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Sreeparvathiyude Paadam {io]mXnbpsS ]mZw (collection of short stories in Malayalam) Author: E. Harikumar
Electronic version published in 2013 This book is meant for distribution among research organisations absolutely free of cost. Copyright C 2013 by E. Harikumar Copyright of the sketches, monograms, logo and other materials used in this story to create pages as they appeared in the periodicals, belongs to the respective publishers of periodicals and/or artists. Address: E. Harikumar 5B, Avenue Crest Apartments Avenue Road, Mundupalam Kuriachira P.O. Thrissur 680 006 Phone: (0487) 2251779 cover design based on sketch by artist namboodiri E-Mail: [email protected] for the story sreeparvathiyude paadam Web: www.e-harikumar.com published in kalakaumudi weekly
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C. lcnIpam 1943 Pqsse 13 \v s]mm-\n-bn P\-\w. A alm-Ihn CS-tcn tKmhn- \mb. A CSn Pm\In A. I--bn hv _n.-F. ]mm-bn. 1972 efn-Xsb hnhmlw sNbvXp. aI AP-bv hnhm-ln-X\ - mWv. `mcy: ip`. I-, Znn, t_mws_ Fo \K-c - f - n tPmen-sb-Sp-p. 1983- tIc-f - n-tebvv Xncn-p-h - p. 1962 sXmv sNdp-IY - I - s - f-gp-Xn-p-S - n. BZys IYm-ka - m-lmcw "Iqd-I' 72 {]kn-s - -Sp-n. 15 IYm-k-am-lm-c-fpw 9 t\mh-ep-Ifpw Hcp A\p-`-h-p-dn-p-w {]kn--s-Sp-n-bn-pv. ]pc-kvIm-c-: 1988 se tIcf kmlnXy Am-Zan ]pc-kvImcw "Znt\m-k-dns Ipn' F IYm-kam-lm-c-n-\v. 1997 se ]--cm-P ]pc-kvImcw "]--ns\ ]nSn-m' F IY-bvv. 1998 se \me-m-S ]pc-kvImcw "kqn-p-h abnoen' F IYm-ka - m-lm-c - n\v. 2006 se IYm-]oTw ]pc-kvImcw "A\n-X-bpsS hoSv' F IYm-k-am-lm-c-n-\v. 2012 se Ghpw anI IY-bvp tIcf tv Ne-n{X Am-Zan AhmUv "{io]m-Xn-bpsS ]mZw' F IY-bvv. BUntbm Imkv dnmUn-Mv, sh_v Unssk-\n-Mv, anaoUnb s{]mU-, ]pkvXI {]kn-o-I-cWw Fn-h-bn-tes-n-p-v. 1998 apX 2004 hsc tIcf kmlnXy Am-Zan Aw-K-am-bncp-p. IrXn-I: sNdp-I-Ym-k-am-lm-c-: Iqd-I, hrj-`-ns Iv, Ippaw hnX-dnb hgn-I, Znt\m-k-dns Ipn, Im\U- b n \nsmcp cmP- I p- a mcn, {io]m- X n- b psS ]mZw, kqn- p- h abnoen, ]--ns\ ]nSn-m, Zqsc Hcp \K-c-n, Idp X{mn, A\n-X-bpsS hoSv, Cf-sh-bnens kmz\w (I-Y-I 1966-1996), \K-c-hm-knbmb Hcp Ipn, Fs kv{XoI (kv{Xo-]-- I-Y-I), shn-n-c-bn-se-t]mse. t\mh-ep-I: Dd-p k- + im]-ine, Bk-n-bpsS An-\m-f-, Hcp IpSpw_]pcmWw, Fnss{U-hsd kvt\ln s]Ipn, Ab-\-, XSm-I-Xocv, sIm-{mn, {]W-b-n-s\mcp tkm^vvshb, Adn-bm--e-fntebvv. Hm-I, A\p-`-h-p-dn-p-I, teJ-\-: \o Fhn-sS-bm-sW-nepw. Cu Hm-I acn-m-Xn-cn--s.

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tm am[hn Xdhmnse ac Hmp. \mepsIns apIfnse P\enqSn t\mptm ag XIp s]pXpw, Imn ac fpsS NnI DebpXpw sXn XepI BSpXpw ImWmw. cm{Xn InSptm agpnI Hmn]pdv hSnpXn sbpw, Imv acnSbneqsS NodnbSnpXnsbpw iw. ]ns XhfIfpw abpw Iqambn BpXns iw. Cu isfmw IqSntv Hcp Xmftafambn amdpXv tImw. CXns\mw aosX ISens Cchpw. ChnsS FdWmIpfv AsXm pan. IS, hfsc ASpmsWnepw, AXv Ccp ian; Hcp tX am{Xw. ag Hcp tdj ISmcs apJw t]mse Kucham Xpw, Imcyam{X{]khpamWv. ac DebpXv .... actfm? FhnsS ac? chn Xncnp InSpIbmWv . Ddnbnn. Ah ]Xps tNmZnp;

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"t\mp, \nfpdntbm?' "C,' Abm s]sp sRn. "Fm thXv.' Abm Hcp abnsenbncpp. "Hpwy. Rm Cu i\nbmgvN tImSnp t]mIs?' chn Fgptv Inens Xebv XebnW shv Nmcnbncpp. "Fm ]dXv?' "Rm tImSnp t]mIs, Cu i\nbmgvN?' cm{Xn Ddm InSptm am[hn ]dbpXv km[mcW chn {inmdn. {inmXs shdpsX aqfqI am{Xw sNpw. ]t tImSnp t]mIpI FXv Ans\ aqfnftb Imcya. AhfpsS Bmhns hnfnbmWXv. AhfpsS XomS\w. km[mcW Ah Ipdv A{ibmbn Imtem, In \nv ]m{X hoWpSbp iw tImtem AbmXs ]dbmdpv. am[hn, \ns XomS\n\p kabambncnpp. C{]mhiyw AsXmpapmbn. Hcp Ipnmkpt]mepw s]mnbnn. Hcp ]t s]sv s]bvX Cu agbmbncnpw ImcWw. ]pdv Hcp an. XpSv I\ CSnbpw. ag hopw inbmbn s]pp. DjvWw iannpsImv P\eneqsS Hcp XWp Imv hoin. Ctm ]pXv NpcppIqSn InSm Fp kpJambncnpw. "\o ISpmWv sNpXv.' "Ft?' "Fs hnfnpWnbXpXs.' "tkmdn,' Ah ]dp. "InStmfp.' AhfpsS hmpIfn hyk\apmbncpp. Ahdnbmw agbpsS Cchpw Cu Impw \\ cma hnidnsImv hoincp HcbpsS Xmcmpt]mse \s Ddntep Wnpp. abnem Hcmsf hnfnpWnbXv A\oXn XsbmWv. Abm InSp. am[hnsb ssIsImp hcnv. Ihnfn Dshp. "\o s]mbvsm. Cu i\nbmgvN Xs.' "\nv _pnapmhns?' "Gbv Hcp _pnappan. cmhnse Xw Nmbbpw ]elmchpw Dmpw. ]ns tNmdpw Iqm\pw Dmnshp t]mIpw. ap Imcysfmw Rm\pw IpnIfpw IqSn t\mmw. AsXmpw Hcp hnjaamhn.' ]nspw Dhsc ag s]bvXp; ]ns {]XonXnepw t\cs FnbXnep PmfyX adpshv, Iem-Iu-apZn 25

AkvXabkqcy\v Xmtgv Hcp t\mp ImWm Ahkcw sImSppsImv ]nhmpIbpw sNbvXp. _ndn CShgnbntep Xncnbptm \\ av am[hnsb FXntcp. \mep Znhkw apv s]bvX agbpsS \\hv C\nbpw hnnn. Ah sNcnqcn In ]nSnp. \\hv ImenSnbneqsS AhfpsS DnemsI ]Sp ]nSnp. apfmSpIpdv amhv ]p hmk\. Cu hmk\ Ahv ]cnNnX ambncpp. Hcp sNdnb Ipnbmbncnptm sXmv Ccp]Xp sImn\p tijhpw Cu CShgnbpsS hmk\ amdnbnn. C\n ag ]Sp ]nSnm Cu CShgnbn No CeIfpsSbpw, Cenqfp sSbpw hmk\bpmhpw. ]SnpcbpsS AgnI Ihpshv am[hn aptp ISp. imctZn DdpXsbpmbncpp. Ah aptndn hp. "t\mp cmtam CXmcm hncnWXvv?' cmta ]pdtp hp. appw tXmfn tXmpappw thjw. "Bcv am[hntbm? Fm s]s chn \ns ]nSnv ]pdmntbm?' "am[hnsb A{X Ffpsampw chntb ]pdmn.' imctZn ]dp. aps henb Xpfkndbn ]nIw ]qp \npp. am[hn Ddp IbdmsX Xpfknd cnsI ]nIns hmk\ BkzZnpsImv app Xs \np. "Cu apn]nIw Ctmgpw ]qvWvv. As?' "Dw. C\n ag sXmSymev AXvev s\dsb ]qfmhpw.' Ah Ipnbmbncptmgpw B Xdbn ]nIapmbncpp. apns AXncn ]q s]tKmUsSnI kzbwhcn\v AWnsmcpnh cmPIpamcmsc tmse \ncp \np. ]hnganbpsS Xmsg apaSnphmcpXn\papv \ndsb ]q hoWp InSnp mIpsap tXmpp. Ctm \mep ]q am{Xtabpp. "\o Ctmv Ibdnbncnv.' imctZn ]dp. "AhfpsS Hcp \n]v Ins?' cmta ]dp. "Hcp Inev sNcppw at Inev Hcp kow. Ahfv app Xs Xmaknm t]mm. Ahfv t]mWhsc \apv apddsmcp Hme sjpmn sImSp mw.' am[hn Nncnp. "ChnsS Cu ]nIn \Spp aXn.' ASpfbpsS Hmn]pdv ]pIbpsS t\cnb ]Se. ]npmpXns hmk\ am[hn\p`hsp. DWecn bpsS s]mSn hdpXv tXtbmsSmw Bhnbn thhp hmk\. Ah aqp hnSn ]nSnp. "]nv!' am[hn ]dp. ssInep sNcpv HXppIn shv knbpambn Ah [rXnbn D dtp Ibdn XfneqsS ASpfbn tep \Sp. ]nmse Hcp henb tLm jbm{Xbpw Hw IqSn. cmta, imc tZn, sNdnb hsp tItm apI fn \np Cdnh kp{]nb, tPmen mcn ]mdppn, Idppw shfppw \nd fp, hmepbn ]nSn cp ]qI. Ah am[hnbpsS ImepIfn hv Dcpn smncpp. tLmjbm{X ASpfp apnep CS\mgnbn Dutaibv p apn Hu]NmcnIambn kam]np. Fmw hfsc kzm`mhnIamWv. hmbphn ep ]pns hmk\, sXmgpn \nv ]iphns Icn, ]ns kqcy shfnn\p {]tXyI DZnv. ]sm Xmw hbn IeymWw Ignbphsc CsXmw XsXmbncpp. Ign ]Xn\ p sImambn X\np \sh. GXm Iem-Iu-apZn 27

\pw Znhktsnepw AsXmw hosSpm, A\p`hnm Xm Fpp. Bdpamkw IqSptmtgm, Nnetm sImnsemcntem. cmta\pw imctZnbpw taibvp adphincpv Ah ]npw ISebpw XnpXv IuXpItmsS t\mnbncpp. AhfpsS CSXphis Ikmebn kp{]nbbpw Ccpp. "chn Cu s]n\v Xnms\mpw sImSvnWnymv tXmvWp.' cmta ]dp. "Ins tImew.' "C\n Ahsf Ifnnms\mpw \n,' imctZn ]dp. "Ahfv sskzcmbncpv Xntms.' "A RmdbWXnev Fm sXv. Ins AhfvsS Bn. Hcp Ipn ]npw AXns\m ISebpw AImngnp.' "Bbvtms cmta\v tNXw Csm.' am[hn apJw honp. "tamsf NqSp ]nv ASpp\np hmnbnpv', ]mdppn ]dp. "sImphcs?' am[hn Hcp \nanjw BtemNnp. ]ns ]dp. "th. ChnsS Hcp IjvWw ]nv Xntm Xs Bmcv Hmtcmv ]dbvWvv.' "Atm Rm s]mmWv.' cmta tXmpapv tXmfnp ]dp. "F\nv ]mSp ]Wnv.' "s]mbvtmfp. AXm \Xv. aphsc tZjyw ]nSnnmsX? As tamsf?' kp{]nbsb t\mnbmWh ]dXv. AhfpsS apJw IuXpIapXmbncpp. ssIapp sImv apJw Xmn Ah sNdnbsb \n\ntajbmbn t\mnbncnpIbmbncpp. A sNdnbsb IfnnpsXmpw Ahnsn. Ahv Ipdsmcp hnjaapmbn cpp. AXpsImv sNdnb As tamsf Fp tNmZntm Ah thKw Xebmn. am[hn knbn\nv Hcp ISemkps]nsbSpv AhfpsS t\sc \on. "CsXmsWp ]dbq.' "F\ndnbmw.' Ah ISemkps]n Xpdv AXn\pnse ]mhpnsb ]pdsSpp. AhfpsS apJw hnIknp. Ah ]mhsb taita InSn t\mn Dv, ISbvppv. "Ahfv Asnte \mep IpnIsfbpw shv {]mcmmcnbmbn IgnmWv. C\n Hcp Ipow IqSn Bbm Fn\ym sImp \Szmv ssZhn\p am{Xadnbmw.' cmta ]dp. kp{]nb HmSntmbn \mep ]mhpnIfpambn Xncnphp. Apt]tcbpw Ah taita \ncn bncpn. XpSp Ihnfpambn Fmw AhfpsS asftmse tXmnp. "kp{]ntb \apv amSnpcp s]dpm t]mm?' kp{]nb Xebmn. "am[ho \n\v s\bvao aXntbm? aymcn D sImphnpv.' imctZn tNmZnp. "aXn tNn. hdpm aXn.' "B Ipnv s\bvao hdpXm Ffpw Cw.' ]mdppn tamWImn Nncnp sImv ]dp. "sNtdy hcp.' kp{]nb AhfpsS ]pXnb Ipnsbbpw Hpshv hmXn Imp \np. "CXm hcpp.' kp{]nb apnepw am[hn ]nnepambn ]dneqsS \Sp. \Sptm ]pnep ]pI NmSn. "mfv Hcp ]v hons Dn hp,' kp{]nb ]dp. "vv A ]dp. ]v hmev \apv [mcmfw ]Wwmhpwv.' "AtXym?' "m. ]t \fv honev ]nSnnnv Imcyy, AXn\v tXmov hcWw.' "AtXym?' "m.' kp{]nb Xe Ipepnsmv \Sp. AhfpsS Npaen shpshnb an\p XeapSn \Sptm Ipepn. "\apsn\m tamsf [mcmfw ]Ww?' "[mcmfw ]tWm?' "m.' "\apv sImsd ]mhpnIsf hmnqsS?' ]mhw Ipn. Ahv th Ifnkmam\sfmpw cmta hmn sImSpn. AhfpsS ]mhIpnI sfmw Xm Hmtcm kabmbn hmnsmSphbmWv. F{X \mbn Ah kqnncnpp! Hmtcm Ifnmw sImSpptmgpw cmta\pw imctZnbpw ]dbpw. \o Ahsf sImnv tISphcpnsm. amSnacn\pXmsg \ndsb Nph Ipcpfmbncpp. AXp s]dpm\ncptm kp{]nb ]dp. "sNdnbt, \sfmcp Imcyw adp.' "Fm tamsf?' "Hcp ]m{Xw FSpmbncpp. C{X[nIwmhpwv Rm hnNmcnn.' Iem-Iu-apZn 28

"kmcy. \apv Hcp hmgbne Non AXnenSmw.' sXmSnbn \ndsb acfmbncpp. amhv, mhv, ]pfn, Cen, tXv .... am[hn apnsb Hmp. kp{]nbbpsS {]mbn Fpw cmhnse Ahfpw apnbpw sXmSnbn \Sm\ndpw, ac nSbneqsS, Hmtcm achpw sNSnbpw ]cntim[npw. ]dntmnepmb Hmtcm Iqpw sampw t\mpw. B ct ]dnse Hmtcm ]mgvsSnt]mepw apnv a\mTamWv. Hcn cmhnes bm{X Ignv Xncnv hopapsnbtm IXv, tImSmenbpw Cuhmfpw ]nSn cp t]cmWv. ]dn sXpInSbnep ac, NnesXmw ]mgvacfmWv. apdnnm A GmSp sNbvXhcmbncpp AXv. kwKXn Adntm apn tm`np. "Cu ]dn\nv Hcp achpw apdnn. acw \p]nSnnm am{Xw aXn. apdnpIsbmpw th.' "]s At B ascms apdnp Ifmev Csm InWXns Fcn tX Inpw.' A Ambn Asb {]oWnnm t\mn. "th, th Csm InW tXys aXn.' apnbpsS tZjyw Itm A\p Nncn hp. A Dds NncnpsImv ]dp. "icn At Hpw shpn.' ]Wnmsc hntm Ahsc Xncnp hnfnv ]IpXn Znhks Iqen sImSp m apn At\mSmhiysp. Xm acnm Zlnnm amshm pw shcpXv ]pdp \nv hndIp hm nbm aXnsbv Gnncqph s{X apn. "Fm sNdnb BtemNnWXv.' am[hn Xncnp hp. "Rm Fs apnsbn Hmzm bncpp. \o Inny. Ddv t^mtm hepXmn shnns? B apn. B apnbpsS t]cpnIfmWv \ns Abpw Rm\pw. apn sXmv Fmh pw s]atf Dmbnpp. ap nv cp s]a. Ahpw

