave within a few days. Without waiting for any
response, he pushed some documents for me to sign across the desk.
When youve finished this assignment, I want you back here on
the team, he said, with the hard ball players!

During that period, to reconnect with the Dreamers
teachings, I resumed my reading of the masterpieces of modern
and classical thought and all the other books on philosophy I could
find. I used to love them, but now they bored me to death. Often I
would abandon them after just a few pages, and despite all my
efforts, I could not discern a single spark of His intelligence or
pragmatism in any philosophy, moral doctrine or religious thought.
In no traditional wisdom or theory of ethics was I able to find even
the most distant echo of anything I had experienced with Him. In
vain I hunted through the books I had accumulated in my lifetime,
for an idea, or something that came close to that precious substance,
to that alchemy, which was always present when the Dreamer was
there. I had wasted so many years on pointlessness! The books I
had worshipped were revealing themselves to be masterpieces of
stupidity and superficiality, written by people who were enveloped in
the same insecurities and fears as their readers; not in one single
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page did I find even a pale reflection of the power that I had felt in
His words.

Knowledge is an inalienable asset
which you have always had It is already within you.
Like happiness, prosperity, free will, unity of Being
and whatever you seek, be it God or money, knowledge
cannot come from outside.
No one can give it to you It can only be remembered.

The Dreamers words reminded me of the story of the man
who finds a treasure and then sells everything he has to buy the land
where it is buried It is the story of one who re-members an object
of real value and barters a sour description of the world, with all its
limits, pain and ignorance for a real treasure that will neither rust nor
decay, which cannot be stolen or lost but can only be buried and
forgotten.

5 Love doesnt depend

Back in Italy, I rented an apartment in Talponia, a
subterranean residence conceived in the flank of a small hill just a
short walk from the headquarters of ACO, the giant midget of the
robotics industry. Until now I had only worked alone or as a member
of a small team, and almost always in a foreign country, but for the
first time I now found myself working in an office complex, an
industrial area with laboratories and factories, populated with
thousands of workers. The central building was like the body of
an animal. I could feel it breathing and sense the life pulsing in its
gigantic arteries. In its turn this creature had perceived my intrusion,
and day after day it attended to my assimilation. I flowed in its veins
together with thousands of other cells, filtered by its immense organs
and screened by its metabolic processes.
J ust as Mr. Keenan had said, my new job kept me away
from my home and children for the greater part of my time, requiring
frequent trips and long periods spent in countries throughout the
Middle East. Between one trip and the next, I had made various
attempts to blend into the organisation, and many times I tried to
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participate in the rituals of the employees who lived within its folds. I
had tried to learn their habits, to adopt their ways of speaking and
tried to interpret their codes, but my efforts did not meet with much
success.
The teachings received from the Dreamer and the vision He
had transmitted to me regarding the real conditions of working as
an employee, assisted by the intermittent nature of my presence in
Italy, allowed me to remain sufficiently alien to these environments
and observe the life of that teeming population almost with the
detachment of an entomologist. My observations led me to identify a
kind of psychological pollution within human organisations, which I
had first heard the Dreamer mentioning, and which, up to now,
had eluded any form of scientific investigation. In fact I had never
found any reference to this in any text. It is the result of an incessant
flow of unpleasant emotions, fear, envy, jealousy, mean thoughts
and futile discussions which poison the atmosphere of organisations,
producing sickness and causing incalculable damage to the minds
and bodies of millions of men and women. Years later, right here at
the ACO, I would investigate this phenomenon in greater depth. In
the meantime, my discoveries in the area of psychological pollution
allowed me to develop reflections on the nature of organisations and
the implications of subordinate work, which I had started in New
York with the Dreamer.

Being an employee is neither the effect of a contract,
a position in an organisational hierarchy nor a social status
It is the effect of belonging to a low rung on the ladder of Being.

This had been my first, and one of the most disturbing
lessons I had received from Him.

A man is dependent because of a low level of responsibility
Being an employee is only the reflection
of an inner condition of slavery.

The revelation that employment was a modern form of
slavery had rocked the foundations of my description of the world.
His words had found a place in my consciousness that was almost
physical and they remained lodged there like material that was
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difficult to metabolise, but at the same time impossible to expel.

Love doesnt depend
Love and freedom are one
One day you will realise that you are
the artisan and not the artefact,
you are the dreamer and not the dreamed;
the creator, not the creation
Everything is at your service.
Then you will no longer be dependent!...
The world is such because you are such and not vice versa.

Suddenly, the business world that I had so desired to belong
to, that had captivated my imagination since childhood, was being
revealed to me as nothing other than a huge prison camp, with its
corporations like a vast network of penitentiaries as large as the
planet itself. To escape and break free! That was the only reasonable
thing for a man to do. A file to wear away the bars of his prison
window and a good escape plan were his only true assets. These
reflections certainly did not help me adapt to my new environment.
My fears about the future at that time took the form of a recurring
vision of an abyss ready to swallow me up.
I did nothing specific about my predicament, but little by
little I began to skip my morning run and stopped reading His words.

6 Dream and Serve

One day I received a small card from the Director of Human
Resources accompanied by an instruction to stamp it every time I
arrived or left work, and whenever I needed to leave or return to
the Main Building. It was a new rule, that extended the existing
procedures for monitoring the employees to include the directors and
those like me who had spent most of their time working abroad, up
till now enjoying a greater freedom of movement.
I made several attempts to comply with this new regulation,
which miserably infringed on the last vestige of independence I had
in my role as an employee. Numerous times I lined up along with the
others, in one of the many queues that formed in the hall where the
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procedure as if it were the most natural thing in the world. Cards in
hands, they chatted, smoked and laughed, while waiting their turn to
stamp them. But on each occasion when I reached the machine I was
overcome by a sudden feeling of intolerable shame, and I would leave
without stamping my card. With some modicum of dignity restored,
the words of the Dreamer came back to inspire me and I felt them
resonating inside me, strong and alive. For a few minutes my desire
to live a life of freedom and happiness and the vision of a successful
existence, grew vivid again, like a memory of the future.

Be free, be independent. Be a rebel!
A rebel is not dependent on anyone and he respects his uniqueness.
His only purpose is to fulfill his Dream
This is what he dedicates his life to, and every atom of his energy.
One cannot dream and be dependent on someone or something else.
One can dream, and serve. Serving does not mean depending
Serving means governing your own life, and that of others
it is the act of one who loves.
Only those who love can serve.
Those who do not love can only depend!

But it was only a short time before negative imagination took over
again. Fearful thoughts of a future without this job made me go
backwards, reducing me to a microscopic being. Fear took on a
thousand masks and my concerns about the future camouflaged
themselves as good sense and responsibility towards my family and
my children, so after a few days I found myself back in that line in
front of the timekeeping machine, with no other desire other than
to be like everyone else. I would have given anything to be able to
escape my limbo and go back once more to take my place among that
multitude, to share their thoughts, accept their anxiety and even their
pain and to forget.
One morning, while I was facing the inner atrium from
one of the top floors of ACO, I observed the spiral formed by the
white marble staircase going down to the centre of the lobby where
an uninterrupted flow of men and women were waiting in line to
stamp their time cards before continuing into the lunch room. I had a
sudden, absurd thought. I was absolutely sure that every one of those
women and men had met the Dreamer. Even if only for an instant, all
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of them had at a certain moment in their lives been given access to
the world of the Dreamer. I realised that every cell of this crowd had
encountered the School and turned it down. I saw them swarming
about in this vortex. In the uniformity and mediocrity of their lives, I
recognised my own life when I was far from the Dreamer.

Conformity is mediocrity

I felt an irresistible urge to go down there and question them,
shake them and ask what had happened to their dreams, what had
happened to the Dreamer. They would have thought me mad. These
people had forgotten, choosing instead to yield and depend, to suffer,
grow old and die. And I was racing towards the same precipice.
You cannot dream and be dependent. The Dreamers
words echoed within me like a hymn of salvation. A spark of that
intelligence was still reaching me

7 A second-hand future

My moments of lucidity became increasingly infrequent.
As the luminous threads that tied me to the Dreamer relaxed their
hold or even broke completely, I quickly rebuilt the world I had
always known, in every minute detail. Nestled among some houses,
in a small town by the lakes at the foot of an immense glacier
topped mountain, I found an old villa for sale and bought it with my
American savings. I dedicated myself to the task of restoring it and
making it enough of a home so that I could leave Talponia and move
there with the children.
Soon Gretchen arrived, a young divorcee I had met in
my last few weeks in New York, bringing with her her five year
old son Tony. Once again, I had made a home. After Luisella and
the end of the affair with Jennifer, I was rebuilding my family for
the third time. Without realising it, I was locking myself up again
in the depths of my old prisons. Gretchen was as different as you
could imagine from Jennifer, the spoiled New Yorker princess.
Being a ski champion, Gretchen had inherited the spirit and physical
strength of the pioneering women who conquered the American
West. She continually practiced sports and had muscles of steel. She
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was as down to earth, rough and provincial as Jennifer had been
sophisticated, vain and cosmopolitan. But even so, after a few weeks
this relationship also found its way into the old rut.
To all appearances I had changed my job, partner and
even continent, yet in reality my life had returned to the rigid shape
registered in the memory of its very fibre.

Our level of Being creates our Life

Day after day, little by little, I was reconstructing my old life,
like a mechanical creature sealed in an unconscious eternity,
condemned by genetic memory to repeat every gesture. Old habits,
thoughts and emotions were meticulously recreating the same
circumstances and events of my past. Disguised behind the mask of a
new life and a clumsy attempt to camouflage itself as the future, the
past was meticulously reproducing itself, with merciless perfection.

A man cannot hide.
Every thought, emotion or action,
is recorded indelibly in his Being,
and he himself is the ever-present guardian and executioner.
This is what determines his destiny.
A man can convince himself that he had escaped,
changing the external circumstances of his life,
but beyond the apparent differences of the situations,
he will always be placed on the same rung of the ladder of Being,
according to his degree of responsibility, integrity and love.

These were the Dreamers memorable words at our first
encounter, and since then I had read and re-read them countless
times, but the warning contained in this prophecy had not helped me
to avoid repeating the mistakes and pain of my life. I remembered
an earlier conversation I had had with Him on this theme and I still
consider this to be the cornerstone of my apprenticeship.

Humanitys biggest illusion is the conviction of having a
future He had told me on that occasion In reality, an ordinary
man does not have a future. Beyond appearances, he only and
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always encounters his past. Events, encounters and circumstances
repeat and recur in his life; they are always the same, only slightly
disguised.
This is like saying that men are living a life that is used; a
second-hand existence I had said with a touch of incredulity in my
voice to hide the uneasiness I felt at confronting His revelations.
And yet everyone deceives himself into thinking that the
events of his life are freshly minted, created just for him, and have
never happened before, sighed the Dreamer.
And therefore, what man calls reality is I started without
being able to complete my sentence, seized by a sickening sense of
absurdity.
The Dreamer looked at me without replying and nodded
slowly, as though endorsing the fact that Id reached the worst of
all possible conclusions the most unthinkable and unacceptable
of all. I took a few more steps in the direction He was leading me. I
clung absurdly to the hope that I had misunderstood His words and
that, in some way, He would be the one to stop me and bring our
conversation back within the confines of a reassuring rationality.
So what we call reality what we see and touch would
be is indeed a kind of virtual reality? I ventured, proceeding
with reluctance and only after his continuous nods of assent which
came like little prompts. I waited. The Dreamer remained deep in
thought for a few moments as if needing to find the right words to
breach my resistance.
What a man sees around himself the reality outside
himself, is the past He pronounced firmly, and then, breaking the
intense silence, added What you call the present is really just a
delayed broadcast. Once I had heard these words, my world would
never be the same again. In an extraordinary way, I was convinced
that it was not only my own world that had changed but also everyone
elses.
What you see and touch, the events which you would swear
are happening in this precise instant, were recorded in a past time.
To happen, they had to have your assent in another dimension, in the
world of Being, in your states of Being He said, as if this were
something perfectly natural. He explained how events had already
occurred and how what happens is the way it is because it has
already happened.
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The events of ones life are the solidification of ones states of
Being, made visible in time. While you are there and involved, you
might believe they are happening right before your eyes, you might
have the illusion that they are happening for the first time, but in
reality they are the projections of your past repeating itself, with
only slight variations.
I remember that after listening to the words of the Dreamer, I
had imagined the events in the life of an ordinary man like an
allegorical procession of masked characters, of tricksters bent on
perpetrating the cruellest of jokes. I saw them coming round again
and again, unremittingly the same, while under their false noses and
moustaches they were stifling their laughs and sneering at mans
blindness and inability to recognise them.
What man calls the future is really just his past seen from
behind, said the Dreamer, waking me from my reverie. The only
chance you have to take charge of your own life is in the here and
now and it is only by managing the moment suspended between
nothing and eternity that a man can act, and merit a real destiny,
forming it and creating events on a higher plane.
Later I was to have the opportunity to see for myself just how
true this vision was, and how easy it could be to forget and fall back
into the hypnotic wheel of a false life and a repetitive destiny.
How many years I could have saved and how much pain I
could have avoided if only I had known then how to receive the
message of the Dreamer and open myself up to His vision, which
today seems so simple, natural and inevitable to me.
I forgot, I denied the Dream and for months did not think
about it again. The doors of the old prison opened up to receive me.
The days of my life with Gretchen and the children ran along in
ruts which had already been formed. Between working trips to the
Middle East and domestic life, I seemed destined to forget and be
lost forever.

8 Dinner with the Sheik

At the reception desk in the Le Mridien hotel in Kuwait
City, I found an invitation from Sheik Yusuf. He requested my
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presence at a dinner that evening in the Behbehani Palace, and a car
would come for me in less than an hour.
I had just arrived there after a long journey and the idea of a
ceremonial Arab dinner was not the most appealing prospect. But I
could not refuse. The Behbehani family was one of the most powerful
clans and one of the financial groups that practically ran the country.
In Kuwait, as in most Middle Eastern countries, business is kept
strictly within the circles of only the grandest families. A map of the
countrys financial power would replicate the genealogical trees and
the dynastic distance from the Emir, reflecting rights acquired as far
back as medieval times.
In recent months I had had some contact with several
members of the Behbehani family and I had put together some
business deals with companies in their group, but I had never met
Sheik Yusuf. I knew he was the head of a vast financial empire built
upon concessions and representation of the products of the biggest
multinational corporations, with a well developed network of other
interests and business ventures outside Kuwait, especially in the
United States.
The Behbehani palace, a gaudy structure built entirely of
white Carrara marble, was constructed in the traditional form of a
quadrangle, with a large internal courtyard from which one gained
access to the various reception halls on the ground floor, and to the
private family rooms on the upper floors.
A silent family servant dressed in a caftan led me to the
dining hall. Around the long table, decorated in the most elaborate
Middle Eastern style, I found a varied collection of representatives
of the Islamic business community in traditional white dishdasha
their brown arms lavishly adorned with jewellery. A few western
directors from the big multinationals were also present. Naturally
it was a dinner for men only, and without silverware, in any case
Arab custom does not permit the use of knives. Meat and fish were
served already cut into bite size pieces, while smaller dishes of fresh
vegetables, cheeses, and creamed legumes were served alongside
heavy platters of roast lamb and rice. The Sheiks eldest son served
us personally, an honour reserved only for the most important guests.
The discussion became animated right away, with Sheik Yusuf at
its centre. He turned out to be a man of lively intelligence and the
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attentive head of a household, supervising even the smallest details.
We drank tea and freshly squeezed fruit juices.
Kuwait is one of the dry countries of the Middle East,
respecting the traditional laws of the Koran which forbid the
consumption of all alcoholic drinks, at least officially. The dinner
ended with some Lebanese sweets, made of nuts and honey, and
coffee prepared over a fire according to nomadic traditions and
served in small, extremely fine china cups. The spectacle of this thick,
dark, dusty tasting liquid, masterfully poured from the brilliantly
polished copper pots, always fascinated me. The coffee continued to
be served, and the steaming rivulets continued to fill the cups, until
each man swirled his around with a rocking movement of the wrist,
a gesture that meant that the guest was satisfied.
Only then did Sheik Behbehani, who had wanted me seated
on his left, reveal his project; the creation of a new commercial
enterprise in Kuwait. He asked me to transfer to Kuwait City to set
up and direct this project. I would have an equity in the project and
the status of Managing Partner.
The dream was becoming a reality: to create an international
organisation, assemble the men, recruit the resources and test myself
against the challenges of a venture in such a difficult environment.
At last I would be setting out to sail across the seven seas of business
in my own ship. This was what I had always wanted, or at least what I
had always believed I wanted. I asked for two weeks to reflect on
my decision and took my leave. As I was returning to Le Mridien I
was already in a state of apprehension.
As much as I tried to force a positive response, this proposal
brought me no joy or sense of satisfaction. I kept thinking intensely
about it all the way back, but the more I did, the more my resistance
to the idea of transferring to Kuwait seemed to increase and
proliferate. After only a few moments of initial enthusiasm, this
prospect had fallen prey to my negative imagination and fears. As
in the parable, the seed of opportunity had fallen on barren ground
where it gradually dwindled and extinguished itself like the coals
under the coffee pots at the end of that dinner.
Miles and miles of grey desert, wrinkled as the hide of a
gigantic elephant, rushed by under the belly of the airplane taking
me back to Italy, interrupted only occasionally by a perfect circle of
intense green surrounding a miraculous well drilled to an incredible
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depth. I was sure that what was happening to me was the result of the
promise I had made to the Dreamer and the work I had been doing
on myself since my first encounter with Him. My desire for a freer,
more responsible and richer life had, like a rain dance, attracted this
opportunity. And now what?
I was more convinced than ever that the smallest elevation in
ones state of Being can move mountains in the world of events, that
our Being creates our Life, but never would I have believed that
such a radical change could happen in such a short a time. The
cement and plaster in the house I bought in Chi was not yet dry;
the grass on the lawn was barely starting to sprout from seed and
the hedges to grow. That quiet provincial life, which had so often
seemed intolerable to me after New York, suddenly acquired a new
value in my eyes. Lakeside walks with the children, an ice cream by
the banks of the river, racing over the snow with Gretchen, even the
stifling atmosphere of a one-company town, revealed themselves to
be attachments that without my being aware of it, had put down deep
roots in the space of just a few months. Brick by brick, one habit
after another, I had constructed another house on a bridge; a stable
home where the Dream had only allowed for a brief stopover before
resuming the journey and carrying me beyond.
I knew Kuwait City. I had been there many times for work,
but had never stayed for very long. My impressions of it were limited
to the lounges of its modern hotels, the dusty streets, the crowded
Souks and whatever I had been able to see from the windows of a
limousine, sealed into an air-conditioned bubble as though in a
spacecraft travelling through the atmosphere of an inhospitable
planet. On the few occasions when I had ventured out, I had felt
my skin pricked by a million needles, grains of burning sand swept
along by the desert winds. The desert, like the sword of Damocles, is
constantly threatening Kuwait City: an ocean of sand always ready
to engulf that islet which stubbornly withholds a few miles of semi-
civilisation from its dominion. Behind the opulence of its towers, the
intensity of its traffic and the modernity of its buildings, Kuwait is not
really a city state but a never-ending arm wrestle, a constant mortal
combat between man and the desert. The ball of its history bounces
back and forth between the modern age and a forgotten medieval
period riddled with archaic habits and Koranic justice. A bizarre and
dusty universe was opening up before me. A world as noisy as a
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bazaar, where camels and Cadillacs, tents and skyscrapers, biblical
poverty and financial power had found a miraculous coexistence.

9 Escape into sickness

My most gnawing doubts and anxieties manifested
themselves at the idea of leaving my job at ACO. I was frightened
and unsettled by the idea of resigning and moving to that country
without the certainty of another job. However, I continued to lie to
myself, neglecting all the evidence. I believed I was being sincere
when I was angered by the apparent difficulties and when I had
to face the many obstacles I continuously found before me. They
seemed to be growing more and more insurmountable. I had not
even begun the work of observing myself, of paying attention to my
states and refining my Being, indicated by the Dreamer; nor had I yet
acquired the degree of honesty I needed to recognise that, not just in
this situation but always, fear was governing my life.
Today I feel compassion for that man who deceived himself
into thinking he was ref ecting and pondering the pros and cons,
who continued to lie to himself day after day convincing himself
that he was the one who made decisions which in reality his fear
had already made for him long before. I refused to accept what the
Dreamer had often accused me of:
You are the only real obstacle, your own evolutions
greatest enemy and the sole cause of your every failure. It will take
many years of self observation and a great deal of hard work for
you to realise that those negative circumstances which you see as
objective, external and independent of your will, are in reality your
own creation. The obstacles you encounter are the materialization
of an inner lament, the song of sorrow that always comes from the
darkest parts of your Being.
In effect, I was searching for an excuse that would allow
me to refuse without having to accept responsibility, holding onto
the possibility that one day I might be able to pin the blame on
circumstance or destiny. I grabbed any excuse I could to justify
my refusal: the children, their school, the risks posed by living in
that country. I also counted on Gretchens firm opposition. Inside
me, there was a determined no in response to this change, to this
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derailment from my old ways. I searched everywhere for some
unavoidable impediment, something to provide me with a pretext for
blaming the world.
In the end, I found what I had been looking for. In the past,
before having met the Dreamer, I had suffered from stones in my
right kidney. Who, with peace of mind, could take such a decision as
important as that of transferring their family to Kuwait without first
undergoing a full medical check up?
I persuaded myself that this was a matter of responsibility,
for my children more than anything else. Notwithstanding my
encounter with the Dreamer and all I had done to change the course
of my destiny, I was about to fall back into the terrible rut of my past
once more, so I made an appointment to have a kidney x-ray. This
was the first step. Something inside me had already chosen the way
of sickness. I went back to seek refuge in that dark part of existence
where one does not fight or compete but only accuses, makes excuses
and looks for sympathy from the world.
The shock would have stopped my heart if I had realised then
that I was the originator, producer, director and actor in the film
of my life, and, in particular, the creator of those images that I was
about to project once more onto the movie screen of the world. As
the Dreamer would one day say to me, ignorance is a mother who
gradually lets go of your hand, and only when you are ready. If
something had not happened to interrupt this terrible screenplay, the
next few frames of my life would have been a close-up of the
doctors worried face announcing that the x-rays had revealed some
shadows on my right kidney. He would have pointed these out on
the luminous screen, small marks like fingerprints left from a light
touch. I would have gone pale and then, back at home, I would have
become desperate and for years blamed destiny for my poor health
which unfortunately had prevented me from seizing this great
opportunity. Everything was ready for this screening the following
morning. The worst thing about the whole situation was that I was
completely unaware of my conspiracy. With my last breath I would
have defended the fact that I was acting in good faith and sworn that I
wished for nothing more than a clean bill of health that confirmed
my perfect condition, and allowed me to leave for this new adventure.
Fortunately, I was still bound to the Dreamer by a golden thread.
That evening I had an intense desire to see Him. I could not
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manage any more. I could not go on much longer without His help. It
seemed as though an eternity had passed since our last encounter, and
not finding any other way, I decided to write Him a letter, solemnly
renewing my promise and asking to resume my journey.

There is a word that comes back to me at this time,
presenting itself insistently to my conscience.
It goes back to what you said during our last meeting.
The word is dignity.
And this is the most painful part of my life,
the part I have missed most,
in every situation, in every event.
I need it. I have to produce it, feel it, and distribute it.
I know it has a cost. And I am ready to pay.
I only ask, if I am in time and if I have the strength.
Help me!
Next to Me, in my world, one lives well,
enjoying riches and good health
How many times you have invited me.
But the guests are missing from your table.
In a world ruled by lies, by men ready
to betray and degrade,
I see that there is only You watching over us,
like the Cherubim with the f laming sword
to guard the Tree of Life
I want to resume my journey,
and revive my commitment to this task.
I implore you to help me.
For months I have been leading an itinerant life.
I feel the need to reassemble the parts of my life
that have been dispersed

I was not so much writing as confessing, reading myself. This
effort at sincerity transformed me. The letter was received before it
was even finished. It was meant for me, meant for the best part of
me, for those few atoms of whatever was good, beautiful and true
that still pulsed within the darkness of my Being; in that part of me
amidst the inner multitude of dissidents and rebels, that had said yes
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to this great adventure. I had not yet finished it, when I burst into tears
from a sudden, mysterious joy.

10 The spider and the prey

I found myself before Him. I had so wanted to see Him,
but now all I felt was an infinite shame and an oppressive feeling of
guilt. Shame and guilt held me in a dense world, where the force of
gravity was much stronger than that of Earth. This was my interior
world and these were the laws by which I, unconsciously, lived every
day of my life. Only here, in the presence of the Dreamer, did I feel
their weight and horror, making me hold my breath and
keep my gaze transfixed on the f loor of that room.
Your every movement, thought, or word, announces your
disposition to give way. Secretly you hope to fail, become sick, and
give up fighting against this hostile world. Like millions of men,
you have seen the fight as outside of yourself. For this you abandon
yourself to defeat, and hope you will get old and die you have
already done this many times before. Its time to stop forever! He
said, and fell into silence, to let me taste to the full the bitterness of
that truth. A cold sweat ran down my back.
In the darkness of your ignorance, a man like you prepares
his disasters, sets his own traps, reinforces his own prisons, packages
all his pain, mishaps, accidents and ailments with great skill and
attention to the smallest detail, so as to raise these labours to a fine
art said the Dreamer, sounding like a warrior throwing down a
gauntlet before his adversary in a deadly duel A dark and
unconscious art, like that of a monstrous insect weaving his web in
the oblivious depths of zoology. There, where man is tragically both
spider and prey.
His words clawed at my soul, and I trembled and gasped as if
I had been thrown into an icy shower after a long sleep. The
Dreamer was unveiling to me how I could order a stone to appear in
my right kidney and make it take the form I wished, just as simply as
I could have asked for harmony and success, and obtained them.
It was impossible for me to accept that I was the sole creator of
my world, as every attempt I made to understand was smashed to
pieces against the rock of my skepticism. For the Dreamer, every
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obstacle we encounter is the materialisation of our inability to
understand.

Man is his understanding

The measure of a man is his level of understanding which
creates the world he deserves. Understanding is containment, a
broadening of his vision and an elimination of excess and layers of
debris. It is an act of will which cannot come from or be imposed by
anything external.

A man doesnt have to look for paradise.
He doesnt have to do anything to deserve it.
The only discipline he has to master is the elimination of his hell,
his lack of understanding.

If the Dreamer had not spent all this time preparing me, had I
not undergone a long period of apprenticeship, notwithstanding all
my doubts and disobedience, I would never have been able to support
the responsibility of such a revelation; it would have destroyed me.
I wondered what would have happened if official science
had announced such a discovery: that every man, as he is, is the only
creator of all his disasters and that they must originate internally
before they manifest themselves externally. The reognition of the
degree to which the body and our own personal worlds are obedient;
the discovery of the creative power, for good or bad, of our thinking,
would be a much greater shock for civilisation than the discovery
made by Copernicus. In just the same way as his astronomical finding
had cast man to the margins of the universe, outside the illusory
world in which man had always placed himself at the centre, the
Dreamers vision had revolutionised his destiny, striking at his most
deeply rooted prejudice; the conviction that there was an outside
world to accuse, and always someone or something to blame for the
continuous defeat that was his life.
The world is such because you are such, the extreme
synopsis of the Dreamers philosophy and the culmination of His
vision, contained such a powerful idea that it reversed the very
direction of existence; no longer from the external to the internal
but the contrary, from the internal towards the external, as in all
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healing. The Christian mea culpa, the Roman faith in homo faber,
the Ancient Greek self knowledge and the voices of all the great
schools of responsibility upon which empires and civilisations lasting
thousands of years had been created, all echoed powerfully and
solemnly together. And even though this vision had been presented
to me many times, my thoughts went into a whirl when I saw my
rationality and logic torn from their age old hinges and irremediably
subverted.
It was then I realised that this time my encounter with the
Dreamer was taking place in a part of His house that I did not know.
It was not the room with the white tiled floor, nor the greenhouse
with its great beams, the swimming pool in the middle and the
elegant sculptures, but a large loft room furnished in a colonial style,
with a ceiling inlaid with rare wood. He was sitting in the middle
of a white couch made of finely plaited cane, so vast that it took up
almost the whole wall. A black and white painting evoked the world
of Steinbeck.
He paused again and seemed to be assessing my ability to
take in what he was about to tell me. A special vibration in the air
announced the crucial importance of that moment. We had arrived
at another one of those crossroads of existence where you either
continue onwards or lose everything. I was on the edge of a chasm
and falling into it would mean that I would never see Him again.
When He began speaking again, I drew a large breath to
summon up some strength.
Every stage requires one to exceed ones personal best!
There are monstrous beings, millennial enemies who are as terrible
and illusory as your fears, guarding the higher worlds, the highest
levels of existence
His words were liquid fire that coursed through my veins
devouring me.
One day, you will have to confront them!
I couldnt move a muscle and remained like that, quite still, for
a long time. On every inch of my body I felt the pressure of an
unknown force that restricted my every movement. Then, as though
at some invisible command, I felt myself set free. I made my first
cautious movements to emerge from that sheath of impotence and
abandon it, like a snake shedding his skin. Now I could raise my
head and did so, slowly. I still did not dare to allow my gaze to
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wander freely, but I noticed that there was plenty of light this time
and I could clearly see every detail of my surroundings. I was quite
sure the source of that light was not the sun. The new day remained
outside, clinging to the windows facing East, not yet deciding to
make its way into the room. In some mysterious way, it seemed that
the light in this room depended on me! I could increase it or decrease
it, and did so several times, using only the dimmer that was in my
mind.
I was still trying out this curious power, when a thought
invaded my mind with the force of a devastating truth. The universe
depended on me! J ust like this room, the world could have appeared
full of light, but it remained in semi-darkness because of my inability
to make it glow. This revelation took my breath away.
Only later, when I could reflect upon things dispassionately,
would I feel the full power of the Dreamers words: The world is
such because you are such. Man is an unhappy being who, although
surrounded by perfection and abundance, sees his world through a
primitive visual apparatus, as if through the eyes of a frog, and is
disappointed by what he sees.

11 The hide and seek of existence

I looked up and met His sweet yet severe gaze, and detected
what I thought was a shadow of apprehension mixed with pity. This
frightened me more than His words and I felt like a sick man reading
the severity of his condition in the eyes of a friend. Unexpectedly, I
heard Him say:
When you were a little boy you used to play hide and
seek Immediately, the film of my life started to rewind. The sun
had painted the crevices of the antique terrace liquid gold, leaving
lizards open-mouthed in its path, shocked and motionless between
a pot of basil and another containing a cascade of geraniums. We
took turns to go under, our heads leaning on skinny arms against a
wall, eyes closed and counting while the others scurried away to find
a hiding place. Cuc-koo! was the cry launched at those who were
caught by surprise and discovered.
This is how existence works Cuc-koo! said the Dreamer,
imitating precisely that sound of my infancy and delving effortlessly
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into the depths of my memories. I tried not to let go of those images,
holding on for just a little longer, trying to give names to my radiant
boyhood friends on that sun-drenched terrace, but they were already
disappearing, taking with them the enchanted perfume of childhood.
Existence comes to find you, wherever you are hiding, and
puts on the most horrible mask it can to reveal the state you are in.
What are you afraid of? Of being poor? Of being abandoned? Of
becoming ill and losing a house or a job? These are the masks that
existence will wear to frighten you. Whatever a mans fear is, it will
materialise in events that he will have to meet as he goes along his
way. Like exams you have not passed, sooner or later you will have
to confront these things again.
I did not need to mentally review my experiences to
recognise that the Dreamer was telling the truth. Yet I still resisted
this idea. To view the world as a planetary mechanism for keeping
mankind in a permanent state of fear and precariousness, in the grip
of a constant threat, seemed to me a complete aberration.
Only under threat can an ordinary man find the strength he
needs to escape from the shadows, from the ghosts created by his
childhood traumas and his guilt A real man doesnt need
these things he lives in a perpetual state of certitude clarified
the Dreamer, and emphasised the importance of this phrase with a
special tone of voice.
I was perplexed.
I was hearing Him set forth a theory of planetary injustice
which claimed that humanity was divided into two species: one happy
and carefree, blessed by an unshakable certainty, and the other - a
much larger part - prey to fear, trembling in constant expectation of
problems and misfortunes. I asked Him about this, and found the
Dreamer in a surprisingly understanding frame of mind.
In the world of the Dreamer, even asking a question required
caution and attentiveness. In His presence, I was always mindful of
what he might think or feel, of every small movement, intonation or
glance. This transformed every single moment spent next to Him
into the Schools work. On the other hand, when I was away from
the Dreamer, my concentration dissolved, my attention was drawn
in a thousand different directions and my entire Being became
fragmented.
Even the ordinary man feels secure; his certainties are
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his fears his doubts are his reality. He loves them, and would not
let them go for anything in the world. From his earliest childhood,
he has fed himself with illusory fears, he has eaten the fruit of his
negative imagination, of his reverse creativity. As a result of this, he
mistakes shadows for real adversity, and lives and feels constantly
under threat
The Dreamer explained that gradually one becomes inured to
the painfulness of this condition and it becomes part of him. Pain and
insecurity become natural parts of life, familiar pillars, which are
so reassuring that for most men they are impossible to abandon.
Feel safe He exhorted me There is no enemy outside. In
reality, it is always you who threatens yourself. People never feel
safe. Even when a man is rich, apparently with nothing to fear, he
still feels doubt and a continual state of insecurity . He lives in fear,
uncertainty and pain... This is the only thing he knows how to do; he
is indulging in an activity that rules his whole life.
So there is no cure
There are no ways to make yourself feel safe, the Dreamer
told me.
There are no armour-plated doors, no strongboxes or
bunkers, nor any precautions you can take.
And then He recited:

Only a real dreamer can feel safe.
Dream is safety.
Doubt, fear, and suffering are but illusions,
and ordinary mans sol reality.

I closed my eyes and allowed myself be lulled by the
Dreamers words and felt that sense of security, of invulnerability,
that only children feel, even though they are surrounded by nervous,
fearful adults I tried to go back, even further back, until I was
a foetus in my mothers womb. And then I re-membered that
wholeness, that innocence without the slightest separation, and I
floated in the palpable and limitless certainty of the amniotic fluid.
The voice of the Dreamer recited the last few verses:
To be safe, you must be without sin without blame
In a flash it became clear to me that a man can only be
attacked by enemies within himself. Liars, posers, cheaters, people
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who are full of sin, uncertainties and doubts people who live in
fear and have no way out. These are the same fears that open doors
to thieves I felt lost!... and I felt all of humanity lost with me,
condemned to perpetual insecurity. Who could ever escape this? I
was sliding into ever more distant and painful conditions of Being.
Only a man who can wager everything on himself, only a
man who desires, asks for and does everything he can to change, can
make it, said the Dreamer, interrupting my fall. And even if to the
average person he may appear rash, a risk taker or irresponsible, a
man guided by integrity and conviction is always accompanied by a
sense of salvation. He alone knows that, in reality, he is not risking
anything. In business, in the most apparently risky ventures, one who
has these convictions cannot be attacked and cannot fail. Everything
he touches flourishes and blooms; in any situation, even in the most
desperate, he always finds an answer and events and circumstances
always prove him right because he is his own solution.
He took up His verses again.

Feel safe permanently.
Be safe and feel immortal right now.

Then, whispering to me as if he were confiding a secret, He
said:

Even if the average man constantly feels threatened and
is always afraid of someone or something, in reality there is
nothing and no one that can hurt him from the outside. The world
is the projection and materialisation of our dreams or of our
nightmares. The world can be either heaven or hell. Which one you
choose to live in is up to you!
The Dreamer stopped to give me time to make the appropriate
observations in my ever-present notebook, and then concluded:
Be free from fear!... Fearlessness is the door to certainty
and integrity, yet no amount of effort can make you fearless.
Fearlessness comes by itself when you realise there is nothing to be
afraid of.
The Dreamers revelation that no danger was external was
bringing me to the edge of the frightening unknown. The prospect
of having to live without fear, of maintaining a state of Being
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which required one to be incessantly on guard, always making sure
that even the tiniest grain of hell was filtered out, seemed to me
to be even more menacing than our normal, precarious condition.
To be fearful, to have doubts, to feel threatened by what happens
in our lives these were our only certainties and, in the end, the
quintessential conditions of what is considered the natural state
of man. The idea of a humanity without fear was as repugnant as
the prospect of discovering a new alien, extraterrestrial race, and a
million light years away from my concept of mankind. This threat to
our insecurity is more frightening than fear itself, just as the idea of
immortality is harder to accept than the inevitability of death. I was
absolutely sure that any man would have been prepared to sacrifice
his own life to defend, for himself and future generations, the right
to experience fear and to suffer.
Behind all pain, fear, doubt or uncertainty hides a
destructive thought; and behind that destructive thought, is the
cause of causes: the idea of the inevitability of death reaffirmed
the Dreamer, before continuing This is the real killer of humanity
the origin of every one of mans misadventures, of every war and
crime in the civilisations he has created. Awareness of this seed of
death in man would cancel physical death from his existence forever.
Death, the stockade of limitation, protects the ordinary man from the
disconcerting concept of the infinite.
The Dreamer explained to me that the sense of death that a
man bears inside seems to originate at the moment of his birth,
although in reality its origins go back much further. As he comes
into the world, the human beings first sensation is that of suffocating
and of being overcome. In our so-called civilised societies, life starts
with one of the most brutal rituals, which the Dreamer defined as
a veritable welcome to Hell. Delivered in pain, welcomed by the
blinding lights of an operating theatre, by the doctors excited voices
and the mothers screams, before being smacked and placed on a cold
steel surface, the newborn receives fear as his first impression of the
world and from that moment onwards he is compelled to seek pain
as his true mother.
From that moment on, nothing will ever be as familiar as
that bittersweet taste of pain affirmed the Dreamer. The whole life
of an ordinary man is ruled by that first moment, by the first taste
of that liquid fire that he feels entering his lungs in the terrifying
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transition from aquatic creature to an air-breathing being.

12 The bottle

Time passed in total silence, and I tried to fill it by examining
the notes I had laboriously taken down. I felt an irrepressible desire
to know more growing within me. What is the secret of the fear and
anxiety we carry inside? Why are millions of lives, like mine, so
particularly unhappy? The Dreamer seemed to gather these questions
from the air and broke His silence. But the words He uttered were
completely unexpected.
In New York, he always lived with a bottle of water at
hand He said loudly in an accusing tone, as if reporting this fact to
someone standing behind me.
I was mortally embarrassed. The Dreamer accompanied His
words by gesturing, pointing both His forefingers at me insistently,
with a strange downwards movement, as if he were pointing me out
for the attention of an invisible witness. This way of excluding me
from the direct conversation, by placing an invisible observer between
us, was painfully disconcerting. Suddenly, the false protections,
compromises and masks created in stratified layers throughout
my life, jumped into line one behind the other, like layers of dead
skin. I lost control of the muscles in my face and felt a thousand
expressions take shape in a fast forward film of grotesque grimaces.
The machine had gone mad along with its management programme,
as if the Dreamer had opened the floodgates, and it was in that space
of freedom that the memory of those years took over and the images
started to flow.
From the start, those memories felt to me like fragments
from someone elses life. I had been advised by the doctors to drink a
lot to prevent the formation of kidney stones, and over time, keeping
a bottle of water near me became a habit. The bottle became a kind
of prosthesis, an extra limb I could not dare to do without. One of
the first effects of my encounter with the Dreamer along with
the commencement of my morning runs and the application of His
principles to my life - was the dumping of so much psychological
ballast and, with it, the bottle.
Your sickness was never kidney stones, but dependency. The
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stones are only a symptom, indications that point the way to the real
sickness, to find a way to healing.
He said that when we dont listen to these signals and fail to go
back to the real cause, the sickness becomes more acute and the
signals more insistent and painful.
On His instruction, I stopped drinking, or no more than a
small amount, and the problems with my kidneys became a distant
memory. Seeing all these images go past on the screen of my mind, I
wondered why He had dug up this particular episode from my life. A
hidden mechanism within me suddenly clicked and I was catapulted
into a timeless memory vertical to the plane of those recollections, in
the eternity of one of my states of Being. I went into the distressing
memories of those years. I remembered that the loss of that slavery
and the escape from the tyranny of fear that had made a bottle of water
my inseparable companion, had not brought me any joy or relief. On
the contrary! Penetrating into just one atom of that past, I discovered
that, for me, this new freedom had the taste of an irremediable loss,
like the death of a dear person or the occurrence of a financial crack.
Now I clearly remembered that the most difficult thing to bear had
been dealing with the emptiness left by the healing. The loss, albeit
only temporary, of the fear and worry of becoming ill had felt to me
like the fall of some kind of vital protection, the abandonment of old,
familiar handrails.

13 The real poor

The voice of the Dreamer startled me, bringing me back to
my chroniclers task.
To remove a problem or sickness from a man who is not
ready, is like switching off his alarm system or removing the
automatic braking system. If he is not ready, the consequences are
unpredictable and He might find himself in a much worse condition
than before. This is why a man cannot be helped from the outside.
Once a sickness or preoccupation of any kind is removed from him,
he needs to immediately replace it with another, often more serious
sickness or preoccupation, in order to reinstate the conditions that
correspond to his Being, as though he were a perfect homeostatic
machine.
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The Dreamer was revealing the secret of a kind of behaviour
that was common to the mass of humanity. A psychological
mechanism widespread throughout the planet that has been evident
to us since the beginning of time, yet whose function remains a
mystery to this day. Man finds it hard to abandon his sufferings,
fears and uncertainties, which are things he has in abundance.
He is attached to these burdens as if they were his most treasured
possessions, and they prevent him from going beyond. The Dreamer
explained that the reason for this was that humanity perceived them
as protective shields.
sell what you have, give it to the poor and you will have a
reward in heaven; then, come and follow me. Having heard this, the
young man left saddened, as he had riches aplenty.
Finally, in this parable of the rich young man, I discerned, as
if through a filigreed screen, the light of the intelligence that had
created it, and the treasure held for twenty centuries in those
extraordinary words revealed itself in all its splendour.
The explanation of what had happened at Veronicas suddenly
came to me, astonishing me. What the Dreamer had really asked the
men and women at that dinner had not been to give up their riches,
but rather to give up their poverty, and in reality he was showing them
how to rise to a higher plane of existence. Put someone else in your
place, He had said. This was the meaning of the parable of the rich
young man, sell what you have, and give it to the poor. These
were the poor referred to in the Gospels. Give all you have to those
who are aspiring to take your place. You will then see that everything
you possess, the things to which you are most attached in life, are the
trappings of poverty compared to what is to come.
As a result of a particular mechanism which the Dreamer
described to me in detail, everything that does not evolve in our
universe, degrades over time. In our own lives, too, at any given
moment, there are only two directions in which one can go: upwards,
or downwards. The Dreamer called this the Law of Evolution and
explained that it was universally the case in individuals, as well as
in organisations, nations, and entire civilisations. Without an upward
impulse, without the special energy of aspiring to be more, life
curves back upon itself and degrades.
As an example, he made me consider the case of the Church,
which, in certain periods of history, had not been able to find the
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energy to rise to a higher level. It had turned in upon itself and
fallen progressively until it took a direction that was almost opposite
to the original one. In this way it had negated itself, becoming an
idol-worshipping, superstitious and even criminal institution with
the inventions of the Inquisition, auto-da-f and the crusades,
while continuing paradoxically to call itself and believe itself to be
Christian.
In the Gospel the rich who are condemned to stay on this
side of the eye of the needle, outside the Kingdom of Heaven, were
not the moneyed rich of the ancient world, but men loaded down by
the detritus of negative emotions, attachments and feelings of guilt;
drawn under by their weighty fear of both living and dying.
I could clearly see the disastrous result of such an inverted
interpretation of this message, which for centuries had encouraged
millions of people to seek privation and foster a victim mentality. I
thought of the attitude of the Church, which by sympathising with,
justifying, and at times even exalting poverty, had unknowingly
perpetuated it, making it even more difficult to eradicate it from
mans consciousness, and therefore, from society itself.

14 Fear is love degraded

Fear is a drug that has always circulated in the veins of
your existence. It is not the fear of something. It is simply fear He
said.
By now you are addicted to it. The conditions a man
encounters in the world of events serve to reveal what he has tried
to avoid and not recognise inside himself. For those who do not have
a School, evil and chance are misfortunes. For those who do have a
School, they become tools to recapture ones lost integrity and gain
understanding. At the same time, they are symptoms, alarm bells
signalling ones true condition. Contrary to what a man thinks, fear
comes first; and then we choose what to fear.
Early in the life of the average man, doubts, fear and pain
define his limits; a hypnotic and unreal space in which he feels safe,
as if he were in a giant bunker which was half refuge and half prison.
Abandoning fear is the first step towards integrity, towards a
unity of Being. You cant build anything upon fear, nor can you use
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your intelligence with it. Fearlessness is the first rule for the warrior.
Fear makes you dependent on a job and drives you to seek refuge in
sickness, as you have done in your past. The voice of the Dreamer
assume the tone of a severe exhortation when He ordered:
Turn fear into opportunity! Man has only two
sentiments fear and love. These are not opposites they are the
same but on different levels of being Fear is love degraded and
love is fear that has been overcome.
He gave me just enough time to take my notes, and then
checked to see if I had done so before continuing.
Fear is the death within you. A hero is a man without fear
or inner death. Hero, from Eros, love, a-mors, meaning immortal.
He who has no death within will not find it outside. The hero is a
step on the ladder of humanity that is not earned in the clash of
battle, but in solitude, by conquering himself. The battles serve only
to make visible what the hero has already conquered invisibly. His
invincibility and invulnerability are simply the demonstration that
something has happened within his Being, the litmus test of his
victory over death.
The Dreamer paused for a long time. I used the opportunity to
complete and tidy up my notes. I sensed the special value of the
material I had collected and the importance of the Dreamers
revelations, which shone a brilliant light upon the most secret
mechanisms and darkest areas of our psychology; on everything that
made us a lying, fearful and mortal species.
When the Dreamer resumed, He went straight to the question
of Kuwait, to the concerns I had about leaving my job and
transferring to another place.
Going to Kuwait is important for you. Externally, it is the
start of a new business opportunity, while internally it represents the
first step towards conquering a state of apnea, a limited condition of
Being in which you have wallowed for too long.
An entrepreneur is already a man on the path towards the
Dream He said, in a vibrant voice, a sweet tone.
The man who is capable of gambling his reputation and
means to change things, to break out of existing situations and
create better ones is a rebel. Bringing other men together, taking
responsibility for them, transmitting enthusiasm to them, making
them share his own dream these can be said to be the qualities of
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the entrepreneur, but in reality they are the qualities of Being;
allowing access to higher rungs on the ladder of human
responsibility.
I felt the anguish grow uncontrollably inside me along with
an unmistakable twinge in my kidney, as a shadow entered my
Being and my inner world grew dark. There is no other feeling like
this, which lies exactly halfway between physical and psychological
pain. Instinctively, I put my hand on the right side of my lower back.
I would have liked to draw His attention to my fear of a recurring
ailment which I had hoped had gone forever, and I would also liked
to have told Him about the medical examination I was about to
undergo.
Stop being such a liar He said, brusquely You are a
member of the worst possible species, of those men who lie to
themselves: hypocrites Sickness does not exist. The body never
becomes ill. It can only send signals in the form of symptoms, to let
you know what is missing from your Being Sickness does not exist,
what does exist is healing.
Then, with deliberate slowness, He continued:
All healing is a release from fear. Once you are free from
the real cause, the symptoms disappear too.
I fell into complete disarray. The pronouncement that
sickness, just like health, depended totally on me and that dependency
and fear were responsible for my kidney stones, threw me into
thoughts that rippled like circles in water, expanding until I became
lost in them.
Until now, you have lived the life of a parasite He said
roughly, hauling me out of a perilous slide into self pity Let me
diagnose your sickness: irresponsibility. A man with sick kidneys is
fearful, and that makes him dependent. Kidney disease means that
you have communication problems, first and foremost with yourself,
and then with those around you.
At that moment these statements seemed rather obscure to
me and I responded with some skepticism. It would only be many
months later that Id discover that some of our ancestral cultures
already knew that the planets which form our solar system are
analogically associated with the organs in our bodies. Classical
antiquity associated the liver with J upiter, the heart with Mars, the
spleen with Saturn and the lungs with Venus. In this last case I saw
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confirmation of the fact that breathing is connected to our emotions,
to love, in Latin a-mors, meaning the absence of death.
Through breathing and its associated organs, we can control
our emotions and we can fight fear. In the beliefs of the classical world
we also find confirmation of what the Dreamer had just told me: that
the kidneys were associated with Mercury, the winged messenger
of the gods, and therefore had to do with communication. But this
discovery would only come later. For the moment, I ostentatiously
clung to my doubts and enquired:
Why then is communication so easy for me, and why have
I always worked in fields where this activity is most intense?
Exactly this, stated the Dreamer, cutting me short, people
who have kidney problems are attracted to activities involving
communication, and they immerse themselves in this activity
precisely in order to achieve a balance with what they are lacking
this lack of connection, of understanding of communion.
Then, with the tone of someone turning to a more serious
subject, He said:
Your fears have made a monstrous idol of the company
that pays you, that reflects your dependency upon it you have
transferred your Dreamoutside of yourself you have bartered it
for a salary and a false sense of security, reducing yourself to a state
of slavery. Those who depend are already in the sewer up to their
necks.
The truth is, that like millions of others, you have already
decided to eliminate yourself He concluded with a final thrust at
these words.
I felt a fierce feeling of rebellion, a resentment bordering
on hate which due to its suddenness and violence, terrified me. His
words had touched a raw nerve and exposed that most hidden and
vulnerable part of me, in the dark, blindly guiding my life. Suddenly
and just as quickly as they had come, those feelings of resentment
and rebellion disappeared completely like ghosts of my Being.
Behind them, deeper inside me, I found acceptance and gratitude.
Something in me, more true and sincere than anything else, knew
that to meet the Dreamer was to meet with healing.
Go to Kuwait He ordered, in a fatherly tone and
with unexpected gentleness Take that job and live the life of an
entrepreneur start taking the first breaths of a sweeter air it will
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help you break down the barriers that keep you from accessing higher
states of responsibility Remove your inner obstacles to growth,
and all your personal, economic and social problems will dissolve.
Fear and dependency are the same thing. One is dependent because
one is fearful, and one is fearful because one is dependent. There
is no war more holy than fighting and conquering this limitation
defeating fear and casting it out from your Being
Here He stopped and I had the impression that He was
deciding whether or not to impart one last piece of information. His
image was already beginning to lose definition when He said:
In Kuwait, you will meet men and women who are precious
cells of the Project.

15 The solution comes from above

The next day, I cancelled my x-ray appointment and accepted
Yusuf Behbehanis proposal. Doctor L., the director of human
resources at ACO, was very surprised to receive my resignation,
expressed in just a few, formal lines, and he asked to see me. I had
already met him on several occasions, and the impression I had was
of a severe, rather condescending man but this time our meeting
was different. His life unfolded before me, demble, as if his
past and future had become compressed into that moment. I saw
his relationship with wife, children and existence itself. Mr L.
represented the personification of a corporate life lived horizontally,
a career which was apparently successful, but was actually driven by
the same fears, dependency and unhappiness as my own life.
Once I had made my decision, everything became crystal
clear and I had a sharpness of vision I had never had before. In the
eyes of my ex-boss, I saw the reflection of all my own insecurities
and the insignificance of my life as an employee, the stifling reality
of this description of the world. Seeing it and feeling free was one
single sensation. I was free because I could see and I could see
because I was free. Recognising myself in this man and observing
my own image reflected in his every word and gesture was like
placing one foot on a step and going upwards. He could never have
been my boss again. Raising myself one fraction of an inch had been
enough to understand, in just one instant, every aspect of that mans
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existence: his studies, his career and his relationships.
His private and professional life, his apparent successes
and failures and everything he believed he knew and possessed was
suddenly contained, and I was free. I felt my old chains breaking
throughout my Being. Mans devotion to privation and the general
veneration of all suffering, our attachment to lies and our unshakeable
faith in the inevitability of death, all then appeared to me as absurd as
idol worship. The encounter with Dr. L was a duel within me between
the old and the new. Had I hesitated for just an instant, I would have been
thrown off balance and sucked back down into the pit of dependency.
But as in a medieval combat, my victory had been recorded in the
world of the invisible and I was filled with the wild, nervous joy of
someone who has just successfully beaten a mortal challenge.
When we parted, at the door of his office, I had the
impression that Doctor L.s eyes expressed satisfaction at my having
passed this test. Our time together had given him a whiff of freedom
and for a few moments he too had been able to venture forth from
the prison of his role. It suddenly dawned on me that all of humanity
feels joy, in unison, when just a single cell heals itself and announces
the formation of a new species.
I realised that for all those years the ACO Corporation had
represented not only a job and a source of income, but also protection,
the tangible representation of the dependent condition. It was time to
turn over a new leaf.
In just a few days, I closed up the house and sent the children to
stay with their maternal grandparents for a few weeks. I was ready to
transfer to Kuwait City, that city state floating in a black sea of oil,
which was already a frontier of world business and one of the major
financial centres on the planet.
As always I had Giuseppona as my ally, her eyes gleaming
with excitement. Once again, she was ready. With the enthusiasm of
a child, she was accepting this new adventure and the prospect of
living in the Middle East for years.
Hurry, my boy! she said, hugging me. The bags had been
put in the car and Giorgia and Luca were already inside, ready to
leave.
Find us a nice house I cant wait to see the desert I think
it will be like a beach, a little bigger than Licola And, Ive always
wanted to meet an Arab prince
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Giusepponas good humour was irrepressible and contagious.
Thanks to her, this goodbye was life-enhancing for the children. Our
promise to get together again soon made me stronger and even more
determined as I went towards this crucial turning point. The
Dreamer was always reminding me that the Dream was the most
real thing that existed and that the art of dreaming was an elevation
of the Being that allowed one access to the world of solutions.
In the world of events, in the world of opposites, you can
never meet with solutions. The solution is not on the same plane
as the problem. The solution comes from above, and not in time!
You have to know how to get into the world of solutions. When you
elevate your Being, everything that had appeared nebulous becomes
clear and problems that had seemed as intractable as mountains
become slight bumps
These words made me reflect on a vital question, on a fact
which is right under our noses and yet continues to elude us and our
every attempt to understand it: throughout the entire history of the world,
problems have never been solved! At most, they have been transferred
geographically or in time, postponed to be resolved in the future or
shifted to some other country. The changes throughout the history of
humanity and the solutions found to its immense problems over time
are therefore only superficial. Today these problems are exactly as they
were thousands of years ago. Man was unable to solve them back then
with bare hands and stone axes, and is still unable to solve them today,
despite being armed with the most advanced technology.
But we have certainly made many improvements, we are
better off today
Always talking about how things have improved and
believing it, is one of mans most harmful and ingrained habits.
Common language is full of references to evolution and progress,
but everything remains as it was. Improvement is impossible,
concluded the Dreamer harshly. Believing that you can improve and
evolve is a part of the old humanitys cache of superstitions. It is a
bigoted, blind faith.
For thousands of years, nothing has happened. Planetary
problems, from poverty to crime, conflict and war, have remained
the same from the stone age to the digital age.
Improving is the password for those bent on keeping things
the way they are, for those who indulge in an obsolete and lethargic
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way of thinking.
Believing that the world can be changed from outside is
the belief of a humanity without the strength to face the roots of its
evil. A revolution in thinking is required. An overturning. To change
reality, you need to change the Dream. Only the individual can do
this. Time bends and man and all his civilisations bend and
deteriorate in cycles which always return to where they started, to
their past, while maintaining the illusion that they are advancing
towards a future. Therefore the solution, in the life of a man as in
the history of an entire civilisation, can never exist within time, but
on another plane; in vertical time, a time without time, in a raising
of the quality of thought that can only take place in this very instant.
Only by managing the instant suspended between nothing
and eternity, can humanity shape its destiny and create events of a
higher order.
As had happened before at every stage in my life when I was
guided by the Dreamer, from that moment on everything adopted
ideal proportions, falling into place like pieces in a perfect jigsaw
puzzle. Once taken, the decision resolved situations that had been
stagnating for too long, and in which I had been indulging myself.
First things first! As soon as you put the most important
thing, the Dream, your evolution, before all other things when
you remember Me a sense of discrimination will emerge you
will know what to do and what not to do When you start to observe
yourself and know yourself, everything that is right will start to
happen and whatever is not part of the Dream, whatever is not
useful, or is damaging or superf luous, will start to dissolve.
I could feel the truth of these words at all times and I touched
it with my hands. Everything which was part of the past simply
disintegrated, without any effort, and without any regret or attempt
to hold onto it on my part. Like Noah, I could only take with me the
seeds of my new world.
On the surface, I was abandoning the security of a job, a
stable family life and a house for a business venture in a far off land.
Only the years spent with the Dreamer, the long work of self
observation, and His presence, made me see that what I was really
renouncing was the lie and dependency that still pushed me to
believe in the certainty of a secure job, in protection and help from
the outside world.
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Gretchen was the epitome of that outside world, she was its
representative and loyal custodian, always careful to feed and
perpetuate its way of thinking, feeling and perceiving life. As I had
expected, when the moment came, she could not bring herself to
leave the Alps for the sands of the Middle East. That woman, and
all that she represented, could not follow me in the direction I was
going. Exactly what had happened with Jennifer was repeating itself.
Every time I said yes to the Dreamer it meant death to a world of
falseness, compromise and hypocrisy. For Him my certainties were
old rubbish which I had to trade in as soon as I could for something
of real value but still invisible to me.
These changes, which were so radical and apparently sudden,
were actually just the result of a fraction of an inch of understanding,
achieved by years and years of effort. Notwithstanding this, it was
to take years of more preparation and several more falls from grace
into error to be able to advance and absorb His words more fully and
profoundly. As I gave more of my space to the principles of the
Dreamer, Gretchen could only dissolve with the rest of the
insincerities and ghosts of my past life. She went back to New York,
her letters became more and more infrequent, and we never saw each
other again. The idols I had worshipped, the things I had most firmly
believed in, were crumbling around me. All my old priorities were
being overturned. My career, family, money, an entire set of values
were all taking a new shape. Something extraordinary was coming
into my life, and in a simple way, something gentle, sincere and true
was creating space for itself.

