The Book of Revelation
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On a bright spring day in Amsterdam a man goes out to buy a packet of cigarettes. He is a dancer - charismatic, talented and physically beautiful. What happens next takes him completely by surprise and marks him for ever. He awakens to find that he has been abducted by three hooded strangers and subsequently imprisoned in a mysterious white room, which will have consequences that are both poignant and highly disturbing.
Rupert Thomson
RUPERT THOMSON is the author of eight highly acclaimed novels, of which Air and Fire and The Insult were shortlisted for the Writer's Guild Fiction Prize and the Guardian Fiction Prize respectively. His most recent novel, Death of a Murderer, was shortlisted for the 2008 Costa Novel Award. His memoir This Party's Got to Stop was published in 2009.
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- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Weird title. Nothing to do with religion and no discernible revelations in the story. Incidentally makes it very difficult to find inpor a search engine. A better book than it promises at first. the kidnap and sexual torture which is at the core of the book is luridly fascinating flirting with the edges of distaste and even pornography. But it's spectacular well-written and the consequences are gripping and feel very real. A page-turner with insight into pain, confusion, loss of meaning, and even into the nature of ballet.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5I loved this book. The start: the first third of the book was enough to keep you hooked to the end. It is not a spoiler to say the main character - ex-ballet dancer and choreographer is kidnapped and sexually exploited by three unknown women. It reads like a thriller and the kidnap is an allegory for female rape and abuse (by men). It does run out of steam a little bit and would have been better if it was shorter. It is also frustrating, if I tell you why it would be a spoiler. If you want a great beach read, don't take a mainstream Thriller, take this instead, you will not only enjoy it more, you will learn a lot more as well. I cannot think of a book that both me and my partner have both read that has generated so much debate. There is also a clever device when the main character is kidnapped, when the POV shifts from the first person to the third, you will see why that is clever if you read it. A thumpingly good read. Be fantastic for a book group.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5I can't even remember how I came accross this book, but I had heard of the movie before I knew it was a book. I thought the gender reversal was quite intriguing. The idea of women abducting a man, and dance the women and Daniel do, between rapists and victim, was very fascinating. We are often confronted with the effects rape has on a woman, but the idea a man could be raped is often socially mocked and disbelieved. In fact, it is often a male fantasy. Many people believe if a man is physically responsive, then he is giving his permission.This book delves into a familiar concept, abduction and rape, and does so from an unfamiliar angle. In doing so, the reader is off-balance and more sympathetic to the victim. The mental journey of a survivor is understood, and the reality that perpetrators are often survivors of abuse themselves is mentioned.I understood myself better after reading this book. I reccommend this book to anyone who has experienced, or known someone who has experienced, abuse. Be aware, though, it is graphic.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5I picked up this book only because its setting was Amsterdam. As a former resident of that city, the rare books and films that are set there are inherently interesting to me. I love being able to precisely envision settings, placing myself in the city's streets, smelling and feeling the crush of the markets, hearing the trams and tasting the air of the city as I read. But this book fascinated me on many levels, including even the author's choice to set it in Amsterdam, a city which in some ways has morals so permissive as to make it ultimately depersonalized. The Dutch pride themselves on their "live and let live" culture - but in some ways this permissiveness mimics an attachment disorder. If no one cares about anything, who is left to care about what happens to you? How do you learn to care about other beings?The story is about a ballet dancer who, on his way to buy cigarettes for his girlfriend, is abducted by a trio of cloaked, masked women, and held for a length of time. Abused both sexually and mentally, his release is as traumatic for him as his capture was.The first half of the book deals with his capture, torture and release several weeks later, while the second half deals with next decade of his life, as he tries to reconcile his earlier understanding of the world with what has happened to him. The utter narcissism of his girlfriend, combined with the unique nature of the crime (a sex crime against a man being somehow less believable or empathetic than one against a woman) facilitates the disintegration of that relationship almost immediately, and the protagonist's inability to attach to anyone or anything leads him around the world on a quest for peace, or vengeance, or escape. The book can only end when he begins to face the enormity of what has happened, and deal with the consequences openly.The author, whose other works I haven't read, switches from first to third person without rhyme or reason, and his spare use of language echoes for me what it must be like to think with a man's mind.I recommend this book, if only for its ability to make me place myself in someone else's skin, and have sympathy for a character who, if I didn't know his history, I might despise.
