What a long year January 2025 was.

Even if we expected destabilizing chaos and power grabs out of the gate from this president, actually experiencing the “shock and awe” of these past few weeks has been scary and exhausting. It can easily be overwhelming. That’s in large part the point of it all for these authoritarians. If we are in shock and overwhelm, we freeze. With enough chaos, things will slip through the cracks. The outrageous thing from 7 days ago may not seem “as bad” as the one from today. And thus things start to get normalized.

None of this is normal.

“It doesn’t have to be this way” — Andre Henry

I’ve not been immune to the overwhelm at times, but I have been trying hard to stay grounded in a few things. I want to cultivate a long-term mindset for myself and my community: to help protect each other, meet needs, preserve joy, and do it all in a more sustainable way so we don’t get burnt out. I firmly believe interdependence is a cornerstone of our fight against authoritarianism.

I keep coming back to what Leah said:

“Settler colonialism thrives on fear and separation. And so every time we have faith and every time we lean in for connection, we are resisting this system. So I wanted to remind us this because when we do our resistance in this way, in this generative way, it keeps our bodies safer, our community stronger, and it means we can keep it up for a lifetime.”

(Full quote in my November post)

I will not be finding joy or satisfaction when everyday people who voted for this are eventually hurt by it. I think that plays into the authoritarians’ hands. We everyday people are much closer to each other than we are to these authoritarians and oligarchs.

Some people have caused real harm and I’m not suggesting that should simply be swept under the rug in the name of “unity.” I do want to hold open paths for accountability, growth, and change, though.

I want to continue to lean in to mutual aid networks and learn more. I will finally read Let This Radicalize You which has been on my TBR list for too long... and just read more in general.

I started this post in early February to help me sort through the overwhelming feelings and only now as I’m wrapping it up do I realize it fits in perfectly with this month’s blog carnival topic, Affirmations. I am sure I will have more to write on all this, but February is already half gone and I figured this was a good starting point.

Ava started a Bear Blog question challenge this month and Kev adapted them to be a bit more generic. Several indieweb pals have posted their responses. I miss these kind of meta posts, so here are my responses:

1. Why did you start blogging in the first place?

I don’t remember the exact inspiration, but it was probably when I came across Blogger or maybe it was a Xanga blog. I had been tinkering with my GeoCities site since the late 90s, but that was more of a general collection of pages than a “weblog.”

In 1999, I decided to get this domain in part because I was coming around to the “gRegorLove” nickname that my friend Phil had given me. I thought it would be funny to set up a wife application (archived) on my own site. I also wanted to experiment with things like Blogger. I remember thinking it was so cool to be able to publish posts by FTP.

Sometime in 2000 I started posting more blog-type posts. It seemed so novel and was cool to be able to share text like that in my little corner of the web.

2. What platform are you using to manage your blog and why did you choose it?

I have been using the ProcessWire CMS/framework for almost ten years now. Before that I used Nucleus CMS for a long time. And before that I briefly experimented with B2evolution and Blogger.

I switched to ProcessWire because official development on Nucleus had stopped, unfortunately. I really enjoyed Nucleus’ extensibility and I made some of my first open source contributions there, but I wasn’t in a place to take on being one of the few remaining contributors.

I had used ProcessWire professionally for several sites and I really enjoyed its flexibility for building any type of site, not just a blog system that could be hacked into other types of things. ProcessWire is built entirely on custom fields and custom templates, so it allows a lot of creativity and not just a timeline of reverse chronological posts.

3. Have you blogged on other platforms before?

I posted on Xanga for quite a while. I think most of those posts still exist on my site, though. The phrase “Publish on your Own Site, Syndicate Elsewhere” (POSSE) didn’t exist then, but I definitely had the desire to keep the original posts on my site and cross-post them.

4. How do you write your posts? For example, in a local editing tool, or in a panel/dashboard that’s part of your blog?

Half the time I will write in the ProcessWire editor (like now). The other half of the time I will use Sublime Text or Obsidian. I have used Writemonkey in the past because I enjoyed the ability to type in full-screen with no distractions. It has optional typewriter sound effects, too, which was fun. I think my use of that mostly dropped off because ProcessWire has a decent visual editor.

5. When do you feel most inspired to write?

Whenever I see that the last post was a month or two ago? 😂 Though seriously, I updated my homepage to show the full content of the latest article for the first 45 days. After that, it changes to just the title + link under the “Other Recent Articles” heading. That can serve as a little visual nudge for me to write something if I notice that.

Inspirations vary. Sometimes I want to document everyday things for myself to look back on. Sometimes I want to put together various bits of information in one space and (hopefully) make it easier to digest, e.g. with some of my posts about health and safety. Sometimes I just want to vent.

6. Do you publish immediately after writing, or do you let it simmer a bit as a draft?

Most posts I am pretty casual about. I might let a draft sit overnight and re-read it to tweak some phrasing. My longer or more important (to me) posts will definitely be drafted and re-written over time, like “Four Years of Blank”.

7. What’s your favorite post on your blog?

Oof, this question is unfair. You saw that I’ve been posting for almost 25 years, right? 😂I think I might have to stretch the rules on this one and give some favorites in entirely arbitrary categories.

