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    COMMUNITY

    By Graham Masterton

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    • Mystery

    • Deception

    • Memory Loss

    • Identity

    • Love

    • Amnesiac Hero

    • Love Triangle

    • Fish Out of Water

    • Mysterious Past

    • Power of Friendship

    • Power of Love

    • Medical Drama

    • Trauma-Induced Amnesia

    • Amnesiac Protagonist

    • Mysterious Community

    • Escape

    • Therapy

    • Fear

    • Relationships

    • Mount Shasta

    About this ebook

    Michael is involved in a car crash which kills his girlfriend. He wakes to find himself in the hospital of a small town in Montana. There he convalesces and gradually becomes acquainted with the local community, most of whom seem to be clever and charming, although some are arrogant and difficult to get on with. In particular he forms a relationship with a smart and pretty local girl. He learns that he has been in a coma for weeks and that his friend’s remains have already been sent back to California for cremation. He keeps in touch with his family through emails and phone calls.

    As time goes by, however, and he gradually recovers his mobility, he begins to notice odd things about the community. People disappear without explanation and nobody ever mentions them again. Strangers come and go on a regular basis but the local people seem to ignore them. He is about to leave and go back home when his new girlfriend disappears. He stays to investigate. He gradually begins to come to the terrible conclusion that he is actually dead and that everybody in the town knows that he is no more than a ghost. The truth, however, is far more shocking...
    LanguageEnglish
    PublisherSevern House
    Release dateSep 1, 2013
    ISBN9781780104362
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    Graham Masterton

    Graham Masterton was born in Edinburgh, Scotland, in 1946. He worked as a newspaper reporter before taking over joint editorship of the British editions of Penthouse and Penthouse Forum magazines. His debut novel, The Manitou, was published in 1976 and sold over one million copies in its first six months. It was adapted into the 1978 film starring Tony Curtis, Susan Strasberg, Stella Stevens, Michael Ansara, and Burgess Meredith. Since then, Masterton has written over seventy-five horror novels, thrillers, and historical sagas, as well as published four collections of short stories and edited Scare Care, an anthology of horror stories for the benefit of abused children. He and his wife, Wiescka, have three sons. They live in Cork, Ireland, where Masterton continues to write.  

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    • 2/5
      I hadn't read this author before so prior to starting this book, I checked through reviews for some of his others & was encouraged by what I saw. Maybe I shouldn't have done that.
      I won't rehash the whole plot, you can get a good summary above. Suffice to say Michael & his girlfriend Tasha are cruising through snowy northern California admiring Mt. Shasta when the unthinkable happens. Fast forward & Michael wakes up to find himself in a hospital with amnesia but no girlfriend. That's when things get weird.
      I got the impression this author is best known for horror stories so maybe this was an attempt at something different. For me, it was just an ok read.
      The premise sounded interesting even though the amnesia trope is a bit tired. But common devices can be overlooked if you like the characters & find their interactions compelling. In this story, unfortunately the main issue for me was the protagonist. I found Michael kind of bland & some of his reactions just didn't ring true. It's a pet peeve of mine when things are patently obvious to the reader but have to be spelled out repeatedly to a character.
      The way he reacted to events around him seemed inconsistent. Some he blithely accepted (things that would make most people say "Wha...?"), others became obsessions. And sorry, the whole Isobel/Michael thing required a huge leap of faith. In the blink of an eye, he's in her home & bed even though it's obvious right from the get go that she's more than a little "tetched". I didn't understand the purpose of all the sex as it did nothing to further the plot, coming off as gratuitous.
      I kept waiting for that moment when I'd get hooked & have to keep reading to see how it all pans out. A book can begin slowly but at some point, the tension has to start building so you become invested in the fate of the characters. I found them oddly flat & much of the dialogue came across as stiff. It just seems like people in this situation would react with more emotion & intensity.
      It's an easy read with a very simple & repetitive style of prose. I really wanted to be scared or at least feel a few shivers but it never happened. This, too, would be ok if there were a few nice twists or surprises you didn't see coming.
      All action is reserved for the last chapter so you have a nice tidy resolution but by then, I'm afraid I wanted out of Trinity as badly as Michael.

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    COMMUNITY - Graham Masterton

    ONE

    The pick-up first appeared in Michael’s rear-view mirror about twelve miles north of Weed.