- Rating: 3 out of 5 stars3/5Maybe I have to read this again to understand why all the blurbs from critics on this edition rave about it because though I enjoyed it, I certainly didn't come away thinking it was anything earth shattering and realistically the narrators behaviour after the crime against him was verging on completely unrealistic.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5This is a strange one. Kidnapped on his way to the shop, the dancer hero is imprisoned by a group of woman who have seen him dance and now wish to keep him as a sex slave. His relationship with them and his behaviour after his ordeal make strange reading.
- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5I really, really enjoyed this book. It plays with gender roles and power, and reads quite realistically despite the outlandish premise of a group of female friends holding a male dancer as a sexual hostage.
- Rating: 4 out of 5 stars4/5Take a popular theme in sex fiction - woman kidnapped into sexual slavery - and give it a twist. The male narrator is a professional dancer who is kidnapped and used as a sex toy by a group of women. Chained up, his body responds against his will. A most interesting well written believable and disturbing novel
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The Book of Revelation - Rupert Thomson
One
I can see it all so clearly, even now. The studio canteen was empty, and I was sitting in the corner, by the window. Sunlight angled across the table, dividing the smooth, blond wood into two equal halves, one bright, one dark; I remember thinking that it looked heraldic, like a shield. An ashtray stood in front of me, the sun’s rays shattering against its chunky glass. Beside it, someone’s coffee cup, still half full but long since cold. It was an ordinary moment in an ordinary day – a break between rehearsals …
I had just opened my notebook and was about to put pen to paper when I heard footsteps to my right, a dancer’s footsteps, light but purposeful. I looked up to see Brigitte, my girlfriend, walking towards me in her dark-green leotard and her laddered tights, her hair tied back with a piece of mauve velvet. She was frowning. She had run out of cigarettes, she told me, and there were none in the machine. Would I go out and buy her some more?
I stared at her. ‘I thought I bought you a packet yesterday.’
‘I finished them,’ she said.
‘You’ve smoked twenty cigarettes since yesterday?’
Brigitte just looked at me.
‘You’ll get cancer,’ I told her.
‘I don’t care,’ she said.
This was an argument we had had before, of course, and I soon relented. In the end, I was pleased to be doing something for her. It’s a quality I often see in myself when I look back, that eagerness to please. I had wanted to make her happy from the first moment I saw her. I would always remember the morning when she walked into the studio, fresh from the Jeune Ballet de France, and how she stood by the piano, pinning up her crunchy, chestnut-coloured hair, and I would always remember making love to her a few days later, and the expression on her face as she knelt above me, a curious mixture of arrogance and ecstasy, her eyes so dark that I could not tell the difference between the pupils and the irises …
Brigitte had moved to the window. She stood there, staring out, one hand propped on her hip. Smiling, I reached for my sweater and pulled it over the old torn shirt I always wore for dance class.
‘I won’t be long,’ I said.
