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cv - 5

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cv - 6

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cv - 7

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cvk emwQ| Gici eme - ^vgxi cvk|
cv - 8

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cv - 9

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gywne _vKe| Avi KD _vKe bv| KD bv|

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K_vwj ejj Zv nQ cv - 10

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cv - 11

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GB RbB c`xc| c`xc bfve bv| fqi wKQy bB, Zvgiv wK KiQ ev KiQ bv
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cv - 12

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Gm MQ| ewg ewg fveI nQ|

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mvnei Nii `iRv duvK Ki gv_v XzKvj|
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nq Kvb wgwbvii Ni| Gqvi Kzjvi AvQ| GB kxZI Gqvi Kzjvi Pvjy Kiv| weR
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cv - 13

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gywne Ni _K ewiq IqwUs ig emj|
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Uwjdvb hvMvhvMi Rb GB mgqUvB Dg| wKQy Riix UvbRKkb Uwjdvbi
gvagB ne| Gj wm msv wKQy RwUjZv `Lv w`qQ|
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kwdKzi ingvb dvBj `LwQjb| dvBj _K PvL Zzjjb bv| gywne ejj, Avgvi
Lye Riix GKUv KvR wQj|
kwdKzi ingvb kxZj Mjvq ejjb, Zvgvi m Riix K_v AvQ ejB ZvgvK
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wZwb Uwjdvb Zzj Wvqvj Kiv i Kijb| gywne wdi Mj AvMi RvqMvq| Zvi
gyL _y_y RgZ i KiQ, Ame ivM jvMQ| BQ KiQ cyiv AwdmUv cUj w`q
cywoq w`Z| Zvi mvgbB GmU Zey m BQ Ki KvcU wmMviUi QvB djQ|
Awdm GvUU iwdK wgqvi AevI Zvi gZ| mvne Awdm AvQb ej mI
hZ cviQ bv| Kbv gyL nuvUvnuvwU KiQ| wKQy Kivi bB ejB evanq gywneK Gm
wRm Kij, GB ermi kxZ Kgb eySZQb mvi ? gywne Kvb K_v ejj bv hw`I
Zvi ejZ BQ KiQ - KvQ Avm iwdK wgqv, Zvgvi Mvj GKUv Po `B| Po Lj
eySe kxZ KZ cKvi I wK wK ?
gywnei WvK coj ivZ `kUvq| kwdKzi ingvb nvB ZzjZ ZzjZ ejjb, mwi,
AbKY ewmq ivLjvg| ZvgvK wK Kwd `qv nqQ ?
wR|
cv - 14

`uvwoq AvQ Kb, evm|

gywne emj| gb gb ejj, AvcbvK Avwg Kvb KvjB cQ` Kwi wb| fwelZ
KLbv Kie, mB mvebvI AZ xY| Avcwb AwZ KzrwmZ GKwU cvYx| gvKokv
`Lj gvbyli hgb Mv wNb wNb Ki - AvcbvK `LjI Avgvi AweKj mB iKg Mv
wNb wNb Ki| GLb AvcbvK `LvQ GKUv gvKokvi gZ| gq gvKokv| h cU
wWg wbq Nyi eovq|
gywne|
wR|
ZvgvK wPUvMvr hZ ne|
gywnei Mv w`q kxZj mvZ eq Mj| eyK aK aK KiZ jvMj| gb nQ
gvKokvUv GLb eje - AvR ivZB hZ ne| ZzYv wbkx_vq|
gywne Pvcv Mjvq ejj, KLb hZ ne ?
w` Avwjqvi, w` eUvi| fvoi Ub hZ cvi| wKsev `ycyii w`K hZ cvi|
`ycyi Awdmi GKUv Mvwo wPUvMvs hve| hUv Zzwg cdvi Ki| Zvgvi Rb PvKwii
evev Kiv nqQ| wK PvKwi eZb KZ me wPUvMvs MjB Rvbe| Uwjdvb K_v ej
iLwQ| AvR `ycyiB Kbdvg Kiv nqQ| Qq mvZ nvRvi UvKv eZb nevi K_v|
ZviP ewkI nZ cvi| meP hUv fvj mUv nQ - KvqvUvi AvQ| hZ`~i bwQ
fvjv KvqvUvi| we`k Uwbs-Gi myhvM cve| me myhvM KvR jvMvZ cvij A
mgq fvjv DbwZ Kie|
gywnei rwc Ggb jvdvQ h gb nQ Mjv w`q i ei nq Avme| Mjvi
dzUv QvU ej eiZ cviQ bv| GUv ^c `k bqZv ? Pqvi em m nqZv Nywgq
coQ| gvS gvS ^c `k Lye eve nq| `yjvfvB Zvi w`K ZvwKq AvQb| ^c `k
njI GB gvbylUvK abev` m~PK wKQy ejv DwPZ| gywne dvm dvm Mjvq ejj,
_vsKm `yjvfvB|

cv - 15

AvgvK _vsKm `evi `iKvi bB| Zzwg AvgvK cQ` Ki bv Zv Avwg Rvwb|
AvwgI h ZvgvK cQ` Kwi ZvI bv| hvB nvK, KvRKg wVKgZ Kie|
imcbwmwewjwU bvgK evcviwU Av Kivi Pv Kie| wVK AvQ GLb Zvnj hvI|
gvbylUvK GLb Avi gvKokvi gZ jvMQ bv - eis my`i jvMQ| my`i|
Ni _K eibvi mgq `iRvq avv Lq Kcvji GKUv Ask dzj Mj| e_v
jvMQ| GUv Zvnj ^c bq| ^c kvwiixK e_v eva _vK bv|

gywne Avkv KiwQj ivZ GMviUvq m hLb DcwZ ne Ai Ame ivM Kie|
Ku`-KuU GKvKvi Kie| m-iKg wKQy nj bv| Ai nvwmgyL ejj, Avwg fvejvg
Zzwg cvwjq MQ, cP wa jMQ| Gmv LZ ewm| Av`k evOvjx x`i gZ bv
Lq em AvwQ|
gywne ejj, Iiv Kv_vq ?
Ai nvmZ nvmZ ejj, Zzwg Pj hvevi wKQyY ciB Zvgvi Ab eziv Pj Mj|
Zvici gRvi GKUv evcvi nj - Zvgvi wcq ez eRjy Ges iIkb Aviv fvix AKviY
Zzgyj SMov i Kijb| m GK `Lvi gZ `k| Avwg nZf^| GZ A mgq SMov
KvBg Pj hZ cvi Zv Avgvi Rvbv wQj bv| iIkb Aviv fvex Kuv`Z Kuv`Z
ejjb, Avwg wK bvBjbi `uwo w`q ZvgvK eua iLwQ ? Mv GIq| Zzwg Pj Mj
Avwg cvY euP hvB| Zzwg Avgvi jvBd nj Ki w`qQ| ZviciB fvex Dvi eM Ni
_K ei nq Mjb| Avwg Zvgvi ezK ejjvg, Avcwb `LQb wK DbvK AvUKvb|
eRjy mvne Mxi Mjvq ejjb, Avwg AvUKve Kb ? Avgvi wKmi `vq ? Avc`
we`q nqQ fvj nqQ| Zvi Ava Nv ciB eRjy mvnei gv_v Vvv nj| Dwb big
Mjvq ejjb, Avgvi wgmUK nqQ| LyeB Lvivc jvMQ| wK Kiv hvq ejyb Zv ? I
MQ Zvi fvBqi evwo, wbq Avwm wK ejb ? Avwg wKQy ejvi AvMB DwbI Dvj gZ
ewiq Mjb| mB _K Avwg GKv em AvwQ|
m wK ! Avi KD bB ?
cv - 16

GKUv KvRi gq AvQ| m ejj, mvn GB NUbv `y _K wZbevi nq|

mvaviYZ nq mvi w`K| eMg-mvne Zvi fvBqi evmvq Pj hvb| mvne hvb Zuvi
wcQy wcQy| ivZ evivUv-GKUvi w`K fvB Mvwo Ki `yRbK cuQ w`q hvb|
Zvi gvb wK GB h G-evwoZ Avgiv GLb gv `yRb ?
KvRi gqwU AvQ|
m Nywgq coQ wbqB| Kvb KvRKg bv _vKj Giv AwZ `Z Nywgq coZ
cvi|
Ai nvmZ nvmZ ejj, I NygyQ| `uvovI IK WK w`wQ, Lvevi Mig KiK|
WvKZ ne bv| Lvevi hv Mig Kivi Zzwg Ki| Avwg cvk `uvwoq wWiKkb `e|
Zvgvi gv_v aiv miQ ?
| Ni duvKv nIqv gv gv_v aiv Pj Mj|
Ai ivbvNi XzKj| Aii cQb cQb Mj gywne| Ai _vjv-evmb, nvwo-Kzwo
Ggbfve bvoQ hb GB ivbvNi Zvi `xNw`bi Pbv| Zvi wbRiB hb evwoNi| gywne
ejj, GKUv _vjvq Lvevi Mig Ki `vI - ivbvNi `uvwoqB Lq dwj|
Ai ejj - GKmjU AvBwWqv|
gby wK ?
cvjvI UvjvI Ki jzj KiQb|
gywne ejj - wbRiv eva nq bv Lq AvQ|
Ai cU Lvevi evoZ evoZ ejj, weqi ivZ Avwg Zvgvi m SMov Kie bv|
ay RvbZ PvwQ wK gb Ki Zzwg GZ `wi Kij ?
BQ Ki Kwiwb|
BQ Ki h Kiwb Zv Abygvb KiZ cviwQ| Zvgvi `yjvfvB ZvgvK AvUK
djwQjb, GB Zv evcvi ? Zzwg Zvi nvZ _K ei nq AvmZ cvij bv| GKwU
ivZi Rb wK GB mvnm `Lvbv hZ bv ?
gywne ejj, Zzwg wK SMovi myi K_v ejv i KiQ| AvR SMov Kij mviv
Rxeb SMov ne| Gmv AvR ivZUv nm nm cvi Ki w`| Avwg GMviUv nvwmi M
cv - 17

iwW Ki iLwQ| be Avi nvmZ nvmZ f coe| GMviUv Mi ga cuvPUv f`

Avi `yUv nQ wgW bvB kvj| ivZ evivUvi ci ejv hvq|
Ai ejj, Lei`vi Kvb Akxj M Pje bv| Akxj M ejj Avwg wK Lye ivM
Kie|
cw_exi meP gRvi Mwj nQ Akxj M|
Avwg cw_exi meP gRvi Mwj bZ PvwQ bv| Zzwg eis Kg gRvi Mwj
ej| GLywb i Ki| Zvi AvM RvbZ PvwQ Kcvj dvUvj wK Ki ?
gywne ejj, `ytL gvbyli Kcvj dvU AvgviUv dUQ Avb`| ci ZvgvK wQq
eje GLb kvb vwi bv^vi Iqvb| mvi Kvm covQb| kikvn c_g Nvovi WvKi
cPjb Kib| GK Qv ZvB b AevK nq ejj, m wK mvi ! kikvni AvM wK
Nvov WvKZ cviZ bv ?
Ai nvmZ nvmZ welg Lj| nvwmi k Nyg f KvRi gqwU DV GmQ|
m `yRbK ivbvNi `L ek AevK nj| Ai ejj, GvB kvb, Zvgvi Zv LvIqv nq
MQ| Zvgvi Nyg cj Nywgq co| _vjv-evmb wKQy ayZ ne bv| Avwg `iRv-UiRv Lye
fvj gZ e Ki NygyZ hve|
gywne ejj, mgq b Kivi Kvb gvb nq bv - wZxq MwU kvb| ivMkhvq
kvwqZv x Kuv`v Kuv`v Mjvq ^vgxK ejQ, Avwg Rvwb Avwg gviv MjB Zzwg euvP, ZvB
bv ?
^vgx xi gv_vq nvZ eyjvZ eyjvZ ejj, Ggb wbgg mZ K_v Gfve ejZ bB
jx mvbv| GKUz Nygvbvi Pv Ki|
Ai GB M nvmj bv| wei ^i ejj, gq`i QvU Kiv nq hme M mme
bZ Avgvi fvj jvM bv|
GB M Kv_vq gq`i QvU Kiv nj ?
QvU Kiv nqQ, Zzwg eySe bv|
Kv_vq QvU Kiv nqQ eywSq ej| Avwg GKUv mnR iwmKZv Kijvg| GLvb
gq`i Kv_vq QvU Kiv nj - ?
cv - 18