    It kept its distance at least a half-mile behind them, too far away for Michael to make out what kind of pick-up it was, but its halogen headlights were fixed on high beam, and so even at that distance they were irritatingly bright.

    ‘Inconsiderate schmuck,’ said Michael, but only to himself, under his breath, because Tasha was sleeping. He flipped his mirror to anti-glare, but even that didn’t stop him from being dazzled.

    About eight miles north of Weed, it started to snow. Not thickly, just light whirly stuff that flew into the windshield and skipped diagonally across the highway. The sky was slate-gray, but as they came around the next curve, the pine trees thinned out, and Mount Shasta appeared, its snowy peaks shining orange in the very last light of the day.

    ‘Hey,’ said Michael, giving Tasha a nudge. ‘Mount Shasta.’

    She opened her eyes and blinked at him. ‘What did you say?’

    ‘Mount Shasta. Right there.’

    ‘Oh my God, it’s amazing. It doesn’t even look real.’

    ‘Fifth highest peak in the Cascade Range,’ he told her.

    ‘You would know that.’

    ‘I also happen to know that it’s four thousand three hundred twenty-two meters high, with an estimated volume of eight hundred fifty cubic kilometers.’

    Tasha punched his arm. ‘Why do you always have to reduce everything to numbers? Look at it, it’s so spiritual.’

    ‘Excuse me, I can do spiritual. The Modocs believe that the sky spirit Skell came down to live on top of Mount Shasta. Not only that, a race of aliens called Lemurians are supposed to have made their home inside it, in a network of tunnels. And those New Age people are convinced that it’s one of America’s principal hubs of psychic energy.’

    ‘I just think it’s beautiful. It’s so serene.’

    Now and then, the mountain disappeared behind the trees, and each time when it reappeared its orange glow had faded a little more, until the sun went down and all they could see was its upper slopes, chilly and white in the gathering darkness. Mount Shasta was as lonely as God, somebody had once written about it, and as white as the winter moon.

    Michael hadn’t intended to drive through Siskiyou County after nightfall, especially if it was snowing, or windy, but they had blown a tire just outside Yreka and they were running over an hour behind schedule. He had booked a room for them at the Comfort Inn in Weed for six pm, and it was already a quarter after seven.

    Tasha stretched herself. ‘You shouldn’t let me go to sleep like that,’ she complained. ‘I won’t be able to sleep tonight now.’

    ‘Who said anything about sleeping?’

    She punched his arm again and said, ‘Who do you think you’re kidding? I know you. Ten-thirty precisely and you close your eyes and not even the Mormon Tabernacle Choir could wake you.’

    Michael checked his rear-view mirror again. The pick-up was still behind them, still with its headlights on high. If he hadn’t been so anxious to make up time he would have slowed down and let it pass.

    He didn’t argue with Tasha because he knew that she was right – he did zonk off as soon as his head hit the pillow. To be fair to him, though, he had been driving nearly three hundred miles every day, all the way up coastal highway 101 as far as Renton, near Seattle, to visit Tasha’s sister Rody and her boring husband David. Now they were heading back home to San Francisco the quicker way, on Interstate 5. This trip was what they jokingly called their ‘jumping-the-gun-eymoon’. They had decided to move in together two weeks ago, but they weren’t planning to get married until April at the earliest.

    ‘I’m so hungry,’ said Tasha. ‘I don’t know why. That cheeseburger we had at the Black Bear Diner – that was just enormous.’

    ‘I don’t know where the hell you put it,’ said Michael. ‘You’re so darned skinny, when you eat something that size I’m amazed you don’t look pregnant.’

    ‘I have an incredibly efficient metabolism, that’s why. Everything I eat turns into pure energy.’

    Michael couldn’t disagree with that, either. Tasha was tireless. She ran her own craft store on Mission Street, Tickle Your Fancy, selling scented candles and handmade greetings cards and hand-knitted baby clothes. She was small and pretty in a sharp, Slavic way, with straight blonde hair and blue-gray eyes and a little snub nose, and Michael had fallen for her on the very first evening that they had been introduced, even though they couldn’t have been more different.

    Michael liked sitting in silence and thinking and analyzing stuff. Tasha liked running and Zumba and making things with her hands. And singing. She was always singing. Usually high, wistful songs like ‘I Can’t Make You Love Me’.

    The halogen headlights flashed in Michael’s mirror and he lifted his hand to shield his eyes. ‘Dumb ass has been following me for miles with his lights full on.’