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Hmtcm s]a AXmWv \ns Abpw Rm\pw. Rm\mbnt AXp sXnXv. cv ImS]qI. ]s F\nnw s]IpnIsfbmWv.' "sNdnbbvv Fs Cwsm?' am[hn kp{]nbsb t\mn. AhfpsS `mhn Xs Dcw B{ibnncnpsa anemWv AhfpsS \nv. IpIfn BImw. "Ctmtm?' am[hn AhfpsS Ihnfn Dshp. "\wv.' kp{]nbbpsS apJw XpSpp. amSnpcp s]dpnbtijw Ah hopw \Sp. "\o {io]mXnsS ]mZw Inpsm?' "Cym.' AsXmWv km[\sa an Ah am[hnsb t\mn. ImesapXn\p apv s]bvX Hcp agbpsS Zbmhmbv]n apfph Hcp XpsSn ]qhWnp \nppmbncpp. AXn \nv Hcp ]q ASnsbSpv Ah CSs ssIns Dw ssIn Iangvn shp, kp{]nbv ImWnp sImSpp. "CsXpamXncnbpv?' "Hcp ImepamXncnbpv.' "B CXmWv {io]mXnbpsS Imev. F\np apn ImWnpXnpXmWv, AXn\ptijw Rm HmWn\p ]qhnSptm \Sphn Hcp Xpq Cns\ Iangvn shpw. Atm HmWns Av {io]mXn \psS honhcpw.' kp{]nbbpsS IpI hnSq. "Cu HmWn\v Rm\pw As\ shbvpw.' Xncnv honsenbtm kp{]nb amSnpcpshmw Hcp sNdnb aIpSpbn Cp shp. "Cu Ipnew XncphmXncbvv A hmnXmWv.' B IpSpbn apm `mKtmfw Nph amSnhnpI Dmbncpp. Ah thsdmcp Ipnew am[hnp ImWnp sImSpp. AXn \ndsb Ipnpcpfmbncpp. Ipnefn amSnpcphpw Ipnpcphpw. InSm ISbvp ]mhI. kp{]nbbpsS temIw hfsc at\mlcambncpp. Hcp \nanjtv am[hnhtfmSv Akqb tXmn, sshIptcw ag Xnap s]bvXp. Hmn]pdv Ncv hmcnsbdnbp t]mse I\ XpnI ]Xnp. Imn acfpsS sImpI Dep, Ihpn XeI BSn. _nemn tNns CeI Hcp ]iphns Xet]mse BSn. apIfnse apdnbnse P\mebvcnsI \nev kp{]nbtbbpw sInnSnncpp sImv ag t\mn \ns am[hn kzw Ipnmetp t]mbn. hmWojns hmk\bp Xn apdnI, honbn ISsSp ImepIfp InepI, taiI. \ndsb Nn{Xfpw {]XnaIfpap ]qPmapdn, AXn\papdv av. henb acsnbn \nd Acn. AcnbpsS hmk\bvmbn Xm CSbvv AcnsnbpsS ASv s]mn Xebnv \nmdpv, kp{]nbbpsS {]mbn. Ctm Ahfpw CsXms sNppmhpsav am[hn Hmp. "Fm sNdnbtyw tamfpw ChnsS sNWXv? Rm tNmnev apgph Xncp \nsf.' imctZn tImWn Ibdnsmv ]dp. "Hqymt, Rfv ag ImWzm.' imctZn hv P\encnIn \np. Ahcpw ag BZyw ImWpt]mse ]pdtp t\mn\np. "C{]mhiyw ag t\s sXmSov tXmWvv.' AhcpsS kzcn C\n hcm t]mIp Cuw \nd Znhksfnbp ZpxkqN\bpm bncpp. Cud kyI, DWm XpWnI Xqnbn Cud \map apdnI, InSI]w. am[hn InSIkyIsfn Hmp. kw{Imn Znhkw ]mdppn ]gb apdn IcnsmSn Iqnpg tNmdpcpfbpw s]mnb Iehpw apambn hon\Ipw ]pdpw s]mnt]m, iothmXn hm, Fp ]dpsImv In Nqpw hoin HmSpp. Xm\pw imctZnbpw IpnIfmbncptm ]mdppnbpsS ]nmse HmSnbncpp. ]ns agbpsS Cuap kyIfn ]qPmapdnbn Xmen shm Zi]pjv] At\zjnp \SncpXv. am[hnbvv kw{Imn Ignp kyI Cambncpp. acfpsS CeIt]mepw CfImsX \np {]imX. agmdpsnepw ambmsX \np \mpshfnw. AIse Imhn\nq tIp DSpns iw. ChbpsSsbmw ss\aeyw AhfpsS PohnXs kzm[o\nncpp. "tNn, ]mdppn Ctmgpw s]mnsb Bmdns?' "kw{Imns? C\owv Znhkw.' ]ns Ftm BtemNnns t]mse Ah ]dp. "afpsS kvIq FmWv XpdpXv?' "Bdmn.' "CXm ChsS kv q Hmn sXmdpw. C\n Hcmgv N bn. tamsf kymbn. t]mbn hnfp Iem-Iu-apZn 31

sImfpp.' "At kabw Bbnny. atgymv CcpmbXm. Rm sNtdysS ASpv \ kpJnev Ccnym.' Ah sNdnbtbmSv IqSpX tNncpp. "sNtdysS Ipym As?' am[hn Ahsf tNp ]nSnp sImnp. "Hm tI.' ]pdv ag XIp s]pIbmWv. aqp t]cpw Hpw kwkmcnmsX ]pdtbvp t\mnbncpp. am[hn Hmp. FdWmIpfv ag F{X \nnImcamWv. Hcp ]nips Zm\w t]msebmWv. Cu kpe`X Hcnepw AhnsS ImWpIbn. "tamsf t]mbn hnfp sImfpp.' imctZn hopw ]dp. kp{]nb Fgptp tImWnbndn t]mbn. imctZn P\ens AgnIfn Xebpw tNv ]pdtp t\mn, Ipsd t\ctv cp t]cpw Hpw kwkmcnn. ]ns imctZn tNmZnp. "\osbn\m chntbt\w Iptymtfw AhnsS, Xymov Ctmp t]mXv?' Fn\mWv hXv? X\np Xs Adnbn. "\ CmXncn agbp Znhkfnev Cu P\ens ASpncpv sImmSoXv imctZnv Hmsm?' "F\ndnbmw \o Fn\m hsXv.' imctZn ]dp. "tNnv Hmtm? Fnv hnfp sImfpt kabv hy \sf At\zjnp htm \fv IpIsfms Hfnnp shXv.' imctZn ]Xnhpt]mse AsXmpw {inppmbncpn. C\n {inms Ahv AsXmpw Hmbpmhn. Ah Xstmseb, Ahv ham\Imens thhemXnbpw `mhnsbnbp BiIfpw am{Xtabpp. X\nbvmIs AXp ImWpXp ckamWpXm\pw. imctZnsb imctZnbmbn ImWm XsbmWv X\nnw. "\ns Abvv Xriqcv hosSSpWwv ]dsm ]Snmnse ]mS hnnt ]WwmoXv. Av apn {]tXyIw ]dXm Cu hoSpw ]dpw Hs `mhnmWvv.' imc-tZn XpSp. "apn Hpw FgpXn shmsX acnpt]mbn. ]ns Abpw t\s acnp. \m]nsbmw hbnem A acnXv. ]ns A\pw s]sv acnp. Rm Hbvmbn. ]mccyw t\mnbm Fs ItYw Fgm Ignmdnbny. s tamfsS nXn Fmhpw Bthm?' "tNn As\ acnms\mpw t]mWny.' am[hn ]dp. "tNn apnbpsS amXncn hbmbnt acnp.' "Zo]w ..... Zo]w.' Nphn\npw kp{]nbbpsS iw tIp. tImWnqneqsS shfnns hebw Dbphp. hnfns \mfn\p ]nn kp{]nbbpsS IuXpIam apJw. "sNdnbt, Zo]w.' Ah sNdnbsb hnfp ImWnmthn tImWn Ibdn hXmWv. shfnw XpSnp\np B Hma\ apJw Itm Xs PohnXw [\yamsbv am[hnbvp tXmn. Ah Fgptv sXmgpXp. "tamsf Rm Ip.' ]ns a\n a{npIbpw sNbvXp. ZoLmbpmbncns tamsf. "Cpw cm{Xn Idpmhnmv tXmpWp.' imctZn hnfnp ]dp. "tamsf B ]m\okpw tai hnfpw Intmfp.' Nppw Ccpp hp \ndXv am[hn AtmgmWv {inXv. ]pdv agbpsS in Ipdp. "cmta Fgm hczm?' "cmta Aense Imcyfpw \mpImcyfpw Hs t\mn hcptm FpaWymhpw.' "tNo \apv Xmgp t]mImw. AhnsS ]mdppnbpw tamfpw am{Xsbpp.' tImWnbndptm kp{]nb Dn \maw sNmpXp tIp. "\axinhmb \mcmbWmb \ax ApXmb \ax' kp{]nb \maapdnbn N{aw ]Snncpv \maw sNmpIbmWv. s\nbn sNdnb `kvapdn. apnep \nehnfv AhfpsS \ng ]ndInse Npacn hepXmnmWnp. `mhnbntebvpff Hscnt\mw t]mse. apn Hcp sNdnb ]oTn {io IrjvWs \oe\ndap hn{Kln ]pXnb ]nIame AWnbnncnpp. ]nn \ndsb `KhmmcpsSbpw `KhXnIfpsSbpw Nn{X. N\ncnbpsS hmk\. am[hn kp{]nbbpsS ASpncpp. FdWmIpfv Cu Acow Hcnepw Dmm ]n. tIm{Ion apdnI Xosc hnImc kv ] ianmhbmWv . AhnsS BobXp m\an. Hcp \maapdn Dmm\pw, Xs asf Iem-Iu-apZn 32

kybvp ]nSnncpn \maw P]nnm\pw sa\sSmXns ImcWw AXmWv. cmaXv BIpn I, Ahsc kybvv Innsbnes? am[hn Ipsdt\cw ISncpp. ]fppaWnIfpsS \mZwt]mse kv ^ pSXbp iw ImXn hebvpthmfw Ah ISpXs Ccpp. Ah Ipnmev apn Pohnncp Imetv DufnbnSpIbmbncpp. Xm\pw imctZnbpw IqSnbncpv \maw sNmnbncpXv. Nphcnse \ngepI \nehnfns \mfw CfIpXnt\msSmw \rw shbvpXv, Iqcnsbpw FbpsSbpw N\ncnbpsSbpw hmk\, ]pds Cud\mb InSkyIfpsS Akzmyw ambvp Ifncpp. cm{Xn DuWpIgntijw Ah Ddv hncpp. apnencnp taihnfv krn shn\p apdv Ccpns ImSmbncpp. Ahbn anman\ppI annadbpXv Ah {inp. Xm Ipnbmbncnptm Incp anman\ppIfpsS F{Xmas Xeapdbmbncnpw Ch? anman\pp Isf Iqnse Ccpn shw hogvm\mbn ]nSnpsImpt]mIp sImp ]nIsfnbpw Ah Hmp. AhcpsSbpw XeapdI amdn amdn hnpmIpw. Ipnmev Xm Inp Hcp anman\p ns\ Ctm Im tNmZnmambncpp. Hcp cm{Xn ]nSnv In\pn s]mnnSnp Ccpn ]cntim[n Pnmkphmb Hcp s]Ipnsb Hmbptm? Ddm t\cv cmta ]dp. "Rm Xmgv sXs Atdev InSmw.' "th.' am[hn ]dp. "cmta Inev InStmfp. Rfv aqpt]cpw IqSn Xmgv hncnv InSmw.' "th th, tNow A\nbnw IqSn sNhn ISnpXnW iw tIm Fs Hdw AhXmfn emhpw. Rm kpJmbnv Xmgv sXs Adbnev InSmw.' ag \nncpp. ag I\p s]bvsXnseh Binp. XhfIfpw aIfpw tNp kZncpw, Imv acfpsS NnIfnqSn BSnp ihpw tIv. agbpsS Bchw {inpsImv InSpdm kpJambncnpw. ISens Ccw XpSnbnn. ag inbmbn ]nSnmte B iw Ctmsp. kp{]nb Ddambn. imctZn kwkmcnpIbmWv. "\nsS Xriqcp hoSpw Ccp]v sk v ]dpwIqSn NpcpnbXv Ap ew DdpnIsbnepw hcpwm cmta ]dbWXv.' "imctZo, apn \apv {io]mXnsS ]mZw ImWnpXtXmsm?' "Dw Dw; ]ns ChnsS Cu ]dpw s\temw Hs IqSnbm cp ew Inpsap tXmvWn.' "Xpq Iagvnshv ImWnp XXv Hmsy? \fv HmWn\p ]qhnSptm \Sphnev shm dpv.' "\o FsmsbmWv ]dbWXv?' imctZn tNmZnp. "]ns s\s tImshnev tNv ]Tnnm \pw \tmWw Imimbnpv. AsXms Xdhmnev s\v hnXns ]Wmbncpp. Rm ]ns ]nev tXmtm ]Tnw \nn. IeymtWmw Dmhnymp IcpXoXm. Fnt\ym Ccp]smw hbnev AXpw Ignp.' "]Tnw \nnbXv tNnbpsS `mKyw. Rm samnIfpsS inbpw klnmWv Un{KnsbSpXv, Fnv Fp Imcymbn?' "Rm Imcyw ]dbptm s\\v IfnbmWv.' "Rm CsXms ]dsm cmta ]dmWv , Rm\nXnsempw FSs]Snymv . Rm ]ns BtcmSmWv ]tdXv.' imctZnbpsS kzcw CSdnsbv am[hnbvp tXmn. Ah AhcpsS AcsneqsS Inp. "imctZn Hcp anbmWv. F\nsn\m tNn C\nsbmcp hoSv? Xriqcnse hoSv F\nmWv. ]ns F\nv cv Bafs? IqSpX hoSpI thWsan Ahcpmntms. Cu hoSpw ]dpw s\temw Hs imctZosS XymWv. AsXmw kp{]nbbvpXmWv. kp{]nb Fs tamfv Xsy?' "tamsfn ]dtmgmWv, \msf Rm\hsf FdWmIpfv sImp t]mzmWv. kvq sXmd tWs aps chntb sImphmpw.' "Fmns AXv ASv FgpXn cPn sNbvXm Fm XctSv?' am[hn BtemNnp. icnp ]dm AXmWv Ghpw \Xv. C\n hcm t]mIp Xeapd Fn\ym hpsasmpw ]dbm h. Atm kvt\lnencnph Pohnncnss Imcysfmw XopshpIbmWv \Xv. ]s, Ans\ sNbvXm ]ns Hpw ]gb anemhns tXm. X\nbvnhnsS hv kzmX{ytmsS s]cpamdm\mhnspw, imctZnbpsSbpw apw kvt\lw \ amhpsapw D `bhpw B ]gb hon Pohnp aad Xs ImcWhmcpw apnbpw Xs Dt]nptam F kwibw. hoSns ]ucmWnIX Ah Csncpp. "imctZn Icb.' am[hn Ahsc ASpnpsImv ]dp. "Rm \msf t]mW hgnv hon t]mbn Atw At\w ImWmw At\mSv IgnbW thKnev CsXmw tNosS t]cnev Bm ]dbmw.' "\o Hpw ]dbm t]m.' Ah ]dp. "A acnt\ptijw sNdnb\m Fs Imcysfms t\mocpXv. \ntISv Fp hnNmcnpw.' Iem-Iu-apZn 33

"C tNn ]dXmbn ]dbnWny t]msc? Rm Fs Cn\v ]dmWvv ]dbmw. CsXms apss icnbmmbncpp. ]s Ans\ sNbv X m Hpw ]gb anemhnymp tXmzm. Asn, tNnsXmpw a\nemhny.' imctZn Hpw ]dn. Ipdp t\cw Ah kwkmcnmsX InSp. ]ns imctZn Ddnsbv am[hnv a\nembn. Ah Ipsd t\cw acnp t]mbhscnsbmw Hmp. kvt\lsasv Ahsf ]TnnXv Ahcmbncpp. Cpw B hoSns CS\mgnbneqsS \Sptm AhcpsS ImcpWyap t\m Xn ]XnbpXmbn Ahp tXmmdpv, {]tXyInpw apnbpsS. IpnnfnIfpsS iw tImWv am[hn DWXv. B iw P\en\p sXmp ]pdmsWp tXmn. aps amhn taembncnpw. B in Bt]apv , BImwbpv , A`n\\fpv , kvt\lapv, shdppv. Cu isfmw thXncnsSpm Ah Ipnmev {ianmdpv. ]t Hcnepw Ignn. Hcp iw asmcp ins A\p_ambn, Hcp kwKoXambn ImXn hebvpIbmWv. CSbvnSbvv ap ]e ]nIfpsSbpw i Cu kwKoXn\p ampIqn. Cu kwKoXhpw {inpsImv Ah hopw Ddntep hgpXnhoWp. ]ns Fgpttm Im IfpsS IcnemWv tIpXv. Ahkm\w Fph AhcmsWp tXmpp. FdWmIpftv t]mIpXns\n imctZn kp{]nbtbmSv ]dsp tXmpp. cmhnse am[hn Xmgndn htmtgbvpw AhfpsS Ipfn Ignncpp. Ah Nph ]qfp ]ns DSpv Cncpp. "tamsf sNdnb s]mdsSop Xcmw. NmbIpSn Ignbs.' Cen Ignptm am[hn ]dp. "Rm\nse Hcp Imcyw ]dbm hnpt]mbn.' "FmWXv?' imctZn tNmZnp. "F\nbvv cmhnse s]mSnbcnnbpw Nnbpw thWwv.' "Hm! cmhnse Ignm I Hcp km[\w.' "tNnv Hmtm \fv cmhnse \nencptmv s]mSnbcnn IpSnncpXv. mhne tImn tImcnIbmnbnv. Av Cu taisbmpwmbncpny. tNnbvv Apw C In. BZyw shw IpSnv hnpw Fnv NnIqn tNmdmn Dpw.' "Hcp Ccp]Xv tX s]mfnv sIn shnpv.' Npaccpn sh kmam\yw henb kn Npnmn imctZn ]dp. ]ns cv ISv. Ipdv apcnmb, \mev hImb, Hcp Ipn ISpam, chntb\pw Iptympw \ CmWv.' "cmhnse `mcybpw `mhpw IqSn sIv \ndbvembncpp As. Fssmv h CsXms Gn \Sm.' "Xriqcv hsc Rm\nsXms FnpXcmw.' cmta ]dp. "Hcp Ipn ]ipw s\v CcnWvv. AXpw FSpp shs.' imctZn tNmZnp. am[hn Nncnp. Xm hpt]mIptm Fgpw Cns\bmWv. F{X km[\ FSppshmepw imctZnv aXnbmhn. AXpt]mse Ah FdWmIpfp hcptmgpw Fsms km[\ GnbnmWv hcpI. A\nbnpIqSn hn[nnp km[\fmWv CsXmssbpw Ah Xm Hbv \p`hnpXv icnbspw D tXmemWv CXn\p]nn. ]mhw kv{Xo! "]iqw s\smpw th. AhnsS chntb\v Asnte {]jsdmsv . sImtmbm Hs hmcnnpw sNpw.' NmbIpSn Igntijw am[hn kp{]nbsb AWnbnsmcpn. XeapSn cp `mKmbn dn_ sImv sInsmSpp. apJp ]uUdnp. IsgpXn. Hcp Ipnsmpw sXmp sImSpp. "Fs tamfv Hcp cmPIpamcnbmbnpsm.' cmta ]dp. ]mZkcw CSmthn kp{]nbsb Hcp qfn Ccpn. am[hn \nencpv ]mZkcw Hmtcmmbn sInsmSpp. Nap shfpp XpSp ImepI. `wKnbp hncepI. {io ]mXnsS ]mZw \o Inpsm?' am[hn tNmZnp. Xpqhs?' A CXm.' ]mZkcfn Hcp tPmSn ImepI sXmpsImv am[hn ]dp. "CXmWv {io]mXnbpsS ]mZ.' Ah Ip\nv B sImp ImepIfn Npw_np. !