Ai ejj, Avjvc AvjvPbv Avevi wK SMovi w`K Uvb wbQ|

Avwg gRvi wKQy M ejvi Pv KiwQ| Zzwg hw` mwj SMovq wbq hvI Avwg wK
Kie ?
M ejv e Ki Pj NygyZ hvB| Ame Nyg cvQ|
gywne ejj, AvR Zv Nygybvi K_v bv| cw_exZ Ggb Kvb ^vgx-x cve bv hviv
evmi ivZ Nywgq KvwUqQ|
Ai ejj, Avgiv Zvnj ne evwZg| Avgiv weQvbvq hvIqv gv Nywgq coe| GK
Nyg ivZ Kvevi Ki `e|
Avwg ZvgvK GK mKi RbI NygyZ `e bv| `iKvi nj Mvq wmMviUi
QuvKv `e|
`vU wigvBm wg| kvevi Ni Zzwg wK wmMviU aivZ cvie bv| dzji M Ni
g g KiQ| Zzwg wmMviUi auvqvq Ni `yM Ki dje Zv nZ `e bv| `qv Ki
wmMviU hv LvIqvi GB ivbvNi Lq hvI| Avi Mv _K cvvexUv Lyj `vI| Avwg
GLb GUv cyove|
mwZ cyove ?
nuv mwZ| Lvj| GzwY Lvj|
wK cvMjvgx KiQ|
Kvb cvMjvgx KiwQ bv| hv ejwQ my gv_vq ejwQ| Avwg Zvgvi cvvex cyoveB|
GUv ne Avgv`i Rxebi GKUv BUviws NUbv| KD hw` AvgvK wRm Ki evmi ivZ wK KiQ ? Avwg eje, ^vgxi cvvex cywoq QvB evwbqwQ|
h cvvex ci weq KiwQ mB cvvex Avwg cyovZ `e bv| hZ Ki Zzj ivLe|
Avgvi Qj GB cvvex ci weq KiZ hve|
cvvex cyovbv nj bv| Zviv GK m kvevi Ni XzKj| Ai ejj, Zzwg q co,
Avwg kvwo cv AvmwQ| wmi kvwo co Avwg NygyZ cvie bv| iIkb Aviv fvexi
KvQ _K Avwg GKUv mywZ kvwo iL w`qwQ|
cv - 19

gywne ejj, kvwo cv AvmZ PvQ Avm, wK Le`vi Nygi bvg gyL Avbe bv|
mviv ivZ RM _vKZ ne|
AvQv hvI mviv ivZ RM _vKe|
nvB ZzjZ cvie bv, Ges ejZ cvie bv h Nyg cvQ|
AvQv evev hvI eje bv|
kvwo cv Gm Ai `L gywne NygyQ| Mvp Nyg| Ai ZvK RvMvj bv| gv_vi
KvQ em gv_vq nvZ eyjvZ eyjvZ AmsLevi ejj, Avwg ZvgvK KZUzKz fvjevwm Zv
Zzwg Kvb w`bI Rvbe bv| Zvgvi c Rvbv me bq| cw_exZ AvR GB gyn~Z Avgvi
Pq mywL gq KD bB| Zvi PvL cvwb Gm Mj|
Nii Pvi KvYvq wNqi c`xc RjQ| dzji M evZvm myiwfZ| kl ivZ
AvKvk Puv`I DVj| c`xci Avjvi m Puv`i Avjv gvLvgvwL nq bZzb GK aibi
Avjv Zwi nj| Aii Lye BQv KiQ Nyg fvwq gywneK GB AZ Avjv `Lvq| wK
ePviv Kv nq NygyQ| Avnv ! ePviv NygvK| Aii RM _vKvi K_v, m RM
_vKe|

cv - 20

\2\
kwdKzi ingvb evwo wdijb ivZ mvo `kUvq|
mvo `kUv nQ Zuvi evwo divi kl wjwgU| GcvUgU nvDm| GMvivUvi mgq
Kjvcmej MU e nq hvq| hviv Mfxi ivZ evwo di Zv`i x`i Pvwe nvZ em
_vKZ nq| kwdKzi ingvb Zuvi x RevK GB Svgjv cvnvZ `b bv| wZwb Aviv
wKQy KvR Kib hv xiv cQ` Kib, hgb DuPz Mjvq Revi m KLbv K_v ejb bv|
LvIqv `vIqv wbq Zuvi Kvb LuyZLyZvwb bB| ivbv Kgb nj, fvj bv g` Zv wbq K_v
ejv AcqvRbxq gb Kib| ivZ kvevi AvM GKUv wmMviU Lvb, ZvI eviv`vq| Ni
wmMviUi auvqvq AKvi Kib bv|
kwdKzi ingvb Ni XvKv gv Rev ejj, gywne mB h mKvj evmv _K ei
nqQ GLbv wdi wb| Lye wPv jvMQ|
wZwb Kvco QvoZ QvoZ ejjb, wPv jvMvi wK AvQ| IZv KwP LvKv bq|
Kvb LuvR bv w`q mvivw`b evBi| Avgvi Lye Awi jvMQ|
kwdKzi ingvb ev_ig XzK cojb| wZwb xi AwiZv KgvZ cviZb, ejZ
cviZb - gywne fvjB AvQ| `Lv nqQ wKQyY AvM| Zv ejjb bv| AKviY
AwiZv Zuvi fvj jvM bv| Revi AbK wKQyB Zuvi fvj jvM bv| Zv wZwb cKvk
Kib bv| wZwb Svgjv wenxb msmvi cQ` Kib| Awdm AbK Svgjv mn KiZ
nq| msmvi Svgjv k~b nIqv mB RbB GZ `iKvi| wbRi weivU evwo Qo wZwb
GcvUg nvDm DV GmQb Svgjv Kgvbvi Rb| Qv msmvi, Qwei gZ MvQvbv
GcvUgU _vKe| KvRi jvK ev evowZ jvKi hbv _vKe bv| evowZ gvbyli hbv
ZuvK ejZ Mj cvq mviv Rxeb mn KiZ nqQ| gywne AvQ Zuvi weqi ci _KB|
wbRi evwoZ hLb wQjb gywnei DcwwZ Zgb PvL co wb| GLvb PvL coQ|
Zuvi gq mviv K wbq m hme Avnjv`x Ki ZvI Zuvi cQ` bq| ci ivZ Awdm
_K wdi `Lb eviv`vq gywne j^v nq q AvQ| Zvi mg kixi mv`v Pv`i
cuPvbv| mviv eviv`vq Uwej `uvwoq AvQ| fq KuvcQ|
cv - 21

wZwb ejjb, wK evcvi mviv ?

mviv ejj, gvgv Kzgxi mRQ| wK fqsKi ZvB bv evev ?
GKRb eq gvbyl eviv`vq MovMwo LvQ - GB aviYvUvB Zvi KvQ iwPKi gb
nq wb| Zvi Dci `k eQii GKUv evPvK fq `LvbviI Kvb gvb nq bv|
kwdKzi ingvb ev_ig _K ei nq mivmwi Lvevi Uwej Pj Mjb| Pqvi
emZ emZ ejjb. mviv LqQ ?
nuv|
wZwb j Kijb ay ZuvKB cU `Iqv nqQ| Rev LZ emwb| fvBqi Rb
Acv| `ycyi wZwb evmvq Lvb bv| ivZ GKejv Lvb| mZ KviYB Avkv Kib ivZ
Rev Zuvi m LZ eme|
Rev ejj, wK h `ywv jvMQ| mKvj nVvr AvgvK ejj, Avcv AvgvK wK
Zzwg...
Rev K_v kl Kij bv KviY Zvi gb nj gvbylUv wKQy bQ bv| Rev ejj, Avi
GK PvgP fvZ `B ?
kwdKzi ingvb ejjb, AviK PvgP fvZ jvMj Avwg wbq be| ZvgvK w`Z
ne bv|
LvIqv kl Ki wZwb gqK `LZ Mjb| gqUvi m LvwbY K_v ejZ
cvij fvj jvMZv| K_v ejv hve bv| mviv wbqB Nywgq coQ| `kUvi ci m GK
mKI RM _vKZ cvi bv|
kwdKzi ingvb Ni em evwZ RvjvZB mviv DV emj| Kvgj Mjvq ejj, Kgb
AvQ evev ?
fvj AvwQ gv| Zzwg NygvI wb ?
Du| Nyg AvmQ bv|
`ycyi NywgqwQj ?
bv|
cv - 22

gkvwi Zzj kwdKzi ingvb weQvbvq emjb| mviv Kgb Mxi fwZ em AvQ|
gqUv `LZ Zvi gvi gZ my`i nq wb| Zuvi gZ nqQ| wPeyK PvL meB Zuvi gZ|
Mvqi iOI kvgjv| wK wZ wQj gqUv hw` Zvi gvi Mvqi iOi LvwbKUv cZ|
evev !
wK gv ?
Zzwg GZ Mxi Kb ?
AvwgZv me mgqB Mxi| Zzwg Mxi Kb ?
gvgvi Rb Avgvi gb Lvivc| gvgv AvmQ bv Kb ?
Zvgvi gvgv GKRb eq gvbyl| m hw` mvivw`b bvI Avm Zv wbq GZ wPvi
wKQy bB| Avme| ZvQvov AvR ivZ Zvi m Avgvi `Lv nqQ|
I|
NygyZ hvI gv|
kwdKzi ingvb wbRi Ni Pj Mjb| LvwbKY KvMR cojb| ivZ evivUvi
w`K NygyZ hvevi AvM kl wmMviU Lvevi Rb eviv`vq Gm `Lb Rev em AvQ|
nvZ Kjvcmej MUi Pvwe| fvBqi Rb cZxv| GLbv m bv Lq Acv KiQ|
kwdKzi ingvb xK wKQyB ejjb bv|
Rev GKv GKv em AvQ| eviv`vq Avjv wbwfq `qv nqQ| Avav Avjv,
Avav Auvavi GKv GKv em _vKZ AzZ jvM| gywne AvR mKvj Zvi KvQ Pvik
UvKv PqwQj| m w`Z cviwb| msmvii UvKv Zvi KvQ _vK bv| ePviv Kvbw`b
Zvi KvQ UvKv-cqmv wKQy Pvq wb| AvRB PqwQj - m w`Z cvi wb| Revi PvL
wfR DVQ| GB fvBwU Zvi eoB Av`ii|

