Atomic Goddess: Isis Reborn

Lana Lea

Atomic Goddess: Isis Reborn

First published by Lana Lea, Author 2020

Copyright © 2020 by Lana Lea

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This is for everyone who has supported my journey as an author – the teachers, the librarians, the fellow-writers and artists, the friends, the family. And most of all, for the friends and family that are my writing group. You guys rocken roll!

And also my two beautiful purr-kids, Mojo and Arwen, and my husband Paul, who kept the coffee coming. (Yup, some things about me are that predictable)

You’ve always had the power, my dear. You just had to learn it for yourself.

Glinda, The Wizard of Oz

Table of Contents

1. Something In The Air

2. She’s a Rainbow

3. Season of the Witch

4. Good Morning, Starshine

5. Everybody’s Been Burned

6. Over, Under, Sideways, Down

7. Going Up The Country

8. King Midas In Reverse

9. Strange Days

10. Suspicious Minds

11. Magic Carpet Ride

12. Wild Thing

13. Voodoo Woman

14. Keep On Running

15. Time Is Tight

16. Windy

17. (Get Your Kicks On) Route 66

18. The Burning of the Midnight Lamp

19. Bad Moon Rising

20. She Said She Said

Afterword

About the Author

1

Something In The Air

1. Wednesday, 15th October, 1969 – Jacksonville, Florida

So the whole thing started when Gabriel Serapis – love of my life and tall, dark and handsome to my short, dark and average – got himself shot and left for dead right before my eyes…

Yeek, enough of the melodramatics already.

It was early evening in downtown Jacksonville. We’d just been to Tallahassee, at the moratorium to end the Vietnam war – us being such everlovin’ peacenik doves – and had driven home high on hope and optimism, singing Give Peace A Chance, Get Together, People Gotta Be Free, and every other relevant song we could think of. It was already dark when we arrived, so we ate a takeout dinner amongst the rainbow of neon lights, then chilled at our favourite bar.

We must’ve made everyone so sick, holding hands and gazing into each other’s eyes while ‘Girl from Ipanema’ drifted languidly through the smoky air. For once, I didn’t care. I was with my favourite person in the whole world. Someone who laughed at my wise cracks and accepted me just as I was, who’s melting brown eyes I could get lost in so easily.

We finished our Mai Tais and Gabe went to the bar for another round. That’s when the trouble started, with a loud southern drawl.

Hey! You pushin’ in, raghead?

I looked up to see Gabe stumbling backwards out of the crush around the bar. A great bear of a man wearing a cowboy shirt, blue jeans and fancy western boots loomed nearby, thrusting a ruddy face and sandy moustache at him. I couldn’t hear Gabe’s reply, but knowing him, it was most likely something oh-so polite and, of course, completely useless.

I leapt up and hurried towards them. If this good ol’ boy was going to cause trouble, he’d have to cause it for both of us.

What you say? You wanna drink? Ain’t they got none back in ol’ Araby?

The guy laughed heartily. Gabe faltered, wearing that uptight smile he resorted

to when nervous. As I reached him, he tried to steer me away.

Yeah, go back where you came from, camel jockey! the man sneered.

I was incensed.

What the hell’s his hang up?

He’s spoiling for a fight, I guess. Let’s just split, okay?

No way! That’s not cool!

Yeah, I know. I’m a real flake, aren’t I Ange?

So just hang tough and tune him out.

But he’s enormous! And he’s fixing to trash me, in case you hadn’t noticed.

I glanced at the guy. He’d leaned back against the bar, crushing a massive fist into his other hand as he eyeballed us. I had to concede that Gabe had a point.

Well, call the fuzz!

Now who’s uncool? Look, let’s just cut out and find somewhere else to hang, okay?

My face burned. I should’ve just chilled out, but I was so hacked off I couldn’t resist a parting shot. As Gabe turned for the door, I narrowed my eyes on the man and flipped him the bird.

Eat dirt, you sheet-wearing redneck scuzz!

The smirk slid off his face as it flushed a darker shade of beetroot. He huffed indignantly, then came at us bellowing like a wounded bull. Man, we bailed out of there big time – well, Gabe bailed, dragging me along with him. I was plenty ticked off that he chose to run instead of putting his muscles to good use. And I ached to have another go at the guy.