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CHAPTER VI

To Kuwait City

1 This is economy!

I leaned back in my chair, stretching my legs under the long
mahogany table. It had been an intense day, full of commitments,
and every day had been like this for months. We had been working
in a kind of joyous disorder; the offices cluttered with boxes of new
equipment and furniture that had arrived from Europe. The twin
towers of the Al Awadi Center, where I had established our new
headquarters, were silent at that time of night, while the monotonous
hum of the air-conditioning was reassuring, like the purr of a huge
mechanical cat. Outside in the darkness, Kuwait City was a handful
of diamonds sparkling among the coils of the Ring Roads, the citys
concentric beltways. The only motorway in the country drew a
line of lights towards the wells, a few miles to the northwest. The
huge extraction pumps were panting, their heads like those of great
saurians emerging from mineral oceans millions of years old.
It was evening now, but the temperature outside was still
unbearable with the heat surpassing every record that day. The Emir
had issued a decree for all work-related activities to be suspended if
the temperature rose above 40 C. I smiled at the thought that from that
day on, no official thermometers would ever register a temperature
above 40, thus offering an elegant solution to the humanitarian issue
and the problem of costs due to work stoppages.
With the relocation of the offices and technical assistance
departments to the business unit in Al Awadi Towers, the company I
had started in Kuwait was now fully operational and already proving
to be one of the most productive activities of the many businesses in
the Behbehani holdings. I had chosen the most qualified managers
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and technicians, from every corner of Europe and the United States,
for this enterprise, and as the ongoing development of the sector
demanded, other people were appearing in this exciting climate;
the kind of climate which always accompanies epic deeds and the
conquest of new frontiers. I had signed a contract with each of them,
requiring that they stay in the Middle East for at least three years.
It had not been easy to find and select them, but persuading them
to come to Kuwait City had been even more difficult. This small
army of expatriates had a thousand problems and endless needs:
from obtaining visas to finding accommodation, getting their
families settled and finding schools for their children. I spent days
and nights organising and planning all that was necessary to make
the enterprise run smoothly, and ensuring the well-being of all those
men for whom I was responsible. Now that I was in charge, I wanted
to do everything I could for them; all that I had wanted for myself
when I was in their position. But in spite of all my efforts, I never
managed to satisfy them.
With all their different languages, nationalities and
professions, I had assembled a little tower of Babel, a multiform
body, happily heterogeneous, and it continued to grow every day,
following the design of a perfect gestation. Each element and each
man fused naturally, falling into place along the weft of that densely
woven fabric, and I soon came to feel that this team was an extension
of myself.

To put yourself at the service of these men,
working for their well-being,
means constantly remembering the principles of the dream
The change in you will make them more alive, responsible, free.
The leaders integrity is the solution.
This is economy!

Now, alone with my thoughts, I reviewed His words in my
mind. Fragrances from my childhood permeated the air and I felt
light and festive. In my mind I could see all the men and women
who were working for me. I saw their faces again as I listened to the
Dreamers timeless words:
Looking after them, serving them and loving them is the
task of a leader. Even the most distant cell in an organisation must
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be tended in order for it to evolve and progress rapidly.

2 Forgetting the Dream

During those months of construction, I was so intensely
absorbed in my new life that I forgot the Dreamers advice and lost the
wonder of the game. For increasingly long periods of time I lived in a
kind of constriction, without breathing the pure air of His teachings,
and I forgot my search. Worries and anxieties, which I mistook for
the signs and irrepressible effects of responsibility, caged me to such
an extent that I came to believe that everything depended on my
decisions and strategic choices.
Everything is already done the Dreamer repeatedly tried to
warn me, foretelling the disastrous path on which I was taking my
first steps Everything is already done. You only have to reap the
harvest
But these words fell on stony ground, or rather they shattered
against the ramparts of my presumptuousness. I felt sure that my
management of the operations, along with their growing success, was
the natural result of abilities and talents that I had always possessed.
The thousands of situations in a business, with all their snares and
ambushes, and the struggles to prove oneself and succeed, kept me
ever more painfully tense, worried and sad.
I remember one evening as we were driving along the
corniche, on our way to dinner at Riccardos. The most improbable
traffic was flowing past: Bentleys and Ferraris pressed forward
beside old Mercedes and pick-ups bedizened like camels on parade. I
had difficulty hearing what the Dreamer was saying to me. Suddenly
every sound ceased and, as if at an invisible command, the cars drew
up to the pavement or stopped in the middle of the road. Prayer rugs
were unrolled towards Al-kaaba to welcome the genuflections of
hundreds of drivers who had been transformed, as if by magic, into a
throng of worshippers. Under a sky now thick with stars, the seafront
had become a huge mosque. In that silence, the Dreamers voice
reached me with an indescribable intensity.
These men are on the very same path as you. They
genuflect five times a day and pray to attain the same goal as yours.
But the paradise they believe in will never come. Paradise is a state
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of Being The afterlife is this world, without limits. Religion with its
mass rituals is illusory
Later that evening, having waited for the right moment, I
asked Him to tell me more. He explained to me that religions,
ideologies and science are bridges we must cross, transcend, and
then abandon. Once their task is done, we have to free ourselves from
them; but due to our indulgence, they turn into prisons of dogma
and superstition, mortal traps. For humanity as it is, aggressive and
conflictual, for people who would destroy themselves and others if
left to their own devices, religion is an instrument of social control,
of prevention and containment of criminality; tasks it shares with
law courts, sheriffs and prisons.
Remember your goal He concluded If you truly want to
turn your destiny into a great adventure, remember the principles of
the Dream Mans indulgence in negative emotions and destructive
thoughts is the true cause of all his troubles. Be alert! Dont allow
even one atom of pain to enter. Use whatever means you must, but
close each of your mortal wounds immediately!
Despite the Dreamers presence and His recommendations, I
inevitably found myself retracing the same old lines of an unhappy
existence. On that occasion as well, the Dreamer had to end our
meeting with a threat.
Let your revolution begin! He commanded or one day
youll find yourself genuflecting with this crowd hoping to propitiate a
divinity outside yourself. Then in a whisper, fierce as the hiss of a
huge predator, He added:
Change! Or Ill have to replace you with someone who is
more prepared.
The pressure at work was increasing every day as the
company grew and its operations expanded. At night I would wake
up with my heart beating tumultuously, keeping me awake for a long
time. Providentially, every so often, like a ray of sun coming through
the bars of a prison, the memory of the Dreamer would come and
give me respite. A breach opened up in that wall of forgetfulness,
and for a few moments I was able to connect with Him again. I no
longer wanted to abandon that place in the Being, that timeless island
where there were no worries, uncertainties or dread. But that state
passed in the blink of an eye. Soon the fears and doubts that had
receded for a short time returned even more strongly than before. I
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could feel myself suffocating, before nausea took over, and my mind
was again at the mercy of an army of dark thoughts.
That evening, silence and solitude appeased my reflections,
and I opened my notebook at random. The Dreamers words
appeared, vivid and powerful:
Every man is the sole artificer of his assigned reality. The
world is a large screen on which we project the ghosts of our life
Outside ourselves, there is no force, be it known or unknown,
natural or supernatural, that can influence our destiny Whatever
the events of our life may be, they cannot manifest themselves without
our consent Do not believe that this world exists outside of yourself.
Try to realise that all that you believe to be coming from out there
starts instead in yourself and nowhere else. Your recognition of an
inner cause responsible for all that happens outside yourself makes
evil, suffering and death totally disappear from the earth.

I raised my eyes, struck and suddenly enchanted by the
darkness framed in the marble arabesques of the three-mullioned
Moorish windows. I realised how different my life was now from
what it had been in the past, and I experienced an intense moment of
gratitude for how much I had received and for all that was happening
in my existence. A single drop from a superior world is enough to
dissolve all calamities of a life.
I scrutinised that environment and its every detail with a new
clarity. I surveyed the opulent, showy, Middle Eastern elegance of the
conference room and through the half-open door, I glanced at the
haphazard stacks of boxes strewn across the rich carpets. The
following day my men would unpack and assemble the equipment
and furniture, and I imagined their smiling faces. At that moment I
sensed that I was not alone, and my heart was beating wildly as I
slowly turned my chair towards that presence.

3 Worry is an animal instinct

He was there, a few steps away from me. Elegantly dressed in
His timeless style, the Dreamer sat slightly turned away, with His
legs crossed. His look was that of someone who was perfectly at ease,
and He seemed engrossed in reading a small, finely bound book. He
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did not look at me nor did He show any sign of having noticed me.
How long had He been there?
I did not have time to get over my surprise before He already
started His theme - without preamble, as usual.
Men like you, identified with the description of the world,
worry because theyve forgotten the wonder of Being He said, never
taking His eyes off the book. A pause followed, as if He were musing
on His own statement. Then, without bothering to hide His disgust at
the very thought of it, He added:
Worry is an animal instinct!
I had not seen Him for months, and finding Him before
me again so unexpectedly and so close that I could touch Him gave
me contrasting feelings. Once Id overcome my surprise, I felt the
sudden, tumultuous joy of someone wandering in the desert who
sees in the distance the miracle of a palm tree oasis. But that joy
was quickly clouded by unpleasant emotions and I felt a long-stifled
regret emerging, with its stench of pollution. For many long months
He had left me to face this task alone, and it was beyond my strength.
How many times had I regretted having listened to Him. How many
times had I endured desperation, feeling myself trapped, without the
strength to go forward, without the possibility of going back. I had
yearned for the wretched security of a salary, longing to take refuge
again in that dark womb of slavery. Even blind suffering, the dull
pain of my life before the Dreamer, had come to seem preferable to
that exhausting climb. I tried to contain myself, but I could not avoid
an aggressive reaction, almost an open challenge.
If worry is an animal instinct I snapped, feeling my facial
muscles grow rigid, losing control of my expressions then what is
one supposed to do? If we dont worry, if we dont think about it,
then who will?
The Dreamer didnt react. He continued to read His little
book which was open in the palm of His left hand. As soon as I had
uttered those words, I wanted to go back, rewind the tape of time and
erase them. But it was too late. The violence and arrogance in my
tone turned back against me; I felt crushed under the weight of a huge
boulder. At least I had managed to avoid saying I. Absurdly, this
gave me some slight relief. The silence continued, growing deeper
and more painful. In the meantime I remained quite still, watching
Him read. When He stopped, I was seized with anxiety, sensing an
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imminent and unknown danger. Unhurriedly, He closed the small
book keeping His middle finger between the pages, like a bookmark,
and raised His eyes until He rested them on me with an intensity that I
was unable to bear. For a moment I perceived the huge expanse
that separated us, and a dizzying sweep of light years measured the
distance between our two Beings.
You still belong to a world that believes it acts and make
choices a world where people make plans and programmes and
where the breath of existence passes unnoticed He said, scolding
me as a strict father might. Then, becoming imperceptibly more
gentle, He said:
The only planning a man can do is to develop himself and
nourish his own Dream. All the rest will be added Abandoning
an atom of fear moves mountains, and projects you like a giant into
the world of events.
How is it possible to avoid worrying about the future? I
asked with trepidation, dreading the painfulness of the Dreamers
intervention. Then, encouraged by a gleam of benevolence, I added:
How can we live without plans, without making
programmes? I spoke gently and respectfully, trying somehow to
remedy the coarseness of my initial remarks.
Planning is a form of exorcism, an escape from reality
responded the Dreamer Man calms his fear of the future with the
false security of expectations, through rituals made up of plans and
programmes. Faced with the apparent uncontrollability and the
unpredictability of existence, men like you have always resorted
to rules and formulae, theyre deluded into bending the universe
through the deforming lens of rationality, replacing it with a more
reassuring description of the world. But none of this has been able
to alleviate the sensation of their own precariousness or sense of
peril He concluded, as if observing the bottom line of a bitter
balance sheet.
But how can we foresee what is about to happen; how can
we prepare ourselves without making plans?
Making plans is like digging a well and expecting it to
contain the immensity of the ocean. This shield of weakness, this
armour of illusion that makes you feel protected, the frail mental
screen that youve placed between yourself and reality rips open,
and suddenly a man is confronting an abyss; the immensity of life as
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it is, and not as it has been described to him.
Long-held beliefs and practices in organisations, theories of
decision-making, business strategies, models, managerial grids and
skills, and the entire arsenal of theories and technology learnt during
my studies of economics and business in Italy, the States and Great
Britain, were collapsing on top of me like stone idols.
But in order for a manager to make decisions, will he still
have to plan his operations and those of his colleagues; will he still
have to set out objectives to be accomplished? I asked, a moment
later, in a feeble attempt to save at least a few of the convictions on
which I had founded my life and the illusion of being able to manage
my company in Kuwait.
Dont hide behind the mask of a role! thundered the
Dreamer, in a tone that had become aggressive again Dont say
a manager, say what can I do? Deliberately use this little I
and take responsibility! The universe listens to you. Always! and it
weighs you, even when you ask a question.
An old wound opened inside and I felt the searing pain of
resentment and humiliation, as though a Barnabites stick had struck
the palm of my hand. In an instant I was back inside the walls of my
old parochial school set like a white pearl in the bowels of Naples.
And I felt the healing. When those images disappeared I found
myself again before the Dreamer, innocent once more. Now at last
was I able to listen to Him.
A true leader plans and makes programmes just as all the
others do, but without believing in them. His planning is a performance
that respects the actions and roles of an invisible theatrical script.
Every moment is an act of creation every moment is new finished
the Dreamer Theres never been a moment before, or a moment
after Nor will there ever be! All that you see and all that you
dont, is created in this very moment Everything happens now, in
this eternal instant, in the omnipotence, in the infinite space of your
Being.
The Dreamer accompanied these words by pulling an
invisible thread between His finger and thumb from the sky, tracing
a vertical line through the air to the world.
The moment is the territory of the Dream An ordinary
mans plan happens in time and space sooner or later it plummets
and fails.
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But isnt dreaming also a kind of plan? I asked with
the comfort of surrender, growing more and more fascinated by His
vision.
The Dream is a plan that happens without time in
eternity, in vertical time I am this moment This moment contains
all that I will find and gather through time crumbs, fragments
of me. This is why a dreamer neither makes plans, nor worries.
He allows the Dream to express itself in all its freedom, all its
beauty he knows the results will come naturally, through his level
of faultlessness and integrity. Deep within you is a unified field of
limitless possibilities. It is here that your dream takes place. It is
here that whoever or whatever is necessary to create prosperity
and success in your life, appears. It is here that your purpose in life
becomes very clear to you.
Then in the tone of someone presenting a mathematical
proof, He continued:
In all companies and in every organisational pyramid,
the lower the level of responsibility, the greater necessity there is
for planning. The more it descends towards those who play minor
roles, the more it becomes necessary to plan every minute detail, to
set and execute precise objectives. There, all rituals in a decision-
making process are scrupulously followed, but through these men
and women nothing happens.
The air was still vibrating with these words when the
lights of the conference room, where we had remained, dimmed.
Slowly a screen came down and covered the back wall, and I had
the impression that the walls and the ceiling were disappearing. I
felt some sharp jerks as the armchair shifted, as if it were now on a
moving platform, or some extraordinary, invisible vehicle.

4 Escape is only for few

Images began to flow across the screen. I saw human
masses groping in the corridors of organisations, crowding the open
spaces or caged in cubicles, which were like insects cells.
These are shadows He said to me Nothing has been done
so far to change this humanity, and ferry it towards a new
species. Only an Individual Revolution will reverse the way that
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millions of men and women think and feel, trapped in their hypnotic
sleep.
The Individual Revolution.
Those two words would come to be of decisive importance in
my life, but at that moment, they meant nothing to me; even though
they were an announcement of the Project for which the Dreamer
had been preparing me for years. But it was still too early for Him
to reveal its magnificence to me.
I visited the lowest levels of organisations with the Dreamer,
and with Him I penetrated those thick, slow worlds, swarming with
prisoners. With bated breath, I witnessed the succession of those
images. I watched men and objects floating in the greenish liquid of
an immense aquarium, poorly illuminated by livid neon lights. I had
lived there for so many years, yet it was only now that I realised how
painful the experience had been and how difficult the condition was
for those creatures, condemned every day to breathe the air which
they themselves polluted.
All of a sudden, the glass that contained that sick universe
became reflective, and in it I saw the images of two decrepit figures,
both grey and bent. I noted their wrinkled skin, cracked like burnt
earth, while the creases in their faces were so deep they seemed like
scars. Something in their appearance was disturbingly familiar.
I scrutinised them, forcing myself to discover what could be
the cause of that worrying sensation, and when I recognised them, I
was horrified: those two old people were the Dreamer and myself!
Terrified, I turned to Him... I saw that He was perfectly in control
and His harsh face was younger than ever. He gave me an
encouraging smile that calmed me, but my soul remained seized by a
mute desperation.
I saw a boundless number of young people waiting in
line, in whose eyes one could still perceive a spark of light. Like
a human ribbon, they flowed past a fierce examiner who, one by
one, discarded them, or assigned them work. Like Minos with his
coiled tail, he indicated to each one a situation of pain, a permanent
position in the infernal circles of the organisations. With emotion I
observed their pallor, their gazes that were not completely dead. I
knew they were condemned to unhappiness.
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Being chosen is below dignity, said the Dreamer A
man dreams his work and chooses it according to his intent, his
partiality.
He noticed my compassion for their destiny, and plucked the
question I wanted to ask Him from the air, anticipating me:
Evolution of the masses is impossible! No revolution or
ideology can succeed Escape is only for few Only the individual
can make it My expression remained painfully absorbed. I felt
myself to be the representative of a species, standing before the bar,
listening to the announcement of an unfavourable and final sentence.
What youre looking at is not humanity He said, revealing
my incomprehension The crowd that you see is not outside of you!
I thought the Dreamer was making me confront my lie, unmasking
my false altruism and my presumption of being able to do something
for others, and I was mortified. But the Dreamers lesson was a long
way from being over. With a turn of the screw He made His
examination even more ruthless and thorough.
That multitude you see is your own degradation. Those men
disheartened by pain and the dread of competition are the scattered
fragments of your Being, the reflected image of the desperation you
bear inside. Through me the Dreamer was scourging the Pharisee
in the temple. I felt some disfigured part of me being turned out, laid
bare and exposed to the world. My mortification turned into a more
honest feeling, an irresistible shame that seared me from head to toe.
You can only do for yourself! He said gruffly, wanting to
shake me out of that state They are you! Your own change will
transform all mankind If you want this suffering to stop and
mankind to change, heal yourself! I reeled at those words, at the
announcement of such responsibility. It was as though an armoured
door was sealing off every means of escape behind me. I could not
blame or commiserate with anyone and a vice gripped my stomach.
In my desperate search for a refuge, I hid amid the pages of my
notebook. I buried my nose in the notes, trying to gather my churning
thoughts and concentrate on what He was saying. According to the
Dreamer, the only possibility for humanity, the only way to progress,
is to construct an integral man.
This is the only salvation for the masses He declared.
He continued, claiming that man is still a being in transition,
with an incomplete psychology. The evolution of the species is a
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journey towards integrity; it has to be performed from the inside
to the outside, through a process of unification that cannot be
imposed on it. This is why all the old systems have failed. Wars and
revolutions do not succeed. With my mind in turmoil, I was taking
notes, compulsively underlining the Dreamers statements many
times.
Mans next evolutionary passage cannot take place in a
historical future, but in a timeless time, a vertical future He said.
As if I were peering through a sudden rip in a curtain, suddenly I
could clearly see the evolutionary sense of human organisations, and
the reason for all their apparently foolish pain. A mans aspiration
to transcend himself, and his millenary search to give meaning to his
existence, was moving from the traditional grounds of religion and
politics to that of economics, enterprises, factories, industries,
laboratories and offices. Mans exodus towards integrity was taking
place in those organisations, as though on spacecraft launched
towards other worlds. Enterprises and organisations, and the endless
network of temples and oracles of business, were replacing convents
and churches, changing into places of aspiration and evolution.
Future organisations will be Schools of Being prophesied
the Dreamer. Then He pronounced words that would always remain
imprinted on my mind:
Business will be the religion of the planet, the religion of
religions. Its in Business, more than in convents, mosques or ashrams,
that men are engaged in a titanic effort aimed at the highest levels
of responsibility. Its in Business that adversity and difficulty are
being converted into a propellant to be used on the journey towards
freedom. Its in the skyscrapers of multinationals and the temples
of finance, more than in synagogues and monasteries, that men are
attempting the impossible: reversing their vision changing their
destiny.
The immensity of that vision made me tremble, and just
listening to that prediction demanded a responsibility that I still
did not possess. In its design one could sense, decades early, the
revolution that would heave the entire economic system off its ethical
cornerstones, and demand an end to the old rational capitalism. The
Dreamers message held the secret of the success of the School of
Economics that I would found: all companies, big or small, would
one day become schools of aspiration and responsibility. At their
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summit there would be visionaries, both philosophers and men of
action, aware that economic success and longevity of their company
is at one with the evolution of each of their men. To know this long
before any other university, would create an unbeatable competitive
advantage.
At that time I could not know that. It was as if the Dreamer,
had entrusted me with the task of creating a car industry, giving
me also the complete designs to build the engine of the future. His
message contained the life breath of ESE, The European School
of Economics planetary philosophy, the uniqueness of the Work
it would take forward, the grandeur of its mission: preparing
visionaries, philosophers or action.
Dreaming is the development of an internal world, which
prevents you from being merely a function of life, a mechanical
puppet of the external world of appearances. The object of the School
is freedom: freedom from conflict, suffering, division and death.
The Dream is something you place between yourself and
life The ordinary man thinks that life is the cause and he is the
effect. Only work on the Being, the work of a School of overturning,
can subvert this disastrous vision of the world.
The work of a true School is a labour of excavation a
work that will eliminate dross, stratifications and pollution in
search of something that we once possessed, that made us integral,
happy and immortal: will.
The School and Will are one and the same thing. The School is
Will outside us. Will is the School within us.
When the true will emerges, youll no longer need the
School. When Will is unearthed well be masters of ourselves. And to
be masters of ourselves means being masters of the universe.
Underneath all and everything there is something precious that is
rightfully ours. It is our contact with this very thing that will lead us
to possess all and everything.

5 Make programmes but dont believe them

Here we started to rise again. With Him I climbed the
paths that led to the richest and most brilliant sectors in business.
The Dreamer showed me that behind the biggest multinationals,
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the worlds financial and industrial giants, beyond every human
achievement there is invariably an individual and his dream.

Climbing up the pyramids of decision-making to the
summits, up there, where the organisation reaches its utmost velocity,
He showed me the immobility which had given rise to that action
and the invisibility that had given birth to that brilliant idea. As for
the founder, the visionary man, the luminous madman the pragmatic
utopian; he and he alone had allowed that world to exist and, like a
termite queen, still nourished it.
His only activity is caring for his integrity the Dreamer
revealed What makes him special is his attentiveness and vigilant
spirit, that doesnt allow any doubt or shadow of a compromise to
make a rift in his determination; nor does it allow even one single
opaque atom to enter and pollute the Dream.
Because of a leaders psychological swiftness, programmes
and plans are instruments that are too slow and rigid. At the point
where decision-making involves a sixth sense: intuition, and a
seventh sense: the Dream, there is, in reality, nothing to decide.
A true leader makes programmes, but without believing
them, He affirmed. His aspiration guides him, and he believes only
in his impeccability.
He has no objectives outside himsef He continued
because the objective is himself his freedom!
Having reached that level of integrity, it will be his vision
that creates the way, his step that creates the path. He will have no
need to choose a direction, because he is the direction; the inventor of
the dream that is unfolding and taking shape in the world of events.
Commit yourself to integrity the Dreamer ordered me,
enunciating these words slowly to underline their importance
Inner commitment is investment. It is your commitment that makes
things happen! It is the incorruptibility of the leader that attracts all
opportunities and necessary resources The solemn promise that he
has made to himself to honour the Game to the very end. The success
of each of his actions in the external world is only a reflection of his
integrity.
The accomplishment of enterprises at the edge of the
impossible, the creation of immense wealth, the foundation of
economic empires; these are only an extension of his Being,
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an authentication of his degree of interior freedom and level of
responsibility. If a man maintains the integrity of his commitment,
success is inevitable, it is the natural product of integrity.
A true leader knows that the real business is only internal!
He is the incorruptible guardian of his own promise. This is what
he must keep intact said the Dreamer in conclusion. Then he fell
silent.
Images of financial empires and boundless fortunes
succeeded each other for a few seconds on the screen. As they
dissolved, a deep silence permeated the meeting room. His stern
eyes were scrutinising me, observing the effect of those revelations. I
felt my Being literally turned upside-down. In the inner shop, prices
and merchandise had been tossed into the air and were now being
rearranged. New priorities were marking the right price on the right
merchandise, while a new order was assigning placement on the
shelves, relegating old beliefs and dusty principles to the storeroom.
I closed my eyes and wished with all my heart for that
operation to be thoroughly completed. When He began to speak
again, He took up the question of immobility. For the leader the most
powerful action at his disposal is doing through not doing, acting
without acting. The Dreamer defined it as an effortless action: a
poetic, dreamy state
For the leader, solitude and immobility are accumulators of
power He concluded the state in which he senses and attracts
precious messages from the will that is now buried in man Be
serious, be sincere and you will feel it strong and clear and you
will know!
At those words my imagination veered away and I visualised
endless masses of dependent people. From above, I watched
thousands of men and women; their constant comings and
goings. The images were vivid and real. I focused my mind on them
and saw pathetic beings with their restless behaviour, their
fluttering, mechanical gestures, moving as in a comical sequence
of silent film. The Dreamer interrupted my reveries at this point,
penetrating my reflections and guiding them. After so many years
spent in organisations, only now, with Him, did I realise that the
more agitated their movements, the more worried and busy people
appear to be, the more insignificant their positions and the lower
their levels of responsibility and compensation.
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From the motionless void, I move the wheel of the entire
universe and the beings that are on its circumference, on the
spokes, on the hub the Dreamer recited solemnly.
That void at the centre of the hub is the true creator of the
wheel on that invisibility rests the entire hierarchical pyramid of
beings that constitute it He finished, and fell silent.
Who was this Being who was subverting my life?
I felt the multitude of my thoughts uniting within me,
emotions and scattered parts of my Being gathering together. A
torrent of energy increased until it broke its banks, sweeping away
doubts, worries, and everything that was dead inside me. With
Him, economy and business exceeded their limits, becoming poetry
and further still, a universal art. I wanted to maintain that state of
intelligence the clarity and lucidity of that moment, and that sensation
of being able to contain anything and everything. It was then that He
showed me how to live strategically and spoke to me about the Art
of Acting.
A leader has to know how to act all the roles to perfection
He said He can fake absent-mindedness, ignorance and even
negativity if his role requires it, but he doesnt have to it! He
cautioned. The urgency of his tone implied that this was a matter of
life or death.
He can get angry and violent, he can change his face into a
mask of aggressiveness, but inwardly he must not feel even slightly
affected.
This performance of negativity He called the right negative
attitude.
He added that, through acting a leader may programme,
make plans and pretend to project himself into the distant future.
But without believing it! He repeated in the same
peremptory tone.
A free man, a real man, knows that every moment requires a
strategy; every instant has its statute, and imposes a script that must
be performed flawlessly. The detachment of those who are
conscious of acting allows them to choose between different courses
of action and possible roles, like choosing which mask to put on in
order to perfectly align themselves with the circumstances and the
events that they encounter.
Only a real man can act! He announced firmly An
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ordinary man, identified with his role, conditioned by his fears and
hypnotised by the description of the world, has forgotten the art of
acting, the power of acting, and knows only falsehood.
Many times, at crucial points in His speech, I had tried to
shield myself from those subversive ideas. To me, the leaders acting
skills seemed very close to lying, to opportunism.
Acting consciously doesnt mean lying roared the Dreamer
Acting means living strategically! It was clear that the Dreamer
had free access to my every thought. My surrender to this clarity
dispersed the shadows before they even gathered.
Living strategically is the action of a warrior who
intentionally and flawlessly performs the acts that the situation
requires. Externally he responds to the needs of the role at the
same time, internally, he takes possession of the responsibility and
power that hide behind that mask. Only those who live strategically
can make it!
He waited for this statement to produce its effect, scrutinising
me like a doctor who had just injected an antidote into a drug-
addict, and when He started to speak again, His voice was serious;
somewhere between a warning and the solemn announcement of
some vital knowledge:
When you worry, when you plan and think negatively, when
you forget what has brought you this far, you reduce yourself to the
dimensions of an insect and the world gets the upper hand.
Thousands of frames of film in the universe record your defeat, and
not only will you not be able to have more, but whatever you think
you already have will be taken away.
The Dreamer was giving me the final recommendations
before throwing me back into the jaws of the world. His voice
became lower, until it turned into a whisper. He was about to tell
me something that would become the cornerstone of all that I would
build in my life, and the first principle for all prosperity.
The Dream is the most real thing that exists! The
Dream is reality without time Only a man who dreams can create
wealth.
According to the Dreamer the Dream is the sublimated world,
the real cause of all that we see and touch.
The Dream is vertical planning that only a visionary can
know After does not exist except in the imagination Internally,
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every instant is a shop that opens and closes, and at every moment
one gains or loses. Every moment is a success or a failure. Everything
is happening now, in this everlasting instant.

6 The Diary

A diary stuffed with appointments, like yours, with no room
left the Dreamer began, indicating one of the pages that was
densely covered in names, times and telephone numbers is a
suicide note. It means affirming ones own death The more dead a
man is, the more he fills his day with engagements.
It was like a punch in the stomach. That pain I knew so
well by now was a sure sign that the Dreamers new attack on my
system of beliefs was effective. I tried to flee from the speed of those
powerful, direct words. Feelings of aversion and violent thoughts
against the Dreamer emerged from the recesses of my Being, and
joined forces in an uncontrollable crescendo inside me. I rebelled
against being classed as a dead man just because I had an active and
busy existence.
But its impossible to live in the context of a modern
society without having obligations, appointments or meetings I said
resentfully. I emphasised the words modern society sarcastically,
as if to demarcate the difference between our worlds. I was certain
that everything that the Dreamer was claiming had no practical
sense. Once He said to me: Let the game continue, let the comedy
unfold allow collaborators and professionals to do what their role
demands. The company is a theatrical representation with masks
and characters who follow a script Dont believe it! Dont lose
yourself! dont forget its a game.
I was sure the Dreamer had no idea what it meant to manage an
international company with hundreds of collaborators, and to feel the
shareholders breathing down ones neck every day.
So I said, in exasperation I dont understand! What
can a diary possibly have to do with being dead or alive? I hardly
managed to pronounce these words, as a knot of emotion closed my
throat.
Every appointment you make, every meeting you arrange
said the Dreamer, apparently without noticing my secret cry for
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help which was hidden by my aggressiveness serves to strengthen
your illusion of being alive, to corroborate yourself in your foolish
convictions. First amongst those convictions is that of being able
to plan. To plan and believe it is to die. Only what is dead can be
planned
The true plan is in this moment, in the here and now
A leader can have armies of collaborators who make
plans and programme future operations in every detail, but his own
decisions will always be the fruit of the moment. Until that moment
he doesnt know, nor does he act until the moment reveals its eternity.
Only then will he know all that he needs to know.
Everything will be at your disposition once you have learned
to live the moment in its entirety. Plans and programmes arise
naturally, without effort, when you cease believing in them.
His gaze turned to steel and, still looking at me intently, He
moved His head first to the left and then to the right, as if He were
comparing my two profiles. I began to feel uneasy. There was a silent
and impending menace in His movements, like those of a predator
who hides his ferocious intent.
For men like you, a diary helps you to forget He said in a
low voice.
My mild worry rapidly turned into fear. I had to find a way
out of that state, at any cost. The moment required a lightness of
touch I didnt have; I should have simply been able to ask Him to
explain that bizarre and perhaps even comic vision. How can a diary
help anyone to forget? I felt wrapped in a psychological cocoon from
which I was unable to free myself. That meeting with the Dreamer
was revealing itself to be a mortal duel between the part of me that
refused to yield, and the other part, thirsty and parched, that was
avidly drinking His words.
I could hardly summon the breath to ask:
Forget what?
Slowly the Dreamer moved a few millimetres closer to me.
Forget yourself He murmured.
My fear had grown into an irrational, devastating terror. In
time, I would come to recognise the fundamental stages of my
evolution in moments like this; when the Dreamer, penetrating the
armour of my unshakeable certainties, managed to deposit a little of
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His precious substance like a bee pollinating a flower. This is how I
came closer to the Dream.
The world is the unfolding in time of all that we dream An
appointment is always with yourself or better, with a part of you as
yet unknown to you. Men and events rise and dissolve following a
script already written in the Being
When you plan and believe it you are moving away from
the real world The more you convince yourself that appointments
and meetings happen as you have programmed them, the more you
strengthen your sense of death And this is how you come to meet
dead people who make plans and schedules just as you do And
others under the illusion that they are making choices and taking
decisions, without ever recognising their true powerlessness.
Here the Dreamer paused, and I believed that His work of
demolition was finished. I desperately needed to draw breath. But
the Dreamer never left a job half done. He calibrated his timing
with great precision, and then delivered the punch-line of that
extraordinary lesson.
One day your agenda will be that of a free man, a man who
truly acts and does so because he knows that he always has the
solution within him that he himself is the solution. Youll act out
the meetings and roles and let the world be free to happen in the
best possible way. The world will become your masterpiece without
effort or constraint. Only then will your agenda be that of a true
leader it will contain only blank pages.

7 Hello, who am I?

The day had begun on an early morning high note. From the
terrace of the house in Samia I had already answered several
different telephone calls. The Dreamer was at my side and watching
me in silence while I, involved in ongoing events and lost in the
content of the conversations, issued orders, raised my voice, grew
angry, and in a couple of cases, actually lost my temper.
Every so often I turned to glance at the Dreamer, hoping to
discern a look of complicity from Him, or to receive a nod of
solidarity for the mass of work Id had to deal with since early that
morning, owing to the thankless task of managing a team of bunglers
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who needed to have everything repeated a hundred times. How could
they be so dim-witted as to misunderstand the simplest and clearest
orders?
When you answer the telephone you shouldnt say: Hello,
who is it? but Hello, who am I? the Dreamer remarked, just as I
was ending a lengthy telephone conversation. I thought I hadnt
understood what he was saying. He had spoken very softly, as He
tended to do when He wanted to tell me something particularly
important, something for which I should instantly abandon every
other preoccupation to give full attention to Him. I went on alert. One
look sufficed for me to recognise that the Dreamer was in pitiless
predator mode. I shivered and could feel my adrenaline pumping
into circulation. With all the calmness I could muster, I asked Him
to repeat what He had just said, but my voice was already frayed by
my growing apprehension.
The others are YOU! He shouted in a terrible voice. In my
interior world, in the hell of Being into which accusation and
complaint had flung me, the Dreamer was no longer a polite guest
seated at my table, but a terrifying captain roaring out orders in a
raging storm while the ship yawed on the very brink of a watery
doom. I was stiff with terror and jerked back in fear. The telephone
receiver almost crashed against the table skipping from one hand to
the other like a mischievous, live and slippery Being.
The scene must have been so comical that even the Dreamer
couldnt help laughing at me. Even behind His most severe mask, His
apparently uncontrolled anger, a vast calm sea persisted; His pitiless
gaze concealed a sphinx-like serenity that dismayed me even more
than His threats. He remained this way for a moment, then His face
resumed its fierce predators glower.
The others are you! He repeated. His voice sounded calm
again but I was not reassured.
The world is such because you are such, not vice versa.
Dont run away The visible helps you to recognise the invisible.
Other people help to show you what you dont want to see in yourself
What is it in me that projects all this? This is the question that a
respectable person asks himself! I have been listening to you. Youre
indecisive, prolix The confusion is in you, not in the others the
Dreamer continued, leaning slightly forward across the table.
The world manifests itself as doubtful, chaotic, irresponsible
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and this certifies what you are, where you are. In every phone call,
whoever is on the other end invariably asks: Am I disturbing
you?
Now that He had drawn my attention to it, I realised this was
true, but I still didnt grasp why this detail was important. Am I
disturbing you? was a circumstantial question, one that I had always
heard absent-mindedly and considered nothing more than a common
courtesy; a sign of respect for another persons privacy, particularly
for someone of higher office.
They say Am I disturbing you? because they sense that
youre unprepared. The world, the others, r e f l e c t you theyre
a mirror replicating the image of an indolent man, one who talks to
himself. Am I disturbing you? is your lack of responsibility! Am I
disturbing you? means that youre not clear! Am I disturbing you!
is how the world denounces you!
Driing! The telephone rang again.
I picked up the receiver and mechanically asked:
Who is it?
I didnt even have time to finish that customary question
before the Dreamers voice rang out even more terrible than before.
You should say Hello, who am I? not whos there?
He was furious now.
Who am I? the Dreamer insisted, still shouting Thats
how someone answers who has understood that it is always himself on
the other end! I was simultaneously listening to the Dreamer while
trying to maintain some semblance of normality in the conversation I
had just initiated.
Hello, who am I? means remembering that youre meeting
your confusion continued the Dreamer, overriding my conversation,
heedless of who might be on the other end of the line and what they
might be overhearing. I listened to the Dreamers voice and answered
my interlocutor in monosyllables, trying to shorten the conversation
and end it by whatever means possible.
The world wants to be ruled! Whoever calls needs to be
contained needs clarity But after a few remarks from you, he
discovers that you dont have any direction Youre wounded,
saturated
Let lightness prevail, enter into other zones of
understanding the Dreamer urged me with unexpected benevolence,
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returning to His normal tone of voice An attentive man knows
that, hidden beneath the crust of determination and false securities,
theres always the same wound, the same grief he knows that
theres nothing he can undertake or do as long as that wound
remains untreated, unhealed. And even if he tried to escape, were
he to retreat into a cave like a hermit or enter into the ascetic life of a
convent, far from any telephone or engagement that wound, that
grief, would painfully return to denounce his lack of preparation.
But you, like all ordinary men, dont feel that pain anymore, or
else you pretend its nothing. In His voice was the echo of a
failure without remedy, the pain of a cosmic defeat.
The telephone rang again. At this point I had no idea what to
do. I did not want to contrast the Dreamer, but at the same time I
did not feel the freedom, the lightness of touch, or the essential
understanding of the game that would enable me to respond according
to His instructions. The ringing continued. The Dreamer with a nod
encouraged me to answer and accompanied His gesture with these
words:
Think what a blessing it is! The world calls to tell us who
we are and what we lack Its like having the Delphic oracle nearby
and being able to question it at will. Then, half joking, He added:
Everyone answering the telephone seems to ask who is
calling but in actual fact they already know You already know
who it is on the other end because its you who is calling yourself
Something in me flew open; a sensation of wellbeing
pervaded me, as if a displaced vertebrae had readjusted and returned
to its place. The telephone kept ringing, but I was too busy writing
to stop and answer it. I was about to capture and possess the secret
in His words, words that contained a force capable of changing a life
and transforming a mans destiny.
The world is a pure reflection of your Being Dont
forget! cautioned the Dreamer. The world telephones to tell you
who you are to let you know what youve always tried to avoid
knowing about yourself! Its you and only you who decides who must
be on the other end Its you and only you who decides what will be
said to you For the moment, on the other end of the line you find
humanity waiting to reflect your fragility. Its you who is asking for
help, for healing
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I listened and wrote down everything the Dreamer said to me
with the absolute certainty that things were exactly as He stated.
Now everything was perfectly clear. The scattered pieces of many
of the Dreamers teachings were finding their place in a perfect
composition. I wanted to record every detail of my comprehension
of that moment so that I could retrieve it, whole and intact, whenever I
needed it, and I also wished to be able to pass it on one day.
A living man invites life the Dreamer asserted, exploiting
the breach that had opened within me Your self-pity invites failure.
Like attracts Like. Understanding attracts understanding. Do you
want to change the people on the other end of the line? Do you want
to change their words, their tone, the news they bear? Change
yourself! Become the solution and the world will be resolved forever.
He gave me a few seconds to catch my breath. He waited
until I had added also this last part of His speech to my notes, then
He continued:
Answering Hello, who am I? is the attitude of a man who
knows and remembers that he is the only one responsible for all that
happens in his own life A telephone call allows you to understand
what you have so far refused to see, touch and face up to.
At that moment the telephone rang again. Before answering it,
I waited a few seconds to hear the Dreamers advice:
Clarity Give clarity to the world and on the other end of
the line there will only be good news.
Hello, who am I? I said, smiling at the thought of the effect
this eccentric response would have on my interlocutor. From that
moment on, picking up the receiver would not initiate a common
conversation, but a prophetic and adventurous journey of discovery,
like the ancient pilgrimages to Delphi; as intoxicating as the vapours
coiling up from the cracks in the temples floor, attending the
officiating Pythia.
The telephone rang again.
Become the solution... inside! commanded the Dreamer,
giving me a nod of permission to answer Be free! Theres no
problem to solve outside no wicked entity to defend yourself
against, no enemy to fight. To give an answer to the world you have
to become the solution Enter into sincerity, simplicity, lightness,
and the brightness of the Being If youre able to watch the game
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from above, youll discover that the world on the other end of the line
will offer you all its gratitude and devotion.
Then one day youll discover that the real work of a man, the
only work, is to repair the world. Youll realise that you, only you, are
the cause of every lunacy, every conflict and crime that happens in
the world; and you, only you, can heal, protect, save and love it, if
you know how to heal, protect, save and love yourself inside.
The telephone was still ringing.
Hello, who am I? I answered, lifting the receiver. I felt a
welling of gratitude within me and I just managed to resist a sudden,
disrespectful desire to embrace Him.

8 Tripping up mechanical habits

Several times a day the Muezzins call summoned the faithful
to prayer. As in the ancient polis, that voice seemed to determine the
perimeter of invisible walls. There were no bands of religious
police patrolling the souk, as in Saudia Arabia where saving ones
soul is a government affair and where one can hear truncheons
battering against the shops shutters to ensure that every profane
activity has been suspended and that everyone has gone to the
mosque. Here however, verses of the Koran wailed from the slender
minarets, bringing every activity to a halt with a peremptory call to
one of the daily rituals of genuflection towards Mecca.
It would seem that Muslims possess a profound interior
orientation that allows them to keep the direction of their Sacred City
constantly in mind. Mecca is the pole star in their spiritual navigation
and in every office, hotel room, or public place, there is an arrow
pointing exactly towards Mecca. Five times a day throughout the
Islamic world, millions of prayer rugs are unrolled in that direction,
to receive the kneeling worshippers. On the stroke of the appointed
hour, all other activities take second place.
Once, on a return flight from Europe, I found a last-minute
seat on a Saudi plane with a stopover in Jeddah. I discovered too late
that it was a hajj flight direct to Mecca and I was the only infidel
on board. At a certain point this became embarrassing when all the
other passengers took off their clothes after departure and donned
the white robes of Islamic pilgrims. Then, despite the calls to order
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and superhuman efforts by the onboard staff to get them to take their
seats, they took turns praying, occupying the aisles of the Tristar
and genuflecting towards Mecca. How could they know in which
direction it lay? I mused about flights of mystical birds, flocks gifted
with an arcane instinct that drew them inevitably back to their small
black sun, at the centre of Al-Kaaba.
More than once it happened that, in the middle of a
negotiation or business meeting, my Islamic counterparts would stop
everything and withdraw in prayer. I noticed that those few minutes
of interruption somehow strengthened them, but I did not know how. I
tried to investigate the innermost reason for that religious practice,
the hidden intelligence behind this ritual, but no one could give me
an explanation that went beyond a bigoted and superstitious vision.
In the course of one of my meetings with the Dreamer I took the
opportunity to ask Him. The explanation He gave me was of special
importance to my preparation. I noted it carefully.
Throughout the millennia, the traditions of wisdom
have devised and transmitted every kind of trick to contrast with
the rigidity and repetitiveness towards which men inevitably tend
He said Genuflections towards Mecca five times a day, the fasting
ritual of Ramadan in the ninth month of the Islamic lunar year;
indeed, the rituals present in every religious tradition, these could all
be defined as tripping up mechanical behaviour. Their function is
to nourish mankinds drowsy intelligence and latent understanding,
by the interruption of routine; pushing men to deviate from the rut of
deep-rooted habits.
The Dreamer went on to explain that these are norms of
physical, mental and spiritual hygiene, the originating intelligence
of which has been lost. They now survive, hidden, in the form of
religious beliefs, empty rituals, or as superstitious practices. If we
bothered to pay the slightest attention to our movements, we would
discover how mechanical and repetitive our lives are. Every morning
we set out with scrupulous rigour on a series of actions which are
always the same: we get out of bed with the same foot, we start
shaving from the same side, we clean our teeth repeating the same
number of movements, in the same direction, and always with the
same facial expression. We have settled habits, we express the same
ideas with the same gestures, words and inflections we have always
used. Even our emotions are predictable, like conditioned reflexes of
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the soul. In the ordinary man, the will is buried. His behaviour is the
reflection of a mechanical intelligence, and could be studied more
profitably by sciences like ethology or robotics than by psychology.
Even when hes sure of making a decision or choice, or of
freely expressing his will continued the Dreamer with a minimal
degree of self-observation every man would notice that in reality he is
constantly guided by mechanical processes, that he is moving along
old mental ruts carved out by prejudice and clich, commonplaces,
emulating others out of habit.
I was simultaneously staggered and fascinated by the
Dreamers ideas and by His style, which revealed the harshest truths
of the human condition without inflicting injury, and I wondered
what could be the origin of His authority and His wisdom. Behind the
severity of His aspect and words, there was an invisible and constant
smile; an infinite compassion that mitigated His systematic and
ruthless demolition of ideas, beliefs and illusions rooted in the Being. I
wanted to know more about tripping up our mechanical habits, but
the Dreamer seemed to have closed the subject. I only managed, by
insisting, to obtain a few more words, which I noted down faithfully;
they somehow allowed me to insert this new concept into the larger
framework of the Dreamers philosophical system.
Every intentional effort, even the smallest, made to modify a
repetitive action, a mechanical reaction or to break a habit, is a
victory over our monotony, the tripping up of repetitive habits and
recurrences of our life.
The Dreamer added that this work allowed a man to escape
the laws of fortuity, to ward off accidents and even the chances of
finding himself involved in disasters and natural calamities.
Ever since, I tried to remind myself of this as often as
possible; and I began to observe, and contrast within myself, the
hardened automatisms, rusty and creaking mechanical reactions,
fixations, habits and routines of every kind. Only he who has tried
to do this can understand the difficulties involved and realise how
little of our life remains outside the tyranny of automatisms and
unconscious repetition. But it is worth the effort. The development
of attention and a vigilant spirit extends its validity well beyond the
intentional modification of our routines, customs or behaviour. In
this inner game of cops and robbers, the ability to lay an ambush
for our habits, to become the implacable hunter of all the obsolete
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responses in us and the attention to our movements and awareness
of our reactions, is a work on the Being which has an unequalled
reflection on the quality of our thoughts and feelings, and therefore
on our lives.

9 Winning ourselves

My meetings with the Dreamer became rarer and events and
external circumstances grew ever more suffocating. I felt inadequate
and dissatisfied. The world had become enlarged, and towered over
me menacingly. Its hypnotic strength became more pervasive and
overwhelming as the months passed by and the company in Kuwait
grew in importance.
Keep your sense of humour and stop taking yourself so
seriously the Dreamer had exhorted on many occasions, coming to
rescue me on the brink of desperation Use self-irony. Its a powerful
antidote against every form of fixation and identification.
In the Dreamers language, identifying with the world
demonstrated our fall into a state of diminished freedom, a
psychological shrinkage.
You become the effect and the world becomes the cause.
You become small, and the world grows huge and swallows you up.
At His words, the scene of Alice at risk of drowning in her own tears
flashed across my mind.
The Dreamer had taught me an entire series of devices
and strategies to protect myself from identification and avoid being
swallowed up by the hypnotic blob of events called reality. One such
method was at a certain point to interrupt every activity, intentionally
choosing moments which are apparently the least suitable, the most
intense and crucial. Motionless, in the corner of a room, I tried to
fight the pressure that time exercised on every square centimetre of
my Being.
In those moments, I physically felt the worlds tyranny trying to
seize me again, forcing me back into the vortex of anxieties and
worries of my life; blackmailing me with the thought of the damage
that would be created by those few seconds of detachment, by that
small void I was creating in the continuum of the mechanically
preordained events of my life. When I put His advice into practice,
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my ability to stay detached, to remain independent of events and in
command of circumstances, grew quite noticeably. Life and business
lost their usual gravity. Thus freed from their hypnotic attraction, I
was able to rediscover the importance of the game.
On other occasions, to defend myself, I chose, among other
stratagems, to make faces at myself in the mirror. Watching my
mocking grimaces, I never let myself forget what was at stake in the
game. A mortal match was underway.
Those intentional efforts opened up a connection with the
great schools of antiquity. Like sounds released through the tuning
fork of time, their teachings vibrated in unison with each atom of my
body. I remember these f lashes of lucidity as moments of rare grace.
During that period, the Dreamer introduced an unforgettable
expression into my lexicon: winning oneself . I distinctly remember
the first time He spoke to me about it. We were in the penthouse of Le
Mridien, seated near the large swimming-pool of the roof garden. He
was wearing a white linen suit, lizard moccasins, and dark glasses.
Each small detail and gesture defined Him as a refined westerner
with a deep knowledge of the Arab world. We were talking while
looking out through the glass at the slender minarets, expanse of
terraces and dusty buildings of Kuwait City, which descended to the
waters of the Gulf, cobalt blue like the domes of the Water Towers. I
was confiding my difficulties to Him; those I had encountered as an
entrepreneur, and the obstacles I was continuing to meet along the
way. I asked him how one can possess the keys to leadership, and I
wanted to know the magic formula for fearlessness, invulnerability,
victory and glory.
A leader is first and foremost a manager of the Being
stated the Dreamer. He knows how to recognise and circumscribe
every negativity in himself. He knows that to win all the battles he
first needs to win himself .
Winning oneself means not allowing negative emotions to
rule us and get the upper hand; it means winning over the
destructiveness of our thoughts, the desire for self-sabotage and
suicide. It means overcoming our limits, triumphing over every
obstacle created out of doubt, fear and every other shadow in our
Being
Winning oneself means unearthing the will, making the
return journey towards integrity. There is nothing else to do in life!
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He stated apodictically The tests that existence throws at him, the
obstacles and every difficulty a man meets on his way, all represent
so many opportunities to calm the quarrelsome crowd he carries
inside him, and ferry them towards integrity.
He smiled at my bewildered expression as I noted down
his words, and waited a while before adding anything else. Then
He leaned gently across the table. As frequently happened with
Him in such situations, I entered a state of anxiety. I foresaw the
proximity of some vital information; the announcement of one of
those fragments of His philosophy which were themselves capable
of speeding up my comprehension. I left my small notebook open on
my knee, and straightened up, partly to show Him I was ready, but
also to relieve slightly the increasing tension I felt while he moved
almost imperceptibly closer to me.
Winning oneself He whispered means not letting even
the smallest expression of negativity to seep in, and never allowing
even the slightest inner debasement or grimace of pain.
He waited. He was monitoring my reaction to this revelation
with the faintest of smiles. Then, modulating His voice, He recited
these lines:

When time attacks you, swallow time
When pain attacks you, swallow pain
When doubt attacks you, swallow doubt
When fear attacks you, swallow fear.

I noticed how often the Dreamer would express a concept or evoke an
image, reiterating them and bringing them up repeatedly. On this
occasion it seemed clear to me that His use of reiteration was not, as I
had believed until now, only a pedagogical device, but also a form of
rhythmical poetry based on parallelism, the reassertion of a concept
or image from different angles. I was directly experiencing how this
enabled Him to overcome psychological barriers and penetrate the
hard stratifications of my interior geology. The Dreamer started to
speak again, and I temporarily set aside those ref lections.
Winning oneself means not depending on the world
said the Dreamer It means being creators, masters of oneself, of
ones own states of Being, and therefore masters of the world. He
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added that this ability to remain detached is completely natural, the
birthright of every man.
He fell silent, watching me intently.
Under His gaze, memories flowed out of obscurity and into
my mind, like a convoy of rafts descending the rivers of time. The
images grew increasingly vivid, until an episode from my childhood
re-emerged. Once more I saw myself as a child, in Carmelas room,
having one of my frequent tantrums. Surrounded by apprehensive
adults, I was screaming and shedding floods of tears. Not even
Giuseppona was able to calm me down. Although I gave every
appearance of desperation, I was furtively observing my audience.
As soon as they turned their attention away and I was certain that
no one was looking at me, I peeped at myself in the mirrored doors
of the large wardrobe and laughed, secretly and maliciously, happy
with my freedom to act. I regained possession of that long forgotten
fragment of my childhood, and savoured again the secret power of
that time; the power of entering and leaving that state at will, without
parents and adults, who were blind to my talent, ever suspecting my
capacity to remain detached. From that position, I sensed that I was
able to control and tyrannise them, without remorse.
But one day the child stops acting. He forgets. And the mask
he once put on at will becomes a permanent grimace that
tyrannically rules his life the Dreamer remarked, entering the flow
of memory at that point.
The child really becomes the capricious, touchy, weak
being whose role he was interpreting, a fragile adult who can only
depend on someone or something, such as a job or a drug, electing
the entire world his master.
Freedom He said lightly, but with steely cold eyes is
going to cost you the masks youve been wearing for so many years.