    Tasha twisted around in her seat. ‘He probably doesn’t realize. Why don’t you let him pass?’

    ‘Because I’d have to slow down and we’re late already.’

    ‘What does it matter? It’s not like we’re meeting anybody. Anyhow, it looks like he’s gaining on us.’

    Michael checked his mirror again, his eyes narrowed against the glare. ‘You’re right. And it’s about time, too.’

    Not only was the pick-up gaining on them, it was gaining on them fast. Now it was only twenty-five feet behind them and the whole interior of Michael’s Torrent was filled with blinding white light.

    Michael moved as far over to the right-hand side of the highway as he could, so that the pick-up would have plenty of room to pass. But it continued to tailgate them, and now it was so close that it was almost touching the Torrent.

    ‘What’s he doing?’ Michael protested. ‘Guy’s some kind of a lunatic!’

    He jammed his foot down harder on the gas, and they began to pull away, but within seconds the pick-up had closed the distance again. He swerved left, and then right, and then left again, so that the Torrent’s tires howled in a high-pitched chorus, but the pick-up kept after them like an attack dog.

    ‘Oh my God!’ Tasha cried out. ‘He’s going to kill us!’

    Michael touched the brakes, but when he did so the pick-up bumped into them, with a deep, hollow thud. For a split-second he lost control, and the Torrent snaked from side to side.

    ‘Michael!’ screamed Tasha, gripping the door handle tightly with one hand and pressing the other hand flat against the glove box.

    The pick-up bumped into them again, harder this time. The Torrent slewed sideways across the blacktop, with Michael frantically spinning the steering wheel. All he could see was revolving headlights and flying snow. He stood on the brake pedal, trying to slow them both down, but the pick-up rammed into the passenger-side door and forced them right off the blacktop and on to the median strip, which was all rough grass and rocks.

    A deafening bang was followed by a series of jolts and groans and screeching noises. Michael and Tasha were thrown violently from side to side, and then the Torrent rolled over and over and over, three times, with its roof buckling and its doors caving in and its windows bursting.

    Michael saw Tasha’s arms and legs flailing. He felt as if they were being flung around in a giant tumble-dryer, and the tumbling seemed to go on and on as if it would never stop. Their shoulders collided, their heads knocked together, and then he saw Tasha’s head hitting the roof.

    The Torrent rolled right over on to the northbound side of the highway, where it tilted on its side and then rocked to a standstill, upside-down.

    It was almost completely dark. Michael, hanging twisted in his seat-belt, could see only Tasha’s left side, with one thin arm in its pale blue sleeve caught crookedly between the armrests. He levered himself upward with his knees, trying to reach his seat-belt catch. As he did so he glimpsed the back of her head. Her blonde hair was glistening with blood, and he thought that he could see a triangular fragment of white bone sticking out.

    ‘Tasha?’ he said hoarsely. His seat-belt was pressing across his throat and he could hardly breathe. ‘Tasha, can you hear me?’

    She didn’t answer. He lifted himself up again, and this time he managed to grope around with his left hand and grab hold of the seat-belt catch and hang on to it. He pushed the release button with his thumb but it was jammed.

    ‘Tasha?’ he said again. ‘Tasha, just tell me that you’re OK, darling. Please.’

    Very gradually, the crushed and misshapen interior of the Torrent began to fill up with light. Part of the vinyl roof-lining was hanging down so Michael found it difficult to see anything out of his window. Don’t tell me that pick-up’s coming back. Haven’t they done enough to us already?

    He jabbed at the seat-belt catch again and again, but still it refused to budge. Either it had bent, or he was hanging from it too heavily, so that it couldn’t unlatch.

    The light grew brighter and brighter. He could clearly see now that Tasha’s skull had been smashed, and from the way that she was hanging there, motionless, she looked very much as if she were dead. Even so – people with serious head injuries often survive, don’t they? She could be still alive. Oh dear God, please let her still be alive. I don’t care if she needs looking after for the rest of her life. Just please let her still be alive.

    Michael managed to lean forward as well as lever himself up a little, so that his left shoulder was wedged hard against his door. He heaved himself sideways to take some of his weight off the seat-belt catch, and the third time he pushed the release button, it clicked open and he fell heavily on his hands and knees on to the upturned roof.