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lcn-Ip-am hf ]nSnbp {]mNo\amb ioepS Hcp DuphSnbmn Abm Fgptp. Xnta sh XpWn knsbSpv tXmfn Xqn. Xncnv , AXphsc Ccpncp qfn t\mn, hXpw hoWp t]mbnpsm? C\n Rm Cds. Rm Iudn\p ]nn \npIbmWv. apJw Xosc {]kambncnm hgnbn. adnv Ipdv ]cpjambnpmhm\pw aXn. Ign Hcp aWnqdne[nIambn B a\pjy Nmns t]cpw ]dv Fs apnencnpp. ]dbm\pXv tZlmkpJsfn Ipsd ]cmXnI am{Xw. Rm\nds. Abm hopw ]dp. {ioaXntbmSv ]dbq Imn hfsc \mbncpqv. Cns\ Hcp Imn Rm ASp Imesmpw IpSnnn. Imn sImphp sImSptm AbmfpsS Inepmbncp Xnfw Ctmgpapv . Imn IpSnm\p Bthitm, R Abmsf Imn sImSppI hgn BZcnphsm F ktmj amWv apJv. icnbvp ]dm Imn sImSpmsenepw Abm Hgnpt]mIpasm F {]XobnemWv eXnI Imn sImphv sImSpXv. Ah Fs AItbvp hnfnnv ]dp. kzmantbmSv t]mIm ]dbq. F{X t\cambn Abm \nfpsS kabw sa\sSppp? Fns\bmWv HcmtfmSv t]mIm ]dbpI? AbmfmIs, Fs kmao]yn AXohkp\mbn CcnbmWpXm\pw. eXnI sImphp sImSp Imn kmh[m\n BkzZnp IpSntijw ]nsbpw AcaWnqtdmfw Ccp tijamWv Abm FgptXv. Abm hopw Ccpmtem F `b m Rm izmkw ]nSnp \npIbmbncpp. Abm Nhnp]SnI Cdn, apsn Xncnp \np ]dp: Hcp ISw. Fv? Rm tNmZnp. ImnbpsS. Abm NncnpsImv ]dp. Fsnepw \n cp t]cpw Fs hontebvp hcq. Ap Rm Cu ISw homw. Hm, CsXms A{X Imcyamm\ptm Fan Rm Nncnp. Abm tdmUnsen, cp `mKtpw t\mn, Hcp \nanjw Ftmp t]mhWsap XobmhmsX \np. ]ns sdbnsh tjs `mKtp \Sp. Rm ZoLizmkw hnp. AbmfpsS ki\ ASpmbn Ipsd IqSnbnpv. Fsnepw sNbvtX ]p. BZysamw htmgpw, amknsemcnte hn cppq. ]ns amkn cp {]mhiyambn, BgvNbn Hcn Bbn. Ctm Cu BgvNbnXs cmas XhWbmWv hcpXv. Abm hcpw, Iudn\p apn C qfn Ccnpw, Ipsd kwkm cnpw. A[nIhpw ]cmXnI, AXn\nSbv v Fs Itagv k v hcpw. Rm ImkpI tInp sImSppw. Nnetm Htm ctm ImkpI hnpt]mIpw. AXn\nSbvpw B a\pjys A`n{]mb fpw \ntifpapmIpw. NneXv Rv hfsc lm\nIcambhbpw. \mcmbWkzman BZyw hXv ImkpI At\zjnpsImmbncpp. ]SnI Ibdnhv, hfsc Xmgv kzcn, AcpXmsXtm t]mse tNmZnp. ChnsS sNsbpsS Itcnbpsm? Dv. Rm ImksSpv Iudn kzmanbpsS apn shp. Abm AXv kqvaXtbmsS FSpv Xncn pw adnpw t\mn. Abm AXoh kp\mbn tXmn. C{Xbpw Imew At\zjnp \Sncp Hcp Imkvv ChnsS CXm C{Xbpw Ffpn Xs In Fntncnpp. Abm B Imkv Fs t\sc \on. CsXmv ]mSnmtam? ]v Rm sNsbpsS Itcn tInpv. kzman ]dp. Rm sUv HmWmn. sNsbpsS L\Kw`ocamb iw henb kv]odpIfnqSn hp. hc\mcZm.... kzman Hcp CcpnSn\pthn Xncnp t\mn. Inencp IpS Hcp aqebn Nmcnshp. tXmfn\nv Nn{XWnbp \c XpWnkn FSpv Xnta shp. ASpp I qfn Ibdn Ccnmbn. Sn. hn. tKm]meIrjvWs arwZKtmsSmw Abm Xebmn, ssIsImv XpSta Xmfw ]nSnp. Rm Imkv \nn. km[mcW Ans\bmWv. Hcp an\nv tInp sImSppw. AXv anhmdpw dnmUnns KpWw a\nemnm\pw, Imkv \XmsWv t_mysSpm\pamWv. kzman Xmfw ]nSnpXp \nn tNmZnp.
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B ]mv Hp apgph tImtam? Rm hopw Imkv ]mSnp, Ipdsmcp ssha\kytmsS. Abm ]mp Ignbpwhsc XebmpIbpw ssIsImv Xmfw ]nSnpIbpw sNbvXp. ]mp Igntm Rm tNmZnp. C\n thsd hXpw? Abm \nhncpp. Atm F\nbvv Imkv th tItm. Rm hmm Dtinv hX. CXnse t]mbtm Hp Ibdn, Fs In tSv dnmU C. Cu ImkpsImv Rm FpsNm\m? Rm Dn ]pIbpIbmbncpp. Fs kabw. AXv Xosc hnebnmXmsWmtWm Cbm IcpXnbXv? Fs apJs \ockw ]s Abmv a\nembnsp tXmpp. Abm hopw tNmZnp. \nfpsS ASpv Fspw, sipSnbpw Hs Cs? Dv. Imkv dmntebvp Xncnp shp sImv Rm Hpw cknm an ]dp. AXmbncpp kzmanbpambp ]cnNbns XpSw. ]noSv Hmtcm {]mhiyw Abm hmepw RfpsS a\v tISp hcpntb Xncnp t]mImdpq. Hcn Abm DtmgmWv Hcp Ia \mZkzcw At\zjnp hXv. Fs In Nn auem\bpsS \mZkzcapmbncpp. B ImksSpv Iav sImSpp. FmWv hne? Imkv Xpdv tInpsImSppXn\nS bn Rm ]dp. apXpdpnI. kzman Fgptp. ImksSpp ]pdwN t\mnsmv ]dp. Hm Nnauem\bmWsm? Imcppdnnbp sS \mZkzcw Cs? Csp Rm Xebmn. Dmbncpp. AXv Ignpt]mbn. ImcppdnnsS \mZkzcw tIWw. kzman IatdmSv ]dp. \mZkzcw Fp ]dm ImcppdnnXs. AXp Ign nt Dp aph. Rm hnbpIbmbncpp. CXnssbm s A\c^esasv F\ndnbmambn cpp. Itagvkns\ A\mhiyambn Adnhp hcmpXv \. CXmIs, Adnhp hcmpIb, Ahsc hgn ]ngnpIbp amWv . sjbv v Nnauem\bpw \mZkzc ItcnbpsS Imcyn Hpw ]nne. ]ns, h Iav Nn auem\bmbm epw, Imcppdnnbmbmepw, tkXpcma\mbm epw, Hp Xs. HmeonbpsS iw \mZ kzcamsWp ]dp sImSpmepw Abm hmnsmpt]mIpw. A{Xtbbpp. kzman ]dbpIbmbncpp. Rms\mcn Imcppdnn AcpWmNens Itcnv t]mbnpv. B IeymWncmKw Be]npXv tIm \ Ccpp t]mIpw. Ia Fs t\sc Xncnp. Imtmcv ]dbW Bfv s S Itcnbp tm? C. Rm ]dp. ]s Nn auem\ bpsS Itcnbpw \XmWsm. Abm Fs Hpt\mn. Xosc hnizm kanmsX. Rm Abmsf ]nbvm {ian pIbmbncps an. ]ns Hpw ]dbm sX s]sv CdntmhpIbpw sNbvXp. kzman Hpw kw`hnnnm an Xncnv 10 Pb-tI-cfw

qfn t]mbncpp. Atmgpw ]dbpIbmbncpp. AXnat\mlcw. tInptm ImcppdnnbpsS Itcn? Imcppdnn! ambmWv. Rm s]mnsdnp. \nfpsS hw ImcWw F\nbvv Hcp Ia \sp. Abm kvX\mbn Fs t\mn. FhnsSbmWv ]ngsXbmp a\nembn. \n CSs]ncpnsn Abm B Imkv hmntbs\. kzmanbvv kwKXn Hcp hn[w ]nSn Innsbp tXmpp. Abm amp tNmZnp an ]dp. Rm CsXmpw BtemNnn. Cu ImkpIfns, dmpIfntebvp Nqnmn Rm ]dp. AsXmw hnevm thn sh XmWv . h Iav Imcppdnn Xs thWsav \n_sampan. \nfmWv Abmv BibpgapmnbXv. Ctm Rm Abmsf hnm {ianp F hnNmctmsSbmWv Abm t]mbXv. kzman \n\mbn Aev]kabw Ccpp. ]ns t]mIm thn Fgptp. anWw. Rm A{Xsbmpw BtemNnn. kzman t]mbtm AbmtfmSv IbXn F\nbvv hnjaw tXmn. Rm\pw Abmfpw Xnep ImgvNmSns hyXymkamWv CXns\ms ImcWw. Hcp kwKoXt{]anbmb \mcmbWkzmansb kw_n nStmfw kwKoXw BkzmZ\n\pXmWv, hnev]\bvpX. Hcp Ia Imkp hmptm Abmv Ghpw anI kwKoXw InWsat kzmanpp. AsXhnsS \nv Inpp FXv A{X {]ka. adnv F\nmsWn ImipsImSpp hmn tmv sNbvX ImkpI hnpt]mWsav am{Xtabpp. CXn BtcmKy]camb ImgvNmSv kzmanbptSXp XsbmWv. ]s AsX\nv sshjay apmn. \mcmbWkzman hopw hcnsmWv Rm IcpXnbXv. ]s Fs ip`{]XoIsf Xnsdnnp sImv Abm hopw hp, IpSbpw knbpw Xnta shv apnt ssIqn-smv qfn-t Ccpp. h. F\nbvp hmXmbncnpp. Rm Hpw ]dn. knIfnsems thZ\. s\n\Ipw thZ\. Hcp tUmsd ImWWw. Rm hfsc kqnt kwkmcnppq. kzmanbpambp ]cnNbn \nv Hcp Imcyw ]Tnp. GXp \nanjhpw A]ISw NmSn hotWmw. Rm kzbw {]Xntcm[nembncpp. \nfpsS tdmUntebvv ISpnSv Hcp tUmdpsm. Hcp Fw. Un. FmWv t]cv? tUm cma N{? AsX. Fns\bpv B tUm? XctSn. Atls Imtem FmtemNnbmWv. Rm Hpw ]dn. Abm s\n ssIan. thZ\ IqSnbnpsp tXmpp. cmhnse hon\np ]pdsSptm C{X thZ\bpmbncpn. \nv hnjaansn Hv Fs Hw hcmtam? F\np t]mIm Xmev]cyapmbncpn. Rm ]dp. IS XpdncnpIbt. F\nbvv hcm ]psap tXmpn. \n Hbvp t]mbm Xs aXn bsm. \n hm \mbncpp. {ioaXntbmSv ]dm Ah Ipdp t\cw tjmv t\mns? hoSv tjmns sXmp ]nnemWv. s_ns kznanbm aXn, eXnI hcpw. kzmanbpsS apJs At]m`mhw XnIfbm ]mSnm hn[w Zb\obambncpp. ]ns F\nbvv \sSms\mp ansm. Rm eXnIsb hnfnp. tUmdpsS hontep \Sptm Abm ]dp. \n hfsc \ IqcmWv. Ap Rm \nsf hmsX _pnapnp. \nfpsS Hcp Iasd Bn tbmSnp. Fnpw \n FtmSv Zbm]qw s]cpamdpp. AXnsencnpp. Rm ]dp. Hcp Ia; AXpam{Xw t]mcsm. a\pjy\pw a\pjy\pw Xn.... cp ImgvNmSpIfmsWp am{Xw.... tUmsd Iv ]pdndnbtm Rm ]dp. icn ]ns ImWmw. Abm \np. Fs IpIfntebvv t\mnsmv ]dp. Hcp ISwIqSnbmbn. CsXmw Fs\ homsadnbpn. Pb-tI-cfw 11

Rm AbmfpsS Hw tUmdpsS ASpv t]mbXmWv Hcp ISmSmbn FSpncnpXv. km[p a\pjy. HcmgvNptijw Abm hopw hp. qfnt Ibdnbncptijw ]dp. Ctm \ t`Zapv. s\pthZ\ Xosc Cmv ]dbmw. knIfnse thZ\bvpw Ipdhpv. apgph hnn n, s\pthZ\ hcptm \mhnSnbn shm Hcp KpfnI Xnpv. Abm PpbpsS t]mn\nv s]mSnsUnt]msebp Hcp sNdnb Ipn ImWn-p-X-p. CXv Ftmgpw Hw sImp\SpIbmWv. Abmv F{X hbmbnpmIpw? Adp]v Fgp]Xv? ]cnNbsnv aqpamkamsbnepw F\nv Abmsfn Hpw AdnbnsXv Fs ApXsSpn. Hcp hn[n IcpXnqn tNmZnm XncpXmWv. Fsnepw tNmZnm ]ns AXnt Ibdn kwkmcnm XpSpw. IqSpXt\cw ISbn CcnpIbpw sNpw. AXv `bv Hpw tNmZnmdn. Abm hm Fs apJw I\pp. Fs adp]SnI ]cpjamIpp. ]s AsXmpw Abmfn Gipn. {]XnIqe Imemhbn Pohnm ]Tn Hcp ]nbmbncpp Abm. Imv iamIptm NndIpI HXpn Xpe\w sNbvXv Nnbn \nv hogmsX t\mpp. Fs iw hmsX ]cpjamIptm B a\pjy kvXpXnKoX ]mSpp. Imkp ISsb ]pIgvpp. imkv{XobkwKoXn \nfpsSb{X ImkpI Hcp ISbnepw Inn. kzImcyw ]dbp t]mse aptmv Bncpv Abm ]dbpp, Bcpw Ctm imkv { Xob kwKoXsampw shpn. sNehmhn. Ctm Fmhpw thXv Cwojv ssS]v ]mpIfs. Ign aqpamkambn \nccw ImWp Cu a\pjys\n Hpw Adnbnsv Hm htm Rm tNmZnpp. \nv `mcypw afpw....? Dv...... Abm \nn. ]ns FhnsS \nsmstbm ]cXn FSpp an XpSp. hon Hcp {Kmat^mWpv, CXm C{X An sbvpIfpv, AXn sipSnbpv, Fspv, kpcmw_mfpv, Un.sI.]nbpv. ]ns Ipsd lnn ]mpIfpw. dm^nbpsS blmw _Zem F ]mns, AsXmsbpv. ]t Hs afv tISphcpnbncnpp, "C{X An sbvpI Dv' Fv Hcm ]dbptm Ctm Rm Aw hnSmdn. an\nn 78 Xncnn Xncnbp Inbp ]gb knwKvkv BWv Ah DtinpXv Hcp sdtmUn cp ]mpIfpmhpw. Ah anhmdpw \ndsb hcIfpw IppIfpw hoWv D]tbmKiq\yambncnpIbpw sNpw. t]mcmXn\v B UnkvpI ]pXnb Hcp dnmUv sbdnepw D]tbmKnm\pw ]n. Rm XebmpI am{Xw sNbvXp. Ans\ Xebmnsmncns Ftm Hcp ]ntISv F\n\p `hsp, hbs a? {Kmat^mWpw sdtmUpIfpw tISp hcppI? GXp Imes ImcyamWv ]dbpXv? C\n t]cpnIfpsS Imcyambncnptam DtinpXv? A a Fp XsbmWv ]dXv. a Fp sNpq? asfm?.....Ah acnp. Ancn. Abvncn! cp afpw! Rm kvX\mbn \np. Ah Fmw tISphcpn. Abm Xebmnsmv ]dp. Ipsd sbvpI. kwKoXns \ Hcp tiJcw Dmbncpp. Fmw \innp. Fmw. Abm IcbpIbmbncpp. PpbpsS CSs t]mn \nv Hcp \ndw anb XqhmesbSpv Abm Ismn. icn, Rm Cds. Abm ]ns Ipsdmetp hn. cp amkw Asn aqv. Hmbn. BZysamw Rm Abmsf {]Xonncpp. AbmfpsS AkpJIcamb kmnyw Hcp Ibv]p abp acppt]mse Fs ASnabmpIbmbncptm? ImWmXmbtmgmWv Abmsfn IqSpX BtemNnXv. apnbmdp sImw apmWv AbmfpsS a acnXv. Fns\sbdnbn. Rm tNmZnn. tNmZnms Dcw Inpambncptm? B a\pjy Ctmgpw PohnpXv apnbmdp sImp appmbncp PohnXhknemWv. afpw kwKoXhpw 78 B]nsbw sdtmUpIfpw, \mb tImfmnbn t\mnbncnp Nn{Xap {Kmat^mWpw Ctmgpw Poh\phbmWv. Ans\bncns \mcmbWkzmansb Rm Hcp t\mp Ip. Rm [rXnbn ss_n t]mIpI bmbncpp. Fs \ncv sabn tdmUn tNcpnSv ^pSv]mn Abm \npp. tUmdpsS sKbvn\p apn . Fs Itm Abm Ipbn ImWnp. \nm thn. CSXp ssI Abm s\n AannSnncpp. Hcp ]s thZ\bpmhpw. Ctm AhnsS \nm IpgamWv. ]pds Imcyw \SpIbn. am{Xa, AbmfpsS ]cmXnmpI tIv a\nSnbpIbpw sNpw. Rm Abmsf Insp \Snv ss_n ]dp. F\nbvv Ipt_m[sampw tXmnbnsXv Fss ApXsSpn. ]ns Hcp amktmfw 12 Pb-tI-cfw