10 The Dream is the most real thing there is

In the two years I spent in Kuwait and the Middle East, I
grew inured to the wonder of the Dreamer. Gratitude for my
wellbeing, health and success, and for the possibility of turning to
His mysterious and inexhaustible wisdom at every difficulty, was
gradually replaced by a creeping antagonism, a repressed rebellion
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against His authority.
From the thousands of wounds the world had inflicted on
me, I was losing energy; and with it, my faith in myself, my desire
to live, and my capacity for joy. Even the sense of the miraculous
that the Dreamer had brought into my life was evaporating, like a
precious essence left open to the air. My entire world was growing
dim. Like a ref lection of my loss of vitality, even my collaborators no
longer put the energy and enthusiasm into their work that they had
at one time. My role as boss, which had come to mean resolving an
incessant storm of problems that constantly besieged me, was killing
me.

He who does not rule himself cannot rule others

In our meetings, which were becoming more infrequent, I
still transcribed his words and reflected upon them afterwards, but
for a long time a deep rift had been separating the Dream in me
from what I believed to be reality. Now I know that mankinds
ancient drama, his banishment from Eden, did not happen just once
at the dawn of time, nor did it take place unexpectedly.

The unexpected always requires a long preparation

The story of Adam cast out of Paradise, incomprehensible
and even ingeniously absurd, was reproducing itself and unfolding
before my eyes. A sentient being had bartered paradise for fear and
pain. How could that be possible? Who would ever exchange life
for death? Yet mankind has done it, and continues to do it. I was
testing it on my own flesh. The bite of the apple is the belief that
the external world is the cause, that the world outside us has a will
that possesses and controls us. The curtain rises on the theatre of the
absurd, and mortal players replicate that drama not only with every
moment of death but with each deferment of the here and now. To
sin, in its Greek etymology, means to deviate; my sin was also by
its structure a deviation, a moving away from the highest part of me.
Atoms of forgetfulness, disobedience and division multiplied and
entered paradise, polluting it.
A little at a time, I relegated the Dreamers philosophy to a
fictional Utopian world. His vision and words still fascinated me and
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I continued to feel the power of their breath, but I convinced myself
that it was all really pure theory. Practical considerations were an
entirely different matter: someone with my responsibilities had to
face thousands of difficulties each day; a company to manage,
hundreds of men and women who depended on it, and my own family
to support. Living in a beautiful villa in Samia, the most exclusive
quarter in Kuwait City, with servants and a driver and surrounded
by enthusiastic employees, I forgot the hell in which the Dreamer
had found me two years before and the miracles that had brought me
this far.
Sometimes I even thought that the Dreamers principles and
ideas had the specific goal of complicating my life and pointlessly
increasing my difficulties.
The Dream is the most real thing there is He had taught
me Bind yourself to the dream by a steel cable, and dont allow
anyone or anything to separate you from it. A man without a dream
is a fragment lost in the universe.
But for months now I had been nurturing a division between
His world and my everyday reality. I was losing that millimetre of
integrity that I had gained thanks to the Dreamer, that imperceptible
shift in my Being that had moved mountains in my life. The
unforgivable fault, the sin of all sins, is the belief that the world
creates us. We commit this sin at every moment in our hearts, when
we make the world our god: a grieved god, an ignorant god. From
the Book of Genesis to the story of Frankenstein, from the tale of
Alice to Blade Runner, man has forever continued to tell himself the
eternal story of the creator who becomes the victim of his creature.
Hypnotic suggestion leads us think that the world has the upper hand,
and we believe it to be real; we set it above ourselves, we idolise it.
The world, when you see it, is already made He once told
me, explaining that this is the reason it is called created. It comes
after. It is the effect! There is a cause that has come before. Only the
few can recognise that the world has neither direction nor a will of
its own.
Will belongs only to the individual it rules the world.
When the will is absent, the world mechanically takes control.
This was a shocking discovery! Recognising that the world, the mass,
cannot have a will, is like noticing mid-flight that theres no pilot on
board and you have to learn to use the controls immediately, taking
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charge of the whole plane.
So your worrying is completely useless the Dreamer
concluded It only perpetuates your dependency on the world.
Dependency on the world? What does that mean? I asked
Him, feeling his philosophy clashing more than ever with everything
I still wanted to believe in.
It means that when you forget, you shrink and the world
becomes your boss He answered dryly Without will, men are
reduced to psychological dwarves who trot around their universe
with their tails between their legs, bent under the weight of their
sense of guilt, terrified to death of ghosts that they themselves have
created.
He added that beings reduced into this condition can do
nothing more than accuse, complain, make excuses and pity
themselves. And this continues to be the human condition on earth,
a condition into which I was falling headfirst. As in Pirandellos
Enrico IV, I found myself imprisoned in a role that I had only needed
to act.
Becoming a businessman and taking on the more extensive
role of an entrepreneur, doesnt make you a free man. Identifying
yourself with that role only means that youve moved to another
prison. Youve merely entered a new cell. Freedom means being free
from identification with the world; it means forever silencing the
song of sorrow that has ruled your entire life.
In my heart, I had already squashed the talking cricket with
my wooden mallet and I had already decided to suppress His
troublesome voice in me. With the passing of the months, my contact
with the Dreamer became increasingly rare and difficult, until it almost
disappeared. By then I was having to count on my own strength for
ever longer periods of time. I toiled and struggled to pursue solutions
that, in time, transformed themselves in more problems, forming
a perverse, never-ending circle. My solar batteries, charged by the
Dreamers energy, grew weak. Everything was apparently going on
as before, but that energy, that special luminosity that had entered
my life with the Dreamer like an irreplaceable and vital liquid, was
gushing out from a hundred wounds in my Being.
I no longer trained, and I neglected my body, blaming
fatigue, wrinkles, and other signs of ageing and physical decline
on my heavy workload and lack of sleep. In reality, having left the
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Dream, I was going backwards along the road I had travelled with
the Dreamer.
As for the confidence of my partners and the loyalty, at times
admiration, of my collaborators; things that I believed I merited
because of my personal abilities, were none other than a reflection of
my relationship with the Dreamer. These relations dimmed, and in
some cases disappeared altogether. I blamed others for this change.
They seemed to be profiteers, ungrateful and greedy. Meanwhile,
problems and antagonisms were becoming ever more menacing, and
failures ever more frequent. And yet in most cases, at least at the
beginning, I felt a certain sweetness and even pleasure in falling
behind.
Initially, I perceived the infrequency of my meetings and
contact with the Dreamer, who had almost disappeared from my life,
as a lighter and more carefree condition. My clothing became less
austere and my habits less restrained. I began to accept invitations to
society functions more often; to embassy receptions and parties in
private villas. I became a habitu of the most crowded restaurants and
clubs of the city. The Dreamer had always suggested understatement;
the importance of not being too accessible by participating in only a
few official events, and carefully choosing and strategically preparing
for those occasions. On the eve of important meetings, the discipline
shown me by the Dreamer had required me to intensify the work on
myself through heightened attention to food, physical exercise and
reading. The strengthening of a state of alert awareness was aimed
at not leaving even the smallest loophole open to the world, and
not allowing anything that would pollute that wealth, that precious
substance that I had accumulated over months and months of work.
In freeing myself from most of this, I felt the relief of a
Spartan who joyfully welcomes the news of war because it interrupts
his tough peacetime routine, made up of extreme exercises and
intolerable strain.
Meanwhile, the threat of war was gathering over Kuwait, like
clouds swollen with rain, with every day bringing new incidents on
the border with Iraq. The political and business worlds were showing
signs of nervousness and uncertainty about the future of the tiny
sheikdom, while some of our international suppliers were insisting
on contractual precautions before filling our orders; on a couple of
occasions, some western managers who had already signed contracts
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backed out at the last minute and decided against relocating.
I minimised these symptoms and wholly dedicated myself to
developing the company. I renewed my efforts, and decided to
launch a new line of products by means of an advertising campaign,
for which I approached a local agency of DBDO International. The
director, a young Lebanese man with a background in European
culture, promised to entrust the project to a new manager who was
English, and whom he believed to be the most suitable for the job.
Within a few days she would come to meet with me to present her
ideas, in the office at Al Awadi Towers.
This was how I came to meet Heleonore. I do not remember
much about the ideas she proposed for the publicity campaign, but her
smile, vitality and Andalusian beauty made an indelible impression
on me. I remembered the Dreamers words, and hoped that she was
one of the precious cells of the Project that I was supposed to meet
in Kuwait. I concentrated all my desires into one single wish, and
expressed it strongly in my heart:
God, let her be the one.

11 Heleonore

After that first meeting I saw her almost every day. Swims
together, tennis matches at the Hyatt Club, a meeting in the giant
bubble at Water Towers, from where we admired the lights of the
gulf, dinner at the Versailles; these were snapshots of my swift
courtship. Heleonore became my best collaborator, my friend, and
the confidante of my two children. She came gently and inexorably
into our life, occupying every corner of it a little more each day. No
invasion had ever been less opposed.
Giuseppona said not a word, but I knew she disapproved. I
didnt connect her attitude to my growing distance from the
Dreamer, to my disobedience, but thought it was a form of jealousy;
a temporary and understandable reaction to a threat to her role.
Actually, Giuseppona sensed that I was entering a sea of troubles.
She was born in Cuma, a place far more ancient than Rome and
the very cradle of Neapolis, and in her DNA she carried the
prophetic spirit and Sybilline language of that civilisation. Her
primordial intelligence, unpolluted by instruction and without mental
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superstructures or limiting thought patterns, had the lucidity of the
essence, the strength of simplicity and sincerity, the purity of
someone who knows without knowing.
I was trying once again. Since Luisas death, I had never
given up believing I could put together a true and happy family
again. I still felt certain that the familiar shipwrecks of my previous
relationships with Jennifer and Gretchen could be blamed on external
conditions. I had, as they say, been unlucky in love. That was all.
Sooner or later I would meet the right woman, and then everything
would turn out for the best. I was still deluding myself that a happy
destiny could lie before me if I stayed as I was; that circumstances
and events, different from those of the past, could be produced in my
life without my having to change.

The external world is the materialisation of your psychology
Its you who have given consent to each of your problems,
to each difficulty in your life
One day, when youve come to know yourself,
you will understand why the world is as it is.

With Heleonores arrival, the Dreamers voice receded
even further into the distance. Every morning, Jamil collected fresh
dates for us from the palm trees in the sandy garden, and served us
a breakfast of fresh cheese, tiny black olives and tabbouleh intensely
perfumed with mint and parsley. These months were passionate but
not happy, tinged as they were with an inexpressible, subtle suffering;
the same feeling that used to darken my joy at playing hooky from
school, making it hard for me to swallow mouthfuls of the sandwich
that Giuseppona had tucked into my school bag.
It seemed to me that the world was hindering our union,
but in reality it was I who was unable to forgive myself for having
transgressed an invisible code, for having wounded my conscience
that was now informing the world of my condition as an outlaw.
The Dreamer had been preparing me to become a king, and yet
again I had chosen mediocrity. Only by forgetting his ideas, ignoring
His words and distancing them from my life was I able to meet a
woman who would lead me back into the hell of my past, into the
ghettoes of dependency.
I cant say that I missed His teachings during those first
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months. My own presumption had amply filled that space. I did
have, however, a dark feeling of uneasiness like a superstitious
premonition, a prophecy of an impending misfortune. All the clutter
of emotions, negative fancies, and feelings of guilt that I believed I
had by now left behind were again taking over my life.
The idea of being able to construct our happiness without
taking into account anything other than our selfishness faded away
in the night, like the moon of that Islamic sky under which Heleonore
and I had become outcasts. We were outlaws, not just in the Dreamers
sight, but under the laws of Kuwait as well. The risks we ran were not
to be underestimated in a country that had appointed the Koran as
the absolute law that governed every aspect of existence; a country
with a Pharisaic morality that was as inflexible in public as it was
licentious in private. Day after day my ties to the country, work and
Yusuf Behebani himself were slackening, while life in Italy and the
house in Piedmont, surrounded by lakes at the foot of the Alps,
called out ever more irresistibly.
We were overwhelmed by an exaltation that caused us to
paint our situation, and everything else we had in Kuwait, in the
darkest possible hues. We exaggerated the appeal of all that we
believed to be awaiting us in Italy. Heleonore was delighted at the idea
of going to live in the house at Chi, and together we planned how to
make it more comfortable, how to complete the reconstruction work
and organise the family. In my imagination, it would be wonderful
to return to Italy. The children would go back to normality. Even
Soshila, the female cocker that I had smuggled in my jacket pocket
into Kuwait, on a recent trip from Italy, would be able to live like a
real dog.

12 The adoption

In Kuwait, a misocynous country, dogs are avoided by
Muslims as impure animals; indeed they are almost nonexistent.
Soshila, our cocker puppy, only had to brush against a servant for
the latter to rush off for ablutions and other rituals of purification.
I paid dearly for the pleasure of seeing Giorgia and Lucas joy
when I let the puppys little muzzle peek out of my jacket pocket, as
the Dreamer was particularly harsh on that occasion. He made it
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clear to me that the decision to present a gift to the children by
introducing an animal hated by that culture hid an egocentricity as
dangerous as it was unconscious.
A man of integrity, no matter at what latitude he finds
himself, respects the customs, habits and religious beliefs, whatever
they may be, of the people who are his hosts. The hearts intelligence
guides his choices. Beyond time and geography, his ethics will
effortlessly allow him to always feel at home, in lawfulness and
morality, the Dreamer told me.
I did not understand, I faithfully wrote down His discourse,
with particular attention to the exact words with which He closed His
discussion:
Introducing that dog is the manifestation of a hidden vanity,
of a division both in yourself and from the others, which relegates
you to the lowest level on the ladder of Being. When you recognise it
in yourself, youll be able to heal it. For now, and until you
understand, make an effort not to create a scandal.
I had to wait for a favourable moment before I could grasp
the sense of that lesson which at the time, to be truthful, seemed
excessively severe to me. One day, opening the Gospel at random, I
came upon the parable in which Jesus asks Peter to pay the tribute
due to Caesar, and not create a scandal. He would find the necessary
coins in a freshly caught fish. The explanation was already there,
tucked away in a fold in my Being. Now it emerged into the light, as
if a curtain had been lifted.
Not only did the episode of the puppy become clear, but
also apparently distant situations, connected by the thread of the
same psychological mechanism. It became clear how vanity and
egocentricity and the desire to be at the centre and create scandal,
were the secret incentive and most profound explanation of the
most varied and least comprehensible behaviour of many men and
women; from the passion for extreme sports and the most perilous
adventures, to humanitarian and charitable undertakings, such as
the adoption of children of another race or colour. Through vanity
and egocentricity some can face oceans in frail and tiny craft, erect
cathedrals or found religions. I understood that the opposite polarity
of creating a scandal is the behaviour of those who are silent, who
have no need to create unfavourable waves, antagonisms or pointless
aversions. There are those who, in silence and without ostentation,
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take upon themselves the weight of burdens and responsibilities that
ordinary people would not put one finger to.
I remembered a couple of friends - he a gynecologist and she
a university teacher - who, out of humanitarianism, wanted to adopt
a baby from Ecuador. They faced the long trip to that country many
times, overcoming every difficulty; hiring intermediaries and finally
paying the mother herself in order to succeed.
They would never have made even the slightest effort for a
child from their own country. A white baby would have passed
unnoticed, they would have believed it was truly their child, was the
Dreamers comment when I told him this story. It would have been
the equivalent of praying or fasting in private, making sure that no
one ever found out about it.
The dark baby would instead have created a scandal. It
would have brought aversions, divisions and rancour to the surface,
engaging them in conflicts that were apparently external, but
which were, in reality, creatures of their own repressed violence,
materialisations of their own unconscious racism and sense of guilt
which that adoption was intended to soothe or in some way hide
from themselves.
I told the Dreamer that indeed, several years later, I had met
those friends of mine again and they had aged notably and become
embittered. They told me about the numerous anxieties and abuses,
large and small, that they and their child had to endure every day
because of peoples intolerance and bigotry. This was so prevalent
that other parents with the same problem had set up an association
that fought for the defence of their rights and the affirmation of the
principles that had inspired their act of love.
Finally I admitted to the Dreamer that shortly afterwards,
disappointed and unhappier than before, they had reached the
decision to separate and finally divorce.
The adoption your friends decided on was not an act of
love, as they wanted to believe, but an attempt to fill the void of their
relationship. Nothing is external. Nothing from the outside, not even
the adoption of a baby, can eliminate inner deaths, fear, loneliness
and suffering.
I asked Him why that couple had been attacked, why their
act and that of other couples like them had provoked so much aversion
and ostracism.
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The attacks from the world are a blessing; they always
come to heal us. The world has to intervene from the outside, to
denounce that lack, that sickness you believe you dont have.
He explained to me that if they had been more sincere they
would have known that the baby had adopted them, and not vice
versa; that in reality it was he who was their benefactor. That little
one had come to take on all their malaise and absorb their loneliness,
attempting heal them from their fear, guilt, and sterility. According to
the Dreamer, had they recognised all this, they would have had no
need to adopt the baby or to attract the conflict and hostility.
The world knows! concluded the Dreamer.
Listening to Him and knowing that couple, I could now
see that in adopting a different baby they had been moved by
motivations that they would never have been able to suspect or
confess, even to themselves. In truth, what could have been more
gratifying and last longer than the admiration they would see in the
eyes of others for their extraordinary generosity?
Even as I write, I know that to uncover the falseness, egoism,
and vanity that lurk behind our acts of humanity, will require a long
labour of self-observation. I am conscious of the gravity of this
judgement, and I assume full responsibility for it. As a cell of
humanity, I have discovered in myself that it is this very ignorance,
apparently negligible and insignificant, that degrades us and makes
us prey to the fear both of living as well as dying. It is this shadow on
our Being, ignored, the lack of awareness of this inner criminality,
that is projected onto the screen of the world where it materialises all
the horrors, atrocities and violence.
As the signs of an approaching war became more intense and
acute, I did not need to make excuses for leaving Kuwait; at least,
that was what we chose to believe. Once we had decided to return to
Italy, we sought and found new confirmation every day to justify our
resolve. We had considered the decision for a long time; now,
apparently, we acted upon it in a few hours.
Sheik Yusuf Behebani seemed neither surprised nor overly
displeased. I liquidated my assets in the business, and by mutual
agreement we appointed my second-in-command to replace me as
manager. Rogers eyes glowed with satisfaction at his unexpected
nomination to the position the Dreamer had created for me; I could
read my condemnation in his gaze. It was too late to go back. I
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preferred to stifle and snuff out that glimmer of lucidity.
Heleonore also left her job at DBDO International, and
the entire family, including the cocker Soshila, departed from
Kuwait City. A brief stop in Cyprus, some days in Athens, as if in a
decompression chamber, and then back to Italy.
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CHAPTER VII

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1 The clause

I was awoken by a troublesome thought. I rubbed my eyes
many times, but the nightmare kept pressing on me. I was in a bare
room, full of rubble. Under the light of a dangling light-bulb, the wall
revealed gashes of cut stone and bricks that had yet to be plastered.
For a few slow seconds, I couldnt believe that this house had taken
the place of our elegant villa in Samia. I gazed at the base of the walls
and saw clusters of coloured electrical wires sprouting from the small
plastic pipes fixed with lime to the surface of the wall. Heleonore
was sleeping next to me. I shuddered. Her presence convinced me
with a pang that everything was real.
This was the house in Chi, the one that we had dreamed of
so much.
When I review the course of events and return to the roots of
what had thrown me into the tangle of the past again, I think about
one fact in particular. For years I had kept it secret, something for
which I couldnt forgive myself, until the day I found the courage to
confess it to the Dreamer. Before I had left for Kuwait, the Dreamer
had urged me:
Make a clean break! Cut all ties forever! Dont take even
one atom of the old world with you.
And while He was saying these things to me, I could already
feel death in my heart. In leaving the ACO Corporation, and signing
the agreement that put an end to my employer-employee relationship, I
had asked for and been granted permission to add a clause that I
kept secret. It was the assurance that within two years, if I decided
to return, I would be able to resume my old job again. How many
times had I thought of the involuntary will that had set that trap, the
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sly calculation that had dictated that clause, leaving doors open
that would swallow me back into the past again.
The Scythian chieftains, those mysterious inhabitants of the
Euro-Asian steppe who slept in the ice, ruminated for a long time
around a fire as to whether they should migrate towards the south, or
launch a war of conquest to the west. This decision could take days
or months; but once taken, it was irreversible. Having loaded their
families and everything they possessed on their carts, they burned
everything behind them: bridges, houses, crops and all that they
were unable to take with them.
How different my attitude at going towards the new had
been!
You are led by fear, was the Dreamers comment at my
confession. Youve spent your life conforming to the crowd years
and years of dependency without finding the courage to respect
your dream, your uniqueness.
Ulysses ordered his crew to tie him to the mainmast so as
not to abandon the ship. He wanted to hear the sirens song but didnt
want to forget his promise, his Dream, He continued. The ropes
bind him to his principles. Its the act of a man of the School, an
impeccable man who, like all heroes, knows himself!
Dont fear obedience. Align yourself with the principles of
the School, He said. His voice was gentle. Obeying the School
doesnt mean being dependent. It means following what is most pure,
most truthful in yourself. One day, when you are closer to a greater
honesty and sincerity, youll see that theres never been a gap. The
School that appears to be outside you, will merge with the School
that is inside you: your will.
The work at ACO and the house in Chi were only two of the
bridges that I hadnt had the courage to burn; only two of the sirens
from whose song I had not known how to protect myself. Their
call would have proved fatal. The distance between myself and the
Dreamers world grew enormously until it become too vast to be
crossed.

2 An unpleasant awakening

Since the day of our arrival, the depressing sight of the weed-
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choked garden and the crooked geometry of the scaffolding that
clung to one of the houses outer walls had been an unpleasant
awakening. Only a few weeks had gone by since our departure
from Kuwait, but the time I had spent as head of a business and
international team already seemed remote.
Even Heleonore had difficulty recognising me as the man she
had followed with so much trust. The Dreamer had shown me the path
to prosperity, He had cured my body and spirit, and overturned my
despairing description of the world by opening my mind to an
intelligent and courageous vision. With Him I had tasted freedom:
freedom from pain, doubt and fear. With Him Id had access to an
energy capable of transforming my life and tearing me away from
my inexorable destiny, but I had repaid Him by abandoning all that
He had entrusted to me. And I had even hidden my relationship with
Heleonore from Him. From afar, the Dreamers words still echoed,
but the golden thread, which connected me to Him, seemed to have
been broken forever.

Vision and reality are one and the same thing

That was what Heleonore really loved in me! the
Dreamers philosophy, His strength, those words that, like Rostands
pathetic character in Cyrano de Bergerac, I still parroted, pretending
they were mine. My presumption, my inability to feel gratitude for
all that I had received, had separated me from the Dreamer. And
now I was even losing her, the woman who had followed me with so
much trust. Once the solemn promise made to the Dream had been
forgotten, my life revealed the crude patches of its condition.
I had put the brakes on my Being, and all the ghosts of my
past swarmed back, restoring me to the conditions of my earlier life
in New York before Id met the Dreamer. Even physically, I was again
taking on the features and attitudes of the man I had been. In my
face and body, the effects of a psychological decay were spreading
visibly. The dynamic man that the Dreamer had awoken in me, the
self-confident head of a business, determined, elegant and loved by
his staff, was sadly fading into a shadow of himself. I wandered
around the house fretting. I spent my time making calculations for
the restorations, arguing with the workmen about the placement of
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a fireplace or a floor, getting into trouble with a neighbour over a
boundary dispute, or dealing with the downspout of a roof gutter.
I had tried to make friends with my neighbours, presenting
them with some electrical gadget, gifts brought from Kuwait, and
inviting them to my house. But my efforts never managed to placate
their hostility. Even in that small village, hidden in a Neozoic
wrinkle, Heleonore and I were outlaws. It was as if everyone knew
our transgression, as if our arrival had been preceded by a planetary
excommunication, by a general order not to welcome us. And to this
order the entire town had responded with the rapidity and precision
of a hypnotic obedience, and this made our life difficult. Indeed
everything, from Giorgia and Lucas introduction to their new school,
to the municipal permits required for the reconstruction of the house,
encountered unbelievable obstacles.
I complained and moaned, blaming everything
on bureaucracy, events, people and circumstances, without
understanding that the change had only been apparent. By leaving
that door open behind me, I had already decided my failure, planned
my defeat.

The greatest enemy of man is himself!
Youre the best example of how impossible it is for a man
to abandon the prison of ordinariness,
to rise up in arms against his own limits,
to overturn the description of the world.
The pain youre feeling and your faith in suffering are proof of it
It may seem as though your life is withered and numbed,
as if its roots were infected,
but the truth is that youve never dreamt of
anything that differs from this poverty,
painfulness and imprisonment.

Giuseppona had lost her humour and the proverbial
chattiness, which, in whatever country we moved to, had always filled
our house like a song. I no longer heard those funny monologues of
hers, true theatrical pieces that went from grumbling to rondeau to
epic: a poetical commentary on all the family circumstances, present
and past. Since I had been on earth, Giuseppona had been the symbol
of energy and a warriors courage, the indomitable Indian chief who
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had watched over me and my children. Now she was growing old and
beginning to stoop, and that comic coquetry of hers, that vanity that
made her always choose the most bizarre and improbable clothes,
had been stifled. At night I could hear her coughing painfully in
her little room. Each cough broke my heart and chilled me like a
presage of misfortune. Then I saw what I thought to be impossible:
Giuseppona in bed and a doctor by her side. I never would have
believed it. With her motto stay clear of doctors, she had made
an iron law, an unbreakable rule in life. The failing light in those
months sadly evoked the time of Luisellas illness and darkened my
spirit. Even Giorgia and Luca had lost their vitality, and to keep them
away from that wretched atmosphere, I enrolled them in after-school
classes where they stayed until late into the evening.

3 Ignorance is always close at hand

Some time before, the Dreamer had warned me with these
words:
Until youve discovered your buried will, until youve
reached complete freedom and your integrity, the past will always be
lying in wait to take you back to the old things.
Ignorance is always close at hand If you cease to be alert
and forget the Dream, ignorance will snatch you up again in an
instant, and every achievement and understanding, no matter how
tirelessly they have been pursued, will degrade with you.
Its not important how much work youve done. Until youve
achieved the totality of your Being, youll always be poised on the
abyss of your ignorance
The totality of the Being means being the master of oneself,
and its the result of a long work of the school until that moment
a man is a tightrope walker suspended between nothingness and
eternity.
I reacted to these assertions in an exaggerated way. I
remember that I commented on the subject in terms of its grave
injustice, and even appealed to universal principles of fairness. In
reality, I was just defending myself many years in advance, and I
was justifying my disobedience even before it materialised. The
uneasiness I felt, that discomfort that chose my words and determined
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their tone and ardour, was revealing my future disaster. My fall
already lay before me, in the womb of the invisible; recorded and
ready in every detail, like a plant in its seed.
Injustice doesnt exist! He declared, apodictically closing
the argument. He knew that any other explanation would have been
useless. I was not ready. It was still too soon for me to accept the
idea that, in every mans life, there has never been anything more
just or providential than what he has considered unjust. I would soon
undergo a harsh lesson on the subject of injustice: when painful,
dramatic circumstances would put me in a position to understand.
Many years after those warnings that I had mistaken for
pedagogical exaggerations of the Dreamer, I was experiencing
firsthand how much pointless suffering arises from forgetting. My
anachronistic return had thrown me into the Erebus of existence,
back to the place I had managed to escape from. When will is absent,
doubt, fear, limits and the description of the world get the upper
hand. Now I was floundering in the turbid waters of a past that had
continued to flow beside me, like the contaminated stream of my
disastrous parallel life.
Once I had abandoned Kuwait without the Dreamers
approval, those glowing fibres that connected me to the Dream
became very thin and I started to fall back into the hellish circles of
my prior existence. My destiny hung by a thread.

4 Return to the past

My existence was taking on water.
The money I had made from my share of the assignment in
the company in Kuwait was quickly running out, and I soon needed
to look for a job.
As in a Middle Eastern fairy tale, once the magic object has
been lost, that world the Dreamer had showed me was disappearing,
slipping through my fingers, like sand. The receptions with their tables
sparkling with silverware, the elegant outline of Water Towers, the
spectacle of the desert plunging into the cobalt of the sea, the house
in Samia, the trips around the world, the entrepreneurial challenges
and the men and women that I had chosen were all swept away by
a cosmic wind. I never saw them again; as though they belonged to a
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parallel universe, without passages or any form of communication
with mine. That opening no bigger than the eye of a needle, through
which miraculously I had followed the Dreamer, had closed forever.
The Project had abandoned me, and like Esau, I had swapped the
birthright of a kingdom for a miserable dish of lentils.
It was in these conditions that I decided to contact the ACO
Corporation, just before the expiration date of the clause that allowed
me to return to work for them again. On the occasion of the interview
that followed, I entered a number of offices to visit acquaintances
and former colleagues. I was about to be sucked into an infernal
vortex again.
In the ACO Corporation everything was the same as it had
been before my departure for Kuwait. The company ghosts still
fluttered exactly where I had left them, behind their microscopic
desks, in corridors or around the automatic coffee machine, with their
usual talk, thoughts and attitudes. As they saw me pass, they winked
and exchanged looks of complicity amongst themselves. When they
met me, feeble smiles were etched on their lips. Rather than looking
at me, they peeped at me from their insuperable enclosures, through
the bars of their invisible cages. They were obviously satisfied to
have me as an inmate again. By returning to my place I was bringing
them a breath of artificial life, like a mouthful of oxygen to a sick
man. What could possibly have made them feel better? I was the
indisputable proof of their most deeply rooted belief: the living,
conclusive evidence that escape from that circle of existence was
impossible, and even dangerous. I suppose that their feelings about
me were mechanical and confused. Malice, sarcasm and a mean-
spirited joy at my failure to escape all mixed into an emotional slime
cocooned in their souls. The case of the recaptured inmate swept
from their minds the slightest desire to escape. My return brought
them the relief that is offered by acceptance of the insurmountable;
the sweet relief of surrender we feel when faced with what appears to
us to be irremediable, ineluctable. Once the scraping of my solitary
file against the bars had been stopped, the silence of the prison
returned, along with its sinister and reassuring order.
A kind of oblivion accompanied my reinstatement as an
employee, and mitigated what would otherwise have been an
unbearable pain. Another day or so, and my reintegration into that
world would have been complete and irreversible.
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Before this could happen, with my last flashes of lucidity I
tried in some way to find the Dreamer again. I went back to London
and looked for him in St James and at the Savoy. I returned to the
bench on Roosevelt Island, and the Caf de la France, in Marrakech.
Bit by bit, I combed the places where I had been with Him, and went
down the same streets that had seen me at His side. But without
success.
The Dreamer had abandoned me.
In the breathlessness that accompanied that conclusion and
the pain of that loss, I even thought that He had never really existed,
if not in my imagination.

5 Psychological pollution

My request to return to work took them by surprise. The
management in the ACO Corporation accepted it, but more to respect
the promise set out in the contract than through any real necessity.
The bosses did not know where to put me or what they could entrust
to me. I was expecting to get a responsible job, but they only managed
to find one in the Department of International Marketing. I was
neither assigned a role, nor did I receive any instructions as to what
my responsibilities were. I was in limbo, with neither colleagues nor
boss, and without a secretary. My only furniture was a desk, and a
telephone that never rang.
In the first few months I tried to maintain a state of
awareness and made every effort not to let slip a complaint, or the
slightest hint of an accusation; nevertheless, poisons of the Being
disguised as envy, jealousy, rage or frustration, constantly rose up
in me. ACO was a factory of negative thoughts and emotions. Any
mishap or a colleagues error was sufficient to bring all the old waste
to the surface.
However, the Dreamers work had not been useless. A
filter of attention allowed me to observe those states of Being, to
circumscribe them and control their manifestation.
The only thing that gave me life was His words, which I read again in
my notebook. My isolation helped me find the Dreamers traces
again, and keep His teachings alive in me.

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Disobeying the principles of the dream means self-sabotage,
means killing oneself inside.
External life can do no more than reflect that inner suicide.

For lengthy periods of time, I managed not to breathe the
atmosphere of ACO, by maintaining a certain level of detachment;
but it was a desperate undertaking, like trying to survive in an aquatic
world without gills. I knew that without the Dreamer I would not be
able to resist for much longer.
In those months, I remember the exhausting efforts of self-
observation and awareness that I made, to avoid being overwhelmed
by the river of negativity that surrounded me on every side. I noted
how those muddy waters rose higher every day, gathering
psychological debris and other toxic material. They gushed
along floors and corridors, flowing ever faster between the banks
of factories and offices, before finally bursting into the open;
through the car parks and into the small town, flooding its streets
and entering the homes and lives of its people.
That period of isolation allowed me to study at close range,
but with the necessary minimal detachment, a phenomenon that
the Dreamer called the psychological pollution of organisations.
Returning to ACO meant having at my disposal for months one of
the most sophisticated and complete scientific laboratories for this
kind of observation.
My studies and first tests of the phenomena relating to the
expression of worries, thoughts, doubts and fears and, generally, to
the production and manifestation of every kind of emotional ballast,
go back to that time. Scientist as well as guinea pig, I discovered that
destructive thoughts and negative emotions not only polluted me,
but once manifested, emitted an invisible substance which, although
unknown to our science, was capable of polluting the environment,
people and all those who came into contact with it. I was intrigued
by the discovery of their contagious nature and capacity to spread
from person to person at the highest speed, at times showing the
characteristics of a real epidemic. This is how hundreds and thousands
of people can be polluted by the same suggestions and fancies and
the same negative emotions, driven to mechanical, collective and
very often violent reactions, like conditioned psychological reflexes.
According to the Dreamer, happiness, love, joy, gratitude,
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serenity and in general all superior states of Being are emotions that
mankind, as it is, is unable to feel.

Positive emotions, in order to arise,
require long preparation and work on ourselves.
It takes years of self-observation
to eliminate the layers of ignorance, coarseness,
and everything that impedes these states of Being.

Perhaps I had always known that. In any case, now I could no
longer pretend to ignore a discovery of such importance: human
organisations are mortally sad, real industries of pain. Factories
and offices, and before them schools and universities, seem to have
been designed and organised to produce and nourish apparently
useless suffering. Huge quantities of energy are wasted through
divisions and conflicts between groups and individuals, useless and
unpleasant emotions, states of anguish, anxiety and conditions of
worry, uncertainty and irritability. I could verify a paradoxical truth:
while raw materials come out of the factories, and of any industrial
process, enriched and transformed, men and women leave poorer
and disheartened.
Observing this from the inside, I came to ask myself why in
organisations there stubbornly seems to exist, beyond every scientific
and entrepreneurial effort, a perverse mechanism that constantly
produces and feeds a condition of disagreement, a painful situation
of tension and conflict, for all those who work there. Absurdly,
everything pointed to the fact that this was their very raison dtre,
their true product and at the same time their mysterious driving force.

6 In the belly of the whale

While reflecting on all of this from my current station and
pretending to be absorbed in the study of the documents strewn
artfully across my desk, I sensed in ACO, the organism that was
hosting me, an effort at assimilation that constantly pushed me to
belong, while trying to snuff out that spark of life which still allowed
me to see. It was as if an iron law, unknown but powerful and
ineluctable, a kind of gravitational force, a psychological entropy,
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would not permit the anomaly of a witness or an observer for too long.
Attention, that state of awareness which I forced myself to maintain,
alienated me and made me a cell of a universe ruled by other laws.
The antibodies would soon take action. They would find me and
absorb me or reject me, as the physical body does with a foreign
object. A lack of awareness, a grimace or a muted complaint, or even
a hint of envy, jealousy or antagonism would be enough to establish
my membership in that world of sadness, where my condition as an
observer had placed me.
Most certainly, an instinctive intelligence was supervising all
of this. I distinctly felt the sensation of being inside a huge living
organism, like Jonah in the belly of the whale; or in an immense
prison so evolved it could read the prisoners thoughts and knew
beforehand if one of them was planning to escape.
One day, I observed the hall, crowded at that hour with the
transhumance of ravenous and salivating beings moving towards the
canteen block. I had the menacing vision of a hypnotic organisation,
of a human termite nest swarming with tyrannically busy beings,
just like those archaic and blind insects, so similar to us. It was then
that I made the sensational discovery that she, the ACO, was the
living being, that highly organised organism which contained us. All
of us, managers, office workers and labourers, were only organs,
glands and organic corpuscles that flowed in her arteries without
an actual will or an individual destiny. I was horrified to see them
stuck to that world like flies on flypaper, guided by the mysterious
influence of those negative emotions. I multiplied my efforts.
I turned to every kind of stratagem in order to avoid being
discovered and metabolised. I erected psychological barriers by
writing pages and pages of the Dreamers phrases and then rereading
them all in one breath, without stopping. When I came to the end
of my resources, I even recited the prayers I had learned as a child. I
murmured them, one after the other. Instinctively, I felt that this kept
the doors closed; it prevented, at least temporarily, the flow of
those poisonous ideas from penetrating me. In the most difficult
moments, when I felt all my defences crumbling, I would remember
the Dreamers teaching and stop everything to stare at a point, in an
attempt to gather the scattered fragments of my Being and not be
deferred from the present moment.
As yet there appeared to be no one inside ACO who noticed
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my attempts to escape, or the stratagems I constantly invented,
beyond all rationality, to try and maintain a state of concentration
and detachment. Up until that moment I had managed to resist, to
play my part even better than I had hoped, but I had no illusions. I
knew I had little time, perhaps only a few days; then the alarm at my
attempt to remain outside the condition of all the other dependents
would ring.
My condition as an outlaw would be discovered and I would
suffer the fate of a termite that has spent too much time away from
the influence of his queen.
Without the Dreamers help, I had no hope of making it.

7 The accident

That morning I was busy monitoring the reconstruction work
on the house in Chi when I heard the screech of brakes coming from
the road. The premonition of misfortune, darkly awaited, froze the
air. I crossed the garden in the direction of the sound and ran
through the gate into the road. Even in that short time, my fear grew
immeasurably; it turned into dread and then a boundless horror.
In Kuwait, Luca had missed riding his bicycle. Back in Italy, he
had been given one as a present and, with it as his inseparable
companion, he had been tearing up and down the streets of the
town like a little rocket. Now I could see him. That little body
lying abandoned on the other side of the road was him! I spent
the night at my sons bedside in a hospital room. Anxiety, fear and
pain became physically unbearable; until, having reached their peak,
they disappeared, like the effect of an anaesthetic. I thought of the
Dreamer and something came undone inside. I felt the lightness of an
aerostat freed from its ballast sacks.
I had not met him for months and I did not know how to
get in touch with Him again. So I decided to make a final attempt: I
wrote a letter to Him, as I had done many years before; a letter that
was a testament to what was false in me, the final act of a man who
has decided to renounce forever the hypocrisy, accusation, and all
that has guided his life until that moment. There was no-one else to
blame. Now I realised I was the sole cause of each of my misfortunes.
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The world cannot move a hair without our consent.
The world is as you dream it.

That same evening, when Heleonore came to take my place, I
began to put in order my thoughts and the sensations I had felt in
those terrible moments. They took the form of a letter dedicated to
the Dreamer. That task kept me occupied for many days without my
being able to see any end to it. Each time that I thought I was close
to finishing it, I noticed, on reading the letter again, how inadequate
it was and how far from the result I had desired.
Apparently, it was me who had written the letter but in actual
fact, it was the letter that revealed me. I could see the reflection of my
image in it. With a little sincerity, I saw the embarrassing expressions
of a false ego peeping out from between the lines, denouncing vanity,
falsehood and the absence of gratitude. So I abandoned what I had
written and started again from scratch. The very same sentences
that up until a little while before had seemed right to me, now, as I
read them again, appeared unsatisfactory, arrogant or meaningless.
Often, looking over what I had written some minutes later, I had
the sensation I was reading the work of someone else, a stranger; so I
replaced some words, discarded entire phrases and concepts and did
the job again, every time challenging my own resistance and the
incomprehension that I was unable to remove.
A voice inside was constantly asking me to stop, criticising
and even making fun of me, due to the absurdity of such an effort.
Finally it said You wouldnt even know where to send this letter! I
considered this harassing thought to be the surest sign that I was
doing something good and useful.
I was learning to distrust myself, that is, to distrust what I
had believed up till that moment to be me. I was only just beginning
to know the dark, slothful part of my Being that had driven my
existence. It was finally emerging.
After a day and night of frustrated efforts, disappointed
by the reading of the umpteenth version, I realised that whichever
way I looked at it, that letter could do no more than reflect who I
was. The old could not write the new! There was no way of keeping
the old rubbish and past monstrosities out of that letter. There was
no idea, expressive style, structure or choice of words behind which I
could hide my horrifying deformity. The thought of Luca, the
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circumstances of the accident and my tiredness overwhelmed me.
After many years, I was again feeling the terrible sensation
that there were two of us in the same body, and I was terrified by
the thought of being trapped forever in ambiguity, with no way
out. I would have given anything to no longer cohabitate with this
foreigner, and leave behind that mass of doubts, fears, compromises
and hypocrisy which held me prisoner.
The certainty that even this last desperate attempt to make
contact with Him was in vain, that the Dreamer would not come
and save me, threw me into such a profound depression that I could
no longer control myself. I hastily gathered the pages of the final
version of the letter that were strewn across the table, screwed them
up into a ball and violently threw them away. With a desperate,
impotent gesture, I hurled myself against the wall and hammered it
with my fists until my hands and wrists began to bleed. Then, with
no strength left, I slowly fell to my knees crying.
At that moment, at the height of my desperation with no
more defences or shields, I knew that the accident that had involved
the person dearest to me was a payment for my disobedience; I
shouted for Luca to be saved. I offered myself in his place. . The pain
was so strong, I couldnt feel it anymore; it had disappeared, and all
that remained was the pain of the pain. I picked up my pen and paper
again and wrote the letter without hesitation.

8 The letter. A King Midas in reverse

To the Dreamer,
This letter is me.
This empty page is the ref lection of my emptiness.
For a long time Ive felt sickened by all that I see in me,
by all the signals that show a lowering of my strength,
a return to the past.
I dig and dig inside but I cant find anything of value,
not even the awareness of having no value.
A state of unhappiness, insecurity and fear makes me a
stranger to You and to my own life.
I try to find any stratagem to escape from it,
but the effect only lasts for an instant.
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My will is still deeply buried.
The work of observing myself
leads me to greater discomfort. Wherever I look
I always see the same grimace of unpleasantness.
The mirror of the world, of others,
has never been brighter, clearer.
Some parts are like a magnifying glass
and show me every detail with ruthlessness.
Others, less lucid, denser and more distant,
need more time to send their image to me.
But all the world knows.
I defend myself, I try to shield myself
I try to be brave, but Im exhausted.
My back is against the wall.
The limits of my Being suffocate me.
I know youve given me immense opportunities
and Ive only taken the crumbs.
I suffer because of this the thought
of what could have been, of what could have been done
Mending the world means healing oneself.
These words of yours are working inside of me.
Im more humiliated by the thought of having been
an obstacle to Your plan, than by my own failure.
My presumption, my assumption that I was knowledgeable,
has caused me to miss the target.
Ive jeopardised the evolution of thousands of men and women
who are in your dream, and waiting to make the passage.
Ive compromised their journey towards integrity.
I know that the opportunity is still great,
even now, even in these conditions.
I know that everything can be conquered again
and carried further beyond.
The price terrifies me.
The fact is that after years in which
youve given me the chance to be close to You,
in direct contact with Your ideas, with Your words,
they still havent become flesh of my flesh.
I write them down, I go over them in my mind,
but I dont apply them to my life.
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Today less than ever, do I know who I am.
As Youve said: Ive never known!
But many times in the past, and for long periods,
Ive been able to delude myself and confuse my selfishness,
my fear and the worry of saving myself, with aspiration.
I believed I had some ability.
Now I know that everything around me
takes on the aspect of the lie that still rules my life.
Im a King Midas in reverse.
All that I see and touch turns to dross rather than gold.
Id like to express my gratitude,
to say thank you for all that Youve done for me,
for having derailed my life from its terrible tracks,
for having given me a new destiny;
gratitude for having shown me the road to dignity,
for having offered me Your ocean of liberty,
even if because of my limitations.
Ive only been able to drink a few drops of it.
Gratitude for making me experience the absence of fear,
doubt and pain for making me see,
beyond the apparent invincibility of death,
a fragment of eternity, its ineffable glow.

9 Dance, for Gods sake, daaance!

I came in on tiptoe and saw Him busy reading, His head leant
back against the headboard. The bed seemed taut and untouched,
and the ashen colour of His long hair stood out against the white
linen pillows, so impeccably ironed and starched. He looked like a
Renaissance prince. I held my breath in the absurd hope that He
would not notice my condition. I felt ill at ease, yet I would not have
wished to have been anywhere else in the world.
Something extraordinary had happened in me and a change
had brought me to Him, one more time. Gratitude had been the key
to access. While these thoughts turned over in me, I felt the thinness
of the thread that connected me to Him.
I have come to offer you a shortcut He started in a decisive
tone, without preamble As long as youre ruled by fear, doubt
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and conflictual thoughts, youll have to depend on someone or
something outside of you. Until youre able to free yourself from
them, youll replace dependency on something with dependency on
something else, but this is neither freedom nor evolution.
He scrutinised me and a shadow darkened His face.
Everything denounces your lie. Youre a fake. Hypocrisy
still rules your existence. And now, at your sons bedside, youd like
to know why life seems to torment you
Here He stopped, and during that pause He rose from the
bed. That unexpected reference to Luca made me start, and I
suddenly felt all the pain of that difficult episode in my life.
Meanwhile I was following His movements with a growing
anxiety. The Dreamer was coming towards me, staring threateningly
into my eyes.. Then He leaned forward, His face coming imperceptibly
closer to mine, shortening the psychological distance between us.
Every molecule in the air was vibrating, as though anticipating a
vital communication. I saw Him move His head rapidly several
times, from one side to the other, like a boxer looking for an opening
in his opponents guard. His face took on the ferocious expression of
someone who is about to strike a blow. Fear cut off my breathing. An
eternity passed as the silence grew even more profound.
Then, almost hissing in a voice as fierce as that of a mortal
enemy, He whispered:
The world is as you dream it.
I could hardly swallow and wanted to flee, but was unable to move a
muscle.
Change the dream and the world will change He said. I
nodded slowly to show that I had understood, that He could pull me
out of that dense and heavy corner of the universe into which He
had forced me. At that point, He gave me the most incredible order
that one could imagine. So unexpected and paradoxical that, at the
beginning, I couldnt believe He was serious.
Dance! Dance! Dance!!! He ordered me repeatedly, each
time raising the tone of His voice until He was shouting.
Dance! Dance! He bellowed, seeing me paralysed with
surprise.
Dance Dance, for Gods sake!... DAAAANCE! He
continued shouting, until it was horribly clear beyond any possible
doubt that He was literally ordering me to dance, there, at that
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moment. Fear and bewilderment turned into a sudden, irrepressible
rebellion, born from years of shame and the untimeliness of His
request. Lured by the obvious absurdity of the Dreamers demand,
my habitual hypocrisy seized the easy opportunity to show off some
paternal feelings and demonstrate my pain for my son. In the inner
struggle that was tearing me apart, the old won and I gave vent to
that clot of falseness that was me.
Dance? I asked, pretending to be checking that I had
fully understood, but meanwhile loading that question with all the
violence of someone who, for once, believes he is wholly in the right
and has the entire world on his side.
Are you saying I should dance while my son is in danger of
losing his life? I asked in a challenging tone. I had just enough time
to see Him leap forward with the speed of a tiger, His face
transformed into a mask of violence.
Its not your son who is in danger of losing his life, but you!
He said.
And not just now, but always.

10 Youre alive and sincere only when youre threatened!

He hurled himself at me with His fists clenched and
vibrating, His eyes were bursting out of their sockets and the veins in
His forehead were swollen with rage like rivers in furious flood. I
tried to protect myself by raising my arms, but I could not complete
that action and my face was left undefended. I was paralysed with
fear, and unable to avert my gaze from those threatening eyes that
remained constantly fixed on mine from just a few centimetres
away. Motionless, helpless, I saw them shining like burning coals.
Only then did I notice, with a shudder of terror, a smile of arcane
cruelty crossing His eyes, and when at last I was able to interpret it
as ferocity, there was no time left for me to be horrified.
Twice He feinted at my face, alternating His punches as He
would have done against a punch bag. Then He searched my eyes, to
ascertain my reaction. I was terrified.
Dont move those eyes! He thundered, scanning my
pupils as if He were searching for a dangerous, foreign object. It was
something that I had never seen before in encounters between men.
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Dont mooooove them! He threatened repeatedly, shouting
and horribly extending the vowel, noticing my inability to obey His
order. There we remained, eye to eye, predator and prey, for a time
which seemed endless to me. Then in a hiss, more terrible than His
shouting, He said:
This monstrosity must leave forever!
I did not know to whom, or what in me He was talking. A
moment before I fainted, He drew back His head with calculated
slowness, but continued to hold me in the implacable menace of
His stare. When He started to talk again, His tone had returned to
normal, and for this reason the effect was even more devastating.
I have no limits! He said with cold ferocity, I am here to
either win you forever or lose you!
Then, to my surprise, He unleashed a radiant smile, as if a
difficult experiment had succeeded or he had won an impossible bet.
There was nothing human about that being; or rather, nothing about
Him that I had considered human until that moment. With no basis
for comparison, I reeled back in dismay. I would have preferred His
angry outburst a hundred times to that inhuman, anachronistic smile
of His.
You, like millions of men, are alive and sincere only when
threatened. Only when you meet someone or something more violent
than you, some semblance of a man emerges For a moment I became
your mirror, and you recoiled before your reflected image, as youve
always done in life. You were frightened by your own violence, and
you are horrified because you dont know yourself He said, in His
normal tone. His face was serene and suddenly calm again.
Men like you enrol with the pacifists to the bitter end;
they fill the ranks of all the Salvation Armies on the planet; they
become apostles of humanitarianism and defenders of non-violence,
never knowing that they themselves are violent and, unconsciously,
propagators of struggle and opposition.
Mankind creates charitable institutions, humanitarian
organisations and philanthropic movements that are the incarnate
reflection of its falseness and degradation Altruism and
humanitarianism become ways for men to hide their own violence;
for some this is the form taken by their separation and distance
from others. Benevolence, generosity, and love are degraded
and materialise in panhandling souls, in the most complete
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misunderstanding of the real meaning of do unto others, in the final
and most extreme degeneration of charity.
Now it was no longer to me that the Dreamer spoke.
Mankind, just as it is was, had become the target of His invective,
a decayed humanity that had lost all sense of connection and even
memory of the real qualities of a man. This widening of the audience
released the pressure I was feeling, and allowed me to breathe. I felt
the relief and the bewilderment mixed with happiness of someone
who miraculously survives a mortal accident without a scratch. The
taste of an unknown freedom became imperceptibly stronger and
stronger, until it filled my Being. It was a birth, and that was my first
breath. It entered my lungs, which were brand new too, like a liquid
fire that filled every corner of them. But that respite did not last for
long. The Dreamer took me back in His jaws, pitilessly, like a wild
beast that stops for a moment to lick the still palpitating prey, before
resuming its ferocious meal.
Evil is not in being violent, but in being unaware of ones
violence. Violence is the reverberation of a conflictual psychology,
the effect of killing oneself inside.
When He started talking again His discourse had the
solemnity of a sermon. I thought how rarely modern humanity had
been reached by words that were so mercilessly sincere, so
unbearably lucid, and so irreverent. Who could have pronounced
them?
The first task is to build oneself! Ignorance of the self
invites all the misfortune and misery that you can observe in the
lives of human beings unconsciously, the victim creates the
conditions to attract his aggressor For a long time, in the darkness
of his Being, he has been spinning the terrible web to capture his
very executioner.

11 Healing can only happen from within

The discussion became tighter and started to close in on
Lucas accident. With the Dreamer I was exploring, at its roots, the
phenomenon of causality, trying to understand why life seemed to
be such a struggle. I imagined I was following Him along the course
of a mythical river back to its remote source, and I knew that this
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search, following all its bends and turns would lead to me. I was in
pain even before He started.
The accident isnt about the child, but your world its
the effect of your sinfulness He said, going on to assert that when a
man has made an inner promise and set out on the path towards
the unity of Being and integrity, he pays for every deviation, every
blemish and sin.
Here He paused in His discourse and scrutinised me for a
long time.
A good past is like having good capital Your past is like a
biblical calamity He noted with bitterness Its a ship with a
cargo of debts, and until youve paid them all, youll have to endure
countless sufferings and face the most cruel of antagonisms
When you become conscious of this, you will feel gratitude
for all the sufferings and you will bless every pain and apparent
injustice One day you will know how they came to elevate and
improve you, and how necessary they have been for your evolution
Difficulties and sufferings are tests on your path to integrity. When
a man realises this, life itself becomes his teacher. Every crisis, fall
and difficulty is perfect, irreplaceable.
Noticing the difficulty I had in accepting that explanation
and in assuming full responsibility for every event in my life, He
resorted to a sharp reprimand:
If My words dont change you, life will. What you cant
understand through My words, youll have to understand through
your own errors.
He told me that between these two options there is only one
difference: understanding through ones errors is a hard road,
much slower and more painful. He concluded:
My words, life comes with its laws and instruments of
healing.
The Dreamer explained to me that humanity as it is, sealed in
a hypnotic dream, can do nothing but live permanently under the
threat of ruthless antagonists. Through His words, as had happened
on many other occasions with Him, I had a vision: the planet appeared
like an old oil mill with huge stone wheels constantly grinding the
disobedient and those who stubbornly refuse to understand. I saw the
never-ending series of ills that have always afflicted the world, and felt
the splitting and crushing of bones under the press; I acknowledged
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the necessity of that holocaust, of that endless horror, of the wars,
calamities and terrible tragedies that have always tormented the
planet. I followed the winding course of our millenary story until,
beyond the crust of an ignorant description, as if through a tear in
the canvas, I saw that those misfortunes were the bitter medicine
for a degraded mankind, for those individuals, nations and entire
civilisations who have no other way to heal.
Life is not a machine of transformation, as you imagine it
to be intervened the Dreamer, correcting me but a machine of
truth. Events and circumstances dont come to heal us; theyre
symptoms to make us see what we are
True healing can only come from within. No political,
religious or philosophical system can transform society from the
outside. Only an individual revolution, a psychological rebirth,
a healing of the Being, man by man and cell by cell, can lead us
towards planetary well-being and a more intelligent, truer and
happier civilisation.

