Yellow Cab

YELLOW CAB

Robert Leonard

University of New Mexico Press

Albuquerque

ISBN for this digital edition: 978-0-8263-3786-3

© 2006 by the University of New Mexico Press

All rights reserved. Published 2006

Printed in the United States of America

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The Library of Congress has cataloged the printed edition as follows:

Leonard, Robert, 1954–

Yellow cab / Robert Leonard.

p. cm.

Includes bibliographical references and index.

ISBN-13: 978-0-8263-3785-6 (pbk. : alk. paper)

ISBN-10: 0-8263-3785-6 (pbk. : alk. paper)

1. Albuquerque (N.M.)—Literary collections.

2. Taxicab drivers—Literary collections. I. Title.

PS3612.E574Y45 2006

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To Annie, my favorite poet

Dead Man’s Curve

A wave of her threadlike hand caught my eye. Barely. My mind processed the flickering image and the hand grew large, separated, and turned into a pair of human silhouettes perched on the curb out front of the Hotel Blue. They were a pair of flags hoping for a ride out of downtown Albuquerque. The street was glistening wet after a passing thunderhead, but the summer storm had gone east. My eyes squinted against the sun, but not for long, as it was quickly sinking amidst pink and purple clouds and contrails behind Los Volcanoes. I turned my big worn steering wheel toward the figures and the rest of my cab followed reluctantly. I popped the meter on with my thumb even before I glided to a stop before them in my yellow Crown Vic. She reached the cab door first, thought about touching it, but didn’t, waiting for him. I relaxed. If I had a gun like most drivers I might have relaxed my grip on its pearl, aluminum, or wood handle. But I didn’t. Both she and I watched him open the door for her—approvingly. They climbed into the back of my cab, and I smelled sour booze. My hackles contemplated raising, but thought better of it. At least it isn’t the sweet smell of crack, I thought. And it’s a girl and a guy. Safe enough. I relaxed one more time.

Thank God you stopped! she said, scuttling across the bench seat to the far door to give him room.

No problem. Glad to help, I replied cheerfully, thinking tip.

I had only caught a glimpse of them when their silhouettes had turned human and before they settled in as bodiless voices behind me. She was a sweet-faced, Navajo girl, long legs, flat butt, dressed in denim jeans and a jean jacket. White blouse and boots. Long, perfect, black hair, tugged taut and straight as if by some magical force. Some old boyfriend’s inlaid string tie. Zuni, I thought. No, Navajo doing Zuni. Too bad about the flat butt, I thought. A little punctuation and she would be as perfect as her hair, but drunk.

Yes, he grunted, air rushing out of his lungs as he bent over and in, his panza forcing it out of his chest. He settled in solidly beside her, behind me. The car leaned his and my way. Thank you very much, he added.

He’s not from here, I thought, listening to him. From back east somewhere. Shithead.

I bled the gas pedal. The cab rocked and eased into traffic.

You folks going anywhere in particular? I asked politely, thinking tip yet again. I always thought tip.

I could feel his body turn to look at her. Drivers don’t see what’s happening in their backseats. We feel it.

Dead Man’s Curve, she said laughingly, touching my shoulder lightly. Do you know where Dead Man’s Curve is?

Sure, I said, pleased I was going the wrong direction. I put on the turn signal, pulled a grand, wide U’ey on west Central, and pointed my yellow behemoth east effortlessly. Right on Eighth Street, south to Bridge, east to Isleta, then south, I planned. Dead Man’s Curve, where Isleta swerved, no—bolted, forty-five degrees to the right before heading gently south again.

I felt her weight shift in the back of the cab. She was moving closer to him. The dispatcher’s voice on the radio squawked, and I turned the radio down, but not too much. There might be another fare going my way.

I heard her sigh contentedly, with a warm giggle tacked to the end. Her voice wound up six inches lower than it had been. A flash of his hand in my rearview mirror let me know she was snuggling in, and he was placing his arm around her. Arching my back a little, in the rearview mirror I could see the top of her head, framed by his shoulder and right hand.

Can you tell that we are in love? she asked me. I felt her eyes on him. I ignored a yellow light and pressed through it.

Knew it the moment I saw you, I replied without hesitation, still thinking tip.

Can you tell HOW much we are in love? I punched the button for an extra passenger. It allowed me to charge an extra fifty cents. I nodded at the same time, knowing she could see my head nod, even if I couldn’t see her. I smiled and turned my head slightly to the right so she could catch a glimpse of the corner of my mouth and my smile. Now I can make some money, I thought. I kept my eyes on the road. Now heading south, I saw a mere sliver of a moon beginning to rise to the southeast over the Manzanos. The damn daylight was nearly gone. Sun always in your eyes and too hot to be comfortable with a half-ass cab air conditioner.