cv - 23

\3\
ivM nvZ KvgovZ BQv KiQ| GB evMaviv Kvi mw K Rvb| gywnei GB
gyn~Z gb nQ GiP mwVK evMaviv evsjv mvwnZ Avi bB| mwZ mwZ Zvi nvZ
KvgovZ BQv KiQ| wPUvMvs hvevi Rb Zwi nq m fvi AvUUvq Pj GmQ|
KviY Zvi `yjvfvB gvbylwU Awdm Avmb KuvUvq KuvUvq AvUUvq| Awdm Gm wZwb hb
`Lb gywne DcwZ AvQ| GB KviYB gywne QyU GmQ Aii KvQ _K| wVKgZ
we`vqI bqv nq wb| Kb m wPUvMvs hvQ, Ke wdie wKQyB ejv nqwb| Zvi PqI
eo K_v m AiK evmvq GKv dj GmQ| eRjy Ges Zvi x di wb| I`i
evcviUv wK mB LuvRI bqv nqwb| Pj Avmevi mgq Mig Pvqi Kvc dz w`Z w`Z
ay ejQ, Zvgvi m `Lv ne `yw`b ci| GB `yw`b Avwg Kv_vq hvwQ wK KiwQ
wKQy wRm Kie bv|
Ai ejQ, wRm Kie bv| di MWm mK GBfve Pv LI bv| gyL cyoe|
gyL AjiwW cyo MQ| Dcvq bB| mKvj AvUUvi AvM Awdm DcwZ _vKZ
ne| kvb Ai, Avwg hw` wcwiP Xj Pv-Uv LvB Zvnj wK Zvgvi my iwPeva Lye
AvnZ ne ?
ne| Ze AvRKi Rb AbygwZ `qv Mj| wcwiP XjB LvI|
gywne wcwiP Pv XvjZ XvjZ ejj, Kvj ivZi evcviUvi Rb Avwg `ytwLZ|
Kvb evcvi ?
GZ cvb cvMvg KiI klUvq q j^v Nyg| eySj Ai GZ Avivgi Nyg Avwg
Kvbw`b NygvBwb| mwi, fzj ejjvg| AviKevi NywgqwQjvg| Gm. Gm. wm. cixvi
iRvi ci| AsK Lye Lvivc nqwQj| aiB wbqwQjvg cvk Kie bv| iRv nevi
ci `wL mK wWwfkb| Ggb Nyg w`jvg| Nyg fQ ciw`b mKvj `kUvq| Avb`
Ges `ytL gvbyli bv-wK Nyg nq bv| Avgvi gKvwbRg m~Y Dv| Avb` Ges `ytL
GB `yB evcviB Avgvi Nyg eo hvq| evevi gZzi K_v wK ZvgvK ejwQ ? evevi kvm
K i nevi ci evevK nvmcvZvj bqv nj| fqven Aev| mevB QvUvQywU KiQ|
cv - 24

gZzi AvM AvM evev wK gb Ki Rvwb AvgvK `LZ PvBjb| KvbvKvwU ... jzj|
AvgvK LuyR cvIqv hvQ bv| nVvr Avwevi Kiv nj - Avwg nvmcvZvji eviv`vi
ewZ q givi gZ NygywQ|
Ai ejj, Nygi ga Zvgvi wK K_v ejvi Afvm AvQ ?
AvQ| K_v ejvi Afvm AvQ, bvK WvKvi Afvm AvQ, weQvbv _K Mwoq
co hvevi Afvm AvQ| AviKUv Afvm Lye QvUejvq wQj - Zvgvi my iwPi
KviY ejZ cviwQ bv| Afq w`j ewj ...
ejvi `iKvi bB|
eySZ cviQ eva nq Rj NwUZ evcvi|
Avn& Pzc Ki Zv| mvZUv GKzk evR|
wK mebvk !
GiKg QUdU Kie bv Zv| Pzc Ki em| Rj fm hvK Zvgvi GcqUgU|
AvB Wv Kqvi|
AvQv hvI emjvg|
GLb ej AvgvK weq Ki Zzwg wK myLx nqQ ?
gywne nvmZ nvmZ ejj, weq h KiwQ ZvB eySZ cviwQ bv| GLbv ZvgvK
cwgKvi gZ jvMQ| xi gZ jvMQ bv|
wK Kij xi gZ jvMe ?
GKUz SMov KiZv|
gywne nvmQ| k Ki nvmQ| Aii gb nj - GK my`i Ki GKUv gvbyl wK
fve nvm ?
Lye hw`b Zvov _vK mw`b eweUw cvIqv hvq bv| hw`I cvIqv hvq mB
eweUwi vU wKQyY ci ci e nq hvq Ges mw`b ivvq meP ewk Rvg _vK|
gywnei ejvq KvbUvB NUj bv| m KuvUvq KuvUvq AvUUvi mgq Awdm DcwZ
nj| m eweUw _K bvgvi wKQyY ci Gjb kwdKzi ingvb| gywneK h_v mgq
cv - 25

DcwZ `L wZwb Avbwb`Z njb wK-bv evSv Mj bv| Kbv gyL ejjb, Avgvi
wc.G-K wPwV UvBc KiZ w`qwQ| Ii KvQ _K wPwV wbq hvI|
wR AvQv|
GKUv wcK-Avc hve wPUvMvs| WvBfvi GjB iIbv nq hve|
wR AvQv|
Kvj ivZ Kv_vq wQj ? evmvq diwb Kb ? Zvgvi Avcv `ywv KiwQj| hw`b
evmvq wdie bv ej Avme|
gywne ZZxqevii gZ ejj, wR AvQv|
ZvK GKUv Uwjdvb Ki RvbvI h Zzwg fvj AvQ Ges wPUvMvs hvQ| wK KviY
hvQ ZvI RvbvZ cvi| m Lykx ne|
gywne evmvq Uwjdvb Kij bv| mevB LvwbKUv `ywv fvM KiK| PvKwi nevi ci
m `Lv Kie| AvcvK mvjvg Ki eje - Avcv Zzwg nQ GB cw_exi mek gwnjv|
Zvgvi gZ fvj gq GB cw_exZ AvM Rbvqwb, fwelZI Rbve bv|
GB K_vwj AvcvK AbKevi ejZ BQv nqQ - KLbv ejv nqwb| GB aiYi
bvUzK K_v ejv gykwKj| ZvQvov bvUzK K_v b Avcv nm dj ejZ cvi - GK
Po Lvwe|
wcK-Avci WvBfvi mKvj `kUvq Gm DcwZ nj| weim gyL ejj, Mvwoi eK
MMvj AvQ| eK wVK bv Ki Mvwo ei Kiv hve bv|
gywne ejj, eK mvivZ KZY jvMe ?
GB aib GK Nv| IqvKkc bv wbj eySe bv|
m hw` ejZ Nv `yB jvMe Zvnj eRjyi evmv _K Nyi Avmv hZ| Ai wbqB
GLbv hvq wb| gywne ejj, Avgiv Zvnj GMvivUvi w`K iIbv nwQ ?
wR|
GK Nv mgq KvUvbvB mgmv| AvcvK GKUv Uwjdvb Kij Aewk AbKUv
mgq KvUe| Avcv Avav Nvi AvM Uwjdvb Qvoe bv| gywne aygv mgq KvUvbvi
RbB Uwjdvb Kij|
cv - 26

Avcv ?
Rev UwjdvbB cP agK w`j - Kvj ivZ ZzB Kv_vq wQwj ? wbP Kjvcwmej
MU AvUK `q, Avwg ivZ mvo evivUv ch Pvwe nvZ emv...
GKUv KvR AvUKv co wMqwQjvg|
wKmi Zvi GZ ivRKvh ? Zvi KvRZv GKUvB - Uv Uv Ki kni Nviv| Kvj
ivZ bv Gm fvjv KiwQm| Gj k Ki Mvj Po ewmq w`Zvg| Kv_vq ivZ
KvwUqwQm ?
Avgvi GK di evmvq|
GKUv Uwjdvb wK mLvb _K Kiv hZv bv ?
Mixe d Avcv, Ii Uwjdvb bB|
Ii bB, Ab`i Zv AvQ| h Kvb `vKvb wMq `yUv UvKv w`j Uwjdvb
KiZ `q|
GKUv dvgmx _K Uwjdvb KiwQjvg Avcv| jvBb wQj GbMRW|
Le`vi wg_v ejwe bv| ZzB wg_v K_v ejj Avwg Ui cvB|
AvQv Avcv hvI Avi wg_v eje bv| mwZ K_vB ejwQ - Kvj weq KiwQ Avcv|
gqi bvg Ai| nvjv Avcv, bZ cvQ ? nvjv ?
AbKY ci Rev ejj, Zvi K_vi aiY gb nQ mwZ weq KiwQm| AvmjB
KiwQm ?
u|
Avgvi Mvq nvZ w`q ej|
Zvgvi Mvq nvZ `e wK Ki ? Zzwg cuvP gvBj `~i em AvQ|
weq Zvnj mwZ KiwQm ?
u|
KvU ?
KvU bv - KvRxi Awdm|
AvgvK ejj wK Avwg evev Ki w`Zvg bv ?
cv - 27

AekB w`Z, Ze `yjvfvB ZvZ ivM KiZb| Avwg ZuvK ivMvZ PvBwb|
Avi Avwg h ivM Kijvg mUv wKQy bv ?
Avgvi Dci Zzwg ivM KiZ cvie bv| Zvgvi c Zv me bv|
me bv Kb ?
KviY GB cw_exZ hZ gq RbMnY KiQ Ges fwelZ hZ gq RbMnY
Kie Zzwg Zv`i mevi Dci|
AvgvK Lywk Kivi Pv KiwQm ?
Zv KiwQ Ze mB m mwZ K_v ejwQ|
Avgvi GLbv wekvm nQ bv ZzB weq KiwQm|
Avgvi wbRiv wekvm nQ bv|
gqUv `LZ Kgb ?
gvUvgywU|
gvUvgywU gvb ?
gvUvgywU gvb Ame my`i|
Kvjv bv dmv ?
gyLUv Lye dmv wK nvZ `ywU mB Zzjbvq Kvj| nvZ gb nq wg wUg Nm bv|
nvBU KZ ?
K Rvb KZ !
cvkvcvwk hLb `uvovm ZLb m-wK Zvi Kvb ch Avm ?
Avm evanq|
Zvnj cuvP dzU wZb| IRb KZ ?
Avi wK gykwKj| Avwg wK ZvK `vwocvjv w`q gcwQ ?
gqUv AvQ Kv_vq GLb ?
Kb ?
Avwg `Lv Kie| evmvq wbq Avme|
cv - 28

