Memory and Desire

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ABOUT THE AUTHOR

Val Mulkerns is an Irish writer and member of Aosdána. Her first novel, A Time Outworn, was released to critical acclaim in Ireland in 1951. She was associate editor and theatre critic for The Bell later worked as a journalist and columnist and is often heard on the radio. She is the author of four novels, three collections of short stories, two children’s books and many published essays and critical writings. In 1953 she married Maurice Kennedy and they have two sons and a daughter.

A third edition of her 1984 novel, The Summerhouse was published in 2013 and her memoir, Friends With The Enemy will be published in 2017. She lives in Dublin, Ireland.

For more information please see:

www.valmulkerns.com

MEMORY AND DESIRE

VAL MULKERNS

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COPYRIGHT INFORMATION

Memory and Desire

First Edition, 2016

Published by 451 Editions

Dublin and New York

www.451editions.com

© Val Mulkerns 2016

Stories in this collection were originally published in Antiquities (André Deutsch, 1978), An Idle Woman (Poolbeg Press, 1980) and A Friend of Don Juan (John Murray, 1988)

ISBN: 978-0-9931443-8-7

This book is sold subject to the condition that it shall not, by way of trade or otherwise, be lent, resold, hired out, digitally reproduced or otherwise circulated without the publisher’s prior consent in any form of binding, cover or digital format other than that in which it is published and without a similar condition being imposed on the

subsequent purchaser.

The characters and events portrayed in this book are ficticious. Any similarity to real persons, living or dead, is cooincidental and not intended by the author.

Cover and interior design: www.Cyberscribe.ie

Painting by Louise Newman: www.louisenewman.ie

From the collection of David Larkin: www.haddington.ie

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Table of Contents

1. Special Category

2. The Sisters

3. Humane Vitae

4. You Must Be Joking

5. Lord of the Back Seat

6. The Open House

7. The Honda Ward

8. Summer in London

9. A Friend of Don Juan

10 . France Is So Phoney

11. End of the Line

12. Memory and Desire

Special Category

When his number was called for a visit he couldn’t quite believe it. His was not a travelling family although they were all involved one way or another with the railway. When the sergeant came rattling the keys he was not on his feet as presumably most of the other lucky prisoners were, but still sitting on the edge of his bed, hands dangling between his knees, wondering who could possibly have managed to cross over and see him. Money was scarce at home and they might come to bury him but not otherwise.

Get a move on there, Foxy, the sergeant said without rancour. Or maybe you’d care to comb out the foxy head before the barber blows in one of these days. You won’t have the hair long then, my lad, and we’ll have to think up another name for ye, won’t we? Name such as Skinny or summat. His wheezy laugh was obviously well meant. This small red-nosed man was not the worst, not malicious like the tall good-looking sergeant who always singled him out for special baiting. The heavy coppery hair which had given B323 his family nickname seemed to annoy authority wherever he went, even before all this. It was difficult perhaps to look dutiful and dependable with a head of hair that flickered as though a searchlight were perpetually playing on it, that sprang into an imperial helmet of curls at the first touch of rain.

Now however in the yard where the prisoners exercised the sun beat down, stinging his eyes after the gloom of his cell. The sky was the same blue that had hardly darkened at all even when stars shone over the barricades during the fight. But that must be months ago now. He felt a little sleepy in the fresh air, unwilling to make the effort to look along the line of faces on the other side of the rough fencing to find his visitor. Finally B323 made an effort and ran his eye swiftly over the assembled faces, embarrassed or happy or shining with tears, none of them remotely familiar faces. His was not a visiting family, he reminded himself once again. He made an appeal to the red-nosed sergeant.

Take me back, please, there’s been some mistake. I know nobody here.

Sir, the sergeant said.

I know nobody here, sir.

Daft little foxy bastard, the sergeant said amiably, although he was more than a foot shorter than the prisoner. There’s been no bleeding mistake. Show ye.

He left the line of military with fixed bayonets and went along the row of visitors, checking permits. B323 saw him stop and joke with a pretty girl in a straw boater with summery ribbons dangling between blue cotton shoulders. The gay dog made her laugh and shake her long hair, and then he returned to the only prisoner who hadn’t found his visitor.

Git over there, Foxy, the sergeant said. Don’t ye know your luck when ye see it? Nice little bit o’ fluff she is too. Go over there and try her. Baffled, the tall fiery prisoner walked over to the line of visitors and saw that the girl’s eyes were speckled blue as a bird’s egg and she was laughing again.

