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    Doing God’s Will: “A Memoir”
    Doing God’s Will: “A Memoir”
    Doing God’s Will: “A Memoir”
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    Doing God’s Will: “A Memoir”

    By Esther James

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    This book is geared towards the individual who thinks that God cannot use him/her despite his/her mistakes. If God could use me with all of my sins, I know that He can use you.

    LanguageEnglish
    PublisherWestBow Press
    Release dateDec 2, 2020
    ISBN9781664204225
    Doing God’s Will: “A Memoir”
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    Esther James

    Esther James loves the Lord and enjoys serving the Lord. She currently resides in Texas and serves faithfully at her local church. She is a loving mother of two children and Nana of six beautiful grandchildren. Reading and traveling are some of her favorite pastimes. She also enjoys attending sporting and fine arts events.

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      Doing God’s Will - Esther James

      Copyright © 2020 Esther James.

      All rights reserved. No part of this book may be used or reproduced by any means, graphic, electronic, or mechanical, including photocopying, recording, taping or by any information storage retrieval system without the written permission of the author except in the case of brief quotations embodied in critical articles and reviews.

      WestBow Press

      A Division of Thomas Nelson & Zondervan

      1663 Liberty Drive

      Bloomington, IN 47403

      www.westbowpress.com

      844-714-3454

      Because of the dynamic nature of the Internet, any web addresses or links contained in this book may have changed since publication and may no longer be valid. The views expressed in this work are solely those of the author and do not necessarily reflect the views of the publisher, and the publisher hereby disclaims any responsibility for them.

      Any people depicted in stock imagery provided by Getty Images are models, and such images are being used for illustrative purposes only.

      Certain stock imagery © Getty Images.

      Scripture taken from the New King James Version® Copyright © 1982 by Thomas Nelson. Used by permission. All rights reserved.

      ISBN: 978-1-6642-0421-8 (sc)

      ISBN: 978-1-6642-0422-5 (e)

      Library of Congress Control Number: 2020916876

      WestBow Press rev. date: 11/25/2020

      CONTENTS

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      Introduction

      Chapter 1 Childhood

      Chapter 2 College Years

      Chapter 3 Relationship with Men

      Chapter 4 Adulthood

      Chapter 5 Single Parent Mom

      Chapter 6 When God Tells You to Move

      INTRODUCTION

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      Have you ever felt like God didn’t love you? Have you ever felt condemned because of your past and like God has not forgiven you? Do you feel like you have not forgiven yourself? Have you ever felt like because of your past mistakes and sins that God could not use you? With God, there is now no condemnation (Romans 8:1 NKJV). With countless sins and mistakes, what I have found through the testimony of my life is that God can use anybody He desires to use. I do believe that the enemy meant evil against me; but God meant it for good… (Genesis 50:20 NKJV). I believe that He uses those who have messed up the most to do His will so that He can get glory out of their lives.

      As I wrote this book, I ventured over my life from childhood until now. I discuss my personal experiences associated with my childhood, college years, relationships with men, adulthood, as a single-parent mom, and when God told me to move. Your parents give you life, but God gives you your destiny for life. I speak about various life experiences. From the thinkable to the unthinkable, I have sinned in countless ways. Despite my countless fallacies, God still desired to use me. He decided to turn my mistakes and misery into a powerful ministry to help others. You cannot help others if you have never been through anything. How can you minister to someone who is a single parent mom when you have never been one? How can you minister to someone promiscuous if you have not walked in that person’s shoes? How can you comfort someone who has lost, not one, but both parents, if that has not happened to you? Your perspective changes when you go through things. The way you talk to people changes what you say and how you say it. Your view of people and their emotions or actions revolving around moments of their lives changes because you can empathize. You learn to show grace and mercy as you’ve never shown people before. Ultimately, you learn to stop being so judgmental. "[F]or all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God (Romans 3:23 NKJV). So, what sins have you committed?