Until I noticed he had friends. Three other checked-shirt-blue-jean-boot-wearing hicks with identical expressions and bad attitudes were right on his heels. So you know what? If I’d had any idea a Convention of Racist Rednecks had convened in Jacksonville that week, I sure would’ve suggested we did our drinking at home.

We hurtled through the door to the parking lot. Our pursuers were momentarily held up as the door swung shut in their faces, giving us enough time to get into Gabe’s flame-red Pontiac Firebird, which he’d jokingly dubbed The Phoenix. As he fumbled to get the key into the ignition, the four men burst from the building and strode towards us.

Far out! Gabe said, groping around on the floor.

What?

Keys went south…

He stiffened as the Chief Redneck strutted up to the car with something black and metallic in his hand. He used it to smash the driver’s side window, sending chips and shards of glass everywhere.

Have you flipped your wig? Gabe cried, shielding his face with his arms. Just cool it, already!

Got you now, raghead! And your foul-mouthed bitch!

He hawked and spat, and time stood still as Gabe and I stared down the barrel of the revolver he levelled at us.

In the name of Jesus Christ, he intoned, I’m gonna put you back in your place, you filthy ape!

No! I shrieked.

Noise exploded through the car, echoing thunderously in my skull. Blood spattered everywhere as the bullet smashed into Gabe’s head. In the confusion of the moment, explosions seemed to go off all around us. My lungs were sucked dry of air, and I fought to gasp a breath and scream.

Drawing another ragged breath, I tore my seatbelt off so I could try to help Gabe. I’d be damned if I was going to just sit there screaming like some chick in a horror flick while the only real love I’d ever known bled to death.

As I leaned over him, he rasped in a shallow breath, his black hair slick with blood, his eyes pleading. I glanced at the bozo. The man stared back in horrified astonishment. The revolver was now a smoking, twisted wreck, its barrel peeled apart like a banana skin. His fingers still grasped the grip of the gun, but they were blackened and charred, like the flesh had been burned right off them.

One of his cohorts, a short, wizened-looking old fellow with a face like a gnome, whistled to him before disappearing into the shadows at the edge of the parking lot. The other two followed, the injured bozo stumbling after them, clutching his burnt hand.

Hey! I called out. Don’t let those guys get away!

But the couple of bystanders who appeared once it was safe were more concerned about helping me with Gabe than following the men. One ran to ring for an ambulance and the police, whilst another helped me to make Gabe more comfortable and staunch the flow of blood. He’d lost consciousness, and I was desperate to help him.

The rest was a blur – flashing lights, sirens, Gabe being lifted onto a gurney and put in an ambulance. Uniformed officers who picked their way across shattered glass from the shop fronts. A nearby hydrant erupted masses of water into the air, causing fire fighters to struggle as they wrestled it off. Babbling onlookers crowded around, and had to be moved along.

It was so unreal, like I’d been suddenly plucked up and thrust into the Twilight Zone. I barely took it in, and answered the police officer’s questions obediently, numbly. They were confused by the large amount of damage to the area, but I knew only of what had happened inside the car. Then I was whisked off to the nearest hospital, checked over, and left to sit and wait for the next storm to break.

2.

Miss Jones?

I raised my head. It throbbed with the mother of all headaches. I tried to not move it any more than necessary as I met the doctor’s eyes through the dark bangs of my bobbed hair.

Our top surgeon, Doctor Jay Scott, is operating on Mr Serapis. Has his family been informed?

Yes, I croaked, thinking back to a call I’d made once I’d hunted down the payphone in the hospital’s foyer. They’re chartering a flight down from New York. They should be here very soon.

It’s a really difficult situation, he said. I’m afraid it could still go either way. Doctor Scott will be able to give you a better idea once he’s finished.

I was grateful for the man’s compassion. As he walked away, I found I ached for that compassion, for a human touch, anyone’s. The feeling hurt inside my ribs, and my eyes burned as tears finally came. A torrent burst out, from a place deep inside that I usually denied existence to.