12 In praise of injustice

It was in those circumstances that I listened to the Dreamers
apology, reporting it in my notes under the title In praise of injustice.
While I was taking it down, my hand flew quickly over the pages to
keep up with Him, and I felt concepts and mental schemes crumbling
under the battering ram of His words. With one hand I wrote, and
with the other I clutched my old thoughts and usual beliefs. I was
dangling from them over an abyss, suspended by my last shreds of
rationality.
It will take many years for mass humanity to swallow this
bitter pill and accept the evidence of such a simple truthHe said,
and fell silent.
I knew that this preamble and that silence gave me the
opportunity to prepare myself for what He was about to tell me, but
this only managed to heighten my anxiety. I tried to gain a little
equanimity, and in those few seconds I desperately tried to compose
myself and gather together my scattered thoughts; but that improvised
construction wouldnt stay up, that fictitious unit collapsed each time I
attempted to assemble it. I resigned myself to my lack of preparation,
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and listened.
The victim is always guilty! He proclaimed.
I had already heard this paradoxical affirmation of the
Dreamers during the dinner at Veronicas, but this did nothing to
mitigate the bombshell effect of that declaration and the shock of its
unbearable absurdity.
Injustice is the highest form of justice! confirmed the
Dreamer What the ordinary man calls injustice is a resource of
existence which allows him access to a state of completeness and
higher levels of comprehension. Injustice is compassion made
manifest.
I could not believe it. In quick succession images exploded in
my mind: Luca, crumpled under the wall; the ambulances arrival and
the dash to the hospital; the worried doctors gathered around my
child; and I felt a sense of uncontrollable rebellion. The Dreamer read
my thoughts.
Your sons accident is no accident at all Accidentality
does not exist An accident is a true act of will the act of an
unconscious will Unpleasant events and disasters befall us in
order to heal us Injustice comes to men as the opportunity to
improve their own lives, to awaken in each one the Dream of being
one day free. Injustice is the road towards self-knowledge and true
completeness. No justice could be more just than injustice itselfthe
Dreamer said. I continued to shake my head as I wrote, stinging tears
rolling down my cheeks. His voice softened.
Im ready to explain it to you scientifically He said with
patient sympathy There is in every man, even the most degraded,
an involuntary will an unconscious conscience a brutalised
beautya crushed unity that cries for its own healing
Evil is always at the service of good. Evil doesnt exist!
That which is apparently negative every adversity or what the
horizontal man calls injustice is in actual fact, a blessing, He said
in conclusion. The most unjust events, actions and circumstances
come to raise the Being to higher levels of completeness, integrity
and freedom
He explained to me that even the symptoms of a disease are
the precious signals from the body that denounce a degradation of
Being and a lowering of the intelligence. But man no longer knows
how to read these signals and confuses the cause with the effect.
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This is why every intervention to suppress the symptom, the practice
of all institutional medicine, ignores the real disease and makes it
worse. Along with the symptom one also eliminates the opportunity
of achieving a higher level of healing
No evil exists outside us; only visible signs of healing, bright
indications of a true salvation that is in ourselves.
Even the most serious diseases?
Even apparently incurable illnesses are only symptoms
or signs that point the way towards healing. They reveal the fault
concealed Behind every fall and denounce the suicide wish, the
thousands of inner deaths that are the true cause of physical death.
If one wants to recognise them, its essential to make the return
journey to the true cause! One day science will discover that there
arent so many diseases. Behind their apparent multiplicity, beyond
the complexity of their symptoms, theres only one disease which
is a thought, a feral seed
The cause of all ills is therefore our psychology?
No! Even our psychology is still a symptom by which we
return to the true cause, to the cause of all causes, to the evil behind
the evil: the idea of the inevitability of death. The elimination of this
superstition, the bringing into question of this self-fulfilling prophecy
will resolve psychology and psychology will resolve all ills.
Man has made death his limit, but in reality even this is only
a sign, a symptom of healing and, paradoxically, the clearest
evidence of our immortality He said, then added Death is the
clearest and most tangible sign of our omnipotence, and mans
ability to realise the impossible: the destruction of his body. At
the root of every disparity between men, every injustice or lack of
freedom, lies the true difference from which all others originate: the
degree of inner responsibility. Being, understanding, responsibility
and destiny are one and the same thing.
Man is his understanding reaffirmed the Dreamer
Men belong to different levels of comprehension. This is the true
difference between them!
Even though human beings appear similar, the differences
between them are like an eternity, distances of light years on the
path towards integrity. Like zoological species at different stages of
evolution, their Beings belong to evolutionary periods that are often
immeasurably distant from one another.
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But what about I asked, hesitantly all mans assertions,
his most noble declarations and the struggles, wars and revolutions
made in the name of liberty and justice?
Theyve all been in vain and have left everything as it was!
said the Dreamer, stressing these words and imposing order on my
confused thoughts.
War, revolution and every other attempt to give human
beings equality, justice and peace have failed because theyre based
on the belief that there was an evil to fight and external obstacles to
eliminate.
Wealth, privilege and social disparities are only the effects
and the reflection of a much deeper difference. Its in the Being, in
our breathing and feeling that everything happens.
Our level of Being creates our life.
Mankind as it is needs evil! A man can only listen to himself
through pain To feel alive he needs suffering an Antagonist
time So long as this condition continues, pain and all that man
calls injustice will remain the sole driving force of the world, and the
only impetus capable of pushing humanity towards superior states
of Being.

13 The world is created by our thoughts

Your son hasnt died because theres still a thread that
connects him to Me!
Like a small flame which grows, piercing the darkness
and making its own space, the Dreamers conclusion penetrated and
dissipated the fog of my Being. What I saw emerge was unbearable,
and I would have fainted if the Dreamers voice had not come to
shake me with its ironic severity.
Now, at your sons bedside you ask yourself why you ask
yourself why he has had an accident Youd like to know why your
life is so disastrous
To avoid His gaze, I averted my eyes; I looked at the cinders
burning in the fireplace and pretended to be absorbed, following the
ref lection of the f lames on the travertine mantelpiece..
Take one segment of your life, a millimetre of your existence
and youll find a map of your destructive thoughts and polluted
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emotional states there Doubt and fear have decided the events of
your life up until now.
Those who live in hell can only create hell! Your doubt
becomes fear and fear forms stones in your kidneys or plots
accidents and disasters in the world of events.
The world is such because you are such.
The world is your invention The accident is the worlds
attempt to make you see your lack of attention and love and show
you the right way. But you dont listen to yourself!
Therefore, thought creates even the most destructive and
sick thoughts create!
The horror is to have moved God outside us!He said, and
announced that when man has repossessed his dignity, his will and
right to be his own creator, religions will disappear.
Once upon a time man didnt have any religions He stated
They appear when, due to a decline in religiosity, man becomes
degraded and transfers divinity outside himself.
I felt the unbearable weight of this responsibility, and my
abilities wavered before a vision so different from all common
interpretation, before such a pitiless explanation of the human
condition and the mechanisms that grind it down.
Along with me, all of humanity was on trial, there in the
criminals cage; bound by that sentence that proclaimed a universal
iron law of causality that left us with no means of escape. Complaining,
accusing, justifying and lying now appeared to be the ancestral cry
of zoological beings still at the dawn of evolution, groping blindly in
the darkness of their consciousness.
At the centre of the Dreamers vision was the overturning of
the relationship that we believe exists between states and events. The
Dreamers voice and the teaching of Lupelius School for Gods were
merging into one sole concept that upset and overturned the ordinary
vision of the world. Mans most deeply rooted belief is that the
external world is the cause. This is the architrave on which he rests
his hallucinatory cosmogony: the superstition that states are the
effects of events. Like the flat and inverted image of reality that falls
on the eyes retina, man also perceives upside down the relationship
that exists between his moods, his emotions and external events. Our
first education, from the earliest age, has absolutely convinced us
that fear is the result of having met something terrifying, and that
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pain is the reaction to something painful. The Dreamer explained by
way of example the necessity of a second education, a psychological
revolution that in human history assumes the titanic dimensions of a f
light from Tartarus, from the abysses of zoology.
Man is depth blind. He does not perceive depth. Our visual
organs naturally lack the ability to see beyond two dimensions.
Images fall on the retina flat and upside down, but during the course
of his slow evolution man has learned to elaborate and integrate
visual information, inverting it and giving it depth, thus adding a
third dimension. In the same way he will have to overturn his concept
of the world by 180 degrees, adding a third dimension, drawing a
vertical line to his psychology. This will allow him to see that it is
states of the Being that precede and determine the nature and quality
of all the events and circumstances of his life.
States and Events are one and the same thing,the Dreamer
asserted, summing up in this formula the most important element of
His vision. The time that passes between them creates the illusion
in man that there is no connection between his states of being and
the happenings of his life.
At this point the Dreamer stopped and waited. I had the
impression that He was gathering some assent as yet invisible to me
before continuing. Then He said:
If man could lift the curtain of time, or compress time, he
would discover that states are already events. A mans emotional
states are really events seeking an opportunity to happen.
At these words the ground beneath my feet suddenly split
open, and a rift tore through my personal universe, separating
forever the old from the new; everything that I had believed up until
then was divided from the new convictions that the Dreamer was
instilling in me. I was alone at the edge of that crevasse.
The old system and its exhausted ideas, eroded by the
millennia, were crumbling. The certainties on which man bases
his life, the very causes to which he has always attributed his
unhappiness and all that leads him to complain and accuse the world,
were exhibiting all their falseness. The fatalism which makes him
believe he is a helpless being at the mercy of uncontrollable events,
the victimisation and self-pity that unfailingly lead him to find the
cause of each of his misfortunes outside himself, were collapsing
like dusty idols. There is in man a tragic difficulty in perceiving the
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cause-effect relationship that exists between his states of Being and
the events of his life.

14 Past is Dust

Thinking is Destiny Mankind thinks and feels negatively!
pronounced the Dreamer in the tone of an irrevocable judgement
This is enough to explain the interminable succession of disasters
that man persists in passing down, and that he calls History; and it
explains why, through the millennia, our civilisation has been
constantly marked by such a terrible destiny.
But if we dont remember our history, how can we learn
from it? I objected, attempting to save some shreds of the old vision.
Again close to tears, a trembling in my voice suggested the defeat of
all my beliefs.
The Dreamer remained silent. I tried to cloak with rationality
the panic I felt growing uncontrollably inside, and said:
In the future how can we avoid repeating the errors of the
past?
Past is Dust! declared the Dreamer laconically, sweeping
away in an instant my irrational fears. Mans history is the story
of a criminal vision, the materialisation of its vilest part To keep
remembering this endless series of crimes, as all schools in the world
insist on doing, can only pollute us
He stated that this was the millenary attempt of the basest
part in man to survive and perpetuate the past, repeating it and
putting it before us like a false future. It is not the experience or
memory of past errors that can transform humanity, changing its
history and destiny. Only the individual can do it, through his own
transformation. I understood the absurdity of proposing this horror
story to children, a story not ruled by will but by chance and
criminality. Wars and revolutions, crusades and persecutions and the
rise and fall of empires all seemed like dirt that had escaped a cosmic
broom. We have to cancel that delinquent past, and with it the
memory of all the criminals and little-big men which the old
mankind still considers legends and passes down as benefactors and
heroes.
The Dreamers stark message only seemed to be predicting
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the inevitability of a hostile fate. That knife probing our wounds was
really a laser scalpel. Behind His pitiless analyses, which relegated
man to the darkness of an infernal world below the tomb, the
Dreamer was revealing how man could free himself from guilt, pain,
ignorance and death. His words were drawing a glowing map to
guide our return to a state of innocence, integrity and power. Finally,
this was the short-cut, the passage
The words that followed comforted me. They held the
suggestion of a solution.
We should not remember the past, we should remember the
above! Its necessary to develop a vertical memory perpendicular
to the plane of History Its necessary to elevate mans Being The
world isnt created the world is thought.
I felt the strength of that authority run through every fibre of
my body; the same authority that, through the millennia, in the darkest
moments of its history, had flung codes and gospels, fairy tales and
parables at man, as if they were rafts or life-jackets. I understood the
tragedy of our incurable hardness of hearing, the depth of the sleep
that has clouded us. This is why angels have always been depicted
with trumpets and drums, like a band of noisy musicians.
Once I told you that if you had been alert, conscious and
attentive to everything you create in your Being, then your wifes
death wouldnt have been necessary. You wouldnt have obliged the
world reveal it to you with such violence. To heal youve chosen
time, and time is pain You are not living here and now and your
absence makes way for all the disasters programmed by your lack
of attention.
The grandeur and the universality of that vision redeemed
man from the condition of an automaton, a bio-chemical puppet
moved by the threads of an abusive fate; and it gave him back full
responsibility for every event in his life. I was grateful for the gift
the Dreamer was giving me. A new, dazzling truth was replacing my
old ideas: Nothing is external. Everything depends on you. There
is nothing a man can receive from the outside: neither success, nor
money, nor health. This was the age-old voice, the same voice that
had echoed through the ancient schools of responsibility; breeding
grounds for heroes and demi-gods, where a healed humanity has
always been forged. Our world, with all its events, is created by our
thoughts. Even destructive thoughts create; for we are also purveyors
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of negativity. Instead of reacting to the world that we ourselves have
created, we should learn to follow the warm trail of events to track
and discover the states that generated them; then circumscribe and
delete them.

15 Will and Chance

Awareness is light, continued the Dreamer. Knowing what
happens inside us allows us to intervene in the moment, which is the
only real time, and project a new world free from chance.
Where this awareness exists, where this light penetrates,
chance has no raison dtre. Accidents and illnesses must have our
approval in order to enter our lives; they can happen only when this
light has grown dim.
Once again, in an increasingly convincing and incontestable
way, the Dreamer was setting before me the evidence that chance
does not exist. The unexpected always requires a long preparation.
A man cannot hide. Everything in his life is regulated by
Law and Order He said.
And what about accidents?
They exist for man as he is! for the degraded creature he is
reduced to for that being who, by burying his will, has become a
caricature of himself He answered, and added that, for a humanity
that does not possess a will, lifes events and circumstances are
regulated by the outside, by the description of the world.
Through the Dreamers words I realised that an unhappy
life, plagued by difficulties and problems, cannot be blamed on
chance, but rather a lack of vigilance or absence of attention to all that
happens inside us. It was like driving wearing a blindfold. Man, as
he is, has become a somnambulist who crosses at junctions and side
streets in a deep sleep. I realised that survival for ordinary humanity
is a daily miracle. A frisson of fear ran through my body. I do not
know how to express the horror and compassion I experienced at the
precariousness of lives like ours, groping about in the most desolate
parts of our psychology with a complete absence of a guiding will.
Then, the solemn words of a universal epigraph vibrated in
the air and I gathered them meticulously:
You are completely in charge of your life. You are
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completely responsible for your destiny. You must recognise that
pain, sickness and poverty are not accidents but products of your
inner conflicts. It is you, and you only, who creates them.
According to the Dreamer, chance and fortuity are always the
indication of healing; they are a payment but an involuntary one.
When the will is not present, the world takes the upper hand and
we pay with chance and fortuity. The states of Being guided by the
will determine the events that we encounter. The voluntary advance
payment is the choice of a healed mankind. The involuntary post-
payment is the choice of a fallen mankind that pays with chance,
suffering and time. The degradation of this understanding, in all
places and times, has generated an infinite series of methods and
forms of advance payment, their common denominator being self-
punishment. The attempt to subvert future disasters and the desire to
cancel them from ones destiny, has been accompanied in the history
of all civilisations by sacrifice and expiation through self-inflicted
suffering.
I started thinking of small sacrifices, penitents vows and
martyrdoms offered to sanctuaries and churches; I thought about
self-flagellation and hair shirts. Armed with this new intelligence, I
considered ancient tribal rites and the sacrifice of animals and men,
immolated and offered through the millennia to visible and invisible
divinities. Behind the apparent differences in rituals and choice
of method, I recognised the degradation of a forgotten wisdom.
Behind those manifestations it was still possible to perceive the
distant reverberations of the original understanding, splinters of the
awareness that the true cause of all that happens is inside us. As the
Dreamer told me, they are a pale memory of the advance payment,
as it is perceived by a mankind that knows no other way to forgive
itself inside.
According to the Dreamer, the advance payment is the
transformation of oneself. It is therefore the synthesis of mans
highest functions: attention, self-knowledge, the transformation of
negative emotions and freedom from inner ballast. At the lowest
levels of mankind, this intelligence degrades and the advance
payment changes from work on the inner self into self-punishment.
I remembered processions I had seen as a child, the bearers
sweating blood and tears under the weight of a statue, the Madonna
or a saint. I had watched them wide-eyed. Before setting off on each
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leg of the journey, they would rearrange the cloth on their wounded
shoulders to protect them from the crushing weight of the bars. They
traversed alleyways and neighbourhoods, pushing their way through
two wings of a ragged crowd that made the sign of the cross and
genuflected. I saw again their faces, purple from the strain, and the
saints with their eyes turned to heaven and the swaying halos of
gilded brass nailed to the napes of their necks. Giuseppona towered
over me protecting me from that fever of bodies. Theyre earning
their place in paradise she told me once, and I swore to myself that I
would never want to go to a place where those scary-looking people
lived. I did not realise that I was observing a living allegory of the
payment. It would be the Dreamer who would one day explain to
me that this is the attempt to pay in advance, to suffer and use the
pain to avert future sufferings, to exorcise calamities and disasters
programmed by ones own lack of attention, that are already on their
way to meet us in the world of events. A poverty-stricken mankind,
crushed by the weight of its superstitions, can pay only in the currency
of suffering and chance.
Chance is always payment or the sign of a healing, but
involuntary repeated the Dreamer, several times stressing the fact
that it was still a payment, an evil at the service of good, and never a
punishment. He did not want His vision to enter in any way into that
infinite list of traditions that goes from lex talionis - an eye for an eye -
to Karma, to the Dantesque law of retaliation, invented by man to
give himself an explanation for his own misfortunes. He made sure
that I had written down this point in my notes.
For the Dreamer, when the will does not work the world
takes the upper hand. When we apply will to each of our choices we
eliminate the involuntary payment, chance and accident.. Through
will we can guide our destiny.
Chance is a degraded, forgotten, buried will continued the
Dreamer Paradoxically, chance is an involuntary will that has
taken the place of true will.
I remembered that the Gospel speaks of men of good will
and the Dreamer confirmed that this expression meant men who had
returned to the source, who had taken the return path to win back the
forgotten, buried will, the good will.
Man has bartered will for chance. Those who realise this
seek a School in order to win back their lost integrity He said, and
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stated that this is the true reason for the existence of every school: the
return to the unity of Being. This mission is in the Latin etymology
in the root of the word university: versus unum, which contains the
sense of completeness, totality, movement towards integrity; but the
uni-versities have long forgotten their raison dtre.
Only a few realise the necessity for a special School, and
few of the few have the qualities to be able to meet it.
For a split second, the thought crossed my mind that I was
among this number, part of that special humanity, but I did not have
time to create even one particle of presumption before the Dreamer
was already rummaging inside me to flush out the thief that I had
allowed to enter.
No! Youre not one of the few! He said. His tone was grave,
halfway between disappointment and a scornful reprimand.
It is I who have chosen you!
As He pronounced these words, the Dreamer adopted one of
His severest expressions, like a warrior that prepares himself by
lowering his helmet visor. I froze. I regretted that thought a thousand
times and wanted to stop what He was about to say, but it was too
late.
Ive chosen you as an example, because if you can make it,
any man can! He said, piercing me without remission.
Mankind can renew itself, regenerate, be reborn it can
regain the buried will. Theres no need for a mass revolution. The
true transformation of humanity happens through the transformation
of one single individual who achieves his own integrity, the totality
of himself.
A man is beset by tragedy, like your sons accident, to make
him understand that hes still a part of that band of men who only pay
if theyre forced to by chance.
If you dont know how to give direction to your suffering,
youll always be part of that superstitious crowd that you saw as
a child, of a humanity that tries to ward off events through the
propitiation of an external divinity which, in mans imagination,
controls his life. If its not a procession, then it will be a stadium,
amid the bawling crowd, united by their fanaticism for sport.
He told me that another popular method of payment is
through roles. An infallible law wonderfully puts everyone in the
right place. Those who do the most thankless jobs, in hospitals,
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law courts and prisons, believe that they are working and helping
others; they believe they have chosen that job, having been chosen in
a selection process or having passed an examination to occupy that
role; they believe they are paid for this, but in actual fact they are
paying.
Those roles are instalment payments said the Dreamer
with His dry humour, ironically maintaining His severe expression
The role that a man steps into is his expiation and, one day, it will
become his coffin.
A new mankind will replace the involuntary payment and
the involuntary purification with a payment made in advance He
foretold Healing will come before the disease and the solution will
come before the problem.
Love yourself with all your strength, in every circumstance
and in every conditionconstantly Things happen as a natural
consequence and are all regulated by our will.
He gave me some seconds to finish my notes which covered
pages and pages of my notebook, then, as if making an appeal to all
the heroes listening, He said:
We have to bring a fragment of eternity to those, like
you, who live in the infernal circles of organisations. I hoped that
extraordinary mission would be entrusted to me, but He said nothing
about it.
You must start again from where you left off. I cant do
anything to avoid it for you! He said, suddenly referring to my
condition, now that I was working again at ACO Corporation What
hasnt been overcome has to be repeated again!
The news that the Dreamer was taking me back on board and
that the journey would continue gave me a burst of energy. I felt
the ecstasy of those who take a deep breath of fresh air after holding
their breath for a long time.
Following that meeting with the Dreamer my son Luca
started to improve, and after a short convalescence he recovered
completely. The sky above Chi became freer and lighter as if a
suffocating fog had dissolved. In the following days I carefully
listened for signals that would show me the next step, and I promised
myself that no matter what changes the Dreamers path held for me,
this time I would not forget. I imagined that the new work would
require the entire family to move to a distant country. In actual
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fact, my base in Italy only moved a few kilometres away, but the
field of action was to be found on the other side of the world. The
unexpected letter from a head-hunter in Via Larga invited me to an
interview. Only three weeks after that meeting with the Dreamer, I
found myself at the head of markets for the Far East in the Foreign
Commercial Division of a multinational colossus. This time I burned
my bridges and sealed behind me every possible passage or way of
communication with my past.

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CHAPTER VIII


1 Perfection never repeats itself

From the Plaza Concert on the Bund, the Dreamer and I
watched the busy boat traffic plough up and down the Huangpu.
At that point the immense river flows between the two souls of
Shanghai: one from the European colonial period with its
monumental architecture; the other incarnated by the new districts of
Pudong with its futuristic skyline. From here, as far as the eye can
see, the city is a huge construction site full of skyscrapers built in a
visionary style, conceived for a megalopolis of the future.
I had not met the Dreamer since my return from Kuwait and
the move to my new job in the Far East. In these months, I had
endlessly read and reread the notes made during my long
apprenticeship, and in all the different circumstances of my life I
had steadfastly tried to maintain the principles He had taught me. I
was so much looking forward to this moment, yet at the same time I
feared our meeting. Two arguments, closely bound together, were
still unresolved and remained open like unhealed wounds: the hasty
way in which I had left Kuwait and my relationship with Heleonore.
They were thorny matters that I could no longer avoid..
That afternoon had been busy and the Dreamers teachings
had been among the most extraordinary of my entire apprenticeship.
At His side, listening to Him, I had crossed the age-old gardens of
Yu Yuan, and later I walked with Him through the web of little streets
around the Buddhist temple, in the old market district. In His
presence, amid the dense crowds of that huge city, I felt the same
wonder and sense of protection as years before when, clinging to
Giusepponas hand, Id descended the maze of swarming
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streets that scarred Naples body like infected wounds.
The Dreamer seemed to know Shanghai and China as if He
had lived there for a long time. He explained its history and mindset
by examining its details and commenting on the smallest events of
everyday life. A craftsman at work, the clothes of a passer-by, or the
negotiations that were tightly woven together in the miniscule shops,
became deep rifts through which I viewed the roots of a civilisation
that had been the cradle of Confucianism. The secret of that social
glue, capable of keeping together more than a billion people, and
the wisdom encapsulated in its six virtues, was revealed to me by
the Dreamer with the same authority as the understanding which
had created it. We came upon a young artist absorbed in decorating
microscopic glass vases. She painted them from the inside, patiently,
and with incredible ability.
Stopping in front of the bench the Dreamer observed her
movements for a moment without making any comment. Then,
slowly, He moved His gaze from the girls hands to me. Time
appeared to expand. That moment became an eternity and I lost
myself in those eyes which penetrated me like none had ever done
before. My mother Carmelas tenderness, Giuseppes severity, a
friends affection and a masters venerability were all concentrated in
that single glance that ravished my soul. He was that youthful artisan;
He was the decorator of the vessel I had become. He was showing the
work, the process of interior transformation that every man must
perform, that no one in the world can accomplish in his place, and
becoming the maker of his own existence. In that split second, I was
the creature who had come face to face with his creator, with no more
screens, masks or roles, and in that moment, I sensed the magnitude
of that Being. I listened to His timeless, limitless breath, letting it
invade me, and for a moment I experienced His total freedom, as
dizziness took the place of my thoughts.
The first photogram of which I became conscious after that
moment was of being seated at a corner table in a public
establishment, an ancient teahouse. From what I could see from
the window, its structure seemed entirely made of wood, and was
erected on piles in the middle of a lake. Thinking about the Dreamer, I
looked anxiously around in search of Him. I found Him there,
seated next to me. Relieved, I noted that the establishment was
patronised exclusively by Chinese. The customers, their faces and
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clothes and the furnishings, seemed to have emerged from a woodcut
of the colonial period when Shanghai - then a village of fishermen -
was beginning its ascent towards becoming one of the biggest ports
in the world. The Dreamers voice, which reached me through the
customers frantic chatter, was at first faint and distant, but gradually
grew clearer and clearer, and from the first words I heard, it seemed
as though He was continuing a discourse that He had already begun.
Therefore each of mankinds problems, from the
criminality of affluent societies to the endemic poverty of entire
regions of the planet, is only the symptom of a mental illness.
The Dreamers assertion catapulted me out of my state of
torpor, and those words were merely the prelude to a statement that I
would one day recognize as one of the cornerstones of His system
of thought. I straightened up slowly, almost furtively, and prepared
myself to listen even more carefully. From the explanation that
followed, it emerged that, from the dawn of time, mans misfortunes
were only the materialisation of his incompleteness, the reflection of
his fragmented being. That rupture in psychology goes back to
humanitys remotest infancy
I was completely awake, painfully lucid, when He stated:
The world is such because you are such The world, the
reality we believe to be outside us, is the physical echo of our
psychology and being.
The mere suggestion was mind-boggling.
In the meantime, two young waitresses, in traditional
costume, arrived to set our table for tea. The Dreamer suspended His
discourse to oversee that operation which He seemed to consider of
great importance. For several long minutes He remained absorbed in
regarding every particular of that meticulous ritual. I was anxious. I
couldnt wait for Him to continue. The secret of the millenary
misfortunes afflicting man, and perhaps the root of my own
unhappiness, was about to be revealed to me, and I was astounded
and disappointed by the fact that He could break off an argument
of such importance for something so insignificant. Naturally I did
not voice my thoughts, but I continued to dwell on them, still
believing then that thoughts were invisible and that a man could hide
them.
Nothing exists that is too small or insignificant He
surprised me. His statement sounded like a reprimand. He was
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talking without looking at me, apparently still intent on the details
of the tea ceremony. I felt as if I had been caught red-handed, and I
blushed with embarrassment.
Make sure every one of your actions is faultless! He said
Impeccability means not performing a single unnecessary action.
Then, while He was choosing the different kinds of tea
we were going to sample from an endless list, He added:
When something is done well, its done forever! The entire
universe knows about it and its no longer necessary for you to
repeat it
After a brief pause, He added:
Only imperfection repeats itself. Perfection never repeats
itself because it is constantly being transcended. A perfect chrysalis
has to cease being a perfect chrysalis - apparently dying in order to
become a being of a superior order - in this case a butterfly.
He went on to tell me that, through awareness, regulating inner
mechanisms and the most minute workings of ones own machine, a
man can repair the world and change its history.
The evolution of the universe depends on the evolution of
the individual, on his transformation. The individual and the
universal are one in the same He asserted This understanding is at
the origin of civilisation and every form of art It has to return and
become the central element of every mans education. He added that
the theatre, sacred dances, and all the rituals invented by mankind
have originated from this realisation: everything is connected. The
smallest movement in verticality and the world of the will, causes the
greatest changes in the world of events.
The universe is in our brain its a seed within man which
develops however he chooses He recited, adding This is why, if a
man intentionally acts upon the smallest thing, or makes even the
simplest thing perfect
Like making tea? I forced myself to ask politely, in an
attempt to gain forgiveness for my former considerations, though
unexpressed entirely inappropriate just the same.
Or at least learning how to serve it faultlessly the Dreamer
suggested in a mock-serious tone, raising the stakes of His game
again. As He spoke I noted the two girls exchanging glances with
one another and smiling. It seemed to me that they were showing a
respectful complicity, a reverent understanding towards the Dreamer.
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The thought that they were both students crossed my mind in a
flash and left me astonished.
With the faultlessness of that gesture a man could have
adjusted his personal universe forever he could have emerged from
a casual level of existence, where everything is already decided,
from birth until death, and he could have changed his destiny The
world is the reflection, a resonance of the Being
Precious as tiny gold nuggets, I carefully recorded every
word of that teaching in my notebook and described the particular
circumstances which gave rise to it.

2 Mans reason is armed

By now our table had been covered with an exquisitely
embroidered snow-white cloth and sumptuously laid. Fine china and
lacquer trays arrived with delicacies of every kind. When this part
of the ritual had been completed and He deemed that His orders had
been perfectly followed, He returned to the subject that had been
intentionally put aside.
He gestured with His chin to attract my attention to what was
around us and said:
All that you see and touch, all that man calls reality, is
psychology solidified. Mans thoughts materialise and become the
world. Facts are thoughts.
His voice became deep and its hoarse tone betrayed how painful His
next revelation would be.
Mans gravest sickness, the cause of al his ills, individual
and social, is inner division, his conflictual psychology.
At these words, a kaleidoscope of images burst forth in me,
assuming the voice of myths, which man has created and
recounted to himself for thousands of years. Against this fictive
background, more than on any other, the great scene of the goddess
of reasons birth stood out: Athena leaping forward, shining with
weapons, from the hollow walls of J upiters cranium: the daughter
born out of a gods headache or nightmare.
Its a warning- myth said the Dreamer, plunging into the
whirlpool of these thoughts and seizing that image mans reason is
armed!
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The pause that followed made me hold my breath.
This is the most lucid diagnosis a civilisation has ever been
able to make of its illness.
So, then, Ancient Greece knew what would happen to
it! I exclaimed, excited by that discovery.
The Dreamers answer was not immediate. My nervous joy at
His announcement had peaked, and now it was rapidly turning into
anxiety. I felt the weight of that revelation intensify as I realised its
magnitude. It was painful for me to touch the limit, to discover my
inability to contain the beauty and grasp the intelligence of that
discovery.
No! Greece didnt know how to listen to its wise men or its
oracles He said Recognising ones own evil, ones own guilt, is
already a recovery.
While I noted down the Dreamers answer, trying to imagine
Jupiter giving birth to Athena from his own brain, I became aware
of the astonishing fact that I had never seen any representation of
this myth; not one trace of that terribly symbolic birth in the entire
history of art.
Man doesnt want to see his foolishness or recognise the
destructivity of his thinking, explained the Dreamer. For centuries
mankind has been warned; feeling the shadow of this prophecy loom
over human destiny. Not being able to accept it, not knowing what
to do or how to avoid it, humanity has tried to delete and ignore it..
The recognition of the dark side within a man is the solution, the
healing, the true salvation.
He announced that if the crowds could recognise the cause of
their misfortunes, they would emerge from the state of slavery in
which they live. But this is impossible. Only the individual can gain
access to this awareness. The masses do not want to have knowledge
of themselves, nor do they look for it. They fear all that is new
and unknown. The slavery in which mankind lives, the countless
misfortunes, are founded on the fear of the unknown that disturbs
and blinds it. Political leaders throughout the ages have fed and
reinforced this phobia of new things. The crowd cannot dream.
When a civilisation no longer knows how to listen to the Dream that
has created it, to the voices of its solar men, it falls into decline. Their
absence heralds the fall of cultures and civilisations; it coincides
with moments of collective madness capable of destroying all that
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has been created throughout the centuries by individuals who dream,
by poets of action.
The mass is a ghost concluded the Dreamer a
mechanism influenced by everything and anything It doesnt have
faith, it doesnt have a real will it cant create It can only destroy.
This is the true role of the crowd Only integrity, who possess a will
can dream and give form to the impossible
All that the Dreamer had told me could be applied to
companies and modern organisations. I understood that they have
a limited lifespan, not because they have financial difficulties, or
problems associated with technology and markets, but because they
lack responsible, integral men: men who love.
At His signal numerous kinds of tea started to arrive; He had
ordered them one by one following olfactory and gustatory laws as
old as China itself. He happily breathed in the aromatic spirals that
rose up from the various teapots and He himself poured delicate
servings into our tiny cups.
After our long walk and the emotion at those discoveries, I
did justice to the table, and sampled the various delicacies. The
Dreamer fascinated me by relating the legendary origins of certain
pastries, and describing recipes and ways of preparation whose
traditions dated back to the Ming Dynasty. As always, He was a very
kind host but ate nothing Himself.
Man crosses oceans, scales the highest peaks, and risks his
life in the most dangerous enterprises the Dreamer began He
retreats into temples, ashrams and mosques he gathers to pray or
unites in sex ; he chooses the path of penitence or that of libertinism;
a monks cell or the challenges of business always attempting to
unify himself within in his endless search for completeness.
All laic religions, from psychoanalysis to communism, are
merely the twentieth-century version of the same search..
Even they, like religious confessions, could be considered
experiments, born from the endless attempts man has made,
throughout the ages and in all civilizations, to regain his integrity:
that special state of certainty which is his birthright and that he still,
ancestrally, remembers as the lost paradise.
Mans history is a journey of return; the parable of the
Prodigal Son is its unsurpassed metaphor stated the Dreamer.
But all religions have forgotten their raison detre. In degradation,
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theyve become their own opposite: machines for promoting not
only death, but the idea of its ineluctability Rather than healing,
religions nourish division and conflictuality; cultivating intolerance,
wars of principle, and every kind of superstition.
Even Christianity - the Dreamer remembered - in the hands of
men with a conflictual psychology, bit by bit ended up turning
itself into the Inquisition, without even changing its name. And
still today, the blows of the battering ram of evangelical paradoxes,
strong enough to crumble the mental structure of the old mankind,
come to nothing; and the gentle power of its fables and wisdom of
its economic laws, have been reduced to tales for catechism, kids
stuff. Its teaching is entrusted to unconscious preceptors who teach
themselves and are, absurdly, the very perpetrators of that hypnotic
sleep which the Gospel came to strike down. My notes already covered
pages and pages of my notebook when I heard Him announce:
One needs to nourish in children the idea of immortality,
physical immortality.
Behind the apparent calm tone with which He pronounced
these words, I felt the power and heroic strength of a call for planetary
insurrection. A flash tore through the darkness of the centuries and I
saw a banner flutter at the uproar of thousands of battles waged
against superstitions, ghosts and idolatries.
One needs to bring this idea to all schools, of every order
and level, and into the universities with the prudence of those who
know that by entering into a discussion about death, you become the
enemy of every ideology and religion finished the Dreamer in a
premonitory tone.

3 The animal that lies

At that moment things became clear to me. Like pieces of a
puzzle, each part of His extraordinary teaching found its place, and
became in my eyes another coherent element of a breathtaking vision.
Finally, the millenary story of disasters, atrocities and misfortunes
found an explanation. The absurdity of thousands of conflicts,
the tragic paradox of the impoverished multitude in a universe of
boundless riches, the atrocity of letting millions of children die
who could have been saved at the drop of a hat, finally found a true
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explanation; a cause beyond time, geography, ethics and faith. Man,
as he is, is mentally ill! And his societies and institutions, are the
materialisation of his divided psychology and conflictual logic, the
mirror image of his belief in death.
I asked myself how and when this mental damage had
occurred. I would have given anything to know! It would have been
the most sensational discovery in history and certainly the most
useful. My fantasy took flight. I imagined I was on a scientific
expedition going back over the path of the millennia, in search of
the event that had reduced man to the conditions in which he finds
himself; a kind of journey on the moon in search of Orlandos lost
wits.
The Judaeo-Christian tradition has called that fatal tumble
the fall from Paradise he Dreamer remarked, with a hint of affable
humour in His voice and has branded it the sin of sins, the
original sin, the unforgivable sin.
I had a hundred questions to ask the Dreamer. It was
wonderful to draw on His inexhaustible knowledge, on that special
authority which does not belong to those who interpret or make
suppositions, but to those who know. The symbolism of the bite of
the apple, the snake, the fig leaf, had always intrigued me. Above
all I had always felt a kind of intellectual discomfort before such an
authoritative tradition; one that had stood for four thousand years,
but had created so much tragedy from such an insignificant fact. And
why had that been called a mortal sin?
The bite of the apple is not an insignificant fact the
Dreamer explained to me but the decisive metaphor of that tumble
in mans being that renounces his nature and turns the creator into
the creature. Biting the apple means believing in a world outside us,
one which contains and rules us and gives consistency to the fantasy
of an otherness For man its the beginning of dependence and his
entire tragic history.
The Dreamer recalled Adams first words which will resonate
forever as the self-denunciation, the stigma of a disgraced being: I
hid myself I was afraid it was not me it was the woman
whom you gave me. I felt I was the only witness to a universal
disaster, a tragedy without remedy. The drama of our degradation
was being performed there, in that moment. I was the first one to
behold the appearance on the worlds scene of that being which the
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Dreamer wonderfully defined as the animal that lies.
Adams words mark the birth of dependence and are the
manifesto of common, untruthful, irresponsible mankind, said the
Dreamer; the oldest of which you can find a trace.
His skilful use of that you en passant, unfolded before me a
vision of traditions more dizzyingly ancient than Genesis. I
imagined treasures of inaccessible or lost knowledge of which I
would never have known anything - and of which the Dreamer was
now the immortal custodian. Once again I was confronted with the
mystery of that being that could cross time and civilisations, and
knew the secret of lost schools, shining in vain like buried jewels.
Harried by these continual discoveries, while the Dreamers words
were bursting inside me, creating earthquakes in my being , I
frantically continued to take notes with my trembling hand.
Noting my excessive pallor, the Dreamer intervened to give
me a little relief, and half in jest, alluding to my working condition,
gently joked with me saying:
Its in Adams words, those first words uttered by a
wretched human cast out of paradise, that the employee mentality
finds its roots, as the epitome of dependence and identification with
the external world!
The language - which according to the Dreamer is the
synthesis of mans thought and breathing in Adam reveals the
existence of psychological fragmentation, of a crack in the being. If
Adam were at one with God, how could he desire and believe himself
capable of becoming more than Him? It is clear that even before Eve,
before the temptation of the serpent, Adams psychology was already
divided. First he lost his integrity, then the serpent appeared.
Lying, hiding, accusing, justifying oneself, self-pity: these
have been, and always will be the verbal and even earlier the
psychological stigma, of a man expelled from Paradise; a being who
has betrayed himself, who has lost his own integrity.
With the bite of the apple, Adam exchanges life for death,
freedom for dependence, integrity for division. Immortality, the
individuals birthright, has been replaced with a fragmented,
unconscious, mortal eternity and reduced to a zoological
perpetuation founded on sexual copulation and viviparous
reproduction
While the Dreamer was speaking, I felt that rarest of
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sensations; that spine-tingling thrill that prefigures a discovery of
understanding.
Adams sin is mortal because it is a fall in time concluded
the Dreamer a fall into a hypnotic state: into the belief that one
can die
But man cannot die, he can only kill himself He said, with
the wary attitude and caution of someone imparting an unbearable
secret. The sentence that followed, its anachronistic humour, added
phatos to that already intensely dramatic statement:
Death is always a suicide!
Its time for man to return home, to awaken from his sleep
and take what is his by right lost immortality.
I felt that vision transform me with its intelligence, entering
my organs and pervading my molecules, cells and atoms. And whilst
He was talking to me about the evil of evils, the ancestral origins of
mans division and his sin, He healed me and I was overcome by an
unprecedented sense of gratitude.

4 Become a free man!

My thoughts whirled around the extraordinary things I had
heard from the Dreamer that afternoon. I tried unsuccessfully to put
those ideas in order, to harness them, or at least to dwell on one of
them, but they kept on forming a continuous motion, one after the
other. Detached from me like leaves falling from a tree, no longer
mine, they pursued each other, swirling together in the whirlwind
created by the Dreamers breath. The teahouse where we were was
now becoming crowded as new customers arrived, and the hum of the
wings of a hundred conversations made the air vibrate pleasantly. I
started with surprise when I heard His voice whisper in my ear:
The planets religion is division! The divinity that
mankind venerates above all else is always the same one: fear!
The force of those words came through the dense swarm of
voices, and in this silence, in this space, each of my thoughts was
hushed and His words, sharp as scalpels, dug and penetrated deep
into me.
Dependence is fear!.. Even you have made fear your idol
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This is why you depend and you still earn a living hidden behind a
job
I had known that sooner or later that moment would come,
and I was also prepared for the fact it would not be pleasant; but
the Dreamers tone and the words He used to start His discourse,
forewarned me of an even more stormy passage. I took out my
notebook and pretended to busy myself with its pages, to hide, as I
did whenever the Dreamers severity reached the limit of endurance..
I have come to liberate you! He said with a hiss I
entered your life because one day you dreamed of being free
His voice became a vibration that rummaged through every
corner of my being, chasing my fears, wherever they might lurk. Then
He concluded:
But years have passed, and you still find yourself in
slavery! I felt an inner wound open at such a direct reference. The
hint of disappointment in His words annoyed and embittered me, as
if He had committed an undeserved wrong, an injustice against me.
In order to escape your condition, to emerge from the
prison of roles, you have to overturn your vision He said, moving
His chair slightly back. I understood the signal. The moment of
departure was near. My face must have shown a painful perplexity.
The Dreamer waited a few seconds, as if to chose the words that
would help me to understand better, before saying:
Free means free from the world
Where can one start? I asked determinedly.
Its a demanding task that will take years and years even if
you started at this very moment, your entire life wouldnt be
enough
At those words I saw myself facing walls without footholds; I
imagined insurmountable distances; remote targets eons of time
away from me. I felt discouragement take over and engulf me.
The Dreamer continued without apparently detecting my
inner feelings:
Free means free from fears, doubts, anxieties and negative
emotions free from prejudices, preconceptions, from a wretched
description of the world Free from every limit free from
falsehood and work which is still a punishment for men like you, the
perverse effect of a biblical curse
The belief that theres a reality outside you has made the
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world your boss Hypnotised by the mirrors reflection, you still
search for security in the eyes of others.
Those words showed the absurdity of my attempt to swim in
the Dreamers turbulent waters with the gills of a primordial,
incomplete being. Each phrase was a mortal attack on my past, on
my falsity. I knew that when the Dreamer chose to floor me with such
violent statements, my life improved and was cleared of so much
clutter, making way for states of certainty, clarity, determination.
I endured every blow hoping it would be the last. Come on,
stop! Or at least, give me some breathing space, for Gods sake!
J ust listening to those words required a strength that I did not always
possess. My level of responsibility fluctuated: it came and went,
increased and diminished, without my being able to control it. Those
words were alive! I could feel them pressing unbearably against my
limits until they overwhelmed my prejudices, anachronistic beliefs
and obsolete ideas and every fibre of my being vibrated.
Free from roles from fear Free from identification with
the world
Those words were rebounding off my chest. Suddenly they
exploded in a whirl of lights, sounds, images My head was in
flames.
The Dreamer was showing me a message from the future, a
powerful and extraordinary prophecy about mans destiny that I was
unable to bear or contain. The idea of a mankind freed from every
need, cast out of its nature (or at least from what I had believed was its
nature up until that moment, but what in reality was its hell) seemed
mad to me. I could have simply put it aside, thrown it away, but it
was too late. The Dreamers vision was already excavating inside
me, devouring dead material and old descriptions. I could not
assimilate it, but neither could I expel it.. I knew that the Dreamer
was showing me the path upon which everyone, heroes and demi-
gods first; others later will have to walk and then will finally
arrive; even if it takes thousands of years. And as He was talking
to me about it, I knew that this incredible exodus of mankind had
already started. The most courageous individuals had already taken
the first step, questioning the invincibility of death and no longer
accepting its inevitability. The Individual Revolution was knocking
at the door
I filled pages and pages of notes, without stopping, until I
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had a cramp in my hand. When I came to the bottom of the last page
in my notebook, I feverishly continued to write on the back of the
teahouses menu. It no longer mattered if it was clear, or whether or
not what He was saying to me made sense, or was acceptable. The
only thing that counted was to keep writing, to record everything. I
knew I could not leave out a word, or change a stress mark One day, I
would reread it and understand what the Dreamer was now giving
me in abundance which I was completely unprepared to receive. Or
perhaps I would merely pass it on to new generations of researchers.
The Dreamer stood up, carefully moving His chair away, and
headed towards the exit. I reluctantly followed Him and we left the
teahouse. I realized how easily I could develop an attachment to
anything; I could have willingly camped in a place like that, a
teahouse. Indeed a strange melancholy overshadowed me while I
quickened my pace to catch up with the Dreamer who was already
striding over the wooden bridge. Several taxis waited nearby. Without
being able to ask anything further, I found myself seated in an old
limousine ready to take me to the Hotel. When the door was closed
and I saw Him on the other side of the window,, I feared I would
never see Him again. But the Dreamer reassured me saying:
Well meet there tomorrow, there, at the same time.
While the taxi went through the streets of Shanghai and
crossed the flyovers of that huge city, I was still pondering His
words, and trying to bring order to my confused thoughts when I
arrived at my hotel. That day every one of my convictions had been
shattered, and I had come to the devastating conclusion that - after
that meeting with the Dreamer my old mental schemes, like the
walls of a defeated city, had been reduced to rubble.

5 Buddhas father

I was several hours early for the appointment. Some western
tourists, a few believers, entered and left the Temple of Yufo Si where
the White Jade Buddha is kept. That was where the Dreamer said we
would meet. I whiled away the time strolling around the maze of
streets of the old market. Passing again in front of the broad door, I
searched for His face among the crowd, each time hoping to see Him
appear.
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When I noticed Him, He was still a long way off. He was
walking in my direction accompanied by three old men, quite tall
and of austere aspect. One of them, with sparse hair and a pair of gold
glasses, gave Him a packet, offering it to Him with both hands, with
a bowed head. I then saw them part with bows and signs of
deference.
Only when He was alone, did I go to meet Him. A quick
glance was our sole greeting. In silence, He continued along the street
that ran beside the wall of the enclosure and I followed Him. After all
that I had heard Him say about religions, I was surprised when He
turned towards the temples entrance and started to climb the steps,
but I followed and entered with Him. A group of monks was eating
at a table in the corner. We burned the customary sticks of incense at
the huge bonfire that was lit in the centre of the patio, and gathered
before the imposing statue of the god. There were few visitors and
after some time we were left alone.
Long but never belong! He announced, and with that
memorable and pithy epigram, He gave me the most complete and
profound response to the hesitation I had experienced outside the
temple.
Respect all of mens cults and religions He said but
dont belong to any of them!
I was still reflecting upon these words when I heard Him
say in a low voice:
At my side, you will be able to change your vision and
with it your destiny The flames of thousands of candles assented,
swaying together, gleaming amid the gods ornaments. With the
Dreamer the School was always present. I took my notebook from
my bag and started to take notes.
Growing old, falling ill and dying are part of the worlds
description He continued, speaking in my ear Theyve been
accepted as natural and inevitable events, and no one has ever
rebelled against them. Its the result of a system of beliefs and
expectations which has become universal
Whatever we expect to happen, happens He stated firmly,
and added Falling ill, growing old, and dying are bad mental
habits.
Those words pronounced there, before that idol,
surrounded by paper-mache divinities, emblems of all of mans
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superstitions and prejudices - broke open the walls of my being with
their paradoxical assertion. For the Dreamer, as for Lupelius, falling
ill, growing old and dying were bad habits from which man had to
free himself. I started to write and went forward for a few minutes
without stopping. He waited until I had finished my notes, then He
continued, stating that only a work of the School would allow man
to dispel that witchcraft and emerge from the hypnotic sleep in which
he had been confined for centuries. The advent of a new education
(which He called second education) would allow man to abandon
the mortal rut of repetitiveness.
The time had nearly come, He told me, when dying would no
longer be fashionable; man would start to change his beliefs and
rebel against the idea of death and its inevitability. He left me to
meditate upon these assertions until with a nod indicated it was time
to go. We turned leaving the Buddha behind us and headed towards
the exit. Before reaching the door, the Dreamer imperceptibly bent
His head towards my ear as if to tell me a secret. In a whisper and
with that gesture I once more found the fragrance of those Sundays
Id experienced as a child; the complicity Id shared with my brother
and sister, the church of S. Antonio Abate that smelled of wax and
incense - and that irreverent, unbearable joyfulness which endlessly
fed our sniggers and infantile chatter. The Dreamer knew all the keys
to my soul.
Feigning to confide a deep secret, He said to me:
In Buddhas story, the father is the one who is truly
enlightened.
When we were outside the temple I asked Him to tell me the
story of that king. Thus I learned that Buddhas father wanted to
protect his son from every message of degradation; from the concept
of limitation. He personally ensured that the young prince was
constantly surrounded by joy, beauty and wealth. and continually
changed the members of the court and the servants who attended
(to) his son. He himself wore make-up and dyed his hair and beard
to prevent sickness, old-age and death from entering the young
Buddhas vision.
Even today this remains one of the most instructive
stories that has ever been passed on was the Dreamers gloss The
Buddhas father understood the importance of the worlds
description, and he knew the strength of beliefs.
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He was able to conceive a School of immortals and training in
immortality. There the young Buddha was trained to live forever.
The Dreamer concluded that the king - having dreamed of a world
where sickness and old-age were banished, and having made every
kind of effort to protect his son from it - should be celebrated as one
of the fathers of mankind and one of the most courageous schemers
in the entire history of man.
It isnt by chance that even tradition made him king He
said In the Olympus of great heroes, his myth deserves a place
beside that of Prometheus.

6 What depends is not real

It was dusk. From the river bank along the Bund we saw
Shanghai change into an ocean of lights. The Dreamer had just begun
one of the most painful arguments, which he had touched upon in the
temple, and then left, but I knew that this time He would conclude it. I
drew a deep breath and prepared myself for the painfulness of His
intervention.
The lack of integrity, the incomplete psychology, the
division and conflictuality that man bears inside, had been the guiding
thread of His teachings in Shanghai. Man is mentally sick and the
world is a reverberation of his folly. Now the Dreamer was
leading me to discover the roots of dependence.
Only a man who is complete can be free said the Dreamer. I
listened to Him but I did not dare look at Him. I pretended to be
busy observing the quivering reflections of the lights that revealed
the expanse of the river, which was otherwise invisible.
A man divided within himself can do nothing but depend!
These words instantaneously joined the wonderful declarations I had
heard from Him many years before, during our first meeting.
To be employed is only a visible manifestation of depending
this condition isnt the effect of a role, the consequence of a
contract and neither is it born from belonging to a social
category Dependency is the absence of will it denounces a state
of fear, the belonging to an infernal circle of the being
For the Dreamer, everything began when one started to
consider time as merchandise and thought to buy mens time
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rather than what they produced: ideas, goods, services. He stressed
that the formation of a huge army of millions and millions of
dependent workers, labourers and clerks, willing to sell their own
time at a fixed price - so much an hour or a month - is an entirely
modern phenomenon, without precedent in the universal history of
civilisations.
I connected the Dreamers discourse to the aversion - even
repugnance - that Classical Greece and Rome nourished for every
form of work, be it physical or intellectual. In the Age of Homer,
Thetes, the farm worker who had to sell work done by his own
hand to make a living, was considered to have the worst of human
conditions. For the Greeks, who were so attached to freedom,
depending on someone else for daily survival was an intolerable
servitude. According to Aristotle, citizenship should be refused to
all those who needed to work for a living. The exercise of political
virtue was impracticable and impossible for those who led the life
of a hired worker, or who were tradesmen with retributive work
that prevented elevation and comfort of the soul.
I felt an irresistible animosity - followed by a mental barrier -
rise up in me. I thought that perhaps this vision might have been
appropriate in 4th century Greece, but it was not even remotely
applicable to a society in the third millennium. This sliver of
rationality helped to foster my resentment as I braced myself for the
attack that I felt was imminent and which I could already sense
flickering behind the Dreamers words. Without being able to
contain myself any further, I burst out: Everyone could do without
work, if they were able to enjoy the privileges of an aristocrat
But the Dreamer turned my vision inside out.
Its the level of freedom attained within, He stated
severely. It is the victory over fear that makes man belong to the
class of gods, men who love and dream, and not those who have to
work for a living Man should only devote himself to maintaining a
high state of being, a condition of serenity, and he should never stop
dreaming; then everything will be given to him.
Only a mankind educated in beauty, truth and well-
being. He continued, only a dreaming, intuitive, contemplative
mankind, can bear the power of not-doing, the responsibility of
golden laziness. The old mankind wants to continue to work
humanity wouldnt know what to do if it stopped It wants to be
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dependent, it has already decided to live under the aegis of
fear it has elected doubt as its natural patrimony and master
the Dreamer commented, betraying a hint of bitterness, as if He
were observing the distressing and irreversible effect of a cosmic
defeat It commits suicide by busying itself, by fretting, by bothering
and worrying over it becoming a slave of time

7 Vision and reality are one

Vision and reality are one. The world is your vision.
Change yourself and the world will change forever! This is the
greatest help you can give the world.
But even if I change I asked, in the tone of a concession
what will become of all the horror, unhappiness and pain in which
the world is living? What will stop its wars?
The world is you! exclaimed the Dreamer, impatient The
world is at war because you are at war A dreamer only believes
in himself and his flawlessness, and he projects the world he desires.
The reality in which he lives is the exact representation of his
portable paradise.
But reality?
Reality is like a stick of chewing gum; it takes on the shape of
your teeth!
But what I see and touch
The world you see and touch is not objective nor will it ever
be It reflects you Learn to be brilliant, elegant, magnificent and
grand; learn how to use properly injustice and anger; learn how to
act the role which circumstances demand: comic, ironic, sharp,
dreaming and playful, sober and sincere, quiet and detached.
Become a champion of freedom. Use your work to help
mankind free itself from tyrannies and oppressions of every kind:
political, religious, social, intellectual and emotional and youll
see an earthly paradise arise before your very eyes.
Each time I thought about it or reread this dialogue, I
remembered Abbotts geometric tale of the encounter in Flatland
between the plane geometrical figure and the sphere, a flat creature
and a three-dimensional being.
The Dreamers discourse, which included strata and levels,
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and which asserted the existence of as many universes and personal
realities as there are men, could not be included in a flat vision -- in
the bi-dimensional perception -- of an inhabitant of Flatland.

8 The clerical species

According to the Dreamer. the absence of a role can be borne
only by those who have reached the highest level of responsibility in
the being.
One day, when youve surpassed them and know how to
play them perfectly, will you also be free. This conquest can take a
few moments or an entire lifetime. It depends on you!
He added that the ordinary man cannot bear the responsibility of
such freedom.
Only the man who has caught a glimpse of eternity, can
make it! He concluded Below the level of an integral man, existence
imprisons you in the steadiness of a role.
For the Dreamer the roles we play in life measure and
demonstrate our level of responsibility. At the dawn of the industrial
revolution, the sapiens species found itself at the crossroads of its
evolution. In the offices and factories of the world somatic,
psychological and behavioural changes were occurring to such an
extent that a new species emerged.
The Dreamer defined it as The clerical species.
Its main characteristic is the ability to stoically accept the
unbearable painfulness of dependency He announced in a humorous
yet dry tone. He added that in time this branch of mankind grew until
it came to represent the dominant group; the most widespread on the
planet. He stated that similar changes take place in animals after
domestication. With meditated slowness, He started to list them: the
relaxation of the muscles, adiposity, the flabbiness of the stomach,
the shortening of the cranial base and limbs, the pallor of the skin,
premature aging, softening Whilst He was making this list, He
started to scrutinise me from head to toe, feigning a growing wonder
at the discovery in me of all the characteristics found in the clerical
species. He continued with that pantomime until He asked me in all
seriousness if He could use me as a live specimen for His theory.
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Looking at my face, drawn into a grimace of offence and
shame, the Dreamer could not help but laugh out loud. It was only
then I realised that He had been pulling my leg.
It was as if I had been encased in plaster and my facial
muscles were so tense and rigid that I was unable to join Him in one
of those rarely witnessed fits of laughter.
A man who observes himself, who laughs at himself, is free!
the Dreamer would comment on this episode some time later If
youre confused, observe the confusion in you and youll be free.
Self-observation is self-correction.
On that occasion He told me that the ordinary mans true
religion is actually his identification with the external world.
Mankind is in the conditions in which it finds itself because it lacks
the capacity to observe itself.
If you were capable of observing your hell, it would
disappear, your healing would be immediate and it would be
communicated to the whole world.
Looking back now at that reaction of mine, I can see the
fragility of the man I was, and how far I still had to go to be among
those who had just begun the journey towards integrity. The sick
portrayed in the New Testament - those who were blind, lame, deaf,
leprous - were living metaphors of a psychologically handicapped
mankind but at least one that was aware of its own incompleteness,
and ready to enter a place of healing. These were the very few men
and women who had asked to gain access to integrity.
It was painful to discover and admit that I still had not
reached that condition; that I was like Nicodemus, a man caught in
the world of appearances, attached to institutions and dusty temples,
to useless rituals; incapable of abandoning the false certainties of the
establishment for the great individual adventure.
Certainly, I did not belong to that humanity endowed with
faith, endowed with what the Dreamer called the dream. The
Dreamer was - and represented for many long years - a threat to my
vision of the world, to my beliefs and to all that I wanted my life to
be.
Now I understand that healing means going to the roots of
that sinfulness, the true cause of all of mans miseries and each of our
misfortunes.
You are the origin and end of each event. Control it at the
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source. This world of adversity and suffering has been made by
you, and only you can change it. Healing is an inside-out process, it
goes from within to its manifestation outside. It can only happen if
you want it to, finished the Dreamer who then pointed out to me that
the miracles of the New Testament were in fact certifications. Not
even Jesus could heal, if healing had not already taken place inside
the believer. Go, its your will that has healed you!