Outside, the weather was beautiful. Though May was still two weeks away, the sun felt warm against my back as I walked off down the street. I saw a man cycle over a bridge, singing loudly to himself, as people often do in Amsterdam, the tails of his pale linen jacket flapping. There was a look of anticipation on his face – anticipation of summer, and the heat that was to come …
I had been living with Brigitte for seven years. We rented the top two floors of a house on Egelantiersgracht, one of the prettier, less well-known canals. We had skylights, exotic plants, a tank of fish; we had a south-facing terrace where we would eat breakfast in the summer. Since we were both members of the same company, we saw each other twenty-four hours a day; in fact, in all the time that we had lived together, I don’t suppose we had spent more than three or four nights apart. As dancers, we had had a good deal of success. We had performed all over the world – in Osaka, in São Paulo, in Tel Aviv. The public loved us. So did the critics. I was also beginning to be acclaimed for my choreography (I had created three short ballets for the company, the most recent of which had won an international prize). At the age of twenty-nine, I had every reason to feel blessed. There was nothing about my life I would have changed, not if you had offered me riches beyond my wildest imaginings – though, as I walked to the shop that afternoon, I do remember wishing that Brigitte would give up smoking …
I followed my usual route. After crossing the bridge, I turned left along the street that bordered the canal. I walked a short distance, then I took a right turn, into the shadows of a narrow alley. The air down there smelled of damp plaster, stagnant water, and the brick walls of the houses were grouted with an ancient, lime-green moss. I passed the watchmaker’s where a cat lay sleeping in the window, its front paws flexing luxuriously, its fur as grey as smoke or lead. I passed a shop that sold oriental vases and lamps with shades of coloured glass and bronze statues of half-naked girls. Like the man on the bicycle, I had music in my head: it was a composition by Juan Martin, which I was hoping to use in my next ballet …
Halfway down the alley, at the point where it curved slightly to the left, I stopped and looked up. Just there, the buildings were five storeys high, and seemed to lean towards each other, all but shutting out the light.
The sky had shrunk to a thin ribbon of blue.
As I brought my eyes back down, I saw them, three figures dressed in hoods and cloaks, like part of a dream that had become detached, somehow, and floated free, into the day. The sight did not surprise me. In fact, I might even have laughed. I suppose I thought they were on their way to a fancy-dress party – or else they were street-theatre people, perhaps …
Whatever the truth was, they didn’t seem particularly out of place in the alley. No, what surprised me, if anything, was the fact that they recognised me. They knew my name. They told me they had seen me dance. Yes, many times. I was wonderful, they said. One of the women clapped her hands together in delight at the coincidence. Another took me by the arm, the better to convey her enthusiasm.
While they were clustered round me, asking questions, I felt a sharp pain in the back of my right hand. Looking down, I caught a glimpse of a needle leaving one of my veins, a needle against the darkness of a cloak. I heard myself ask the women what they were doing – What are you doing? – only to drift away, fall backwards, while the black steeples of their hoods remained above me, and my words too, written on the sky, that narrow strip of blue, like a message trailed behind a plane …
It is only five minutes’ walk from the studio to the shop that sells newspapers and cigarettes. I ought to have been there and back in a quarter of an hour. But half an hour passed, then forty-five minutes, and still there was no sign of me.
I had last seen Brigitte standing at the canteen window, one hand propped on her hip. How long, I wonder, did she stay like that? And what went through her mind as she stood there, staring down into the street? Did she think our little argument had upset me? Did she think I was punishing her?
I imagine she must have turned away eventually, reaching up with both hands to re-tie the scrap of velvet that held her hair back from her face. Probably she would have muttered something to herself in French. Fait chier. Merde. She would still have been longing for that cigarette, of course. All her nerve-ends jangling.
Maybe, in the end, she asked Fernanda for a Marlboro Light and smoked it by the pay-phone in the corridor outside the studio.
I doubt she danced too well that afternoon.
That night, when I did not come home, Brigitte rang several of my friends. She rang my parents too, in England. No one knew anything. No one could help. Two days later, a leading Dutch newspaper published an article containing a brief history of my career and a small portrait photograph. It wasn’t front-page news. After all, there was no real story as yet. I was a dancer and a choreographer, and I had gone missing. That was it. Various people at the company came up with various different theories – a nervous breakdown of some kind, personal problems – but none of them involved foul play. My parents offered a reward for any information that might throw light on my whereabouts. Nobody came forward.