Ame Avcv| gq Mvcb AvgvK weq KiQ| GUv GZY wbqB evwoZ
RvbvRvwb nqQ| I`i evwoZ GLb KqvgZ nQ|
nvK KqvgZ| ZzB wVKvbv ej|
wVKvbv ejZ cvie bv Avcv| Uwjdvb bv^vi w`Z cvwi| wK Zvgvi cvq cowQ,
IK mvgj wbZ myhvM `vI| AvR Uwjdvb Kie bv|
ek Kie bv| ZzB evmvq Pj Avq|
bv Avwg GLb we`q nwQ| Zvgvi m `Lv ne ci| ivwL Avcv|
ivwL gvb ? Uwjdvb bv^vi `|
gywne Uwjdvb bv^vi w`j| Rev ejj, gqUvi gyL j^v bv Mvj ?
gywne wei nq ejj, gyL j^v bv Mvj Zv w`q wK ne ?
`iKvi AvQ| Mvj gyLi gqiv fvMeZx nq|
Zvgvi gyL Zv Mvj| Zzwg wK fvMeZx ?
Rev LvwbY Pzc _K ejj, ewki fvM Mvj gyLi gqiv fvMeZx nq|
gvS gvS GKmckb nq| hLb GKmckb nq ZLbKvi Aev fqven ...
Avcv, Avwg Avi K_v ejZ cvie bv| WvBfvi Gm MQ| Avgiv GzwY iIbv
ne|
gqUvi Mvj wK wZj AvQ ? Wvb Mvj ?
eo hbv KiQ Zzwg Avcv|
hbv KiwQ Kb Rvwbm ? Avwg GKevi ^c `LwQjvg Zvi weq nqQ Mvj
gyLi GKUv gqi m| mB gqUvi Wvbw`Ki Mvj wZj|
Aii Wvbw`Ki Mvj wZj AvQ|
mwZ ejwQm ?
nuv mwZ| Avcv Avwg GLb hvB| WvBfvi evUv `yjvfvBqi gZ KwVb `wZ Avgvi
w`K ZvKvQ|
Rev wLjwLj Ki nm djj|
gywne WvBfvii w`K ZvwKq ejj, Avgiv GLb iIbv ne bv-wK fvB ?
cv - 29

WvBfvi ejj, bv|

bv Kb ?
LvIqv-`vIqv Ki vU Kie| wPvi wKQy bvB| DovBqv wbqv hve|
fvB Avcbvi bvg wK ?
gnwmb|
gnwmb mvne, Dovq bqvi `iKvi bB| axi my hveb|
h-iKg ejeb m-iKg hve| Avcbvi GKUv K_v ewj fvB mvne, hw` wKQy gb
bv Kib|
bv wKQy gb Kie bv, ej djyb|
Avgvi KqKRb Avxq hve wPUvMvs| hw` AbygwZ `b Givi Mvwoi wcQbi wmU
emvq wbq hvB|
Avgvi w`K _K Kvb Amyweav bB| ay mwZ K_vUv ejyb Giv Avcbvi Avxq
bv-wK fvovi wewbgq wKQy cvmvi wbq hvQb ?
gnwmb Di w`j bv| nvB Zzjj| gywne ejj, cvmvi Kv_v _K Zzjeb ?
mvq`vev`| evm kbi KvQ|
Mvwo fwZ Ki cvmvi wbq wbb, ay j ivLeb Avgvi emvi Rb hb RvqMv
_vK| MvwoZ DVB Nyg `e| mvivivZ NygvBwb| NygvZ NygvZ Ges ^c `LZ `LZ
hve|
WvBfvi nm djj|
Mvwo iIbv nj `ycyi GKUvq| gywne emQ WvBfvii cvki mxU| mxUUv Xvjy, em
Avivg cvIqv hvQ bv| Mvwo fwZ gvbyl| `ywU cwievi gvjvgvj wbq DVQ| n P,
PPvgwP nQ| mevi RvqMvI nQ bv| QmvZ eQii GKUv evwjKv gvMZ ejQ,
mvgb eme, mvgb eme| eva nq gywneK ejZ nj, Avm mvgb Avm| gqwUK
Kvj wbq gywneK emZ nqQ| gqwU Zvi Mjv Rwoq emQ| K_vevZv Ggbfve
ejQ hb gywne `xNw`bi cwiwPZ|
wK bvg Zvgvi LyKx ?
cv - 30

Avgvi bvg jxbv| Avwg Kvk UzZ cwo|

evn&|
Avgiv GB iKg GKUv Mvwo wKbe|
GZ eo Mvwo wKbe ?
GiPqI eo wKbe| jvj iO-Gi|
Lye fvj|
Avey wKb w`e| Aveyi AbK UvKv AvQ|
cQbi wmU emv jxbvi Avey wei nq agK w`j, Pzc Ki jxbv| ewk K_v ej|
Avey UvKvi MvQ cyZQ|
jxbv mvgwqKfve Pzc Kij| jxbvi evev gywnei w`K ZvwKq ejjb, mvi GKUv
wmMviU Lveb ? ebmb AvQ|
gywne ejj, GLb BQv KiQ bv|
hLb BQv Ki AvgvK ejeb| j^v Rvwb, wmMviU Qvov nq bv| Avwg `kUv
ebmb wKbwQ nv-nv-nv| Avi mvi gq hw` ewk wei Ki Po w`eb Vvv nq hve|
weQy gq| mv_ wbq ei nB bv| eva nq XvKvq wMqwQjvg| Avgvi QvU kvjKi
weevn wQj| cwievi wbq hZ nj| wZb nvRvi UvKv MPv| nvZ GKevi Lvwj| mvii
Mvwo cvIqvq iv nqQ|
gywne j Kij jxbvi eveviI K_v ejvi ivM AvQ| gq meZ evevi KvQ
_KB K_v ejvi we`v AvqZ KiQ|
Avgvi kvjK evsK KvR Ki| Avie evsjv`k evsK|
ZvB bv-wK ?
wR mvi| Avi gqi evwo gnicyi| Aewk GLb Zviv XvKvq mUjW&| gq
Avcbvi Gg.G. cvk|
LyeB fvj|
jxbv Nywgq coQ bv-wK GKUz `Lb Zv mvi| Nywgq coj gyLi jvjvq mvU
wfwRq `e| GKUz Kqvidzj _vKeb mvi|
cv - 31

Mvwo cvq Do PjQ| gnwmb GKi ci GK Mvwo IfviUK KiQ| GLb

cvjvcvwj PjQ GKUv UvKi m| UvK wKQyZB mvBW w`Q bv| UvKi cQb jLv
gvqi `vqv|

cv - 32

\4\
Ai`i evwoi bvg ic wbjq|
`k KvVv RvqMv wbq ek eo evwo| mvgb evMvb AvQ| DjvwmZ nevi gZ evMvb
bv eis wei nevi gZ evMvb| h-KD GB evMvb `L fzi KuyPK eje GZ my`i
RvqMvUvK MZ-UZ Luyo Gme wK KiQ ? AvcvZ`wZ hwjK MZ ej gb nQ
Zvi KvbUvB MZ bq - Rjvavi| Aii evev Rvwgj mvne GBme Rjvavii cwiKbv
KiQb, hLvb dzU _vKe Rjc| GKKUv Rjvavi wNi _vKe wgwb dzj evMvb|
evwo XK ivLe bxj cvZvi evMvb wejvm| wekl aibi AvKvkx bxj iOi evMvb
wejvmi Pviv Avbvbv nj kxjsKv _K| Pvi eQii gv_vq cvZv eij `Lv Mj
cvZvi iO bxj bq Mvjvcx| Rvwgj mvne gvjxK WK ejjb, MvQ wZbUv KU dj|
Ai ejj, m wK evev ! GZ eo MvQ KU dje ?
Rvwgj mvne fvix Mjvq ejjb, AekB KvUe| G-RvZxq MvQ evsjv`k fwZ|
bxj cvZv PqwQjvg - Gwj wK bxj ?
GLb bxj bv, ci nqZ bxj ne|
Rvwgj mvne AvMi PqI fvix Mjvq ejjb, nqZ kUv Avwg AcQ` Kwi|
nqZ ej cw_exZ wKQy bB| Bqm A_ev bv| Zzwg hw` ej GB MvQi cvZv AekB
bxj ne, Avwg gvjxK KvUZ wbla Kie|
Ai Pzc Ki Mj| wZbUv MvQB KU djv nj|
Rjci ejvZI GB evcvi| Rjvavi Rjc dzUj bv| well nvwUKvjPvwi
ejjb, cvwbi MfxiZv Kg ejB c dzUQ bv| Aviv `ydzU Mfxi Ki w`b| ZvnjB
ne|
Rvwgj mvne Rjvavi Aviv `ydzU Mfxi Kijb| c dzUj bv| nvwUKvjPvivwiK
Avevi WK Avbv nj| wZwb ejjb, ewk Mfxi nq MQ|
ekx Mfxi nqQ ?
wR, AekB ewk nqQ|
cv - 33

Rjci welq Avcwb Rvbb Zv ?

Rvbe bv gvb ? wK ejQb Avcwb !
Avgvi aviYv Avcwb GKRb gnvg~L| Rjc Kb Kvb c mKB Avcwb wKQy
Rvbb bv| hnZz GUv g~Li `k mnZz Ki LvQb| Avcwb `qv Ki we`q nvb|
Rjc cvR evwZj nq Mj| Rjvavii Pvicvk wgwb evMvbi cvRI
evwZj| Rvwgj mvne GLb cyiv evMvb wbq bZzb Ki wPv-fvebv KiQb| wPv-fvebv
kl nqwb ej evMvb i nqwb| hnZz gvjx GKRb AvQ - wbqwgZ eZb wbQ,
mnZz m Gjvgjvfve wKQy MvQ jvwMqQ| ewki fvMB Mvjvc| Mvjvc Rvwgj
mvnei AcQ`i dzj| wK Zuvi QvU gq Mvjvc-cvMj ej wZwb MvQwj GLb
ch mn Ki hvQb|
Rvwgj mvnei eqm cuqlw| ^v ay h fvj Zv bv AwZwi iKgi fvj|
`vivMv nq PvKwiZ XzKwQjb, wWAvBwR nq wiUvqvi KiQb| mvi`v cywjk
GKvWgxZ Uwbs wbZ hvevi AvMi w`b Zuvi evev bexM nvB zji GvwmmUU nW
gvvi gyvje mvne ZuvK wbq evwoi cQb Pj Mjb| mLvb Rvwgj mvnei
gvqi Kei|
gyvje mvne ejjb, Zzwg Zvgvi gvqi Kei Quyq cZxv Ki h PvKwi Rxeb
mrc_ KvUve| Ggb PvKwiZ XzKQ hLvb mr _vKv LyeB KwVb| cZxv Ki|
Rvwgj mvne ejjb, cZxv Kivi cqvRb bB|
Rvwb cqvRb bB| Zey Ki|
wZwb cZxv Kijb| GB cZxv wiUvqvi Kivi w`b ch envj iLQb| eZbi
cwZwU cqmv wnme Ki LiP KiQb| wiUvqvi Kivi ci Rxebi mg mq w`q evwo
Kijb| `vZvjv Kivi BQv wQj| GKZjv KiZB me kl nq Mj| fvwMm mvi
mgq `k KvVv RvqMv Kbv wQj|
Rvwgj mvnei Avw_K Aev GLb gvUB myweavi bv| mq wKQy bB| cbkbi
AaK wew Ki w`qQb ej cwZgvm hv cvb Zvi cwigvb bMY| Rvwgj mvnei x
ivnjv GKwU KjR Aavcbv Kib| GB UvKvUv msmvi jvM|
cv - 34