kzmansb ImWpIbpmbn. ]ns bmZrnIambn..... Bip]{XnbpsS aqmw\nebnemWv Fs Hcp kvt\lnX Hmtdj Ignv InSpXv. Abmsf Hp ImWWw. \nmc Hmtdj\mWv. aqn hf Zi FSppampI. AbmmsWn Hcp ssk\yw apgph ImhepapmIpw. ]t t]mbn Insn ]cn`hamIpw. Rm hcmbneqsS dqw \ 310 At\zjnp \Sp. AtmgmWXpmbXv. P\d hmUns Xpdn hmXnepIfnsemn\p apn \mcmbWkzman. F\nbv v Hgnpamdphm IqSn kabw Innbn. Abm Fs Ip Ignncpp. Abm hmXnent ]nSnp \npIbmWv. hfsc Ahi\mbncnpp. Hw hbmb Hcp kv{Xo, kzmanbpsS `mcybmbncnWw, AbmfpsS ssI ]nSnppv. Fs Itm B Npfn apJw hnIknp. IpIfn Xnfw. Xncnp hp. Abm hmUns adphiv P\mebvcnIn C In Nqnmn. hcq. Abm Intencpp. Rm qfnepw. CXm ImkpISsbn Rm ]dbmdns, CtlamWXv. cpt]cpw hfsc \ IqcmWv. Rm t]mbm Imn IpSnmsX hnSn. ]ns Fs t\sc t\mn Abm tNmZnp. Fns\ a\nemn Rm ChnsSbpsv? Rm kzmanbpsS `mcybpsS \n \nd t\ms t\cnSm IgnbmsX hnjanpIbmbncpp. Fp ]n? Rm At\zjnp. Hcp sNdnb lmmv, Hcp amkmbn. Rm \nsf ImWm hcnIbmbncpp. hgnp shv s\p thZ\ XpSn. AhnsS Fptmtgp Ieiembn. \psS B tUmdns, tUm cmaN{. Atl s ImWm {ianp. aqcv Bkv]{Xn bnembncpp. Atm \nfow Iqo Bip]{Xnbntev t]mImw Fv hnNmcnptmgmWv \n ss_n t]mWXv IXv. Rm ssI Imn. \nfv In, Asm Hcp Hmtmhn ChnsS hp. kzman s\n ssIan \nncpXv Hmbpv. AXv Cs\ Hcp knKvmhbnembncpsv Adnncpsn...... Adnncppshn Xm ss_v \npambncppthm, Adnbn. ChnsS hXn\ptijw Ipdp tImwntjs\msbpmbn. \yqtamWnb ]nSnp. Ctm Fmw t`Zamsbp ]dbmw. HcmgvNpn UnkvNmv sNpw. Inens Xebv \np kv{Xosb AtmgmWv Rm Imcyambn {inXv. kzev]w XSn {]IrXw. tNebmWv thjw. Ah Fs t\mn Nncnp. Ftmgpw \nsS Imcyw Xs ]dbpw. Rm tNmZnmdpv Cns\ Ftmgpw AhcpsS ISbnev t]mbn cpmev Ahv hnjaamhnsy Fv. Rsm hnjaw? kwKoXn\v A{X Imbncpp. Hcp Znhkw \nsS ISbn\nv h DSs\ hon Hcp ]gb {Kma t^mWpv. AXv Xn]pdp \nsSpv sXmSv hrnbmn. C\n Ah ]dbWsan. F\nsmw a\nemhpp. hb Xn ]pdp \nv {Kmat^m FSpv XmsgsImp hcpp. Hcp \\ ioesbSpv XpSbvpp. {Kmat^mWns Idp sdIvkn Ih sXfnp hcpp. Ipdp t\ctp am{Xw ]ns Imn Cuw t]mIptm \c\ndw hopw hcpp. tImdepI sXfnp hcpp. kzw Bmhn\p kw`hnXp t]mse. aqSnbpsS hnPmKncnI Xpcpp ]nSnv Xpdm hnjaamhpp. AsXmw Xpcpp ]nSnv \mimbncnpp. ]papXpsImmbns. B kv { Xo ]dbpIbmWv . kv{]nwsKms s]mn.... At ]dbmXncnq. ]dbmsX Xs F\nbvp a\nemhppv. hb hnep m Xncnp t\mpp. ]ns sshUv sNm\p enh FSpv ]pds Zzmcn XncpIpp. ssh v sNpp. apdpIpn. AIp \np Xpcpp]nSnp s]mnb kv{]nwKns iw am{Xw. Abm kvX\mbn Ccnpp. Xpcpp]nSn kqNnI Hcp mnIv Unbn I ]nSnp InSpp. {Kmat^mWns hmk\am{Xw amdnbnn. tXnsbpw sdIvknsbpw FbpsSbpw IqSnIe hmk\, aqphnSn B hmk\ izknpsImv B a\pjy Ccnpp. hnizmkamhm t]mse. B kv{Xo kwkmcnpIbmbncpp. Rm {inpn. kzman {Kmat^m s]nbpambn Hcp ep \nv asmcp etv t]mIpXv, AsXmv dntb sNbvXpInm. Ahkm\w \ncmi\mbn.... B Aenenev hv ]oXmWv Cu AkpJw. Ah ]dp. B {Kmat^m t_mws_bn Abm Hcp ]t \mnInpw. \mcmbW kzman ]dp. \n FSpp sImq. AXp t]mse Fs Inep ]Xp sbvpIfpw F\nn\n Bhiyapmhn. Ftmsgnepw kuIcyaptm hv FSpp sImp t]mbm aXn. Rm Hpw ]dbmsX \npXp Itm Abm tNmZnp. Pb-tI-cfw 13

Fm sImp t]mhns? Rm hcmw. F\nbvp icnp ]dm B sdtmUpIsImv bmsXmcp]Imchpw Dmhn. AXpt]mse B {Kmat^m icnbmm\pw ]n. Bcpw B amXncn {Kmat^m Ctm D]tbmKnpn. ]t F\nXp sImv Bhiyaptm FX {][m\w. \n hXp \mbn, kzman ]dp. F\nn\n Atmsms FmWv hcm ]pIsbdnbn. C\n hcm ]ptam Fp IdnbWw. Fs BtcmKyw Hs \inp. FtmSv Inen hncnm Abm BwKyw ImWnp. Rm InSbn CcnmsX q Ipdp IqSn InenSptv \onbnv Ccpp. F\nv \nfpsS ImkpIS hfsc CamWv. Abm ]dp. F\nv Hcp Imev \s ]eXpw AhnsSv. kwKoXw. ]ns... hb\v XpScm Ignn. In \nv shw NmepIfmbn HgpIn. F\nhnsS Ccnm Ignn. Rm Fgptp ]dp. F\np t]mIWw. kzman ISp InSpIbmbncpp. Ip XpdmsX Xs Abm NqmWn hnc Dbn ]dp. Hcq ISw IqSn. !

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IY lcn-Ip-am F \nbvv ]{p hbp tmgmWv AXp kw`hnXv. cmhn se `Wkabw. CunSnbn IS hap Imep hen b htaibv p Nppw R CcnbvpIbmbncpp. A, A , Rm. am_n tSmp taita eoe tbvpI \ncn shncpp. \Sphnse _ufn NnWn. Ipn mpIfn IpSnphm\p shw, Nmbm{Xn Xnf shn s]mSnbnv sImpshnpv. ]m{Xhpw Nmbbpw NqSmdmXncnm AXv shfpv Inbp XpWn sImv ASpshncnbvbmWv. Bhiyaptm am{Xw A NmbIqn IpIfnempw. eoe NqtSmsS tZmibpmnsImphncpp. B Ccpv hfsc kpJIcambncpp. R aqpt] am{Xw. Hmtcmcpcpw At\ym\yw ASpSpv. \memasXmcm AhnsSbpmbncpsn, Ah Asn Ah RfpsS CSbn Hcp hnShpmntbs\. Ah HpIn Abvpw A\pw CSbn, Asn F\nbvpw Abvpw CSbntem, F\nbvpw A\pw CSbntem Ccnbvpw. ChnsS Ctm Rm am{Xw Hbvv cpt]cpsSbpw \Sphn. A ^mdnbn t]mIm\p thjnembncpp. Idp t\cnb Icbp U_v apv \o In s Av kz I^venvkv D shfp jv. Iptd \c Ibdnb XeapSn \Sphn hInncnpp. ss{Uh ic ]pdv XmsdSpv XpSnbnpmIpw. tdUntbdn shsamgnpI, Im XpSpI. Fmw IgnnpmIpw. Abm Ctm Hcp knKdpw ]pIv ... C. Abm]pIhen \nnbncpp. As Nobpw `ojWnbpw ImcWw. A ]dbpw. HpIn ic knKdphen \npI. Asn Rm kzw ss{Uhv sNpI. FmWv thsXv ic Xobmntmfp. F\nbvp h. Hcp \mdkn apnshv Cu Imdn Ccnm. ics hmbn knKdnsbpw NmbbpsSbpw IqSn Hcp sI aWw Dmbncpp. A \mep tZmi Ignm Fgptpp. Hw Rm\pw Abpw. AbpsS `Ww Ignn pmhn. Fpw Ans\bmWv. C\n A\pw Rm\pw t]mbngnmemWv A _mn `Ww IgnpI. Nmb XWpncnpw. ]t Abvv BhemXnbn. Rm Fs kvq bqWnt^man embncnpw. sh jpw {_utjmvkpw, Idp jqkv, {_u ssS, kvq _mKv XmnsbSpv Rm\pw As Hw Imdn ]nnse konencnpw. CsXmamWv km[mcW ]Xnhv. Fm Av RmbdmgvNbmbncpp. RmbdmgvN `W kabw \ofpp. A apgph `Whpw Hbncpn\v XnpXv ImWpI Ap am{XamWv. As\ Ipdv sSj CmsX ImWpXpw Ap Xs. kvq F `ojWn apnenm ImcWw Rm\pw Ap Ipdv Dmk nembncpp. Rm ]dp. A RmbdmgvNbpw ^mdnbn s]mbvtmfq. Ft? A tNmZnp. ^mdn \mhs. Rm ]dp. AXp \mbm F\nbvp Xsbs saw? Duw? As Imen\p tijw Fmw F\nbvp Xsbs InpI? \n\tm? AsX! FmWpdv? A hniZoIcnm hm Hcp apJ`mhtmsS tNmZnp. Rm Hcp Ipnbsbpp. AXp sImpXs. As tZmi Ign Ignncpp. A IqnsmSp Nmb In \nv samnpSnv A Fs kqnp t\mn. A Atm ISbnncpn. As XovWamb IpI Fs \ \mn. Rm Fsdnbm Hcp `bn\Snasv Nqfnbncpp. \o Fsms hnUvVnamWv ]dbpXv? A tNmZnp. Ah hnUvVnw ]dbpIb. A CSs]p. Ah\dnbm Xmev]cyap Imcy Ah At\zjn pIbmWv. ]ns Fs t\sc XncnpsImv A ]dp.
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Fm tItmfq. Cu hoSpw AXnse apgph km[\fpw \n\mWv. _mnbp Fs kzv, AXv GItZiw Hcp tImSnbpsS ASpv hcpw. AXns ]IpXnbpw \n\mWv. Fs apJw hnIknp. Rm `bs t]msempw hn. A\v tZjyw ]nSnp FmWv Rm IcpXnbXv. C. tZjyw ]nSnnsmpan. As Fm kzn\pw AhImin Rm Xs. ]IpXn F\ns mWv ]dXv. Atm _mn ]IpXn Abvmbncnpw. AXpw Ahkm\w F\nbvpXsbmWv InpI. _mn ]IpXn As? Rm tNmZnp. AXpw F\nbvpXs Inpw. A \ntj[mn Xebmn. A. Abv. A At\m apt acnpw. C\n AYhm acnnsn \o t\mpasm. at ]IpXn thsdmcmmWv. Rm kvX\mbn Ccpp. A Ifnbmbnpt]mepw \pW ]dbm BfmWv. ]dbpsXpw Dtinp ]dbp B. BcmWv Fs FXncmfn? Bhp{X ss[cyw kw`cnv Rm tNmZnp. BcmWv as B? Nmbv taipdpshv A Nmcnbncpp. ItkcbpsS Dbcap ]n`mKp sImp ]WnIp \Sphn ]Xn Ipjy aqSnbncp ISpw \oe shshv XpWn t\mn Rm Ccpp. As apJpt\mm ss[cyanmsX. A Fgptp. Rm hopw tNmZnp. Am, BcmWm as B? AsXmcp clkyamWv. Xncnp\SpXn\nSbn A ]dp. Rm Asb t\mn. bmsXmcp `mht`ZhpanmsX A Nmb IpSnpIbmWv. Ipdv ]Xdnbnptm Fp kwibw. NmbIpSn Ignv A Fgptp t]mbn. ]ns Rm X\nv. Hcp kakybpsS s]mcp At\zjnm Hbvv. AmWv {`mp ]nSnnp At\zjWns Bcw`w. A cmhnse apX sshIptcw hsc tPmen sNbvXpsImncpp. ASpfbn eoesb klmbnpw. Hw hoSv `wKnbmbn shpw. P\ensbpw hmXnepIfpsSbpw I ampI, InShncnI `wKnbmbn hncnnSpI, Aetmesp InSp kzoIcW apdn HcppI, ]qnse hmSnb ]q amn tXmmc sImphp sh ]pXnb ]q shpI. Hcp sNdnb Ipnbmbncnptm Rm AbpsS ]nmse \Sv tNmZnmdpv. CsXmw eoe sNns? eoebvv ASpfbnXs ]nSnXp tPmenbpv. Fm thsd Bscsbnepw shq, Cu tPmensbms sNm Rm ]dbpw. A Fs Hw hv ]mpw tImWnbpw Ifnm\mWv Rm ]nmse \SncpXv. thsd Bsf shm\p tPmensbmqan ChnsS. A ]dbpw. ]t A Ftmgpw tPmen sbSppXp ImWmw. Cv Rm hopw AbpsS ]nmse \Spp. Hcp ]pXnb Bhiyn\mbn. ]mpw tImWnbpsS Ippaw 27

