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    Running from Spiders
    Running from Spiders
    Running from Spiders
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    Running from Spiders

    By Xaviera Robertson

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    Running from Spiders is a heartfelt, honest, and clear look at what enduring, and recovering from, childhood abuse is like. 


    This series of personal letters and essays wasn't originally intended for public consumption, but as a personal therapeutic tool for the author. She decided to publish her stories in

    LanguageEnglish
    PublisherXaviera Robertson
    Release dateMay 27, 2023
    ISBN9798985648744
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      Running from Spiders - Xaviera Robertson

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      Introduction

      Over the past few years I’ve been slowly writing about my early life. As you’ll learn, my writing started as a therapeutic tool to help get thoughts and memories out of my mind. I was surprised by the relief I felt by sharing my thoughts in writing with only an audience of one in mind, me.

      Putting my thoughts in a safe place outside of my body helped release some emotional pressure. I have shared a couple of my letters in support groups and received feedback that my writing was impactful. A few people said it helped provide a voice to their struggles. Being moved by this feedback, I decided to open my story to the world. I also wanted to share my experiences with therapy and the resources that helped me through this trauma.

      It’s my hope that readers and listeners who have survived child abuse and neglect find some amount of healing and self-love. For those who had a solid childhood foundation or have the fortune to walk through life without mental health issues, I hope you discover a newfound appreciation, grace, and respect for those who struggle to endure life.

      Table of Contents

      A Breakthrough Crisis
      Letter to my Abusers
      Motherless
      Fatherless
      Brotherly Love
      Evil Stepmother
      Grandfathered
      On the Other Side of Therapy
      Life with C-PTSD
      References & Resources
      Book Details
      Written by Xaviera Robertson
      Self-Published 2023
      Copyright 2023
      ISBN 979-8-9856487-4-4
      Book Images
      Images in this book were created by Deep AI using
      terminology from the letters and essays.

      A Breakthrough Crisis

      In late January of 2021, I received an email informing me that my grandpa had died. The news punched me in the stomach and I started to sob. Not because his death was unexpected or he was my dear sweet grandpa—it was sadly, because he was one of my primary abusers. Because of the abuse I endured, his death was a breakthrough crisis for me.

      As an exercise to process my feelings and emerging flashbacks triggered by his death my therapist suggested several exercises including writing an honest eulogy. Not anything to be read at his funeral—if I chose to attend—something just for me. A place outside of my body to hold what was going on in my mind, and relieve me of the thoughts that haunted me. I didn’t attend the funeral, because I would have to face two of my other abusers. Instead of attending the funeral, I used the funeral leave I had scheduled to write the eulogy.

      Having found some healing and self-love, I look out into the world with kinder eyes.

      Sitting down to write the eulogy I

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