When I could cry no more, I went back to the payphone to ring my mother. Predictably enough, she wasn’t home. So I rang my older sister, Karen, who lived in L.A. with her husband and young son.

Karen and I were tight. We’d been military brats, dragged to various bases around the U.S. by our patriotic elders. Karen made heaps of friends during our fragmented childhood, and kept a list of pen pals from all over the States. I didn’t. Playing nice with a different set of children every couple of years did zilch for my self-esteem and sense of stability, and I’d kept mostly to myself.

Not much had changed. Karen had always been the anchor in my messy life – part bigger sister, part mother, and best buddy. Everyone, everywhere we went, loved her. I could’ve been real jealous and torn-up over that, but I loved her too.

Karen answered the phone on the third ring. I nearly teared up again when I heard her voice. Then I told her the news.

Oh no! she gasped. Is he – is he…

They’re operating now to get the bullet out, I quavered, fighting to keep control. I’m so scared, Karen! I don’t wanna lose him!

Oh Ange… Do you want me to fly over?

A little flame of hope leapt up in my heart. Karen was the one person who could truly soothe me, who I could talk to about anything. But I knew she was going through a bad patch with her husband, Eric, so it seemed best to swallow down that flame of hope and be practical.

Gee, I’d love that. But don’t worry – I’m gonna ask Mama. Besides, I wouldn’t want to cause any problems between you and Eric.

No, it’s okay. We’re doing great, honestly.

I bit my tongue. What I thought of Eric had long ago crossed the border from simple dislike to plain contempt based on certain truths about his character. However, I couldn’t bear to hurt Karen by making her the meat in a hostile sandwich. And I was truly concerned that her marriage wouldn’t last a weekend of them being on opposite sides of L.A., let alone a week or more on opposite sides of the continent.

Right, no biggie, then. And I’m sorry to get all heavy on you. I’ll be fine once Mama gets here.

If you’re sure. But if anything else happens, you don’t get a say. Newt and I will be over there on the first flight.

I couldn’t help but grin. When Karen and Eric named their son Newton, I’d coined the shorter version of his name. Karen thought it was cute. Eric didn’t.

Okay, I conceded. Karen… you’re the best sis ever!

I returned to the waiting room and sat down, trying not to look at the spots of blood on my jeans and shirt. Gabe’s blood. I’d already visited the hospital bathroom and washed my hands and arms, but I still longed to scrub myself clean under a steaming hot shower with tonnes of medicated soap and a stiff brush.

Doubts bombarded me as I thought back over the night’s events. Was all of this mess my fault? If I’d just left like Gabe wanted to instead of getting tee’d off and hurling insults at the bozo, would we now be blissfully asleep in our bed? Or had the guy been determined to make trouble for us no matter what?

I wished I’d told Karen my thoughts. But I was scared. Voicing my doubts would make them more real, and then I’d have to face them openly. And without Karen actually by my side, I wasn’t sure I could handle where that might take me.

Angela?

A tearful voice echoed down the corridor, and I looked up. I’d never liked my full first name, and normally encouraged people to just call me Ange. On pain of death. But I figured this was an exception I had to make.

Gabe’s family moved towards me as if in a dream. His parents, originally from Egypt but now citizens of the United States, his sister and brother, all wore the same haunted, half-dazed expression.

This was going to be a serious downer.

Mrs Serapis, I replied, and stood up.

Zahra Serapis took my hands, fresh tears running down her face. Usually the trimmest and best-dressed of women, her tailored beige pant suit was crinkled from the flight, something as out-of-place as her current lack of make-up and jewellery.

Tell us everything, she pleaded as we sank onto the chairs lining the corridor.

Her husband, Abasi, daughter Sagira and eldest son, Adio, also sat. I hesitated as I got a closer look at them all.

Abasi looked bone weary, like he hadn’t slept in days instead of the three hours since my phone call. Adio’s face was a mixture of concern and anger, and, I thought as I met his dark eyes, barely concealed fear. Sagira’s eyes were red and swollen from crying, but otherwise she looked like a fashion model in her short designer Rajah dress and flipped bob.

Gabe and I were out having a drink, I started.

Alcohol, Adio muttered with distaste.