9 Do only what you love!

Working is the reflection of an incomplete psychology.
The role that a man occupies in the world is the clearest symptom
of incompleteness, the simplest way of returning to the cause of
each of his ills.
You can only do what you are. When this becomes clear to
you and becomes your flesh and blood, youll also know how to
intervene. To change oneself means intervening at every moment
in ones own way of thinking and feeling; it means bringing light to
ones life. The better you know yourself, the higher your role will
be. The more inwardly responsible you are, the less you depend. This
allows one to cast off the inherent suffering of each role and
transform the work-effort into a dream.
Work will be sublimated until it disappears from human
activities.
For millennia, work has been the reflection of a curse
the effect of a fall. Through the study and observation of his self, a
man shortens the distance between himself and the world that he has
projected, thus healing the incompleteness of his own states of being
and, as a consequence, his reality.
The Dreamer pointed out to me that in all cultures and
throughout time, work has always been connoted as effort until it has
become the very synonymous with constraint and strain. In the very
language of those ancient civilisations, the biblical definitions of
pain - embodied in mans work and womans childbirth - mingled and
revealed their common origin. In the coining of the French word
travail, in the Anglo-Saxon term labour, this understanding is
recorded and sealed forever. The same is true in Spanish; and also in
ancient dialects: the direct heirs and invisible bearers of the Greek
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vision.
Its time to transform work into a Dream! announced the
Dreamer forcefully. His words rang out like a war cry capable of
rousing souls and calling together endless armies under the banner
of the same crusade.
Use all your strength, time, energy, and everything you
have, to realise what you truly want!
The Dreamers exhortation was directed at a planetary
audience, at millions of men like me who had forgotten the magical f
light, the Dream.
The Art of Dreaming means loving oneself inside He told
me it takes years of self-observation and awareness to rediscover
will and regain lost integrity. He stated that for the young it is easier
to rediscover what they truly want. Will, the Dream in the young, is
not yet completely buried.
A true school removes all that opposes the dream. Rather
than impose false, useless notions, a true school frees the young
from fears, superstitions and the hypnotic sleep that confines them to
the ghetto of a dependent mankind.
My father - in his way - had tried to entrust my education to a
school that could nourish my being; he had searched among religious
institutions; but the Barnabites, at that time, already trapped by the
description of the world, had ceased to prepare responsible men, a
decisional aristocracy. Even they had forgotten.
Those who love what they do, dont depend. Those who love
dont offer their time for a salary Only those bereft of love can be
recruited, paid. A man who loves is priceless.
Among the great illusions of those who work He said,
theres that of collecting a retribution. In actual fact, what is
considered a reward, wage or salary, is only a modest, partial
compensation for damages incurred by the condition of dependence.
In my notebook I underlined those words several times,
aware that they flung us many light years away from all that we
were used to believing and thinking. The good pain of a wound,
healing, is accompanied by the awareness of that physical and moral
degradation which men and women suffer; or rather inflict on
themselves, namely, working without creativity or love, in
psychologically polluted environments.
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In its overall scheme the Dreamers vision anticipated the
advent of a more responsible, liberated and happier mankind, set free
from dependence, devoted only to what it loves. He predicted that this
would inevitably be accompanied by a more evolved economy, by a
progressive and persistent reduction in work-effort, and a decline in
traditional education.

Economy is not founded on work, but happiness.
Happiness is economy.

The schools of the old mankind are founded on the opposite
concept. They are the offshoot of an entire civilisations mental
attitude that stills sees work as pain, as a punishment; of a society
that at one time used slaves and today needs to educate an army of
losers, men and women capable of accepting the unbearable
painfulness of dependency.
At seven years of age the Spartans ceased being dependent,
they were placed in a school of courage, where they were shaped
into heroes - brilliant, invincible warriors; today at the same age
children are organised into the sad army of adults.
Their transformation can be observed. The enjoyment of
the game, the fresh emotions, enthusiasm, adaptability and courage,
are gradually replaced with the learning of apparently human
emotions: envy, jealousy, rancour, anxiety and fear and the
acquisition of unhealthy habits; whining, excessive chattering, hiding
and lying; along with practicing those facial distortions which are
the masks of their degradation.
The encroachment of the childs freedom and clipping the
wings of its dream, is an immorality that present-day mankind is
incapable of seeing, and for which it pays with the thousands of
social ills that afflict it, and an economy founded on disaster.
There was a long pause. The great Huangpu had been
absorbed into the night, and only the river traffic, still busy at that
time, with its lights flying back and forth, allowed us to detect the
rivers presence. Standing under a lamp on the Bunds riverside, I
completed my notes on this unforgettable lesson noting down the
words which concluded it.
Like the rattling of the train, that we no longer notice
after a while, the painfulness of dependence becomes part of
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existence for us, a natural constant and absurdly, a reassuring
presence in life. Abandoning it would be, for an adult, an impossible
undertaking.

10 The terrible and wonderful direction

Meanwhile, that stretch of the Bund had taken on the
pleasantly lazy air of an elegant boulevard from another time, with
its tall lamps, wooden and cast-iron benches, and the hectic presence
of a multi-coloured, cosmopolitan crowd. We reached the Peace
Hotel on foot, its restaurant offering a superb view of the riverside
and the Oriental Pearl TV Tower. The architecture and ambiance
from the turn of the last century and the notes of a jazz orchestra on
the ground floor, like a time machine, took us back a hundred years.
Everything was perfect, but I remained taciturn and thoughtful. The
hard words I had heard the Dreamer say that evening had only been
a prelude. I knew that the most thorny part of the meeting was yet
to come.
The manager welcomed us like guests of honour, and
accompanied us personally to our table, which was attended by two
impeccable waiters. The maitre seemed to know the Dreamer very
well. His behaviour, the information he provided on the evenings
proceedings and the goings-on in the restaurant and Hotel, together
with other signs acquired at the entrance, made me aware that the
Dreamer was more than a respected guest.
I was nervous. I wanted that conversation to continue, for the
maitre to stay, so as to delay for as long as possible the moment in
which I would be left alone with Him. The Dreamers expression
was terribly serious when He commenced the argument with these
words:
Every aspect of a mans life and each of his decisions and
choices, corresponds to his level of inner responsibility This is
what determines his role in the world and what gives him the destiny
he deserves.
In Kuwait, conditions were being created for your passage to
a higher level of existence but for a man like you, still a victim of
doubts and fears, the opportunity appeared as a mortal threat
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Apparently youve abandoned it. You believe that youve
chosen a simpler way, a more peaceful life; the truth is that you were
unprepared to receive the opportunity I gave you! He said and
His gaze became even more serious Your level of responsibility
could not contain that prosperity. Freedom frightens people like you.
For the umpteenth time the world of dependency has swallowed you
and cast you out into the darkest circles of existence, to repeat the
disasters of your past.
If you already knew that Id given up, why I said without
being able to finish the question. A knot of tears shrank my throat.
Its the only way to make you understand that nothing
can be given! A man has to pay for everything he receives. and
payment is always in advance.
A man can only have what his vision holds, he can only
possess what hes responsible for.
The lesson that followed was a milestone in my
apprenticeship.
Nothing is external He reasserted. His voice sounding
hoarse and serious An unprepared man, even if hes temporarily
favoured by an event or external circumstances, can be driven
back into his former poverty, if his new status exceeds his level of
being.
The richness, well-being and quality of a mans life - like that
of a nation or an entire civilisation - does not depend on the
availability and abundance of means and material resources, but on
the breadth of his being. The way of feeling, thinking and acting, the
height of aspirations and the depth of ideas; what he believes in and
what he dreams, decides the destiny of men.
Be a King and a kingdom will come He announced, and I
could feel the force of those words in my every fibre The grandeur
of the being always precedes the birth of a kingdom.
Kuwait was an acid test for measuring your responsibility,
to make you experience first-hand how fear in a man creates hell in
the world of events. Its fear that makes you depend on a job, woman
or drug Its fear that makes you believe that a salary can protect
you and give you security. Those who dont know themselves, those
who are not masters of their states, can do nothing for themselves
nor for others.
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A man can only choose himself! Your falling in love is still a
way of running from your responsibility. The woman whom you think
you love is also a refraction of your propensity for dependence.
I should have known by now that the immediate and total
aversion I felt for the Dreamers ideas was the surest sign of their
efficacy in upsetting my mental schemes, in discarding obsolete
and ruinous plans. And yet I always resisted, every time. I rebelled
against the intolerable pressure that I felt with Him, which crushed
every square centimetre of my being.
The Dreamer was always right. With Him, or by
remembering His words - it was impossible to fail, make a mistake,
harm oneself or to go astray. One cannot imagine how unbearable
the wisdom of the Talking Cricket is for a Pinocchio who has decided
to remain wooden, driven by external, invisible strings.
That evening, His words became even more subversive and it
was too revolutionary for me to bear their weight and immense
energy. The acceptance and understanding of ideas of a superior
order, is always a painful operation for those who are not ready and
do not want to understand. J ust to be able to listen to them requires
an increase in psychological space, a quickening of thought, a
change in deeply rooted beliefs and habits, and every time I found
myself completely unprepared to receive them and make them my
own. Every time the Dreamers philosophy came and appeared to
me not only contrary to everything I had always believed, but also
blasphemous, a true transgression of the natural laws consecrated
by history and religion. The Dreamers ideas opened before me
the vortex of an overturning of the worlds vision, and revealed
an adventurous passage towards a new species that no longer had
anything in common with the old humanity.
In moments of grace, when comprehension was finally able
to open a fissure in my being, I recognised that the direction shown
by the Dreamer was absurd and necessary, terrible and wonderful,
difficult and joyful, like the flight of the salmon that return up the
river to their origin. Behind His paradoxical language, a
psychological revolution of the individual, towered above, brilliant as
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11 To fall in love

The Dreamer resumed His discourse by referring to my
relationship with Heleonore and my multiple attempts to build a
family. The tone of His first words confirmed my fear that what
He was about to tell me would not be pleasant, and even less easy to
accept.
Welcoming the Dreamers philosophy and making a place for
His ideas, had never been easy; but now that He was touching upon
the (most) thorniest subject, I felt the bastions of my obstinacy
strengthen and my ancient defenses rise up, even more unforgiving. I
was afraid that He would ask me to leave her. My apprenticeship was
at a crucial stage.
In the dark forest of my worries, the words that followed
sounded even harsher and more threatening, like a hunting horn
stirring its prey in the depths of a lair:
Fear and your inclination to depend on people, make you
clutch at everything you meet, which is precisely what has happened
with this woman. And youre lying to yourself if you believe you are
in love with her
The Dreamer spoke to me for a long time. Some atoms of
comprehension penetrated and changed my attitude. Even the tone of
His discourse became imperceptibly sweeter, yet the initial severity
in His voice still remained.
Pointing out to me the true meaning of that distortion of the
being, which men call falling in love and uncovering the mortal
trap that hides it, He said in a lapidary way:
Every time you fall in love, you are, in facttaking a fall.
He gave a quick wink and in an advisors tone, added: And behind
every fall, theres a fault.
I learned from the Dreamer that the declaration of this threat,
the signal for the fall which lies in waiting behind every infatuation is
traceable in the most diverse cultures. Idiomatic expressions like to
fall in love or tomber amoureux, are used by millions of men and
women without any of them being able to listen to that cry of alarm.
They wave a danger sign under our noses without anyone noticing.
The Dreamer pushed forward and penetrated even deeper with His
exploration, stating that falling in love with someone or something
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is not a warning but is already a fall or descent, with respect to the
condition of loving.
Nothing is external He repeated the world, the others are
yourself distributed in time. Loving someone is loving a fragment of
oneself it means becoming smaller it means becoming
fragmented.
According to the Dreamer, loving someone more than oneself
is like trying to fit the ocean into a glass, or claiming to absorb
all the water in the sea with a handful of sand.
Love (a-mors) means without death. To love means loving
oneself inside and removing every form of self-sabotage from
oneself He added that this can only be accomplished deliberately.
For the Dreamer, loving oneself inside must be the expression of a
true act of will.
Only integrity can love He said firmly and only the
totality of the being in all its splendour can contain love.
Isnt it possible for a man who has attained integrity to
have a companion, children, a profession, a social life, relationships,
friends?
I asked, worried by that prospect for which I felt completely
unprepared.
Yes, affirmed the Dreamer, but never forget that whatever
happens outside you is only a theatrical representation, a film
version of your being, which because of its grandeur can only live
inside yourself The other the others the world are your
reflection a glass of water A handful of sand
According to the Dreamer, love of oneself is the only
possible love. To love oneself is the highest art. To love someone
beyond oneself is a form of idolatry which finds the peak of its
expression in sexuality.
In his choice of a partner, as in a hundred moments in which he
has to give meaning to his life, a man is constantly influenced by
sex observed the Dreamer.. The calm tone of this prelude added
intensity to the escalation of His discourse, and acutely sharpened
my attention.
Humanity has placed sex at the centre of its existence
without ever guessing that its only a distant glimpse of a forgotten
ecstasy: the unity of being!
The Dreamer continued, saying that sex, like food and sleep,
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requires attentive management, a capacity for governance that
humanity has forgotten. Sexual activity, which should serve as a
discipline - a technology to help humanity attain unity of being - has
been distorted. Those who have entered other areas of being use
sexuality to propel them towards integrity.
He continued, stating that this understanding has been lost.
The sexual function has been degraded into an ephemeral activity
that leaves us even more dissatisfied, even more incomplete, even
further from that condition of the fullness of being which is every
mans lost birthright.
Never before, not even for a moment, had I thought of sex in
the way that the Dreamer was describing me, and one which left me
breathless. Images quickly alternated in my mind, like a sequence
of photograms in fast motion.. I saw humanity relentlessly occupied
with copulation, toiling in the bedroom. I observed this planetary
human obsession with the detachment of an ethologist who studies
the sexual behaviour of a zoological species with its courtship rituals
and reproductive procedures. For a moment, I perceived the precise
state of degradation into which we had fallen, and the distortion that
our functions and organs, born to receive messages, glimpses of the
unity of being, had undergone. In the Dreamers vision, sex is the
golden thread that allows us to retrace the path in search of our lost
integrity.
A fragmented humanity has distorted its function, turning a
relationship with a partner into dependence, and sexuality into a
pretext for oblivion and further dependency. I felt completely alone,
like an alien being, the only witness allowed to bear the vision of
that panting search for integrity and completeness which is always
doomed to failure, since it is not guided by will and understanding.
A search condemned to perpetual fruitlessness as its the
impossible attempt of a being who expects to find love outside
himself, before loving his inner self.
I saw those desperate couplings brighten then fade quickly,
like the blinking of an eye; insignificant as sneezes, ending each
time in a new disappointment, in another little death. And I saw
that human expectation of happiness, that yearning for wholeness,
destined to be betrayed each time and failing, endlessly. In my
minds eye, I saw the images of frozen tundra and the mortal trek of
reindeers following the musk scent which drives them wildly over
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great distances; I saw their vain search for it outside themselves.
They are fated never to know that the essence that inebriates them is
produced by their own glands.
Man looks outside himself for freedom, happiness and
love, He said, entering my thoughts at this point and suspending that f
low of images, but the journey of the prodigal son isnt external
its an inner adventure, the journey back to the unity of being.
Man constantly sets forth on this quest: the re-conquest of
his integrity; he has sexual intercourse with a woman, who is a part
of himself, created from one of his ribs, in order to regain that state
of inner unity, his lost paradise.
Then, in the tone of an irrevocable judgement, He said:
In the algebra of the being. two halves dont make a
whole, but incompleteness squared! A true dreamer expresses
himself in totality. He doesnt have room for an incomplete world.

12 I am you!

But if everything that happens is one of my creations, one of
my projections, then You Who are You?
I am you! He said unexpectedly, coining an expression
that would be branded in my mind I happen inside you.
The world was disappearing from under my feet. Everything
had changed and it would never be the same again. Noting my
expression of loss, the Dreamer came closer and said:
You see me outside you because I am in you All that you
see and touch, from insects to galaxies, is in you or you would not
be able to see or touch it.
I felt dizzy and my temples pulsated with my heartbeat.
Something unusual was happening something was growing,
making its way through me, forcing itself out from the inside, like a
being whose gestation has been rapidly accelerated.
Everything is connected. Nothing is separate. If you could
only change one atom of yourself, your slightest thought, habit,
attitude, inflection of voice this change would explode in your
entire being and your universe would change forever
But changing this atom in the being He added is like
swallowing oceans or moving mountains in the world of events.
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There was a note of sadness in His voice, for the pain of that
discussion which touched the very root of mans condition, and the
reason for his unhappiness.
If changing an atom of ourselves required the strength to
move a mountain, I stepped back from the precipice at the thought of
how many years it would take for humanity to change. To reduce that
distance to humanly conceivable proportions, I objected that, at least
in my history, there had been plenty of stirrings and sudden shifts.
Certainly more than one atom had changed in my life since I had met
Him. In actual fact, in the last few years, I had changed job, partner
and country many times; and I had moved my work and family from
one continent to another many times, before arriving in Kuwait, and
then finally here, Shanghai.
Those are only apparent changes the Dreamer answered
Nothing ever really changes in an ordinary mans existence. His
past becomes his future and everything in his life exposes his
incompleteness. His voice became resolute and stern again.
He fears every change that would force him to abandon the
comfortable and mortal rut of repetitiveness.
Beyond the illusion of change, even in your life, everything
repeats itself; everything is always the same. Your attempts to have
a family, the women youve chosen, just like the roles youve
occupied, the houses youve lived in, the friends youve had, have
nevertheless always been a reflection of your rigidity signs, above
any other, of the narrow strip of existence to which youve confined
your life.
There are worlds parallel to yours, which only the dream can
enter.
If you have nothing that at present satisfies you, it is because
of the state of your Being. You will never get what you want as long
as your Being remains as it is. You have to change yourself to get
new understanding, new meaning, new life, and consequently to
attract events of a higher order. Changing yourself means, first of all,
getting rid of yourself.
In order to be born at a higher level you have to die at a
lower one.
I was floundering. The Dreamer noticed my difficulty and
waited. His words were rays of light aimed at unknown areas of
my being; arrows that were piercing my organs with an unbearable
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painfulness.
My past, which I had unwisely recalled, was suffocating
me. Luisas death and all the unhappiness of my relationships; the
arguments, misunderstandings and betrayals of an entire life, were
again coming to the surface, each one with its own bitterness.
Luisa had been the outburst and unawareness of my twenties,
and had burned fast like a candle lighted at both ends. Jennifer, I
recognised now, was the very personalisation of my vanity,
possessiveness and fear of life. Gretchen had been the projection
of my aggressiveness, of the betrayal that had always been there,
hidden behind each of my glances, actions and words. It was true.
Each of those women had been the reflection of my condition.
The Dreamer took me away from this thought.
Those women came to make physically visible, to denounce,
what youve never wanted to discover in yourself.
His tone was extraordinarily tender, and I was pained at the
thought of what I would discover hidden behind my latest love,
behind my most recent fall.

13 Universe means towards oneness

We remained silent for some minutes. From our table, we
enjoyed an extraordinary view of the river. The steel outline of the
Oriental Pearl TV Tower stood out like a bright comet against the
background of the night and the fine dusty lights of distant Pudong.
In the meantime, the restaurant in the Peace Hotel became crowded.
Its dmod atmosphere was heightened by the dress of the clientele;
they were mostly couples who seemed to have emerged from a
photo taken at the beginning of the century.
The Dreamer was now introducing a final argument; it
was one of the most important of that meeting. He paused to let the
waiters take away the plates. Once again the Dreamers meal was
untouched and I realised that, left breathless by His words and busy
taking notes, I, too, had hardly eaten.
The Project is carved with immortal characters in the
very word universe the Dreamer began, and demonstrated how
for innumerable generations men have uttered the word universe
without realising its immense power, which an eponymous
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intelligence has hidden in its etymology, like an invincible sword in
its sheath.
Universe: uni-verso.
Versus unum in Latin means towards oneness. Throughout
time, the sense of existence, direction of the world, events and men,
had been shown, stated and placed there under our noses. That
cosmic message - as ancient as the stars, as powerful as the energy
encapsulated in millions of suns, as simple as the truth had
crossed eons of time, and yet only very few had understood it.
The same powerful message of integrity has passed through
all religious and sapiential traditions of civilisations from every
period; they have been born from that irrepressible impulse towards
unity of the being which still makes them tremble. In the Dreamers
excursus I saw the connective tissue of men and nations, the thick
plot of ideas, philosophies and visions connected by a golden thread
that united them beyond time and space, beyond every difference in
culture, race and geography.
Monk, from monos, is a single man advancing towards the
One, a man in search of his integrity He stated. The shadow of a
smile, which in Him often forewarned of a witticism, was on His
face when He added its a being under construction. Outside his
cell could be inscribed the words, work in progress The habit
and the discipline he has chosen serve his intention of becoming an
individual
He explained to me that individual derives from indivisible
and shows mans direction towards unity. It is a condition of extreme
rarity. Only very few - through strenuous work on themselves -
accomplish it and become true individuals. The reference was too
obvious for me not to grasp and feel the pain of the unfavourable
comparison made with me. There had been and there were
determined men, tireless seekers of their own integrity. And I, where
was I? Fruitlessly, I would look for my face among that small army
of courageous beings, of brilliant madmen, who in every epoch have
searched and made superhuman efforts to emerge from the ordinary
condition. And I, what had I done to leave the rut of my existence, to
deserve an individual destiny, a great personal adventure?
I made a quick examination of my conscience and I
immediately laid a pitiful veil over my life. Then, the magnificence
of the secret hidden behind two humble fables, passed on almost
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unobserved for two thousand years, exploded in my mind with all its
brilliance, two tremendously powerful stories, immortal metaphors
disguised as simple tales: the parable of the shepherd who leaves
ninety-nine sheep to go in search of one that is lost; and the other of
the woman who, having lost a coin, and left with only nine, sweeps
and searches in every corner, and does not tire of looking until she
finds it. Those rudimentary fables were showing themselves to be
the millenary keepers of a message of integrity. In them, there still
exists the memory of the project, and the secret of mans ceaseless
tension towards that universal asymptote which is the unity of being.
This is the great arrival, the target to hit, and the very reason for our
existence on this planet.
Not even a single grain of hell can enter into paradise
summarised the Dreamer powerfully For a vertical man to lose
even an atom of his own integrity means losing everything. And he
cant live in peace until he has regained his own completeness.
He added that saint in its deepest meaning, beyond
ecclesiastical Christian dogmatism means sane, healed. A saint is
in actual fact an integral, whole man, who has chosen completeness
or unity of the being, as the aim of his life; he is a man aware of his
states and emotions, as he knows that the smallest deferment from
the totality of himself throws him into the hells of ordinariness.
All the sacred iconography I could remember crossed my
mind and I felt the wonder Id experienced as a child watching
the saints heads encircled by a crown of light. I always saw them
banished to the fragrant half-light of candles, in lifeless churches,
or in the aseptic rooms of museums and galleries, and remembered
them as men of the past, pathetic, anachronistic. Only now, could I
see all the ignorance and absurdity of a collective imagery that has
projected its own suffering, its own defeat on saints - and of a crowd
that absurdly believes in miracles outside itself.
Outside oneself is the true madness, the ill of ills from
which humanity will have to heal.
In reality, saints were men and women who had simply dared
to believe in themselves, ordinary people who, aware of their
incompleteness, had made the journey back towards a lost integrity.

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This is economy! stated the Dreamer unexpectedly,
breaking those memory- imbued thoughts before they could become
melancholic. For some moments, suspended in the air, there was only
the vision of an army of victorious men and women, with no haloes
or palm fronds, against the background of a timeless epic. Then,
even that final image disappeared, blown away by the breeze of new
words.
Without individuals, without their will in action, there isnt
profit or progress, there isnt business or wealth. Theyre the salt of
the earth. Great political empires and financial fortunes crumble
and disintegrate without them.
Suddenly, the Dreamers words gave me the solution to the
enigma that has tormented scholars and researchers of economics and
which research centres in universities and business schools all over
the world have been uselessly trying to solve. Enterprises die young
on this planet. Their existence becomes more and more precarious
and their average lifetime is progressively reduced until they last for
only ephemeral periods. Even economic and financial giants do not
live for long; one only has to think of half the enterprises, which
twenty years ago were considered among the five hundred largest in
the world, but now no longer exist.
Now I knew that these corporations were the projection of
incomplete leaders and the only true reason for their premature
disappearance was the absence of integral men and women. A single
one would have been enough to avert the loss of vast patrimonies of
knowledge, men and means; or the dissolution of entire civilisations. I
wondered where Rome would have been without Scipio, and later,
Caesar; and what would have become of the Catholic Church, the
largest multinational in the world, without managers of the calibre
of Agostino or Francesco dAssisi? Sane, integral men who was
preparing them? And where were they?
Again, the Dreamers voice came to release me from the
limbo of those reflections.
The king is the earth and the earth is the king He
intoned, linking my thoughts to the Dream again An
organisational pyramid is connected to its leaders breath. A golden
thread binds his image and personal destiny to that of his
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organisation and men. His physical self coincides with its economy,
as it did for the ancient sovereigns.
The Dreamer related this to classical Chinese traditions, and I
hung on his every word as He told me that, in moments of great
difficulty, when the empire had to face a famine or an enemy invasion,
the Chinese emperor, the son of heaven, would retreat to the Palaces
inner rooms to meet the doors of all things. Motionless, facing south,
with his superhuman virtues, he ensured that the whole empire
remain in accordance with the Decree of Heaven. He knew that the
difficulties he himself faced revealed a decline in his integrity and
that the battle would first be won inside. For that man, with that level
of responsibility, there was no separation between his own integrity
and that of the empire. Winning himself and re-integrating the unity
of his being, was the real victory. Only then would the solution -- the
effect and measure of his level of flawlessness manifest itself in the
form of an allied army, or the enemys collapse from inner strife, bad
weather, or famine.
With the Dreamer, I felt the living and throbbing
understanding that has always run through the history of civilisations,
from the oldest traditions to the modern history of business. From the
Chinese Empire to that of Robert Maxwell, from Walt Disney to the
realm of King Arthur, the same, immutable law resonates through
the centuries: When the King becomes ill, the earth becomes ill.
Because the King is the earth and the earth is the king.
Even Louis XIVs famous motto now appeared to me in
the light of a new understanding. LEtat cest moi was not the cry
of a despot, the assertion of a sovereign without limits, as we have
believed for centuries, but the awareness of a man with a perfect
connection between his personal destiny and that of millions of men,
of an entire empire.
A leader, a businessman, a man with responsibility
knows that his financial destiny, the longevity and success of his
undertakings, and even his physical health are directly connected to
his level of integrity.
Theres only one condition through which to move from a
divided world to a unified one! Theres only one thing we have to
abandon
The short pause that followed seemed endless to me.
Suffering.
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That shouldnt be too difficult I quickly replied Who
wouldnt accept that?
And yet for the ordinary man this is truly impossible
insisted the Dreamer Take you, for example. Youd like to renounce
suffering, but this would involve renouncing a world composed of
struggles, conflicts and divisions: this is your world, the only world
you know.
Only those who know themselves can discover that nothing is
outside oneself that theyre alone in the universe, that theyre the
only ones responsible for the situations in which they find themselves
and all that happens to them.
Here the Dreamer straightened up, slowly moving His neck
upwards, as if to rise a little closer to the sky. Then He said:
In order to attract something wonderful, to give
concreteness to something, a man has to rise in his being and
move closer to that condition of unity and integrity, which is his
birthright Its the truest, most concrete part of each of us: the
dream.
The Dreamer closed His eyes and recited these words that I
faithfully wrote down in my notebook:
The Dream is the most real thing that exists All that we
see and touch, and all that we dont, from the atom to the most
distant galaxies, is only the reflection of our dream

15 Reality is Dream plus time

Our future aim is to become one. The goal is the unity of
being. When this unification has taken place inside us and weve
reached a state of integrity, only then do the conditions exist for one
to be touched by the dream. Reality is the Dream plus time.
I recorded this aphorism in my notes in the form of an
equation, with the symbols:

D +T=R

I would one day communicate this form to my students,
transferring the understanding of this vision and the secret of the
immense energy encapsulated in its formula.
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Everything comes from the dream. All that we see and touch,
each visible thing, is born in the womb of the invisible. Time reveals
it. This is the culmination and heart of the Dreamers thought. It is the
architrave of His coherent, spherical, iron-willed philosophy which
has nourished the roots of the future university and has forged its
motto: Visibilia ex Invisibilibus.
Dream dream never stop dreaming Dream! Fly!
and never stop He urged me forcefully Reality will follow.
And with this exhortation the Dreamer concluded His second
day with me in Shanghai.
The Dreamer and I were alone in the restaurant now, and
even the jazz orchestra in the foyer had stopped playing. From our
window, the Oriental Pearl TV Tower appeared like an immense
sparkling missile on its launch pad, ready to devour space.
Dream never stop dreaming reality will follow!
In world history, why have there been so few men with a
dream?
To be touched by the dream, a man has to have reached
the unity of being answered the Dreamer, and I remember that this
expression infiltrated my entire being Only an individual who is
integral and indivisible can dream intentionally and realise that the
Dreamis the most real thing that exists.
And what about those who dont dream? I asked, becoming
aware of all those who would never be accepted in the Dreamers
exclusive club.
All men dream, all of them have the power to create their
own world, but only a few are aware of it and know how powerful
their dream is that it has the strength to enrich everything around
them or feed the worlds nightmare.
Only very few, through will and their own flawlessness, can
dream a perfect world and give it concreteness. Its the condition of
the warrior, of the hero, of the man who loves.
The Dream in the Dreamers vision, as the most real thing that
exists, occupies the top rung on the ladder of reality, in fact it is the
very condition of concreteness.
I felt as though my mind was under siege. A hundred
questions were piling on top of one another, and they crowded
forward demanding answers, but before I could open my mouth, the
Dreamer interrupted me with a decisive gesture of the hand.
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You cant find will in the world He said like someone
imparting some decisive information Will only exists in you
but its buried. You need to uncover it!
He said nothing else, but granted me a few minutes to finish
my notes and reflect upon this final assertion. Then, He defined
flawlessness as the ability to head unequivocally in the direction of
ones dream, without ever relenting, without sinning.
A man who has his dream constantly present cant be
corrupted Everything in his life is flawlessly focused on his great
adventure.
I noted that this condition seemed rather widespread.
Apparently, every man tries I argued with the strategic
intention of pushing Him to say more on such an impassioned
subject Everyone, or at least most, try to improve their life, make
plans, have projects; most are busy trying to reach some objective.
The Dreamer then clarified for me, the difference between
dreaming and planning for me. The men who nourish a dream do
not have doubts, they do not feel uncertain or fearful. Every time
they turn their mind to the dream, they feel their enthusiasm is
renewed and they enter a state of freedom. Because the dream is
connected to will, it is the true will. On the contrary, those who
plan, those who resolve to attain an objective, suffer anxiety every
time they think about it, and they fall prey to fears and doubts.
Fear and doubt are the dreams cancer He stated
laconically coining another of His powerful and ruthless maxims.
He paused and I took advantage of this time to put my notes in order,
notes which already covered pages and pages of my notebook. I had
been busy attending to this for a while suddenly I started at the sound
of His voice.
People work, plan and accumulate with a strength and an
energy that you could describe as tenacity. But its only fear
Volleys of adrenalin, like electrical storms, constantly dart across
the dark universe of their cells. These men and women seem to be
very busy, confirmed idealists or determined businessmen, but in
actual fact theyre loyal to death and their names appear on he
payroll.
My writing devoured the blank pages and I felt the
preciousness of the substance which His words, His presence,
produced. I felt them enrich the air and travel untiring to the most
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distant corners of the planet, to the most hidden folds in every mans
being, softening his wounds and driving away his shadows. I was
upset. An irrational emotion, a kind of weeping, softly pushed
against the walls of my being and made each of its fibres tremble. I
lifted my head from the notes and saw His face come imperceptibly
closer to mine.
Work for an ideal. Put yourself at the service of the
humanity that dreams, that aspires, that asks! said the Dreamer. I
would never be able to forget or avoid the words that followed.
Constantly strive to perfect yourself. Always try to increase
your understanding. Pay for your existence in advance. Helping
others in their efforts if there is a sincere request.
Its you who must do this work from the inside. I can no longer
do it in your place. Ive attempted the impossible I went against the
inflexibility of your destiny, which had already condemned you to
give you a chance, to let you emerge from your condition.
Only a man who loves can be free and only a free man can
love. Freedom and love are two faces of the same reality.
The unforgettable lessons on dependence, falling in love,
and the last one on the unity of being, which had started at the Peace
Hotel, were finding their epilogue, along the Bunds riverside, in
those words which were now echoing in my bosom, powerful as the
cry of a great revolution.
One day ask to become the Dreamer, He advised me with
resolute sweetness, and added, Of all possible destinies, its the
greatest Ask to become the inventor, the creator of your universe
Then the world will obey everything you order it to do, and it will
give you all that you desire
At these words I closed my eyes. It seemed to me that the
sky over Shanghai was crossed by the brightest and most auspicious
comet. I was certain that my wish would be granted; asking sincerely
would be enough! Now or never, I thought. I would never have a
second
chance. But I felt paralyzed.
The Dreamer - and with Him the entire world - seemed to
wait, suspended by the thin thread of my intention. Never before had I
clearly perceived that everything depended on me, and that even the
Dreamer Himself existed for me.
Years of work, my long apprenticeship, and all my special
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efforts had led me there, to that crucial crossroads. And now finally,
the great undertaking for which He had been preparing me for so
long would begin, or it would remain in the limbo of possible worlds.
It was time to fly. On the edge of that abyss of no return, I hesitated. I
felt His glance on me, the Dreamers hidden trepidation. Then I knew
with absolute certainty that He was the only being in the world who
had ever truly loved me. I felt tears rise up irresistibly and my eyes
swell in the attempt to gather and stem them. Then the world became
clouded and I had to stop writing.

16 To be touched by the Dream

Since I had met Him, the Dreamer had constantly forced me
to extend my vision, to change my attitudes and with them my
destiny.

Attitudes and events are inseparable.
The attitude is the event.

Strategically, He had used every occasion, and had created
events, meetings and circumstances to hasten my passage to one of
the highest areas of existence. Immersed in the role of an international
entrepreneur and with the opportunity of leading a company in
Kuwait, the Dreamer had pursued that evolutionary design which
had its strength and beginning in my promise. What had happened
in Kuwait had marked a sharp break; it had been a true fall into
the lowest states of my being. At the edge of the abyss everything
became a pretext to draw back, in order not to plummet: Heleonore,
the children, an illness, the house
But now, I could neither hide it nor lie to myself anymore. In
Kuwait, for the umpteenth time, I had run away before the passage to
higher level of responsibility, of understanding! I had betrayed the
highest part of me. Heleonore had only been a pretext.
The next step is always unknown and invisible He said
The passage to the higher states is always a leap into the unknown. In
order to do it, you must die to your imaginary past, to everything
you believe you have been until now.
Moving even one millimetre in the being, is a mortal jump,
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a cosmic somersault that only few can perform said the Dreamer,
entering my thoughts and gathering the true essence of my condition.
The real difference between two men is the greatness of
their Dream. A man who is constantly worried about his survival,
and thinks only of himself moreover a false self, since he doesnt
know himself - cant be touched by the dream.
You can only know what you are not what you really are,
you can only Be.
It was only years later, on Mount Olympus, during a trip to
Macedonia, that I discovered that the Ancient Greeks had coined the
term idiotes for man in his present condition, for the selfish. The
idiot, for the Greeks, was the opposite of the demiurge, the leader, of
those who does things for others.
Behind the apparent search for an advantage or profit, an
entrepreneur, more deeply than he himself can ever know, is at the
service of a project; hes already a man who does for other men and
he knows that their improvement is his success.
His life is devoted to it. He has no choice. Like the captain of
an ancient sailing ship, he knows he will have to return with the ship
or sink with it.
With the Dreamer I was discovering that only the Dream
can make us free; it can break down our every limit.
Only the Dream can change poverty into prosperity,
difficulties into understanding, fear into love. Only the dream can
allow us to cross the threshold of the lost paradise.
Paradise isnt another world or afterlife Paradise is this
world without limits He said to me To be touched by the
Dreammeans receiving the gift of a great personal adventure, it
means coming face to face with ones own uniqueness.
Those men devoted to a description of the world founded
on scarcity and fear, cant be touched by the Dream because the
dream is freedom and they have been looked after by prophets of
misfortune, by priests and devotees of dependence since childhood.
Each has been educated in imprisonment. This is why millions of
men depend on others for their survival. One can always recognize
them, for they are marked by a total absence of gratitude and an
inability to love.
Giving is self giving To give one needs to have and to
have one needs to be.
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He was about to continue, and His lips were already half
open perhaps to talk to me about the Project, when He stopped to
observe me better. I felt His glance penetrate deep into my soul,
and the expression I saw on His face - as if at the discovery of my
hopeless inadequacy for the task which awaited me - made me feel
like a tramp who had come to seek admission to the most aristocratic
of clubs.
Do you know what the difference is between us? He asked in
a dry, rough tone.
I remained silent, caught off guard by such a direct approach
by the Dreamer. After years of absolute restraint, it now seemed to
point candidly to the subject of His mysterious nature.
Who really was the Dreamer? He waited until it became
clear that I would not provide an answer, and said:
The difference between us is that my atoms dance, drunk
with immortality on the everlasting nectar of immortality were
His exact words whereas youre attracted and ruled by all that is
mortal Ive conquered death, and youve invested everything in the
belief of its inevitability.
I was floundering, and I would have been overcome, had
the Dreamer not come to my rescue. It was then that I heard Him
repeat those three unforgettable words.
I am you! He said, and the appeal of this expression was so
powerful that it devoured light years between our beings. Again I
found myself closer to Him than ever before. When it seemed to Him
that I had at least absorbed the initial impact of His words, He added:
I have been you and you will be Me. Eons of time and an
abyss in conscience divide us. Go faster! By sending you to Kuwait,
I gave you a drop and you mistook it for the ocean. Now that I want
to give you the ocean, youre holding back.
I closed my eyes, I felt the unbearable speed at which He was
pushing me and I feared I might not survive it. While He continued
to speak, I hid in a corner of my being and waited there for the storm
to pass. Relentlessly He followed me there, drawing me out. His
change of tone was sudden and His voice exploded so powerfully in
my chest that I was pervaded by an arcane terror.
Make a decision once and for all! He thundered. In His
voice, I heard the ruthless determination and heroic ferocity of a
commander shouting orders in the thick of a mortal battle.
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Work day and night towards your improvement! Never forget
your promise!
What promise have I forgotten?
The promise to change! He said A promise youve made
not only to yourself but to all the other shining, visionary beings, who
will undertake this passage.
How can I change? I said.
Dream a new Dream. Dream a new world! The world is
as you dream it. The world is as you want it! Youve wanted it to
be violent, false, mortal. The world will be different when you
change!
Your continuing regret of the past always carries you back
to the old things He said after a long pause.
Abandon it! He ordered Its time to devote yourself full
time to the Project.
I promised with the utmost sincerity and solemnity that I
would not break my word, and that nothing would come before my
evolution. The Dreamer stared at me for a long time. I withstood
that examination. I was anxious for the result, until a flash of stern
benevolence in His glance gave me a little relief.
Promising doesnt makes any sense He said The promise
of an ordinary man is already a lie. Change your attitude, now!
This is the true action. The facts, circumstances and events of life
will change in time.Leave your work and move to London.
There, youll meet men and women who are ready to work with
you. Theyll be the pillars of a great revolution: an individual,
psychological, planetary revolution that will change at its
foundations humanitys way of thinking and feeling, which is for now
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CHAPTER IX

The Game

1 Believing is Seeing

The Dreamers influence had begun to produce surprising
results in my life. Within a few days, and without hesitation, I had
sold the house in Chi, left my work at the ACO Corporation. and
moved the family to an elegant Georgian villa in leafy Hampstead on
the outskirts of London.
Seven Oaks had been the residence of a prominent
businessman. The architecture, objects, furniture, paintings and
antique statues were symbols of a genuine, powerful aristocracy
of entrepreneurship. Seven Oaks also revealed itself to be a potent
alchemical laboratory. Such a house could only develop and change
me, reawakening in me a clarity, a courageous attitude and the
strength to do to accomplish great things.
There, in that residence, guided by the Dreamer, I would
devote all my energy to excising the lie from my life once and for all.
There the last notes of my old song of pain, composed of doubts and
anxieties, would fade out. Now I could devote myself to the strong
discipline that the Dreamer called the art of dreaming: the art of
believing in oneself, the art of balancing opposites, and changing
adversities and antagonisms into events of a superior order.
With the Dreamer at my side, I felt secure and invulnerable.
Beside Him, the most radical changes, even the apparently most
risky, like those taking place at that very time, simply entered my
life and gently reshuffled its order. That leap into the unknown -
instead of turning my existence upside down - gathered the scattered
fragments of my life with a strong hand, and firmly fastened them
together.
Heleonore and my children faced those changes without
difficulty.
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They felt protected and my own determination gave them
security.
And yet I still did not fully possess the strength and
conviction with which I had seemed to make those decisions. My
own trust and self confidence, which knew neither hesitation nor
doubt when I was with the Dreamer, became shaky as soon as I
deviated from His teachings. Everything that happened within the
Dreamers sphere, that gestation of the being which ruled events,
facts and circumstances, and made the world obedient, compliant
and malleable as clay, was still incomprehensible to me.
Months passed. Far from the Dreamer, the dream began to
crumble and the past seized power once more. As the Dreamers
principles began to cool in me, the air outside turned to dense fog and
ice. In my universe even the slightest movement became difficult,
painful. Every aspect of my existence, through its many symptoms,
revealed my constant backsliding - looking at the past - my doubts
and my regrets.
As had happened earlier, when Id returned from Kuwait the
more I yielded, the more I felt the need to programme and make plans.
My calculations led me to the conclusion that our lifestyle was going
to very quickly eat up my savings.
The pace of life beside Him was unsustainable. I had trouble
keeping up. According to the Dreamer there were no limits and
nothing was too costly.

Everything is at our door.
The limit is within us.

Yet I reached a point when that life seemed too risky to me.
The fear of having no money prompted me to open a new account in
a London bank where I deposited a good part of the proceeds from
the sale of the house in Chi, promising myself I would only touch
that money in an emergency. I said nothing of this to the Dreamer.
The certainty of being able to count on that sum if things took a turn
for the worse comforted me at the low points when anxiety invaded
me and took control of my life. That account became a psychological
prosthetic, a replacement for self-belief and courage, and that decision
represented a way for me to feign responsibility, just as I had done
years before by inserting the re-entry clause in my contract with the
ACO Corporation. This recurrence was an unmistakable sign of my
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fall into the deadly pattern of repetitiveness. When the symptoms of
my imminent fall became more obvious, I confessed everything to
the Dreamer, and closed that account before the past could swallow
me up, without possibility of return.
Everyone believes in something its not difficult to
believe but to reawaken the will, choose ones intention, and
follow it unswervingly is only for a few Obliging oneself to believe
is actually higher than believing concluded the Dreamer on that
occasion.
Believing in oneself means to create.
Remarkable men in every epoch have only found capital to
accomplish their impossible endeavours once they have eliminated
every kind of doubt from their beings. The real capital is inside us,
and the resources we find are the material reflection of an inner
prosperity that we know how to keep alive whatever the circumstances
might be. Dont ever separate yourself from the principles of the
Dream. Always keep them alive. Dont let them grow cold in you,
and youll see that everything turns to your advantage; even history,
the most coarse and superficial part of existence, will prove you
right.
His ideas inspired me deeply, but they were not easy to
put into practice! The Dreamers philosophy revealed itself to be
unbending and severe - a path reserved for the very few, when the
moment came to apply it. All the same, along the ridge defined by
His vision, like a vast geological divide, the entire human mass was
separated into two parts: one, made up of weak and incomplete men,
influenced by everything and anything, who follow and depend, even
when they believe themselves to be leaders; and the other, composed
of a handful of vertical men, the very few integral beings, blessed
with an unshakeable belief and determination. It was they who
sustained the world. According to the Dreamer, the life of a country,
of entire nations, is apparently led by those who govern; but in reality
their destiny is decided by the integrity of a few individuals. If they
did not exist, then the fate of vast regions of the planet and even of
entire civilisations would have already been sealed.
Behind the men who seem to accomplish things, behind the
appointed leaders of world organisations, political and humanitarian
institutions, big businesses and financial empires, behind magnates,
tycoons and leaders, there are simple, sincere, sober men who,
motionlessly, invisibly lead through not doing.
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When a man who believes in himself, apparently takes a
step into the unknown, only then, unfailingly, does he see the ground
appear beneath his feet, to prove that his shining madness is right
Believe in order to see; never vice versa!
But at that time the requisite qualities for joining this club of
remarkable men were still beyond me. With growing doubts and fear, I
did and redid the accounts, always coming to the same conclusion:
the money from the sale of the house in Chi would only last for a
few months. I had no idea what I would do in the future. I had no
plans, no work. The old world had abandoned me and the new one
had yet to show its face.

2 Change your Liiiife!

One episode, at the beginning of that new adventure, was
particularly significant and decisive. While I was still searching for a
house in London I was able to show Him a number of different
possibilities. Worried, led by the fear of having insufficient means,
and uncertain as to what the future had in store, even unpretentious
houses seemed too expensive for me. Thus, at that meeting I warmly
supported the choice of a flat that was not too big, but was - in my
opinion - adequate, well-furnished and situated in a little street
between Marylebone Road and Regents Park. I will never forget
His reaction. It remains among the most invaluable of His teachings.
His words struck me like a jet of icy water.
You can only choose yourself, your limits, your
mediocrity was His reaction to my proposal. His tone was scornful
Years go by, but your life doesnt change. The world is such
because you are such Enter the Dreamers vision and stop
believing yourself to be a miserable being, Whatever conditions may
rule a mans existence, they correspond perfectly to his
expectations.
I remember attempting a defense. I maintained that my
choices had to be attributed to the conditions in which He had put
me. In this particular case, I judged that it was simply wise to make
decisions and assume commitments that also took into consideration
possible, future difficulties. My choices would have been very
different, if only I had been able to count on adequate resources
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Everything has to be earned. The difficulties I put in your
way are hidden blessings. In actual fact theyre milestones towards
integrity and understanding.
I thought He was being facetious. I believed that after
years of work with the Dreamer I had already managed to bear
every possible shock to my system; that I was ready to accept the
overturning of every ordinary idea or belief; and that I knew how to
persist despite obstacles and disappointments. But I was wrong.
You no longer have time for self-indulgence. Transcend,
constantly transcend every achievement, every apparent success.
Dont remain even for one instant in the old rut and old beliefs.
Transcend yourself.
Todays evil is yesterdays good, not yet transcended.
My facial muscles contracted and I no longer knew what
kind of expression to assume. I wanted to rebel, to shout all my
aversion at that vision that left no room for justifications, accusations,
complaints or regrets The frustration and impotence formed a solid
lump that constricted my throat and I could only utter an inarticulate
sound. I tried to recompose myself; I tried to order my ideas so as to
say something that made sense, but
Change your liiife! shouted the Dreamer with all the power
of His voice. I saw the veins in His temples and neck swell like a
raging torrent; I was afraid. His cry vibrated in the air, and remained
suspended between us for a deafening eternity. The vision of a
warrior roaring through his horn instantly flashed before me. I did not
have time to record this image before the Dreamer commenced His
thundering invective.
Youre still projecting your past. Selling the house in Chi
means nothing if along with it you havent given up your scarcity and
suffering. Be careful not to carry the past with you, with its usual
miseries Remember Past is Dust. Dont go into the world
proposing yourself to others You are already showing too many
signs of need. Carry My presence My words Carry Meee!
At this new cry, even more unbearable, a boundless terror
exploded inside me. I felt its chemistry flood every corner of my
being and consume the huge distances that existed within me. At that
cry, which still absurdly persisted, all my inner barriers started to
crumble and fall into ruin, like the walls of Jericho under the sound
pressure of Joshuas horn. I felt healthy - unified, as never before.
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As suddenly as it had appeared, that storm fell silent and the Dreamer
returned to His usual attitude, as if nothing had happened. There was
a pause and in those few seconds I hoped against hope that it had
passed. With difficulty, I was trying to gather myself again, when I
saw Him slowly place His forefingers vertically around the corners
of His mouth. I noted that that gesture took an infinite amount of
time to complete, like a slow motion sequence. I followed each
frame of His movement - which seemed to be part of an unknown
warrior ritual - with apprehension, then with worry, and finally with
a growing anxiety. His eccentricity, the extreme slowness with
which He completed it, weighted that gesture with an inexplicably
threatening terrifying significance. I could hardly breathe, and my
emotions were in complete turmoil.
When at last I understood that He was simulating a
megaphone, I braced myself for another of those roars that could
actually brand the very essence of His teachings into ones flesh. But
now the Dreamer did not shout. He brought His face a little closer and
then, in an almost inaudible voice, He hissed:
The house you are looking for in London is not for you, but
for the Dreamer! Remember that! If you bring yourself, then whatever
comes to you will be weak and sparse like your world Set aside
your worries and come closer to Me. Youll find that no obstacles
exist but that you, with your unshakeable belief in limitations, are the
one true obstacle.
From that day forth, the estate agents had started to offer
completely different solutions. As always, the Dreamer was right.
Once Id changed my attitude, the world followed like a shadow. I no
longer looked for a house for myself, but one worthy of the Dreamer.
When Id found Seven Oaks, I recognised it. That was the house
where I would have continued the work, and within a few days
Heleonore had organised everything, and wed moved in with the
children.
I couldnt have known it at the time, but that residence, so far
beyond every reasonable parameter, had been created to fling me into
the abyss. Surely this was a strategy of the Dreamers, meant to
accelerate my learning process, but I was still unable to make sense
of that mise en scene. Without His help I could never have imagined
embarking on such a passage. Seven Oaks represented the breaking
of a barrier; the instrument for destroying an interior geology
composed of poverty and ignorance which had been stratified over
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the years. It was a charge of dynamite, set to breach the bastions
that defended a nightmare: my identification with a poor, limited,
unhappy world.

3 Payment

Money is not real. What is real is a mans vision, his ideas.
Resources and money are only a natural consequence of them
they fall into line and assume the proportions of his Dream
But if you truly believe that your problem is lack of money He said
with a seraphic sarcasm then go to the bank and ask for a loan!
If only I could I lied with vehemence. My stomach was
gripped in a knot at the thought of meeting a Cerberus, a ogre banker
and trying to secure an impossible loan. Inwardly, I blamed the
Dreamer for having placed me in this difficult situation. My worry
turned into aggression and I burst out: And then what? On what
grounds would they give me a loan?
The world knows! The Bank knows! He stated The
Bank, like the world, isnt outside you. It can only give you what you
already possess.
With a quick theatrical movement of the head, He looked left
and right, to make sure we were alone and that no one could hear
the secret that He was about to confide. Then, in a low voice, He
said: In the universe there is nothing that can be given to you. A man
can only receive what he has already paid for. His improvised
pantomime had caught me by surprise, and He resumed His usual
severity before I had time to rearrange my facial muscles.
Payment can take place in time or out of time! He
enunciated. The long pause that followed magnified the significance
of this declaration and forewarned me of the importance of what He
was about to say.
If theres a difference between men, its in the way they
themselves have chosen to pay
A man who believes in himself has already paid for all
that he possesses. His true and sole occupation, is keeping himself
whole and allowing nothing and no one to impair his integrity. He
knows that its his indivisibility that creates wealth. He knows that
his financial destiny depends on his level of integrity. Every effort
you make to drown out the chant of sorrow you keep inside will
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produce financial power. Every time you travel in the opposite
direction from the multitude, youll create wealth in the world of
events. Nothing is external. Self-observation, the ability to
circumscribe a negative emotion, a pain, a doubt, is money that
comes to you. The world of events is too slow to recognise who has
paid beforehand, who has already settled his accounts in the
invisible. It takes time to record those credits, but its administration is
infallible.
Here, He stopped to look at me intently. In His eyes I read
the gravity of the revelation He was about to make, and I could sense
that it would be painful.
You, like millions of men who love to be dependent, have
chosen to pay in the currency of time: pain! He said bitterly
Credit and debt are one and the same thing but divided by time
The future knows! Obtaining credit is only the signal lit that shows
the payment has already taken place. If the loan has been
accepted, it means youve already paid for it.
I was dumbfounded. The Dreamer was imparting a secret that
no economist had ever been able to discover, much less encapsulate
into such an important rule that could include the courage, creativity
and sense of certainty of a statesman and visionary businessman; a
theory about the brilliant madness of entrepreneurs, industrial and
political leaders whose choices and decisions, often crucial to so
many mens futures, have almost always appeared reckless if not
foolish in the eyes of ordinary men.
But why have great financial and industrial empires
collapsed, even with courageous men at the top? I tried to object.
The Dreamer was accelerating and I was struggling to keep up with
Him.
In life as in business, theres only one way to lose: stop
believing in yourself!
In the Institute of Economics in Naples, with my beloved
teacher, Palomba and on the path first marked out by Professor
Amoroso, I had taken the first steps towards the territory of the
dream, the universal ideas that rouse man, inspire humanity
and constitute powerful forces in economy and society. But those
teachings paled in the light of what I was learning from the Dreamer.
How can a man control events and phenomena like
market progress, exchange quotations, political climates, legislative
frameworks and international relations?
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There exists an Art of Dreaming, the Art of Believing
and Creating, an ability to elevate the being to higher levels of
responsibility in order to attract new ideas and greater possibilities
of doing and having.
Economics, politics, and even history obey the laws of being.
A mind trained in limitation, in the finite, cant understand it. You
only have to know that the universe which surrounds you is a grain
of sand when compared to your being.
The more you are, the more you have. A man who believes in
himself gains all the resources with which to face every undertaking,
even those which are impossible. A mans economy corresponds
perfectly to his level of integrity. The more you are, the more you
have, and never vice versa.
He paused for a moment, allowing me to reflect upon His
answer. The more you are, the more you have. The more you are, the
more you have, I repeated to myself but that concept, so simple
and yet so powerful, escaped me. I was unable to absorb it, to make
it part of me.
Finally, a thought made its way through Quality creates
quantity. This was the great secret. Qualitative economy would lead a
future humanity, and bring solutions to all its problems: a planetary
healing.
The quality of a mans thoughts creates his economy, visible
wealth and prosperity. Only qualitative economics can produce a
true, inalienable, permanent wealth. It was wonderful. The Dreamers
philosophy was heralding a new economic model; He was giving me
the formula for a totally unknown teaching in schools of economics
and the world of business.
The economy will never be led by economists, He said,
penetrating my thoughts in turmoil. In the near future every
organisation, from the smallest company to the largest multinational,
will be an ideological company, a School of Being.
Its success, longevity, its very destiny will depend on its
philosophy. At the top of every organisation there will be philosophers
of action, poets and visionaries, pragmatic utopians, capable of
penetrating the being and nourishing its roots. The smallest widening
of the vision, an elevation in comprehension, can move mountains in
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4 We are the bow, the arrow, and the target

Every day since moving to Seven Oaks I had gone jogging. I
only had to cross the road to find myself in Hampstead Heath where I
could run along small paths, around lakes, and down the grassy slopes
of Parliament Hill. That morning I had run with fury, without sparing
myself, to expel the anxiety and doubts that increasingly assailed me
and tried to take root. I had not seen the Dreamer for months. I had
left my job, sold my house in Chia, and moved to London, but in all
that time I had received no word from Him. Without a role or any
work commitments, without meetings and plans, I did not know how
to give meaning to my life. Up until then I had never recognised
with such clarity how important my relationship with others and the
outside world -- in all its kaleidoscopic manifestations -- was to me.
Moreover, the anxiety and worries that at that time I identified with
the very idea of responsibility; the contrast and frictions, which I
considered the natural, inevitable effects of relationships with others,
had become a drug whose deprivation was producing the effects of
a true withdrawal.