Hello, Bartholomew Mullens. You’re not a bit like I thought you’d be.

I’m sorry, but neither are you. My brother Paddy looks quite different.

He had forgotten the sound of a girl’s laugh, so he tried to make her laugh again. It was easy.

I thought Bartholomew Mullens had to be small and spotty with a large Adam’s apple and a very nice nature, she said. I thought Bartholomew Mullens would have no way with the ladies and that I’d have to talk to him about his interests – butterfly catching, maybe, or stamp collecting, or the lives of the saints, or how nice it used to be down on his auntie’s farm before he heard of Mother Ireland.

I never had an auntie with a farm, I’m sorry to say, and nobody ever calls me anything except – except Red Mull. She laughed so loudly at this that her elderly neighbour in black touched the girl’s arm in reproof and put a finger to her lips. Sorry. The girl giggled quietly then, before looking up at him under her summery hat. I’m Frances Montgomery from Dublin. And I have an auntie with a farm – here in Cheshire – who asked me over for a holiday.

But you haven’t told me how you came to know my name?

"I read the list of prisoners in The Irish Times book just before I came over. And I thought, poor Bartholomew Mullens, a boy with a name like that needs to be cheered up. When I saw you were in Knutsford I knew it was near where I was going so I wrote to the Governor and said I was your cousin and asked permission to visit you."

You’re not a member of Cumann na mBan then?

"Oh no, nothing like that. My mother would ask for her smelling salts at the mention of them. But my father’s a bit of a rebel, always was. He gave me Mitchel’s Jail Journal to read when I was ten and I’ve never been able to forget it. Have you ever read it?"

If I hadn’t I don’t think I’d be here, the prisoner said unguardedly, and to his consternation her eyes filled with tears, which she quickly blinked away. "Also of course I saw William Butler Yeats’s play Cathleen Ni Houlihan."

I saw it too in the Abbey Theatre, the girl said eagerly, and when Michael went out after the Poor Old Woman I wanted to go with him. But next day I didn’t. I wrote a poem about it instead.

Would you show it to me?

I might if you showed me some of yours.

How do you know I’ve written any?

Everyone of our age in Dublin writes poetry. Father says that’s what’s wrong with the country these days. Did anything you wrote get printed?

He felt himself go red as his hair, and she pounced on this admission. Where was it printed, could she get copies?

It was nothing, he said at last. A few parodies covered book that sold for sixpence. Some of them also were printed in broadsheets. I set the verses to popular airs you could march to. They were supposed to be funny.

Could I get the book when I go back home? Could I buy it in Eason’s?

Maybe. The publisher was the Art Depot in Mary Street – if Eason’s haven’t got it, the publishers might have a few copies left.

A poet, she said, flatteringly awed. A poet who’s been printed.

Now will you show me your poems?

I’ll write to you when I get back home if I may, and I’ll copy some out. The best one, anyway. Will they let you have letters?

I don’t know, he said. I haven’t had any yet. I’ll try to find out."

"Father said it was a poet’s rebellion, the girl remembered suddenly. Professor McDonagh and Patrick Pearse and Joseph Mary Plunkett. And now Bartholomew Mullins."

Do you know where they are now? he said, smiling at his name tagged on among his betters. I never really found out for certain because we are not allowed newspapers and I’ve been in solitary for so long.

You mean you don’t know?

The last time they asked me to sign the paper, they said people who wouldn’t sign would be shot, but I didn’t believe them.

This must be the promise to be of good conduct in future, and not to impede the war effort and so on?

So this much was known outside? Yes. He became aware for the first time of the other visitors around them, perhaps because the girl looked uneasy, as though she would like to go. The bell clanged out through the hot summer afternoon.

I must go or maybe they won’t let me come again, she said, dipping her hand suddenly into the carpet bag at her feet.

Goodbye, Miss Montgomery, you are very good to come.

Please call me Fanny. I don’t expect these cigarettes are the right brand or anything but maybe you could swap them. The rest of the stuff might be useful if you get hungry between meals. Jacob’s biscuits from home.

To his astonishment she smiled coaxingly as she put a big brown paper bag into his hands and was gone before he could thank her. But she hadn’t answered his question and even as he called her she was running back.

They shot Patrick Pearse with two others on the third of May. I remember because it was my birthday.

And the rest of the leaders?

They shot all the signatories of the Proclamation – on different days at the end of April and early May.

Connolly too? We heard at the barricades he was badly hurt.

Connolly too, she said. I’ll come to see you again, Red Mull, if they let me.