All this I found out later.
There was a point at which Brigitte began to resent me for putting her in such a difficult position. She found it humiliating, not knowing where I was; I was making her look ridiculous. It must have been then that it occurred to her that I might have left her – for another woman, presumably. How cowardly of me to say nothing. How cowardly, to just go. Brigitte was half French, half Portuguese, and her pride had always resembled a kind of anger. There was nothing constant or steady about it. No, it flared like a struck match. When she was interviewed by the police she told them that I had abandoned her, betrayed her. She couldn’t produce any evidence to support her theory, nor could she point to any precedent (in our many years together I had never once been unfaithful to her), yet the police took her seriously. A woman’s intuition, after all. What’s more, she lived with me. She was supposed to know me best. So if that was what she thought … The police did not send out any search parties for me. They did not scour the countryside with tracker dogs or drag the city’s waterways. They did not even put up Missing Person posters. Why would they? I was just a man having an affair.
This, too, I found out later.
One other thing. The last person to see me before I disappeared was not Brigitte, but Stefan Elmers. Stefan was a freelance stills photographer who worked for the company. He took pictures of us dancing, black-and-white pictures that were used in programmes and publicity. Both Brigitte and I counted Stefan as a friend.
As I was walking along the canal that afternoon – and this could only have been moments before I turned into the alley – Stefan happened to drive past me in his car. Usually he would have stopped and talked to me, or else he would have shouted out of the window, something cheeky, knowing Stefan, but there was another car behind him, right behind him, so he just kept going.
Apparently, I looked happy.
For the next eighteen days no one had the slightest idea where I was.
Two
When he came to, there was a taste in his mouth, a kind of residue, that was sweet yet chemical, like saccharine. His eyes didn’t work properly. Things spun round, tilted, misted over.
He lay still, with his head on one side.
Floorboards. A white wall.
In the distance he could hear violins. Or it could have been cellos. He listened to the music, as if it might afford him an insight into what had happened. It just went on and on, though, indefinite, unchanging. It fed on itself without ever seeming to consume itself.
Time passed.
The music was still there, but he couldn’t be sure where it was coming from – or even, in the end, if it was real.
At last he felt able to lift his head. He was lying on his back, his wrists and ankles held by stainless-steel rings. Each ring was attached to its own individual rail by a second, smaller ring. Each rail was firmly bolted to the floor. All four of the smaller rings had been locked into position on their rails, using metal eyes that were built into the floor at certain strategic points. The structure puzzled him. It was so intricate, so carefully designed. But why, what for?
His mind was slow and cloudy. Answers would not come.
He looked around. It was a large room, rectangular in shape. A single door stood in the far wall, just above the toe of his right shoe. There were three lights in the ceiling, each fitted with a wide metal shade; the light they gave off would be merciless, unflinching, like the light in an abattoir, he felt, or a laboratory. Everything had been painted white, even the pipes that ran from floor to ceiling on his right, even the wall to his left, which was built out of naked brick. There were no windows in the room, only one small skylight that looked as if it had been nailed shut. Floorboards stretched away in all directions – bare, unvarnished, slightly dusty.
He lay back, aware of the black rubber mat beneath his body. It reminded him of being in a gymnasium. It had the same smell. Hot-water bottles. Sweat. He stared up at the skylight. A white window-frame, a simple square of blue. It seemed only distantly related to the narrow strip of sky he had seen while walking down the alley.
The cigarettes, he thought. I never bought the cigarettes.