Pain is all that men know
It gives meaning to their existence.
It makes them believe theyre alive.

I had reflected upon these words for a long time, and for
months I had experienced firsthand how paradoxical the human
condition was.
In states of serenity and joy, in the absence of every pain,
man feels annihilated. Once, the Dreamer told me that a state of
joy cannot be experienced by mankind as it is; even a moment of
happiness is
unbearable.
Joy, serenity, gratitude and love, are states of being that
mankind, in its present condition, cant feel. If they could enter in an
ordinary mans life, he would see them as an inferno in his own
inferno. Happiness can only belong to those who know the Art of
Dreaming. Only a man who loves, a man who dreams, can bear the
energy which the absence of pain generates.
At the end of my run, I turned down Courtney Avenue at full
speed. In the last few metres I quickened my pace; I often did this.
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The thought of a hot shower gave me extra stamina and put new
strength in my legs.
Suddenly I felt His presence. It was an unmistakable feeling.
He was there. The Dreamer had come! I glanced at my clothes, at my
sweat-soaked tracksuit and my muddy shoes. I decided to go around
the house and enter from the back, through the garden entrance. From
there I could slip into the bedroom, get washed and make myself
presentable. In truth, the thought of meeting the Dreamer especially
as I had not seen Him for some time caused conflicting emotions
in me. Seeing Him, hearing His voice, or even recalling His words,
was an acceleration of the being, a compression of time which set
me anxiously to work. I loved and detested the unexpected effort
of having to reconstruct my bodys scattered fragments, which
in the absence of the Dreamer, had become dismembered. It was
always a rude awakening that compelled me to recognise that
through forgetfulness we lose our identity and become the crowd,
the multitude.
I did not even have time to put my foot on the bottom step of
the staircase that led to my room, before His unmistakable voice
froze me on the spot.
Youre regretting the past! He began in a loud voice, giving
our meeting an abrupt start. The Dreamer was synthesising all the
troubles of the last few months and reading me inside in those few
words. I felt caught red-handed. Oh, yes! For months I had been
regretting the past! Like the Jews of the Exodus, ready to barter their
freedom, I preferred the security of old constraints to this solitude
and life without meaning. I needed to worship the golden calf - the
idol of the world; I needed to return to my usual confusion. If only I
had been able to, I would have returned to the familiar womb of
irresponsibility, of dependence. I would have preferred the tiny villa
in Chi a thousand times to that rich London residence which I was
unprepared to keep, and which made me feel small and unreal.
In moments of clarity I understood that the Dreamer was
pushing me towards limits that I would never have crossed; He was
putting me in situations I would never have experienced. Beside Him, I
was constantly tiptoeing on the edge of an abyss, like a tightrope
walker without a net. Below ran my life like the river Styx, a swamp
of putrid water, thick with malaise and vulgarity.
From our very first meeting, the Dreamer had warned me
against the perils of this desert; against the ambushes of invisible
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predators that I would meet while crossing it.
I remembered the words of the night before my departure for
London:
AIM I AM We are our objective we are the bow, the
arrow and the target The aim, which seems to be always outside
us, is in actual fact the anagram, the other profile of I am. This takes
us back to the moment, to the compression of time, to the elimination
of every distance from our selves. The supreme art is our changing,
which can only take place in this instant.
An ordinary mans existence, hectic and busy as it might appear, is
only a continuous indulgence in meaningless repetition. Our lifes
goal is to create an original masterpiece: ourselves Its a journey
that everyone, sooner or later, in one lifetime or a hundred, will have
to face. Theres no other objective and nothing in the world is more
exciting.
Slowly I took off my shoes and left them there, where I
was. Barefoot, I followed the direction of the Dreamers voice and,
silently, peeped out from behind the sitting room door.

5 I have come to set you free!

Fatigued from the run, I leaned against the door jamb,
panting slightly. This irritated the Dreamer.
Stand up straight! Dont lean! He ordered Dont let
anyone see you tired or worn out.
With an imperious gesture, He silenced me before I could
even open my mouth to explain. Dont blame the run Even if
you had run a whole marathon, you would have no right to look
anguished or exhausted. Always tell yourself: I could have run even
further!
His scolding was like a whip that swept away my thoughts in
one fell swoop along with the lie about being tired.
When He saw me straighten up and move away from the
doorjamb, He began His discourse:
Youre regretting the past He repeated and the hint of
scorn in His voice wounded me cruelly Regret takes you back to
the laws of your past and cancels out all your years of work. On
the road to integrity, theres no room for regret. Once youve set
out on the journey you cant turn back!
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Then His tone changed.
Youre looking for labels He said, displaying the
exaggerated patience that adults show when talking to a child
Theres no handrail, so you dont know what to hold on to. This
suspended state makes you more afraid of the fear youve always
borne inside.
The Dreamer was talking to me from one of the sitting rooms
armchairs, next to the open fire. A silver buckle on His coat gleamed
in the firelight. That glow penetrated the folds of my being and shook
me, opening me up to a new understanding. Like all ordinary men, I,
too, loved pain more than my own life. The Dreamer would explain
to me that rather than face the horror of entering what he does not
know, mans true fear is that of losing what is most familiar to him:
pain and suffering. This phobia creates an insurmountable barrier to
the manifestation of will, to what we truly, genuinely possess, and is
also what makes us belong to the dark sea of nonentity.
After physical birth, with the cutting of the umbilical
cord, the child is attached to two new parents: doubt and pain. Only
encountering the School will allow for a new birth and the severing of
this terrible cord. It is a return to our true parents: the dream and the
will. The absence of doubt and fear is a state of ecstasy and freedom,
which only an integral man can bear.
This is what Im offering you. Freedom is very costly, but
that doesnt make it unobtainable. Youre still looking in the shadows
of the past for some old mask to put on He said, and in His voice
was the compassion that one feels for a poor, defenseless being. He
added in the same tone:
You miss having a role to play A man cant be led by the
past or by the experiences he has lived. Whats past is dust. On the
way to integrity he has to entrust himself to new senses: intuition,
and a seventh sense, the Dream. Roles are prisons their bars are
invisible but more solid than steel
But Ive listened to you Ive quit my job, Ive sold my
house. What else should I do? I burst out, venting the rage Id
accumulated in all those months of waiting. I felt blame and
resentment bubble to the surface because I was ensnared in that new
adventure, realising that it made no sense no matter how I tried to
get around it.
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If you dont understand, leaving your work, or changing
countries, is no use nor will it make you free He answered with
rough sweetness, disregarding my emotions for the moment.
Years later I would recognise that once again the Dreamer had come
just in time to save me.
Before he can break out of the prison of his roles, a man
must feel disappointment for the sterile repetitiveness of the events
and circumstances of his own life.
There was a long pause. I was still standing at the entrance to
the sitting room, listening to Him. Still dirty and sweating from my long
run, I felt uncomfortable. I wanted to wash and change into something
clean. The moment seemed right, and I asked if I could leave. The
Dreamer was engrossed. I interpreted an imperceptible movement of
His head as an assent and I left. A shower and a clean shirt changed my
attitude. When I returned, I came in with cat-like steps and sat down
in the other armchair near the fireplace, at a respectful distance from
the Dreamer. I had my notebook. I took in a huge mouthful of air and
then I felt ready to begin, knowing it would be a demanding session.
The Dreamers tone had changed:
No one builds a house on a bridge. A bridge isnt meant to be
a dwelling-place He remarked.
Roles, like bridges, are there to take you to another place;
theyre made to be surpassed. Humans spend too much time on them,
and instead of crossing them and going beyond, they stay there,
trapped. On the path to integrity every moment must be new every
instant serves to transcend the previous moment every breath must
be an act of gratitude devoted to elevating the being towards new
realms of freedom.
How can one live in a world, free of roles? I asked.
Roles are masks to be worn deliberately, while performing.
To play a role means not to believe it!
He explained that the first step in the direction He was showing
me was to understand fully the way roles function. In the Dreamers
vision, roles are ordered hierarchically according to complexity and the
level of responsibility they demand. He was categorical on one point: a
man cannot in any way move to a higher role if his own being does not
first contain all the hierarchical pyramid below. From His explanation
of roles, I gleaned an image of containers of different sizes, stacked
one on top of another like Chinese boxes.
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Freedom from a role only comes when youve learned to
act it perfectly clarified the Dreamer, citing the example of an
orchestra conductor, who has to know the possibilities and difficulties
of every single instrument.
When we perform a role intentionally, and act it perfectly, it
not only frees us, but also frees the world from that coarseness,
that violence He said When you identify yourself with it, when
you believe it, you not only become a slave of the world, but you cling
to it as if it were the real thing, your only certainty.
To believe in a role, no matter what it may be, means lying to
yourself.
I couldnt estimate accurately, but my rough calculations
suggested that ten lifetimes would not be enough to accomplish such a
feat.
Exactly confirmed the Dreamer This is why no one,
following an ordinary path, will ever free himself from his roles
nor would he want to!
Why is it that no one wants to set himself free from
his roles? I asked Who wouldnt be happy to get rid of the
commitments and responsibilities of being a father, husband or
manager? I suggested that only a sense of responsibility prevents us
from abandoning them.
On the contrary the Dreamer retorted dryly For an
ordinary man, abandoning a role is like asking him to give up his
life like abandoning a life vest in an infinite sea. Men are more
attached to their roles, and even more to the sufferings that are an
integral part of them, than they are to their own breath.
A long pause followed; I remained silent.
Roles are shields. Men hide behind them pretending to be
busy, but in reality they are defending their own irresponsibility.
Take you, for example! He pointed out in the tone of
someone embarking upon a conclusive demonstration. Now the
Dreamers sights were trained on me. His announcement came as
no surprise to me, but that did not make it any less painful. After
years in proximity to the Dreamer, a painful pressure in my stomach
always forewarned me that His discourse was about to shift from a
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6 Role Playing

This is what you have to change what you are feeling now
He said, noticing my grimace of pain Look at yourself! You
continue to believe that I caused it by my words; but in fact that pain
has always fermented inside you, like a bog of stagnant water!
This is the symptom of an unhealed wound, and its the
cause of all your troubles Contain that pain Understand it
Love it. Dont run away from it!
I was still trying to understand and recover from His last
remarks. The Dreamer had already linked it to His initial discourse,
resuming it from where He had left off.
By identifying with the roles, youve forgotten the Game He
said Theres no performance or theatricality. An event, a situation,
or a meeting sets off mechanical reactions in you, like the
compressed spring of a mousetrap.
Mental images, thoughts, emotions, sensations adapt to
mechanically pre-arranged schemes; facial muscles contract and
take on certain expressions; certain words appear on the lips, and
you become a hostage, until new conditions and meetings catapult
you into another cage
He explained to me that this happens when a role is imposed
by the outside world. However, when we perform it consciously we
cannot be enslaved by it; we become free of it, and thus we also free
the world.
A role must be played without believing it which is only
possible for those who have acquired an understanding and a
command of themselves: a result that requires order, discipline, and
a considerable work of self-observation.
He stressed that, in order to make it a part of our life, every
role requires us to learn a specific language: gestures, behaviour,
attitudes; and an entire range of facial and verbal expressions.
Having a role presupposes the acceptance of entire blocks of ideas
and complete packages of beliefs through which one thinks and
feels. Learning to play a role is a complicated matter. Often a man
can spend his entire life learning to play just one role without his will
and responsibility ever maturing sufficiently for him to be able to
surpass it and go beyond.
He told me that every man, through the necessities of his
ordinary existence, learns and plays a limited number of roles -- five
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or six at the most. In order to adapt himself to circumstances, he
passes from one to the other like an automaton, without purpose,
conditioned by changes in his external situation. Contrary to what
he believes, he has no freedom to decide.
Freedom means playing whatever role on purpose, without
ever being imprisoned by it, He emphasized; in an ordinary man,
this ability, which is negligible to start with, becomes less and less
with age, until it disappears completely. The consequence is that
when conditions occur that are only slightly different from the usual
few roles he knows, a man can no longer choose the right mask to
put on.
I realised that this is why we constantly feel out of place, ill
at ease and threatened. By not knowing which mask to put on, or
including it in our repertoire, we reveal our limits, as in the Pavlovs
experiment where a dog unable to decide between the circle and
the ellipsis, goes mad. Thus every faculty: mental, physical and
emotional, functions randomly; thoughts, emotions and actions
combine together by way of a spastic relationship; and the human
being becomes a biological puppet. We feel naked in our terrible
shame and would like to run away. Yet these are the moments when,
peeping through the paper-thin gap between our skin and the mask,
it is possible for us to observe ourselves and recognise our essence,
our truest part.
Those who recognise that they have a limited repertoire of
roles and are aware of the tyranny that those ties can impose on
their action, have already taken the first steps towards freedom.
But the ordinary man, plunged into a hypnotic sleep and
lulled by a song of pain, will keep on lying to himself. No matter
how terrible his life may be, he will continue to indulge in it, and will
never ever find enough energy to escape.
The role is a pleasant game, if its performed with total
awareness. Identifying oneself with it, forgetting the Game, is fatal.
The Dreamer got up and went over to the window. He
remained silent for some minutes, looking out at the garden in Seven
Oaks, the impeccable lawn and lush plants in the last rays of the
sun. When He started His discourse again the tone of His voice was
unusually tender.
Roles are rungs on a ladder. Dont indulge on any of them.
Use them He urged Use them to step on and go beyond!
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According to the Dreamer, every role is the materialisation of
a certain way of thinking. To abandon one role and move on to
the next one, means that it has already been overcome in ones
being; every step taken and left behind means a progression towards
healing.
Learn to raise the quality of the being, and each role will be
dismissed as quickly as a cast-off item of clothing He concluded
This is called using a role and freeing oneself from it once and for
all.
This new expression struck me. The Dreamer noted my
perplexity, and He explained to me that using a role means taking
possession of the essence and responsibility behind every role; it
means freeing oneself from it forever, once it is no longer needed.
Thus will you free the world from the thankless task of
showing you the infernos you bear inside, from the appalling task
of reflecting your every deficiency, pain, and death.

7 The path back

All that is outside us, the world that we see and touch, the
people, circumstances and events that we encounter, are a revelation
of Being; a confirmation of our way of thinking The roles in which
were still trapped show us the wounds we have not yet heale
He paused for a long time. Rather than understanding and
laying claim to the energy of that moment, I took refuge in the pages
of my notebook, pretending to reread and amend them. Those corners
into which the Dreamer was pressing me were painful. Once again I
tried to f lee. I made a mute request for more time still more time.
The Dreamer apparently diverted His attention and I, who
had savoured true life with Him for a few moments, returned to take
my place among the inanimate objects of the room, I was finally at
ease, a shadow among the worlds shadows.
Events serve to show the states that generated them Only
a School of Being knows their symbolic language and can trace the
path back, through labyrinths, deserts and inner hells, to the
innermost states, the true source of every happening.
The shadows of the encroaching evening settled against the
great windows of Seven Oaks, ready to enter and take possession
of the sitting room where we were. The Dreamers face glowed with
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reflected flames while He carefully placed new logs on the embers. It
was a perfect moment, and in the semi-darkness, I could no longer
see to write.
I rested my head against the back of the armchair and closed
my eyes to concentrate better.
Straighten up the Dreamer ordered dryly you are actually
capable of falling asleep right there, in front of Me!...
It felt like an unexpected blow from a rod. A mass of
thoughts and feelings, self-commiseration, blame and resentment,
erupted violently and mingled in my being, until they formed just
one sense, the most burning and unbearable of them all: the sense
of injustice. In that moment, with a sudden jump, I found myself in
the Dreamers place. I observed myself. I saw the life that watched
death die. There were only a few infinite moments of impressive
clarity; then I found myself again alert, with my eyes wide open and
my back perfectly erect. For an instant, a tingling sensation vibrated
just beneath my skin before it disappeared. I promised myself that I
would never lower my guard again.
The Dreamer tirelessly resorted to the most remote strategies in
order to take me to those zones in my being where His teaching, and
His energy, became my very essence. When this happened, I knew
I only had a few moments there in which to strengthen the staves of
my container, the oak ribs of which creaked and threatened to yield
under the pressure of that new, strong wine.

8 You arent ready!

I felt my resistance rise and my blood pulsate under the
pressure of His words.
For too many years youve renounced your will and placed
your life in the worlds hands. The outer world has been the only
reality for you, and youve made a divinity of it a stone idol that
has tyrannically ruled your existence.
In reality, the world is only a reflection Thoughts,
emotions and attitudes take shape in the world of events and respond
to each of your wishes.
For too many years youve thought the world was real,
that it had a will of its own. Youve made it the lord and master of
your life. For too many years youve relinquished power to a shadow
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that you yourself have projected.
The moment I had dreaded had come It was time to let go
of my former handrails, to let the old things die I could feel the
enormous gap of an overturned world opening up under my feet.
Things do not change and cannot change Only you can
change.
Here He stopped. That pause expanded hugely inside me. A
vague disquiet, then a sense of fear, widened its circles until it
touched the edges of my being. There was apparently nothing to
justify my alarm, and yet I discerned in His words, and above all
in the charged silence, that something unforeseeable was taking
shape. I tried to calm myself, but it was impossible. Finally, as if
making a difficult resolution, the Dreamer announced the following
phase of the work that would allow for the next passage. That
moment marked the beginning of the quest, the journey that would
valiantly engage every moment of my life. In the tone of someone
communicating a carefully considered decision, He said:
It has taken years of preparation for you to realise the
fragmentation of your being years and years to make you
recognise the hypnotic sleep that tyrannically rules every mans
existence.Ive brought order to your life Ive freed you from
commitments and programmes so that you could devote yourself
to putting together the principles of an educational system that will
show the way to emerge from the infernos of ordinariness.
The Dreamer paused, remaining absorbed for a long time.
Then in a resolute tone, He announced: There are men and women
whom you should meet
Who are they? Where are they? Why should I meet
them? I urged apprehensively.
There is no finality the Dreamer responded with
unexpected gentleness This is what makes the game of encounters
interesting, unique and effective. Youll have to meet hundreds of
people for no other reason than to recognise in each of those
men and women a fragment of yourself If you remember Me, your
promise, every meeting will be an opportunity for you to compare
yourself with an unknown, unresolved part of yourself.
Hundreds of meetings? But thats going to take years! I
exclaimed, terrified at the prospect.
The amount of time this takes will depend on you The
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game of encounters will last as long as your incomprehension, and
will be as arduous as your resistance.
Through the game of encounters, youll realise that the
world is one of your creatures and the others are your reflection.
And even if this result takes years of work, at least you will weaken
the old belief inside you that the world has the power to hoist you
up or knock you down, that others can love you or fight against you,
and that theres a hostile will outside you, which controls and rules
your life.
The world exists because you exist. The world is alive
because you are alive declaimed the Dreamer, who continued
The world is your shadow Man would like to find in it the
understanding that he feels inside and so he spends his existence
searching for life among ghosts He believes in a reality outside
himself He wastes his time digging among shadows! But,
through this wasted archeology and your eagerness to be
identified with them, they become even more real for you, and the
outer world becomes a fetish an idol to worship, fear and
propitiate. Because youve forgotten your true will, youve given up
your creators right
Then He articulated these words:
Dont forget the others are you outside yourself the
others are the reflection of all you want to see, feel and touch inside
yourself.
So I, and those closest to you, I asked Him, What do
we mean to you?
Once Id pronounced these words, my heart beat faster,
and I understood that I had dared to go beyond the limits of what I
was able to hear and contain. His gaze weighed upon me for several
infinite moments, perhaps to evaluate my ability to withstand what
He was about to tell me.
Then I remembered His words: Nothing is external
Nothing is external Their force hurled me into the solitude of a
universe of which I was the sole inhabitant, creator, lord and absolute
master. I was frozen and dismayed, and would have given anything
to go back and withdraw that question. The walls of my being quaked
under the pressure of that crucial moment.
All of you are Me, He said, fragments of Myself
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9 The shortcut

I was despondent. The Dreamer had set me such an
impossible task that I felt drained of all energy before even starting.
The Game of Encounters will allow you to compress
time Youll learn more about yourself in the game than an ordinary
man could do in ten lifetimes He said in an exhortative tone, but
the prospect of meeting so many illustrious strangers, of working for
months or years to this end, continued to seem absurd to me. Was
there no other way?
For you the world is too real. Only the game will free you
from this petrified, rigid description, and allow you access to a more
fluid, more liquid vision of the world. The world is an emotio He
said, and then waited for the precious substance of this overview to
penetrate my being.
The meetings will help you to measure your level of
responsibility, theyll teach you to know yourself completely, and
youll realise that every man or woman you meet is an unknown part
of you, an opportunity to see one of your wounds or hidden illnesses
which you will then be able to heal.
How will I choose them? What will I talk about? I
persisted, without even trying to hide my apprehension. I hoped with
all my strength that I would be spared that task.
What you talk about doesnt matter at all, the Dreamer cut
in. You ask this question because you still believe the others are
outside you. But the others are states of being which materialise in
the world of events The others are time.
And the man who gives his own life for others? Who meets
them in order to help and heal them? And missionaries?
Even the missionary meets himself, his doubts, his fears, his
division. He mixes with those who are superstitious in order to
conquer his own superstition. He enters the world of suffering to
heal his wounds and return to the source, the true cause. And even
if hes unaware of it and believes that he does things on behalf of
others, its really the others who are doing things for him, taking
care of him.
Once he has understood which states in himself have made his
mission possible, hell be healed; he wont need to be a missionary any
longer. Hell put someone else in his place and go beyond.
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I was in turmoil. The Dreamers answer had turned me
inside out and I was still trying to compose myself when I noticed that
He had left the argument and was responding to my initial question.
As for whom youll meet, for now all you need to know is
that I myself will decide on them and point them out to you. The
important thing for you is to learn to see. If you see, youll make
that man or womans history your own and in an instant youll gain
the benefit of years and years of experiences, efforts, sacrifices,
successes and failures. Seeing them means recognising them inside
yourself like wounds to be closed or organs to be healed. Seeing
means forgiving yourself inside. Then every meeting becomes a step
on which to rise above and go beyond.
My growing interest in what the Dreamer was telling
me had not escaped His notice, and this story of meetings started
to take the form of an unknown and mysterious martial art. The
world, with its continents and cities, and the endless kaleidoscope
of human activities, like figures constantly reshaped from soft clay;
seemed like a vast combat in which millions of invisible duels were
constantly taking place. Their outcomes would decide who should
lead and who should follow.
Wherever they meet, for a few moments or years; in the
desert or in a business, two men inevitably form a pyramid. Placing
themselves on different rungs of an invisible ladder, they respect
an inner, mathematical order, a planetary hierarchy made up of
brightness, orbits, mass and distances from their sun.
I continued to take notes and line after line, my resistance
gone, I changed my attitude. From the discourse that followed,
life emerged as a path traced along a system of roles of increasing
complexity, until it reached the summit, the place where every role
has been surpassed.
Mankind, as it is, doesnt seek healing and doesnt want it.
Its forced to proceed mechanically, under the pressure of unknown
forces Suffering and pain are the driving forces of its evolution.
And even if it seems that most men have exchanged their own
progress for the apparent security of a career, or for the mirage of
financial wealth or artistic success; even the most ordinary man
cant escape an involuntary, mechanical, imperceptible healing
process.
The work in organisations, the drudgery of roles, the
antagonisms, suffering and problems, which life unfailingly presents
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him, together form a necessary discipline that betters him and
projects him towards the highest zones of freedom
Its a very slow system, concluded the Dreamer; and it
might take more than a lifetime to advance even a millimetre in the
verticality of being
On the other hand, the game as the Dreamer would
subsequently describe is the quickest way to scale the pyramid
of human roles and transcend them at lightning speed. At the end
He summarised the most important information for my benefit and
concluded:
Youre still trapped in what you believe you are. What
youll see in the meetings isnt what you truly are, but what you are
not: the man whom youve believed yourself to be.
I would say that the study of yourself, self-observation, is
light. When the light comes, the shadows disappear and all that is
true and real in you remains, and all that you are not or that youve
believed yourself to be, vanishes
Our meeting was coming to an end. I felt my heart tighten as
it used to when Padre Nuzzo called me to the blackboard, and,
having left my bench, along with the anonymous irresponsibility and
the warm complicity of the group, I could count on no one but myself.
My new adventure was about to begin. I wanted to know more
about the people I would meet, the arguments I would counter, but
In the game theres nothing to plan. Youll have to
invent instantly; and purposefully act out the roles and language of
existences youve never lived. The moment will tell you the strategy,
the words to use and all that you have to know in order to satisfy
the encounter.
He then told me about special men and women who, in their
own environment are true masters. Like highly specialised, perfect
machines, they have reached an absolute flawlessness within their
world-role I had written pages and pages of notes without once
lifting my head from the book, and re-reading them made me find all
the strength and determination which I now felt beside Him.
It started to become clear that behind every encounter and
beyond the apparent superficiality of a relationship, something special
existed: encountering a multitude of different human types marked
the path towards a healing which the Dreamer called integrity.
The others reveal you, measure you and perfectly reflect
your level of responsibility.
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Apparently, men meet each other so as to make decisions and
conclude business arrangements; but they are unaware of what truly
happens in their relationships. Meeting oneself is a pretext. The true
relationship takes place at another level. Beyond the surface, when
two men meet, the stakes are much higher.
Every man you meet is a door. He can bar access or
become a step from which to climb beyond. Every encounter
measures you and determines your position on the ladder of human
responsibility the Dreamer informed me with the tone of someone
advising extreme caution on the eve of a risky undertaking; and He
added:
Remember! The others are you! In the game you will
meet no one but yourself Within a few seconds, youll have to learn
which part of yourself is before you, and understand immediately
what the aim of that encounter is, which mask to put on, and which
role that the other, whether it be a man or woman, wants you to
interpret.
The difference between the two of you in the game is that
you know how to act, while the other acts without knowing. Theres
an infinite distance, a difference of eternities between the two, a
difference which will allow you to climb vertically at vertiginous
speed, the pyramid of human roles, conquering positions which in
the horizontal world would take years and entire generations to
reach.
Here the Dreamer spoke to me about the short cut, a
vertical path which compresses time and carries us quickly to the
most real thing in us: the dream.

10 Compressing time

The Dreamer taught me to perceive a world where a
challenge constantly rules and where there is no space for hesitation.
Two men meet each other, without any identifying symbols or
devices, naked in the desert. Inevitably, one decides the direction and
the other follows. Like two animals in a wild region, and by means
of a zoological language, they ascertain each others race, strength,
territory and rank. A reaction, a habit, a pose, the expression of an
emotion, a look, a word or the slightest grimace, reveals the position
that each one occupies on the evolutionary ladder. That level of
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comprehension is recorded in the universe and decides the events
in our life: what we know, do, have and finally what our financial
destiny holds.
His tone became imperceptibly more familiar and He said:
When two men meet each other, inevitably, one contains
and the other is contained
What does containing a person mean? I asked.
It means being responsible for his entire world, his roles,
his life and all the lives that depend on him. It means knowing the
solution to every difficulty and the answer to every request.
If you dont succeed, youll have to go down the ordinary
routes: those of time and experience. It will take years and years
before that lost opportunity presents itself again in order for you to
enter higher zones of the being, towards understanding and integrity.
In any case, youll have to repeat that examination, if youre
lucky enough to have another opportunity.
I felt my vision physically expand and I prepared myself to
listen even more intently as the Dreamer got ready to communicate
another piece of that teaching which was to change my life.
Its a difficult and dangerous game He admonished a
look, a word, the slightest movement or thought can betray you and
make you fall into a mortal trap! A man without the School is
helpless. He goes through the game of encounters but he doesnt
know the rules; he doesnt have the slightest awareness of his true
place in the game, or that he is in one at all. Those who see the
game lead it, those who dont see become a victim of it.
How will I know if Ive passed the test, what will be the
result of such an encounter? I asked in a loud voice, as if I could
already see Him disappearing over the horizon.
Things in a mans life come together in the most unique way
and reflect his level of understanding and f lawlessness.
If you contain the other, you wont make any mistake, but
will feel immense joy at having brought light and healing, to another
corner of your being.
When this happens in a man, the whole universe knows.
How do they know about an encounter if its taken place in
private and without witnesses? I asked.
Men and things all share a single connective tissue. A
sensitive planetary system joins all of humanitys cells. Alone, in the
corner of a room, a man can communicate his condition, his own
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level of responsibility and his intention, to the whole universe.
Theres no way to cheat, nor is there any room for
interpretation.

11 The others reveal you

The Dreamer had promised me that we would see each other
the following week at the Spaniards Inn, the old pub in Hampstead.
In the meantime, I spent the days and hours contemplating what
He had said about the game. The thought that assailed me most
was that of finding myself committed, for who knows how long, to
carrying forward what still appeared to me to be the most eccentric
of tasks: meeting hundreds of people so as to discover that they
did not exist.
I didnt say the others dont exist the Dreamer corrected
me during our meeting, with a grimace of commiseration that cut
like a knife I said the others dont exist outside you! When this is
clear to you, youll know what the others are for
Thinking by analogy, I knew for certain that the Dreamer
was offering me a unique opportunity, and that the game of
encounters would reveal itself as an irreplaceable evolutionary
instrument. And yet I was besieged by a crowd of doubts and worries
from which I was unable to free myself.
Apart from the complexity and effort of organising so many
meetings, a question that assailed me more than any other was: how
would I bear the cost, if the Game of encounters occupied all my
time, if it required me to travel and stay for lengthy periods in Great
Britain and other parts of the world?
In addition, there was another aspect that I found particularly
worrisome: the idea that those meetings were in fact real duels.
Once, He said to me: There isnt one moment when your life isnt
at risk. The memory of these words reinforced this belief, and my
anxiety about competing grew, along with reluctance at the thought
of encountering those unknown personages, without knowing why. I
glimpsed a ruthlessness in the game that, as if seen through
filigree, clouded its image and painted it in dark colours. And finally,
it seemed to me that its ends were these: either you send forth a
message of strength, courage, and dignity so as to be promoted to
the next level or your adversary will condemn you to fetters and the
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dregs of existence, and youll leave the spoils of a defeated warrior
behind on the battlefield of life.
At first, I did not dare say anything to the Dreamer about
this. I still didnt know whether this sensation came from my dread
of being unequal to the task, or from a humanitarian apprehension,
as I didnt know who was going to be defeated in the encounter.
These were the thoughts that accompanied me as I walked to
the old inn. The atmosphere I found inside could not have changed
much since the days when artists and poets like Shelley, Keats and
Byron had patronised it. I was early, and the Dreamer had not yet
arrived. Looking around, I tried to discover which place He would
strategically choose and I decided on a table in the quietest corner.
On the wall, a trophy of a harquebus evoked a legendary brigands
exploits. I was still brooding over my fantasies of competition and
defeat, and the Dreamers arrival caught me off guard, but before I
could do a thing, I felt myself caged in embarrassment similar to the
confusion experienced by those caught unprepared or unaware by
their superior. The sight of the Dreamer caused me to remember the
correct attitude and I quickly tried to adopt a more dignified air and
gather myself before He came too near, but while He was still at the
door, He beckoned me to follow Him. I left the table I had chosen
for us and went out with Him by the ground floor. I felt annoyed by
the crowded room, the noisiness of the clients, the stench of beer and
the rancid air. For the private conversation I had in mind, the table
on the first floor would have been more appropriate; but the Dreamer
went directly to one right in the middle of the room, where the buzz
of conversation was most intense, and invited me to take a seat.
He did not let the condition in which He had found me
go unnoticed; He remarked on it in passing, admonishing me in a
facetious, almost mocking tone.
I thought I might take advantage of His good spirit, but
cautiously. I had learned at my own expense and all too frequently
how suddenly the Dreamers attitude could change, and how terrible
His anger could be. A word, an accent or the slightest movement,
untimely or inappropriate, was enough for Him to explode. I would
have wanted to ask Him the question that summed up my state of
mind and occupied my thoughts about the game: what happens to
the players who lose?
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My physical proximity to the Dreamer made everything
clear. I realised that what I truly wanted to ask Him was what would
happen if I came out defeated after the first encounter.
Dont get the wrong idea He said, anticipating me Ive
already told you In the game there are neither winners nor losers.
Those words were clear and distinct, as if the shouting had
suddenly been suspended, and wed been left alone in the pub. His
voice did not cross the crowd; it did not need to rise above the
clamour, but came to me from inside. By making His way back
through those thoughts, He came to their root, to the old beliefs
and prejudices from which they had sprung, and added:
Your vision is still the fruit of an inner separation, a
description of the world that rules only through oppositions and
antagonisms In actuality, the duel only takes place within
yourself. Ones relationship with the other is only the most
superficial and visible aspect of what really takes place in an
encounter. And even if you fear that the other will take all that
youve accumulated from years of preparation, it is really in you,
and only you, that destinies are decided.
He continued, taking up a principal argument. Containing a
man did not simply mean including him in ones own responsibility,
but electing him.
An encounter with a man of higher responsibility always
leads to a compression of time a quantum leap towards the unity of
being He asserted even if we are unaware of it.
Meeting a man who contains you is a blessing. He who
takes a step beyond doesnt abandon the other to his destiny. On
the contrary, he becomes responsible for him. He knows that his
own evolution also leads to the others evolution. The advancement
of a man, the healing of just one cell, quickens the progress of all
mankind
Think of how much study and how many opportunities the
others can offer in order for you to realise that theres no limit to
success; because the true victory is winning oneself, through the
harmonisation of opposites inside us, at this very moment.
Without this understanding or inner awareness, men meet
each other in a somnambulistic state, meaning theyre troubled by
worries, clouded by doubts and fears and lost in daily discord. They
meet so as to pursue objectives and insignificant, external, vain
advantages.
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Light-heartedly, He stressed that no matter how much they
devote themselves to doing, to discussing business or making
apparently important decisions, from an evolved mans point of
view, they appear to be little more than uncivilized individuals busy
negotiating and haggling over glass beads, bric-a-brac and trash.
Theyve lost the true objective, He announced, again using
a harsh and serious tone. Theyre not aware of the game theyve
forgotten theyre no longer acting; theyve become the very role
itself!
With a glance, He made sure I was open to understanding,
then He concluded with this comment:
On the road to flawlessness, in a responsible mans world,
theres only space to conquer oneself: ones mediocrity, ones lie and
ones identification with the world.

12 Intentional role-playing: The Art of Acting

Theres a right mask for every occasion He said The
principal skill you have to develop in the game of encounters is the
Art of Disguise.
I could tell from His tone and expression that He was about to
undertake a crucial part of His teaching. From the ancient manuscript
The School for Gods, and my research on the life and thoughts of
Lupelius, I had learned of his legendary skill in disguising himself.
In his School the art of disguise was an integral part of a warriors
preparation. According to Lupelius, roles were psychological clothes
he wore and made his disciples wear, teaching them how to become
that role, how to explore it and know every corner of it and secret; but
without forgetting the game or ever becoming ensnared by it. The
Dreamers gruff approach quickly communicated the importance of
this element in my preparation for the game.
The Art of Acting is a warriors ability to live
strategically, He stated. This is the skill that allows him to be on
cue, to assume the most correct attitude for each circumstance.
I recognised Lupelius teaching in the Dreamers words.
Their voices blended together and their images were superimposed
on top of one another in my mind, becoming one. Learn to live
strategically and act purposefully, and youll always know which
image to present in each situation. Only those who act can evoke
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the thousands of peculiarities which make each encounter unique,
different from all those which have gone before, and those yet to
come, in the entire history of the world
He paused, then His voice echoed, even more imperious and
intense.
Learn to act He said Only those who act can rule their
own life and those of others, winning and being free!
I felt an instinctive repugnance for those rules. All that I had
been taught forced me to see things from a completely different point
of view. A man was free if He could be himself; if he did not
have to act and pretend to be someone else, and I said this to Him.
At the end of my reasoning, I still harboured the belief that
meeting others through playing a role or wearing a mask, was a
false, insincere way of managing a relationship. Most people would
have found my objections proper. Ordinary people would have seen
them as appropriate for someone who has both good manners and
unbreakable ethical principles; who knows how to defend them
courageously, even to a superior. In the Dreamers world, however,
my words set off every alarm system, as if a thief had entered.
Quiet! the Dreamer berated me, with a sudden burst of
anger. He didnt let me finish.
Being oneself being oneself He repeated, mocking my
presumptuousness Someone like you who has lived in falsehood,
imprisoned in roles throughout his whole life, wouldnt even know
where to begin to be oneself!
I could hear repugnance and an open contempt in His voice.
The Dreamer was not responding to my words but mirroring my
arrogance, my division. Behind those arguments, and much more
deeply than I could see, my resistance was changing.
My remorse had to be absolute and immediate, if the Dreamer
was to continue, resuming His usual tone as though nothing had ever
happened. Once again, I noticed His ability to enter and emerge from a
state of being, changing tone, language, gestures, facial expressions
and reactions He could do it all without leaving residue, without
leaving a trail.
Living strategically isnt opportunism and it doesnt mean
lying; its the warriors ability to adopt the appearance and
perform the actions that the situation requires, and which the world
is ready to receive.
Only those who live strategically can survive Acting I
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s freedom.
Acting a role perfectly means having overcome that role in
life; it means understanding, and having access to higher zones of
responsibility. The theatre, in the beginning, was a school of being, a
school of freedom, where disciple-actors learned to act and go
beyond roles, acquiring the ability to move from one character to
another without becoming trapped in them. Therefore acting means
learning to free ones being from destructive thoughts and negative
emotions. And the theatres cathartic, purifying action which
predominantly affected the actors extended to the chorus, the
public, the city and the entire nation, binding and unifying it,
creating the conditions for its freedom and prosperity. This purpose
has assured the theatre the central role it has always had in every
culture, that still fascinates man and gives meaning to its magic.
The Classical Age in Greece discovered the centrality of the
being; it knew that the secret of economic prosperity, civil harmony,
maturity and the longevity of its institutions was to be found in the
elevation of every mans being and the enrichment of every cell in the
city. This vision conceived and produced a civilisation of the being,
an emotional, timeless civilisation. Art, beauty, music, sport and the
search for truth, were all pillars of the city and the great governors
of its life.
With the authority of a direct testimony, a mysterious being
without geography or time, the Dreamer told me that the most ancient
civilizations, far older than Greece and Rome, in founding a city
even before laying out its walls first chose the place on which to
construct two public buildings: the theatre, to cleanse the emotions,
and the baths, to cleanse the body. They were the two vital glands of
purification, the kidneys of that society. As in a living being, these two
organs were entrusted with the essential task of filtering and purifying
the citys vital lymph, with purifying and enriching every cell.
The theatre isnt a physical place, but a state of being, a
psychological space where the greatest of mans faculties come into
harmony where the word, which is a union of thought and breath,
comes together with the gesture.
I was travelling in a time machine in search of vanished
worlds and buried civilizations, and in His presence I could still feel
their pulse, their breath.

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13 The Game of Encounters

So, with the Dreamer, I entered upon one of the most
arduous periods of my apprenticeship. Like a warrior father, He
bestowed upon me an armour and shield, and the weapons I would
carry, entrusting them to me with this advice:
Be aware, attentive to every moment and each of your
falls. Observe yourself! Fill every part of yourself with the memory
of your promise. Who does not remember the Dream, the real,
mysterious and invisible strength which rules the world, is a
fragment lost in the universe.
The Game kept me intensely busy for over two years and
throughout this time I did nothing but meet the men and women
whom the Dreamer had specified, or placed in my path, according
to strategic choices that only He knew. Today I recognise that each
encounter was the fruit of a precise choice, a piece of a lucid, conscious
and provident design. With each encounter following an admirable
pedagogical progression. Those encounters, besides helping me to
discover and heal the most hidden wounds of my being, created the
indispensable presuppositions in the world of events on which the
new school would be founded and developed.
Seven Oaks was the focal point of memorable meetings, a
cenacle that brought together the worlds intellect: men and women
at the peak of culture, business, politics and art. Seven Oaks was a
paean that summoned together all those who would be so essential in
realising the great undertaking. The beauty and style of that house,
which for months had appeared to consist of expensive extras and
unnecessary details, became the tenets of the whole strategy; the
unique setting that enclosed and imprinted irreplaceable characters
on its entire history. Seven Oaks set the tone for those components
of entrepreneurial vigour, style of life, responsibility and leadership
which would accompany as constant components the birth and
development of any new campus of the university and trace the lines
of its teachings.
Seven Oaks was a house, an ally, headquarters, coffer, and
invaluable custodian of my familiar joys. My children matured there,
as did my affection for Heleonore.

The Game of Encounters occupied a fundamental part in
the general management of my apprenticeship, and moments of
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discomfort were not unusual in those two years, when His discipline
and austerity became too severe for my level of tolerance. The
Dreamer was a master of blame. He employed blame and accusation
to eradicate the song of sorrow that had always afflicted me and
killed me inside from the labyrinth of my being. Nothing escaped
Him, and the smallest inobservance or deviation from the Project,
made His terrible anger erupt. Then He knew how to enter the very
folds, the most hidden sores of my being and heal them with a red-
hot iron. I wish that every man who wants to leave the rut of his
own destiny could meet the Dreamer and have such an attentive and
ruthless guardian. Every step at His side bore the breath of eternity.
Now, as I write about Him, I recognise that His every movement was
exclusively, remarkably designed for me; and, through me, dedicated
to the evolution of every man who has realised his own state of
slavery. Beside Him, the whole of existence has been revealed as a
School of Being, a School for Gods; open to those who want to
change and make a true masterpiece of their lives.
Moreover during those first months, the Game of
encounters appeared to be an extravagance which thoroughly tested
my determination. Before the Dreamers revelations, I would never
have imagined that one could meet the others without a practical
goal.
Once, you asked me how I would choose the people you
would meet He said. He was returning to a question of mine, one to
which He had never considered giving an answer.
Their principal characteristic is that they have to be
impeccable and ruthless. One day, youll know that no meeting can
take place outside you. The men and women you meet will prove to
be fragments of yourself, like the pieces of a mosaic, and you must
join them, Each of them represents one of your possible lives In the
ocean of mankind, each of them is a drop that reflects an aspect of
your psychology Remember: the others are only mirrors. There is
no one to blame, or condemn. A man only meets himself - always!
Following His advice and using Seven Oaks as a base, I
travelled constantly. On numerous occasions I had to leave England,
and very often the old continent; and found myself in the most varied
situations, approaching diverse people of every social position, age,
intelligence, family origin and business capacity, with the sole,
absurd, wonderful aim of observing, reading and knowing myself.
Thus, I passed in review, a vast range of human beings:
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artists, directors, industrialists, consultants, healers of mankind and
Fathers of the Church; politicians, entrepreneurs, philosophers and
professors, doctors, great lawyers and bankers, Nobel Prize winners
and vagabonds; men at the peak of their success and men who had
fallen into disgrace; financial gurus and impoverished entrepreneurs;
in their houses or offices, in the street or on their yachts, in luxury
hotels or modest guesthouses, at work or on holiday. Hundreds of
meetings, each one requiring a certain attitude, language, behaviour,
dress or punctuality. Each one challenged the limits of my vision
and rigidity of my mental schemes; each one laid bare a hidden
sickness, discovered a soft point in my being, trained an inner quality
or cauterised a small sore in my soul, allowing me to observe myself
in the most diverse circumstances, before all possible mirrors.
I remember the attention the Dreamer gave to each small
detail, especially on the eve of a particularly important meeting. His
directions were no different from those of a director on set before
shooting, or a coach before a decisive match. Everything passed
through the sieve of His attention: my dress, the arguments I would
broach, even the diction of certain key words I would use.
Take care of yourself; be completely aware! Look after
every corner of your life meticulously, the Dreamer told me. Look
within! be aware of all that enters and leaves your being Our
being creates Our Life The being creates the world A truly
attentive man knows that through the smallest gesture he is fixing
the universe.

14 The new paradigm

Once, after a long and patient work, I finally made my way to
meet with the founder of a multinational, a leader in the field of
fashion and the luxury-goods industry. The pretext for our meeting
was the acquisition of a piece of property from his estate. The
negotiation, which I had started in London weeks before, had reached
its final stages, and it was necessary for us to meet. The name of that
French entrepreneur was in the long list of figures masters of
business in their own field - whom the Dreamer had asked me to
contact. It was during a period in which I was valiantly challenging
my bad relationship with money. According to the Dreamer, it was
essential for me to learn to negotiate from the hardest businessmen
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without fear or subjection. On the eve of my departure for that
meeting - which was to take place in Paris in the sancta sanctorum
of one the most famous labels in the world - I was exasperated by
my awareness of having no precise idea of what I would say. I felt
my anxiety increasing, and with it a kind of resentment towards the
Dreamer, who was guilty of putting me in such stressful situations.
I asked Him if I could meet Him, secretly hoping that He
would excuse me from this trip and let me cancel that meeting, which
was already arranged at Rue de la Paix. We had only been together
a few minutes before my mood erupted in an aggressive question
which I was unable to control.
But what is the point of negotiating over a building or
a company? I burst out, trying to hide my discomfort behind
irreproachable good sense what purpose is there in talking about
the details of acquiring a luxury car or a private plane, if you havent
got the money to buy them?
If you know how to act flawlessly the Dreamer
answered, with unusual courtesy, ignoring the aggression I had just
exhibited if you appear credible as hes questioning you, then it
means the money is already in your pocket.
I did not understand. For me acting serious was something
completely different. I was certain that if I really had the money to
buy that property in Paris, I would not be worried and would know
what to say and do.
Youre quite wrong retorted the Dreamer sharply your
first education accustomed you to believing that if you had the
money and sufficient means, you could do all that you wished and
so feel secure; that you would be rich, happy, respected. Having-
Doing-Being is the dominant paradigm, the epitome of a degraded
mankinds mythology, and the cause of all its ills and misfortunes.
Having pronounced these words, He lifted His head and
looked at me intently. Then, without turning away, He extended
the index and middle fingers of His right hand and closed them
together, tapping His right ear, slowly and repeatedly. The Dreamer
was advising me on account of my difficulty to understand; He
was demanding my complete and undivided attention. That strange
mimicry disturbed me and beneath the gloss of normality of that
movement, I felt the command and authority of a tragic gesture, a
hint of theatrical magic, which so increased my heart rate that I had
to take deep breaths to avoid falling into a state of agitation.
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This mindset is common to millions of human beings He
said you have to overturn it! The paradigm of a new mankind is:
Being-Doing-Having. The more you are, the more you do, the
more you have. Having and Being are the same thing but on different
planes of existence.
The discovery that being is already having, and that the
being leads the having and is its veritable cause, had the effect of an
explosion that flung my lifes ideas and beliefs into the air forever. This
was one of those shocks to my thinking that was powerful enough to
alter my destiny. The Dreamers discussion became charged, probing. I
took out my book and there, in the street, I started to make notes.
While my hand flowed quickly over the pages, capturing each of His
words, I memorised and repeated the phrases in my mind which I did
not have time to write down. I was afraid of losing even a single atom
of that precious material as it would have been irretrievable.
Returning to the initial discourse, He said that the meeting I
was about to have in Paris would be the same as visiting an elegant
clothes boutique or a famous jewelers. The important thing was not
to buy the clothes we tried on, or the precious jewels they showed us,
but to be recognised by the being, by the invisible essence of that
boutique He explained to me that the important thing was that that
world that band of existence said yes to us.
Its true, you wont come out with that expensive watch on
your wrist, and that garment wont end up in your wardrobe, but
youll have trained your capacity for possessing them Style is
conscience Train your being Every effort you make to enter
richer zones of existence will help defeat your sense of lacking
funds. Become accustomed to wealth, raise your vision and dream
the impossible, create a prosperity consciousness that is the true
origin of all wealth and the conditions by which to maintain it.
Money is an inner matter the Dreamer said on that
occasion It is made inside. Dream, constantly visualise harmony
and success, and youll obtain it. Money will only be a natural
Then it will come without effort Then you wont have any fear of
losing it Money has to come by itself, naturally, from your inner
prosperity then youll feel it grow and crackle in your pocket, like
popcorn
This time, since I had to meet a master of style who was also
a businessman, the Dreamer stressed that my clothes should fit the
occasion.
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Taste is consciousness He said to me, as we walked
together along Via dei Condotti and I listened to His instructions for
that meeting, which the Dreamer considered to be of extraordinary
importance. I had to choose a suit, and, while we walked past the
most prestigious designer showrooms in the world, the Dreamer
made me observe the beauty, elegance, style and attention to every
detail, which had made those boutiques, establishments, and their
founders the planetary epitome of the art of living.
One only appears to enter these shops with the aim of
buying an object or an item of clothing said the Dreamer thats
only an alibi. What you are really buying is consciousness.
We went into the most elegant boutiques and with Him I
visited jewelers, exclusive shops, and the most important property
agencies. They showed us houses, collections of clothes, the most
expensive objects; and each time the Dreamer made me note that
the activities, which had made them become the best in the world,
all had a common denominator: attention. Attention to the smallest
particular, from the furnishings to the quality of the people who
worked there: their cheerfulness, shining appearance, and love they
showed for their work.
What you see concentrated on this street is the
materialisation of a level of consciousness He said, and ended with
an admonition whenever you buy something, even the smallest
thing, you must accept nothing less than this level of care, attention,
and love. Whatever you buy determines yourself. In other words:
youre buying yourself.
I assured Him that I asked for nothing more, and noted that it
would be a pleasure for anyone to be served in those shops,
surrounded by that beauty, by that richness. It was then that I
received one of His most memorable lessons.
Like attracts like enunciated the Dreamer a man always
meets himself and chooses himself. Everything corresponds perfectly
to his level of awareness.
And money? I asked isnt it this that makes the difference
between what one can and cant have?
Awareness is money! asserted the Dreamer It is being
that decides having. A man can only have the money that he is capable
of dreaming, visualising and imagining When youve worked on
your being, when youve simplified, enriched, and sublimated every
corner of it, prosperity and beauty, will correspond to you. This is
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called prosperity consciousness. Money, in order for you to have
all this, will come by itself, as if by chance, as a simple consequence
of your elevation.
Objects have a soul continued the Dreamer We appear to
choose them, but in fact, they objects themselves choose their
possessors. Things know with whom they should go and whom they
should abandon You can only possess what youre responsible
for.
Dont be distracted by scarcity. Give all your attention to
the Dream, to the inalienable goods, which are every mans
birthright: integrity, beauty, happiness, understanding, love and
truth. Design beauty, elegance and taste inside yourself.
In the meantime, our shopping trip continued and I began to
relax. The meeting in Paris no longer worried me and I was a
child at a huge fairground. I noted that wherever He entered, the
world yielded. An atmosphere of lightness spread everywhere. The
Dreamer enriched the air with generosity, power, and everyone felt
it. Beside Him the world celebrated and offered the best of itself.
Those who are masters of themselves rule the world. The
world recognises them and is happy to serve them. Each of these
retailers is in actual fact a guardian of the invisibl the Dreamer
revealed to me, coming closer to my ear while a group of assistants
went off in every direction in order to satisfy His requests.
When youve overcome your limits and inner obstacles
when youve eliminated doubt and fear, which still separate you from
it, the entire world will learn of your passage towards that zone of
existence. The world knows everything about you!
A river of people flowed past us. From a strip of sky, caught
between the cornices of the patrician buildings and the greenery
of the terraces, a ray of sunlight, narrow as a laser, chose us from
among all the others. The Dreamer raised His head to welcome it,
and I followed Him. With half-closed eyes, I stood there with Him,
for a few eternal moments, with folded wings, like butterflies pierced
by a golden needle.

15 The Replay

I soon discovered that the most interesting part in the Game
of encounters came later.
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Ill explain.
Once an encounter has taken place, one has to work for days
on the infinite amount of material that ensues from it. The Dreamer
carefully chose sequences of images, fragments of conversation; like
clips from the film of my life, He then showed me frames of film,
one by one, in the light of His pitiless sincerity. Thoughts, emotions,
attitudes and the smallest details from those occasions ended up
under His magnifying glass. A grimace on my face, an inflection in
my voice, a quickening of my heart, a soaring in my soul, a
movement of my body, a mechanical reaction, a recurring
expression, a hidden wretchedness in language, behaviour, emotions;
the way in which I presented myself, how I sat, a detail of my
dress Nothing escaped Him. And months, even years later, if His
impeccable pedagogy had deemed it necessary, He would have
been able to find the most remote fragment from a meeting and
project it. He then He enlarged it under a microscope to let me see the
danger, and at times the catastrophe hidden behind a mere trifle.
With Him, I discovered the mortal trap waiting behind calm,
apparently normal gestures or words; and I saw its cruel
mechanisms ready to snap and imprison me.
This extraordinary work was not carefree; as a matter of fact,
it was often unbearably painful, but it had the strength to force my
destiny off the tracks of repetitiveness and lack of attention, and
change it forever. I have to say that during the course of these
operations, my resistance and most deeply-rooted prejudices came
to the surface, together with the psychological rubbish
accumulated over the years. Every time I seized upon some shred
from my past, some ghost, I protected it, fearing it would disappear.
Something in me did not want to come out into the open; it hid itself
away. There was still much that I preferred not to see. And then,
every time, the Dreamer would become an implacable hunter,
capable of tracking down a shadow in my being for months, until He
drove it out and killed it forever.
Once I found myself at the Hotel Maurice in Rue de Rivoli. I
crossed the hall to meet a businessman who was waiting for me, and
for an instant, a young, attractive woman passed between us,
capturing my attention - just for a moment. That movement of my
head, my glance, which for a fraction of a second caressed the
womans body, was caught by the Dreamer who made me watch it
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hundreds of times, close up and from afar, from above and below,
until I became nauseous.
That man said the Dreamer, referring to me while placing
those images before me for the hundredth time cant make it. He
has failed, before he has even started with that movement, he has
already put his head on the block
The question isnt about whether it is right or wrong to
admire a beautiful woman continued the Dreamer, whose
observations never mingled with ethical judgements and moral
principles, nor could they ever be brought back to a time or a place
that movement of the head, that lingering glance, are indicators of a
lack of determination theyre symptoms of corruptibility That
gesture is the epitome of your entire life; it goes down to its origins
through layer upon layer of unawareness, emotional confusion
deposited over centuries.
The Dreamer cared not at all about wounding my sensitivity,
mortifying or producing states of frustration in me. He passed over
my ego as gently as a steam roller; but over time I came to bless His
mercilessness.
He was not only a mentor and invaluable guide, but also the
inflexible accuser of every mediocrity He represented totality.
Learn to not take your attention away from the target Be
aware, be flawless, dont deviate Those who fix on a point without
ever deviating, either with their glance or in their mind, can do
everything! They always have a target at which to aim Do not miss
the mark enunciated the Dreamer To deviate is the sole, true sin.
On that occasion, I was surprised by an unusual excitement in
Him. He was like a scientist who had finally achieved a favourable
result after long research and numerous experiments. He told me that
He had in His hands, a visible and observable, still wriggling, virus
of the soul one of those insidious intruders in the being that was
the true cause of each of our failures I could see face to face one
of my enemies, one of the saboteurs, one of the killers I bore inside. I
heard Him say in a whisper:
You may believe that this is an exaggeration, but in just one
movement a man reveals his life and his destiny. That man is
denouncing his unreliability!
It was as if He was speaking of someone else; of a cast-off
skin that I was leaving behind during the course of my transformation.
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Existence doesnt rely on men like that, men who will not only
never have more but who will also lose what they believe to have.
Here He suspended His words and I had the impression
that His vision was no longer external, but inside me. Through His
eyes, it was I who was looking at myself. I was the observer and
the observed; both scientist and guinea pig at the same time. My
thinking became confused. I do not know how, but I was sure - very
sure - that that woman, who had suddenly appeared between me
and the man I was about to meet, had not passed by chance but had
somehow been the fruit of His production. This thought, hovering
about me in virtual reality, in a kind of film directed by the Dreamer,
made my legs tremble with dismay.
What I called life was in actual fact a total learning
environment: a School whose vision encompassed three hundred and
sixty degrees.