gvUvgywU AwfRvZ GjvKvq GKwU PgrKvi evwo| evwoi mvgbi evMvb Ges Pwek
Nvi GKRb gvjx `L GB cwievii Avw_K Aev mK h KD wev nZ cvi|
wev nevi wKQy bB| cwieviwUi Avw_K Aev kvPbxq| Rvwgj mvnei QvU gq
Aii weq wVK nq AvQ| mB weq wKfe `qv hve Zv Rvwgj mvne fe cvQb
bv| Zuvi gRvR Lye Lvivc hvQ| Zuvi fqsKi gRvR evwoi mevB AvZsKM| KviY
gvbylwUi Gi AvM `yevi vK nqQ| ZZxqevii avv mBZ bv cviviB K_v|
Ai wiKkv _K Lye fq fq bvgj|
evmvq wK nQ K Rvb| fqsKi wKQy wbqB nQ, wKsev nq MQ| evev Lye
me nvmcvZvj| gxi Zvi QvU evbi Mvcb weq Kivi Lei evevK `e Avi wZwb
^vfvweK _vKeb GB Avkv `yivkv gv|
evwoZ Kvj ivZ wK NUQ Zv Ai Lye fvj Kbv KiZ cviQ| Avcv weqevwo
_K wdij ivZ bUvq| gvi m M-U Ki ivZ `kUvq NygyZ Mj| ZLb Zvi nvZ
wPwV coj| wPwV covi ci LvwbKY gv_vq nvZ w`q em _vKvi ci m GKUv weKU
wPrKvi w`j| gv QyU Gm ejjb, wK nqQ ? m wbRK mvgj wbq ejj, wKQy bv gv
- NygvI| gv ejjb, nvZ Kvi wPwV ?
gv wPwV cojb| evev cojb| evevi vK nj| ZuvK wbq `ycyi ivZ mevB Mj
nvmcvZvj| GLbv mevB nvmcvZvj, KD wdiwb| GB KviYB evwo Lvwj| gvjx gwZ
fvBKI `Lv hvQ bv| mKvjejv Lyowc nvZ gwZ fvB me mgqB evMvb _vK| AvR
Kb _vKe bv ?
Ai MU Lyj evMvb XzKj| gwZ fvBK `Lv hvQ| SvSwo Ki cvwb wbq
AvmQ| Ai fq fq ejj, gwZ fvB evmvi Lei me fvj ?
gwZ ejj, n|
Zvi gvb m wKQyB Rvb bv| gwZK wKQy wRm KivB fzj nqQ| evMvb Qvov
m Ab wKQy Rvb bv| Rvbvi AvMnI bB| G-evwoi GKUv gvbyl gi Mj m hZUv
K cve ZviP AbK ewk K cve GKUv Mvjvc MvQ giv Mj|
gwZ fvB evmvq wK KD bB ?
cv - 35

AvQ| Lvwj Avv MQ KjR|

evev AvQb ?
n|
Zvi gvb wK ? wPwV coI evev wbRK mvgj wbqQb ? Acv KiQb Zvi
Rb ? wekx AevUv Govevi Rb gv Pj MQb evBi ?
Ai Kwjs ej wUcj| AvR Kwjs ejUvI hb Ab iKg Ki evRQ| Kvbvi gZ
k nQ|
`iRv Lyjjb Rvwgj mvne| Zuvi nvZ Leii KvMR| wZwb gqK wKQy bv ej
AvMi RvqMvq wdi Mjb| Ai fq fq ejj, Kgb AvQ evev ?
wZwb wei Mjvq ejjb, hgb me mgq _vwK Zgb AvwQ| fvj _vKvi gZ wKQy
NUwb, Avevi Lvivc _vKvi gZ wKQy NU wb| AvRKi KvMR cowQm ?
bv evev|
gb w`q co|
wK AvQ KvMR ?
wK AvQ mUv Rvbvi RbB Zv coZ ejwQ| b KvMRUv nvZ Ki wbq hv|
KvMR nvZ Ai evwoi fZi XzKj| evSvB hvQ evev GLbv wKQyB Rvbb bv|
Avcv ZvK ejwb| eywgZxi gZ Pc MQ| gxi eviv`vq gvovq em QjK
wWgcvP LvIqvevi Pv KiQ| Pvi dj nqQ fqven| mviv gyL, Mvq, gSZ
wWgi QovQwo| gxi ejj, ZzB bv ejwj `ycyii w`K Avmwe, GLb Pj Gwj h ?
fvj jvMwQj bv| Avcv Zzwg wK wPwVUv coQ ?
Kvb wPwV ?
Zvgvi Uweji Dci GKUv wPwV wQj bv ?
wQj bv-wK ? KB `wLwb Zv| Kvi wPwV ?
Reve bv w`q Ai gxii Ni XzK Mj| wPwV mwiq djZ ne| `yGK w`b ci
RvbvjI Kvb wZ bB| Nyg Zvi kixi f AvmQ| Ai wVK Kij Mig cvwb w`q
cv - 36

m `xN GKUv kvIqvi be| Zvici ci ci `yKvc Pv Lq Uvbv Nyg `e| Zvi AvM
Aewk Leii KvMRUv co djv `iKvi| evev Riv Kieb|
Kj^vq GKw`bi mvK kxl eVK|
evKiM 5 Avmb AvR fvU| wgyLx jovB|
mvwfqZ gZvK`wj Bqjrwmbi `Lj|
48 Nvi agNU cvjb Kib t c bZe`|
ewM jvBbPzZ| mvZRb hvx AvnZ|
nwWs covi ci Avi wKQy coZ BQv Ki bv| nwWs coZ MjB nvB IV, Lei
coe wK|
Ai gqbvi gvK Mig cvwb KiZ ej Avevi eviv`vq Gj| Avcv wWg LvIqvbvi
Pv Pvwjq hvQ| bZzb AviKUv wWg cvP `Lv hvQ| Avexii gyLi mvgb PvgP
ai gxi ejQ - GKUz nv Ki evey| GKUz nv Ki| Avy Zvgvi jvj UzK UzK Qv wRfUv
`LZ Pvq| Avgvi eveyi gZ my`i wRf GB cw_exZ Avi KviviB bB|
Ai ejj, Kb hbv KiQ Avcv ? Qo `vI bv|
wbRi PvL `LwQm bv ^vi nvj, ZviciI ejwQm Qo w`Z ?
Rvi Ki LvIqve, Zvici ewg Ki meUv dj w`e|
djyK| Zvi evPvK ZzB Zvi w_Iix gZ gvbyl Kwim|
LZ PvQ bv Zey Zzwg Rvi Ki LvIqve| ZvgvK KD Rvi Ki LvIqvj
fvj jvMZ ?
ZzB Avgvi mvgb _K hv Zv|
wPwVi evcviUv gxi DjL Kij bv| wKQy wRm Kij evwbq evwbq GK Mv`v
K_v ejZ nZ| A K_vq wg_v ejv hvq bv| mvgvb wg_vI AbK dwbq dvwbq
ejZ nq|
gxi ejj - Kvj weq evwoZ `vib gRvi GKUv evcvi nqQ - Avwg nvmZ
nvmZ ...
wK nqQ ?
cv - 37

gxi wK nqQ Zv ejv e iL eveyK wWg LvIqvbvq e nq Mj| LvI

jxmvbv, LvI| nv Ki| `wL Avgvi eveyi jvj UzKUzK wRfUv ?
Ai ejj, Kvj weq evwoZ wK nqwQj ? IgvMv wK my`i Avgvi eveyi|
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cv - 38

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cv - 39

gxi ejj, ZzB me mgq Avgvi cQb jvwMm bv Zv Ai, Avgvi Amn jvM| Avi
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cv - 40

Rb| Gm.Gm.wm. Ges GBP.Gm.wm.-Z Avwg KvbgZ Ub Uzb dv wWwfkb

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cv - 41

gywne wmMviU aivZ aivZ ejj, Avwg bvUK KiZ cvie bv| eyov hw` BQ Ki
avv w`qB _vK Zvnj Avwg GLb ejj Zv avv diZ Pj hve bv|
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cv - 42

GB ej m AvgvK m~Y Dcv Ki ivvi cvki GKwU Avg MvQi w`K GwMq
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cv - 43

Nyg PvL Rwoq AvmQ| Nyg Nyg Aevq jLv wPwVjv my`i nq| Kgb Ki hb
wPwVZ wKQy ^c fve Pj Avm|
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nm AvwgI evwbq evwbq AbK K_v ejwQ|
evmvq divi mgq Lye Ubkvb nwQj| fewQjvg evmvq fqven wKQy nq MQ|
evevi nvUi AmyL| Zuvi gvB vK RvZxq wKQy nIqv wewP bv| nevi mvebvI
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cv - 44

cwiPq wK Ki nj kvb| GKw`b evevi Lye gv_vev_v| wZwb cvivwmUvgj Kbvi Rb

GKUv dvgmxZ Mjb| `kUvKvi cvivwmUvgj wKb gvwbevMi Rb cKU nvZ w`q
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kl nq wb| wZb gvm nq Mj|
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f`jvK KqKevi Gjb Avgv`i evmvq| Avwg Lye AvMn wbq Zuvi m K_v
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cv - 45

Avi wKQy AvQ ?

