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    Private Stash: Love Poems from Heaven and Hell
    Private Stash: Love Poems from Heaven and Hell
    Private Stash: Love Poems from Heaven and Hell
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    Private Stash: Love Poems from Heaven and Hell

    By Al Ferber

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    "Al Ferber has created a world as seen through the eyes of Gus. Gus is irascible, nasty, haunted by ghosts, and transformed by his loves. Gus shamelessly invites us into his richly textured fantasies to witness his pain, his doubts, and his exuberance for living. Ferbers Gus is a master of the ordinary. He remembers streets he played on and neighborhoods of childhood conquests and defeats. We share his bed, and the inner recesses of his agile, wily mind. Gus fearlessly shapes poems out of scraps of memory and comes up whole for his efforts. Ferber is an original voice and through Gus spins out vivid scenes from a life."
    Norman Newberg, MA
    Author, Alternative Education Specialist & Consultant
    Associate Professor, University of Pennsylvania
    LanguageEnglish
    PublisherXlibris US
    Release dateJan 8, 2002
    ISBN9781462844548
    Private Stash: Love Poems from Heaven and Hell
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    Al Ferber

    Al Ferber got birthed involuntarily. Went to school involuntarily. Worked jobs involuntary. Followed rules & laws involuntary. Had wet dreams involuntary. Breaths involuntary. Writes & paints in order to keep from going bat shit crazy with unearthly passion. Loves with passion. Spent 30 years in prolonged failed suicide attempt with alcohol. Danced with bi-polar disorder involuntary all his life. Had 50 volumes of poems & 2 novels published. Lives with Cathi his more than tolerant wife of more than 36 years and Opal a greyhound who understands. American talk and can tell time to the minute.

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      Private Stash - Al Ferber

      Copyright © 2001 by Al Ferber.

      All rights reserved. No part of this book may be reproduced or transmitted in any form or by any means, electronic or mechanical, including photocopying, recording, or by any information storage and retrieval system, without permission in writing from the copyright owner.

      This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places and incidents either are the product of the author‘s imagination or are used fictitiously, and any resemblance to any actual persons, living or dead, events, or locales is entirely coincidental.

      This book was printed in the United States of America.

      To order additional copies of this book, contact:

      Xlibris Corporation

      1-888-7-XLIBRIS

      www.Xlibris.com

      [email protected]

      Contents

      INTRODUCTION:

      ALSO BY AL FERBER

      ABOUT THE AUTHOR

      COMPREHENSIVE

      ASSESSMENT

      COMPREHENSIVE

      ASSESSMENT

      WITHOUT MUSIC

      PULSE

      EXQUISITE FANTASY

      BROAD BEAM

      QUIZZICAL NATURE

      LIGHT SHOW

      EUSTAQUIO

      LINES OF DEMARCATION

      FLOWER SHOW

      FOOT LIGHT

      LAWN DARTS

      SQUIRT GUNS

      TRADE WINDS

      EXPRESSION

      HONORABLE MENTION

      LADY’S WORK

      RAVENOUS

      FUCKED

      BONE SNAP

      SELF SERVE

      STALLION

      SWEATER VEST

      ORCHARD

      MORAL OBLIGATION

      LAUGHING MOON

      LATRINE

      LATERAL MOVEMENT

      J. SCOTT & THE COAT

      INTERTWINED

      INTERLUDE

      TRAINING WHEELS

      HUNGER PANGS

      FREE-FOR-ALL

      FOUNTAINS

      FANTASY

      DARK HAVEN

      CHINESE FIRE DRILL

      CHINESE AUCTION

      CHARLEY

      HOLY BUMS

      BLEEDER

      BLACK LIGHT

      BERMUDA

      POEMS

      1

      2

      3

      4

      5

      6

      7

      8

      9

      10

      11

      BENCH MARKS

      BENCH MARKS

      BACKWARDS

      ASPARAGUS

      ALPHABETICAL

      A LAND OF CITIZENS

      PISS CALL

      PERSPIRATION

      RAIN OUT

      STEAM BATH

      BEMUSED

      SOBBING TREE

      UNDERBELLY

      PHILANTHROPY

      DEAD BRANCH

      INTERNAL COMBUSTION

      IRRESISTIBLE ALLURE

      MEDIEVAL SLIP

      SEISMIC SCALE

      ROAMIN’ NUMERALS

      SEEPAGE

      AND WORLD WITHOUT END

      WHO NOES

      UNDECIDED

      PARADISE LOST

      RANDOM HOUSES

      PISSING CONTEST

      REPREHENSE

      ROMAN NUMERALS

      UNSOLICITED

      ETERNAL WINDS

      FAINT GLIMMER

      HEART ZONE

      HITHER & YON

      STRETCH MARKS

      SPOTTED PONY

      STRETCH MOVE

      PUBLIC SERVANT

      FOREIGN TONGUE

      ZOOM

      COSMIC GENIUS

      HORSE SENSE

      LAUGHING MAN

      MAD BOOKS FROM HELL

      COMIC SADNESS

      OPEN SPACES

      CHARACTER DEFECTS

      CORNERSTONE

      ELECTRONIC CONVEYANCE

      OVERDRAWN

      UNDERCARRIAGE

      UNDERCURRENT

      UNDERGROWTH

      BLUE COLLAR GIRL

      OCCUPATIONAL HAZARDS

      SMALL CITY

      FERTILE GROUND

      HIDDEN IN SHADOWS

      HOLLOW TREE

      FELLOWSHIP

      BLACKOUT SWIMMING

      BACK LOT

      FAULTY MEMORY

      IMMORTAL

      ABORTED DREAM

      BLIND EYE

      REFRACTED DREAMS

      SHORT SIGHTED

      SILK CHEST

      TINY UNIVERSE

      CONCUBINE

      COURT JESTER

      DEPTHS OF DESPAIR

      BLOODHOUND

      OFF GUARD

      PHILANTHROPIST

      REHABILITATION

      LIFE WITHOUT DREAMS

      MERRY-GO-ROUND

      NO EXIT

      ONE MORE

      DISAPPOINTMENT

      LAUGHING MATTER

      UNPROTECTED

      BLUE COLLAR SAINT

      MARKET COLLAPSE

      CREVICES

      LAID WASTE

      UNVEILING

      WORKING CLASS LOVE

      SUMMER USE OF DREAMS

      SAD RABBIT

      UNBROKEN

      WORDLESS COMPROMISE

      IMPOSSIBLE DREAM

      BRIGHT LIGHTS

      IRRATIONAL

      PLUGGING

      LONG ISLAND

      BEYOND CONCEPTION

      BREATHER

      REBELLION

      ROSES ARE RED

      RING AROUND

      SHE CAME TO VIENNA

      WILDWOOD, NJ

      EYE OF THE

      STORM

      KILLING FIELDS

      WILLOW THRUSH

      SPASTIC

      BLANK PAGE

      WITHHOLDING EVIDENCE

      METEORIC RISE

      GOD’S WILL BE DONE

      KILLING TIME

      WAITING

      LOUD MOUTH

      PISSING IN THE HALL

      MODIGLIANI MOMMA

      ANGELIC CHOIR

      CODA

      MISER

      SMALL APPLIANCES

      WASTED ENERGY

      for Cathi

      INTRODUCTION:

      Contained here are the deepest dark secrets of a mind plagued for over half a century with major depression, anxiety and the self imposed isolation and loneliness of alcoholism. It’s a laugh riot!

      Gus

      ALSO BY AL FERBER

      SALVATION AND THE BEADS

      (Newtown Printers) 1975

      GUS (Pudding Press) 1982

      INVENTORY IN THE BADLANDS

      (Johnston Green Publishers) 1986

      GUS: BIOGRAPHICAL NOTES OF A PART TIME ALTER EGO

      (Cutting Edge Press) 1994

      POEMS FROM THE AVALANCHE

      (Xlibris) 2000

      Al Ferber’s poems have appeared in numerous poetry journals and

      periodicals.

      ABOUT THE AUTHOR

      Al Ferber lives with his wife Cathi in Bensalem, PA. He was born 1946 in Philadelphia, Pennsylvania, fell in love on Delhi Street at the age of 13, wrestled with alcohol in a steel cage match for 30 years and lost, while chasing after another love and dreams. He attended Bucks County Community College, Penn State University, Temple University and Villanova University. He has worked as a teacher, administrator of human service programs, restaurant manager and bartender and is currently working in the field of Drug and Alcohol Counseling. His next book, an autobiographical novel, Diamonds In The Rough will be published by Xlibris.

      COMPREHENSIVE

      ASSESSMENT

      COMPREHENSIVE

      ASSESSMENT

      Gus wondered just how far

      to what lengths the shy boy’d

      go to meet her see her

      or even just to get

      to talk to her again

      would he be willing to stand

      on the front step of the

      house where she lived

      in their old neighborhood

      and wait for her to reappear

      would he stand guard

      in the alley behind that house

      just in case she tried

      to sneak in the back door

      would he be willing

      to meet her on any corner

      of any street in any town

      or city in the world

      to see her face again

      would he be willing to ride

      the buses and subway cars

      of the city

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