16 Expecting from the world

For months, like a boxer training for a big match, I was sent
by the Dreamer in search of those who landed the most underhanded
punches; those who helped me to discover my weak points; those
who were my reflection in order for me to discover what had
ruled my entire life up until then. Commenting on every meeting,
examining every phrase, every detail, the Dreamer helped me to
focus my attention, to develop my self-observation, and to know
myself. Entering further into the rules of the game, I ceased to see
others as a reality separate from me, and I started to perceive them as
bright, irreplaceable rungs, on an invisible ladder, on a vertical way
to the unity of being.
Meeting after meeting, match after match, I ascertained
something incredible, something which the Dreamer had revealed
to me but was still too far from my ordinary vision for me to able to
accept.
Search, search for someone who knows He said and
youll discover that everyone knows nothing!
It disconcerted me to discover that respected men, acclaimed
leaders, gentlemen with serious countenances; intelligent men, with
titles and prestigious positions, had no idea where they themselves
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were going; they led others like the blind man immortalised by
Brueghel.
On occasion, I was deceived into believing they were happy,
aware or free, and I convinced myself that some of those ego-
stricken men, these prisoners of their roles, had enviable lives.
Forgetting reality, the world of appearances corrupted and bought
me; so I became fascinated by the power of those men and women,
by their wealth, by their abilities. Thus, the description of the world
got the upper hand and I remained trapped with my entire being.
Once I returned from a long journey, discouraged, without a
scrap of energy and weighed down by a sense of defeat. I remember
that particular meeting had made me touch my limits; it had shown
my corruptibility and lack of attention, also, how little was required
for me to feel humiliated, offended and disheartened.
The Dreamer explained to me that I felt like this because I
still encountered the others with an expectation; I still nourished in
some corner of my being the illusion that someone could help me,
elect me.
Very often, particularly at the beginning of that work, I
still felt like grasping hold of someone, still encountering others in
whom I sought the trust I felt lacking in myself. According to the
Dreamer, this was the clearest sign of my vulnerability and the
reason why He was still unable to trust me.
These arent defeats the Dreamer encouraged me at times
Theyre only signs of what and how much there is still to do The
Game is directed towards making you realise that there is no one
to hate, and no one to ask for help; that its not you who depends
on the world, but the world which asks you for clarity and direction.
Reality is a creature of the Dream.
I noted the Dreamers warnings about expectation and for
months I worked on it, observing and studying the moments in which
it came out, the forms it took, and the thousands of tricks it devised
to escape my observation.
Maintain your inner freedom He tirelessly suggested to me
Stop being reactive! Reacting to the world means becoming a
victim of it Those who expect from the world have already
lost. The biggest secret is knowing that the entire world is at your
service in order to improve you; realising that everything, event or
circumstance, is food, nourishment, propellant for your journey.
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It may appear that events and men are only there to obstruct
you and impede you from going beyond. Those who see know that
the world is a gymnasium of being where they practice and practice
again, where they experience and experience again, until their
performance of existence becomes flawless; where they train their
muscles of responsibility, until they become more integral, free.
Sooner or later every man will have to affront all that is
required to balance and complete him.
Go faster the Dreamer urged me insistently Look for
other encounters, create every opportunity to plug the leaks, to
eliminate the misunderstandings and settle accounts with the past.

17 This book is forever!

Write! the Dreamer ordered me roughly If you write,
your entire life will not have been useless
Listen! and write!He ordered me again, interrupting my
thoughts, sweeping away at once the emotional filth which had come
to the surface.
Write a book that will be for all time A book that can only
be read by those who are ready, those who are already on their way
towards a state of healing, those who have already questioned the
old description of the conflict-ridden mortal world.
Write a courageous book, in which you faithfully tell
everything you have experienced with Me. A book that makes the
world understand that the Dreamis the most real thing that exists. A
book that eliminates all the superficiality and falsehood, and
shakes the most deeply rooted beliefs of humanity at the foundations.
Write a book that brings light to the universal rules buried in
the being of every man.
Again, I took out my notebook and with barely enough
light to see, I frantically began to write the words with which He
concluded His visit to Seven Oaks.
This book will encounter opposition from the most
vehement antagonists in the establishment and the multitude. And
yet, at the same time, you must believe that it will also reach that part
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CHAPTER X

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1 The Vertical Vision

A completely transformed human species is about to appear
on the scene the Dreamer announced, the glow in His eyes
reflecting life in all its fullness. I felt an unusual excitement. I had
travelled a long way to reach Him, stopping first in Buenos Aires,
then in Bogota. From there, a tiny plane had taken me to a small city
nestled on a plateau 2300 metres high.
The Casa del Pensamiento, the solitary bamboo building
where our meeting was taking place, was surrounded as far as
the eye could see by tall peaks covered in lush greenery. No other
place could have sustained such incisive words with more absorbed
participation. The arcane presence of lost civilisations was listening
and the air still throbbed with their myths: the legend of Eldorado;
tales of guerrillas, cocaine, emeralds, the mysteries of the Lost City.
His voice pulled me away from my ethnographical fantasies.
The new man has shed his swaddling clothes and pierced
the mental cocoon that imprisoned the old humanity for millions of
years He said with the conviction of a scientist, who at last receives
proof of a theory he has pursued for decades, one in which he has
been the only believer.
The distinctive element, the evolutionary characteristic of the
emerging species was a new event on the planet, a true cosmic rarity:
the birth in man of a psychological apparatus free from fear and
conflictuality. This unprecedented characteristic, this watershed
condition, was producing a true speciation in Homo Sapiens.
Mankind was approaching a point where its evolutionary path would
diverge: two very distinct kinds of human were becoming clearly
defined and growing further apart. Men would continue to call
each other men for who knows how long, but from this discovery
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henceforth they would always belong to two co-habiting but separate
species, marked by different destinies.
The old mankind, trapped in a flat vision of reality, can
see only by means of a play of opposites it perceives and feels
through polarity, antagonisms and counter-oppositions, recited
the Dreamer, turning towards a point on the horizon. I had the
impression that, rather than talking to me, He was performing a ritual
of which only He was aware. I followed His glance; He seemed to
single out one valley from all the others, one where the summit of the
distant mountains loomed more abruptly. There, from civilisations
more ancient than those of the Mayans and the Aztecs, was born
the brilliant understanding which still made the Dreamers dark eyes
shine.
Vision and reality are one and the same thing He
enunciated, reiterating one of His most emblematic statements,
perhaps in itself the most concise version of His entire philosophy.
Horizontal man has a conflictual vision of the world, and
this is the cause of all his disasters. The history of his civilisation
is the clear reflection of a fragmented psychology a history of
wars and destruction Even his science, the activity of which
he is most proud, is only a product of friction between two
antagonistic concepts good and bad, true and false, beautiful and
ugly like a spark generated from the rubbing of two flints in the
hands of a primitive man.
The Dreamer continued to explain to me that ordinary
mankind still uses a visual archaic apparatus. Like frogs, which are
only able to perceive the world in a shadowy way, men of the old
species, who as a consequence, can only understand through contrast,
and the comparison of opposing elements. Their logic is conflictual:
their vision of the world is always the rudimentary outcome of a
game of opposites.
The distinctive characteristic of the new man is his
awareness of the illusory nature of opposite stated the Dreamer.
Those which the old mankind consider opposites are in fact
two faces of the same reality, like the two ends of a stick Good
and bad, true and false, beautiful and ugly, are not opposing
forms of existence, but steps or levels of the real Behind the
apparent antagonisms, there lies a harmonising force capable of
uniting them, and leading them to a higher order.
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The anthropogenic fact, the revolutionary characteristic
that the Dreamer was revealing to me, was the appearance in some
individuals of a new and subversive sense which He called the
vertical vision of the world. This was a dizzying idea. I tightly
gripped the bamboo balustrade, finely polished by the wind of the
Muiscas, and carved His incredible account into my heart.
To these first models, to these champions of a new mankind,
reality no longer appears unambiguous, illusorily defined by
polarity and oppositions, but made up of levels. Perceived with their
new sense, the universe is no longer sliced into opposites, but is
proven to be made up of layers of reality. Something is not true or
false; but is at the same time true and false, neither true nor false,
neither untrue nor unfalse
I accurately noted down His words, even though I needed a
long time for their full meaning to reach me. To help me understand,
He gave me one of the most classic antinomies as an example: the
opposition of good and evil. In contrast to the ordinary, horizontal
vision of the world, nothing that is objectively and permanently
either good or bad exists outside us.
The bad of today is the good of yesterday which has not
been transcended He declared. He continued to watch me as I
transcribed His words, as He would do when He wanted to be sure
they had been recorded correctly. He waited a little longer, before
adding:
What appears bad today in a mans life is the result of his
indulging in the good of yesterday. Yesterdays perfection is only a
stepping stone towards a new perfection.
But you have to admit I insisted, in hopes of maintaining a
shred of my convictions that at least one antithesis is certain
the opposition of life and death they are real opposites.
That is how horizontal man sees then conceded the
Dreamer. Then, lowering the tone of His voice and drawing closer, as
if to confide a secret to me, He said:
In reality, death doesnt exist Were made to live forever!
The clearest proof of mans omnipotence is in his power to make
possible the impossible: his death His body is indestructible. Only
the absence of will an involuntary will, an unconscious
omnipotence, can destroy it. Death is immortality seen from
behind!
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I listened and trembled. Suspended on the edge of an abyss, I
was a frightened creature about to take the plunge that is at the same
time his simultaneous death and rebirth. It was then that He
pronounced the words that would guide and occupy every moment of
my life from then on.
The cells of this new humanity, must be educated one by
one. The harmonisation has to take place in every man, He said
gravely. In economics as in politics, a new generation of leaders,
a decision-making aristocracy must be prepare men and women
who have mastered the Art of Dreaming, the Art of Believing and
Creating.

2 A School for pragmatic dreamers

We need forges of visionary men announced the Dreamer
decisively.
From the tightening I felt in my stomach, I knew that those
words were imposing a further acceleration upon our meeting.
The tone of that implacable command, to which there could be no
objection was directed not at me, but at an invisible army ready to
march on His orders.
We need new schools continued the Dreamer, transmitting
His ardour to me; that feverish state which accompanies great events
when their moment has come We need schools for preparing men
capable of bringing solutions schools for visionaries, solar men,
pragmatic dreamers
This expression pervaded me with the strength of an
evangelical paradox. In the future, in the years that would see the
construction of the university, I would use it in official documents
and at conferences in order to proclaim the mission. But even listening
to it on that first occasion, listening to it, I was sure of its mysterious
power pragmatic dreamers Here was the most concise and
powerful definition of the brilliant army that the Dreamer was asking
me to recruit: thousands of boys and girls, special students, in love
with their own boundless dreams. Pragmatic dreamers.
For a few long moments I lingered over those two words,
contrasting them mentally, savouring that sense of complicity peeping
from behind their apparent contrast. Then the slight prickling of their
paradoxical rationality ceased, and they became fused in a timeless
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unity.
They will be the leaders of a new exodus continued the
Dreamer a psychological exodus of planetary proportions
Thousands of men and women will abandon the slavery of their
conflictual logic in exchange for a vertical vision of the world
founded on the ability to harmonise inner antagonisms
I wrote down His words while resting my notebook on the
bamboo railing. The Casa del Pensamiento was an ark lost in an
vegetal ocean that extended to infinity, breaking far away, at the foot
of Andean stone giants.
Only visionary leaders He said men free from every
ideology or superstition, can ferry mankind from the psychological
shore of the ordinary, weak, irascible and bigoted man, to that of the
new, integral man, inspired by the principles of a lay spirituality.
Here, the Dreamer ceased His discourse, and I took
advantage of this pause to reorganise my notes. Bent over the
page, I felt a pressure grow on every centimetre of my body, like
the dangerous, green embrace of the waters of Castello Aragonese,
which I had experienced during my reckless dips as a child in Ischia.
Slowly, I raised my head. The Dreamer had come very close and
was now standing only a few centimetres away. I was imprisoned,
captured by His eyes, like an asteroid that has entered the orbit of
two black moons. We fell into deep silence The Dreamer was
drawing nearer and nearer Every thought was suspended and I
saw processions of gothic naves pass endlessly by, while centuries-
old organ music resounded. An uncontrollable emotion gripped my
throat as His words rang out; words that would have given meaning
to my life.
You will found a School of Being He announced a
university for those who have a dream to realise There, one will
learn that the dream is the most real thing that exists that that
which man calls reality is none other than a reflection his dream.
I felt as if the trapdoor of a gallows had suddenly opened
beneath my feet, and if I had needed a test for discovering the limits
of my being, the magnitude of that task in the Dreamers words
would be the one. It threatened to crush me before I had even begun
and I felt faint at the very thought of such an undertaking.
You will create a School of responsibility He continued a
school for philosophers of action, where one will learn that
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happiness is economy that wealth, leisure and beauty are every
mans birthright Youll create a School that has no end A School
for Gods It will have My pace, My breath..
Dont fear any attack. Any attack even the most ferocious, is
a precious gift for who wants to understand and change. An attack
from the outside world, can only arrive as part of the healing process
that you, yourself, have dreamed and put into act.
The Dreamer fell silent and waited. Like a good musician, He
was giving me space to express myself. In that solitary jam session
of ours, it was time for me to play a riff of my own. Time passed and
I prevaricated, in the unreasonable hope that I could avoid His
invitation. But the Dreamers silence became even more pressing. I
wanted to cry out my inadequacy before the magnitude of His
design; and distance myself from it, so I plucked up courage, but I
could only manage to stammer: It would seem to be a School of
Philosophy, I managed to say implying that it was outside of my
professional
So? He sneered as usual. His tone was amused and
benevolently ironic a School of Economics is a School of
Philosophy! You should know that!
In His words, smile and tone, there was a wink, a note of
innocent malice that inspired complicity. Something important was
there, just out of reach, at the confines of my memory, but I was
unable to seize it. In the meantime, the Dreamer drew imperceptibly
closer and His gaze fixed upon me, without blinking. Suddenly, as if
a membrane had been breached, the past was freed from memories.
The ribbon of time rewound and distant pictures were projected on
my minds eye.
Once more, I saw my years of study and work at the
University of Naples, at the side of my beloved master Giuseppe
Palomba, who had helped me discover that moral values and ideas
were the great motors of economics; and on the other hand, to
search, in their drying up, for the true cause of every shortage and
underdevelopment in vast regions across the planet. Years spent at the
Universit Cattolica in Milan and the London Business School also
crossed my mind, not in succession, but in an explosion of images,
faces, feelings and states of being. The desperate study of those
years united all the schools of the past into one The building of the
Faculty of Economics in Naples, a beautiful cube of travertine stone
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facing the sea at Santa Lucia, was shifted to the lawn of the LBS in
Regents Park
The desperate studies of those years united in one all the
schools of the past ..Professors classmates teachers the
Great Hall, the first-class honours degree. I saw Giuseppe and
Carmelas emotion on my Graduation day, the gold Tissot watch my
joy at the scholarship from the Giordani Foundation that opened the
door to Columbia University Then, as quickly as it had appeared,
that kaleidoscope of images vanished and the scene changed. I saw
myself in a break from lessons at the LBS; I was little more than a
boy, day-dreaming under a tree, watching the clouds make furrows
in the sky above the campus. A forgotten dream slowly started to
take shape That school without frontiers the University of which
the Dreamer was speaking to me its centres and offices in the
main cities of the world, from London to Rome and Milan, from
New York to Paris, Madrid, Shanghai, and the faces of thousands of
students that would study there I had already dreamed it
The Dreamers voice distracted me:
Can you remember that day dream now? Its time to make it
come true! Its time to create a School for dreamers, where the giants
of economics will love to teach.
Those words which I would read thousands of times in the
following years were infecting me, conquering me and making me
fall in love with them. They would sustain me and give me strength
during the many difficult moments I was to encounter in quest of
that enterprise.
Everything important and real in a man is invisible He
enunciated Its the same in economics. Theres a vertical shaft at
the axis of economics, to a plane of a superior orders, a world of
ideas and moral values on which economic facts depend.
He made me see how today, conditions of underdevelopment,
which ritually appear during economic stagnation, are associated
with an economy that is immersed in a system of archaic moral
values. They are the other side of a problem, which, in evolved
economies, manifests itself through pathological and social ills.
Its therefore in the invisible world of ideas; ideological and
moral values, philosophy and language, where we find the origin,
the motor of the facts which are visibly projected in the world of
economics and business.
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Beyond the powerhouses of industry and skyscrapers of
finance behind all that you see and touch, behind all that is
useful, beautiful, and true among mans conquests at the origin
of every institution and scientific achievement, there is always one
mans dream an individuals vision. Devote all of your efforts to the
individual and his preparation! Make it the focus of your attention.
The mass is a ghost a mechanism influenced by everything and
anything It doesnt have faith; it doesnt have its own will it cant
create And, in actual fact, the mass has never created anything. Its
function and the reason for its existence, is to destroy. The individual
and the crowd are two faces of the same reality; pistons of the same
motor. The individual creates; the mass destroys. Its you who must
choose to which group you belong. The individual is the only reality
he is the salt of the Earth.
According to the Dreamer, the only limitations are in ones
being. Poverty and war are the reflection of a scarcity of being and a
conflictual mind, and they will only be eliminated from the planet
when they have been eradicated from the individual.
Found a School for individuals, a School without
frontiers Bring together dreamers from around the world
regardless of nationality, colour, belief, wealth A School where
the most important subject is studying oneself and where the ability
to do and act are the most concrete results of loving oneself inside.
His words flowed quickly and I had difficulty keeping up as I
transcribed them. Rather than speaking, the Dreamer was dictating,
and when I noticed this, I felt wounded, humiliated He was
treating me like a copyist. A trace of resentment, the mumbling of a
dull, silent complaint, rose up from the depths of my being without
my being able to stifle it. I was making a huge effort to keep up
with Him, but He remained unconcerned. More than anything, His
seeming lack of respect, more than anything, was what exasperated
me most. It seemed as though He was doing it on purpose
Stop that and write!!! the Dreamer ordered in a terrible
voice, immediately interrupting that stream of thoughts and the
succession of states through which I was spinning. The Dreamers
cry came providentially to grab me at the top of the slope; I was
already slipping into the Stygian waters of recrimination, blame and
complaint.
Write!!! He repeated. His voice had become a whisper that
was even more terrifying than His shout This book is forever! One
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day youll know that your life has only had meaning because you met
Me, and that writing My words was the only reason you were born.
The Dreamers potent intervention set me free. In an instant I felt
limpid and carefree, like a summer sky swept by the northwest
wind. As always, the Dreamers drubbings were therapeutic;
possessing the power to eliminate the clutter and purge every form
of pollution from my innermost parts.
In the meantime, He took up His discourse again, in a normal tone
of voice.
Even the Schools and Universities of the first education
teach one to dream, He said, and fell silent for a moment. Then
in a bitterly ironic tone, He added: but the dream they project in
their students is scarcity they teach dependence, doubt, fear and
limitation, and behind the mask of their presumed erudition, lurks
pain and a constant song of defeat.
He was not talking to me anymore but addressing
generations of future students, students who were beyond time. His
powerful, revolutionary ideas were becoming the roots and lymph of
the School, shaping its mission and its destiny.
All knowledge, methods and theories coming from the
outside may be necessary as starting points, but must soon be
abandoned for a higher source of understanding.
It is time to disregard all teachings, ideologies, disciplines,
books and ideas, any written words, and dive deeply within yourself
to find your own truth and uniqueness; this alone will remove all
your obstacles and leave you free from any hypnotism and in full
mastery of all and everything.

3 The dream of the dream

His lecture continued, and I interrupted Him only to ask
for occasional clarification. Invaluable thoughts, the cornerstones
of an extraordinary construction, like the pieces of a mosaic, were
fitting together before my eyes, forming the vision of a planetary
magnitude.
He told me that schools of being have always existed, but
have been hidden, as the political climate and historic moment, have
almost never allowed their manifestation. Among other stories, I was
fascinated by the one of the construction of Notre-Dame in Paris;
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its true mission hidden behind a pretext for realising that wonder. I
hung on His every word as He spoke of the architects, artists and
sculptors, the workers and labourers, who were all students of that
extraordinary School, and I mused over that enterprise, which was
carried out by men on the way towards integrity; students, researchers
of their own indivisibility.
In that construction, every detail and stone speaks of
the School and reveals its laws outlined the Dreamer. I realised that
Notre-Dame, and the great masterpieces in history, were the
materialisation of eternity; yet they gave only small hints of the vast
true work done by immortal Schools.
Progressively, like successive clicks of a zoom lens, that
vision expanded and I realised that the task, which the Dreamer was
entrusting to me, was only the beginning of a far grander project. The
creation of a University which would subvert the planets traditional
education at its foundations, was only a fragment of an extraordinarily
larger design. So what was the Dreamers Dream? I could not even
imagine it What could it be? My imagination had reached its limit,
and was halted by the flaming sword of the Cherubim I dream, I
am If, as He had taught me, it is the dream that measures us; and
no one can nourish a bigger dream than oneself, then who was the
Dreamer? If inciting a revolution capable of inf laming the planet
from one end to the other, overthrowing its vision, and heralding the
advent of the vertical man, was only one step in His journey, who
then was this being and what was His Dream?
What is it? I asked, without clarifying my question.
The Dreamer let an endless period of time go by, and I was
still holding my breath when, close to my ear, He whispered:
The dream of the Dream is the conquest of death and
even before that, conquering what has always enabled it: the idea of
deaths invincibility
With those words, I felt a light trembling under my
skin: ecstasy. That dream broke down millennial boundaries, and
thrust ahead, beyond where man had ever dared to go, even in his
imagination, and to withstand this announcement, I had to summon
all of my strength, drawing upon my years of preparation at the
Dreamers School.

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Meanwhile, the Dreamer maintained His position; and
was so close to me that I could hear His breathing. Suddenly I saw
Him sniff the air around me. At first, He did it discreetly, then more
and more blatantly, until I was unable to hide the evidence: the
Dreamer was smelling my scent! An unrestrained embarrassment
pervaded me when I saw a wince of disgust etch His face, as if He
had discovered the source of a nauseating smell in me and I blushed,
burning with shame. But when His malicious smile replaced that
grimace I understood that He was pulling my leg. It was another
of His pedagogical devices. That pantomime about malodors of the
being was intended to brand the facility with which I still fell prey
to negative thoughts and emotions.
As He spoke of paradise, His masterly lesson was in sharp
contrast to my inclination to create and feed a portable hell. Who
knows how long man would remain a touchy, irascible, quarrelsome
being; how long would he cultivate and pass on that fragility and
vulnerability to other generations? These reflections distracted me.
The Dreamer had already gone further. I forced myself to abandon
that dead weight, and with giant strokes I
managed to traverse the liquid light that separated us.
Life is as you dream it. We always meet what we dream
of Its inevitable that we meet all that we dream He said
ardently Life is already a terrestrial paradise for those who build
and nourish a portable paradise in themselves.
He paused for a long time, before boldly confronting the
conclusive part of our meeting.
Mankind afflicted by poverty, criminality and endless
conflicts, can only be healed cell by cell Its an alchemical
transformation which has to be performed in every man through an
overturning of beliefs, and spread by the transfusion of will, light
Only individual education can do it.
He maintained that such an undertaking cannot be realised
by mass education, by what our civilisation proudly considers to be
one of the most important conquests of modernity.
A School for free men, devoted to discovering the
uniqueness of every individual, a School of responsibility, cant be
for the masses. Mass education is a contradiction in terms; if its for
the masses then it isnt education, if its education then it isnt for the
masses. Make the School accessible to those who have a true,
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sincere Dream to realise The true passport for admission is to
believe in it fiercely, with all ones strength.

5 The greatest economic truth

The golden sun worshipped by the Quimbaya and Muisca
people, was climbing the tops of the distant Cordilleras with their
round, green peaks like those in a childs drawing. The Dreamers
voice soared calm and solemn over that place sacred to ancient gods.
Create a School founded on principles that have no end He
commanded me with the solemnity of a viaticum Create a true and
living School, not based on books. At the core of its teaching will be
the Art of Dreaming.
He was about to take leave of me and I experienced a feeling
of loss. The enterprise still seemed enormous to me; beyond my
ability. I felt a cry rise into my throat, silent and desperate,
inconsolable. By entrusting me with such a task, He was revealing
the thing that I loved most, the Dreamer was showing me that after a
life of selfishness, I could truly achieve something special a school
for dreamers
The Dreamer revealed that the adventure of Ulysses, the
journey of Dante, the expedition of Jason and the undertakings
carried out by heroes and demigods through time, are the paths
made by a school for transformation. Ulysses ties himself to the
mast with the Schools ropes, thus keeping its principles firm; and
Dante abandons Hell by following Virgil and turning himself upside
down.
This, too, is a movement of the School He said We need to
prepare men who are resolved to conquer their own integrity and
free themselves from the pain, fear and anxiety that everyone bears
inside. This is mankinds only hope.
The Dreamer predicted that in the near future, all
organisations, from the biggest corporations to the smallest
businesses, would become Schools of Being, Schools of Integrity. In
them men will learn to transcend themselves, constantly eliminating
every division, shadow and degradation of the being. Throughout the
organs of those enterprises, the diapason that engendered them will
resonate again; a chord that still binds all their cells and makes them
vibrate in unison.
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I see thousands of students the Dreamer said prophetically,
showing me with a wide, slow gesture the green lawn all around the
Casa del Pensamiento, the endless field of sunflowers and the small
lake in the centre.
They will be giants of economics and global
communicators of the future. Their ability to create wealth will only
be the effect of an inner state of freedom.
But an undertaking like that will take a long time, I
protested, not knowing how else to give vent to my anxiety and the
pressure of the army of doubts that was already laying siege to my
good intentions. The Dreamer was inviting me to fly and, as always,
He was encountering my resistance.
Man is ready now! He announced, causing the motors of
the Dream to roar, instantly sweeping away my pathetic objections.
Intelligence and love are already in man He said. I would
never forget those words. Today I see them emerge in each of my
students, and I know that one can only teach the young how to
scratch the surface and make true knowledge emerge in the
strength of their uniqueness and true nature as winged beings, real
beings.
External teachings are only a pretext. The true work of a
School is the elimination of every compromise, limit, prejudice,
hypocrisy, fear and doubt that has accumulated since childhood,
and which are the fruit of the old education; an education that
appears intent only on suppressing the most real thing that exists:
the Dream. A true school does not presume to give anything to its
students it knows that it cannot add anything to what they already
possess within their being It only needs to bring it to light Its a
work of elimination of everything that hinders understanding. True
education is remembering ones own uniqueness, ones originality,
the Dream.
Economy is a way of thinking The Dreamer announced
Only those who are truly alive can create wealth. Material health is
only a metaphor for true wealth, the crucial test of a state of
integrity, understanding and inner prosperity.
Only a School founded on these principles can prepare
economists capable of eliminating poverty from vast regions of the
planet and removing layers of ignorance from the being, which have
already thrown entire nations, and once magnificent civilisations,
into scarcity and under development.
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He spoke to me of the fabulous natural wealth of Columbia, of
its inexhaustible silver mines, emerald deposits, immense forests and
boundless plateaus, its huge coffee and tobacco plantations.
And yet its one of the poorest countries in the world He
stated The level of being of this country has been reduced to such
a low point that it cant sustain what it has like what happens to a
man who finds he possesses a wealth that is larger than his level of
responsibility.
He made me see that the most economically developed
countries are often completely without natural resources but have a
store of ideas, culture, history and art.
Economy is a state of being He repeated and paused, so He
could stress the significance of that law A countrys economy and
the level of material well-being it has achieved, are a reflection of
that societys way of thinking and feeling. The system of values and
quality of thought, is the cause. The economy is the effect. The
quality creates the quantity, and never vice versa.
When the dream fails and the values dry up, wealth also
fails asserted the Dreamer, and then He stated the necessity of
educating responsible men, capable of connecting to the dream of
their country, of embodying it and feeding its roots. The life of an
entire civilisation depends on the existence of these men. The breadth
of their vision is reflected without limits through the economic
universe, expanding its borders. Without them no progress is possible.
The main obstacle against which the most ambitious projects shatter
is not the lack of financing or natural resources, but a shortage of
men capable of bearing that level of responsibility, containing that
brave idea and believing it with all their strength.
The School will carry in its very roots a truth that has never
been expressed in the world of economics: Visibilia ex Invisibilibus.
Economic wealth is only the reflection of an organisation or nations
invisibility. Prosperity comes from within. Its a process that, like all
healing, starts from the inside and moves out.

6 Having is Being

Having and Being are one reality, but on different planes of
existence He announced Having is being.
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According to the Dreamer, having is being that manifests
itself in time and space. This discovery opens the door to a
tremendous revolution in the ordinary perception of the world, and is
one of those shocks to the thinking which is capable of changing
the course of an entire civilisation. The Dreamer pointed out the
extraordinary fact that each epochal passage in humanitys history
has always been preceded by the overturning of ideologies; by a
revolution in thought which begins in an individual and then spreads
to the masses.
Relocating man from the centre of the universe to its
margins, Copernicus, with his notion of heliocentricity shook the
cornerstones of medieval thinking, and opened up to the modern age.
Protestantism radically changed the view of work, from a biblical
condemnation to an instrument of mans evolution, creating the
psychological conditions for the Industrial Revolution and Rational
Capitalism.
Today we find ourselves confronting a new revolution, a
psychological revolution founded on the idea that being and having
are two sides of the same reality, announced the Dreamer . All that
we see and touch, all that we perceive and all that we call reality,
is none other than the projection of a world invisible to our senses,
a world of ideas and values that runs vertically to the plane of our
existence: the world of the being.
Being is not opposed to having, but is superimposed on it: it
is the cause. This explains why the countries richest in natural
resources are often also the poorest, and how a mans enrichment is
not a satisfactory condition to deliver him from his destiny, if it does
not correspond to an elevation in his being. It is possible, in fact,
to detect the existence of a circuit regulator; a kind of mechanism
for homoeostasis, that inevitably takes having back to the level of
being. An unprepared man, even if he is temporarily favoured by
an event or external circumstances, is forced back again into the old
poverty if having exceeds his level of being. This is also true for
nations. After more than half a century of failed international aid
programmes in the Third World, even economists who specialize in
development should have understood by now that it is not possible to
help a country from the outside if it is not ready in its being. It cannot
be rescued from a condition of poverty if it has not already reached
an adequate level of wealth in its own invisibility, richness of ideas
(ethical, aesthetic, religious, philosophical, scientific), and system of
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values. For many of these countries, returning to their old wisdom
and essence of their origins would be enough, bringing nourishment
back to their oldest value system in order to improve the conditions
of their lives.
The recognition that having is being uproots one of
mans oldest prejudices, and revolutionizes its conceptual schemes.
However, it is not having which allows one to do and to be, but being
which allows one to do and then to have. Overcoming this form of
collective hypnosis means leaving behind a flat vision of the world
and entering a vertical thought: there exist layers of real and infinite
levels of the being. Having is being is the key to understanding
the most complex and vital arguments regarding the life of man and
organisational systems, of every order and complexity, and explains
the diversity of their destiny.
Mans history has always been about doing and possessing
more. The advance of civilisation - in societies hypnotised by the
desire to possess and guided by unappeasable predatory instincts,
the echo of an animal nostalgia - coincides with the development of
the ability to produce, communicate and travel and also to destroy
even more. Perpendicular to this history runs the invisible dimension
of ideas, the world of causes.
Every conquest in the visible and every increase in
mankinds ability to do and have has always been preceded by a
conquest in Being. In time, scientific knowledge and technological
progress follow not only mans knowledge of himself, but also the
level of awareness achieved. Science and Consciousness advance
together.
Whether it be an individual, organisation, nation or
entire civilisation, the ability to know, do and have depends on the
level of being reached by that civilisation, by that nation, by that
organisation, by that individual.
The Dreamer concluded these reflections with a simple and
powerful epigram.
The more you are, the more you know; the more you do, the
more you have. Doing and having depend on being, just as a shadow
depends on the dimension and form of the object that projects it.
The Dreamer made me see that by observing a man or an
organisation, everyone can perceive the dimension of what it has,
but the dimension of the being remains invisible: the depth, the
magnitude of ideas, the values, the dream.
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What prevents one from seeing the perfect equilibrium
that exists between being and having is the time factor which, like a
smokescreen, illusively separates them. If, amazingly, we manage to
compress time - the years of a mans life, or the centuries of a
civilisation - we will see the perfect correspondence between being
and having. They are the same reality on different planes of existence.
The being materialised is having and having sublimated is being.
The discovery of the identicalness of having and being
also profoundly marks economic thought. If having, and thus the
production of wealth, obeys the being, then the fundamental concepts
and states of the being, all of mans work on self-discovery and self-
observation will rightfully have to be included among the legitimate
subjects of scientific research, along with ethics, belief systems,
moral values and, above all, intuition and the dream.
The broader a mans vision, the richer his economy. This
holds true for an organisation, a country and an entire civilization.

7 University means towards oneness

The Dreamer told me that university means towards
oneness. In its etymology, I discovered some invaluable information
about the nature of those institutions, which had never emerged
before from any encounter, and which I had never found in any book.
Its mission is inherent in its name: to carry forward the
work of mans integrationto lead his journey towards the unity of
being.
In the Dreamers vision, the universities of the future will
have the task of continuing, through a secular approach, the work that
convents, synagogues, hermitages and mosques have undertaken for
millennia and have left unfinished, thereby becoming receptacles for
irresponsible individuals, men and women terrified of existence.
Many universities will disappear, and only a very few
will be entrusted with the vital task of preparing new leaders to be
visionaries or lay monks; they will be perfect, invulnerable warriors,
capable of winning the challenges that our civilisation faces with
new senses of intuition, will and dreaming. The project of educating
a man who is balanced by apparently paradoxical qualities is
thousands of years old, a man who can harmonise within himself
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cunning and innocence, reason and intuition, financial power and
love.
The University has to propose a system of essential ideas
capable of interpreting the world, revealing mans true condition
and pointing the way to his possible evolution.
The University has to prepare the cells of a new mankind,
individuals inspired by the dreams principles: visionary men
and women, pragmatic utopians, brilliant individuals capable of
nourishing the dream of global economics and political responsibility
for the planet.
A bookish knowledge, imposed from the outside, equal
for all, is a suffocation of the essence it is false and illusory
True knowledge is already in every individual. Knowing means
remembering it is a journey back in the vertical memory. For
the Dreamer the new education, the second education, is light years
beyond traditional instruction. Its task is not to add notions but to
remind the students of the uniqueness, originality and innocence
they already possess.
Dont rely on any institution the Dreamer solemnly
advised, as if He were asking me to swear an oath Dont take
money, dont ask for grants of any kind from any corporation, public
or welfare institution. The traditional university system is not only
obsolete, but extremely susceptible, delicate and fragile, because it
is dependent.
This is why youll have to cut a new path, taking on the soul of
a rebel, a revolutionary. True education is a subversive activity in the
eyes of the Establishment. This is why you wont be able to accept the
authority of tradition or adhere to any existing educational
concepts. The university youll found will be such a revolution in the
world of education that old beliefs and mentalities will disappear
forever, and with them, obsolete institutions and schools. Only
those who are ready for a complete change, who have prepared for
accepting this revolution, will survive.
Keep hold of your integrity! Dont let anyone or anything
damage it. Keep it intact. Success is a natural consequence of
integrity.
At this point, He illustrated to me that extraordinary idea for
which the term distributed University would be coined; the
organisational model that would play such an important part in the
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Schools success, and in the achievement of the diffusion of its ideas
in the worlds academic setting.
Future battles will not be won by employing huge ships, but
with a flotilla of nimble craft He said.
Not only did this concept allow one to pay attention to each
student, welcoming each one in small athenaeums, it also realised
the condition - ideal and paradoxical - of an institution that was both
large and small, worldwide and local. The new University would be
of planetary dimensions, organised in colleges and campuses in the
worlds capitals, made to welcome and prepare a small number of
students who believed in themselves and their dreams and knew
that it was only in a school of being that they would be able to
realise them.
The new School, inspired by the Dreamers principles,
pointed to the model of a future university, and heralded the advent
of an Athenaeum without boundaries and no longer Aristotelian,
rooted in a territory or bound to a city, language, nationality or fixed
timetable, but articulated in colleges across continents, closely united
by the same philosophy.
Just as the walls of Greek cities were erected within
the reach of an orators voice, contained in the range of that
communication, prompted the Dreamer, thus the athenaeums you
found will have to be made in dimensions that allow the aspirations,
the Dreamof those who are part of it to be known.

8 The birth of the School

Little more than a year has passed since I met the Dreamer
that day and received the investiture in the Casa del Pensamiento.
Since then I have devoted myself completely to the Project. The
University was born and its first athenaeum opened in the heart of
London, Belgravia. The first students were enrolled and happily
completed their first academic year. The School was creating itself,
and every day it grew in a wonderful way. In its evolution, it seemed
to escape and in fact ignore the ordinary ties and limits of time
and space. Its academic formula had the ingredients of the future.
In it the English academic rigor and internationalism, and solid
American pragmatism, were marvelously tempered by Italian style
and culture, and a millennial search for beauty and perfection of the
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classical civilisation. A rich programme of practical experiences,
or internships, undertaken by the students from the first year, was
enabling them to work, at a very young age, in the worlds largest
enterprises. Made powerful by the Schools philosophy, they would
prove themselves to be as impeccable and invulnerable as Lupelius
warrior-monks; the students that had gone through the School for
Gods ten centuries before. The features of the new University, cast
in the Dreamers philosophy, have given it the glowing body of a
spaceship in flight and the ancient heart of the most venerable schools
of Antiquity, that same heart which used to beat in the bosom of the
schools that forged the warriors and heroes of Classical Greece.
The Dreamer had put me in command of a starship that
was crossing an archaic, dusty academic world; a decrepit ruin,
allegorically cloaked in ermine, a world which was finding it more
and more difficult to hide the emptiness of its false knowledge and
anachronistic concepts. The Schools appearance on the could be
compared to the discovery of Plutarchs small book on education.
The Latin translation of this work, long thought to be lost, starkly
compared the Greek educational model, the projection of that
civilisations spirit, with the dogmatic obscurantism of the medieval
religious schools. Then, as is happening now, two worlds came into
contact, divided not just by centuries, but by light years in awareness.
The Dream University, as the School was soon called by the
media, was the only heir to the educational ideals of Classical
Greece. Its firm belief and architrave of its pedagogical philosophy
was that man can only evolve through a work of responsibility; a
constant tending towards the unity of being.
The students came from every part of the world, attracted by
the Schools thoughts unique message. The Dreamers words, echoed
in the brochures and the explanatory material, were notes played
on a magical flute. Young dreamers from around the world listened
to them and began to march.

Ive dreamed of a revolution.
Ive dreamed of a School which remembers
that the dream is the most concrete thing that exists.
Ive dreamed of a new generation of leaders
capable of harmonizing the age old apparent Antagonisms:
Ethics and Economics,
Action and Contemplation,
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Financial Power and Love.

Since those pioneering times of the new University, men,
events and circumstances have come prodigiously together, and the
way in which the necessary resources have arrived, has never ceased
to amaze me: in the fairest ways, extraordinarily punctual; with the
wonder of a gestation where everything, from the most complex
organs to the remotest neurons, obeys the same project of life.

9 The Mission of the School

That morning I awoke before dawn, my mind already aware of
the coming days intense commitments. Difficult situations were
awaiting me, including a plenary meeting with my teaching staff,
and above all the appointments with banks which promised to be
particularly trying. I felt an impulse to seek inspiration from the
Dreamers words.
I chose one of my notebooks at random, and immersed
myself for a long time in those pages densely filled with notes
Id gathered throughout the years of my apprenticeship. As I was
reading, I felt the unmistakable quiver along my skin that I always
felt in His presence. A hole opened in the pit of my stomach; I had
forgotten something vital. It had been too long since I nourished
myself on His principles; too long since I had basked in the light of
that intelligence that made sense of the worlds nonsense. And it had
been too long since I breathed the immense force of His vision, able
to overturn the world and reduce it to a grain of sand. There was
no place on Earth where I could watch the banners fluttering in the
wind, or hear the trumpets heralding to announce His solitary battle,
His titanic challenge against what He called the lie of death; against
the prejudice of its invincibility.
The Dreamer had illuminated my life, yet perhaps I may
never fully grasp the exceptional fortune of having met Him. Now I
marked a few phrases and brought them with me for my first faculty
meeting at the European School of Economics.
I knew personally all the men and women whom I found
waiting there for me: they were excellent professors, with the finest
academic backgrounds and a wealth of experience in prestigious
British and international universities. They had been selected one by
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one, and yet, once again, despite all my efforts, that plenary meeting
would confirm how difficult it was to bring them closer to the
Schools core philosophy. All of these faculty members had studied
at traditional universities, many of which were state-sponsored. The
idea to bring them to change their convictions in order to accept the
visionary pedagogy of this young university was like asking them to
abjure their lifelong religion, or to cross a biological threshold and
become beings of another species.
The founding dream of the ESE, its mission, is to create a
generation of young leaders, cells of a new humanity. This requires
more than good programmes and good teachers, thousands of
institutions already offer those things I said, opening this difficult
meeting. Beyond the broad windows of the meeting room I could
see the Royal Gardens at Buckingham Palace, reminding me that
even a powerful kingdom like the British Empire can dissolve when
principles are forgotten and the rulers stop dreaming. Words I had
heard the Dreamer utter on our last meeting now came clearly
and strongly to my lips: The ESE is a School of Being. We must
nourish our students with the idea of immortality striking down the
preconception that death is invincible.

Until now all economic systems have dealt with survival,
with peoples basic needs:
food, shelter, clothing and reproduction. The economics of the
coming decades deals not anymore with survival, but with
immortality.

Can you please explain to me why the idea of immortality is
important in a School of Economics, especially for Business
majors? The question was asked by a young, brilliant instructor in
International Strategic Management. Her skepticism that she might
receive a convincing answer was obvious in her tone. Then, with
courteous irony, she added:
Maybe youre planning to announce a new Department of
Philosophy?
It was the same skepticism I had shown the Dreamer when
He had first revealed what would be the fundamental principles of
the School. My impulse to respond to thats womans presumption
was interrupted by the Dreamer.Stooop! His voice, like a deafening
battle cry, exploded silently within me, saving me from falling into
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the depths of identification. It was the instant death of an old
decrepit mentality the advent of a new attitude and the birth of a
new being. I knew that those words were aimed at the roots of the
entire humanity. I now addressed her with comprehension and
clarity.
Vision and reality are one and the same thing This was my
favorite among the Dreamers phrases, and had reappeared among
the notes I had been reading that morning. I no longer had any
interest in convincing her ;
Economy is a reflection of Being I said repeating words
Id spoken at the European Parliament in Brussels years before.
I had taken them in dictation from the Dreamer, when at
the time the thought of speaking on the subject of The Economics of
Immortality had seemed not only paradoxical, but absurd and
beyond imagination.
The very idea of physical immortality is sufficient to
eradicate age, old convictions and creeds I said, then continued
repeating the words the Dreamer now whispered silently within me.
Death is a bad habit! In one fell swoop, the worlds most
unquestionable truth was both tried and condemned. I was at a loss
over how to explain that affirmation, but those words flowed from
deep within me:
The idea that death is unavoidable is so powerful because
no one ever questioned it! Merely questioning the idea of the
inevitability of death changes the financial destiny of an individual,
an organization an entire nation.
Silence overwhelmed the room as that group awaited
explanations for an earth-shattering revelation.
It is the conviction that death is something ineluctable that
limits us; it is at the root of our every limitation, every shackling of
our creativity! All that we need is the idea of immortality, to free us
from the grip of time.
A man of integrity, a visionary leader lives totally in a state
of Nowness, free from the hypnotic notion of time I said again,
quoting the Dreamer Our civilisation needs these pragmatic
dreamers - men able to love themselves inside who have escaped
from the self-created prison of time, a new generation of leaders
able to harmonize the old apparent antagonisms: Economy and
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While I was speaking, Chris H. shook his head slowly,
indicating perplexity and a growing dissent. The movement caused
the white locks of his flowing hair to undulate softly. He was one of
our most influential teachers. I feigned not to notice that silent and
surely not isolated- commentary and continued reciting the lessons
received only a short time ago from the Dreamer:
What we call reality is only the reflection of our dreams, the
mirror of our states of Being. The mind of man is conflictual, his
logic functions by means of contrasting concepts, his reason is
armed. This is why we know only a survival-based economy that
believes in limits. This is what has allowed death to become the
planets leading industry; the architrave that sustains the wealth of
nations. From arms manufacturing to environmental pollution, from
pharmaceutical production to organised crime; men and nations are in
the service of an economy of disaster, the economy of conflict. All of
humanity is on deaths payroll!

True education is freedom from every form of hypnotism,
dependence, superstition.
True education is the abandonment of ones inner conflicts.
This will liberate the world from all opposites,
will free the world from contradictions, violence and wars.

But are you living in this world or some other one? began
Chris H. as soon as I nodded to him With the wars and revolutions,
terrorist attacks, guerrilla hot spots, racial persecution and genocide
filling the papers and the media every day, how can you be moral in
a world governed by immorality?
I remembered asking the Dreamer the same question. Chris
H. was the personification of my own arrogance and doubt, the
mirror image that denounced my incapacity to be those words, to
make them enter into my flesh. My own refusal of them prevented me
from spreading the Dreamers vision not only to this man, but to the
entire world.

But what war are you talking about? the Dreamer had
asked me There is no war going on in the world except the one
youre projecting right now. The conditions in the world correspond
exactly to your own inner states. So dont worry about the world,
worry about yourself. This is the only way you can help!
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But all over the world there are industries that at this very
moment are producing weapons that could devastate the planet, that
could even destroy all life forms I had protested at the time, and
in the name of all mankind Id yearned to ask Him what we could do,
how could we protect ourselves from such awful destructive power. I
recall that the Dreamer interrupted me brusquely, not letting me
even enunciate that calamitous vision.
No power outside yourself can possibly destroy you He
had said, in indelible words Outside yourself nothing can take
place without your consent. Be vigilant! Get rid of your ignorance,
flee from obscurity. Its your own vision that needs to be corrected,
not humanity. Conditions in the world correspond exactly to your
own inner states. If you integrate yourself, if you become a unity,
then the entire world is safe.

I could feel every word burdening me with the weight of an
unbearable responsibility. After listening to Him, it had been
impossible to keep on complaining, and accusing unknown powers
and uncontrollable forces and taking refuge in the oblivion of a
resigned helplessness. With His words now fresh in my mind, I
responded:
Dont take this personally I began But what Im going to
tell you, you probably will not like. ts you who creates the world in
your own image. The sole immorality that exists is within you and
not in the world. Immorality means self-forgetfulness, inner
fragmentation. Immorality means self-harmfulness. Only you
yourself can be immoral and harm yourself by forgetting what you
are. When you remember yourself all troubles and difficulties
disappear from the planet. The world is made in your image, it
reflects your inner being and obeys all of your commands whatever
they may be. When you stop suffering the entire world ceases to be
immoral.
I turned my head, glancing behind me, looking for even a
shred of His presence. I knew she would be there, with the admiring
gaze she always had, and her unquenchable faith in the School, in the
Dream. Only now I realised that Lucia, my assistant, had been given to
me by Him. Were the world to collapse today, tomorrow morning she
would be there to take up her work again, tirelessly, before anyone else
arrived, offering her shy attentions and protecting me with her
humble austerity as if I were her most precious possession.
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She was the only person to whom I had spoken about the
Dreamer. She constantly asked me about Him, cherishing His every
word. It was she who was supervising the manuscript, spending her
nights transforming it into the first draft of the Book. I caught her
faint smile of encouragement; her complicity, for a few treasured
moments, brought back to me the words of the Dreamer.
Its possible to change our destiny I said putting all the
firm conviction I could muster into my voice We have to change
mans psychology, the hypnotic world-story rooted in his system
of convictions and beliefs. We must change his Dream. And thats
why there is need for a School. A School of Being, potent enough to
bring about a planetary revolution in education, to overturn teaching
programmes and methods, exalting this vision. This is the scientific
path on which we have set forth, and in which we believe.
But our teachers were the first people who would need to
change.
Humanity as it is cannot teach the young to free themselves
from conflictual thought, nor from prejudices and obsolete ideas, nor
teach how to upset even a fence in order to cultivate in themselves
an indomitable passion for greatness. It is not resources that are
limited, but man who projects his own limitations and boundaries
onto the external world and causes his own unconscious propensity
to scarcity to take form.
The room was silent.
I began concluding with these words that the Dreamer had
pronounced to me during our last meeting:
The wealth of a nation, the power of its economy and the
level of prosperity it can achieve is equal to the quality of its system
of values and above all its capacity to produce highly emotional
individuals, visionary leaders, pragmatic dreamers. The life of a
nation, the future of an entire civilisation depends on the existence
of these men and women. The heads of future organisations will be
philosophers of action. These people will bring intelligence, success
and longevity to the corporate enterprises of the world.
My voice vibrated with the grandeur of this prophecy
bestowed on me by the Dreamer.
Our mission is to create them.
More than perplexed, they seemed astonished. The discovery
that the world functioned from inside out went well beyond the shock
of the revolution announced by Copernicus more than half a
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millennium earlier. The Dreamers revelations subverted not only the
laws of economy, but also everything in which they had believed until
that moment. They felt the menacing strength of ideas capable of
derailing them from a sad and Sisyphean destiny, from repeating
over and over until death the task of instructing the young in fear,
boredom, and their own negation of life.
As I took leave of each of them individually, I could read
in some of their faces the unspoken questions some of which surely
pertained to even their personal lives. I left them with an
affectionate handshake and the promise of a deepening commitment
to this luminous adventure remembering what the Dreamer had told
me on our last visit sure that although unspoken the message would
arrive to them regardless.
Dont feel discouraged if you are not yet successful in
applying the Art of Dreaming. You, and I, as children of time, are still
unable to understand the difference between dreaming and desiring.
In desiring, you may not realise that you are projecting into your life
the experience of wanting, needing, wishing, trying and hoping, and
that such an experience reveals in time the exact opposite of what
you are desiring or expecting. Dreaming is such a powerful, creative
experience that even few seconds of its timeless action will succeed
in creating all that you have desired for years and failed to achieve!
Remember! Only dreams can come true.. desires, never.
The creation of an academic space without frontiers having
branches in the great business capitals of the world had been a stroke
of genius. The School the Dreamer had dreamed of was founded on
immortal principles and ideas that were to revolutionize not only the
educational system but mankind itself . As I left, my mind turned
again towards the bank and I heard words of the Dreamer that were
apparently a mere recapitulation of our meeting, but for reasons
unknown to me at the time carried a silent warning.

An individual, an organization, a country
can develop only if that individual, organization,
or country is concerned about raising
the quality and value of its people.
Every school or university, company or corporate enterprise
has to become a School of Being, a School of Responsibility,
only then will it be possible to face
and overcome any challenges in life and expand.
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Remember, you can possess only what you are responsible for.