Hey, cool it, okay? It was just a couple of little drinks to relax. Well, this guy started making trouble for Gabe, so we left. He followed us out to the car park and – shot Gabe in the head.

Zahra and Sagira cried out.

But why? Abasi croaked.

I hated to tell them it was an act of racism. I never was the most tactful person. I tried to put it delicately.

He thought Gabe wasn’t – well, American enough to share a bar with him.

Zahra fell against her husband, sobbing loudly. Yup, that’s me, delicate to the end. I sighed, and noticed the mutinous look on Adio’s face.

Yeah, crazy isn’t it? I said. I’d never even seen that guy around here before. I sure hope the police caught up with him.

Adio looked away. Tears slid down Abasi’s face as he held Zahra. Sagira sobbed against her father’s shoulder. I felt terrible.

The surgeon should be here soon to tell us how the operation went, I said, hoping that would help.

The only change was that Adio got up to pace the corridor. Too proud to cry, I thought, trying to admire his strength. But I couldn’t quite pull it off. There was something about Adio that left me cold.

No one felt like small talk after that. We sat in silence, waiting for news in the kind of stunned shock that I remembered happening after President Kennedy was assassinated. As we waited, I couldn’t help but think about the relationship that meant most to me in my life.

Gabe and I had met just over a year before, when I started work at the Jacksonville Veterinary Clinic as an animal nurse. Gabe had been there for a year, after studying and working as a junior vet in California. As soon as we laid eyes on each other, I felt an incredible spark of attraction. And he felt it too, ‘cos we’d enjoyed every moment of each other’s company since.

With our complimentary career paths, it felt like we were fated to meet. I’d made the decision before finishing Junior High that I wanted to work with animals rather than with people. By then I’d reached the conclusion that most humans had rather less to recommend them than the average cat or dog.

And by the time I started work at the clinic, I was already keen to return to college to study ethology, the field of animal behaviour. I started to get a reputation as a bit of an animal psychologist…

Don’t laugh.

There are so many sweet, innocent animals who’ve been totally screwed up by their owners. I informed the more ignorant of them that overfeeding Poopsy is not good for her physical or mental well-being, or that locking great big Growler in a tiny yard all day with no mental stimulation or exercise makes him aggressive, or that Fluffy pees on your cushions because she doesn’t like your current squeeze.

Come to think of it, I often don’t either. Animals are so smart.

I found myself touching my pendant as I thought about Gabe. Besides our careers, we shared an interest in Egypt, as we both had Egyptian heritage. On our recent one year anniversary, we’d bought each other gifts that signified our bond. I’d given Gabe a golden ankh, which symbolises life, and wasn’t radically different to the little gold cross he’d worn when we first met. The pendant he gave me was a red jasper tyet, which looks similar to an ankh but with the arms folded down.

It’s also called the knot of Isis, he’d said as he fastened the leather cord around my neck. So I couldn’t think of anything more appropriate…

He turned me around and kissed my forehead.

…because you are my goddess…

It all seemed so sappy and overly romantic now, in the light of what had just happened. I closed my eyes to pray – to I don’t know what god or goddess – that Gabe would make it through the operation alive.

3.

Ange?

I awoke as Sagira touched my shoulder. She looked impossibly fresh, her shiny dark flipped bob brushed and her dress neat. I marvelled at her and wondered briefly what sort of mess I looked like in my blood-spotted jeans and knit tee-shirt.

Doctor Scott approached, accompanied by another surgeon who had assisted him. The dark circles under his eyes gave him the air of a man who had just spent the evening engaged in making life-and-death decisions instead of sleeping.

It may be touch and go for a while, he said wearily, brushing a hand over the grey haze of stubble on his chin. Luckily, the bullet didn’t penetrate very far because of the shallow angle of entry. But Gabriel fell into a coma while we worked on him, and we can’t say when he’ll regain consciousness. Hopefully while he sleeps, his brain will be busy repairing itself.

So he’ll recover? Abasi asked hopefully.

Doctor Scott paused.

The surgery itself went well, he said, but Gabe has some damage that only time can heal. He’ll likely remain stable while he’s in a coma, but I think you should prepare yourselves for the possibility that he may not wake up, or that there may be permanent damage when he does.