      CHAPTER 1

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      Childhood

      M y paternal grandfather died before I was born. I always heard stories about my grandfather. I wish I would have met him, but death waits for no one. A beautiful baby girl was born days after his passing. Yes, I said beautiful. If I don’t say to myself that I am beautiful, then who will?

      God has had me covered ever since I was a baby. God would wake my maternal grandfather up the same time every morning. My maternal grandmother repetitively talked about how he used to rise early in the morning around 3 or 4 o’clock to care for me. He always made certain that I was taken care of and had provision. I always felt safe around my grandfather and at peace in his presence. My grandfather must have known that God had a plan for my life.

      When I was younger, I always felt like the people I loved the most were dying. I remember being mad at my dad because he would not take me to see one of my cousins in the hospital who had leukemia. My cousin was so full of life and always made people laugh. When I finally saw my cousin after his hospital stay, I felt dreadful. I did not go and see him in the hospital. Though it was beyond my control, I felt as though I had deserted him. When he died, it bothered me.

      When my maternal grandfather passed, I cried profusely. I was around 8 or 10 years old at the time. I was upset with my cousin because I thought that he could have done something to save my grandfather’s life. As I grew older, I realized that was not the case. I just wanted my grandfather back. It was around this time that I recall seeing a vision of what I believed to be Jesus. When I attended my grandfather’s funeral, they sang, What A Friend We Have in Jesus. That song has stuck with me all these years. I vowed even then I would not forget that song.

      During my early years, my grandfather would spoil me. When he took his insulin shots, he would pretend he was going to stick me with the needle. I miss my grandfather proclaiming truisms of wisdom. When we used to fall off our bikes, he would utter, Dust yourself off and get back up again. I recall conveying to a couple of guys what my grandfather declared. As I became older, I recognized that this cliché could be applied to life.

      My grandfather and I had a mutual love for one another. He never spanked me. My sister and I tussled over a chair I had been sitting in. My grandfather got his belt out. I was petrified. My grandfather gave my sister a spanking so bad that I could feel her pain. I thought that he was going to spank me next. Thank God! He didn’t. I knew I was the apple of his eye and that I was special to him. Not only did my grandfather spoil me, but my maternal grandmother did as well. She would hide chitterlings for me and tell her children she did not have anymore. She would tell me to be quiet and hand me a plate of chitterlings that she hid just for me. Oh, how I miss those days.

      When we were little, my siblings and I stayed with my maternal grandparents on the weekends. My grandmother continually made certain that we attended church. My grandmother ensured that all her children, grandchildren, and great-grandchildren attended church when they stayed at her house. We were in the sanctuary every time the doors of the church were open. We rose early on Sunday morning to eat breakfast and walked down to the church. My grandmother taught Sunday School, so she taught us. After Sunday School, we would venture off to my great-grandmother’s house to get some snacks to eat, but we had to be back for the regular church service. We sang in the children’s choir. We also said our speeches when it was Easter and Christmas. We traveled on church trips and youth outings. We also attended Vacation Bible School. Nightly, we would kneel by the bedside and pray.

      My maternal grandmother loved us unconditionally, whether we exhibited acceptable or unacceptable behavior. She would correct us in love. She showed us grace and mercy. She was an epitome of God’s agape love. I believe that my grandmother had spiritual gifts and could see us through God’s lenses. I adored being around her. She would offer tidbits of sage and wisdom. She would say things like, You have to listen to somebody and You reap what you sow.

      My grandmother and my great-aunt always knew the right words to say when I visited them in their nursing homes. I knew that they were saying what God told them to say. There were times when I would not say anything, and they would say the right words I needed to hear. When I went to visit my grandmother one night at the nursing home, I recall her telling me to always stay out in front in whatever I set my mind to do. She also told me that she knew that my mom was going to die. By the time she told me, I was mature enough to handle it. My great-aunt told me that everything was going to be alright. How did

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