What do you think?
Rate this book
241 pages, Paperback
First published August 4, 2020
They had been traveling for days, first by plane, and then by train and ferry, and now again by train, for their destination was a place at the edge of the world, in the far north of a northern country, and not easily gained.What you have is an unhappy couple who go on a journey of self-discovery to a far off place and come away with greater self-awareness…or don’t. The stuff in between is sometimes entertaining, and often very confusing. The man and the woman, as they are always referred to, (they are never named) arrive at an ends-of-the-earth town after a lengthy and arduous trip. They are there to adopt a baby, and this place has the only orphanage that will accept their application. The woman is dying of cancer and wants the man to have a child to raise, a child she was never able to give him, having suffered several miscarriages, so he will be able to go on after she passes. [He wants a child, but can’t he pursue another relationship after his wife passes? It was not entirely clear to me why, if he is so desperate to have a child, it must be an adoptee if it cannot be hers.] They even pass through the equivalent of a tunnel getting there, usually a symbol for entering a place of change.
For a long time she had been staring absently out the window, mesmerized, it seemed, by the endless expanse of tundra, but she suddenly recoiled when the train entered the dark woods as if the trees brushing the sides of the carriage might reach in and scratch her.Scary change, at that. Well, there is certainly a big change coming if the woman is dying, and another if they are to adopt an orphan. So, ok, change is coming. Get the baby, head home, have a few months together as a family before the woman dies. That is the plan, however strange. But nothing is ever simple, right?
There was so much he wished he could do for her, so much he wished he could give to her, but nothing he tried to do, or give, ever seemed to reach her. It was as if she wore a shield that deflected all of his love, an armor that protected her from anything he gave.That shield gets much more literal, as she cringes at his touch, yet does not recoil from the touch of others. Ouch! It is pretty clear that this is a relationship in serious trouble, whether her cancer had caused her increased distancing from the man, or whether it was there before her diagnosis.
The train. He turned to see it slowly moving, so slowly that for a moment he thought it must be the darkness moving behind it, but then he knew it was the train, for he could see his wife leaning forward, looking out of the still-opened door, her white face silently surprised, and for a second it felt like death to him, like how one must let one’s beloved depart this world, gliding silently slack-faced into the snow-dark.Is it her demise he fears or her emotional departure he senses? She baits him from time to time, and then attacks him for his responses. (Boy, that conjures up some memories!)
The bartender was a young man, tall and dark, vaguely Asiatic, and remarkably stiff, as if he had been born with fewer joints than normal.Even the drinks are weird. Lárus, the above noted barkeep, serves the man a local schnapps that is tinged with the silvery blue glow that the snow reflects at twilight. (Sounds like a drink that would be served in Night Vale) The man finds it tastes of bleach and watercress and spearmint and rice. (Maybe it will cure Covid?) How is it that the lobby and dining room are so grand and the rooms so Motel 6? So, does the hotel act as merely a background for the couple’s adventure, does it reflect their interior conflicts? or does it intercede, or interfere? Who knows?
You’re lost, aren’t you?
Yes, said the woman I am.
The thing to remember is that we’re all lost, said Livia Pinheiro-Rima. We’re living in a dark time. No one can find their way.