    Immediately, he turned to Tasha. ‘Tasha, can you hear me, sweetheart? Tasha, it’s Michael. Wake up, darling, please!’

    He carefully extricated her skinny wrist from between the armrests, and drew back the sleeve of her sweater, so that he could feel if she still had a pulse. He couldn’t detect one, but then he told himself that he wasn’t a paramedic, so he didn’t know for sure if he was feeling in the right place, and she did still feel warm.

    He took hold of her seat-belt catch in both hands, ready to try and release her. He didn’t want her to drop down to the roof as hard as he had, in case she knocked her head and worsened her head injury, or in case she had fractured her spine.

    ‘Here we go, darling,’ he said. ‘Easy does it.’

    But suddenly the light brightened to such an intensity that it bleached the color out of everything, and the inside of the Torrent was turned into an overexposed photograph. Before Michael could unfasten Tasha’s seat-belt, he was overwhelmed by the four-trumpet blast of an air horn, and the stentorian bellow of a diesel engine. The horn blasted again and again, and then he heard the rubbery slithering of locked wheels on asphalt.

    The slithering seemed to go on endlessly, growing louder and louder, until it began to sound like high-pitched, staccato laughter – hee-hee-hee-hee-hee-hee! Then Michael felt a massive collision and the Torrent was slammed across the highway, spinning around and around in circles on its roof.

    It ended up by the side of the interstate, crumpled up like a badly wrapped parcel.

    The driver of the huge red Kenworth tractor-trailer parked his rig by the side of the highway and then shut down his bellowing engine, so that the only sound was the wind blowing the snow between his wheels. He unhooked his CB handset and said, ‘Bear Baiter, this is Bear Baiter, do you copy? I have a real bad mess-’em-up just past the six-mile marker north of Weed on I-Five! These folks are going to be needing a meat wagon, and fast! Better inform the Boy Scouts, too!’

    As soon as he had made his call, he swung himself down from his cab and jogged across the scrub toward the wreckage. He was less than halfway there, however, when he heard an ambulance siren whooping and scribbling, and saw red and white lights flashing through the snow.

    TWO

    ‘Well, good morning!’ said a warm, woman’s voice.

    Michael tried to lift his head to see who it was, but he couldn’t. His neck was held fast in a high pink polythene collar, and when he tried to raise his hands, he found that he couldn’t move his arms, either. His ankles were fastened, too.

    He was strapped flat on his back, so that all he could see were pale green ceiling tiles, with diagonal stripes of wintry sunshine across them, and two fluorescent light-fittings, and part of a curtained screen with large green water lilies printed on it.

    ‘Where am I?’ he croaked. His throat was dry and his tongue felt as if it were three times its normal size, and coated with very fine sand.

    He heard a man talking in a deep, soft mumble, and then a woman’s face suddenly appeared, looking down at him. She was ginger-haired, green-eyed, with a sprinkle of freckles across the bridge of her nose. Michael would have guessed her age at early forties. She was wearing a white overall with the italic initials TSC embroidered in green on the breast pocket.

    She smiled at him and said, ‘How do you feel? Or should I say "what do you feel"?’

    Michael stared at her for a long time, trying to work out if he knew her. His vision was blurry and he found it hard to focus on her clearly. There was something familiar about her – but, no, he didn’t know who she was. She looked like a doctor or a nurse.

    ‘I feel … tired, still,’ he told her. ‘Have I been asleep for very long?’

    She brushed back his fringe with her fingertips, almost as if he were a small boy. ‘Yes … you have. But you’re awake now. That’s the important thing.’

    He heard the man talking again. He was speaking very quietly, but Michael distinctly heard him say ‘… Yes, I believe he will … but not for some weeks yet.’

    ‘Where am I?’ he asked, straining again to lift up his head. ‘I don’t know where I am.’

    Now the man appeared. He, too, was wearing a white overall with TSC on the pocket. He was tall, rather Arab-looking, with a shiny bald head but luxuriant black eyebrows. He was quite handsome, even though his nose was rather fleshy, and his eyes were very dark brown, but glittery, as if he had just been counting out gold coins in Ali Baba’s cave.

    He said, in his thick but reassuring voice, ‘This is the Trinity-Shasta Clinic, near Mount Shasta, and I am Doctor Hamid. You have been involved in a serious accident, my dear sir, and it is something of a miracle that you are still with us.’