Imew Ignncnpp. A ]dbpp. F\nsmpadnbn. AbpsS kzcw t_mysSppXmbncpn. F\nbvdnbmw ]t ]dbn Fp ]dbpt]mse. Rm \n_np. Dbvv A ]pdp\nv hcpXphsc Rm Asb _ppapnp. Cu hoSpw ]dpw ]ns ^mdnbpsS ]IpXnbpw Innbm Xs \n\pw apw Ignbm [mcmfamWv. A ]dp. ]ns \o Fn \mWv apImcy At\zjnpXv? F\np Icnhp. Rm Dbcn\nv hoWncnbmWv . {]mXen\papp Dbcfne Ctm Rm. AhnsS\nv hfsc amcIamb hogvNbmWv DmbncnpXv. A Fs Fgptev]np sapw Fs thZ\I AIpsapw IcpXnbXmbncpp. adnmWpm hpXv. \ns m\w AhnsS XmsgsbmsWv ]dbpwhn[ambn cpp AhcpsSbpw s]cpamw. Dbvp DuWp Ignptm Rm apJp t\mnbn. A\pw Hpw kw`hnm an Ccpp. HpIn cmhnse apX ]pdmbncp A\v Fs hnja a\nembnpmhn. Asn AXv Xosc AhKWnpIbmbncnpw. htai s]sv Hcp `ojWnbmbn amdn. AXns A\amb kmyXI Hmv Rm Akz\mbn. F\nbvpw A\pw CSbn A\pw Abvpw CSbn, ISpIqSm CSbp Fa BfpIsfn F\nbvv `bambn. Fsnepw sNbvtX ]p. taibpsS hrn Rm AZriyamb Hcp {XntImWw a\n hcp. `mh\bnsenepw AXv Bizmkw ]Ip. R aqpt] am{Xw. Hcp {XntImWXeap taita aqpt]s Ccnm ]p. F\no taibpsS BIrXn aSpp. Rm Dds ]dp. A sRnbt]mse tXmn. Fs t\sc Hcn t\mn Ah hopw DuWpIgnm XpSn. A \mIs Hcp NncntbmsS Fs t\mn. As IpIsf Rm `bsncpp. AsXs a\neqsS Npgn ndp t]mse tXmpw. ]ns Fv BIrXnbmWv thXv? {XntImWmIrXn. {XntImWmIrXn? A apJw Npfnp. ]ns s]mnncnm XpSn. NncnnSbn InXpsImv ]dp. Rm \SmsSbmWv {XntImWmIrXnbn Hcp taisbn tIpXv! A Hpw ]dbmsX, Hcp hnImchpw ImWnmsX DuWv XpScpIbmbncpp. Hcp klmbhpw Abn \np {]Xont. \ aqp t]csbpq. Atm taibvv aqphias Bhiyapp. Rm ]dp. Htm ctm Bm IqSpXepmbmtem! henb Du tai-bns AhnsS t]mhmw. Hcm IqSpXepmbm AhnsS t]mIm ]ptam? Cu taibmsWn Htm ctm B IqSpXepmbmepw Ccnmw. Rm `bp Imcy XsbmWv A ]dphcpXv. Rm \n\mbn. FpsImtm Fs FXncmfn Hcp s]Ipnbmhpsav Rm Dulnp. A\v thsdmcp `mcybpspw, B kv{Xobnepmb Ipnbmbncnpw B s]Ipnsbpw. shfpv kpcnbmb Hcp Ipn. t]mWnsSbv sIn Asbpw Fsbpw CSbn Ah Imemn Ccnpp. Fs a\v Hcp sI tImgnap t]mse bmhpXv Rm\dnp. Rm Fm s]IpnIsfbpw shdpp. s]IpnIsf t\mnbncpXv F\nbvp hn[n kzns ]IpXn A]lcnm ]ndp hoW Hcp FXncmfnbmbnmbncpp. Fs Znhk ZpcnX]qambn. kvq Ah[nZnhkfn A DuWp Ignp t]mbn A Ddm InSm Rm As apdnbn ISv hmXneSbvpw. ]ns XncnemWv. As UbdnI, Ah Hmtcm sImtbpw Anbmn shnpv. GItZiw ]Xn\tmfw. Ah Hmtcmtmtcmmbn FSpp hmbnpw. Hcp Imcyw F\np a\nembn. A hfsc \ Hcp UbdnsbgppImc\ Fv. C{Xbpw tamiambn Hcmv Ubdn FgpXm ]psav Rm BZyambn a\nempXv AtmgmWv. Rm kzambn Ubdn FgpXns Xocpam\saSpXpw. Ipsd t]cpI, kwJyI. As PohnXn Cu kwJyI am{Xta kXyambncppp Fv tXmnbncpp. asmw anYy am{Xw. BtcmsSnepw As\n At\zjnpXns\n F\nbvv BtemNnm IqSn Ignncpn. FmWv tNmZnp I. Fs A\v thsd h kv{Xo Ifpaptm Ftm? B Btem N\ Xs Fs apJw e sImv Xmgvn. Fs At\zjWw Hcp sImtmfw \ne \np. At\m Atbm B hnjbs n ]nosSmpw kwkmcnn. {ItaW Fmw adhnbntev ]nhmn. PohnXw hopw km[mcW anembn. th\, ag, ]ns XWppImew. ]q, BImins \oena. Fmw F\nbvv XncnpInn. htaibpsS AtemkcsSpp kmyXI IqSn Fs a\n \nv hnIp. CsXmw ]ns Hmnm ImcWw {ioeXbpsS tNmZyamWv . Ah tImtfPv sse{_dnbn F\nsXnsc Ccnbmbncpp. Ipdp t\cambn Ah Ans\ t\mnbncnpIbmbncppshv 28 Ippaw

tXmpp. Rm {inncpn. Rm asmcp temImbncpp. IWnIIfpsS ApX temIn. amIv k v mv , sslk _v , t{jmUnwK, Bw, AXn\pnse LSI, AhbpsS ]ckv ] c {]h\w. Kpv F Hma\tcn ednbsSp {Km v bq\nss^Uv ^oUv Xnbdn. ]pkv X Ins shtPpIfn t\mn Ip afntm Xebpbn t\m nbXv {ioeXbpsS apJv. Ah XmSnp Ipw sImSpv Fs t\mnbncnbmWv. Hcp tNmZyw. Duw? cmP Fsnepw Hcp s] Ipnsb t\mn Nncnnpsm? kwKXn XnIpw ss]nfnbmWv. Rm BtemNnp. t{jmUnwKdpsS IWnI temIw FhnsS, IpIfn kz]v \ w hncnbp Hcp tImtfPv IpamcnbpsS hiyamb tNmZysa hnsS? icnbmWv. Rm s]IpnIsf Xosc AhKWnpIbmWv ]Xnhv. AhtcmSv kwkmcnptmgpw IqSn Fs apJv ]pncn CmXncn m\mWv kmyX. ]s Cu Imcyw Fsnepw Hcp s]Ipn FtmSv t\cnp tNmZnpsasm pw IcpXnbncpn. NncnWsav FmWv \nw? Hpan. {ioeX ]dp. ]t Bscnepw cmPs\ kvt\lnppsv cmP\dnbpptm? Rm Ahsf \hw t\mn. km[mcW Hcp s]Ipn. kzev]w XSn IqSpXemWv. khmIokv thjw. Db amdn Fwt{_mbvUdn. ImXn Xqp IpI. Igpn Hcp kzame. AXv Cantj Bhmw. Fs t\mw InmhWw, Ah ]dp. Rm\ tItm, ImntUv! Rms\mcp ZuXyw sImphXmWv. BcpsS Fv Rm tNmZnn, F\nv Xmev]cyanmbncpp. s]sv Hcp ]gb DutaibpsS hrmImchpw AXns A\amb kmyXIfpw F\nsXncmbn \nXv Hmbn Fn. Rm hopw Hcp Ipnbmbn amdn. Akzamb Znhk Xncnsn. As AeamcnbpsS tXns ]g aWw hopw A\p`hsp. s]mSn ]nSn UbdnI, Aiq\yamb t]cpI, kwJyI Hcp kakybpsS s]mcptXSn FhnsSbpw Ahkm\nm Hcp bm{X. BcpsS ZuXyamsWdnbm Xmev]cyans? {ioeX tNmZnp. Rm AhfpsS t\sc t\mpIbm sWnepw asmcp kz]v\temImbncpp. Hcp ]t Ah sXncnncnWw. C. t{jmUnwKdntep Xncnp sImv Rm ]dp. {ioeX Fs ]Ipt\mpIbmbncpp. Rm B t\mw AhKWnp IWnIIfpsS temIntep henp. AhnsS ApXfmWv. {]]ns D]nbpsS clky Hmtcmtmtcmmbn A\mhcWw sNpIbmWv. i\nbmgvN Rm honsepp. AbpsS BtcmKyw tamiambn hcpIbmWv. anhmdpw kabw InSbnembncnpw. Rm sNptm am{Xw Dmlw \Snv Fgptv \Spw. AbpsS ckw hfsc Ipdhmbncpp. ]kv hfsc Ipdhpw, _elo\hpw. CSv Rm AbpsS ]kv ]nSnp t\mpw. F\np t]Sn tXmpw. AXp ImWnmsX Rm ]dbpw. A saUn temIn HcZv`pXamWv. Duw? ]knmsX Hcmv Pohnm ]psav A sXfnbnppv. A Dds Nncnpw. Xs tamiamb BtcmKysn Xami ]dbptm am{Xta A Nncnmdpp. Ippaw 29

tamiamb Xs BtcmKyw aphv Xami ]dbphm Ahkcw DmnsmSppIbmsWpw AXphgn Xm kkXbmbnpsp tXm DmbnpmhWw Abvv. {ioeXbpambn kwkmcn BgvN hon sNtm A InSn Xsbmbncpp. InSbn Ccpp sImv Rm {ioeXsbn ]dp. A ApXtmsS Fs t\mnnSp. Hcp kl]mTnsbn, AXpw Hcp s]Ipnsbn Rm BZyambmWv AtbmSv kwkmcnpXv. \osbtmSv CXphsc \ns tImtfPnse Imcy ]dnn! Fs kvt\lnp Hcp s]Ipnsb ImWmt\m BcmsWdnbmt\m Rm B{Klnn FXv Asb XnIpw ApXsSpn. \osbmcp hnNn{X PohnbmWv. A ]dp. AtmgmWv Rm kzbw Hcp A]{KY\n\v hnt[b\mbXv. FmWXn\p ImcWw? s]IpnIfn ep Xmev]cyanmbvabmtWm? A. kl]mTnI Hfnp sImphcp \Nn{X Rm\pw Bn tbmsS t\mmdpv. AXp t]mse cXnbpsS DtPnnp hnNn{X temI XpdpImWnp sImp ]pkvXI hmbnmdpapv. ]ns? htai hopw Fs a\n Xncnsn. AXn F\nbvpw A\pw CSbn Ccnbvmdp BZriy bmb s]Ipnbpw. At, Rm Hcp Imcyw tNmZnm A icnp adp]Sn Xcptam? Fm ]dbmsX? Rm kwibnp. Fns\bmWv tNmZnpI. AbpsS BtcmKynXn hfsc hjfmWv. AXn\nSbvv Rm Hcp am\knImLmXwIqSn Gev]nembncnptam? ]t F\nbvv Cu clkyns Npcpfgn tXpapv. Rm ss[cyw kw`cnp tNmZnp. At, A\v Rm\msX thsd afptm? A {]pbmhpsamWv Rm IcpXnbXv. adnv timjn tZlamkIew Ipeppamdv A s]mn ncnm XpSn. Fsms hnUvVnamWv \o ]dbpXv? Ipnmev Hcp cmhnse kw`hn Imcy Rm HmsSpn. kzns ]IpXn asmcmm sWmWv A ]dXv. A \nbmbXv Rm {inp. A shdpsX Hpw ]dbmdn. A kXnp. ]ns BmWv ]IpXn kzv sImSppXv? Adnbns An A Xebmn. shfn]mSntep hmXn HcnIqSn ASp. Rm HcnIqSn knwlmk\w \s cmPIpamc \mbn. Hcp RmbdmgvN A acnp. Rm t\mnbncns hfsc kzm`mhnIambn AbpsS izmkw \nep, thZ\bnmsX kzambn. IcpsImncp Fs ASpp tNp ]nSnv A ]dp. acnpI FXv hfsc kzm`mhnIambnp HmWv. \sfmhcpw Hcp Znhkw acnpw. CsXmw apIqn \nbnnpXmWv. AXn kSsSms\mpan. A X\npappXs acnpsav A {]hNnXv F\ntm hp. AXv Afn\nv Ah[nsbSp A]qamb Hcp kvt\l{]IS\ambncpp. AbpsS acWn\ptijw Rm amknsemcnte hon hcmdpp. Atms As\ hfsc hncfamtb ImWq. Nnetm DuWp Ignp kabv. Htm ctm tNmZy am{Xw. Fs sNdp adp]SnIfpw. ]Wamhiyaptm? C. Bhiyambm ]dbWw. Dw, F\nv ]Ww Bhiyapmbncpn. Fs kvt\lnXm ]Wmcmbncpn. AXpsImv Rm\pw Hcp km[mcWmc\mbn Ignbm B{Klnp. A Cu hbpImepw ]Ww Dmmthn HmSn \SpXv F\nv a\nembncpn. As acWw s]smbncpp. t^m Inn Rm honsenbtm As icocw ]qfm aqSn Xfn InSnbncnbmbncpp. A _snp pImcpsSbpw ]e I\nmcpsSbpw dopI icocw apSnbncpp. Rm Icn. hoSp \ndsb _pfpw As kvt\lnXcpw, ^mdn Poh\mcpw. _nkn\v CS]mSpImcpamWv. ]Xn\mdmw ZnhkamWv As ho Fs t^mWn hnfnXv. Hv Fs Hm^okn hcmtam? As Imcy Fmw Hv hniZoIcnv Gev]np Xcmw. Rm ZoLambn \nizknp. Ahkm\w ]{phjn\ptijw B clkyns ad \om\p Ippaw 31

Ahkcw hp tNncnbmWv. Fs \o At\zjWfpsS Ahkm\w. FpsImtm Rm khmIokv [cn Hcp s]Ipnsb hoens taibvp apn hn`mh\w sNbvXp. Fs t^m sNbvXXpt]mse Ahpw ho t^m sNbvXnpmhpsapw Ah Hcp ]t Ftm apt AhnsSsbn Ccnmbnpmhpsapw Rm Dulnp. Rm Ahsf Fs\ A`napJoIcnWw? kvt\ltmsS Asn AhKW\tbmsS? hoens Hm^okntep \Sptm CXmbncpp Fs BtemN\. hoens apdnbn ho am{Xta Dmbncppp. Fs apJp \ncmibpmbncppshp tXm pp. ho tNmZnp. Fp]n? Hpan. Rm ]dp. FsmsbmWv cmPphns mkv? mkv? AsX. Fs Fw.Fv.kn. Ctm Ignbpw. C\n dnkn\p t]mIWw. AXn\v FhnsSbmWv kuIcysan AhnsS t]mImw. A{XXs. _nkn\v? _nkn\tm? Rm apJw Npfnp. F\nsmcp Xmev]cyhpan. Fs temIaXv. HmtcmcpcpsS Cw. A _nkn\v sNbvXp FXpsImv No a\pjy\mbncpn. Ans\ Rm Dtinnsm. F\nnasp am{Xw. Rm ]dbpsXsm cmPphns As acW]{X{]Imcw, cmPphn\v _nkn\n Xmev]cy ansn ^mdn hnWsamWv. sdUn Bbnv Bfpv. hnebpw Xobmngnncnpp. AsXmw A icnbmn shnpv. ]{Xns hniZmwi Rm ]dbmw. ho t{Umhn\nv Hcp IhsdSpp s]mfnp. hmbnm XpSn. \n Xmaknp hoSpw ]dpw cmPphn\pXmWv. ]ns ^mdn hnmep ]Wns AXp iXam\hpw AXv GItZiw 60 ew DdpnI hcpw. CXv Fns\bmWv Cshv sNtXv Fsms Rm ]ns ]dpXcmw. IqSmsX Hcp ew cmPphns t]v _mn Cnpv. AXv cmPphns ]Tnn\p thnbmWv. cmPphn\v FhnsS thWsanepw t]mbn ]Tnw XpScmw. ]Ww Fns\ \nt]nWsaXns\n F\nbvv [mcWIfpmbncpp. Hcp dnkv sk XpSWw. Hcp Iq sSevkvtImpw av koIcWfpw D H_vkthdn. Rm Izmw temItv Dufnbnp. kabw=]qPyw F Ahbn Hcp IWnIbn Dmb s]mnsdnbn \nphn {]]w. s]mnsdnbpsS BZys skns\ henp\opp. skns ensemcwiw kw`hnp Imcyw IqSn hfsc {]m[m\yalnpp. Hcp Bns \nch[n LSI DmhpXv AtmgmWv. skpI Ignbpw tXmdpw krnbpsS thKw Ipdbpp. skpI an\npI Bhpp. aqp an\nv A{Xbpw kabw sImv {]]w Hcp IWnIbn \nv krnsp! am{Xa {]]ns `mhn Fns\bmhpsapw Cu aqp an\nn Xocpam\nsp Ignncpp. tImSm\ptImSn KmeIvknIfpw Ahtbmscmnepw tImSm\ptImSn \{Xfpw D {]]w! a\pjy F{X sNdpXmWv. ho kwkmcnpIbmbncpp. ]Ww \nt]npXns\n A Xnp \nti. Ah kzoIcnWsav \n_an. C\n asmcp {][m\Imcyw. ho \nhncppsImv ]dp. As kzns ]IpXn BmWv InpIsbdnbm cmPphn\v XnSpw ImWpw As? Fs lrZbw inbmbn anSnp. Akzamb Ipnmew Hcp \nanj t\ctbvv Xncnp hp. htaibpsS A\amb kmyXIfpw. t{^mnv, XeapSn t]mWnsSbv sIn, Imemnsmv Itkcbn F\nbvpw A\pw CSbn Ccp `mh\bnep s]Ipnbpw, Hw Xs. Rm AXn \nsmw _lpZqcw kcnpsh BizmkIcamb tXmepw. Cp Rm Zptbamb {]] clkyfpsS IehdbpsS Xmtm ]cXn \Sp Hcp imkv{X\mhm {ianpIbmWv. Cu {]]ns A]mcXbn \nmcamb Hcp aWcnt]me InSp `qan F {Klw. AXn {]]ns hbns AfhptIm shp t\mptm Cse am{Xw Dhn a\pjy F \nmcPohn! ho thsdmcp Ih FSpp. taita sh IncnsbSpp, Aw shm XpSn. hoens ssI XSpsImv Rm Fgptp. F\ndnbm Xmev]cyan k. ZbhpsNbvXv FtmSv ]dbcpXv. !