10 Believing without Believing

The banks had liked the project, had witnessed its growth
and had continued to grant credit for as long as possible, but were not
ready to support the growing investments required by its international
expansion, not only in Europe but also overseas. This was enterprise
on a scale that not even the greatest English universities had ever
confronted.
Recently the pressure to reduce our credit had become
stronger, and our biggest investor had already let it be known that our
line would soon be cut.
Lucia helped me slip into my raincoat and handed me a few
documents as I was going out the door. I skipped quickly down the
steps towards the intense traffic of Grosvenor Place and walked for
some blocks towards the intersection where I was sure to catch a cab.
As I walked I thought what would be the outcome of the next
encounter with the banks. Only the Dreamers words which still
rang clear within me had been able to transform the obstinacy of
those professors. My own distance from those words led me to now
doubt seriously that somehow I would have ever been able to resolve
my newly found financial problems.
So far removed was I from His presence, that I failed to
recognize behind those apparently insurmountable tasks the
Dreamers stepping stones laid carefully on my path.
I walked all the way to the Green Park tube station. My
arms were heavy and tired of waving. What seemed to be an entire
fleet of black taxis raced past me like a swarm of beetles speeding
towards the completion of some important mission. I set down my
briefcase in front of the newsstand, extracted my wallet and bought
not only Newsweek, but a ticket for the UK National Lottery.
When I turned towards the street I found a cab already
waiting. I climbed inside and gave him the address. On the other side
of town, my lawyers were waiting for me to celebrate the funeral
rites of my marriage. For some time things had not been going well
between Heleonore and myself. We had been living far from each
other for increasingly longer periods and one day, while she was
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speaking to me by phone from her mothers house, we arrived at the
only possible conclusion; a definitive parting. The worst thing,
however, was that what by all means was expected to be a consensual
separation, and a quite simple and straightforward divorce, became
more and more complicated by Heleonores attitude. She had become
ever more aggressive and rapacious, exhibiting a greediness that I
had never recognised in her. It was as though once she had
renounced playing her wifely role, and the thin coat of colour that my
contact with the Dreamer had brushed across our relationship was
stripped away, a monstrosity emerged; one I had lived with for some
time, unawares.
You lied to yourself, pretending to be in love with her; and
you used her as a pretext for leaving Kuwait and returning to your
own Hells, the Dreamer once told me, back when I still believed I
loved her. That opinion wounded me, and I thought that, at least
about my feelings, the Dreamer was wrong. At that time Heleonore
and I were working together, tirelessly, for the School project, and I
would have wagered anything on the solidity of our marriage.
Your union was born out of disobedience and falsehood. It
was stillborn. Under these circumstances, there is nothing that can be
given to you, and you will also lose whatever you believe you
possess.
The Dreamers voice had all but faded from my mind, and I
found myself deep in my cloud of troubles, but now in my personal
life, with their attendant cortge of afflictions, difficulties and
bitterness, had no temporal consistency, enclosed in a droplet of time
with neither a before nor an after. These came into my mind not like
separate situations and events, but en bloc, clustered together, like a
single constant defeat, without any remedy.
A feeling of impotence came over me. That taxi was
the compression of my existence, the physical trap where it was
imprisoned, the only difference being that my life had no door
through which I could make my escape.Doubt, the fear of defeat,
an irresistible need to give up I knew all these well; they were
like old friends in whose company misfortune is leavened. They
had been the inseparable companions of all my years, and only in
the presence of the Dreamer was I able to recognise, transform, and
conquer them.
At one of the traffic lights, while the stale red seemed endless, I
glanced out the window. There, on the side of a bus, just at eye level,
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I saw a slogan from the new campaign of the London transport
authority: The bad news is that God is dead. The good news is that
you dont need Him. As I considered its meaning, something the
Dreamer once told me came to mind: The desire to eliminate God
by those who call themselves atheists is their attempt, secret even
to themselves, to exorcise their fear of death. A fear that grips and
torments them more than any other. Thus the Dreamer overturned
the common prejudice that views the atheist as a person of strength,
one who refuses to lean on the illusory crutch of a God, unlike the
rest of humanity. He was affirming that, in reality, weakness was
their common denominator and the very foundation of that doctrine.
For an ordinary man, for those who have not attained an
interior unity, believing and not believing are the same lie. The
atheist has first transferred divinity outside himself, and then denied
its existence The mortal sin of atheism therefore is not disbelief in
God, denial of His existence, but disbelief in oneself.
These words recalled something else the Dreamer had said on
that subject, something of such vastness that I could hardly believe that
Id forgotten it for such a long time. I couldnt visualise where, or in
which of our encounters I had heard those words from Him, but they
were deeply carved within me and now they resurfaced in my
memory.
To believe is not difficulteveryone believes in something
But forcing oneself to believe is for the few the Dreamer had said,
expressing a concept capable of thrusting thought to heights
beyond reason. The paradox Hed coined, believing without
believing, concealed a cathedrals powerful structure beneath
butterflys wings.
At the time I had been unable to absorb the greatness of
this message, but now its pitiless light was showing me how much
encomiastic rhetoric was bound up with belief, and how perilously
close it came to the root of all fanaticism.
Every creed, any faith you choose to embrace enlists you in
an army of liars. Belief makes you a follower of the doctrine of
lying. In the Dreamers vision, believing induces membership to the
masses of those who profess faith, the multitude of persons who
spend their lives in a state of identification, of belonging, that sticks
them to the flypaper of time. Even disbelief in God, as the atheists
assert, is a belief that equally sinks them in the mare magnum of
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fundamentalists, dogmatists, the intolerant, and ideologues of every
persuasion.
The Dreamer had never wanted to meet or otherwise have
any contact with those who characterised themselves as spiritual
persons or seekers of truth. He told me once, How much better
off theyd be, and what greater benefit theyd derive if theyd stop
looking for the truth outside and find the lie inside themselves.
Once Id asked the Dreamer, Why do you refuse very often
to meet spiritual seekers?
He answered dryly, Many of them are stuck in a vicious
circle, entrapped in an unnecessary struggle. they have transferred
the struggle for worldly goods to the struggle for heavenly reaches
but nothing is changed they were lying before and they are still
lying now. Instead of enjoying the world and laughing, they grunt,
blame and complain.
Not in opposition, but in a dimension vertical to the
supine flatness of belief, there is believing without believing, the
Dreamers liberating vision of enfranchising the individual, setting
him free from the captivity of superstition and credulity.
There is no fault, no sin, no karma or punishment. There is
no life beyond and no universal judgement, no heaven and no hell.
There is only this instant, sacred, infinite, and omnipotent. Use it
well! You will never have another chance.
Believing without believing means to choose ones own
intention and follow it to the end, unshakably. It is a high state of
being that demands the elimination of falsehood, and it can be
attained only by men of integrity who know and practice the Art of
Acting.
Now I asked myself if I had ever touched that state of liberty,
if I had ever been capable of believing in an idea, doctrine, or
principle; or filling a role, without needing to identify myself with it,
without yielding myself slavishly to it. In reality, the atheists slogans
were precisely denouncing belief in the hypnotic tale told by the
world, more than to oneself. I was the atheist, the man who had
asked to escape from the ordinary, from every kind of dependency,
to be near the Dreamer, and instead I had continued to believe in
limits. I was the man who had promised to be faithful to the dream
he had forgotten about for years. It was a lump of bitterness I had to
swallow.
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In different occasions, I gathered on this topic copious notes of
such an interest that I thought of compiling them into a pamphlet. In
the end, Id decided to keep them to myself rather than make
revelations that might exceed the readers capacity for acceptance.
And also, in regard to the content of this Book, I have sometimes
hesitated over recounting certain episodes, facts, and circumstances;
revelations by the Dreamer that might seem to go too far, possible
awakening the antagonisms of political, academic or religious
institutions or fundamentalism of all kinds. I have therefore tried to
select those that, however revolutionary, can nonetheless enter the
understanding of present day humanity.
One day when you will perceive just an atom of my world
you will write immortal pages that no one has ever written before.
My words, the most unacceptable ones, will flow out of your pen,
and like a river in flood, sweep away every obstacle, until at last they
reach those who seek, those who already know.

11 The Secret of Doing

Deep in these musings, I had not even glanced at the taxi
driver until he spoke to me.
Youre Italian, right? he asked with his Cockney accent
and the satisfied smile of one who has just won a bet with himself.
My dad was Italian he went on without waiting for my
answer Hes the one who named me Fiorello.
And as the cab proceeded slowly through the City traffic, he
told me the story of his family: the illiterate grandfather, who
emigrated first to Australia and then to England, who founded a shoe
factory and became very rich. His father, who let three squash-playing
buddies convince him to invest everything he had in the stock market
and within a few weeks was left without a penny. Fiorello confided
in me the resentment he felt towards his father; his never-forgotten
disappointment at having had to give up singing so that he could
start earning a living at a very early age. He told me about his taxi
license, his fathers only bequest to him; of his hope that his own son
might achieve the dream that he had been forced to abandon; about
his identical twin grandsons, who showed exceptional intelligence
in their studies and at home, and who were surely destined for great
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things. They would undoubtedly rebuild the empire founded by their
industrialist ancestor.
The cab-drivers voice began to fade into the background of
my concerns, and as his story continued, I saw myself as a child in
the talcum-scented shop of Don Saverio the barber, with its powdery
mirror set in a gilded frame. Within that looking glass only a few
traces of former splendour remained; bright islands afloat on the
darkening surface. Therein my imagination could perceive a map
of unknown continents, the scratched borders of new archipelagoes.
As a little boy, I would observe Don Saverio at work amid infinitely
repeated images of my neck being mercilessly shaved according to
my mothers unyielding instructions. That procession of mes in
the slightly tilted mirror behind me - me: over and over, like the
repeated generations in the cabdrivers tale, seemed to burst forth
from a wound in time.
That succession of senseless lives, passed down from father to
son, the wretchedness of that immortality by installments nauseated
me. I felt rejection towards an existence on those conditions. At that
moment I realised with startling vividness, the incessant recurrence
of images and happenings, always the same, in the lives of ordinary
men; crushed by anxiety, flailing between schedules and sums, the
prey of negative emotions. Men doomed to grow old, fall ill, and die,
one after the other, from father to son, inexorably.
I recognised the labyrinth of my existence, that insidious
prison that I had created myself, of which paradoxically I was both
jailer and inmate, and from which by definition there was no
exit. The difficulties and the problems that I thought to have solved
and left behind me forever were instead still present, still recurring
ever more painfully, with no apparent solution. I saw in myself
the shameful repetition of my impulse to flee every time I sensed
the painful sensation of going uphill - whenever I had to confront
challenges and problems that appeared larger than I was, and able to
crush me.
Something the Dreamer had said brought a flash of light
into my dread.
Only those who are forced to face their own horror and
can bear to contemplate their impotence and incompleteness can
succeed.
I couldnt bring myself to pursue this - I had to interrupt the
analysis. I could see that in performing this interior scrutiny, I was
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actually observing myself as a lab animal, a guinea pig; some innate,
grotesque life form, that I would never have wanted to see or know,
but that ironically, I had no intention of abandoning.
Triggered by Fiorellos story, born out of some unknown
part of myself, I felt the impulse to re-read one of the pages I had
chosen that morning:
Memory creates destinyDestiny creates memory So long
as you believe in your remembrances and continue inwardly to
tell yourself the imaginary story of your life, you will keep on
projecting it ahead of you and convince yourself that you have a
future, which is really only the past repeating itself. Memory and
destiny, past and future, are illusions. Recognise them as nothing
other than simultaneous projections of this moment, of the Now, and
you will be free. In the Now there is no defeat - only victory.
At this point Fiorello began to sing in a beautiful tenor voice.
The aria was from the last act of Puccinis Turandot, when the
unknown prince, in love with the beautiful but cruel Turandot, affirms
his victory:
Tramontate, stelle! Allalba vincervinceroooo
Fiorello sang on, every so often glancing back at me, enjoying my
surprise and waiting for my approval. But the singular coincidence
of that song of victorys arrival at the same time as the Dreamers
words, in juxtaposition to my defeatist thoughts, flung me into a state
of agitation. I perceived that this corpulent man with the pretty name
had been fitted between the seat and the steering wheel of his taxi.
He filled the space so completely with the gelatinous mass of his
body that it seemed as though he were such an integral part of the
taxi that he would never be able to leave it. When I looked more
carefully at him in the rear-view mirror I saw that he was looking
at me, and I felt the blood chill in my veins. Those eyes had nothing
in common with that fat face. It was as if an alien had taken over
this nice fellows body, and now it was studying me. My brow damp
with sweat, I tried to swallow, but my saliva had become something
sticky, rubbery; it was choking me. I could see an obscure menace
in those eyesexpressing shrewdness and a calm ferocityThose
eyes I couldnt escape from, those eyes that were penetrating me
those were the eyes of the Dreamer. I felt as though Id suddenly been
awakened, interrupted from an ancestral sleep. I obeyed His call and
changed my plans.
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Forget about that address I told Fiorello, who had stopped
singing and had also, to my relief, stopped watching me. I wasnt
going to meet with anyone, at least not with the lawyer to discuss
my divorce in this state. In a whirlpool of thoughts, as the taxi went
on without any destination, I was feverishly assembling the pieces of
that day.
I saw that from the first light of dawn, when I had felt that
premonitory shiver under my skin as I read the Dreamers words,
up until this very moment, there had been a succession of steps, an
itinerary whose every event, encounter and thought, each tiny detail,
had been a step on an invisible stair that would bring me to Him. I had
never so intensely felt the desire to see Him. I would have reached
Him anywhere in the world, if I only knew where. In an instant of
dazzling, unexpected light, from the heart of the kaleidoscope of the
hundred places where Id met the Dreamer, an image exploded inside
me. Now I knew where Id heard Him say the words that had marked
that day.
Turn around. Take me to Spaniards Road I said. Fiorello
had to make such a tight U-turn that the inside wheels of the taxi
left the pavement for a split second suspending us in that arc of
time before the wheels rejoined the pavement we glided on the edge
of a new destiny. I remembered the Dreamers words when Hed
spoken about tripping up routines and the STOP Id heard so clearly
that afternoon in the meeting with the professors, and was sure that I
had turned around, once again, just in the nick of time.
I was following my instinct to look for Him where we had
seen each other the last time in London. And as the taxi was bearing
me to that destination, following that single fragile clue, the absurd
certainty grew in me that I was going to find Him that evening, right
there, in the old inn in Hampstead.
I had learned from the Dreamer that dreaming, believing and
creating is the birthright of every man. And now I was feeling in
my whole body, that sense of certainty that transformed a remote
possibility into the most precise of appointments, and turned the
frail thread that attached me to Him into a steel cable. This was the
integrity in action that the Dreamer had sought to transmit to me;
the living seed of the Art of Dreaming that for years had found in
me such infertile ground. If this was completeness, vitality, then Id
been dead for months and years - a state in which I would never have
been able to find Him. I was beginning to realise that the day had
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served as a kind of hyperbaric chamber; its various moments had
been stages in decompression that allowed me to rise up from the
abysses of my inner deaths until I rose to Him, to integrity, to life. I
held my breath, trying to hold on to that huge discovery. To keep
oneself there, vigilant, alive, without allowing a single atom of death
to penetrate the Being, was the Secret of Doing.

When the taxi dropped me at the entrance to the Spaniards
Inn, I was sure that the Dreamer would be arriving, or that He was
already inside in response to my fervent request that He be near me
now, as great waves threatened to crash against my life.

12 The past is a lie

I paused on the threshold to calm the beating of my heart
before going inside. This is where the game of encounters, with
the unforgettable teachings I had received from the Dreamer, had
started; among those oak-clothed walls stained with beer, the reek of
rancid bacon and the noisy, idle talk of the pub customers.
The dining area, shrouded in a warm semi-darkness was
smaller than I remembered. I saw only a few clients in the dining
room, some of them sitting at tables, but most of them standing at the
bar, silently intent on drinking from outlandishly huge pewter
tankards. I looked quickly around the room, into its every corner,
hoping that He was already there, then I started firmly up the stairs. I
could hear the conversations and general noise growing louder. This
time, remembering our former meeting and the Dreamers
preference, I chose a table in the middle of the most crowded room
on that floor, where the alcohol-fuelled public was at its noisiest. It
occurred to me that I should ask the host or one of the waiters to let
me know when He arrived, and only then did I realise that I had no
idea how to describe the Dreamer, nor could I guess what aspect He
might have, nor even His age. I quickly abandoned that idea.
Lupelius used to disguise himself as a slave, a vagabond, a
political man, a banker or a rich merchant, and He used these
roles strategically. Be it a kingly crown or a priests habit, Lupelius
wore them and made his disciples wear them, teaching them how
to become a given personage, in order to explore and come to
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know that subjects every hidden corner, every secret, while never
forgetting the game, never remaining imprisoned by it.

I sat where I could see the street from the window, and the
green of Hampstead Heath. I had no idea how long I would have
to wait. I closed my eyes for an instant, to calm the emotions of
that day, and I found myself in the Great Hall of the School. The
Dreamer was entering, flanked by two wings of warrior-monks.
He was wearing a robe, something between a monks habit
and a knightly tunic, His long hair hidden by a broad cap. I saw the
figure of Lupelius come forward and melt into Him. Across the
distance of a thousand years, the School for Gods had passed on the
baton of its immortal principles, the witness of its timeless pursuit.
It seemed as though only a few minutes had passed, but
now I saw that it was dark outside. A lanky red-haired waiter came
across the room, shuffling heavily across the uneven floorboards; a
gentleman had arrived and was waiting for me downstairs.
I saw Him sitting in the most distant corner of the room, still
wearing His coat; a short one, made of some light and soft material,
of impeccable cut. I walked towards Him with short steps, hesitant
with emotion. I saw that the table Hed chosen was the one farthest
from the bar; above it was a trophy, a display of ancient muskets, an
eighteenth-century vestige of the Kenwoods revolt. I had so yearned
to see Him, but now, as had often happened in the past, I felt torn
between the joy of seeing Him and my anxiety at having to face
that pitiless mirror that was going to denounce my forgetfulness,
my every limitation. Our meeting began with no need for words or
preamble, and as the silence continued, I felt all distances close and
all time shrink away until it disappeared. Now, seated beside Him, I
had so many things to tell Him, but the Dreamer signaled me to keep
quiet before I could even open my mouth.
If success should happen accidentally or by chance in your
life, as it appears to happen to most successful people in the world,
then, by chance or accidentally, you would see it sooner or later
painfully disappear. He began.
Think how uncomfortable the position of a man who has
accidentally reached fame or success is first of all, fear and
uncertainty would paralyze him in front of any decision he wouldnt
know what to do next - and he wouldnt know how to increase his
own fortune, but more than anything else, he wouldnt know how
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to keep, defend and not lose what he believes to possess by rote.
Real success is the result of a long inner work focused mainly on
self-observation and self-awareness a ceaseless struggle against
self- harmfulness, negative imagination and unpleasant emotions.
Real success is the discovery of a buried inner treasure which is the
Mother of all victories: the Will.
I was flooded with nausea. He had read and denounced my
condition perfectly without my having to say a word. The Dreamer
had created one opportunity after another for me, and I had done
nothing to discover that buried treasure. I was that man without a
Will.
What happened in Kuwait, when you abandoned your post,
bartering a kingdom for the illusory protection of a job, is repeating
itself. And today, once more, youre ready to abandon everything
thats been entrusted to you for the sake of saving yourself said
the Dreamer. His tone was severe, impersonal, but I felt the weight
of His words like blocks of stone.
You have been given much, so much has been expected of
you, yet you have done nothing to either deserve or amplify it. Now
circumstances and events of your life are reproducing themselves,
identical down to the smallest detail, in a perverse perfection,
following the pattern of an imaginary recurrence; a circular
destiny that doesnt exist, but in which you believe and from which
you cannot free yourself He continued.
I didnt need to tell Him about the hundred problems
that were causing such tribulation in my existence. The Dreamer
knew. My life was still the same because nothing in me had really
changed. I thought that Id come here to hear Him tell me this, but the
Dreamers words were instead coming to set me free, sweeping away
the oppression that came from the thought of recurrence, so close to
the superstition of Karma, and with it the regret and self-pity that
were already casting a shadow on my Being.
Only apparently does the past repeat itself. In reality here is
no past, neither in a mans life nor in the history of a civilisation.
The past is a lie. There isnt any karma and there isnt any former
life, any guilt, any sin, or any punishment. Theres no afterlife or
universal judgement, no hell, no paradise. There is only this instant
sacred, infinite, omnipotent. Use it well! There will never be another
chance. Outside of Now, were helpless, dependent on time limited,
vulnerable, mortal.
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The past is a lie. And all that belongs to memory is a fiction.
Whatever you believe has happened in the past has never really
happened. All that you believe happened in the past is happening
right now, in this very instant. There is no moment before and none
after. Everything happens Now because nothing is outside of Now.
Now is the timeless beginning and endless end of every cycle, from
the atom to God.

13 State is Place

During that meeting at the Spaniards Inn, I scribbled
timeless words on the back of the menu and on napkins that I still
cherish as precious mementos.
Once while He paused, and in an atmosphere that felt lighter
now, I thought I could tell the Dreamer how surprised I was at His
having chosen this out of the way inn as our meeting-place. The
Dreamer lived strategically. I knew that every choice He made, even
the apparently least important ones, was in the service of His intent.
A quiet laugh preceded His answer. Teasing me, He suggested that the
principal reason was the quality of the beer; this was one of the few
remaining London establishments that could boast of having offered
the best dark beer, still brewed on the premises for the last four
centuries. For a few seconds, before He went on, He lifted the
pewter tankard to His lips; but, as He did with food, He hardly
tasted it, He took not even one actual swallow. Then He told me that
the Spaniards Inn had been a famous hideout, that generations of
brigands, thieves and highwaymen had supped at this very table, and
a number of them, summarily tried and sentenced, had been hanged
from a tree a just outside the door.
I didnt quite see the connection between my question and his
story until, when He uttered the word thieves, the Dreamer
deliberately paused, looking at me in silence. His smile had vanished.
The fierceness of His stare was worse than the presage of the most
terrible storm and I instinctively raised my defenses . Pierced by His
eyes, I could feel myself beginning to take short, quick breaths like a
specialist of apnea before submerging himself for the umpteenth test
of resistance. When He began to speak again, He said:
Now you are the thief of your own self. Youre robbing
yourself from within. In business or in love, your associates and
partners always will be the perfect reflection of your condition, your
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states of being. A man can possess only what he is, and he can choose
and be chosen only by what he deserves!
That reference to the course of my life could not have been
more explicit. The painfulness of what I was hearing was already
unbearable when the Dreamer lunged again, striking even harder.
The worst partner in the world would never be able to
cheat or rob you more thoroughly than you are cheating and robbing
yourself.
Even though every one of these blows hit home, I wrote
down each of His words as I heard it. A pause gave me time to
reflect on the days events. I saw myself in the faculty meeting, and
renouncing the meeting with my lawyers only to find myself with
Him in that tavern. In the end, I understood. The Dreamer knew
unexplainably of the lottery ticket Id bought. Before His eyes, I
could feel that ticket burning a hole in my breast pocket and branding
me forever with a kind of Scarlet letter destined for robbers and
thieves of the worst kind.
The Dreamer continued to speak, and I, to write.
A man of integrity does not believe in lotteries and doesnt
play ever! Whoever buys a ticket, who bets, has already abdicated
the power within himself to make that money, to attract that fortune.
Belief in external events means bartering certain victory for
definite failure. Whoever buys a lottery ticket is hunting for
misfortune ; in the same way, who gambles or plays the stock
market subjects himself to the same laws. Whoever, by working on
his integrity, has built within himself the power to have that money,
doesnt need to win it outside himself That force acquired within
will create financial power.
If you do not have responsibility and you gamble, you can
win only by accident - buying a lottery ticket to compensate for an
apparent lack of fortune is the act of a weak man who does not have
the inner responsibility to support wealth. You cannot deserve to
become rich overnight. By playing- by entrusting yourself to chance,
you are revealing your lack of generosity of responsibility and
love.
People like you, someday, will betray and steal from
themselves believing that they can steal from the world of the
Dreamer, and you are among those the worst!
I paled at that merciless analysis that placed me among to
a host of ungrateful people, who attempt to take a piece of the
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Dreamers world by presumption, and protested. He seemed not to
hear me and continued.
We can only have what we are responsible for. True
having corresponds exactly to our being. Financial power is only a
consequence, the visible representation of prosperity consciousness.
That which externally corresponds to internal investment,
psychologically, is called Commitment.
In only three words, He distilled the intelligence of that
moment:
State is Place He announced A man occupies a physical
space that corresponds to his Being. The place where he is, the
environment surrounding him, the people he meets all demonstrate
a remarkable correspondence with his states of Being, the quality of
his emotions, of his thoughts.
The silence that had surrounded us until that moment, sealing
our meeting inside a bubble of discretion, split open, and the life of
the pub began to rush past us like images from an old film clattering
through a jammed projector. I glanced around us, looking
searchingly at people and objects, as if they had only just appeared
in my personal universe and the Dreamer had invented them for me
in that moment. The room was filled with an improbable mingling
of humanity, a universe by Toulouse-Lautrec, misshapen as I was.
Creatures that were frighteningly thin or exaggeratedly fat cawed
and chattered together, or else stared helplessly, lost in silence and the
void. Threadbare shirts hung limply from thin shoulders that might
just well have been hangers, while others were stretched to bursting
point across bodies that were hugely obese. Bright red lips, open like
wounds, kept imitating smiles. men and women their Young lives,
already withered simulacra without breath. They were there to look
for a moment of reprieve from their hell, hovered between two pains;
past and future.
One stocky man was hoisting a heavy tankard to his mouth,
gulping down the foamy liquid; eyes half-closed and with a look of
stupefaction, as if hed been drugged. His swollen stomach kept him
at some distance from the bar. These characters from whom until
that moment I had felt separated, as if by a glass through which I
could watch them fluctuate, I now recognised as belonging to me. I
saw dull fibres originating in my body, connecting to each of those
beings, to every detail of that setting, weaving themselves together to
form an intricate and dense arterial system that nourished all of
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us as if we made up a single organism, uniting us in a horrible,
indissoluble symbiosis.
I had the sensation that the Dreamer was no longer at my
side. I was unable to move a single muscle, but I could tell that he was
no longer in my field of vision. A pressure on the back of my neck
scrambled my five senses; now they no longer perceived that world
but were emanating it, as if persons and things and all the atoms of
the universe were coming together and dissolving in every blink of
my eyes. Here the Dreamers absence became breath, sound, voice.
What you see here is the multitude, the legion that you
carry inside of yourself He said They are your Being made
visible, the physical representation of your condition.
In that faceless crowd, in that grimace of pain beyond time, I
saw social distinctions dissolve, along with racial and religious
differences and all the divisions among men that throughout the
millennia have been pretexts for wars and killing. I saw the various
roles melting before my eyes, like waxen masks. What remained
were simply men and women whose only purpose was to portray my
own oblivion. That motley and noisy circus, that spectacle, had been
arranged so that I could observe something that in all this time I had
never wanted to see or touch in myself. State is Place, I repeated,
penetrating into the deep reaches of the motto that was striking down
the illusion of an external, extraneous world that was separate from
me. I felt lost.
Through a new lucidity, I was able to link the theatrical
staging of the pub that warehouse of despair with what I had been
able to observe in school and university classrooms. The worn-out
humanity that came here to drown their own degradation in alcohol
was precisely similar to the category of pedants, masters of doom
and gloom, obsolete mechanical repeaters perpetuating the archaic
education they had received. They pretend to teach young people
what they themselves do not know, and to explain what they dont
understand and have never applied to themselves. A theatre of the
absurd where bald pitchmen sell lotions guaranteed to grow hair,
and worshippers of scarcity, economists whose threadbare Being is
pieced together with clumsy patches instruct in the Art of Creating
Wealth.
The School I entrusted to you isnt becoming anything other
than this place of idleness and boredom said the Dreamer
Change, otherwise it will reproduce itself everywhere you go,
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because its not outside of you. Get rid of this inner rot, and youll
see the world float away like dust when you blow on it. The world
that you see and touch is a product of your dream. Your thoughts and
emotions, beliefs and actions, history and destiny, the events and the
people who surround you are all produced and shaped by your inner
Being. If you indulge in negative states, like fear and doubt, you will
be defeated by the very same world that you dream and project.
Make a clean sweep He said You can cancel this
degradation right now, in this very instant. You can only do it Now
the Dreamer urged Now is the only time that exists and the only
world wherein you can act. If there were any other Now, a second
before, it would be a world completely different from this one, and
totally forgotten one second later.
I renewed my promise to the Dreamer. The new university
would never fall into a chasm, nor would it be suffocated by the
likes of the lifeless crowd we had witnessed. It would be a School
of Being, a planetary organ capable of generating new cells for a
human kind cured of conflict, fear, and doubt; it would engender
philosophers of action, pragmatic dreamers, the visionary leaders of
whom the Dreamer dreams, and whom our civilisation needs.
All existing ideologies of left and right are outdated and
obsolete. Powerful forces coming from the individual and not from
the masses are steadily rewriting the fundamentals of life. You as
an individual are called to create through your integrity a new
humanity, and to redesign a new economics within yourself; project
a brand new era and remember a new destiny.

14 Be a King, the Kingdom will come

It was the Dreamer who brought up the subject of the School. I
seized the occasion to speak to Him at length about various aspects of
its governance, its development, its needs. I tried to stick to the facts
and to maintain a healthy detachment from the account, but
inevitably the words and my tone began to degrade into complaint.
Speaking to Him in particular about the financial aspects of the
project, and the urgent necessity of finding new capital, I mentioned
the difficulties in our relations with the banks.
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At this point the Dreamer intervened, interrupting that cahier
de dolances, my self-indulgent complaining about problems and
obstacles.
The School has already happened. There is nothing you
can do, nothing you can add, other than obeying the design dictated
by the Dream! He cried in such a loud angry voice that I was afraid
all the other customers were going to turn and look at us. But no one
seemed to have heard.
The University is only one fragment of the Dream. For
you, as for all those who are part of it, its realisation is not the
ultimate goal, but an instrument for change, a guide, a path towards
a higher vision of existence.
Then, with a weary glance, like a scientist observing a failed
experiment, He told me:
I placed you at the tiller of the School, in command of a
star ship capable of travelling at the speed of dreams, but your
unwillingness to understand is turning it into something that does
not belong to Me. I cannot allow it.
Those prophetic words were revealing to me an unavoidable
destiny, but the Dreamer continued:
Our being is the true Creator of all that happens to us.
Heighten your level of inner responsibility, renew your promise, and
you will see that even economy and business obey the laws of Being.
This is the solution! Dont blame the world, circumstances and
other people, looking for fault outside yourself; regain lost ground
instead, and reassemble the fragments of your lost integrity. This
is the solution. Integrity is a state of Being, a sense of certainty, of
completeness, of vitality absence of fear. You feel it in your whole
body, in your heart and in every breath. Governments and nations,
organisations and enterprises guided by integrity are prosperous,
and they have long and happy lives.
Be a King, the Kingdom will come He said, uttering the
words that would become emblematic in my life and the lives of my
students.
Royalty of Being always precedes the birth of a reign.
To be comes before to have, never vice versa. Dont ever wish
for the kingdom to appear before kingliness. The weight of that
responsibility would be overwhelming. Those words sounded as
clearly as the tones of a great bell there in the semi-darkness of the
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pub, and it seemed to me that the words themselves were raising
shields to protect me from an imminent peril.
When you find yourself facing something that appears
insurmountable, impossible to withstandremember Me!My
words, the principles of the Dream. All apparent obstacles and
limitations have roots in your being and nowhere else. If you are
aware of this, theyll disappear! Dont worry about the lack of
money. Money is a state of being. Money manifests in time what you
have conquered through inner responsibility and creative victory. In
the same way, any fault in your being makes you weaker and poorer.
Any crack in your dream shatters the foundation of your financial
power. Money, like love, is an inner matter. Observe yourself, and
dont move from that moment. Everything is already done. There is
only one obstacle: and that is you.

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Your commitment, your inner promise, will obtain for you
all the resources you need was the Dreamers reply to the most
urgent of my questions Commitment is investmentCommitment
is fortunebet everythingdont let even a single atom escape from
the totality of your beingInvest all that you have, and everything
you do not have, on yourself and your dream, and the entire world
will bet on you.
I remembered what He had said to me in the Casa del
Pensamiento: the principal obstacle against which the most ambitious
projects shattered was not financial backing or its absence, but the
lack of men who were capable of containing a luminous idea, of
bearing the responsibility of a great dream, of believing the
impossible and of committing all their energies to bringing it about,
knowing that the payment is in advance.
When you find yourself facing a financial problem, dont be
discouraged Still yourself Straighten up your backbone
Breathe deeply Turn all your attention toward your Inner Being
Take command of your wavering, quivering feelings and then
affirm what you most want achieve with steadfast determination and
certainty. This will bring infinite resource to your business and
justice to your life. Focus all your attention on your being, and be
aware of your inner deaths, which are the very cause of all your
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misfortuneand win! You will see help and prodigious resources
come abundantly and punctually with your every request.
In stillness, secretly and silently, victory reveals
The cool air of a late August evening surrounded us as I
followed him out into the garden for a brief pause before we took
leave of one another. It was late at night. I saw moonlight shining on
the branches of a cherry tree, picked bare by now, and on the pale
shirtfront that showed under the Dreamers dark coat. I wanted this
moment, this suspended time, this state of freedom that was so rare
for me; I wanted all these things I was feeling in His presence not to
end. His voice floated easily over the dense hubbub from inside.
Lets go He said, drawing his soft coat around him
This garden smells of vomit! I knew that brusque remark had
less to do with the garden than with a bitter verdict concerning my
existence. As I walked beside Him for the few metres that separated us
from the end of this meeting, the Dreamer completed that evenings
discourse, going straight to its essence.
Remember. Money is not real. It is only a faded shadow of
your inner space, a pale manifestation of your inner responsibility.
It makes visible in time whatever a man has conquered in his Being,
through his commitment, his responsibility and the victories he has
won over himself. In the same way, the smallest crack in the dream
can shake a financial empire off its foundations.
Go to the bank and ask for whatever you need He added his
final words On the other side of the desk, youll find Me!
I could see those words scurrying across my mind, like
electronic letters on a screen, as I climbed the steps to M Bank. At a
certain point I noticed that I was actually reciting them like a mantra
to fend off the swarm of doubts that were poised to penetrate the
Dream and jam the powerful but delicate engine of the marvelous.
The Dreamer had suggested the sum I should ask for telling
me.
Talk to them about the Dream. That they will make the
school among the most important institutions in the world the bank
knows.
I could not imagine that the same bank that hardly been
willing to support our original credit was going to decide demble to
give us ten times as much, so that we could make the new investments
required by the Schools expansion.
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Once more my reason was struggling against the miracles
that unfailingly, day after day, had accompanied the projects growth
and transformed my life over all these years. At His side I had seen
giants brought down, with only the dust a dwarf might leave clouding
the air; I had seen mountains shift and reshape themselves into
gentle mounds a child could climb. How many intricate, hopelessly
lost situations had I seen the Dreamer resolve, undoing knots with
the skilled fingers of a helmsman! And how many impossible duels I
had won with Him at my side.
And yet, I was still doubtful.
The obstacles you find outside are the limits within you.
acknowledge yourself as being the creator of your own reality,
and your dream will come true. Invest all that you have and all that
you do not have yet, renounce to the game of chances, and come
back to reality, which is My Will.
Bet on the most real thing you have: the Dream.
Inspired by these words, with the difficult meeting with M
Bank ever more imminent, I could feel a powerful acceptance
growing in me; the Dreamer called this the yes attitude.
If you wish to have more money, your inner power
acknowledging you as being the creator of your own reality, must
remove money from your Life in order that you can be granted the
experience of wishing to have more money that you may realize
your dream of wishing to have more money. Wishes never come
true so that you can realize your dream to desire.
When you forget the principles of the Dream, you can only
give up and disappear from My vision. Return to into a state of
integrity! Remember!
The thought that I might actually fail, betraying the
Dreamers faith in me, was unbearable. I gathered my courage and
strengthened my resolve, remembering His words:
I am the banker you are about to meet. Im sending you, I
will greet you, and I will listen to you. If I like you, the bank will like
you, too. If you remember My presence, and My words, they will tell
you Yes.
The thin crust of daily existence split open, and all at once I
spied the source; the magic lantern that projects the shadows of our
lives, the facts and circumstances that men call reality.
I was poised on the threshold not of a bank, but the narrow
gate to the invisible that can be crossed only by a mankind freed
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from the description of the world and its hypnotisms; the Biblical eye
of the needle through which a camel can pass more easily than a man
rich in ignorance, superstition, doubt and fear. I hesitated a moment
before entering the bank, and with a resolute gesture, like one
burning his bridges behind him, reached into my breast pocket,
extracted the lottery ticket and, ripping it into tiny pieces and
throwing them to the wind, crossed the threshold to Infinity.

16 Money is not real

This time the Dreamer was extremely quick, almost brusque,
in telling me what He expected of me.
Its time to bring the School to Italy He said in a lapidary
tone There you will face the most brooding and merciless
Antagonist you could hope for. With his indispensable help, you will
have the greatest chance of confronting your limitations and
conquering yourself.
From the start, the Dreamer had informed me that the School
should be an academic space without frontiers, with branches in the
great world capitals of business, but I could never have imagined
that in addition to the Georgian manors in the heart of London, the
Schools next setting would be a castle in the middle of nowhere. The
property the Dreamer had suggested was splendid but isolated.
More than an aristocratic country residence, Villa del Ferlaro was a
royal palace. Napoleon had given it to his wife, Marie- Louise of
Austria, the heiress to empires. For years the property, the last
remnant of an industrial fortune that had been shattered in a financial
crash, had been subject to judiciary auctions attended by no one.
Despite the beauty of Villa del Ferlaro and an asking price that was
constantly being reduced, for years no one had dared to acquire it; in
part because of a local superstition about the unhappy destiny of its
successive owners, but really because of the powerful Mafia that ran
the city. As I learned later, they had been maneuvering for a long
time to ensure that the auctions remained deserted while they
worked out an agreement about how to divide this rich booty.
While I was getting ready to leave for Italy to attend the
auction, I assembled and studied every possible image of the Villa,
so that I came to know every detail of the interior with its lovely
frescoes, the great terraces, the English garden designed by Barvitius
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two centuries before, and the immense park that surrounded it.
The property fascinated me, but it was also burdening my
thoughts. If the formula of the new university, beyond the English
academic rigour and internationality, was to include an Italian culture
and sense of beauty, no one could imagine a more appropriate setting;
but at the same time, as I held it in my minds eye and explored its
every corner with my being, I found it difficult to circumscribe and
possess. The vision of its beauty was obscured by a fog of fear and
anxiety at the thought of becoming the successor to so many mens
and womens lives, and I feared it would be even more difficult to
actually conquer.
When I learned that, after the fall of Napoleon, Marie-
Louise had lived there and raised her children from her second
marriage to Colonel Neipperg, I realised even more profoundly that
winning the auction would not only mean acquiring the building and
its lands, but participating in a history of nobility and style that could
crush someone who might incautiously take on ownership without
sufficient responsibility. More than a royal residence, it was a symbol,
the very synthesis of a citys entire history. To go there from London
and conquer it was among the most arduous tasks the Dreamer could
have given me; a task that immediately struck me as impossible,
not only because of the financial scope of the operation, arduous in
itself, but because of the great and local veneration that still persisted
for every vestige of that imperial princess who had loved her subjects
and been loved by them in return. It was she who had laid the base
of the regions economic and cultural activity, attracting the greatest
scientific and artistic influences of her century.
The impossible is the possible seen from below the
Dreamer said after having heard out my objections.
Aim higher! Elevate your being! You will understand
that the Art of Dreaming, the Art of Believing and Creating, is the
capacity to transform the impossible into the possible, and at last
into the inevitable. This is the first condition to return to your lost
integrity.
The words that followed were articulated with a calculated
slowness, to get through the thick crust of ignorance and refusal that
surrounded me and impeded my understanding.
You do not need money to purchase that property. You need
commitment - an inner promise. Your commitment must be total.
Your inner responsibility and integrity determine the extent of your
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financial means and produce all the necessary resources. Money is
not real. What is real is the dedication of a man and the strength of
his convictions. Resources and money are only a natural
consequencethey align themselves and assume the proportions of
his dream.
These words of the Dreamer were revealing something
extraordinary to me. For the first time I was realising that there
had never been any social, scientific or economic conquest, nor any
human undertaking among those recognised as the very emblems of
success, that had been accomplished with money.
The Art of Dreaming, the Art of Believing and of Creating, is
a state of freedom, of certainty, the total absence of doubt the
Dreamer continued Inner commitment is investment, the only real
money. It is your commitment that makes things happen! It is your
commitment that attracts all opportunities and necessary resources.
The success of your actions in the external world is only the
reflection of your inner commitment.
Despite the clarity with which He illustrated those principles,
I was unable to grasp them.

17 Fasting on the eve of battle

At the thought of this task I felt an unbearable stomach
cramp. The lucidity, the cool certainty I that had emanating from His
words, alleviated it. After a few seconds, though, the pain returned,
even more sharply.
My mind raced back to that day with the Dreamer and His
denouncement of my attachment to that water bottle - how sick I had
been, the pain, and His instruction in the Art of Fasting as the best
way not only to heal the body, but to raise the being to a higher level.
You can fill your own body with youthfulness and health
whenever you want. Through fasting you allow the blood to do its
job of cleaning the entire body. Fasting is physiological rest and has
the power to bring out all the waste, both material and psychological
from your body. Remember! Any technique or discipline you use,
remains only a means, and not a goal. The goal is rest, and not
strength. The goal is not pain, but freedom from pain. Politics,
through endless talking, is a method of purification. Sex, movies
and T.V are methods of purification. Physical labor and all kind of
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sports are techniques of purification. Marriage is another practice
for purification, whether it is successful or not Hed said.

Every event of my life had been carefully planned to prepare
me and bring me to this point , to this measuring of my commitment. I
called to mind all my talks with the Dreamer, His teachings, His
precepts and my healing through the sharing of His enlightened
vision in every event of my life from my failed relationships to my
financial problems. The night before the auction I remained sleepless,
and remembering the precepts transmitted by Lupelius I fasted.

Fasting was used in ancient times on the eve of important
undertakings or to avoid impending disasters. Pythagoras, Socrates,
Plato, and Lupelius all fasted.
Everything you do is mechanical. If you place attention on
even one single act usually performed mechanically you will double
its benefits. Whatever is intentional, conscious or coming from your
will takes you higher than you ever thought you could go. Fasting
ogether with intentional breathing, will bring forth all psychological
trash, dissolve negative emotions and can heal the causes of disease
faster than they accumulate. Eating or fasting, walking or laughing,
intentionally done, are efficient ways to multiply the benefits of an
inner attention. Everything that happens without your conscious
intent whatsoever, should not be resisted nor denied, but accepted,
studied and mastered.

But even these rituals proved to be ineffective against the
anxiety that grew inside me together with the worry for the outcome
of that undertaking. The deposit for participation in the auction alone
had cleaned out all the credit I had. The most terrifying thought,
however, was that if I had won the auction I would have had to pay
the entire remaining sum in cash within three months.

Believing to See is the inescapable law of kings, its the
law of the Creator Having faith and believing belong to the Art of
Dreaming and are innate qualities of the Dreamer. A man takes
a step into the abyss and has to believe, without an atom of doubt,
that the ground will rise up under his feet, giving reason to that
daring move to his luminous insanity.
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Id heard these extraordinary words from the Dreamer as I
departed - yet I still had the unshakeable sensation of being a candle
burned at both ends. If Id won, Id have found myself penniless
and desperately struggling to cover the immense expenses that the
ownership of that property and the founding of the school would incur,
but if Id refused to participate I would have missed an unrepeatable
opportunity, one of the most important the Dreamer had ever created
for me. In the world of the Dreamer missing an opportunity meant
inexorably going back to the beginning and starting over. I was
encouraged remembering that in all those years with the Dreamer,
every difficulty that had seemed insurmountable as huge as a
mountain - had revealed itself just a tiny step to rise above and go
beyond.
I envied the strength of Lupelius and his warrior-monks,
the absence of fear that assured them invulnerability in the most
perilous and mortal activities. I had been studying the manuscript
by Lupelius, The School for Gods for years now, I lived like a
tightrope walker, suspended between the Dreamers audacious world
of freedom where His voice resounded with the cry of a warrior, and
on the other hand my own impotence; the prison I had been banished
to by my very own fear and doubt.

Certainty can only be found within yourself the Dreamer
told me, as if reading my wandering thoughts The sense of safety
is an inner victory which cannot come from anything or anybody out
there, but only from yourself.

His words inspired me. Listening to them, I felt elevated
above the plane of ordinariness, beyond my narrow limits of
possibility. Then, but only for a moment, I felt the freedom of flight
and saw a glimmer of light at the end of my tunnel of negative
thoughts and despair.
But all the determination and courage I had managed to
muster vanished when I caught sight of the courtroom full of people
and, above all, when I discovered that there was to be a healthy
participation in the auction itself when Id expected to be alone.
A sense of desperation tightened my throat as the judge called the
register, announcing one by one the names of the other competitors,
and I felt that all too familiar sense of defeat invade my being like
poison paralysing every fibre, afflicting every atom and robbing
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my last bit of energy.
In spite of its being reserved information, the city hadnt
wasted any time in spreading the word that a stranger from London
had registered for the auction.
For the first time in years the courtroom bulged with
spectators jockeying for position to see the auctions eleven
contestants, who were, for the most part, mere fronts for the areas
well-known figures and organisations the industrial union, the
State University, two major banks and all the highest powers were
present, each of them rearing its head as if part of a single beast -
the citys own Hydra ferociously guarding its status quo and very
breath. A monstrous creature, ten-headed to be precise, with which I
would soon have to reckon.
I tried to calculate mentally my chances of winning. I
weakened, imagining that they would have limitless financial means
compared to mine, and that the price would be driven up considerably
as each of them volleyed for the advantageI would be forced to
withdraw. My fear was making me a dwarf as the external world
grew increasingly large and menacing.

18 The Auction

I launched the decisive offer. The amount echoed in that
hall overflowing with people and the audacity of that new attempt
sent a murmur through the crowd, inciting comments to a feverish
pitch. The din subsided like a receding wave and for a long moment
time suspended.
In that atom of universe beyond time, the judges ritual
gestures went on slowly, solemnly. I watched him extinguish the
first candle, then the second. Before his gavel struck, signaling
the transfer of the historic property and the end of the auction, that
instant fell, like a drop of infinity. All of my life appeared to me. I
saw the intoxication of my self-destructivity, the unconscious
sabotage behind every abasement, each fall, and all the impossible
victories that constellated the tempestuous voyage to the discovery
of an opening through which I could escape, showing all men
that its possible to change our destiny. We need not accept being
condemned to grow old, sicken, and die. I felt infinite gratitude to
the Dreamer, for having led me by the hand into the world of courage
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and impeccability, where time and death do not exist, where wealth
knows neither thief nor decay.
In the silence that followed my bid, when it began to seem
that every other contender had yielded, I felt a rush of exultation at
the prospect of victory. Those few atoms of vanity and egocentricity
were enough to permit doubt and fear to enter and take over my
thoughts. An eclipse of Being dimmed all my certainties, cancelling
the sense of omnipotence that had sustained me until that moment.
In the darkness of that instant, while the world dimmed and its
colours became livid, what I had done, acting with determination
and courage, now seemed merely reckless and irresponsible. In my
imagination, now rushing out of control, the price I had offered grew
to enormous size, something colossal, unthinkable. And now that I
was a breath away from winning and owning this property that had
been so bitterly contested, I could feel my knees giving way. I had
to fight down a wave of nausea. I even cursed my meeting with the
Dreamer and the decision to get involved in this rash enterprise.
Something sticky coated my mouth, and I felt the
unmistakable pain that had always governed my life. The fear of
losing was transformed into the fear of winning, still smeared with
that same cloying sweetness, the same affliction. I felt my world
threatened by panic, terror, desolation; my limbs blood sucked by a
fatal illness. I would have liked to abandon my body, leave it there
like a shed skin, and go away.

You may think that fear is a natural reaction to something
that threatens you from the outside, the Dreamer had told me in
other circumstances. In reality, it is your fear that is the source and
the very cause of what you are afraid of.

I blamed the Dreamer for having given me yet another
insurmountable task, another ocean to cross, another peak to scale.
Why had I come here? Why had I ostentated a confidence that I
didnt possess?
The Dream that had led me to this place was dissolving. I saw
that infinite instant expire, its eternity slip from my fingertips, to
dissolve, a droplet in times River Styx. I sank back into the next act
in the courtrooms proceedings, a shade among the shadows
crowding the room, and unknowing actor in my own drama.
I turned my head to glance furtively at the door. I felt a
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flicker of relief, it was still ajar. I saw my face, pilloried and
distorted with fear, projected against an immense crystal pyramid
for just an instant, before it exploded with the roar of a stormy sea.
The air was still raining shards of crystal when I heard the
Dreamers voice over the crash of that blow, closer to me than my
own breath.

Here there is no time, no death, He said. In my world
there is no space to turn back, to accuse or regret. Here, close to
the Dreamer, there is no space to indulge in any weakness, doubt,
or fear.

These words of His were still vibrating when I heard the
voice of one of the last remaining bidders, loud and confident, making
an offer much higher than my own. I felt a growing desperation:
victory was vanishing from right before my eyes. The sense of defeat
that I always carried within me was materializing again. Another
fraction of a second, and I would have lost the bidding definitively.
It took an infinity for the judge to raise his gavel. I saw it
lifted, ready to come down. It wasnt the auction that was ending,
but an implacable judgement that would condemn me to perpetual
slavery.
A sudden inexplicable pain clutched on the left side of my
neck with steel talons. I had never felt anything so atrocious that
it forced me to I turn my head upwards gasping for the air. The
Dreamer had just barely touched me.

You are here for one reason only: to win death. Nothing else
matters! I am the lethal threat to everything in you thats decided to
die, and all in you that lives on death!

The air grew darker. On the faces of the other bidders I could
see sneers of ferocity and derision; they were the first wave of an
enemy falange ready to crush me. The walls of the chamber fell
away, and I was in an open field, surrounded by the crash of
arms and the trumpet calls to battle, while the earth trembled under
the potent tread of armies and the hooves of a thousand maddened
steeds.
Amid the horror of that butchery, among arms and legs
hacked off and flung aside, I found myself with Lupelius warrior-
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monks. They were armed with swords, but wore no armor and
no shields, as the School demanded. They were passing invisibly
through ranks of enemy militias, protected by their incorruptible
belief in their own invulnerability. The opposing falanges were
waves of a tempestuous sea, clad in screaming colors. The air was
heavy with the stench of blood and the screams of the wounded; it
was impossible to breathe. An immense cloud of arrows, horribly
sibilant, flew upwards, darkening the sky.
In that supreme moment, the Dreamer appeared beside me.
Hold the line! He shouted over the din of battle. In His
voice I could hear the, the unmistakeable strength and certainty of
one who recognizes the roots of His own life.
Pull yourself together, or youll be eliminated! He shouted
You are a multitude Return to the totality of your Being, to integrity,
regain your oneness , only that way will you be invulnerable. Dont
waver for even a second, because the outcome of this battle, defeat
or victory, depends completely upon you.
I remembered reading about the discipline of invulnerability
in the School for Gods manuscript: Lupelians did not do battle
for supremacy, control, or power over others. Lupelius summoned
his monk-warriors to fight not for the poor, the needy, or the
oppressed, but as a litmus test to express on the battlefield their
inner achievement as real conquerors of death..
For a warrior there is nothing greater than a battle that
comes unprovoked opening the gates of heaven. the Dreamer
concluded.
Swarms of arrows were falling all around us, in murderous
waves, and I observed the miracle of our safety while soldiers and
mounted knights fell around us by the hundreds. The battle had
reached its paroxysm. At the core of the army, with a thousand
victorious banners fluttering, I was crossing the rushing waters of
the Granico, at the gates of Asia, in pursuit of the retreating enemy.
In every fiber I could feel the courage, the certitude, the sense of
victory that had pulsed in the veins of heroes since the world began,
and for a fraction of a second I knew the ineffable joy of an immortal.
That was when an arrow, swifter than the wind and razor-
sharp, struck me, slicing off my earlobe and leaving a burning pain
behind. I felt it as a memento of my vulnerability, an announcement
of death. Suddenly the wind changed. I could hear the thunderous
gallop of a warhorse, preceding the apparition of a huge rider
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emerging from the mists. His armour flashed in the firelight. He
approached me, making the horse rear up, so close that one of the
hooves brushed past my face. I shifted my weight backwards, just
in time to avoid him. I felt the inevitability of defeat and my own
resignation even before a mute howl of terror rose within me. With a
rapid movement, He pulled off his helmet and flung it away, making
it fly like a mechanical bird, and then drew his sword. The long
ashen hair was loose and waving in the wind, and now I recognized
Him. That mortal foe, It was He: the Dreamer. There was no
expression on his face, just a glint in his eyes, when He raised His
sword to strike me. I felt the blade penetrate deeply into my flesh.
The myriad fragments that had composed my life until that moment
fused together, and those scraps of myself cried out in unison before
their certain extinction. With a gasp I put my hands tightly around
my neck, in the desperate attempt to hold the sides of that mortal
wound together and stop the gush of blood. From that world pulsing
with epos and death, with heroism and tragedy, I fell back into the
unreality of the courtroom.
Everyone was watching me, waiting for my next move.
I felt the slumbering coverlet of the world lifted off me, like a
curtain rising on the play externally symbolized by the auction,
although in reality this drama was entirely internal. Now I knew
what the real wager was. I was barely in time to make a final offer,
an unbeatable one, which left my last rival behind me, along with
fear and doubt. The Villa del Ferlaro and its huge surrounding park
had a new owner now: The European School of Economics.
It was the end of the long years of oblivion in which that
regal residence had been left, and the beginning of its new destiny.
A long applause erupted welcoming the assignment of that bitterly
contested property.
Generations of philosophers, ascetics, esoteric schools,
monasteries and ashrams have performed their work for centuries to
bring their Dream here, to bring the School back to Italy.
It was the only thing that counted now. I saw the journalists
fend their way through the folly to be the first to break the news to
the city; it would be the opening of all the newscasts and appear
on the front pages of all the local newspapers that had followed the
changing fortune of that property.
While the pendulum swung towards its highest point it
was already gathering opposing strength, and the Antagonist began
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his apparent counteraction. His action would have been pitiless and
invaluable, just as the Dreamer had foreseen.

Everything happens for your final victory He said to
me when in the following months I reported to Him stories of the
powerful antagonists I was faced with, and the ever-increasing
obstacles that seemed to be placed in the path of the Schools growth.
There is no antagonist enemy or demon outside of
yourself, but neither is there inside. Hed said. He told me when in
the months succeeding the auction I told Him about the powerful
opponents I was confronting, the fight against the nine-headed
Hydra, and the obstacles proliferating along my path, planted there
as shields and barricades against the success of the School in Italy.
Even those who appear to be against you play a purposeful
role in the realization of the Dream and a very meaning ful opportunity
for your growth and understanding. There is no antagonist, enemy,
or demon outside of yourself. Dig out the enemy in the most hidden
recesses of your Being, and conquer him. There are no thousands of
enemies, there is only one, and there is also only one victory: that
over death.
Some time later, the Dreamer, referring to the other bidders at
the auction, remarked:
Those men came, or they were sent, to buy only whats
visible. They were hypnotized by money, by the value of the property,
the greed of possessing it. Desire is time, and all that belongs to time
is false. Nothing can be possessed in time, nor is there any solution
or remedy. You can only understand this when the Now, the true
time, will rule in you.

You, when you replace the Dream with greed and
desire He said, forcing me to relive that moment of eclipse of the
Being that had diminished me and stripped me of all strength at the
most crucial moment of competing for the Villa you become one of
them, and will have to suffer the same destiny as all those who tried
to possess it without having its responsibility. A financial crack is
always preceeded by a fault in Being . A man can only possess what
he is responsible for.
This aphorism on which He suspended His discourse made
me think of R. Salvi the last owner of Villa del Ferlaro and
it seemed the perfect epitaph to mark the ending of every industrial
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empire.
Connect yourself to the Dream He went on The
Dream is the absence of time, its the absence of deathYou arent
here to satisfy some desire of yours, or your possessiveness, or to
acquire a new seat for the School. You are here to overcome the most
dreadful of all mans superstitions, his most deeply rooted lie.
He was giving leave, and in preparation attempted to
summarize the main principles and all He had endeavored to convey
to me in that long apprenticeship. A wave of pain swelled in the
region of my heart. I carefully transcribed His message so that I
could transmit to all those who seek and are ready to listen to the
breath of the infinity, of immortality.

When He spoke again His tone was grave, His voice vibrant.

You are here to derail your inflexible fate, to change the
impossible: the unchangeable you! Here is the occasion for you to
conquer time and affirm your victory over the interior deaths that
are prelude to and the sole cause of physical death. You are here for
the sole purpose of opening a gateway to deathless life, to infinity.
When you stop dying within, there will no longer be a time
outside of yourself a time that imposes a cadence on your life,
makes you grow old, get sick, and die. When you stop dying within,
real life will overwhelm you and occupy all the atoms of your Being.
There are not thousands of problems to solve, but only
yourself! The true victory, the solution, is one: return to yourself!
Return to being integral, complete, unique A warrior cant permit
himself to lose even a single atom of his integrity he can only be
complete! Love yourself within with all your strength, and everything
in the world will be perfect.
Everything, I say: everything, including the past, will take on
your appearance and will be created in your image.

He stopped and gazed hard at me, as if watching for a signal to
go on before conveying such a potent message. He was about to
reveal the final stage of my preparation, and the infinite efforts that
would be required to live near Him and the essence of His vision.
Be very careful! You asked to be closer to the Dreamer, and
this no longer allows you to do what you used to do, not even to
think or feel what you used to think and feel. Living close to the
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Dreamer is for only the few and it is very risky. Living closer to the
Dreamer is the most difficult task you could ever undertake. Here, if
you forget yourself, you will be instantly catapulted into your infernal
past, and be lost. Here, close to the Dreamer, there is no space for
you to indulge in any weakness, regret, doubt or fear. Here, you have
to be strong. Here, close to the Dreamer, you can only be pure and
whole.
I must have looked alarmed . His voice became fatherly and
encouraging before fading away all together.

The Dreamer in you is talking to you all the time. Be aware
of it! Remember His voice and instructions. Be attentive to His
lessons, faithful to His principles, obedient to His commands. Make
your Life an expression of His intelligence and love.

I promised myself that I would never again forget.

Dream, dream, dreamnever stop dreaming.
Reality will follow.

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