God go with you, Fanny. Don’t forget the poem, will you?

I won’t forget but it’s not good. Remember it was I who said it. And she was gone. The last he saw of her was the back of the straw hat with its tossing ribbons among the dark clothes of the other women.

Almost at once the red-nosed sergeant was at his side. Told ye she was a nice little bit o’ fluff, Foxy, didden I? he whispered. Open up the dibs, there, till we see wot she brought yer. Blimey, bloody millionaires she must come from. Player’s Navy Cut – a whole bloody box o’ smokes – Fry’s creamy chocolate and Jacob’s biscuits. Some blokes ’as all the luck, Foxy me lad.

If you come to my cell tonight you can have your share of all this, sergeant. I suppose the bag has to be inspected now for hand grenades or something?

Ye never knows yer luck – might be allowed keep the lot, Foxy. But I doubt it.

Meaning what?

Meaning tuck and that is for chappies as signs their paper, see? You said no, Foxy, four times by all I hear.

That’s right, sergeant. And I’ll continue to say no.

Well, same as I said, ye never knows yer luck. Quick march now, look sharp.

At the entrance to the prisoner’s own block, the bag was taken away from him and he was told he might have some of the contents returned to him later. The block officer scribbled the prisoner’s number on the outside of the bag. B323, followed by a question mark.

I request permission, sir, to smoke one of those cigarettes now. Even as he heard himself speaking, he despised himself.

Permission refused.

I request permission then for pencil and paper.

Permission also refused. Return the prisoner to his quarters, sergeant.

Yes, sir.

Before the cell door clanged behind him the sergeant whispered. Do wot I can for ye later, Foxy.

Dead, all dead.

Connolly and Pearse and McDonagh and McBride and Plunkett and Clarke and Eamon Ceannt. All dead, while he bent the knee to the extent of asking for a lousy cigarette. He sat on the edge of his plank bed and watched his hands shaking.

For a few days death was far away from the adventure of Cuckoo Lane. Death was distant gunfire magnified by the golden air and the full river opposite the Four Courts. A shell which had burst in O’Connell Street (they were told) bounced in successive waves of sound under the four bridges and then seemed to explode in diamonds against the river wall. But nobody suffered more than sore eardrums. The dead were somewhere else. The small company of men left briefly in his charge by Commandant Daly had laughed like schoolboys (which two of them were) when he sang his own parody for them – Come Along and Join the British Army. They were tired and dirty but not sleepy, although most of them had had no sleep for four nights. The girls billeted in the nearby Father Matthew Hall had looked after them well, and being a soldier was something new and interesting after the routine of normal life.

Sometimes on the night watch he was back in brief waves of weariness on the footplate of his engine, watching the golden showers of sparks that flew like a shaken flag in the night sky when he opened the refuelling hatch on the long dark trip to Galway. Shovelling coal, his face black, he often laughed then to think of his other very private life, the elocution lessons he paid for out of what his mother left him from his wages, the Irish lessons at the Conradh office in Parnell Square, the dizzy day he was auditioned for the Abbey Theatre when the poet said, Interesting what you have managed to do with the voice of a callow young student from Trinity, Mr Fay, and Mr Fay replied, pleased. This is not the student, Mr Yeats. This is a young fireman from the Midland and Great Western Railway – he never went beyond the seventh book, but as you see he met the scholars coming home. He writes songs too.

They exchanged a little laugh. He might do for Michael, don’t you think, if the other boy can’t attend rehearsals, Mr Yeats said, and this remarkable red hair would look well on stage.

I was hoping you’d say that. The red hair would indeed be right, Mr Fay replied. They spoke as if he weren’t there but he didn’t mind that. In the end he did play Michael for a whole week, and maybe it was that which decided him about joining the Volunteers. The frightening silence of the theatre, the wave of emotion that broke over the packed bodies he couldn’t see, excited him like wine as he waited for his cue from Miss Allgood’s breathtaking lines every night.

Many that are red-cheeked now will be pale-cheeked; many that have been free to walk the hills and the bogs and the rushes will be sent to walk hard streets in far countries; many a good plan will be broken; many that have gathered money will not stay to spend it; many a child will be born and there will be no father at its christening to give it a name. They that have red cheeks will have pale cheeks for my sake, and for all that they will think they are well paid.

They shall be remembered for ever.

They shall be alive for ever …

Somewhere between the theatre and the red footplate in the darkness the desire to follow Tone and Mitchel and fight for his country was born and he knew why he was never for a moment affected by the recruiting posters all over the city: Your Country Needs YOU. His