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tZhIn hmXn aes Xpdnp. cmaIrjvWs ssI]nSnv AItp sImpt]mbn. tkm^bn encpn. \\ jv Agnp. cmaIrjvW tkm^bn hogpIbpw Ddm XpSpIbpw sNbvXp. tZhInbpsS apJp t\mm cLphn\v Ignn. A{X timN\obambncpp B apJw. Fn\m Cs\ IpSnWXv? cLp tNmZnp. F\ndnbn. Csm ASpp shv Ipsd IqSopv. Ah am]WtmsS ]dp. hmkvXhw ]dm Ahv a bmNnt Imcysampan. Xs Amhs aI\mWv cmaIrjvW. B hn[n a bmNntXv Xm\mWv. Ftm `mKywsImv Rm ]nnse Imdnepmbncpp. C\nsbnepw ]dbq IpSnp ImtdmSncpsXv. ]pgbntemWv adnXv. Rm Inmbncpsn Bfv Imts\. apJw shn\Snbnembncpp. tZhIn Hcp Itkcbnencpv Icbm XpSn. cLp FmWv sNtsXdnbmsX \np. s]smWv B hr Imdn Ccnppmhpsav Abm HmXv. Abm hmXnen\p ]pdp hp t\mn. Imdv s]mbvgnncpp. Imdv mmp iw tInsm. \o Imdv mmp iw tItm? Abm tZhIntbmSv tNmZnp. Ah Icn \nn. kmcnbpsS XppsImv Io XpSv ]pdtp hp. Imtdm? GXv Imdv? Hcp hb\mWv HmSnncpXv. Hcp ]gb Imdv. C. Rm In. B a\pjys\ FhnsS shmWv IsXtmm cLp {ianp. Rm Nmbbpms, cLpth Ccnp. tZhIn ]dp. th. Rm t]mIm t\ms. cLp ]dp. kuZman\n ImncnppmIpw. Aenten dnbXmWv. Abm ]pdp ISp. Hcp Imcyw sNptam? kuZman\nv t^m sNbvXv Rm Hcp aWnqdn\pn Fpsap ]dbq. HXpaWn Ignm Ahp ]cn{`aamhpw. icn. tZhIn ]dp. Abm Cdn, tKbvn\p ]pdp ISp. Hcp Intemao \Smte _v InpIbpq. ^mv ]mk Innbm apm aWnq sImv honsemw. Abm thKn \Sm XpSn. Ans\ \Sp tm s]sv Hcp aqS hv Xs ImgvN anb t]mse Abmp tXmn. cp `mKpap sInS sXfnp ImWpn. sXmpapnep tdmUv am{Xta ImWp pp. Abm BtemNnp HpIn Xs ImgvN hfsc tamiambnpv, Asn ApXIcambn Ftm kw`hnppv. apn s]sp I Im Xm NmepSnp h lnpm XsbmsWbmv a\nembn. aphmXn Xpdncpp. Abm Ibdn hmXneSp. hb Im mmn. Hcmv C{Xbpw thKn ImtdmSnm Ignbpsav Abm \SmsS a\nempIbmWv. apnep kIe hml\sfbpw adnISv Im IpXnpIbmbncpp. hnizknm {]bmkamb thKn Aamen ISXpw, Beph ISXpw Adnbppv, GXm\pw \nanjfpsS ssZLyns. hbs t]scnepw tNmZnWsav hnNmcnv t\mnbtm Abm Ip\nncpv apnep ImSnbnqSn Dpt\mn HmSnpIbmWv. Cu thKn AbmfpsS GIm{KX Ifb Fp IcpXn cLp au\w Zonp. Imdns thKX hopw hnpIbmWv. Cu tXmXn t]mbm FhnsSsbpsa Nnbpmbn cLphn\v. ssev t]mpI! Bm, hml\ Fmw Akmam\ythKn ]ntmw XsSpI bmWv. Ipdv thKX Ipdm ]dbm cLp hbs t\sc Xncnp. AhnsS Abmfpmbncpn. ss{UhdpsS m\w Hgnncpp. Im `bc thKn ]mbpI XsbmWv. Umjv t_mUnse kqNIhnfpI anppv. Abm ]nnse kontep t\mn. AXpw Hgnp InSpIbmWv. Abmv s]sv t_m[w adbp t]mse tXmn. t_m[w htm Bdbn CcnpIbmWv. ANypX \mb t]mbncpp. Aen \nv iothenbpsS sImv tIm\pv. Abm hmp t\mn. kabw FpaWn. ANypX \mbcpambn kwkmcnm XpSnbXv GItZiw GtgImen\mWv. Atm Cu \m]nbp an\nv Xm DdpI bmbncptm. Xm I Zpxkz]v\sn BtemNnp. hmsmcp kz]v\w. C\n Inn Hm^okn t]mIm h. t]mcmXn\v aonwKv XpSnbnpmIpw. Abm hontep Xncnp. hm oWw. \Sptm Abm BtemNnp. X\nnsmWv ]nbXv? ANypX \mbcpambn kwkmcnncn bmbncpp. AXn\nSbn FtmgmWv DdntmbXv? t\ms. Hcm hnfnXmb Hmbpv. Hcp hb. AbmtfmsSmw Imdn IbdnbXpw. ]gb Bn tamU lnpm Imdv. s]sbmv B hb BcmsWtm hp. Xs Amh, Ipncma \mb. cmaIrjvWs A, Atlw Ccp]psImw D]tbmKnncp AtX Imdmbncpp AXv . ]s Amh acnnv ]{p sImambn. Fsmcp kz]v\w!
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cmaIrjvWs IpSn ASp Imembn hfsc IqSnbnpv. AXp X\npmp a\x{]bmkambncn Ww Cu kz]v\n\p ImcWw. Xm\mWv B hnhmlmtemN\ sImphXv. hfsc ASpdnbp Hcp IpSpw_nse IpnbmWv. hfsc imeo\bmb Hcp Iqn. cmaIrjvW Iptds IpSnpsadnbp ambncpp. sNdpm hnhmlw IgnpXn\papv Ans\sbms \Spw, ]ns hnhmlw Ignm IpSnsbms \npw FmWv Xm IcpXnbXv. Xs IWpIqepI ]ngp. AXpsImv tZhInsb ImWptmsgmw Ipt_m[w tXmpIbmWv. ANypX \mbcpambn kwkmcnp sImncns Fns\ DdntmbnsbXv ApXIcambncn pp. kuZman\n IpnIsf ]Tnnp XncnemWv. cLphns\ Itm Ah tmv t\mn. FpaWn Ignnt Dp. Fm Cv t\s? Ah tNmZnp. Hpwey. F\nbvv Ipdp Npp shw Xcp. kuZman\n ASpfbn t]mbn o mn NppshsaSpp sImp hp. AtmgmWv Ah Syq_v ssens sXfn shfnn AbmfpsS apJw ImWpXv. Fp]n? kpJant? Gbv Hpwey. Ddw hncpp. Ft Ctm{X Hdw hcm? Bthm. am{Xa. Rm ANypX \mbcpambn kwkmcnp \nzmbncpp. AXn\nSbn InSv Hdntmbn. FsmsbmWv ]dbWXv? Fn\ym kwkmcnpsImncnptm Hdzm? FhnSym sISXv? Inn Hm^oknemtWm? C\n t_m[wsIv hogpIsbmpatmmbnpXv? Gbv HdoXv Hm^oknsempa, Bdbnem. am{Xa, Hcp hrnsI kz]v\w ImWpw sNbvXp. FWosm ANypX\mbscmpey AhvsS! kuZman\n hnizmkamhm an cLphns\ t\mn. t^m s_Snp. cLp Itn t^msWSpp. ltem kuZman\ntNnbs. CXv tZhInbmWv. cLpth Ipdp sshInbnt Fqv ]dbm ]dncnpp. cmaIrjvtW\v A]ISw ]n. `mKyn\v Hpw ]nbn. IpSn Xs. Fm sNm? s]sv Ftm kwibw tXmnb t]mse tZhIn \nn. BcmWhnsS? kuZman\ntNn Xsbs. CXp Rm\mWv, cLpth. cLpth? Atm cLpth\s ]p an\npapv FtmSv tNnv t^m sNm ]dXv? AsXbsX, Abm ]dp. AXns\nsbmsbmWv Rm BtemNnp sImncnpXv. Bs cmaIrjvW Fp ]dbpp? AtX InSamWv. C\n \msf cmhnse t\mnbm aXn, Fm sNzm? ]ns cLpth \msf HnhnSwhsc hcWw tItm. Imdv FhnsSbmWv CSnp InSWXvsmpw aqv Hmmhny. cLp t^m shv ASpp I Itkcbn Ipgncpp. NmepSnbn \nv FdWmIpftv \m]p Intemao Zqcapv. sshIptcs Xncn\nS bnqSn Imdn FdWmIpfsm NpcpnbXv \m]p an\nsnepw FSppw. Xm\mIs GItZiw ]p an\npsImv ChnsS FpIbpw sNbvXp. Atm \S Imcysfmw............? !

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1988

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apgph hmm B hnpv. Ambncw \ hnebmWv. CXn\p apv Innb Ghpw \ Hm^ \membncamWv. asfmw \n_npp. C\nbpw IqSpX Inpsav {]Xont. ChnsSsbms \mev \mectb hnebpp. Atm Hcm Av Xcmsap ]dm DSs\ hnpIbmWv \Xv. B ]dn Xmaknp Inghs\ Bnpdmp. a ]dbpsXmw icnbmWv. Ahtmtcmcppw SuWn Ap sk v ew hmn hoSp shWw. Ipsdmeambn Ah ]dbpp. Ap {]Imcw Cu Htc hnm Inp Ap ew aqp t]pw hoXnm Xs _m[yX Ignp. ]s B ]dneq sNdnb ]pcbn Xmaknp hmSImcs\ Fp sNpw? Abmsf Hgnhmnbmte Ah hoSpw ]dpw FSpp, AXp hy amnbnpv. th v s]mj. hmSImcs\ Hgnhmp, ]ntv IcmsdgpXmw. Ah ]dp. ]Wap ]mnbmWv. Ctm An\v Cu ew hmpw ]ns AXv sNdnb IjvWfmn apdnpw, Hmtcm tmntepw hgnIfpmpw. sNdnb hoSpIfpmn hnpw. apn Hcp \nc ]oSnIIfpmpw. Fmw IqSn Asp ew DdpnI em`apmIpw. ]s th v s]mj. Inghs\smsmWv sNpI? Ingh hopImcs ]cmXn apgph tIncpp. Xs hopImc\v Innb \ Hm^ Xm ImcWw hgnamdn t]mIcpXv. ]s Xm FhnsStmIpw? FhnsSsbnepw Hcp sNdnb ew icnbmncp. Rm F{Xbmbn {ianpp. hopImc ]dp. \nmsWp ]dbptm Bm ]ntmw shpp. Ah ]dbpXv icnbmWv. Ah hoSpI sImSppXv hmSI Inm\mWv. \n F\nbvv htmgpta hmSI Xcmdpp Fv Fmhpadnbmw. Ahscn\v dnkvv FSppp. icnbmWv. Ingh Xebmn. Adp\qdpdpnI s]j sImp Pohnptm Fm amkhpw hmSI sImSpm Ignsp hcn. a\pjy\v `ns? ]t AXv AhcpsS XethZ\btm. \n Xs Hcp ew Ip]nSnp. hopImc ]dp. Fmbmepw Cu apsmmn amdWw. Hmn F\nv IcmsdgpXWw. hopImc Fgptp. Inghs adp]Snpthn Hcp \nanjw Imp. ]ns ]SnbndntmIpIbpw sNbvXp. hmjnI--Xnvv 1989 93

Ingh hopw Hmbn. ASv apjn NpacpIfp ]qapJv BSp Itkcbn Abm Ccpp. ]{psImw apv Xmaknm htm B NpacpI shhenv shfnw XpSnp hbmbncpp. PohnXw C{X hnjaapXmbncpn. Av AdppdpdpnIv CXnepw hnebpmbncpp. CcpqdpdpnI hmSI sImSpmepw _mnbp kwJysImv Hcp amXncn \mbn Ignbmw. ]ns Dn t_mws_bn\nv CSbvv ]Ww Abbvmdpapv. Ahs IeymWw Ign tijw Xm XsbmWv C\n ]Wabt Fp ]dXv. Abptm Asb ]cnNcnpI F Imcyapmbncpp. AbpsS acWtijw aI ]WabpXp icnb F tXm. Xm AsXmpw Alnpn. Asb ]cnNcnepw As\ t\mepw thsdbmWv. apv \ndsb ]qsSnIfmbncpp. hnhn[ \ndnep tdmkpI. henb ]q. ]mXn hncnh, apgph hncnh. ]ns sNcnqhpI. Ahbpw ]e \ndfn, henb CXfpIfmbn hncnp \npp. CeIfn \ndap ]pnIfpw hcIfpap t{Im sNSnI. Inghs tXmw Hmc ambncpp. BZysamw hopImc sshIptcfn Inghs\ ImWm hcpambncpp. tXmw ImWp hm Fp ]dbpIbmhpw IqSpX DNnXw. sNSnInSbn \Sp sImv DmltmsS Ingh kwkmcnpw. Hmtcm sNSnIsfn. Hmtcm sNSnbpw FhnsS \np kmZnp Fsmw. Hmtcm sNSnbpsSbpw ]nnse Ncn{Xw Nnetm hfsc hnckambncnpw. Inghs hmbn \nv ImXembp `mKw InWsan Cu Ncn{Xw apgph tIWw. hopImc\v hnjaapmbncpn. sNSnIfptSbpw ]qfptSbpw h temIn Abm apgpInbncnpw. Cu tdmkpIfns, Ingh ]dbpw CsXmw Rm _mwqcn \np sImp hXmWv. hfsc sNdnb sNSnIfmbncpp. Ah ssIapntbmfw hepn ap s]mn NmpXpWn sImv s]mXnp Xpn thcp ]nSnn pw. thcp ]nSnm \ C\w tdmkns Iqv CXn\pta shp ]nSnnpw {Km^vnwKv. \app Xcptm Cu {Km^v n \nv apf s]mptbp mhp. Atm Hmtcm tdmkpw GXp \ndamsWv Fns\ Adnbpw? hopImc tNmZnp. Hmtcm Intepw {Km^vv sNbvX tdmkns \ndnep mnIv Ijv W tIm nSpw. AXn\nv a\nem mw. Atm Ah \nsf NXnpIbmsWntem? shdpw km[mcW tdmkv Xv \bn\ amsWp ]dbpIbmsWn tem ChnsS sImphv cp aqp amkw ip{iqjn tij s Adnbq \n Dtin \ndnep ]qf AXnt DmhpsXv. Atm \nv _mwqcntev Xncn p sNm ]ptam CsXms hn BfpIfpsS apJtsdn p sImSpm. Ingh s]sv Xncnp \np. tNmZyw Abmv C sn. Ipdp t\cw Abm Hpw ]dn. Abm tdm kpsNSnI X\nbv p hn _mwqcnse ]qsSnmcs\ HmpIbmbncpp. AbmfpsS {]kamb apJ`m hw X\nbvv A[nIw sNSnI hmjnI--Xnvv 1989 95

hmm Dtiansp ]dnpw Hmtcm ]qsSnIfpw ImWnp Xcptm AbmfpsS apJpmb k\pw ASphpw. CsXs _nkn\p am{Xa tlm_n IqSnbmWv. Abm ]dncpp. Inghs `mhamw hopImc {innsp tXmpp. Abm hopw ]dbm XpSn. \ Ahsc hnizknv Hmtcmv hmnsmphcpw...... Ingh s]sv Abmsf XSp. \np \np. \n ]dbpsXmw hnUvVnamWv. ]qsSn hnph Hcnepw \pW ]dbn. CsXmw aqp\mep sImp app \SXmWv. ]noSv tXmn [mcmfw tdmkmqfpmbn. CSbvv hopImc ]dXv Hmhcptm Ingh Xebmnsmv kzbw ]dbpw. ]q Cap h Hcnepw \pW ]dbn. Ahv Nobmhm Ignbn. ]ns FpsImtm, hopImc hchp \nn. AXn\nSbn hmSI IpSnnI hcpIbpw sNbvXp. htmgpw hcptmgmIs Abm tXmn henb Xmev]cyw ImWnXpan. tXmhpw AXnse ]qfpw Abmsf absSppsa `bapmbncnWw. ASp ImemWv Ingh\v Hcp kvt\lnXsb InnbXv. cmhnse Fp aWnbmbm Abm Ddn Ip Itkcbn ]Sntep t\mnbncnpw. Ap an\np\pn sKbvn Hcp sImpkpcn {]XysSpw. tXmfn kvq kn, hm_mKv, shbpw \oebpw bqWnt^mw. sKbvn apnsmv Ah Dds ]dbpw. apm, Hcp ]q Xcp, Abm aptndn, ]Sn sNv sKbvv XpdpsImSppw. Ah tXmntev HmSnbdpw. Ahsf \kdnbntev A\pKanp tPmenmcn Hcp sNdpNncntbmsS sKbvn\p ]pdp \npw. Abm Fpw Htc tNmZyw tNmZnpw. GXp \ndnep ]qhmWv tamv thXv? AhfpsS Dchpw Fpw Hp Xsbmbncnpw. ] \ndw. ] \ndnep ]qhnmXn Abm ]cnX]npw. ]ns GsXnepw ]mXn hnS tdmkmqhv Adpv AhfpsS sImp ssIIfn shp sImSppw. HpIn ISpw Nphv, Asn tdmkv, a, Hmdv Fnv tNmZnpw. CtXXp \ndamWv tamsf? ]. Ahsf Xncpm Abm sa\sSn. ]ns Ip\np \np Inghs Ihnfn NqSp Hcp sImSpv Ah HmSn adbpw. Ingh Xm CXphsc Innm Xs t]cpnsbpdntmpw. Ahfpw Hcp ]t CtX Omb bmbncnpw. CXpt]mse shfpv XSnv, Npahsc XeapSnbpambn.... DntbmSv hcm FgpXm ]ehw HmnbXmWv. ]ns thsp shp. t_mws_bn \nv hp t]mIpI Ffpa Ipnp Snp th. ]t cpt]cpsS Snn\pXs ]Ww [mcmfamhpw. X\nv tamsf ImWm thn am{Xw Ah C{Xbpw ]Ww sNehmn Isp hcWw AXp th. Ingh kzw \nebnepw hoSt\zjnppmbncpp. ]cnNbap ]e NcpISbn ]dn Sbn \ncns aqebnep sNdnb NmbSbn Fmw Ingh Xs {]mcm ]dp. Cu amkw Fmbmepw HgnpsImSpWsamWv ]dncnpXv. Nne HgnpInSp hoSpI ]dp sImSpp. \psS Aens sXp`mKv Hcp temUvPns? AXns Ingphimbn Hcp sNdnb hoSpv. cp amkambn ]qnnSzmWv. \nfv t]mbn t\mv. Ingh \Spw. Aen\p sXp temUvPv Abm Inpv. AXn\p Ingv GXmWv hoSv? icnbmWv. Hcp sNdnb hoSv Hgnp InSppv. sNdnb hoSp XsbmWv. X\np ]mIamWv. apn kmam\yw henb apw Hgnp InSpIbmWv. temUvPn At\zjntm hopImcs hnemkw Inn. ]t Abmsf t\cn ImWm cp ZnhksaSpp. B cp Znhkhpw Abmv kz]v\w ImWm Hcp hnjbapmbn. hoSn\p apnse Hgn apv ]qsSnI shp ]nSnnpXpw AhnsS Hcp \ tXmw Dmbn hcpXpw Abm a\n Ip. apnep P\ Hcp ]t InSp apdnbptSXmhWw. AhnsS Inenm X\nv InSp sImv tXmw t\mn BkzZnmw. hopImcs\ ImWptm B kz]v\sfmw XIcpp. hmSI AqdqdpnIbmWv. ]ns Ambncw DdpnI sUtmknv. cpw Xs sImnsemXpnsv Ingh thZ\tbmsS a\nemn. hopw At\zjW, kz]v\w ImW, \ncmi. hopImc hopw hopw hp, apsmmw XnXnsbn Hmnnm. \nfv At\zjnnWns? Abm Iiambn ]dp. F\nv h C\n \np thn hoS t\zjnp \Sm. Ingh Hpw ]dbmsX \np. 96 amXr-`qan