He saw the women as he had seen them then, their faces concealed under conical black hoods, their black cloaks swirling round their bodies. The fabric flapped and rippled, making him think of rays, the way they move across the ocean floor, and he could hear their voices overlapping – We saw you dance last week, we were in the second row, it was wonderful – so much so that it was hard to tell exactly who was speaking. He was used to receiving praise from strangers, of course. He had learned to be patient, gracious … Though he had the feeling that one of them had not talked at all. Instead, she had simply inclined her head, as if she was paying close attention. Or was she shy, perhaps? Even at the time, something about the encounter had struck him as being wrong – and yet he didn’t think it was the enthusiasm; the enthusiasm had seemed genuine, unfeigned. He had been about to excuse himself and turn away when he felt that sharp, cold pain in his right hand. He shivered as he remembered how the needle had left the vein, how smoothly it withdrew, how stealthily, like a snake that has just released its venom …
A hypodermic, presumably.
A syringe.
He could still remember the sunlight falling across a steep roof at the far end of the alley, the tiles gleaming as if coated in gold leaf, but he could remember nothing after that – nothing until this white room with no windows, this imprisonment …
Once again he raised his head to look around. This time he noticed that the walls were studded with unusual fixtures – all kinds of brackets, hooks and bolts; they did not set his mind at rest since he could think of no innocent explanation for their presence. To his right, and slightly behind him, was a shallow alcove. Inside it stood a washing-machine and a tumble-drier, both German-made. The sight ought to have reassured him – such appliances were familiar, domestic, part of everyday life – and yet, in the context of the rubber mat and the stainless-steel rings, in the context of the fixtures on the walls, they took on a threatening air, they became accomplices.
Fear surfaced on his skin like a sharp, hot scent.
He felt the sudden urge to urinate.
He had no memory of hearing the door open, and yet it must have done, for there they were, the women, moving towards him, the hems of their black cloaks snagging on splinters in the floorboards. They stood above him, peering down, as though he lay far below them, as though he was lying at the bottom of a well.
‘You’re ours now.’
He could not tell which one of them had spoken. His gaze lifted beyond them, to the skylight. That square of blue, empty and indifferent.
The same woman spoke again. She was the tallest of the three. She had a slight accent, as if she had learned her English in America.
‘You belong to us,’ she said. ‘You’re ours.’
His first instinct was to ask her what she meant, but he fought against it. He didn’t want to give her the satisfaction of hearing his voice. Not yet, anyway. He wanted to deny her something. Perhaps it was the only thing he had that he could still withhold.
Though she seemed content simply to stare at him – to run her eyes down the length of his body, and then up again …
A plane appeared behind her shoulder, a single speck of silver in the blue. It was strange to think of all the people up there, reading magazines, listening to music, drinking drinks. It was strange to think they didn’t know that he was lying in a room below them, held by chains … He watched the plane cross the top right-hand corner of the skylight, its progress steady, smooth, impervious –
Then it was gone.
The women were murmuring to each other now, their voices lowered, intimate, distorted by their hoods. He couldn’t distinguish one voice from another, nor could he make out what any of them were saying, even though they were still standing over him.
At last, and without warning, they withdrew. He lay still. The air had a muffled quality to it, a deadness. He wondered whether the room was sound-proofed. It seemed likely. If so, the music he had heard when he came round must have been playing in his head, his blood making one thin sound as it ran through his veins, like fifty bows drawn slowly over fifty sets of strings …
And now, in the same way, the woman’s words floated in the air above him, haunting, constant, the meaning just out of reach:
You’re ours now. You belong to us.
It was hard for him to work out exactly how much time had passed. The blue in the skylight had darkened, though it was not yet night. He was just beginning to feel the first stirrings of hunger when the door swung open and a woman walked into the room, a tray balanced between her hands. She moved towards him cautiously, so as not to spill anything, setting the tray down on the rubber mat. There was cold meat, salad, cheese, fresh fruit and bottled water. In the context of the room, which was so bare and colourless, the food looked exotic, almost absurd.
Kneeling beside him, the woman reached for the water. For a few moments she struggled to undo the plastic top. Either she had no strength in her hands, he thought, or else she was nervous, perhaps. The air gushed out of her as the seal broke and the top finally came free. She filled a glass and held it to his mouth. He gulped the water down. She had to do everything for him, dabbing his chin with a napkin when he drank too fast and almost choked.