Avi gb coQ bv evev|
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gbUv gvqvq fwZ| wZwb Gm wK Kijb Rvb ? AvgvK Rwoq ai LvwbKY Lye
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cv - 46

cviQb Avwg wK mgmvq AvwQ ? bv cviQb bv| ay ivM KiQb GZ NUv Ki H Qji
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nQ - Avwg Avgvi mgM Rxebi wewbgq ZvgvK PqwQjvg| ZvgvK cqwQ|
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cv - 47

ej myP evi evi Avyj dzU hvQ| i eiQ| mB i jM hvQ cvvexZ| Ai

hZB Zvovov KiQ ZZB cvvexi Mvq i gL hvQ|

cv - 48

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gywne ejj, cvjv w`q jvf bB WvBfvi mvne| I mvBW w`e bv|
gnwmb z Mjvq ejj, mei w`ZQ, Avgvi w`e bv Kb ?
K Rvb Kb ? Kvb GKUv Zvgvkv KiQ| Avgv`i AvM hvevi `iKvi bB,
Avgiv cQb cQbB hvB|
UvKi cQb _vKj ivv `Lv hvq bv| PvjvZ Amyweav|
Zvnj Avmyb GK KvR Kwi| Pvqi `vKvb `L Mvwo _vgvb| Avgiv Pv LvB| UvK
Gi ga Pj hvK|
GB nvivgRv`vK IfviUK bv KiZ cvij Avwg evci Nii bv|
KvbB `iKvi bB fvB| Avcwb MvwoUv _vgvb, Avgiv Pv LvB| Pvqi Zv nQ|
gnwmb wbZv AwbQvq Mvwo _vgvj| gywne cqvRbi Pq AbK ewk mgq wbq
Pv Lj| jxbvI gywnei m bgQ| mI Pv Lve| ZvK wcwiP Ki Pv `qv nqQ|
m Pv LvQ| j^v Nyg `Iqvq Zvi wbR^ evUvix PvR nq MQ| m Kvm Uzi evsjv
eBqi me Qov GKi ci GK wbq hvQ| Qov ejQ nvZ cv bo| Qov ejvi duvK
duvK wcwiP Pv Xj Zvi gyL ai LvBq w`Z nQ| gywneK jxbv GLb WvKQ - QvU
gvgv| QvU gvgv Kb WvKQ mB Rvb|
cv - 49

QvU gvgv ?
wK ?
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ej|
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gvVi cvk Svc Svc|
Svci cvk mvbvi MuvI
GKUzLvwb em hvI|
gnwmb Mxi gyL GKUz `~i `uvwoq AvQ| Zvi gRvR fqsKi Lvivc| Kb Rvwb
Zvi aviYv nqQ h Zv`i cQb bv `L UvKUvI _gQ| Acv KiQ KLb Avevi
Avm| hB m wcK-Avc wbq `Lv `e Igwb UvK WvBfvi AvMi dvRjvgx i
Kie| nvivgRv`v|
jxbv Pv kl Ki ejj, bvP `Le QvU gvgv ?
GLvb bvPe ?
u| Avwg me RvqMvq bvPZ cvwi|
GLb Zv Avgiv iIbv ne| Avgiv eis wPUvMvs cuQ bvP `Le|
Zvnj KweZv ewj ?
ej|
LvKb LvKb gqbv
cwiq `e Mqbv
LvKb hve gvgvi evwo
Avi h `wi mq bv ...

gnwmb hv fewQj ZvB|

cv - 50

Zviv iIbv nqQ cbiv wgwbU ci| GB cbiv wgwbU UvKi AbK `~i Pj
hvIqvi K_v| Zv hvqwb| gnwmb wcK-Avc wbq wKQy`~i GMvZB `Lj UvK| Kzjx
`yRb wcK-Avci `Lv cvIqv gv Avb` nm djj| gnwmb ejj, nvivgRv`v,
Kzv|
gywne ejj, WvBfvi mvne Avcwb I`i j Kieb bv, wbRi gZ Pvjvb|
gnwmbi Pvqvj k nq MQ| PvL jvjP| m weo weo Ki wK hb ejj|
UvK em _vKv Kzjx `yRb `uvZ ei Ki nvmQ| GKRb Avyj w`q `LvQ| gnwmb
`uvZ `uvZ Pc ejj, qvii evPv| Avi wVK ZLwb UvK mvBW w`j| UvK WvBfvi
Rvbvjv w`q nvZ evwoq Bkviv Kij Pj hZ| gnwmb ZvB Kij| wbwgl UvKi
cvkvcvwk Pj Gj| fzj hv Kivi Zv Gi gaB nq MQ| gnwmbi mvgb KvKvKvjv
Kvvbxi gvBvevm| cQb hvevi Dcvq bB| cQb XvKv-wPUvMvs jvBbi weivU
GKUv wnbv evm| evm WvBfvi gvMZ nY w`Q| Kvb SvSv KiQ| UvK WvBfvi wK
BQ Ki ZvK GB wec` djQ ? bv iwmKZv ? gnwmbi wk eQii Mvwo Pvjvbvi
AwfZv Kvb KvR jvMQ bv| gv_v KvR KiQ bv| PvLi `wI auvqvU nq MQ|
gb nQ nVvr Nb nq Kzqvkv coQ, wqvwis Bj nq MQ cv_ii gZ k|
gnwmb PvL e Ki djj|
jxbv k Ki gywnei Mjv Rwoq ai AvQ| wK ZvwKq AvQ PvL eo eo
Ki|
gvBvevm gyLvgywL avv w`q gywne`i wcK-AvcK ivvq Quy o djj|

cv - 51

\6\
gxii gyL wKq GZUzKz nq MQ| Avexi `ycyi _K wKQy gyL w`Q bv| VuvU
k Ki e Ki AvQ| Mv GKUz Mig| mB Dvc Aewk _vgvwgUvi aiv coQ bv|
gxii aviYv Ri AvQ| m LvwbKY ci ci Qji Kcvj Ges eyK nvZ ivLQ|
gxii gv ek wei nQb| mB weiw cKvk KiQb bv| gqi Avnvw` ckq
w`Qb bv| mn Kivi Pv KiQb| gxi gvi Ni XzK Kuv`v Kuv`v Mjvq ejj, wK Kwi
gv ejZv ?
ivnjv AveMk~b Mjvq ejjb, Avevi wK nqQ ?
eveyi Mv Mig|
Ri-Rvwi nqQ evanq| evPv`i Zv Ri-Ui neB|
kvm bevi mgq Kgb hb kuv kuv k nq| eyK eva nq Vvv em MQ|
Aveivi Avme ejQ| I Gj IK `Lv -
m Zv Avi PvB kvwj bv|
PvB kvwj LuvRvi gZ wKQy nq wb gxi|
`ycyi _K wKQy gyL w`Q bv|
wa nQ bv ZvB gyL w`Q bv| ZzB ay ay e nwQm|
Avexii evevK GKUv UvsK Kj Kie gv ?
KiZ PvBj Ki| Ze Qji AmyLi K_v bv ejvB fvj| wPv Kie|
gxii PvL-gyL gyn~ZB Dj nq DVj| m nvwmgyL ejj, UwjdvbUv Zvgvi Ni
wbq Avwm gv|
ivnjv ejjb, wbq Avq|
evevi Ni _K Uwjdvb Kiv weivU hbv| wZb wgwbUi ewk K_v ejjB wZwb
iM hvb| cw_exi Kvb ^vgx-x wK cvi wZb wgwbU Zv`i K_v kl KiZ ?
ivnjvi `uvZ ev_v KiQ| wZwb Pv`i gywo w`q weQvbvq em AvQb| gxi AvexiK
Zuvi cvk ewmq Uwjdvb AvbZ MQ| ivnjv nvZ evwoq AvexiK Kvj wbZ wbZ
cv - 52

`xNkvm djjb| GB gvm gxii GUv wZxq `dvq js wWmU Kj| GK GKUv Kj
nvRvi evi k Ki wej nq| AvR GB gq KZY K_v eje K Rvb| MZ gvm
Uwjdvb wej GmQ Qq nvRvi UvKv| Q nvRvi UvKv Uwjdvb wej `qvi gZ Aev
msmvii bvB| Zv GB gq eySe bv| Zuvi gq GZ evKv KLbv wQj bv| weqi ci
evKv nq MQ| gb nq Aviv ne| gvbyl b nq m `vl| gxii ^vgx gyLjmyi
ingvbB gqUvi eywmyw wjq w`Q|
gyLjmyi ingvb ^fve-KcY| PvwjqvZ aibi Qj| GK eQii gZ evBi AvQ,
GKeviI Uwjdvb Kiwb| Wjvi b ne| xi nvZLiPi UvKvI AvmQ bv| wPwV
wjLQ - K-U Ki Pvwjq bvI| Wjvi RgvwQ| ci KvR jvMe| Zvgvi evevi
KvQ _K wKQy avi bvI| Avwg `k Gm kva Kie|
Avexii Rbi mgqI GB evcvi| wKwbK evPv nj| bigvj Wwjfvix bq,
wmRvwiqvb| mZiv nvRvi UvKv wej| mB UvKv Zuv`iK w`Z nqQ| KviY RvgvB
nvwmgyL ejQ - UvKvUv wK Avcbviv `eb bv Avwg `e ? Avcbvi gq ejwQj, Avwg
w`j Avcbviv gvB Kieb| GB Rb wRm KiwQ|
ivnjv ejjb, AvwgB `e| ZvgvK fveZ ne bv|
fvewQ bv Zv gv| gvUI fvewQ bv| Ze GB me cyibv wbqg-Kvbyb e`jvbv
DwPZ| weqi ci gqi hveZxq `vq-`vwqZ ^vgxi| evev-gvi GB me wbq fvev DwPZ
bv|
GK ermi ai x, cy dj m wbD RvwmZ AvQ| BQv KijB `yRbK wbq
hZ cvi| Zv be bv| ZvZ Wjvi mf ne bv|
gxi evevi Ni XzKj| evev PvL e Ki BwR Pqvi q AvQb| Nywgq coQb
ejB gb nQ| gxi fq fq Uwjdvbi cvM Lyjj| Rvwgj mvne Kov Mjvq
ejjb, Uwjdvb wbwQm Kv_vq ?
gxi xY^i ejj, gv Rvwb Kv_vq Uwjdvb Kie|
mUv Avgvi Ni _K KiZ cvi bv ? Mvcb KiZ ne ? me wRwbmi GKUv
wbw` RvqMv AvQ| Avjbv _vKe Avjbvi RvqMvq| Uwjdvb _vKe Uwjdvbi
cv - 53

