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    Chasing Pleasure with Pain
    Chasing Pleasure with Pain
    Chasing Pleasure with Pain
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    Chasing Pleasure with Pain

    By Haywood Robinson

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    Haywood Robinson was just seventeen when she was sent to a behavioral modification program in Montana-a horrible and painful experience. This raw and emotional memoir chronicles Haywood's struggles with mental illness and her lack of a diagnosis until her thirties. It fearlessly tells of her experiences with toxic relationships, abortion, love a

    LanguageEnglish
    PublisherPalmetto Publishing
    Release dateJan 26, 2021
    ISBN9781649906212
    Chasing Pleasure with Pain
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    Haywood Robinson

    Haywood Robinson is a powerful advocate for mental health awareness, an ally to the underrepresented, an aunt to two beautiful boys and a proud dog mom. She grew up on the creeks of Charleston, SC and has been writing since she was a little girl. She is passionate about live music and enjoys dancing and singing. Her guilty pleasure is karaoke with friends.

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      Chasing Pleasure with Pain - Haywood Robinson

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      Charleston, SC

      www.PalmettoPublishing.com

      Chasing Pleasure with Pain

      Copyright © 2020 by Haywood Robinson

      All rights reserved

      No portion of this book may be reproduced, stored in a retrieval system, or transmitted in any form by any means–electronic, mechanical, photocopy, recording, or other–except for brief quotations in printed reviews, without prior permission of the author.

      First Edition

      Hardcover ISBN: 978‑1-64111‑540‑7

      Paperback ISBN: 978‑1-64990‑943‑5

      eBook ISBN: 978‑1-64990‑621‑2

      Contents

      Dedication

      Foreword

      Chapter 1 This Is Why I Don’t Come to School

      Chapter 2 Spring Creek Lodge

      Chapter 3 Seminars

      Chapter 4 Daddy Issues

      Chapter 5 Borderline Personality Disorder

      Chapter 6 Toxicity

      Chapter 7 The Party Never Ends

      Chapter 8 Suicide Round One

      Chapter 9 Seattle

      Chapter 10 Human Bulldozer

      Chapter 11 And the Party Continues

      Chapter 12 The Diagnosis

      Chapter 13 A New Leaf

      Chapter 14 First My Mind, Now My Body

      Chapter 14 Suicide Round Two

      Chapter 15 Recovery

      Dedication

      I

      am dedicating this book to my mother. Without her, this book would not be a reality. She has been my rock, my biggest supporter, and my closest ally throughout many stages of my life. She always saw my potential and encouraged me to write my truth. Thank you, Mom. I love you.

      Foreword

      M

      ental illness is not a choice. No one chooses to outwardly appear to be lazy or unreasonable or paranoid. No one wakes up one day and decides to have illogical thoughts and disruptive reactions. These are symptoms of an illness that is no more preventable than any other illness. When I began exhibiting the symptoms of my mental illness in my teens, my parents sent me to a behavioral modification school in Montana. They did not think for even a moment that my behavior was a product of a debilitating illness. Mental health wasn’t spoken of in the late ‘90s. Unfortunately, the school they sent me to broke me down emotionally and mentally by using attack therapy and humiliation. The combination of mental illness and the trauma inflicted by this program led to me leading a tragic life for another fifteen years. Even after my diagnosis, the struggle was different but just as difficult. I want parents who read this book to consider the mental health of their child before entrusting and signing over 51 percent custody to complete strangers. I also want people who suffer from mental illness to know they are not alone, that their feelings are

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