By now, his head had cleared. He felt he should start to take things in, to gather information. He watched as the woman peeled an apple, green skin curling away from moist white flesh and dangling in the air below her thumb. Her hands were raw, he noticed – red, slightly swollen knuckles, bitten fingernails. Her head remained lowered, which made it difficult to see her eyes, though he sometimes caught a glimpse of them, a momentary glitter, as she helped him to a piece of lettuce or a slice of meat. Once, the faint, ticklish smell of mothballs lifted off the sleeve of her cloak as she reached towards him, making him think that it had only recently been taken out of storage. Where had the cloaks come from? Did the women own them?
Was this the first time they had attempted something like this?
All of a sudden he saw the theatre floodlit for the evening’s performance, with people crowding into the foyer, taxis drawing up outside –
‘What’s the time?’ he asked.
The woman shook her head, her way of signalling that he shouldn’t talk. But he wanted to. He had to.
‘Look,’ he said, ‘I’ve got a performance tonight.’
She gave no sign that she had even heard him.
‘I’m due on stage at seven-thirty.’ Then, though he felt stupid saying it, he added, ‘I’m a dancer.’
She might as well have been deaf.
‘So I can’t ask you anything?’ he said.
When the woman saw that he had eaten and drunk enough, she rose to her feet, picked up the tray and moved towards the door. He watched her go, his head lifting off the rubber mat, his neck muscles at full stretch. She had not spoken to him, he realised. Not even once.
Lying back, he wondered if he was being held to ransom. The thought of his father receiving a ransom note – his father who had always been so careful with money! – was almost enough to make him laugh out loud.
Later on that first day, when night had fallen and the overhead lights had been switched on, all three women returned. This time they stood by the door at the far end of the room. They seemed to be conferring.
At last they turned and swept towards him. They gathered round him, as before. Disturbed by their approach, tiny complex galaxies of dust floated away from him, across the floor …
He had decided to hide anything he might be feeling, in much the same way that the women were concealing their identities. He would reveal as little of himself as possible. At the same time, there were things he needed to know. He had to try and find out who the women were, where they had taken him, and what they had in mind.
‘What do you want?’ he said.
The women glanced at each other.
‘Do you want money? Is that it?’
‘Money?’ one of the women said. ‘No, we don’t want money.’
This was not the woman who had spoken to him earlier. This woman’s voice was lower, huskier, as if she smoked. She had almost no accent.
‘So what do you want?’ he said.
The woman reached up with one hand to ease the hood away from her neck. Though the material did not look particularly coarse, it appeared to be chafing her. Her skin must be sensitive, he thought. She had white hands, with short, tapering fingers, and her nail-varnish was a dark purple-black, the colour of dried blood or cheap wine. He was noticing hands; hands were all that he was being shown.
‘We already have what we want,’ the woman said. Then, turning to her two accomplices, she said, ‘Don’t you agree?’
They nodded.
Yes, this was a different woman. She seemed to have more authority. Maybe she was even the leader. In any group of three, there would have to be a leader.
‘We have some rules …’
The woman turned away and walked towards the alcove that housed the washing-machine and the tumble-drier. She moved slowly, and with a certain gravity, a sense of self-importance, like a judge. She told him that he should not, under any circumstances, try to escape. There was no point, actually. They had taken all the necessary precautions. They had thought of everything. She also warned him against any attempts at violence. She was sure, in any case, that it was not in his nature. If he behaved well, she said, he would be treated well. She paused, waiting for him to speak, perhaps, but when he chose to say nothing, she continued. There was a device close to his right hand. If he was hungry or thirsty, or if he needed to go to the bathroom, then all he had to do was press –
‘Actually,’ he said, ‘I need it now.’
‘The bathroom?’
He nodded.
From where she was standing, the woman signalled to her two accomplices – a simple lowering of her head, a granting of permission.