RvqMvq| Uwjdvb Zv gvbyl bv h GKK mgq GKK RvqMvq Nyi eove| hv Zvi
gvK AvmZ ej|
AvQv|
gxi Gm Kuv`v Kuv`v Mjvq ejj, Zzwg UwjdvbUv G Ni Gb `vI gv| evev
AvbZ w`Q bv|
ivnjv Uwjdvb Gb w`jb| gxi ZrYvr wbD RvwmZ Kj eyK Kij|
ivnjv j Kijb, gxi Uwjdvb mUi cvk g~wZi gZ em AvQ| AvMn Ges
Avb` Zvi PnvivUvB Ab iKg nq MQ| ivnjvi Lye gvqv jvMQ| Zuvi KvQ UvKv
_vKj wZwb wUwKU KU gqK ^vgxi KvQ cvwVq w`Zb|
gxi ejj, gv AvR wK GKUz ewkY K_v eje|
AvQv|
Zzwg AvexiK wbq GKUz Ab Ni hvI Zv gv|
ivnjv AvexiK wbq DV Mjb Avi Zvi m mB Uwjdvb evRj| bv wbD
Rvwm _K Kvb Kj bv| gMevRvi _K eRjy bvgi GKUv jvK Uwjdvb KiQ|
AiK PvQ|
gxi ejj, IK Zv GLb `qv hve bv| Avcbvi hv ejvi AvgvK ejyb|
ZvKB `iKvi| Riix GKUv Lei `e|
ejjvg Zv ZvK `qv hve bv| m NygyQ| kixi fvj bv| Avcwb ci Uwjdvb
Kib| Avwg GLb AvgwiKv _K GKUv Kj Gc KiwQ|
Avcwb wK `qv Ki DbvK ejeb h gywne GwWU KiQ| Aev Lye Lvivc|
XvKv gwWKvj BbUbwmf Kqvi AvQ|
gywneUv K ?
DbvK ejjB wPbeb|
AvQv eje| Avcwb jvBbUv Qvob| AvwgI Lye Riix GKUv Kj Gc KiwQ|
Avcwb `qv Ki LeiUv `eb| ejeb eRjy Uwjdvb KiwQj|
eje|
cv - 54

eRjy bvgi AcwiwPZ GB gvbylUv Uwjdvb ivLvi cvq m mB wbD Rvwmi Kj

cvIqv Mj| gxi `k wgwbU K_v ejj| GB `k wgwbU wZbevi Kuv`j| `yevi duvcvZ
duvcvZ ejj, eySZ cviwQ Zzwg AvgvK fvjevm bv|
AiK h LeiUv `qvi K_v gxi mB Lei w`j bv| KviY Zvi wKQyB gb bB|
cevmx ^vgxi m K_v ejj Zvi GiKg nq - mewKQy Gjvgjv nq hvq| kixi Sb
Sb KiZ _vK| mB ivZ GK duvUv Nyg Avm bv| Mjvi KvQ wK hb GKUv `jv
cvwKq _vK|
Aii Nyg fvOj mvejv| Ni AKvi| Rvbvjv w`q kxZi nvIqv AvmQ| AvKvk
gN gN Kvj| kxZi mgq AvKvk gN Kij Kb Rvwb Lye welb jvM| Ai weQvbv
_K bvgj| eviv`vq Gm `uvovj| eviv`vq Lye nvIqv| Mvq Kuvcb jvMQ|
gxi evwU fwZ `ya wbq ivbvNi _K AvmQ| AiK `L wKkvixi gZ cwivi
Mjvq ejj, Zvi `yjvfvBqi m Uwjdvb K_v nj| `k wgwbU K_v ejjvg|
Ai nvB ZzjZ ZzjZ ejj, `yjvfvB Uwjdvb Kijb, bv Zzwg Kij ?
Avwg Kijvg| AvgwiKv _K Kj Kiv Lye LiPv evcvi| ZvQvov jvBbI mnR
cvIqv hvq bv|
`yjvfvB ay jvBb cvb bv, Avi mevB cvq|
GB me wK aibi K_v Ai ?
Vvvi K_v Avcv| `yjvfvBqi m Vvv Kie bv ?
Zvi K_v Uwjdvb wRm KiwQj|
ej wK ? wK mfvM !
Zvi weqi ZvwiL nqQ wK-bv RvbZ PvBj| Avwg ejjvg cl gvmi gvSvgvwS
ne|
Ai nvmZ nvmZ ejj, `yjvfvB eo euvPv euP Mjb| hnZz evBi AvQb
wMdU-wUdU wKQy w`Z ne bv| my`i GKUv KvW cvVvjB ne|
gxi KwVb PvL ZvwKq AvQ| Ai ejj, Zzwg ivM KiQ bv-wK ? `yjvfvBqi m
Vvv Kie bv ?
cv - 55

GB RvZxq Vvv Avgvi fvj jvM bv| Zv`i Rb `yjvfvBqi h `i` Zvi
kZvski GK Ask `i`I Zv`i bB|
ZvB bv-wK ?
GK eQi ai ePviv evBi co AvQ| Avwg Qvov GKevi KD wK Zvi m K_v
ejQ ? evevi Rbw`b m KvW cvwVqQ| ePvivi Rbw`b Mj| evev wK ZvK GKUv
KvW cvwVqQb, bv GK jvBbi GKUv wUwV wjLQb ?
evev RvbZb bv Ke Rbw`b|
Kb Rvbe bv ? Avg evevK wMq ejjvg, evev cuwPk Avei Avexii evevi
Rbw`b| evev ejjb, eyov avwoi Avevi Rbw`b wK ?
GBfve KD K_v ej ? ejv DwPZ ?
gvUB ejv DwPZ bv|
gxii PvL cvwb Gm Mj| Ai ejj, GBme K_v ev` `vI Avcv| `yjvfvB Kgb
AvQ ej|
fvj AvQ| GKUz Vvv jMwQj, GLb fvj|
Avcv kvb| Lye wmbwmqviwj GKUv cki Reve `vI Zv| Lye wmbwmqviwj - Zvgvi
meP wcq gvbylwU K ?
Zvi `yjvfvB, Avevi K ?
AvQv Avcv, cw_exi me gqivB wK Zv`i ^vgxK Zvgvi gZ fvjevm ?
gxi wei nq ejj, ^vgxK fvjvevme bv Zv wK ivvi gvbylK fvjevme ?
gvS gvS ZzB Ggb cvMji gZ K_v ewjm !
Ai A ^i ejj, cw_exZ cwZwU gvbyl hgb Avjv`v Zv`i fvjevmvI wK
Avjv`v ? GKRbi fvjevmv wbqB Ab GKRbi fvjevmvi gZ bq|
gxi ejj, weo weo Ki wK ejwQm ?
Ai ejj, wKQy ejwQ bv|
ejZ ejZB m j Kij Zvi Kgb hb jvMQ| gywnei cvk _vKvi Rb GK
aibi Zxe evKzjZvq m AvQb nq hvQ| wPUvMvs gywne Kv_vq DVQ GUv wK LuvR
cv - 56

wbq Rvbv hvq bv ? m hw` ivZi Ub wPUvMvs Pj hvq, fviejv gywneK Nyg _K
WK Zzj ej - Zzwg Kgb AvQ ? ...
gywne wK Kie ? LvwbKY ZvZjve| ewk iKg PgKvj m ZvZjvZ i Ki|
Kzrwmr jvM| eq GKRb gvbyl Zv Zv Zv KiQ ... RNb|
Kgb nq wPUvMvs Pj Mj ? Ub Ki GKv GKv Pj hvIqv Lye wK mvnmi
KvR? Mvcb weq Ki GiP AbK ewk mvnm wK m `Lvqwb ? AvQv aiv hvK, GKv
hvIqv me bv| m Zv Abvqvm eRjyK ejZ cvi - fvB, Avcwb AvgvK wPUvMvs
wbq Pjyb| Avgvi Lye hZ BQv KiQ| Dwb wbqB ivRx neb|
gqbvi gv Gm ejj, Avdv, Avv Avcbvi WvK| Ai gvi Nii w`K iIbv nj|
ivnjvi `uvZev_v Zxe nqQ| Ilyac GLbv wKQy LvQb bv| Aveivi Avme|
ZvK wRm Ki Lveb| Ai Ni XzK ejj, gv WKQ ?
u|
`uvZev_v wK Lye ewk ?
u|
wK Rb WKQv gv ?
evwZ wbwfq Avgvi cvk evm|
Ai ZvB Kij| ivnjv gqi wcV nvZ iL ejjb, Zvi wK Kvb mgmv AvQ
gv ?
Ai wewZ nq ejj, GB K_v Kb ejQ ?
Kvb KviY bvB| nVvr gb nj| AvQ Kvb mgmv ?
bv|
AvR KjR _K wdi wb ZzB NygvwQm| ej w`qwQm Zvi Nyg hb fvvbv bv
nq| Avwg fvejvg, AmyL-wemyL nqQ| Zvi KvQ LvwbKY emjvg| `wL, Nygi ga
ZzB Lye Kuv`wQm|
`yt^c `LwQjvg gv|
wK `yt^c ?
cv - 57

Avwg GKUv cvvexZ myZvi KvR KiwQ| mu~P evi evi Avgvi Avyj dzU hvQ|
i eiQ| mB i cvvexUv gvLvgvwL nq Mj|
cvvexUv Kvi Rb evbvwQm ?
ivnjv kv `wZ gqi w`K ZvwKq AvQb| Ai PvL wdwiq wbj| ivnjv
ejjb, wVK Ki ejZv `wL gv - Aveivi QjwUK wK Zvi cQ` bv ?
Dwb PgrKvi GKRb gvbyl|
AbK mgq PgrKvi gvbylI gb ai bv| Avwg j KiwQ weq wVK nq hvevi
ci _K Zvi ga GK aibi AwiZv| Nygi ga ZvK h AvRB Kuv`Z `Ljvg
Zv bv - AvMI `LwQ|
Ai wKQy ejZ hvwQj wVK ZLb gxi Gm ejj, Aveivi mvne GmQb| GKMv`v
Lvevi-`vevi wbq GmQb| ivnjv ejjb, IK GBLvbB wbq Avq| wZwb Aii
PvLi w`K ZvKvjb| Aii PvL Dj `LvQ| wZwb Avk njb - hv AvksKv
KiwQjb Zv bq|

cv - 58

\7\
mv`v iOi wcK-Avc avbZ co AvQ| XvKv wPUvMvs nvBIqZ Mvwoi wfo|
Giv KD _vgQ bv| eis GKwmWUi KvQvKvwQ Zv`i Mvwoi MwZ eM eo hvQ|
GLb Mvwo _vgvbvB mgmv| AvnZ gvbyl`i nvmcvZvj wbq hvIqvi `vwqZ Gm coZ
cvi| KB gviv wMq _vKj mgmv Aviv ewk| ivv eK nq hve| `yNv wZb Nvi
gZ Mvwo Pje bv| gvbylRb Rge, cywjk Avme| Mvwo fvsPziI nZ cvi| Mvwo fvsPzi
nIqv Afvm `uvwoq MQ, wKQy GKUv njB Mvwo fvv nq| KvRB GKwmWU nj
ne| eo evKvgx ne Mvwo _vwgq wK nqQ LuvR wbZ hvIqv| Mvwo PvjK ev hvx
Kviv nvZ mgq bB| dix aiZ ne| dixi j^v jvBb hb coZ bv nq|
Mvgi wKQy jvKRb wcK-Avc wNi `uvwoq AvQ| QvU evPv Ges gwnjv`i Kvbv
kvbv hvQ| D hvIqv wcK-Avc _K c_g ei nq Gj jxbv| Zvi PvL fqi
Pq weq ewk| m WvKj, Avey I Avey|
jxbvi evev ei nq Gjb| eij WvBfvi gnwmb| gnwmbi euv nvZ w`q i
coQ| i mvUi AbKLvwb wfR MQ| Ze Zvi KvQ GB AvNvZ Lye iZi ej
gb nQ bv| nZf^ nq ZvwKq _vKv gvbylwji w`K ZvwKq ejj, `uvovq Zvgvkv
`LZQb ? G`i Mvwo _K ei Kib| Avkcvk WvviLvbv Kv_vq AvQ ?
Mvgi gvbylwj Kvb Reve w`j bv| GKRb eyov ay ejj, KqRbi gZz nqQ ?
GZeo GKwmWU mB Zzjbvq wZ A - iZi AvNvZ cqQ aygv gywne|
GKgv ZviB vb bB| gv_vi cQb w`Ki LvwbKUv Ask _Zj MQ|
gnwmb ejj, Bbvi Lye ZvovZvwo Kvb eo nvmcvZvj wbZ ne| Avcbviv GKUv
evev Kib| XvKvi w`K h Mvwowj hvQ Zvi GKUvi _vgvb|
gywnei gv_v Kvj wbq GKRb gwnjv em AvQb| Bwb jxbvi gv| Zuvi AvKvkx
iOi kvwo i gvLv gvwL nq MQ| f`gwnjv GK gb `vqv BDbym cvV KiQb -|
Mvgi gvbyli GB `k `Lvi w`KB ewk AvMn| AvnZ gvbylwUK XvKvq cvVvbvi
evcvi Zv`i Zgb Drmvn `Lv hvQ bv| H eyov jvKUv jxbvi gvK ejj - gvbylUv
cv - 59