It’s our anniversary, she said. We’ve been together one year now, haven’t we dear?

He paused for a moment before answering. Why, yes my sweet. We have. We have indeed. He chuckled.

We met in Paris, she said. At a small café. I could only afford a pastry, coffee, and water, and was thinking about my lover—my ex-lover, I should say—when this lovely man seated next to me asked why my eye held a tear. I told him, and we have been together ever since! She put her arms around him and squeezed. He sighed. Do you know why I love him so?

Because he treats you like you should be treated, and not all men have treated you that way, I said.

Why yes, she said. How did you know?

I thought about telling her the truth—that everyone who had ever warmed the seat she sat on had relationships with others who didn’t treat them well—but instead I shrugged and lied, saying instead, I could see how much he loved you in his eyes when you flagged me down. This didn’t answer her question but it didn’t matter.

I felt the warmth of her smile on the back of my neck. Did you know he is a member of the Gould family, the Goulds of New York?

Nope, I said, thinking about his accent.

That would be the railroad Goulds, she said. Pioneers, magnates, philanthropists. They built libraries, saved the lives of poor orphans, and built the railroads that brought settlers west.

And brought the people that tried to drive your tribe into oblivion, I thought but didn’t say.

He tapped me on the shoulder. My shoulder jerked slightly and involuntarily. She could touch me. He couldn’t. But I took a deep breath and let it go. Maybe he recognized his error, maybe not. A moment passed.

Excuse me sir, he said finally. How much will the fare be—to this, this, uh, what is it? Dead Man’s Curve?

Cheap too, I thought. Don’t get in a cab if you have to worry about the price of the fare.

About fifteen bucks, I said. It was actually going to be closer to eleven, but if you estimate low and go over, a fare is pissed. Come in under, they are happy, and you might make the estimate up in tip. A high estimate always works for you one way or another.

Don’t you love that about rich people? she said, laughing. That is how they become rich—worrying about a buck or two here and there while you and I go off and spend every nickel as soon as it comes in. You and I do that, don’t we, Mr. Driver?

Tell me about it, I said, only because I knew she wanted me to agree.

Don’t worry about the fare, sweetie, she said to me. Richard has plenty of money, don’t you dear?

Sure, said Richard, hesitantly. Drive on, sir . . .

And Driver, honey, did you know that I am one of the famed Window Rock Begays?

I laughed, then she did. Loudly. Window Rock is the capital of the Navajo Nation. The name Begay in Window Rock is like Smith in Washington, D.C.

What’s so funny? Richard asked, ignorant but curious. I marked one up for him. Unlike most of the New Yorkers who have ridden in my cab, at least he didn’t act like he knew everything when he didn’t know anything. He’s been here about a week, I thought, or he would know the significance of the name Begay.

Never mind, dear. . . . I’ll explain it to you later. She reached up and squeezed my shoulder twice, then patted it a few times platonically before drawing her hand back.

I could feel him nodding behind me, subserviently.

Suddenly, Dead Man’s Curve loomed in front of me. My big foot slammed the brake pedal. It felt like mush, but caught in plenty of time to look like I planned it that way. The highway railing grew close and warning signs pointed for me to turn to the right.

Turn left, she said, so I did. A hard left under the streetlight. Dead Man’s Curve had only one streetlight above it. It was the only one in the neighborhood. Of course it was. Albuquerque didn’t invest in this part of town. Poor people lived here—Hispanics, Indians, Mexicans, and white trash. They tended not to vote, and had better things to do with their nickels than buy lousy city councilmen.

I cruised slowly down Armijo Street until it turned into dirt. Waiting for instructions, I drove another fifty feet into the blackness.

Stop here, she said. It was nowhere. The moon lit up the cornfields that surrounded us, and the closest house light was five hundred feet away. Sorry, but I don’t like anyone to know where I live. Nothing personal. I slowed to a stop and the dust we had stirred up in the road passed overhead to the east.

I felt her hand on my shoulder, and her cheek on mine, like a baby’s eyelashes, for only a moment. I wished I had shaved.

Before the cab had stopped rocking, before the dust had settled, she was out of the taxi and in my headlights, on the dirt road that ran into what appeared to be a meadow. She raised her arms and began to dance in the headlights, turning gracefully, and slowly moving away, across my broad beams, into