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    The Winnowing
    The Winnowing
    The Winnowing
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    The Winnowing

    By Teena Ferrara

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    As a lifelong prayer pilgrim, Teena Ferrara has written The Winnowing from the depths of her soul out of her passionate love for Jesus. These reflections flow from her rich walk with the Lord and the intimacy of being present with Him every day.

    This book will take readers to a place few would willingly dare to go, venturing through a sudden and unexpected dark-night-of-the-soul experience, loss, and trauma. What unfolds is a raw search for God in the midst of a muddle of emotional, physical, and spiritual pain.

    LanguageEnglish
    PublisherWord Alive Press
    Release dateMay 29, 2024
    ISBN9781486624997
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      The Winnowing - Teena Ferrara

      THE WINNOWING

      Copyright © 2024 by Teena Ferrara

      All rights reserved. Neither this publication nor any part of this publication may be reproduced or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic or mechanical, including photocopying, recording or any information storage and retrieval system, without permission in writing from the author.

      Scripture quotations taken from the Amplified® Bible (AMP), Copyright © 2015 by The Lockman Foundation. Used by permission. lockman.org. Scripture quotations are from the ESV® Bible (The Holy Bible, English Standard Version®), © 2001 by Crossway, a publishing ministry of Good News Publishers. Used by permission. All rights reserved. The ESV text may not be quoted in any publication made available to the public by a Creative Commons license. The ESV may not be translated in whole or in part into any other language.

      Author photo by Rebekah Mazzacato

      www.adorninlightphotography.com

      Book cover design & interior illustrations by Cynthia Sayede

      [email protected]

      ISBN: 978-1-4866-2498-0

      eBook ISBN: 978-1-4866-2499-7

      Word Alive Press

      119 De Baets Street Winnipeg, MB R2J 3R9

      www.wordalivepress.ca

      Cataloguing in Publication information can be obtained from Library and Archives Canada.

      This book is dedicated to my loving husband,

      Angelo, who saw it all and still loved me.

      Acknowledgements

      I could not have moved forward in writing this book without the help of Barbara Dickson. You were there at the gate, wading through my messy pages, sharing coffees, and speaking endless encouragement to my heart. Thank you, my friend, for your love and support. Your words were vital to the vision.

      Thank you, Cynthia Sayede. Your ability to capture the vision with your original art for these humble pages is stunning. I’m so grateful you said yes.

      Julie Wiger, your messages during the darkest, most painful days kept me from giving up. Thank you.

      Eileen Simpson, thank you for the mylar balloon. The bobbing happy face was my companion during lonely isolation. Your prayers were my lifeline.

      To my children, Sarah (Stephen) and Elisha, thank you for checking in during my confinement and all your love and support along my healing journey.

      Finally, I must acknowledge Joan, who suffered in ways I don’t understand. Thank you for your joy.

      Prelude

      In the spring of 2019, I incurred an injury that changed my life. Not everyone is affected the same way that I was. This little book is filled with raw reality and truth. It contains some graphic details about the symptoms I experienced throughout the injury and recovery, and I’ve tried to describe them accurately. Weaved throughout is my response regarding my faith in God and how He has always led me through, even when I felt completely separated from him.

      I’ve written this book because I felt compelled to share some of the spiritual treasure of knowing God in the midst of our suffering. My prayer is that you will find peace and rest in seemingly unchangeable circumstances in the afflictions of your life. Sometimes hearing other people’s stories will encourage you and give you strength to go on when you don’t think you can. May you find hope here and, most importantly, the only One that is Hope, Jesus Christ, the soon coming King. He is faithful.

      If ye were not Christ’s wheat, appointed to be bread

      in His house, He would not grind you.¹

      —Samuel Rutherford

      Beloved, do not be surprised at the fiery trial when it comes upon you to test you, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice insofar as you share Christ’s sufferings, that you may also rejoice and be glad when his glory is revealed. (1 Peter 4:12–13, ESV)

      I

      Day Ten

      This was the day I started to write again. It had been ten days since the injury. I carefully opened a new journal gifted to me by my dear Irish friend and began. I felt wobbly as my eyes followed the curvy ink lines, making ribbons of words on the page. Writing was a challenge and my head was full of blinding pain.

      I had to try.

      The previous nine days were all I knew. Wild waves had shipwrecked me, violently tossing me side to side and around, thrashing me deep into the sea of confinement, leaving me for dead. I felt buried alive. Underwater. Swimming inside my head in darkness, clothed in separation, clawing the sheets in pain. Sound and light struck at me like a sharpened spear, relentless in their blows and preventing me from walking in the land of the living.

      This was day ten. Welcome to my head injury.

      The Suddenlies

      We often attribute the unexpected happenings of life to either God or the devil. These are the surprises when we suddenly receive a generous gift or promotion. Or some difficult news. It might be an illness, an injury, or the loss of your home, your job, your hope. These unexpected shocks can change everything in a moment. One phone call, one meeting, one encounter, one word. Abrupt and without warning.

      It was the first of the month and I was cleaning the house. My energy level was focused and the music kept the beat as I worked. I bent down to pick up something from the floor. All it took was a swift turn to the right…

      …and the suddenly met the side of my head with the force of a swinging baseball bat, stopping my head, and my body, in its tracks.

      Thud.

      I felt my teeth grind down hard and I heard myself say, Ow. There was a split second of my eyes squeezing shut and feeling so very odd. I paused and then shrank to the floor, leaning against the wall in order to get my bearings.

      The dog sauntered over and began licking my arm. Dog sense. I did a quick mental body scan. Everything seemed okay.

      Standing up, I entered the bathroom and looked in the mirror. Pupils looked fine. No blood anywhere. I checked my tongue for good measure. All seemed well.

      The day continued as normal, although I occasionally wondered if there had been any damage.

      Nah, I told myself. I feel fine.

      It wasn’t until later in the evening that a new suddenly began to develop and I came to the realization that something was very wrong.

      Emergency Room

      The emergency room was busy as usual, but with every moment, every second of waiting, my sense of well-being plummeted as panic set in deep and fast.

      But finally my husband and I got in to

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