    ‘An accident? What kind of an accident?’

    ‘A traffic accident, on the interstate. Your car overturned and you were almost killed.’

    Michael tried for a third time to lift his head, but the doctor pressed the palm of his hand against his forehead. ‘Please to lie very still. Your neck was dislocated. We had to operate on you to fuse together two of the vertebrae in order to achieve realignment of your spinal column. We have every hope that you will recover completely, but I have to warn you that this usually takes some months.’

    ‘I feel like somebody’s been beating up on me, and then kicking me while I was down.’

    ‘That doesn’t surprise me at all,’ said Doctor Hamid, smoothly. ‘One of the common symptoms of a serious neck injury such as yours is chronic pain in many different locations all over your body. But we have been giving you intravenous analgesics to ease your discomfort, and we will continue to do so for as long as you need them.’

    Michael frowned, and said, ‘Where did you say this was?’

    ‘Trinity-Shasta Clinic, near Mount Shasta.’

    ‘Mount Shasta? What the hell am I doing way up here?’

    The red-haired woman drew up a chair close to his bed and sat down. ‘This is the nearest trauma clinic to the location where you had your accident,’ she said. ‘You were lucky. Well – you weren’t lucky to have your accident, I’m not saying that. But Trinity-Shasta has one of the most advanced spinal units in the country. If you’d been taken in to some small-town emergency room, you could well have died, or been paralysed from the neck down for the rest of your life.’

    ‘I’m still trying to think what I’m doing near Mount Shasta. The last thing I remember I was …’

    He stopped. What was the last thing that he could remember? Talking to somebody about something in some bar. He could remember the stained-glass window over the door, and the raucous sound of people laughing, but he couldn’t think where it was, or who he had been talking to, or what they had been talking about.

    The red-haired woman said, ‘Don’t worry about it. It’s not important. It will all come back to you. Are you thirsty? Maybe you’d like some water or some cranberry juice.’

    Michael said, ‘We were talking about … something to do with light. That was it. The speed of light. Why were we talking about that?’

    ‘Who were you talking to?’ the red-haired woman asked him.

    Michael squeezed his eyes tight shut and tried to visualize the stained-glass window and the face of the man who was sitting underneath it, talking to him. But all he could see was a featureless blur, and all he could hear was a muffled blurting sound.

    ‘No,’ he said. ‘It’s no good. I just can’t remember.’

    ‘My name’s Catherine, by the way,’ the red-haired woman told him. ‘Catherine Connor. Doctor Catherine Connor.’

    ‘Oh, right,’ said Michael. He was beginning to think that she was quite attractive, in a gingery way, even though she must be four or five years older than him. ‘Doctor of what, exactly?’

    ‘Post-traumatic therapy, both physical and psychological. I help people to get over traumatic events in their lives, like severe shocks or brain damage or spinal injuries, which is why I’m here talking to you.’

    ‘Nothing personal, Doctor, but you sound expensive. How am I going to pay for all of this?’

    Dr Connor smiled and shook her head. ‘Don’t worry. You won’t be charged. The Trinity-Shasta Clinic is a non-profit research foundation, privately funded. You may not believe it, but we’ll be getting a whole lot more out of you than you’ll be getting out of us.’

    ‘How long do I have to stay strapped down like this? I feel like Frankenstein’s monster.’

    ‘That depends on Doctor Hamid. When your vertebrae were dislocated, that injury also tore your neck muscles, your blood vessels, your ligaments, your nerves and your esophagus. But of course we’ll be taking regular CT scans, and as soon as we’re confident that you can move without causing yourself any further injury, we’ll get you up on your feet. I personally believe that patients should start movement therapy as soon as possible.’

    ‘OK. Thanks,’ he coughed. ‘Maybe I could have that drink now. What do I call you – Doctor Connor? Or Catherine?’

    ‘We’re going to be seeing a whole lot of each other, so Catherine is fine.’

    ‘Sorry I can’t shake your hand, Catherine. I’m …’

    He stopped. He felt as if a black shutter had slammed down inside of his head. He simply couldn’t think what his name was. Not only that, he couldn’t think of any names, so that he could run through them and try to remember which one was his.

    He stared at Doctor Connor in complete bewilderment, blinking. How could he not remember his own name? But there was nothing.