Avdbi K nq ? jxbvi gv ejjb, Avcbviv KD GKUz cvwb Avbeb ? Dbvi cvwb

LvIqve| cvwb Avbvi evcvi mevi Lye Drmvn `Lv Mj| GK m Pvi cuvP Rb QuyU
Mj|
jxbvi evev XvKvi w`K hvQ Ggb Kvb GKUv Mvwo _vgvevi Pv KiQb| nvZ
Zzj wPrKvi KiQb KD _vgQ bv| wZwb Dcvq bv `L nvZ Zzj ivvi gvSLvb
`uvovjb, Zey KD _vgQ bv| ZuvK cvk KvwUq Pj hvQ| GB mgq Qv jxbv GKUv
Amxg mvnmi KvR Kij| mI evevi gZ `ynvZ Zzj ivvi GKUv Ask Avovj Ki
`uvovj| XvKvMvgx GKUv PqviKvPK h KviY eva nq _vgZ nj|

cv - 60

\8\
Wvvi mvne ejjb, GLvb ay ay `uvwoq _K jvf bB| Avgv`i hv Kivi
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Rev kv ^i ejj, Avwg Zv KvbvKvwU KiwQ bv|
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AekB gvS gvS Gm `L hveb| Pwek NUv Wvvi _vKe, wPvi wKQy bB|
Rev kl evii gZ ZvKvj| gywne wPr nq q AvQ| Zvi cyiv gv_vq evR|
mB evR wfR DVQ i| PvL e, bvKi fZi bj XzK MQ| AwRb `qv
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cv - 61

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gqi Rbi ci ci gywne ejj, Avcv, Zvgvi gqUv Zvgvi gZ my`i nqwb Zey Avwg
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cv - 62

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hve| Ke Zvi wcq`wkbx eo ne ?
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bB| ZvQvov Zviv mvbv cZI PvQ bv| `ytLB cZ PvQ| Rev eRjyi KvQ wMq
ejj, GLb Zv Avgv`i Avi wKQy Kivi bB| evmvq Pj hvI, wekvg Ki|
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cv - 63

Avcwb Lye Kv nq AvQb| Avgiv Zv AvwQ| GK mKi Rb GLvb _K

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GKUv nU kvIqvi bvI| mvgvb wKQy njI gyL `vI| Zvici `yUv wmWvKwmb Lq Nv
`yGKi Rb i bvI|
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f coe, nP KvbvKvwU ...|
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cv - 64

`wi ne Kb ? Avgv`i hgb wa cqQ ZvgviI wbqB cqQ|

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cv - 65

Pv kl Ki kwdK mvne Kvco co Zwi njb| Zuvi Vvvi avZ| cPzi kxZ
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gywnei Rb h Ni bIqv nqQ H Ni Zv LvwjB AvQ - Avwg mLvb wekvg wbZ
cvwi| Avgvi kixi fvj bv| wekvg `iKvi|
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cv - 66

Avi `Le bv gvb ? wK ejZ PvQ Zzwg ?

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cvi| Zzwg eis wek wgwjMvg wmWvKwmb Lq Avgvi mvgb em| cmvii IlyaUvI LvI,
cmviI eo hZ cvi| Zvi PqI eo K_v, `vgx myUUv Mv _K Lvj| Avgvi
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wmMviUi Zv eva Kibwb| AvR KiQb|
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AvQ| Dj Avjvi w`K gvbyl hgb fzi KzuPK ZvKvq Zgwb Ki m ZvwKq AvQ|
Rev ejj, Avgvi cig `yfvM h Avwg iceZx nq RbwQjvg| Ggb iceZx h zj
covi mgqB Avgvi bvgWvK Qwoq Mj| Zvgiv KZznjx nq AvgvK `LZ Gj|
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cv - 67

Ki bv| Avevi evc-gv giv nvfvZ GKUv gqK MnY KiZI BQ Ki bv| gnv
mgmv| gb AvQ ?
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Zzwg GKv mxgv AwZg KiQ| AvR Avwg Kie| -gb AvQ wKfve Zzwg evPv GKUv
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gvbyl`i `vZvjvq DVvi wbqg bB| c_g ivZ gywne fq cq Avgv`i kvevi Ni
`iRvi mvgb Gm duywcq Kuv`Z jvMj| Zzwg ZvK Zvi Ni wbq wMq evBi _K
Zvjv w`q w`j| gb AvQ ?
nuv gb AvQ| Avwg mUvK eo Aciva ej gb Kwiwb| Avgv`i GB evwo fzZi
evwo bq| fq KvUvbvi Rb mvgvb kvmb Abvq bv|
GUve Zzwg mvgvb kvmb ejQ ? ivZi ci ivZ ZvK Zvjve ivLv mvgvb kvmb ?
Zvgvi K_v kl nqQ bv Aviv AvQ ?
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AZB kl Kie| Avgvi h `wi` eo gvgvi KvQ _K Zzwg AvgvK Zzj GbwQj
mB ePviv Kvb `vl Kiwb| wK wK Acgvb Zzwg ZvK KiQ, Zv-wK gb AvQ ?
cv - 68

bv gb bB| Avgvi wZkw Zvgvi gZ cLi bv|

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LuvR bevi Rb jvK cvVvwQ|
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cv Rwoq aiZ NYv eva nj| Zzwg wPwV w`q gvgvi KvQ jvK cvVvj| gvgv QuyU
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Avwg Hw`b hv KiwQjvg wVKB KiwQjvg| AhwK wKQy Kwiwb|
Zvgvi me KvRB hwK| PgrKvi GKRb hywev`x gvbyl Zzwg| Dwbk eQi ai
Zvgvi hyw bwQ Avi gy nwQ| Avi BQv KiQ bv| GB h Avwg nvmcvZvj hvwQ|
G-evwo _K GUvB Avgvi ei nq hvIqv| Avwg Avi wdi Avme bv|
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cv - 69

GB gq Avwg ZvgvK w`q Mjvg| Zzwg Zvgvi gZ KiB IK gvbyl Ki| Gi

Rb Avgv`i `yRbi fvjvevmvq nqwb| Gi cwZ Avgvi Kvb AvKlY bB|
Zzwg hme K_v ejj, Zvi Rb Zvgvi AbyZvci Kvb mxgv _vKe bv|
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cv - 70

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cv - 71

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cv - 72

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cv - 73

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cv - 74

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cv - 75

gxi AvnZ Mjvq ejj, AvVvi gZ KLb jM iBjvg ? eveyi kixi Lvivc| eveyK
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wWgi ZiKvix, AvjyfvRv| Wvj ivbv nqwb| AbK Avevi Wvj Qvov LZ cvi bv|
GKUz Wvj wK ewmq `eb ? Ava Nvi gZ jvMe| AvQv jvK| GK ivZ GKUz `wi
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cv - 76

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wPwVZ wjLj - gvi kixii w`K j ivLe| evW cmvi GB eqm KUvj ivLZ
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ivnjv weZ nq ejjb, ZzB wK wPwV gyL Ki djwQm bv-wK ?
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cvqi Dci Pv`i Ub w`b|
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gv ejjb, GZ wKQy nq bv| evev iM Mjb - Zzwg wK Ki `LQ h nq bv ? bv
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mUv Avi AvcbvK eje bv|
cv - 77

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GLb wbqB gb coQ|
cv - 78

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m Lye mnR nZ cvwi bv| mnR nZ BQv Ki wK cvwi bv| Avwg hLb Avgvi gvi
m K_v ewj ZLbv LvwbKUv Avovj _vK|
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bv KiwQ bv|
ZvB ejyb|
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m ejj, Avwg Aewk wKQyB gb Kwi bv| cwiPq _vKvUvB ^vfvweK| Qj-gqiv GK
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nq?
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cv - 79

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GLb Lveb bv| AvgvK Zuvi Rb Acv KiZ ne| Avi gxi mejv `yUv iwU
Lvq, ivZ Avi wKQy Lvq bv|
cv - 80

Aveivi ejj, Avgvi wKQy Amyweav nQ bv| GKv Lq Avgvi Afvm AvQ|
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Aveivi nvmj| ivnjvI nm djjb| nvwm Mvcb Kivi Pv KiI nvwm Mvcb
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cv - 81

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msmvi cZQb| GK GK Ki Avgv`i me fvBevbK wbq hvQb| mevi AvM
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cv - 82

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bB| wK wK K_v be me Avwg ZvgvK wjL w`Z cvwi| AvMI wZbevi bwQ|
cv - 83

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ej `qv hvq - gZzi m hy Giv civwRZ|
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kwdKzi ingvb mvne ejjb, wcq`wkbx Zvi gvgvK `Lvi Rb Lye KvbvKvwU
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cv - 84

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cv - 85

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mvne ejjb, wK nqQ gv ? Ai QyU Gm evevK Rwoq ai ejj, Zzwg AvgvK wbq
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Pvcv Mjvq ejj, Wvvi mvne, Avwg wK Ii nvZ GKUz aiZ cvwi ?
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cv - 86

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ZvgK ZvKvZB ne| Avwg me wKQyi wewbgq ZvgvK PqwQjvg| ZvgvK cqwQ|
Avwg ZvgvK Pj hZ `e bv|
ZvgvK ZvKvZB ne| ZvKvZB ne|

cv - 87

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cv - 88

Ai ejjb, nvRviv KvRi mgq Zzwg GLvb em AvQ Kb ? Avwg fvj AvwQ|
gv_vUv Kb Rvwb GKUz Nyi DVj|
Aveivi mvne ejjb, Kvb Amyweav bB| Avwg bv Mj KvR AvUK _vKe bv|
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LuvR-Lei Kivi jvK AvQ| Zzwg PzcPvc q _vKv Zv|
GZ me mgmv Avi Zzwg em AvQ Avgvi Ni| jvK nvmvnvwm Kie Zv|
KiK nvmvnvwm|

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Avi Zvi wKQy ez-eve iq MQ| GB evwoZ evmi ne| Aeq gq`i Drmvni
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\ mgv \

cv - 89