Zahra sobbed against Abasi’s chest, and he held her tightly as he stared at the surgeon in horror. Sagira hugged them both, her tears flowing freely, and I found myself continuously swallowing a stubborn lump in my throat. Adio alone had no reaction, beyond a tightening of his jaw.

Strangely enough, I didn’t feel grief any more, although I was aware of it lurking close to the surface. Oh no. What I felt more than anything at this news was anger – pure, red-hot, totally righteous anger. Like, how could this freakin’ happen? How could someone just walk up to another person and shoot to kill, based on nothing more than skin colour! What was wrong with the world? This was America, God damn it! Things like this simply shouldn’t happen.

But they did. All the time. The news headlines constantly screamed at us that there were more murders in Jacksonville than anywhere else in Florida. Not to mention all the violence that had sprouted from student protests, civil right’s extremists, and pretty much anyone with a militant attitude and an axe to grind, despite the example set by people like Doctor King. But then, look what had happened to him. It was enough to make you wonder if maybe the hippies were onto something after all.

Thoughts tumbled through my head as I comforted Sagira. Was religion to blame? The guy had cited Jesus as he aimed the gun at Gabe. Such an irony – if only he’d asked, he would have found that Gabe, named for one of the most famous angels, had been brought up in a Christian household.

Or perhaps he only used religion as an excuse to air his prejudices, and a convenient cover to conceal his real beliefs. Plenty of people did, especially in the south. Maybe he wasn’t a Christian at all. My brain was scrambled just thinking about it, but I had to understand.

I compared it to animal behaviour. If you mistreat a dog or cat for long enough, eventually it will bite. Maybe not you, the abuser, but some innocent party. So perhaps this loser had been raised in a household where he was abused, or had witnessed his family abusing others and getting away with it. But that still wasn’t a reason to gun an innocent person down!

These thoughts swirled around my head long after Doctor Scott had left. He’d reassured us that Gabe’s prognosis looked hopeful, and that he was receiving the best care available.

The police found me again, though it was close to midnight by then, and asked some more questions, hoping I’d seen something to explain the shattered glass and exploding fire hydrant. I told them I hadn’t, and they eventually left, promising, like General MacArthur, that they would return.

After a while we were allowed into Gabe’s private room for a few minutes, to watch his chest rise and fall with the pumping of the ventilator as he slept. His head was heavily bandaged, his usually tanned complexion a sickly grey.

The nurse suggested we go home and try to get some sleep, saying we would be notified if there was any change. But the thought of leaving Gabe was unbearable, so we trooped out and silently took up residence in the nearest waiting room.

4.

I managed to get hold of Mama on the phone around midday on Thursday.

What do you mean Gabe’s hurt? she drawled in the annoying southern-belle accent she affected to impress her lady friends and church group. You need to be a little more explicit, darlin’. I’m not a mind-reader, you know.

I took a deep breath, determined not to let her silly mannerisms get to me.

Mama, Gabe was shot last night. He’s in hospital.

Shot? You mean with a gun?

Yes, he was shot in the head. He’s had surgery, but now he’s in a coma and we don’t know what’s going to happen.

She gasped. I felt a mean little stab of gratification that she was at last truly concerned.

Oh darlin, how dreadful! It’s just the worse timing imaginable!

Timing?

Yes, darlin’. You were driving over for the fund-raising ball Friday night, remember? You were both going to stay here, at Niceville, for the weekend.

Gabe’s in a coma and you’re worried about us missing some stupid ball? Mama, he could die!

Alright, darlin’, I get it’s serious. You always were so melodramatic, that’s all.

Gee, thanks.

Well, it’s not just any little ol’ ball, you know. It’s the first time I’ve been entrusted with such an important function for the S.P.D.A.D.P., and you did promise that you and Gabe would come to support me…

I sighed. Frankly, I could care less about the wretched ball. Or the even more wretched S.P.D.A.D.P. – supposedly the Society for the Prevention of Discrimination Against Displaced Persons, which provided Mama and her churchy friends ample opportunity to play at being model citizens and mix with people that impressed them – businessmen, politicians, doctors, lawyers – and their wives. Et cetera.