    Doctor Connor reached out and stroked his fringe again. ‘Your name is – what?’ she coaxed him, very softly. ‘Don’t try too hard to remember it. Think of your mother instead, calling you. Think of what your friends used to sing, when it was your birthday.’

    She paused, and then she sang, ‘Happy birthday, dear la-la-la! Happy birthday to you. Can you remember the cake, and the candles? Can you hear them singing, inside your head?’

    Michael listened and listened, but there was nothing inside his head, only blankness and silence. He couldn’t remember his mother. He couldn’t remember the sound of her voice. He couldn’t even remember what she looked like.

    After a while, he gasped like a swimmer coming up for air. ‘I don’t know, Catherine! I just can’t think of it!’

    ‘Don’t get upset,’ she told him. ‘It’s not at all unusual for people to suffer from amnesia, after an accident. There are ways of rebuilding your memories, and that’s one of the things that you and I will be doing together, little by little.’

    ‘But how the hell can I not even know my own name?’

    ‘It’s really not uncommon. I worked with young marines who came back from Iraq, suffering from just the same problem. Your brain has suffered from such a shock that it has simply shut down, like somebody hiding under the bedcovers and refusing to come out.’

    ‘Tell me some names.’

    ‘What?’

    ‘Tell me some names and maybe I’ll be able to tell if one of them is mine.’

    ‘That won’t work. You may pick a name simply because it rings a bell. It might not be your name at all, and that will only confuse you even more.’

    Michael lay there staring at the ceiling. Then he glanced sideways at Doctor Connor. The sun was shining in her hair so that she looked almost like an angel. He had only just met her and yet he felt desperately dependent on her. How else was he going to find out who he was and what he was doing here, up near Mount Shasta?

    The strange thing was that even though he couldn’t think of his name, he knew that he didn’t belong around here, and that he lived someplace far to the south. It was where that bar was – that noisy bar with the stained-glass window, where he had been talking about the speed of light.

    ‘My accident,’ he said. ‘Do you know what happened?’

    ‘Not in any detail, no. The paramedics said that your SUV crossed over on to the wrong side of the interstate, and got hit by a truck coming the other way.’

    Michael closed his eyes again, and tried to imagine it, but he couldn’t. The black shutter remained firmly shut. How can you get hit by a truck and not remember it?

    But then he suddenly thought: Surely I must have had some ID on me, when the paramedics brought me in here? A wallet, with credit cards and a driver’s license? A cellphone? And what about my license plate? The police would have been able to check my identity with the Department of Motor Vehicles.

    ‘Catherine,’ he said.

    She had been jotting notes on a yellow legal pad, but now she looked up, and he could tell by her expression that she knew what he was going to say.

    ‘You know my name already,’ he said.

    Catherine nodded. ‘I do, yes. But encouraging you to remember it yourself – that’s an important part of your cognitive therapy.’

    ‘Tell me what it is.’

    ‘It won’t help.’

    ‘I don’t care if it helps or not, Catherine. Please. I have to know what my name is. Not just that – who am I? Where do I live? Do my family know what’s happened to me? Are any of them coming to visit?’

    Doctor Connor flicked back a few pages in her legal pad.

    ‘I shouldn’t really be telling you this. It’s much against my better judgment. I should really be giving you an AMI – that’s an Autobiographical Memory Interview. By doing that, I can test how severe your retrograde amnesia really is, and treat it accordingly.’

    ‘Please – just tell me what my name is!’

    ‘All right,’ she said, and read from her notes. ‘Your name is Gregory John Merrick. You live at ten forty-four Pine Street, San Francisco. You share an apartment with a work colleague, Kenneth Geary. You are a marine engineer working for Moffatt and Nichol. Your sister Sue lives in Oakland with her husband Jimmy and their two children. Your father died two years ago. Your mother now lives in Baywood Apartments close to your sister. Your sister brought her up here to see you soon after your accident and they regularly call to check on your progress.’

    She turned over two pages and said, ‘As a matter of fact, your sister called only yesterday afternoon, and spoke to Nurse Sheringham.’

    After she had finished, Michael said nothing.

    ‘Does any of that help?’ asked Doctor Connor, after a while.

    Michael was unable to shake his head, because of his high plastic collar, but tears slid out of the side of each eye.

    ‘I still can’t remember,’ he told her. ‘I still don’t know who I am.’

    ‘I’m sorry,’ she said. ‘It’s the way your brain works. It can re-route your memory paths, so that they bypass

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