]ns, Hcp Imcyw ]dtmw. Fstmse Hcp hopImcs\ \nv ImWm Inn. Atm Fs IsSpnbm \nfpsS \mepXe apdbvv KXn Inn. Fs im]apmhpw. Ans\sbmpw kw`hncpXv. Ingh hopImcs\ XSp. Rm ImcWw F\nbvv tijap XeapdI IsScpXv. Rm Fns\sbnepw Hgnbmw. a\pjya\n\XoXamb Nne {]IrXn \nbafn Ingh hnizknncpp. \ sNphv \bpw, Xn sNphv Xnbpw BWv Ana hn[n Fp Abm hnizknp. Xeapdbn\nv Xeapdbntev ]Ip sImSpp {]IrXnbpsS {Iqcamb XncnsSpm\mhm im]s Abm `bsncpp. hopImc Cdntmbn. sKbvn\Spsnbtm Ftm Hmt]mse Xncnp\np. \nfpsS tam t_mws_bnes. Atmp s]mbvqsS? Fn\m Cu hbpImev ChnsS Hbvv sISv \cInWXv? aphsc \cInnpXnt\m \Xv kzbw \cInpIbmWv. Ingh BtemNnp. AhnsS Dnbpw kp`{Zbpw aqp hbp {]mbap tamfpw Hcp Hapdn ^vfmn Acnnp IgnbpIbmWv. Hcp apdn, ASpf, Hcp sNdnb Xpd hcm. AXn\p Xs Ah FqdpdpnI hmSI sImSpppv. C\n Xm\pw IqSn AhnsS t]mbm AhcpsS kzImcyPohnXw \inpw. AXp th. Hmnpn Fsnepw hgommw. Ingh ]dp. hopImc t]mbtm Abm aptndn, sNSnInSbneqsS \Sp. \msf Xs kvt\lnX bvp sImSpt "]'qhv GXmsWp Ip]nSnWw. hnScm`mhnp Hcp sNbvnwKv tdmkv Abm Ip ]nSnp. AXns Ze tdmkv \ndnephbmWv. ]s hncnp Ignm AXp \ndamw \Spp. D Xncnbptmtgpw AXv Hmdp \ndamIpp. Cu \ndamw Abmfnsn. Ans\s Hcp ]q Xs Hma\ kvt\lnXbvp sImSpm Abm Xmdnmbncpp. thsd ]qh t\zjnv Ingh \Sp. s]smWv B BtemN\ AbmfpsS Xebn IbdnbXv. Xm\nhnsS \npw t]mIpIbmsWn X\no ]qsSnIfpw Xs Acpa kvt\lnXbpw \sSpw. AbmfpsS PohntXmtiw Cu cp Imcyfntembn Npcpn hncpp, Nppw Xs emf\bv\pkcnv Xgp hfv Xs t\sc ]pncn s]mgnp sNSnI, Fpw cmhnse sKbvn apnhnfnv apm Hcp ]q Xcq Fp ]dbp sImtma\. CXpw cpw Xs PohnXn \nv s]sv A{]XyamIm t]mIpIbmWv. Abm Xfv sNSnInSbn an Ccpp. sNSnI NnIfnembncpsn Xm amdp etbvv sImp t]mImambncpp. Ctm Ahsb ]ngpsXSpm Fmw \insp hcpw. ]ns, C\n ChnsS Xmaknm hcphv Cu tXmw B\w ]Ics. Rm t]mbmepw F\np ]ndsI hcphpthn Cncn \ndhpw hmk\bpw Dt]npt]mImw. B BtemN\ hfsc kwXr]vXn \IpXmbncpp. Ingh Aev]w im\mbn. ]t Xs kvt\lnXbpsS Hm htm a\p \nb{nm IgnbmsX Abm hnnhnncbm XpSn. hopImc Hcp hnjaknbnembncpp. cmhnse, Xs ImWm h Bv Hcp ZpapJamWpmbn cpXv. Abm apv Hcp sXv hncnn XWen amSnpnb apv AgnpI IqSn sNmsX \npI bmWv. \nv B sIfhs\ Hgnnys thp. AXv Rm sNbvXpXcmw. t]msc? AXp t]mc. hopImc BtemNnp. Inghs\ Fns\sbnepw ]pdnv ]SnbSpI FXmbncpn AbmfpsS eyw. Ans\bmbncpsn AXbmv hfsc app sNmambncpp. Abm A{X Nobmbncpn. Abmfpw ]qsf Csncpp. Ingh\v thsd FhnsSsbnepw, Hscm apdn icnbmn smSpWsapv Abmv. \nv Hmn IcmsdgpXWw. sIfh AhnSsn AXp \Sn. Ct{Xw henb ew hnm Ffpa. Asm ]ns Hcp Ahkcw hXv \n Ifp Ipfn. icnbmWv . ]t B hb\v thsd Hcp apdnsbnepw Bnbnp thWw AXp sNm. Cu hbp Imev Abmsf IsSpcpXv. \ \nebn Ignncp Bfm Wv. B Imcyw Rmt\p. ew Innbnpsm? Dv. Hcp ]gb hoSmWv. hmSI Imcyambnsmpw sImSptn hcn. AsXmw Rmt\p. sIfh s\ Cp sshIptcw Xs Rm ammw. ]d Bbncw hmjnI--Xnvv 1989 99

DdpnI sdUnbmn shtmfp. Rm hcpsm XcWw. hopImc HckXtmsS Xebmn. Abmv kwibfpmbncpp. Xtesp sIn hoWpInSp Hcp ]bn \nqcnsbSp CunsImv ]nS tXmn \np AbmfpsS apJp `mhw h\bptSXmbncpp, NXnbptSXmbncpp. m A\ymhs. XtespImc ]dp, kmdv sshIptcw Ap aWnv AhsS hm aXn. Imcysfms Rm icymmw. sshIptcw ApaWnv hopImc\pw Dphnmc\pw Inghs hoSns sKbvnsen. \nsmcp hoSv Ipshnpv. hopImc ]dp. Cu Dp hnmc \nfpsS km[\ sfmw AhnsS sImp shpXcpw. Ingh AXp {]Xonn. C{X s]stm? Ccp]mnbs Bbnpp. cp aqp Znhkw Ignnp t]msc? Abmv Xs sImpkvt\lnXtbmSv bm{X tNmZnWsapv. Ctm t]mhpIbmsWn AXp]n. ]pXnb etv Hcp aWnq \SWsamWv ]dXv. C\n \msf cmhnse Hpw Hpw cp aWnq hopw \SpI. Xs BtcmKyw AXn\p kXnptam? \msf sshIptcw t]mtc? AXp ]n. HmaXmbn Ctm Dp hnbpambn hncnpp. ]ns \msfbvv B ew t]mbm AXpambn. Ingh hnjanembn. Hpw hnjan. hopImc ]dp. Cmfv \ BfmWv. hnizknmw. Abm \nfpsS km[\ sfms AhnsS sImphpXcpw. AbmfpsS NmPpIsfmw Rm sImSpmw. Rm Abmsf Ahnizknnnsm. Ingh hnNmcnp. Rm Btcbpw Ahnizknpn. Fn\v? Rm\m a\pjy\v Hcp D]{Zhhpw sNbvXnnsm. Ingh tXmw t\mn. Cu tXmw Cns\ Ccns. Ingh ]dp. Rm sNSnIsfmpw sImpt]mIpn. F\nbvv ]Icw ChnsS hcphv AsXmcp km\amhs. Abm AIp Ibdn km[\ Hmtcmmbn FSpm XpSn. A[nIsampw km[\fn. ImepI CfInbmSp Hcp In, ]gIn I]nSn Hcp InS, AS t]msebmb XebnW, Hcp tai, cp ItkcI. Xpcpp ]nSn P\Xm u, Ipdv Aepan\nbw ]m{X. Hcp Ccpps]n, Hcp ssItmv. C{Xam{Xw. \n Hpw sN. Fmw Cbm FSpv hnbn shtmfpw. Ingh Ccpps]n Xpdv Xs hkv{X Hmtcmmbn AXn ASpn shp. ]nnpSnb appI, \c jpI. ]ns Ipfnapdnbn \nsSpp sImph ckw AS ImSn, {]mNo\amb utcm]IcWw. Hcp tXbtkmp mnIv tkmp s]n. AsXmw Hcp ISemn s]mXnv Ccpps]nbn shp. C\n t]mhmw. Dphnmc km[\ Hmtcmmbn hnbn HXpnshp. Ingh Ahkm\ambn tXmn 100 amXr-`qan

HcnIqSn \Sp. t]mmbnsy? Dphnmc hnfnp ]dp. Rm \nv Ipdp hmSI IpSnnIbmnbnpv. Ingh ]dp. ]Ww Inptm sImphp Xcmw. AsXmpw kmcey. hopImc Inghs apJp t\mmsX ]dp. \mep amks hmSIbs. hopImc, Inghs \nbp t\mw HgnhmpIbmbncpp. Abm Dp hnmcs\ ASpp hnfnv kzImcyambn tNmZnp. \nfv Cu hbs\ IsSppIsbmpw sNnsm. ]dn\v \ hnebmWv Hm^ sNbvXncnpXv. ]ns a sNepp kw. Xm Hbvmbncps n Inghs\ AhnsS Xmaknm Hcp ]s kXnts\. Dphnmc Inghs\ sImpt]mIp ew Abm Inpmbncpn. Hcp ]gb hoSv Fp am{Xta Abm ]dncppp. Hcp sImmcsampamhm hgnbn. \nfv Hpw hnjan. ImtmcpsS Imcyw Rm t\mmw. Rms\mcp GgpaWntbmsS AhnsS hcmw. ]Ww sdUnbmn shWw. AXv hopImcs a\n sImp. ]Wns Imcyw Atm ]dnsnsev Abm Binp. Abm hoSns hmXn ]qn, sKbvv Hcp ]qpsImv ]qnbnp. Dphnp ]nnembn \Sp \op saenpWnb icocw Abm Hcp t\mp t\mn, ]ns Xncnp t\mnbtmgmWbm IXv, ]q. sKbvn\pn tXmn hncnp \nevp ]q. ]pXnb etp \Sw \oXmbncpp. ]Wns AXnn Ignv hopw bm{X XpSp. NcmXI, Ingh Cu hgn hnpmbncpn. Ccphihpw ]qssX Xgp hfcp sN]mX hoXn Ipdp Ahkm\w hbepIfntep Cdn Ahkm\np. hnmc hn \nn. hbepIpdp Hcp ]dp Nqnmn. CXm Cu ]dns ApdmWv ew. Rm km[\ sImp shv hcmw. Imtmcv ChnsS Ccptmfq. Hcp aqv temUv FSptn hcpw. Ingh oWnncpp. Hcp Imev AmWnbmbn D]tbmKnncp Hcp Icnv XqWn \np hoWp InSncpp. Ingh AXnt Ibdnbncnmbn. hnmc km[\ Iptdbmbn Xebnten sImp t]mbn. Ahkm\w In am{Xw _mnbmbtm Abm ]dp. Imtmcv htmfp. In Ips\ shv AXns \Sphn Xe shv Hcp A`ymknbpsS an Abm AXp s]mnsbSpv \Sm XpSn. t\s I ]dncnIneqsS t]mIp hoXn Ipd CShgn Ahkm\nXv Hcp sam dnembncpp. AXn\p sXmSp ]dn Hcp s]mfn hoSn\papn Abm Inendn shp. Hcp ]gb hoSv s]mfnXmbncpp AXv. AXns acw sImpmnb hmXn, P\, Xv Fnhsbmw s]mfnsSpn cpp. NpacpI am{Xw. Inghs km[\ B hoSns Ipmbw \nd tImembn HXpnshncpp. CXmWv ew Imtmv Cmhpw. Ingh hnizknm ]m hn[n Nppw t\mpIbmbncpp. Cu CSnp s]mfn hon Hcp Iqc t]mepw Cm Cu sInSn Fns\bmWv XmaknpI? Igptmepw ]nIbpw IqSn s]mfnsSpncnpp. hnmc InseSpv ]qapJs sXmp]nnep apdnbn sImp t]mbnp. Bscsbnepw hnfnnv HSnp hmcnm aXn. Npphv h s]pfpwmhpw. Ingh ASp ]dntebvv kwibtmsS t\mn. sNdnb aIq\I, Nmcw. CXv...? AsXbsX, AsXmcp NpSedmWv. Dphnmc t]mbtm Ingh BtemNnp. icnbmWv Hcp hn[n \mbn. F\nn\n A[nIw Zqcw bm{X sN. NpSpImSv ASppXsbmsWn aphv Ghpw Ipdv AkuIcyw am{Xw sImSpv t]mImasm. ASp s]j Inptm Ipdv apfbpw Hmebpw hmWw. Hcp apdnbpw ASpfbpw Hmetam agbn\npw shbnen\npw csSmw. apv Hcp tXmapmmw. Fmw BZyw apX XpSWw. A{X Xs kmcan. Ingh oWnncpp. \nes s]mSn ASnphmcm IqSn sa\sSmX Abm InS hncnp. apIfn BImiw Nphp \ndambncpp. InSbn thZ\np tZlw NpcppIqSn InSptm Ingh BtemNnp. \msf t\s Fgptv tPmenI XpSWw. !

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ssSnv kp{_Wyw sNpw) A{Xam{Xw. Atm \mev st\m{Km^amIqSn Znhkw ]Xn\v IpI krnpw. \qbvXv IpI krnp ]cn{`mn Hm^okn DmpIbpw sNpw. Atm AXmWv ]cn]mSn. tPmensNe, sNpp F {]XoXn DmenemWv hnPbw. CSbvp ImWmw `mkvIctat\m amt\Pnv UbddpsS apdnbntev HmSpXv, tPmen IqSpXepv, Hcp st\m {Km^sd Xevmew thWsa Bhiyambn. tSmw tamdnn\p cv st\m{Km^amtcbpp. Hv sk{Idn annkv Unkqk. atXv st\m anv \ohnb. ]mhw kmbvhv. Xs st\m{Km^tdmSp ]dbpw. \ohnb, IpUv bp okv sl]v an. tat\m hnXv kw setgvkv. Atm kmbvhn\v a\nemhns `mkvIctat\ms Ifn? cmP tNmZnp. Gbv \mcmbW\mb ]dp. kmbvhv koXm kmZm BWv. t\sc hm t\sc t]m. HmU Unmp san IqSpX tPmenbpsXv kmbvhn\v ktmjapmp ImcyamWv. ]\v ]t CsXmpw cknn. tPmen Inepsn AXpw shncnpXv Abmv Xosc Cap Imcya. Abm ssSv sNm XpSn. Akmam\y thKn Hcp XmftmsS cmPs ssSv ssd inm XpSnbtm ap ssSvssddpI \nambn. Hm^okv \nambn. Fmhcpw cmPs ssSvssd kwKoXw {inp. Iw]yqdns thKn cmP ssSv sNpXp Ip sImmWv amt\Pnwv Ubd hXv. Atlw ]s ]nn Hcp an\nv t\cw t\mn \np. ] Xebpbn Atls t\mnNncnp. hmokv bph kv]oUv. sF ao lu sa\n th Uvkv s] sk v? km[mcW ssSnwKv kv]oUv an\nn C{X hmp I FmWv. \mev]Xp apX AXp hmphsc hfsc \ kv]oUmWv. ChnsS kmbvhv tNmZnpXv skn F{X hmpIsfmWv. Abmw ss{Sbnv Sp _nv F Iw]yq an tamdnkv. ] ]dp. kmbvhnXnambn. ]s ]pd pXn kmbvhv t]mbn. ap Poh\m ApX]cX{cmbn t\mn\nev s ] Iw]yqdns\ shm XpSn. kmbvhns {]oXn kmZnpI Ffpa, kmbvhv kwkmcnm a\memm hnjaw. A_n Untj\p hnfnpItbm atm sNbv X m hnjaambn. AXp sImv ap tPmenm kmbvhns In s]SmsX Hgnpamdn \SpIbmWv ]Xnhv. ChnsS CXm Hcp ] ss[cyambn kmbvhnt\mSv XamiI ]dbpq. ApXw Xs. CXns clkyw ] Ign cp sImambn hmbnp Xnb s]dntak ]pkvXIfmbncpp. kw`hw \SpXv Fgp]XpIfpsS XpSnemWv. Av ten KmU {]`p FgpXnnb apqtdm fw ]pkvXI am{Xta Imcyambn hmnm\pm bncppp. tUmtmhvkvInbpsS Iphpw inbpw XpSnb A]kI t\mhsemw AXn\ptijw FgpXshbmWv. (apIfn sImSp hnhcWw ] ]p sImw Ignv Hcp kw`mjWn\nSbn shfnsSpnb XmWv) t]mcmXn\v ChnsS tNcpXn\papv kmbvhn s Iogn tPmensbSp ]cnNbhpapsm. \mcmbW\mbcpsS hnev hI shmsX s Fp IpI Ac aWnqdn\pn sNbvXp shp. knt ]mUv ]yq hiw `mkvIc tat\m\v Abp sImSpp. ]ns Av Untj\v hnfnpI bpmbn. ]ns Znhkhpw CXpXs Bhnp. Ac aWnq Untj\v thsdmcc aWnq AXv ssSv sNm. Hcp aWnq tPmen. _mn Bdp IY 6