Needless to say, my own charitable instincts differed significantly to Mama’s.

Angela? Are you alright? Have Gabe’s parents come down?

Yes – his whole family’s here. And I need mine.

Of course darlin’. You must be devastated. I can’t come straight away – as you know, I’m the hostess for the ball, and they simply can’t do without me. But after that I’ll be right over there quicker than you can wink, I promise.

That’s great, I said, unable to muster much enthusiasm. Okay, let me know what time you’ll get here.

Of course, darlin’. I will.

Somehow the thought of my mother coming didn’t provide the comfort I’d hoped for. But then, she’d never exactly generated stability.

My mother – Patsy – was a total ditz. She existed purely for shopping, trips to the hairdresser to maintain her Marilyn Monroe look-a-like bob, her churchy lady friends, and her stupid ‘charity’. She’d had a haphazard way of rearing children, and she seemed eternally surprised upon entering our house to find two young girls expecting her to perform magical, motherly duties of which she only seemed to have a vague idea.

Our father, Ronald, had managed to fulfil some of the functions that were so out of Mama’s realm of experience, like making pancakes for breakfast on weekends and reading us bedtime stories when we were little. But he wasn’t always there because of his work for the air force, and we’d often had to fend for ourselves.

Darkly good looking (and I mean like Omar Sharif) with Egyptian and Welsh heritage, dad had always been steady and reliable – until he came home from ‘Nam in ‘66 after taking a Vietcong bullet in his chest. I didn’t even get a chance to see him after he got back. As soon as his wound healed, he took off up north with some free-lovin’, flower power chick half his age. We hadn’t really talked since.

I was so glad that Gabe had a nice family and stable parents. I respected Zahra Serapis, and was comfortable with the thought of her as my mother-in-law.

We eventually got taxis back to my apartment, stopping on the way to grab a takeaway Indian banquet for dinner. After eating, I took to the bathroom to wash properly, and spent ages scrubbing myself all over. I finally emerged, tingling and fresh, but still hankering to go back in and scour everything again.

I let Gabe’s parents have my double bed – a little luxury I’d invested in on finding myself with a serious boyfriend. I was sure they’d speculate about the things Gabe and I had done there, but I was too tired to care. So we’d had sex. Big deal. (Well, it actually was to me. He was the best thing I could imagine in or out of bed. They could think what they liked.)

Sagira and I squeezed onto the two vintage chaise lounges in my lounge room that I’d inherited from my grandmother. Although they looked super cool with their patterned chintz and gleaming woodwork, they sure were hell to sleep on.

But I suspect we were more comfortable than Adio, who tossed and turned on a nest made up of every cushion I owned, arranged on the loungeroom floor. I’m totally surprised he stuck with us for the whole night instead of finding a comfy room in a motel somewhere.

Friday crawled by. Eating, sleeping, sitting with Gabe, sitting at home. Again, I had to convince the cops – who’d impounded Gabe’s car and gone over it with a fine-toothed forensic comb, to no avail – that I knew nothing about the excess damage at the crime scene. I even had to dodge a reporter or two! The Serapis family moved to an up-market motel nearer to the hospital, and we visited Gabe morning and evening.

We sat and talked, and read to him from the daily paper, despite that he seemed oblivious to everything. The doctors had told us to talk to him, as it might stimulate his brain. We tried to sound happy and normal to encourage him to heal, despite the strain we felt. Sometimes Zahra burst into tears, sobbing quietly into her handkerchief. Abasi sat silently and stared into space, and Adio paced, looking sullen. I wondered if he was thinking of revenge. I certainly had.

Sagira and I just tried to relax and be ourselves. It was probably easier for us, as we found hope in doing little things for him. But it wasn’t easy to see the rest of his family suffering.

Mama arrived at the Jacksonville International Airport on Saturday morning, complete with a ridiculously huge suitcase. I’m sure I nearly ruptured something as I carried it out to the car and hoisted it into the boot. I imagined it was crammed with a dozen pairs of stilettos, enough clothes to fit out a fashion parade, and a hundred scarves – her latest