• Favorite look back/in-the-feels: “Ten Years On”
• Favorite short fiction: “Drabble: A Paradox”
• Favorite visual creative stuff: “Don’t Multitask with Fire”
• Favorite weird: “Top Five Worst Ways to Refer to Human Hair”

8. Any future plans for your blog? Maybe a redesign, a move to another platform, or adding a new feature?

I have thought several times that I should bring back and modernize the wife application. That was some good silly fun.

I have been pretty pleased with the design I’ve had since 2011. It’s definitely the longest period I’ve gone without a full redesign. I have added a lot of different types of posts since then, so the navigation probably needs some updates. I have made updates to the homepage to try to highlight some of those, like photos and notes. I don’t think I want the homepage to strictly be a reverse chronological feed of everything, though. Short notes would drown out the blog posts, so I still want to promote the blog posts by “pinning” them or something.

One of my favorite things about the design is the picture of me in the footer. That was taken in Chicago at Lake Michigan quite a while ago. Now that I live in California, I have thought about getting an updated version of that shot, but at the beach instead. I need to ask Al about that.

Bonus round: tag/nudge some other people to fill this out

This is my little addition to the prompts. If you blog, I’d love to read your responses as well. If you don’t, maybe this is a good time to start!

I’d like to nudge: Sheryl, Isha, Rachelskirts, and Tyler.

In late 2023, I gave myself a very loose challenge to listen to one distinct album each day(-ish). I wrote a post about the first week and after that I tried to keep track of them offline in Obsidian. I didn’t do it every day or always keep track of it very well, but that’s alright.

The handful that I did track were pretty balanced between new-to-me albums and new releases by artists I follow. I had forgotten about a couple of these since they were one-listens — not usually because I didn’t enjoy it, but it’s easy to get distracted by old and new favorites. There’s always so much music!

New to me

• Sleater-Kinney, Little Rope (2024): A band I’ve known of for a while, but had never really listened to much.
• The Rentals, Lost in Alphaville (2014): A vinyl guy on TikTok was raving about this album. It lived up to the hype and is one of my favorite finds of the year. Somehow I had not heard of The Rentals, despite it being Matt Sharp, formerly of Weezer.
• The Warning, Keep Me Fed (2024): A really solid rock album by some mujeres Mexicanas. I’m a sucker for ladies who rock.
• Chappell Roan, The Rise and Fall of a Midwest Princess (2023): Another favorite of the year. I hope it wins the Grammy. “Um, can you play a song with a fucking beat?!”
• julie, my anti-aircraft friend (2024): I came across a fellow GenX on TikTok who publishes the blog “New Music for Old Heads” and this album in one of their best-of posts caught my attention because shoegaze.

Aside: I love the idea of that blog and recommend it:

“This is a place for people who want to get into new music but feel overwhelmed by it, or maybe even think it hasn’t been good since [insert whatever decade it was that you were in your 20s]. Basically, I’m trying to get you excited about music discovery again.”

— New Music for Old Heads

New-ish by artists I follow

Interestingly, several of these were one-listens, but writing this reminds me to listen to them more.

• Oh Land, Loop Soup (2023)
• Casandra Jenkins, My Light, My Detroyer (2024)
• DK the Drummer, Lockers Volume 1 (2024): Darren King, former drummer of Mutemath. This is a fun, high energy album with a lot of great collaborations.
• Thomas Powers, A Tyrant Crying in Private (2024): solo album from singer of The Naked and Famous
• Lauren Mayberry, Vicious Creature (2024): solo album from the singer of Chvrches

Concerts

I only attended a couple concerts this year: Zoe Boekbinder’s Covid cautious backyard concert and Five Iron Frenzy with their old-school set. Both were a lot of fun!

I had a ticket for Sixpence None the Richer at the end of the year but unfortunately missed it. :/

Scrobbles

If you’re not familiar, “scrobbles” are the song listening data you can send to Libre.fm, Last.fm, or similar services. I’ve been on Last.fm for a long time, but I haven’t checked it in quite a while. There was a time when scrobbling stopped working on Android due to some security updates, so a good chunk of my listens from my phone weren’t reported. I just played around with some settings and got it working again, though! That’s why my 2024 listening report is kind of slim.

• My top artist was Cinnamon Chasers, mostly Dopamine (2024): great electronic music to work to
• Runner up was BT, The Secret Language of Trees (2023): some chill ambient music, also great to work to
• 2,791 listens; 309 artists; 452 albums; 2,154 tracks
• 54% new artists; 72% new albums; 55% new tracks; among my small set of friends on Last.fm, I apparently came in first for percentage of new artists
• My first track of the year was apparently “Speak to Me” by Pink Floyd. I’m not a huge Pink Floyd fan, but I was talking to someone who had never listened to them before so decided to give it another listen.
• I apparently listened to 14 tracks with “fire” in the title

I joined Libre.fm in September, so only have a few months of listens in my 2024 recap. I’m glad there’s an indieweb version of services like this. Boards of Canada came in first over there, since I finally listened to most of their catalog for the first time (I know).

What were some of your (new or old) favorites that you listened to last year? Happy new year of music!