aWnq Fp sNpw? men KmUW {]`p klmbns\n. Hmtcm Znhkw Hmtcm s]dntak. Imcy henb IpganmsX cp Znhkw \Sp. aqmw Znhkw \qmdmaXv s]dntak hmbnp sImncnsbmWv `mkvIctat\m tNdn \npw ]pdp ISXv. ImWp Zriyw ] ]pkvXIw hmbnpXmWv. klnn. tNdns hmXn \np Xs Atlw Aedn. cmP! cmP ]pkvXIw ASpshp. XncnpsImv tNmZnp. sbkv an tat\m. hmm bp UqbnwKv. doUnwKv. an. tat\m. hfsc imamb adp]Sn. lmhyp ^n\njvUv bph hv? sbkv an. tat\m. Fm hmbnmsX shdpsXbncpm aXn. Hm^oknencpp t\mh hmbnm ]mSn. icn. cmP ]pkvXIw ASpshp. `mkvIctat\m tNdn\pn ISv hmXneSp Fpdmbtm \mcmbW\mb ]dp. Ipn IpdpIqSn kqnp s]cpamdWw. Ft? `mkvIctat\m Bfv hnjam. Abmfv hnNmcnm ChnsS Fpw \Spw. amt\PnwKv Ubd AbmfpsS Ioibnem. F{Xtbm BmcpsS InIpSn apnh\m Abm. FXnm t]mbm Fsnepw GjWnIqn Bsf ]pdmpw. cmPs tPmen It^w sNbvXnp IqSnbntm. Asm kqnncnIym \Xv. ]ns kmsdsms hnfnWXmWv `mkvIctat\m\nw Fm hcpw A\ymWv hnfnWXv. AXv Cy kmbvhpamcpsS AkpJamWv. HdnPn\ kmbvhns\ t]cp hnfnm aXn. Cy kmbvhns\ kmsdpXs hnfnWw. Bm`nam\w ]Wbw shp Hcp Imcyn\pw ] Xmdmbn cpn. kw`hclnXamb HcmgvN ISpt]mbn. tPmensbmpanm hnckfmb aWnqdpI Xn\optm ] Cu I\n bn tNXv kzbw ]gnp. ]t ApdpdpnIbpw Ccp]Xv iXam\w t_mWpw GXp I\nbmWv XcpI. As\bncnp tmgmWv apnencnp \njnZvIpam apPnbpsS Xpdncnp tai henn Cekvt{Uv honen IXv. Hp adp t\mm thn AsXSpp. BZys t]Pv adntmgmWv `mkvIctat\m ASppIqsS ISpt]mbXv. `mkvIctat\m AXv Isnepw Hpw ]dn. Hp adpt\mpIbs. Xm Hpw hmbnpntm Fp IcpXn ] honen ASpshm\pw t]mbn. ]t AXv `mkvIctat\ms\ sNmSnnpIbmWv sNbvXXv. Abm hopw hopw ]s ASppIqsS \Sp. C ]pkvXIw ASpshn, Xs Imsenepw ASpshpsap IcpXnb `mkvIc tat\m\v CsXmcp shphnfnbpw [nmchpambn tXmn. ASp {]mhiyw tNdn\np ]pdph `mkvIctat\m hmWwhn t]mse t]mbXv amt\PnwKv UbddpsS tNdntembncpp. cmP\v tZjyw ]nSnncpp. tPmenbpsn AXp XomsX asmpw sNmdn Xm. Atm Hcp BgvNXnv adnp t\mn sb ImcWn\v Abm C{Xb[nIw tm`nt Imcysamp an. `mkvIctat\m X\nsXnsc dntmv sNm\mWv t]mb sXv hyw. cmP BgvNXnv apPnv XncnpsImSpv imambn Ccpp. Hm^okns Ap henb tNdns hmXn Xpdv tSmw tamdnkv ]pdndn. cmPs\s t\mnsmv Ipdv thK n \Sphp. cmPs ASpp hv \nv tamdnkv kmbvhn\v ]pkvXI]mcmbWsampw ImWm ]nbn. IY 7

Up bp lmhv F\n hv hnv bp? t\m. an. tamdnv. sF lmhv ^n\njvUv sZw B. tZ Iw Sp ao t^msd Untj. sbkv. an. tamdnv. kmbvhv ]\v cp IpI Untv sNbvXp sImSpp. Hw Ipsd D]tZifpw. tPmenbnsn t_mns ASpp sNp ]dbWw. t_mns In tPmenbnsn Fs ASpv hm aXn. Rm tPmen Xcmw. shdpsX CcncpXv. ] ]pdndn. Hm^okv apgph izmkaSnnSnncnbmbncpp. ]mhw ]s tPmen \spshp XsbmWv Ah IcpXnbXv. Bdpamkw apv `mkvIctat\ms A{]oXnp ]m{Xamb \nc NmPnsb AIp hnfnv Untv sNbv X p sImSp Iv AbmfpsS kmv t\mokmbncpp. tPXmhmbn NncnpsImp hcp cmPs\ Fmhcpw s]mXnp. ]p an\nn\Iw cp IpIfpw ASnv knt ]mUnemn amt\Pnv Ubdv sImpt]mbn sImSp p. kmbvhv ApXtmsS ]s\ t\mn. X\nn{X thKw CXphsc Hcp Imcyhpw sNbvXp Innbnn. AXpw at\mlcamb teHun AcsnmsX, ambv Icn ]mSpIsfmpanmsX. IpI Hnv ]s\s Gnq. CXv sUkv ] mn sImp t]mbnsImSpq. ]ns t]mbn `mkvIctat\ms Untj FSpq. IpI sUkv]mn Gev]ntijw cmP tjmv lm v ]pkvXIhpambn `mkvIctat\ms tNdn t]mbn hmXnev apn. Ian. ] Dn ISv `mkv I ctat\ms\Xnsc Ccpp. `mkvIctat\m UnIvtj\pw XpSn. AcaWnqdn\p n GItZiw ]Xn\p IpI Abm UnIv t v sNbv X p. cmP ]pdp hv tPmen XpSn. kq kv]oUn ssSv sNm XpSnb cmPs ssSv ssddns iwsImv Hm^okv {]InXambn. AXv Hcp bpns Imlfambncpp Fp ]t Bcpw Adnn. AcaWn qdn\pn ]Xn\p IpIfpw apgpanp DSXs `mkvIctat\ms In Gevnp sImv ]dp. hv Fmw Ignp. {_nwKv bph t\mv _pv. `mkvIctat\m KPnp. hopw Untj. `mkvIctat\m Xs s]nwKv t{S apgph Imenbmn. amkfmbn s]mSn ]nSnpInS IpI ]pdsSpv adp]Sn Untv sNbvXp. ]Xns\p IpI. \m]Xp an\nn\pn B ]Xns\p IpIfpw sNbvXp Ignp. hopw ] `mkvIctat\ms ASpsn. tPmen Ignp. `mkvIctat\m sNdpXmsbmv sRn. Hgn taita t\mnbtijw Abm ]dp. icn, Hcp ]pan\np Ignphcp. ] t]mbn Itkcbn Ccpp. ]nn UnsmamnIv Bnhnn \SpXv ] Adn p. tXmakv BWv BZyw AItv hnfnsXv . tXmakv AbmfpsS m\tv IpXnpXpw Hcp sIv ISemkpIfpambn Xncnv `mkvIctat\ms tNdntep t]mIpXpw Ip. ]ns hnfnsXv App\mWv. Abmfpw taipdsams ]cXn. Hcp sIp ISemkpIfp ambn tNdn ISp. IrXyw ]pan\np Igntm cmP tjmv lm v IY 8

t\mp]pkvXIhpambn `mkvIctat\ms tNdn ISp. Bhnizmkw hosSp `mkvIctat\m Untj XpSn. BsI Ccp]nsbmv IpI Untj Igntm kabw Hcp aWn. ] Fgpttm `mkvIctat\m ]Xps ]dp. [rXnsbmpan. kmh[m\n sNbvXm aXn. tZdnkv t\m ldn. Hchsc ep ssSamWv, \mcmbW\mbcpsS Hw Nnc Ah\yqhnep a{Zmkv It^ bntep \Sptm `mkvIctat\ms Ncn{Xw tIm\p `mKyapmbn ]\v. AbvXpIfpsS BZyn klys km\pfn ao\qSn Xfp InS Hcp ]memS {Kma nse CShgnbn shmWv ]noSv sI.]n. `mkvIctat\m F t]cn kvanv, tamdnv B v I\nbn at\P (HmU) F _lpaXnbn hncmPnp ]mcs PohnXnse hgnncnhp mbXv. ]mc CShgnbn Iiphn tiJcnm \SpIbmbncpp. DbqWp Ignm Ae dn AnIfnbmWv C\v sXmgn. Atmtgbvv Bhp{X An kw`cnWw. Asmp apX An\mephscbp Imebfhn aqp hjfnembn amv sk]vw_ apXemb ]coI FgpXn Inv ]mwmv ]mmbn hon Akz\mbn CcnpIbmWv am\ytZlw. CShgnbn shmWv hgnncnhpbmsXv ]dsm. CShgnbnshv Ipapnb Ab ]s IrjvW tat\ms aI hmkptZh\mWv. Abm Ibn \nv Hcp amkw eohn hXmWv. ]mcs\ An kw`cWbn\nSbn Itm hmkp tNmZnp. \n\v Ibn tPmen Xcmw. t]mcptm? ]mc DSs\ kXnp. Fm \o Hcp Imcyw sNv. \psS kmaosS Cnqnev ssSvssdnwKn\pw tjmvlmn\pw tNcv. Rm ASp HmWn\v eohn hcptm sImpt]mImw. icn. ]mc kzmanbpsS Cnyqn tNp. Hcp amkw Igntm tjmv lm v Dt]np. AXv X\nv hgpn. ssSnwKv ckambncpp. Ans\bmWv ]mc IbnsenbXv. BZys Hcp sImw Hcp ^nenw hnXcW\nbn tPmen sNbvXp. Cwojv Hcp amXncn ssIImcyw sNm ]Tnp. hmkptZh\mWv ]mcs\ kvanv, tamdnv B v I\nbn sImphXv. hmkptZh AhnsS Hcp st\m Bbn tPmen t\mpIbmbncpp. Unmpsan Hcp ssSnns Hgnhv htm hmkptZh ]mcs\ hnfnp. Hcp ssSnmbn tN `mkvIctat\m IpX{ sImv Dbp hXmWv. ]ecpsSbpw tPmen GjWn sImv \sSpn. BZyw ]pIp NmSnXv Xs \mn\nv sImphv X\n`bhpw tPmenbpw \Inb hmkptZhs\sbmbncpp. I\ntbmSp Iqdv {]Jym]nm kzw A acnm InSpp F In Innbnpt]mepw t]mbn. Inbpw sImv `mkvIctat\m amt\PnwKv UbddpsS ASpp sNp. bq av tKm. kmbvhv ]dp. ]n. `mkvIctat\m ]dp. A{Xb[nIw tPmenbpnhnsS. I\nbmWv {][m\w. AXns tPmen IsSpnbnv F\nv t]mIm ]n. Fns\bpv Iqdv {]Jym]\w. ]mc Dbphnsnet ApXapp. ep Igntmtgbvv cmP Hcp Xocpam\saSpncnpp. Xs tPmen sXdnmepw thn. F{Xtbm BmcpsS hbnngv apSnb `mkvIctat\ms\ Hcp ]mTw ]TnnWw. cc aWnbvpn Ccp]smp IpIfpw ssSv sNbvXv cmP `mkvIctat\ms apdnbn ISp. tPmensbmw Ignncnpp. Gkn apdnbnencpv `mkvIctat\m hnbp. ^m\ns dKpte Idn Abm ]dp. Ipdp tZjyns. ]p an\np Ignphcp. C{]mhiyw \mcmbW\mb AItp hnfnsp. Abm Xncnphv taipdpmbncp ISemkpIsfmw s]dpn Xncnpt]mbn. AXpt]mse ssSnv kp{_Wyhpw hnfnsp. Abmfpw Xs ssSv sNm X ISemkpI `mkvIctat\ms\ Xncntev]np. Untj XpSn. GXm\pw IpI, ssSnns In\nv Xncnp hmnb HmU AIvt\mf Pvsa v. hopw ssSvssd KPnp. apm aWnqdn\pn tPmen kam]vXw. ] `mkvIctat\ms\ Ip. tPmensbmw Ignncnpp. Csm tPmensbmpan. `mkvIctat\m KPnp. tPmenbptm hnfnmw. icn. t\mp]pkv X Ihpambn tNdn \nndnb cmP t\sc t]mbXv , amt\PnwKv UbddpsS tNdntembncpp. IY 9

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Xmev]cyanmbncpp. ASIt]mfIpn Abm hnNn{Xcq] Zinp. AXv Ipnmew sXmtbp AShmbncpp. BtcmsSnepw ]cn`hnp InSm Abm B cq]sf BhmlnsSp mdpv. \mn]pdshnsStbm hgnhnep Hme sInb NmboSnIbn cm{Xn sshInb t\cv dmens shfnn Nmb IpSnp Nph hnNn{X cq], Asn Xmesmenv XmesaSp Nph s]IpnIv apneqsS ]pSpv Nnev iapmn hmsfSppdbp shfnmSv. As\ ]e cq]. B cq] Abmv Bizmkw \evIn. Abm Hcq abntev hgpXnhogpw. Hcp aWnqtdmfw abnbnpmIWw. DWtm Xs Btcm sInnSnnpsv a\nembn. Hcp ]t AXv ImcWambncnpw Xm DWXv. Iaens hmk\ Abm\p`hsp. FtmSv tZzjyamtWm? \o t]mbnpmhpsamWv IcpXnbXv. Rm t]mbn. kp[mIc DdpXpw t\mnbncnbmbncpp. t]mhmambncpnt? kp[mIc\v C\nbpw Adnbm HcpImcyapv. Iaew ]dp. Ah Xs BenwK\w Hpw Abncp n. F\nbvv kp[mIcs\ F{X CamsW Imcyw. AsXsnepw a\nemm {iannptm kp[mIc? F\nXdnbm Xmev ] cyan. kp[mIc ]dp. ZbhpsNbv X v Fs HnhnsS Ccnm kXntym? Fs Hv sInnSnq. Ah kp[mIcs apJw Xs t\scbmn Npw_nm {ianpIbmbncpp. XSppsImv kp[mIc ]dp. Zbhp sNbvXv ew hnSq. t\mp Rm ]dbpsXmv tIq. okv. ZbhpsNbvXv ]pdp t]mIq. kp[mIc \nn \nn Dds ]dp. AXv hfsc {Iqcambncpp. Ah Fgp tp. kp[mIc\v tZzjyw ]nSnncnymWv. Rm ]ns hcmw. Fs Hv a\nemm {ian p. Rm kp[mIcs\ kvt\lnppv. Ah XpWnknsbSpv tXmfnenp. hmXn Xpdv Hcp \nanjw Ftm ]dbm Hmn. ]ns ]pdndntmhpIbpw sNbv Xp. kp[mIc ISpsNtm pUntbm bn tkmap am{Xta Dm bncppq, Abm I tkmfn\p apnencpv amdpmp Xncn emWv. Cv dnmUnwKv H pwty? Csv Npa Ipep n tkmap Adnbnp. amdnwKv Ignbmdmbncpp. Cse sdtmUnwKv IgnXmtWm? AsX. thmfyw IqnsImv tkmap ]dp. ]SpIq kv ] odpIfn tlaN{s iw apgn. iw tamiambncpp. Npcpn bXv DmcWipnsbnepw thXmbncpp. Xm Cse {Smv ]mSnb ]mmWnXv. Xs iw amn tlaN{s iw ^np sNbvX XmWv. Fns\bpv iw? kp[mIcs inse ]pckw tkmap hn\v a\nembn. Rms\mcp sdtmUnv am{XamWv IY 13

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Ah Inen hncpp. ]ns Hcp ktmjham\w. Rm kXoit\mSv kwkmcnp. Rm\n\n Abmsf ImWnsp ]dp. kp[mIc\v ktmjmbnt? Rm Ipsd BtemNnp. kp[mIc CmsX Pohnm ]nsp Xs bmWv F\nv a\nembXv. Rm At\mSpw ]dp. A\v hfsc Cmbn. A\v kXois\ henb ]nSpw t]mctm. Hcp \ Xocpam\ambop ]dp. Cse A acn Znhkambncpp. A Ipsd t\cw Icp ]mhw. sNe kabsms ]mhw tXmpw sNesm tZzjyw hcqw sNpw. t]ms hbm bns. apdnbn Atmpw Ctmpw Demnsmv Iaew kwkmcnpIbmWv . kp[mIc Hpw ]dbpnsXv Ahv hnjaapmppv. {ItaW AhfpsS Dmlw Ipdp kwkmcw ]Xps bmbn. kp[mIc Itkcbn A\msX CcnpIbmbncpp. Ah ASpn Itkcbn t]mbn Ccpp. FtmSv Ctmgpw tZzjyamWt? kp[mIc Hpw ]dbpn. Abm Xs A`bamb Nphpcq]sf Bhmlnm {ianpI bmbncpp. Ip XpdpsImbmXn\p Ignn. taita Anbmnsh WpI Iaew AtmgmWv IXv. CsXmWv. Km\tafbpsS WmtWm? Ah Hcp ImsUSpv t\mn. pUntbm ^vtfmdns GImXbn NnXdnnS hmtZym]IcW kp[mIc Hmp. Ipnbmbn cptm NqSp ]Iens Ayn sXtmeI hndnpsImv s]sp hoinb XWp Imn tZln Ipfn ]Sp Ibdnbtm AIse Imhn\nv CSbvbpsS ApXIcamb iw AeI fmbn hv Xs thZ\nnncptXmp. Iaew Hpw ]dbmsX Ccnbmbncpp. Io [mcbmbn HgpIn. AXv XpSbvm sa\sSmsX Ah Ccpp. kzw sshcpyfpsS ]nSpn \nv cbnshdnbmambncpp. csSm Ah {ianXpan. CSbvbpsS iw B IpnbpsS a\ns BgfnsehnsStbm Hs sNp ]pw. Nppw \ngepI hfcpw. ]I kybntepw ]ns cm{Xnbntepw bm{Xbmhpw. apnep Ccpn sImpZo] {]Iminpw. Atmgpw CSbvbpsS iw Hcp tXembnhv Ahs\ thZ\nnpw. Iaew Fgptv Ipfnapdnbnt]mbn apJw IgpIn Xncnphp. Inent InS knsbSpv tXmfnp. kp[mIcs apn hp\np. Ah Ftm ]dbppmbncpp. hfsc Ipdv hmpI am{Xw. sXpIv amv bm{X. hmXn Xpdv Ah Ipdpt\cw Imp\np. ]nn \nv htmhp \ hmpImbn. ]nn\nv hmpIsfmpw hcnIbpmbn. !

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